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Speaker 1: Scotty. First, let's go Scotty. It says here that you

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Speaker 1: have been actively committing marriage fraud for money, and you've

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Speaker 1: been doing it for a year now, and you are

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Speaker 1: What exactly is marriage fraud?

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Speaker 2: So?

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Speaker 3: Geck, in my job, you're married, you get paid significantly

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Speaker 3: more money. Really, you get uh yeah, more than double.

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Speaker 3: So me and one of my buddies from oh I've

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Speaker 3: known for a very very long time since like kindergarten,

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Speaker 3: so over a decade, decided to just get married. And

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Speaker 3: now I make a bunch of money and I buy

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Speaker 3: him thinks sometimes and it all works out good for.

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Speaker 2: The both of us.

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Speaker 1: Now, when you say you decided to get married, what

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Speaker 1: is the fraud element of this? Are you and your

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Speaker 2: We are?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, Scotty, I I have news for you. If

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Speaker 1: you and your buddy are legally married, there is no

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Speaker 1: fraud being taken place.

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Speaker 3: I guess that's true, but it could still get me

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Speaker 3: in trouble.

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Speaker 1: Why would that get you in trouble?

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Speaker 3: Well, if they they found out at work then that

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Speaker 3: I just married to get paid, then I could definitely get.

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Speaker 4: In some trouble.

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Speaker 1: That doesn't make a lot of sense to me, because, okay,

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Speaker 1: what's the whole point of Well, first of all, what

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Speaker 1: what job do you work where they pay you double

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Speaker 1: for getting married? I haven't heard of that before. I

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Speaker 1: know that there's like tax benefits or whatever, but I

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Speaker 1: haven't I've never heard of a job paying you extra

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Speaker 1: for that.

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Speaker 3: It's not necessarily double. So I'm in the military, and

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Speaker 3: they give you an allowance for housing that house your spouse,

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Speaker 3: and then they give you some other like allowance and

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Speaker 3: stuff if you are married.

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Speaker 1: Okay, well, so let's think about the core purpose of

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Speaker 1: this program that they have or whatever it is, where

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Speaker 1: they give you money to give to the person that

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Speaker 1: you're married to. You said up front that you'd buy

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Speaker 1: nice things for your husband.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that's true.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So I mean that's what that's what the money's for.

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Speaker 1: The money's for you to buy nice things for your spouse,

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Speaker 1: whom you're legally married to. I I I don't you

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Speaker 1: know what I want to get to the point. What

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Speaker 1: the point I'm trying to get to is where are

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Speaker 1: you committing fraud? Here? You married this guy and now

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Speaker 1: you're entitled to the benefits that your job is offering

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Speaker 1: to married people.

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Speaker 3: You know, That's that's an argument that I've heard some

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Speaker 3: people make too, because like at work, I have to

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Speaker 3: kind of go around the fact that I'm not gay

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Speaker 3: because when I tell people, like especially that have rank,

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Speaker 3: they like ask me questions about my husband and stuff,

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Speaker 3: and you know, I have to. I've definitely told quite

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Speaker 3: a few people that I'm bisexual. But like, do I

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Speaker 3: really have to do that? Because nowhere does it say

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Speaker 3: that I can't get married for a particular reason, Like.

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Speaker 1: You don't have to be gay to get married to

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Speaker 1: a man. You, I mean, you did it. You're not

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Speaker 1: gay and you're to a man.

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Speaker 2: It feels nice too.

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Speaker 5: I love him.

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Speaker 3: Also, I love my husband a lot.

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Speaker 1: I again, you love him again? Not not also not

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Speaker 1: a prerequisite for getting married. But Scotty, why do you

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Speaker 3: Maybe because it's like, well, I think I don't actually

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Speaker 3: think it's fraud. I think that's kind of just like

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Speaker 3: a a joke that I like to make about it.

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Speaker 3: But in some sense, I guess, maybe just from what

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Speaker 3: people at work have told me, the kind of like

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Speaker 3: shame you for doing that? Well not some people. Some

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Speaker 3: people think it's hilarious and a great idea, but other

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Speaker 1: Would you say, do you feel like it's a terrible

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Speaker 3: No, I think it's a great thing. I work my

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Speaker 3: I take my job seriously.

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Speaker 1: And what does your husband and do? What does he

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Speaker 1: sort of think about all this? How did he react

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Speaker 1: to when you first pitched him the idea?

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Speaker 3: We thought he was joking, and I kind of like

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Speaker 3: pulled them the details of it and told him like

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Speaker 3: and then he was on board pretty much right away.

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Speaker 1: So my final question, I think we both.

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Speaker 3: Time no, go ahead, Oh, I was kind of going

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Speaker 3: to like hear the conversation a little bit different directions.

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Speaker 3: I think both of us kind of think that the

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Speaker 3: idea of marriage is not like stupid, but we don't

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Speaker 3: either one of us really even agree with traditional marriage.

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Speaker 3: So you think it's.

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Speaker 1: So you are adverse to the idea of getting married

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Speaker 1: for the purposes of tradition at some point in your life.

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Speaker 2: Uh. Yeah.

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Speaker 3: I feel like, like, if you love somebody and that's

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Speaker 3: who you want to spend the rest of your life with,

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Speaker 3: why do you have to sign a paper that like

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Speaker 3: binds you to that, you know, just do that just

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Speaker 3: in the rest of your life with them, love them.

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Speaker 3: Do you want to have kids?

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Speaker 2: Do that?

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Speaker 4: Well?

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Speaker 1: So my final question is, Okay, you've been married to

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Speaker 1: you you say you've been married to your husband for

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Speaker 1: about a year. How long do you anticipate this marriage

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Speaker 1: will last? Do you guys see a divorce sometime in

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Speaker 1: the future or will you be married forever?

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Speaker 3: Uh? Probably just when I get out of the military.

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Speaker 3: We'll just file for divorce and then that'll be that.

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Speaker 1: Do you think that it will upset your husband when

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Speaker 1: you eventually divorce him. Do you think he enjoys being

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Speaker 1: of a divorce.

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Speaker 2: No, I don't think so, beautiful.

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Speaker 1: Thank you very much for calling Scotty.

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Speaker 2: All right bye low.

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Speaker 1: Huh. You know, honestly, the way that he put all

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Speaker 1: of that, like he just made it sound really easy,

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Speaker 1: which makes sense. I mean, theoretically, you should be able

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Speaker 1: to marry a stranger. Pretty fat. I mean, there's no

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Speaker 1: there's no downside to it. I guess he just made

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Speaker 2: Chat.

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Speaker 1: Does anyone want to get married for like a day,

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Speaker 1: just for fun, just to have a wedding, just because

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Speaker 1: it would be nice? Hi? Dustin?

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Speaker 2: Hello? How are you?

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Speaker 1: Dustin? Hello, Dustin, it's me. It's the gag.

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Speaker 5: Oh ship.

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Speaker 4: Wow.

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Speaker 5: I was not expecting that.

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Speaker 2: What's up? Man? Uh?

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Speaker 1: What's up? Nothing much? I'm chilling. It's uh, it's an evening.

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Speaker 1: What's going on with you? Dustin?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, sorry, sorry, yeah, sorry for the you know, redundant

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Speaker 5: question that you probably get every time.

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Speaker 1: You owe me nothing. You you have no reason to

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Speaker 1: apologize for me just yet. Well, Dustin, listen, it's us

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Speaker 1: here that you want to know whether or not you

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Speaker 1: should make amends with your dad.

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 5: Pretty much Like I mean, there's been a long you know,

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Speaker 5: I'm forty, Well, i'll be I'll be forty in.

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Speaker 2: Me m my dad's like seventy five or seventy six.

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Speaker 5: And he's like screwed me over a lot in my

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Speaker 5: life and I've tried to make amends with him throughout

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Speaker 1: How has he screwed you making me.

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Speaker 2: Not want to be in his life?

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Speaker 5: Well, I mean you only start to okay, like I mean,

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Speaker 5: I just say, well, I could go all the way

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Speaker 5: or like well okay, yeah, I'll trying to make a

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Speaker 1: Sweet sure.

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Speaker 2: I was gonna. Uh.

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Speaker 5: I was putting a foster home when I was seven

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Speaker 5: years old because my dad knocks me unconscious and put

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Speaker 5: I would not listen to him. It took he told

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Speaker 2: He knock unconscious.

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Speaker 5: I was in a fosterone for any for like a

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Speaker 5: you know, moved out because when I was twelve eleven twelve,

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Speaker 5: like you know, like I yeah, you know, and yeah that's.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, like I can give you specific city care, you know,

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Speaker 5: Like like I like slept in between my dad's house

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Speaker 5: And it was one time where my dog's stable smelled me,

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Speaker 2: Why is our dog?

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Speaker 5: Why does the dog keep barking to this one little spot?

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Speaker 2: Okay? And I'm like shut up.

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Speaker 5: So I was trying to sleep and because I was

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Speaker 5: terrified to get home because it's you know, some stupid

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Speaker 5: you know, if I were went home. So you know,

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Speaker 5: I lived with my mom for a while until I

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Speaker 5: was you know, seventeen eighteen, which you know, those years

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Speaker 5: sure a great dynamic, you know. I you know, I

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Speaker 5: I did like appreciated my dad is that he like

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Speaker 5: he tried to like put a foot in my a,

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Speaker 2: You know. So you said he tried too hard.

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Speaker 5: He tried too hard.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, So you're telling me you have an appreciation

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Speaker 1: it sounds like, I mean just from like what you've

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Speaker 1: understand his intentions with all of this, like yeah, but

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Speaker 1: he met well, but that he just did it in

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Speaker 1: a fucking terrible way.

