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<v Speaker 1>Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and today's episode is going

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<v Speaker 2>to be short, short.

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<v Speaker 1>Because we're not doing well. We're not doing well, and

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<v Speaker 1>we're just acknowledging it.

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<v Speaker 2>Every week we come on here, we try to think

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<v Speaker 2>of topics, we try to get great guests.

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<v Speaker 3>We dig really deep into our personal lives.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and I just don't have it in me, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just going to keep it one hundred. There's just

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<v Speaker 2>a lot going on energetically in the world, and I just.

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<v Speaker 1>I just have to like honor that.

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<v Speaker 2>And like I was going to try and push us

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<v Speaker 2>to like do a full episode right now. I was

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<v Speaker 2>gonna try and push us to do a full episode

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<v Speaker 2>right now, but.

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<v Speaker 1>I just can't. I can't do it. Just forget it.

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<v Speaker 3>I have a lot of anxiety, and my chest is

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<v Speaker 3>tight and my breathing is short, and I can't find

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<v Speaker 3>my passport. Also I can't find my house keys. Also

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<v Speaker 3>there's a lot of other shit that I'm behind on

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<v Speaker 3>and I can't do a full podcast today. And also

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<v Speaker 3>my kid keeps needing snacks. The world is happening. I

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<v Speaker 3>had a really good birthday, though I had an amazing birthday.

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<v Speaker 3>I appreciate all the love and support that was poured

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<v Speaker 3>poured on me yesterday, but today I'm motherfucking tired.

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<v Speaker 2>So I want to encourage you, if you're listening right now,

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<v Speaker 2>to check in with yourself and you know, ask yourself

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<v Speaker 2>if you need to take a break from anything, whether

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<v Speaker 2>that's social media, I don't know, texting that toxic as nigga,

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<v Speaker 2>arguing with your husband, whatever, whatever it is. Self care

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<v Speaker 2>is important right now, especially as black people. We are

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<v Speaker 2>being pulled in a lot of directions and the trauma

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<v Speaker 2>that we're experiencing daily on social media is fucking draining.

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<v Speaker 2>And I realize that it's important for us to stay activated.

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<v Speaker 2>It's really important for us to you know, stay motivated

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<v Speaker 2>for the cause. And I want to do all those things,

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<v Speaker 2>but I also have to acknowledge when I.

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<v Speaker 1>Just need.

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<v Speaker 2>To not worry about my next social post and my

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<v Speaker 2>next video clip and my next SoundBite and my next caption.

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<v Speaker 3>What's gonna be posted on Monday, if.

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<v Speaker 1>It's coming up. If I just can't do it this week,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm I'm I'm okay, I'm fine, We're gonna be fine.

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<v Speaker 1>Everything, don't I don't wantnyone.

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<v Speaker 2>To worry about us, but I just I just feel

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<v Speaker 2>like we have a responsibility when we talk to you

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<v Speaker 2>guys every week about how we're doing and what's going

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<v Speaker 2>on in the world to like sometimes also say, you

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<v Speaker 2>know what, we can't do it this week, and we

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<v Speaker 2>don't ever take breaks like we've maybe taken we've maybe

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<v Speaker 2>missed like two weeks ever in the last two and

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<v Speaker 2>a half years, and so I just feel like we

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<v Speaker 2>deserve it.

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<v Speaker 1>Therapy is something that.

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<v Speaker 3>We've been currently indulging it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and that's been helping, and I'm gonna do that

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<v Speaker 2>this week too, and you should too. I know you

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<v Speaker 2>guys have seen me post about it. It's called Betterhelp.

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<v Speaker 2>It's virtual therapy. Both Jamie and I have signed up

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<v Speaker 2>and have been going to therapy virtually, which has been

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<v Speaker 2>really convenient. A because COVID, B because my other therapist

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<v Speaker 2>was tripping with her prices, and see because sometimes like

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<v Speaker 2>when you feel fucked up.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't really want to leave your house. You'd rather

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<v Speaker 1>just do a FaceTime call.

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<v Speaker 2>And also like, do you know how many times I've

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<v Speaker 2>had to leave my therapists office and I look, I

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<v Speaker 2>go when they're looking cute. I come out looking a

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<v Speaker 2>hot ass mess and I got to walk by people,

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<v Speaker 2>and like, I feel like.

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<v Speaker 3>It's also like a little bit more awkward in person.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't, I don't mind me in person ness.

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<v Speaker 1>I actually prefer it, which is I prefer it in

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<v Speaker 1>the ways of like, I feel.

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<v Speaker 2>Like it's it can be easier to connect in some ways,

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<v Speaker 2>but I do like the virtual aspect it because there

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<v Speaker 2>is that there are times where like I don't want

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<v Speaker 2>to walk through your office and see people, I don't

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<v Speaker 2>want to come out looking puffy eyed and shit, I

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<v Speaker 2>can just hang up and go about my day.

