WEBVTT - Scout Sobel: The Emotional Entrepreneur

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<v Speaker 1>Carol, she's queen and talking if she's getting not afraid

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<v Speaker 1>of feel it, so just let it flow. No one

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<v Speaker 1>can with cry car learn this sounds care learned. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I am here with the woman, the myth, the legend,

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<v Speaker 1>all of the things Scout sobel she You've just created

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<v Speaker 1>so much credible. You've dreamed up so much. You're such

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<v Speaker 1>an entrepreneur to the point where you are releasing a book.

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<v Speaker 1>But what I love about you so much is you

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<v Speaker 1>are a badass business woman crushing it and like making

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<v Speaker 1>so much money and changing women's lives and doing all

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<v Speaker 1>this stuff. But like you are fully invested in your

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<v Speaker 1>emotions and like putting leading with that, and you don't

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<v Speaker 1>try to just like be this corporate, bold business person.

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<v Speaker 1>You're like all about your feelings and you have a

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<v Speaker 1>big journey. So I started working with you because you

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<v Speaker 1>run a network called Scouts Agency, where you pretty much

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<v Speaker 1>have kind of women who collaborate with you and you

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<v Speaker 1>get them on podcasts, you get there, you get them branding,

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<v Speaker 1>and you crush and like the guests that you have

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<v Speaker 1>brought me have been some of my favorite interviews. Loved them.

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<v Speaker 1>But you have had a long journey to get here,

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<v Speaker 1>so kind of talk to me about your half. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so before we start recurring, I was like, it's so

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<v Speaker 1>good to see you in person, because collaborating with you

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<v Speaker 1>has been the best over the last two years. And

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you know firsthand that we don't talk corporate

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<v Speaker 1>lingo in our emails. And sometimes when I get a

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<v Speaker 1>new employee, UM, I will literally slack her and me like,

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<v Speaker 1>can you add more warmth to that email? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>just because I really believe in human connection and all

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<v Speaker 1>that we do. But where I started, so I suppose,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, dreaming of all of this, running Scouts Agency,

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<v Speaker 1>co hosting O Cases podcast, hosting Scout podcast, coming out

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<v Speaker 1>with my book, The Emotional Entrepreneur is probably not the

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<v Speaker 1>destination people thought that I would kind of end up

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<v Speaker 1>A long time ago. When I was fourteen, I had

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<v Speaker 1>my first suppressive episode and then I was formally diagnosed

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<v Speaker 1>with bi polar disorder. At the age of twenty, I

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<v Speaker 1>dropped out of what is a depressive episode? How do

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<v Speaker 1>you know when you're having? So I'm sure you know

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<v Speaker 1>when you're having. For me, specifically, it looked like just

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<v Speaker 1>a complete dip in mood that lasted a couple of months,

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<v Speaker 1>I stopped taking care of myself. I stopped putting myself

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<v Speaker 1>together for school. You know, I was freshman in high school. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I started utilizing all these things to try and control

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<v Speaker 1>you know, uh, either not eating or been ing and purging.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't suffer from a needing disorder, but it was

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<v Speaker 1>a way that I kind of attempted to have emotional

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<v Speaker 1>control over what was happening to me. I was self harming,

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<v Speaker 1>I was isolating, and I became very apparent to my

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<v Speaker 1>loved ones and to my friends and family. So I

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<v Speaker 1>knew pretty off the bat, and then my physical appearance

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<v Speaker 1>reflected that in interchange. And then once news of the

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<v Speaker 1>self harm and the restricting avinging came out, my parents

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<v Speaker 1>put me in therapy and it was you know, let

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<v Speaker 1>me see, I'm terrible at math. But it was about

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<v Speaker 1>six years until I was diagnosed officially after going to therapy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was really the only friend of mine in therapy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I don't remember really receiving quite judgment around it. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>my friends made funny at times for being the more

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<v Speaker 1>sensitive one, for being the one that's a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>more emotional, and so it was always kind of known

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<v Speaker 1>that I struggle a little bit. Internally, I was known

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<v Speaker 1>for taking ridiculous amounts of mental health days. I would

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<v Speaker 1>just leave um my mom wrote me notes out, or

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes I would just skip school constantly, just to feel

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<v Speaker 1>alone and enter into my own little world. But I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't really until I got formally diagnosed, or I should

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<v Speaker 1>say it wasn't really until I left for college that

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<v Speaker 1>the symptoms became to a point where I couldn't just

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<v Speaker 1>you could have just tracked me up to teenage hormones anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>It was really something more that was happening in my brain.

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<v Speaker 1>And I started developing paranoia that men were following me home,

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<v Speaker 1>they were in my car, under my bed. I was

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<v Speaker 1>very quickly losing touch with reality, and I remember calling

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<v Speaker 1>my dad crying from the balcony of my apartment at college, saying,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, something's going on here, and him even thinking

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<v Speaker 1>to himself, Okay, well, is this just her being sensitive

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<v Speaker 1>to the fact that she left home, the fact that

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<v Speaker 1>her you know, my parents had just gotten divorced, or

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<v Speaker 1>is something bigger happening to my daughter? And uh, something

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<v Speaker 1>bigger was happening to me, which resulted in years of

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<v Speaker 1>psychiatric medication. Different healing modalities. I unfortunately dropped out of

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<v Speaker 1>college right when I was diagnosed. It was just, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I was this was ten years ago, nine years ago,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think Instagram had just started. Pashtag self care

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't a thing when they called, when they said I

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<v Speaker 1>was my polar, I was like, my life's sucking over,

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<v Speaker 1>Like that's it. I'm crazy. I'm done for right. It

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<v Speaker 1>feels so scary. It doesn't anymore. But like what you're saying,

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<v Speaker 1>I had a bipolar roommate when I was in college,

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<v Speaker 1>and I remember thinking like I had never met anyone

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<v Speaker 1>who was bipolar, and I didn't understand what it meant.

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<v Speaker 1>And living with her I did get to understand, and

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<v Speaker 1>medication helped her a lot. But like it is, it

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<v Speaker 1>is scary because like it wasn't so talked about before

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<v Speaker 1>social Yeah, and so you know, I always say, my

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<v Speaker 1>husband's in recovery. He's ten years sober, and for for

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<v Speaker 1>his specific mental health issue, which is addiction, there was

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<v Speaker 1>a place for him to go. There was a rehab,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you you go to detox, and then you

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<v Speaker 1>go to rehab, and you go to sober living and

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<v Speaker 1>then you have the rooms in the meeting. There was

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<v Speaker 1>no structure for people who just struggled from mental illnesses

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<v Speaker 1>on a general spectrum, and so I went through a

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<v Speaker 1>period of my life where I was unfunctioning. I quit

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<v Speaker 1>every single job I started. I couldn't even be a hostess,

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<v Speaker 1>I couldn't hold a minimum wage job, I quit the internships, everything.

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<v Speaker 1>And it really wasn't until I started dating my now

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<v Speaker 1>husband then boyfriend, who looked at me and said, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't care if you're depressed. If you're depressed and hopeful,

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<v Speaker 1>I can be in this relationship. If you're depressed and hopeless,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't be here. That's it was a big moment

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<v Speaker 1>for me. And it was the moment that I started

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<v Speaker 1>taking my healing into my own hands, getting really really

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<v Speaker 1>honest about my responsibility in the entire situation where I

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<v Speaker 1>actually had control and where I did it, what narratives

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<v Speaker 1>were holding me back, where depression was keeping me comfortable.

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<v Speaker 1>And that was at the age of twenty one, and

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<v Speaker 1>I've been on a pretty radical healing journey ever since.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm sure we'll get into it, but finding onto

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<v Speaker 1>prenewership was the thing that allowed me to be functioning

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<v Speaker 1>in society when psychiatrist, therapists and doctors were having conversations

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<v Speaker 1>with me and my parents and loved ones where we

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know what I would amount to. Essentially like hard

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<v Speaker 1>to grasp in your mind, to sit here and to

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<v Speaker 1>know like you probably have just like two totally different

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<v Speaker 1>worlds that you're living because when the but I don't

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know anything really about bipolar. So but when

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<v Speaker 1>you're in the midst of what do you is it

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<v Speaker 1>like an episode or so I'm type two, so Type

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<v Speaker 1>one leans more towards mania, and I lead more towards

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<v Speaker 1>towards depression. So I have hypomania, which I don't really

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<v Speaker 1>talk about too much because quite honestly, it's really fun

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<v Speaker 1>and not really that dangerous for me. Um Yeah, it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of just feels like I'm, you know, a little

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<v Speaker 1>high on life for a little bit, and I have energy,

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<v Speaker 1>and my steering wheel feels amazing when I'm driving, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's great because it hasn't my hypomania never got to

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<v Speaker 1>a point and hasn't gotten to a point where it's dangerous, right,

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<v Speaker 1>It's just kind of a momentary, repped up viewpoint of life.

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<v Speaker 1>Um So, my episodes are really when I just plummet

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<v Speaker 1>down really really quickly that after the hypermania. Hypermania is yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, my my cycles have changed over the years.

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<v Speaker 1>They used to be people can rapid cycle, which means

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<v Speaker 1>they can go in between feeling high and low very

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<v Speaker 1>quickly within the day, within the hour, et cetera. Mine

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<v Speaker 1>were more long, so I would go into depressive episodes

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<v Speaker 1>for like three months at a time. It felt like

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<v Speaker 1>every three months was kind of the way I faced

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<v Speaker 1>And I mean, that's not true for my life today.

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<v Speaker 1>But I was not such a rapid cycler. I was

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<v Speaker 1>more like a long term cycler. What you know, what

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<v Speaker 1>provokes the cycle? You know, back then, when I had

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<v Speaker 1>such long, outstanding cycles, there was a lot in me

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<v Speaker 1>that I wasn't taking care of myself. So responsibility was

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<v Speaker 1>a trigger for me significantly, like having to show up somewhere,

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<v Speaker 1>having to do something. Social events were triggers, traveling with triggers,

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<v Speaker 1>basically anything that really had to do with me extending

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<v Speaker 1>out of my comfort zone, putting myself out there and

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<v Speaker 1>actually figuring out my life. So that's why I always

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<v Speaker 1>say my bipolar disorder and depression kept me so comfortable

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<v Speaker 1>and that I really became addicted to that state of

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<v Speaker 1>mind because I didn't have to do anything. I could

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<v Speaker 1>cancel last minute and my friends would be like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a mental health thing, like she's sick, right, or

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<v Speaker 1>I could not take them minimum wage job and just

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<v Speaker 1>like live at my mom's house. It was a way

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<v Speaker 1>for me to not look at my life in the

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<v Speaker 1>eye and say, Okay, I'm here and I'm a human

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<v Speaker 1>and this was the cards that I was dealt, and

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<v Speaker 1>if I don't take radical responsibility over them, and if

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<v Speaker 1>I don't stop saying, well, that's not fair because Sally

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<v Speaker 1>down the street just went to college and got a

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<v Speaker 1>job and it's fine, and I can't figure out why

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<v Speaker 1>I can't get out of bed. I need to ditch

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<v Speaker 1>that narrative today because it doesn't serve me. It doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>hurt Sally, it hurts me. And once I was able

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<v Speaker 1>to really really just accept that this is what I have,

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<v Speaker 1>this is what I was born with, and not only

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<v Speaker 1>this is what I was born with, but that I

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<v Speaker 1>was born with it for a very divine purpose and reason.

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<v Speaker 1>I was not accidentally born with emotions that overflow into

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<v Speaker 1>dark corners for no reason. And so once I stopped

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<v Speaker 1>playing a passive bystanderd in my life. And once I

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<v Speaker 1>assumed the responsibility for my disorder and my illness, I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't hand it off to my parents. I didn't hand

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<v Speaker 1>it off to my psychiatrist or the medication or any

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<v Speaker 1>of that. UM was when I started realizing that I

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<v Speaker 1>am so much more in control than I ever thought.

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<v Speaker 1>That the narrative that was given to me as someone

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<v Speaker 1>with the mental illness was one of playing small and

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<v Speaker 1>helpelessness and victimhood, and it's just not the narrative that

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<v Speaker 1>that got me anywhere. And so once I had that

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<v Speaker 1>mindset shift within, it didn't mean that I didn't experience

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<v Speaker 1>heavy depression, catatonia, psychosis, I hear voices in my head.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't mean that I don't experience that or haven't

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<v Speaker 1>after making that decision over my life. It's just that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm willing to bear it in the pursuit of other things.

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<v Speaker 1>That's amazing. And that's like a big deal with someone

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<v Speaker 1>diagnoses title on this label and says this is what

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<v Speaker 1>are this is what you probably will amount to? This

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<v Speaker 1>is it? I mean, that's like a huge, huge statement

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<v Speaker 1>for someone to say that. And like, I know doctors,

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<v Speaker 1>medical professionals as their job to like diagnose and stuff that. Like,

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<v Speaker 1>I always struggle with people giving such definite answer to

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<v Speaker 1>what someone is and what they based on circumstances that

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<v Speaker 1>are being presented, because, like you, I believe that anyone

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<v Speaker 1>can amount to anything if they are given their correct

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<v Speaker 1>tools and find the right avenue, which what you said,

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<v Speaker 1>you and given their support. You figured out that entrepreneurship

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<v Speaker 1>was a part of your healing. I mean the fact

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<v Speaker 1>that you figured that out. That's not a doctor would

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<v Speaker 1>never die and give you that as part of your cure.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean that's what you went on a search and

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<v Speaker 1>found it. Like and how how did how does being

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<v Speaker 1>an entrepreneur and spcifically an emotional entrepreneur is your self

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<v Speaker 1>titled book and you're in who you are? How how

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<v Speaker 1>has that helped you in being bipolar? What has that

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<v Speaker 1>done for? So? Entrepreneurship just gave me a framework where

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<v Speaker 1>my bipolar could play everything else my bipolar would flare

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<v Speaker 1>up and take me down. You know. Working as a hostess,

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<v Speaker 1>I could call my psychiatrist and take get a note

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<v Speaker 1>to leave work earlier, not show up. I couldn't handle authority.

