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Speaker 1: What's up. It's a lift service. This is a really

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Speaker 1: really special one. Yes. First of all, everybody's chatting before

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Speaker 1: we even tearing the mics on. I mean, but I'm

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Speaker 1: Angela ye MacGuire, Oh, I mean Stephanie hold off. No, no,

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Speaker 1: we're not gonna start her lover, and see what I mean.

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Speaker 1: We wanted her to hold up because especially because I'm

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Speaker 1: everybody's asking used to saying my name after I know

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Speaker 1: and it's been seven months and me saying it it's

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Speaker 1: not seven months. I've only been in l a for

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Speaker 1: four months, okay seven to number. And speaking of people

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Speaker 1: coming back, we got Lloyd here as well, special guests

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Speaker 1: and just how we like, we love motherfucker it to

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Speaker 1: it like this. It's not it's gonna be fine. You know,

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Speaker 1: you get tricky. We have the guitar, take off the

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Speaker 1: clothes and when you come in here naked, this is

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Speaker 1: false advertisement. That's what I thought we was getting good

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Speaker 1: going on. We thought he was getting naked Lloyd. But

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Speaker 1: I do think people should be able to walk around

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Speaker 1: the time. I can't make it out. People do really

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Speaker 1: that I'm thinking about it, this morning, I was having

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Speaker 1: a dream that I was naked in the street. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: yeah you should. You should live your dreams. I will

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Speaker 1: say this, though, I do think sometimes if we could

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Speaker 1: we're getting into. That's a fact. There's a show Dating Dating. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I had a dream about being on there once. Really

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Speaker 1: I did an album shoot ever with you? I agree

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Speaker 1: with you because if I was on Dating naked, I

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Speaker 1: or not. That's not fair for guys. I'm getting some

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Speaker 1: guys that actually growers and our showers, so we might

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Speaker 1: think we're getting something, but then bang. Or he might

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Speaker 1: like really small until they get hard, right Like it's

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Speaker 1: a grower maybe maybe, but you can't help us anyway.

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Speaker 1: I'm saying grower, not a shower. You never heard that expression.

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Speaker 1: He's a growing but I have now though your large

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Speaker 1: shower clearly he's a shower. He don't need to grow.

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Speaker 1: Some people need to grow. Were you winning out grower?

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Speaker 1: Is it five to or is it fine? Is it

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Speaker 1: the size of the guitar for years? We're fine? What's

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Speaker 1: tell us now? I don't think I could tell you

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Speaker 1: about me like that. I think you have to ask

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Speaker 1: Who can we ask? Because you are very private, private

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Speaker 1: and secretive. You ain't been linked. Anybody's hit it with Lloyd.

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Speaker 1: Hit us up right now, let us know. It's he

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Speaker 1: a grower or it's her shower. I don't want my baby, mom. Now,

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Speaker 1: that's that's nice. River River. That's your son's name? My son?

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Speaker 1: How old is he? He's eleven months, he'll be a

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Speaker 1: little little boy. I'm expecting my second to it's like

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Speaker 1: a son or second we don't know. We don't delivery.

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Speaker 1: And then like that pig two names with your son.

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Speaker 1: Yeah nice, you're not gonna have one of those fancy

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Speaker 1: gender revealed parties. Put blue chem trails in the sky.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, what do you buy? Do you buy like

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Speaker 1: yellow clothes for them to come? Now in the fact,

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Speaker 1: like my man, Yes I am, but yeah, but I'm

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Speaker 1: stare at that? I was, But I would say, this, man,

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Speaker 1: like childbirth of course, but even just on a day

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Speaker 1: just and when she was pregnant, I will always she

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Speaker 1: like we like they say nothing, you could do it,

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Speaker 1: with child you know, with child birth, that's probably just

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Speaker 1: because I know they said that. She said that was

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Speaker 1: too bad to me. That's that's where great girls don't

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Speaker 1: The more they spank no, no, you spent so much

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Speaker 1: don't know what girls, because girls don't like to fart

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Speaker 1: I think it's so natural, Like what the fun else?

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Speaker 1: Before I was just dropping lemonade. Oh yeah, and then

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Speaker 1: Well not really personally, but I have been an eight

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Speaker 1: actually compare everybody I ever see at a gentleman's club

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Speaker 1: then made some stuff. But she was pregnant, y'all. Na man, yeah,

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Speaker 1: she knew I was still conflicted, but she was like,

427
00:24:12,359 --> 00:24:14,520
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm gonna just support him. I'm gonna

428
00:24:14,560 --> 00:24:16,400
Speaker 1: stay down with him. I'm gonna give him love when

429
00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:19,680
Speaker 1: he needed, and I'm I'm gonna I'm not gonna stand

430
00:24:19,720 --> 00:24:22,920
Speaker 1: for no bullshit. But I'm also not going to impose

431
00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:25,560
Speaker 1: myself so much that I want to change him or

432
00:24:25,560 --> 00:24:29,760
Speaker 1: make him someone else. She was like, she loved me,

433
00:24:30,119 --> 00:24:34,000
Speaker 1: I really knew how to love myself, and I once I,

434
00:24:34,119 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: once I realized that she was, I would be I

435
00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:40,439
Speaker 1: would be this. It would be such a tragedy for

436
00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:43,280
Speaker 1: me to write this off. So what I did was

437
00:24:43,320 --> 00:24:46,239
Speaker 1: I just committed myself, just committed myself. I said, no

438
00:24:46,280 --> 00:24:49,439
Speaker 1: matter how piste off I get, inpatient I get, no

439
00:24:49,480 --> 00:24:52,080
Speaker 1: matter how much my A D D kick in, no

440
00:24:52,080 --> 00:24:54,400
Speaker 1: matter how much temptation I'm faced with, I'm gonna see

441
00:24:54,400 --> 00:24:57,040
Speaker 1: it through because I think that at the end of

442
00:24:57,040 --> 00:25:00,240
Speaker 1: the day, even if some ship don't fucking work, which

443
00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:03,880
Speaker 1: is very very much a chance, at least you say

444
00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 1: you try, unless you say I gave the effort. I

445
00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:12,719
Speaker 1: did everything I could, everything right, And that's just kind

446
00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:15,679
Speaker 1: of where I'm at with it. Something that happened specifically

447
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:18,080
Speaker 1: that made you say Okay, now I'm going to be committed.

