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<v Speaker 2>Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Erica and I'm Mela, and welcome to Good Mom's

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<v Speaker 1>Bad Choices podcast show.

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<v Speaker 2>If you guys are just joining us, welcome. If you've

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<v Speaker 1>If you're just joining us, This is me Mela and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm happy that you're joining us. If you don't know

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<v Speaker 1>where you've found yourself a crazy place. Baby, it's not crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just kidding.

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<v Speaker 2>So you always say that. You always say that to people,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I'm like, why do you do that?

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<v Speaker 1>Because it's provocative and it gets the people going, oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, you said that with my mom the interview, like.

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<v Speaker 2>It's crazy, and I was like, oh Jesus Christ, he

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<v Speaker 2>already thinks we're crazy, and now you're confirming the crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Well that's the thing. If everyone thinks you're crazy, you

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<v Speaker 1>just up the ante and you make it really crazy,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, just like when the people.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but then you're like, but that when you set

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<v Speaker 2>up this expectation of crazy and then we're not crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>And then they're like this, bitches aren't crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>That's never happened. This should never happen. I've never set

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<v Speaker 1>it up. And then everyone was like, you're so calm,

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<v Speaker 1>you're so relaxed. I had to do it to your

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<v Speaker 1>mom because you know she feels that way. You know.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just like when I call myself a witch and

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<v Speaker 1>then people get weird and I'm like, I like it,

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<v Speaker 1>like the wild factor.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, all right, well, welcome to our Crazy podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>It's kind of like my personality. It's not that crazy,

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<v Speaker 1>but it gets the people going.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think this is going to be a really cool.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway. How are you.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing well. I'm doing really well. I feel good.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel activated. It is springtime and I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>we are birthing a lot of babies. We have a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of shit going on, but I keep telling myself, like, damn,

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<v Speaker 1>I asked for this, and I'm so grateful for it.

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<v Speaker 1>So like that's the best part, you know. It's just

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<v Speaker 1>like when preparation meets opportunity.

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<v Speaker 2>I was telling my friend that too. I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so overwell, but I'm like, but I prayed for this.

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<v Speaker 2>This is exactly what I asked for. There was a

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<v Speaker 2>time in my life where I felt like I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>really understand my purpose. I was like confused, and know,

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<v Speaker 2>am I going to be an actor? Am I not?

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<v Speaker 2>I am a failed actor. I don't know I'm gonna be

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<v Speaker 2>a rapper's wife, you know, I don't. I didn't. I

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<v Speaker 2>was so confused and scared, honestly, And so all the

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<v Speaker 2>things that we have, although there's a lot, it feels

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<v Speaker 2>overwhelming because we have a little, tiny team. I know everything,

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<v Speaker 2>but it's growing.

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<v Speaker 1>It's growing, and tiny team is growing and we have

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<v Speaker 1>each other and that's amazing. And I think I'm really

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<v Speaker 1>excited to show the world all the things we've been

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<v Speaker 1>working on I know, so like reveal it.

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<v Speaker 2>I know because when people are like, bitch, what is it?

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<v Speaker 2>Y'a all been talking about all these little things forever. Huh,

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<v Speaker 2>don't worry. We ain't just talking. It's coming.

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<v Speaker 1>It's work. And that's the most amazing part about this

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<v Speaker 1>life is like there's always work in different areas to do.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I'm working really hard on Good Moms and

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<v Speaker 1>all these projects we have, but then there's always just

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<v Speaker 1>like the life work that's never ending. And then that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, fuck, you know, there's just you know, I'm dating,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not dating, I'm having too much sex, I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>having enough. You know, there's just so much. There's so

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<v Speaker 1>many distractions that I'm always happily involving myself in and

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<v Speaker 1>then like retracting and going back and retracting, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>like a beautiful journey but also grateful. My kid is safe.

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<v Speaker 1>I just got back from Atlanta a couple weeks ago,

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<v Speaker 1>and everything's GoChi. How about you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm good, I mean I have I can't lie you

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<v Speaker 2>all know and be like having anxiety and.

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<v Speaker 1>Shape you and everybody else.

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<v Speaker 2>Bitch, I have been working through it. I've been waking

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<v Speaker 2>up really early before Irie wakes up to exercise for

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<v Speaker 2>at least thirty to forty five minutes, which has really

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<v Speaker 2>been helping me because exercising really is such like a

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<v Speaker 2>game changer for my brain. We had an episode last

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<v Speaker 2>week with Devi that really like helped center me. She's

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<v Speaker 2>such an incredible human and if you haven't listened to

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<v Speaker 2>that episode, please please please make sure you go listen.

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<v Speaker 1>To that episode.

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<v Speaker 2>It's all about healing your inner child. We talked about

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of other stuff too, So she's.

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<v Speaker 1>backslash good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, she's amazing. I myself have been on a few

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<v Speaker 2>different trips over the last month with family and also

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<v Speaker 2>a little mini trip that was supposed to be work

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<v Speaker 2>but then it ended up not being worked because the

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<v Speaker 2>girl I was working with ended up getting COVID and

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't do it. I didn't tell you, Oh I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know that. Oh yeah, I had a ring call.

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<v Speaker 2>So if you guys seen me post on Instagram, I

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<v Speaker 2>did a ring collapse with Gypsy by Nature, which it's

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<v Speaker 2>this amazing black owned jewelry brand by my girl a Nishka.

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<v Speaker 1>She's also a fellow fellow.

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<v Speaker 2>Mama Dope Dope Jewelry, and we did a collab for

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<v Speaker 2>Black History Month. This face rings also the Earth Ring

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<v Speaker 2>and so she lives in Miami. So I went out

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<v Speaker 2>there and she ended up getting sick, and so I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, fuck, that's why I'm here.

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<v Speaker 1>You're also out there during like the ratchetest time, the

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<v Speaker 1>second ratchetest time of the year, which is spring break

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<v Speaker 1>in Miami. The first time the most ratchettess time in

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<v Speaker 1>Miami of the year's Memorial Weekend. Everybody knows.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know it was spring break, Okay, I had

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<v Speaker 2>no idea.

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<v Speaker 1>Niggas love Miami.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh it was a lot, but I but I was

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<v Speaker 2>able to stay away from it.

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<v Speaker 1>It was cool. I went on a little hinge date

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<v Speaker 1>out there.

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<v Speaker 2>I met a guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I saw that on our close friends.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, yeah, I posted it on close friends. I

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<v Speaker 2>met this guy. We had dinner and he was cool,

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<v Speaker 2>like he's going to be my friend. Like it's very

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<v Speaker 2>it was very like we both were like, this is platonic.

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<v Speaker 2>He reminds me of Kevin Hart. I don't know, why

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<v Speaker 2>did that.

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<v Speaker 1>Hurt your feelings? I feel like rejection in all forms,

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<v Speaker 1>even if I don't want people.

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<v Speaker 2>Because he didn't reject me. He said that, but I

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<v Speaker 2>know he didn't mean it, But then I was happy

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<v Speaker 2>he said it because that's how I felt.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I know everyone love me.

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of know that, Like, if I wanted to

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<v Speaker 2>pursue it, it could be pursued.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's better that we don't.

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<v Speaker 2>He's just not it's just not we're not compatible compatible

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<v Speaker 2>in that way. I don't have had a realization recently.

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<v Speaker 2>I am in a new space in dating and sex

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<v Speaker 2>where I don't want to have it. I don't really

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<v Speaker 2>want to have sex anymore. I'm kind of cool and sex.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm actually you know, I am dating somebody right now

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<v Speaker 2>and I haven't been He hasn't been alerted of this

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<v Speaker 2>new discovery.

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<v Speaker 1>The same person.

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<v Speaker 2>He hasn't been alerted yet. He'll probably be alerted today.

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<v Speaker 1>We were having sex, but I'm sorry, I need to

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<v Speaker 1>alert you that we're no longer. We can date, but

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<v Speaker 1>we're not having sex.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I just don't have any desire to like share

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<v Speaker 2>myself with anyone. And it's not that I haven't met

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<v Speaker 2>and I like, it's not that I haven't met anyone

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<v Speaker 2>that's like that I would I'm sexually attracted to. And

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<v Speaker 2>it's not that I don't have the like, the the

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<v Speaker 2>drive to do it. It's just like, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of in a place where I am open

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<v Speaker 2>to connection. I am open to love, I am open

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<v Speaker 2>to partnership, but I feel like I'm often giving myself

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<v Speaker 2>sexually before I really get to know confirm the connection fully,

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<v Speaker 2>and sex be confusing shit, and I just like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>let me just try something different. I want to try

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<v Speaker 2>something different. And also something in my spirit is calling

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<v Speaker 2>me to do this. I don't know exactly what it is,

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<v Speaker 2>but I just I literally just don't have the desire.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to spend time with people. I want to

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<v Speaker 2>get to know people, but just without the suck. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I want to be intimate with people, but just like

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<v Speaker 2>not in that way. And I think some of it too,

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<v Speaker 2>came from a conversation that I had with this person

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<v Speaker 2>that I'm seeing. I was telling him, Who's asking me

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<v Speaker 2>if I was seeing other people? And I said, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm flirting with other people, and he was like why, like,

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<v Speaker 2>what does that mean you need attention? I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh god, no, it's like no, I mean's something I

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<v Speaker 2>need attention. I'm getting to know people like Nigga, you

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<v Speaker 2>ain't my man. And also like, I just feel like

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<v Speaker 2>flirting this I was trying to I was trying to

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<v Speaker 2>explain to him that flirting to me is not always sexual.

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<v Speaker 2>Like flirting to there's an intimacy in like sharing conversation,

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<v Speaker 2>when sharing conversation with someone that maybe shares the same

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<v Speaker 2>views that you have about love, life, family, and there's

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<v Speaker 2>an intimacy in that, and it's not related to sex.

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<v Speaker 2>And he just could not understand that.

