Speaker 1: What's up. It's a lift service. This is a really
Speaker 1: really special one. Yes. First of all, everybody's chatting before
Speaker 1: we even tearing the mics on. I mean, but I'm
Speaker 1: Angela ye MacGuire, Oh, I mean Stephanie hold off. No, no,
Speaker 1: we're not gonna start her lover, and see what I mean.
Speaker 1: We wanted her to hold up because especially because I'm
Speaker 1: Luria and guests, who's back to actually be on lift
Speaker 1: service because she's been away for so long. I'm here,
Speaker 1: everybody's asking used to saying my name after I know
Speaker 1: and it's been seven months and me saying it it's
Speaker 1: not seven months. I've only been in l a for
Speaker 1: four months, okay seven to number. And speaking of people
Speaker 1: coming back, we got Lloyd here as well, special guests
Speaker 1: and just how we like, we love motherfucker it to
Speaker 1: it like this. It's not it's gonna be fine. You know,
Speaker 1: you get tricky. We have the guitar, take off the
Speaker 1: clothes and when you come in here naked, this is
Speaker 1: false advertisement. That's what I thought we was getting good
Speaker 1: going on. We thought he was getting naked Lloyd. But
Speaker 1: I do think people should be able to walk around
Speaker 1: like that. Listen me to for real, I'm naked all
Speaker 1: the time. I can't make it out. People do really
Speaker 1: high behind a lot of ship a lot. And now
Speaker 1: that I'm thinking about it, this morning, I was having
Speaker 1: a dream that I was naked in the street. Yeah,
Speaker 1: yeah you should. You should live your dreams. I will
Speaker 1: say this, though, I do think sometimes if we could
Speaker 1: all be naked, I think maybe we would know what
Speaker 1: we're getting into. That's a fact. There's a show Dating Dating. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I had a dream about being on there once. Really
Speaker 1: I did an album shoot ever with you? I agree
Speaker 1: with you because if I was on Dating naked, I
Speaker 1: could tell you right away if I was with you
Speaker 1: or not. That's not fair for guys. I'm getting some
Speaker 1: guys that actually growers and our showers, so we might
Speaker 1: think we're getting something, but then bang. Or he might
Speaker 1: be a female with your period. What happens when you
Speaker 1: got your period? Not a do it? Some guys dicks
Speaker 1: like really small until they get hard, right Like it's
Speaker 1: a grower maybe maybe, but you can't help us anyway.
Speaker 1: I'm saying grower, not a shower. You never heard that expression.
Speaker 1: He's a growing but I have now though your large
Speaker 1: shower clearly he's a shower. He don't need to grow.
Speaker 1: Some people need to grow. Were you winning out grower?
Speaker 1: Is it five to or is it fine? Is it
Speaker 1: the size of the guitar for years? We're fine? What's
Speaker 1: tell us now? I don't think I could tell you
Speaker 1: about me like that. I think you have to ask
Speaker 1: somebody I was with. That's what we want to know.
Speaker 1: Who can we ask? Because you are very private, private
Speaker 1: and secretive. You ain't been linked. Anybody's hit it with Lloyd.
Speaker 1: Hit us up right now, let us know. It's he
Speaker 1: a grower or it's her shower. I don't want my baby, mom. Now,
Speaker 1: that's that's nice. River River. That's your son's name? My son?
Speaker 1: How old is he? He's eleven months, he'll be a
Speaker 1: little little boy. I'm expecting my second to it's like
Speaker 1: a son or second we don't know. We don't delivery.
Speaker 1: And then like that pig two names with your son.
Speaker 1: Yeah nice, you're not gonna have one of those fancy
Speaker 1: gender revealed parties. Put blue chem trails in the sky.
Speaker 1: But yeah, what do you buy? Do you buy like
Speaker 1: yellow clothes for them to come? Now in the fact,
Speaker 1: it's dope because you end up not getting a lot
Speaker 1: of clothes. You get more to other ships. You really
Speaker 1: need the smartest thing you could clothes, you know, I
Speaker 1: learned fast ship. They don't happen. And he's never wearing
Speaker 1: newborn size ever. My son and my son is, he's
Speaker 1: a big guy. He's a big baby. Eight month right exactly.
Speaker 1: He's wearing eighteen or twenty four months right now and
Speaker 1: he's eleven months. That's how my son was. Boys are
Speaker 1: like my man, Yes I am, but yeah, but I'm
Speaker 1: expecting my second now. And what's funny is I was
Speaker 1: there for the birth to help with the delivery, you know,
Speaker 1: and it really let me see her in a different
Speaker 1: light for real. I mean I encourage and having a
Speaker 1: child to at least experience. I looked at everything, but
Speaker 1: I'm like that though I want to see what's going on.
Speaker 1: I tried to record he was you know, it's crazy,
Speaker 1: but like this is very personal on the table. But
Speaker 1: right after, I mean even during, I was saying to myself,
Speaker 1: I'm never going to touch this bitch again. That's why
Speaker 1: I never look for her again. Like we could just
Speaker 1: be co parents. That's the thing now, you know what,
Speaker 1: I and just be party, never doing this ship ever again,
Speaker 1: and then it was like it was like it was
Speaker 1: like two weeks later and that damn little pouch start
Speaker 1: going down a little bit with some little started looking
Speaker 1: back to normal. So you forgot about but you have
Speaker 1: to wait a little while. I was supposed to wait
Speaker 1: three weeks. Yeah, I think I waited like three weeks
Speaker 1: in a day, okay, yeah, yeah for me and my
Speaker 1: son's father when we he looked at it right and
Speaker 1: he's like, you know, like he's just like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: like I'm sorry that that happens to your pussy. And
Speaker 1: I'm like, yo, like it's not a big deal, like
Speaker 1: what happened, Like it's a human thing. But then my
Speaker 1: sister showed me the video of it, and I was like,
Speaker 1: how you I got so mad at him, like you're
Speaker 1: really gonna look at me like that? How dare you
Speaker 1: stare at that? I was, But I would say, this, man,
Speaker 1: it's like a totally different it's a totally different appreciation
Speaker 1: of what it means. Yeah, a woman for real, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like on so many levels, and
Speaker 1: just to see what chalk endure, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: like childbirth of course, but even just on a day
Speaker 1: to day basis, I don't think a lot of dudes
Speaker 1: could be a woman, you know what I mean. It's
Speaker 1: just and when she was pregnant, I will always she
Speaker 1: would be complaining about certain stuff, you know, and I said,
Speaker 1: oh man, you know what I always say, Serena Williams
Speaker 1: one the goddamn women. You can do it. You could
Speaker 1: do it. You can everybody, Serena Williams you're talking about.
