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Speaker 2: Or who's going to enjoy it? Okay, well, it's been

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Speaker 3: And this is all we have four four years.

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Speaker 1: So it's only taken us four years to get here,

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Speaker 3: This is the setup.

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Speaker 1: For the podcast called Emergency Intercom.

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Speaker 3: A podcast by Drew Phillips and any Mansor.

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Speaker 1: It's not an emergency, but it is because we need attention,

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Speaker 1: and it is an emergency for attention. It's an emergency

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Speaker 2: Also, do we have to talk about that? Actually, the

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Speaker 3: Dead anymore, we can talk about it.

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Speaker 2: It's not called Radio's Dead anymore. Move on, grow up.

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Speaker 3: We didn't like the name anymore. It was outdated.

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Speaker 1: If you've checked, but it's not twenty seventeen anymore. Twenty

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Speaker 3: Twenty seventeen and twenty nineteen. Yeah, what about twenty eighteen? Oh,

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Speaker 2: So we don't we.

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Speaker 1: She was like, yeah, some doctors are doing this before

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Speaker 3: Before twenty twenty, I was kind of like selfish, kind

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Speaker 2: I gave you a little more time because I'm an angel.

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00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:17,400
Speaker 3: Thank you your turn.

442
00:22:17,840 --> 00:22:18,800
Speaker 2: My show was awesome.

443
00:22:19,119 --> 00:22:23,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, your twenty twenty was like the best twenty twenty ever, Like.

444
00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:26,080
Speaker 2: Of course, like it had its gripes.

445
00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:31,960
Speaker 1: I have my usual like personal issues that I love

446
00:22:32,040 --> 00:22:36,280
Speaker 1: to blanket statement because I'm a very blanket statement kind

447
00:22:36,320 --> 00:22:36,720
Speaker 1: of girl.

448
00:22:36,880 --> 00:22:37,880
Speaker 3: She likes her privacy.

449
00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:40,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, I like a little bit of privacy. I double

450
00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:43,720
Speaker 2: I double in privacy, but I'm pretty open about other stuff.

451
00:22:43,720 --> 00:22:44,600
Speaker 2: But certain things.

452
00:22:44,440 --> 00:22:49,960
Speaker 1: I'm like this can stay away from the public eye. Yeah,

453
00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:53,199
Speaker 1: not to brag my life rock, I guess now, me

454
00:22:53,240 --> 00:22:55,000
Speaker 1: and Drew right before we film this, we were just

455
00:22:55,040 --> 00:22:57,639
Speaker 1: talking about how me and Drew a very switch on

456
00:22:57,760 --> 00:23:00,919
Speaker 1: and off with our like good and bad. Yeah, with

457
00:23:00,960 --> 00:23:03,720
Speaker 1: our good and bad and like our depressive episodes. It's

458
00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:08,080
Speaker 1: very like if one year I'm really getting it and

459
00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:11,080
Speaker 1: Drew's like not getting it as bad, and then it'll

460
00:23:11,119 --> 00:23:13,240
Speaker 1: like switch off and then like I think it like

461
00:23:13,280 --> 00:23:14,399
Speaker 1: switches on and off.

462
00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:18,600
Speaker 3: Twenty twenty one's your years. Yeah, you's depressive year. Twenty

463
00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:20,000
Speaker 3: twenty one's my good year.

464
00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:26,280
Speaker 1: I think I'm not like I just yeah, this isn't

465
00:23:26,280 --> 00:23:27,360
Speaker 1: supposed to talk about right now.

466
00:23:27,359 --> 00:23:28,360
Speaker 2: Who cares about right now?

467
00:23:28,560 --> 00:23:34,800
Speaker 1: But twenty twenty, literally I started off very rough, not

468
00:23:34,920 --> 00:23:39,879
Speaker 1: feeling myself, a lot of personal distress happening.

469
00:23:43,560 --> 00:23:46,320
Speaker 3: Then even more talk about it one day, yeah.

470
00:23:46,119 --> 00:23:47,040
Speaker 2: One day one day.

471
00:23:47,080 --> 00:23:50,200
Speaker 1: Talking about my year in a blanket statement way makes

472
00:23:50,240 --> 00:23:52,600
Speaker 1: it a lot less interesting, but I'm going to keep

473
00:23:52,600 --> 00:23:55,600
Speaker 1: it that way. But basically, twenty twenty, I am very

474
00:23:55,640 --> 00:24:00,000
Speaker 1: grateful to know or to have had a pretty decent year.

475
00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,080
Speaker 2: I didn't have like too many like.

476
00:24:04,160 --> 00:24:08,439
Speaker 1: Heartbreaking setbacks or anything like that for my year. It

477
00:24:08,560 --> 00:24:11,280
Speaker 1: was really just about like a lot of self reflecting

478
00:24:11,359 --> 00:24:13,359
Speaker 1: and I felt very connected.

479
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:16,119
Speaker 2: To myself in twenty twenty in terms of understanding.

480
00:24:17,080 --> 00:24:20,200
Speaker 1: What I like, what I don't like, the people I love,

481
00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:22,960
Speaker 1: the people who maybe I don't need to be so

482
00:24:23,119 --> 00:24:27,080
Speaker 1: close to, and just really setting up those boundaries.

483
00:24:27,359 --> 00:24:29,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, this was a year. Yeah, this was a year

484
00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:30,280
Speaker 3: of boundaries for you.

485
00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:30,680
Speaker 2: Yeah.

486
00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:33,200
Speaker 1: It was like a lot of like, oh, okay, it's

487
00:24:33,480 --> 00:24:38,480
Speaker 1: fun to be like known as the charismatic nice girl

488
00:24:38,800 --> 00:24:41,920
Speaker 1: in the world, but then that allows for a lot

489
00:24:42,200 --> 00:24:45,879
Speaker 1: of people to like overstep those boundaries and get a

490
00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:47,760
Speaker 1: little too comfortable with me and then put me in

491
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 1: a position where I can't say no because I've i

492
00:24:50,760 --> 00:24:51,840
Speaker 1: don't know, built up this.

493
00:24:51,800 --> 00:24:53,880
Speaker 2: Wall of like, but I'm the yes girl.

494
00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:56,560
Speaker 3: I have to do it say no more in life,

495
00:24:56,680 --> 00:24:58,080
Speaker 3: I know, and I.

496
00:24:58,040 --> 00:25:00,280
Speaker 1: Like, I think I still have to work on that

497
00:25:00,320 --> 00:25:01,919
Speaker 1: because I still have a thing where I'm like, I

498
00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:04,679
Speaker 1: can't I can't just say no like whatever.

499
00:25:04,720 --> 00:25:05,000
Speaker 2: I think.

500
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:06,960
Speaker 1: That's also like a very big woman's thing. Like a

501
00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:08,800
Speaker 1: lot of women grow up and then they're learning like,

502
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,600
Speaker 1: oh my god, I don't have to do anything.

503
00:25:11,359 --> 00:25:12,880
Speaker 2: Like that's so crazy.

504
00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:17,280
Speaker 1: So I had a lot of that. I got Eddie,

505
00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:19,159
Speaker 1: and then Eddie died. That was like the worst thing

506
00:25:19,160 --> 00:25:21,639
Speaker 1: that happened in my year. But Eddie died in like February,

507
00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:23,359
Speaker 1: but like I knew she was going to die for

508
00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:26,679
Speaker 1: like the end of twenty twenty, So that gave me

509
00:25:26,920 --> 00:25:30,520
Speaker 1: a lot of anxiety because I would always like anytime

510
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:32,959
Speaker 1: I was not in la I was like, I was like,

511
00:25:33,119 --> 00:25:35,120
Speaker 1: this bitch is gonna die. She's gonna die on my floor,

512
00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:36,800
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna come back and she's just gonna be

513
00:25:36,840 --> 00:25:37,720
Speaker 1: like a rotted corpse.

514
00:25:37,880 --> 00:25:40,240
Speaker 3: Me and Josh would have found her, Yeah, found her.

515
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:41,399
Speaker 2: Dude, that would have been the worst.

516
00:25:41,400 --> 00:25:45,399
Speaker 3: I literally would have freaked the fuck it. Actually, I

517
00:25:45,480 --> 00:25:46,840
Speaker 3: watched the life leave her body.

518
00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:47,880
Speaker 2: We did, I know we did.

519
00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:50,480
Speaker 1: It was we haven't even spoken about that, but that's

520
00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:51,680
Speaker 1: going into twenty twenty one.

521
00:25:51,760 --> 00:25:52,760
Speaker 2: Maybe we could dabble on that.

522
00:25:52,920 --> 00:25:56,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, But because yeah, twenty twenty my year was pretty awesome.

523
00:25:57,400 --> 00:26:02,160
Speaker 1: I luckily enough, randomly enough met a lot of people

524
00:26:02,240 --> 00:26:05,760
Speaker 1: who have inspired me a lot and like changed my

525
00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:08,600
Speaker 1: life for the better and like really opened my eyes

526
00:26:08,760 --> 00:26:12,159
Speaker 1: to I used to have this big fear of like

527
00:26:12,359 --> 00:26:15,080
Speaker 1: the future and like and I still have like a

528
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:18,040
Speaker 1: lot of fear about like aging, because like I think

529
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:20,160
Speaker 1: Drew can kind of relate to this too, And anybody

530
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,080
Speaker 1: who like was really depressed as a kid can relate

531
00:26:22,119 --> 00:26:22,320
Speaker 1: to this.

532
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:24,560
Speaker 2: You don't imagine life.

533
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:26,600
Speaker 3: Yeah you don't. You don't think like, oh, when I'm

534
00:26:26,640 --> 00:26:28,600
Speaker 3: thirty five, You're like, no, I'm gonna be dead by

535
00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:29,120
Speaker 3: twenty five.

