WEBVTT - The One About Jumping On The Sober Train 0:00:05.960 --> 0:00:08.560 Hello, gorgeous as Lala Kent, Welcome back to Get them 0:00:08.560 --> 0:00:12.040 All a podcast. We are here ready to bump gums 0:00:12.200 --> 0:00:17.319 evergreen style, because Mama is ready to give hearts and 0:00:17.440 --> 0:00:22.440 I may that's coming, Baby is coming. So today's episode 0:00:22.480 --> 0:00:24.880 is going to be about sobriety because we had an 0:00:24.960 --> 0:00:28.640 overwhelming amount of people right in with their sobriety stories 0:00:28.640 --> 0:00:32.559 and their journeys experiences to the bonus episode that we 0:00:32.600 --> 0:00:35.559 did on sobriety, So I just felt the need to 0:00:35.600 --> 0:00:39.040 talk about it again. And me and my pregnancy brain 0:00:39.159 --> 0:00:41.519 put this shirt on that is so comfortable and is 0:00:41.560 --> 0:00:41.960 covered in. 0:00:42.000 --> 0:00:47.960 Alcoholic Shout out Kent, whose shirt is that? 0:00:48.440 --> 0:00:51.080 But it is my dad's shirt, and it reminds me 0:00:51.159 --> 0:00:54.160 of him and in honor of him, because I got 0:00:54.320 --> 0:00:59.560 sober six months to the day after my dad's passing. 0:01:00.160 --> 0:01:04.120 So let's try to ignore the alcoholic beverages and focus 0:01:04.319 --> 0:01:05.240 more on the. 0:01:05.040 --> 0:01:08.440 Fact that you've said it before. You're you're good. You're 0:01:08.480 --> 0:01:10.520 the first person to pour somebody else to drink. 0:01:11.400 --> 0:01:11.720 Enorm me. 0:01:12.000 --> 0:01:14.960 If there have been people around me where I'm sensing, 0:01:15.120 --> 0:01:20.320 I'm not. I'm not diagnosing, because alcoholism is a self diagnosed. 0:01:20.280 --> 0:01:21.399 Diagnosed disease. 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:24.160 But there are moments where I'm like, I'm sensing that 0:01:24.200 --> 0:01:26.720 this could be a problem. So I'm not going to 0:01:27.840 --> 0:01:32.160 promote drinking with this person. I will offer them all 0:01:32.280 --> 0:01:34.640 of the sparkling. 0:01:34.120 --> 0:01:36.760 Beverages alcohol free, right. Yeah. 0:01:36.800 --> 0:01:39.520 But people who are like super normal and they just 0:01:39.560 --> 0:01:43.479 want to get lit because they are celebrating something, Oh honey. 0:01:43.360 --> 0:01:45.800 You'll pour? Do you overpour? Sometimes? Like do you have 0:01:45.920 --> 0:01:46.720 the people? 0:01:46.920 --> 0:01:47.120 Do you? 0:01:47.240 --> 0:01:50.559 I remember the last time that drink when I don't drink, 0:01:50.880 --> 0:01:53.040 since I haven't been drinking. When I'm with people that 0:01:53.080 --> 0:01:55.240 do drink, I'm the first person to be like, hey, 0:01:55.800 --> 0:01:56.720 let me pour that for you. 0:01:56.960 --> 0:01:57.279 Really? 0:01:57.600 --> 0:01:59.760 Hell yeah, because like the pouring of it is kind 0:01:59.760 --> 0:02:01.680 of like it's kind of like. 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:05.080 Taking it, you know, like like you're like it's like 0:02:05.800 --> 0:02:08.040 you get the placebo effect of like you pour the 0:02:08.120 --> 0:02:14.440 shot totally see you take it, You're like, we're fucked. 0:02:14.680 --> 0:02:17.120 So yeah, I love I love pouring the drinks. 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:20.160 I may not be the best one to be pouring 0:02:20.200 --> 0:02:22.120 them for everybody, right, getting. 0:02:21.840 --> 0:02:25.960 Everybody turned, But not everyone is like that. 0:02:26.200 --> 0:02:29.880 I have many friends in sobriety who they can't go 0:02:29.960 --> 0:02:33.040 out to bars, they can't be around drinking because it 0:02:33.080 --> 0:02:36.799 triggers them. So again, I always say that, uh sobriety 0:02:36.960 --> 0:02:41.040 is not one size fits all. Everybody's journey and experience 0:02:41.120 --> 0:02:43.800 is going to be different. Everybody works the program differently 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:46.120 if you are in the program, which is why it 0:02:46.200 --> 0:02:50.120 kind of takes a minute to find your sponsor, you know, 0:02:50.280 --> 0:02:53.320 because it's like we're all working the program, but there's 0:02:53.360 --> 0:02:57.600 not a play by play on how it's not math. 0:02:57.480 --> 0:02:59.280 Two plus two is not always four. 0:02:59.440 --> 0:03:03.639 So you and I may be able to pour people drinks, 0:03:03.639 --> 0:03:05.120 but not everybody is able to do that. 0:03:05.200 --> 0:03:06.160 So you don't drink? 0:03:06.320 --> 0:03:08.720 Or is it just like, are you like sober from 0:03:08.760 --> 0:03:11.840 alcohol or are you like I'll do it sometimes. 0:03:11.400 --> 0:03:13.480 I'm liquor free. Okay, I'm thinking and. 0:03:13.520 --> 0:03:15.120 Dude, alcohol free. 0:03:15.520 --> 0:03:17.280 Yeah, liquor liquor free. 0:03:17.400 --> 0:03:18.360 So you still drink beer? 0:03:18.600 --> 0:03:18.760 No? 0:03:18.919 --> 0:03:24.240 He doesn't, Yeah, just liquor free. Do you drink beer? No? 0:03:24.480 --> 0:03:25.800 Isn't liquor is. 0:03:25.919 --> 0:03:29.720 Vodka to ke? Yeah? Hard alcohol is liquor. 0:03:29.480 --> 0:03:32.240 And then beer is not like I thought liquor was 0:03:32.240 --> 0:03:32.640 in beer. 0:03:32.800 --> 0:03:34.720 You should never be able to drink because you don't 0:03:34.720 --> 0:03:35.400 even know what it is. 0:03:35.800 --> 0:03:38.800 I don't like beer and wine And people say liquor 0:03:38.840 --> 0:03:39.840 free they're like, oh, I'll. 0:03:39.680 --> 0:03:40.400 Drink beer and wine. 0:03:40.760 --> 0:03:43.280 So when Landing was doing his cooking video, he was like, 0:03:43.520 --> 0:03:44.920 do you want to help me do this? I was 0:03:45.000 --> 0:03:47.200 like no, do you want me to open your high noon? 0:03:47.200 --> 0:03:50.160 And he was like yes, And I said, I got 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:53.160 you on that one, so I can do that because 0:03:53.360 --> 0:03:55.480 there it is. It's like the placebo effect of me 0:03:55.680 --> 0:03:56.760 just like handing it to him. 0:03:57.080 --> 0:04:00.480 Yeah, but you already don't drink. 0:04:00.520 --> 0:04:01.320 You're dry. 0:04:01.480 --> 0:04:02.160 I am dry. 0:04:02.440 --> 0:04:09.200 I am all liquor, beer, wines and spilcohol free. Alcohol free, 0:04:09.720 --> 0:04:12.920 but I am, and so is Lisa. 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:13.200 Yeah. 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:20.039 Alcohol free marijuana is marijuana, non free marijuana. 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:21.880 Over doing that now. 0:04:22.040 --> 0:04:24.120 Enthusiast that I could be happier. 0:04:24.880 --> 0:04:26.280 I don't feel like you overdo the weed. 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:28.800 I don't feel like you do either. Actually I wouldn't know. 0:04:28.839 --> 0:04:30.080 I guess here's the thing. 0:04:30.200 --> 0:04:33.440 Even if I smoke, I know I have to do something. 0:04:33.520 --> 0:04:37.400 So it's like my relationship with weed is good. I'm smoking, 0:04:37.520 --> 0:04:39.440 but I know I have to get something done. Most 0:04:39.480 --> 0:04:42.880 people will smoke and then do nothing, right, So the 0:04:42.920 --> 0:04:43.800 relationship I. 0:04:43.760 --> 0:04:46.400 Have with marijuana is a good one. 0:04:46.480 --> 0:04:48.960 It's like I smoke and now I'm productive, and there's 0:04:49.080 --> 0:04:49.799 I don't know why. 0:04:50.120 --> 0:04:51.360 Yeah, I get in that month. 0:04:51.720 --> 0:04:53.480 Do you only smoke a certain time of day? 0:04:53.520 --> 0:04:55.680 Because I remember an ex boyfriend of mine years and 0:04:55.720 --> 0:04:59.480 years ago had to start smoking only at night. 0:05:00.680 --> 0:05:01.680 No to go to bed. 0:05:02.240 --> 0:05:05.799 No, he just he it was like a reward for him, Yes. 0:05:05.880 --> 0:05:07.040 A productive day. 0:05:07.160 --> 0:05:10.240 And he started realizing like he thought he was productive 0:05:10.240 --> 0:05:12.919 when he smoked, but he wasn't. Actually it would just 0:05:12.920 --> 0:05:14.720 be a lot of thoughts and ideas. But he's like, 0:05:14.760 --> 0:05:16.200 I'm not actually getting stuff done. 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:17.440 So he would smoke at. 0:05:17.480 --> 0:05:19.839 Night and it was like a reward. Yeah, like before 0:05:19.839 --> 0:05:21.920 bed and stuff. Yeah, do you do that or are 0:05:21.920 --> 0:05:23.040 you like you can do it whenever? 0:05:23.480 --> 0:05:25.880 No, I smoke, and then I say I need to 0:05:25.920 --> 0:05:27.360 do something because I smoke. 0:05:27.480 --> 0:05:28.280 That's really good. 0:05:28.360 --> 0:05:30.360 So that's my re I feel like you smoke like 0:05:31.240 --> 0:05:34.200 the pen And then when it's nighttime and it's like 0:05:34.800 --> 0:05:36.520 dusk dusk. 0:05:36.360 --> 0:05:39.279 He and land and go out and spark the doobies. 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:42.880 Really, yeah, do you and watch a movie when I smoke? 0:05:42.960 --> 0:05:46.400 Those are my favorite. I love a joint or blunt 0:05:46.480 --> 0:05:49.800 hits a little hard, but a joint is so like nice, 0:05:50.320 --> 0:05:52.160 not like a face or a spliff. 0:05:52.480 --> 0:05:55.719 Really, yeah, that's what he said really, Oh yeah, I 0:05:55.760 --> 0:05:59.080 always loved the feeling of like rolling this, this. 0:05:58.960 --> 0:06:02.279 Is a sobriety I and I'm like, I love. 0:06:03.600 --> 0:06:05.000 A good margarita too. 0:06:08.880 --> 0:06:12.200 Don't worry, No, don't worry about it. I mean we're 0:06:12.240 --> 0:06:14.240 a well rounded podcast. 