WEBVTT - You Knew That Man Had a Girlfriend!

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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<v Speaker 1>and the Black Effect, Oh Ship, And just like that,

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<v Speaker 1>we're back on the air. Welcome back to yet another

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<v Speaker 1>Carefully Reckless episode. What's Your Girl? Just hilarious. You're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>jump straight into it because what do I do best?

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<v Speaker 1>I fix y'all mess? Hey, what's up? So? I'm eighteen now,

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<v Speaker 1>but last year I had a friend let's just call

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<v Speaker 1>her A. We were not really that close, but we

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<v Speaker 1>hung out a few times. One night I was at

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<v Speaker 1>her house, her boyfriend came. She went outside to meet him.

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<v Speaker 1>Keep in mind, it is dark. I didn't see his face,

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<v Speaker 1>but I assumed he was cute by his cologne scent

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<v Speaker 1>for some reason. Fast forward a few months later, I

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<v Speaker 1>was at a party and there was this one kid

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<v Speaker 1>there with his parents. He was talking some weird stuff

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<v Speaker 1>and I was laughing. Then this boy walk up and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, are you into those things? Jokingly? I

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<v Speaker 1>don't remember what we spoke about, but after I remember

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<v Speaker 1>him asking me if I had an Instagram and I

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<v Speaker 1>said yes. He followed me and we talked for a

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<v Speaker 1>good thirty minutes before I got bored and went home.

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<v Speaker 1>I followed him back A couple of days after he

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<v Speaker 1>texted me and I responded charming as hell, filled with

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<v Speaker 1>sweet talk, and he was so nice, so we started dating.

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<v Speaker 1>After our fourth time meeting up, somebody was like, what

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<v Speaker 1>kind of friend are you? I didn't know what he

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<v Speaker 1>was talking about, so I pretended not to hear that.

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<v Speaker 1>I noticed my friend that we're calling A not texting

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<v Speaker 1>me nor talking to me when we've seen each other.

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<v Speaker 1>All she do is me mug. A few days later,

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<v Speaker 1>somebody told me that the boy was A's boyfriend. I

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<v Speaker 1>was shocked and stopped talking to him. The only person

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<v Speaker 1>I told was one of my friends from church. She

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<v Speaker 1>would always talk me into dating him, even though we

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<v Speaker 1>both know about him having a girlfriend. I didn't listen

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<v Speaker 1>to her well obviously. One day, as I was watching

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<v Speaker 1>the boys, I g story. I saw him post the

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<v Speaker 1>picture of my friend from church, and I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>when did that happen? Didn't pay it any mind, though.

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<v Speaker 1>He came to my house and stood outside for a

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<v Speaker 1>few nights, and I didn't respond until a few nights later.

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<v Speaker 1>I got tired and went out there to him. He

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<v Speaker 1>cried and told me A isn't who he thought she was,

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<v Speaker 1>and no matter what, he's not going back to her.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't care because I have it to say. That's

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<v Speaker 1>my friend, so I don't care what he says. I

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<v Speaker 1>tried talking to A, but she wouldn't talk to me

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<v Speaker 1>when I called her. Then I saw a video of

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<v Speaker 1>the boy and my friend from church making out. A

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<v Speaker 1>couple of days after I saw A, she looked sick

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<v Speaker 1>and I wanted to ask her if she was okay,

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<v Speaker 1>but she kept walking. Turns out she was pregnant and

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<v Speaker 1>it was by the boy, and there now together until

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<v Speaker 1>this day. She still thinks that I know that it

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<v Speaker 1>was her BF, and still talked to him. We didn't

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<v Speaker 1>even have sex. He did kiss me, though I know

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to lie. That was wrong and I

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<v Speaker 1>was falling for him, But right as I heard that

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<v Speaker 1>was her man, I was gone, that's not me and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't care about our friendship no. More so is why?

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<v Speaker 1>So what the funk are you asking me, baby girl?

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<v Speaker 1>Because it sounds like you wanted to tell me this

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<v Speaker 1>story and the way you told this story. You want

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<v Speaker 1>to pay yourself out to be a better person than

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<v Speaker 1>you may have been in this whole ordeal. Now you eighteen,

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<v Speaker 1>so I'm gonna break it down to you in terms

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<v Speaker 1>that you can understand. I know you knew that that

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<v Speaker 1>was your home girl's boyfriend. I know because you told

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<v Speaker 1>on yourself and the damn story, little girl. You told

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<v Speaker 1>on yourself right here, you said, after our fourth time

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<v Speaker 1>meeting up, somebody was like, what kind of friend are you?

