Speaker 1: How from Scott Scott?
Speaker 2: Yeah, dude, what's up?
Speaker 3: How old are you? Scott?
Speaker 2: I mean thirty something? Bough you're what thirty something?
Speaker 3: That's cool. Do you like your life?
Speaker 2: Yeah, well that's very cool, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: I'm on vacation right now, so that's pretty sweet.
Speaker 3: Where are you on vacation? Rye, New Hampshire, Rye, New
Speaker 3: Hampshire Beach, New Hampshire. Why did you go to vacation
Speaker 3: in New Hampshire?
Speaker 2: My family lives up here and my kids have never
Speaker 2: met them, so I took them up here.
Speaker 3: Do you like your family? No, this doesn't sound like
Speaker 3: much of a vacation.
Speaker 2: It's a vacation with my kids. My kids they're happy.
Speaker 2: You know, we're from the Midwest. I never seeing the
Speaker 2: freaking beach before, so they got to see the beach.
Speaker 2: But a lot of childhood trauma for me is coming
Speaker 2: back because I'm with my family and that whole bit.
Speaker 2: But I'll call my therapist when I get home.
Speaker 4: I'll deal, right.
Speaker 3: So a lot of you say a lot of childhood
Speaker 3: trauma has come to you because you've gotten back with
Speaker 3: your family.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, big time? All right, So if you're tell
Speaker 2: about it, it's pretty funny, like, and I got to like,
Speaker 2: I kind of got full circle on some of it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I kind of, I kind of do want to
Speaker 3: hear about it. Cool, because it's just what I'm curious
Speaker 3: about is if your family was traumatic for you, are
Speaker 3: you not afraid of getting your your children inheriting some
Speaker 3: sort of grand trauma.
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Actually I realized that today in the car.
Speaker 3: All right, tell me what happens.
Speaker 2: So when I was a kid, me and all my brothers, right,
Speaker 2: like my mother's m O was, she'd get us into
Speaker 2: the car and then pick a fight with us, right
Speaker 2: and then when we you know, bought that or did whatever,
Speaker 2: basically she'd pull over and yell at us and say,
Speaker 2: all right, get out of the car.
Speaker 6: Right.
Speaker 2: So now she's like in her sixties or whatever, and
Speaker 2: like we're driving down the road and you know, she's
Speaker 2: she's like basically picking a fight with me again. You know,
Speaker 2: so I got to pull over and be like, all right, mom,
Speaker 2: get out of the car.
Speaker 3: Hell, yeah, you you flipped a switch on her.
Speaker 2: Dude, I flipped the script.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: But where the fire?
Speaker 2: I mean salt? Yeah, yeah, it feelt awesome, but you know,
Speaker 2: we're in Saltwater Caafy.
Speaker 7: Beach.
Speaker 4: It's fun, it's miserable.
Speaker 3: I remember one time my uncle did the same thing
Speaker 3: to me where I was like fighting with my sister
Speaker 3: and we were in his car and he he made
Speaker 3: he pulled over on the side of the road and
Speaker 3: made me stand and and uh, get out on There's
Speaker 3: a big rock on the side of the road, like
Speaker 3: a big boulder, and he made me stand on the
Speaker 3: boulder and wait for wait, continue And I told him
Speaker 3: I had to pee, but he wouldn't let me. He
Speaker 3: wouldn't let me go pee, so I ended up piecing
Speaker 3: my pants all over this Bowlder.
Speaker 2: Jesus Christy, That's see, that's childhood. Try on me right there, dude.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's why. That's why. I mean, that's why I'm
Speaker 3: not going to go visit him anymore.
Speaker 8: I don't know.
Speaker 3: I don't I don't know. I don't understand your your
Speaker 3: strategy of bringing your child back to the source.
Speaker 2: I mean, they have a really nice beach house. Like
Speaker 2: my mom is all right, and she has a like
Speaker 2: as far as money's concerned, so she has kind of
Speaker 2: a beach house situation.
Speaker 3: So you're so you're willing to forget you.
Speaker 4: No, neither.
Speaker 2: Never forgive, never forget all the grudge for as long
Speaker 2: as you can. But you know, if they got a
Speaker 2: beach house, as if a beach house unless there's a
Speaker 2: beach house involved, and you know, like I might be
Speaker 2: having a miserable time, but it's really not about me.
Speaker 2: I mean, my kids are having a great time. They've
Speaker 2: never met their cousins. For Jesus Christ, it's been forever
Speaker 2: they of them met their cousins. But you know, now
Speaker 2: they met them and they're all having a blast together.
Speaker 2: So that's cool.
Speaker 3: Well, man, look, you're you're you're a good father. I
Speaker 3: always every time I see you know, like if I
Speaker 3: go to Disney World or a theme park or something
Speaker 3: and I see the miserable adults with the happy kids,
Speaker 3: I'm like, you know, props to them, drops to them,
Speaker 3: or sticking it outs for the kids.
Speaker 2: Shut Hey, dude, Father's Day, its Father's It's Father's Day weekend,
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, So like shout out to
Speaker 2: the dads.
Speaker 3: Dude, Maybe your kids will give you a card with
Speaker 3: money in it, maybe obvious feet or like you know,
Speaker 3: a stick of gum or something like that.
Speaker 2: At least something, dude, I mean, you know, their smiles
Speaker 2: is gifted enough, you know, like I got the pictures
Speaker 2: and video of them and by the ocean, they're making memories.
Speaker 2: They'll always remember me pulling over to the side of
Speaker 2: the road and saying, all right, mom, get out of
Speaker 2: the car going into that. Hopefully it won't be traumatic,
Speaker 2: but you know whatever.
Speaker 3: Well, hell yeah, we you say your name was Scott.
Speaker 3: Thank you for sharing Scott.
Speaker 2: Yep, have a good night, you guys Bank.
Speaker 3: You too, never goes on the line taking your phone
Speaker 3: calls every night, never goes to XI. I was teaching
Speaker 3: you about your life. Body's not really expert.
Speaker 1: All from Joshua Joshua.
Speaker 4: Hello, hey, hey man, how's it going.
Speaker 3: How old are you? Joshua?
Speaker 4: Twenty three?
Speaker 3: You're twenty three?
Speaker 9: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I'm twenty three? Really twenty three thousands?
Speaker 4: That's pretty cool.
Speaker 3: Do you like being twenty three?
Speaker 6: Not right now?
Speaker 10: Honestly?
Speaker 4: Well, I woke up from a coma about six months ago.
Speaker 3: Really so yeah, I woke up from a coma six
Speaker 3: months ago.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I was in a coma for about a year.
Speaker 4: Woke up and six months ago and just trying to
Speaker 4: figure shit out.
Speaker 3: I guess how did you get into a coma.
Speaker 4: So I was hunting with one of my friends and
Speaker 4: I got shot in the back of the head, and
Speaker 4: that's basically what they told me happened. I don't really
Speaker 4: remember anything before the tree stand, so I'm just going
Speaker 4: off what everyone else said.
Speaker 3: You were shot in the back of the head.
Speaker 4: From what they said, that bullet entry was from the
Speaker 4: back of the head, So yeah.
Speaker 3: Who shot you?
Speaker 4: Well, it's kind of crazy. It was one of my friends.
Speaker 4: I didn't know about it, honestly. For a while, everyone
Speaker 4: said it was an accident, or at least that's what
Speaker 4: I was told.
Speaker 6: But about a week.
Speaker 4: Ago, I was playing baseball with my little brother and
Speaker 4: I hit my head pretty hard, and a couple days ago,
Speaker 4: I was like, stuff's been coming back to me a
Speaker 4: little bit, and I'm starting to think it.
Speaker 11: Wasn't an accident, really.
Speaker 4: Yeah, because I remember me and my friend were arguing
Speaker 4: about the hunting spot we were going to go to,
Speaker 4: and I told him that I knew this one place
Speaker 4: that my grandpa used to take me and he was
Speaker 4: like completely against it, and like we were arguing real bad,
Speaker 4: and like that's all I really remember.
Speaker 6: Before.
Speaker 3: But that doesn't okay, But which hunting spot to go
Speaker 3: to doesn't sound to me, like, you know, the the
Speaker 3: scale of an argument that would end in your friend
Speaker 3: shooting you in the back of the heads. Yeah, but
Speaker 3: like that would be a little petty. I'd say.
Speaker 4: We've we've been arguing for a while now though, because
Speaker 4: I've been dating his sister and he wasn't really too
Speaker 4: happy about it, and then like I'm pretty sure there
Speaker 4: was more intentions behind it. I just remember arguing before
Speaker 4: you know, everything just kind of went black.
Speaker 3: M So, you were dating his sister, you think of
Speaker 3: that made him upset.
Speaker 4: I'm thinking it because I remember he wasn't too happy
Speaker 4: about it, but like he told me and his sister,
Speaker 4: he was okay with it, but he started he's been
Speaker 4: treating me differently, like before the accident, and then he
Speaker 4: just randomly was like, hey, you want to go hunting,
Speaker 4: and I'm like, yeah, sure, And all I remember is him,
Speaker 4: like him being determined on going to a specific spot
Speaker 4: and I was like, no, I know a different spot,
Speaker 4: and then we ended up going to where he wanted to,
Speaker 4: and then I don't really remember much after that, and
Speaker 4: like for a while I didn't remember how it happened.
Speaker 4: But like I said, I hit my head pretty bad,
Speaker 4: and it's starting to come back to me, and like
Speaker 4: I've been hanging out with him and stuff, but like I'm.
Speaker 3: Starting to read this account of the story. What what's
Speaker 3: his account of the story. What does he happened?
Speaker 4: Well, he said that he was trying to shoot a buck,
Speaker 4: and I just like he's the way he explained it is,
Speaker 4: I got in the way and it was an accident.
Speaker 4: But I'm starting to think it wasn't an accident because
Speaker 4: like he was in front of me last the last
Speaker 4: I remember, he was in front of me. So I'm
Speaker 4: trying to I've been trying to figure out for the
Speaker 4: past few days how he would manage to get behind me.
Speaker 4: Like I've sort of just accepted what people have been
Speaker 4: telling me, you know, because I'm trying to get back
Speaker 4: the past six months and like catch up on everything,
Speaker 4: and like now now that I've had some time to
Speaker 4: sit and think about it, and I just it doesn't
Speaker 4: sit right with me. And like he's been acting like
Speaker 4: he's like I don't know if it's just because he's
Speaker 4: happy that I'm alive or what, but he's been acting
Speaker 4: like apologetic a little bit. He's like he's always buying me.
Speaker 3: Yeah, he's been acting apologetic. He shot you in the
Speaker 3: back of the heads, I.
Speaker 4: Know, but he's been like he's been buying me stuff,
Speaker 4: and like he's been he keeps asking me like, hey.
Speaker 3: Do you remember anything?
Speaker 4: Do you remember anything?
Speaker 3: As well?
Speaker 4: He just keeps asking me if I remember anything from
Speaker 4: that day, and like every time I tell him I
Speaker 4: don't know, he just he's persistent. He's like, are you
Speaker 4: sure you don't? Are you sure you don't remember? And
Speaker 4: like it is like at first exactly because at first
Speaker 4: I was just like, oh, he just wants to make
Speaker 4: sure I'm okay and that like my brain's not fucked.
Speaker 4: But I've noticed like he's been the little little weird
Speaker 4: about it, and like I've slowly been giving him hints
Speaker 4: that I've known, and he's been like like, like, for instance,
Speaker 4: yesterday he was like, hey, anything come back yet, And
Speaker 4: I was like, yeah, where are we arguing? And he
Speaker 4: kind of got a little nervous, like I could tell
Speaker 4: by his voice.
Speaker 9: He was like, oh uh yeah, yeah, but.
Speaker 6: We got over that.
Speaker 4: That's that's nothing. Like he kind of blew it.
Speaker 12: Off pretty quick.
Speaker 3: Are you planning on? I mean, look, have you like
Speaker 3: tried to press charges against him or something like that.
Speaker 4: Well, I think I would need like actual proof that
Speaker 4: he'd like it was intentional and stuff for me to
Speaker 4: do something like that. I don't think I could just
Speaker 4: be like, hey, I think it was on purpose.
Speaker 3: Because okay, so you you you sort of you think
Speaker 3: that this might have been on purpose. Who else have
Speaker 3: you talked to about this?
Speaker 4: Nobody so far?
Speaker 3: Like I told my mom, you haven't talked to like
Speaker 3: a lawyer or well, I've talked to my mom, Yeah,
Speaker 3: motherfucker or something like that.
Speaker 4: Well, I've talked to my mom about it, like a
Speaker 4: little bit. I told her. I was like, hey, I'm
Speaker 4: starting to remember a little bit more. And she's been
Speaker 4: asking me about it, and I've been telling her a
Speaker 4: little bit, and all she's like, and she seems like
Speaker 4: she's been telling me to just like not tell nobody
Speaker 4: and to just wait for her to figure it out
Speaker 4: and she'll and she'll let me know, you know, what
Speaker 4: we should do about it, because like she has a
Speaker 4: lot of money. You know, my family's kind of wealthy.
Speaker 4: I guess you can say so, Like, I don't know
Speaker 4: if she's contacting like lawyers or private investigator or what's
Speaker 4: going on? But like, I'm not really sure if I
Speaker 4: want to tell people yet, because everyone's been treating me like, like,
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 3: Different how you were in the comma for you said
Speaker 3: what six months? Yeah, and well what do you do?
Speaker 3: What do you do now?
Speaker 4: Nothing? Really, I've been Uh, I've been going to a
Speaker 4: lot of therapy still And do you I.
Speaker 3: Mean, do you talk about this in therapy?
Speaker 9: Uh?
Speaker 4: Not really, because I just feel like I don't want
Speaker 4: to blow anything out of proportion because if I'm wrong,
Speaker 4: then I'm falsely accusing a good friend of mine. Like
Speaker 4: I understand friends argue and that could just be like
Speaker 4: us arguing a little bit.
Speaker 3: But I don't want to But what like now I'm curious,
Speaker 3: But I'm curious, So why why are you? You know,
Speaker 3: if I'm hearing correctly, the only people you've told are me,
Speaker 3: an internet gecko who is a random guy, and your mom.
Speaker 3: Why would you not tell a therapist or if your
Speaker 3: family can afford a lawyer, because these are legitimate things.
Speaker 3: If you think, let me tell you. If you genuinely
Speaker 3: think that your friend intentionally shot in the head, you
Speaker 3: should tell this therapist who I assume you're talking to
Speaker 3: to help you recover from the coma. You should tell
Speaker 3: a lawyer because they'll know. I mean, I don't know
Speaker 3: if they will, but they might know how to approach
Speaker 3: this situation. You should, you should, You should tell someone
Speaker 3: if you have a suspicion that your friend shot you.
Speaker 4: You know, Yeah, But I just I feel like if
Speaker 4: I do and then it turns out that it was
Speaker 4: an accident, then I'm losing my friend because I don't
Speaker 4: think like he would want to be friends with me
Speaker 4: after I accused him of something like that.
Speaker 3: You know what, I think, you know what your friend, well,
Speaker 3: either your friend shot you in the back of the head,
Speaker 3: you know, uh, I think I think, you know, I
Speaker 3: would be nervous that my friend wouldn't want to be
Speaker 3: friends with him, wouldn't want to be friends with me
Speaker 3: after I did that. So, you know, I think that
Speaker 3: there's there's a little bit of of even ground to
Speaker 3: be made here. It's worth talking about to someone legitimate.
Speaker 4: I think, yeah, I probably should have talked to somebody
Speaker 4: about it.
