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Speaker 1: As if it wasn't real enough already, cool, this makes

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Speaker 1: my podcast and misspelling that Hi, I'm Tori Spelling and

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Speaker 1: I'm a cast member on Dancing with the Stars season

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Speaker 1: thirty three. Okay, deep breath. Sorry that was for me,

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Speaker 1: not for you guys. Maybe you should take a few

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Speaker 1: deep breaths too for me. Okay, if you know you know, well,

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Speaker 1: I assume if you listen to your podcasts, you know me.

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Speaker 1: I tell it like it is. I tell every Sorry,

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Speaker 1: I just got excited. I love telling everybody about my

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Speaker 1: life because I'm like, I had so many years of

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Speaker 1: you know, not being me and having everyone else tell

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Speaker 1: my story that you know. Now I'm just like, hey,

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Speaker 1: this is me. So keeping this secret has been so hard,

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Speaker 1: you guys. I have been signed on to Dancing with

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Speaker 1: the Star season pretty for like three plus months. I

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Speaker 1: couldn't tell you. I couldn't tell anyone. I couldn't even

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Speaker 1: tell my friends. Try not to tell my kids. I

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Speaker 1: think they found out I was kidding. But yeah, it's like,

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Speaker 1: iron't glad. It's like secrecy, so you can't tell anyone.

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Speaker 1: But it's like such a big life decision. You know,

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Speaker 1: you want to talk to people about it. You wanna

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Speaker 1: get advice. Maybe you know what. I'm so swayed in

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Speaker 1: the past by other people's opinions. Maybe this is a

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Speaker 1: blessing that I couldn't talk to people about it, because

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Speaker 1: maybe I would have changed my mind. Nah, going for it. Okay,

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Speaker 1: where do I even start? I so much to share

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Speaker 1: with you, Okay, So I'm gonna go back to the beginning.

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Speaker 1: I was born May sixteenth, nineteen seventy three. I'm just kidding.

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Speaker 1: I'm just going to singing with you, Okay. So I

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Speaker 1: honestly got the call for Dancing with the Stars season

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Speaker 1: was I don't I go way back, I believe I.

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Speaker 1: I know I was with Dean and it was new.

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Speaker 1: I hadn't even know I'm mark checklist in my life

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Speaker 1: by pregnant season babies. I was not pregnant yet, so

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Speaker 1: but I remember getting the call and talking it out.

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Speaker 1: I was in Toronto with Dean visiting his family and

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Speaker 1: I got the call and I panicked. I was like,

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Speaker 1: oh gosh, this bit. And keep in mind, this is

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Speaker 1: before it was an uber success. It was a brand

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Speaker 1: gonna be, but it sounded really exciting, really fun. And

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie you guys. I love dance. Dance

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Speaker 1: doesn't love me, h, but I love to dance. I've

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Speaker 1: always loved to dance because I love I often joke

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Speaker 1: about feeling dead inside with someone. There's things that make

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Speaker 1: but I've always loved to like close my eyes and

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Speaker 1: I always love the story. Like in my head head,

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Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my gosh, I always I always liking

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Speaker 1: way back. But do you know that movie with Canning

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Speaker 1: doctor J who I've been friends with for years, did

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Speaker 1: And then in later years was like, my body just

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Speaker 1: I've had challenges. I do read comments. Sorry. People are like, oh,

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Speaker 1: You know, a target, I don't wait for the spot,

420
00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:34,880
Speaker 1: you know, right in front, I park like two rows over. Okay,

421
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,879
Speaker 1: I digress. Okay, do you want to hear now how

422
00:28:38,880 --> 00:28:43,080
Speaker 1: it all happens, because this is stuff I never knew,

423
00:28:43,080 --> 00:28:45,320
Speaker 1: so it's super exciting to me as a fan girl.

424
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:49,960
Speaker 1: So you sign on. You can't tell anybody that was

425
00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:55,640
Speaker 1: really hard for me, And yeah, then closer bet. And

426
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:58,720
Speaker 1: by the way, I just got to say, I thought

427
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:02,840
Speaker 1: in my mind, cause these people look so good on

428
00:29:02,880 --> 00:29:07,200
Speaker 1: the show, the cast, that I'm like, they probably knew

429
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 1: and were like practicing their routine for months. No no, no, no,

430
00:29:13,200 --> 00:29:15,840
Speaker 1: and everyone across the board gets the same treatment. So

431
00:29:16,320 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 1: you know, I can't be like you know, I mean, physically,

432
00:29:19,680 --> 00:29:22,640
Speaker 1: I have, you know, all these physical ailments, and I

433
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:25,920
Speaker 1: have five kids and I can't do a dance routine.

434
00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:29,280
Speaker 1: So can I start earlier? Nope, nope. Everyone starts the

435
00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:34,280
Speaker 1: same game, and you can't start sooner because you don't

436
00:29:34,280 --> 00:29:37,080
Speaker 1: know who your partner is. Your partner doesn't know who

437
00:29:37,120 --> 00:29:41,720
Speaker 1: you are, and till the day you walk in, you

438
00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:47,440
Speaker 1: walk into the first meet and rehearsal and there you

439
00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:50,760
Speaker 1: guys are. But they did work with me to like

440
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:54,440
Speaker 1: they were like, okay, I filled out a questionnaire like

441
00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 1: you know, dance experience and not checking that box, you know,

442
00:29:58,360 --> 00:30:02,280
Speaker 1: and they were like music, what's speaks to you? And

443
00:30:02,720 --> 00:30:05,040
Speaker 1: I would tell them kind of the music that speaks

444
00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:07,840
Speaker 1: to me a little bit, duh. I through in flash

445
00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:10,400
Speaker 1: dance and everyone's like, oh, cluchie and not doing that,

446
00:30:10,600 --> 00:30:13,160
Speaker 1: but they want to know who you are and kind

447
00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:16,479
Speaker 1: of what you feel. And I think that's so cool

448
00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:20,680
Speaker 1: because no, I just always thought maybe, you know, people

449
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:24,720
Speaker 1: were assigned a song and a dance and you're not.

450
00:30:25,120 --> 00:30:30,360
Speaker 1: You know, you get to really like, like my first performance,

451
00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:36,440
Speaker 1: my first song, and everyone has this is like their anthem,

452
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:40,480
Speaker 1: like a song that speaks to you and makes you

453
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:44,400
Speaker 1: feel like your own champion and what you want to convey.

454
00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:47,880
Speaker 1: So I thought that was pretty cool. So got to

455
00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:52,400
Speaker 1: work that out and I definitely, you know, well, I

456
00:30:52,440 --> 00:30:55,080
Speaker 1: apologize to the team like a million times, like sorry,

457
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:57,560
Speaker 1: you got me, you know, sorry, so good and then

458
00:30:57,600 --> 00:31:01,320
Speaker 1: I was like stop, stop, we're working through this. But

459
00:31:02,640 --> 00:31:06,760
Speaker 1: I did say to them, and this, this is true

460
00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:09,840
Speaker 1: I said. I said, I want to be honest with

461
00:31:09,920 --> 00:31:14,720
Speaker 1: you guys up front. I'm not going to be your

462
00:31:14,720 --> 00:31:20,920
Speaker 1: best answer, but I do believe I will be your

463
00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:25,720
Speaker 1: most passionate and creative answer because all I got is heart.