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Speaker 5: Yeah yeah, yeah, And and and but when when I,

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Speaker 5: you know, turned eighteen, I moved to Louisiana with him.

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Speaker 2: I took the easy way out. I left. I went back.

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Speaker 6: Because my dad would push me to do you know,

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Speaker 6: Like my dad he always he was a pusher, you know,

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Speaker 2: For is my work. As a sure, I've always.

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Speaker 5: Been like hard worker, you know, like I like ever

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Speaker 1: Because so so okay, So so I went back back

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Speaker 5: I go back home with my mom who's living in

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And I lived there.

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Speaker 5: For you know for a while, until I like, you know,

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Speaker 5: doing free work. And I'm eighteen, you know, I'm nineteen

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Speaker 1: Sure, let's fast forward to today.

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Speaker 5: So okay, from that time, from that time to now,

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Speaker 2: Actually.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so the hurricane hits Louisia, then did he reach out?

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Speaker 5: I drove, Well, no, Well, we were we were kind

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Speaker 5: did we have a report going? We were being cordial

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Speaker 2: And you know, I brought him back here.

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Speaker 5: He stayed with me for a you know, for like

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Speaker 2: Oh with Hill?

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Speaker 7: Yeah, Yeah, all I did was brag about how great

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Speaker 5: He did together for almost ten years he was got married.

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Speaker 5: But yeah, he just you know, like she would tell me,

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Speaker 5: he was, and you know it was. Yeah, it was

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Speaker 5: pretty unbearable, you know, because he tried to lecture me

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Speaker 5: Yeah, he tried to lecture Now he's like a seventy

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Speaker 1: It says. It says that you're not sure if you

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Speaker 5: I haven't even gotten to the part where I've really

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Speaker 1: Like, what what what?

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Speaker 2: What?

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Speaker 1: What was it that.

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Speaker 2: I broke my back about six months ago?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, And I'm like, and I my my career as

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Speaker 2: You know, I'm not home, you know, like I'm doing

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Speaker 5: But my dad knew I was struggling. He and I

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Speaker 5: guess he had a little bit of extra money and

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Speaker 5: I'm you know, I need a little help. And I

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Speaker 5: He offered the money. So I'm not gonna you know,

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Speaker 5: Oh, this is a few months, this is a few

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Speaker 1: There was a few months, three months ago. So sost

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Speaker 1: to fast forward to fast forward to today. You're talking

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Speaker 1: At least that's what you told the call screen there. Yeah,

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Speaker 5: He's like seventy five? He's you know, he's he's about

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Speaker 5: he's a miserable, lonely old man. Yeah, because he's he's

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Speaker 1: Feel like throughout my life, do you feel like do

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Speaker 1: you feel like making amends with him would make because

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Speaker 5: A little bit. Yeah, Like, but I really I'm still

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Speaker 2: Up shit that he's done to me.

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Speaker 5: That's not really gonna help anything, you know, because my

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Speaker 5: all that stuff. And I'm sure I got I probably

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Speaker 2: You know.

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Speaker 5: I still enjoy drinking, but I don't get so drunk

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Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I have a I have I have

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Speaker 5: a six year old son.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you have a six year old son.

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Speaker 5: I do have a tiwo ure old time and yeah,

445
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Speaker 5: I'm kind of like, I'm I don't know, I'm just

446
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Speaker 5: been wanting I've been wanting to do this for a while,

447
00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:26,000
Speaker 5: you know, and uh, because I I I signed on

448
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:29,479
Speaker 5: signed up to Reddit actually like a month ago, and

449
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Speaker 5: your video was one of the first ones that, like,

450
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Speaker 5: I was just scrolling on Reddit just trying to figure

451
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Speaker 5: out how it worked. Your video, your live stream popped

452
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Speaker 5: up on Reddit and I was like, yeah, that's a

453
00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:42,720
Speaker 5: cool as hell. And ever since then, I was, you know,

454
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Speaker 5: I thought it'd be cool to talk to you.

455
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Speaker 1: Well, dude, you know, here's I guess. I guess, for

456
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Speaker 1: for whatever it's worth, my my sort of take on it.

457
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Speaker 1: And you know, obviously this is like a entire, entire,

458
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Speaker 1: entire life thing that I, you know, can't reasonably I.

459
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Speaker 5: Just dropped dropped sload on you.

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Speaker 1: No no, no, no, no, Well, I have I have a

461
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Speaker 1: I have a thing. And I'm sure you know, I mean,

462
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Speaker 1: you're you're you're a smart guy. I don't think I'm

463
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Speaker 1: gonna tell you anything you don't know, but like the

464
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Speaker 1: fact that you have a son, I mean, this is

465
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Speaker 1: this is cool, right because now you have an opportunity

466
00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:26,080
Speaker 1: like your parents we're fucking shitty to you, and that

467
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Speaker 1: that hurt you, and you're obviously still dealing with that hurt.

468
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Speaker 1: And I feel like you have this, like you have

469
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Speaker 1: this opportunity to like take all of those feelings and

470
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Speaker 1: like all that anger and all that sadness and all

471
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Speaker 1: you have, you can, like you now can transmute it

472
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Speaker 1: into something positive, right, because you're gonna go, Okay, well,

473
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Speaker 1: my parents fucking sucked, but now I have a kid,

474
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Speaker 1: and I love my kid, and I'm gonna make I'm

475
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Speaker 1: gonna use all these feel all these negative feelings to

476
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Speaker 1: fuel me to make sure that I give my kid

477
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Speaker 1: a great, great life. And that's gonna be my motivator,

478
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Speaker 1: just to just every single day, like you know, be

479
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Speaker 1: the dad that you wanted your dad to be. You know,

480
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Speaker 1: you sort of have this opportunity right to like right

481
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Speaker 1: the wrongs in your relationship with your son.

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Speaker 5: Mm hmm yeah, I'm really And you know there are

483
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Speaker 5: there have been times where like I've gotten mad at

484
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Speaker 5: my son and like I see my dad and.

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Speaker 1: Me yeah sure, and it really ASTs me. M hm.

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Speaker 8: Hm, Like I got feel ashamed of myself. What you

487
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Speaker 8: said is truly I'm sorry.

488
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Speaker 1: How do you, how do you how do you feel

489
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Speaker 1: about how do you feel about all of that? What

490
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Speaker 1: I just said?

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Speaker 5: No, he's like you hit me man, Like it's pretty

492
00:27:12,040 --> 00:27:13,040
Speaker 5: much like how I feel.

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Speaker 1: Cool. Yeah, that doesn't make you sound like I mean,

494
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Speaker 1: you sound like a good dude, man, Like you know,

495
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Speaker 1: I know that you as you said, you like he

496
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Speaker 1: probably inherited some of that stuff from your dad. But

497
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Speaker 1: like again, man, you sound like a good dude, and like,

498
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Speaker 1: you know, I know that you didn't get the kind

499
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Speaker 1: of life that you know that you that I can

500
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Speaker 1: tell you want to give to your kid. I can

501
00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:42,240
Speaker 1: tell you're a good dude, and you don't. I don't

502
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Speaker 1: want to give your kid a good life.

503
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Speaker 5: I've always felt like I didn't belong in the society

504
00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:55,480
Speaker 5: that I was growing up in, if that makes sense sure,

505
00:27:55,520 --> 00:27:59,359
Speaker 5: because I was like, you grew up in this poor, shitty, white,

506
00:27:59,440 --> 00:28:03,119
Speaker 5: trash fucking society, and I like, I don't know, I

507
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Speaker 5: just I didn't really want to be around any of

508
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Speaker 5: the people that I was around, So like you know,

509
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Speaker 5: like you know, it sucked, you know, I mean, I like,

510
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Speaker 5: like I said, you know, like growing up with my family,

511
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Speaker 5: I've just never really cared for any.

512
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Speaker 9: Of them, and.

513
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Speaker 5: I'm kind of separated myself from all of them, you know,

514
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Speaker 5: except my younger sister.

515
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Speaker 1: It's really only do do you keep keep in good

516
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Speaker 1: touch with your younger sister?

517
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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, yeah, you know, like you but she's always

518
00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:41,360
Speaker 5: you know, hitting me up, you know, because her life sucks.

519
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Speaker 2: In my life is.

520
00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:46,360
Speaker 5: You know, a little better than hers, you know, like

521
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,240
Speaker 5: he constantly bumming money off from me. But she's not

522
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Speaker 5: on drugs or anything like that. She's doing the best

523
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Speaker 5: you can. She has been on drugs and she got

524
00:28:54,680 --> 00:28:57,800
Speaker 5: you know, she got clean. She's doing the best you can.

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00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:02,880
Speaker 5: You know. You know, I have I have my older sister,

526
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Speaker 5: who's you know, you know, who's taking a shower. She's

527
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Speaker 5: a she's a heroin outic in Texas, you know, or

528
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Speaker 5: I'm you know, like we're fitting all or whatever the fuck,

529
00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:16,840
Speaker 5: you know, she does all that shit, and she, you know,

530
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Speaker 5: is constantly messaging me on Facebook.

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Speaker 2: You know, why want to talk to her?

532
00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 5: Like I don't, you know, I have nothing to talk

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Speaker 5: to you about.

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Speaker 1: You know, like.

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Speaker 5: The yeah what you said, like you know, yeah, that's

536
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Speaker 5: pretty much how I feel.

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Speaker 4: You know.

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Speaker 5: I do want to give the best life of my son,

539
00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:42,840
Speaker 5: and it's me breaking my back. I used to skateboard.