Speaker 3: Will you do that? Will you do that? Will you
Speaker 3: talk to your therapist and say, hey, I think that
Speaker 3: my friend shot me in the back of the face
Speaker 3: and you know, I don't know. This might be you know,
Speaker 3: a thing I could talk about in therapy. You know
Speaker 3: something I personally I think that's a legitimate thing to
Speaker 3: talk about in therapy. Is your friend is shooting you
Speaker 3: in the head in the middle of the woods.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just I just concerned because like we've been
Speaker 4: friends since kindergarten and our families are really close. So
Speaker 4: like I'm not trying to ruin everything over just like
Speaker 4: a thought or like a conclusion that I've come to,
Speaker 4: because it could just be like me piece stuff together
Speaker 4: still without the complete story.
Speaker 3: You know, sure, and and I get that, But that's
Speaker 3: why I think you should piece I mean, you don't
Speaker 3: have to go straight to your friends and accuse him,
Speaker 3: but you should talk it out with someone.
Speaker 4: Well that's what I call you.
Speaker 3: Oh, you should talk. I mean, you should talk it
Speaker 3: out with a professional. I don't know anything about how
Speaker 3: the brain works, but listen, what do you say? Your
Speaker 3: name was Joshua? Joshua. Look, Joshua. If I'll leave you
Speaker 3: with this, get a different hobby. What get get next? Here? Here?
Speaker 3: Here's here will be my actual Get a hobby that
Speaker 3: doesn't involve guns. If you can, you're what you said,
Speaker 3: you were wealthy? Play croquet? Do any other rich guy sport?
Speaker 3: Get into gulf? You know, any does anything that doesn't
Speaker 3: involve guns. I'm pro you doing. Do croque? Do fucking
Speaker 3: what's the thing? Racketball? Get a new hobby that that
Speaker 3: that won't involve you getting shot in the heads. That'll
Speaker 3: That'll be my final advice to go talk to your
Speaker 3: therapist about how you think your friend might have tried
Speaker 3: to kill you, and then learn how to play golf.
Speaker 4: All right, Before we do go, I just want to
Speaker 4: say that thank you for all the content you make
Speaker 4: going to physical therapy and watching your podcasts and everything.
Speaker 4: It's really helped me kind of keep saying.
Speaker 3: Thank you, man, I appreciate that. I'm glad to hear that.
Speaker 4: All right, Right, you have a good night man, you too.
Speaker 3: All From Mason Mason, oh Jick, Hello Mason, how are you?
Speaker 6: I'm good?
Speaker 9: How are you?
Speaker 3: Why are you good?
Speaker 11: I didn't expect to be here.
Speaker 3: I didn't expect you to be here either.
Speaker 11: Really, really, who are you expecting?
Speaker 3: I wasn't expecting anyone in particular, but I'll tell you
Speaker 3: I was not expecting you. Okay, does that make sense?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I think, So, how old are you, Mason, I'm eighteen?
Speaker 3: You're eighteen?
Speaker 11: Yeah, nineteen and a month little less, fifteen days ish?
Speaker 3: You What are you doing for your birthday?
Speaker 11: Waking up? Maybe taking a shower, don't help, think about
Speaker 11: it when I get there. Nothing special.
Speaker 3: The nineteenth birthday is not particularly special. Yeah, I mean
Speaker 3: it's the last year of your teens.
Speaker 11: Yeah, that's kind of weird, is it.
Speaker 3: Where are you are you? Do you feel old?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 7: Not yet.
Speaker 11: I think once you're like past twenty two, I feel
Speaker 11: like that's probably when stuff starts setting in, Like, Wow,
Speaker 11: my childhood is like genuinely over, like there's nothing left
Speaker 11: of it, you know.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's weird though, because you know, childhood is nice,
Speaker 3: but I look at it with rose colored glasses. There's
Speaker 3: a lot of things about being a kid that suck.
Speaker 11: Right, But what about being a child sucks?
Speaker 3: Everyone tells you what to do. You have no agency
Speaker 3: over your life. You're you're I mean, if you're like eight, like,
Speaker 3: you don't know you have You're just uncomfortable all the time.
Speaker 3: You don't know who you.
Speaker 9: Are, right, Okay.
Speaker 3: You feel a lot more vulnerable to the opinions of
Speaker 3: other people because you haven't had time to form your
Speaker 3: own opinions.
Speaker 11: I feel like at the age of eight, it's not
Speaker 11: like you don't know what opinions are yet.
Speaker 3: Well, no, I mean you. I'm just talking about younger,
Speaker 3: you know. I'm like, you know, fourteen or fourteen or whatever. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I was fucking thirteen. I was. I was nervous as
Speaker 3: ship all right time. When I was in sixth grade,
Speaker 3: I was like, I don't want to draw any attention
Speaker 3: to myself whatsoever. Right, And now that I'm you know,
Speaker 3: forty seven, you know I'm a gecko on the.
Speaker 11: Computer, right right, Yeah, that's that's the life to be living,
Speaker 11: if I'm being honest. I mean, do you you obviously
Speaker 11: liked doing this enough to do it three times a.
Speaker 3: Week sometimes sometimes, Well, tonight's been a good night. Tonight,
Speaker 3: I'm feeling good. I was just saying this that some nights,
Speaker 3: some nights fucking suck.
Speaker 9: Yeah.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I mean, I doubt it's the easiest job, and
Speaker 11: I bet you get a lot of shit for it,
Speaker 11: but I feel like it's probably a good job once
Speaker 11: you have nights like these. I don't know which one
Speaker 11: outweighs up the other more, but it's.
Speaker 3: It's it's it's nice when we have good nights and
Speaker 3: and it only sucks when we go for a while
Speaker 3: without having uh good nights. But it's been a good night.
Speaker 3: I like this conversation. It was like a good back
Speaker 3: and forth here for like, I'm learning about you, you're
Speaker 3: learning about me.
Speaker 11: I like learning about you.
Speaker 3: Get that's very sweet. But I have this thing where
Speaker 3: you know, you've tricked me a little bit into talking
Speaker 3: too much because I have this philosophy. I already know
Speaker 3: everything about myself. Not one hundreds of true, but I
Speaker 3: know more about myself. I know way more about myself
Speaker 3: than I do about you. So I, you know, curious
Speaker 3: about you. You're nineteen, Are you in college?
Speaker 11: I'm taking a summer class right now. I actually had
Speaker 11: a unintentional gap year.
Speaker 3: So an unintentional gap year, what does that look like?
Speaker 11: So I was going to go into the navy, you know.
Speaker 11: So I left for basic and we had to quarantine
Speaker 11: for two weeks, and then thirty eight out of like
Speaker 11: forty people in my building got COVID, so we all
Speaker 11: had to stay there for another two weeks. So we
Speaker 11: were quarantined for a month. After that, I went to
Speaker 11: boot camp, for two weeks, and a lot of us
Speaker 11: just from like a month of inactivity couldn't really complete
Speaker 11: the physical tests that we could when we started. I
Speaker 11: guess I don't know how to explain that. I mean,
Speaker 11: I got lucky only having the quarantine for a month.
Speaker 11: When I was in Septs. The guy there were guys
Speaker 11: there that had been there since July of last year,
Speaker 11: and I was there in February, so they'd been there
Speaker 11: for almost seven months.
Speaker 3: Your ultimate goal, you want to join the Navy.
Speaker 11: No, not anymore. No, I'm just going to college. I'm
Speaker 11: going to get a business degree, probably like a marketing
Speaker 11: and then I want to work in real estate.
Speaker 3: And you want to work in real estate?
Speaker 11: Yeah, in Texas?
Speaker 3: Interesting like selling it. You want to be an agent?
Speaker 3: You want to own yeah? Yeah thing. Yeah, that's a
Speaker 3: good business from what I've heard about it. You can
Speaker 3: probably make a lot of money. You can probably work
Speaker 3: for yourself. Great, it's a good gig. And what now,
Speaker 3: let me ask you what drives you? Is it money?
Speaker 3: You want to have a lot of money. You want
Speaker 3: to have agency over yourself.
Speaker 11: Eventually, I just don't want a very repetitive job, you know,
Speaker 11: I want something where I could wake up every morning
Speaker 11: and have a different experience and not feel like I
Speaker 11: wake up every morning just slaving my life away to
Speaker 11: a job that I don't enjoy.
Speaker 3: You know, can I ask? And I don't know? You
Speaker 3: Actually you probably know more about fucking real estate than
Speaker 3: I do. Uh. What makes selling real estate in your opinion,
Speaker 3: a not repetitive job? Because I would think it sort
Speaker 3: of is you you know, you wake up every day
Speaker 3: you sell houses.
Speaker 6: Well that, but.
Speaker 11: Real estate is like, it's not a repetitive thing. And
Speaker 11: in terms of how often you have to do it,
Speaker 11: you could sell. If you're your own business, right and
Speaker 11: you sell three houses a year, you're already making more
Speaker 11: than what the average household income is for in the
Speaker 11: United States.
Speaker 3: Really, and for only fucking three houses.
Speaker 11: Yeah yeah, if if that's if you do work under yourself,
Speaker 11: If you work under other people, then I mean sometimes
Speaker 11: they'll give you like a commission bonus, but not always.
Speaker 11: But I mean, either way, have still decent money.
Speaker 3: I like the idea that you fucking sell three houses
Speaker 3: a year and then you fuck off to like shine.
Speaker 11: I'm not saying that I'm just going to fuck off, right,
Speaker 11: I'm like, obviously I'm gonna keep putting in work, and
Speaker 11: those things are like there's still year long projects where
Speaker 11: you're going to have to buy like a rundown I
Speaker 11: should he rundown piece of like a lot, right, and
Speaker 11: then you fix it up and then you're gonna sell
Speaker 11: it for almost double what you paid for. And that's
Speaker 11: what you're hoping for, is that you get more in
Speaker 11: your return.
Speaker 3: So right, well you're gonna you're gonna be you when
Speaker 3: you fix it up. You should add some flare to
Speaker 3: the houses. Man, if that's the thing, If you really wanna,
Speaker 3: if you really want to make this a creative job,
Speaker 3: you've got to be a special type of realtor person,
Speaker 3: all right. You gotta be like taking you know, houses
Speaker 3: in suburban neighborhoods and making them into arcades and ship. Right,
Speaker 3: you got to add pac man wallpaper and uh, I
Speaker 3: don't know, just get really fucky with it, you know,
Speaker 3: make that turn at a at a mirror room where
Speaker 3: all the walls are mirrors, something like that. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Do you get creative with the housing part. That's just
Speaker 3: a way to to to, you know, add some some
Speaker 3: flair to it, right, piss and ship all over the
Speaker 3: walls and go. This is a piss and ship house.
Speaker 11: Okay, okay, so yeah, I think that one would work.
Speaker 3: Honestly, the kid died in here.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean I.
Speaker 11: Think probably places with a little bit of history behind them.
Speaker 11: You know, absolutely, you're making a property.
Speaker 3: You have to be creative and you're storytelling because you're.
Speaker 11: Not always you can't get a piss and ship house
Speaker 11: anywhere off the street. That's a that's my specialty right there.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 3: Look what your name was, Mason? Mason. I like your
Speaker 3: yes and mentality. I like your creativity. I I you know,
Speaker 3: I I buy a house. I'd buy a house from
Speaker 3: you if if I could afford one in in in
Speaker 3: the air in uh you know, if I could afford
Speaker 3: a piss and ship house. They probably run for millions
Speaker 3: of dollars. But if if, if you know, the market crashes,
Speaker 3: I'll be hitting you up. Okay, thank you so much
Speaker 3: for calling, man. You have good rest of the night.
Speaker 11: Yeah, YouTube gets Yeah, how from Hayden.
Speaker 3: Hayden?
Speaker 6: Wait, Oh shit, I'm actually on You're on the thing, dude.
Speaker 6: Oh nice? What's up? Wait? Hello? Can you hear me?
Speaker 3: I can hear you?
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, you're uh your thing said, like, do you
Speaker 6: know anyone? I called in because I actually don't know anyone.
Speaker 3: You don't know anyone?
Speaker 6: Yeah, I don't even know like a like a single person, dude,
Speaker 6: you know me? I mean I guess that's true, Like
Speaker 6: I know who you are, but like I don't, I
Speaker 6: don't know you, you know, but.
Speaker 3: I mean, but you know who I am?
Speaker 6: Well, I mean in that sense, I know, like who
Speaker 6: a lot of people are, right, Okay.
Speaker 3: Well, I don't think it's I don't think it's possible
Speaker 3: for you to not know.
Speaker 6: Anyone, not really, like I don't know anyone at all.
Speaker 6: I yes, I'm an orphan. I just I just grew up.
Speaker 6: I didn't have any parents or parental figures. I uh.
Speaker 6: I work like a like a night security job. It's
Speaker 6: just me. I don't see anyone. I drive home. No
Speaker 6: one's but me here. I don't think I've actually spoken
Speaker 6: to another person face to face for like probably about
Speaker 6: like two years.
Speaker 3: Really, yeah, are you well so you grew up with Nope,
Speaker 3: But I mean where did you grow up? Like what
Speaker 3: was your life like when you were ten?
Speaker 6: I just I just like there was no I just
Speaker 6: like started, you know, like that's it. No, school or anything.
Speaker 3: Just where did you when Okay when you were ten
Speaker 3: years old?
Speaker 6: And yeah, yeah I was. I was. I was working security,
Speaker 6: Like I said.
Speaker 3: Yeah, where do you sleep.
Speaker 6: In my bed?
Speaker 3: Okay? Where's you have? I have a it's like when
Speaker 3: you were ten years old? Like where did you.
Speaker 6: See at night? Well, like I said, like in my bed,
Speaker 6: you know, like I have like a I've got like
Speaker 6: I've got like a like a bed at a place
Speaker 6: I sleep on it.
Speaker 3: Who owned? Who pays for the place to exist?
Speaker 6: I don't have to pay for it. It's just I
Speaker 6: can just sleep.
Speaker 3: Say there's no one around, like the rates the facility, Hayden,
Speaker 3: I do.
Speaker 6: I'm the it's my be you know, all right, Hayden.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we're gonna where we can either talk like like
Speaker 3: you know, two people having a conversation where they speak words,
Speaker 3: or I'll hang up.
Speaker 6: Right, Okay, I understand. I don't pay rent if that's
Speaker 6: what you're asking.
Speaker 3: So what what is this place?
Speaker 6: It's just the bed. It's not like a place like
Speaker 6: it's just like the bed. Like I'm like the like
Speaker 6: outside you know, in the woods.
Speaker 3: Hayden. Yes, Hayden, who are you? Hayden?
Speaker 6: What do you mean?
Speaker 3: Hey, I need a Hayden. I want to move on
Speaker 3: so fast. I need a conversation with a human being
Speaker 3: right now about things that makes sense to me in
Speaker 3: my head.
Speaker 6: I know, I'm sorry, I really tried, but like this
Speaker 6: is actually my first Congress station with a human being.
Speaker 6: And like I mean I said, it was like two years.
Speaker 3: Right, probably tell me about two years ago.
Speaker 6: Yeah, two years ago. I remember it actually pretty clearly.
Speaker 3: Tell me.
Speaker 6: Yeah, the last person I had a conversation with, who
Speaker 6: was it? I ran out of toilet paper, so I
Speaker 6: went to the store to get some. Mhm, and uh
Speaker 6: it was the dude that the cash registry, you know.
Speaker 6: He was like, that's a lot of toilet paper. And
Speaker 6: I was like too nervous to say anything. Mm hmm.
Speaker 6: Well hello, I think my my phone.
Speaker 3: Hello, I'm here, I'm here.
Speaker 6: Oh, so.
Speaker 3: Okay, So you went to get toilet paper.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I got like a lot of So okay, are
Speaker 6: you like a legit you're like a legitimate like a gorphobic?
Speaker 6: I don't know what that means, Like like I'm like
Speaker 6: afraid of something, like I like a phobic part. I
Speaker 6: know that what is a gore?