464
00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:29,480
Speaker 1: What was that from? Jerry M. Maguire Google getting junior setup? Right?

465
00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:32,960
Speaker 1: I'm all heart, motherfucker? Sorry? Can I say that? I'm

466
00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:39,160
Speaker 1: all heart? Motherfucker? Right? I'm all heart, and I lead

467
00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:42,600
Speaker 1: with kindness. I'm going to believe in myself. I'm going

468
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:46,360
Speaker 1: to put all my heart and soul into it, and

469
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:49,920
Speaker 1: I'm open that all the strateties on my feet, oh

470
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:53,080
Speaker 1: my gosh, no no, no, no no no. And I'm

471
00:31:53,120 --> 00:31:57,360
Speaker 1: really about storytelling. And I don't just say that works

472
00:31:57,480 --> 00:31:59,840
Speaker 1: my name's in it. I really believe that. I got

473
00:31:59,840 --> 00:32:02,560
Speaker 1: that from my dad and stories are everything to me

474
00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 1: because I feel like if you can get your story across,

475
00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:12,560
Speaker 1: then people understand you and they'll believe in you. You know,

476
00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:15,240
Speaker 1: if you believe in yourself and you can convey your story,

477
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,760
Speaker 1: they might be there for the ride, and that's all

478
00:32:18,760 --> 00:32:21,960
Speaker 1: I can hope for. Okay, So I didn't know who

479
00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:25,560
Speaker 1: my partner was, but I have to say there was only,

480
00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:27,960
Speaker 1: like I said, a few people that I can fight

481
00:32:28,040 --> 00:32:31,680
Speaker 1: it in. And Brian Green was one of the people

482
00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 1: that I was like because he's one of my boy

483
00:32:36,040 --> 00:32:41,120
Speaker 1: besties obviously in real life, and he's been really active

484
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:44,360
Speaker 1: in the fight of making me believe in myself in

485
00:32:44,400 --> 00:32:47,080
Speaker 1: the last year and really pumping me up and Shan

486
00:32:47,200 --> 00:32:52,560
Speaker 1: were like champions, right, So he's been really like, You're

487
00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:56,480
Speaker 1: one of the most creative people I know, and I've

488
00:32:56,640 --> 00:33:00,720
Speaker 1: seen what you can do when you want to and

489
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:03,680
Speaker 1: when you believe. So you got to find that. And

490
00:33:03,840 --> 00:33:05,880
Speaker 1: I also was like, you've done this, what is it like?

491
00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:07,760
Speaker 1: And he's like, well, I'm not gonna lie. It is grueling,

492
00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:10,120
Speaker 1: it is hard. It is it's going to be one

493
00:33:10,120 --> 00:33:12,560
Speaker 1: of the hardest things you've ever done. I was like,

494
00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:16,720
Speaker 1: give you my life, but he's like, it's so rewarding.

495
00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:20,240
Speaker 1: It's such an amazing journey and experience, and I think

496
00:33:20,680 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 1: that this timing would be perfect for you. I also

497
00:33:24,280 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 1: was able to talk to Sharna his Fance, who was

498
00:33:27,520 --> 00:33:29,720
Speaker 1: one of the dance pros on there, so she knows

499
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 1: all the pros and she knows me well. So she was,

500
00:33:34,840 --> 00:33:36,440
Speaker 1: you know, we don't have a choice in our partner,

501
00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:39,240
Speaker 1: but we speculated and she was like, oh, I wonder

502
00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:42,040
Speaker 1: who they're going to pick. And can't do our accent

503
00:33:42,040 --> 00:33:44,959
Speaker 1: because I do accents terribly. She's such a beautiful accent,

504
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:49,200
Speaker 1: which I would just butcher dad. Maybe one day I'll

505
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:51,400
Speaker 1: attempt accents because I tell myself I can't do one.

506
00:33:51,680 --> 00:33:53,960
Speaker 1: Maybe I can't. I'm not going to try that right now,

507
00:33:54,000 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 1: baby steps. And apparently it's not a given for the

508
00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:03,920
Speaker 1: dance who comes back each season, like they don't know.

509
00:34:04,040 --> 00:34:06,200
Speaker 1: They get the call like the night before and like

510
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:10,560
Speaker 1: you're back, and they're like, oh, So she went through

511
00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:14,080
Speaker 1: the dance pros that were there in their last season,

512
00:34:14,120 --> 00:34:16,680
Speaker 1: but we didn't know who's coming back, and she went

513
00:34:16,760 --> 00:34:19,480
Speaker 1: through you know, I said, I have a hard time

514
00:34:19,480 --> 00:34:22,040
Speaker 1: with slips, so I definitely And she's like, you need

515
00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:26,600
Speaker 1: someone patient, okay, and you need someone who's gonna work

516
00:34:26,640 --> 00:34:31,400
Speaker 1: towards your strengths, and someone kind and sweet and just

517
00:34:31,640 --> 00:34:38,080
Speaker 1: you know on tory vibes, and you know, also someone though,

518
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:41,000
Speaker 1: that's going to push you, because she knows like if

519
00:34:41,040 --> 00:34:46,719
Speaker 1: I not push, sometimes I'll crastinate or make excuses and

520
00:34:46,760 --> 00:34:49,160
Speaker 1: make jokes and take up time so I don't have

521
00:34:49,200 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 1: to do it. So don't let me off the book ever,

522
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:56,680
Speaker 1: And I said, I want, you know, somebody really artistic

523
00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:59,600
Speaker 1: and creative, and I want to push the envelope like

524
00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:02,319
Speaker 1: I want, in some way go outside the box. I

525
00:35:02,400 --> 00:35:06,560
Speaker 1: want to tell a story because my dad was such

526
00:35:06,600 --> 00:35:11,279
Speaker 1: a brilliant storyteller and I really think one of the

527
00:35:11,360 --> 00:35:14,279
Speaker 1: keys to his success. And he always told me this

528
00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 1: is He's like, you know what, everyone has their own stuff,

529
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:20,400
Speaker 1: and they have hard lives. And you know, this is

530
00:35:20,440 --> 00:35:22,960
Speaker 1: going back when we didn't have phones and we weren't streaming,

531
00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 1: and we weren't you know, it was TVs, you know.

