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Speaker 1: Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heart Radio Podcast.

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Speaker 1: It is a hot topic holiday episode. I get excited

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Speaker 1: for current events. This is I don't. I actually felt

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Speaker 1: that come over me when I read it. But you

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Speaker 1: know why I don't love hot topics. I do know why.

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Speaker 1: But would you like to share that you can share?

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Speaker 1: Why do you think I don't like hot episode? Swimming?

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Speaker 1: Last time? It went so swiftly? Last time? Did it

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Speaker 1: go so swiftly? Escalated swiftly? Oh? This is Tara Reid

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Speaker 1: filling in for Kristin bruston wind Down. Oh? But yeah,

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Speaker 1: I made this joke in front of two sweet twenty somethings.

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Speaker 1: I like, who's Tara Reid? I go, you guys, is

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Speaker 1: this so Tara Reid's a good twenty or two thousand

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Speaker 1: and five or something? And they both like looked at me,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, y'all have no idea who Tara

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Speaker 1: Reid is? Do you? And they were like no, did

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Speaker 1: I tell you the time? Christine? I remember seeing her

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Speaker 1: to club one time, like we grew up with Tara Reid. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: she was like our girl. She was. Is she doing now?

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Speaker 1: I don't know. When I googled her, I found this

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Speaker 1: interview because I was trying to explain it to them.

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Speaker 1: It hurts me, so can you just let her it

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Speaker 1: does doesn't hurt, No, it doesn't hurt. This is actually

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Speaker 1: the best it sounded. And legend Brost is living for

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Speaker 1: the fact that I don't have a voice. Really, Oh

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Speaker 1: he loves it. Why because I'm usually the one that's

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Speaker 1: putting the like Escully did voice, got it okay? But

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Speaker 1: that it does knock? Yeah? Sorry. So I googled her

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Speaker 1: to see what is Tara doing now? And all I

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Speaker 1: found is this really sad, slurry interview that she did.

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Speaker 1: I know, and it wasn't I don't feel like it

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Speaker 1: was that long ago. I don't know, but I was like, oh, Tara,

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Speaker 1: you know, Hollywood's hard, it is, I know, you know,

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Speaker 1: well not really like I don't know, like you know

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Speaker 1: more than I do. Sure, but yeah, well that's a bummer. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but we're happy to have you here. Yeah, we're missing

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Speaker 1: kitt KitKat Is. She is at the doctor's office right

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Speaker 1: now with her daughter because everyone and their daughter has

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Speaker 1: the flu. That's correct, So that's that's a bummer. Miss.

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Speaker 1: We miss our little KitKat. But we are going to

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Speaker 1: have a hot topic, show chat about the holidays, anything

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Speaker 1: else that's going on. Why I don't like these usually

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Speaker 1: is because it can become a little click baity a

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Speaker 1: little and that scares me because, you know what, one

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Speaker 1: of the things that I've been that I've tried to well,

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Speaker 1: that I that I worked on this year was what

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Speaker 1: how do I say this? Was? And I kind of

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Speaker 1: talked about this a little bit on one of my last episodes,

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Speaker 1: was about opinions and having opinions and like what does

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Speaker 1: my opinion actually? Like? Why do I even have to

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Speaker 1: have an opinion? Correct? Right? So? And then what do

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Speaker 1: I want my opinion to be? Like when I speak?

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Speaker 1: Do I want it to be an opinionion? Like? What

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Speaker 1: level of because we all have an opinion, right, so

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Speaker 1: it's and when we share it, how do we want

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Speaker 1: it to come out? And so sometimes I think when

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Speaker 1: I have shared my opinion, it might not come out

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Speaker 1: or be. Why would I need to have that certain

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Speaker 1: kind of opinion? Well, I also think it's worth noting

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Speaker 1: that there is And I had to have a pleasant

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Speaker 1: discussion with one of your listeners at one point because

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Speaker 1: she our listeners. She wrote to me about me on accident,

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Speaker 1: Oh Angela, oh no, and I had to remind her

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Speaker 1: that there is a show flow, that there are things

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Speaker 1: that we are given as ideas of topics. Yes, that

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Speaker 1: I don't say anything? Ever? Right, it's a podcast, right,

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Speaker 1: isn't it? You know? Yeah? So anyways, it's worthy admiring

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Speaker 1: if everyone agreed on it. So like I tell the girls, hey, like,

