Speaker 1: I guess what decision we're about to make a horrible decisions.
Speaker 1: Welcome y'all. It's all roble decisions. What's up this year?
Speaker 1: Made to be hi. I'm weasing we have a special
Speaker 1: guest today. I feel like this is probably one of
Speaker 1: the coolest episodes we ever gonna have. Not to put
Speaker 1: the pressure on you, because I don't want you to
Speaker 1: mad pressure like he wasn't And you see she come
Speaker 1: out the gate and pressure. Bro, you gotta ease people in.
Speaker 1: But I'm so high. This is a lot of insight,
Speaker 1: no pun you know what I'm saying, because I feel
Speaker 1: like get I meant no, because um, he did a
Speaker 1: consult with me for his new podcast blind but now
Speaker 1: I see he was bugging on the first name. But
Speaker 1: we got with But yeah, I really wanted to have
Speaker 1: somebody on. And I feel like I can't use the
Speaker 1: word disability, but you're visually impaired. And it's so interesting
Speaker 1: to me to have this conversation because we hear so
Speaker 1: many things about We just had a guest a few
Speaker 1: weeks ago to talk about sensory deprivation and how she
Speaker 1: was blindfolded and ship and how things are heightened and
Speaker 1: I think it's gonna be so dope to just learn
Speaker 1: about you your sexual experiences. I know you may not
Speaker 1: talk about sex too much on your pod, but like anything,
Speaker 1: but like, yeah, this is just really exciting for us. So, um,
Speaker 1: can you introduce yourself, tell people what you do, and
Speaker 1: just a little bit about your story on yeah, how
Speaker 1: you lost your vision? Well, my name is c No.
Speaker 1: I called myself blond Poppy, blond Poppy to her Ray
Speaker 1: Charles like, I'm I'm a party promoter. So pretty much
Speaker 1: nine years ago, I was shot three times being wrong
Speaker 1: but they was trying to wrong me and shot me
Speaker 1: three times, left me there to die. Pretty much seven
Speaker 1: days in the hospital, four days I see you, three
Speaker 1: days recovery. That's it. And I told my mother mouth
Speaker 1: I got to get him to my son. Doctor said
Speaker 1: he couldn't come up, that he was one years old.
Speaker 1: Oh I thought your son. I have misunderstood when I
Speaker 1: met you from of your son was not nine. Okay,
Speaker 1: so you've seen your son, Yeah, I'm sure this first birthday.
Speaker 1: Wow wow, So when when this happen survived you gotta
Speaker 1: take away some sins. So okay, I totally misunderstood. So
Speaker 1: you had your son you get out your blind I
Speaker 1: know you told me a little bit briefly about how
Speaker 1: you did anger management while blind, but just from a
Speaker 1: sex perspective, like how long did you go before you
Speaker 1: even want to have sex or could? Yeah? I came, Oh,
Speaker 1: I wasn't even a hospital. I said worked. I strayed
Speaker 1: up in that toil the doctor it ain't working. It
Speaker 1: ain't even that's what you said. That's you were in
Speaker 1: the hospital just from being shot, and your concern was
Speaker 1: whether you would get hard again. And you took my eyes.
Speaker 1: I don't want to know what else you took. That's
Speaker 1: going ain't no use. What was the response, like, how
Speaker 1: was I mean what the doctor's response when I said
Speaker 1: doctors response to that? He was like, pretty much your
Speaker 1: body going through trauma. Got to see a couple of
Speaker 1: days and started moving. I'm like, I'm good to go. Wow,
Speaker 1: I went home. That's extra first day, won't the first day?
Speaker 1: You think it was sympathy pussy Yeah, I had a
Speaker 1: whole lot of that. The whole lot of that sympathy
Speaker 1: if you're not getting pussy shot everybody, Okay, I did
Speaker 1: na that got shot. We know you like niggas asleep
Speaker 1: with guns. And that I'm gonna him anyway. But I
Speaker 1: was like, see him you hurt? So wait the sympathy
Speaker 1: pussy that you were getting, was it girls who already
Speaker 1: had sex with girls are sex with girls that dubbed
Speaker 1: me before. But I wanted to see what it was about.
Speaker 1: Huh they thought it changed, Like I hear the way
Speaker 1: this question is, you know the whole lot, You still
Speaker 1: know what you're doing, And I'm like, what should be
Speaker 1: confusing to the after? Then it's like, yeah, you do
Speaker 1: know what you're doing. Stef pussy is not confusing though.
Speaker 1: All you gotta do is the legs. That's it. But
Speaker 1: I'm not but a new pussy the same anatomy brow
Speaker 1: pussy be kind of different because I now it ain't hard.
Speaker 1: I'd be hesitating. You can't see that ship, so it's
Speaker 1: not like you don't know what the got bumped on
Speaker 1: there was Oh my god, didn't be nervous. It's your
Speaker 1: sense of smell like crazy now, yeah, the touching taste,
Speaker 1: but like with pussy specifically, yeah, I could definitely smell
Speaker 1: it if it ain't something guy ain't doing it, Damn
Speaker 1: I keep spell us. Yeah, and I'm nervous. Was just look, look,
Speaker 1: we just said the way the way we were sweating
Speaker 1: last show, just white took some wet white, some unarmed,
Speaker 1: so it was a little much. I do want to
Speaker 1: start with some icebreakers, and one of the first ones
Speaker 1: you almost told me saying wait till that was not
Speaker 1: an icebreaker, bro. Hell no, that's how we jumped out
Speaker 1: the gate. How long you've been listening to our shows?
Speaker 1: You know, for a long time. Stay in the house
Speaker 1: and just listen. So my first icebreaker question for you
Speaker 1: is what do you think we look like? Tell me this,
Speaker 1: I think you slim a caramel color. You're giving her
Speaker 1: way too much melon at bit slim carmel color. I
Speaker 1: like a little booty, very little accurate. It's a medium, Mandy.
Speaker 1: I say, carmel kind of showing thick, kind of short
Speaker 1: and think he had that right. Huh. Well, the anything
Speaker 1: I'll tell you, I think that really might help you
Speaker 1: think about what I look like. We always kind of
Speaker 1: have the same Like I wear braids a lot. I
Speaker 1: realized that how podcast. Listen to the podcast, I'll be
Speaker 1: talking about them. You said there and said, braids is you?
Speaker 1: That's true? Mandy? Who knows what? Nobody knows what? I'm
Speaker 1: a look like when I come in, I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: hold Sometimes you got a wig, sometimes you got short.
Speaker 1: Oh that's right, I was talking about that different. See,
Speaker 1: he'd be listening. Ladies. You may just need a block
Speaker 1: because they listen. Damn, you you're a good true Do
Speaker 1: you notice that with yourself? Do you feel like you're
Speaker 1: like paying extra attention? I feel like way more attention now. Damn,
Speaker 1: probably sniggers and lies all the time. Didn't you tell
Speaker 1: me that all the time. That ship was two years ago.
Speaker 1: I still remember what you said all the way. That's crazy,
Speaker 1: like you can't write it down or you can't see
Speaker 1: it to keep going over it. You play that in
Speaker 1: your head over time. Yeah. I um. When we did
Speaker 1: our console, I've been leaving people notes like written, and
Speaker 1: I was like, well, let me do this different with
Speaker 1: you know, and I did a voice note so that
Speaker 1: he listened to it. And I was thinking to myself, like,
Speaker 1: how annoying is this gonna be if he got played? Nah,
Speaker 1: listen to it like times. Really they don't get annoying.
Speaker 1: It's like a talking book. Honestly, I'm I'm really excited
Speaker 1: to listen to your podcast because it's so interesting to me,
Speaker 1: you know, like we were just saying when we spoke,
Speaker 1: like you don't really meet a lot of blind people.
Speaker 1: Maybe you'll come across them, but like, how many conversationally
Speaker 1: do we have? Never even befo I went blind. I
Speaker 1: really did see a lot of a lot of people. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And I mean it's just just it's different. So you
Speaker 1: don't you don't meet more people now that you're blind. Na,
Speaker 1: you don't like when you get a pt cruiser than
Speaker 1: all you notice is it's not It's not like that
Speaker 1: would be until like hearing I went to some blind
Speaker 1: incot management that it was just straight blind people in there.
Speaker 1: It was just like you didn't like No, I finished
Speaker 1: the class. I had no choice. Why are you and
Speaker 1: my cousin was not playing that? Yeah you want to
Speaker 1: bug out, let's go. How long did it take you
Speaker 1: to stop being angry? The first six years? I was angry? Wow?