532
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 1: And he said, at the end of the day, when

533
00:35:29,719 --> 00:35:33,319
Speaker 1: they get home, they want to compartmentalize, and they want

534
00:35:33,320 --> 00:35:36,919
Speaker 1: to take a moment to get out of their own

535
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:40,240
Speaker 1: lives and their own heads, when they want to watch something,

536
00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:44,400
Speaker 1: when they want to go into that world, and they

537
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 1: want to be entertained. And I really took that to

538
00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 1: heart and my whole life that really not because I

539
00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:54,479
Speaker 1: just listened to him and understood it. But I feel

540
00:35:54,520 --> 00:36:00,319
Speaker 1: it too. I love entertaining people. I know, if I

541
00:36:00,320 --> 00:36:02,280
Speaker 1: can make you laugh, if I can make a smile,

542
00:36:02,360 --> 00:36:05,000
Speaker 1: if I can listen to you and be a shoulder

543
00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:09,319
Speaker 1: to cry. And I just like people and I like

544
00:36:09,600 --> 00:36:15,480
Speaker 1: making people have me. I always have, So yeah, that's

545
00:36:15,520 --> 00:36:17,360
Speaker 1: my thing. I'm like, I want a partner that's going

546
00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:19,719
Speaker 1: to go with that. And you know, I don't know

547
00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:22,960
Speaker 1: how great I'm going to be and classically do all

548
00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:26,160
Speaker 1: this stuff, so you know, if he and I can

549
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:31,120
Speaker 1: go in there and tell a story and entertain people,

550
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:34,040
Speaker 1: and you know I love fashion, so you know me,

551
00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:37,640
Speaker 1: I'm all into. I'm like, I have ideas for creating

552
00:36:37,680 --> 00:36:41,239
Speaker 1: the costumes and what the sets will look like, and

553
00:36:41,480 --> 00:36:45,360
Speaker 1: you know I have all these in wed not the

554
00:36:45,520 --> 00:36:48,560
Speaker 1: like classic ones that you have to do, but you know,

555
00:36:48,800 --> 00:36:51,040
Speaker 1: just like you know, I see it in my head.

556
00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:53,920
Speaker 1: So I'm like, oh, we can tell such a beautiful,

557
00:36:54,160 --> 00:37:01,439
Speaker 1: fun storyline and story and just entertain people. Distract my feet,

558
00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:13,160
Speaker 1: distract my feet. The day I arrived, it was like

559
00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:16,279
Speaker 1: one hundred degrees out that day, you guys, that day

560
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:19,440
Speaker 1: it was last week. This whole thing just started literally

561
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:24,080
Speaker 1: like the go time so I arrived in a black

562
00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:28,000
Speaker 1: robe and I had to have the robe covering everything,

563
00:37:28,000 --> 00:37:30,840
Speaker 1: and they were like they let us know. Then seasons

564
00:37:30,880 --> 00:37:33,640
Speaker 1: passed like you know, everyone knows. You know, there's the

565
00:37:33,719 --> 00:37:36,800
Speaker 1: dance studio and the timeline and when it's going to

566
00:37:36,840 --> 00:37:40,759
Speaker 1: start and when they start prepping. And so I guess

567
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:46,040
Speaker 1: in the past paparazzi have identified the secret cast because

568
00:37:46,080 --> 00:37:49,080
Speaker 1: you know, maybe they saw their hands and they were like,

569
00:37:49,160 --> 00:37:52,600
Speaker 1: oh they you know, hello with my nails, like and

570
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:54,680
Speaker 1: I have, you know, my hand chain, I always wear,

571
00:37:54,760 --> 00:37:57,239
Speaker 1: my ring I always wear. So there's distinct things. So

572
00:37:57,760 --> 00:37:59,840
Speaker 1: it was like so many things. It was like, you know,

573
00:38:00,520 --> 00:38:05,279
Speaker 1: obviously cover the blonde hair. Not every a gazillion, like

574
00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:09,439
Speaker 1: you know, female celebrities in LA have long blonde extensions.

575
00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:13,279
Speaker 1: It's not like so unique, but you know, to cover

576
00:38:13,360 --> 00:38:16,759
Speaker 1: my hair, took it away, cover my face, cover my

577
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:20,040
Speaker 1: body with this black robe like head to toe, cover

578
00:38:20,120 --> 00:38:23,680
Speaker 1: my hands inside, and just like you know, you arrive

579
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:28,160
Speaker 1: and it's like, go to amazing security. Who I found

580
00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:31,080
Speaker 1: out this is super exciting. Wahish I take this off.

581
00:38:31,160 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 1: We're doing this whole thing with this. I have the

582
00:38:33,160 --> 00:38:36,520
Speaker 1: visor on. This is the visor. Sorry, I forget we're

583
00:38:36,560 --> 00:38:39,600
Speaker 1: doing a podcast and side from social clips, you can't

584
00:38:39,680 --> 00:38:43,920
Speaker 1: see it, but it is a visor where you can

585
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:48,360
Speaker 1: hear it and clicking it down. And it is full

586
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 1: face a visor that covers you from you know, your

587
00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:58,760
Speaker 1: forehead to under your face. It's like super chic and

588
00:38:59,160 --> 00:39:02,239
Speaker 1: it is a little like. It triggers my fear a

589
00:39:02,239 --> 00:39:04,560
Speaker 1: little bit because I wore the same visor when I

590
00:39:04,600 --> 00:39:08,279
Speaker 1: did the first season of Mass Singer and no one

591
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:10,879
Speaker 1: was allowed to know you there. In fact, no one

592
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:15,640
Speaker 1: was allowed to know you even after it wasn't about paparazzi.

593
00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:19,040
Speaker 1: It was like on the lot studio like the crew

594
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,360
Speaker 1: couldn't know, the judges couldn't know, the panel like the

595
00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:26,080
Speaker 1: host couldn't know. Nobody could know. And I was the unicorn.

596
00:39:26,160 --> 00:39:30,000
Speaker 1: I'm ass singer and I sang fight song. That's my

597
00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:32,440
Speaker 1: first song. But yeah, I had to wear this every

598
00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:37,319
Speaker 1: show and just so back in the visor, back in

599
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:42,800
Speaker 1: the visor again. Anyway, So black Robe got my visor.

600
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:46,919
Speaker 1: And when you arrive at the studio the first day,

601
00:39:47,480 --> 00:39:50,080
Speaker 1: security like you have to call them a block away

602
00:39:50,080 --> 00:39:51,759
Speaker 1: and be like I'm five out. It was like a

603
00:39:52,160 --> 00:39:55,000
Speaker 1: covert mission, which I'm all into that. You know that

604
00:39:55,400 --> 00:39:58,480
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, this is cool, Like I like that part,

605
00:39:58,719 --> 00:40:02,160
Speaker 1: like hmmm. So I was like okay, I got this.

606
00:40:02,840 --> 00:40:06,080
Speaker 1: So you get handed off to them and they have

607
00:40:06,200 --> 00:40:12,520
Speaker 1: like huge umbrellas and they're blocking you and the dance studio.

