WEBVTT - JoJo’s Love Life History 0:00:01.360 --> 0:00:05.200 You're listening to Jojosa Now with me, Jojo Siua and 0:00:05.360 --> 0:00:11.160 iHeartRadio Podcast. All right, welcome back to Jojo. See what now, 0:00:11.200 --> 0:00:15.280 I'm gonna start crying. Oh my god. We are about 0:00:15.320 --> 0:00:21.239 too deep dive into a scary, scary, scary topic, very 0:00:21.280 --> 0:00:23.960 scary topic. But it's gonna be light. It's gonna be light, 0:00:23.960 --> 0:00:26.200 it's gonna be fluffy, it's gonna be fun, it's gonna 0:00:26.239 --> 0:00:33.280 be energetic. We talking about the history of my love life. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:38.040 Oh dear god, Oh my god. All right, Ah well, 0:00:38.800 --> 0:00:42.080 let me just say my love life has been a 0:00:42.280 --> 0:00:48.199 very very public affair. I've been very public about a 0:00:48.280 --> 0:00:51.640 lot of parts of my love life, for sure. There 0:00:51.760 --> 0:00:57.920 recently has been more that I've kept very private. I 0:00:58.000 --> 0:01:00.880 will say that I've learned a lot lot of lessons 0:01:01.040 --> 0:01:05.319 and we're gonna deep dive on that. Stay tuned. But 0:01:05.600 --> 0:01:07.640 I wanted to just kind of go like back in time, 0:01:07.680 --> 0:01:10.120 because there's as much as the world knows or things 0:01:10.120 --> 0:01:13.480 they know, there's a lot that the world does not 0:01:13.920 --> 0:01:19.560 know at all. And we are going back to POV. 0:01:20.040 --> 0:01:27.759 I'm going with two thousand and let's say twenty eleven. 0:01:28.400 --> 0:01:32.640 I was a really cute eight years old. Are you 0:01:32.720 --> 0:01:35.240 ready for this? Well, okay, actually, let's go even back 0:01:35.280 --> 0:01:37.959 in time a little bit further. I when I was 0:01:38.200 --> 0:01:42.080 very young. Everybody has their like cutey little crushes, right, 0:01:43.920 --> 0:01:48.200 I did have a crush on my neighbor. His name, 0:01:48.280 --> 0:01:51.920 Oh my god, I think his name was Carter. I 0:01:51.960 --> 0:01:55.000 don't know. I was literally like three or four. I 0:01:55.080 --> 0:01:58.480 was very very young, had a little crush on him. Anyways, 0:01:58.680 --> 0:02:03.120 cut to third grade, and I don't know if you 0:02:03.120 --> 0:02:06.320 guys know this or not, but I'm actually a married woman. 0:02:08.280 --> 0:02:10.160 When I was in third grade, I got proposed to 0:02:11.200 --> 0:02:13.399 at Recess. I went for the last semester of third grade. 0:02:13.440 --> 0:02:15.680 That's why I realized I was right there. However, for 0:02:15.720 --> 0:02:18.320 the last semester of third grade, just to make sure 0:02:18.360 --> 0:02:19.679 I didn't want to go to school, make sure I 0:02:19.720 --> 0:02:21.720 didn't want that to be my life, you know what 0:02:21.800 --> 0:02:24.280 I mean. And it definitely was not the life for me. 0:02:24.360 --> 0:02:26.560 I was on track with schooling. That was another reason. 0:02:26.560 --> 0:02:28.320 We wanted to make sure that I was, like, you know, 0:02:28.720 --> 0:02:31.120 where I needed to be, and very much so. Was 0:02:31.240 --> 0:02:36.720 we're chilling Anyways, One day, the bad boy his name 0:02:36.880 --> 0:02:40.360 was Braxton, and he he was cutie like he was 0:02:40.360 --> 0:02:42.040 like a cutie little boy, but he was a bad boy. 0:02:42.120 --> 0:02:44.239 He got in trouble. He was sitting in time out 0:02:44.240 --> 0:02:49.080 at recess. Well, rumor had it he was gonna propose 0:02:49.120 --> 0:02:51.040 to me that day that he was sitting at timeout 0:02:51.040 --> 0:02:55.120 and I can, like, I can picture this so vividly. 