WEBVTT - Lexi Rodriguez and the Specter of Self-Doubt 0:00:03.080 --> 0:00:09.520 Yeah, that's on the track. Yeah, what's up, what's up? 0:00:09.720 --> 0:00:10.920 What's up? What's up? 0:00:11.400 --> 0:00:14.960 Welcome to certain thing pancakes. Baby, we're on doing the 0:00:15.040 --> 0:00:18.680 damn thing today. It's your girl Can and Maddie King. 0:00:19.000 --> 0:00:19.880 You know what's up? 0:00:20.239 --> 0:00:25.079 Yeah, that's that okay that. 0:00:41.240 --> 0:00:46.159 Today we have got tell the people welcome to certain pancakes, everybody. 0:00:46.240 --> 0:00:51.720 Today we have the most incredible guests. Lexi Rodrigae, you. 0:00:51.680 --> 0:00:56.440 Better clear Baryl from Love and Rasca. Where to start? 0:00:56.480 --> 0:00:58.320 Lexi, you are in a four time All American in 0:00:58.320 --> 0:01:02.280 twenty twenty one ABC A Freshman Year, Big Tail, Big twelve, 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:03.120 Sorry Big. 0:01:04.560 --> 0:01:09.080 Ten levererro what you said? Twelve? I know because I'm 0:01:09.080 --> 0:01:10.240 old say. 0:01:12.240 --> 0:01:15.679 We're all American at Nebraska twenty and twenty one EIGHTYCA 0:01:15.880 --> 0:01:19.000 Freshman of the Year twenty twenty four, Big Taylor Burrough 0:01:19.040 --> 0:01:21.200 of the Year. You got all the accolades. Girl, you 0:01:21.280 --> 0:01:25.240 are the ope. I'm getting up to everything right now. 0:01:25.280 --> 0:01:28.040 But thank you and welcome to serving pancakes. 0:01:28.440 --> 0:01:31.960 Yes, thanks for having me. I'm excited to get to 0:01:32.080 --> 0:01:33.759 chat with you. Guys. 0:01:34.440 --> 0:01:36.759 You have truly remind me like in my mind, you're 0:01:36.840 --> 0:01:38.640 kind of like the Taylor Swift of volleyball. 0:01:40.240 --> 0:01:41.120 I like that. 0:01:41.319 --> 0:01:45.360 I like that about the followers. I'm like, how do 0:01:45.400 --> 0:01:48.240 I I should have gone to Nebraska? 0:01:48.960 --> 0:01:49.279 Damn? 0:01:50.040 --> 0:01:52.080 All right, We're gonna hit you with some just quick 0:01:52.200 --> 0:01:57.400 questions first. Okay, okay, loosen it up, all right? What 0:01:57.480 --> 0:02:00.600 do people always get wrong about you from social media? 0:02:01.800 --> 0:02:05.040 Oh? Okay, this is a loose en up one. 0:02:07.640 --> 0:02:09.000 Person, go straight to it. 0:02:09.280 --> 0:02:09.680 I don't know. 0:02:09.760 --> 0:02:12.919 I think some people think that I'm maybe a little 0:02:12.919 --> 0:02:17.080 bit more serious than I am, and I feel like 0:02:17.120 --> 0:02:20.440 I'm very much just like go with the flow of 0:02:21.120 --> 0:02:25.480 kind of goofy, fun like whatever type of person and player. 0:02:25.560 --> 0:02:28.600 Honestly, Like, I feel like some people just get I 0:02:28.639 --> 0:02:29.960 give off the vibe of. 0:02:30.120 --> 0:02:34.359 Like, oh, I'm so like serious, and which I am. 0:02:34.440 --> 0:02:36.600 I can be serious, but like I definitely just like 0:02:36.639 --> 0:02:37.080 to have fun. 0:02:37.520 --> 0:02:39.200 That kind of goes into my next question too, like, 0:02:39.280 --> 0:02:41.480 you know, we know Lexi or guess is the athlete? 0:02:41.520 --> 0:02:42.000 Like who you are? 0:02:42.000 --> 0:02:44.040 They're sports mal American, all the great things you've done, 0:02:44.080 --> 0:02:45.880 but like this is our first time actually getting to 0:02:45.919 --> 0:02:47.720 know you, get to talk to you, like who is Lexi? 0:02:47.840 --> 0:02:49.959 Like you know who what's like? Who's Lexi without volleyball? 0:02:50.120 --> 0:02:51.239 Not that jersey on her back. 0:02:51.880 --> 0:02:54.480 I love to stay active. I love to do things. 