608
00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:17,320
Speaker 1: They have like a panel of cameras, like security cameras,

609
00:40:17,640 --> 00:40:20,960
Speaker 1: so no to paparazzi. They cut their eyes on you

610
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:25,480
Speaker 1: literally like mad props to the entire team of Dancing

611
00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:28,719
Speaker 1: with the Stars, like they're on it. They're locked in

612
00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:31,320
Speaker 1: and so they can see every view of the street,

613
00:40:31,560 --> 00:40:35,520
Speaker 1: every view of like you know, the street behind it,

614
00:40:36,040 --> 00:40:40,680
Speaker 1: and all the doors and all the staircase you know, stairwells, everything,

615
00:40:41,760 --> 00:40:44,040
Speaker 1: so they can see if anyone's like out there. But

616
00:40:44,239 --> 00:40:49,960
Speaker 1: security like rushes you in face. I was like, please,

617
00:40:50,040 --> 00:40:55,440
Speaker 1: no pictures, just kidding. So again one hundred degrees. You

618
00:40:55,480 --> 00:40:57,879
Speaker 1: get in there, you get up, and once you're up

619
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:02,600
Speaker 1: in the safety and sincty the dance studio, you can

620
00:41:02,640 --> 00:41:04,800
Speaker 1: take off the robe, you can take off the visor.

621
00:41:05,320 --> 00:41:08,840
Speaker 1: And then they were like, okay, are you ready. I

622
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:13,920
Speaker 1: was like nope, And okay, well you're gonna be ready.

623
00:41:14,120 --> 00:41:17,360
Speaker 1: There's cameras up in the dance studio. You're gonna go

624
00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:21,200
Speaker 1: into that room watch this show. I'm gonna go in

625
00:41:22,120 --> 00:41:28,160
Speaker 1: my partner. Who is it? And oh? I opened that door.

626
00:41:28,800 --> 00:41:30,920
Speaker 1: I did look to the right really quickly because it

627
00:41:31,000 --> 00:41:36,040
Speaker 1: says d W T and I'm like, oh, I know

628
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:39,520
Speaker 1: that logo. And then I looked over and it was

629
00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:44,359
Speaker 1: Pasha and I was like, yes because, beknownst to her,

630
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:48,680
Speaker 1: and I was texting with Shanna yesterday Brian's fiance dance

631
00:41:48,760 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 1: pro amazing human. Beknownst to her, I was like, by

632
00:41:52,640 --> 00:41:55,200
Speaker 1: the way, you can add fortune teller to your resume

633
00:41:55,320 --> 00:42:00,080
Speaker 1: now because you predicted it. We not predicted it. But

634
00:42:00,200 --> 00:42:02,560
Speaker 1: she went through the list and why this one would

635
00:42:02,560 --> 00:42:04,799
Speaker 1: be right for me? She loves them all, but for me,

636
00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:08,200
Speaker 1: and she was like, you know what, Pasha would be

637
00:42:08,480 --> 00:42:13,440
Speaker 1: really a great, great fit for you. Who was so

638
00:42:13,719 --> 00:42:19,879
Speaker 1: I did the tory like air pump, fist pump? Wait,

639
00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 1: air pumps a fart? Wait what is it? Hump? Wait?

640
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:25,920
Speaker 1: And you do oh you pull your fist back this pump.

641
00:42:26,560 --> 00:42:28,680
Speaker 1: I always get those two mixed up, you guys. I

642
00:42:28,680 --> 00:42:31,880
Speaker 1: think air pump means fart? Am I right? You guys? Done? Now?

643
00:42:32,960 --> 00:42:36,920
Speaker 1: I believe air pump means fart. Actually it's a tire inflator.

644
00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:43,760
Speaker 1: It's a some kind of pump. It's called it's pump.

645
00:42:44,560 --> 00:42:47,000
Speaker 1: My gosh, I always get fist pump and air pump

646
00:42:47,080 --> 00:42:49,040
Speaker 1: mixed up. But I do do that a lot where

647
00:42:49,080 --> 00:42:51,200
Speaker 1: you like pull your fist in. I go bus and

648
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:54,200
Speaker 1: I pull it down really hard, like when eating it.

649
00:42:54,280 --> 00:42:56,719
Speaker 1: And that's also like I do that. I have like

650
00:42:56,760 --> 00:42:59,120
Speaker 1: a happy dance when I like get food and I'm

651
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:02,360
Speaker 1: like excited or like a situation I'm excited, and I

652
00:43:02,400 --> 00:43:06,080
Speaker 1: saw Pasha and I was excited, and I always, in

653
00:43:06,120 --> 00:43:09,560
Speaker 1: my brain I call it an air pump, even I

654
00:43:09,600 --> 00:43:11,960
Speaker 1: don't know. I'm always like ways up. This phone was

655
00:43:11,960 --> 00:43:15,000
Speaker 1: the airphone. So one time we were at Olive Garden

656
00:43:15,120 --> 00:43:20,920
Speaker 1: and so much chick my god, less broadsticks, I mean,

657
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:24,719
Speaker 1: never lose me forever. Okay, Anyway, my kids and I

658
00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:28,160
Speaker 1: love Olive Garden and we're really excited when we go there.

659
00:43:28,200 --> 00:43:29,879
Speaker 1: And then oh, oh my god, I think the month

660
00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:33,040
Speaker 1: is coming up with endless pasa. When is that? I

661
00:43:33,040 --> 00:43:36,799
Speaker 1: think it's November. Oh my god, is it? It's coming in?

662
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:41,080
Speaker 1: Put them on my calendar. But anyway, so we're in

663
00:43:41,239 --> 00:43:44,439
Speaker 1: Olive Garden or local one, and we're sitting there and

664
00:43:44,680 --> 00:43:49,279
Speaker 1: the breadsticks came out and the nice young man that

665
00:43:49,480 --> 00:43:51,880
Speaker 1: was serving our table he brought them out and I

666
00:43:51,960 --> 00:43:54,799
Speaker 1: was like, and I did it, and I was like,

667
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:56,960
Speaker 1: oh my god. He must have thought, like, what is

668
00:43:57,000 --> 00:43:59,000
Speaker 1: wrong with this girl? That was I mean, I know

669
00:43:59,080 --> 00:44:01,880
Speaker 1: people like bread stick come on like that was like

670
00:44:02,400 --> 00:44:07,120
Speaker 1: for kill. But I was like, and I was like oh,

671
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:09,520
Speaker 1: and I like leaned over to him and I was like,

672
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry. I just did an air pump and

673
00:44:13,000 --> 00:44:15,040
Speaker 1: he looked at me odd and then I was like,

674
00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:19,520
Speaker 1: my kid's like mo air pumps fart. Nope, nope, fis pump.

