Speaker 1: Guess what decision we're about to make. Horrible decision.
Speaker 2: So I like, guys, welcome to another episode of for
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Speaker 1: At toy bing Bno what that means, don't know, bitch.
Speaker 1: All of y'all welcome. Maybe that's what that means. All
Speaker 1: of y'all right stories like all y'all, Oh yeah, I
Speaker 1: knew that anyway.
Speaker 2: Any who, bitch, let's start with a little quick ketchup.
Speaker 2: I wanted to kind of do a little bit of
Speaker 2: two things I have been enjoying. I would say for
Speaker 2: this year, live music has been like feeding my soul,
Speaker 2: and so I had the wonderful opportunity of seeing Chris Brown.
Speaker 1: Not once, but twice, and I would just like.
Speaker 2: To say where I know I lead into this podcast
Speaker 2: as wanting a man who is very good looking. I
Speaker 2: realized my boundary with that, and it's because I went
Speaker 2: to a Chris Brown concert and I realized that he
Speaker 2: is a man that.
Speaker 1: Can change a bitch is tight.
Speaker 2: The way they look at him, the way he commanded
Speaker 2: a whole motherfucking room and had my homegirl, who don't
Speaker 2: like light skinn niggas with tattoos, be like, bitch, I'll
Speaker 2: give him some pussy. I realized that's the that's the stop.
Speaker 2: I want a man's so fine but not that powerful,
Speaker 2: like to where he could change a woman's type just
Speaker 2: because he's there. And it's been incredible to see that.
Speaker 2: And I want to say shout out to any woman
Speaker 2: who has the confidence and self esteem to deal with
Speaker 2: a fine ass nigga like that. And that's all I
Speaker 2: just realized.
Speaker 1: I don't want to ruin.
Speaker 2: It was in my head, what what uh, what's gonna
Speaker 2: be trigger warning? Uh? Oh, not saying I don't love
Speaker 2: Chris Brown's music, Okay, I didn't know how much I
Speaker 2: shouldn't be fucking with Chris Brown, okay, until the Diddy
Speaker 2: tape came out. And the reason I say that is
Speaker 2: because we saw that picture of Rihanna's face.
Speaker 1: Right, We ain't seen no video, okay.
Speaker 2: And if you can get someone's face to look like that,
Speaker 2: I know that video looks like Diddy shit.
Speaker 1: Okay. So if a nigga's that violent, can.
Speaker 2: I really fuck with that niggam?
Speaker 1: I ain't gon you.
Speaker 2: That's where I'll be a hypocrite. I'm sorry. I refused
Speaker 2: to cancel Chris Brown, and to me both the thing
Speaker 2: he has to be canceled, but the way that we're
Speaker 2: treating Diddy because of what we saw. If we saw
Speaker 2: what he did, Torianna, if that video came out today,
Speaker 2: we already saw the phone. If we got to see
Speaker 2: his actions like we saw Diddy, could you feel the same.
Speaker 2: So so for me personally when it comes to that,
Speaker 2: and that let me know I judged them differently, right,
Speaker 2: and that's what made me feel like, oh well, maybe
Speaker 2: I shouldn't.
Speaker 1: So there's differences there though.
Speaker 2: A there's an age difference in the age that Chris
Speaker 2: Brown was when that took place and the age that
Speaker 2: Diddy was when that took place.
Speaker 1: There is also.
Speaker 2: Commentary from both of them one moment that she was
Speaker 2: the aggressor first in that car. She also forgave him
Speaker 2: and even went back years later. So to me, because
Speaker 2: there was so much time yas he did too well,
Speaker 2: Cassie stayed in the relationship. She never went back once
Speaker 2: she left. She never went back for a minute though, right.
Speaker 2: But what I'm saying is there was forgiveness by Rihanna.
Speaker 2: There was also the fact that both of the girl
Speaker 2: she said she said courtside with that, she.
Speaker 1: She literally went no, no, no, no, no no. She went
Speaker 1: back to him. He showed up.
Speaker 2: On Christmas court side with her at a Lakers game
Speaker 2: while he was with Krucci.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't think that's going back.
Speaker 2: And they were just no, they went back to they
Speaker 2: were back together, Okay, greely, Yeah, they got back together
Speaker 2: and she literally had to tell all interview about it.
Speaker 2: And she also admitted to being physically violent to him
Speaker 2: as well. And so I just think they were both
Speaker 2: very young, and to me, he's I don't want to say,
Speaker 2: served his time, but for the things that he's done
Speaker 2: since then, I listen.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, I know he did it again. Listen.
Speaker 1: I don't care. I'm a hypocrite that man for his talent.
Speaker 2: Had he not made those mistake, I do think he
Speaker 2: would have been the next motherfucking Michael Jackson. All I
Speaker 2: know is the way that he performs and the way
Speaker 2: women's bodies react.
Speaker 1: To it is powerful, That's all.
Speaker 2: I don't think people sit here and look at Chris
Speaker 2: Brown and immediately be like, oh, but what he did
Speaker 2: uh twelve years ago?
Speaker 1: Now I can't look and.
Speaker 2: Seeing this man a tune comes on, I'm gonna be
Speaker 2: like fifteen the fuck Like, I don't know. It's hard,
Speaker 2: right because he's become such a part of like what
Speaker 2: we listen to.
Speaker 1: But nah, that shit.
Speaker 2: Really, I'm not joking because Chris Brown has been one
Speaker 2: of those for me where I'm like, well, she forgave him.
Speaker 2: That's what I always say, right my brain to feel better.
Speaker 2: But after the Diddy video, I was like, do like
Speaker 2: because I kind of forgot about Diddy and Cassie and
Speaker 2: I kind of forget about Rihanna. But I'm gonna be honest,
Speaker 2: I fuck with Rihanna way harder than I do Chris Brown.
Speaker 2: I think she's way more important for me and pactically
Speaker 2: probably on some black girls shit, just whatever, how I
Speaker 2: envision a woman billionaire, I think she's dope. So it's like, fuck,
Speaker 2: I have way more respect for Rihanna. Also, I just know.
Speaker 1: I also just know I'm a hypocrite, but I'm human.
Speaker 2: I don't fucked up in the past, and I don't
Speaker 2: forgave niggas other niggas.
Speaker 1: That Benet fucked up in the past. I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: hold a niggas to the cross forever. I'm just not.
Speaker 1: I'm just not. And for me his artistry. Do you
Speaker 1: think he could come back to me? I don't think
Speaker 1: that he could come back. I don't think that he
Speaker 1: could come back.
Speaker 2: That's but no video. But no, that's the video. But
Speaker 2: that's the thing too, it's not only the video to me.
Speaker 2: And I've said this like just from a business perspective too.
Speaker 2: Did he has done bad by so many people, not
Speaker 2: only in his personal relationships but business wise. Bitch Allegedly
Speaker 2: he had something to do with the killing them.
Speaker 1: You know, I ain't, but Nigga was. Nigga said cars
Speaker 1: to be blown.
Speaker 2: Up and ship I think he done just did so
Speaker 2: much bad ship. This is karma coming back to him.
Speaker 2: I think a lot of us fail and show up
Speaker 2: in toxic ways and relationships. I think a lot of
Speaker 2: us make mistakes in relationship, and I think that over time,
Speaker 2: if you've learned from it, if you can't again, I ain't.
Speaker 2: I ain't sleeping with the man. I don't know how
Speaker 2: he shows up currently. Yes, we know he got to
Speaker 2: restrain in order to so, yes, I'm aware of all
Speaker 2: this shit.
Speaker 1: Okay, but I said, but boy can God damn step.
Speaker 2: Boy can he? I ain't gonna that March madness black backslip.
Speaker 2: I can't hear that, babe be But the way that
Speaker 2: man shows up, and I mean, I guess we brought
Speaker 2: up Chris Brown and Rihanna with the double back. I
Speaker 2: do just want to say, y'all, it is the season
Speaker 2: of the double back. I don't know why these niggas
Speaker 2: just can't leave us a loon, ladies, but be strong.
Speaker 2: I wanted to talk to you a little bit about
Speaker 2: that because I'm allowing the idea of double backs with
Speaker 2: a few people. So twenty two year old back in
Speaker 2: the picture by next month. I'll let you know if
Speaker 2: you come over and we make that up. Uh, y'all
Speaker 2: can listen on Patreon to it.
Speaker 1: Uh that.
Speaker 2: But someone else recently came back and did the double back,
Speaker 2: and I realized where normally we advise like women to
Speaker 2: not allow a man to come back, I sat with
Speaker 2: it and realized I am such a different person from
Speaker 2: my twenties that I do believe in timing of things,
Speaker 2: and so where someone can be an awful person like
Speaker 2: a Chris Brown, like we talked about a shitty like
Speaker 2: hourcent a day and all, well, to me, toxicity, I
Speaker 2: mean toxicity abuse.
Speaker 1: There's layers to it, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: And so I wanted to ask you in terms of
Speaker 2: a double back, A, if you've ever done it? But
Speaker 2: B do you believe that if you dated someone in
Speaker 2: your teens or twenties that trying it again in your
Speaker 2: thirties or forties will result in a different outcome.
Speaker 1: Do you think it's healthy to revisit it?
Speaker 2: I think that double backs are only good if distance, time,
Speaker 2: and like or something was another factor. I think that
Speaker 2: most times that I've done back, or that my friends have,
Speaker 2: it never ends well. If they it was because someone
Speaker 2: did it's okay, okay. However, when I've heard of people
Speaker 2: getting married later it's always like, oh, we went our
Speaker 2: separate ways, went out to college. It just wasn't working
Speaker 2: well when there's like you fucked me over?
