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Please keep in mind that 19 00:01:29,040 --> 00:01:31,160 Speaker 1: all of my guests are Anness, so list again. This 20 00:01:31,240 --> 00:01:34,560 Speaker 1: week's episode, you also mentioned that you can use magic 21 00:01:34,680 --> 00:01:40,000 Speaker 1: with the planets. How does that work? Sort of the 22 00:01:40,040 --> 00:01:45,880 Speaker 1: way that full loon magic works mm hm, but a 23 00:01:45,880 --> 00:01:51,440 Speaker 1: little bit more ceremonial. So you have maybe, um, not maybe, 24 00:01:51,440 --> 00:01:59,000 Speaker 1: but the mercury, mercury, Venaciens, Venus, Jovian's that stupid to 25 00:01:59,120 --> 00:02:04,120 Speaker 1: name Jove, Saturnians, and then so on and so force. 26 00:02:04,200 --> 00:02:08,160 Speaker 1: Those are the demonyms for the planet, and those groups 27 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:12,119 Speaker 1: of spirits can be really helpful towards specific ideas. So 28 00:02:12,560 --> 00:02:17,240 Speaker 1: if you understand that the planets were named after certain 29 00:02:17,240 --> 00:02:21,440 Speaker 1: deities and spirits, not the other way around, So speak like, 30 00:02:21,480 --> 00:02:24,360 Speaker 1: even though history tries to tell you that you know, 31 00:02:25,800 --> 00:02:27,600 Speaker 1: the reason why we named a lot of things was 32 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:30,160 Speaker 1: or why we have God's is because other things existed. 33 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:34,720 Speaker 1: Each of the planets has their own energy and their 34 00:02:34,760 --> 00:02:40,919 Speaker 1: own spirits, and when you're working with said planets, all 35 00:02:40,960 --> 00:02:43,360 Speaker 1: of the deity and spirits related to it kind of 36 00:02:43,400 --> 00:02:45,720 Speaker 1: relates to each other, so you can assume that it 37 00:02:45,800 --> 00:02:48,480 Speaker 1: has a specific energy the way you look at ad signs. 38 00:02:48,560 --> 00:02:51,160 Speaker 1: So if you know that areas is a certain thing 39 00:02:51,200 --> 00:02:54,959 Speaker 1: in Mars rules aries, you would imagine that Martian spirits 40 00:02:55,000 --> 00:02:57,000 Speaker 1: act a lot like an arias would if you want 41 00:02:57,040 --> 00:03:00,280 Speaker 1: to understand it on the basic level. And and so 42 00:03:00,400 --> 00:03:02,840 Speaker 1: when you address Mars and a ritual you would do 43 00:03:03,680 --> 00:03:07,640 Speaker 1: something for maybe war magic or beating an opponent, or 44 00:03:07,680 --> 00:03:12,680 Speaker 1: getting a promotion or the victory over something or sex. 45 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:16,640 Speaker 1: His mars is you know, really into that. And but 46 00:03:16,720 --> 00:03:18,680 Speaker 1: you would use a lot of red. You will lose 47 00:03:19,919 --> 00:03:24,919 Speaker 1: weapons if you have them, blades, guns if you have them, 48 00:03:24,919 --> 00:03:27,880 Speaker 1: like putting a gun on the mars altars like he 49 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:30,440 Speaker 1: you're gonna get his attention, you know, because he'd be 50 00:03:30,440 --> 00:03:33,640 Speaker 1: one and go black like And but spirits like the 51 00:03:33,680 --> 00:03:35,800 Speaker 1: things you you know, give to them, So creating an 52 00:03:35,800 --> 00:03:39,480 Speaker 1: altar space for them, calling them down. It's it's really 53 00:03:39,520 --> 00:03:42,960 Speaker 1: complex because most of the planetary magic systems are are 54 00:03:43,160 --> 00:03:45,800 Speaker 1: very ceremonial, so there's a lot of steps to them, 55 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:49,440 Speaker 1: including the really long invocations, hymns, a lot of stuff. 56 00:03:50,040 --> 00:03:54,040 Speaker 1: But on a basic level, there's a day of the 57 00:03:54,080 --> 00:03:56,560 Speaker 1: week for each planet. There's an hour for each planet 58 00:03:56,640 --> 00:03:58,920 Speaker 1: on each day of the week. If you want to 59 00:03:58,960 --> 00:04:00,960 Speaker 1: work with a certain planet, best to work on its 60 00:04:01,040 --> 00:04:04,520 Speaker 1: day and make an also of the things that it 61 00:04:04,600 --> 00:04:07,800 Speaker 1: likes that are related to it and ask it for 62 00:04:07,840 --> 00:04:12,000 Speaker 1: something and see where that takes you and understand the 63 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:17,080 Speaker 1: spirit you're working with. So don't get like uppitty with Saturn. 64 00:04:17,520 --> 00:04:22,400 Speaker 1: Saturn is very old and like discipline and not playing, 65 00:04:22,440 --> 00:04:25,680 Speaker 1: which you plant. So if you pull up on him 66 00:04:25,680 --> 00:04:27,760 Speaker 1: in any way other than the most respectful, he's going 67 00:04:27,800 --> 00:04:31,000 Speaker 1: to ignore you, and he may run havoc and you're 68 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:34,159 Speaker 1: like just just for irking him. Understanding that they have 69 00:04:34,279 --> 00:04:36,720 Speaker 1: energies and personalities and that they're not just waiting for 70 00:04:36,760 --> 00:04:39,080 Speaker 1: you to call them to work with them, is you 71 00:04:39,120 --> 00:04:41,920 Speaker 1: know under it's the best way to start with that. 72 00:04:43,080 --> 00:04:46,160 Speaker 1: M hm. So I guess on a basic level, that's 73 00:04:46,160 --> 00:04:48,320 Speaker 1: how I can explain it. It gets really deep and 74 00:04:48,360 --> 00:04:50,680 Speaker 1: there's a lot of variations is of course there are 75 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:56,360 Speaker 1: to everything, but that's how I would introduce it. That 76 00:04:56,520 --> 00:05:02,640 Speaker 1: you also mentioned return mm hmm. What the US has 77 00:05:02,640 --> 00:05:06,560 Speaker 1: put a return? So you know how you have a 78 00:05:06,560 --> 00:05:09,360 Speaker 1: Saturn return? Do you know what that is? What is 79 00:05:09,400 --> 00:05:13,719 Speaker 1: that put? Also? Who might not know? So okay, I 80 00:05:13,760 --> 00:05:20,279 Speaker 1: forgot you have So you're sad in return is around 81 00:05:20,560 --> 00:05:25,200 Speaker 1: twenty seven maybe depending on how your chart looks to 82 00:05:26,120 --> 00:05:28,799 Speaker 1: thirty five thirty six, which is your mid life crisis. 83 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:34,719 Speaker 1: So Sadden being the most disciplined and karmaic based planet 84 00:05:35,480 --> 00:05:37,120 Speaker 1: that has such an impact on that, and it's a 85 00:05:37,160 --> 00:05:40,560 Speaker 1: slow planet, so it affectually long term, your Sadden return 86 00:05:40,760 --> 00:05:43,040 Speaker 1: happens around the time that you also have your mid 87 00:05:43,040 --> 00:05:45,680 Speaker 1: life crisis, because they are connected to each other. That's 88 00:05:45,680 --> 00:05:48,440 Speaker 1: why everybody seems to have a mid life crisis because 89 00:05:48,640 --> 00:05:50,479 Speaker 1: it's your sad In return and your second one is 90 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:52,760 Speaker 1: when you're fifty, and that's normally when people stabilize in 91 00:05:52,800 --> 00:05:55,719 Speaker 1: their cool in life where they just all like fully 92 00:05:55,720 --> 00:06:01,000 Speaker 1: break down. So that's your Saturn return Pluto return. Most 93 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:04,159 Speaker 1: people don't live that long, so I think the Pluto 94 00:06:04,200 --> 00:06:06,839 Speaker 1: return happens every two hundred and fifty to two hundred 95 00:06:07,040 --> 00:06:11,960 Speaker 1: and sixty years, and that's also the amount of time 96 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:15,719 Speaker 1: that it takes for an empire to fall typically, so 97 00:06:15,880 --> 00:06:19,320 Speaker 1: empires typically ender change around the Pluto return because it 98 00:06:19,360 --> 00:06:22,480 Speaker 1: starts on the planet on on the day for a 99 00:06:22,640 --> 00:06:26,720 Speaker 1: year that the country was formed or the business was formed. 100 00:06:26,720 --> 00:06:28,360 Speaker 1: So a business can have a Pluto return if it 101 00:06:28,440 --> 00:06:32,920 Speaker 1: last two hundred and fifty years. So the us is 102 00:06:34,120 --> 00:06:39,000 Speaker 1: Pluto return is based on the seventeen seventy six signing. 