448
00:25:18,920 --> 00:25:25,240
Speaker 1: I got caught. Well that's not why, no, no, no,

449
00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:30,439
Speaker 1: let me tell you, yes, but let me tell you

450
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 1: what happened. Though. There was a girl that that that

451
00:25:34,520 --> 00:25:37,159
Speaker 1: liked me a lot. She actually loved me, but I

452
00:25:37,160 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: didn't love her, and I knew that right and it

453
00:25:40,560 --> 00:25:45,640
Speaker 1: was just really like good sex. She just knew herself.

454
00:25:45,680 --> 00:25:48,360
Speaker 1: She was older than my girl. She kind of knew

455
00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:52,320
Speaker 1: herself a lot more. She was more like comfortable and

456
00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: confident in the bed. And to me, I always was like,

457
00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:58,159
Speaker 1: I don't know, infatuated with older women growing up. So

458
00:25:58,200 --> 00:26:00,960
Speaker 1: it's like I don't know. I just kind of couldn't

459
00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:03,880
Speaker 1: get away from it. And one time we was we

460
00:26:03,920 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 1: was together and she goes to me, she says, I

461
00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:12,080
Speaker 1: love you, and I said, okay, this is a moment

462
00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:15,960
Speaker 1: for me right now to really fucking like live honest, right,

463
00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:18,600
Speaker 1: just really really be honest, even if I'm conflicted, at

464
00:26:18,680 --> 00:26:21,360
Speaker 1: least be honest. I never lied about my ship, but

465
00:26:21,760 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 1: I said, you know what, I don't love you. I said,

466
00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:28,040
Speaker 1: I said, for real, I don't love you like that.

467
00:26:28,160 --> 00:26:29,840
Speaker 1: I got love for you, but I'm not I don't

468
00:26:29,840 --> 00:26:32,080
Speaker 1: love you like that. I don't love you, and I

469
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:35,320
Speaker 1: never will love you like never I said, I love

470
00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:43,080
Speaker 1: someone else, like I said, I said, to be honest,

471
00:26:43,119 --> 00:26:46,159
Speaker 1: I love somebody else. How did she react? She got mad.

472
00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 1: She got mad when she got mad, And I understand that.

473
00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:51,960
Speaker 1: I see in my mind, I thought you would respect

474
00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:54,960
Speaker 1: at least I honestly hurt so sometimes, and you're gonna

475
00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:56,920
Speaker 1: be at least if you could be honest. I respect

476
00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,000
Speaker 1: it coming from you now. But I said, I just said,

477
00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:02,359
Speaker 1: I don't love you, but I don't love you like that.

478
00:27:02,920 --> 00:27:05,040
Speaker 1: And so what she ended up doing what she made

479
00:27:05,080 --> 00:27:10,720
Speaker 1: it her life's mission to find my girl and tell

480
00:27:10,840 --> 00:27:15,480
Speaker 1: her that, oh I was with him and and this

481
00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:18,800
Speaker 1: and this and this and that, and to me, I said,

482
00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:21,919
Speaker 1: you know what, I talked to my girl, right, she

483
00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:25,240
Speaker 1: was devastated. She was devastated, and that hurt me. And

484
00:27:25,280 --> 00:27:28,480
Speaker 1: I realized that I really really cared, you know what

485
00:27:28,560 --> 00:27:31,360
Speaker 1: I mean, Like just the pain she felt brought me

486
00:27:31,680 --> 00:27:35,720
Speaker 1: so much pain. Right And on top of that, I

487
00:27:35,760 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 1: thought her, I thought that, you know what, this girl

488
00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:45,560
Speaker 1: who I don't love is so hurt that she is

489
00:27:45,560 --> 00:27:48,840
Speaker 1: willing to make it her life's mission to destroy the

490
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: one thing that I do a company that I really

491
00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:53,679
Speaker 1: do actually care about, you know what I mean? And

492
00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:56,320
Speaker 1: I'm like, you know, and you know what I'm like,

493
00:27:56,359 --> 00:27:59,040
Speaker 1: You know what, People hurt. People hurt. People hurt people.

494
00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:01,959
Speaker 1: And I stood where why she was doing it. It

495
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:05,240
Speaker 1: wasn't because she didn't want It was because she didn't

496
00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:09,679
Speaker 1: want me to be happy that she wasn't right. And

497
00:28:10,160 --> 00:28:11,760
Speaker 1: you know what she said, she loved you, and she

498
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:13,639
Speaker 1: did not love you because if she loved you, she

499
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:17,920
Speaker 1: would want you to be happy with a person was

500
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:23,600
Speaker 1: going through some ship with speaking because you was there. Man, Look,

501
00:28:23,640 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 1: I don't blame her, but I do I do know this.

502
00:28:25,960 --> 00:28:28,920
Speaker 1: I do know this. I do know that. I think

503
00:28:29,359 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 1: in any real, true, happy and long term relationship or marriage,

504
00:28:34,920 --> 00:28:38,640
Speaker 1: there is going to come a time where nature plays

505
00:28:38,640 --> 00:28:42,920
Speaker 1: his course right at some point we're going to become lustful,

506
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:47,200
Speaker 1: or very or or or just sway a little bit,

507
00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:49,960
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. We're going to make a stumble.

508
00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 1: And I think a real true love is a person

509
00:28:54,160 --> 00:28:58,080
Speaker 1: that sees the flaw in the person as not definitive

510
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:01,400
Speaker 1: of a long term a something that can be learned

511
00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:04,200
Speaker 1: from a lesson. And that's what my girl did for me.

512
00:29:04,680 --> 00:29:06,840
Speaker 1: She really liked was like, you know what this is,

513
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:09,320
Speaker 1: this I'm going to treat this like the biggest lesson,

514
00:29:10,040 --> 00:29:12,320
Speaker 1: Like that's not I can't go through this again. She's

515
00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:14,920
Speaker 1: just like I can't even I can't take that ship

516
00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:18,560
Speaker 1: no more. But I know what your heart is at.