Speaker 1: Nah?
Speaker 2: Okay, so only you making that up? Ah, But do
Speaker 2: you think that has to do with the fact right right?
Speaker 2: It's different than fucking up? But do you feel like
Speaker 2: that's because do you genuinely feel like people don't know
Speaker 2: how to forgive?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 2: I just kind of think people don't necessarily change that
Speaker 2: much really.
Speaker 1: Which I feel like I changed a whole lot from
Speaker 1: my twenties.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but like night and day, you're still you, right,
Speaker 2: Like you still have the same personality people. When me
Speaker 2: and you had dinner just when horrible started, I was like,
Speaker 2: oh my god, wow, Like it's like nothing changed, right.
Speaker 1: But of course you were were.
Speaker 2: Here's what I mean, it's coming in my head because
Speaker 2: the whole girl min had this happened. Okay, moved to
Speaker 2: La double back from me, nigga now that she's back
Speaker 2: on the East coast. Okay, she felt like he was
Speaker 2: not a what was the word. It wasn't romantic, but
Speaker 2: like girl, he just didn't know how to do shit
Speaker 2: for me. He just didn't know how to be a man.
Speaker 2: For me, he was just da da da da da.
Speaker 2: That's why he broke up a minute ago. I didn't
Speaker 2: know them back then, but that's what she told me.
Speaker 2: Ain't that the same problem now? He did it in
Speaker 2: the beginning but then fell off. And so to me,
Speaker 2: that type of thing, right, even a sneaky person, if
Speaker 2: a nigga is sneaky, I don't know if he ever.
Speaker 1: Gonna not be sneaky. I think you just don't lose that. Okay.
Speaker 2: Now maybe lying like maybe that could change, because sometimes
Speaker 2: we don't know how to communicate. But like there's certain
Speaker 2: things about a person that I don't always think will change, okay,
Speaker 2: like learning lessons like okay, what's your biggest learning lesson
Speaker 2: as a friend?
Speaker 1: You had to say?
Speaker 2: Over ten years? For example, for me, I learned I
Speaker 2: need to check on my friends way more.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: It was very difficult for me when I first moved
Speaker 2: to New York when I had friends in Florida to
Speaker 2: think about them, not like they were I was forgetting them,
Speaker 2: but I was just like, well we're apart.
Speaker 1: That doesn't mean anything.
Speaker 2: I should have definitely have checked all my friends more, Okay,
Speaker 2: now I make sure to do that, sending texts and
Speaker 2: engaging with them and letting them know they're cared about.
Speaker 2: I was really bad at that. Okay, that to me
Speaker 2: is something I was able to fix and change. That
Speaker 2: ain't my personality. I'm a loving person. I mean, I
Speaker 2: think that you wanting to double back to a person
Speaker 2: though you like. I'm not saying a personality should change
Speaker 2: at all, but the characteristics of how not the characteristics even,
Speaker 2: but maybe their habits, the ways in which you show
Speaker 2: up in the again, the way you just acknowledge, how
Speaker 2: you show up differently in now your relationships with your
Speaker 2: friends is what I would assume a man would do
Speaker 2: in his thirties or forties.
Speaker 1: Well, we would have to show issue for you.
Speaker 2: What do you mean what is the particular double back
Speaker 2: issue for me? What do you mean by why did
Speaker 2: it end? Could you such a double bitch?
Speaker 1: Because that nigga proposed to another bitch?
Speaker 2: Well get into it, and clearly the engagement didn't work.
Speaker 2: So so now he tried to double back. But can
Speaker 2: I also say something about that? Yeah, no, that's a
Speaker 2: crazy double back that you answer your question, that's a
Speaker 2: crazy double back. So so clearly that didn't work but
Speaker 2: was crazy is when he came back. I know I'm
Speaker 2: a different person and there were some things that I expected.
Speaker 2: Do you know how upset I got at the beach.
Speaker 1: Again? Hold on and I know you laughing.
Speaker 2: Well, here's the thing, and this is gonna be a
Speaker 2: real toxic tape if you come back to me as
Speaker 2: kind of the same type of nigga, Like here we go.
Speaker 1: Here's the example. Flowers.
Speaker 2: Y'all know how I feel about my motherfucker flowers. If
Speaker 2: you go five six years without talking to me and
Speaker 2: we're now talking and I'm talking about how like flowers
Speaker 2: and you have no idea how to order flowers on line?
Speaker 2: Now I'm mad at your bitch, because what the fuck
Speaker 2: was this bitch demanding or requiring or asking of you
Speaker 2: as a man for showing up to her as a woman.
Speaker 2: I think that when you're in long term relationships, if
Speaker 2: there's a ring involved, if you're with a man over
Speaker 2: two three years, there's certain things that should come with
Speaker 2: being in a relationship that should now become like second
Speaker 2: nature or secondhand, like without a thought. And so if
Speaker 2: you would have bitch that didn't even require this, now
Speaker 2: I'm kind of mad at the bitch because you're supposed
Speaker 2: to come to me as a better nigga, because you
Speaker 2: done have had a bitch for all this time. If
Speaker 2: that you look like you don't agree with what the
Speaker 2: fuck I'm saying, like the way that.
Speaker 1: You are when he just came back through some tech and.
Speaker 2: Don't matter, no, but that's what I don't give a fuck.
Speaker 2: You could come back for two hours, nigga, whant my
Speaker 2: flowers that? But to me, like the same way you
Speaker 2: said wy when you and old Bay broke up, you
Speaker 2: were like, damn, I know he moves different now because
Speaker 2: of me. I know he could do this better now
Speaker 2: because of me. Bitch, y'all look like, what the fuck
Speaker 2: did this? This? Why this bitch ain't improve you? Listen,
Speaker 2: I'm a little annoyed. I was so validated when I
Speaker 2: found out he's still a hope, you know, I mean,
Speaker 2: but that other thing. Certain things they're gonna change. But
Speaker 2: you know, maybe now you know how to make an
Speaker 2: avocado toast, bitch, because you was making you were putting
Speaker 2: on with avocados, hope, put the little radishes. This shit. Yup, bro,
Speaker 2: If you go be in a relationship for a certain
Speaker 2: amount of time, you should be with a person that
Speaker 2: makes you a better person or a better partner. And
Speaker 2: now I'm mad at who the fuck you done wiped
Speaker 2: up for all that time because that bitch ain't even
Speaker 2: make you a better nigga. That's why they work. You
Speaker 2: can't be with a person that's not gonna make you
Speaker 2: a better person. So for you to come back and
Speaker 2: still kind of like not be a better person, I'm like,
Speaker 2: I'm mad.
Speaker 1: At this bitch. I want to talk to and be like, bitch,
Speaker 1: what the fuck was you all this? Nigga don't know one.
Speaker 2: Eight hundred flowers, but this is not it's not even that.
Speaker 2: Maybe it's just for certain men. They feel like certain
Speaker 2: levels of things are for a certain stage in the relationship. Nah,
Speaker 2: that nigga said flowers, But how am I going to?
Speaker 2: He said, I'll be picking them up from kroker. Nigga,
Speaker 2: If you don't know how to order flowers online when
Speaker 2: you are out of it, bitch about to be thirty seven? Baby,
Speaker 2: You you a millennial. You grew up in the era
Speaker 2: of even coding your MySpace page. Nigga, You about to
Speaker 2: know how the motherfucker ordered he if.
Speaker 1: You wanted to order Flowers.
Speaker 2: He would, he would, he would, That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: So that's where I'm like, I'm mad at him, but
Speaker 2: also I'm also mad at him, but also mad at her.
Speaker 1: I know you fucking you feel me?
Speaker 2: Yeah? No, So that's why he cut off. And that's
Speaker 2: why ladies ray, he's cut off. Oh I cut him off.
Speaker 2: Oh I cut him off two days ago because of Flowers.
Speaker 2: I said, well, no, and you coming back in my
Speaker 2: life and you went ghosts for a couple of days.
Speaker 1: No, I'm good going. You don't. Yeah, you don't get
Speaker 1: to do that to me.
Speaker 2: I think ghosts is different from well and ghosting is
Speaker 2: in I know, I know you took a shit. I
Speaker 2: know you sat in the car. I know you were
Speaker 2: to light. I know you had to lay in bed
Speaker 2: and scroll on your social media if you could go.
Speaker 2: If you're trying to come back into my life and
Speaker 2: you're keeping me on the phone for hours.
Speaker 1: Did he leave you and answer? What was the ghost? No?
Speaker 1: The ghost was like literally yeah, like okay, damn, did
Speaker 1: you didn't even get a good morning?
Speaker 2: No? I hit him because I hit him last Yeah,
Speaker 2: what'd you say?
Speaker 1: What you're doing? Well? What about you? We did like
Speaker 1: the exchange of what you're doing with the what about you?
Speaker 2: Was the last That was Saturday at twelve twenty eight pm.
Speaker 2: By Tuesday, I said, you know what, I really hope
Speaker 2: you the best. I hope you find genuine love. Everyone
Speaker 2: deserves that. I no longer want to do this game
Speaker 2: with you because to me, going three days without talking
Speaker 2: to me spoke loud and clear. But you do not
Speaker 2: get to just come into my life and string my
Speaker 2: emotions when you want to do. You no longer have
Speaker 2: that power.
Speaker 1: From one I agree with you. Did you think that?
Speaker 2: Did he think it was just a sexual relationship again?
