WEBVTT - Eden Gefner: Surviving October 7th

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome back to she Pivo. My name is Eden Gufner.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome to she Pivots, the podcast where we talk with

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<v Speaker 2>women who dared to pivot out of one career and

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<v Speaker 2>into something new and explore how their personal lives impacted

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<v Speaker 2>these decisions. I'm your host, Emily Tish Sussman. Today's episode

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<v Speaker 2>is particularly important to me. Today I'm sitting down with

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<v Speaker 2>Eden Geffner, a survivor of the October seventh terrorist attack

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<v Speaker 2>in Israel. Today mark's the one year anniversary since the attacks,

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<v Speaker 2>and this feels like the right time to share her story.

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<v Speaker 2>Eden lives in Tel Aviv and iscontinuing her studies. We

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<v Speaker 2>often ask our guests if there's a nonprofit that they

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<v Speaker 2>want us to share on the website, and Eden asked

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<v Speaker 2>us to share Faces of October seven, which was the

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<v Speaker 2>organization that brought her over to the US, to share

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<v Speaker 2>her story. So you can find that link on the

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<v Speaker 2>sheep of its website.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm Jewish, and growing up we were always taught to

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<v Speaker 3>carry on stories of our ancestors, to never forget it's

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<v Speaker 3>deeply ingrained in our religion and our culture. So sharing

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<v Speaker 3>Eden's story felt not only important but necessary to me.

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<v Speaker 3>Eden lived in Kibbutz reyin a kibbutz that was part

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<v Speaker 3>of the quote Gaza envelope, meaning that it was extremely

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<v Speaker 3>close to the Gaza border, just three miles in fact.

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<v Speaker 3>She grew up there among a vibrant, closely knit community.

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<v Speaker 3>Now twenty nine, Eden lives in Tel Aviv, but had

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<v Speaker 3>gone home to visit her parents and an old childhood

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<v Speaker 3>friend on October sixth, in twenty twenty three. Growing up

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<v Speaker 3>so close to the Gazen border, there was always a

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<v Speaker 3>sense of unease. They never felt truly safe, as Eden

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<v Speaker 3>will tell you in this episode, but they could have

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<v Speaker 3>never imagined what would unfold around them in the early

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<v Speaker 3>hours of October seventh. Eden recounts the horrowing events of

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<v Speaker 3>October seventh and how she learned from them. She speaks

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<v Speaker 3>with vulnerability, honesty, and kindness, something rare and beautiful amongst

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<v Speaker 3>all of the pain. First and foremost, Eden's experience is

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<v Speaker 3>singular and important. Her story is one of thousands from

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<v Speaker 3>that day that have been under reported, and I feel

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<v Speaker 3>honored to give her the space and the platform to

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<v Speaker 3>share her story uninterrupted. However, there are thousands of experiences

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<v Speaker 3>that have unfolded over the past year, many of them

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<v Speaker 3>filled with suffering, many of them not Israeli or Jewish.

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<v Speaker 3>This podcast isn't meant as a solution, but as a

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<v Speaker 3>way to showcase a story that feels important to me

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<v Speaker 3>as a Jewish person. The Jewish faith talks about how

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<v Speaker 3>each person contains a universe, and it breaks my heart

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<v Speaker 3>to think about what we have lost in those who

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<v Speaker 3>died Jewish and Palestinian. To say the loss has been

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<v Speaker 3>immense as an understatement, and I want to recognize the

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<v Speaker 3>suffering and the death of all. I hope you hold

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<v Speaker 3>space for Eden as you listen to this episode and

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<v Speaker 3>continue to stay in gain and educated. This episode contains

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<v Speaker 3>references to violence and topics that may be setting to some.

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<v Speaker 3>Please listen with care.

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<v Speaker 1>My name is Eden Gufner and I'm a student. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>studying a dual degree in management and psychology, and in

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<v Speaker 1>my free time, I'm working as a PI largist in structure.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, so where are you from? Where were you born?

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<v Speaker 1>So? I was born in kibut Im, Kibot Reim. It's

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<v Speaker 1>located in Gaza envelope in Israel. We say Gaza envelope

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<v Speaker 1>because like we are the keybod seem that actually like

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<v Speaker 1>Circule the Gaza strip, so I was born there. I

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<v Speaker 1>have only two borders, big borders. I'm the little princess,

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<v Speaker 1>so I have to be big brothers. And my grandma

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<v Speaker 1>live in Tel Aviv. We're really smaller family. My mom

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<v Speaker 1>actually came for Buenos Ayreus. She came from Argentina, and

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<v Speaker 1>my father was born in Israel. But they didn't have

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<v Speaker 1>a connection to this area like at all. My grandpa

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<v Speaker 1>didn't live there, like we didn't have a friend that

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<v Speaker 1>lived there. But when my father was in the army,

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<v Speaker 1>in his weekend, he liked to come to the kibuts

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<v Speaker 1>because in the army you can join to a group

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<v Speaker 1>that going each weekend to do a kibut seem in

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<v Speaker 1>the south, and my father used to visit there in

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<v Speaker 1>the in the weekends. And my father fell in love

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<v Speaker 1>in this area because my area is so beautiful. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like the countryside of Israel, and it's just so quiet.

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<v Speaker 1>It's so peaceful to live there. Sometimes it's ironic that

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<v Speaker 1>the same peaceful, but the fact that it was truly peaceful.

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<v Speaker 1>And my mother just said yes, because they want to

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<v Speaker 1>go our family and to grow our family in the city.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a bit complicated, so they wanted for us to

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<v Speaker 1>grow up like in the countryside of Israel.

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<v Speaker 3>I was actually wondering, how did your parents meet, because

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<v Speaker 3>that had your parents met?

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<v Speaker 1>Actually my my mom, My mom is Jewish, and my

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<v Speaker 1>mom grew up in Argentina, in Buenos Ayrus, and I

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<v Speaker 1>think that back then Buenos Ayrus wasn't a super safe

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<v Speaker 1>place to grow up because the situation over there and

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<v Speaker 1>the corruption. So she decided to do Aliyah too is weell.

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<v Speaker 1>And one day when she became a teacher a few

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<v Speaker 1>years there later, so one day at school and her

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<v Speaker 1>and her work, one of her friends want to set

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<v Speaker 1>her up blinded like she do, we say, and this

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<v Speaker 1>she was my father and they met in some university

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<v Speaker 1>outside of some university in Israel, and they follow in love. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think that people realize that that many Jews

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<v Speaker 3>fled Europe during and after World War Two, both the

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<v Speaker 3>South America and Mexico.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, a lot of Jewish. My mom's side, they escaped

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<v Speaker 1>from Poland, and my father's side escaped from you like

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<v Speaker 1>now Ukraine, but back then it was a part of

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<v Speaker 1>the Union, so viet I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, same as my family. What is the other

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<v Speaker 3>formers of you?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I'm not so sure because my grandpa didn't

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<v Speaker 1>speak so much about the time. But my grandpa actually

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<v Speaker 1>was escaping from the Holocaust. His entire family was murder

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<v Speaker 1>over there in the concentration camp. So my grandpa escaped

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<v Speaker 1>to Israel and then he met my grandpa. My grandma's

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<v Speaker 1>or is Sarah. My father was born after that of

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<v Speaker 1>my second Marrit.

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<v Speaker 3>Your grandfather didn't talk about it much, but was that

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<v Speaker 3>kind of part of your family tradition, like family history,

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<v Speaker 3>like to have that understanding that you were there because

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<v Speaker 3>your family was able to flee.

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<v Speaker 1>It's crazy because I think that only now when I'm

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<v Speaker 1>hearing this in this tour about speaking about what happened

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<v Speaker 1>in the Keyboots Only now I'm really posing and stopping,

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, and just think about my history. Because

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<v Speaker 1>my father is like a really tough Keybootsnaker. It's a

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<v Speaker 1>really tough person. Don't like speak about a lot about

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<v Speaker 1>his history and speak about a lot like how it

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<v Speaker 1>was to grow up with a Holocaust survivor, because I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure that to gow up with a father that survived

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<v Speaker 1>the Holocaust is not super easy. So my father didn't

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<v Speaker 1>speak so much about our words. Is super proud in

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<v Speaker 1>his words, but we don't speak so much in his words.

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<v Speaker 1>So only now when I'm standing and speaking with the people,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really starting to think about my history, about that

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<v Speaker 1>my grandpa escaped from the Holocaust and letting me live

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<v Speaker 1>in Israel because this is like, this is my words.

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<v Speaker 1>I needed to be proud of my Jewish And then

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that I'm living in Israel because my grandpa

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<v Speaker 1>was fighting so hard to do aliatu as well, and

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<v Speaker 1>fighting so hard to come to this heaven, I would say,

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<v Speaker 1>So I think that only now I'm starting to speak

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<v Speaker 1>with my father about our history, and I'm starting to

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<v Speaker 1>feel so proud in my history because my grandpa actually

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<v Speaker 1>give me a life.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's an important part of Jewish tradition, at least

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<v Speaker 3>here in the States, and I imagine for you as well.

