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Speaker 1: welcome to the Dropping Gym's podcast. I am your host,

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Speaker 1: Debbie Brown. This is episode seventeen and this is officially

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Speaker 1: of people feel this, you get more accomplished on the

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Speaker 1: days that you're really busy, and less accomplished on the

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Speaker 1: days that you have full freedom and full rain of

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Speaker 1: how that day goes. So I'm building in two days

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Speaker 1: a week to do that, right too. If I just

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Speaker 1: want to like walk around and wonder um, or you know,

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Speaker 1: do something in my garage or clean out quest room,

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Speaker 1: or just let the flow of sadness or joy, gratitude,

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00:26:09,680 --> 00:26:12,320
Speaker 1: or fear or whatever comes up to feel those things.

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Speaker 1: But for Monday through Friday, I am doing what is

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Speaker 1: necessary for me to stay connected to my highest self.

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Speaker 1: For me to do that, it's important for me to

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Speaker 1: make a schedule. I know myself. That's just how I work,

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Speaker 1: that's just how I operate. So I'm leaning into that

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Speaker 1: knowing nous of myself to be an aid to myself

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00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:36,919
Speaker 1: in this deeply challenging time. So for you, anybody that

447
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Speaker 1: feels connected to doing something similar, it's just really important

448
00:26:40,359 --> 00:26:42,920
Speaker 1: to think, what are your strengths, what are the things

449
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Speaker 1: that served you in other moments of not feeling so great,

450
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Speaker 1: and how can we apply that right now to this

451
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Speaker 1: moment in daily action. I don't want to confuse you

452
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Speaker 1: with some of these memes that have been going around

453
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Speaker 1: that have been like falsely trying to shame people into

454
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Speaker 1: thinking their productivity is linked to or purpose or their

455
00:27:00,840 --> 00:27:04,280
Speaker 1: productivity is linked to their identity. And you know, if

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Speaker 1: they don't write two books during this, then they didn't

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Speaker 1: have the discipline. Okay, that's all bullshit, um, and it's

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Speaker 1: I don't believe in that type of toxic shaming positivity,

459
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:22,560
Speaker 1: but I will say, apply similar thought to your personal feelings.

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Speaker 1: If you want to write the book, do it. Hell

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00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:28,679
Speaker 1: I pray that it is the best seller and it

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Speaker 1: changes lives for myself included. But if you don't, you

463
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Speaker 1: don't have to. You don't have to keep track of

464
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Speaker 1: your career growth right now because, let's be quite honest,

465
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Speaker 1: none of it matters. We don't know what this world

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Speaker 1: is going to look like when we come out on

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Speaker 1: the other side of it. So don't get too pulled

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Speaker 1: and pushed into keeping a societal structure and model in

469
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Speaker 1: place that does not translate to the time of right now.

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Speaker 1: But what you can do is find the structure that

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Speaker 1: translates for your best good right now in this moment.

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Speaker 1: Another thing, when I think of my strengths and I'm

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Speaker 1: really bringing this forth right now in this moment. And

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Speaker 1: sometimes this is described in more of a um unhealthy

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Speaker 1: way I think when people use it, but it can

476
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Speaker 1: also be extremely healthy and serving. I can compartmentalize in

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Speaker 1: an epic manner. You know, I'm somebody that can absolutely

478
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Speaker 1: lean into multiple feelings at the same time. I believe

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Speaker 1: that you can find life to be beautiful and terrifying

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Speaker 1: in the exact same moment. They are not mutually exclusive.

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Speaker 1: You can have both, you know, UM, And so for that,

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Speaker 1: I'm kind of leaning into that skill set I have

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Speaker 1: of being able to compartmentalize. I can be sad and

484
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Speaker 1: I can have access to joy. Both can be true

485
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Speaker 1: and both can be true at the same time. I'm

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Speaker 1: a multidimensional, multi hyphenit human being. There is this duality

487
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Speaker 1: to us, which is often really beautifully expressed in some

488
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Speaker 1: of the things I know people have heard before, like

489
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Speaker 1: I'm a spiritual being having a human experience. That's compartmentalizing.

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00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:18,600
Speaker 1: That represents a duality, right, you are both at once

491
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Speaker 1: and you can lean into what both of those things

492
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Speaker 1: illustrate and bring forth as experiences at the same time.

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Speaker 1: So leaning into that, UM, I kind of touched on

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Speaker 1: also my my thought of you know, you're allowed to

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Speaker 1: grieve the year that you would have had. There's a

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Speaker 1: really beautiful article that came out this week by someone

497
00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 1: I deeply, deeply admire and enjoy named Candice Binbo. She

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Speaker 1: is incredible. UM. She calls herself, I believe a theologian feminist. Um.

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Speaker 1: She's incredible. She's a phenomenal writer, incredible voice. UM. And

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Speaker 1: she she did this article that she asked me to

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Speaker 1: be a part of, and it's all about allowing yourself

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Speaker 1: to grieve this year. So I put a link in

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Speaker 1: my newsletter, so if you got this last newsletter, it's

504
00:30:09,960 --> 00:30:11,680
Speaker 1: in there you can check it out. Also check her

505
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Speaker 1: out on Instagram. She's a dope at hell um. I

506
00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:17,520
Speaker 1: also think something that's really important right now, as we're

507
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Speaker 1: reframing some of these thoughts and feelings and experiences for ourselves,

508
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Speaker 1: it's really important to push yourself to think clearly, Think clearly,

509
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Speaker 1: think logically. Depression hates Logic hates it. Depression cannot exist

510
00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:39,640
Speaker 1: when you look at the truth of yourself and when

511
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Speaker 1: you look at the truth of your experiences and work

512
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Speaker 1: to accept them. Now, there's a big difference between accepting

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Speaker 1: something and liking something. We do not have to like

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Speaker 1: what the world looks like right now. We don't have to.

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Speaker 1: That's completely preferential. That is a preference of how we

516
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Speaker 1: feel about right now. But something that we have to

517
00:31:02,440 --> 00:31:06,640
Speaker 1: do for our own emotional and mental best interest is

518
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Speaker 1: to accept it. There's no point in fighting against what

519
00:31:11,720 --> 00:31:13,840
Speaker 1: is happening in the world right now. There's no point

520
00:31:13,920 --> 00:31:17,520
Speaker 1: against fighting ourselves about how we're feeling about what's happening

521
00:31:17,520 --> 00:31:20,280
Speaker 1: in the world right now. We have to accept what is.

