WEBVTT - Kristen Brust and Laney Crowder 0:00:09.320 --> 0:00:14.880 Carola, she's the queen of talking. He was sown your man. 0:00:15.960 --> 0:00:18.200 She's on the inside. She got the scoop on the 0:00:18.320 --> 0:00:20.880 laws to walk on the lines and side. No one 0:00:20.960 --> 0:00:30.200 can do with quiet, my Carol, Carola, No one can 0:00:30.200 --> 0:00:37.320 do with quiet Caroline. Okay, here we are this girlfriend 0:00:37.440 --> 0:00:41.280 confidential heart too, and I have two my favorite girlfriend's 0:00:41.320 --> 0:00:45.080 play Crowder and Christen Breast in the house was that 0:00:45.159 --> 0:00:47.240 were actually in the Crowder house, Were in the crowderhouse, 0:00:47.320 --> 0:00:52.080 Crowder Treehouse, the Crowder treehouse, because literally, you're in a forest, 0:00:52.600 --> 0:00:54.640 feels like it, except there's a house there in there, 0:00:54.720 --> 0:00:58.320 in there, and you can't see him. The bamboo hides it. 0:00:59.080 --> 0:01:01.600 But here's the problem. We don't know how to take 0:01:01.640 --> 0:01:04.000 care of bamboo, and so if it gets too tall, 0:01:04.080 --> 0:01:07.800 it'll block our view to indigenous, to our people to know. 0:01:07.920 --> 0:01:09.960 I haven't probably learned it yet, but I didn't think 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:15.360 the other day, pressed that's good. Would you just say haphazardly, 0:01:15.400 --> 0:01:20.720 hap hazardly disheveled. Have quite a vocabulary, Lanny did not have. 0:01:20.760 --> 0:01:24.120 Has really whived together the most amazing lunch. It was 0:01:24.160 --> 0:01:27.199 pretty good. That happens about twice a year. I feel 0:01:27.240 --> 0:01:30.160 grateful and don't tell Corey that's why when you're in 0:01:30.200 --> 0:01:32.839 there wondering like how happy Michael beebe had this spread, 0:01:32.840 --> 0:01:34.840 I'm like, well, Corey never gets this. And I was like, 0:01:34.880 --> 0:01:36.840 man if math okay at home my day and I 0:01:36.880 --> 0:01:40.400 just had all this homecooked food just out for display. 0:01:40.680 --> 0:01:44.120 He'd be so happy. But don't you feel don't you 0:01:44.160 --> 0:01:47.360 feel like it's the reason you do it for girlfriends, 0:01:47.440 --> 0:01:50.040 because they wouldn't like pressing, wouldn't walk in and be like, 0:01:50.120 --> 0:01:52.480 this is a beautiful table of food. You'd be like 0:01:52.760 --> 0:01:54.880 this is awesome, like just you know, like that's why 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:57.040 you do it for your girlfriend. Corey wouldn't have noticed 0:01:57.080 --> 0:02:01.560 the gathered sun did the we go take sure with 0:02:03.160 --> 0:02:06.040 He just totally nostalgic for me because my mom used 0:02:06.080 --> 0:02:08.120 to me, do you punch all the time? This takes 0:02:08.160 --> 0:02:11.160 me back to one of the child I'm so glad. 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:14.120 So we've been really already precovering a lot of like 0:02:14.240 --> 0:02:17.000 pretty strong topics. Here were sold all the life strong. 0:02:17.040 --> 0:02:18.760 I will say, in all of the world, you're meant 0:02:18.800 --> 0:02:22.240 to safe this spots. I love that. I feel honestly, 0:02:22.280 --> 0:02:24.000 I feel like I could come and just does this 0:02:24.120 --> 0:02:27.000 sound awful? But Pato is a compliment. Just don't hold 0:02:27.000 --> 0:02:30.040 my feelings on y'all. Really, it's what I told you earlier. 0:02:30.040 --> 0:02:31.639 So I'm sorry for dumping all this on you, and 0:02:31.639 --> 0:02:33.600 I said, you're lifing on us. This is just like, 0:02:33.840 --> 0:02:35.440 this is what we do. We talk about the good, 0:02:35.440 --> 0:02:37.960 the bad, the ugly, sort it through, and then too 0:02:38.000 --> 0:02:40.320 much letter. We get together and sort it all through again, 0:02:40.760 --> 0:02:44.639 same stuff. Everybody's rotate the grab bag feeling because he's good. 0:02:45.000 --> 0:02:48.080 We said that, we said, I forgot who described it. 0:02:48.120 --> 0:02:50.200 I'm gonna take that back for god. My eyes twitching. 