0:02:54.520 --> 0:02:59.079 I love to meet new people and build connections and 0:02:59.440 --> 0:03:02.840 do little whatever. Like I am always on the go 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:04.680 type of person, Like I don't like to just like 0:03:04.880 --> 0:03:08.600 stay inside and do nothing, like I wanna if you 0:03:08.600 --> 0:03:10.880 want to go get coffee, I'll go get coffee. Let's 0:03:10.880 --> 0:03:14.040 go play pick a ball or do something. And I 0:03:14.040 --> 0:03:16.600 feel like that's kind of how he's always been a 0:03:17.160 --> 0:03:18.840 big family oriented person. 0:03:19.000 --> 0:03:25.160 And daw the video of you guys dancing, you was 0:03:25.200 --> 0:03:27.840 getting down. I was like, oh god, I went to 0:03:27.880 --> 0:03:29.959 practice talking about it and I was like, I had 0:03:29.960 --> 0:03:30.440 no idea. 0:03:30.560 --> 0:03:33.080 Maybe girl glast seasoning like you were killing it. You 0:03:33.160 --> 0:03:35.760 were killing it. Oh my gosh, thank you. 0:03:35.840 --> 0:03:38.200 I don't know if you guys know Alexi's heart, but 0:03:39.120 --> 0:03:41.920 she was my She was my inspo because she was 0:03:42.360 --> 0:03:44.080 really getting into it and I was like. 0:03:44.120 --> 0:03:46.280 Okay, okay, I can loosen. 0:03:45.960 --> 0:03:49.440 Up a little bit. But it was fun. 0:03:49.440 --> 0:03:52.440 But like stuff like that, like I love like doing 0:03:52.480 --> 0:03:56.720 stuff outside of vallad ball that's just random and fun. 0:03:57.440 --> 0:03:59.200 I do a lot of random, fun stuff. I love. 0:03:59.280 --> 0:04:04.480 I'll see anything, yeah for whatever, I'm saying yes, because 0:04:04.480 --> 0:04:06.960 I like the experience too. So there's only a good 0:04:07.000 --> 0:04:07.760 story that will come. 0:04:07.680 --> 0:04:09.560 Out of Yes, I agree. 0:04:10.120 --> 0:04:11.120 That's kind of how we met too. 0:04:11.160 --> 0:04:13.080 It was like she's always wanted to be down and 0:04:13.120 --> 0:04:15.320 do something, and I'm like, yeah, might as well. 0:04:15.360 --> 0:04:19.040 I do not nothing else. Dommes exactly sit on the couch, 0:04:19.240 --> 0:04:20.480 be on TikTok whatever. 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:23.359 I know, I do my fair show that trust me. 0:04:24.400 --> 0:04:26.960 Okay, who's the hardest hitter you've ever had to dig? 0:04:28.080 --> 0:04:28.279 Ooh? 0:04:30.560 --> 0:04:31.440 Like one of those ones. 0:04:31.520 --> 0:04:34.599 Just like my chest hurts, my arms are on the 0:04:34.640 --> 0:04:36.320 floor actually and I'm intesched on my body. 0:04:36.520 --> 0:04:38.039 The ball went through me, not that we. 0:04:39.640 --> 0:04:44.440 M my eyes. 0:04:45.960 --> 0:04:48.719 I would say there's a few thinking back more of 0:04:48.760 --> 0:04:51.839 my college days because I trust me. I know there's 0:04:51.880 --> 0:04:55.160 a lot of people in this league that are scary, 0:04:55.600 --> 0:05:00.279 but I would say in my college days it was 0:05:00.000 --> 0:05:05.400 I was like, yeah, but I would say in my 0:05:05.680 --> 0:05:09.440 college days, Devin Robinson, I don't know if you guys 0:05:09.600 --> 0:05:13.240 know her. She went to Wisconsin and then also Jess muziic. 0:05:13.880 --> 0:05:19.039 I feel like whether yeah, whether it was Michigan. 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:21.680 Or Penn State, like always like I was like, all right, 0:05:21.839 --> 0:05:24.360 we're playing Jess. I had to bring my game. 0:05:24.480 --> 0:05:26.479 Well, obviously everyone went to other big question, especially me, 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:29.120 like I'm sure you had so many colleges after you 0:05:29.120 --> 0:05:31.080 you know why Nebraska? 