522
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Speaker 1: This is what is, and then we formulate a plan,

523
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Speaker 1: We formulate healing, we formulate the ability to tap into

524
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Speaker 1: our tools or grow more tools according to that. But

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Speaker 1: we got to accept it. We got to sit in

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Speaker 1: acceptance that this is what life looks like right now,

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Speaker 1: and then we have to find the best way to

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Speaker 1: tap into source to spirit and the best way to

529
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Speaker 1: tap into ourselves and move forward accordingly. And I think,

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Speaker 1: really when you hear a lot of people say things

531
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Speaker 1: like you need to surrender, you need to trust, what

532
00:31:54,040 --> 00:32:00,640
Speaker 1: that's really illustrating is acceptance. What that's really really illustrating

533
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Speaker 1: is that you need to come into a space of

534
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Speaker 1: your heart where you can accept that, yes, this is

535
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Speaker 1: your life. It is doesn't mean it's going to stay

536
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 1: that way. It doesn't mean it can't change, doesn't mean

537
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:15,160
Speaker 1: that you don't want it to change. All of those

538
00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:19,160
Speaker 1: things can be true, but it also just is. And

539
00:32:19,200 --> 00:32:25,640
Speaker 1: we cause ourselves the most pain, the most emotional confusion

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00:32:26,360 --> 00:32:29,320
Speaker 1: when we try to fight our reality. And that is

541
00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:32,160
Speaker 1: not the same as wanting to change our reality. That's

542
00:32:32,360 --> 00:32:35,719
Speaker 1: very different. That can happen. But when we try to

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00:32:35,880 --> 00:32:41,080
Speaker 1: fight against what is, we cause our own suffering. So

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Speaker 1: when people may be sharing with you ideas, myself included,

545
00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:47,320
Speaker 1: because I do say this a lot. You know of surrender,

546
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Speaker 1: surrender to right now, trust, right now, if it comes

547
00:32:51,200 --> 00:32:53,520
Speaker 1: up for you this kind of conflict inside, like what

548
00:32:53,560 --> 00:32:56,440
Speaker 1: are you talking about? Like, no, I'm not going to

549
00:32:56,520 --> 00:32:59,280
Speaker 1: center surrender to right now, this sucks or I don't

550
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:02,719
Speaker 1: like this that or other aspect of my life. I'm

551
00:33:02,760 --> 00:33:04,920
Speaker 1: not going to surrender to it. You know, you're thinking

552
00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 1: in terms of winning or lossing, you're thinking in terms

553
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:10,120
Speaker 1: of minimizing yourself. That's not what any of that means.

554
00:33:10,160 --> 00:33:13,160
Speaker 1: What it means is expand your heart to a space

555
00:33:13,200 --> 00:33:18,200
Speaker 1: where you can accept what is. You do not have

556
00:33:18,320 --> 00:33:20,840
Speaker 1: to like it, but to end your own suffering, we

557
00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:26,600
Speaker 1: have to accept what is and formulate accordingly. I think

558
00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:29,440
Speaker 1: that it's also important. Um And for some people this

559
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:33,240
Speaker 1: may feel a little scary, um, perhaps even a little morbid.

560
00:33:33,320 --> 00:33:36,000
Speaker 1: But I'm a I'm a deep researcher. I mean, every night,

561
00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:37,920
Speaker 1: my favorite thing to do is go down the rabbit

562
00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:40,720
Speaker 1: hole of Wikipedia of all the random things I'm thinking,

563
00:33:40,760 --> 00:33:43,200
Speaker 1: and just start looking up and researching them. It's funny.

564
00:33:43,240 --> 00:33:45,200
Speaker 1: My partner is always like, how do you know so

565
00:33:45,320 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: many things? How do you know so much about so

566
00:33:48,040 --> 00:33:51,760
Speaker 1: many different things? And I'm just a deeply natural, naturally

567
00:33:51,920 --> 00:33:56,720
Speaker 1: curious person, Like I've always been very curious. I love

568
00:33:56,920 --> 00:33:59,120
Speaker 1: to feed my brain. I like to be the queen

569
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Speaker 1: of random fact, you know. I like to pull a

570
00:34:01,760 --> 00:34:03,680
Speaker 1: bunch of different things out my bag that you don't

571
00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:07,320
Speaker 1: think I know about, not in any going way. I

572
00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:09,080
Speaker 1: don't care if you think I do or don't, but

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00:34:09,160 --> 00:34:12,640
Speaker 1: you know, I like to have access to lots of

574
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:16,480
Speaker 1: thoughts and understandings at one time about many different things.

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Speaker 1: Um So that also means I've been doing uh pretty

576
00:34:24,560 --> 00:34:30,319
Speaker 1: large amount of researching of how life has shifted and changed,

577
00:34:30,640 --> 00:34:35,799
Speaker 1: how Earth very literally Earth as a structure, as a

578
00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:40,720
Speaker 1: biological kind of being, how it's existed and adapted over

579
00:34:41,960 --> 00:34:46,200
Speaker 1: different centuries and different type of pandemics and plagues. So

580
00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:49,560
Speaker 1: I did some lot of research on the flu of

581
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Speaker 1: nineteen eleven, a lot of research around the Bubonic plague,

582
00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:57,240
Speaker 1: the Black Plague of the Middle Ages and what happened.

583
00:34:57,440 --> 00:35:04,399
Speaker 1: And part of trusting God is also trusting that He

584
00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 1: has to make choices sometimes that we don't want to happen, right,

585
00:35:10,239 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 1: because we grip really strongly on our human condition, even

586
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:19,840
Speaker 1: though we're spirits and souls. We gripped really strongly on

587
00:35:20,200 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 1: our earth life identities and our earth life wants and desires. Right, So,

588
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:32,960
Speaker 1: when something like this happens and our economy is gravely disrupted,

589
00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:35,880
Speaker 1: when something like this happens and we're experiencing loss of

590
00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:42,600
Speaker 1: human life at such a frightening, um paralyzing and deeply

591
00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:46,719
Speaker 1: sad rate, it is hard to make peace with this

592
00:35:46,840 --> 00:35:50,719
Speaker 1: because we interpret this as such a great amount of suffering,

593
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:54,560
Speaker 1: and as a human being, just like everyone else, I

594
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:57,840
Speaker 1: feel that too. What I try to remind myself of, though,

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00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:02,760
Speaker 1: is God's timing is absolutely perfect, even in this moment.

596
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:08,600
Speaker 1: Everything has a reason, even though we don't understand it,

597
00:36:08,719 --> 00:36:12,600
Speaker 1: because as this human condition, as beings that are not God,

598
00:36:13,280 --> 00:36:18,600
Speaker 1: we don't always have the capacity mentally or emotionally yet

599
00:36:19,640 --> 00:36:24,440
Speaker 1: to really understand the fullness of His plan. We're just people,

600
00:36:24,640 --> 00:36:28,880
Speaker 1: were just humans, and we've built lives as human beings

601
00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:32,640
Speaker 1: that have been in service to us. Trying to understand

602
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:37,360
Speaker 1: can form control our experiences so that they make sense

603
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:40,960
Speaker 1: to the human life, to the human mind, and the

604
00:36:41,080 --> 00:36:46,600
Speaker 1: access of information that we currently have. But guys, there

605
00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:51,000
Speaker 1: is so much more. There is so much more than

606
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Speaker 1: what we are currently able to understand. It's not even fathomable.