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<v Speaker 1>And then I was.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, you know, I need to explore this, this intimacy

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<v Speaker 2>that that I'm talking to him about more because I

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<v Speaker 2>just feel like it's something that I do with people

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<v Speaker 2>simultaneously with sex, but I've never just done it without it,

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<v Speaker 2>and like I just want to know. I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>I will have I feel like it will make sex

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<v Speaker 2>that much better. It will for me, it will like

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<v Speaker 2>when I really feel like I okay, I really fuck

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<v Speaker 2>with you and sex has nothing to do with it.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I know, I'm good at sex, I know.

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<v Speaker 1>Like, let's take it back to Daphne. Okay, I know

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<v Speaker 1>this pussy is good, right, I don't have anything to

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<v Speaker 1>prove to anyone, And that's.

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<v Speaker 2>Where I'm feeling, like I have I know it. I

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<v Speaker 2>know I'm good, like the men's have told me. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>happy with my sex, my sex, Like I know that,

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<v Speaker 2>like once I share that with someone, it's undeniably gonna

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<v Speaker 2>be great. So why so there's no need for me

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<v Speaker 2>to do that, you know, like, let's make sure that

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<v Speaker 2>like the intimacy and like the connection is there first.

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<v Speaker 2>So that's kind of like where I'm at right now.

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<v Speaker 2>If anybody else wants to join me on the I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I'm going to.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I'm coming a little bit slowly, more

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<v Speaker 1>behind you, but I'm coming. I feel like it's currectly.

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<v Speaker 2>I had.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel similarly, and I don't know if we just

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<v Speaker 1>live fucking lives, but I have been deeply examining my

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<v Speaker 1>addiction to attention and to love and like, like I

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<v Speaker 1>went on a date. It's tender day. I said, I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't gonna tell anyone, but here we are. I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>a tender day and maybe I've told already, like a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of weeks ago or a few weeks ago, and like,

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<v Speaker 1>I had sex with this person, and I I just

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<v Speaker 1>told myself before I did it, I wasn't going to

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<v Speaker 1>do it. In the midst of the conversation, I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm bored. I was like, I'm gonna finish this wine

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm a dip. And then I did a dip

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<v Speaker 1>and then I had sex, and I was like, what

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck is wrong with me? And here I am

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<v Speaker 1>I have problems. So I just feel like that's something

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<v Speaker 1>I really need to I've had this conversation with myself

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<v Speaker 1>more than once. As if you've listened to this before

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<v Speaker 1>you may know, but it's just something that I have

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<v Speaker 1>to really dig deeper into. Also, speaking of like intimacy

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<v Speaker 1>on different levels. I have been talking on the phone

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<v Speaker 1>with this guy for like five months, literally for five

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<v Speaker 1>months and increasingly more over like the last few months,

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<v Speaker 1>and having really good conversations, really intellectual, deep conversations about perspectives,

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<v Speaker 1>about just things we don't really see a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>things I die, but the conversation has been really arousing

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<v Speaker 1>and really intriguing. And then finally, in like the last

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<v Speaker 1>two weeks we've met, and the first like three days

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<v Speaker 1>he just like didn't touch me or try or like anything.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, what the fuck We've been talking

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<v Speaker 1>about for five months? And then like eventually whatever should happen.

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<v Speaker 1>But I was like, damn, he is very disciplined and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not, and like he's very selective, and he makes

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<v Speaker 1>that very clear that he's selective about who he shares

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<v Speaker 1>himself with, and so I'm like, damn, I need to

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<v Speaker 1>adopt that, you know, And not that I'm not selective,

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<v Speaker 1>I am, but like not, I haven't been. There's obviously

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<v Speaker 1>been times I haven't been enough, in my opinion, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's just like you said, like I know, my pussy's good.

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<v Speaker 1>I know. And even in that date, I went on

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<v Speaker 1>and I didn't really even like this person, and I

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<v Speaker 1>declared that early on I still did it. I was thinking, like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so cool and you won't even shut the fuck

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<v Speaker 1>up to hear to listen, and I was like, is

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<v Speaker 1>it because I talk a lot and I have a podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just used to fucking talking. But I'm like, no,

0:16:20.720 --> 0:16:22.720
<v Speaker 1>he wasn't listening. He didn't even try to get to

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<v Speaker 1>know me. But anyway, I just feel like I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>hypersexual person and I'm aware of that, and I just

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<v Speaker 1>have to kind of dive deeper into dissecting why and

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<v Speaker 1>if it's healthy, and who who I'm sharing space and

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<v Speaker 1>time and body with and if it's necessary. So, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>give me about like what Martha April. Yeah, probably swing

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<v Speaker 1>around May. I'll be in the same boat.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, Well, I'm inviting anyone who's listening to join me

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<v Speaker 2>on this journey. You can start today, DM me whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't really, but it's a Dicktalks. We're drinking another

0:16:51.800 --> 0:16:55.640
<v Speaker 1>digtalk ticktogs. It's our second It's not her annual because

0:16:55.640 --> 0:16:57.640
<v Speaker 1>we didn't do it last year because we had boyfriends.

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<v Speaker 1>It's our second by annual, So second by annual dick tucks.

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<v Speaker 2>And what do we say? Was it supposed to be

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<v Speaker 2>ninety days?

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<v Speaker 1>It's supposed to be ninety days. I'm not starting right now, so.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not I'm not putting a number on it because

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like that like just sets people up for

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<v Speaker 2>fucking disaster. It puts too much expectation and disappointment in it.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just going with how I feel. I have this

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<v Speaker 2>feeling that it's going to last for a while.

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<v Speaker 1>Ever. The last time lasted me like six months, and

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<v Speaker 1>I tried only to do ninety days. I think you

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<v Speaker 1>get really comfortable and it once you commit to it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And like it's funny because I actually like I

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<v Speaker 2>am seeing someone, but I've also been talking to someone

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<v Speaker 2>else and he is so fine, so fine, and I

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<v Speaker 2>don't really do super fine okay, And that's a whole

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<v Speaker 2>other thing that like I've had to unpack too, because

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<v Speaker 2>I've kind of avoided very fine men in my life

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<v Speaker 2>because a problematic because if you, if I think you're fine,

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<v Speaker 2>so does everybody else. And I don't want to deal

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<v Speaker 2>with that. But I've realized that hasn't protected.

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<v Speaker 1>Me from shit niggas. Shea too, What does your dad say?

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<v Speaker 1>The trash man cheats everybody in cheats fine niggas, ugly niggas,

0:18:02.400 --> 0:18:03.680
<v Speaker 1>broke niggas, rich niggas.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I've kind of like judged fine men too

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<v Speaker 2>and thought like, oh, they're kind of dumb. But I'm like, well, shit,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm fine, Shit, I'm smart.

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<v Speaker 1>They're kind of dumb, It's true, the kind of dumb.

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<v Speaker 2>They're not, though, and he's not, and like he's really

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<v Speaker 2>smart and he's really beautiful, like wow, gorgeously esthetically gorgeous.

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<v Speaker 2>And I like this has been a practice for me too,

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<v Speaker 2>like of not having sex because like everything in me

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<v Speaker 2>in the past would have very much, so very easily,

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<v Speaker 2>and so and he's been so cool and respectful and

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<v Speaker 2>like we're just getting to know each other, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and so. But I don't know how long it's gonna last.

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<v Speaker 2>We don't see. But yeah, I just want I just

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<v Speaker 2>I just want my mind to be clear. And yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>Dick be clouding the brain. It's true.

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<v Speaker 1>Even saying this out loud, even think, okay, you I

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<v Speaker 1>would get like sick of like telling my my deepest

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<v Speaker 1>But I feel like like it'suck a fucking teenager having

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<v Speaker 1>this conversation, Like I'm gonna stop having stupid sex, but

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<v Speaker 1>I will next month. I know that I don't need

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<v Speaker 1>to have sex, but I will three weeks because I

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<v Speaker 1>love love and I love attention. With May four, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>stop giving my pissy TV.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe five five it's a good.

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<v Speaker 1>Number the day.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I I'm a little embarras, don't be embarrassed and

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<v Speaker 2>don't And like, you know, do you think men?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think men experience this? Like, no, I should

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<v Speaker 1>be more intentional with my dick.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think men go on dick taxes.

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<v Speaker 1>Well that's the thing. When I was talking to my.

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<v Speaker 2>On pussy toxes? Do you ever going to pussy talks?

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<v Speaker 1>They don't? Do you want to hate this joint? Also,

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<v Speaker 1>like do men go on pussy txes? They probably don't. Also,

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<v Speaker 1>my new friend that I've been talking to, he was

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<v Speaker 1>just saying like he used to be super super sexual,

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<v Speaker 1>and then he just was cool and he's like I'll

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<v Speaker 1>see a fine ass girl and I'll just be like cool.

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<v Speaker 1>And something about him telling me that was turning me

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<v Speaker 1>on because I'm like so selective you like me?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh god, please don't say that word. You know, the

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<v Speaker 2>selective triggers.

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<v Speaker 1>But it made me think about myself, like there is

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<v Speaker 1>a time where my my fangs would come out just

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<v Speaker 1>some fine niggas, and I would have like, I'm a

0:21:50.560 --> 0:21:53.520
<v Speaker 1>nigga inside, I'm a nigga. I've said this so many times.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very mannish. There have been times in my twenties

0:21:55.920 --> 0:21:59.280
<v Speaker 1>where I'm just like, oh, he's fine target, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>Like it is like zone in, like a little psycho bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's just like as you get older, it's like

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<v Speaker 1>they're gonna be fine niggas all the time. And there's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be people that intrigue your mind and intrigue you know,

0:22:08.520 --> 0:22:12.040
<v Speaker 1>there's there's I'm a deeply intrigued person. I love people,

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<v Speaker 1>so I have to chill. You know, everyone, I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to find people attractive because that's the type of person

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<v Speaker 1>I am. I love people. I think people are beautiful mostly,

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<v Speaker 1>But like, also, does that mean I have to sleep

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<v Speaker 1>with everyone? To what capacity? Are you going to be intimate?