Speaker 3: Like you know, like be afraid to leave the house.
Speaker 6: Oh well, I mean I don't have a half Boh,
Speaker 6: you don't have a house now, Like I said, it's
Speaker 6: like in the woods.
Speaker 3: You sleep in a bed in the middle of the woods.
Speaker 6: Yeah, and what's that like? I mean, it's it's kind
Speaker 6: of like it's it's kind of chow but I guess
Speaker 6: it could be kind of lonely.
Speaker 3: Is there a house over the woods or it is
Speaker 3: a bed in the middle of the woods with nothing.
Speaker 6: Else covering it's it's in the woods. I mean there's
Speaker 6: like woods around, so it's kind of like hidden from
Speaker 6: like view from outside of the woods.
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? Is there are there four
Speaker 3: walls surrounding the bed?
Speaker 9: No?
Speaker 3: Where are you right now?
Speaker 6: In the woods?
Speaker 3: Really?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 3: How do you charge your phone?
Speaker 6: H I have a I have solar panels. You know.
Speaker 3: It's nighttime.
Speaker 6: Well, I mean it charges during the day and then
Speaker 6: I can use it at night.
Speaker 3: Can you yell as loud as you possibly can for me?
Speaker 6: Yeah? I don't wanna. I don't wanna, like i've you don't.
Speaker 6: I don't want to alert anyone to my presence in
Speaker 6: the woods.
Speaker 3: You know, there's no one around there in the middle
Speaker 3: of the woods.
Speaker 6: I mean it's we say, like in the middle. I
Speaker 6: mean it's I maybe I maybe towards the edge of
Speaker 6: the woods.
Speaker 3: I mean, you don't live with you live on the
Speaker 3: edge of the woods.
Speaker 6: I may not have been totally honest. It's I have
Speaker 6: been totally.
Speaker 3: Honest with me.
Speaker 6: Well, I'm now I'm being totally honest.
Speaker 3: I don't think you are Haydden.
Speaker 6: What do you mean.
Speaker 3: Hadn't I? Yes, just take your bed from the middle
Speaker 3: of the woods. And you said you work the night shop, right, Yeah,
Speaker 3: they do. They pay you money to do this job.
Speaker 6: Yeah, they're just Yeah, they should.
Speaker 3: You should take some of that money, rent an apartment
Speaker 3: or a house and put the bed in that house
Speaker 3: and then sleep there.
Speaker 6: Mm hmm.
Speaker 3: I'm not here to judge you and how you live,
Speaker 3: but I want you you to keep stay open to
Speaker 3: the possibility that that might be a happier existence for
Speaker 3: you than the one you currently live.
Speaker 6: Hm. Hm, I mean, I don't know. It's I feel
Speaker 6: like I'm doing all right.
Speaker 3: I think you are too. Thank you so much for
Speaker 3: calling hidden.
Speaker 6: Uh yeah, yeah, thanks thanks for having me on. Dude.
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Speaker 1: Call from Jen, Jen, Yes, how are you?
Speaker 9: I'm good?
Speaker 13: How are you?
Speaker 3: You seem you seem very excited.
Speaker 10: Oh my god, I've been trying to call in for
Speaker 10: like a year.
Speaker 3: Do you are? Do you leg you mean that like
Speaker 3: a year?
Speaker 10: Yeah, since like whenever you started.
Speaker 3: Started about a year ago. What's your what's your name?
Speaker 3: And chat? Am I allowed to? Are you allowed to say?
Speaker 9: No?
Speaker 10: I don't know. My husband's the one who's always in
Speaker 10: the chat, and I just.
Speaker 3: Call what's what can I know what his name is.
Speaker 3: I'm curious.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 10: You could ask him.
Speaker 3: Have I spoken to your husband?
Speaker 10: No, this is the first time for both me and
Speaker 10: my husband.
Speaker 5: Hair.
Speaker 9: I'll give you to him.
Speaker 3: He's so really so you so you? Uh oh here,
Speaker 3: let's well, so you, how have you been trying to
Speaker 3: call in for a year? You haven't gotten in after
Speaker 3: calling in for a year? I feel like after a year.
Speaker 10: Yeah, well, I usually like we'll give up after a while. Yeah,
Speaker 10: I'll just do like fiing stuck and I'll just go asleep.
Speaker 3: Well, Jen, I mean, tell me everything, tell me nothing.
Speaker 10: Well, I don't know, it's just me.
Speaker 3: It's yes, let me ask you something. You've been watching
Speaker 3: this for a year? Yes, what I mean? What do
Speaker 3: you when you what do you like about the callers?
Speaker 3: When you when you like the callers?
Speaker 10: Some of them are very interesting stories. And I'm not
Speaker 10: going to be one of them. Like the guy who's
Speaker 10: like living on a cot in the middle of would.
Speaker 3: I have I have?
Speaker 4: I don't.
Speaker 3: I don't know what my own personal theory is about
Speaker 3: that one.
Speaker 10: He's probably full of shit, but he but.
Speaker 3: Even if he is full of shit, it's like, well,
Speaker 3: what's the what's the real story here? Because is he
Speaker 3: actually a gloraphobic? Like is he just fucking with Because
Speaker 3: when people are like, legit fucking with me, they don't
Speaker 3: there was something about that. I don't know. I don't know.
Speaker 3: I don't know what to make of it.
Speaker 10: Right, It's like are they in the witness protection program?
Speaker 10: Like who are they hiding from? Why do they may
Speaker 10: have to make these obscure stories.
Speaker 3: It's weird because I almost feel like if someone's fucking
Speaker 3: with me, if someone's like just there to fuck with me,
Speaker 3: they'll they would make something outlandish. I feel that wasn't
Speaker 3: that wasn't outland and crazy enough for me to be like,
Speaker 3: all right, this person's just gone, you know, making shit up.
Speaker 7: Yeah.
Speaker 10: I just usually at night, like my creativity level is
Speaker 10: just not there to be coming up with this outlandish
Speaker 10: and sane stuff. So apologies to everybody.
Speaker 3: You don't have to You don't have to apologize at all.
Speaker 3: You have nothing to be sorry for. I mean, I
Speaker 3: don't know, have you killed anyone? Have you murdered a person?
Speaker 10: I have not murdered a person.
Speaker 3: What would it take to get you to murder a person?
Speaker 10: Jesus anonymity for number one and a shit ton of money.
Speaker 3: That's that's it is. If someone paid you enough and
Speaker 3: you knew you to get away with it. That was
Speaker 3: not the answer. I was expecting, yes, expecting a more
Speaker 3: noble sort of answer of like they would have to no,
Speaker 3: you know, come across my child or whatever the fuck? Nope,
Speaker 3: how much money would it take? Realistically?
Speaker 10: I mean, I guess it's not as black and white
Speaker 10: as that. I guess when we start talking in details
Speaker 10: like well, who am I killing? What kind of person
Speaker 10: are they? Do they deserve it sort of thing? So
Speaker 10: if they like really deserve it, like Harvey Weinstein, then
Speaker 10: like shit, like give me like ten grand I'll be good.
Speaker 9: But if it's like really.
Speaker 10: A mom, yeah, if it's like a mom, like somebody
Speaker 10: who's living a good life, like I would probably feel
Speaker 10: terrible for the rest of my life if I did it.
Speaker 10: So we're talking like millions.
Speaker 3: Now do you support capital punishment?
Speaker 10: Well, I don't support the death penalty. I feel like
Speaker 10: people can be rehabilitated the capital punishment, Like, yeah, do.
Speaker 3: You support the death penalty?
Speaker 9: No?
Speaker 3: Wait, okay, so hold on, So but that doesn't make
Speaker 3: sense because if you, like, if you believe that no
Speaker 3: one should like like, okay, if you believe that, like
Speaker 3: a judge shouldn't be able to, in their judgment say
Speaker 3: that this person has done so horribly that they deserve
Speaker 3: to die, like how so? But how why? Because that's
Speaker 3: my thing because I couldn't do I don't know even
Speaker 3: if they were a really bad person. I don't know
Speaker 3: if I could be like, this person deserves to die.
Speaker 3: I don't know if I could make that decision that
Speaker 3: I think this person deserves to die.
Speaker 10: Well, I mean I think that, like once we start
Speaker 10: talking about like legality and like interpreting law is to
Speaker 10: say that, yes, this person did something so egregious that
Speaker 10: they should no longer walk this earth. I think that.
Speaker 10: I mean, we're talking about two different things here, Like
Speaker 10: number one, we're talking about me.
Speaker 3: I feel like like that we're talking about if someone
Speaker 3: does something so terrible, do they deserve to die?
Speaker 10: Well, that's true. I mean, yeah, you're you're asking me,
Speaker 10: like how much money would I take for it? And yeah,
Speaker 10: I guess in my like in my personal judgmental mind,
Speaker 10: like yes, I could like say yes or no, like
Speaker 10: just based off my own like, but as long as
Speaker 10: I would be anonymous for it. Fine, yes, sure, But
Speaker 10: if we're talking like a judge interpreting laws to say, like, yes,
Speaker 10: this person should die there serial killer, child rapist thing,
Speaker 10: then I don't know. I mean, like I feel like,
Speaker 10: maybe not that specific example, but people should be given
Speaker 10: the opportunity to rehabilitate. And I also feel like if
Speaker 10: the victims had something to say about it, they would
Speaker 10: probably not want that person to get off so scott
Speaker 10: free with death. They would want them to like rot
Speaker 10: in a cellar or like in a cell for the
Speaker 10: rest of their life.
Speaker 3: So grand, Well yeah, all wait, hold on, here's okay,
Speaker 3: how much to kill? Like just like a guy who
Speaker 3: like works in an office and he's like not that cool,
Speaker 3: but he's he didn't like kill anyone or anything, Like,
Speaker 3: how much for that guy?
Speaker 10: Are you talking about a coworker?
Speaker 3: No, just you know, just some random guy. I mean,
Speaker 3: do you know a co worker? Oh my god, not
Speaker 3: that doesn't desert. What are do you have any co
Speaker 3: workers that you would kill for a certain amount of money?
Speaker 3: Is what I'm asking?
Speaker 10: I think, Oh my god, probably, but like but like
Speaker 10: for like a lot of money.
Speaker 3: All right, how much? How much money to kill your receptionist?
Speaker 10: Jesus like a couple of millions.
Speaker 3: Really, Yeah, that's fucked.
Speaker 7: Up, isn't it.
Speaker 10: This is what covid has done to all of us.
Speaker 10: We just don't give a ship anymore.
Speaker 3: That's fucked up.
Speaker 6: Man.
Speaker 3: I know you kill your coworker for two million dollars,
Speaker 3: it's fucked up.
Speaker 10: So anyway, what you wouldn't You wouldn't kill anyone, I
Speaker 10: mean for money?
Speaker 14: Likes, how did we get here?
Speaker 10: I'm really not like a violent person.
Speaker 3: Well for the right price, you are.
Speaker 10: Yes, my husband's left the room. He thinks I'm going
Speaker 10: to kill him now?
Speaker 3: Well how much for that?
Speaker 13: Thank god?
Speaker 10: I couldn't. I couldn't.
Speaker 1: That's like, that's good.
Speaker 3: That's good to know. What's your husband's name in chat?
Speaker 3: Do you really not know?
Speaker 10: I honestly like I could give you. I could give
Speaker 10: him to you. He wants to know your name in chatmous,
Speaker 10: He says anonymous.
Speaker 3: He's anonymous?
Speaker 8: Apparently.
Speaker 3: Well I'm glad. Well, tell I appreciate you guys being
Speaker 3: here for a year. That means a lot to me.
Speaker 10: Oh thanks, this is just I mean, you're the only
Speaker 10: gek on the internet that gives fake therapy to anyone.
Speaker 10: So clearly it hasn't worked for me.
Speaker 3: Well at the fake therapy, Well it's worth I think. Well,
Speaker 3: I mean, how would you even define this as working?
Speaker 7: You know?
Speaker 10: Well, I mean we're talking about I mean, like I
Speaker 10: would think that I'm a fairly normal person with non
Speaker 10: violent tendencies, Like I'm a nice person, like I've got
Speaker 10: a good profession. I help people. But for some reason,
Speaker 10: were the right.
Speaker 3: Price, you would abandon all of that. Yeah, a co
Speaker 3: worker in.
Speaker 15: The face, Yes, the receptionist.
Speaker 3: Do you not like her? Or you just like? I mean,
Speaker 3: what would you do with two million dollars?
Speaker 10: Oh my god, I'd like, well, number one, I'd pay
Speaker 10: off my student loan, Like that's for sure.
Speaker 3: Oh okay, you mentioned you have student loans. Now I
Speaker 3: kind of get it.
Speaker 10: Yeah, I mean, like I feel like I'm indebted to
Speaker 10: not only several banks, but to the government still for
Speaker 10: quite some time. So I'd like to break the chains
Speaker 10: of indentureship.
Speaker 3: Oh should. I got to give a quick shout out
Speaker 3: to Skylius for this, for this raid.
Speaker 10: Nice hero.
Speaker 3: He's a good guy. I don't know why I said that.
Speaker 3: He might not be a good guy. He raided me,
Speaker 3: but but I can't say for certain that he's a
Speaker 3: good guy just because he raided me. I don't know
Speaker 3: anything about him. I think it's dangerous of me that
Speaker 3: I've said that that he's a good guy, because he
Speaker 3: might be a terrible person.
Speaker 14: He could be.
Speaker 10: He's probably trying to buy your favor.
Speaker 15: Him.
Speaker 3: You know what, him I would kill for two million dollars.
Speaker 7: Same.
Speaker 3: Well, it was al as you're talking to you, Jen.
Speaker 3: Thank you so much for being here.
Speaker 15: Yeah, no problem.
Speaker 3: You have a good night. I'll talk to you next year.
Speaker 10: Yes, next year.
Speaker 7: All right?
Speaker 16: Bye?
Speaker 17: All from Jam and Sam. Hello.
Speaker 3: Hello, did I get in? Get into what.
Speaker 1: The chat? Yes?
Speaker 3: You are in chat with me currently. You are currently
Speaker 3: engaged in a conversation with me over the phone.
Speaker 13: Hello, how are you?
Speaker 3: What's your name?
Speaker 13: It went quiet? Do I still love you?
Speaker 3: Hello?
Speaker 17: Hello? This is so weird.
Speaker 3: Sam Man's Sam? There's not Sam. Listen, Sam. I need
Speaker 3: you to know. And I'm not saying this to be
Speaker 3: harsh to you or anything like that, but I'm only
Speaker 3: saying this because there's no time to evaluate the situation
Speaker 3: that you're in right now. There is only time to
Speaker 3: be in it. Does that make sense?
Speaker 17: Yeah, that does make sense. I'm kind of weirded out
Speaker 17: by it?
Speaker 3: Did you say your name was Sam?
Speaker 9: Yes?
Speaker 3: Sam? No time to think about how you feel, only
Speaker 3: time to feel It's Sam, How do you know that
Speaker 3: you are not dead?
Speaker 1: See?
Speaker 17: I don't really know? Like are we actually dead or
Speaker 17: are we alive?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 17: I feel things, I feel my pulse, I feel my
Speaker 17: cat beside me right now. But then again, could she
Speaker 17: be a ghost too?
Speaker 10: Right like?
Speaker 17: We could both be ghosts just living in the ghost
Speaker 17: land of Earth.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 17: Or are we in another like parallel universe We don't
Speaker 17: know of Sam.
Speaker 3: I get this sense from you that you maybe you
Speaker 3: know and I get this too. I get this too.
Speaker 3: Think think a lot about your surroundings, about who you are,
Speaker 3: about what you're currently feeling. You know in your head? Sam.