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<v Speaker 1>There was just so many things that I didn't fit

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<v Speaker 1>into the box. Seven. When I don't fit into the

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<v Speaker 1>box of something or when something is out of alignment

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<v Speaker 1>to this day, my depression will flare up so bad

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<v Speaker 1>that it'll it'll force me to course correct. So don't

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<v Speaker 1>shut you down, like when you feel like overwhelmed and overburdened,

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<v Speaker 1>and like when like authority, like you're saying it kind

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<v Speaker 1>of shut you down. I'll make a distinction here. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not when I feel overwhelmed or overburdened by things. It's

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<v Speaker 1>when the things on my plate aren't things that light

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<v Speaker 1>me up. Okay, Okay. So I get overwhelmed constantly with

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<v Speaker 1>Scouts Agency, and I'm like, I'll take it all day

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<v Speaker 1>long because this is my dream and this is an

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<v Speaker 1>alignment for me. So the moment I found entrepreneurship, at

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<v Speaker 1>that point, I had garnered up some strength. I was

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<v Speaker 1>working a part time job as a barista. I was

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<v Speaker 1>like in one or two community college classes, just like

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<v Speaker 1>dipping my toes in to see if I could start

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<v Speaker 1>my life over. And I was sitting at a coffee

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<v Speaker 1>shop with a good friend of mine and we were

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<v Speaker 1>looking at a magazine and I just said, do you

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<v Speaker 1>want to start a magazine? It just popped into my

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<v Speaker 1>head and she said yes, and we were just going

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<v Speaker 1>to print that King Goes. It was gonna be an

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<v Speaker 1>onto Craps Project eight, and we were gonna pass it

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<v Speaker 1>out to our friends for free, and my brain switched.

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<v Speaker 1>That night. I went home, I bought the domain the Instagram.

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<v Speaker 1>I researched every printer in Orange County, where I was

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<v Speaker 1>living at the time. I had then set up all

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<v Speaker 1>these meetings on every printer in a freaking fifty mile radius,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I got a quote I needed ten thousand dollars,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I did a Kickstarter and then you know,

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<v Speaker 1>our third issue were distributed across the country and Bartons

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<v Speaker 1>and Noble Emails. Meet a belista who was trying to

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<v Speaker 1>go to community college to distribute my third issue, which

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<v Speaker 1>had Halsey on the cover, and it was crazy, it

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<v Speaker 1>was And all of a sudden, I became the girl

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<v Speaker 1>who couldn't hold a minimum wage job, but I was

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<v Speaker 1>showing up and then some for my own thing. And

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<v Speaker 1>so it showed me that entrepreneurship puts so much responsibility

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<v Speaker 1>on my shoulders that I can't not show up because

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<v Speaker 1>if I don't show up, there's no one else to tap.

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<v Speaker 1>In and so that much responsibility and me having the

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<v Speaker 1>flexibilit reality and freedom to create the type of work

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<v Speaker 1>I did, the speed at which I did the work,

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<v Speaker 1>who I worked with, everything I could hand pick, just

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<v Speaker 1>literally grooved with my mind. I mean by Polar's high

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<v Speaker 1>highs low Lows Entrepreneurship High highs low Lows. I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I can do this all day long. So it was

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<v Speaker 1>in that moment and that experience running that magazine at

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<v Speaker 1>the age of twenty three, that I realized that I

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<v Speaker 1>got to do my own thing from from here on out.

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<v Speaker 1>And it sounds like you kick into like high turbo gear.

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<v Speaker 1>I do. I kick into high high turbo gear. And

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<v Speaker 1>it's I really shamed myself for it a lot. That's

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<v Speaker 1>a that's an asset. That's amazing. I think that. I

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<v Speaker 1>mean now, I mean I've always seen as an asset.

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<v Speaker 1>But sometimes you know, I think, especially as women, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure you can relate like you don't want to be

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<v Speaker 1>too intense, you don't want to be too much, and

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<v Speaker 1>so I've played that down to other people, but I

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<v Speaker 1>think people who have seen me in the zone, it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's a force, and I just don't stop. Tell me

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<v Speaker 1>how you transition from the magazin to Scouts Agency. How

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<v Speaker 1>you Scouts Agency? Because this is a very beach. I

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<v Speaker 1>always say that word wrong, niche. I want to say niche,

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<v Speaker 1>but I think that's wrong. It's niche, right, I say

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<v Speaker 1>niche because oh niche, Okay from French? You know, Okay, niche.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a very niche market that you have. And tell

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<v Speaker 1>me how I feel like you're just an ideas person.

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<v Speaker 1>When you see something and it clicks in your brain

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<v Speaker 1>and it all lines up, you're like yes, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you're like, not only yes, let me just like freaking

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<v Speaker 1>whip this together like a baller and make it awesome. Yes.

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<v Speaker 1>And I have done so many things that I've not

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<v Speaker 1>even come to fruition because sometimes I just have an

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<v Speaker 1>idea and I need to get the energy out, which

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<v Speaker 1>is probably where the mania comes from. But I after

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<v Speaker 1>starting that magazine, you know, the one thing I couldn't do,

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<v Speaker 1>or I wasn't able to at that point in my life,

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<v Speaker 1>was make it a viable business that financially made sense.

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<v Speaker 1>So beyond the Kickstarter donation of ten thousand dollars, it

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<v Speaker 1>was very difficult for me to see a situation where

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<v Speaker 1>this made money without bringing an outside investments, etcetera. And

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<v Speaker 1>at that point, like I emotionally, maturity wise, what I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted for my life, I just wasn't there. And so

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<v Speaker 1>I did a bunch of other things and I started

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<v Speaker 1>a podcast. I started Okay, so this podcast with my sister,

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<v Speaker 1>and six months into Okay so this podcast, we would

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<v Speaker 1>have all these amazing women come on our podcast, and

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<v Speaker 1>we were like, how are we taking to the Nestor

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<v Speaker 1>Grimaldi in our hotel room right now? We're just two

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<v Speaker 1>Jewish sisters from southern California who are somehow interviewing all

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<v Speaker 1>these reality TV stars and our favorite entrepreneurs from our

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<v Speaker 1>favorite brands. And so one I saw the power of

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<v Speaker 1>the network that was coming into me and my sister's

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<v Speaker 1>orbit just like five month in. And to what really

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<v Speaker 1>interested me was that when we would have a guest

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<v Speaker 1>on our podcast, our community would follow our guests on

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<v Speaker 1>Instagram by their product and roll in their courses, by

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<v Speaker 1>the book, whatever it was. And I recognized that podcasting

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<v Speaker 1>is the best form of pr period. And when I say,

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<v Speaker 1>when I recount the story, this sounds a lot more organized.

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<v Speaker 1>It was not this linear. I think I just like

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<v Speaker 1>had a bunch of ship in my head and then

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<v Speaker 1>I went for it. Um And at the time, I

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<v Speaker 1>was working for my mom, which is the next best

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<v Speaker 1>thing to being my own boss, and I really wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to get back to running my own thing, and so

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<v Speaker 1>I had a media kit made up I wrote down

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<v Speaker 1>in the beginning, I just started representing podcasters just because

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<v Speaker 1>that was the space that I came from. I created

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<v Speaker 1>myself spreadsheet of a thousand female podcasters and their emails.

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<v Speaker 1>I emailed all a thousand and my Gmail got blocks. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure people are like, who is this person? And

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<v Speaker 1>you are incredible? This is amazing. Well, I wanted clients.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I can't. I'm not you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>shouldn't say delusional. It's really the wrong word. I believe

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<v Speaker 1>that the it's a statistics game, like the more people

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<v Speaker 1>I email, the more chances I have of creating a

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<v Speaker 1>ten client roster in quitting my day job and being

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<v Speaker 1>financially successful. So I just went at it and Google

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<v Speaker 1>blocked me. My Gmail got you know, I was out

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<v Speaker 1>of my Gmail for twenty four hours. So I started

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<v Speaker 1>another Gmail account to keep emailing, and pretty soon I

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<v Speaker 1>recognized that our services, which we book high profile guests

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<v Speaker 1>if you have a podcast our bread and Butter, and

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<v Speaker 1>what we're known for is that we get women as

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<v Speaker 1>guests on podcasts and run really high profile tours for

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<v Speaker 1>people like Rebecca Mink golf Saddler of Jessica's Wide, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>Kelly Baker, Vanessa rossetto. So that's been kind of tours.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you mean by tour? So we take women

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<v Speaker 1>our clients and similar to if you were to write

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<v Speaker 1>a book and go to ten cities and do a

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<v Speaker 1>book tour, we do that, but we put them on

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<v Speaker 1>a plethora of podcast So it's for the woman who

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<v Speaker 1>really wants to get her brand and mission and voice

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<v Speaker 1>out there through podcasting. So we'll organize a whole podcast

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<v Speaker 1>tour for her where she well she'll go on out

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<v Speaker 1>of podcast Yeah, okay, got it. That's really what we're

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<v Speaker 1>known for. Um. And then we also do traditional pr

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<v Speaker 1>as well. Okay, so you email a thousand people with podcasts?

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<v Speaker 1>Are they all women? Are they all women podcasters? Mhmm? Email?

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<v Speaker 1>Was I in that list? And initially or was I

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<v Speaker 1>in like another round because I was like stoked to

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<v Speaker 1>get hooked up with it. I don't know, I have

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<v Speaker 1>to look into that you don't have to look into it.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't worry, I don't really need Okay, so you email

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<v Speaker 1>all these podcasters and then what do you tell them?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have clients yet to get on their podcasts

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<v Speaker 1>or what are you saying once you get one on

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<v Speaker 1>the hook. So the first client of mine with was

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<v Speaker 1>Kathie Heller from Don't Keep Your Day Job, which is

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<v Speaker 1>right out of the gate, a huge client. And for her,

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<v Speaker 1>I was booking guests on her podcast and I was

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<v Speaker 1>booking her as a guest on other podcasts. So that's

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<v Speaker 1>your pitch. You're like, I will get you guests for

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<v Speaker 1>your podcasts that are awesome, and I will also pitch

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<v Speaker 1>you to go on other podcasts. Yes, having no idea

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<v Speaker 1>if I could do this. By the way, UM, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't come from an agency, don't know, pr never done

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<v Speaker 1>pitching before. But here we go. Let's balls and you

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<v Speaker 1>got drive and hustle and a vision and that's all

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<v Speaker 1>it takes. That's all it takes. I mean, people, I

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<v Speaker 1>think tend to over complicate industries. Um. I think that

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<v Speaker 1>there's just so much that you can learn just by

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<v Speaker 1>trial and error, if you're willing to get into the

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<v Speaker 1>trial and error on comfortable zone. Yes, and put yourself

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<v Speaker 1>out there and be rejected by guns. But then, but

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<v Speaker 1>all you need is a few yes, is Yeah? All

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<v Speaker 1>I need is a few yes? Is so? I think

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<v Speaker 1>four months into starting I quit my day job. I

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<v Speaker 1>was making more at the agency than it was at

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<v Speaker 1>my day job. And six months in and I opened

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<v Speaker 1>up the roster to representing not just podcasters, but female entrepreneurs, authors,

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<v Speaker 1>brand up owners, et cetera. And hired my first employee

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<v Speaker 1>six months in, and now here we are two and

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<v Speaker 1>a half years later, with a team, including myself, of

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<v Speaker 1>five amazing women. Are you so proud of yourself? I

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<v Speaker 1>am so proud of me. I'm I cry a lot

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<v Speaker 1>out of pride. And why I don't hesitate to say

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<v Speaker 1>it soone apologetically, it's because I don't think we do

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<v Speaker 1>that enough with women. I I truly looked around at

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<v Speaker 1>my life and I'm in total and complete, utter off.

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<v Speaker 1>I am so grateful. I cannot believe I did this,

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<v Speaker 1>and I have so many goals for the future, and

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<v Speaker 1>I love living in both of those spaces at the

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<v Speaker 1>same time being grateful for the now and the excitement. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>is that? And do you feel like that's been the

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<v Speaker 1>best remedy and cure for dealing with bipolars. Just like

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<v Speaker 1>the all this hope, you're doing exactly what your husband said.

