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Speaker 1: How from Scott Scott?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, dude, what's up?

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Speaker 3: How old are you? Scott?

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Speaker 2: I mean thirty something? Bough you're what thirty something?

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Speaker 3: That's cool. Do you like your life?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, well that's very cool, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: I'm on vacation right now, so that's pretty sweet.

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Speaker 3: Where are you on vacation? Rye, New Hampshire, Rye, New

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Speaker 3: Hampshire Beach, New Hampshire. Why did you go to vacation

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Speaker 3: in New Hampshire?

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Speaker 2: My family lives up here and my kids have never

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Speaker 2: met them, so I took them up here.

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Speaker 3: Do you like your family? No, this doesn't sound like

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Speaker 3: much of a vacation.

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Speaker 2: It's a vacation with my kids. My kids they're happy.

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Speaker 2: You know, we're from the Midwest. I never seeing the

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Speaker 2: freaking beach before, so they got to see the beach.

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Speaker 2: But a lot of childhood trauma for me is coming

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Speaker 2: back because I'm with my family and that whole bit.

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Speaker 2: But I'll call my therapist when I get home.

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Speaker 4: I'll deal, right.

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Speaker 3: So a lot of you say a lot of childhood

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Speaker 3: trauma has come to you because you've gotten back with

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Speaker 3: your family.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, big time? All right, So if you're tell

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Speaker 2: about it, it's pretty funny, like, and I got to like,

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Speaker 2: I kind of got full circle on some of it.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I kind of, I kind of do want to

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Speaker 3: hear about it. Cool, because it's just what I'm curious

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Speaker 3: about is if your family was traumatic for you, are

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Speaker 3: you not afraid of getting your your children inheriting some

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Speaker 3: sort of grand trauma.

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Speaker 5: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Actually I realized that today in the car.

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Speaker 3: All right, tell me what happens.

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Speaker 2: So when I was a kid, me and all my brothers, right,

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Speaker 2: like my mother's m O was, she'd get us into

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Speaker 2: the car and then pick a fight with us, right

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Speaker 2: and then when we you know, bought that or did whatever,

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Speaker 2: basically she'd pull over and yell at us and say,

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Speaker 2: all right, get out of the car.

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Speaker 6: Right.

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Speaker 2: So now she's like in her sixties or whatever, and

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Speaker 2: like we're driving down the road and you know, she's

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Speaker 2: she's like basically picking a fight with me again. You know,

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Speaker 2: so I got to pull over and be like, all right, mom,

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Speaker 2: get out of the car.

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Speaker 3: Hell, yeah, you you flipped a switch on her.

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Speaker 2: Dude, I flipped the script.

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Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 4: But where the fire?

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Speaker 2: I mean salt? Yeah, yeah, it feelt awesome, but you know,

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Speaker 2: we're in Saltwater Caafy.

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Speaker 7: Beach.

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Speaker 4: It's fun, it's miserable.

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Speaker 3: I remember one time my uncle did the same thing

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Speaker 3: to me where I was like fighting with my sister

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Speaker 3: and we were in his car and he he made

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Speaker 3: he pulled over on the side of the road and

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Speaker 3: made me stand and and uh, get out on There's

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Speaker 3: a big rock on the side of the road, like

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Speaker 3: a big boulder, and he made me stand on the

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Speaker 3: boulder and wait for wait, continue And I told him

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Speaker 3: I had to pee, but he wouldn't let me. He

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Speaker 3: wouldn't let me go pee, so I ended up piecing

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Speaker 3: my pants all over this Bowlder.

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Speaker 2: Jesus Christy, That's see, that's childhood. Try on me right there, dude.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, that's why. That's why. I mean, that's why I'm

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Speaker 3: not going to go visit him anymore.

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Speaker 8: I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I don't I don't know. I don't understand your your

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Speaker 3: strategy of bringing your child back to the source.

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Speaker 2: I mean, they have a really nice beach house. Like

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Speaker 2: my mom is all right, and she has a like

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Speaker 2: as far as money's concerned, so she has kind of

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Speaker 2: a beach house situation.

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Speaker 3: So you're so you're willing to forget you.

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Speaker 4: No, neither.

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Speaker 2: Never forgive, never forget all the grudge for as long

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Speaker 2: as you can. But you know, if they got a

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Speaker 2: beach house, as if a beach house unless there's a

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Speaker 2: having a miserable time, but it's really not about me.

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Speaker 2: I mean, my kids are having a great time. They've

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Speaker 2: never met their cousins. For Jesus Christ, it's been forever

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Speaker 2: they of them met their cousins. But you know, now

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Speaker 2: they met them and they're all having a blast together.

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Speaker 2: So that's cool.

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Speaker 3: Well, man, look, you're you're you're a good father. I

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Speaker 3: always every time I see you know, like if I

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Speaker 3: go to Disney World or a theme park or something

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Speaker 3: and I see the miserable adults with the happy kids,

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Speaker 3: I'm like, you know, props to them, drops to them,

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Speaker 2: Shut Hey, dude, Father's Day, its Father's It's Father's Day weekend,

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Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, So like shout out to

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Speaker 2: the dads.

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Speaker 3: Dude, Maybe your kids will give you a card with

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Speaker 3: money in it, maybe obvious feet or like you know,

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Speaker 3: a stick of gum or something like that.

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Speaker 2: At least something, dude, I mean, you know, their smiles

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Speaker 2: is gifted enough, you know, like I got the pictures

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Speaker 2: and video of them and by the ocean, they're making memories.

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Speaker 2: They'll always remember me pulling over to the side of

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Speaker 2: the road and saying, all right, mom, get out of

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Speaker 2: the car going into that. Hopefully it won't be traumatic,

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Speaker 2: but you know whatever.

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Speaker 3: Well, hell yeah, we you say your name was Scott.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for sharing Scott.

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Speaker 2: Yep, have a good night, you guys Bank.

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Speaker 3: You too, never goes on the line taking your phone

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Speaker 3: calls every night, never goes to XI. I was teaching

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Speaker 3: you about your life. Body's not really expert.

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Speaker 1: All from Joshua Joshua.

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Speaker 4: Hello, hey, hey man, how's it going.

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Speaker 3: How old are you? Joshua?

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Speaker 4: Twenty three?

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Speaker 3: You're twenty three?

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Speaker 9: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I'm twenty three? Really twenty three thousands?

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Speaker 4: That's pretty cool.

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Speaker 3: Do you like being twenty three?

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Speaker 6: Not right now?

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Speaker 10: Honestly?

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Speaker 4: Well, I woke up from a coma about six months ago.

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Speaker 3: Really so yeah, I woke up from a coma six

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I was in a coma for about a year.

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Speaker 4: Woke up and six months ago and just trying to

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Speaker 3: I guess how did you get into a coma.

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Speaker 4: So I was hunting with one of my friends and

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Speaker 4: I got shot in the back of the head, and

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Speaker 4: that's basically what they told me happened. I don't really

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Speaker 4: remember anything before the tree stand, so I'm just going

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Speaker 3: You were shot in the back of the head.

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Speaker 4: From what they said, that bullet entry was from the

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Speaker 4: back of the head, So yeah.

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Speaker 3: Who shot you?

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Speaker 4: Well, it's kind of crazy. It was one of my friends.

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Speaker 4: I didn't know about it, honestly. For a while, everyone

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Speaker 4: said it was an accident, or at least that's what

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Speaker 6: But about a week.

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Speaker 4: Ago, I was playing baseball with my little brother and

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Speaker 4: I hit my head pretty hard, and a couple days ago,

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Speaker 4: I was like, stuff's been coming back to me a

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Speaker 11: Wasn't an accident, really.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, because I remember me and my friend were arguing

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Speaker 4: and I told him that I knew this one place

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Speaker 4: that my grandpa used to take me and he was

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Speaker 4: like completely against it, and like we were arguing real bad,

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Speaker 4: and like that's all I really remember.

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Speaker 3: But that doesn't okay, But which hunting spot to go

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Speaker 3: to doesn't sound to me, like, you know, the the

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Speaker 3: shooting you in the back of the heads. Yeah, but

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Speaker 3: like that would be a little petty. I'd say.

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Speaker 4: We've we've been arguing for a while now though, because

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Speaker 4: I've been dating his sister and he wasn't really too

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Speaker 4: he was okay with it, but he started he's been

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Speaker 4: and I'm like, yeah, sure, And all I remember is him,

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Speaker 3: Starting to read this account of the story. What what's

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Speaker 4: Well, he said that he was trying to shoot a buck,

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Speaker 4: But I'm starting to think it wasn't an accident because

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Speaker 4: trying to I've been trying to figure out for the

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Speaker 4: Like I've sort of just accepted what people have been

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Speaker 4: and like now now that I've had some time to

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Speaker 4: he's like I don't know if it's just because he's

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Speaker 4: happy that I'm alive or what, but he's been acting

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Speaker 4: like apologetic a little bit. He's like he's always buying me.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, he's been acting apologetic. He shot you in the

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Speaker 3: back of the heads, I.

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Speaker 4: Know, but he's been like he's been buying me stuff,

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Speaker 4: and like he's been he keeps asking me like, hey.

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Speaker 3: Do you remember anything?

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Speaker 4: Do you remember anything?

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Speaker 3: As well?

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Speaker 4: He just keeps asking me if I remember anything from

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Speaker 4: don't know, he just he's persistent. He's like, are you

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Speaker 4: sure you don't? Are you sure you don't remember? And

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Speaker 4: sure I'm okay and that like my brain's not fucked.

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Speaker 4: But I've noticed like he's been the little little weird

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Speaker 4: Well, I've talked to my mom about it, like a

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Speaker 4: Not really, because I just feel like I don't want

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Speaker 3: But I don't want to But what like now I'm curious,

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Speaker 3: Why would you not tell a therapist or if your

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Speaker 3: If you think, let me tell you. If you genuinely

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Speaker 4: You know, Yeah, But I just I feel like if

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Speaker 3: You know what, I think, you know what your friend, well,

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Speaker 3: after I did that. So, you know, I think that

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Speaker 4: I think, yeah, I probably should have talked to somebody

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Speaker 3: Will you do that? Will you do that? Will you

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I just I just concerned because like we've been

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Speaker 4: like I'm not trying to ruin everything over just like

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Speaker 3: You know, sure, and and I get that, But that's

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Speaker 4: Well that's what I call you.

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Speaker 3: Oh, you should talk. I mean, you should talk it

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Speaker 3: name was Joshua? Joshua. Look, Joshua. If I'll leave you

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Speaker 3: with this, get a different hobby. What get get next? Here? Here?

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Speaker 3: Here's here will be my actual Get a hobby that

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Speaker 3: doesn't involve guns. If you can, you're what you said,

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Speaker 3: you were wealthy? Play croquet? Do any other rich guy sport?

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Speaker 3: Get into gulf? You know, any does anything that doesn't

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Speaker 3: what's the thing? Racketball? Get a new hobby that that

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Speaker 3: That'll be my final advice to go talk to your

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Speaker 4: All right, Before we do go, I just want to

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Speaker 4: It's really helped me kind of keep saying.

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Speaker 3: Thank you, man, I appreciate that. I'm glad to hear that.

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Speaker 4: All right, Right, you have a good night man, you too.

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Speaker 3: All From Mason Mason, oh Jick, Hello Mason, how are you?

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Speaker 6: I'm good?

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Speaker 9: How are you?

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Speaker 3: Why are you good?

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Speaker 11: I didn't expect to be here.

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Speaker 3: I didn't expect you to be here either.

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Speaker 11: Really, really, who are you expecting?

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Speaker 3: I wasn't expecting anyone in particular, but I'll tell you

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Speaker 3: I was not expecting you. Okay, does that make sense?

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Speaker 3: I think, So, how old are you, Mason, I'm eighteen?

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Speaker 3: You're eighteen?

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Speaker 11: Yeah, nineteen and a month little less, fifteen days ish?

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Speaker 3: You What are you doing for your birthday?

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Speaker 11: Waking up? Maybe taking a shower, don't help, think about

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Speaker 3: The nineteenth birthday is not particularly special. Yeah, I mean

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Speaker 11: Yeah, that's kind of weird, is it.

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Speaker 3: Where are you are you? Do you feel old?

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Speaker 11: I think once you're like past twenty two, I feel

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's weird though, because you know, childhood is nice,

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Speaker 11: Right, But what about being a child sucks?

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Speaker 3: Everyone tells you what to do. You have no agency

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Speaker 3: You don't know who you.

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Speaker 9: Are, right, Okay.

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Speaker 11: I feel like at the age of eight, it's not

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Speaker 3: I'm feeling good. I was just saying this that some nights,

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Speaker 11: Yeah, I mean, I doubt it's the easiest job, and

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Speaker 11: but I feel like it's probably a good job once

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Speaker 3: It's it's it's nice when we have good nights and

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Speaker 3: I like this conversation. It was like a good back

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Speaker 11: I like learning about you.

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Speaker 3: Get that's very sweet. But I have this thing where

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Speaker 11: I'm taking a summer class right now. I actually had

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Speaker 3: So an unintentional gap year, what does that look like?

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Speaker 11: So I was going to go into the navy, you know.

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Speaker 11: When I was in Septs. The guy there were guys

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Speaker 3: Your ultimate goal, you want to join the Navy.

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Speaker 11: No, not anymore. No, I'm just going to college. I'm

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Speaker 3: And you want to work in real estate?

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Speaker 11: Yeah, in Texas?

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Speaker 3: Interesting like selling it. You want to be an agent?

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Speaker 3: You want to own yeah? Yeah thing. Yeah, that's a

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Speaker 11: Eventually, I just don't want a very repetitive job, you know,

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Speaker 11: I want something where I could wake up every morning

444
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Speaker 11: and have a different experience and not feel like I

445
00:23:47,119 --> 00:23:50,720
Speaker 11: wake up every morning just slaving my life away to

446
00:23:50,760 --> 00:23:52,720
Speaker 11: a job that I don't enjoy.

447
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Speaker 3: You know, can I ask? And I don't know? You

448
00:23:56,240 --> 00:23:59,400
Speaker 3: Actually you probably know more about fucking real estate than

449
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Speaker 3: I do. Uh. What makes selling real estate in your opinion,

450
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Speaker 3: a not repetitive job? Because I would think it sort

451
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Speaker 3: of is you you know, you wake up every day

452
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Speaker 3: you sell houses.

453
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Speaker 6: Well that, but.

454
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Speaker 11: Real estate is like, it's not a repetitive thing. And

455
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Speaker 11: in terms of how often you have to do it,

456
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Speaker 11: you could sell. If you're your own business, right and

457
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Speaker 11: you sell three houses a year, you're already making more

458
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Speaker 11: than what the average household income is for in the

459
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Speaker 11: United States.

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Speaker 3: Really, and for only fucking three houses.

461
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Speaker 11: Yeah yeah, if if that's if you do work under yourself,

462
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Speaker 11: If you work under other people, then I mean sometimes

463
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Speaker 11: they'll give you like a commission bonus, but not always.

464
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Speaker 11: But I mean, either way, have still decent money.

465
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Speaker 3: I like the idea that you fucking sell three houses

466
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Speaker 3: a year and then you fuck off to like shine.

467
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Speaker 11: I'm not saying that I'm just going to fuck off, right,

468
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Speaker 11: I'm like, obviously I'm gonna keep putting in work, and

469
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Speaker 11: those things are like there's still year long projects where

470
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Speaker 11: you're going to have to buy like a rundown I

471
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Speaker 11: should he rundown piece of like a lot, right, and

472
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Speaker 11: then you fix it up and then you're gonna sell

473
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Speaker 11: it for almost double what you paid for. And that's

474
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Speaker 11: what you're hoping for, is that you get more in

475
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Speaker 11: your return.

476
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Speaker 3: So right, well you're gonna you're gonna be you when

477
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Speaker 3: you fix it up. You should add some flare to

478
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Speaker 3: the houses. Man, if that's the thing, If you really wanna,

479
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Speaker 3: if you really want to make this a creative job,

480
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Speaker 3: you've got to be a special type of realtor person,

481
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Speaker 3: all right. You gotta be like taking you know, houses

482
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Speaker 3: in suburban neighborhoods and making them into arcades and ship. Right,

483
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Speaker 3: you got to add pac man wallpaper and uh, I

484
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Speaker 3: don't know, just get really fucky with it, you know,

485
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Speaker 3: make that turn at a at a mirror room where

486
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Speaker 3: all the walls are mirrors, something like that. I don't know.

487
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Speaker 3: Do you get creative with the housing part. That's just

488
00:26:00,520 --> 00:26:07,960
Speaker 3: a way to to to, you know, add some some

489
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,560
Speaker 3: flair to it, right, piss and ship all over the

490
00:26:11,600 --> 00:26:13,440
Speaker 3: walls and go. This is a piss and ship house.

491
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Speaker 11: Okay, okay, so yeah, I think that one would work.

492
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Speaker 3: Honestly, the kid died in here.

493
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Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean I.

494
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Speaker 11: Think probably places with a little bit of history behind them.

495
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Speaker 11: You know, absolutely, you're making a property.

496
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Speaker 3: You have to be creative and you're storytelling because you're.

497
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Speaker 11: Not always you can't get a piss and ship house

498
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Speaker 11: anywhere off the street. That's a that's my specialty right there.

499
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Speaker 7: You know.

500
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Speaker 3: Look what your name was, Mason? Mason. I like your

501
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:47,119
Speaker 3: yes and mentality. I like your creativity. I I you know,

502
00:26:47,200 --> 00:26:49,640
Speaker 3: I I buy a house. I'd buy a house from

503
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Speaker 3: you if if I could afford one in in in

504
00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:56,000
Speaker 3: the air in uh you know, if I could afford

505
00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:58,360
Speaker 3: a piss and ship house. They probably run for millions

506
00:26:58,359 --> 00:27:01,359
Speaker 3: of dollars. But if if, if you know, the market crashes,

507
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:05,040
Speaker 3: I'll be hitting you up. Okay, thank you so much

508
00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:06,199
Speaker 3: for calling, man. You have good rest of the night.

509
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:12,119
Speaker 11: Yeah, YouTube gets Yeah, how from Hayden.

510
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:14,320
Speaker 3: Hayden?

511
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Speaker 6: Wait, Oh shit, I'm actually on You're on the thing, dude.

512
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:27,240
Speaker 6: Oh nice? What's up? Wait? Hello? Can you hear me?

513
00:27:27,880 --> 00:27:28,520
Speaker 3: I can hear you?

514
00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:35,840
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, you're uh your thing said, like, do you

515
00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:42,080
Speaker 6: know anyone? I called in because I actually don't know anyone.

516
00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:43,920
Speaker 3: You don't know anyone?

517
00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:47,200
Speaker 6: Yeah, I don't even know like a like a single person, dude,

518
00:27:47,359 --> 00:27:50,960
Speaker 6: you know me? I mean I guess that's true, Like

519
00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:52,760
Speaker 6: I know who you are, but like I don't, I

520
00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:56,200
Speaker 6: don't know you, you know, but.

521
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Speaker 3: I mean, but you know who I am?

522
00:27:59,760 --> 00:28:01,760
Speaker 6: Well, I mean in that sense, I know, like who

523
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 6: a lot of people are, right, Okay.

524
00:28:04,080 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 3: Well, I don't think it's I don't think it's possible

525
00:28:06,600 --> 00:28:07,320
Speaker 3: for you to not know.

526
00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:11,480
Speaker 6: Anyone, not really, like I don't know anyone at all.

527
00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:17,280
Speaker 6: I yes, I'm an orphan. I just I just grew up.

528
00:28:17,359 --> 00:28:23,000
Speaker 6: I didn't have any parents or parental figures. I uh.

529
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:28,480
Speaker 6: I work like a like a night security job. It's

530
00:28:28,560 --> 00:28:35,000
Speaker 6: just me. I don't see anyone. I drive home. No

531
00:28:35,040 --> 00:28:38,600
Speaker 6: one's but me here. I don't think I've actually spoken

532
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:43,280
Speaker 6: to another person face to face for like probably about

533
00:28:43,320 --> 00:28:44,520
Speaker 6: like two years.

534
00:28:45,760 --> 00:28:52,320
Speaker 3: Really, yeah, are you well so you grew up with Nope,

535
00:28:52,320 --> 00:28:53,880
Speaker 3: But I mean where did you grow up? Like what

536
00:28:53,960 --> 00:28:55,560
Speaker 3: was your life like when you were ten?

537
00:28:56,560 --> 00:29:02,360
Speaker 6: I just I just like there was no I just

538
00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:10,720
Speaker 6: like started, you know, like that's it. No, school or anything.

539
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:15,000
Speaker 3: Just where did you when Okay when you were ten

540
00:29:15,080 --> 00:29:15,560
Speaker 3: years old?

541
00:29:16,120 --> 00:29:20,440
Speaker 6: And yeah, yeah I was. I was. I was working security,

542
00:29:20,560 --> 00:29:21,280
Speaker 6: Like I said.

543
00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:23,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, where do you sleep.

544
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:25,480
Speaker 6: In my bed?

545
00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 3: Okay? Where's you have? I have a it's like when

546
00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:32,280
Speaker 3: you were ten years old? Like where did you.

547
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:35,920
Speaker 6: See at night? Well, like I said, like in my bed,

548
00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:38,000
Speaker 6: you know, like I have like a I've got like

549
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:40,200
Speaker 6: I've got like a like a bed at a place

550
00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:41,160
Speaker 6: I sleep on it.

551
00:29:45,680 --> 00:29:48,200
Speaker 3: Who owned? Who pays for the place to exist?

552
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:52,400
Speaker 6: I don't have to pay for it. It's just I

553
00:29:52,440 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 6: can just sleep.

554
00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:56,840
Speaker 3: Say there's no one around, like the rates the facility, Hayden,

555
00:29:57,400 --> 00:29:57,640
Speaker 3: I do.

556
00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:02,520
Speaker 6: I'm the it's my be you know, all right, Hayden.

557
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:08,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, we're gonna where we can either talk like like

558
00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:12,400
Speaker 3: you know, two people having a conversation where they speak words,

559
00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:13,560
Speaker 3: or I'll hang up.

560
00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:20,920
Speaker 6: Right, Okay, I understand. I don't pay rent if that's

561
00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:21,560
Speaker 6: what you're asking.

562
00:30:24,680 --> 00:30:26,520
Speaker 3: So what what is this place?

563
00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:30,440
Speaker 6: It's just the bed. It's not like a place like

564
00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:33,760
Speaker 6: it's just like the bed. Like I'm like the like

565
00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:37,520
Speaker 6: outside you know, in the woods.

566
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Speaker 3: Hayden. Yes, Hayden, who are you? Hayden?

567
00:30:44,640 --> 00:30:45,200
Speaker 6: What do you mean?

568
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:49,320
Speaker 3: Hey, I need a Hayden. I want to move on

569
00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 3: so fast. I need a conversation with a human being

570
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:55,600
Speaker 3: right now about things that makes sense to me in

571
00:30:55,640 --> 00:30:55,960
Speaker 3: my head.

572
00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:58,440
Speaker 6: I know, I'm sorry, I really tried, but like this

573
00:30:58,560 --> 00:31:01,440
Speaker 6: is actually my first Congress station with a human being.

574
00:31:01,480 --> 00:31:04,880
Speaker 6: And like I mean I said, it was like two years.

575
00:31:04,640 --> 00:31:07,880
Speaker 3: Right, probably tell me about two years ago.

576
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:11,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, two years ago. I remember it actually pretty clearly.

577
00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:11,840
Speaker 3: Tell me.

578
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:14,680
Speaker 6: Yeah, the last person I had a conversation with, who

579
00:31:14,800 --> 00:31:17,400
Speaker 6: was it? I ran out of toilet paper, so I

580
00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:21,120
Speaker 6: went to the store to get some. Mhm, and uh

581
00:31:22,360 --> 00:31:25,400
Speaker 6: it was the dude that the cash registry, you know.

582
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:30,040
Speaker 6: He was like, that's a lot of toilet paper. And

583
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:32,840
Speaker 6: I was like too nervous to say anything. Mm hmm.

584
00:31:36,840 --> 00:31:38,920
Speaker 6: Well hello, I think my my phone.

585
00:31:39,520 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 3: Hello, I'm here, I'm here.

586
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:44,360
Speaker 6: Oh, so.

587
00:31:46,440 --> 00:31:48,200
Speaker 3: Okay, So you went to get toilet paper.

588
00:31:49,160 --> 00:31:54,880
Speaker 6: Yeah, I got like a lot of So okay, are

589
00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:57,640
Speaker 6: you like a legit you're like a legitimate like a gorphobic?

590
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 6: I don't know what that means, Like like I'm like

591
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 6: afraid of something, like I like a phobic part. I

592
00:32:11,840 --> 00:32:16,000
Speaker 6: know that what is a gore?

593
00:32:19,280 --> 00:32:21,240
Speaker 3: Like you know, like be afraid to leave the house.

594
00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:25,800
Speaker 6: Oh well, I mean I don't have a half Boh,

595
00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:30,000
Speaker 6: you don't have a house now, Like I said, it's

596
00:32:30,040 --> 00:32:32,160
Speaker 6: like in the woods.

597
00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 3: You sleep in a bed in the middle of the woods.

598
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:44,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, and what's that like? I mean, it's it's kind

599
00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:48,280
Speaker 6: of like it's it's kind of chow but I guess

600
00:32:48,280 --> 00:32:49,240
Speaker 6: it could be kind of lonely.

601
00:32:51,640 --> 00:32:53,880
Speaker 3: Is there a house over the woods or it is

602
00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 3: a bed in the middle of the woods with nothing.

603
00:32:57,960 --> 00:33:00,760
Speaker 6: Else covering it's it's in the woods. I mean there's

604
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:04,240
Speaker 6: like woods around, so it's kind of like hidden from

605
00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:07,160
Speaker 6: like view from outside of the woods.

606
00:33:07,240 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? Is there are there four

607
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:10,960
Speaker 3: walls surrounding the bed?

608
00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:12,680
Speaker 9: No?

609
00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:15,680
Speaker 3: Where are you right now?