0:06:14.520 --> 0:06:17.000 Okay, I have a question for you, La, do you 0:06:18.200 --> 0:06:20.960 because I find it interesting you wrote about your sobriety, 0:06:21.000 --> 0:06:22.359 like why you Got Sober in your book. 0:06:22.440 --> 0:06:24.400 I do feel like you talk about it a lot 0:06:24.400 --> 0:06:25.320 and mention it a lot. 0:06:25.440 --> 0:06:29.479 However, it's always the number one people or thing when 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:32.440 we ask whether or not on Amazon Live or whether 0:06:32.520 --> 0:06:35.720 or not on in the stories Instagram, what do you 0:06:35.760 --> 0:06:38.000 want us to talk about? They're like, Lala, we want 0:06:38.000 --> 0:06:41.120 to hear Lala's sobriety journey. Do you Does that get 0:06:41.160 --> 0:06:44.440 you frustrated because you're like, I literally talk about it 0:06:44.440 --> 0:06:44.880 all the time. 0:06:44.920 --> 0:06:46.120 I've told it many times. 0:06:46.320 --> 0:06:48.120 Or are you like, okay, yeah, I'll tell it again, 0:06:48.200 --> 0:06:49.960 Like how do you feel when that happens? 0:06:50.040 --> 0:06:50.120 No? 0:06:50.200 --> 0:06:56.000 I feel because there's as I stay in this game 0:06:56.160 --> 0:07:01.400 longer and longer, more people find out who I am, 0:07:01.480 --> 0:07:03.880 or more people start watching the show or come in 0:07:03.920 --> 0:07:08.080 contact with my Instagram, so there's always new people who 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:10.680 maybe haven't heard it, don't know that I have a book. 0:07:11.160 --> 0:07:13.320 It's similar to like, it's not about the pasta. We've 0:07:13.320 --> 0:07:16.280 explained this that five hundred times, that happened years ago, 0:07:16.320 --> 0:07:20.400 and I'm still having to talk about it. Right, sobriety 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:22.680 is not something that I'll ever get sick of because 0:07:22.880 --> 0:07:25.800 you're always gonna have people who also are familiar with you, 0:07:26.440 --> 0:07:31.920 sobriety doesn't necessarily affect them right now, or they're not 0:07:32.040 --> 0:07:33.880 into it, and then all of a sudden they want 0:07:33.880 --> 0:07:38.200 to get sober and they're looking for your story because 0:07:38.240 --> 0:07:40.760 they heard that I'm sober right. 0:07:41.160 --> 0:07:42.960 So, No, I don't get sick of it the posta question. 0:07:43.000 --> 0:07:45.160 I get sick of the positive question when I'm done. 0:07:45.280 --> 0:07:49.240 We did, Yes, do you mind us asking a couple 0:07:49.320 --> 0:07:51.559 questions on your sobriety before we get into other stories 0:07:51.640 --> 0:07:53.600 or would you rather get straight into other stories? 0:07:53.680 --> 0:07:55.760 No, I'm let's ask questions. 0:07:55.800 --> 0:07:58.840 I know one of the most asked questions, and we've 0:07:58.840 --> 0:08:00.720 touched on it, but they all always will be like, 0:08:00.840 --> 0:08:04.119 what was Lalla's rock bottom moment? Was there a moment 0:08:04.160 --> 0:08:06.200 where you're like, that's it, I'm done, I'm sober. 0:08:06.840 --> 0:08:09.000 You did have it? In your book. I remember reading 0:08:09.040 --> 0:08:09.400 about it. 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:12.400 Yeah, did you feel like the plane and the coloring 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:14.840 on the face like that was the next morning you 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:15.840 were like, that's. 0:08:15.600 --> 0:08:18.360 It because also there's a story that you told me, 0:08:18.640 --> 0:08:20.320 and I don't know if it was in that same 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:23.600 rock bottom moment, but you were in Vegas. Yeah, at 0:08:23.600 --> 0:08:27.760 dinner and you tripped upstairs. No, that was the same trip, 0:08:27.880 --> 0:08:30.600 same trip that was in Florida. Yeah, okay, Disney World 0:08:30.800 --> 0:08:31.200 there it is. 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:35.199 No, there were there were many moments that I would 0:08:35.240 --> 0:08:38.120 say to myself that I needed to reel it in over, 0:08:38.520 --> 0:08:40.920 you know, the course of a few years before I 0:08:40.960 --> 0:08:44.760 got sober in twenty eighteen, where it was like I'm 0:08:44.760 --> 0:08:47.320 not going to get drunk tonight, and then I would 0:08:47.360 --> 0:08:49.280 end up drunk again, and then it was like I'm 0:08:49.360 --> 0:08:51.920 only going to drink beer and wine. And keep in 0:08:51.920 --> 0:08:55.240 mind in the Big Book they talk about this, it's 0:08:55.240 --> 0:09:00.720 like literally what I experienced. You try to limit your right. 0:09:01.320 --> 0:09:03.160 So I was like only beer and wine. And then 0:09:03.160 --> 0:09:05.360 it was like I can have a cocktail, but let's 0:09:05.440 --> 0:09:08.720 only have two. And then the cocktails turned into like 0:09:09.600 --> 0:09:15.080 in big glasses that really equaled maybe six, right, And 0:09:15.120 --> 0:09:18.920 then I did AA for a while where I was 0:09:18.960 --> 0:09:22.040 still smoking weed, and then I felt like I was 0:09:22.080 --> 0:09:23.520 making a mockery of the program. 0:09:23.559 --> 0:09:25.880 Finally I had just given up. I was like, I 0:09:26.040 --> 0:09:29.880 like to drink, and everyone's gonna have to just get 0:09:29.920 --> 0:09:30.360 over it. 0:09:30.600 --> 0:09:30.760 Right. 0:09:31.200 --> 0:09:33.760 So I would say that my rock bottom moment did 0:09:33.840 --> 0:09:36.719 happen six months after my dad died, because that's when 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:38.640 I really leaned into drinking. 0:09:39.760 --> 0:09:41.640 Drinking for me used to just. 0:09:41.559 --> 0:09:44.280 Be fun and like we'd go out on the weekends 0:09:44.320 --> 0:09:46.320 and it would make me loose back in Utide, go 0:09:46.320 --> 0:09:49.000 out maybe twice a month, you know, and I get 0:09:49.040 --> 0:09:54.360 a little lit. But it wasn't It wasn't an everyday thing. 0:09:55.000 --> 0:09:58.199 Once I moved to LA and then once I met 0:09:58.240 --> 0:10:04.240 my ex, it was really bad, okay, And I don't 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:08.839 want to place blame on that situation. I'm just using 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:12.000 that as the time marker of when it got bad. 0:10:12.080 --> 0:10:13.680 He made it easy. 0:10:13.760 --> 0:10:16.000 Your life was easy for you to drink every day, 0:10:16.040 --> 0:10:21.559 the responsibilities lowered. I feel like when you met him, 0:10:21.600 --> 0:10:24.720 it's not like he made you drink or things like that. 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:27.240 Your life became easy. You were on a TV show, 0:10:27.679 --> 0:10:30.760 Things were taken care of. Your life became easier to 0:10:30.960 --> 0:10:33.000 just have fun, on Tuesday Wednesday. 0:10:33.480 --> 0:10:34.439 That's how I I. 0:10:34.440 --> 0:10:38.000 Just feel like in La, there's something happening all the time. 0:10:38.320 --> 0:10:40.800 It's crazy that Friday and Saturday is a slow night 0:10:40.800 --> 0:10:43.559 in La. Yeah, you know, it's like it's crazy. 0:10:43.760 --> 0:10:47.080 We were like Tuesday through Thursday was when we were 0:10:47.160 --> 0:10:51.199 like having the best time ever. And then Friday and 0:10:51.280 --> 0:10:53.400 Saturday is when I'd go into sir because my friends 0:10:53.440 --> 0:10:56.360 had to work, so like i'd drink, but those weren't 0:10:56.360 --> 0:10:57.160 the party nights. 0:10:57.600 --> 0:11:00.720 Tuesday through Thursday, it was like, let's fucking go. 0:11:01.120 --> 0:11:04.319 You're also, you know, not like it's the elephant in 0:11:04.360 --> 0:11:06.080 the room, but you're filming a TV show. I don't 0:11:06.120 --> 0:11:08.840 think I could film a reality TV show which thrives 0:11:08.840 --> 0:11:12.440 off of drama, thrives off of interactions that are a 0:11:12.440 --> 0:11:14.920 little more wild, and not drink because I'd be like, 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:18.000 I'm doing my job. I'm gonna make a TV I'm 0:11:18.000 --> 0:11:20.560 gonna get loose lit say some shit. I might not 0:11:20.720 --> 0:11:22.800 I might filter myself because cameras are around. 0:11:23.080 --> 0:11:25.200 So that probably back to the point of your friend 0:11:25.200 --> 0:11:27.439 who moved who had to have drinks to make friends. 0:11:27.520 --> 0:11:30.720 It's like how you've felt the need to drink to 0:11:30.760 --> 0:11:33.439 make TV. Yeah, fall into that hole. 0:11:33.600 --> 0:11:36.280 Yeah, of course, and everyone else is drinking and you 0:11:36.480 --> 0:11:40.520 are absolutely terrified being in this new environment. 0:11:41.320 --> 0:11:42.640 And then it became my norm. 0:11:42.720 --> 0:11:45.840 It was like I would be on movie sets and 0:11:46.280 --> 0:11:47.760 be drinking before scenes. 0:11:47.800 --> 0:11:48.000 You know. 0:11:48.080 --> 0:11:51.160 It was like we were full blown, like off to 0:11:51.240 --> 0:11:52.480 the races of alcoholism. 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:55.760 Right. So when I went on. 0:11:57.920 --> 0:12:02.040 At that trip to Mexico season seven, and I hadn't 0:12:02.080 --> 0:12:04.880 been drinking, but then I started sneaking drinks in the 0:12:04.880 --> 0:12:08.400 middle of the season, got wasted in Mexico. After that trip, 0:12:08.520 --> 0:12:11.600 I came home and was like, I'm never picking up 0:12:11.640 --> 0:12:15.400 alcohol again. At Jackson Brittany's engagement party, you see me 0:12:15.440 --> 0:12:19.400 talking to Stossy saying it doesn't mix. I'm gonna be sober. 