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<v Speaker 1>It's okay if you have most of depression as long

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<v Speaker 1>as you have hope, and you always have hope. My

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<v Speaker 1>hope turned into faith, turned into evidence that I could

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<v Speaker 1>do things. I always have hope, and at this point

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<v Speaker 1>in my life, I've just really accepted what I have

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<v Speaker 1>to do to take care of my mental illness. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel I haven't said this because I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>I can go back on it. Of course you can,

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<v Speaker 1>but I feel as if the identity of being bipolar

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<v Speaker 1>is slowly leaving me. I don't know if that is

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<v Speaker 1>so true today. You know, I experienced a catatonic episode

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<v Speaker 1>the other day and I was having really bad anxiety,

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<v Speaker 1>And what does that mean? So Canatonia is something that

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<v Speaker 1>people with bipolar very rarely experience. It's a symptom where

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<v Speaker 1>if I'm too anxious or overwhelmed, or haven't slept enough

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<v Speaker 1>for physically taking care of myself, my nervous system kind

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<v Speaker 1>of fries out and I be um. My cognitive abilities

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<v Speaker 1>really slow down. It's difficult for me to speak. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes I'll get paralyzed and I can't move, Like my

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<v Speaker 1>motor skills really slow down. So even with experiencing low

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<v Speaker 1>grade catatonia last week, you know, I've really just adopted

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<v Speaker 1>the narrative that right now I'm just human and then

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just experiencing the human emotions because I honor and

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<v Speaker 1>revere them so much, and I understand that every time

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<v Speaker 1>I have an emotional reaction to something, it's a lesson,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a mentor, it's a guiding sign, it's a warning

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<v Speaker 1>sign potentially. And I've developed such a secure relationship within

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<v Speaker 1>my emotional experience that I'm no longer afraid of it.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's huge. Yeah, one of the lessons in my

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<v Speaker 1>book is all around feeling safe in your emotions, because

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<v Speaker 1>once I realized that most of my suffering came from

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<v Speaker 1>the fear of experiencing my emotions. Okay, so tell me

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<v Speaker 1>that the fear of experience fear that they're gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>so huge that they might like kill you or not

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<v Speaker 1>like literally, but like that they might just like wipe

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<v Speaker 1>you out. Yeah. So whenever I was in a depressive episode,

0:25:10.160 --> 0:25:13.040
<v Speaker 1>my mom would say, it always passes, it always passes

0:25:13.119 --> 0:25:14.640
<v Speaker 1>and I would look at her and I would say,

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<v Speaker 1>but it comes back. I was just so focused and

0:25:19.200 --> 0:25:22.720
<v Speaker 1>scared about impending next episode that was going to hit

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<v Speaker 1>me and take me out. Was it going to ruin

0:25:24.800 --> 0:25:27.040
<v Speaker 1>this internship that I was in? Was it going to

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<v Speaker 1>ruin the trip to Paris I took with my family,

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<v Speaker 1>which it did because I left a very fancy restaurant

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<v Speaker 1>in complete tears and hyperventilating, Like my emotions ruined things

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<v Speaker 1>for me. And I shouldn't say my emotions ruined things

0:25:39.880 --> 0:25:42.679
<v Speaker 1>for me. I should say my reaction to my emotions

0:25:42.760 --> 0:25:46.639
<v Speaker 1>ruined things for me. And so once I got to

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<v Speaker 1>a point where I felt so safe in them, because

0:25:49.680 --> 0:25:52.040
<v Speaker 1>I looked at the evidence of my life and that

0:25:52.080 --> 0:25:55.840
<v Speaker 1>they've never actually permanently taken me out, They've never actually

0:25:55.880 --> 0:25:58.520
<v Speaker 1>destroyed my life. I'm still here standing as a survivor

0:25:58.560 --> 0:26:00.919
<v Speaker 1>of my emotions, which means that I will continue to

0:26:01.040 --> 0:26:04.080
<v Speaker 1>take them and experience them and survive them. I was

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<v Speaker 1>able to. I always say, like, you have anxiety, that's

0:26:07.359 --> 0:26:09.639
<v Speaker 1>your base feeling right, and then you have anxiety about

0:26:09.680 --> 0:26:13.280
<v Speaker 1>the anxiety you are suffering, like the pain is here,

0:26:13.320 --> 0:26:16.720
<v Speaker 1>it's the anxiety, but the suffering is from the anxiety.

0:26:16.760 --> 0:26:20.800
<v Speaker 1>About the anxiety, it's about the catastrophizing, it's about the resistance.

0:26:21.119 --> 0:26:22.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to feel this right now? Why am

0:26:22.840 --> 0:26:24.560
<v Speaker 1>I feeling this right now? Get this away from me.

0:26:24.680 --> 0:26:27.520
<v Speaker 1>That actually heightens. It heightens and heightens and heightens the

0:26:27.520 --> 0:26:30.280
<v Speaker 1>emotion to the point where you get so stuck and

0:26:30.320 --> 0:26:32.720
<v Speaker 1>it's so difficult to get out of it. So every

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<v Speaker 1>time I experienced anxiety, let's say, I stop what I'm doing,

0:26:36.040 --> 0:26:38.440
<v Speaker 1>I put my hand on my heart and I sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>out loud, sometimes in my mind, depending on where I am,

0:26:40.760 --> 0:26:45.240
<v Speaker 1>I'll say, I hear you, thank you for visiting me

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<v Speaker 1>right now. So you now view it as a teacher

0:26:48.160 --> 0:26:51.480
<v Speaker 1>and something to get aid and guide you. That's there

0:26:51.520 --> 0:26:55.120
<v Speaker 1>to protect you. Really, it's giving you signs, like you said, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that either some things out of alignment, that I'm exiting

0:26:58.240 --> 0:27:00.480
<v Speaker 1>my comfort zone. So it's trying to for text me

0:27:00.520 --> 0:27:02.679
<v Speaker 1>and then I can say, I know you're really scared

0:27:02.800 --> 0:27:04.399
<v Speaker 1>that I'm doing this thing, but I really got to

0:27:04.440 --> 0:27:06.800
<v Speaker 1>do this thing, so get on board. You know. I

0:27:07.160 --> 0:27:10.480
<v Speaker 1>assess if the emotion is trying to hold me back

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<v Speaker 1>from pursuing something, because it's making me grow and grows

0:27:13.760 --> 0:27:16.800
<v Speaker 1>is uncomfortable, or if it's saying, yeah, this isn't the

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<v Speaker 1>right choice for you, of course, correct, please, So it

0:27:19.600 --> 0:27:22.520
<v Speaker 1>gives you the chance to really examine, which is a

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<v Speaker 1>huge blessing before going into something a new venture or

0:27:26.160 --> 0:27:30.360
<v Speaker 1>a new situation like you really your emotions really put

0:27:30.400 --> 0:27:32.600
<v Speaker 1>you in check to examine if this is actually a

0:27:32.640 --> 0:27:35.880
<v Speaker 1>good thing for you. Yeah, incredibly you can view them

0:27:35.920 --> 0:27:38.800
<v Speaker 1>this way. Yeah, I'll say, you know, whenever I talk

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<v Speaker 1>to someone who's diagnosed with bipolar or depression or anything,

0:27:43.240 --> 0:27:44.840
<v Speaker 1>I say, I just want you to know you're one

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<v Speaker 1>of the lucky ones. Because I view myself as the

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<v Speaker 1>most lucky that I have bipolar disorder. I will never

0:27:51.119 --> 0:27:54.600
<v Speaker 1>wake up at the age of seventy and asked where

0:27:54.640 --> 0:27:57.720
<v Speaker 1>my life went, because the minute I do something that

0:27:57.920 --> 0:28:02.320
<v Speaker 1>isn't a total body yes, my disorder, my mental illness,

0:28:02.320 --> 0:28:05.200
<v Speaker 1>my emotions will flare up so significantly that they will

0:28:05.280 --> 0:28:07.560
<v Speaker 1>knock me out and I will not be able to continue.

0:28:08.040 --> 0:28:12.280
<v Speaker 1>So I have the most amazing internal compass, and I'm

0:28:12.320 --> 0:28:14.639
<v Speaker 1>talking it'll knock me out in a matter of two weeks.

0:28:15.160 --> 0:28:17.159
<v Speaker 1>I will know in two weeks if something is not

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm meant to be doing. And so in that way,

0:28:20.720 --> 0:28:23.119
<v Speaker 1>I have decided to listen to them rather than to

0:28:23.200 --> 0:28:27.000
<v Speaker 1>fight them, because they really really show me where to go. Doubt.

0:28:27.280 --> 0:28:31.639
<v Speaker 1>This is like super profound and obviously I'm just listening

0:28:31.680 --> 0:28:33.679
<v Speaker 1>to your story and all and like having thoughts. I

0:28:33.760 --> 0:28:36.080
<v Speaker 1>don't know anything. I'm not medical in any sense. I

0:28:36.119 --> 0:28:39.200
<v Speaker 1>don't every want to like have anything like that. But

0:28:39.320 --> 0:28:44.200
<v Speaker 1>like to me, it's almost like your bipolar is just

0:28:44.320 --> 0:28:50.440
<v Speaker 1>you being so in tune spiritually connected to yourself from

0:28:50.600 --> 0:28:55.000
<v Speaker 1>such a young age that that which is okay, No,

0:28:55.040 --> 0:28:56.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna say this a long I do not want

0:28:56.720 --> 0:28:59.560
<v Speaker 1>to be disrespectful to any of this, because, like, mental

0:28:59.600 --> 0:29:01.440
<v Speaker 1>illness is a real thing. I actually just got on

0:29:01.440 --> 0:29:04.800
<v Speaker 1>antidepressence myself, Like I like believe in all of it

0:29:04.920 --> 0:29:08.200
<v Speaker 1>so much. But it's like yours is such a Yours

0:29:08.680 --> 0:29:12.000
<v Speaker 1>is so loud, and you're you're that it has to

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<v Speaker 1>have a disorder that people are afraid of because it's

0:29:14.440 --> 0:29:18.200
<v Speaker 1>so intense. But really, when you listen to it and

0:29:18.280 --> 0:29:21.520
<v Speaker 1>use it as your teacher, it is you are so

0:29:21.600 --> 0:29:25.160
<v Speaker 1>in tune and you are so blessed to have this

0:29:25.280 --> 0:29:30.640
<v Speaker 1>guidance that is so loud and so overwhelming that it

0:29:30.680 --> 0:29:33.640
<v Speaker 1>will like shut you down if you're not living your

0:29:33.680 --> 0:29:36.920
<v Speaker 1>life the way you should. That it's really a massive

0:29:37.040 --> 0:29:39.760
<v Speaker 1>blessing when used correctly, like you're using it. But it's

0:29:40.000 --> 0:29:42.920
<v Speaker 1>so hard to navigate those feelings that I'm sure, I'm

0:29:42.920 --> 0:29:44.680
<v Speaker 1>sure so many people don't know how to use it

0:29:44.720 --> 0:29:48.600
<v Speaker 1>as a bless because it is probably has taken you years,

0:29:49.040 --> 0:29:52.400
<v Speaker 1>it has decades years to figure this out and finding

0:29:52.400 --> 0:29:55.440
<v Speaker 1>your passionate entrepreneurship and finding your way. I mean, it's

0:29:55.440 --> 0:29:56.920
<v Speaker 1>hard for a lot of people to get to your

0:29:56.960 --> 0:30:03.960
<v Speaker 1>place done so much work. But really, you're your diagnosis

0:30:04.120 --> 0:30:07.360
<v Speaker 1>is just such a blessing to keep you in alignment.

0:30:07.520 --> 0:30:09.800
<v Speaker 1>And when you're in alignment, you're living the life you

0:30:09.920 --> 0:30:16.200
<v Speaker 1>came here to live. So that's amazing. You hit it

0:30:16.520 --> 0:30:20.560
<v Speaker 1>on the nail. I when you were talking, like, I

0:30:20.720 --> 0:30:25.160
<v Speaker 1>kept interchanging bipolar with God while you were speaking to me,

0:30:25.240 --> 0:30:28.840
<v Speaker 1>because I just think that the gifts that I've been given,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I was given this and then I chose

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<v Speaker 1>to see it as a gift. And in that choice

0:30:33.800 --> 0:30:36.960
<v Speaker 1>that I made, which anyone can make at any time

0:30:36.960 --> 0:30:40.960
<v Speaker 1>in their life, I was able to receive such guidance,

0:30:41.520 --> 0:30:45.320
<v Speaker 1>such guidance that I really never feel alone or I

0:30:45.400 --> 0:30:47.920
<v Speaker 1>never questioned if something's right or not for me because

0:30:47.960 --> 0:30:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I know I'll be told or I know that the

0:30:50.160 --> 0:30:52.520
<v Speaker 1>truth will feel it the surface. Yeah, you'll feel it

0:30:52.560 --> 0:30:57.000
<v Speaker 1>in your entire being from so and every ounce of

0:30:57.000 --> 0:30:59.800
<v Speaker 1>your makeup. If it's not the right choice, you be

0:31:00.080 --> 0:31:06.160
<v Speaker 1>lit mh. You are like a walking spiritual outlet. I mean,

0:31:06.160 --> 0:31:08.720
<v Speaker 1>we all are spiritual beings, but like you were plugged

0:31:08.720 --> 0:31:11.640
<v Speaker 1>in and now that you know that, I mean you

0:31:11.800 --> 0:31:15.240
<v Speaker 1>literally that's it. I'm I mean, I'm I'm not I'm

0:31:15.280 --> 0:31:17.120
<v Speaker 1>not jealous of your journey, but I am a little

0:31:17.120 --> 0:31:21.200
<v Speaker 1>bit in all slash like positive jealousy of how in

0:31:21.320 --> 0:31:23.240
<v Speaker 1>tune you are. I mean, that is such a blessing

0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:24.880
<v Speaker 1>to be that aligned with God, and I know it

0:31:24.920 --> 0:31:27.720
<v Speaker 1>has a huge other side that you've had to like navigate,

0:31:27.760 --> 0:31:32.040
<v Speaker 1>but like now that you're here, that is just I'm

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<v Speaker 1>literally like speaking, I can't even I've never had I've

0:31:34.920 --> 0:31:38.600
<v Speaker 1>never I've never had a conversation this in depth of

0:31:38.640 --> 0:31:42.160
<v Speaker 1>someone who's had bipolar and then like seeing how you

0:31:42.200 --> 0:31:46.640
<v Speaker 1>have turned this into the way the blessing that it is,

0:31:46.760 --> 0:31:49.960
<v Speaker 1>It's just everything can be a blessing, and it is

0:31:50.000 --> 0:31:54.440
<v Speaker 1>a blessing. Everything is a blessing everything, Like I look

0:31:54.480 --> 0:31:57.440
<v Speaker 1>at everything is you know, for example, take my book Lunch.