540
00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:47,520
Speaker 5: I broke my pelvis like fifteen years ago, and it,

541
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Speaker 5: you know, it sucked me up for like six months

542
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Speaker 5: to a year, you know, but I thought I healed,

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Speaker 5: you know, and I continued to work, you know. And

544
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Speaker 5: then now that I'm forty, like, I can barely even

545
00:30:00,160 --> 00:30:02,480
Speaker 5: you know, I can barely lift you know, forty pounds.

546
00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:05,800
Speaker 5: So it's kind of screwed me up. But I'm you know,

547
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Speaker 5: I'm taking classes online and you know, trying to figure

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Speaker 5: something else out, you know.

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Speaker 1: Destin, I was gonna you know, as I was, as

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Speaker 1: I'm telling you, I mean, it sounds like you're doing

551
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Speaker 1: the best that you can, dude. Like, and I know

552
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Speaker 1: you said that you lose patience sometimes sometimes you see

553
00:30:24,760 --> 00:30:26,800
Speaker 1: your dad and yourself and all that stuff. But like

554
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Speaker 1: but like again, I can just tell and I feel

555
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Speaker 1: like people listen to as they can tell that like

556
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Speaker 1: within you is is is a very very genuine desire

557
00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:43,080
Speaker 1: that I think is more powerful than whatever it is

558
00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:46,280
Speaker 1: that you feel like you inherited from your father or

559
00:30:46,680 --> 00:30:50,640
Speaker 1: whatever physical limitations that you're dealing with right now. Is

560
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:57,520
Speaker 1: very very genuine, powerful desire to give your son a

561
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Speaker 1: good life, and I I believe that that desire will

562
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Speaker 1: win in the end and that you'll be able to

563
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Speaker 1: do that, you know, so I hope you take that

564
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Speaker 1: for whatever it's worth.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, man, yeah, it means a lot to me. Man,

566
00:31:16,760 --> 00:31:21,160
Speaker 5: it's cool talking to you. Yeah. Yeah, I'm so kind

567
00:31:21,160 --> 00:31:23,000
Speaker 5: of like surprised that I got too so quick.

568
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:30,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like, you know, is there anything else that you

569
00:31:30,520 --> 00:31:35,400
Speaker 1: want to say about any of this or any final thoughts,

570
00:31:35,480 --> 00:31:37,720
Speaker 1: feelings or sentiments to share before we go?

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Speaker 5: I just really appreciate the ba tire man, Like, it

572
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:47,400
Speaker 5: was was cool talking to you, and like what you said,

573
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:49,840
Speaker 5: you know, it meant that meant a lot to me. Man, Okay,

574
00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 5: it made me cry, you know, because like that hit me.

575
00:31:55,640 --> 00:31:57,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I know.

576
00:31:56,960 --> 00:32:02,320
Speaker 5: You're just just a get but uh but yeah, dude,

577
00:32:02,440 --> 00:32:05,800
Speaker 5: like you you know were I mean? And I like,

578
00:32:06,400 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 5: we all have our problems, man, you know, and I

579
00:32:09,960 --> 00:32:13,440
Speaker 5: don't you know, like we all deal with our ship

580
00:32:15,760 --> 00:32:18,960
Speaker 5: in different ways, and you know, we all yeah, Like

581
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Speaker 5: I don't know, I'm not very articulate sometimes neither of mine. Yeah,

582
00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:29,560
Speaker 5: except see when I'm kind of emotional, and it made

583
00:32:29,600 --> 00:32:30,280
Speaker 5: me emotional.

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Speaker 2: And actually this whole.

585
00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:34,840
Speaker 5: You know, situation is you know, I kind of think,

586
00:32:36,800 --> 00:32:39,360
Speaker 5: you know, like I'm surprised to hold it together as

587
00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:43,960
Speaker 5: well as I did explaining this whole situation. Yeah, but

588
00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:46,720
Speaker 5: uh yeah, it was cool talking to you.

589
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:49,080
Speaker 1: Man, and like I'm yeah, great talking to you too,

590
00:32:50,120 --> 00:32:51,920
Speaker 1: and again just to say it, just to say it

591
00:32:51,960 --> 00:32:54,600
Speaker 1: one final time, okay, just to say it one final time.

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00:32:56,880 --> 00:32:59,320
Speaker 1: I I I believe in you, Okay, I think I

593
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:02,880
Speaker 1: think I think, like I could just tell again people

594
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:06,640
Speaker 1: listening to just can just tell like you you have

595
00:33:06,720 --> 00:33:10,200
Speaker 1: that genuine desire to do good by your son, and

596
00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:15,320
Speaker 1: I I I think you will act act well by

597
00:33:15,360 --> 00:33:17,320
Speaker 1: that desire. I believe in you.

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Speaker 5: That's cool to hear that, man, And yeah, I kind

599
00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:25,400
Speaker 5: of I feel I feel that way. I mean, I

600
00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:28,360
Speaker 5: have my doubts you know, of course, like everybody does,

601
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:29,520
Speaker 5: you know about youself.

602
00:33:30,320 --> 00:33:33,880
Speaker 2: So yeah, but uh yeah, I.

603
00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:38,160
Speaker 5: Try to, you know, just persevere, persevere and push on

604
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:40,480
Speaker 5: and you know, and do the best I can and

605
00:33:41,200 --> 00:33:43,800
Speaker 5: be the best dad you know I can. And and

606
00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:46,240
Speaker 5: luckily you know, he doesn't. He's not a broken home,

607
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:48,800
Speaker 5: you know, so that helps.

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Speaker 1: Well, thank you very much for calling Dustin once again. Man,

609
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:54,640
Speaker 1: Good luck to you.

610
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,360
Speaker 5: All right, Thanks man, good talking to you, dude.

611
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Speaker 1: Good talking to you.

612
00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:03,360
Speaker 5: So have a good night, alright, you two man?

613
00:34:05,400 --> 00:34:11,960
Speaker 1: Hello? Is this Jason? It is Jason. It says here

614
00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:17,080
Speaker 1: that there is a toilet paper shortage in your in

615
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Speaker 1: your house and it is causing a lot of conflict

616
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Speaker 1: between you and your roommates.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 9: Yeah, it's it's been tough just kind of deciding on

619
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Speaker 9: who's going to buy the toilet paper. It's been four

620
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Speaker 9: to eight all right.

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Speaker 1: So before we get into anything, what is your philosophy,

622
00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:46,520
Speaker 1: because there's many different ways of thinking about this, Okay,

623
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Speaker 1: there's a lot of different ways to set this up. Sure,

624
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Speaker 1: if it's for do how many how many people?

625
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Speaker 5: Is it.

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Speaker 1: Five plus five of you guys sharing one bathroom two bathrooms?

627
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Speaker 9: So three upstairs, two downstairs?

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Speaker 1: Okay, okay? And is it one bathroom in particular that's

629
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Speaker 1: experiencing a toilet paper shortage or is there a general

630
00:35:09,200 --> 00:35:12,719
Speaker 1: toilet paper shortage because people from the when the downstairs

631
00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:15,920
Speaker 1: bathroom runs out of toilet paper, people will go to

632
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Speaker 1: the upstairs. What is the sort of distribution of paper?

633
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:21,560
Speaker 3: Sure, so we.

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Speaker 9: Had like a like a big collection of toilet paper upstairs,

635
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Speaker 9: like probably sixteen seventeen rolls and then like you know,

636
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Speaker 9: we have people come over and then like the upstairs

637
00:35:29,960 --> 00:35:31,319
Speaker 9: passing a little bit more, a little bit, a little

638
00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:35,520
Speaker 9: bit cleaner. So the downstairs then ran out of toilet paper,

639
00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:38,920
Speaker 9: came upstairs, took some of the upstairs, which is fine, yeah, Sharon.

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Speaker 9: And now we've resorted to we're friends with our neighbors.

641
00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:46,080
Speaker 9: So now we we have covert operations and we go

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Speaker 9: to the neighbor's house and steal their toilet paper.

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Speaker 1: So there's several different schools of thought as to how

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Speaker 1: this could be arranged. Right, you could say, one person

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Speaker 1: buys a thing of toilet paper in full, and then

646
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:12,640
Speaker 1: whenever that toilet paper disappears, another person buys, and then again,

647
00:36:12,800 --> 00:36:14,759
Speaker 1: and then another person buys, and then again and you

648
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:20,640
Speaker 1: sort of go in this rotation. Or there's a there's

649
00:36:20,640 --> 00:36:23,959
Speaker 1: a school of thought where every time new toilet paper

650
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Speaker 1: needs to be bought, everyone equally pitches in for new

651
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Speaker 1: toilet paper at each buying of the toilet paper. Or

652
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Speaker 1: and this is the one that will cause a war.

653
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Speaker 1: I don't know if this is the one. The school

654
00:36:37,480 --> 00:36:39,879
Speaker 1: of thought that you guys have been subscribing to. You

655
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Speaker 1: do some form of calculating who uses the most toilet paper,

656
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Speaker 1: and the onus is on that person to replenish it,

657
00:36:52,560 --> 00:36:56,040
Speaker 1: and that causes lots and lots of conflict of you know,

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Speaker 1: who used how much and whatnot. So at this current moment,

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Speaker 1: what what is the school of thought that your house

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Speaker 1: has been using.

