Speaker 1: This is finally, this is literally happening, the happening.
Speaker 2: Or who's going to enjoy it? Okay, well, it's been
Speaker 2: three years in the making.
Speaker 3: And this is all we have four four years.
Speaker 2: Oh my god.
Speaker 1: So it's only taken us four years to get here,
Speaker 1: and this is what you've been waiting for.
Speaker 3: This is the setup.
Speaker 1: For the podcast called Emergency Intercom.
Speaker 3: A podcast by Drew Phillips and any Mansor.
Speaker 1: It's not an emergency, but it is because we need attention,
Speaker 1: and it is an emergency for attention. It's an emergency
Speaker 1: call for you to look at me.
Speaker 2: Also, do we have to talk about that? Actually, the
Speaker 2: fact that it's not called radio is.
Speaker 3: Dead anymore, we can talk about it.
Speaker 2: It's not called Radio's Dead anymore. Move on, grow up.
Speaker 3: We didn't like the name anymore. It was outdated.
Speaker 2: It felt very.
Speaker 3: Just not us. Yeah, very twenty seventeen and I don't know.
Speaker 1: If you've checked, but it's not twenty seventeen anymore. Twenty
Speaker 1: seventeen and twenty nineteen and two of the best years
Speaker 1: of my life.
Speaker 3: Twenty seventeen and twenty nineteen. Yeah, what about twenty eighteen? Oh,
Speaker 3: twenty eighteen is not a good. Good, you're you're asleep
Speaker 3: until sixty pm.
Speaker 2: My twenty eighteen was your twenty twenty?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh what was I gonna say?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: Also, if anyone has any questions about the setup, if
Speaker 1: you're listening audio wise, you have no idea where we are.
Speaker 1: It sounds very good. I'm sure it sounds like we're
Speaker 1: in a studio, but if you have eyes and you
Speaker 1: are looking at the visual one.
Speaker 3: It's fucking terrible. It looks very very bad. No, come on,
Speaker 3: I mean it's it's cute, it has its moment, but
Speaker 3: like it just looks bad. And uh, I think the
Speaker 3: idea for it is you can watch us grow together.
Speaker 1: But also the main idea for it is we decided
Speaker 1: last minute not to sign with anybody, take a risk
Speaker 1: on ourselves because no one wanted to invest in us.
Speaker 1: And then we were like, you know what, maybe those
Speaker 1: people are smart. I don't want to invest in us either,
Speaker 1: So we're using what we got and.
Speaker 3: We're putting zero dollars into this. This is everything found
Speaker 3: around our house.
Speaker 2: Except the mics. The mics I've literally had for four years.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because we wanted to do this podcast four years ago,
Speaker 3: but we just kind of passed on it.
Speaker 2: You know, it just wasn't the right time.
Speaker 1: But now is the right time because as we get older,
Speaker 1: nobody cares about us, and we want to bring that back.
Speaker 3: And also we have a lot of opinions, a lot
Speaker 3: of thoughts. I think we're wiser now, we've grown a
Speaker 3: little little bit. And yeah, I just want to be heard.
Speaker 3: I want to be heard.
Speaker 2: I am not why I do not say that it doesn't.
Speaker 3: So I was joking. We are literally shit, we.
Speaker 2: Literally rocks in our brains. But yeah, so that's what
Speaker 2: the setup is like right now. I don't know, I'm
Speaker 2: not against. It feels homey because we literally are in
Speaker 2: our kitchen. Actually, also, Honor is literally behind Drew's head.
Speaker 3: I was like, it's kind of hot in here. Let
Speaker 3: just turn it down a little bit. I was gonna say,
Speaker 3: I don't know where I've been looking this entire time,
Speaker 3: So this clip is gonna I'm gonna look fucking crazy,
Speaker 3: and like, I literally don't remember the last five minutes.
Speaker 2: It's crazy.
Speaker 1: The lenses right there, I don't know. I've been trying
Speaker 1: to do a good job of looking at the lens,
Speaker 1: but also the viewfinders right next to it, so I've
Speaker 1: been looking at myself too, because.
Speaker 3: We're sexy and it's hard to look away. It's a
Speaker 3: good thing.
Speaker 1: We have both gotten extremely sexy since we last recorded
Speaker 1: an episode of the podcast.
Speaker 3: Yeah the Internet thinks I'm which is new for me.
Speaker 3: Which is new for me. I am sexy, I am giving.
Speaker 3: I am everything to the internet now, and I don't
Speaker 3: know what changed. I think it's my hair. I think
Speaker 3: it's the mustache.
Speaker 2: People people used to hate on the mustache, yeah.
Speaker 3: But now they've grown to love it. And I think
Speaker 3: what actually know what it is is. It's like it's
Speaker 3: like daddy issues. That's what it is. That's what it is.
Speaker 3: It truly is it's like people who are attracted to
Speaker 3: older looking.
Speaker 2: Men looking men.
Speaker 1: And then I also like, I think our audience grew
Speaker 1: up and they're just like now, they're like eighteen and up,
Speaker 1: a lot of them, so they're like, wait, I don't
Speaker 1: like little I don't boys. An girl not little boys,
Speaker 1: but I don't like like, I'm no longer attracted to
Speaker 1: like sixteen year olds at least I hope you're not
Speaker 1: boy boy.
Speaker 3: But yeah, no, I'm sexy to the internet now. And
Speaker 3: every time I get a comment calling me sexy. It
Speaker 3: goes straight to my fucking head. Any time anytime we
Speaker 3: post a TikTok on anybody's account, all of the comments
Speaker 3: are like, wait, damn, why is you find all of
Speaker 3: a sudden you know.
Speaker 2: Needs to happen? Is I had this when I when
Speaker 2: I got on the internet.
Speaker 1: But this is like more weird and it says a
Speaker 1: lot more about like weird sexism and like grooming of women.
Speaker 2: But that's a different topic.
Speaker 3: But when I can talk about that later.
Speaker 1: And I was like fourteen and I had that little preprebescent,
Speaker 1: like bony body.
Speaker 2: I was sexy hot. Everyone wanted to look at me,
Speaker 2: love me.
Speaker 1: And then once I got to like junior year, senior year,
Speaker 1: and I started to look more like a woman. People
Speaker 1: started calling me fat and ugly, and then I was like,
Speaker 1: I was like, what the fuck? And then I went
Speaker 1: through a phase where I was body shamed and ugly.
Speaker 2: So you need to hit that.
Speaker 3: You want me to be body shamed ugly? Well here,
Speaker 3: I think you're sexy right now.
Speaker 2: Thanks. Do you want for me?
Speaker 3: You know exactly what I want from here?
Speaker 2: Come on, let's get back together. Damn it.
Speaker 3: But yeah, no, I love being sexy. It feels good.
Speaker 3: It finally I finally hit that point in my life
Speaker 3: where like it's a struggle to be funny online because
Speaker 3: I'm like, wait, but it's so enticing, like to be complimented. No, genuinely,
Speaker 3: I'm like, it's so enticing to become.
Speaker 2: Between my modeling career and like not that.
Speaker 3: I meant like, it's like I could go that route,
Speaker 3: I could go this sexy boy route if I wanted to,
Speaker 3: but like could do a mix of it.
Speaker 2: The word for me, I guess I will say, like.
Speaker 1: That's one of my biggest issues on the internet is
Speaker 1: like I like to think of myself as like a
Speaker 1: funny personality or like someone who's inching towards being a
Speaker 1: comedian and doing comedic things, but I'm also very interested
Speaker 1: in being sexy and like also making art.
Speaker 2: So then it's like I don't know who I am.
Speaker 1: I am so lost, I am twenty two, and I
Speaker 1: still feel like nothing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean you have a good balance of being
Speaker 3: both sexy and like you're just sexy and I think
Speaker 3: you're like super sexy and like.
Speaker 2: Okay, girls, it's the first episode.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, but but you do balance it well. Actually,
Speaker 3: thank you. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I think as I've got older, I've round a little
Speaker 1: better at balancing it, because you know what, I am
Speaker 1: a multifaceted woman. I'm a multifaceted LATINX woman. Queen LATINX.
Speaker 1: I said that at lunch the other day and someone
Speaker 1: was like, LATINX and I was like, oh, it's like
Speaker 1: latin X, but I just like me and my friend
Speaker 1: say we say LATINX.
Speaker 2: And someone was like.
Speaker 1: Oh, okay, like I've never heard that, and then they
Speaker 1: were like, but I like that, it's a little more,
Speaker 1: but I think it's.
Speaker 3: Was it one of those thirty year olds.
Speaker 1: Come on, man, No, this was a fellow young person,
Speaker 1: a fellow young Latin person.
