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Speaker 1: Hey, guys, I'm Kaylie Shure and this is too much

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Speaker 1: to say asking questions it out you well. Thank you

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Speaker 1: to everybody who tuned into last week's episode. I talked

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Speaker 1: out how to managed that, and once that looks like, um,

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Speaker 1: you guys have been so great, I hope you know.

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Speaker 1: and messages I get on community that app I was

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Speaker 1: talking about where I can like text you guys and stuff,

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Speaker 1: and I got some really really great messages from people

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Speaker 1: who related. And that's exactly why I'm that open about it,

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Speaker 1: you know. And it's kind of scary because anytime you

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Speaker 1: talk about mental illness or you know, any sort of

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Speaker 1: you know, perceived quote unquote weakness by society, it pens

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Speaker 1: Or if I'm upset about something, it's like, oh, you're

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Speaker 1: just depressed because and you're just going through a depressed

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Speaker 1: decision making and it's really fucked up, and so that's

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Speaker 1: the scariest thing about being open about it. But you

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Speaker 1: guys have been so nice. Um. I had some friends

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Speaker 1: quote unquote friends, UM kind of throw things like that

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Speaker 1: criticizing how I was handling. Um having bipolar disorder and

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Speaker 1: And it's like this as opposed to spending five thousand

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Speaker 1: to Australia. It's like I go out to a bar

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Speaker 1: it's like this, I call it depressed lists. So I'm

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Speaker 1: Um So, it's not like that sluggish kind of depression,

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Speaker 1: but it lets me know that, like you know it's

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Speaker 1: they have no idea what they're talking about, and they're

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Speaker 1: who's trivializing your mental illness or questioning it or using

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Speaker 1: it to illegitimize your decisions or like things you say

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Speaker 1: Like straight up, I if you've followed my podcast, you

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Speaker 1: know I had some sort of like vague friend drama

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Speaker 1: we so clicky? It's not high school. You shouldn't have

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Speaker 1: had this reevaluation where I've gone back and looked at

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Speaker 1: wish them the best. But if your life is more

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Speaker 1: So this week I had my boyfriend's twin sister's wedding

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Speaker 1: And then after that I got to spend some time

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Speaker 1: I had a total freaking glass And me and Sam

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Speaker 1: their reception, and that was fun. The thing about being

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Speaker 1: you were going to have to write a song about them.

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Speaker 1: But I really like doing it. For my brother's wedding,

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Speaker 1: I'm singing a song that I wrote. Okay, So he

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Speaker 1: but she's my brother's fiance and I'm just I think

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Speaker 1: and it's on open Book, But that one and able

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Speaker 1: It's like a really emotional song, but it's happy and

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Speaker 1: encapsulates like every emotion I possibly could have towards my

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