0:05:31.320 --> 0:05:35.320 Oh well, actually, interesting fact, I guess they were my 0:05:35.400 --> 0:05:36.000 only offer. 0:05:36.560 --> 0:05:39.599 Oh yeah, so I was I was pretty young. 0:05:40.040 --> 0:05:45.000 I was fourteen when like I started getting recruited and 0:05:45.040 --> 0:05:49.200 then I don't even know how, I somehow got invited 0:05:49.279 --> 0:05:53.320 to a summer camp there, and the plan was kind 0:05:53.360 --> 0:05:55.920 of to just go to be like, oh, we went 0:05:55.960 --> 0:05:59.279 to a Nebraska camp, and like even my mom was like, 0:06:00.120 --> 0:06:05.360 probably let's look at more realistic options for like after 0:06:05.440 --> 0:06:10.560 this camp, you know, like no, no shade to her, Like. 0:06:12.640 --> 0:06:15.800 We were just we were trying to be realistic. 0:06:16.080 --> 0:06:19.400 And then I went to this camp and they ended 0:06:19.480 --> 0:06:22.359 up offering me like at the end of the like 0:06:22.440 --> 0:06:25.360 four days, and so it was kind of just like 0:06:25.720 --> 0:06:28.760 after being there, like I was like, the facilities are amazing. 0:06:28.880 --> 0:06:32.480 I at the time, Caleb Banworth was the assistant coach there, 0:06:32.960 --> 0:06:35.919 so I was like the staff like I really wanted. 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:38.200 I never ended up getting to be coached by her, 0:06:38.240 --> 0:06:40.640 but I was like I wanted to be coached by her. 0:06:40.839 --> 0:06:43.880 And after I mean, when you're on the visit, they 0:06:44.120 --> 0:06:46.560 share all their history and everything, and I. 0:06:46.520 --> 0:06:47.920 Just literally fell in love. 0:06:47.960 --> 0:06:50.640 So then I was like I said yes on the 0:06:50.720 --> 0:06:56.560 spot right there. 0:06:58.000 --> 0:07:02.719 Yeah, I like literally because it was like kind of 0:07:02.800 --> 0:07:05.520 I don't even know, like what, I don't even know 0:07:05.520 --> 0:07:07.040 what the rules are technically, but. 0:07:09.440 --> 0:07:11.120 Rules the rules. 0:07:11.600 --> 0:07:15.640 We followed all the rules obviously, but I remember like 0:07:15.760 --> 0:07:18.680 telling my mom. I was like, Mom, I'm pretty sure 0:07:18.800 --> 0:07:19.760 they offered me. 0:07:20.040 --> 0:07:22.560 She was like, you're what, like, you're pretty what do 0:07:22.640 --> 0:07:25.560 you mean You're pretty sure? And then we ended up 0:07:25.640 --> 0:07:28.320 because like I couldn't even like remember, like I completely 0:07:28.400 --> 0:07:31.360 was like just so taken back. And then we like 0:07:31.440 --> 0:07:35.520 had a meeting, talked about everything, and then we're actually 0:07:35.560 --> 0:07:37.720 like left and I got to the like elevator and 0:07:37.720 --> 0:07:38.760 I was like I want to say yes. 0:07:38.840 --> 0:07:39.040 Mom. 0:07:39.080 --> 0:07:40.720 She's like, why do you Why don't you tell them? 0:07:40.760 --> 0:07:42.200 I was like, well, I don't know, like am I 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:44.720 am I allowed to? You're just gonna like let me 0:07:44.840 --> 0:07:47.760 and find me. I was fourteen years old, like I 0:07:47.760 --> 0:07:52.080 didn't get but yeah, so then it just, yeah, it 0:07:52.160 --> 0:07:55.280 just happened, and luckily it was a good decision. 0:07:56.200 --> 0:07:58.600 Yea come true. 0:07:58.920 --> 0:07:59.240 You know. 0:08:00.360 --> 0:08:02.480 Can we start though, from a little before that, like 0:08:02.680 --> 0:08:06.320 what was your volleyball experience growing up and tell us 0:08:06.280 --> 0:08:08.960 where you're from and everything about you and start at birth, 0:08:12.920 --> 0:08:14.120 when did you start playing? 