WEBVTT - HOW DO YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOT DEAD??? 0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:04.200 How from Scott Scott? 0:00:05.200 --> 0:00:06.320 Yeah, dude, what's up? 0:00:07.200 --> 0:00:08.320 How old are you? Scott? 0:00:08.920 --> 0:00:13.160 I mean thirty something? Bough you're what thirty something? 0:00:13.960 --> 0:00:16.840 That's cool. Do you like your life? 0:00:17.640 --> 0:00:19.360 Yeah, well that's very cool, you know what I mean. 0:00:19.720 --> 0:00:21.840 I'm on vacation right now, so that's pretty sweet. 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:28.960 Where are you on vacation? Rye, New Hampshire, Rye, New 0:00:29.000 --> 0:00:34.640 Hampshire Beach, New Hampshire. Why did you go to vacation 0:00:34.800 --> 0:00:35.800 in New Hampshire? 0:00:37.320 --> 0:00:39.600 My family lives up here and my kids have never 0:00:39.680 --> 0:00:41.120 met them, so I took them up here. 0:00:43.000 --> 0:00:47.680 Do you like your family? No, this doesn't sound like 0:00:47.760 --> 0:00:48.519 much of a vacation. 0:00:49.440 --> 0:00:51.600 It's a vacation with my kids. My kids they're happy. 0:00:52.000 --> 0:00:54.200 You know, we're from the Midwest. I never seeing the 0:00:54.440 --> 0:00:57.960 freaking beach before, so they got to see the beach. 0:01:00.320 --> 0:01:02.800 But a lot of childhood trauma for me is coming 0:01:02.840 --> 0:01:07.080 back because I'm with my family and that whole bit. 0:01:07.280 --> 0:01:09.040 But I'll call my therapist when I get home. 0:01:09.080 --> 0:01:09.640 I'll deal, right. 0:01:10.160 --> 0:01:12.320 So a lot of you say a lot of childhood 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:16.319 trauma has come to you because you've gotten back with 0:01:16.360 --> 0:01:16.959 your family. 0:01:17.520 --> 0:01:20.680 Oh yeah, big time? All right, So if you're tell 0:01:20.800 --> 0:01:24.039 about it, it's pretty funny, like, and I got to like, 0:01:24.959 --> 0:01:26.800 I kind of got full circle on some of it. 0:01:27.720 --> 0:01:29.240 Yeah, I kind of, I kind of do want to 0:01:29.240 --> 0:01:31.000 hear about it. Cool, because it's just what I'm curious 0:01:31.000 --> 0:01:35.240 about is if your family was traumatic for you, are 0:01:35.240 --> 0:01:39.160 you not afraid of getting your your children inheriting some 0:01:39.200 --> 0:01:41.520 sort of grand trauma. 0:01:42.720 --> 0:01:43.000 Yeah? 0:01:43.160 --> 0:01:44.960 Actually I realized that today in the car. 0:01:46.760 --> 0:01:47.960 All right, tell me what happens. 0:01:48.840 --> 0:01:51.360 So when I was a kid, me and all my brothers, right, 0:01:51.560 --> 0:01:54.920 like my mother's m O was, she'd get us into 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:57.200 the car and then pick a fight with us, right 0:01:57.360 --> 0:02:01.240 and then when we you know, bought that or did whatever, 0:02:01.400 --> 0:02:03.560 basically she'd pull over and yell at us and say, 0:02:03.560 --> 0:02:04.680 all right, get out of the car. 0:02:05.320 --> 0:02:05.559 Right. 0:02:06.200 --> 0:02:09.200 So now she's like in her sixties or whatever, and 0:02:10.280 --> 0:02:12.840 like we're driving down the road and you know, she's 0:02:12.880 --> 0:02:16.640 she's like basically picking a fight with me again. You know, 0:02:16.760 --> 0:02:18.720 so I got to pull over and be like, all right, mom, 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:19.480 get out of the car. 0:02:20.440 --> 0:02:24.959 Hell, yeah, you you flipped a switch on her. 0:02:25.000 --> 0:02:26.000 Dude, I flipped the script. 0:02:27.400 --> 0:02:27.839 Mm hmm. 0:02:28.639 --> 0:02:29.280 But where the fire? 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:32.680 I mean salt? Yeah, yeah, it feelt awesome, but you know, 0:02:32.720 --> 0:02:34.400 we're in Saltwater Caafy. 0:02:36.280 --> 0:02:36.600 Beach. 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:39.280 It's fun, it's miserable. 0:02:40.440 --> 0:02:45.120 I remember one time my uncle did the same thing 0:02:45.240 --> 0:02:48.520 to me where I was like fighting with my sister 0:02:49.720 --> 0:02:52.959 and we were in his car and he he made 0:02:53.000 --> 0:02:55.040 he pulled over on the side of the road and 0:02:55.120 --> 0:02:58.760 made me stand and and uh, get out on There's 0:02:58.760 --> 0:03:01.040 a big rock on the side of the road, like 0:03:01.040 --> 0:03:03.560 a big boulder, and he made me stand on the 0:03:03.600 --> 0:03:07.720 boulder and wait for wait, continue And I told him 0:03:07.760 --> 0:03:09.760 I had to pee, but he wouldn't let me. He 0:03:09.800 --> 0:03:12.120 wouldn't let me go pee, so I ended up piecing 0:03:12.200 --> 0:03:14.400 my pants all over this Bowlder. 0:03:14.080 --> 0:03:17.240 Jesus Christy, That's see, that's childhood. Try on me right there, dude. 0:03:17.760 --> 0:03:19.359 Yeah, that's why. That's why. I mean, that's why I'm 0:03:19.360 --> 0:03:20.560 not going to go visit him anymore. 0:03:20.560 --> 0:03:20.840 I don't know. 0:03:20.840 --> 0:03:22.840 I don't I don't know. I don't understand your your 0:03:23.200 --> 0:03:26.640 strategy of bringing your child back to the source. 0:03:27.240 --> 0:03:29.200 I mean, they have a really nice beach house. Like 0:03:29.240 --> 0:03:32.520 my mom is all right, and she has a like 0:03:32.800 --> 0:03:34.640 as far as money's concerned, so she has kind of 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:35.840 a beach house situation. 0:03:37.680 --> 0:03:41.000 So you're so you're willing to forget you. 0:03:42.960 --> 0:03:43.800 No, neither. 0:03:44.200 --> 0:03:46.680 Never forgive, never forget all the grudge for as long 0:03:46.720 --> 0:03:48.360 as you can. But you know, if they got a 0:03:48.400 --> 0:03:51.400 beach house, as if a beach house unless there's a 0:03:51.440 --> 0:03:54.280 beach house involved, and you know, like I might be 0:03:54.320 --> 0:03:56.520 having a miserable time, but it's really not about me. 0:03:56.680 --> 0:03:58.800 I mean, my kids are having a great time. They've 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:02.560 never met their cousins. For Jesus Christ, it's been forever 0:04:02.600 --> 0:04:04.920 they of them met their cousins. But you know, now 0:04:04.920 --> 0:04:06.800 they met them and they're all having a blast together. 0:04:06.920 --> 0:04:07.560 So that's cool. 0:04:08.600 --> 0:04:11.720 Well, man, look, you're you're you're a good father. I 0:04:11.760 --> 0:04:14.680 always every time I see you know, like if I 0:04:14.680 --> 0:04:17.159 go to Disney World or a theme park or something 0:04:17.160 --> 0:04:20.440 and I see the miserable adults with the happy kids, 0:04:20.440 --> 0:04:24.680 I'm like, you know, props to them, drops to them, 0:04:25.120 --> 0:04:26.719 or sticking it outs for the kids. 0:04:27.279 --> 0:04:30.799 Shut Hey, dude, Father's Day, its Father's It's Father's Day weekend, 0:04:30.880 --> 0:04:33.360 you know what I'm saying, So like shout out to 0:04:33.400 --> 0:04:33.880 the dads. 0:04:33.920 --> 0:04:36.520 Dude, Maybe your kids will give you a card with 0:04:36.960 --> 0:04:42.039 money in it, maybe obvious feet or like you know, 0:04:42.960 --> 0:04:45.040 a stick of gum or something like that. 0:04:45.080 --> 0:04:48.920 At least something, dude, I mean, you know, their smiles 0:04:48.960 --> 0:04:51.920 is gifted enough, you know, like I got the pictures 0:04:51.960 --> 0:04:55.400 and video of them and by the ocean, they're making memories. 0:04:55.480 --> 0:04:57.680 They'll always remember me pulling over to the side of 0:04:57.680 --> 0:04:59.080 the road and saying, all right, mom, get out of 0:04:59.080 --> 0:05:02.360 the car going into that. Hopefully it won't be traumatic, 0:05:02.440 --> 0:05:03.640 but you know whatever. 0:05:04.640 --> 0:05:07.200 Well, hell yeah, we you say your name was Scott. 0:05:07.760 --> 0:05:08.840 Thank you for sharing Scott. 0:05:09.240 --> 0:05:10.919 Yep, have a good night, you guys Bank. 0:05:10.920 --> 0:05:16.480 You too, never goes on the line taking your phone 0:05:16.560 --> 0:05:20.480 calls every night, never goes to XI. I was teaching 0:05:20.520 --> 0:05:24.520 you about your life. Body's not really expert. 0:05:29.480 --> 0:05:33.520 All from Joshua Joshua. 0:05:34.000 --> 0:05:37.839 Hello, hey, hey man, how's it going. 0:05:38.560 --> 0:05:40.479 How old are you? Joshua? 0:05:41.320 --> 0:05:41.960 Twenty three? 0:05:42.839 --> 0:05:44.480 You're twenty three? 0:05:44.720 --> 0:05:45.600 Yeah? 0:05:45.680 --> 0:05:51.680 I'm twenty three? Really twenty three thousands? 0:05:53.000 --> 0:05:53.800 That's pretty cool. 0:05:54.800 --> 0:05:55.920 Do you like being twenty three? 0:05:57.800 --> 0:05:58.400 Not right now? 0:05:58.520 --> 0:05:58.960 Honestly? 0:06:01.440 --> 0:06:05.440 Well, I woke up from a coma about six months ago. 0:06:08.680 --> 0:06:13.400 Really so yeah, I woke up from a coma six 0:06:13.440 --> 0:06:13.960 months ago. 0:06:15.120 --> 0:06:17.080 Yeah, I was in a coma for about a year. 0:06:17.360 --> 0:06:21.760 Woke up and six months ago and just trying to 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:22.440 figure shit out. 0:06:22.480 --> 0:06:28.839 I guess how did you get into a coma. 0:06:28.960 --> 0:06:32.440 So I was hunting with one of my friends and 0:06:32.480 --> 0:06:34.560 I got shot in the back of the head, and 0:06:36.200 --> 0:06:39.200 that's basically what they told me happened. I don't really 0:06:39.200 --> 0:06:45.239 remember anything before the tree stand, so I'm just going 0:06:45.240 --> 0:06:46.320 off what everyone else said. 0:06:47.000 --> 0:06:49.279 You were shot in the back of the head. 0:06:51.000 --> 0:06:53.320 From what they said, that bullet entry was from the 0:06:53.360 --> 0:07:08.120 back of the head, So yeah. 0:07:02.560 --> 0:07:03.680 Who shot you? 0:07:06.279 --> 0:07:09.640 Well, it's kind of crazy. It was one of my friends. 0:07:10.040 --> 0:07:13.760 I didn't know about it, honestly. For a while, everyone 0:07:13.800 --> 0:07:15.760 said it was an accident, or at least that's what 0:07:15.800 --> 0:07:16.360 I was told. 0:07:17.760 --> 0:07:18.679 But about a week. 0:07:18.520 --> 0:07:20.480 Ago, I was playing baseball with my little brother and 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:23.560 I hit my head pretty hard, and a couple days ago, 0:07:23.680 --> 0:07:26.520 I was like, stuff's been coming back to me a 0:07:26.560 --> 0:07:28.800 little bit, and I'm starting to think it. 0:07:28.720 --> 0:07:31.440 Wasn't an accident, really. 0:07:32.480 --> 0:07:34.960 Yeah, because I remember me and my friend were arguing 0:07:35.040 --> 0:07:37.160 about the hunting spot we were going to go to, 0:07:37.440 --> 0:07:40.040 and I told him that I knew this one place 0:07:40.040 --> 0:07:42.240 that my grandpa used to take me and he was 0:07:42.240 --> 0:07:46.000 like completely against it, and like we were arguing real bad, 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:48.240 and like that's all I really remember. 0:07:49.800 --> 0:07:50.160 Before. 0:07:50.600 --> 0:07:54.840 But that doesn't okay, But which hunting spot to go 0:07:54.880 --> 0:08:01.240 to doesn't sound to me, like, you know, the the 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:05.280 scale of an argument that would end in your friend 0:08:05.400 --> 0:08:08.800 shooting you in the back of the heads. Yeah, but 0:08:09.080 --> 0:08:11.560 like that would be a little petty. I'd say. 0:08:11.640 --> 0:08:14.520 We've we've been arguing for a while now though, because 0:08:14.840 --> 0:08:18.040 I've been dating his sister and he wasn't really too 0:08:18.080 --> 0:08:22.560 happy about it, and then like I'm pretty sure there 0:08:22.600 --> 0:08:26.360 was more intentions behind it. I just remember arguing before 0:08:27.360 --> 0:08:29.239 you know, everything just kind of went black. 0:08:30.880 --> 0:08:33.800 M So, you were dating his sister, you think of 0:08:33.880 --> 0:08:34.920 that made him upset. 0:08:36.160 --> 0:08:38.600 I'm thinking it because I remember he wasn't too happy 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:42.400 about it, but like he told me and his sister, 0:08:42.440 --> 0:08:45.720 he was okay with it, but he started he's been 0:08:45.760 --> 0:08:50.680 treating me differently, like before the accident, and then he 0:08:50.800 --> 0:08:52.640 just randomly was like, hey, you want to go hunting, 0:08:52.640 --> 0:08:57.000 and I'm like, yeah, sure, And all I remember is him, 0:08:57.040 --> 0:08:59.920 like him being determined on going to a specific spot 0:09:00.040 --> 0:09:02.720 and I was like, no, I know a different spot, 0:09:02.800 --> 0:09:04.760 and then we ended up going to where he wanted to, 0:09:04.920 --> 0:09:07.840 and then I don't really remember much after that, and 0:09:07.960 --> 0:09:10.320 like for a while I didn't remember how it happened. 0:09:10.800 --> 0:09:12.920 But like I said, I hit my head pretty bad, 0:09:13.040 --> 0:09:15.600 and it's starting to come back to me, and like 0:09:15.640 --> 0:09:18.640 I've been hanging out with him and stuff, but like I'm. 0:09:18.520 --> 0:09:23.720 Starting to read this account of the story. What what's 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:27.040 his account of the story. What does he happened? 0:09:27.600 --> 0:09:32.600 Well, he said that he was trying to shoot a buck, 0:09:33.120 --> 0:09:35.840 and I just like he's the way he explained it is, 0:09:35.920 --> 0:09:39.800 I got in the way and it was an accident. 0:09:40.360 --> 0:09:43.840 But I'm starting to think it wasn't an accident because 0:09:44.800 --> 0:09:47.439 like he was in front of me last the last 0:09:47.559 --> 0:09:49.840 I remember, he was in front of me. So I'm 0:09:49.840 --> 0:09:51.959 trying to I've been trying to figure out for the 0:09:52.000 --> 0:09:55.079 past few days how he would manage to get behind me. 0:09:55.240 --> 0:09:57.439 Like I've sort of just accepted what people have been 0:09:57.440 --> 0:10:00.520 telling me, you know, because I'm trying to get back 0:10:00.520 --> 0:10:03.280 the past six months and like catch up on everything, 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:05.520 and like now now that I've had some time to 0:10:05.520 --> 0:10:08.559 sit and think about it, and I just it doesn't 0:10:08.559 --> 0:10:11.840 sit right with me. And like he's been acting like 0:10:11.920 --> 0:10:14.319 he's like I don't know if it's just because he's 0:10:14.320 --> 0:10:17.240 happy that I'm alive or what, but he's been acting 0:10:17.320 --> 0:10:20.480 like apologetic a little bit. He's like he's always buying me. 0:10:21.440 --> 0:10:24.160 Yeah, he's been acting apologetic. He shot you in the 0:10:24.160 --> 0:10:26.080 back of the heads, I. 0:10:26.040 --> 0:10:28.200 Know, but he's been like he's been buying me stuff, 0:10:28.400 --> 0:10:31.240 and like he's been he keeps asking me like, hey. 0:10:31.200 --> 0:10:32.160 Do you remember anything? 0:10:32.240 --> 0:10:33.240 Do you remember anything? 0:10:33.800 --> 0:10:35.880 As well? 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:39.560 He just keeps asking me if I remember anything from 0:10:39.559 --> 0:10:41.680 that day, and like every time I tell him I 0:10:41.679 --> 0:10:44.040 don't know, he just he's persistent. He's like, are you 0:10:44.160 --> 0:10:47.520 sure you don't? Are you sure you don't remember? And 0:10:47.600 --> 0:10:52.440 like it is like at first exactly because at first 0:10:52.559 --> 0:10:54.520 I was just like, oh, he just wants to make 0:10:54.559 --> 0:10:57.360 sure I'm okay and that like my brain's not fucked. 0:10:57.720 --> 0:11:01.200 But I've noticed like he's been the little little weird 0:11:01.240 --> 0:11:03.959 about it, and like I've slowly been giving him hints 0:11:04.000 --> 0:11:08.000 that I've known, and he's been like like, like, for instance, 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:10.960 yesterday he was like, hey, anything come back yet, And 0:11:11.000 --> 0:11:13.240 I was like, yeah, where are we arguing? And he 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:15.440 kind of got a little nervous, like I could tell 0:11:15.440 --> 0:11:16.000 by his voice. 0:11:16.000 --> 0:11:17.719 He was like, oh uh yeah, yeah, but. 0:11:17.720 --> 0:11:18.680 We got over that. 0:11:18.679 --> 0:11:20.520 That's that's nothing. Like he kind of blew it. 0:11:20.480 --> 0:11:21.320 Off pretty quick. 0:11:21.559 --> 0:11:25.400 Are you planning on? I mean, look, have you like 0:11:25.480 --> 0:11:28.520 tried to press charges against him or something like that. 0:11:29.840 --> 0:11:32.520 Well, I think I would need like actual proof that 0:11:32.559 --> 0:11:36.000 he'd like it was intentional and stuff for me to 0:11:36.080 --> 0:11:37.880 do something like that. I don't think I could just 0:11:37.880 --> 0:11:39.679 be like, hey, I think it was on purpose. 0:11:40.200 --> 0:11:44.520 Because okay, so you you you sort of you think 0:11:44.559 --> 0:11:47.360 that this might have been on purpose. Who else have 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:50.000 you talked to about this? 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:52.600 Nobody so far? 0:11:52.840 --> 0:11:55.520 Like I told my mom, you haven't talked to like 0:11:55.600 --> 0:12:00.280 a lawyer or well, I've talked to my mom, Yeah, 0:12:00.960 --> 0:12:02.760 motherfucker or something like that. 0:12:03.720 --> 0:12:05.800 Well, I've talked to my mom about it, like a 0:12:05.840 --> 0:12:08.000 little bit. I told her. I was like, hey, I'm 0:12:08.040 --> 0:12:09.880 starting to remember a little bit more. And she's been 0:12:09.920 --> 0:12:11.599 asking me about it, and I've been telling her a 0:12:11.640 --> 0:12:14.880 little bit, and all she's like, and she seems like 0:12:15.000 --> 0:12:17.480 she's been telling me to just like not tell nobody 0:12:18.000 --> 0:12:20.320 and to just wait for her to figure it out 0:12:20.360 --> 0:12:23.520 and she'll and she'll let me know, you know, what 0:12:24.120 --> 0:12:27.640 we should do about it, because like she has a 0:12:27.679 --> 0:12:30.400 lot of money. You know, my family's kind of wealthy. 0:12:30.520 --> 0:12:33.679 I guess you can say so, Like, I don't know 0:12:34.640 --> 0:12:38.560 if she's contacting like lawyers or private investigator or what's 0:12:38.640 --> 0:12:41.920 going on? But like, I'm not really sure if I 0:12:41.960 --> 0:12:47.000 want to tell people yet, because everyone's been treating me like, like, 0:12:47.080 --> 0:12:47.839 I don't know. 0:12:47.880 --> 0:12:52.080 Different how you were in the comma for you said 0:12:52.200 --> 0:12:57.920 what six months? Yeah, and well what do you do? 0:12:58.200 --> 0:12:59.079 What do you do now? 0:13:00.920 --> 0:13:03.240 Nothing? Really, I've been Uh, I've been going to a 0:13:03.280 --> 0:13:05.720 lot of therapy still And do you I. 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:07.319 Mean, do you talk about this in therapy? 0:13:08.880 --> 0:13:09.280 Uh? 0:13:10.000 --> 0:13:14.480 Not really, because I just feel like I don't want 0:13:14.480 --> 0:13:17.040 to blow anything out of proportion because if I'm wrong, 0:13:17.200 --> 0:13:20.160 then I'm falsely accusing a good friend of mine. Like 0:13:20.280 --> 0:13:23.240 I understand friends argue and that could just be like 0:13:23.360 --> 0:13:24.560 us arguing a little bit. 0:13:24.840 --> 0:13:27.880 But I don't want to But what like now I'm curious, 0:13:27.880 --> 0:13:30.880 But I'm curious, So why why are you? You know, 0:13:31.040 --> 0:13:35.520 if I'm hearing correctly, the only people you've told are me, 0:13:36.840 --> 0:13:43.000 an internet gecko who is a random guy, and your mom. 0:13:43.559 --> 0:13:48.400 Why would you not tell a therapist or if your 0:13:48.480 --> 0:13:52.640 family can afford a lawyer, because these are legitimate things. 0:13:52.640 --> 0:13:55.600 If you think, let me tell you. If you genuinely 0:13:55.679 --> 0:14:03.320 think that your friend intentionally shot in the head, you 0:14:03.360 --> 0:14:09.120 should tell this therapist who I assume you're talking to 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:12.560 to help you recover from the coma. You should tell 0:14:13.320 --> 0:14:16.400 a lawyer because they'll know. I mean, I don't know 0:14:16.400 --> 0:14:20.400 if they will, but they might know how to approach 0:14:21.040 --> 0:14:25.240 this situation. You should, you should, You should tell someone 0:14:25.280 --> 0:14:29.560 if you have a suspicion that your friend shot you. 0:14:29.560 --> 0:14:33.160 You know, Yeah, But I just I feel like if 0:14:33.200 --> 0:14:35.440 I do and then it turns out that it was 0:14:35.480 --> 0:14:38.760 an accident, then I'm losing my friend because I don't 0:14:38.760 --> 0:14:41.120 think like he would want to be friends with me 0:14:41.160 --> 0:14:42.880 after I accused him of something like that. 0:14:43.280 --> 0:14:46.320 You know what, I think, you know what your friend, well, 0:14:46.360 --> 0:14:48.880 either your friend shot you in the back of the head, 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:54.720 you know, uh, I think I think, you know, I 0:14:54.760 --> 0:14:56.760 would be nervous that my friend wouldn't want to be 0:14:56.760 --> 0:14:58.960 friends with him, wouldn't want to be friends with me 0:14:59.520 --> 0:15:02.680 after I did that. So, you know, I think that 0:15:02.720 --> 0:15:05.480 there's there's a little bit of of even ground to 0:15:05.520 --> 0:15:12.920 be made here. It's worth talking about to someone legitimate. 