Speaker 1: But because I was your feel that's somebody. But even that.
Speaker 1: But I'm like that thought. That's why That's what makes
Speaker 1: me a good art musician too, though, is I'm always
Speaker 1: like we like they say nothing, you could do it,
Speaker 1: you could do it, you could do more, you do more,
Speaker 1: do more. But it should have been like, well Michael
Speaker 1: Jackson waiting time, but what's what up? But but I'm
Speaker 1: the kind of first and that probably would have motivated me.
Speaker 1: Not Michael Jackson did that would have motivated me. Now
Speaker 1: with child you know, with child birth, that's probably just
Speaker 1: suck up, like it was just taking up. Yeah, that's
Speaker 1: would I feel like taking a chap, Yeah, because times
Speaker 1: have paid it and they feel like something dude taking ship.
Speaker 1: Giving the birth that happens that happens. She must happened
Speaker 1: to me real, everything's coming out of it, everything's coming
Speaker 1: out for real, and they had to put a sucking
Speaker 1: oxygen mask on. He almost died. And you're not even
Speaker 1: the one almost missed what happened? Please, you might have
Speaker 1: been like, Serena didn't pass out. Movie happens in the movie.
Speaker 1: But I was going to say that in the movie,
Speaker 1: the man always passes out and they'd be in a
Speaker 1: wheelchair pass out. But you will say this though, it's
Speaker 1: like snap back. She don't believed. No, she didn't breastfeed, okay,
Speaker 1: because I know they said that. She said that was
Speaker 1: more painful than it was to me to kid. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but you see, every woman is different. Because I don't agree.
Speaker 1: I don't feel like giving birth feels like you're constipated.
Speaker 1: Ship ship. I felt like when she came out, I
Speaker 1: just felt like it was such a relief, like the
Speaker 1: same feel when you got a guy. That doesn't sound
Speaker 1: too bad to me. That's that's where great girls don't
Speaker 1: take a ship. I feel like a new person. I
Speaker 1: had a new person. I love that about taking this ship.
Speaker 1: The more they spank no, no, you spent so much
Speaker 1: time trying to squeeze that ship in the public. Just
Speaker 1: start rotting in there and ship man, and once that
Speaker 1: ship ain't healthy, man, just let this ship out. I
Speaker 1: don't know what girls, because girls don't like to fart
Speaker 1: in public, anyone. Why did Why did? My stepdad used
Speaker 1: to say, that's unladylike, I don't know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I think it's so natural, Like what the fun else?
Speaker 1: You're supposed to act like? It wasn't you exactly? They
Speaker 1: came in here now before I leave, have you ever
Speaker 1: gone to pee and shipped by accident? Shart me too crazy?
Speaker 1: Before I was just dropping lemonade. Oh yeah, and then
Speaker 1: you got to do an EPs and salt at the
Speaker 1: end of the day. It's supposed to help you flush it.
Speaker 1: And that ship actually backfired for me and I'm throwing up.
Speaker 1: Now that's a detox every It seems like it was
Speaker 1: like throwing up in between your legs. Now, I just
Speaker 1: let the ship go. It just over there, you okay,
Speaker 1: got it? And throw up this ship on the you
Speaker 1: know facts, Yeah, yeah, I rather do that. G Before
Speaker 1: we started, you said, y'all know we had it from magic,
Speaker 1: Well not really personally, but I have been an eight
Speaker 1: shift time man, I love g man. In fact, I
Speaker 1: actually compare everybody I ever see at a gentleman's club
Speaker 1: was actually it's actually home girls with my home girl Helen. Yes. Right,
Speaker 1: So that's how I kind of got put onto the
Speaker 1: first times actually going to a strip club when you
Speaker 1: dance for me, right. The first time I went, I
Speaker 1: was in St. Louis. I was with my part of
Speaker 1: Tea Love who came up with Nellie. He took me
Speaker 1: to this place called Bottoms up on the East Side.
Speaker 1: On the East Side, they do this thing and they
Speaker 1: was like, oh, they're gonna make you feel like royalty.
Speaker 1: And they came in there and they said, we're gonna
Speaker 1: do roll call, right, so they did roll CARDI bro
Speaker 1: all the girls out, introduced all the girls, and all
Speaker 1: the girls make their way around the club and do
Speaker 1: something for each person and then you give him something
Speaker 1: and the next girl come same thing, and it was like,
Speaker 1: you know, all the girls was cool. And then this
Speaker 1: one ship came up there and they said baby girl.
Speaker 1: She was the feature and she was pregnant like a month.
Speaker 1: She was like six months pregnant, some showing and I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, the baby girl she was
Speaker 1: the feature and came and did some poetry and and
Speaker 1: then made some stuff. But she was pregnant, y'all. Na man, yeah,
Speaker 1: I was just like, wow, me up. I gave her something,
Speaker 1: I said, get the baby something, and then and then
Speaker 1: and then. So the first time I went in Atlanta
Speaker 1: was Magic City, right, I think it was. I don't
Speaker 1: know if it was a Monday or not, but losing
Speaker 1: that mother, so it probably wasn't. It was because she
Speaker 1: was the best, and Helen was like, we're gonna see
Speaker 1: my girl. She dope and me and Helen we both
Speaker 1: used to dance together when she was so so when
Speaker 1: we go to the club, we was looking at the
Speaker 1: talent like we're looking at the beast mode type of
Speaker 1: we ain't really looking at It's like, yo, fucking she
Speaker 1: dopest ship type of ship. And we went and g came.
Speaker 1: She did a fucking thing just for us. The club
Speaker 1: was fucking packed. It was crazy in there, and she
Speaker 1: came and just danced for us for a good second.
Speaker 1: And I fucking spent all my Christmas and I didn't.
Speaker 1: I went home. I was like, man, what then against
Speaker 1: my family? Like iired, I was so inspired on the
Speaker 1: time I ever did that with the first time I
Speaker 1: went to an all black church because I grew up
Speaker 1: Catholic from New Orleans. The first time I went to
Speaker 1: all black church, and then people were passing out of ship.