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:15.200 And where are you from? 0:08:15.480 --> 0:08:20.120 Okay, I'm from Sterling, Illinois, so it's kind of a 0:08:20.200 --> 0:08:25.920 smaller town, only like fourteen thousand people. And then I started. 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:31.840 Playing when I was I think seven. I had an 0:08:31.880 --> 0:08:34.600 older sister, she was four years older than me, and 0:08:35.320 --> 0:08:37.760 it was pretty much like she was always at practices, 0:08:37.920 --> 0:08:40.360 so then I was always at her practices and just 0:08:40.440 --> 0:08:45.480 kind of ended up classic yeah, classic playing peppering against 0:08:45.520 --> 0:08:47.520 the wall. And then I was like, mom, can I play? 0:08:47.559 --> 0:08:50.480 And there wasn't really like any teams at our club 0:08:50.559 --> 0:08:52.280 that was like that young, so like I had to 0:08:52.320 --> 0:08:56.040 wait a little while, and then eventually my sister and 0:08:56.080 --> 0:08:59.719 I ended up going to Sports Performance. I don't know 0:08:59.760 --> 0:09:04.000 if you guys know that club in like the suburbs area. 0:09:04.120 --> 0:09:06.200 So then we ended up my sister and I and 0:09:06.200 --> 0:09:09.120 then our family of course would have to drive us 0:09:09.240 --> 0:09:12.680 like an hour and a half to go to practices. 0:09:12.320 --> 0:09:16.160 And dedication, come back and yeah, do all that stuff. 0:09:16.280 --> 0:09:28.120 And then Nebraska all this times literally and yeah, like 0:09:28.800 --> 0:09:30.640 oh like I'm that bitch, like I'm the ship. 0:09:30.640 --> 0:09:32.120 Moment we were like you know what, like I'm actually 0:09:32.120 --> 0:09:33.760 pretty good at this. When was that like moment for you? 0:09:35.240 --> 0:09:40.440 I would say, hmm f Sauna, you can be real. 0:09:41.840 --> 0:09:46.440 I already I don't know because I I always was 0:09:46.480 --> 0:09:48.760 like a big dreamer, Like I was like, oh, I 0:09:48.800 --> 0:09:51.360 want to do all like all this stuff, but like 0:09:51.679 --> 0:09:52.120 I don't know. 0:09:52.280 --> 0:09:54.440 My mom would try and keep me humble of like, Okay, 0:09:54.559 --> 0:09:57.120 let's look at what's actually possible. 0:09:57.240 --> 0:09:58.600 Not that it wasn't. 0:09:58.280 --> 0:10:01.120 Possible, but yeah, you gotta you need someone to keep 0:10:01.160 --> 0:10:01.480 you home. O. 0:10:01.600 --> 0:10:04.360 Gosh, you're so normal. She's such a normal, like humble spirit. 0:10:04.520 --> 0:10:08.079 Like we was delusional. What do you mean I'm go anywhere? 0:10:08.200 --> 0:10:10.240 I'm better at her? Yeah? 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:13.520 That was that was not me, Like I did not 0:10:13.679 --> 0:10:16.400 really think that like that would really be possible. 0:10:16.559 --> 0:10:19.120 My sister, she was older than me. Obviously we were 0:10:19.120 --> 0:10:21.360 both going to this club, but we were like we 0:10:21.400 --> 0:10:24.040 don't even know. She'll get to like get a scholarship 0:10:24.080 --> 0:10:26.080 to go to college. Like that was like a big deal, 0:10:26.200 --> 0:10:29.600 just like getting a scholarship for her. And so I 0:10:29.640 --> 0:10:32.800 think like once she kind of did that and committed 0:10:32.920 --> 0:10:36.079 and like all that stuff, then I think that's when 0:10:36.160 --> 0:10:38.400 I was like, oh, okay, like I think I think 0:10:38.400 --> 0:10:42.160 I can do this too. So she was like seventeen, 0:10:42.600 --> 0:10:45.599 sixteen seventeen, so I was, yeah, like thirteen. 