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:20.080 I think, yeah, I probably should have talked to somebody 0:15:20.120 --> 0:15:20.680 about it. 0:15:21.120 --> 0:15:22.720 Will you do that? Will you do that? Will you 0:15:22.720 --> 0:15:24.800 talk to your therapist and say, hey, I think that 0:15:24.880 --> 0:15:27.560 my friend shot me in the back of the face 0:15:28.000 --> 0:15:31.320 and you know, I don't know. This might be you know, 0:15:31.880 --> 0:15:35.000 a thing I could talk about in therapy. You know 0:15:35.520 --> 0:15:38.440 something I personally I think that's a legitimate thing to 0:15:38.480 --> 0:15:41.640 talk about in therapy. Is your friend is shooting you 0:15:41.680 --> 0:15:43.640 in the head in the middle of the woods. 0:15:44.800 --> 0:15:47.160 Yeah, I just I just concerned because like we've been 0:15:47.200 --> 0:15:50.360 friends since kindergarten and our families are really close. So 0:15:51.560 --> 0:15:55.080 like I'm not trying to ruin everything over just like 0:15:55.160 --> 0:15:59.720 a thought or like a conclusion that I've come to, 0:16:00.360 --> 0:16:04.040 because it could just be like me piece stuff together 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:06.320 still without the complete story. 0:16:06.080 --> 0:16:08.920 You know, sure, and and I get that, But that's 0:16:08.920 --> 0:16:10.880 why I think you should piece I mean, you don't 0:16:10.920 --> 0:16:14.600 have to go straight to your friends and accuse him, 0:16:14.920 --> 0:16:18.280 but you should talk it out with someone. 0:16:20.320 --> 0:16:22.200 Well that's what I call you. 0:16:22.280 --> 0:16:23.960 Oh, you should talk. I mean, you should talk it 0:16:23.960 --> 0:16:26.120 out with a professional. I don't know anything about how 0:16:26.160 --> 0:16:32.520 the brain works, but listen, what do you say? Your 0:16:32.560 --> 0:16:37.720 name was Joshua? Joshua. Look, Joshua. If I'll leave you 0:16:37.800 --> 0:16:41.520 with this, get a different hobby. What get get next? Here? Here? 0:16:41.600 --> 0:16:43.840 Here's here will be my actual Get a hobby that 0:16:43.880 --> 0:16:46.440 doesn't involve guns. If you can, you're what you said, 0:16:46.440 --> 0:16:50.480 you were wealthy? Play croquet? Do any other rich guy sport? 0:16:50.560 --> 0:16:54.600 Get into gulf? You know, any does anything that doesn't 0:16:54.600 --> 0:16:59.920 involve guns. I'm pro you doing. Do croque? Do fucking 0:17:00.800 --> 0:17:05.200 what's the thing? Racketball? Get a new hobby that that 0:17:05.200 --> 0:17:08.040 that won't involve you getting shot in the heads. That'll 0:17:08.080 --> 0:17:10.439 That'll be my final advice to go talk to your 0:17:10.520 --> 0:17:12.640 therapist about how you think your friend might have tried 0:17:12.640 --> 0:17:16.280 to kill you, and then learn how to play golf. 0:17:18.600 --> 0:17:21.440 All right, Before we do go, I just want to 0:17:21.480 --> 0:17:24.520 say that thank you for all the content you make 0:17:25.800 --> 0:17:29.120 going to physical therapy and watching your podcasts and everything. 0:17:29.160 --> 0:17:31.679 It's really helped me kind of keep saying. 0:17:32.400 --> 0:17:34.960 Thank you, man, I appreciate that. I'm glad to hear that. 0:17:36.040 --> 0:17:40.960 All right, Right, you have a good night man, you too. 0:17:42.040 --> 0:17:49.399 All From Mason Mason, oh Jick, Hello Mason, how are you? 0:17:50.000 --> 0:17:50.440 I'm good? 0:17:50.480 --> 0:17:50.800 How are you? 0:17:52.080 --> 0:17:52.680 Why are you good? 0:17:55.680 --> 0:17:56.880 I didn't expect to be here. 0:17:58.080 --> 0:17:59.440 I didn't expect you to be here either. 0:18:00.280 --> 0:18:02.920 Really, really, who are you expecting? 0:18:05.119 --> 0:18:07.399 I wasn't expecting anyone in particular, but I'll tell you 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:11.320 I was not expecting you. Okay, does that make sense? 0:18:11.960 --> 0:18:12.160 Yeah? 0:18:12.200 --> 0:18:15.720 I think, So, how old are you, Mason, I'm eighteen? 0:18:16.480 --> 0:18:17.120 You're eighteen? 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:21.880 Yeah, nineteen and a month little less, fifteen days ish? 0:18:22.080 --> 0:18:25.240 You What are you doing for your birthday? 0:18:26.760 --> 0:18:34.520 Waking up? Maybe taking a shower, don't help, think about 0:18:34.560 --> 0:18:36.080 it when I get there. Nothing special. 0:18:36.800 --> 0:18:43.320 The nineteenth birthday is not particularly special. Yeah, I mean 0:18:43.320 --> 0:18:44.960 it's the last year of your teens. 0:18:46.200 --> 0:18:48.200 Yeah, that's kind of weird, is it. 0:18:48.240 --> 0:18:50.520 Where are you are you? Do you feel old? 0:18:51.320 --> 0:18:51.520 No? 0:18:51.600 --> 0:18:52.040 Not yet. 0:18:52.160 --> 0:18:55.640 I think once you're like past twenty two, I feel 0:18:55.640 --> 0:18:59.440 like that's probably when stuff starts setting in, Like, Wow, 0:19:00.200 --> 0:19:03.840 my childhood is like genuinely over, like there's nothing left 0:19:03.840 --> 0:19:05.359 of it, you know. 0:19:06.160 --> 0:19:13.400 Yeah, it's weird though, because you know, childhood is nice, 0:19:13.680 --> 0:19:16.600 but I look at it with rose colored glasses. There's 0:19:16.600 --> 0:19:19.080 a lot of things about being a kid that suck. 0:19:21.119 --> 0:19:26.440 Right, But what about being a child sucks? 0:19:27.440 --> 0:19:30.800 Everyone tells you what to do. You have no agency 0:19:30.920 --> 0:19:35.919 over your life. You're you're I mean, if you're like eight, like, 0:19:36.080 --> 0:19:38.760 you don't know you have You're just uncomfortable all the time. 0:19:38.960 --> 0:19:39.760 You don't know who you. 0:19:39.800 --> 0:19:41.439 Are, right, Okay. 0:19:43.080 --> 0:19:45.919 You feel a lot more vulnerable to the opinions of 0:19:45.960 --> 0:19:48.199 other people because you haven't had time to form your 0:19:48.200 --> 0:19:49.400 own opinions. 0:19:49.920 --> 0:19:51.919 I feel like at the age of eight, it's not 0:19:52.720 --> 0:19:54.560 like you don't know what opinions are yet. 0:19:55.600 --> 0:19:57.520 Well, no, I mean you. I'm just talking about younger, 0:19:57.560 --> 0:20:00.480 you know. I'm like, you know, fourteen or fourteen or whatever. Yeah, 0:20:00.480 --> 0:20:03.800 I was fucking thirteen. I was. I was nervous as 0:20:03.840 --> 0:20:06.840 ship all right time. When I was in sixth grade, 0:20:06.880 --> 0:20:09.320 I was like, I don't want to draw any attention 0:20:09.440 --> 0:20:16.280 to myself whatsoever. Right, And now that I'm you know, 0:20:16.359 --> 0:20:21.720 forty seven, you know I'm a gecko on the. 0:20:21.720 --> 0:20:26.320 Computer, right right, Yeah, that's that's the life to be living, 0:20:26.320 --> 0:20:30.080 if I'm being honest. I mean, do you you obviously 0:20:30.200 --> 0:20:32.879 liked doing this enough to do it three times a. 0:20:32.880 --> 0:20:37.920 Week sometimes sometimes, Well, tonight's been a good night. Tonight, 0:20:37.960 --> 0:20:41.480 I'm feeling good. I was just saying this that some nights, 0:20:41.480 --> 0:20:42.560 some nights fucking suck. 0:20:43.240 --> 0:20:43.480 Yeah. 0:20:43.680 --> 0:20:47.080 Yeah, I mean, I doubt it's the easiest job, and 0:20:47.760 --> 0:20:49.080 I bet you get a lot of shit for it, 0:20:49.119 --> 0:20:51.520 but I feel like it's probably a good job once 0:20:51.520 --> 0:20:53.760 you have nights like these. I don't know which one 0:20:53.760 --> 0:20:56.800 outweighs up the other more, but it's. 0:20:56.640 --> 0:20:58.560 It's it's it's nice when we have good nights and 0:20:58.560 --> 0:21:00.879 and it only sucks when we go for a while 0:21:00.920 --> 0:21:05.040 without having uh good nights. But it's been a good night. 0:21:05.280 --> 0:21:08.840 I like this conversation. It was like a good back 0:21:08.880 --> 0:21:11.840 and forth here for like, I'm learning about you, you're 0:21:11.920 --> 0:21:12.679 learning about me. 0:21:13.520 --> 0:21:14.439 I like learning about you. 0:21:14.520 --> 0:21:18.200 Get that's very sweet. But I have this thing where 0:21:18.320 --> 0:21:21.679 you know, you've tricked me a little bit into talking 0:21:21.720 --> 0:21:25.200 too much because I have this philosophy. I already know 0:21:25.280 --> 0:21:27.800 everything about myself. Not one hundreds of true, but I 0:21:27.880 --> 0:21:30.680 know more about myself. I know way more about myself 0:21:30.760 --> 0:21:33.480 than I do about you. So I, you know, curious 0:21:33.520 --> 0:21:36.440 about you. You're nineteen, Are you in college? 0:21:37.359 --> 0:21:39.879 I'm taking a summer class right now. I actually had 0:21:39.920 --> 0:21:43.000 a unintentional gap year. 0:21:43.320 --> 0:21:46.480 So an unintentional gap year, what does that look like? 0:21:48.119 --> 0:21:54.239 So I was going to go into the navy, you know. 0:21:55.080 --> 0:22:00.440 So I left for basic and we had to quarantine 0:22:00.480 --> 0:22:05.199 for two weeks, and then thirty eight out of like 0:22:05.280 --> 0:22:08.000 forty people in my building got COVID, so we all 0:22:08.000 --> 0:22:09.800 had to stay there for another two weeks. So we 0:22:09.840 --> 0:22:15.399 were quarantined for a month. After that, I went to 0:22:16.160 --> 0:22:21.240 boot camp, for two weeks, and a lot of us 0:22:22.160 --> 0:22:26.040 just from like a month of inactivity couldn't really complete 0:22:26.320 --> 0:22:32.000 the physical tests that we could when we started. I 0:22:32.000 --> 0:22:35.440 guess I don't know how to explain that. I mean, 0:22:35.520 --> 0:22:39.680 I got lucky only having the quarantine for a month. 0:22:39.840 --> 0:22:42.960 When I was in Septs. The guy there were guys 0:22:42.960 --> 0:22:45.120 there that had been there since July of last year, 0:22:45.560 --> 0:22:48.880 and I was there in February, so they'd been there 0:22:48.880 --> 0:22:49.760 for almost seven months. 0:22:49.960 --> 0:22:51.919 Your ultimate goal, you want to join the Navy. 0:22:52.480 --> 0:22:54.680 No, not anymore. No, I'm just going to college. I'm 0:22:54.680 --> 0:22:59.240 going to get a business degree, probably like a marketing 0:23:00.400 --> 0:23:03.680 and then I want to work in real estate. 0:23:04.440 --> 0:23:06.080 And you want to work in real estate? 0:23:06.480 --> 0:23:08.680 Yeah, in Texas? 0:23:08.720 --> 0:23:11.240 Interesting like selling it. You want to be an agent? 0:23:11.280 --> 0:23:15.600 You want to own yeah? Yeah thing. Yeah, that's a 0:23:15.600 --> 0:23:17.479 good business from what I've heard about it. You can 0:23:17.480 --> 0:23:19.280 probably make a lot of money. You can probably work 0:23:19.280 --> 0:23:26.880 for yourself. Great, it's a good gig. And what now, 0:23:27.000 --> 0:23:28.919 let me ask you what drives you? Is it money? 0:23:29.480 --> 0:23:30.880 You want to have a lot of money. You want 0:23:30.880 --> 0:23:32.960 to have agency over yourself. 0:23:34.160 --> 0:23:39.560 Eventually, I just don't want a very repetitive job, you know, 0:23:39.600 --> 0:23:42.560 I want something where I could wake up every morning 0:23:42.760 --> 0:23:47.040 and have a different experience and not feel like I 0:23:47.119 --> 0:23:50.720 wake up every morning just slaving my life away to 0:23:50.760 --> 0:23:52.720 a job that I don't enjoy. 0:23:53.520 --> 0:23:56.200 You know, can I ask? And I don't know? You 0:23:56.240 --> 0:23:59.400 Actually you probably know more about fucking real estate than 0:23:59.440 --> 0:24:04.160 I do. Uh. What makes selling real estate in your opinion, 0:24:04.440 --> 0:24:08.240 a not repetitive job? Because I would think it sort 0:24:08.280 --> 0:24:10.600 of is you you know, you wake up every day 0:24:10.640 --> 0:24:12.000 you sell houses. 0:24:12.920 --> 0:24:14.480 Well that, but. 0:24:15.560 --> 0:24:18.800 Real estate is like, it's not a repetitive thing. And 0:24:19.000 --> 0:24:20.840 in terms of how often you have to do it, 0:24:20.880 --> 0:24:24.040 you could sell. If you're your own business, right and 0:24:24.400 --> 0:24:27.680 you sell three houses a year, you're already making more 0:24:27.720 --> 0:24:32.119 than what the average household income is for in the 0:24:32.200 --> 0:24:33.240 United States. 0:24:33.200 --> 0:24:35.480 Really, and for only fucking three houses. 0:24:35.920 --> 0:24:39.120 Yeah yeah, if if that's if you do work under yourself, 0:24:39.440 --> 0:24:41.800 If you work under other people, then I mean sometimes 0:24:41.840 --> 0:24:44.760 they'll give you like a commission bonus, but not always. 0:24:46.240 --> 0:24:48.200 But I mean, either way, have still decent money. 0:24:48.640 --> 0:24:51.280 I like the idea that you fucking sell three houses 0:24:51.320 --> 0:24:54.400 a year and then you fuck off to like shine. 0:24:54.400 --> 0:24:56.560 I'm not saying that I'm just going to fuck off, right, 0:24:56.640 --> 0:24:58.840 I'm like, obviously I'm gonna keep putting in work, and 0:24:59.480 --> 0:25:02.800 those things are like there's still year long projects where 0:25:02.840 --> 0:25:07.000 you're going to have to buy like a rundown I 0:25:07.000 --> 0:25:11.679 should he rundown piece of like a lot, right, and 0:25:11.720 --> 0:25:13.320 then you fix it up and then you're gonna sell 0:25:13.359 --> 0:25:15.320 it for almost double what you paid for. And that's 0:25:15.320 --> 0:25:16.879 what you're hoping for, is that you get more in 0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:17.399 your return. 0:25:17.520 --> 0:25:24.280 So right, well you're gonna you're gonna be you when 0:25:24.320 --> 0:25:26.560 you fix it up. You should add some flare to 0:25:26.600 --> 0:25:29.520 the houses. Man, if that's the thing, If you really wanna, 0:25:29.800 --> 0:25:31.400 if you really want to make this a creative job, 0:25:31.400 --> 0:25:33.879 you've got to be a special type of realtor person, 0:25:33.880 --> 0:25:37.600 all right. You gotta be like taking you know, houses 0:25:37.640 --> 0:25:41.479 in suburban neighborhoods and making them into arcades and ship. Right, 0:25:42.200 --> 0:25:47.000 you got to add pac man wallpaper and uh, I 0:25:47.040 --> 0:25:49.119 don't know, just get really fucky with it, you know, 0:25:49.280 --> 0:25:52.560 make that turn at a at a mirror room where 0:25:52.600 --> 0:25:57.040 all the walls are mirrors, something like that. I don't know. 0:25:57.359 --> 0:26:00.480 Do you get creative with the housing part. That's just 0:26:00.520 --> 0:26:07.960 a way to to to, you know, add some some 0:26:08.000 --> 0:26:11.560 flair to it, right, piss and ship all over the 0:26:11.600 --> 0:26:13.440 walls and go. This is a piss and ship house. 0:26:14.280 --> 0:26:18.960 Okay, okay, so yeah, I think that one would work. 0:26:18.960 --> 0:26:20.480 Honestly, the kid died in here. 0:26:21.359 --> 0:26:22.520 Yeah, I mean I. 0:26:22.440 --> 0:26:25.000 Think probably places with a little bit of history behind them. 0:26:25.119 --> 0:26:27.440 You know, absolutely, you're making a property. 0:26:27.520 --> 0:26:31.200 You have to be creative and you're storytelling because you're. 0:26:31.040 --> 0:26:34.280 Not always you can't get a piss and ship house 0:26:34.280 --> 0:26:38.560 anywhere off the street. That's a that's my specialty right there. 0:26:38.960 --> 0:26:39.159 You know. 0:26:39.320 --> 0:26:43.719 Look what your name was, Mason? Mason. I like your 0:26:43.800 --> 0:26:47.119 yes and mentality. I like your creativity. I I you know, 0:26:47.200 --> 0:26:49.640 I I buy a house. I'd buy a house from 0:26:49.640 --> 0:26:53.480 you if if I could afford one in in in 0:26:53.560 --> 0:26:56.000 the air in uh you know, if I could afford 0:26:56.040 --> 0:26:58.360 a piss and ship house. They probably run for millions 0:26:58.359 --> 0:27:01.359 of dollars. But if if, if you know, the market crashes, 0:27:01.400 --> 0:27:05.040 I'll be hitting you up. Okay, thank you so much 0:27:05.040 --> 0:27:06.199 for calling, man. You have good rest of the night. 0:27:06.600 --> 0:27:12.119 Yeah, YouTube gets Yeah, how from Hayden. 0:27:13.880 --> 0:27:14.320 Hayden? 0:27:16.040 --> 0:27:19.000 Wait, Oh shit, I'm actually on You're on the thing, dude. 0:27:19.720 --> 0:27:27.240 Oh nice? What's up? Wait? Hello? Can you hear me? 0:27:27.880 --> 0:27:28.520 I can hear you? 0:27:29.520 --> 0:27:35.840 Oh yeah, you're uh your thing said, like, do you 0:27:35.920 --> 0:27:42.080 know anyone? I called in because I actually don't know anyone. 0:27:42.920 --> 0:27:43.920 You don't know anyone? 0:27:44.720 --> 0:27:47.200 Yeah, I don't even know like a like a single person, dude, 0:27:47.359 --> 0:27:50.960 you know me? I mean I guess that's true, Like 0:27:51.000 --> 0:27:52.760 I know who you are, but like I don't, I 0:27:52.800 --> 0:27:56.200 don't know you, you know, but. 0:27:56.359 --> 0:27:59.720 I mean, but you know who I am? 0:27:59.760 --> 0:28:01.760 Well, I mean in that sense, I know, like who 0:28:01.800 --> 0:28:04.040 a lot of people are, right, Okay. 0:28:04.080 --> 0:28:06.600 Well, I don't think it's I don't think it's possible 0:28:06.600 --> 0:28:07.320 for you to not know. 0:28:07.320 --> 0:28:11.480 Anyone, not really, like I don't know anyone at all. 0:28:12.760 --> 0:28:17.280 I yes, I'm an orphan. I just I just grew up. 0:28:17.359 --> 0:28:23.000 I didn't have any parents or parental figures. I uh. 0:28:25.160 --> 0:28:28.480 I work like a like a night security job. It's 0:28:28.560 --> 0:28:35.000 just me. I don't see anyone. I drive home. No 0:28:35.040 --> 0:28:38.600 one's but me here. I don't think I've actually spoken 0:28:38.680 --> 0:28:43.280 to another person face to face for like probably about 0:28:43.320 --> 0:28:44.520 like two years. 0:28:45.760 --> 0:28:52.320 Really, yeah, are you well so you grew up with Nope, 0:28:52.320 --> 0:28:53.880 But I mean where did you grow up? Like what 0:28:53.960 --> 0:28:55.560 was your life like when you were ten? 0:28:56.560 --> 0:29:02.360 I just I just like there was no I just 0:29:02.400 --> 0:29:10.720 like started, you know, like that's it. No, school or anything. 0:29:10.960 --> 0:29:15.000 Just where did you when Okay when you were ten 0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:15.560 years old? 0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:20.440 And yeah, yeah I was. I was. I was working security, 0:29:20.560 --> 0:29:21.280 Like I said. 0:29:21.120 --> 0:29:23.400 Yeah, where do you sleep. 0:29:24.960 --> 0:29:25.480 In my bed? 0:29:26.560 --> 0:29:30.640 Okay? Where's you have? I have a it's like when 0:29:30.640 --> 0:29:32.280 you were ten years old? Like where did you. 0:29:32.240 --> 0:29:35.920 See at night? Well, like I said, like in my bed, 0:29:35.960 --> 0:29:38.000 you know, like I have like a I've got like 0:29:38.000 --> 0:29:40.200 I've got like a like a bed at a place 0:29:40.480 --> 0:29:41.160 I sleep on it. 0:29:45.680 --> 0:29:48.200 Who owned? Who pays for the place to exist? 0:29:49.560 --> 0:29:52.400 I don't have to pay for it. It's just I 0:29:52.440 --> 0:29:53.040 can just sleep. 0:29:53.040 --> 0:29:56.840 Say there's no one around, like the rates the facility, Hayden, 0:29:57.400 --> 0:29:57.640 I do. 0:29:58.000 --> 0:30:02.520 I'm the it's my be you know, all right, Hayden. 0:30:03.680 --> 0:30:08.120 Yeah, we're gonna where we can either talk like like 0:30:08.200 --> 0:30:12.400 you know, two people having a conversation where they speak words, 0:30:12.520 --> 0:30:13.560 or I'll hang up. 0:30:14.560 --> 0:30:20.920 Right, Okay, I understand. I don't pay rent if that's 0:30:20.920 --> 0:30:21.560 what you're asking. 0:30:24.680 --> 0:30:26.520 So what what is this place? 0:30:27.680 --> 0:30:30.440 It's just the bed. It's not like a place like 0:30:30.480 --> 0:30:33.760 it's just like the bed. Like I'm like the like 0:30:33.840 --> 0:30:37.520 outside you know, in the woods. 0:30:38.120 --> 0:30:42.920 Hayden. Yes, Hayden, who are you? Hayden? 0:30:44.640 --> 0:30:45.200 What do you mean? 0:30:46.040 --> 0:30:49.320 Hey, I need a Hayden. I want to move on 0:30:49.440 --> 0:30:52.560 so fast. I need a conversation with a human being 0:30:52.640 --> 0:30:55.600 right now about things that makes sense to me in 0:30:55.640 --> 0:30:55.960 my head. 0:30:56.080 --> 0:30:58.440 I know, I'm sorry, I really tried, but like this 0:30:58.560 --> 0:31:01.440 is actually my first Congress station with a human being. 0:31:01.480 --> 0:31:04.880 And like I mean I said, it was like two years. 0:31:04.640 --> 0:31:07.880 Right, probably tell me about two years ago. 0:31:08.600 --> 0:31:11.000 Yeah, two years ago. I remember it actually pretty clearly. 0:31:11.520 --> 0:31:11.840 Tell me. 0:31:12.040 --> 0:31:14.680 Yeah, the last person I had a conversation with, who 0:31:14.800 --> 0:31:17.400 was it? I ran out of toilet paper, so I 0:31:17.440 --> 0:31:21.120 went to the store to get some. Mhm, and uh 0:31:22.360 --> 0:31:25.400 it was the dude that the cash registry, you know. 0:31:25.600 --> 0:31:30.040 He was like, that's a lot of toilet paper. And 0:31:30.080 --> 0:31:32.840 I was like too nervous to say anything. Mm hmm. 0:31:36.840 --> 0:31:38.920 Well hello, I think my my phone. 