Speaker 2: Because you initially right? Yeah, but I had already told
Speaker 2: him that wasn't it. There there were feelings involved. This
Speaker 2: isn't a friendship. We were lovers, Like, this isn't that
Speaker 2: you don't get to just I don't even want to
Speaker 2: talk to you as a friend because Nigga was hurt
Speaker 2: in our last interaction. So I was like, I'm I'm
Speaker 2: actually good on this. Like to me, that's what my
Speaker 2: assertiveness and boundaries looks like right now, Like you're either
Speaker 2: gonna show up and be different and treat me the
Speaker 2: way I want to be treated You don't get to
Speaker 2: come and talk to me because you bored, or because
Speaker 2: you horny, or because you saw I glued up on
Speaker 2: the motherfucker internet.
Speaker 1: Good glued up, glued and and did so to me.
Speaker 2: If you're gonna do the double back, there has to
Speaker 2: be changed behavior almost out the gate. Not that it's
Speaker 2: love bombing, not that, not on no shit like that.
Speaker 1: But if you're gonna double back.
Speaker 2: To somebody, it can't be just to get into the
Speaker 2: same limbo ass space that you were in prior. It
Speaker 2: has to be with intention. Otherwise, baby, stay over there,
Speaker 2: go to another bitch.
Speaker 1: I mean, I think my.
Speaker 2: Double backs honestly, because they all come back. They all
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, is always really never know how a nigga
Speaker 2: hear me back, but i' and this is not on
Speaker 2: some cocky shit. I think the lamest bitch has a
Speaker 2: nigga hit. I got a double bank. I say that
Speaker 2: to say when my double backs come, I mainly cut
Speaker 2: men off because they weren't ready for something serious. If
Speaker 2: I was, if we were just fucking, I'll probably never
Speaker 2: cut you off. I'll just probably go through this phase
Speaker 2: of I got a man, now I'm dating someone I
Speaker 2: like now right up, and down. But long story short,
Speaker 2: my double backs look like men that are ready for
Speaker 2: relationships now. And what I had realized was super toxic
Speaker 2: about that is many of these men tried it with
Speaker 2: another woman and it didn't work out, and I'm their
Speaker 2: second option. And that's really why double backs hadn't worked
Speaker 2: for me. I don't mean to make you feel like that.
Speaker 2: I mean, but he chose when it didn't work. Is
Speaker 2: that it's not this realization you had, you know what
Speaker 2: I'm saying. It's literally just like I'll never forget it either,
Speaker 2: because I'm gonna be like, where the fuck was you
Speaker 2: the last two years? But see, that's where I think
Speaker 2: I led with. I understand being but he was already
Speaker 2: in something with her well, and we both would That's
Speaker 2: why when she had with her. No, they didn't live
Speaker 2: together at the time. I thought you said they lived together.
Speaker 1: No, he wasn't even staying there full time. Yet he
Speaker 1: was still in the league. Okay, I'm sorry. I thought
Speaker 1: they were living Now he was next week.
Speaker 2: He proposed if they didn't even have a crib together, Well,
Speaker 2: that's when he was still in the league.
Speaker 1: He's not in the league anymore.
Speaker 2: So he lived, he lived somewhere during the summer and
Speaker 2: didn't when the when the.
Speaker 1: Season was on.
Speaker 2: So when he wasn't living he I mean during the summer.
Speaker 2: Oh they lived two months together if that. But no,
Speaker 2: she had a family, so it wasn't that she's still at.
Speaker 1: Her own place. He had a place.
Speaker 2: They spent a lot of time together. I don't want
Speaker 2: to put that much of their goddamn information out there,
Speaker 2: but they did not live together because during his career
Speaker 2: he lived somewhere else. One relationship was progressing more than
Speaker 2: the other. It sounds like their relationship was more progressive
Speaker 2: than us. But of course I didn't live in the
Speaker 2: same city necessarily choosing someone to me.
Speaker 1: It is already no, no, no, no.
Speaker 2: If y'all listen to it on Patreon, that one percent
Speaker 2: is choosing because but she hit my line. She knew
Speaker 2: how I was in the picture and when she hit
Speaker 2: my line, right, so she hit my line about him
Speaker 2: because we were still seeing each other. We had a
Speaker 2: whole fucking vacation planned Hilton, and literally she.
Speaker 1: Hit my fucking phone. How often were you seeing him
Speaker 1: at that time? Though? It's enough enough because.
Speaker 2: Many another one is spending their off time in the
Speaker 2: season and damn near living with somebody.
Speaker 1: He didn't choose her over you. He was already in
Speaker 1: a different place. You said that, That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I don't feel like I was chosen, And that's why
Speaker 2: to me, it's not me being the second option. We're
Speaker 2: not saying the same thing here. I don't think I
Speaker 2: was a second option. He even him coming back. I
Speaker 2: understand their relationship was way more than what mine was.
Speaker 1: At the time. That's why I don't feel like a
Speaker 1: second option.
Speaker 2: I feel like her, whatever ultimatum she gave, whatever relationship
Speaker 2: they had, it made sense me at twenty eight d
Speaker 2: you know what I mean, whatever, because clearly you know
Speaker 2: he felt pressured into it at the time. That's fine,
Speaker 2: But but I don't feel like the second option because
Speaker 2: at twenty eight years old, I was not at all
Speaker 2: in a place where I could have been anyone's fiance
Speaker 2: or girlfriend or wife. We didn't even live in the
Speaker 2: same place, so I wasn't ready to be that for
Speaker 2: him anyways. So with this double back, it looks like,
Speaker 2: actually he's now retired, I'm in a different place in
Speaker 2: my life. Financially, we have the potential to possibly move
Speaker 2: be living in the same city. Now it made sense
Speaker 2: for me in this world.
Speaker 1: At twenty eight. All right, well, I guess we ain't
Speaker 1: gonna fuck no more.
Speaker 2: I think the larger thing about it, too, is like,
Speaker 2: do you want a data nigga? That really was carrying
Speaker 2: on with two women and having two emotions like that
Speaker 2: is because I am non monogamous now and so him
Speaker 2: having another. But he's not non monogamous, he's a liar.
Speaker 2: Well that's a different for me and him. Well, me
Speaker 2: and him, we didn't have that set up. I don't
Speaker 2: know even what their engagement was set up.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Man, regardless, girl calls you regardless.
Speaker 2: We are all learning now again, he's thirty seven now,
Speaker 2: he's not thirty one, so I'm about to be thirty four.
Speaker 1: I'm not twenty eight anymore.
Speaker 2: So I didn't know what a fucking ethical, nonm monogamous
Speaker 2: relationship looked like to my ex. So when I say
Speaker 2: we're in different places, cool, he was lying to her
Speaker 2: five six years ago. That doesn't mean if we get
Speaker 2: into a relationship that that can't be our true.
Speaker 1: But did you not feel lied to? Also? No, bitch,
Speaker 1: because we both know about each other. That's why when
Speaker 1: she hit me, bitch, old about someone. That's different from
Speaker 1: proposing to that girl the next week. But you.
Speaker 2: If you knew he was going to propose to her
Speaker 2: in a week, bitch, I don't gone on vacations with niggas
Speaker 2: who was already married.
Speaker 1: But just answer that question.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, he proposed to her after. So that's the
Speaker 2: that's the hurtful part of it. She hit my phone
Speaker 2: and I was like, bitch, you know me, I know you, bitch.
Speaker 1: Neither of us got a ring. That was what I
Speaker 1: told her when she hit me. Woman a woman boom
Speaker 1: got a ring the next week.
Speaker 2: So it wasn't a plan at the time. No again,
Speaker 2: like that's why I know. There was an ultimatum game.
Speaker 2: Like she was like, bitch, you got bitch's question, and
Speaker 2: where I sing with you? Cause I ain't got this
Speaker 2: I I I that's where he chose to be. Again,
Speaker 2: I don't feel like him coming back because the engagement
Speaker 2: didn't work out.
Speaker 1: That damn I'm a second option.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: There's many niggas there and I'm here for it.
Speaker 2: Like to me, I actually was. I would like a
Speaker 2: man to be like, Okay, you chose somebody. I'm not
Speaker 2: mad at that.
Speaker 1: I can't be mad at that because I wasn't ready.
Speaker 1: I don't think I would.
Speaker 2: Have accepted that for me up and ended up fucked
Speaker 2: up because I remember when OLDBA and I, it wasn't ultimating.
Speaker 2: It was just like I ain't show but you ain't
Speaker 2: my name, I ain't fucking with you, saying like it
Speaker 2: wasn't you have.
Speaker 1: To do this more than I was like, I'll let
Speaker 1: you go because.
Speaker 2: I'm like like like to me, I guess that is ultimating.
Speaker 2: But to me, that's where I feel like in terms
Speaker 2: of a double back to wrap this up, I understand
Speaker 2: that who I was five six years ago was not
Speaker 2: ready for a relationship, was not ready to be in
Speaker 2: a space where I felt confident showing up financially by myself.
Speaker 2: I don't think shit, I may have just gotten my
Speaker 2: weight loss surgery, so I wasn't the most confident who
Speaker 2: I am now and what I've experienced through even the
Speaker 2: three years of therapy that I just had would show
Speaker 2: up completely different in partnership. So knowing that he's gone
Speaker 2: through therapy, knowing that there's been so much time between us,
Speaker 2: I'm always open to seeing the version of what someone
Speaker 2: is later down the line, and I think I would
Speaker 2: have gotten over that hurt from that moment if he
Speaker 2: showed up as a new and improved version of himself.
Speaker 1: That bitch ain't teach him shit. So there's that.