607
00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:59,600
Speaker 1: So in that space of pure potentiality, I also surrender

608
00:37:00,719 --> 00:37:06,280
Speaker 1: to God's all knowing understanding and plan this space where

609
00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:10,480
Speaker 1: Father Mother God knows exactly what Earth needs as a whole,

610
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Speaker 1: not just what is in the best interest of humanity,

611
00:37:16,160 --> 00:37:21,120
Speaker 1: because everything that exists as God's not just us. There

612
00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:25,400
Speaker 1: is such a profound amount of arrogance and being human,

613
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:31,840
Speaker 1: such an arrogance and being American, we think, we really

614
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:34,319
Speaker 1: think we are the end all be all, But there

615
00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:37,920
Speaker 1: have been versions in human form that have existed and

616
00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:42,799
Speaker 1: that have become extinct before we did. Right think of

617
00:37:42,840 --> 00:37:47,680
Speaker 1: the Neanderthals, there have been many different forms of human

618
00:37:47,719 --> 00:37:52,000
Speaker 1: being or humanoid that have existed and had their time

619
00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:53,960
Speaker 1: here and didn't. And I'm not trying to sound scary,

620
00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:55,400
Speaker 1: and I'm not trying to say that this is it

621
00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:57,480
Speaker 1: for us. I do not believe that to be true,

622
00:37:57,520 --> 00:38:01,600
Speaker 1: and God knows the human form of who I am

623
00:38:01,640 --> 00:38:03,960
Speaker 1: does not want that to be true, because I love life,

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00:38:04,239 --> 00:38:09,160
Speaker 1: um and I love this world. But if we say

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00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:13,520
Speaker 1: we're gonna trust God, we also have to trust the

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00:38:13,640 --> 00:38:18,120
Speaker 1: fullness of who he she is outside of what we

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00:38:18,160 --> 00:38:23,480
Speaker 1: are considering to be in our best personal interest. And

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Speaker 1: I just think it's interesting. I just think it's interesting

629
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Speaker 1: to look at some of the way that life has existed.

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Speaker 1: I think you know, and I alluded to this earlier

631
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:35,719
Speaker 1: in the show, but it's it's kind of interesting and

632
00:38:35,960 --> 00:38:41,560
Speaker 1: incredibly humbling to come out on a street with nobody

633
00:38:41,600 --> 00:38:46,920
Speaker 1: in it, no business is going, no ego, no extra

634
00:38:47,000 --> 00:38:53,280
Speaker 1: layer of identity clouding us, right because none of it matters.

635
00:38:53,320 --> 00:38:55,520
Speaker 1: It doesn't matter what you do for a living right now,

636
00:38:56,120 --> 00:38:58,080
Speaker 1: it doesn't. It doesn't matter what you have or what

637
00:38:58,160 --> 00:38:59,960
Speaker 1: you don't have. Right now, it doesn't. We are all

638
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:02,799
Speaker 1: brought to our knees in different ways, and we are

639
00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:05,840
Speaker 1: all feeling the effects of this in very real ways,

640
00:39:06,080 --> 00:39:08,720
Speaker 1: right So none of that other bs that never mattered

641
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:11,520
Speaker 1: anyway matters right now. It's kind of a blessing to

642
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:15,040
Speaker 1: experience the world like that, and really a true opportunity

643
00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:18,560
Speaker 1: for growth because it's giving you a glimpse of seeing

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00:39:18,600 --> 00:39:22,400
Speaker 1: yourself and seeing the world without the lens of ego.

645
00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: But when we really sit in this space and go

646
00:39:28,200 --> 00:39:35,400
Speaker 1: outside and you hear how unbothered nature is. My God, Yo,

647
00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:47,000
Speaker 1: that's humbling. Wow, that's really humbling. The birds, the squirrels,

648
00:39:47,400 --> 00:39:54,480
Speaker 1: the insects, the coyotes, that's what's in my area. Um,

649
00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:59,560
Speaker 1: the everything. They're not affected right now, they're not bothered

650
00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:04,440
Speaker 1: by this us. Life keeps moving, the trees, the grass,

651
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:09,600
Speaker 1: the wind, the rain, the sun, the soil. Right like

652
00:40:09,680 --> 00:40:12,960
Speaker 1: this is actually a reprieve for them. We're not meddling

653
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:19,319
Speaker 1: in their lives. We're not challenging their existence for our

654
00:40:19,880 --> 00:40:23,560
Speaker 1: personal gain. None of that has ever happened in my lifetime.

655
00:40:24,480 --> 00:40:29,840
Speaker 1: Moments like this only happened during pandemics. Historically, moments like

656
00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:33,400
Speaker 1: this have only happened in rural and remote places, and

657
00:40:33,480 --> 00:40:37,880
Speaker 1: moments like this have only happened before this current existence

658
00:40:39,600 --> 00:40:43,000
Speaker 1: of overpopulated human life has been in the world. So

659
00:40:43,040 --> 00:40:47,600
Speaker 1: it's really just interesting and creates quite a perspective shift

660
00:40:47,680 --> 00:40:49,959
Speaker 1: to let us know that we are all in deep

661
00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:53,520
Speaker 1: harmony with one another. But we all, including the animals,

662
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:57,480
Speaker 1: including the earth, we have our own missions and purpose

663
00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 1: with our existence in these forms out we're in right,

664
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:04,120
Speaker 1: We as humans tend to think that everything is in

665
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:08,400
Speaker 1: service to us. This false idea of manifest destiny that

666
00:41:08,560 --> 00:41:12,080
Speaker 1: really got purported when you know, colonization was happening from

667
00:41:12,120 --> 00:41:15,240
Speaker 1: the Europeans and from the Spaniards taking over the globe.

668
00:41:15,320 --> 00:41:20,520
Speaker 1: This this idea of rightful dominance over anything that we see,

669
00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:25,799
Speaker 1: it's all bullshit, and it's never been more apparent then

670
00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:28,640
Speaker 1: right now, in this moment. Right we don't control anything.

671
00:41:29,800 --> 00:41:32,800
Speaker 1: That's another great thing to lean into for your personal growth.

