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Speaker 1: Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I Heart Radio Podcast. Okay,

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Speaker 1: welcome to this week's little wine Down episode. Um christ And,

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Speaker 1: first of all, what is going on in Nashville right now?

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Speaker 1: Because everyone's texting me going are you gonna make your

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Speaker 1: flight home? And I'm like, well, now I'm stressing out.

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Speaker 1: I didn't think I was gonna like be missing a flight,

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Speaker 1: but what is going on? Okay? So I actually was

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Speaker 1: hoping that you no one was telling you anything because

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Speaker 1: I felt like this would stress you out. Yeah, okay, Um, well,

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Speaker 1: we're having there, like we're having some sort of like

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Speaker 1: really severe weather. But it's crazy because in Moscow right now,

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Speaker 1: it's thirty five degrees. In Detroit it's like thirty two degrees,

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Speaker 1: and here in Nashville it's negative one. I'm sorry what,

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Speaker 1: I don't know what's happening. We got a tiny bit

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Speaker 1: of snow, just a dusting and that's it. So we

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Speaker 1: have nothing to report other than it's just really really cold.

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Speaker 1: So I've been Sarah Bryce called of me obviously, and

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Speaker 1: she was just like, you're gonna be stuck in London forever.

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Speaker 1: Why would she do that? And so I've and then

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Speaker 1: my dad's like you know, it's the airports are shutting down.

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Speaker 1: So I've just been a little I'm not gonna live.

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Speaker 1: I've had a little anxiety today just because I'm like

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Speaker 1: and Sarah's like, wait, when do you come home? And

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Speaker 1: I go, I come home on Christmas Eve? And she says,

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Speaker 1: you're cutting it that close. I'm like, well, I don't

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Speaker 1: get my kids until noon on Christmas Day, so I

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Speaker 1: figured I would be fine. You're I promise You're gonna

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Speaker 1: be fine. We don't have any snow and we have sunshine.

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Speaker 1: You can see the sunshine. Is this the coldest Nashville's

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Speaker 1: ever been? I mean it's the coldest it's ever been

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Speaker 1: since I've been here. I was just texting your girlfriend

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Speaker 1: of mine in Michigan today and I'm like, there's no

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Speaker 1: I mean, I don't I would remember us going to negative.

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Speaker 1: We've never been negative. Yeah, I don't remember that either.

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Speaker 1: That's crazy. Okay, well are you ready for Christmas? Like?

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Speaker 1: How are you doing? Um? I really am trying to

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Speaker 1: pretend like I want to participate in this small talk,

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Speaker 1: but I'm like, yeah, okay, so tell me. Okay, so

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Speaker 1: we're not in this. I'm gonna let me lead this

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Speaker 1: podcast for two seconds. So Hannah and I are not

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Speaker 1: in the same location today, not because of weather, but

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Speaker 1: because of answering arm and San Diego and where in

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Speaker 1: the world is Diego today? She is live from life.

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Speaker 1: I am live from a place that's like a few

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Speaker 1: hours away from London, Okay, And I know, joke, feel

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Speaker 1: like I have been living the holiday. I mean, I

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Speaker 1: swear to you. It feels that. It's so funny too,

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Speaker 1: because I had mentioned that on when I was flying here.

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Speaker 1: Everyone's like, I hope you find your jewe law. So

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Speaker 1: have we found the jewe law? I'm not answering that question, Okay. Um, well,

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Speaker 1: I hope that they used the video from this footage

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Speaker 1: because that the smile on your face says otherwise. And

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Speaker 1: that's fine. Listen, it's been You know. What's so interesting

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Speaker 1: is I called you the first day that I was here,

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Speaker 1: and you said something to me that it's honestly, every

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Speaker 1: time I thought of it, it's made me emotional to

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Speaker 1: think about it. And I'm gonna butcher what you said.

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Speaker 1: But it was so short and sweet and simple. But

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Speaker 1: it was like travel far enough away to find what

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Speaker 1: did you say, like travel far enough away to find

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Speaker 1: you find yourself. Yeah, it's not. I did not make

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Speaker 1: this quote up, but it's like literally one of my

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Speaker 1: favorite quotes. Both my kids have it on a travel

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Speaker 1: map and it says travel far enough, you meet yourself.

