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Speaker 1: Hey everyone, it's Sophia and welcome back to this very

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Speaker 1: special two part work in progress. Last week, we kicked

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Speaker 1: off the new year on w I P with my

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Speaker 1: good friend and castmate on good Sam sky P Marshall.

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Speaker 1: If you haven't listened already, go check it out because

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Speaker 1: we had such a fun conversation. In fact, Sky is

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Speaker 1: such an interesting human and we had so much to

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Speaker 1: talk about that today you are listening to part two

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Speaker 1: of our chat. I could not bear to edit this

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Speaker 1: episode down because she is magic. You are not gonna

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Speaker 1: want to miss this one, because today we dive into

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Speaker 1: so much about good Sam and how we ended up

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Speaker 1: working on the show together. Let's get to it. Do

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Speaker 1: you want to tell the people how it started? I

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Speaker 1: absolutely do. Oh my gosh, okay, how did I become

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Speaker 1: Dr Lex? Truly so? As Sophia has shared, I'm from Chicago, Illinois.

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Speaker 1: I I was very much obsessed with Chicago Pet solely

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Speaker 1: because of Sophia Bush. I don't know what it was

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Speaker 1: about you, I honestly don't. I just knew that it

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Speaker 1: was like it was a collect It's not one thing.

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Speaker 1: There's a collection of things about you that make your

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Speaker 1: wholeness so dope from obviously your beautiful, warm face, this

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Speaker 1: swagger that you have um that you wouldn't know unless

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Speaker 1: you were able to see yourself. You can't even feel it.

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Speaker 1: You have this certain you have, like a certain swag

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Speaker 1: about you. Then obviously the voice. Then on top of that,

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Speaker 1: you're acting skills like it was. It's like layering in

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Speaker 1: the smile. It's like layers of thing that Like I'm

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Speaker 1: watching and I'm like who is this because I never

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Speaker 1: and I'm like, who is this woman? So I like

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Speaker 1: researched you. And then I then started watching some of

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Speaker 1: One Tree Hill, and I was like, how did I

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Speaker 1: not know about this? And I mean I knew about

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Speaker 1: the show, but I just didn't know about you. But

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Speaker 1: you just popped and I'm like, I'm in. I'm sold.

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Speaker 1: And then like when you left, I was I started

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Speaker 1: watching it again and I was just like, good show,

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Speaker 1: but not it's not the same show. So I'm just like,

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm out. I'm out. So I tapped out. And

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Speaker 1: then what year was that that your last season aired?

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Speaker 1: I left left three months before the Harvey Weinstein story broke. Oh, wow,

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Speaker 1: would you look at that? Um. The only reason why

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Speaker 1: I asked a year is because cut two, I go

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Speaker 1: and do an episode of This is Us. It airs,

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Speaker 1: uh fall of twenty when't so my episode airs. I'm

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Speaker 1: obsessed with This is Us. So it's great for me

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Speaker 1: the very next episode you air, and I'm like, where

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Speaker 1: got there? She goes where been? And I was like

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Speaker 1: February eighth of a few months after This is Us

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Speaker 1: episode aired November of me and my friend Jania go

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Speaker 1: to a it was a Black Aids Institute event in

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Speaker 1: who's being honored. And after the red carpet situation, I

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Speaker 1: go back. So then I like rush, I like rushed

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Speaker 1: ceremony was starting. So anyway, so I like, I gotta da,

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Speaker 1: I love you, hones no no no, and like I

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Speaker 1: was on this It's us, and then your episode there

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Speaker 1: and like you were so sweet and kind and then

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Speaker 1: and I was like, did it awesome? I love when

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Speaker 1: that happens, when you get to life me someone that

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Speaker 1: you're a fan of. Great, let's go inside. That was that.

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Speaker 1: That was February eight of two and a half. Three

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Speaker 1: weeks later, not even two weeks later. I'm sitting on

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Speaker 1: Katie Wesh's post that her new series Good Sam has

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Speaker 1: guys read Good Sam? And they're like, yeah, I got

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Speaker 1: there for me. Um, there's only one other female lead

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Speaker 1: could do that. Did you submit me? And They're like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: then I was screw it and I pulled my phone

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Speaker 1: hope all as well. I just wanted to add congratulate

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Speaker 1: you again. I'm getting Sofia push and wondering like could

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Speaker 1: you ever see me playing? At the time, the characters

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Speaker 1: name was Pappa. And she's like, wait, you're available. I'm like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: CBS today at five thirty? Remind you it's two pm?

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Speaker 1: this is for what's called a test, and this is

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Speaker 1: where you audition for the studio network executives, it's about

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Speaker 1: five or six of them, and just for the people

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Speaker 1: connect with Katie about you don't worry. We've set fire

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Speaker 1: to that failed chain since and and so Sky, I

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Speaker 1: just need y'all at home to understand is getting this

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Speaker 1: information at the last possible stage, which is also the

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm my neck hurts, just like yeah,

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Speaker 1: so I had there's twelve pages of dialogue and um

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Speaker 1: It was just magic. You know, it was just real

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Speaker 1: I'm kind of here to change your mind about it,

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Speaker 1: Like whoever you have coming, I'm sure they are, Pippa,

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Speaker 1: Um did I did? I lock the beats and it's

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Speaker 1: all caps. He was like, you killed it. They loved you.

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Speaker 1: We'll see you Monday for the network test. Network test,

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Speaker 1: wouldn't be sitting here. Um. If it wasn't from my

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00:25:02,240 --> 00:25:05,439
Speaker 1: relationship with Karamo, I wouldn't have met you, which I

429
00:25:05,520 --> 00:25:08,320
Speaker 1: do think created some kind of energetic pool that got

430
00:25:08,359 --> 00:25:12,120
Speaker 1: me into that room. Who knows, right, Like, we don't

431
00:25:12,160 --> 00:25:16,480
Speaker 1: know what's behind the curtain in Oz, but what happened

432
00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:19,960
Speaker 1: with us that would never make sense to me, the

433
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:24,080
Speaker 1: timing of that wild that would that would never make

434
00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:28,000
Speaker 1: um when not your resensance to me, but hey here

435
00:25:28,040 --> 00:25:30,520
Speaker 1: we are so but yeah, no when you say that,

436
00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:34,120
Speaker 1: you you like the frank um response around like how

437
00:25:34,160 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 1: did we get here here? Meaning no, I just I

438
00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:42,239
Speaker 1: just mean like to this point in the journey, you know,

439
00:25:43,440 --> 00:25:48,080
Speaker 1: like even for me when people ask me about what

440
00:25:48,200 --> 00:25:52,080
Speaker 1: they admire or see in my career and then say,

441
00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 1: you know, and it all seemed to be great or

442
00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:57,200
Speaker 1: what I'm like, it's this to twenty years to be

443
00:25:57,720 --> 00:26:01,359
Speaker 1: right here where I am right now, you know, it's

444
00:26:02,440 --> 00:26:05,880
Speaker 1: it's a it's a big, long journey and you've got

445
00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:09,120
Speaker 1: to be in it, you know, for for the beginning,

446
00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:13,040
Speaker 1: all the way up the climb. And I think I

447
00:26:13,040 --> 00:26:15,760
Speaker 1: always want to be frank with people like our our

448
00:26:15,920 --> 00:26:18,720
Speaker 1: job is all peaks and valley. It's not like the

449
00:26:18,720 --> 00:26:22,560
Speaker 1: corporate world where you do a steady climb forever. And

450
00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:27,280
Speaker 1: I don't know, I think I think it requires gumption

451
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:34,879
Speaker 1: and faith and incredible emotional availability and a tough skin.

452
00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:37,119
Speaker 1: It's it's a lot of things that don't feel like

453
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:40,400
Speaker 1: they go together. You know, you're spinning a lot of plates.

454
00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:45,520
Speaker 1: But I think that when it's the thing you love,

455
00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:48,240
Speaker 1: you know, you said it, you wanted to be on

456
00:26:48,280 --> 00:26:53,800
Speaker 1: a medical drama from the beginning. I've always loved this genre,

457
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:57,960
Speaker 1: like I love a family drama, I love a medical drama,

458
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:01,960
Speaker 1: I love um and you know, I love sort of stranger,

459
00:27:02,080 --> 00:27:04,280
Speaker 1: slice of life things that I get to go and

460
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:07,840
Speaker 1: do and like that independent world. But there are certain

461
00:27:07,880 --> 00:27:11,600
Speaker 1: things that work because they allow us to go through

462
00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:13,560
Speaker 1: the doorway of feeling. And I think that's what a

463
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:18,520
Speaker 1: hospital is for sure. You know, how does it feel

464
00:27:18,560 --> 00:27:23,600
Speaker 1: different now compared to the years that you have been

465
00:27:23,640 --> 00:27:28,040
Speaker 1: in this industry? What makes this year different? And like

466
00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 1: feeling wise, I mean, how do you feel the whole

467
00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:36,360
Speaker 1: thing feels different? You know. My first job was just

468
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:40,440
Speaker 1: like I was out hustling, going on hundreds of auditions

469
00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:44,360
Speaker 1: a year, and I booked this show, and we never

470
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:46,159
Speaker 1: knew it was going to be a big deal, let

471
00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:48,600
Speaker 1: alone a hit, let alone last for a long time.