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<v Speaker 3>But we always say that we bear witness, like we

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<v Speaker 3>don't turn away from our history. We need to understand

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<v Speaker 3>the stories so that it doesn't happen again.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, and it's even more hard because in Israel, in

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<v Speaker 1>the high school, you go to a history exam, and

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<v Speaker 1>I will say, when you need to go to exam

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<v Speaker 1>on the Holocaust, I can't understand because my grandpa was

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<v Speaker 1>if I it was in the Holocaust. So to learn

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<v Speaker 1>about the history in Israel and to learn it back

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<v Speaker 1>then when I was eighteen, and then I will say,

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<v Speaker 1>to experience a kind of second Holocaust. But in twenty

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<v Speaker 1>twenty three, it was crazy because when you grew up

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<v Speaker 1>in Israel and you do this exam about the Holocaust,

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<v Speaker 1>you know that this is your legacy. But nobody could

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<v Speaker 1>imagine that it will be happening again. I was preparing

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<v Speaker 1>myself about the concentuation cap and how the Nazis was

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<v Speaker 1>killing the jew. I didn't imagine that the same thing

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<v Speaker 1>maybe will happen to me some days. So it's crazy

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<v Speaker 1>because this is it was like I was feeling that

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<v Speaker 1>this is my legacy. I would say, this is my history.

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<v Speaker 1>But now it became even more personal.

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<v Speaker 3>Still with the dream of raising their kids in the

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<v Speaker 3>countryside of Israel, ed And and her family moved to

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<v Speaker 3>Kibbut's Rhyme in the western part of the country.

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<v Speaker 1>Keyboots. It's really beautiful a way to grow up and

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<v Speaker 1>to live because you live in I would say in

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<v Speaker 1>a group, for example, my parents when they get a

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<v Speaker 1>salary each month, they entered the salary to the Kyboots,

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<v Speaker 1>and the Kiboots just give you the money back, but

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<v Speaker 1>by the children that you have, Like for example, if

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<v Speaker 1>you have two children, you get this amount of money.

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<v Speaker 1>And if you want to do some activities or something

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<v Speaker 1>like this, you need to ask money from the key Boots.

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<v Speaker 1>Or just if you want to, like to do your

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<v Speaker 1>driving license, you need to go to the secretary of

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<v Speaker 1>the Keyboots and tell them, hey, I need to do

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<v Speaker 1>my driver lescense and I grew up with a bunch

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<v Speaker 1>of friends, like from the kindergarten until high school, with

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<v Speaker 1>the same group of friends. I think that's like the

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<v Speaker 1>most we say wonderful things in the key Boots. It's

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<v Speaker 1>the value of take care of each other. Because everything

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<v Speaker 1>you do not for you for your own success, you

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<v Speaker 1>do it for the group success. So you work for

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<v Speaker 1>the Keyboots. Like I remember that my mom going edge

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<v Speaker 1>Saturday to milk the cows, and some saturdays you go

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<v Speaker 1>to work in the dining room. And all of the

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<v Speaker 1>holidays you need to volunteer, and like, who are going

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<v Speaker 1>to make this holiday, this pasta, this Hanukah, So everybody

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<v Speaker 1>just like doing a lot of volunteering in see the Keyboots.

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<v Speaker 3>You mentioned the holidays. Is everybody Jewish? Do you have

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<v Speaker 3>to be Jewish? No?

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<v Speaker 1>I think in the Keyboots you don't have to be

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<v Speaker 1>to be Jewish. We have a lot of Christians, a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of Catholic, a lot of also Arabic, like we

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<v Speaker 1>are the key Boots. Like the value that are super

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<v Speaker 1>important for us is to work the land, agriculture, the education.

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<v Speaker 1>So for us, if you will be like a Christian

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<v Speaker 1>a Muslim, for us, it is not mattering what you believe,

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<v Speaker 1>like we accept you as a person, as a human being.

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<v Speaker 3>When you were growing up on the Koboat, what did

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<v Speaker 3>you think you wanted to do? Like when you grew up, Like,

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<v Speaker 3>how did you imagine your life? Did you always want

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<v Speaker 3>to stay there?

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<v Speaker 1>Actually, when I grew up in the key Boots, I

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<v Speaker 1>really love the history of the place of my key

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<v Speaker 1>Boots area. So I really I was dreamed to become

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<v Speaker 1>a acheolgit archaeologic.

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<v Speaker 3>I think it's the word archaeologist is the person, Yes, archaeologist.

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<v Speaker 1>It's really challenging my accent.

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<v Speaker 3>It's a hard word even in English.

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<v Speaker 1>So because my area it's a beautiful area and you

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<v Speaker 1>have this all this kind of like old houses from

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<v Speaker 1>ancient time. So I was dreamed to become areology Areo

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<v Speaker 1>logit and to live in the area and discover more

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<v Speaker 1>history about my place.

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<v Speaker 3>But like every Israeli citizen, I didn't had to serve

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<v Speaker 3>at least two years in the army, but for her

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<v Speaker 3>it held a deeper, more important meaning.

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<v Speaker 1>I will say that we are the people who live

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<v Speaker 1>in the kybout seem for us to go to serving

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<v Speaker 1>the army it's respect. We actually we are so competition

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<v Speaker 1>between like me and my friend are so competitive, like

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<v Speaker 1>which position I will get because we grew up in

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<v Speaker 1>Gaza envelope and because we understand how much to serve

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<v Speaker 1>the army it's important. For us. It was like the

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<v Speaker 1>biggest mission that we need to do and the biggest

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<v Speaker 1>exam that we need to success in it. Because for

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<v Speaker 1>us to serving the army was like a respect and

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<v Speaker 1>for me, like me and my friend, like I was

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<v Speaker 1>excited to go to the army. I will say that

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<v Speaker 1>I think it or for a start, I will say

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<v Speaker 1>that to serving the army was make me more matured

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<v Speaker 1>and make me I would say, make me more matured,

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<v Speaker 1>in my life. I think that to serve in the

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<v Speaker 1>army give you a little bit of time to grow up,

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<v Speaker 1>to be more we say tough, to experience some things

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<v Speaker 1>in your life that you will never experience.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Well, first of all, how was your English so good?

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<v Speaker 3>And also what did you do in the army. What

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<v Speaker 3>was your job in the army.

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<v Speaker 1>I was a fitness instruction in the Army. I really

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<v Speaker 1>like to instruct people and I really love to work

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<v Speaker 1>with human beings and I all my life used to

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<v Speaker 1>dance ballet, So for me, this combination was wonderful. So

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<v Speaker 1>I was a fitness instructor in the intelligence in some

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<v Speaker 1>intelligence base in Israel. But after maybe six months I

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<v Speaker 1>needed I was feeling that I want to do even

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<v Speaker 1>more and I want to be in charge of the

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<v Speaker 1>fitness instructure in the army. So after the school of

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<v Speaker 1>the Officer, my first position was actually a navigation officer.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a little bit different from what I did

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<v Speaker 1>in the start, but for me it was super cool

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<v Speaker 1>because I was going like everywhere in Israel. I was

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<v Speaker 1>traveling to the south of Israel, to the north in Israel,

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<v Speaker 1>and just like making a map, a navigation map for

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<v Speaker 1>the soldier for them to understand more good the area

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<v Speaker 1>because like in the north, close to Lebanon, they will

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<v Speaker 1>have a lot of forests. So I actually built an

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<v Speaker 1>a vacation over there for them for maybe in the

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<v Speaker 1>future they will need to It's said because now we

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<v Speaker 1>have a situation with Lebanon, because in Sunday, someday, they

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<v Speaker 1>will need to get to know this area the best

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<v Speaker 1>that they can. So my role was to build an

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<v Speaker 1>vigation map and to instruct i will say, combat the

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<v Speaker 1>soldier to understand them. And after that, I was a

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<v Speaker 1>fitness officer of the tank unit in Israel. It's called

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<v Speaker 1>the She's a Phone. I was over there for one

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<v Speaker 1>year and I love it so much because to understand

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<v Speaker 1>the power of the army. If you want to understand

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<v Speaker 1>the power of the army, you need to go to

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<v Speaker 1>the tank unit because it's amazing. And after that I

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<v Speaker 1>was released from the army and like because all of

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<v Speaker 1>the Israeling going to travel after we finished the army.

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<v Speaker 1>For a few months in South America, I yet to

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<v Speaker 1>know a few friends from Europe and then I was

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<v Speaker 1>starting to speak with them English because they don't understand Nebro.

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<v Speaker 1>So from that point I was starting to work on

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<v Speaker 1>my English, and I'm happy. I would say that I

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<v Speaker 1>wish that we will not be must go to the army.