517
00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,160
Speaker 1: I really know that you actually are changing a lot

518
00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:24,400
Speaker 1: of things in your life for me that you never

519
00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:26,600
Speaker 1: had to do before. You know what I mean, You've

520
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:30,760
Speaker 1: been lawless all these years, and I know how kind

521
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:34,160
Speaker 1: of traumatic that can feel. You're fighting, you're holding on

522
00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:35,760
Speaker 1: to some ship, you know what I mean, And I

523
00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:39,200
Speaker 1: know you gotta get it out, but let this be

524
00:29:39,320 --> 00:29:48,000
Speaker 1: our Like you said you she she loves you for you,

525
00:29:48,160 --> 00:29:51,400
Speaker 1: with your flaws and everything, all your mistakes. She still

526
00:29:51,440 --> 00:29:54,680
Speaker 1: accepts you. That's the way you're supposed to love somebody.

527
00:29:55,760 --> 00:29:58,200
Speaker 1: And this is my question. I also think you would

528
00:29:58,200 --> 00:30:01,160
Speaker 1: be surprised. But with a lot of married couples go

529
00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:07,600
Speaker 1: through right, really about accepting a compermind, Mary, friends be

530
00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 1: having the most issues, but you know, if you write

531
00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:12,080
Speaker 1: it out, you got to write it out till they

532
00:30:12,080 --> 00:30:14,280
Speaker 1: gets better. But everybody goes to the question alone. So

533
00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:17,840
Speaker 1: what about door number three? We heard the girl in

534
00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:25,240
Speaker 1: the group she killed herself the girl he's not actually

535
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 1: the third girl. Actually, um, she cut me off, okay,

536
00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:38,000
Speaker 1: because because she started to realize she ain't the one.

537
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,440
Speaker 1: She got it to realize, nig you ain't. You don't

538
00:30:40,480 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: want to I want not that she wasn't the one.

539
00:30:43,760 --> 00:30:45,560
Speaker 1: But she was just like, you're not where I'm at

540
00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 1: right now, right, let's just be cool. She was like,

541
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:52,960
Speaker 1: let's just be cool, dog, like, you have a question.

542
00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:55,800
Speaker 1: Have a lot of females don't do that. They just

543
00:30:55,880 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 1: be on like really to really, to be honest, the

544
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 1: girl that's that fucked me up wasn't one of my

545
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:07,680
Speaker 1: three loves, my other third love. She I mean, it's

546
00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:10,160
Speaker 1: like I just I just had to make it. I

547
00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:14,719
Speaker 1: just had to make a decision. Man, just man, just no,

548
00:31:14,800 --> 00:31:16,440
Speaker 1: I had to make a decision. It was just like

549
00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:21,840
Speaker 1: you know, other man't like that, I have a question.

550
00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:25,040
Speaker 1: She was way on the other side of the world,

551
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:29,640
Speaker 1: and it was totally like a long distance No, it

552
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,800
Speaker 1: wasn't the FaceTime thing. It was just it wasn't like

553
00:31:33,080 --> 00:31:37,000
Speaker 1: every day in my vicinity. And I really built such

554
00:31:37,040 --> 00:31:40,560
Speaker 1: a bond and friendship because with my now that it

555
00:31:40,640 --> 00:31:45,240
Speaker 1: was like you know what, I'm good, I'm just not. Yeah,

556
00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:49,000
Speaker 1: but that was that I've been trying to question for minutes.

557
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:52,720
Speaker 1: I've been trying to I forgot you said, No, I

558
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:55,080
Speaker 1: did not forget it, because it's really important to me.

559
00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:57,560
Speaker 1: It's very interesting to hear a man talk like this.

560
00:31:57,600 --> 00:32:01,200
Speaker 1: It's like a dream, you know what I'm Men don't fit.

561
00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:06,760
Speaker 1: The men are not started to show so different. Man don't.

562
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:10,120
Speaker 1: But man, you know, men don't really. It takes a

563
00:32:10,160 --> 00:32:12,840
Speaker 1: while for them to get if they ever get to

564
00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:16,640
Speaker 1: that place in their mind. So you said that you

565
00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:19,920
Speaker 1: learned to look at people and see them for exactly

566
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,520
Speaker 1: who they are. How long did it take for you

567
00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:26,560
Speaker 1: to get there? When when did that happen for you? Well?

568
00:32:28,080 --> 00:32:31,520
Speaker 1: Like what age? Oh? Well, and well in to my

569
00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 1: my mid late twenties, late twenties, mid twenties. But again,

570
00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:39,360
Speaker 1: you gotta remember, I've been I've been releasing an album

571
00:32:39,400 --> 00:32:45,800
Speaker 1: since I was sixteens, so you're late twenties, like your

572
00:32:45,800 --> 00:32:49,360
Speaker 1: early third Like I've been like that since I was

573
00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: a teenager. Women are what I feel like, right, I

574
00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:56,520
Speaker 1: feel like men don't do that. I feel like men

575
00:32:56,600 --> 00:32:58,440
Speaker 1: don't do that right, and we know why. And I

576
00:32:58,480 --> 00:33:00,680
Speaker 1: also feel like women don't do this I feel like

577
00:33:00,680 --> 00:33:04,840
Speaker 1: women don't take Okay, this is what I saw y'all

578
00:33:04,840 --> 00:33:06,720
Speaker 1: having a conversation about not too long ago. This is

579
00:33:06,720 --> 00:33:09,240
Speaker 1: what I believe a lot of men feel, and even

580
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:14,000
Speaker 1: some women, that sex is not always representative of love.

581
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:17,520
Speaker 1: Sometimes it's just the act, like an exercise. Sometimes it's

582
00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 1: a release, it's a it's just a letting go at

583
00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:28,480
Speaker 1: ways and sometimes and sometimes I think men can justify

584
00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 1: just sex with a person and and still save their

585
00:33:32,920 --> 00:33:37,800
Speaker 1: love and their heart for somewhere else. Confused the two,

586
00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:42,120
Speaker 1: that's exactly. And for some strange reason, I think traditionally

587
00:33:42,680 --> 00:33:47,320
Speaker 1: people they cringe at that notion. But I think, really

588
00:33:47,480 --> 00:33:50,640
Speaker 1: it's kind of unnatural to be with one person forever.