0:22:25.000 --> 0:22:27.399
<v Speaker 1>You know, it could be energetically intimate. You know, we

0:22:27.400 --> 0:22:30.840
<v Speaker 1>can moan heavy and like deep breathe and hug or

0:22:30.880 --> 0:22:33.680
<v Speaker 1>we can actually be intimate. But is it necessary? And

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<v Speaker 1>oh and he's also a deep reader, so he was

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<v Speaker 1>making me read oh uh, Napoleon Hill and he was

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<v Speaker 1>talking about sexual transcendence and I was reading about it,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was just like pulling me in.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like, while you're having sex, you transcend something.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, just like just exchanging energy with another person and

0:22:52.160 --> 0:22:54.760
<v Speaker 1>what that means, and like that energy exchange and it's

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<v Speaker 1>just it had it should be intentional, and it was

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<v Speaker 1>making me at first feel deep shame and like, oh no,

0:22:59.640 --> 0:23:01.480
<v Speaker 1>how much which energy do I have inside of me?

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean?

0:23:02.520 --> 0:23:06.399
<v Speaker 1>But also we're growing, and we also we always have

0:23:06.520 --> 0:23:09.879
<v Speaker 1>the opportunity to evolve and make different change choices and

0:23:09.960 --> 0:23:11.560
<v Speaker 1>change and then be like, oh, how does this work

0:23:11.600 --> 0:23:13.120
<v Speaker 1>for me? You know, I don't think we.

0:23:13.119 --> 0:23:15.680
<v Speaker 2>Go through seasons, and I don't think it's bad to

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<v Speaker 2>have sex often with however many people you want. I

0:23:19.400 --> 0:23:22.280
<v Speaker 2>just feel like, because I truly feel that way, like

0:23:22.280 --> 0:23:25.359
<v Speaker 2>I'm not doing this because I want to because I

0:23:25.359 --> 0:23:28.080
<v Speaker 2>think I'm better than anyone else. That isn't you know.

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<v Speaker 2>It's really just like.

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<v Speaker 1>What you need in what season?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And like I feel like there's like a spring

0:23:33.160 --> 0:23:35.639
<v Speaker 2>cleaning that's happening right now. And I've been having a

0:23:35.680 --> 0:23:39.639
<v Speaker 2>lot of conversations with men and it's more in the

0:23:39.680 --> 0:23:42.000
<v Speaker 2>conversations have been really enlightening, Like I had one the

0:23:42.040 --> 0:23:43.960
<v Speaker 2>other day with the guy in Miami actually, and he

0:23:44.040 --> 0:23:47.680
<v Speaker 2>was showing he was telling me that he was showing

0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:50.119
<v Speaker 2>me this girl on Instagram. Actually, no, it didn't even

0:23:50.119 --> 0:23:52.840
<v Speaker 2>start with him. This conversation has kind of hopped around

0:23:52.840 --> 0:23:55.280
<v Speaker 2>to different men in my life and I'm getting the

0:23:55.320 --> 0:23:57.879
<v Speaker 2>same answer from most of them. And the first person

0:23:57.920 --> 0:23:59.520
<v Speaker 2>that is that guy that I said is really fine

0:24:00.080 --> 0:24:02.080
<v Speaker 2>he was. I was telling him that, like, I typically

0:24:02.119 --> 0:24:05.679
<v Speaker 2>don't really do like beautiful men like you, like you

0:24:05.720 --> 0:24:09.920
<v Speaker 2>are fucking like model fine, you know. And he was like, yeah, well,

0:24:10.119 --> 0:24:12.520
<v Speaker 2>men feel the same way about fine women. And I

0:24:12.560 --> 0:24:14.359
<v Speaker 2>was like what. I was like, it's not the goal.

0:24:14.520 --> 0:24:16.800
<v Speaker 2>Don't men always want fine women? And he was like,

0:24:17.040 --> 0:24:19.000
<v Speaker 2>we do, but we don't want to always wife them

0:24:19.000 --> 0:24:21.439
<v Speaker 2>because we always feel like, well, it's just too much,

0:24:21.720 --> 0:24:23.720
<v Speaker 2>like it's a lot, like there's probably niggas in her

0:24:23.800 --> 0:24:27.480
<v Speaker 2>dms or I'm gonna have to like like get all

0:24:27.520 --> 0:24:30.120
<v Speaker 2>these niggas away from her. Let me find like she's

0:24:30.280 --> 0:24:31.040
<v Speaker 2>just fine.

0:24:30.880 --> 0:24:33.320
<v Speaker 1>Enough, quiet enough covered it.

0:24:33.400 --> 0:24:37.360
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I was like really okay, And so then

0:24:37.480 --> 0:24:41.199
<v Speaker 2>I and then then I went to Miami and I

0:24:41.240 --> 0:24:45.320
<v Speaker 2>met this gentleman and he was telling me that, like

0:24:45.600 --> 0:24:46.960
<v Speaker 2>I was asking what kind of women he likes, and

0:24:46.960 --> 0:24:48.720
<v Speaker 2>he was showing me after we decided we're gonna beople

0:24:48.800 --> 0:24:52.639
<v Speaker 2>toonic friends, he showed me like this, this beautiful girl

0:24:52.640 --> 0:24:54.240
<v Speaker 2>that he that likes him. He's like, this girl she

0:24:54.400 --> 0:24:57.320
<v Speaker 2>like is like love with me. She's all but my dick,

0:24:57.480 --> 0:25:00.200
<v Speaker 2>But like, I can't bring her to the fucking he's

0:25:00.200 --> 0:25:01.800
<v Speaker 2>a lawyer. He's like, I can't bring her to like

0:25:02.160 --> 0:25:06.159
<v Speaker 2>my lawyer convention or like my fancy lawyer dinners. Like

0:25:06.200 --> 0:25:08.919
<v Speaker 2>it's too much like all this ass, all these titties like.

0:25:09.200 --> 0:25:11.800
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, what, Sun, I'm brand for his

0:25:11.880 --> 0:25:14.919
<v Speaker 1>lawyer lifestyle. I was like, so, let me get this straight.

0:25:15.440 --> 0:25:17.560
<v Speaker 2>So niggas want everything, but then they don't want you

0:25:17.640 --> 0:25:19.440
<v Speaker 2>at all. Like I'm confused because.

0:25:19.280 --> 0:25:20.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, they'd be scared.

0:25:20.560 --> 0:25:25.800
<v Speaker 2>And so I'm like, I'm fine as hell. So is

0:25:25.800 --> 0:25:26.840
<v Speaker 2>that why I don't have a man.

0:25:28.880 --> 0:25:31.680
<v Speaker 1>Me an equation? Me too? I was like, yeah, I'm

0:25:31.760 --> 0:25:34.320
<v Speaker 1>like fine.

0:25:34.400 --> 0:25:37.080
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, this is making me think of did

0:25:37.119 --> 0:25:38.560
<v Speaker 2>I ever tell you how I saw my aunts.

0:25:38.640 --> 0:25:40.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm like Sally Jesse.

0:25:39.960 --> 0:25:43.919
<v Speaker 2>Rash, I am, oh my god, what god, sisters who

0:25:43.960 --> 0:25:46.760
<v Speaker 2>are like crazy? And I remember when I was a kid,

0:25:46.800 --> 0:25:51.359
<v Speaker 2>I saw them. I saw them on Sally. They're very tall,

0:25:51.480 --> 0:25:55.240
<v Speaker 2>They're like six to two, and they're like they're athletic women,

0:25:55.280 --> 0:25:57.760
<v Speaker 2>you know. They're like, men just don't want me because

0:25:57.800 --> 0:26:00.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm too beautiful and I'm tall. And I'm like, is

0:26:00.880 --> 0:26:01.080
<v Speaker 2>this me?

0:26:01.160 --> 0:26:01.320
<v Speaker 3>Now?

0:26:01.359 --> 0:26:03.360
<v Speaker 2>Is this what happens in your thirties? But I do

0:26:03.400 --> 0:26:06.120
<v Speaker 2>feel like I'm confident in my in who I am.

0:26:06.160 --> 0:26:08.280
<v Speaker 2>And I don't mean fine just an esthetically. I mean

0:26:08.320 --> 0:26:11.840
<v Speaker 2>like I know that I'm a good woman, and but

0:26:11.920 --> 0:26:15.080
<v Speaker 2>I also aesthetically I feel like I'm good looking. So

0:26:15.880 --> 0:26:19.399
<v Speaker 2>I just feel like, is that like? Because based on

0:26:19.440 --> 0:26:21.399
<v Speaker 2>what they're saying to me, I just found it was

0:26:21.440 --> 0:26:25.320
<v Speaker 2>so interesting that perspective because for me as a woman,

0:26:25.400 --> 0:26:27.640
<v Speaker 2>I always feel like men are they are they're they're

0:26:27.680 --> 0:26:30.320
<v Speaker 2>looking for certain qualities. But there's men are very triggered

0:26:30.320 --> 0:26:32.680
<v Speaker 2>by are they there's at least sexually by the way

0:26:32.680 --> 0:26:35.359
<v Speaker 2>a woman looks. Absolutely, But I guess that does not

0:26:35.480 --> 0:26:39.840
<v Speaker 2>necessarily translate to even if you look good, Because I asked.

0:26:39.760 --> 0:26:41.040
<v Speaker 1>Him, I'm like, so is she a good woman?

0:26:41.119 --> 0:26:42.359
<v Speaker 2>Does she have a good job?

0:26:42.520 --> 0:26:46.240
<v Speaker 1>Like, yeah, she's.

0:26:45.040 --> 0:26:47.800
<v Speaker 2>Great, but it's too much for him, And I was like,

0:26:48.440 --> 0:26:51.800
<v Speaker 2>what I was so confused. I'm like, so she's giving

0:26:51.880 --> 0:26:56.439
<v Speaker 2>you everything that you asked for, but it's it's a

0:26:56.440 --> 0:26:57.120
<v Speaker 2>little too much.