0:02:51.040 --> 0:02:52.960 Everyone had my eyes switching on time. So what was 0:02:53.000 --> 0:02:54.840 it like you and I have when we talked about something, 0:02:54.880 --> 0:02:56.960 We're like, oh, we're not going to stress about somewhere, 0:02:56.960 --> 0:02:59.480 we're gonna give it to God. Like the visual handing 0:02:59.480 --> 0:03:04.919 it over, which I actually was inspired probably am I 0:03:05.200 --> 0:03:08.360 visit because I feel like you're making a fast I 0:03:08.400 --> 0:03:12.120 feel like chrishing what I'm saying to the right track, 0:03:13.000 --> 0:03:18.959 going here, going, I'm not coming on you, Okay, I'm 0:03:18.960 --> 0:03:23.880 like yes, okay, I'm like reading a flash card. Yeah. Um, 0:03:23.880 --> 0:03:29.639 So Hayley Hubbard actually um inspired me to have this 0:03:29.840 --> 0:03:32.120 visual and and so I've tried to use it a 0:03:32.120 --> 0:03:35.680 few times when like most recently in my discussion with you, 0:03:35.760 --> 0:03:37.520 for me, it was just handing my marriage over to 0:03:37.560 --> 0:03:41.480 God and it's not but it's bad but present I 0:03:41.560 --> 0:03:43.920 kind of speed dated, you know, for everybody who's new. 0:03:44.120 --> 0:03:48.280 You guys know, y'all got together and then how many months? Person, 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:50.080 we're coming up on four years and we've had we 0:03:50.120 --> 0:03:52.400 had two babies on our one baby in heaven, a 0:03:52.440 --> 0:03:55.760 new home, like I don't could be so mad. I mean, 0:03:55.760 --> 0:03:58.440 I don't know how many like top ten records or whatever, 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:00.920 you know, a number one, Um, just a lot of 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:03.840 life lived in four years. But that's what happens when 0:04:03.840 --> 0:04:06.920 you find your person he doesn't go for it. Um. 0:04:06.960 --> 0:04:10.000 But I was saying, there's no time to date, just 0:04:10.200 --> 0:04:13.600 real for us. So y'all are a reverse dating. So 0:04:13.680 --> 0:04:17.360 now you've got all kids, alternate life revers life. How 0:04:17.440 --> 0:04:19.360 is that? Because Lane and I did it opposite. We've 0:04:19.680 --> 0:04:22.040 we've been with our guys forever, Like Michael and I've 0:04:22.040 --> 0:04:24.000 been together for over ten years. You and Corey even 0:04:24.760 --> 0:04:30.800 in coming up. I know, it's crazy, how oldvergall when 0:04:30.800 --> 0:04:34.760 you got together sixteen and seventeen, you've been together. I 0:04:34.839 --> 0:04:36.680 told my age, I don't think I care. I think 0:04:36.680 --> 0:04:39.240 I'm blocked about my age yesterday. So I think we're okay. Yeah, 0:04:39.279 --> 0:04:41.440 a long time. But you think of then your babies 0:04:41.440 --> 0:04:44.200 when you're together, and then you become adults together, and 0:04:44.240 --> 0:04:47.160 then you do music industry together. It's like a lot 0:04:47.160 --> 0:04:49.840 of different lives and y'all navigated a lot because like 0:04:49.920 --> 0:04:52.520 when you and Corey first got together, it wasn't like 0:04:52.560 --> 0:04:55.920 he was just rolling in the success yet No, there 0:04:56.000 --> 0:05:01.159 was no rolling. There was no roll and we you know, 0:05:01.240 --> 0:05:05.039 I think your parents were I'm sure if I'm a 0:05:05.120 --> 0:05:08.040 parent of adult children one day, hopefully I would have 0:05:08.160 --> 0:05:10.560 the opportunity that I would tell my kids the same thing. 0:05:10.600 --> 0:05:11.880 Are you sure you need to get married at twenty 0:05:11.920 --> 0:05:13.960 two and twenty three? You think you haven't figured out? 