103 00:06:41,720 --> 00:06:47,799 Speaker 1: The us is Pluto return would be in me personally, 104 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:49,680 Speaker 1: I don't base it off that because I know that 105 00:06:49,680 --> 00:06:54,120 Speaker 1: the country was founded before they fully ratified the Constitution 106 00:06:54,320 --> 00:06:57,400 Speaker 1: and wrote it up and everything that the discussions were 107 00:06:57,400 --> 00:07:00,400 Speaker 1: happening beforehand, and planets don't move on our time. So 108 00:07:00,520 --> 00:07:02,919 Speaker 1: even though it's started a seventy seventy six, I placed 109 00:07:02,920 --> 00:07:06,440 Speaker 1: it a little bit before that, and that that peaks 110 00:07:06,520 --> 00:07:11,640 Speaker 1: on February two. Mm hmm. And even though a lot 111 00:07:11,640 --> 00:07:14,080 Speaker 1: of people are saying, yeah, that's like rumor and everything, 112 00:07:14,120 --> 00:07:17,120 Speaker 1: I think it's based on how you calculate it. Astrology 113 00:07:17,240 --> 00:07:19,360 Speaker 1: is very loose in that way. It could be calculated different. 114 00:07:19,960 --> 00:07:23,920 Speaker 1: But ultimately, over the next two or just over the 115 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:27,080 Speaker 1: next two years, the US is going to be going 116 00:07:27,160 --> 00:07:31,040 Speaker 1: through Pluto being where it was when it started. And 117 00:07:31,080 --> 00:07:36,119 Speaker 1: Pluto is a planet of karma, transformation, death, and also 118 00:07:36,200 --> 00:07:40,080 Speaker 1: things coming up from the ground, so even economic change 119 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:42,800 Speaker 1: or economic crisis can happen, and it could be a 120 00:07:42,880 --> 00:07:45,240 Speaker 1: lot of things like that. But we already see that 121 00:07:46,080 --> 00:07:51,560 Speaker 1: sort of unrolling right now. Mm hm. So that's basically 122 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:53,840 Speaker 1: what the Pluto return is, is is that apocalypse everybody is 123 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:58,880 Speaker 1: waiting for. Mm hmm. Olkay, so let's get into you. 124 00:07:59,600 --> 00:08:11,320 Speaker 1: How haven't you been practicing magic ooh um actively m 125 00:08:11,520 --> 00:08:19,880 Speaker 1: hm five years? Okay. I've been interested in studying it 126 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:27,080 Speaker 1: for since I was eight. So I'm twenty two now, 127 00:08:28,880 --> 00:08:33,480 Speaker 1: so I've been actively practicing for five years and I 128 00:08:33,600 --> 00:08:42,640 Speaker 1: have a over half of life's worth a study and yeah, 129 00:08:42,920 --> 00:08:47,680 Speaker 1: m hmm, that's right. So how are you introduced to it? Well, 130 00:08:47,760 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 1: for me, it was library like that book I told 131 00:08:50,080 --> 00:08:53,360 Speaker 1: you about. I just I wanted to be a fantasy writer. 132 00:08:53,440 --> 00:08:56,920 Speaker 1: My mom's a writer. I love fantasy stories. There's a 133 00:08:56,960 --> 00:08:59,680 Speaker 1: sad backstory to that that I won't give, but I 134 00:08:59,760 --> 00:09:04,760 Speaker 1: just loved writing fictional worlds and being in these books 135 00:09:04,800 --> 00:09:06,800 Speaker 1: I had. I was at a college reading level in 136 00:09:06,880 --> 00:09:11,040 Speaker 1: like fifth grade, so I read all kinds of things, 137 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:14,000 Speaker 1: and I just I read past the children's section of 138 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:17,800 Speaker 1: the library, which is pretty large, and so the librarian 139 00:09:17,880 --> 00:09:20,360 Speaker 1: pointed me to the adults section, but there was a 140 00:09:20,400 --> 00:09:24,480 Speaker 1: young adults area in there, but they also had encyclopedias 141 00:09:24,600 --> 00:09:29,280 Speaker 1: and all types of bigger books on interesting subjects like 142 00:09:29,320 --> 00:09:32,200 Speaker 1: supernatural things. I wanted to write about supernatural creatures, so 143 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:34,680 Speaker 1: I would always get those books along with my other 144 00:09:34,920 --> 00:09:36,920 Speaker 1: list of twenty books I would get every month, because 145 00:09:36,960 --> 00:09:39,080 Speaker 1: that's how many books I would read the month, or 146 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:43,240 Speaker 1: try to. Then't always reach that goal, but in that 147 00:09:43,280 --> 00:09:45,800 Speaker 1: there are a lot of books about witchcraft. I learned 148 00:09:45,800 --> 00:09:48,080 Speaker 1: meditation from one of those books, which I didn't implement 149 00:09:48,120 --> 00:09:49,800 Speaker 1: for a few years later, but it was the book 150 00:09:49,880 --> 00:09:51,880 Speaker 1: that made me start doing meditation because I remembered it. 151 00:09:51,920 --> 00:09:56,360 Speaker 1: I was like, maybe it's will work and yeah. It 152 00:09:56,760 --> 00:10:01,960 Speaker 1: was a lot of library books and then the Internet, 153 00:10:02,240 --> 00:10:05,280 Speaker 1: and I was really good at computers and the internet, 154 00:10:05,400 --> 00:10:09,839 Speaker 1: so I was into all types of things, all types 155 00:10:09,880 --> 00:10:15,800 Speaker 1: of things, role playing, video games, just everything. I'm a 156 00:10:15,800 --> 00:10:21,600 Speaker 1: computer gamer, so I just loved that. And every part 157 00:10:21,640 --> 00:10:27,440 Speaker 1: of my life was magic, like every part, every part 158 00:10:27,480 --> 00:10:31,959 Speaker 1: of it. And it wasn't until I started giving that 159 00:10:32,160 --> 00:10:35,480 Speaker 1: the attention that it had always been giving me that 160 00:10:35,559 --> 00:10:38,960 Speaker 1: I was like, oh, this ship is real, yeah, which 161 00:10:39,000 --> 00:10:43,040 Speaker 1: was hard to believe. So funny story. I was in 162 00:10:43,120 --> 00:10:46,360 Speaker 1: college and my my ex who was my boyfriend at 163 00:10:46,360 --> 00:10:51,880 Speaker 1: the time, I was researching something for because I was 164 00:10:51,920 --> 00:10:53,600 Speaker 1: an artist at the time and I was a writer 165 00:10:53,679 --> 00:10:56,280 Speaker 1: in school, so I was researching something for a character 166 00:10:56,880 --> 00:11:00,280 Speaker 1: and it was my first It was my first served 167 00:11:00,320 --> 00:11:06,920 Speaker 1: my second year, and I saw on Tumbler because I 168 00:11:06,960 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 1: was big on Tumbler. I've been on Tumbler since it 169 00:11:09,040 --> 00:11:11,800 Speaker 1: was created, since the year it was created, so I've 170 00:11:11,840 --> 00:11:14,800 Speaker 1: just always been on tumbler, and then I noticed there 171 00:11:14,800 --> 00:11:20,599 Speaker 1: were these witches making posters, making posts and it was 172 00:11:20,640 --> 00:11:24,040 Speaker 1: about all types of cool things, and I was I 173 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:26,720 Speaker 1: was always into astrology, so I still I got introduced 174 00:11:26,760 --> 00:11:30,360 Speaker 1: to it from the astrology tumblers, and then it was 175 00:11:30,800 --> 00:11:35,960 Speaker 1: Fay magic and Norse magic and rain witchcraft and the 176 00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:39,319 Speaker 1: different types of magic, and I was like, oh, people really, 177 00:11:40,480 --> 00:11:43,360 Speaker 1: like really do this. And there was a website I 178 00:11:43,440 --> 00:11:45,560 Speaker 1: remember being one as a kid called spells of Magic 179 00:11:45,600 --> 00:11:47,720 Speaker 1: dot com and it had hit me at that time. 180 00:11:47,760 --> 00:11:49,760 Speaker 1: I was like, Oh, that website was real. I used 181 00:11:49,760 --> 00:11:51,960 Speaker 1: to think that website was just like a website that 182 00:11:51,960 --> 00:11:55,480 Speaker 1: people just put fake spells on, but then looking back, 183 00:11:55,840 --> 00:11:57,960 Speaker 1: it's a real website. Now people do put fake spells 184 00:11:57,960 --> 00:12:02,679 Speaker 1: on there in abundance, but it's a lot of it 185 00:12:02,880 --> 00:12:06,520 Speaker 1: is authentic and they're from authentic practitioners. And I never 186 00:12:06,600 --> 00:12:08,200 Speaker 1: knew that. But I had been on that website when 187 00:12:08,240 --> 00:12:12,000 Speaker 1: I was like maybe ten so or eleven whenever it 188 00:12:12,080 --> 00:12:16,240 Speaker 1: first opened, because I remember first finding it and I 189 00:12:16,480 --> 00:12:18,880 Speaker 1: asked my ex. I was like, would it be cool 190 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,400 Speaker 1: if I made an altar? Because my roommate had just 191 00:12:21,440 --> 00:12:23,640 Speaker 1: moved out. My other roomains, and I was