0:02:55.360 --> 0:02:57.400 Oh my god, it's one of those memories I like, 0:02:57.480 --> 0:03:00.600 I genuinely don't have a photo of can't don't have 0:03:00.639 --> 0:03:03.160 a photo of him, but like, I can see him, 0:03:03.200 --> 0:03:05.800 if that makes sense. I can see the thing he 0:03:05.840 --> 0:03:07.720 gave me, I can see where I put it, I 0:03:07.760 --> 0:03:10.240 can see where it all happened. So I walk over 0:03:10.360 --> 0:03:12.400 to him and we're I mean, we're babies at this 0:03:12.440 --> 0:03:14.079 point time, we're eight years old. And I was like, hey, 0:03:14.120 --> 0:03:17.559 I heard you have something to tell me today and 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:20.400 he was like yeah, and I was like what is it. 0:03:20.680 --> 0:03:22.280 He was like, will you marry me? And I was 0:03:22.320 --> 0:03:26.280 like yeah, we had never talked before this. Keep in mind, 0:03:26.360 --> 0:03:28.760 it was very much so just like rumor had it, 0:03:28.840 --> 0:03:31.200 he was gonna ask me out and ask me to 0:03:31.200 --> 0:03:34.359 marry him, apparently. And he gave me this like cutie 0:03:34.400 --> 0:03:36.640 little like glassy jak ring that comes on the top 0:03:36.640 --> 0:03:39.440 of a cupcake and yeah, I put it in my 0:03:39.560 --> 0:03:41.560 cubby in my laundry room at my house. We had 0:03:41.560 --> 0:03:43.280 like this big stack of cubbies that our shoes would 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:46.360 go in, and I popped that ring in there, and 0:03:46.560 --> 0:03:49.680 rumor has it's still there to this day. So, yeah, 0:03:49.720 --> 0:03:53.320 I'm engaged. I'm off the market now, apparently engaged with 0:03:53.320 --> 0:03:59.160 a man for God for twelve years now. Obviously I'm kidding. 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:00.920 That story is a very true story, but are so 0:04:01.000 --> 0:04:05.800 I'm kidding about the whole engaged thing. Anyways, after that, 0:04:06.240 --> 0:04:09.440 I that is when I went on to Abby's alto 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:13.120 and dance competition, and boy, oh boy, did I have 0:04:13.160 --> 0:04:17.559 a crush on Travis. Now, see, I don't. It's weird 0:04:17.640 --> 0:04:21.279 because obviously now I'm very very if you didn't know, 0:04:21.560 --> 0:04:26.120 very very gay, and I don't find I can appreciate 0:04:26.160 --> 0:04:29.560 men's attraction nowadays, but I don't find them. I'm not. 0:04:30.080 --> 0:04:32.680 I'm not. I'm not. I don't think I will ever 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:36.000 fall for a man anymore. I consider myself a lesbian, 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:39.800 and so I look back at my life and I think, like, 0:04:40.160 --> 0:04:44.680 how much of all of that, all the boy crushes, 0:04:44.880 --> 0:04:47.560 was real? How much of that was me being like, oh, 0:04:47.600 --> 0:04:50.280 I need to have a crush on a boy. How 0:04:50.320 --> 0:04:52.560 many girls in my life that were my friends did 0:04:52.600 --> 0:04:55.960 I actually, like actually have a crush on but like 0:04:56.120 --> 0:04:59.000 was like too scared to realize it or admit it, 0:04:59.040 --> 0:05:02.400 you know what I mean? Like, anyways, Bob, I do 0:05:02.480 --> 0:05:05.479 audc Abmay's also in dance Competition, my first TV show. 0:05:05.560 --> 0:05:08.120 They edited this out of the first episode, but it's 0:05:08.120 --> 0:05:09.760 so sad. It was my first date that I ever 0:05:09.800 --> 0:05:12.440 went on, and it was with Travis. We had a 0:05:12.560 --> 0:05:14.240 duo and they set us on this little date. We 0:05:14.279 --> 0:05:16.599 got to go into Crafty and pick out snacks. We 0:05:16.640 --> 0:05:19.520 got oranges and em and m's and we sat on 0:05:19.560 --> 0:05:22.200 the stairs and we ate them and we talked and 0:05:22.240 --> 0:05:26.719 we held hands. It was cute. It was really cute. Obviously, 0:05:26.800 --> 0:05:29.240 nothing ever came of that. The best part about it 0:05:29.320 --> 0:05:32.240 is Travis. Now we talk about this, We've talked about 0:05:32.240 --> 0:05:35.200 it a few times. Travis is very openly gay. I'm 0:05:35.320 --> 0:05:37.280 very openly gay. So we were like, that's why we 0:05:37.279 --> 0:05:40.760 were both okay with this because we both knew, which 0:05:40.800 --> 0:05:42.880 is great. It's amazing. It just works. If it works, 0:05:42.920 --> 0:05:53.000 it works, and if it doesn't, it doesn't. So then 0:05:53.040 --> 0:05:55.720 I come home from audc and all of a sudden, 0:05:55.960 --> 0:05:59.599 I get my first real official boyfriend. What's his name? 0:05:59.800 --> 0:06:03.000 I don't remember? How did I meet him on Instagram? 