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:15.240 But you have no money? Or are you gonna do 0:05:15.279 --> 0:05:17.320 for health insurance? But you know, there were a lot 0:05:17.320 --> 0:05:19.960 of breath Yeah, I mean, I don't think my parents 0:05:19.960 --> 0:05:23.640 were terribly stoked about that. I won't go into the conversation, 0:05:24.640 --> 0:05:27.200 just like this is the best idea. Listen. There may 0:05:27.240 --> 0:05:30.400 have been an intervention right before my wedding today, is 0:05:30.440 --> 0:05:32.279 this really what you want to do? I remember the 0:05:32.279 --> 0:05:36.279 dinner conversation and it wasn't anything against Corey, It's just you. 0:05:36.279 --> 0:05:38.960 You know it's gonna be a hard road, yeah, because 0:05:39.000 --> 0:05:41.080 it's like there's no plan, and that's what all three 0:05:41.120 --> 0:05:43.680 of us have in common, Like we're all the musician families. 0:05:43.720 --> 0:05:46.200 Like there's no set plan on how this thing is 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:52.480 gonna unfold. There is nothing today or life because even today, yeah, ridiculous, 0:05:52.480 --> 0:05:54.520 Like some people who want just to really safe, why 0:05:54.839 --> 0:05:57.680 you wanted all organized and like mapped up, don't go 0:05:57.720 --> 0:06:00.000 into the music and highly encouraged a lot of people 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:04.080 not to marry. But it's so much fun. How in 0:06:04.160 --> 0:06:06.800 your twenty years being glory, how much have you a 0:06:06.800 --> 0:06:08.880 lot of the adventure and grow up with him? Like 0:06:08.920 --> 0:06:11.479 how much is that meant to you? I I think 0:06:11.480 --> 0:06:14.039 because I've been a part of it from almost day one, 0:06:15.000 --> 0:06:17.200 Like I feel invested in it. I feel he's done 0:06:17.200 --> 0:06:20.200 a phenomenal job of making me be a part of it. Um. 0:06:20.279 --> 0:06:22.599 You know, I would work full time job so that 0:06:22.640 --> 0:06:24.800 he could go out on the road and make negative money, 0:06:25.200 --> 0:06:28.560 and so he's done a good job of I mean 0:06:28.960 --> 0:06:31.200 when when we buy something, this is this is because 0:06:31.240 --> 0:06:33.240 of you. When he has number one song, this is 0:06:33.279 --> 0:06:36.600 because of you. So that part has been great. Um, 0:06:36.680 --> 0:06:39.200 and there's a square Crowder he's a great producer, songwriter, 0:06:39.240 --> 0:06:42.560 and Christens he's a Lowkash Preston of Lowkash by anyone 0:06:42.560 --> 0:06:45.440 who's listening doesn't know. But there's been, you know, plenty 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:47.400 of days where it's like, what are we thinking here? 0:06:47.680 --> 0:06:52.600 You know the last week when I texted you, I mean, 0:06:52.600 --> 0:06:55.240 if we're just being really real, yeah, I mean I left. 0:06:55.240 --> 0:06:57.039 My husband left me with a crying baby. This is 0:06:57.040 --> 0:06:58.960 not his fault and I'm just laying the bus was 0:06:59.040 --> 0:07:03.120 leading in life roles on. And we have a two 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:05.800 month old who was losing his mind and a two 0:07:05.800 --> 0:07:07.560 and a half year old who had hurt feelings because 0:07:07.640 --> 0:07:11.040 dad's leaving, and I'm only one person and he's looking 0:07:11.080 --> 0:07:13.080 at me like I don't know that I've ever seen him, 0:07:13.120 --> 0:07:15.920 like I want to stay more with me, you know, 0:07:17.880 --> 0:07:22.520 texted Lyney and I was like, um, friend, like he's 0:07:22.560 --> 0:07:25.120 got you know, Celeney called me, he's really giving me 0:07:25.120 --> 0:07:27.200 the business sell two month old. Oh my goodness, I 0:07:27.280 --> 0:07:29.600 remember I got that text and I was like, you 0:07:29.680 --> 0:07:31.560 know what, I'm just gonna text your back. Come over tomorrow. 