Speaker 2: But yeah, they were like, I like it. It feminizes it.
Speaker 2: But then I was like, wait, I think the point of.
Speaker 3: The X is to unfeminize it. It's just too Yeah, exactly.
Speaker 3: That was the discourse that caused in my school in
Speaker 3: Texas was crazy.
Speaker 2: There was wars over LATINX.
Speaker 3: I swear to god, literally people were so mad, like
Speaker 3: people were mad and people were like, let's go Like
Speaker 3: it was it was just like, obviously I was on
Speaker 3: the let's go Sidey.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna say I love being the let's go being,
Speaker 2: Let's go out school is always.
Speaker 3: I'm literally just I'm let's go with everything, literally anything,
Speaker 3: any topic of conversation. I'm like, let's fucking go, let's go.
Speaker 2: You just want to talk exactly, okay. Also, we're literally
Speaker 2: so rambling.
Speaker 1: I think we need to bring it back a little
Speaker 1: bit and just update where have we been?
Speaker 2: What is I guess Actually, I don't know if we
Speaker 2: need to talk about been.
Speaker 3: No, we can talk about where I've been.
Speaker 1: But I'm going to put us each on a timer
Speaker 1: because we will both treat this like therapy.
Speaker 3: You know what I realized this therapy.
Speaker 2: Yes, I stopped making like face to camera videos. I'm
Speaker 2: about to burp, Well, chill, that was good.
Speaker 3: That was a good one.
Speaker 2: You're red bull and strawberries. That's a good little mix'd
Speaker 2: it wasn't bad, I swear, okay, chill.
Speaker 1: I stopped making like face to camera talking videos once
Speaker 1: I started getting therapy, Like.
Speaker 3: If you look at my channel, yeah.
Speaker 1: Talking straight up to the camera dissipated after I started
Speaker 1: getting therapy, because, like it was fully, I wasn't being
Speaker 1: super open because like I don't enjoy being too public
Speaker 1: about my personal life.
Speaker 2: But obviously it's therapeutic to just like.
Speaker 1: Talk and kind of like go on about like anything,
Speaker 1: because it is therapeutic to just talk and get it out.
Speaker 1: But yeah, those stopped as I got therapy, and I'm
Speaker 1: trying to bring them back.
Speaker 3: I was about to say, literally all of the people
Speaker 3: listening and watching right now are like, bitch, stop going
Speaker 3: to fucking therapy. Yeah, okay, then stop, like please post
Speaker 3: more or please post more?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, do you want to go first for your life?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: So we don't we.
Speaker 3: Don't end it on a bad note. Yeah, I'll go first.
Speaker 1: Okay, you're getting a fucking timer, girl, Okay, how long
Speaker 1: do I have? You have?
Speaker 2: Ten minutes?
Speaker 3: That is not enough fucking time.
Speaker 1: Okay, I'll give you ten minutes and fifteen seconds.
Speaker 2: Okay, that's a little spice. Okay, there you go.
Speaker 3: Where do I start?
Speaker 1: Man?
Speaker 2: Actually, wait, let's pause that because literally where girl? Figure
Speaker 2: out where going to start? Oh?
Speaker 1: Actually yeah, I don't know if you want to do
Speaker 1: the four years, if you want to do the one year,
Speaker 1: I feel like you're one year.
Speaker 3: With my one year is enough. I think I can
Speaker 3: just talk about my one year.
Speaker 2: Wait, your life is low key a movie.
Speaker 3: My life is a movie, not low key. It is
Speaker 3: a fucking movie.
Speaker 2: Bitch me, like last night was a movie.
Speaker 3: The movie in question Drew Phillips Life sitting for the
Speaker 3: last fourteen hours on my phone.
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, I'm gonnaver resume it. You have ten minutes
Speaker 2: and nine seconds.
Speaker 3: Now, Okay, So let's start a year ago, right, So,
Speaker 3: life was fucking awesome. I think I was. Mentally, I
Speaker 3: was the best I'd ever been. I was fortified. I
Speaker 3: had everything. I had all the armor, I had all
Speaker 3: the weapons to come bat my depressive episodes. Life was
Speaker 3: fucking great and I was killing it right then, like
Speaker 3: I slowly started slipping up. If you remember, I was like,
Speaker 3: I'm kind of like feeling weird. So I decided, I
Speaker 3: was like, I need to get out of LA for
Speaker 3: a second. Not because I need to get out of LA,
Speaker 3: but just because I need to like be in nature,
Speaker 3: Like I need to like reconnect with nature. Yeah, exactly,
Speaker 3: I need to I need to be grounded. Right, So wait,
Speaker 3: should I talk about do you know what I'm talking about? Yeah,
Speaker 3: I'll talk about you can.
Speaker 2: Give it a little blake to savement.
Speaker 1: We're not this isn't this We're not this the tea
Speaker 1: spill yossification of podcasts.
Speaker 3: Okay, so I was talking to someone. Okay, let's let's
Speaker 3: start a year ago.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna get I'm gonna restart your time.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so let's start a year ago. Life was great.
Speaker 3: I was feeling great. I was happy. I had all
Speaker 3: the armor to combat my depressive episodes. I was I
Speaker 3: had the weapons. I was cutting that bitch up like
Speaker 3: nothing was stopping me. And then I met someone and
Speaker 3: for like my entire life, I was like, I don't
Speaker 3: think I'm capable of love, like romantic love. I think
Speaker 3: I made romantic my whole life. I was like, I
Speaker 3: think I'm a romantic And I met this person. This
Speaker 3: person was a good person and it wasn't me. Yeah,
Speaker 3: and long story short, they broke my heart and I
Speaker 3: was shattered and my whole life flashed before my eyes
Speaker 3: and I was like, you know what am I doing?
Speaker 3: What am I doing here? Like what is this all about?
Speaker 3: So I got super existential and I was like, Okay,
Speaker 3: I need to ground myself. So I decided let's get
Speaker 3: out of La. Not because I wanted to get out
Speaker 3: of LA, but because I wanted to like reconnect with
Speaker 3: nature and just like camp I guess, like, just go camping,
Speaker 3: because camping is fucking awesome and everyone should do it.
Speaker 3: And so we decided, let's go somewhere where there's like
Speaker 3: no cell phone connection in the absolute middle of nowhere,
Speaker 3: in the mountains of fucking Utah. So me and Oriyan
Speaker 3: were like, uh, let's do it. Let's go, and instead
Speaker 3: of flying, we road tripped, which was like crazy. I
Speaker 3: hadn't been in a car ride that long in a
Speaker 3: very long time. It was only like six hours, but
Speaker 3: I'm used to like driving twenty minutes like whatever, so
Speaker 3: it wasn't that bad. We stopped in Las Vegas. It
Speaker 3: was great. We got our room for the night, slept there,
Speaker 3: and then I just like the whole time, I had
Speaker 3: this weird feeling. I don't know, I think I've told
Speaker 3: you about that. Like I just had this like weird,
Speaker 3: like like feeling. I couldn't shake it. And then we decided, like,
Speaker 3: let's drive up. Like we left the next morning, got
Speaker 3: to Utah, and then immediate when we got there, we
Speaker 3: drove up the mountain and it was Friday at this point,
Speaker 3: and then legitimately right when we lost service, my brother
Speaker 3: was like, you know what, I'm a fucking die. I'm
Speaker 3: a die. So my brother died when we were driving
Speaker 3: up the mountain. Literally I'm not joking. It's like within
Speaker 3: like we've my parents found out and like we're trying
Speaker 3: to call us, like within like five minutes of us
Speaker 3: losing service. It was like it was almost like kind
Speaker 3: of like perfectly imperfect, I guess. So like we're up
Speaker 3: in the mountains, like I'm having like probably one of
Speaker 3: the best weekends of my life in a very long time.
Speaker 3: It's super just like uh like just disconnected from everything,
Speaker 3: just connecting with like my older brother, who haven't really
Speaker 3: had a relationship with my whole life, but now we're
Speaker 3: like really fucking close, like no cell phones inside, just
Speaker 3: like hanging out and literally ignorance truly is lists And
Speaker 3: like while my entire family was like back home exploding,
Speaker 3: it was like literally warfare. I was up in the mountains,
Speaker 3: like swimming in a fucking lake, kayaking, getting sunburnt, literally
Speaker 3: just having the time of my fucking life. And I
Speaker 3: don't know what that says about anything, but I would
Speaker 3: not change it for Like, I wouldn't change that for anything.