like, would 192 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:25,640 Speaker 1: it be cool if I made like an altar like 193 00:12:26,040 --> 00:12:28,240 Speaker 1: in the front room. And I had already been keeping 194 00:12:29,440 --> 00:12:33,120 Speaker 1: uh spell jars and little skulls and I'm a little 195 00:12:33,120 --> 00:12:35,680 Speaker 1: emo goth kid, so I just I had the magic 196 00:12:35,720 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: Sorceress aesthetic already down and I was introduced to it. 197 00:12:40,480 --> 00:12:42,440 Speaker 1: It took me a few months of like implementing it 198 00:12:42,480 --> 00:12:46,240 Speaker 1: and having candles around and having jars and filling them 199 00:12:46,240 --> 00:12:47,880 Speaker 1: with water, and then I asked him one day. I 200 00:12:47,920 --> 00:12:49,360 Speaker 1: was like, do you think it would be cool if 201 00:12:49,400 --> 00:12:55,040 Speaker 1: I set up in like official altar and the room 202 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:56,520 Speaker 1: or in the living room And he was like, yeah, 203 00:12:56,520 --> 00:13:00,080 Speaker 1: that made that be fire, and so I did. I 204 00:13:00,160 --> 00:13:04,720 Speaker 1: meditated that at once. I ordered a tarot deck because 205 00:13:04,760 --> 00:13:07,040 Speaker 1: my ex girlfriend had always told me I should do tarot, 206 00:13:07,040 --> 00:13:08,439 Speaker 1: and so I was like, that's where I'm gonna start. 207 00:13:08,440 --> 00:13:10,160 Speaker 1: I gonna start with urge and tarot because that's what 208 00:13:10,200 --> 00:13:14,560 Speaker 1: I have available to me, mhm. And from there it 209 00:13:14,760 --> 00:13:18,120 Speaker 1: was I don't even know, I don't even know, Like 210 00:13:18,720 --> 00:13:21,000 Speaker 1: the terror got me because I've always been psychic, but 211 00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:22,640 Speaker 1: I didn't have a way to channel it, and the 212 00:13:22,800 --> 00:13:27,319 Speaker 1: terror just gave me the perfect outlet. Mm hmm. So 213 00:13:27,559 --> 00:13:31,199 Speaker 1: it was my first magical practice that I was actually 214 00:13:31,240 --> 00:13:33,800 Speaker 1: doing every day, and then I was incorporating other things. 215 00:13:33,840 --> 00:13:36,800 Speaker 1: I made some really big tumbler posts on like college 216 00:13:36,840 --> 00:13:39,600 Speaker 1: which tips, just because I was in college and I 217 00:13:39,600 --> 00:13:41,560 Speaker 1: was trying to figure out how this magic thing worked 218 00:13:41,880 --> 00:13:46,200 Speaker 1: when I was in school mhm. And it came natural 219 00:13:46,240 --> 00:13:48,600 Speaker 1: to me because I already had all the prerequisite knowledge 220 00:13:48,640 --> 00:13:52,480 Speaker 1: like the elements, the planets, the as above so below 221 00:13:53,320 --> 00:13:55,680 Speaker 1: magic functions like this. Already had that from when I 222 00:13:55,720 --> 00:13:58,840 Speaker 1: was a kid. When you write a book that has 223 00:13:58,880 --> 00:14:01,760 Speaker 1: a magic system, which is what I do, you have 224 00:14:01,880 --> 00:14:05,720 Speaker 1: to have an understanding of how magic systems work. Real 225 00:14:05,760 --> 00:14:10,200 Speaker 1: ones are not. And that's the same stuff that people 226 00:14:10,240 --> 00:14:11,760 Speaker 1: use the right books and the same stuff as an 227 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:14,160 Speaker 1: actual magic. So I just had that all of that 228 00:14:14,280 --> 00:14:17,200 Speaker 1: knowledge there. So after he said that I was at 229 00:14:17,240 --> 00:14:18,640 Speaker 1: the altar, and I was at it every day. I 230 00:14:18,679 --> 00:14:24,240 Speaker 1: was meditating there every day, I was pulling cards, lighting candles. 231 00:14:24,280 --> 00:14:26,840 Speaker 1: It was it was a beautiful experience. I was. I 232 00:14:26,880 --> 00:14:30,960 Speaker 1: was outside more my depression which had been gotten really 233 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:33,440 Speaker 1: bad because I had had a few bad suicide attempts 234 00:14:33,480 --> 00:14:39,000 Speaker 1: the year before, and it like my my depression, which 235 00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:41,520 Speaker 1: I felt like it got to a peak even though 236 00:14:41,560 --> 00:14:43,360 Speaker 1: I was on any depressions that I just got worse. 237 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:46,440 Speaker 1: It like went away to the point where I was like, yeah, 238 00:14:46,480 --> 00:14:49,880 Speaker 1: I'm good off to any depressidents. Are you feel like 239 00:14:49,920 --> 00:14:53,200 Speaker 1: magic save you? Yeah? I feel like if I didn't 240 00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:55,920 Speaker 1: have it right now, I would go in sane Like 241 00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:59,120 Speaker 1: it's even to this day, it's the only thing that 242 00:14:59,760 --> 00:15:02,800 Speaker 1: be has part of my depression because everybody is different 243 00:15:03,480 --> 00:15:07,040 Speaker 1: but me. I just I couldn't find a reason to 244 00:15:07,120 --> 00:15:09,720 Speaker 1: be here. I never connected with people. I don't do 245 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:11,560 Speaker 1: things normal people because on my friends say I'm not 246 00:15:11,640 --> 00:15:14,520 Speaker 1: human because I just don't do things that regular people do. 247 00:15:14,600 --> 00:15:17,200 Speaker 1: And I'm a contraryan by nature. But now, but I 248 00:15:17,240 --> 00:15:20,520 Speaker 1: never understood other people. I just couldn't find a way 249 00:15:20,560 --> 00:15:23,600 Speaker 1: to live in the world and be me and be 250 00:15:23,680 --> 00:15:26,880 Speaker 1: my full self because it was too different. Even in 251 00:15:26,920 --> 00:15:30,240 Speaker 1: the spiritual community, I experienced that sometimes I'm like, I'm 252 00:15:30,320 --> 00:15:32,240 Speaker 1: I'm much more on the spooky side than a lot 253 00:15:32,240 --> 00:15:34,160 Speaker 1: of you guys. You guys are just a lot I 254 00:15:34,160 --> 00:15:37,840 Speaker 1: guess more woke than me because you know, I just 255 00:15:37,840 --> 00:15:40,760 Speaker 1: do different things. And that always made me feel separate 256 00:15:40,760 --> 00:15:47,080 Speaker 1: and isolated and black, sheepish and that loneliness. It was 257 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:48,880 Speaker 1: really bad for me. And then after I had the 258 00:15:48,960 --> 00:15:53,840 Speaker 1: suicide attack, his funny story about that the last time 259 00:15:53,880 --> 00:15:55,760 Speaker 1: I had when where I ended up in the hospital 260 00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:59,960 Speaker 1: like not of my own choice. I was basically catatonic 261 00:16:00,080 --> 00:16:03,160 Speaker 1: and then I kind of like slipped into nothingness and 262 00:16:03,200 --> 00:16:06,600 Speaker 1: I literally felt death, Like what that's what I just 263 00:16:06,600 --> 00:16:08,640 Speaker 1: call it death. I don't know what spirit or being 264 00:16:08,680 --> 00:16:10,920 Speaker 1: it was. It probably was death, but it like I 265 00:16:10,960 --> 00:16:13,880 Speaker 1: felt it lightly put its hand on my chest and 266 00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:17,800 Speaker 1: tell me no. And then I was back in the 267 00:16:17,880 --> 00:16:20,120 Speaker 1: hospital crying, looking at the nerves because she had just 268 00:16:20,120 --> 00:16:22,920 Speaker 1: said that my hair was pretty, and I said thank you, 269 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:26,720 Speaker 1: and I hadn't talked in hours, and I just choked 270 00:16:26,720 --> 00:16:28,240 Speaker 1: out of thank you because I had just happened to 271 00:16:28,240 --> 00:16:29,760 Speaker 1: hear her say that, and it was the first thing 272 00:16:29,760 --> 00:16:33,040 Speaker 1: I heard coming back into like presence. And after that, though, 273 00:16:33,080 --> 00:16:36,080 Speaker 1: I felt a lot of shame because I failed. That 274 00:16:36,160 --> 00:16:40,720 Speaker 1: comes with that sometimes. But after but after the magic 275 00:16:41,120 --> 00:16:45,480 Speaker 1: became real to me and so many other revelations, every 276 00:16:45,520 --> 00:16:49,640 Speaker 1: time it was the answer, it was like, that's what 277 00:16:49,760 --> 00:16:53,000 Speaker 1: saved me every time. That's why nothing's ever touched me. 278 00:16:53,040 --> 00:16:55,200 Speaker 1: I've been a lot of dangerous situations and just made 279 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:59,160 