672
00:41:32,880 --> 00:41:37,440
Speaker 1: Right now, coming to peace with the true understanding that

673
00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:42,920
Speaker 1: we don't control anything, and that's okay. It actually takes

674
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:47,440
Speaker 1: some of the pressure off. It's okay, And any control

675
00:41:47,520 --> 00:41:53,080
Speaker 1: we thought we had was a false reality. We created

676
00:41:53,160 --> 00:41:58,160
Speaker 1: these structures, We created these ideals since the dawn of

677
00:41:58,239 --> 00:42:05,560
Speaker 1: human existence. We created concepts like time, We created language,

678
00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:11,880
Speaker 1: We created concepts like good versus bad, good versus evil,

679
00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:18,480
Speaker 1: experiences and judgments of things being great or terrible, joyful

680
00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:24,279
Speaker 1: or painful. We created those structures, and when we overthink it,

681
00:42:24,400 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 1: we become bound and imprisoned by those structures. But in reality,

682
00:42:29,400 --> 00:42:32,719
Speaker 1: none of it actually exists. To God, none of it

683
00:42:32,760 --> 00:42:38,400
Speaker 1: actually exists, and it's all incredibly fragile and easily to break.

684
00:42:38,480 --> 00:42:41,759
Speaker 1: All of these systems that we have put so much

685
00:42:41,840 --> 00:42:45,719
Speaker 1: stock into all of these systems that we have intertwined

686
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:50,200
Speaker 1: our identity and our vision through and in it can

687
00:42:50,239 --> 00:42:57,040
Speaker 1: be dismantled like that, like that based on the whims

688
00:42:58,160 --> 00:43:01,359
Speaker 1: of source of the high your power that you believe in.

689
00:43:01,880 --> 00:43:04,040
Speaker 1: So it's just kind of interesting to also instead of

690
00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:07,400
Speaker 1: letting that terrify you. For anybody that's feeling like a

691
00:43:07,400 --> 00:43:10,640
Speaker 1: little tightness right now, hear me say that, for anybody

692
00:43:10,640 --> 00:43:14,160
Speaker 1: that that scares this is such a beautiful opportunity to

693
00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:17,600
Speaker 1: lean into it and to take the pressure and this

694
00:43:17,800 --> 00:43:23,560
Speaker 1: self imposed responsibility off of yourself and to just experience

695
00:43:23,640 --> 00:43:27,680
Speaker 1: yourself as a soul and as a spirit that was

696
00:43:27,760 --> 00:43:36,360
Speaker 1: brought here to experience, to experience whatever is. It's a really, really,

697
00:43:36,440 --> 00:43:42,560
Speaker 1: really great opportunity to investigate within your own heart what

698
00:43:42,800 --> 00:43:48,839
Speaker 1: is real, what is real, and what is old programming?

699
00:43:49,600 --> 00:43:54,759
Speaker 1: Right now? Are you being led by the deepest, most authentic,

700
00:43:56,239 --> 00:44:02,400
Speaker 1: spirit led feelings or you being led by old programming

701
00:44:03,080 --> 00:44:10,920
Speaker 1: based on societal structures, societal input and old programming based

702
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:16,120
Speaker 1: on trauma and based on coping mechanisms that you devised

703
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:20,040
Speaker 1: to survive trauma. And for anybody out there saying I

704
00:44:20,080 --> 00:44:23,759
Speaker 1: don't know, I don't have trauma. Trauma doesn't just mean

705
00:44:24,760 --> 00:44:31,319
Speaker 1: murder and rape, abuse, Trauma doesn't just mean fear and

706
00:44:31,440 --> 00:44:36,360
Speaker 1: these really big ways. Trauma can also be very subtle.

707
00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:42,840
Speaker 1: Trauma can be very subconscious. Trauma can be holding tight

708
00:44:43,520 --> 00:44:46,359
Speaker 1: to this warped view of yourself that you had when

709
00:44:46,440 --> 00:44:48,919
Speaker 1: you were a child, that was born out of other

710
00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:52,200
Speaker 1: people's opinions or what you were perceiving to be other

711
00:44:52,320 --> 00:44:57,560
Speaker 1: people's opinions about you, that then developed into you trying

712
00:44:57,600 --> 00:45:00,520
Speaker 1: to make sense of your reality and makes sense of

713
00:45:00,560 --> 00:45:04,879
Speaker 1: yourself by crafting and piecing together these walls or these

714
00:45:04,880 --> 00:45:10,920
Speaker 1: emotional responses or this spiritual bypassing. That's trauma. So in

715
00:45:10,960 --> 00:45:17,960
Speaker 1: this moment, as you have this opportunity, this divine opportunity,

716
00:45:18,600 --> 00:45:21,360
Speaker 1: and you sit with yourself, and for many people that

717
00:45:21,560 --> 00:45:26,840
Speaker 1: very literally means sitting with yourself by yourself, potentially for

718
00:45:26,880 --> 00:45:31,480
Speaker 1: the first time in your lifetime, what is real and

719
00:45:31,560 --> 00:45:36,360
Speaker 1: what is old programming that you can tap into a

720
00:45:36,520 --> 00:45:39,920
Speaker 1: freedom to release. I think that's the part that's going

721
00:45:39,960 --> 00:45:43,479
Speaker 1: to feel scariest for most right now, as in many

722
00:45:43,520 --> 00:45:48,480
Speaker 1: states were in this like social isolation quarantine um for

723
00:45:48,520 --> 00:45:51,080
Speaker 1: god knows how long, because every week it's something new right.

724
00:45:51,160 --> 00:45:52,959
Speaker 1: Like first, it's like, hey, stay home for the week

725
00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:55,560
Speaker 1: now potentially, And to be quite honest, if I really

726
00:45:55,600 --> 00:45:59,960
Speaker 1: listened to my intuition, I don't think that we're really

727
00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:02,320
Speaker 1: going to be able to leave our homes with the

728
00:46:02,400 --> 00:46:07,279
Speaker 1: freedom that we used to until potentially July August UM.

729
00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:10,799
Speaker 1: And I think even then, for the next year to

730
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:15,440
Speaker 1: two years UM, life is going to be dramatically different

731
00:46:15,520 --> 00:46:19,879
Speaker 1: from anything we've ever seen in every possible way, which

732
00:46:19,920 --> 00:46:22,000
Speaker 1: is not to say bad or scary, but it just

733
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:24,760
Speaker 1: will be really different. And we need to get ready

734
00:46:24,760 --> 00:46:26,960
Speaker 1: for that. We need to get ready to adapt and

735
00:46:27,040 --> 00:46:29,920
Speaker 1: to create new paths and new channels. But for a

736
00:46:29,960 --> 00:46:35,000
Speaker 1: lot of people, with this isolation, with this quarantining, you

737
00:46:35,080 --> 00:46:40,040
Speaker 1: are being lead to face yourself for the first time

738
00:46:40,040 --> 00:46:42,520
Speaker 1: in your life. One of the things that I've talked

739
00:46:42,520 --> 00:46:46,440
Speaker 1: about with my own spiritual journeying is that I realized

740
00:46:46,520 --> 00:46:51,520
Speaker 1: one day that I was sick of distracting myself with fun.

