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Speaker 1: Hey, folks, it's Lyle. How's it going. Before we start

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Speaker 1: the show, I want to let you guys know that

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Speaker 1: if you live in the Pacific Northwest San Francisco, Portland, Seattle, Vancouver,

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Speaker 1: or Minneapolis, I am coming to your town next week

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Speaker 1: to do my Therapy Gecko Live show. These shows are

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Speaker 1: a very good time. They are a combination of uh,

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Speaker 1: you know, doing what we do here on this podcast,

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Speaker 1: where we bring people up on stage, we do a

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Speaker 1: little group Gecko therapy, and it's also a storytelling show.

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Speaker 1: I've been living my life. I went to Iraq, i

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Speaker 1: went to Ukraine. I've been you know, doing a bunch

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Speaker 1: of interesting, cool stuff and I've written about it. I've performed,

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Speaker 1: you know, created some material about it that I'm very

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Speaker 1: excited to present to you guys. So please get a

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Speaker 1: June fourth, San Francisco, Swedish American Hall, June fifth, Portland,

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Speaker 1: Polaris Hall, June sixth, Seattle at the Crocodile, June seventh,

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Speaker 1: in Vancouver at the Biltimore Cabaret. June ninth in Minneapolis

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Speaker 1: at the Parkway Theater. You can get tickets to all

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Speaker 1: those dates, and I also have many other dates that

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Speaker 1: I'm doing this month and August and September, I'm going

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Speaker 1: all over the place. It's just next week I'm going

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Speaker 1: to the Pacific Northwest. So I wanted to shout out

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Speaker 1: those shows in particular. You can get tickets to all

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Speaker 1: of these shows at Therapy Gecko tour dot com. So

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Speaker 1: if you haven't gotten a ticket yet, you should come

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Speaker 1: to the shows cuz they'll be fun. All right, let's

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Speaker 1: get into the episode.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Oh my god, it's the Gecko.

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Speaker 1: What's up? Man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: My name is Riley, Riley?

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Speaker 1: What's going on Riley's life?

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Speaker 2: You know, it's it's it's ever changing.

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Speaker 1: It is ever changing. It is ever changing as much

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Speaker 1: as ever.

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Speaker 2: But but it's good. It's like really good. I would

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Speaker 2: I would say it's good. Yeah, it's ever like super

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Speaker 2: really good. But like right now, it's good.

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Speaker 1: So what is it that you wanted to talk about today?

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Speaker 2: I don't know, man, Like, uh, I don't know. A

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Speaker 2: long time listener of the show, a big fan. I've

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Speaker 2: been dealing with a lot of existentialism over the past

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Speaker 2: couple of weeks, which has been like interesting because like

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Speaker 2: I'm I'm twenty eight. My ten year high school reunions

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Speaker 2: this year. I'm currently starting school over going to paramedic school,

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Speaker 2: which is like, I don't know, it's weird because like

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Speaker 2: And then also I like look at people who also

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Speaker 2: is just it's just weird. You know. Does that make sense? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: You know what's funny. I had a dude, I don't

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Speaker 2: Like, it's it's cool, it's cool to be sober. I

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Speaker 1: So what inspired you to What inspired you to get sober?

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Speaker 1: My wife, that's why you feel like an adult. You

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Speaker 2: it was like it took a huge toll on my

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Speaker 2: one was just like you know, trying to be happy

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Speaker 2: was listening to a podcast the other day, the bomb

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Speaker 2: Hole podcast, the snowboarding podcast, and the host of it

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Speaker 2: of is what like started spinning, like spending the gears

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Speaker 2: like like when he was drinking and like when he

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Speaker 2: really good. I had. I did have to relearn how

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Speaker 1: How did you have to Why did you have to

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Speaker 1: relearn how to do it? Did you only know how

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Speaker 2: So this is like my first year snowboarding sober, and

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Speaker 1: Yeah, So it's like you had to relearn it in

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Speaker 2: Yeah, exactly. Yeah, is that like those activities are deeply

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Speaker 2: and not it's like unpavlopping yourself.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, totally totally. I'm trying to think what I

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Speaker 2: That was me with like beer, like like last year.

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Speaker 2: Last year, I'd be like, oh, my wife would be

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Speaker 2: I need to watch with a six pack.

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Speaker 1: Right right right? Yeah you got Yeah, it's true. You

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I got unpavlov myself, which is like it was.

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Speaker 2: It's been cool. It's seven months as of tomorrow tomorrow

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Speaker 2: I met one of my heroes snowboarding who's also sober

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Speaker 2: was the hardest, the hardest time. And it feels like

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Speaker 2: it's gotten easier every day and then I could take

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Speaker 2: sober isn't what's hard? Like staying fucked up all day

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Speaker 2: is hard, Like financially and like mentally of well, where's

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Speaker 2: the money going? To go to buy a bottle of tequila?

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Speaker 2: Where's the money coming from to buy you know, a

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Speaker 2: six pack of night to watch Adventure Time? And like,

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Speaker 2: or how do I how do I stay fucked up

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Speaker 2: and people not realize I'm fucked up? Oh?

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Speaker 1: The Yeah, the being fucked up is the hard part.

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Speaker 1: And the staying that's a that's a fac that's a

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Speaker 1: fascinating reframing. That's a fascinating reframing.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Like it's like it is hard to get sober,

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Speaker 2: like that is true, but it is easier to stay

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Speaker 2: sober than it is to stay fucked up.

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Speaker 1: Dude. You know what, Dude, give me some fucking therapy,

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Speaker 1: because I'm at a point I'm at a point right

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Speaker 1: now where I'm like, I'm so i feel like I'm

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Speaker 1: in a crazy the feedback loop of my addictions that

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Speaker 1: I can't escape from. Like you know, you know how

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Speaker 1: it is what you're like, every every day you go, yeah,

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Speaker 1: every day, every day you go, today's a day, and

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Speaker 1: then every night you go, Tomorrow's the day, and it's

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Speaker 2: I have like the opposite when I skateboard. Every time

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Speaker 1: Interesting. Interesting, Yeah, sometimes when I'm working at my desk,

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Speaker 2: My name is Riley?

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Speaker 1: name of a skateboard of a snowboarding guy. Riley.

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Speaker 2: Thank you, Riley of the Year, Riley.

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Speaker 2: No, that's it. Thanks for thanks for answering, of.

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Speaker 1: Course, thank you, Riley.

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Speaker 2: Uh.

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Speaker 1: Good luck with your continued sobriety. You've inspired me. Maybe

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Speaker 1: tomorrow I'll stop eating cosmic brownies for breakfast every day.

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Speaker 2: That's those are so good, I understand.

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Speaker 1: That's the problem with That's the problem with food addiction

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Speaker 1: is it's so funny. It's like hilleous, like I'm being

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Speaker 2: No. I know I'm there too, because I have, like,

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Speaker 1: But you know what's funny is is like we're also

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, no, I yeah, I that that happened to me.

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Speaker 4: I was like, I need, I need a better breakfast.

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Speaker 2: Healthy pop tarts. Pop charts are healthy.

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Speaker 1: They're not they're not at all. They're terrible for you,

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Speaker 1: but they're so good. Thanks rather, I'll see around the universe.

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Speaker 2: Man, all right, thank you Jack.

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Speaker 1: That was Riley, right, is a good fucking guy.

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Speaker 2: I love.

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Speaker 1: I love one of the things I like about this podcast. Man,

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Speaker 1: It's pretty cool. How much Sunday ones are good. The

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Speaker 1: how do we get those? How do I get my?

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Speaker 1: I want someone get how do I get my hands

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Speaker 1: Go Wild movie promotional pop tarts. Someone let me know

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, is this therapy got go?

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Speaker 1: Yes? Hi? Who is this?

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Speaker 5: Bro? You can call me.

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Speaker 6: Jerry?

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Speaker 1: Jerry? Oh my god, you texted me and you said,

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Speaker 2: Okay?

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Speaker 6: Yes, okay, So you've been getting a lot of like

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Speaker 6: Yeah, how do you feel about that?

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you something. This podcast has been going

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean I guess my like examples would be, like, okay,

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Speaker 6: like the Jose Guy that was weird, right, everyone thought

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Speaker 1: It wasn't a timeout, it was just a too it

434
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Speaker 1: was it. It was okay, I was trying. Here's the

435
00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:44,240
Speaker 1: why I had him sitting at two minute signs with

436
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:48,640
Speaker 1: us is because he was coming into this phone call

437
00:26:49,480 --> 00:26:53,399
Speaker 1: with a certain way that he wanted to be, or

438
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:56,520
Speaker 1: a certain way he wanted it to go, and he

439
00:26:56,680 --> 00:27:00,199
Speaker 1: was clinging so deeply to that idea that I he

440
00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:05,560
Speaker 1: wasn't letting me have a conversation with him. However, he

441
00:27:05,720 --> 00:27:08,400
Speaker 1: was in that moment, and so I was like, all right,

442
00:27:08,480 --> 00:27:11,240
Speaker 1: I'm and I was I was like, I don't, I

443
00:27:11,320 --> 00:27:15,399
Speaker 1: are on my end. I will refuse to cling to

444
00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:19,720
Speaker 1: the idea that a podcast should even be, that this

445
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:22,760
Speaker 1: conversation should be I'm gonna refuse to cling to the

446
00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:26,080
Speaker 1: idea that this conversation should be anything, and I'm gonna

447
00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:28,359
Speaker 1: sit in two minutes of silence. And so once those

448
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,000
Speaker 1: two minutes of silence happened, it was like all bets

449
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:34,080
Speaker 1: are off as to what this conversation should or shouldn't

450
00:27:34,320 --> 00:27:36,560
Speaker 1: or could or couldn't be. That's why I was trying

451
00:27:36,560 --> 00:27:37,160
Speaker 1: to illustrate.