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:24.760 It did not last, okay. I was still spiraling, And 0:12:24.800 --> 0:12:27.160 then it got to the point where I just caved 0:12:27.200 --> 0:12:29.320 into the fact that I liked to drink and at 0:12:29.320 --> 0:12:31.880 some point it would go away. Mm, Like literally, I 0:12:31.880 --> 0:12:33.360 didn't give a fuck. I was like, I'm not ever 0:12:33.400 --> 0:12:36.640 gonna question this again. Like, one day I'll get pregnant 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:40.360 and be a mom and that's when I'll stop drinking, 0:12:40.520 --> 0:12:45.280 because who would drink pregnant? Well, you'd be surprised. Addiction 0:12:45.440 --> 0:12:50.360 is a wild thing, right, So I'm in that zone. 0:12:50.559 --> 0:12:53.480 My ex says, I want us to go meet with 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:57.160 a psychiatrist. You know, he's sensing that I need to 0:12:57.200 --> 0:13:01.800 talk to somebody. I meet with this woman. As I'm 0:13:01.840 --> 0:13:04.440 talking to her, she dismisses my ex and says, like, 0:13:04.480 --> 0:13:07.720 I would like to talk to Lalla by herself. We 0:13:07.840 --> 0:13:11.200 venture into my drinking habits. She tells me to take 0:13:11.240 --> 0:13:14.920 this number down, and I felt like she was pushing 0:13:14.960 --> 0:13:18.200 me to get help. So as I'm writing it down, 0:13:18.280 --> 0:13:21.400 I was like, are you giving this to me because 0:13:21.400 --> 0:13:23.840 you're asking me to be sober, because. 0:13:24.160 --> 0:13:25.520 That's not fucking happening. 0:13:25.720 --> 0:13:30.000 Yeah, I'll get sober when I get pregnant, bitch, not 0:13:30.080 --> 0:13:33.360 a few good years, right, And she was like, I'm 0:13:33.400 --> 0:13:35.360 not asking you to do anything. I'm asking you to 0:13:35.360 --> 0:13:38.120 put this number in your phone. If you use it, great, 0:13:38.320 --> 0:13:41.720 if you don't, great. We go to Florida on the 0:13:41.720 --> 0:13:47.120 family vacation to Disney Worlds. I am beyond wasted and 0:13:47.160 --> 0:13:49.640 not like the fun, like let's get a little buzzed, 0:13:49.640 --> 0:13:51.400 you know how. You see like parents that are with 0:13:51.440 --> 0:13:55.040 the kids and they're like, there's no driving involved because 0:13:55.080 --> 0:13:57.400 you're literally staying on the park and it's like, oh, 0:13:57.400 --> 0:14:00.360 that's fun. That person like works really hard, Like I'm 0:14:00.400 --> 0:14:01.920 just going to take a load off. My kids are 0:14:01.920 --> 0:14:04.000 gonna ride rides. Yes, it was not like that. 0:14:04.160 --> 0:14:07.160 I will say it was fun during the mornings. 0:14:07.280 --> 0:14:07.760 You were there. 0:14:08.080 --> 0:14:11.880 Yeah, everyone was there. Yeah, my exes, whole family, my 0:14:11.960 --> 0:14:16.120 whole family. Okay, Brannan and Cheryl. Did anyone else drink 0:14:16.200 --> 0:14:17.679 with you or was it a weird like. 0:14:17.679 --> 0:14:19.920 I mean, I think no one was keeping up with me, 0:14:20.040 --> 0:14:20.720 that's for sure. 0:14:20.840 --> 0:14:23.520 But that's the thing is like she was funduring the 0:14:23.600 --> 0:14:26.480 morning and the afternoon, but that's where you would hit 0:14:26.520 --> 0:14:29.320 that one point of you over drink and then. 0:14:30.280 --> 0:14:33.600 Afternoons and dinners became nightmares, me. 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:36.120 Falling down the stairs, I mean, mabing someone to walk 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:36.400 me to. 0:14:36.440 --> 0:14:38.680 The bathroom, like the fun that we would have in 0:14:38.720 --> 0:14:42.240 the morning because you just had started right and then 0:14:42.320 --> 0:14:43.600 the other drinking. 0:14:43.400 --> 0:14:46.680 Is just talking about this is taking me to such 0:14:46.720 --> 0:14:49.840 a dark place that I'm having to remind myself like 0:14:50.040 --> 0:14:51.000 we don't live in that. 0:14:51.080 --> 0:14:51.920 No, exactly. 0:14:51.960 --> 0:14:53.880 And I also want to get to year one. 0:14:53.920 --> 0:14:55.880 When you hit your one and half, you felt like 0:14:55.920 --> 0:14:57.160 I want to get to that but I know a 0:14:57.160 --> 0:14:59.240 lot of people ask about rock bottom and we can. 0:14:59.120 --> 0:15:00.320 We can see. 0:15:00.440 --> 0:15:02.080 But this is why I tell people, I think it's 0:15:02.120 --> 0:15:05.840 important to talk about your rock bottom moment and in 0:15:05.880 --> 0:15:09.600 some way relive it, because it does take you back 0:15:09.640 --> 0:15:11.560 to a place where you're like, well, I'm never going 0:15:11.600 --> 0:15:14.200 there again, Like I don't want to go there. This 0:15:14.280 --> 0:15:16.840 is why we go to meetings because it's a constant 0:15:18.200 --> 0:15:20.960 I don't want to say rehashing, but it takes you 0:15:21.080 --> 0:15:26.080 to where you can remember your lowest place. And then 0:15:26.080 --> 0:15:28.440 when the speaker is sharing, they're taking you to their 0:15:28.440 --> 0:15:30.360 lowest place and you're relating, and then all of this 0:15:30.480 --> 0:15:33.840 sudden the moment that they get sober and the whole 0:15:33.920 --> 0:15:36.760 room feels like they're not suffocating anymore, and you feel 0:15:36.760 --> 0:15:40.640 inspired and you go out and you're back to loving sobriety. 0:15:41.080 --> 0:15:41.480 Yeah. 0:15:41.520 --> 0:15:46.320 So we go through Disneyland, me being wasted the entire time. 0:15:47.360 --> 0:15:51.720 We're leaving to go back to la We chartered a jet. 0:15:52.360 --> 0:15:54.840 We easton, got a bottle of Hennessy in the gift 0:15:54.840 --> 0:15:57.640 shop and I was fixated on where it was at 0:15:57.640 --> 0:15:58.120 all times. 0:15:58.160 --> 0:15:59.880 I got two roadies to take. 0:16:01.320 --> 0:16:03.320 The one thing that I will say, I was like yeah, 0:16:03.320 --> 0:16:04.840 I want to get some Hennessy for the plane. 0:16:05.000 --> 0:16:05.960 Yeah, I d. 0:16:07.440 --> 0:16:09.320 I poured one little drink. 0:16:09.040 --> 0:16:12.400 Of cocaine Hennessy and I'm just sipping it, chatting. 0:16:12.560 --> 0:16:17.920 I drink the whole thing was gone. And then. 0:16:18.600 --> 0:16:21.560 Were you concerned or were you like no, you know, everyone. 0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:22.440 Was concerned after this trip. 0:16:22.640 --> 0:16:24.760 After this trip, I was concerned. 0:16:24.800 --> 0:16:27.360 But remember my family didn't live in l A. 0:16:27.560 --> 0:16:29.840 Like, I had never seen her like this. 0:16:30.040 --> 0:16:33.440 I think there would have been an intervention. Okay, there 0:16:33.520 --> 0:16:37.680 were moments that my mom would talk to Easton. I 0:16:38.440 --> 0:16:43.119 did at moments drink and drive and that's. 0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:45.560 Where and that's where I almost got it. 0:16:45.600 --> 0:16:49.280 But that's where my mother would fly out when she 0:16:49.400 --> 0:16:52.880 would call us and we could tell she was drunk, 0:16:53.360 --> 0:16:56.960 and she was like, I'm getting away from x Y 0:16:57.080 --> 0:17:00.400 and Z, whether that be the person she was with 0:17:00.720 --> 0:17:04.080 or the eggs like the fight, but it wasn't always 0:17:04.080 --> 0:17:06.359 it was x Y and Z. Whatever the story was. 0:17:06.440 --> 0:17:08.720 She was trying to get away, but we knew she 0:17:08.920 --> 0:17:12.960 was drunk, but she was driving. And those are the 0:17:13.000 --> 0:17:18.320 times where my mother was like, yeah, like I'm flying out. 0:17:18.520 --> 0:17:20.480 So that's why she would go out and things like 0:17:20.520 --> 0:17:24.440 that is because of those reasons of that, but that's 0:17:24.480 --> 0:17:26.160 when we were scared, We were nervous. 0:17:26.359 --> 0:17:29.760 Yeah, I was reckless. My life had become unmanageable. 0:17:30.359 --> 0:17:34.840 And on that plane ride when I was drinking, it 0:17:35.000 --> 0:17:37.879 was I was letting the kids because they were getting antsy. 0:17:37.880 --> 0:17:40.160 I was letting them draw with markers on my legs, 0:17:40.200 --> 0:17:43.040 letting them put makeup on my face. And then you know, 0:17:43.480 --> 0:17:47.200 we get home and funds over were back to reality 0:17:47.400 --> 0:17:51.239 and I couldn't get any drunker, and it was I 0:17:51.320 --> 0:17:52.440 was depressed. 0:17:52.480 --> 0:17:55.960 I had hit that you know, where you want. 0:17:55.760 --> 0:17:58.320 To drive your car off of a cliff because you're 0:17:58.359 --> 0:18:01.480 just in such a dark place, which is what alcohol 0:18:01.600 --> 0:18:04.600 does to a lot of people. And that's why I 0:18:04.640 --> 0:18:07.680 would continue to drink the next day because I didn't 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:10.280 want to deal with that level of depression, right, So 0:18:10.320 --> 0:18:13.840 the cycle just continued. But I remember waking up the 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:18.159 next morning. Easton was gone, my mom was gone, his 0:18:18.240 --> 0:18:21.159 girlfriend that he brought out was gone, and I was 0:18:21.920 --> 0:18:24.919 I had scrubbed my legs the night before because I 0:18:24.920 --> 0:18:29.080 didn't want to remember the darkness. But it didn't matter 0:18:29.080 --> 0:18:31.840 if I did that or not, because all of the 0:18:31.880 --> 0:18:35.120 marker was gone off my legs. But I woke up 0:18:35.160 --> 0:18:39.199 still and said, like admitted to myself, you're an alcoholic. 0:18:39.240 --> 0:18:43.320 You're calling the number that the woman gave you. I 0:18:43.440 --> 0:18:46.640 called my partner at the time and said, I need 0:18:46.640 --> 0:18:47.800 to talk to you at your office. 0:18:48.560 --> 0:18:49.440 Went to his office. 