675
00:44:19,880 --> 00:44:23,000
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh my god. I was like, wait,

676
00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:27,279
Speaker 1: I just did a fist pump. And he was like, girl,

677
00:44:27,320 --> 00:44:29,640
Speaker 1: you're good. He goes, but I was like, wow, she's

678
00:44:29,760 --> 00:44:33,640
Speaker 1: really excited. Tori Spelling just farted over the breadsticks at

679
00:44:33,640 --> 00:44:38,360
Speaker 1: all of garden. Yep, that happens. So now I always

680
00:44:38,400 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 1: am paranoid, which one I'm going to say it wrong,

681
00:44:40,440 --> 00:44:43,480
Speaker 1: But anyway, so I saw Pasha and I was like,

682
00:44:44,320 --> 00:44:47,399
Speaker 1: and I did my little happy dance, like yeah, little

683
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:51,120
Speaker 1: foody happy dance. I was like, I got shit And

684
00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:54,960
Speaker 1: then oh my gosh, so you guys, I'm like I'm

685
00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 1: going to come on here every week and I'm going

686
00:44:56,840 --> 00:44:59,160
Speaker 1: to tell you about my journey because it is so

687
00:44:59,360 --> 00:45:03,000
Speaker 1: cool behind the scenes and as you can see, well

688
00:45:03,040 --> 00:45:05,960
Speaker 1: you can't see, as you can hear. I am truly

689
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:10,600
Speaker 1: a fangirl and the whole thing is just so cool

690
00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:13,320
Speaker 1: to see it from the other side. And I'm pushing

691
00:45:13,360 --> 00:45:15,960
Speaker 1: away all those fears right now. I'll keep you updated,

692
00:45:16,000 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 1: but just the excited part, like I'm so excited. And

693
00:45:20,200 --> 00:45:23,319
Speaker 1: you know, we met and he was like, okay, let

694
00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:25,000
Speaker 1: me see a little bit of what you could do,

695
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:28,200
Speaker 1: and taught me a little few moves and I was

696
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:32,640
Speaker 1: like against. I was like, I'm I was like, oh boy,

697
00:45:32,760 --> 00:45:34,880
Speaker 1: you know, are you sorry you got me? And he

698
00:45:35,000 --> 00:45:37,320
Speaker 1: was like not yet and I was like he's just kidding.

699
00:45:37,680 --> 00:45:40,280
Speaker 1: He was like no, and he was like, oh my gosh,

700
00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:42,800
Speaker 1: I grew up watching you like I'm a kid of

701
00:45:42,840 --> 00:45:44,600
Speaker 1: the nineties. And I was like, oh my gosh. So

702
00:45:44,640 --> 00:45:48,200
Speaker 1: he got stuck with the old chick okay, and I

703
00:45:48,239 --> 00:45:52,080
Speaker 1: was like cool, I'm young at heart. Fun and he

704
00:45:52,200 --> 00:45:54,319
Speaker 1: was like, you know, you're in my living room, like

705
00:45:54,560 --> 00:45:58,600
Speaker 1: this is really cool. And I gave him my story,

706
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:01,120
Speaker 1: which you know goes on on like you're breaking on

707
00:46:01,280 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 1: like it's a long one. But anyway, No, he was

708
00:46:03,560 --> 00:46:06,839
Speaker 1: fine with it. So this point, you guys in the program,

709
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:11,040
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna time stand this because I want you

710
00:46:11,160 --> 00:46:16,520
Speaker 1: to know, like it is a lot. It is September fifth,

711
00:46:16,600 --> 00:46:22,719
Speaker 1: twenty twenty four, and we've had two rehearsals. We go

712
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:27,279
Speaker 1: live on September seventeenth. That's it can't change it. It can't

713
00:46:27,280 --> 00:46:30,120
Speaker 1: be like, oh, I'm not ready. How's the nineteenth work

714
00:46:30,200 --> 00:46:35,720
Speaker 1: for you? No? So yeah, and like I said, everyone

715
00:46:35,719 --> 00:46:39,920
Speaker 1: gets the same, so God bless you. You know, they

716
00:46:40,160 --> 00:46:43,759
Speaker 1: throw you in, they like actually step in and then

717
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:48,080
Speaker 1: you go. But each week there's a technical dance that

718
00:46:48,160 --> 00:46:53,080
Speaker 1: you have to do. And while I knew that, you know,

719
00:46:53,360 --> 00:46:56,399
Speaker 1: of course, I'm like, you know, always here like this

720
00:46:56,680 --> 00:46:59,919
Speaker 1: star and their partner dancing this week to the church.

721
00:47:01,320 --> 00:47:09,160
Speaker 1: So the room to the jib quickstep scares me? Yeah,

722
00:47:09,200 --> 00:47:15,680
Speaker 1: so my So the song I picked really speaks to me,

723
00:47:17,120 --> 00:47:21,080
Speaker 1: really speaks to me now and what I'm going through

724
00:47:21,120 --> 00:47:28,040
Speaker 1: and the human I am blowing up to be. So oh,

725
00:47:28,200 --> 00:47:31,320
Speaker 1: I love it so much. I love this song so much.

726
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:33,440
Speaker 1: Pasha says, when you're done with the song that you

727
00:47:33,440 --> 00:47:35,839
Speaker 1: probably won't want to listen to it for like a year,

728
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:39,920
Speaker 1: but that's okay, I'll take it. It really speaks to me.

729
00:47:40,080 --> 00:47:44,359
Speaker 1: So they were able to take that song and what

730
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:46,960
Speaker 1: type of song because you know each week some sometimes

731
00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:51,440
Speaker 1: there's faster songs, sometimes the slower songs. And this song

732
00:47:51,520 --> 00:47:54,879
Speaker 1: I was given. We were given the technical dance because

733
00:47:54,920 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 1: you have to have one of the dances each week.

734
00:47:57,719 --> 00:48:03,400
Speaker 1: Everyone does them all, so that goes with the rhythm

735
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:08,640
Speaker 1: and beat of this song. So we have a dance

736
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:15,680
Speaker 1: and yeah, we've had two days of rehearsal and it's like, yeah,

737
00:48:16,600 --> 00:48:20,719
Speaker 1: I'll tell you one thing. And I apologize to Pasha daily, like,

738
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:24,960
Speaker 1: oh god, I think he has his wife has won

739
00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:28,520
Speaker 1: the Mirror Ball. They have a beautiful baby girl that's

740
00:48:28,520 --> 00:48:31,800
Speaker 1: one years old, and I'm just like, oh my gosh.