0:07:31.640 --> 0:07:34.480 Let's talk through everything and whatever. Something was like you 0:07:34.520 --> 0:07:37.200 have to call her because it's like ten thirty. Actually, 0:07:37.280 --> 0:07:39.440 if it's night, we're not like calling that, Like yeah, 0:07:39.640 --> 0:07:42.160 but I picked up that phone caller and crying baby 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:46.840 answers for like two solid minutes love or crying wow, 0:07:46.920 --> 0:07:52.600 but little rough party three is all crying right now, 0:07:52.760 --> 0:07:56.000 like everyone's trying. And so it broke my heart. And 0:07:56.000 --> 0:07:57.760 I sat on my bed and Corey was outside because 0:07:57.760 --> 0:07:59.440 he sits in the backports, you know, and not he 0:07:59.480 --> 0:08:01.120 loves it, and it was too cold for me. And 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:02.640 I thought, Okay, I'm gonna go down there and tell 0:08:02.720 --> 0:08:05.160 him I will be back at seven am and tell 0:08:05.200 --> 0:08:07.280 him to like take care of our two babies. But 0:08:07.360 --> 0:08:09.840 I gotta go down there because legend, I've never heard 0:08:09.920 --> 0:08:12.320 him cry like that because his stomach was hurting. And 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:15.920 then you were crying, and I mean and then I'm 0:08:15.920 --> 0:08:17.600 in here like about to cry, and I was just 0:08:17.640 --> 0:08:19.560 like it broke my heart, but we worked through it. 0:08:19.640 --> 0:08:21.760 Did you go over there? I didn't. I sat there. 0:08:21.800 --> 0:08:23.600 We just talked for like ten minutes and then I 0:08:23.640 --> 0:08:25.480 just need to say it, you really get it out? 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:28.240 Why is that like earlier on if you remember here, 0:08:28.360 --> 0:08:31.400 like I just immediately had to cry because you know, 0:08:31.440 --> 0:08:32.719 you just have all these things you're going through and 0:08:32.720 --> 0:08:34.200 you're stressed out, and it's like, as soon as you 0:08:34.240 --> 0:08:35.679 can cry and get it out to your girlfriends, why 0:08:35.679 --> 0:08:38.520 do you feel so much better? I feel't know have 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:42.480 girlfriends or someone to say that too, are miserable people. 0:08:42.559 --> 0:08:44.840 I mean, I just feel like any sadness only lives 0:08:45.000 --> 0:08:47.280 like once you bring light to something that can't exist anymore. 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:49.240 Like that, Yeah, and you have to be able to 0:08:49.240 --> 0:08:52.280 say that really start most things. And there are the 0:08:52.320 --> 0:08:54.079 things that you don't want to bring line too, are 0:08:54.080 --> 0:08:57.480 the things that are like the most insecure, the most vulnerable, 0:08:57.840 --> 0:09:00.160 the most like exposing yourself in a way where you're 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:04.719 not like this strong warrior process because wait, let's all 0:09:04.760 --> 0:09:07.840 just submit. Those do not exist. That's the problem. We 0:09:07.960 --> 0:09:11.120 think they do. They do in Hollywood. They don't. They 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:13.760 don't in Nashville or any other city I've lived in. Yeah, 0:09:14.400 --> 0:09:16.440 that's not real. And you're not treat a place with 0:09:16.480 --> 0:09:18.200 you because your hair is gonna block on the video 0:09:18.240 --> 0:09:20.000 or nothing. We're really easy in the video, but you're 0:09:20.040 --> 0:09:22.760 so pretty and when people not see your face, you know, 0:09:22.840 --> 0:09:24.240 I just play you that have a update that my 0:09:24.440 --> 0:09:27.640 package for Amazon was delivered a Mango Girls Stay Classy 0:09:27.679 --> 0:09:30.760 t shirts? Did you get one for all of us? 0:09:30.920 --> 0:09:33.760 I'm doing okay. I mean, if if you're not getting 0:09:33.760 --> 0:09:38.400 that set for Christmas, it's over. Listen, I claim Blanche, Okay, 0:09:38.640 --> 0:09:43.600 you would. I would like to be you are. You're 0:09:43.640 --> 0:09:46.280 way prettier than Dorothy. But your reasonable like Dorothy. Oh, 0:09:46.640 --> 0:09:49.120 it's kind of like saying, must be Miranda, you know, 0:09:49.160 --> 0:09:51.280 but like Mariana is the really level headed one. Yeah, 0:09:51.320 --> 0:09:54.080 but she's she's always a carouchy. This is a little 0:09:54.160 --> 0:09:59.000 Oh she's so Hia. Yeah, you're a mixed train Dorothy 0:09:59.040 --> 0:10:04.960 and Sophia. Is that gonna make HER's gon tax a point? Now? Anyways, 0:10:05.120 --> 0:10:07.199 I was gonna I'm gonna finished this thought because we 0:10:07.280 --> 0:10:10.000 will lose it because I was inspired to hand it 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:13.760 over to cat. That's what we were saying, What were 0:10:13.760 --> 0:10:17.079 you handing over to God? Everything is? It's not calling apart. 