0:06:03.440 --> 0:06:05.440 What did my mom do make me break up with 0:06:05.520 --> 0:06:07.719 him in eight hours? Now? I thought I was breaking 0:06:07.720 --> 0:06:10.920 this man's heart and apparently I was, at nine years old, 0:06:11.400 --> 0:06:13.800 don't know what this kid was really. Never talked to him, 0:06:13.839 --> 0:06:15.480 talked for about a day, and he was like, want 0:06:15.480 --> 0:06:17.280 to be my girlfriend? And I was like, frick ye 0:06:17.400 --> 0:06:21.160 I do, and yeah. We dated for eight hours and 0:06:21.200 --> 0:06:24.520 then that was it. Mom made me in things which 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:27.919 honestly valid. I would make my kid, Freddy to do 0:06:27.960 --> 0:06:29.800 the same. Freddie is not my kid yet, Freddie will 0:06:29.839 --> 0:06:32.159 be my kid one day. If I ever talked about kids, Freddie, 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:34.800 Eddie and Teddy, Freddy's my baby girl, and then Eddie 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:37.880 and Teddy are the twin boys. Those are my babies 0:06:37.880 --> 0:06:42.840 one day. Anyways, then I am definitely off the dating 0:06:42.880 --> 0:06:45.279 scene for a very long time. Then I don't want 0:06:45.320 --> 0:06:47.840 anything to do with crushes. Think they're silly, think they're 0:06:48.160 --> 0:06:52.120 waste of time. Then I turned twelve, and that's when 0:06:52.120 --> 0:06:53.839 I was on Dance Moms, and so it was very 0:06:54.360 --> 0:06:56.040 When we were on Dance Moms, there was a lot 0:06:56.080 --> 0:06:58.320 of us girls, and it was very much like who 0:06:58.320 --> 0:06:59.400 do you have a crush on? Who do you have 0:06:59.440 --> 0:07:00.760 a crush on? Who do you have a crush on? 0:07:00.800 --> 0:07:03.039 And stuff. For me, I was like, well, damn, I 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:07.160 need to have a crush. Let's go h Thomas. And 0:07:07.760 --> 0:07:10.720 I'm John talking very openly about this because it is 0:07:10.800 --> 0:07:13.320 all public out there. If you scroll back on my 0:07:13.400 --> 0:07:16.040 life far enough, you would find all of this information. 0:07:16.520 --> 0:07:18.200 But no one's gonna take time to scroll three years. 0:07:18.240 --> 0:07:19.440 So I'm just gonna give it to you all now 0:07:19.440 --> 0:07:21.880 in a thirty minute podcast. Had a crush on a 0:07:21.920 --> 0:07:24.560 kid named Thomas. He was on Nickelodeon. He was very 0:07:24.680 --> 0:07:28.960 very cuteie boy. He was awesome, super nice kid. We 0:07:29.120 --> 0:07:32.440 became really good friends. All I wanted was for this 0:07:32.520 --> 0:07:36.160 boy to kiss me on my thirteenth birthday. Did it 0:07:36.280 --> 0:07:40.520 happen spoiler alert No, but didn't. We text and where 0:07:40.520 --> 0:07:42.720 were so cute? We were so cute? Oh my god, 0:07:42.720 --> 0:07:48.000 looking back, it was so cute. It was very thirsty. 0:07:48.080 --> 0:07:51.360 I was very desperate. I gave very much so pick 0:07:51.480 --> 0:07:55.600 me girl, which is fine, but it just obviously is 0:07:55.640 --> 0:07:59.120 not the vibe now. Anyways, I used to be like, oh, 0:07:59.120 --> 0:08:01.440 I want to play a game. The yeah, let's play game. 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:03.120 And I'd be like, let's play two truths and a 0:08:03.200 --> 0:08:06.320 lie and he'd be like, okay, this is all over text. 0:08:06.920 --> 0:08:09.600 How this man ever tolerated me or was friends with me, 0:08:09.800 --> 0:08:13.920 I don't know, Thomas. I'm so sorry for this. Anyways, 0:08:14.840 --> 0:08:17.400 I was like, I love to sing and dance. I 0:08:17.440 --> 0:08:21.040 have a massive crush on you. I own thirty seven cats, 0:08:21.560 --> 0:08:24.680 which one is a lie? Like I and I would 0:08:24.680 --> 0:08:28.760 do that so often, like then he would do his, 0:08:28.840 --> 0:08:34.720 and his would be like, I'm from Argentina. My name 0:08:34.800 --> 0:08:39.080 is Thomas. I'm on Nickelodeon, like it was so like chill. 