472
00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:52,160
Speaker 1: But when you kind of have like lightning in a bottle,

473
00:27:53,400 --> 00:27:56,240
Speaker 1: you you you ride it, you don't like jump off

474
00:27:56,320 --> 00:28:01,080
Speaker 1: that train. Looking back, I realized what was really not

475
00:28:01,240 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 1: okay about it, especially in terms of the way that

476
00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:08,320
Speaker 1: we as young people were being treated. Um and so

477
00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:11,239
Speaker 1: it's like it's it's been a mixed bag of like

478
00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:14,120
Speaker 1: joy and pain for all of us. You know. It's

479
00:28:14,119 --> 00:28:16,720
Speaker 1: why me and the girls decided to do the other podcast,

480
00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:19,640
Speaker 1: to do Drama Queens, because we were like, we gotta

481
00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:22,639
Speaker 1: we gotta throw the trash out. And when you have

482
00:28:22,760 --> 00:28:27,000
Speaker 1: nine years of trash but also nine years of beautiful moments,

483
00:28:27,080 --> 00:28:30,240
Speaker 1: like it's a really confusing relationship. It's kind of like

484
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:34,120
Speaker 1: being in an abusive relationship. And we were like, how

485
00:28:34,119 --> 00:28:36,719
Speaker 1: do we how do we take the garbage out and

486
00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:41,360
Speaker 1: just remain in love? Like we have this opportunity to

487
00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:45,640
Speaker 1: do that, But it's certainly as an artist, can contain

488
00:28:45,800 --> 00:28:50,080
Speaker 1: your relationship to your career. And it's taken me until

489
00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:54,960
Speaker 1: my adulthood to understand that some of that stuff has

490
00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:59,040
Speaker 1: almost made me inclined to reject success because I don't

491
00:28:59,560 --> 00:29:03,719
Speaker 1: trust did and I went to a more successful world.

492
00:29:03,840 --> 00:29:06,400
Speaker 1: I went and did my show in Chicago, and it

493
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:12,640
Speaker 1: got worse, like so much worse. But I had this

494
00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:14,959
Speaker 1: group of people who I really loved. But then I

495
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:19,480
Speaker 1: also experienced like real abuse and violence at work, and

496
00:29:19,520 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 1: the people I loved didn't have the tools to stand

497
00:29:22,680 --> 00:29:25,800
Speaker 1: up for me, and we're also very afraid that they

498
00:29:25,840 --> 00:29:28,840
Speaker 1: were going to lose their jobs. And so again there

499
00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:33,240
Speaker 1: was love, but it was really violent, and so I

500
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:39,480
Speaker 1: needed for me, I needed space from all of it.

501
00:29:39,480 --> 00:29:41,680
Speaker 1: It's like when people go through a bad relationship and

502
00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:45,000
Speaker 1: then they give up dating, you know, you're like, I'm

503
00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:47,400
Speaker 1: gonna be celibate for a year, like I'm out of

504
00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:51,320
Speaker 1: the game, which I also highly recommend um. But I

505
00:29:51,400 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: was like, I'm going I'm not going to do this

506
00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 1: for a minute. I have to do something completely different

507
00:29:58,040 --> 00:30:01,000
Speaker 1: for a minute. And for me, I felt like service.

508
00:30:01,560 --> 00:30:03,800
Speaker 1: That was like I'm going to go work for a

509
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:06,680
Speaker 1: bunch of nonprofits and a bunch of community organizers, and

510
00:30:06,680 --> 00:30:08,480
Speaker 1: I'm going to go work on an election, and I'm

511
00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:10,640
Speaker 1: I'm just going to go to work for the people,

512
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:15,719
Speaker 1: and like that's just what I'm gonna do. And so

513
00:30:15,760 --> 00:30:17,480
Speaker 1: I would do a project here, I would do a

514
00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:20,320
Speaker 1: movie there, but I didn't do anything that took ten

515
00:30:20,400 --> 00:30:24,160
Speaker 1: months of my year because I needed to do the opposite.

516
00:30:25,400 --> 00:30:29,440
Speaker 1: And and then, you know, I developed the show that

517
00:30:29,520 --> 00:30:32,360
Speaker 1: I really loved, but it was not the right time.

518
00:30:32,400 --> 00:30:33,960
Speaker 1: I mean, and even we knew it. We were like,

519
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 1: oh man, we developed this show that was written before

520
00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:41,120
Speaker 1: the election, and it's all about like foreign government interference

521
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:43,920
Speaker 1: in the United States politics, and like we were like,

522
00:30:43,960 --> 00:30:46,720
Speaker 1: it's too close to home. We're all traumadized, Like we

523
00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:49,120
Speaker 1: don't even want to watch this show right now. I think,

524
00:30:49,160 --> 00:30:51,640
Speaker 1: you know, I had things been different, that show probably

525
00:30:51,640 --> 00:30:55,240
Speaker 1: would have gone. But again, nothing will miss you. And

526
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,680
Speaker 1: this was for us, so I couldn't do that job,

527
00:30:58,720 --> 00:31:03,160
Speaker 1: so I could do this job. And and that was

528
00:31:03,240 --> 00:31:07,960
Speaker 1: an experience, Like you said, if you can learn when

529
00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:11,959
Speaker 1: you quote unquote lose, you're not losing yourself. And I

530
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:14,160
Speaker 1: think that if you always get what you want, you're

531
00:31:14,200 --> 00:31:17,720
Speaker 1: probably pretty bored. So that was a really cool experience

532
00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:21,200
Speaker 1: where I just got to learn and learn, learn, And

533
00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:26,640
Speaker 1: then it really prepped me for this. When I took

534
00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:29,040
Speaker 1: my first meeting with Katie, and she pitched me four

535
00:31:29,080 --> 00:31:32,440
Speaker 1: scripts she was working on in twenty nineteen. Yeah, I

536
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:35,800
Speaker 1: remember when she was like, what was it September and October?

537
00:31:35,880 --> 00:31:40,280
Speaker 1: She had like three press releases of three different shows.

538
00:31:41,280 --> 00:31:44,160
Speaker 1: I was like Jesus, she was just working like crazy,

539
00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:45,719
Speaker 1: and I was like, how is she going to do this?

540
00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,680
Speaker 1: And then sort of similarly to you, by the way,

541
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:53,800
Speaker 1: like somebody screwed up and I was told I was

542
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:56,480
Speaker 1: going to get this script as soon as it was ready,

543
00:31:57,160 --> 00:32:00,160
Speaker 1: and then Katie heard that I just hadn't read it yet,

544
00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:02,960
Speaker 1: but nobody had sent it to me, so she thought

545
00:32:03,040 --> 00:32:05,240
Speaker 1: I was like blowing off the show, and I was like,

546
00:32:05,280 --> 00:32:09,560
Speaker 1: where is my script? And so then everyone kind of

547
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:14,320
Speaker 1: figured it out and it was can you test tomorrow?

548
00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:20,520
Speaker 1: And I was like, but same exact experience as you.

549
00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:22,440
Speaker 1: I at least got a night to sleep on it.

550
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:25,560
Speaker 1: But I was like, yep, sure can and I'll be

551
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:30,040
Speaker 1: off book and it's five scenes watch me. Because I

552
00:32:30,080 --> 00:32:33,160
Speaker 1: was like I know this woman already. I know Sam

553
00:32:33,200 --> 00:32:36,320
Speaker 1: and this is mine and you know me, like I'm

554
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:39,800
Speaker 1: the most self dowdy, self loathing, confused, anxious person on

555
00:32:39,840 --> 00:32:43,000
Speaker 1: the planet. I'm very if it's for us I'm like,

556
00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:46,360
Speaker 1: this is what we're doing, like if we're protesting, if

557
00:32:46,360 --> 00:32:49,240
Speaker 1: we're doing election work, if we're I'm doing it. But

558
00:32:49,280 --> 00:32:51,560
Speaker 1: when it's for me, I'm always like, no, I'm so sorry.

559
00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:53,840
Speaker 1: I think I'm in the way. I'll just move. And

560
00:32:53,960 --> 00:32:57,080
Speaker 1: I was like, this is mine, it's mine, like I

561
00:32:57,200 --> 00:33:01,840
Speaker 1: knew it was mine, and and yeah, I just went

562
00:33:01,880 --> 00:33:06,560
Speaker 1: in and I did it. And then I did the

563
00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:10,400
Speaker 1: final tests for all the suits in the room. And

564
00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:16,440
Speaker 1: then when they were reading you and Edwyn and Travis

565
00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:18,640
Speaker 1: and all the other actors they read for the show,

566
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:22,000
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm coming in to read everybody. And

567
00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 1: they were like, oh, no, you don't have to do that,

568
00:33:24,160 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 1: and I was like, no, no, I'm coming in to

569
00:33:26,200 --> 00:33:29,560
Speaker 1: read everybody because this is the tone I want to

570
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:33,080
Speaker 1: set on this show. Because everybody always says, well, the

571
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:35,360
Speaker 1: number one, the number one, the number one. All the

572
00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:37,640
Speaker 1: number one is responsible for doing is setting a tone.

573
00:33:37,640 --> 00:33:41,040
Speaker 1: And my tone is a team tone. I don't I

574
00:33:41,160 --> 00:33:43,480
Speaker 1: like to be a team leader, but I don't like

575
00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:46,000
Speaker 1: to be the one in charge. I want us to

576
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:50,480
Speaker 1: be a team. And so for me it was so important.