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Speaker 9: Wow, you know, I'm gonna be honest, I hadn't thought

662
00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:13,320
Speaker 9: about that third one, because there certainly is like a

663
00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 9: mass distribution as far as you know, people you know,

664
00:37:18,680 --> 00:37:21,439
Speaker 9: rates for cooping and such. It was going out within

665
00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:23,760
Speaker 9: the household, and the thing is like we're all employed,

666
00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,560
Speaker 9: Like we all totally could just go buy the toilet paper.

667
00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:30,160
Speaker 9: Now it's just bag. It's like, oh, who's going to

668
00:37:30,280 --> 00:37:32,640
Speaker 9: do it? You know, like certain people have more roles

669
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:36,080
Speaker 9: in the past than others, and so like distributing, distributing

670
00:37:36,120 --> 00:37:39,120
Speaker 9: that out, trying to figure that out. But like, there definitely, yeah,

671
00:37:39,320 --> 00:37:40,879
Speaker 9: is some people who put more in the house.

672
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,080
Speaker 5: I hadn't thought about it that way, don't.

673
00:37:43,120 --> 00:37:45,040
Speaker 1: I shouldn't even brought up the idea because you're not

674
00:37:45,040 --> 00:37:55,799
Speaker 1: gonna win that fight. Oh, because we used to do

675
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:57,600
Speaker 1: that in my house and I was the one who

676
00:37:57,760 --> 00:38:00,600
Speaker 1: used the most toilet paper, and I vehemoately denied it

677
00:38:01,360 --> 00:38:04,719
Speaker 1: to the end, as will the person who uses the

678
00:38:04,719 --> 00:38:06,359
Speaker 1: most toilet paper, and you will not win that fight.

679
00:38:07,080 --> 00:38:09,040
Speaker 1: So what is the rift that you are describing it

680
00:38:09,480 --> 00:38:13,320
Speaker 1: like between you and your roommates the rift is causing?

681
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:19,960
Speaker 9: Yes, yeah, it's it's it's funny, I mean not not

682
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:22,400
Speaker 9: like it's like it doesn't just doesn't happen all the time.

683
00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:26,360
Speaker 9: But it's like there's definitely like like little like scheming

684
00:38:26,440 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 9: teams you know going on. Like people are like one

685
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:30,520
Speaker 9: of one of us will be in the kitchen, another

686
00:38:30,560 --> 00:38:32,279
Speaker 9: person will walk down and be like, oh man, we're

687
00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:33,880
Speaker 9: on a toilet paper. Can you believe you know, the

688
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:35,799
Speaker 9: other people haven't bought it? And then you know, like

689
00:38:35,880 --> 00:38:39,279
Speaker 9: everybody like I have that, I've had that conversation with everybody,

690
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,200
Speaker 9: so like, you know, it's it's going around m hm.

691
00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:44,400
Speaker 1: So there's a little bit of chicken being played as

692
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:46,080
Speaker 1: to who will buy the toilet paper.

693
00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:50,200
Speaker 9: For sure, and like again, you know, it's not like

694
00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:53,000
Speaker 9: we can't afford toilet papers, so like like we all

695
00:38:53,040 --> 00:38:55,000
Speaker 9: could do it, and I like don't know if we

696
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 9: all think it's funny at this point or if we're

697
00:38:56,960 --> 00:39:00,920
Speaker 9: all like actually a little like passive drestive about it.

698
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:03,160
Speaker 1: I mean, I understand you all thinking it's funny. It

699
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:05,080
Speaker 1: is a little funny to see how long you can

700
00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:07,920
Speaker 1: go without having toilet paper in the house, and the

701
00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:13,080
Speaker 1: pettiness of one person won't just buy toilet paper. It

702
00:39:13,160 --> 00:39:16,120
Speaker 1: is a pretty funny situation to revel in. I agree.

703
00:39:18,200 --> 00:39:21,879
Speaker 9: And the crazy part is is that we had, like

704
00:39:21,920 --> 00:39:24,399
Speaker 9: we were sitting on the couch like a couple months ago,

705
00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:26,319
Speaker 9: and we were like, yo, we should buy it the day,

706
00:39:26,360 --> 00:39:28,759
Speaker 9: and we bought and installed it the day. But the

707
00:39:28,840 --> 00:39:33,040
Speaker 9: day recently became unusable. And so I think that now

708
00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:34,560
Speaker 9: that I'm like sitting here putting on all the gather

709
00:39:34,600 --> 00:39:37,520
Speaker 9: excessus and dan chats that used the day, I think

710
00:39:37,560 --> 00:39:38,520
Speaker 9: it's it's the.

711
00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:39,640
Speaker 2: Lack of the day.

712
00:39:39,719 --> 00:39:41,800
Speaker 9: Maybe that we're cruising through our toilet paper at a

713
00:39:41,840 --> 00:39:42,400
Speaker 9: faster rate.

714
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:46,839
Speaker 1: M I've never personally been a fan of the day,

715
00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:50,640
Speaker 1: but I understand it from a point of view of conservation.

716
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:57,280
Speaker 1: So all right, so you no, go ahead.

717
00:39:59,640 --> 00:40:01,080
Speaker 9: I was just it said, did you go into the

718
00:40:01,120 --> 00:40:03,080
Speaker 9: day with an open mind? Because I feel like a

719
00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:04,359
Speaker 9: lot of people don't go into it with an.

720
00:40:04,320 --> 00:40:06,880
Speaker 1: Open mind, you know, I totally, I totally did not

721
00:40:06,920 --> 00:40:08,919
Speaker 1: go into it one of the with an open mind.

722
00:40:09,120 --> 00:40:12,440
Speaker 1: I'd be willing to try again, but but not any time,

723
00:40:12,560 --> 00:40:15,439
Speaker 1: not anytime soon. But but so okay, so you all

724
00:40:16,239 --> 00:40:19,560
Speaker 1: have been playing this, this game of chicken, and it's

725
00:40:19,719 --> 00:40:21,680
Speaker 1: really gonna be up to at the end of the day,

726
00:40:21,760 --> 00:40:25,640
Speaker 1: one guy to break and go fuck this and go

727
00:40:25,640 --> 00:40:29,120
Speaker 1: aheut and buy toilet paper. Do you think that you're

728
00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:35,120
Speaker 1: getting to that point whose the group will break first?

729
00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:35,839
Speaker 9: Yeah?

730
00:40:35,920 --> 00:40:36,400
Speaker 2: I mean.

731
00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:41,080
Speaker 9: I think the person who's gonna break is gonna be

732
00:40:41,120 --> 00:40:43,040
Speaker 9: the person who's gonna be like the most adult about

733
00:40:43,080 --> 00:40:45,600
Speaker 9: the situation, because I definitely have like a couple of

734
00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:49,160
Speaker 9: them who like probably won't do it. And that's fine,

735
00:40:49,320 --> 00:40:52,160
Speaker 9: you know, I get it. It's cool. I think it's

736
00:40:52,160 --> 00:40:54,160
Speaker 9: gonna be me or my other roommate honestly, who's gonna

737
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:54,640
Speaker 9: break first.

738
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:57,560
Speaker 1: Mm hm. So I want to hear from your perspective,

739
00:40:58,800 --> 00:40:59,799
Speaker 1: why won't you just go.

740
00:40:59,680 --> 00:40:59,880
Speaker 3: By to.

741
00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 4: Honestly?

742
00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 9: Because well, I thought about doing it today and I

743
00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:08,600
Speaker 9: was like working, and then I had class and I

744
00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:10,880
Speaker 9: was like, I don't feel like doing it, And honestly,

745
00:41:10,880 --> 00:41:12,440
Speaker 9: it just came down a way to it. Even though

746
00:41:12,520 --> 00:41:15,359
Speaker 9: I was out and about today earlier, I probably could

747
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 9: have done it. And then I got home and we

748
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:19,400
Speaker 9: were out of toilet paper. It was actually pretty funny

749
00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:22,120
Speaker 9: because I saw that we were almost out of toilet

750
00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:24,960
Speaker 9: paper earlier when I went to the bathroom and I

751
00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:26,759
Speaker 9: was like the last role I knew we had in

752
00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:29,279
Speaker 9: the house, and there was probably like six or seven

753
00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 9: squares on it, and so I used like three or

754
00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:35,560
Speaker 9: four and then that way, I wasn't, you know, the

755
00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:38,080
Speaker 9: a hole who took the last little piece of pilet paper,

756
00:41:38,760 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 9: So then I could kind of bond that.

757
00:41:40,160 --> 00:41:41,040
Speaker 2: Off on somebody else.

758
00:41:42,520 --> 00:41:47,319
Speaker 1: M So it sounds like this is coming that makes

759
00:41:47,360 --> 00:41:48,760
Speaker 1: me that my bad person.

760
00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:49,200
Speaker 2: I don't know.

761
00:41:49,800 --> 00:41:52,200
Speaker 1: No, No, you're you're actually pro very strategic in that.

762
00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:57,160
Speaker 9: Yeah, I don't know. Maybe it's me planning off on

763
00:41:57,200 --> 00:41:57,719
Speaker 9: somebody else.

764
00:41:57,840 --> 00:42:00,440
Speaker 5: The you know, I don't know.

765
00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:02,839
Speaker 1: All's fair and toilet paper and war.

766
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:06,200
Speaker 2: That is true.

767
00:42:06,280 --> 00:42:09,080
Speaker 9: There's there's no wars like earlier. Excuse me, there's no

768
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:10,040
Speaker 9: rules right.

769
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:14,200
Speaker 1: Like, So it sounds like it's not coming from a

770
00:42:14,239 --> 00:42:17,760
Speaker 1: place of because it's coming from a place of laziness.