Speaker 3: But yeah, look, I implore you, and I'm only telling you
Speaker 3: this because I'm telling myself this as well. To be
Speaker 3: in the world more than you're thinking about your place
Speaker 3: in it, Sam.
Speaker 17: Are we in a simulation right now?
Speaker 3: We might be. I actually think if we were, though
Speaker 3: it wouldn't matter the whole the question. If I had
Speaker 3: to give my personal answer to this question, are we
Speaker 3: in a simulation? I'd say it doesn't really matter, right,
Speaker 3: Think about this. You woke up tomorrow morning on CNN,
Speaker 3: on all the news places everywhere, on Twitter, everything was
Speaker 3: life is confirmed to be a simulation. What would you do?
Speaker 3: Would it just be part I think I think it
Speaker 3: would just blend into the news cycle. Oh yeah, life's
Speaker 3: a simulation. I still gotta go to work. I still
Speaker 3: got to feed my dog the freaking simulated pixel food.
Speaker 3: You know, we still got to do things. We still
Speaker 3: got to live life simulation or not. Oh God, your father,
Speaker 3: will your dad? Your cousin's still your cousin. The simulation
Speaker 3: doesn't matter. We still would do the things that we
Speaker 3: have to do. You can't just not go to school
Speaker 3: just because it's not real. Or maybe you can't, But what.
Speaker 13: If you don't want to anymore?
Speaker 17: Like what if you just want to skip out and
Speaker 17: like go to a different country, or I don't know,
Speaker 17: eat pasta every day for the rest of your life.
Speaker 17: See what happens, Right, Sam?
Speaker 3: It sounds like you've you' it sounds like you've defined
Speaker 3: the goal for your life. It sounds like you've deferd
Speaker 3: anything that you would like to do.
Speaker 17: That is my goal in life is to just eat
Speaker 17: all of the happiest pasta in the world and love pasta.
Speaker 13: What's your favorite pasta?
Speaker 3: Sam? I wish you the best of luck in achieving
Speaker 3: that goal, and I'll be rooting for you all the way.
Speaker 3: And by the way, I just want you to know.
Speaker 3: I want you to know. People are going to tell
Speaker 3: you that you're pronouncing pasta wrong. But who are they
Speaker 3: to be the authority on anything that takes place in
Speaker 3: your version of reality? Yeah?
Speaker 17: Correct, you too, Love you, GK.
Speaker 1: All from worrying.
Speaker 12: Hello, Hey, how's it going, gek?
Speaker 3: How do you know you're not dead?
Speaker 12: Hmmm?
Speaker 15: So I was thinking that it doesn't matter because if
Speaker 15: it's true that we are dead, and there's other existences
Speaker 15: and they would be relative to the existence that they're in.
Speaker 15: So if we are dead now, but we can witness
Speaker 15: babies being born, old people dying, young people dying too early,
Speaker 15: then this is it. You know, it's all relative. So
Speaker 15: if we're dead now, well this is our dead life.
Speaker 15: And so to me, that's why the question not to
Speaker 15: say your question doesn't matter, But if someone's actually worried
Speaker 15: about that, then just know it's relative and enjoy this
Speaker 15: death life whatever they might think. It is simulation.
Speaker 3: How do you like to enjoy the simulation the death life?
Speaker 7: What do you do?
Speaker 15: I don't think it's true, But how do I enjoy it?
Speaker 15: I just I hang out with my wife and that's
Speaker 15: now all I do. Now, I just moved. You meet
Speaker 15: your work place with not any friends. But I met
Speaker 15: her in college.
Speaker 3: All class.
Speaker 15: At the library, actually.
Speaker 3: Studying for Remember the first to her when you saw
Speaker 3: her in the library.
Speaker 15: The first thing I said to her? Yes, probably just high,
Speaker 15: you know she I remember she talked to me. I
Speaker 15: think first we were sitting down, and there was.
Speaker 12: I was sitting.
Speaker 15: Down first, there was an empty seat, and then another guy,
Speaker 15: and so she sat down right between us and started
Speaker 15: talking to him first. But when he got up, then
Speaker 15: I started talking to her. I don't remember the first words,
Speaker 15: but that's how it how it went, and how the
Speaker 15: conversation started.
Speaker 3: How do you see? Do you feel bad that you
Speaker 3: were the second guy that she talked to? Like the
Speaker 3: guy she was having a pretty good conversation with the
Speaker 3: first guy and then he got up to leave, and
Speaker 3: you were sort of like a second place conversation or.
Speaker 15: Is that I wasn't thinking that. Now I'll tell her,
Speaker 15: like I'll tease her about that, like, what was going on?
Speaker 15: You were flirting with that guy before me, but she
Speaker 15: didn't know who I was, so I don't really care.
Speaker 3: Let me ask you one final question. Yeah, do you
Speaker 3: believe when you look.
Speaker 15: Back, how will you twenty seven through twenty.
Speaker 3: Seven, all the great things that have happened to you
Speaker 3: in your life? How many of them? What percentage of
Speaker 3: them did you initiate versus they happened upon you, such
Speaker 3: as your wife talking to you first.
Speaker 15: I feel like most a lot of great things are
Speaker 15: from me in this shooting, because at the end of
Speaker 15: the day I asked for her number when she left
Speaker 15: the table, Yes, and other.
Speaker 3: Things, but you know, yes, yes, you're getting the you
Speaker 3: could get balanced, right you you you you You're lucky
Speaker 3: enough to have ran into many pitches.
Speaker 9: Very lucky.
Speaker 3: Yes, And at the end of the day you're the
Speaker 3: one hitting them out of the park. I like that
Speaker 3: for you. What did you say?
Speaker 15: Her name was, Blaine?
Speaker 3: I love you, Lane, you have a rest of the night.
Speaker 12: Hey you too.
Speaker 18: Man.
Speaker 3: Later, a kid named Lane bullied me in high school actually,
Speaker 3: and now he follows me on Instagram and I post
Speaker 3: clips of this stream and he likes them. So I guess.
Speaker 3: I guess we're cool now.
Speaker 1: Paul from Rico, Rico.
Speaker 7: Oh my god.
Speaker 6: I was eating a sandwich and you.
Speaker 3: Answered, Wow, what kind of sandwiches.
Speaker 7: It's a sandwich from Jersey mics. It's got provolone, roast, beef, turkey,
Speaker 7: and bacon.
Speaker 3: M that sounds delicious.
Speaker 6: Oh it is, it is.
Speaker 3: That's how I normally finished. Do you want me to
Speaker 3: let you finish eating this sandwich before we move on?
Speaker 6: I just spit it out.
Speaker 3: Cool, you spit it out? Yeah, listen, I would have
Speaker 3: let you finish. Listen, man, I would have let you
Speaker 3: finish that one bite's.
Speaker 7: A little bit out. It was just spread at that point.
Speaker 3: When you say it's just bread, I feel like bread
Speaker 3: is an integral part of the sandwich and the bread.
Speaker 3: You would have wanted the bread to be the part
Speaker 3: of the bite.
Speaker 7: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, How do you know you're not dead? Pain?
Speaker 7: I wouldn't choose to be in pain. I don't think
Speaker 7: anybody would like those memes. Sometimes I kind of have
Speaker 7: like a.
Speaker 6: Both.
Speaker 7: I mean, every way you deal it, something happens.
Speaker 9: M hm hm.
Speaker 12: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Some must recent painful experience you had.
Speaker 7: It's weird, it's it was a painful experience, but like
Speaker 7: good to some people. Sure, Uh my dad looked at
Speaker 7: me and wanted to be me. For a second, I
Speaker 7: was just like fuck you.
Speaker 3: You said he wanted to be you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, like he looked at me like I'd always wanted
Speaker 7: to look at me like as a kid, but he
Speaker 7: like hated me, and like he looked at me and
Speaker 7: he just smiled and he's just like, don't cut your hair.
Speaker 7: I was like, in my head, just like fuck you.
Speaker 3: But yeah, why was it painful that your dad was
Speaker 3: envious of you?
Speaker 19: Uh?
Speaker 7: Yeah, like I said, he just like as a kid,
Speaker 7: he just wanted to live vicariously through me. But I
Speaker 7: kind of figured that I as an adult. But it's
Speaker 7: so cool now.
Speaker 3: Because do you feel like because he wanted to live
Speaker 3: vicariously through you, he tried to dictate a lot of
Speaker 3: your actions.
Speaker 7: Yeah yeah, but now I'm an adult and like you
Speaker 7: can't you know, really do shit. So it's my life, right.
Speaker 6: You know.
Speaker 3: It's funny because you said that you view this as
Speaker 3: a painful experience, but that you even said yourself that
Speaker 3: others might not view it that way. Yeah, because you know,
Speaker 3: when I think of it, I think of it like
Speaker 3: you know, how well, Leo twenty nine, twenty nine. Your
Speaker 3: father's envious of your youth. You know, he knows that
Speaker 3: you have something valuable, right, Yes, even though you know
Speaker 3: it's caused you a lot of pain to have to
Speaker 3: take his direction. I feel like this experience it could
Speaker 3: help you even maybe realize the the the valuable thing
Speaker 3: you have. You know, your youth can inspire by that.
Speaker 7: I'm going to be eatful until the day I did.
Speaker 7: I like, I'm gonna be that old man like, you know,
Speaker 7: doing crazy shit, smoking weed, having fun. I like jokes.
Speaker 7: I like that is eternal.
Speaker 9: I like that.
Speaker 3: Stay young, my friend.
Speaker 7: Thank you, stay sticky, have a good night. Thanks, thank.
Speaker 1: All. From Jose Jose.
Speaker 3: Hello, do you like when people say your name? Does
Speaker 3: it give you a all hit of dopamine?
Speaker 12: No?
Speaker 3: No, why not?
Speaker 20: You can call me anything.
Speaker 3: I'm on speakerphone right now. Yes, would you mind thinking
Speaker 3: me on speakerphone? It's a little hard to hear you.
Speaker 20: Is that better?
Speaker 3: Much better? Because you know some people I've heard this.
Speaker 3: I've heard this. I talked about this the other night.
Speaker 3: I've heard this. It's all over the internet. People saying things,
Speaker 3: the people saying I don't want to be perceived.
Speaker 6: Have you heard this?
Speaker 20: Yes?
Speaker 3: Where do you lie on the spectrum of I don't
Speaker 3: want to be perceived to I enjoy copious amounts of attention.
Speaker 20: I don't really think about my own perception, but really
Speaker 20: I did. At one time. You used to enjoy copious
Speaker 20: amounts of attention?
Speaker 3: Mhm. And what happened to change that.
Speaker 20: I started living in the world more.
Speaker 3: Tell me about the time period that you've enjoyed receiving
Speaker 3: copious amounts of attention. What were you receiving? What were
Speaker 3: you receiving copious amounts of attention for.
Speaker 20: Being five or six years old? You know you can
Speaker 20: fart and someone would be happy with you.
Speaker 3: What else would you do for attention? Would you act up?
Speaker 3: Would you bite other children? Would you break things?
Speaker 12: Now?
Speaker 20: I didn't have fun like that?
Speaker 3: M okay. So about how old were you when you
Speaker 3: stopped having such a strong desire for attention? Eighteen eighteen? Yeah, okay,
Speaker 3: so we do. We're in high school? Were you? Why
Speaker 3: was that a Actually when I dropped out, you dropped out.
Speaker 3: But when you were sixteen, you know, a young adult,
Speaker 3: a much different situation being a farting five year old,
Speaker 3: would you do things for attention.
Speaker 20: No, because a sixteen year old farting isn't cute.
Speaker 3: No, I don't mean that. I don't mean would you
Speaker 3: do those specific things for attention that you do when
Speaker 3: you were five? I mean would you in general do
Speaker 3: things for attention?
Speaker 20: Yes? I would.
Speaker 3: What would you do?
Speaker 20: Make fun of my friends? Make fun of teachers? Act up?
Speaker 3: Mh. You know what's so weird about being in school?
Speaker 7: Is that?
Speaker 3: Is that? And this is at this is true. I'm
Speaker 3: actually remembering this now because I haven't thought about it
Speaker 3: in a while. But it's weird in high school. In
Speaker 3: middle school, bullying other kids with other kids brings the
Speaker 3: kid that you're bullying the other kids with. He brings
Speaker 3: you guys closer together, Like if you and another person
Speaker 3: make fun of a kid together, it brings you and
Speaker 3: that other person a little bit closer.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 20: It's funny even brought those kids that we made fun
Speaker 20: of together with us.
Speaker 3: Sometimes maybe.
Speaker 20: I mean I was mostly making fun of my friends.
Speaker 20: I didn't care what other people were doing.
Speaker 3: Sure, I know. I remember in middle school, if you
Speaker 3: hated someone and someone else hated someone, you would form
Speaker 3: an alliance over your mutual hatred of the person. I'm
Speaker 3: not talking about a lighthearted ridding here. I'm talking about,
Speaker 3: you know, making kids not want to come to school.
Speaker 20: Oh geez no, no, no, no, no, no, no no,
Speaker 20: that's that's that's our breaking that part.
Speaker 6: M hm.
Speaker 3: So you'd make fun of teachers, You'd make fun of kids.
Speaker 20: I'd make fun of teachers all the time.
Speaker 3: Really, do you think it made them like you? Do
Speaker 3: you think it? Do you think the fact that you
Speaker 3: made fun of them, you didn't default to giving them
Speaker 3: your respect, made them try even harder to earn it.
Speaker 20: There were a few. I bet you know at that
Speaker 20: age you don't really give a shit though, because you're
Speaker 20: just a shithead kid.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 20: Sorry, I'm not sure if I'm allowed to really curse
Speaker 20: on this.
Speaker 3: You can say whatever you want here within reason. Okay,
Speaker 3: how old you now?
Speaker 20: Thirty three?
Speaker 3: Thirty three? And are you comfortable with the amount of
Speaker 3: ascension that you receive as a thirty three year old?
Speaker 6: Man?
Speaker 9: Oh?
Speaker 20: I get way too, I get more than I want.
Speaker 20: I want to be ignored. That's why I liked the
Speaker 20: COVID masks.
Speaker 3: Mhm. I like that too. Yeah, helps you feel a
Speaker 3: little bit more anonymous.
Speaker 20: Mm hmm.
Speaker 3: You feel like he get too much attention.
Speaker 20: No, but anonymity is amazing.
Speaker 3: Why do you like animate aemy?
Speaker 20: That's a good question, probably because maybe what you had
Speaker 20: asked me earlier, I had been spending all that time
Speaker 20: as a teen, as a young adult looking for attention,
Speaker 20: and then when it finally comes your way, it's not
Speaker 20: what you really thought it would be. It's exhausting. You
Speaker 20: know people can be exhausting, don't you think?
Speaker 15: Oh?
Speaker 20: Yeah, absolutely, they could be really tiring. You know, they
Speaker 20: have their problems. You don't get a second to even
Speaker 20: talk about your problems, and then now you're left smoking
Speaker 20: a cigarette in the darkness while the rainfalls.
Speaker 3: Very poetic. No, I agree with you, though, Yeah, a
Speaker 3: lot of attention can definitely be exhausting. I feel you
Speaker 3: on that it would be nice to be anonymous. Being
Speaker 3: anonymous and rich would be cool. Like no one knowing
Speaker 3: who you are, but having a billion dollars. Maybe you
Speaker 3: just go somewhere, you.
Speaker 20: Just resting a T shirt and jeans, and no one
Speaker 20: knows that you've got a billion dollars in your pocket.
Speaker 3: Yeah, how much money do you have to your name?
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, how much money do you have to your name?
Speaker 20: I don't even know. That's how anonymous I try to be,
Speaker 20: even to myself.
Speaker 3: There's a pleasure speaking with Jose.
Speaker 1: You have a good rest of the night, you too,
Speaker 1: Paul from Paul, how.