Speaker 1: First six years? Every night? And then you do something
Speaker 1: I don't like. I would snap ship is like, treat
Speaker 1: me like I'm I'm regular, So don't tippy toe around me,
Speaker 1: don't lie, keep it round because I'm angry. I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna beat you up. I'm gonna just distance myself from you.
Speaker 1: What's crazy is everyone that I think we've even interviewed
Speaker 1: that has some form of a disability that's been like
Speaker 1: their number one request, treat me like you would anybody
Speaker 1: the funk else. So that's why we talking that you
Speaker 1: are here with I had niggas wearing that little hoodie
Speaker 1: back and you know what I mean. And CJ don't
Speaker 1: have fights. My mother still cursed me out. Ain't any
Speaker 1: changed good? So CJ, treat your brother who's your eyes?
Speaker 1: Pretty much? Right? Yeah? That's so let's talk about when
Speaker 1: you meet somebody, do you give c J all the
Speaker 1: credit to tell you he straight up a dad tell me.
Speaker 1: Sometimes it depends if I'm drunk, I don't care. I
Speaker 1: mean I don't care. Sometimes I don't care. I can't see.
Speaker 1: Did you ever watch the movie Shallow Hell? So it's
Speaker 1: a movie. Yeah, yeah, I seen that they in his
Speaker 1: eye they look skinny, but really they have you said
Speaker 1: it all? Yeah? Okay, but don't you feel like that's
Speaker 1: like a blessing that disguise that some Yeah, but then
Speaker 1: sometimes it'd be like NI, your friend b what you're doing, bro?
Speaker 1: And I'm like, what what I'm doing? To me and
Speaker 1: they don't got no face too. I can't see the ship, bro,
Speaker 1: I can't see the shape but my right here? He
Speaker 1: like not can't let you go out like that? Bro? No,
Speaker 1: that's no now that can let you go out? Like?
Speaker 1: What did you say? You ain't never met a real
Speaker 1: funny bitch? I did? I met all different type of
Speaker 1: girls being block. So that's interesting because I wonder if
Speaker 1: that's are ego, Like do you think that knowing not
Speaker 1: even being able to see that someone's attractive knowing they're
Speaker 1: attractive weighs that much? Mm hmmm. I can said you
Speaker 1: probably like a personal Yeah. Do you feel like you've
Speaker 1: been having more intellectual conversations women like you've been getting
Speaker 1: closer to them? I ain't someone mat straight dub after
Speaker 1: the two weeks? Where are you dubbing bitches? And tell
Speaker 1: me when you hit me with that? Send me a cat?
Speaker 1: What cash apps? I can't do, cass. I like that
Speaker 1: they don't treat you different, like what you got money?
Speaker 1: You ain't getting settlement to be different. They come to
Speaker 1: me like they had talked like money. What I'll be
Speaker 1: right back? I spent off his over. Do you find
Speaker 1: it like when dating though, like, what's just something common
Speaker 1: that happens with women. Do you think that you become
Speaker 1: almost like a fetish Do you feel like girls want
Speaker 1: to know what it's like to somebody blind because you like,
Speaker 1: you know, I had a couple of girls that yeah
Speaker 1: I ran into that was like that. But it was like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 1: you're definitely like I see you more into it. You're
Speaker 1: us your hands more. It's passion but it's really like,
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be passionate with you. You just
Speaker 1: need to do this stuff. Just get it off and
Speaker 1: I'm out. Have you ever had like a threesome or
Speaker 1: sex with yes before? Have you had it before you
Speaker 1: were blind? After after but he can't all the put
Speaker 1: like they just don't need to talk to this man
Speaker 1: like he blind anymore. He gave let's just talk about
Speaker 1: because I'm be read at you. Like for me in
Speaker 1: a threesome, there's a lot of ship you gotta watch
Speaker 1: out for, like his legs flying and ship like you're
Speaker 1: telling you after that, I can have a foot hit
Speaker 1: me in the face. You can't complain after that. I
Speaker 1: also want to know, out of the two of us,
Speaker 1: you've been listening for you said it basically since we
Speaker 1: started right, So what guess did you think was the
Speaker 1: sexiest based on listening? Oh, I ain't gonna live after
Speaker 1: last week? What's that? The pussy poet? Poet? This is different?
Speaker 1: Right here? She was talking some ship that should make like,
Speaker 1: close your eyes you can imagine everything. Yeah, she did
Speaker 1: a really good story. She did. I can see liking
Speaker 1: if I just had to listen to her. Yeah, just
Speaker 1: a voice. She does have a good voice, because switch
Speaker 1: it up. It's just different, even still different. You can
Speaker 1: see it better even though I can't see. I still
Speaker 1: close my eyes division Maybe no, I didn't that you
Speaker 1: feel like when my eyes open, I really don't see it.
Speaker 1: Now we were talking about one of the segments for
Speaker 1: your show. We could maybe make um dumb questions. I
Speaker 1: don't know if you still want to do that, but
Speaker 1: let's ask Chris. Sorry, see know some dumb dumb ship.
Speaker 1: One of the things you said you felt like was
Speaker 1: dumb that people ask you is are you really blind?
Speaker 1: But I think really what they want to know the
Speaker 1: hand in front of my face. No, it's like I think,
Speaker 1: really that question is more so, how blind are you?
Speaker 1: So when you're seeing? What are you seeing? Like? I
Speaker 1: know when I close my eyes, like it's like spotty okay,
Speaker 1: light and shadow, light and shadow like a brightness? Is it? Like?
Speaker 1: So you should see weezy because she bright? Right. I
Speaker 1: just want to let you know. You know, you could
Speaker 1: ask the j later. I am the darker one now
Speaker 1: I'm real time times, you know, in this crucial time
Speaker 1: or when you know we both crucial time. I win up,
Speaker 1: they might be like is she or ain't she until
Speaker 1: they see our edges. Um. Yeah, so you're seeing shadows
Speaker 1: and lights. Um. So does that mean when someone's in
Speaker 1: front of you, you know they're approaching from just that
Speaker 1: movement of a shadow or from the perching when the
Speaker 1: perching approaching. I could feel it. So it's like my
Speaker 1: ass closed. I mean somebody getting close. Yeah, so I
Speaker 1: can feel with somebody walking on the side of me.
Speaker 1: You can't creep on me. I hear it. Do you
Speaker 1: think you always? I feel like we all kind of
Speaker 1: I'm about to say that my panting house has been
Speaker 1: a bit can't ship, but I hear about to come out.
Speaker 1: Now you can when you want the dog. It's even
Speaker 1: more stronger. Yes, you can't creep because I feel you're
Speaker 1: coming from a Crystal Street. Yeah, and I heard people
Speaker 1: like you know what you're talking to him? Like, bro,
Speaker 1: I know who he was before you walked up on me.
Speaker 1: Think looking at your phone, I don't know nobody touched
Speaker 1: my phone. Still he's still a nigga. I don't like
Speaker 1: that my phone sleep under me, like my phone because
Speaker 1: like I can't go through your phone and said, are
Speaker 1: you going through my facts? That's really true? And less
Speaker 1: we called my brother in the room and he told me,
Speaker 1: with whatever you'd be doing for him, I need you
Speaker 1: to stop. They still ain't gonna be ship now. I
Speaker 1: haven't seen it all, Like I didn't see I'm nade
Speaker 1: on the girl lap and I'm like, what you're doing?
Speaker 1: Not on Facebook? But same, just like no, I know
Speaker 1: she's not. I snatched it and I'm like gonna said,
Speaker 1: we re message to a whole nigger. So it was
Speaker 1: like what then you sorry? Sorry? What you got caught
Speaker 1: by block? Honestly, that's really fucked up. I'm off this
Speaker 1: called yo, bro, come pick me up. Bro, that's just
Speaker 1: two things out there just dropped you off. You want
Speaker 1: us to beat her up? Now? She cool? Because that
Speaker 1: bit tried it so with the phone like using your phone,
Speaker 1: You've got social media, you have shipped like that, You're
Speaker 1: talking to Serie the whole time. What about when you
Speaker 1: want to say something nasty, because I'm sure this moment
Speaker 1: respond to it. You don't need voice now. So I
Speaker 1: feel like I couldn't tell Sirie. I called that whole
Speaker 1: a bit and she was like, I'm sorry, I don't
Speaker 1: like that language. Serie, SERI what saying? So you said, yeah,
Speaker 1: she would I think pronounce She's definitely pronounced nigga. Really
Speaker 1: does she better try c J? Can you like, I'm
Speaker 1: in the text or maybe you could text him first
Speaker 1: of all while we're getting vanilla ship, but I want
Speaker 1: you to text him some wild ship. You text his
Speaker 1: phone and once we're going through the vanilla ship, Tex
Speaker 1: texting wild should be like you want to come over
Speaker 1: night and out this. She's really gonna say it too,
Speaker 1: but oh no, no, I like, damn nigga. All right,
Speaker 1: while he's tiping that up, we're gonna get to our
Speaker 1: vanilla ship. This one's from the cut this week. This
Speaker 1: one I thought was really interesting, just to spark some
Speaker 1: comment with us France, the country is finally setting on
Speaker 1: an age of consent and The age they're choosing is
Speaker 1: to better protect children against sexual abuse, and they're setting
Speaker 1: an age of consent to fifteen years old. Um, basically,
Speaker 1: there wasn't an age, so fifteen is frankly what they
Speaker 1: find to be a good age of consent. Um they
Speaker 1: don't currently have one, like I said, so there really
Speaker 1: wasn't anything they can do, but they basically now can
Speaker 1: criminalize sexual relations with a minder who are under fifteen.
