WEBVTT - We're Back!

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<v Speaker 1>This is finally, this is literally happening, the happening.

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<v Speaker 2>Or who's going to enjoy it? Okay, well, it's been

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<v Speaker 2>three years in the making.

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<v Speaker 3>And this is all we have four four years.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's only taken us four years to get here,

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<v Speaker 1>and this is what you've been waiting for.

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<v Speaker 3>This is the setup.

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<v Speaker 1>For the podcast called Emergency Intercom.

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<v Speaker 3>A podcast by Drew Phillips and any Mansor.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not an emergency, but it is because we need attention,

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<v Speaker 1>and it is an emergency for attention. It's an emergency

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<v Speaker 1>call for you to look at me.

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<v Speaker 2>Also, do we have to talk about that? Actually, the

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<v Speaker 2>fact that it's not called radio is.

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<v Speaker 3>Dead anymore, we can talk about it.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not called Radio's Dead anymore. Move on, grow up.

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<v Speaker 3>We didn't like the name anymore. It was outdated.

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<v Speaker 2>It felt very.

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<v Speaker 3>Just not us. Yeah, very twenty seventeen and I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>If you've checked, but it's not twenty seventeen anymore. Twenty

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<v Speaker 1>seventeen and twenty nineteen and two of the best years

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<v Speaker 1>of my life.

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<v Speaker 3>Twenty seventeen and twenty nineteen. Yeah, what about twenty eighteen? Oh,

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<v Speaker 3>twenty eighteen is not a good. Good, you're you're asleep

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<v Speaker 3>until sixty pm.

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<v Speaker 2>My twenty eighteen was your twenty twenty?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, oh what was I gonna say?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Also, if anyone has any questions about the setup, if

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<v Speaker 1>you're listening audio wise, you have no idea where we are.

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<v Speaker 1>It sounds very good. I'm sure it sounds like we're

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<v Speaker 1>in a studio, but if you have eyes and you

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<v Speaker 1>are looking at the visual one.

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<v Speaker 3>It's fucking terrible. It looks very very bad. No, come on,

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<v Speaker 3>I mean it's it's cute, it has its moment, but

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<v Speaker 3>like it just looks bad. And uh, I think the

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<v Speaker 3>idea for it is you can watch us grow together.

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<v Speaker 1>But also the main idea for it is we decided

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<v Speaker 1>last minute not to sign with anybody, take a risk

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<v Speaker 1>on ourselves because no one wanted to invest in us.

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<v Speaker 1>And then we were like, you know what, maybe those

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<v Speaker 1>people are smart. I don't want to invest in us either,

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<v Speaker 1>So we're using what we got and.

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<v Speaker 3>We're putting zero dollars into this. This is everything found

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<v Speaker 3>around our house.

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<v Speaker 2>Except the mics. The mics I've literally had for four years.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, because we wanted to do this podcast four years ago,

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<v Speaker 3>but we just kind of passed on it.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, it just wasn't the right time.

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<v Speaker 1>But now is the right time because as we get older,

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<v Speaker 1>nobody cares about us, and we want to bring that back.

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<v Speaker 3>And also we have a lot of opinions, a lot

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<v Speaker 3>of thoughts. I think we're wiser now, we've grown a

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<v Speaker 3>little little bit. And yeah, I just want to be heard.

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<v Speaker 3>I want to be heard.

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<v Speaker 2>I am not why I do not say that it doesn't.

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<v Speaker 3>So I was joking. We are literally shit, we.

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<v Speaker 2>Literally rocks in our brains. But yeah, so that's what

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<v Speaker 2>the setup is like right now. I don't know, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not against. It feels homey because we literally are in

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<v Speaker 2>our kitchen. Actually, also, Honor is literally behind Drew's head.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, it's kind of hot in here. Let

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<v Speaker 3>just turn it down a little bit. I was gonna say,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know where I've been looking this entire time,

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<v Speaker 3>So this clip is gonna I'm gonna look fucking crazy,

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<v Speaker 3>and like, I literally don't remember the last five minutes.

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<v Speaker 2>It's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>The lenses right there, I don't know. I've been trying

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<v Speaker 1>to do a good job of looking at the lens,

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<v Speaker 1>but also the viewfinders right next to it, so I've

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<v Speaker 1>been looking at myself too, because.

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<v Speaker 3>We're sexy and it's hard to look away. It's a

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<v Speaker 3>good thing.

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<v Speaker 1>We have both gotten extremely sexy since we last recorded

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<v Speaker 1>an episode of the podcast.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah the Internet thinks I'm which is new for me.

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<v Speaker 3>Which is new for me. I am sexy, I am giving.

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<v Speaker 3>I am everything to the internet now, and I don't

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<v Speaker 3>know what changed. I think it's my hair. I think

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<v Speaker 3>it's the mustache.

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<v Speaker 2>People people used to hate on the mustache, yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>But now they've grown to love it. And I think

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<v Speaker 3>what actually know what it is is. It's like it's

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<v Speaker 3>like daddy issues. That's what it is. That's what it is.

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<v Speaker 3>It truly is it's like people who are attracted to

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<v Speaker 3>older looking.

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<v Speaker 2>Men looking men.

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<v Speaker 1>And then I also like, I think our audience grew

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<v Speaker 1>up and they're just like now, they're like eighteen and up,

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of them, so they're like, wait, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>like little I don't boys. An girl not little boys,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't like like, I'm no longer attracted to

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<v Speaker 1>like sixteen year olds at least I hope you're not

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<v Speaker 1>boy boy.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, no, I'm sexy to the internet now. And

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<v Speaker 3>every time I get a comment calling me sexy. It

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<v Speaker 3>goes straight to my fucking head. Any time anytime we

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<v Speaker 3>post a TikTok on anybody's account, all of the comments

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<v Speaker 3>are like, wait, damn, why is you find all of

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<v Speaker 3>a sudden you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Needs to happen? Is I had this when I when

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<v Speaker 2>I got on the internet.

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<v Speaker 1>But this is like more weird and it says a

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<v Speaker 1>lot more about like weird sexism and like grooming of women.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's a different topic.

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<v Speaker 3>But when I can talk about that later.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like fourteen and I had that little preprebescent,

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<v Speaker 1>like bony body.

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<v Speaker 2>I was sexy hot. Everyone wanted to look at me,

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<v Speaker 2>love me.

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<v Speaker 1>And then once I got to like junior year, senior year,

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<v Speaker 1>and I started to look more like a woman. People

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<v Speaker 1>started calling me fat and ugly, and then I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, what the fuck? And then I went

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<v Speaker 1>through a phase where I was body shamed and ugly.

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<v Speaker 2>So you need to hit that.

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<v Speaker 3>You want me to be body shamed ugly? Well here,

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<v Speaker 3>I think you're sexy right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks. Do you want for me?

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<v Speaker 3>You know exactly what I want from here?

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<v Speaker 2>Come on, let's get back together. Damn it.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, no, I love being sexy. It feels good.

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<v Speaker 3>It finally I finally hit that point in my life

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<v Speaker 3>where like it's a struggle to be funny online because

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, wait, but it's so enticing, like to be complimented. No, genuinely,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, it's so enticing to become.

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<v Speaker 2>Between my modeling career and like not that.

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<v Speaker 3>I meant like, it's like I could go that route,

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<v Speaker 3>I could go this sexy boy route if I wanted to,

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<v Speaker 3>but like could do a mix of it.

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<v Speaker 2>The word for me, I guess I will say, like.

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<v Speaker 1>That's one of my biggest issues on the internet is

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<v Speaker 1>like I like to think of myself as like a

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<v Speaker 1>funny personality or like someone who's inching towards being a

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<v Speaker 1>comedian and doing comedic things, but I'm also very interested

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<v Speaker 1>in being sexy and like also making art.

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<v Speaker 2>So then it's like I don't know who I am.

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<v Speaker 1>I am so lost, I am twenty two, and I

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<v Speaker 1>still feel like nothing.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean you have a good balance of being

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<v Speaker 3>both sexy and like you're just sexy and I think

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<v Speaker 3>you're like super sexy and like.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, girls, it's the first episode.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sorry, but but you do balance it well. Actually,

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<v Speaker 3>thank you. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I think as I've got older, I've round a little

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<v Speaker 1>better at balancing it, because you know what, I am

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<v Speaker 1>a multifaceted woman. I'm a multifaceted LATINX woman. Queen LATINX.

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<v Speaker 1>I said that at lunch the other day and someone

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<v Speaker 1>was like, LATINX and I was like, oh, it's like

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<v Speaker 1>latin X, but I just like me and my friend

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<v Speaker 1>say we say LATINX.

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<v Speaker 2>And someone was like.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, okay, like I've never heard that, and then they

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<v Speaker 1>were like, but I like that, it's a little more,

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<v Speaker 1>but I think it's.

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<v Speaker 3>Was it one of those thirty year olds.

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<v Speaker 1>Come on, man, No, this was a fellow young person,

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<v Speaker 1>a fellow young Latin person.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, they were like, I like it. It feminizes it.

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<v Speaker 2>But then I was like, wait, I think the point of.

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<v Speaker 3>The X is to unfeminize it. It's just too Yeah, exactly.

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<v Speaker 3>That was the discourse that caused in my school in

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<v Speaker 3>Texas was crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>There was wars over LATINX.

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<v Speaker 3>I swear to god, literally people were so mad, like

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<v Speaker 3>people were mad and people were like, let's go Like

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<v Speaker 3>it was it was just like, obviously I was on

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<v Speaker 3>the let's go Sidey.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna say I love being the let's go being,

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<v Speaker 2>Let's go out school is always.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm literally just I'm let's go with everything, literally anything,

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<v Speaker 3>any topic of conversation. I'm like, let's fucking go, let's go.

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<v Speaker 2>You just want to talk exactly, okay. Also, we're literally

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<v Speaker 2>so rambling.

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<v Speaker 1>I think we need to bring it back a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit and just update where have we been?

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<v Speaker 2>What is I guess Actually, I don't know if we

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<v Speaker 2>need to talk about been.

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<v Speaker 3>No, we can talk about where I've been.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm going to put us each on a timer

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<v Speaker 1>because we will both treat this like therapy.

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<v Speaker 3>You know what I realized this therapy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, I stopped making like face to camera videos. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>about to burp, Well, chill, that was good.

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<v Speaker 3>That was a good one.

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<v Speaker 2>You're red bull and strawberries. That's a good little mix'd

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<v Speaker 2>it wasn't bad, I swear, okay, chill.

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<v Speaker 1>I stopped making like face to camera talking videos once

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<v Speaker 1>I started getting therapy, Like.

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<v Speaker 3>If you look at my channel, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Talking straight up to the camera dissipated after I started

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<v Speaker 1>getting therapy, because, like it was fully, I wasn't being

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<v Speaker 1>super open because like I don't enjoy being too public

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<v Speaker 1>about my personal life.

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<v Speaker 2>But obviously it's therapeutic to just like.

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<v Speaker 1>Talk and kind of like go on about like anything,

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<v Speaker 1>because it is therapeutic to just talk and get it out.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, those stopped as I got therapy, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>trying to bring them back.

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<v Speaker 3>I was about to say, literally all of the people

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<v Speaker 3>listening and watching right now are like, bitch, stop going

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<v Speaker 3>to fucking therapy. Yeah, okay, then stop, like please post

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<v Speaker 3>more or please post more?

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, do you want to go first for your life?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>So we don't we.

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<v Speaker 3>Don't end it on a bad note. Yeah, I'll go first.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you're getting a fucking timer, girl, Okay, how long

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<v Speaker 1>do I have? You have?

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<v Speaker 2>Ten minutes?

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<v Speaker 3>That is not enough fucking time.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I'll give you ten minutes and fifteen seconds.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, that's a little spice. Okay, there you go.

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<v Speaker 3>Where do I start?

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<v Speaker 1>Man?

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<v Speaker 2>Actually, wait, let's pause that because literally where girl? Figure

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<v Speaker 2>out where going to start? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Actually yeah, I don't know if you want to do

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<v Speaker 1>the four years, if you want to do the one year,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like you're one year.

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<v Speaker 3>With my one year is enough. I think I can

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<v Speaker 3>just talk about my one year.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, your life is low key a movie.

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<v Speaker 3>My life is a movie, not low key. It is

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<v Speaker 3>a fucking movie.

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<v Speaker 2>Bitch me, like last night was a movie.

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<v Speaker 3>The movie in question Drew Phillips Life sitting for the

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<v Speaker 3>last fourteen hours on my phone.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, okay, I'm gonnaver resume it. You have ten minutes

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<v Speaker 2>and nine seconds.

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<v Speaker 3>Now, Okay, So let's start a year ago, right, So,

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<v Speaker 3>life was fucking awesome. I think I was. Mentally, I

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<v Speaker 3>was the best I'd ever been. I was fortified. I

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<v Speaker 3>had everything. I had all the armor, I had all

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<v Speaker 3>the weapons to come bat my depressive episodes. Life was

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<v Speaker 3>fucking great and I was killing it right then, like

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<v Speaker 3>I slowly started slipping up. If you remember, I was like,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm kind of like feeling weird. So I decided, I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, I need to get out of LA for

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<v Speaker 3>a second. Not because I need to get out of LA,

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<v Speaker 3>but just because I need to like be in nature,

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<v Speaker 3>Like I need to like reconnect with nature. Yeah, exactly,

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<v Speaker 3>I need to I need to be grounded. Right, So wait,

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<v Speaker 3>should I talk about do you know what I'm talking about? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I'll talk about you can.

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<v Speaker 2>Give it a little blake to savement.