Speaker 20: Do we know we're alive? I have an answer.
Speaker 5: I think I have an answer.
Speaker 6: What how do we know we're alive?
Speaker 5: I think I have an answer. Okay, Renee their car said,
Speaker 5: I think therefore I am is the mere feeling of
Speaker 5: experience necessitates that one is a lot. I don't think
Speaker 5: by virtue of being dead, you don't experience anything.
Speaker 3: Well, let me tell you something about Renee of the card.
Speaker 3: He's dead as shit, so nothing he and look when
Speaker 3: you here's the thing. No, people don't know this, but
Speaker 3: when you die, nothing you did while you were alive.
Speaker 3: It matters anymore. You're dead now, just I you know, look,
Speaker 3: I'm sure he was great when he was alive. But
Speaker 3: there's no people I try to I don't. Look, I don't.
Speaker 3: I don't really pay that much attention to history historical figures,
Speaker 3: because I just I don't live in the past.
Speaker 9: You know, fair fair? Well, then what do you think
Speaker 9: about the note?
Speaker 7: You're done?
Speaker 3: I don't like the side thing where people write books
Speaker 3: and they're like and then you read them and it's
Speaker 3: like they're trying to tell you stuff even though they're
Speaker 3: already dead. It's like you're dead. You leave, there's new
Speaker 3: people in the world.
Speaker 4: New thought.
Speaker 3: Well, I'll totally see them because they know more than
Speaker 3: you do, because they're still alive. So I'm sure Reneede
Speaker 3: Decard at the time that he was living in fourteen
Speaker 3: ninety five or whatever, was smart. But he's not smart anymore.
Speaker 3: He's dead. And I mean, I don't even think we
Speaker 3: should read any of his books anymore. Because he had
Speaker 3: his chan, he had his chance to tell us all
Speaker 3: the stuff he wanted to tell us. But he's dead
Speaker 3: now it's over. He needs to learn when to throw
Speaker 3: in the towel. So what'd you say? Your name was Paul, Paul.
Speaker 3: I appreciate you bring this to my attention, but you know, look,
Speaker 3: try to get try to get your inspiration from someone
Speaker 3: who's alive, because people who are alive no more than
Speaker 3: people who are dead. That's just what I believe.
Speaker 6: Thank you so much for thanks gag you have for
Speaker 6: the rest of the night.
Speaker 7: I love you.
Speaker 3: I love you too.
Speaker 1: All from then.
Speaker 4: Hello, Hey Gek, longtime watcher for first time caller. I've
Speaker 4: thought a lot about your question for tonight.
Speaker 7: Here, all right, So, I.
Speaker 4: Mean, well, so a few weeks ago, I was getting
Speaker 4: really high and I have this thought that one day
Speaker 4: I'm going to die and I actually don't know what's
Speaker 4: going to happen. And so it made me think about
Speaker 4: this for quite a while, and finally I came to conclusion, GEK,
Speaker 4: that unless I know what happens after I die, I
Speaker 4: don't know if I'm dead or not m And so
Speaker 4: I guess, okay, Oh, you.
Speaker 3: Were going to say, unless if you know what happens
Speaker 3: after you die, you don't know if you're dead or not, right.
Speaker 4: Because I mean, if it's nothing and I don't know anything,
Speaker 4: it's kind of like before I was born. But like
Speaker 4: if it's something like, oh, I go to Heaven, well
Speaker 4: then they're gonna tell me when I get there, Hey,
Speaker 4: you're dead, Welcome to the you know, welcome to the afterlife.
Speaker 4: And the only thing I don't know maybe it's reincarnations
Speaker 4: and the men. You'll never know because it's an endless loop.
Speaker 4: But yeah, it's it's tough to think about. But the
Speaker 4: biggest thing for me is it just creates the sense
Speaker 4: of like uncertainty, and I didn't have that before growing,
Speaker 4: Like I just turned twenty five, and so I just
Speaker 4: started getting this feeling. And I don't know, is it
Speaker 4: normal that people like think about death a lot after
Speaker 4: like a certain age.
Speaker 6: What about you?
Speaker 3: Well, I think it's good to think about deaths because, well,
Speaker 3: because it gives you an appreciation for life, you know.
Speaker 3: I mean, what do you do today?
Speaker 7: You know?
Speaker 4: I mean like that that's the thing. I feel like
Speaker 4: I wasted my day. I woke up, I had a
Speaker 4: had a coffee, you know, I went downstairs and smoked
Speaker 4: the bowl and you know, contemplated the world, watched the news,
Speaker 4: but like kind of like life is just sort of
Speaker 4: going by, and I look at other people's lives. I
Speaker 4: saw this guy just you know, I mean, like everyone's
Speaker 4: life is a story, right. I saw this guy who
Speaker 4: had just gone to jail for embezzling you know, like
Speaker 4: four hundred million dollars you know, from his company. And
Speaker 4: I'm like sitting there wondering, is this like when this
Speaker 4: guy was my age, and this is what he thought
Speaker 4: his life story was going to be, getting, you know,
Speaker 4: wrecked in prison because he couldn't keep his hands off
Speaker 4: the buddy, right are you?
Speaker 3: Are you saying that you wish that you were doing
Speaker 3: something as cool as embezzling four hundred million dollars?
Speaker 12: No?
Speaker 4: Absolutely not, Like that's the thing. I don't know what
Speaker 4: I think would be cool, because I don't think that
Speaker 4: guy probably in like retrospect, thought that was very cool,
Speaker 4: especially now that he's in prison.
Speaker 6: No.
Speaker 3: I well, okay, I know when he got caught it
Speaker 3: was probably not cool, but no, at the time, he
Speaker 3: absolutely thought it was super cool. He had he at
Speaker 3: the time he had four hundred million dollars, which oh,
Speaker 3: absolutely is pretty rare.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think, I mean yeah, And like that's the
Speaker 4: thing is, like, does it actually have consequence if we
Speaker 4: just turned into nothing when we die and back to
Speaker 4: the simulation that the other collar was talking about, Like
Speaker 4: I mean simulation or just turning to dust and you know,
Speaker 4: being a speck in the billion year span at the universe.
Speaker 4: Does feeling four hundred million you know, made up pieces
Speaker 4: of paper really matter?
Speaker 3: M h, Well what do you think? Mmmm? It seems
Speaker 3: like you're becoming aware of your own mortality, which, like
Speaker 3: I said, is good because we live our lives all
Speaker 3: the time, like we're not gonna, you know, just fucking die. Sure,
Speaker 3: but if you think every single day that you're going
Speaker 3: to fucking die, then I feel like you would live
Speaker 3: your life with more intent.
Speaker 4: That's that's kind of how I feel right now.
Speaker 7: It's just the position.
Speaker 4: It's another like existential issues, like the position of my life.
Speaker 3: Tell me something, But tell me something. If you were
Speaker 3: living your life with more intent, what would your life
Speaker 3: look like? What would you be doing every day?
Speaker 4: I would probably be like out in Central Asia driving
Speaker 4: around in like a Toyota land Cruiser, just exploring and
Speaker 4: like meeting like local village people and doing Ryan horses
Speaker 4: and learning falconry no bullshit. Right now in cash like
Speaker 4: ten grand in crypto about like eight well.
Speaker 9: Probably not as much today.
Speaker 4: And then like forty k and stocks forty k and stocks, yeah,
Speaker 4: I hold it called PSTH That's pretty awesome.
Speaker 3: I mean, look, okay, so your net worth is like,
Speaker 3: you know, like sixty k. Yeah, you have sixty k.
Speaker 3: Sell some fucking stock, Okay, And then go do you
Speaker 3: have a job.
Speaker 4: It's like a work from wherever job?
Speaker 3: Oh, go to Central Asia or I don't know, I
Speaker 3: don't know if you can go to Central Asia right now?
Speaker 3: But go somewhere you can go.
Speaker 4: You know what I'm gonna I'm gonna book the ticket right.
Speaker 3: The book a hostel.
Speaker 1: Book a hostel.
Speaker 3: Okay, go alone and start talking to other people, because
Speaker 3: it's gonna be other people your age at the hostel
Speaker 3: and do it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm gonna book the ticket right now.
Speaker 1: Absolutely, good night you too, all from Naomio, Naomio.
Speaker 3: Oh hi, Naomio. I have a question for you.
Speaker 5: Yep, how do we know?
Speaker 3: How do you know you're not dead? I don't know.
Speaker 3: Does that scare you?
Speaker 21: Sometimes?
Speaker 13: It scares me?
Speaker 3: Does it scare you today?
Speaker 6: Not?
Speaker 7: Right now?
Speaker 3: Why do you think it does to scare you? Right now?
Speaker 16: I'm feeling I'm feeling optimistic today, I'm feeling happy today.
Speaker 3: Do you typically feel optimistic.
Speaker 4: Typically?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. What do you think is the prime reason
Speaker 3: why you so often feel optimistic?
Speaker 16: Part of me thinks that it's just a part of
Speaker 16: my disposition, like it's maybe biological. And I also just
Speaker 16: find that in general, when I am optimistic about things,
Speaker 16: then I I'm generally happier. So it's kind of like
Speaker 16: a snowball effect.
Speaker 6: I guess.
Speaker 3: I find that interesting. You say when you're optimistic, you
Speaker 3: feel happier, which so and so, therefore you choose to
Speaker 3: be optimistic. I think that's really cool, to be honest
Speaker 3: with you, because a lot of the time I've looked
Speaker 3: at optimism and pessimism not so much as a choice
Speaker 3: as you've just described, but as a you wake up
Speaker 3: and this is how you're feeling. I like the intention
Speaker 3: behind all this.
Speaker 9: Oh well, thank you.
Speaker 13: I wasn't aware that it was.
Speaker 16: I don't know interpreted differently to people.
Speaker 3: Do you find it difficult to choose every day to
Speaker 3: be optimistic?
Speaker 16: I don't find it difficult, but I do, Oh, I
Speaker 16: do find it. I find that when I'm having a
Speaker 16: bad day and I'm feeling sort of down and pessimistic,
Speaker 16: it is sometimes hard to get out of that funk.
Speaker 3: When you find yourself in this funk and you make
Speaker 3: an effort to get out of it, what are you doing,
Speaker 3: what are you thinking? How do you what action are
Speaker 3: you taking mentally to revive yourself back into this optimistic place?
Speaker 3: Do you say to yourself, think to yourself?
Speaker 21: Yeah, Usually for the most part. The strategy I've been
Speaker 21: using lately is if I'm having a bad day, I
Speaker 21: will just tell myself that today's a bad day and
Speaker 21: that's okay, and tomorrow's another day, and usually the next
Speaker 21: day things are much better, even just having slept on
Speaker 21: it with nothing actually changing in the world.
Speaker 3: Interesting. You know, I've typically been a pessimist or not.
Speaker 3: I've been skeptical. I've been skeptical of affirmations. But this
Speaker 3: sounds like a good one because it's a long term
Speaker 3: strategy here. You know, you if you accept that today
Speaker 3: it's just in your day, but the next one might be,
Speaker 3: you're playing a long game, and the only games you
Speaker 3: should ever play should be long games.
Speaker 6: So I like this. I like this.
Speaker 16: Thank you for sharing this, Yeah, of course, thank you
Speaker 16: for everything you do and for your.
Speaker 10: Therapy get goo.
Speaker 7: I enjoy it.
Speaker 3: Thank you for your naomio m hm. You have a
Speaker 3: good rest of the night.
Speaker 7: Yeah you too.
Speaker 1: Call from.
Speaker 12: Hell.
Speaker 3: Where are you calling from?
Speaker 9: I'm calling from Canada?
Speaker 3: Canada. How things going up there?
Speaker 9: Yeah, it's kind of it's kind of nice, like things
Speaker 9: are opening up and we can go out and I
Speaker 9: don't know, it's been like a hard year.
Speaker 3: You know, we're you've been going.
Speaker 9: I think studying mostly and chilling.
Speaker 3: You know, you've been studying and chilling.
Speaker 9: Yeah, Like that's how my year been. And I found
Speaker 9: out about you like yesterday, and man, I gotta say,
Speaker 9: you're pretty cool?
Speaker 3: Man, really can you? You know, it's weird because you've
Speaker 3: only known you've known about me for only a day,
Speaker 3: and you're saying I'm really cool. But at the end
Speaker 3: of the day, I feel like, is a day?
Speaker 9: You know?
Speaker 3: I guess I guess what I'm trying to say is like,
Speaker 3: is a day long enough? Have I Do you feel
Speaker 3: like I've provided you a enough information? Maybe not me directly,
Speaker 3: but I guess my whatever social media online presence has
Speaker 3: provided you enough information only in that one day for
Speaker 3: you to make the judgment that I am cool.
Speaker 9: I like to be honest, Like in my mother country,
Speaker 9: like we don't have people like you like doing this
Speaker 9: type of thing.
Speaker 3: Like so when I saw you, You're you're saying that,
Speaker 3: like this is just a normal thing in America? Is
Speaker 3: people doing this? This is multiple?
Speaker 9: I like, I have no idea, like this is something
Speaker 9: really new? You don't.
Speaker 3: Interesting interesting? I like I like the fact that well,
Speaker 3: how recently you're you're saying, have you I mean, are
Speaker 3: you new to your your mother? When did you leave
Speaker 3: your mother?
Speaker 9: Country like seven months ago, came to Canada to have
Speaker 9: my college degree.
Speaker 3: Okay, all right, so you're actually all right, So it
Speaker 3: sounds like, you know, it's just I'm in a position
Speaker 3: right now where I could take advantage of your lack
Speaker 3: of American culture, and I could just tell you that
Speaker 3: dressing up as geckos is just anat It's just something
Speaker 3: that we do come every you know, June twenty first
Speaker 3: in America. I could convince you that, and you would
Speaker 3: just believe me because I, you know, I think I'm
Speaker 3: cool apparently, and you don't have prior knowledge to compete with.
Speaker 3: So I I could just tell you that and you
Speaker 3: would take place value. It seems.
Speaker 9: It's not like I don't know anything about the American culture,
Speaker 9: like I've seen. I know a lot of things, but
Speaker 9: something like.
Speaker 3: This is the first time, you know, where's your mother country?
Speaker 9: I'm African, actually, I'm from North Africa.
Speaker 4: Nice?
Speaker 3: Nice, And what made you want to come to Canada?
Speaker 9: Like the universities are good here, are better than European universities,
Speaker 9: you know, and Canada really really chill, you know?
Speaker 3: M hm, Yes, yes, I have got I have gotten
Speaker 3: that sense from Canada all the Canadian. Every Canadian that's
Speaker 3: called the show sounds sounds very very Canadian.
Speaker 9: What does that mean?
Speaker 3: I couldn't explain it if I wanted to. Where do
Speaker 3: you what do you study?
Speaker 9: I'm studying computer science.
Speaker 3: Okay, what do you What do you want to be
Speaker 3: when you grow up?
Speaker 9: Like, I don't know, maybe I'm not sure about that.
Speaker 9: Like I haven't chosen a specialty yet, but I want
Speaker 9: to be a technical engineer.
Speaker 3: You know, electrical engineer.
Speaker 9: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Interesting.
Speaker 9: Well this is the problem. This is why I wanted
Speaker 9: to talk to you, because this is not what I want,
Speaker 9: what my parents want.
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, do you have something that you do want
Speaker 3: to do?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 9: I want to play soccer, man, Like that was my dream,
Speaker 9: Like since I've been I don't know, four years old.
Speaker 3: You want to play soccer?
Speaker 20: You know? Yeah?
Speaker 3: I want to?
Speaker 7: You want to?
Speaker 3: When you say you want to play? When you say
Speaker 3: you want to play soccer, do you mean you want to?
Speaker 3: Like you want to be a professional I don't know.