536
00:26:29,240 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, which I also like, I'm sorry if any of

537
00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:33,879
Speaker 1: this is triggering talk, but like I wanted to be

538
00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:38,560
Speaker 1: more of like a comforting thing that like it's pretty common.

539
00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:40,440
Speaker 2: For like anyone who like struggles with depression.

540
00:26:40,760 --> 00:26:42,879
Speaker 1: But on the upside, it's like you grow up and

541
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:44,400
Speaker 1: then you're like, oh my god, there is so much

542
00:26:44,440 --> 00:26:46,440
Speaker 1: life to fill. And that's kind of anxiety written because

543
00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:48,359
Speaker 1: it's like, you mean, every day, every single day of

544
00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:50,320
Speaker 1: my life, I have to wake up and do something

545
00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:50,680
Speaker 1: with the.

546
00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:53,520
Speaker 2: Tuck like what am I supposed to do?

547
00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:55,640
Speaker 1: But then you realize, oh, I can have days where

548
00:26:55,640 --> 00:26:58,440
Speaker 1: I do absolutely nothing and that's okay, like etc.

549
00:26:58,680 --> 00:27:01,600
Speaker 2: Whatever. But yeah, I met a lot of people who

550
00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:02,639
Speaker 2: were super inspiring to me.

551
00:27:02,760 --> 00:27:05,720
Speaker 1: Made me feel very grounded in like who I am,

552
00:27:05,760 --> 00:27:07,440
Speaker 1: and I'm still coming to terms with who I am

553
00:27:07,480 --> 00:27:08,760
Speaker 1: and I still feel very lost.

554
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:11,159
Speaker 2: But yeah, I had a lot of Twenty twenty was

555
00:27:11,160 --> 00:27:12,920
Speaker 2: a lot of connecting to myself.

556
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:15,600
Speaker 3: I'm actually there and connecting to other people too. Yeah,

557
00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:19,480
Speaker 3: like you, you made a lot of like like new

558
00:27:20,119 --> 00:27:21,320
Speaker 3: friends this year.

559
00:27:21,480 --> 00:27:23,639
Speaker 1: Yeah, and if you know me, you know that I

560
00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:26,320
Speaker 1: don't do that. I do not even people who I

561
00:27:26,359 --> 00:27:29,080
Speaker 1: love and admire. Like A great example who I always

562
00:27:29,119 --> 00:27:32,720
Speaker 1: bring up is Devon. I love Devin. I love everything

563
00:27:32,720 --> 00:27:36,159
Speaker 1: about her. I literally am in love with her. But

564
00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:39,040
Speaker 1: every time I had the chance to hang out with her,

565
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:41,400
Speaker 1: I would not go for it because I just get

566
00:27:41,440 --> 00:27:45,679
Speaker 1: like intense anxiety and like it literally just it's so

567
00:27:45,800 --> 00:27:49,840
Speaker 1: mind boggling to be like an extroverted person with anxiety.

568
00:27:49,320 --> 00:27:50,720
Speaker 3: Because social anxiety.

569
00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:52,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, because everyone takes it as like.

570
00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:54,920
Speaker 3: Oh, they don't fuck with Yeah, they don't fuck with.

571
00:27:54,880 --> 00:27:57,359
Speaker 2: Me, like they think they're too cooler. And I don't

572
00:27:57,359 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 2: know what.

573
00:27:57,800 --> 00:28:00,320
Speaker 1: I don't think everyone thinks that, but like I have

574
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:02,760
Speaker 1: run into people who like feel that way about us,

575
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:05,400
Speaker 1: and like I think even especially me, because I don't

576
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:06,920
Speaker 1: even like hit people up.

577
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:09,800
Speaker 3: I don't even girl, you are the worst on your phone. Yeah,

578
00:28:09,840 --> 00:28:10,560
Speaker 3: I don't know how to use it.

579
00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:13,400
Speaker 1: I do not use my phone for communication, Like that's

580
00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:14,640
Speaker 1: just not fucking happening.

581
00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:16,960
Speaker 2: And I don't text people. I don't talk to people.

582
00:28:17,000 --> 00:28:20,159
Speaker 1: But yeah, in twenty twenty, I finally stepped out and

583
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:24,119
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, although like the worst

584
00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:26,199
Speaker 1: year to meet people, I was lucky enough that I

585
00:28:26,240 --> 00:28:28,400
Speaker 1: did get to meet a bunch of people, like obviously

586
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:31,119
Speaker 1: mainly through the internet, but I like made that step

587
00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:33,920
Speaker 1: to be like, you know what, life is short, who

588
00:28:33,960 --> 00:28:37,199
Speaker 1: knows what's gonna happen. I should like reach out and

589
00:28:37,280 --> 00:28:39,760
Speaker 1: like talk to people. So I'm still working on that.

590
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:43,200
Speaker 2: But yeah, literally, twenty twenty was my year of realizing.

591
00:28:43,320 --> 00:28:45,239
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was a year I mean literally, Okay, when

592
00:28:45,280 --> 00:28:48,480
Speaker 3: Kylie Jenner said it, this is the year of realizing things,

593
00:28:48,840 --> 00:28:51,440
Speaker 3: she didn't mean the year of realizing thing, like just

594
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,560
Speaker 3: a singular year. Every year is the year of realizing things.

595
00:28:54,680 --> 00:28:56,920
Speaker 3: And that bitch shook shit up. She's a shaker and

596
00:28:56,960 --> 00:28:59,840
Speaker 3: a mover. And when she said that, she opened something

597
00:29:00,200 --> 00:29:03,080
Speaker 3: in the world new portal. Yeah, I'm not joking. She

598
00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:05,480
Speaker 3: is the reason for the Mandela effect. I don't I

599
00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:08,560
Speaker 3: don't even want to get into that, but literally, I

600
00:29:08,600 --> 00:29:11,240
Speaker 3: have my theories do it.

601
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:14,600
Speaker 1: But yeah, my year was just yeah, it was literally

602
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,480
Speaker 1: I had I gave so much money to my therapist

603
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:21,479
Speaker 1: that that is like the way to describe your therapist

604
00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:22,560
Speaker 1: could retire off of you.

605
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:23,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, just off of me alone.

606
00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:26,120
Speaker 1: But like I literally, oh, actually I want to read

607
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,800
Speaker 1: this like between us, Like, actually, the way my brain

608
00:29:28,880 --> 00:29:29,720
Speaker 1: works is.

609
00:29:31,440 --> 00:29:32,160
Speaker 2: You already know.

610
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:33,760
Speaker 3: I was about to say, I know.

611
00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:34,800
Speaker 2: It is not good.

612
00:29:34,880 --> 00:29:38,120
Speaker 3: My brain is there's like weird wiring in there, like

613
00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 3: you need to fix the.

614
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:44,480
Speaker 1: Wiring troubled I.

615
00:29:44,560 --> 00:29:46,280
Speaker 2: So here's what I said to my therapist.

616
00:29:48,280 --> 00:29:50,520
Speaker 3: Fuck. I was like, well, what'd you say?

617
00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:51,920
Speaker 2: I'm trying to figure it out.

618
00:29:52,440 --> 00:29:54,080
Speaker 1: So I hit her up because I was like, hey,

619
00:29:54,120 --> 00:29:58,480
Speaker 1: it's been forever since I've spoken to you, and literally

620
00:29:58,520 --> 00:29:59,680
Speaker 1: this is the way I talked to her.

621
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:03,840
Speaker 2: I emailed her this. I emailed her this at four am.

622
00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:06,680
Speaker 1: I said, hey, I've just been so busy while also

623
00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:08,040
Speaker 1: doing nothing at all haha.

624
00:30:08,520 --> 00:30:10,960
Speaker 2: Dot dot dot dot also did not see this until

625
00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:11,280
Speaker 2: just now.

626
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:13,120
Speaker 1: It only chucked because I had a scary thought about

627
00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 1: the idea of you quitting your job and how I

628
00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:17,960
Speaker 1: would literally just procrastinate fighting a new therapist for ten years.

629
00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:18,760
Speaker 2: Dot dot dot.

630
00:30:19,200 --> 00:30:24,320
Speaker 1: But yes, ha, old cap Saturday at four is very good.

631
00:30:24,600 --> 00:30:26,760
Speaker 3: You are scary. You're scary.

632
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:28,800
Speaker 2: And then she said, and yet I'm planning on the

633
00:30:28,840 --> 00:30:29,360
Speaker 2: long haul.

634
00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:33,320
Speaker 3: Ah, she loves you. I know, she like literally does

635
00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:35,360
Speaker 3: like not like in love with you, but she's like

636
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:37,040
Speaker 3: she cares about.

637
00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:38,440
Speaker 2: You, like she pities me, and I love that.

638
00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:41,320
Speaker 3: She's like sometimes we just need pity.

639
00:30:41,720 --> 00:30:44,280
Speaker 1: She's like literally, you know when people get like Jerry

640
00:30:44,360 --> 00:30:46,520
Speaker 1: duty and they get like the best case, That's how

641
00:30:46,520 --> 00:30:50,240
Speaker 1: she feels with me. She's like like this is good.

642
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:55,040
Speaker 3: There's juicy, juicy information inside this woman's brain.

643
00:30:56,240 --> 00:30:57,880
Speaker 2: But yeah, that's my year.

644
00:30:58,040 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 3: And then cannot come plane too much.

645
00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:05,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, I really can't. Like I want to be mentally

646
00:31:05,760 --> 00:31:08,600
Speaker 2: where I was like summer twenty twenty. That's my goal.

647
00:31:08,640 --> 00:31:10,640
Speaker 1: Everyone's trying to get their summer body. I'm trying to

648
00:31:10,640 --> 00:31:11,520
Speaker 1: get my summer.

649
00:31:11,240 --> 00:31:12,480
Speaker 3: Bar brain back.

650
00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:15,680
Speaker 2: I mean that supper brain. I mean I'm getting that exercise.