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<v Speaker 1>We're not this isn't this We're not this the tea

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<v Speaker 1>spill yossification of podcasts.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, so I was talking to someone. Okay, let's let's

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<v Speaker 3>start a year ago.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna get I'm gonna restart your time.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so let's start a year ago. Life was great.

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<v Speaker 3>I was feeling great. I was happy. I had all

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<v Speaker 3>the armor to combat my depressive episodes. I was I

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<v Speaker 3>had the weapons. I was cutting that bitch up like

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<v Speaker 3>nothing was stopping me. And then I met someone and

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<v Speaker 3>for like my entire life, I was like, I don't

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<v Speaker 3>think I'm capable of love, like romantic love. I think

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<v Speaker 3>I made romantic my whole life. I was like, I

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<v Speaker 3>think I'm a romantic And I met this person. This

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<v Speaker 3>person was a good person and it wasn't me. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>and long story short, they broke my heart and I

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<v Speaker 3>was shattered and my whole life flashed before my eyes

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<v Speaker 3>and I was like, you know what am I doing?

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<v Speaker 3>What am I doing here? Like what is this all about?

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<v Speaker 3>So I got super existential and I was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>I need to ground myself. So I decided let's get

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<v Speaker 3>out of La. Not because I wanted to get out

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<v Speaker 3>of LA, but because I wanted to like reconnect with

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<v Speaker 3>nature and just like camp I guess, like, just go camping,

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<v Speaker 3>because camping is fucking awesome and everyone should do it.

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<v Speaker 3>And so we decided, let's go somewhere where there's like

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<v Speaker 3>no cell phone connection in the absolute middle of nowhere,

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<v Speaker 3>in the mountains of fucking Utah. So me and Oriyan

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<v Speaker 3>were like, uh, let's do it. Let's go, and instead

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<v Speaker 3>of flying, we road tripped, which was like crazy. I

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<v Speaker 3>hadn't been in a car ride that long in a

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<v Speaker 3>very long time. It was only like six hours, but

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<v Speaker 3>I'm used to like driving twenty minutes like whatever, so

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<v Speaker 3>it wasn't that bad. We stopped in Las Vegas. It

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<v Speaker 3>was great. We got our room for the night, slept there,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I just like the whole time, I had

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<v Speaker 3>this weird feeling. I don't know, I think I've told

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<v Speaker 3>you about that. Like I just had this like weird,

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<v Speaker 3>like like feeling. I couldn't shake it. And then we decided, like,

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<v Speaker 3>let's drive up. Like we left the next morning, got

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<v Speaker 3>to Utah, and then immediate when we got there, we

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<v Speaker 3>drove up the mountain and it was Friday at this point,

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<v Speaker 3>and then legitimately right when we lost service, my brother

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<v Speaker 3>was like, you know what, I'm a fucking die. I'm

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<v Speaker 3>a die. So my brother died when we were driving

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<v Speaker 3>up the mountain. Literally I'm not joking. It's like within

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<v Speaker 3>like we've my parents found out and like we're trying

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<v Speaker 3>to call us, like within like five minutes of us

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<v Speaker 3>losing service. It was like it was almost like kind

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<v Speaker 3>of like perfectly imperfect, I guess. So like we're up

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<v Speaker 3>in the mountains, like I'm having like probably one of

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<v Speaker 3>the best weekends of my life in a very long time.

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<v Speaker 3>It's super just like uh like just disconnected from everything,

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<v Speaker 3>just connecting with like my older brother, who haven't really

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<v Speaker 3>had a relationship with my whole life, but now we're

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<v Speaker 3>like really fucking close, like no cell phones inside, just

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<v Speaker 3>like hanging out and literally ignorance truly is lists And

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<v Speaker 3>like while my entire family was like back home exploding,

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<v Speaker 3>it was like literally warfare. I was up in the mountains,

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<v Speaker 3>like swimming in a fucking lake, kayaking, getting sunburnt, literally

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<v Speaker 3>just having the time of my fucking life. And I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know what that says about anything, but I would

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<v Speaker 3>not change it for Like, I wouldn't change that for anything.

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<v Speaker 3>I wouldn't want to find out on the Friday and

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<v Speaker 3>then have to fly back to Texas. I'm glad, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm glad. I had those three days that weekend to

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<v Speaker 3>just like decompress. And then right when we got service,

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<v Speaker 3>my phone fucking blew up. Got all the text all

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<v Speaker 3>the calls. I thought everyone was fucking joking, and like

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<v Speaker 3>everybody back in my hometown in Granberry, Texas had known

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<v Speaker 3>before me because my sister was posting about it on

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<v Speaker 3>Facebook and shit. So I had like three hundred texts

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<v Speaker 3>from people just saying like I'm so sorry to hear

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<v Speaker 3>about your loss, like blah blah blah blah blah. And

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, what the fuck, Like what do you

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<v Speaker 3>mean my loss? And then my dad called, bawling his

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<v Speaker 3>eyes out and he's like, your brother's dead, and I

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<v Speaker 3>was like fuck, I was like god damn it. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>And yeah it was just some bullshit. But uh, if

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<v Speaker 3>like you're experiencing loss right now, I know, it's like

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<v Speaker 3>really hard to see it, but the way like all

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<v Speaker 3>the good that's come from his passing like is I

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<v Speaker 3>know it's so cliche to say, but like legitimately, like

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<v Speaker 3>my family was really disconnected, like none of us talk

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<v Speaker 3>none of us ever spoke and like now we're like

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<v Speaker 3>like a legitimate family, like I like can use that

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<v Speaker 3>word like seriously, Like we have like real connections with

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<v Speaker 3>each other and like we speak on a daily basis

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<v Speaker 3>and it's really good. And that wouldn't have happened if

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<v Speaker 3>Sam hadn't passed. And I think that's like the super yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>the silber lining or like the purpose of it or whatever,

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<v Speaker 3>if you'd like try to find purpose and fucking loss.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know, but yeah, my brother died, my heart

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<v Speaker 3>was broken, some other Yeah, so twenty twenty is looking

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<v Speaker 3>like shit, some other crazy shit happened that I'm just

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<v Speaker 3>not comfortable talking about on camera. It does not need

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<v Speaker 3>to be spoken about, but just know it involves my

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<v Speaker 3>family some more and it's just wrong.

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<v Speaker 2>Phillip's family got the ass whooping of.

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<v Speaker 3>The sense literally and like the worst I mean not

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<v Speaker 3>the worst, but like it's just crazy because like twenty

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<v Speaker 3>twenty really was the worst year of my life and

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<v Speaker 3>like comparative to like other people's lives, Like I know

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<v Speaker 3>it's you're not supposed to do that, but like literally

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<v Speaker 3>it's not that bad. But I had such a good

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<v Speaker 3>life going up until that point like literally I hadn't

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<v Speaker 3>experienced like truly anything negative in my entire life, and

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<v Speaker 3>then twenty twenty happened, like and it wasn't even because COVID,

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<v Speaker 3>like COVID, like yeah, that's whatever, that's.

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<v Speaker 1>The most insane thing, and like COVID wasn't even like

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<v Speaker 1>the basis of any of those problems. Yeah, like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure you could look at it and be like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>it exponentiated some of the things maybe, but like not either.

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<v Speaker 3>Not even yeah, because we still continued, like we had

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<v Speaker 3>the funeral whatever, yeah whatever, but yeah, just.

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<v Speaker 2>The funeral was lit.

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<v Speaker 3>It was and you came, and you came, and you

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<v Speaker 3>got fleud out she came?

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<v Speaker 1>Did I Literally I like the panic I went into

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<v Speaker 1>when I heard that. What's crazy is when you were

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<v Speaker 1>telling that story again, I was thinking about how, like

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<v Speaker 1>I in twenty twenty was so off of my phone

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<v Speaker 1>and like we all know, like I just suck at

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<v Speaker 1>using my phone in general, unless I go into like

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<v Speaker 1>the weird warps where like I'm anxiety attached to it.

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<v Speaker 2>But I like she had posted on it and I

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<v Speaker 2>hadn't seen it, Like, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I hadn't seen anything about that until you said something

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<v Speaker 1>to me and like, dude, I like remember I like

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<v Speaker 1>even I was like, I was like, oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>And I went to the full panic and I called

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<v Speaker 1>my dad and I was like and I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I was like I don't know what to do.

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<v Speaker 3>Literally, that's what I told everyone. I was like, literally,

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<v Speaker 3>just say you love your family, because like it was,

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<v Speaker 3>it was so off guard and bullshit that it happened,

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<v Speaker 3>but like what the fuck am I going to do

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<v Speaker 3>about it? And also literally it's so like I feel

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<v Speaker 3>so bad for Oryan because she was there, Like she

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<v Speaker 3>was there when we got the call, and like when

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<v Speaker 3>I was like balling my eyes out. Actually, she told

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<v Speaker 3>me the funniest thing the other day. She was like

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<v Speaker 3>she thought like when she first heard she my dad

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<v Speaker 3>called him, was like Sam died and like Oriyan in

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<v Speaker 3>her brain thought like our family dog died, and she

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<v Speaker 3>was like why is everyone crying like this? Like why

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<v Speaker 3>is everyone bawling their eyes out? But yeah, just the

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<v Speaker 3>craziest shit. What else happened?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh?

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<v Speaker 3>I got COVID, Yeah, and it beat my fucking ass

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<v Speaker 3>really really bad. It just uh I had to be hospitalized.

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<v Speaker 3>It was crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>It literally me driving you to the airport, like triple masks,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean airport the hospital.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, like triple masks up like yeah, and then all

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<v Speaker 3>the windows down me double masts in the back like yeah, literally,

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<v Speaker 3>and then like hobbling around the fucking hospital and they

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<v Speaker 3>were like are you good, and I was like I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know. And then they put me on oxygen AD

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<v Speaker 3>really low oxygen levels. I was vomiting everywhere all the time.

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<v Speaker 3>I couldn't keep water down.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what's crazy is when I went to the

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<v Speaker 1>dermatologist the other day, they're checking your oxygen intake. Now.

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<v Speaker 3>Interesting, or at least she was.

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<v Speaker 1>She was like, yeah, some doctors are doing this before

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<v Speaker 1>they see you because if your oxygen intake is.

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<v Speaker 2>Low, that's a sign of COVID.

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<v Speaker 3>Interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>Mine was like a ninety seven point nine though, Oh

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<v Speaker 2>and that's what the mask got. And like I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>you take this baby if taken in all.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Rough year for Drew.

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<v Speaker 3>Before twenty twenty, I was kind of like selfish, kind

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<v Speaker 3>of narcissistic. And now I feel like, after just experiencing

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<v Speaker 3>the worst year of my life, I can like say

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<v Speaker 3>that I'm a little more giving and like I listen

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<v Speaker 3>to people actually more and I like when I do

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<v Speaker 3>love someone. I tell them I love them because I

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<v Speaker 3>want them to know that, because like I would hate

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<v Speaker 3>for them to die not knowing that. Also, this is

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<v Speaker 3>just more twenty twenty bullshit, but literally just like deepest,

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<v Speaker 3>darkest depression of my life, like truly like wanting to

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<v Speaker 3>end it all, like just really really bad shit. And

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<v Speaker 3>it even kind of extended into twenty twenty one a

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<v Speaker 3>little bit. Yeah, and I can say with my chest

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<v Speaker 3>that I am like on the come up. I'm out

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<v Speaker 3>of that rut. I'm almost done with this depressive episode

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm happy again. Uh, perfect timing.

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<v Speaker 2>I gave you a little more time because I'm an angel.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you your turn.

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<v Speaker 2>My show was awesome.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, your twenty twenty was like the best twenty twenty ever, Like.

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<v Speaker 2>Of course, like it had its gripes.

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<v Speaker 1>I have my usual like personal issues that I love

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<v Speaker 1>to blanket statement because I'm a very blanket statement kind

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<v Speaker 1>of girl.

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<v Speaker 3>She likes her privacy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I like a little bit of privacy. I double

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<v Speaker 2>I double in privacy, but I'm pretty open about other stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>But certain things.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like this can stay away from the public eye. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>not to brag my life rock, I guess now, me

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<v Speaker 1>and Drew right before we film this, we were just

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<v Speaker 1>talking about how me and Drew a very switch on

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<v Speaker 1>and off with our like good and bad. Yeah, with

0:23:00.960 --> 0:23:03.720
<v Speaker 1>our good and bad and like our depressive episodes. It's

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<v Speaker 1>very like if one year I'm really getting it and

0:23:08.440 --> 0:23:11.080
<v Speaker 1>Drew's like not getting it as bad, and then it'll

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<v Speaker 1>like switch off and then like I think it like

0:23:13.280 --> 0:23:14.399
<v Speaker 1>switches on and off.

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<v Speaker 3>Twenty twenty one's your years. Yeah, you's depressive year. Twenty

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<v Speaker 3>twenty one's my good year.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I'm not like I just yeah, this isn't

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<v Speaker 1>supposed to talk about right now.

0:23:27.359 --> 0:23:28.360
<v Speaker 2>Who cares about right now?

0:23:28.560 --> 0:23:34.800
<v Speaker 1>But twenty twenty, literally I started off very rough, not

0:23:34.920 --> 0:23:39.879
<v Speaker 1>feeling myself, a lot of personal distress happening.

0:23:43.560 --> 0:23:46.320
<v Speaker 3>Then even more talk about it one day, yeah.

0:23:46.119 --> 0:23:47.040
<v Speaker 2>One day one day.

0:23:47.080 --> 0:23:50.200
<v Speaker 1>Talking about my year in a blanket statement way makes

0:23:50.240 --> 0:23:52.600
<v Speaker 1>it a lot less interesting, but I'm going to keep

0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:55.600
<v Speaker 1>it that way. But basically, twenty twenty, I am very

0:23:55.640 --> 0:24:00.000
<v Speaker 1>grateful to know or to have had a pretty decent year.