0:31:39.520 --> 0:31:41.000 Hello, I'm here, I'm here. 0:31:41.640 --> 0:31:44.360 Oh, so. 0:31:46.440 --> 0:31:48.200 Okay, So you went to get toilet paper. 0:31:49.160 --> 0:31:54.880 Yeah, I got like a lot of So okay, are 0:31:54.880 --> 0:31:57.640 you like a legit you're like a legitimate like a gorphobic? 0:32:00.160 --> 0:32:09.360 I don't know what that means, Like like I'm like 0:32:09.400 --> 0:32:11.800 afraid of something, like I like a phobic part. I 0:32:11.840 --> 0:32:16.000 know that what is a gore? 0:32:19.280 --> 0:32:21.240 Like you know, like be afraid to leave the house. 0:32:22.400 --> 0:32:25.800 Oh well, I mean I don't have a half Boh, 0:32:26.840 --> 0:32:30.000 you don't have a house now, Like I said, it's 0:32:30.040 --> 0:32:32.160 like in the woods. 0:32:33.600 --> 0:32:36.360 You sleep in a bed in the middle of the woods. 0:32:36.920 --> 0:32:44.000 Yeah, and what's that like? I mean, it's it's kind 0:32:44.000 --> 0:32:48.280 of like it's it's kind of chow but I guess 0:32:48.280 --> 0:32:49.240 it could be kind of lonely. 0:32:51.640 --> 0:32:53.880 Is there a house over the woods or it is 0:32:53.920 --> 0:32:58.240 a bed in the middle of the woods with nothing. 0:32:57.960 --> 0:33:00.760 Else covering it's it's in the woods. I mean there's 0:33:00.760 --> 0:33:04.240 like woods around, so it's kind of like hidden from 0:33:04.280 --> 0:33:07.160 like view from outside of the woods. 0:33:07.240 --> 0:33:09.520 You know what I mean? Is there are there four 0:33:09.600 --> 0:33:10.960 walls surrounding the bed? 0:33:12.400 --> 0:33:12.680 No? 0:33:14.640 --> 0:33:15.680 Where are you right now? 0:33:17.280 --> 0:33:18.480 In the woods? 0:33:19.840 --> 0:33:20.120 Really? 0:33:21.960 --> 0:33:22.160 Yeah? 0:33:22.240 --> 0:33:23.240 How do you charge your phone? 0:33:25.200 --> 0:33:28.440 H I have a I have solar panels. You know. 0:33:30.240 --> 0:33:30.960 It's nighttime. 0:33:32.280 --> 0:33:34.520 Well, I mean it charges during the day and then 0:33:34.520 --> 0:33:35.400 I can use it at night. 0:33:38.200 --> 0:33:40.640 Can you yell as loud as you possibly can for me? 0:33:42.040 --> 0:33:46.200 Yeah? I don't wanna. I don't wanna, like i've you don't. 0:33:46.240 --> 0:33:48.720 I don't want to alert anyone to my presence in 0:33:48.760 --> 0:33:49.240 the woods. 0:33:49.280 --> 0:33:51.440 You know, there's no one around there in the middle 0:33:51.440 --> 0:33:52.320 of the woods. 0:33:53.760 --> 0:33:57.280 I mean it's we say, like in the middle. I 0:33:57.320 --> 0:34:03.160 mean it's I maybe I maybe towards the edge of 0:34:03.200 --> 0:34:03.800 the woods. 0:34:04.320 --> 0:34:05.800 I mean, you don't live with you live on the 0:34:05.880 --> 0:34:06.560 edge of the woods. 0:34:07.040 --> 0:34:10.040 I may not have been totally honest. It's I have 0:34:10.160 --> 0:34:10.840 been totally. 0:34:10.600 --> 0:34:11.160 Honest with me. 0:34:12.000 --> 0:34:13.720 Well, I'm now I'm being totally honest. 0:34:18.160 --> 0:34:19.520 I don't think you are Haydden. 0:34:21.640 --> 0:34:22.400 What do you mean. 0:34:24.120 --> 0:34:31.600 Hadn't I? Yes, just take your bed from the middle 0:34:31.600 --> 0:34:37.040 of the woods. And you said you work the night shop, right, Yeah, 0:34:37.680 --> 0:34:39.680 they do. They pay you money to do this job. 0:34:41.000 --> 0:34:42.640 Yeah, they're just Yeah, they should. 0:34:42.680 --> 0:34:47.200 You should take some of that money, rent an apartment 0:34:48.360 --> 0:34:51.800 or a house and put the bed in that house 0:34:52.000 --> 0:34:52.839 and then sleep there. 0:34:54.239 --> 0:34:54.680 Mm hmm. 0:34:57.239 --> 0:34:58.919 I'm not here to judge you and how you live, 0:34:59.040 --> 0:35:01.759 but I want you you to keep stay open to 0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:04.160 the possibility that that might be a happier existence for 0:35:04.200 --> 0:35:05.399 you than the one you currently live. 0:35:07.080 --> 0:35:15.040 Hm. Hm, I mean, I don't know. It's I feel 0:35:15.040 --> 0:35:15.879 like I'm doing all right. 0:35:17.160 --> 0:35:19.640 I think you are too. Thank you so much for 0:35:19.640 --> 0:35:20.200 calling hidden. 0:35:22.400 --> 0:35:26.400 Uh yeah, yeah, thanks thanks for having me on. Dude. 0:35:26.920 --> 0:35:32.200 Have a good rest tonight you too. Hey, folks, this 0:35:32.280 --> 0:35:35.000 is Lyle here with a very quick message just letting 0:35:35.040 --> 0:35:38.520 you know that this podcast does not have any advertising 0:35:38.520 --> 0:35:41.320 in it as of this very moment, but if you 0:35:41.320 --> 0:35:44.120 would like to support and make it easier for me 0:35:44.200 --> 0:35:47.719 to do more therapy Gecko in the future, you can 0:35:47.760 --> 0:35:51.080 head on over to patreon dot com slash lyle forever 0:35:51.600 --> 0:35:54.000 and for only five dollars you can make it a 0:35:54.040 --> 0:35:56.719 heck of a lot easier for me to put this 0:35:56.760 --> 0:36:01.400 whole shebang together. That is Patreon dot com, slash lyle forever. 0:36:01.520 --> 0:36:05.560 You also get access to exclusive streams, exclusive GAK content. 0:36:05.880 --> 0:36:09.280 You also get access to the exclusive gek Legends discord 0:36:09.600 --> 0:36:13.520 Patreon dot com slash lyle forever. All right, back to 0:36:13.560 --> 0:36:14.200 the calls. 0:36:14.680 --> 0:36:21.799 Call from Jen, Jen, Yes, how are you? 0:36:23.280 --> 0:36:23.800 I'm good? 0:36:24.280 --> 0:36:25.359 How are you? 0:36:25.360 --> 0:36:26.880 You seem you seem very excited. 0:36:27.840 --> 0:36:30.120 Oh my god, I've been trying to call in for 0:36:30.280 --> 0:36:31.959 like a year. 0:36:33.719 --> 0:36:35.279 Do you are? Do you leg you mean that like 0:36:35.280 --> 0:36:35.600 a year? 0:36:37.000 --> 0:36:39.120 Yeah, since like whenever you started. 0:36:39.960 --> 0:36:43.000 Started about a year ago. What's your what's your name? 0:36:43.040 --> 0:36:46.040 And chat? Am I allowed to? Are you allowed to say? 0:36:47.520 --> 0:36:47.560 No? 0:36:49.040 --> 0:36:50.960 I don't know. My husband's the one who's always in 0:36:51.000 --> 0:36:51.879 the chat, and I just. 0:36:51.880 --> 0:36:55.120 Call what's what can I know what his name is. 0:36:55.200 --> 0:36:56.400 I'm curious. 0:36:56.840 --> 0:36:57.319 I don't know. 0:36:58.080 --> 0:36:59.760 You could ask him. 0:37:00.360 --> 0:37:01.520 Have I spoken to your husband? 0:37:03.000 --> 0:37:05.920 No, this is the first time for both me and 0:37:05.960 --> 0:37:06.320 my husband. 0:37:06.320 --> 0:37:06.440 Hair. 0:37:06.480 --> 0:37:07.160 I'll give you to him. 0:37:07.239 --> 0:37:11.680 He's so really so you so you? Uh oh here, 0:37:11.760 --> 0:37:15.319 let's well, so you, how have you been trying to 0:37:15.320 --> 0:37:17.520 call in for a year? You haven't gotten in after 0:37:17.560 --> 0:37:19.279 calling in for a year? I feel like after a year. 0:37:20.560 --> 0:37:25.560 Yeah, well, I usually like we'll give up after a while. Yeah, 0:37:25.640 --> 0:37:27.560 I'll just do like fiing stuck and I'll just go asleep. 0:37:28.320 --> 0:37:30.640 Well, Jen, I mean, tell me everything, tell me nothing. 0:37:32.120 --> 0:37:35.080 Well, I don't know, it's just me. 0:37:36.000 --> 0:37:40.920 It's yes, let me ask you something. You've been watching 0:37:41.000 --> 0:37:44.880 this for a year? Yes, what I mean? What do 0:37:44.880 --> 0:37:47.480 you when you what do you like about the callers? 0:37:47.840 --> 0:37:49.360 When you when you like the callers? 0:37:52.400 --> 0:37:55.000 Some of them are very interesting stories. And I'm not 0:37:55.040 --> 0:37:57.360 going to be one of them. Like the guy who's 0:37:57.440 --> 0:38:00.560 like living on a cot in the middle of would. 0:38:05.680 --> 0:38:06.759 I have I have? 0:38:07.360 --> 0:38:08.200 I don't. 0:38:08.200 --> 0:38:10.240 I don't know what my own personal theory is about 0:38:10.239 --> 0:38:10.600 that one. 0:38:12.440 --> 0:38:17.640 He's probably full of shit, but he but. 0:38:17.640 --> 0:38:19.080 Even if he is full of shit, it's like, well, 0:38:19.120 --> 0:38:23.759 what's the what's the real story here? Because is he 0:38:24.160 --> 0:38:28.520 actually a gloraphobic? Like is he just fucking with Because 0:38:28.520 --> 0:38:33.280 when people are like, legit fucking with me, they don't 0:38:33.880 --> 0:38:35.960 there was something about that. I don't know. I don't know. 0:38:36.040 --> 0:38:37.399 I don't know what to make of it. 0:38:38.640 --> 0:38:41.799 Right, It's like are they in the witness protection program? 0:38:41.840 --> 0:38:44.520 Like who are they hiding from? Why do they may 0:38:44.640 --> 0:38:46.759 have to make these obscure stories. 0:38:48.760 --> 0:38:51.080 It's weird because I almost feel like if someone's fucking 0:38:51.120 --> 0:38:53.279 with me, if someone's like just there to fuck with me, 0:38:53.600 --> 0:38:59.000 they'll they would make something outlandish. I feel that wasn't 0:38:59.120 --> 0:39:03.040 that wasn't outland and crazy enough for me to be like, 0:39:03.080 --> 0:39:06.600 all right, this person's just gone, you know, making shit up. 0:39:07.719 --> 0:39:08.080 Yeah. 0:39:08.280 --> 0:39:13.560 I just usually at night, like my creativity level is 0:39:13.600 --> 0:39:16.399 just not there to be coming up with this outlandish 0:39:16.480 --> 0:39:20.080 and sane stuff. So apologies to everybody. 0:39:20.800 --> 0:39:23.080 You don't have to You don't have to apologize at all. 0:39:23.280 --> 0:39:26.080 You have nothing to be sorry for. I mean, I 0:39:26.080 --> 0:39:28.840 don't know, have you killed anyone? Have you murdered a person? 0:39:29.840 --> 0:39:31.400 I have not murdered a person. 0:39:32.000 --> 0:39:34.080 What would it take to get you to murder a person? 0:39:35.320 --> 0:39:39.840 Jesus anonymity for number one and a shit ton of money. 0:39:41.880 --> 0:39:44.680 That's that's it is. If someone paid you enough and 0:39:44.680 --> 0:39:46.040 you knew you to get away with it. That was 0:39:46.120 --> 0:39:50.680 not the answer. I was expecting, yes, expecting a more 0:39:50.719 --> 0:39:53.400 noble sort of answer of like they would have to no, 0:39:53.680 --> 0:40:00.160 you know, come across my child or whatever the fuck? Nope, 0:40:01.040 --> 0:40:04.000 how much money would it take? Realistically? 0:40:06.600 --> 0:40:09.840 I mean, I guess it's not as black and white 0:40:09.840 --> 0:40:12.200 as that. I guess when we start talking in details 0:40:12.239 --> 0:40:15.120 like well, who am I killing? What kind of person 0:40:15.239 --> 0:40:17.360 are they? Do they deserve it sort of thing? So 0:40:17.400 --> 0:40:21.160 if they like really deserve it, like Harvey Weinstein, then 0:40:21.239 --> 0:40:24.160 like shit, like give me like ten grand I'll be good. 0:40:24.760 --> 0:40:26.360 But if it's like really. 0:40:26.200 --> 0:40:29.800 A mom, yeah, if it's like a mom, like somebody 0:40:29.800 --> 0:40:33.560 who's living a good life, like I would probably feel 0:40:33.840 --> 0:40:35.759 terrible for the rest of my life if I did it. 0:40:35.840 --> 0:40:37.880 So we're talking like millions. 0:40:37.920 --> 0:40:39.800 Now do you support capital punishment? 0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:45.880 Well, I don't support the death penalty. I feel like 0:40:45.920 --> 0:40:51.239 people can be rehabilitated the capital punishment, Like, yeah, do. 0:40:51.239 --> 0:40:52.440 You support the death penalty? 0:40:53.239 --> 0:40:53.319 No? 0:40:55.080 --> 0:40:59.200 Wait, okay, so hold on, So but that doesn't make 0:40:59.239 --> 0:41:03.200 sense because if you, like, if you believe that no 0:41:03.239 --> 0:41:06.840 one should like like, okay, if you believe that, like 0:41:06.880 --> 0:41:11.399 a judge shouldn't be able to, in their judgment say 0:41:11.440 --> 0:41:14.200 that this person has done so horribly that they deserve 0:41:14.320 --> 0:41:18.480 to die, like how so? But how why? Because that's 0:41:18.520 --> 0:41:21.160 my thing because I couldn't do I don't know even 0:41:21.160 --> 0:41:23.440 if they were a really bad person. I don't know 0:41:23.440 --> 0:41:25.680 if I could be like, this person deserves to die. 0:41:25.719 --> 0:41:27.840 I don't know if I could make that decision that 0:41:27.920 --> 0:41:30.800 I think this person deserves to die. 0:41:31.080 --> 0:41:33.280 Well, I mean I think that, like once we start 0:41:33.440 --> 0:41:38.239 talking about like legality and like interpreting law is to 0:41:38.280 --> 0:41:41.239 say that, yes, this person did something so egregious that 0:41:41.280 --> 0:41:44.759 they should no longer walk this earth. I think that. 0:41:44.960 --> 0:41:47.080 I mean, we're talking about two different things here, Like 0:41:47.440 --> 0:41:48.719 number one, we're talking about me. 0:41:49.600 --> 0:41:52.640 I feel like like that we're talking about if someone 0:41:52.680 --> 0:41:55.120 does something so terrible, do they deserve to die? 0:41:56.920 --> 0:42:00.080 Well, that's true. I mean, yeah, you're you're asking me, 0:42:00.239 --> 0:42:03.399 like how much money would I take for it? And yeah, 0:42:03.440 --> 0:42:06.719 I guess in my like in my personal judgmental mind, 0:42:06.880 --> 0:42:09.239 like yes, I could like say yes or no, like 0:42:09.360 --> 0:42:11.640 just based off my own like, but as long as 0:42:11.640 --> 0:42:14.520 I would be anonymous for it. Fine, yes, sure, But 0:42:14.640 --> 0:42:18.799 if we're talking like a judge interpreting laws to say, like, yes, 0:42:18.960 --> 0:42:23.120 this person should die there serial killer, child rapist thing, 0:42:23.360 --> 0:42:25.279 then I don't know. I mean, like I feel like, 0:42:25.520 --> 0:42:29.479 maybe not that specific example, but people should be given 0:42:29.480 --> 0:42:33.440 the opportunity to rehabilitate. And I also feel like if 0:42:33.440 --> 0:42:37.200 the victims had something to say about it, they would 0:42:37.280 --> 0:42:40.840 probably not want that person to get off so scott 0:42:40.880 --> 0:42:43.399 free with death. They would want them to like rot 0:42:43.480 --> 0:42:45.680 in a cellar or like in a cell for the 0:42:45.760 --> 0:42:48.399 rest of their life. 0:42:48.960 --> 0:42:54.880 So grand, Well yeah, all wait, hold on, here's okay, 0:42:55.239 --> 0:42:57.319 how much to kill? Like just like a guy who 0:42:57.400 --> 0:42:59.880 like works in an office and he's like not that cool, 0:43:00.080 --> 0:43:02.040 but he's he didn't like kill anyone or anything, Like, 0:43:02.080 --> 0:43:03.440 how much for that guy? 0:43:04.200 --> 0:43:05.719 Are you talking about a coworker? 0:43:06.920 --> 0:43:09.400 No, just you know, just some random guy. I mean, 0:43:09.400 --> 0:43:13.920 do you know a co worker? Oh my god, not 0:43:14.600 --> 0:43:16.279 that doesn't desert. What are do you have any co 0:43:16.400 --> 0:43:18.279 workers that you would kill for a certain amount of money? 0:43:18.280 --> 0:43:18.880 Is what I'm asking? 0:43:19.000 --> 0:43:24.759 I think, Oh my god, probably, but like but like 0:43:24.960 --> 0:43:26.360 for like a lot of money. 0:43:28.400 --> 0:43:31.440 All right, how much? How much money to kill your receptionist? 0:43:33.600 --> 0:43:36.800 Jesus like a couple of millions. 0:43:38.640 --> 0:43:43.200 Really, Yeah, that's fucked. 0:43:42.960 --> 0:43:45.200 Up, isn't it. 0:43:46.520 --> 0:43:48.720 This is what covid has done to all of us. 0:43:49.680 --> 0:43:51.200 We just don't give a ship anymore. 0:43:52.360 --> 0:43:53.080 That's fucked up. 0:43:53.080 --> 0:43:53.279 Man. 0:43:54.280 --> 0:43:56.920 I know you kill your coworker for two million dollars, 0:43:58.000 --> 0:43:58.759 it's fucked up. 0:44:02.400 --> 0:44:06.560 So anyway, what you wouldn't You wouldn't kill anyone, I 0:44:06.600 --> 0:44:07.200 mean for money? 0:44:07.280 --> 0:44:12.680 Likes, how did we get here? 0:44:13.360 --> 0:44:15.280 I'm really not like a violent person. 0:44:16.960 --> 0:44:18.160 Well for the right price, you are. 0:44:20.080 --> 0:44:25.200 Yes, my husband's left the room. He thinks I'm going 0:44:25.280 --> 0:44:27.200 to kill him now? 0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:28.120 Well how much for that? 0:44:30.239 --> 0:44:30.799 Thank god? 0:44:31.600 --> 0:44:35.520 I couldn't. I couldn't. 0:44:37.680 --> 0:44:38.879 That's like, that's good. 0:44:39.000 --> 0:44:46.520 That's good to know. What's your husband's name in chat? 0:44:46.680 --> 0:44:47.719 Do you really not know? 0:44:48.920 --> 0:44:51.680 I honestly like I could give you. I could give 0:44:51.760 --> 0:44:56.120 him to you. He wants to know your name in chatmous, 0:44:56.520 --> 0:44:57.920 He says anonymous. 0:44:58.760 --> 0:44:59.680 He's anonymous? 0:45:00.440 --> 0:45:01.040 Apparently. 0:45:01.800 --> 0:45:05.239 Well I'm glad. Well, tell I appreciate you guys being 0:45:05.320 --> 0:45:06.800 here for a year. That means a lot to me. 0:45:07.719 --> 0:45:10.959 Oh thanks, this is just I mean, you're the only 0:45:11.000 --> 0:45:14.080 gek on the internet that gives fake therapy to anyone. 0:45:14.160 --> 0:45:17.040 So clearly it hasn't worked for me. 0:45:18.880 --> 0:45:24.239 Well at the fake therapy, Well it's worth I think. Well, 0:45:24.560 --> 0:45:26.960 I mean, how would you even define this as working? 0:45:27.239 --> 0:45:27.480 You know? 0:45:28.920 --> 0:45:31.520 Well, I mean we're talking about I mean, like I 0:45:31.560 --> 0:45:34.000 would think that I'm a fairly normal person with non 0:45:34.120 --> 0:45:37.560 violent tendencies, Like I'm a nice person, like I've got 0:45:37.600 --> 0:45:41.520 a good profession. I help people. But for some reason, 0:45:41.760 --> 0:45:42.239 were the right. 0:45:42.280 --> 0:45:47.560 Price, you would abandon all of that. Yeah, a co 0:45:47.600 --> 0:45:48.080 worker in. 0:45:48.040 --> 0:45:51.240 The face, Yes, the receptionist. 0:45:53.320 --> 0:45:55.719 Do you not like her? Or you just like? I mean, 0:45:55.719 --> 0:45:57.320 what would you do with two million dollars? 0:45:59.040 --> 0:46:01.480 Oh my god, I'd like, well, number one, I'd pay 0:46:01.480 --> 0:46:03.920 off my student loan, Like that's for sure. 0:46:04.120 --> 0:46:06.360 Oh okay, you mentioned you have student loans. Now I 0:46:06.400 --> 0:46:07.520 kind of get it. 0:46:08.560 --> 0:46:11.880 Yeah, I mean, like I feel like I'm indebted to 0:46:13.080 --> 0:46:15.920 not only several banks, but to the government still for 0:46:16.000 --> 0:46:19.480 quite some time. So I'd like to break the chains 0:46:19.560 --> 0:46:21.320 of indentureship. 0:46:22.960 --> 0:46:24.520 Oh should. I got to give a quick shout out 0:46:24.560 --> 0:46:28.000 to Skylius for this, for this raid. 0:46:28.719 --> 0:46:29.319 Nice hero. 0:46:29.520 --> 0:46:33.560 He's a good guy. I don't know why I said that. 0:46:33.600 --> 0:46:36.239 He might not be a good guy. He raided me, 0:46:36.400 --> 0:46:38.759 but but I can't say for certain that he's a 0:46:38.760 --> 0:46:40.840 good guy just because he raided me. I don't know 0:46:40.880 --> 0:46:42.920 anything about him. I think it's dangerous of me that 0:46:42.920 --> 0:46:45.239 I've said that that he's a good guy, because he 0:46:45.320 --> 0:46:46.520 might be a terrible person. 0:46:47.400 --> 0:46:47.880 He could be. 0:46:48.320 --> 0:46:50.800 He's probably trying to buy your favor. 0:46:51.960 --> 0:46:52.120 Him. 0:46:52.480 --> 0:46:56.440 You know what, him I would kill for two million dollars. 0:46:56.760 --> 0:46:57.040 Same. 0:46:58.280 --> 0:47:01.120 Well, it was al as you're talking to you, Jen. 0:47:01.200 --> 0:47:03.240 Thank you so much for being here. 0:47:04.040 --> 0:47:04.760 Yeah, no problem. 0:47:04.800 --> 0:47:07.200 You have a good night. I'll talk to you next year. 0:47:08.000 --> 0:47:08.879 Yes, next year. 0:47:11.000 --> 0:47:11.439 All right? 0:47:11.480 --> 0:47:11.800 Bye? 0:47:14.480 --> 0:47:22.800 All from Jam and Sam. Hello. 0:47:23.920 --> 0:47:30.080 Hello, did I get in? Get into what. 0:47:31.800 --> 0:47:35.759 The chat? Yes? 0:47:36.040 --> 0:47:39.360 You are in chat with me currently. You are currently 0:47:39.400 --> 0:47:42.640 engaged in a conversation with me over the phone. 0:47:43.800 --> 0:47:45.239 Hello, how are you? 0:47:46.880 --> 0:47:47.520 What's your name? 0:47:49.080 --> 0:47:51.799 It went quiet? Do I still love you? 0:47:53.520 --> 0:47:53.800 Hello? 0:47:55.040 --> 0:47:56.880 Hello? This is so weird. 0:47:58.640 --> 0:48:02.880 Sam Man's Sam? There's not Sam. Listen, Sam. I need 0:48:02.920 --> 0:48:04.239 you to know. And I'm not saying this to be 0:48:04.239 --> 0:48:06.879 harsh to you or anything like that, but I'm only 0:48:06.920 --> 0:48:10.480 saying this because there's no time to evaluate the situation 0:48:10.800 --> 0:48:13.120 that you're in right now. There is only time to 0:48:13.160 --> 0:48:14.520 be in it. Does that make sense? 