Speaker 1: Now I gave all the money I had. My said,
Speaker 1: it was really the only other time my spirit was
Speaker 1: moved so much. And then and then so I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know, she was like the homie, so I probably
Speaker 1: was doing some sh it I wasn't supposed to do
Speaker 1: and she wasn't tripping. But another time I went, I
Speaker 1: went to a spot I went to a one time
Speaker 1: anybody was talking about honest. So I'm in there and
Speaker 1: I got about you know, I'm not I'm a cheap,
Speaker 1: real cheap person. So I spent the thousand. I had
Speaker 1: a thousand to spin, and that's a lot for me
Speaker 1: because I'm like, I'm not getting that back right, So
Speaker 1: so I'm like, I'm gonna just have it. It's gonna
Speaker 1: look all right, just in case maybe my brother might
Speaker 1: want to do something. We're gonna just do this. So
Speaker 1: I'm getting there, the girl is dancing for me, and
Speaker 1: I'm like thinking, I'm in the fucking music video. So
Speaker 1: I'm just right out of the money on the floor
Speaker 1: at the end of the thing. So and then I
Speaker 1: also noticed that some of the money was kind of flying.
Speaker 1: So another girl came over there was oh this me too.
Speaker 1: Oh wait, man, this ship side of control. Right. So
Speaker 1: then at the end that the girl says, okay, now
Speaker 1: you owe me such and such and such, and said,
Speaker 1: I got the same face got on right now for right.
Speaker 1: He's like, no matter how long she was, could have
Speaker 1: been up for two seconds. The money I had spent
Speaker 1: on the floor for the dance, right, she says, no, No,
Speaker 1: the money that you're throw on the floor is tips.
Speaker 1: Oh she tried, you, she said. She said she was
Speaker 1: trying to get somebody get show money and you know, dances.
Speaker 1: I said, look, if you said you don't pick that
Speaker 1: ship up right now, I said, that's everything right there
Speaker 1: for you mother. Right, she tried to try to try.
Speaker 1: She tried to that more than technically, it's ten dollars
Speaker 1: a song. So if she was over there, right, So,
Speaker 1: if she was over there for ten songs, that's a
Speaker 1: hundred dollars. You ain't pay a thousand dollars. But I
Speaker 1: gave him more than just a dance. But me, that's
Speaker 1: how we do that or at least at magic. That's
Speaker 1: how we did the equation, like ten dollars a song.
Speaker 1: If I feel like I ain't got enough for ten
Speaker 1: dollars home, then I'm gonna say, all right, well dota.
Speaker 1: But if if it's a pile of money on the floor,
Speaker 1: then I'm gonna take that and keep it. And she's
Speaker 1: kind of mad at somebody only gave you ten dollars
Speaker 1: to but yeah, we got that. Yeah, but got the
Speaker 1: point that he sat he was cheap. It was probably
Speaker 1: fifty dollars. Lloyd says, he said dollars and one so's
Speaker 1: it's a hundred dollars band. So even if he popped
Speaker 1: the hunted band on it, that's ten songs that she
Speaker 1: danced tonight. That's why I said, how long was she
Speaker 1: over there? Man? When I was a shupper back in
Speaker 1: the days of dance was like a different kind of strip.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, the resident hood. We're talking about
Speaker 1: the hood d club. Yeah, I wasn't the caucasion. A
Speaker 1: whole different world. So gentlemen's clubs is forty dollars dance,
Speaker 1: and they're different all over the world. It's differently because
Speaker 1: even you know in Australia the currencies and coins. So
Speaker 1: you can have a two dollar coin x amount of
Speaker 1: dollar like a five dollar coin and some ship. So
Speaker 1: what you gotta do is you gotta pay for like
Speaker 1: the dances in advance. You gotta get like a bundle.
Speaker 1: You can't be throwing a coin, you can't. You can't
Speaker 1: do that. You put in ashole like one credit. A
Speaker 1: lot of club etiquette going. Now let me ask you.
Speaker 1: Let's back up a little bit though, so how did
Speaker 1: you manage to get locked down? Because now you're in
Speaker 1: a committed relationship, a second child on the way. So
Speaker 1: what made this woman special? I realized less is more,
Speaker 1: to be honest, and I've lived in my life like
Speaker 1: a tourist, you know what I mean. Like when I
Speaker 1: first came into game, I was just I want to
Speaker 1: just savage mode. I fucking want to be everywhere. I
Speaker 1: want to do everything. Nobody's gonna tell me nothing. I
Speaker 1: don't have to live by these rules that you know,
Speaker 1: society puts on me and all this kind of ship.
Speaker 1: And then I also had a little bit of power
Speaker 1: and influence, so I think just naturally, you know, just
Speaker 1: you know, jumping off the porch for the first time,
Speaker 1: I just pretty much existed like a tourist. I come through,
Speaker 1: I break some ship and then the fun. Yeah. And
Speaker 1: then the older I got, the more attached I started
Speaker 1: becoming the things that just meant way more than that
Speaker 1: to me, you know, Like the first the first catalyst
Speaker 1: I think was my niece when she was born, and
Speaker 1: I was there for that, helping my sister through medical school,
Speaker 1: and then I was I took my sister to get
Speaker 1: her last meal. I was there with my niece, and
Speaker 1: I remember like how she just would look at me.
Speaker 1: You know. Sometimes when she would get older, the first
Speaker 1: thing she would do is she would run in my room.
Speaker 1: She said, oh a lot like wake up, wake up,
Speaker 1: let's dance because I gotta. I got a turntable in
Speaker 1: my room where I played my vinyl and we put
Speaker 1: music on and we just start getting down, she laughing,
Speaker 1: and I love you so much that she said, come
Speaker 1: hugging me. And then I was like, you know what
Speaker 1: every woman I ever been with is this starts off
Speaker 1: as this, you know what I'm saying. And then I
Speaker 1: also realized that a lot of the girls that I
Speaker 1: was with, it wasn't really they fault that they were
Speaker 1: kind of I don't want to say being taken advantage of,
Speaker 1: but that just that they didn't look at it like that,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, that they was okay with
Speaker 1: a lot of ship, because a lot of ship stems
Speaker 1: back to a lot of things, you know, and there
Speaker 1: or somebody might have been too strict on you or
Speaker 1: not there enough, or you know, you might have been
Speaker 1: taking advantage of when you was young girls, just all
Speaker 1: these things that go into the makings of a person.
Speaker 1: So the all yere I got, the more I start
Speaker 1: trying to understand that, like the why behind things, and
Speaker 1: it just eliminated that tourist aspect out of my life.