771
00:42:17,760 --> 00:42:20,080
Speaker 1: For you, it sounds and not a place of why

772
00:42:20,160 --> 00:42:23,040
Speaker 1: should I have to you know, you know what I mean,

773
00:42:23,080 --> 00:42:26,560
Speaker 1: a place of of of of feeling like it's not

774
00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:29,760
Speaker 1: just for you to have to go buy toilet paper.

775
00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:32,440
Speaker 9: Yeah, I think too, you know, a little bit. But

776
00:42:32,440 --> 00:42:35,160
Speaker 9: there also, like definitely are certainly other places in the

777
00:42:35,160 --> 00:42:36,759
Speaker 9: house where it's like, Okay, why do I have to

778
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:38,560
Speaker 9: do this? And so I think it kind of transfers

779
00:42:38,560 --> 00:42:41,440
Speaker 9: over then to the toilet paper because I feel like

780
00:42:41,480 --> 00:42:43,880
Speaker 9: sometimes I do like a lot more than a lot

781
00:42:43,920 --> 00:42:47,719
Speaker 9: of my other roommates and things, and so then I'm like,

782
00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:48,080
Speaker 9: you know.

783
00:42:51,719 --> 00:42:53,000
Speaker 1: Right, so there is a little bit of that, and

784
00:42:53,000 --> 00:42:55,759
Speaker 1: it seems like it's justified. Right, You're doing all these

785
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:57,680
Speaker 1: other things in the house. I assume you're washing dishes,

786
00:42:57,719 --> 00:43:00,080
Speaker 1: you're vacuuming, you're doing all the more adult things, and

787
00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:02,000
Speaker 1: you're like, well, god, damn it, why do I have

788
00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:03,080
Speaker 1: to be the paper too?

789
00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:09,080
Speaker 9: Yeah, exactly when I know that, like, wow, I won't

790
00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:11,439
Speaker 9: bash Like I love my roommates, don't get anyone. They're

791
00:43:11,440 --> 00:43:13,880
Speaker 9: all awesome guys, and they're like some of my closest friends.

792
00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:16,000
Speaker 9: But yeah, it definitely does have a lot like that.

793
00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:20,640
Speaker 1: Well, listen, Jason, you know, being the adult of a house,

794
00:43:20,680 --> 00:43:23,319
Speaker 1: it's a it's a it's a thankless job. So you know,

795
00:43:24,440 --> 00:43:26,759
Speaker 1: good on you for for taking of it.

796
00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:31,920
Speaker 2: That's true. That is true.

797
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:35,880
Speaker 9: You know, maybe maybe you can learn something from your mom,

798
00:43:36,080 --> 00:43:38,439
Speaker 9: because every day I went upstairs in high school brand

799
00:43:38,440 --> 00:43:39,399
Speaker 9: your toilet paper roll.

800
00:43:39,320 --> 00:43:39,640
Speaker 4: On the thing.

801
00:43:43,120 --> 00:43:44,680
Speaker 1: We're really taking our parents for granted.

802
00:43:47,120 --> 00:43:49,480
Speaker 9: I think we do have you did you d end

803
00:43:49,520 --> 00:43:50,480
Speaker 9: up calling your mom earlier?

804
00:43:51,600 --> 00:43:56,640
Speaker 1: Thank you very much for calling. Jason, appreciate it.

805
00:43:56,640 --> 00:44:07,640
Speaker 10: Every night, man, you as well, Paul from Sammy Sammy, No,

806
00:44:07,640 --> 00:44:09,680
Speaker 10: no way, Samy.

807
00:44:09,719 --> 00:44:10,279
Speaker 1: What's going on?

808
00:44:10,320 --> 00:44:13,680
Speaker 9: Man? Not much?

809
00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:15,960
Speaker 10: I kind of figured you're going to be streaming with

810
00:44:16,120 --> 00:44:19,440
Speaker 10: calls tonight, expecting the doctor someone else do for you.

811
00:44:21,040 --> 00:44:24,040
Speaker 1: Oh yes, I normally have a call screener, but tonight

812
00:44:24,920 --> 00:44:27,960
Speaker 1: I am as they say, going in raw.

813
00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:32,239
Speaker 10: I did have a question for you, Yeah, please, what's up?

814
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:38,240
Speaker 10: I wanted to know what your thoughts are on imposter syndrome.

815
00:44:39,360 --> 00:44:42,719
Speaker 10: You have to have a cool job. Yes, I think

816
00:44:44,360 --> 00:44:46,560
Speaker 10: I heard you think yesterday that you're only twenty four.

817
00:44:47,480 --> 00:44:50,520
Speaker 10: I am I expected you to be older than that.

818
00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 1: How old did you expect me? A bit?

819
00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:57,239
Speaker 10: I don't know, maybe later twenties. But you just seem

820
00:44:57,280 --> 00:44:59,240
Speaker 10: to be in a position where you're doing something cool

821
00:44:59,280 --> 00:44:59,719
Speaker 10: that you like.

822
00:45:00,400 --> 00:45:00,759
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.

823
00:45:03,880 --> 00:45:07,239
Speaker 10: And I am not gonna lie to you. I haven't

824
00:45:07,280 --> 00:45:14,319
Speaker 10: been feeling very cool lately, been feeling more failure ask

825
00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:21,879
Speaker 10: although we're doing better, but wondering if you've ever dealt

826
00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:25,000
Speaker 10: with that, and or if you have any tips or tricks.

827
00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:29,279
Speaker 1: I literally, I literally if I if I were like

828
00:45:29,280 --> 00:45:31,319
Speaker 1: a cool streamer person and I knew how to like

829
00:45:32,040 --> 00:45:35,040
Speaker 1: zip zop zoom around my computer and pull things up,

830
00:45:35,200 --> 00:45:39,640
Speaker 1: I would show you. I literally googled I have imposter syndrome.

831
00:45:40,719 --> 00:45:44,719
Speaker 1: Read it today. I literally googled that. Today. I can

832
00:45:44,960 --> 00:45:49,880
Speaker 1: find Reddit, uh the streams of people or Reddit threads

833
00:45:49,880 --> 00:45:52,480
Speaker 1: of people talking about having impost syndrome. You have the

834
00:45:52,560 --> 00:45:56,239
Speaker 1: fuck time of imposter syndrome. That's why I'm Yeah, I

835
00:45:56,280 --> 00:45:59,440
Speaker 1: have these live shows coming up. I'm super nervous for them.

836
00:45:59,440 --> 00:46:01,520
Speaker 1: I'm always the thinking like, why the fuck is anyone

837
00:46:02,800 --> 00:46:04,480
Speaker 1: coming to see me? I'm always thinking like, why the

838
00:46:04,480 --> 00:46:08,279
Speaker 1: fuck is anyone listening to my podcast? You know, I'm

839
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:09,800
Speaker 1: I'm always thinking about that stuff.

840
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:10,160
Speaker 5: I have.

841
00:46:11,640 --> 00:46:14,960
Speaker 1: A tremendous imposter syndrome. What gets me going is I

842
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:20,399
Speaker 1: do have like every once in a while I come

843
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:23,360
Speaker 1: out of here and I'm like, and I'm just a

844
00:46:23,520 --> 00:46:26,239
Speaker 1: fully one hundred percent sure. I'm like, that was a

845
00:46:26,239 --> 00:46:31,920
Speaker 1: great stream. I'm really good at this, and I'm excited

846
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:34,719
Speaker 1: and I just feel good and then I get high

847
00:46:34,760 --> 00:46:37,200
Speaker 1: and then I'm like, I'm just the best. I'm sick.

848
00:46:38,239 --> 00:46:41,440
Speaker 1: I am the only person that could ever be therapy Gecko.

849
00:46:41,719 --> 00:46:44,960
Speaker 1: It happens sometimes. I'm not gonna lie that that happens sometimes.

850
00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:49,080
Speaker 1: But the default is probably I don't know what I

851
00:46:49,080 --> 00:46:52,280
Speaker 1: would say the default is, but no, heavy, heavy, heavy

852
00:46:52,280 --> 00:46:57,279
Speaker 1: amounts of imposter syndrome for sure. I literally not check.

853
00:46:57,320 --> 00:46:59,320
Speaker 1: I literally googled it today because I was trying to

854
00:46:59,360 --> 00:47:01,279
Speaker 1: read about it, like this is a common thing, like

855
00:47:01,640 --> 00:47:02,960
Speaker 1: to other people feel like this.

856
00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:07,520
Speaker 10: You know, well, I think I think it's honestly helpful

857
00:47:07,600 --> 00:47:15,480
Speaker 10: to hear people who like you think are successful say like, no,

858
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:17,359
Speaker 10: I don't. I don't really feel like that all the time.

859
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:25,279
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, I'm trying to think here, uh, because I

860
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:30,480
Speaker 1: want to be accurate to this. There are a couple

861
00:47:30,520 --> 00:47:35,239
Speaker 1: of things I think I'm really good at, but but

862
00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:37,120
Speaker 1: this I phased it out. I I just have times

863
00:47:37,120 --> 00:47:38,480
Speaker 1: all the time and I'm on here and I'm like,

864
00:47:39,080 --> 00:47:43,279
Speaker 1: I suck at this. And it's so funny that you

865
00:47:43,680 --> 00:47:45,800
Speaker 1: called and asked me that, because I always wonder that

866
00:47:45,920 --> 00:47:51,239
Speaker 1: about people that I think are successful as well, like

867
00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:53,759
Speaker 1: how they feel about it, Like do they are they

868
00:47:53,840 --> 00:47:57,439
Speaker 1: like stoked on themselves, or are they like I hope

869
00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:01,840
Speaker 1: nobody realizes that I kind of suck at this. I

870
00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:02,239
Speaker 1: don't know.