0:26:57.200 --> 0:27:00.720
<v Speaker 1>I recognize that. I feel like this the first time

0:27:00.720 --> 0:27:03.199
<v Speaker 1>in my life that I've been able. I'm starting to

0:27:03.240 --> 0:27:05.560
<v Speaker 1>be able to be like, damn, I'm the shit right

0:27:05.640 --> 0:27:08.720
<v Speaker 1>and say it without feeling like we'd bad about it,

0:27:08.840 --> 0:27:11.920
<v Speaker 1>you know, weird. And the more I'm in front of men,

0:27:12.200 --> 0:27:14.159
<v Speaker 1>like you know, dating or whatever I'm doing, like I

0:27:14.160 --> 0:27:16.800
<v Speaker 1>want that stupid ass tender day and he was boasting

0:27:16.800 --> 0:27:19.760
<v Speaker 1>about himself and it was like mediocre and I was

0:27:19.880 --> 0:27:22.760
<v Speaker 1>just like, if he would shut the fuck up, you

0:27:22.800 --> 0:27:29.520
<v Speaker 1>would know you're sitting amongst royalty. But that's how I

0:27:29.600 --> 0:27:31.440
<v Speaker 1>was feeling. But like, I don't know who we're just

0:27:31.480 --> 0:27:35.119
<v Speaker 1>talking to. Was a DeBie that I'm realizing I do

0:27:35.200 --> 0:27:39.679
<v Speaker 1>the choosing. M I do the choosing, you know, Like

0:27:40.280 --> 0:27:42.000
<v Speaker 1>what I'm realizing this is gonna sound. I don't know.

0:27:42.040 --> 0:27:45.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't care. Everyone I choose is gonna choose me

0:27:46.600 --> 0:27:49.080
<v Speaker 1>pretty much. I like that's how I feel like.

0:27:49.119 --> 0:27:49.920
<v Speaker 2>I don't feel that way.

0:27:50.560 --> 0:27:51.280
<v Speaker 1>I feel like the I.

0:27:51.320 --> 0:27:53.920
<v Speaker 2>Don't feel that way. I haven't been shown that well.

0:27:54.040 --> 0:27:56.159
<v Speaker 1>Like I just I feel like it's it's easy.

0:27:55.880 --> 0:27:57.359
<v Speaker 2>For me to for people to fall in love with

0:27:57.480 --> 0:28:00.560
<v Speaker 2>Fuck me and choose me are two different things. So

0:28:00.600 --> 0:28:01.160
<v Speaker 2>what do you mean?

0:28:01.240 --> 0:28:04.240
<v Speaker 1>Do you mean like have sex with you? I feel

0:28:04.240 --> 0:28:08.840
<v Speaker 1>like if I wanted to be wiped by most of

0:28:08.880 --> 0:28:11.280
<v Speaker 1>the men that I've dated, I could have that option,

0:28:12.160 --> 0:28:16.520
<v Speaker 1>but I don't usually feel as compelled. And it's not

0:28:16.560 --> 0:28:20.520
<v Speaker 1>that I just don't feel like it's compelled, but I

0:28:20.520 --> 0:28:22.399
<v Speaker 1>feel like if I wanted to have relationships and like

0:28:22.520 --> 0:28:25.200
<v Speaker 1>be chosen by certain like people I've dated in my past,

0:28:25.240 --> 0:28:26.920
<v Speaker 1>that could be I would be able to you know

0:28:26.960 --> 0:28:27.360
<v Speaker 1>what I mean?

0:28:27.400 --> 0:28:28.120
<v Speaker 2>Like, I just.

0:28:30.160 --> 0:28:32.000
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I'm doing the choosing and I feel

0:28:32.000 --> 0:28:34.000
<v Speaker 1>like I'm waiting for someone who's going to come into

0:28:34.040 --> 0:28:38.120
<v Speaker 1>my realm that I'm like, Oh, it's all the niggas

0:28:38.120 --> 0:28:39.680
<v Speaker 1>that I've been wanting added up and went, all the

0:28:39.680 --> 0:28:41.880
<v Speaker 1>perfect mixtures, all the measurements, you know what I mean.

0:28:42.080 --> 0:28:43.480
<v Speaker 1>Not that I'm like the bomb and I'm the best

0:28:43.480 --> 0:28:46.200
<v Speaker 1>shit ever, but I'm coming into my power. I'm stepping

0:28:46.280 --> 0:28:48.480
<v Speaker 1>into my power and I feel that, and I feel

0:28:48.520 --> 0:28:51.000
<v Speaker 1>that even in dating. I feel that in my personal space.

0:28:51.040 --> 0:28:53.720
<v Speaker 1>I feel like if I just I feel it, you

0:28:53.760 --> 0:28:55.720
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean? I feel that as much people

0:28:55.720 --> 0:28:59.480
<v Speaker 1>are gravitating towards me more heavily, that I have the

0:28:59.560 --> 0:29:04.680
<v Speaker 1>power to choose and like it's kind of scary.

0:29:04.720 --> 0:29:07.600
<v Speaker 2>It is it is. I feel that I feel that

0:29:07.680 --> 0:29:09.120
<v Speaker 2>way mostly, but I.

0:29:09.200 --> 0:29:10.480
<v Speaker 1>Feel like not all the time.

0:29:10.600 --> 0:29:13.320
<v Speaker 2>I definitely feel like there have been definite times where

0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:16.360
<v Speaker 2>I've not been chosen and like my feelings were hurt

0:29:16.400 --> 0:29:18.920
<v Speaker 2>and I was like shocked, like what, like what do

0:29:18.960 --> 0:29:21.080
<v Speaker 2>you mean? Like what else do you need from me?

0:29:21.120 --> 0:29:22.720
<v Speaker 1>But absolutely I feel like I've had times where I

0:29:22.720 --> 0:29:24.520
<v Speaker 1>haven't been chosen. But you can and I know you

0:29:24.560 --> 0:29:29.280
<v Speaker 1>can identify with this. Had those times been taking place

0:29:29.360 --> 0:29:34.400
<v Speaker 1>right now, would you have taken it as personally? No?

0:29:34.520 --> 0:29:36.520
<v Speaker 2>Like now, no, no, And that's what I'm saying. There's

0:29:36.520 --> 0:29:37.680
<v Speaker 2>growth happening right now.

0:29:37.720 --> 0:29:39.400
<v Speaker 1>That's that's how I feel right now. There's times where

0:29:39.400 --> 0:29:42.720
<v Speaker 1>i'd be I would feel rejected and take it deeply personally,

0:29:43.040 --> 0:29:45.520
<v Speaker 1>but I'm so in tune with how cool I am

0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:48.000
<v Speaker 1>and how dope of a person, and like I don't

0:29:48.040 --> 0:29:51.600
<v Speaker 1>really feel I don't even the things that are quote

0:29:51.640 --> 0:29:53.800
<v Speaker 1>unquote rejections, I don't feel that way. I feel like

0:29:53.840 --> 0:29:56.240
<v Speaker 1>it's just like the journey.

0:29:55.960 --> 0:29:57.760
<v Speaker 2>Right, I mean even me saying that I don't want

0:29:57.760 --> 0:30:00.600
<v Speaker 2>to have sex is essentially me doing the choosing because

0:30:01.040 --> 0:30:03.400
<v Speaker 2>because I have se because I'm doing the choosing, like

0:30:03.440 --> 0:30:06.760
<v Speaker 2>I'm choosing who I share space with. Intimately, I have

0:30:06.880 --> 0:30:10.240
<v Speaker 2>a serious boundary here, you know, there's a real boundary,

0:30:10.280 --> 0:30:12.520
<v Speaker 2>and it's with love. It's not like fuck you, it's

0:30:12.560 --> 0:30:15.360
<v Speaker 2>just more so like what I don't want to Let's

0:30:15.360 --> 0:30:17.320
<v Speaker 2>just do this for now, Let's see this. Let's see

0:30:17.360 --> 0:30:19.760
<v Speaker 2>if you how how interested you actually are in me?

0:30:19.840 --> 0:30:23.240
<v Speaker 2>If I don't if we don't have sex, be friends first.

0:30:23.560 --> 0:30:25.720
<v Speaker 2>I mean even in our relationship with my baby daddy,

0:30:25.800 --> 0:30:28.040
<v Speaker 2>Like our relationship may not have been perfect, but it

0:30:28.120 --> 0:30:30.520
<v Speaker 2>lasted for a long time. I think because we were

0:30:30.600 --> 0:30:32.440
<v Speaker 2>friends first. You know, there was a we had a

0:30:32.480 --> 0:30:36.160
<v Speaker 2>long period of time where we it was like a

0:30:36.200 --> 0:30:39.440
<v Speaker 2>honeymoon period for years, Like there were no arguments. It

0:30:39.520 --> 0:30:42.200
<v Speaker 2>was beautiful. Whether or not we're meant to be together

0:30:42.320 --> 0:30:45.400
<v Speaker 2>now is something different. But the friendship, though, is what

0:30:45.560 --> 0:30:48.840
<v Speaker 2>held that for sure, And I feel like I haven't

0:30:48.880 --> 0:30:53.000
<v Speaker 2>really done that and like again, and I want to

0:30:53.040 --> 0:30:54.920
<v Speaker 2>do that again. I know that that's I know for sure,

0:30:54.960 --> 0:30:57.840
<v Speaker 2>that's something I want to take from that relationship into

0:30:57.880 --> 0:31:00.480
<v Speaker 2>my next because even thinking about the real relationship that

0:31:00.520 --> 0:31:02.440
<v Speaker 2>I got in COVID, like that was so quick, there

0:31:02.480 --> 0:31:04.320
<v Speaker 2>was no friendship involved. And then it was just like

0:31:04.360 --> 0:31:07.360
<v Speaker 2>we're getting to know each other while while having sex,

0:31:07.480 --> 0:31:11.920
<v Speaker 2>while it's like loving each other while integrating children, while

0:31:11.960 --> 0:31:14.840
<v Speaker 2>integrating friends, Like that's a lot of that's a lot,

0:31:14.960 --> 0:31:18.360
<v Speaker 2>like let's just take it one day at a time.