741
00:46:52,280 --> 00:46:55,480
Speaker 1: For me, that represented previously having a career in entertainment

742
00:46:55,480 --> 00:46:59,080
Speaker 1: and media. All the parties I was going, all the parties,

743
00:46:59,120 --> 00:47:02,880
Speaker 1: what all the people going all the concerts, Like literally

744
00:47:02,880 --> 00:47:05,440
Speaker 1: four to five nights a week. I was either at

745
00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:08,440
Speaker 1: a party, or I was at a concert, or I

746
00:47:08,520 --> 00:47:12,319
Speaker 1: was backstage at a smaller show, or I was at

747
00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:16,800
Speaker 1: a red carpet interviewing somebody. You know, all of the things, UM,

748
00:47:16,840 --> 00:47:19,600
Speaker 1: and it all seemed cool, and it gave me this

749
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:24,640
Speaker 1: like identity or this perception, UM, But it also kept

750
00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:26,920
Speaker 1: me very distracted from all the things I needed to

751
00:47:26,920 --> 00:47:28,839
Speaker 1: work on and all the ways that I needed to heal.

752
00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:31,360
Speaker 1: And so the best thing that happened to me was

753
00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:34,880
Speaker 1: when I kind of forced myself to isolate for that

754
00:47:34,880 --> 00:47:37,040
Speaker 1: that kind of for me represented moving to a new

755
00:47:37,080 --> 00:47:39,719
Speaker 1: state for a job opportunity where I didn't know, not

756
00:47:39,880 --> 00:47:42,719
Speaker 1: even one person, and I end up moving to two

757
00:47:42,719 --> 00:47:46,680
Speaker 1: different states within two years, not knowing anybody, and having

758
00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:49,680
Speaker 1: to spend a lot of time with myself. You know,

759
00:47:49,760 --> 00:47:53,040
Speaker 1: that for me was one of the most radically transformative

760
00:47:53,040 --> 00:47:57,360
Speaker 1: experiences of my life. And what also helped really um

761
00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:01,279
Speaker 1: turned me into this kind of juggernaut of spiritual and

762
00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:05,359
Speaker 1: personal advancement and growth. So this is that opportunity for

763
00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:09,320
Speaker 1: you too, And I know it scares you. It scared me, UM,

764
00:48:09,360 --> 00:48:12,040
Speaker 1: because it's different, you know, and if you have spent

765
00:48:12,080 --> 00:48:17,000
Speaker 1: your life really avoiding spending time with yourself or investigating

766
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:21,560
Speaker 1: your thoughts and feelings about anything, but especially your past.

767
00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:26,080
Speaker 1: It's gonna feel triggering right now, But I also hope

768
00:48:26,120 --> 00:48:29,680
Speaker 1: that you see through that feeling of being triggered, that

769
00:48:29,800 --> 00:48:33,640
Speaker 1: this is also the opportunity of your lifetime, this moment.

770
00:48:34,360 --> 00:48:37,560
Speaker 1: And I know it's hard to take that in because

771
00:48:37,600 --> 00:48:42,840
Speaker 1: people are dying and these numbers are so staggering and scary.

772
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:46,239
Speaker 1: We're all scared. We're scared for our own lives, and

773
00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:50,279
Speaker 1: we're scared for the lives of people we love, you know,

774
00:48:50,400 --> 00:48:52,240
Speaker 1: a lot for a lot of people. We are scared

775
00:48:52,719 --> 00:48:55,359
Speaker 1: of not having our basic needs met, not being able

776
00:48:55,400 --> 00:49:00,040
Speaker 1: to survive. That's real, that's a real fear, and I

777
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:03,600
Speaker 1: get that. But to bring back to something that I

778
00:49:03,640 --> 00:49:08,799
Speaker 1: shared earlier, there is also space for both. There is

779
00:49:08,840 --> 00:49:11,239
Speaker 1: space to be hurting right now. There is space to

780
00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:15,680
Speaker 1: be fearful right now and at the exact same time,

781
00:49:16,080 --> 00:49:22,200
Speaker 1: in the exact same human embodiment, there is space for peace.

782
00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:28,840
Speaker 1: There is space for healing, and there is space for joy.

783
00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:33,799
Speaker 1: We can do all of it. We don't have to

784
00:49:33,840 --> 00:49:36,879
Speaker 1: have this judgment or this shame about one or the other.

785
00:49:38,560 --> 00:49:41,040
Speaker 1: We don't have to create that chaos inside. We are

786
00:49:41,120 --> 00:49:50,600
Speaker 1: multidimensional spiritual forms having a human experience, we can feel

787
00:49:50,600 --> 00:49:53,200
Speaker 1: more than one thing. So in this moment, no matter

788
00:49:53,280 --> 00:49:55,759
Speaker 1: what your situation right now, And I don't want to

789
00:49:55,800 --> 00:49:59,760
Speaker 1: take away from the fact that I know that depending

790
00:49:59,760 --> 00:50:03,319
Speaker 1: on what your situation is, this experience can look very,

791
00:50:03,600 --> 00:50:07,120
Speaker 1: very different for you than it does for other people.

792
00:50:07,480 --> 00:50:10,960
Speaker 1: But there's still space where you can take in that

793
00:50:11,000 --> 00:50:15,239
Speaker 1: this is the opportunity of your lifetime. And I don't

794
00:50:15,239 --> 00:50:18,200
Speaker 1: want to drill home for people this false idea that

795
00:50:18,320 --> 00:50:20,640
Speaker 1: during this time you have to be productive in any way.

796
00:50:21,000 --> 00:50:23,160
Speaker 1: Hell no, But I do want to drive home for

797
00:50:23,200 --> 00:50:28,520
Speaker 1: you that this is not an experience to be wasted. Yes,

798
00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:31,040
Speaker 1: I'm an alignment that if you were having a down day,

799
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:34,000
Speaker 1: it's okay to not accomplish anything. It's okay to veg

800
00:50:34,040 --> 00:50:35,920
Speaker 1: out in your bed, It's okay to spend the whole

801
00:50:36,000 --> 00:50:39,360
Speaker 1: day crying, But absolutely not. Will you be doing that

802
00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:42,080
Speaker 1: for the whole quarantine? No, And I don't care what

803
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:44,759
Speaker 1: Meme tells you Otherwise, I don't care what Meme is

804
00:50:44,800 --> 00:50:47,880
Speaker 1: telling you. Hey, if all you get accomplished from this

805
00:50:47,960 --> 00:50:51,440
Speaker 1: quarantine is sitting down and crying, that's okay. Sis. No,

806
00:50:51,760 --> 00:50:54,959
Speaker 1: it's not, because then you are doing the exact same

807
00:50:55,040 --> 00:50:57,960
Speaker 1: thing that you've been doing in a different form. You

808
00:50:57,960 --> 00:51:03,560
Speaker 1: are actively not processing, and you are wasting away your

809
00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:07,799
Speaker 1: opportunity to truly become who you were meant to be.