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Speaker 1: if you disagree, disagree, because no one wants to listen

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Speaker 1: to something where everyone's like yes absolutely, yes, as sure

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Speaker 1: for sure, Like and if you don't agree with me,

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Speaker 1: say you don't agree with me? Can I get Can

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Speaker 1: I let you guys in a secret behind morning show recipes? Yes? Okay,

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Speaker 1: so this could not be true anymore. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: Radio is much evolved since I was nineteen. But back

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Speaker 1: in the day, there was this formula that they had

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Speaker 1: always just like somebody that just was always combative about everything. Sure,

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Speaker 1: that's what gets people intrigued, and you can usually identify

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Speaker 1: because if everyone was me and you wouldn't like that

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Speaker 1: the same opinion, well doesn't show I haven't watched the view.

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Speaker 1: I don't think they're all kind of I don't know

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Speaker 1: I have it, but I think yeah, are supposed to

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Speaker 1: be that everyone's kind of like you know, right, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: So all of that to say in your defense, often

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Speaker 1: we are asked sometimes do you have an opinion about this? Right?

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Speaker 1: And I think we learned a valuable lesson last time

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Speaker 1: how it how how it comes out to. Yeah, and

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Speaker 1: As I'm reading this breakdown, the first headline and topic

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Speaker 1: are you ready for it? I was like, wait what

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Speaker 1: And I was like, is that a hint? I was like,

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Speaker 1: course it says he wouldn't allow her to do sex

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Speaker 1: scenes like on Yellowstone. Here's the article here, ladies, let's

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh boy, and he's like, oh, for

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Speaker 1: I'm like, well, let's actually have a conversation about it,

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Speaker 1: and I can empathy empathize that it would be difficult.

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Speaker 1: so but then I afterwards it got me kind of thinking.

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Speaker 1: Then when I saw that article, I was like, all right, babe,

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Speaker 1: Kristin Dbruss because you're gonna say, I just don't know

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Speaker 1: anybody that feels super comfortable watching their partner do that

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Speaker 1: because again I've dated actors who have done those kind

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Speaker 1: cutting like I don't know it. It's because you're not.

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Speaker 1: wouldn't like that because I'd be like, he's not used

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Speaker 1: comes off the road. I host a label and a

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00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:04,680
Speaker 1: band already at our home, which I've already decided will

423
00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:07,920
Speaker 1: never happen again. It's sweet and I love the idea

424
00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,639
Speaker 1: of it, but ultimately, like, I just have little kids.

425
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:12,640
Speaker 1: There's a baby that needs to go to sleep by

426
00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:15,840
Speaker 1: eight if I'm pushing it. Huh. I know, I know

427
00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:19,040
Speaker 1: seven's my preference right now. But I also was like,

428
00:23:19,040 --> 00:23:23,080
Speaker 1: I can be flexible, but it's still just so. I

429
00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:25,359
Speaker 1: guess I have a hard time, and I've fought this

430
00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:27,679
Speaker 1: for a long time. I'm open to anything you have

431
00:23:27,720 --> 00:23:31,160
Speaker 1: to say, because I feel like you and I usually

432
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,200
Speaker 1: are always on the same page. But I want to

433
00:23:34,240 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 1: have more of a hosting heart. I do think I

434
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:42,119
Speaker 1: have one when it's certain people and I feel a

435
00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:45,359
Speaker 1: little on christ like in my hosting when I start

436
00:23:45,400 --> 00:23:47,919
Speaker 1: to feel resentment, But then I shame myself for feeling

437
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:51,720
Speaker 1: resentful when it's probably just fair to feel that way. Yeah, no,

438
00:23:51,920 --> 00:23:55,040
Speaker 1: it's fair. But I think you also just want peace

439
00:23:55,480 --> 00:23:59,000
Speaker 1: and your husband. I just desperately want my husband. Yeah,

440
00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:01,000
Speaker 1: that's been the biggest thing, Like he's just been gone

441
00:24:01,119 --> 00:24:03,719
Speaker 1: so much, and I you know, but it's also tricky,

442
00:24:03,760 --> 00:24:06,720
Speaker 1: like the people that actually are responsible for creating him

443
00:24:07,119 --> 00:24:09,240
Speaker 1: probably would love to see him too. I think it's

444
00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:11,919
Speaker 1: just hard because I think people have an idea of

445
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:13,800
Speaker 1: what they think our life is like, but I don't

446
00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:17,439
Speaker 1: think people know how much he's really gone. And the

447
00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:22,240
Speaker 1: differences I noticed in our kids needing him a little consistency,

448
00:24:22,560 --> 00:24:24,320
Speaker 1: even if it's just for like a week and a half.