871
00:48:03,880 --> 00:48:06,319
Speaker 10: I have this thing with social media right now. I

872
00:48:06,360 --> 00:48:08,400
Speaker 10: had to delete it off my phone for a while,

873
00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:10,840
Speaker 10: and I just recently got back on. And I feel

874
00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:15,560
Speaker 10: like all I'm seeing is everyone else around me and

875
00:48:15,640 --> 00:48:20,040
Speaker 10: like their great achievements and like, you know, how happy

876
00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 10: they all look and how much fun everyone's having. And

877
00:48:22,239 --> 00:48:25,799
Speaker 10: I'm like, well, I'm not having that much fun. And

878
00:48:25,880 --> 00:48:27,880
Speaker 10: I think maybe that should be my sign to delete

879
00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:28,960
Speaker 10: social media again.

880
00:48:29,960 --> 00:48:32,239
Speaker 1: I really thought that. I was like, I was like

881
00:48:32,360 --> 00:48:34,120
Speaker 1: the people who listened to my you know, I was

882
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:35,879
Speaker 1: thicking the other day. I was like, the people who

883
00:48:35,960 --> 00:48:37,799
Speaker 1: listen to my I mean now they do, but the

884
00:48:37,800 --> 00:48:40,200
Speaker 1: people who like listen to my podcast and watch my

885
00:48:41,600 --> 00:48:44,760
Speaker 1: streams or stuff, they have no idea. That I cried

886
00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:48,279
Speaker 1: in my car yesterday, I thought that. As I was

887
00:48:48,280 --> 00:48:51,080
Speaker 1: crying in my car, I was like, they have no idea.

888
00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:52,799
Speaker 1: It's kind of sick.

889
00:48:55,440 --> 00:48:59,920
Speaker 10: I walked down the street yesterday and cried. Really well,

890
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:03,320
Speaker 10: when I think, I think, well, I thought I was

891
00:49:03,360 --> 00:49:07,759
Speaker 10: going to fail a class. Yeah, there was a little

892
00:49:07,800 --> 00:49:10,600
Speaker 10: bit of stress going on. Yeah, a lot of it

893
00:49:10,719 --> 00:49:11,160
Speaker 10: of stress.

894
00:49:11,200 --> 00:49:18,080
Speaker 1: Actually, No, definitely. What okay, So you said you feel

895
00:49:18,120 --> 00:49:19,160
Speaker 1: like a failure.

896
00:49:20,800 --> 00:49:21,319
Speaker 10: A little bit?

897
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:22,799
Speaker 2: What don't?

898
00:49:23,760 --> 00:49:26,120
Speaker 1: What does it? What does the success look like to you?

899
00:49:32,760 --> 00:49:40,719
Speaker 10: Well, I I go to a what I would I

900
00:49:40,760 --> 00:49:44,800
Speaker 10: go to a pretty competitive school and we have this

901
00:49:44,800 --> 00:49:48,400
Speaker 10: this interesting program where you can go and you can work.

902
00:49:48,760 --> 00:49:50,719
Speaker 10: You basically get a job for six months and then you

903
00:49:50,800 --> 00:49:55,719
Speaker 10: go back to school. And so it feels like everyone

904
00:49:56,680 --> 00:50:01,880
Speaker 10: around me is like a very competent young professional. Yeah,

905
00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:07,160
Speaker 10: and like I'm twenty two. I'm not like a kid anymore.

906
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:10,560
Speaker 10: I'm not like a teenager. And I'm I'm gonna be

907
00:50:10,600 --> 00:50:15,759
Speaker 10: graduating hopefully next December if I don't fail this class.

908
00:50:17,040 --> 00:50:22,120
Speaker 10: And I'm I'm genuinely just trying to like get by

909
00:50:22,280 --> 00:50:25,000
Speaker 10: on a day to day basis, you know, like I'm

910
00:50:25,000 --> 00:50:31,480
Speaker 10: trying to not be miserable and not not like wake

911
00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:36,239
Speaker 10: up sad and like you know, remember to eat and

912
00:50:36,680 --> 00:50:39,360
Speaker 10: move my body. And it's like everyone else around me

913
00:50:39,680 --> 00:50:43,399
Speaker 10: is like they have like a full time job and

914
00:50:43,680 --> 00:50:46,960
Speaker 10: they're doing research and they're also taking classes.

915
00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:50,480
Speaker 1: They're like, it's no, it's so annoying, isn't it. It's

916
00:50:50,520 --> 00:50:52,560
Speaker 1: so annoying when you go to someone's house and like

917
00:50:53,040 --> 00:50:57,400
Speaker 1: they don't have like fucking empty water bottles and candy

918
00:50:57,440 --> 00:50:59,880
Speaker 1: wrappers everywhere, and you're like, fuck, am I the only

919
00:51:01,480 --> 00:51:03,080
Speaker 1: one that fucking lives like this?

920
00:51:03,200 --> 00:51:07,719
Speaker 10: And shit, I know I'm not the only one.

921
00:51:08,560 --> 00:51:10,560
Speaker 1: No, you're totally not the only one. You're totally not

922
00:51:10,600 --> 00:51:12,920
Speaker 1: the only one. And there's probably here's the thing, there's people,

923
00:51:14,000 --> 00:51:16,120
Speaker 1: by the way, everyone loves to say this and it's

924
00:51:16,160 --> 00:51:18,920
Speaker 1: not true. I don't know if I don't know if

925
00:51:18,920 --> 00:51:21,600
Speaker 1: it's not true. I shouldn't have said it's not true

926
00:51:21,760 --> 00:51:27,719
Speaker 1: because my feelings on its truth are constantly developing. But

927
00:51:27,960 --> 00:51:30,960
Speaker 1: people like to say, like everybody has something going on,

928
00:51:31,080 --> 00:51:34,600
Speaker 1: you know, they like to say the truth, the genuine

929
00:51:34,600 --> 00:51:38,280
Speaker 1: truth is there are totally people who are more competent

930
00:51:38,320 --> 00:51:43,560
Speaker 1: than you. Uh, they're always will be Uh those people

931
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:45,200
Speaker 1: who people you know, people love to say. They love

932
00:51:45,239 --> 00:51:48,120
Speaker 1: to say the people who are posting on social media

933
00:51:48,320 --> 00:51:50,400
Speaker 1: about how much fun they're having, then I actually they

934
00:51:50,440 --> 00:51:54,600
Speaker 1: might they might be that person who just posted about

935
00:51:54,600 --> 00:51:57,160
Speaker 1: going to fucking the club with her friends, and how

936
00:51:57,280 --> 00:52:00,440
Speaker 1: was the great? Maybe she really did have an awesome time.

937
00:52:03,040 --> 00:52:06,560
Speaker 1: That's it could be true. But here's the thing is

938
00:52:06,600 --> 00:52:08,520
Speaker 1: that that's the wrong. I hate that. I hate when

939
00:52:08,520 --> 00:52:10,480
Speaker 1: people say that, oh, they're not actually having a good time,

940
00:52:10,640 --> 00:52:14,040
Speaker 1: because that's not that's miss that's totally missing the point.

941
00:52:14,600 --> 00:52:17,880
Speaker 1: That's just completely misses the points.

942
00:52:19,440 --> 00:52:22,520
Speaker 10: I would feel like the point should be, Please, I

943
00:52:22,520 --> 00:52:23,239
Speaker 10: shouldn't care.

944
00:52:23,960 --> 00:52:25,839
Speaker 1: No, you shouldn't care exactly, shouldn't care. It's not even

945
00:52:26,000 --> 00:52:26,800
Speaker 1: it's not relevant.

946
00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 10: It's not relevant at all to my life in my

947
00:52:30,480 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 10: potential future success. No, but it's so hard. I think

948
00:52:35,600 --> 00:52:37,239
Speaker 10: it's hard. I just think I just need to get

949
00:52:37,280 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 10: rid of it. I need to not see it. But also,

950
00:52:41,480 --> 00:52:43,680
Speaker 10: you know, maybe I would like to get to a

951
00:52:43,719 --> 00:52:45,520
Speaker 10: point where I can see it and then I can

952
00:52:45,560 --> 00:52:46,960
Speaker 10: just be happy for them.

953
00:52:47,360 --> 00:52:51,440
Speaker 1: Yes right now? Yeah, I mean, like I would say,

954
00:52:52,560 --> 00:52:55,359
Speaker 1: I would agree with you. I would say, I mean, look,

955
00:52:55,400 --> 00:52:58,279
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna I don't think anyone would ever tell

956
00:52:58,320 --> 00:53:03,759
Speaker 1: you that deleting your social media would be destructive for

957
00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:06,920
Speaker 1: your mental health. I think, uh, like, I think you

958
00:53:06,960 --> 00:53:10,200
Speaker 1: would definitely be happy or not being online if I could,

959
00:53:10,719 --> 00:53:12,920
Speaker 1: if I didn't have all this shit going on. I

960
00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:15,719
Speaker 1: would I dream it all the time. I literally like,

961
00:53:15,760 --> 00:53:18,080
Speaker 1: will fantasize a boy like, oh man, whatever, like I

962
00:53:18,719 --> 00:53:20,440
Speaker 1: like fall off or whatever it is. I could just

963
00:53:20,440 --> 00:53:24,560
Speaker 1: delete all and then just go to the moon or whatever.

964
00:53:24,560 --> 00:53:32,200
Speaker 1: The fuck. It'd be sick anyway. Uh alright, but you're right.