651
00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:16,320
Speaker 3: I'm getting there.

652
00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:16,920
Speaker 2: I know you are.

653
00:31:17,080 --> 00:31:18,680
Speaker 1: I think I need to like ride my bike. I

654
00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:21,920
Speaker 1: do think I am somebody off of like physical.

655
00:31:21,520 --> 00:31:22,800
Speaker 2: Like exer ship.

656
00:31:22,880 --> 00:31:23,320
Speaker 3: Oh yeah.

657
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:24,200
Speaker 2: I get a lot.

658
00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:27,000
Speaker 1: Of dopamine and like serotonin, and then I feel like

659
00:31:27,120 --> 00:31:28,760
Speaker 1: very solid in my body because I'm like, Okay, my

660
00:31:28,800 --> 00:31:29,959
Speaker 1: body can like do things.

661
00:31:30,120 --> 00:31:32,120
Speaker 2: My brain may not be able to do much, but

662
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:32,880
Speaker 2: my body can't.

663
00:31:33,160 --> 00:31:35,120
Speaker 3: Mean when I was like rock climbing for the first

664
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:36,960
Speaker 3: time and I was like, I was like, wait, why

665
00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:37,920
Speaker 3: can my body do this?

666
00:31:38,320 --> 00:31:39,200
Speaker 2: I have a brain.

667
00:31:39,280 --> 00:31:42,320
Speaker 3: You're like, yeah, I really had an existential crisis because

668
00:31:42,360 --> 00:31:44,880
Speaker 3: my body knew exactly what to do, and I was like, now,

669
00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:46,239
Speaker 3: why the fuck does it know how to do this?

670
00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:49,040
Speaker 3: I have never once rock climbed in my life without

671
00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:49,680
Speaker 3: a rope.

672
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:52,680
Speaker 2: But you climbed trees as a kid. It's pretty similar.

673
00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:53,480
Speaker 3: Yeah.

674
00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:54,240
Speaker 2: I miss climbing.

675
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 1: I miss climbing trees. Yeah, they're climbing trees anymore. They're

676
00:31:58,320 --> 00:31:59,320
Speaker 1: climbing the algorithm.

677
00:31:59,400 --> 00:32:02,920
Speaker 3: They're climbing the iPad. Girl. Should I talk about how

678
00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 3: the iPad babies ruled the world?

679
00:32:04,240 --> 00:32:07,320
Speaker 2: No, talk about your fucking iPad baby. You are the

680
00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:09,680
Speaker 2: iPad baby, bitch. Look at your screen time.

681
00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:14,400
Speaker 3: I am the iPad baby. Okay, yeah, let's get into that.

682
00:32:14,440 --> 00:32:16,840
Speaker 3: I guess my screen time is fucking crazy. What do

683
00:32:16,880 --> 00:32:18,840
Speaker 3: you want me to say? I mean, I've been doing

684
00:32:18,840 --> 00:32:21,880
Speaker 3: good about it. I've been like off my fucking phone recently,

685
00:32:21,960 --> 00:32:22,400
Speaker 3: which is.

686
00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:25,200
Speaker 2: Like, do I I'm gonna pull mine up again?

687
00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:27,440
Speaker 3: Oh, I've been off my phone. I've been like training

688
00:32:27,440 --> 00:32:31,120
Speaker 3: myself like just like literally it's I'm like withdrawing from

689
00:32:31,120 --> 00:32:36,560
Speaker 3: my phone for real, Like I genuinely like like there

690
00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:38,160
Speaker 3: are moments where I don't know what to do with

691
00:32:38,200 --> 00:32:40,239
Speaker 3: myself if I'm not looking at a screen, and I'm like,

692
00:32:41,160 --> 00:32:42,800
Speaker 3: why is my brain wired like this? When did this

693
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:44,520
Speaker 3: happen to me? Because I used to be really good

694
00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:46,480
Speaker 3: about not being on my phone all the fucking time,

695
00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:49,200
Speaker 3: but now I have to like actively like not be

696
00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:52,160
Speaker 3: on my phone, which is like crazy, Like I am

697
00:32:52,240 --> 00:32:59,120
Speaker 3: literally looking at a screen of some sort like ninety

698
00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:02,040
Speaker 3: percent of my day, like legitimately ninety percent of my lid.

699
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:02,480
Speaker 2: You know.

700
00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:06,200
Speaker 1: What's really funny is like the whole being off of

701
00:33:06,200 --> 00:33:08,880
Speaker 1: your phone thing, But then watching the move a movie

702
00:33:08,920 --> 00:33:11,320
Speaker 1: instead kind of reminds me of like the idea of

703
00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:14,200
Speaker 1: people being like if you drink about an alcohol, you're an

704
00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:16,080
Speaker 1: alcohol like, but if you smoke a lot of weed,

705
00:33:16,280 --> 00:33:18,760
Speaker 1: you're just fun. You're just like because in my head,

706
00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:20,200
Speaker 1: I'm always like, yeah, I want to get off my

707
00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:21,800
Speaker 1: phone and like watch a TV show or something.

708
00:33:21,800 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 2: I'm like, that's just moving to bigger screen.

709
00:33:23,720 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, exactly, No, that's what I mean. Like looking at

710
00:33:25,720 --> 00:33:28,400
Speaker 3: a screen for ninety percent of my day. It's just

711
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:31,400
Speaker 3: like literally any screen. And when I was watching my

712
00:33:31,520 --> 00:33:33,480
Speaker 3: show the other day on the couch, like I had

713
00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:36,800
Speaker 3: this like weird, like third person moment where I like

714
00:33:37,200 --> 00:33:39,720
Speaker 3: I saw myself watching this screen and I was like,

715
00:33:40,640 --> 00:33:42,200
Speaker 3: I need, I need to stop. I need like what

716
00:33:42,240 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 3: am I doing? Like I'm literally like wasting my fucking life.

717
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,280
Speaker 3: But then that was just a fleeting, like intrusive thought

718
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:49,280
Speaker 3: and then I kept watching and.

719
00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:51,120
Speaker 2: Then I fucking the attack on.

720
00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:55,680
Speaker 3: I literally had like a moment of uh, depersonalization, derealization,

721
00:33:55,720 --> 00:33:57,760
Speaker 3: and then just kept on going just like I was like,

722
00:33:57,800 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 3: you know what it should be. I just I've learned

723
00:33:59,560 --> 00:34:01,800
Speaker 3: to like how to ground myself. I like look for

724
00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:03,920
Speaker 3: things I can see and smell. It's like kind of

725
00:34:04,520 --> 00:34:05,120
Speaker 3: really smart.

726
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,080
Speaker 2: I literally still don't know what to do when I

727
00:34:07,120 --> 00:34:08,200
Speaker 2: disconnect from reality.

728
00:34:08,239 --> 00:34:11,719
Speaker 3: And then I just it's not disconnecting from reality. You

729
00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:14,840
Speaker 3: are reconnecting to reality. You are turning off autopilot. And

730
00:34:14,880 --> 00:34:18,839
Speaker 3: it's like wait, I'm like sentient, like why like why

731
00:34:18,840 --> 00:34:19,359
Speaker 3: am I here?

732
00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:22,680
Speaker 1: There's like too many words, and I'm just like dude, no,

733
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:24,920
Speaker 1: I just feel like a crazy person.

734
00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:27,360
Speaker 2: And that's I'm gonna describe it like, I'm just like

735
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:30,279
Speaker 2: I don't know because I like, also like, let me

736
00:34:30,320 --> 00:34:31,600
Speaker 2: not casually throw you know what.

737
00:34:31,640 --> 00:34:34,080
Speaker 1: I realized being back in Miami and like around like

738
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 1: Miami motherfuckers again has made me talk like I'm back

739
00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:39,600
Speaker 1: in Miami. Like to my therapist, I think she's like,

740
00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:44,120
Speaker 1: damn girl, your fucking vocabulary has like sank twenty percent.

741
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:46,080
Speaker 2: Because now I'll.

742
00:34:45,840 --> 00:34:47,840
Speaker 1: Just call her and I'll be like, I just feel

743
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:50,000
Speaker 1: fucking crazy, like I feel crazy.

744
00:34:49,640 --> 00:34:52,960
Speaker 3: As fuck and like and she's like, don't say that

745
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:53,920
Speaker 3: is this.

746
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,200
Speaker 2: Like you you did not talk like this. I used

747
00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:58,080
Speaker 2: to get on that phone and be like no, And

748
00:34:58,120 --> 00:34:58,839
Speaker 2: the thing is like.

749
00:34:58,920 --> 00:35:02,240
Speaker 1: I feel like what's happening is insecurity is really harping

750
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:05,040
Speaker 1: on my fears and those.

751
00:35:04,840 --> 00:35:06,200
Speaker 2: Things are ganging up on me.

752
00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:07,799
Speaker 1: And now I get on the phone, I'm like, I

753
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 1: just feel fucking crazy and I don't give a shit anymore.

754
00:35:10,239 --> 00:35:13,399
Speaker 3: Like you're articulating your thoughts and now you've just like

755
00:35:13,840 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 3: reverted back.

756
00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:16,439
Speaker 2: I'm back on my dumb shit. I don't care.

757
00:35:16,640 --> 00:35:22,759
Speaker 1: But yeah, I'm just like I enjoy being very put

758
00:35:22,800 --> 00:35:27,840
Speaker 1: together an articulate about certain things, but I'm like, there's

759
00:35:27,960 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 1: no way everyone's feeling this like this, like this shouldn't

760
00:35:31,120 --> 00:35:33,400
Speaker 1: be normal. But also I guess we do live in

761
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,960
Speaker 1: such an age where like we are growing up. I

762
00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:38,160
Speaker 1: guess we're fucking grown up at this point. So no,

763
00:35:38,400 --> 00:35:42,319
Speaker 1: we're just like washing kids grow up. But everyone's growing

764
00:35:42,400 --> 00:35:44,480
Speaker 1: up very similarly, so of course they're gonna have like

765
00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:47,320
Speaker 1: super similar similar.