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, because I wish that the situation is well,

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<v Speaker 1>will be a little bit different, that we don't must

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<v Speaker 1>go to the army, and that we have a peace

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<v Speaker 1>in the Middle East between us and the country that

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<v Speaker 1>surrounded us. So now when I'm thinking that I need

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<v Speaker 1>like that, I'm studying my college only in twenty two

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<v Speaker 1>twenty four, and I said especially I was officer in

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<v Speaker 1>the army because I wanted to stay more in the

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<v Speaker 1>army and to serve more use than just to challenge

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<v Speaker 1>myself over there. So I finished the army in the

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<v Speaker 1>age of twenty fourth instead of twenty two twenty one,

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<v Speaker 1>because I really love to serve in the army. But

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<v Speaker 1>now when I'm looking it back, I wish it tell

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<v Speaker 1>it was a little bit different. But I understand that

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<v Speaker 1>this is a situation that we need to serve in

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<v Speaker 1>the army that we want. But I will say that

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<v Speaker 1>I wish that the situation was different in Israel, Like

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<v Speaker 1>I wish that we have this friend that when you

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<v Speaker 1>say to the young children, when we go up, we

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<v Speaker 1>will not we will not need to go to the

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<v Speaker 1>army tegdorvoloya. We say anybo, because we all the time

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<v Speaker 1>wish in our heart to peace, to live in peaceful

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<v Speaker 1>in Israel. We don't. We will without to be a

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<v Speaker 1>concern about what happened, what will be in an extract threat.

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<v Speaker 1>So I just reminded right now that every mom tell

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<v Speaker 1>her son and tell her daughter that I wish when

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<v Speaker 1>you will be eighteen, the army will not be obligation anymore.

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<v Speaker 3>When we come back. Eden tells us about what her

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<v Speaker 3>life looked like after serving in the Middle Terry. After serving,

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't plan to take time to travel, but like

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<v Speaker 3>so many of us, her plans were interrupted by COVID.

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<v Speaker 1>So I when I came back to Israel, I came

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<v Speaker 1>back because of the COVID. I was planned to travel

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<v Speaker 1>three months more to go to Argentina to meet my grandma,

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<v Speaker 1>to do Pesta with my family. But then COVID happened

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<v Speaker 1>and I was so angry. So I lived for a

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<v Speaker 1>while in the keyboots. I was working in the keyboots

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<v Speaker 1>because for me, it was like I didn't live for

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<v Speaker 1>a few years in the keyboots. Because I was living

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<v Speaker 1>in the Army, so I needed, like to settle damage

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<v Speaker 1>with the keyboots, to think about my future. And then

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<v Speaker 1>it was kind of opportunity to move to Tel Aviv

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<v Speaker 1>and for me to move from a small keyboats a

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<v Speaker 1>super priceful keyboots to like the main Tel Aviv. It

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<v Speaker 1>was a little bit hard. I was. I was a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit overwhelming, and I was like, I think twenty

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<v Speaker 1>four twenty five and I decided to move to the

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<v Speaker 1>city and I was starting to search a job in

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<v Speaker 1>the fitness I would say, yeah, world, after maybe one

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<v Speaker 1>year or so that I'm doing just like an ordinary job,

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<v Speaker 1>I entered to a studio that I really love. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>working in a fit house. It's like a pilate studio,

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<v Speaker 1>the best place in tel Aviv. And from back then,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm thinking that I'm working three years in Tel Aviv

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<v Speaker 1>in the same studio and I love it so much.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think that each year of living in Tel Aviv,

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<v Speaker 1>like each year was super different from the year before.

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<v Speaker 3>The weekend of the attack, Edin was still living in

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<v Speaker 3>Tel Aviv and I tried it viausse her family as

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<v Speaker 3>often as she was able. Work was busy and it

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<v Speaker 3>had been months, but finally the weekend of October sixth,

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<v Speaker 3>twenty twenty three, she and her boyfriend Amit found the

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<v Speaker 3>time to go back to visit both her family and

0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:09.200
<v Speaker 3>her childhood friend. Danielle was in town visiting.

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<v Speaker 1>But in that weekend, like it was one of the

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<v Speaker 1>weekend that I understand that I that I don't need

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<v Speaker 1>to work in the weekend, so I can't go and

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<v Speaker 1>visit my family, and a meet was agreed to come

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<v Speaker 1>with me also, so I would say yes, like the

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<v Speaker 1>star was aligned for me to go. It's ironic, but

0:19:28.000 --> 0:19:30.520
<v Speaker 1>the star was aligned to let me go to visit

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<v Speaker 1>my parents in the Keyboots and it's crazy. I w

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<v Speaker 1>a short story that like when you wre up in

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<v Speaker 1>the Keyboots, you used to think about the other all

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<v Speaker 1>the time, Like before I'm thinking about myself, I will

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<v Speaker 1>think about my friends, to think about daniel to take

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<v Speaker 1>about Tel and my mom, Like she dont like this

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<v Speaker 1>this scale, it's not scale, but this this scale off

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<v Speaker 1>I have. But because I have such a good friend,

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<v Speaker 1>it came to visit from New York in that weekend

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<v Speaker 1>in the Keyboots because she was growing up with me

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<v Speaker 1>in the Keyboots. But when she was twenty five, she

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<v Speaker 1>left the Keyboots and moved to New York, but in

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<v Speaker 1>that weekend she was in Israel. So I was like asking,

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<v Speaker 1>like for me to see Danielle because for me, friendship

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<v Speaker 1>is like the biggest value that I have in my life.

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<v Speaker 1>So I made everything too that I will go this

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<v Speaker 1>weekend to the Keyboats. Like I was scheduling with my job,

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<v Speaker 1>I was convincing on meat. I was telling my parents

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<v Speaker 1>that I come like I prepare it like everything, because

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<v Speaker 1>like for me, friendship is like it's everything, I would say.

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<v Speaker 1>So I arranged everything that me and it will come

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<v Speaker 1>to the Keyboats to meet it daniel before she came

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<v Speaker 1>back to New York. And I remember that when we

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<v Speaker 1>came to the Keyboats in the sixth of October, we

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<v Speaker 1>have this fun night we just play cards, and we

0:20:45.520 --> 0:20:48.720
<v Speaker 1>don't play cards so much, so we just like play cards,

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<v Speaker 1>like sit in one of our parents' balcony, in the

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<v Speaker 1>family balcony. We just sat there like like drinking with

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<v Speaker 1>the parents of the neighborhood. Because it was like really

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<v Speaker 1>common that you're sitting with your parents and your parents'

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<v Speaker 1>friends and everybody just like sat in a big table

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<v Speaker 1>and just like play played the cards and just drink

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<v Speaker 1>and just having so much fun. So we have like

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<v Speaker 1>the best evening. And I was like so happy because

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<v Speaker 1>like I would say that I managed to see all

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<v Speaker 1>my friends, like all my friends in the area, because

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<v Speaker 1>like when you grow up, like everyone take his own pet.

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<v Speaker 1>And for me, it's a bit sad because in the

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<v Speaker 1>keyboards you used to be like everybody together all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>So for me, like to have this time with my

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<v Speaker 1>friends that are super special for me, and so I

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<v Speaker 1>was very happy. Me and I me it was just

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<v Speaker 1>went to sleep, we say hello to my parents, and

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<v Speaker 1>I would say it like to grow up with Gaza envelope.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not easy like it sounds sometimes because I really remember,

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<v Speaker 1>like in the sixth of October when me and I

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<v Speaker 1>meet was going to sleep in my parents' house. I

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<v Speaker 1>was looking like like out side from my home, like

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<v Speaker 1>outside to our guardian and our phone door, because you

0:22:06.640 --> 0:22:09.639
<v Speaker 1>never feel like safe in your home, I will.

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<v Speaker 3>Say after the break, I don't recounts the harrowing events

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<v Speaker 3>that she experienced on October seventh.

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<v Speaker 1>In the seventh of October and six thirty in the morning,

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<v Speaker 1>we wake up to a siren in the Keybucine we

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<v Speaker 1>have a siren that she is like. You can hear it,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's like seva a doom, severa adome like a

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<v Speaker 1>woman that's just like telling it in the speatures of

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<v Speaker 1>the keyboats. And when you hear this severa adam, you

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<v Speaker 1>know that you need to run to the sheltered room.

0:22:49.400 --> 0:22:52.000
<v Speaker 1>And we call it mamad it's a shelter, a safe

0:22:52.000 --> 0:22:55.480
<v Speaker 1>from inside my home that the government build after two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand and eight. So my mom wakes me and I

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<v Speaker 1>meet and tell us then need we need to run

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<v Speaker 1>there with Seva doom And I was like whatever doom

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<v Speaker 1>Like it's like it's it's in the morning, but okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this is what they will in. You can't be I

0:23:10.240 --> 0:23:13.880
<v Speaker 1>will say indifferent. I think too the sevadom. You can't

0:23:13.880 --> 0:23:15.600
<v Speaker 1>stay in your vent because you don't know if the

0:23:15.640 --> 0:23:17.720
<v Speaker 1>missiles will hit in your home, but if it will

0:23:17.720 --> 0:23:19.960
<v Speaker 1>be in the set phone, it will be okay. So

0:23:20.480 --> 0:23:22.879
<v Speaker 1>we run into the cell phone. We stayed there for

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<v Speaker 1>a few moments and they will say okay, let's go

0:23:26.000 --> 0:23:29.040
<v Speaker 1>back to sleep because everything is okay. It's just another

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<v Speaker 1>regular morning in keybout Ray. I mean to living so

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<v Speaker 1>close to a organization and then I remember that my

0:23:36.040 --> 0:23:38.840
<v Speaker 1>friend texted me like, EDN, come overside, let's see the

0:23:38.920 --> 0:23:41.040
<v Speaker 1>missiles in the air, because it's a crazy thing that

0:23:41.080 --> 0:23:43.280
<v Speaker 1>we do. We can we see the missiles from the

0:23:43.359 --> 0:23:46.480
<v Speaker 1>keyboutte because you can actually see them from going out

0:23:46.480 --> 0:23:49.359
<v Speaker 1>from Gaza because we're super close to them. So even

0:23:49.400 --> 0:23:52.639
<v Speaker 1>if you don't have the siren Sevadom, you still can

0:23:52.720 --> 0:23:55.800
<v Speaker 1>hear the missiles that going maybe to another key team.