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<v Speaker 1>I put so much resources into this time, energy, the

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<v Speaker 1>most money I've ever put into anything, and like my

0:32:06.560 --> 0:32:10.440
<v Speaker 1>attitude to show me what you've got, Like whatever happens

0:32:10.520 --> 0:32:14.000
<v Speaker 1>that week is literally exactly what's supposed to happen. If

0:32:14.040 --> 0:32:17.280
<v Speaker 1>I don't net positive financially, there's another blessing and gifts

0:32:17.280 --> 0:32:20.640
<v Speaker 1>in this, in this whole experience if I don't hit

0:32:20.760 --> 0:32:23.360
<v Speaker 1>certain goals that I've like loosely made for myself. And

0:32:23.360 --> 0:32:25.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't even really want to make goals because I

0:32:25.520 --> 0:32:27.800
<v Speaker 1>can't possibly think that I can dream up the right

0:32:27.840 --> 0:32:30.720
<v Speaker 1>scenario for me. With all of this, I do the work.

0:32:30.960 --> 0:32:33.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm on the podcast, I wrote the book, I'm marketing it.

0:32:33.360 --> 0:32:35.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm putting my life into it and putting my money

0:32:35.400 --> 0:32:39.800
<v Speaker 1>into it, and I'm showing up energetically. The response that

0:32:39.840 --> 0:32:42.400
<v Speaker 1>I received from the world is so out of my control,

0:32:42.560 --> 0:32:45.320
<v Speaker 1>and I know that whatever response I get is the

0:32:45.400 --> 0:32:51.520
<v Speaker 1>exact response I'm supposed to and so like that. There's incredible.

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<v Speaker 1>I love this scout. Thank you. There's a quote from

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<v Speaker 1>a Course of Miracles which I haven't read, but someone

0:32:57.920 --> 0:33:00.479
<v Speaker 1>told me this. They said that those who are certain

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<v Speaker 1>of the outcome can afford to wait without worry. I

0:33:05.040 --> 0:33:07.320
<v Speaker 1>think it's so bad. When I heard that, I was like, WHOA,

0:33:07.960 --> 0:33:12.400
<v Speaker 1>what would I like again? So it's those who are

0:33:12.520 --> 0:33:16.840
<v Speaker 1>certain of the outcome can afford to wait without worry

0:33:16.920 --> 0:33:20.160
<v Speaker 1>because you know what you did had to be done.

0:33:20.640 --> 0:33:24.280
<v Speaker 1>Your spirit told you this is your calling, this is

0:33:24.280 --> 0:33:27.960
<v Speaker 1>your passion, your brain and your creativity put to put

0:33:27.960 --> 0:33:31.080
<v Speaker 1>together the concept you've built it. How did you know

0:33:31.720 --> 0:33:34.200
<v Speaker 1>that this book had to be written? How did you

0:33:34.240 --> 0:33:38.320
<v Speaker 1>know it was time to write the Emotional Entrepreneur? And

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<v Speaker 1>tell me what this book is all about. My first

0:33:43.200 --> 0:33:46.960
<v Speaker 1>career goal ever since I was I think seven, was

0:33:47.040 --> 0:33:48.720
<v Speaker 1>to write a book and being author. So that's always

0:33:48.760 --> 0:33:51.520
<v Speaker 1>been my first career goal. And it's the only career

0:33:51.560 --> 0:33:54.160
<v Speaker 1>goal that I've waited on, which I think is really

0:33:54.160 --> 0:33:57.040
<v Speaker 1>interesting because usually when I want something, I jumped into it,

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<v Speaker 1>and so I think there was something about me that

0:33:58.840 --> 0:34:01.320
<v Speaker 1>understood that to write a book, you have to live

0:34:01.360 --> 0:34:04.000
<v Speaker 1>a certain amount of experiences, or you have to spend

0:34:04.000 --> 0:34:06.959
<v Speaker 1>a certain amount of time. You know, I'm time of nonfiction. Um,

0:34:07.040 --> 0:34:09.799
<v Speaker 1>you have to come up with something that is so

0:34:10.440 --> 0:34:13.560
<v Speaker 1>aligned and purposeful and valuable to you that you believe in.

0:34:13.680 --> 0:34:16.759
<v Speaker 1>And so writing a book has always been on my

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<v Speaker 1>to do list, and not in a way of like

0:34:18.440 --> 0:34:20.640
<v Speaker 1>I kept putting it off, in a way that I

0:34:20.680 --> 0:34:23.040
<v Speaker 1>just knew in the moment would be right. I get that.

0:34:23.160 --> 0:34:25.319
<v Speaker 1>And you didn't want to rush it, you weren't. You

0:34:25.360 --> 0:34:30.359
<v Speaker 1>had to wait for the timing, right, And you're right. Yeah.

0:34:30.360 --> 0:34:33.239
<v Speaker 1>And I went into it really in the pandemic, which

0:34:33.320 --> 0:34:35.600
<v Speaker 1>is when I got the idea that it was time.

0:34:35.640 --> 0:34:38.319
<v Speaker 1>And I actually, to be honest, this is weird, but

0:34:38.840 --> 0:34:42.040
<v Speaker 1>um the first week there was like this Instagram post

0:34:42.480 --> 0:34:44.200
<v Speaker 1>that said, don't worry, you don't have to write the

0:34:44.239 --> 0:34:46.080
<v Speaker 1>best selling novel at this time. You don't have to

0:34:46.120 --> 0:34:48.440
<v Speaker 1>do this, and I was like, or I could like,

0:34:48.680 --> 0:34:51.799
<v Speaker 1>or I could like, you know, don't don't shame me

0:34:51.840 --> 0:34:53.920
<v Speaker 1>for wanting to do something during this time. And so

0:34:53.960 --> 0:34:56.320
<v Speaker 1>I think that's really where the seed was with it.

0:34:56.480 --> 0:35:00.200
<v Speaker 1>And then I went to UM. I hired Rhea from

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<v Speaker 1>Right Way to help me with the book proposal in

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<v Speaker 1>the outline and just really thinking of the messaging, and

0:35:06.080 --> 0:35:08.319
<v Speaker 1>like every first time author, I went to her saying

0:35:08.360 --> 0:35:10.880
<v Speaker 1>I wanted to be vignettes of my life a memoir,

0:35:11.040 --> 0:35:12.880
<v Speaker 1>and she said, no, one wants to read your memoir.

0:35:13.760 --> 0:35:16.120
<v Speaker 1>Memoirs are for when you are kind of more at

0:35:16.120 --> 0:35:18.240
<v Speaker 1>the end of your career. And I said, okay, fine,

0:35:18.719 --> 0:35:24.200
<v Speaker 1>So we really I started thinking about what my message

0:35:24.280 --> 0:35:28.080
<v Speaker 1>really is here right now, and through the pandemic, I

0:35:28.120 --> 0:35:31.720
<v Speaker 1>started really being open and vocal about my mental health

0:35:32.040 --> 0:35:34.520
<v Speaker 1>because I recognized that a lot of people needed mental

0:35:34.520 --> 0:35:37.600
<v Speaker 1>health support during that time. And I also recognized that

0:35:38.239 --> 0:35:40.360
<v Speaker 1>there were so many women around me who wanted to

0:35:40.360 --> 0:35:43.520
<v Speaker 1>start businesses, etcetera, but couldn't follow through on their dreams

0:35:43.560 --> 0:35:47.440
<v Speaker 1>because of fear, because of a fear of failure, because

0:35:47.480 --> 0:35:50.520
<v Speaker 1>of what risk feels like, anxiety, all these things. And

0:35:50.920 --> 0:35:53.640
<v Speaker 1>I really recognize after being in business at that point

0:35:53.640 --> 0:35:55.520
<v Speaker 1>for a year and a half of Scouts Agency, we

0:35:56.000 --> 0:35:58.359
<v Speaker 1>hit six figure revenue in the first the second we

0:35:58.360 --> 0:36:02.240
<v Speaker 1>were on track to overdub that um that the reason

0:36:02.280 --> 0:36:06.319
<v Speaker 1>I was successful it was Scott's Agency wasn't because I

0:36:06.440 --> 0:36:09.400
<v Speaker 1>knew how to manage clients, or because I knew how

0:36:09.440 --> 0:36:11.400
<v Speaker 1>to do a piano, or because I knew even how

0:36:11.440 --> 0:36:14.759
<v Speaker 1>to price my services. It was because I emotionally was

0:36:14.800 --> 0:36:18.200
<v Speaker 1>resilient through every single challenge and had been around the

0:36:18.200 --> 0:36:20.880
<v Speaker 1>block when it comes to kind of getting hit in

0:36:20.880 --> 0:36:24.200
<v Speaker 1>the face with depression and anxiety. And so I wrote

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<v Speaker 1>The Emotional Entrepreneur. It's lessons. Each lesson is a different

0:36:29.440 --> 0:36:33.839
<v Speaker 1>emotional mindset tool that will help female entrepreneurs really chase

0:36:33.920 --> 0:36:37.120
<v Speaker 1>after their dreams, whether it's starting a YouTube channel, a podcast,

0:36:37.120 --> 0:36:40.640
<v Speaker 1>an agency, a product based business, whatever it is. And

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<v Speaker 1>I to be honest, it poured out of me. I

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<v Speaker 1>think I wrote it in like a month. I think

0:36:48.160 --> 0:36:50.000
<v Speaker 1>I wrote a third of it in a weekend in

0:36:50.080 --> 0:36:54.239
<v Speaker 1>Palm Springs. It poured out of me so significantly that

0:36:54.960 --> 0:36:57.040
<v Speaker 1>I take credit for the book, But I also know

0:36:57.160 --> 0:36:59.400
<v Speaker 1>something else was moving through me at the same time.

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<v Speaker 1>And so it was. It was the easiest thing I've

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<v Speaker 1>ever done. How did it feel? Once birth it? And

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<v Speaker 1>once you had it all collected in these pages, It's

0:37:14.000 --> 0:37:17.600
<v Speaker 1>poured your soul into it. You received the inspiration, you

0:37:17.680 --> 0:37:20.440
<v Speaker 1>opened up your channel, let it flow, you wrote it down.

0:37:21.840 --> 0:37:25.239
<v Speaker 1>It had been your life, your life's work of gathering

0:37:25.640 --> 0:37:30.560
<v Speaker 1>these lessons, of gathering these tips, of gathering these tools

0:37:30.600 --> 0:37:34.520
<v Speaker 1>to help yourself. That now you were putting them in

0:37:34.560 --> 0:37:39.960
<v Speaker 1>a structured place, in in a in a time capsule

0:37:40.000 --> 0:37:43.360
<v Speaker 1>that can that will be saved forever and given to

0:37:43.440 --> 0:37:45.759
<v Speaker 1>the world and women to help others. Like what does

0:37:45.800 --> 0:37:49.160
<v Speaker 1>that feel like? Because it's a lifetime of your work

0:37:49.520 --> 0:37:53.240
<v Speaker 1>now and and just of your revelation and your life

0:37:54.239 --> 0:37:56.279
<v Speaker 1>in this book. And that's probably why it was so

0:37:56.320 --> 0:37:59.680
<v Speaker 1>easy too and divine, because you lived all this, like

0:37:59.760 --> 0:38:05.000
<v Speaker 1>you of like this is like first hand hardcore. It's

0:38:05.040 --> 0:38:07.560
<v Speaker 1>so interesting you say that. And I've been struggling with

0:38:07.600 --> 0:38:12.360
<v Speaker 1>this a little bit because you know, we're recording this

0:38:12.400 --> 0:38:15.320
<v Speaker 1>obviously before the lunch, and so I think my reaction

0:38:15.480 --> 0:38:17.520
<v Speaker 1>will be different after the lunch, once it's in the

0:38:17.520 --> 0:38:21.799
<v Speaker 1>wild and in people's hands. But I'm notorious for celebrating

0:38:21.840 --> 0:38:25.160
<v Speaker 1>small wins, big wins, medium wins. I celebrate everything in

0:38:25.200 --> 0:38:29.480
<v Speaker 1>my life, and this one has been so exciting as

0:38:29.560 --> 0:38:32.719
<v Speaker 1>like the the event and the lunch and all the

0:38:32.800 --> 0:38:37.080
<v Speaker 1>fancy stuff around it, but the actual book, like thinking

0:38:37.120 --> 0:38:40.040
<v Speaker 1>about the fact that I wrote it, that I'm an author,

0:38:40.560 --> 0:38:43.960
<v Speaker 1>that I'm like holding it in my hands. Let's see that,

0:38:44.080 --> 0:38:48.439
<v Speaker 1>let me see it. It looks good, it's hard. Yeah,

0:38:49.360 --> 0:38:54.680
<v Speaker 1>that's the back, Donny. Yeah, I'll send you a box. Um.