589
00:33:50,960 --> 00:33:53,600
Speaker 1: I mean, not a lot of creatures in God's kingdom

590
00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:58,720
Speaker 1: don't mate with the same thing. Some do your owls,

591
00:33:58,800 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 1: but I'm not a wait wait, wait, wait, wait, boyfriend

592
00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:11,360
Speaker 1: and girlfriend they get married, I had no idea. I

593
00:34:11,400 --> 00:34:13,520
Speaker 1: think it's great when you can get I think everybody

594
00:34:13,520 --> 00:34:16,600
Speaker 1: can get to that place. But some people are different.

595
00:34:16,680 --> 00:34:20,520
Speaker 1: Everybody's unique, right. Some marriages are held together by an

596
00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:24,400
Speaker 1: open mind, right, someone that knows, Okay, my my partner

597
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:28,880
Speaker 1: is a little freaky, like to experiment and that brings

598
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:31,040
Speaker 1: them a certain kind of joy. So maybe I'll bring

599
00:34:31,080 --> 00:34:34,280
Speaker 1: in a partner, a friend. That's when the three stiff

600
00:34:34,320 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 1: comes in, you know, just for them. Look at that

601
00:34:39,480 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 1: makes some people cringe, and that keeps some people together.

602
00:34:43,560 --> 00:34:45,839
Speaker 1: It's about being honest, though, and for real, I think

603
00:34:45,880 --> 00:34:49,120
Speaker 1: that's really where I'm at with it. It's like I

604
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:53,400
Speaker 1: just started being honest. So can you be monogamous? You

605
00:34:53,480 --> 00:34:57,840
Speaker 1: think from now moving forward on? It's a challenge, But

606
00:34:57,960 --> 00:35:01,680
Speaker 1: I think I could do it because is I'm satisfied.

607
00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: I don't need to. I don't need nothing else to

608
00:35:05,000 --> 00:35:07,600
Speaker 1: be honest. Like y'all said, it's the honesty thing, because

609
00:35:07,640 --> 00:35:09,399
Speaker 1: what it is is guys will do what they want

610
00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:11,320
Speaker 1: to do, but they'll lie about it. So if you

611
00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:14,799
Speaker 1: have three girls like you, but you said you have

612
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:18,399
Speaker 1: three girls, if you're only fucking too, you're gonna tell

613
00:35:18,480 --> 00:35:21,800
Speaker 1: all three and that thing. And my girls so dope

614
00:35:21,840 --> 00:35:25,080
Speaker 1: that if it's something that I really need her to

615
00:35:25,120 --> 00:35:29,359
Speaker 1: do for me, she'll do it. She'll try it. She'd

616
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:30,759
Speaker 1: be like, all right, let's do it, let's try it.

617
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:32,799
Speaker 1: If you want to do it, let's do it. She's

618
00:35:32,800 --> 00:35:34,759
Speaker 1: not gonna be like I just don't like that. I'm

619
00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:38,000
Speaker 1: not doing that. Don't bring that over here kind of thing.

620
00:35:39,280 --> 00:35:41,279
Speaker 1: Some things that don't get her that don't do it

621
00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:44,680
Speaker 1: for But if it's something that I might need, she's

622
00:35:44,719 --> 00:35:47,279
Speaker 1: definitely gonna do it. What would you be willing to

623
00:35:47,280 --> 00:35:49,800
Speaker 1: do that for her? If she needed something? Depends? Ain't

624
00:35:50,080 --> 00:35:54,959
Speaker 1: keep stick my tongue and nobody asked me. I can't

625
00:35:55,040 --> 00:36:01,200
Speaker 1: do it anyway so much that I'm so glad that

626
00:36:01,360 --> 00:36:07,400
Speaker 1: you got. Hey, look but we could got them getting

627
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:10,480
Speaker 1: goddamn we could wet some ship and did you right?

628
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:16,160
Speaker 1: Did I ever try it? No? No, the shower try

629
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:19,880
Speaker 1: like ya gotta do that ship every day or not?

630
00:36:20,040 --> 00:36:26,320
Speaker 1: Eating nobody ass yo, never listen, that's for boys to

631
00:36:26,440 --> 00:36:28,839
Speaker 1: do anything. No, it's not. Well. Look, I'm so open.

632
00:36:28,920 --> 00:36:30,880
Speaker 1: I'm like, get the nick, get the nigger to eat it,

633
00:36:31,120 --> 00:36:36,080
Speaker 1: and that just be his wrong. No, you pa I

634
00:36:36,560 --> 00:36:45,360
Speaker 1: so much. It was so good, But I got that's alright.

635
00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:48,040
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie. You just disappointed us with that

636
00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:52,279
Speaker 1: one man. I can't don't you didn't try it? You

637
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:54,839
Speaker 1: know what I think it would have to be like

638
00:36:55,040 --> 00:36:57,840
Speaker 1: she have you have to sit your ass in the

639
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:02,080
Speaker 1: thing like a what is it called a sterilizer. No,

640
00:37:02,200 --> 00:37:05,279
Speaker 1: but you're not missing anything that's for boys. As eating

641
00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:08,120
Speaker 1: there's no pleasure for women. It's for boys. That's a

642
00:37:08,120 --> 00:37:11,600
Speaker 1: pleasure for a man like it? Well, No, I actually

643
00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 1: don't like. But you're trying to like. It's more like when.