Speaker 1: And I wanted to ask y'all what you think of
Speaker 1: I think the beteen is weird and I still can't
Speaker 1: look at no. Yeah, and also like even even going
Speaker 1: back to just conversations that we've had when we were
Speaker 1: having uh sex, even at sixteen, seventeen or eighteen, I
Speaker 1: still feel like there were decisions that were made that
Speaker 1: we're made only because you just were young. You didn't know,
Speaker 1: and I do think that there were men that took
Speaker 1: advantage of the naivety of being that young as well. Like,
Speaker 1: so I don't know fifteen to me, however, if you
Speaker 1: look back on like again, because sex is nothing new
Speaker 1: back in the olden times, you would get married and
Speaker 1: wet off at twelve or type of But see, I
Speaker 1: think fifteen isn't bad if it's kids having like to
Speaker 1: get like if they're working around together, Like if you're
Speaker 1: both to you know, freshman in high school and y'all
Speaker 1: start sucking, Like what what? What can you really do?
Speaker 1: How can you stop that? Yeah? But to be fair
Speaker 1: as as women, as girls, even society, like you go
Speaker 1: after the older guys so to be like when we
Speaker 1: were in high school, we were dealing with older guys.
Speaker 1: And it's funny because I just had this conversation too,
Speaker 1: and it made me look at it weird. Even club scenes,
Speaker 1: you could be eighteen enough for women in the club,
Speaker 1: but the men had to be twenty one enough. They're
Speaker 1: literally like these overdrawn like instances where they almost push
Speaker 1: women to be with older menen the idea that we
Speaker 1: mature quicker, Like it's all fucking fluff, because there's still
Speaker 1: in terms of conversation and one needs to be had
Speaker 1: with sex. No, no, we're not ready. We just talked
Speaker 1: about a couple of weeks ago how even women don't
Speaker 1: talk about their periods enough, and and the health surrounding
Speaker 1: women and STDs and all that. It's not talked about enough.
Speaker 1: So not fifteen. To me, it's crazy, Chris, when you
Speaker 1: were working in the clubs and I know you still
Speaker 1: do parties, Like, did you ever find that like girls
Speaker 1: were like hella fucking young? Did you ever have sneaking
Speaker 1: in where? I know where were your parties that Brooklyn, Manhattan?
Speaker 1: You pay the bouncer you getting in? Yeah, so it
Speaker 1: doesn't matter. Did you think that did you find it
Speaker 1: was mostly the women paying the bouncer? Are like the
Speaker 1: dudes that brought him mostly to women. They they like
Speaker 1: three of them. That's twenty one. But you got the
Speaker 1: tool that's not on my birthday next week. But I
Speaker 1: left my d home. You got to do a show,
Speaker 1: get a bounce of you ain't he don't care. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's twenty the deal. I feel like they definitely charged
Speaker 1: a little bit more than that. We never got away
Speaker 1: with it. No, I didn't tell you real quick what
Speaker 1: they did because they did this a lot to you, bro.
Speaker 1: They did it in Orlando, m Miam because I don't
Speaker 1: have a good liar phase. She doesn't that nigga. We
Speaker 1: went to the club one time and we shouldn't have
Speaker 1: been there. We did have school the next morning. This
Speaker 1: nigga broke her idea and half gave it back to
Speaker 1: her and said you got school in the morning, you
Speaker 1: should go home. And I was like, damn bitch. She
Speaker 1: was like, don't worry. I know the owner of this.
Speaker 1: So we we did. It was like what Vincent. It
Speaker 1: started with bro you you was yeah. And then let
Speaker 1: me also tell you. We drove all the way to
Speaker 1: Fort Lottadale to go to Cheatah's one toime Andy to
Speaker 1: tell them we was like sixteen seventeen club. Yeah, Cheetahs
Speaker 1: is like everywhere, It's like a franchise. We went all
Speaker 1: the way to four a lot of deal to go
Speaker 1: to Cheetah's and they looked at this one. She always
Speaker 1: sucked us up. They looked at Wesi was like mm hmmm,
Speaker 1: this ain't huh. She not. We can't let her in.
Speaker 1: So then we had to drive another four to five
Speaker 1: minutes to Miami to go to the Cheetahs in Miami
Speaker 1: and somehow they let us in there. But I think
Speaker 1: we were at West Pam for the first and then okay,
Speaker 1: yeah either way, just act like I was back then.
Speaker 1: But let me tell you really how I got away
Speaker 1: with some ship. So so you know, I was in Hawaii,
Speaker 1: um this past week and while I was there. I
Speaker 1: don't know if you've heard, but I don't have a license.
Speaker 1: But my nigga, she now I got her confidence, you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And just like the New York
Speaker 1: I d it looked just like the New York license.
Speaker 1: And I was thinking to myself, I'm really gonna get
Speaker 1: this hooper? Am I gonna get a mother fucking convertible?
Speaker 1: So I went right up to the budget counter and
Speaker 1: I was like, look, I don't have a lot of time.
Speaker 1: I just need we got to work quick, so please
Speaker 1: just get me a deal. Here's my stuff, here's my
Speaker 1: credit card, Like I was trying to put more focus
Speaker 1: on the car. And then nigga didn't even see the ship.
Speaker 1: So now if I could have been in my body,
Speaker 1: then bitch, we would have been in all thee That's
Speaker 1: what you got to do when you talk like you
Speaker 1: all get on the phone giving them the I D
Speaker 1: like I used to do what I used to be
Speaker 1: eight nineteen kidding. Can't get in the clothes with anybody else.
Speaker 1: They do past me day back up, I dam act
Speaker 1: like I'm on the phone arguing that's really smart. They
Speaker 1: just go ahead after while, you see me every week
Speaker 1: you like. Now you're good. Just let me search your
Speaker 1: glad going, let me search you ship then check out
Speaker 1: I d no more. Wait uh you got it ready?
Speaker 1: Now let's hear this is listen. Mary got to not
Speaker 1: say none of this ship because we know Serie white,
Speaker 1: so she better say in word. Wait wait wait, really
Speaker 1: closer to it. Just put it right up to your
Speaker 1: to the mic read message. CJ sent a new message,
Speaker 1: damn man, and my nigga needs some pussy. Would you
Speaker 1: like to fly? No? No, maybe she's mixed, she said, Dan,
Speaker 1: I am man, and damn that because she'd be saying
Speaker 1: the funniest ship when it's like day. They really said
Speaker 1: the N word, said the words, lady, I really go
Speaker 1: the hell? I don't know I feel and we can't
Speaker 1: talk to Steve So who we talked to about this.
Speaker 1: That's why I said Steven So who we talked to?
Speaker 1: I only know Steve is that who we talked to. Now, okay,
Speaker 1: and Tim Tim clearly Tim Tim. I just feel like
Speaker 1: you guys have been making You've been making a lot
Speaker 1: of white phones. Let's be honest, different colors. I don't
Speaker 1: really understand. What I do know is the bitch I
Speaker 1: need a face to sif they got a dope interview
Speaker 1: with Sirie the voice behind Sirie where she says, I
Speaker 1: guess they asked her something like I could be misquoting it,
Speaker 1: but they're like some of the things you say, it
Speaker 1: sounds like you're being me. And she was like, I
Speaker 1: was really tired of recording. We were doing it all day.
Speaker 1: It's like a voiceover. She's like some of them may
Speaker 1: who came off like that because she's like, we had
Speaker 1: eight hour days because there's a lot of shows. She
Speaker 1: was saying, we're like, okay, well, all right, that right,
Speaker 1: if it's been done. I wonder have you ever thought
Speaker 1: about changing your series m accent nine you one time
Speaker 1: they had a man voice. I at the man voice
Speaker 1: manfore in the morning. If you're not doing that, you're
Speaker 1: too close to it, all right? For our Jamaican accents
Speaker 1: on the GPS literally like that's that's back when, like
Speaker 1: our phones didn't have all of the things that asked
Speaker 1: now and you had to buy a GPS to tell
Speaker 1: you where to go. Yeah, man, I'm just driving. They
Speaker 1: did offer me a GPS with my non license. Having asked,
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm cool and um, here's our horror derb.