741
00:48:31,920 --> 00:48:37,680
Speaker 1: And he's so kind. I got to say, I feel

742
00:48:38,000 --> 00:48:41,560
Speaker 1: for me. They couldn't have known it, but they picked

743
00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:44,200
Speaker 1: the best partner. And I'm just getting to know the

744
00:48:44,239 --> 00:48:47,080
Speaker 1: cast in the pros and they're all amazing. It really

745
00:48:47,120 --> 00:48:49,840
Speaker 1: is a family. And you hear about this, but you're like,

746
00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:52,560
Speaker 1: is it true? Like I know it's a competition, you guys,

747
00:48:52,840 --> 00:48:55,960
Speaker 1: but it doesn't feel like it it feels like everyone

748
00:48:56,160 --> 00:49:00,640
Speaker 1: is rooting for each other. Oh, it's been so beautiful

749
00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:05,359
Speaker 1: in these two days of rehearsal. And then hey, by

750
00:49:05,400 --> 00:49:08,759
Speaker 1: the way, we're gonna start you with two days. So

751
00:49:08,760 --> 00:49:12,920
Speaker 1: so we met, we did the promo shoot, and then

752
00:49:13,120 --> 00:49:16,160
Speaker 1: it was a Labor Day weekend, which you know and

753
00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:19,399
Speaker 1: dancing with the stars. It's a timeline. It doesn't stop

754
00:49:19,400 --> 00:49:22,520
Speaker 1: for anything, including holidays or kids. So I was like, hey,

755
00:49:22,560 --> 00:49:26,759
Speaker 1: good's Labor Day weekend. I got a dance. I just

756
00:49:26,880 --> 00:49:31,400
Speaker 1: want to dance. Name it. Uh huh. So, yeah, I

757
00:49:31,440 --> 00:49:34,280
Speaker 1: had to do rehearsals, had to. I wanted to do rehearsal.

758
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:36,680
Speaker 1: My thing is and I'll never forget this and I

759
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:43,000
Speaker 1: never likened myself to this. But I didn't interview Rellie.

760
00:49:43,000 --> 00:49:45,600
Speaker 1: I would say it was before bo so eight years

761
00:49:45,640 --> 00:49:50,880
Speaker 1: ago seven with Lena Dunham, who I was such a

762
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:55,400
Speaker 1: huge fan and loved girls, loved all her movies, loved

763
00:49:55,520 --> 00:49:59,360
Speaker 1: everything without her and her creativity, I mean, because she

764
00:49:59,440 --> 00:50:03,200
Speaker 1: does it all. She writes, shelter wrecked and produced and

765
00:50:03,480 --> 00:50:08,080
Speaker 1: staring and everything she chooses, you know, the music, the

766
00:50:08,120 --> 00:50:12,840
Speaker 1: wardrobe and just everything. She's a creator and create a

767
00:50:13,080 --> 00:50:18,400
Speaker 1: force to be reckoned. With and she's such a powerhouse

768
00:50:18,480 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 1: of advocating for women and just I love that. So

769
00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:26,279
Speaker 1: I was really blessed that she had reached out to

770
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:28,719
Speaker 1: do an interview with me. I was like, me, Lena

771
00:50:28,800 --> 00:50:34,440
Speaker 1: Dunham wants to interview with me. Mind blown. So, you know,

772
00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 1: in true Tory fashion, I was like, okay, we don't know.

773
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:41,279
Speaker 1: I'm working. I don't know five time and one of

774
00:50:41,320 --> 00:50:44,880
Speaker 1: my best friends who passed in the last couple of years, Scout,

775
00:50:45,040 --> 00:50:49,080
Speaker 1: was like, Mama, you're doing this. You're going to go

776
00:50:49,120 --> 00:50:51,480
Speaker 1: and you're gonna have an interview with Lena dun And

777
00:50:51,520 --> 00:50:53,000
Speaker 1: he was like, I'm gonna sit right here. You reply

778
00:50:53,160 --> 00:50:55,799
Speaker 1: to this email and say yes, when does she want

779
00:50:55,840 --> 00:51:00,279
Speaker 1: to meet? You're going? And I did, and it was

780
00:51:00,640 --> 00:51:05,680
Speaker 1: it was a life changing experience because we we were

781
00:51:05,719 --> 00:51:07,600
Speaker 1: at Soho house, which I was like, oh my gosh,

782
00:51:07,640 --> 00:51:14,400
Speaker 1: this is cool, okay, and we we talked for like

783
00:51:15,320 --> 00:51:18,360
Speaker 1: hours and you know, when the interview came out, I

784
00:51:18,440 --> 00:51:21,160
Speaker 1: was so proud. It was a beautiful. She wrote it

785
00:51:21,239 --> 00:51:26,080
Speaker 1: so beautifully, but you know, far surpassed like the convo went.

786
00:51:26,160 --> 00:51:29,799
Speaker 1: I mean, she knew. We learned everything about each other's lives.

787
00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:34,239
Speaker 1: We became instant friends and supporters of each other. But

788
00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:36,839
Speaker 1: when she put it out there was something that really

789
00:51:36,840 --> 00:51:41,279
Speaker 1: stuck with me. She was like, I have to go

790
00:51:41,320 --> 00:51:43,719
Speaker 1: back and get the article because I'm gonna misquote it

791
00:51:43,800 --> 00:51:47,080
Speaker 1: right now. But something along the lines that she said

792
00:51:48,400 --> 00:51:51,960
Speaker 1: that when she met me, when from the time she

793
00:51:52,040 --> 00:51:54,120
Speaker 1: met me and we sat down till the time we left,

794
00:51:54,760 --> 00:51:57,800
Speaker 1: she said, and she knew I didn't believe in myself,

795
00:51:57,840 --> 00:52:01,920
Speaker 1: and I had all these things like, oh, you know, yeah,

796
00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:06,120
Speaker 1: all the shit, And she said, but Tory spelling meets

797
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:09,799
Speaker 1: your eyes and she holds your eyes eye contact and

798
00:52:09,920 --> 00:52:13,719
Speaker 1: never looks away, and the look in her eyes, she

799
00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:17,879
Speaker 1: likened it to a prized fighter. Did they say it right?

800
00:52:18,040 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 1: You know? I never know sports champion like a prized fighter,

801
00:52:23,320 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 1: like the look, And I was like, how I'd never

802
00:52:26,960 --> 00:52:29,600
Speaker 1: thought about that. I just thought I look people in

803
00:52:29,719 --> 00:52:32,600
Speaker 1: eyes because it's proper, it's the right thing to do,

804
00:52:32,640 --> 00:52:35,480
Speaker 1: and my parents raised me. But it can be scary

805
00:52:36,239 --> 00:52:39,759
Speaker 1: locking eyes with someone, and especially when things get uncomfortable

806
00:52:40,480 --> 00:52:43,000
Speaker 1: and you're talking about things that maybe they're talking about

807
00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:47,120
Speaker 1: stuff uncomfortable, you're talking about stuff and you look away, right,

808
00:52:47,400 --> 00:52:49,520
Speaker 1: and that's a sign of you know, you get nervous

809
00:52:49,719 --> 00:52:52,960
Speaker 1: self doubt, but she said she might have a lot

810
00:52:53,000 --> 00:52:56,440
Speaker 1: of self doubt, but on one hand, she doesn't because

811
00:52:56,480 --> 00:53:00,920
Speaker 1: she never breaks eye contact. And that has stayed with

812
00:53:01,000 --> 00:53:06,880
Speaker 1: me because I am resilient. I am a fighter. I'm me.