449
00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 1: And so Sarah Brice gave me advice. I had them

450
00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:33,679
Speaker 1: coming in after Christmas, and Sarah said, I want you

451
00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 1: to just think about having them before, so that say,

452
00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 1: by the twentieth you know, you have you don't have

453
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:43,320
Speaker 1: to keep wondering like that doesn't have to be open

454
00:24:43,359 --> 00:24:47,600
Speaker 1: in your brain, right. So that's what we're doing. Okay, good, Yeah, fabulous,

455
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:51,199
Speaker 1: we'll see you know. I'm i gotta say, I'm I

456
00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,600
Speaker 1: think that's a good idea. I'm I'm I'm struggling on

457
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:58,480
Speaker 1: what to do this year. You guys stay here. We're

458
00:24:58,520 --> 00:25:01,840
Speaker 1: staying here because Alan green card process man, trying to

459
00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:05,280
Speaker 1: do it the legal way is really tough. Oh man,

460
00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:08,840
Speaker 1: It's been really difficult with his green card process because

461
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:11,800
Speaker 1: he's not allowed to leave the country and for a

462
00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:13,959
Speaker 1: certain amount of days until he gets you know, his

463
00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:17,000
Speaker 1: travel authorization. But you know, applying for the green card

464
00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:18,719
Speaker 1: has just been I mean, he's had the medical I mean,

465
00:25:18,720 --> 00:25:22,920
Speaker 1: it's it's just been a lot, and it's it's frustrating

466
00:25:22,920 --> 00:25:25,879
Speaker 1: when you see other people do it illegally, Yeah, when

467
00:25:25,880 --> 00:25:27,680
Speaker 1: you're trying to do it the right way. And now

468
00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:30,320
Speaker 1: he like, obviously we can't travel or he can't travel

469
00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:35,399
Speaker 1: out of the country, which is challenging. But the last

470
00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 1: time I didn't have the kids for Christmas Eve night

471
00:25:38,480 --> 00:25:42,159
Speaker 1: was when I flew to see Alan in London. So

472
00:25:42,320 --> 00:25:45,679
Speaker 1: and then I had Christmas the next day, Like I had,

473
00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:48,280
Speaker 1: I flew home on Christmas Eve because that was the

474
00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:51,919
Speaker 1: Christmas Eve that I was dreading of not seeing. That

475
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:53,640
Speaker 1: was the first year of ever and like not having

476
00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:57,879
Speaker 1: my kids on Christmas Eve night, and so you know,

477
00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:00,040
Speaker 1: I decided, all right, I'm gonna fly to London to

478
00:26:00,119 --> 00:26:04,200
Speaker 1: see Alan, and I'll fly back on Christmas Eve night

479
00:26:04,880 --> 00:26:07,320
Speaker 1: and then I'll get them noon on Christmas. But that

480
00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:09,440
Speaker 1: was going to be our Christmas Eve, so I would

481
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:14,639
Speaker 1: still have our what you know, quote Christmas Eve. And

482
00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:18,280
Speaker 1: then the next day was you know, the day after

483
00:26:18,359 --> 00:26:21,880
Speaker 1: Christmas was our Christmas and so and that's like when

484
00:26:21,880 --> 00:26:23,359
Speaker 1: me and my ex thought about it, because he's like,

485
00:26:23,359 --> 00:26:25,600
Speaker 1: you can't change Christmas. And I'm like, you can't tell

486
00:26:25,640 --> 00:26:28,119
Speaker 1: me what to do. You can't change your life, but

487
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:38,040
Speaker 1: you did, and so yeah, but this year now we

488
00:26:38,160 --> 00:26:44,119
Speaker 1: have a baby together and obviously Roman doesn't know the day.