452
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:41,280
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean like I understood that part too, because

453
00:27:41,320 --> 00:27:43,280
Speaker 6: like it was just it was kind of a wacky

454
00:27:43,280 --> 00:27:45,760
Speaker 6: phone call, you know, Like obviously I've been listening for

455
00:27:45,800 --> 00:27:49,040
Speaker 6: a long time. I've heard some like crazy phone calls,

456
00:27:49,040 --> 00:27:51,960
Speaker 6: but that one was just kind of like whoa, Like,

457
00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 6: what the hell is even happening? And like I think

458
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,160
Speaker 6: every other second, like me and my partner are listening

459
00:27:57,200 --> 00:27:59,120
Speaker 6: to it, and we like we were just like jaw

460
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:03,000
Speaker 6: dropped like every other second because like we didn't know

461
00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:05,439
Speaker 6: what we were expecting. And I don't think, like, like

462
00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:10,760
Speaker 6: you said, there is not like uh direction necessarily, but

463
00:28:10,960 --> 00:28:13,399
Speaker 6: like we were both just like what the hell is

464
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:15,080
Speaker 6: even going on right now?

465
00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:16,560
Speaker 2: Dude?

466
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:19,159
Speaker 1: I have this thought I have this thing of you know,

467
00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:20,320
Speaker 1: you go ahead, if you have more to say, I

468
00:28:20,359 --> 00:28:21,359
Speaker 1: wouldn't want to hear it.

469
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:23,560
Speaker 6: No, I was just gonna say like it was almost

470
00:28:23,680 --> 00:28:28,600
Speaker 6: kind of like in the same way like I can't

471
00:28:28,640 --> 00:28:31,120
Speaker 6: remember if you've ever said if you've done like acid

472
00:28:31,280 --> 00:28:33,080
Speaker 6: or anything like that, but it's kind of like when

473
00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:37,280
Speaker 6: you're stuck in like us psych a delic loop. That's

474
00:28:37,320 --> 00:28:40,120
Speaker 6: like just kind of what it felt like listening to it.

475
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,680
Speaker 1: Dude, I want to do more stuff like that. I

476
00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:46,960
Speaker 1: I know after that podcast episode. After that episode in particular,

477
00:28:47,080 --> 00:28:49,600
Speaker 1: I was like, I have this thing where I was like,

478
00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:51,920
Speaker 1: I should fuck up this podcast more. I should release

479
00:28:51,920 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 1: an episode where it's just me saying the for yeah

480
00:28:56,640 --> 00:28:57,520
Speaker 1: for an hour.

481
00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:04,800
Speaker 7: The yeah, absolutely, the the you know what I mean,

482
00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:06,640
Speaker 7: because I already I'm at this thing where I'm like,

483
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:08,680
Speaker 7: I've again, It's like I already know.

484
00:29:10,760 --> 00:29:15,720
Speaker 1: What having a normal conversation feels like. So the only

485
00:29:15,760 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 1: way to evolve is to just start doing wacky, dumb bullshit.

486
00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:25,680
Speaker 1: But then but then that's that's me sort of, I guess,

487
00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:30,040
Speaker 1: surrendering to this idea that I've heard all the stories,

488
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 1: that they're already here, and that's not that that is

489
00:29:32,080 --> 00:29:34,880
Speaker 1: not true, of course, as we're constantly making new people.

490
00:29:34,880 --> 00:29:39,600
Speaker 1: There's infinite people I've never spoken to. But I have

491
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 1: that inclination to just be like, you know what, let

492
00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 1: me just let me interview a tree for an hour.

493
00:29:45,760 --> 00:29:47,440
Speaker 1: You know what, Fuck this show, I'm gonna interview a

494
00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:48,680
Speaker 1: fucking tree for an hour.

495
00:29:49,520 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 6: Wait. You should do something like that. You know how

496
00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:57,320
Speaker 6: they have like the little there's like clips and they

497
00:29:57,400 --> 00:29:59,200
Speaker 6: are I don't know what exactly it's called, but it's

498
00:29:59,200 --> 00:30:01,240
Speaker 6: like how they make plan music and they like clip

499
00:30:01,360 --> 00:30:04,560
Speaker 6: these little things. Yeah, yeah, you should do that and

500
00:30:04,600 --> 00:30:07,240
Speaker 6: like see like what it's what it does when you're

501
00:30:07,360 --> 00:30:08,240
Speaker 6: like talking to it.

502
00:30:08,640 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 1: There's this guy actually, you know it's funny. I feel

503
00:30:10,680 --> 00:30:12,080
Speaker 1: like I've already done. I feel like this idea has

504
00:30:12,080 --> 00:30:15,080
Speaker 1: been done before. There's this guy, Dan Henschel. He's a

505
00:30:15,160 --> 00:30:15,719
Speaker 1: very funny.

506
00:30:15,880 --> 00:30:16,160
Speaker 4: Uh.

507
00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:19,120
Speaker 1: I guess we could call him a content creator.

508
00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 2: Uh.

509
00:30:20,080 --> 00:30:22,280
Speaker 1: He makes this He made this YouTube video where it's

510
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:26,040
Speaker 1: like I think it's like challenging. He's like holding he's

511
00:30:26,040 --> 00:30:27,920
Speaker 1: in he films all his videos in his car, and

512
00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:29,600
Speaker 1: he's like in his car and he's like he's holding

513
00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:33,200
Speaker 1: a gourd and he's like challenging myself to talk about

514
00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:36,400
Speaker 1: this gourd for an hour, and I'm like, that's see,

515
00:30:36,440 --> 00:30:41,760
Speaker 1: that's genius, that's fun, that's just like creative. You know

516
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:46,240
Speaker 1: that's cool. I mean, I like it's nice also to

517
00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:54,520
Speaker 1: do a thing that's grounded in reality. But I don't know,

518
00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:56,400
Speaker 1: have you ever felt like you were you're like stuck

519
00:30:56,480 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 1: inside you, like stuck as yourself? You ever felt that way?

520
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:04,200
Speaker 6: Like what do you mean?

521
00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:07,600
Speaker 1: Okay, see you see you haven't.

522
00:31:08,840 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 6: Oh well do you mean like do you mean like

523
00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:16,000
Speaker 6: stuck like in a like like I couldn't like veer

524
00:31:16,240 --> 00:31:24,760
Speaker 6: off my like path that I've beaten to, like change.

525
00:31:23,240 --> 00:31:25,040
Speaker 1: A sort of sorry or just that like you know,

526
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:27,760
Speaker 1: you are who you like. Some had some you like

527
00:31:28,560 --> 00:31:33,920
Speaker 1: little faith in your ability to I guess I don't

528
00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:36,960
Speaker 1: know change or whatever. Wait, what's your name again?

529
00:31:38,640 --> 00:31:40,840
Speaker 6: I've been going by Jerry and Jerry.

530
00:31:41,560 --> 00:31:43,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, Jerry, what's going on in your life?

531
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:51,480
Speaker 6: So funny you ask? I was actually not supposed to

532
00:31:51,480 --> 00:31:53,600
Speaker 6: get like stuck on the phone with you at all today,

533
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:55,400
Speaker 6: Like that was not my plan. I actually had to

534
00:31:55,400 --> 00:31:57,640
Speaker 6: go drive door to ash and make money today. But

535
00:31:58,160 --> 00:32:01,480
Speaker 6: this is infinitely better. I'm gonna have all night to

536
00:32:01,560 --> 00:32:09,280
Speaker 6: do that. But yeah, I'm I'm going camping this weekend

537
00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:10,440
Speaker 6: with some friends.

538
00:32:11,080 --> 00:32:11,400
Speaker 3: Cool.

539
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:17,480
Speaker 6: I'm going on an Alaskan cruise like a week after that,

540
00:32:17,520 --> 00:32:25,040
Speaker 6: which is kind of insane. But other than that, I

541
00:32:25,120 --> 00:32:28,520
Speaker 6: hit my job and I'm trying to figure out new

542
00:32:29,080 --> 00:32:33,920
Speaker 6: uh employment And that has been the pinnacle of my

543
00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:39,520
Speaker 6: life right now is how to survive?

544
00:32:40,440 --> 00:32:43,960
Speaker 1: Is your job doing door dash?

545
00:32:46,520 --> 00:32:50,280
Speaker 6: Sometimes I have I am like doing a couple of

546
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:55,080
Speaker 6: different things. I work a retail job as like a stalker,

547
00:32:55,480 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 6: and then I also work at like an office. But

548
00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 6: I hate those two situations that I'm in. So I

549
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:11,160
Speaker 6: then driving for DoorDash, which is like getting so difficult

550
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:12,760
Speaker 6: because gas is so expensive.

551
00:33:13,280 --> 00:33:18,840
Speaker 8: Yeah, so yeah, yeah.