0:38:55.400 --> 0:38:56.799
<v Speaker 1>I can't wait to get my hands on this and

0:38:56.800 --> 0:39:01.000
<v Speaker 1>read it. It's everything in my life has been hard,

0:39:02.080 --> 0:39:07.200
<v Speaker 1>Like running Scouts agency is hard. It's awesome, but it's hard.

0:39:08.800 --> 0:39:11.640
<v Speaker 1>A podcast with my sister can be hard at times.

0:39:12.600 --> 0:39:16.359
<v Speaker 1>This was just not hard at all, and so, which

0:39:16.360 --> 0:39:19.480
<v Speaker 1>is crazy because writing a book sounds hard. Yeah. So

0:39:19.640 --> 0:39:22.239
<v Speaker 1>I don't even know how to celebrate it because I

0:39:22.360 --> 0:39:27.160
<v Speaker 1>usually celebrate things that were difficult that I got through,

0:39:28.239 --> 0:39:30.600
<v Speaker 1>and so this is like a really really big test.

0:39:30.719 --> 0:39:35.600
<v Speaker 1>My next universal assignment right now is receiving. Can I

0:39:35.719 --> 0:39:39.960
<v Speaker 1>just receive a celebration for the sake of something that

0:39:40.040 --> 0:39:42.520
<v Speaker 1>was just my being? Like this book is just my being,

0:39:42.680 --> 0:39:47.080
<v Speaker 1>and so I am proud of my life and where

0:39:47.120 --> 0:39:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I've gotten to. But when it comes to like this product,

0:39:50.920 --> 0:39:54.120
<v Speaker 1>I've actually felt the least amount of pride compared to

0:39:54.200 --> 0:39:58.080
<v Speaker 1>other things because it was so easy to write. If

0:39:58.080 --> 0:40:01.480
<v Speaker 1>that makes sense, so much sense, which I should probably

0:40:01.480 --> 0:40:08.360
<v Speaker 1>explore that in my journal a little bit more. I

0:40:08.440 --> 0:40:11.200
<v Speaker 1>love that you said my next controversal, okay, so tell

0:40:11.239 --> 0:40:15.240
<v Speaker 1>me what you are spreading comes to your connection divine

0:40:15.400 --> 0:40:20.640
<v Speaker 1>because I love all of that. Yeah. So I was raised.

0:40:21.120 --> 0:40:24.040
<v Speaker 1>I am Jewish. I was raised in a Jewish private

0:40:24.080 --> 0:40:26.840
<v Speaker 1>day schoolman. Whole life I did not know anybody. Nobody

0:40:26.880 --> 0:40:28.800
<v Speaker 1>was in my phone that wasn't Jewish until I was eighteen,

0:40:28.880 --> 0:40:32.520
<v Speaker 1>true story. Um. And so of course I grew up

0:40:32.880 --> 0:40:37.520
<v Speaker 1>going to synagogue, high holidays, prying, we had today a classes,

0:40:37.560 --> 0:40:43.040
<v Speaker 1>we read the Torah, etcetera. UM. But I think Judaism

0:40:43.080 --> 0:40:45.640
<v Speaker 1>is an interesting religion in that it can be very

0:40:45.680 --> 0:40:49.160
<v Speaker 1>cultural versus religious. And so my family was much more

0:40:49.160 --> 0:40:51.600
<v Speaker 1>on the cultural side and the tradition side, just keeping

0:40:51.680 --> 0:40:54.120
<v Speaker 1>up the traditions and the holidays, and it's about family.

0:40:54.160 --> 0:41:00.520
<v Speaker 1>And so a connection with God wasn't super what's the

0:41:00.560 --> 0:41:04.839
<v Speaker 1>word encouraged to be developed, you know, it was just

0:41:04.880 --> 0:41:07.520
<v Speaker 1>like a thing that we prayed to God. But I

0:41:07.600 --> 0:41:10.680
<v Speaker 1>never questioned what that meant or if I even believed

0:41:10.719 --> 0:41:12.120
<v Speaker 1>it to be honest. I was like, this is what

0:41:12.200 --> 0:41:14.520
<v Speaker 1>my great grandma said, my great grandma all the way back,

0:41:14.560 --> 0:41:19.600
<v Speaker 1>and it's my role to carry on these traditions. And

0:41:20.120 --> 0:41:25.000
<v Speaker 1>when my husband said that thing about hope, I didn't

0:41:25.000 --> 0:41:27.280
<v Speaker 1>know where to turn. So I went to a depression

0:41:27.320 --> 0:41:32.120
<v Speaker 1>anonymous support group which follows the twelve step program, and

0:41:32.360 --> 0:41:35.080
<v Speaker 1>one of the first steps is to develop a relationship

0:41:35.080 --> 0:41:38.000
<v Speaker 1>with the higher power of your understanding. And so I

0:41:38.040 --> 0:41:39.840
<v Speaker 1>didn't even know what that looked like. I didn't know

0:41:39.880 --> 0:41:42.160
<v Speaker 1>what it meant. I didn't know who God was for me.

0:41:42.239 --> 0:41:45.960
<v Speaker 1>I didn't even have a relationship with God, divine source energy,

0:41:46.040 --> 0:41:51.279
<v Speaker 1>and so I just started praying to God and it

0:41:51.400 --> 0:41:54.560
<v Speaker 1>opened the door. At the age of twenty one, and

0:41:54.600 --> 0:41:59.000
<v Speaker 1>then I started getting into more spiritual practices like acupuncture

0:41:59.040 --> 0:42:04.080
<v Speaker 1>and cutting and Ricky and reading Gabby Bernstein, and I

0:42:04.120 --> 0:42:08.680
<v Speaker 1>suppose subscribing to the more kind of just generalized spirituality,

0:42:08.719 --> 0:42:11.759
<v Speaker 1>but it wasn't really until actually a year ago. I

0:42:11.840 --> 0:42:16.600
<v Speaker 1>knew that I kind of belonged in a spiritual philosophy,

0:42:16.800 --> 0:42:18.640
<v Speaker 1>but it wasn't until a year and a half a

0:42:18.719 --> 0:42:22.400
<v Speaker 1>year ago that I developed such a strong relationship in

0:42:22.480 --> 0:42:25.920
<v Speaker 1>God that it was almost like, should I tell everyone

0:42:25.920 --> 0:42:28.080
<v Speaker 1>on Instagram that I believe in God now? Because it

0:42:28.160 --> 0:42:33.359
<v Speaker 1>was so great. And I remember going upon Spring West

0:42:33.520 --> 0:42:36.760
<v Speaker 1>and staying at a hotel and there was these two women,

0:42:36.840 --> 0:42:39.280
<v Speaker 1>one my age and her mom, and for some reason

0:42:39.320 --> 0:42:43.160
<v Speaker 1>I felt like talking to them, and the mother looked

0:42:43.200 --> 0:42:47.120
<v Speaker 1>at me and I told her about my bipolar disorder.

0:42:47.200 --> 0:42:49.600
<v Speaker 1>She was reading a book about praying for your husband,

0:42:49.880 --> 0:42:53.440
<v Speaker 1>and she was she's a Christian, and I just wanted

0:42:53.480 --> 0:42:55.719
<v Speaker 1>to be around her because she believed in God, and

0:42:55.760 --> 0:42:58.080
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know who else to be around. And she

0:42:58.160 --> 0:43:00.000
<v Speaker 1>looked at me and she said, God will cure your

0:43:00.080 --> 0:43:03.200
<v Speaker 1>bipolar disorder. And I looked at her, and I think

0:43:03.239 --> 0:43:05.600
<v Speaker 1>if someone had said that to me five years earlier

0:43:05.640 --> 0:43:09.279
<v Speaker 1>and be like, you're nuts, um, But I let that

0:43:09.320 --> 0:43:13.480
<v Speaker 1>be true. I said, what if that is true? Because

0:43:14.080 --> 0:43:16.560
<v Speaker 1>human who said that you had it that you can't

0:43:16.719 --> 0:43:19.160
<v Speaker 1>be cured? I mean, what right did they have to

0:43:19.160 --> 0:43:22.400
<v Speaker 1>tell you what can happen? Yeah, So I started just

0:43:23.200 --> 0:43:27.520
<v Speaker 1>relying and allowing God to support me. When I feel

0:43:27.640 --> 0:43:31.279
<v Speaker 1>so overwhelmed by my my by my emotions, it's an

0:43:31.280 --> 0:43:37.160
<v Speaker 1>immediate prayer time for me. Immediate I now so distinctly see.

0:43:38.480 --> 0:43:40.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's so hard for me to talk about

0:43:40.120 --> 0:43:42.400
<v Speaker 1>sometimes I feel like I'm really articulate and everything except

0:43:42.480 --> 0:43:45.160
<v Speaker 1>my spiritual practice, because really it's in your head, it's

0:43:45.160 --> 0:43:48.400
<v Speaker 1>in your It seems like magic. It feels like magic,

0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:51.920
<v Speaker 1>like if I put this out and pray and surrender,

0:43:52.000 --> 0:43:55.560
<v Speaker 1>I receive. And when you start believing in a higher

0:43:55.760 --> 0:43:59.880
<v Speaker 1>power around your life, it's like you don't see coincidences anymore.

0:44:00.160 --> 0:44:04.319
<v Speaker 1>Things just really really connect within And so you know,

0:44:04.400 --> 0:44:06.799
<v Speaker 1>I have a friend I joined her Bible study every

0:44:06.840 --> 0:44:09.560
<v Speaker 1>now and then. Like for me, it's just being in

0:44:09.600 --> 0:44:12.360
<v Speaker 1>the presence of others who have a strong relationship to God.

0:44:13.160 --> 0:44:16.920
<v Speaker 1>I find to be such an inspiring and strong energy

0:44:17.000 --> 0:44:20.359
<v Speaker 1>to be in. I love that, And I love what

0:44:20.400 --> 0:44:24.160
<v Speaker 1>you said about the connectedness, how things don't feel like coincidences.

0:44:24.280 --> 0:44:27.759
<v Speaker 1>And I feel like I grew up Christian, but I

0:44:27.800 --> 0:44:31.000
<v Speaker 1>had very open minded parents and mom top philosophy, so

0:44:31.040 --> 0:44:33.439
<v Speaker 1>we were never like super locked into like it has

0:44:33.480 --> 0:44:36.480
<v Speaker 1>to be this way and there's all these rules and

0:44:36.520 --> 0:44:39.000
<v Speaker 1>all that stuff. Because that really turns me off, and

0:44:39.040 --> 0:44:42.560
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I hate all the like this is

0:44:42.560 --> 0:44:45.000
<v Speaker 1>how life has to be fire and brimstone. You don't

0:44:45.000 --> 0:44:47.040
<v Speaker 1>do this, you're going to hell. Because I'm like it's

0:44:47.160 --> 0:44:49.160
<v Speaker 1>the same way that I feel like diagnosing people are

0:44:49.160 --> 0:44:51.799
<v Speaker 1>giving someone a title like yes, you can do all

0:44:51.800 --> 0:44:54.280
<v Speaker 1>these things, but like anyone is capable to do anything

0:44:54.320 --> 0:44:57.480
<v Speaker 1>that they that they want, and like these are just

0:44:57.600 --> 0:45:02.920
<v Speaker 1>people coming up with their interpretation of religion based on

0:45:03.440 --> 0:45:05.680
<v Speaker 1>what's been passed down to them or you know, and

0:45:05.800 --> 0:45:07.640
<v Speaker 1>like I just think that, like like you're talking about,

0:45:07.640 --> 0:45:10.880
<v Speaker 1>it is such a once you actually feel God in

0:45:11.000 --> 0:45:13.160
<v Speaker 1>you and like figure out how to feel him on

0:45:13.200 --> 0:45:16.360
<v Speaker 1>your own and you're not just like following the religious

0:45:16.360 --> 0:45:19.920
<v Speaker 1>protocol that you've been taught. It's a game changer because

0:45:20.320 --> 0:45:23.360
<v Speaker 1>it really and not I went on a spiritual quest.