577
00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:53,920
Speaker 1: Katie and Jenny and Joanna already felt like my team,

578
00:33:53,960 --> 00:33:56,719
Speaker 1: and I was like, no, I'm coming in when the

579
00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:59,800
Speaker 1: cameras aren't on, when no one will know we did

580
00:33:59,840 --> 00:34:02,959
Speaker 1: this us. I'm going to come in and read every

581
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:06,320
Speaker 1: single person who's up for every single job because it's

582
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:11,920
Speaker 1: a sign of respect. And they were like okay. Everyone

583
00:34:12,040 --> 00:34:15,359
Speaker 1: was kind of like whoa wow. Alright, wait. So when

584
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:19,680
Speaker 1: that happened, I was always curious, was that meant to

585
00:34:19,719 --> 00:34:23,319
Speaker 1: happen before? Does that usually happen before testing or does

586
00:34:23,360 --> 00:34:26,600
Speaker 1: that usually happen after the network? The studio and the

587
00:34:26,640 --> 00:34:29,400
Speaker 1: network already see the talent, so they were into testing

588
00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:33,279
Speaker 1: for your role already, and it was it was all

589
00:34:33,320 --> 00:34:36,480
Speaker 1: happening in the same week, me and you. Everything was

590
00:34:36,520 --> 00:34:39,960
Speaker 1: happening at the same time, these these characters. And so

591
00:34:40,080 --> 00:34:42,759
Speaker 1: once I was set, I was like, this is what

592
00:34:42,840 --> 00:34:45,279
Speaker 1: I want to do. And they said, oh, well, we

593
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:48,440
Speaker 1: tested people for the role of Pippa, which became lex

594
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:52,839
Speaker 1: and and they were like, but we have a favorite. Well,

595
00:34:53,239 --> 00:34:56,080
Speaker 1: will you come to a chemistry read just with one person?

596
00:34:56,280 --> 00:34:59,799
Speaker 1: And I was like yeah, obviously, And then I went

597
00:34:59,840 --> 00:35:03,520
Speaker 1: in and I read everybody for Malcolm and everybody for

598
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 1: Caleb and everybody like I went and read lots of

599
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:09,360
Speaker 1: people for all the other parts, but you were you

600
00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:14,479
Speaker 1: were always the only legs. Oh I love that. Yeah,

601
00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:18,280
Speaker 1: and I just like, I guess I tell that story

602
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:22,600
Speaker 1: in this moment to illustrate how it feels different. It's

603
00:35:22,640 --> 00:35:27,240
Speaker 1: in the bones of this project. Everything about this is different.

604
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:31,560
Speaker 1: The way the women at the Helm run it. Everybody's happy,

605
00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:33,840
Speaker 1: and not just the women, which like l O L.

606
00:35:33,880 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 1: People are like, what's it like to have a show

607
00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:37,440
Speaker 1: run by women? And I'm like, it's just amazing that

608
00:35:37,520 --> 00:35:40,719
Speaker 1: it's not even about women, it's amazing for everybody. Like

609
00:35:40,760 --> 00:35:44,280
Speaker 1: that's actually the point of equity is that everybody gets

610
00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:48,799
Speaker 1: to be happy, and like nobody even really notices it

611
00:35:49,080 --> 00:35:52,200
Speaker 1: until we have executive meetings and they're like, wow, look

612
00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:54,080
Speaker 1: at all the ladies at the table. This is cool,

613
00:35:55,520 --> 00:35:59,040
Speaker 1: Like they forget. It's just everything is so good. Our

614
00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:03,520
Speaker 1: set is happy, people are laughing, They feel appreciated. Like

615
00:36:03,840 --> 00:36:08,280
Speaker 1: we as a cast are amped. We love our jobs,

616
00:36:08,440 --> 00:36:12,600
Speaker 1: and we as a cast we're lucky. I mean, obviously

617
00:36:12,640 --> 00:36:21,600
Speaker 1: the timing was, but during that break from work, we

618
00:36:21,600 --> 00:36:26,920
Speaker 1: were able to create real relationships, and I I believe

619
00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:34,120
Speaker 1: that that's what shows up in that pilot. Most pilots

620
00:36:34,360 --> 00:36:37,359
Speaker 1: when they are filmed, the actors get to know each

621
00:36:37,400 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 1: other for maybe a week and a half two weeks

622
00:36:39,520 --> 00:36:44,080
Speaker 1: prior to filming, and now they have to portray the

623
00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:47,120
Speaker 1: bestie or the boyfriend or the father or you know.

624
00:36:47,719 --> 00:36:52,520
Speaker 1: I'm obviously heartbroken for the pandemic, but grateful for the

625
00:36:52,520 --> 00:36:55,520
Speaker 1: time that we were able to share prior to filming

626
00:36:55,520 --> 00:36:59,200
Speaker 1: that pilot, because when I watch the pilot for now

627
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:08,400
Speaker 1: the seventh time, I still just beam because me having

628
00:37:08,440 --> 00:37:12,520
Speaker 1: a personal experience knowing all of our friendships, I can

629
00:37:12,880 --> 00:37:17,000
Speaker 1: see it. I can see it on the screen even

630
00:37:17,040 --> 00:37:20,680
Speaker 1: in the pilot, and the audience has no idea what

631
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:24,239
Speaker 1: they're in store for, you know. It's just like I'm

632
00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:28,680
Speaker 1: so excited to see each episode following. And I've had

633
00:37:28,719 --> 00:37:32,080
Speaker 1: so many people that are actors and are professional actors

634
00:37:32,120 --> 00:37:36,280
Speaker 1: that are working on shows that have messaged me over

635
00:37:36,320 --> 00:37:39,759
Speaker 1: the time saying, like, my cast does not hang out

636
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,239
Speaker 1: like you guys do, like waiting, like you guys are

637
00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:45,279
Speaker 1: always hanging out, Like I can't get my cast to

638
00:37:45,320 --> 00:37:47,239
Speaker 1: get together, or I can't get my cast to do

639
00:37:47,400 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 1: things um together, And I'm like, are we is this

640
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:55,000
Speaker 1: not normal? Because we like it feels just so right,

641
00:37:55,920 --> 00:38:00,400
Speaker 1: um well, but we have something very switch, we really do,

642
00:38:00,600 --> 00:38:02,840
Speaker 1: and that's part of it. That's why it feels different.

643
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:06,759
Speaker 1: It's not always like this, but but we have fostered

644
00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:10,400
Speaker 1: an environment together as a team, and you know, I

645
00:38:10,440 --> 00:38:14,399
Speaker 1: think there's something really special in the fact that you

646
00:38:14,480 --> 00:38:18,719
Speaker 1: and me and Edwin and Jason, like we all had

647
00:38:18,760 --> 00:38:22,600
Speaker 1: that year and so in in that year of relationship,

648
00:38:23,040 --> 00:38:26,200
Speaker 1: we were able to welcome Dobvy and Michael and Omar, Like,

649
00:38:26,280 --> 00:38:29,239
Speaker 1: isn't it crazy to think they weren't with us, No,

650
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:31,000
Speaker 1: it's insane, But they feel like they've been here the

651
00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:33,680
Speaker 1: whole time. Yeah, But even from shooting the pilot February

652
00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:40,160
Speaker 1: of February March of and not starting production until October,

653
00:38:40,360 --> 00:38:43,239
Speaker 1: I know, we were still able, Like I was like

654
00:38:43,280 --> 00:38:46,240
Speaker 1: having dinner at Dobby's apartment and Dobby and I were hiking,

655
00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:50,520
Speaker 1: like still had months to really get to know each other.

656
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:55,359
Speaker 1: Even with Omar and Dovey. You know that a lot

657
00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:59,000
Speaker 1: of people really even get that because with the pilot

658
00:38:59,040 --> 00:39:00,719
Speaker 1: once once you just once you find out that the

659
00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:04,680
Speaker 1: pilot is getting picked up, you're shooting in July. You know,

660
00:39:04,719 --> 00:39:07,920
Speaker 1: everything worked, it worked on everything worked out really really great.

661
00:39:08,360 --> 00:39:15,560
Speaker 1: And you know, to quote the great Chasing Isaac's. You know,

662
00:39:16,200 --> 00:39:18,719
Speaker 1: they may be able to control how long we shoot this,

663
00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:23,080
Speaker 1: but we control how we shoot this and and how

664
00:39:23,239 --> 00:39:28,440
Speaker 1: we have created this experience as just truly, deeply been

665
00:39:28,480 --> 00:39:31,160
Speaker 1: a dream come true. I wish that I can just

666
00:39:31,200 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 1: record every minute of it so I can watch it

667
00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 1: when I'm in my eighties and just just sit and

668
00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:40,439
Speaker 1: watch all of these moments. I am going to dust

669
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:42,719
Speaker 1: my camera. I'm gonna start bringing my camera around more,

670
00:39:43,320 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 1: my professional camera. I know. I was thinking the same thing.

671
00:39:46,080 --> 00:39:48,120
Speaker 1: Actually over the holiday, I put mine in my carry

672
00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:50,080
Speaker 1: on bag. I charged it up. I was like, I gotta,

673
00:39:50,200 --> 00:39:53,040
Speaker 1: I gotta be better about this. But it's interesting, like

674
00:39:53,920 --> 00:39:56,760
Speaker 1: I love that we have had this whole experience together

675
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:00,279
Speaker 1: and that we're sharing in the magic of it, Like

676
00:40:00,360 --> 00:40:04,959
Speaker 1: this is a dream come true for me. Yeah, even

677
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:10,000
Speaker 1: after all this time doing all this work, like this

678
00:40:10,120 --> 00:40:15,200
Speaker 1: is a dream come true. This one. It's pretty unbelievable.

