WEBVTT - BACK Like I Never Left!

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio

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<v Speaker 1>and the Black Effects Mike Check one to Want two.

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<v Speaker 1>The Realist is Back. What did you gonna do?

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<v Speaker 2>Guess what? Y'all?

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Season three of Carefully Reckless. This a third

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<v Speaker 1>time I spun the ben three times on a ass, y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm happy to be back.

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<v Speaker 2>Listen.

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<v Speaker 1>That's clap it up for me. Clap it up, clap

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<v Speaker 1>it up, clap it up, because this would not be

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<v Speaker 1>a podcast without y'all, and I'm super excited to jump

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<v Speaker 1>straight in this season. We're going to be fixing mess

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<v Speaker 1>just like we.

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<v Speaker 2>Was last season. And my apologies, y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>I told y'all that I would not be taking a

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<v Speaker 1>break in between seasons, that I was just gonna go

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<v Speaker 1>straight into it and the last episode of the last

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<v Speaker 1>season would be immediately followed by the first episode in

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<v Speaker 1>the third season. But I had some things that I

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<v Speaker 1>had to do. I'm doing way more TV than IVER

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<v Speaker 1>been doing before. I got a lot of new projects

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<v Speaker 1>coming out on different networks, streaming networks, cable, doing movies

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<v Speaker 1>that are gonna be in theaters, Still touring full time,

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<v Speaker 1>still being a mom as full time as I can

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<v Speaker 1>and listen. It's been a journey, but I'm glad that

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<v Speaker 1>you guys are patient and you guys are willing to

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<v Speaker 1>go through it with me. So we're gonna jump straight in, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>this very first story that we're about to jump into.

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<v Speaker 1>I gave her advice before. I don't know if you

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<v Speaker 1>guys remember her, but she was in a relationship with

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<v Speaker 1>the guy. Everything was good, was perfect. Now they're young,

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<v Speaker 1>I do believe, if I can remember, they were a

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<v Speaker 1>young couple in their early twenties, and she had a

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<v Speaker 1>problem with drinking, and he didn't like that. She would

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<v Speaker 1>drink Kasumigo's, you know, tequila, until the point where she

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<v Speaker 1>were black out, and they would get into arguments and

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<v Speaker 1>stuff like that. And she went through his phone and

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<v Speaker 1>caught him talking to somebody. Nothing had ever happened. He

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<v Speaker 1>never like, she never found any proof that he actually

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<v Speaker 1>slept with someone or met up with him. But he

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<v Speaker 1>had started conversating with somebody in his past or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess just seeking the attention and that she had

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<v Speaker 1>stopped giving him due to her alcoholism or whatever. But

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<v Speaker 1>she is back with an update, so let's listen to

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<v Speaker 1>what she gotta say, Hi, Jess.

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<v Speaker 3>I just really needed you to fix my mess again.

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<v Speaker 3>I had messaged you earlier about a bitch being on

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<v Speaker 3>off of the Cosamigos, like a couple of months ago,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I went through my man's phone saw some

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<v Speaker 3>things I didn't want to see. We're about ten months later,

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<v Speaker 3>but long story short, we ended up breaking up.

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<v Speaker 4>He ended up moving out.

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<v Speaker 3>I ended up being a motherfucking bodybuilder helping him move

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<v Speaker 3>his motherfucking couches out.

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<v Speaker 4>Where was his friends at? So now I was.

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<v Speaker 3>Without couches, I was without a bedroom dresser.

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<v Speaker 4>But whatever, he ended up moving out, it is what

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<v Speaker 4>it is.

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<v Speaker 3>We stopped talking for a little bit, and then we

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<v Speaker 3>ended up meeting up a few months later. So we

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<v Speaker 3>ended up breaking up in about August. And we started

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<v Speaker 3>talking again in about November, like right before Thanksgiving, and

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<v Speaker 3>we met up at like one of the.

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<v Speaker 4>Places if we just like to go to when we

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<v Speaker 4>went and talked.

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<v Speaker 3>Long story short, we just started talking and I just

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<v Speaker 3>noticed our communication is getting actively better.

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<v Speaker 4>We do listen separate places now.

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<v Speaker 3>I sometimes spend the night at his place, he spends

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<v Speaker 3>the night at my place. And I am twenty three

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<v Speaker 3>he is twenty five, So I do feel like it's

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<v Speaker 3>healthy that we had this period only because we'd only

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<v Speaker 3>known each other for two months before he initially moved in.