0:48:15.560 --> 0:48:19.080 Yeah, that does make sense. I'm kind of weirded out 0:48:19.080 --> 0:48:19.440 by it? 0:48:20.120 --> 0:48:21.840 Did you say your name was Sam? 0:48:22.280 --> 0:48:22.600 Yes? 0:48:23.320 --> 0:48:25.279 Sam? No time to think about how you feel, only 0:48:25.320 --> 0:48:28.160 time to feel It's Sam, How do you know that 0:48:28.200 --> 0:48:28.919 you are not dead? 0:48:31.640 --> 0:48:31.879 See? 0:48:31.920 --> 0:48:35.120 I don't really know? Like are we actually dead or 0:48:35.200 --> 0:48:36.000 are we alive? 0:48:36.360 --> 0:48:36.480 Like? 0:48:37.960 --> 0:48:42.239 I feel things, I feel my pulse, I feel my 0:48:42.440 --> 0:48:47.279 cat beside me right now. But then again, could she 0:48:47.480 --> 0:48:48.839 be a ghost too? 0:48:49.960 --> 0:48:51.239 Right like? 0:48:51.320 --> 0:48:53.760 We could both be ghosts just living in the ghost 0:48:53.840 --> 0:48:56.120 land of Earth. 0:48:56.320 --> 0:48:56.799 I don't know. 0:48:57.320 --> 0:49:00.520 Or are we in another like parallel universe We don't 0:49:00.520 --> 0:49:02.000 know of Sam. 0:49:02.040 --> 0:49:07.680 I get this sense from you that you maybe you 0:49:07.719 --> 0:49:09.480 know and I get this too. I get this too. 0:49:09.680 --> 0:49:14.680 Think think a lot about your surroundings, about who you are, 0:49:14.800 --> 0:49:21.840 about what you're currently feeling. You know in your head? Sam. 0:49:22.400 --> 0:49:25.960 But yeah, look, I implore you, and I'm only telling you 0:49:26.000 --> 0:49:29.279 this because I'm telling myself this as well. To be 0:49:29.719 --> 0:49:31.919 in the world more than you're thinking about your place 0:49:31.960 --> 0:49:33.839 in it, Sam. 0:49:34.080 --> 0:49:36.480 Are we in a simulation right now? 0:49:37.920 --> 0:49:41.040 We might be. I actually think if we were, though 0:49:41.239 --> 0:49:46.040 it wouldn't matter the whole the question. If I had 0:49:46.080 --> 0:49:48.239 to give my personal answer to this question, are we 0:49:48.320 --> 0:49:50.879 in a simulation? I'd say it doesn't really matter, right, 0:49:50.920 --> 0:49:54.160 Think about this. You woke up tomorrow morning on CNN, 0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:56.880 on all the news places everywhere, on Twitter, everything was 0:49:56.920 --> 0:49:59.600 life is confirmed to be a simulation. What would you do? 0:50:00.000 --> 0:50:02.520 Would it just be part I think I think it 0:50:02.520 --> 0:50:05.279 would just blend into the news cycle. Oh yeah, life's 0:50:05.320 --> 0:50:08.200 a simulation. I still gotta go to work. I still 0:50:08.200 --> 0:50:12.320 got to feed my dog the freaking simulated pixel food. 0:50:12.760 --> 0:50:14.520 You know, we still got to do things. We still 0:50:14.520 --> 0:50:19.360 got to live life simulation or not. Oh God, your father, 0:50:20.000 --> 0:50:24.400 will your dad? Your cousin's still your cousin. The simulation 0:50:24.600 --> 0:50:26.520 doesn't matter. We still would do the things that we 0:50:26.600 --> 0:50:28.400 have to do. You can't just not go to school 0:50:28.520 --> 0:50:34.359 just because it's not real. Or maybe you can't, But what. 0:50:34.280 --> 0:50:35.760 If you don't want to anymore? 0:50:35.960 --> 0:50:37.799 Like what if you just want to skip out and 0:50:37.880 --> 0:50:41.000 like go to a different country, or I don't know, 0:50:41.040 --> 0:50:43.120 eat pasta every day for the rest of your life. 0:50:43.160 --> 0:50:46.040 See what happens, Right, Sam? 0:50:46.040 --> 0:50:48.120 It sounds like you've you' it sounds like you've defined 0:50:48.160 --> 0:50:50.440 the goal for your life. It sounds like you've deferd 0:50:50.440 --> 0:50:51.560 anything that you would like to do. 0:50:52.600 --> 0:50:54.919 That is my goal in life is to just eat 0:50:54.960 --> 0:50:58.720 all of the happiest pasta in the world and love pasta. 0:50:59.320 --> 0:51:00.520 What's your favorite pasta? 0:51:01.520 --> 0:51:03.760 Sam? I wish you the best of luck in achieving 0:51:03.800 --> 0:51:06.319 that goal, and I'll be rooting for you all the way. 0:51:07.239 --> 0:51:09.040 And by the way, I just want you to know. 0:51:09.719 --> 0:51:11.879 I want you to know. People are going to tell 0:51:11.920 --> 0:51:14.960 you that you're pronouncing pasta wrong. But who are they 0:51:15.080 --> 0:51:17.960 to be the authority on anything that takes place in 0:51:18.000 --> 0:51:22.359 your version of reality? Yeah? 0:51:22.440 --> 0:51:25.280 Correct, you too, Love you, GK. 0:51:26.840 --> 0:51:28.920 All from worrying. 0:51:30.000 --> 0:51:33.640 Hello, Hey, how's it going, gek? 0:51:34.120 --> 0:51:35.799 How do you know you're not dead? 0:51:37.960 --> 0:51:38.320 Hmmm? 0:51:39.400 --> 0:51:47.400 So I was thinking that it doesn't matter because if 0:51:48.680 --> 0:51:54.280 it's true that we are dead, and there's other existences 0:51:54.360 --> 0:51:57.799 and they would be relative to the existence that they're in. 0:51:58.719 --> 0:52:02.720 So if we are dead now, but we can witness 0:52:02.760 --> 0:52:06.920 babies being born, old people dying, young people dying too early, 0:52:08.400 --> 0:52:13.000 then this is it. You know, it's all relative. So 0:52:13.080 --> 0:52:15.840 if we're dead now, well this is our dead life. 0:52:15.880 --> 0:52:21.160 And so to me, that's why the question not to 0:52:21.200 --> 0:52:24.800 say your question doesn't matter, But if someone's actually worried 0:52:24.840 --> 0:52:29.239 about that, then just know it's relative and enjoy this 0:52:29.520 --> 0:52:33.719 death life whatever they might think. It is simulation. 0:52:36.160 --> 0:52:38.880 How do you like to enjoy the simulation the death life? 0:52:39.640 --> 0:52:40.120 What do you do? 0:52:42.080 --> 0:52:45.480 I don't think it's true, But how do I enjoy it? 0:52:49.400 --> 0:52:57.600 I just I hang out with my wife and that's 0:52:58.120 --> 0:53:00.279 now all I do. Now, I just moved. You meet 0:53:00.280 --> 0:53:06.000 your work place with not any friends. But I met 0:53:06.040 --> 0:53:07.120 her in college. 0:53:08.280 --> 0:53:09.640 All class. 0:53:10.600 --> 0:53:12.360 At the library, actually. 0:53:14.440 --> 0:53:17.120 Studying for Remember the first to her when you saw 0:53:17.160 --> 0:53:23.160 her in the library. 0:53:22.239 --> 0:53:28.400 The first thing I said to her? Yes, probably just high, 0:53:28.719 --> 0:53:33.640 you know she I remember she talked to me. I 0:53:33.680 --> 0:53:37.200 think first we were sitting down, and there was. 0:53:39.440 --> 0:53:40.480 I was sitting. 0:53:40.239 --> 0:53:43.840 Down first, there was an empty seat, and then another guy, 0:53:43.960 --> 0:53:46.240 and so she sat down right between us and started 0:53:46.239 --> 0:53:48.759 talking to him first. But when he got up, then 0:53:48.840 --> 0:53:51.160 I started talking to her. I don't remember the first words, 0:53:51.200 --> 0:53:55.600 but that's how it how it went, and how the 0:53:55.640 --> 0:53:56.720 conversation started. 0:53:59.440 --> 0:54:02.319 How do you see? Do you feel bad that you 0:54:02.360 --> 0:54:05.160 were the second guy that she talked to? Like the 0:54:05.320 --> 0:54:07.360 guy she was having a pretty good conversation with the 0:54:07.360 --> 0:54:08.799 first guy and then he got up to leave, and 0:54:08.800 --> 0:54:12.920 you were sort of like a second place conversation or. 0:54:12.920 --> 0:54:16.640 Is that I wasn't thinking that. Now I'll tell her, 0:54:16.719 --> 0:54:20.279 like I'll tease her about that, like, what was going on? 0:54:20.320 --> 0:54:22.440 You were flirting with that guy before me, but she 0:54:22.440 --> 0:54:24.160 didn't know who I was, so I don't really care. 0:54:24.880 --> 0:54:27.880 Let me ask you one final question. Yeah, do you 0:54:27.960 --> 0:54:29.840 believe when you look. 0:54:29.719 --> 0:54:34.400 Back, how will you twenty seven through twenty. 0:54:34.200 --> 0:54:36.279 Seven, all the great things that have happened to you 0:54:36.320 --> 0:54:41.560 in your life? How many of them? What percentage of 0:54:41.640 --> 0:54:47.439 them did you initiate versus they happened upon you, such 0:54:47.520 --> 0:54:51.640 as your wife talking to you first. 0:54:52.880 --> 0:54:59.239 I feel like most a lot of great things are 0:54:59.280 --> 0:55:01.200 from me in this shooting, because at the end of 0:55:01.200 --> 0:55:03.879 the day I asked for her number when she left 0:55:03.880 --> 0:55:07.320 the table, Yes, and other. 0:55:07.120 --> 0:55:11.719 Things, but you know, yes, yes, you're getting the you 0:55:11.719 --> 0:55:14.439 could get balanced, right you you you you You're lucky 0:55:14.520 --> 0:55:17.440 enough to have ran into many pitches. 0:55:18.920 --> 0:55:19.440 Very lucky. 0:55:20.080 --> 0:55:22.200 Yes, And at the end of the day you're the 0:55:22.200 --> 0:55:26.040 one hitting them out of the park. I like that 0:55:26.120 --> 0:55:27.640 for you. What did you say? 0:55:27.640 --> 0:55:32.960 Her name was, Blaine? 0:55:33.640 --> 0:55:35.319 I love you, Lane, you have a rest of the night. 0:55:36.000 --> 0:55:36.759 Hey you too. 0:55:36.840 --> 0:55:37.000 Man. 0:55:39.680 --> 0:55:45.280 Later, a kid named Lane bullied me in high school actually, 0:55:46.000 --> 0:55:49.399 and now he follows me on Instagram and I post 0:55:49.440 --> 0:55:56.040 clips of this stream and he likes them. So I guess. 0:55:56.160 --> 0:55:57.120 I guess we're cool now. 0:55:58.640 --> 0:56:02.720 Paul from Rico, Rico. 0:56:03.760 --> 0:56:05.040 Oh my god. 0:56:05.840 --> 0:56:07.520 I was eating a sandwich and you. 0:56:07.600 --> 0:56:10.520 Answered, Wow, what kind of sandwiches. 0:56:11.600 --> 0:56:17.800 It's a sandwich from Jersey mics. It's got provolone, roast, beef, turkey, 0:56:18.160 --> 0:56:18.760 and bacon. 0:56:19.960 --> 0:56:21.320 M that sounds delicious. 0:56:22.239 --> 0:56:25.279 Oh it is, it is. 0:56:26.719 --> 0:56:28.440 That's how I normally finished. Do you want me to 0:56:28.480 --> 0:56:30.600 let you finish eating this sandwich before we move on? 0:56:32.440 --> 0:56:33.279 I just spit it out. 0:56:33.719 --> 0:56:37.680 Cool, you spit it out? Yeah, listen, I would have 0:56:37.800 --> 0:56:39.880 let you finish. Listen, man, I would have let you 0:56:39.920 --> 0:56:44.719 finish that one bite's. 0:56:42.920 --> 0:56:46.120 A little bit out. It was just spread at that point. 0:56:48.640 --> 0:56:50.440 When you say it's just bread, I feel like bread 0:56:50.480 --> 0:56:52.880 is an integral part of the sandwich and the bread. 0:56:53.160 --> 0:56:54.799 You would have wanted the bread to be the part 0:56:54.800 --> 0:56:56.720 of the bite. 0:56:58.280 --> 0:56:59.880 Yeah. 0:57:00.280 --> 0:57:07.399 Yeah, How do you know you're not dead? Pain? 0:57:09.760 --> 0:57:11.640 I wouldn't choose to be in pain. I don't think 0:57:11.680 --> 0:57:17.200 anybody would like those memes. Sometimes I kind of have 0:57:17.280 --> 0:57:17.520 like a. 0:57:19.000 --> 0:57:19.280 Both. 0:57:19.600 --> 0:57:22.800 I mean, every way you deal it, something happens. 0:57:23.280 --> 0:57:25.440 M hm hm. 0:57:26.040 --> 0:57:26.200 Yeah. 0:57:26.360 --> 0:57:28.280 Some must recent painful experience you had. 0:57:33.400 --> 0:57:35.960 It's weird, it's it was a painful experience, but like 0:57:36.360 --> 0:57:40.920 good to some people. Sure, Uh my dad looked at 0:57:40.960 --> 0:57:42.680 me and wanted to be me. For a second, I 0:57:42.760 --> 0:57:44.720 was just like fuck you. 0:57:46.880 --> 0:57:48.560 You said he wanted to be you. 0:57:50.120 --> 0:57:53.080 Yeah, like he looked at me like I'd always wanted 0:57:53.120 --> 0:57:55.520 to look at me like as a kid, but he 0:57:55.640 --> 0:57:58.440 like hated me, and like he looked at me and 0:57:58.480 --> 0:58:01.120 he just smiled and he's just like, don't cut your hair. 0:58:02.240 --> 0:58:05.400 I was like, in my head, just like fuck you. 0:58:07.080 --> 0:58:12.240 But yeah, why was it painful that your dad was 0:58:12.440 --> 0:58:13.040 envious of you? 0:58:15.240 --> 0:58:15.360 Uh? 0:58:15.720 --> 0:58:17.680 Yeah, like I said, he just like as a kid, 0:58:17.720 --> 0:58:22.480 he just wanted to live vicariously through me. But I 0:58:22.640 --> 0:58:25.520 kind of figured that I as an adult. But it's 0:58:25.520 --> 0:58:26.280 so cool now. 0:58:28.120 --> 0:58:30.040 Because do you feel like because he wanted to live 0:58:30.160 --> 0:58:33.920 vicariously through you, he tried to dictate a lot of 0:58:34.000 --> 0:58:34.560 your actions. 0:58:35.680 --> 0:58:39.560 Yeah yeah, but now I'm an adult and like you 0:58:39.640 --> 0:58:46.040 can't you know, really do shit. So it's my life, right. 0:58:47.880 --> 0:58:48.040 You know. 0:58:48.080 --> 0:58:52.120 It's funny because you said that you view this as 0:58:52.160 --> 0:58:55.240 a painful experience, but that you even said yourself that 0:58:55.320 --> 0:59:01.480 others might not view it that way. Yeah, because you know, 0:59:01.560 --> 0:59:03.160 when I think of it, I think of it like 0:59:03.280 --> 0:59:07.880 you know, how well, Leo twenty nine, twenty nine. Your 0:59:07.920 --> 0:59:10.920 father's envious of your youth. You know, he knows that 0:59:11.000 --> 0:59:15.480 you have something valuable, right, Yes, even though you know 0:59:15.600 --> 0:59:18.760 it's caused you a lot of pain to have to 0:59:20.240 --> 0:59:24.200 take his direction. I feel like this experience it could 0:59:24.240 --> 0:59:28.840 help you even maybe realize the the the valuable thing 0:59:28.960 --> 0:59:32.520 you have. You know, your youth can inspire by that. 0:59:33.800 --> 0:59:35.760 I'm going to be eatful until the day I did. 0:59:35.880 --> 0:59:37.840 I like, I'm gonna be that old man like, you know, 0:59:38.480 --> 0:59:41.479 doing crazy shit, smoking weed, having fun. I like jokes. 0:59:42.240 --> 0:59:43.520 I like that is eternal. 0:59:44.320 --> 0:59:44.720 I like that. 0:59:45.080 --> 0:59:45.959 Stay young, my friend. 0:59:46.840 --> 0:59:50.360 Thank you, stay sticky, have a good night. Thanks, thank. 0:59:52.680 --> 0:59:55.600 All. From Jose Jose. 0:59:56.720 --> 0:59:59.480 Hello, do you like when people say your name? Does 0:59:59.480 --> 1:00:00.960 it give you a all hit of dopamine? 1:00:01.840 --> 1:00:01.880 No? 1:00:03.080 --> 1:00:03.560 No, why not? 1:00:04.920 --> 1:00:05.840 You can call me anything. 1:00:07.040 --> 1:00:10.480 I'm on speakerphone right now. Yes, would you mind thinking 1:00:10.520 --> 1:00:11.920 me on speakerphone? It's a little hard to hear you. 1:00:13.880 --> 1:00:14.360 Is that better? 1:00:15.040 --> 1:00:18.800 Much better? Because you know some people I've heard this. 1:00:18.960 --> 1:00:20.640 I've heard this. I talked about this the other night. 1:00:20.840 --> 1:00:24.200 I've heard this. It's all over the internet. People saying things, 1:00:24.240 --> 1:00:27.960 the people saying I don't want to be perceived. 1:00:29.040 --> 1:00:29.640 Have you heard this? 1:00:30.560 --> 1:00:30.760 Yes? 1:00:33.080 --> 1:00:35.320 Where do you lie on the spectrum of I don't 1:00:35.360 --> 1:00:39.760 want to be perceived to I enjoy copious amounts of attention. 1:00:44.800 --> 1:00:50.439 I don't really think about my own perception, but really 1:00:52.200 --> 1:00:54.440 I did. At one time. You used to enjoy copious 1:00:54.440 --> 1:00:55.200 amounts of attention? 1:00:56.600 --> 1:00:59.600 Mhm. And what happened to change that. 1:01:02.320 --> 1:01:04.000 I started living in the world more. 1:01:07.800 --> 1:01:13.440 Tell me about the time period that you've enjoyed receiving 1:01:13.520 --> 1:01:16.240 copious amounts of attention. What were you receiving? What were 1:01:16.280 --> 1:01:18.240 you receiving copious amounts of attention for. 1:01:20.600 --> 1:01:25.160 Being five or six years old? You know you can 1:01:25.320 --> 1:01:27.040 fart and someone would be happy with you. 1:01:32.480 --> 1:01:34.320 What else would you do for attention? Would you act up? 1:01:34.960 --> 1:01:37.080 Would you bite other children? Would you break things? 1:01:42.160 --> 1:01:42.280 Now? 1:01:43.640 --> 1:01:44.600 I didn't have fun like that? 1:01:47.560 --> 1:01:51.680 M okay. So about how old were you when you 1:01:51.800 --> 1:01:58.280 stopped having such a strong desire for attention? Eighteen eighteen? Yeah, okay, 1:01:58.320 --> 1:02:03.200 so we do. We're in high school? Were you? Why 1:02:03.320 --> 1:02:05.840 was that a Actually when I dropped out, you dropped out. 1:02:07.880 --> 1:02:11.280 But when you were sixteen, you know, a young adult, 1:02:12.440 --> 1:02:16.120 a much different situation being a farting five year old, 1:02:16.200 --> 1:02:17.520 would you do things for attention. 1:02:19.040 --> 1:02:21.680 No, because a sixteen year old farting isn't cute. 1:02:22.880 --> 1:02:24.440 No, I don't mean that. I don't mean would you 1:02:24.480 --> 1:02:26.480 do those specific things for attention that you do when 1:02:26.480 --> 1:02:28.360 you were five? I mean would you in general do 1:02:28.880 --> 1:02:29.800 things for attention? 1:02:31.520 --> 1:02:32.200 Yes? I would. 1:02:33.000 --> 1:02:33.520 What would you do? 1:02:37.600 --> 1:02:44.320 Make fun of my friends? Make fun of teachers? Act up? 1:02:45.240 --> 1:02:50.920 Mh. You know what's so weird about being in school? 1:02:51.160 --> 1:02:51.440 Is that? 1:02:52.320 --> 1:02:54.400 Is that? And this is at this is true. I'm 1:02:54.400 --> 1:02:56.280 actually remembering this now because I haven't thought about it 1:02:56.320 --> 1:03:00.280 in a while. But it's weird in high school. In 1:03:00.320 --> 1:03:06.320 middle school, bullying other kids with other kids brings the 1:03:06.440 --> 1:03:10.320 kid that you're bullying the other kids with. He brings 1:03:10.360 --> 1:03:14.200 you guys closer together, Like if you and another person 1:03:14.360 --> 1:03:16.240 make fun of a kid together, it brings you and 1:03:16.320 --> 1:03:19.000 that other person a little bit closer. 1:03:19.720 --> 1:03:19.880 You know. 1:03:19.920 --> 1:03:22.160 It's funny even brought those kids that we made fun 1:03:22.240 --> 1:03:23.760 of together with us. 1:03:27.760 --> 1:03:29.000 Sometimes maybe. 1:03:29.840 --> 1:03:31.800 I mean I was mostly making fun of my friends. 1:03:31.840 --> 1:03:33.600 I didn't care what other people were doing. 1:03:34.240 --> 1:03:38.600 Sure, I know. I remember in middle school, if you 1:03:38.800 --> 1:03:42.160 hated someone and someone else hated someone, you would form 1:03:42.160 --> 1:03:45.120 an alliance over your mutual hatred of the person. I'm 1:03:45.120 --> 1:03:47.280 not talking about a lighthearted ridding here. I'm talking about, 1:03:48.440 --> 1:03:51.960 you know, making kids not want to come to school. 1:03:53.360 --> 1:03:55.040 Oh geez no, no, no, no, no, no, no no, 1:03:56.280 --> 1:04:00.479 that's that's that's our breaking that part. 1:04:01.240 --> 1:04:01.600 M hm. 1:04:04.360 --> 1:04:06.600 So you'd make fun of teachers, You'd make fun of kids. 1:04:07.480 --> 1:04:08.880 I'd make fun of teachers all the time. 1:04:09.680 --> 1:04:13.440 Really, do you think it made them like you? Do 1:04:13.520 --> 1:04:14.840 you think it? Do you think the fact that you 1:04:14.960 --> 1:04:19.280 made fun of them, you didn't default to giving them 1:04:19.320 --> 1:04:21.960 your respect, made them try even harder to earn it. 1:04:23.000 --> 1:04:24.920 There were a few. I bet you know at that 1:04:25.040 --> 1:04:26.920 age you don't really give a shit though, because you're 1:04:26.960 --> 1:04:27.840 just a shithead kid. 1:04:28.640 --> 1:04:28.840 Yeah. 1:04:29.840 --> 1:04:31.760 Sorry, I'm not sure if I'm allowed to really curse 1:04:31.800 --> 1:04:32.000 on this. 1:04:32.360 --> 1:04:35.240 You can say whatever you want here within reason. Okay, 1:04:38.120 --> 1:04:38.760 how old you now? 1:04:40.400 --> 1:04:40.919 Thirty three? 1:04:41.920 --> 1:04:44.400 Thirty three? And are you comfortable with the amount of 1:04:44.440 --> 1:04:46.280 ascension that you receive as a thirty three year old? 1:04:46.320 --> 1:04:46.440 Man? 1:04:46.800 --> 1:04:46.960 Oh? 1:04:47.040 --> 1:04:48.680 I get way too, I get more than I want. 1:04:48.680 --> 1:04:50.920 I want to be ignored. That's why I liked the 1:04:51.000 --> 1:04:51.840 COVID masks. 1:04:52.600 --> 1:04:56.720 Mhm. I like that too. Yeah, helps you feel a 1:04:56.760 --> 1:04:57.600 little bit more anonymous. 1:04:58.280 --> 1:04:58.680 Mm hmm. 1:04:59.520 --> 1:05:00.880 You feel like he get too much attention. 1:05:01.880 --> 1:05:04.360 No, but anonymity is amazing. 1:05:05.800 --> 1:05:08.560 Why do you like animate aemy? 1:05:13.280 --> 1:05:17.280 That's a good question, probably because maybe what you had 1:05:17.320 --> 1:05:19.959 asked me earlier, I had been spending all that time 1:05:20.040 --> 1:05:23.640 as a teen, as a young adult looking for attention, 1:05:23.720 --> 1:05:25.960 and then when it finally comes your way, it's not 1:05:26.360 --> 1:05:31.200 what you really thought it would be. It's exhausting. You 1:05:31.280 --> 1:05:33.680 know people can be exhausting, don't you think? 1:05:34.920 --> 1:05:35.040 Oh? 1:05:35.160 --> 1:05:39.240 Yeah, absolutely, they could be really tiring. You know, they 1:05:39.320 --> 1:05:43.560 have their problems. You don't get a second to even 1:05:43.600 --> 1:05:51.720 talk about your problems, and then now you're left smoking 1:05:51.720 --> 1:05:53.480 a cigarette in the darkness while the rainfalls. 