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<v Speaker 1>And I didn't know what he was talking about, so

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<v Speaker 1>I pretended not to hear. Then I noticed A not

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<v Speaker 1>texting me or talking to me when we're seeing each other.

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<v Speaker 1>All she do was mean mug A few days later,

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<v Speaker 1>somebody told me that was the boy that A was

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<v Speaker 1>going out with. I was shocked, and I stopped talking

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<v Speaker 1>to him. And then you went on and said, the

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<v Speaker 1>only person I told was my friend from church, and

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<v Speaker 1>she would always talk me into dating him, even though

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<v Speaker 1>we knew he had a girlfriend. I didn't listen to her.

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<v Speaker 1>So you told on yourself, baby girl, because you and

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<v Speaker 1>the backstabb and church girl that Beyonce was talking about

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<v Speaker 1>in the Damn Song ran back and told A that

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<v Speaker 1>she was sucking with her. Man A stopped talking to you,

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<v Speaker 1>and then the damn church girl when and started working

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<v Speaker 1>with the boyfriend as well. So now the boyfriend then

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<v Speaker 1>had all of y'all and a goddamn frenzy with A

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<v Speaker 1>being first, I'm just call you be, you be, and

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<v Speaker 1>didn't see for the church girl. I don't got time

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<v Speaker 1>for this all, y'all too damn young. Now we got

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<v Speaker 1>A pregnant by this three time and nigg because he

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<v Speaker 1>ain't two time, because it's three of y'all your ass.

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<v Speaker 1>You knew that was A's boyfriend, And I'm gonna tell

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<v Speaker 1>you another way that you snitched on your damn self. Baby.

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<v Speaker 1>You remember his cologne that was the same goddamn colone

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<v Speaker 1>had on all four times y'all met up. You ain't

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<v Speaker 1>gonna tell me that you did not know that was

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<v Speaker 1>A's bo a friend. Now, listen, you make mistakes. You're young,

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<v Speaker 1>y'all are children. This ship happens with your ages. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>some ship like this happened to me when I was sixteen.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't end up pregnant, and neither did the other

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<v Speaker 1>girl who was my friend, who was working with a

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<v Speaker 1>guy that I was working with. You know, we were

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<v Speaker 1>in fucking high school. It happened. She's still one of

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<v Speaker 1>my good friends till this day. It's just ship that

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<v Speaker 1>you do when you're young. I think you should still

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<v Speaker 1>try to talk to a. I don't think you should

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<v Speaker 1>give up on the friendship, So don't be hitting me

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<v Speaker 1>talking about something. Yeah, I don't care about the friendship

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<v Speaker 1>no more so. Yeah. No, you're and our girl with

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<v Speaker 1>friends and you did her wrong. I think instead of

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<v Speaker 1>trying to get her to respond, you should just apologize

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<v Speaker 1>because you're not taking accountability for what you did, and

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<v Speaker 1>you know you were wrong. And that fucking church girl

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<v Speaker 1>knew she was wrong too. Okay, and I don't even

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<v Speaker 1>mean to be using church and in the A word

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<v Speaker 1>in the same sentence, but she knew she was wrong

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<v Speaker 1>as well. But it's starting with you, starts with yourself.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't speak for church girl. Okay, you need to apologize.

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<v Speaker 1>Go in apologizing. I don't care lose your pride. And

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<v Speaker 1>I know it's hard to not be prideful at such

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<v Speaker 1>a young age, because y'all always feel like somebody coming

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<v Speaker 1>at y'all and y'all tough, and and you got to

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<v Speaker 1>prove a point, especially at your little age. Baby, put

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<v Speaker 1>that product side, and even if you don't get your

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<v Speaker 1>friend back, you still owe her a sincere apology. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying to you, Okay, I mean it. That's it.

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<v Speaker 1>You are never to go around that nigga game. That

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<v Speaker 1>is a's that is your friend's boyfriend and now baby father. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>that's a family now. Whether you like it or not,

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<v Speaker 1>Whether the connection was strong between you and this young

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<v Speaker 1>boy and not, y'a don't know, but no goddamn connections.