610
00:33:17,280 --> 00:33:18,480
Speaker 6: In the woods?

611
00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:20,120
Speaker 3: Really?

612
00:33:21,960 --> 00:33:22,160
Speaker 6: Yeah?

613
00:33:22,240 --> 00:33:23,240
Speaker 3: How do you charge your phone?

614
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 6: H I have a I have solar panels. You know.

615
00:33:30,240 --> 00:33:30,960
Speaker 3: It's nighttime.

616
00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:34,520
Speaker 6: Well, I mean it charges during the day and then

617
00:33:34,520 --> 00:33:35,400
Speaker 6: I can use it at night.

618
00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 3: Can you yell as loud as you possibly can for me?

619
00:33:42,040 --> 00:33:46,200
Speaker 6: Yeah? I don't wanna. I don't wanna, like i've you don't.

620
00:33:46,240 --> 00:33:48,720
Speaker 6: I don't want to alert anyone to my presence in

621
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Speaker 6: the woods.

622
00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:51,440
Speaker 3: You know, there's no one around there in the middle

623
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:52,320
Speaker 3: of the woods.

624
00:33:53,760 --> 00:33:57,280
Speaker 6: I mean it's we say, like in the middle. I

625
00:33:57,320 --> 00:34:03,160
Speaker 6: mean it's I maybe I maybe towards the edge of

626
00:34:03,200 --> 00:34:03,800
Speaker 6: the woods.

627
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:05,800
Speaker 3: I mean, you don't live with you live on the

628
00:34:05,880 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 3: edge of the woods.

629
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Speaker 6: I may not have been totally honest. It's I have

630
00:34:10,160 --> 00:34:10,840
Speaker 6: been totally.

631
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Speaker 3: Honest with me.

632
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:13,720
Speaker 6: Well, I'm now I'm being totally honest.

633
00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:19,520
Speaker 3: I don't think you are Haydden.

634
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 6: What do you mean.

635
00:34:24,120 --> 00:34:31,600
Speaker 3: Hadn't I? Yes, just take your bed from the middle

636
00:34:31,600 --> 00:34:37,040
Speaker 3: of the woods. And you said you work the night shop, right, Yeah,

637
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:39,680
Speaker 3: they do. They pay you money to do this job.

638
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 6: Yeah, they're just Yeah, they should.

639
00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:47,200
Speaker 3: You should take some of that money, rent an apartment

640
00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:51,800
Speaker 3: or a house and put the bed in that house

641
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:52,839
Speaker 3: and then sleep there.

642
00:34:54,239 --> 00:34:54,680
Speaker 6: Mm hmm.

643
00:34:57,239 --> 00:34:58,919
Speaker 3: I'm not here to judge you and how you live,

644
00:34:59,040 --> 00:35:01,759
Speaker 3: but I want you you to keep stay open to

645
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:04,160
Speaker 3: the possibility that that might be a happier existence for

646
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:05,399
Speaker 3: you than the one you currently live.

647
00:35:07,080 --> 00:35:15,040
Speaker 6: Hm. Hm, I mean, I don't know. It's I feel

648
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:15,879
Speaker 6: like I'm doing all right.

649
00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:19,640
Speaker 3: I think you are too. Thank you so much for

650
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:20,200
Speaker 3: calling hidden.

651
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:26,400
Speaker 6: Uh yeah, yeah, thanks thanks for having me on. Dude.

652
00:35:26,920 --> 00:35:32,200
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Speaker 3: the calls.

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00:36:14,680 --> 00:36:21,799
Speaker 1: Call from Jen, Jen, Yes, how are you?

667
00:36:23,280 --> 00:36:23,800
Speaker 9: I'm good?

668
00:36:24,280 --> 00:36:25,359
Speaker 13: How are you?

669
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:26,880
Speaker 3: You seem you seem very excited.

670
00:36:27,840 --> 00:36:30,120
Speaker 10: Oh my god, I've been trying to call in for

671
00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:31,959
Speaker 10: like a year.

672
00:36:33,719 --> 00:36:35,279
Speaker 3: Do you are? Do you leg you mean that like

673
00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:35,600
Speaker 3: a year?

674
00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,120
Speaker 10: Yeah, since like whenever you started.

675
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:43,000
Speaker 3: Started about a year ago. What's your what's your name?

676
00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 3: And chat? Am I allowed to? Are you allowed to say?

677
00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:47,560
Speaker 9: No?

678
00:36:49,040 --> 00:36:50,960
Speaker 10: I don't know. My husband's the one who's always in

679
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:51,879
Speaker 10: the chat, and I just.

680
00:36:51,880 --> 00:36:55,120
Speaker 3: Call what's what can I know what his name is.

681
00:36:55,200 --> 00:36:56,400
Speaker 3: I'm curious.

682
00:36:56,840 --> 00:36:57,319
Speaker 2: I don't know.

683
00:36:58,080 --> 00:36:59,760
Speaker 10: You could ask him.

684
00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:01,520
Speaker 3: Have I spoken to your husband?

685
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:05,920
Speaker 10: No, this is the first time for both me and

686
00:37:05,960 --> 00:37:06,320
Speaker 10: my husband.

687
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:06,440
Speaker 5: Hair.

688
00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:07,160
Speaker 9: I'll give you to him.

689
00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:11,680
Speaker 3: He's so really so you so you? Uh oh here,

690
00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:15,319
Speaker 3: let's well, so you, how have you been trying to

691
00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:17,520
Speaker 3: call in for a year? You haven't gotten in after

692
00:37:17,560 --> 00:37:19,279
Speaker 3: calling in for a year? I feel like after a year.

693
00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:25,560
Speaker 10: Yeah, well, I usually like we'll give up after a while. Yeah,

694
00:37:25,640 --> 00:37:27,560
Speaker 10: I'll just do like fiing stuck and I'll just go asleep.

695
00:37:28,320 --> 00:37:30,640
Speaker 3: Well, Jen, I mean, tell me everything, tell me nothing.

696
00:37:32,120 --> 00:37:35,080
Speaker 10: Well, I don't know, it's just me.

697
00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:40,920
Speaker 3: It's yes, let me ask you something. You've been watching

698
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:44,880
Speaker 3: this for a year? Yes, what I mean? What do

699
00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:47,480
Speaker 3: you when you what do you like about the callers?

700
00:37:47,840 --> 00:37:49,360
Speaker 3: When you when you like the callers?

701
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:55,000
Speaker 10: Some of them are very interesting stories. And I'm not

702
00:37:55,040 --> 00:37:57,360
Speaker 10: going to be one of them. Like the guy who's

703
00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:00,560
Speaker 10: like living on a cot in the middle of would.

704
00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:06,759
Speaker 3: I have I have?

705
00:38:07,360 --> 00:38:08,200
Speaker 4: I don't.

706
00:38:08,200 --> 00:38:10,240
Speaker 3: I don't know what my own personal theory is about

707
00:38:10,239 --> 00:38:10,600
Speaker 3: that one.

708
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:17,640
Speaker 10: He's probably full of shit, but he but.

709
00:38:17,640 --> 00:38:19,080
Speaker 3: Even if he is full of shit, it's like, well,

710
00:38:19,120 --> 00:38:23,759
Speaker 3: what's the what's the real story here? Because is he

711
00:38:24,160 --> 00:38:28,520
Speaker 3: actually a gloraphobic? Like is he just fucking with Because

712
00:38:28,520 --> 00:38:33,280
Speaker 3: when people are like, legit fucking with me, they don't

713
00:38:33,880 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 3: there was something about that. I don't know. I don't know.

714
00:38:36,040 --> 00:38:37,399
Speaker 3: I don't know what to make of it.

715
00:38:38,640 --> 00:38:41,799
Speaker 10: Right, It's like are they in the witness protection program?

716
00:38:41,840 --> 00:38:44,520
Speaker 10: Like who are they hiding from? Why do they may

717
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:46,759
Speaker 10: have to make these obscure stories.

718
00:38:48,760 --> 00:38:51,080
Speaker 3: It's weird because I almost feel like if someone's fucking

719
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:53,279
Speaker 3: with me, if someone's like just there to fuck with me,

720
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:59,000
Speaker 3: they'll they would make something outlandish. I feel that wasn't

721
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:03,040
Speaker 3: that wasn't outland and crazy enough for me to be like,

722
00:39:03,080 --> 00:39:06,600
Speaker 3: all right, this person's just gone, you know, making shit up.

723
00:39:07,719 --> 00:39:08,080
Speaker 7: Yeah.

724
00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:13,560
Speaker 10: I just usually at night, like my creativity level is

725
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:16,399
Speaker 10: just not there to be coming up with this outlandish

726
00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:20,080
Speaker 10: and sane stuff. So apologies to everybody.

727
00:39:20,800 --> 00:39:23,080
Speaker 3: You don't have to You don't have to apologize at all.

728
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:26,080
Speaker 3: You have nothing to be sorry for. I mean, I

729
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:28,840
Speaker 3: don't know, have you killed anyone? Have you murdered a person?

730
00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:31,400
Speaker 10: I have not murdered a person.

731
00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 3: What would it take to get you to murder a person?

732
00:39:35,320 --> 00:39:39,840
Speaker 10: Jesus anonymity for number one and a shit ton of money.

733
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:44,680
Speaker 3: That's that's it is. If someone paid you enough and

734
00:39:44,680 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 3: you knew you to get away with it. That was

735
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:50,680
Speaker 3: not the answer. I was expecting, yes, expecting a more

736
00:39:50,719 --> 00:39:53,400
Speaker 3: noble sort of answer of like they would have to no,

737
00:39:53,680 --> 00:40:00,160
Speaker 3: you know, come across my child or whatever the fuck? Nope,

738
00:40:01,040 --> 00:40:04,000
Speaker 3: how much money would it take? Realistically?

739
00:40:06,600 --> 00:40:09,840
Speaker 10: I mean, I guess it's not as black and white

740
00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:12,200
Speaker 10: as that. I guess when we start talking in details

741
00:40:12,239 --> 00:40:15,120
Speaker 10: like well, who am I killing? What kind of person

742
00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:17,360
Speaker 10: are they? Do they deserve it sort of thing? So

743
00:40:17,400 --> 00:40:21,160
Speaker 10: if they like really deserve it, like Harvey Weinstein, then

744
00:40:21,239 --> 00:40:24,160
Speaker 10: like shit, like give me like ten grand I'll be good.

745
00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:26,360
Speaker 9: But if it's like really.

746
00:40:26,200 --> 00:40:29,800
Speaker 10: A mom, yeah, if it's like a mom, like somebody

747
00:40:29,800 --> 00:40:33,560
Speaker 10: who's living a good life, like I would probably feel

748
00:40:33,840 --> 00:40:35,759
Speaker 10: terrible for the rest of my life if I did it.

749
00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:37,880
Speaker 10: So we're talking like millions.

750
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:39,800
Speaker 3: Now do you support capital punishment?

751
00:40:42,320 --> 00:40:45,880
Speaker 10: Well, I don't support the death penalty. I feel like

752
00:40:45,920 --> 00:40:51,239
Speaker 10: people can be rehabilitated the capital punishment, Like, yeah, do.

753
00:40:51,239 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 3: You support the death penalty?

754
00:40:53,239 --> 00:40:53,319
Speaker 9: No?

755
00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:59,200
Speaker 3: Wait, okay, so hold on, So but that doesn't make

756
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:03,200
Speaker 3: sense because if you, like, if you believe that no

757
00:41:03,239 --> 00:41:06,840
Speaker 3: one should like like, okay, if you believe that, like

758
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:11,399
Speaker 3: a judge shouldn't be able to, in their judgment say

759
00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:14,200
Speaker 3: that this person has done so horribly that they deserve

760
00:41:14,320 --> 00:41:18,480
Speaker 3: to die, like how so? But how why? Because that's

761
00:41:18,520 --> 00:41:21,160
Speaker 3: my thing because I couldn't do I don't know even

762
00:41:21,160 --> 00:41:23,440
Speaker 3: if they were a really bad person. I don't know

763
00:41:23,440 --> 00:41:25,680
Speaker 3: if I could be like, this person deserves to die.

764
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:27,840
Speaker 3: I don't know if I could make that decision that

765
00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:30,800
Speaker 3: I think this person deserves to die.

766
00:41:31,080 --> 00:41:33,280
Speaker 10: Well, I mean I think that, like once we start

767
00:41:33,440 --> 00:41:38,239
Speaker 10: talking about like legality and like interpreting law is to

768
00:41:38,280 --> 00:41:41,239
Speaker 10: say that, yes, this person did something so egregious that

769
00:41:41,280 --> 00:41:44,759
Speaker 10: they should no longer walk this earth. I think that.

770
00:41:44,960 --> 00:41:47,080
Speaker 10: I mean, we're talking about two different things here, Like

771
00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:48,719
Speaker 10: number one, we're talking about me.

772
00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:52,640
Speaker 3: I feel like like that we're talking about if someone

773
00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:55,120
Speaker 3: does something so terrible, do they deserve to die?

774
00:41:56,920 --> 00:42:00,080
Speaker 10: Well, that's true. I mean, yeah, you're you're asking me,

775
00:42:00,239 --> 00:42:03,399
Speaker 10: like how much money would I take for it? And yeah,

776
00:42:03,440 --> 00:42:06,719
Speaker 10: I guess in my like in my personal judgmental mind,

777
00:42:06,880 --> 00:42:09,239
Speaker 10: like yes, I could like say yes or no, like

778
00:42:09,360 --> 00:42:11,640
Speaker 10: just based off my own like, but as long as

779
00:42:11,640 --> 00:42:14,520
Speaker 10: I would be anonymous for it. Fine, yes, sure, But

780
00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:18,799
Speaker 10: if we're talking like a judge interpreting laws to say, like, yes,

781
00:42:18,960 --> 00:42:23,120
Speaker 10: this person should die there serial killer, child rapist thing,

782
00:42:23,360 --> 00:42:25,279
Speaker 10: then I don't know. I mean, like I feel like,

783
00:42:25,520 --> 00:42:29,479
Speaker 10: maybe not that specific example, but people should be given

784
00:42:29,480 --> 00:42:33,440
Speaker 10: the opportunity to rehabilitate. And I also feel like if

785
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:37,200
Speaker 10: the victims had something to say about it, they would

786
00:42:37,280 --> 00:42:40,840
Speaker 10: probably not want that person to get off so scott

787
00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:43,399
Speaker 10: free with death. They would want them to like rot

788
00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:45,680
Speaker 10: in a cellar or like in a cell for the

789
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:48,399
Speaker 10: rest of their life.

790
00:42:48,960 --> 00:42:54,880
Speaker 3: So grand, Well yeah, all wait, hold on, here's okay,

791
00:42:55,239 --> 00:42:57,319
Speaker 3: how much to kill? Like just like a guy who

792
00:42:57,400 --> 00:42:59,880
Speaker 3: like works in an office and he's like not that cool,

793
00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:02,040
Speaker 3: but he's he didn't like kill anyone or anything, Like,

794
00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:03,440
Speaker 3: how much for that guy?

795
00:43:04,200 --> 00:43:05,719
Speaker 10: Are you talking about a coworker?

796
00:43:06,920 --> 00:43:09,400
Speaker 3: No, just you know, just some random guy. I mean,

797
00:43:09,400 --> 00:43:13,920
Speaker 3: do you know a co worker? Oh my god, not

798
00:43:14,600 --> 00:43:16,279
Speaker 3: that doesn't desert. What are do you have any co

799
00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:18,279
Speaker 3: workers that you would kill for a certain amount of money?

800
00:43:18,280 --> 00:43:18,880
Speaker 3: Is what I'm asking?

801
00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:24,759
Speaker 10: I think, Oh my god, probably, but like but like

802
00:43:24,960 --> 00:43:26,360
Speaker 10: for like a lot of money.

803
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:31,440
Speaker 3: All right, how much? How much money to kill your receptionist?

804
00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:36,800
Speaker 10: Jesus like a couple of millions.

805
00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:43,200
Speaker 3: Really, Yeah, that's fucked.

806
00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 7: Up, isn't it.

807
00:43:46,520 --> 00:43:48,720
Speaker 10: This is what covid has done to all of us.

808
00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:51,200
Speaker 10: We just don't give a ship anymore.

809
00:43:52,360 --> 00:43:53,080
Speaker 3: That's fucked up.

810
00:43:53,080 --> 00:43:53,279
Speaker 6: Man.

811
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:56,920
Speaker 3: I know you kill your coworker for two million dollars,

812
00:43:58,000 --> 00:43:58,759
Speaker 3: it's fucked up.

813
00:44:02,400 --> 00:44:06,560
Speaker 10: So anyway, what you wouldn't You wouldn't kill anyone, I

814
00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:07,200
Speaker 10: mean for money?

815
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:12,680
Speaker 14: Likes, how did we get here?

816
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:15,280
Speaker 10: I'm really not like a violent person.

817
00:44:16,960 --> 00:44:18,160
Speaker 3: Well for the right price, you are.

818
00:44:20,080 --> 00:44:25,200
Speaker 10: Yes, my husband's left the room. He thinks I'm going

819
00:44:25,280 --> 00:44:27,200
Speaker 10: to kill him now?

820
00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:28,120
Speaker 3: Well how much for that?

821
00:44:30,239 --> 00:44:30,799
Speaker 13: Thank god?

822
00:44:31,600 --> 00:44:35,520
Speaker 10: I couldn't. I couldn't.

823
00:44:37,680 --> 00:44:38,879
Speaker 1: That's like, that's good.

824
00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:46,520
Speaker 3: That's good to know. What's your husband's name in chat?

825
00:44:46,680 --> 00:44:47,719
Speaker 3: Do you really not know?

826
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,680
Speaker 10: I honestly like I could give you. I could give

827
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:56,120
Speaker 10: him to you. He wants to know your name in chatmous,

828
00:44:56,520 --> 00:44:57,920
Speaker 10: He says anonymous.

829
00:44:58,760 --> 00:44:59,680
Speaker 3: He's anonymous?

830
00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:01,040
Speaker 8: Apparently.

831
00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 3: Well I'm glad. Well, tell I appreciate you guys being

832
00:45:05,320 --> 00:45:06,800
Speaker 3: here for a year. That means a lot to me.

833
00:45:07,719 --> 00:45:10,959
Speaker 10: Oh thanks, this is just I mean, you're the only

834
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:14,080
Speaker 10: gek on the internet that gives fake therapy to anyone.

835
00:45:14,160 --> 00:45:17,040
Speaker 10: So clearly it hasn't worked for me.

836
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:24,239
Speaker 3: Well at the fake therapy, Well it's worth I think. Well,

837
00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:26,960
Speaker 3: I mean, how would you even define this as working?

838
00:45:27,239 --> 00:45:27,480
Speaker 7: You know?

839
00:45:28,920 --> 00:45:31,520
Speaker 10: Well, I mean we're talking about I mean, like I

840
00:45:31,560 --> 00:45:34,000
Speaker 10: would think that I'm a fairly normal person with non

841
00:45:34,120 --> 00:45:37,560
Speaker 10: violent tendencies, Like I'm a nice person, like I've got

842
00:45:37,600 --> 00:45:41,520
Speaker 10: a good profession. I help people. But for some reason,

843
00:45:41,760 --> 00:45:42,239
Speaker 10: were the right.

844
00:45:42,280 --> 00:45:47,560
Speaker 3: Price, you would abandon all of that. Yeah, a co

845
00:45:47,600 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 3: worker in.

846
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:51,240
Speaker 15: The face, Yes, the receptionist.

847
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,719
Speaker 3: Do you not like her? Or you just like? I mean,

848
00:45:55,719 --> 00:45:57,320
Speaker 3: what would you do with two million dollars?

849
00:45:59,040 --> 00:46:01,480
Speaker 10: Oh my god, I'd like, well, number one, I'd pay

850
00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:03,920
Speaker 10: off my student loan, Like that's for sure.

851
00:46:04,120 --> 00:46:06,360
Speaker 3: Oh okay, you mentioned you have student loans. Now I

852
00:46:06,400 --> 00:46:07,520
Speaker 3: kind of get it.

853
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:11,880
Speaker 10: Yeah, I mean, like I feel like I'm indebted to

854
00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,920
Speaker 10: not only several banks, but to the government still for

855
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:19,480
Speaker 10: quite some time. So I'd like to break the chains

856
00:46:19,560 --> 00:46:21,320
Speaker 10: of indentureship.

857
00:46:22,960 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 3: Oh should. I got to give a quick shout out

858
00:46:24,560 --> 00:46:28,000
Speaker 3: to Skylius for this, for this raid.

859
00:46:28,719 --> 00:46:29,319
Speaker 10: Nice hero.

860
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:33,560
Speaker 3: He's a good guy. I don't know why I said that.

861
00:46:33,600 --> 00:46:36,239
Speaker 3: He might not be a good guy. He raided me,

862
00:46:36,400 --> 00:46:38,759
Speaker 3: but but I can't say for certain that he's a

863
00:46:38,760 --> 00:46:40,840
Speaker 3: good guy just because he raided me. I don't know

864
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:42,920
Speaker 3: anything about him. I think it's dangerous of me that

865
00:46:42,920 --> 00:46:45,239
Speaker 3: I've said that that he's a good guy, because he

866
00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:46,520
Speaker 3: might be a terrible person.

867
00:46:47,400 --> 00:46:47,880
Speaker 14: He could be.

868
00:46:48,320 --> 00:46:50,800
Speaker 10: He's probably trying to buy your favor.

869
00:46:51,960 --> 00:46:52,120
Speaker 15: Him.

870
00:46:52,480 --> 00:46:56,440
Speaker 3: You know what, him I would kill for two million dollars.

871
00:46:56,760 --> 00:46:57,040
Speaker 7: Same.

872
00:46:58,280 --> 00:47:01,120
Speaker 3: Well, it was al as you're talking to you, Jen.

873
00:47:01,200 --> 00:47:03,240
Speaker 3: Thank you so much for being here.

874
00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:04,760
Speaker 15: Yeah, no problem.

875
00:47:04,800 --> 00:47:07,200
Speaker 3: You have a good night. I'll talk to you next year.

876
00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:08,879
Speaker 10: Yes, next year.

877
00:47:11,000 --> 00:47:11,439
Speaker 7: All right?

878
00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:11,800
Speaker 16: Bye?

879
00:47:14,480 --> 00:47:22,800
Speaker 17: All from Jam and Sam. Hello.

880
00:47:23,920 --> 00:47:30,080
Speaker 3: Hello, did I get in? Get into what.

881
00:47:31,800 --> 00:47:35,759
Speaker 1: The chat? Yes?

882
00:47:36,040 --> 00:47:39,360
Speaker 3: You are in chat with me currently. You are currently

883
00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 3: engaged in a conversation with me over the phone.

884
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:45,239
Speaker 13: Hello, how are you?

885
00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:47,520
Speaker 3: What's your name?

886
00:47:49,080 --> 00:47:51,799
Speaker 13: It went quiet? Do I still love you?

887
00:47:53,520 --> 00:47:53,800
Speaker 3: Hello?

888
00:47:55,040 --> 00:47:56,880
Speaker 17: Hello? This is so weird.

889
00:47:58,640 --> 00:48:02,880
Speaker 3: Sam Man's Sam? There's not Sam. Listen, Sam. I need

890
00:48:02,920 --> 00:48:04,239
Speaker 3: you to know. And I'm not saying this to be

891
00:48:04,239 --> 00:48:06,879
Speaker 3: harsh to you or anything like that, but I'm only

892
00:48:06,920 --> 00:48:10,480
Speaker 3: saying this because there's no time to evaluate the situation

893
00:48:10,800 --> 00:48:13,120
Speaker 3: that you're in right now. There is only time to

894
00:48:13,160 --> 00:48:14,520
Speaker 3: be in it. Does that make sense?

895
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 17: Yeah, that does make sense. I'm kind of weirded out

896
00:48:19,080 --> 00:48:19,440
Speaker 17: by it?

897
00:48:20,120 --> 00:48:21,840
Speaker 3: Did you say your name was Sam?

898
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:22,600
Speaker 9: Yes?

899
00:48:23,320 --> 00:48:25,279
Speaker 3: Sam? No time to think about how you feel, only

900
00:48:25,320 --> 00:48:28,160
Speaker 3: time to feel It's Sam, How do you know that

901
00:48:28,200 --> 00:48:28,919
Speaker 3: you are not dead?

902
00:48:31,640 --> 00:48:31,879
Speaker 1: See?

903
00:48:31,920 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 17: I don't really know? Like are we actually dead or

904
00:48:35,200 --> 00:48:36,000
Speaker 17: are we alive?

905
00:48:36,360 --> 00:48:36,480
Speaker 4: Like?

906
00:48:37,960 --> 00:48:42,239
Speaker 17: I feel things, I feel my pulse, I feel my

907
00:48:42,440 --> 00:48:47,279
Speaker 17: cat beside me right now. But then again, could she

908
00:48:47,480 --> 00:48:48,839
Speaker 17: be a ghost too?

909
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:51,239
Speaker 10: Right like?

910
00:48:51,320 --> 00:48:53,760
Speaker 17: We could both be ghosts just living in the ghost

911
00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:56,120
Speaker 17: land of Earth.

912
00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:56,799
Speaker 3: I don't know.

913
00:48:57,320 --> 00:49:00,520
Speaker 17: Or are we in another like parallel universe We don't

914
00:49:00,520 --> 00:49:02,000
Speaker 17: know of Sam.

915
00:49:02,040 --> 00:49:07,680
Speaker 3: I get this sense from you that you maybe you

916
00:49:07,719 --> 00:49:09,480
Speaker 3: know and I get this too. I get this too.

917
00:49:09,680 --> 00:49:14,680
Speaker 3: Think think a lot about your surroundings, about who you are,

918
00:49:14,800 --> 00:49:21,840
Speaker 3: about what you're currently feeling. You know in your head? Sam.

919
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:25,960
Speaker 3: But yeah, look, I implore you, and I'm only telling you

920
00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:29,279
Speaker 3: this because I'm telling myself this as well. To be

921
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:31,919
Speaker 3: in the world more than you're thinking about your place

922
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:33,839
Speaker 3: in it, Sam.