Speaker 1: it out just by chance. And it wasn't chance, you know. 280 00:16:59,240 --> 00:17:02,320 Speaker 1: It was like, Okay, everything in my life started to 281 00:17:02,360 --> 00:17:04,560 Speaker 1: make so much sense that I didn't have pain about 282 00:17:04,560 --> 00:17:09,240 Speaker 1: it anymore. It just felt like, oh, this is part 283 00:17:09,320 --> 00:17:12,159 Speaker 1: of a bigger thing. I have a different I'm just 284 00:17:12,280 --> 00:17:16,639 Speaker 1: different because I'm connected to this thing that functions different 285 00:17:16,680 --> 00:17:20,439 Speaker 1: and doesn't always have the best sense of humor. But 286 00:17:20,520 --> 00:17:24,600 Speaker 1: I'm here because of all those things, A lot of 287 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:26,280 Speaker 1: the things, all of a lot of the mental illness 288 00:17:26,280 --> 00:17:28,639 Speaker 1: I've went through in my life has made me a 289 00:17:28,840 --> 00:17:33,359 Speaker 1: perfect spiritual medium, a perfect spiritual host, and a really 290 00:17:33,359 --> 00:17:36,120 Speaker 1: dedicated magician. Because I have nothing but it. I love 291 00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:39,280 Speaker 1: it more than I love anything else. Because it's in 292 00:17:39,359 --> 00:17:43,040 Speaker 1: everything I see. I feel like without it and be 293 00:17:43,119 --> 00:17:47,040 Speaker 1: like seeing the world without color because it wouldn't have 294 00:17:47,080 --> 00:17:50,680 Speaker 1: the same luster to it no more. Because when nothing 295 00:17:50,680 --> 00:17:52,600 Speaker 1: else was keeping me here, it was like, na, the 296 00:17:52,600 --> 00:17:54,520 Speaker 1: world is magical. Why would I want to be here? 297 00:17:54,880 --> 00:17:59,080 Speaker 1: I can make this reality is my choice, So yeah, 298 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:03,240 Speaker 1: I'll stay. Even when I had attempts later I would 299 00:18:03,280 --> 00:18:05,320 Speaker 1: I felt bad and told myself, like, yo, we said 300 00:18:05,359 --> 00:18:08,200 Speaker 1: we would be cool, and then it just went away. 301 00:18:08,240 --> 00:18:13,639 Speaker 1: On its own. I needed time, but my pain subsided 302 00:18:15,160 --> 00:18:17,080 Speaker 1: like that. I've been holding onto and even though it 303 00:18:17,119 --> 00:18:20,240 Speaker 1: comes back sometimes and of course we have relapses, things happen, 304 00:18:20,840 --> 00:18:24,960 Speaker 1: but that's all part of the journey. And I'm so 305 00:18:25,080 --> 00:18:29,720 Speaker 1: grateful because I'm like impervious to a lot. So it's 306 00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:34,160 Speaker 1: okay to be a little fucked up sometimes because there's 307 00:18:34,440 --> 00:18:36,480 Speaker 1: I got a lot of gifts, you know, I got 308 00:18:36,480 --> 00:18:41,040 Speaker 1: a lot going for me and more. I've had even 309 00:18:41,080 --> 00:18:43,280 Speaker 1: had friends that have told me that the universe is 310 00:18:43,280 --> 00:18:45,960 Speaker 1: trying to see what I made of. It's not trying 311 00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:47,320 Speaker 1: to it's not trying to teck me. And that was 312 00:18:47,320 --> 00:18:50,479 Speaker 1: the best lesson I learned. It wasn't out to get me. 313 00:18:51,680 --> 00:18:53,280 Speaker 1: It was just trying to see what I would do 314 00:18:53,760 --> 00:18:55,399 Speaker 1: when I do something different, I'm going to do the 315 00:18:55,440 --> 00:18:56,960 Speaker 1: same thing because I keep saying I want to do 316 00:18:57,000 --> 00:18:59,480 Speaker 1: something different. I was manifesting the work the world I wanted, 317 00:18:59,480 --> 00:19:01,600 Speaker 1: but I never wanted to give into the full change. 318 00:19:02,080 --> 00:19:03,879 Speaker 1: I never wanted to. I didn't want to feel the 319 00:19:03,880 --> 00:19:05,840 Speaker 1: pain anymore. I wanted to run away from it instead 320 00:19:05,880 --> 00:19:10,040 Speaker 1: of just accepting that I was in pain and just 321 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:13,200 Speaker 1: being in pain for a while and not judging myself 322 00:19:13,280 --> 00:19:16,520 Speaker 1: or caring, and then that pain morph the way that 323 00:19:16,560 --> 00:19:19,439 Speaker 1: I saw magic in a way that I'm significantly more 324 00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:22,000 Speaker 1: empowered by it then I think a lot of people 325 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,240 Speaker 1: are who talk about it. A lot of people who 326 00:19:24,280 --> 00:19:26,880 Speaker 1: talk about it are hyped up on the spiritual aspects 327 00:19:26,920 --> 00:19:31,920 Speaker 1: of it, but me like, it's it's my entire life, 328 00:19:32,000 --> 00:19:35,880 Speaker 1: the way that some people's lives are, you know, painting 329 00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:39,040 Speaker 1: walls and it's all they know. They don't want to 330 00:19:39,040 --> 00:19:41,119 Speaker 1: do anything else. It just makes them so happy, like 331 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:44,440 Speaker 1: that's all it is to me, And it's so magnificent 332 00:19:44,800 --> 00:19:48,080 Speaker 1: that I kind of sometimes have a hard time understanding 333 00:19:48,119 --> 00:19:53,120 Speaker 1: why other people don't lean towards it because it did 334 00:19:53,200 --> 00:19:57,240 Speaker 1: way more than save my life, because it's it doesn't 335 00:19:57,280 --> 00:19:59,120 Speaker 1: it's not going to just affect me in this lifetime. 336 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:02,480 Speaker 1: It woke me up from a really really really really 337 00:20:02,560 --> 00:20:05,600 Speaker 1: really long slumber that has been that it's lasted longer 338 00:20:05,640 --> 00:20:10,120 Speaker 1: than I've had this body, because that pain was kept 339 00:20:10,200 --> 00:20:12,359 Speaker 1: was coming with me from lifetimes. It wasn't just it 340 00:20:12,480 --> 00:20:15,159 Speaker 1: wasn't just me. Like I said earlier, I've lived a 341 00:20:15,160 --> 00:20:18,679 Speaker 1: lot of lifetimes in one little body. I've been so 342 00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:22,280 Speaker 1: many people over my twenty two years that it's kind 343 00:20:22,280 --> 00:20:25,080 Speaker 1: of hard to believe that I am the age I 344 00:20:25,119 --> 00:20:26,960 Speaker 1: say I am, because it's hard to believe that I 345 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:31,000 Speaker 1: went through anything I went through. It's a line and 346 00:20:31,080 --> 00:20:33,320 Speaker 1: I you know, one day all I'm packing them full. 347 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:36,960 Speaker 1: But it's just it's been so much to the point 348 00:20:37,040 --> 00:20:39,400 Speaker 1: where I was like, how can't I be a lot 349 00:20:39,760 --> 00:20:42,960 Speaker 1: if I'm going through all this and I'm still standing. 350 00:20:43,760 --> 00:20:46,119 Speaker 1: Most people couldn't stand after two of the things. I 351 00:20:46,160 --> 00:20:52,320 Speaker 1: went to imagine ten of them. My my therapist used 352 00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:55,200 Speaker 1: to tell me that my therapist became a spiritual guide 353 00:20:55,240 --> 00:20:56,720 Speaker 1: to me over the years. And I've had the same 354 00:20:56,760 --> 00:21:03,200 Speaker 1: therapist since I was eleven, and even though we had 355 00:21:03,240 --> 00:21:05,600 Speaker 1: normal conversations as I was growing up, when I was 356 00:21:05,840 --> 00:21:07,640 Speaker 1: after I was in college and I finally came back 357 00:21:07,680 --> 00:21:09,800 Speaker 1: to him, he kind of became a spiritual mentor to 358 00:21:09,840 --> 00:21:12,720 Speaker 1: me because he had a spiritual connection I had known 359 00:21:12,760 --> 00:21:15,040 Speaker 1: nothing about, but he had always known had been in me, 360 00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:18,920 Speaker 1: and so we encouraged it. I had those support systems. 