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<v Speaker 1>Y'all don't know about that. I ain't gonna say you

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what love is, but you don't know about

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<v Speaker 1>these connect actions that y'all got. No, y'all just a

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<v Speaker 1>little horny ask people, little cute horny ass humans running

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<v Speaker 1>around and ship and now Aidan got a damn baby

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<v Speaker 1>and it better be his ship. If she was having

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<v Speaker 1>sex with we just gonna call him D. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was having sex with D. She having sex with E,

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<v Speaker 1>F and G. All right, but we're talking about you.

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<v Speaker 1>You have to fix the situation. Even if it's not

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<v Speaker 1>fixed in a sense for y'all are friends, you still

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<v Speaker 1>did something wrong that you need to take accountability for,

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<v Speaker 1>apologize for, and move on. She doesn't want to accept

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<v Speaker 1>you as a friend anymore, that's fine, that's on you.

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<v Speaker 1>She has every reason not to. She had every reason

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<v Speaker 1>to whoop your ass. To be honest with you, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to encourage fighting because y'all already do it.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, check back in with me, but get yourself

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<v Speaker 1>to gether a girl. There's so many little boys out here.

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<v Speaker 1>Stop dating boys after your friends, all right, that's what

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<v Speaker 1>we call leftovers? Should I ain't that old? I know

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<v Speaker 1>y'all still call him that. Moving on, Hold, pull up.

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<v Speaker 1>I noticed ship getting good. But listen to just a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of seconds of a commercial. If you love me,

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<v Speaker 1>you'll listen. Hey, Jess, Okay, so boom. I've been with

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<v Speaker 1>my girl for five years, so we slid off the top.

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<v Speaker 1>Everything right now is good, no complaints, just regular relationship ship,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. But the problem, I believe is me. I

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<v Speaker 1>have super bad trust issues that it sometimes affects our relationship.

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<v Speaker 1>And I really do love her and plan to be

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<v Speaker 1>with her as long as time takes us. We've dealt

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<v Speaker 1>with flirting type stuff, but nothing serious that would make

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<v Speaker 1>me not trust her. I say I'm the problem because

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<v Speaker 1>before her I used to be a real bad cheater.

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<v Speaker 1>Not proud, but it is what it is. So my

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<v Speaker 1>question to you is, do you think my past actions

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<v Speaker 1>will always affect my trust if you let it always

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<v Speaker 1>affect your trust. Yes, the will. Yes, that's something that

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<v Speaker 1>only you can control. Because I always tell my baby father,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll tell Rome this all the time. I used to

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<v Speaker 1>tell him this all the time. He is no only

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<v Speaker 1>for me to tell him this now. I used to

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<v Speaker 1>have to tell him all the time. You know, all

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<v Speaker 1>that cheat and you're doing on your significant other or

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<v Speaker 1>your girlfriend, that is making you insecure as well, because

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<v Speaker 1>if you can do this to a person that you're

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<v Speaker 1>in a relationship and that you love so much and

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<v Speaker 1>you have no reason to cheat. If you can do that,

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<v Speaker 1>you're always gonna think it's going to be done to

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<v Speaker 1>you because you can do it perfectly fine, and some

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<v Speaker 1>people will never see it that way. But people bring

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<v Speaker 1>in securities on themselves a lot of times, not just others.

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<v Speaker 1>You can cause insecurity within yourself yourself because it's something

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<v Speaker 1>that he was always looking for. My son's father was

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<v Speaker 1>always looking for something. And he could love you, and

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<v Speaker 1>you could be most loyal to him, in love with him,

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<v Speaker 1>be there, has every beck and call, everything, do everything right,

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<v Speaker 1>and he'll still go cheat. He doesn't feel complete. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not the girl, just like in your situation. It was

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<v Speaker 1>never the girl or in previous relationships. She said, you

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<v Speaker 1>used to be really bad cheater and those relationships. It

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<v Speaker 1>couldn't been the other girls. It was you who did it. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So you are insecure because of the things that you've

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<v Speaker 1>done to other people. It's true. It happens in marriages,

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<v Speaker 1>not even just relationships and friendships. I had a friend

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<v Speaker 1>who was always losing her friends all the time. It

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<v Speaker 1>was how she was treating her friends. You only want

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<v Speaker 1>to use them when it's convenient for you. You only

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<v Speaker 1>want to be around certain girls to talk about your

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<v Speaker 1>other friends. The only one you know, she was very

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<v Speaker 1>toxic and messy and friendships. That's why we're not friends anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>And she had to see I bought it to her

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<v Speaker 1>attention that it's not everybody else, it's you. The common

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<v Speaker 1>denominator is always you. You're always losing people. It's you,

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<v Speaker 1>all right. You can take advice a r B, A