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<v Speaker 3>But now we're getting to the point where we were

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<v Speaker 3>together for two years, living together for two years, but.

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<v Speaker 4>He moved out, and I would genuinely say, one hundred percent,

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<v Speaker 4>we're getting better. But how long am I supposed to

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<v Speaker 4>wait to ask to be his girlfriend again?

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<v Speaker 3>Like I keep applying pressure, pplying pressure. It's not about

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<v Speaker 3>giving alltimatums. It's more just about come on out. Like

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<v Speaker 3>the same thing I tell him, Why do I feel

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<v Speaker 3>like I'm auditioning to be your girlfriend? And you know,

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes it's like Instagram gets into my head, But it

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<v Speaker 3>is that if he wanted to, he would.

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<v Speaker 4>So if we broke up in August, we.

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<v Speaker 3>Started talking again in November, and now it's April and

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<v Speaker 3>we have we lived together two years.

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<v Speaker 4>We're hitting year three of knowing each other.

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<v Speaker 3>We're doing just random things like snow tubing, We're talking

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<v Speaker 3>about planning vacations.

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<v Speaker 4>Here's the thing. End of the day, he's talking about

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<v Speaker 4>me being meeting his mom again just for his birthday.

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<v Speaker 3>He wants her to come down here to Lake Tahoe,

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<v Speaker 3>he's like, oh, yeah, I already told her you were

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<v Speaker 3>going to be there, because it's not that me and

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<v Speaker 3>his mom had problems, but you know, when you break

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<v Speaker 3>up with her baby, then obviously you're gonna have problems.

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<v Speaker 3>So everything is going so good. We're talking so much healthier.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not about screaming or yelling at each other. Granted,

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<v Speaker 3>I still have hiccups off the costum egos.

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<v Speaker 4>So here's the thing.

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<v Speaker 3>This man sees my soul in a way that I

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<v Speaker 3>can't describe. And I'm a very dominant, aggressive person, but

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<v Speaker 3>when I'm around him, I just want him to understand

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<v Speaker 3>that I just want.

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<v Speaker 4>Him and I want to be around him.

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<v Speaker 3>And it just makes me emotional because first I wasn't

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<v Speaker 3>able to describe how much I felt for him, But like,

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<v Speaker 3>this man is my whole heart, and it's kind of

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<v Speaker 3>just dumb to tell people that someone's your whole heart

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<v Speaker 3>when you guys have already been together and it didn't

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<v Speaker 3>work out, and now you're trying to make it work

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<v Speaker 3>and now you're in a situationship. But you explain to

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<v Speaker 3>them how it's getting better, but they don't understand it,

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<v Speaker 3>and it's not for them to understand and that's the thing.

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<v Speaker 3>You tell people what you want to tell them, but

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<v Speaker 3>at the end of the day, you can't describe how

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<v Speaker 3>this person makes you feel. And I can definitely say

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<v Speaker 3>how we are right now is one hundred percent better

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<v Speaker 3>than how we were during our honeymoon phase, like of

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<v Speaker 3>like the first six months of knowing each other, six

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<v Speaker 3>months to a year. I just see such potential in

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<v Speaker 3>what we could be together. And I still feel like

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<v Speaker 3>he's stuck on old stuff or I don't really know

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<v Speaker 3>what he's stuck on or what he's afraid of. But

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<v Speaker 3>the reason that I called or just since this tonight

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<v Speaker 3>was because I had finally told him how I felt.

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<v Speaker 4>I've been keeping like stuff bottled up. You know. I

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<v Speaker 4>had a little bit of one no cost of egos,

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<v Speaker 4>no cost a egos.

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<v Speaker 3>But I did have some wine tonight with my girl.

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<v Speaker 3>We're about to go on our cruise in three days

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<v Speaker 3>to Mexico, so I just told him how I felt.

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<v Speaker 3>He just came back from Dallas. I'm about to go

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<v Speaker 3>to Mexico. So I just told him flat out, like

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes I get nervous when he goes other places because

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<v Speaker 3>we don't have any rules of established commitment and I

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<v Speaker 3>want that. I want you to be loyal to me,

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<v Speaker 3>and I want to be loyal to you. We were

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<v Speaker 3>together for two years. You lived with me for two years.

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<v Speaker 3>We might have broke up for a little bit, but

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<v Speaker 3>in general, you know who I am.

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<v Speaker 4>You know we have a good time together.

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<v Speaker 3>But it's not just a good time, it's just we

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<v Speaker 3>just when people say like it's just something that you

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<v Speaker 3>can't explain, that's how I really feel about him.