923
00:49:34,080 --> 00:49:36,480
Speaker 17: Are we in a simulation right now?

924
00:49:37,920 --> 00:49:41,040
Speaker 3: We might be. I actually think if we were, though

925
00:49:41,239 --> 00:49:46,040
Speaker 3: it wouldn't matter the whole the question. If I had

926
00:49:46,080 --> 00:49:48,239
Speaker 3: to give my personal answer to this question, are we

927
00:49:48,320 --> 00:49:50,879
Speaker 3: in a simulation? I'd say it doesn't really matter, right,

928
00:49:50,920 --> 00:49:54,160
Speaker 3: Think about this. You woke up tomorrow morning on CNN,

929
00:49:54,320 --> 00:49:56,880
Speaker 3: on all the news places everywhere, on Twitter, everything was

930
00:49:56,920 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 3: life is confirmed to be a simulation. What would you do?

931
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:02,520
Speaker 3: Would it just be part I think I think it

932
00:50:02,520 --> 00:50:05,279
Speaker 3: would just blend into the news cycle. Oh yeah, life's

933
00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:08,200
Speaker 3: a simulation. I still gotta go to work. I still

934
00:50:08,200 --> 00:50:12,320
Speaker 3: got to feed my dog the freaking simulated pixel food.

935
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:14,520
Speaker 3: You know, we still got to do things. We still

936
00:50:14,520 --> 00:50:19,360
Speaker 3: got to live life simulation or not. Oh God, your father,

937
00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:24,400
Speaker 3: will your dad? Your cousin's still your cousin. The simulation

938
00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:26,520
Speaker 3: doesn't matter. We still would do the things that we

939
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:28,400
Speaker 3: have to do. You can't just not go to school

940
00:50:28,520 --> 00:50:34,359
Speaker 3: just because it's not real. Or maybe you can't, But what.

941
00:50:34,280 --> 00:50:35,760
Speaker 13: If you don't want to anymore?

942
00:50:35,960 --> 00:50:37,799
Speaker 17: Like what if you just want to skip out and

943
00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:41,000
Speaker 17: like go to a different country, or I don't know,

944
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:43,120
Speaker 17: eat pasta every day for the rest of your life.

945
00:50:43,160 --> 00:50:46,040
Speaker 17: See what happens, Right, Sam?

946
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:48,120
Speaker 3: It sounds like you've you' it sounds like you've defined

947
00:50:48,160 --> 00:50:50,440
Speaker 3: the goal for your life. It sounds like you've deferd

948
00:50:50,440 --> 00:50:51,560
Speaker 3: anything that you would like to do.

949
00:50:52,600 --> 00:50:54,919
Speaker 17: That is my goal in life is to just eat

950
00:50:54,960 --> 00:50:58,720
Speaker 17: all of the happiest pasta in the world and love pasta.

951
00:50:59,320 --> 00:51:00,520
Speaker 13: What's your favorite pasta?

952
00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:03,760
Speaker 3: Sam? I wish you the best of luck in achieving

953
00:51:03,800 --> 00:51:06,319
Speaker 3: that goal, and I'll be rooting for you all the way.

954
00:51:07,239 --> 00:51:09,040
Speaker 3: And by the way, I just want you to know.

955
00:51:09,719 --> 00:51:11,879
Speaker 3: I want you to know. People are going to tell

956
00:51:11,920 --> 00:51:14,960
Speaker 3: you that you're pronouncing pasta wrong. But who are they

957
00:51:15,080 --> 00:51:17,960
Speaker 3: to be the authority on anything that takes place in

958
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:22,359
Speaker 3: your version of reality? Yeah?

959
00:51:22,440 --> 00:51:25,280
Speaker 17: Correct, you too, Love you, GK.

960
00:51:26,840 --> 00:51:28,920
Speaker 1: All from worrying.

961
00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:33,640
Speaker 12: Hello, Hey, how's it going, gek?

962
00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:35,799
Speaker 3: How do you know you're not dead?

963
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:38,320
Speaker 12: Hmmm?

964
00:51:39,400 --> 00:51:47,400
Speaker 15: So I was thinking that it doesn't matter because if

965
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:54,280
Speaker 15: it's true that we are dead, and there's other existences

966
00:51:54,360 --> 00:51:57,799
Speaker 15: and they would be relative to the existence that they're in.

967
00:51:58,719 --> 00:52:02,720
Speaker 15: So if we are dead now, but we can witness

968
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:06,920
Speaker 15: babies being born, old people dying, young people dying too early,

969
00:52:08,400 --> 00:52:13,000
Speaker 15: then this is it. You know, it's all relative. So

970
00:52:13,080 --> 00:52:15,840
Speaker 15: if we're dead now, well this is our dead life.

971
00:52:15,880 --> 00:52:21,160
Speaker 15: And so to me, that's why the question not to

972
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:24,800
Speaker 15: say your question doesn't matter, But if someone's actually worried

973
00:52:24,840 --> 00:52:29,239
Speaker 15: about that, then just know it's relative and enjoy this

974
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:33,719
Speaker 15: death life whatever they might think. It is simulation.

975
00:52:36,160 --> 00:52:38,880
Speaker 3: How do you like to enjoy the simulation the death life?

976
00:52:39,640 --> 00:52:40,120
Speaker 7: What do you do?

977
00:52:42,080 --> 00:52:45,480
Speaker 15: I don't think it's true, But how do I enjoy it?

978
00:52:49,400 --> 00:52:57,600
Speaker 15: I just I hang out with my wife and that's

979
00:52:58,120 --> 00:53:00,279
Speaker 15: now all I do. Now, I just moved. You meet

980
00:53:00,280 --> 00:53:06,000
Speaker 15: your work place with not any friends. But I met

981
00:53:06,040 --> 00:53:07,120
Speaker 15: her in college.

982
00:53:08,280 --> 00:53:09,640
Speaker 3: All class.

983
00:53:10,600 --> 00:53:12,360
Speaker 15: At the library, actually.

984
00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:17,120
Speaker 3: Studying for Remember the first to her when you saw

985
00:53:17,160 --> 00:53:23,160
Speaker 3: her in the library.

986
00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:28,400
Speaker 15: The first thing I said to her? Yes, probably just high,

987
00:53:28,719 --> 00:53:33,640
Speaker 15: you know she I remember she talked to me. I

988
00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:37,200
Speaker 15: think first we were sitting down, and there was.

989
00:53:39,440 --> 00:53:40,480
Speaker 12: I was sitting.

990
00:53:40,239 --> 00:53:43,840
Speaker 15: Down first, there was an empty seat, and then another guy,

991
00:53:43,960 --> 00:53:46,240
Speaker 15: and so she sat down right between us and started

992
00:53:46,239 --> 00:53:48,759
Speaker 15: talking to him first. But when he got up, then

993
00:53:48,840 --> 00:53:51,160
Speaker 15: I started talking to her. I don't remember the first words,

994
00:53:51,200 --> 00:53:55,600
Speaker 15: but that's how it how it went, and how the

995
00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:56,720
Speaker 15: conversation started.

996
00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:02,319
Speaker 3: How do you see? Do you feel bad that you

997
00:54:02,360 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 3: were the second guy that she talked to? Like the

998
00:54:05,320 --> 00:54:07,360
Speaker 3: guy she was having a pretty good conversation with the

999
00:54:07,360 --> 00:54:08,799
Speaker 3: first guy and then he got up to leave, and

1000
00:54:08,800 --> 00:54:12,920
Speaker 3: you were sort of like a second place conversation or.

1001
00:54:12,920 --> 00:54:16,640
Speaker 15: Is that I wasn't thinking that. Now I'll tell her,

1002
00:54:16,719 --> 00:54:20,279
Speaker 15: like I'll tease her about that, like, what was going on?

1003
00:54:20,320 --> 00:54:22,440
Speaker 15: You were flirting with that guy before me, but she

1004
00:54:22,440 --> 00:54:24,160
Speaker 15: didn't know who I was, so I don't really care.

1005
00:54:24,880 --> 00:54:27,880
Speaker 3: Let me ask you one final question. Yeah, do you

1006
00:54:27,960 --> 00:54:29,840
Speaker 3: believe when you look.

1007
00:54:29,719 --> 00:54:34,400
Speaker 15: Back, how will you twenty seven through twenty.

1008
00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:36,279
Speaker 3: Seven, all the great things that have happened to you

1009
00:54:36,320 --> 00:54:41,560
Speaker 3: in your life? How many of them? What percentage of

1010
00:54:41,640 --> 00:54:47,439
Speaker 3: them did you initiate versus they happened upon you, such

1011
00:54:47,520 --> 00:54:51,640
Speaker 3: as your wife talking to you first.

1012
00:54:52,880 --> 00:54:59,239
Speaker 15: I feel like most a lot of great things are

1013
00:54:59,280 --> 00:55:01,200
Speaker 15: from me in this shooting, because at the end of

1014
00:55:01,200 --> 00:55:03,879
Speaker 15: the day I asked for her number when she left

1015
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:07,320
Speaker 15: the table, Yes, and other.

1016
00:55:07,120 --> 00:55:11,719
Speaker 3: Things, but you know, yes, yes, you're getting the you

1017
00:55:11,719 --> 00:55:14,439
Speaker 3: could get balanced, right you you you you You're lucky

1018
00:55:14,520 --> 00:55:17,440
Speaker 3: enough to have ran into many pitches.

1019
00:55:18,920 --> 00:55:19,440
Speaker 9: Very lucky.

1020
00:55:20,080 --> 00:55:22,200
Speaker 3: Yes, And at the end of the day you're the

1021
00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:26,040
Speaker 3: one hitting them out of the park. I like that

1022
00:55:26,120 --> 00:55:27,640
Speaker 3: for you. What did you say?

1023
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:32,960
Speaker 15: Her name was, Blaine?

1024
00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:35,319
Speaker 3: I love you, Lane, you have a rest of the night.

1025
00:55:36,000 --> 00:55:36,759
Speaker 12: Hey you too.

1026
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:37,000
Speaker 18: Man.

1027
00:55:39,680 --> 00:55:45,280
Speaker 3: Later, a kid named Lane bullied me in high school actually,

1028
00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:49,399
Speaker 3: and now he follows me on Instagram and I post

1029
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:56,040
Speaker 3: clips of this stream and he likes them. So I guess.

1030
00:55:56,160 --> 00:55:57,120
Speaker 3: I guess we're cool now.

1031
00:55:58,640 --> 00:56:02,720
Speaker 1: Paul from Rico, Rico.

1032
00:56:03,760 --> 00:56:05,040
Speaker 7: Oh my god.

1033
00:56:05,840 --> 00:56:07,520
Speaker 6: I was eating a sandwich and you.

1034
00:56:07,600 --> 00:56:10,520
Speaker 3: Answered, Wow, what kind of sandwiches.

1035
00:56:11,600 --> 00:56:17,800
Speaker 7: It's a sandwich from Jersey mics. It's got provolone, roast, beef, turkey,

1036
00:56:18,160 --> 00:56:18,760
Speaker 7: and bacon.

1037
00:56:19,960 --> 00:56:21,320
Speaker 3: M that sounds delicious.

1038
00:56:22,239 --> 00:56:25,279
Speaker 6: Oh it is, it is.

1039
00:56:26,719 --> 00:56:28,440
Speaker 3: That's how I normally finished. Do you want me to

1040
00:56:28,480 --> 00:56:30,600
Speaker 3: let you finish eating this sandwich before we move on?

1041
00:56:32,440 --> 00:56:33,279
Speaker 6: I just spit it out.

1042
00:56:33,719 --> 00:56:37,680
Speaker 3: Cool, you spit it out? Yeah, listen, I would have

1043
00:56:37,800 --> 00:56:39,880
Speaker 3: let you finish. Listen, man, I would have let you

1044
00:56:39,920 --> 00:56:44,719
Speaker 3: finish that one bite's.

1045
00:56:42,920 --> 00:56:46,120
Speaker 7: A little bit out. It was just spread at that point.

1046
00:56:48,640 --> 00:56:50,440
Speaker 3: When you say it's just bread, I feel like bread

1047
00:56:50,480 --> 00:56:52,880
Speaker 3: is an integral part of the sandwich and the bread.

1048
00:56:53,160 --> 00:56:54,799
Speaker 3: You would have wanted the bread to be the part

1049
00:56:54,800 --> 00:56:56,720
Speaker 3: of the bite.

1050
00:56:58,280 --> 00:56:59,880
Speaker 7: Yeah.

1051
00:57:00,280 --> 00:57:07,399
Speaker 3: Yeah, How do you know you're not dead? Pain?

1052
00:57:09,760 --> 00:57:11,640
Speaker 7: I wouldn't choose to be in pain. I don't think

1053
00:57:11,680 --> 00:57:17,200
Speaker 7: anybody would like those memes. Sometimes I kind of have

1054
00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:17,520
Speaker 7: like a.

1055
00:57:19,000 --> 00:57:19,280
Speaker 6: Both.

1056
00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:22,800
Speaker 7: I mean, every way you deal it, something happens.

1057
00:57:23,280 --> 00:57:25,440
Speaker 9: M hm hm.

1058
00:57:26,040 --> 00:57:26,200
Speaker 12: Yeah.

1059
00:57:26,360 --> 00:57:28,280
Speaker 3: Some must recent painful experience you had.

1060
00:57:33,400 --> 00:57:35,960
Speaker 7: It's weird, it's it was a painful experience, but like

1061
00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:40,920
Speaker 7: good to some people. Sure, Uh my dad looked at

1062
00:57:40,960 --> 00:57:42,680
Speaker 7: me and wanted to be me. For a second, I

1063
00:57:42,760 --> 00:57:44,720
Speaker 7: was just like fuck you.

1064
00:57:46,880 --> 00:57:48,560
Speaker 3: You said he wanted to be you.

1065
00:57:50,120 --> 00:57:53,080
Speaker 7: Yeah, like he looked at me like I'd always wanted

1066
00:57:53,120 --> 00:57:55,520
Speaker 7: to look at me like as a kid, but he

1067
00:57:55,640 --> 00:57:58,440
Speaker 7: like hated me, and like he looked at me and

1068
00:57:58,480 --> 00:58:01,120
Speaker 7: he just smiled and he's just like, don't cut your hair.

1069
00:58:02,240 --> 00:58:05,400
Speaker 7: I was like, in my head, just like fuck you.

1070
00:58:07,080 --> 00:58:12,240
Speaker 3: But yeah, why was it painful that your dad was

1071
00:58:12,440 --> 00:58:13,040
Speaker 3: envious of you?

1072
00:58:15,240 --> 00:58:15,360
Speaker 19: Uh?

1073
00:58:15,720 --> 00:58:17,680
Speaker 7: Yeah, like I said, he just like as a kid,

1074
00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:22,480
Speaker 7: he just wanted to live vicariously through me. But I

1075
00:58:22,640 --> 00:58:25,520
Speaker 7: kind of figured that I as an adult. But it's

1076
00:58:25,520 --> 00:58:26,280
Speaker 7: so cool now.

1077
00:58:28,120 --> 00:58:30,040
Speaker 3: Because do you feel like because he wanted to live

1078
00:58:30,160 --> 00:58:33,920
Speaker 3: vicariously through you, he tried to dictate a lot of

1079
00:58:34,000 --> 00:58:34,560
Speaker 3: your actions.

1080
00:58:35,680 --> 00:58:39,560
Speaker 7: Yeah yeah, but now I'm an adult and like you

1081
00:58:39,640 --> 00:58:46,040
Speaker 7: can't you know, really do shit. So it's my life, right.

1082
00:58:47,880 --> 00:58:48,040
Speaker 6: You know.

1083
00:58:48,080 --> 00:58:52,120
Speaker 3: It's funny because you said that you view this as

1084
00:58:52,160 --> 00:58:55,240
Speaker 3: a painful experience, but that you even said yourself that

1085
00:58:55,320 --> 00:59:01,480
Speaker 3: others might not view it that way. Yeah, because you know,

1086
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:03,160
Speaker 3: when I think of it, I think of it like

1087
00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:07,880
Speaker 3: you know, how well, Leo twenty nine, twenty nine. Your

1088
00:59:07,920 --> 00:59:10,920
Speaker 3: father's envious of your youth. You know, he knows that

1089
00:59:11,000 --> 00:59:15,480
Speaker 3: you have something valuable, right, Yes, even though you know

1090
00:59:15,600 --> 00:59:18,760
Speaker 3: it's caused you a lot of pain to have to

1091
00:59:20,240 --> 00:59:24,200
Speaker 3: take his direction. I feel like this experience it could

1092
00:59:24,240 --> 00:59:28,840
Speaker 3: help you even maybe realize the the the valuable thing

1093
00:59:28,960 --> 00:59:32,520
Speaker 3: you have. You know, your youth can inspire by that.

1094
00:59:33,800 --> 00:59:35,760
Speaker 7: I'm going to be eatful until the day I did.

1095
00:59:35,880 --> 00:59:37,840
Speaker 7: I like, I'm gonna be that old man like, you know,

1096
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:41,479
Speaker 7: doing crazy shit, smoking weed, having fun. I like jokes.

1097
00:59:42,240 --> 00:59:43,520
Speaker 7: I like that is eternal.

1098
00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:44,720
Speaker 9: I like that.

1099
00:59:45,080 --> 00:59:45,959
Speaker 3: Stay young, my friend.

1100
00:59:46,840 --> 00:59:50,360
Speaker 7: Thank you, stay sticky, have a good night. Thanks, thank.

1101
00:59:52,680 --> 00:59:55,600
Speaker 1: All. From Jose Jose.

1102
00:59:56,720 --> 00:59:59,480
Speaker 3: Hello, do you like when people say your name? Does

1103
00:59:59,480 --> 01:00:00,960
Speaker 3: it give you a all hit of dopamine?

1104
01:00:01,840 --> 01:00:01,880
Speaker 12: No?

1105
01:00:03,080 --> 01:00:03,560
Speaker 3: No, why not?

1106
01:00:04,920 --> 01:00:05,840
Speaker 20: You can call me anything.

1107
01:00:07,040 --> 01:00:10,480
Speaker 3: I'm on speakerphone right now. Yes, would you mind thinking

1108
01:00:10,520 --> 01:00:11,920
Speaker 3: me on speakerphone? It's a little hard to hear you.

1109
01:00:13,880 --> 01:00:14,360
Speaker 20: Is that better?

1110
01:00:15,040 --> 01:00:18,800
Speaker 3: Much better? Because you know some people I've heard this.

1111
01:00:18,960 --> 01:00:20,640
Speaker 3: I've heard this. I talked about this the other night.

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Speaker 3: I've heard this. It's all over the internet. People saying things,

1113
01:00:24,240 --> 01:00:27,960
Speaker 3: the people saying I don't want to be perceived.

1114
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Speaker 6: Have you heard this?

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Speaker 20: Yes?

1116
01:00:33,080 --> 01:00:35,320
Speaker 3: Where do you lie on the spectrum of I don't

1117
01:00:35,360 --> 01:00:39,760
Speaker 3: want to be perceived to I enjoy copious amounts of attention.

1118
01:00:44,800 --> 01:00:50,439
Speaker 20: I don't really think about my own perception, but really

1119
01:00:52,200 --> 01:00:54,440
Speaker 20: I did. At one time. You used to enjoy copious

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Speaker 20: amounts of attention?

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01:00:56,600 --> 01:00:59,600
Speaker 3: Mhm. And what happened to change that.

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01:01:02,320 --> 01:01:04,000
Speaker 20: I started living in the world more.

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Speaker 3: Tell me about the time period that you've enjoyed receiving

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Speaker 3: copious amounts of attention. What were you receiving? What were

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01:01:16,280 --> 01:01:18,240
Speaker 3: you receiving copious amounts of attention for.

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01:01:20,600 --> 01:01:25,160
Speaker 20: Being five or six years old? You know you can

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01:01:25,320 --> 01:01:27,040
Speaker 20: fart and someone would be happy with you.

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Speaker 3: What else would you do for attention? Would you act up?

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01:01:34,960 --> 01:01:37,080
Speaker 3: Would you bite other children? Would you break things?

1130
01:01:42,160 --> 01:01:42,280
Speaker 12: Now?

1131
01:01:43,640 --> 01:01:44,600
Speaker 20: I didn't have fun like that?

1132
01:01:47,560 --> 01:01:51,680
Speaker 3: M okay. So about how old were you when you

1133
01:01:51,800 --> 01:01:58,280
Speaker 3: stopped having such a strong desire for attention? Eighteen eighteen? Yeah, okay,

1134
01:01:58,320 --> 01:02:03,200
Speaker 3: so we do. We're in high school? Were you? Why

1135
01:02:03,320 --> 01:02:05,840
Speaker 3: was that a Actually when I dropped out, you dropped out.

1136
01:02:07,880 --> 01:02:11,280
Speaker 3: But when you were sixteen, you know, a young adult,

1137
01:02:12,440 --> 01:02:16,120
Speaker 3: a much different situation being a farting five year old,

1138
01:02:16,200 --> 01:02:17,520
Speaker 3: would you do things for attention.

1139
01:02:19,040 --> 01:02:21,680
Speaker 20: No, because a sixteen year old farting isn't cute.

1140
01:02:22,880 --> 01:02:24,440
Speaker 3: No, I don't mean that. I don't mean would you

1141
01:02:24,480 --> 01:02:26,480
Speaker 3: do those specific things for attention that you do when

1142
01:02:26,480 --> 01:02:28,360
Speaker 3: you were five? I mean would you in general do

1143
01:02:28,880 --> 01:02:29,800
Speaker 3: things for attention?

1144
01:02:31,520 --> 01:02:32,200
Speaker 20: Yes? I would.

1145
01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:33,520
Speaker 3: What would you do?

1146
01:02:37,600 --> 01:02:44,320
Speaker 20: Make fun of my friends? Make fun of teachers? Act up?

1147
01:02:45,240 --> 01:02:50,920
Speaker 3: Mh. You know what's so weird about being in school?

1148
01:02:51,160 --> 01:02:51,440
Speaker 7: Is that?

1149
01:02:52,320 --> 01:02:54,400
Speaker 3: Is that? And this is at this is true. I'm

1150
01:02:54,400 --> 01:02:56,280
Speaker 3: actually remembering this now because I haven't thought about it

1151
01:02:56,320 --> 01:03:00,280
Speaker 3: in a while. But it's weird in high school. In

1152
01:03:00,320 --> 01:03:06,320
Speaker 3: middle school, bullying other kids with other kids brings the

1153
01:03:06,440 --> 01:03:10,320
Speaker 3: kid that you're bullying the other kids with. He brings

1154
01:03:10,360 --> 01:03:14,200
Speaker 3: you guys closer together, Like if you and another person

1155
01:03:14,360 --> 01:03:16,240
Speaker 3: make fun of a kid together, it brings you and

1156
01:03:16,320 --> 01:03:19,000
Speaker 3: that other person a little bit closer.

1157
01:03:19,720 --> 01:03:19,880
Speaker 7: You know.

1158
01:03:19,920 --> 01:03:22,160
Speaker 20: It's funny even brought those kids that we made fun

1159
01:03:22,240 --> 01:03:23,760
Speaker 20: of together with us.

1160
01:03:27,760 --> 01:03:29,000
Speaker 3: Sometimes maybe.

1161
01:03:29,840 --> 01:03:31,800
Speaker 20: I mean I was mostly making fun of my friends.

1162
01:03:31,840 --> 01:03:33,600
Speaker 20: I didn't care what other people were doing.

1163
01:03:34,240 --> 01:03:38,600
Speaker 3: Sure, I know. I remember in middle school, if you

1164
01:03:38,800 --> 01:03:42,160
Speaker 3: hated someone and someone else hated someone, you would form

1165
01:03:42,160 --> 01:03:45,120
Speaker 3: an alliance over your mutual hatred of the person. I'm

1166
01:03:45,120 --> 01:03:47,280
Speaker 3: not talking about a lighthearted ridding here. I'm talking about,

1167
01:03:48,440 --> 01:03:51,960
Speaker 3: you know, making kids not want to come to school.

1168
01:03:53,360 --> 01:03:55,040
Speaker 20: Oh geez no, no, no, no, no, no, no no,

1169
01:03:56,280 --> 01:04:00,479
Speaker 20: that's that's that's our breaking that part.

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Speaker 6: M hm.

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01:04:04,360 --> 01:04:06,600
Speaker 3: So you'd make fun of teachers, You'd make fun of kids.

1172
01:04:07,480 --> 01:04:08,880
Speaker 20: I'd make fun of teachers all the time.

1173
01:04:09,680 --> 01:04:13,440
Speaker 3: Really, do you think it made them like you? Do

1174
01:04:13,520 --> 01:04:14,840
Speaker 3: you think it? Do you think the fact that you

1175
01:04:14,960 --> 01:04:19,280
Speaker 3: made fun of them, you didn't default to giving them

1176
01:04:19,320 --> 01:04:21,960
Speaker 3: your respect, made them try even harder to earn it.

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01:04:23,000 --> 01:04:24,920
Speaker 20: There were a few. I bet you know at that

1178
01:04:25,040 --> 01:04:26,920
Speaker 20: age you don't really give a shit though, because you're

1179
01:04:26,960 --> 01:04:27,840
Speaker 20: just a shithead kid.

1180
01:04:28,640 --> 01:04:28,840
Speaker 6: Yeah.

1181
01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:31,760
Speaker 20: Sorry, I'm not sure if I'm allowed to really curse

1182
01:04:31,800 --> 01:04:32,000
Speaker 20: on this.

1183
01:04:32,360 --> 01:04:35,240
Speaker 3: You can say whatever you want here within reason. Okay,

1184
01:04:38,120 --> 01:04:38,760
Speaker 3: how old you now?

1185
01:04:40,400 --> 01:04:40,919
Speaker 20: Thirty three?

1186
01:04:41,920 --> 01:04:44,400
Speaker 3: Thirty three? And are you comfortable with the amount of

1187
01:04:44,440 --> 01:04:46,280
Speaker 3: ascension that you receive as a thirty three year old?