0:45:23.640 --> 0:45:26.320
<v Speaker 1>My whole life have been quest, but like really started

0:45:26.320 --> 0:45:30.080
<v Speaker 1>diving into it and my like late twenty thirties and

0:45:30.080 --> 0:45:32.719
<v Speaker 1>now like just like it's so and the same thing

0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:36.520
<v Speaker 1>I got into Abraham Hicks and Gabby Burns. Like I

0:45:36.560 --> 0:45:40.120
<v Speaker 1>was like watching Oprah, Super Sol Sundays all the time,

0:45:40.200 --> 0:45:42.200
<v Speaker 1>and I was just like any place I could go

0:45:42.520 --> 0:45:46.239
<v Speaker 1>to gather spiritual information, I would just go on this

0:45:46.400 --> 0:45:49.920
<v Speaker 1>quest because it's so wide open and it feels so

0:45:50.000 --> 0:45:52.480
<v Speaker 1>overwhelming in the beginning, but then you start to actually

0:45:52.719 --> 0:45:56.359
<v Speaker 1>the connectingness of everyone and how it is magical and

0:45:56.440 --> 0:45:59.040
<v Speaker 1>if you can stay in that positive headspace that there's

0:45:59.080 --> 0:46:02.600
<v Speaker 1>this higher force working for you, it really like it's

0:46:03.000 --> 0:46:06.439
<v Speaker 1>it's everything is magic. And like there was a there's

0:46:06.480 --> 0:46:08.480
<v Speaker 1>a few years of my life where I was like

0:46:08.680 --> 0:46:12.960
<v Speaker 1>hardcore into it and manifesting so positive. I mean, I

0:46:13.000 --> 0:46:14.840
<v Speaker 1>have let life beat me down some and now I

0:46:15.160 --> 0:46:17.200
<v Speaker 1>feel like I go through dips and ways and sometimes

0:46:17.280 --> 0:46:18.680
<v Speaker 1>like I know I got to get back to that

0:46:18.760 --> 0:46:22.160
<v Speaker 1>like awesome pure place of like believing and everything. But

0:46:22.520 --> 0:46:24.200
<v Speaker 1>it's it's hard to stay there all the time. You

0:46:24.239 --> 0:46:28.160
<v Speaker 1>have to have practices rituals yourself there because life can

0:46:28.239 --> 0:46:30.120
<v Speaker 1>take you back down just to the day to day grund.

0:46:30.160 --> 0:46:33.240
<v Speaker 1>But like, it is such a difference between like feeling

0:46:33.320 --> 0:46:39.919
<v Speaker 1>God and spirituality and just like knowing what you've been taught. Yeah,

0:46:39.960 --> 0:46:43.399
<v Speaker 1>when you feel God, it's a different experience, and for

0:46:43.440 --> 0:46:45.759
<v Speaker 1>me it's been I had such a spiritual awakening that

0:46:45.800 --> 0:46:48.839
<v Speaker 1>I was kind of like in the Airy Ferry University,

0:46:49.320 --> 0:46:52.720
<v Speaker 1>like really not grounded zone, which is a cool place

0:46:52.760 --> 0:46:55.440
<v Speaker 1>to be. It's a cool place to be, and it

0:46:55.480 --> 0:46:58.319
<v Speaker 1>can get a little like crippy and a little a

0:46:58.360 --> 0:47:02.640
<v Speaker 1>little destabilizing, a little oh what's happening? And I realized

0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:07.000
<v Speaker 1>that you know, as much as that exists, and that's

0:47:07.040 --> 0:47:08.480
<v Speaker 1>fun to be in, and it's fun to be in

0:47:08.520 --> 0:47:11.720
<v Speaker 1>the metaphysical and the miracles and all of that stuff.

0:47:12.239 --> 0:47:14.640
<v Speaker 1>I also recognize that I'm a human being and my

0:47:14.719 --> 0:47:16.839
<v Speaker 1>soul was put here on earth for a reason, and

0:47:16.880 --> 0:47:19.840
<v Speaker 1>so for me to not live here in the physical world,

0:47:20.000 --> 0:47:22.600
<v Speaker 1>for me to not be grounded and my human experience

0:47:23.200 --> 0:47:25.960
<v Speaker 1>not just my spiritual experience would be a shame for

0:47:26.000 --> 0:47:29.640
<v Speaker 1>this lifetime. And so whenever I get a little too spiritual,

0:47:29.680 --> 0:47:33.440
<v Speaker 1>I really go back down to my soul and remind

0:47:33.480 --> 0:47:36.160
<v Speaker 1>myself that I stull decided to be here on earth

0:47:36.200 --> 0:47:38.040
<v Speaker 1>for a reason, and so I need to look around

0:47:38.160 --> 0:47:40.920
<v Speaker 1>at the earth surroundings, that my three D surroundings, my

0:47:40.960 --> 0:47:44.800
<v Speaker 1>physical surroundings, and be you know, taking care of my body.

0:47:45.360 --> 0:47:48.240
<v Speaker 1>Just it helps me ground a little bit when things

0:47:48.280 --> 0:47:52.600
<v Speaker 1>can get a little crazy expansive, if that makes sense.

0:47:52.719 --> 0:47:54.960
<v Speaker 1>That makes perfect sense, and I totally understand. I think

0:47:54.960 --> 0:47:57.480
<v Speaker 1>that you put into words maybe what happened to me

0:47:57.640 --> 0:47:59.800
<v Speaker 1>and like because like they're like like I'm telling you,

0:47:59.840 --> 0:48:01.560
<v Speaker 1>they're was like two years where I feel like I

0:48:01.600 --> 0:48:04.160
<v Speaker 1>was snapping my fingers, magic was happening and I was

0:48:04.239 --> 0:48:06.320
<v Speaker 1>so in tune to God and like I was so

0:48:06.880 --> 0:48:12.239
<v Speaker 1>light positive and like floating and everything was just in

0:48:12.320 --> 0:48:15.320
<v Speaker 1>a cloud. But it was like it's important. I enjoyed

0:48:15.440 --> 0:48:20.160
<v Speaker 1>having that season because it's so nice connect that intensely

0:48:20.200 --> 0:48:22.960
<v Speaker 1>to your spiritual side and like float in that. But

0:48:23.000 --> 0:48:25.319
<v Speaker 1>then life does we are here, like you said, I

0:48:25.400 --> 0:48:27.120
<v Speaker 1>love the way you put that, and then it's like

0:48:27.160 --> 0:48:31.279
<v Speaker 1>finding that balance of like staying connected and being grounded. Yeah.

0:48:31.360 --> 0:48:34.040
<v Speaker 1>Alyssa Romeo, I think that's her name. I wrote the

0:48:34.080 --> 0:48:37.240
<v Speaker 1>book Me Meet Your Soul, and she said that sometimes

0:48:37.239 --> 0:48:40.000
<v Speaker 1>spiritual people live in spirit too much and they don't

0:48:40.000 --> 0:48:42.960
<v Speaker 1>remember that they have a soul here, and so I

0:48:43.000 --> 0:48:47.400
<v Speaker 1>always try to be a soul with spiritual guidance. I

0:48:47.440 --> 0:48:49.359
<v Speaker 1>think it's like the way I view it, like I'm

0:48:49.440 --> 0:48:52.560
<v Speaker 1>here and I have the wisdom of everything up here

0:48:52.680 --> 0:48:55.919
<v Speaker 1>to help me in this experience. But you're turning into

0:48:55.960 --> 0:49:00.160
<v Speaker 1>a real life do room. Um? I mean you really are.

0:49:00.680 --> 0:49:03.600
<v Speaker 1>You're really like you're really like covering some round herself,

0:49:03.680 --> 0:49:06.440
<v Speaker 1>like you've got a lot to offer the world. Thank you,

0:49:06.560 --> 0:49:10.200
<v Speaker 1>I really I really appreciate it. I I this interview

0:49:10.239 --> 0:49:13.040
<v Speaker 1>has really allowed me to see that in a short

0:49:13.080 --> 0:49:15.359
<v Speaker 1>period of time. So I thank you for that gift,

0:49:15.440 --> 0:49:20.040
<v Speaker 1>specifically because you I think acknowledged and seeing things that

0:49:20.120 --> 0:49:23.279
<v Speaker 1>I've thought about, but hearing somebody else put it into

0:49:23.280 --> 0:49:29.720
<v Speaker 1>words and reflecting back my experience is very validating. So happy.

0:49:29.920 --> 0:49:32.439
<v Speaker 1>That makes me feel so validated that I can help

0:49:32.480 --> 0:49:36.919
<v Speaker 1>you see that because I'm always so inspired and you'll

0:49:36.920 --> 0:49:39.880
<v Speaker 1>probably feel this way about your podcast. You have a

0:49:39.880 --> 0:49:43.960
<v Speaker 1>lot of incredible women I am. I started my podcast

0:49:44.239 --> 0:49:48.279
<v Speaker 1>four years ago because I I've never I'm not I'm

0:49:48.320 --> 0:49:51.759
<v Speaker 1>not like really depressed, but I have always struggled with

0:49:52.400 --> 0:49:55.880
<v Speaker 1>antecurity and like a bouts of I don't even know

0:49:55.880 --> 0:49:57.880
<v Speaker 1>if depressure this the word, but like just like I

0:49:58.000 --> 0:50:01.880
<v Speaker 1>get overwhelmed with hadness and feeling and hope of feelings

0:50:01.880 --> 0:50:05.160
<v Speaker 1>and hopelessness, and like I was never like anything hardcore,

0:50:05.239 --> 0:50:08.040
<v Speaker 1>but like moments of just being like rocked to the

0:50:08.080 --> 0:50:11.640
<v Speaker 1>core by my feelings lost, I feel of the world.

0:50:11.719 --> 0:50:14.440
<v Speaker 1>I get overwhelmed by suffering the world I get. I

0:50:14.600 --> 0:50:17.680
<v Speaker 1>just like my feelings completely overwhelmed me, but I can

0:50:17.680 --> 0:50:20.000
<v Speaker 1>still function through them, and it's not like debilitating her,

0:50:20.280 --> 0:50:24.520
<v Speaker 1>but it is in my mind at the point. So

0:50:24.920 --> 0:50:27.000
<v Speaker 1>I always just felt like other people had everything more

0:50:27.040 --> 0:50:30.840
<v Speaker 1>figured out and that everyone was better and more special,

0:50:30.880 --> 0:50:32.400
<v Speaker 1>because I was always like I'm a hot mess. If

0:50:32.440 --> 0:50:34.239
<v Speaker 1>anyone actually gets to know me all the way, they're

0:50:34.239 --> 0:50:36.719
<v Speaker 1>going to realize I'm a total imposter. And then I

0:50:36.760 --> 0:50:38.719
<v Speaker 1>don't have anything figured out in my head and I'm

0:50:38.760 --> 0:50:41.799
<v Speaker 1>a total ship show, and like everything's just like an

0:50:41.800 --> 0:50:45.440
<v Speaker 1>emotional emotional mess out here for me. But like I

0:50:45.480 --> 0:50:47.440
<v Speaker 1>could like put it together and present it in a

0:50:47.440 --> 0:50:49.520
<v Speaker 1>way that looks like I was cool had you know,

0:50:49.600 --> 0:50:54.480
<v Speaker 1>like hey, but really I just was like be so insecure.

0:50:54.920 --> 0:50:56.480
<v Speaker 1>And so I kind of started this podcast because I

0:50:56.520 --> 0:50:57.960
<v Speaker 1>knew a lot of people and I had been in

0:50:58.000 --> 0:51:02.960
<v Speaker 1>the entertainment and I had tons of connections to interest people.

0:51:02.960 --> 0:51:04.319
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, I'm just and I was at

0:51:04.320 --> 0:51:06.959
<v Speaker 1>a very low point in my life in my career life.

0:51:06.960 --> 0:51:09.879
<v Speaker 1>My music career had just fallen apart, and I felt

0:51:09.920 --> 0:51:12.480
<v Speaker 1>like I was just this loser on the planet. And

0:51:12.520 --> 0:51:14.719
<v Speaker 1>I was like, okay, I'm just had a friends start

0:51:14.719 --> 0:51:16.959
<v Speaker 1>a podcast, you know, all these incredible people to start

0:51:16.960 --> 0:51:20.359
<v Speaker 1>a podcast, and I just went full force and I

0:51:20.480 --> 0:51:23.920
<v Speaker 1>realized and I got like my first interview was Darius Rucker,

0:51:24.080 --> 0:51:25.920
<v Speaker 1>he lead singer of Fooding in the Bluefish now his

0:51:26.040 --> 0:51:29.160
<v Speaker 1>huge country star, And like I had all all these people.