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Speaker 1: M hmm. And it's like literally one of my favorite

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Speaker 1: quotes ever because I remember some of my darkest times,

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Speaker 1: like divorce. I had a job where I traveled a lot,

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Speaker 1: and I remember the tears from Corpus Christie. That's what

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Speaker 1: I called that little segment of my life. But I

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Speaker 1: literally just you're so alone when you travel. Sometimes times

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Speaker 1: you're never alone, but then you're so alone, Like you

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Speaker 1: can be on a plane with a thousand people and

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Speaker 1: still just feel like really lonely if you're in your

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Speaker 1: own you know heads. So I was like, let's just

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Speaker 1: use the opportunity of travel for you to at least

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Speaker 1: just find more parts about Jama. Yeah, and I think

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Speaker 1: that's what's been the most. Just like you said, like

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Speaker 1: you know me, you've you've known me since I was

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Speaker 1: you know how many gosh, how many seven eight years

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Speaker 1: now eight years eight years at least because we were pregnant,

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Speaker 1: were was before we were pregnant with the girls. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I don't do alone. And the last you know, I

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Speaker 1: think divorcing, like I was forced to be alone. And

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Speaker 1: I don't think I really got comfortable being alone until

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Speaker 1: earlier this year. And I think it's been the greatest

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Speaker 1: gift that I've gotten this year was because I mean

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Speaker 1: even just when I is running on these like country

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Speaker 1: I go, you know what Sarah I said about a

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Speaker 1: year ago, two years ago, five years ago, even when

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Speaker 1: I was happily married. I yeah, I would have been

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Speaker 1: scared running alone out here, and I go, I have

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Speaker 1: never felt more safe and just like peaceful like I was.

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Speaker 1: I could have ran a marathon on those little country

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Speaker 1: want to stop. It just felt very just like I

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Speaker 1: don't know, there's something about just truly just being alone

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Speaker 1: in the open and in a new place and just

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Speaker 1: exploring and like like you said, and he said that quote,

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Speaker 1: WHI is like finding myself through it. It's been such

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Speaker 1: a beautiful thing that I think that's been the journey

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Speaker 1: of like shifting. You know, obviously I came out here

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Speaker 1: to see someone, right, but to have a lot of

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Speaker 1: time also to myself has been and just really affirming

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Speaker 1: I also think there's something too when you said not

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Speaker 1: being afraid. First of all, I think it's fair to

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Speaker 1: say we need to stop answering the phone for Sarah

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Speaker 1: Brice because I just don't feel like I love her

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Speaker 1: so much, but she is just not helping the anxiety. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: The best thing too, is like we're going on in

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Speaker 1: a girl's trip in January. Sorry, you couldn't do it.

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Speaker 1: I already asked you, you you said you couldn't go. But

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Speaker 1: I love that publicly. I like that we cleared that

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Speaker 1: up publicly. We had to. We had to clear publicly.

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Speaker 1: I did not not invite you, and actually invited all

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Speaker 1: of queendom um. And so you know, Sarah is coming

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Speaker 1: going to be running in Tijuana by myself, I go, Sarah,

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Speaker 1: We're going to the Bahamas. Like, first of all, we're

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Speaker 1: gonna stay on campus, you know, like, yeah, we're gonna stop. Respectfully,

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Speaker 1: We're gonna stop. Bryce, if you're listening to this, we're

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Speaker 1: gonna stop answering the phone for Sarah Brice, Um, who

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Speaker 1: I am now effectually changing in my phone. Her contact

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Speaker 1: There's something to what you're saying. And I know that

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Speaker 1: you and I both really deal with anxiety a lot,

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Speaker 1: and I've read so much about how anxiety is sometimes

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Speaker 1: just getting ahead of yourself and your own brain. And

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Speaker 1: I think when we feel like, listen, there's something to

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Speaker 1: your own intuition and feeling safe. Like you and I

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Speaker 1: both grew up in Michigan, Like I'm not gonna walk

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Speaker 1: get it. He is actually intuition in a little bit legit.

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Speaker 1: But like in so many instances, I think the unsafety

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Speaker 1: that's just from us not living presently in our own bodies.

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Speaker 1: So when you're out running and you're like, well, first

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Speaker 1: my anxiety, my thoughts, my feet, everything matches for the

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Speaker 1: first time. But I feel like when you're doing that

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Speaker 1: Never this far. Ever, this is far. I mean that's

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Speaker 1: an eight hour nine hour flight, right, Yeah, it's eight

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Speaker 1: She's like, this is just another kind of thing that

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Speaker 1: not on medicine anymore, Like what if? Like that was

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Speaker 1: thing that I did was so I cocoon, like you said.

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Speaker 1: I'm not saying they're completely wrong, but I feel like

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Speaker 1: we have created this anxiety written society where we're like

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Speaker 1: everyone it's like we assume everyone is like it's like

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Speaker 1: assuming everyone's guilty until proven innocent, Like everyone is an

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Speaker 1: AX murderer until they're not. And it's like you like,

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Speaker 1: a lot of Jannas of the world. All we have

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Speaker 1: like you learn someone's story. I kind of like use

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Speaker 1: or situation. So like I was looking for lighthouses this year.