0:10:17.240 --> 0:10:19.040 I mean, we're fine. It's just but also we like 0:10:19.160 --> 0:10:21.199 to control it and have it be a certain way 0:10:21.240 --> 0:10:22.800 that you want it in your mind. We're in a 0:10:22.880 --> 0:10:26.640 season of abundance, and abundance is a good thing. I 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:29.360 wrote a little post about this, but like it's all 0:10:29.400 --> 0:10:31.840 the things. It's babies and songs, it's too ring, it's 0:10:32.120 --> 0:10:34.760 NFL and pepsi, and it's all these really great things. 0:10:34.880 --> 0:10:38.040 But all these really great things are just all at once, 0:10:38.240 --> 0:10:40.040 and someone has to hold the home front down, and 0:10:40.120 --> 0:10:41.920 someone has to get on a bus, and we've the 0:10:42.000 --> 0:10:44.600 other someone with a screaming infant to call her friend. 0:10:45.320 --> 0:10:48.679 So I just had that moment with you last week 0:10:48.679 --> 0:10:50.959 where I was like, Okay, I've got to get all 0:10:51.000 --> 0:10:53.120 the way down. I just got to unpack all of it, 0:10:53.360 --> 0:10:55.360 and then I just have to hand it over. And 0:10:55.440 --> 0:10:57.480 then essentially every time I try to take it back 0:10:57.600 --> 0:11:00.760 or being control of my marriage, I say, essentially going 0:11:00.800 --> 0:11:03.040 to God, insane, I'll take that back because I can 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:04.880 do better than you. But we know that's not true. 0:11:05.880 --> 0:11:08.360 So it's like a good reminder, you know. And I 0:11:08.440 --> 0:11:10.280 feel like he keeps looking like over the last week, 0:11:10.320 --> 0:11:12.720 I feel like God is like, oh, here's she come again, 0:11:13.240 --> 0:11:15.200 and I just turn around, take a you turn right 0:11:15.240 --> 0:11:17.760 before I get to them. It's hard to turn around, though, Lady, 0:11:17.760 --> 0:11:19.440 you're really good about this. You're talking about that how 0:11:19.800 --> 0:11:22.360 especially like preparing for motherhood, how you have to learn 0:11:22.480 --> 0:11:25.200 how to well, I'm trying to prepare for motherhood. How 0:11:25.280 --> 0:11:27.040 you have to learn how to give it over to 0:11:27.120 --> 0:11:30.240 God or else you'll just self destruct completely. I mean, 0:11:30.520 --> 0:11:32.600 because you're nervous when you're pregnant, this sonth is going 0:11:32.679 --> 0:11:34.440 to go wrong. And I'm always scared that, like even 0:11:34.520 --> 0:11:36.640 before getting pregnant, that I'm going to kill the child 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:39.160 before I get pregnant by something I do, which look 0:11:39.160 --> 0:11:41.960 always back to fear. Nothing good comes from fear period 0:11:42.360 --> 0:11:44.760 your point in life and whether you're trying to get pregnant, 0:11:44.760 --> 0:11:46.400 where you're trying to start a business, where you're trying 0:11:46.480 --> 0:11:50.800 to I don't know anything. You cannot have fear. But 0:11:51.240 --> 0:11:54.120 my whole thing was you can be nervous before getting pregnant. 0:11:54.120 --> 0:11:56.200 Why are you getting pregnant? Then you're nervous about the birth. 0:11:56.480 --> 0:11:58.520 Then you're nervous about him coming home and die? Who 0:11:58.559 --> 0:12:01.480 said the first however long back him? You know the 0:12:01.720 --> 0:12:04.680 nervous about I mean, I homo sex yeld you undergard 0:12:04.840 --> 0:12:07.400 is the schools say, and your nursalizes getting like if 0:12:07.480 --> 0:12:09.319 you do not get a grip on an understanding, like 0:12:09.440 --> 0:12:11.719 every day it is a daily choice to be like 0:12:11.760 --> 0:12:14.880 I aren't living fear about my people today. It's a 0:12:14.960 --> 0:12:17.760 long road. How do you get a grip doing it 0:12:17.880 --> 0:12:20.440 every day? And how