Speaker 1: So this one is interesting, is fun because I've never
Speaker 1: even heard of this ship. Really, try a nipple toy
Speaker 1: that isn't just a nipple clamp. No shade to the clamps,
Speaker 1: but there are tons of toys. Pause ice cubes. That's
Speaker 1: the only thing I can think of that goes on
Speaker 1: nipples for nipple play besides the nipple clamp. And see
Speaker 1: note what what could you think of before you go
Speaker 1: through the list? What could you think of it as
Speaker 1: something to play with your nipples besides the nipple clay?
Speaker 1: I used fruit? Yeah, I use fruit, like my mouth
Speaker 1: fruit maybe like a chocolate or some ship you can
Speaker 1: lick it off. I can see that food. Not fruit.
Speaker 1: What fruit you're gonna put on the nipples? You though
Speaker 1: you put the peach in your mouth? Your mouth waited?
Speaker 1: Could you think of something for for nipples other than
Speaker 1: a nipple clown? Gotta go bro? Alright, nigked what look
Speaker 1: you to and you attach it to the nipple? Alright,
Speaker 1: y'all are really this is random? But do you watch porn?
Speaker 1: And if so, what like does he watch port? Well,
Speaker 1: he says he's been saying, yeah, but like, what kind
Speaker 1: of like ship do you need now do you have
Speaker 1: like certain because it sounds so like what do you
Speaker 1: find yourself typing in because you're not visually Like, sorry,
Speaker 1: I was looking at you. You look up you look
Speaker 1: up his porn for him? Oh no, I mean you right,
Speaker 1: So you're watching porn still, so listen to it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so like what do you need to see? Like I
Speaker 1: mean what, sorry, you know what I'm saying. I just
Speaker 1: type in loud Cherokee because you remember he just still
Speaker 1: Just that's the visualization because you know their voices. Even
Speaker 1: you hit it, you hit them the climate hit that
Speaker 1: you need to glas. That's mad funny to me. So
Speaker 1: like even I don't like that this bitch like that
Speaker 1: Megan it Starue. So I'm like, Dan, this ship remind
Speaker 1: me of you know, you would love me if you
Speaker 1: like Cherokee mag Way fun of me. She's like, you
Speaker 1: know one of the things I said about her recently,
Speaker 1: So a lot of like you, of the girls that
Speaker 1: we've seen on Instagram and ship like that today just
Speaker 1: have such fake looking bodies. Not that they're not good,
Speaker 1: but they're just too perfect. Like Meg don't have like
Speaker 1: a but she just got a little bit like it's
Speaker 1: not a board flat stomach, which makes me feel like,
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, she looks like she saw you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. I think that ship is like super important.
Speaker 1: Um so what is the nipple toys? Nipple suction toys,
Speaker 1: nipple liquors, vibrators for nipples? Okay? Really now I could
Speaker 1: see that maybe like a cockering like on your nipple picture,
Speaker 1: like you just wrap it around right, wrapping around, No,
Speaker 1: you wrapping around like a little suction tongue. And it
Speaker 1: liked it pretty much go up and down. Well, I
Speaker 1: got that like my towels in the bathroom. Basically that
Speaker 1: has like a little cup and then I hang this
Speaker 1: towel on the cup so I could just take it
Speaker 1: off and use it as a nipple thing, you know,
Speaker 1: anything to save a little cash. And then it says
Speaker 1: you could use massage, oil or lube, but the cup.
Speaker 1: I am not mad at that ship dog like I
Speaker 1: would use a suction cup. So we don't have a
Speaker 1: black s excellence today. But I did want to honor
Speaker 1: Michael B. The Jordan's Umil. Valentine's Day was a few
Speaker 1: weeks ago. Yeah, he paraded around a black woman because
Speaker 1: we said that he date white women. But this I
Speaker 1: set down those white women so fabulously. I'm only bringing
Speaker 1: this up because I want to know a sea over two.
Speaker 1: So Michael B. Jordan's he rented out an aquarium and
Speaker 1: then eight then ate seafood. That is awful people in
Speaker 1: front of day cousins. Ro That is trifling if you
Speaker 1: really think about it. But is it bit because I'm
Speaker 1: telling you, like bro, you eat a seafood many so
Speaker 1: you'll never go get seafood by the water when you
Speaker 1: at the beach. But I can't see the fish. The
Speaker 1: fish is looking at me eat din. But you know,
Speaker 1: thinking Michael B Jordan, Rachel I probably got you know,
Speaker 1: some nice big sharks and shade. He probably has shrimp brands.
Speaker 1: You know. Nah, we gotta make him the Black sex
Speaker 1: List because I know that every like every time I
Speaker 1: see a picture of them, they look good as and
Speaker 1: he got his bitch stocks, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So if you could have an unlimited amount of money,
Speaker 1: because that's really what this nigga got, even though he's attractive,
Speaker 1: it's really the money for me, what would you do?
Speaker 1: What would be your Valentine surprise? Like? What do you
Speaker 1: think of how you go all out, but depends along
Speaker 1: on widow. How long you gotta like start? Men definitely
Speaker 1: care about that it's about, but it's might depend how
Speaker 1: bad bitches too, definitely don't. It don't matter to him? Definitely.
Speaker 1: I can't see this right. What's one who's one of
Speaker 1: the most two or three months and it's like I'm
Speaker 1: buying you stock and all that. Now I'm not doing that,
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. But you but we ain't got
Speaker 1: We can't talk like that because we ain't got unlimited money. Dog,
Speaker 1: even if I do got it, I'm still not doing it.
Speaker 1: You sing you what's the most guy? Lorie Harvey and
Speaker 1: Michael b Jord. She just finished the Future? How do
Speaker 1: you know that he likes? He like he'd be like,
Speaker 1: hey man, what's going on on the shade wrong? Listen
Speaker 1: to the Breakfast Club every morning. Breakfast Club is some
Speaker 1: great report, Angelie. Let you know what's going on. I
Speaker 1: ain't mad. I'm not doing that. Okay, how much money
Speaker 1: I got? Now? You gotta work for this, honest, you
Speaker 1: know you ain't seeing it doesn't matter. Who's the baddest
Speaker 1: bitch that you've ever seen? Train Lisa Ray Lisa Ray
Speaker 1: is definitely OK. Yeah, I'm like Triana is still a
Speaker 1: bad bit she is. I've seen a couple. I had
Speaker 1: a couple that do means ship. Though I work all
Speaker 1: for this. He was not running me when I was
Speaker 1: playing Get Them too Much Stocks two days stocks, you're tripping.
Speaker 1: I'm just saying you wasn't with me in Black Panda.
Speaker 1: I work on for that black pan to work with
Speaker 1: getting that money that easy. Um, I want to get
Speaker 1: into the horrible decisions and start just like from the beginning.
Speaker 1: So you said your son was one. I don't know
Speaker 1: why I thought you hadn't seen your son. But tell us,
Speaker 1: like about your baby mother and how your relationship change
Speaker 1: when you became blind, like the one cool she didn't
Speaker 1: switch up on me when I got shot. She did,
Speaker 1: That's great? She still was? She still there to this today?
Speaker 1: Did you guys? Were you guys together when you got shot?
Speaker 1: He was together? But that always changed it. Oh, so
Speaker 1: many girls come to the hospital. That's my boyfriend. I
Speaker 1: don't know if like girls like to make bitch of
Speaker 1: work reason or clean when they're getting jailed that they
Speaker 1: I don't know what they get out of this ship.
Speaker 1: But mad girls come this and just say you were cheating.
Speaker 1: You're putting this on women, not even that offbituaries or whatever.
Speaker 1: But they they were showing up to my hospital bit
Speaker 1: of night. Did you telling me it was girl that
Speaker 1: was dubbing me a little bit? I'm in the hospital
Speaker 1: bad because people love people once they're down there, they
Speaker 1: love to attach themselves to you. So getting all attention
Speaker 1: from the family, I'm I woke up on a perk.
Speaker 1: My mother like, that's s such. I'm like, who that?
Speaker 1: She said, something'ing like, okay, it was a girl I
Speaker 1: was talking to one tag never met in my life.
Speaker 1: You don't know about bad bitch. I used to be
Speaker 1: on that like back in the day with like manday
Speaker 1: and black planning. I was only a man. It was tagged.