Speaker 2: For the Vanilla Ship, only because so many of you
Speaker 2: guys have been asking for us to talk a little
Speaker 2: bit about it. As you guys know, baby, this is
Speaker 2: an election year, so I wanted to talk about some
Speaker 2: of the sex in the news for our Vanilla Ship
Speaker 2: as it pertains to the election and political landscape of
Speaker 2: the goddamn country right now. The republic Convention National Convention
Speaker 2: took place a couple of weeks ago, and I find
Speaker 2: I found it hilarious because they're still conservative that the
Speaker 2: gay Hookup Grinder experienced outages, kind of like this goddamn
Speaker 2: Delta shit in all the airlines, but they experienced outages
Speaker 2: due to high volume usage. Users reported more than a
Speaker 2: thousand issues using the app due to an unprecedented amount
Speaker 2: of traffic in Milwaukee, where the republic National Convention was
Speaker 2: being held. Former drag Queen Congressman George Santos referred to
Speaker 2: the Republican National Convention as the Grinder Olympics.
Speaker 1: I wanted to.
Speaker 2: I found that to be funny because clearly the Republicans,
Speaker 2: if you guys are not familiar with that party, are
Speaker 2: the ones that normally fight against the rights of gay
Speaker 2: marriages and gay relationships.
Speaker 1: The Republicans didn't have this.
Speaker 2: For example, years ago, on the show, we had an
Speaker 2: episode about players, a friend of mine named Anthony came on.
Speaker 2: He's super fun perto Rican Italian dude, just very old
Speaker 2: school New York. He's a Republican. He was one of
Speaker 2: those Republicans I met for the first time in my life,
Speaker 2: was like, oh, you.
Speaker 1: Bought that bread?
Speaker 2: Like He's like, I don't even a fuck. Who's fucking
Speaker 2: who sucking?
Speaker 1: Who?
Speaker 2: Like, get me my motherfucking flat tax bitch. That was
Speaker 2: kind of like his brain right. And I wonder if
Speaker 2: the rhetoric that we know about Republicans today is really
Speaker 2: because the party changed. Even when I was younger, I
Speaker 2: don't necessarily remember all of this homophobia, all this racism,
Speaker 2: and I never really understood that, maybe because I was younger.
Speaker 2: But what I've seen today from Republicans is totally different
Speaker 2: what I thought it was when I was a kid,
Speaker 2: really in what ways? And again it's the era maybe
Speaker 2: of social media too. But it feels like when we
Speaker 2: even say the word Republican, we're talking about someone who's like,
Speaker 2: I hate the Jews type person, right, you know what
Speaker 2: I'm saying, I hate the Blacks.
Speaker 1: Like That's what it feels like.
Speaker 2: It feels like you're on the wrong side if you're
Speaker 2: not a liberal person, because we want freedom for everybody.
Speaker 2: It's almost like you can't leave a Republican feels like that.
Speaker 2: I think that's my problem right now with where we're
Speaker 2: at with who to vote for. I think it feels
Speaker 2: like that because Trump has been so vocal on building
Speaker 2: the wall and black jobs. I did remember the ship
Speaker 2: with John McCain when Obama and John McCain.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I mean, even to be to be fair, I know
Speaker 2: Kanye came out and said George Bush don't like black people,
Speaker 2: but that only had to do I think with Katrina
Speaker 2: what happened with her Kane Katrina in New Orleans.
Speaker 1: But again, outside of that being said, I again I.
Speaker 2: Agree, but I really do not remember. Yeah, do I
Speaker 2: ever remember that what with John m kame Nobama? Don't
Speaker 2: no like the conversation, find very poised. Remember the way
Speaker 2: that he was like congratulating Obama. It didn't feel this.
Speaker 2: It felt like politics. Yeah, and now it's a fucking joke.
Speaker 2: It is like, well, it's not really a joke, and
Speaker 2: we'll get into why it's important to vote obviously. But
Speaker 2: when I say a joke like the circus I watch,
Speaker 2: you know, literally, I woke up from a long nap
Speaker 2: sitting on a couch. If my nigga heard the Shade
Speaker 2: Room just RNC, he said, are you watching SNL?
Speaker 1: Is this a skinny? Is real? How do you know
Speaker 1: it's real? He said it like five times. It's ridiculous,
Speaker 1: No way, what the fuck?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's ridiculous. Now what's on the contrary, the other
Speaker 2: day I saw he called Kamala a dummis a box
Speaker 2: of rocks. I'm watching Charleston White call her a black bitch.
Speaker 2: I'm like, yo, what what the fuck is going on?
Speaker 2: And there is literally to me, when I was a kid,
Speaker 2: I thought presidential shit meant it's poised, it's refined, it's
Speaker 2: this and not because it was white. I believe that
Speaker 2: through and through that the definition of like class to me,
Speaker 2: when I think about someone that has literally the attitude
Speaker 2: of power and elegance. It's rocking, Michelle. I do not
Speaker 2: see that at all with anyone else. I always kind
Speaker 2: of thought, this is what we're supposed to look like.
Speaker 2: How do you lead a country but you look a
Speaker 2: fucking mess. I mean, that's the thing too. Right now,
Speaker 2: the the attention on her being a black woman is
Speaker 2: frustrating only because I want to add, and I know
Speaker 2: we talked about homo homophobia as it relates to the
Speaker 2: Republican Party, but Kamala currently is seriously considering Pete but.
Speaker 1: A guy, which is crazy, but he is gay.
Speaker 2: And so the fact that we have this this landscape
Speaker 2: of a country that is fucking racist and is fucking homophobic.
Speaker 2: The fact that I'm also hearing black people like, no,
Speaker 2: she has to get the straightest of.
Speaker 1: A white man.
Speaker 2: She needs mayonnaise next to her to have a chance,
Speaker 2: It's frustrating that. Damn there's even internal like people don't
Speaker 2: understand how much they're internalizing their fear of just allowing
Speaker 2: someone who is just being rational. No, no, no, people cannot
Speaker 2: handle a black woman leading the country.
Speaker 1: Next to a white gay man.
Speaker 2: That's probably and so I'm just like, damn, you said,
Speaker 2: what they're gonna give us a little bit of if
Speaker 2: someone at blackface, that's who they're gonna make the bet
Speaker 2: VP make what she feel like.
Speaker 1: He's white enough, No, no way, but he's gay. Let
Speaker 1: me tell you.
Speaker 2: There would have been two presidents or could be okay,
Speaker 2: that I think would have been American history's greatest, most
Speaker 2: revolutionary for hours time. Okay, as far as pushing rights
Speaker 2: and culture forward, Hillary and who.
Speaker 1: Else not Hillary?
Speaker 2: No, Bernie Sanders, Okay, would have been an amazing fucking president.
Speaker 1: You know. The only thing about.
Speaker 2: Bernie he was already looking a little shaky, like the
Speaker 2: way we we say oh no, no, that.
Speaker 1: That nigga looked like he was about to.
Speaker 2: Quot Bernie didn't give a fuck about the Galla shit.
Speaker 2: He didn't give a fuck about what people thought about.
Speaker 1: He was just so for people to.
Speaker 2: Me in a democracy that I want to be in,
Speaker 2: which obviously under this Trump regime, which I would call it,
Speaker 2: we won't have that anymore.
Speaker 1: But we'll talk about that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but Bernie would have been really that white nigga
Speaker 2: secondary to that who I would pray for as president
Speaker 2: in the future. And I have a lot of faith.
Speaker 2: Wes Moore, Governor of Maryland, Wow, we want to have
Speaker 2: another Obama. We probably won't, but he could come close.
Speaker 2: That to me is exactly what we need. Like he
Speaker 2: is an amazing man and a great example of how
Speaker 2: you can do for your people and still still have
Speaker 2: that What do white people say, like for the law?
Speaker 2: What's that thing they be saying when we Republicans also say.
Speaker 1: Like law and order? Oh, still has that law and
Speaker 1: order vibe?
Speaker 2: Obama did too, But no, I just don't really feel
Speaker 2: like the options that we've been for Senator Good.
Speaker 1: I also want to.
Speaker 2: Urge and encourage any of you where y'all know we
Speaker 2: Floridians and Baby I was scared as fuck for that
Speaker 2: nigga to have destantus as his VP. He somehow has
Speaker 2: found someone that is worse, especially for us as women.
Speaker 2: Jd Vance, I want you to do your research on him.
Speaker 2: He about to turn this into the Handmaid's Tales.
Speaker 1: So when y'all are.
Speaker 2: Talking about again, when we talk about the landscape right
Speaker 2: now being seeming so much more chopping in terms of racism, homophobia,
Speaker 2: and these lines being drawn in it being scary, this
Speaker 2: man ain't ain't for ain't for women's rights. And I
Speaker 2: think that if you had to decide. I know it's
Speaker 2: again the lesser of the two evils to me, ladies,
Speaker 2: if y'all don't want to sit here and either be
Speaker 2: what is it Commander's Wives, Handmaid's Tales, the Jizebels, and
Speaker 2: there's one more category, baby Watch Handmaid's Tales. Only other issue, too,
Speaker 2: is that what's happened in this era of Republican shit?
Speaker 2: Right right when I again was growing up and I
Speaker 2: may be too young to know too much of this,
Speaker 2: but Republicans were more about I feel like the conversation
Speaker 2: was about lot, how much welfare was so and so
Speaker 2: get how much taxes do we give the poor? Like
Speaker 2: That's what it kind of felt like. Right, I'm building
Speaker 2: a business. I want to keep my money. And then
Speaker 2: the Democrats were like, hey, we don't gotten to im
Speaker 2: pour that motherfucker down.
Speaker 1: That's what I thought it was.
Speaker 2: Today constant conversation is conservative bringing back certain policies, overturning things.