810
00:51:08,320 --> 00:51:10,360
Speaker 1: And I don't mean that in a way that is

811
00:51:10,400 --> 00:51:17,440
Speaker 1: tied to monetary success, to materialistic success, to anything like

812
00:51:17,560 --> 00:51:20,120
Speaker 1: that of any kind. But we all came to this

813
00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:24,440
Speaker 1: earth with a certain set of instructions, and those instructions

814
00:51:24,480 --> 00:51:30,040
Speaker 1: did not mean anything tied to society's interpretation of success.

815
00:51:30,760 --> 00:51:35,920
Speaker 1: Those instructions, however, did require that we become more of

816
00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:40,480
Speaker 1: who we truly are. Do not waste this time, Use

817
00:51:40,600 --> 00:51:44,879
Speaker 1: this divine opportunity wisely. This is the moment that the

818
00:51:44,920 --> 00:51:48,600
Speaker 1: deepest part of your soul has been waiting for. This

819
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:53,040
Speaker 1: is it. We're here now. I think it's really important

820
00:51:53,920 --> 00:51:58,360
Speaker 1: that we utilize some of this time in very specific ways.

821
00:51:58,600 --> 00:52:00,440
Speaker 1: So what I want to spend the last minutes of

822
00:52:00,440 --> 00:52:04,160
Speaker 1: the show talking with you about is how to use

823
00:52:04,160 --> 00:52:06,920
Speaker 1: this time wisely. So in the next couple of weeks,

824
00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 1: I am going to be releasing a one dent free challenge.

825
00:52:13,640 --> 00:52:17,040
Speaker 1: Now this is a hundred percent free, but I want

826
00:52:17,040 --> 00:52:20,680
Speaker 1: you to keep in mind. It's something that I'm pouring

827
00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:24,399
Speaker 1: hours and hours and hours and hours of work too,

828
00:52:24,760 --> 00:52:26,360
Speaker 1: So if you decide to sign up for it, I

829
00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:28,600
Speaker 1: want you to take it seriously. But I'm gonna be

830
00:52:28,680 --> 00:52:32,640
Speaker 1: rolling out a divine time out challenge. So if you're

831
00:52:32,680 --> 00:52:34,480
Speaker 1: if you're already signed up for my newsletter, you'll get

832
00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:36,200
Speaker 1: all the deeps. If you're not, you can go to

833
00:52:36,239 --> 00:52:38,319
Speaker 1: my website or go to karma Blist dot com and

834
00:52:38,400 --> 00:52:40,919
Speaker 1: just really easily sign up for the newsletter. But in

835
00:52:40,960 --> 00:52:44,279
Speaker 1: that we're gonna go far more in depth and create

836
00:52:44,320 --> 00:52:46,880
Speaker 1: accountability systems for what I'm going to lay out for

837
00:52:46,880 --> 00:52:51,880
Speaker 1: you right now, but away to use this time wisely reading,

838
00:52:52,840 --> 00:52:56,279
Speaker 1: really reading journaling. I cannot stress this enough. And I

839
00:52:56,360 --> 00:52:58,840
Speaker 1: have not always been a fan of journaling, but I

840
00:52:58,880 --> 00:53:04,160
Speaker 1: am in my journey realistic bag right now. I am

841
00:53:04,200 --> 00:53:08,280
Speaker 1: investigating myself in ways that I never had and writing

842
00:53:08,320 --> 00:53:12,040
Speaker 1: them down really unashamedly and was that a word, I

843
00:53:12,040 --> 00:53:16,160
Speaker 1: don't know, but I've been writing them down, um with

844
00:53:16,400 --> 00:53:19,960
Speaker 1: just reckless abandon and freedom of self. And it has

845
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:25,719
Speaker 1: been amazing documenting yourself, really documenting this time. This is

846
00:53:25,760 --> 00:53:28,920
Speaker 1: an unprecedented moment in history. We keep hearing that right,

847
00:53:29,120 --> 00:53:33,799
Speaker 1: but also means there's an opportunity to really tell your

848
00:53:33,840 --> 00:53:38,200
Speaker 1: story right now. Our children, are grandchildren, are great grandchildren,

849
00:53:38,719 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 1: all the generations that will come forward after we're gone,

850
00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:47,600
Speaker 1: They're gonna want to know about you. They're gonna want

851
00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:51,800
Speaker 1: to know about life right now. Document yourself. I've started

852
00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:54,359
Speaker 1: taking like all of these portrait pictures of myself, which

853
00:53:54,400 --> 00:53:58,480
Speaker 1: I never do, and I'm just having fun with it.

854
00:53:58,719 --> 00:54:02,120
Speaker 1: I've been writing, I've been charting, I've been graphicing, I've

855
00:54:02,120 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 1: been doing all these different things that are truly documenting

856
00:54:05,560 --> 00:54:11,960
Speaker 1: who I am. Do that find moments to really be present,

857
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Speaker 1: Be present with yourself, Be present with your pain, be

858
00:54:16,080 --> 00:54:21,960
Speaker 1: present with your confusion. Take time to listen to nature.

859
00:54:24,040 --> 00:54:30,239
Speaker 1: Take time to think, specifically, thinking about what it is

860
00:54:30,280 --> 00:54:33,360
Speaker 1: to be a spirit and a human at the same time.

861
00:54:35,920 --> 00:54:42,400
Speaker 1: Take time to cultivate a humility and a gratitude for

862
00:54:42,480 --> 00:54:44,799
Speaker 1: the world that we live in and the peace of

863
00:54:44,840 --> 00:54:50,800
Speaker 1: the puzzle that we are in it. Take time to

864
00:54:50,920 --> 00:54:54,600
Speaker 1: really focus on things you do want to learn about yourself,

865
00:54:54,960 --> 00:55:01,160
Speaker 1: about your history, about your family structure. Take time to

866
00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:05,680
Speaker 1: unlearn all the false beliefs that you've carried on that

867
00:55:05,840 --> 00:55:11,479
Speaker 1: don't actually fit now. You know, and I keep saying

868
00:55:11,480 --> 00:55:13,719
Speaker 1: this in regards to the pandemic with my friends and

869
00:55:13,719 --> 00:55:15,879
Speaker 1: my family. I keep saying, like, who, what a time

870
00:55:15,920 --> 00:55:19,480
Speaker 1: to be alive? But no, really, what a time to

871
00:55:19,600 --> 00:55:24,040
Speaker 1: be alive? What an opportunity? What a time to be

872
00:55:24,200 --> 00:55:28,080
Speaker 1: alive with the access to tools that we have now