Speaker 3: I don't know how the fucking leagues work or anything.
Speaker 3: But you want to be a professional player.
Speaker 9: Yeah, I want to be a professional player.
Speaker 3: Interesting, how do you do that? I don't know anything?
Speaker 3: About soccer. I don't watch it. I'm not in the
Speaker 3: FC League or the twenty or the LC League or
Speaker 3: whatever it is. How do you know what is the
Speaker 3: path to doing that?
Speaker 9: Even like this is something something that I've noticed here
Speaker 9: in America, like people don't know anything about like soccer,
Speaker 9: and it's a huge in African Europe. It's something that
Speaker 9: you see. Everybody watches soccer. Everybody plays soccer. Everybody loves
Speaker 9: you no, we know, like every player from every nationality,
Speaker 9: from every country, from every team.
Speaker 3: You know, and yet we got you to call it soccer.
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's the problem. For seven months, Like everybody like
Speaker 9: being when I say soccer, they when I say football,
Speaker 9: they'd be like, no, it's not football, it's soccer. That's
Speaker 9: pretty dumb, man. But they can't start.
Speaker 3: Ay soccer, it's you know. It's whenever people tell me that,
Speaker 3: like they have a thing that they want to do,
Speaker 3: I always tell them that they should, like make content
Speaker 3: on the internet, because I believe that that's a way,
Speaker 3: like a past to being able to do a lot
Speaker 3: of things. Now soccer, becoming a soccer player seems very difficult.
Speaker 3: Although I don't know if soccer is so popular that
Speaker 3: like you could make a living in like a minor league.
Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know what the legit, what
Speaker 3: the practical process is of doing that.
Speaker 9: Like I'll say the number. Like there's a big football
Speaker 9: player that I personally love, He's my favorite. His name
Speaker 9: is Christiano Ronaldo on issue only on Instagram, like he
Speaker 9: made in twenty twenty, he made forty seven million dollars
Speaker 9: only from Instagram, without without the soccer, without the companies,
Speaker 9: without anything.
Speaker 3: You sure, well, because what I was gonna say is
Speaker 3: I mean what I would do is, you know, if
Speaker 3: you can't become a soccer player, if the world of
Speaker 3: soccer is big enough, you could make soccer related content
Speaker 3: on you know, TikTok or fucking Twitch or something like
Speaker 3: that and try to build something off of there.
Speaker 9: Yeah, Like I had this idea and it's like being
Speaker 9: buzzing in my mind for the past while.
Speaker 3: You know, Okay, what's what's the What's what's the idea here?
Speaker 9: Like I want to make videos of me like doing
Speaker 9: tricks I don't know, and teach people that don't know
Speaker 9: how to play soccer, like the basics and things.
Speaker 3: You know, what did you say?
Speaker 9: I like sharing it before you.
Speaker 3: Know what did you say? Your name was.
Speaker 9: Life?
Speaker 7: Life. I love it.
Speaker 3: I think that's a fantastic idea. I think that's wonderful.
Speaker 3: I'm dead serious with you right now. I think you
Speaker 3: should make You should learn how to make tiktoks go.
Speaker 3: I don't know if you're on TikTok, but watch some
Speaker 3: of that ship. Learn how to get your lighting right
Speaker 3: and make your fucking uh soccer videos. I think that's
Speaker 3: a great idea. You know, look, you might find, you
Speaker 3: might find you could even like, here's the thing, man,
Speaker 3: is like with the Internet, you could build up a
Speaker 3: tiny little audience. Something could happen, you know, Like I don't.
Speaker 3: I don't think that that's unrealistic anymore. You trying to
Speaker 3: be fucking the next Christ, Chris whatever, Ronaldo, Well, we'll
Speaker 3: be honest, but building up an audience on the internet
Speaker 3: for soccer content achievable, in my opinion, I would I
Speaker 3: think you should do that, man, I think you should
Speaker 3: make some tiktoks.
Speaker 6: I think.
Speaker 3: I think you should go for it. And also, it's
Speaker 3: not like you have to fucking drop out of school
Speaker 3: and spend twelve hours a day doing it. It's like,
Speaker 3: you know, you have a few hours here, a few
Speaker 3: hours there, you'll work on the thing, you know what
Speaker 3: I mean.
Speaker 9: Yeah, it's a great idea if if I drop out
Speaker 9: of school, like shoot me.
Speaker 3: You know, well, you don't have to drop out of
Speaker 3: school to do it. I you have for whatever it's worth.
Speaker 3: The gecko guy thinks you should do it. I think
Speaker 3: uh uh, definitely, definitely give it a try.
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's like, thank you man for it for sure.
Speaker 3: And here's another thing. Look, and then another thing is
Speaker 3: sure there might be a lot here. And this is
Speaker 3: gonna sound cheesy. This is gonna sound cheesy, but I
Speaker 3: believe in I read though there's a lot of people
Speaker 3: out there that make soccer content, which is true. There's
Speaker 3: a lot of people out to make soccer content. And again,
Speaker 3: gonna sound cheesy. Get ready for some cheese. But there
Speaker 3: is only one you leaf, So people are gonna want
Speaker 3: to come to see you specifically, so you know, make
Speaker 3: sure you're yourself in these videos, not trying to be
Speaker 3: like all the other people out there making soccer content.
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's this is one of the best advices I've got, like,
Speaker 9: especially with no one.
Speaker 6: To talk you know.
Speaker 3: Hell yeah, man, look power too. Do you have any
Speaker 3: of these accounts already, like do you have an Instagram?
Speaker 6: Do you have a thing?
Speaker 18: Uh?
Speaker 7: Follow you?
Speaker 9: But you know, I tried like streaming once I was
Speaker 9: playing Color of Duty Color of Duty War Zone. I
Speaker 9: tried streaming, but a lot of people were really mean,
Speaker 9: and shit.
Speaker 3: That's why people are people are I'm not reading the chap,
Speaker 3: but I'm sure people are being mean to me right now.
Speaker 3: I've had hundreds and hundreds of comments I'm sure telling
Speaker 3: me to kill myself over the past hour. But I'm
Speaker 3: going strong, baby, you can.
Speaker 9: Too, Like that's really true. Man, people can be dicks sometimes.
Speaker 3: Do it up big, don't let the people be in look,
Speaker 3: go for it. How old are you?
Speaker 9: By the way, I'm twenty one?
Speaker 3: Oh God, go do it, go make go make soccer
Speaker 3: tiktoks or ball tiktoks. I believe in you, Leif. Y'all
Speaker 3: thank you for thank you for calling them. Man and Sharon.
Speaker 3: You have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 9: I thank your man. You're the best.
Speaker 3: Of course, of course you take care of Leif.
Speaker 1: Call from Mody.
Speaker 7: Mody, Hello, Hey, how are you?
Speaker 3: How are you?
Speaker 22: You want to take answer?
Speaker 3: M sure?
Speaker 4: Managing?
Speaker 3: Or is that to imply that the real answer is
Speaker 3: that you are not managing.
Speaker 22: Yeah, i'd say, so what what is there?
Speaker 3: What is there to manage?
Speaker 9: Uh?
Speaker 1: I guess expectations, expectations of.
Speaker 22: What, expectations for myself, expectations from my family.
Speaker 3: There's a hair in here. What does your family expect
Speaker 3: from you?
Speaker 22: They want me to follow like the traditionalist model, you know,
Speaker 22: they want me to be successful, wife, kids, house, money.
Speaker 22: It seems like money is Yeah, all the fingers get
Speaker 22: in there. It seems like money is like the only,
Speaker 22: the only way to measure my success.
Speaker 3: There's two hairs on here. How much money do your
Speaker 3: parents want you to have?
Speaker 22: Well, my grandparents were. My grandfather owned an insurance company,
Speaker 22: so his kids didn't meet up to the expectation. And
Speaker 22: I feel like they're they just want me to be
Speaker 22: what they didn't get to be.
Speaker 3: Well, what do you want to be.
Speaker 22: A To be honest, I really want to be an
Speaker 22: actor or something and something to do with film. Film
Speaker 22: was always my escape when I was a kid.
Speaker 3: I'm telling you all, I'm telling you all. I'm telling
Speaker 3: you all. I'm telling you all. I'm telling you what
Speaker 3: I told Leif. I'm telling everyone listening to this, because
Speaker 3: I've seen it happen eight thousand times. It happened to
Speaker 3: me personally, it happened to my friends, and it happened
Speaker 3: to people. I see it all the time. I am
Speaker 3: telling you, if you want to be an actor, if
Speaker 3: you want to make soccer content, if you want to
Speaker 3: do that, make it. Make a TikTok account, Make a
Speaker 3: TikTok account and make tiktoks. That's what that's your number
Speaker 3: one is the number. The guarantee fastest way that you
Speaker 3: will be able to make a living being an actor.
Speaker 3: You'll be able to eke out thirty thousand dollars a
Speaker 3: year being an actor is with TikTok. You should make tiktoks.
Speaker 3: That's my that's my practice. That's my practical, actionable advice
Speaker 3: to you to be.
Speaker 22: To be honest, I bought, I went out and I
Speaker 22: got a microphone because I figured that i'd start voice acting.
Speaker 7: This.
Speaker 22: When I was a kid, I was like in all
Speaker 22: this acting crap, and you know, the little little classes
Speaker 22: and groups and whatnot. When when I was a little older,
Speaker 22: remote across country or from California or to Florida, and
Speaker 22: that kind of stuff went away. But there was this
Speaker 22: when my dad was younger, he had this shot to
Speaker 22: be a comedian and he got scared.
Speaker 4: And when I was a kid, he nay, save me.
Speaker 7: Out of it.
Speaker 22: Made me feel like, you know, people were going to
Speaker 22: see you and they're going to be you know, they're
Speaker 22: gonna they're gonna put you down. That's that's all your
Speaker 22: life is gonna be people putting you down.
Speaker 9: And so since then I've just had it's called.
Speaker 3: About that you grew up at a different time than
Speaker 3: you grew up because you grew up at the time
Speaker 3: of the internet and in the time of the internet.
Speaker 3: This is, by the way, this is the one thing
Speaker 3: that I'm the most of any like advicey thing, and
Speaker 3: I don't give advice on a lot of different subjects.
Speaker 3: The one thing I'm very passionate about. Your dad grew
Speaker 3: up in a time where to be an ad to
Speaker 3: be a commedian. You da grew up at a time
Speaker 3: where to be a comedian the only way was there
Speaker 3: was one fucking old ass dude who worked at the
Speaker 3: Tonight Show with Johnny Carson. And if that dude didn't
Speaker 3: like you, you're fucked. That's that's when that's when your
Speaker 3: dad grow that grew up with the one fucking seventy
Speaker 3: year old white guy that worked at fucking Johnny Carson
Speaker 3: doesn't like them, then you're screwed. Now where you where
Speaker 3: you now? The universe that you live in is you
Speaker 3: could have you could you could put a video of
Speaker 3: yourself doing a monologue in front of a million people,
Speaker 3: and if every single one of them fucking hates you,
Speaker 3: except for a thousand, you can have a fantastic career.
Speaker 3: That's the world that you live in. Take advantage of
Speaker 3: that world, okay, because you're grand. The world that you
Speaker 3: that grew up in is gone comedians going on the
Speaker 3: Tonight Show and no one hears you. You can build
Speaker 3: your audience for your thing on the computer. Take advantage
Speaker 3: of that. Okay, that does that make sense? It does.
Speaker 3: Take advantage of that because it's new. I mean it's
Speaker 3: not even like it's like two years old, but it's
Speaker 3: it's the world you live in, so you know, take
Speaker 3: take advantage of that.
Speaker 22: You know, I really don't have a choice but to
Speaker 22: go at it now, Really.
Speaker 3: You, God damn right, would you say name once?
Speaker 22: Mody?
Speaker 3: Mody? I look forward to seeing you on the for
Speaker 3: you pitch.
Speaker 22: I'll see you seeing me lady.
Speaker 11: Did lady.
Speaker 1: Call from.
Speaker 21: Ellie?
Speaker 1: Ellie?
Speaker 5: Hi, Hey, what's going on?
Speaker 3: I'm a gecko on the computer.
Speaker 19: Yeah, that's what are you? I'm I'm just driving home
Speaker 19: from my friend's house and I thought, hey, let me
Speaker 19: just call, let me just call the therapy get go,
Speaker 19: And here I am.
Speaker 3: Well, how do you know this friend?
Speaker 19: How do I know this friend?
Speaker 10: I I don't really know.
Speaker 19: I did trivia at this local bar in town when
Speaker 19: I first moved here, and I met another guy and
Speaker 19: he's friends with this guy. And it's been a few
Speaker 19: years now, but I guess we got to know each
Speaker 19: other that way.
Speaker 3: How old are you?
Speaker 19: It's not very nice to ask a lady that, But
Speaker 19: I'm twenty nine.
Speaker 3: You're twenty nine. It's interesting. Why it's find it interesting
Speaker 3: because you know, I hear all the time people say
Speaker 3: that they have a hard time making friends as an adult.
Speaker 19: Yeah, yeah, you know. I mean I've found I've had
Speaker 19: a hard time making like I mean, I have friends,
Speaker 19: and I'm grateful for my friends, but yeah, I do
Speaker 19: really feel like I don't find it easy to make
Speaker 19: more friends.
Speaker 3: Well, you made a friend in a pretty uh, Well,
Speaker 3: you went out to a bar and you just made
Speaker 3: a friend and you've been friends for a few years.
Speaker 3: That's fat.
Speaker 18: Yeah, it is.
Speaker 6: It is.
Speaker 19: Thank you for that perspective.
Speaker 3: Do you do you wish to make more friends or
Speaker 3: you're happy with the amount of friends that you have.
Speaker 19: I wish to make more friends. I feel like I
Speaker 19: don't get out enough. Like I feel like I'm starting
Speaker 19: to try to get out more. Like tonight, I just decided, okay,
Speaker 19: I'm gonna I wanted to make food, and this friend
Speaker 19: was willing to sample my cooking, and so I just
Speaker 19: went out and did it. But it's been a while
Speaker 19: since I've done something like this.
Speaker 3: When did you move to this place?
Speaker 4: In four years?
Speaker 3: Four a year? All right, that's pretty good. I don't
Speaker 3: know anyone before you moved to.
Speaker 19: I kind of like this was my college town and
Speaker 19: and then I like left for years and I came
Speaker 19: back for work, so I kind of knew people because
Speaker 19: I went to college here.
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, so you want to make more friends, Well,
Speaker 3: you me my friends, me being your friend, Well, here's
Speaker 3: there's a couple of things with that. Me being your
Speaker 3: friend wouldn't be super useful to you, because I doubt
Speaker 3: that I live in the same area that you live.
Speaker 4: Okay.
Speaker 3: Also, you're putting me on the spot a little bit here,
Speaker 3: because you know, look, we've been on the phone for
Speaker 3: like three minutes. Now I feel like not that my
Speaker 3: like first impress of you. And I try not to
Speaker 3: have impressions, all right. I try not to make judgments
Speaker 3: unless if I have what I feel to be a
Speaker 3: sufficient amount of information to make them. But you know,
Speaker 3: in the three minutes I've known you, I don't feel
Speaker 3: like it's been long enough for me to really determine
Speaker 3: whether or not I would be your friend. And I
Speaker 3: look you to me as well. You know, I could
Speaker 3: be a far more heinous of a person than I've
Speaker 3: given off in this three minute phone call, and possibly
Speaker 3: if I gave you more information about myself as a person,
Speaker 3: you might find that whatever impression of me that I've
Speaker 3: given you that made you want me to be your
Speaker 3: friend is now gone and replaced with something far worse,
Speaker 3: causing you to not want to be my friend. So
Speaker 3: for that reason, I think that as of this very moment,
Speaker 3: I don't know if it'd be a good idea for
Speaker 3: us to be friends.