Speaker 3: I wouldn't want to find out on the Friday and
Speaker 3: then have to fly back to Texas. I'm glad, Yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm glad. I had those three days that weekend to
Speaker 3: just like decompress. And then right when we got service,
Speaker 3: my phone fucking blew up. Got all the text all
Speaker 3: the calls. I thought everyone was fucking joking, and like
Speaker 3: everybody back in my hometown in Granberry, Texas had known
Speaker 3: before me because my sister was posting about it on
Speaker 3: Facebook and shit. So I had like three hundred texts
Speaker 3: from people just saying like I'm so sorry to hear
Speaker 3: about your loss, like blah blah blah blah blah. And
Speaker 3: I was like, what the fuck, Like what do you
Speaker 3: mean my loss? And then my dad called, bawling his
Speaker 3: eyes out and he's like, your brother's dead, and I
Speaker 3: was like fuck, I was like god damn it. Yeah,
Speaker 3: And yeah it was just some bullshit. But uh, if
Speaker 3: like you're experiencing loss right now, I know, it's like
Speaker 3: really hard to see it, but the way like all
Speaker 3: the good that's come from his passing like is I
Speaker 3: know it's so cliche to say, but like legitimately, like
Speaker 3: my family was really disconnected, like none of us talk
Speaker 3: none of us ever spoke and like now we're like
Speaker 3: like a legitimate family, like I like can use that
Speaker 3: word like seriously, Like we have like real connections with
Speaker 3: each other and like we speak on a daily basis
Speaker 3: and it's really good. And that wouldn't have happened if
Speaker 3: Sam hadn't passed. And I think that's like the super yeah,
Speaker 3: the silber lining or like the purpose of it or whatever,
Speaker 3: if you'd like try to find purpose and fucking loss.
Speaker 3: I don't know, but yeah, my brother died, my heart
Speaker 3: was broken, some other Yeah, so twenty twenty is looking
Speaker 3: like shit, some other crazy shit happened that I'm just
Speaker 3: not comfortable talking about on camera. It does not need
Speaker 3: to be spoken about, but just know it involves my
Speaker 3: family some more and it's just wrong.
Speaker 2: Phillip's family got the ass whooping of.
Speaker 3: The sense literally and like the worst I mean not
Speaker 3: the worst, but like it's just crazy because like twenty
Speaker 3: twenty really was the worst year of my life and
Speaker 3: like comparative to like other people's lives, Like I know
Speaker 3: it's you're not supposed to do that, but like literally
Speaker 3: it's not that bad. But I had such a good
Speaker 3: life going up until that point like literally I hadn't
Speaker 3: experienced like truly anything negative in my entire life, and
Speaker 3: then twenty twenty happened, like and it wasn't even because COVID,
Speaker 3: like COVID, like yeah, that's whatever, that's.
Speaker 1: The most insane thing, and like COVID wasn't even like
Speaker 1: the basis of any of those problems. Yeah, like I'm
Speaker 1: sure you could look at it and be like, oh,
Speaker 1: it exponentiated some of the things maybe, but like not either.
Speaker 3: Not even yeah, because we still continued, like we had
Speaker 3: the funeral whatever, yeah whatever, but yeah, just.
Speaker 2: The funeral was lit.
Speaker 3: It was and you came, and you came, and you
Speaker 3: got fleud out she came?
Speaker 1: Did I Literally I like the panic I went into
Speaker 1: when I heard that. What's crazy is when you were
Speaker 1: telling that story again, I was thinking about how, like
Speaker 1: I in twenty twenty was so off of my phone
Speaker 1: and like we all know, like I just suck at
Speaker 1: using my phone in general, unless I go into like
Speaker 1: the weird warps where like I'm anxiety attached to it.
Speaker 2: But I like she had posted on it and I
Speaker 2: hadn't seen it, Like, yeah.
Speaker 1: I hadn't seen anything about that until you said something
Speaker 1: to me and like, dude, I like remember I like
Speaker 1: even I was like, I was like, oh my god.
Speaker 1: And I went to the full panic and I called
Speaker 1: my dad and I was like and I was like,
Speaker 1: I was like I don't know what to do.
Speaker 3: Literally, that's what I told everyone. I was like, literally,
Speaker 3: just say you love your family, because like it was,
Speaker 3: it was so off guard and bullshit that it happened,
Speaker 3: but like what the fuck am I going to do
Speaker 3: about it? And also literally it's so like I feel
Speaker 3: so bad for Oryan because she was there, Like she
Speaker 3: was there when we got the call, and like when
Speaker 3: I was like balling my eyes out. Actually, she told
Speaker 3: me the funniest thing the other day. She was like
Speaker 3: she thought like when she first heard she my dad
Speaker 3: called him, was like Sam died and like Oriyan in
Speaker 3: her brain thought like our family dog died, and she
Speaker 3: was like why is everyone crying like this? Like why
Speaker 3: is everyone bawling their eyes out? But yeah, just the
Speaker 3: craziest shit. What else happened?
Speaker 1: Uh?
Speaker 3: I got COVID, Yeah, and it beat my fucking ass
Speaker 3: really really bad. It just uh I had to be hospitalized.
Speaker 3: It was crazy.
Speaker 1: It literally me driving you to the airport, like triple masks,
Speaker 1: I mean airport the hospital.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like triple masks up like yeah, and then all
Speaker 3: the windows down me double masts in the back like yeah, literally,
Speaker 3: and then like hobbling around the fucking hospital and they
Speaker 3: were like are you good, and I was like I
Speaker 3: don't know. And then they put me on oxygen AD
Speaker 3: really low oxygen levels. I was vomiting everywhere all the time.
Speaker 3: I couldn't keep water down.
Speaker 1: You know what's crazy is when I went to the
Speaker 1: dermatologist the other day, they're checking your oxygen intake. Now.
Speaker 3: Interesting, or at least she was.
Speaker 1: She was like, yeah, some doctors are doing this before
Speaker 1: they see you because if your oxygen intake is.
Speaker 2: Low, that's a sign of COVID.
Speaker 3: Interesting.
Speaker 2: Mine was like a ninety seven point nine though, Oh
Speaker 2: and that's what the mask got. And like I was like,
Speaker 2: you take this baby if taken in all.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Rough year for Drew.
Speaker 3: Before twenty twenty, I was kind of like selfish, kind
Speaker 3: of narcissistic. And now I feel like, after just experiencing
Speaker 3: the worst year of my life, I can like say
Speaker 3: that I'm a little more giving and like I listen
Speaker 3: to people actually more and I like when I do
Speaker 3: love someone. I tell them I love them because I
Speaker 3: want them to know that, because like I would hate
Speaker 3: for them to die not knowing that. Also, this is
Speaker 3: just more twenty twenty bullshit, but literally just like deepest,
Speaker 3: darkest depression of my life, like truly like wanting to
Speaker 3: end it all, like just really really bad shit. And
Speaker 3: it even kind of extended into twenty twenty one a
Speaker 3: little bit. Yeah, and I can say with my chest
Speaker 3: that I am like on the come up. I'm out
Speaker 3: of that rut. I'm almost done with this depressive episode
Speaker 3: and I'm happy again. Uh, perfect timing.
Speaker 2: I gave you a little more time because I'm an angel.
Speaker 3: Thank you your turn.
Speaker 2: My show was awesome.
Speaker 3: Yeah, your twenty twenty was like the best twenty twenty ever, Like.
Speaker 2: Of course, like it had its gripes.
Speaker 1: I have my usual like personal issues that I love
Speaker 1: to blanket statement because I'm a very blanket statement kind
Speaker 1: of girl.
Speaker 3: She likes her privacy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I like a little bit of privacy. I double
Speaker 2: I double in privacy, but I'm pretty open about other stuff.
Speaker 2: But certain things.
Speaker 1: I'm like this can stay away from the public eye. Yeah,
Speaker 1: not to brag my life rock, I guess now, me
Speaker 1: and Drew right before we film this, we were just
Speaker 1: talking about how me and Drew a very switch on
Speaker 1: and off with our like good and bad. Yeah, with
Speaker 1: our good and bad and like our depressive episodes. It's
Speaker 1: very like if one year I'm really getting it and
Speaker 1: Drew's like not getting it as bad, and then it'll
Speaker 1: like switch off and then like I think it like
Speaker 1: switches on and off.
Speaker 3: Twenty twenty one's your years. Yeah, you's depressive year. Twenty
Speaker 3: twenty one's my good year.
Speaker 1: I think I'm not like I just yeah, this isn't
Speaker 1: supposed to talk about right now.
Speaker 2: Who cares about right now?
Speaker 1: But twenty twenty, literally I started off very rough, not
Speaker 1: feeling myself, a lot of personal distress happening.
Speaker 3: Then even more talk about it one day, yeah.