644
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:21,880
Speaker 1: But I also feel like if a woman wants you

645
00:37:21,920 --> 00:37:23,759
Speaker 1: to do it, and you're willing, and she's willing to

646
00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:25,600
Speaker 1: do anything for you, that you should try it. What

647
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:30,319
Speaker 1: I will say, it's nothing. It's nothing more exciting than

648
00:37:30,320 --> 00:37:34,319
Speaker 1: a woman that knows herself for real in in every

649
00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:37,560
Speaker 1: way but especially sexually, you know, like knows her body,

650
00:37:37,640 --> 00:37:40,920
Speaker 1: knows what she needs. So I think, because I'm such

651
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:46,799
Speaker 1: a selfless lover, if oh god, he's he's really never

652
00:37:46,800 --> 00:37:50,719
Speaker 1: gonna eat because I was almost you know what, I

653
00:37:51,440 --> 00:37:57,400
Speaker 1: have been getting there that like. But I mean because

654
00:37:57,480 --> 00:38:00,440
Speaker 1: anything that she would need to get there, I would

655
00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:04,680
Speaker 1: be open for it. But I don't see the I

656
00:38:04,719 --> 00:38:07,000
Speaker 1: don't see the thrill in that, and in fact, and

657
00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:10,879
Speaker 1: in fact it excites me to excite my partner right

658
00:38:10,960 --> 00:38:13,839
Speaker 1: like when I snow they enjoying it, they're getting it

659
00:38:13,840 --> 00:38:17,879
Speaker 1: makes me. It makes me so like But my life,

660
00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:21,600
Speaker 1: I don't think I could find any excitement from eating

661
00:38:21,760 --> 00:38:24,439
Speaker 1: some ass. But you also don't know. You're just saying,

662
00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:26,799
Speaker 1: I don't think and I don't know, right, and I

663
00:38:26,840 --> 00:38:30,680
Speaker 1: don't know. But I also thought I would also thought

664
00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:34,399
Speaker 1: I would never eat pussy as a brad. I mean,

665
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,440
Speaker 1: you know, growing up, you know, growing up it was

666
00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:40,720
Speaker 1: like tabooty eat pussy, but it was like eating no pussy.

667
00:38:40,760 --> 00:38:42,400
Speaker 1: That's you know, I don't eat pussy. That's what we

668
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:45,840
Speaker 1: always go down south. That's what y'all known for. Absolutely.

669
00:38:45,840 --> 00:38:48,359
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying that, remember the first time. I'm

670
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:51,320
Speaker 1: just saying at one point, yeah, I never heard that before.

671
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:56,360
Speaker 1: Who just felt like him? DJ Kalin and like somebody

672
00:38:56,360 --> 00:38:59,359
Speaker 1: that has experienced is the only people I've ever heard

673
00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 1: to say that having your first eating experience, my first, um, okay,

674
00:39:05,680 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 1: she gets you to do it since you didn't think.

675
00:39:07,480 --> 00:39:09,319
Speaker 1: In fact, it was this girl that was from from

676
00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:11,279
Speaker 1: my school. I had always liked that she had never

677
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:14,319
Speaker 1: paid me attention, and then I blew up and she

678
00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:17,000
Speaker 1: was like what you're doing? Like what you're doing? You

679
00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:19,919
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And she came through one day

680
00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:23,480
Speaker 1: and this is like the five Heart pizza and I'm like,

681
00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:25,799
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, I really liked her though, so I

682
00:39:25,840 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 1: was like, all right, I'm an impressor. I'm gonna trying

683
00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,960
Speaker 1: to really do so I'm gonna do something nice for

684
00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:34,120
Speaker 1: I was like sev seventeen and so yeah. So I

685
00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:39,560
Speaker 1: went down there and I looked at it and that's it. Okay,

686
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:41,680
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do this ship right now.

687
00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:42,920
Speaker 1: Here we go, Here we go, Here we go, Here

688
00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:46,239
Speaker 1: we go, Here we go, here we go. And I

689
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:52,920
Speaker 1: got up to the place. No, everyone's trash. He was like,

690
00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:56,960
Speaker 1: and I heard she said, was saying again shorty, and

691
00:39:56,960 --> 00:40:00,160
Speaker 1: then you wrote the song. It was just bad. Know

692
00:40:00,200 --> 00:40:02,640
Speaker 1: what I was doing, man, I don't know what I

693
00:40:02,719 --> 00:40:09,400
Speaker 1: was doing. She did, Okay, let me tell you, let

694
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:11,680
Speaker 1: me tell you the real story. And then somebody I

695
00:40:11,800 --> 00:40:14,040
Speaker 1: was with, right, one of my one of my my

696
00:40:14,080 --> 00:40:17,880
Speaker 1: homies was with me and he saw me. We was

697
00:40:17,920 --> 00:40:21,879
Speaker 1: in the livingroom. Yeah, he was open in the room.

698
00:40:22,080 --> 00:40:25,759
Speaker 1: So I'm pretending like I know what I'm doing, right,

699
00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:30,239
Speaker 1: and he fucking comes over there. He's like, you know,

700
00:40:30,239 --> 00:40:37,120
Speaker 1: I got it when you were eating it right, party

701
00:40:37,320 --> 00:40:42,000
Speaker 1: was going on here, damn party. Wait wait this that's

702
00:40:42,080 --> 00:40:52,160
Speaker 1: just like I mean, she just started doing Christ and

703
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:54,200
Speaker 1: I was like, God, damn, I guess I just played

704
00:40:54,200 --> 00:40:59,680
Speaker 1: with the man. That ship broke my heart so bad.

705
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:07,160
Speaker 1: Love that bit, right, that was the last time you go, man?

706
00:41:07,400 --> 00:41:09,440
Speaker 1: And now I can understand what he means when he

707
00:41:09,480 --> 00:41:12,799
Speaker 1: talks about why he would allow someone else to come here.

708
00:41:15,760 --> 00:41:19,920
Speaker 1: This makes sense. You got to call him a party

709
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,800
Speaker 1: like that regular sexual experience that was a whole okay,

710
00:41:23,840 --> 00:41:25,520
Speaker 1: so when you come so right, So when you come

711
00:41:25,560 --> 00:41:28,839
Speaker 1: from really crazy experiences for some of your first time,

712
00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:31,839
Speaker 1: it's hard to should hard to turn down some time

713
00:41:31,960 --> 00:41:52,359
Speaker 1: you should have her. But with her like we're hearing

714
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:55,279
Speaker 1: that you have to go, but right, they say, we

715
00:41:55,320 --> 00:41:58,000
Speaker 1: got question. Okay, now, we didn't want you to leave.

716
00:41:58,040 --> 00:41:59,880
Speaker 1: That's the one thing I wanted to say on this.