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<v Speaker 1>But after the third time, we say, okay, so maybe

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<v Speaker 1>let's open the the sofa in the same phone. Maybe

0:24:02.760 --> 0:24:05.959
<v Speaker 1>we go to sleep there. And then we heard like

0:24:06.000 --> 0:24:10.240
<v Speaker 1>a crazy like sounds of misses of like we heard

0:24:10.320 --> 0:24:14.399
<v Speaker 1>something different, but for us it was like, okay, maybe

0:24:14.520 --> 0:24:19.040
<v Speaker 1>like Hammas went crazy this morning. Maybe instead of shooting

0:24:19.080 --> 0:24:21.960
<v Speaker 1>one missiles, maybe they want to shoot one hundred missiles.

0:24:21.960 --> 0:24:27.200
<v Speaker 1>But okay, like they are unexpected. And I remember that

0:24:27.240 --> 0:24:29.879
<v Speaker 1>when me and my father and a mead sat on

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<v Speaker 1>the couch because we said, okay, apparently we're not going

0:24:34.000 --> 0:24:36.280
<v Speaker 1>to back to sleep today, so let's open the TV

0:24:36.520 --> 0:24:40.360
<v Speaker 1>seven am in the morning, let's make some breakfast. And

0:24:40.800 --> 0:24:42.439
<v Speaker 1>me and my father and a meat was sitting on

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<v Speaker 1>the couch opened the TV on the news channel. And

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<v Speaker 1>the first video that we saw, it's a pickup truck

0:24:49.280 --> 0:24:52.000
<v Speaker 1>inside the road. It's a city that is like fifteen

0:24:52.000 --> 0:24:55.000
<v Speaker 1>minutes by car for me, full with Hamas terrorists. You

0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:57.240
<v Speaker 1>can see the green bandage on the heath and so

0:24:57.280 --> 0:25:00.879
<v Speaker 1>you understand it's Hamas shooting from the up track inside

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<v Speaker 1>the world. For me, like to seeing this video is

0:25:18.320 --> 0:25:22.000
<v Speaker 1>like to sing my worst my worst nightmare come alive

0:25:22.200 --> 0:25:25.280
<v Speaker 1>because except of my mom told me like when you

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<v Speaker 1>will go up, it will not be army. She told

0:25:27.240 --> 0:25:29.280
<v Speaker 1>me all of my life, everything is okay, then like

0:25:30.000 --> 0:25:32.600
<v Speaker 1>this will not happen. We are like safe here, like

0:25:32.880 --> 0:25:35.720
<v Speaker 1>no way that Hamas or the people I will say

0:25:35.760 --> 0:25:38.159
<v Speaker 1>will hate us I don't want to say other people

0:25:38.720 --> 0:25:41.480
<v Speaker 1>and will come and try to murder us. And so

0:25:41.600 --> 0:25:44.639
<v Speaker 1>this is like my worst nightmare come alive, like in

0:25:44.720 --> 0:25:47.160
<v Speaker 1>the TV in seven am in the morning and they

0:25:47.160 --> 0:25:50.440
<v Speaker 1>are now here. From the right side of the keyboards,

0:25:50.480 --> 0:25:54.320
<v Speaker 1>we have the it was the Nova Music Festival. So

0:25:54.560 --> 0:25:57.480
<v Speaker 1>we're starting to hear these crazy noises from the boat side.

0:25:58.000 --> 0:26:00.800
<v Speaker 1>But we don't understand what happened because in the news

0:26:00.800 --> 0:26:04.040
<v Speaker 1>nothing is reported and the community, what's the book, nothing

0:26:04.160 --> 0:26:07.320
<v Speaker 1>is as written by the chief, So we say, okay,

0:26:07.320 --> 0:26:10.359
<v Speaker 1>maybe it's okay, maybe the idea of found the seven

0:26:10.400 --> 0:26:13.919
<v Speaker 1>pickup truck. But as the minutes passing by, the shooting

0:26:14.000 --> 0:26:16.400
<v Speaker 1>is starting to be more heavier and more heavier, and

0:26:16.960 --> 0:26:20.439
<v Speaker 1>the missiles alarm doesn't stop. So we're starting to understand

0:26:20.440 --> 0:26:23.080
<v Speaker 1>that this is starting to get closer and closer to

0:26:23.119 --> 0:26:25.679
<v Speaker 1>my key boots, and we didn't understand the number. We

0:26:25.720 --> 0:26:29.359
<v Speaker 1>didn't understand what happened in the nova because there is

0:26:29.440 --> 0:26:32.840
<v Speaker 1>like such a big confusion, and I would think that

0:26:33.000 --> 0:26:36.119
<v Speaker 1>the first time that we understand that Hamas invaded to

0:26:36.320 --> 0:26:38.600
<v Speaker 1>my key boots, because we know that Hamas invaded to

0:26:39.520 --> 0:26:42.639
<v Speaker 1>as well, but we didn't understand that invaded to my

0:26:42.760 --> 0:26:46.159
<v Speaker 1>key boots until eight twenty four in the morning.

0:26:49.200 --> 0:26:52.440
<v Speaker 3>Adn't received the message and the community is WhatsApp that

0:26:52.440 --> 0:26:55.040
<v Speaker 3>Hermas was inside the kabbots.

0:26:55.640 --> 0:27:00.119
<v Speaker 1>So for us to see this like three message, it

0:27:00.160 --> 0:27:03.280
<v Speaker 1>was like the waking up call for us because until

0:27:03.359 --> 0:27:06.919
<v Speaker 1>that point we didn't believe that they couldn't succeed so

0:27:07.040 --> 0:27:09.919
<v Speaker 1>much harmas they could actually enter to the.

0:27:09.960 --> 0:27:13.000
<v Speaker 3>Keyboots, unable to lock the safe room.

0:27:13.440 --> 0:27:15.680
<v Speaker 1>Because the cell phone is supposed to protect you from

0:27:15.680 --> 0:27:18.800
<v Speaker 1>missiles and sometimes the missiles making a fire, so you

0:27:18.840 --> 0:27:21.480
<v Speaker 1>need to be able to go outside from the safe phone,

0:27:21.520 --> 0:27:23.520
<v Speaker 1>so you can't lock yourself inside.

0:27:23.840 --> 0:27:26.320
<v Speaker 3>So her father suggested they go hide in the attic.

0:27:26.680 --> 0:27:29.840
<v Speaker 1>So my father bring the letter, and me and my

0:27:30.000 --> 0:27:32.479
<v Speaker 1>mother and Amit was climbing the letter and stayed up,

0:27:32.520 --> 0:27:34.840
<v Speaker 1>and my father decided to stay down. I think that

0:27:34.960 --> 0:27:39.480
<v Speaker 1>my father was over estimated himself and he was thinking

0:27:39.520 --> 0:27:44.160
<v Speaker 1>that maybe he could confront them, maybe he can awarn

0:27:44.320 --> 0:27:48.120
<v Speaker 1>us to let us know what happened down because our

0:27:48.280 --> 0:27:51.800
<v Speaker 1>eyes was blinded because from that point, the service wasn't

0:27:51.800 --> 0:27:55.400
<v Speaker 1>so good. In the keyboutine. The only pieces of information

0:27:55.600 --> 0:27:58.000
<v Speaker 1>was from the watterpoop and we didn't have so much

0:27:58.040 --> 0:28:01.399
<v Speaker 1>a good reception. So my father was kind of our eyes.

0:28:01.960 --> 0:28:03.960
<v Speaker 1>But I don't know why he decided to stay down.