0:08:39.559 --> 0:08:43.120 Then I'd be like from Argentina's for sure the lie. 0:08:43.240 --> 0:08:44.800 Then I would be like you would think like I 0:08:44.800 --> 0:08:47.480 would get the hint, like yo real back in. Then 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:52.439 I would be like, I really really miss you. I 0:08:52.480 --> 0:08:59.319 think you're cute. I'm forty seven years old, like just 0:08:59.559 --> 0:09:04.720 so stupid, Jojo so stupid. Obviously had no game or 0:09:04.760 --> 0:09:06.640 did I have the best game. I mean, Joe Relman 0:09:06.760 --> 0:09:08.680 was kind of doing her big one. I'm not gonna 0:09:08.720 --> 0:09:13.640 lie anyways, Thomas crushed that fizzled out. Then I moved 0:09:13.640 --> 0:09:16.760 on to Robert Irwin had a massive crush on Robert Irwin. 0:09:16.960 --> 0:09:19.760 Was obsessed with the man. Thought we were for sure 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:21.800 gonna get married, Like was was convinced we were gonna 0:09:21.800 --> 0:09:28.960 get married. And then cut to I actually, for real, 0:09:29.080 --> 0:09:32.400 for the first time ever, had a little bit of 0:09:32.440 --> 0:09:35.320 a fling with a person, and this was my first. 0:09:35.720 --> 0:09:38.560 The first two flings were with boys, and I had 0:09:38.600 --> 0:09:43.400 one real boyfriend. And then that's when I kind of realized, like, hey, wait, 0:09:44.720 --> 0:09:47.040 I was seventeen, We're got okay, No, I need I 0:09:47.040 --> 0:09:48.559 need to stick in order. I'm almost saying, I'm trying 0:09:48.600 --> 0:09:50.079 to jump to the good part. I'm trying to switch 0:09:50.120 --> 0:09:51.960 to girls, guys. I'm trying to get past this whole 0:09:52.000 --> 0:09:54.520 boy part of my life. But it genuinely was the 0:09:54.520 --> 0:09:57.120 first seventeen years of my life. So there's there's a lot, 0:09:57.160 --> 0:10:00.960 there's a thick of it that we got to get through. Anyways, 0:10:01.080 --> 0:10:04.520 had a cutie little boyfling that was fun, fresh fears. 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:07.840 Got my first kiss when I was sixteen. It was cute. 0:10:08.280 --> 0:10:10.800 I'll give it to us, like whatever we were like, 0:10:11.320 --> 0:10:15.640 we were a cutie little like vibe and then cut 0:10:15.720 --> 0:10:20.000 to oh god, cut to later that same year, Yeah, 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:23.000 This is in twenty twenty, twenty twenty. This is like 0:10:23.679 --> 0:10:27.559 POV September. I'm like, all right, Internet's boring right now? 0:10:27.559 --> 0:10:28.840 What can I do? How can I shake it up? 0:10:28.880 --> 0:10:30.400 And I was like, you know what, I want to 0:10:30.440 --> 0:10:31.800 make the internet think I have a boyfriend. This is 0:10:31.800 --> 0:10:33.160 at a point in TI where I was very hated 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:34.640 on the internet, and I was like, oh, they'll eat 0:10:34.640 --> 0:10:37.960 this up. So I was like, all right, someone asked 0:10:37.960 --> 0:10:39.600 me to prom and I was like, sorry, I could go, 0:10:39.720 --> 0:10:41.960 but like, my boyfriend probably wouldn't like that very much. 0:10:42.240 --> 0:10:43.800 Did exactly what I thought I was gonna do with 0:10:43.840 --> 0:10:45.720 the world. Went into a store. Oh my god, who's 0:10:45.800 --> 0:10:49.320 Jojesi his boyfriend? YadA YadA, YadA, YadA YadA. So then 0:10:49.600 --> 0:10:51.880 I went with it for a bit and then my 0:10:52.040 --> 0:10:56.240 friends Kyler and Madison. Madison has a younger brother and 0:10:56.320 --> 0:10:59.120 his name is Mark, and