717
00:42:01,560 --> 00:42:05,120
Speaker 1: We got that part too. Why is it so hard

718
00:42:06,000 --> 00:42:09,600
Speaker 1: for someone to be a friend with the ex? I

719
00:42:09,640 --> 00:42:11,520
Speaker 1: don't have any problem with that? Why is that so hard?

720
00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:14,800
Speaker 1: Friends with my son's father though we have a child.

721
00:42:14,920 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 1: All of my other exes like we're cool. But I

722
00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:23,319
Speaker 1: think the problem is if it's a person and fun them.

723
00:42:23,320 --> 00:42:25,440
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying if it actually was a good person,

724
00:42:25,719 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 1: y'all was friends first and then it didn't work. Out

725
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:32,440
Speaker 1: because that's how she is. How come girls just they

726
00:42:32,480 --> 00:42:34,759
Speaker 1: do not like you to be talking about I tell

727
00:42:34,800 --> 00:42:37,480
Speaker 1: you why, because that's somebody that you had a relationship

728
00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:40,560
Speaker 1: and you have. She gave me the pussy before you again,

729
00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:43,879
Speaker 1: she will give again. That don't necessarily mean and I

730
00:42:43,880 --> 00:42:46,080
Speaker 1: have Okay, this is my this is my this is

731
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:49,080
Speaker 1: my problem with that. You can't give somebody pussy that

732
00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:52,680
Speaker 1: don't take the pussy? Have you ever though? Never? Why?

733
00:42:52,719 --> 00:42:55,360
Speaker 1: I have never? I have never sucked some pussy that

734
00:42:55,400 --> 00:42:58,279
Speaker 1: I did not want to fuck anymore? You about that

735
00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:02,239
Speaker 1: period in the store acting my reason I have. I

736
00:43:02,320 --> 00:43:14,120
Speaker 1: have what I'm saying here, I have a reason. I

737
00:43:14,120 --> 00:43:17,000
Speaker 1: have a reason so here, and I have an ex

738
00:43:17,120 --> 00:43:19,279
Speaker 1: that we were. We grew up together. We were we

739
00:43:19,280 --> 00:43:22,480
Speaker 1: were like best friends, even like we rode together, like

740
00:43:22,880 --> 00:43:25,760
Speaker 1: you know, like this is my my boy. We slept

741
00:43:25,760 --> 00:43:27,960
Speaker 1: together one time we were kids and we stood friends.

742
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:30,719
Speaker 1: Never slept together again, and then we ended up having

743
00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:35,520
Speaker 1: a relationship in our adult years. Right, something similar? Right?

744
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:39,520
Speaker 1: So um, I feel bad. You know he and I

745
00:43:39,560 --> 00:43:41,719
Speaker 1: would not ever be together again. I wish him luck.

746
00:43:41,800 --> 00:43:45,480
Speaker 1: I pray for him and his family and everything. You know,

747
00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:48,440
Speaker 1: God bless him. I don't have no beef for them.

748
00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:51,640
Speaker 1: But um, I feel like me being friends with him

749
00:43:51,880 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 1: is encouraging him to write me no, no, no, I

750
00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:57,480
Speaker 1: feel like I feel like me being friends with him

751
00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:01,840
Speaker 1: is disrespectful to his situation and that he has because

752
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:04,120
Speaker 1: he has a girl for he has a wife. He

753
00:44:04,160 --> 00:44:07,680
Speaker 1: has a wife now who who knows about our relationship

754
00:44:07,719 --> 00:44:09,600
Speaker 1: and was not you know, she was fine with us

755
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:12,359
Speaker 1: being friends back in the days because they have they

756
00:44:12,360 --> 00:44:14,600
Speaker 1: work together for a long time and then they broke

757
00:44:14,680 --> 00:44:17,000
Speaker 1: up and we had a relationship, you know what I mean,

758
00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:21,360
Speaker 1: Because that's really it's confusing though, because look, this is

759
00:44:21,360 --> 00:44:24,959
Speaker 1: what I think. I think real true happiness is being

760
00:44:25,040 --> 00:44:29,280
Speaker 1: so comfortable in your own skin that you'd never ever

761
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:35,319
Speaker 1: uh project your insecurity on to someone else, right, And

762
00:44:35,360 --> 00:44:37,960
Speaker 1: then it's so easy for someone to do. And this

763
00:44:38,040 --> 00:44:41,520
Speaker 1: is my thing. If you have everything with the person

764
00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:46,319
Speaker 1: who you love and and nothing, nothing's going on, it's

765
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:49,279
Speaker 1: really nothing to worry about for real, then really all

766
00:44:49,320 --> 00:44:52,880
Speaker 1: you're doing is you're projecting your own and and fear

767
00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:58,200
Speaker 1: causes distress your relationships. And if people could let go

768
00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:01,920
Speaker 1: of that fear ship, write the insecurity ship and just

769
00:45:02,000 --> 00:45:06,480
Speaker 1: be accepted that look I'm never gonna always be there, right,

770
00:45:06,520 --> 00:45:10,560
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna always know everything in real time. But

771
00:45:11,080 --> 00:45:13,480
Speaker 1: I trust, I have trust. I have trust and I

772
00:45:13,520 --> 00:45:15,719
Speaker 1: lived through trust. And if you could do that, I

773
00:45:15,719 --> 00:45:19,480
Speaker 1: think people could be so much more happy. But but

774
00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: your situation, that sounds great, But how your relationship started

775
00:45:22,640 --> 00:45:24,920
Speaker 1: was a hurtful thing. It didn't start like that. It

776
00:45:24,920 --> 00:45:26,719
Speaker 1: didn't start you know what I'm saying. But for you know,

777
00:45:26,800 --> 00:45:30,040
Speaker 1: she found out, you know, you got understanding. So she's

778
00:45:30,040 --> 00:45:32,960
Speaker 1: still sometimes even though she's moved past it, it still

779
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:35,160
Speaker 1: is something that every now and then you might think about.