Speaker 1: So then I started to just appreciate people, like really
Speaker 1: seeing a person for who they was, maybe what they've
Speaker 1: been through that I never understood, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: And then from there it was just like I kind
Speaker 1: of lost the desire to to be that anymore. And savage, yeah,
Speaker 1: just yeah, pretty much to be selfish really in a
Speaker 1: in a sense. And um, I also think that, um
Speaker 1: it was easier easier for me once I curved out
Speaker 1: other temptation in my life because a lot of things
Speaker 1: are temptation for us, you know, what I mean, and
Speaker 1: they kind of like are representative of each other. So
Speaker 1: my first thing was was food. My first thing was
Speaker 1: to take the temptation of food out because I fucking
Speaker 1: love food and I eat food for satisfaction. I don't
Speaker 1: eat it for nourishing. I eat it because I craving.
Speaker 1: I wanted, I desire it, and I could get it
Speaker 1: when I wanted. You became a vegan, so I became
Speaker 1: a vegetarian, and a vegan. I was going in and out,
Speaker 1: you know, depending on depending on what was going on
Speaker 1: and um, and that actually ended up taking most of
Speaker 1: my time and energy, and then it started to trickle
Speaker 1: out in other aspects of my life. So then I
Speaker 1: was like, yo, you know what, I want everyone around
Speaker 1: me to be like that. I want everybody around me
Speaker 1: to value they ship, to have respect for each other,
Speaker 1: to you know, that kind of thing. And then it
Speaker 1: just that ship became my music, my life, my everything.
Speaker 1: Me and Lloyd had the same bad things exact same day.
Speaker 1: But the reason I was going to say that was
Speaker 1: because a lot of times, if you guys and my
Speaker 1: friends that know me know, I always had to explain
Speaker 1: like why people activate the act and sometimes I don't
Speaker 1: take things for face value. Like I look at somebody
Speaker 1: and my friends will be like, well, how could you
Speaker 1: be cool with that person? And how are you okay?
Speaker 1: And I'm always like, well, I can kind of understand
Speaker 1: why that person did that, because if I look at
Speaker 1: you know, certain things that happened in their life, or
Speaker 1: how they might view things differently than me than I
Speaker 1: actually feel like sympathy toward somebody, even if they did
Speaker 1: something sucked up to me, it usually better understanding. And
Speaker 1: and let me tell you this too. This was this
Speaker 1: was like the biggest thing for me. It was okay.
Speaker 1: At one point in my life, I was in love
Speaker 1: with three women. There were three women in my life,
Speaker 1: and I was in love with different parts of each
Speaker 1: one of them, and so in my mind, I was
Speaker 1: bringing all of them together to make one person, right,
Speaker 1: But really I was really what I was doing was
Speaker 1: I was selling myself short because I was never really
Speaker 1: able to get a full experience out of a relationship, right,
Speaker 1: So he was dividing it up. Yes. So then what
Speaker 1: ended up happening was I started to become afraid, hesitant
Speaker 1: about just one one person because I knew no one
Speaker 1: person can be everything for you all the time. But really,
Speaker 1: once you get to a point where you're not even
Speaker 1: looking for that from a person, I think you kind
Speaker 1: of start moving towards being able to be with them
Speaker 1: for extending amount of time. Right, And my theory was
Speaker 1: like dumb shit, like, yo, I don't want to eat
Speaker 1: pizza every day to say that, I used to say
Speaker 1: that a lot. I get that just the fact that
Speaker 1: I understand, just the fact that I could traveled so much,
Speaker 1: I get to see so much, and I really experienced
Speaker 1: I'm still experiencing ship, you know, like, and then all
Speaker 1: the women in my life they gangsters, my mama, gangster gangsters,
Speaker 1: Like they all say, don't trust these holes, don't don't
Speaker 1: move too fast, live your life, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: And they really don't like nobody, you know what I'm
Speaker 1: So it was like, damn, you know, well, I can't
Speaker 1: trust nothing, all the holes, I can't trust them. Right.
Speaker 1: But then what end up happening was because I started
Speaker 1: to value like the process of getting to a place
Speaker 1: that I needed to be, right, Like with my vegetarianism.
Speaker 1: It was so hard for me sometimes, but I just
Speaker 1: convinced myself for the reward and then I just started
Speaker 1: working at it, and and then it became manageable. And
Speaker 1: I looked at a relationship like that. I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, instead of instead of looking at a
Speaker 1: person and seeing all the ship that they missing or
Speaker 1: the ship that fucking fox like piss you off what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, like that kind of ship, just kind of
Speaker 1: maybe take a second to understand that they didn't have
Speaker 1: the same life as you in a lot of ways. Right,
Speaker 1: It's certain things that make them who they are, and
Speaker 1: why not be the person that helps to guide them.
Speaker 1: I mean, I would never be here if it wasn't
Speaker 1: for some motherfucker that was sitting in the room with
Speaker 1: me when I sucked, you know what I'm saying over
Speaker 1: and over and over and just loved me so unconditionally
Speaker 1: that they was like, you still got something that is
Speaker 1: special and we're gonna find it. You know. They didn't
Speaker 1: write me off. I mean, and I really like started
Speaker 1: to look at it like that, and then it was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, how dare me right off? This person
Speaker 1: who actually loves me? And my girl loved me, She
Speaker 1: really really loved me. She accepted, she knew I wasn't perfect,
Speaker 1: she knew I was still conflicted, but she was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm gonna just support him. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: stay down with him. I'm gonna give him love when
Speaker 1: he needed, and I'm I'm gonna I'm not gonna stand
Speaker 1: for no bullshit. But I'm also not going to impose
Speaker 1: myself so much that I want to change him or
Speaker 1: make him someone else. She was like, she loved me,
Speaker 1: I really knew how to love myself, and I once I,
Speaker 1: once I realized that she was, I would be I
Speaker 1: would be this. It would be such a tragedy for
Speaker 1: me to write this off. So what I did was
Speaker 1: I just committed myself, just committed myself. I said, no
Speaker 1: matter how piste off I get, inpatient I get, no
Speaker 1: matter how much my A D D kick in, no
Speaker 1: matter how much temptation I'm faced with, I'm gonna see
Speaker 1: it through because I think that at the end of
Speaker 1: the day, even if some ship don't fucking work, which
Speaker 1: is very very much a chance, at least you say
Speaker 1: you try, unless you say I gave the effort. I
Speaker 1: did everything I could, everything right, And that's just kind
Speaker 1: of where I'm at with it. Something that happened specifically
Speaker 1: that made you say Okay, now I'm going to be committed.
Speaker 1: I got caught. Well that's not why, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: let me tell you, yes, but let me tell you
Speaker 1: what happened. Though. There was a girl that that that
Speaker 1: liked me a lot. She actually loved me, but I
Speaker 1: didn't love her, and I knew that right and it
Speaker 1: was just really like good sex. She just knew herself.