1188
01:04:46,320 --> 01:04:46,440
Speaker 6: Man?

1189
01:04:46,800 --> 01:04:46,960
Speaker 9: Oh?

1190
01:04:47,040 --> 01:04:48,680
Speaker 20: I get way too, I get more than I want.

1191
01:04:48,680 --> 01:04:50,920
Speaker 20: I want to be ignored. That's why I liked the

1192
01:04:51,000 --> 01:04:51,840
Speaker 20: COVID masks.

1193
01:04:52,600 --> 01:04:56,720
Speaker 3: Mhm. I like that too. Yeah, helps you feel a

1194
01:04:56,760 --> 01:04:57,600
Speaker 3: little bit more anonymous.

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01:04:58,280 --> 01:04:58,680
Speaker 20: Mm hmm.

1196
01:04:59,520 --> 01:05:00,880
Speaker 3: You feel like he get too much attention.

1197
01:05:01,880 --> 01:05:04,360
Speaker 20: No, but anonymity is amazing.

1198
01:05:05,800 --> 01:05:08,560
Speaker 3: Why do you like animate aemy?

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01:05:13,280 --> 01:05:17,280
Speaker 20: That's a good question, probably because maybe what you had

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01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:19,959
Speaker 20: asked me earlier, I had been spending all that time

1201
01:05:20,040 --> 01:05:23,640
Speaker 20: as a teen, as a young adult looking for attention,

1202
01:05:23,720 --> 01:05:25,960
Speaker 20: and then when it finally comes your way, it's not

1203
01:05:26,360 --> 01:05:31,200
Speaker 20: what you really thought it would be. It's exhausting. You

1204
01:05:31,280 --> 01:05:33,680
Speaker 20: know people can be exhausting, don't you think?

1205
01:05:34,920 --> 01:05:35,040
Speaker 15: Oh?

1206
01:05:35,160 --> 01:05:39,240
Speaker 20: Yeah, absolutely, they could be really tiring. You know, they

1207
01:05:39,320 --> 01:05:43,560
Speaker 20: have their problems. You don't get a second to even

1208
01:05:43,600 --> 01:05:51,720
Speaker 20: talk about your problems, and then now you're left smoking

1209
01:05:51,720 --> 01:05:53,480
Speaker 20: a cigarette in the darkness while the rainfalls.

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Speaker 3: Very poetic. No, I agree with you, though, Yeah, a

1211
01:06:01,080 --> 01:06:04,720
Speaker 3: lot of attention can definitely be exhausting. I feel you

1212
01:06:04,880 --> 01:06:10,080
Speaker 3: on that it would be nice to be anonymous. Being

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01:06:10,120 --> 01:06:12,800
Speaker 3: anonymous and rich would be cool. Like no one knowing

1214
01:06:12,840 --> 01:06:16,920
Speaker 3: who you are, but having a billion dollars. Maybe you

1215
01:06:17,000 --> 01:06:19,560
Speaker 3: just go somewhere, you.

1216
01:06:19,640 --> 01:06:21,400
Speaker 20: Just resting a T shirt and jeans, and no one

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01:06:21,440 --> 01:06:23,280
Speaker 20: knows that you've got a billion dollars in your pocket.

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01:06:24,080 --> 01:06:26,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, how much money do you have to your name?

1219
01:06:28,600 --> 01:06:31,040
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, how much money do you have to your name?

1220
01:06:32,280 --> 01:06:36,560
Speaker 20: I don't even know. That's how anonymous I try to be,

1221
01:06:37,600 --> 01:06:38,360
Speaker 20: even to myself.

1222
01:06:40,240 --> 01:06:41,520
Speaker 3: There's a pleasure speaking with Jose.

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01:06:41,760 --> 01:06:43,320
Speaker 1: You have a good rest of the night, you too,

1224
01:06:46,280 --> 01:06:51,680
Speaker 1: Paul from Paul, how.

1225
01:06:53,240 --> 01:06:56,080
Speaker 20: Do we know we're alive? I have an answer.

1226
01:06:56,240 --> 01:06:57,120
Speaker 5: I think I have an answer.

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01:06:58,840 --> 01:07:03,680
Speaker 6: What how do we know we're alive?

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01:07:04,080 --> 01:07:11,040
Speaker 5: I think I have an answer. Okay, Renee their car said,

1229
01:07:11,080 --> 01:07:16,360
Speaker 5: I think therefore I am is the mere feeling of

1230
01:07:16,520 --> 01:07:22,600
Speaker 5: experience necessitates that one is a lot. I don't think

1231
01:07:23,920 --> 01:07:26,560
Speaker 5: by virtue of being dead, you don't experience anything.

1232
01:07:27,440 --> 01:07:29,200
Speaker 3: Well, let me tell you something about Renee of the card.

1233
01:07:33,000 --> 01:07:37,000
Speaker 3: He's dead as shit, so nothing he and look when

1234
01:07:37,000 --> 01:07:38,720
Speaker 3: you here's the thing. No, people don't know this, but

1235
01:07:38,800 --> 01:07:43,760
Speaker 3: when you die, nothing you did while you were alive.

1236
01:07:46,520 --> 01:07:51,520
Speaker 3: It matters anymore. You're dead now, just I you know, look,

1237
01:07:51,960 --> 01:07:53,600
Speaker 3: I'm sure he was great when he was alive. But

1238
01:07:53,720 --> 01:07:58,080
Speaker 3: there's no people I try to I don't. Look, I don't.

1239
01:07:58,120 --> 01:08:00,840
Speaker 3: I don't really pay that much attention to history historical figures,

1240
01:08:00,840 --> 01:08:02,240
Speaker 3: because I just I don't live in the past.

1241
01:08:03,760 --> 01:08:06,440
Speaker 9: You know, fair fair? Well, then what do you think

1242
01:08:06,480 --> 01:08:06,960
Speaker 9: about the note?

1243
01:08:07,000 --> 01:08:07,400
Speaker 7: You're done?

1244
01:08:07,480 --> 01:08:09,520
Speaker 3: I don't like the side thing where people write books

1245
01:08:10,560 --> 01:08:13,560
Speaker 3: and they're like and then you read them and it's

1246
01:08:13,560 --> 01:08:15,160
Speaker 3: like they're trying to tell you stuff even though they're

1247
01:08:15,160 --> 01:08:18,040
Speaker 3: already dead. It's like you're dead. You leave, there's new

1248
01:08:18,080 --> 01:08:19,240
Speaker 3: people in the world.

1249
01:08:20,120 --> 01:08:20,599
Speaker 4: New thought.

1250
01:08:20,680 --> 01:08:23,240
Speaker 3: Well, I'll totally see them because they know more than

1251
01:08:23,280 --> 01:08:26,960
Speaker 3: you do, because they're still alive. So I'm sure Reneede

1252
01:08:26,960 --> 01:08:29,559
Speaker 3: Decard at the time that he was living in fourteen

1253
01:08:29,720 --> 01:08:33,839
Speaker 3: ninety five or whatever, was smart. But he's not smart anymore.

1254
01:08:33,880 --> 01:08:36,320
Speaker 3: He's dead. And I mean, I don't even think we

1255
01:08:36,320 --> 01:08:39,479
Speaker 3: should read any of his books anymore. Because he had

1256
01:08:39,560 --> 01:08:41,280
Speaker 3: his chan, he had his chance to tell us all

1257
01:08:41,320 --> 01:08:43,519
Speaker 3: the stuff he wanted to tell us. But he's dead

1258
01:08:43,600 --> 01:08:47,559
Speaker 3: now it's over. He needs to learn when to throw

1259
01:08:47,600 --> 01:08:52,000
Speaker 3: in the towel. So what'd you say? Your name was Paul, Paul.

1260
01:08:52,040 --> 01:08:58,639
Speaker 3: I appreciate you bring this to my attention, but you know, look,

1261
01:08:58,720 --> 01:09:01,080
Speaker 3: try to get try to get your inspiration from someone

1262
01:09:01,200 --> 01:09:04,200
Speaker 3: who's alive, because people who are alive no more than

1263
01:09:04,240 --> 01:09:05,920
Speaker 3: people who are dead. That's just what I believe.

1264
01:09:06,280 --> 01:09:10,120
Speaker 6: Thank you so much for thanks gag you have for

1265
01:09:10,160 --> 01:09:10,760
Speaker 6: the rest of the night.

1266
01:09:11,360 --> 01:09:11,800
Speaker 7: I love you.

1267
01:09:12,720 --> 01:09:13,400
Speaker 3: I love you too.

1268
01:09:15,640 --> 01:09:16,840
Speaker 1: All from then.

1269
01:09:19,280 --> 01:09:24,760
Speaker 4: Hello, Hey Gek, longtime watcher for first time caller. I've

1270
01:09:24,760 --> 01:09:26,520
Speaker 4: thought a lot about your question for tonight.

1271
01:09:27,040 --> 01:09:29,200
Speaker 7: Here, all right, So, I.

1272
01:09:29,240 --> 01:09:32,880
Speaker 4: Mean, well, so a few weeks ago, I was getting

1273
01:09:32,880 --> 01:09:35,960
Speaker 4: really high and I have this thought that one day

1274
01:09:35,960 --> 01:09:38,320
Speaker 4: I'm going to die and I actually don't know what's

1275
01:09:38,320 --> 01:09:43,439
Speaker 4: going to happen. And so it made me think about

1276
01:09:43,479 --> 01:09:46,800
Speaker 4: this for quite a while, and finally I came to conclusion, GEK,

1277
01:09:46,880 --> 01:09:49,760
Speaker 4: that unless I know what happens after I die, I

1278
01:09:49,880 --> 01:09:53,519
Speaker 4: don't know if I'm dead or not m And so

1279
01:09:53,680 --> 01:09:56,479
Speaker 4: I guess, okay, Oh, you.

1280
01:09:56,479 --> 01:09:58,559
Speaker 3: Were going to say, unless if you know what happens

1281
01:09:58,600 --> 01:10:00,840
Speaker 3: after you die, you don't know if you're dead or not, right.

1282
01:10:00,760 --> 01:10:03,400
Speaker 4: Because I mean, if it's nothing and I don't know anything,

1283
01:10:03,439 --> 01:10:06,479
Speaker 4: it's kind of like before I was born. But like

1284
01:10:06,600 --> 01:10:09,120
Speaker 4: if it's something like, oh, I go to Heaven, well

1285
01:10:09,160 --> 01:10:10,599
Speaker 4: then they're gonna tell me when I get there, Hey,

1286
01:10:10,920 --> 01:10:13,920
Speaker 4: you're dead, Welcome to the you know, welcome to the afterlife.

1287
01:10:14,479 --> 01:10:17,320
Speaker 4: And the only thing I don't know maybe it's reincarnations

1288
01:10:17,760 --> 01:10:19,800
Speaker 4: and the men. You'll never know because it's an endless loop.

1289
01:10:19,920 --> 01:10:23,960
Speaker 4: But yeah, it's it's tough to think about. But the

1290
01:10:24,000 --> 01:10:26,120
Speaker 4: biggest thing for me is it just creates the sense

1291
01:10:26,200 --> 01:10:31,360
Speaker 4: of like uncertainty, and I didn't have that before growing,

1292
01:10:31,479 --> 01:10:34,320
Speaker 4: Like I just turned twenty five, and so I just

1293
01:10:34,360 --> 01:10:37,960
Speaker 4: started getting this feeling. And I don't know, is it

1294
01:10:38,080 --> 01:10:41,920
Speaker 4: normal that people like think about death a lot after

1295
01:10:42,080 --> 01:10:42,760
Speaker 4: like a certain age.

1296
01:10:43,120 --> 01:10:43,519
Speaker 6: What about you?

1297
01:10:43,600 --> 01:10:48,240
Speaker 3: Well, I think it's good to think about deaths because, well,

1298
01:10:48,240 --> 01:10:50,280
Speaker 3: because it gives you an appreciation for life, you know.

1299
01:10:56,080 --> 01:10:57,080
Speaker 3: I mean, what do you do today?

1300
01:10:57,400 --> 01:10:57,600
Speaker 7: You know?

1301
01:10:58,360 --> 01:11:01,320
Speaker 4: I mean like that that's the thing. I feel like

1302
01:11:01,560 --> 01:11:03,600
Speaker 4: I wasted my day. I woke up, I had a

1303
01:11:04,439 --> 01:11:08,200
Speaker 4: had a coffee, you know, I went downstairs and smoked

1304
01:11:08,240 --> 01:11:11,599
Speaker 4: the bowl and you know, contemplated the world, watched the news,

1305
01:11:11,720 --> 01:11:13,880
Speaker 4: but like kind of like life is just sort of

1306
01:11:13,920 --> 01:11:16,000
Speaker 4: going by, and I look at other people's lives. I

1307
01:11:16,040 --> 01:11:18,719
Speaker 4: saw this guy just you know, I mean, like everyone's

1308
01:11:18,760 --> 01:11:20,760
Speaker 4: life is a story, right. I saw this guy who

1309
01:11:20,800 --> 01:11:23,200
Speaker 4: had just gone to jail for embezzling you know, like

1310
01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:26,200
Speaker 4: four hundred million dollars you know, from his company. And

1311
01:11:26,280 --> 01:11:28,400
Speaker 4: I'm like sitting there wondering, is this like when this

1312
01:11:28,520 --> 01:11:30,120
Speaker 4: guy was my age, and this is what he thought

1313
01:11:30,160 --> 01:11:32,560
Speaker 4: his life story was going to be, getting, you know,

1314
01:11:32,880 --> 01:11:35,760
Speaker 4: wrecked in prison because he couldn't keep his hands off

1315
01:11:35,840 --> 01:11:37,680
Speaker 4: the buddy, right are you?

1316
01:11:38,120 --> 01:11:40,080
Speaker 3: Are you saying that you wish that you were doing

1317
01:11:40,160 --> 01:11:42,759
Speaker 3: something as cool as embezzling four hundred million dollars?

1318
01:11:43,120 --> 01:11:43,160
Speaker 12: No?

1319
01:11:43,320 --> 01:11:46,800
Speaker 4: Absolutely not, Like that's the thing. I don't know what

1320
01:11:46,880 --> 01:11:48,680
Speaker 4: I think would be cool, because I don't think that

1321
01:11:48,840 --> 01:11:52,320
Speaker 4: guy probably in like retrospect, thought that was very cool,

1322
01:11:52,439 --> 01:11:53,679
Speaker 4: especially now that he's in prison.

1323
01:11:54,920 --> 01:11:54,960
Speaker 6: No.

1324
01:11:55,080 --> 01:11:56,920
Speaker 3: I well, okay, I know when he got caught it

1325
01:11:57,000 --> 01:11:58,400
Speaker 3: was probably not cool, but no, at the time, he

1326
01:11:58,479 --> 01:12:01,280
Speaker 3: absolutely thought it was super cool. He had he at

1327
01:12:01,280 --> 01:12:03,160
Speaker 3: the time he had four hundred million dollars, which oh,

1328
01:12:03,200 --> 01:12:04,280
Speaker 3: absolutely is pretty rare.

1329
01:12:04,360 --> 01:12:07,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think, I mean yeah, And like that's the

1330
01:12:07,320 --> 01:12:10,080
Speaker 4: thing is, like, does it actually have consequence if we

1331
01:12:10,240 --> 01:12:13,080
Speaker 4: just turned into nothing when we die and back to

1332
01:12:13,320 --> 01:12:15,880
Speaker 4: the simulation that the other collar was talking about, Like

1333
01:12:16,040 --> 01:12:19,120
Speaker 4: I mean simulation or just turning to dust and you know,

1334
01:12:19,240 --> 01:12:21,759
Speaker 4: being a speck in the billion year span at the universe.

1335
01:12:22,600 --> 01:12:25,120
Speaker 4: Does feeling four hundred million you know, made up pieces

1336
01:12:25,160 --> 01:12:26,719
Speaker 4: of paper really matter?

1337
01:12:27,439 --> 01:12:35,479
Speaker 3: M h, Well what do you think? Mmmm? It seems

1338
01:12:35,479 --> 01:12:39,360
Speaker 3: like you're becoming aware of your own mortality, which, like

1339
01:12:39,400 --> 01:12:43,280
Speaker 3: I said, is good because we live our lives all

1340
01:12:43,280 --> 01:12:46,080
Speaker 3: the time, like we're not gonna, you know, just fucking die. Sure,

1341
01:12:46,880 --> 01:12:49,160
Speaker 3: but if you think every single day that you're going

1342
01:12:49,200 --> 01:12:52,720
Speaker 3: to fucking die, then I feel like you would live

1343
01:12:52,760 --> 01:12:53,639
Speaker 3: your life with more intent.

1344
01:12:54,920 --> 01:12:56,760
Speaker 4: That's that's kind of how I feel right now.

1345
01:12:57,080 --> 01:12:59,160
Speaker 7: It's just the position.

1346
01:12:59,600 --> 01:13:02,679
Speaker 4: It's another like existential issues, like the position of my life.

1347
01:13:02,920 --> 01:13:05,439
Speaker 3: Tell me something, But tell me something. If you were

1348
01:13:05,479 --> 01:13:07,280
Speaker 3: living your life with more intent, what would your life

1349
01:13:07,320 --> 01:13:09,040
Speaker 3: look like? What would you be doing every day?

1350
01:13:09,720 --> 01:13:15,120
Speaker 4: I would probably be like out in Central Asia driving

1351
01:13:15,160 --> 01:13:17,920
Speaker 4: around in like a Toyota land Cruiser, just exploring and

1352
01:13:18,120 --> 01:13:21,920
Speaker 4: like meeting like local village people and doing Ryan horses

1353
01:13:22,000 --> 01:13:28,080
Speaker 4: and learning falconry no bullshit. Right now in cash like

1354
01:13:28,280 --> 01:13:31,719
Speaker 4: ten grand in crypto about like eight well.

1355
01:13:31,640 --> 01:13:32,759
Speaker 9: Probably not as much today.

1356
01:13:33,000 --> 01:13:37,519
Speaker 4: And then like forty k and stocks forty k and stocks, yeah,

1357
01:13:39,560 --> 01:13:42,920
Speaker 4: I hold it called PSTH That's pretty awesome.

1358
01:13:42,920 --> 01:13:45,080
Speaker 3: I mean, look, okay, so your net worth is like,

1359
01:13:45,479 --> 01:13:48,920
Speaker 3: you know, like sixty k. Yeah, you have sixty k.

1360
01:13:49,200 --> 01:13:54,240
Speaker 3: Sell some fucking stock, Okay, And then go do you

1361
01:13:54,280 --> 01:13:54,720
Speaker 3: have a job.

1362
01:13:55,920 --> 01:13:57,519
Speaker 4: It's like a work from wherever job?

1363
01:13:58,200 --> 01:14:01,040
Speaker 3: Oh, go to Central Asia or I don't know, I

1364
01:14:01,080 --> 01:14:02,640
Speaker 3: don't know if you can go to Central Asia right now?

1365
01:14:02,720 --> 01:14:03,760
Speaker 3: But go somewhere you can go.

1366
01:14:04,160 --> 01:14:07,160
Speaker 4: You know what I'm gonna I'm gonna book the ticket right.

1367
01:14:07,160 --> 01:14:07,960
Speaker 3: The book a hostel.

1368
01:14:08,200 --> 01:14:09,000
Speaker 1: Book a hostel.

1369
01:14:09,680 --> 01:14:12,960
Speaker 3: Okay, go alone and start talking to other people, because

1370
01:14:12,960 --> 01:14:15,559
Speaker 3: it's gonna be other people your age at the hostel

1371
01:14:15,760 --> 01:14:16,160
Speaker 3: and do it.

1372
01:14:16,360 --> 01:14:18,559
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm gonna book the ticket right now.

1373
01:14:20,120 --> 01:14:27,160
Speaker 1: Absolutely, good night you too, all from Naomio, Naomio.

1374
01:14:28,280 --> 01:14:32,640
Speaker 3: Oh hi, Naomio. I have a question for you.

1375
01:14:33,160 --> 01:14:35,519
Speaker 5: Yep, how do we know?

1376
01:14:36,439 --> 01:14:40,040
Speaker 3: How do you know you're not dead? I don't know.

1377
01:14:41,240 --> 01:14:42,000
Speaker 3: Does that scare you?

1378
01:14:48,520 --> 01:14:48,920
Speaker 21: Sometimes?

1379
01:14:49,000 --> 01:14:49,560
Speaker 13: It scares me?

1380
01:14:52,080 --> 01:14:53,599
Speaker 3: Does it scare you today?

1381
01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:56,880
Speaker 6: Not?

1382
01:14:57,080 --> 01:14:57,400
Speaker 7: Right now?

1383
01:14:59,200 --> 01:15:00,920
Speaker 3: Why do you think it does to scare you? Right now?

1384
01:15:05,680 --> 01:15:09,519
Speaker 16: I'm feeling I'm feeling optimistic today, I'm feeling happy today.

1385
01:15:11,520 --> 01:15:13,439
Speaker 3: Do you typically feel optimistic.

1386
01:15:14,800 --> 01:15:15,280
Speaker 4: Typically?

1387
01:15:15,439 --> 01:15:15,639
Speaker 1: Yes?

1388
01:15:17,760 --> 01:15:27,120
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. What do you think is the prime reason

1389
01:15:28,479 --> 01:15:30,880
Speaker 3: why you so often feel optimistic?

1390
01:15:37,080 --> 01:15:40,240
Speaker 16: Part of me thinks that it's just a part of

1391
01:15:40,439 --> 01:15:48,840
Speaker 16: my disposition, like it's maybe biological. And I also just

1392
01:15:49,000 --> 01:15:52,960
Speaker 16: find that in general, when I am optimistic about things,

1393
01:15:53,120 --> 01:15:59,920
Speaker 16: then I I'm generally happier. So it's kind of like

1394
01:16:00,160 --> 01:16:01,280
Speaker 16: a snowball effect.

1395
01:16:01,360 --> 01:16:01,839
Speaker 6: I guess.

1396
01:16:03,439 --> 01:16:07,200
Speaker 3: I find that interesting. You say when you're optimistic, you

1397
01:16:07,360 --> 01:16:12,840
Speaker 3: feel happier, which so and so, therefore you choose to

1398
01:16:12,960 --> 01:16:16,400
Speaker 3: be optimistic. I think that's really cool, to be honest

1399
01:16:16,479 --> 01:16:20,960
Speaker 3: with you, because a lot of the time I've looked

1400
01:16:21,000 --> 01:16:27,679
Speaker 3: at optimism and pessimism not so much as a choice

1401
01:16:27,760 --> 01:16:31,640
Speaker 3: as you've just described, but as a you wake up

1402
01:16:31,720 --> 01:16:35,160
Speaker 3: and this is how you're feeling. I like the intention

1403
01:16:36,200 --> 01:16:36,880
Speaker 3: behind all this.

1404
01:16:38,720 --> 01:16:39,400
Speaker 9: Oh well, thank you.

1405
01:16:39,600 --> 01:16:42,479
Speaker 13: I wasn't aware that it was.

1406
01:16:44,360 --> 01:16:46,599
Speaker 16: I don't know interpreted differently to people.

1407
01:16:49,880 --> 01:16:52,240
Speaker 3: Do you find it difficult to choose every day to

1408
01:16:52,320 --> 01:16:53,040
Speaker 3: be optimistic?

1409
01:16:56,920 --> 01:17:00,880
Speaker 16: I don't find it difficult, but I do, Oh, I

1410
01:17:01,000 --> 01:17:04,080
Speaker 16: do find it. I find that when I'm having a

1411
01:17:04,200 --> 01:17:07,680
Speaker 16: bad day and I'm feeling sort of down and pessimistic,

1412
01:17:07,800 --> 01:17:09,920
Speaker 16: it is sometimes hard to get out of that funk.

1413
01:17:14,280 --> 01:17:17,360
Speaker 3: When you find yourself in this funk and you make

1414
01:17:17,760 --> 01:17:20,639
Speaker 3: an effort to get out of it, what are you doing,

1415
01:17:20,880 --> 01:17:24,000
Speaker 3: what are you thinking? How do you what action are

1416
01:17:24,040 --> 01:17:29,759
Speaker 3: you taking mentally to revive yourself back into this optimistic place?

1417
01:17:32,960 --> 01:17:35,799
Speaker 3: Do you say to yourself, think to yourself?

1418
01:17:37,479 --> 01:17:41,080
Speaker 21: Yeah, Usually for the most part. The strategy I've been

1419
01:17:41,200 --> 01:17:44,439
Speaker 21: using lately is if I'm having a bad day, I

1420
01:17:44,520 --> 01:17:48,760
Speaker 21: will just tell myself that today's a bad day and

1421
01:17:49,240 --> 01:17:54,200
Speaker 21: that's okay, and tomorrow's another day, and usually the next

1422
01:17:54,320 --> 01:17:57,680
Speaker 21: day things are much better, even just having slept on

1423
01:17:57,800 --> 01:18:00,719
Speaker 21: it with nothing actually changing in the world.

1424
01:18:02,600 --> 01:18:12,600
Speaker 3: Interesting. You know, I've typically been a pessimist or not.

1425
01:18:13,360 --> 01:18:18,160
Speaker 3: I've been skeptical. I've been skeptical of affirmations. But this

1426
01:18:18,280 --> 01:18:21,559
Speaker 3: sounds like a good one because it's a long term

1427
01:18:21,960 --> 01:18:27,160
Speaker 3: strategy here. You know, you if you accept that today

1428
01:18:27,600 --> 01:18:30,360
Speaker 3: it's just in your day, but the next one might be,

1429
01:18:31,200 --> 01:18:33,800
Speaker 3: you're playing a long game, and the only games you

1430
01:18:33,840 --> 01:18:35,439
Speaker 3: should ever play should be long games.

1431
01:18:36,120 --> 01:18:38,160
Speaker 6: So I like this. I like this.

1432
01:18:38,280 --> 01:18:41,720
Speaker 16: Thank you for sharing this, Yeah, of course, thank you

1433
01:18:41,880 --> 01:18:43,679
Speaker 16: for everything you do and for your.