965
00:53:32,200 --> 00:53:33,920
Speaker 1: You were right about part two where you were like,

966
00:53:34,000 --> 00:53:36,560
Speaker 1: you want to get to that point where it's not

967
00:53:36,640 --> 00:53:40,000
Speaker 1: even about avoiding it, it's about the It's almost like

968
00:53:40,040 --> 00:53:42,120
Speaker 1: the opposite. It's like you want to be able to

969
00:53:42,280 --> 00:53:46,560
Speaker 1: like see that girl from your fucking sorority or whatever

970
00:53:46,680 --> 00:53:50,120
Speaker 1: that's like hanging out in Cabo and having fun, and

971
00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:51,719
Speaker 1: you want to be like you want to be able

972
00:53:51,760 --> 00:53:53,319
Speaker 1: to look at that and go, man, it's awesome that

973
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:55,640
Speaker 1: she's having hanging on Caba. I hope she's having an

974
00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:56,279
Speaker 1: awesome time.

975
00:53:57,360 --> 00:53:58,800
Speaker 5: You know, it's great.

976
00:53:58,600 --> 00:54:01,960
Speaker 1: That it could for her. You know, I would. I

977
00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:03,480
Speaker 1: would take that a step that I would take a

978
00:54:03,560 --> 00:54:08,960
Speaker 1: higher I would make that your aspiration like even higher

979
00:54:08,960 --> 00:54:12,319
Speaker 1: than like ignoring it is being able to actually do

980
00:54:12,360 --> 00:54:14,960
Speaker 1: the opposite and put it in your face and be like, oh,

981
00:54:15,040 --> 00:54:17,280
Speaker 1: this person got a promotion, this person got this job,

982
00:54:17,400 --> 00:54:19,839
Speaker 1: like that's awesome for them, that's so great. I'm so

983
00:54:20,200 --> 00:54:24,239
Speaker 1: my heart is so full of endless love for the

984
00:54:24,400 --> 00:54:29,719
Speaker 1: universal people that I'm just so happy for everyone. I'm

985
00:54:29,719 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 1: happy all the time. I have infinite joy at the

986
00:54:32,520 --> 00:54:35,080
Speaker 1: fact that I'm able to sit here and breathe and

987
00:54:35,200 --> 00:54:37,880
Speaker 1: drink a fucking cup of water, that I have no

988
00:54:38,040 --> 00:54:43,319
Speaker 1: need for uh, jealousy at this person that you know

989
00:54:44,560 --> 00:54:47,759
Speaker 1: that went to the moon today or whatever. I don't

990
00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:49,440
Speaker 1: like to keep talking about the moon, but.

991
00:54:52,239 --> 00:54:54,319
Speaker 10: No, I mean that's the reality I want to live in.

992
00:54:55,200 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 1: Same dude, And it seems like.

993
00:54:56,640 --> 00:54:57,600
Speaker 10: You want to go to the moon.

994
00:54:59,000 --> 00:55:01,239
Speaker 1: No, I don't give a fuck about it. No, I

995
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:03,640
Speaker 1: shouldn't have said that I would love to go to

996
00:55:03,680 --> 00:55:05,880
Speaker 1: the moon. I'll probably die not ever having gone to

997
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:07,759
Speaker 1: the moon, but it's nice to think about.

998
00:55:08,480 --> 00:55:08,880
Speaker 8: I don't know.

999
00:55:08,880 --> 00:55:11,600
Speaker 10: I think your chances are higher now than they've ever

1000
00:55:11,640 --> 00:55:12,240
Speaker 10: been before.

1001
00:55:13,400 --> 00:55:16,920
Speaker 1: You're probably right about that. You're definitely right about that.

1002
00:55:17,680 --> 00:55:19,839
Speaker 1: My chances are going to the moon are higher than

1003
00:55:19,840 --> 00:55:24,360
Speaker 1: they were before. They are higher than they were a

1004
00:55:24,360 --> 00:55:29,520
Speaker 1: few years ago. What do you feel about how this

1005
00:55:29,560 --> 00:55:30,600
Speaker 1: conversation went.

1006
00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:37,560
Speaker 10: I am genuinely excited to tell my boyfriend that I

1007
00:55:37,600 --> 00:55:41,759
Speaker 10: talked to a few weeks ago. For my spring break.

1008
00:55:41,800 --> 00:55:45,440
Speaker 10: We traveled from North Carolina to Florida in a car

1009
00:55:45,760 --> 00:55:47,600
Speaker 10: and we had like a twelve hour road trip on it.

1010
00:55:47,640 --> 00:55:49,920
Speaker 10: On the way back, we we listened to your podcast

1011
00:55:50,080 --> 00:55:53,360
Speaker 10: almost the whole time. Thank you, and I became a

1012
00:55:53,440 --> 00:55:56,359
Speaker 10: huge hymn benefensive See the.

1013
00:55:56,320 --> 00:55:58,440
Speaker 1: Fact how many how many episodes of the podcast did

1014
00:55:58,440 --> 00:55:58,920
Speaker 1: you listen to?

1015
00:56:00,640 --> 00:56:05,480
Speaker 10: A lot? I wasn't. I haven't been on Twitch. I

1016
00:56:05,800 --> 00:56:08,800
Speaker 10: didn't really know fully like the whole deal with Twitch

1017
00:56:08,880 --> 00:56:12,279
Speaker 10: until like literally a few weeks ago, and I think

1018
00:56:12,320 --> 00:56:14,200
Speaker 10: I've probably watched you the most.

1019
00:56:14,680 --> 00:56:16,800
Speaker 1: See that's great because sometimes I look at the podcast

1020
00:56:16,800 --> 00:56:18,680
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I can't believe anyone's listening to this,

1021
00:56:19,200 --> 00:56:20,560
Speaker 1: And there we go, you're listening to it.

1022
00:56:20,640 --> 00:56:25,000
Speaker 10: So no, I certainly was listening to it perfect.

1023
00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:30,399
Speaker 1: So there we go. There, that's that's that's that's yeah.

1024
00:56:30,440 --> 00:56:30,799
Speaker 5: I don't know.

1025
00:56:30,840 --> 00:56:34,440
Speaker 1: I guess, I guess, uh, yeah, I have a ton

1026
00:56:34,480 --> 00:56:35,480
Speaker 1: of imposter syndrome.

1027
00:56:37,080 --> 00:56:37,360
Speaker 4: I was.

1028
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: So I was gonna follow that up by saying, I

1029
00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:41,200
Speaker 1: think everyone does, but I don't think everyone does. Even

1030
00:56:41,200 --> 00:56:45,000
Speaker 1: if they do, it doesn't matter. We're just all doing stuff,

1031
00:56:45,160 --> 00:56:50,200
Speaker 1: walking around, drinking water, hanging out, being people until we die.

1032
00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:51,960
Speaker 10: Doing our best.

1033
00:56:55,000 --> 00:56:59,000
Speaker 1: What's your name again, Sammy? Sammy? There's anything you want

1034
00:56:59,000 --> 00:57:01,399
Speaker 1: to tell the people the computer before we go or say,

1035
00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:02,479
Speaker 1: or I.

1036
00:57:02,440 --> 00:57:04,360
Speaker 10: Hope you go to the moon some day if you

1037
00:57:04,440 --> 00:57:05,160
Speaker 10: really want to do that.

1038
00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:11,239
Speaker 1: Thank you very much. Have a nice night you as well.

1039
00:57:12,280 --> 00:57:12,640
Speaker 10: Thank you.

1040
00:57:17,920 --> 00:57:19,000
Speaker 1: Hello is this Andrew?

1041
00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:22,520
Speaker 9: Holy shit?

1042
00:57:22,640 --> 00:57:28,120
Speaker 1: Wow, Andrew? It says here your work in construction. You

1043
00:57:28,160 --> 00:57:31,400
Speaker 1: got into a debate with your coworkers about what direction

1044
00:57:31,640 --> 00:57:35,080
Speaker 1: people wipe their ass, and you'd like to share the

1045
00:57:35,120 --> 00:57:38,080
Speaker 1: outcome of this debate. Now, first of all, tell me

1046
00:57:39,680 --> 00:57:41,200
Speaker 1: what side of the debate were you on?

1047
00:57:44,840 --> 00:57:48,480
Speaker 4: Oh shit, man, that was, like, I'm gonna disclaim this

1048
00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:51,880
Speaker 4: first off, is like probably the hottest button issue I've

1049
00:57:51,880 --> 00:57:57,120
Speaker 4: ever gotten into, Like more so than like vaccinated, unvaccinated,

1050
00:57:57,280 --> 00:58:01,800
Speaker 4: fucking whatever set of politics people fall on. This is

1051
00:58:01,920 --> 00:58:06,000
Speaker 4: probably the most heated I've ever been in a debate

1052
00:58:06,040 --> 00:58:06,520
Speaker 4: in my life.

1053
00:58:06,880 --> 00:58:11,040
Speaker 1: And let me ask you a questions. What is First

1054
00:58:11,040 --> 00:58:13,320
Speaker 1: of all, tell me when you say that the debate

1055
00:58:13,400 --> 00:58:16,000
Speaker 1: is over what direction people wipe their ass, is it

1056
00:58:16,080 --> 00:58:20,080
Speaker 1: a binary debate between top to bottom and bottom to

1057
00:58:20,120 --> 00:58:23,040
Speaker 1: top or have there been some third parties of left

1058
00:58:23,040 --> 00:58:24,000
Speaker 1: to right, right to left.