0:51:29.280 --> 0:51:31.640
<v Speaker 1>I just like kind of like how you started? Like

0:51:31.680 --> 0:51:34.160
<v Speaker 1>I was able to like access all these incredible people,

0:51:34.200 --> 0:51:35.839
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, how is this happening? Like don't they

0:51:35.840 --> 0:51:37.640
<v Speaker 1>know that I'm a total fraud and that this is

0:51:37.640 --> 0:51:39.719
<v Speaker 1>like a total I don't know what I'm doing and

0:51:39.760 --> 0:51:42.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm like scrambling on a hamster wheel and like I

0:51:42.080 --> 0:51:45.399
<v Speaker 1>have no idea how to even I'm not qualified, like

0:51:45.680 --> 0:51:48.200
<v Speaker 1>all this stuff. My my my critic was just like

0:51:48.239 --> 0:51:50.680
<v Speaker 1>screaming at me. But then like I got to know

0:51:51.480 --> 0:51:57.120
<v Speaker 1>people that I put on pedestals and story everyone felt

0:51:57.120 --> 0:52:02.000
<v Speaker 1>like it's everyone has felt like a total loser. Everyone

0:52:02.040 --> 0:52:04.960
<v Speaker 1>has had bouts of moments where they are so lost

0:52:05.120 --> 0:52:08.520
<v Speaker 1>that they feel and some people have had intense trauma

0:52:08.680 --> 0:52:13.080
<v Speaker 1>and like tons of abuse, like mentally, physically, sexually, all

0:52:13.120 --> 0:52:16.239
<v Speaker 1>of it. Like some people have overcome so much and

0:52:16.280 --> 0:52:19.560
<v Speaker 1>the light like yourself, like overcoming what you've overcome, is

0:52:19.600 --> 0:52:23.600
<v Speaker 1>like the stories that they have and the life that

0:52:23.719 --> 0:52:28.200
<v Speaker 1>they have that they're living in spite of what was

0:52:28.920 --> 0:52:31.759
<v Speaker 1>pulling them down now is a huge blessing in their

0:52:31.840 --> 0:52:34.560
<v Speaker 1>life and it's a part of who they are and

0:52:34.920 --> 0:52:38.279
<v Speaker 1>there's it's turned their life into something spectacular because of

0:52:38.320 --> 0:52:42.279
<v Speaker 1>what felt earth shattering at the time. And that has

0:52:42.360 --> 0:52:45.839
<v Speaker 1>just freed me so much. And so getting to talk

0:52:45.880 --> 0:52:48.719
<v Speaker 1>to women like you who have done that, who have

0:52:48.800 --> 0:52:52.759
<v Speaker 1>had something that felt so crippling and debilitating for you,

0:52:53.200 --> 0:52:56.840
<v Speaker 1>but you have witched it around and found your purpose

0:52:56.920 --> 0:52:58.920
<v Speaker 1>with it, and now you use it to your highest

0:52:58.960 --> 0:53:02.400
<v Speaker 1>good and it is like blessing the world that to

0:53:02.480 --> 0:53:05.880
<v Speaker 1>me is everything and it gives me so much hope

0:53:05.920 --> 0:53:08.880
<v Speaker 1>for life because I feel like everyone has ability to

0:53:09.000 --> 0:53:12.080
<v Speaker 1>do that. It does take a lot of work and

0:53:12.120 --> 0:53:15.640
<v Speaker 1>a lot of pain to go through, but but if

0:53:15.680 --> 0:53:17.319
<v Speaker 1>you do it, then you get to the other side,

0:53:17.440 --> 0:53:21.040
<v Speaker 1>like you, And how what if you wouldn't have gone

0:53:21.080 --> 0:53:23.319
<v Speaker 1>through all the work to get here, you wouldn't be

0:53:23.400 --> 0:53:26.279
<v Speaker 1>living this life that you're obsessed with now. And yes,

0:53:26.360 --> 0:53:29.400
<v Speaker 1>you still have moments where you have to deal with things,

0:53:29.440 --> 0:53:31.919
<v Speaker 1>but like you appreciate them now in a different way

0:53:32.200 --> 0:53:34.799
<v Speaker 1>and you're not scared of scared of your emotions. But like,

0:53:35.000 --> 0:53:37.759
<v Speaker 1>if you hadn't gone through everything you went and got

0:53:37.800 --> 0:53:40.480
<v Speaker 1>to the other side, you wouldn't be living this life

0:53:41.000 --> 0:53:44.120
<v Speaker 1>of magic that you're living. And what a shame would

0:53:44.160 --> 0:53:48.200
<v Speaker 1>that have been to miss this? I write basically that

0:53:48.280 --> 0:53:50.680
<v Speaker 1>exact sentiment in my book because I think that a

0:53:50.680 --> 0:53:54.759
<v Speaker 1>lot of us are afraid to move through that discomfort,

0:53:54.760 --> 0:53:58.120
<v Speaker 1>through that imposter syndrome, throughs insecurities towards healing and it

0:53:58.239 --> 0:54:00.160
<v Speaker 1>chapter in my book I talked about fear, and I

0:54:00.160 --> 0:54:02.920
<v Speaker 1>asked the question, what has fear already robbed you from

0:54:02.920 --> 0:54:07.080
<v Speaker 1>in your own life, Like all of this wouldn't be

0:54:07.160 --> 0:54:09.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, you, your podcast wouldn't be here if you

0:54:09.680 --> 0:54:13.840
<v Speaker 1>decided to say yes to fear and insecurity and playing small,

0:54:14.280 --> 0:54:16.520
<v Speaker 1>and all of these conversations that you've had with people

0:54:16.520 --> 0:54:19.640
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't exist, not only for yourself, but for the thousands

0:54:19.640 --> 0:54:22.719
<v Speaker 1>of people listened. Like, imagine the ripple of fact from

0:54:22.719 --> 0:54:27.120
<v Speaker 1>the decision that you made to act despite of your insecurities.

0:54:27.760 --> 0:54:29.880
<v Speaker 1>And I think I think about that now because when

0:54:29.920 --> 0:54:32.080
<v Speaker 1>I started it, it was just me and my own

0:54:32.120 --> 0:54:34.440
<v Speaker 1>little bubble trying to do something that I felt like

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:36.759
<v Speaker 1>my heart wanted to do, but not feeling like I

0:54:36.800 --> 0:54:39.120
<v Speaker 1>was qualified. And now, like, I know how I have

0:54:39.200 --> 0:54:41.439
<v Speaker 1>been so blessed by these stories. But now I view

0:54:41.480 --> 0:54:44.200
<v Speaker 1>it exactly what you're saying, Like, I now know I

0:54:44.200 --> 0:54:46.839
<v Speaker 1>have an outlet that really blesses others and it's not

0:54:46.960 --> 0:54:49.360
<v Speaker 1>about me and my insecurities and moving through that and

0:54:49.400 --> 0:54:52.080
<v Speaker 1>having it having the validation for myself. It's like, Okay,

0:54:52.120 --> 0:54:55.000
<v Speaker 1>this is actually something that is helpful, you know, And

0:54:55.040 --> 0:54:57.680
<v Speaker 1>I have the ability to give gifts that to the

0:54:57.719 --> 0:54:59.759
<v Speaker 1>world because it's a gift that I have, like you

0:54:59.800 --> 0:55:02.400
<v Speaker 1>have these gifts, and like, once you can see it

0:55:02.440 --> 0:55:05.000
<v Speaker 1>in that way. It's so powerful and like the fear

0:55:05.040 --> 0:55:07.880
<v Speaker 1>has actually gone now because I know, like this conversation

0:55:07.880 --> 0:55:10.160
<v Speaker 1>that we're having is going to be so powerful for

0:55:10.200 --> 0:55:13.279
<v Speaker 1>so many people because what you have walked through. The

0:55:13.560 --> 0:55:18.759
<v Speaker 1>women especially need to hear this. No. Yeah, it's sometimes

0:55:18.800 --> 0:55:22.480
<v Speaker 1>I get caught up ensure you can relate in podcast

0:55:22.520 --> 0:55:25.040
<v Speaker 1>interviews because it's just the two of us right now,

0:55:25.320 --> 0:55:27.520
<v Speaker 1>right it feels so intimate, like no one's ever going

0:55:27.600 --> 0:55:30.759
<v Speaker 1>to listen to this thing, and there's no way for

0:55:30.880 --> 0:55:34.640
<v Speaker 1>us to ever value the impact that this conversation will

0:55:34.640 --> 0:55:37.560
<v Speaker 1>have on the world. You know, I was thinking Scouts Agency.

0:55:37.560 --> 0:55:38.799
<v Speaker 1>In the last two and a half years, we've looked

0:55:38.840 --> 0:55:43.800
<v Speaker 1>over six hundred podcast episodes, meaning we facilitated women telling

0:55:44.080 --> 0:55:49.480
<v Speaker 1>over six hundred impactful stories. Imagining the ripple effect of

0:55:49.520 --> 0:55:54.000
<v Speaker 1>that is huge, which is why I love the podcasting medium,

0:55:54.040 --> 0:55:57.840
<v Speaker 1>because it's just it takes this intimacy, it takes our lives,

0:55:57.840 --> 0:56:00.800
<v Speaker 1>it takes our insecurities or challenges or success says our pride,

0:56:01.160 --> 0:56:04.480
<v Speaker 1>and it just amplifies it to a large audience of

0:56:04.520 --> 0:56:06.719
<v Speaker 1>people who can relate to it. And the other thing

0:56:06.760 --> 0:56:09.840
<v Speaker 1>I was like thinking, like, in what world can I

0:56:09.920 --> 0:56:14.520
<v Speaker 1>just listen to Matthew McConaughey talked to Dak Shepherd, like

0:56:14.760 --> 0:56:19.680
<v Speaker 1>what world other than this one? That is so true?

0:56:19.840 --> 0:56:22.280
<v Speaker 1>And you know what, I think part of the bed

0:56:22.440 --> 0:56:25.320
<v Speaker 1>of podcasts is like this does it is just you

0:56:25.440 --> 0:56:28.279
<v Speaker 1>and now this is a private conversation for you and

0:56:28.360 --> 0:56:31.640
<v Speaker 1>me right now. If we never hit then to the

0:56:32.440 --> 0:56:34.560
<v Speaker 1>you never put it out there, no one would ever

0:56:34.600 --> 0:56:38.040
<v Speaker 1>hear this. But so we are having a very personal conversation.

0:56:38.080 --> 0:56:40.319
<v Speaker 1>But because it's a podcast, there's a reason to have

0:56:40.400 --> 0:56:44.200
<v Speaker 1>this conversation. There's a point to it, and then we

0:56:44.239 --> 0:56:46.400
<v Speaker 1>share it with the world. But I think the intimation

0:56:46.640 --> 0:56:48.759
<v Speaker 1>of it being in a private space where it's just

0:56:48.840 --> 0:56:50.840
<v Speaker 1>you and me, it allows us to actually feel like

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:53.399
<v Speaker 1>it's just as so we have a real conversation. Yeah,

0:56:53.440 --> 0:56:56.480
<v Speaker 1>I I forgot until we started talking about the impact.

0:56:56.440 --> 0:56:59.560
<v Speaker 1>I always forget, Like I always forget every podcast. I'm like, oh, right,

0:56:59.600 --> 0:57:01.160
<v Speaker 1>that goes out and you know, for better for worse,

0:57:01.280 --> 0:57:02.879
<v Speaker 1>Like who knows what I'm talking about with my sister

0:57:02.960 --> 0:57:07.040
<v Speaker 1>on Okay SAT talking about circumcision. Oh god, It's like

0:57:07.719 --> 0:57:09.719
<v Speaker 1>I always tell my sister, you know, I I don't

0:57:09.719 --> 0:57:13.160
<v Speaker 1>know podcast episode with her five minutes we talked about

0:57:13.200 --> 0:57:17.320
<v Speaker 1>uncircumcised penis penises, and then forty five minutes we talk

0:57:17.400 --> 0:57:20.760
<v Speaker 1>about how, you know, people in their twenties field this

0:57:20.800 --> 0:57:23.040
<v Speaker 1>immense pressure to be something and how we need to

0:57:23.040 --> 0:57:25.600
<v Speaker 1>be gentle on ourselves. And I'm like feeling all this

0:57:25.640 --> 0:57:28.080
<v Speaker 1>ship and what is my sister put on TikTok? Not

0:57:28.160 --> 0:57:30.440
<v Speaker 1>me in my element? No, no, no, but me talking

0:57:30.480 --> 0:57:34.320
<v Speaker 1>about the uncircumcised penises. So you know, you, Betta, you

0:57:34.360 --> 0:57:37.520
<v Speaker 1>gotta keep it well rounded, for better or for worse, truly,

0:57:40.600 --> 0:57:46.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh scout, Okay, So tell me what your desire is book,

0:57:46.440 --> 0:57:49.080
<v Speaker 1>not like sales or anything like that, not like not

0:57:49.160 --> 0:57:53.280
<v Speaker 1>like not like marks on a four card for like

0:57:53.320 --> 0:57:56.360
<v Speaker 1>what it's gonna do? You know what I'm talking about? Like,

0:57:56.440 --> 0:58:02.360
<v Speaker 1>what is your goal for this book? Spiritually soulful? My

0:58:02.520 --> 0:58:05.960
<v Speaker 1>goal is that the book helps women feel safe in

0:58:06.000 --> 0:58:08.800
<v Speaker 1>their emotions so that they can do that exact thing

0:58:08.840 --> 0:58:12.600
<v Speaker 1>that you did, which was pushed through despite fear, insecurities

0:58:12.640 --> 0:58:17.280
<v Speaker 1>and imposter syndrome. It's really I hope a dose of

0:58:17.600 --> 0:58:21.800
<v Speaker 1>emotional courage for everybody, and I think just an equalizer

0:58:21.800 --> 0:58:25.080
<v Speaker 1>and that we all experience these emotional roadblocks in our lives.

0:58:25.520 --> 0:58:29.520
<v Speaker 1>I want the book to create a new narrative that

0:58:29.720 --> 0:58:32.960
<v Speaker 1>if we develop a beautiful relationship with our emotions, and

0:58:33.080 --> 0:58:37.080
<v Speaker 1>if we allow ourselves to feel safe within them, we

0:58:37.280 --> 0:58:40.280
<v Speaker 1>can create the life that we want. All of those

0:58:40.320 --> 0:58:42.280
<v Speaker 1>things that we see that we didn't do this year

0:58:42.280 --> 0:58:45.120
<v Speaker 1>that we wanted to is because our emotions held us back.