766
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:50,160
Speaker 2: Experiences and that I don't know. My screen time isn't

767
00:35:50,200 --> 00:35:50,560
Speaker 2: too bad.

768
00:35:50,920 --> 00:35:54,759
Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, I am okay. My screen time at

769
00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:58,160
Speaker 1: max will go to eight hours a day.

770
00:35:58,360 --> 00:36:00,719
Speaker 3: That see my average right now, seven hours. I got

771
00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:03,480
Speaker 3: it down from twelve hours a day to seven hour.

772
00:36:03,480 --> 00:36:06,560
Speaker 1: Dude, my max is eight and seven and then like

773
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:08,000
Speaker 1: on a usual it's like four to five.

774
00:36:08,320 --> 00:36:09,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's like usually my.

775
00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:14,160
Speaker 3: Screen Like if we have if every day was like yesterday,

776
00:36:14,200 --> 00:36:16,640
Speaker 3: like if if every day of the week was like yesterday,

777
00:36:16,840 --> 00:36:19,000
Speaker 3: my screen time would be two hours every day. Yeah.

778
00:36:19,040 --> 00:36:19,920
Speaker 2: I think that's the difference too.

779
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:22,040
Speaker 1: I've just been having days where I like will literally

780
00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:23,200
Speaker 1: I'll just be on.

781
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:25,200
Speaker 2: My feet all day, so I'm like, I can't, I

782
00:36:25,200 --> 00:36:26,040
Speaker 2: can't look at my phone.

783
00:36:26,120 --> 00:36:28,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, and for me, I'm just literally trapped inside all day,

784
00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:33,040
Speaker 3: like literally trapped inside, like ugh, it's so fucked up,

785
00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:34,759
Speaker 3: but I've gotten so used to it that it's like

786
00:36:35,000 --> 00:36:36,719
Speaker 3: the new normal. And now I'm like, I don't want

787
00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:39,920
Speaker 3: to reintegrate back into society, Like I don't want the

788
00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:41,480
Speaker 3: I don't want COVID to end.

789
00:36:41,840 --> 00:36:43,680
Speaker 2: That's how I felt. But then.

790
00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:47,680
Speaker 1: I realized I don't not want to be in society

791
00:36:47,719 --> 00:36:51,200
Speaker 1: because I do like, although we both have like a

792
00:36:51,239 --> 00:36:55,759
Speaker 1: lot of social anxiety, it like it's so weird, dude,

793
00:36:55,760 --> 00:36:59,000
Speaker 1: our anxiety. It makes me feel so stupid and fake

794
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:03,960
Speaker 1: because it is just like it's like popping a pimple.

795
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:06,319
Speaker 1: It's like it hurts to do it, and you're like,

796
00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:08,000
Speaker 1: I don't want to do this, and then once you

797
00:37:08,040 --> 00:37:09,799
Speaker 1: do it, you're like, oh, Okay, it's like it's gone.

798
00:37:09,800 --> 00:37:14,960
Speaker 3: That's It's like taking your bra off after a long day.

799
00:37:19,880 --> 00:37:26,560
Speaker 3: So this fucking stupid bands the But yeah, the pandemic

800
00:37:26,680 --> 00:37:30,000
Speaker 3: is almost over. I know people are getting their vaccines

801
00:37:31,320 --> 00:37:35,560
Speaker 3: girls exactly. We haven't it. We haven't gotten our vaccine yet.

802
00:37:36,160 --> 00:37:39,000
Speaker 3: But we plan on getting the Johnson and Johnson vaccine.

803
00:37:39,080 --> 00:37:42,520
Speaker 3: I know that sounds fucking crazy, but here us out.

804
00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:47,480
Speaker 3: We want to get the defected one, the gross one,

805
00:37:47,480 --> 00:37:50,719
Speaker 3: the one with all the stories simply because it would

806
00:37:50,719 --> 00:37:51,440
Speaker 3: be hilarious.

807
00:37:51,560 --> 00:37:55,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, like the attention we would get if I posted,

808
00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:59,040
Speaker 1: oh MG, just got the Johnson and Johnson The story

809
00:37:59,120 --> 00:37:59,960
Speaker 1: replies on that.

810
00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:03,880
Speaker 3: The amount of interaction that would get would be crazy.

811
00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:08,280
Speaker 3: And also like we met someone who got the Johnson

812
00:38:08,320 --> 00:38:11,080
Speaker 3: and Johnson vaccine and the way we reacted to like

813
00:38:11,160 --> 00:38:14,680
Speaker 3: finding out that they had the blood clotting vaccine, Like

814
00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:16,839
Speaker 3: we just all burst out laughing, And I was like,

815
00:38:17,080 --> 00:38:20,279
Speaker 3: if I can do that for one person, like a day,

816
00:38:20,400 --> 00:38:22,239
Speaker 3: like it would be worth it. It would be worth

817
00:38:22,280 --> 00:38:23,640
Speaker 3: the blood clots thirty years from it.

818
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:26,960
Speaker 1: To be fair, most rational human beings would not react

819
00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:29,239
Speaker 1: the way we reacted. So I'm really betting out a

820
00:38:29,280 --> 00:38:31,919
Speaker 1: lot because, like I think most people were like, oh

821
00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:33,000
Speaker 1: my god.

822
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:36,799
Speaker 2: You know that fear mongering. It's no, it's not that

823
00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:41,279
Speaker 2: big of a deal. But like us, we were like, but.

824
00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:45,960
Speaker 3: Your blood's about the boil, You're about to spontaneously combust.

825
00:38:46,360 --> 00:38:53,600
Speaker 3: And also like down the line, say something fucked up

826
00:38:53,680 --> 00:38:55,520
Speaker 3: does happen and I do end up getting a blood

827
00:38:55,520 --> 00:38:58,600
Speaker 3: clot Bitch, I'm living one because I'm never gonna die,

828
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:01,279
Speaker 3: Like I'm the luckiest person a line. I'll never die

829
00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:04,279
Speaker 3: in two years and I'm dead, They're gonna clip that

830
00:39:04,320 --> 00:39:04,799
Speaker 3: and be like.

831
00:39:05,200 --> 00:39:07,880
Speaker 2: You're a life About that we like genuinely, not that

832
00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:08,920
Speaker 2: we feel invincible.

833
00:39:10,680 --> 00:39:13,120
Speaker 1: No one's gonna kill me exactly. I'm not being killed

834
00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:16,200
Speaker 1: by accident. Yeah, And that's that on that. I'm not

835
00:39:16,239 --> 00:39:20,440
Speaker 1: going to go into depth, but it's just like.

836
00:39:17,920 --> 00:39:21,320
Speaker 3: I think we can infer what you mean, okay, but.

837
00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:22,920
Speaker 1: Like not in like a scary way, because I don't

838
00:39:22,920 --> 00:39:24,840
Speaker 1: want to scare anyone or like trigger anyone, or like

839
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:27,560
Speaker 1: make anyone feel uncomfortable. But like I remember, this is

840
00:39:27,600 --> 00:39:29,759
Speaker 1: a conversation I had with a friend when we first met,

841
00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:31,680
Speaker 1: and we had a debate about this where I was like,

842
00:39:31,960 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 1: no fucking murderer is going to murder me, bitch. I

843
00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:37,200
Speaker 1: see you coming, and I feel like I have no

844
00:39:37,239 --> 00:39:39,640
Speaker 1: other option. I'm doing the job because I'm not giving

845
00:39:39,680 --> 00:39:41,680
Speaker 1: you the satisfaction.

846
00:39:41,120 --> 00:39:42,600
Speaker 3: Of you're not getting off on killing me.

847
00:39:42,719 --> 00:39:44,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, no one is getting off on killing me, not

848
00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:47,799
Speaker 2: even the universe. So if I gotta do what I

849
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:48,800
Speaker 2: gotta do, I'm gonna.

850
00:39:48,600 --> 00:39:51,200
Speaker 3: Do what I gotta do, alright, cycle my body back

851
00:39:51,200 --> 00:39:55,120
Speaker 3: to Earth. But what I was saying is like I'm

852
00:39:55,160 --> 00:39:57,600
Speaker 3: not gonna die from the vaccine and if for some

853
00:39:57,640 --> 00:40:00,840
Speaker 3: reason in thirty years my blood starts clodding, I'm going

854
00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:04,120
Speaker 3: to survive, and I'm going to sue, and I'm gonna

855
00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:06,960
Speaker 3: get my bag and I'm going to distribute my wealth.

856
00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:16,760
Speaker 2: You slick the most insane hypothetical ever. Like, okay, girl, why.

857
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:24,960
Speaker 3: The way I take hypotheticals so so serious? Like like

858
00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:30,080
Speaker 3: sometimes like we're close to ending our relationship over fucking hypothetical.

859
00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:31,919
Speaker 1: And it's literally because me being like I don't believe

860
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:35,200
Speaker 1: in aliens, and Drew will literally throw a fit, like

861
00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:38,000
Speaker 1: I will never see this man as angry as me

862
00:40:38,120 --> 00:40:40,879
Speaker 1: disagreeing with the hypothetical and he gets so mad because

863
00:40:40,920 --> 00:40:42,359
Speaker 1: I just I can't get into it.

864
00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:44,160
Speaker 2: I'm like, I am grounded in reality.

865
00:40:44,160 --> 00:40:47,040
Speaker 3: It's because you're disagreeing with everything at my core. It's

866
00:40:47,120 --> 00:40:51,040
Speaker 3: like it's like you literally just disagree with me. Ah.