Speaker 2: One day one day.
Speaker 1: Talking about my year in a blanket statement way makes
Speaker 1: it a lot less interesting, but I'm going to keep
Speaker 1: it that way. But basically, twenty twenty, I am very
Speaker 1: grateful to know or to have had a pretty decent year.
Speaker 2: I didn't have like too many like.
Speaker 1: Heartbreaking setbacks or anything like that for my year. It
Speaker 1: was really just about like a lot of self reflecting
Speaker 1: and I felt very connected.
Speaker 2: To myself in twenty twenty in terms of understanding.
Speaker 1: What I like, what I don't like, the people I love,
Speaker 1: the people who maybe I don't need to be so
Speaker 1: close to, and just really setting up those boundaries.
Speaker 3: Yeah, this was a year. Yeah, this was a year
Speaker 3: of boundaries for you.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: It was like a lot of like, oh, okay, it's
Speaker 1: fun to be like known as the charismatic nice girl
Speaker 1: in the world, but then that allows for a lot
Speaker 1: of people to like overstep those boundaries and get a
Speaker 1: little too comfortable with me and then put me in
Speaker 1: a position where I can't say no because I've i
Speaker 1: don't know, built up this.
Speaker 2: Wall of like, but I'm the yes girl.
Speaker 3: I have to do it say no more in life,
Speaker 3: I know, and I.
Speaker 1: Like, I think I still have to work on that
Speaker 1: because I still have a thing where I'm like, I
Speaker 1: can't I can't just say no like whatever.
Speaker 2: I think.
Speaker 1: That's also like a very big woman's thing. Like a
Speaker 1: lot of women grow up and then they're learning like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, I don't have to do anything.
Speaker 2: Like that's so crazy.
Speaker 1: So I had a lot of that. I got Eddie,
Speaker 1: and then Eddie died. That was like the worst thing
Speaker 1: that happened in my year. But Eddie died in like February,
Speaker 1: but like I knew she was going to die for
Speaker 1: like the end of twenty twenty, So that gave me
Speaker 1: a lot of anxiety because I would always like anytime
Speaker 1: I was not in la I was like, I was like,
Speaker 1: this bitch is gonna die. She's gonna die on my floor,
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna come back and she's just gonna be
Speaker 1: like a rotted corpse.
Speaker 3: Me and Josh would have found her, Yeah, found her.
Speaker 2: Dude, that would have been the worst.
Speaker 3: I literally would have freaked the fuck it. Actually, I
Speaker 3: watched the life leave her body.
Speaker 2: We did, I know we did.
Speaker 1: It was we haven't even spoken about that, but that's
Speaker 1: going into twenty twenty one.
Speaker 2: Maybe we could dabble on that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, But because yeah, twenty twenty my year was pretty awesome.
Speaker 1: I luckily enough, randomly enough met a lot of people
Speaker 1: who have inspired me a lot and like changed my
Speaker 1: life for the better and like really opened my eyes
Speaker 1: to I used to have this big fear of like
Speaker 1: the future and like and I still have like a
Speaker 1: lot of fear about like aging, because like I think
Speaker 1: Drew can kind of relate to this too, And anybody
Speaker 1: who like was really depressed as a kid can relate
Speaker 1: to this.
Speaker 2: You don't imagine life.
Speaker 3: Yeah you don't. You don't think like, oh, when I'm
Speaker 3: thirty five, You're like, no, I'm gonna be dead by
Speaker 3: twenty five.
Speaker 1: Yeah, which I also like, I'm sorry if any of
Speaker 1: this is triggering talk, but like I wanted to be
Speaker 1: more of like a comforting thing that like it's pretty common.
Speaker 2: For like anyone who like struggles with depression.
Speaker 1: But on the upside, it's like you grow up and
Speaker 1: then you're like, oh my god, there is so much
Speaker 1: life to fill. And that's kind of anxiety written because
Speaker 1: it's like, you mean, every day, every single day of
Speaker 1: my life, I have to wake up and do something
Speaker 1: with the.
Speaker 2: Tuck like what am I supposed to do?
Speaker 1: But then you realize, oh, I can have days where
Speaker 1: I do absolutely nothing and that's okay, like etc.
Speaker 2: Whatever. But yeah, I met a lot of people who
Speaker 2: were super inspiring to me.
Speaker 1: Made me feel very grounded in like who I am,
Speaker 1: and I'm still coming to terms with who I am
Speaker 1: and I still feel very lost.
Speaker 2: But yeah, I had a lot of Twenty twenty was
Speaker 2: a lot of connecting to myself.
Speaker 3: I'm actually there and connecting to other people too. Yeah,
Speaker 3: like you, you made a lot of like like new
Speaker 3: friends this year.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and if you know me, you know that I
Speaker 1: don't do that. I do not even people who I
Speaker 1: love and admire. Like A great example who I always
Speaker 1: bring up is Devon. I love Devin. I love everything
Speaker 1: about her. I literally am in love with her. But
Speaker 1: every time I had the chance to hang out with her,
Speaker 1: I would not go for it because I just get
Speaker 1: like intense anxiety and like it literally just it's so
Speaker 1: mind boggling to be like an extroverted person with anxiety.
Speaker 3: Because social anxiety.
Speaker 2: Yeah, because everyone takes it as like.
Speaker 3: Oh, they don't fuck with Yeah, they don't fuck with.
Speaker 2: Me, like they think they're too cooler. And I don't
Speaker 2: know what.
Speaker 1: I don't think everyone thinks that, but like I have
Speaker 1: run into people who like feel that way about us,
Speaker 1: and like I think even especially me, because I don't
Speaker 1: even like hit people up.
Speaker 3: I don't even girl, you are the worst on your phone. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I don't know how to use it.
Speaker 1: I do not use my phone for communication, Like that's
Speaker 1: just not fucking happening.
Speaker 2: And I don't text people. I don't talk to people.
Speaker 1: But yeah, in twenty twenty, I finally stepped out and
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, although like the worst
Speaker 1: year to meet people, I was lucky enough that I
Speaker 1: did get to meet a bunch of people, like obviously
Speaker 1: mainly through the internet, but I like made that step
Speaker 1: to be like, you know what, life is short, who
Speaker 1: knows what's gonna happen. I should like reach out and
Speaker 1: like talk to people. So I'm still working on that.
Speaker 2: But yeah, literally, twenty twenty was my year of realizing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was a year I mean literally, Okay, when
Speaker 3: Kylie Jenner said it, this is the year of realizing things,
Speaker 3: she didn't mean the year of realizing thing, like just
Speaker 3: a singular year. Every year is the year of realizing things.
Speaker 3: And that bitch shook shit up. She's a shaker and
Speaker 3: a mover. And when she said that, she opened something
Speaker 3: in the world new portal. Yeah, I'm not joking. She
Speaker 3: is the reason for the Mandela effect. I don't I
Speaker 3: don't even want to get into that, but literally, I
Speaker 3: have my theories do it.
Speaker 1: But yeah, my year was just yeah, it was literally
Speaker 1: I had I gave so much money to my therapist
Speaker 1: that that is like the way to describe your therapist
Speaker 1: could retire off of you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, just off of me alone.
Speaker 1: But like I literally, oh, actually I want to read
Speaker 1: this like between us, Like, actually, the way my brain
Speaker 1: works is.
Speaker 2: You already know.
Speaker 3: I was about to say, I know.
Speaker 2: It is not good.
Speaker 3: My brain is there's like weird wiring in there, like
Speaker 3: you need to fix the.
Speaker 1: Wiring troubled I.
Speaker 2: So here's what I said to my therapist.
Speaker 3: Fuck. I was like, well, what'd you say?
Speaker 2: I'm trying to figure it out.
Speaker 1: So I hit her up because I was like, hey,
Speaker 1: it's been forever since I've spoken to you, and literally
Speaker 1: this is the way I talked to her.
Speaker 2: I emailed her this. I emailed her this at four am.
Speaker 1: I said, hey, I've just been so busy while also
Speaker 1: doing nothing at all haha.
Speaker 2: Dot dot dot dot also did not see this until
Speaker 2: just now.
Speaker 1: It only chucked because I had a scary thought about
Speaker 1: the idea of you quitting your job and how I
Speaker 1: would literally just procrastinate fighting a new therapist for ten years.
Speaker 2: Dot dot dot.
Speaker 1: But yes, ha, old cap Saturday at four is very good.
Speaker 3: You are scary. You're scary.
Speaker 2: And then she said, and yet I'm planning on the
Speaker 2: long haul.
Speaker 3: Ah, she loves you. I know, she like literally does
Speaker 3: like not like in love with you, but she's like
Speaker 3: she cares about.