0:58:45.200 --> 0:58:48.439
<v Speaker 1>And so instead of allowing our emotions to hold us back,

0:58:48.520 --> 0:58:51.760
<v Speaker 1>actually viewing them differently and propelling them forward. So I

0:58:51.800 --> 0:58:55.160
<v Speaker 1>suppose my biggest thing is that I want to inspire

0:58:55.200 --> 0:58:58.840
<v Speaker 1>action within women to take control over their lives or

0:58:58.880 --> 0:59:00.960
<v Speaker 1>to finally do the thing want or to at least

0:59:01.000 --> 0:59:04.160
<v Speaker 1>feel safe in taking risks and getting out of their

0:59:04.160 --> 0:59:08.600
<v Speaker 1>comfort zone. Bigger, kind of more tangible goals would be

0:59:08.760 --> 0:59:11.640
<v Speaker 1>to create a community of women who are interested in

0:59:11.680 --> 0:59:16.120
<v Speaker 1>this exact, exact, very specific thing, which is emotional strength,

0:59:16.120 --> 0:59:20.800
<v Speaker 1>emotional intelligence within entrepreneurship or building a you know, a

0:59:20.840 --> 0:59:24.680
<v Speaker 1>purposeful or dream life, etcetera. So to create some sort

0:59:24.720 --> 0:59:28.560
<v Speaker 1>of a hub, whether it's like really honestly like, I

0:59:28.640 --> 0:59:30.600
<v Speaker 1>have so many ideas, right, I want to create an

0:59:30.600 --> 0:59:33.800
<v Speaker 1>emotional entrepreneur academy for women to walk through these lessons

0:59:33.800 --> 0:59:38.080
<v Speaker 1>with me. I want to create masterminds conferences, whatever, and like,

0:59:38.280 --> 0:59:41.080
<v Speaker 1>I know what the women who read my book, they

0:59:41.120 --> 0:59:43.560
<v Speaker 1>will tell me what to do next, They will tell

0:59:43.600 --> 0:59:46.479
<v Speaker 1>me what they need next. And so for me, it's

0:59:46.560 --> 0:59:52.080
<v Speaker 1>just being it's just being okay or accepting the assignment,

0:59:52.120 --> 0:59:55.600
<v Speaker 1>which is whatever the community needs is where I will

0:59:55.600 --> 0:59:58.040
<v Speaker 1>take this next, where I will take this movement next.

0:59:58.560 --> 1:00:02.840
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, it's so freeing because I don't need to

1:00:02.880 --> 1:00:05.520
<v Speaker 1>be in control of this, Like this isn't about me,

1:00:06.280 --> 1:00:09.400
<v Speaker 1>it's I've been chosen to maybe write the lessons and

1:00:09.440 --> 1:00:12.720
<v Speaker 1>get it out there and do all the masculine doing, doing, being, being, creating,

1:00:13.200 --> 1:00:17.800
<v Speaker 1>and then whatever the universe needs from these messaging is

1:00:17.840 --> 1:00:21.080
<v Speaker 1>what I will show up to do. Oh I love

1:00:21.120 --> 1:00:24.360
<v Speaker 1>that so much. I love that. I feel like I

1:00:24.360 --> 1:00:26.200
<v Speaker 1>try to live that way. I've never put that in words,

1:00:26.320 --> 1:00:28.560
<v Speaker 1>but like, but like I feel and I feel like

1:00:28.560 --> 1:00:30.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm always a hot mess express so like I'm always

1:00:30.520 --> 1:00:33.880
<v Speaker 1>like but like in my gut and heart, that's how

1:00:33.920 --> 1:00:36.280
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I want to live too, because, like

1:00:36.320 --> 1:00:38.840
<v Speaker 1>you said, with this book, you can write all these

1:00:39.040 --> 1:00:40.919
<v Speaker 1>goals of what you want to happen. Like I wanted

1:00:40.920 --> 1:00:42.760
<v Speaker 1>to be a best seller, I wanted to be on

1:00:42.800 --> 1:00:45.360
<v Speaker 1>Oprah supersool Sunday. I wanted to be whatever, but like

1:00:45.720 --> 1:00:48.200
<v Speaker 1>you don't know, there's no way you can know where

1:00:48.200 --> 1:00:50.800
<v Speaker 1>this book is going to go. It could go anywhere,

1:00:51.200 --> 1:00:54.880
<v Speaker 1>and so all you can do is answer the call

1:00:55.000 --> 1:00:57.520
<v Speaker 1>that's been put on your heart and that your community

1:00:57.600 --> 1:01:00.680
<v Speaker 1>is asking. That's amazing, and then you give it up

1:01:00.680 --> 1:01:04.280
<v Speaker 1>and let the universe in the force take it. You know,

1:01:04.440 --> 1:01:08.280
<v Speaker 1>I've been in my masculine for so long, that's yeah,

1:01:08.520 --> 1:01:14.080
<v Speaker 1>like okay to write that down, like doing creating action

1:01:14.120 --> 1:01:16.720
<v Speaker 1>steps like DODA and more and more and more and

1:01:16.720 --> 1:01:19.240
<v Speaker 1>more and more and more, and the masculine interview that

1:01:19.280 --> 1:01:22.720
<v Speaker 1>makes sense. And so I have never really superban in

1:01:22.760 --> 1:01:24.800
<v Speaker 1>my feminine when it comes to business, and I don't

1:01:24.840 --> 1:01:28.600
<v Speaker 1>think I can be quite in my feminine with my agency.

1:01:28.640 --> 1:01:32.160
<v Speaker 1>But my book has a different energy to it. And

1:01:32.200 --> 1:01:34.600
<v Speaker 1>so you know, I'm as we're recording this a week

1:01:34.640 --> 1:01:37.320
<v Speaker 1>and half away from book launch, technically this should be

1:01:37.320 --> 1:01:40.720
<v Speaker 1>a very stressful time in my life. And I've decided

1:01:40.760 --> 1:01:42.880
<v Speaker 1>to end work early every single day for the next

1:01:42.880 --> 1:01:46.120
<v Speaker 1>week and a half because I am going to enjoy

1:01:46.400 --> 1:01:49.720
<v Speaker 1>this through the ends. Degree I have done what I

1:01:49.800 --> 1:01:52.680
<v Speaker 1>can and right now I am just going to sit back,

1:01:52.800 --> 1:01:55.600
<v Speaker 1>and receive. I was actually thinking this kind of sounds weird.

1:01:55.640 --> 1:01:57.640
<v Speaker 1>I am to this out loud. I was thinking about

1:01:57.680 --> 1:02:02.760
<v Speaker 1>doing like a into ceremony with myself where I just

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<v Speaker 1>surrender the outcome of this book launch to God and

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<v Speaker 1>I almost like, I almost like seduce life to being

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<v Speaker 1>even more expansive for me through this experience. Okay, how

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<v Speaker 1>are you going to do the ceremony? I want to learn?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, because I don't know who does this.

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<v Speaker 1>I was thinking of like putting on really feminine music.

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<v Speaker 1>I think, like using my body and dancing and writing

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<v Speaker 1>a letter and maybe doing some prayer. You know, it

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<v Speaker 1>could be a five minute thing, but just to really

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<v Speaker 1>get in touch with my femininity and my ability to

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<v Speaker 1>receive and my trust in all of this. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if that sounds ridiculously rubal, but it came through

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<v Speaker 1>for me. I love that. Yeah, I love that. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna remember that. I'll tell you what I end

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<v Speaker 1>up doing. I mean yeah, and maybe like that becomes

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<v Speaker 1>one of your next things that you share. What would

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<v Speaker 1>you tell your fourteen year old self at night I

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<v Speaker 1>just had the first bout with depression. Your nightself, you

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<v Speaker 1>got diagnosed. People ask me this question, and I maybe

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<v Speaker 1>I take it too literally. I probably wouldn't tell them

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<v Speaker 1>anything like just keep walking into the fire, girl, you'll

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<v Speaker 1>get burned enough. You still need to get burned, you

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<v Speaker 1>still you need more. That wasn't enough, Clearly, keep going

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<v Speaker 1>for another few years. Literally if that's where if I

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<v Speaker 1>was time traveling to them, that's what I would say

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<v Speaker 1>metaphorically for the lessons, I would say that you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to be really proud of yourself one day. That's all

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<v Speaker 1>I could say. What do you want to tell someone

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<v Speaker 1>who feels like you can because you are. You're in

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<v Speaker 1>it right now, and if you say you can't, you're

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<v Speaker 1>lying because you just said you can't, which means you're

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<v Speaker 1>in it, which means that you're surviving. And if you're

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<v Speaker 1>still listening to this, you're still surviving. And in five

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<v Speaker 1>more seconds, you will still survive. And so the idea

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<v Speaker 1>that you can't walk through the fire is a limiting belief.

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<v Speaker 1>You just haven't accepted that through the fire is your

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<v Speaker 1>purpose and beauty and wisdom. And so once you accept that,

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<v Speaker 1>you will walk through a lot faster. But the idea

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<v Speaker 1>that you can't is false because you are what's the

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<v Speaker 1>first step who at that break? Breaking points are so

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<v Speaker 1>hard and so individualized and custom for every single person.

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<v Speaker 1>I really would just say to infuse hope. I wouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>tell them to do anything differently. If you're listening, Like

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<v Speaker 1>if you're in a really bad depressive episode or in

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<v Speaker 1>a really low phase in your life and you've become

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<v Speaker 1>addicted and used to those low feelings, if you try

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<v Speaker 1>to do something about it, sometimes it threatens the depression.

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<v Speaker 1>And so I'm not here to threaten your comfort zone.

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<v Speaker 1>We're not here to do that. We're here to add in,

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<v Speaker 1>we're not here to take away. So what would your

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<v Speaker 1>life look like if right now you decided to add

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<v Speaker 1>in hope? That's it to start there. See, we're adding

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<v Speaker 1>in that type of an emotion and feeling into that process.

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<v Speaker 1>How it changes things within small it's a small step,

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<v Speaker 1>totally doable for any the little hope. Where can you

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<v Speaker 1>add in hope? Yeah? Because I think if you told

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<v Speaker 1>me when I was at my debts, like Okay, we're

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<v Speaker 1>going to have a two hour morning routine, and we're

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<v Speaker 1>going to eat right, and we're going to gratitude and

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<v Speaker 1>we're going to do all these things. I think I

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<v Speaker 1>beat you overwhelmed because it's you're threatening the foundation, You're

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<v Speaker 1>threatening my life, You're threatening my habits too much. It's

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<v Speaker 1>too much, it's too much of a shock to the system.

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<v Speaker 1>So don't don't change anything, don't take anything away, just

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<v Speaker 1>add in hope. That's amazing. Yeah, I have thoroughly loved

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<v Speaker 1>this conversation with you so much. I'm so happy to

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<v Speaker 1>get to chat with you. I mean, like we said,

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<v Speaker 1>we've been a communication now for years, and you've brought

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<v Speaker 1>me so many amazing guests. Every time I get an

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<v Speaker 1>email from you or one of your amazing women that

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<v Speaker 1>work with you, I'm always like WHOA. And I always

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<v Speaker 1>loved to interview all the women that you present to me.

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<v Speaker 1>It's been a true blessing. So thank you for bringing

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<v Speaker 1>me into your realm, and thank you for this conversation

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<v Speaker 1>and sharing your heart and your vulnerability and your gifts

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<v Speaker 1>and how you have just used your life in a

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<v Speaker 1>spectacular way. And I always end would leave your life

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<v Speaker 1>super opening. The question, but what do you that they're

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<v Speaker 1>safe in their emotions? Your book comes out next week?

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<v Speaker 1>What's the exact day? The book comes out on August

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<v Speaker 1>the Monday, So you can get it on Amazon, Emotional

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<v Speaker 1>the Emotional Entrepreneurs Scouts sobel um or you can follow

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<v Speaker 1>me on Instagram at Scott Sobel. I will have the

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<v Speaker 1>link to purchase in my bio and i'll get you

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<v Speaker 1>the link for the show notes all the things. How incredible, Scout.

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<v Speaker 1>You're such an inspiration. Your story is so inspiring, and

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<v Speaker 1>not only has it inspired me, but I know everyone expired,

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<v Speaker 1>everyone that you can uch. Thank you for sharing and

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<v Speaker 1>being vulnerable, because, like we've said in this it's hard

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<v Speaker 1>care like this, But now that you have gotten to

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<v Speaker 1>the other side, you're blessing so many with your story.

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<v Speaker 1>So thank you sharing. And I cannot wait to get

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<v Speaker 1>your book and just to read these hips and techniques

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<v Speaker 1>that you have assessed throughout your life and put them

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<v Speaker 1>in written form. What a beautiful pleasure. Thank you. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's wild. It's it's exciting and wild and definitely

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<v Speaker 1>a vulnerability hangover for sure, I know, but you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I shouldn't. That's what life, that's what we're here for.

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<v Speaker 1>Their only here for the vulnerable. I mean that's right. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you coming on and I'm just so excited

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<v Speaker 1>for you. Thank you I'm so excited. All Right, okay

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<v Speaker 1>by scout by, talk to you soon.