Speaker 1: So my sister, I'm like, who that? She said, Oh,
Speaker 1: that's like ethnic from where she like she said a
Speaker 1: tag like I've never met her before. From now. I'm like, yo,
Speaker 1: tell my mother, yea. They got to take them to
Speaker 1: security because I don't know shot and people just coming
Speaker 1: up here random. You don't know that, you only ten,
Speaker 1: you don't know them. Don't let him in here. She
Speaker 1: was like, I My sister like I got you. I'm
Speaker 1: like tied to you know, what's up my little sister,
Speaker 1: you know who Who's who dubbed it. She's like, I
Speaker 1: ain't cool with with your son, like you know. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm sure that a lot of that made you angry,
Speaker 1: But like, what do you feel like you're better at
Speaker 1: as a dad now that you can't see? Mm hmmm,
Speaker 1: I feel like I ain't bad at nothing because I
Speaker 1: was doing the same thing when, Yeah, I could see
Speaker 1: just more like I'm more hands on with him now. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like I spend more time with him now. Before I
Speaker 1: was running in the clubs, I was doing it all,
Speaker 1: coming in at night. Yeah. Now I could skip the club,
Speaker 1: chilling the house with my son. But you could skip
Speaker 1: the club because of COVID, sir, Now, definitely. But before
Speaker 1: when you were going to the club, I know your
Speaker 1: your your brother is here with you and you said
Speaker 1: he's your eyes. But you're nineteen, right, so when you
Speaker 1: was going to the club, you couldn't take your brother
Speaker 1: like you mean, you go to you only like blond
Speaker 1: I need him to go. You ain't gonna drink nothing
Speaker 1: up now to the door. He'd be teed up in
Speaker 1: the club more than me when someone come to the dog,
Speaker 1: I see no, yeah, go through y'all good. I feel
Speaker 1: like you wouldn't let anybody in. Who's when somebody's lying? No,
Speaker 1: not even this is where the money come in. Like
Speaker 1: that's money right there. You're not gonna stop money from
Speaker 1: coming into the club. That a man what you need?
Speaker 1: All right? I could go outside and get somebody and
Speaker 1: bring him and that's money. Yeah. The club only go
Speaker 1: like whatever he say goes. He paying this bill to night.
Speaker 1: There were buying the bottles like crazy when you first
Speaker 1: when I first got your shot, Yeah, I stayed out
Speaker 1: the club for a minute. Then I went to the club.
Speaker 1: Then it was like, yo, bro, come over, dance on
Speaker 1: this one. Dance on this one. I say, Bro, I'm
Speaker 1: not a charity cage. Then it's like girls rubbing on
Speaker 1: your face and all that, like damn, Like I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: what are you telling these girls? Bro? We're in the
Speaker 1: club to strip it Like, yeah, you mind if I
Speaker 1: put my asking your face, I'm like, where the fund
Speaker 1: did this come from? He's gonna whispen mine now, I
Speaker 1: told you blind bro, that's sympathy. Hold it down. Stop.
Speaker 1: So I want to talk about something controversial in my opinion.
Speaker 1: We were talking about dating apps and you were talking
Speaker 1: about how CJ helps you and I you said that
Speaker 1: there's been times where you don't tell them you're blind, Like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't why, Yeah, I don't know about that. No,
Speaker 1: it's like, get to know who I am before you
Speaker 1: found out when I'm blind. How long do you take
Speaker 1: normally when when online dating do you take? Well? How
Speaker 1: long do you take normally before you meet someone? Like?
Speaker 1: How long are you talking to them before you meet
Speaker 1: them first? I well, on Facebook, it would be until
Speaker 1: we meet up with each other, until we're about to
Speaker 1: meet up, and I'm like, yo, let you know I'm blind.
Speaker 1: By then you don't have a conversation on the phone
Speaker 1: with me, you don't text, you don't said nasty ship.
Speaker 1: So it's no turning back now. If you turn them back,
Speaker 1: then I'm definitely gonna put you on blast. I'm a
Speaker 1: screenshot it and I'm gonna put that up on Facebook.
Speaker 1: You're gonna do what, screenshot what you said and put
Speaker 1: that on Facebook. You're not about to not be doing that.
Speaker 1: You ain't gonna be screenshot I said, you're talking nasty,
Speaker 1: But the whole change your heart. I'm gonna put that
Speaker 1: on Facebook. This is what this is what she's about.
Speaker 1: She's not real m M. Okay, so what if they
Speaker 1: feel like you're not being real? Right? That's like okay,
Speaker 1: So I don't know if you uh, there was a
Speaker 1: there was a show on on Netflix, Love is Blind, ironically,
Speaker 1: and they were meeting they had never met, and there
Speaker 1: was someone on there who was bisexual. Now this goes
Speaker 1: with with sexuality, but he was held this for I
Speaker 1: don't know the first couple of weeks that they were
Speaker 1: that they were dating, that they were getting so basically
Speaker 1: they talked through a wall, right, So the person because
Speaker 1: they want to know that you're meeting someone for their
Speaker 1: true self, So you talked through the wall. They're like
Speaker 1: talking for hours and hours and hours, days and days
Speaker 1: and falling in love like that, right, like on some
Speaker 1: party line type ship. So with the guy who was bisexual,
Speaker 1: when he told the girl, she was really upset. He
Speaker 1: got mad at her basically was calling her like a
Speaker 1: homophobe and like that, and it was going, it's like
Speaker 1: we all see both sides of the ship, right, because
Speaker 1: she was like, damn, you could have told you could
Speaker 1: have told me, Like why is this something that you
Speaker 1: would hold for me, like she felt like, love me
Speaker 1: for who you know me as But but shouldn't that
Speaker 1: be everything about you? Like I'm not gonna lie even
Speaker 1: when when I was dating the fact that I used
Speaker 1: to withhold this podcast, They're like, it's unfair because I
Speaker 1: feel like I'm telling you everything about me, but one
Speaker 1: of the biggest parts about me I'm not sharing with you.
Speaker 1: And you may have a problem with the fact that
Speaker 1: I talked about sucking dick online. I think it depends
Speaker 1: how long. I mean, you know all of it. But
Speaker 1: but but but I think that that's how long you're
Speaker 1: talking to Yeah, but I say that to say no,
Speaker 1: because if I'm what, if I am talking to you
Speaker 1: day in and day out, I'm giving you this time,
Speaker 1: these hours and a part of you that you're just
Speaker 1: not sharing with me. You're withholding now to be very
Speaker 1: honest moving forward, I know you may feel like there's
Speaker 1: a change of heart, but now I also may not
Speaker 1: know what more you're withholding. If you're a liar, if
Speaker 1: you're not like so, I think that there is a
Speaker 1: thing with telling people who you are, and that is
Speaker 1: a big part of you. You know what I mean,
Speaker 1: it's like maybe they're not comfortable turning right off the
Speaker 1: gate because it's I had situations where girl sitting on
Speaker 1: my lap, they're talking, Oh they see no about it.
Speaker 1: They drank it this down the third and when I
Speaker 1: get up, oh, he drunk, Like no, I can't see.
Speaker 1: Then it's like you went from bouncing on my lap
Speaker 1: till you want to be my best friend. We're not
Speaker 1: doing that, shorty, because there it's like, don't have sympathy
Speaker 1: for me to your best friend not not being doing that.
Speaker 1: What do you think is the biggest challenge that you
Speaker 1: would want women to know that they don't have to
Speaker 1: worry about because you're blind. Do you feel like people
Speaker 1: should You don't gotta do not for me? I do
Speaker 1: it on my own. Yeah. So it's like if you
Speaker 1: think I'm I'm looking for you for a hand thought,
Speaker 1: it's definitely not. I'm looking for you for support. I
Speaker 1: got enough of that. I get in cabbage by myself.
Speaker 1: I cook my own food and I washed my own clothes,
Speaker 1: A dressed myself. Girl, Like you need help washing up
Speaker 1: for what? I still not a wash up? Like with that? Yeah,
Speaker 1: Like if now, if you want to get in the
Speaker 1: shower with me. Then that's a different story. But we're
Speaker 1: not doing that. Now. What's like, yeah, do you so
Speaker 1: you go on dates? What's the thing? What's etiquette? And
Speaker 1: I think this is really good for a lot of
Speaker 1: people to know. So, I mean, granted we never had
Speaker 1: somebody blind on or anything like that, but it is
Speaker 1: semi etiquette to being able to ask questions, I think
Speaker 1: and not be rude. How does that work for you? Like?
Speaker 1: What questions are rude to you? That women asking nothing?