552
00:33:18,720 --> 00:33:21,400
Speaker 1: I can imagine that the profit for that is kind

553
00:33:21,400 --> 00:33:21,760
Speaker 1: of tough.

554
00:33:23,600 --> 00:33:26,800
Speaker 6: Well, I think a lot of people who order DoorDash,

555
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:30,440
Speaker 6: because I know I didn't before like driving for DoorDash,

556
00:33:30,600 --> 00:33:33,840
Speaker 6: I don't think they realize that DoorDash does not pay you.

557
00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:35,640
Speaker 6: You only make the tip that you give.

558
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:40,000
Speaker 1: Is that true? Doda paid, you only get paid the tip.

559
00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:44,240
Speaker 6: You only get paid the tip. So like what if

560
00:33:44,280 --> 00:33:47,520
Speaker 6: I'm like, if you tip someone three dollars and the

561
00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:51,680
Speaker 6: restaurant you order from is like seven miles away. They're

562
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:55,880
Speaker 6: only making like you know, not even a dollar per

563
00:33:55,960 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 6: mile that they drive, and like not to mention the

564
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:03,120
Speaker 6: time that you spend on doing that.

565
00:34:03,120 --> 00:34:06,600
Speaker 1: That's so fucking crazy. I hate that. I fucking hate

566
00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:09,640
Speaker 1: the way that, Like I don't know, it's like, dude,

567
00:34:09,640 --> 00:34:11,399
Speaker 1: one of the what is the fucking company just like

568
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:15,240
Speaker 1: pay the fun like tipping. Tipping in general is so

569
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:17,080
Speaker 1: like annoying, Like I love what like when you go

570
00:34:17,120 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 1: to like uh like Europe and Asia and stuff, they

571
00:34:20,880 --> 00:34:23,200
Speaker 1: just don't have it because like all the companies, like,

572
00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:26,400
Speaker 1: you know, it's just so we all the companies like

573
00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:31,240
Speaker 1: kind of you know, like actually like pay the wage

574
00:34:31,320 --> 00:34:35,960
Speaker 1: instead of like making the consumer pay the wage. It's

575
00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 1: kind of fucked up crazy.

576
00:34:38,640 --> 00:34:40,560
Speaker 6: Yeah, well, I mean you would think like a company

577
00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:43,400
Speaker 6: like DoorDash too, like they tack on so many like

578
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:47,279
Speaker 6: extra fees and things like that to your order that

579
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:51,360
Speaker 6: like part of that would go to the dasher. But no,

580
00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:57,440
Speaker 6: like sometimes they have uh like incentives, but I haven't

581
00:34:57,440 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 6: gotten like a notifications or an incentive in a while,

582
00:35:00,280 --> 00:35:03,600
Speaker 6: aside from like oh this area is super busy, you

583
00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:08,560
Speaker 6: might make like one extra dollar per delivery. But but

584
00:35:08,840 --> 00:35:09,279
Speaker 6: that's it.

585
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:14,080
Speaker 1: What do you think you're gonna do after the store

586
00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:14,640
Speaker 1: dash gig?

587
00:35:16,719 --> 00:35:22,719
Speaker 6: Oh you know, I've been asking myself that for months now,

588
00:35:23,080 --> 00:35:29,920
Speaker 6: and it has been so like like get end to me.

589
00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:32,600
Speaker 6: I guess I don't know. I had like a career

590
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:36,439
Speaker 6: for like ten years like a while ago, and then

591
00:35:36,520 --> 00:35:39,799
Speaker 6: I like stopped doing that, and then it was just

592
00:35:39,920 --> 00:35:43,040
Speaker 6: kind of like in and out of like retail type stuff.

593
00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:46,040
Speaker 6: But it's so like soul fucking to me, and like

594
00:35:46,160 --> 00:35:50,760
Speaker 6: I know, I am like I can be a higher

595
00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:56,719
Speaker 6: valued employee in some way somewhere, especially with like my

596
00:35:56,960 --> 00:36:01,759
Speaker 6: office experience. Realistically, I kind of want like a work

597
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:05,719
Speaker 6: from home situation because I love to travel and just

598
00:36:05,760 --> 00:36:10,560
Speaker 6: like have some type of sweedom and autonomy.

599
00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:14,960
Speaker 1: What was your Uh you said you had a career.

600
00:36:15,239 --> 00:36:16,160
Speaker 1: What was your career?

601
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:20,280
Speaker 6: I was a professional body piercer for ten years.

602
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:27,200
Speaker 1: Oh shit, how come you don't do that?

603
00:36:27,200 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 2: That's like a whole nother.

604
00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 6: Messed up like story.

605
00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:35,680
Speaker 5: But like basically there's just a.

606
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:40,320
Speaker 6: Lot of like internal drama in the professional body piercing

607
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:45,480
Speaker 6: realm and community and like people aren't very nice to

608
00:36:45,560 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 6: each other, and like not that that should matter a

609
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:51,640
Speaker 6: whole lot, but it really does, because a lot of

610
00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:53,320
Speaker 6: it is like word of mouth.

611
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,200
Speaker 1: I feel like that should I feel like that should

612
00:36:57,239 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 1: totally matter. I feel like, yeah, I mean if that's

613
00:36:59,920 --> 00:37:02,879
Speaker 1: like that the universe, if the universe that you're being

614
00:37:02,880 --> 00:37:07,160
Speaker 1: a part of is like a generally unkind universe, then yeah,

615
00:37:07,200 --> 00:37:07,800
Speaker 1: that makes sense.

616
00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:13,160
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's just really like toxic, and I mean I

617
00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:16,120
Speaker 6: think the last couple of years it's been getting a

618
00:37:16,160 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 6: little bit better, but like there's just a lot of

619
00:37:18,719 --> 00:37:26,600
Speaker 6: like there's a lot of like uh like essay.

620
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:33,880
Speaker 8: And like abuse not necessarily always physical, and like harassment and.

621
00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:38,600
Speaker 6: Things like that. And there's like a new generation versus

622
00:37:38,640 --> 00:37:43,240
Speaker 6: like an old generation type of vibe and like people

623
00:37:43,280 --> 00:37:46,960
Speaker 6: not being held accountable for certain things and people still

624
00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:49,799
Speaker 6: like supporting them. So it's kind of like just a

625
00:37:49,960 --> 00:37:55,560
Speaker 6: lot of moving pieces that like I'm more than like

626
00:37:55,880 --> 00:38:00,440
Speaker 6: good like stepping away from you know, can't you?

627
00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:02,319
Speaker 1: Is there is there a thing you can like go

628
00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:05,080
Speaker 1: independent on though? Or you or is that do you

629
00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:08,000
Speaker 1: need too many like licenses?

630
00:38:10,440 --> 00:38:13,560
Speaker 6: It depends on where you're at, but it's certainly something

631
00:38:13,560 --> 00:38:16,000
Speaker 6: you can be independent on. But it's, like I said,

632
00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:21,680
Speaker 6: it's hard to like, it's hard to not be part

633
00:38:21,760 --> 00:38:24,920
Speaker 6: of the community because it's a lot of word of mouth,

634
00:38:25,120 --> 00:38:31,800
Speaker 6: and if you're like independent, it's just like any small business,

635
00:38:31,840 --> 00:38:34,440
Speaker 6: like if you're like a hairstylist or something like that,

636
00:38:34,480 --> 00:38:36,719
Speaker 6: where it's like you kind of have to build up

637
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:40,960
Speaker 6: your own clientele. And it's also just like not a great,

638
00:38:41,640 --> 00:38:45,760
Speaker 6: uh like industry to be in at the moment because

639
00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:49,600
Speaker 6: it is like a luxury service, so people aren't really

640
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 6: wanting to spend that money, and plus like the cost

641
00:38:52,920 --> 00:38:58,799
Speaker 6: of jewelry and shit, it's just not like it's not

642
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,239
Speaker 6: the same as it I was like when I was

643
00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:04,000
Speaker 6: doing it, because I stopped like maybe like I don't know,

644
00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:06,840
Speaker 6: it's like four years ago, ish.

645
00:39:08,040 --> 00:39:10,200
Speaker 2: Mm hmm, So it's.

646
00:39:10,080 --> 00:39:15,040
Speaker 6: Just like kind of more of a pain than like, yeah,

647
00:39:15,080 --> 00:39:16,880
Speaker 6: I was also pretty burnt out, so like I just

648
00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:18,800
Speaker 6: don't think I would ever go back to it, but

649
00:39:18,840 --> 00:39:21,080
Speaker 6: I would like some type of creative job that is

650
00:39:21,160 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 6: maybe weird from home. But if it's not creative, then

651
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:25,640
Speaker 6: it's just kind of like as long as I'm making

652
00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:26,399
Speaker 6: money and I'm not.

653
00:39:27,120 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 1: Dreading working, well, I believe in you. I don't know,

654
00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:35,960
Speaker 1: I mean, yeah, it's a tough it's a tough world,

655
00:39:36,040 --> 00:39:38,759
Speaker 1: but but I believe in you. I believe in you.

656
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:39,200
Speaker 2: Jerry.

657
00:39:40,040 --> 00:39:41,640
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to other people?

658
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:44,920
Speaker 1: Thank you, Matt, thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm

659
00:39:44,960 --> 00:39:46,840
Speaker 1: trying to believe in me. I'm trying to believe in me.