1434
01:18:45,520 --> 01:18:46,240
Speaker 10: Therapy get goo.

1435
01:18:46,640 --> 01:18:47,479
Speaker 7: I enjoy it.

1436
01:18:48,560 --> 01:18:52,000
Speaker 3: Thank you for your naomio m hm. You have a

1437
01:18:52,000 --> 01:18:52,720
Speaker 3: good rest of the night.

1438
01:18:53,160 --> 01:18:53,720
Speaker 7: Yeah you too.

1439
01:18:55,560 --> 01:18:56,240
Speaker 1: Call from.

1440
01:18:59,120 --> 01:18:59,280
Speaker 12: Hell.

1441
01:18:59,280 --> 01:18:59,960
Speaker 3: Where are you calling from?

1442
01:19:01,439 --> 01:19:02,679
Speaker 9: I'm calling from Canada?

1443
01:19:03,880 --> 01:19:05,439
Speaker 3: Canada. How things going up there?

1444
01:19:06,920 --> 01:19:09,519
Speaker 9: Yeah, it's kind of it's kind of nice, like things

1445
01:19:09,560 --> 01:19:12,360
Speaker 9: are opening up and we can go out and I

1446
01:19:12,439 --> 01:19:14,040
Speaker 9: don't know, it's been like a hard year.

1447
01:19:14,120 --> 01:19:16,400
Speaker 3: You know, we're you've been going.

1448
01:19:19,040 --> 01:19:22,000
Speaker 9: I think studying mostly and chilling.

1449
01:19:22,080 --> 01:19:25,240
Speaker 3: You know, you've been studying and chilling.

1450
01:19:26,640 --> 01:19:30,880
Speaker 9: Yeah, Like that's how my year been. And I found

1451
01:19:30,920 --> 01:19:34,960
Speaker 9: out about you like yesterday, and man, I gotta say,

1452
01:19:35,000 --> 01:19:36,080
Speaker 9: you're pretty cool?

1453
01:19:36,160 --> 01:19:41,439
Speaker 3: Man, really can you? You know, it's weird because you've

1454
01:19:41,479 --> 01:19:44,720
Speaker 3: only known you've known about me for only a day,

1455
01:19:44,760 --> 01:19:47,240
Speaker 3: and you're saying I'm really cool. But at the end

1456
01:19:47,280 --> 01:19:49,000
Speaker 3: of the day, I feel like, is a day?

1457
01:19:49,680 --> 01:19:49,840
Speaker 9: You know?

1458
01:19:50,840 --> 01:19:52,479
Speaker 3: I guess I guess what I'm trying to say is like,

1459
01:19:53,320 --> 01:19:57,760
Speaker 3: is a day long enough? Have I Do you feel

1460
01:19:57,800 --> 01:20:02,599
Speaker 3: like I've provided you a enough information? Maybe not me directly,

1461
01:20:02,680 --> 01:20:07,080
Speaker 3: but I guess my whatever social media online presence has

1462
01:20:07,200 --> 01:20:11,360
Speaker 3: provided you enough information only in that one day for

1463
01:20:11,439 --> 01:20:13,719
Speaker 3: you to make the judgment that I am cool.

1464
01:20:15,280 --> 01:20:20,240
Speaker 9: I like to be honest, Like in my mother country,

1465
01:20:20,439 --> 01:20:22,519
Speaker 9: like we don't have people like you like doing this

1466
01:20:22,680 --> 01:20:23,240
Speaker 9: type of thing.

1467
01:20:23,960 --> 01:20:30,640
Speaker 3: Like so when I saw you, You're you're saying that,

1468
01:20:30,880 --> 01:20:35,040
Speaker 3: like this is just a normal thing in America? Is

1469
01:20:35,200 --> 01:20:38,280
Speaker 3: people doing this? This is multiple?

1470
01:20:39,800 --> 01:20:42,360
Speaker 9: I like, I have no idea, like this is something

1471
01:20:42,479 --> 01:20:43,719
Speaker 9: really new? You don't.

1472
01:20:45,479 --> 01:20:50,240
Speaker 3: Interesting interesting? I like I like the fact that well,

1473
01:20:50,280 --> 01:20:52,599
Speaker 3: how recently you're you're saying, have you I mean, are

1474
01:20:52,640 --> 01:20:55,960
Speaker 3: you new to your your mother? When did you leave

1475
01:20:56,000 --> 01:20:56,360
Speaker 3: your mother?

1476
01:20:56,479 --> 01:21:01,479
Speaker 9: Country like seven months ago, came to Canada to have

1477
01:21:01,720 --> 01:21:02,719
Speaker 9: my college degree.

1478
01:21:03,520 --> 01:21:06,080
Speaker 3: Okay, all right, so you're actually all right, So it

1479
01:21:06,120 --> 01:21:09,519
Speaker 3: sounds like, you know, it's just I'm in a position

1480
01:21:09,600 --> 01:21:12,400
Speaker 3: right now where I could take advantage of your lack

1481
01:21:12,479 --> 01:21:16,320
Speaker 3: of American culture, and I could just tell you that

1482
01:21:17,360 --> 01:21:21,120
Speaker 3: dressing up as geckos is just anat It's just something

1483
01:21:21,160 --> 01:21:25,599
Speaker 3: that we do come every you know, June twenty first

1484
01:21:25,680 --> 01:21:28,439
Speaker 3: in America. I could convince you that, and you would

1485
01:21:28,479 --> 01:21:31,000
Speaker 3: just believe me because I, you know, I think I'm

1486
01:21:31,040 --> 01:21:35,479
Speaker 3: cool apparently, and you don't have prior knowledge to compete with.

1487
01:21:36,560 --> 01:21:38,479
Speaker 3: So I I could just tell you that and you

1488
01:21:38,560 --> 01:21:40,240
Speaker 3: would take place value. It seems.

1489
01:21:41,600 --> 01:21:46,200
Speaker 9: It's not like I don't know anything about the American culture,

1490
01:21:46,400 --> 01:21:49,080
Speaker 9: like I've seen. I know a lot of things, but

1491
01:21:49,520 --> 01:21:50,120
Speaker 9: something like.

1492
01:21:50,200 --> 01:21:55,519
Speaker 3: This is the first time, you know, where's your mother country?

1493
01:21:57,200 --> 01:21:59,879
Speaker 9: I'm African, actually, I'm from North Africa.

1494
01:22:00,720 --> 01:22:01,000
Speaker 4: Nice?

1495
01:22:01,320 --> 01:22:04,160
Speaker 3: Nice, And what made you want to come to Canada?

1496
01:22:06,560 --> 01:22:11,200
Speaker 9: Like the universities are good here, are better than European universities,

1497
01:22:11,320 --> 01:22:18,519
Speaker 9: you know, and Canada really really chill, you know?

1498
01:22:19,640 --> 01:22:23,280
Speaker 3: M hm, Yes, yes, I have got I have gotten

1499
01:22:23,360 --> 01:22:26,720
Speaker 3: that sense from Canada all the Canadian. Every Canadian that's

1500
01:22:26,720 --> 01:22:32,280
Speaker 3: called the show sounds sounds very very Canadian.

1501
01:22:34,120 --> 01:22:35,040
Speaker 9: What does that mean?

1502
01:22:36,479 --> 01:22:38,840
Speaker 3: I couldn't explain it if I wanted to. Where do

1503
01:22:38,880 --> 01:22:39,719
Speaker 3: you what do you study?

1504
01:22:41,160 --> 01:22:42,920
Speaker 9: I'm studying computer science.

1505
01:22:44,240 --> 01:22:46,080
Speaker 3: Okay, what do you What do you want to be

1506
01:22:46,240 --> 01:22:47,000
Speaker 3: when you grow up?

1507
01:22:49,080 --> 01:22:52,680
Speaker 9: Like, I don't know, maybe I'm not sure about that.

1508
01:22:52,920 --> 01:22:56,960
Speaker 9: Like I haven't chosen a specialty yet, but I want

1509
01:22:57,000 --> 01:23:00,080
Speaker 9: to be a technical engineer.

1510
01:22:59,680 --> 01:23:03,080
Speaker 3: You know, electrical engineer.

1511
01:23:04,439 --> 01:23:04,639
Speaker 9: Yeah.

1512
01:23:07,640 --> 01:23:08,240
Speaker 3: Interesting.

1513
01:23:08,960 --> 01:23:11,160
Speaker 9: Well this is the problem. This is why I wanted

1514
01:23:11,200 --> 01:23:13,439
Speaker 9: to talk to you, because this is not what I want,

1515
01:23:13,880 --> 01:23:15,080
Speaker 9: what my parents want.

1516
01:23:16,439 --> 01:23:20,360
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, do you have something that you do want

1517
01:23:20,479 --> 01:23:20,640
Speaker 3: to do?

1518
01:23:21,920 --> 01:23:22,080
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1519
01:23:22,120 --> 01:23:25,479
Speaker 9: I want to play soccer, man, Like that was my dream,

1520
01:23:25,680 --> 01:23:29,320
Speaker 9: Like since I've been I don't know, four years old.

1521
01:23:30,439 --> 01:23:31,639
Speaker 3: You want to play soccer?

1522
01:23:32,400 --> 01:23:32,920
Speaker 20: You know? Yeah?

1523
01:23:32,920 --> 01:23:33,240
Speaker 3: I want to?

1524
01:23:35,360 --> 01:23:35,720
Speaker 7: You want to?

1525
01:23:35,760 --> 01:23:37,400
Speaker 3: When you say you want to play? When you say

1526
01:23:37,439 --> 01:23:39,760
Speaker 3: you want to play soccer, do you mean you want to?

1527
01:23:40,000 --> 01:23:41,680
Speaker 3: Like you want to be a professional I don't know.

1528
01:23:41,840 --> 01:23:43,439
Speaker 3: I don't know how the fucking leagues work or anything.

1529
01:23:43,479 --> 01:23:44,759
Speaker 3: But you want to be a professional player.

1530
01:23:45,880 --> 01:23:47,639
Speaker 9: Yeah, I want to be a professional player.

1531
01:23:49,439 --> 01:23:53,639
Speaker 3: Interesting, how do you do that? I don't know anything?

1532
01:23:53,680 --> 01:23:55,360
Speaker 3: About soccer. I don't watch it. I'm not in the

1533
01:23:55,560 --> 01:23:59,439
Speaker 3: FC League or the twenty or the LC League or

1534
01:23:59,479 --> 01:24:01,760
Speaker 3: whatever it is. How do you know what is the

1535
01:24:01,840 --> 01:24:02,560
Speaker 3: path to doing that?

1536
01:24:02,680 --> 01:24:08,160
Speaker 9: Even like this is something something that I've noticed here

1537
01:24:08,240 --> 01:24:11,960
Speaker 9: in America, like people don't know anything about like soccer,

1538
01:24:12,240 --> 01:24:15,960
Speaker 9: and it's a huge in African Europe. It's something that

1539
01:24:17,000 --> 01:24:22,479
Speaker 9: you see. Everybody watches soccer. Everybody plays soccer. Everybody loves

1540
01:24:22,880 --> 01:24:26,080
Speaker 9: you no, we know, like every player from every nationality,

1541
01:24:26,160 --> 01:24:27,920
Speaker 9: from every country, from every team.

1542
01:24:28,000 --> 01:24:31,280
Speaker 3: You know, and yet we got you to call it soccer.

1543
01:24:33,120 --> 01:24:36,880
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's the problem. For seven months, Like everybody like

1544
01:24:37,000 --> 01:24:39,519
Speaker 9: being when I say soccer, they when I say football,

1545
01:24:39,600 --> 01:24:42,400
Speaker 9: they'd be like, no, it's not football, it's soccer. That's

1546
01:24:42,479 --> 01:24:47,240
Speaker 9: pretty dumb, man. But they can't start.

1547
01:24:47,080 --> 01:24:50,640
Speaker 3: Ay soccer, it's you know. It's whenever people tell me that,

1548
01:24:50,760 --> 01:24:52,200
Speaker 3: like they have a thing that they want to do,

1549
01:24:52,320 --> 01:24:55,040
Speaker 3: I always tell them that they should, like make content

1550
01:24:55,200 --> 01:24:58,800
Speaker 3: on the internet, because I believe that that's a way,

1551
01:24:59,439 --> 01:25:01,200
Speaker 3: like a past to being able to do a lot

1552
01:25:01,280 --> 01:25:07,639
Speaker 3: of things. Now soccer, becoming a soccer player seems very difficult.

1553
01:25:07,880 --> 01:25:12,040
Speaker 3: Although I don't know if soccer is so popular that

1554
01:25:12,320 --> 01:25:16,439
Speaker 3: like you could make a living in like a minor league.

1555
01:25:17,000 --> 01:25:18,680
Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know what the legit, what

1556
01:25:18,800 --> 01:25:21,479
Speaker 3: the practical process is of doing that.

1557
01:25:22,920 --> 01:25:27,000
Speaker 9: Like I'll say the number. Like there's a big football

1558
01:25:27,040 --> 01:25:30,040
Speaker 9: player that I personally love, He's my favorite. His name

1559
01:25:30,080 --> 01:25:34,280
Speaker 9: is Christiano Ronaldo on issue only on Instagram, like he

1560
01:25:34,479 --> 01:25:38,559
Speaker 9: made in twenty twenty, he made forty seven million dollars

1561
01:25:39,120 --> 01:25:42,679
Speaker 9: only from Instagram, without without the soccer, without the companies,

1562
01:25:42,720 --> 01:25:43,519
Speaker 9: without anything.

1563
01:25:44,240 --> 01:25:47,600
Speaker 3: You sure, well, because what I was gonna say is

1564
01:25:47,880 --> 01:25:53,720
Speaker 3: I mean what I would do is, you know, if

1565
01:25:53,800 --> 01:25:57,680
Speaker 3: you can't become a soccer player, if the world of

1566
01:25:57,840 --> 01:26:03,599
Speaker 3: soccer is big enough, you could make soccer related content

1567
01:26:03,800 --> 01:26:08,360
Speaker 3: on you know, TikTok or fucking Twitch or something like

1568
01:26:08,520 --> 01:26:11,160
Speaker 3: that and try to build something off of there.

1569
01:26:12,840 --> 01:26:15,639
Speaker 9: Yeah, Like I had this idea and it's like being

1570
01:26:15,720 --> 01:26:18,479
Speaker 9: buzzing in my mind for the past while.

1571
01:26:18,600 --> 01:26:22,400
Speaker 3: You know, Okay, what's what's the What's what's the idea here?

1572
01:26:24,000 --> 01:26:26,400
Speaker 9: Like I want to make videos of me like doing

1573
01:26:26,560 --> 01:26:29,800
Speaker 9: tricks I don't know, and teach people that don't know

1574
01:26:29,920 --> 01:26:32,920
Speaker 9: how to play soccer, like the basics and things.

1575
01:26:32,960 --> 01:26:35,639
Speaker 3: You know, what did you say?

1576
01:26:37,120 --> 01:26:38,680
Speaker 9: I like sharing it before you.

1577
01:26:38,720 --> 01:26:40,559
Speaker 3: Know what did you say? Your name was.

1578
01:26:42,280 --> 01:26:42,559
Speaker 9: Life?

1579
01:26:43,560 --> 01:26:44,280
Speaker 7: Life. I love it.

1580
01:26:44,640 --> 01:26:48,120
Speaker 3: I think that's a fantastic idea. I think that's wonderful.

1581
01:26:48,479 --> 01:26:50,519
Speaker 3: I'm dead serious with you right now. I think you

1582
01:26:50,560 --> 01:26:53,160
Speaker 3: should make You should learn how to make tiktoks go.

1583
01:26:53,360 --> 01:26:55,040
Speaker 3: I don't know if you're on TikTok, but watch some

1584
01:26:55,200 --> 01:26:57,840
Speaker 3: of that ship. Learn how to get your lighting right

1585
01:26:58,120 --> 01:27:01,720
Speaker 3: and make your fucking uh soccer videos. I think that's

1586
01:27:01,760 --> 01:27:05,960
Speaker 3: a great idea. You know, look, you might find, you

1587
01:27:06,080 --> 01:27:08,920
Speaker 3: might find you could even like, here's the thing, man,

1588
01:27:09,120 --> 01:27:13,360
Speaker 3: is like with the Internet, you could build up a

1589
01:27:13,520 --> 01:27:19,840
Speaker 3: tiny little audience. Something could happen, you know, Like I don't.

1590
01:27:19,840 --> 01:27:22,680
Speaker 3: I don't think that that's unrealistic anymore. You trying to

1591
01:27:22,760 --> 01:27:28,840
Speaker 3: be fucking the next Christ, Chris whatever, Ronaldo, Well, we'll

1592
01:27:28,880 --> 01:27:31,519
Speaker 3: be honest, but building up an audience on the internet

1593
01:27:32,000 --> 01:27:38,000
Speaker 3: for soccer content achievable, in my opinion, I would I

1594
01:27:38,280 --> 01:27:39,639
Speaker 3: think you should do that, man, I think you should

1595
01:27:39,640 --> 01:27:40,320
Speaker 3: make some tiktoks.

1596
01:27:40,360 --> 01:27:40,759
Speaker 6: I think.

1597
01:27:42,280 --> 01:27:44,479
Speaker 3: I think you should go for it. And also, it's

1598
01:27:44,520 --> 01:27:46,559
Speaker 3: not like you have to fucking drop out of school

1599
01:27:46,640 --> 01:27:48,960
Speaker 3: and spend twelve hours a day doing it. It's like,

1600
01:27:49,040 --> 01:27:50,920
Speaker 3: you know, you have a few hours here, a few

1601
01:27:50,960 --> 01:27:53,160
Speaker 3: hours there, you'll work on the thing, you know what

1602
01:27:53,200 --> 01:27:53,479
Speaker 3: I mean.

1603
01:27:55,520 --> 01:27:59,360
Speaker 9: Yeah, it's a great idea if if I drop out

1604
01:27:59,360 --> 01:28:00,840
Speaker 9: of school, like shoot me.

1605
01:28:00,920 --> 01:28:05,280
Speaker 3: You know, well, you don't have to drop out of

1606
01:28:05,320 --> 01:28:08,479
Speaker 3: school to do it. I you have for whatever it's worth.

1607
01:28:08,560 --> 01:28:10,559
Speaker 3: The gecko guy thinks you should do it. I think

1608
01:28:10,720 --> 01:28:13,880
Speaker 3: uh uh, definitely, definitely give it a try.

1609
01:28:15,680 --> 01:28:19,599
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's like, thank you man for it for sure.

1610
01:28:19,760 --> 01:28:22,600
Speaker 3: And here's another thing. Look, and then another thing is

1611
01:28:22,760 --> 01:28:24,760
Speaker 3: sure there might be a lot here. And this is

1612
01:28:24,800 --> 01:28:27,800
Speaker 3: gonna sound cheesy. This is gonna sound cheesy, but I

1613
01:28:28,520 --> 01:28:30,599
Speaker 3: believe in I read though there's a lot of people

1614
01:28:30,640 --> 01:28:33,000
Speaker 3: out there that make soccer content, which is true. There's

1615
01:28:33,000 --> 01:28:35,519
Speaker 3: a lot of people out to make soccer content. And again,

1616
01:28:35,840 --> 01:28:39,800
Speaker 3: gonna sound cheesy. Get ready for some cheese. But there

1617
01:28:40,000 --> 01:28:44,120
Speaker 3: is only one you leaf, So people are gonna want

1618
01:28:44,120 --> 01:28:47,320
Speaker 3: to come to see you specifically, so you know, make

1619
01:28:47,360 --> 01:28:50,320
Speaker 3: sure you're yourself in these videos, not trying to be

1620
01:28:50,479 --> 01:28:52,400
Speaker 3: like all the other people out there making soccer content.

1621
01:28:55,120 --> 01:28:59,280
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's this is one of the best advices I've got, like,

1622
01:29:00,120 --> 01:29:01,799
Speaker 9: especially with no one.

1623
01:29:01,760 --> 01:29:02,680
Speaker 6: To talk you know.

1624
01:29:04,520 --> 01:29:07,439
Speaker 3: Hell yeah, man, look power too. Do you have any

1625
01:29:07,479 --> 01:29:10,040
Speaker 3: of these accounts already, like do you have an Instagram?

1626
01:29:10,120 --> 01:29:10,840
Speaker 6: Do you have a thing?

1627
01:29:12,320 --> 01:29:12,479
Speaker 18: Uh?

1628
01:29:12,760 --> 01:29:13,160
Speaker 7: Follow you?

1629
01:29:14,520 --> 01:29:18,360
Speaker 9: But you know, I tried like streaming once I was

1630
01:29:18,439 --> 01:29:22,040
Speaker 9: playing Color of Duty Color of Duty War Zone. I

1631
01:29:22,160 --> 01:29:25,040
Speaker 9: tried streaming, but a lot of people were really mean,

1632
01:29:25,160 --> 01:29:25,679
Speaker 9: and shit.

1633
01:29:25,640 --> 01:29:29,599
Speaker 3: That's why people are people are I'm not reading the chap,

1634
01:29:29,640 --> 01:29:31,800
Speaker 3: but I'm sure people are being mean to me right now.

1635
01:29:32,400 --> 01:29:36,400
Speaker 3: I've had hundreds and hundreds of comments I'm sure telling

1636
01:29:36,479 --> 01:29:40,639
Speaker 3: me to kill myself over the past hour. But I'm

1637
01:29:40,720 --> 01:29:42,400
Speaker 3: going strong, baby, you can.

1638
01:29:42,439 --> 01:29:48,960
Speaker 9: Too, Like that's really true. Man, people can be dicks sometimes.

1639
01:29:49,840 --> 01:29:51,760
Speaker 3: Do it up big, don't let the people be in look,

1640
01:29:52,920 --> 01:29:54,120
Speaker 3: go for it. How old are you?

1641
01:29:54,160 --> 01:29:56,479
Speaker 9: By the way, I'm twenty one?

1642
01:29:57,080 --> 01:29:58,960
Speaker 3: Oh God, go do it, go make go make soccer

1643
01:29:59,040 --> 01:30:02,720
Speaker 3: tiktoks or ball tiktoks. I believe in you, Leif. Y'all

1644
01:30:02,760 --> 01:30:05,040
Speaker 3: thank you for thank you for calling them. Man and Sharon.

1645
01:30:05,080 --> 01:30:06,000
Speaker 3: You have a good rest of the night.

1646
01:30:06,880 --> 01:30:08,320
Speaker 9: I thank your man. You're the best.

1647
01:30:09,040 --> 01:30:10,639
Speaker 3: Of course, of course you take care of Leif.

1648
01:30:14,560 --> 01:30:16,920
Speaker 1: Call from Mody.

1649
01:30:18,200 --> 01:30:26,360
Speaker 7: Mody, Hello, Hey, how are you?

1650
01:30:28,040 --> 01:30:28,400
Speaker 3: How are you?

1651
01:30:31,880 --> 01:30:32,799
Speaker 22: You want to take answer?

1652
01:30:34,560 --> 01:30:35,360
Speaker 3: M sure?

1653
01:30:37,640 --> 01:30:38,040
Speaker 4: Managing?

1654
01:30:41,040 --> 01:30:42,880
Speaker 3: Or is that to imply that the real answer is

1655
01:30:42,880 --> 01:30:43,879
Speaker 3: that you are not managing.

1656
01:30:45,840 --> 01:30:48,840
Speaker 22: Yeah, i'd say, so what what is there?

1657
01:30:48,880 --> 01:30:49,759
Speaker 3: What is there to manage?

1658
01:30:52,600 --> 01:30:52,720
Speaker 9: Uh?

1659
01:30:55,439 --> 01:31:01,000
Speaker 1: I guess expectations, expectations of.

1660
01:31:01,040 --> 01:31:07,200
Speaker 22: What, expectations for myself, expectations from my family.

1661
01:31:09,560 --> 01:31:13,960
Speaker 3: There's a hair in here. What does your family expect

1662
01:31:14,439 --> 01:31:14,760
Speaker 3: from you?

1663
01:31:19,320 --> 01:31:22,360
Speaker 22: They want me to follow like the traditionalist model, you know,

1664
01:31:22,600 --> 01:31:27,519
Speaker 22: they want me to be successful, wife, kids, house, money.

1665
01:31:28,680 --> 01:31:31,280
Speaker 22: It seems like money is Yeah, all the fingers get

1666
01:31:31,320 --> 01:31:34,080
Speaker 22: in there. It seems like money is like the only,

1667
01:31:34,600 --> 01:31:36,280
Speaker 22: the only way to measure my success.

1668
01:31:39,920 --> 01:31:42,360
Speaker 3: There's two hairs on here. How much money do your

1669
01:31:42,400 --> 01:31:43,240
Speaker 3: parents want you to have?

1670
01:31:45,040 --> 01:31:51,439
Speaker 22: Well, my grandparents were. My grandfather owned an insurance company,

1671
01:31:51,760 --> 01:31:58,080
Speaker 22: so his kids didn't meet up to the expectation. And

1672
01:31:58,560 --> 01:32:01,000
Speaker 22: I feel like they're they just want me to be

1673
01:32:01,760 --> 01:32:02,800
Speaker 22: what they didn't get to be.

1674
01:32:05,479 --> 01:32:06,280
Speaker 3: Well, what do you want to be.

1675
01:32:09,080 --> 01:32:14,720
Speaker 22: A To be honest, I really want to be an

1676
01:32:14,840 --> 01:32:20,559
Speaker 22: actor or something and something to do with film. Film

1677
01:32:20,920 --> 01:32:22,519
Speaker 22: was always my escape when I was a kid.