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<v Speaker 4>And it's definitely not perfect.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not perfect and he's not perfect, and I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>saying we don't have hiccups.

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<v Speaker 4>But if you find someone that you want to really rock.

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<v Speaker 3>With or really deal with, then I think you decide

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<v Speaker 3>you want to work it out.

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<v Speaker 4>And I feel like I figured it out.

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<v Speaker 3>And it's hard to tell someone that you figured it out,

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<v Speaker 3>but you don't want to hit them with the ultimatum.

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<v Speaker 3>But then you see shit on Instagram like, oh, but

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<v Speaker 3>if he wanted to, he will, And I get.

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<v Speaker 4>The if he wanted to, it will.

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<v Speaker 3>But if you also did things in the past that

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<v Speaker 3>makes him question why he should, then I can't just

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<v Speaker 3>be like, what are you waiting for? Because if I

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<v Speaker 3>were perfect, there would literally be no reason there's nothing

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<v Speaker 3>wrong with weighing out pros and cons, but it's just

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<v Speaker 3>the fact that I don't know, Jess. I guess what

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<v Speaker 3>I am asking is everyone has pros and cons to

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<v Speaker 3>their spouse. But what do you think are the key

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<v Speaker 3>factors or elements that are needed to make a relationship

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<v Speaker 3>last consistently in long term?

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<v Speaker 4>That is ultimately my question.

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<v Speaker 3>Just a couple of things, Just a little bit of advice,

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<v Speaker 3>like what is how do you know it's long term?

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<v Speaker 3>Or what do you do to make it long term?

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<v Speaker 3>Just anything would help. Thank you so much. But as always, Jess,

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<v Speaker 3>you are one of my favorite podcasts listen to, so

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<v Speaker 3>I just wanted to.

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<v Speaker 4>Send you an audio.

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<v Speaker 3>I would just love some advice because I love this man,

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<v Speaker 3>and I know this man loves me. But when you

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<v Speaker 3>come from families that never show you how to how

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<v Speaker 3>do you love on someone, How do you choose to

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<v Speaker 3>be vulnerable with someone, how do you open up with

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<v Speaker 3>someone in your most vulnerable moments?

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<v Speaker 4>And how do.

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<v Speaker 3>You work through like already pent up residual shit.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, I'm sorry, I know I'm hitting you with

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of questions.

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<v Speaker 3>It's just I'm not necessarily asking you all this it's

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<v Speaker 3>just man. I love this man, so please just give

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<v Speaker 3>me something, help me.

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<v Speaker 4>Please.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh and just to give you a little bit more background,

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<v Speaker 3>we live on the West Coast. Neither of us have kids,

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<v Speaker 3>and obviously we have two separate compoles and two different cars.

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<v Speaker 1>Hold up, hold up, I know this shit getting good,

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<v Speaker 1>But listen to just a couple seconds of a commercial.

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<v Speaker 2>If you love me, you'll listen.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey girl, so you checked back in with me, and

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<v Speaker 1>I love that. First of all, it's nothing wrong with

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<v Speaker 1>you venting. Stop apologizing for asking me.

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<v Speaker 2>So many questions. Stop it. If I didn't want to

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<v Speaker 2>fix your mess, I wouldn't be doing this, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>If I felt like this was too much, or if

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<v Speaker 1>one person's story was going to involve too many different

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<v Speaker 1>complex questions, I wouldn't even be doing this right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes you just need to vent, to vent to somebody

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<v Speaker 1>that you don't know and who don't know you, and

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<v Speaker 1>who wouldn't be biased, because I'm not ever going to

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<v Speaker 1>be biased. I am a woman, and I stand with women. However,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes we're wrong and sometimes men are wrong, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>So I stand with who is right, But I give perspectives,

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<v Speaker 1>two perspectives on each situation, you know. And I'm here

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<v Speaker 1>to help people open up their minds, you know, so

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<v Speaker 1>you don't look at a situation one particular way. You

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<v Speaker 1>don't be too closed minded, you know, to see what

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<v Speaker 1>your problem is or to see how you could be

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<v Speaker 1>making this person react. Now, let's get to the part

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<v Speaker 1>with the auditioned part. You said you feel like you

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<v Speaker 1>are auditioning to be his girlfriend again because you guys

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<v Speaker 1>were together, but some damage was done. You guys needed

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<v Speaker 1>to separate and then revisit. You guys are in a

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<v Speaker 1>good space right now, but you're kind of back and forth.