0:31:18.920 --> 0:31:22.440
<v Speaker 1>I think the most beautiful thing about friendship based first too,

0:31:22.560 --> 0:31:26.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm noticing is that it comes with this, Uh, it's

0:31:26.440 --> 0:31:29.640
<v Speaker 1>easy to be radically honest when you start in a

0:31:29.640 --> 0:31:32.440
<v Speaker 1>friend's space because I'm not trying to prove shit to you.

0:31:33.040 --> 0:31:35.320
<v Speaker 1>What did I do last week? Some crazy shit?

0:31:35.800 --> 0:31:35.960
<v Speaker 3>Why?

0:31:37.240 --> 0:31:37.880
<v Speaker 1>That's it too.

0:31:38.360 --> 0:31:41.280
<v Speaker 2>It's the like I think, I'm like, I need you

0:31:41.360 --> 0:31:42.560
<v Speaker 2>to know exactly who I am.

0:31:42.640 --> 0:31:44.440
<v Speaker 1>I want you to know. Wait, I want you to

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:46.720
<v Speaker 1>know who exactly who I am. But it's easier to

0:31:46.800 --> 0:31:50.080
<v Speaker 1>present myself exactly who I am without first having the

0:31:50.120 --> 0:31:53.280
<v Speaker 1>expectation that I want you to keep me forever. Right,

0:31:53.680 --> 0:31:56.920
<v Speaker 1>Because when we begin to want to be kept forever

0:31:57.000 --> 0:31:59.400
<v Speaker 1>and want a relationship and want someone to love us,

0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:04.520
<v Speaker 1>you start to feel this deep longing for them to

0:32:04.600 --> 0:32:07.680
<v Speaker 1>accept you, and then you start to even self reflect

0:32:07.680 --> 0:32:09.760
<v Speaker 1>about this the person that you are and the things

0:32:09.800 --> 0:32:12.760
<v Speaker 1>that you do and whether they're acceptable, especially for women

0:32:13.000 --> 0:32:16.080
<v Speaker 1>as a wife or as a girlfriend, because you know,

0:32:16.120 --> 0:32:17.600
<v Speaker 1>like how much just like sometimes I'll meet when I

0:32:17.600 --> 0:32:19.200
<v Speaker 1>don't give a fuck, like my podcast is cool, and

0:32:19.200 --> 0:32:21.040
<v Speaker 1>then I want to date them. I'm like, please, don't listen.

0:32:21.680 --> 0:32:23.200
<v Speaker 1>Whatever you do, don't listen, you.

0:32:23.120 --> 0:32:23.520
<v Speaker 2>Know what I mean.

0:32:23.600 --> 0:32:26.280
<v Speaker 1>And then even in this, like these these newer relationships,

0:32:26.320 --> 0:32:32.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm deeply examining how I feel about myself versus how

0:32:32.880 --> 0:32:35.520
<v Speaker 1>how I will perceive myself when someone else sees me,

0:32:36.120 --> 0:32:38.000
<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean, Because there are two different things.

0:32:38.000 --> 0:32:39.840
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I feel empowered and cool about what I do,

0:32:39.920 --> 0:32:41.640
<v Speaker 1>and then sometimes I'm like, oh, no, I've said way

0:32:41.680 --> 0:32:43.920
<v Speaker 1>too much and I'm never gonna be married, you know.

0:32:43.920 --> 0:32:44.360
<v Speaker 2>What I mean.

0:32:44.400 --> 0:32:47.360
<v Speaker 1>And it's just like how we see ourselves versus how

0:32:47.400 --> 0:32:50.440
<v Speaker 1>we see ourselves through someone else's perspective is like those

0:32:50.480 --> 0:32:53.000
<v Speaker 1>things really need to be like blurred out and cleared

0:32:53.000 --> 0:32:57.280
<v Speaker 1>out and cleansed, because as long as you're expecting someone

0:32:57.360 --> 0:32:59.960
<v Speaker 1>to love you and you don't really love and accept yourself,

0:33:00.360 --> 0:33:03.160
<v Speaker 1>it's gonna be fucked up. Even like me doing that

0:33:03.200 --> 0:33:05.600
<v Speaker 1>tender shit and like feeling really bad about it. And

0:33:05.600 --> 0:33:07.760
<v Speaker 1>then I was kind of like not beating myself up

0:33:07.760 --> 0:33:12.360
<v Speaker 1>about it, but like disappointed, and it's okay to be disappointed.

0:33:12.520 --> 0:33:15.960
<v Speaker 1>But also I'm like, Okay, you've done You've done more

0:33:15.960 --> 0:33:18.160
<v Speaker 1>shit in your past like this one fuck up, this

0:33:18.280 --> 0:33:21.560
<v Speaker 1>one unnecessary person, Like Okay, it's okay. Keep it doesn't

0:33:21.600 --> 0:33:24.800
<v Speaker 1>mean you haven't grown. And that's the thing. It's like, Fuck,

0:33:24.800 --> 0:33:26.440
<v Speaker 1>I thought I've done the work. I thought i've grown.

0:33:26.440 --> 0:33:27.960
<v Speaker 1>I thought I'm better than this, And it's like that

0:33:28.000 --> 0:33:29.960
<v Speaker 1>doesn't mean you haven't done the work. It means you've

0:33:30.280 --> 0:33:33.320
<v Speaker 1>you've been doing fuck dumb shit for your whole life

0:33:33.560 --> 0:33:35.240
<v Speaker 1>and you'll slip up, you know what I mean.

0:33:35.320 --> 0:33:38.000
<v Speaker 2>But just like it's like that loving yourself like you

0:33:38.040 --> 0:33:40.360
<v Speaker 2>would your child that we were talking about last week

0:33:40.440 --> 0:33:43.880
<v Speaker 2>about like you know, if your child fucked up like

0:33:44.120 --> 0:33:47.480
<v Speaker 2>you you letting you, letting them know that they did it,

0:33:47.520 --> 0:33:50.240
<v Speaker 2>but also knowing like you're it's okay, like because kids

0:33:50.240 --> 0:33:52.400
<v Speaker 2>will be like no world, and that's how we are.

0:33:52.440 --> 0:33:56.160
<v Speaker 2>We're not outwardly like crying like that necessarily, but inside

0:33:56.160 --> 0:33:59.080
<v Speaker 2>we're almost abusing ourselves even more. At least kids get

0:33:59.120 --> 0:34:01.960
<v Speaker 2>it out, you know, cry about it in a dramatic way.

0:34:02.040 --> 0:34:04.880
<v Speaker 2>We're all internalizing shit and then beating ourselves up about

0:34:04.920 --> 0:34:07.920
<v Speaker 2>it and not saying it's okay, it's okay, Yeah you

0:34:07.960 --> 0:34:08.880
<v Speaker 2>fucked up, but like.

0:34:09.320 --> 0:34:11.239
<v Speaker 1>It's okay, there's you can just you did.

0:34:11.280 --> 0:34:14.239
<v Speaker 2>You're you're learning. You're still in the learning, and like

0:34:14.600 --> 0:34:17.040
<v Speaker 2>even when you get past the learning, which I don't

0:34:17.120 --> 0:34:19.520
<v Speaker 2>that doesn't really ever happen, you still might fuck up sometimes,

0:34:20.160 --> 0:34:23.240
<v Speaker 2>so don't I mean, I know, I mean, it's it's

0:34:23.280 --> 0:34:24.520
<v Speaker 2>the best part about it all.

0:34:24.480 --> 0:34:27.360
<v Speaker 1>Is that you are aware of it and acknowledging it

0:34:27.640 --> 0:34:30.200
<v Speaker 1>and being able to be transparent in front of someone else,

0:34:30.320 --> 0:34:32.640
<v Speaker 1>like yeah, I've done this and that, and like you

0:34:32.680 --> 0:34:34.640
<v Speaker 1>can't make me feel bad about myself, you know what

0:34:34.680 --> 0:34:36.640
<v Speaker 1>I mean. I told this guy that because he has

0:34:36.719 --> 0:34:41.879
<v Speaker 1>like very interesting like expectations of women, and like it's

0:34:41.880 --> 0:34:45.399
<v Speaker 1>something we discussed. But uh, I said, this is the thing.

0:34:45.600 --> 0:34:47.520
<v Speaker 1>I said. What I don't want is that for us

0:34:47.520 --> 0:34:49.480
<v Speaker 1>to feel like we love each other right now we

0:34:49.600 --> 0:34:52.520
<v Speaker 1>like each other, but then later down the line, I

0:34:52.600 --> 0:34:55.480
<v Speaker 1>love you and something comes out about me or you

0:34:55.640 --> 0:34:58.319
<v Speaker 1>learn some information about me, and then oooh.

0:34:58.040 --> 0:35:01.360
<v Speaker 2>Girl, that's literally the same shit, and I'm not going

0:35:01.440 --> 0:35:03.000
<v Speaker 2>to live on eggshells, and then.

0:35:02.920 --> 0:35:07.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm like fighting for your validation and then and a

0:35:07.640 --> 0:35:12.240
<v Speaker 1>questioning who I am from past decision proving my value.

0:35:12.800 --> 0:35:14.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to feel that way. I don't even

0:35:14.480 --> 0:35:16.040
<v Speaker 1>want to put myself in the position to feel that

0:35:16.040 --> 0:35:17.800
<v Speaker 1>way in the future. So I don't want to even

0:35:17.920 --> 0:35:20.160
<v Speaker 1>like I can say I love you and feel all

0:35:20.200 --> 0:35:23.040
<v Speaker 1>the fields, but like, let's not try and plan what

0:35:23.120 --> 0:35:26.600
<v Speaker 1>this is because your expectation of me may not be realistic.

