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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 2: I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and today's episode is going

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Speaker 2: to be short, short.

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Speaker 1: Because we're not doing well. We're not doing well, and

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Speaker 1: we're just acknowledging it.

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Speaker 2: Every week we come on here, we try to think

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Speaker 2: of topics, we try to get great guests.

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Speaker 3: We dig really deep into our personal lives.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and I just don't have it in me, and

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Speaker 2: I'm just going to keep it one hundred. There's just

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Speaker 2: a lot going on energetically in the world, and I just.

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Speaker 1: I just have to like honor that.

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Speaker 2: And like I was going to try and push us

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Speaker 2: to like do a full episode right now. I was

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Speaker 2: gonna try and push us to do a full episode

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Speaker 2: right now, but.

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Speaker 1: I just can't. I can't do it. Just forget it.

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Speaker 3: I have a lot of anxiety, and my chest is

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Speaker 3: tight and my breathing is short, and I can't find

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Speaker 3: my passport. Also I can't find my house keys. Also

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Speaker 3: there's a lot of other shit that I'm behind on

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Speaker 3: and I can't do a full podcast today. And also

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Speaker 3: my kid keeps needing snacks. The world is happening. I

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Speaker 3: had a really good birthday, though I had an amazing birthday.

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Speaker 3: I appreciate all the love and support that was poured

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Speaker 3: poured on me yesterday, but today I'm motherfucking tired.

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Speaker 2: So I want to encourage you, if you're listening right now,

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Speaker 2: to check in with yourself and you know, ask yourself

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Speaker 2: if you need to take a break from anything, whether

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Speaker 2: that's social media, I don't know, texting that toxic as nigga,

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Speaker 2: arguing with your husband, whatever, whatever it is. Self care

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Speaker 2: is important right now, especially as black people. We are

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Speaker 2: being pulled in a lot of directions and the trauma

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Speaker 2: that we're experiencing daily on social media is fucking draining.

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Speaker 2: And I realize that it's important for us to stay activated.

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Speaker 2: It's really important for us to you know, stay motivated

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Speaker 2: for the cause. And I want to do all those things,

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Speaker 2: but I also have to acknowledge when I.

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Speaker 1: Just need.

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Speaker 2: To not worry about my next social post and my

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Speaker 2: next video clip and my next SoundBite and my next caption.

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Speaker 3: What's gonna be posted on Monday, if.

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Speaker 1: It's coming up. If I just can't do it this week,

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Speaker 1: I can't.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm I'm I'm okay, I'm fine, We're gonna be fine.

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Speaker 1: Everything, don't I don't wantnyone.

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Speaker 2: To worry about us, but I just I just feel

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Speaker 2: like we have a responsibility when we talk to you

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Speaker 2: guys every week about how we're doing and what's going

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Speaker 2: on in the world to like sometimes also say, you

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Speaker 2: know what, we can't do it this week, and we

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Speaker 2: don't ever take breaks like we've maybe taken we've maybe

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Speaker 2: missed like two weeks ever in the last two and

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Speaker 2: a half years, and so I just feel like we

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Speaker 2: deserve it.

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Speaker 1: Therapy is something that.

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Speaker 3: We've been currently indulging it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and that's been helping, and I'm gonna do that

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Speaker 2: this week too, and you should too. I know you

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Speaker 2: guys have seen me post about it. It's called Betterhelp.

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Speaker 2: It's virtual therapy. Both Jamie and I have signed up

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Speaker 2: and have been going to therapy virtually, which has been

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Speaker 2: really convenient. A because COVID, B because my other therapist

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Speaker 2: was tripping with her prices, and see because sometimes like

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Speaker 2: when you feel fucked up.

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Speaker 1: You don't really want to leave your house. You'd rather

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Speaker 1: just do a FaceTime call.

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Speaker 2: And also like, do you know how many times I've

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Speaker 2: had to leave my therapists office and I look, I

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Speaker 2: go when they're looking cute. I come out looking a

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Speaker 2: hot ass mess and I got to walk by people,

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Speaker 2: and like, I feel like.

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Speaker 3: It's also like a little bit more awkward in person.

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Speaker 1: I don't I don't, I don't mind me in person ness.

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Speaker 1: I actually prefer it, which is I prefer it in

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Speaker 1: the ways of like, I feel.

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Speaker 2: Like it's it can be easier to connect in some ways,

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Speaker 2: but I do like the virtual aspect it because there

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Speaker 2: is that there are times where like I don't want

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Speaker 2: to walk through your office and see people, I don't

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Speaker 2: want to come out looking puffy eyed and shit, I

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Speaker 2: can just hang up and go about my day.