Speaker 2: You, like she pities me, and I love that.
Speaker 3: She's like sometimes we just need pity.
Speaker 1: She's like literally, you know when people get like Jerry
Speaker 1: duty and they get like the best case, That's how
Speaker 1: she feels with me. She's like like this is good.
Speaker 3: There's juicy, juicy information inside this woman's brain.
Speaker 2: But yeah, that's my year.
Speaker 3: And then cannot come plane too much.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I really can't. Like I want to be mentally
Speaker 2: where I was like summer twenty twenty. That's my goal.
Speaker 1: Everyone's trying to get their summer body. I'm trying to
Speaker 1: get my summer.
Speaker 3: Bar brain back.
Speaker 2: I mean that supper brain. I mean I'm getting that exercise.
Speaker 3: I'm getting there.
Speaker 2: I know you are.
Speaker 1: I think I need to like ride my bike. I
Speaker 1: do think I am somebody off of like physical.
Speaker 2: Like exer ship.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah.
Speaker 2: I get a lot.
Speaker 1: Of dopamine and like serotonin, and then I feel like
Speaker 1: very solid in my body because I'm like, Okay, my
Speaker 1: body can like do things.
Speaker 2: My brain may not be able to do much, but
Speaker 2: my body can't.
Speaker 3: Mean when I was like rock climbing for the first
Speaker 3: time and I was like, I was like, wait, why
Speaker 3: can my body do this?
Speaker 2: I have a brain.
Speaker 3: You're like, yeah, I really had an existential crisis because
Speaker 3: my body knew exactly what to do, and I was like, now,
Speaker 3: why the fuck does it know how to do this?
Speaker 3: I have never once rock climbed in my life without
Speaker 3: a rope.
Speaker 2: But you climbed trees as a kid. It's pretty similar.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I miss climbing.
Speaker 1: I miss climbing trees. Yeah, they're climbing trees anymore. They're
Speaker 1: climbing the algorithm.
Speaker 3: They're climbing the iPad. Girl. Should I talk about how
Speaker 3: the iPad babies ruled the world?
Speaker 2: No, talk about your fucking iPad baby. You are the
Speaker 2: iPad baby, bitch. Look at your screen time.
Speaker 3: I am the iPad baby. Okay, yeah, let's get into that.
Speaker 3: I guess my screen time is fucking crazy. What do
Speaker 3: you want me to say? I mean, I've been doing
Speaker 3: good about it. I've been like off my fucking phone recently,
Speaker 3: which is.
Speaker 2: Like, do I I'm gonna pull mine up again?
Speaker 3: Oh, I've been off my phone. I've been like training
Speaker 3: myself like just like literally it's I'm like withdrawing from
Speaker 3: my phone for real, Like I genuinely like like there
Speaker 3: are moments where I don't know what to do with
Speaker 3: myself if I'm not looking at a screen, and I'm like,
Speaker 3: why is my brain wired like this? When did this
Speaker 3: happen to me? Because I used to be really good
Speaker 3: about not being on my phone all the fucking time,
Speaker 3: but now I have to like actively like not be
Speaker 3: on my phone, which is like crazy, Like I am
Speaker 3: literally looking at a screen of some sort like ninety
Speaker 3: percent of my day, like legitimately ninety percent of my lid.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: What's really funny is like the whole being off of
Speaker 1: your phone thing, But then watching the move a movie
Speaker 1: instead kind of reminds me of like the idea of
Speaker 1: people being like if you drink about an alcohol, you're an
Speaker 1: alcohol like, but if you smoke a lot of weed,
Speaker 1: you're just fun. You're just like because in my head,
Speaker 1: I'm always like, yeah, I want to get off my
Speaker 1: phone and like watch a TV show or something.
Speaker 2: I'm like, that's just moving to bigger screen.
Speaker 3: Yeah, exactly, No, that's what I mean. Like looking at
Speaker 3: a screen for ninety percent of my day. It's just
Speaker 3: like literally any screen. And when I was watching my
Speaker 3: show the other day on the couch, like I had
Speaker 3: this like weird, like third person moment where I like
Speaker 3: I saw myself watching this screen and I was like,
Speaker 3: I need, I need to stop. I need like what
Speaker 3: am I doing? Like I'm literally like wasting my fucking life.
Speaker 3: But then that was just a fleeting, like intrusive thought
Speaker 3: and then I kept watching and.
Speaker 2: Then I fucking the attack on.
Speaker 3: I literally had like a moment of uh, depersonalization, derealization,
Speaker 3: and then just kept on going just like I was like,
Speaker 3: you know what it should be. I just I've learned
Speaker 3: to like how to ground myself. I like look for
Speaker 3: things I can see and smell. It's like kind of
Speaker 3: really smart.
Speaker 2: I literally still don't know what to do when I
Speaker 2: disconnect from reality.
Speaker 3: And then I just it's not disconnecting from reality. You
Speaker 3: are reconnecting to reality. You are turning off autopilot. And
Speaker 3: it's like wait, I'm like sentient, like why like why
Speaker 3: am I here?
Speaker 1: There's like too many words, and I'm just like dude, no,
Speaker 1: I just feel like a crazy person.
Speaker 2: And that's I'm gonna describe it like, I'm just like
Speaker 2: I don't know because I like, also like, let me
Speaker 2: not casually throw you know what.
Speaker 1: I realized being back in Miami and like around like
Speaker 1: Miami motherfuckers again has made me talk like I'm back
Speaker 1: in Miami. Like to my therapist, I think she's like,
Speaker 1: damn girl, your fucking vocabulary has like sank twenty percent.
Speaker 2: Because now I'll.
Speaker 1: Just call her and I'll be like, I just feel
Speaker 1: fucking crazy, like I feel crazy.
Speaker 3: As fuck and like and she's like, don't say that
Speaker 3: is this.
Speaker 2: Like you you did not talk like this. I used
Speaker 2: to get on that phone and be like no, And
Speaker 2: the thing is like.
Speaker 1: I feel like what's happening is insecurity is really harping
Speaker 1: on my fears and those.
Speaker 2: Things are ganging up on me.
Speaker 1: And now I get on the phone, I'm like, I
Speaker 1: just feel fucking crazy and I don't give a shit anymore.
Speaker 3: Like you're articulating your thoughts and now you've just like
Speaker 3: reverted back.
Speaker 2: I'm back on my dumb shit. I don't care.
Speaker 1: But yeah, I'm just like I enjoy being very put
Speaker 1: together an articulate about certain things, but I'm like, there's
Speaker 1: no way everyone's feeling this like this, like this shouldn't
Speaker 1: be normal. But also I guess we do live in
Speaker 1: such an age where like we are growing up. I
Speaker 1: guess we're fucking grown up at this point. So no,
Speaker 1: we're just like washing kids grow up. But everyone's growing
Speaker 1: up very similarly, so of course they're gonna have like
Speaker 1: super similar similar.
Speaker 2: Experiences and that I don't know. My screen time isn't
Speaker 2: too bad.
Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, I am okay. My screen time at
Speaker 1: max will go to eight hours a day.
Speaker 3: That see my average right now, seven hours. I got
Speaker 3: it down from twelve hours a day to seven hour.
Speaker 1: Dude, my max is eight and seven and then like
Speaker 1: on a usual it's like four to five.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's like usually my.
Speaker 3: Screen Like if we have if every day was like yesterday,
Speaker 3: like if if every day of the week was like yesterday,
Speaker 3: my screen time would be two hours every day. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I think that's the difference too.
Speaker 1: I've just been having days where I like will literally
Speaker 1: I'll just be on.
Speaker 2: My feet all day, so I'm like, I can't, I
Speaker 2: can't look at my phone.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and for me, I'm just literally trapped inside all day,
Speaker 3: like literally trapped inside, like ugh, it's so fucked up,
Speaker 3: but I've gotten so used to it that it's like
Speaker 3: the new normal. And now I'm like, I don't want
Speaker 3: to reintegrate back into society, Like I don't want the
Speaker 3: I don't want COVID to end.
Speaker 2: That's how I felt. But then.
Speaker 1: I realized I don't not want to be in society
Speaker 1: because I do like, although we both have like a
Speaker 1: lot of social anxiety, it like it's so weird, dude,
Speaker 1: our anxiety. It makes me feel so stupid and fake
Speaker 1: because it is just like it's like popping a pimple.
Speaker 1: It's like it hurts to do it, and you're like,
Speaker 1: I don't want to do this, and then once you
Speaker 1: do it, you're like, oh, Okay, it's like it's gone.
Speaker 3: That's It's like taking your bra off after a long day.