they were like, hey, they 0:10:59.240 --> 0:11:01.280 knew what I was doing. They knew like the likes 0:11:01.440 --> 0:11:03.280 like that it wasn't real because they were very close 0:11:03.280 --> 0:11:05.200 to me, and they were like, we want to set 0:11:05.240 --> 0:11:09.320 you up with Madison with her little brother Mark, And 0:11:09.360 --> 0:11:11.800 I was like, oh my god, yes, please do it. 0:11:12.520 --> 0:11:14.600 And so then Mark and I met, and they didn't 0:11:14.600 --> 0:11:16.280 tell Mark, like the whole thing that was going on 0:11:16.280 --> 0:11:18.839 on the internet with me having this like fake boyfriend. 0:11:19.200 --> 0:11:21.800 So then Mark saw that and was like what is this? 0:11:21.880 --> 0:11:24.000 And I was like, oh god, let me explain myself. 0:11:24.000 --> 0:11:26.640 So then I had to explain myself and he was 0:11:26.720 --> 0:11:28.920 like of course naturally he was like I do not 0:11:29.080 --> 0:11:33.520 believe you. And I was like okay, like I promised, 0:11:33.520 --> 0:11:35.120 and I was like, talk to your family, like they 0:11:35.200 --> 0:11:36.880 know what's going on right now. So then he did, 0:11:36.960 --> 0:11:40.640 and then obviously he became my boyfriend. And he became 0:11:40.679 --> 0:11:45.760 my boyfriend very fast. It was National Girlfriend Day and 0:11:45.920 --> 0:11:47.720 or maybe it was National Boyfriend Day. I don't know, 0:11:47.800 --> 0:11:49.400 it was one of the two. And he was like, oh, man, 0:11:49.440 --> 0:11:52.079 I wish I wish I could actually celebrate today. And 0:11:52.120 --> 0:11:53.960 I was like, well why can't you? And he was like, 0:11:54.160 --> 0:11:56.080 cause you know my girlfriend officially And I was like, well, 0:11:56.080 --> 0:11:57.480 why can't I be? And he was like do you 0:11:57.520 --> 0:12:00.720 want to be? And I was like yeah, And it 0:12:00.760 --> 0:12:03.079 was cute. We were driving home from the sugar factory 0:12:03.400 --> 0:12:05.240 and we were on a little date and he was 0:12:05.360 --> 0:12:08.880 driving my car and then yeah became his girlfriend. He 0:12:08.960 --> 0:12:12.199 became my boyfriend. It was cute. That was a fun 0:12:12.200 --> 0:12:18.440 little relationship. No, nothing bad, just young me, very very 0:12:18.600 --> 0:12:23.200 very gay, And yeah, I ended things. I've actually I've 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:25.600 only ever been in the position where I'm the one 0:12:25.600 --> 0:12:28.480 to end things. I've never I've never been broken up with, 0:12:30.120 --> 0:12:34.760 which is interesting because so obviously all of those relationships 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:38.360 are like CUTEI fun, Like half of them are all jokes. 0:12:38.480 --> 0:12:41.160 And then you know, of course Mark, and the one 0:12:41.160 --> 0:12:44.920 before Mark was very like, it was cute. And also 0:12:44.960 --> 0:12:46.640 I'm only saying the one before Mark because it wasn't 0:12:46.679 --> 0:12:48.360 ever very public, and I don't know if he would 0:12:48.360 --> 0:12:51.199 want it to be public, so I'm being I'm being cautious, 0:12:51.280 --> 0:12:53.960 I'm being respectful, although I'm sure he would be fine 0:12:53.960 --> 0:12:56.120 with it being public. We're good friends now today, been 0:12:56.160 --> 0:12:58.719 in my life for He's literally been in my life 0:12:58.760 --> 0:13:01.680 since I was like five, maybe we even known each 0:13:01.679 --> 0:13:03.360 other and like just saw him a few months ago, 0:13:03.440 --> 0:13:09.319 like we're chill anyways. But those were all just like cute, fun, frivolous. 0:13:09.440 --> 0:13:14.640 And then when I realized I was gay was right 0:13:14.720 --> 0:13:17.040 after I had broken up with Mark, and I had 0:13:17.040 --> 0:13:20.280 a friend who was gay, and I knew she was gay. 0:13:20.360 --> 0:13:23.000 She had come out to me that year. I kind 0:13:23.000 --> 0:13:25.360 of had my thoughts beforehand, but then she officially came 0:13:25.400 --> 0:13:28.280 out to me that year and thought it was cool, 0:13:28.280 --> 0:13:29.920 and my parents asked me. They were like, what would 0:13:29.920 --> 0:13:31.280 you do if she ever tried to make a move 0:13:31.360 --> 0:13:35.600 on you? And I was like ooh, and I was like, 0:13:35.640 --> 0:13:37.680 she would never she's my best friend, Like that'd be weird. 