679
00:40:16,040 --> 00:40:19,839
Speaker 1: Tell me about it. It's I just I'm just realizing

680
00:40:19,880 --> 00:40:23,319
Speaker 1: that I'm having the same experience that you are, and like,

681
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:25,359
Speaker 1: what a what a privilege it is that we all

682
00:40:25,400 --> 00:40:31,520
Speaker 1: get to experience it in this way, and like, whether

683
00:40:31,560 --> 00:40:37,160
Speaker 1: it's your first series, regular or not, like this is magic. Yeah,

684
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:42,960
Speaker 1: it's magic. I love it. And I I think about

685
00:40:43,760 --> 00:40:48,600
Speaker 1: the opportunities to be here for each other, Like we've

686
00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:52,319
Speaker 1: been through like all the highs and lows together, you know,

687
00:40:52,719 --> 00:41:01,680
Speaker 1: like we were supporting each other through family stuff and act. Yeah,

688
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:05,840
Speaker 1: like we threw barbecues and we also marched for months.

689
00:41:06,000 --> 00:41:10,319
Speaker 1: Yes we did, you know. And and I just so

690
00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:14,719
Speaker 1: value the the reality of friendship that wants to show

691
00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:20,080
Speaker 1: up in every circumstance. I remember watching you watch the

692
00:41:20,160 --> 00:41:23,440
Speaker 1: crowd on the day that the protests started at the

693
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:28,080
Speaker 1: Pacific Park. Yeah, that was that was wild for me.

694
00:41:28,560 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 1: It was it was incredible. That was a wild for me.

695
00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:37,720
Speaker 1: It was my first protests, like a real like pulling

696
00:41:37,800 --> 00:41:42,680
Speaker 1: of my heart strings and her freedom writer protests that

697
00:41:42,719 --> 00:41:50,080
Speaker 1: I've shown up to on fire and uh and you know,

698
00:41:50,239 --> 00:41:53,399
Speaker 1: had a couple of Sabrina cast members with me and

699
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:56,560
Speaker 1: then and then my future cast member with me. It

700
00:41:56,640 --> 00:41:59,360
Speaker 1: was just like, Oh, we're gonna bring this all together,

701
00:42:00,200 --> 00:42:03,080
Speaker 1: and we're gonna go out there and we're gonna you know,

702
00:42:04,239 --> 00:42:06,560
Speaker 1: and then we got to that corner and yeah, just

703
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:09,680
Speaker 1: looking around it was I was it was like I

704
00:42:09,719 --> 00:42:12,279
Speaker 1: wish that my mom had been standing there because she

705
00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:15,360
Speaker 1: would she she's never seen anything like that. It's just

706
00:42:15,400 --> 00:42:17,600
Speaker 1: as far as my eye can see, from the alleys

707
00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:20,479
Speaker 1: to the streets, to the park to the hills, it's

708
00:42:20,520 --> 00:42:26,680
Speaker 1: just hundreds of white people just angry, just furious, furious,

709
00:42:27,480 --> 00:42:30,320
Speaker 1: And it was just great to see that I needed

710
00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:35,120
Speaker 1: because we were in the prime lockdown time. I needed

711
00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:37,720
Speaker 1: to get out of my house, stop watching the news,

712
00:42:37,800 --> 00:42:41,120
Speaker 1: turn the phone off, and see it and feel it.

713
00:42:41,480 --> 00:42:44,800
Speaker 1: And I did, and it was shul It was soul shifting.

714
00:42:45,520 --> 00:42:50,600
Speaker 1: And I remember after I like picked my job I did,

715
00:42:50,640 --> 00:42:52,520
Speaker 1: I looked at you and you were already looking at me,

716
00:42:53,880 --> 00:42:57,880
Speaker 1: and I was like, Sophia, and then like and you

717
00:42:57,880 --> 00:43:02,000
Speaker 1: were just like nodding your head like yeah, this is happening,

718
00:43:02,719 --> 00:43:06,680
Speaker 1: and yeah. Then I just burst into tears and that

719
00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:09,880
Speaker 1: was Yeah, That's definitely a day I'll never forget. That

720
00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:14,800
Speaker 1: was wild. That was um spiritually wild for me. And

721
00:43:14,920 --> 00:43:17,160
Speaker 1: I love that you were there for that and so

722
00:43:17,239 --> 00:43:22,680
Speaker 1: many other moments after that. One thing I will say, though,

723
00:43:22,719 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 1: my first experience of having and actor not just think

724
00:43:30,719 --> 00:43:35,960
Speaker 1: of self is you like when they the first instance

725
00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:38,880
Speaker 1: when they reached out wanting to interview for the Hollywood

726
00:43:38,880 --> 00:43:41,960
Speaker 1: reporter on all of the protesting and and the elections,

727
00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:44,040
Speaker 1: and you were just like, yeah, I'll do it if

728
00:43:44,239 --> 00:43:46,839
Speaker 1: Sky Marshall can be interviewed as well. And I'm like

729
00:43:46,960 --> 00:43:51,520
Speaker 1: what what what what? And you know, and I was like,

730
00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:55,360
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, like what like you put your you

731
00:43:55,400 --> 00:43:58,640
Speaker 1: were willing to not do it if they didn't interview me. Yeah,

732
00:43:58,680 --> 00:44:00,680
Speaker 1: I care, like I want you have to interview you

733
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:03,000
Speaker 1: if they're gonna interview me. Like that was powerful. And

734
00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:06,759
Speaker 1: you've done that a like a few different times, even

735
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:09,480
Speaker 1: like little subtle things that you may do. I pay

736
00:44:09,520 --> 00:44:12,399
Speaker 1: attention to and I notice it, like when I talk

737
00:44:12,440 --> 00:44:13,879
Speaker 1: to people about you, because they asked me, like, what's

738
00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:15,239
Speaker 1: it like to wear a suffing your blush? And I

739
00:44:15,280 --> 00:44:18,400
Speaker 1: do tell them I like, the woman is a humanitarian

740
00:44:18,560 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 1: first and the act or second, like she thank you.

741
00:44:23,400 --> 00:44:26,719
Speaker 1: She does not take any of this for granted. But

742
00:44:26,960 --> 00:44:32,840
Speaker 1: you also you know the value of passing batons, You

743
00:44:32,920 --> 00:44:37,759
Speaker 1: know the value of delegating. You know the value of

744
00:44:38,200 --> 00:44:42,800
Speaker 1: power and how to not abuse it and and able

745
00:44:42,840 --> 00:44:46,560
Speaker 1: to check the people that do whether they're abusing the

746
00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:52,240
Speaker 1: power of privileged, the power of economy and power of politics. Whatever.

747
00:44:52,719 --> 00:44:57,080
Speaker 1: You know, you're really good at at making sure that people,

748
00:44:57,719 --> 00:45:01,600
Speaker 1: at least I can speak for myself, have equal opportunity

749
00:45:01,640 --> 00:45:08,160
Speaker 1: to shine, and that especially during the Black Lives Matter protests.

750
00:45:09,000 --> 00:45:13,120
Speaker 1: With that interview, that was the first where I was like, what, like,

751
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:16,600
Speaker 1: I've just never had an actress or act or act

752
00:45:16,680 --> 00:45:19,960
Speaker 1: or period ever do that, not just for me, but

753
00:45:20,000 --> 00:45:23,120
Speaker 1: with other actors as well. It's usually very much. I

754
00:45:23,200 --> 00:45:24,960
Speaker 1: have to go and do all these things. I'll call

755
00:45:24,960 --> 00:45:29,080
Speaker 1: you guys later, you know. So thank you for all

756
00:45:29,120 --> 00:45:34,880
Speaker 1: of that. Thank you for for being so so sofia

757
00:45:34,960 --> 00:45:44,840
Speaker 1: ish so bushy, thank you, um goodness. I'm really working

758
00:45:44,920 --> 00:45:48,640
Speaker 1: on taking love in. I can tell I'm watching your

759
00:45:48,640 --> 00:45:51,480
Speaker 1: eyes process it and then you're rubbing your ear. But

760
00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:54,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, you're gonna receive this whether you or not.

761
00:45:55,120 --> 00:45:57,000
Speaker 1: I know, it's probably funny for some people to hear

762
00:45:57,000 --> 00:46:00,080
Speaker 1: because they assume that in our you know, position and

763
00:46:00,120 --> 00:46:04,360
Speaker 1: our profession, we're always receiving, receiving. I'm always out putting

764
00:46:04,440 --> 00:46:09,400
Speaker 1: and I'm really trying to learn to receive. And that

765
00:46:09,520 --> 00:46:16,320
Speaker 1: was very touching. Thank you, You're welcome, my low. Um.

766
00:46:16,320 --> 00:46:18,480
Speaker 1: This is probably why I'm not good at receiving comments,

767
00:46:18,520 --> 00:46:20,560
Speaker 1: because they hit me really hard and then I cry,

768
00:46:24,440 --> 00:46:28,880
Speaker 1: that's that's that's really Yeah, that's a good emotion. I

769
00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:33,879
Speaker 1: cherish that. Thank you. It's funny, I I it's it's

770
00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:36,840
Speaker 1: interesting because I don't think I ever would have told

771
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:39,560
Speaker 1: that story because I'm like, what am I going to do?