0:35:26.640 --> 0:35:29.359
<v Speaker 1>And I don't even want to try to fit into

0:35:29.400 --> 0:35:32.640
<v Speaker 1>this box of like expectation that's not realistic for me

0:35:32.800 --> 0:35:35.000
<v Speaker 1>in my process because it's just going to make me

0:35:35.040 --> 0:35:38.640
<v Speaker 1>be mean to myself and feel sad and feel bad

0:35:38.760 --> 0:35:41.799
<v Speaker 1>and I'm the shit right now. I don't even need

0:35:41.840 --> 0:35:44.319
<v Speaker 1>that type of energy. And even if it's direct or

0:35:44.320 --> 0:35:47.920
<v Speaker 1>in like directly or indirectly, I want to be aligned

0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:51.719
<v Speaker 1>with myself. And being aligned with myself includes everybody else

0:35:51.719 --> 0:35:54.799
<v Speaker 1>that I love and is in my space also being

0:35:54.880 --> 0:35:57.480
<v Speaker 1>aligned with whoever that person is, and I'm able to

0:35:57.520 --> 0:35:59.799
<v Speaker 1>show who that person is in that moment because it

0:35:59.840 --> 0:36:08.000
<v Speaker 1>is for ever changing amen. This week's Dating with Erica

0:36:08.000 --> 0:36:11.760
<v Speaker 1>and Mila breaking news.

0:36:12.360 --> 0:36:14.640
<v Speaker 2>Eric is not having sex. Jamila's thinking about it.

0:36:20.719 --> 0:36:24.120
<v Speaker 1>They're still figuring it out. Oh my god, should we

0:36:24.200 --> 0:36:25.200
<v Speaker 1>read an advice question?

0:36:25.360 --> 0:36:27.160
<v Speaker 2>What do you think? Which one?

0:36:27.200 --> 0:36:28.080
<v Speaker 1>Because you know we have some.

0:36:28.239 --> 0:36:30.399
<v Speaker 2>Well, there's there's a deep one. There's one that's very

0:36:30.400 --> 0:36:32.600
<v Speaker 2>close to my heart. Actually, there's the one where they

0:36:33.160 --> 0:36:35.239
<v Speaker 2>use the V word. So which one are we going with?

0:36:35.600 --> 0:36:40.279
<v Speaker 2>B word V? Vagina victim? Oh that's not that's not

0:36:40.320 --> 0:36:43.200
<v Speaker 2>the one. Okay, Yeah, we're gonna get to that one.

0:36:43.239 --> 0:36:51.160
<v Speaker 2>Maybe that after this one. Okay, Okay, Hi ladies, My

0:36:51.239 --> 0:36:54.719
<v Speaker 2>boyfriend slash baby daddy cheated and the girl is pregnant.

0:36:55.120 --> 0:36:56.359
<v Speaker 1>They both want me to be a woman.

0:36:56.400 --> 0:36:59.600
<v Speaker 2>About the situation, my heart says stay, but my mind

0:36:59.600 --> 0:37:01.120
<v Speaker 2>says they.

0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:01.759
<v Speaker 1>Both want me to be a woman.

0:37:01.800 --> 0:37:05.080
<v Speaker 2>Why the fuck is especially a factor in what wants

0:37:05.239 --> 0:37:05.839
<v Speaker 2>need to be happy?

0:37:06.080 --> 0:37:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Don't ever tell me what I need to be doing.

0:37:08.160 --> 0:37:11.400
<v Speaker 1>You needed to keep your relation, my relationship, out of

0:37:11.440 --> 0:37:11.960
<v Speaker 1>your legs.

0:37:12.120 --> 0:37:15.920
<v Speaker 2>But now we're here, right, They both want me to

0:37:15.920 --> 0:37:19.279
<v Speaker 2>be a woman. About the situation, My heart says stay,

0:37:19.320 --> 0:37:21.600
<v Speaker 2>but my mind says leave. I just had a baby

0:37:21.719 --> 0:37:24.399
<v Speaker 2>with him, and she knew we were together. I don't

0:37:24.440 --> 0:37:24.960
<v Speaker 2>know what to do.

0:37:27.440 --> 0:37:29.240
<v Speaker 1>Wait, is some someone that says that she had twins,

0:37:29.480 --> 0:37:30.440
<v Speaker 1>she's pregnant with twins.

0:37:32.080 --> 0:37:35.879
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so she's having twins and she's four to five

0:37:35.920 --> 0:37:38.440
<v Speaker 2>months pregnant.

0:37:39.920 --> 0:37:41.120
<v Speaker 1>How much can you handle?

0:37:41.160 --> 0:37:41.480
<v Speaker 2>Babe?

0:37:41.840 --> 0:37:45.000
<v Speaker 1>Can you handle that? I mean, I if you love

0:37:45.040 --> 0:37:47.040
<v Speaker 1>someone in your heart is saying stay, Who the fuck

0:37:47.040 --> 0:37:49.280
<v Speaker 1>am I to tell you? Otherwise? People fuck up, People

0:37:49.280 --> 0:37:54.719
<v Speaker 1>make mistakes. Now, a bitch like me, I'm highly sensitive

0:37:56.239 --> 0:37:59.799
<v Speaker 1>and highly reactive, and I don't know if I would,

0:38:00.320 --> 0:38:03.279
<v Speaker 1>you know, in my knowing myself put myself in the

0:38:03.320 --> 0:38:07.160
<v Speaker 1>position to be tortured for the rest of my life.

0:38:08.160 --> 0:38:10.200
<v Speaker 1>It's a hard decision to make it. Only you can

0:38:10.239 --> 0:38:16.319
<v Speaker 1>make it. Leave him. Run run, bitch, Run as fast

0:38:16.320 --> 0:38:16.839
<v Speaker 1>as you can.

0:38:17.160 --> 0:38:18.600
<v Speaker 2>I okay, I'm kidding.

0:38:18.600 --> 0:38:19.200
<v Speaker 1>How old are you?

0:38:19.719 --> 0:38:21.320
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I don't I'm I'm kidding, But I'm not

0:38:21.400 --> 0:38:25.640
<v Speaker 2>kidding only because I've been through this situation personally, And

0:38:26.920 --> 0:38:31.960
<v Speaker 2>it's when you have a child with someone and that person,

0:38:32.280 --> 0:38:35.480
<v Speaker 2>especially you just had a baby and that person, and

0:38:35.520 --> 0:38:39.000
<v Speaker 2>that's a sacred like bond that you share with that person,

0:38:39.120 --> 0:38:42.320
<v Speaker 2>especially if it's the first one between you or that person.

0:38:42.400 --> 0:38:45.680
<v Speaker 1>The most sacred covenant you will ever make with the

0:38:45.719 --> 0:38:46.080
<v Speaker 1>ot to.

0:38:46.120 --> 0:38:49.680
<v Speaker 2>Have to share that space twice because the bitch is

0:38:49.719 --> 0:38:54.480
<v Speaker 2>having twins within like within with close proximity. That's a

0:38:54.520 --> 0:38:56.840
<v Speaker 2>lot on my heart for you to for me to

0:38:56.920 --> 0:38:59.960
<v Speaker 2>have to be and look at you every day and.

0:39:00.040 --> 0:39:03.319
<v Speaker 1>Able to trust you and be strong through and.

0:39:02.960 --> 0:39:07.560
<v Speaker 2>And be nice and being a new mom is hard

0:39:08.280 --> 0:39:12.839
<v Speaker 2>enough to have to also be healing and from that.

0:39:13.040 --> 0:39:17.040
<v Speaker 2>I don't know. It's it's like I personally could not

0:39:17.160 --> 0:39:19.759
<v Speaker 2>do that. I didn't do it, And honestly that's why

0:39:19.760 --> 0:39:22.200
<v Speaker 2>we started Good Mom's Bad Choices, not why, but it's

0:39:22.200 --> 0:39:26.120
<v Speaker 2>spawned this because I wouldn't be here had I not

0:39:26.239 --> 0:39:28.479
<v Speaker 2>had the strength to be like, you know what, I'm

0:39:28.480 --> 0:39:31.799
<v Speaker 2>not tolerating that. I'm not doing that with you, even

0:39:31.840 --> 0:39:35.840
<v Speaker 2>though like I love, I love that person and I

0:39:35.880 --> 0:39:38.360
<v Speaker 2>still love him, I will always love him. He shares

0:39:38.880 --> 0:39:41.719
<v Speaker 2>we share human we share a bond forever and ever

0:39:41.800 --> 0:39:47.920
<v Speaker 2>and ever. But I just don't think that that. I

0:39:47.920 --> 0:39:50.200
<v Speaker 2>feel like there's something better for you out there. I

0:39:50.239 --> 0:39:58.360
<v Speaker 2>feel like when you experience extreme betrayal and pain and hurt,

0:39:58.760 --> 0:40:00.800
<v Speaker 2>it's for a reason, and a lot of that reason

0:40:00.960 --> 0:40:04.560
<v Speaker 2>isn't to stay in it. It's not to stay and

0:40:04.600 --> 0:40:08.000
<v Speaker 2>fight through it, like like we were saying, like a

0:40:08.040 --> 0:40:10.799
<v Speaker 2>lot of women, we measure our value on how much

0:40:10.840 --> 0:40:11.920
<v Speaker 2>we can tolerate.

0:40:12.280 --> 0:40:14.120
<v Speaker 1>And that's not how you measure your value.

0:40:13.920 --> 0:40:15.800
<v Speaker 2>And that is not how you should measure your value.

0:40:15.800 --> 0:40:19.120
<v Speaker 2>You are not any less strong because you decided to

0:40:19.200 --> 0:40:22.400
<v Speaker 2>choose yourself, and I'm gonna.

0:40:22.280 --> 0:40:24.200
<v Speaker 1>In fact, you're stronger for choosing yourself.

0:40:24.200 --> 0:40:25.919
<v Speaker 2>And let me tell you, it's not an easy road.