660
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 1: We can believe in each other and fly off in

661
00:39:49,600 --> 00:39:54,200
Speaker 1: out or space together, man, Jerry, Jerry, Jerry, thank you

662
00:39:54,239 --> 00:39:54,680
Speaker 1: for sharing.

663
00:39:55,000 --> 00:39:55,280
Speaker 2: Jerry.

664
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Speaker 1: Is there anything you want to say to the people

665
00:39:56,400 --> 00:39:57,440
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go?

666
00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:01,520
Speaker 6: I but can I ask you one question?

667
00:40:02,360 --> 00:40:02,600
Speaker 4: Yeah?

668
00:40:02,640 --> 00:40:02,759
Speaker 2: Well?

669
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:05,440
Speaker 1: Wait is the question the thing you want to say?

670
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:06,480
Speaker 6: No?

671
00:40:06,480 --> 00:40:06,640
Speaker 2: No?

672
00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:08,719
Speaker 1: Oh okay, so you have two things?

673
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:09,920
Speaker 6: Two things?

674
00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:12,800
Speaker 2: Yes, sure, okay.

675
00:40:13,400 --> 00:40:15,719
Speaker 6: So my partner and I were sitting in the car

676
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:20,239
Speaker 6: the other day listening to you, and they turned to

677
00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:23,680
Speaker 6: me and say, do you think Lyle Ever gets lonely?

678
00:40:25,560 --> 00:40:30,200
Speaker 6: I said, I'm pretty sure Lyle has mentioned being lonely

679
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:33,000
Speaker 6: on the podcast, not that that's a funny thing, but

680
00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:36,960
Speaker 6: it was just like, like, I've heard you speak about

681
00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:41,160
Speaker 6: things like this, But how are you? Are you lonely?

682
00:40:41,239 --> 00:40:41,800
Speaker 2: Are you?

683
00:40:42,760 --> 00:40:44,920
Speaker 1: What was? Can I all right? Let me what was

684
00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:49,280
Speaker 1: happening at the in the podcast at the time when

685
00:40:49,360 --> 00:40:53,120
Speaker 1: that person, when you're your partner said that.

686
00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:56,240
Speaker 6: What podcasts were we listening.

687
00:40:58,640 --> 00:41:00,480
Speaker 1: Well, I want to know the exact to give me.

688
00:41:00,520 --> 00:41:03,240
Speaker 1: I want to know the podcast and the time code.

689
00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:05,759
Speaker 1: When when he said that, so I can give that

690
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:08,120
Speaker 1: to my therapist, go ahead? When was it?

691
00:41:08,719 --> 00:41:14,480
Speaker 6: Oh? Okay, it was the girl you're talking to about.

692
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:17,800
Speaker 6: And she kept saying she wanted papers, and she kept

693
00:41:18,480 --> 00:41:23,720
Speaker 6: she her husband was sexting a Nigerian.

694
00:41:23,760 --> 00:41:25,799
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, and she had.

695
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:28,240
Speaker 6: An affair with her coworker. And I don't know what

696
00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:31,440
Speaker 6: you were like actually saying in the podcast because I

697
00:41:31,480 --> 00:41:33,239
Speaker 6: was driving, I was kind of zoning out a little

698
00:41:33,239 --> 00:41:38,160
Speaker 6: bit because the whole episode was a little crazy. But yes,

699
00:41:38,600 --> 00:41:40,360
Speaker 6: that was just like what we're listening to.

700
00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:43,800
Speaker 1: What about that made made him? Made him feel like

701
00:41:43,840 --> 00:41:44,520
Speaker 1: I was lonely?

702
00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:49,040
Speaker 6: What makes wait? Can I put you on the phone

703
00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:49,359
Speaker 6: with him?

704
00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:50,280
Speaker 1: Sure?

705
00:41:51,120 --> 00:41:59,839
Speaker 2: Okay, here, Hello, what's up? Hey? Whatever? Geck?

706
00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:03,560
Speaker 1: What what about that podcast made you feel like I

707
00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:04,120
Speaker 1: was lonely?

708
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:05,520
Speaker 2: You know?

709
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:09,040
Speaker 3: It wasn't like necessarily that podcast. I just we were

710
00:42:09,080 --> 00:42:12,799
Speaker 3: on like a string of like crazy episodes, and like,

711
00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:15,480
Speaker 3: you know, like I just thought of, like you talk

712
00:42:15,600 --> 00:42:18,440
Speaker 3: to so many people and get like all walks of

713
00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:23,719
Speaker 3: you know, like all perspectives and like situations and just

714
00:42:23,760 --> 00:42:27,000
Speaker 3: like you know, are exposed to all that, and maybe

715
00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:29,959
Speaker 3: it's not like you're forming like relationships with these people

716
00:42:30,120 --> 00:42:34,319
Speaker 3: or friendships necessarily, but it's just like you know it,

717
00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,360
Speaker 3: I for like, I guess people like me, you know,

718
00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:40,279
Speaker 3: I see a bunch of people every day, you know, strangers,

719
00:42:40,320 --> 00:42:44,759
Speaker 3: and don't have any sort of like interaction other than

720
00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:46,960
Speaker 3: you know, high at the most.

721
00:42:47,200 --> 00:42:47,440
Speaker 2: You know.

722
00:42:47,920 --> 00:42:50,840
Speaker 3: So I just was just wondering, like, does that, like

723
00:42:52,160 --> 00:42:54,640
Speaker 3: do you ever get like lonely even though you know

724
00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:57,560
Speaker 3: you talk to so many people you know, from all

725
00:42:57,600 --> 00:42:58,920
Speaker 3: over everywhere.

726
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:06,239
Speaker 1: Well, the I mean the relationship I have, I have

727
00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:08,759
Speaker 1: multiple answers to that question. Well, the relationship I have

728
00:43:08,880 --> 00:43:15,359
Speaker 1: with like like callers on this show and the context

729
00:43:15,640 --> 00:43:19,480
Speaker 1: in which I am having these conversations for a recorded

730
00:43:19,719 --> 00:43:24,200
Speaker 1: podcast is like it's very like it's a very separate

731
00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:33,400
Speaker 1: thing from my like actual personal life, except in some instance.

732
00:43:33,440 --> 00:43:36,759
Speaker 1: Except that there's been like some instances, mainly when I

733
00:43:36,800 --> 00:43:42,560
Speaker 1: make my little documentaries like like uh like fucking like uh,

734
00:43:42,760 --> 00:43:44,920
Speaker 1: the guy that I walked across Japan with like that,

735
00:43:44,960 --> 00:43:50,919
Speaker 1: like he became my actual friend, you know, the dude

736
00:43:50,960 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 1: I went to the guys, I went to Ukraine and Iraq,

737
00:43:54,719 --> 00:44:00,400
Speaker 1: with like those guys are like my actual friends, you know.

738
00:44:00,719 --> 00:44:03,800
Speaker 1: But I don't, like, I don't this is this feels

739
00:44:04,000 --> 00:44:08,919
Speaker 1: like recording this podcast. It doesn't feel like I'm it's

740
00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:11,080
Speaker 1: a it's kind of a different paradigm because it's like,

741
00:44:11,840 --> 00:44:18,440
Speaker 1: I guess, working, so it's not like I'm socializing in

742
00:44:18,520 --> 00:44:21,040
Speaker 1: this same way like when you're like interviewing people or

743
00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:24,640
Speaker 1: doing like especially like I guess it'd be different if

744
00:44:24,680 --> 00:44:27,319
Speaker 1: I was, like it's if it's different when I'm doing

745
00:44:27,320 --> 00:44:30,960
Speaker 1: it over the phone, then when I'm over the like

746
00:44:32,239 --> 00:44:33,840
Speaker 1: when I when I do like in when I do

747
00:44:33,920 --> 00:44:36,160
Speaker 1: like in person ship, it feels like I'm socializing. When

748
00:44:36,160 --> 00:44:37,560
Speaker 1: I do it over the phone, it feels like a

749
00:44:37,640 --> 00:44:40,839
Speaker 1: kind of like a different specific thing. But to answer

750
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:43,720
Speaker 1: your question, I'm actually not. I actually was extremely lonely

751
00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:50,560
Speaker 1: for like a few years. I was actually streaming lonely

752
00:44:50,560 --> 00:44:53,840
Speaker 1: for many years, and then recently I'm actually not lonely

753
00:44:54,840 --> 00:45:01,160
Speaker 1: at all, because I mean, it's the shit that I

754
00:45:01,239 --> 00:45:03,239
Speaker 1: keep talking about in the podcast about like find the

755
00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 1: community of people and like be a part of it.

756
00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:07,719
Speaker 1: So that way, you like, you know, like you have

757
00:45:07,719 --> 00:45:09,400
Speaker 1: a place, like like I found a place that I

758
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:11,120
Speaker 1: can like show up at every day and there's like

759
00:45:11,160 --> 00:45:16,200
Speaker 1: people there, and so I'm like truly, like ninety percent

760
00:45:16,320 --> 00:45:18,000
Speaker 1: less lonely than I have been in the past.

761
00:45:19,600 --> 00:45:19,920
Speaker 2: Yeah.

762
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:24,880
Speaker 1: But yeah, if that answers your question.