1:05:55.440 --> 1:06:01.000 Very poetic. No, I agree with you, though, Yeah, a 1:06:01.080 --> 1:06:04.720 lot of attention can definitely be exhausting. I feel you 1:06:04.880 --> 1:06:10.080 on that it would be nice to be anonymous. Being 1:06:10.120 --> 1:06:12.800 anonymous and rich would be cool. Like no one knowing 1:06:12.840 --> 1:06:16.920 who you are, but having a billion dollars. Maybe you 1:06:17.000 --> 1:06:19.560 just go somewhere, you. 1:06:19.640 --> 1:06:21.400 Just resting a T shirt and jeans, and no one 1:06:21.440 --> 1:06:23.280 knows that you've got a billion dollars in your pocket. 1:06:24.080 --> 1:06:26.560 Yeah, how much money do you have to your name? 1:06:28.600 --> 1:06:31.040 I'm sorry, how much money do you have to your name? 1:06:32.280 --> 1:06:36.560 I don't even know. That's how anonymous I try to be, 1:06:37.600 --> 1:06:38.360 even to myself. 1:06:40.240 --> 1:06:41.520 There's a pleasure speaking with Jose. 1:06:41.760 --> 1:06:43.320 You have a good rest of the night, you too, 1:06:46.280 --> 1:06:51.680 Paul from Paul, how. 1:06:53.240 --> 1:06:56.080 Do we know we're alive? I have an answer. 1:06:56.240 --> 1:06:57.120 I think I have an answer. 1:06:58.840 --> 1:07:03.680 What how do we know we're alive? 1:07:04.080 --> 1:07:11.040 I think I have an answer. Okay, Renee their car said, 1:07:11.080 --> 1:07:16.360 I think therefore I am is the mere feeling of 1:07:16.520 --> 1:07:22.600 experience necessitates that one is a lot. I don't think 1:07:23.920 --> 1:07:26.560 by virtue of being dead, you don't experience anything. 1:07:27.440 --> 1:07:29.200 Well, let me tell you something about Renee of the card. 1:07:33.000 --> 1:07:37.000 He's dead as shit, so nothing he and look when 1:07:37.000 --> 1:07:38.720 you here's the thing. No, people don't know this, but 1:07:38.800 --> 1:07:43.760 when you die, nothing you did while you were alive. 1:07:46.520 --> 1:07:51.520 It matters anymore. You're dead now, just I you know, look, 1:07:51.960 --> 1:07:53.600 I'm sure he was great when he was alive. But 1:07:53.720 --> 1:07:58.080 there's no people I try to I don't. Look, I don't. 1:07:58.120 --> 1:08:00.840 I don't really pay that much attention to history historical figures, 1:08:00.840 --> 1:08:02.240 because I just I don't live in the past. 1:08:03.760 --> 1:08:06.440 You know, fair fair? Well, then what do you think 1:08:06.480 --> 1:08:06.960 about the note? 1:08:07.000 --> 1:08:07.400 You're done? 1:08:07.480 --> 1:08:09.520 I don't like the side thing where people write books 1:08:10.560 --> 1:08:13.560 and they're like and then you read them and it's 1:08:13.560 --> 1:08:15.160 like they're trying to tell you stuff even though they're 1:08:15.160 --> 1:08:18.040 already dead. It's like you're dead. You leave, there's new 1:08:18.080 --> 1:08:19.240 people in the world. 1:08:20.120 --> 1:08:20.599 New thought. 1:08:20.680 --> 1:08:23.240 Well, I'll totally see them because they know more than 1:08:23.280 --> 1:08:26.960 you do, because they're still alive. So I'm sure Reneede 1:08:26.960 --> 1:08:29.559 Decard at the time that he was living in fourteen 1:08:29.720 --> 1:08:33.839 ninety five or whatever, was smart. But he's not smart anymore. 1:08:33.880 --> 1:08:36.320 He's dead. And I mean, I don't even think we 1:08:36.320 --> 1:08:39.479 should read any of his books anymore. Because he had 1:08:39.560 --> 1:08:41.280 his chan, he had his chance to tell us all 1:08:41.320 --> 1:08:43.519 the stuff he wanted to tell us. But he's dead 1:08:43.600 --> 1:08:47.559 now it's over. He needs to learn when to throw 1:08:47.600 --> 1:08:52.000 in the towel. So what'd you say? Your name was Paul, Paul. 1:08:52.040 --> 1:08:58.639 I appreciate you bring this to my attention, but you know, look, 1:08:58.720 --> 1:09:01.080 try to get try to get your inspiration from someone 1:09:01.200 --> 1:09:04.200 who's alive, because people who are alive no more than 1:09:04.240 --> 1:09:05.920 people who are dead. That's just what I believe. 1:09:06.280 --> 1:09:10.120 Thank you so much for thanks gag you have for 1:09:10.160 --> 1:09:10.760 the rest of the night. 1:09:11.360 --> 1:09:11.800 I love you. 1:09:12.720 --> 1:09:13.400 I love you too. 1:09:15.640 --> 1:09:16.840 All from then. 1:09:19.280 --> 1:09:24.760 Hello, Hey Gek, longtime watcher for first time caller. I've 1:09:24.760 --> 1:09:26.520 thought a lot about your question for tonight. 1:09:27.040 --> 1:09:29.200 Here, all right, So, I. 1:09:29.240 --> 1:09:32.880 Mean, well, so a few weeks ago, I was getting 1:09:32.880 --> 1:09:35.960 really high and I have this thought that one day 1:09:35.960 --> 1:09:38.320 I'm going to die and I actually don't know what's 1:09:38.320 --> 1:09:43.439 going to happen. And so it made me think about 1:09:43.479 --> 1:09:46.800 this for quite a while, and finally I came to conclusion, GEK, 1:09:46.880 --> 1:09:49.760 that unless I know what happens after I die, I 1:09:49.880 --> 1:09:53.519 don't know if I'm dead or not m And so 1:09:53.680 --> 1:09:56.479 I guess, okay, Oh, you. 1:09:56.479 --> 1:09:58.559 Were going to say, unless if you know what happens 1:09:58.600 --> 1:10:00.840 after you die, you don't know if you're dead or not, right. 1:10:00.760 --> 1:10:03.400 Because I mean, if it's nothing and I don't know anything, 1:10:03.439 --> 1:10:06.479 it's kind of like before I was born. But like 1:10:06.600 --> 1:10:09.120 if it's something like, oh, I go to Heaven, well 1:10:09.160 --> 1:10:10.599 then they're gonna tell me when I get there, Hey, 1:10:10.920 --> 1:10:13.920 you're dead, Welcome to the you know, welcome to the afterlife. 1:10:14.479 --> 1:10:17.320 And the only thing I don't know maybe it's reincarnations 1:10:17.760 --> 1:10:19.800 and the men. You'll never know because it's an endless loop. 1:10:19.920 --> 1:10:23.960 But yeah, it's it's tough to think about. But the 1:10:24.000 --> 1:10:26.120 biggest thing for me is it just creates the sense 1:10:26.200 --> 1:10:31.360 of like uncertainty, and I didn't have that before growing, 1:10:31.479 --> 1:10:34.320 Like I just turned twenty five, and so I just 1:10:34.360 --> 1:10:37.960 started getting this feeling. And I don't know, is it 1:10:38.080 --> 1:10:41.920 normal that people like think about death a lot after 1:10:42.080 --> 1:10:42.760 like a certain age. 1:10:43.120 --> 1:10:43.519 What about you? 1:10:43.600 --> 1:10:48.240 Well, I think it's good to think about deaths because, well, 1:10:48.240 --> 1:10:50.280 because it gives you an appreciation for life, you know. 1:10:56.080 --> 1:10:57.080 I mean, what do you do today? 1:10:57.400 --> 1:10:57.600 You know? 1:10:58.360 --> 1:11:01.320 I mean like that that's the thing. I feel like 1:11:01.560 --> 1:11:03.600 I wasted my day. I woke up, I had a 1:11:04.439 --> 1:11:08.200 had a coffee, you know, I went downstairs and smoked 1:11:08.240 --> 1:11:11.599 the bowl and you know, contemplated the world, watched the news, 1:11:11.720 --> 1:11:13.880 but like kind of like life is just sort of 1:11:13.920 --> 1:11:16.000 going by, and I look at other people's lives. I 1:11:16.040 --> 1:11:18.719 saw this guy just you know, I mean, like everyone's 1:11:18.760 --> 1:11:20.760 life is a story, right. I saw this guy who 1:11:20.800 --> 1:11:23.200 had just gone to jail for embezzling you know, like 1:11:23.400 --> 1:11:26.200 four hundred million dollars you know, from his company. And 1:11:26.280 --> 1:11:28.400 I'm like sitting there wondering, is this like when this 1:11:28.520 --> 1:11:30.120 guy was my age, and this is what he thought 1:11:30.160 --> 1:11:32.560 his life story was going to be, getting, you know, 1:11:32.880 --> 1:11:35.760 wrecked in prison because he couldn't keep his hands off 1:11:35.840 --> 1:11:37.680 the buddy, right are you? 1:11:38.120 --> 1:11:40.080 Are you saying that you wish that you were doing 1:11:40.160 --> 1:11:42.759 something as cool as embezzling four hundred million dollars? 1:11:43.120 --> 1:11:43.160 No? 1:11:43.320 --> 1:11:46.800 Absolutely not, Like that's the thing. I don't know what 1:11:46.880 --> 1:11:48.680 I think would be cool, because I don't think that 1:11:48.840 --> 1:11:52.320 guy probably in like retrospect, thought that was very cool, 1:11:52.439 --> 1:11:53.679 especially now that he's in prison. 1:11:54.920 --> 1:11:54.960 No. 1:11:55.080 --> 1:11:56.920 I well, okay, I know when he got caught it 1:11:57.000 --> 1:11:58.400 was probably not cool, but no, at the time, he 1:11:58.479 --> 1:12:01.280 absolutely thought it was super cool. He had he at 1:12:01.280 --> 1:12:03.160 the time he had four hundred million dollars, which oh, 1:12:03.200 --> 1:12:04.280 absolutely is pretty rare. 1:12:04.360 --> 1:12:07.200 Yeah, I think, I mean yeah, And like that's the 1:12:07.320 --> 1:12:10.080 thing is, like, does it actually have consequence if we 1:12:10.240 --> 1:12:13.080 just turned into nothing when we die and back to 1:12:13.320 --> 1:12:15.880 the simulation that the other collar was talking about, Like 1:12:16.040 --> 1:12:19.120 I mean simulation or just turning to dust and you know, 1:12:19.240 --> 1:12:21.759 being a speck in the billion year span at the universe. 1:12:22.600 --> 1:12:25.120 Does feeling four hundred million you know, made up pieces 1:12:25.160 --> 1:12:26.719 of paper really matter? 1:12:27.439 --> 1:12:35.479 M h, Well what do you think? Mmmm? It seems 1:12:35.479 --> 1:12:39.360 like you're becoming aware of your own mortality, which, like 1:12:39.400 --> 1:12:43.280 I said, is good because we live our lives all 1:12:43.280 --> 1:12:46.080 the time, like we're not gonna, you know, just fucking die. Sure, 1:12:46.880 --> 1:12:49.160 but if you think every single day that you're going 1:12:49.200 --> 1:12:52.720 to fucking die, then I feel like you would live 1:12:52.760 --> 1:12:53.639 your life with more intent. 1:12:54.920 --> 1:12:56.760 That's that's kind of how I feel right now. 1:12:57.080 --> 1:12:59.160 It's just the position. 1:12:59.600 --> 1:13:02.679 It's another like existential issues, like the position of my life. 1:13:02.920 --> 1:13:05.439 Tell me something, But tell me something. If you were 1:13:05.479 --> 1:13:07.280 living your life with more intent, what would your life 1:13:07.320 --> 1:13:09.040 look like? What would you be doing every day? 1:13:09.720 --> 1:13:15.120 I would probably be like out in Central Asia driving 1:13:15.160 --> 1:13:17.920 around in like a Toyota land Cruiser, just exploring and 1:13:18.120 --> 1:13:21.920 like meeting like local village people and doing Ryan horses 1:13:22.000 --> 1:13:28.080 and learning falconry no bullshit. Right now in cash like 1:13:28.280 --> 1:13:31.719 ten grand in crypto about like eight well. 1:13:31.640 --> 1:13:32.759 Probably not as much today. 1:13:33.000 --> 1:13:37.519 And then like forty k and stocks forty k and stocks, yeah, 1:13:39.560 --> 1:13:42.920 I hold it called PSTH That's pretty awesome. 1:13:42.920 --> 1:13:45.080 I mean, look, okay, so your net worth is like, 1:13:45.479 --> 1:13:48.920 you know, like sixty k. Yeah, you have sixty k. 1:13:49.200 --> 1:13:54.240 Sell some fucking stock, Okay, And then go do you 1:13:54.280 --> 1:13:54.720 have a job. 1:13:55.920 --> 1:13:57.519 It's like a work from wherever job? 1:13:58.200 --> 1:14:01.040 Oh, go to Central Asia or I don't know, I 1:14:01.080 --> 1:14:02.640 don't know if you can go to Central Asia right now? 1:14:02.720 --> 1:14:03.760 But go somewhere you can go. 1:14:04.160 --> 1:14:07.160 You know what I'm gonna I'm gonna book the ticket right. 1:14:07.160 --> 1:14:07.960 The book a hostel. 1:14:08.200 --> 1:14:09.000 Book a hostel. 1:14:09.680 --> 1:14:12.960 Okay, go alone and start talking to other people, because 1:14:12.960 --> 1:14:15.559 it's gonna be other people your age at the hostel 1:14:15.760 --> 1:14:16.160 and do it. 1:14:16.360 --> 1:14:18.559 Yeah, I'm gonna book the ticket right now. 1:14:20.120 --> 1:14:27.160 Absolutely, good night you too, all from Naomio, Naomio. 1:14:28.280 --> 1:14:32.640 Oh hi, Naomio. I have a question for you. 1:14:33.160 --> 1:14:35.519 Yep, how do we know? 1:14:36.439 --> 1:14:40.040 How do you know you're not dead? I don't know. 1:14:41.240 --> 1:14:42.000 Does that scare you? 1:14:48.520 --> 1:14:48.920 Sometimes? 1:14:49.000 --> 1:14:49.560 It scares me? 1:14:52.080 --> 1:14:53.599 Does it scare you today? 1:14:56.840 --> 1:14:56.880 Not? 1:14:57.080 --> 1:14:57.400 Right now? 1:14:59.200 --> 1:15:00.920 Why do you think it does to scare you? Right now? 1:15:05.680 --> 1:15:09.519 I'm feeling I'm feeling optimistic today, I'm feeling happy today. 1:15:11.520 --> 1:15:13.439 Do you typically feel optimistic. 1:15:14.800 --> 1:15:15.280 Typically? 1:15:15.439 --> 1:15:15.639 Yes? 1:15:17.760 --> 1:15:27.120 Mm hmm. What do you think is the prime reason 1:15:28.479 --> 1:15:30.880 why you so often feel optimistic? 1:15:37.080 --> 1:15:40.240 Part of me thinks that it's just a part of 1:15:40.439 --> 1:15:48.840 my disposition, like it's maybe biological. And I also just 1:15:49.000 --> 1:15:52.960 find that in general, when I am optimistic about things, 1:15:53.120 --> 1:15:59.920 then I I'm generally happier. So it's kind of like 1:16:00.160 --> 1:16:01.280 a snowball effect. 1:16:01.360 --> 1:16:01.839 I guess. 1:16:03.439 --> 1:16:07.200 I find that interesting. You say when you're optimistic, you 1:16:07.360 --> 1:16:12.840 feel happier, which so and so, therefore you choose to 1:16:12.960 --> 1:16:16.400 be optimistic. I think that's really cool, to be honest 1:16:16.479 --> 1:16:20.960 with you, because a lot of the time I've looked 1:16:21.000 --> 1:16:27.679 at optimism and pessimism not so much as a choice 1:16:27.760 --> 1:16:31.640 as you've just described, but as a you wake up 1:16:31.720 --> 1:16:35.160 and this is how you're feeling. I like the intention 1:16:36.200 --> 1:16:36.880 behind all this. 1:16:38.720 --> 1:16:39.400 Oh well, thank you. 1:16:39.600 --> 1:16:42.479 I wasn't aware that it was. 1:16:44.360 --> 1:16:46.599 I don't know interpreted differently to people. 1:16:49.880 --> 1:16:52.240 Do you find it difficult to choose every day to 1:16:52.320 --> 1:16:53.040 be optimistic? 1:16:56.920 --> 1:17:00.880 I don't find it difficult, but I do, Oh, I 1:17:01.000 --> 1:17:04.080 do find it. I find that when I'm having a 1:17:04.200 --> 1:17:07.680 bad day and I'm feeling sort of down and pessimistic, 1:17:07.800 --> 1:17:09.920 it is sometimes hard to get out of that funk. 1:17:14.280 --> 1:17:17.360 When you find yourself in this funk and you make 1:17:17.760 --> 1:17:20.639 an effort to get out of it, what are you doing, 1:17:20.880 --> 1:17:24.000 what are you thinking? How do you what action are 1:17:24.040 --> 1:17:29.759 you taking mentally to revive yourself back into this optimistic place? 1:17:32.960 --> 1:17:35.799 Do you say to yourself, think to yourself? 1:17:37.479 --> 1:17:41.080 Yeah, Usually for the most part. The strategy I've been 1:17:41.200 --> 1:17:44.439 using lately is if I'm having a bad day, I 1:17:44.520 --> 1:17:48.760 will just tell myself that today's a bad day and 1:17:49.240 --> 1:17:54.200 that's okay, and tomorrow's another day, and usually the next 1:17:54.320 --> 1:17:57.680 day things are much better, even just having slept on 1:17:57.800 --> 1:18:00.719 it with nothing actually changing in the world. 1:18:02.600 --> 1:18:12.600 Interesting. You know, I've typically been a pessimist or not. 1:18:13.360 --> 1:18:18.160 I've been skeptical. I've been skeptical of affirmations. But this 1:18:18.280 --> 1:18:21.559 sounds like a good one because it's a long term 1:18:21.960 --> 1:18:27.160 strategy here. You know, you if you accept that today 1:18:27.600 --> 1:18:30.360 it's just in your day, but the next one might be, 1:18:31.200 --> 1:18:33.800 you're playing a long game, and the only games you 1:18:33.840 --> 1:18:35.439 should ever play should be long games. 1:18:36.120 --> 1:18:38.160 So I like this. I like this. 1:18:38.280 --> 1:18:41.720 Thank you for sharing this, Yeah, of course, thank you 1:18:41.880 --> 1:18:43.679 for everything you do and for your. 1:18:45.520 --> 1:18:46.240 Therapy get goo. 1:18:46.640 --> 1:18:47.479 I enjoy it. 1:18:48.560 --> 1:18:52.000 Thank you for your naomio m hm. You have a 1:18:52.000 --> 1:18:52.720 good rest of the night. 1:18:53.160 --> 1:18:53.720 Yeah you too. 1:18:55.560 --> 1:18:56.240 Call from. 1:18:59.120 --> 1:18:59.280 Hell. 1:18:59.280 --> 1:18:59.960 Where are you calling from? 1:19:01.439 --> 1:19:02.679 I'm calling from Canada? 1:19:03.880 --> 1:19:05.439 Canada. How things going up there? 1:19:06.920 --> 1:19:09.519 Yeah, it's kind of it's kind of nice, like things 1:19:09.560 --> 1:19:12.360 are opening up and we can go out and I 1:19:12.439 --> 1:19:14.040 don't know, it's been like a hard year. 1:19:14.120 --> 1:19:16.400 You know, we're you've been going. 1:19:19.040 --> 1:19:22.000 I think studying mostly and chilling. 1:19:22.080 --> 1:19:25.240 You know, you've been studying and chilling. 1:19:26.640 --> 1:19:30.880 Yeah, Like that's how my year been. And I found 1:19:30.920 --> 1:19:34.960 out about you like yesterday, and man, I gotta say, 1:19:35.000 --> 1:19:36.080 you're pretty cool? 1:19:36.160 --> 1:19:41.439 Man, really can you? You know, it's weird because you've 1:19:41.479 --> 1:19:44.720 only known you've known about me for only a day, 1:19:44.760 --> 1:19:47.240 and you're saying I'm really cool. But at the end 1:19:47.280 --> 1:19:49.000 of the day, I feel like, is a day? 1:19:49.680 --> 1:19:49.840 You know? 1:19:50.840 --> 1:19:52.479 I guess I guess what I'm trying to say is like, 1:19:53.320 --> 1:19:57.760 is a day long enough? Have I Do you feel 1:19:57.800 --> 1:20:02.599 like I've provided you a enough information? Maybe not me directly, 1:20:02.680 --> 1:20:07.080 but I guess my whatever social media online presence has 1:20:07.200 --> 1:20:11.360 provided you enough information only in that one day for 1:20:11.439 --> 1:20:13.719 you to make the judgment that I am cool. 1:20:15.280 --> 1:20:20.240 I like to be honest, Like in my mother country, 1:20:20.439 --> 1:20:22.519 like we don't have people like you like doing this 1:20:22.680 --> 1:20:23.240 type of thing. 1:20:23.960 --> 1:20:30.640 Like so when I saw you, You're you're saying that, 1:20:30.880 --> 1:20:35.040 like this is just a normal thing in America? Is 1:20:35.200 --> 1:20:38.280 people doing this? This is multiple? 1:20:39.800 --> 1:20:42.360 I like, I have no idea, like this is something 1:20:42.479 --> 1:20:43.719 really new? You don't. 1:20:45.479 --> 1:20:50.240 Interesting interesting? I like I like the fact that well, 1:20:50.280 --> 1:20:52.599 how recently you're you're saying, have you I mean, are 1:20:52.640 --> 1:20:55.960 you new to your your mother? When did you leave 1:20:56.000 --> 1:20:56.360 your mother? 1:20:56.479 --> 1:21:01.479 Country like seven months ago, came to Canada to have 1:21:01.720 --> 1:21:02.719 my college degree. 1:21:03.520 --> 1:21:06.080 Okay, all right, so you're actually all right, So it 1:21:06.120 --> 1:21:09.519 sounds like, you know, it's just I'm in a position 1:21:09.600 --> 1:21:12.400 right now where I could take advantage of your lack 1:21:12.479 --> 1:21:16.320 of American culture, and I could just tell you that 1:21:17.360 --> 1:21:21.120 dressing up as geckos is just anat It's just something 1:21:21.160 --> 1:21:25.599 that we do come every you know, June twenty first 1:21:25.680 --> 1:21:28.439 in America. I could convince you that, and you would 1:21:28.479 --> 1:21:31.000 just believe me because I, you know, I think I'm 1:21:31.040 --> 1:21:35.479 cool apparently, and you don't have prior knowledge to compete with. 1:21:36.560 --> 1:21:38.479 So I I could just tell you that and you 1:21:38.560 --> 1:21:40.240 would take place value. It seems. 1:21:41.600 --> 1:21:46.200 It's not like I don't know anything about the American culture, 1:21:46.400 --> 1:21:49.080 like I've seen. I know a lot of things, but 1:21:49.520 --> 1:21:50.120 something like. 1:21:50.200 --> 1:21:55.519 This is the first time, you know, where's your mother country? 1:21:57.200 --> 1:21:59.879 I'm African, actually, I'm from North Africa. 1:22:00.720 --> 1:22:01.000 Nice? 1:22:01.320 --> 1:22:04.160 Nice, And what made you want to come to Canada? 1:22:06.560 --> 1:22:11.200 Like the universities are good here, are better than European universities, 1:22:11.320 --> 1:22:18.519 you know, and Canada really really chill, you know? 1:22:19.640 --> 1:22:23.280 M hm, Yes, yes, I have got I have gotten 1:22:23.360 --> 1:22:26.720 that sense from Canada all the Canadian. Every Canadian that's 1:22:26.720 --> 1:22:32.280 called the show sounds sounds very very Canadian. 1:22:34.120 --> 1:22:35.040 What does that mean? 1:22:36.479 --> 1:22:38.840 I couldn't explain it if I wanted to. Where do 1:22:38.880 --> 1:22:39.719 you what do you study? 1:22:41.160 --> 1:22:42.920 I'm studying computer science. 1:22:44.240 --> 1:22:46.080 Okay, what do you What do you want to be 1:22:46.240 --> 1:22:47.000 when you grow up? 1:22:49.080 --> 1:22:52.680 Like, I don't know, maybe I'm not sure about that. 1:22:52.920 --> 1:22:56.960 Like I haven't chosen a specialty yet, but I want 1:22:57.000 --> 1:23:00.080 to be a technical engineer. 1:22:59.680 --> 1:23:03.080 You know, electrical engineer. 