Speaker 2: And what I have learned is that our twenty twenty
Speaker 2: four world in the US is way too much for
Speaker 2: what the conservatives want. It's another binary tool. They don't
Speaker 2: seen too many trans girls on TV, gay dads kissing
Speaker 2: they're trying to take us that is off. So that
Speaker 2: is why it is so important, because even if you're
Speaker 2: not gay or non binary, or trance or even don't
Speaker 2: give a fuck right knowing that our world and our
Speaker 2: freedoms can be taken from us. So the people that
Speaker 2: can't live their lives freely, that's a problem. I told you,
Speaker 2: I'm scared as hell about to move to Georgia. I'm
Speaker 2: have to get my abortions on the weekends I fly
Speaker 2: back into New York. You know what I meant, an
Speaker 2: abortion girl gotta get a boot. People to jay before
Speaker 2: we get to our horrible decision, which is my most
Speaker 2: recent bitch, that's my most recent escapade to the sex club.
Speaker 2: I wanted to go ahead and help everyone out with
Speaker 2: some more science. Ain't benefits of eating the poussis? Okay,
Speaker 2: here we go. Y'all loved the dick sucking science, So
Speaker 2: here we go with ways in which it is healthy
Speaker 2: for you to eat the cooch. It can promote beard
Speaker 2: out bellas Hey, you having a problem growing that beard,
Speaker 2: which we know makes all of you look ten times better.
Speaker 2: Eating the pussois can increase the sastral levels, which can
Speaker 2: turn which in turn, can promote beard growth. You ready
Speaker 2: for the next one. It can improve digestive health. Baby,
Speaker 2: you ain't gotta take the pepto no mo.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 2: The bacteria found in a kombucha and yogurt is the
Speaker 2: same bacteria found in the vagina. The name of the
Speaker 2: bacteria is lacked a Buchili or basilli or bachili bitch.
Speaker 2: It is a good bacteria and it helps the body
Speaker 2: to absorb nutrients properly. This one's easy. It can improve
Speaker 2: your skin, baby, Just rub it, Just rub it on
Speaker 2: your skin. It can help keep your heart healthy, so
Speaker 2: we're sucking dick. Can keep us from breast cancer. Baby,
Speaker 2: it can keep your heart healthy. According to the research
Speaker 2: that was made in the State University of New York,
Speaker 2: the most important meal that a man should take is the.
Speaker 1: Vagina thanks to the oxytocin.
Speaker 2: And the d H e A hormones that are released. Next,
Speaker 2: it can improve your mental and physical health. Maybe we
Speaker 2: know that if you're feeling sad today, eat a puss.
Speaker 2: If you're feeling like life isn't worth living and you're
Speaker 2: ready to jump off, jump into some pussy.
Speaker 1: Now.
Speaker 2: The last ones are more for the advancement of your
Speaker 2: relationship a It can through your sexual skills as a partner.
Speaker 2: It can also make your partner less likely to cheat
Speaker 2: on you if you're good. I don't know that one.
Speaker 2: I might have the question and the last one. It
Speaker 2: will make her more horny and wet.
Speaker 1: That's true. Hello, even when it head's kind of bad,
Speaker 1: at least you get wetter.
Speaker 2: At least to get a little wait, spit on that
Speaker 2: thing a little bit, baby, I'll be like.
Speaker 1: Okay, I have that on eat you know, so put
Speaker 1: the knee in the head when it's that like, I'm good.
Speaker 2: Here you go, y'all. There are health benefits to eating vagina.
Speaker 2: So in twenty twenty four, in this election year, eat more.
Speaker 2: All right, now, let's get into this goddamn horrible decision.
Speaker 2: And it was a horrible decision for a little bit.
Speaker 2: This is a crazy one. I literally had to ask
Speaker 2: permission to share this on the podcast because what the
Speaker 2: goddamn foot.
Speaker 1: So look at you, honey.
Speaker 2: This is going to be for those of you looking
Speaker 2: for ways in which to maybe tap more into the
Speaker 2: sensuality of sex by kind of hyping up your senses literally.
Speaker 2: So I guess we'll start by sharing I clearly do
Speaker 2: not have a lover in New York. We don't know, well,
Speaker 2: I don't.
Speaker 1: He can't read.
Speaker 2: Don't do that. That's not a lover, though, girl, I
Speaker 2: do want that dick again. No, I ain't eve gonna
Speaker 2: hold you, but I ain't and we just haven't we
Speaker 2: I don't know. I ain't got it again.
Speaker 1: AnyWho.
Speaker 2: Damn, Now you got me think about the dick. Bitch
Speaker 2: about to hit that nig up, like come over girls.
Speaker 1: I literally thought of him the other day.
Speaker 2: I think I had seen a photo or something spipe
Speaker 2: it and literally just about a double tab it, and
Speaker 2: I thought, damn, any girl, that dick heavy don't have
Speaker 2: me thinks I know he'd be on his phone anyway.
Speaker 1: Don't do that. I don't do that. He could read anyways.
Speaker 2: So, because I don't have a partner here in New York,
Speaker 2: I was like, I really want to go to the
Speaker 2: sex with a man.
Speaker 1: And baby because dating is in hell.
Speaker 2: I chose to invite a nigga that I follow on
Speaker 2: Twitter that be checking his dick off because all listen,
Speaker 2: I was like, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I was like, let me invite someone that I.
Speaker 2: Think would feel comfortable in the space So we were
Speaker 2: talking on Snapchat and I said, hey, do you want
Speaker 2: to come with me to a sex party?
Speaker 1: Did you want that dick? Is that one? The dick
Speaker 1: looks nice?
Speaker 2: But so then we talked about that. So when I
Speaker 2: invited him to the sex party, he said, well, what
Speaker 2: are your boundaries? I was very clear with the fact
Speaker 2: that we I don't have any intention on fucking you.
Speaker 2: I just want to go with a partner. I would
Speaker 2: love to maybe watch you. He looked like he ate
Speaker 2: good pussy because he has videos of him eating pussy
Speaker 2: on his Twitter. So I was like, I was open
Speaker 2: to it, right, shut up. So here he goes, so
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, he's down, So I'm like, cool, it's Saturday.
Speaker 2: Then he goes to say, hey, I only ask that
Speaker 2: you don't treat me like a sex toy, like I
Speaker 2: want to be treated as human. Well damn, okay, well
Speaker 2: one moment. So then he's like, I just want to
Speaker 2: be treated as human. And h he has light skin.
Speaker 1: He is light skin. He actually, yeah, he has light
Speaker 1: Now how did I know he is? Don't do that,
Speaker 1: don't do that, don't do that.
Speaker 2: So you sitting here looking at me, Miss Mandy b
Speaker 2: shut up you to a sex party. So you said,
Speaker 2: so anyway, Yeah, he said he wanted to be treated
Speaker 2: like a human.
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'll treat you like a human.
Speaker 2: Okay, this is him, this is him.
Speaker 1: I know. No, you don't get a strong Why he
Speaker 1: because I need you here too.
Speaker 2: Uh So he said, I want to be treated like
Speaker 2: a human. I said, okay, well I'm going to a
Speaker 2: day party that day.
Speaker 1: First.
Speaker 2: I'm like, that's how I can treat you as a human.
Speaker 2: Let me invite you. I'm like, no, let me invite
Speaker 2: you to the day party. And so I was gonna
Speaker 2: go from the day party to the sex club. So
Speaker 2: I let him know, Hey, day party ends at ten,
Speaker 2: let's link around seven thirty. He's like, okay, well that
Speaker 2: day I'm getting a facial at like five. I said, okay,
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: Nigga taking care of his kid. I ain't mad. I
Speaker 1: am not mad, bitch. What you listen right? We know
Speaker 1: Mandy likes a little day man. I'm based off a
Speaker 1: man getting a facials out a little bit.
Speaker 2: Again, I'm not making fun of you. I'm making front
Speaker 2: of lights to get niggas that act like you.
Speaker 1: Okay, you said, okay, wait, like an object. I'll call
Speaker 1: you after my.
Speaker 2: Facial So anyways, so I get to the I get
Speaker 2: to the party. I get to the party seven thirty.
Speaker 2: I text him at seven fifty. Already y'all know how
Speaker 2: I'm about time. So I hit him at seven fifty
Speaker 2: yo Eta. He's like, Yo, it's taking me longer to
Speaker 2: get home. I'm gonna go home, get dressed, and I'll
Speaker 2: meet you there. Baby, nine fifteen, you still coming. He's like, yeah,
Speaker 2: I'm sir at the day party, which is in Midtown.
Speaker 2: He lived in the Bronx. The sex party is in Brooklyn.
Speaker 2: We are baby. You should have already fucking timed and
Speaker 2: routed everything the fuck out right. So anyways, this it's
Speaker 2: nine fifteen, He's still not there. He's like, this is flaking.
Speaker 2: He's like, just got home, getting ready now. I said, nigga,
Speaker 2: you're not gonna make it the party in at ten,
Speaker 2: just meet me in Brooklyn. Bet So I'm like, I
Speaker 2: head to the sex club all the way.
Speaker 1: I said, ayo, because you're not club Sussia.
Speaker 2: So I'm like, because you're not coming in with me,
Speaker 2: it's one hundred dollars at the door. Because I'm a baby,
Speaker 2: You're now a single man walking in without me and
Speaker 2: shout out to the horn Hive. I met a horror
Speaker 2: Hive member guy, and I invited him. So now I'm
Speaker 2: already bringing two niggas to the sex club. Yeah, I
Speaker 2: know the shut up?
Speaker 1: Which one? What some guy that lives in DC shout
Speaker 1: out to you? He was cute? Two anyway, So yeah,
Speaker 1: so I invited anyone. I said, you want to go
Speaker 1: to a sex club.