Speaker 1: Okay, I respect that, thank you, of course.
Speaker 3: What did you say her name was? Ellie, Ellie, Ellie,
Speaker 3: let's look before we go. I want I want to
Speaker 3: come up with let's let's get an actionable thing here.
Speaker 3: What's something you can do to make more friends?
Speaker 19: What's something I can do to make more friends? I
Speaker 19: can probably just you know, I spend a lot of.
Speaker 1: Time in my house, and I think one.
Speaker 19: One thing that I could do is get out of
Speaker 19: my house for you.
Speaker 11: Yeah, I think I want to do that.
Speaker 3: Well, you're in the car, aren't you.
Speaker 9: I am bingo.
Speaker 3: You're working on it. You're already there.
Speaker 6: I like it.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Ellie, thank you so much for calling in.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you you take.
Speaker 6: Care all right?
Speaker 12: You just bye.
Speaker 3: She's already out of the house.
Speaker 1: Bam. Done.
Speaker 3: Onto the next item of these two lists.
Speaker 1: How from.
Speaker 20: Ultra laser.
Speaker 3: Ultra laser?
Speaker 23: Yeah?
Speaker 3: How did you come to be? How did you become
Speaker 3: ultra laser?
Speaker 22: How did I become ultra laser?
Speaker 7: I don't know.
Speaker 9: I thought that the portmanteau of.
Speaker 20: Ultra and laser was a really cool combination.
Speaker 7: Hmm.
Speaker 3: Are you afraid to use your real name or is
Speaker 3: this your real name?
Speaker 4: Well, I mean my name is rich. I'm not afraid
Speaker 4: to use my real name.
Speaker 3: So how come you didn't use it?
Speaker 4: Well, I didn't know what this was.
Speaker 3: Was Is it possible that through into my stream you
Speaker 3: saw an opportunity to assume an identity that was not yours,
Speaker 3: therefore escaping the identity of rich and you got me
Speaker 3: fresh persona that is not the problems of the old one.
Speaker 20: Absolutely.
Speaker 3: What are you escaping from telling me about the problems?
Speaker 4: Well, I don't know about that. Now.
Speaker 22: I can't really pour my heart out onto a stream.
Speaker 9: However, m hm, things are dark, for sure.
Speaker 3: You gotta light them up with the lasers.
Speaker 7: Light them up with the lasers.
Speaker 3: You ever thought about that?
Speaker 16: No?
Speaker 6: I like this.
Speaker 3: I feel like this is an independent film. You're, Oh,
Speaker 3: you know, a guy who's experienced some trauma in your life,
Speaker 3: and you have I feel like I've seen this in
Speaker 3: a lot of movies. You're a guy who's sperience some
Speaker 3: trauma in their life and you have an alternative reality,
Speaker 3: you know, a bridge to Tabithia whatever that fucking movie
Speaker 3: with Steve Correll. You have this sort of alter reality
Speaker 3: to escape into to prevent yourself from feeling the feelings
Speaker 3: you don't want to feel. What I think you should
Speaker 3: do is make ultra laser into a three part trilogy
Speaker 3: film series and sell the rights to Sony for enough
Speaker 3: money to retire, and then you can truly escape your
Speaker 3: trauma by moving halfway across the world to like an
Speaker 3: island or something where you won't have to talk to
Speaker 3: him again and you can just drink stout beers m.
Speaker 4: Delicious.
Speaker 3: Well, thank you, Gecko, absolutely, thank you so much. Ultra Laser.
Speaker 3: You have a good night you too.
Speaker 13: Call from Emily.
Speaker 3: Emily.
Speaker 13: Hello, Hi.
Speaker 3: Emily, how are you.
Speaker 13: I'm good. I'm I'm folding laundry while I watch the stream.
Speaker 3: And have we ever spoken before, Emily?
Speaker 7: We have? We have?
Speaker 13: Yeah, I'm actually going to see you soon.
Speaker 3: Ah. Yes, this is the Emily from from Portland who
Speaker 3: I'm visiting all my guy across America journey.
Speaker 13: Yes, yeah, yes, and we have spoken before. I think
Speaker 13: I've called in before on your Tuesday night stream.
Speaker 18: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Well, I mean listen to Emily, you know before try
Speaker 3: anything in particular that you want to talk about and
Speaker 3: you want to cover.
Speaker 6: No.
Speaker 13: Well, I called my friend Neil actually earlier right before
Speaker 13: your stream to ask and to watch to co watch
Speaker 13: with me, and so I hope he's listening right now,
Speaker 13: because I was like walk mark my words, I'm going
Speaker 13: to get on tonight, and then I did so, so
Speaker 13: that's nice. But I also was thinking a lot about
Speaker 13: death tonight because of the stream, and I was thinking,
Speaker 13: why I know I'm not dead, It's because I don't know.
Speaker 13: I'm folding laundry and drinking wine and eating pasta, and
Speaker 13: I feel like that would be a really weird ghostly
Speaker 13: haunt or like simulation.
Speaker 7: To be in.
Speaker 3: So assuming, well, you're assuming that you're assuming that the
Speaker 3: pasta you're eating and the laundry you're folding, and the
Speaker 3: wine that you're drinking is not also of the ghost
Speaker 3: world and that you are not able to interact with
Speaker 3: it because you yourself are a ghost. So here's the thing.
Speaker 3: If you're dead and you're a ghost, the pasta that
Speaker 3: you're eating, the wine you're drinking, and the a you're
Speaker 3: folding are of the ghostly world, and that's why you
Speaker 3: can interact with them. So it's not a guarantee. I
Speaker 3: don't think that those activities are are are evidence enough
Speaker 3: that you are not dead, but I will say that true.
Speaker 3: I think it is good that you are thinking about
Speaker 3: those things, these things because a lot of people they
Speaker 3: live their lives, not even stopping to think whether or
Speaker 3: not they are ghosts. So I can bring you on
Speaker 3: putting in that effort in the first place.
Speaker 13: It's thank you. It's funny because when I saw the
Speaker 13: theme for tonight, actually I put on one of my
Speaker 13: like linen dresses because I was like, if I'm going
Speaker 13: to like have a ghosty night of folding laundry and
Speaker 13: drinking one and eating pasta, might as well like really
Speaker 13: lean into the part and listen to this stream about.
Speaker 6: Being a ghost.
Speaker 13: So I could be a ghost. And if so, I think,
Speaker 13: I think I'm okay with that. I think I'd be
Speaker 13: at peace. This is kind of a nice ghostly haunting activity,
Speaker 13: especially talking to us.
Speaker 3: So, of course, of course, Emily, I'm so glad to
Speaker 3: hear that not only have you thought about this, but
Speaker 3: you've accepted the multiple possible realities which will open you
Speaker 3: up the greater happen, because no matter what happens, you're fine.
Speaker 13: Exactly, and you know, yes, I appreciate that.
Speaker 6: Grek.
Speaker 3: Of course, Emily, I'm so happy I got to speak
Speaker 3: with you, and I'm excited to come see you in
Speaker 3: Portland as part of my gek across America. Documentary.
Speaker 13: I'm so excited. I'm so excited to see you. Maybe
Speaker 13: we can ghost around together, you know, haunt some people.
Speaker 3: Well, well, I'm pretty sure I'm not a ghost.
Speaker 4: Oh you're not.
Speaker 13: Okay, So then so you're like, how do you speak?
Speaker 13: I mean, yeah, I don't know how far we could
Speaker 13: go with this, but the fact that you can speak
Speaker 13: to a ghost me maybe.
Speaker 8: It's pretty impressible.
Speaker 13: You've quite the set of skills.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you so much.
Speaker 7: Emia you two by.
Speaker 1: All from.
Speaker 3: Hello, Hello?
Speaker 18: Is this a parapy?
Speaker 1: Gecko?
Speaker 3: Is this talking Tom?
Speaker 18: No, it's not talking Tom.
Speaker 1: This is Becky, Becky.
Speaker 3: How you doing Becky?
Speaker 18: I'm doing good. I just opened up my reddit page
Speaker 18: to go to the subway, like the DMV subreddit, because
Speaker 18: I'm a d m V professional.
Speaker 3: Dragon ball Z DMZ.
Speaker 18: Department of Motor Vehicles.
Speaker 3: Oh okay, I don't know that there was I don't
Speaker 3: know that there was a DMV subreddits.
Speaker 18: You'd be surprised, Gecko.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, Well, I mean, what do they talk about
Speaker 3: on there?
Speaker 18: They talk about how we waste everyone slipping time, and
Speaker 18: we just stare at them, and we had a lot. Honestly,
Speaker 18: the reason why I'm calling in is because lately I've
Speaker 18: been calling into this pastures on the team and they,
Speaker 18: you know, try to give me guidance. But uh, I
Speaker 18: called into the Joel Osting guy and even he told
Speaker 18: me to give up on my dreams.
Speaker 3: So really I'm lost in lost Mmm, so I'm I'm
Speaker 3: sort of the second opinion after Joel Joel Who is
Speaker 3: it Joel Olsen?
Speaker 18: Yes, yes, he's a pastor. He's a He's a really smart,
Speaker 18: handsome godler man. I'm the television got it, got it?
Speaker 3: Okay? So he told you to give up on your dreams?
Speaker 3: What are your dreams? What did you say? Your name
Speaker 3: was again, Becky, Becky? And what are your dreams? Becky?
Speaker 18: My dreams are the Sunday have a bunch of horses.
Speaker 18: I think I'm a horsey girl. But I always grew
Speaker 18: up in the city, but I just moved out here
Speaker 18: to Napa, California, and I'm just ready to start my dreams.
Speaker 18: But I only have a California DMV sailory.
Speaker 11: M hmm.
Speaker 3: Well, now tell me before I give you the second opinion,
Speaker 3: I'd like to hear the first. Why did Joel? Why
Speaker 3: did Pastor Joel tell you to give up? On your dreams.
Speaker 18: Well, honestly, I don't think he was giving me the
Speaker 18: lot of day I used to man, just you know, passing.
Speaker 23: It by.
Speaker 6: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1: So what I mean?
Speaker 3: What did he tell you? Why did he did he
Speaker 3: say it was unrealistic financially? Did he say that God
Speaker 3: hates horse people? What was his reasoning?
Speaker 18: She just told me that I'm with what none of
Speaker 18: a basket case and it wasn't it wasn't worth my
Speaker 18: money like it kind of hurt me a lot.
Speaker 3: Mhm, it wasn't worth your money? Does Joel do you
Speaker 3: have to pay to talk to Joel?
Speaker 18: Two hundred dollars for ten minutes with mister Joel with
Speaker 18: a handsome.
Speaker 3: Does that money go directly to God or does it
Speaker 3: fund his UH car payments?
Speaker 20: Well?
Speaker 18: I'm pretty sure it finds of God's ambitions.
Speaker 3: Okay, do you do you believe that God? Well, okay,
Speaker 3: if you could talk directly to God, what do you think?
Speaker 3: What do you think he would tell you?
Speaker 18: He would tell me to Well, this is kind of personal,
Speaker 18: but you know, he probably would have told me that
Speaker 18: I shouldn't have offt my husband.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, that you shouldn't have lost your husband.
Speaker 18: Half often.
Speaker 3: Oh often? Yeah, okay, so you you murdered your husband.
Speaker 18: Conversation for another day. You ain't a cop, are you?
Speaker 3: No, I'm a gecko?
Speaker 18: Oh watching around the teav you could be showing salesman
Speaker 18: and a perfectly if you should never give up any dreams,
Speaker 18: you know what?
Speaker 3: Look, let me tell you something, Becky, to really wrap
Speaker 3: this up here, what did you just tell me? You
Speaker 3: told me I should never give up on my dreams
Speaker 3: at the end of the day, Becky, Becky, at the
Speaker 3: end of the day. And I'm kind of learning this
Speaker 3: myself here at the end of the day. You have
Speaker 3: to be or your own You have to be your
Speaker 3: own cheerleader. Okay, okay. Look, if God or Joel cocking
Speaker 3: Balls or me aren't going to tell you to follow
Speaker 3: your dreams, tell yourself that what you just told me.
Speaker 3: Be your own cheerleader, Becky. You if you believe that
Speaker 3: I can follow my dreams, you believe that you can
Speaker 3: follow yours. So be your own cheerleader. Continue to support
Speaker 3: yourself as you follow your horsey dream and don't don't
Speaker 3: rely on anyone else for validation.
Speaker 18: All right, So where do I spend her two hundred
Speaker 18: dollars because this is way better than Joel esteem.
Speaker 3: Hmmm. You can venmo me at l dresser.
Speaker 18: Oh nice, nice, All right, well, I'm gonna let this
Speaker 18: therapy get I get back to his ways. But I
Speaker 18: appreciate the community.
Speaker 3: Service that you're doing, so of course, of course, Becky,
Speaker 3: thank you so much. You ever wanted for us to
Speaker 3: the name.
Speaker 18: All right, and you as well, thank you.
Speaker 7: Bye bye.
Speaker 3: Oh wait, it's three hundred dollars.
Speaker 1: Pull from to accept press one to.
Speaker 3: Say mystery caller? Are you there?
Speaker 6: Yeah there, How are you.
Speaker 17: Good?
Speaker 7: How are you?
Speaker 3: I'm good?
Speaker 6: How are you?
Speaker 14: I'm uh, I Remember'm just we's kind of vibing right now,
Speaker 14: you're vibing, yeah a little bit.
Speaker 3: What the hell does that mean?
Speaker 8: I'm just I'm just uh, I don't know.
Speaker 9: I'm just kind of like.
Speaker 10: I was.
Speaker 6: I was just.
Speaker 8: I'm just am right now. Uh, I don't know. I
Speaker 8: was just, dude, I was just being. And then I
Speaker 8: saw your phone number and I called and I didn't
Speaker 8: think it was gonna actually pick up, but here I.
Speaker 7: Am mm hmm.
Speaker 3: By the way, I have news for you. You know,
Speaker 3: you're saying that you were being, but at no point
Speaker 3: have you stopped being since which you were referring to
Speaker 3: yourself being No, I still are. Actually that kind of
Speaker 3: brings us a bit to the question here do you
Speaker 3: believe that you are?
Speaker 8: I believe that I am nice as much as much
Speaker 8: as I can.
Speaker 3: You know, so you called in, you didn't expect to
Speaker 3: get on what do you you expect?
Speaker 8: Well, I remember a while ago, I don't remember how long,
Speaker 8: but I tried to call and it was it was busy.
Speaker 8: This would have been probably over a month ago. And
Speaker 8: then uh, and so I wouldn't I was. I thought, maybe, well,
Speaker 8: you probably get a lot of calls, so I wouldn't
Speaker 8: be shocked if the line was busy again.
Speaker 7: But it wasn't.
Speaker 8: So I guess now here I am it.
Speaker 11: Is pretty you know.
Speaker 3: I tell everyone I get a lot of calls. This
Speaker 3: is true. But I'm going to answer, you know, one
Speaker 3: I'm going to answer someone, you know. So the chance
Speaker 3: here's the thing, the chance that I'm going to answer call,
Speaker 3: it's one hundred percent. So when you think of it
Speaker 3: like that, it's not as we you know, it's it's
Speaker 3: not that crazy that you got in.
Speaker 14: Yeah, such a it's really cool.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I like the way you think it's really cool.
Speaker 19: Uh, yeah, I mean, so.
Speaker 3: I know, uh.
Speaker 8: Does so mhmm, I don't. I don't really don't know
Speaker 8: what to ask or to talk about right now.
Speaker 3: That's totally fine.
Speaker 9: So so what I don't know?
Speaker 14: Just just like yeah, yeah, what about you?
Speaker 8: Do you believe that you are?