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:52.720 I told him I'm an alcoholic and I'm reaching out 0:18:52.760 --> 0:18:54.560 today to get help. I had a meeting that day 0:18:54.640 --> 0:18:58.120 about something, and it was just like a very freeing 0:18:58.160 --> 0:18:59.880 moment in my life. 0:19:00.320 --> 0:19:02.960 For the first time. The elephant had like lifted off 0:19:03.040 --> 0:19:12.680 of my chest when I first entered the AA meetings, 0:19:13.280 --> 0:19:14.840 because you know, I was going and meeting with my 0:19:14.960 --> 0:19:18.040 sober coach. She was like a caseworker, Ashley. 0:19:19.040 --> 0:19:22.160 She would call me every day and I would meet 0:19:22.160 --> 0:19:24.200 with her every Thursday, and she was trying to link 0:19:24.240 --> 0:19:26.640 me up with She knew I was in a delicate 0:19:26.640 --> 0:19:29.720 position right I was also on a television show. She 0:19:29.840 --> 0:19:32.000 just wanted to handle it with care of I wasn't 0:19:32.080 --> 0:19:34.600 Kim Kardashian getting sober, but she just wanted to make 0:19:34.600 --> 0:19:35.639 sure I was protected. 0:19:36.600 --> 0:19:40.240 And so we found my sponsor. I started going to meetings. 0:19:40.240 --> 0:19:45.040 I did the whole thing, and for the first thirty 0:19:45.119 --> 0:19:49.679 days I went to this meeting and I had so 0:19:49.880 --> 0:19:55.160 much guilt because listening to Sorry, I gotta breathe, no breathe. 0:19:55.880 --> 0:19:57.080 Take a couple of them. 0:19:57.480 --> 0:20:02.320 Listening to the stories that people were it was like 0:20:03.000 --> 0:20:06.480 so many of them got into cars drunk and something 0:20:06.560 --> 0:20:12.320 horrible happened. And then here I am getting into cars drunk, 0:20:13.320 --> 0:20:18.520 acting fucking reckless for years on end and just nothing happened. 0:20:19.119 --> 0:20:24.520 Like what made me so special that my rock bottom 0:20:25.040 --> 0:20:27.720 was thirty five thousand feet in the air on a 0:20:27.760 --> 0:20:32.040 private jet. Yeah, but this person had to have his 0:20:32.080 --> 0:20:35.480 whole life change, you know, you struggle with the guilt 0:20:35.480 --> 0:20:38.520 of I just don't understand that, like why does life 0:20:38.600 --> 0:20:39.200 work that way? 0:20:39.920 --> 0:20:41.240 Like someone make it make sense. 0:20:42.200 --> 0:20:45.200 But then after I got through thirty days, this woman 0:20:45.240 --> 0:20:47.679 came up to me and she was like, you have 0:20:47.840 --> 0:20:50.480 like a bright light to you now, like you came 0:20:50.520 --> 0:20:53.280 in so defeated, and I hope me telling you this 0:20:53.440 --> 0:20:55.879 makes you come back over and over and over again, 0:20:56.080 --> 0:20:57.880 because some people fall off after thirty days. 0:20:57.920 --> 0:20:59.840 That's the hardest point to reach. 0:21:00.119 --> 0:21:01.879 Is it every day just so I know? 0:21:02.119 --> 0:21:04.119 Or is it just like thirty days, like maybe a 0:21:04.160 --> 0:21:05.560 couple days here, a couple of days there. 0:21:05.920 --> 0:21:11.000 Like meetings, Yes, No, I did ninety meetings in ninety days. 0:21:11.320 --> 0:21:14.600 Wowulation amazing whatever. 0:21:15.040 --> 0:21:18.359 I walked in and I was like, show me the way. 0:21:18.440 --> 0:21:21.240 There's no version of me. Tell me what to do, 0:21:21.800 --> 0:21:24.600 what to do, I'll eat dog shit. That'll get me 0:21:24.680 --> 0:21:26.120 fucking sober. Like, I don't care. 0:21:26.400 --> 0:21:28.080 I want what you have. What do I do? 0:21:28.840 --> 0:21:31.800 Okay, So we go back you did after the thirty days? 0:21:31.800 --> 0:21:33.679 She said, there's a bright light now. Is that the 0:21:33.720 --> 0:21:35.359 pink cloud you were talking about or no? 0:21:35.680 --> 0:21:37.639 I think she just saw it in my eyes. 0:21:37.680 --> 0:21:40.840 There was clarity, you know, like I look back on 0:21:40.920 --> 0:21:44.720 pictures like I'm like, you. 0:21:44.640 --> 0:21:45.280 Look like shit. 0:21:46.320 --> 0:21:48.600 How did you possibly walk out into the world and 0:21:48.640 --> 0:21:53.000 feel confident? Your eyes are bloodshot, your puffy is shit, 0:21:53.840 --> 0:21:57.480 your your coloring is off. You look not good, bitch, 0:21:58.280 --> 0:22:00.240 and you're going out into the world thinking that you're 0:22:00.520 --> 0:22:01.160 hitting right. 0:22:01.760 --> 0:22:03.119 That's what alcohol does see you. 0:22:04.080 --> 0:22:06.320 Yeah, you know, you guys don't have your summer bots. 0:22:07.359 --> 0:22:10.240 You body shame people the false confidence. 0:22:10.560 --> 0:22:14.840 Right now, I can go out and have confrontation with people, 0:22:15.440 --> 0:22:17.439 but at least I can own it and be like, yeah, 0:22:17.440 --> 0:22:19.159 well there was not a proud moment. But I have 0:22:19.359 --> 0:22:21.359 no one to blame but myself. I was you know, 0:22:21.480 --> 0:22:24.320 I can't blame it on alcohol. I remember everything that happened, 0:22:25.080 --> 0:22:27.480 and although that sounds like a shitty thing, we're like, 0:22:27.520 --> 0:22:31.080 I can't blame something, right, it actually feels very good. 0:22:31.480 --> 0:22:33.040 I was gonna say it probably feels freeing. 0:22:33.520 --> 0:22:37.320 Yeah, yeah, because to me, it's like embarrassing when I 0:22:37.359 --> 0:22:38.320 have to blame alcohol. 0:22:38.600 --> 0:22:43.160 I feel like, ugh, how gross? How grow up? I 0:22:43.200 --> 0:22:47.120 was drunk. Okay, you're thirty two, get. 0:22:46.960 --> 0:22:48.000 It together, get it. 0:22:48.080 --> 0:22:50.160 It's not cute in high school where like you leave 0:22:50.160 --> 0:22:53.440 your friends at the high school party like the rivalry 0:22:53.640 --> 0:22:54.840 team's house or whatever. 0:22:55.000 --> 0:22:59.880 You're like, I was just wasted, Sierra, Sierra, so drunk. 0:23:00.240 --> 0:23:02.240 You know, it's like not cute. 0:23:02.520 --> 0:23:06.920 Yes, okay, so happy now because you get to a year, 0:23:07.480 --> 0:23:10.359 You get to a year of sobriety are you? And 0:23:10.400 --> 0:23:12.160 there might have been a moment before a year, who 0:23:12.240 --> 0:23:14.680 knows six months where you're like, holy shit, I can't 0:23:14.720 --> 0:23:15.400 believe I made it. 0:23:15.560 --> 0:23:16.600 Do you get to a year. 0:23:16.480 --> 0:23:18.600 And you're like easy, breezy, like it's not even a 0:23:18.600 --> 0:23:20.480 big deal. How are you feeling when you get to 0:23:20.520 --> 0:23:22.240 a year, your year anniversary? 0:23:22.480 --> 0:23:24.960 You know, it was weird because I remember just randomly 0:23:25.000 --> 0:23:28.960 getting on Instagram on my five month sobriety and treating 0:23:28.960 --> 0:23:30.160 it like it was no big deal. 0:23:30.280 --> 0:23:31.840 Like, by the way, I'm. 0:23:31.720 --> 0:23:34.679 A friend of Bill W's now and then like the 0:23:34.760 --> 0:23:37.119 internet blew up was like La La Kent has a 0:23:37.200 --> 0:23:40.040 drinking problem and has been sober for five months, which 0:23:40.119 --> 0:23:43.880 is such a random number, right, And I was like, oh, 0:23:43.880 --> 0:23:45.719 this is like a kind of a big deal, right 0:23:45.880 --> 0:23:48.159 to be like someone who admits to having a drinking 0:23:48.240 --> 0:23:50.399 problem and now you're sober. 0:23:51.119 --> 0:23:55.880 So when I hit a year, it was fucking wild. 0:23:55.960 --> 0:23:58.119 When they gave me my one year chip, I was like, 0:23:58.880 --> 0:24:01.399 this is the greatest prize of my life. 0:24:02.840 --> 0:24:06.520 Every year. She's yes, wait for that second third. It's 0:24:06.560 --> 0:24:07.800 like the Lord of the Rings. 0:24:07.840 --> 0:24:10.440 You wanted Easton and my mom got me the diamond 0:24:10.600 --> 0:24:13.520 five for my five year. I still haven't gotten my 0:24:13.600 --> 0:24:14.320 five year chip. 0:24:14.920 --> 0:24:18.119 You have to go get that. I finally Jewelers for 0:24:18.160 --> 0:24:18.600 the five. 0:24:18.920 --> 0:24:21.639 Yeah, it's the only thing I have that represents my 0:24:21.840 --> 0:24:22.520 five years. 0:24:24.560 --> 0:24:26.760 We love I see it a lot. 0:24:27.560 --> 0:24:29.040 You have to go get it in person. They won't 0:24:29.040 --> 0:24:30.120 mail it to you or anything. 0:24:30.359 --> 0:24:32.439 No, it's just it's special to get it in person. 0:24:32.520 --> 0:24:34.440 But now I'm you know, we're just. 0:24:37.400 --> 0:24:37.800 This year. 0:24:39.480 --> 0:24:43.399 But that's when my sponsor told me that she not 0:24:43.480 --> 0:24:45.560 my sponsor, my sober coach. I'm sorry because I was 0:24:45.560 --> 0:24:48.639 still seeing her along with my sponsor in AA meetings, 0:24:48.720 --> 0:24:49.679 but she told. 0:24:49.440 --> 0:24:51.520 Me you're my little unicorn. 0:24:52.040 --> 0:24:56.240 Why because she said it's a rare thing to have 0:24:56.320 --> 0:25:00.320 someone come in and want it so badly and not 0:25:01.359 --> 0:25:06.480 ever in the course of a year talk about wanting 0:25:06.800 --> 0:25:07.760 to drink less. 0:25:07.840 --> 0:25:10.000 Work through that because I didn't. You didn't. 0:25:10.200 --> 0:25:12.160 No, you were not tempted you. 0:25:12.200 --> 0:25:14.880 Nope, it of your rock bottom. 0:25:14.960 --> 0:25:17.280 You thought of that often, because I really I think 0:25:17.400 --> 0:25:20.600 you thinking or anybody thinking of where they were at 0:25:20.680 --> 0:25:22.880 rock bottom is a very good thing to think about. 0:25:22.960 --> 0:25:24.560 I know you hated talking. 0:25:24.320 --> 0:25:26.960 About it and thinking about it, but what did that 0:25:27.040 --> 0:25:28.880 do just for you to not drink for the next 0:25:28.880 --> 0:25:29.640 three months? 