0:10:46.160 --> 0:10:47.600 And she kind of paid the way for you. 0:10:48.280 --> 0:10:50.080 Yeah, for sure. 0:10:57.400 --> 0:10:59.600 How do you feel like it was when you got 0:10:59.679 --> 0:11:02.400 to the Rasca. Was that a shock for you? 0:11:03.600 --> 0:11:05.719 Like when I first got to college. 0:11:05.480 --> 0:11:07.520 Because now you're like, I'm a little verable. I didn't 0:11:07.520 --> 0:11:09.880 even know I was gonna like get a scholarship, and 0:11:09.960 --> 0:11:10.440 now I'm. 0:11:10.320 --> 0:11:13.040 I ain't supposed to be here are some of those 0:11:13.080 --> 0:11:13.600 big dogs? 0:11:13.600 --> 0:11:15.240 Well, like what how was that? 0:11:16.080 --> 0:11:16.320 Yeah? 0:11:16.360 --> 0:11:21.280 I was very very like very scary, Like I was 0:11:21.360 --> 0:11:22.800 so I'm gonna be so honest. 0:11:22.840 --> 0:11:23.480 I was so. 0:11:23.320 --> 0:11:27.800 Scared and like it was during the like COVID year, 0:11:28.640 --> 0:11:33.800 so like Lauren Stiffrance and Lexis Son who were supposed 0:11:33.800 --> 0:11:37.040 to be like not like oh you were supposed to 0:11:37.040 --> 0:11:38.839 be gone, but like I was like, oh, I'll never 0:11:38.880 --> 0:11:40.960 get to like play with them like people I kind 0:11:40.960 --> 0:11:43.440 of like admired, and then they were going to be 0:11:43.559 --> 0:11:47.280 there for my freshman year. So I was like crapping myself, 0:11:47.320 --> 0:11:49.000 like I was like, oh my God, like I have 0:11:49.240 --> 0:11:52.079 I have to I get to play with Laurence Stifferance 0:11:52.160 --> 0:11:54.960 like so yeah, I was definitely like. 0:11:54.880 --> 0:11:58.400 A very like I don't know what I'm doing here 0:11:58.600 --> 0:12:01.720 type of vibe for that first year, and. 0:12:01.640 --> 0:12:03.440 Even like when they were like, Okay, you're gonna be 0:12:03.600 --> 0:12:07.120 this starting Liberro, like the whole year it was just 0:12:07.160 --> 0:12:09.240 like a are you guys sure? 0:12:10.120 --> 0:12:10.640 Like I don't. 0:12:11.559 --> 0:12:15.240 I'd not like I believed in myself, but it's just 0:12:15.280 --> 0:12:17.720 like I don't know. You get to that stage you're like, 0:12:17.760 --> 0:12:19.440 I don't know if I can do it at this. 0:12:19.440 --> 0:12:23.000 Level, then yeah, do you feel like do you feel 0:12:23.000 --> 0:12:23.200 like that? 0:12:23.520 --> 0:12:25.040 When do you feel like you grew into that where 0:12:25.040 --> 0:12:28.600 you're like, Okay, now I'm not Nebraska. I've finally built 0:12:28.600 --> 0:12:32.520 this belief in myself and you've proved yourself like Postress 0:12:32.520 --> 0:12:35.400 for near obviously, but like, how do you feel like 0:12:35.440 --> 0:12:38.000 you got to that point of being able to believe 0:12:38.000 --> 0:12:40.320 in yourself and maybe not feeling the like kind of 0:12:40.320 --> 0:12:42.560 imposter syndrome, which like I feel like we've all felt. 0:12:42.600 --> 0:12:43.600 I felt that even when I. 0:12:43.559 --> 0:12:46.560 Went overseas, because you're like, yeah, these people are way 0:12:46.600 --> 0:12:47.080 better than me. 0:12:47.640 --> 0:12:54.040 Yes, I would say I didn't like completely like believe 0:12:54.160 --> 0:12:56.720 that I belonged there or felt that I belonged there 0:12:56.720 --> 0:12:58.880 at whatever you want to call it until like my 0:12:59.000 --> 0:13:01.880 junior year, but I feel like it was mostly credit 0:13:01.960 --> 0:13:05.560 to like the coaches I had, and specifically like all 0:13:05.600 --> 0:13:08.240 the assistants that I worked with. You just know when 0:13:08.280 --> 0:13:09.959 you have a coach who you can like feel they 0:13:10.000 --> 0:13:13.640 believe in you. And to me it was like Tyler 0:13:13.679 --> 0:13:17.160 Hildebrand and then Jalen Reyes, who is there my entire 0:13:17.240 --> 0:13:17.800 four years. 