763
00:45:24,760 --> 00:45:27,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, absolutely, you know, I just I was just curious.

764
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 3: I guess that makes sense, you know, like it's a

765
00:45:29,920 --> 00:45:33,160
Speaker 3: whole different experience, especially the talking over the phone part.

766
00:45:33,239 --> 00:45:36,200
Speaker 3: But well, like what about when you do like live shows,

767
00:45:36,239 --> 00:45:39,000
Speaker 3: you know, do you like, oh those are does that

768
00:45:39,080 --> 00:45:42,080
Speaker 3: sort of scratch the same itch in the sense of

769
00:45:42,200 --> 00:45:46,000
Speaker 3: like that you know, socializing an interaction that you do

770
00:45:46,080 --> 00:45:47,160
Speaker 3: with like the documentaries.

771
00:45:47,400 --> 00:45:52,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, definitely, I like being like it's anything having to

772
00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:56,359
Speaker 1: do with like being in person is very different from

773
00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:59,319
Speaker 1: like being over the phone, you know. Yeah, like I

774
00:45:59,320 --> 00:46:00,640
Speaker 1: get a lie, I get I get a lot of

775
00:46:00,719 --> 00:46:02,839
Speaker 1: energy from that. But I also like, I'm very I'm

776
00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:08,520
Speaker 1: very uh, I'm very I'm extroverted in like a super

777
00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:14,839
Speaker 1: particular way. Like my dream, like I love, like I

778
00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:22,319
Speaker 1: my dream social scenario or truly my dream mode of

779
00:46:22,360 --> 00:46:27,920
Speaker 1: existence is to be like constantly surrounded by people that

780
00:46:28,040 --> 00:46:31,400
Speaker 1: I don't have to talk to. That's why I love

781
00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:33,960
Speaker 1: That's why I love New York. Like I'm constantly surrounding

782
00:46:33,960 --> 00:46:36,279
Speaker 1: people I don't or like or my fam Like if

783
00:46:36,280 --> 00:46:39,920
Speaker 1: I'm at a party and I'm in a my favorite

784
00:46:39,960 --> 00:46:41,759
Speaker 1: social situation I've said this for a bunch of times

785
00:46:41,800 --> 00:46:45,640
Speaker 1: about my favorite social situation. I'm at a party. I'm

786
00:46:45,640 --> 00:46:50,600
Speaker 1: in a circle with some people I know, and enough

787
00:46:50,719 --> 00:46:53,880
Speaker 1: people in the circle are talking that I don't have

788
00:46:53,920 --> 00:46:55,960
Speaker 1: to fucking talk and I could just be about I'm like,

789
00:46:56,000 --> 00:46:58,880
Speaker 1: I'm a part of the circle. I'm in the scene.

790
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:03,040
Speaker 1: I can talk if I want to, uh, but I

791
00:47:03,040 --> 00:47:07,319
Speaker 1: don't have to talk to anyone. Worst social situation I'm

792
00:47:07,320 --> 00:47:12,560
Speaker 1: at a party talking one on one with just some guy.

793
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:15,319
Speaker 1: That's the worst. I fucking hate that. Even if they're

794
00:47:15,320 --> 00:47:17,680
Speaker 1: like and the worst party, actually this makes it Even

795
00:47:17,680 --> 00:47:20,680
Speaker 1: if they're like really nice and cool, that actually makes

796
00:47:20,719 --> 00:47:23,760
Speaker 1: it worse. I would rather like I would I would

797
00:47:24,080 --> 00:47:26,359
Speaker 1: like be if I'm at a party and I'm talking

798
00:47:26,360 --> 00:47:29,759
Speaker 1: to some guy and he's a fucking asshole and he

799
00:47:29,880 --> 00:47:33,000
Speaker 1: like wants to fight. Like, that's so much better than

800
00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:34,840
Speaker 1: if I'm talking to a guy and he's like a

801
00:47:34,960 --> 00:47:37,799
Speaker 1: nice guy, because then I have that takes so much

802
00:47:37,840 --> 00:47:42,719
Speaker 1: more energy to entertain, you know what I mean. Yeah, Like,

803
00:47:42,719 --> 00:47:44,439
Speaker 1: if you're talking like if a guy's like, oh that's

804
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:47,000
Speaker 1: cool man. Also like you know, like do you like

805
00:47:47,040 --> 00:47:49,560
Speaker 1: the city like or even if or even if like

806
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:50,759
Speaker 1: you know, like I like, you know what I mean,

807
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 1: just like a nice cool guy, I fucking would I

808
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:58,640
Speaker 1: uh uh give me a give me a depressed guy.

809
00:47:58,680 --> 00:48:01,240
Speaker 1: I could talk to a depressed guy at a party

810
00:48:01,640 --> 00:48:09,799
Speaker 1: one on one pretty good or like uh yeah, sure sure,

811
00:48:09,920 --> 00:48:13,040
Speaker 1: or like if I'm at a or a funny guy,

812
00:48:13,160 --> 00:48:15,040
Speaker 1: like if I'm talking to a guy and he starts

813
00:48:15,080 --> 00:48:18,600
Speaker 1: like doing act outs you know what I mean, and

814
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:20,600
Speaker 1: he goes like, oh, I'm gonna get like you know

815
00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:22,919
Speaker 1: what I mean. Like when a guy's like doing act outs,

816
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:24,640
Speaker 1: I have no I have no tolerance for that. I

817
00:48:24,680 --> 00:48:28,360
Speaker 1: can't talk, like when someone I can't tolerate a jokes jokes.

818
00:48:29,120 --> 00:48:33,319
Speaker 1: I know that sounds crazy, but like, uh, like, if

819
00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:35,319
Speaker 1: you're gonna try to be funny, just do it in

820
00:48:35,400 --> 00:48:37,799
Speaker 1: It's like when people try to be when people try

821
00:48:37,800 --> 00:48:39,960
Speaker 1: to be funny in a way where it's like if

822
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:43,399
Speaker 1: you don't laugh, it feels weird. But I like when

823
00:48:43,400 --> 00:48:46,839
Speaker 1: people are being funny. Yeah, well, I like when people

824
00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:50,319
Speaker 1: are funny because they're being like real, you know, like

825
00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 1: if someone.

826
00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:53,080
Speaker 3: Just laugh naturally, you know, yeah, he.

827
00:48:53,120 --> 00:48:57,759
Speaker 1: Just laugh naturally. Like if someone's like, uh uh, how

828
00:48:57,800 --> 00:49:04,799
Speaker 1: do I say this? If someone's like if like if

829
00:49:04,840 --> 00:49:06,239
Speaker 1: I like, if I'm not talking to a guy at

830
00:49:06,239 --> 00:49:09,960
Speaker 1: a party and and I'm like, hey, man, how you

831
00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:13,200
Speaker 1: doing and he's like, I feel fucked up? Man, I

832
00:49:13,360 --> 00:49:16,920
Speaker 1: ate fifty pop tarts today, I'd be like, nice, that's funny,

833
00:49:16,960 --> 00:49:19,080
Speaker 1: that's real. That's I thank you for sharing that with me.

834
00:49:19,719 --> 00:49:21,400
Speaker 1: But if a guy, but if a guy is like,

835
00:49:21,640 --> 00:49:26,920
Speaker 1: uh doing a bit where I'm like, oh, how do

836
00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:30,760
Speaker 1: you know the host of the party, and he goes, oh, yeah,

837
00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:34,120
Speaker 1: me and Brian, Uh we're married. No, I'm just kidding.

838
00:49:34,160 --> 00:49:37,879
Speaker 1: I'm like, dude, I don't care about your life at all.

839
00:49:38,680 --> 00:49:39,600
Speaker 3: That's pretty horrible.

840
00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:42,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, like around.

841
00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:44,919
Speaker 3: Because you got to give like a half laugh.

842
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:47,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, I hate that shit. I can't do it.

843
00:49:48,440 --> 00:49:49,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, it's pretty real.

844
00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:54,600
Speaker 1: Fuck that is a long rant. But yeah, sometimes I

845
00:49:54,680 --> 00:49:56,440
Speaker 1: like I like being alone around people. I like when

846
00:49:56,440 --> 00:49:57,799
Speaker 1: I'm around a lot of people, I don't have to

847
00:49:57,840 --> 00:49:59,799
Speaker 1: talk to any of them. That's my dream.

848
00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:03,239
Speaker 3: I resonate with that because you still feel part of

849
00:50:03,280 --> 00:50:07,800
Speaker 3: it and there's no real expectations sometimes socializing art.

850
00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:11,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I like I like it. I like

851
00:50:11,560 --> 00:50:14,920
Speaker 1: the people. At my worst days, I'll be going insane

852
00:50:15,040 --> 00:50:17,399
Speaker 1: in my apartment and then I'll just like talk to someone.