Speaker 3: You know, I try to believe and have opinions on
Speaker 3: as few things as I possibly can being a citizen
Speaker 3: of Earth. Uh so I abstain personally from a belief
Speaker 3: as to where or not I am.
Speaker 8: Very interesting. Is there a reasons I'm trying to hold
Speaker 8: very few beliefs? Is that like, like, like, what what
Speaker 8: purpose does that serve to you?
Speaker 7: Very interesting?
Speaker 12: Uh?
Speaker 3: It serves me a purpose of Well, here's the thing.
Speaker 3: Every single day, every single moment, I mean, even as
Speaker 3: I'm talking to you right now, as I'm talking to everyone,
Speaker 3: even as I'm a browsing the internet, as I'm looking around,
Speaker 3: as I go on a walk in the woods, you know,
Speaker 3: as I take a shit, as I talk to my
Speaker 3: dad on the phone, as I eat a sandwich, I'm
Speaker 3: constantly at every single I mean as I'm dreaming, dude,
Speaker 3: you know, constantly, at every single moment every day, being
Speaker 3: presented with new information about the world, and I I'm
Speaker 3: interested in being uh you know, open to that information, uh,
Speaker 3: you know, as widely as possible. So I try not to,
Speaker 3: you know, make beliefs about I try to assert firm
Speaker 3: beliefs as to whether or not I exist, because every
Speaker 3: day I'm getting presented with new information that could change
Speaker 3: that belief. So I set nothing in stone.
Speaker 8: Interesting. So do you think then that because I kind
Speaker 8: of have almost like a similar like, I try to
Speaker 8: make myself open to the different like information that exists
Speaker 8: in the world. But instead of holding trying to hold
Speaker 8: few beliefs.
Speaker 12: I.
Speaker 8: Think I end up holding many different beliefs as much
Speaker 8: as I can and constantly trying to challenge them. And
Speaker 8: so as much as I may firmly believe in something,
Speaker 8: I'm equally ready to change that belief into believing in
Speaker 8: something else.
Speaker 3: You know, I think that's smart. Well, let me ask
Speaker 3: you something here. You you said to me that you
Speaker 3: believe that you exist? Correct?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 9: Now?
Speaker 3: And he and this is how I operate, you know,
Speaker 3: I do. I do have beliefs. Some of my beliefs
Speaker 3: I'm more open to challenging than others. And I'm curious
Speaker 3: for you your belief that you exist, how opener challenging.
Speaker 14: That, hmhmm, you know, I actually.
Speaker 8: I very much challenge that, uh, because I believe I
Speaker 8: as much as I can firmly believe, because you know
Speaker 8: that I don't know who said it, but uh, very shamously,
Speaker 8: someone said I think, therefore I am, and that if
Speaker 8: actively is saying, well, there is something that is producing
Speaker 8: the thoughts in my brain, and that must exist, right,
Speaker 8: But I mean, we really don't know where it all
Speaker 8: comes from. Like as much as we can try and
Speaker 8: like describe like how our brains work and how thought happens,
Speaker 8: we really don't know necessarily where where thought and where
Speaker 8: our own like sensions necessarily exists from or exists. Because
Speaker 8: of so I don't necessarily know that I exist.
Speaker 7: I can only.
Speaker 8: Believe that I exist in the way that that person
Speaker 8: described that. I think therefore I am. So something is
Speaker 8: producing what I describe as my own thoughts, or at
Speaker 8: least that's what I would be led to believe. But
Speaker 8: I think that maybe it doesn't necessarily even matter whether
Speaker 8: I do or do not exist, because either way I
Speaker 8: treat existence in the same way. I still act and
Speaker 8: speak and live my same life whether or not I
Speaker 8: believe I exist or not, So I don't necessarily give
Speaker 8: too much thought into it a lot of the times,
Speaker 8: just because it doesn't make a big difference, but purely
Speaker 8: want to get down into it. That's a belief that
Speaker 8: I hold firmly, that yes, I.
Speaker 6: Do believe I exist.
Speaker 8: But also it's equally something that is difficult to challenge,
Speaker 8: and because of that, it's something I have to hold
Speaker 8: with a very large grain of salt.
Speaker 12: Because.
Speaker 8: If I believe that I exist, I don't necessarily know
Speaker 8: that what that.
Speaker 6: Existence really is, you know, absolutely?
Speaker 3: What is your name?
Speaker 7: Was?
Speaker 14: My name is Trevor.
Speaker 8: Sorry I didn't quite get that in at the beginning
Speaker 8: of the call.
Speaker 3: There's a pleasure talking to each other. I hope you
Speaker 3: have every wanted for us of the night.
Speaker 8: Yeah, you too, Thanks for hearing me out.
Speaker 3: You know, of course you take.
Speaker 8: Care of them.
Speaker 1: All. From to accept press one to send out.
Speaker 12: Hello, Hello, mister Gecko, how are you.
Speaker 7: Hey.
Speaker 12: I've just been watching your channel for a while with
Speaker 12: some of my friends here and my friend Robbie.
Speaker 6: He likes you a lot.
Speaker 12: I've never seen your twitch. I don't even have a twitch,
Speaker 12: but I'm just happy to be here and I would
Speaker 12: like to Yeah, I would just like to talk like
Speaker 12: a little about really anything. Some of these phone calls
Speaker 12: have been a little bit frustrating. I don't know for you,
Speaker 12: but for as a viewer, it's been a little bit rough.
Speaker 12: So I don't know, let's try to spice things up
Speaker 12: a bit.
Speaker 3: Well, well, well, Tom, what's your name? Will tell me?
Speaker 3: Tell me? Why have these phone calls been not frustrating
Speaker 3: for you?
Speaker 12: Oh my god, I just can't believe there's this many
Speaker 12: brainded people in the world. People like to flap their
Speaker 12: lips and they just speak, but there's no substance that
Speaker 12: comes out of it. I'm not I'm not saying that
Speaker 12: I know everything about everything, but people just like to talk,
Speaker 12: which essentially is why I'm here as well. But if
Speaker 12: there's any questions that you'd like to ask, aside from
Speaker 12: the how do you know you're not dead? Because I
Speaker 12: just I don't have anything good for that other than
Speaker 12: the fact that I'm fucking miserable like all day, Like,
Speaker 12: there's pain. If existence is pain, then we exist, We're alive.
Speaker 12: That's the end of that question.
Speaker 3: So you okay, So not only did you say that
Speaker 3: the calls we have been frustrating for you, But you
Speaker 3: sense that I'm not saying that they are.
Speaker 6: I'm not.
Speaker 3: I'm not confirming this sense in any way you perform,
Speaker 3: but you sense that they're frustrating for me.
Speaker 6: I'm yeah.
Speaker 12: I just again, people just like to talk, and your
Speaker 12: show is meant for this very purpose. I mean, one
Speaker 12: caller just called you to talk about doing her laundry.
Speaker 12: I mean I could call my I could call my
Speaker 12: fucking mom and talk to her about that. People don't
Speaker 12: want to hear that. You know, you want to get
Speaker 12: some You want to get some calls with a little
Speaker 12: bit of sustenance, you know, drinking wine and folding laundry.
Speaker 6: That's cute.
Speaker 12: But call your boyfriend, call your mom, call your cousin
Speaker 12: about it. Don't call your show, right, you're the therapy gecko.
Speaker 12: You don't have time for this.
Speaker 3: Well, well, so I ask you then, And I'm curious
Speaker 3: because you say that your friend is familiar with my stream.
Speaker 1: But you are not right.
Speaker 3: I mean, when you say, you know, let's get something,
Speaker 3: when you you're talking about how you think I should
Speaker 3: have of calls with more sustenance, what how would you
Speaker 3: define sustenance? You'll refer to it.
Speaker 12: As sure, let's talk about exit, well, talk about existence,
Speaker 12: talk about anything. I don't know, Like, if you've ever
Speaker 12: listened to Howard Stern, he'll just hang up on calls
Speaker 12: that you know, like you can tell early on when
Speaker 12: a call isn't going anywhere. Folding laundry is one of
Speaker 12: those calls, you know, And for you, I'm sure it's
Speaker 12: a little bit like you don't know, you're trying to
Speaker 12: give the benefit of the doubt to the caller because
Speaker 12: they've made it into the show. I get that. I'm
Speaker 12: just saying for us, we've just been trying to I
Speaker 12: don't know, I've been trying to get on your show.
Speaker 12: I don't know what I would say, but that's where
Speaker 12: I've landed on while listening to this woman fold clothes
Speaker 12: and talk about essentially nothing.
Speaker 19: Well.
Speaker 6: Hm, so so.
Speaker 3: You're attacking the sustenance I mean, but still okay. So
Speaker 3: here's here's my thing.
Speaker 12: Though I could be wrong, it's just my opinion. I
Speaker 12: don't well, well, here's my thing.
Speaker 3: Here's my thing though, is you have stated examples of
Speaker 3: what you think does not constitute a substanceful conversation. But
Speaker 3: I feel like I've yet to get from you an
Speaker 3: example of something that, in your opinion, would I've only
Speaker 3: gotten though, what would not not an example of, you know,
Speaker 3: something that you find that you would think would be interesting?
Speaker 12: True? And the question at hands as well. I don't
Speaker 12: have a good answer for the do we exist? Do
Speaker 12: we not exist? You could ramble on here.
Speaker 3: Yes, it's not that important. All that matters is agreed.
Speaker 3: We're two people talking on the phone.
Speaker 12: Agreed. Yeah. All I can tell you is I'm really
Speaker 12: drunk with my friends who my friend Robbie that loves you,
Speaker 12: and we've just been firing off phone calls just trying
Speaker 12: to get in. I didn't think I would get in,
Speaker 12: but here I am today. And yeah, he's got a
Speaker 12: shit eating grin over there in the corner. He's They're
Speaker 12: dead silent, like you could hear a pin drop in
Speaker 12: this place. You know, everything's all very tense here.
Speaker 3: Let me ask you something you are are you know,
Speaker 3: doing a lot of judging you?
Speaker 12: I think you'd agree, Yeah, and I'm drunk, so take
Speaker 12: everything I see with a grain of salt.
Speaker 3: Sure, but you're doing a lot of judging here, do
Speaker 3: you now?
Speaker 12: You?
Speaker 3: I mean you have to assume that you know you
Speaker 3: were watching the other callers, you were judging them based.
Speaker 1: On your own.
Speaker 3: Criteria of what is substantial?
Speaker 9: Do you.
Speaker 3: And you right now are being judged by other people?
Speaker 12: Yeah, I'm aware if.
Speaker 3: You're substantial, How do you feel about that? How do
Speaker 3: you feel being judged by others the way that you
Speaker 3: have been judging others?
Speaker 12: I think it's just the doggy dog world.
Speaker 6: Man.
Speaker 12: You get judged every day right now. I'm just on
Speaker 12: the platform. So you got to understand that you're whether
Speaker 12: or not you want to be judged, it's going to
Speaker 12: happen anyway, right And you can try to be the
Speaker 12: good Christian boy and just be like, oh, I'm not
Speaker 12: going to judge people by how they speak or what
Speaker 12: I think of them on the surface. But it's going
Speaker 12: to happen regardless. So the best way to go about
Speaker 12: doing things is to just do it as if you
Speaker 12: are going to be judged regardless, and you'll I think
Speaker 12: you'd live a more fulfilling life that way.
Speaker 3: I by the way, I think that's great, I really do.
Speaker 3: I think it's good to live in a way that
Speaker 3: you're impervious to the judgments of others. However, you know,
Speaker 3: I think in hand to aid that goal. I think
Speaker 3: it would be helpful for you to judge other people
Speaker 3: less because the more judgmental you are of other people,
Speaker 3: the more judgmental you're going to be of yourself, the
Speaker 3: more sustainable the other people's judgments of you you're going
Speaker 3: to be. Would you not agree with that?
Speaker 12: I think you're correct. Where I think there could be
Speaker 12: improvement is constructive criticism. While I could be very judgmental,
Speaker 12: I think it's still good to know that. If you
Speaker 12: are a viewer, or if you are a therapy gecko,
Speaker 12: you would want to know where the where the other
Speaker 12: side of the coin is. Right, I'm not telling you
Speaker 12: that I'm folding my laundry. In fact, I'm doing less
Speaker 12: than that woman is right now. I'm just sitting on
Speaker 12: my couch watching your stream, right so I'm being less
Speaker 12: productive than she is. However, as a listener, that was
Speaker 12: a little bit frustrating. I feel like there's a lot
Speaker 12: more people not even saying myself. I just feel like
Speaker 12: there's a lot more people out there that have that
Speaker 12: have very interesting things to say. I can't say that
Speaker 12: I'm one of them, but I would would like to think, Yeah,
Speaker 12: why are you miserable? Is miserable. Right, there's ups, there's peaks,
Speaker 12: there's valleys, there's everyday conflict. But if you know that
Speaker 12: you are miserable, then existence. Existence is difficult, right, It's
Speaker 12: a constant struggle. So if you're miserable, you know that
Speaker 12: you're alive because the end is nothing. There's nothing there there,
Speaker 12: there is no fucking and this is all right. They're
Speaker 12: laughing already in the other room. This isn't a this
Speaker 12: isn't a doom and gloom. It's just a there's nothing
Speaker 12: at the end of the road, right, you just you
Speaker 12: go to sleep, you go away. Sleep is the reward.
Speaker 9: Right.
Speaker 12: So if you're miserable, you're struggling, which is life.
Speaker 7: That is life.
Speaker 12: Life is a struggle. That's how you know you're existing.
Speaker 12: That's how you know you're living.
Speaker 18: You know.
Speaker 3: It's funny. I feel like in the call previously, I
Speaker 3: was just talking about not having so many set in
Speaker 3: stone beliefs because life is always giving me, you know,
Speaker 3: new information, and I feel like again, you know, look,
Speaker 3: I'm not a real therapist, you know that, but.
Speaker 23: I feel like you've got this this big heavy bag
Speaker 23: of beliefs.
Speaker 3: About the world and about your life and about all
Speaker 3: these different things and they're they're kind of pessimistic. No, well,
Speaker 3: they might be weighing you down a little bit here.
Speaker 12: Well, honestly, death is the reward at the end of
Speaker 12: the road. That's the truth of it, right. I'm not
Speaker 12: like I say, I'm miserable right because living is misery.
Speaker 12: But I'm not. I'm not going to get there.
Speaker 3: Living is right there, Living is misery, you.
Speaker 12: Said, then you can. By the way.
Speaker 3: Listen, you said that. You said that, yes, exactly right now,
Speaker 3: you said it's true. You are con convinced living is misery.
Speaker 3: That is one of those blame me. I was just
Speaker 3: talking to the caller. What what beliefs are you more
Speaker 3: open to challenging?
Speaker 6: Here?
Speaker 9: You you.
Speaker 3: That that does not come off to me as one
Speaker 3: of the beliefs that you're willing to challenge. And I
Speaker 3: look again, I don't know you, man, but I would
Speaker 3: maybe and maybe this is you know, easier done, easier
Speaker 3: said than done. But leave that belief that life is
Speaker 3: misery open to a little bit of challenging.
Speaker 12: Okay, I'll take that to heart.
Speaker 7: Good.
Speaker 3: What your sur name was, Calvin?
Speaker 12: Yeah, I didn't think it was going to get on,
Speaker 12: So sorry about that it's okay.
Speaker 3: Well, thank you so much for calling Calvin. You have
Speaker 3: a good rest of the night.
Speaker 12: I appreciate it. Get go, Thank you you too.
Speaker 6: Bye bye.
Speaker 3: Goes off the line, taking your phone calls.
Speaker 2: Every night, everythink, goes doing a Ride's teaching you a
Speaker 2: house of your life, but he's not really an expert.
Speaker 9: M