0:13:17.840 --> 0:13:23.360 And obviously, like you you get awards and stuff and 0:13:23.440 --> 0:13:25.520 like but to me, like that almost like would make 0:13:25.520 --> 0:13:27.839 it worse because then I would be like, I don't 0:13:28.640 --> 0:13:31.960 I don't know why I'm like getting this like stuff 0:13:32.000 --> 0:13:34.480 like that. So it wasn't until like later. 0:13:34.880 --> 0:13:37.200 That's interesting too, I feel like special, like this generation 0:13:37.280 --> 0:13:39.319 for volleyball, and this is not on paper, it's going 0:13:39.320 --> 0:13:41.520 off with my brain, but like I feel like a 0:13:41.559 --> 0:13:44.920 lot of players around you, guys like I guess generation 0:13:45.000 --> 0:13:47.360 of Airplane have struggled with that like kind of mental 0:13:47.679 --> 0:13:50.280 aspect bars like am I good enough for almost second 0:13:50.320 --> 0:13:52.760 guests in yourself? And like that's been a big struggle. 0:13:52.800 --> 0:13:54.400 I think that's kind of where this whole wave of 0:13:54.480 --> 0:13:56.000 like mental health has kind of set. 0:13:55.840 --> 0:13:58.440 Into for volleyball. I would say, because for us it. 0:13:58.440 --> 0:14:03.000 Was like I mean I'm humble too, but you know 0:14:03.120 --> 0:14:04.880 that was never a thought for me, you know what 0:14:04.960 --> 0:14:08.559 i mean, Like I never one of one, you know, 0:14:08.720 --> 0:14:10.160 like you're too mad at you know what I'm saying, 0:14:10.240 --> 0:14:13.040 Like we like you know you can it's not even 0:14:13.040 --> 0:14:15.280 about alcoholades you can look around and be like, oh yeah, 0:14:15.480 --> 0:14:19.120 I'm killing you, Like yeah, you ain't even get dead dead. 0:14:19.200 --> 0:14:21.080 The tournament's dead dead. You know what I'm saying. It 0:14:21.120 --> 0:14:22.600 was never like a thought. 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:24.240 I think that's one thing that's about being my pro 0:14:24.320 --> 0:14:26.400 life too and as an adult, Like the biggest thing 0:14:26.400 --> 0:14:27.960 I like I would try to give back, especially to 0:14:28.000 --> 0:14:29.840 you you girls are coming up, is like I want 0:14:29.840 --> 0:14:31.880 to be able to like find my own way of 0:14:31.880 --> 0:14:33.920 teaching you guys that like has had that confidence and 0:14:33.960 --> 0:14:36.600 have your your hold your head high because like volleyball 0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:39.520 is just like such a small part of your life, 0:14:39.560 --> 0:14:40.800 you know what I mean, And you're able to take 0:14:40.840 --> 0:14:42.440 all these things you've learned now and take them into 0:14:42.440 --> 0:14:44.360 your real life, like when you're gonna be a wife, 0:14:44.400 --> 0:14:45.640 when you're going to be a parent, you know what 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:48.480 I'm saying. So like you are and I just hope 0:14:48.480 --> 0:14:50.520 you continue doing that. And I'm assuming even now with 0:14:50.560 --> 0:14:53.040 all those accolades and all those awards that like. 0:14:53.240 --> 0:14:56.240 You pop in your like you're doing right now you. 0:14:56.200 --> 0:15:02.560 Know, yeah, oh I appreciate that. Yeah, I definitely yeah, I. 0:15:02.560 --> 0:15:08.440 Don't know, yes, like you need to Yeah, but. 0:15:09.080 --> 0:15:11.760 It is so real, Like Cat, I feel in college 0:15:11.800 --> 0:15:13.080 like I was very similar to you. 0:15:13.120 --> 0:15:14.920 I didn't care about anyone else. I was like I'm 0:15:14.920 --> 0:15:17.320 gonna play, not gonna play. And then going abroad was 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:19.120 when it started to feel that a lot, because I 0:15:19.200 --> 0:15:23.080 was like everybody is now my caliber and I have 0:15:23.200 --> 0:15:25.880 to match up or like I'm gonna be fired. Yeah, 0:15:25.880 --> 0:15:28.600 and that was super stressful for me, so very similar. 