0:25:29.880 --> 0:25:30.800 Yeah? Is that what it was? 0:25:30.800 --> 0:25:33.960 I sitting your rock bottom puts you in a place 0:25:34.000 --> 0:25:36.240 again of I don't even care to talk about it 0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:37.280 because I just revisited. 0:25:37.640 --> 0:25:39.040 Or was it people counting on you? 0:25:39.119 --> 0:25:41.560 I remember seeing a clip Was it because you actually 0:25:41.600 --> 0:25:43.639 made a public statement? I remember seeing a clip on 0:25:43.720 --> 0:25:45.879 like watch What Happens Live or something, and You're like, 0:25:45.960 --> 0:25:48.679 I'm never drinking again. Was it that that you're like, well, 0:25:48.720 --> 0:25:50.560 I can't, like, what was it you think that? 0:25:50.720 --> 0:25:52.399 I just think for the first time, I was like 0:25:52.520 --> 0:25:56.359 so happy and clear, and I liked the way that 0:25:56.440 --> 0:25:59.879 I looked. I liked the way that I felt. It 0:26:00.320 --> 0:26:04.760 just was a good I never had to worry about, 0:26:05.400 --> 0:26:07.520 like getting in my car, like I'm always gonna get 0:26:07.520 --> 0:26:11.480 in my car sober, and if something bad happens, God forbid. 0:26:12.240 --> 0:26:13.520 At least I wasn't. 0:26:13.280 --> 0:26:17.560 Fucked up, you know, But I do feelings. 0:26:17.160 --> 0:26:20.240 Like that made me just want to keep staying sober, 0:26:20.280 --> 0:26:23.879 and that feeling has not ended since the day I 0:26:23.920 --> 0:26:24.560 got sober. 0:26:24.840 --> 0:26:26.280 Yeah, And for me, I. 0:26:26.200 --> 0:26:29.280 Do, I have a feeling And maybe it's subconscious on 0:26:29.320 --> 0:26:32.080 you of I think the jet and having all of 0:26:32.119 --> 0:26:35.360 them writing on you and all of that. You revisiting 0:26:35.400 --> 0:26:38.560 that moment is what will keep you sober throughout. I 0:26:38.640 --> 0:26:41.719 think so too, Even though you don't want to revisit it, 0:26:41.800 --> 0:26:44.520 revisiting it is the thing that will give you longevity 0:26:44.560 --> 0:26:48.959 and what you're doing, I think so too. And to everybody, like, 0:26:49.000 --> 0:26:50.600 that's the other thing that I'm trying to say, like 0:26:51.280 --> 0:26:53.600 for you, for everybody, if you have to revisit that 0:26:53.640 --> 0:26:56.879 thing and get disgusted, however, you have to do it 0:26:56.920 --> 0:27:00.320 with friends, family, however you do it, revisiting it for 0:27:00.440 --> 0:27:03.080 me because you've brought up those points so many times. 0:27:03.119 --> 0:27:06.000 I feel like that is what has kept you sober 0:27:06.040 --> 0:27:09.639 as well and not even wanting a drink, right, And 0:27:09.680 --> 0:27:10.800 that's just coming from me. 0:27:11.359 --> 0:27:15.080 Yeah, and what like a simple statement, but like that's 0:27:15.119 --> 0:27:17.440 probably so freeing that you said, like I could get 0:27:17.480 --> 0:27:20.160 in my car anytime I want. That's like, oh yeah, 0:27:20.359 --> 0:27:22.359 people like you could get in your car anytime you 0:27:22.400 --> 0:27:23.960 want and know you're not going to be fucked up. 0:27:24.160 --> 0:27:26.640 That is so simple but so powerful. That's like you're 0:27:26.640 --> 0:27:30.640 not trapped anywhere. You literally can leave any time you need, 0:27:31.359 --> 0:27:32.440 which probably. 0:27:33.680 --> 0:27:36.800 Yeah, well, and I don't ever want because I was 0:27:36.840 --> 0:27:40.840 on a pretty high dose of anti anxiety and antidepressants. 0:27:42.040 --> 0:27:46.000 And I don't say to people like, once you get sober, 0:27:46.040 --> 0:27:47.240 you don't need meds anymore. 0:27:47.280 --> 0:27:48.200 That's not what I'm saying. 0:27:48.240 --> 0:27:51.320 Like, I'm not a doctor, listen to your doctor for 0:27:51.520 --> 0:27:56.399 me personally, After I got sober, I no longer needed 0:27:56.440 --> 0:27:59.280 medication for my anxiety or depression and have not been 0:27:59.320 --> 0:28:01.199 on medication and since I got sober. 0:28:01.560 --> 0:28:04.360 Wow, But that's where I can battle you. 0:28:04.440 --> 0:28:06.560 Oh yeah, about But that's why I say. 0:28:07.080 --> 0:28:09.240 That's why I say, don't listen to me, because this 0:28:09.400 --> 0:28:10.639 is just my own person. 0:28:11.400 --> 0:28:13.760 Just as much as the next person. I promise. 0:28:13.800 --> 0:28:17.800 Okay, that's meaning let me back. You're not a sober person. 0:28:18.520 --> 0:28:21.879 I smoke weed. You're right, so you're right. Maybe the 0:28:21.920 --> 0:28:22.800 weed would kick it. 0:28:22.880 --> 0:28:24.520 I don't know, and I don't know where you could 0:28:24.560 --> 0:28:25.120 battle me. 0:28:26.440 --> 0:28:28.800 I'm fully sober. 0:28:30.560 --> 0:28:33.639 But also the only other thing is you've been in 0:28:33.680 --> 0:28:37.199 this world for like a decade of. 0:28:37.440 --> 0:28:38.440 Just getting. 0:28:40.120 --> 0:28:44.600 They all say that the comments section won't affect that until. 0:28:44.480 --> 0:28:47.160 Until you're in that thing, and you're like, you know what, 0:28:47.360 --> 0:28:50.560 I'm a little just stay home for a couple of years. 0:28:51.240 --> 0:28:52.880 But no, you're right. You're right. 0:28:53.000 --> 0:28:55.400 I'm not sober, so I can't not change anything. 0:28:55.560 --> 0:28:56.520 It may not, but i'm not. 0:28:57.320 --> 0:28:59.320 But we all have different it's all relative. We all 0:28:59.360 --> 0:29:01.280 have different brains, chemicality, your doctor. 0:29:02.240 --> 0:29:05.800 Yeah, I don't listen to me. I'm just coming from 0:29:05.800 --> 0:29:08.440 personal experiences, right. 0:29:09.120 --> 0:29:10.600 Thank you for sharing that with us, law. 0:29:10.680 --> 0:29:12.440 Is there anything else you want to say about your 0:29:12.480 --> 0:29:15.400 sobriety story for now in your journey? 0:29:15.560 --> 0:29:18.160 I know we have other stories to share, but I. 0:29:18.080 --> 0:29:22.000 Think the biggest thing is that my sobriety has made 0:29:22.760 --> 0:29:27.360 it so that I can be the person that the 0:29:27.440 --> 0:29:30.680 daughter my mom deserves, the sister that Easton deserves. 0:29:30.880 --> 0:29:31.440 And there are. 0:29:31.440 --> 0:29:33.320 Moments where I'm a hot head and I don't want 0:29:33.320 --> 0:29:35.800 to listen, and I always think that my feelings are facts. 0:29:36.560 --> 0:29:42.200 The difference is is once I retreat after battle, I 0:29:42.280 --> 0:29:45.800 can understand where the other person is coming. 0:29:45.560 --> 0:29:48.160 From, back to where we go for the jugular. 0:29:48.120 --> 0:29:50.200 Right, That's just in my nature. 0:29:50.440 --> 0:29:52.400 Yes, is what we all do. I do it now too. 0:29:53.200 --> 0:29:55.560 We all do it, yes many and my family not 0:29:55.720 --> 0:30:00.360 the world this Yeah, and it's allowed me to be 0:30:01.040 --> 0:30:04.320 the parent that Ocean deserves. Yeah, because I would not 0:30:04.480 --> 0:30:06.760 be this kind of mom if I was not sober. 0:30:07.200 --> 0:30:10.000 That's really sweet and great. Yeah, thank you for sharing that, 0:30:10.080 --> 0:30:12.000 And I'm really glad. I don't even know if we've 0:30:12.000 --> 0:30:14.400 done a full on like just you know. 0:30:14.440 --> 0:30:18.160 Guests talking about I love you, I love your way more. 0:30:21.840 --> 0:30:24.680 Do you want to get into some shared stories? 0:30:24.880 --> 0:30:25.080 I know? 0:30:25.280 --> 0:30:28.160 Okay, So we did a few longer ones the last 0:30:28.200 --> 0:30:31.360 time or whenever the Sober Bonus episode aired. So I'll 0:30:31.400 --> 0:30:33.360 do like a few of the short ones that people 0:30:34.240 --> 0:30:39.600 wrote in so this person, I'll start with us. My 0:30:39.760 --> 0:30:42.920 husband just entered a thirty day program for alcoholism. 0:30:43.000 --> 0:30:44.520 Any words of advice. 0:30:45.400 --> 0:30:51.040 Ooh, I would suggest going to number one. 0:30:51.200 --> 0:30:53.080 That's incredible, congratulations. 0:30:53.560 --> 0:30:57.120 I think alan On is extremely beneficial to people who 0:30:57.440 --> 0:31:02.640 have been on the receiving end of an addict because 0:31:02.640 --> 0:31:05.600 as much as it is a disease and the person 0:31:05.680 --> 0:31:09.600 is not who they are truly when they're under the influence, 0:31:10.320 --> 0:31:15.040 you know, we have deeply affected people, and I think 0:31:15.040 --> 0:31:18.680 that that could be beneficial. And also I would say 0:31:18.720 --> 0:31:20.760 sticking to one day at a time is like the 0:31:20.760 --> 0:31:23.640 most important thing, Like do not look at the bigger picture. 0:31:24.400 --> 0:31:27.440 Sometimes you have to take it one second at a time. 0:31:28.320 --> 0:31:30.840 And when you can just get through that one second, 0:31:30.880 --> 0:31:32.840 one minute at a time, it's like a freaking win. 0:31:33.600 --> 0:31:35.480 So that would be my biggest piece of advice. 0:31:35.680 --> 0:31:36.200 Yeah. 0:31:36.400 --> 0:31:38.040 I think one day at a time, one second at 0:31:38.080 --> 0:31:41.000 a time, for me, helps with so much too, not 0:31:41.120 --> 0:31:44.360 even sobriety, like just for like, if I'm feeling for me, 0:31:44.480 --> 0:31:47.000 if I'm feeling wildly overwhelmed and I have a list 0:31:47.040 --> 0:31:50.080 of fifty things to do, I go one item at 0:31:50.080 --> 0:31:53.520 a time, right list them out what's most important, and literally, 0:31:53.640 --> 0:31:56.240 just if I look at the entire list, I like 0:31:56.320 --> 0:31:57.800 almost feel frozen. 