489
00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:47,199
Speaker 1: But I feel like I can't change Christmas again this

490
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:50,200
Speaker 1: year so that you don't have the kids Christmas Eve. No,

491
00:26:50,560 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 1: And I'm already starting to be like depressed about it because,

492
00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:57,439
Speaker 1: you know, baking the cookies before Santa comes, and like

493
00:26:57,480 --> 00:26:58,840
Speaker 1: I don't get to do any of that. I don't

494
00:26:58,840 --> 00:27:01,520
Speaker 1: get to make cookies with them. I don't get to

495
00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:03,680
Speaker 1: leave out the note the night before, I don't get

496
00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:06,200
Speaker 1: to leave out you know, the carrots for the reindeer,

497
00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 1: put the reindeer food out, Like I don't get to

498
00:27:10,359 --> 00:27:12,080
Speaker 1: do any of that. If I don't have a Christmas

499
00:27:12,119 --> 00:27:16,640
Speaker 1: Eve night? Can you go do that? There? That feels

500
00:27:16,720 --> 00:27:20,520
Speaker 1: not good to me. Okay, that feels more like anytime

501
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:23,439
Speaker 1: I still go to have to pick up the kids

502
00:27:24,280 --> 00:27:26,760
Speaker 1: from his house. I don't like it. I wouldn't like

503
00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:29,919
Speaker 1: it either. It feels no matter how many years removed,

504
00:27:31,119 --> 00:27:34,600
Speaker 1: so happy. I don't like picking my kids up there.

505
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:37,119
Speaker 1: I don't like being it. It's just it. I just

506
00:27:37,200 --> 00:27:39,280
Speaker 1: I don't like it. Yeah, that's okay, that's fair. Like

507
00:27:39,320 --> 00:27:43,160
Speaker 1: he makes himself welcome in cozy here, I don't step

508
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,679
Speaker 1: inside his place, you know, I don't like it. I

509
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:50,680
Speaker 1: don't like to. I don't want to. I just don't

510
00:27:50,720 --> 00:27:52,840
Speaker 1: like it. Yeah, that's okay. I was just trying on

511
00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:55,440
Speaker 1: our options because I do sure, but like also, those

512
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,439
Speaker 1: are his memories. I wouldn't invite him to do that

513
00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:00,800
Speaker 1: here with us. As much as I have tried to

514
00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:03,840
Speaker 1: make a great situation for everyone and invite him to

515
00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:06,520
Speaker 1: parties and do this, that and the other, you know,

516
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:10,240
Speaker 1: I don't want him here on our family nights decorating cookies.

517
00:28:10,960 --> 00:28:14,199
Speaker 1: So I wouldn't ask him for me to do that.

518
00:28:14,200 --> 00:28:16,440
Speaker 1: The only thing I did ask and he hasn't responded,

519
00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:20,639
Speaker 1: of course, is church, because church is important to me

520
00:28:20,680 --> 00:28:23,479
Speaker 1: to go on Christmas Eve, and so I asked him,

521
00:28:23,480 --> 00:28:25,199
Speaker 1: I said, hey, what service are you gonna are we

522
00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:29,160
Speaker 1: going to? Basically, yeah, the three or the five? Yeah

523
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:32,000
Speaker 1: that's great, but I don't know. He hasn't responded, So

524
00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:34,959
Speaker 1: could you double Christmas again, But how do I do

525
00:28:35,040 --> 00:28:39,200
Speaker 1: that now that because it's Jolie is now at an

526
00:28:39,240 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 1: age too where I remember how I said, she asked, yeah,

527
00:28:44,680 --> 00:28:48,480
Speaker 1: and then I don't know how I could do that post.

528
00:28:50,800 --> 00:28:54,720
Speaker 1: So next year I'll obviously have them again on Christmas Eve,

529
00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:56,760
Speaker 1: which will be fine, and then after that then Jolie

530
00:28:56,800 --> 00:29:00,280
Speaker 1: probably won't believe Jace might not either, and then just

531
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,880
Speaker 1: probably do Christmas. I don't I know, then it wouldn't

532
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:05,600
Speaker 1: be writing to Sannah, but this would probably be the

533
00:29:05,640 --> 00:29:07,920
Speaker 1: last year that Jolie is going to be all in

534
00:29:08,040 --> 00:29:10,960
Speaker 1: all in writing to Sannah. I don't know, Well next

535
00:29:11,000 --> 00:29:14,160
Speaker 1: year maybe, like I'm gonna hopefully next year, but the

536
00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:17,280
Speaker 1: man getting running tight tea is getting harder than ever. Yeah,

537
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:20,280
Speaker 1: I know in the guest room closet, my lord, don't

538
00:29:20,360 --> 00:29:22,480
Speaker 1: don't go in there. Yeah. I'm also like, don't don't