0:13:38.320 --> 0:13:40.560 And but I was like, wait, I would enjoy like 0:13:40.559 --> 0:13:42.120 I would. I would be okay with that. I would 0:13:42.200 --> 0:13:44.679 like that. And that's kind of when I knew, like 0:13:44.800 --> 0:13:49.199 for real, like, oh, this is real, like you don't 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:51.960 like boys. And that was kind of my first realization. 0:13:52.200 --> 0:13:55.160 And then when I saw her in person again because 0:13:55.160 --> 0:13:56.800 we hadn't seen each other for a year. But then 0:13:56.840 --> 0:14:00.640 when I saw her in person again, I was like, oh, oh, oh, 0:14:00.960 --> 0:14:03.280 I don't like you, like a friend. But of course, 0:14:03.360 --> 0:14:05.160 you know, in my head, I thought there's no way 0:14:05.200 --> 0:14:07.760 she would ever like me. YadA, YadA, YadA. A few 0:14:07.840 --> 0:14:11.160 days later, find out she likes me. It was great. 0:14:11.360 --> 0:14:13.640 We had a good time. She ended up becoming my 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:19.880 first girlfriend. I definitely was in some sort of version 0:14:20.040 --> 0:14:24.400 of love, not the you're the one love, but for 0:14:24.480 --> 0:14:28.360 sure some version of love. And it's interesting to look 0:14:28.400 --> 0:14:30.560 back on because I know in the moment when I 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:34.480 was in my first serious relationship that I definitely was 0:14:34.600 --> 0:14:38.560 convinced that I like that, that was it, Like that 0:14:39.320 --> 0:14:41.800 she was the one for me. We were getting married, 0:14:41.880 --> 0:14:43.560 she was gonna be the mother with my children. Like 0:14:43.600 --> 0:14:47.160 that was definitely a very prominent thought in my head. 0:14:47.720 --> 0:14:51.680 But now you know, that was three years ago. I'm 0:14:51.720 --> 0:14:54.880 looking back at it, and I so it was at 0:14:54.880 --> 0:14:56.920 the very end of twenty twenty, very beginning of twenty 0:14:56.960 --> 0:14:58.800 twenty one, so a little bit over three years ago. 0:14:58.960 --> 0:15:01.160 Looking back at it, I'm like, that was definitely some 0:15:01.320 --> 0:15:04.920 sort of version of love, but it was not the 0:15:05.000 --> 0:15:07.440 version of love now that I can see that I 0:15:07.480 --> 0:15:10.840 would have one day, if that makes sense. Now, we 0:15:10.920 --> 0:15:13.600 had a great relationship. We had great times. We had 0:15:13.600 --> 0:15:15.960 good times. Of course, every relationship has a hard times, 0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:19.800 like that's no secret, but very fun learned a lot, 0:15:20.160 --> 0:15:24.560 had a good time. Very first serious relationship lasted nine 0:15:24.600 --> 0:15:29.080 months and then I ended things. And so I'm gonna 0:15:29.080 --> 0:15:32.400 talk about ending things. Being the one that's always had 0:15:32.440 --> 0:15:36.440 to end them is interesting. It's a tough perspective because 0:15:36.520 --> 0:15:42.000 you are are very obviously something has happened or something 0:15:42.080 --> 0:15:44.600 is happening that you don't want to be in the 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:48.480 relationship anymore. But then at some point you kind of 0:15:48.480 --> 0:15:51.360 get convinced, like I'm gonna hurt this person if I leave, 0:15:51.440 --> 0:15:54.640 so I need to stay. Then you're hurting yourself, But 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:57.280 then are you doing any good for them? But it's 0:15:57.280 --> 0:15:59.800 this person that you care so much about you don't 0:15:59.840 --> 