do you when you are talking 0:12:20.520 --> 0:12:23.800 to God, when say you're in the depths of one 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:28.560 of these um spirals, which I can easily find myself 0:12:28.640 --> 0:12:30.640 even though like I it's I run it because I'm 0:12:30.640 --> 0:12:33.480 one of those people who like preaches, have faith, preaches, 0:12:33.960 --> 0:12:36.200 trust preaches all that. But when it comes to myself 0:12:36.240 --> 0:12:38.120 and when I find myself in a situation where I 0:12:38.320 --> 0:12:41.880 really want something or really you know, you're trying to 0:12:42.080 --> 0:12:44.760 almost force it. It's like you almost ex God out 0:12:44.800 --> 0:12:47.000 of the equation. When in every other part of my life, 0:12:47.040 --> 0:12:48.880 when it's going great, you're smooth, it's like, oh yeah, God, 0:12:48.880 --> 0:12:52.120 it's totally control. He's He's the man. But then when 0:12:52.160 --> 0:12:54.319 it's not going exactly how you wanted it to go, 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:57.000 it's easy for me just to start having so much 0:12:57.080 --> 0:12:59.480 doubt and fear. If I is twitching at you again, 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:03.480 like it what you're saying. So what do you tell 0:13:03.520 --> 0:13:06.160 yourself in those moments? I mean, I think it's just 0:13:06.400 --> 0:13:09.680 the ultimate belief that God is in control and telling 0:13:09.679 --> 0:13:11.800 yourself down on a daily basis when you can't make 0:13:11.840 --> 0:13:14.360 sense of things, because I've seen plenty of things that 0:13:14.400 --> 0:13:17.280 I can't make sense of, but I've seen plenty of 0:13:17.440 --> 0:13:22.240 goodness and love and positivity in the world too, you 0:13:22.280 --> 0:13:23.920 know what I mean. I think it's what you choose 0:13:23.960 --> 0:13:26.719 to focus on, at least for me. I mean, if 0:13:26.760 --> 0:13:30.679 I'm focusing on where in the world is this world 0:13:30.760 --> 0:13:34.120 going right now? And kids these days and whatever, then 0:13:34.160 --> 0:13:36.200 I'm gonna see it. Oh. I just had a little 0:13:36.200 --> 0:13:38.720 truth bomb come in my head. So we talked about 0:13:38.720 --> 0:13:41.839 my Amish friends before. I have Amish friends, um, and 0:13:41.920 --> 0:13:44.280 this was on their wall, cross stitched on their wall, 0:13:44.320 --> 0:13:47.079 and it says, what you see in a person mostly 0:13:47.160 --> 0:13:51.839 depends on what you're looking for. Oh okay, So I 0:13:52.000 --> 0:13:55.360 really enjoyed that. Let you see in a person mostly 0:13:55.440 --> 0:13:58.480 depends on what you're looking for, And so I the 0:13:58.520 --> 0:14:00.679 worlds feel like I need a little lay down with 0:14:00.800 --> 0:14:04.040 that sentence for a minute. So if you're going to 0:14:04.200 --> 0:14:08.679 see bad and negative and hurt, if that's what you're 0:14:08.679 --> 0:14:12.120 out this, fine, that's what you're gonna find. There you go, 0:14:12.600 --> 0:14:20.320 dang lame. Also, if you think about like leaning and 0:14:20.360 --> 0:14:22.600 I talked about all the time, like when you start 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:25.440 to panic about kids, how their God's kids first. You know, 0:14:25.880 --> 0:14:29.280 every baby is God's baby's first. We're God's kids before, 0:14:29.360 --> 0:14:34.000 we're our parents kids. But I think we just really 0:14:34.960 --> 0:14:38.600 I don't know. I feel like so many times you're like, Okay, 0:14:38.600 --> 0:14:40.320 they're God's kids first, their God kids first, and then 0:14:40.360 --> 0:14:43.120 you try to take the control back. But like, ultimately 0:14:43.280 --> 0:14:45.200 it's like that with anyone if you're just looking for 0:14:45.400 --> 0:14:47.400 like there's so much more good in the world. Like 0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:51.120 I get fearful to go to Target. Okay, Tart tar J, 0:14:53.200 --> 0:14:56.040 there's something happening outside. I feel like our house, your 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:57.680 house is getting cut down. I just a hard house. 