539
00:29:22,520 --> 00:29:24,760
Speaker 1: touch my phone, don't look at me into like the

540
00:29:24,760 --> 00:29:29,320
Speaker 1: Amazon alert comes through and I'm like, ohnness a year. Yeah, Yeah,

541
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:31,960
Speaker 1: I don't know. I do wonder if you could do

542
00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:36,920
Speaker 1: pre Christmas Eve with Roman and then you still make

543
00:29:37,000 --> 00:29:39,680
Speaker 1: it well because Roman's young enough that I don't think

544
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 1: it matters, like we could have Christmas morning, Alan and

545
00:29:42,440 --> 00:29:47,680
Speaker 1: I and Roman on Christmas Day? Oh no, is that weird? No,

546
00:29:47,720 --> 00:29:49,600
Speaker 1: that would be weird. I don't know what to do.

547
00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:55,960
Speaker 1: How I do what if you were? Do you think

548
00:29:56,040 --> 00:30:00,320
Speaker 1: Santa swoops back around? M do you think he's hoops

549
00:30:00,360 --> 00:30:03,760
Speaker 1: back around he did two years ago? Yeah, I mean,

550
00:30:04,600 --> 00:30:07,239
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know what I mean, what

551
00:30:07,280 --> 00:30:10,440
Speaker 1: other options would I have? I don't know, I don't

552
00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:11,800
Speaker 1: I don't know. I need to really think about. I

553
00:30:11,840 --> 00:30:15,200
Speaker 1: forgot for a minute we're recording that happens to me.

554
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:18,360
Speaker 1: It's not entertaining for me to think in brainstorm. I

555
00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:20,840
Speaker 1: just there has to be I'm such a will there's

556
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:23,479
Speaker 1: a way girl. Yeah. So I just do want to

557
00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:27,840
Speaker 1: miss those unless i'm you know, we bake cookies. I mean,

558
00:30:27,880 --> 00:30:29,920
Speaker 1: it would essentially just be this this, this is the

559
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:32,480
Speaker 1: last weekend I have them before, you know, Christmas. Yeah,

560
00:30:34,320 --> 00:30:36,480
Speaker 1: that's where I just get That's where I just get angry.

561
00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 1: I love my life. I love obviously Roman, and I

562
00:30:39,960 --> 00:30:43,160
Speaker 1: would never wish to ever still be in that marriage

563
00:30:43,160 --> 00:30:45,880
Speaker 1: ever or be married to that man. But I that

564
00:30:45,960 --> 00:30:50,680
Speaker 1: makes do sorry. But I miss the I miss the

565
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:53,400
Speaker 1: family aspect of my I miss my I don't want

566
00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:55,560
Speaker 1: my kids leaving all the time. I don't like that,

567
00:30:55,880 --> 00:30:59,520
Speaker 1: and I will always dislike him for him for that

568
00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:02,360
Speaker 1: being the really the reason did he ever give you

569
00:31:02,360 --> 00:31:04,120
Speaker 1: it to you back? Would he ever give you Christmas

570
00:31:04,160 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 1: Eve back? Never because he loves it so much or

571
00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:11,360
Speaker 1: because that would be giving you something? Because I believe

572
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: he deserves it too. And when we got divorced, I

573
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:16,920
Speaker 1: was like, you will never get a Christmas And he's like,

574
00:31:16,960 --> 00:31:19,360
Speaker 1: that's not fair, and I'm like it is and it

575
00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:23,880
Speaker 1: is fair actually, But actions that have gone consistence, Yeah,

576
00:31:24,040 --> 00:31:27,440
Speaker 1: I just yeah, we're going to figure something out though

577
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:31,920
Speaker 1: there has to be something, something magical can still exist.

578
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 1: You get them on Christmas Day, please DM me because

579
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:37,200
Speaker 1: I just don't know. I get them back Christmas Day

580
00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:41,360
Speaker 1: at noon. So what if what if you the minute

581
00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:45,400
Speaker 1: you get them, the cookies go up. What if he's

582
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:48,440
Speaker 1: still making his rounds. What if he hasn't just gotten

583
00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:51,440
Speaker 1: to this house yet? You get Dada's house in the morning,

584
00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:54,440
Speaker 1: but then he can the cookies go out at noon?