361 00:21:18,960 --> 00:21:22,280 Speaker 1: It changed the entire way my life was set up 362 00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:27,280 Speaker 1: how I engaged with it. So that's a long win 363 00:21:27,320 --> 00:21:29,680 Speaker 1: day explanation, but it's like, it really is the love 364 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:33,840 Speaker 1: of my life, I can say it really is. If 365 00:21:33,840 --> 00:21:35,760 Speaker 1: it's one thing you would say magic, talk to you, 366 00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:45,680 Speaker 1: what is it? That power is power. It's not good, 367 00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:49,280 Speaker 1: it's not evil, it's not great, it's not little. It 368 00:21:49,400 --> 00:21:53,520 Speaker 1: just is what it is. So something that has power, 369 00:21:54,680 --> 00:21:56,399 Speaker 1: whether it wants it or not, is going to have 370 00:21:56,480 --> 00:21:59,360 Speaker 1: an effect on things as if it does. And if 371 00:21:59,400 --> 00:22:01,760 Speaker 1: you want to have any form of power over yourself, 372 00:22:02,119 --> 00:22:06,119 Speaker 1: your spirit, your body, your life, the people around you, 373 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:09,119 Speaker 1: maybe the world around you, you have to want it, 374 00:22:09,160 --> 00:22:12,200 Speaker 1: but you have to obtain it. It's not going to 375 00:22:12,320 --> 00:22:15,000 Speaker 1: just come because you want it. It's the same way 376 00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:17,200 Speaker 1: magic works. It's not just gonna come because you ask 377 00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:21,800 Speaker 1: it to. It's not gonna just happen because you believe 378 00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:25,480 Speaker 1: in it. You've got to really believe in it. You 379 00:22:25,520 --> 00:22:28,520 Speaker 1: have to put some power behind the power, because that's 380 00:22:28,520 --> 00:22:31,840 Speaker 1: all it is, is power. So if that's why your 381 00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:33,720 Speaker 1: faith is important, because if you don't have power in 382 00:22:33,760 --> 00:22:37,359 Speaker 1: your faith, magic ain't never gonna work. No matter how 383 00:22:37,440 --> 00:22:40,920 Speaker 1: many times you do that spell, it ain't never gonna work. 384 00:22:41,000 --> 00:22:42,320 Speaker 1: You don't even have it in you. You don't have 385 00:22:42,359 --> 00:22:46,320 Speaker 1: the power to muster up belief. God said the faith 386 00:22:46,359 --> 00:22:49,480 Speaker 1: of a mustard seed can move them out in Okay, 387 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:52,520 Speaker 1: and people don't don't don't question that, They don't question 388 00:22:52,600 --> 00:22:54,600 Speaker 1: how little faith they must have if a mustard seed 389 00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:56,680 Speaker 1: is bigger than it and they can't move mountains. Because 390 00:22:56,680 --> 00:23:00,000 Speaker 1: there are people who who float and meditate or levitate 391 00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:01,680 Speaker 1: and do all types of fun stuff in the world, 392 00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:04,200 Speaker 1: and we don't know nothing about him because everybody else 393 00:23:04,280 --> 00:23:07,119 Speaker 1: is stuck playing two K. Why am I focused on that? 394 00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:09,400 Speaker 1: Why am I thinking? I think I'm just channeling from 395 00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:14,879 Speaker 1: doing his career playing two K. You know something, Sometimes 396 00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:16,960 Speaker 1: sometimes I just see people in my mind, and I 397 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,400 Speaker 1: know it's my psychic brain, like's happened into somebody who's 398 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,480 Speaker 1: a little too mentally active right now, but like it 399 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:23,199 Speaker 1: maybe one of my neighbors because he looked like he 400 00:23:23,200 --> 00:23:28,480 Speaker 1: played too K. But that happens. Sometimes I just begetting 401 00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:31,800 Speaker 1: senses of people. I'm like, whoa hey, and then I'll 402 00:23:31,840 --> 00:23:35,720 Speaker 1: be talking about them like they right here. Well, I 403 00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:37,719 Speaker 1: know that you practice magic every day, So what are 404 00:23:37,760 --> 00:23:47,760 Speaker 1: the things you use magic for? Excuse me? Oh um, 405 00:23:47,800 --> 00:23:51,359 Speaker 1: what do I practice magic for? That's well, do you 406 00:23:51,400 --> 00:23:53,760 Speaker 1: want to know all fun? Thanks, it's almost Halloween. If 407 00:23:53,760 --> 00:24:00,280 Speaker 1: you're gonna make this podcast even more controversial. I'm actually 408 00:24:00,359 --> 00:24:04,480 Speaker 1: like in the process of like making a spiritual pack 409 00:24:06,800 --> 00:24:11,920 Speaker 1: with some spirits, which is particularly which is particularly dangerous. 410 00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:15,879 Speaker 1: But Robot, you want to do that well for a 411 00:24:15,880 --> 00:24:18,600 Speaker 1: couple of reasons. Um, there's a lot of things I 412 00:24:18,640 --> 00:24:21,119 Speaker 1: want to do in life. I have really big aspirations, 413 00:24:21,119 --> 00:24:24,000 Speaker 1: like I don't have normal size aspirations like a manager 414 00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:27,280 Speaker 1: or anything like that. So there's certain things that I 415 00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:30,720 Speaker 1: need to be able to do that, like I know 416 00:24:30,880 --> 00:24:34,359 Speaker 1: I can't do so, not that I cannot, but because 417 00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:37,160 Speaker 1: of my physiology and because of just other things involved. 418 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:41,320 Speaker 1: So there's that, and so sometimes getting boons from and 419 00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:43,040 Speaker 1: being required you to make a pac with them. A 420 00:24:43,119 --> 00:24:45,760 Speaker 1: lot of people understand spiritual marriages. That happens a lot 421 00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:47,919 Speaker 1: in indigenous cultures. You have to get married to a 422 00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:50,720 Speaker 1: spirit in order for it to continuously bless you. But 423 00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:54,439 Speaker 1: that happens very often because the spirit will just kind 424 00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:56,120 Speaker 1: of pick you up and say I'm married. You don't 425 00:24:56,119 --> 00:24:58,920 Speaker 1: really get the choice in it. That's not what I'm 426 00:24:58,960 --> 00:25:01,120 Speaker 1: doing though. It's more like it's more of a shaken hand. 427 00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:03,800 Speaker 1: So it's not a it's not a contract with anything. 428 00:25:04,359 --> 00:25:06,320 Speaker 1: It's or it's not like a deal with the devil. 429 00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:12,760 Speaker 1: I'm not you know, signing that more as it's like, well, 430 00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:15,760 Speaker 1: like I said, for multiple reasons, I have things I 431 00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:20,440 Speaker 1: want to do and to keep it short because I 432 00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:22,119 Speaker 1: also got to make sure that I don't you know, 433 00:25:23,560 --> 00:25:26,439 Speaker 1: over you know, over state because it is personal. But 434 00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:33,239 Speaker 1: me personally, I have experienced associate identity disorder a lot 435 00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:35,439 Speaker 1: of my life. So there's a couple other means in 436 00:25:35,480 --> 00:25:40,800 Speaker 1: my head other than me. But that's changed my physiology 437 00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:43,159 Speaker 1: at times. People have a lot of my friends have 438 00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:45,919 Speaker 1: said they see my face change, my eyes change, my 439 00:25:46,040 --> 00:25:51,440 Speaker 1: body like shape change and shape shifting is a one 440 00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:54,240 Speaker 1: of my gifts. But there's a lot of different ways 441 00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:55,960 Speaker 1: to shape shift. Some of it's just like through the eyes. 442 00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:58,000 Speaker 1: It's not all that changing your body and all that, 443 00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:00,240 Speaker 1: but it is a thing Native Americans us to do 444 00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:05,080 Speaker 1: it all the time. And the fact that I've been 445 00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:07,920 Speaker 1: able because I've had several personalities over my life, I 446 00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:10,600 Speaker 1: don't have as many anymore that I used to when 447 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:15,800 Speaker 1: I was younger, but because they've integrated, I suppose. But 448 00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:20,600 Speaker 1: in my mind, I'm an ideal host for a spirit 449 00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:27,439 Speaker 1: without it damaging me. So it's not like I'm not 450 00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:30,800 Speaker 1: afraid of that, because it is. It is very dangerous. 