Speaker 3: So this fucking stupid bands the But yeah, the pandemic
Speaker 3: is almost over. I know people are getting their vaccines
Speaker 3: girls exactly. We haven't it. We haven't gotten our vaccine yet.
Speaker 3: But we plan on getting the Johnson and Johnson vaccine.
Speaker 3: I know that sounds fucking crazy, but here us out.
Speaker 3: We want to get the defected one, the gross one,
Speaker 3: the one with all the stories simply because it would
Speaker 3: be hilarious.
Speaker 1: Yeah, like the attention we would get if I posted,
Speaker 1: oh MG, just got the Johnson and Johnson The story
Speaker 1: replies on that.
Speaker 3: The amount of interaction that would get would be crazy.
Speaker 3: And also like we met someone who got the Johnson
Speaker 3: and Johnson vaccine and the way we reacted to like
Speaker 3: finding out that they had the blood clotting vaccine, Like
Speaker 3: we just all burst out laughing, And I was like,
Speaker 3: if I can do that for one person, like a day,
Speaker 3: like it would be worth it. It would be worth
Speaker 3: the blood clots thirty years from it.
Speaker 1: To be fair, most rational human beings would not react
Speaker 1: the way we reacted. So I'm really betting out a
Speaker 1: lot because, like I think most people were like, oh
Speaker 1: my god.
Speaker 2: You know that fear mongering. It's no, it's not that
Speaker 2: big of a deal. But like us, we were like, but.
Speaker 3: Your blood's about the boil, You're about to spontaneously combust.
Speaker 3: And also like down the line, say something fucked up
Speaker 3: does happen and I do end up getting a blood
Speaker 3: clot Bitch, I'm living one because I'm never gonna die,
Speaker 3: Like I'm the luckiest person a line. I'll never die
Speaker 3: in two years and I'm dead, They're gonna clip that
Speaker 3: and be like.
Speaker 2: You're a life About that we like genuinely, not that
Speaker 2: we feel invincible.
Speaker 1: No one's gonna kill me exactly. I'm not being killed
Speaker 1: by accident. Yeah, And that's that on that. I'm not
Speaker 1: going to go into depth, but it's just like.
Speaker 3: I think we can infer what you mean, okay, but.
Speaker 1: Like not in like a scary way, because I don't
Speaker 1: want to scare anyone or like trigger anyone, or like
Speaker 1: make anyone feel uncomfortable. But like I remember, this is
Speaker 1: a conversation I had with a friend when we first met,
Speaker 1: and we had a debate about this where I was like,
Speaker 1: no fucking murderer is going to murder me, bitch. I
Speaker 1: see you coming, and I feel like I have no
Speaker 1: other option. I'm doing the job because I'm not giving
Speaker 1: you the satisfaction.
Speaker 3: Of you're not getting off on killing me.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no one is getting off on killing me, not
Speaker 2: even the universe. So if I gotta do what I
Speaker 2: gotta do, I'm gonna.
Speaker 3: Do what I gotta do, alright, cycle my body back
Speaker 3: to Earth. But what I was saying is like I'm
Speaker 3: not gonna die from the vaccine and if for some
Speaker 3: reason in thirty years my blood starts clodding, I'm going
Speaker 3: to survive, and I'm going to sue, and I'm gonna
Speaker 3: get my bag and I'm going to distribute my wealth.
Speaker 2: You slick the most insane hypothetical ever. Like, okay, girl, why.
Speaker 3: The way I take hypotheticals so so serious? Like like
Speaker 3: sometimes like we're close to ending our relationship over fucking hypothetical.
Speaker 1: And it's literally because me being like I don't believe
Speaker 1: in aliens, and Drew will literally throw a fit, like
Speaker 1: I will never see this man as angry as me
Speaker 1: disagreeing with the hypothetical and he gets so mad because
Speaker 1: I just I can't get into it.
Speaker 2: I'm like, I am grounded in reality.
Speaker 3: It's because you're disagreeing with everything at my core. It's
Speaker 3: like it's like you literally just disagree with me. Ah.
Speaker 1: I tell you about one time me and O Ryan
Speaker 1: were out for drinks and it was with Josh too,
Speaker 1: and it's the hypothetical of marrying Harry Styles Timothy Shallow
Speaker 1: mate on the spot came up and I said I
Speaker 1: wouldn't do that. I was like, I don't know them.
Speaker 1: I was like not only my court. At my core,
Speaker 1: I don't believe in marriage because it's fucking insane. I'm
Speaker 1: not marrying anyone, not even the love of my life
Speaker 1: at any point in my life.
Speaker 2: So why would I marry this get married? Huh? You
Speaker 2: wish we got married?
Speaker 1: You try to see, Like I said, not even my
Speaker 1: platonic soulmate can bag me. No one is getting me
Speaker 1: to sign those stupid fucking papers.
Speaker 2: And then she got really really bad. She was so
Speaker 2: upset at me.
Speaker 3: I'm about to get upset to you right now.
Speaker 1: Like, Okay, first of all, I don't think, and this
Speaker 1: is a big take, I don't think sexually we would
Speaker 1: have good chemistry me and Harry or me and timpathy
Speaker 1: shalo may could you imagine us kissing?
Speaker 3: No, I literally cannot even imagine.
Speaker 2: Like those are just.
Speaker 1: Two men that, like, I don't think biologically we could
Speaker 1: get it going anyways.
Speaker 2: So I'm not hearing that, Like I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1: To myself, Harry style, Like there are two they are
Speaker 1: so disconnected from reality in my head, I cannot comprehend
Speaker 1: that they are living beings.
Speaker 2: Let alone having to have some sort.
Speaker 1: Of like relationship with them like that, Like maybe Timothy
Speaker 1: on like a friendly level, but even that, like I
Speaker 1: crack up at his existence, not because I find him
Speaker 1: like corny or anything, but people at that level literally
Speaker 1: make me laugh. It's like Kylie Jenner, like I I
Speaker 1: came up to me and just starting dogg to me,
Speaker 1: I would crack the fuck.
Speaker 3: I'm like, you're you're not real, Like there.
Speaker 2: Is no comprehending someone.
Speaker 1: And also because I just think about like sometimes when
Speaker 1: our followers meet us and they're like, I can't believe,
Speaker 1: like I'm looking at you right now.
Speaker 2: Like that with Timothy h with Harry Styles, I have
Speaker 2: like put that man is a like god.
Speaker 1: No, he is a fucking three D render, like he
Speaker 1: is not a real human, Like I've fascinated about his
Speaker 1: existence since I was literally the his fucking cock since
Speaker 1: I was like fourteen, so therefore.
Speaker 2: His cock does not exist.
Speaker 1: Actually, I literally can't look at anyone and see their
Speaker 1: genitals like.
Speaker 3: My biggest girl, where are you going now?
Speaker 1: I'm just ranting, but like, no, you know how like
Speaker 1: some people like wait now listen, you know some people.
Speaker 2: Look at someone and they like can sexualize someone.
Speaker 1: I cannot sexualize anyone for the life of me, Like
Speaker 1: I genuinely, I have to whoa I can. I have
Speaker 1: to get to know someone first, and then I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: maybe maybe, but I don't. I don't find people sexy,
Speaker 1: Like I'm not like I find women sexy, but like, man,
Speaker 1: I'm like, can.
Speaker 2: You fucking get the fuck out of my face?
Speaker 3: But that's it, damn Okay.
Speaker 1: I just have to get a man to know a
Speaker 1: man first, because men like off Rip are oh gross.
Speaker 2: So gross.
Speaker 3: I wholeheartedly agree with yeah, and then when you get
Speaker 3: to know them, it's like, Okay, stinky, I.
Speaker 2: Kind of like you.
Speaker 3: Okay, stinky, Okay, onion powder, you know what, any bad
Speaker 3: rec kind of like you.
Speaker 1: But yeah, that's my rant about not being able to
Speaker 1: imagine myself marrying Timothy Challamey or Harry Styles.
Speaker 3: I'd have sex with both of them.
Speaker 2: You might find that you don't like it.
Speaker 1: That's my biggest THINGA People are like, Okay, actually that's
Speaker 1: a lie, though, because I have certain like celebrities who
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, I would. It was like a conversation
Speaker 1: about like Drake last night, where I was like, but
Speaker 1: the thing is, I'm not sexually attracted to Drake.
Speaker 2: It's like, why would I not have sex.
Speaker 3: With Drake, yeah, but also the same could go with
Speaker 3: Harry Styles and Timothy Challa May.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just don't feel that way about them, really,
Speaker 2: I guess, like I don't know. I find them both
Speaker 2: attractive in their own ways, but like.