585
00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:58,960
Speaker 1: Can something happen? So like I pick up the kids? Yeah,

586
00:31:59,120 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 1: Like do you need do you need magic people to

587
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,000
Speaker 1: come to your Like? Can y'all go go somewhere and

588
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 1: when you come home, where'd we go on Christmas Day?

589
00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:09,040
Speaker 1: You want to go drive and look at lights or something.

590
00:32:09,080 --> 00:32:11,400
Speaker 1: And by the time you come home, your friends that

591
00:32:11,440 --> 00:32:13,160
Speaker 1: love you very much have been in here setting up

592
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:15,280
Speaker 1: the gifts that you have so appropriately wrapped in the

593
00:32:15,280 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 1: guest room closet. No that I'm going to hire someone

594
00:32:18,080 --> 00:32:19,840
Speaker 1: to wrap because I hate wrapping breaths. Oh I love

595
00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:22,280
Speaker 1: rapping presents. I wish we weren't. Okay. I love that

596
00:32:22,320 --> 00:32:23,840
Speaker 1: we have kids the same age, but sometimes I wish

597
00:32:23,880 --> 00:32:25,520
Speaker 1: they were just a little different because I feel like

598
00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:27,320
Speaker 1: we would be. We do so well married to each

599
00:32:27,360 --> 00:32:29,720
Speaker 1: other that like I'm like, oh, I got that, we're

600
00:32:29,760 --> 00:32:32,400
Speaker 1: just not in that season yet. I would do it

601
00:32:32,400 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 1: for you. But maybe just think about the paper wrapping presents.

602
00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:38,720
Speaker 1: Maybe you guys do your gifts, but the Santa gifts

603
00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:42,200
Speaker 1: don't come until after you look at Christmas lights. Maybe

604
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:44,120
Speaker 1: that's a very quick thing for me to do. I

605
00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:46,840
Speaker 1: can pop over. You are not coming over on Christmas.

606
00:32:46,880 --> 00:32:49,800
Speaker 1: But this is the magic of Christmas. Like that to me, see,

607
00:32:49,800 --> 00:32:52,640
Speaker 1: this is where none of this makes me feel resentful.

608
00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:57,320
Speaker 1: This is like preserving imagination, making it magical. Being like

609
00:32:57,520 --> 00:32:59,280
Speaker 1: remember the stories and we get to tell on their

610
00:32:59,280 --> 00:33:01,800
Speaker 1: wedding day sometime when Roman and Lyon marry each other.

611
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:06,080
Speaker 1: But like, well, Liyan tried to call me today, had

612
00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:10,000
Speaker 1: a fun dial She called Ashley. Woldn't do it? Somebody

613
00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:14,000
Speaker 1: was going hello, I was like, what has she done?

614
00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:16,120
Speaker 1: But that, I mean, I feel like that is such

615
00:33:16,120 --> 00:33:20,000
Speaker 1: a cool that would be easy pop over And when

616
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:21,920
Speaker 1: you guys get back from looking at Christmas lights, maybe

617
00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:25,840
Speaker 1: there's hot cocoa And sorry I was late, xo XO.

618
00:33:26,600 --> 00:33:31,640
Speaker 1: Just the Santa gifts? That's cute. Actually, did we just

619
00:33:31,680 --> 00:33:34,240
Speaker 1: save Christmas? I don't know. That's kind of cute, but

620
00:33:34,320 --> 00:33:36,800
Speaker 1: I'm never I would never want anyone to come do that. Okay,

621
00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,480
Speaker 1: if you took that out of it, does it sound

622
00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:42,080
Speaker 1: like a fun plan. It does, But let's see if

623
00:33:42,080 --> 00:33:45,680
Speaker 1: anyone else has any other idea. No ideas are better

624
00:33:45,680 --> 00:33:48,440
Speaker 1: than speaking of There's an article Mom details how she

625
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:50,560
Speaker 1: handles Christmas with eight kids and why they don't do

626
00:33:50,640 --> 00:33:53,400
Speaker 1: Santa Claus. Do they do in laws? Because that's my

627
00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:56,320
Speaker 1: biggest question. When she used to do Sanda my oldest

628
00:33:56,320 --> 00:33:57,960
Speaker 1: few kids were little, but as they grew and we

629
00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:00,800
Speaker 1: had more kids, we just felt convicted about trying to

630
00:34:00,800 --> 00:34:03,040
Speaker 1: give up the lie. We would lie and then we

631
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:05,000
Speaker 1: would have to lie again to cover up the lie.