0:24:00.640 --> 0:24:02.080
<v Speaker 2>I didn't have like too many like.

0:24:04.160 --> 0:24:08.439
<v Speaker 1>Heartbreaking setbacks or anything like that for my year. It

0:24:08.560 --> 0:24:11.280
<v Speaker 1>was really just about like a lot of self reflecting

0:24:11.359 --> 0:24:13.359
<v Speaker 1>and I felt very connected.

0:24:12.840 --> 0:24:16.119
<v Speaker 2>To myself in twenty twenty in terms of understanding.

0:24:17.080 --> 0:24:20.200
<v Speaker 1>What I like, what I don't like, the people I love,

0:24:20.359 --> 0:24:22.960
<v Speaker 1>the people who maybe I don't need to be so

0:24:23.119 --> 0:24:27.080
<v Speaker 1>close to, and just really setting up those boundaries.

0:24:27.359 --> 0:24:29.440
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, this was a year. Yeah, this was a year

0:24:29.440 --> 0:24:30.280
<v Speaker 3>of boundaries for you.

0:24:30.480 --> 0:24:30.680
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:24:30.720 --> 0:24:33.200
<v Speaker 1>It was like a lot of like, oh, okay, it's

0:24:33.480 --> 0:24:38.480
<v Speaker 1>fun to be like known as the charismatic nice girl

0:24:38.800 --> 0:24:41.920
<v Speaker 1>in the world, but then that allows for a lot

0:24:42.200 --> 0:24:45.879
<v Speaker 1>of people to like overstep those boundaries and get a

0:24:45.880 --> 0:24:47.760
<v Speaker 1>little too comfortable with me and then put me in

0:24:47.760 --> 0:24:50.760
<v Speaker 1>a position where I can't say no because I've i

0:24:50.760 --> 0:24:51.840
<v Speaker 1>don't know, built up this.

0:24:51.800 --> 0:24:53.880
<v Speaker 2>Wall of like, but I'm the yes girl.

0:24:54.040 --> 0:24:56.560
<v Speaker 3>I have to do it say no more in life,

0:24:56.680 --> 0:24:58.080
<v Speaker 3>I know, and I.

0:24:58.040 --> 0:25:00.280
<v Speaker 1>Like, I think I still have to work on that

0:25:00.320 --> 0:25:01.919
<v Speaker 1>because I still have a thing where I'm like, I

0:25:01.960 --> 0:25:04.679
<v Speaker 1>can't I can't just say no like whatever.

0:25:04.720 --> 0:25:05.000
<v Speaker 2>I think.

0:25:05.000 --> 0:25:06.960
<v Speaker 1>That's also like a very big woman's thing. Like a

0:25:06.960 --> 0:25:08.800
<v Speaker 1>lot of women grow up and then they're learning like,

0:25:08.800 --> 0:25:11.600
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I don't have to do anything.

0:25:11.359 --> 0:25:12.880
<v Speaker 2>Like that's so crazy.

0:25:13.920 --> 0:25:17.280
<v Speaker 1>So I had a lot of that. I got Eddie,

0:25:17.320 --> 0:25:19.159
<v Speaker 1>and then Eddie died. That was like the worst thing

0:25:19.160 --> 0:25:21.639
<v Speaker 1>that happened in my year. But Eddie died in like February,

0:25:21.760 --> 0:25:23.359
<v Speaker 1>but like I knew she was going to die for

0:25:23.440 --> 0:25:26.679
<v Speaker 1>like the end of twenty twenty, So that gave me

0:25:26.920 --> 0:25:30.520
<v Speaker 1>a lot of anxiety because I would always like anytime

0:25:30.520 --> 0:25:32.959
<v Speaker 1>I was not in la I was like, I was like,

0:25:33.119 --> 0:25:35.120
<v Speaker 1>this bitch is gonna die. She's gonna die on my floor,

0:25:35.119 --> 0:25:36.800
<v Speaker 1>and I'm gonna come back and she's just gonna be

0:25:36.840 --> 0:25:37.720
<v Speaker 1>like a rotted corpse.

0:25:37.880 --> 0:25:40.240
<v Speaker 3>Me and Josh would have found her, Yeah, found her.

0:25:40.320 --> 0:25:41.399
<v Speaker 2>Dude, that would have been the worst.

0:25:41.400 --> 0:25:45.399
<v Speaker 3>I literally would have freaked the fuck it. Actually, I

0:25:45.480 --> 0:25:46.840
<v Speaker 3>watched the life leave her body.

0:25:46.880 --> 0:25:47.880
<v Speaker 2>We did, I know we did.

0:25:47.920 --> 0:25:50.480
<v Speaker 1>It was we haven't even spoken about that, but that's

0:25:50.520 --> 0:25:51.680
<v Speaker 1>going into twenty twenty one.

0:25:51.760 --> 0:25:52.760
<v Speaker 2>Maybe we could dabble on that.

0:25:52.920 --> 0:25:56.720
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, But because yeah, twenty twenty my year was pretty awesome.

0:25:57.400 --> 0:26:02.160
<v Speaker 1>I luckily enough, randomly enough met a lot of people

0:26:02.240 --> 0:26:05.760
<v Speaker 1>who have inspired me a lot and like changed my

0:26:05.840 --> 0:26:08.600
<v Speaker 1>life for the better and like really opened my eyes

0:26:08.760 --> 0:26:12.159
<v Speaker 1>to I used to have this big fear of like

0:26:12.359 --> 0:26:15.080
<v Speaker 1>the future and like and I still have like a

0:26:15.080 --> 0:26:18.040
<v Speaker 1>lot of fear about like aging, because like I think

0:26:18.119 --> 0:26:20.160
<v Speaker 1>Drew can kind of relate to this too, And anybody

0:26:20.160 --> 0:26:22.080
<v Speaker 1>who like was really depressed as a kid can relate

0:26:22.119 --> 0:26:22.320
<v Speaker 1>to this.

0:26:22.400 --> 0:26:24.560
<v Speaker 2>You don't imagine life.

0:26:24.240 --> 0:26:26.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah you don't. You don't think like, oh, when I'm

0:26:26.640 --> 0:26:28.600
<v Speaker 3>thirty five, You're like, no, I'm gonna be dead by

0:26:28.640 --> 0:26:29.120
<v Speaker 3>twenty five.

0:26:29.240 --> 0:26:31.800
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, which I also like, I'm sorry if any of

0:26:31.800 --> 0:26:33.879
<v Speaker 1>this is triggering talk, but like I wanted to be

0:26:33.880 --> 0:26:38.560
<v Speaker 1>more of like a comforting thing that like it's pretty common.

0:26:38.240 --> 0:26:40.440
<v Speaker 2>For like anyone who like struggles with depression.

0:26:40.760 --> 0:26:42.879
<v Speaker 1>But on the upside, it's like you grow up and

0:26:42.880 --> 0:26:44.400
<v Speaker 1>then you're like, oh my god, there is so much

0:26:44.440 --> 0:26:46.440
<v Speaker 1>life to fill. And that's kind of anxiety written because

0:26:46.440 --> 0:26:48.359
<v Speaker 1>it's like, you mean, every day, every single day of

0:26:48.400 --> 0:26:50.320
<v Speaker 1>my life, I have to wake up and do something

0:26:50.359 --> 0:26:50.680
<v Speaker 1>with the.

0:26:50.800 --> 0:26:53.520
<v Speaker 2>Tuck like what am I supposed to do?

0:26:53.880 --> 0:26:55.640
<v Speaker 1>But then you realize, oh, I can have days where

0:26:55.640 --> 0:26:58.440
<v Speaker 1>I do absolutely nothing and that's okay, like etc.

0:26:58.680 --> 0:27:01.600
<v Speaker 2>Whatever. But yeah, I met a lot of people who

0:27:01.600 --> 0:27:02.639
<v Speaker 2>were super inspiring to me.

0:27:02.760 --> 0:27:05.720
<v Speaker 1>Made me feel very grounded in like who I am,

0:27:05.760 --> 0:27:07.440
<v Speaker 1>and I'm still coming to terms with who I am

0:27:07.480 --> 0:27:08.760
<v Speaker 1>and I still feel very lost.

0:27:08.960 --> 0:27:11.159
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I had a lot of Twenty twenty was

0:27:11.160 --> 0:27:12.920
<v Speaker 2>a lot of connecting to myself.

0:27:12.600 --> 0:27:15.600
<v Speaker 3>I'm actually there and connecting to other people too. Yeah,

0:27:15.640 --> 0:27:19.480
<v Speaker 3>like you, you made a lot of like like new

0:27:20.119 --> 0:27:21.320
<v Speaker 3>friends this year.

0:27:21.480 --> 0:27:23.639
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and if you know me, you know that I

0:27:23.680 --> 0:27:26.320
<v Speaker 1>don't do that. I do not even people who I

0:27:26.359 --> 0:27:29.080
<v Speaker 1>love and admire. Like A great example who I always

0:27:29.119 --> 0:27:32.720
<v Speaker 1>bring up is Devon. I love Devin. I love everything

0:27:32.720 --> 0:27:36.159
<v Speaker 1>about her. I literally am in love with her. But

0:27:37.000 --> 0:27:39.040
<v Speaker 1>every time I had the chance to hang out with her,

0:27:39.400 --> 0:27:41.400
<v Speaker 1>I would not go for it because I just get

0:27:41.440 --> 0:27:45.679
<v Speaker 1>like intense anxiety and like it literally just it's so

0:27:45.800 --> 0:27:49.840
<v Speaker 1>mind boggling to be like an extroverted person with anxiety.

0:27:49.320 --> 0:27:50.720
<v Speaker 3>Because social anxiety.

0:27:50.800 --> 0:27:52.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because everyone takes it as like.

0:27:53.000 --> 0:27:54.920
<v Speaker 3>Oh, they don't fuck with Yeah, they don't fuck with.

0:27:54.880 --> 0:27:57.359
<v Speaker 2>Me, like they think they're too cooler. And I don't

0:27:57.359 --> 0:27:57.560
<v Speaker 2>know what.

0:27:57.800 --> 0:28:00.320
<v Speaker 1>I don't think everyone thinks that, but like I have

0:28:00.440 --> 0:28:02.760
<v Speaker 1>run into people who like feel that way about us,

0:28:03.080 --> 0:28:05.400
<v Speaker 1>and like I think even especially me, because I don't

0:28:05.440 --> 0:28:06.920
<v Speaker 1>even like hit people up.

0:28:07.000 --> 0:28:09.800
<v Speaker 3>I don't even girl, you are the worst on your phone. Yeah,

0:28:09.840 --> 0:28:10.560
<v Speaker 3>I don't know how to use it.

0:28:10.720 --> 0:28:13.400
<v Speaker 1>I do not use my phone for communication, Like that's

0:28:13.480 --> 0:28:14.640
<v Speaker 1>just not fucking happening.

0:28:14.840 --> 0:28:16.960
<v Speaker 2>And I don't text people. I don't talk to people.

0:28:17.000 --> 0:28:20.159
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, in twenty twenty, I finally stepped out and

0:28:20.200 --> 0:28:24.119
<v Speaker 1>I was like, you know what, although like the worst

0:28:24.200 --> 0:28:26.199
<v Speaker 1>year to meet people, I was lucky enough that I

0:28:26.240 --> 0:28:28.400
<v Speaker 1>did get to meet a bunch of people, like obviously

0:28:28.400 --> 0:28:31.119
<v Speaker 1>mainly through the internet, but I like made that step

0:28:31.160 --> 0:28:33.920
<v Speaker 1>to be like, you know what, life is short, who

0:28:33.960 --> 0:28:37.199
<v Speaker 1>knows what's gonna happen. I should like reach out and

0:28:37.280 --> 0:28:39.760
<v Speaker 1>like talk to people. So I'm still working on that.

0:28:39.800 --> 0:28:43.200
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, literally, twenty twenty was my year of realizing.

0:28:43.320 --> 0:28:45.239
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it was a year I mean literally, Okay, when

0:28:45.280 --> 0:28:48.480
<v Speaker 3>Kylie Jenner said it, this is the year of realizing things,

0:28:48.840 --> 0:28:51.440
<v Speaker 3>she didn't mean the year of realizing thing, like just

0:28:51.480 --> 0:28:54.560
<v Speaker 3>a singular year. Every year is the year of realizing things.

0:28:54.680 --> 0:28:56.920
<v Speaker 3>And that bitch shook shit up. She's a shaker and

0:28:56.960 --> 0:28:59.840
<v Speaker 3>a mover. And when she said that, she opened something

0:29:00.200 --> 0:29:03.080
<v Speaker 3>in the world new portal. Yeah, I'm not joking. She

0:29:03.240 --> 0:29:05.480
<v Speaker 3>is the reason for the Mandela effect. I don't I

0:29:05.480 --> 0:29:08.560
<v Speaker 3>don't even want to get into that, but literally, I

0:29:08.600 --> 0:29:11.240
<v Speaker 3>have my theories do it.

0:29:12.120 --> 0:29:14.600
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, my year was just yeah, it was literally

0:29:15.000 --> 0:29:18.480
<v Speaker 1>I had I gave so much money to my therapist

0:29:18.800 --> 0:29:21.479
<v Speaker 1>that that is like the way to describe your therapist

0:29:21.480 --> 0:29:22.560
<v Speaker 1>could retire off of you.

0:29:22.640 --> 0:29:23.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, just off of me alone.

0:29:23.880 --> 0:29:26.120
<v Speaker 1>But like I literally, oh, actually I want to read

0:29:26.160 --> 0:29:28.800
<v Speaker 1>this like between us, Like, actually, the way my brain

0:29:28.880 --> 0:29:29.720
<v Speaker 1>works is.