Speaker 1: I literally feel like I could kick Timothy shallowrations in
Speaker 1: would like Alicia not to say anything about him, but like.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. I just don't know.
Speaker 1: If I ever meet you, you won't know that I
Speaker 1: said this, and it doesn't matter and I didn't say this.
Speaker 3: Mister is listening right now.
Speaker 2: Hey, be friends, girl.
Speaker 3: I don't think he wants to be friends with you
Speaker 3: after you.
Speaker 2: Said I said him, that's really weird.
Speaker 3: You know, Timothy, you know how he gets Dude, that
Speaker 3: one time we were fucking hanging out with him at Chateau.
Speaker 2: It was so weird. That's well, that's why I couldn't
Speaker 2: marry him because of that night.
Speaker 3: It was just so literally he like tried to fucking
Speaker 3: dunk on me. I was like, I was like, this
Speaker 3: is just like, well.
Speaker 1: You guys were like, aren't you guys like almost the
Speaker 1: same high?
Speaker 3: I just can't remember we're about the same height. But
Speaker 3: like it was a fucking bottle into a trash can.
Speaker 3: I was like, just fucking throw it away like a
Speaker 3: normal person. Don't try to dunk on me.
Speaker 1: You're embarrassed because he like overstepped you. Also am I like, no,
Speaker 1: actually he's not your height?
Speaker 2: Is he shorter? We just started that he's.
Speaker 3: Fire three dude, Timothy is five three.
Speaker 2: He's actually really really fucking short. But yeah, I'm like thinking,
Speaker 2: is are we hitting the end of this episode?
Speaker 3: Well, we need to discuss the Baha Blast?
Speaker 2: Oh, the last debate of the podcast.
Speaker 1: The last debate of the podcast gender reveal from Baha Blast?
Speaker 3: What is the gender of a Baha Blast?
Speaker 1: Okay, you you asked me this on the couch the
Speaker 1: other day.
Speaker 2: Yes, Is this like discourse.
Speaker 3: Online or no? This is just something I thought about. Okay,
Speaker 3: so it's about to be discourse.
Speaker 1: So here's you say your take for Actually I'll say
Speaker 1: my take first because they are so opposite that going
Speaker 1: from mine to yours.
Speaker 2: Sounds really good. Also, this red bull is making me
Speaker 2: burp so crazy. Yeah, but so Drew.
Speaker 1: Asked me what was my take on the gender of
Speaker 1: the Baha Blast? And it stumped me for a.
Speaker 2: Second, and then I was like, I think it's a
Speaker 2: gay white man.
Speaker 1: I think a Baja blast is a gay white dude,
Speaker 1: but a very specific kind of gay white dude. You
Speaker 1: know that guy who got like dragged on TikTok who
Speaker 1: was like, I used to go to school, Bobby as fuck,
Speaker 1: that kind that is kind of gay dude that the
Speaker 1: Baja blast is. He's white, he lives in like Connecticut,
Speaker 1: his family is super down for him being gay, and
Speaker 1: he's loud.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and I just said a straight white man. It's
Speaker 3: so like it's it is a Baha blast is a
Speaker 3: straight white man, dude.
Speaker 1: I think Baha blasts are in my head. Baja blasts
Speaker 1: are so intertwined with queer culture. It just can't be
Speaker 1: a straight white.
Speaker 3: Dude, dude, I think. I mean, like yes, but also
Speaker 3: like I hate saying straight culture because straight people don't
Speaker 3: have a culture, but straight culture, yes we do, girl,
Speaker 3: you're not.
Speaker 2: Straight, Yes we do, Yes we are. Yes we are
Speaker 2: me and all my straight community.
Speaker 3: Now my ass hurts so bad from this fucking chair.
Speaker 3: It's literally penetrating me.
Speaker 2: If we get a little money from this episode, we
Speaker 2: could get you good chair.
Speaker 3: Yeah it's penetrating, or you could use a.
Speaker 2: Dining room chair. But your chair is fancy. There's a
Speaker 2: lot about you.
Speaker 3: I made this chair, I know, but yeah.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: It's just like in my head when I think about
Speaker 1: Toyota Camry from two thousand and five. The speakers are
Speaker 1: blown out, Charlie x X is playing, there's like a
Speaker 1: scattered few people in the car. There's like two non
Speaker 1: binaries one gay and what's in the cup holder?
Speaker 2: O baha blast.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: But you could also say, like the straight white man
Speaker 3: is getting off his job at the oil rig and
Speaker 3: he goes to Taco bell and gets his fucking Baja blast.
Speaker 3: No he is getting Are we talking about freeze or no, I'm.
Speaker 1: Talking freeze, baby, Like, uh okay, so see that's where
Speaker 1: it gets the freeze.
Speaker 3: The freeze is gay, like the freeze freeze is serving
Speaker 3: like yeah, she's serving fruity queer. She's queer. Yeah. And
Speaker 3: then the soda one, Okay, I just need to speak
Speaker 3: my piece on this, like I need this, I need
Speaker 3: to speak my truth. If you get the Baja blast soda,
Speaker 3: you are a fucking monster.
Speaker 2: See no, and this is the thing. You're a mind
Speaker 2: I know, not be tying back into this.
Speaker 1: I'm like and here's the thing, Like, I don't even
Speaker 1: fuck with Baja Blast freeze or the soda. And that's
Speaker 1: what gives me more ammo behind being straight sleigh, Because girl.
Speaker 3: What did you just say.
Speaker 2: Like, I don't even like that.
Speaker 1: I hate Baha Actually I don't hate it, but I
Speaker 1: would never order it.
Speaker 2: But that's a different conversation because.
Speaker 3: You are a war criminal Bajas Fleet freeze It's.
Speaker 1: Okay for like two SIPs. I'm just not a super
Speaker 1: sugar sugar person.
Speaker 2: That's the thing about the feeling at the back of
Speaker 2: my mind.
Speaker 3: The freeze isn't super sugary. It's like mixed with like
Speaker 3: eighty percent water. That's why it's the best.
Speaker 1: Okay, Yeah, I guess if I'm like feeling myself, if
Speaker 1: it's like three am and someone orders Baha Blast, yes
Speaker 1: I will.
Speaker 3: Go and then and then you don't finish it. So
Speaker 3: the next morning you have like two inches of Baja
Speaker 3: Blast freeze liquid at the bottom and you just get
Speaker 3: to suck it down in one slip with a straw
Speaker 3: in the morning. Um, yes, please.
Speaker 2: You are so gross.
Speaker 3: And the way, that's not a lie. I do that.
Speaker 1: Actually, I'm like, I don't fuck with Baha blasts and
Speaker 1: literally like I've ordered the Baja blast freeze like on
Speaker 1: multiple occasions.
Speaker 2: But like I said, it was like me feeling myself.
Speaker 2: It was like three am.
Speaker 1: I was like own again a Baja blast freeze, Like
Speaker 1: that was the way I said that. Remember one time
Speaker 1: when me and Orian had Baja blast freeze and we
Speaker 1: put a shit ton of tequila into them and we
Speaker 1: left them on the counter, and Drew woke up the
Speaker 1: next morning and he saw his little, gross, rotted Baha
Speaker 1: blast freeze and took a sip of it and it
Speaker 1: literally gave him shakes and he was like buzzed.
Speaker 3: For the rest of it was fucked up because Okay,
Speaker 3: so this is something weird about me, but I drink
Speaker 3: flat soda. I think flat drinks are just as good
Speaker 3: as carbonated drinks. So I will purpose so gross open
Speaker 3: a soda and leave it out overnight on the counter
Speaker 3: and drink it the next morning. It's not that weird.
Speaker 1: It is.
Speaker 2: It is actually your biggest flaw as a human being.
Speaker 3: It is. It is really it's biggest character. It is wrong.
Speaker 3: It's it's yeah, it's like bad.
Speaker 1: It's just the craziest thing I'm gonna say, and that's
Speaker 1: why twenty twenty.
Speaker 3: That's why your brother died because of the coke thing? No,
Speaker 3: I but like, yeah, I just if there's a drink
Speaker 3: that was left out at the house and it's like
Speaker 3: halfway full, like I'm sorry, I'm not pouring it down
Speaker 3: the sinkhole. My body is a garbage disposal and I
Speaker 3: will drink it. Like for example, this red bull, it
Speaker 3: will get drank tomorrow morning.
Speaker 2: Probably so gross.
Speaker 1: Literally, like I said, biggest character flaw. But yeah, and
Speaker 1: those are hot hot takes yep for the first episode
Speaker 1: takeaways are we Rock.
Speaker 3: Twenty twenty was good and bad? The Baja blast Freeze
Speaker 3: is gay.