0:31:57.640 --> 0:31:59.920 Right, but one item at a time. I don't know, 0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:00.880 but that is I. 0:32:00.800 --> 0:32:03.040 Also think if I had a partner who was entering 0:32:03.240 --> 0:32:07.400 a thirty day program, once they got out, you have 0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:10.800 to create a very safe space for them and see 0:32:10.840 --> 0:32:16.040 what they need. If they say I don't feel comfortable, 0:32:16.040 --> 0:32:19.480 I wouldn't keep alcohol in the house. People bring alcohol 0:32:19.520 --> 0:32:22.000 to my house and leave it and it's there for 0:32:22.040 --> 0:32:23.480 them when they return. 0:32:23.760 --> 0:32:25.200 But again, everybody's different. 0:32:25.600 --> 0:32:28.720 So just like making your person feel safe enough to say, like, hey, 0:32:29.360 --> 0:32:34.320 this is how I'm going to best practice my sobriety 0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:37.920 and continue on this road. 0:32:38.760 --> 0:32:41.000 Please no alcohol in the house. Please. 0:32:41.040 --> 0:32:43.480 I can't go here and listen to listen to them, 0:32:43.480 --> 0:32:45.880 and you know, I'm sure it could get difficult. Your 0:32:45.880 --> 0:32:50.239 life is going to change tremendously because normies think about it. 0:32:50.320 --> 0:32:54.280 Everywhere you go there's really a bar or someone's offering 0:32:54.320 --> 0:32:55.360 you a beverage. 0:32:56.200 --> 0:32:58.800 So life is going to change. 0:32:58.840 --> 0:33:02.560 But you have to like incubate that person because this 0:33:02.720 --> 0:33:04.840 is like life or death for an addict. 0:33:05.680 --> 0:33:11.680 Yeah, this person said, I literally hit rock bottom and 0:33:11.760 --> 0:33:14.800 almost ruined my marriage. I've been sober for one year 0:33:14.880 --> 0:33:18.400 and could not be happier. You've been such an inspiration, Lalla. 0:33:18.720 --> 0:33:21.280 I love that human in one year is so special? 0:33:21.560 --> 0:33:21.960 Huge. 0:33:22.400 --> 0:33:22.720 Yeah. 0:33:23.160 --> 0:33:25.320 Can I tell you for everybody though, well, thank you. 0:33:25.440 --> 0:33:27.320 That's what I want you to know that, thank you 0:33:27.400 --> 0:33:29.720 for sharing for all of them, because what you share 0:33:29.840 --> 0:33:31.760 has helped a lot of people. 0:33:31.880 --> 0:33:32.280 Thank you. 0:33:32.800 --> 0:33:34.360 Thank you for being strong and doing. 0:33:34.200 --> 0:33:35.560 It one year. 0:33:35.840 --> 0:33:38.920 Thank you for that was really sweet tea with the 0:33:38.960 --> 0:33:44.920 one year. So, after my relationship ended and I basically 0:33:45.040 --> 0:33:48.000 ran away from the house, I took as much as 0:33:48.080 --> 0:33:51.600 I could, but I didn't empty out my chores, and 0:33:51.640 --> 0:33:54.800 so I had called someone who was still in the 0:33:54.840 --> 0:34:00.440 house and I said, please go back in there. You 0:34:00.440 --> 0:34:03.239 you have to empty my bedside table. My one year 0:34:03.360 --> 0:34:06.520 sobriety chip is in there. She called us back, remember, 0:34:06.560 --> 0:34:07.800 and she was like, I don't know how to tell 0:34:07.840 --> 0:34:09.640 you this, but all of your things are gone and 0:34:09.680 --> 0:34:12.880 there's like another chick stuff in there. And I was 0:34:13.000 --> 0:34:18.200 totally fine with everything except for where is my one 0:34:18.280 --> 0:34:21.239 year chip? Like that I must get and do you 0:34:21.239 --> 0:34:24.719 remember she delivered it to us. Yeah, she found it 0:34:24.760 --> 0:34:27.880 in some garbage bag that all my shit was in 0:34:28.840 --> 0:34:30.799 and I was like, I don't care about anything else 0:34:30.800 --> 0:34:33.000 in the bag, just the chip. 0:34:33.880 --> 0:34:36.520 This person said, well, you brought this up. I got pregnant, 0:34:36.560 --> 0:34:38.359 so maybe it just works for some people. They get 0:34:38.360 --> 0:34:41.440 pregnant and then they never drink again. 0:34:40.080 --> 0:34:44.319 I have another question on top of this and being 0:34:44.360 --> 0:34:47.320 sober and that, I want to know on the vape 0:34:47.600 --> 0:34:50.160 with this, do you think you'll ever go back to 0:34:50.239 --> 0:34:56.040 smoking the vape after not being pregnant one day? 0:34:58.760 --> 0:34:59.880 Guys, I think about it every. 0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:02.279 Day, didn't I know? I in front of her and 0:35:02.320 --> 0:35:03.080 I need to stop. 0:35:03.239 --> 0:35:06.960 I don't think about it ever until it's in front 0:35:07.000 --> 0:35:11.120 of me going into someone's mouth Easton. 0:35:11.520 --> 0:35:15.160 But yours is weed vape, so it's different, right, he says, 0:35:15.239 --> 0:35:16.040 double puffet. 0:35:16.120 --> 0:35:16.600 No. 0:35:16.600 --> 0:35:21.360 No, I don't see them as much anymore because. 0:35:21.680 --> 0:35:24.800 Probably because you were hanging out with me every day. 0:35:25.560 --> 0:35:28.200 You had him in your purse. I remember, Laura, let 0:35:28.200 --> 0:35:29.680 you go. Do you have my vape? And I'd have 0:35:29.680 --> 0:35:31.440 to text you do you have one? Yeah? I have 0:35:31.480 --> 0:35:32.520 two extra in my bag. 0:35:32.920 --> 0:35:35.840 Always a backup, always a backup, always a backup. 0:35:36.680 --> 0:35:38.719 If I was didn't have a backup, oh my god. 0:35:38.920 --> 0:35:39.120 No. 0:35:39.160 --> 0:35:41.440 But that's what's wild is people asking me, how have 0:35:41.480 --> 0:35:43.280 you been doing with the vape since being pregnant. 0:35:43.320 --> 0:35:46.799 I'm like, good, I think I am very good. 0:35:47.160 --> 0:35:49.440 The moment I went through with the I U I 0:35:49.560 --> 0:35:51.160 the vape was in the trash. 0:35:51.239 --> 0:35:54.040 Yeah, but I guess that's the point some people. 0:35:54.200 --> 0:35:56.920 If I were you and I was pregnant once that 0:35:57.040 --> 0:35:59.880 kid shot out mbilical cord. 0:36:00.040 --> 0:36:02.800 But I can't talk about it. 0:36:02.800 --> 0:36:06.000 That's going to be my present for her. It's a 0:36:06.040 --> 0:36:07.040 basket of vape. 0:36:07.280 --> 0:36:10.160 You can never get me to drink again, but vaping 0:36:10.719 --> 0:36:12.600 I need to go to. Like, I think there is 0:36:12.640 --> 0:36:15.040 a bow text to me. This was a while ago, 0:36:15.040 --> 0:36:20.359 probably a year ago. Vape, vape, vapes and no, there 0:36:20.480 --> 0:36:24.760 is a lot like doing smoking cigarettes vape. 0:36:27.000 --> 0:36:29.319 There's a lot of vape groups that are like vape 0:36:29.360 --> 0:36:32.520 help groups. Christian dads who vape, Oh, I've. 0:36:32.320 --> 0:36:33.440 Been in the car before. 0:36:33.480 --> 0:36:34.279 Really is that a thing? 0:36:35.280 --> 0:36:38.839 Christian dads who vape, dads who are addicted to the vape, 0:36:38.840 --> 0:36:41.080 who are Christian, who want to get off it. 0:36:41.360 --> 0:36:42.920 Everyone, It truly is the heart. 0:36:42.960 --> 0:36:46.399 I see somebody hitting it in their car and I'm like, oh, 0:36:46.400 --> 0:36:48.440 I have one, and then I hit mine. 0:36:48.280 --> 0:36:50.520 When you okay, I have to tell you something about 0:36:51.239 --> 0:36:52.800 this guy at my AA meeting. 0:36:53.360 --> 0:36:54.640 This was a while I have to get back to 0:36:54.719 --> 0:36:56.919 her question. Now. I do feel bad that I which one. 0:36:57.400 --> 0:37:01.160 We will We will get back to it. But I 0:37:01.200 --> 0:37:02.640 was smoking my vabe and he was like, you know, 0:37:02.680 --> 0:37:04.040 those are really bad for you. And I was like, 0:37:04.160 --> 0:37:07.080 I know, but I figure like if I could stop 0:37:07.480 --> 0:37:11.200 drinking alcohol and quit that, I can certainly quit this. 0:37:11.239 --> 0:37:14.719 And he goes, you ever quit heroin? Before I go no, no, 0:37:15.440 --> 0:37:17.719 and he goes, wow. They're saying it's the equivalent to 0:37:17.800 --> 0:37:19.719 quitting that it's good luck. And I was like, oh, 0:37:20.840 --> 0:37:24.960 really stressed, stressed exactly. 0:37:25.360 --> 0:37:27.360 I need to stress it people. 0:37:27.480 --> 0:37:29.480 I'm telling you there are the sober groups for the 0:37:29.560 --> 0:37:30.960 vapes because they are so bad. 0:37:31.000 --> 0:37:33.960 I'll have to dismiss myself for like six days, no vape. No, 0:37:34.080 --> 0:37:37.360 we know nothing, and I'm just going to be running 0:37:37.680 --> 0:37:41.760 and nobody can be near me because they'll assault anybody 0:37:41.800 --> 0:37:44.080 near me, lovely assault that I'm. 0:37:43.920 --> 0:37:45.880 Going to be just in a house, locked doors, just 0:37:45.920 --> 0:37:46.520 walking around. 0:37:46.560 --> 0:37:48.160 Are going to put him in a pat room. 0:37:49.000 --> 0:37:52.359 Wait, tell me what the she got pressured? She got 0:37:52.520 --> 0:37:54.320 sober after she got pregnant. 0:37:54.400 --> 0:37:56.279 Yes, well, she just said I got pregnant, So I'm 0:37:56.280 --> 0:38:00.320 assuming that because it was share your sobriety journey simple 0:38:00.320 --> 0:38:01.359 as that can. 0:38:01.400 --> 0:38:03.640 I tell you a lot of people say, after I 0:38:03.680 --> 0:38:06.520 got pregnant, I loved the feeling of not drinking and 0:38:06.600 --> 0:38:07.960 waking up and feeling okay. 0:38:08.440 --> 0:38:09.520 And there's so many. 0:38:09.360 --> 0:38:15.400 Like alcohol free replacements yes that they're like, I just 0:38:15.719 --> 0:38:17.080 never drank again. 0:38:17.440 --> 0:38:19.520 Right, So I will share this because she'd be fine 0:38:19.520 --> 0:38:19.680 with it. 0:38:19.760 --> 0:38:23.680 But my sister, she drank, and she had gotten on 0:38:23.719 --> 0:38:27.000 a certain anxiety medication. She got pregnant, she gave up 0:38:27.040 --> 0:38:30.319 the alcohol, and I believe she either lowered the dose or. 0:38:30.239 --> 0:38:31.920 Got on a different medication for anxiety. 