873
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Speaker 1: that no generation that came before us ever had. You know,

874
00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:35,040
Speaker 1: it's so easy for us, And this is a whole

875
00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:37,400
Speaker 1: another topic of a show, but it's so easy for

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00:55:37,520 --> 00:55:41,279
Speaker 1: us to be hard on our parents, to be hard

877
00:55:41,320 --> 00:55:44,200
Speaker 1: on our family members, to be hard on the generations

878
00:55:44,200 --> 00:55:46,600
Speaker 1: that are older than us for what they didn't do,

879
00:55:46,960 --> 00:55:50,319
Speaker 1: or what we're perceiving to be, what they didn't teach us,

880
00:55:51,160 --> 00:55:54,200
Speaker 1: or the ways that they didn't heal. You know, it's

881
00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:57,760
Speaker 1: not because we're so great that we have this self

882
00:55:57,800 --> 00:56:01,359
Speaker 1: awareness that they didn't have. It's because they walked so

883
00:56:01,400 --> 00:56:05,040
Speaker 1: we could run. They had experiences that they didn't have

884
00:56:05,080 --> 00:56:09,719
Speaker 1: the freedom to heal from that created an environment for

885
00:56:09,840 --> 00:56:12,440
Speaker 1: us to have resources and healings and environment for us

886
00:56:12,480 --> 00:56:15,520
Speaker 1: to get fed up and demand change of self and

887
00:56:15,560 --> 00:56:20,560
Speaker 1: demand change of the world and others. You know, But

888
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Speaker 1: I think about this all the time when I scroll Instagram,

889
00:56:23,239 --> 00:56:26,120
Speaker 1: I follow like a bunch of those really really amazing

890
00:56:26,200 --> 00:56:29,640
Speaker 1: therapist pages like and maybe getting their names wrong, so um,

891
00:56:29,880 --> 00:56:31,600
Speaker 1: just bear with me. But one of the pages, I

892
00:56:31,600 --> 00:56:38,759
Speaker 1: think it's called like holistic therapy or holistic psychology. It's

893
00:56:38,800 --> 00:56:41,719
Speaker 1: so funny sometimes because I stopped in my scroll and

894
00:56:41,760 --> 00:56:46,040
Speaker 1: I'll read something that is just remarkable, and I'll say,

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00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:51,399
Speaker 1: you know, I spent a fortune and spent so many

896
00:56:51,520 --> 00:56:56,680
Speaker 1: years to finally learn that, And now on a random afternoon,

897
00:56:56,800 --> 00:56:59,919
Speaker 1: I'm scrolling and I'm seeing one of the most intra

898
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Speaker 1: respective and profound thoughts that has the ability to unlock

899
00:57:05,239 --> 00:57:10,839
Speaker 1: and radically change your life for free on Instagram, sandwiched

900
00:57:10,880 --> 00:57:18,720
Speaker 1: in between Ratchett and narcissistic content. Right, even if you

901
00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:25,080
Speaker 1: can't afford therapy, seek out meaningful pages to follow. Stop

902
00:57:25,200 --> 00:57:29,560
Speaker 1: wasting your time on gossip sites, Stop wasting your time

903
00:57:29,600 --> 00:57:33,480
Speaker 1: finding judgments of others. Let's use this time. There are

904
00:57:33,520 --> 00:57:37,400
Speaker 1: so many tools and resources out there. When I tell you,

905
00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:42,200
Speaker 1: I was in therapy for years to understand certain pieces

906
00:57:42,880 --> 00:57:49,720
Speaker 1: of my childhood and my codependency and how I seem

907
00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:54,440
Speaker 1: to be a massive attractor for narcissists, it took me

908
00:57:54,640 --> 00:57:57,720
Speaker 1: years to figure that out about myself and the other

909
00:57:57,800 --> 00:58:04,040
Speaker 1: day I saw I saw this this aha moment that

910
00:58:04,120 --> 00:58:08,840
Speaker 1: took me years to know, plainly written out on an

911
00:58:08,880 --> 00:58:13,320
Speaker 1: Instagram post. Trust me, there's a lot of free tools

912
00:58:13,360 --> 00:58:18,040
Speaker 1: out there. These are really meaningful bits of knowledge and work,

913
00:58:18,480 --> 00:58:21,800
Speaker 1: and we have the ability to cultivate more tools than ever.

914
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Speaker 1: Let's be deliberate about it. So before I leave, we're

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Speaker 1: wrapping up right now. Before I leave, I want to

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Speaker 1: share two questions with you that I think could be

917
00:58:35,200 --> 00:58:38,360
Speaker 1: really interesting for you to journal about right now or

918
00:58:38,440 --> 00:58:42,680
Speaker 1: to just sit and thought with. And if you haven't yet,

919
00:58:42,720 --> 00:58:45,760
Speaker 1: I have UM a few meditations that I'm leading that

920
00:58:45,800 --> 00:58:50,680
Speaker 1: are available and a few different episodes breaking down some

921
00:58:50,720 --> 00:58:52,680
Speaker 1: of the thoughts that I talked about on here that

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00:58:52,720 --> 00:58:56,160
Speaker 1: are on my Instagram page at Debbie Brown in my

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Speaker 1: I G t V section. There's a lot of content

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00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:02,080
Speaker 1: in there. UM. But I have a couple of meditations

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00:59:02,120 --> 00:59:03,840
Speaker 1: and one of them I'm going to share on next

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Speaker 1: week's episode. But you know, take some time, whether it's

927
00:59:07,760 --> 00:59:10,560
Speaker 1: that you know, I no worries like you can also

928
00:59:10,600 --> 00:59:12,880
Speaker 1: be on the call map, you can be on I.

929
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Speaker 1: I personally really love the simple habit app um or

930
00:59:16,800 --> 00:59:18,680
Speaker 1: you can do what I think is the best option,

931
00:59:18,840 --> 00:59:22,240
Speaker 1: and to just sit in complete stillness and silence without

932
00:59:22,280 --> 00:59:25,120
Speaker 1: any prompts, and just spend time with with these next

933
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Speaker 1: two things I want to ask you. So one of

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Speaker 1: them is when you think about your life right now,

935
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Speaker 1: when you think about your experiences in this moment, I

936
00:59:34,120 --> 00:59:36,280
Speaker 1: want you to think a little more deeply, and I

937
00:59:36,320 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 1: want you to think, who am I being called to

938
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Speaker 1: become right now? Who is God calling me to become?

939
00:59:44,960 --> 00:59:48,880
Speaker 1: In this moment? An answer might come forward for you,

940
00:59:50,040 --> 00:59:52,440
Speaker 1: and also it may not, So don't try to rush

941
00:59:52,640 --> 00:59:55,920
Speaker 1: to fill that with any response that your mind can calculate.