0:29:31.440 --> 0:29:32.160
<v Speaker 2>You already know.

0:29:32.240 --> 0:29:33.760
<v Speaker 3>I was about to say, I know.

0:29:34.000 --> 0:29:34.800
<v Speaker 2>It is not good.

0:29:34.880 --> 0:29:38.120
<v Speaker 3>My brain is there's like weird wiring in there, like

0:29:38.360 --> 0:29:40.040
<v Speaker 3>you need to fix the.

0:29:39.880 --> 0:29:44.480
<v Speaker 1>Wiring troubled I.

0:29:44.560 --> 0:29:46.280
<v Speaker 2>So here's what I said to my therapist.

0:29:48.280 --> 0:29:50.520
<v Speaker 3>Fuck. I was like, well, what'd you say?

0:29:50.880 --> 0:29:51.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to figure it out.

0:29:52.440 --> 0:29:54.080
<v Speaker 1>So I hit her up because I was like, hey,

0:29:54.120 --> 0:29:58.480
<v Speaker 1>it's been forever since I've spoken to you, and literally

0:29:58.520 --> 0:29:59.680
<v Speaker 1>this is the way I talked to her.

0:30:00.080 --> 0:30:03.840
<v Speaker 2>I emailed her this. I emailed her this at four am.

0:30:04.000 --> 0:30:06.680
<v Speaker 1>I said, hey, I've just been so busy while also

0:30:06.760 --> 0:30:08.040
<v Speaker 1>doing nothing at all haha.

0:30:08.520 --> 0:30:10.960
<v Speaker 2>Dot dot dot dot also did not see this until

0:30:11.040 --> 0:30:11.280
<v Speaker 2>just now.

0:30:11.280 --> 0:30:13.120
<v Speaker 1>It only chucked because I had a scary thought about

0:30:13.120 --> 0:30:14.800
<v Speaker 1>the idea of you quitting your job and how I

0:30:14.800 --> 0:30:17.960
<v Speaker 1>would literally just procrastinate fighting a new therapist for ten years.

0:30:18.080 --> 0:30:18.760
<v Speaker 2>Dot dot dot.

0:30:19.200 --> 0:30:24.320
<v Speaker 1>But yes, ha, old cap Saturday at four is very good.

0:30:24.600 --> 0:30:26.760
<v Speaker 3>You are scary. You're scary.

0:30:27.000 --> 0:30:28.800
<v Speaker 2>And then she said, and yet I'm planning on the

0:30:28.840 --> 0:30:29.360
<v Speaker 2>long haul.

0:30:29.800 --> 0:30:33.320
<v Speaker 3>Ah, she loves you. I know, she like literally does

0:30:33.560 --> 0:30:35.360
<v Speaker 3>like not like in love with you, but she's like

0:30:35.760 --> 0:30:37.040
<v Speaker 3>she cares about.

0:30:36.720 --> 0:30:38.440
<v Speaker 2>You, like she pities me, and I love that.

0:30:39.400 --> 0:30:41.320
<v Speaker 3>She's like sometimes we just need pity.

0:30:41.720 --> 0:30:44.280
<v Speaker 1>She's like literally, you know when people get like Jerry

0:30:44.360 --> 0:30:46.520
<v Speaker 1>duty and they get like the best case, That's how

0:30:46.520 --> 0:30:50.240
<v Speaker 1>she feels with me. She's like like this is good.

0:30:51.040 --> 0:30:55.040
<v Speaker 3>There's juicy, juicy information inside this woman's brain.

0:30:56.240 --> 0:30:57.880
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, that's my year.

0:30:58.040 --> 0:31:00.840
<v Speaker 3>And then cannot come plane too much.

0:31:00.920 --> 0:31:05.720
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I really can't. Like I want to be mentally

0:31:05.760 --> 0:31:08.600
<v Speaker 2>where I was like summer twenty twenty. That's my goal.

0:31:08.640 --> 0:31:10.640
<v Speaker 1>Everyone's trying to get their summer body. I'm trying to

0:31:10.640 --> 0:31:11.520
<v Speaker 1>get my summer.

0:31:11.240 --> 0:31:12.480
<v Speaker 3>Bar brain back.

0:31:12.760 --> 0:31:15.680
<v Speaker 2>I mean that supper brain. I mean I'm getting that exercise.

0:31:15.720 --> 0:31:16.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm getting there.

0:31:16.360 --> 0:31:16.920
<v Speaker 2>I know you are.

0:31:17.080 --> 0:31:18.680
<v Speaker 1>I think I need to like ride my bike. I

0:31:19.000 --> 0:31:21.920
<v Speaker 1>do think I am somebody off of like physical.

0:31:21.520 --> 0:31:22.800
<v Speaker 2>Like exer ship.

0:31:22.880 --> 0:31:23.320
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah.

0:31:23.360 --> 0:31:24.200
<v Speaker 2>I get a lot.

0:31:24.000 --> 0:31:27.000
<v Speaker 1>Of dopamine and like serotonin, and then I feel like

0:31:27.120 --> 0:31:28.760
<v Speaker 1>very solid in my body because I'm like, Okay, my

0:31:28.800 --> 0:31:29.959
<v Speaker 1>body can like do things.

0:31:30.120 --> 0:31:32.120
<v Speaker 2>My brain may not be able to do much, but

0:31:32.160 --> 0:31:32.880
<v Speaker 2>my body can't.

0:31:33.160 --> 0:31:35.120
<v Speaker 3>Mean when I was like rock climbing for the first

0:31:35.120 --> 0:31:36.960
<v Speaker 3>time and I was like, I was like, wait, why

0:31:37.000 --> 0:31:37.920
<v Speaker 3>can my body do this?

0:31:38.320 --> 0:31:39.200
<v Speaker 2>I have a brain.

0:31:39.280 --> 0:31:42.320
<v Speaker 3>You're like, yeah, I really had an existential crisis because

0:31:42.360 --> 0:31:44.880
<v Speaker 3>my body knew exactly what to do, and I was like, now,

0:31:44.880 --> 0:31:46.239
<v Speaker 3>why the fuck does it know how to do this?

0:31:46.720 --> 0:31:49.040
<v Speaker 3>I have never once rock climbed in my life without

0:31:49.080 --> 0:31:49.680
<v Speaker 3>a rope.

0:31:49.920 --> 0:31:52.680
<v Speaker 2>But you climbed trees as a kid. It's pretty similar.

0:31:52.920 --> 0:31:53.480
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:31:53.520 --> 0:31:54.240
<v Speaker 2>I miss climbing.

0:31:54.280 --> 0:31:58.320
<v Speaker 1>I miss climbing trees. Yeah, they're climbing trees anymore. They're

0:31:58.320 --> 0:31:59.320
<v Speaker 1>climbing the algorithm.

0:31:59.400 --> 0:32:02.920
<v Speaker 3>They're climbing the iPad. Girl. Should I talk about how

0:32:02.960 --> 0:32:04.160
<v Speaker 3>the iPad babies ruled the world?

0:32:04.240 --> 0:32:07.320
<v Speaker 2>No, talk about your fucking iPad baby. You are the

0:32:07.360 --> 0:32:09.680
<v Speaker 2>iPad baby, bitch. Look at your screen time.

0:32:10.920 --> 0:32:14.400
<v Speaker 3>I am the iPad baby. Okay, yeah, let's get into that.

0:32:14.440 --> 0:32:16.840
<v Speaker 3>I guess my screen time is fucking crazy. What do

0:32:16.880 --> 0:32:18.840
<v Speaker 3>you want me to say? I mean, I've been doing

0:32:18.840 --> 0:32:21.880
<v Speaker 3>good about it. I've been like off my fucking phone recently,

0:32:21.960 --> 0:32:22.400
<v Speaker 3>which is.

0:32:22.400 --> 0:32:25.200
<v Speaker 2>Like, do I I'm gonna pull mine up again?

0:32:25.200 --> 0:32:27.440
<v Speaker 3>Oh, I've been off my phone. I've been like training

0:32:27.440 --> 0:32:31.120
<v Speaker 3>myself like just like literally it's I'm like withdrawing from

0:32:31.120 --> 0:32:36.560
<v Speaker 3>my phone for real, Like I genuinely like like there

0:32:36.560 --> 0:32:38.160
<v Speaker 3>are moments where I don't know what to do with

0:32:38.200 --> 0:32:40.239
<v Speaker 3>myself if I'm not looking at a screen, and I'm like,

0:32:41.160 --> 0:32:42.800
<v Speaker 3>why is my brain wired like this? When did this

0:32:42.840 --> 0:32:44.520
<v Speaker 3>happen to me? Because I used to be really good

0:32:44.560 --> 0:32:46.480
<v Speaker 3>about not being on my phone all the fucking time,

0:32:46.640 --> 0:32:49.200
<v Speaker 3>but now I have to like actively like not be

0:32:49.360 --> 0:32:52.160
<v Speaker 3>on my phone, which is like crazy, Like I am

0:32:52.240 --> 0:32:59.120
<v Speaker 3>literally looking at a screen of some sort like ninety

0:32:59.160 --> 0:33:02.040
<v Speaker 3>percent of my day, like legitimately ninety percent of my lid.

0:33:02.280 --> 0:33:02.480
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:33:02.520 --> 0:33:06.200
<v Speaker 1>What's really funny is like the whole being off of

0:33:06.200 --> 0:33:08.880
<v Speaker 1>your phone thing, But then watching the move a movie

0:33:08.920 --> 0:33:11.320
<v Speaker 1>instead kind of reminds me of like the idea of

0:33:11.320 --> 0:33:14.200
<v Speaker 1>people being like if you drink about an alcohol, you're an

0:33:14.200 --> 0:33:16.080
<v Speaker 1>alcohol like, but if you smoke a lot of weed,

0:33:16.280 --> 0:33:18.760
<v Speaker 1>you're just fun. You're just like because in my head,

0:33:18.760 --> 0:33:20.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm always like, yeah, I want to get off my

0:33:20.200 --> 0:33:21.800
<v Speaker 1>phone and like watch a TV show or something.

0:33:21.800 --> 0:33:23.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, that's just moving to bigger screen.

0:33:23.720 --> 0:33:25.680
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, exactly, No, that's what I mean. Like looking at

0:33:25.720 --> 0:33:28.400
<v Speaker 3>a screen for ninety percent of my day. It's just

0:33:28.440 --> 0:33:31.400
<v Speaker 3>like literally any screen. And when I was watching my

0:33:31.520 --> 0:33:33.480
<v Speaker 3>show the other day on the couch, like I had

0:33:33.480 --> 0:33:36.800
<v Speaker 3>this like weird, like third person moment where I like

0:33:37.200 --> 0:33:39.720
<v Speaker 3>I saw myself watching this screen and I was like,

0:33:40.640 --> 0:33:42.200
<v Speaker 3>I need, I need to stop. I need like what

0:33:42.240 --> 0:33:44.840
<v Speaker 3>am I doing? Like I'm literally like wasting my fucking life.

0:33:44.840 --> 0:33:47.280
<v Speaker 3>But then that was just a fleeting, like intrusive thought

0:33:48.000 --> 0:33:49.280
<v Speaker 3>and then I kept watching and.

0:33:49.280 --> 0:33:51.120
<v Speaker 2>Then I fucking the attack on.

0:33:51.640 --> 0:33:55.680
<v Speaker 3>I literally had like a moment of uh, depersonalization, derealization,

0:33:55.720 --> 0:33:57.760
<v Speaker 3>and then just kept on going just like I was like,

0:33:57.800 --> 0:33:59.560
<v Speaker 3>you know what it should be. I just I've learned

0:33:59.560 --> 0:34:01.800
<v Speaker 3>to like how to ground myself. I like look for

0:34:01.880 --> 0:34:03.920
<v Speaker 3>things I can see and smell. It's like kind of

0:34:04.520 --> 0:34:05.120
<v Speaker 3>really smart.

0:34:05.200 --> 0:34:07.080
<v Speaker 2>I literally still don't know what to do when I

0:34:07.120 --> 0:34:08.200
<v Speaker 2>disconnect from reality.

0:34:08.239 --> 0:34:11.719
<v Speaker 3>And then I just it's not disconnecting from reality. You

0:34:11.800 --> 0:34:14.840
<v Speaker 3>are reconnecting to reality. You are turning off autopilot. And

0:34:14.880 --> 0:34:18.839
<v Speaker 3>it's like wait, I'm like sentient, like why like why

0:34:18.840 --> 0:34:19.359
<v Speaker 3>am I here?

0:34:19.520 --> 0:34:22.680
<v Speaker 1>There's like too many words, and I'm just like dude, no,

0:34:23.040 --> 0:34:24.920
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like a crazy person.

0:34:24.960 --> 0:34:27.360
<v Speaker 2>And that's I'm gonna describe it like, I'm just like

0:34:27.440 --> 0:34:30.279
<v Speaker 2>I don't know because I like, also like, let me

0:34:30.320 --> 0:34:31.600
<v Speaker 2>not casually throw you know what.

0:34:31.640 --> 0:34:34.080
<v Speaker 1>I realized being back in Miami and like around like

0:34:34.200 --> 0:34:37.160
<v Speaker 1>Miami motherfuckers again has made me talk like I'm back

0:34:37.200 --> 0:34:39.600
<v Speaker 1>in Miami. Like to my therapist, I think she's like,

0:34:39.960 --> 0:34:44.120
<v Speaker 1>damn girl, your fucking vocabulary has like sank twenty percent.

0:34:44.440 --> 0:34:46.080
<v Speaker 2>Because now I'll.