867
00:40:51,040 --> 00:40:52,960
Speaker 1: I tell you about one time me and O Ryan

868
00:40:53,040 --> 00:40:56,799
Speaker 1: were out for drinks and it was with Josh too,

869
00:40:56,840 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 1: and it's the hypothetical of marrying Harry Styles Timothy Shallow

870
00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:02,279
Speaker 1: mate on the spot came up and I said I

871
00:41:02,280 --> 00:41:04,080
Speaker 1: wouldn't do that. I was like, I don't know them.

872
00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:06,920
Speaker 1: I was like not only my court. At my core,

873
00:41:07,040 --> 00:41:10,000
Speaker 1: I don't believe in marriage because it's fucking insane. I'm

874
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:12,120
Speaker 1: not marrying anyone, not even the love of my life

875
00:41:12,160 --> 00:41:13,239
Speaker 1: at any point in my life.

876
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:18,799
Speaker 2: So why would I marry this get married? Huh? You

877
00:41:18,840 --> 00:41:19,880
Speaker 2: wish we got married?

878
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:22,120
Speaker 1: You try to see, Like I said, not even my

879
00:41:22,239 --> 00:41:25,960
Speaker 1: platonic soulmate can bag me. No one is getting me

880
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:28,040
Speaker 1: to sign those stupid fucking papers.

881
00:41:28,520 --> 00:41:31,000
Speaker 2: And then she got really really bad. She was so

882
00:41:31,120 --> 00:41:31,600
Speaker 2: upset at me.

883
00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:33,839
Speaker 3: I'm about to get upset to you right now.

884
00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:37,600
Speaker 1: Like, Okay, first of all, I don't think, and this

885
00:41:37,680 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 1: is a big take, I don't think sexually we would

886
00:41:40,160 --> 00:41:43,160
Speaker 1: have good chemistry me and Harry or me and timpathy

887
00:41:43,160 --> 00:41:45,360
Speaker 1: shalo may could you imagine us kissing?

888
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:48,520
Speaker 3: No, I literally cannot even imagine.

889
00:41:48,560 --> 00:41:49,200
Speaker 2: Like those are just.

890
00:41:49,120 --> 00:41:52,279
Speaker 1: Two men that, like, I don't think biologically we could

891
00:41:52,280 --> 00:41:53,320
Speaker 1: get it going anyways.

892
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:56,359
Speaker 2: So I'm not hearing that, Like I'm not doing that.

893
00:41:56,320 --> 00:42:00,319
Speaker 1: To myself, Harry style, Like there are two they are

894
00:42:00,360 --> 00:42:04,080
Speaker 1: so disconnected from reality in my head, I cannot comprehend

895
00:42:04,080 --> 00:42:05,760
Speaker 1: that they are living beings.

896
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:07,600
Speaker 2: Let alone having to have some sort.

897
00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:11,080
Speaker 1: Of like relationship with them like that, Like maybe Timothy

898
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:13,840
Speaker 1: on like a friendly level, but even that, like I

899
00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:17,319
Speaker 1: crack up at his existence, not because I find him

900
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:20,240
Speaker 1: like corny or anything, but people at that level literally

901
00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 1: make me laugh. It's like Kylie Jenner, like I I

902
00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:27,000
Speaker 1: came up to me and just starting dogg to me,

903
00:42:27,080 --> 00:42:28,520
Speaker 1: I would crack the fuck.

904
00:42:28,560 --> 00:42:31,800
Speaker 3: I'm like, you're you're not real, Like there.

905
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:33,080
Speaker 2: Is no comprehending someone.

906
00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:36,480
Speaker 1: And also because I just think about like sometimes when

907
00:42:36,480 --> 00:42:39,280
Speaker 1: our followers meet us and they're like, I can't believe,

908
00:42:39,320 --> 00:42:41,040
Speaker 1: like I'm looking at you right now.

909
00:42:41,760 --> 00:42:45,880
Speaker 2: Like that with Timothy h with Harry Styles, I have

910
00:42:46,239 --> 00:42:49,400
Speaker 2: like put that man is a like god.

911
00:42:50,040 --> 00:42:52,319
Speaker 1: No, he is a fucking three D render, like he

912
00:42:52,480 --> 00:42:57,000
Speaker 1: is not a real human, Like I've fascinated about his

913
00:42:57,760 --> 00:43:01,200
Speaker 1: existence since I was literally the his fucking cock since

914
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:03,440
Speaker 1: I was like fourteen, so therefore.

915
00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:04,320
Speaker 2: His cock does not exist.

916
00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:07,560
Speaker 1: Actually, I literally can't look at anyone and see their

917
00:43:07,680 --> 00:43:08,600
Speaker 1: genitals like.

918
00:43:09,000 --> 00:43:12,400
Speaker 3: My biggest girl, where are you going now?

919
00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:14,759
Speaker 1: I'm just ranting, but like, no, you know how like

920
00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:18,560
Speaker 1: some people like wait now listen, you know some people.

921
00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 2: Look at someone and they like can sexualize someone.

922
00:43:21,200 --> 00:43:24,359
Speaker 1: I cannot sexualize anyone for the life of me, Like

923
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:28,239
Speaker 1: I genuinely, I have to whoa I can. I have

924
00:43:28,320 --> 00:43:31,319
Speaker 1: to get to know someone first, and then I'm like, oh,

925
00:43:31,440 --> 00:43:35,240
Speaker 1: maybe maybe, but I don't. I don't find people sexy,

926
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:38,440
Speaker 1: Like I'm not like I find women sexy, but like, man,

927
00:43:38,520 --> 00:43:39,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, can.

928
00:43:39,040 --> 00:43:41,680
Speaker 2: You fucking get the fuck out of my face?

929
00:43:42,760 --> 00:43:45,480
Speaker 3: But that's it, damn Okay.

930
00:43:45,600 --> 00:43:46,920
Speaker 1: I just have to get a man to know a

931
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:52,279
Speaker 1: man first, because men like off Rip are oh gross.

932
00:43:51,400 --> 00:43:52,480
Speaker 2: So gross.

933
00:43:52,719 --> 00:43:55,200
Speaker 3: I wholeheartedly agree with yeah, and then when you get

934
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:57,080
Speaker 3: to know them, it's like, Okay, stinky, I.

935
00:43:57,080 --> 00:43:57,640
Speaker 2: Kind of like you.

936
00:43:57,880 --> 00:44:00,640
Speaker 3: Okay, stinky, Okay, onion powder, you know what, any bad

937
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:01,319
Speaker 3: rec kind of like you.

938
00:44:02,080 --> 00:44:05,040
Speaker 1: But yeah, that's my rant about not being able to

939
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:09,920
Speaker 1: imagine myself marrying Timothy Challamey or Harry Styles.

940
00:44:10,000 --> 00:44:12,520
Speaker 3: I'd have sex with both of them.

941
00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:14,320
Speaker 2: You might find that you don't like it.

942
00:44:15,000 --> 00:44:17,480
Speaker 1: That's my biggest THINGA People are like, Okay, actually that's

943
00:44:17,480 --> 00:44:19,960
Speaker 1: a lie, though, because I have certain like celebrities who

944
00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:22,480
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, I would. It was like a conversation

945
00:44:22,520 --> 00:44:24,680
Speaker 1: about like Drake last night, where I was like, but

946
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:26,600
Speaker 1: the thing is, I'm not sexually attracted to Drake.

947
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:28,680
Speaker 2: It's like, why would I not have sex.

948
00:44:28,480 --> 00:44:30,719
Speaker 3: With Drake, yeah, but also the same could go with

949
00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:32,200
Speaker 3: Harry Styles and Timothy Challa May.

950
00:44:32,280 --> 00:44:34,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just don't feel that way about them, really,

951
00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:36,359
Speaker 2: I guess, like I don't know. I find them both

952
00:44:36,400 --> 00:44:38,239
Speaker 2: attractive in their own ways, but like.

953
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:43,160
Speaker 1: I literally feel like I could kick Timothy shallowrations in

954
00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:46,839
Speaker 1: would like Alicia not to say anything about him, but like.

955
00:44:46,840 --> 00:44:48,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. I just don't know.

956
00:44:49,120 --> 00:44:51,560
Speaker 1: If I ever meet you, you won't know that I

957
00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:55,680
Speaker 1: said this, and it doesn't matter and I didn't say this.

958
00:44:55,960 --> 00:45:00,000
Speaker 3: Mister is listening right now.

959
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:01,160
Speaker 2: Hey, be friends, girl.

960
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:03,880
Speaker 3: I don't think he wants to be friends with you

961
00:45:03,920 --> 00:45:04,319
Speaker 3: after you.

962
00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:06,960
Speaker 2: Said I said him, that's really weird.

963
00:45:07,280 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 3: You know, Timothy, you know how he gets Dude, that

964
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:14,839
Speaker 3: one time we were fucking hanging out with him at Chateau.

965
00:45:14,920 --> 00:45:17,640
Speaker 2: It was so weird. That's well, that's why I couldn't

966
00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:18,839
Speaker 2: marry him because of that night.

967
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:21,600
Speaker 3: It was just so literally he like tried to fucking

968
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:23,759
Speaker 3: dunk on me. I was like, I was like, this

969
00:45:23,800 --> 00:45:25,320
Speaker 3: is just like, well.

970
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:27,640
Speaker 1: You guys were like, aren't you guys like almost the

971
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 1: same high?

972
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:30,279
Speaker 3: I just can't remember we're about the same height. But

973
00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:35,120
Speaker 3: like it was a fucking bottle into a trash can.

974
00:45:35,239 --> 00:45:37,040
Speaker 3: I was like, just fucking throw it away like a

975
00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:38,560
Speaker 3: normal person. Don't try to dunk on me.

976
00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:42,000
Speaker 1: You're embarrassed because he like overstepped you. Also am I like, no,

977
00:45:42,040 --> 00:45:43,000
Speaker 1: actually he's not your height?