780
00:45:35,239 --> 00:45:38,680
Speaker 1: And secondly, I also feel like if you respect your relationship,

781
00:45:38,760 --> 00:45:41,360
Speaker 1: sometimes you do have to make sacrifices. And if that

782
00:45:41,400 --> 00:45:44,080
Speaker 1: sacrifice means that I can't be as tight with my

783
00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:46,680
Speaker 1: ex as I would like, but every now and then

784
00:45:46,719 --> 00:45:49,480
Speaker 1: I'll send a text on a birthday maybe you know whatever.

785
00:45:49,960 --> 00:45:52,640
Speaker 1: But sometimes in a relationship, if you wanted to work,

786
00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:54,200
Speaker 1: you do have to make sense. And it's because of

787
00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:58,040
Speaker 1: what you have done. Like she said, you know what

788
00:45:58,040 --> 00:46:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm saying that I just I just feel like, you know,

789
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:07,640
Speaker 1: as much as as much as the world, I feel

790
00:46:07,680 --> 00:46:10,080
Speaker 1: like it's in a perfect world, it would be great

791
00:46:10,120 --> 00:46:12,560
Speaker 1: for me to be friends with this guy that was

792
00:46:12,640 --> 00:46:15,239
Speaker 1: my childhood friend, and I'm still friends with everybody else

793
00:46:15,280 --> 00:46:18,120
Speaker 1: that we're friends with, but you know, just to respect

794
00:46:18,200 --> 00:46:21,800
Speaker 1: myself and respect him at his situation and that cause

795
00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:26,239
Speaker 1: no conflict in his family or anything. It's just like, no,

796
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:28,680
Speaker 1: we can't even be cool, like not even be like

797
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:31,640
Speaker 1: up type of friends because she makes a lot of sacrifices.

798
00:46:31,680 --> 00:46:34,080
Speaker 1: Feel you just feel like it's a sacrifice. I always

799
00:46:34,080 --> 00:46:35,960
Speaker 1: feel like and I love him and he loves me

800
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:38,600
Speaker 1: and they but it's not in love. It's you know,

801
00:46:38,680 --> 00:46:40,759
Speaker 1: we love each other like yo, min like I know,

802
00:46:40,840 --> 00:46:43,239
Speaker 1: I know. I just feel like everybody's been with everybody

803
00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:49,000
Speaker 1: and you know, and for real, it's like it still

804
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 1: it's not Trump, that's still whoever you was with whenever.

805
00:46:52,160 --> 00:46:54,479
Speaker 1: That don't trump what you got going on right now,

806
00:46:54,560 --> 00:46:59,680
Speaker 1: that's what especially if you honest and real with that person,

807
00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:04,520
Speaker 1: you know, but you do anything to please you right

808
00:47:04,640 --> 00:47:09,759
Speaker 1: and try anything, so well almost that's likewise, it's a compromise,

809
00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:12,239
Speaker 1: like you said, the women out there that would do

810
00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:14,799
Speaker 1: anything to deal with you or to be around you,

811
00:47:14,920 --> 00:47:18,799
Speaker 1: or to work with you, and not that she has

812
00:47:18,840 --> 00:47:22,040
Speaker 1: to always maybe she just needs to be reassured. Sometimes

813
00:47:21,880 --> 00:47:24,920
Speaker 1: it's not. It is. It's a lot. It's hard. That's

814
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:28,080
Speaker 1: also a slight on my my ability to control myself.

815
00:47:28,560 --> 00:47:31,239
Speaker 1: It's like, I don't care who's throwing anything. If I'm

816
00:47:31,239 --> 00:47:35,320
Speaker 1: not catching it, nothing can happen. Nobody's holding me down

817
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:40,480
Speaker 1: and making me like it's got to be bullet parties.

818
00:47:40,560 --> 00:47:43,279
Speaker 1: But I'm not, like, I know you have a lot

819
00:47:43,320 --> 00:47:45,319
Speaker 1: of guys. I know you have to see a lot

820
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:47,960
Speaker 1: of it. And this is also the issue that she

821
00:47:48,040 --> 00:47:52,040
Speaker 1: brought up. She said, she said, well, how would you

822
00:47:52,120 --> 00:47:57,520
Speaker 1: feel if I was real cool with all my exit right?

823
00:47:57,760 --> 00:48:00,160
Speaker 1: And I said, I wouldn't have a problem with at

824
00:48:00,200 --> 00:48:04,759
Speaker 1: because I'm so comfortable. That's what she's confident in myself.

825
00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:08,200
Speaker 1: What if I truly feel like none of them are me?

826
00:48:09,200 --> 00:48:13,960
Speaker 1: Not to slight them, just more comfortable, Manique, with what

827
00:48:14,000 --> 00:48:17,040
Speaker 1: I'm offering here in certain things that I'm not really

828
00:48:17,080 --> 00:48:20,920
Speaker 1: tripping off of that give you everything all the time. Earlier,

829
00:48:20,960 --> 00:48:23,640
Speaker 1: you just said that people trip up sometimes. You did

830
00:48:23,680 --> 00:48:27,440
Speaker 1: say that she's trying to prevent those us. Oh, just

831
00:48:27,480 --> 00:48:29,319
Speaker 1: so to prevent the trip trip up, you gotta lock

832
00:48:29,360 --> 00:48:33,560
Speaker 1: yourself in the room. But what I'm saying, I might

833
00:48:33,560 --> 00:48:35,719
Speaker 1: feel like your ex still has feelings for you, and

834
00:48:35,760 --> 00:48:37,640
Speaker 1: you never know, you don't really drink a last she

835
00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:39,960
Speaker 1: might give you a little Hennessey or something and the

836
00:48:40,080 --> 00:48:44,160
Speaker 1: next thing, you know, but not the first time, because

837
00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:51,640
Speaker 1: what did he do. I'm just coming from because my listen.

838
00:48:52,040 --> 00:48:55,040
Speaker 1: Let's say you guys, when I'm dating somebody, I feel

839
00:48:55,080 --> 00:48:57,680
Speaker 1: like they can go and be around any women. It

840
00:48:57,760 --> 00:49:02,120
Speaker 1: doesn't matter because she not me. That's you're a jealous person.

841
00:49:02,600 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 1: You know. I used to be on some ship that

842
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:06,919
Speaker 1: I didn't want my man to even have girlfriends, friends.