Speaker 1: She was older than my girl. She kind of knew
Speaker 1: herself a lot more. She was more like comfortable and
Speaker 1: confident in the bed. And to me, I always was like,
Speaker 1: I don't know, infatuated with older women growing up. So
Speaker 1: it's like I don't know. I just kind of couldn't
Speaker 1: get away from it. And one time we was we
Speaker 1: was together and she goes to me, she says, I
Speaker 1: love you, and I said, okay, this is a moment
Speaker 1: for me right now to really fucking like live honest, right,
Speaker 1: just really really be honest, even if I'm conflicted, at
Speaker 1: least be honest. I never lied about my ship, but
Speaker 1: I said, you know what, I don't love you. I said,
Speaker 1: I said, for real, I don't love you like that.
Speaker 1: I got love for you, but I'm not I don't
Speaker 1: love you like that. I don't love you, and I
Speaker 1: never will love you like never I said, I love
Speaker 1: someone else, like I said, I said, to be honest,
Speaker 1: I love somebody else. How did she react? She got mad.
Speaker 1: She got mad when she got mad, And I understand that.
Speaker 1: I see in my mind, I thought you would respect
Speaker 1: at least I honestly hurt so sometimes, and you're gonna
Speaker 1: be at least if you could be honest. I respect
Speaker 1: it coming from you now. But I said, I just said,
Speaker 1: I don't love you, but I don't love you like that.
Speaker 1: And so what she ended up doing what she made
Speaker 1: it her life's mission to find my girl and tell
Speaker 1: her that, oh I was with him and and this
Speaker 1: and this and this and that, and to me, I said,
Speaker 1: you know what, I talked to my girl, right, she
Speaker 1: was devastated. She was devastated, and that hurt me. And
Speaker 1: I realized that I really really cared, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean, Like just the pain she felt brought me
Speaker 1: so much pain. Right And on top of that, I
Speaker 1: thought her, I thought that, you know what, this girl
Speaker 1: who I don't love is so hurt that she is
Speaker 1: willing to make it her life's mission to destroy the
Speaker 1: one thing that I do a company that I really
Speaker 1: do actually care about, you know what I mean? And
Speaker 1: I'm like, you know, and you know what I'm like,
Speaker 1: You know what, People hurt. People hurt. People hurt people.
Speaker 1: And I stood where why she was doing it. It
Speaker 1: wasn't because she didn't want It was because she didn't
Speaker 1: want me to be happy that she wasn't right. And
Speaker 1: you know what she said, she loved you, and she
Speaker 1: did not love you because if she loved you, she
Speaker 1: would want you to be happy with a person was
Speaker 1: going through some ship with speaking because you was there. Man, Look,
Speaker 1: I don't blame her, but I do I do know this.
Speaker 1: I do know this. I do know that. I think
Speaker 1: in any real, true, happy and long term relationship or marriage,
Speaker 1: there is going to come a time where nature plays
Speaker 1: his course right at some point we're going to become lustful,
Speaker 1: or very or or or just sway a little bit,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. We're going to make a stumble.
Speaker 1: And I think a real true love is a person
Speaker 1: that sees the flaw in the person as not definitive
Speaker 1: of a long term a something that can be learned
Speaker 1: from a lesson. And that's what my girl did for me.
Speaker 1: She really liked was like, you know what this is,
Speaker 1: this I'm going to treat this like the biggest lesson,
Speaker 1: Like that's not I can't go through this again. She's
Speaker 1: just like I can't even I can't take that ship
Speaker 1: no more. But I know what your heart is at.
Speaker 1: I really know that you actually are changing a lot
Speaker 1: of things in your life for me that you never
Speaker 1: had to do before. You know what I mean, You've
Speaker 1: been lawless all these years, and I know how kind
Speaker 1: of traumatic that can feel. You're fighting, you're holding on
Speaker 1: to some ship, you know what I mean, And I
Speaker 1: know you gotta get it out, but let this be
Speaker 1: our Like you said you she she loves you for you,
Speaker 1: with your flaws and everything, all your mistakes. She still
Speaker 1: accepts you. That's the way you're supposed to love somebody.
Speaker 1: And this is my question. I also think you would
Speaker 1: be surprised. But with a lot of married couples go
Speaker 1: through right, really about accepting a compermind, Mary, friends be
Speaker 1: having the most issues, but you know, if you write
Speaker 1: it out, you got to write it out till they
Speaker 1: gets better. But everybody goes to the question alone. So
Speaker 1: what about door number three? We heard the girl in
Speaker 1: the group she killed herself the girl he's not actually
Speaker 1: the third girl. Actually, um, she cut me off, okay,
Speaker 1: because because she started to realize she ain't the one.
Speaker 1: She got it to realize, nig you ain't. You don't
Speaker 1: want to I want not that she wasn't the one.
Speaker 1: But she was just like, you're not where I'm at
Speaker 1: right now, right, let's just be cool. She was like,
Speaker 1: let's just be cool, dog, like, you have a question.
Speaker 1: Have a lot of females don't do that. They just
Speaker 1: be on like really to really, to be honest, the
Speaker 1: girl that's that fucked me up wasn't one of my
Speaker 1: three loves, my other third love. She I mean, it's
Speaker 1: like I just I just had to make it. I
Speaker 1: just had to make a decision. Man, just man, just no,
Speaker 1: I had to make a decision. It was just like
Speaker 1: you know, other man't like that, I have a question.
Speaker 1: She was way on the other side of the world,
Speaker 1: and it was totally like a long distance No, it
Speaker 1: wasn't the FaceTime thing. It was just it wasn't like
Speaker 1: every day in my vicinity. And I really built such
Speaker 1: a bond and friendship because with my now that it
Speaker 1: was like you know what, I'm good, I'm just not. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but that was that I've been trying to question for minutes.
Speaker 1: I've been trying to I forgot you said, No, I
Speaker 1: did not forget it, because it's really important to me.
Speaker 1: It's very interesting to hear a man talk like this.
Speaker 1: It's like a dream, you know what I'm Men don't fit.
Speaker 1: The men are not started to show so different. Man don't.
Speaker 1: But man, you know, men don't really. It takes a
Speaker 1: while for them to get if they ever get to
Speaker 1: that place in their mind. So you said that you
Speaker 1: learned to look at people and see them for exactly
Speaker 1: who they are. How long did it take for you
Speaker 1: to get there? When when did that happen for you? Well?