978
00:45:43,080 --> 00:45:46,240
Speaker 2: Is he shorter? We just started that he's.

979
00:45:46,080 --> 00:45:48,880
Speaker 3: Fire three dude, Timothy is five three.

980
00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:53,600
Speaker 2: He's actually really really fucking short. But yeah, I'm like thinking,

981
00:45:53,880 --> 00:45:56,239
Speaker 2: is are we hitting the end of this episode?

982
00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:59,480
Speaker 3: Well, we need to discuss the Baha Blast?

983
00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:02,080
Speaker 2: Oh, the last debate of the podcast.

984
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:07,120
Speaker 1: The last debate of the podcast gender reveal from Baha Blast?

985
00:46:07,360 --> 00:46:09,800
Speaker 3: What is the gender of a Baha Blast?

986
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:12,680
Speaker 1: Okay, you you asked me this on the couch the

987
00:46:12,719 --> 00:46:13,200
Speaker 1: other day.

988
00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:15,280
Speaker 2: Yes, Is this like discourse.

989
00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:17,920
Speaker 3: Online or no? This is just something I thought about. Okay,

990
00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:19,719
Speaker 3: so it's about to be discourse.

991
00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:24,600
Speaker 1: So here's you say your take for Actually I'll say

992
00:46:24,640 --> 00:46:27,560
Speaker 1: my take first because they are so opposite that going

993
00:46:27,560 --> 00:46:28,959
Speaker 1: from mine to yours.

994
00:46:30,320 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 2: Sounds really good. Also, this red bull is making me

995
00:46:33,160 --> 00:46:36,960
Speaker 2: burp so crazy. Yeah, but so Drew.

996
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:40,680
Speaker 1: Asked me what was my take on the gender of

997
00:46:40,680 --> 00:46:43,520
Speaker 1: the Baha Blast? And it stumped me for a.

998
00:46:43,520 --> 00:46:46,680
Speaker 2: Second, and then I was like, I think it's a

999
00:46:46,760 --> 00:46:47,600
Speaker 2: gay white man.

1000
00:46:47,680 --> 00:46:49,520
Speaker 1: I think a Baja blast is a gay white dude,

1001
00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:51,880
Speaker 1: but a very specific kind of gay white dude. You

1002
00:46:51,920 --> 00:46:54,359
Speaker 1: know that guy who got like dragged on TikTok who

1003
00:46:54,480 --> 00:46:57,560
Speaker 1: was like, I used to go to school, Bobby as fuck,

1004
00:46:58,560 --> 00:47:01,759
Speaker 1: that kind that is kind of gay dude that the

1005
00:47:01,760 --> 00:47:04,719
Speaker 1: Baja blast is. He's white, he lives in like Connecticut,

1006
00:47:06,000 --> 00:47:08,640
Speaker 1: his family is super down for him being gay, and

1007
00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:09,520
Speaker 1: he's loud.

1008
00:47:09,920 --> 00:47:12,839
Speaker 3: Yeah, and I just said a straight white man. It's

1009
00:47:12,840 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 3: so like it's it is a Baha blast is a

1010
00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:18,000
Speaker 3: straight white man, dude.

1011
00:47:18,040 --> 00:47:22,160
Speaker 1: I think Baha blasts are in my head. Baja blasts

1012
00:47:22,160 --> 00:47:24,920
Speaker 1: are so intertwined with queer culture. It just can't be

1013
00:47:24,920 --> 00:47:25,720
Speaker 1: a straight white.

1014
00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:28,080
Speaker 3: Dude, dude, I think. I mean, like yes, but also

1015
00:47:28,320 --> 00:47:31,799
Speaker 3: like I hate saying straight culture because straight people don't

1016
00:47:31,840 --> 00:47:36,359
Speaker 3: have a culture, but straight culture, yes we do, girl,

1017
00:47:36,400 --> 00:47:36,680
Speaker 3: you're not.

1018
00:47:36,760 --> 00:47:40,560
Speaker 2: Straight, Yes we do, Yes we are. Yes we are

1019
00:47:40,840 --> 00:47:44,520
Speaker 2: me and all my straight community.

1020
00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:47,600
Speaker 3: Now my ass hurts so bad from this fucking chair.

1021
00:47:47,960 --> 00:47:49,319
Speaker 3: It's literally penetrating me.

1022
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:51,440
Speaker 2: If we get a little money from this episode, we

1023
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:52,200
Speaker 2: could get you good chair.

1024
00:47:52,280 --> 00:47:54,200
Speaker 3: Yeah it's penetrating, or you could use a.

1025
00:47:54,200 --> 00:47:56,840
Speaker 2: Dining room chair. But your chair is fancy. There's a

1026
00:47:56,840 --> 00:47:57,319
Speaker 2: lot about you.

1027
00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:01,120
Speaker 3: I made this chair, I know, but yeah.

1028
00:48:00,920 --> 00:48:01,480
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1029
00:48:01,560 --> 00:48:03,840
Speaker 1: It's just like in my head when I think about

1030
00:48:05,040 --> 00:48:08,279
Speaker 1: Toyota Camry from two thousand and five. The speakers are

1031
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:14,360
Speaker 1: blown out, Charlie x X is playing, there's like a

1032
00:48:14,480 --> 00:48:17,839
Speaker 1: scattered few people in the car. There's like two non

1033
00:48:17,920 --> 00:48:21,200
Speaker 1: binaries one gay and what's in the cup holder?

1034
00:48:21,719 --> 00:48:22,720
Speaker 2: O baha blast.

1035
00:48:22,840 --> 00:48:23,040
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1036
00:48:23,040 --> 00:48:26,279
Speaker 3: But you could also say, like the straight white man

1037
00:48:26,440 --> 00:48:28,799
Speaker 3: is getting off his job at the oil rig and

1038
00:48:28,840 --> 00:48:31,279
Speaker 3: he goes to Taco bell and gets his fucking Baja blast.

1039
00:48:31,680 --> 00:48:35,920
Speaker 3: No he is getting Are we talking about freeze or no, I'm.

1040
00:48:35,800 --> 00:48:39,960
Speaker 1: Talking freeze, baby, Like, uh okay, so see that's where

1041
00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:41,759
Speaker 1: it gets the freeze.

1042
00:48:41,840 --> 00:48:45,720
Speaker 3: The freeze is gay, like the freeze freeze is serving

1043
00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:50,640
Speaker 3: like yeah, she's serving fruity queer. She's queer. Yeah. And

1044
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:56,719
Speaker 3: then the soda one, Okay, I just need to speak

1045
00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:58,600
Speaker 3: my piece on this, like I need this, I need

1046
00:48:58,600 --> 00:49:03,200
Speaker 3: to speak my truth. If you get the Baja blast soda,

1047
00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:04,880
Speaker 3: you are a fucking monster.

1048
00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:08,000
Speaker 2: See no, and this is the thing. You're a mind

1049
00:49:08,160 --> 00:49:09,799
Speaker 2: I know, not be tying back into this.

1050
00:49:09,880 --> 00:49:11,959
Speaker 1: I'm like and here's the thing, Like, I don't even

1051
00:49:12,040 --> 00:49:15,439
Speaker 1: fuck with Baja Blast freeze or the soda. And that's

1052
00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:22,560
Speaker 1: what gives me more ammo behind being straight sleigh, Because girl.

1053
00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:24,080
Speaker 3: What did you just say.

1054
00:49:24,280 --> 00:49:25,440
Speaker 2: Like, I don't even like that.

1055
00:49:25,560 --> 00:49:28,160
Speaker 1: I hate Baha Actually I don't hate it, but I

1056
00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:29,080
Speaker 1: would never order it.

1057
00:49:29,160 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 2: But that's a different conversation because.

1058
00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:35,280
Speaker 3: You are a war criminal Bajas Fleet freeze It's.

1059
00:49:35,080 --> 00:49:37,560
Speaker 1: Okay for like two SIPs. I'm just not a super

1060
00:49:37,640 --> 00:49:38,840
Speaker 1: sugar sugar person.

1061
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:41,440
Speaker 2: That's the thing about the feeling at the back of

1062
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:41,719
Speaker 2: my mind.

1063
00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:43,759
Speaker 3: The freeze isn't super sugary. It's like mixed with like

1064
00:49:43,800 --> 00:49:45,720
Speaker 3: eighty percent water. That's why it's the best.

1065
00:49:45,880 --> 00:49:49,359
Speaker 1: Okay, Yeah, I guess if I'm like feeling myself, if

1066
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: it's like three am and someone orders Baha Blast, yes

1067
00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:52,680
Speaker 1: I will.

1068
00:49:52,760 --> 00:49:55,920
Speaker 3: Go and then and then you don't finish it. So

1069
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:59,160
Speaker 3: the next morning you have like two inches of Baja

1070
00:49:59,239 --> 00:50:02,440
Speaker 3: Blast freeze liquid at the bottom and you just get

1071
00:50:02,440 --> 00:50:04,360
Speaker 3: to suck it down in one slip with a straw

1072
00:50:04,360 --> 00:50:08,040
Speaker 3: in the morning. Um, yes, please.

1073
00:50:08,360 --> 00:50:09,640
Speaker 2: You are so gross.

1074
00:50:09,680 --> 00:50:11,440
Speaker 3: And the way, that's not a lie. I do that.

1075
00:50:11,560 --> 00:50:13,640
Speaker 1: Actually, I'm like, I don't fuck with Baha blasts and

1076
00:50:13,719 --> 00:50:16,239
Speaker 1: literally like I've ordered the Baja blast freeze like on

1077
00:50:16,320 --> 00:50:17,120
Speaker 1: multiple occasions.

1078
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:18,960
Speaker 2: But like I said, it was like me feeling myself.

1079
00:50:18,960 --> 00:50:19,680
Speaker 2: It was like three am.