632
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,240
Speaker 1: Put us in a bad position, and as Christians, we

633
00:34:07,280 --> 00:34:09,480
Speaker 1: wanted to make sure our kids had the right focus.

634
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Speaker 1: So I think that's what you're also, you know, talking

635
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Speaker 1: about the I kind of have the wrong focus, the

636
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:20,800
Speaker 1: focus of why there is Christmas, And yeah, you know, listen,

637
00:34:22,320 --> 00:34:25,960
Speaker 1: I've had to start making kind of like a little

638
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:28,239
Speaker 1: list in my head of the things that I am

639
00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:30,719
Speaker 1: so lucky to have in my in laws, because they're

640
00:34:30,760 --> 00:34:34,640
Speaker 1: really lovely people. They are. I think they just grew

641
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:38,160
Speaker 1: up in such a different generation and I think I

642
00:34:38,239 --> 00:34:43,399
Speaker 1: may have been spoiled before with like seeing how other

643
00:34:43,440 --> 00:34:46,600
Speaker 1: people do Christmas. I'll also say this, my grandmother was

644
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:50,600
Speaker 1: the glue of my family, and when she died, holidays stopped.

645
00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:55,799
Speaker 1: So I had to reframe the other day. This might

646
00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:58,279
Speaker 1: make me emotional. You won't be able to tell, because

647
00:34:58,320 --> 00:34:59,920
Speaker 1: I already sound like I've been crying this whole episode.

648
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:02,359
Speaker 1: But I had to reframe the other day. I got

649
00:35:02,360 --> 00:35:04,600
Speaker 1: really still because I was just feeling anxious and I

650
00:35:04,640 --> 00:35:07,880
Speaker 1: had just done a podcast talking about like protecting the

651
00:35:07,920 --> 00:35:12,080
Speaker 1: Prince of Peace, like at all costs, And I thought,

652
00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:16,799
Speaker 1: what if I'm the glue, and so I need to

653
00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:19,239
Speaker 1: anchor in the glue, Like what if the person I

654
00:35:19,280 --> 00:35:22,239
Speaker 1: loved the most because she was just my person, what

655
00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:24,480
Speaker 1: if I'm more like her than I was realizing in

656
00:35:24,520 --> 00:35:26,399
Speaker 1: the way that I'm willing to have them come over.

657
00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 1: I think there's some fundamental differences in that, Like when

658
00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:32,040
Speaker 1: we were growing up and this may I'm sure this

659
00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:33,600
Speaker 1: is the same for you, but like aunts and uncles,

660
00:35:33,600 --> 00:35:36,719
Speaker 1: everybody brought something, so just felt like a little bit

661
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:38,640
Speaker 1: less of a load. And I think that's where I

662
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:43,120
Speaker 1: get things just start to feel a little like heavy

663
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:45,480
Speaker 1: for me, is I'm like, okay, I have to feed everyone,

664
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Speaker 1: and I've got these kids, you know, like and Preson's

665
00:35:49,040 --> 00:35:50,880
Speaker 1: usually not home, so I'm just cheering the time. But

666
00:35:51,160 --> 00:35:54,120
Speaker 1: if I'm the glue, that helps me change my perspective

667
00:35:54,120 --> 00:35:55,760
Speaker 1: a little bit, and it makes me feel a little

668
00:35:56,360 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 1: like we have a warmhouse, we have all these things,

669
00:35:58,600 --> 00:36:01,560
Speaker 1: we can do it for them. They are thankful I

670
00:36:01,560 --> 00:36:03,120
Speaker 1: don't have the mother in law that comes over and

671
00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:05,279
Speaker 1: like runs a white glove test over my you know,

672
00:36:05,280 --> 00:36:07,759
Speaker 1: to see if it's dusty like she she's so they're

673
00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:11,719
Speaker 1: so grateful. Yeah, so I just need to, Like I

674
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:14,759
Speaker 1: one of my toxic traits I'm trying to leave in

675
00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:20,359
Speaker 1: this year is I'm really good at over analyzing where

676
00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:22,960
Speaker 1: the bottom can fall out because of the way I

677
00:36:23,000 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 1: grew up, and so I prepare myself for that. But

678
00:36:25,640 --> 00:36:27,239
Speaker 1: in that it kind of snuck into all these little