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Speaker 3: I thought that it would be easier for me to

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Speaker 3: connect in person, but it's actually been easier for me

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Speaker 3: to connect on FaceTime because I guess it's just not

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Speaker 3: as I mean, it's personal, but not as personal.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but if you guys need therapy, or if you

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Speaker 2: guys need to talk to someone, even if you're teenagers

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Speaker 2: need to talk someone, or if you're a couple and

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Speaker 2: you guys need therapy, I know this time has been

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Speaker 2: really challenging for a lot of people, and betterhelp has

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Speaker 2: been something that's been really really helpful, and it's affordable

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Speaker 2: very affordable sixty five dollars a week for a phone

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Speaker 2: or video call, and then unlimited messages between you and

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Speaker 2: your therapist. I my last therapist in real life, there

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Speaker 2: was no fucking messages.

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: My last therapist in real life charged me for each message,

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Speaker 3: Like if there was something going on outside of our sessions, yeah,

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Speaker 3: you get charged, even if it was a text.

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Speaker 1: I mean yeah.

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Speaker 3: So I think that as moms, we are always checking

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Speaker 3: in with ourselves. Last, I think as black people we're

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Speaker 3: always checking We're always.

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Speaker 1: Just trying to get through.

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Speaker 3: Trying to get through, pushing down, trying to get through

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Speaker 3: pushing down, trying to get through smiling. And I'm not

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Speaker 3: doing that today because I don't feel like it. So

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Speaker 3: I encourage everyone who's feeling off or weird in their body,

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Speaker 3: recognize it, take a deep breath, lay the fuck down,

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Speaker 3: don't feel guilty about it, and just kind of do

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Speaker 3: what you got to do for you, because it's important

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Speaker 3: to take care of your mental health, and it's important

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Speaker 3: to acknowledge yourself when you're not feeling it right.

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Speaker 2: And if you want to have energy for whatever you're

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Speaker 2: putting your energy into, whether that's this movement that you

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Speaker 2: know was happening right now, whether that's motherhood, whether that's work,

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Speaker 2: whether that's whatever. It is, like, you have to you

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Speaker 2: have to take the time, and everyone needs it.

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Speaker 1: Everyone fucking needs it.

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Speaker 3: We're not machines.

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Speaker 1: We're not.

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Speaker 2: But if you guys want to check out better Help,

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Speaker 2: you can go to betterhelp dot com, backslash g NBC

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Speaker 2: and you guys will get a nice little discount. But

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Speaker 2: either way, I hope you guys take a second check

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Speaker 2: in with yourself and don't feel bad about it.

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Speaker 1: Do what you gotta do.

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Speaker 2: Sometimes you gotta say no, I don't want to go

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Speaker 2: to the zoom meeting drive by birthday party.

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Speaker 1: I don't feel like doing X y Z.

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Speaker 3: I don't want to answer the fucking phone.

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Speaker 1: I don't.

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Speaker 2: I didn't feel like answering your text message at that time.

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Speaker 2: It's still gonna be there tomorrow.

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Speaker 3: I currently have like fifty six text messages.

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Speaker 1: And that can be overwhelming too on your birthday.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, thank you for a hundred times.

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Speaker 1: Go you just copy paste.

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Speaker 3: I mean I was overwhelmed. I mean, first of all,

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Speaker 3: I'm overwhelmed. I even have this many internet friends that

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Speaker 3: love and care about me. It's really cool and amazing

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Speaker 3: and I feel so supported and it's so motivating, you

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Speaker 3: know that people are reaching out. But then I did

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Speaker 3: get anxiety and like, fuck so much, so much typing

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Speaker 3: Instagram gives me anxiety.

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Speaker 2: I know.

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Speaker 3: I'm never I'm never putting my face on the stories

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Speaker 3: because it's like.

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Speaker 2: So if this week, if you see us kind of

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Speaker 2: being like low key on the instagrams, this is why.

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Speaker 3: It's because this is real and we can't fake it

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Speaker 3: all the time. Yeah, we can't fake it at all,

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Speaker 3: and so we're not going we'd.

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Speaker 1: Be facan Sometimes we'd be like push through, let's do

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Speaker 1: a post, and I'm like, I hate but I'm not

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Speaker 1: doing that anymore. Not doing that anymore. So I hope you.

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Speaker 2: Guys have a wonderful week. Take some deep in hell, yes,

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Speaker 2: and let that shit go. If you haven't heard our

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Speaker 2: guided meditation that we did at the top of the year,

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Speaker 2: now might be a good time to check back. In

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Speaker 2: matter of fact, I probably need to check back in

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Speaker 2: with our own motherfucking guided meditation.

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Speaker 3: As soon as we get our own lives under control,

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Speaker 3: we will do another one.

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Speaker 2: But uh yeah, you know where to find us on Instagram.

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Speaker 2: Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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