772
00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:43,239
Speaker 1: And be like, well, white people, because this is an

773
00:46:43,239 --> 00:46:45,760
Speaker 1: example of how you could be an ally like God,

774
00:46:45,840 --> 00:46:50,120
Speaker 1: it's so insufferable, um, but it's it's special to hear

775
00:46:50,239 --> 00:46:54,359
Speaker 1: you tell it because it does make me realize that,

776
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:59,480
Speaker 1: Like that was my first thought that day. Like when

777
00:46:59,480 --> 00:47:01,000
Speaker 1: I got the all and they said they want to

778
00:47:01,040 --> 00:47:03,560
Speaker 1: talk to you about being there, I was like, well,

779
00:47:03,560 --> 00:47:05,440
Speaker 1: I'm in sure, but this is dumb. I'm not the

780
00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:08,759
Speaker 1: person who supposed to be centered here, Like and I

781
00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:12,920
Speaker 1: want I want to encourage people to read this, but

782
00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 1: also the only way I'm going to walk through the

783
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:17,200
Speaker 1: door is if my friend gets to walk through the

784
00:47:17,200 --> 00:47:19,440
Speaker 1: door with me, Like I want I want to know

785
00:47:19,520 --> 00:47:22,439
Speaker 1: what her experiences. It's her story I want to read.

786
00:47:23,520 --> 00:47:30,879
Speaker 1: And yeah, I I think that that instinct. Really, it's

787
00:47:30,920 --> 00:47:32,720
Speaker 1: like it's more than an instinct for me. It feels

788
00:47:32,719 --> 00:47:38,080
Speaker 1: like a calling, like I can't imagine, Like when people say,

789
00:47:38,200 --> 00:47:40,000
Speaker 1: why can't you just be an actor. Why do you

790
00:47:40,080 --> 00:47:42,879
Speaker 1: have to be all political? I'm like, because you think

791
00:47:42,880 --> 00:47:46,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna blow the privilege of having a megaphone and

792
00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:51,000
Speaker 1: not use it to advocate for other people, Like when

793
00:47:51,000 --> 00:47:53,560
Speaker 1: our crews are fighting for better treatment, you think I'm

794
00:47:53,560 --> 00:47:55,840
Speaker 1: not going to do an Instagram live to talk about

795
00:47:55,560 --> 00:47:59,920
Speaker 1: ship I've witnessed on sets and like also to be

796
00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:01,920
Speaker 1: very clear that most actors don't have a lot of

797
00:48:01,960 --> 00:48:05,840
Speaker 1: power either, and like to tell our friends, like hold

798
00:48:05,920 --> 00:48:08,520
Speaker 1: the line. You deserve to hold the line. There are

799
00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:10,200
Speaker 1: so many more of you than there are of us

800
00:48:10,239 --> 00:48:12,480
Speaker 1: on a set. Please shut that shift down and win

801
00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:16,799
Speaker 1: for yourselves, win for all of us, Like do it?

802
00:48:17,520 --> 00:48:21,440
Speaker 1: You know? And I think it's It's why when I

803
00:48:21,560 --> 00:48:26,360
Speaker 1: say this whole experience, this is magic. Like even to

804
00:48:26,440 --> 00:48:30,120
Speaker 1: work on a set and finally be in a position

805
00:48:30,239 --> 00:48:32,279
Speaker 1: where as a producer I get to call all the

806
00:48:32,360 --> 00:48:36,240
Speaker 1: executives and say, like what are we doing for our people?

807
00:48:36,719 --> 00:48:40,759
Speaker 1: Like how how are we looking at our hours? What

808
00:48:40,840 --> 00:48:44,040
Speaker 1: do we have to prove to earn more time? Like

809
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:48,040
Speaker 1: I'm not naive, I realize there's pragmatism that's required here, Like,

810
00:48:49,280 --> 00:48:51,359
Speaker 1: but tell me what it looks like, tell me how

811
00:48:51,400 --> 00:48:55,719
Speaker 1: we get to advocate for these people, and that is

812
00:48:55,760 --> 00:48:58,200
Speaker 1: like it's the dopest thing in the world to me,

813
00:48:59,800 --> 00:49:02,879
Speaker 1: not just to pass the baton, but like, if there

814
00:49:03,040 --> 00:49:04,520
Speaker 1: is a room that I get to walk in to

815
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:07,239
Speaker 1: try to pull somebody else in it with me, and

816
00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:08,839
Speaker 1: if there is a room that I have to walk

817
00:49:08,840 --> 00:49:10,800
Speaker 1: in by myself because I'm like I've been allowed in

818
00:49:10,840 --> 00:49:12,839
Speaker 1: there as of the last three weeks, then I'm going

819
00:49:12,880 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 1: to carry everyone else's batons in there and be like,

820
00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:19,200
Speaker 1: have you looked at all of these? And that that's

821
00:49:19,239 --> 00:49:24,799
Speaker 1: the being rather than the time doing Like, that's the

822
00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:27,560
Speaker 1: being that I want for all of us on our

823
00:49:27,719 --> 00:49:30,040
Speaker 1: on our set. That's whether people see it or not,

824
00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 1: that's the being. That's who you are because I kid you,

825
00:49:32,560 --> 00:49:36,319
Speaker 1: not like because you are my friend. I want to

826
00:49:36,440 --> 00:49:39,719
Speaker 1: like like vent about my little things and I'm like no, no, no,

827
00:49:39,719 --> 00:49:41,719
Speaker 1: no no. At work, but then I have to like

828
00:49:41,840 --> 00:49:46,520
Speaker 1: be careful because I'm like, wait, she's still producer, Sophia,

829
00:49:46,680 --> 00:49:51,239
Speaker 1: and she will fix this. When sometimes I'm just like

830
00:49:51,440 --> 00:49:54,040
Speaker 1: because like everyone I was like Sophia the makeup for

831
00:49:54,080 --> 00:49:56,600
Speaker 1: the like they did the makeup and it was lighter

832
00:49:56,600 --> 00:49:58,799
Speaker 1: than my actual skin tone, and like I know that.

833
00:49:58,920 --> 00:50:02,920
Speaker 1: She's like what and I was like, oh uh uh,

834
00:50:03,719 --> 00:50:06,120
Speaker 1: let me dial back. That was they were just trying out. Um,

835
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:11,960
Speaker 1: she's gonna get the dark makeup and immediately gone, somebody

836
00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 1: has gone. She's now calling. I was like, like, you

837
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:21,480
Speaker 1: definitely are, like you're like my own personal robin Hood.

838
00:50:21,800 --> 00:50:23,840
Speaker 1: But so I'm like, I have to be careful about

839
00:50:23,920 --> 00:50:27,080
Speaker 1: like what I like friendly bant to you because I'm like,

840
00:50:27,200 --> 00:50:30,160
Speaker 1: she's still a producer and you can't even say like

841
00:50:30,239 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 1: that the almonds were stale. The almonds are not going

842
00:50:34,120 --> 00:50:35,719
Speaker 1: to be stale ever again. And I have to be

843
00:50:35,800 --> 00:50:39,600
Speaker 1: careful who who I say that too when it comes

844
00:50:39,680 --> 00:50:43,799
Speaker 1: to definitely tried, because you will. You want everyone's experience

845
00:50:44,200 --> 00:50:47,080
Speaker 1: to be pleasant. You want everyone's experience to be great.

846
00:50:47,080 --> 00:50:49,520
Speaker 1: And I love that about you because yeah, you do.

847
00:50:49,640 --> 00:50:53,640
Speaker 1: You're You're very tapped in and you're extremely empathetic. So

848
00:50:53,719 --> 00:50:57,200
Speaker 1: it's like if someone feels like they're not having a

849
00:50:57,200 --> 00:50:59,719
Speaker 1: good time or that they're they want something or need

850
00:50:59,760 --> 00:51:01,680
Speaker 1: something but they're scared to ask, it's like you feel

851
00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:03,720
Speaker 1: it and you know it, and then like it's gone.

852
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:05,800
Speaker 1: You're you're at a there the doors are swinging and

853
00:51:05,800 --> 00:51:07,359
Speaker 1: then you're coming back with the thing that they needed,

854
00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:11,120
Speaker 1: and I think it's such a beautiful thing. At the

855
00:51:11,160 --> 00:51:18,839
Speaker 1: same time, I'm like Sophia Delegate. Every once in a while,

856
00:51:18,880 --> 00:51:21,200
Speaker 1: you're so good, you'll be like this is not Nope,

857
00:51:21,480 --> 00:51:24,480
Speaker 1: don't just let somebody else is going to answer that question.