Speaker 1: Like what age? Oh? Well, and well in to my
Speaker 1: my mid late twenties, late twenties, mid twenties. But again,
Speaker 1: you gotta remember, I've been I've been releasing an album
Speaker 1: since I was sixteens, so you're late twenties, like your
Speaker 1: early third Like I've been like that since I was
Speaker 1: a teenager. Women are what I feel like, right, I
Speaker 1: feel like men don't do that. I feel like men
Speaker 1: don't do that right, and we know why. And I
Speaker 1: also feel like women don't do this I feel like
Speaker 1: women don't take Okay, this is what I saw y'all
Speaker 1: having a conversation about not too long ago. This is
Speaker 1: what I believe a lot of men feel, and even
Speaker 1: some women, that sex is not always representative of love.
Speaker 1: Sometimes it's just the act, like an exercise. Sometimes it's
Speaker 1: a release, it's a it's just a letting go at
Speaker 1: ways and sometimes and sometimes I think men can justify
Speaker 1: just sex with a person and and still save their
Speaker 1: love and their heart for somewhere else. Confused the two,
Speaker 1: that's exactly. And for some strange reason, I think traditionally
Speaker 1: people they cringe at that notion. But I think, really
Speaker 1: it's kind of unnatural to be with one person forever.
Speaker 1: I mean, not a lot of creatures in God's kingdom
Speaker 1: don't mate with the same thing. Some do your owls,
Speaker 1: but I'm not a wait wait, wait, wait, wait, boyfriend
Speaker 1: and girlfriend they get married, I had no idea. I
Speaker 1: think it's great when you can get I think everybody
Speaker 1: can get to that place. But some people are different.
Speaker 1: Everybody's unique, right. Some marriages are held together by an
Speaker 1: open mind, right, someone that knows, Okay, my my partner
Speaker 1: is a little freaky, like to experiment and that brings
Speaker 1: them a certain kind of joy. So maybe I'll bring
Speaker 1: in a partner, a friend. That's when the three stiff
Speaker 1: comes in, you know, just for them. Look at that
Speaker 1: makes some people cringe, and that keeps some people together.
Speaker 1: It's about being honest, though, and for real, I think
Speaker 1: that's really where I'm at with it. It's like I
Speaker 1: just started being honest. So can you be monogamous? You
Speaker 1: think from now moving forward on? It's a challenge, But
Speaker 1: I think I could do it because is I'm satisfied.
Speaker 1: I don't need to. I don't need nothing else to
Speaker 1: be honest. Like y'all said, it's the honesty thing, because
Speaker 1: what it is is guys will do what they want
Speaker 1: to do, but they'll lie about it. So if you
Speaker 1: have three girls like you, but you said you have
Speaker 1: three girls, if you're only fucking too, you're gonna tell
Speaker 1: all three and that thing. And my girls so dope
Speaker 1: that if it's something that I really need her to
Speaker 1: do for me, she'll do it. She'll try it. She'd
Speaker 1: be like, all right, let's do it, let's try it.
Speaker 1: If you want to do it, let's do it. She's
Speaker 1: not gonna be like I just don't like that. I'm
Speaker 1: not doing that. Don't bring that over here kind of thing.
Speaker 1: Some things that don't get her that don't do it
Speaker 1: for But if it's something that I might need, she's
Speaker 1: definitely gonna do it. What would you be willing to
Speaker 1: do that for her? If she needed something? Depends? Ain't
Speaker 1: keep stick my tongue and nobody asked me. I can't
Speaker 1: do it anyway so much that I'm so glad that
Speaker 1: you got. Hey, look but we could got them getting
Speaker 1: goddamn we could wet some ship and did you right?
Speaker 1: Did I ever try it? No? No, the shower try
Speaker 1: like ya gotta do that ship every day or not?
Speaker 1: Eating nobody ass yo, never listen, that's for boys to
Speaker 1: do anything. No, it's not. Well. Look, I'm so open.
Speaker 1: I'm like, get the nick, get the nigger to eat it,
Speaker 1: and that just be his wrong. No, you pa I
Speaker 1: so much. It was so good, But I got that's alright.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie. You just disappointed us with that
Speaker 1: one man. I can't don't you didn't try it? You
Speaker 1: know what I think it would have to be like
Speaker 1: she have you have to sit your ass in the
Speaker 1: thing like a what is it called a sterilizer. No,
Speaker 1: but you're not missing anything that's for boys. As eating
Speaker 1: there's no pleasure for women. It's for boys. That's a
Speaker 1: pleasure for a man like it? Well, No, I actually
Speaker 1: don't like. But you're trying to like. It's more like when.
Speaker 1: But I also feel like if a woman wants you
Speaker 1: to do it, and you're willing, and she's willing to
Speaker 1: do anything for you, that you should try it. What
Speaker 1: I will say, it's nothing. It's nothing more exciting than
Speaker 1: a woman that knows herself for real in in every
Speaker 1: way but especially sexually, you know, like knows her body,
Speaker 1: knows what she needs. So I think, because I'm such
Speaker 1: a selfless lover, if oh god, he's he's really never
Speaker 1: gonna eat because I was almost you know what, I
Speaker 1: have been getting there that like. But I mean because
Speaker 1: anything that she would need to get there, I would
Speaker 1: be open for it. But I don't see the I
Speaker 1: don't see the thrill in that, and in fact, and
Speaker 1: in fact it excites me to excite my partner right
Speaker 1: like when I snow they enjoying it, they're getting it
Speaker 1: makes me. It makes me so like But my life,
Speaker 1: I don't think I could find any excitement from eating
Speaker 1: some ass. But you also don't know. You're just saying,
Speaker 1: I don't think and I don't know, right, and I
Speaker 1: don't know. But I also thought I would also thought
Speaker 1: I would never eat pussy as a brad. I mean,
Speaker 1: you know, growing up, you know, growing up it was
Speaker 1: like tabooty eat pussy, but it was like eating no pussy.
Speaker 1: That's you know, I don't eat pussy. That's what we
Speaker 1: always go down south. That's what y'all known for. Absolutely.
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying that, remember the first time. I'm
Speaker 1: just saying at one point, yeah, I never heard that before.
Speaker 1: Who just felt like him? DJ Kalin and like somebody
Speaker 1: that has experienced is the only people I've ever heard
Speaker 1: to say that having your first eating experience, my first, um, okay,
Speaker 1: she gets you to do it since you didn't think.