Speaker 1: Ask any question? Where I didn't haggers saying tell me
Speaker 1: they the shout commercial when they smelt the pond or
Speaker 1: he jumped about the coma she told me how pussy
Speaker 1: like that said it is, you gotta work for it? Cool?
Speaker 1: We laugh. I'm like, I got a good sister, Yeah,
Speaker 1: so littally ship. I got friends that be like, yo, bro,
Speaker 1: I know you can't see, but come on, you reach
Speaker 1: it too far if you don't ben nicky. He like, yo, bro,
Speaker 1: So I thought you were trying to grab my dick. Bro.
Speaker 1: And I'm like what you all laugh like good? Since
Speaker 1: you My mother jumped on me when she seen me,
Speaker 1: it's no difference. My son hit me and run like, yeah,
Speaker 1: so I love is nothing different when um you're communicating
Speaker 1: at the app. So your brother helps you through that?
Speaker 1: Like how long did it take you to feel comfortable?
Speaker 1: Because I feel like you got to really let yourself
Speaker 1: go to be that vulnerable. People know that I was blind. No,
Speaker 1: just dating. You didn't have him talk through you. Oh
Speaker 1: it was dead. It comfortable And I looked at it
Speaker 1: like when I came home, is like I was still
Speaker 1: trying to be who I was before I got shot,
Speaker 1: before I went blind. Yeah, so I'm still trying to
Speaker 1: live that lifestyle. So it was not it was like
Speaker 1: how she looked she bro hit up. You tell her that.
Speaker 1: Tell her that he was young at the time, so
Speaker 1: he was on something. You're sitting all heart, Bro, I'm
Speaker 1: not doing that. That is he like. Now I'm telling you, Bro,
Speaker 1: you're sending this. It's gonna work. Now, it's gonna work
Speaker 1: for y'all little kids. Me. Bro, I'm gonna ask you.
Speaker 1: I know you're not on the mic so people may
Speaker 1: not hear you, but have you ever lied when he
Speaker 1: or he wanted to say something really mean, he was like,
Speaker 1: not you trip and I can't see this up. No,
Speaker 1: it's coming from my page, but I don't I don't
Speaker 1: say that. I don't say nothing being though, Yeah, if
Speaker 1: you can see, he would have been I don't bite
Speaker 1: my tongue for nobody. And so I'm gonna tell you
Speaker 1: how I fail. Do you like it or not? Let's
Speaker 1: get back back into the sex. What's the best text?
Speaker 1: What's the best thing sexually that's happened to you since
Speaker 1: you've been blind? Like, do you think sex got a
Speaker 1: little bit better? It's more feel into it, like you
Speaker 1: concentrate more on it. Okay, so it's like you could
Speaker 1: really you could really feel everything from the throat, from everything.
Speaker 1: You can see everything before it's like you focusing when
Speaker 1: you can see so much everything. It's so crazy to
Speaker 1: me because there is so much visual simulation in sex
Speaker 1: with me. Was it like that for you before and
Speaker 1: you had to readjust the way that you even felt
Speaker 1: pleasure or got turned on? Yeah? Before he was like
Speaker 1: you hit it from the back, you see the as
Speaker 1: more jiggle. You feel like that's the best thing. But
Speaker 1: then now that you can't see it and you actually
Speaker 1: just you're going off a feeling. You feel the tightness,
Speaker 1: you feel every you can feel when she's coming you
Speaker 1: can feel everything. Bro, I feel like I would not
Speaker 1: be a blind n eggs dream like I feel like
Speaker 1: I'm really cute, but like, if it don't clap, what
Speaker 1: am I gonna do? I thought I thought it was
Speaker 1: like that too, but it's definitely not because you appreciate
Speaker 1: it more. Yeah, so you appreciate a little booties more
Speaker 1: now for anybody knows there, anybody knows skinny girls was
Speaker 1: never like my forte but now I don't discriminate they.
Speaker 1: I don't discriminate. But you know what though, I could
Speaker 1: see like even if you was into skinny chicks before,
Speaker 1: how it'd be like nothing? Like I need a little
Speaker 1: more too, baby right, I love my big girls, But
Speaker 1: now I don't discriminate at all. Now, So for for yourself, like, um,
Speaker 1: do you how do you see your life? Do you
Speaker 1: want more kids? Like? Do you want marriage? Do you
Speaker 1: like being single? What do you? What do you want
Speaker 1: for yourself? More kids? I want one more. I don't
Speaker 1: want my son to be by itself. Yeah, marriage, I
Speaker 1: gotta really trust you for that, really really trust you
Speaker 1: for that. You're like, it's not replacing CJ, but you
Speaker 1: the next best thing to see J. Yeah, so I
Speaker 1: really had to trust you for that. Do you ever
Speaker 1: feel I feel like we're getting real doctor feeling deep here,
Speaker 1: But it's cool. I'm not. I'm actually really curious because, um,
Speaker 1: when I met you guys, your brother was here, and
Speaker 1: you'll seem to have such a good relationship. Do you
Speaker 1: ever feel guilty if like c J, how's a girlfriend?
Speaker 1: And he gets busier? Like, how does that mean you
Speaker 1: at all? Because it's always somebody else? They got, anybody
Speaker 1: know my passwords? Anybody know my sign? Comes through your
Speaker 1: tie to check this and it's no problem. That's good.
Speaker 1: My cousin in the crib ship down to my son.
Speaker 1: Don't see they said, I mean send this for me.
Speaker 1: So your ten year old son helps you? What kind
Speaker 1: of stuff? Does he help you with? Everything? Anything but poe.
Speaker 1: I ain't exposing that, even though I was exposed like
Speaker 1: when I was seven to it. Wait, wait, anything but porn.
Speaker 1: You're saying c J types in the porn. We'll see that,
Speaker 1: nah series sexual theory. All right, Before we get out
Speaker 1: of here, we're gonna do our whole mail, and I
Speaker 1: want you to help us through it. For this person's question,
Speaker 1: isn't a question or no? Yes? Uh? No? I think
Speaker 1: it's Oh no, I think it's just a whole whole confession. Okay.
Speaker 1: So um, and it is deep. So I do want
Speaker 1: to give a a trigger warning because specifically to the
Speaker 1: title says I was in Nile about being assaulted. I
Speaker 1: confronted him today. Um, if you guys are interested in
Speaker 1: sending us a homemail, go on over and send it
Speaker 1: to Horrible Decisions at gmail dot com. Uh, you may
Speaker 1: hear your email here on the podcast. Also, just know,
Speaker 1: all of our emails that we read are anonymous, so
Speaker 1: a lot of you guys do say please keep anonymous.
Speaker 1: We will never share your name. Uh. So here we go. Uh,
Speaker 1: what does t W mean? By the way starts with
Speaker 1: t W. I don't know what t W means. I
Speaker 1: feel like I really am old. I don't be knowing
Speaker 1: what the little kids, what t W semicolon t W
Speaker 1: is how it starts. I don't know either. Okay to y'all,
Speaker 1: too horrible, horrible? Maybe okay, damn, Okay. Today I confronted
Speaker 1: someone who sexually assaulted me. I've been sexually assaulted before,
Speaker 1: but this time I stood up for myself. I feel
Speaker 1: so proud of myself and honestly credit this show for
Speaker 1: empowering me to do so. I met up with a
Speaker 1: couple who had done a photo shoot for me and
Speaker 1: wanted to shoot again. I knew they liked to have thirds,
Speaker 1: and they were also well aware of my Polly lifestyle
Speaker 1: and the fact that I'm an online sex worker. The
Speaker 1: second time I went to see them, I arrived late,
Speaker 1: so we decided not to shoot and just hang out.
Speaker 1: We listened to music, smoked, and drank, and I was
Speaker 1: honestly having an amazing time. His girlfriend eventually came onto
Speaker 1: me and we started kissing. He then joined in. At
Speaker 1: that point, I made it clear I was on my
Speaker 1: cycle and didn't want to have sex. Plus, regardless of that,
Speaker 1: I wasn't interested in any penetration. I am simply not
Speaker 1: sleeping with men right now. But I was down to
Speaker 1: watch and mess around. After we started all making out
Speaker 1: and touching, he crossed several boundaries and pinning me down
Speaker 1: multiple times. I remember looking over at redacted multiple times,
Speaker 1: wondering if she thought he was aggressive too, but she
Speaker 1: just watched like she was content with the way things
Speaker 1: were going. He wanted my pants off, but I told
Speaker 1: him I'm on my period, and he said it was okay,
Speaker 1: because he wouldn't penetrate me. He was on top of me,
Speaker 1: grinding on me like he had been when he pulled
Speaker 1: my underweard to the side and penetrated me. I gasped
Speaker 1: and just pushed away. It hurts so much, and I
Speaker 1: put my clothes on and told them I was tired
Speaker 1: because I was drunk and high, and I soon just
Speaker 1: fell asleep in his arms. Truth is, I thought it
Speaker 1: was small, something I shouldn't make a big deal of.