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<v Speaker 1>I can tell that you love him, yes, and I

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<v Speaker 1>can tell that you also know that you messed up too, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>But the key in that is okay. You know that

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<v Speaker 1>you messed up. You owned it, your apologize. That's all

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<v Speaker 1>you can do. Do not keep beating a dead horse,

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<v Speaker 1>And what I mean is beating on yourself. Don't keep

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<v Speaker 1>beating yourself up about what happened in the past. Because

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<v Speaker 1>y'all two have done somewhat of a reconciliation, you know, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>it seems like you guys are getting back or trying

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<v Speaker 1>to navigate back to that good place that you guys

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<v Speaker 1>once we're in. But it's like a wall built up

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<v Speaker 1>on his side. I don't know the severity of detriment

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<v Speaker 1>behind what you did to him, but apparently it's taking

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<v Speaker 1>him a little bit more time than you would like

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<v Speaker 1>to get back together with you. Are you also communicating

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<v Speaker 1>what you ask me for? The tools to actually make

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<v Speaker 1>something long term? How do you keep it together? How

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<v Speaker 1>do you get that longevity in a relationship that has

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<v Speaker 1>gone through problems? The tool is honesty, communication, and time.

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<v Speaker 1>You got to give another person time. Just because you're

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<v Speaker 1>over what you did and you're over seeing somebody that

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<v Speaker 1>he talked to in the phone, doesn't mean that he

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<v Speaker 1>can get over it as quickly as you did. You

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<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying, Because we as females can look

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<v Speaker 1>at it like, damn, you act like I cheated on you.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't cheat on you.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>So all I had was a little alcohol, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>was a little drinking problem. But you don't know how

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<v Speaker 1>traumatic that was for him. You don't know his trauma

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<v Speaker 1>behind that. He could have grown up with a drunk

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<v Speaker 1>in his family that he saw abuse his cousins or

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<v Speaker 1>you know, not saying that's the case, but that could

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<v Speaker 1>be the case.

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<v Speaker 2>Now this is your.

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<v Speaker 1>Boyfriend, your ex boyfriend soon to be boyfriend again if

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<v Speaker 1>that happens. So you know him way more than I

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<v Speaker 1>know him. You know him well. But I know people,

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<v Speaker 1>I know what I've been through, I know certain situations,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I know how people work in certain situations

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<v Speaker 1>depending on the situation.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>And even in my last relationship, we will argue and

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<v Speaker 1>I can get over things quicker.

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<v Speaker 2>I would be over it, like you know, in a

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<v Speaker 2>few hours.

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<v Speaker 1>It would take him a few days to have the

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<v Speaker 1>process and internalize and look at it from this from

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<v Speaker 1>this microscope over here in the corner, and then you

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<v Speaker 1>have to go girl. And at times that shit gets

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<v Speaker 1>annoying as fuck. I'm just gonna say some people are

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<v Speaker 1>slower than others. And I don't mean that coming at

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<v Speaker 1>anybody's intelligence or whatever. I'm not talking about your mental capacity, No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not. I'm talking about transitioning, Like you can't transition

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<v Speaker 1>out of an argument until you fully processed it and

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<v Speaker 1>all that shit. That shit is annoying when you are

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<v Speaker 1>with someone who don't really hold grudges, who can't stay

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<v Speaker 1>in one fucking miserable space, miserable space for too long, Like, no.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's get past this shit. Let's talk about this shit,

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<v Speaker 2>Let's get over it.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to let anything linger. I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to go to sleep angry, motherfucker. That's that's what you

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<v Speaker 1>want to do. And I know it sounds like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going back in time. That's why that nigga is

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<v Speaker 1>my ex. I cannot deal with somebody who takes too

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<v Speaker 1>fucking long. Yep, the Bottomore two. Do not take too

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<v Speaker 1>fucking long getting over this shit, because by the time

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<v Speaker 1>you get over it in a few days or weeks,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm already on something else. And I don't mean on

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<v Speaker 1>another guy I'm talking about. Listen, I'm on some other shit.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm on some other shit. I cannot dwell and be

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<v Speaker 1>grudging about some shit with the man that I plan

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<v Speaker 1>to spend the rest of my life with, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. But we also that's also us putting

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<v Speaker 1>expectations on people, putting standards on people, and trusting them

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<v Speaker 1>to handle situations like we would handle them. Everybody's different,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and it's different strokes for different folks. If

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<v Speaker 1>you love me, you'll listen to this commercial and then

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<v Speaker 1>we'll be right back. I think you should give him

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<v Speaker 1>just a little bit more time. You know, it hasn't

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<v Speaker 1>been ages since y'all broke up.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that you need to communicate with him that

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<v Speaker 1>you have changed, you know, if you haven't already, And

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<v Speaker 1>I think that you need to solidify some type of boundary.