Speaker 2: It's a gay white man.
Speaker 3: Yeah. What else should we talk about? Screen time? You know,
Speaker 3: just do your thing, take your time, get off your
Speaker 3: phone a little bit, go outside, eat some grass.
Speaker 2: Do some jumping jacks.
Speaker 3: Period. The iPad babies control the world. I will talk
Speaker 3: about that in the next episode. I will go into
Speaker 3: that if you want me to. Kylie Jenner is the
Speaker 3: reason for the Mandela effect.
Speaker 1: Timothy Chalomey and hairstyles are not real people. And then
Speaker 1: I think we should just close it out with our
Speaker 1: faith media.
Speaker 2: Let's give the people something.
Speaker 3: So that's something we want to do once a week,
Speaker 3: is we want to give you something that you can
Speaker 3: actually take away and consume from this podcast the Fox. Yeah.
Speaker 3: So for example, like we'll say our favorite song or
Speaker 3: movie or show or book from the week, and you
Speaker 3: can either decide if you want to listen to it
Speaker 3: or watch to read it or not, and I'll let
Speaker 3: in you go first.
Speaker 1: Okay, So I can't give a favorite book right now
Speaker 1: because the book that came to mind is like a
Speaker 1: sad book and I don't want to give it and
Speaker 1: I'm not done with it yet, So I'll wait on that,
Speaker 1: and then for songs I have, I'll give like three
Speaker 1: because I don't have actually a movie or a show.
Speaker 2: I want everyone to watch.
Speaker 1: The movie I want everyone to watch is a Castle
Speaker 1: of Cagliostro.
Speaker 2: It's a Studio Ghibli movie.
Speaker 1: I watched it in like high school and like and
Speaker 1: it's kind of so and like I remember one time
Speaker 1: I tried to get y'all to watch it, and y'all
Speaker 1: were like, this is so boring, but it's really sweet
Speaker 1: to like throw on solo.
Speaker 2: It's very chill vibes. It's super cute. Yeah, literally, just
Speaker 2: like if you want it as background noise.
Speaker 1: It's fucking awesome. And the music and it is really
Speaker 1: fucking good. And then for songs, the reason I'm giving
Speaker 1: like three is because like one of them is such
Speaker 1: a everyone who's watching this is listening to this song.
Speaker 1: But Nasty by Ariana Grande is such a good song.
Speaker 1: That intro like she has no idea, Actually she has
Speaker 1: every idea.
Speaker 3: She knows the grip on society. That song has so
Speaker 3: fucking good. Are we going to play the songs after?
Speaker 1: Should we give a little snippet? Yeah, all right, step
Speaker 1: because we have to be careful. We don't want to
Speaker 1: get our videos copywritten.
Speaker 2: And then Spring by Saint anton at Tienne.
Speaker 1: I can't say names, but it'll be on the screen.
Speaker 1: Maybe yeah, we should throw it on the screen. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: So Spring by Saint Etienne.
Speaker 3: Pretty very nice.
Speaker 1: This was one of my favorite songs last year, so
Speaker 1: I'm bringing it back for twenty twenty one, hoping I
Speaker 1: feel that same happiness.
Speaker 2: And then Habitual Love by Okay Kyah.
Speaker 1: That is like an older song, not super old, but
Speaker 1: it's like twenty eighteen ish and I've been listening to
Speaker 1: that song again and it's really fucking.
Speaker 3: Good, pretty nice, Okay, So for the movie or for
Speaker 3: a movie that I watched that just was so inspiring,
Speaker 3: it literally it like got me off my ass and
Speaker 3: I was like, dude, like you can do anything you
Speaker 3: fucking want in this life. And not because of the
Speaker 3: content of the movie, but because like the story behind
Speaker 3: the movie or the story of how the movie was
Speaker 3: made is just fucking crazy. But the movie Primer, who's
Speaker 3: who directed it? I need to see that by Shane
Speaker 3: Caruth Carruth, I don't know how to say his fucking name.
Speaker 3: But Primer is such an incredible movie and it only
Speaker 3: costs seven thousand dollars to make. And the director of
Speaker 3: the movie was just like this engineer who decided to
Speaker 3: write a movie on time try and it like it's
Speaker 3: just I think what is so attractive to it or
Speaker 3: so attractive about it to me is just like how
Speaker 3: they didn't compromise on the science behind the movie. They
Speaker 3: did not They they were like, I'm not giving the
Speaker 3: audience anything. I'm not making it easier to understand. You're
Speaker 3: gonna have to watch it thirty times if you really
Speaker 3: want to understand it. And I think that's why I'm
Speaker 3: in love with it is because like it was just
Speaker 3: so uncompromising. It was his fucking vision. He funded the
Speaker 3: movie himself and made the best movie about time travel
Speaker 3: ever made and that will ever be made probably, And
Speaker 3: it's so good and I think you should watch it
Speaker 3: if you want to get inspired just to create whatever
Speaker 3: you want.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: And then my favorite show right now is Attack on Titan,
Speaker 3: And I know, such an old fucking thing to uh
Speaker 3: be liking it.
Speaker 1: I'm really surprised that, like it's popularity gain. I guess everyone,
Speaker 1: like finally during Quarantine had a memoirs like, you know what,
Speaker 1: let me see what these nerds are doing. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: like realize that anime like can be really fucking awesome.
Speaker 3: Yeah. But yeah, but it's just one of those things.
Speaker 3: Like I had the chance to watch it fucking four
Speaker 3: I had the chance to watch it like four years ago,
Speaker 3: and I just decided, like it's too overhyped. Everyone's telling
Speaker 3: me to watch it, I'm not gonna watch it because
Speaker 3: it cannot be that good. So I watched the first
Speaker 3: couple of episodes. Josh showed me some up or some
Speaker 3: like hyped up moments of the show, and I was
Speaker 3: just like, no, I'm not watching this. I don't want
Speaker 3: to watch this. I'll watch any other anime because, like
Speaker 3: from high school, Enya got me into anime very deep,
Speaker 3: and that's all I did through high school is watch
Speaker 3: like anime. Like Enya was very influential on that. She
Speaker 3: was such a nerd weave in high school. But yeah,
Speaker 3: I just decided to watch Attack on Titan this last
Speaker 3: week and I've watched fifty episodes in three days. Insane,
Speaker 3: and it's really embarrassing. But I think it is one
Speaker 3: of the greatest stories of all time. I think, like,
Speaker 3: regardless of it being an anime, Like the writing of
Speaker 3: that show is freaking crazy. It's unreal, like things they
Speaker 3: say in the first season end up having a cause
Speaker 3: and effect in the third season. It's just it's just
Speaker 3: absurd and the writers are genius. And I think everybody
Speaker 3: should go watch it immediately.
Speaker 2: My low key show people should watch is Breaking Bad.
Speaker 2: I should just watch that.
Speaker 3: I had the hottest take. Actually, I said that Attack
Speaker 3: on Titan was better than Breaking Bad, which is a
Speaker 3: crazy take. It's absurd. And I'll just give one song
Speaker 3: that I've been listening to like crazy recently, which is
Speaker 3: Forbidden Apple by Cornelius his new song. Yeah, it's magical.
Speaker 3: It's just an ear load, it's just inside your head.
Speaker 2: He saw those little those bottles, those bottles, and he
Speaker 2: was like.
Speaker 3: I'm gonna create that apple.
Speaker 2: All right. Well that was the episode.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for either watching, listening, whatever you
Speaker 1: decided to do.
Speaker 2: We will be.
Speaker 3: Back, yeah, weekly, We have obligations.
Speaker 1: Sadly not kidding. That was fucking awesome. That was super
Speaker 1: enjoyable to do.
Speaker 2: Maybe it's like we should have done it forever ago.
Speaker 3: Maybe we should have done it four years ago when
Speaker 3: we were first talking about it.
Speaker 2: But they did not need to like I did not
Speaker 2: need to be speaking that when I.
Speaker 3: Was saying literally and like for everybody who's stuck around
Speaker 3: this long and put up with us, we're saving that
Speaker 3: for the podcast. Thank you so fucking much, because if
Speaker 3: it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be sitting here in
Speaker 3: the shitty fucking corner with these really nice mics and
Speaker 3: shitty fucking sorry telling you these stories about our life.
Speaker 3: So thank you for like listening and just being there
Speaker 3: and just putting up with us for all these years.
Speaker 3: And it's finally happening. It's happening.
Speaker 1: But so yeah, stick with us, watch us evolve a
Speaker 1: little more if you would like to, and have an
Speaker 1: awesome dame.
Speaker 3: Leave me alone.
Speaker 2: Bye m