1678
01:32:23,160 --> 01:32:26,599
Speaker 3: I'm telling you all, I'm telling you all. I'm telling

1679
01:32:26,680 --> 01:32:29,640
Speaker 3: you all. I'm telling you all. I'm telling you what

1680
01:32:29,760 --> 01:32:34,000
Speaker 3: I told Leif. I'm telling everyone listening to this, because

1681
01:32:34,000 --> 01:32:37,040
Speaker 3: I've seen it happen eight thousand times. It happened to

1682
01:32:37,120 --> 01:32:40,479
Speaker 3: me personally, it happened to my friends, and it happened

1683
01:32:40,479 --> 01:32:43,960
Speaker 3: to people. I see it all the time. I am

1684
01:32:44,080 --> 01:32:46,320
Speaker 3: telling you, if you want to be an actor, if

1685
01:32:46,320 --> 01:32:48,120
Speaker 3: you want to make soccer content, if you want to

1686
01:32:48,160 --> 01:32:51,400
Speaker 3: do that, make it. Make a TikTok account, Make a

1687
01:32:51,439 --> 01:32:55,960
Speaker 3: TikTok account and make tiktoks. That's what that's your number

1688
01:32:56,000 --> 01:32:59,800
Speaker 3: one is the number. The guarantee fastest way that you

1689
01:33:00,560 --> 01:33:03,400
Speaker 3: will be able to make a living being an actor.

1690
01:33:04,160 --> 01:33:07,400
Speaker 3: You'll be able to eke out thirty thousand dollars a

1691
01:33:07,520 --> 01:33:13,040
Speaker 3: year being an actor is with TikTok. You should make tiktoks.

1692
01:33:13,920 --> 01:33:17,479
Speaker 3: That's my that's my practice. That's my practical, actionable advice

1693
01:33:17,560 --> 01:33:19,160
Speaker 3: to you to be.

1694
01:33:19,520 --> 01:33:22,439
Speaker 22: To be honest, I bought, I went out and I

1695
01:33:22,520 --> 01:33:28,280
Speaker 22: got a microphone because I figured that i'd start voice acting.

1696
01:33:29,360 --> 01:33:29,400
Speaker 7: This.

1697
01:33:29,920 --> 01:33:32,280
Speaker 22: When I was a kid, I was like in all

1698
01:33:32,400 --> 01:33:36,840
Speaker 22: this acting crap, and you know, the little little classes

1699
01:33:36,960 --> 01:33:40,559
Speaker 22: and groups and whatnot. When when I was a little older,

1700
01:33:40,640 --> 01:33:44,479
Speaker 22: remote across country or from California or to Florida, and

1701
01:33:44,600 --> 01:33:48,519
Speaker 22: that kind of stuff went away. But there was this

1702
01:33:49,000 --> 01:33:53,640
Speaker 22: when my dad was younger, he had this shot to

1703
01:33:53,720 --> 01:33:56,759
Speaker 22: be a comedian and he got scared.

1704
01:33:57,400 --> 01:34:00,960
Speaker 4: And when I was a kid, he nay, save me.

1705
01:34:02,439 --> 01:34:02,800
Speaker 7: Out of it.

1706
01:34:03,439 --> 01:34:05,400
Speaker 22: Made me feel like, you know, people were going to

1707
01:34:05,439 --> 01:34:10,000
Speaker 22: see you and they're going to be you know, they're

1708
01:34:10,000 --> 01:34:12,720
Speaker 22: gonna they're gonna put you down. That's that's all your

1709
01:34:12,760 --> 01:34:14,479
Speaker 22: life is gonna be people putting you down.

1710
01:34:14,640 --> 01:34:18,040
Speaker 9: And so since then I've just had it's called.

1711
01:34:19,640 --> 01:34:21,720
Speaker 3: About that you grew up at a different time than

1712
01:34:21,760 --> 01:34:23,240
Speaker 3: you grew up because you grew up at the time

1713
01:34:23,320 --> 01:34:25,200
Speaker 3: of the internet and in the time of the internet.

1714
01:34:25,280 --> 01:34:26,680
Speaker 3: This is, by the way, this is the one thing

1715
01:34:26,760 --> 01:34:29,000
Speaker 3: that I'm the most of any like advicey thing, and

1716
01:34:29,080 --> 01:34:31,120
Speaker 3: I don't give advice on a lot of different subjects.

1717
01:34:31,240 --> 01:34:33,960
Speaker 3: The one thing I'm very passionate about. Your dad grew

1718
01:34:34,040 --> 01:34:37,040
Speaker 3: up in a time where to be an ad to

1719
01:34:37,080 --> 01:34:38,760
Speaker 3: be a commedian. You da grew up at a time

1720
01:34:38,800 --> 01:34:42,599
Speaker 3: where to be a comedian the only way was there

1721
01:34:42,720 --> 01:34:46,120
Speaker 3: was one fucking old ass dude who worked at the

1722
01:34:46,200 --> 01:34:49,200
Speaker 3: Tonight Show with Johnny Carson. And if that dude didn't

1723
01:34:49,320 --> 01:34:52,519
Speaker 3: like you, you're fucked. That's that's when that's when your

1724
01:34:52,600 --> 01:34:55,719
Speaker 3: dad grow that grew up with the one fucking seventy

1725
01:34:55,800 --> 01:34:58,479
Speaker 3: year old white guy that worked at fucking Johnny Carson

1726
01:35:00,040 --> 01:35:06,320
Speaker 3: doesn't like them, then you're screwed. Now where you where

1727
01:35:06,400 --> 01:35:11,040
Speaker 3: you now? The universe that you live in is you

1728
01:35:11,160 --> 01:35:14,080
Speaker 3: could have you could you could put a video of

1729
01:35:14,200 --> 01:35:17,519
Speaker 3: yourself doing a monologue in front of a million people,

1730
01:35:18,640 --> 01:35:21,840
Speaker 3: and if every single one of them fucking hates you,

1731
01:35:22,040 --> 01:35:27,559
Speaker 3: except for a thousand, you can have a fantastic career.

1732
01:35:27,680 --> 01:35:30,519
Speaker 3: That's the world that you live in. Take advantage of

1733
01:35:30,600 --> 01:35:33,600
Speaker 3: that world, okay, because you're grand. The world that you

1734
01:35:33,720 --> 01:35:36,439
Speaker 3: that grew up in is gone comedians going on the

1735
01:35:36,479 --> 01:35:39,280
Speaker 3: Tonight Show and no one hears you. You can build

1736
01:35:39,439 --> 01:35:42,200
Speaker 3: your audience for your thing on the computer. Take advantage

1737
01:35:42,240 --> 01:35:46,760
Speaker 3: of that. Okay, that does that make sense? It does.

1738
01:35:48,240 --> 01:35:51,360
Speaker 3: Take advantage of that because it's new. I mean it's

1739
01:35:51,400 --> 01:35:55,760
Speaker 3: not even like it's like two years old, but it's

1740
01:35:55,880 --> 01:35:59,320
Speaker 3: it's the world you live in, so you know, take

1741
01:35:59,400 --> 01:36:00,400
Speaker 3: take advantage of that.

1742
01:36:06,160 --> 01:36:09,080
Speaker 22: You know, I really don't have a choice but to

1743
01:36:09,720 --> 01:36:11,000
Speaker 22: go at it now, Really.

1744
01:36:12,040 --> 01:36:13,479
Speaker 3: You, God damn right, would you say name once?

1745
01:36:14,720 --> 01:36:15,040
Speaker 22: Mody?

1746
01:36:16,720 --> 01:36:18,400
Speaker 3: Mody? I look forward to seeing you on the for

1747
01:36:18,560 --> 01:36:18,960
Speaker 3: you pitch.

1748
01:36:21,720 --> 01:36:24,200
Speaker 22: I'll see you seeing me lady.

1749
01:36:24,240 --> 01:36:26,080
Speaker 11: Did lady.

1750
01:36:28,800 --> 01:36:29,479
Speaker 1: Call from.

1751
01:36:30,840 --> 01:36:31,200
Speaker 21: Ellie?

1752
01:36:32,840 --> 01:36:33,160
Speaker 1: Ellie?

1753
01:36:35,160 --> 01:36:39,400
Speaker 5: Hi, Hey, what's going on?

1754
01:36:41,120 --> 01:36:42,320
Speaker 3: I'm a gecko on the computer.

1755
01:36:43,600 --> 01:36:50,280
Speaker 19: Yeah, that's what are you? I'm I'm just driving home

1756
01:36:51,320 --> 01:36:53,439
Speaker 19: from my friend's house and I thought, hey, let me

1757
01:36:53,560 --> 01:36:57,160
Speaker 19: just call, let me just call the therapy get go,

1758
01:36:57,439 --> 01:36:57,960
Speaker 19: And here I am.

1759
01:36:59,280 --> 01:37:00,599
Speaker 3: Well, how do you know this friend?

1760
01:37:02,400 --> 01:37:03,240
Speaker 19: How do I know this friend?

1761
01:37:04,120 --> 01:37:08,080
Speaker 10: I I don't really know.

1762
01:37:08,960 --> 01:37:17,360
Speaker 19: I did trivia at this local bar in town when

1763
01:37:17,400 --> 01:37:21,680
Speaker 19: I first moved here, and I met another guy and

1764
01:37:21,800 --> 01:37:24,800
Speaker 19: he's friends with this guy. And it's been a few

1765
01:37:24,880 --> 01:37:27,599
Speaker 19: years now, but I guess we got to know each

1766
01:37:27,600 --> 01:37:28,120
Speaker 19: other that way.

1767
01:37:30,920 --> 01:37:31,479
Speaker 3: How old are you?

1768
01:37:34,800 --> 01:37:36,960
Speaker 19: It's not very nice to ask a lady that, But

1769
01:37:37,040 --> 01:37:37,760
Speaker 19: I'm twenty nine.

1770
01:37:38,680 --> 01:37:41,679
Speaker 3: You're twenty nine. It's interesting. Why it's find it interesting

1771
01:37:41,800 --> 01:37:43,880
Speaker 3: because you know, I hear all the time people say

1772
01:37:44,000 --> 01:37:49,160
Speaker 3: that they have a hard time making friends as an adult.

1773
01:37:50,600 --> 01:37:53,720
Speaker 19: Yeah, yeah, you know. I mean I've found I've had

1774
01:37:53,760 --> 01:37:57,000
Speaker 19: a hard time making like I mean, I have friends,

1775
01:37:57,040 --> 01:37:58,800
Speaker 19: and I'm grateful for my friends, but yeah, I do

1776
01:37:58,920 --> 01:38:03,599
Speaker 19: really feel like I don't find it easy to make

1777
01:38:03,800 --> 01:38:04,280
Speaker 19: more friends.

1778
01:38:05,560 --> 01:38:10,200
Speaker 3: Well, you made a friend in a pretty uh, Well,

1779
01:38:10,320 --> 01:38:11,800
Speaker 3: you went out to a bar and you just made

1780
01:38:11,840 --> 01:38:14,120
Speaker 3: a friend and you've been friends for a few years.

1781
01:38:15,120 --> 01:38:15,479
Speaker 3: That's fat.

1782
01:38:15,520 --> 01:38:17,200
Speaker 18: Yeah, it is.

1783
01:38:17,720 --> 01:38:17,960
Speaker 6: It is.

1784
01:38:18,040 --> 01:38:19,160
Speaker 19: Thank you for that perspective.

1785
01:38:21,720 --> 01:38:23,760
Speaker 3: Do you do you wish to make more friends or

1786
01:38:23,800 --> 01:38:25,400
Speaker 3: you're happy with the amount of friends that you have.

1787
01:38:28,320 --> 01:38:32,280
Speaker 19: I wish to make more friends. I feel like I

1788
01:38:32,360 --> 01:38:36,320
Speaker 19: don't get out enough. Like I feel like I'm starting

1789
01:38:36,360 --> 01:38:39,040
Speaker 19: to try to get out more. Like tonight, I just decided, okay,

1790
01:38:39,080 --> 01:38:44,320
Speaker 19: I'm gonna I wanted to make food, and this friend

1791
01:38:44,479 --> 01:38:50,200
Speaker 19: was willing to sample my cooking, and so I just

1792
01:38:50,280 --> 01:38:52,559
Speaker 19: went out and did it. But it's been a while

1793
01:38:52,640 --> 01:38:53,760
Speaker 19: since I've done something like this.

1794
01:38:56,400 --> 01:38:57,759
Speaker 3: When did you move to this place?

1795
01:38:59,280 --> 01:38:59,960
Speaker 4: In four years?

1796
01:39:01,120 --> 01:39:03,080
Speaker 3: Four a year? All right, that's pretty good. I don't

1797
01:39:03,160 --> 01:39:04,640
Speaker 3: know anyone before you moved to.

1798
01:39:07,800 --> 01:39:12,640
Speaker 19: I kind of like this was my college town and

1799
01:39:13,280 --> 01:39:15,479
Speaker 19: and then I like left for years and I came

1800
01:39:15,560 --> 01:39:18,880
Speaker 19: back for work, so I kind of knew people because

1801
01:39:18,920 --> 01:39:19,800
Speaker 19: I went to college here.

1802
01:39:20,760 --> 01:39:30,880
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, so you want to make more friends, Well,

1803
01:39:30,920 --> 01:39:35,160
Speaker 3: you me my friends, me being your friend, Well, here's

1804
01:39:35,240 --> 01:39:37,040
Speaker 3: there's a couple of things with that. Me being your

1805
01:39:37,080 --> 01:39:40,760
Speaker 3: friend wouldn't be super useful to you, because I doubt

1806
01:39:40,800 --> 01:39:43,880
Speaker 3: that I live in the same area that you live.

1807
01:39:45,120 --> 01:39:45,439
Speaker 4: Okay.

1808
01:39:47,680 --> 01:39:49,800
Speaker 3: Also, you're putting me on the spot a little bit here,

1809
01:39:49,920 --> 01:39:54,280
Speaker 3: because you know, look, we've been on the phone for

1810
01:39:55,880 --> 01:39:58,880
Speaker 3: like three minutes. Now I feel like not that my

1811
01:39:59,120 --> 01:40:01,960
Speaker 3: like first impress of you. And I try not to

1812
01:40:02,080 --> 01:40:04,160
Speaker 3: have impressions, all right. I try not to make judgments

1813
01:40:04,240 --> 01:40:06,400
Speaker 3: unless if I have what I feel to be a

1814
01:40:06,479 --> 01:40:10,560
Speaker 3: sufficient amount of information to make them. But you know,

1815
01:40:10,680 --> 01:40:12,439
Speaker 3: in the three minutes I've known you, I don't feel

1816
01:40:12,479 --> 01:40:19,639
Speaker 3: like it's been long enough for me to really determine

1817
01:40:19,640 --> 01:40:22,400
Speaker 3: whether or not I would be your friend. And I

1818
01:40:22,600 --> 01:40:24,439
Speaker 3: look you to me as well. You know, I could

1819
01:40:24,479 --> 01:40:27,760
Speaker 3: be a far more heinous of a person than I've

1820
01:40:27,840 --> 01:40:32,080
Speaker 3: given off in this three minute phone call, and possibly

1821
01:40:34,000 --> 01:40:37,200
Speaker 3: if I gave you more information about myself as a person,

1822
01:40:37,320 --> 01:40:41,439
Speaker 3: you might find that whatever impression of me that I've

1823
01:40:41,479 --> 01:40:44,200
Speaker 3: given you that made you want me to be your

1824
01:40:44,280 --> 01:40:48,200
Speaker 3: friend is now gone and replaced with something far worse,

1825
01:40:48,680 --> 01:40:50,439
Speaker 3: causing you to not want to be my friend. So

1826
01:40:50,720 --> 01:40:55,960
Speaker 3: for that reason, I think that as of this very moment,

1827
01:40:56,760 --> 01:40:58,080
Speaker 3: I don't know if it'd be a good idea for

1828
01:40:58,160 --> 01:40:58,719
Speaker 3: us to be friends.

1829
01:40:59,600 --> 01:41:02,880
Speaker 1: Okay, I respect that, thank you, of course.

1830
01:41:03,040 --> 01:41:08,240
Speaker 3: What did you say her name was? Ellie, Ellie, Ellie,

1831
01:41:08,320 --> 01:41:11,960
Speaker 3: let's look before we go. I want I want to

1832
01:41:12,000 --> 01:41:14,240
Speaker 3: come up with let's let's get an actionable thing here.

1833
01:41:14,320 --> 01:41:17,840
Speaker 3: What's something you can do to make more friends?

1834
01:41:19,080 --> 01:41:21,840
Speaker 19: What's something I can do to make more friends? I

1835
01:41:21,960 --> 01:41:25,880
Speaker 19: can probably just you know, I spend a lot of.

1836
01:41:25,920 --> 01:41:27,639
Speaker 1: Time in my house, and I think one.

1837
01:41:29,120 --> 01:41:32,240
Speaker 19: One thing that I could do is get out of

1838
01:41:32,320 --> 01:41:34,000
Speaker 19: my house for you.

1839
01:41:35,360 --> 01:41:37,080
Speaker 11: Yeah, I think I want to do that.

1840
01:41:38,400 --> 01:41:40,360
Speaker 3: Well, you're in the car, aren't you.

1841
01:41:41,479 --> 01:41:43,679
Speaker 9: I am bingo.

1842
01:41:44,400 --> 01:41:45,960
Speaker 3: You're working on it. You're already there.

1843
01:41:46,880 --> 01:41:47,360
Speaker 6: I like it.

1844
01:41:48,200 --> 01:41:49,960
Speaker 3: Thank you, Ellie, thank you so much for calling in.

1845
01:41:50,960 --> 01:41:52,799
Speaker 1: Well, thank you you take.

1846
01:41:52,640 --> 01:41:53,920
Speaker 6: Care all right?

1847
01:41:53,960 --> 01:41:54,840
Speaker 12: You just bye.

1848
01:41:57,280 --> 01:41:58,679
Speaker 3: She's already out of the house.

1849
01:42:00,160 --> 01:42:01,080
Speaker 1: Bam. Done.

1850
01:42:02,479 --> 01:42:04,599
Speaker 3: Onto the next item of these two lists.

1851
01:42:05,720 --> 01:42:06,320
Speaker 1: How from.

1852
01:42:08,200 --> 01:42:09,360
Speaker 20: Ultra laser.

1853
01:42:12,920 --> 01:42:13,679
Speaker 3: Ultra laser?

1854
01:42:15,240 --> 01:42:15,439
Speaker 23: Yeah?

1855
01:42:19,720 --> 01:42:21,679
Speaker 3: How did you come to be? How did you become

1856
01:42:21,800 --> 01:42:22,439
Speaker 3: ultra laser?

1857
01:42:23,360 --> 01:42:24,880
Speaker 22: How did I become ultra laser?

1858
01:42:26,479 --> 01:42:26,960
Speaker 7: I don't know.

1859
01:42:27,439 --> 01:42:29,920
Speaker 9: I thought that the portmanteau of.

1860
01:42:30,400 --> 01:42:34,040
Speaker 20: Ultra and laser was a really cool combination.

1861
01:42:39,479 --> 01:42:39,879
Speaker 7: Hmm.

1862
01:42:40,600 --> 01:42:42,800
Speaker 3: Are you afraid to use your real name or is

1863
01:42:42,880 --> 01:42:43,519
Speaker 3: this your real name?

1864
01:42:45,240 --> 01:42:49,559
Speaker 4: Well, I mean my name is rich. I'm not afraid

1865
01:42:49,640 --> 01:42:50,559
Speaker 4: to use my real name.

1866
01:42:51,560 --> 01:42:52,600
Speaker 3: So how come you didn't use it?

1867
01:42:54,000 --> 01:42:55,920
Speaker 4: Well, I didn't know what this was.

1868
01:42:56,040 --> 01:43:01,640
Speaker 3: Was Is it possible that through into my stream you

1869
01:43:01,760 --> 01:43:05,559
Speaker 3: saw an opportunity to assume an identity that was not yours,

1870
01:43:05,640 --> 01:43:11,080
Speaker 3: therefore escaping the identity of rich and you got me

1871
01:43:11,439 --> 01:43:16,080
Speaker 3: fresh persona that is not the problems of the old one.

1872
01:43:18,120 --> 01:43:18,800
Speaker 20: Absolutely.

1873
01:43:19,600 --> 01:43:21,639
Speaker 3: What are you escaping from telling me about the problems?

1874
01:43:22,800 --> 01:43:24,599
Speaker 4: Well, I don't know about that. Now.

1875
01:43:25,400 --> 01:43:27,960
Speaker 22: I can't really pour my heart out onto a stream.

1876
01:43:28,479 --> 01:43:33,920
Speaker 9: However, m hm, things are dark, for sure.

1877
01:43:36,680 --> 01:43:38,120
Speaker 3: You gotta light them up with the lasers.

1878
01:43:39,960 --> 01:43:41,480
Speaker 7: Light them up with the lasers.

1879
01:43:42,520 --> 01:43:43,320
Speaker 3: You ever thought about that?

1880
01:43:45,000 --> 01:43:45,040
Speaker 16: No?

1881
01:43:46,560 --> 01:43:47,000
Speaker 6: I like this.

1882
01:43:47,200 --> 01:43:50,760
Speaker 3: I feel like this is an independent film. You're, Oh,

1883
01:43:52,640 --> 01:43:55,479
Speaker 3: you know, a guy who's experienced some trauma in your life,

1884
01:43:56,640 --> 01:43:58,680
Speaker 3: and you have I feel like I've seen this in

1885
01:43:58,720 --> 01:44:00,360
Speaker 3: a lot of movies. You're a guy who's sperience some

1886
01:44:00,439 --> 01:44:06,280
Speaker 3: trauma in their life and you have an alternative reality,

1887
01:44:07,120 --> 01:44:11,320
Speaker 3: you know, a bridge to Tabithia whatever that fucking movie

1888
01:44:11,520 --> 01:44:15,719
Speaker 3: with Steve Correll. You have this sort of alter reality

1889
01:44:16,320 --> 01:44:21,120
Speaker 3: to escape into to prevent yourself from feeling the feelings

1890
01:44:21,160 --> 01:44:23,160
Speaker 3: you don't want to feel. What I think you should

1891
01:44:23,200 --> 01:44:28,839
Speaker 3: do is make ultra laser into a three part trilogy

1892
01:44:28,920 --> 01:44:34,080
Speaker 3: film series and sell the rights to Sony for enough

1893
01:44:34,120 --> 01:44:37,200
Speaker 3: money to retire, and then you can truly escape your

1894
01:44:37,280 --> 01:44:40,960
Speaker 3: trauma by moving halfway across the world to like an

1895
01:44:41,000 --> 01:44:43,120
Speaker 3: island or something where you won't have to talk to

1896
01:44:43,200 --> 01:44:48,559
Speaker 3: him again and you can just drink stout beers m.

1897
01:44:50,280 --> 01:44:50,840
Speaker 4: Delicious.

1898
01:44:51,439 --> 01:44:55,040
Speaker 3: Well, thank you, Gecko, absolutely, thank you so much. Ultra Laser.

1899
01:44:55,040 --> 01:44:56,880
Speaker 3: You have a good night you too.

1900
01:45:01,160 --> 01:45:03,320
Speaker 13: Call from Emily.

1901
01:45:04,640 --> 01:45:04,960
Speaker 3: Emily.

1902
01:45:05,040 --> 01:45:06,040
Speaker 13: Hello, Hi.

1903
01:45:07,680 --> 01:45:09,000
Speaker 3: Emily, how are you.

1904
01:45:10,880 --> 01:45:14,920
Speaker 13: I'm good. I'm I'm folding laundry while I watch the stream.

1905
01:45:15,560 --> 01:45:17,120
Speaker 3: And have we ever spoken before, Emily?

1906
01:45:17,880 --> 01:45:19,320
Speaker 7: We have? We have?

1907
01:45:20,880 --> 01:45:22,840
Speaker 13: Yeah, I'm actually going to see you soon.

1908
01:45:24,080 --> 01:45:26,479
Speaker 3: Ah. Yes, this is the Emily from from Portland who

1909
01:45:26,520 --> 01:45:28,639
Speaker 3: I'm visiting all my guy across America journey.

1910
01:45:29,439 --> 01:45:34,639
Speaker 13: Yes, yeah, yes, and we have spoken before. I think

1911
01:45:34,640 --> 01:45:38,440
Speaker 13: I've called in before on your Tuesday night stream.

1912
01:45:38,920 --> 01:45:39,160
Speaker 18: Yeah.

1913
01:45:42,240 --> 01:45:46,360
Speaker 3: Well, I mean listen to Emily, you know before try

1914
01:45:46,360 --> 01:45:47,880
Speaker 3: anything in particular that you want to talk about and

1915
01:45:47,960 --> 01:45:48,439
Speaker 3: you want to cover.

1916
01:45:49,479 --> 01:45:49,519
Speaker 6: No.

1917
01:45:49,840 --> 01:45:53,840
Speaker 13: Well, I called my friend Neil actually earlier right before

1918
01:45:53,880 --> 01:45:56,719
Speaker 13: your stream to ask and to watch to co watch

1919
01:45:56,840 --> 01:45:58,559
Speaker 13: with me, and so I hope he's listening right now,

1920
01:45:58,560 --> 01:46:00,439
Speaker 13: because I was like walk mark my words, I'm going

1921
01:46:00,479 --> 01:46:05,320
Speaker 13: to get on tonight, and then I did so, so

1922
01:46:05,439 --> 01:46:08,120
Speaker 13: that's nice. But I also was thinking a lot about

1923
01:46:08,439 --> 01:46:11,599
Speaker 13: death tonight because of the stream, and I was thinking,

1924
01:46:11,800 --> 01:46:14,479
Speaker 13: why I know I'm not dead, It's because I don't know.

1925
01:46:14,760 --> 01:46:19,280
Speaker 13: I'm folding laundry and drinking wine and eating pasta, and

1926
01:46:19,320 --> 01:46:21,640
Speaker 13: I feel like that would be a really weird ghostly

1927
01:46:21,880 --> 01:46:25,360
Speaker 13: haunt or like simulation.

1928
01:46:24,960 --> 01:46:25,360
Speaker 7: To be in.

1929
01:46:26,040 --> 01:46:33,160
Speaker 3: So assuming, well, you're assuming that you're assuming that the

1930
01:46:33,360 --> 01:46:35,840
Speaker 3: pasta you're eating and the laundry you're folding, and the

1931
01:46:35,920 --> 01:46:38,679
Speaker 3: wine that you're drinking is not also of the ghost

1932
01:46:38,760 --> 01:46:41,880
Speaker 3: world and that you are not able to interact with

1933
01:46:41,960 --> 01:46:44,439
Speaker 3: it because you yourself are a ghost. So here's the thing.