451 00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:34,000 Speaker 1: I know that, and I'm doing it three. I'm tripling 452 00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:37,320 Speaker 1: it up, so I'm making it triple is dangerous. Yeah, 453 00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:39,520 Speaker 1: But but I also, like I just said to you before, 454 00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:44,360 Speaker 1: power is power, it's not. It's not about morality. It's 455 00:26:44,359 --> 00:26:46,639 Speaker 1: not about how sane you are or insane you are. 456 00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:51,840 Speaker 1: It's not about you know what you're scared of, what 457 00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:53,439 Speaker 1: you're not. It's about what you're willing to do and 458 00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:56,240 Speaker 1: what you're not. I have certain things that I want 459 00:26:56,280 --> 00:26:59,359 Speaker 1: to do for the greater good that I know that 460 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:02,600 Speaker 1: I'm here for. That I know I was put on 461 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:07,200 Speaker 1: this earth for. And that's my spirituality talking. I know there. 462 00:27:07,760 --> 00:27:10,639 Speaker 1: I know the destiny that's been put to me, and 463 00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:12,240 Speaker 1: I want to live up to it. I don't want 464 00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:19,560 Speaker 1: to die regretting this right. I've literally even in my mind, 465 00:27:19,960 --> 00:27:23,560 Speaker 1: processed out when I come back to this planet in 466 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:26,040 Speaker 1: a few lifetimes, and I will do so in my family, 467 00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:27,600 Speaker 1: and I will be telling my kids if that won't 468 00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:29,320 Speaker 1: be happening, So they're gonna have to prepare for me 469 00:27:29,359 --> 00:27:31,119 Speaker 1: to hop back in in like a hundred, two hundred, 470 00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:33,080 Speaker 1: three hundred years. But I know what I want to 471 00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:36,119 Speaker 1: see I know what I want to have left and 472 00:27:36,119 --> 00:27:40,440 Speaker 1: then see how it panned out. And I can't make 473 00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:45,119 Speaker 1: that hundreds of thousands of years of an impact on 474 00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:49,160 Speaker 1: the regular ideals of an everyday person on Instagram. That's 475 00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:50,800 Speaker 1: cute and all for me right now, and I love 476 00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:54,840 Speaker 1: that for me, but that's not even one per cent 477 00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:59,240 Speaker 1: of my actual ambition mm hmm. So sometimes you gotta 478 00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:01,240 Speaker 1: do what you gotta do, and people act like everything 479 00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:04,120 Speaker 1: is scary out there. There are so many spirits, a 480 00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:08,560 Speaker 1: trillions quintillions of spirits, and a lot of them are 481 00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:10,520 Speaker 1: partial to me. I hang out with a lot of them. 482 00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:12,320 Speaker 1: That's also a reason I think it's a good idea, 483 00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:15,800 Speaker 1: because they tend to like me. I'm not one of 484 00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:17,760 Speaker 1: the people that floats in the spiritual realm. May all 485 00:28:17,800 --> 00:28:20,159 Speaker 1: be looking at you like why are you here? Like 486 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:25,720 Speaker 1: I dap up in the spiritual room. I hang more 487 00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:29,520 Speaker 1: time nearer than i'd be here. Mm hmm. So for me, 488 00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:34,639 Speaker 1: it's it's it's danger work that's worth it, because a 489 00:28:34,680 --> 00:28:38,440 Speaker 1: lot of things are dangerous, a lot of things. But 490 00:28:38,480 --> 00:28:40,200 Speaker 1: I woke up one day and I thought, how far 491 00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:42,520 Speaker 1: are you willing to go for this? In the world 492 00:28:42,520 --> 00:28:44,040 Speaker 1: that we live in right now. You need just a 493 00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,920 Speaker 1: certain energy just to live because things are changing real fast, 494 00:28:47,440 --> 00:28:50,440 Speaker 1: and I've been prepared for that. I've been prepared for that. 495 00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:53,240 Speaker 1: Like I said, I'm a conspiracy theory so I've been 496 00:28:53,280 --> 00:28:56,080 Speaker 1: prepared for the real life stuff. But I know the 497 00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:58,840 Speaker 1: real life stuff is spiritual too, and that I have 498 00:28:58,880 --> 00:29:02,400 Speaker 1: an advantage on everybody because I do magic. Everybody can't 499 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:05,120 Speaker 1: do a cloaking spell. If someone starts looking for you, 500 00:29:05,120 --> 00:29:07,040 Speaker 1: You can't hide your house. I can hide my house, 501 00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:09,960 Speaker 1: so we'll walk right by it. It wasn't even there, 502 00:29:10,040 --> 00:29:14,560 Speaker 1: no looting happening here. There's just there are certain things 503 00:29:14,600 --> 00:29:17,800 Speaker 1: that I know that that gets me the answers to 504 00:29:17,880 --> 00:29:21,720 Speaker 1: when nothing else will. And in preparation for that, for 505 00:29:21,800 --> 00:29:23,960 Speaker 1: the people that I care about and being able to 506 00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:29,960 Speaker 1: shoulder them without breaking under the pressure, and just for me, 507 00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:32,480 Speaker 1: just for what I want to do. I'm willing to 508 00:29:32,520 --> 00:29:35,240 Speaker 1: make a little handshake for a couple of years, and 509 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:36,520 Speaker 1: I know how to get out of it. I always 510 00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:38,560 Speaker 1: make it feel safe on anything that I do magically. 511 00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:41,160 Speaker 1: I have a kill safe on all of it. You're 512 00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:43,280 Speaker 1: not gonna trick me because I work with tricks, the spirits, 513 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:44,480 Speaker 1: so I know how they give it up. I know 514 00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:46,400 Speaker 1: they're gonna look for a loophole, So I'm writing for 515 00:29:46,440 --> 00:29:50,320 Speaker 1: the loopholes. Mm hmm. It's not gonna happen. I'm gonna 516 00:29:50,360 --> 00:29:52,600 Speaker 1: get out of this in this lifetime, and you're gonna 517 00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:55,360 Speaker 1: get over it. That's why I said, it's not a 518 00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:58,560 Speaker 1: spiritual marriage. It's not. It's not a lifetime selling my 519 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:02,040 Speaker 1: soul because I give my soul to no one, but 520 00:30:05,360 --> 00:30:07,560 Speaker 1: getting getting strength from something that's no different than being 521 00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:09,280 Speaker 1: in church. I don't have I didn't shout it in church. 