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<v Speaker 1>stop dating, work on yourself, because you're always gonna have

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<v Speaker 1>this problem if you don't recognize it. That's the answer

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<v Speaker 1>to your question. But that's totally up to you. That

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<v Speaker 1>starts with you. You have to realize that you're insecure

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<v Speaker 1>because of yourself, because of the things that you've done.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's a stop dating. B sit down with her

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<v Speaker 1>and have this conversation with her. If you haven't already yet,

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<v Speaker 1>tell little work with you, because sometimes you'll have that person,

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<v Speaker 1>depending on who you're with it they love you enough,

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<v Speaker 1>they'll help you get through your insecurities. They'll help you

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<v Speaker 1>become better as a person. They'll help you build a

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<v Speaker 1>solid foundation. That is where solidarity comes from. Being able

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<v Speaker 1>to be your girlfriend's friend, being able to be your

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<v Speaker 1>boyfriend's friend, because you know, that's the foundation the friendship.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't just jump from strangers too now we're in love. No,

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<v Speaker 1>it has to be a foundation built, Okay, And it's

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<v Speaker 1>not always easy. It's not even easy in my relationship

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<v Speaker 1>right now, my current relationship, me and Daniel are still building,

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<v Speaker 1>just building. Yes the motherfucker from the show. Yeah, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>we're still building and that ship takes time. So A

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<v Speaker 1>or B check, I can with me baby moving on, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So I wanted to write in for this. I was

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<v Speaker 1>with my ex on and off for like three years.

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<v Speaker 1>I've realized recently she's not only a narcissist, but she's

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<v Speaker 1>been using me for my energy, positivity, the fact that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm stable on my own. So I left two things. One,

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<v Speaker 1>she has a son that I've built a bond with

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<v Speaker 1>and honestly loved this child like he's my own, and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what to do about this aspect on

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<v Speaker 1>our break. And Two, every time we've broken up over

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<v Speaker 1>the years, I've actively tried getting over her, and honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>nobody has been able to fuck me like her. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>moving on and I'm not about to get used now

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<v Speaker 1>that I've seen it, plainly, but it's hard letting go

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<v Speaker 1>of that fire as sex. You can leave my name out,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm from p G County and I'm out in

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<v Speaker 1>Atlanta now, but I'm proud to see how far you've

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<v Speaker 1>come and seeing somebody from back home get on like this,

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<v Speaker 1>even if Baltimore is a little different. It's all love

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<v Speaker 1>to me. Oh, thank you all right. Now. She got

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<v Speaker 1>back to the story eventually, because I was like girl,

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<v Speaker 1>just telling me to damn story, thank you, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>continuing with her story, just to give you some meat

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<v Speaker 1>on the bones. I'm twenty nine and she's thirty one.

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<v Speaker 1>We're both bisexual, but monogamous. When we're together and tested. Also,

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<v Speaker 1>she doesn't live with me. I moved down here from

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<v Speaker 1>the DMV before COVID, and I have my own spot card, job, bills, everything,

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<v Speaker 1>L O L. She's living with her mom and son.

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<v Speaker 1>Her son is nine. I don't judge people for whatever

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<v Speaker 1>situation they're in life. Plus, while we would be together,

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<v Speaker 1>she would cash at me for everything in anything. I

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<v Speaker 1>would go out my way for groceries, gas bills, whatever,

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<v Speaker 1>So it was very hard to notice that she was

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<v Speaker 1>using me at all. Oh but she's very negative about

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<v Speaker 1>herself and life sometimes, and I'm a genuinely positive person,

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<v Speaker 1>so I started connecting the dots and noticing the bullshit.

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<v Speaker 1>There you go. Plus, her mom is slightweight, homophobic, and

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<v Speaker 1>hates me, even though I'm the best partner she's ever

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<v Speaker 1>been with. So that was stress in itself. I know

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<v Speaker 1>this is a lot my apology, but Jess, fix my mess.

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<v Speaker 1>The relationship is over with and I'm done. But I

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<v Speaker 1>think the relationship I have with her son is the

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<v Speaker 1>hardest part. Honestly. Oh man, Now I do understand that.

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<v Speaker 1>I understand it's the relationship with the sun, but it's

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<v Speaker 1>also all that fire ass sex that she was talking

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<v Speaker 1>about that you mentioned frequently throughout that damn passage that

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<v Speaker 1>I just read now. First and foremost, thank you so

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<v Speaker 1>much for congratulating me and supporting me and always just

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<v Speaker 1>being a day one. I thank you, babe. Back to

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<v Speaker 1>your ass. Is so much fire sex out this motherfucker.