1:23:04.439 --> 1:23:04.639 Yeah. 1:23:07.640 --> 1:23:08.240 Interesting. 1:23:08.960 --> 1:23:11.160 Well this is the problem. This is why I wanted 1:23:11.200 --> 1:23:13.439 to talk to you, because this is not what I want, 1:23:13.880 --> 1:23:15.080 what my parents want. 1:23:16.439 --> 1:23:20.360 Okay, okay, do you have something that you do want 1:23:20.479 --> 1:23:20.640 to do? 1:23:21.920 --> 1:23:22.080 Yeah? 1:23:22.120 --> 1:23:25.479 I want to play soccer, man, Like that was my dream, 1:23:25.680 --> 1:23:29.320 Like since I've been I don't know, four years old. 1:23:30.439 --> 1:23:31.639 You want to play soccer? 1:23:32.400 --> 1:23:32.920 You know? Yeah? 1:23:32.920 --> 1:23:33.240 I want to? 1:23:35.360 --> 1:23:35.720 You want to? 1:23:35.760 --> 1:23:37.400 When you say you want to play? When you say 1:23:37.439 --> 1:23:39.760 you want to play soccer, do you mean you want to? 1:23:40.000 --> 1:23:41.680 Like you want to be a professional I don't know. 1:23:41.840 --> 1:23:43.439 I don't know how the fucking leagues work or anything. 1:23:43.479 --> 1:23:44.759 But you want to be a professional player. 1:23:45.880 --> 1:23:47.639 Yeah, I want to be a professional player. 1:23:49.439 --> 1:23:53.639 Interesting, how do you do that? I don't know anything? 1:23:53.680 --> 1:23:55.360 About soccer. I don't watch it. I'm not in the 1:23:55.560 --> 1:23:59.439 FC League or the twenty or the LC League or 1:23:59.479 --> 1:24:01.760 whatever it is. How do you know what is the 1:24:01.840 --> 1:24:02.560 path to doing that? 1:24:02.680 --> 1:24:08.160 Even like this is something something that I've noticed here 1:24:08.240 --> 1:24:11.960 in America, like people don't know anything about like soccer, 1:24:12.240 --> 1:24:15.960 and it's a huge in African Europe. It's something that 1:24:17.000 --> 1:24:22.479 you see. Everybody watches soccer. Everybody plays soccer. Everybody loves 1:24:22.880 --> 1:24:26.080 you no, we know, like every player from every nationality, 1:24:26.160 --> 1:24:27.920 from every country, from every team. 1:24:28.000 --> 1:24:31.280 You know, and yet we got you to call it soccer. 1:24:33.120 --> 1:24:36.880 Yeah, that's the problem. For seven months, Like everybody like 1:24:37.000 --> 1:24:39.519 being when I say soccer, they when I say football, 1:24:39.600 --> 1:24:42.400 they'd be like, no, it's not football, it's soccer. That's 1:24:42.479 --> 1:24:47.240 pretty dumb, man. But they can't start. 1:24:47.080 --> 1:24:50.640 Ay soccer, it's you know. It's whenever people tell me that, 1:24:50.760 --> 1:24:52.200 like they have a thing that they want to do, 1:24:52.320 --> 1:24:55.040 I always tell them that they should, like make content 1:24:55.200 --> 1:24:58.800 on the internet, because I believe that that's a way, 1:24:59.439 --> 1:25:01.200 like a past to being able to do a lot 1:25:01.280 --> 1:25:07.639 of things. Now soccer, becoming a soccer player seems very difficult. 1:25:07.880 --> 1:25:12.040 Although I don't know if soccer is so popular that 1:25:12.320 --> 1:25:16.439 like you could make a living in like a minor league. 1:25:17.000 --> 1:25:18.680 I don't know. I don't know what the legit, what 1:25:18.800 --> 1:25:21.479 the practical process is of doing that. 1:25:22.920 --> 1:25:27.000 Like I'll say the number. Like there's a big football 1:25:27.040 --> 1:25:30.040 player that I personally love, He's my favorite. His name 1:25:30.080 --> 1:25:34.280 is Christiano Ronaldo on issue only on Instagram, like he 1:25:34.479 --> 1:25:38.559 made in twenty twenty, he made forty seven million dollars 1:25:39.120 --> 1:25:42.679 only from Instagram, without without the soccer, without the companies, 1:25:42.720 --> 1:25:43.519 without anything. 1:25:44.240 --> 1:25:47.600 You sure, well, because what I was gonna say is 1:25:47.880 --> 1:25:53.720 I mean what I would do is, you know, if 1:25:53.800 --> 1:25:57.680 you can't become a soccer player, if the world of 1:25:57.840 --> 1:26:03.599 soccer is big enough, you could make soccer related content 1:26:03.800 --> 1:26:08.360 on you know, TikTok or fucking Twitch or something like 1:26:08.520 --> 1:26:11.160 that and try to build something off of there. 1:26:12.840 --> 1:26:15.639 Yeah, Like I had this idea and it's like being 1:26:15.720 --> 1:26:18.479 buzzing in my mind for the past while. 1:26:18.600 --> 1:26:22.400 You know, Okay, what's what's the What's what's the idea here? 1:26:24.000 --> 1:26:26.400 Like I want to make videos of me like doing 1:26:26.560 --> 1:26:29.800 tricks I don't know, and teach people that don't know 1:26:29.920 --> 1:26:32.920 how to play soccer, like the basics and things. 1:26:32.960 --> 1:26:35.639 You know, what did you say? 1:26:37.120 --> 1:26:38.680 I like sharing it before you. 1:26:38.720 --> 1:26:40.559 Know what did you say? Your name was. 1:26:42.280 --> 1:26:42.559 Life? 1:26:43.560 --> 1:26:44.280 Life. I love it. 1:26:44.640 --> 1:26:48.120 I think that's a fantastic idea. I think that's wonderful. 1:26:48.479 --> 1:26:50.519 I'm dead serious with you right now. I think you 1:26:50.560 --> 1:26:53.160 should make You should learn how to make tiktoks go. 1:26:53.360 --> 1:26:55.040 I don't know if you're on TikTok, but watch some 1:26:55.200 --> 1:26:57.840 of that ship. Learn how to get your lighting right 1:26:58.120 --> 1:27:01.720 and make your fucking uh soccer videos. I think that's 1:27:01.760 --> 1:27:05.960 a great idea. You know, look, you might find, you 1:27:06.080 --> 1:27:08.920 might find you could even like, here's the thing, man, 1:27:09.120 --> 1:27:13.360 is like with the Internet, you could build up a 1:27:13.520 --> 1:27:19.840 tiny little audience. Something could happen, you know, Like I don't. 1:27:19.840 --> 1:27:22.680 I don't think that that's unrealistic anymore. You trying to 1:27:22.760 --> 1:27:28.840 be fucking the next Christ, Chris whatever, Ronaldo, Well, we'll 1:27:28.880 --> 1:27:31.519 be honest, but building up an audience on the internet 1:27:32.000 --> 1:27:38.000 for soccer content achievable, in my opinion, I would I 1:27:38.280 --> 1:27:39.639 think you should do that, man, I think you should 1:27:39.640 --> 1:27:40.320 make some tiktoks. 1:27:40.360 --> 1:27:40.759 I think. 1:27:42.280 --> 1:27:44.479 I think you should go for it. And also, it's 1:27:44.520 --> 1:27:46.559 not like you have to fucking drop out of school 1:27:46.640 --> 1:27:48.960 and spend twelve hours a day doing it. It's like, 1:27:49.040 --> 1:27:50.920 you know, you have a few hours here, a few 1:27:50.960 --> 1:27:53.160 hours there, you'll work on the thing, you know what 1:27:53.200 --> 1:27:53.479 I mean. 1:27:55.520 --> 1:27:59.360 Yeah, it's a great idea if if I drop out 1:27:59.360 --> 1:28:00.840 of school, like shoot me. 1:28:00.920 --> 1:28:05.280 You know, well, you don't have to drop out of 1:28:05.320 --> 1:28:08.479 school to do it. I you have for whatever it's worth. 1:28:08.560 --> 1:28:10.559 The gecko guy thinks you should do it. I think 1:28:10.720 --> 1:28:13.880 uh uh, definitely, definitely give it a try. 1:28:15.680 --> 1:28:19.599 Yeah, that's like, thank you man for it for sure. 1:28:19.760 --> 1:28:22.600 And here's another thing. Look, and then another thing is 1:28:22.760 --> 1:28:24.760 sure there might be a lot here. And this is 1:28:24.800 --> 1:28:27.800 gonna sound cheesy. This is gonna sound cheesy, but I 1:28:28.520 --> 1:28:30.599 believe in I read though there's a lot of people 1:28:30.640 --> 1:28:33.000 out there that make soccer content, which is true. There's 1:28:33.000 --> 1:28:35.519 a lot of people out to make soccer content. And again, 1:28:35.840 --> 1:28:39.800 gonna sound cheesy. Get ready for some cheese. But there 1:28:40.000 --> 1:28:44.120 is only one you leaf, So people are gonna want 1:28:44.120 --> 1:28:47.320 to come to see you specifically, so you know, make 1:28:47.360 --> 1:28:50.320 sure you're yourself in these videos, not trying to be 1:28:50.479 --> 1:28:52.400 like all the other people out there making soccer content. 1:28:55.120 --> 1:28:59.280 Yeah, that's this is one of the best advices I've got, like, 1:29:00.120 --> 1:29:01.799 especially with no one. 1:29:01.760 --> 1:29:02.680 To talk you know. 1:29:04.520 --> 1:29:07.439 Hell yeah, man, look power too. Do you have any 1:29:07.479 --> 1:29:10.040 of these accounts already, like do you have an Instagram? 1:29:10.120 --> 1:29:10.840 Do you have a thing? 1:29:12.320 --> 1:29:12.479 Uh? 1:29:12.760 --> 1:29:13.160 Follow you? 1:29:14.520 --> 1:29:18.360 But you know, I tried like streaming once I was 1:29:18.439 --> 1:29:22.040 playing Color of Duty Color of Duty War Zone. I 1:29:22.160 --> 1:29:25.040 tried streaming, but a lot of people were really mean, 1:29:25.160 --> 1:29:25.679 and shit. 1:29:25.640 --> 1:29:29.599 That's why people are people are I'm not reading the chap, 1:29:29.640 --> 1:29:31.800 but I'm sure people are being mean to me right now. 1:29:32.400 --> 1:29:36.400 I've had hundreds and hundreds of comments I'm sure telling 1:29:36.479 --> 1:29:40.639 me to kill myself over the past hour. But I'm 1:29:40.720 --> 1:29:42.400 going strong, baby, you can. 1:29:42.439 --> 1:29:48.960 Too, Like that's really true. Man, people can be dicks sometimes. 1:29:49.840 --> 1:29:51.760 Do it up big, don't let the people be in look, 1:29:52.920 --> 1:29:54.120 go for it. How old are you? 1:29:54.160 --> 1:29:56.479 By the way, I'm twenty one? 1:29:57.080 --> 1:29:58.960 Oh God, go do it, go make go make soccer 1:29:59.040 --> 1:30:02.720 tiktoks or ball tiktoks. I believe in you, Leif. Y'all 1:30:02.760 --> 1:30:05.040 thank you for thank you for calling them. Man and Sharon. 1:30:05.080 --> 1:30:06.000 You have a good rest of the night. 1:30:06.880 --> 1:30:08.320 I thank your man. You're the best. 1:30:09.040 --> 1:30:10.639 Of course, of course you take care of Leif. 1:30:14.560 --> 1:30:16.920 Call from Mody. 1:30:18.200 --> 1:30:26.360 Mody, Hello, Hey, how are you? 1:30:28.040 --> 1:30:28.400 How are you? 1:30:31.880 --> 1:30:32.799 You want to take answer? 1:30:34.560 --> 1:30:35.360 M sure? 1:30:37.640 --> 1:30:38.040 Managing? 1:30:41.040 --> 1:30:42.880 Or is that to imply that the real answer is 1:30:42.880 --> 1:30:43.879 that you are not managing. 1:30:45.840 --> 1:30:48.840 Yeah, i'd say, so what what is there? 1:30:48.880 --> 1:30:49.759 What is there to manage? 1:30:52.600 --> 1:30:52.720 Uh? 1:30:55.439 --> 1:31:01.000 I guess expectations, expectations of. 1:31:01.040 --> 1:31:07.200 What, expectations for myself, expectations from my family. 1:31:09.560 --> 1:31:13.960 There's a hair in here. What does your family expect 1:31:14.439 --> 1:31:14.760 from you? 1:31:19.320 --> 1:31:22.360 They want me to follow like the traditionalist model, you know, 1:31:22.600 --> 1:31:27.519 they want me to be successful, wife, kids, house, money. 1:31:28.680 --> 1:31:31.280 It seems like money is Yeah, all the fingers get 1:31:31.320 --> 1:31:34.080 in there. It seems like money is like the only, 1:31:34.600 --> 1:31:36.280 the only way to measure my success. 1:31:39.920 --> 1:31:42.360 There's two hairs on here. How much money do your 1:31:42.400 --> 1:31:43.240 parents want you to have? 1:31:45.040 --> 1:31:51.439 Well, my grandparents were. My grandfather owned an insurance company, 1:31:51.760 --> 1:31:58.080 so his kids didn't meet up to the expectation. And 1:31:58.560 --> 1:32:01.000 I feel like they're they just want me to be 1:32:01.760 --> 1:32:02.800 what they didn't get to be. 1:32:05.479 --> 1:32:06.280 Well, what do you want to be. 1:32:09.080 --> 1:32:14.720 A To be honest, I really want to be an 1:32:14.840 --> 1:32:20.559 actor or something and something to do with film. Film 1:32:20.920 --> 1:32:22.519 was always my escape when I was a kid. 1:32:23.160 --> 1:32:26.599 I'm telling you all, I'm telling you all. I'm telling 1:32:26.680 --> 1:32:29.640 you all. I'm telling you all. I'm telling you what 1:32:29.760 --> 1:32:34.000 I told Leif. I'm telling everyone listening to this, because 1:32:34.000 --> 1:32:37.040 I've seen it happen eight thousand times. It happened to 1:32:37.120 --> 1:32:40.479 me personally, it happened to my friends, and it happened 1:32:40.479 --> 1:32:43.960 to people. I see it all the time. I am 1:32:44.080 --> 1:32:46.320 telling you, if you want to be an actor, if 1:32:46.320 --> 1:32:48.120 you want to make soccer content, if you want to 1:32:48.160 --> 1:32:51.400 do that, make it. Make a TikTok account, Make a 1:32:51.439 --> 1:32:55.960 TikTok account and make tiktoks. That's what that's your number 1:32:56.000 --> 1:32:59.800 one is the number. The guarantee fastest way that you 1:33:00.560 --> 1:33:03.400 will be able to make a living being an actor. 1:33:04.160 --> 1:33:07.400 You'll be able to eke out thirty thousand dollars a 1:33:07.520 --> 1:33:13.040 year being an actor is with TikTok. You should make tiktoks. 1:33:13.920 --> 1:33:17.479 That's my that's my practice. That's my practical, actionable advice 1:33:17.560 --> 1:33:19.160 to you to be. 1:33:19.520 --> 1:33:22.439 To be honest, I bought, I went out and I 1:33:22.520 --> 1:33:28.280 got a microphone because I figured that i'd start voice acting. 1:33:29.360 --> 1:33:29.400 This. 1:33:29.920 --> 1:33:32.280 When I was a kid, I was like in all 1:33:32.400 --> 1:33:36.840 this acting crap, and you know, the little little classes 1:33:36.960 --> 1:33:40.559 and groups and whatnot. When when I was a little older, 1:33:40.640 --> 1:33:44.479 remote across country or from California or to Florida, and 1:33:44.600 --> 1:33:48.519 that kind of stuff went away. But there was this 1:33:49.000 --> 1:33:53.640 when my dad was younger, he had this shot to 1:33:53.720 --> 1:33:56.759 be a comedian and he got scared. 1:33:57.400 --> 1:34:00.960 And when I was a kid, he nay, save me. 1:34:02.439 --> 1:34:02.800 Out of it. 1:34:03.439 --> 1:34:05.400 Made me feel like, you know, people were going to 1:34:05.439 --> 1:34:10.000 see you and they're going to be you know, they're 1:34:10.000 --> 1:34:12.720 gonna they're gonna put you down. That's that's all your 1:34:12.760 --> 1:34:14.479 life is gonna be people putting you down. 1:34:14.640 --> 1:34:18.040 And so since then I've just had it's called. 1:34:19.640 --> 1:34:21.720 About that you grew up at a different time than 1:34:21.760 --> 1:34:23.240 you grew up because you grew up at the time 1:34:23.320 --> 1:34:25.200 of the internet and in the time of the internet. 1:34:25.280 --> 1:34:26.680 This is, by the way, this is the one thing 1:34:26.760 --> 1:34:29.000 that I'm the most of any like advicey thing, and 1:34:29.080 --> 1:34:31.120 I don't give advice on a lot of different subjects. 1:34:31.240 --> 1:34:33.960 The one thing I'm very passionate about. Your dad grew 1:34:34.040 --> 1:34:37.040 up in a time where to be an ad to 1:34:37.080 --> 1:34:38.760 be a commedian. You da grew up at a time 1:34:38.800 --> 1:34:42.599 where to be a comedian the only way was there 1:34:42.720 --> 1:34:46.120 was one fucking old ass dude who worked at the 1:34:46.200 --> 1:34:49.200 Tonight Show with Johnny Carson. And if that dude didn't 1:34:49.320 --> 1:34:52.519 like you, you're fucked. That's that's when that's when your 1:34:52.600 --> 1:34:55.719 dad grow that grew up with the one fucking seventy 1:34:55.800 --> 1:34:58.479 year old white guy that worked at fucking Johnny Carson 1:35:00.040 --> 1:35:06.320 doesn't like them, then you're screwed. Now where you where 1:35:06.400 --> 1:35:11.040 you now? The universe that you live in is you 1:35:11.160 --> 1:35:14.080 could have you could you could put a video of 1:35:14.200 --> 1:35:17.519 yourself doing a monologue in front of a million people, 1:35:18.640 --> 1:35:21.840 and if every single one of them fucking hates you, 1:35:22.040 --> 1:35:27.559 except for a thousand, you can have a fantastic career. 1:35:27.680 --> 1:35:30.519 That's the world that you live in. Take advantage of 1:35:30.600 --> 1:35:33.600 that world, okay, because you're grand. The world that you 1:35:33.720 --> 1:35:36.439 that grew up in is gone comedians going on the 1:35:36.479 --> 1:35:39.280 Tonight Show and no one hears you. You can build 1:35:39.439 --> 1:35:42.200 your audience for your thing on the computer. Take advantage 1:35:42.240 --> 1:35:46.760 of that. Okay, that does that make sense? It does. 1:35:48.240 --> 1:35:51.360 Take advantage of that because it's new. I mean it's 1:35:51.400 --> 1:35:55.760 not even like it's like two years old, but it's 1:35:55.880 --> 1:35:59.320 it's the world you live in, so you know, take 1:35:59.400 --> 1:36:00.400 take advantage of that. 1:36:06.160 --> 1:36:09.080 You know, I really don't have a choice but to 1:36:09.720 --> 1:36:11.000 go at it now, Really. 1:36:12.040 --> 1:36:13.479 You, God damn right, would you say name once? 1:36:14.720 --> 1:36:15.040 Mody? 1:36:16.720 --> 1:36:18.400 Mody? I look forward to seeing you on the for 1:36:18.560 --> 1:36:18.960 you pitch. 1:36:21.720 --> 1:36:24.200 I'll see you seeing me lady. 1:36:24.240 --> 1:36:26.080 Did lady. 1:36:28.800 --> 1:36:29.479 Call from. 1:36:30.840 --> 1:36:31.200 Ellie? 1:36:32.840 --> 1:36:33.160 Ellie? 1:36:35.160 --> 1:36:39.400 Hi, Hey, what's going on? 1:36:41.120 --> 1:36:42.320 I'm a gecko on the computer. 1:36:43.600 --> 1:36:50.280 Yeah, that's what are you? I'm I'm just driving home 1:36:51.320 --> 1:36:53.439 from my friend's house and I thought, hey, let me 1:36:53.560 --> 1:36:57.160 just call, let me just call the therapy get go, 1:36:57.439 --> 1:36:57.960 And here I am. 1:36:59.280 --> 1:37:00.599 Well, how do you know this friend? 1:37:02.400 --> 1:37:03.240 How do I know this friend? 1:37:04.120 --> 1:37:08.080 I I don't really know. 1:37:08.960 --> 1:37:17.360 I did trivia at this local bar in town when 1:37:17.400 --> 1:37:21.680 I first moved here, and I met another guy and 1:37:21.800 --> 1:37:24.800 he's friends with this guy. And it's been a few 1:37:24.880 --> 1:37:27.599 years now, but I guess we got to know each 1:37:27.600 --> 1:37:28.120 other that way. 1:37:30.920 --> 1:37:31.479 How old are you? 1:37:34.800 --> 1:37:36.960 It's not very nice to ask a lady that, But 1:37:37.040 --> 1:37:37.760 I'm twenty nine. 1:37:38.680 --> 1:37:41.679 You're twenty nine. It's interesting. Why it's find it interesting 1:37:41.800 --> 1:37:43.880 because you know, I hear all the time people say 1:37:44.000 --> 1:37:49.160 that they have a hard time making friends as an adult. 1:37:50.600 --> 1:37:53.720 Yeah, yeah, you know. I mean I've found I've had 1:37:53.760 --> 1:37:57.000 a hard time making like I mean, I have friends, 1:37:57.040 --> 1:37:58.800 and I'm grateful for my friends, but yeah, I do 1:37:58.920 --> 1:38:03.599 really feel like I don't find it easy to make 1:38:03.800 --> 1:38:04.280 more friends. 1:38:05.560 --> 1:38:10.200 Well, you made a friend in a pretty uh, Well, 1:38:10.320 --> 1:38:11.800 you went out to a bar and you just made 1:38:11.840 --> 1:38:14.120 a friend and you've been friends for a few years. 1:38:15.120 --> 1:38:15.479 That's fat. 1:38:15.520 --> 1:38:17.200 Yeah, it is. 1:38:17.720 --> 1:38:17.960 It is. 1:38:18.040 --> 1:38:19.160 Thank you for that perspective. 1:38:21.720 --> 1:38:23.760 Do you do you wish to make more friends or 1:38:23.800 --> 1:38:25.400 you're happy with the amount of friends that you have. 1:38:28.320 --> 1:38:32.280 I wish to make more friends. I feel like I 1:38:32.360 --> 1:38:36.320 don't get out enough. Like I feel like I'm starting 1:38:36.360 --> 1:38:39.040 to try to get out more. Like tonight, I just decided, okay, 1:38:39.080 --> 1:38:44.320 I'm gonna I wanted to make food, and this friend 1:38:44.479 --> 1:38:50.200 was willing to sample my cooking, and so I just 1:38:50.280 --> 1:38:52.559 went out and did it. But it's been a while 1:38:52.640 --> 1:38:53.760 since I've done something like this. 1:38:56.400 --> 1:38:57.759 When did you move to this place? 1:38:59.280 --> 1:38:59.960 In four years? 1:39:01.120 --> 1:39:03.080 Four a year? All right, that's pretty good. I don't 1:39:03.160 --> 1:39:04.640 know anyone before you moved to. 1:39:07.800 --> 1:39:12.640 I kind of like this was my college town and 1:39:13.280 --> 1:39:15.479 and then I like left for years and I came 1:39:15.560 --> 1:39:18.880 back for work, so I kind of knew people because 1:39:18.920 --> 1:39:19.800 I went to college here. 1:39:20.760 --> 1:39:30.880 Okay, yeah, so you want to make more friends, Well, 1:39:30.920 --> 1:39:35.160 you me my friends, me being your friend, Well, here's 1:39:35.240 --> 1:39:37.040 there's a couple of things with that. Me being your 1:39:37.080 --> 1:39:40.760 friend wouldn't be super useful to you, because I doubt 1:39:40.800 --> 1:39:43.880 that I live in the same area that you live. 1:39:45.120 --> 1:39:45.439 Okay. 1:39:47.680 --> 1:39:49.800 Also, you're putting me on the spot a little bit here, 1:39:49.920 --> 1:39:54.280 because you know, look, we've been on the phone for 1:39:55.880 --> 1:39:58.880 like three minutes. Now I feel like not that my 1:39:59.120 --> 1:40:01.960 like first impress of you. And I try not to 1:40:02.080 --> 1:40:04.160 have impressions, all right. I try not to make judgments 1:40:04.240 --> 1:40:06.400 unless if I have what I feel to be a 1:40:06.479 --> 1:40:10.560 sufficient amount of information to make them. But you know, 1:40:10.680 --> 1:40:12.439 in the three minutes I've known you, I don't feel 1:40:12.479 --> 1:40:19.639 like it's been long enough for me to really determine 1:40:19.640 --> 1:40:22.400 whether or not I would be your friend. And I 1:40:22.600 --> 1:40:24.439 look you to me as well. You know, I could 1:40:24.479 --> 1:40:27.760 be a far more heinous of a person than I've 1:40:27.840 --> 1:40:32.080 given off in this three minute phone call, and possibly 1:40:34.000 --> 1:40:37.200 if I gave you more information about myself as a person, 1:40:37.320 --> 1:40:41.439 you might find that whatever impression of me that I've 1:40:41.479 --> 1:40:44.200 given you that made you want me to be your 1:40:44.280 --> 1:40:48.200 friend is now gone and replaced with something far worse, 1:40:48.680 --> 1:40:50.439 causing you to not want to be my friend. So 1:40:50.720 --> 1:40:55.960 for that reason, I think that as of this very moment, 1:40:56.760 --> 1:40:58.080 I don't know if it'd be a good idea for 1:40:58.160 --> 1:40:58.719 us to be friends. 