813
00:53:07,080 --> 00:53:11,560
Speaker 1: I'm a fine sized, little lad, quirky fighter, but I

814
00:53:11,800 --> 00:53:13,680
Speaker 1: am I have the mindset of a fighter, in the

815
00:53:13,680 --> 00:53:17,360
Speaker 1: heart of a fighter. And I'm telling that story only

816
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:23,279
Speaker 1: because Pasha said to me. You know, he said when

817
00:53:23,280 --> 00:53:27,839
Speaker 1: we were done the first day that he he said,

818
00:53:27,840 --> 00:53:31,800
Speaker 1: you know what, I really appreciate. He said, you are committed.

819
00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:36,960
Speaker 1: And I didn't know. We danced that first day four hours.

820
00:53:37,360 --> 00:53:42,000
Speaker 1: You guys, I'm winded after walking, you know, fifty feet

821
00:53:42,040 --> 00:53:46,000
Speaker 1: into target. I wasn't winded because I had so much

822
00:53:46,200 --> 00:53:48,840
Speaker 1: drive and hope in me and I was like, you

823
00:53:48,880 --> 00:53:51,239
Speaker 1: know what, here's my partner. I'm not going to let

824
00:53:51,320 --> 00:53:55,759
Speaker 1: him down. And we locked in and I was there.

825
00:53:55,880 --> 00:54:01,239
Speaker 1: I was committed and I listened and yeah, I'm very

826
00:54:01,360 --> 00:54:06,120
Speaker 1: very committed and very focused and very driven. And I'm

827
00:54:06,120 --> 00:54:08,040
Speaker 1: not just work driven. I always thought like, oh, yeah,

828
00:54:08,360 --> 00:54:13,279
Speaker 1: my father's daughter, I'm like, or of course, and you know, yeah,

829
00:54:13,520 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 1: I'm not just work driven. I am life driven, yeah,

830
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:21,359
Speaker 1: because no matter what happens in life, like you got

831
00:54:21,360 --> 00:54:34,360
Speaker 1: to keep going right. So we rehearse for two days.

832
00:54:34,760 --> 00:54:38,719
Speaker 1: That was a whirlwind. I learned my entire dance over

833
00:54:38,880 --> 00:54:42,080
Speaker 1: those two days. In true Tory fashion. I learned some.

834
00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:45,440
Speaker 1: And the first day came in the next day and

835
00:54:45,800 --> 00:54:48,480
Speaker 1: I WASH's like ready, and I'm like, I forgot everything.

836
00:54:49,440 --> 00:54:54,560
Speaker 1: And we're also learning about me. He and I are

837
00:54:54,640 --> 00:54:57,359
Speaker 1: learning about me at the same time. He's learning about

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00:54:57,400 --> 00:54:59,719
Speaker 1: me and I'm learning about me. That sounds odd, learning

839
00:54:59,719 --> 00:55:03,759
Speaker 1: about me that I tell myself I forgot, but like

840
00:55:03,840 --> 00:55:06,240
Speaker 1: when I get out of my own head, I actually

841
00:55:06,440 --> 00:55:11,000
Speaker 1: feel and remember. So as he's told me, the biggest

842
00:55:11,000 --> 00:55:16,040
Speaker 1: competition in this competition is myself. I'm up against myself,

843
00:55:16,280 --> 00:55:20,319
Speaker 1: just like nope, no. So he videoed and then once

844
00:55:20,320 --> 00:55:23,640
Speaker 1: he feels like I've gotten it, he will turn on

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00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:27,239
Speaker 1: his phone, set it up on a tripod and videotape

846
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:29,680
Speaker 1: it so that when I go home I can rewatch it.

847
00:55:30,000 --> 00:55:32,840
Speaker 1: And he's hoping the visual of that will sink the

848
00:55:33,280 --> 00:55:35,920
Speaker 1: moves into my head. So what I go home with

849
00:55:36,200 --> 00:55:38,360
Speaker 1: is the best version. I might have done it, you know,

850
00:55:39,360 --> 00:55:42,759
Speaker 1: fifty times. But as soon as he's like Okay, that's

851
00:55:42,800 --> 00:55:45,759
Speaker 1: a good version. We're gonna videotape this. Anyway. I went

852
00:55:45,800 --> 00:55:50,040
Speaker 1: home the first night and I was feeling plumped. You guys,

853
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:52,680
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh. I came into it

854
00:55:52,719 --> 00:55:55,279
Speaker 1: thinking I'm never going to be able to do any

855
00:55:55,280 --> 00:55:58,239
Speaker 1: of these dance moves and anything. And by the time

856
00:55:58,280 --> 00:56:02,480
Speaker 1: I got home, up straight my shoulders back, I was

857
00:56:02,960 --> 00:56:05,160
Speaker 1: walking the walk, I had a little grip in my step.

858
00:56:05,239 --> 00:56:08,560
Speaker 1: I was feeling really confident. And I walked in and

859
00:56:09,000 --> 00:56:12,640
Speaker 1: I said to Bo, who's seven, Hey buddy, do you

860
00:56:12,719 --> 00:56:16,560
Speaker 1: want to see my first rehearsal? I have it and

861
00:56:16,600 --> 00:56:19,719
Speaker 1: he was like okay, and so he watched it. And

862
00:56:19,840 --> 00:56:23,040
Speaker 1: after he watched it, I said, do I look like

863
00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:26,160
Speaker 1: a dancer all the confidence in the world. And he

864
00:56:26,160 --> 00:56:28,160
Speaker 1: looked at me and he goes, no, not at all.

865
00:56:28,760 --> 00:56:31,560
Speaker 1: And I was like, rode of the mouths of me.

866
00:56:32,120 --> 00:56:34,600
Speaker 1: I later came to find out that there was one

867
00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:37,080
Speaker 1: move in there that he hadn't seen before, and he

868
00:56:37,200 --> 00:56:39,719
Speaker 1: thought that that one thing because he hasn't seen it

869
00:56:39,760 --> 00:56:41,799
Speaker 1: on the TikTok was like, and it's part of my

870
00:56:41,840 --> 00:56:45,960
Speaker 1: technical dance. That wasn't a move, so you know, you

871
00:56:46,120 --> 00:56:50,920
Speaker 1: never know, but it was so put everything into perspective. Okay,

872
00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:53,839
Speaker 1: So we had our two days of rehearsal and then

873
00:56:54,160 --> 00:56:57,520
Speaker 1: we all flew to New York and that was a

874
00:56:57,560 --> 00:57:00,840
Speaker 1: whirl when trip. In fact, do you know yesterday it

875
00:57:00,880 --> 00:57:04,279
Speaker 1: was announced on GMA and everyone knows every year, I

876
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:06,400
Speaker 1: couldn't tell anyone was going to New York because people

877
00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:08,960
Speaker 1: track you that way and they'll be like, oh, everyone

878
00:57:09,000 --> 00:57:11,000
Speaker 1: knows there's going to be a date and it's going

879
00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:14,359
Speaker 1: to be announced live on Good Morning America. A whole

880
00:57:14,400 --> 00:57:17,560
Speaker 1: hour dedicade to Dancing with the stars, the cast and

881
00:57:17,760 --> 00:57:22,919
Speaker 1: pro reveal. So I had to be super like, oh,