843
00:49:07,719 --> 00:49:09,839
Speaker 1: Friend I used to be, and I was exactly who

844
00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:12,560
Speaker 1: I was, especially even talking about the last guy. I was,

845
00:49:12,719 --> 00:49:14,839
Speaker 1: that guy I was talking about when I was with him,

846
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:18,279
Speaker 1: with him, please, I couldn't stand even looking at a

847
00:49:18,320 --> 00:49:20,920
Speaker 1: girl say hi to him. But right now, you know

848
00:49:21,040 --> 00:49:24,760
Speaker 1: I I moved forward to dating you know, higher profile guys,

849
00:49:24,840 --> 00:49:28,680
Speaker 1: and they are constantly around women all the time. You know,

850
00:49:28,719 --> 00:49:31,680
Speaker 1: it's inevitable. You can't stop it, you know. And I'm

851
00:49:31,719 --> 00:49:34,600
Speaker 1: not talking about regular women. I'm talking about beautiful women

852
00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:37,920
Speaker 1: all the time, you know what I'm saying. And their horrors,

853
00:49:37,960 --> 00:49:40,920
Speaker 1: they're like literally throwing their leg up to see him.

854
00:49:41,120 --> 00:49:43,279
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, but it's like for me,

855
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:46,160
Speaker 1: it's like not he's always gonna come over here because

856
00:49:46,239 --> 00:49:50,359
Speaker 1: I'm me, my girl to spend time with my publicist sometimes, right,

857
00:49:51,360 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: who is she one in the morning. I'm like, she

858
00:49:57,200 --> 00:50:07,680
Speaker 1: had California. That's just simply lemonade. I want to thank

859
00:50:07,680 --> 00:50:09,920
Speaker 1: you so much. I've been on I've been I live

860
00:50:09,960 --> 00:50:12,759
Speaker 1: in l A now and like, no, no, no, I'm

861
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:15,640
Speaker 1: not trying to wrap it up now, you're not. She's like, hey,

862
00:50:15,640 --> 00:50:18,560
Speaker 1: the publicists are talking about wrapping up, you know, but

863
00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:20,720
Speaker 1: I just want to thank you because I've been away

864
00:50:20,760 --> 00:50:23,960
Speaker 1: for a couple of months and this conversation it was.

865
00:50:24,480 --> 00:50:27,920
Speaker 1: It's hopeful it gives because I just feel like everybody

866
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:30,120
Speaker 1: I just doesn't see me for the person that I am.

867
00:50:30,160 --> 00:50:34,080
Speaker 1: They see me for the Stephanie Santiago thought on the internet,

868
00:50:34,320 --> 00:50:35,960
Speaker 1: even though I don't even feel like I portrayed that,

869
00:50:36,000 --> 00:50:38,000
Speaker 1: but that's what they see anyway. You know, you can't

870
00:50:38,239 --> 00:50:40,520
Speaker 1: control people's perception of you. They're gonna feel how they

871
00:50:40,560 --> 00:50:42,399
Speaker 1: want about you. Just got to do that. I really,

872
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:44,440
Speaker 1: I've just been lately. I've just been like, you know what,

873
00:50:44,480 --> 00:50:46,080
Speaker 1: people don't see me for who I am and it

874
00:50:46,200 --> 00:50:52,200
Speaker 1: just is what it is. But your conversation, thank you,

875
00:50:52,239 --> 00:50:59,279
Speaker 1: say come Stephanie's very happy to be here back when

876
00:50:59,280 --> 00:51:02,680
Speaker 1: it is it full LP Dropping comes out Friday, August

877
00:51:02,719 --> 00:51:07,600
Speaker 1: thirty one. It features my son for the first time

878
00:51:08,360 --> 00:51:11,080
Speaker 1: called Affinity that I wrote after he was born. Got

879
00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:13,319
Speaker 1: a song called Porcelain that's one of my favorites that

880
00:51:13,560 --> 00:51:17,279
Speaker 1: I wrote about my girl. Uh, it's just like porcelain

881
00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:21,000
Speaker 1: Caramel is about her too. Um. Also have a song

882
00:51:21,040 --> 00:51:23,200
Speaker 1: called Little Sis That's Dope that I wrote about my

883
00:51:23,239 --> 00:51:26,640
Speaker 1: baby sister that passed in ninety two and how I

884
00:51:26,719 --> 00:51:29,120
Speaker 1: just kind of had to come to copes with some

885
00:51:29,160 --> 00:51:32,200
Speaker 1: things now that I became a father, maybe losing a child,

886
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:34,239
Speaker 1: what that could have been like from my mom, all

887
00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:37,200
Speaker 1: that kind of stuff I'm I'm facing now And of

888
00:51:37,239 --> 00:51:40,640
Speaker 1: course true the least single is there too. So it's

889
00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:44,759
Speaker 1: like a therapy album. It's just so, it's just so

890
00:51:44,800 --> 00:51:47,640
Speaker 1: it's just like a reflection of the human experience. It's

891
00:51:47,640 --> 00:51:52,239
Speaker 1: a celebration of you know, reality, like instead of escapism

892
00:51:52,280 --> 00:51:57,800
Speaker 1: and fantasy, is like moving towards the truth. So I'm

893
00:51:57,920 --> 00:52:00,600
Speaker 1: happy that you are back in doing I know you

894
00:52:00,640 --> 00:52:02,719
Speaker 1: put out the EP, but I'm really happy because you know,

895
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:04,959
Speaker 1: we're all fans of Lloyd here for such a long time,

896
00:52:05,280 --> 00:52:06,719
Speaker 1: and I know you've been through a lot of things,

897
00:52:06,760 --> 00:52:09,319
Speaker 1: as you've expressed in your music, so it's just good

898
00:52:09,360 --> 00:52:14,279
Speaker 1: to him. Next time, bring the guitar. That's next time

899
00:52:14,360 --> 00:52:18,520
Speaker 1: dropped them draws. Yeah, you guys are fast for me.

900
00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:24,560
Speaker 1: I don't even know what there's all right, I'll do

901
00:52:24,600 --> 00:52:30,839
Speaker 1: it right now, everybody. Y'all got double standing, I don't.

902
00:52:32,800 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 1: You got your Christmas money ready? Let service