0:34:45.840 --> 0:34:47.840
<v Speaker 1>Just call her and I'll be like, I just feel

0:34:47.840 --> 0:34:50.000
<v Speaker 1>fucking crazy, like I feel crazy.

0:34:49.640 --> 0:34:52.960
<v Speaker 3>As fuck and like and she's like, don't say that

0:34:53.440 --> 0:34:53.920
<v Speaker 3>is this.

0:34:54.000 --> 0:34:56.200
<v Speaker 2>Like you you did not talk like this. I used

0:34:56.200 --> 0:34:58.080
<v Speaker 2>to get on that phone and be like no, And

0:34:58.120 --> 0:34:58.839
<v Speaker 2>the thing is like.

0:34:58.920 --> 0:35:02.240
<v Speaker 1>I feel like what's happening is insecurity is really harping

0:35:02.280 --> 0:35:05.040
<v Speaker 1>on my fears and those.

0:35:04.840 --> 0:35:06.200
<v Speaker 2>Things are ganging up on me.

0:35:06.520 --> 0:35:07.799
<v Speaker 1>And now I get on the phone, I'm like, I

0:35:07.880 --> 0:35:10.160
<v Speaker 1>just feel fucking crazy and I don't give a shit anymore.

0:35:10.239 --> 0:35:13.399
<v Speaker 3>Like you're articulating your thoughts and now you've just like

0:35:13.840 --> 0:35:14.560
<v Speaker 3>reverted back.

0:35:14.600 --> 0:35:16.439
<v Speaker 2>I'm back on my dumb shit. I don't care.

0:35:16.640 --> 0:35:22.759
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I'm just like I enjoy being very put

0:35:22.800 --> 0:35:27.840
<v Speaker 1>together an articulate about certain things, but I'm like, there's

0:35:27.960 --> 0:35:31.120
<v Speaker 1>no way everyone's feeling this like this, like this shouldn't

0:35:31.120 --> 0:35:33.400
<v Speaker 1>be normal. But also I guess we do live in

0:35:33.560 --> 0:35:35.960
<v Speaker 1>such an age where like we are growing up. I

0:35:35.960 --> 0:35:38.160
<v Speaker 1>guess we're fucking grown up at this point. So no,

0:35:38.400 --> 0:35:42.319
<v Speaker 1>we're just like washing kids grow up. But everyone's growing

0:35:42.400 --> 0:35:44.480
<v Speaker 1>up very similarly, so of course they're gonna have like

0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.320
<v Speaker 1>super similar similar.

0:35:47.200 --> 0:35:50.160
<v Speaker 2>Experiences and that I don't know. My screen time isn't

0:35:50.200 --> 0:35:50.560
<v Speaker 2>too bad.

0:35:50.920 --> 0:35:54.759
<v Speaker 1>It's like, yeah, I am okay. My screen time at

0:35:54.920 --> 0:35:58.160
<v Speaker 1>max will go to eight hours a day.

0:35:58.360 --> 0:36:00.719
<v Speaker 3>That see my average right now, seven hours. I got

0:36:00.760 --> 0:36:03.480
<v Speaker 3>it down from twelve hours a day to seven hour.

0:36:03.480 --> 0:36:06.560
<v Speaker 1>Dude, my max is eight and seven and then like

0:36:06.640 --> 0:36:08.000
<v Speaker 1>on a usual it's like four to five.

0:36:08.320 --> 0:36:09.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's like usually my.

0:36:09.440 --> 0:36:14.160
<v Speaker 3>Screen Like if we have if every day was like yesterday,

0:36:14.200 --> 0:36:16.640
<v Speaker 3>like if if every day of the week was like yesterday,

0:36:16.840 --> 0:36:19.000
<v Speaker 3>my screen time would be two hours every day. Yeah.

0:36:19.040 --> 0:36:19.920
<v Speaker 2>I think that's the difference too.

0:36:19.960 --> 0:36:22.040
<v Speaker 1>I've just been having days where I like will literally

0:36:22.480 --> 0:36:23.200
<v Speaker 1>I'll just be on.

0:36:23.200 --> 0:36:25.200
<v Speaker 2>My feet all day, so I'm like, I can't, I

0:36:25.200 --> 0:36:26.040
<v Speaker 2>can't look at my phone.

0:36:26.120 --> 0:36:28.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and for me, I'm just literally trapped inside all day,

0:36:29.160 --> 0:36:33.040
<v Speaker 3>like literally trapped inside, like ugh, it's so fucked up,

0:36:33.080 --> 0:36:34.759
<v Speaker 3>but I've gotten so used to it that it's like

0:36:35.000 --> 0:36:36.719
<v Speaker 3>the new normal. And now I'm like, I don't want

0:36:36.760 --> 0:36:39.920
<v Speaker 3>to reintegrate back into society, Like I don't want the

0:36:40.360 --> 0:36:41.480
<v Speaker 3>I don't want COVID to end.

0:36:41.840 --> 0:36:43.680
<v Speaker 2>That's how I felt. But then.

0:36:45.280 --> 0:36:47.680
<v Speaker 1>I realized I don't not want to be in society

0:36:47.719 --> 0:36:51.200
<v Speaker 1>because I do like, although we both have like a

0:36:51.239 --> 0:36:55.759
<v Speaker 1>lot of social anxiety, it like it's so weird, dude,

0:36:55.760 --> 0:36:59.000
<v Speaker 1>our anxiety. It makes me feel so stupid and fake

0:36:59.200 --> 0:37:03.960
<v Speaker 1>because it is just like it's like popping a pimple.

0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:06.319
<v Speaker 1>It's like it hurts to do it, and you're like,

0:37:06.360 --> 0:37:08.000
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to do this, and then once you

0:37:08.040 --> 0:37:09.799
<v Speaker 1>do it, you're like, oh, Okay, it's like it's gone.

0:37:09.800 --> 0:37:14.960
<v Speaker 3>That's It's like taking your bra off after a long day.

0:37:19.880 --> 0:37:26.560
<v Speaker 3>So this fucking stupid bands the But yeah, the pandemic

0:37:26.680 --> 0:37:30.000
<v Speaker 3>is almost over. I know people are getting their vaccines

0:37:31.320 --> 0:37:35.560
<v Speaker 3>girls exactly. We haven't it. We haven't gotten our vaccine yet.

0:37:36.160 --> 0:37:39.000
<v Speaker 3>But we plan on getting the Johnson and Johnson vaccine.

0:37:39.080 --> 0:37:42.520
<v Speaker 3>I know that sounds fucking crazy, but here us out.

0:37:42.760 --> 0:37:47.480
<v Speaker 3>We want to get the defected one, the gross one,

0:37:47.480 --> 0:37:50.719
<v Speaker 3>the one with all the stories simply because it would

0:37:50.719 --> 0:37:51.440
<v Speaker 3>be hilarious.

0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:55.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like the attention we would get if I posted,

0:37:55.680 --> 0:37:59.040
<v Speaker 1>oh MG, just got the Johnson and Johnson The story

0:37:59.120 --> 0:37:59.960
<v Speaker 1>replies on that.

0:38:00.480 --> 0:38:03.880
<v Speaker 3>The amount of interaction that would get would be crazy.

0:38:04.000 --> 0:38:08.280
<v Speaker 3>And also like we met someone who got the Johnson

0:38:08.320 --> 0:38:11.080
<v Speaker 3>and Johnson vaccine and the way we reacted to like

0:38:11.160 --> 0:38:14.680
<v Speaker 3>finding out that they had the blood clotting vaccine, Like

0:38:14.719 --> 0:38:16.839
<v Speaker 3>we just all burst out laughing, And I was like,

0:38:17.080 --> 0:38:20.279
<v Speaker 3>if I can do that for one person, like a day,

0:38:20.400 --> 0:38:22.239
<v Speaker 3>like it would be worth it. It would be worth

0:38:22.280 --> 0:38:23.640
<v Speaker 3>the blood clots thirty years from it.

0:38:23.719 --> 0:38:26.960
<v Speaker 1>To be fair, most rational human beings would not react

0:38:27.000 --> 0:38:29.239
<v Speaker 1>the way we reacted. So I'm really betting out a

0:38:29.280 --> 0:38:31.919
<v Speaker 1>lot because, like I think most people were like, oh

0:38:32.000 --> 0:38:33.000
<v Speaker 1>my god.

0:38:32.719 --> 0:38:36.799
<v Speaker 2>You know that fear mongering. It's no, it's not that

0:38:36.840 --> 0:38:41.279
<v Speaker 2>big of a deal. But like us, we were like, but.

0:38:42.840 --> 0:38:45.960
<v Speaker 3>Your blood's about the boil, You're about to spontaneously combust.

0:38:46.360 --> 0:38:53.600
<v Speaker 3>And also like down the line, say something fucked up

0:38:53.680 --> 0:38:55.520
<v Speaker 3>does happen and I do end up getting a blood

0:38:55.520 --> 0:38:58.600
<v Speaker 3>clot Bitch, I'm living one because I'm never gonna die,

0:38:58.719 --> 0:39:01.279
<v Speaker 3>Like I'm the luckiest person a line. I'll never die

0:39:02.200 --> 0:39:04.279
<v Speaker 3>in two years and I'm dead, They're gonna clip that

0:39:04.320 --> 0:39:04.799
<v Speaker 3>and be like.

0:39:05.200 --> 0:39:07.880
<v Speaker 2>You're a life About that we like genuinely, not that

0:39:07.920 --> 0:39:08.920
<v Speaker 2>we feel invincible.

0:39:10.680 --> 0:39:13.120
<v Speaker 1>No one's gonna kill me exactly. I'm not being killed

0:39:13.120 --> 0:39:16.200
<v Speaker 1>by accident. Yeah, And that's that on that. I'm not

0:39:16.239 --> 0:39:20.440
<v Speaker 1>going to go into depth, but it's just like.

0:39:17.920 --> 0:39:21.320
<v Speaker 3>I think we can infer what you mean, okay, but.

0:39:21.280 --> 0:39:22.920
<v Speaker 1>Like not in like a scary way, because I don't

0:39:22.920 --> 0:39:24.840
<v Speaker 1>want to scare anyone or like trigger anyone, or like

0:39:24.840 --> 0:39:27.560
<v Speaker 1>make anyone feel uncomfortable. But like I remember, this is

0:39:27.600 --> 0:39:29.759
<v Speaker 1>a conversation I had with a friend when we first met,

0:39:29.800 --> 0:39:31.680
<v Speaker 1>and we had a debate about this where I was like,

0:39:31.960 --> 0:39:35.480
<v Speaker 1>no fucking murderer is going to murder me, bitch. I

0:39:35.600 --> 0:39:37.200
<v Speaker 1>see you coming, and I feel like I have no

0:39:37.239 --> 0:39:39.640
<v Speaker 1>other option. I'm doing the job because I'm not giving

0:39:39.680 --> 0:39:41.680
<v Speaker 1>you the satisfaction.

0:39:41.120 --> 0:39:42.600
<v Speaker 3>Of you're not getting off on killing me.

0:39:42.719 --> 0:39:44.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, no one is getting off on killing me, not

0:39:44.640 --> 0:39:47.799
<v Speaker 2>even the universe. So if I gotta do what I

0:39:47.800 --> 0:39:48.800
<v Speaker 2>gotta do, I'm gonna.

0:39:48.600 --> 0:39:51.200
<v Speaker 3>Do what I gotta do, alright, cycle my body back

0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:55.120
<v Speaker 3>to Earth. But what I was saying is like I'm

0:39:55.160 --> 0:39:57.600
<v Speaker 3>not gonna die from the vaccine and if for some

0:39:57.640 --> 0:40:00.840
<v Speaker 3>reason in thirty years my blood starts clodding, I'm going

0:40:00.920 --> 0:40:04.120
<v Speaker 3>to survive, and I'm going to sue, and I'm gonna

0:40:04.160 --> 0:40:06.960
<v Speaker 3>get my bag and I'm going to distribute my wealth.

0:40:09.040 --> 0:40:16.760
<v Speaker 2>You slick the most insane hypothetical ever. Like, okay, girl, why.

0:40:18.680 --> 0:40:24.960
<v Speaker 3>The way I take hypotheticals so so serious? Like like

0:40:25.480 --> 0:40:30.080
<v Speaker 3>sometimes like we're close to ending our relationship over fucking hypothetical.

0:40:30.160 --> 0:40:31.919
<v Speaker 1>And it's literally because me being like I don't believe

0:40:31.920 --> 0:40:35.200
<v Speaker 1>in aliens, and Drew will literally throw a fit, like

0:40:35.320 --> 0:40:38.000
<v Speaker 1>I will never see this man as angry as me

0:40:38.120 --> 0:40:40.879
<v Speaker 1>disagreeing with the hypothetical and he gets so mad because

0:40:40.920 --> 0:40:42.359
<v Speaker 1>I just I can't get into it.

0:40:42.400 --> 0:40:44.160
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I am grounded in reality.

0:40:44.160 --> 0:40:47.040
<v Speaker 3>It's because you're disagreeing with everything at my core. It's

0:40:47.120 --> 0:40:51.040
<v Speaker 3>like it's like you literally just disagree with me. Ah.

0:40:51.040 --> 0:40:52.960
<v Speaker 1>I tell you about one time me and O Ryan

0:40:53.040 --> 0:40:56.799
<v Speaker 1>were out for drinks and it was with Josh too,

0:40:56.840 --> 0:41:00.680
<v Speaker 1>and it's the hypothetical of marrying Harry Styles Timothy Shallow

0:41:00.680 --> 0:41:02.279
<v Speaker 1>mate on the spot came up and I said I

0:41:02.280 --> 0:41:04.080
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't do that. I was like, I don't know them.