0:40:26.000 --> 0:40:28.120
<v Speaker 2>I know it's not. I know that like deciding to

0:40:28.239 --> 0:40:31.399
<v Speaker 2>leave you, to separate your family, and maybe I don't

0:40:31.440 --> 0:40:33.440
<v Speaker 2>know what your job situation is. I don't know if

0:40:33.440 --> 0:40:36.439
<v Speaker 2>he takes care of you, I don't know. But it's

0:40:36.480 --> 0:40:41.120
<v Speaker 2>not an easy it's not an easy choice. But I

0:40:41.320 --> 0:40:45.360
<v Speaker 2>promise you you'll be okay if that's your If that

0:40:45.480 --> 0:40:47.359
<v Speaker 2>is is that, that's what your heart is telling you,

0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:50.800
<v Speaker 2>and you're listening to this and you feel like, damn,

0:40:51.239 --> 0:40:54.400
<v Speaker 2>I feel this. I feel like she's right in this moment. Like,

0:40:54.760 --> 0:40:59.319
<v Speaker 2>I promise you you'll be okay. I promise, But I

0:40:59.360 --> 0:41:02.600
<v Speaker 2>also promise said you know, we're really good at handling

0:41:02.640 --> 0:41:06.560
<v Speaker 2>trauma as women, So you might be okay ish if

0:41:06.640 --> 0:41:07.120
<v Speaker 2>you stay.

0:41:07.360 --> 0:41:11.080
<v Speaker 1>But will it be easy? Absolutely not, And will you

0:41:11.160 --> 0:41:14.919
<v Speaker 1>be wondering damn? Was there maybe something better or someone else, or.

0:41:14.960 --> 0:41:17.600
<v Speaker 2>And you will be in pro close proximity not only

0:41:17.680 --> 0:41:20.680
<v Speaker 2>to your partner that's betrayed you, but to this woman.

0:41:20.800 --> 0:41:23.080
<v Speaker 2>Because you're going to be in close proximity to your

0:41:23.120 --> 0:41:25.000
<v Speaker 2>partner who's dealing with this woman.

0:41:24.840 --> 0:41:28.840
<v Speaker 1>This, this scab will be very difficult to heal because

0:41:28.920 --> 0:41:33.000
<v Speaker 1>they will be constant contact, contact and content with both

0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:35.040
<v Speaker 1>opportunities for the womb to reopen.

0:41:35.080 --> 0:41:38.040
<v Speaker 2>You're always gonna have to know what's kind of going on, Like,

0:41:38.080 --> 0:41:39.680
<v Speaker 2>there comes a point where I don't want to know,

0:41:39.840 --> 0:41:41.160
<v Speaker 2>get me away from that shit.

0:41:41.320 --> 0:41:45.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm good, I'm good, you know, And she already doesn't

0:41:45.440 --> 0:41:50.280
<v Speaker 1>seem like she's in a healthy space. Yeah, to recommend

0:41:50.320 --> 0:41:51.759
<v Speaker 1>that you be an adult.

0:41:51.520 --> 0:41:53.480
<v Speaker 2>About her, Yeah, be an adult, bitch. You know what

0:41:53.719 --> 0:41:56.040
<v Speaker 2>that she tried to do that to me too. And

0:41:56.160 --> 0:42:04.760
<v Speaker 2>let me tell you the audacity, the audacity of certain women, men, whatever,

0:42:04.920 --> 0:42:10.319
<v Speaker 2>people in general who have basically just disrespected you and

0:42:10.360 --> 0:42:12.200
<v Speaker 2>your whole family to tell.

0:42:12.080 --> 0:42:14.640
<v Speaker 1>You that you should react, that you need to.

0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:17.319
<v Speaker 2>That you need to settle down, shut the fuck up.

0:42:17.719 --> 0:42:20.280
<v Speaker 2>That's you do, you will get your ass beat. Sorry,

0:42:21.400 --> 0:42:23.080
<v Speaker 2>you can tell I'm still I'm still not healed all

0:42:23.080 --> 0:42:26.400
<v Speaker 2>the way from that, and she said I want to

0:42:26.400 --> 0:42:26.919
<v Speaker 2>beat her ass.

0:42:26.920 --> 0:42:28.120
<v Speaker 1>That's what she wrote in the message.

0:42:29.960 --> 0:42:32.719
<v Speaker 2>So I feel that. Uh, but yeah, I'm going to

0:42:32.840 --> 0:42:39.520
<v Speaker 2>encourage you to do you boo anyway, any other advice.

0:42:39.280 --> 0:42:43.919
<v Speaker 1>Questions, Yeah, someone was just giving us advice speaking of audacities.

0:42:44.080 --> 0:42:46.479
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, I'm already hyped. Now now I'm hyped.

0:42:46.480 --> 0:42:47.680
<v Speaker 2>You know I'm triggered.

0:42:47.719 --> 0:42:58.080
<v Speaker 1>Speaking of audacity. Huh. You guys, we get a lot

0:42:58.120 --> 0:43:03.320
<v Speaker 1>of emails which slip through our hands and eyes because

0:43:03.960 --> 0:43:07.000
<v Speaker 1>we need an assistant. Does anyone want to be our

0:43:07.080 --> 0:43:12.880
<v Speaker 1>virtual assistant? Please email production at Good Momsbad Choices dot com. Anyway,

0:43:14.600 --> 0:43:19.200
<v Speaker 1>we get a lot of emails. Very rarely do we

0:43:19.239 --> 0:43:21.560
<v Speaker 1>get these kind though, because I feel like everybody kind

0:43:21.560 --> 0:43:24.040
<v Speaker 1>of mostly gets us. And it's okay if you don't.

0:43:24.360 --> 0:43:29.680
<v Speaker 1>But we're here to clarify. Okay, I know this show

0:43:29.800 --> 0:43:31.520
<v Speaker 1>is a lot of things. I know we talk about

0:43:31.520 --> 0:43:33.360
<v Speaker 1>a lot of things. We cover a lot of areas

0:43:34.160 --> 0:43:39.200
<v Speaker 1>where parents were, moms were women, we're black, We're talking

0:43:39.200 --> 0:43:43.680
<v Speaker 1>about sex and love and dating and witchy shit. But

0:43:46.840 --> 0:43:49.760
<v Speaker 1>we talked about whatever the fuck we want. But most importantly,

0:43:49.760 --> 0:43:51.440
<v Speaker 1>I want you guys to know we're talking about our

0:43:51.480 --> 0:43:57.879
<v Speaker 1>personal experiences because this show, this brand, this shit is real.

0:43:58.160 --> 0:44:01.000
<v Speaker 1>This is very personal to us. This is our life.

0:44:01.520 --> 0:44:03.480
<v Speaker 1>It's a percentage, it's not all of it, but this

0:44:03.560 --> 0:44:07.280
<v Speaker 1>is our life. And so this is a personal labor

0:44:07.360 --> 0:44:10.520
<v Speaker 1>of love on some real shit. Laborer tears of love,

0:44:10.800 --> 0:44:14.799
<v Speaker 1>of a lot of things, of experiences, of stories. But

0:44:15.640 --> 0:44:17.759
<v Speaker 1>we rarely get advice for they giving us advice on

0:44:17.800 --> 0:44:21.640
<v Speaker 1>how we should we could better market to our audience.

0:44:22.320 --> 0:44:25.520
<v Speaker 1>But we got this recently and Erica was not happy

0:44:25.560 --> 0:44:25.920
<v Speaker 1>this day.

0:44:26.400 --> 0:44:29.040
<v Speaker 2>I couldn't respond. Have we responded?

0:44:29.640 --> 0:44:30.240
<v Speaker 1>This is a response.

0:44:30.280 --> 0:44:30.880
<v Speaker 2>Okay, here we go.

0:44:30.960 --> 0:44:31.440
<v Speaker 1>Are you ready?

0:44:31.719 --> 0:44:33.720
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, because I look he kind of forgot.

0:44:33.840 --> 0:44:35.680
<v Speaker 2>It's kind of but I know I was pissed.

0:44:35.840 --> 0:44:39.080
<v Speaker 1>It's kind of cute, It's kind of it was kind

0:44:39.080 --> 0:44:42.160
<v Speaker 1>of also hilarious, and it's also just like, let me

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<v Speaker 1>just let me sit you down for one moment, please, ma'am.

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<v Speaker 2>I know she was said in love, but also.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm going to say back in love. Okay, Hi, ladies.

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<v Speaker 1>I love your podcast, all of it, the sexual topics,

0:44:55.160 --> 0:44:57.960
<v Speaker 1>the spiritual topics, money march, and just the fact that

0:44:58.000 --> 0:45:02.960
<v Speaker 1>you're being brave and doing it. I've always lacked the courage. However,

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<v Speaker 1>I am not a quote person of color. Peach Caucasian.

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<v Speaker 2>You get that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Peach Caucasian, that's her, Shae, you get the point right.

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<v Speaker 1>And I do think that you are victimizing yourself by

0:45:22.400 --> 0:45:28.280
<v Speaker 1>harping on statements such as we people of color end quote.

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<v Speaker 1>I do not think that you grew up in the

0:45:30.640 --> 0:45:33.200
<v Speaker 1>way you did because you are girls of color. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>a woman. There are many more people who grew up

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<v Speaker 1>that way. I think I can relate to you on

0:45:39.440 --> 0:45:43.160
<v Speaker 1>many aspects mentioned above, in addition to being an immigrant,

0:45:43.239 --> 0:45:45.880
<v Speaker 1>growing up on social aid, not learning how to handle

0:45:45.920 --> 0:45:48.239
<v Speaker 1>money as a teen, and not being allowed to ask

0:45:48.320 --> 0:45:51.680
<v Speaker 1>questions because this is not what Catholic people do. I

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<v Speaker 1>think if you allowed yourselves to move past that point,

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<v Speaker 1>you would reach a larger audience and attract many more listeners.

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<v Speaker 1>I hope you find this helpful.

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<v Speaker 2>You rock.