0:15:28.640 --> 0:15:30.880 I was like do I belong here? And then the 0:15:30.920 --> 0:15:33.280 accolades come, but you're like, well I don't think I 0:15:33.320 --> 0:15:36.000 deserve that, but thank you anyway. And now I have 0:15:36.080 --> 0:15:38.040 to find a way to like I'm fighting my own brain, 0:15:38.120 --> 0:15:40.520 but I am still performing well, so like how. 0:15:40.400 --> 0:15:42.800 Do I It makes sense? But it's so hard. 0:15:43.120 --> 0:15:45.160 Yeah, And that's a lot of personal growth too, especially 0:15:45.200 --> 0:15:47.040 just in that part of our lives being overseas, because 0:15:47.040 --> 0:15:48.600 you're forced to do It's like if I don't change 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:51.160 my mindset about myself or like what I'm thinking, this 0:15:51.200 --> 0:15:52.720 is going to cost me my job. You know, this 0:15:52.800 --> 0:15:54.480 is like my lifestyle and my living, like you know, 0:15:54.520 --> 0:15:57.240 whether you're first get that first check and being fresh 0:15:57.320 --> 0:15:59.320 rookies overseas. What I'm saying, so like we had to 0:15:59.360 --> 0:16:01.720 like be in those vim and change that mindset fast, 0:16:01.760 --> 0:16:04.280 you know, So kudos to you, and like you're so 0:16:04.520 --> 0:16:06.680 young and you still have so many great things ahead 0:16:06.680 --> 0:16:07.280 of you. 0:16:07.080 --> 0:16:08.120 Like and it's gonna be hard. 0:16:08.160 --> 0:16:09.720 Doesn't say it's gonna get easier, you know what I mean, 0:16:09.720 --> 0:16:12.040 you STI gonna have those challenges, but like keep remembering 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:13.920 this experience and being like, hey, you know what, I 0:16:13.920 --> 0:16:14.760 got through this mountain. 0:16:14.840 --> 0:16:16.520 Here comes the next one. I'm getting over this one too, 0:16:16.560 --> 0:16:17.080 you know what I mean? 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:20.080 Seriously, Yeah, yeah, I appreciate that. 0:16:20.240 --> 0:16:25.960 Really, we'll support Yeah, we'll support you. After that, I'm 0:16:26.000 --> 0:16:26.640 ticking on your. 0:16:29.280 --> 0:16:32.440 Do you feel like do you feel like now playing 0:16:32.520 --> 0:16:35.600 pro so we'll transition to that. I do feel like 0:16:35.640 --> 0:16:38.640 a similar vibe of like, I don't know if you 0:16:39.120 --> 0:16:40.720 want to talk about this, but like what was your 0:16:40.760 --> 0:16:44.040 mindset kind of going now shifting into playing professionally? 0:16:44.640 --> 0:16:46.800 Because yeah, for sure. 0:16:47.080 --> 0:16:50.200 Yeah, I would say me as a person now like 0:16:50.320 --> 0:16:54.680 has more of that like work life balance, whatever whatever 0:16:54.680 --> 0:16:56.600 you want to call it. Of like I can go, 0:16:56.920 --> 0:17:01.480 I'm not obviously amazing at it, but like more being 0:17:01.520 --> 0:17:04.639 able to separate the volleyball part from my life part 0:17:04.720 --> 0:17:07.800 and I just have like things outside of it and 0:17:08.000 --> 0:17:10.760 ways to kind of get through the. 0:17:10.800 --> 0:17:14.560 Rough patches or whatever. But I would say it's. 0:17:13.760 --> 0:17:17.080 Still fairly similar to like when I first got to college. 