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<v Speaker 1>It's so much fire sex. Oh Yeah. What sticks out

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<v Speaker 1>to me the most about this you said that she's

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<v Speaker 1>negative about herself and in life period, that's work that

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<v Speaker 1>she has to do on herself. You did the right thing.

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<v Speaker 1>You picked up and you left. Now that little boy,

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<v Speaker 1>all you can do is pray for him. I still

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<v Speaker 1>would not even encourage that you still try to have

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<v Speaker 1>a bond with him, because then that gives her a

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<v Speaker 1>reason to keep you attached to her. And she could

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<v Speaker 1>very well use the fact that you're so close with

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<v Speaker 1>her son to kind of manipulate you to be with her,

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<v Speaker 1>or to still deal with her, or to still send

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<v Speaker 1>her money and do things for her. Her and her

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<v Speaker 1>mother got to get that together, because honestly, I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go ahead and say it. The apple don't far

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<v Speaker 1>far from the tree, all right. Yes, she was looking

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<v Speaker 1>for someone to take care of her. Yeah, and she

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<v Speaker 1>just happened to have bomb Plussy and an unbelievably beautiful son. Beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>I can tell the way you speak of him that

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<v Speaker 1>you do love him, but you have to get over that.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm very very sorry if it seems like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>being harsh, you know, or in sensitive to your love

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<v Speaker 1>for this baby. No, No, I'm not. What I love

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<v Speaker 1>is that he's nine and he's not three. He understands

0:15:47.200 --> 0:15:49.120
<v Speaker 1>these nine year olds these days. I have a ten

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<v Speaker 1>year old. He understands. Listen, I've been in relationships. Ashton

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<v Speaker 1>has known every goddamn guy. When they leave, ash know

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<v Speaker 1>how to cut it the fun off. Now that is

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<v Speaker 1>not to say that that's right, but what's wrong. Let's

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<v Speaker 1>talk about it. What's wrong with it? I feel, and

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of people may disagree. My son has a

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<v Speaker 1>right to know each and every man I call myself

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<v Speaker 1>being in an official relationship with I don't give a

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<v Speaker 1>funk if it was for relationships, all right. He knew

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<v Speaker 1>a j he knew Chris, he knew Wayne, and he

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<v Speaker 1>knows Daniel. And that is how the fund is gonna be.

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<v Speaker 1>If darn ain't then that got married. Whoever the funk

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<v Speaker 1>I do marry ashe gonna know that one. That's the

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<v Speaker 1>type of bond me and my son have. You will

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<v Speaker 1>know each and every person that your mom calls a boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>You will, now, Lord flings, No, you ain't even worth

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<v Speaker 1>come around my son. A fling is just I'm using

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<v Speaker 1>you for one thing, baby, that's see it. But something serious. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>so a lot of people may disagree, and I'm okay

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<v Speaker 1>with that, but that could be how she is with

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<v Speaker 1>her child, because trust me, who her she is dealing

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<v Speaker 1>with now or after you, her child is going to

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<v Speaker 1>meet them too. So you have to cut that off.

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<v Speaker 1>And the great thing about it is you're not in

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<v Speaker 1>the same city anymore. It should be and I know

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<v Speaker 1>it's easier sending done. It should be a lot easier

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<v Speaker 1>for you because you don't have full access to her.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't just pull up on her and ship. You

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<v Speaker 1>gotta get on the flight and her mom hating you

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<v Speaker 1>and her mom being slightly homophobic. You ain't got to

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<v Speaker 1>deal with that either, Okay, you don't have to deal

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<v Speaker 1>with taking care of someone instead of building and taking

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<v Speaker 1>care of each other, getting that solid work that you

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<v Speaker 1>put in to be a family. I'm sorry, you're just

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<v Speaker 1>gonna have to move on. That's just what it is.

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<v Speaker 1>So basically, to fix your mess, all I'm doing is

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<v Speaker 1>confirming what you already told me. You already got all

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<v Speaker 1>the tools. You laugh, you ain't there, she got the

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<v Speaker 1>best sex. Whatever You're in. Atlanta's a whole bunch of game.

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<v Speaker 1>Motherfucker's running around ready to get fun. Go ahead, take

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<v Speaker 1>your pick ship all I'm fishing to see down there.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad as you made it out too, and I'm

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