1:40:59.600 --> 1:41:02.880 Okay, I respect that, thank you, of course. 1:41:03.040 --> 1:41:08.240 What did you say her name was? Ellie, Ellie, Ellie, 1:41:08.320 --> 1:41:11.960 let's look before we go. I want I want to 1:41:12.000 --> 1:41:14.240 come up with let's let's get an actionable thing here. 1:41:14.320 --> 1:41:17.840 What's something you can do to make more friends? 1:41:19.080 --> 1:41:21.840 What's something I can do to make more friends? I 1:41:21.960 --> 1:41:25.880 can probably just you know, I spend a lot of. 1:41:25.920 --> 1:41:27.639 Time in my house, and I think one. 1:41:29.120 --> 1:41:32.240 One thing that I could do is get out of 1:41:32.320 --> 1:41:34.000 my house for you. 1:41:35.360 --> 1:41:37.080 Yeah, I think I want to do that. 1:41:38.400 --> 1:41:40.360 Well, you're in the car, aren't you. 1:41:41.479 --> 1:41:43.679 I am bingo. 1:41:44.400 --> 1:41:45.960 You're working on it. You're already there. 1:41:46.880 --> 1:41:47.360 I like it. 1:41:48.200 --> 1:41:49.960 Thank you, Ellie, thank you so much for calling in. 1:41:50.960 --> 1:41:52.799 Well, thank you you take. 1:41:52.640 --> 1:41:53.920 Care all right? 1:41:53.960 --> 1:41:54.840 You just bye. 1:41:57.280 --> 1:41:58.679 She's already out of the house. 1:42:00.160 --> 1:42:01.080 Bam. Done. 1:42:02.479 --> 1:42:04.599 Onto the next item of these two lists. 1:42:05.720 --> 1:42:06.320 How from. 1:42:08.200 --> 1:42:09.360 Ultra laser. 1:42:12.920 --> 1:42:13.679 Ultra laser? 1:42:15.240 --> 1:42:15.439 Yeah? 1:42:19.720 --> 1:42:21.679 How did you come to be? How did you become 1:42:21.800 --> 1:42:22.439 ultra laser? 1:42:23.360 --> 1:42:24.880 How did I become ultra laser? 1:42:26.479 --> 1:42:26.960 I don't know. 1:42:27.439 --> 1:42:29.920 I thought that the portmanteau of. 1:42:30.400 --> 1:42:34.040 Ultra and laser was a really cool combination. 1:42:39.479 --> 1:42:39.879 Hmm. 1:42:40.600 --> 1:42:42.800 Are you afraid to use your real name or is 1:42:42.880 --> 1:42:43.519 this your real name? 1:42:45.240 --> 1:42:49.559 Well, I mean my name is rich. I'm not afraid 1:42:49.640 --> 1:42:50.559 to use my real name. 1:42:51.560 --> 1:42:52.600 So how come you didn't use it? 1:42:54.000 --> 1:42:55.920 Well, I didn't know what this was. 1:42:56.040 --> 1:43:01.640 Was Is it possible that through into my stream you 1:43:01.760 --> 1:43:05.559 saw an opportunity to assume an identity that was not yours, 1:43:05.640 --> 1:43:11.080 therefore escaping the identity of rich and you got me 1:43:11.439 --> 1:43:16.080 fresh persona that is not the problems of the old one. 1:43:18.120 --> 1:43:18.800 Absolutely. 1:43:19.600 --> 1:43:21.639 What are you escaping from telling me about the problems? 1:43:22.800 --> 1:43:24.599 Well, I don't know about that. Now. 1:43:25.400 --> 1:43:27.960 I can't really pour my heart out onto a stream. 1:43:28.479 --> 1:43:33.920 However, m hm, things are dark, for sure. 1:43:36.680 --> 1:43:38.120 You gotta light them up with the lasers. 1:43:39.960 --> 1:43:41.480 Light them up with the lasers. 1:43:42.520 --> 1:43:43.320 You ever thought about that? 1:43:45.000 --> 1:43:45.040 No? 1:43:46.560 --> 1:43:47.000 I like this. 1:43:47.200 --> 1:43:50.760 I feel like this is an independent film. You're, Oh, 1:43:52.640 --> 1:43:55.479 you know, a guy who's experienced some trauma in your life, 1:43:56.640 --> 1:43:58.680 and you have I feel like I've seen this in 1:43:58.720 --> 1:44:00.360 a lot of movies. You're a guy who's sperience some 1:44:00.439 --> 1:44:06.280 trauma in their life and you have an alternative reality, 1:44:07.120 --> 1:44:11.320 you know, a bridge to Tabithia whatever that fucking movie 1:44:11.520 --> 1:44:15.719 with Steve Correll. You have this sort of alter reality 1:44:16.320 --> 1:44:21.120 to escape into to prevent yourself from feeling the feelings 1:44:21.160 --> 1:44:23.160 you don't want to feel. What I think you should 1:44:23.200 --> 1:44:28.839 do is make ultra laser into a three part trilogy 1:44:28.920 --> 1:44:34.080 film series and sell the rights to Sony for enough 1:44:34.120 --> 1:44:37.200 money to retire, and then you can truly escape your 1:44:37.280 --> 1:44:40.960 trauma by moving halfway across the world to like an 1:44:41.000 --> 1:44:43.120 island or something where you won't have to talk to 1:44:43.200 --> 1:44:48.559 him again and you can just drink stout beers m. 1:44:50.280 --> 1:44:50.840 Delicious. 1:44:51.439 --> 1:44:55.040 Well, thank you, Gecko, absolutely, thank you so much. Ultra Laser. 1:44:55.040 --> 1:44:56.880 You have a good night you too. 1:45:01.160 --> 1:45:03.320 Call from Emily. 1:45:04.640 --> 1:45:04.960 Emily. 1:45:05.040 --> 1:45:06.040 Hello, Hi. 1:45:07.680 --> 1:45:09.000 Emily, how are you. 1:45:10.880 --> 1:45:14.920 I'm good. I'm I'm folding laundry while I watch the stream. 1:45:15.560 --> 1:45:17.120 And have we ever spoken before, Emily? 1:45:17.880 --> 1:45:19.320 We have? We have? 1:45:20.880 --> 1:45:22.840 Yeah, I'm actually going to see you soon. 1:45:24.080 --> 1:45:26.479 Ah. Yes, this is the Emily from from Portland who 1:45:26.520 --> 1:45:28.639 I'm visiting all my guy across America journey. 1:45:29.439 --> 1:45:34.639 Yes, yeah, yes, and we have spoken before. I think 1:45:34.640 --> 1:45:38.440 I've called in before on your Tuesday night stream. 1:45:38.920 --> 1:45:39.160 Yeah. 1:45:42.240 --> 1:45:46.360 Well, I mean listen to Emily, you know before try 1:45:46.360 --> 1:45:47.880 anything in particular that you want to talk about and 1:45:47.960 --> 1:45:48.439 you want to cover. 1:45:49.479 --> 1:45:49.519 No. 1:45:49.840 --> 1:45:53.840 Well, I called my friend Neil actually earlier right before 1:45:53.880 --> 1:45:56.719 your stream to ask and to watch to co watch 1:45:56.840 --> 1:45:58.559 with me, and so I hope he's listening right now, 1:45:58.560 --> 1:46:00.439 because I was like walk mark my words, I'm going 1:46:00.479 --> 1:46:05.320 to get on tonight, and then I did so, so 1:46:05.439 --> 1:46:08.120 that's nice. But I also was thinking a lot about 1:46:08.439 --> 1:46:11.599 death tonight because of the stream, and I was thinking, 1:46:11.800 --> 1:46:14.479 why I know I'm not dead, It's because I don't know. 1:46:14.760 --> 1:46:19.280 I'm folding laundry and drinking wine and eating pasta, and 1:46:19.320 --> 1:46:21.640 I feel like that would be a really weird ghostly 1:46:21.880 --> 1:46:25.360 haunt or like simulation. 1:46:24.960 --> 1:46:25.360 To be in. 1:46:26.040 --> 1:46:33.160 So assuming, well, you're assuming that you're assuming that the 1:46:33.360 --> 1:46:35.840 pasta you're eating and the laundry you're folding, and the 1:46:35.920 --> 1:46:38.679 wine that you're drinking is not also of the ghost 1:46:38.760 --> 1:46:41.880 world and that you are not able to interact with 1:46:41.960 --> 1:46:44.439 it because you yourself are a ghost. So here's the thing. 1:46:44.479 --> 1:46:46.519 If you're dead and you're a ghost, the pasta that 1:46:46.600 --> 1:46:49.280 you're eating, the wine you're drinking, and the a you're 1:46:49.320 --> 1:46:50.960 folding are of the ghostly world, and that's why you 1:46:51.040 --> 1:46:53.920 can interact with them. So it's not a guarantee. I 1:46:53.960 --> 1:46:57.240 don't think that those activities are are are evidence enough 1:46:57.280 --> 1:46:59.840 that you are not dead, but I will say that true. 1:47:00.600 --> 1:47:02.320 I think it is good that you are thinking about 1:47:02.360 --> 1:47:04.320 those things, these things because a lot of people they 1:47:04.360 --> 1:47:10.960 live their lives, not even stopping to think whether or 1:47:11.000 --> 1:47:14.080 not they are ghosts. So I can bring you on 1:47:14.360 --> 1:47:15.920 putting in that effort in the first place. 1:47:17.160 --> 1:47:21.000 It's thank you. It's funny because when I saw the 1:47:21.120 --> 1:47:23.840 theme for tonight, actually I put on one of my 1:47:24.000 --> 1:47:26.040 like linen dresses because I was like, if I'm going 1:47:26.080 --> 1:47:28.800 to like have a ghosty night of folding laundry and 1:47:28.880 --> 1:47:32.160 drinking one and eating pasta, might as well like really 1:47:32.360 --> 1:47:36.479 lean into the part and listen to this stream about. 1:47:36.280 --> 1:47:36.840 Being a ghost. 1:47:36.920 --> 1:47:41.000 So I could be a ghost. And if so, I think, 1:47:41.720 --> 1:47:43.240 I think I'm okay with that. I think I'd be 1:47:43.280 --> 1:47:47.280 at peace. This is kind of a nice ghostly haunting activity, 1:47:48.160 --> 1:47:49.080 especially talking to us. 1:47:49.479 --> 1:47:51.720 So, of course, of course, Emily, I'm so glad to 1:47:51.800 --> 1:47:53.519 hear that not only have you thought about this, but 1:47:53.640 --> 1:47:59.160 you've accepted the multiple possible realities which will open you 1:47:59.240 --> 1:48:03.440 up the greater happen, because no matter what happens, you're fine. 1:48:04.800 --> 1:48:09.120 Exactly, and you know, yes, I appreciate that. 1:48:09.240 --> 1:48:09.479 Grek. 1:48:10.280 --> 1:48:12.479 Of course, Emily, I'm so happy I got to speak 1:48:12.479 --> 1:48:15.640 with you, and I'm excited to come see you in 1:48:15.680 --> 1:48:17.960 Portland as part of my gek across America. Documentary. 1:48:18.880 --> 1:48:21.840 I'm so excited. I'm so excited to see you. Maybe 1:48:21.920 --> 1:48:25.120 we can ghost around together, you know, haunt some people. 1:48:25.560 --> 1:48:27.479 Well, well, I'm pretty sure I'm not a ghost. 1:48:28.280 --> 1:48:28.760 Oh you're not. 1:48:28.840 --> 1:48:32.320 Okay, So then so you're like, how do you speak? 1:48:32.520 --> 1:48:35.920 I mean, yeah, I don't know how far we could 1:48:35.920 --> 1:48:38.080 go with this, but the fact that you can speak 1:48:38.160 --> 1:48:39.879 to a ghost me maybe. 1:48:40.680 --> 1:48:41.559 It's pretty impressible. 1:48:42.960 --> 1:48:44.400 You've quite the set of skills. 1:48:45.040 --> 1:48:47.000 Thank you, Thank you so much. 1:48:47.040 --> 1:48:51.240 Emia you two by. 1:48:53.320 --> 1:48:54.040 All from. 1:48:57.600 --> 1:48:59.800 Hello, Hello? 1:49:01.360 --> 1:49:02.320 Is this a parapy? 1:49:02.400 --> 1:49:02.719 Gecko? 1:49:05.080 --> 1:49:06.120 Is this talking Tom? 1:49:07.280 --> 1:49:08.719 No, it's not talking Tom. 1:49:08.800 --> 1:49:11.200 This is Becky, Becky. 1:49:11.280 --> 1:49:12.120 How you doing Becky? 1:49:12.640 --> 1:49:16.280 I'm doing good. I just opened up my reddit page 1:49:16.360 --> 1:49:20.559 to go to the subway, like the DMV subreddit, because 1:49:20.560 --> 1:49:22.400 I'm a d m V professional. 1:49:24.560 --> 1:49:27.720 Dragon ball Z DMZ. 1:49:28.040 --> 1:49:29.679 Department of Motor Vehicles. 1:49:30.760 --> 1:49:33.280 Oh okay, I don't know that there was I don't 1:49:33.280 --> 1:49:36.800 know that there was a DMV subreddits. 1:49:37.320 --> 1:49:39.240 You'd be surprised, Gecko. 1:49:40.760 --> 1:49:44.040 Mm hmm, Well, I mean, what do they talk about 1:49:44.120 --> 1:49:44.479 on there? 1:49:45.080 --> 1:49:49.920 They talk about how we waste everyone slipping time, and 1:49:50.080 --> 1:49:53.400 we just stare at them, and we had a lot. Honestly, 1:49:53.920 --> 1:49:57.439 the reason why I'm calling in is because lately I've 1:49:57.520 --> 1:50:00.760 been calling into this pastures on the team and they, 1:50:01.120 --> 1:50:04.320 you know, try to give me guidance. But uh, I 1:50:04.439 --> 1:50:07.719 called into the Joel Osting guy and even he told 1:50:07.760 --> 1:50:09.120 me to give up on my dreams. 1:50:09.520 --> 1:50:14.040 So really I'm lost in lost Mmm, so I'm I'm 1:50:14.160 --> 1:50:19.479 sort of the second opinion after Joel Joel Who is 1:50:19.520 --> 1:50:20.439 it Joel Olsen? 1:50:21.120 --> 1:50:24.599 Yes, yes, he's a pastor. He's a He's a really smart, 1:50:24.800 --> 1:50:28.439 handsome godler man. I'm the television got it, got it? 1:50:28.520 --> 1:50:30.439 Okay? So he told you to give up on your dreams? 1:50:30.640 --> 1:50:32.519 What are your dreams? What did you say? Your name 1:50:32.600 --> 1:50:40.840 was again, Becky, Becky? And what are your dreams? Becky? 1:50:41.520 --> 1:50:46.200 My dreams are the Sunday have a bunch of horses. 1:50:46.320 --> 1:50:49.360 I think I'm a horsey girl. But I always grew 1:50:49.439 --> 1:50:51.920 up in the city, but I just moved out here 1:50:52.040 --> 1:50:57.160 to Napa, California, and I'm just ready to start my dreams. 1:50:57.280 --> 1:51:00.679 But I only have a California DMV sailory. 1:51:01.760 --> 1:51:02.200 M hmm. 1:51:02.960 --> 1:51:06.799 Well, now tell me before I give you the second opinion, 1:51:06.840 --> 1:51:10.840 I'd like to hear the first. Why did Joel? Why 1:51:10.880 --> 1:51:13.240 did Pastor Joel tell you to give up? On your dreams. 1:51:14.160 --> 1:51:16.360 Well, honestly, I don't think he was giving me the 1:51:16.439 --> 1:51:21.120 lot of day I used to man, just you know, passing. 1:51:20.880 --> 1:51:21.360 It by. 1:51:23.360 --> 1:51:23.840 Mm hmmm. 1:51:27.120 --> 1:51:27.760 So what I mean? 1:51:27.800 --> 1:51:29.519 What did he tell you? Why did he did he 1:51:29.640 --> 1:51:33.320 say it was unrealistic financially? Did he say that God 1:51:33.600 --> 1:51:35.960 hates horse people? What was his reasoning? 1:51:37.040 --> 1:51:39.439 She just told me that I'm with what none of 1:51:39.560 --> 1:51:43.720 a basket case and it wasn't it wasn't worth my 1:51:43.920 --> 1:51:46.400 money like it kind of hurt me a lot. 1:51:47.960 --> 1:51:53.200 Mhm, it wasn't worth your money? Does Joel do you 1:51:53.280 --> 1:51:54.599 have to pay to talk to Joel? 1:51:55.080 --> 1:51:59.160 Two hundred dollars for ten minutes with mister Joel with 1:51:59.320 --> 1:52:00.280 a handsome. 1:52:01.800 --> 1:52:03.800 Does that money go directly to God or does it 1:52:03.880 --> 1:52:06.240 fund his UH car payments? 1:52:06.720 --> 1:52:06.920 Well? 1:52:07.080 --> 1:52:09.600 I'm pretty sure it finds of God's ambitions. 1:52:11.479 --> 1:52:16.200 Okay, do you do you believe that God? Well, okay, 1:52:16.479 --> 1:52:19.840 if you could talk directly to God, what do you think? 1:52:19.960 --> 1:52:21.400 What do you think he would tell you? 1:52:23.400 --> 1:52:27.040 He would tell me to Well, this is kind of personal, 1:52:27.200 --> 1:52:29.640 but you know, he probably would have told me that 1:52:29.720 --> 1:52:31.640 I shouldn't have offt my husband. 1:52:33.360 --> 1:52:37.720 Mm hmm, that you shouldn't have lost your husband. 1:52:39.880 --> 1:52:41.400 Half often. 1:52:42.080 --> 1:52:50.320 Oh often? Yeah, okay, so you you murdered your husband. 1:52:53.600 --> 1:52:56.160 Conversation for another day. You ain't a cop, are you? 1:52:57.479 --> 1:52:58.320 No, I'm a gecko? 1:52:59.160 --> 1:53:04.440 Oh watching around the teav you could be showing salesman 1:53:04.600 --> 1:53:08.960 and a perfectly if you should never give up any dreams, 1:53:10.680 --> 1:53:11.000 you know what? 1:53:11.280 --> 1:53:13.679 Look, let me tell you something, Becky, to really wrap 1:53:13.760 --> 1:53:15.640 this up here, what did you just tell me? You 1:53:15.760 --> 1:53:17.719 told me I should never give up on my dreams 1:53:17.920 --> 1:53:20.160 at the end of the day, Becky, Becky, at the 1:53:20.280 --> 1:53:21.800 end of the day. And I'm kind of learning this 1:53:22.000 --> 1:53:25.040 myself here at the end of the day. You have 1:53:25.160 --> 1:53:26.439 to be or your own You have to be your 1:53:26.479 --> 1:53:33.479 own cheerleader. Okay, okay. Look, if God or Joel cocking 1:53:33.560 --> 1:53:38.400 Balls or me aren't going to tell you to follow 1:53:38.439 --> 1:53:41.760 your dreams, tell yourself that what you just told me. 1:53:42.479 --> 1:53:46.040 Be your own cheerleader, Becky. You if you believe that 1:53:46.160 --> 1:53:48.200 I can follow my dreams, you believe that you can 1:53:48.240 --> 1:53:52.519 follow yours. So be your own cheerleader. Continue to support 1:53:52.560 --> 1:53:57.280 yourself as you follow your horsey dream and don't don't 1:53:57.320 --> 1:53:59.160 rely on anyone else for validation. 1:54:00.080 --> 1:54:02.960 All right, So where do I spend her two hundred 1:54:03.000 --> 1:54:05.280 dollars because this is way better than Joel esteem. 1:54:06.760 --> 1:54:11.719 Hmmm. You can venmo me at l dresser. 1:54:12.439 --> 1:54:15.320 Oh nice, nice, All right, well, I'm gonna let this 1:54:15.720 --> 1:54:17.760 therapy get I get back to his ways. But I 1:54:17.840 --> 1:54:19.480 appreciate the community. 1:54:19.080 --> 1:54:21.760 Service that you're doing, so of course, of course, Becky, 1:54:21.800 --> 1:54:23.160 thank you so much. You ever wanted for us to 1:54:23.200 --> 1:54:23.439 the name. 1:54:23.479 --> 1:54:24.920 All right, and you as well, thank you. 1:54:25.360 --> 1:54:25.720 Bye bye. 1:54:27.080 --> 1:54:28.880 Oh wait, it's three hundred dollars. 1:54:29.880 --> 1:54:34.920 Pull from to accept press one to. 1:54:35.000 --> 1:54:37.240 Say mystery caller? Are you there? 1:54:38.960 --> 1:54:42.040 Yeah there, How are you. 1:54:43.640 --> 1:54:43.840 Good? 1:54:43.920 --> 1:54:44.240 How are you? 1:54:46.000 --> 1:54:46.440 I'm good? 1:54:46.480 --> 1:54:46.880 How are you? 1:54:48.320 --> 1:54:54.120 I'm uh, I Remember'm just we's kind of vibing right now, 1:54:57.040 --> 1:55:00.560 you're vibing, yeah a little bit. 1:55:01.320 --> 1:55:02.280 What the hell does that mean? 1:55:05.400 --> 1:55:09.440 I'm just I'm just uh, I don't know. 1:55:09.480 --> 1:55:10.280 I'm just kind of like. 1:55:11.880 --> 1:55:12.080 I was. 1:55:12.520 --> 1:55:12.960 I was just. 1:55:14.640 --> 1:55:18.440 I'm just am right now. Uh, I don't know. I 1:55:18.600 --> 1:55:22.920 was just, dude, I was just being. And then I 1:55:23.240 --> 1:55:25.880 saw your phone number and I called and I didn't 1:55:25.880 --> 1:55:28.760 think it was gonna actually pick up, but here I. 1:55:28.760 --> 1:55:29.880 Am mm hmm. 1:55:30.760 --> 1:55:32.040 By the way, I have news for you. You know, 1:55:32.160 --> 1:55:35.320 you're saying that you were being, but at no point 1:55:35.960 --> 1:55:39.960 have you stopped being since which you were referring to 1:55:40.360 --> 1:55:45.240 yourself being No, I still are. Actually that kind of 1:55:45.320 --> 1:55:47.080 brings us a bit to the question here do you 1:55:47.160 --> 1:55:47.920 believe that you are? 1:55:50.000 --> 1:55:54.320 I believe that I am nice as much as much 1:55:54.360 --> 1:55:54.800 as I can. 1:55:55.480 --> 1:55:59.040 You know, so you called in, you didn't expect to 1:55:59.080 --> 1:56:00.640 get on what do you you expect? 1:56:02.800 --> 1:56:07.360 Well, I remember a while ago, I don't remember how long, 1:56:07.480 --> 1:56:11.080 but I tried to call and it was it was busy. 1:56:11.680 --> 1:56:14.720 This would have been probably over a month ago. And 1:56:14.840 --> 1:56:17.720 then uh, and so I wouldn't I was. I thought, maybe, well, 1:56:17.800 --> 1:56:19.520 you probably get a lot of calls, so I wouldn't 1:56:19.560 --> 1:56:21.560 be shocked if the line was busy again. 1:56:21.760 --> 1:56:23.840 But it wasn't. 1:56:24.000 --> 1:56:25.400 So I guess now here I am it. 1:56:25.560 --> 1:56:26.120 Is pretty you know. 1:56:26.200 --> 1:56:28.600 I tell everyone I get a lot of calls. This 1:56:28.800 --> 1:56:32.480 is true. But I'm going to answer, you know, one 1:56:32.840 --> 1:56:35.960 I'm going to answer someone, you know. So the chance 1:56:36.120 --> 1:56:38.280 here's the thing, the chance that I'm going to answer call, 1:56:38.400 --> 1:56:40.960 it's one hundred percent. So when you think of it 1:56:41.080 --> 1:56:43.960 like that, it's not as we you know, it's it's 1:56:44.040 --> 1:56:45.360 not that crazy that you got in. 1:56:46.880 --> 1:56:48.920 Yeah, such a it's really cool. 1:56:49.280 --> 1:56:52.120 Yeah, I like the way you think it's really cool. 1:56:56.920 --> 1:56:59.840 Uh, yeah, I mean, so. 1:57:01.440 --> 1:57:02.480 I know, uh. 1:57:03.920 --> 1:57:09.400 Does so mhmm, I don't. I don't really don't know 1:57:09.480 --> 1:57:12.360 what to ask or to talk about right now. 1:57:13.280 --> 1:57:14.120 That's totally fine. 1:57:18.600 --> 1:57:21.520 So so what I don't know? 1:57:21.640 --> 1:57:30.440 Just just like yeah, yeah, what about you? 1:57:30.600 --> 1:57:31.720 Do you believe that you are? 1:57:42.560 --> 1:57:47.320 You know, I try to believe and have opinions on 1:57:47.560 --> 1:57:53.040 as few things as I possibly can being a citizen 1:57:53.080 --> 1:57:59.400 of Earth. Uh so I abstain personally from a belief 1:57:59.520 --> 1:58:01.360 as to where or not I am. 1:58:03.040 --> 1:58:06.480 Very interesting. Is there a reasons I'm trying to hold 1:58:06.720 --> 1:58:10.040 very few beliefs? Is that like, like, like, what what 1:58:10.240 --> 1:58:11.600 purpose does that serve to you? 1:58:13.120 --> 1:58:13.720 Very interesting? 