0:28:04.320 --> 0:28:06.080
<v Speaker 1>Maybe he was thinking that he would take the first

0:28:06.119 --> 0:28:09.240
<v Speaker 1>bullet or something like this, or maybe he could protect us,

0:28:09.320 --> 0:28:12.440
<v Speaker 1>because he's like he was like the lion that protected

0:28:12.480 --> 0:28:15.639
<v Speaker 1>his family. So me and my mom and Amite was

0:28:15.680 --> 0:28:20.400
<v Speaker 1>sitting inside the attic. And it's crazy because I couldn't

0:28:20.400 --> 0:28:27.000
<v Speaker 1>believe how I experienced this second Holocaust because I was studying,

0:28:27.080 --> 0:28:30.080
<v Speaker 1>So I was studying, so much about the Holocaust and

0:28:30.119 --> 0:28:33.240
<v Speaker 1>about the history of my family. But then I will say,

0:28:33.240 --> 0:28:37.399
<v Speaker 1>the Holocaust find me. I just celebrated twenty eight and

0:28:37.440 --> 0:28:40.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm sitting on the attic with my boyfriend and with

0:28:40.160 --> 0:28:44.200
<v Speaker 1>my mom and just starting to realize that my life

0:28:44.240 --> 0:28:48.080
<v Speaker 1>is going to be over and that they're going to

0:28:48.160 --> 0:28:51.680
<v Speaker 1>murder me. And this time I knew that they come

0:28:51.880 --> 0:28:55.760
<v Speaker 1>to murder me, and I was like starting to I

0:28:55.760 --> 0:28:58.400
<v Speaker 1>would say, to conclude my not conclude my life, but

0:28:58.480 --> 0:29:02.360
<v Speaker 1>to summerize my life, to think about my dreams, the

0:29:02.400 --> 0:29:06.560
<v Speaker 1>thing that I was like succeed to accomplish, the thing

0:29:06.640 --> 0:29:10.800
<v Speaker 1>that I that I will not accomplish until until forever.

0:29:11.520 --> 0:29:14.840
<v Speaker 1>And looking on my boyfriend eyes and just like to

0:29:14.920 --> 0:29:17.560
<v Speaker 1>sitting in the Holocaust and really liked to feel like

0:29:17.600 --> 0:29:20.040
<v Speaker 1>Anna Frank it was it was something.

0:29:19.800 --> 0:29:24.520
<v Speaker 3>Different contemplating life. She couldn't bear the thought that she

0:29:24.680 --> 0:29:26.960
<v Speaker 3>or her father would have to die just steps away

0:29:27.000 --> 0:29:29.160
<v Speaker 3>from each other, if.

0:29:29.040 --> 0:29:32.600
<v Speaker 1>That would be my last moment on the sort in

0:29:32.640 --> 0:29:34.800
<v Speaker 1>the keyboats, I wanted to spend them with my father,

0:29:34.920 --> 0:29:37.960
<v Speaker 1>and so we decided to jump from the attic. We

0:29:38.000 --> 0:29:40.480
<v Speaker 1>didn't have the time to bring a letter because in

0:29:40.560 --> 0:29:42.960
<v Speaker 1>that point in Saturday, we're starting to hear the shooting

0:29:43.120 --> 0:29:44.760
<v Speaker 1>really closest to my neighborhood.

0:29:45.760 --> 0:29:48.000
<v Speaker 3>Ada in a meet and her mom ran to the

0:29:48.040 --> 0:29:51.440
<v Speaker 3>safe room and reunited with their father, and we.

0:29:52.040 --> 0:29:54.280
<v Speaker 1>Sat in the safe room, and we heard a knock

0:29:54.440 --> 0:29:56.400
<v Speaker 1>on the back door, and we knew that we were

0:29:56.520 --> 0:30:00.480
<v Speaker 1>next because our neighbors told us that now they're shooting

0:30:00.480 --> 0:30:03.480
<v Speaker 1>in the home and they can hear Arabic, and our

0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:06.160
<v Speaker 1>neighbors from the front write us that they are now

0:30:06.200 --> 0:30:09.680
<v Speaker 1>starting to feel smoke and we're starting to be choking

0:30:09.680 --> 0:30:11.800
<v Speaker 1>inside the safe rom so we understand that they are

0:30:11.800 --> 0:30:15.440
<v Speaker 1>now burning my own family house. So we knew that

0:30:15.480 --> 0:30:18.959
<v Speaker 1>we are next, and we knew that we are alone

0:30:18.960 --> 0:30:21.840
<v Speaker 1>now only asking God. So we heard a knock on

0:30:21.880 --> 0:30:23.920
<v Speaker 1>the front on the back door, and then we heard

0:30:23.920 --> 0:30:27.000
<v Speaker 1>a second knock on the front door. So my father

0:30:27.040 --> 0:30:30.240
<v Speaker 1>and Amit was going to hold the door because it

0:30:30.400 --> 0:30:33.360
<v Speaker 1>was the only only option to prevent him from letting in,

0:30:34.080 --> 0:30:37.600
<v Speaker 1>and we didn't think about the possibility of that maybe

0:30:37.600 --> 0:30:40.320
<v Speaker 1>he will shoot on the door and we will be murdered,

0:30:40.320 --> 0:30:43.320
<v Speaker 1>with thinking to okay, let's hold the door and we

0:30:43.360 --> 0:30:46.400
<v Speaker 1>will be safe like this. So I remember that a

0:30:46.480 --> 0:30:48.719
<v Speaker 1>meeting and my father going to hold the door, and

0:30:48.760 --> 0:30:51.880
<v Speaker 1>then we heard a shooting a shot, and he actually

0:30:51.960 --> 0:30:54.520
<v Speaker 1>was shutting shooting on the door on the front door.

0:30:55.080 --> 0:30:57.920
<v Speaker 1>And by this it was just like going in and

0:30:58.480 --> 0:31:01.960
<v Speaker 1>we heard him actually like walk inside my home. It's

0:31:02.000 --> 0:31:05.719
<v Speaker 1>crazy because I felt so hopeless and I was starting

0:31:05.760 --> 0:31:08.320
<v Speaker 1>to see and my father meanwhile he was like holding

0:31:08.320 --> 0:31:10.720
<v Speaker 1>the door. I saw my father saying like goodbye for

0:31:10.760 --> 0:31:13.520
<v Speaker 1>my mom. And my mom and my father have like

0:31:13.560 --> 0:31:16.400
<v Speaker 1>a love for the fairy tales. I would say they

0:31:16.400 --> 0:31:18.840
<v Speaker 1>are like maybe thirty six years by now and they

0:31:18.840 --> 0:31:21.920
<v Speaker 1>are like in love like teenagers. So to saying my

0:31:22.000 --> 0:31:24.880
<v Speaker 1>father is like saying goodbye for my mom. I think

0:31:24.920 --> 0:31:27.880
<v Speaker 1>it was the most time we say hard part because

0:31:27.880 --> 0:31:29.960
<v Speaker 1>I would say that if my father feeling hopeless now,

0:31:30.000 --> 0:31:33.960
<v Speaker 1>so there is no hope. And then all of a sudden,

0:31:34.040 --> 0:31:36.880
<v Speaker 1>we saw the doorknob going down and up, so you

0:31:36.920 --> 0:31:39.000
<v Speaker 1>understand that he understand that we are in the safe phone.

0:31:39.040 --> 0:31:41.920
<v Speaker 1>And now we try to open the door, and my

0:31:41.960 --> 0:31:44.400
<v Speaker 1>father in a mid to try resisting and resist him

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:47.160
<v Speaker 1>and like preventing from letting him. But we didn't swim,

0:31:47.160 --> 0:31:49.400
<v Speaker 1>We didn't do nothing. We just like say okay, maybe

0:31:49.400 --> 0:31:51.200
<v Speaker 1>we'll keep quiet and like fright on the door and

0:31:51.280 --> 0:31:53.600
<v Speaker 1>maybe we'll he will give up. And then maybe after

0:31:53.760 --> 0:31:56.760
<v Speaker 1>five minutes or so, we didn't sew the door moving,

0:31:57.400 --> 0:32:00.400
<v Speaker 1>so we think it to ourselves. Okay, maybe he he

0:32:00.600 --> 0:32:03.480
<v Speaker 1>just raists for a little bit. Maybe he going to

0:32:03.600 --> 0:32:06.480
<v Speaker 1>call his friends and now they will try to open

0:32:06.520 --> 0:32:09.720
<v Speaker 1>the door together. Maybe he climbing the letter and hide

0:32:09.800 --> 0:32:13.040
<v Speaker 1>us in the attic inside my parents' bedroom and wait

0:32:13.120 --> 0:32:15.560
<v Speaker 1>for the moment that me and my family will pop

0:32:15.560 --> 0:32:17.400
<v Speaker 1>out from them a moth from the safe poom and

0:32:17.640 --> 0:32:20.960
<v Speaker 1>just shoot us. So we was just like being I

0:32:21.000 --> 0:32:23.640
<v Speaker 1>will say on our guards like admit, and my father

0:32:23.680 --> 0:32:26.560
<v Speaker 1>didn't hold the door for two hours or so because

0:32:26.800 --> 0:32:30.440
<v Speaker 1>we couldn't imagine that he would just give up, because

0:32:30.680 --> 0:32:34.320
<v Speaker 1>we couldn't understand that we will have this luck, because

0:32:34.560 --> 0:32:38.120
<v Speaker 1>actually he was walking inside my home. He was trying

0:32:38.120 --> 0:32:41.160
<v Speaker 1>to find I spanned us, so why he was letting go.

0:32:42.680 --> 0:32:47.480
<v Speaker 3>The silence was palpable. They had gone, but they didn't

0:32:47.560 --> 0:32:50.840
<v Speaker 3>dare move. They stayed in the safe room for another

0:32:50.920 --> 0:32:54.480
<v Speaker 3>twenty seven hours, terrified and desperate for survival.