0:41:04.239 --> 0:41:06.920
<v Speaker 1>I was like not only my court. At my core,

0:41:07.040 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 1>I don't believe in marriage because it's fucking insane. I'm

0:41:10.000 --> 0:41:12.120
<v Speaker 1>not marrying anyone, not even the love of my life

0:41:12.160 --> 0:41:13.239
<v Speaker 1>at any point in my life.

0:41:13.840 --> 0:41:18.799
<v Speaker 2>So why would I marry this get married? Huh? You

0:41:18.840 --> 0:41:19.880
<v Speaker 2>wish we got married?

0:41:19.920 --> 0:41:22.120
<v Speaker 1>You try to see, Like I said, not even my

0:41:22.239 --> 0:41:25.960
<v Speaker 1>platonic soulmate can bag me. No one is getting me

0:41:26.040 --> 0:41:28.040
<v Speaker 1>to sign those stupid fucking papers.

0:41:28.520 --> 0:41:31.000
<v Speaker 2>And then she got really really bad. She was so

0:41:31.120 --> 0:41:31.600
<v Speaker 2>upset at me.

0:41:32.320 --> 0:41:33.839
<v Speaker 3>I'm about to get upset to you right now.

0:41:34.239 --> 0:41:37.600
<v Speaker 1>Like, Okay, first of all, I don't think, and this

0:41:37.680 --> 0:41:40.160
<v Speaker 1>is a big take, I don't think sexually we would

0:41:40.160 --> 0:41:43.160
<v Speaker 1>have good chemistry me and Harry or me and timpathy

0:41:43.160 --> 0:41:45.360
<v Speaker 1>shalo may could you imagine us kissing?

0:41:46.239 --> 0:41:48.520
<v Speaker 3>No, I literally cannot even imagine.

0:41:48.560 --> 0:41:49.200
<v Speaker 2>Like those are just.

0:41:49.120 --> 0:41:52.279
<v Speaker 1>Two men that, like, I don't think biologically we could

0:41:52.280 --> 0:41:53.320
<v Speaker 1>get it going anyways.

0:41:53.400 --> 0:41:56.359
<v Speaker 2>So I'm not hearing that, Like I'm not doing that.

0:41:56.320 --> 0:42:00.319
<v Speaker 1>To myself, Harry style, Like there are two they are

0:42:00.360 --> 0:42:04.080
<v Speaker 1>so disconnected from reality in my head, I cannot comprehend

0:42:04.080 --> 0:42:05.760
<v Speaker 1>that they are living beings.

0:42:05.640 --> 0:42:07.600
<v Speaker 2>Let alone having to have some sort.

0:42:07.320 --> 0:42:11.080
<v Speaker 1>Of like relationship with them like that, Like maybe Timothy

0:42:11.320 --> 0:42:13.840
<v Speaker 1>on like a friendly level, but even that, like I

0:42:14.080 --> 0:42:17.319
<v Speaker 1>crack up at his existence, not because I find him

0:42:17.360 --> 0:42:20.240
<v Speaker 1>like corny or anything, but people at that level literally

0:42:20.320 --> 0:42:22.480
<v Speaker 1>make me laugh. It's like Kylie Jenner, like I I

0:42:25.480 --> 0:42:27.000
<v Speaker 1>came up to me and just starting dogg to me,

0:42:27.080 --> 0:42:28.520
<v Speaker 1>I would crack the fuck.

0:42:28.560 --> 0:42:31.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, you're you're not real, Like there.

0:42:31.719 --> 0:42:33.080
<v Speaker 2>Is no comprehending someone.

0:42:33.560 --> 0:42:36.480
<v Speaker 1>And also because I just think about like sometimes when

0:42:36.480 --> 0:42:39.280
<v Speaker 1>our followers meet us and they're like, I can't believe,

0:42:39.320 --> 0:42:41.040
<v Speaker 1>like I'm looking at you right now.

0:42:41.760 --> 0:42:45.880
<v Speaker 2>Like that with Timothy h with Harry Styles, I have

0:42:46.239 --> 0:42:49.400
<v Speaker 2>like put that man is a like god.

0:42:50.040 --> 0:42:52.319
<v Speaker 1>No, he is a fucking three D render, like he

0:42:52.480 --> 0:42:57.000
<v Speaker 1>is not a real human, Like I've fascinated about his

0:42:57.760 --> 0:43:01.200
<v Speaker 1>existence since I was literally the his fucking cock since

0:43:01.239 --> 0:43:03.440
<v Speaker 1>I was like fourteen, so therefore.

0:43:03.080 --> 0:43:04.320
<v Speaker 2>His cock does not exist.

0:43:05.200 --> 0:43:07.560
<v Speaker 1>Actually, I literally can't look at anyone and see their

0:43:07.680 --> 0:43:08.600
<v Speaker 1>genitals like.

0:43:09.000 --> 0:43:12.400
<v Speaker 3>My biggest girl, where are you going now?

0:43:12.480 --> 0:43:14.759
<v Speaker 1>I'm just ranting, but like, no, you know how like

0:43:14.800 --> 0:43:18.560
<v Speaker 1>some people like wait now listen, you know some people.

0:43:18.360 --> 0:43:21.000
<v Speaker 2>Look at someone and they like can sexualize someone.

0:43:21.200 --> 0:43:24.359
<v Speaker 1>I cannot sexualize anyone for the life of me, Like

0:43:24.680 --> 0:43:28.239
<v Speaker 1>I genuinely, I have to whoa I can. I have

0:43:28.320 --> 0:43:31.319
<v Speaker 1>to get to know someone first, and then I'm like, oh,

0:43:31.440 --> 0:43:35.240
<v Speaker 1>maybe maybe, but I don't. I don't find people sexy,

0:43:35.400 --> 0:43:38.440
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm not like I find women sexy, but like, man,

0:43:38.520 --> 0:43:39.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, can.

0:43:39.040 --> 0:43:41.680
<v Speaker 2>You fucking get the fuck out of my face?

0:43:42.760 --> 0:43:45.480
<v Speaker 3>But that's it, damn Okay.

0:43:45.600 --> 0:43:46.920
<v Speaker 1>I just have to get a man to know a

0:43:47.000 --> 0:43:52.279
<v Speaker 1>man first, because men like off Rip are oh gross.

0:43:51.400 --> 0:43:52.480
<v Speaker 2>So gross.

0:43:52.719 --> 0:43:55.200
<v Speaker 3>I wholeheartedly agree with yeah, and then when you get

0:43:55.200 --> 0:43:57.080
<v Speaker 3>to know them, it's like, Okay, stinky, I.

0:43:57.080 --> 0:43:57.640
<v Speaker 2>Kind of like you.

0:43:57.880 --> 0:44:00.640
<v Speaker 3>Okay, stinky, Okay, onion powder, you know what, any bad

0:44:00.680 --> 0:44:01.319
<v Speaker 3>rec kind of like you.

0:44:02.080 --> 0:44:05.040
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, that's my rant about not being able to

0:44:06.520 --> 0:44:09.920
<v Speaker 1>imagine myself marrying Timothy Challamey or Harry Styles.

0:44:10.000 --> 0:44:12.520
<v Speaker 3>I'd have sex with both of them.

0:44:12.520 --> 0:44:14.320
<v Speaker 2>You might find that you don't like it.

0:44:15.000 --> 0:44:17.480
<v Speaker 1>That's my biggest THINGA People are like, Okay, actually that's

0:44:17.480 --> 0:44:19.960
<v Speaker 1>a lie, though, because I have certain like celebrities who

0:44:20.000 --> 0:44:22.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, yeah, I would. It was like a conversation

0:44:22.520 --> 0:44:24.680
<v Speaker 1>about like Drake last night, where I was like, but

0:44:24.719 --> 0:44:26.600
<v Speaker 1>the thing is, I'm not sexually attracted to Drake.

0:44:26.640 --> 0:44:28.680
<v Speaker 2>It's like, why would I not have sex.

0:44:28.480 --> 0:44:30.719
<v Speaker 3>With Drake, yeah, but also the same could go with

0:44:30.760 --> 0:44:32.200
<v Speaker 3>Harry Styles and Timothy Challa May.

0:44:32.280 --> 0:44:34.280
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I just don't feel that way about them, really,

0:44:34.480 --> 0:44:36.359
<v Speaker 2>I guess, like I don't know. I find them both

0:44:36.400 --> 0:44:38.239
<v Speaker 2>attractive in their own ways, but like.

0:44:39.760 --> 0:44:43.160
<v Speaker 1>I literally feel like I could kick Timothy shallowrations in

0:44:43.640 --> 0:44:46.839
<v Speaker 1>would like Alicia not to say anything about him, but like.

0:44:46.840 --> 0:44:48.239
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know. I just don't know.

0:44:49.120 --> 0:44:51.560
<v Speaker 1>If I ever meet you, you won't know that I

0:44:51.640 --> 0:44:55.680
<v Speaker 1>said this, and it doesn't matter and I didn't say this.

0:44:55.960 --> 0:45:00.000
<v Speaker 3>Mister is listening right now.

0:44:59.000 --> 0:45:01.160
<v Speaker 2>Hey, be friends, girl.

0:45:02.560 --> 0:45:03.880
<v Speaker 3>I don't think he wants to be friends with you

0:45:03.920 --> 0:45:04.319
<v Speaker 3>after you.

0:45:04.280 --> 0:45:06.960
<v Speaker 2>Said I said him, that's really weird.

0:45:07.280 --> 0:45:12.120
<v Speaker 3>You know, Timothy, you know how he gets Dude, that

0:45:12.160 --> 0:45:14.839
<v Speaker 3>one time we were fucking hanging out with him at Chateau.

0:45:14.920 --> 0:45:17.640
<v Speaker 2>It was so weird. That's well, that's why I couldn't

0:45:17.640 --> 0:45:18.839
<v Speaker 2>marry him because of that night.

0:45:18.880 --> 0:45:21.600
<v Speaker 3>It was just so literally he like tried to fucking

0:45:21.719 --> 0:45:23.759
<v Speaker 3>dunk on me. I was like, I was like, this

0:45:23.800 --> 0:45:25.320
<v Speaker 3>is just like, well.

0:45:25.200 --> 0:45:27.640
<v Speaker 1>You guys were like, aren't you guys like almost the

0:45:27.680 --> 0:45:28.080
<v Speaker 1>same high?

0:45:28.120 --> 0:45:30.279
<v Speaker 3>I just can't remember we're about the same height. But

0:45:30.400 --> 0:45:35.120
<v Speaker 3>like it was a fucking bottle into a trash can.

0:45:35.239 --> 0:45:37.040
<v Speaker 3>I was like, just fucking throw it away like a

0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:38.560
<v Speaker 3>normal person. Don't try to dunk on me.

0:45:39.320 --> 0:45:42.000
<v Speaker 1>You're embarrassed because he like overstepped you. Also am I like, no,

0:45:42.040 --> 0:45:43.000
<v Speaker 1>actually he's not your height?

0:45:43.080 --> 0:45:46.240
<v Speaker 2>Is he shorter? We just started that he's.

0:45:46.080 --> 0:45:48.880
<v Speaker 3>Fire three dude, Timothy is five three.

0:45:49.000 --> 0:45:53.600
<v Speaker 2>He's actually really really fucking short. But yeah, I'm like thinking,

0:45:53.880 --> 0:45:56.239
<v Speaker 2>is are we hitting the end of this episode?

0:45:56.760 --> 0:45:59.480
<v Speaker 3>Well, we need to discuss the Baha Blast?

0:46:00.040 --> 0:46:02.080
<v Speaker 2>Oh, the last debate of the podcast.

0:46:02.280 --> 0:46:07.120
<v Speaker 1>The last debate of the podcast gender reveal from Baha Blast?

0:46:07.360 --> 0:46:09.800
<v Speaker 3>What is the gender of a Baha Blast?

0:46:09.840 --> 0:46:12.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay, you you asked me this on the couch the

0:46:12.719 --> 0:46:13.200
<v Speaker 1>other day.

0:46:13.320 --> 0:46:15.280
<v Speaker 2>Yes, Is this like discourse.

0:46:14.920 --> 0:46:17.920
<v Speaker 3>Online or no? This is just something I thought about. Okay,

0:46:18.000 --> 0:46:19.719
<v Speaker 3>so it's about to be discourse.

0:46:20.080 --> 0:46:24.600
<v Speaker 1>So here's you say your take for Actually I'll say

0:46:24.640 --> 0:46:27.560
<v Speaker 1>my take first because they are so opposite that going

0:46:27.560 --> 0:46:28.959
<v Speaker 1>from mine to yours.

0:46:30.320 --> 0:46:33.120
<v Speaker 2>Sounds really good. Also, this red bull is making me

0:46:33.160 --> 0:46:36.960
<v Speaker 2>burp so crazy. Yeah, but so Drew.

0:46:36.800 --> 0:46:40.680
<v Speaker 1>Asked me what was my take on the gender of

0:46:40.680 --> 0:46:43.520
<v Speaker 1>the Baha Blast? And it stumped me for a.

0:46:43.520 --> 0:46:46.680
<v Speaker 2>Second, and then I was like, I think it's a

0:46:46.760 --> 0:46:47.600
<v Speaker 2>gay white man.

0:46:47.680 --> 0:46:49.520
<v Speaker 1>I think a Baja blast is a gay white dude,

0:46:49.520 --> 0:46:51.880
<v Speaker 1>but a very specific kind of gay white dude. You

0:46:51.920 --> 0:46:54.359
<v Speaker 1>know that guy who got like dragged on TikTok who

0:46:54.480 --> 0:46:57.560
<v Speaker 1>was like, I used to go to school, Bobby as fuck,

0:46:58.560 --> 0:47:01.759
<v Speaker 1>that kind that is kind of gay dude that the

0:47:01.760 --> 0:47:04.719
<v Speaker 1>Baja blast is. He's white, he lives in like Connecticut,

0:47:06.000 --> 0:47:08.640
<v Speaker 1>his family is super down for him being gay, and

0:47:08.719 --> 0:47:09.520
<v Speaker 1>he's loud.