853
00:50:17,480 --> 00:50:20,200
Speaker 1: I'll be like, oh, I just needed to. You can't

854
00:50:20,680 --> 00:50:25,279
Speaker 1: tether like other people are the only real thing that

855
00:50:25,360 --> 00:50:31,800
Speaker 1: you have. You're like a being of like profound conscious

856
00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:34,239
Speaker 1: I mean this spiritually, but also like on a very

857
00:50:34,239 --> 00:50:40,799
Speaker 1: grounded level. You're a being of deep profound consciousness. And

858
00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:45,319
Speaker 1: so if you're just that like as a human, you're

859
00:50:45,360 --> 00:50:48,440
Speaker 1: a being of profound consciousness. And if you're just kind

860
00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:52,600
Speaker 1: of like alone wallowing in the pool of your own

861
00:50:52,719 --> 00:50:58,920
Speaker 1: profound consciousness, you are like a fucking astronaut spinning around

862
00:50:59,080 --> 00:51:03,200
Speaker 1: in space. You're tethered to nothing. Your reality is that

863
00:51:03,520 --> 00:51:10,880
Speaker 1: you have to peer review your reality with other beings

864
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:16,120
Speaker 1: of profound consciousness in order to prevent you from going

865
00:51:16,200 --> 00:51:20,319
Speaker 1: insane with your own profound consciousness. You gotta like other

866
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:23,480
Speaker 1: human beings are the only thing. Maybe a dog, but

867
00:51:23,560 --> 00:51:26,840
Speaker 1: even a dog, it's like, I mean, a dog, a

868
00:51:26,880 --> 00:51:30,080
Speaker 1: dog is a being of of of profound consciousness, you know,

869
00:51:30,120 --> 00:51:33,920
Speaker 1: in comparison to like a leaf or a table or whatever.

870
00:51:34,680 --> 00:51:36,520
Speaker 3: But yeah, but They're not going to give you a

871
00:51:36,560 --> 00:51:37,319
Speaker 3: reality check.

872
00:51:37,760 --> 00:51:42,600
Speaker 1: No, you know behavior, Yeah, you need a constant you

873
00:51:42,640 --> 00:51:46,480
Speaker 1: need to constantly have your real your reality checked by

874
00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:52,680
Speaker 1: other beings of profound consciousness or else you just fucking

875
00:51:54,080 --> 00:51:54,840
Speaker 1: just go insane.

876
00:51:55,280 --> 00:52:00,919
Speaker 3: So yeah, that that you just to fi in your head.

877
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:03,360
Speaker 3: That and you just push everybody away at that point

878
00:52:03,400 --> 00:52:07,560
Speaker 3: because you know, not good stuff.

879
00:52:10,200 --> 00:52:11,840
Speaker 1: What's your name again? We had a whole I had

880
00:52:11,880 --> 00:52:13,440
Speaker 1: a whole separate conversation with you.

881
00:52:13,719 --> 00:52:19,120
Speaker 3: I feel now, well you talk to Jerry and I'm Barry.

882
00:52:24,719 --> 00:52:26,560
Speaker 1: Barry Barry.

883
00:52:26,640 --> 00:52:27,120
Speaker 2: Yeah.

884
00:52:27,760 --> 00:52:28,480
Speaker 1: Are you lonely?

885
00:52:30,000 --> 00:52:31,080
Speaker 4: No, you know, not really.

886
00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:34,960
Speaker 3: I've like gone through stages in my life of feeling

887
00:52:35,000 --> 00:52:39,359
Speaker 3: pretty isolated and lonely. But I mean in the same way,

888
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:42,799
Speaker 3: it's kind of like just interacting with people. I mean,

889
00:52:42,840 --> 00:52:46,240
Speaker 3: like you said, like like being part of the circle

890
00:52:46,600 --> 00:52:48,799
Speaker 3: is just kind of sometimes all you need. Like I

891
00:52:49,120 --> 00:52:50,800
Speaker 3: like me and my partner, Like we go to the

892
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:53,040
Speaker 3: mall sometimes, and I like being at the mall, not

893
00:52:53,080 --> 00:52:57,160
Speaker 3: just because like shopping, but just because there's like other

894
00:52:57,320 --> 00:53:00,799
Speaker 3: people with like families, and like are someone with their

895
00:53:00,920 --> 00:53:04,880
Speaker 3: partner or like someone's you know, like I like people watching.

896
00:53:04,920 --> 00:53:07,760
Speaker 3: It just makes you feel part of like the circle,

897
00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:11,239
Speaker 3: you know, So just going out and like, you know,

898
00:53:11,400 --> 00:53:13,520
Speaker 3: not to sting cooped up in my room has very

899
00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:18,400
Speaker 3: much just sort of helped me just feel part of

900
00:53:18,440 --> 00:53:18,960
Speaker 3: the circle.

901
00:53:22,080 --> 00:53:23,680
Speaker 1: Barry, is there anything else you want to say to

902
00:53:23,719 --> 00:53:25,319
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

903
00:53:27,440 --> 00:53:27,640
Speaker 4: Uh?

904
00:53:27,960 --> 00:53:29,280
Speaker 3: Do you want to talk to Jerry again?

905
00:53:31,840 --> 00:53:32,040
Speaker 2: No?

906
00:53:32,120 --> 00:53:33,560
Speaker 1: I think I'm I think I'm gonna move on.

907
00:53:33,760 --> 00:53:34,879
Speaker 2: But we're here.

908
00:53:35,000 --> 00:53:36,120
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, I mean.

909
00:53:36,040 --> 00:53:37,480
Speaker 1: If they want to say if they oh wait, they

910
00:53:37,520 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 1: had a second thing they oh wait, yeah, he'll wait. Okay,

911
00:53:40,719 --> 00:53:42,880
Speaker 1: now I'm hold on. Now I'm remembering. Now I'm remembering.

912
00:53:43,600 --> 00:53:46,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, let me give you the Jerry. Here's here's here's Jerry,

913
00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:48,680
Speaker 3: Jerry speaking.

914
00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:52,680
Speaker 1: Okay, you had a question for me, and then I

915
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:55,640
Speaker 1: turned that into a whole thing. But then you also

916
00:53:55,680 --> 00:53:57,239
Speaker 1: had a thing you wanted to say. So what was

917
00:53:57,239 --> 00:53:58,279
Speaker 1: the thing you wanted to say?

918
00:53:58,480 --> 00:53:58,560
Speaker 2: Oh?

919
00:53:58,640 --> 00:54:00,400
Speaker 6: No, no, I just wanted to say my people to

920
00:54:00,520 --> 00:54:01,439
Speaker 6: the computer part?

921
00:54:02,200 --> 00:54:02,399
Speaker 2: Yeah?

922
00:54:02,440 --> 00:54:08,839
Speaker 5: Yeah, please Okay, first of all, don't litter, and second,

923
00:54:08,840 --> 00:54:12,160
Speaker 5: be so nice to animals because they don't do nothing

924
00:54:12,200 --> 00:54:12,880
Speaker 5: wrong here.

925
00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:18,719
Speaker 6: And third, please follow my uh in my skincare and

926
00:54:19,000 --> 00:54:24,760
Speaker 6: makeup Instagram account. It is at totality of them cool.

927
00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:26,239
Speaker 8: That's that.

928
00:54:27,200 --> 00:54:30,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you, thank you, thank you, Jerry, thank you.

929
00:54:30,640 --> 00:54:33,399
Speaker 1: Did Barry I have anything you want to say at all?

930
00:54:34,120 --> 00:54:34,520
Speaker 1: Did Barry?

931
00:54:34,880 --> 00:54:35,439
Speaker 6: Last word?

932
00:54:35,560 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 4: Barry?

933
00:54:38,800 --> 00:54:40,400
Speaker 6: With your mouth? With your mouth here.

934
00:54:43,360 --> 00:54:45,600
Speaker 3: Be kind swag?

935
00:54:46,239 --> 00:54:48,759
Speaker 1: Thank you Barry, thank you, Jerry, thank you. I'll see

936
00:54:48,760 --> 00:54:49,800
Speaker 1: you guys around the universe.

937
00:54:50,520 --> 00:54:50,879
Speaker 2: All right.

938
00:54:51,000 --> 00:54:52,200
Speaker 3: I love you, dude.

939
00:54:52,400 --> 00:55:00,600
Speaker 1: Thanks man, See you guys, Deck Bless. Hello everyone, what's up.

940
00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:06,239
Speaker 1: It's Lyle and I am going to end the podcast

941
00:55:06,320 --> 00:55:09,319
Speaker 1: today by doing something I feel like I haven't done

942
00:55:09,800 --> 00:55:15,759
Speaker 1: in a while, which is read a gek mail. That's

943
00:55:15,800 --> 00:55:20,200
Speaker 1: where I'm going to read a gek mail. Maybe a

944
00:55:20,360 --> 00:55:25,120
Speaker 1: second gek mail, but I'm gonna start with one. I

945
00:55:25,120 --> 00:55:28,719
Speaker 1: don't want to I'd rather read one and see how

946
00:55:28,719 --> 00:55:32,560
Speaker 1: I feel and promise two. I'm gonna keep reading one

947
00:55:32,640 --> 00:55:36,799
Speaker 1: and seeing how I feel and then we'll go from there.