0:32:55.760 --> 0:32:58.240
<v Speaker 1>So he kept being like that in the in the

0:32:58.280 --> 0:33:02.200
<v Speaker 1>safe room, without food, without without water, and we have

0:33:02.520 --> 0:33:05.720
<v Speaker 1>our restroom was a little bucket of the food of

0:33:05.760 --> 0:33:08.800
<v Speaker 1>my dog. But I'm thinking about this now. It's okay,

0:33:08.880 --> 0:33:12.360
<v Speaker 1>because when you want to survive, you lose humanity. Every

0:33:12.480 --> 0:33:15.760
<v Speaker 1>day you just lose it. So only in eleven in

0:33:15.800 --> 0:33:18.160
<v Speaker 1>the morning the day after after we did it, we

0:33:18.200 --> 0:33:20.600
<v Speaker 1>didn't eat, we didn't sleep, like me and I meet

0:33:20.800 --> 0:33:23.960
<v Speaker 1>was like kind of they would say, the protectors of

0:33:24.080 --> 0:33:26.400
<v Speaker 1>my parents and my own family, because we are the

0:33:26.480 --> 0:33:29.200
<v Speaker 1>youngest ones. So we we knew that this is our

0:33:29.240 --> 0:33:32.160
<v Speaker 1>responsibility to be awake all the night and just to

0:33:32.240 --> 0:33:34.480
<v Speaker 1>watch on the door. So me and I meet was

0:33:34.640 --> 0:33:37.680
<v Speaker 1>just like doing a change our position each time, like

0:33:37.760 --> 0:33:40.120
<v Speaker 1>I was holding the door, a meetside was in the phone,

0:33:40.160 --> 0:33:44.520
<v Speaker 1>try to get any information from the WhatsApp, and we're switching.

0:33:45.440 --> 0:33:47.840
<v Speaker 1>And we didn't slept all the night. So only in

0:33:47.840 --> 0:33:50.200
<v Speaker 1>eleven in the morning the day after the chap of

0:33:50.280 --> 0:33:52.680
<v Speaker 1>the keyboots tell us that it's now safe for us

0:33:52.720 --> 0:33:56.040
<v Speaker 1>to go out of the keyboots and that we need

0:33:56.080 --> 0:33:58.880
<v Speaker 1>to evacuate it ourselves now to take a small suitcase

0:33:58.920 --> 0:34:03.640
<v Speaker 1>and just to drove. And I remember that. You really

0:34:03.640 --> 0:34:05.280
<v Speaker 1>want to think that maybe it was like a bid

0:34:05.440 --> 0:34:08.120
<v Speaker 1>nightmare or something like this, but to go out from

0:34:08.120 --> 0:34:10.320
<v Speaker 1>the kyboot and to see all this burnt car of

0:34:10.440 --> 0:34:13.759
<v Speaker 1>the people, of the young adults. It was celebrating the

0:34:13.760 --> 0:34:16.440
<v Speaker 1>Nova party. And just to see their cars like along

0:34:16.480 --> 0:34:20.120
<v Speaker 1>the road with all the bodies of the young adult

0:34:20.320 --> 0:34:23.279
<v Speaker 1>was celebrating the Nova. I couldn't deny it. I know

0:34:23.360 --> 0:34:25.760
<v Speaker 1>it is not It wasn't a nightmare. It was actually

0:34:26.040 --> 0:34:27.120
<v Speaker 1>the seventh of October.

0:34:33.400 --> 0:34:37.120
<v Speaker 2>Dozens of Israelis are dead, hundreds are injured, and Amass

0:34:37.160 --> 0:34:40.080
<v Speaker 2>claimed to have taken hostages bringing them back to the

0:34:40.120 --> 0:34:40.800
<v Speaker 2>Gaza Strip.

0:34:40.880 --> 0:34:44.799
<v Speaker 3>It's been one horror and tragedy after the next since

0:34:44.800 --> 0:34:49.040
<v Speaker 3>amas Is killing and kidnapping attack of Israelis ten weeks ago.

0:34:49.640 --> 0:34:54.680
<v Speaker 4>The rampaging militants attacked homes with hand grenades, RPGs and gunfire.

0:34:55.239 --> 0:34:58.359
<v Speaker 4>Then they set them a blaze, hoping to smoke out

0:34:58.480 --> 0:35:02.080
<v Speaker 4>families hiding inside. Many were burned alive.

0:35:02.560 --> 0:35:06.040
<v Speaker 1>It's like a horror movie. To me, it was the

0:35:06.280 --> 0:35:11.760
<v Speaker 1>scariest thing that's ever happened in my life.

0:35:14.040 --> 0:35:16.840
<v Speaker 3>In the days after, as you started to learn more news,

0:35:17.719 --> 0:35:18.439
<v Speaker 3>what did you learn.

0:35:19.360 --> 0:35:22.359
<v Speaker 1>I learned that I don't know if I'm answering, but

0:35:22.520 --> 0:35:26.480
<v Speaker 1>I learned that I was so lucky because By the

0:35:26.600 --> 0:35:30.640
<v Speaker 1>days going by, you're starting to understand the numbers. And

0:35:31.200 --> 0:35:34.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm leaving five minutes back car from Kibbutz Perry. It's

0:35:34.120 --> 0:35:37.960
<v Speaker 1>less than two miles, I think, so to starting to

0:35:38.040 --> 0:35:39.840
<v Speaker 1>understand what happened in kibutz Bery.

0:35:41.520 --> 0:35:45.800
<v Speaker 3>Kibbutz Berry was massacred. A mass roamed through the small

0:35:45.880 --> 0:35:49.440
<v Speaker 3>farming village until the evening of October eighth and killed

0:35:49.480 --> 0:35:54.120
<v Speaker 3>over one hundred citizens. Thirty two hostages were taken from Berry.

0:35:54.880 --> 0:35:57.200
<v Speaker 3>The damage to the small village can still be seen

0:35:57.239 --> 0:35:57.759
<v Speaker 3>to this day.

0:35:58.760 --> 0:36:02.640
<v Speaker 1>Now my friends, our orphan or did have friends that

0:36:02.760 --> 0:36:06.160
<v Speaker 1>they are now losing their brother to starting to understand

0:36:06.200 --> 0:36:09.759
<v Speaker 1>what happened in Keyboots near us that now our bellyhood

0:36:09.760 --> 0:36:13.080
<v Speaker 1>a friend of mine from the times that back then

0:36:13.120 --> 0:36:15.799
<v Speaker 1>I used to dance in ballet class, so that our

0:36:15.840 --> 0:36:19.400
<v Speaker 1>belly is now kidnapp hostages in Gaza. I couldn't understand,

0:36:19.400 --> 0:36:25.080
<v Speaker 1>like how we survived. So I meet parents living fast sabah.

0:36:25.320 --> 0:36:28.520
<v Speaker 1>But all the people of the Keyboots can They went

0:36:28.600 --> 0:36:31.919
<v Speaker 1>to a lat because we knew it. Like the idea

0:36:31.960 --> 0:36:34.000
<v Speaker 1>of to us that we need to leave the Gaza

0:36:34.080 --> 0:36:39.160
<v Speaker 1>envelope now because it's a closed army area, so now

0:36:39.239 --> 0:36:41.960
<v Speaker 1>everybody needed to leave their homes. When we drove, we

0:36:42.000 --> 0:36:45.200
<v Speaker 1>said that the twenty minutes in the start of this

0:36:45.400 --> 0:36:50.239
<v Speaker 1>ride was the most hardest because we just saw, we

0:36:50.280 --> 0:36:53.600
<v Speaker 1>saw everything. We just saw what happened in October seven.

0:36:54.520 --> 0:36:57.680
<v Speaker 1>We saw the pickup of armas, we saw the weapon,

0:36:58.280 --> 0:37:02.520
<v Speaker 1>we opened the news and finally we saw the bodies.

0:37:02.920 --> 0:37:06.880
<v Speaker 1>We saw all the fire still going on in the

0:37:06.960 --> 0:37:11.080
<v Speaker 1>Kibutine because Ramas destroyed so many houses. So I think

0:37:11.080 --> 0:37:14.160
<v Speaker 1>not like the first twenty minutes was we say the

0:37:14.200 --> 0:37:17.759
<v Speaker 1>hardest part of the driving to amit parents' house.

0:37:19.200 --> 0:37:22.279
<v Speaker 3>I mean when and how did you get back to

0:37:22.320 --> 0:37:24.800
<v Speaker 3>some version of a normal life.

0:37:25.080 --> 0:37:28.200
<v Speaker 1>So in the start, I was with my family in

0:37:28.280 --> 0:37:32.600
<v Speaker 1>the hotel in a lot for three months, around three

0:37:32.680 --> 0:37:35.640
<v Speaker 1>or two months. And for the start it was healing

0:37:35.680 --> 0:37:38.480
<v Speaker 1>for me because I needed to be with people who

0:37:38.520 --> 0:37:40.759
<v Speaker 1>went through the same thing that I was bent through.

