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Speaker 1: Welcome to your favorite podcast, Cheeky's and Chill. I'm your

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Speaker 1: And I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday

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Speaker 1: Today's episode is going to be a very personal one.

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Speaker 1: About a year ago, I recorded an episode on my

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Speaker 1: experience with IVF. I decided not to go through with it.

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Speaker 1: This is Cheeky's and chill. Okay, let me take a

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Speaker 1: deep breath. So, motherhood, I think it's a beautiful thing.

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Speaker 1: because those people aren't going to come and take care

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Speaker 1: Because as women, we go through so much being pregnant,

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Speaker 1: That is solely your decision. I really truly feel that.

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Speaker 1: And of course, if you have your partner, you have

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Speaker 1: You guys, thank you. I love you. Thank you for

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