1059
00:58:27,240 --> 00:58:31,640
Speaker 4: I wish I could report that, I'll be honest, not

1060
00:58:31,720 --> 00:58:34,280
Speaker 4: too many people wanted to chime in on it, and

1061
00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:37,560
Speaker 4: if they did, I think they were bullshitting because they

1062
00:58:37,600 --> 00:58:40,800
Speaker 4: seemed to just align with what seemed most normal at

1063
00:58:40,800 --> 00:58:47,000
Speaker 4: the time. But it all started when you know, it's construction,

1064
00:58:47,200 --> 00:58:51,880
Speaker 4: so like pretty much nothing's off limits. And my boss

1065
00:58:51,960 --> 00:58:56,160
Speaker 4: was telling me. This ramps up pretty quickly. He was

1066
00:58:56,160 --> 00:58:58,200
Speaker 4: telling me about how his wife shaved his asshole the

1067
00:58:58,240 --> 00:59:03,960
Speaker 4: other weekend, and then that pretty much just quickly spiraled

1068
00:59:04,720 --> 00:59:11,760
Speaker 4: into like just taking care of yourself down there, I

1069
00:59:11,800 --> 00:59:15,680
Speaker 4: guess would be the next thing. And then no one

1070
00:59:15,680 --> 00:59:17,320
Speaker 4: ever directly asked the question.

1071
00:59:18,560 --> 00:59:20,320
Speaker 1: Don't ever ask the question.

1072
00:59:22,760 --> 00:59:25,640
Speaker 4: Yeah, it wasn't ever directly. It was more just like you.

1073
00:59:25,600 --> 00:59:27,640
Speaker 1: Have with your boss. It seems like it's very casual

1074
00:59:27,680 --> 00:59:28,720
Speaker 1: and very brotherly.

1075
00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:34,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, he's he's a couple of years older than me.

1076
00:59:35,440 --> 00:59:40,400
Speaker 4: I was his boss on a project like a year

1077
00:59:40,440 --> 00:59:42,560
Speaker 4: ago is when it started, and that's when I first

1078
00:59:42,560 --> 00:59:45,960
Speaker 4: met him, and we we kind of we bonded, and

1079
00:59:46,000 --> 00:59:48,560
Speaker 4: then he actually got promoted. Now he's my boss.

1080
00:59:48,920 --> 00:59:51,560
Speaker 9: And I'm like his uh, I'm.

1081
00:59:51,400 --> 00:59:55,680
Speaker 4: Like his his fucking super secretary. I guess that's what

1082
00:59:55,720 --> 00:59:56,360
Speaker 4: you would call it.

1083
00:59:57,200 --> 00:59:59,400
Speaker 1: You guys sound like you're very good friends. So I

1084
00:59:59,400 --> 01:00:01,920
Speaker 1: also tell me, so tell me, so tell me what

1085
01:00:02,040 --> 01:00:03,120
Speaker 1: side of the debate are you on?

1086
01:00:06,960 --> 01:00:09,200
Speaker 4: Dude, I'm gonna I'm gonna spend a lot of people here.

1087
01:00:10,680 --> 01:00:13,720
Speaker 4: I am a I'm a back to front wiper, always

1088
01:00:13,760 --> 01:00:14,480
Speaker 4: have them.

1089
01:00:14,880 --> 01:00:18,120
Speaker 1: And so you're talking about the event, there's probably top

1090
01:00:18,200 --> 01:00:25,440
Speaker 1: to bottom.

1091
01:00:21,920 --> 01:00:26,160
Speaker 4: Not top to bottom. So that's that's kind of I

1092
01:00:26,200 --> 01:00:30,439
Speaker 4: think where the confusion lies. And I know ten thousand people.

1093
01:00:31,040 --> 01:00:32,720
Speaker 1: Tell me where does this start?

1094
01:00:35,840 --> 01:00:40,000
Speaker 4: So I start on top, just right in the middle,

1095
01:00:40,360 --> 01:00:42,720
Speaker 4: just right on it, and.

1096
01:00:42,600 --> 01:00:43,040
Speaker 1: It's just.

1097
01:00:44,800 --> 01:00:48,760
Speaker 4: It's just like a short, little come hither motion. And

1098
01:00:48,800 --> 01:00:51,560
Speaker 4: then I just dropped the paper, you know, and you

1099
01:00:51,280 --> 01:00:54,880
Speaker 4: you know, you know what you got. You know, first wipe,

1100
01:00:55,040 --> 01:00:56,360
Speaker 4: you know what you got, you know what you're dealing.

1101
01:00:56,880 --> 01:00:58,800
Speaker 1: Do you look at the paper before?

1102
01:01:03,120 --> 01:01:07,040
Speaker 4: Sometimes? Sometimes not always, Like like I said, you kind

1103
01:01:07,040 --> 01:01:10,880
Speaker 4: of know what you got, generally, sure you know.

1104
01:01:11,400 --> 01:01:13,520
Speaker 1: And so you're a top to bottom. And then I

1105
01:01:13,560 --> 01:01:18,520
Speaker 1: assume that the popular sentiment around town, around the rest

1106
01:01:18,560 --> 01:01:21,439
Speaker 1: of your construction work bodies is a sentiment of back

1107
01:01:21,480 --> 01:01:25,400
Speaker 1: to front or yes frontman, yes sorry.

1108
01:01:27,440 --> 01:01:30,560
Speaker 4: It and it kind of spiraled into like a a

1109
01:01:30,680 --> 01:01:34,280
Speaker 4: gender thing for a minute, and I was like, no, no,

1110
01:01:34,720 --> 01:01:38,400
Speaker 4: this is strictly on the male side, don't I don't

1111
01:01:38,440 --> 01:01:41,600
Speaker 4: advocate any females doing this. And I think that that's

1112
01:01:41,640 --> 01:01:45,680
Speaker 4: probably like culturally the most agreed on thing, but for men,

1113
01:01:46,800 --> 01:01:49,160
Speaker 4: completely different set of rules. We have a lot more

1114
01:01:49,240 --> 01:01:50,280
Speaker 4: room to work with down.

1115
01:01:50,160 --> 01:01:54,360
Speaker 1: There, right, because there's a possibility of recur of infection

1116
01:01:55,920 --> 01:01:56,400
Speaker 1: for women.

1117
01:01:57,320 --> 01:02:01,760
Speaker 4: Absolutely, absolutely absolutely, I.

1118
01:02:01,680 --> 01:02:03,760
Speaker 1: Know about the body.

1119
01:02:05,760 --> 01:02:07,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, hm hmm.

1120
01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:09,760
Speaker 1: So all right, it's all said and done. You had

1121
01:02:09,760 --> 01:02:11,120
Speaker 1: a little bit of it in the midst of all this,

1122
01:02:11,800 --> 01:02:12,840
Speaker 1: In the midst of all this, tell me.

1123
01:02:13,760 --> 01:02:17,440
Speaker 4: So, in the midst of all of it, we had

1124
01:02:17,680 --> 01:02:21,880
Speaker 4: unveiled probably some crazier stuff than what I was expecting,

1125
01:02:21,960 --> 01:02:28,120
Speaker 4: Like did you know a population of people don't fold

1126
01:02:28,160 --> 01:02:30,520
Speaker 4: the paper. There was even a debate on how much

1127
01:02:30,560 --> 01:02:33,240
Speaker 4: paper to fold. Some people just wad that ship up.

1128
01:02:34,360 --> 01:02:37,320
Speaker 4: Just tell me, he just fucking grabs it and just

1129
01:02:37,720 --> 01:02:41,320
Speaker 4: waste paper, just pulls huge, huge water And I'm like,

1130
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:42,720
Speaker 4: that's ridiculous.

1131
01:02:43,080 --> 01:02:44,840
Speaker 3: Yes, radio and he.

1132
01:02:46,040 --> 01:02:51,880
Speaker 1: To who raised you five times? I use it? Mm hmm.

1133
01:02:52,880 --> 01:02:56,800
Speaker 4: That's a good it's pretty good stat Actually, I would

1134
01:02:56,840 --> 01:02:59,640
Speaker 4: say for me, it's like once.

1135
01:02:59,480 --> 01:03:02,120
Speaker 1: A month once. You only talk a toy that once

1136
01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:02,880
Speaker 1: a month.

1137
01:03:05,360 --> 01:03:09,800
Speaker 4: Dude, Yeah, that ship pretty frequently, like at least at

1138
01:03:09,880 --> 01:03:10,600
Speaker 4: least once a day.

1139
01:03:11,680 --> 01:03:18,280
Speaker 1: What are you starting to get? Yeah, Andrew, thank you

1140
01:03:18,280 --> 01:03:20,000
Speaker 1: every much for sharing your perspective on this hop ut

1141
01:03:20,040 --> 01:03:20,400
Speaker 1: in the ship.

1142
01:03:23,240 --> 01:03:25,720
Speaker 4: I hope that uh people don't judge people for this,

1143
01:03:26,040 --> 01:03:29,160
Speaker 4: and I hope that it starts a new conversation, you know,

1144
01:03:29,240 --> 01:03:30,800
Speaker 4: in the office if if you have the balls to

1145
01:03:30,800 --> 01:03:31,200
Speaker 4: bring it.

1146
01:03:31,200 --> 01:03:35,680
Speaker 5: Up every weekend goes on the line making your phone calls.

1147
01:03:35,480 --> 01:03:38,640
Speaker 9: Every night every week and goes to a d S

1148
01:03:38,680 --> 01:03:39,120
Speaker 9: teaching you

1149
01:03:39,120 --> 01:03:42,160
Speaker 1: Aloud in your life is not really