Speaker 2: I don't have a photo of him actually, because I
Speaker 2: met him in at the day party. So yeah, I
Speaker 2: met this niggat the day.
Speaker 1: Party and told her man bro is meeting a.
Speaker 2: Man that she didn't want to feel like an object.
Speaker 2: But when he was getting his facial while that was
Speaker 2: going on, she met another man and told him come
Speaker 2: with me to the sex club. So anyways, so anyways,
Speaker 2: on the way to the sex club, I let him
Speaker 2: know it's one hundred dollars.
Speaker 1: So he texted me, y'all know, lie, but you invited me? No?
Speaker 1: He texted me and says, yo, like.
Speaker 2: That's cool, I don't mind paying at the door, But
Speaker 2: now that I have to pay at the door, do
Speaker 2: you mind paying for my uber? And I'll give you
Speaker 2: the fifty six dollars back on Wednesday, Baby, I said,
Speaker 2: have a good life. This isn't gonna work and blocked him.
Speaker 2: When did you ask for the consent to talk about this? Oh?
Speaker 2: I didn't ask him for the consent. The consent was
Speaker 2: somebody at the sex club. We're gonna get there. Yeah,
Speaker 2: So I'm oh, I didn't consent, but y'all blocked him.
Speaker 2: How don't need consent for a nigga? Blocked boy, you
Speaker 2: want to go make fifty six dollars, You ain't have
Speaker 2: one hundred and fifty six dollars. Then shout out to Mama,
Speaker 2: Tammy Ma, Mama ain't shit. So we get on the
Speaker 2: phone and she like, girl first saw that nigga don't
Speaker 2: even make enough money to get a cash advance.
Speaker 1: What type of nigga is he? Then she was like, I.
Speaker 2: Bet you he ain't even pay for the facial. The
Speaker 2: facial was from another bitch. He fucking They just wanted to.
Speaker 1: Rub on his face.
Speaker 2: So mag he was getting a real type of facial,
Speaker 2: Like I almost see how much was the facial? And
Speaker 2: maybe you needed to be treated like an object and
Speaker 2: listen at this point, if you brought nigga that bitch
Speaker 2: are you then my mama sex work shamed Jim because
Speaker 2: it was like, did you say he has this dick
Speaker 2: on Twitter?
Speaker 1: Is he doing that for free? Maybe? If you're gonna be.
Speaker 2: A sex worker, I'm gonna need you to have more
Speaker 2: than one hundred and fifty six dollars in your bank account.
Speaker 1: I was turned off, so blocked him.
Speaker 2: So anyways, now it's just me and this guy I
Speaker 2: just met who's only in town from DC. Never been
Speaker 2: to a sex club. So we go, we pull up,
Speaker 2: I tell him to pay. Yeah, I tell him to
Speaker 2: pay because I'm gonna support my friend's business. Right, So
Speaker 2: he at the door and we go down to the
Speaker 2: sex club. So I'm like, okay, mind you, I'm Shrewman,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, you know what tonight, I just want
Speaker 2: sensory play.
Speaker 1: I decided I'm.
Speaker 2: Just going So sensory play is literally no penetration but
Speaker 2: me being aroused by something like a massage.
Speaker 1: It could be any tools being used on you. It
Speaker 1: can be fire. I did all three, so we'll start,
Speaker 1: Oh baby, so we'll start. Yeah, I think I did two,
Speaker 1: So I start. I started. They had a sensory table.
Speaker 1: Shout out to the dome.
Speaker 2: I cannot remember her name, but this was my first
Speaker 2: time doing fireplay that didn't involve wax. Like she did
Speaker 2: this thing, that's what I did with miss So she
Speaker 2: had these balls of fire and so she literally is
Speaker 2: it's like hard mushrooms. They look like literally, so if
Speaker 2: you if you at a campfire and you're roasting your s'mores,
Speaker 2: it looks like what your smore would look like your
Speaker 2: marshmallow would look like on fire. So literally, she starts
Speaker 2: at my shoulder blades and she's literally tapping me with
Speaker 2: the fire and then rubbing me right after because bitch
Speaker 2: is hot. So she's tapping me with the fire and
Speaker 2: rubbing me. And so she does this down my whole body.
Speaker 2: She does it on my hips, my butt, my thighs,
Speaker 2: and baby, right in between my kneecap. Baby, I ain't
Speaker 2: gonna lie. I did a little and baby, my pussy
Speaker 2: did a little jump. I was like, not a little
Speaker 2: fire behind my kneecap doing something to me. And so
Speaker 2: I was like, yeah, she was beautiful. So I get
Speaker 2: into that and I'm just like ooh like my pussy
Speaker 2: jumping and maybe it's the shrooms after that, but I
Speaker 2: was like, oh, I like this I don't need penetration tonight.
Speaker 2: So anyways, I go around, I'm drinking, I'm talking. This
Speaker 2: guy is sitting right next to me and he goes
Speaker 2: he starts the conversation with me. I'm like, hey, so
Speaker 2: I don't want any penetration tonight. He was like that's fine,
Speaker 2: and he looks beside him.
Speaker 1: Bitch.
Speaker 2: He got like a body leather bag, and I'm like, well,
Speaker 2: what the fuck? Like you came with luggage to the
Speaker 2: sex club. He's like, no, I have a few things,
Speaker 2: like I would love to use them on you. This
Speaker 2: is where I ask for consent because y'all about to
Speaker 2: judge me this. This is the most WPS shit I
Speaker 2: think I ever did in sex in my motherfucking life.
Speaker 1: Let's see.
Speaker 2: Okay, No, no, no, I'm actually kind of scared that
Speaker 2: he might be a serio killer or just really like I.
Speaker 1: Was like, what the fuck is going on? So was
Speaker 1: he white? Nubbitch? Black?
Speaker 2: Because I say bag with the salt and pepper? Oh,
Speaker 2: every all of this was with black people. So he
Speaker 2: goes into his bag and he's like, I have some
Speaker 2: things I would like to use on you.
Speaker 1: Is that fine? So he goes through like casig he's like,
Speaker 1: let's go. I'm bitch.
Speaker 2: I'm open, bitch, I'm showing it. I'm at the safe club, NIGGI.
Speaker 2: I'm cool as long as nothing is gonna slice me
Speaker 2: because I don't like blood.
Speaker 1: I'm cool.
Speaker 2: So he gets behind me, and next thing you know,
Speaker 2: I feel like bristles on me, and I'm like okay.
Speaker 2: So my eyes are closed and he's like gently moving
Speaker 2: it down my uh, moving it down my arms, putting
Speaker 2: it around my neck, makes it go down by my titties,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, okay, no clue what the fuck it is.
Speaker 2: And so my eyes are closed. So I'm trying to
Speaker 2: like get into the vibe. I don't know how to
Speaker 2: fuck he's even being turned on by this, but I'm like, okay,
Speaker 2: I open my eyes and I look and see this
Speaker 2: nigga is rubbing a pipe cleaner on my body. When
Speaker 2: I say a pipe cleaner, as in a pipe cleaner
Speaker 2: hold on, like what you clean a baby bottle with,
Speaker 2: Like what you clean a baby bottle with, but a
Speaker 2: big one, like an industrial size pipe cleaner.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, my baby can lay apart.
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, it's not a feather, but all right, Okay,
Speaker 2: I'm here for it.
Speaker 1: So he goes. I wonder if he was under the
Speaker 1: sink way like this is it? Hold on? Hold on.
Speaker 2: He's like, so I really, you know, can I add
Speaker 2: something else? And I'm at this point I'm just like,
Speaker 2: uh sure. He pulls out a larger pipe cleaner and
Speaker 2: sets it between my legs and he's like, can you feel?
Speaker 2: Can you go up and down and feel what's in
Speaker 2: between your legs? So I'm like feeling like this and
Speaker 2: he takes my hand. No, no, no. At this point,
Speaker 2: my eyes are open. At this point, I'm just like, okay,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try this out. So he puts this bigger
Speaker 2: sized pipe cleaner in front of me and I'm like okay, yeah.
Speaker 2: He guides my hand and he's like, no, stroke it.
Speaker 2: So at this point he has me stroking a pipe
Speaker 2: cleaner is if it's a dick, and he wants me
Speaker 2: to go up and down on this pipe cleaner, and
Speaker 2: he's talking of my ear dirty as if I'm stroking
Speaker 2: a dick, but it's a pipe cleaner, and I'm just like, y'all,
Speaker 2: I can't do this no more.
Speaker 1: I ain't even gonna hold you. I was like, baby,
Speaker 1: I'm glad this gets off on you.
Speaker 2: So then I talk to him. I'm now intrigued. I said,
Speaker 2: I would like to talk about this on my podcast,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, so, I said, I said, I said,
Speaker 2: I said, sir, So what else is in here?
Speaker 1: Mind? You?
Speaker 2: Shout out to MORGANA. She let me know that the
Speaker 2: week before he made a bitch come with a car buffer.
Speaker 1: Right that one, he put a car.
Speaker 2: Buffer at the bottom of the back of a woman
Speaker 2: and made her come that way. So now I'm intrigued.
Speaker 2: I'm like, so, what do you get by this? He's
Speaker 2: like this, he said, I really enjoy going to home
Speaker 2: depot and finding things to bring it to the bedroom
Speaker 2: because I understand it doesn't have to be about penetration.
Speaker 2: And he goes into how he gets off going to
Speaker 2: home depot, buying these random tools and watching women play
Speaker 2: with them after he rubs them all over their body.
Speaker 1: Oh baby, First off.