522 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:11,360 Speaker 1: So many times I would give anything that had the 523 00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:13,520 Speaker 1: Holy Spirit in me as often as possible that should 524 00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:17,680 Speaker 1: it felt great like actually shouting and dancing in church 525 00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:19,400 Speaker 1: and letting yourself let go in that way and letting 526 00:30:19,400 --> 00:30:21,280 Speaker 1: the Spirit be part of your body. Because the Holy 527 00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:27,240 Speaker 1: Spirit is the spirit, so Sophia most likely, and so 528 00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,360 Speaker 1: if you just let it hit you and just trust it, 529 00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:34,760 Speaker 1: that's what you're doing. Voting you have to get you 530 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:39,080 Speaker 1: get possessed. That's part of your crowning. If I think, yeah, 531 00:30:39,120 --> 00:30:40,760 Speaker 1: at some point, you will have to get possessed by 532 00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:43,200 Speaker 1: the spirit that is your head, because that's how you 533 00:30:43,240 --> 00:30:46,320 Speaker 1: prove who you are you know as some and if 534 00:30:46,360 --> 00:30:50,160 Speaker 1: I'm not partial to initiations, but I don't want them 535 00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:52,560 Speaker 1: so much. Like like I said, Boody would be trying 536 00:30:52,560 --> 00:30:54,000 Speaker 1: to come from me, I'll be feeling like I'm not 537 00:30:54,040 --> 00:30:56,440 Speaker 1: sure about it, but I'll be feeling like it, so 538 00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:59,520 Speaker 1: I'd be staying I'd be I'd be staying away because 539 00:31:00,600 --> 00:31:02,920 Speaker 1: I'm a solitary person. I don't want to initiate in anything. 540 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:04,200 Speaker 1: I want to make my own thing. That's how I've 541 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:10,200 Speaker 1: always been. But I still have to initiate myself into something. 542 00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:13,320 Speaker 1: And I am initiated in some magical sex. But I 543 00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:15,240 Speaker 1: have to keep I have to keep going. And if 544 00:31:15,280 --> 00:31:17,440 Speaker 1: I'm not going to get there by some elders or 545 00:31:17,480 --> 00:31:19,440 Speaker 1: some group that's already established, I have to do some 546 00:31:19,800 --> 00:31:24,520 Speaker 1: extreme ship so that it answers the question. Because every 547 00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:27,600 Speaker 1: day is planning stuff like that. I do not do 548 00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:32,080 Speaker 1: consistent My life is magical, of course, but I don't 549 00:31:32,080 --> 00:31:34,280 Speaker 1: do consistent magic other than blessing my tea in the 550 00:31:34,320 --> 00:31:37,640 Speaker 1: morning and using like a sigul on my body if 551 00:31:37,640 --> 00:31:39,600 Speaker 1: I'm feeling any cramps or anything because I get back pain. 552 00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:45,120 Speaker 1: But other than that, I don't do anything on a 553 00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,640 Speaker 1: daily maybe some glamour, but that's only if I'm going out, 554 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:50,000 Speaker 1: because I don't need to put on the glamour if 555 00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:55,800 Speaker 1: I'm not going out, And I guess for my clients, 556 00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:57,600 Speaker 1: that's the most amount of magic I do every day 557 00:31:57,720 --> 00:31:59,920 Speaker 1: is blessing all of the products and infusing those are magic. 558 00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:02,360 Speaker 1: But I have a process with that now. So it's 559 00:32:03,200 --> 00:32:06,200 Speaker 1: mm hmm every day not much, but on a long 560 00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:09,640 Speaker 1: long term scale, it's a lot, and it's all and 561 00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:12,880 Speaker 1: it's all for the greater good of mankind, for black people, 562 00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:19,280 Speaker 1: indigenous people, for children, old people, mentally ill people, homeless people, 563 00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:20,960 Speaker 1: all those people I love very very much and I 564 00:32:21,040 --> 00:32:25,000 Speaker 1: want to help in the world, and the same way 565 00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:30,120 Speaker 1: that people will take the Shahadah in Islam or get 566 00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:32,520 Speaker 1: baptized and Christianity, and I am baptize all of you 567 00:32:32,680 --> 00:32:36,080 Speaker 1: who may not know, I know christ just saying so no, 568 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:37,800 Speaker 1: I'm saying this for the people listening, just in case 569 00:32:37,840 --> 00:32:47,120 Speaker 1: they were a Christian yep. And so for me that's 570 00:32:47,240 --> 00:32:54,880 Speaker 1: just this, it's the same thing, and it's letting them 571 00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:56,800 Speaker 1: tell me what their names are. So I've been waiting 572 00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:58,400 Speaker 1: for their names over the last couple of days so 573 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:01,880 Speaker 1: that I can you know, slidify everything. And I've got 574 00:33:01,880 --> 00:33:06,840 Speaker 1: two names and looking for one more. But that's the 575 00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:08,720 Speaker 1: type of thing I'd like to think about and how 576 00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,720 Speaker 1: I can take this further and how And I also 577 00:33:10,760 --> 00:33:12,880 Speaker 1: have been an academy that I want to buy a 578 00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:16,280 Speaker 1: castle for, so I'm mostly thinking about that any other time. 579 00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:21,200 Speaker 1: I'm not thinking about me right, So, well, that's curious 580 00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:23,280 Speaker 1: because I know we're almost at the end. I know 581 00:33:23,280 --> 00:33:26,440 Speaker 1: a lot of people may be interested. How what was 582 00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:28,200 Speaker 1: an advice you give the people if they want to 583 00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:32,920 Speaker 1: reach out to somebody that makes that you this magic? Like, 584 00:33:32,920 --> 00:33:35,440 Speaker 1: how would somebody be able to identify somebody's fake or 585 00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:38,800 Speaker 1: not one? If they asking you if you want to 586 00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:42,080 Speaker 1: reading and your d M, they're fake, they're fake. They're fake, 587 00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:44,480 Speaker 1: and they're scamming you. They're pretending to be somebody else. 588 00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:46,960 Speaker 1: Most likely there's a scammer ring doing that. That's the 589 00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:52,200 Speaker 1: first reflag. Second reflag if somebody does a reading for 590 00:33:52,240 --> 00:33:54,920 Speaker 1: you for free, like pro bono, but then they tell 591 00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:56,880 Speaker 1: you that there's either a hex on you or something 592 00:33:56,920 --> 00:33:59,080 Speaker 1: like that and you have to pay them