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<v Speaker 1>Ps. My husband is the person of color, I have

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<v Speaker 1>an eleven month old baby and live in Socaw.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, okay, well, I'm retriggered, but I'm actually I feel

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<v Speaker 3>better about it. Listen, miss Peach, and I'm only calling

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<v Speaker 3>you that because you said it.

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<v Speaker 2>Where do I begin?

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<v Speaker 1>Please don't ever address any black people and use the

0:46:38.600 --> 0:46:42.200
<v Speaker 1>word victimize yourselves. That's not going to go.

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<v Speaker 2>If you have a story to share and you feel

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<v Speaker 2>as if that you and you've had everyone is going

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<v Speaker 2>through shit. I think that that the podcast is never

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<v Speaker 2>contesting that, we're never arguing whether or not women share

0:46:56.760 --> 0:47:00.480
<v Speaker 2>the same struggles and humans. We're black people are not

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<v Speaker 2>the only people on welfare or.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that triggered as have you ever talked about welfare?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so confused, And are also not the only people

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<v Speaker 2>that struggle with financial literacy. We're not saying that, no

0:47:13.160 --> 0:47:14.319
<v Speaker 2>one has ever said that.

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<v Speaker 1>What we are saying is, Hi, I'm a black woman,

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<v Speaker 1>the only woman I've ever been because that's my life.

0:47:21.880 --> 0:47:25.560
<v Speaker 1>This is me talking a black woman of color, this

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<v Speaker 1>is my experience. My name is Jamila.

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<v Speaker 2>That's what we're saying, and systematic racism exists.

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<v Speaker 1>If me speaking, if you tuning in to my show

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<v Speaker 1>about us about my fucking experience, and then you tell

0:47:40.040 --> 0:47:42.880
<v Speaker 1>me how I should address me and talk about my

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<v Speaker 1>fucking experience and what verbiage I should use to better

0:47:48.080 --> 0:47:51.080
<v Speaker 1>include a broader audience. When I didn't even fucking ask

0:47:51.120 --> 0:47:57.360
<v Speaker 1>you about your marketing fucking advice. It just doesn't. It

0:47:57.480 --> 0:48:00.920
<v Speaker 1>just doesn't make sense. Furthermore, Babe, like you too, and

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<v Speaker 1>I get it, and I don't want you to feel excluded,

0:48:02.880 --> 0:48:05.160
<v Speaker 1>nor did we ever want anyone to feel excluded. That's

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<v Speaker 1>not while we're here. But I want everyone to understand

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<v Speaker 1>and to know everyone has a separate experience. Erica in

0:48:11.960 --> 0:48:15.080
<v Speaker 1>Ies is similar in this sense that we both grew

0:48:15.160 --> 0:48:18.440
<v Speaker 1>up in the same area, blocks away from one another,

0:48:19.239 --> 0:48:26.240
<v Speaker 1>in a predominantly white space. So we are we share

0:48:26.360 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>that experience in a lot of ways, and so we

0:48:30.640 --> 0:48:35.080
<v Speaker 1>can only speak on that. We're not here to exclude anyone,

0:48:35.120 --> 0:48:38.440
<v Speaker 1>but we've lived a life of exclusion just by existing

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<v Speaker 1>in this space.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you feel uncomfortable?

0:48:41.200 --> 0:48:45.920
<v Speaker 1>Good? Check out why this is how we felt k

0:48:46.160 --> 0:48:50.560
<v Speaker 1>through twelfth grade. Honestly, like, welcome to real life. This

0:48:50.640 --> 0:48:52.279
<v Speaker 1>is just a podcast. You could turn it off.

0:48:52.600 --> 0:48:54.560
<v Speaker 2>I'm not, and I don't think that's what she wants

0:48:54.600 --> 0:48:57.040
<v Speaker 2>to do. I think and I don't want to make

0:48:57.080 --> 0:48:59.959
<v Speaker 2>you feel like an asshole, but this was an asshole email.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think maybe you are an asshole, but this

0:49:02.640 --> 0:49:04.760
<v Speaker 2>is an asshole email. And I need you to check

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<v Speaker 2>yourself and really ask yourself why you felt so compelled

0:49:10.880 --> 0:49:16.120
<v Speaker 2>to type this out two women of color, black women,

0:49:16.800 --> 0:49:20.680
<v Speaker 2>Latina woman here too, and tell us that we are

0:49:20.840 --> 0:49:24.320
<v Speaker 2>victimizing ourselves by calling ourselves women of color, which a

0:49:24.480 --> 0:49:28.480
<v Speaker 2>we are, and relating it to the systematic experience that

0:49:28.640 --> 0:49:34.400
<v Speaker 2>people of color experience in so many sections of the world.

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<v Speaker 2>Whether it's finances, whether it's sexuality, whether it's motherhood, whether

0:49:40.280 --> 0:49:45.200
<v Speaker 2>it's the job wherever you work, whether it's just walking

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<v Speaker 2>down the motherfucking street, whether it's going to get a

0:49:48.280 --> 0:49:52.000
<v Speaker 2>fucking candy bar at the liquor store, whether it's dropping

0:49:52.040 --> 0:49:54.600
<v Speaker 2>your It just goes on and on and on and

0:49:54.640 --> 0:49:56.040
<v Speaker 2>on and on and on and on. And I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>here to make this a whole racial thing, but you

0:49:57.960 --> 0:50:03.400
<v Speaker 2>started it. So I just need you to just really

0:50:03.920 --> 0:50:06.440
<v Speaker 2>check yourself and also understand that, yes, me and Mila

0:50:06.640 --> 0:50:09.920
<v Speaker 2>we have a podcast. Of Course we care about marketing.

0:50:10.800 --> 0:50:12.560
<v Speaker 2>Of course we want people to find us and shit,

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<v Speaker 2>but this is really a podcast based in true passion

0:50:16.760 --> 0:50:21.319
<v Speaker 2>and love and sharing our personal experiences. I don't do

0:50:21.440 --> 0:50:24.040
<v Speaker 2>this for the fucking clout. I do this because I

0:50:24.040 --> 0:50:26.720
<v Speaker 2>love connecting with people. I love talking to my best friend,

0:50:27.000 --> 0:50:30.400
<v Speaker 2>I love healing, I love learning, and I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>Really give a fuck about your broad audience. We're not

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<v Speaker 1>here to cater to anyone particular audience because that's not

0:50:38.440 --> 0:50:41.080
<v Speaker 1>what brought us here. It's just that we're speaking. And

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<v Speaker 1>if you resonate, great. If you're offended, I'm sorry. I'm

0:50:45.160 --> 0:50:50.719
<v Speaker 1>not sorry. It's no other podcast. There's no personal you know,

0:50:50.800 --> 0:50:53.400
<v Speaker 1>hatred being spewed by speaking our experience, and if you

0:50:53.400 --> 0:50:54.560
<v Speaker 1>feel that way, you should check it.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>And lastly, most important, lastly, the last part of the email. Lastly, please,

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<v Speaker 1>this is the number one role of white people. Do

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<v Speaker 1>not throw your black or person of color husband in

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<v Speaker 1>the mix to justify your stupid ass letter that you've

0:51:09.200 --> 0:51:13.040
<v Speaker 1>typed out. Being married to tyrone or whoever the fuck

0:51:13.040 --> 0:51:16.120
<v Speaker 1>you're married to doesn't really justify.

0:51:15.760 --> 0:51:18.839
<v Speaker 2>The letter, doesn't put you in closer proximity to blackness.

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<v Speaker 2>So stop.

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<v Speaker 1>And actually, you're doing your black or child of color

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<v Speaker 1>a disservice by even using your husband or your baby

0:51:28.160 --> 0:51:31.480
<v Speaker 1>daddy as a token of don't worry, this doesn't come

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<v Speaker 1>from a place of because that kind of says the opposite.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not cool. Don't throw your personal color husband in

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<v Speaker 1>the mix to validate your words. It's kind of hurtful.

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<v Speaker 2>It is. It's very hurtful. And I'm sure you love him,

0:51:51.320 --> 0:51:54.000
<v Speaker 2>and I'm sure he loves you, and I'm sure you've

0:51:54.040 --> 0:51:58.759
<v Speaker 2>experienced his experience in ways. But that doesn't make me

0:51:58.800 --> 0:52:02.719
<v Speaker 2>feel closer or it doesn't make me feel less offended

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<v Speaker 2>by your email, because I feel like maybe you knew

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<v Speaker 2>your email was a bit offensive, and you thought by

0:52:07.200 --> 0:52:09.480
<v Speaker 2>throwing that in you were going to relate to us

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<v Speaker 2>in some way. That doesn't work ever, in fact, it

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<v Speaker 2>never works. So I love you. I don't know if

0:52:19.040 --> 0:52:19.920
<v Speaker 2>you'll ever listen to this.

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<v Speaker 1>Podcast again, but we wish you peace.

0:52:22.200 --> 0:52:24.240
<v Speaker 2>But I wish you peace, and I hope that maybe

0:52:24.360 --> 0:52:26.720
<v Speaker 2>like this will help you in the future.

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<v Speaker 1>No mistake anyway.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, we got a bounce.

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<v Speaker 1>We have shit to do. I'm high. Thank you. It's

0:52:37.480 --> 0:52:39.600
<v Speaker 1>nice catching up with you as always. Of course I

0:52:39.640 --> 0:52:41.680
<v Speaker 1>love you. I love you too. It's like our one

0:52:41.680 --> 0:52:44.359
<v Speaker 1>time we were not like acting crazy like must do shit.

0:52:44.400 --> 0:52:47.920
<v Speaker 1>We're like, let's talk like regular humans. Listen, this goes off,

0:52:48.000 --> 0:52:49.040
<v Speaker 1>We're gonna be acting crazy again.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you build the deck?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you do the word you you stop there and

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<v Speaker 1>look at that shit? Did you send the email?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, Anyway, I hope, I hope you guys

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<v Speaker 2>have great week. Make sure to rate and review this episode.

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<v Speaker 2>You guys were almost at a thousand.

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