1:58:14.520 --> 1:58:14.640 Uh? 1:58:14.760 --> 1:58:16.960 It serves me a purpose of Well, here's the thing. 1:58:17.120 --> 1:58:19.880 Every single day, every single moment, I mean, even as 1:58:19.920 --> 1:58:22.080 I'm talking to you right now, as I'm talking to everyone, 1:58:22.200 --> 1:58:25.680 even as I'm a browsing the internet, as I'm looking around, 1:58:25.760 --> 1:58:28.720 as I go on a walk in the woods, you know, 1:58:28.840 --> 1:58:30.880 as I take a shit, as I talk to my 1:58:31.120 --> 1:58:34.680 dad on the phone, as I eat a sandwich, I'm 1:58:34.880 --> 1:58:39.800 constantly at every single I mean as I'm dreaming, dude, 1:58:40.000 --> 1:58:45.440 you know, constantly, at every single moment every day, being 1:58:45.600 --> 1:58:52.720 presented with new information about the world, and I I'm 1:58:52.800 --> 1:58:58.120 interested in being uh you know, open to that information, uh, 1:58:59.240 --> 1:59:04.200 you know, as widely as possible. So I try not to, 1:59:04.720 --> 1:59:07.880 you know, make beliefs about I try to assert firm 1:59:07.960 --> 1:59:11.400 beliefs as to whether or not I exist, because every 1:59:11.440 --> 1:59:14.200 day I'm getting presented with new information that could change 1:59:14.240 --> 1:59:16.920 that belief. So I set nothing in stone. 1:59:18.840 --> 1:59:25.240 Interesting. So do you think then that because I kind 1:59:25.240 --> 1:59:28.440 of have almost like a similar like, I try to 1:59:28.520 --> 1:59:34.240 make myself open to the different like information that exists 1:59:34.240 --> 1:59:38.960 in the world. But instead of holding trying to hold 1:59:39.080 --> 1:59:40.160 few beliefs. 1:59:39.880 --> 1:59:39.960 I. 1:59:41.600 --> 1:59:45.800 Think I end up holding many different beliefs as much 1:59:45.840 --> 1:59:48.920 as I can and constantly trying to challenge them. And 1:59:49.600 --> 1:59:52.879 so as much as I may firmly believe in something, 1:59:53.520 --> 1:59:57.720 I'm equally ready to change that belief into believing in 1:59:57.840 --> 1:59:58.400 something else. 1:59:59.520 --> 2:00:10.680 You know, I think that's smart. Well, let me ask 2:00:10.720 --> 2:00:15.920 you something here. You you said to me that you 2:00:15.960 --> 2:00:17.200 believe that you exist? Correct? 2:00:18.120 --> 2:00:18.320 Yeah? 2:00:20.240 --> 2:00:20.400 Now? 2:00:20.680 --> 2:00:22.240 And he and this is how I operate, you know, 2:00:22.320 --> 2:00:25.080 I do. I do have beliefs. Some of my beliefs 2:00:25.160 --> 2:00:30.040 I'm more open to challenging than others. And I'm curious 2:00:30.120 --> 2:00:37.680 for you your belief that you exist, how opener challenging. 2:00:37.360 --> 2:00:42.760 That, hmhmm, you know, I actually. 2:00:44.200 --> 2:00:49.200 I very much challenge that, uh, because I believe I 2:00:49.880 --> 2:00:51.800 as much as I can firmly believe, because you know 2:00:52.040 --> 2:00:57.520 that I don't know who said it, but uh, very shamously, 2:00:57.680 --> 2:00:59.880 someone said I think, therefore I am, and that if 2:01:00.040 --> 2:01:04.480 actively is saying, well, there is something that is producing 2:01:04.560 --> 2:01:08.440 the thoughts in my brain, and that must exist, right, 2:01:08.680 --> 2:01:15.440 But I mean, we really don't know where it all 2:01:15.480 --> 2:01:18.200 comes from. Like as much as we can try and 2:01:18.320 --> 2:01:22.680 like describe like how our brains work and how thought happens, 2:01:22.760 --> 2:01:28.760 we really don't know necessarily where where thought and where 2:01:29.000 --> 2:01:34.920 our own like sensions necessarily exists from or exists. Because 2:01:34.960 --> 2:01:42.000 of so I don't necessarily know that I exist. 2:01:42.320 --> 2:01:43.120 I can only. 2:01:44.400 --> 2:01:50.600 Believe that I exist in the way that that person 2:01:50.680 --> 2:01:53.600 described that. I think therefore I am. So something is 2:01:53.720 --> 2:01:57.320 producing what I describe as my own thoughts, or at 2:01:57.400 --> 2:02:00.560 least that's what I would be led to believe. But 2:02:02.480 --> 2:02:07.280 I think that maybe it doesn't necessarily even matter whether 2:02:07.400 --> 2:02:12.080 I do or do not exist, because either way I 2:02:13.560 --> 2:02:16.680 treat existence in the same way. I still act and 2:02:17.440 --> 2:02:21.120 speak and live my same life whether or not I 2:02:21.400 --> 2:02:26.360 believe I exist or not, So I don't necessarily give 2:02:27.960 --> 2:02:31.480 too much thought into it a lot of the times, 2:02:31.600 --> 2:02:34.720 just because it doesn't make a big difference, but purely 2:02:34.800 --> 2:02:38.200 want to get down into it. That's a belief that 2:02:38.320 --> 2:02:40.840 I hold firmly, that yes, I. 2:02:40.880 --> 2:02:41.920 Do believe I exist. 2:02:42.080 --> 2:02:47.720 But also it's equally something that is difficult to challenge, 2:02:47.720 --> 2:02:50.760 and because of that, it's something I have to hold 2:02:50.840 --> 2:02:53.320 with a very large grain of salt. 2:02:53.240 --> 2:02:53.960 Because. 2:02:55.320 --> 2:03:00.640 If I believe that I exist, I don't necessarily know 2:03:00.800 --> 2:03:02.000 that what that. 2:03:02.120 --> 2:03:06.800 Existence really is, you know, absolutely? 2:03:07.400 --> 2:03:08.120 What is your name? 2:03:08.240 --> 2:03:08.280 Was? 2:03:09.960 --> 2:03:11.200 My name is Trevor. 2:03:11.440 --> 2:03:13.560 Sorry I didn't quite get that in at the beginning 2:03:13.600 --> 2:03:13.960 of the call. 2:03:14.960 --> 2:03:16.520 There's a pleasure talking to each other. I hope you 2:03:16.560 --> 2:03:17.560 have every wanted for us of the night. 2:03:18.480 --> 2:03:21.760 Yeah, you too, Thanks for hearing me out. 2:03:21.880 --> 2:03:23.600 You know, of course you take. 2:03:23.480 --> 2:03:24.120 Care of them. 2:03:26.880 --> 2:03:32.560 All. From to accept press one to send out. 2:03:33.720 --> 2:03:37.880 Hello, Hello, mister Gecko, how are you. 2:03:39.400 --> 2:03:39.600 Hey. 2:03:39.640 --> 2:03:42.200 I've just been watching your channel for a while with 2:03:42.360 --> 2:03:45.000 some of my friends here and my friend Robbie. 2:03:45.000 --> 2:03:45.760 He likes you a lot. 2:03:46.680 --> 2:03:49.080 I've never seen your twitch. I don't even have a twitch, 2:03:49.960 --> 2:03:52.440 but I'm just happy to be here and I would 2:03:52.640 --> 2:03:55.800 like to Yeah, I would just like to talk like 2:03:56.600 --> 2:04:00.920 a little about really anything. Some of these phone calls 2:04:00.960 --> 2:04:03.920 have been a little bit frustrating. I don't know for you, 2:04:04.280 --> 2:04:06.480 but for as a viewer, it's been a little bit rough. 2:04:06.600 --> 2:04:08.720 So I don't know, let's try to spice things up 2:04:08.760 --> 2:04:08.960 a bit. 2:04:09.440 --> 2:04:11.760 Well, well, well, Tom, what's your name? Will tell me? 2:04:14.360 --> 2:04:16.920 Tell me? Why have these phone calls been not frustrating 2:04:17.040 --> 2:04:17.200 for you? 2:04:17.680 --> 2:04:19.960 Oh my god, I just can't believe there's this many 2:04:20.080 --> 2:04:22.640 brainded people in the world. People like to flap their 2:04:22.680 --> 2:04:25.040 lips and they just speak, but there's no substance that 2:04:25.360 --> 2:04:28.560 comes out of it. I'm not I'm not saying that 2:04:28.640 --> 2:04:33.040 I know everything about everything, but people just like to talk, 2:04:33.880 --> 2:04:37.400 which essentially is why I'm here as well. But if 2:04:37.440 --> 2:04:41.080 there's any questions that you'd like to ask, aside from 2:04:41.080 --> 2:04:42.600 the how do you know you're not dead? Because I 2:04:42.720 --> 2:04:44.920 just I don't have anything good for that other than 2:04:44.960 --> 2:04:47.840 the fact that I'm fucking miserable like all day, Like, 2:04:48.120 --> 2:04:51.480 there's pain. If existence is pain, then we exist, We're alive. 2:04:51.600 --> 2:04:52.520 That's the end of that question. 2:04:54.880 --> 2:04:57.080 So you okay, So not only did you say that 2:04:57.160 --> 2:04:59.040 the calls we have been frustrating for you, But you 2:05:00.840 --> 2:05:03.800 sense that I'm not saying that they are. 2:05:03.920 --> 2:05:04.080 I'm not. 2:05:04.160 --> 2:05:06.560 I'm not confirming this sense in any way you perform, 2:05:06.760 --> 2:05:08.880 but you sense that they're frustrating for me. 2:05:10.360 --> 2:05:11.200 I'm yeah. 2:05:12.840 --> 2:05:15.760 I just again, people just like to talk, and your 2:05:15.840 --> 2:05:20.400 show is meant for this very purpose. I mean, one 2:05:20.480 --> 2:05:22.839 caller just called you to talk about doing her laundry. 2:05:23.280 --> 2:05:25.280 I mean I could call my I could call my 2:05:25.680 --> 2:05:28.280 fucking mom and talk to her about that. People don't 2:05:28.280 --> 2:05:31.160 want to hear that. You know, you want to get 2:05:31.240 --> 2:05:32.920 some You want to get some calls with a little 2:05:32.920 --> 2:05:35.640 bit of sustenance, you know, drinking wine and folding laundry. 2:05:35.720 --> 2:05:36.160 That's cute. 2:05:36.160 --> 2:05:38.720 But call your boyfriend, call your mom, call your cousin 2:05:38.760 --> 2:05:41.560 about it. Don't call your show, right, you're the therapy gecko. 2:05:41.640 --> 2:05:42.480 You don't have time for this. 2:05:43.400 --> 2:05:46.920 Well, well, so I ask you then, And I'm curious 2:05:47.040 --> 2:05:51.920 because you say that your friend is familiar with my stream. 2:05:52.040 --> 2:05:53.840 But you are not right. 2:05:54.360 --> 2:05:57.000 I mean, when you say, you know, let's get something, 2:05:57.040 --> 2:05:59.880 when you you're talking about how you think I should 2:05:59.880 --> 2:06:03.320 have of calls with more sustenance, what how would you 2:06:03.440 --> 2:06:09.640 define sustenance? You'll refer to it. 2:06:09.680 --> 2:06:13.480 As sure, let's talk about exit, well, talk about existence, 2:06:13.520 --> 2:06:15.280 talk about anything. I don't know, Like, if you've ever 2:06:15.360 --> 2:06:18.320 listened to Howard Stern, he'll just hang up on calls 2:06:18.360 --> 2:06:20.680 that you know, like you can tell early on when 2:06:20.680 --> 2:06:25.360 a call isn't going anywhere. Folding laundry is one of 2:06:25.400 --> 2:06:28.800 those calls, you know, And for you, I'm sure it's 2:06:28.800 --> 2:06:30.840 a little bit like you don't know, you're trying to 2:06:30.840 --> 2:06:32.720 give the benefit of the doubt to the caller because 2:06:32.760 --> 2:06:35.560 they've made it into the show. I get that. I'm 2:06:35.640 --> 2:06:38.280 just saying for us, we've just been trying to I 2:06:38.320 --> 2:06:39.920 don't know, I've been trying to get on your show. 2:06:39.960 --> 2:06:42.360 I don't know what I would say, but that's where 2:06:42.400 --> 2:06:45.680 I've landed on while listening to this woman fold clothes 2:06:45.880 --> 2:06:47.800 and talk about essentially nothing. 2:06:49.800 --> 2:06:50.040 Well. 2:06:51.520 --> 2:06:53.160 Hm, so so. 2:06:55.240 --> 2:06:59.200 You're attacking the sustenance I mean, but still okay. So 2:06:59.320 --> 2:07:00.200 here's here's my thing. 2:07:00.240 --> 2:07:02.440 Though I could be wrong, it's just my opinion. I 2:07:02.480 --> 2:07:03.720 don't well, well, here's my thing. 2:07:03.880 --> 2:07:09.320 Here's my thing though, is you have stated examples of 2:07:09.440 --> 2:07:17.880 what you think does not constitute a substanceful conversation. But 2:07:18.080 --> 2:07:20.840 I feel like I've yet to get from you an 2:07:20.920 --> 2:07:25.480 example of something that, in your opinion, would I've only 2:07:25.560 --> 2:07:28.760 gotten though, what would not not an example of, you know, 2:07:29.320 --> 2:07:32.240 something that you find that you would think would be interesting? 2:07:33.360 --> 2:07:36.000 True? And the question at hands as well. I don't 2:07:36.040 --> 2:07:38.720 have a good answer for the do we exist? Do 2:07:38.840 --> 2:07:40.680 we not exist? You could ramble on here. 2:07:41.200 --> 2:07:43.840 Yes, it's not that important. All that matters is agreed. 2:07:44.000 --> 2:07:45.560 We're two people talking on the phone. 2:07:46.160 --> 2:07:48.560 Agreed. Yeah. All I can tell you is I'm really 2:07:48.680 --> 2:07:52.320 drunk with my friends who my friend Robbie that loves you, 2:07:52.680 --> 2:07:54.920 and we've just been firing off phone calls just trying 2:07:54.920 --> 2:07:56.680 to get in. I didn't think I would get in, 2:07:56.760 --> 2:08:01.480 but here I am today. And yeah, he's got a 2:08:01.520 --> 2:08:03.480 shit eating grin over there in the corner. He's They're 2:08:03.520 --> 2:08:05.840 dead silent, like you could hear a pin drop in 2:08:05.880 --> 2:08:08.400 this place. You know, everything's all very tense here. 2:08:09.600 --> 2:08:14.040 Let me ask you something you are are you know, 2:08:14.320 --> 2:08:16.560 doing a lot of judging you? 2:08:16.760 --> 2:08:20.120 I think you'd agree, Yeah, and I'm drunk, so take 2:08:20.120 --> 2:08:21.480 everything I see with a grain of salt. 2:08:21.960 --> 2:08:24.480 Sure, but you're doing a lot of judging here, do 2:08:24.760 --> 2:08:25.320 you now? 2:08:26.200 --> 2:08:26.240 You? 2:08:26.800 --> 2:08:31.720 I mean you have to assume that you know you 2:08:32.120 --> 2:08:35.680 were watching the other callers, you were judging them based. 2:08:35.400 --> 2:08:36.680 On your own. 2:08:38.560 --> 2:08:41.040 Criteria of what is substantial? 2:08:41.480 --> 2:08:41.840 Do you. 2:08:44.800 --> 2:08:47.760 And you right now are being judged by other people? 2:08:48.760 --> 2:08:50.120 Yeah, I'm aware if. 2:08:51.840 --> 2:08:54.680 You're substantial, How do you feel about that? How do 2:08:54.760 --> 2:08:58.040 you feel being judged by others the way that you 2:08:58.240 --> 2:08:59.280 have been judging others? 2:09:00.160 --> 2:09:01.960 I think it's just the doggy dog world. 2:09:02.040 --> 2:09:02.160 Man. 2:09:02.240 --> 2:09:04.240 You get judged every day right now. I'm just on 2:09:04.360 --> 2:09:07.520 the platform. So you got to understand that you're whether 2:09:07.640 --> 2:09:09.680 or not you want to be judged, it's going to 2:09:09.760 --> 2:09:12.440 happen anyway, right And you can try to be the 2:09:12.480 --> 2:09:15.400 good Christian boy and just be like, oh, I'm not 2:09:15.480 --> 2:09:18.680 going to judge people by how they speak or what 2:09:18.840 --> 2:09:20.680 I think of them on the surface. But it's going 2:09:20.760 --> 2:09:23.840 to happen regardless. So the best way to go about 2:09:23.920 --> 2:09:26.440 doing things is to just do it as if you 2:09:26.560 --> 2:09:29.240 are going to be judged regardless, and you'll I think 2:09:29.280 --> 2:09:31.000 you'd live a more fulfilling life that way. 2:09:32.240 --> 2:09:35.960 I by the way, I think that's great, I really do. 2:09:36.480 --> 2:09:39.040 I think it's good to live in a way that 2:09:40.400 --> 2:09:44.440 you're impervious to the judgments of others. However, you know, 2:09:45.240 --> 2:09:51.200 I think in hand to aid that goal. I think 2:09:52.120 --> 2:09:54.080 it would be helpful for you to judge other people 2:09:54.200 --> 2:09:57.080 less because the more judgmental you are of other people, 2:09:57.600 --> 2:09:59.360 the more judgmental you're going to be of yourself, the 2:09:59.400 --> 2:10:01.640 more sustainable the other people's judgments of you you're going 2:10:01.680 --> 2:10:02.840 to be. Would you not agree with that? 2:10:04.320 --> 2:10:08.040 I think you're correct. Where I think there could be 2:10:08.120 --> 2:10:12.840 improvement is constructive criticism. While I could be very judgmental, 2:10:13.080 --> 2:10:15.760 I think it's still good to know that. If you 2:10:15.920 --> 2:10:19.080 are a viewer, or if you are a therapy gecko, 2:10:19.520 --> 2:10:22.160 you would want to know where the where the other 2:10:22.240 --> 2:10:24.320 side of the coin is. Right, I'm not telling you 2:10:24.360 --> 2:10:26.680 that I'm folding my laundry. In fact, I'm doing less 2:10:26.680 --> 2:10:28.200 than that woman is right now. I'm just sitting on 2:10:28.320 --> 2:10:31.320 my couch watching your stream, right so I'm being less 2:10:31.360 --> 2:10:36.240 productive than she is. However, as a listener, that was 2:10:36.280 --> 2:10:40.240 a little bit frustrating. I feel like there's a lot 2:10:40.280 --> 2:10:42.720 more people not even saying myself. I just feel like 2:10:42.720 --> 2:10:45.520 there's a lot more people out there that have that 2:10:45.720 --> 2:10:48.600 have very interesting things to say. I can't say that 2:10:48.680 --> 2:10:54.040 I'm one of them, but I would would like to think, Yeah, 2:10:57.280 --> 2:11:03.120 why are you miserable? Is miserable. Right, there's ups, there's peaks, 2:11:03.160 --> 2:11:07.480 there's valleys, there's everyday conflict. But if you know that 2:11:07.720 --> 2:11:13.280 you are miserable, then existence. Existence is difficult, right, It's 2:11:13.320 --> 2:11:16.520 a constant struggle. So if you're miserable, you know that 2:11:16.640 --> 2:11:21.600 you're alive because the end is nothing. There's nothing there there, 2:11:22.480 --> 2:11:25.760 there is no fucking and this is all right. They're 2:11:25.800 --> 2:11:28.120 laughing already in the other room. This isn't a this 2:11:28.320 --> 2:11:32.160 isn't a doom and gloom. It's just a there's nothing 2:11:32.200 --> 2:11:33.520 at the end of the road, right, you just you 2:11:33.600 --> 2:11:36.040 go to sleep, you go away. Sleep is the reward. 2:11:36.440 --> 2:11:36.600 Right. 2:11:36.760 --> 2:11:39.960 So if you're miserable, you're struggling, which is life. 2:11:40.040 --> 2:11:40.640 That is life. 2:11:40.840 --> 2:11:43.200 Life is a struggle. That's how you know you're existing. 2:11:43.240 --> 2:11:44.160 That's how you know you're living. 2:11:46.000 --> 2:11:46.160 You know. 2:11:46.280 --> 2:11:51.560 It's funny. I feel like in the call previously, I 2:11:51.760 --> 2:11:57.440 was just talking about not having so many set in 2:11:57.560 --> 2:12:00.640 stone beliefs because life is always giving me, you know, 2:12:00.840 --> 2:12:07.160 new information, and I feel like again, you know, look, 2:12:07.360 --> 2:12:10.560 I'm not a real therapist, you know that, but. 2:12:11.360 --> 2:12:19.000 I feel like you've got this this big heavy bag 2:12:20.440 --> 2:12:23.080 of beliefs. 2:12:23.560 --> 2:12:28.800 About the world and about your life and about all 2:12:28.880 --> 2:12:35.200 these different things and they're they're kind of pessimistic. No, well, 2:12:35.400 --> 2:12:38.360 they might be weighing you down a little bit here. 2:12:39.280 --> 2:12:41.800 Well, honestly, death is the reward at the end of 2:12:41.840 --> 2:12:44.320 the road. That's the truth of it, right. I'm not 2:12:44.600 --> 2:12:47.440 like I say, I'm miserable right because living is misery. 2:12:47.920 --> 2:12:49.640 But I'm not. I'm not going to get there. 2:12:49.760 --> 2:12:53.000 Living is right there, Living is misery, you. 2:12:53.040 --> 2:12:55.080 Said, then you can. By the way. 2:12:55.440 --> 2:12:58.640 Listen, you said that. You said that, yes, exactly right now, 2:12:58.680 --> 2:13:02.839 you said it's true. You are con convinced living is misery. 2:13:02.920 --> 2:13:04.240 That is one of those blame me. I was just 2:13:04.280 --> 2:13:06.720 talking to the caller. What what beliefs are you more 2:13:06.800 --> 2:13:07.720 open to challenging? 2:13:07.800 --> 2:13:07.960 Here? 2:13:08.640 --> 2:13:09.240 You you. 2:13:10.960 --> 2:13:13.040 That that does not come off to me as one 2:13:13.040 --> 2:13:15.080 of the beliefs that you're willing to challenge. And I 2:13:15.200 --> 2:13:18.280 look again, I don't know you, man, but I would 2:13:20.920 --> 2:13:27.080 maybe and maybe this is you know, easier done, easier 2:13:27.160 --> 2:13:31.600 said than done. But leave that belief that life is 2:13:32.000 --> 2:13:35.480 misery open to a little bit of challenging. 2:13:37.160 --> 2:13:38.640 Okay, I'll take that to heart. 2:13:39.680 --> 2:13:39.880 Good. 2:13:40.080 --> 2:13:44.240 What your sur name was, Calvin? 2:13:44.760 --> 2:13:46.120 Yeah, I didn't think it was going to get on, 2:13:46.200 --> 2:13:48.240 So sorry about that it's okay. 2:13:49.120 --> 2:13:50.840 Well, thank you so much for calling Calvin. You have 2:13:50.920 --> 2:13:51.680 a good rest of the night. 2:13:52.280 --> 2:13:54.480 I appreciate it. Get go, Thank you you too. 2:13:55.880 --> 2:13:56.280 Bye bye. 2:14:00.080 --> 2:14:02.880 Goes off the line, taking your phone calls. 2:14:02.600 --> 2:14:06.320 Every night, everythink, goes doing a Ride's teaching you a 2:14:06.440 --> 2:14:10.240 house of your life, but he's not really an expert. 2:14:14.520 --> 2:14:14.560 M