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<v Speaker 3>I thought that it would be easier for me to

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<v Speaker 3>connect in person, but it's actually been easier for me

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<v Speaker 3>to connect on FaceTime because I guess it's just not

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<v Speaker 3>as I mean, it's personal, but not as personal.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but if you guys need therapy, or if you

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<v Speaker 2>guys need to talk to someone, even if you're teenagers

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<v Speaker 2>need to talk someone, or if you're a couple and

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<v Speaker 2>you guys need therapy, I know this time has been

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<v Speaker 2>really challenging for a lot of people, and betterhelp has

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<v Speaker 2>been something that's been really really helpful, and it's affordable

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<v Speaker 2>very affordable sixty five dollars a week for a phone

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<v Speaker 2>or video call, and then unlimited messages between you and

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<v Speaker 2>your therapist. I my last therapist in real life, there

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<v Speaker 2>was no fucking messages.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>My last therapist in real life charged me for each message,

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<v Speaker 3>Like if there was something going on outside of our sessions, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>you get charged, even if it was a text.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>So I think that as moms, we are always checking

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<v Speaker 3>in with ourselves. Last, I think as black people we're

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<v Speaker 3>always checking We're always.

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<v Speaker 1>Just trying to get through.

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<v Speaker 3>Trying to get through, pushing down, trying to get through

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<v Speaker 3>pushing down, trying to get through smiling. And I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>doing that today because I don't feel like it. So

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<v Speaker 3>I encourage everyone who's feeling off or weird in their body,

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<v Speaker 3>recognize it, take a deep breath, lay the fuck down,

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<v Speaker 3>don't feel guilty about it, and just kind of do

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<v Speaker 3>what you got to do for you, because it's important

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<v Speaker 3>to take care of your mental health, and it's important

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<v Speaker 3>to acknowledge yourself when you're not feeling it right.

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<v Speaker 2>And if you want to have energy for whatever you're

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<v Speaker 2>putting your energy into, whether that's this movement that you

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<v Speaker 2>know was happening right now, whether that's motherhood, whether that's work,

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<v Speaker 2>whether that's whatever. It is, like, you have to you

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<v Speaker 2>have to take the time, and everyone needs it.

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone fucking needs it.

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<v Speaker 3>We're not machines.

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<v Speaker 1>We're not.

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<v Speaker 2>But if you guys want to check out better Help,

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<v Speaker 2>you can go to betterhelp dot com, backslash g NBC

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<v Speaker 2>and you guys will get a nice little discount. But

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<v Speaker 2>either way, I hope you guys take a second check

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<v Speaker 2>in with yourself and don't feel bad about it.

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<v Speaker 1>Do what you gotta do.

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<v Speaker 2>Sometimes you gotta say no, I don't want to go

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<v Speaker 2>to the zoom meeting drive by birthday party.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't feel like doing X y Z.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't want to answer the fucking phone.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't feel like answering your text message at that time.

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<v Speaker 2>It's still gonna be there tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 3>I currently have like fifty six text messages.

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<v Speaker 1>And that can be overwhelming too on your birthday.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, thank you for a hundred times.

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<v Speaker 1>Go you just copy paste.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean I was overwhelmed. I mean, first of all,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm overwhelmed. I even have this many internet friends that

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<v Speaker 3>love and care about me. It's really cool and amazing

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<v Speaker 3>and I feel so supported and it's so motivating, you

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<v Speaker 3>know that people are reaching out. But then I did

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<v Speaker 3>get anxiety and like, fuck so much, so much typing

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<v Speaker 3>Instagram gives me anxiety.

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<v Speaker 2>I know.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm never I'm never putting my face on the stories

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<v Speaker 3>because it's like.

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<v Speaker 2>So if this week, if you see us kind of

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<v Speaker 2>being like low key on the instagrams, this is why.

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<v Speaker 3>It's because this is real and we can't fake it

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<v Speaker 3>all the time. Yeah, we can't fake it at all,

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<v Speaker 3>and so we're not going we'd.

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<v Speaker 1>Be facan Sometimes we'd be like push through, let's do

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<v Speaker 1>a post, and I'm like, I hate but I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>doing that anymore. Not doing that anymore. So I hope you.

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<v Speaker 2>Guys have a wonderful week. Take some deep in hell, yes,

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<v Speaker 2>and let that shit go. If you haven't heard our

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<v Speaker 2>guided meditation that we did at the top of the year,

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<v Speaker 2>now might be a good time to check back. In

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<v Speaker 2>matter of fact, I probably need to check back in

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<v Speaker 2>with our own motherfucking guided meditation.

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<v Speaker 3>As soon as we get our own lives under control,

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<v Speaker 3>we will do another one.

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<v Speaker 2>But uh yeah, you know where to find us on Instagram.

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