Speaker 1: In fact, it was this girl that was from from
Speaker 1: my school. I had always liked that she had never
Speaker 1: paid me attention, and then I blew up and she
Speaker 1: was like what you're doing? Like what you're doing? You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And she came through one day
Speaker 1: and this is like the five Heart pizza and I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, I really liked her though, so I
Speaker 1: was like, all right, I'm an impressor. I'm gonna trying
Speaker 1: to really do so I'm gonna do something nice for
Speaker 1: I was like sev seventeen and so yeah. So I
Speaker 1: went down there and I looked at it and that's it. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do this ship right now.
Speaker 1: Here we go, Here we go, Here we go, Here
Speaker 1: we go, Here we go, here we go. And I
Speaker 1: got up to the place. No, everyone's trash. He was like,
Speaker 1: and I heard she said, was saying again shorty, and
Speaker 1: then you wrote the song. It was just bad. Know
Speaker 1: what I was doing, man, I don't know what I
Speaker 1: was doing. She did, Okay, let me tell you, let
Speaker 1: me tell you the real story. And then somebody I
Speaker 1: was with, right, one of my one of my my
Speaker 1: homies was with me and he saw me. We was
Speaker 1: in the livingroom. Yeah, he was open in the room.
Speaker 1: So I'm pretending like I know what I'm doing, right,
Speaker 1: and he fucking comes over there. He's like, you know,
Speaker 1: I got it when you were eating it right, party
Speaker 1: was going on here, damn party. Wait wait this that's
Speaker 1: just like I mean, she just started doing Christ and
Speaker 1: I was like, God, damn, I guess I just played
Speaker 1: with the man. That ship broke my heart so bad.
Speaker 1: Love that bit, right, that was the last time you go, man?
Speaker 1: And now I can understand what he means when he
Speaker 1: talks about why he would allow someone else to come here.
Speaker 1: This makes sense. You got to call him a party
Speaker 1: like that regular sexual experience that was a whole okay,
Speaker 1: so when you come so right, So when you come
Speaker 1: from really crazy experiences for some of your first time,
Speaker 1: it's hard to should hard to turn down some time
Speaker 1: you should have her. But with her like we're hearing
Speaker 1: that you have to go, but right, they say, we
Speaker 1: got question. Okay, now, we didn't want you to leave.
Speaker 1: That's the one thing I wanted to say on this.
Speaker 1: We got that part too. Why is it so hard
Speaker 1: for someone to be a friend with the ex? I
Speaker 1: don't have any problem with that? Why is that so hard?
Speaker 1: Friends with my son's father though we have a child.
Speaker 1: All of my other exes like we're cool. But I
Speaker 1: think the problem is if it's a person and fun them.
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying if it actually was a good person,
Speaker 1: y'all was friends first and then it didn't work. Out
Speaker 1: because that's how she is. How come girls just they
Speaker 1: do not like you to be talking about I tell
Speaker 1: you why, because that's somebody that you had a relationship
Speaker 1: and you have. She gave me the pussy before you again,
Speaker 1: she will give again. That don't necessarily mean and I
Speaker 1: have Okay, this is my this is my this is
Speaker 1: my problem with that. You can't give somebody pussy that
Speaker 1: don't take the pussy? Have you ever though? Never? Why?
Speaker 1: I have never? I have never sucked some pussy that
Speaker 1: I did not want to fuck anymore? You about that
Speaker 1: period in the store acting my reason I have. I
Speaker 1: have what I'm saying here, I have a reason. I
Speaker 1: have a reason so here, and I have an ex
Speaker 1: that we were. We grew up together. We were we
Speaker 1: were like best friends, even like we rode together, like
Speaker 1: you know, like this is my my boy. We slept
Speaker 1: together one time we were kids and we stood friends.
Speaker 1: Never slept together again, and then we ended up having
Speaker 1: a relationship in our adult years. Right, something similar? Right?
Speaker 1: So um, I feel bad. You know he and I
Speaker 1: would not ever be together again. I wish him luck.
Speaker 1: I pray for him and his family and everything. You know,
Speaker 1: God bless him. I don't have no beef for them.
Speaker 1: But um, I feel like me being friends with him
Speaker 1: is encouraging him to write me no, no, no, I
Speaker 1: feel like I feel like me being friends with him
Speaker 1: is disrespectful to his situation and that he has because
Speaker 1: he has a girl for he has a wife. He
Speaker 1: has a wife now who who knows about our relationship
Speaker 1: and was not you know, she was fine with us
Speaker 1: being friends back in the days because they have they
Speaker 1: work together for a long time and then they broke
Speaker 1: up and we had a relationship, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: Because that's really it's confusing though, because look, this is
Speaker 1: what I think. I think real true happiness is being
Speaker 1: so comfortable in your own skin that you'd never ever
Speaker 1: uh project your insecurity on to someone else, right, And
Speaker 1: then it's so easy for someone to do. And this
Speaker 1: is my thing. If you have everything with the person
Speaker 1: who you love and and nothing, nothing's going on, it's
Speaker 1: really nothing to worry about for real, then really all
Speaker 1: you're doing is you're projecting your own and and fear
Speaker 1: causes distress your relationships. And if people could let go
Speaker 1: of that fear ship, write the insecurity ship and just
Speaker 1: be accepted that look I'm never gonna always be there, right,
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna always know everything in real time. But
Speaker 1: I trust, I have trust. I have trust and I
Speaker 1: lived through trust. And if you could do that, I
Speaker 1: think people could be so much more happy. But but
Speaker 1: your situation, that sounds great, But how your relationship started
Speaker 1: was a hurtful thing. It didn't start like that. It
Speaker 1: didn't start you know what I'm saying. But for you know,
Speaker 1: she found out, you know, you got understanding. So she's
Speaker 1: still sometimes even though she's moved past it, it still
Speaker 1: is something that every now and then you might think about.
Speaker 1: And secondly, I also feel like if you respect your relationship,
Speaker 1: sometimes you do have to make sacrifices. And if that
Speaker 1: sacrifice means that I can't be as tight with my
Speaker 1: ex as I would like, but every now and then
Speaker 1: I'll send a text on a birthday maybe you know whatever.
Speaker 1: But sometimes in a relationship, if you wanted to work,
Speaker 1: you do have to make sense. And it's because of
Speaker 1: what you have done. Like she said, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying that I just I just feel like, you know,
Speaker 1: as much as as much as the world, I feel
Speaker 1: like it's in a perfect world, it would be great
Speaker 1: for me to be friends with this guy that was
Speaker 1: my childhood friend, and I'm still friends with everybody else
Speaker 1: that we're friends with, but you know, just to respect
Speaker 1: myself and respect him at his situation and that cause
Speaker 1: no conflict in his family or anything. It's just like, no,
Speaker 1: we can't even be cool, like not even be like
Speaker 1: up type of friends because she makes a lot of sacrifices.