0:47:09.920 --> 0:47:12.839
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and I just said a straight white man. It's

0:47:12.840 --> 0:47:15.640
<v Speaker 3>so like it's it is a Baha blast is a

0:47:15.680 --> 0:47:18.000
<v Speaker 3>straight white man, dude.

0:47:18.040 --> 0:47:22.160
<v Speaker 1>I think Baha blasts are in my head. Baja blasts

0:47:22.160 --> 0:47:24.920
<v Speaker 1>are so intertwined with queer culture. It just can't be

0:47:24.920 --> 0:47:25.720
<v Speaker 1>a straight white.

0:47:25.600 --> 0:47:28.080
<v Speaker 3>Dude, dude, I think. I mean, like yes, but also

0:47:28.320 --> 0:47:31.799
<v Speaker 3>like I hate saying straight culture because straight people don't

0:47:31.840 --> 0:47:36.359
<v Speaker 3>have a culture, but straight culture, yes we do, girl,

0:47:36.400 --> 0:47:36.680
<v Speaker 3>you're not.

0:47:36.760 --> 0:47:40.560
<v Speaker 2>Straight, Yes we do, Yes we are. Yes we are

0:47:40.840 --> 0:47:44.520
<v Speaker 2>me and all my straight community.

0:47:44.760 --> 0:47:47.600
<v Speaker 3>Now my ass hurts so bad from this fucking chair.

0:47:47.960 --> 0:47:49.319
<v Speaker 3>It's literally penetrating me.

0:47:49.600 --> 0:47:51.440
<v Speaker 2>If we get a little money from this episode, we

0:47:51.440 --> 0:47:52.200
<v Speaker 2>could get you good chair.

0:47:52.280 --> 0:47:54.200
<v Speaker 3>Yeah it's penetrating, or you could use a.

0:47:54.200 --> 0:47:56.840
<v Speaker 2>Dining room chair. But your chair is fancy. There's a

0:47:56.840 --> 0:47:57.319
<v Speaker 2>lot about you.

0:47:57.600 --> 0:48:01.120
<v Speaker 3>I made this chair, I know, but yeah.

0:48:00.920 --> 0:48:01.480
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:48:01.560 --> 0:48:03.840
<v Speaker 1>It's just like in my head when I think about

0:48:05.040 --> 0:48:08.279
<v Speaker 1>Toyota Camry from two thousand and five. The speakers are

0:48:08.280 --> 0:48:14.360
<v Speaker 1>blown out, Charlie x X is playing, there's like a

0:48:14.480 --> 0:48:17.839
<v Speaker 1>scattered few people in the car. There's like two non

0:48:17.920 --> 0:48:21.200
<v Speaker 1>binaries one gay and what's in the cup holder?

0:48:21.719 --> 0:48:22.720
<v Speaker 2>O baha blast.

0:48:22.840 --> 0:48:23.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:48:23.040 --> 0:48:26.279
<v Speaker 3>But you could also say, like the straight white man

0:48:26.440 --> 0:48:28.799
<v Speaker 3>is getting off his job at the oil rig and

0:48:28.840 --> 0:48:31.279
<v Speaker 3>he goes to Taco bell and gets his fucking Baja blast.

0:48:31.680 --> 0:48:35.920
<v Speaker 3>No he is getting Are we talking about freeze or no, I'm.

0:48:35.800 --> 0:48:39.960
<v Speaker 1>Talking freeze, baby, Like, uh okay, so see that's where

0:48:39.960 --> 0:48:41.759
<v Speaker 1>it gets the freeze.

0:48:41.840 --> 0:48:45.720
<v Speaker 3>The freeze is gay, like the freeze freeze is serving

0:48:46.000 --> 0:48:50.640
<v Speaker 3>like yeah, she's serving fruity queer. She's queer. Yeah. And

0:48:50.680 --> 0:48:56.719
<v Speaker 3>then the soda one, Okay, I just need to speak

0:48:56.760 --> 0:48:58.600
<v Speaker 3>my piece on this, like I need this, I need

0:48:58.600 --> 0:49:03.200
<v Speaker 3>to speak my truth. If you get the Baja blast soda,

0:49:03.440 --> 0:49:04.880
<v Speaker 3>you are a fucking monster.

0:49:05.040 --> 0:49:08.000
<v Speaker 2>See no, and this is the thing. You're a mind

0:49:08.160 --> 0:49:09.799
<v Speaker 2>I know, not be tying back into this.

0:49:09.880 --> 0:49:11.959
<v Speaker 1>I'm like and here's the thing, Like, I don't even

0:49:12.040 --> 0:49:15.439
<v Speaker 1>fuck with Baja Blast freeze or the soda. And that's

0:49:15.480 --> 0:49:22.560
<v Speaker 1>what gives me more ammo behind being straight sleigh, Because girl.

0:49:22.480 --> 0:49:24.080
<v Speaker 3>What did you just say.

0:49:24.280 --> 0:49:25.440
<v Speaker 2>Like, I don't even like that.

0:49:25.560 --> 0:49:28.160
<v Speaker 1>I hate Baha Actually I don't hate it, but I

0:49:28.200 --> 0:49:29.080
<v Speaker 1>would never order it.

0:49:29.160 --> 0:49:31.200
<v Speaker 2>But that's a different conversation because.

0:49:31.080 --> 0:49:35.280
<v Speaker 3>You are a war criminal Bajas Fleet freeze It's.

0:49:35.080 --> 0:49:37.560
<v Speaker 1>Okay for like two SIPs. I'm just not a super

0:49:37.640 --> 0:49:38.840
<v Speaker 1>sugar sugar person.

0:49:39.480 --> 0:49:41.440
<v Speaker 2>That's the thing about the feeling at the back of

0:49:41.440 --> 0:49:41.719
<v Speaker 2>my mind.

0:49:41.719 --> 0:49:43.759
<v Speaker 3>The freeze isn't super sugary. It's like mixed with like

0:49:43.800 --> 0:49:45.720
<v Speaker 3>eighty percent water. That's why it's the best.

0:49:45.880 --> 0:49:49.359
<v Speaker 1>Okay, Yeah, I guess if I'm like feeling myself, if

0:49:49.360 --> 0:49:52.160
<v Speaker 1>it's like three am and someone orders Baha Blast, yes

0:49:52.200 --> 0:49:52.680
<v Speaker 1>I will.

0:49:52.760 --> 0:49:55.920
<v Speaker 3>Go and then and then you don't finish it. So

0:49:55.960 --> 0:49:59.160
<v Speaker 3>the next morning you have like two inches of Baja

0:49:59.239 --> 0:50:02.440
<v Speaker 3>Blast freeze liquid at the bottom and you just get

0:50:02.440 --> 0:50:04.360
<v Speaker 3>to suck it down in one slip with a straw

0:50:04.360 --> 0:50:08.040
<v Speaker 3>in the morning. Um, yes, please.

0:50:08.360 --> 0:50:09.640
<v Speaker 2>You are so gross.

0:50:09.680 --> 0:50:11.440
<v Speaker 3>And the way, that's not a lie. I do that.

0:50:11.560 --> 0:50:13.640
<v Speaker 1>Actually, I'm like, I don't fuck with Baha blasts and

0:50:13.719 --> 0:50:16.239
<v Speaker 1>literally like I've ordered the Baja blast freeze like on

0:50:16.320 --> 0:50:17.120
<v Speaker 1>multiple occasions.

0:50:17.120 --> 0:50:18.960
<v Speaker 2>But like I said, it was like me feeling myself.

0:50:18.960 --> 0:50:19.680
<v Speaker 2>It was like three am.

0:50:19.719 --> 0:50:22.040
<v Speaker 1>I was like own again a Baja blast freeze, Like

0:50:22.120 --> 0:50:25.200
<v Speaker 1>that was the way I said that. Remember one time

0:50:25.239 --> 0:50:27.440
<v Speaker 1>when me and Orian had Baja blast freeze and we

0:50:27.560 --> 0:50:29.640
<v Speaker 1>put a shit ton of tequila into them and we

0:50:29.800 --> 0:50:32.560
<v Speaker 1>left them on the counter, and Drew woke up the

0:50:32.600 --> 0:50:35.400
<v Speaker 1>next morning and he saw his little, gross, rotted Baha

0:50:35.560 --> 0:50:37.759
<v Speaker 1>blast freeze and took a sip of it and it

0:50:37.880 --> 0:50:41.000
<v Speaker 1>literally gave him shakes and he was like buzzed.

0:50:41.040 --> 0:50:43.880
<v Speaker 3>For the rest of it was fucked up because Okay,

0:50:44.360 --> 0:50:48.720
<v Speaker 3>so this is something weird about me, but I drink

0:50:48.760 --> 0:50:52.640
<v Speaker 3>flat soda. I think flat drinks are just as good

0:50:52.760 --> 0:50:56.800
<v Speaker 3>as carbonated drinks. So I will purpose so gross open

0:50:56.880 --> 0:50:59.000
<v Speaker 3>a soda and leave it out overnight on the counter

0:50:59.120 --> 0:51:01.600
<v Speaker 3>and drink it the next morning. It's not that weird.

0:51:02.080 --> 0:51:02.400
<v Speaker 1>It is.

0:51:02.520 --> 0:51:05.799
<v Speaker 2>It is actually your biggest flaw as a human being.

0:51:06.160 --> 0:51:09.880
<v Speaker 3>It is. It is really it's biggest character. It is wrong.

0:51:10.120 --> 0:51:13.000
<v Speaker 3>It's it's yeah, it's like bad.

0:51:13.360 --> 0:51:16.560
<v Speaker 1>It's just the craziest thing I'm gonna say, and that's

0:51:16.640 --> 0:51:17.879
<v Speaker 1>why twenty twenty.

0:51:18.719 --> 0:51:22.959
<v Speaker 3>That's why your brother died because of the coke thing? No,

0:51:23.440 --> 0:51:26.680
<v Speaker 3>I but like, yeah, I just if there's a drink

0:51:26.760 --> 0:51:29.880
<v Speaker 3>that was left out at the house and it's like

0:51:30.120 --> 0:51:32.920
<v Speaker 3>halfway full, like I'm sorry, I'm not pouring it down

0:51:32.960 --> 0:51:36.160
<v Speaker 3>the sinkhole. My body is a garbage disposal and I

0:51:36.200 --> 0:51:40.040
<v Speaker 3>will drink it. Like for example, this red bull, it

0:51:40.080 --> 0:51:41.760
<v Speaker 3>will get drank tomorrow morning.

0:51:41.760 --> 0:51:43.080
<v Speaker 2>Probably so gross.

0:51:43.200 --> 0:51:49.279
<v Speaker 1>Literally, like I said, biggest character flaw. But yeah, and

0:51:49.520 --> 0:51:53.799
<v Speaker 1>those are hot hot takes yep for the first episode

0:51:55.200 --> 0:51:58.200
<v Speaker 1>takeaways are we Rock.

0:51:58.200 --> 0:52:04.719
<v Speaker 3>Twenty twenty was good and bad? The Baja blast Freeze

0:52:05.880 --> 0:52:06.279
<v Speaker 3>is gay.

0:52:06.960 --> 0:52:08.200
<v Speaker 2>It's a gay white man.

0:52:08.320 --> 0:52:12.880
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. What else should we talk about? Screen time? You know,

0:52:13.160 --> 0:52:15.680
<v Speaker 3>just do your thing, take your time, get off your

0:52:15.680 --> 0:52:19.320
<v Speaker 3>phone a little bit, go outside, eat some grass.

0:52:19.120 --> 0:52:20.280
<v Speaker 2>Do some jumping jacks.

0:52:20.360 --> 0:52:23.759
<v Speaker 3>Period. The iPad babies control the world. I will talk

0:52:23.760 --> 0:52:26.040
<v Speaker 3>about that in the next episode. I will go into

0:52:26.080 --> 0:52:30.080
<v Speaker 3>that if you want me to. Kylie Jenner is the

0:52:30.120 --> 0:52:31.840
<v Speaker 3>reason for the Mandela effect.

0:52:32.280 --> 0:52:36.000
<v Speaker 1>Timothy Chalomey and hairstyles are not real people. And then

0:52:36.239 --> 0:52:38.719
<v Speaker 1>I think we should just close it out with our

0:52:38.719 --> 0:52:39.360
<v Speaker 1>faith media.

0:52:39.560 --> 0:52:40.760
<v Speaker 2>Let's give the people something.

0:52:40.880 --> 0:52:43.160
<v Speaker 3>So that's something we want to do once a week,

0:52:43.440 --> 0:52:45.799
<v Speaker 3>is we want to give you something that you can

0:52:45.840 --> 0:52:50.120
<v Speaker 3>actually take away and consume from this podcast the Fox. Yeah.

0:52:50.520 --> 0:52:54.520
<v Speaker 3>So for example, like we'll say our favorite song or

0:52:54.600 --> 0:52:57.759
<v Speaker 3>movie or show or book from the week, and you

0:52:57.760 --> 0:52:59.560
<v Speaker 3>can either decide if you want to listen to it

0:52:59.680 --> 0:53:02.440
<v Speaker 3>or watch to read it or not, and I'll let

0:53:02.480 --> 0:53:03.240
<v Speaker 3>in you go first.