858
00:51:24,920 --> 00:51:29,399
Speaker 1: Just wait, and I'm like, oh, all right, you're right,

859
00:51:29,480 --> 00:51:33,920
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna But it's funny. It's like I'll give

860
00:51:33,960 --> 00:51:37,919
Speaker 1: you a thing that that grant and I do that's

861
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:41,720
Speaker 1: so helpful, which like is a it's a great relationship tactic,

862
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:43,560
Speaker 1: but I think it's good for you know, we're all

863
00:51:43,600 --> 00:51:47,000
Speaker 1: in relationships, whether they're romantic or not. Is purge your

864
00:51:47,040 --> 00:51:52,200
Speaker 1: problem solved? Purge or problem solved? So like someone can

865
00:51:52,280 --> 00:51:54,480
Speaker 1: come to you, like you could come to me with

866
00:51:54,560 --> 00:51:56,960
Speaker 1: a problem and I could be like what is going

867
00:51:56,960 --> 00:51:58,840
Speaker 1: on and you're like, this is just a purge and

868
00:51:58,840 --> 00:52:01,600
Speaker 1: then it's like I just need to vent, versus being

869
00:52:01,640 --> 00:52:03,719
Speaker 1: like I need you to help me problem solve, and

870
00:52:03,719 --> 00:52:07,200
Speaker 1: then it's like okay, and it and it's and it's beautiful,

871
00:52:07,360 --> 00:52:12,319
Speaker 1: especially in partnership, like romantic partnership, because sometimes we just

872
00:52:12,360 --> 00:52:15,440
Speaker 1: want to vent and sometimes we're like help me. But

873
00:52:15,520 --> 00:52:18,279
Speaker 1: when someone like immediately goes into fix it mode. When

874
00:52:18,280 --> 00:52:21,239
Speaker 1: you're trying to vent it doesn't feel great. And then

875
00:52:21,320 --> 00:52:24,440
Speaker 1: sometimes when you really want to help fixing and someone's like, yeah,

876
00:52:24,480 --> 00:52:25,960
Speaker 1: well you got a lot on your plate, and then

877
00:52:25,960 --> 00:52:29,160
Speaker 1: like walks away, You're like, what the fuck, help me

878
00:52:29,360 --> 00:52:32,319
Speaker 1: fix it? And so it's funny to learn that, like

879
00:52:32,840 --> 00:52:36,160
Speaker 1: if you if you give somebody just a little qualifier

880
00:52:36,200 --> 00:52:40,160
Speaker 1: and I like, I like the alliteration, so perjuror problem solved. Um,

881
00:52:40,200 --> 00:52:42,680
Speaker 1: but it's great. So you can be like, oh, you

882
00:52:42,719 --> 00:52:44,520
Speaker 1: convent to me all you want at work, but just

883
00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:46,520
Speaker 1: be like, this is just a purge, and then I'll

884
00:52:46,560 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 1: know not to go set something on fire in your

885
00:52:49,320 --> 00:52:55,200
Speaker 1: definite Yeah I will. I I'm starting that tomorrow. I

886
00:52:55,239 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 1: love it. I definitely did drop a line about your

887
00:52:59,560 --> 00:53:02,120
Speaker 1: experience with the foundation. Was like, I'm just gonna say

888
00:53:02,120 --> 00:53:03,840
Speaker 1: this in his friendly a manner as possible so that

889
00:53:03,920 --> 00:53:05,759
Speaker 1: I don't blow a gasket, but just know that on

890
00:53:05,800 --> 00:53:08,439
Speaker 1: the inside I am. The fact that our other lead

891
00:53:08,440 --> 00:53:10,560
Speaker 1: actress is being met with foundation that is not her

892
00:53:10,560 --> 00:53:14,400
Speaker 1: skin shade is completely fucking unacceptable. And in case no

893
00:53:14,400 --> 00:53:17,160
Speaker 1: one's seen, fenty is a seventy five million dollar quarterly

894
00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:20,520
Speaker 1: brand that Rihanna launched with seventy skin shades, So fix it,

895
00:53:20,960 --> 00:53:25,600
Speaker 1: and everyone was like okay, but I know the next

896
00:53:25,680 --> 00:53:27,960
Speaker 1: day I was like, this is actually a perfect match.

897
00:53:29,040 --> 00:53:31,160
Speaker 1: Did you is this? And literally I'm not giving you

898
00:53:31,200 --> 00:53:35,160
Speaker 1: we have fenty all over. Listen was just like, we're

899
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:37,000
Speaker 1: not going to debate about this. I will even give

900
00:53:37,040 --> 00:53:40,600
Speaker 1: you a footnote. There will be a resource goodbye. Oh

901
00:53:40,640 --> 00:53:44,000
Speaker 1: my goodness, that was hysterical how quick it got fixed.

902
00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:46,960
Speaker 1: But I was like, but I don't me to like

903
00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:49,440
Speaker 1: to like ask for what I want as well, Like

904
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:51,319
Speaker 1: it didn't need to be a bit. It could have

905
00:53:51,400 --> 00:53:56,040
Speaker 1: been me directly having the conversation with someone. It didn't

906
00:53:56,040 --> 00:53:59,520
Speaker 1: have to be you know you. But you know that's

907
00:53:59,560 --> 00:54:04,319
Speaker 1: been a learning curve for me. Is is as you know,

908
00:54:04,360 --> 00:54:08,000
Speaker 1: which I've expressed to you before, is like using my

909
00:54:08,120 --> 00:54:12,640
Speaker 1: voice and asking for what I need and not just

910
00:54:12,920 --> 00:54:15,000
Speaker 1: being a good soldier, you know what I mean, Like

911
00:54:15,120 --> 00:54:16,879
Speaker 1: just yeah, you want me to stand here, cool, let

912
00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:20,080
Speaker 1: me do that. Yep, you do it faster, awesome, slow down, cool,

913
00:54:20,120 --> 00:54:22,680
Speaker 1: Like I just versus like you and Jason are really

914
00:54:22,719 --> 00:54:26,080
Speaker 1: good at Like, no, this is a process for you

915
00:54:26,120 --> 00:54:28,560
Speaker 1: as well. If you have questions or if you want to,

916
00:54:29,000 --> 00:54:32,200
Speaker 1: you know, try something a little different, like just speak up.

917
00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:35,040
Speaker 1: And I'm like it sounds easy, doesn't it. Well, you know,

918
00:54:35,120 --> 00:54:37,920
Speaker 1: but that's still a learning process for me. And like

919
00:54:38,080 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: you were there that night that I even said to Jason,

920
00:54:40,160 --> 00:54:43,839
Speaker 1: I was complimenting him for how much he's pushing me

921
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:48,320
Speaker 1: to not just be as professional as quickly as possible,

922
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:51,240
Speaker 1: but to like really take my time as an artist.

923
00:54:52,280 --> 00:54:56,520
Speaker 1: And he's helping me turn that lens. That is so

924
00:54:56,560 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 1: easy for me to offer to other people about like

925
00:54:59,560 --> 00:55:01,279
Speaker 1: take your time, get what you need, what do you

926
00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:04,719
Speaker 1: need to be comfortable. He's been very helpful to me

927
00:55:04,760 --> 00:55:06,360
Speaker 1: in terms of being like, but when do you do

928
00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:09,759
Speaker 1: that for you? Like why do you just why do

929
00:55:09,840 --> 00:55:12,640
Speaker 1: you try to assist camera to get the shot as

930
00:55:12,680 --> 00:55:15,080
Speaker 1: quickly as possible? Like what do you want to experience

931
00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:21,040
Speaker 1: in the scene? And I'm like, oh shit, shit, all right, god, okay,

932
00:55:21,080 --> 00:55:23,920
Speaker 1: this is hard, but it I think it's good too.

933
00:55:25,400 --> 00:55:29,319
Speaker 1: It's good to check in about that stuff. Well, that's

934
00:55:29,320 --> 00:55:31,640
Speaker 1: a healthy relationship is when someone can put a mirror

935
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:35,640
Speaker 1: up and and as you said, we are all in relationship.

936
00:55:36,800 --> 00:55:40,719
Speaker 1: An authentic relationship to me is when people can be like,

937
00:55:40,960 --> 00:55:43,160
Speaker 1: here's the mirror. Do you see what you're doing? Do

938
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:46,080
Speaker 1: you see it? Do you see it? And not scared

939
00:55:46,239 --> 00:55:50,400
Speaker 1: to do that at a fear of loss, yeah, or

940
00:55:50,440 --> 00:55:53,600
Speaker 1: fear of confrontation, you know, to be able to do that.

941
00:55:53,880 --> 00:55:58,640
Speaker 1: And I feel like we've all been able to learn

942
00:55:58,719 --> 00:56:03,440
Speaker 1: how to, you know, gracefully and slowly move into that

943
00:56:03,600 --> 00:56:08,160
Speaker 1: space naturally without forcing it of like knowing when we're

944
00:56:08,200 --> 00:56:10,399
Speaker 1: at that place in our relationship, or we can just

945
00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:15,920
Speaker 1: be like stop, don't do that, like yell like I

946
00:56:15,960 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 1: did with Jason, and then immediately hug it out right,

947
00:56:19,120 --> 00:56:21,040
Speaker 1: but then like you and I were like little girls,

948
00:56:21,080 --> 00:56:26,080
Speaker 1: like and meanwhile he has not mad at all, right,

949
00:56:26,080 --> 00:56:28,279
Speaker 1: Like it's but it's just like that's what makes to

950
00:56:28,400 --> 00:56:35,239
Speaker 1: me such real relationships that we can do that and

951
00:56:35,320 --> 00:56:39,360
Speaker 1: not edit ourselves and be on our best behavior for

952
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:44,120
Speaker 1: twelve to fourteen hours a day Monday to Friday, you know,

953
00:56:44,160 --> 00:56:47,360
Speaker 1: because that mask will drop real quick. So I'm glad

954
00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:49,640
Speaker 1: that we've all been able to get to that space

955
00:56:49,760 --> 00:56:52,480
Speaker 1: that's so real because it is also showing up on screen.

956
00:56:53,880 --> 00:56:56,480
Speaker 1: You know. I sneak and look at playback a lot

957
00:56:56,560 --> 00:57:00,560
Speaker 1: now just to like, you know, see let's and I'm like,

958
00:57:00,640 --> 00:57:05,239
Speaker 1: it's just so delicious. It's delicious. Oh my god. I know.