0:17:17.119 --> 0:17:20.760 Now it's like, okay, now I'm first going into like 0:17:20.880 --> 0:17:23.680 professional volleyball, Like I always knew it was going to 0:17:23.760 --> 0:17:27.879 be harder and faster and more competitive, and everyone's kind 0:17:27.880 --> 0:17:31.640 of at this caliber, and yeah, like I'm it's definitely 0:17:31.640 --> 0:17:36.200 been a challenge, but I've also been honestly just trying 0:17:36.240 --> 0:17:39.920 to like learn a lot because I feel like there's 0:17:39.960 --> 0:17:44.760 no better time than like when you're fresh into it 0:17:44.840 --> 0:17:46.960 then to be like okay, like hit me with whatever, 0:17:47.160 --> 0:17:50.879 like obviously like okay, I'm exposed if like this is 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:53.479 a weakness, like okay, like let's get better at it. 0:17:53.560 --> 0:17:57.240 So I definitely have a more healthier relationship with like 0:17:57.880 --> 0:18:00.520 this challenge than I did when I first got to college. 0:18:01.000 --> 0:18:02.919 All I hate seeing and do you like what was 0:18:02.960 --> 0:18:04.560 your process with love? 0:18:04.760 --> 0:18:05.439 How did you know? 0:18:05.640 --> 0:18:07.200 Did you want to play pro or did you know 0:18:07.240 --> 0:18:08.880 that you wanted to play pro at all? 0:18:09.840 --> 0:18:13.480 Yeah, I would say I always knew, like since I 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:16.200 got to Nebraska in college that I wanted to play pro. 0:18:16.680 --> 0:18:20.439 I kind of always mentally prepared that I would have 0:18:20.560 --> 0:18:25.600 to like go overseas somewhere, didn't really nowhere, like obviously, 0:18:25.640 --> 0:18:29.760 I know, everyone kind of starts in different places. And 0:18:29.800 --> 0:18:33.680 then I would say once I heard about love like my. 0:18:35.200 --> 0:18:38.280 Sophomore junior year, so I think it was my sophomore year. 0:18:38.359 --> 0:18:40.840 Then I was like, okay, like I I hope this 0:18:41.000 --> 0:18:42.960 is like I hope this is a thing, like once 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:45.199 I'm like out of college. And then it kind of 0:18:45.240 --> 0:18:48.920 just like lined up perfectly, and they had an opportunity 0:18:49.000 --> 0:18:51.080 for me to stay in Nebraska, and I was like, 0:18:51.119 --> 0:18:52.400 I'm not going to. 0:18:52.320 --> 0:18:53.040 Pass that up. 0:18:53.240 --> 0:18:55.879 Like this is has become a new home for me. 0:18:56.080 --> 0:18:57.760 So it was kind of perfect. 0:18:58.000 --> 0:19:03.200 Yeah. It's like he was like, you come to Omaha, 0:19:03.280 --> 0:19:04.720 You're like, yeah, I'm playing. 0:19:05.320 --> 0:19:08.200 Yeah, so what do you feel like The biggest adjustment 0:19:08.400 --> 0:19:12.000 was then going from collegiate to progre it's last year, 0:19:12.480 --> 0:19:13.160 Oh boy. 0:19:15.480 --> 0:19:19.960 I would just say, honestly, like just the speed, Like 0:19:20.520 --> 0:19:22.679 every I feel like every time you go to like 0:19:22.840 --> 0:19:25.720 from this to this or this to this, like just 0:19:26.080 --> 0:19:29.040 when it gets faster and people are more physical and 0:19:29.520 --> 0:19:33.119 have been playing for years and years overseas in the 0:19:33.160 --> 0:19:36.720 top leagues. And then I was coming off playing in 0:19:37.080 --> 0:19:39.399 college in the Big ten, and I was like, okay, 0:19:39.520 --> 0:19:40.960 like this is different. 0:19:41.040 --> 0:19:44.119 It's hard, but it was good. I liked it, and like, 0:19:44.240 --> 0:19:46.440 looking back, I am. 0:19:46.240 --> 0:19:48.840 Pretty grateful that I kind of just got to like 0:19:49.240 --> 0:19:52.679 sit back and kind of learn from Justine and just 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:56.399