Speaker 2: I was on Showman, so I was just like, niguy
Speaker 2: just jacked off a pipe cleaner.
Speaker 1: I felt nasty, home disgusting. This nigga brought up bitch.
Speaker 2: So his whole fucking bag was full of like tools
Speaker 2: and house supplies, no sex objects.
Speaker 1: Ship from Home Depot and.
Speaker 2: This clip was from an episode of Horrible Decisions. I
Speaker 2: know you found it on Twitter now under weird ship. Like, bro,
Speaker 2: I literally please listen to us every Monday. I literally
Speaker 2: was like, am I a sick? I just jacked off,
Speaker 2: just jacked off?
Speaker 1: Like way this happened to you?
Speaker 2: She's I'm not bro, they gonna think I did think
Speaker 2: there's a way to make the snow, and then and
Speaker 2: then and then at the end of.
Speaker 1: It, I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker 2: I was like, Okay, I just jacked off a pipe
Speaker 2: cleaner and got rubbed on with a pipe cleaner. Let
Speaker 2: me just go back to being regular.
Speaker 1: I have a story. Credit.
Speaker 2: Listen this nigga might pay you extra for that. He
Speaker 2: was he said, a home depot.
Speaker 1: Get him off. Baby. What was next?
Speaker 2: So the next the ruler they give you for the
Speaker 2: paint can? Well, no, so the next thing that the
Speaker 2: next thing was and MORGANA was like, I want to
Speaker 2: give you a massage. So I just go and get
Speaker 2: a regular massage. But by this point, bitch, I'm floating.
Speaker 2: So there's a couple sitting right there. I'm at the
Speaker 2: end of the bed and she's giving me a massage
Speaker 2: to where I'm just like I'm.
Speaker 1: Looking at her like, damn.
Speaker 2: Every time I go to the sex club, I realize
Speaker 2: I ain't that freaky and we're ladies. You think you freaky,
Speaker 2: bit you never that freaky, You never know how to
Speaker 2: do everything the best. Cause I was like, I know,
Speaker 2: I don't be rubbing these things like this. That massage
Speaker 2: was feeling so great. So then there was a lady
Speaker 2: right there and we got into where I was like,
Speaker 2: I really want to be spanked.
Speaker 1: So both these girls now have the option to spank me.
Speaker 2: So Morgana goes and pulls out a paddle and hits me,
Speaker 2: and I think she thought it was gonna hurt. And
Speaker 2: this is where I realized I really need some pain
Speaker 2: right now. So she go to spank me. She she
Speaker 2: was like, and then rubbed it. She was like, what
Speaker 2: was that?
Speaker 1: Like a four? She was shot?
Speaker 2: So she hit me again. She was like what is
Speaker 2: that four point two? I had her and this other
Speaker 2: girl literally I wanted with the paddle with bitch so hard,
Speaker 2: so hard.
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I don't know if I just
Speaker 1: stopped feeling shit because I hear not home deepo heyes, no, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I got a little scared.
Speaker 2: Nah, but I realized too, I just wanted women to
Speaker 2: touch me. But after that, I was like, I just
Speaker 2: know once he was saying I'm sorry, I'm not saying
Speaker 2: this isn't sexy. I just know once he started saying
Speaker 2: home deepo, you were like no, no, no.
Speaker 1: But it wasn't even that. It's the fact that.
Speaker 2: While I was stroking the pipe cleaner, he was talking
Speaker 2: to me like he was like, he was like, ooh,
Speaker 2: I love how you stroke it.
Speaker 1: He was like, does don't you like how that feels? No, bro,
Speaker 1: he is behind me. If you don't know, here we go. Sorry, bitch,
Speaker 1: he is behind me. Let me sit here.
Speaker 2: And so he's behind me, his legs are, his legs
Speaker 2: are behind me. He's behind me.
Speaker 1: He got the pipe cleaner going down my body like yeah.
Speaker 2: Putting it between my tittis and shit, got the pipe
Speaker 2: cleaner all over. He then puts the bigger pipe cleaner
Speaker 2: in front of me, and at this point I'm looking
Speaker 2: at a pipe cleaner and he's.
Speaker 1: Telling me stroke that thing ooh with both hands. So
Speaker 1: he's in my ear. It struck me on how to stroke.
Speaker 2: A goddamn pipe cleaner? And he's like, M yeah, just
Speaker 2: like that, M you like how I feel? And then
Speaker 2: I just broh, I can't do this some more?
Speaker 1: All right? You good? And I had to get up.
Speaker 1: I was like, bruh, who wait?
Speaker 2: Anyone else stuck with that nigga that day, probably in
Speaker 2: her way is told he's in there with his tools.
Speaker 1: Where I told you, he made a bitch come down.
Speaker 1: We didn't have a strict a proof of process. He made.
Speaker 1: He's a regular, so bitch.
Speaker 2: Like I said, he made a big nigga regular.
Speaker 1: He made a bitch come with a car.
Speaker 2: Buffer like like you know, the electronic car buffer.
Speaker 1: Bitch.
Speaker 2: He like put the car buffer on her back and
Speaker 2: she and she came and ship. I'm right, bruh, y'all,
Speaker 2: I don't know. I ain't gonna do it. I love Susia, y'all.
Speaker 2: Check out was it season three? Check out season three?
Speaker 2: They're an amazing fucking place to us. I ain't gonna
Speaker 2: hold going on, I ain't gonna hold you, brother.
Speaker 1: I was like, I would like check this out.
Speaker 2: I'll like check this out. I kind of like the
Speaker 2: sensory play, not all of it, but it did make
Speaker 2: my mind go to like things I would like to
Speaker 2: do around your home.
Speaker 1: No bitch.
Speaker 2: With a partner in the future that wants to be
Speaker 2: creative now, not gonna pull out.
Speaker 1: The home depot supplies.
Speaker 2: But I'm like, damn like I it did make me
Speaker 2: think of how many ways people get turned on and
Speaker 2: come and wow wow.
Speaker 1: So needless to say, he actually wasn't bad.
Speaker 2: He actually looked like like after then, I was like,
Speaker 2: here a little scary because he had a little hat
Speaker 2: on with little size, he had all black on, he
Speaker 2: had muscles though, like he looked attractive until he pulled.
Speaker 1: Out the pipe later like I didn't pull that out.
Speaker 1: I was like, I.
Speaker 2: Don't know after after yeah, Jack, like I keep thinking
Speaker 2: of painting the roller thing. Yeah, I mean, of course
Speaker 2: you have like the needle thing like the pinwheel like
Speaker 2: I've done since we play before.
Speaker 1: A pinwell is not for sex.
Speaker 2: Keez, that's a good one because you could put it
Speaker 2: all it could it could feel like a knife. What
Speaker 2: else they got, Yeah, so that's the thing. So there's
Speaker 2: so it's no, no, I ain't gonna hold you sound bass.
Speaker 2: You making my pussy jump too. I've been doing don't
Speaker 2: do that, don't do that. That little thing when it
Speaker 2: keep going, like, girl, calm down the sounds. It's not
Speaker 2: the prayer bowl. You ain't never felt like your pussy
Speaker 2: joke to a.
Speaker 1: To a sound? Literally, don't rely. Oh, I was relaxed,
Speaker 1: so right.
Speaker 2: Maybe I was that thing kind of maybe my ear
Speaker 2: because you know, I didn't had an ear orgasm before,
Speaker 2: Corny she said that little thing. Anyways, needless to say, y'all,
Speaker 2: I keep finding new things to do and I can't
Speaker 2: believe we break. No, that's what it is. This is sad, bro,
Speaker 2: I need some dig. This is really sad.
Speaker 1: Where are you going next? I don't know.
Speaker 2: I'm scared for myself. I ain't gonna hold you, I ain't.
Speaker 1: I am excited.
Speaker 2: I'm going to the Domina Camber Public next week. I'm
Speaker 2: gonna put the kanna and so I'm excited. Uh. I
Speaker 2: don't plan to be a unicorn in this trip. It
Speaker 2: is another solo trip where I plan to read and journal.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna do it all inclusive. No, yuck, they have
Speaker 2: like apparently the best. Oh, never mind, isn't we're girl?
Speaker 1: I'm going.
Speaker 2: I got the whole trip for less than three hundred dollars.
Speaker 2: I used miles and points. Baby, shout out to Marriott
Speaker 2: and ZiT Delta, even though bitch y'all could have made
Speaker 2: it a little cheaper since y'all fucked up right now.
Speaker 1: But yeah, I'm going for I'm going.
Speaker 2: I'm going for four days, three nights, and I planned
Speaker 2: to have a really good trip.
Speaker 1: I planned to have a really cute time. I'm hoping
Speaker 1: to be me a dominion Hannah. I'm doing Dominican.
Speaker 2: I have a lot of Dominican friends, and they're always
Speaker 2: saying they have the best beaches. There's Dave, you Dominican.
Speaker 2: What's the thing this is su'san s o U with
Speaker 2: the mountains nobody doesn't talking about. There's a Dominican bitch
Speaker 2: listening to this right now and being like, oh my god,
Speaker 2: I shouldn't say it in the comments A I think
Speaker 2: it is, but when you google it, it's like these matheson.
Speaker 1: That's what it's l like. What don't do that, bitch?
Speaker 2: Anyway, I'm gonna go to the beach and get this
Speaker 2: tan and not get no dick. Okay, y'all, y'all want
Speaker 2: to hear something fucked up about Home depot what I'm
Speaker 2: not good?
Speaker 1: You did you masturbate it? Home devot before.