0:37:41.560 --> 0:37:44.359
<v Speaker 1>So for me to be with my friends because friends

0:37:44.400 --> 0:37:47.080
<v Speaker 1>as family. For me to be with my friends in

0:37:47.200 --> 0:37:49.319
<v Speaker 1>a lot in the hotel and just to sit with

0:37:49.360 --> 0:37:52.239
<v Speaker 1>them each night, just to talk and to be with

0:37:52.280 --> 0:37:55.360
<v Speaker 1>people that actually understand what I've been through, it was

0:37:55.719 --> 0:37:59.600
<v Speaker 1>essential essential for me. But then after maybe one month

0:37:59.680 --> 0:38:03.400
<v Speaker 1>and half, I'm feeling that I'm still in shiva, you know,

0:38:03.520 --> 0:38:06.680
<v Speaker 1>like shiva that you're sitting and you just like seven

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<v Speaker 1>days about the one who lost. And I think that

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<v Speaker 1>for me to sit in shiva for one month and

0:38:13.560 --> 0:38:17.680
<v Speaker 1>a half, it was too much already because I couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>recover from the trauma because each day I was like

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<v Speaker 1>speaking about about what happened and talking about what happened

0:38:26.360 --> 0:38:30.080
<v Speaker 1>in the keyboats, and each day we heard about another

0:38:30.160 --> 0:38:33.239
<v Speaker 1>person that idea for discovered that he was murdering in

0:38:33.760 --> 0:38:37.160
<v Speaker 1>the seventh of October. So I knew that I need

0:38:37.160 --> 0:38:42.279
<v Speaker 1>to start recover the trauma. So for me, I was

0:38:42.360 --> 0:38:45.759
<v Speaker 1>going back to tell I was starting to go back

0:38:45.800 --> 0:38:50.120
<v Speaker 1>to my work in November, I think, but to go

0:38:50.200 --> 0:38:53.319
<v Speaker 1>to the university I was startying, I think only in

0:38:53.400 --> 0:38:58.360
<v Speaker 1>December because I couldn't I wouldn't be I was not

0:38:58.520 --> 0:39:03.640
<v Speaker 1>able to sit in the classroom. But for me, like

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, it was after the one month and

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<v Speaker 1>a half it I was in a lat it was

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<v Speaker 1>essential to be with people that was not being through

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<v Speaker 1>what I've been through in October seven because I needed

0:39:14.960 --> 0:39:17.520
<v Speaker 1>to do something else to help me recovered and not

0:39:17.760 --> 0:39:21.080
<v Speaker 1>just to diving inside the trauma.

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<v Speaker 3>And still you've decided to share your story with others.

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<v Speaker 3>What made you make that decision? I mean, I can

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<v Speaker 3>see that it's hard for you to retell it. It

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<v Speaker 3>wasn't very long ago, and I think it'll probably say

0:39:33.920 --> 0:39:36.040
<v Speaker 3>with you for a long time, maybe forever. Like what

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<v Speaker 3>made you decide to start sharing it?

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<v Speaker 1>I think that the first reason is because I mentioned

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<v Speaker 1>that I was traveling in South America. I met a

0:39:43.520 --> 0:39:46.160
<v Speaker 1>lot of friends from Europe and from the world, and

0:39:46.480 --> 0:39:49.560
<v Speaker 1>after October seven, I felt that people not seeing the

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<v Speaker 1>right image. So I felt it I must go in

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<v Speaker 1>to share my story from my eyes, from a woman

0:39:56.040 --> 0:39:58.840
<v Speaker 1>that grew up in Gaza, envelope, from a woman that

0:39:59.000 --> 0:40:03.720
<v Speaker 1>experienced seventh of October inside of home, because I needed

0:40:03.760 --> 0:40:08.840
<v Speaker 1>to tell the truth because somehow people believe to this nonsense.

0:40:09.280 --> 0:40:13.239
<v Speaker 1>And I think that the second because I think that's

0:40:13.239 --> 0:40:15.520
<v Speaker 1>to go up and does the envelope make me super strong?

0:40:15.680 --> 0:40:18.480
<v Speaker 1>And not many things try to I will say, to

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<v Speaker 1>touch me or to excited me. So I started to

0:40:22.280 --> 0:40:25.480
<v Speaker 1>feel like a like that I have this kind of shield,

0:40:25.719 --> 0:40:28.239
<v Speaker 1>this kind of wall. I knew that if I will

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<v Speaker 1>start to speak about my trauma, it will help me

0:40:30.800 --> 0:40:33.000
<v Speaker 1>to feel It will help me to connect to the

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<v Speaker 1>trauma and not to put a wall between me and

0:40:36.400 --> 0:40:41.680
<v Speaker 1>what happened and just let me experience this, because when

0:40:41.680 --> 0:40:44.080
<v Speaker 1>you grow up and envelope and when you grow up

0:40:44.640 --> 0:40:47.160
<v Speaker 1>next to the organization, you used to put a wall

0:40:47.640 --> 0:40:50.880
<v Speaker 1>and you try to be the strongest and the strongest

0:40:50.880 --> 0:40:53.640
<v Speaker 1>as you can. But this time, I was thinking that

0:40:53.680 --> 0:40:56.400
<v Speaker 1>if I will share what happened in Octorous seven, it

0:40:56.440 --> 0:40:59.400
<v Speaker 1>will help me feel more and help me to connect

0:40:59.440 --> 0:41:02.360
<v Speaker 1>more to this trauma, and maybe if I will connect

0:41:02.400 --> 0:41:04.960
<v Speaker 1>to the trauma, I will starting to heal from it.

0:41:05.120 --> 0:41:05.920
<v Speaker 3>Has that happened?

0:41:07.280 --> 0:41:10.280
<v Speaker 1>I think yes, I think it really helped me because

0:41:10.320 --> 0:41:13.200
<v Speaker 1>even now when I speak with you, I'm starting to

0:41:13.239 --> 0:41:16.960
<v Speaker 1>remind in a few things that I didn't I was

0:41:17.239 --> 0:41:21.040
<v Speaker 1>thinking about him until now, about the letter about people

0:41:21.080 --> 0:41:24.080
<v Speaker 1>that was happening, about things that happened inside the mamad.

0:41:24.840 --> 0:41:28.000
<v Speaker 1>So each time when I'm speaking about this trauma, I'm

0:41:28.040 --> 0:41:33.680
<v Speaker 1>thinking about many miracles that happened on Saturday. So it's

0:41:33.680 --> 0:41:35.600
<v Speaker 1>helped me to understand, and it's helped me too. I

0:41:35.600 --> 0:41:38.799
<v Speaker 1>will say, to take this trauma more close to me,

0:41:38.880 --> 0:41:41.120
<v Speaker 1>I will say, because sometimes when you look on trauma,

0:41:41.200 --> 0:41:44.359
<v Speaker 1>you look about a trauma of other person. But now

0:41:44.360 --> 0:41:47.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm starting to understand this isn't my trauma. It's happened

0:41:47.520 --> 0:41:50.600
<v Speaker 1>to me, not happened to other person. Because when you

0:41:50.680 --> 0:41:55.080
<v Speaker 1>experience this I will say, life changing events, it's really

0:41:55.120 --> 0:41:57.480
<v Speaker 1>hard to understand that it's happened to you, not or

0:41:57.520 --> 0:41:58.719
<v Speaker 1>your friends or something like this.

0:42:00.120 --> 0:42:03.000
<v Speaker 3>So on this show we talk about how these things

0:42:03.000 --> 0:42:06.399
<v Speaker 3>that happen outside of us, like these experiences that we

0:42:06.480 --> 0:42:10.120
<v Speaker 3>go through, change our perspective, like the way that we

0:42:10.160 --> 0:42:14.480
<v Speaker 3>see the world, and then they change our actions as

0:42:14.480 --> 0:42:18.840
<v Speaker 3>a result. So how do you think your perspective has changed,

0:42:18.880 --> 0:42:21.319
<v Speaker 3>and do you think it's changed what you may do

0:42:21.400 --> 0:42:21.919
<v Speaker 3>with your life.

0:42:22.760 --> 0:42:25.960
<v Speaker 1>When I was like, I would say that I'm towards myself.

0:42:26.000 --> 0:42:30.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm really judgment judgmental, And my teacher, I would say,

0:42:30.840 --> 0:42:32.680
<v Speaker 1>in the office of school told me, and then you

0:42:32.760 --> 0:42:35.360
<v Speaker 1>don't need to be a you don't need the enemies.

0:42:35.520 --> 0:42:38.800
<v Speaker 1>You are the own enemy of yourself. And it's funny

0:42:38.800 --> 0:42:42.480
<v Speaker 1>because she knew me only three months, but she could

0:42:42.520 --> 0:42:45.640
<v Speaker 1>really like see through me because I would said it

0:42:45.680 --> 0:42:48.440
<v Speaker 1>as a I don't want to say as a woman,

0:42:48.719 --> 0:42:51.960
<v Speaker 1>but as a as a human being. I'm a super

0:42:52.040 --> 0:42:56.480
<v Speaker 1>judgmental towards myself, and I was like judging myself by

0:42:56.640 --> 0:43:01.040
<v Speaker 1>how I'm looking like on my appearance, what is like

0:43:01.320 --> 0:43:04.799
<v Speaker 1>my successful how I success to doing this, how I

0:43:04.840 --> 0:43:08.560
<v Speaker 1>managed to accomplish, to accomplish that mission of myself, Like

0:43:08.719 --> 0:43:11.000
<v Speaker 1>all of my life was judging myself and telling myself

0:43:11.000 --> 0:43:13.080
<v Speaker 1>and then you're not good in this, You're not good

0:43:13.120 --> 0:43:17.000
<v Speaker 1>in debt. And I'm feeling that not only meetinging like

0:43:17.080 --> 0:43:19.839
<v Speaker 1>this like many people thinking and just I would say

0:43:19.880 --> 0:43:22.839
<v Speaker 1>living their life by quick and to have so much,

0:43:22.840 --> 0:43:27.960
<v Speaker 1>I would say judge and criticism to them to themselves.