942
00:59:56,160 --> 01:00:00,520
Speaker 1: Utilize that as a question that the divine an answer

943
01:00:00,600 --> 01:00:05,960
Speaker 1: for you at its pace. Over this quarantine, over this epidemic,

944
01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:10,640
Speaker 1: you know, who is God calling me to become? Right now?

945
01:00:12,200 --> 01:00:15,400
Speaker 1: The real truth of it is, we are all going

946
01:00:15,480 --> 01:00:22,160
Speaker 1: to come out of this so profoundly changed, changed, and

947
01:00:22,200 --> 01:00:25,680
Speaker 1: we are coming out of this into a world that

948
01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:30,360
Speaker 1: is forever changed. Are you going to walk out of

949
01:00:30,400 --> 01:00:33,040
Speaker 1: those doors when the time comes for us to be

950
01:00:33,160 --> 01:00:36,120
Speaker 1: set free? Are you going to walk out of those

951
01:00:36,160 --> 01:00:42,640
Speaker 1: doors as the same as seeing the world as the

952
01:00:42,680 --> 01:00:46,720
Speaker 1: same as seeing yourself as the same What a waste

953
01:00:46,760 --> 01:00:50,920
Speaker 1: that would be I've been doing this work and this

954
01:00:51,000 --> 01:00:54,840
Speaker 1: kind of excavation of self for so many years that

955
01:00:55,000 --> 01:00:59,080
Speaker 1: sometimes and it makes my head spin to really sit

956
01:00:59,120 --> 01:01:01,200
Speaker 1: in the knowing this that the work is never done.

957
01:01:01,680 --> 01:01:05,280
Speaker 1: It can be overwhelming, but I've done a considerable amount

958
01:01:05,280 --> 01:01:08,360
Speaker 1: of work. And it isn't just my heart's deepest desire

959
01:01:08,520 --> 01:01:13,400
Speaker 1: that I walk out of those doors having learned so

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Speaker 1: much more, having become so much more than I currently am,

961
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Speaker 1: having expanded my heart to a space that hasn't been yet.

962
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Speaker 1: And I'm currently walking through two very intense challenges. And

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Speaker 1: these are two things that I really am excited about

964
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Speaker 1: sharing with you guys. Um, They're very difficult, but there

965
01:01:36,240 --> 01:01:38,840
Speaker 1: are two very real challenges that have been happening to

966
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Speaker 1: me really in the span of this quarantine. Um that

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Speaker 1: I will be able to talk about more fully as

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Speaker 1: I continue to process them. Um. But yeah, I'm standing

969
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Speaker 1: in the depths of discomfort right now too. And I

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01:01:52,400 --> 01:01:55,880
Speaker 1: it is my deepest hope and desire that through my

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Speaker 1: deliberate action right now, in these moments, I will come

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Speaker 1: out on the other side of this so much more

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Speaker 1: than I currently am, for the highest good of myself

974
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Speaker 1: and all those connected to me. Second question, last question

975
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Speaker 1: to hold in your space of higher consciousness right now,

976
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Speaker 1: What are the parts of myself I've been avoiding and

977
01:02:18,440 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 1: how can I embrace them more fully? Really sit with that,

978
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Speaker 1: especially in the moments that things feel tight and uncomfortable

979
01:02:27,080 --> 01:02:31,720
Speaker 1: for you, especially if you're feeling really emotionally and physically

980
01:02:31,760 --> 01:02:36,439
Speaker 1: isolated right now, in those difficult moments where your heart

981
01:02:36,520 --> 01:02:41,400
Speaker 1: wants to constrict, I urge you to stretch it and

982
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:46,800
Speaker 1: really think, what parts of myself have I been avoiding?

983
01:02:48,600 --> 01:02:52,160
Speaker 1: That's the question to really utilize in service of your

984
01:02:52,240 --> 01:02:57,800
Speaker 1: highest good, to really utilize as a catalyst for radical

985
01:02:58,000 --> 01:03:02,480
Speaker 1: shifting and changing inside of your elf. What parts of

986
01:03:02,520 --> 01:03:07,280
Speaker 1: myself have I been avoiding? And how can I embrace

987
01:03:07,320 --> 01:03:11,680
Speaker 1: them more fully? Because it is okay to not have

988
01:03:11,760 --> 01:03:15,080
Speaker 1: it all together, It is okay to not know the answers.

989
01:03:16,720 --> 01:03:19,840
Speaker 1: It is okay to be flawed, to not be perfect.

990
01:03:22,080 --> 01:03:25,480
Speaker 1: But when you are in the pursuit of being whole,

991
01:03:26,760 --> 01:03:30,440
Speaker 1: you will recognize that you can love all the facets

992
01:03:30,480 --> 01:03:34,640
Speaker 1: of yourself at the exact same time. I can love

993
01:03:35,560 --> 01:03:38,760
Speaker 1: the shiniest pieces of me, and I can love the

994
01:03:38,840 --> 01:03:42,360
Speaker 1: tiny monsters inside of me. All the facets of who

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01:03:42,400 --> 01:03:44,880
Speaker 1: I am are worthy of my own attention and my

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01:03:44,920 --> 01:03:48,480
Speaker 1: own love. Al Right, guys, that's it for this episode.

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Speaker 1: I felt really good to talk to you. Thank you

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01:03:52,080 --> 01:03:55,240
Speaker 1: for listening. As always, I'm so grateful for any time

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Speaker 1: that you take to share this show, whether it's on

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01:03:58,240 --> 01:04:01,160
Speaker 1: social media, whether it's through a text message. Um, if

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01:04:01,200 --> 01:04:04,040
Speaker 1: you feel so called, if you connected with the show

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Speaker 1: in any way, share it with five friends on text today.

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Speaker 1: If you have a moment and you feel called, No pressure,

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Speaker 1: but it would mean the world if you left a

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Speaker 1: review and gave us a rating. I really appreciate you listening.

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Speaker 1: I really appreciate this being a safe space for all

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Speaker 1: of us to feel I love you, guys, stay open,

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Speaker 1: piece big. Thank you for listening to this episode of

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Speaker 1: The Dropping Gym's podcast. This show is executive produced by

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Speaker 1: Adrian Scott and me Debbie Brown. Our theme music was

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Speaker 1: created by producer Day One, and the poem that you

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Speaker 1: heard at the beginning of the show, well that was

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Speaker 1: created especially for us by award winning poet and Iambieca

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Speaker 1: for If you have a quick moment right now, please

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Speaker 1: hit subscribe on the show and if you like what

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Speaker 1: you heard, take it a step further. And give us

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Speaker 1: a five star rating. Until next time you connect with

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Speaker 1: me on I g at Debbie Brown or my website

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Speaker 1: Debbie brown dot com. Be blessed, do