Speaker 2: No no, So I was at home depot because my
Speaker 2: mom and I just moved into the same apartment building, which,
Speaker 2: by the way, it's like really adorable.
Speaker 1: We're like up and down. It's cute in La place
Speaker 1: in La.
Speaker 2: So I'm at home depot and my mom is like
Speaker 2: confused on why I can't find a task grab it
Speaker 2: for the TV A mount.
Speaker 1: She was like, when I was doing stuff, all you
Speaker 1: do is go to home depot. They're right there they are.
Speaker 2: Maybe when I did needed everything for the studio, maybe
Speaker 2: you pull up. Wait and the demographic was a little different.
Speaker 2: Uh no, no, no, no in Brooklyn, a Jamaican. No, I know,
Speaker 2: they're everywhere else.
Speaker 1: They magnificant.
Speaker 2: So I was in La and of course the Mexican
Speaker 2: So now that's accusy right.
Speaker 1: First of all, I'm on this little power trip because
Speaker 1: eight niggas at the car like hey I do TV.
Speaker 1: I do TV. And I was like, hey, I walk.
Speaker 2: But then I'm walking towards the door and there's this
Speaker 2: Nigerian good and he's like cis. I was like, icy stuff.
Speaker 2: He's like I just got hear no camera. I'm sorry,
Speaker 2: I just got here from Cameroon. I do everything too.
Speaker 2: You ain't coming to me.
Speaker 1: And I was like, now i gotta tell the Mexican nigga.
Speaker 2: No, that's crazy, that's crazy. I'm sitting here like, what
Speaker 2: else can I happen? Now?
Speaker 1: You're black? Because that you love claiming you Mexican? That's true,
Speaker 1: but he saw.
Speaker 2: It really, So then I'm sitting here thinking, Okay, how
Speaker 2: could I have the Mexican and the Cameroon And at
Speaker 2: the same time, what can I have him do?
Speaker 1: One'll do this, One'll do that. Girl.
Speaker 2: I was really this sounded like an MMF bitch, So
Speaker 2: that I'm sitting here like, okay, you keep Cameroon. Do
Speaker 2: you know anything about engineering?
Speaker 1: I don't want to tell him about the studio, but
Speaker 1: I'm like, maybe he'll be good. Were black? Oh that's
Speaker 1: crazy girl.
Speaker 2: Anyway, So long story short, one's doing one TV, one
Speaker 2: doing another. I love that home depot it really, I'm
Speaker 2: telling you them niggas came to the car what you
Speaker 2: want and I'm like.
Speaker 1: Any meaning clearly he gave this nigga a power trips.
Speaker 2: I was trying to see who looks stronger and shit,
Speaker 2: and then it was one who spoke to good English.
Speaker 1: I was like n nah, he advanced, he got a
Speaker 1: business car. I don't want that ship. That's crazy. You
Speaker 1: know what this is for real?
Speaker 2: I just want we about to get st I'm going
Speaker 2: stop going because we gonna get canceled.
Speaker 1: No, we're not, okay, bro, we can't get canceled. Here's
Speaker 1: what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: When when when he had a business card, I realized, oh, like,
Speaker 2: your business is a business. I'm trying to go for
Speaker 2: the low here because you don't want to pay somebody
Speaker 2: for their business.
Speaker 1: That's greaty And if I did out of google it,
Speaker 1: why do you think I'm out of here.
Speaker 2: Trying to recruit any Oh okay, well, hopefully by our
Speaker 2: next couple episodes. Well the next time we have a solo,
Speaker 2: You're going to a sex club this weekend. So this
Speaker 2: weekend and then I'm going to London next week. Who
Speaker 2: is the girl from the London Live show that won
Speaker 2: the game? I can't find her.
Speaker 1: And she wants to fuck. Where is she? That's crazy?
Speaker 1: I thought we were gonna fuck and I did too.
Speaker 1: That's crazy.
Speaker 2: Follow anyway, if you in London and want to give we.
Speaker 1: This this week, you aren't. That's what I'm saying. Okay,
Speaker 1: go ahead and in the Falcony Mix. I love piano
Speaker 1: and you are really putting out my boys DJ. That's
Speaker 1: why I'm going. That's fine.
Speaker 2: But she also said she's down for pussy to be
Speaker 2: thrown her way. She's there right now. This week, y'all
Speaker 2: want to do a Horror Hive meetup. Shout out to
Speaker 2: Balcony Mixing Major League. My boy Andre Power is opening,
Speaker 2: so that's why I'm flying and lending gives us a
Speaker 2: big I love how you're trying to make it seem
Speaker 2: like you're not trying to get your pussy here. Let me, Oh,
Speaker 2: this is a horror Hive meetup. Okay, if you're not
Speaker 2: DTF me and my boo who is also coming with me.
Speaker 1: It's an anyway. If you are, my dms are open.
Speaker 1: Love y'all.
Speaker 2: This is why we unmonetize on YouTube because now you're
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Speaker 2: another episode of horrible decisions. So I'm your girl, Mandy
Speaker 2: baka picked saday aka Beach. Hey, y'all, I'm easy. What's
Speaker 2: really good?
Speaker 1: Sex of boy? I'm trying. I'm trying to do something different.
Speaker 1: I have a bone to pick. Okay, pick the bone.
Speaker 2: I'm sucking a lot of bones, but you could pick
Speaker 2: the bone. I have a bone to pick with friends
Speaker 2: that don't realize that you're not being a bad friend
Speaker 2: if you set a boundary with trauma dumping. Okay, literally
Speaker 2: when you were like, y'all go with these angles. I
Speaker 2: just gotta tell you about how I haven't been there
Speaker 2: for somebody and girl, I feel like we give a
Speaker 2: certain amount of hours. Okay, why don't you get a
Speaker 2: certain amount of hours with me? I'm finished? How do
Speaker 2: you communicate that though, or do you or do you
Speaker 2: just like remove yourself because you've been you feel like
Speaker 2: you've been dumped on enough?
Speaker 1: Like how do you respond to that when you reach
Speaker 1: that point?
Speaker 2: Like basically I had dubbed a few of her calls
Speaker 2: we were in London, but when she called me today
Speaker 2: and asked me if I'm back, I literally was like, girl,
Speaker 2: I'm just kind of having a mood, like I really
Speaker 2: can't hear. And she feels like I'm not being there
Speaker 2: for her. And she basically feels like she wants to
Speaker 2: keep her business private from other friends, and I'm the
Speaker 2: one that she trusts with the info. But like, it's
Speaker 2: really hard to talk to someone that's depressed. Would you
Speaker 2: be on the brink of being depressed?
Speaker 1: Right? And so I don't know what to say. Do
Speaker 1: I send you a therapy gift card? Bro?
Speaker 2: I feel like you gotta have some discernment and think
Speaker 2: about how much you are unloading on somebody. And I
Speaker 2: hate it for her, And it's it's specific to not
Speaker 2: her overall well being, her depression, but it's about a
Speaker 2: nick like it's about a man like if.
Speaker 1: Someone's going through it, it needs to pick me up.
Speaker 2: That's different than someone that's like constantly trying to figure
Speaker 2: out what they can do to you know, not get
Speaker 2: someone's attention, but just like what.
Speaker 1: Did I do? What did I do wrong? And I'm
Speaker 1: not doing this and blah blah blah, like waste. You know,
Speaker 1: she might be with a narcissist too.
Speaker 2: You ain't never gonna do nothing right, but he isn't
Speaker 2: new to me. To me, so I am very adamant
Speaker 2: actually with drawing the boundary with my friends and their
Speaker 2: partners specifically, because once you've said enough but you've stayed, maybe.
Speaker 1: Girl, I don't I don't want to hear about it anymore.
Speaker 2: So like to me, when it comes to the friendships
Speaker 2: that I have, specifically, our friendships are able to exist
Speaker 2: and like beyond whoever you're.
Speaker 1: Dating or not.
Speaker 2: But to me, once you've come to me about how
Speaker 2: this nigga and did you wrong? Did you wrong again?
Speaker 2: Did you wrong again? Like I got to the point
Speaker 2: where I stopped talking to my friends about That's why
Speaker 2: y'all motherfucker's heard it. My friends wasn't hearing nothing about
Speaker 2: my ex? Mo Mo no, bitch, you don't even went
Speaker 2: back how many times? So I even stopped sharing with
Speaker 2: my friends because this was a person that I knew
Speaker 2: all right at this end of the day, I keep
Speaker 2: going back nobody else.
Speaker 1: To hear that shit. But no, and I get that
Speaker 1: nobody like that. That's the thing, right and we know it.
Speaker 2: But so I'm telling you as a friend, I love
Speaker 2: you dearly to all my friends. This is this is
Speaker 2: literally how I communicated to my friends. Friend al, I'll
Speaker 2: be like, friend, bitch, you know I love you. Right,
Speaker 2: Let's talk about your career the next trip. We going
Speaker 2: on the size genes you can now fit into the
Speaker 2: tiktoks that we fucking come across. Share all the memes
Speaker 2: you want. Well, baby, girl, that nigga not not here,
Speaker 2: brow out of my phone about someone we know.
Speaker 1: Literally, I have to do that. I'm daying that. Let's
Speaker 1: go on Instagram. Look at this bitch. What a wig awful.
Speaker 1: I'm fine with that.
Speaker 2: I have removed for so many of my friends, especially
Speaker 2: when they choose to stay with a guy for eons.
Speaker 2: So it's where, oh bit, you're not gonna leave him
Speaker 2: until you ready. You're not gonna waste my my three
Speaker 2: minutes on that shit homeboys do.
Speaker 1: On the contrary, what my homeboys when they're feeling her,
Speaker 1: they called me.
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