0:43:28.320 --> 0:43:31.200
<v Speaker 1>So when I was actually sitting inside the ethic, I

0:43:31.280 --> 0:43:33.880
<v Speaker 1>was thinking to myself like like why I was so

0:43:34.040 --> 0:43:37.640
<v Speaker 1>bad to myself? Like why I decided to live until

0:43:37.680 --> 0:43:42.400
<v Speaker 1>now without peace between myself and I needed to to

0:43:42.600 --> 0:43:46.520
<v Speaker 1>start to do a piece inside of me and starting

0:43:46.560 --> 0:43:49.840
<v Speaker 1>to see the good in life and not to judge

0:43:49.880 --> 0:43:53.680
<v Speaker 1>myself in the thing that I don't accomplish. And I

0:43:53.760 --> 0:43:57.800
<v Speaker 1>need to be proud in myself. I need to proud

0:43:58.000 --> 0:44:03.040
<v Speaker 1>in in the in my personality in edin because I

0:44:03.080 --> 0:44:04.920
<v Speaker 1>spend so much time in my life to think that

0:44:04.960 --> 0:44:07.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm not good enough, that I need to be better,

0:44:07.840 --> 0:44:09.719
<v Speaker 1>and I was promised to myself that if I will

0:44:09.840 --> 0:44:12.480
<v Speaker 1>survive it, I was starting to do a change because

0:44:13.360 --> 0:44:16.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm twenty eight and it's not young, it's not old,

0:44:17.000 --> 0:44:22.080
<v Speaker 1>it's in the middle. So I have this I will say,

0:44:22.920 --> 0:44:26.280
<v Speaker 1>a good battle. But I have this battle now inside

0:44:26.320 --> 0:44:28.440
<v Speaker 1>myself because I know that I need to do this change,

0:44:29.520 --> 0:44:34.080
<v Speaker 1>because I feel so lucky that I will survived October

0:44:34.120 --> 0:44:38.759
<v Speaker 1>seven because so many people wasn't survived and I got

0:44:38.760 --> 0:44:42.480
<v Speaker 1>a second chance to try to live my life and

0:44:43.239 --> 0:44:45.719
<v Speaker 1>try to be proud of myself. And I tell them

0:44:45.719 --> 0:44:48.879
<v Speaker 1>to myself that I'm too much old for this, I'm

0:44:48.880 --> 0:44:52.400
<v Speaker 1>too much old for that. And then cha, I shift

0:44:52.600 --> 0:44:54.440
<v Speaker 1>the way I'm looking now on my life, and I

0:44:54.480 --> 0:44:57.400
<v Speaker 1>said to myself, Okay, I'm only twenty eight and I

0:44:57.400 --> 0:45:02.200
<v Speaker 1>have so much to accomplience from now. So from that point,

0:45:02.400 --> 0:45:07.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm starting to do this process with myself to first

0:45:07.920 --> 0:45:11.359
<v Speaker 1>to take everything in proportion. I would say it helped

0:45:11.360 --> 0:45:13.360
<v Speaker 1>me to get a perspective when you're in my life.

0:45:14.160 --> 0:45:16.800
<v Speaker 1>It's helped me to understand that the life is short

0:45:17.320 --> 0:45:21.680
<v Speaker 1>and if I want to do something or to accomplish something,

0:45:21.920 --> 0:45:24.239
<v Speaker 1>I need to do it, and that I need to

0:45:24.280 --> 0:45:29.239
<v Speaker 1>start believing in myself, to love in myself because by

0:45:29.400 --> 0:45:33.600
<v Speaker 1>experience October seven, I believe that I can do whatever

0:45:33.880 --> 0:45:39.520
<v Speaker 1>I want because by being in such I would say,

0:45:39.560 --> 0:45:42.840
<v Speaker 1>a hard moment in my life to really feel the

0:45:42.920 --> 0:45:47.480
<v Speaker 1>debt and to be in in that moment that you're

0:45:47.560 --> 0:45:51.239
<v Speaker 1>starting to memorize your life and you think about like

0:45:51.400 --> 0:45:53.759
<v Speaker 1>the good thing that you made, the bad thing that

0:45:53.800 --> 0:45:57.279
<v Speaker 1>you made. You're really starting from the bottom. So I

0:45:57.320 --> 0:46:01.680
<v Speaker 1>think from going through this more focused to my future.

0:46:02.400 --> 0:46:07.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm more focused and I know that everything is achievable

0:46:08.520 --> 0:46:13.759
<v Speaker 1>by working hard, by loving yourself, by believing yourself. And

0:46:14.600 --> 0:46:17.840
<v Speaker 1>it's just like make me thinking about my life because

0:46:17.920 --> 0:46:20.000
<v Speaker 1>I spent a lot of time of my life to

0:46:20.120 --> 0:46:23.279
<v Speaker 1>think that I'm not, that I'm not good enough, that

0:46:23.360 --> 0:46:26.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm not I would says as a child that grow up,

0:46:26.560 --> 0:46:30.520
<v Speaker 1>you don't think that you're sometimes beautiful and you so

0:46:30.800 --> 0:46:34.720
<v Speaker 1>just I was like thinking, like looking about my past,

0:46:35.080 --> 0:46:37.440
<v Speaker 1>and I'm telling to myself that I need to stop

0:46:37.800 --> 0:46:40.719
<v Speaker 1>bringing me down, that I need to be the best

0:46:40.800 --> 0:46:43.120
<v Speaker 1>cheerleader of myself, that I need to be the best

0:46:43.120 --> 0:46:46.040
<v Speaker 1>believer on myself, not my mom. I'm saying that, like

0:46:46.920 --> 0:46:50.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm going from the end to the start. Now by

0:46:50.719 --> 0:46:54.759
<v Speaker 1>starting to do this, we say changing my perspective and life.

0:46:54.760 --> 0:46:59.320
<v Speaker 1>And I know it's not easy. Sometimes I'm still struggling sometimes,

0:46:59.680 --> 0:47:04.080
<v Speaker 1>like many times, I'm still have a lot of criticism

0:47:04.120 --> 0:47:09.480
<v Speaker 1>on myself and about decision that I made. But I

0:47:09.560 --> 0:47:14.560
<v Speaker 1>try to do more peace with myself and to breed

0:47:14.640 --> 0:47:17.279
<v Speaker 1>into it. And I know to do a change in

0:47:17.320 --> 0:47:20.280
<v Speaker 1>your life is not easy. And I'm twenty eight, so

0:47:19.880 --> 0:47:24.640
<v Speaker 1>I was establishing. I was I established myself until now,

0:47:24.680 --> 0:47:27.880
<v Speaker 1>so to do this change it's hard, but I can

0:47:27.960 --> 0:47:32.239
<v Speaker 1>do it. And so I'm like, one step at a time,

0:47:32.480 --> 0:47:34.720
<v Speaker 1>I will be more peaceful with myself.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you so much for joining us.

0:47:38.360 --> 0:47:41.680
<v Speaker 1>First, I want to say thank you for you and

0:47:41.920 --> 0:47:45.840
<v Speaker 1>letting me to hear my voice and to speak about myself.

0:47:46.600 --> 0:47:49.720
<v Speaker 1>It makes me really excited and really emotional that you

0:47:49.800 --> 0:47:52.680
<v Speaker 1>let me to share my story in this platform. So

0:47:52.800 --> 0:47:56.640
<v Speaker 1>thank you so much, Emily, and to all I will

0:47:56.719 --> 0:48:00.160
<v Speaker 1>say the woman that hear me out right now, all

0:48:00.200 --> 0:48:03.480
<v Speaker 1>the Jewish women that's feeling for me right now, like

0:48:03.920 --> 0:48:08.759
<v Speaker 1>believe in yourself and just thinking how awesome are you?

0:48:09.680 --> 0:48:11.399
<v Speaker 1>There is nothing that is too far.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you so much, Thank you so much. Emily Eden

0:48:18.000 --> 0:48:20.840
<v Speaker 3>has returned back to Israel and is trying to resume

0:48:20.840 --> 0:48:25.120
<v Speaker 3>her normal life, though nothing seems normal anymore. I want

0:48:25.160 --> 0:48:28.239
<v Speaker 3>to thank Eden for sharing her deeply personal story with us.

0:48:29.040 --> 0:48:31.120
<v Speaker 3>I feel lucky to be able to share stories like

0:48:31.160 --> 0:48:33.880
<v Speaker 3>hers on my platform. Take care and talk to you

0:48:33.920 --> 0:48:47.080
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