679
00:36:27,239 --> 00:36:29,359
Speaker 1: nooks and crannies in my life where I, like, will

680
00:36:29,400 --> 00:36:32,440
Speaker 1: find the thing that isn't great about something too, and

681
00:36:32,440 --> 00:36:34,640
Speaker 1: then I kind of hyper focus this is not hot,

682
00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:38,120
Speaker 1: I know. So I'm just trying to go like, Okay,

683
00:36:38,120 --> 00:36:40,440
Speaker 1: but if I didn't focus on that, here's all these

684
00:36:40,440 --> 00:36:44,359
Speaker 1: great things about these people, and we can try that

685
00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 1: on after ten years and sea and that's the solutions.

686
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:50,600
Speaker 1: I like it. You're trying, you know, you're you're the grandma,

687
00:36:50,840 --> 00:36:55,600
Speaker 1: you know, like you're the glue. You're embodying the beauty

688
00:36:55,640 --> 00:36:59,680
Speaker 1: of what she was for you. Yeah. I think that's beautiful. Okay,

689
00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:03,279
Speaker 1: see if it works, tune back in to find out, well,

690
00:37:03,280 --> 00:37:06,440
Speaker 1: that is all the hot topics that I feel comfortable

691
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:10,600
Speaker 1: to think, because there are some out there whoa the

692
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:15,480
Speaker 1: world that's crazy like that I don't even know enough

693
00:37:15,520 --> 00:37:17,160
Speaker 1: about to be honest with you, like, I don't think

694
00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:20,799
Speaker 1: the world. Turn on the news and I'll see the

695
00:37:20,880 --> 00:37:26,399
Speaker 1: jay Z things, I'll see the Luigi Luigi and I'm

696
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:30,600
Speaker 1: just like, my only question with that is we know

697
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:32,640
Speaker 1: so much about this person, but yet some of the

698
00:37:32,680 --> 00:37:37,160
Speaker 1: other people we still don't have information on and why.

699
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Speaker 1: I just I'm just, I am just I don't understand

700
00:37:40,560 --> 00:37:44,560
Speaker 1: it all. I started watching Black Doves. Have you watched it? No?

701
00:37:44,680 --> 00:37:46,279
Speaker 1: But it's on my list? Oh, it needs to be

702
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:48,520
Speaker 1: on your list, Rest and fall asleep, And I kept going,

703
00:37:48,560 --> 00:37:51,080
Speaker 1: that's the rule. I broke the rule. Okay, and it

704
00:37:51,120 --> 00:37:53,440
Speaker 1: reminds me a lot of this, Like you think you know,

705
00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:55,480
Speaker 1: but you have no idea. Yeah, yeah, Like I just

706
00:37:55,480 --> 00:37:59,239
Speaker 1: feel like there's so much more and yeah, but I again,

707
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Speaker 1: I don't even want to get into it because I

708
00:38:00,640 --> 00:38:04,120
Speaker 1: have no idea. Literally, I just follow my one account

709
00:38:04,239 --> 00:38:06,520
Speaker 1: that I love that I will not share because I

710
00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:08,800
Speaker 1: have one account too. She seems right down the carl

711
00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:14,080
Speaker 1: and I like her. Yeah, yeah, yeah, anyways, and that's

712
00:38:14,160 --> 00:38:16,359
Speaker 1: us not talking about those hot topics. She's a house

713
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Speaker 1: and a habit. I don't know. Oh, mine's a smart

714
00:38:19,280 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: her news Okay, have you ever seen her? No, she's

715
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:27,520
Speaker 1: really great. She's a retired news reporter. She took herself

716
00:38:27,520 --> 00:38:29,080
Speaker 1: out of the game because she just felt like it

717
00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:31,359
Speaker 1: was not it's down the middle as it needed to be,

718
00:38:32,640 --> 00:38:36,480
Speaker 1: and you could literally be like she she is right

719
00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:40,160
Speaker 1: down the middle. It's actually what news is supposed to be.

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Speaker 1: I would love the Nay, I'm gonna have to. I

721
00:38:41,760 --> 00:38:43,560
Speaker 1: like following counts like that. You'll like her a lot,

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00:38:43,600 --> 00:38:50,160
Speaker 1: I think, well, on that point, on that news, on

723
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Speaker 1: that news, I'm gonna go wrap some presents. See you

724
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Speaker 1: next week. I love you. Bye bye,