959
00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:08,279
Speaker 1: Somebody tweeted me after the pilot and was like, my

960
00:57:08,360 --> 00:57:10,880
Speaker 1: life goal is to have Sophia Bush described something I

961
00:57:10,960 --> 00:57:12,680
Speaker 1: do as delicious, and I was like, it is my

962
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:17,760
Speaker 1: highest compliment. It really is, and we are doing some

963
00:57:18,200 --> 00:57:22,840
Speaker 1: delicious things. When you think about how good this is,

964
00:57:22,880 --> 00:57:26,480
Speaker 1: and you want to stay present and this is like

965
00:57:26,520 --> 00:57:28,600
Speaker 1: the both and right, this is the whole point of

966
00:57:28,640 --> 00:57:32,320
Speaker 1: like when I wrote about being a work in progress,

967
00:57:32,360 --> 00:57:36,080
Speaker 1: it's like, cherish where you are and celebrate it, but

968
00:57:36,200 --> 00:57:39,680
Speaker 1: also certainly look at what you want to do. What

969
00:57:39,720 --> 00:57:45,080
Speaker 1: do you think about goals, Like what is the goal

970
00:57:45,200 --> 00:57:54,400
Speaker 1: beyond right here right now? Honey? Well, yeah, I definitely

971
00:57:54,440 --> 00:57:56,840
Speaker 1: want to have my own travel show because I'm addicted

972
00:57:56,840 --> 00:58:00,160
Speaker 1: to traveling, as you know, that's my heartbeat. So oh

973
00:58:01,240 --> 00:58:04,520
Speaker 1: that way be cool. I've been working on that. I

974
00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:08,720
Speaker 1: have I think like five episodes of different destinations that

975
00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:11,480
Speaker 1: I've shot and i've edit. I've edit on my own,

976
00:58:11,520 --> 00:58:14,400
Speaker 1: which I'm pretty proud of. So I'm just kind of

977
00:58:14,440 --> 00:58:17,360
Speaker 1: building my not kind of I am building my resume

978
00:58:17,840 --> 00:58:22,760
Speaker 1: of videos so that come time um to produce my

979
00:58:22,800 --> 00:58:25,080
Speaker 1: own travel show. I will have some proof in my

980
00:58:25,120 --> 00:58:27,960
Speaker 1: putting the show when it comes time to pitching time.

981
00:58:28,040 --> 00:58:30,600
Speaker 1: So because you know, I never I used to watch

982
00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:34,040
Speaker 1: so many different travel shows growing up, and I'm never

983
00:58:34,080 --> 00:58:37,720
Speaker 1: seeing a black female travel host. They might be out there,

984
00:58:37,840 --> 00:58:41,160
Speaker 1: I just I haven't seen it, especially with my personality.

985
00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:43,680
Speaker 1: And I would love to be able to UM have

986
00:58:43,840 --> 00:58:46,040
Speaker 1: like a different co host in every episode, and that

987
00:58:46,120 --> 00:58:49,080
Speaker 1: co host be someone from that country that is an

988
00:58:49,080 --> 00:58:51,960
Speaker 1: influencer in that country, whether it be in beauty or

989
00:58:52,160 --> 00:58:55,480
Speaker 1: dating or um politics or whatever the case may be.

990
00:58:56,360 --> 00:58:59,680
Speaker 1: UM and it'll be called culture shock. And yeah, so

991
00:59:00,160 --> 00:59:02,680
Speaker 1: excited about that. It's still you know, a work in

992
00:59:02,760 --> 00:59:08,120
Speaker 1: progress as always. And then I want to direct more.

993
00:59:08,440 --> 00:59:11,520
Speaker 1: I've directed before, and I really loved it. It was,

994
00:59:11,960 --> 00:59:16,240
Speaker 1: um such an incredible opportunity. I worked with my girlfriend Joseels,

995
00:59:16,240 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 1: who you've met, on a project called Killing Karen Soloway

996
00:59:20,200 --> 00:59:26,800
Speaker 1: and it was such a such a fulfilling experience, which

997
00:59:26,960 --> 00:59:30,560
Speaker 1: I know you've you've had. It's just so that was

998
00:59:30,600 --> 00:59:35,320
Speaker 1: something I've always said, like, oh, those are two projects

999
00:59:35,440 --> 00:59:39,040
Speaker 1: that will happen when I get the series regular. I

1000
00:59:39,080 --> 00:59:41,760
Speaker 1: had such a laser being focused on getting the show.

1001
00:59:43,920 --> 00:59:45,640
Speaker 1: I did not want to steer off that road. I

1002
00:59:45,640 --> 00:59:47,840
Speaker 1: didn't want a multitask. I didn't want to be the

1003
00:59:47,880 --> 00:59:50,320
Speaker 1: person that's like, I'm this, slash this, slash this, Like

1004
00:59:50,600 --> 00:59:54,720
Speaker 1: I just wanted to really just focus on on that.

1005
00:59:54,880 --> 00:59:57,680
Speaker 1: And now that it's accomplished, those are the two things

1006
00:59:57,760 --> 01:00:07,080
Speaker 1: I have brewing. UM. Relationships, you know, relationships are always nice. Um,

1007
01:00:07,120 --> 01:00:11,480
Speaker 1: my goal is always to grow in love and relationships

1008
01:00:11,600 --> 01:00:16,200
Speaker 1: because that is the one thing I personally feel I

1009
01:00:16,240 --> 01:00:20,080
Speaker 1: can't do on my own. I can read as many

1010
01:00:20,080 --> 01:00:21,960
Speaker 1: books as I want, and I can watch as many

1011
01:00:21,960 --> 01:00:24,200
Speaker 1: Ted talks as I want, and I can tap in

1012
01:00:25,080 --> 01:00:28,240
Speaker 1: burn sage and rub crystals all I want, but at

1013
01:00:28,240 --> 01:00:30,080
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I need real world experience

1014
01:00:30,120 --> 01:00:34,600
Speaker 1: with another human being to to really see my progress

1015
01:00:34,640 --> 01:00:38,160
Speaker 1: in love and relationships. So I'm always looking forward to that,

1016
01:00:38,280 --> 01:00:43,440
Speaker 1: to those experiences, and um, buying a house is a

1017
01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:47,240
Speaker 1: huge goal of mine, so I've been looking at properties,

1018
01:00:47,360 --> 01:00:49,520
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna absolutely talk to you and Grant more

1019
01:00:50,080 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 1: about that since you have such great experience and in

1020
01:00:53,480 --> 01:00:56,919
Speaker 1: real estate, the two of you, because I'm very much

1021
01:00:57,760 --> 01:01:04,040
Speaker 1: green in that sense. Those are yeah, yeah, I think

1022
01:01:04,040 --> 01:01:09,240
Speaker 1: that's a pretty solid solid list. Um. And then seeing

1023
01:01:09,280 --> 01:01:13,680
Speaker 1: my family more would be fun. But that's where the

1024
01:01:13,720 --> 01:01:15,080
Speaker 1: house comes in, because then I want to have a

1025
01:01:15,080 --> 01:01:19,560
Speaker 1: guest house and toss my mom and I want you close.

1026
01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:23,440
Speaker 1: I just don't want to, but not like with me,

1027
01:01:23,520 --> 01:01:26,640
Speaker 1: with me, you feel me, but like just during the

1028
01:01:26,720 --> 01:01:30,440
Speaker 1: cold months of Chicago, like she could be a snowbird,

1029
01:01:30,560 --> 01:01:34,360
Speaker 1: she would that would be her heaven if I like

1030
01:01:34,520 --> 01:01:37,400
Speaker 1: had that opportunity set up for her. So yeah, those

1031
01:01:37,440 --> 01:01:43,960
Speaker 1: are those are the majors. Those are the majors for sure. Um.

1032
01:01:44,120 --> 01:01:47,440
Speaker 1: And then I also have like some charitable stuff that

1033
01:01:48,200 --> 01:01:52,720
Speaker 1: I have a mind and um and a foundation that

1034
01:01:52,760 --> 01:01:54,320
Speaker 1: I'm working on that I want to talk to you

1035
01:01:54,360 --> 01:01:58,200
Speaker 1: about as well. Yeah, I mean, the percentage of young

1036
01:01:58,400 --> 01:02:02,160
Speaker 1: black and brown kids passports is so extremely low. It's

1037
01:02:02,240 --> 01:02:05,080
Speaker 1: so extremely low. And backpacking through Europe is just not

1038
01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:07,640
Speaker 1: a part of our dinner table conversation growing up. It's

1039
01:02:07,680 --> 01:02:10,760
Speaker 1: just not you know, UM, A lot of families just

1040
01:02:10,840 --> 01:02:12,960
Speaker 1: believe that they could spend that money on something more

1041
01:02:12,960 --> 01:02:17,320
Speaker 1: important like bills and food and healthcare and education. That

1042
01:02:17,560 --> 01:02:23,360
Speaker 1: traveling is not ever anywhere really close to high priority

1043
01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:26,360
Speaker 1: for a lot of black and brown families in America.