0:14:59.160 --> 0:15:02.560 I don't know where they are. Um, it's like I'm 0:15:02.640 --> 0:15:05.040 fearful of going to Target because I've read like too 0:15:05.120 --> 0:15:07.840 many stories about the kids being technic from Target. Yes, 0:15:08.160 --> 0:15:09.880 how do the kids get take from Target? You don't 0:15:09.960 --> 0:15:14.040 want to know. It's like, well, it's like this is 0:15:14.080 --> 0:15:15.800 why I cried twice in labor, so I was like, 0:15:15.880 --> 0:15:18.120 please don't come out of me, like I can protect 0:15:18.160 --> 0:15:20.080 you where you are, Like I get freaked out when 0:15:20.080 --> 0:15:22.800 they're on their way out. Stay in forever. If you're 0:15:22.840 --> 0:15:25.080 protected and you're way easier to travel with and I 0:15:25.160 --> 0:15:28.800 love you. Um, and you really depending on my heartbeat, 0:15:28.840 --> 0:15:32.680 which is so like hopeless romantic about it. Anyways, it's 0:15:32.800 --> 0:15:34.280 all of those things. I don't know where I was 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:36.840 going with that, but it's just fearful and it's not fair. 0:15:37.160 --> 0:15:40.480 Like there's also so many good things when you're out 0:15:40.520 --> 0:15:42.640 in public, and there's like, you know, sweet old people 0:15:42.720 --> 0:15:45.120 that are like I mean, I had those nineties six 0:15:45.200 --> 0:15:47.240 year old woman stopny in Costco because she just wanted 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:51.200 to look inside the car seat because Legend was sleeping, 0:15:51.200 --> 0:15:55.560 and she was like, who's in there? It's really sweet? 0:15:55.640 --> 0:15:57.480 She said how old and which? And she was like, 0:15:57.680 --> 0:16:00.480 I've got five babies. I mean, just use a walker. 0:16:00.600 --> 0:16:03.360 That's somebody's mama, you know. And then like there's more 0:16:03.400 --> 0:16:05.600 of that happening at Costco that day than there is 0:16:05.640 --> 0:16:08.640 baby stealing. I know. It's like there's like, okay, so 0:16:08.760 --> 0:16:11.240 you have ad to work within a day and just 0:16:11.360 --> 0:16:14.120 just wasting two minutes of your podcast but no, you know, 0:16:14.280 --> 0:16:15.920 but so you have a hundred percent of energy to 0:16:15.960 --> 0:16:19.760 work within a day, and nine percent of it is 0:16:19.840 --> 0:16:22.320 great things, Like there's so many blessings you can be 0:16:22.400 --> 0:16:25.600 thankful for, but then there's this two percent of fear 0:16:26.040 --> 0:16:29.600 that's really dark fear that's like awful things that are 0:16:29.760 --> 0:16:33.400 just like the worst things ever. And if you spend 0:16:33.520 --> 0:16:35.960 all of your energy focusing on that two percent, and 0:16:36.040 --> 0:16:38.400 that two percent of darkness takes over your whole life 0:16:38.440 --> 0:16:41.680 when really you're just laser focusing in on that, when 0:16:41.720 --> 0:16:44.600 you could be focusing on exactly what you said, on 0:16:44.920 --> 0:16:47.440 the things that you want to see. But it's like 0:16:47.480 --> 0:16:51.040 it's because we know our Once we like and visualize 0:16:51.160 --> 0:16:53.200 or like know our worst fears out there, we get 0:16:53.240 --> 0:16:55.120 so scared and if we think if we worry about 0:16:55.160 --> 0:16:57.440 it and keep it close, that won't happen. That really, 0:16:57.480 --> 0:16:59.280 if you worry about and keep your fears close, you're 0:16:59.320 --> 0:17:03.480 just living in your fear. But necessarily, let's like think 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:06.280 about okay, just this may be done. But like I 0:17:06.320 --> 0:17:08.480 always just think about the sky. It's a great big sky. 0:17:08.560 --> 0:17:10.800 But one cloud cancels out the sun in two seconds, 0:17:10.920 --> 0:17:15.000 you know, Like so just shift it through, like keep 0:17:15.040 --> 0:17:17.280 it moving, wins and change. Maybe that's why I don't 0:17:17.280 --> 0:17:19.320 get stuck on that cloud? Do they say that? That's 0:17:19.320 --> 0:17:20.760 