948
00:55:36,800 --> 00:55:39,959
Speaker 1: But yeah, gek mail, it's a thing where people send

949
00:55:39,960 --> 00:55:45,280
Speaker 1: me emails with whatever they want to talk about and

950
00:55:45,280 --> 00:55:47,839
Speaker 1: then we talk about it. You can send a gak

951
00:55:47,880 --> 00:55:53,000
Speaker 1: mail to Therapy gecko mail at gmail dot com. Other

952
00:55:53,120 --> 00:55:58,279
Speaker 1: than that, let's read some Let's read some gek mails. Okay,

953
00:55:58,360 --> 00:56:01,640
Speaker 1: this is Chris uh oh. This is from Chris, it's

954
00:56:01,640 --> 00:56:11,000
Speaker 1: an update update starting a bay Blade community in my city. Okay,

955
00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:15,960
Speaker 1: let's see. Oh, okay, I remember the Okay, this guy

956
00:56:16,040 --> 00:56:21,040
Speaker 1: emailed me. Okay, I'm gonna read his first email. Well

957
00:56:21,080 --> 00:56:27,480
Speaker 1: he heard me. He there's a few emails he said. Okay, basically,

958
00:56:27,560 --> 00:56:31,520
Speaker 1: this guy sent me an email last time and he said,

959
00:56:32,400 --> 00:56:34,480
Speaker 1: one of the lessons I have learned from your show

960
00:56:34,680 --> 00:56:36,640
Speaker 1: is if you want something, you have to go out

961
00:56:36,680 --> 00:56:41,000
Speaker 1: and get it. And this lesson pushed me to contact

962
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:44,520
Speaker 1: a local game store to see if I can organize

963
00:56:44,560 --> 00:56:46,920
Speaker 1: a bay Blade tournament. And I read that email and

964
00:56:46,960 --> 00:56:49,520
Speaker 1: I was stoked on it. But I remember saying, let

965
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:51,520
Speaker 1: me know what happens. Let me know if you end

966
00:56:51,600 --> 00:56:54,319
Speaker 1: up actually starting the Bayblade tournament, like you know, show

967
00:56:54,360 --> 00:56:59,400
Speaker 1: we pictures what happened. So okay, this is another email. Okay,

968
00:56:59,400 --> 00:57:04,479
Speaker 1: so updates starting a Bayblade community in my city. Hey, Gek.

969
00:57:04,719 --> 00:57:06,520
Speaker 1: First of all, I was so happy when you read

970
00:57:06,520 --> 00:57:08,560
Speaker 1: my email on the pod. I felt like one of

971
00:57:08,640 --> 00:57:12,440
Speaker 1: those crazy white boys in Mad Max. I've never seen

972
00:57:12,480 --> 00:57:15,279
Speaker 1: Mad Max, so I don't know what that means. But okay, anyways,

973
00:57:15,840 --> 00:57:21,920
Speaker 1: the bay Blade tournament is happening. It's fucking happening. Hell, Yes, okay,

974
00:57:21,920 --> 00:57:27,000
Speaker 1: the Bayblade Tournament is happening, albeit a bit slower than

975
00:57:27,000 --> 00:57:29,960
Speaker 1: I anticipated because there's a lot of elements that had

976
00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:33,320
Speaker 1: to align to make it happen. Yes, all the bay

977
00:57:33,360 --> 00:57:37,840
Speaker 1: Blayers very busy people to get all those schedules lined up.

978
00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:42,960
Speaker 1: But yeah, the eleventh of July, my city will have

979
00:57:43,040 --> 00:57:48,320
Speaker 1: its very first bay Blade X tournament. Failure or not,

980
00:57:48,800 --> 00:57:51,240
Speaker 1: I will send you a follow up email to let

981
00:57:51,280 --> 00:57:53,880
Speaker 1: you know how it goes. All I know is I'm

982
00:57:53,880 --> 00:57:58,000
Speaker 1: excited as hell. Wait, Chris, hold on, dude, you gotta

983
00:57:58,000 --> 00:57:59,080
Speaker 1: give me a fucking.

984
00:58:00,520 --> 00:58:00,640
Speaker 2: Hell.

985
00:58:00,720 --> 00:58:02,920
Speaker 1: I'm responding to where is I want to tell the

986
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:04,880
Speaker 1: I want to tell the podcast people about it? Where's

987
00:58:04,880 --> 00:58:12,400
Speaker 1: this babe aid tournament? Where is the tournament happening? Okay,

988
00:58:12,400 --> 00:58:15,320
Speaker 1: I just responded to him, where is the tournament happening?

989
00:58:16,160 --> 00:58:19,400
Speaker 1: I'll promote. I'll promote it on the on the fucking pod.

990
00:58:19,960 --> 00:58:22,640
Speaker 1: We're gonna do fuck my tour dates. Let's I'm gonna

991
00:58:23,080 --> 00:58:30,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna change all pod promotion for efforts away from

992
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:34,040
Speaker 1: my tour dates, which you can get tickets for at

993
00:58:34,080 --> 00:58:36,240
Speaker 1: Therapy Gecko tour dot com. I'm gonna take all of

994
00:58:36,400 --> 00:58:42,400
Speaker 1: my podcast promotion, my my podcast tour dates, uh, promotion

995
00:58:42,480 --> 00:58:45,640
Speaker 1: away and put it all into the Babelade tournament. That's

996
00:58:45,640 --> 00:58:47,800
Speaker 1: what I'm gonna do. Okay, Chris, keep me updated. You

997
00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:49,840
Speaker 1: better respond to that email. Let me know where this is. Okay,

998
00:58:51,560 --> 00:58:55,160
Speaker 1: all right, that felt good. I'll read another one. Let's

999
00:58:55,160 --> 00:59:01,160
Speaker 1: see this is this is? This email's name is fresh Start. Hey,

1000
00:59:01,160 --> 00:59:04,920
Speaker 1: Gecko man, I would like to go by Churo. I

1001
00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:06,320
Speaker 1: don't really know if this will make it to the

1002
00:59:06,360 --> 00:59:09,440
Speaker 1: gek mail segment. It did, but regardless, I would like

1003
00:59:09,480 --> 00:59:12,760
Speaker 1: to write this as a means of yapping slash, getting

1004
00:59:12,760 --> 00:59:15,200
Speaker 1: it out of my chest. I have been in the

1005
00:59:15,240 --> 00:59:19,200
Speaker 1: same career for the last eight years, going on nine now.

1006
00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:23,360
Speaker 1: I am currently twenty eight and moving up to the North.

1007
00:59:24,000 --> 00:59:27,160
Speaker 1: I currently live on the island of Puerto Rico, and

1008
00:59:27,200 --> 00:59:29,640
Speaker 1: I am moving up to Maryland soon for a new

1009
00:59:29,760 --> 00:59:32,600
Speaker 1: job I got. I am kind of anxious and nervous

1010
00:59:32,640 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 1: about how well I will fit in and most of all,

1011
00:59:35,520 --> 00:59:38,560
Speaker 1: how I will handle the culture shock if I encounter

1012
00:59:39,720 --> 00:59:43,000
Speaker 1: some Oh okay, I thought he was gonna okay if

1013
00:59:43,000 --> 00:59:44,280
Speaker 1: he encounters some culture shock.

1014
00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:44,600
Speaker 7: Okay.

1015
00:59:45,160 --> 00:59:46,840
Speaker 1: I've been living in Puerto Rico for most of my

1016
00:59:46,880 --> 00:59:49,800
Speaker 1: life and moving to the States feels surreal, and I

1017
00:59:49,800 --> 00:59:51,840
Speaker 1: feel like I'm leaving behind a part of me in

1018
00:59:51,880 --> 00:59:55,919
Speaker 1: the Island. I've got family over in Maryland shout out Maryland,

1019
00:59:56,000 --> 00:59:58,400
Speaker 1: which will make them move a bit easier. But it

1020
00:59:58,520 --> 01:00:01,560
Speaker 1: being my first time moving on my own and taking

1021
01:00:01,560 --> 01:00:04,040
Speaker 1: on a new career feels like I am about to

1022
01:00:04,040 --> 01:00:07,360
Speaker 1: climb a mountain, one which I will reach the top

1023
01:00:07,400 --> 01:00:10,120
Speaker 1: of with help and support from my loved ones. Yet

1024
01:00:10,200 --> 01:00:12,160
Speaker 1: I have a little voice in my head that leads

1025
01:00:12,240 --> 01:00:14,800
Speaker 1: me to overthink. It makes the worst case scenario possible.

1026
01:00:15,760 --> 01:00:19,320
Speaker 1: My question is, do you have any tips on overthinking

1027
01:00:19,640 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 1: and over analyzing anything and everything? Much appreciated, get blessed.

1028
01:00:26,000 --> 01:00:28,640
Speaker 1: I don't have tips, but I have a lot of experience.

1029
01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:32,840
Speaker 1: Maybe my experience can help you. My experience of doing that,

1030
01:00:33,400 --> 01:00:34,440
Speaker 1: I mean, I do it all the time. I'm a

1031
01:00:34,480 --> 01:00:38,600
Speaker 1: huge overthinking or I ever analyze. I you know, it's

1032
01:00:38,880 --> 01:00:41,680
Speaker 1: I'm I'm really, really, really lucky. I've gotten to do

1033
01:00:41,840 --> 01:00:45,080
Speaker 1: a lot of shit in my life despite probably having

1034
01:00:45,080 --> 01:00:50,840
Speaker 1: spent like, god, you know, so much significantly, I mean,

1035
01:00:52,560 --> 01:00:58,080
Speaker 1: fifty one hundred times more time thinking and over analyzing

1036
01:00:58,080 --> 01:01:00,840
Speaker 1: shit than like doing shit. I'm just lucky. I had

1037
01:01:00,840 --> 01:01:04,760
Speaker 1: my little times where I got to do stuff, you know,

1038
01:01:04,960 --> 01:01:07,520
Speaker 1: And that's the thing I feel like I'll regret on

1039
01:01:07,560 --> 01:01:11,240
Speaker 1: my deathbed. I'll regret anytime I was a dick or

1040
01:01:11,280 --> 01:01:15,000
Speaker 1: anytime I was worried. I feel like those are the

1041
01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:18,120
Speaker 1: two things I'll regret. But how do I how do I?