1934
01:46:44,479 --> 01:46:46,519
Speaker 3: If you're dead and you're a ghost, the pasta that

1935
01:46:46,600 --> 01:46:49,280
Speaker 3: you're eating, the wine you're drinking, and the a you're

1936
01:46:49,320 --> 01:46:50,960
Speaker 3: folding are of the ghostly world, and that's why you

1937
01:46:51,040 --> 01:46:53,920
Speaker 3: can interact with them. So it's not a guarantee. I

1938
01:46:53,960 --> 01:46:57,240
Speaker 3: don't think that those activities are are are evidence enough

1939
01:46:57,280 --> 01:46:59,840
Speaker 3: that you are not dead, but I will say that true.

1940
01:47:00,600 --> 01:47:02,320
Speaker 3: I think it is good that you are thinking about

1941
01:47:02,360 --> 01:47:04,320
Speaker 3: those things, these things because a lot of people they

1942
01:47:04,360 --> 01:47:10,960
Speaker 3: live their lives, not even stopping to think whether or

1943
01:47:11,000 --> 01:47:14,080
Speaker 3: not they are ghosts. So I can bring you on

1944
01:47:14,360 --> 01:47:15,920
Speaker 3: putting in that effort in the first place.

1945
01:47:17,160 --> 01:47:21,000
Speaker 13: It's thank you. It's funny because when I saw the

1946
01:47:21,120 --> 01:47:23,840
Speaker 13: theme for tonight, actually I put on one of my

1947
01:47:24,000 --> 01:47:26,040
Speaker 13: like linen dresses because I was like, if I'm going

1948
01:47:26,080 --> 01:47:28,800
Speaker 13: to like have a ghosty night of folding laundry and

1949
01:47:28,880 --> 01:47:32,160
Speaker 13: drinking one and eating pasta, might as well like really

1950
01:47:32,360 --> 01:47:36,479
Speaker 13: lean into the part and listen to this stream about.

1951
01:47:36,280 --> 01:47:36,840
Speaker 6: Being a ghost.

1952
01:47:36,920 --> 01:47:41,000
Speaker 13: So I could be a ghost. And if so, I think,

1953
01:47:41,720 --> 01:47:43,240
Speaker 13: I think I'm okay with that. I think I'd be

1954
01:47:43,280 --> 01:47:47,280
Speaker 13: at peace. This is kind of a nice ghostly haunting activity,

1955
01:47:48,160 --> 01:47:49,080
Speaker 13: especially talking to us.

1956
01:47:49,479 --> 01:47:51,720
Speaker 3: So, of course, of course, Emily, I'm so glad to

1957
01:47:51,800 --> 01:47:53,519
Speaker 3: hear that not only have you thought about this, but

1958
01:47:53,640 --> 01:47:59,160
Speaker 3: you've accepted the multiple possible realities which will open you

1959
01:47:59,240 --> 01:48:03,440
Speaker 3: up the greater happen, because no matter what happens, you're fine.

1960
01:48:04,800 --> 01:48:09,120
Speaker 13: Exactly, and you know, yes, I appreciate that.

1961
01:48:09,240 --> 01:48:09,479
Speaker 6: Grek.

1962
01:48:10,280 --> 01:48:12,479
Speaker 3: Of course, Emily, I'm so happy I got to speak

1963
01:48:12,479 --> 01:48:15,640
Speaker 3: with you, and I'm excited to come see you in

1964
01:48:15,680 --> 01:48:17,960
Speaker 3: Portland as part of my gek across America. Documentary.

1965
01:48:18,880 --> 01:48:21,840
Speaker 13: I'm so excited. I'm so excited to see you. Maybe

1966
01:48:21,920 --> 01:48:25,120
Speaker 13: we can ghost around together, you know, haunt some people.

1967
01:48:25,560 --> 01:48:27,479
Speaker 3: Well, well, I'm pretty sure I'm not a ghost.

1968
01:48:28,280 --> 01:48:28,760
Speaker 4: Oh you're not.

1969
01:48:28,840 --> 01:48:32,320
Speaker 13: Okay, So then so you're like, how do you speak?

1970
01:48:32,520 --> 01:48:35,920
Speaker 13: I mean, yeah, I don't know how far we could

1971
01:48:35,920 --> 01:48:38,080
Speaker 13: go with this, but the fact that you can speak

1972
01:48:38,160 --> 01:48:39,879
Speaker 13: to a ghost me maybe.

1973
01:48:40,680 --> 01:48:41,559
Speaker 8: It's pretty impressible.

1974
01:48:42,960 --> 01:48:44,400
Speaker 13: You've quite the set of skills.

1975
01:48:45,040 --> 01:48:47,000
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you so much.

1976
01:48:47,040 --> 01:48:51,240
Speaker 7: Emia you two by.

1977
01:48:53,320 --> 01:48:54,040
Speaker 1: All from.

1978
01:48:57,600 --> 01:48:59,800
Speaker 3: Hello, Hello?

1979
01:49:01,360 --> 01:49:02,320
Speaker 18: Is this a parapy?

1980
01:49:02,400 --> 01:49:02,719
Speaker 1: Gecko?

1981
01:49:05,080 --> 01:49:06,120
Speaker 3: Is this talking Tom?

1982
01:49:07,280 --> 01:49:08,719
Speaker 18: No, it's not talking Tom.

1983
01:49:08,800 --> 01:49:11,200
Speaker 1: This is Becky, Becky.

1984
01:49:11,280 --> 01:49:12,120
Speaker 3: How you doing Becky?

1985
01:49:12,640 --> 01:49:16,280
Speaker 18: I'm doing good. I just opened up my reddit page

1986
01:49:16,360 --> 01:49:20,559
Speaker 18: to go to the subway, like the DMV subreddit, because

1987
01:49:20,560 --> 01:49:22,400
Speaker 18: I'm a d m V professional.

1988
01:49:24,560 --> 01:49:27,720
Speaker 3: Dragon ball Z DMZ.

1989
01:49:28,040 --> 01:49:29,679
Speaker 18: Department of Motor Vehicles.

1990
01:49:30,760 --> 01:49:33,280
Speaker 3: Oh okay, I don't know that there was I don't

1991
01:49:33,280 --> 01:49:36,800
Speaker 3: know that there was a DMV subreddits.

1992
01:49:37,320 --> 01:49:39,240
Speaker 18: You'd be surprised, Gecko.

1993
01:49:40,760 --> 01:49:44,040
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, Well, I mean, what do they talk about

1994
01:49:44,120 --> 01:49:44,479
Speaker 3: on there?

1995
01:49:45,080 --> 01:49:49,920
Speaker 18: They talk about how we waste everyone slipping time, and

1996
01:49:50,080 --> 01:49:53,400
Speaker 18: we just stare at them, and we had a lot. Honestly,

1997
01:49:53,920 --> 01:49:57,439
Speaker 18: the reason why I'm calling in is because lately I've

1998
01:49:57,520 --> 01:50:00,760
Speaker 18: been calling into this pastures on the team and they,

1999
01:50:01,120 --> 01:50:04,320
Speaker 18: you know, try to give me guidance. But uh, I

2000
01:50:04,439 --> 01:50:07,719
Speaker 18: called into the Joel Osting guy and even he told

2001
01:50:07,760 --> 01:50:09,120
Speaker 18: me to give up on my dreams.

2002
01:50:09,520 --> 01:50:14,040
Speaker 3: So really I'm lost in lost Mmm, so I'm I'm

2003
01:50:14,160 --> 01:50:19,479
Speaker 3: sort of the second opinion after Joel Joel Who is

2004
01:50:19,520 --> 01:50:20,439
Speaker 3: it Joel Olsen?

2005
01:50:21,120 --> 01:50:24,599
Speaker 18: Yes, yes, he's a pastor. He's a He's a really smart,

2006
01:50:24,800 --> 01:50:28,439
Speaker 18: handsome godler man. I'm the television got it, got it?

2007
01:50:28,520 --> 01:50:30,439
Speaker 3: Okay? So he told you to give up on your dreams?

2008
01:50:30,640 --> 01:50:32,519
Speaker 3: What are your dreams? What did you say? Your name

2009
01:50:32,600 --> 01:50:40,840
Speaker 3: was again, Becky, Becky? And what are your dreams? Becky?

2010
01:50:41,520 --> 01:50:46,200
Speaker 18: My dreams are the Sunday have a bunch of horses.

2011
01:50:46,320 --> 01:50:49,360
Speaker 18: I think I'm a horsey girl. But I always grew

2012
01:50:49,439 --> 01:50:51,920
Speaker 18: up in the city, but I just moved out here

2013
01:50:52,040 --> 01:50:57,160
Speaker 18: to Napa, California, and I'm just ready to start my dreams.

2014
01:50:57,280 --> 01:51:00,679
Speaker 18: But I only have a California DMV sailory.

2015
01:51:01,760 --> 01:51:02,200
Speaker 11: M hmm.

2016
01:51:02,960 --> 01:51:06,799
Speaker 3: Well, now tell me before I give you the second opinion,

2017
01:51:06,840 --> 01:51:10,840
Speaker 3: I'd like to hear the first. Why did Joel? Why

2018
01:51:10,880 --> 01:51:13,240
Speaker 3: did Pastor Joel tell you to give up? On your dreams.

2019
01:51:14,160 --> 01:51:16,360
Speaker 18: Well, honestly, I don't think he was giving me the

2020
01:51:16,439 --> 01:51:21,120
Speaker 18: lot of day I used to man, just you know, passing.

2021
01:51:20,880 --> 01:51:21,360
Speaker 23: It by.

2022
01:51:23,360 --> 01:51:23,840
Speaker 6: Mm hmmm.

2023
01:51:27,120 --> 01:51:27,760
Speaker 1: So what I mean?

2024
01:51:27,800 --> 01:51:29,519
Speaker 3: What did he tell you? Why did he did he

2025
01:51:29,640 --> 01:51:33,320
Speaker 3: say it was unrealistic financially? Did he say that God

2026
01:51:33,600 --> 01:51:35,960
Speaker 3: hates horse people? What was his reasoning?

2027
01:51:37,040 --> 01:51:39,439
Speaker 18: She just told me that I'm with what none of

2028
01:51:39,560 --> 01:51:43,720
Speaker 18: a basket case and it wasn't it wasn't worth my

2029
01:51:43,920 --> 01:51:46,400
Speaker 18: money like it kind of hurt me a lot.

2030
01:51:47,960 --> 01:51:53,200
Speaker 3: Mhm, it wasn't worth your money? Does Joel do you

2031
01:51:53,280 --> 01:51:54,599
Speaker 3: have to pay to talk to Joel?

2032
01:51:55,080 --> 01:51:59,160
Speaker 18: Two hundred dollars for ten minutes with mister Joel with

2033
01:51:59,320 --> 01:52:00,280
Speaker 18: a handsome.

2034
01:52:01,800 --> 01:52:03,800
Speaker 3: Does that money go directly to God or does it

2035
01:52:03,880 --> 01:52:06,240
Speaker 3: fund his UH car payments?

2036
01:52:06,720 --> 01:52:06,920
Speaker 20: Well?

2037
01:52:07,080 --> 01:52:09,600
Speaker 18: I'm pretty sure it finds of God's ambitions.

2038
01:52:11,479 --> 01:52:16,200
Speaker 3: Okay, do you do you believe that God? Well, okay,

2039
01:52:16,479 --> 01:52:19,840
Speaker 3: if you could talk directly to God, what do you think?

2040
01:52:19,960 --> 01:52:21,400
Speaker 3: What do you think he would tell you?

2041
01:52:23,400 --> 01:52:27,040
Speaker 18: He would tell me to Well, this is kind of personal,

2042
01:52:27,200 --> 01:52:29,640
Speaker 18: but you know, he probably would have told me that

2043
01:52:29,720 --> 01:52:31,640
Speaker 18: I shouldn't have offt my husband.

2044
01:52:33,360 --> 01:52:37,720
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, that you shouldn't have lost your husband.

2045
01:52:39,880 --> 01:52:41,400
Speaker 18: Half often.

2046
01:52:42,080 --> 01:52:50,320
Speaker 3: Oh often? Yeah, okay, so you you murdered your husband.

2047
01:52:53,600 --> 01:52:56,160
Speaker 18: Conversation for another day. You ain't a cop, are you?

2048
01:52:57,479 --> 01:52:58,320
Speaker 3: No, I'm a gecko?

2049
01:52:59,160 --> 01:53:04,440
Speaker 18: Oh watching around the teav you could be showing salesman

2050
01:53:04,600 --> 01:53:08,960
Speaker 18: and a perfectly if you should never give up any dreams,

2051
01:53:10,680 --> 01:53:11,000
Speaker 18: you know what?

2052
01:53:11,280 --> 01:53:13,679
Speaker 3: Look, let me tell you something, Becky, to really wrap

2053
01:53:13,760 --> 01:53:15,640
Speaker 3: this up here, what did you just tell me? You

2054
01:53:15,760 --> 01:53:17,719
Speaker 3: told me I should never give up on my dreams

2055
01:53:17,920 --> 01:53:20,160
Speaker 3: at the end of the day, Becky, Becky, at the

2056
01:53:20,280 --> 01:53:21,800
Speaker 3: end of the day. And I'm kind of learning this

2057
01:53:22,000 --> 01:53:25,040
Speaker 3: myself here at the end of the day. You have

2058
01:53:25,160 --> 01:53:26,439
Speaker 3: to be or your own You have to be your

2059
01:53:26,479 --> 01:53:33,479
Speaker 3: own cheerleader. Okay, okay. Look, if God or Joel cocking

2060
01:53:33,560 --> 01:53:38,400
Speaker 3: Balls or me aren't going to tell you to follow

2061
01:53:38,439 --> 01:53:41,760
Speaker 3: your dreams, tell yourself that what you just told me.

2062
01:53:42,479 --> 01:53:46,040
Speaker 3: Be your own cheerleader, Becky. You if you believe that

2063
01:53:46,160 --> 01:53:48,200
Speaker 3: I can follow my dreams, you believe that you can

2064
01:53:48,240 --> 01:53:52,519
Speaker 3: follow yours. So be your own cheerleader. Continue to support

2065
01:53:52,560 --> 01:53:57,280
Speaker 3: yourself as you follow your horsey dream and don't don't

2066
01:53:57,320 --> 01:53:59,160
Speaker 3: rely on anyone else for validation.

2067
01:54:00,080 --> 01:54:02,960
Speaker 18: All right, So where do I spend her two hundred

2068
01:54:03,000 --> 01:54:05,280
Speaker 18: dollars because this is way better than Joel esteem.

2069
01:54:06,760 --> 01:54:11,719
Speaker 3: Hmmm. You can venmo me at l dresser.

2070
01:54:12,439 --> 01:54:15,320
Speaker 18: Oh nice, nice, All right, well, I'm gonna let this

2071
01:54:15,720 --> 01:54:17,760
Speaker 18: therapy get I get back to his ways. But I

2072
01:54:17,840 --> 01:54:19,480
Speaker 18: appreciate the community.

2073
01:54:19,080 --> 01:54:21,760
Speaker 3: Service that you're doing, so of course, of course, Becky,

2074
01:54:21,800 --> 01:54:23,160
Speaker 3: thank you so much. You ever wanted for us to

2075
01:54:23,200 --> 01:54:23,439
Speaker 3: the name.

2076
01:54:23,479 --> 01:54:24,920
Speaker 18: All right, and you as well, thank you.

2077
01:54:25,360 --> 01:54:25,720
Speaker 7: Bye bye.

2078
01:54:27,080 --> 01:54:28,880
Speaker 3: Oh wait, it's three hundred dollars.

2079
01:54:29,880 --> 01:54:34,920
Speaker 1: Pull from to accept press one to.

2080
01:54:35,000 --> 01:54:37,240
Speaker 3: Say mystery caller? Are you there?

2081
01:54:38,960 --> 01:54:42,040
Speaker 6: Yeah there, How are you.

2082
01:54:43,640 --> 01:54:43,840
Speaker 17: Good?

2083
01:54:43,920 --> 01:54:44,240
Speaker 7: How are you?

2084
01:54:46,000 --> 01:54:46,440
Speaker 3: I'm good?

2085
01:54:46,480 --> 01:54:46,880
Speaker 6: How are you?

2086
01:54:48,320 --> 01:54:54,120
Speaker 14: I'm uh, I Remember'm just we's kind of vibing right now,

2087
01:54:57,040 --> 01:55:00,560
Speaker 14: you're vibing, yeah a little bit.

2088
01:55:01,320 --> 01:55:02,280
Speaker 3: What the hell does that mean?

2089
01:55:05,400 --> 01:55:09,440
Speaker 8: I'm just I'm just uh, I don't know.

2090
01:55:09,480 --> 01:55:10,280
Speaker 9: I'm just kind of like.

2091
01:55:11,880 --> 01:55:12,080
Speaker 10: I was.

2092
01:55:12,520 --> 01:55:12,960
Speaker 6: I was just.

2093
01:55:14,640 --> 01:55:18,440
Speaker 8: I'm just am right now. Uh, I don't know. I

2094
01:55:18,600 --> 01:55:22,920
Speaker 8: was just, dude, I was just being. And then I

2095
01:55:23,240 --> 01:55:25,880
Speaker 8: saw your phone number and I called and I didn't

2096
01:55:25,880 --> 01:55:28,760
Speaker 8: think it was gonna actually pick up, but here I.

2097
01:55:28,760 --> 01:55:29,880
Speaker 7: Am mm hmm.

2098
01:55:30,760 --> 01:55:32,040
Speaker 3: By the way, I have news for you. You know,

2099
01:55:32,160 --> 01:55:35,320
Speaker 3: you're saying that you were being, but at no point

2100
01:55:35,960 --> 01:55:39,960
Speaker 3: have you stopped being since which you were referring to

2101
01:55:40,360 --> 01:55:45,240
Speaker 3: yourself being No, I still are. Actually that kind of

2102
01:55:45,320 --> 01:55:47,080
Speaker 3: brings us a bit to the question here do you

2103
01:55:47,160 --> 01:55:47,920
Speaker 3: believe that you are?

2104
01:55:50,000 --> 01:55:54,320
Speaker 8: I believe that I am nice as much as much

2105
01:55:54,360 --> 01:55:54,800
Speaker 8: as I can.

2106
01:55:55,480 --> 01:55:59,040
Speaker 3: You know, so you called in, you didn't expect to

2107
01:55:59,080 --> 01:56:00,640
Speaker 3: get on what do you you expect?

2108
01:56:02,800 --> 01:56:07,360
Speaker 8: Well, I remember a while ago, I don't remember how long,

2109
01:56:07,480 --> 01:56:11,080
Speaker 8: but I tried to call and it was it was busy.

2110
01:56:11,680 --> 01:56:14,720
Speaker 8: This would have been probably over a month ago. And

2111
01:56:14,840 --> 01:56:17,720
Speaker 8: then uh, and so I wouldn't I was. I thought, maybe, well,

2112
01:56:17,800 --> 01:56:19,520
Speaker 8: you probably get a lot of calls, so I wouldn't

2113
01:56:19,560 --> 01:56:21,560
Speaker 8: be shocked if the line was busy again.

2114
01:56:21,760 --> 01:56:23,840
Speaker 7: But it wasn't.

2115
01:56:24,000 --> 01:56:25,400
Speaker 8: So I guess now here I am it.

2116
01:56:25,560 --> 01:56:26,120
Speaker 11: Is pretty you know.

2117
01:56:26,200 --> 01:56:28,600
Speaker 3: I tell everyone I get a lot of calls. This

2118
01:56:28,800 --> 01:56:32,480
Speaker 3: is true. But I'm going to answer, you know, one

2119
01:56:32,840 --> 01:56:35,960
Speaker 3: I'm going to answer someone, you know. So the chance

2120
01:56:36,120 --> 01:56:38,280
Speaker 3: here's the thing, the chance that I'm going to answer call,

2121
01:56:38,400 --> 01:56:40,960
Speaker 3: it's one hundred percent. So when you think of it

2122
01:56:41,080 --> 01:56:43,960
Speaker 3: like that, it's not as we you know, it's it's

2123
01:56:44,040 --> 01:56:45,360
Speaker 3: not that crazy that you got in.

2124
01:56:46,880 --> 01:56:48,920
Speaker 14: Yeah, such a it's really cool.

2125
01:56:49,280 --> 01:56:52,120
Speaker 8: Yeah, I like the way you think it's really cool.

2126
01:56:56,920 --> 01:56:59,840
Speaker 19: Uh, yeah, I mean, so.

2127
01:57:01,440 --> 01:57:02,480
Speaker 3: I know, uh.

2128
01:57:03,920 --> 01:57:09,400
Speaker 8: Does so mhmm, I don't. I don't really don't know

2129
01:57:09,480 --> 01:57:12,360
Speaker 8: what to ask or to talk about right now.

2130
01:57:13,280 --> 01:57:14,120
Speaker 3: That's totally fine.

2131
01:57:18,600 --> 01:57:21,520
Speaker 9: So so what I don't know?

2132
01:57:21,640 --> 01:57:30,440
Speaker 14: Just just like yeah, yeah, what about you?

2133
01:57:30,600 --> 01:57:31,720
Speaker 8: Do you believe that you are?

2134
01:57:42,560 --> 01:57:47,320
Speaker 3: You know, I try to believe and have opinions on

2135
01:57:47,560 --> 01:57:53,040
Speaker 3: as few things as I possibly can being a citizen

2136
01:57:53,080 --> 01:57:59,400
Speaker 3: of Earth. Uh so I abstain personally from a belief

2137
01:57:59,520 --> 01:58:01,360
Speaker 3: as to where or not I am.

2138
01:58:03,040 --> 01:58:06,480
Speaker 8: Very interesting. Is there a reasons I'm trying to hold

2139
01:58:06,720 --> 01:58:10,040
Speaker 8: very few beliefs? Is that like, like, like, what what

2140
01:58:10,240 --> 01:58:11,600
Speaker 8: purpose does that serve to you?

2141
01:58:13,120 --> 01:58:13,720
Speaker 7: Very interesting?

2142
01:58:14,520 --> 01:58:14,640
Speaker 12: Uh?

2143
01:58:14,760 --> 01:58:16,960
Speaker 3: It serves me a purpose of Well, here's the thing.

2144
01:58:17,120 --> 01:58:19,880
Speaker 3: Every single day, every single moment, I mean, even as

2145
01:58:19,920 --> 01:58:22,080
Speaker 3: I'm talking to you right now, as I'm talking to everyone,

2146
01:58:22,200 --> 01:58:25,680
Speaker 3: even as I'm a browsing the internet, as I'm looking around,

2147
01:58:25,760 --> 01:58:28,720
Speaker 3: as I go on a walk in the woods, you know,

2148
01:58:28,840 --> 01:58:30,880
Speaker 3: as I take a shit, as I talk to my

2149
01:58:31,120 --> 01:58:34,680
Speaker 3: dad on the phone, as I eat a sandwich, I'm

2150
01:58:34,880 --> 01:58:39,800
Speaker 3: constantly at every single I mean as I'm dreaming, dude,

2151
01:58:40,000 --> 01:58:45,440
Speaker 3: you know, constantly, at every single moment every day, being

2152
01:58:45,600 --> 01:58:52,720
Speaker 3: presented with new information about the world, and I I'm

2153
01:58:52,800 --> 01:58:58,120
Speaker 3: interested in being uh you know, open to that information, uh,

2154
01:58:59,240 --> 01:59:04,200
Speaker 3: you know, as widely as possible. So I try not to,

2155
01:59:04,720 --> 01:59:07,880
Speaker 3: you know, make beliefs about I try to assert firm

2156
01:59:07,960 --> 01:59:11,400
Speaker 3: beliefs as to whether or not I exist, because every

2157
01:59:11,440 --> 01:59:14,200
Speaker 3: day I'm getting presented with new information that could change

2158
01:59:14,240 --> 01:59:16,920
Speaker 3: that belief. So I set nothing in stone.

2159
01:59:18,840 --> 01:59:25,240
Speaker 8: Interesting. So do you think then that because I kind

2160
01:59:25,240 --> 01:59:28,440
Speaker 8: of have almost like a similar like, I try to

2161
01:59:28,520 --> 01:59:34,240
Speaker 8: make myself open to the different like information that exists

2162
01:59:34,240 --> 01:59:38,960
Speaker 8: in the world. But instead of holding trying to hold

2163
01:59:39,080 --> 01:59:40,160
Speaker 8: few beliefs.

2164
01:59:39,880 --> 01:59:39,960
Speaker 12: I.

2165
01:59:41,600 --> 01:59:45,800
Speaker 8: Think I end up holding many different beliefs as much

2166
01:59:45,840 --> 01:59:48,920
Speaker 8: as I can and constantly trying to challenge them. And

2167
01:59:49,600 --> 01:59:52,879
Speaker 8: so as much as I may firmly believe in something,

2168
01:59:53,520 --> 01:59:57,720
Speaker 8: I'm equally ready to change that belief into believing in

2169
01:59:57,840 --> 01:59:58,400
Speaker 8: something else.

2170
01:59:59,520 --> 02:00:10,680
Speaker 3: You know, I think that's smart. Well, let me ask

2171
02:00:10,720 --> 02:00:15,920
Speaker 3: you something here. You you said to me that you

2172
02:00:15,960 --> 02:00:17,200
Speaker 3: believe that you exist? Correct?

2173
02:00:18,120 --> 02:00:18,320
Speaker 7: Yeah?

2174
02:00:20,240 --> 02:00:20,400
Speaker 9: Now?

2175
02:00:20,680 --> 02:00:22,240
Speaker 3: And he and this is how I operate, you know,

2176
02:00:22,320 --> 02:00:25,080
Speaker 3: I do. I do have beliefs. Some of my beliefs

2177
02:00:25,160 --> 02:00:30,040
Speaker 3: I'm more open to challenging than others. And I'm curious

2178
02:00:30,120 --> 02:00:37,680
Speaker 3: for you your belief that you exist, how opener challenging.