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Speaker 1: That was my thing. I was like, I'm gonna, I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna hug a few lighthouses. I'll sign them. But like

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Speaker 1: to the end of the year. Framer money, it's real,

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Speaker 1: you know, um. But I had gotten so anxious about

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Speaker 1: Like instead of being like, oh well what if I

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Speaker 1: could you know all the what if the good what ifs,

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Speaker 1: I had all the bad what ifs. And that London

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Speaker 1: trip was like I remember we went to Paris for

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Speaker 1: one night, so romantic, right, like who am I this

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Speaker 1: little girl from Michigan And my husband's like we're doing

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Speaker 1: I remember turning the corner. I've never seen Niffel Tower

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Speaker 1: in real life. I have dreamt of her my entire life.

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Speaker 1: And when I corner and I like it is a picture,

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Speaker 1: it will flash before my last breath. I already know

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Speaker 1: because it matters so much to me. I turned to

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Speaker 1: the corner and I kept my head down because I

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Speaker 1: didn't want to get any sneak peaks of her until

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Speaker 1: I was right up on her, Like I had to

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Speaker 1: be face to face with her, before I could really

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Speaker 1: like absorb her. So I was like in the car

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Speaker 1: and not really looking around. I was afraid I'd sneak

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Speaker 1: and I just thought to myself, how could you ever

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Speaker 1: feeling like I felt. Mm hmm. It's so simple, and

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Speaker 1: that could be anything that could be For some people,

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Speaker 1: it's you know, going to target. Like there's real anxiety

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Speaker 1: around our world right now for like the scene and

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Speaker 1: the unseen, you know, But I feel so hopeful that

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Speaker 1: if we can push ourselves to just like know and

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Speaker 1: of manufactured fear for ourselves, Like we can really go

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Speaker 1: and meet ourselves and really take a deep breath, really

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Speaker 1: like remember why we're supposed to be breathing, Like, go

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Speaker 1: do the things you want to do, because I never

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Speaker 1: want to be so scared. I missed something like that

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Speaker 1: ever again Yeah, mmm, I love that. I'm taking that

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Speaker 1: and that's a good again. The people write, write, write

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Speaker 1: it down, write something that you you've been wanting to do.

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Speaker 1: Don't miss the beauty and it. No, I'm just so

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Speaker 1: proud of you for doing this, Like I'm like, that's right.

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Speaker 1: Take the run, don't be spared, don't answer the phone

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Speaker 1: for Sarah, Bryce, keep drinking water. Your flight's going to be.

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Speaker 1: Like I know, for sure, God moves pieces. I've seen

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Speaker 1: him do it in my life so many times that

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Speaker 1: it doesn't even make sense. So when I think about

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Speaker 1: those as facts, like it's going to get lighter as

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Speaker 1: a fact, it just all feels a little easier, you know,

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Speaker 1: for sure. Well, Kaybe, I love you so much, and

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Speaker 1: um to everyone listening. Right now, we are going to

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Speaker 1: take a little bit of a break and we will

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Speaker 1: be back on January ninth. So um, have the best

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Speaker 1: Christmas and we'll have an amazing new year. We'll see

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Speaker 1: you next year to just give you all that we can.

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Speaker 1: It's a big year next year, Cramer. It's a big here.

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Speaker 1: It's forty, it's fun, it's fabulous. It's gonna be the

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Speaker 1: best highs and lows ever. We're taking Wine down on

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Speaker 1: the road more next year. I'm so excited. We're adding

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Speaker 1: someone to the panel and wind down next year. Can

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Speaker 1: I say that? Sure? Okay, that's all I'll say. I

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Speaker 1: love that. Okay. It's a sneak sneak peek. Also possibly

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Speaker 1: another show we'll see. We are busy. I love it

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Speaker 1: all right. I love you so much. Travel safe, cocoon up.

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Speaker 1: Tell Gary we love him. Garry, my little British Airways

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Speaker 1: friend that I met so sweet. And then he's like,

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Speaker 1: I don't think he was very talkative, and that's fine,

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Speaker 1: but you know you can just like press the little

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Speaker 1: thing and it's like goodbye, don't take it personal. And

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Speaker 1: I was like, does he not like? You know? All right?

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Speaker 1: I love you big, I'll see you Merry Christmas friend,

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Speaker 1: Merry Christmas. I love you. Come home, Come home. Bye

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Speaker 1: bye