0:16:02.040 want to hurt them. But then it's it's just like 0:16:02.120 --> 0:16:04.480 this such just back and forth dynamic, and it gets 0:16:05.000 --> 0:16:07.280 it gets really tough, and so you're you're double hurting 0:16:07.320 --> 0:16:11.480 yourself while you're hurting somebody else Whereas I think being 0:16:11.480 --> 0:16:13.960 the person being broken up with, I feel like if 0:16:14.000 --> 0:16:17.120 someone broke up with me, I would be very hurt, 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:18.960 but I would know that they were making the right 0:16:19.080 --> 0:16:21.560 choice for them, you know what I mean, versus like 0:16:22.400 --> 0:16:25.440 being the person that has to do it. Like that's like, 0:16:26.240 --> 0:16:28.840 I don't know. I've always found it very, very very 0:16:28.840 --> 0:16:31.160 hard going through breakups for me is something that I 0:16:31.200 --> 0:16:34.480 take very seriously. It's why I'm very cautious to get 0:16:34.480 --> 0:16:38.280 into another relationship because I I'm scared of breakups. I 0:16:38.320 --> 0:16:41.800 think after you go through your first like heartbreak or 0:16:41.880 --> 0:16:44.840 version of a heartbreak, it scares you for sure, and 0:16:44.880 --> 0:16:46.680 I think that's kind of where I'm at in life, 0:16:46.720 --> 0:16:50.080 where I'm like, Okay, wait, do I want to do 0:16:50.200 --> 0:16:52.480 that to myself again? And I of course I do. 0:16:54.000 --> 0:16:58.040 But I now have some very very serious criteria and 0:16:58.120 --> 0:17:02.560 I've learned boundaries and I've learned structure, and it's been hard. 0:17:02.560 --> 0:17:05.119 I took all of twenty twenty three and I was like, no, dating, 0:17:05.280 --> 0:17:10.080 grow up, Jojo, find yourself, find your life, find your habits, 0:17:10.200 --> 0:17:13.240 find out to love properly. Get rid of your toxicity. 0:17:13.280 --> 0:17:16.600 Because I look, I won't lie. I'm for sure been 0:17:16.640 --> 0:17:19.960 toxic before, as we all have. Like anybody who thinks 0:17:19.960 --> 0:17:22.160 they haven't been toxic before, you lie in dear self. 0:17:22.160 --> 0:17:24.960 We've all been seventeen and eighteen and nineteen, and I'm 0:17:24.960 --> 0:17:28.680 currently twenty. I'm not much older, and I look back 0:17:28.720 --> 0:17:31.240 and I'm like, no, I definitely there's mistakes that I made. There's, 0:17:31.280 --> 0:17:34.520 of course, mistakes that have just happened, but there's there's 0:17:34.560 --> 0:17:36.639 a lot that I've learned in the last year that 0:17:36.680 --> 0:17:40.879 I'm like, now I'm excited to apply to a new relationship, honestly, 0:17:41.040 --> 0:17:42.560 and some people are going to think that I sound 0:17:42.640 --> 0:17:45.720 crazy right now, and that is okay. One of the 0:17:45.720 --> 0:17:47.480 biggest things for me right now that I'm looking for 0:17:47.520 --> 0:17:51.159 a relationship is somebody who is ready for kids. I 0:17:51.200 --> 0:17:53.760 am not ready, but I am very near ready, and 0:17:53.840 --> 0:17:57.600 I think that within the next three save three four. 0:17:58.160 --> 0:18:00.200 I wish I could say two three, but I still 0:18:00.240 --> 0:18:02.159 feel like I will be a little young in two years. 0:18:02.160 --> 0:18:04.200 But I say three four because I feel like that's 0:18:04.240 --> 0:18:06.280 like pregnant in three babies and four you know what 0:18:06.359 --> 0:18:09.600 I mean. And that is something that I care very 0:18:09.680 --> 0:18:12.760 very much about. I have wanted kids for a very 0:18:12.840 --> 0:18:15.760 long time. I of course went away. I make the 0:18:15.800 --> 0:18:17.640 joke to my family all the time. I'm like, thank 0:18:17.680 --> 0:18:20.120 God I'm not straight, because if I was, and if 0:18:20.160 --> 0:18:22.880 it was, that was the process of me getting pregnant, 0:18:23.680 --> 0:18:26.800 that would be like we would have a four year 0:18:26.800 --> 0:18:28.960 old by now. I'm kidding. I'm kidding, I'm kidding. I've 0:18:29.000 --> 