2179
02:00:37,360 --> 02:00:42,760
Speaker 14: That, hmhmm, you know, I actually.

2180
02:00:44,200 --> 02:00:49,200
Speaker 8: I very much challenge that, uh, because I believe I

2181
02:00:49,880 --> 02:00:51,800
Speaker 8: as much as I can firmly believe, because you know

2182
02:00:52,040 --> 02:00:57,520
Speaker 8: that I don't know who said it, but uh, very shamously,

2183
02:00:57,680 --> 02:00:59,880
Speaker 8: someone said I think, therefore I am, and that if

2184
02:01:00,040 --> 02:01:04,480
Speaker 8: actively is saying, well, there is something that is producing

2185
02:01:04,560 --> 02:01:08,440
Speaker 8: the thoughts in my brain, and that must exist, right,

2186
02:01:08,680 --> 02:01:15,440
Speaker 8: But I mean, we really don't know where it all

2187
02:01:15,480 --> 02:01:18,200
Speaker 8: comes from. Like as much as we can try and

2188
02:01:18,320 --> 02:01:22,680
Speaker 8: like describe like how our brains work and how thought happens,

2189
02:01:22,760 --> 02:01:28,760
Speaker 8: we really don't know necessarily where where thought and where

2190
02:01:29,000 --> 02:01:34,920
Speaker 8: our own like sensions necessarily exists from or exists. Because

2191
02:01:34,960 --> 02:01:42,000
Speaker 8: of so I don't necessarily know that I exist.

2192
02:01:42,320 --> 02:01:43,120
Speaker 7: I can only.

2193
02:01:44,400 --> 02:01:50,600
Speaker 8: Believe that I exist in the way that that person

2194
02:01:50,680 --> 02:01:53,600
Speaker 8: described that. I think therefore I am. So something is

2195
02:01:53,720 --> 02:01:57,320
Speaker 8: producing what I describe as my own thoughts, or at

2196
02:01:57,400 --> 02:02:00,560
Speaker 8: least that's what I would be led to believe. But

2197
02:02:02,480 --> 02:02:07,280
Speaker 8: I think that maybe it doesn't necessarily even matter whether

2198
02:02:07,400 --> 02:02:12,080
Speaker 8: I do or do not exist, because either way I

2199
02:02:13,560 --> 02:02:16,680
Speaker 8: treat existence in the same way. I still act and

2200
02:02:17,440 --> 02:02:21,120
Speaker 8: speak and live my same life whether or not I

2201
02:02:21,400 --> 02:02:26,360
Speaker 8: believe I exist or not, So I don't necessarily give

2202
02:02:27,960 --> 02:02:31,480
Speaker 8: too much thought into it a lot of the times,

2203
02:02:31,600 --> 02:02:34,720
Speaker 8: just because it doesn't make a big difference, but purely

2204
02:02:34,800 --> 02:02:38,200
Speaker 8: want to get down into it. That's a belief that

2205
02:02:38,320 --> 02:02:40,840
Speaker 8: I hold firmly, that yes, I.

2206
02:02:40,880 --> 02:02:41,920
Speaker 6: Do believe I exist.

2207
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Speaker 8: But also it's equally something that is difficult to challenge,

2208
02:02:47,720 --> 02:02:50,760
Speaker 8: and because of that, it's something I have to hold

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Speaker 8: with a very large grain of salt.

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Speaker 12: Because.

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02:02:55,320 --> 02:03:00,640
Speaker 8: If I believe that I exist, I don't necessarily know

2212
02:03:00,800 --> 02:03:02,000
Speaker 8: that what that.

2213
02:03:02,120 --> 02:03:06,800
Speaker 6: Existence really is, you know, absolutely?

2214
02:03:07,400 --> 02:03:08,120
Speaker 3: What is your name?

2215
02:03:08,240 --> 02:03:08,280
Speaker 7: Was?

2216
02:03:09,960 --> 02:03:11,200
Speaker 14: My name is Trevor.

2217
02:03:11,440 --> 02:03:13,560
Speaker 8: Sorry I didn't quite get that in at the beginning

2218
02:03:13,600 --> 02:03:13,960
Speaker 8: of the call.

2219
02:03:14,960 --> 02:03:16,520
Speaker 3: There's a pleasure talking to each other. I hope you

2220
02:03:16,560 --> 02:03:17,560
Speaker 3: have every wanted for us of the night.

2221
02:03:18,480 --> 02:03:21,760
Speaker 8: Yeah, you too, Thanks for hearing me out.

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02:03:21,880 --> 02:03:23,600
Speaker 3: You know, of course you take.

2223
02:03:23,480 --> 02:03:24,120
Speaker 8: Care of them.

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02:03:26,880 --> 02:03:32,560
Speaker 1: All. From to accept press one to send out.

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Speaker 12: Hello, Hello, mister Gecko, how are you.

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02:03:39,400 --> 02:03:39,600
Speaker 7: Hey.

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02:03:39,640 --> 02:03:42,200
Speaker 12: I've just been watching your channel for a while with

2228
02:03:42,360 --> 02:03:45,000
Speaker 12: some of my friends here and my friend Robbie.

2229
02:03:45,000 --> 02:03:45,760
Speaker 6: He likes you a lot.

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02:03:46,680 --> 02:03:49,080
Speaker 12: I've never seen your twitch. I don't even have a twitch,

2231
02:03:49,960 --> 02:03:52,440
Speaker 12: but I'm just happy to be here and I would

2232
02:03:52,640 --> 02:03:55,800
Speaker 12: like to Yeah, I would just like to talk like

2233
02:03:56,600 --> 02:04:00,920
Speaker 12: a little about really anything. Some of these phone calls

2234
02:04:00,960 --> 02:04:03,920
Speaker 12: have been a little bit frustrating. I don't know for you,

2235
02:04:04,280 --> 02:04:06,480
Speaker 12: but for as a viewer, it's been a little bit rough.

2236
02:04:06,600 --> 02:04:08,720
Speaker 12: So I don't know, let's try to spice things up

2237
02:04:08,760 --> 02:04:08,960
Speaker 12: a bit.

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02:04:09,440 --> 02:04:11,760
Speaker 3: Well, well, well, Tom, what's your name? Will tell me?

2239
02:04:14,360 --> 02:04:16,920
Speaker 3: Tell me? Why have these phone calls been not frustrating

2240
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Speaker 3: for you?

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02:04:17,680 --> 02:04:19,960
Speaker 12: Oh my god, I just can't believe there's this many

2242
02:04:20,080 --> 02:04:22,640
Speaker 12: brainded people in the world. People like to flap their

2243
02:04:22,680 --> 02:04:25,040
Speaker 12: lips and they just speak, but there's no substance that

2244
02:04:25,360 --> 02:04:28,560
Speaker 12: comes out of it. I'm not I'm not saying that

2245
02:04:28,640 --> 02:04:33,040
Speaker 12: I know everything about everything, but people just like to talk,

2246
02:04:33,880 --> 02:04:37,400
Speaker 12: which essentially is why I'm here as well. But if

2247
02:04:37,440 --> 02:04:41,080
Speaker 12: there's any questions that you'd like to ask, aside from

2248
02:04:41,080 --> 02:04:42,600
Speaker 12: the how do you know you're not dead? Because I

2249
02:04:42,720 --> 02:04:44,920
Speaker 12: just I don't have anything good for that other than

2250
02:04:44,960 --> 02:04:47,840
Speaker 12: the fact that I'm fucking miserable like all day, Like,

2251
02:04:48,120 --> 02:04:51,480
Speaker 12: there's pain. If existence is pain, then we exist, We're alive.

2252
02:04:51,600 --> 02:04:52,520
Speaker 12: That's the end of that question.

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02:04:54,880 --> 02:04:57,080
Speaker 3: So you okay, So not only did you say that

2254
02:04:57,160 --> 02:04:59,040
Speaker 3: the calls we have been frustrating for you, But you

2255
02:05:00,840 --> 02:05:03,800
Speaker 3: sense that I'm not saying that they are.

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02:05:03,920 --> 02:05:04,080
Speaker 6: I'm not.

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02:05:04,160 --> 02:05:06,560
Speaker 3: I'm not confirming this sense in any way you perform,

2258
02:05:06,760 --> 02:05:08,880
Speaker 3: but you sense that they're frustrating for me.

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02:05:10,360 --> 02:05:11,200
Speaker 6: I'm yeah.

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02:05:12,840 --> 02:05:15,760
Speaker 12: I just again, people just like to talk, and your

2261
02:05:15,840 --> 02:05:20,400
Speaker 12: show is meant for this very purpose. I mean, one

2262
02:05:20,480 --> 02:05:22,839
Speaker 12: caller just called you to talk about doing her laundry.

2263
02:05:23,280 --> 02:05:25,280
Speaker 12: I mean I could call my I could call my

2264
02:05:25,680 --> 02:05:28,280
Speaker 12: fucking mom and talk to her about that. People don't

2265
02:05:28,280 --> 02:05:31,160
Speaker 12: want to hear that. You know, you want to get

2266
02:05:31,240 --> 02:05:32,920
Speaker 12: some You want to get some calls with a little

2267
02:05:32,920 --> 02:05:35,640
Speaker 12: bit of sustenance, you know, drinking wine and folding laundry.

2268
02:05:35,720 --> 02:05:36,160
Speaker 6: That's cute.

2269
02:05:36,160 --> 02:05:38,720
Speaker 12: But call your boyfriend, call your mom, call your cousin

2270
02:05:38,760 --> 02:05:41,560
Speaker 12: about it. Don't call your show, right, you're the therapy gecko.

2271
02:05:41,640 --> 02:05:42,480
Speaker 12: You don't have time for this.

2272
02:05:43,400 --> 02:05:46,920
Speaker 3: Well, well, so I ask you then, And I'm curious

2273
02:05:47,040 --> 02:05:51,920
Speaker 3: because you say that your friend is familiar with my stream.

2274
02:05:52,040 --> 02:05:53,840
Speaker 1: But you are not right.

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02:05:54,360 --> 02:05:57,000
Speaker 3: I mean, when you say, you know, let's get something,

2276
02:05:57,040 --> 02:05:59,880
Speaker 3: when you you're talking about how you think I should

2277
02:05:59,880 --> 02:06:03,320
Speaker 3: have of calls with more sustenance, what how would you

2278
02:06:03,440 --> 02:06:09,640
Speaker 3: define sustenance? You'll refer to it.

2279
02:06:09,680 --> 02:06:13,480
Speaker 12: As sure, let's talk about exit, well, talk about existence,

2280
02:06:13,520 --> 02:06:15,280
Speaker 12: talk about anything. I don't know, Like, if you've ever

2281
02:06:15,360 --> 02:06:18,320
Speaker 12: listened to Howard Stern, he'll just hang up on calls

2282
02:06:18,360 --> 02:06:20,680
Speaker 12: that you know, like you can tell early on when

2283
02:06:20,680 --> 02:06:25,360
Speaker 12: a call isn't going anywhere. Folding laundry is one of

2284
02:06:25,400 --> 02:06:28,800
Speaker 12: those calls, you know, And for you, I'm sure it's

2285
02:06:28,800 --> 02:06:30,840
Speaker 12: a little bit like you don't know, you're trying to

2286
02:06:30,840 --> 02:06:32,720
Speaker 12: give the benefit of the doubt to the caller because

2287
02:06:32,760 --> 02:06:35,560
Speaker 12: they've made it into the show. I get that. I'm

2288
02:06:35,640 --> 02:06:38,280
Speaker 12: just saying for us, we've just been trying to I

2289
02:06:38,320 --> 02:06:39,920
Speaker 12: don't know, I've been trying to get on your show.

2290
02:06:39,960 --> 02:06:42,360
Speaker 12: I don't know what I would say, but that's where

2291
02:06:42,400 --> 02:06:45,680
Speaker 12: I've landed on while listening to this woman fold clothes

2292
02:06:45,880 --> 02:06:47,800
Speaker 12: and talk about essentially nothing.

2293
02:06:49,800 --> 02:06:50,040
Speaker 19: Well.

2294
02:06:51,520 --> 02:06:53,160
Speaker 6: Hm, so so.

2295
02:06:55,240 --> 02:06:59,200
Speaker 3: You're attacking the sustenance I mean, but still okay. So

2296
02:06:59,320 --> 02:07:00,200
Speaker 3: here's here's my thing.

2297
02:07:00,240 --> 02:07:02,440
Speaker 12: Though I could be wrong, it's just my opinion. I

2298
02:07:02,480 --> 02:07:03,720
Speaker 12: don't well, well, here's my thing.

2299
02:07:03,880 --> 02:07:09,320
Speaker 3: Here's my thing though, is you have stated examples of

2300
02:07:09,440 --> 02:07:17,880
Speaker 3: what you think does not constitute a substanceful conversation. But

2301
02:07:18,080 --> 02:07:20,840
Speaker 3: I feel like I've yet to get from you an

2302
02:07:20,920 --> 02:07:25,480
Speaker 3: example of something that, in your opinion, would I've only

2303
02:07:25,560 --> 02:07:28,760
Speaker 3: gotten though, what would not not an example of, you know,

2304
02:07:29,320 --> 02:07:32,240
Speaker 3: something that you find that you would think would be interesting?

2305
02:07:33,360 --> 02:07:36,000
Speaker 12: True? And the question at hands as well. I don't

2306
02:07:36,040 --> 02:07:38,720
Speaker 12: have a good answer for the do we exist? Do

2307
02:07:38,840 --> 02:07:40,680
Speaker 12: we not exist? You could ramble on here.

2308
02:07:41,200 --> 02:07:43,840
Speaker 3: Yes, it's not that important. All that matters is agreed.

2309
02:07:44,000 --> 02:07:45,560
Speaker 3: We're two people talking on the phone.

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02:07:46,160 --> 02:07:48,560
Speaker 12: Agreed. Yeah. All I can tell you is I'm really

2311
02:07:48,680 --> 02:07:52,320
Speaker 12: drunk with my friends who my friend Robbie that loves you,

2312
02:07:52,680 --> 02:07:54,920
Speaker 12: and we've just been firing off phone calls just trying

2313
02:07:54,920 --> 02:07:56,680
Speaker 12: to get in. I didn't think I would get in,

2314
02:07:56,760 --> 02:08:01,480
Speaker 12: but here I am today. And yeah, he's got a

2315
02:08:01,520 --> 02:08:03,480
Speaker 12: shit eating grin over there in the corner. He's They're

2316
02:08:03,520 --> 02:08:05,840
Speaker 12: dead silent, like you could hear a pin drop in

2317
02:08:05,880 --> 02:08:08,400
Speaker 12: this place. You know, everything's all very tense here.

2318
02:08:09,600 --> 02:08:14,040
Speaker 3: Let me ask you something you are are you know,

2319
02:08:14,320 --> 02:08:16,560
Speaker 3: doing a lot of judging you?

2320
02:08:16,760 --> 02:08:20,120
Speaker 12: I think you'd agree, Yeah, and I'm drunk, so take

2321
02:08:20,120 --> 02:08:21,480
Speaker 12: everything I see with a grain of salt.

2322
02:08:21,960 --> 02:08:24,480
Speaker 3: Sure, but you're doing a lot of judging here, do

2323
02:08:24,760 --> 02:08:25,320
Speaker 3: you now?

2324
02:08:26,200 --> 02:08:26,240
Speaker 12: You?

2325
02:08:26,800 --> 02:08:31,720
Speaker 3: I mean you have to assume that you know you

2326
02:08:32,120 --> 02:08:35,680
Speaker 3: were watching the other callers, you were judging them based.

2327
02:08:35,400 --> 02:08:36,680
Speaker 1: On your own.

2328
02:08:38,560 --> 02:08:41,040
Speaker 3: Criteria of what is substantial?

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02:08:41,480 --> 02:08:41,840
Speaker 9: Do you.

2330
02:08:44,800 --> 02:08:47,760
Speaker 3: And you right now are being judged by other people?

2331
02:08:48,760 --> 02:08:50,120
Speaker 12: Yeah, I'm aware if.

2332
02:08:51,840 --> 02:08:54,680
Speaker 3: You're substantial, How do you feel about that? How do

2333
02:08:54,760 --> 02:08:58,040
Speaker 3: you feel being judged by others the way that you

2334
02:08:58,240 --> 02:08:59,280
Speaker 3: have been judging others?

2335
02:09:00,160 --> 02:09:01,960
Speaker 12: I think it's just the doggy dog world.

2336
02:09:02,040 --> 02:09:02,160
Speaker 6: Man.

2337
02:09:02,240 --> 02:09:04,240
Speaker 12: You get judged every day right now. I'm just on

2338
02:09:04,360 --> 02:09:07,520
Speaker 12: the platform. So you got to understand that you're whether

2339
02:09:07,640 --> 02:09:09,680
Speaker 12: or not you want to be judged, it's going to

2340
02:09:09,760 --> 02:09:12,440
Speaker 12: happen anyway, right And you can try to be the

2341
02:09:12,480 --> 02:09:15,400
Speaker 12: good Christian boy and just be like, oh, I'm not

2342
02:09:15,480 --> 02:09:18,680
Speaker 12: going to judge people by how they speak or what

2343
02:09:18,840 --> 02:09:20,680
Speaker 12: I think of them on the surface. But it's going

2344
02:09:20,760 --> 02:09:23,840
Speaker 12: to happen regardless. So the best way to go about

2345
02:09:23,920 --> 02:09:26,440
Speaker 12: doing things is to just do it as if you

2346
02:09:26,560 --> 02:09:29,240
Speaker 12: are going to be judged regardless, and you'll I think

2347
02:09:29,280 --> 02:09:31,000
Speaker 12: you'd live a more fulfilling life that way.

2348
02:09:32,240 --> 02:09:35,960
Speaker 3: I by the way, I think that's great, I really do.

2349
02:09:36,480 --> 02:09:39,040
Speaker 3: I think it's good to live in a way that

2350
02:09:40,400 --> 02:09:44,440
Speaker 3: you're impervious to the judgments of others. However, you know,

2351
02:09:45,240 --> 02:09:51,200
Speaker 3: I think in hand to aid that goal. I think

2352
02:09:52,120 --> 02:09:54,080
Speaker 3: it would be helpful for you to judge other people

2353
02:09:54,200 --> 02:09:57,080
Speaker 3: less because the more judgmental you are of other people,

2354
02:09:57,600 --> 02:09:59,360
Speaker 3: the more judgmental you're going to be of yourself, the

2355
02:09:59,400 --> 02:10:01,640
Speaker 3: more sustainable the other people's judgments of you you're going

2356
02:10:01,680 --> 02:10:02,840
Speaker 3: to be. Would you not agree with that?

2357
02:10:04,320 --> 02:10:08,040
Speaker 12: I think you're correct. Where I think there could be

2358
02:10:08,120 --> 02:10:12,840
Speaker 12: improvement is constructive criticism. While I could be very judgmental,

2359
02:10:13,080 --> 02:10:15,760
Speaker 12: I think it's still good to know that. If you

2360
02:10:15,920 --> 02:10:19,080
Speaker 12: are a viewer, or if you are a therapy gecko,

2361
02:10:19,520 --> 02:10:22,160
Speaker 12: you would want to know where the where the other

2362
02:10:22,240 --> 02:10:24,320
Speaker 12: side of the coin is. Right, I'm not telling you

2363
02:10:24,360 --> 02:10:26,680
Speaker 12: that I'm folding my laundry. In fact, I'm doing less

2364
02:10:26,680 --> 02:10:28,200
Speaker 12: than that woman is right now. I'm just sitting on

2365
02:10:28,320 --> 02:10:31,320
Speaker 12: my couch watching your stream, right so I'm being less

2366
02:10:31,360 --> 02:10:36,240
Speaker 12: productive than she is. However, as a listener, that was

2367
02:10:36,280 --> 02:10:40,240
Speaker 12: a little bit frustrating. I feel like there's a lot

2368
02:10:40,280 --> 02:10:42,720
Speaker 12: more people not even saying myself. I just feel like

2369
02:10:42,720 --> 02:10:45,520
Speaker 12: there's a lot more people out there that have that

2370
02:10:45,720 --> 02:10:48,600
Speaker 12: have very interesting things to say. I can't say that

2371
02:10:48,680 --> 02:10:54,040
Speaker 12: I'm one of them, but I would would like to think, Yeah,

2372
02:10:57,280 --> 02:11:03,120
Speaker 12: why are you miserable? Is miserable. Right, there's ups, there's peaks,

2373
02:11:03,160 --> 02:11:07,480
Speaker 12: there's valleys, there's everyday conflict. But if you know that

2374
02:11:07,720 --> 02:11:13,280
Speaker 12: you are miserable, then existence. Existence is difficult, right, It's

2375
02:11:13,320 --> 02:11:16,520
Speaker 12: a constant struggle. So if you're miserable, you know that

2376
02:11:16,640 --> 02:11:21,600
Speaker 12: you're alive because the end is nothing. There's nothing there there,

2377
02:11:22,480 --> 02:11:25,760
Speaker 12: there is no fucking and this is all right. They're

2378
02:11:25,800 --> 02:11:28,120
Speaker 12: laughing already in the other room. This isn't a this

2379
02:11:28,320 --> 02:11:32,160
Speaker 12: isn't a doom and gloom. It's just a there's nothing

2380
02:11:32,200 --> 02:11:33,520
Speaker 12: at the end of the road, right, you just you

2381
02:11:33,600 --> 02:11:36,040
Speaker 12: go to sleep, you go away. Sleep is the reward.

2382
02:11:36,440 --> 02:11:36,600
Speaker 9: Right.

2383
02:11:36,760 --> 02:11:39,960
Speaker 12: So if you're miserable, you're struggling, which is life.

2384
02:11:40,040 --> 02:11:40,640
Speaker 7: That is life.

2385
02:11:40,840 --> 02:11:43,200
Speaker 12: Life is a struggle. That's how you know you're existing.

2386
02:11:43,240 --> 02:11:44,160
Speaker 12: That's how you know you're living.

2387
02:11:46,000 --> 02:11:46,160
Speaker 18: You know.

2388
02:11:46,280 --> 02:11:51,560
Speaker 3: It's funny. I feel like in the call previously, I

2389
02:11:51,760 --> 02:11:57,440
Speaker 3: was just talking about not having so many set in

2390
02:11:57,560 --> 02:12:00,640
Speaker 3: stone beliefs because life is always giving me, you know,

2391
02:12:00,840 --> 02:12:07,160
Speaker 3: new information, and I feel like again, you know, look,

2392
02:12:07,360 --> 02:12:10,560
Speaker 3: I'm not a real therapist, you know that, but.

2393
02:12:11,360 --> 02:12:19,000
Speaker 23: I feel like you've got this this big heavy bag

2394
02:12:20,440 --> 02:12:23,080
Speaker 23: of beliefs.

2395
02:12:23,560 --> 02:12:28,800
Speaker 3: About the world and about your life and about all

2396
02:12:28,880 --> 02:12:35,200
Speaker 3: these different things and they're they're kind of pessimistic. No, well,

2397
02:12:35,400 --> 02:12:38,360
Speaker 3: they might be weighing you down a little bit here.

2398
02:12:39,280 --> 02:12:41,800
Speaker 12: Well, honestly, death is the reward at the end of

2399
02:12:41,840 --> 02:12:44,320
Speaker 12: the road. That's the truth of it, right. I'm not

2400
02:12:44,600 --> 02:12:47,440
Speaker 12: like I say, I'm miserable right because living is misery.

2401
02:12:47,920 --> 02:12:49,640
Speaker 12: But I'm not. I'm not going to get there.

2402
02:12:49,760 --> 02:12:53,000
Speaker 3: Living is right there, Living is misery, you.

2403
02:12:53,040 --> 02:12:55,080
Speaker 12: Said, then you can. By the way.

2404
02:12:55,440 --> 02:12:58,640
Speaker 3: Listen, you said that. You said that, yes, exactly right now,

2405
02:12:58,680 --> 02:13:02,839
Speaker 3: you said it's true. You are con convinced living is misery.

2406
02:13:02,920 --> 02:13:04,240
Speaker 3: That is one of those blame me. I was just

2407
02:13:04,280 --> 02:13:06,720
Speaker 3: talking to the caller. What what beliefs are you more

2408
02:13:06,800 --> 02:13:07,720
Speaker 3: open to challenging?

2409
02:13:07,800 --> 02:13:07,960
Speaker 6: Here?

2410
02:13:08,640 --> 02:13:09,240
Speaker 9: You you.

2411
02:13:10,960 --> 02:13:13,040
Speaker 3: That that does not come off to me as one

2412
02:13:13,040 --> 02:13:15,080
Speaker 3: of the beliefs that you're willing to challenge. And I

2413
02:13:15,200 --> 02:13:18,280
Speaker 3: look again, I don't know you, man, but I would

2414
02:13:20,920 --> 02:13:27,080
Speaker 3: maybe and maybe this is you know, easier done, easier

2415
02:13:27,160 --> 02:13:31,600
Speaker 3: said than done. But leave that belief that life is

2416
02:13:32,000 --> 02:13:35,480
Speaker 3: misery open to a little bit of challenging.

2417
02:13:37,160 --> 02:13:38,640
Speaker 12: Okay, I'll take that to heart.

2418
02:13:39,680 --> 02:13:39,880
Speaker 7: Good.

2419
02:13:40,080 --> 02:13:44,240
Speaker 3: What your sur name was, Calvin?

2420
02:13:44,760 --> 02:13:46,120
Speaker 12: Yeah, I didn't think it was going to get on,

2421
02:13:46,200 --> 02:13:48,240
Speaker 12: So sorry about that it's okay.

2422
02:13:49,120 --> 02:13:50,840
Speaker 3: Well, thank you so much for calling Calvin. You have

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Speaker 3: a good rest of the night.

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Speaker 12: I appreciate it. Get go, Thank you you too.

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Speaker 6: Bye bye.

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Speaker 3: Goes off the line, taking your phone calls.

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Speaker 2: Every night, everythink, goes doing a Ride's teaching you a

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Speaker 2: house of your life, but he's not really an expert.

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Speaker 9: M