1080
00:50:19,719 --> 00:50:22,040
Speaker 1: I was like own again a Baja blast freeze, Like

1081
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:25,200
Speaker 1: that was the way I said that. Remember one time

1082
00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:27,440
Speaker 1: when me and Orian had Baja blast freeze and we

1083
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:29,640
Speaker 1: put a shit ton of tequila into them and we

1084
00:50:29,800 --> 00:50:32,560
Speaker 1: left them on the counter, and Drew woke up the

1085
00:50:32,600 --> 00:50:35,400
Speaker 1: next morning and he saw his little, gross, rotted Baha

1086
00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:37,759
Speaker 1: blast freeze and took a sip of it and it

1087
00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:41,000
Speaker 1: literally gave him shakes and he was like buzzed.

1088
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:43,880
Speaker 3: For the rest of it was fucked up because Okay,

1089
00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:48,720
Speaker 3: so this is something weird about me, but I drink

1090
00:50:48,760 --> 00:50:52,640
Speaker 3: flat soda. I think flat drinks are just as good

1091
00:50:52,760 --> 00:50:56,800
Speaker 3: as carbonated drinks. So I will purpose so gross open

1092
00:50:56,880 --> 00:50:59,000
Speaker 3: a soda and leave it out overnight on the counter

1093
00:50:59,120 --> 00:51:01,600
Speaker 3: and drink it the next morning. It's not that weird.

1094
00:51:02,080 --> 00:51:02,400
Speaker 1: It is.

1095
00:51:02,520 --> 00:51:05,799
Speaker 2: It is actually your biggest flaw as a human being.

1096
00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:09,880
Speaker 3: It is. It is really it's biggest character. It is wrong.

1097
00:51:10,120 --> 00:51:13,000
Speaker 3: It's it's yeah, it's like bad.

1098
00:51:13,360 --> 00:51:16,560
Speaker 1: It's just the craziest thing I'm gonna say, and that's

1099
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:17,879
Speaker 1: why twenty twenty.

1100
00:51:18,719 --> 00:51:22,959
Speaker 3: That's why your brother died because of the coke thing? No,

1101
00:51:23,440 --> 00:51:26,680
Speaker 3: I but like, yeah, I just if there's a drink

1102
00:51:26,760 --> 00:51:29,880
Speaker 3: that was left out at the house and it's like

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00:51:30,120 --> 00:51:32,920
Speaker 3: halfway full, like I'm sorry, I'm not pouring it down

1104
00:51:32,960 --> 00:51:36,160
Speaker 3: the sinkhole. My body is a garbage disposal and I

1105
00:51:36,200 --> 00:51:40,040
Speaker 3: will drink it. Like for example, this red bull, it

1106
00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:41,760
Speaker 3: will get drank tomorrow morning.

1107
00:51:41,760 --> 00:51:43,080
Speaker 2: Probably so gross.

1108
00:51:43,200 --> 00:51:49,279
Speaker 1: Literally, like I said, biggest character flaw. But yeah, and

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00:51:49,520 --> 00:51:53,799
Speaker 1: those are hot hot takes yep for the first episode

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00:51:55,200 --> 00:51:58,200
Speaker 1: takeaways are we Rock.

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00:51:58,200 --> 00:52:04,719
Speaker 3: Twenty twenty was good and bad? The Baja blast Freeze

1112
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:06,279
Speaker 3: is gay.

1113
00:52:06,960 --> 00:52:08,200
Speaker 2: It's a gay white man.

1114
00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:12,880
Speaker 3: Yeah. What else should we talk about? Screen time? You know,

1115
00:52:13,160 --> 00:52:15,680
Speaker 3: just do your thing, take your time, get off your

1116
00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:19,320
Speaker 3: phone a little bit, go outside, eat some grass.

1117
00:52:19,120 --> 00:52:20,280
Speaker 2: Do some jumping jacks.

1118
00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:23,759
Speaker 3: Period. The iPad babies control the world. I will talk

1119
00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:26,040
Speaker 3: about that in the next episode. I will go into

1120
00:52:26,080 --> 00:52:30,080
Speaker 3: that if you want me to. Kylie Jenner is the

1121
00:52:30,120 --> 00:52:31,840
Speaker 3: reason for the Mandela effect.

1122
00:52:32,280 --> 00:52:36,000
Speaker 1: Timothy Chalomey and hairstyles are not real people. And then

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00:52:36,239 --> 00:52:38,719
Speaker 1: I think we should just close it out with our

1124
00:52:38,719 --> 00:52:39,360
Speaker 1: faith media.

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00:52:39,560 --> 00:52:40,760
Speaker 2: Let's give the people something.

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00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:43,160
Speaker 3: So that's something we want to do once a week,

1127
00:52:43,440 --> 00:52:45,799
Speaker 3: is we want to give you something that you can

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00:52:45,840 --> 00:52:50,120
Speaker 3: actually take away and consume from this podcast the Fox. Yeah.

1129
00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:54,520
Speaker 3: So for example, like we'll say our favorite song or

1130
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:57,759
Speaker 3: movie or show or book from the week, and you

1131
00:52:57,760 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 3: can either decide if you want to listen to it

1132
00:52:59,680 --> 00:53:02,440
Speaker 3: or watch to read it or not, and I'll let

1133
00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:03,240
Speaker 3: in you go first.

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00:53:04,200 --> 00:53:07,680
Speaker 1: Okay, So I can't give a favorite book right now

1135
00:53:08,080 --> 00:53:11,040
Speaker 1: because the book that came to mind is like a

1136
00:53:11,120 --> 00:53:12,759
Speaker 1: sad book and I don't want to give it and

1137
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:14,879
Speaker 1: I'm not done with it yet, So I'll wait on that,

1138
00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:19,520
Speaker 1: and then for songs I have, I'll give like three

1139
00:53:19,640 --> 00:53:22,880
Speaker 1: because I don't have actually a movie or a show.

1140
00:53:22,760 --> 00:53:23,680
Speaker 2: I want everyone to watch.

1141
00:53:23,800 --> 00:53:27,600
Speaker 1: The movie I want everyone to watch is a Castle

1142
00:53:27,640 --> 00:53:28,520
Speaker 1: of Cagliostro.

1143
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:30,080
Speaker 2: It's a Studio Ghibli movie.

1144
00:53:30,480 --> 00:53:33,160
Speaker 1: I watched it in like high school and like and

1145
00:53:33,320 --> 00:53:35,799
Speaker 1: it's kind of so and like I remember one time

1146
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:37,160
Speaker 1: I tried to get y'all to watch it, and y'all

1147
00:53:37,200 --> 00:53:39,960
Speaker 1: were like, this is so boring, but it's really sweet

1148
00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:41,160
Speaker 1: to like throw on solo.

1149
00:53:41,239 --> 00:53:45,279
Speaker 2: It's very chill vibes. It's super cute. Yeah, literally, just

1150
00:53:45,320 --> 00:53:47,200
Speaker 2: like if you want it as background noise.

1151
00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:49,239
Speaker 1: It's fucking awesome. And the music and it is really

1152
00:53:49,280 --> 00:53:53,719
Speaker 1: fucking good. And then for songs, the reason I'm giving

1153
00:53:53,760 --> 00:53:56,319
Speaker 1: like three is because like one of them is such

1154
00:53:56,360 --> 00:53:59,520
Speaker 1: a everyone who's watching this is listening to this song.

1155
00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:04,400
Speaker 1: But Nasty by Ariana Grande is such a good song.

1156
00:54:04,520 --> 00:54:08,000
Speaker 1: That intro like she has no idea, Actually she has

1157
00:54:08,040 --> 00:54:08,640
Speaker 1: every idea.

1158
00:54:08,840 --> 00:54:12,000
Speaker 3: She knows the grip on society. That song has so

1159
00:54:12,080 --> 00:54:14,000
Speaker 3: fucking good. Are we going to play the songs after?

1160
00:54:15,920 --> 00:54:25,320
Speaker 1: Should we give a little snippet? Yeah, all right, step

1161
00:54:25,800 --> 00:54:27,360
Speaker 1: because we have to be careful. We don't want to

1162
00:54:27,400 --> 00:54:29,719
Speaker 1: get our videos copywritten.

1163
00:54:31,760 --> 00:54:37,040
Speaker 2: And then Spring by Saint anton at Tienne.

1164
00:54:37,600 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: I can't say names, but it'll be on the screen.

1165
00:54:40,560 --> 00:54:43,160
Speaker 1: Maybe yeah, we should throw it on the screen. Yeah, yeah,

1166
00:54:43,160 --> 00:54:46,400
Speaker 1: So Spring by Saint Etienne.

1167
00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:50,320
Speaker 3: Pretty very nice.

1168
00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:53,080
Speaker 1: This was one of my favorite songs last year, so

1169
00:54:53,120 --> 00:54:55,520
Speaker 1: I'm bringing it back for twenty twenty one, hoping I

1170
00:54:55,520 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 1: feel that same happiness.

1171
00:54:57,719 --> 00:55:01,200
Speaker 2: And then Habitual Love by Okay Kyah.

1172
00:55:01,920 --> 00:55:04,319
Speaker 1: That is like an older song, not super old, but

1173
00:55:04,400 --> 00:55:07,160
Speaker 1: it's like twenty eighteen ish and I've been listening to

1174
00:55:07,160 --> 00:55:09,480
Speaker 1: that song again and it's really fucking.