0:18:31.240 just had a very I've had a very big maternal 0:18:31.280 --> 0:18:35.199 instinct since I was literally twelve. But of course, you know, 0:18:35.560 --> 0:18:40.080 me liking women, there is a very different process. All 0:18:40.160 --> 0:18:43.720 processes of getting pregnant are difficult and tough and confusing, 0:18:43.920 --> 0:18:47.640 but you know, as as a data bean where there's 0:18:47.680 --> 0:18:50.359 a little bit of extra steps. So that is something 0:18:50.359 --> 0:18:52.600 now that I'm really looking for in somebody who's like 0:18:53.080 --> 0:18:54.880 ready to be there in three years, which I think 0:18:55.000 --> 0:18:58.600 is why now I gravitate towards people that are older 0:18:58.640 --> 0:19:02.160 than me. I gravitate towards like twenty seven, twenty eight 0:19:02.480 --> 0:19:04.840 age because I feel like that's when more people are 0:19:04.880 --> 0:19:08.280 ready to have little babies. And then one day Freddy, 0:19:08.359 --> 0:19:10.479 Eddie and Eddy will be into the world and then 0:19:10.520 --> 0:19:12.359 everybody will get to see my fantasy that I've always 0:19:12.359 --> 0:19:15.280 wanted to live with my children. I can't wait. My 0:19:15.359 --> 0:19:16.879 friend the other day was like, what are you gonna do, 0:19:16.920 --> 0:19:18.439 like when you want to come to the studio, Like, 0:19:18.520 --> 0:19:19.639 how are you gonna do that with kids? And I 0:19:19.680 --> 0:19:22.920 was like, oh, I, Well, they'll be here with us. 0:19:23.000 --> 0:19:24.560 They will be having the time of their life with 0:19:24.640 --> 0:19:28.439 us for sure. Oh man, Okay. I feel like I 0:19:28.480 --> 0:19:32.400 want to just like crack down on some like fun 0:19:32.640 --> 0:19:37.239 random dating questions, love life history questions, and just like 0:19:37.960 --> 0:19:41.000 go freaking in for some fun. One of the first 0:19:41.080 --> 0:19:45.600 questions is have you been on dating apps? That actually 0:19:45.760 --> 0:19:49.679 is one of the worst parts, literally worst parts about 0:19:49.760 --> 0:19:53.040 being a celebrity is you cannot go on dating apps. 0:19:53.119 --> 0:19:57.000 It sucks. There is a dating app for celebrities called Reya, 0:19:57.080 --> 0:19:59.159 but there's not a lot of people on it, and 0:19:59.200 --> 0:20:01.000 you have to get approved. It's a whole thing. You 0:20:01.000 --> 0:20:03.640 have to get recommended. It's a whole thing. But the 0:20:03.680 --> 0:20:08.640 problem is Tinder bumble hinge. You can make an account, 0:20:09.160 --> 0:20:11.560 can submit my driver's license, put in my password number. God, 0:20:11.600 --> 0:20:14.840 I could give them my social Security number, but there's 0:20:14.960 --> 0:20:18.200 something that still registers Jojo Siua. Even if I put 0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:21.280 Joelle Siwa, that will flag the account and get it 0:20:21.320 --> 0:20:24.240 taken down. And so I verified them all all taken down. 0:20:24.320 --> 0:20:27.520 And it is brutal because I would have so much 0:20:27.640 --> 0:20:30.280 fun on a dating app. But honestly, I think it's good. 0:20:30.280 --> 0:20:34.920 I think it keeps me very very sane, and that's 0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:45.800 a good thing. Another question, what role do your friends 0:20:45.840 --> 0:20:49.840 and family play in your romantic relationships? This is something 0:20:49.920 --> 0:20:53.600 that I have had to learn the very very very 0:20:53.600 --> 0:20:57.399 hard way. In the beginning, I told everyone everything. I 0:20:57.440 --> 0:21:00.280 told everyone, the good, I told everyone, the bad, everyone 0:21:00.320 --> 0:21:02.800 the happy, I told everyone the sad. Meeting close friends, 0:21:02.800 --> 0:21:07.400 close family, And that is something that I realized. When 0:21:07.480 --> 0:21:11.159 you care about somebody, if so say I'm telling my 0:21:11.280 --> 0:21:13.919 mom the bad, write what's going on that's making me 0:21:14.040 --> 0:21:19.600