1044
01:02:26,560 --> 01:02:30,920
Speaker 1: So I would love to, um do like a contest

1045
01:02:31,040 --> 01:02:35,600
Speaker 1: every year where high school students have to submit an essay,

1046
01:02:35,640 --> 01:02:38,880
Speaker 1: but in in order to be considered for the trip

1047
01:02:39,200 --> 01:02:43,600
Speaker 1: overseas first destination will be gonna Um, they have to

1048
01:02:44,080 --> 01:02:47,680
Speaker 1: submit a photo of their passport. So whether they get

1049
01:02:47,680 --> 01:02:51,200
Speaker 1: selected or not, they got a passport. At least at

1050
01:02:51,280 --> 01:02:53,760
Speaker 1: least they got the passport. I mean, I just yeah,

1051
01:02:53,800 --> 01:02:55,840
Speaker 1: I have so many different really cool ideas in my

1052
01:02:55,880 --> 01:03:03,760
Speaker 1: head that I plan on flushing out, and but I'm

1053
01:03:03,800 --> 01:03:07,880
Speaker 1: not touching any of them until we're done filming because

1054
01:03:07,920 --> 01:03:12,000
Speaker 1: I just want to sit in this. So until April,

1055
01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:16,000
Speaker 1: I'm just good Sam all day, every day and creating

1056
01:03:16,040 --> 01:03:21,360
Speaker 1: new vision boards for post season one production. Yes, I

1057
01:03:21,480 --> 01:03:24,600
Speaker 1: love that. I'm starting to think about It's like I

1058
01:03:24,600 --> 01:03:27,400
Speaker 1: wish this whole wall was a white board and we

1059
01:03:27,440 --> 01:03:29,240
Speaker 1: could just you know what I mean, I think we

1060
01:03:29,280 --> 01:03:31,959
Speaker 1: should do. This would be a great lab wall, right,

1061
01:03:32,520 --> 01:03:35,280
Speaker 1: like maybe we just put paper up. But I love

1062
01:03:35,360 --> 01:03:40,720
Speaker 1: the idea of beginning to board out postseason one. And

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Speaker 1: then I've actually been thinking, because you inspire me about

1064
01:03:43,640 --> 01:03:46,080
Speaker 1: really getting serious with the universe about what we want.

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01:03:46,960 --> 01:03:49,760
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, I'm gonna then make a list of

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01:03:50,080 --> 01:03:55,320
Speaker 1: what we're going to do during season two, absolutely right, Like,

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01:03:55,440 --> 01:03:58,160
Speaker 1: let's plot the years. We want to do this job

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01:03:58,680 --> 01:04:03,959
Speaker 1: for many years yep, together and have a time such

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01:04:03,960 --> 01:04:06,960
Speaker 1: a time. I've already reserved the Airbnbs for our weekend trips.

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Speaker 1: Perfect season two and three, can't win. We're out here

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01:04:11,120 --> 01:04:16,600
Speaker 1: like spring, we will be on the lake. We're going.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, that's the other thing. Guys, our our

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Speaker 1: Toronto friends listening. If you have great travel info, please

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01:04:26,040 --> 01:04:28,200
Speaker 1: send it to the podcast. Where should we be going?

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Speaker 1: Give us your tips please and thank you. I've never

1076
01:04:32,320 --> 01:04:35,840
Speaker 1: met a bad meal in Toronto. Some of the best

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01:04:35,920 --> 01:04:39,479
Speaker 1: food in this city. But I want to know those

1078
01:04:39,560 --> 01:04:43,480
Speaker 1: hidden gyms as well, like the school speakeasies or the

1079
01:04:43,600 --> 01:04:47,560
Speaker 1: great day trips yep. And then the weekend getaway the

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01:04:47,640 --> 01:04:52,400
Speaker 1: hiking spots. Tell us your secrets, give it to us. Okay,

1081
01:04:52,440 --> 01:04:56,360
Speaker 1: so we have a lot of progress plans. What in

1082
01:04:56,400 --> 01:04:58,720
Speaker 1: your life right now feels like you're work in progress?

1083
01:05:02,560 --> 01:05:04,960
Speaker 1: You knew that question was coming, but it always takes

1084
01:05:04,960 --> 01:05:11,480
Speaker 1: me but my surprise. Ah yeah, yeah, yeah, I have

1085
01:05:11,680 --> 01:05:19,400
Speaker 1: a battle, an inside battle with marriage and kids. That's

1086
01:05:19,400 --> 01:05:23,600
Speaker 1: the work in progress. I definitely would like to and

1087
01:05:23,880 --> 01:05:29,439
Speaker 1: roll The Therapist after production to help me unpack that,

1088
01:05:29,640 --> 01:05:33,360
Speaker 1: because I feel like I'm at the stage where I

1089
01:05:33,520 --> 01:05:39,160
Speaker 1: am constantly repeating the same narrative that has kept me

1090
01:05:39,240 --> 01:05:47,280
Speaker 1: safe and with love, marriage, family, all of that, it's

1091
01:05:47,520 --> 01:05:53,040
Speaker 1: very scary territory that is so worth it. It's so

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01:05:53,160 --> 01:05:55,480
Speaker 1: worth it. It's scary, it's always scary, but it's so

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01:05:55,560 --> 01:05:59,280
Speaker 1: worth it. And the brain is not designed to make

1094
01:05:59,280 --> 01:06:01,080
Speaker 1: you happy. The brain is designed to keep you safe.

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01:06:01,560 --> 01:06:06,080
Speaker 1: So I'm very clear on the way my brain has

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01:06:06,120 --> 01:06:09,400
Speaker 1: operated around love, marriage, and kids, which I've shared with

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01:06:09,440 --> 01:06:13,480
Speaker 1: you before, and I'm I'm kind of you know, when

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01:06:13,480 --> 01:06:14,800
Speaker 1: you get to that point when you're kind of tired

1099
01:06:14,840 --> 01:06:20,800
Speaker 1: of your own bullshit. M I would like to know why.

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01:06:20,920 --> 01:06:24,160
Speaker 1: I would like to know why has the idea of

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01:06:25,240 --> 01:06:28,600
Speaker 1: no marriage, no kids that has protected me for so long?

1102
01:06:29,280 --> 01:06:31,600
Speaker 1: Why am I still holding onto it when I have

1103
01:06:31,720 --> 01:06:36,120
Speaker 1: had the opportunity to meet such incredible people, such incredible men.

1104
01:06:36,720 --> 01:06:41,440
Speaker 1: So yeah, that's a work in progress that I have

1105
01:06:41,800 --> 01:06:45,600
Speaker 1: just recently decided that I'm going to have a professional

1106
01:06:45,680 --> 01:06:50,400
Speaker 1: help me, like help facilitate that experience and and see

1107
01:06:50,440 --> 01:06:53,600
Speaker 1: where it goes if it leads me right back to like, actually, nah,

1108
01:06:53,840 --> 01:06:56,840
Speaker 1: I'm okay with that, but at least I'm allowing myself

1109
01:06:56,920 --> 01:07:01,600
Speaker 1: to look at it. I haven't really quite looked at it.

1110
01:07:01,640 --> 01:07:05,120
Speaker 1: I've just repeated it. Well, and remember what happened when

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01:07:05,160 --> 01:07:08,479
Speaker 1: you looked at what you thought about acting? I see

1112
01:07:08,480 --> 01:07:10,160
Speaker 1: what I mean. You became a serious regular on a

1113
01:07:10,200 --> 01:07:15,200
Speaker 1: CBS medical drama and I started late. M hmm. So

1114
01:07:15,360 --> 01:07:19,960
Speaker 1: even in this area where I've told myself, well, you're

1115
01:07:20,000 --> 01:07:25,560
Speaker 1: not a young chicken anymore. You you know, you know,

1116
01:07:25,760 --> 01:07:28,720
Speaker 1: I'm I'm considering, and that consideration comes when you do

1117
01:07:28,840 --> 01:07:35,160
Speaker 1: experience someone treating you really incredible. And I'm currently having

1118
01:07:35,160 --> 01:07:40,480
Speaker 1: that experience. So now in that space, UM, I would

1119
01:07:40,520 --> 01:07:44,320
Speaker 1: like to I would like to explore that. So that's

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Speaker 1: a work in progress right now. I'll keep you updated.

1121
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Speaker 1: I will give you all my resource. Please do like

1122
01:07:52,520 --> 01:07:55,960
Speaker 1: a late bloomer, I had to do much therapy to

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01:07:56,000 --> 01:07:59,960
Speaker 1: get here. Oh yeah, amazing, Please, I just loved. I

1124
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Speaker 1: think we had a conversation right before UM, you and

1125
01:08:04,040 --> 01:08:08,240
Speaker 1: Grant got serious, Like you were excited about Grant. But

1126
01:08:08,280 --> 01:08:10,640
Speaker 1: remember we went on that hike and we were both

1127
01:08:10,760 --> 01:08:16,800
Speaker 1: like having that conversation and like now like two years later,

1128
01:08:16,960 --> 01:08:22,040
Speaker 1: look at look at this, this is incredible. My goodness,

1129
01:08:22,280 --> 01:08:26,320
Speaker 1: takes work. It does, especially for I got it. I'm good,

1130
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Speaker 1: I've handled it. I've got it women like us. Yeah.

1131
01:08:31,120 --> 01:08:34,160
Speaker 1: I love homework. Okay, I'm ready. So that's fine, all right,

1132
01:08:34,439 --> 01:08:37,800
Speaker 1: that's yeah. Here we go, Here we go, bring it.

1133
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Speaker 1: I'm so excited for this year. I love you too,

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Speaker 1: Booby