Speaker 1: Feel you just feel like it's a sacrifice. I always
Speaker 1: feel like and I love him and he loves me
Speaker 1: and they but it's not in love. It's you know,
Speaker 1: we love each other like yo, min like I know,
Speaker 1: I know. I just feel like everybody's been with everybody
Speaker 1: and you know, and for real, it's like it still
Speaker 1: it's not Trump, that's still whoever you was with whenever.
Speaker 1: That don't trump what you got going on right now,
Speaker 1: that's what especially if you honest and real with that person,
Speaker 1: you know, but you do anything to please you right
Speaker 1: and try anything, so well almost that's likewise, it's a compromise,
Speaker 1: like you said, the women out there that would do
Speaker 1: anything to deal with you or to be around you,
Speaker 1: or to work with you, and not that she has
Speaker 1: to always maybe she just needs to be reassured. Sometimes
Speaker 1: it's not. It is. It's a lot. It's hard. That's
Speaker 1: also a slight on my my ability to control myself.
Speaker 1: It's like, I don't care who's throwing anything. If I'm
Speaker 1: not catching it, nothing can happen. Nobody's holding me down
Speaker 1: and making me like it's got to be bullet parties.
Speaker 1: But I'm not, like, I know you have a lot
Speaker 1: of guys. I know you have to see a lot
Speaker 1: of it. And this is also the issue that she
Speaker 1: brought up. She said, she said, well, how would you
Speaker 1: feel if I was real cool with all my exit right?
Speaker 1: And I said, I wouldn't have a problem with at
Speaker 1: because I'm so comfortable. That's what she's confident in myself.
Speaker 1: What if I truly feel like none of them are me?
Speaker 1: Not to slight them, just more comfortable, Manique, with what
Speaker 1: I'm offering here in certain things that I'm not really
Speaker 1: tripping off of that give you everything all the time. Earlier,
Speaker 1: you just said that people trip up sometimes. You did
Speaker 1: say that she's trying to prevent those us. Oh, just
Speaker 1: so to prevent the trip trip up, you gotta lock
Speaker 1: yourself in the room. But what I'm saying, I might
Speaker 1: feel like your ex still has feelings for you, and
Speaker 1: you never know, you don't really drink a last she
Speaker 1: might give you a little Hennessey or something and the
Speaker 1: next thing, you know, but not the first time, because
Speaker 1: what did he do. I'm just coming from because my listen.
Speaker 1: Let's say you guys, when I'm dating somebody, I feel
Speaker 1: like they can go and be around any women. It
Speaker 1: doesn't matter because she not me. That's you're a jealous person.
Speaker 1: You know. I used to be on some ship that
Speaker 1: I didn't want my man to even have girlfriends, friends.
Speaker 1: Friend I used to be, and I was exactly who
Speaker 1: I was, especially even talking about the last guy. I was,
Speaker 1: that guy I was talking about when I was with him,
Speaker 1: with him, please, I couldn't stand even looking at a
Speaker 1: girl say hi to him. But right now, you know
Speaker 1: I I moved forward to dating you know, higher profile guys,
Speaker 1: and they are constantly around women all the time. You know,
Speaker 1: it's inevitable. You can't stop it, you know. And I'm
Speaker 1: not talking about regular women. I'm talking about beautiful women
Speaker 1: all the time, you know what I'm saying. And their horrors,
Speaker 1: they're like literally throwing their leg up to see him.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, but it's like for me,
Speaker 1: it's like not he's always gonna come over here because
Speaker 1: I'm me, my girl to spend time with my publicist sometimes, right,
Speaker 1: who is she one in the morning. I'm like, she
Speaker 1: had California. That's just simply lemonade. I want to thank
Speaker 1: you so much. I've been on I've been I live
Speaker 1: in l A now and like, no, no, no, I'm
Speaker 1: not trying to wrap it up now, you're not. She's like, hey,
Speaker 1: the publicists are talking about wrapping up, you know, but
Speaker 1: I just want to thank you because I've been away
Speaker 1: for a couple of months and this conversation it was.
Speaker 1: It's hopeful it gives because I just feel like everybody
Speaker 1: I just doesn't see me for the person that I am.
Speaker 1: They see me for the Stephanie Santiago thought on the internet,
Speaker 1: even though I don't even feel like I portrayed that,
Speaker 1: but that's what they see anyway. You know, you can't
Speaker 1: control people's perception of you. They're gonna feel how they
Speaker 1: want about you. Just got to do that. I really,
Speaker 1: I've just been lately. I've just been like, you know what,
Speaker 1: people don't see me for who I am and it
Speaker 1: just is what it is. But your conversation, thank you,
Speaker 1: say come Stephanie's very happy to be here back when
Speaker 1: it is it full LP Dropping comes out Friday, August
Speaker 1: thirty one. It features my son for the first time
Speaker 1: called Affinity that I wrote after he was born. Got
Speaker 1: a song called Porcelain that's one of my favorites that
Speaker 1: I wrote about my girl. Uh, it's just like porcelain
Speaker 1: Caramel is about her too. Um. Also have a song
Speaker 1: called Little Sis That's Dope that I wrote about my
Speaker 1: baby sister that passed in ninety two and how I
Speaker 1: just kind of had to come to copes with some
Speaker 1: things now that I became a father, maybe losing a child,
Speaker 1: what that could have been like from my mom, all
Speaker 1: that kind of stuff I'm I'm facing now And of
Speaker 1: course true the least single is there too. So it's
Speaker 1: like a therapy album. It's just so, it's just so
Speaker 1: it's just like a reflection of the human experience. It's
Speaker 1: a celebration of you know, reality, like instead of escapism
Speaker 1: and fantasy, is like moving towards the truth. So I'm
Speaker 1: happy that you are back in doing I know you
Speaker 1: put out the EP, but I'm really happy because you know,
Speaker 1: we're all fans of Lloyd here for such a long time,
Speaker 1: and I know you've been through a lot of things,
Speaker 1: as you've expressed in your music, so it's just good
Speaker 1: to him. Next time, bring the guitar. That's next time
Speaker 1: dropped them draws. Yeah, you guys are fast for me.
Speaker 1: I don't even know what there's all right, I'll do
Speaker 1: it right now, everybody. Y'all got double standing, I don't.
Speaker 1: You got your Christmas money ready? Let service