what they said it. I'm on to yoga this week 0:17:20.760 --> 0:17:22.960 because the first time I'm like five, And did you 0:17:23.119 --> 0:17:25.240 love it? I do love it if every time I go, 0:17:25.280 --> 0:17:27.080 I'm like, I need to this every day. But at 0:17:27.119 --> 0:17:28.960 the beginning of class, when you're like laying then you're like, 0:17:29.320 --> 0:17:31.800 that gets really it's really hot in here. And he said, 0:17:32.040 --> 0:17:34.520 let every thought that comes across room and float away 0:17:34.560 --> 0:17:40.920 like a clouds like that one. It was because I 0:17:41.040 --> 0:17:43.120 did I have a worrying about something that after named 0:17:43.160 --> 0:17:44.760 like not crazy word, but like something you need to 0:17:44.800 --> 0:17:46.760 be doing any when did Walker had his spook back 0:17:46.760 --> 0:17:48.720 ready before I left, blah blah blah, and I just 0:17:48.840 --> 0:17:50.920 like started letting them pass away. So I think it's 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:52.760 taken not to you percent I'm letting you passed away, 0:17:52.840 --> 0:17:54.639 and don't get hooked on it. Don't get hooked on 0:17:54.720 --> 0:17:56.360 that because like if you get hooked on that one 0:17:56.480 --> 0:17:58.880 rain cloud, then that one rain cloud is your whole sky. 0:17:59.240 --> 0:18:01.280 Or if you just let it float away, then all 0:18:01.280 --> 0:18:02.879 of a sudden you've got a sunny sky and you 0:18:02.920 --> 0:18:05.120 could be back in sunshine. And even those rain clouds 0:18:05.160 --> 0:18:07.200 are bringing all sorts of good things once they move, 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:09.840 So take the quick lesson from it, but don't get 0:18:09.920 --> 0:18:12.359 hung up on it and let it overtake your entire life. 0:18:12.440 --> 0:18:14.320 It doesn't need to be you. That is the thing. 0:18:14.720 --> 0:18:17.280 Like skip it, just skip over it, notice it, get 0:18:17.359 --> 0:18:20.199 the lesson and skip. Keep moving. Yeah, don't get hung 0:18:20.760 --> 0:18:23.280 be thankful for whatever goodness you can find in your 0:18:23.320 --> 0:18:25.840 own life, and then go back and focus on the good. Yeah, 0:18:26.359 --> 0:18:28.960 we got pumpkins, is your surprise. I love some fall, 0:18:29.119 --> 0:18:33.680 but this chick does seasons. I don't know why, because 0:18:33.720 --> 0:18:36.280 it makes you feel so happy seasons because she has antline. 0:18:37.880 --> 0:18:41.080 I'm like, I'm such a bound book about Halloween. You are. 0:18:41.800 --> 0:18:43.840 But after this, when this is over, we're gonna go 0:18:43.840 --> 0:18:46.440 downstairs and see what happens when you start seasons too early? 0:18:46.720 --> 0:18:49.320 What have been most discussing? Roddy roddy upon it and 0:18:49.440 --> 0:18:52.560 downstairs we started and we started this season, And like 0:18:52.760 --> 0:18:55.399 August's Tea, you should start as soon as you can. 0:18:55.480 --> 0:18:57.520 I know that suppose not thinking, but they don't show 0:18:57.560 --> 0:19:01.600 you this on Peteress Pumpkin. When you start and as 0:19:02.920 --> 0:19:05.000 it's big, you think about it. Okay, explain what it 0:19:05.040 --> 0:19:07.000 means to you. I don't know. Just am I too 0:19:07.080 --> 0:19:09.080 much today? I feel like it just really is. Why 0:19:09.080 --> 0:19:11.920 would you be too much? Really you're too much? And 0:19:12.000 --> 0:19:15.159 banking that you're too much? No, it's just like what 0:19:15.280 --> 0:19:17.600 a sentence, you know, like people to say certain things 0:19:17.640 --> 0:19:19.359 in it just you're like, wow, that's really something like 0:19:19.440 --> 0:19:21.600 if you start a season two Sam like, don't jump 0:19:21.640 --> 0:19:27.360 the gun. Yeah, don't don't force it. Don't force a season. Hey, 0:19:27.440 --> 0:19:29.760 I just found this quote. Okay, I can't redeem myself here. 0:19:30.000 --> 0:19:32.080 You don't need to redee yourself. Everything you're doing, you're 0:19:32.119 --> 0:19:35.240 having the bad self talk right now is self talk 0:19:36.080 --> 0:19:38.040