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<v Speaker 1>I think, like you said, you can just make it

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<v Speaker 1>as a conversation. Hey, I know we haven't solidified anything

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<v Speaker 1>yet official.

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<v Speaker 2>That would deem us official. Again.

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<v Speaker 1>We haven't established any type of commitment as to are

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<v Speaker 1>we going to just try this exclusively together? Are we

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<v Speaker 1>dating other people while we're trying to be back together?

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<v Speaker 1>Because that you know that doesn't work. Everybody in they

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<v Speaker 1>right mind knows that shit don't work.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that needs to be a conversation, maybe after

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<v Speaker 1>your cruise, Before your cruise. You just sent this to me,

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<v Speaker 1>so I think you may already be back from your cruise.

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<v Speaker 1>You sent this last week, Okay, so you might even

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<v Speaker 1>be back from your cruise. I think you should sit

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<v Speaker 1>down and talk to him about it. See how he is.

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<v Speaker 1>Is he nonchalant with you? Does he give you vibes

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm a fuck with you? Just because you was

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<v Speaker 1>my ex, and I'm comfortable with you. You know, do

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<v Speaker 1>you think do you actually really think he sees the

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<v Speaker 1>future with you? Get inside of his mind if you

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<v Speaker 1>know how to do that, and you should be able

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<v Speaker 1>to know how to do it because you ain't drunk.

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<v Speaker 1>You said you done went to wine, and that's great,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and you're young.

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<v Speaker 2>You're young, you're young, Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>A lot of us have gone through things dealing with

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<v Speaker 1>alcohol and shit.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm in my thirties.

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<v Speaker 1>Girl, I'm thirty one, and I'm telling you, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to look at another fucking bottle of Kasumi Go's.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I did that shit all through my twenties, Tequila and

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<v Speaker 1>kanyak and vaka and all that shit. Girl, I'm so

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<v Speaker 1>sick of fucking liquor. So communication, communicate with him, sit

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<v Speaker 1>down and talk to him. Check back in with me,

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<v Speaker 1>because I really think that you also shouldn't swallow yourself

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<v Speaker 1>up in trying to be with him. Either you're early

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<v Speaker 1>in age, boo, you're twenty five or twenty three, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't remember which one you said, was twenty five or

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<v Speaker 1>twenty three? You were him, but it's so many other

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<v Speaker 1>things that you could be focusing on.

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<v Speaker 2>I know you love him.

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<v Speaker 1>I know I know you love him, love him enough

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<v Speaker 1>to let him go and see if he's as find

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<v Speaker 1>his way back. Love his ass like that, love is

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<v Speaker 1>ass from a distance. He'll be fine and you will too. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>check back in with me.

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<v Speaker 2>Let me. I think that was a pretty good one.

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<v Speaker 1>Her story took up a lot of times, So we'll

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<v Speaker 1>be back next week with a second episode of season three. Y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>clap it out one more time. Clap it up, clap

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<v Speaker 1>it up, clap it up.

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<v Speaker 2>I love you, guys.

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<v Speaker 1>I also want you to know again you can send

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<v Speaker 1>in voice notes. A lot of y'all are sending me essays,

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<v Speaker 1>bdfs and fucking oh my god speeches, and y'all not

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<v Speaker 1>proofreading what y'all sending before y'all send it. So a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of y'all stories I can't read because I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know y'all, so I can't make up pieces to y'all

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<v Speaker 1>puzzle if y'all not really taking y'all time and reading

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<v Speaker 1>through what y'all want me to read, you know, And

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<v Speaker 1>then also if I try to read this shit, y'all would.

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<v Speaker 2>Be like, damn, did I sound crazy? As a motherfucker.

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<v Speaker 1>A lot of y'all would question y'allselves on y'all literature

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<v Speaker 1>and shit.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, I needs y'all to slow down. I know

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<v Speaker 2>y'all got a lot of shit y'all want to tell me.

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<v Speaker 1>And before I get out of here, the very first

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<v Speaker 1>Black Effect Podcast Festival will be hosted by yours truly

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<v Speaker 1>one time thing. This is gonna be an annual thing.

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<v Speaker 1>So next year, if you didn't get your tickets for

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<v Speaker 1>are doing this shit for years and years to come, y'all.

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