Speaker 1: I was interested in them, after all, and maybe it
Speaker 1: was an accident. I left after I woke up from
Speaker 1: my nap and acted like everything was okay. The next day,
Speaker 1: I was sore and sad, and I tried to engage
Speaker 1: in sex with another partner a few days later and
Speaker 1: found myself crying and uncomfortable because all I could think
Speaker 1: about was this man shoving himself inside of me. I
Speaker 1: didn't want to believe that this small thing could hurt
Speaker 1: me so much, but it did. So today, after a
Speaker 1: couple of weeks, I unblocked him and confronted him. She
Speaker 1: sent what he said, Um, I'm not going to read
Speaker 1: that part because I think that's a little too personal,
Speaker 1: but she did say love you guys, thank you for listening.
Speaker 1: Um and she pretty much wrote him. His response was,
Speaker 1: I sincerely apologized. I appreciate you telling me this. I
Speaker 1: will definitely take that into consideration, and in no way
Speaker 1: disagreeing with you. I hope you enjoy response. I like
Speaker 1: that he said, no way disagreeing with you. But I
Speaker 1: think you know, men sometimes are ice cold when they
Speaker 1: don't realize well, the fact that this has on, like
Speaker 1: the fact that she couldn't even get through another act
Speaker 1: with another partner because she cried, like, there's trauma in this,
Speaker 1: and I do think a lot of men do just
Speaker 1: oh my bad. I know you you should have told me,
Speaker 1: like there's still almost blamed there that a lot of
Speaker 1: men have in response to that. It's sucked up that, uh,
Speaker 1: you know it happens to you. We're obviously all sor
Speaker 1: I'd hear it. But I'm really glad that you shared
Speaker 1: that you realized it after, because a lot of people
Speaker 1: say to women like, well, why do you ain't say
Speaker 1: nothing when it would happened? Well, why if you didn't
Speaker 1: like it, you wouldn't stop? And I think a lot
Speaker 1: of people don't really know what's going on. I mean
Speaker 1: I could even say that for myself. It's it's a weird,
Speaker 1: fucked up thing to say. But I mean, see, know,
Speaker 1: I don't know if you've ever had a moment where
Speaker 1: you were, like, um doing this, I don't really want to,
Speaker 1: but like here I am. It sucks because, like I
Speaker 1: don't know what makes us not say no? Is it
Speaker 1: disappointing the first other person? Is it because we've already
Speaker 1: gone too far and it's like I've wasted their time?
Speaker 1: I think I think a lot of the problem is,
Speaker 1: especially with women, and I talked about this recently to UM,
Speaker 1: just been talking about what's been going on with the
Speaker 1: Tia and tiny allegations. I think that we need to
Speaker 1: normalize um removing ourselves from uncomfortable spaces. So there's this
Speaker 1: constant dialogue with consent right now and saying no. But
Speaker 1: as women, for whatever reason, we do a lot of
Speaker 1: times put our comfortability levels behind because we are pleasers
Speaker 1: and we do understand what it means to uh almost
Speaker 1: stroke the ego of our partners. And I think that
Speaker 1: we even talked about that a couple of weeks ago
Speaker 1: with Tiana, where uh, you know, you just you have
Speaker 1: to be empowered by also not caring about the other
Speaker 1: person if they make you feel uncomfortable, if they don't
Speaker 1: you know, if they do something you don't like being
Speaker 1: able to vocalize that. We talked about that with bad sex,
Speaker 1: someone's not doing something that's enjoyable for you. You have
Speaker 1: to take take away how it's gonna make them feel,
Speaker 1: because it's not making you feel good. Because nobody at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I feel like, wants to
Speaker 1: know after hours of sucking you that you hated it,
Speaker 1: or that you hurt them or not hours sorry, I
Speaker 1: men hours later, because normally we'll text you in the
Speaker 1: morning and it's like, damn, I wish I could have
Speaker 1: fixed it then, right. Yeah. I also think it's very important.
Speaker 1: One of my one of my bits of advices to
Speaker 1: that too, is to have these conversations out of the bedroom.
Speaker 1: Um So, have it at dinner, have it in the
Speaker 1: living room, have it when you're not having fun, and
Speaker 1: just you know, just bring it up, because these types
Speaker 1: of conversations can become tense and uncomfortable, especially if you're
Speaker 1: laying in the bed with somebody. Uh, So, normalize talking
Speaker 1: about sex out of the bedroom. I think that's kind
Speaker 1: of what we do. And I think there is an
Speaker 1: uncomfortable level to it, but I think that it makes
Speaker 1: it that much easier to tell your partner when something
Speaker 1: didn't feel good, or you were uncomfortable, or you weren't right.
Speaker 1: Even in this the screenshot was a d M TAM
Speaker 1: and even that is unfortunate that this level of trauma
Speaker 1: you just experience you had to share and relive and
Speaker 1: explain to this man via an Instagram DM, Like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I I appreciate you for right and men and I
Speaker 1: want everybody elso to you know, check out some check
Speaker 1: out some things online. I know it sounds weird, not
Speaker 1: like a quiz, but like, if you're not really sure
Speaker 1: what's been happening with consent or someone you're sucking with,
Speaker 1: look that ship up. Read a little bit about it,
Speaker 1: because I think there's a lot of blurred lines. And
Speaker 1: we've only been having our quote unquote consent conversation for
Speaker 1: the last few years, even though we've been going on
Speaker 1: for a long time. Like, and I hate when people
Speaker 1: are trivial about the ship, Like, Okay, so if I
Speaker 1: want to kiss somebody, I gotta ask him for consent.
Speaker 1: Dad da da da, Like look, sexual assault in kissing
Speaker 1: me two different things. Yeah, like this is you know
Speaker 1: something that it might sunk hurt for a while. So, um,
Speaker 1: make sure you're letting your partners know, make sure that
Speaker 1: you're keeping in mind, keeping confident, and I know some
Speaker 1: people can't even say no because they're not in the
Speaker 1: safe space. But yeah, man, no, it's no. Even when
Speaker 1: we and like no, I stopped, you're looking at me
Speaker 1: like why you stopped and you said no? I watched
Speaker 1: enough flowing No, like I ain't. I think I ain't
Speaker 1: trying to go down for nothing. I'm well see it
Speaker 1: on a lighter note. You got your pod coming out.
Speaker 1: People can check it out. Um, just tell us the
Speaker 1: name of it and some of the stuff that we
Speaker 1: can expect from your podcast. My podcast called Blind but
Speaker 1: Now See pretty much coming from a perspective of everybody
Speaker 1: been blind once upon in their life and it took
Speaker 1: them time to see the light. And you ain't got
Speaker 1: to be physically blind. You've been in I mean everybody
Speaker 1: pretty much. I look at it like this. Every dark
Speaker 1: room got a light switch, but some people just scared
Speaker 1: to turn that light switch on to see the bread
Speaker 1: of how I break that room could really be? Yeah,
Speaker 1: really and ship. That's exactly in the sense of that like,
Speaker 1: that's exactly you know, he didn't cheating on you, did
Speaker 1: everything in front of you, but you just don't want
Speaker 1: to turn that light on and see it. Man, stop reading.
Speaker 1: It really is like what kind of guests can we
Speaker 1: expect on your show? Uh? First, my first a couple episodes.
Speaker 1: My son gonna be on there, my mother gonna be
Speaker 1: on there pretty much. I'm explain my dark moments and
Speaker 1: how that light came to me. Then we're gonna talk
Speaker 1: from my mother point of view of being the one
Speaker 1: on the side of that bed, her dark moments beyond it.
Speaker 1: My son like the differences you face having a blind father. Me,
Speaker 1: I was more like ancern and more pressure because I'm like, damn,
Speaker 1: my son got like it's farther different from everybody's. But
Speaker 1: it didn't matter to them though, Like I'm on he
Speaker 1: on live and he's like, oh, they were in a
Speaker 1: blind up. He just took the took it off. Me
Speaker 1: was like my father blind. The teacher like, no, you
Speaker 1: know your father now, I've seen your fam with plenty
Speaker 1: of time, and he's like, yes, he is he really blind?
Speaker 1: And she called me, she said, I May said you blind?