1175
00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:15,560
Speaker 3: Good, pretty nice, Okay, So for the movie or for

1176
00:55:16,160 --> 00:55:21,600
Speaker 3: a movie that I watched that just was so inspiring,

1177
00:55:21,800 --> 00:55:24,160
Speaker 3: it literally it like got me off my ass and

1178
00:55:24,200 --> 00:55:26,160
Speaker 3: I was like, dude, like you can do anything you

1179
00:55:26,200 --> 00:55:28,440
Speaker 3: fucking want in this life. And not because of the

1180
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:32,160
Speaker 3: content of the movie, but because like the story behind

1181
00:55:32,160 --> 00:55:34,880
Speaker 3: the movie or the story of how the movie was

1182
00:55:34,920 --> 00:55:40,760
Speaker 3: made is just fucking crazy. But the movie Primer, who's

1183
00:55:40,800 --> 00:55:44,040
Speaker 3: who directed it? I need to see that by Shane

1184
00:55:44,239 --> 00:55:47,359
Speaker 3: Caruth Carruth, I don't know how to say his fucking name.

1185
00:55:49,200 --> 00:55:52,759
Speaker 3: But Primer is such an incredible movie and it only

1186
00:55:52,840 --> 00:55:55,840
Speaker 3: costs seven thousand dollars to make. And the director of

1187
00:55:55,880 --> 00:55:58,840
Speaker 3: the movie was just like this engineer who decided to

1188
00:55:58,880 --> 00:56:01,640
Speaker 3: write a movie on time try and it like it's

1189
00:56:01,719 --> 00:56:04,880
Speaker 3: just I think what is so attractive to it or

1190
00:56:05,080 --> 00:56:07,320
Speaker 3: so attractive about it to me is just like how

1191
00:56:08,120 --> 00:56:11,759
Speaker 3: they didn't compromise on the science behind the movie. They

1192
00:56:11,760 --> 00:56:14,400
Speaker 3: did not They they were like, I'm not giving the

1193
00:56:14,760 --> 00:56:17,640
Speaker 3: audience anything. I'm not making it easier to understand. You're

1194
00:56:17,640 --> 00:56:19,239
Speaker 3: gonna have to watch it thirty times if you really

1195
00:56:19,239 --> 00:56:21,600
Speaker 3: want to understand it. And I think that's why I'm

1196
00:56:21,600 --> 00:56:23,080
Speaker 3: in love with it is because like it was just

1197
00:56:23,120 --> 00:56:26,880
Speaker 3: so uncompromising. It was his fucking vision. He funded the

1198
00:56:26,920 --> 00:56:30,800
Speaker 3: movie himself and made the best movie about time travel

1199
00:56:30,840 --> 00:56:33,160
Speaker 3: ever made and that will ever be made probably, And

1200
00:56:33,200 --> 00:56:35,759
Speaker 3: it's so good and I think you should watch it

1201
00:56:35,800 --> 00:56:37,720
Speaker 3: if you want to get inspired just to create whatever

1202
00:56:37,719 --> 00:56:38,120
Speaker 3: you want.

1203
00:56:38,440 --> 00:56:40,080
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1204
00:56:40,200 --> 00:56:47,000
Speaker 3: And then my favorite show right now is Attack on Titan,

1205
00:56:47,680 --> 00:56:51,520
Speaker 3: And I know, such an old fucking thing to uh

1206
00:56:52,600 --> 00:56:53,080
Speaker 3: be liking it.

1207
00:56:53,200 --> 00:56:56,960
Speaker 1: I'm really surprised that, like it's popularity gain. I guess everyone,

1208
00:56:57,080 --> 00:57:00,640
Speaker 1: like finally during Quarantine had a memoirs like, you know what,

1209
00:57:01,440 --> 00:57:03,440
Speaker 1: let me see what these nerds are doing. Yeah, and

1210
00:57:03,719 --> 00:57:07,160
Speaker 1: like realize that anime like can be really fucking awesome.

1211
00:57:07,239 --> 00:57:10,040
Speaker 3: Yeah. But yeah, but it's just one of those things.

1212
00:57:10,080 --> 00:57:12,799
Speaker 3: Like I had the chance to watch it fucking four

1213
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:15,359
Speaker 3: I had the chance to watch it like four years ago,

1214
00:57:16,040 --> 00:57:19,840
Speaker 3: and I just decided, like it's too overhyped. Everyone's telling

1215
00:57:19,880 --> 00:57:22,080
Speaker 3: me to watch it, I'm not gonna watch it because

1216
00:57:22,080 --> 00:57:23,960
Speaker 3: it cannot be that good. So I watched the first

1217
00:57:24,000 --> 00:57:27,080
Speaker 3: couple of episodes. Josh showed me some up or some

1218
00:57:27,320 --> 00:57:29,480
Speaker 3: like hyped up moments of the show, and I was

1219
00:57:29,520 --> 00:57:30,840
Speaker 3: just like, no, I'm not watching this. I don't want

1220
00:57:30,880 --> 00:57:33,520
Speaker 3: to watch this. I'll watch any other anime because, like

1221
00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:37,840
Speaker 3: from high school, Enya got me into anime very deep,

1222
00:57:37,880 --> 00:57:39,760
Speaker 3: and that's all I did through high school is watch

1223
00:57:39,800 --> 00:57:43,120
Speaker 3: like anime. Like Enya was very influential on that. She

1224
00:57:43,280 --> 00:57:45,680
Speaker 3: was such a nerd weave in high school. But yeah,

1225
00:57:45,680 --> 00:57:48,320
Speaker 3: I just decided to watch Attack on Titan this last

1226
00:57:48,360 --> 00:57:52,520
Speaker 3: week and I've watched fifty episodes in three days. Insane,

1227
00:57:53,080 --> 00:57:56,360
Speaker 3: and it's really embarrassing. But I think it is one

1228
00:57:56,400 --> 00:57:59,680
Speaker 3: of the greatest stories of all time. I think, like,

1229
00:58:00,000 --> 00:58:03,440
Speaker 3: regardless of it being an anime, Like the writing of

1230
00:58:03,640 --> 00:58:09,560
Speaker 3: that show is freaking crazy. It's unreal, like things they

1231
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:13,320
Speaker 3: say in the first season end up having a cause

1232
00:58:13,720 --> 00:58:17,200
Speaker 3: and effect in the third season. It's just it's just

1233
00:58:17,240 --> 00:58:20,320
Speaker 3: absurd and the writers are genius. And I think everybody

1234
00:58:20,320 --> 00:58:22,000
Speaker 3: should go watch it immediately.

1235
00:58:23,640 --> 00:58:26,160
Speaker 2: My low key show people should watch is Breaking Bad.

1236
00:58:26,280 --> 00:58:27,080
Speaker 2: I should just watch that.

1237
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:30,040
Speaker 3: I had the hottest take. Actually, I said that Attack

1238
00:58:30,080 --> 00:58:32,320
Speaker 3: on Titan was better than Breaking Bad, which is a

1239
00:58:32,480 --> 00:58:36,720
Speaker 3: crazy take. It's absurd. And I'll just give one song

1240
00:58:36,960 --> 00:58:40,600
Speaker 3: that I've been listening to like crazy recently, which is

1241
00:58:40,640 --> 00:58:45,800
Speaker 3: Forbidden Apple by Cornelius his new song. Yeah, it's magical.

1242
00:58:46,920 --> 00:58:49,520
Speaker 3: It's just an ear load, it's just inside your head.

1243
00:58:51,320 --> 00:58:54,320
Speaker 2: He saw those little those bottles, those bottles, and he

1244
00:58:54,440 --> 00:58:54,760
Speaker 2: was like.

1245
00:58:55,440 --> 00:58:56,880
Speaker 3: I'm gonna create that apple.

1246
00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:00,880
Speaker 2: All right. Well that was the episode.

1247
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:04,680
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for either watching, listening, whatever you

1248
00:59:04,760 --> 00:59:05,480
Speaker 1: decided to do.

1249
00:59:07,200 --> 00:59:07,800
Speaker 2: We will be.

1250
00:59:07,800 --> 00:59:12,439
Speaker 3: Back, yeah, weekly, We have obligations.

1251
00:59:12,800 --> 00:59:15,640
Speaker 1: Sadly not kidding. That was fucking awesome. That was super

1252
00:59:15,720 --> 00:59:16,440
Speaker 1: enjoyable to do.

1253
00:59:17,440 --> 00:59:19,120
Speaker 2: Maybe it's like we should have done it forever ago.

1254
00:59:19,200 --> 00:59:20,800
Speaker 3: Maybe we should have done it four years ago when

1255
00:59:20,800 --> 00:59:22,480
Speaker 3: we were first talking about it.

1256
00:59:22,560 --> 00:59:24,520
Speaker 2: But they did not need to like I did not

1257
00:59:24,640 --> 00:59:26,360
Speaker 2: need to be speaking that when I.

1258
00:59:26,200 --> 00:59:30,600
Speaker 3: Was saying literally and like for everybody who's stuck around

1259
00:59:30,640 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 3: this long and put up with us, we're saving that

1260
00:59:33,920 --> 00:59:38,680
Speaker 3: for the podcast. Thank you so fucking much, because if

1261
00:59:38,680 --> 00:59:40,520
Speaker 3: it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be sitting here in

1262
00:59:40,520 --> 00:59:43,520
Speaker 3: the shitty fucking corner with these really nice mics and

1263
00:59:43,520 --> 00:59:49,400
Speaker 3: shitty fucking sorry telling you these stories about our life.

1264
00:59:49,920 --> 00:59:52,560
Speaker 3: So thank you for like listening and just being there

1265
00:59:52,720 --> 00:59:55,760
Speaker 3: and just putting up with us for all these years.

1266
00:59:56,160 --> 00:59:58,480
Speaker 3: And it's finally happening. It's happening.

1267
00:59:59,080 --> 01:00:02,440
Speaker 1: But so yeah, stick with us, watch us evolve a

1268
01:00:02,480 --> 01:00:05,280
Speaker 1: little more if you would like to, and have an

1269
01:00:05,280 --> 01:00:06,120
Speaker 1: awesome dame.

1270
01:00:06,880 --> 01:00:07,800
Speaker 3: Leave me alone.

1271
01:00:08,840 --> 01:00:33,320
Speaker 2: Bye m