882
00:57:22,960 --> 00:57:27,280
Speaker 1: another covert insine getting to New York. But also, you know,

883
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:30,720
Speaker 1: me scared flying. So it's a lot like emotionally, a

884
00:57:30,800 --> 00:57:34,560
Speaker 1: lot goes into it. I was already like exhausted dancing,

885
00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:37,640
Speaker 1: you know, two days in a row, you know, ten

886
00:57:37,720 --> 00:57:41,600
Speaker 1: hour dances between the two days, and then getting on

887
00:57:41,640 --> 00:57:46,200
Speaker 1: a plane flying to New York. Literally flew into New

888
00:57:46,280 --> 00:57:50,160
Speaker 1: York rethanlent with me. We got there, went straight to

889
00:57:50,240 --> 00:57:53,960
Speaker 1: the hotel. Well after of course there was a delay

890
00:57:54,000 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: and we were stuck on the tarmac for two hours. Yeah,

891
00:57:57,400 --> 00:57:59,560
Speaker 1: but I love them. I made friends of course with

892
00:57:59,640 --> 00:58:04,440
Speaker 1: all the attendants and got there did there was like

893
00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:08,600
Speaker 1: a cast and pro meet and greet private nobody else,

894
00:58:09,320 --> 00:58:11,760
Speaker 1: just as so we can see who's on the cast.

895
00:58:11,840 --> 00:58:14,720
Speaker 1: We can see, you know, pro dancers who they are

896
00:58:14,880 --> 00:58:18,720
Speaker 1: because we don't know either. And yeah, got to that,

897
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:25,680
Speaker 1: went in and saw the count and I was super psyched.

898
00:58:25,680 --> 00:58:28,040
Speaker 1: There was Son that I was like, oh my gosh,

899
00:58:28,120 --> 00:58:30,400
Speaker 1: I was so excited to see. Like I've worked with

900
00:58:30,640 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 1: Eric Roberts before on a show on ABC years ago

901
00:58:34,480 --> 00:58:38,200
Speaker 1: called Absolutely Perfect, and he was so kind and amazing

902
00:58:38,240 --> 00:58:40,080
Speaker 1: when I worked with him, because it's hard to be

903
00:58:40,120 --> 00:58:42,480
Speaker 1: a guest star coming onto somebody else's show. I know

904
00:58:42,520 --> 00:58:44,640
Speaker 1: what it's like tow and O. It was always hard.

905
00:58:44,640 --> 00:58:46,800
Speaker 1: So I was always welcoming and he was so welcoming.

906
00:58:47,240 --> 00:58:50,440
Speaker 1: So I'd worked with him. And then there's Reginald vl

907
00:58:50,560 --> 00:58:55,160
Speaker 1: Johnson Family Matters Iconic, but he and I did a

908
00:58:55,200 --> 00:58:59,080
Speaker 1: TV movie. It was me and him and Patrick Muldoon

909
00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:03,000
Speaker 1: in South Carolina in my twenties and we became such

910
00:59:03,040 --> 00:59:05,200
Speaker 1: good friends. I loved him. I haven't seen him since,

911
00:59:05,760 --> 00:59:09,080
Speaker 1: so I was like, oh, you know, immediately friend friend,

912
00:59:09,800 --> 00:59:13,760
Speaker 1: very excited, and then I got to meet everybody else,

913
00:59:13,960 --> 00:59:17,479
Speaker 1: and everyone was cooler than the next. Like the whole cast,

914
00:59:17,560 --> 00:59:19,240
Speaker 1: you guys, and I know you guys have seen all

915
00:59:19,280 --> 00:59:23,680
Speaker 1: the names announced. Every single one of them is very cool,

916
00:59:24,800 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 1: very funny. I love that, you know. Humor is my thing.

917
00:59:28,160 --> 00:59:31,040
Speaker 1: I am psyched to be with the cast that has

918
00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:36,360
Speaker 1: such a good sense of humor, thank God, and so supportive.

919
00:59:36,760 --> 00:59:38,960
Speaker 1: There's not one that's not kind. There's not one that

920
00:59:39,040 --> 00:59:41,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my gosh, like not good vibes, like

921
00:59:41,880 --> 00:59:46,840
Speaker 1: energy is amazing. All the pros are amazing, obviously, the judges,

922
00:59:46,960 --> 00:59:50,840
Speaker 1: the hosts, Oh my gosh, Alfonso Roberto and I who

923
00:59:50,960 --> 00:59:53,240
Speaker 1: is one of the co hosts with Julie Huff who

924
00:59:53,360 --> 00:59:55,640
Speaker 1: I've known for years. But Alfonso and I have known

925
00:59:55,680 --> 01:00:00,080
Speaker 1: each other since our teens, and so I am so

926
01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:03,520
Speaker 1: oh happy for his journey. He's had such an amazing journey.

927
01:00:03,560 --> 01:00:05,880
Speaker 1: And he was like, you know what. He goes, You've

928
01:00:05,880 --> 01:00:07,680
Speaker 1: had a hard past year. He goes, this is your

929
01:00:07,680 --> 01:00:11,280
Speaker 1: time to shine. I was like, I'm going to Yeah,

930
01:00:11,360 --> 01:00:13,320
Speaker 1: we used to go to the Roxbury back in the day.

931
01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:15,640
Speaker 1: We were talking about that, but yeah, so I got

932
01:00:15,640 --> 01:00:18,480
Speaker 1: to know everybody. Then it was like go time, and

933
01:00:18,520 --> 01:00:21,640
Speaker 1: I got to say that one moment before we went

934
01:00:21,800 --> 01:00:24,360
Speaker 1: live on Good Morning America, I was like, what's no

935
01:00:24,480 --> 01:00:27,840
Speaker 1: journ back? Now the world is going to know. Here

936
01:00:27,880 --> 01:00:31,320
Speaker 1: we go. And then we were announced live I'm in

937
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:34,200
Speaker 1: Morning America and I was like afterwards, posh, I'm like,

938
01:00:34,280 --> 01:00:36,680
Speaker 1: it's real. Now, this is real. He's like it's been

939
01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:40,720
Speaker 1: real and I'm like, no, now it's real like everybody

940
01:00:40,760 --> 01:00:42,920
Speaker 1: in the world. And he sold me accountable now. But

941
01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:49,840
Speaker 1: it was a really great feeling. I'm feeling really cautiously optimistic.

942
01:00:50,240 --> 01:00:52,080
Speaker 1: So I'm going to take you through this journey with me.

943
01:00:52,520 --> 01:00:55,439
Speaker 1: Please come along, and I'm gonna share every week what's

944
01:00:55,440 --> 01:00:58,520
Speaker 1: happening behind the scenes. Sorry, this is my excited toy

945
01:00:58,880 --> 01:01:02,520
Speaker 1: right now. And yeah, my thing is it's my time.

946
01:01:02,640 --> 01:01:04,640
Speaker 1: It's time for me power on