0:38:31.920 --> 0:38:34.719 Whatever, she got pregnant, and in a healthy way, she 0:38:34.760 --> 0:38:38.160 started like dropping weight like crazy. Her face slammed, and 0:38:38.200 --> 0:38:41.080 I was like, and she was very much and she 0:38:41.120 --> 0:38:42.880 still is pregnant. But she I was like, do you 0:38:42.880 --> 0:38:44.719 think it was the alcohol the medicine. She's like, I 0:38:44.719 --> 0:38:47.240 don't know, but like I've never felt better. 0:38:47.560 --> 0:38:50.919 This is not me shaming anyone's body, Okay, so please 0:38:50.960 --> 0:38:56.000 don't take it that way. The way that alcohol weight 0:38:56.080 --> 0:39:01.560 attaches itself to you is very fair your face and 0:39:01.680 --> 0:39:03.560 right in your mid section, like you could have the 0:39:03.640 --> 0:39:07.000 skinniest little legs and these cute little arms or whatever 0:39:07.080 --> 0:39:09.400 and toned because you do the shake weight like I do. 0:39:10.040 --> 0:39:15.160 If you drink excessively, it is such a specific type 0:39:15.160 --> 0:39:20.239 of weight that you're carrying, sugarweight, isn't it. Yeah, it's 0:39:20.239 --> 0:39:20.800 all sugar. 0:39:21.000 --> 0:39:25.520 Sugars as we know, sugar like grips itself to you. 0:39:25.600 --> 0:39:27.279 It is very hard to lose sugar weight. 0:39:27.840 --> 0:39:30.439 Again, not body shaming, But if you drink a lot 0:39:30.480 --> 0:39:33.560 and you've been trying to lose a few pounds and 0:39:33.560 --> 0:39:37.480 you're wondering why it's not happening, look into the. 0:39:37.480 --> 0:39:38.200 Alcohol of it. 0:39:38.600 --> 0:39:41.400 Well, that's not body shaming. That's like I mean, well, I'm. 0:39:41.239 --> 0:39:50.120 Talking about people's bodies and if i'm I'm just. 0:39:48.560 --> 0:39:52.120 But you can just tell a drinker's body. That's not 0:39:52.160 --> 0:39:55.200 a shaming, that's just it's facts mine. 0:39:55.080 --> 0:39:59.040 Like I literally get like jowls of sorts, Like my 0:39:59.160 --> 0:40:02.440 face starts to get heavy and I get like and 0:40:02.560 --> 0:40:03.040 the eyes. 0:40:03.280 --> 0:40:05.399 It's after I eat like a lot of like soy 0:40:05.440 --> 0:40:06.440 sauce salt. 0:40:06.760 --> 0:40:08.440 Yeah, it looks the same. It's gross. 0:40:08.520 --> 0:40:09.840 And I love soy sauce. 0:40:10.239 --> 0:40:14.080 I love soy sauce too. The best part of being 0:40:14.120 --> 0:40:18.160 pregnant is like have a ton of soy sauce on 0:40:18.160 --> 0:40:20.439 this rice, because if I look puffy, no one's gonna 0:40:20.440 --> 0:40:22.440 be like, she looks like shit, because they're gonna be like, oh, 0:40:22.480 --> 0:40:23.360 she's pregnant. 0:40:24.160 --> 0:40:26.719 You look great, baby, sweetheart. 0:40:28.680 --> 0:40:30.680 Do you know you might not know this? I don't. 0:40:30.680 --> 0:40:32.960 But someone saying, can you touch on the caral from 0:40:33.120 --> 0:40:34.680 Summer House sobriety journey? 0:40:34.760 --> 0:40:35.760 Do you know his journey? 0:40:36.120 --> 0:40:38.560 I don't know his exact journey. I will say that 0:40:38.880 --> 0:40:39.279 I do. 0:40:39.440 --> 0:40:43.800 He's very open about his addiction being alcohol and cocaine. Okay, 0:40:43.960 --> 0:40:47.240 And I've spoken about this before that I was never 0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:51.040 a drug user. I smoked weed and I liked my weed, 0:40:51.040 --> 0:40:52.320 and I always had a pen at my house. I 0:40:52.320 --> 0:40:55.239 always had joints and blunts, but it wasn't like I 0:40:55.320 --> 0:40:58.560 was obsessive about it. I just enjoyed it. And then 0:40:58.600 --> 0:41:00.799 I did mushrooms one time. But as far as like 0:41:01.080 --> 0:41:04.520 the drugs, I would be wasted and people would be like, why. 0:41:04.360 --> 0:41:04.759 Don't you do it? 0:41:04.800 --> 0:41:09.480 I'm like, I just have a super addictive personality, not. 0:41:09.600 --> 0:41:11.800 Sound all can have another shot? 0:41:13.440 --> 0:41:15.080 Yeah wild right? 0:41:15.520 --> 0:41:16.520 Oh wow. 0:41:17.160 --> 0:41:20.040 I don't know his journey to sobriety. All I know 0:41:20.400 --> 0:41:25.320 is watching Summer House, and again that's such a small 0:41:25.360 --> 0:41:29.319 piece of like his life and what happens in his 0:41:29.400 --> 0:41:35.120 world and friendships and relationships. But I really enjoyed watching 0:41:35.200 --> 0:41:39.440 his perspective on situations coming from a sober place. 0:41:40.480 --> 0:41:46.400 Yeah yeah, this person says sixteen days sober, huge and 0:41:46.560 --> 0:41:49.200 so happy to say, I'm finally the mom I hoped 0:41:49.320 --> 0:41:49.600 to be. 0:41:50.239 --> 0:41:53.840 I hope that you forever. Just keep that in mind. 0:41:55.239 --> 0:41:58.760 Tomorrow's seventeen. The next day is eighteen, day by day. 0:41:58.640 --> 0:42:01.960 Day by day, and remember, if there's a problem, you 0:42:02.000 --> 0:42:07.640 will never conquer the beast. The moment you think you've 0:42:07.640 --> 0:42:10.239 conquered it and you dabble in it again, you just have. 0:42:10.960 --> 0:42:12.680 It's it's woke again. 0:42:13.280 --> 0:42:14.600 You created two beasts. 0:42:18.360 --> 0:42:22.040 It's celebrating four hundred and nineteen days of sobriety today. 0:42:22.120 --> 0:42:25.000 Couldn't be more thankful for you as a role model. 0:42:25.200 --> 0:42:30.160 That's incredible. You have a year over a year journeys. 0:42:30.480 --> 0:42:33.160 I didn't know sobriety was possible for me until you 0:42:33.200 --> 0:42:34.240 appeared on my screen. 0:42:34.680 --> 0:42:37.320 Number three hundred and twenty four. You're almost there. Forty 0:42:37.400 --> 0:42:39.360 days until you've hit a year forty one God, I 0:42:39.400 --> 0:42:40.120 have chills. 0:42:40.800 --> 0:42:43.839 H that's really you have to do something to celebrate 0:42:44.239 --> 0:42:44.600 a year. 0:42:44.719 --> 0:42:47.760 Yeah, what's your like? I know it's dependent on the person. 0:42:47.800 --> 0:42:50.400 Would you say, like an overnight trip or like a 0:42:50.440 --> 0:42:53.480 little party. I guess it also depends on what triggers you. 0:42:53.520 --> 0:42:54.239 What would you say? 0:42:54.600 --> 0:42:57.399 I love to have like people over or I love 0:42:57.480 --> 0:42:59.840 to do like a cute little dinner with all of 0:42:59.840 --> 0:43:04.000 the people who have I I will celebrate my sobriety 0:43:04.040 --> 0:43:08.000 birthday way before I celebrate my like I'm like, everybody 0:43:08.000 --> 0:43:09.880 has a fucking birthday. 0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:15.560 Birthday? No right, Yes, that one's hard to get. 0:43:15.840 --> 0:43:22.040 Yeah, celebrating rare, Oh my god, it's. 0:43:21.920 --> 0:43:24.160 Not just given to you if you have to work 0:43:24.280 --> 0:43:24.840 for it. 0:43:26.040 --> 0:43:29.200 Yeah, so I think a cute dinner is always so fun. 0:43:29.480 --> 0:43:31.640 Or if if you're still in the place of like 0:43:32.000 --> 0:43:34.040 things trigger you, But you could always pick a super 0:43:34.120 --> 0:43:37.600 cute restaurant that likes not alcohol, or. 0:43:38.040 --> 0:43:41.120 A trip, or buy something or that. 0:43:41.680 --> 0:43:44.000 I'm a huge fan of the buying of something. I 0:43:44.120 --> 0:43:46.200 love a good I have someone else buy it for you. 0:43:46.440 --> 0:43:47.760 Treat yourself if. 0:43:49.960 --> 0:43:54.279 It deserved. Yeah, yeah, people feel bad, don't buy you 0:43:54.360 --> 0:43:55.840 they will. Yeah. 0:43:56.000 --> 0:43:58.120 This person said I drank to fit in. I never 0:43:58.280 --> 0:44:00.759 liked the taste. Quit drinking. Twenty five plus years ago 0:44:00.800 --> 0:44:02.080 and so happy. It's cool. 0:44:03.800 --> 0:44:06.000 It is cool now, well that's a new thing. 0:44:06.080 --> 0:44:08.839 Like in all the bars, like people are you can. 0:44:09.280 --> 0:44:12.279 We went to just a bar on last Sunday, just 0:44:12.320 --> 0:44:15.560 me and four buddies and we were just chilling live music. 0:44:15.640 --> 0:44:16.399 They went to the bar. 0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:21.960 No one at it because everybody's like sobering. 0:44:22.440 --> 0:44:25.000 Yeah, and they have the fully sober bars, the mocktails 0:44:25.080 --> 0:44:26.000 like those are fun. 0:44:26.160 --> 0:44:28.160 But yeah, no, like the bar you used to see 0:44:28.160 --> 0:44:30.960 the ball, I mean I used to remember bars just packed. 0:44:31.040 --> 0:44:33.480 And now you go up hundreds of people you can 0:44:33.480 --> 0:44:36.120 get a drink right away. It looks like, yeah you 0:44:36.160 --> 0:44:38.040 can because everybody's just on that sober train. 0:44:38.440 --> 0:44:41.200 Yeah, but that's amazing. Twenty five years so great. 0:44:41.840 --> 0:44:43.800 This person said, not me, but my brother. 0:44:43.880 --> 0:44:46.040 I prayed to have him back one day and finally 0:44:46.120 --> 0:44:49.680 two years sober. 0:44:49.960 --> 0:44:50.240 Yay. 0:44:51.040 --> 0:44:52.040 I always relations. 0:44:52.280 --> 0:44:57.720 I always feel so sad for families that are dealing 0:44:57.800 --> 0:45:00.800 with a loved one who's like really strong with addiction, 0:45:01.800 --> 0:45:05.320 because even if you hold an intervention, you know, unless 0:45:05.320 --> 0:45:09.239 the person wants to be sober, Yeah, it's like extremely difficult. 0:45:09.800 --> 0:45:12.120 You can lead a horse to water, but you can't. 0:45:13.719 --> 0:45:16.920 No, and it's so painful too, Like it's you know, 0:45:17.560 --> 0:45:20.960 this is a distant family, but like you do everything, 0:45:21.120 --> 0:45:24.680 you offer to pay fully for the nicest some families. 0:45:24.719 --> 0:45:27.279 If you can the nicest facilities, the whole family gets 0:45:27.280 --> 0:45:27.680 behind you. 0:45:27.680 --> 0:45:29.480 There's there's the tough love. 0:45:29.960 --> 0:45:35.200 Uh try, there's the fucking intervention, try, like it's everything, 0:45:35.360 --> 0:45:37.680 and then they might go into the facility, but then 0:45:37.680 --> 0:45:41.120 they check themselves out, like it's such a painful fucking cycle. 