1042
01:01:18,200 --> 01:01:21,800
Speaker 1: How do you not over analyzed and overthink everything? I

1043
01:01:21,840 --> 01:01:25,960
Speaker 1: mean it's hard, I do it all the time, but

1044
01:01:26,040 --> 01:01:32,439
Speaker 1: I ultimately think that in a scenario like this, where

1045
01:01:32,440 --> 01:01:35,720
Speaker 1: you've been doing the same shit for eight years, you've

1046
01:01:35,720 --> 01:01:39,240
Speaker 1: been living in Puerto Rico for eight years, you're making

1047
01:01:39,280 --> 01:01:41,240
Speaker 1: a move, you feel you're making a move, and you

1048
01:01:41,240 --> 01:01:43,840
Speaker 1: feel pretty confident about too. You have family over there,

1049
01:01:43,880 --> 01:01:46,440
Speaker 1: and you literally just said, I'm going to reach the

1050
01:01:46,480 --> 01:01:48,480
Speaker 1: top of it with the help and support of my

1051
01:01:48,560 --> 01:01:50,880
Speaker 1: loved ones. I mean, I can already tell, I can

1052
01:01:50,920 --> 01:01:52,680
Speaker 1: already tell that you're gonna be okay, just byter the

1053
01:01:52,680 --> 01:01:55,600
Speaker 1: fact that you even said that. You know the fact

1054
01:01:55,600 --> 01:01:58,480
Speaker 1: that you feel so confident in those relationships that they

1055
01:01:58,520 --> 01:02:04,480
Speaker 1: will guide you to where you want to be. So

1056
01:02:05,560 --> 01:02:08,160
Speaker 1: I believe in you, just based on that fact that

1057
01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:12,000
Speaker 1: you believe in yourself. In this scenario particularly, I do

1058
01:02:12,080 --> 01:02:16,520
Speaker 1: think this is a nice move because I don't know. Man,

1059
01:02:16,840 --> 01:02:18,880
Speaker 1: this is just me personally. But I always want to

1060
01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:22,120
Speaker 1: keep I want to keep evolving, you know, when I

1061
01:02:22,920 --> 01:02:24,840
Speaker 1: feel like I can get I don't want to get

1062
01:02:24,880 --> 01:02:27,440
Speaker 1: stuck in something for so long and then by you know,

1063
01:02:27,480 --> 01:02:29,440
Speaker 1: I'm also twenty eight and at twenty eight, it's like

1064
01:02:32,200 --> 01:02:40,360
Speaker 1: your life doesn't naturally evolve that much. You have to

1065
01:02:40,520 --> 01:02:44,560
Speaker 1: make it evolve. You have to take different choices and

1066
01:02:44,640 --> 01:02:49,160
Speaker 1: do different things to get your life to evolve. And

1067
01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:51,080
Speaker 1: if you just overthink, I mean, dude, you can. You

1068
01:02:51,080 --> 01:02:55,920
Speaker 1: can overthink shit for like years. I've experienced that, I

1069
01:02:56,000 --> 01:02:59,880
Speaker 1: really have. I've experienced like I was reading journals of mine,

1070
01:03:00,040 --> 01:03:04,320
Speaker 1: I'm like twenty twenty four, twenty twenty three, where it's

1071
01:03:04,360 --> 01:03:07,040
Speaker 1: like I'm talking about shit that there's some shit that

1072
01:03:07,080 --> 01:03:09,360
Speaker 1: I'm talking about that you know I actually have like

1073
01:03:09,480 --> 01:03:11,760
Speaker 1: take an action on and done well. But there's socially

1074
01:03:11,760 --> 01:03:13,440
Speaker 1: I'm talking about where it's like, fuck, did I'm talking

1075
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:15,120
Speaker 1: about doing? I'm talking about like, oh, I'm gonna do

1076
01:03:15,160 --> 01:03:19,560
Speaker 1: that like today. You know, like you can overthink and

1077
01:03:19,600 --> 01:03:21,800
Speaker 1: overanalyze four years and years and years and just not

1078
01:03:21,840 --> 01:03:24,880
Speaker 1: make a decision at the time. Just fucking passes. Not

1079
01:03:24,920 --> 01:03:28,920
Speaker 1: to freak people out, but I'm glad you're making a decision.

1080
01:03:28,920 --> 01:03:34,080
Speaker 1: I'm glad you're doing a thing, so you know, be happy.

1081
01:03:34,160 --> 01:03:35,919
Speaker 1: Be happy with your decision. I think it's a good one,

1082
01:03:36,120 --> 01:03:37,920
Speaker 1: especially if you have that much confidence in it that

1083
01:03:37,960 --> 01:03:43,800
Speaker 1: your homies are going to help you out. Well, we

1084
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Speaker 1: did it, folks, we did a gek mail. I'm pretty

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Speaker 1: happy with it. I'm pretty We had the guy moving

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Speaker 1: from Puerto Rico, and then we had the babylay guy.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna see what happens with that bab blade tournament.

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Speaker 1: Go to this guy's baby blay tournament July eleventh. That's

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Speaker 1: all the info I have. When I have I have

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Speaker 1: more info, I will let you all know. I promised

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Speaker 1: I am on tour. If you live in Portland, Seattle,

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Speaker 1: San Francisco, Vancouver, or Minneapolis, I am coming to your

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Speaker 1: city very soon. Let's see, I'm coming to the Pacific Northwest,

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Speaker 1: like immediately, Like I'm coming there like next week. San

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Speaker 1: Francisco June fourth, Portland June fifth, Seattle June sixth, Vancouver

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Speaker 1: June seventh, Minneapolis June ninth, and a whole bunch of

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Speaker 1: other dates. Many many other cities are available now at

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Speaker 1: therapy geckotour dot com. Uh, please go check that out.

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Speaker 1: Please come see the live shows I've got I'm, I'm.

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Speaker 1: They're basically the live shows are like a combination of

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Speaker 1: like this podcast, where I invite people up on stage

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Speaker 1: and we talk, and then also I do a lot

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Speaker 1: of storytelling. So you know, I went to Iraq, I

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Speaker 1: went to Ukraine. I've been living my life. I have

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Speaker 1: stories about it. I'll be telling some story. It'll be fun,

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Speaker 1: it'll be nice. Go check that out therapy geckotour dot

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Speaker 1: com or the link in the episode description. I also

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Speaker 1: have a bonus episode this week on Patreon, Patreon dot com,

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Speaker 1: slash lyle forever. You get access to every episode of

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Speaker 1: this podcast add free, every episode of this podcast that

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Speaker 1: is a bonus episode that is not on the main feed.

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Speaker 1: And what else, Oh you get there's there's extra footage

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Speaker 1: from the documentaries. There's a whole bunch of stuff on

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Speaker 1: that Patreon, Patreon dot com, slash lyle forever. Here's a

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Speaker 1: little clip a bonus episode. Clip from this week's bonus episode.

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Speaker 8: I'm gonna quit my job in the next week, and

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Speaker 8: I wanted your advice on how I should do it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, what's your job?

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Speaker 8: I do kind of like a like experimental testing, I

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Speaker 8: would say, is what I do? So it's hazardous environment,

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Speaker 8: like high energy testing.

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Speaker 1: On on animals.

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Speaker 8: No, no, oh gosh, no, nothing that's alive. I do

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Speaker 8: like aerospace grade testing. But the purpose of it is

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Speaker 8: anything you want to do that you shouldn't do on

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Speaker 8: the Earth, you can instead do it in space because

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Speaker 8: it's a little safer.

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Speaker 2: Hmm.

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Speaker 1: What is the coolest dangerous thing that you are trying

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Speaker 1: to figure out how to do in space?

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Speaker 8: The highlight of my career was helping to build one

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Speaker 8: of the most powerful rocket engines in the modern day

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Speaker 8: and seeing it fly over and over again. That was

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Speaker 8: probably the coolest thing. So everything since then it's been

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Speaker 8: kind of chasing the same feeling, but not being able

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Speaker 8: to find something that gets tainted, I would say, because

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Speaker 8: it felt very purposeful.

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Speaker 1: Damn dude. So you build, you're building? You build a rocket?

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Speaker 8: Yes?

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Speaker 2: Yep?

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Speaker 1: Okay, and why are you quitting? That was a preview

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Speaker 1: of the bonus episode. You can check that out at

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Speaker 1: patreon dot com, slash Lyle forever and uh, that's about it.

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Speaker 2: Thank you.

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Speaker 1: Guys for listening.

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Speaker 2: Ghak.

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Speaker 1: Bless you all and I'll see you guys around the universe.

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Speaker 2: Bye.

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Speaker 1: Everyone goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

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Speaker 7: Deacon goes to his hide just teaching you aloud.

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Speaker 1: In the Memorial Life, Monday's not really an expert.