0:53:04.200 --> 0:53:07.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So I can't give a favorite book right now

0:53:08.080 --> 0:53:11.040
<v Speaker 1>because the book that came to mind is like a

0:53:11.120 --> 0:53:12.759
<v Speaker 1>sad book and I don't want to give it and

0:53:12.800 --> 0:53:14.879
<v Speaker 1>I'm not done with it yet, So I'll wait on that,

0:53:15.239 --> 0:53:19.520
<v Speaker 1>and then for songs I have, I'll give like three

0:53:19.640 --> 0:53:22.880
<v Speaker 1>because I don't have actually a movie or a show.

0:53:22.760 --> 0:53:23.680
<v Speaker 2>I want everyone to watch.

0:53:23.800 --> 0:53:27.600
<v Speaker 1>The movie I want everyone to watch is a Castle

0:53:27.640 --> 0:53:28.520
<v Speaker 1>of Cagliostro.

0:53:28.640 --> 0:53:30.080
<v Speaker 2>It's a Studio Ghibli movie.

0:53:30.480 --> 0:53:33.160
<v Speaker 1>I watched it in like high school and like and

0:53:33.320 --> 0:53:35.799
<v Speaker 1>it's kind of so and like I remember one time

0:53:35.840 --> 0:53:37.160
<v Speaker 1>I tried to get y'all to watch it, and y'all

0:53:37.200 --> 0:53:39.960
<v Speaker 1>were like, this is so boring, but it's really sweet

0:53:40.000 --> 0:53:41.160
<v Speaker 1>to like throw on solo.

0:53:41.239 --> 0:53:45.279
<v Speaker 2>It's very chill vibes. It's super cute. Yeah, literally, just

0:53:45.320 --> 0:53:47.200
<v Speaker 2>like if you want it as background noise.

0:53:47.239 --> 0:53:49.239
<v Speaker 1>It's fucking awesome. And the music and it is really

0:53:49.280 --> 0:53:53.719
<v Speaker 1>fucking good. And then for songs, the reason I'm giving

0:53:53.760 --> 0:53:56.319
<v Speaker 1>like three is because like one of them is such

0:53:56.360 --> 0:53:59.520
<v Speaker 1>a everyone who's watching this is listening to this song.

0:54:00.880 --> 0:54:04.400
<v Speaker 1>But Nasty by Ariana Grande is such a good song.

0:54:04.520 --> 0:54:08.000
<v Speaker 1>That intro like she has no idea, Actually she has

0:54:08.040 --> 0:54:08.640
<v Speaker 1>every idea.

0:54:08.840 --> 0:54:12.000
<v Speaker 3>She knows the grip on society. That song has so

0:54:12.080 --> 0:54:14.000
<v Speaker 3>fucking good. Are we going to play the songs after?

0:54:15.920 --> 0:54:25.320
<v Speaker 1>Should we give a little snippet? Yeah, all right, step

0:54:25.800 --> 0:54:27.360
<v Speaker 1>because we have to be careful. We don't want to

0:54:27.400 --> 0:54:29.719
<v Speaker 1>get our videos copywritten.

0:54:31.760 --> 0:54:37.040
<v Speaker 2>And then Spring by Saint anton at Tienne.

0:54:37.600 --> 0:54:40.120
<v Speaker 1>I can't say names, but it'll be on the screen.

0:54:40.560 --> 0:54:43.160
<v Speaker 1>Maybe yeah, we should throw it on the screen. Yeah, yeah,

0:54:43.160 --> 0:54:46.400
<v Speaker 1>So Spring by Saint Etienne.

0:54:47.680 --> 0:54:50.320
<v Speaker 3>Pretty very nice.

0:54:50.480 --> 0:54:53.080
<v Speaker 1>This was one of my favorite songs last year, so

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<v Speaker 1>I'm bringing it back for twenty twenty one, hoping I

0:54:55.520 --> 0:54:56.640
<v Speaker 1>feel that same happiness.

0:54:57.719 --> 0:55:01.200
<v Speaker 2>And then Habitual Love by Okay Kyah.

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<v Speaker 1>That is like an older song, not super old, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's like twenty eighteen ish and I've been listening to

0:55:07.160 --> 0:55:09.480
<v Speaker 1>that song again and it's really fucking.

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<v Speaker 3>Good, pretty nice, Okay, So for the movie or for

0:55:16.160 --> 0:55:21.600
<v Speaker 3>a movie that I watched that just was so inspiring,

0:55:21.800 --> 0:55:24.160
<v Speaker 3>it literally it like got me off my ass and

0:55:24.200 --> 0:55:26.160
<v Speaker 3>I was like, dude, like you can do anything you

0:55:26.200 --> 0:55:28.440
<v Speaker 3>fucking want in this life. And not because of the

0:55:28.560 --> 0:55:32.160
<v Speaker 3>content of the movie, but because like the story behind

0:55:32.160 --> 0:55:34.880
<v Speaker 3>the movie or the story of how the movie was

0:55:34.920 --> 0:55:40.760
<v Speaker 3>made is just fucking crazy. But the movie Primer, who's

0:55:40.800 --> 0:55:44.040
<v Speaker 3>who directed it? I need to see that by Shane

0:55:44.239 --> 0:55:47.359
<v Speaker 3>Caruth Carruth, I don't know how to say his fucking name.

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<v Speaker 3>But Primer is such an incredible movie and it only

0:55:52.840 --> 0:55:55.840
<v Speaker 3>costs seven thousand dollars to make. And the director of

0:55:55.880 --> 0:55:58.840
<v Speaker 3>the movie was just like this engineer who decided to

0:55:58.880 --> 0:56:01.640
<v Speaker 3>write a movie on time try and it like it's

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<v Speaker 3>just I think what is so attractive to it or

0:56:05.080 --> 0:56:07.320
<v Speaker 3>so attractive about it to me is just like how

0:56:08.120 --> 0:56:11.759
<v Speaker 3>they didn't compromise on the science behind the movie. They

0:56:11.760 --> 0:56:14.400
<v Speaker 3>did not They they were like, I'm not giving the

0:56:14.760 --> 0:56:17.640
<v Speaker 3>audience anything. I'm not making it easier to understand. You're

0:56:17.640 --> 0:56:19.239
<v Speaker 3>gonna have to watch it thirty times if you really

0:56:19.239 --> 0:56:21.600
<v Speaker 3>want to understand it. And I think that's why I'm

0:56:21.600 --> 0:56:23.080
<v Speaker 3>in love with it is because like it was just

0:56:23.120 --> 0:56:26.880
<v Speaker 3>so uncompromising. It was his fucking vision. He funded the

0:56:26.920 --> 0:56:30.800
<v Speaker 3>movie himself and made the best movie about time travel

0:56:30.840 --> 0:56:33.160
<v Speaker 3>ever made and that will ever be made probably, And

0:56:33.200 --> 0:56:35.759
<v Speaker 3>it's so good and I think you should watch it

0:56:35.800 --> 0:56:37.720
<v Speaker 3>if you want to get inspired just to create whatever

0:56:37.719 --> 0:56:38.120
<v Speaker 3>you want.

0:56:38.440 --> 0:56:40.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:56:40.200 --> 0:56:47.000
<v Speaker 3>And then my favorite show right now is Attack on Titan,

0:56:47.680 --> 0:56:51.520
<v Speaker 3>And I know, such an old fucking thing to uh

0:56:52.600 --> 0:56:53.080
<v Speaker 3>be liking it.

0:56:53.200 --> 0:56:56.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm really surprised that, like it's popularity gain. I guess everyone,

0:56:57.080 --> 0:57:00.640
<v Speaker 1>like finally during Quarantine had a memoirs like, you know what,

0:57:01.440 --> 0:57:03.440
<v Speaker 1>let me see what these nerds are doing. Yeah, and

0:57:03.719 --> 0:57:07.160
<v Speaker 1>like realize that anime like can be really fucking awesome.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. But yeah, but it's just one of those things.

0:57:10.080 --> 0:57:12.799
<v Speaker 3>Like I had the chance to watch it fucking four

0:57:13.280 --> 0:57:15.359
<v Speaker 3>I had the chance to watch it like four years ago,

0:57:16.040 --> 0:57:19.840
<v Speaker 3>and I just decided, like it's too overhyped. Everyone's telling

0:57:19.880 --> 0:57:22.080
<v Speaker 3>me to watch it, I'm not gonna watch it because

0:57:22.080 --> 0:57:23.960
<v Speaker 3>it cannot be that good. So I watched the first

0:57:24.000 --> 0:57:27.080
<v Speaker 3>couple of episodes. Josh showed me some up or some

0:57:27.320 --> 0:57:29.480
<v Speaker 3>like hyped up moments of the show, and I was

0:57:29.520 --> 0:57:30.840
<v Speaker 3>just like, no, I'm not watching this. I don't want

0:57:30.880 --> 0:57:33.520
<v Speaker 3>to watch this. I'll watch any other anime because, like

0:57:34.920 --> 0:57:37.840
<v Speaker 3>from high school, Enya got me into anime very deep,

0:57:37.880 --> 0:57:39.760
<v Speaker 3>and that's all I did through high school is watch

0:57:39.800 --> 0:57:43.120
<v Speaker 3>like anime. Like Enya was very influential on that. She

0:57:43.280 --> 0:57:45.680
<v Speaker 3>was such a nerd weave in high school. But yeah,

0:57:45.680 --> 0:57:48.320
<v Speaker 3>I just decided to watch Attack on Titan this last

0:57:48.360 --> 0:57:52.520
<v Speaker 3>week and I've watched fifty episodes in three days. Insane,

0:57:53.080 --> 0:57:56.360
<v Speaker 3>and it's really embarrassing. But I think it is one

0:57:56.400 --> 0:57:59.680
<v Speaker 3>of the greatest stories of all time. I think, like,

0:58:00.000 --> 0:58:03.440
<v Speaker 3>regardless of it being an anime, Like the writing of

0:58:03.640 --> 0:58:09.560
<v Speaker 3>that show is freaking crazy. It's unreal, like things they

0:58:09.560 --> 0:58:13.320
<v Speaker 3>say in the first season end up having a cause

0:58:13.720 --> 0:58:17.200
<v Speaker 3>and effect in the third season. It's just it's just

0:58:17.240 --> 0:58:20.320
<v Speaker 3>absurd and the writers are genius. And I think everybody

0:58:20.320 --> 0:58:22.000
<v Speaker 3>should go watch it immediately.

0:58:23.640 --> 0:58:26.160
<v Speaker 2>My low key show people should watch is Breaking Bad.

0:58:26.280 --> 0:58:27.080
<v Speaker 2>I should just watch that.

0:58:27.280 --> 0:58:30.040
<v Speaker 3>I had the hottest take. Actually, I said that Attack

0:58:30.080 --> 0:58:32.320
<v Speaker 3>on Titan was better than Breaking Bad, which is a

0:58:32.480 --> 0:58:36.720
<v Speaker 3>crazy take. It's absurd. And I'll just give one song

0:58:36.960 --> 0:58:40.600
<v Speaker 3>that I've been listening to like crazy recently, which is

0:58:40.640 --> 0:58:45.800
<v Speaker 3>Forbidden Apple by Cornelius his new song. Yeah, it's magical.

0:58:46.920 --> 0:58:49.520
<v Speaker 3>It's just an ear load, it's just inside your head.

0:58:51.320 --> 0:58:54.320
<v Speaker 2>He saw those little those bottles, those bottles, and he

0:58:54.440 --> 0:58:54.760
<v Speaker 2>was like.

0:58:55.440 --> 0:58:56.880
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna create that apple.

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<v Speaker 2>All right. Well that was the episode.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for either watching, listening, whatever you

0:59:04.760 --> 0:59:05.480
<v Speaker 1>decided to do.

0:59:07.200 --> 0:59:07.800
<v Speaker 2>We will be.

0:59:07.800 --> 0:59:12.439
<v Speaker 3>Back, yeah, weekly, We have obligations.

0:59:12.800 --> 0:59:15.640
<v Speaker 1>Sadly not kidding. That was fucking awesome. That was super

0:59:15.720 --> 0:59:16.440
<v Speaker 1>enjoyable to do.

0:59:17.440 --> 0:59:19.120
<v Speaker 2>Maybe it's like we should have done it forever ago.

0:59:19.200 --> 0:59:20.800
<v Speaker 3>Maybe we should have done it four years ago when

0:59:20.800 --> 0:59:22.480
<v Speaker 3>we were first talking about it.

0:59:22.560 --> 0:59:24.520
<v Speaker 2>But they did not need to like I did not

0:59:24.640 --> 0:59:26.360
<v Speaker 2>need to be speaking that when I.

0:59:26.200 --> 0:59:30.600
<v Speaker 3>Was saying literally and like for everybody who's stuck around

0:59:30.640 --> 0:59:33.880
<v Speaker 3>this long and put up with us, we're saving that

0:59:33.920 --> 0:59:38.680
<v Speaker 3>for the podcast. Thank you so fucking much, because if

0:59:38.680 --> 0:59:40.520
<v Speaker 3>it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be sitting here in

0:59:40.520 --> 0:59:43.520
<v Speaker 3>the shitty fucking corner with these really nice mics and

0:59:43.520 --> 0:59:49.400
<v Speaker 3>shitty fucking sorry telling you these stories about our life.

0:59:49.920 --> 0:59:52.560
<v Speaker 3>So thank you for like listening and just being there

0:59:52.720 --> 0:59:55.760
<v Speaker 3>and just putting up with us for all these years.

0:59:56.160 --> 0:59:58.480
<v Speaker 3>And it's finally happening. It's happening.

0:59:59.080 --> 1:00:02.440
<v Speaker 1>But so yeah, stick with us, watch us evolve a

1:00:02.480 --> 1:00:05.280
<v Speaker 1>little more if you would like to, and have an

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<v Speaker 1>awesome dame.

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<v Speaker 3>Leave me alone.

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<v Speaker 2>Bye m