0:45:41.440 --> 0:45:44.359 They truly have to be ready, and then you get 0:45:44.360 --> 0:45:46.120 to a point where you're like you just have to 0:45:46.200 --> 0:45:49.440 kind of accept this is personal experience, but like watching 0:45:49.520 --> 0:45:53.880 them die until they're hopefully ready to change. 0:45:53.960 --> 0:45:59.520 It's so that's that's an uh uh what's it called 0:45:59.600 --> 0:46:04.360 a success story with amazing two years sober? 0:46:04.440 --> 0:46:07.759 It's beautiful? Oh my god. The same person writes in 0:46:08.480 --> 0:46:13.000 every time we want to see Lala's tits? This person 0:46:13.800 --> 0:46:15.000 this person. 0:46:14.840 --> 0:46:18.000 Okay comments on all? 0:46:18.160 --> 0:46:20.120 Does he comment on YouTube to comments on all? 0:46:20.400 --> 0:46:22.799 Please ask Lala if she'll wear a mesh shirt with 0:46:22.840 --> 0:46:23.440 her tits out. 0:46:23.920 --> 0:46:24.680 I want to see La. 0:46:25.560 --> 0:46:28.480 Why hasn't Lala shown her tits? 0:46:28.760 --> 0:46:31.279 Fucking A They're on TV somewhere there. 0:46:31.280 --> 0:46:33.799 I love, I love how big is the check that 0:46:33.840 --> 0:46:36.200 you're writing the moment I received the wire. 0:46:36.560 --> 0:46:37.479 The moment I. 0:46:37.400 --> 0:46:40.120 Receive the wire, family, right, I will be in a 0:46:40.160 --> 0:46:40.719 mesh top. 0:46:40.880 --> 0:46:42.680 See there we have it. 0:46:43.200 --> 0:46:45.840 Okay, Christ, So it's just money. 0:46:46.320 --> 0:46:55.280 Someone show this man of God or Lala every comment. 0:46:55.440 --> 0:46:58.879 I mean at least fifty five comments, Laala, please your 0:46:59.160 --> 0:47:04.520 squeaky wheels, honestly show us your tits for la La, 0:47:04.840 --> 0:47:05.359 I mean, my. 0:47:05.440 --> 0:47:06.879 God, for real. 0:47:07.560 --> 0:47:11.279 Your your check can pay both my mortgages and all 0:47:11.320 --> 0:47:13.000 my bills for the next year. 0:47:13.800 --> 0:47:15.040 I will show you my tits. 0:47:15.120 --> 0:47:16.759 She will show you her. She will sell you a 0:47:16.800 --> 0:47:19.720 photo of her tits or video. 0:47:20.840 --> 0:47:21.320 I love. 0:47:23.800 --> 0:47:28.640 About sobriety and and I'm like, how BIG's shack before. 0:47:28.360 --> 0:47:31.080 I talking about what I know? 0:47:31.520 --> 0:47:31.759 I know? 0:47:31.800 --> 0:47:35.480 I'm like, I love a joint. It's your episode, you 0:47:35.760 --> 0:47:36.839 enormy what are we doing? 0:47:37.120 --> 0:47:37.600 You freaking? 0:47:39.040 --> 0:47:42.520 This is really great because I've I'll just share it. 0:47:42.760 --> 0:47:45.160 I'm a bar owner who has been sober for a 0:47:45.200 --> 0:47:49.319 little over three years now. Bar owners and bartenders. I 0:47:49.400 --> 0:47:50.200 was a bartender. 0:47:50.480 --> 0:47:51.120 I know a lot of. 0:47:51.120 --> 0:47:57.080 People who struggled with balancing working and drinking. Because you 0:47:57.120 --> 0:48:00.200 see your regulars, they go, let me buy you a shot. 0:48:00.280 --> 0:48:04.080 You I for like the first few months of bartending, 0:48:04.239 --> 0:48:07.000 I would take the shots to like you get more tips. 0:48:07.000 --> 0:48:08.480 They'd be like, oh, but. 0:48:08.520 --> 0:48:11.239 Then I started making fake drinks of course, but a 0:48:11.280 --> 0:48:12.960 lot of people become alcoholics that way. 0:48:13.640 --> 0:48:16.480 Well, yeah, I found out all the people who have 0:48:16.600 --> 0:48:20.279 bars or anything like that, the sober ones are the 0:48:20.280 --> 0:48:21.680 ones that still have them. 0:48:21.920 --> 0:48:25.040 Yeah, because they they're like, no, I'm not drunk. You're 0:48:25.040 --> 0:48:26.120 not getting a drink for free. 0:48:26.160 --> 0:48:28.640 Game like a bar rescue. How much of the time 0:48:28.680 --> 0:48:30.560 they're bankrupt because he's. 0:48:30.440 --> 0:48:32.239 Like, you're drinking your own alcohol. 0:48:32.600 --> 0:48:36.360 Yes, you're taking shots every time that young. 0:48:36.200 --> 0:48:39.200 Yeah, you're handing five out to the patrons and taking 0:48:39.280 --> 0:48:42.400 one with That's two bottles in an hour that you 0:48:42.600 --> 0:48:45.760 gave out, and it's like, wow, once that guy stops drinking, 0:48:45.880 --> 0:48:47.840 those two bottles are now paid for a boy the 0:48:47.880 --> 0:48:50.000 patrons because you're like, I'm not paying. 0:48:49.840 --> 0:48:52.040 For this show, I know, or they have employees like 0:48:52.120 --> 0:48:54.160 me who give them out, and they don't. They give 0:48:54.160 --> 0:48:56.120 it out for free to their friends. 0:48:56.160 --> 0:48:58.399 Not for law, not good no, for real. 0:48:58.560 --> 0:49:00.600 They should have kept track. They did it. 0:49:00.680 --> 0:49:03.120 They allowed me, you know, they didn't keep an eye 0:49:03.160 --> 0:49:05.000 on me because I had my regulars coming up and 0:49:05.000 --> 0:49:06.600 they're like, oh, look at all the people, but the 0:49:06.600 --> 0:49:08.719 amount of alcohol I was giving away should be. 0:49:09.120 --> 0:49:12.200 Good for him to have a bar still have it her. 0:49:12.239 --> 0:49:15.600 I think her apologies good for her to still have 0:49:15.680 --> 0:49:16.920 a bar okay for. 0:49:17.040 --> 0:49:20.120 X amount of years and not having workers like Jess. 0:49:20.080 --> 0:49:25.040 Yes, congratulation because she's she's got the clarity to say 0:49:26.239 --> 0:49:29.440 that's what looks like she's gonna drink my supply. This 0:49:29.480 --> 0:49:33.080 one doesn't. She seems like a stand up gal. 0:49:33.200 --> 0:49:36.919 Stand up gal. Good for you. Congrats. And also that's 0:49:36.960 --> 0:49:40.040 probably the thing with drug dealers. I'm sure drug dealers, 0:49:40.239 --> 0:49:40.560 but for. 0:49:40.520 --> 0:49:44.000 Real drug dealing successful drug off your own supply. 0:49:44.320 --> 0:49:45.760 They say that all the time. 0:49:46.280 --> 0:49:47.920 Don't get high. I'm sure they're like. 0:49:47.920 --> 0:49:49.280 Don't get high in your own supply. 0:49:49.480 --> 0:49:52.440 Yeah, I for a short, short amount of time was 0:49:52.480 --> 0:49:54.960 considering dealing drugs when I went in when I was 0:49:55.000 --> 0:49:57.120 in college, Me and my friend Angela, we had a 0:49:57.120 --> 0:49:59.920 whole like drive through scenario. You guys would have got 0:50:00.040 --> 0:50:02.680 you would have killed every night, every night, probably every night, 0:50:02.760 --> 0:50:05.239 but our scenario we would have been so good. 0:50:05.239 --> 0:50:08.120 We're like we'll do pick up only we'll have And. 0:50:08.040 --> 0:50:10.800 Then quickly our friend was like you don't think anyone's 0:50:10.840 --> 0:50:14.480 going to be shocked at like cars driving through the 0:50:14.600 --> 0:50:15.879 Landlord's not going to say anything. 0:50:15.880 --> 0:50:18.440 And we quickly realized we would get arrested. 0:50:18.480 --> 0:50:22.759 And it was a stupid help you helped you. 0:50:23.040 --> 0:50:24.840 I would have just bought it all and just smoked 0:50:24.840 --> 0:50:25.239 it for you. 0:50:25.680 --> 0:50:31.719 Wow, what a fun sober episode. I doesn't want you 0:50:31.800 --> 0:50:34.200 all to look at the table and look at who 0:50:34.200 --> 0:50:35.040 the boss is. 0:50:34.960 --> 0:50:37.440 At the table and why. 0:50:39.280 --> 0:50:42.440 Get sober and don't do drugs. I'm just kidding, guys, 0:50:42.760 --> 0:50:43.680 I'm just teasing. 0:50:43.920 --> 0:50:49.240 I just don't this episode anyone going off the rails. Okay, 0:50:49.680 --> 0:50:51.680 my god, I. 0:50:51.560 --> 0:50:53.680 Am thank you for my job. 0:50:53.920 --> 0:50:56.160 I'm sober. I was totally kidding. 0:50:56.920 --> 0:51:01.040 But I do love sobriety and it has been tremendously 0:51:01.239 --> 0:51:05.080 helpful in my life. I will never give it up again, 0:51:05.080 --> 0:51:06.719 one day at a time, because every time I say never, 0:51:06.760 --> 0:51:10.120 there's always some score that's like, aren't you not supposed 0:51:10.200 --> 0:51:13.400 to say that in sobriety? 0:51:13.560 --> 0:51:14.720 Your some just like them. 0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:21.320 Guess as sober And I'm sure I'm not supposed to 0:51:21.360 --> 0:51:23.800 say that, but I'm going to say it because I'm 0:51:23.840 --> 0:51:26.400 happy with the life that I have. So if you 0:51:26.680 --> 0:51:29.680 or anybody that you know is struggling with addiction. We 0:51:29.760 --> 0:51:32.760 obviously love to hear from you guys in the DMS, 0:51:33.200 --> 0:51:36.040 but there is an addiction crisis hotline. That number is 0:51:36.080 --> 0:51:38.879 one eight eight eight four zero three seven to one 0:51:39.120 --> 0:51:42.480 zero three. Thank you guys for sharing your sobriety journeys. 0:51:42.520 --> 0:51:45.839 I know that that is not easy. Sobriety bonds us man. 0:51:46.840 --> 0:51:48.920 All my people who slide in the DMS and they're like, 0:51:48.920 --> 0:51:51.000 I've been sober. I'm like, there's just something that happens 0:51:51.040 --> 0:51:53.759 where it's like I see you, you see me. Thank 0:51:53.800 --> 0:51:57.560 you guys, Easton and Jess for asking questions. I'm sorry, 0:51:57.560 --> 0:51:59.480 I through a dig in. 0:51:59.440 --> 0:52:02.120 There at the We Love a Day. It's not the 0:52:02.160 --> 0:52:03.279 podcast without a Day. 0:52:05.360 --> 0:52:06.480 Yeah, I love y'all. 0:52:06.480 --> 0:52:08.359 Thank y'all for listening to another episode of the Give 0:52:08.400 --> 0:52:10.399 Them All a Podcast and we will catch you next week.