Speaker 1: I saw you. I'm blind, so you really blind? Him like, yeah,
Speaker 1: she said, but you don't look like it. I'm like,
Speaker 1: how do a blind person look? What's the hat man
Speaker 1: person look like? We think, y'all, I don't know what
Speaker 1: we think. Stevie, wonder where your glasses at? I ain't glasses.
Speaker 1: What makes you not want to wear glasses? Ain't great?
Speaker 1: That's true. I was that is that a lot of
Speaker 1: people that that be haven't glassed on their eyes is great.
Speaker 1: You know what's funny, it's more of ams. Someone has
Speaker 1: left a comment before this video has been over here,
Speaker 1: like yah, lookin Yeah, we're gonna read them to you.
Speaker 1: I'll leave you another voice on what I'm saying, and
Speaker 1: he's gonna be like, hey, Siris, like, you know, don't
Speaker 1: crise people. It's like there's a question. A lot of
Speaker 1: people just don't understand. I was one of those. I
Speaker 1: see something, Okay, blonde smiling, I'm like, what they're smiling for?
Speaker 1: They don't know what's in front of them. Me, my
Speaker 1: my fob is stepping in, doodle die why stepping dude?
Speaker 1: Don't leave in my sneakers dead? Oh my goodness, that's
Speaker 1: your fear. That's my biggest that's my biggest fit. You
Speaker 1: get it. It must be a god. That's my biggest fit.
Speaker 1: And your biggest fear is stepping in dogs, stepping stepping
Speaker 1: in ships, relying, no dog, you don't wipe it off.
Speaker 1: You know your sneakers you're smelling. I'm leven, my speaker
Speaker 1: really smelling. Okay, that's what he's trying to tell you.
Speaker 1: Stepping ship. I'm leaving that ship there. I'm leaving my
Speaker 1: sneakers there barefoot, well barefoot, just all right. I gotta
Speaker 1: get in the cab and getting the cab barefoot. It
Speaker 1: is what it is. I'm leaving them ships right there.
Speaker 1: We CJ Now he definitely douse. Tell your bro, don't
Speaker 1: please look at the floor. Even with my son he
Speaker 1: talking to me, Is I mad made sure being stepping
Speaker 1: in dood bro? Ye? No. One time he walking to
Speaker 1: the barbershop, he's like, yo, it's mad dude on his block.
Speaker 1: So I woke back here taking a gap, bro, Yeah,
Speaker 1: oh and I gave one. I did give one. Damn. Okay,
Speaker 1: thank you for looking that up. So talking about too horrible,
Speaker 1: too wheezy bitch, like I ain't here this bitch. Trigger warning. Okay, okay,
Speaker 1: go cry. The acronyms be fucking me up. Words already
Speaker 1: sucked me up, but now I gotta figure out. Yo,
Speaker 1: see what the is this? Hen bro? This is this?
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm like, damn, I'm old, like I don't
Speaker 1: want to stand. I saw me like all we had
Speaker 1: to decipher was a slaver. You know, I want to
Speaker 1: do it for facts sake, episode on acronyms and one
Speaker 1: and the only reason what to do it is because
Speaker 1: I looked up the other day po box. You'll know
Speaker 1: what post office box? Yeah? Did you ain't noticed, y'all? Hortie,
Speaker 1: you heard me. I'm over your teacher heard some ship.
Speaker 1: I felt like it was post office pot with all that. No,
Speaker 1: that's too simple like something as long as it ain't science. Alight, y'all,
Speaker 1: Thank you all for listening to another episode. As always,
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Speaker 1: another episode of Horrible Decisions by hold on fruit roll
Speaker 1: ups on the tip of the dick while you suck it. Okay,
Speaker 1: First of all, bitch, whoa whoa whoa whoa? Like you
Speaker 1: know what I'd be thinking about sometimes when people come
Speaker 1: out with tips like this, like I feel like that
Speaker 1: side bitch type of tips, like you gotta do some
Speaker 1: wild out the box ship like you're showing out type ship.
Speaker 1: Like if I get cheated on and I find out
Speaker 1: there was a fruit roll up on his stick, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna be like, I understand because I wasn't gonna do it.
Speaker 1: That is the most insane fucking ship. How old are
Speaker 1: you and where are you even buying fruit roll ups
Speaker 1: from Crystal? Can you please unmute your mic because I
Speaker 1: also have a question um to what comes next? So
Speaker 1: crossoto Crystal with a cave If you can unmut your
Speaker 1: mic and share this roll off. See Crystal like, oh,
Speaker 1: so when we talk about a fruit roll up on dick,
Speaker 1: you don't want to have your video on that's what
Speaker 1: we do that okay? So, uh, you put the penis
Speaker 1: in the back or the microphone. It's a penis microphone.
Speaker 1: You have a penis microphone that is a green screen.
Speaker 1: Can you act like you understand production with your TV?
Speaker 1: You have an asked real damn? So Crystal, here's my
Speaker 1: question because we do talk about pH and we had
Speaker 1: a guests who thought honey on the couci was okay,
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna ask you before that dick gets inserted
Speaker 1: into your vagina, do you wipe it off with a
Speaker 1: rag or do you really put fruit roll up dick
Speaker 1: in your pussy? She looked like she suck it off
Speaker 1: and have green dischard like all off? No, I really
Speaker 1: suck it all. I'll suck it all over, Crystal. What
Speaker 1: are you Dominican? Puerto Rican? Puerto Rican? See, it's the
Speaker 1: what remember Penis came on talking about I used the
Speaker 1: honey pockets. It's always them, But I ain't doing all
Speaker 1: of that. Yeah, that's a lot. That is a whole lot, Nicole.
Speaker 1: What should be doing, They say, wife, girls give the
Speaker 1: best head. I'm mute yourself. Tell us your chest, Nicole?
Speaker 1: Can I also ask you if you've ever been offended
Speaker 1: if someone's called you Becky? Uh No, Karen's annoying. But
Speaker 1: Karen is annoying. I can understand that, can I? But
Speaker 1: I've never been called to Karen? What about? Well, I'm
Speaker 1: not with that shirt? You better not. When when the
Speaker 1: song Becky came out? Did you take pride in that
Speaker 1: there's a song to Becky? Oh god, this is really
Speaker 1: not that you're really white? You're telling me? Are you
Speaker 1: joking right now? Nicole? How old you? That's why you're
Speaker 1: telling me you have never heard the Negro spiritual? Maybe
Speaker 1: I'm I'm playing you. Alexa, connect the phone. We hear it.
Speaker 1: You know you're sucking it up. Let me put it
Speaker 1: on all right? Sorry, here we go, Aleta, volume tip
Speaker 1: both you let me know. She was like, we know
Speaker 1: from Florida, but calm the funk down. Oh wait, Rashida
Speaker 1: just said it's not an age thing. So is this
Speaker 1: a location shame? She's trying to tell us we're hood rats.
Speaker 1: But anyway, Nicole, do you have any no? Not u?
Speaker 1: Nicole Rashida. Oh my god, wait, can you also look
Speaker 1: at the whole chat. There's quite a few people who
Speaker 1: have never heard the Becky song. We'll put it in there.
Speaker 1: We'll put it in the description of this episode. But Nicole,
Speaker 1: tell us, do you have because they do say white
Speaker 1: girls give the best blow jobs? Do you have a
Speaker 1: blowjob tip? Because we need to prove that this is
Speaker 1: a myth um. No, not really, she just sucks thick.
Speaker 1: White girls are just I just suck it like yeah,
Speaker 1: I just like use one hand and I stuck at
Speaker 1: the same time and use my time like never had
Speaker 1: any complaints. Well, good for you, thank you, thank you, Nicole.
Speaker 1: Thanks We aren't getting these fruit roll ups out ship
Speaker 1: I notice, right, Well, I guess let's get into our
Speaker 1: hoary blade decision um. And as always for the town hall,
Speaker 1: we kind of like to recap, allow you guys to
Speaker 1: give us some feedback or your thoughts on the episodes
Speaker 1: that came out during the month of February. We don't
Speaker 1: kind of like to recap. Do you'll notice that Mandy
Speaker 1: does that? Everybody? Not? If you do, we're kind of
Speaker 1: gonna get into it. No, we are getting into it.
Speaker 1: You finished are you're done. It would be kind of
Speaker 1: because the way you be interrupted, I don't know we're
Speaker 1: really gonna get through. What are not saying? You're the interrupter, bitch?
Speaker 1: Are you kidding? You know what? All right? I was worse.
Speaker 1: No no no no no no. We got interrupted, but
Speaker 1: I was dead as giving shout out and you start
Speaker 1: reading comments as if I'm not talking, like, look, I
Speaker 1: see the nods going on. You know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Fuck you. Sorry,