for spell work, 593 00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:03,000 Speaker 1: that's a big no because they're tricking you. They're tricking 594 00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:06,600 Speaker 1: your psyche in and thinking you need it. That's that's 595 00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:10,759 Speaker 1: a no. Also, look at look at the person you're 596 00:34:10,760 --> 00:34:14,880 Speaker 1: getting it from. Is magic something they really do or 597 00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:16,680 Speaker 1: is it something they dabble it? Because that will let 598 00:34:16,719 --> 00:34:21,279 Speaker 1: you know how powerful their stuff is mm hm? Do 599 00:34:21,440 --> 00:34:26,440 Speaker 1: they are they initiated in something? Try to be informed 600 00:34:26,440 --> 00:34:29,719 Speaker 1: about the person way before you ever consult them for 601 00:34:29,719 --> 00:34:32,080 Speaker 1: any type of spell work. And they should never be 602 00:34:32,120 --> 00:34:34,799 Speaker 1: reaching out to you first. We don't do that that 603 00:34:34,880 --> 00:34:37,160 Speaker 1: in our career path. We ain't missionaries. You come to 604 00:34:37,239 --> 00:34:43,600 Speaker 1: us and that's it. So when yeah, when looking for that, 605 00:34:44,680 --> 00:34:49,040 Speaker 1: the best thing is to use your discernment, Like you 606 00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:52,279 Speaker 1: with any business, look for testimonials. If they have them, 607 00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:53,880 Speaker 1: they may not have them aost A lot of people 608 00:34:53,920 --> 00:34:57,200 Speaker 1: like to be private, so you can even email a 609 00:34:57,200 --> 00:35:00,120 Speaker 1: lot these people ask them what their credentials are m 610 00:35:00,280 --> 00:35:03,040 Speaker 1: hm A lot, Even though that seems like it would 611 00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:06,120 Speaker 1: be rude, a lot of people in the witchcraft and 612 00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:10,120 Speaker 1: magic community want to share how they're gifted. So if 613 00:35:10,160 --> 00:35:12,160 Speaker 1: you ask respectfully, I'm sure they'll tell you. And if 614 00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:15,720 Speaker 1: they're really like guarded about telling you, then that should 615 00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:19,120 Speaker 1: also tell you something. But it's it's discernment it's the 616 00:35:19,160 --> 00:35:21,280 Speaker 1: same type of discernment you use with any other business. 617 00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:24,520 Speaker 1: There magic has some of the best conment of all time. 618 00:35:25,200 --> 00:35:28,680 Speaker 1: H So that's what I just remember that. Remember that 619 00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:32,000 Speaker 1: a lot of magicians would okay, use magic with a 620 00:35:32,040 --> 00:35:35,360 Speaker 1: see which is illusions. So even though they're doing magic, 621 00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:38,960 Speaker 1: you're not doing the type you want. Just and think 622 00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:43,960 Speaker 1: about con men, think about capitalism, and observe their life 623 00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:46,840 Speaker 1: because they don't have to live the life exactly that 624 00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:50,480 Speaker 1: you want to be living. But does their stuff work? 625 00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:56,000 Speaker 1: When they say they do something, does it happen? Do 626 00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:59,280 Speaker 1: they teach? Are they able? When they talk about magic? 627 00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:01,040 Speaker 1: Do they tell you something you've never heard before? It 628 00:36:01,080 --> 00:36:03,520 Speaker 1: sounds unique to what you hear all the time, because 629 00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:06,480 Speaker 1: that is normally the sign of a more seasoned practitioner, 630 00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:11,560 Speaker 1: because they have their own ideas. Mhm. And yeah, like 631 00:36:11,719 --> 00:36:17,239 Speaker 1: I think that's about it. Just ascernment. Um. Yeah, And 632 00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:20,440 Speaker 1: last one at least, if someone is interested in using magic, 633 00:36:21,600 --> 00:36:31,440 Speaker 1: what is your advice to them? Know your limits? Whenever 634 00:36:31,480 --> 00:36:33,040 Speaker 1: you hear you I can give you take in the 635 00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:37,440 Speaker 1: pool right now. Yeah, there's a lot, but it's not 636 00:36:37,520 --> 00:36:39,160 Speaker 1: a lot. It's very simple. If you wanted to be 637 00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:47,719 Speaker 1: like know your limits MHM. Know where your belief goes 638 00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:50,160 Speaker 1: and how far it goes. If you know you have doubt, 639 00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:53,880 Speaker 1: train it. If you know that you have very limited faith, 640 00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:57,719 Speaker 1: train it. If you know that you're like me. I 641 00:36:57,760 --> 00:36:59,080 Speaker 1: have a lot of gifts and I have a lot 642 00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:01,440 Speaker 1: of faith. So the type of thing that I work on, 643 00:37:02,239 --> 00:37:04,920 Speaker 1: I guess I didn't say this earlier, is kinetic stuff. No, 644 00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:08,080 Speaker 1: where your limits are. I could do weather things, and 645 00:37:08,120 --> 00:37:10,040 Speaker 1: that's at malkinesis, but I want to be able to 646 00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:12,919 Speaker 1: do to on control a little bit easier. I want 647 00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:15,480 Speaker 1: to be able to call it when I want. That's 648 00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:18,279 Speaker 1: where my limit is. So that's where I train. So 649 00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:23,080 Speaker 1: magic is like an elastic band. Pull it too fast, 650 00:37:23,120 --> 00:37:24,839 Speaker 1: it will snap, and it will make your brain snap, 651 00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:26,320 Speaker 1: and you'll end up in an asylum like all a 652 00:37:26,360 --> 00:37:29,680 Speaker 1: lot of those people who are gifted in there. If 653 00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:31,319 Speaker 1: you pull it too fast, it will snap. That goes 654 00:37:31,320 --> 00:37:34,399 Speaker 1: for psychics too. You tap into fast, you're gonna get 655 00:37:34,400 --> 00:37:38,160 Speaker 1: sucked up. It's a lot. Don't let it all in 656 00:37:38,160 --> 00:37:41,000 Speaker 1: at first, use it, Stretch it slowly over time, like 657 00:37:41,080 --> 00:37:50,040 Speaker 1: your brain. Study study and practice, study, practice and observe 658 00:37:50,120 --> 00:37:53,640 Speaker 1: like you would a scientific experiment. Have a spell, make 659 00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:57,960 Speaker 1: a hypothesis, observe the results, add little variables and if 660 00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:02,600 Speaker 1: you need, and then write out the conclusion. Figure out 661 00:38:02,640 --> 00:38:05,719 Speaker 1: how it works for you so that you can use 662 00:38:05,800 --> 00:38:08,520 Speaker 1: that formula to make it happen again. So you don't 663 00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:10,759 Speaker 1: have to be wondering every time you cast, or any 664 00:38:10,760 --> 00:38:12,879 Speaker 1: time you do any magical thing. Is it's real. You'll 665 00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:18,359 Speaker 1: have faith in that. So and it's really simple. As 666 00:38:20,080 --> 00:38:25,680 Speaker 1: you study, examine yourself and you're what you study, put 667 00:38:25,719 --> 00:38:32,080 Speaker 1: it into practice, observe it, analyze it, do it again, 668 00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:36,800 Speaker 1: and just keep doing it. Everything you do with magic. 669 00:38:37,040 --> 00:38:39,080 Speaker 1: It could be as simpler complex as you wanted to be. 670 00:38:39,120 --> 00:38:43,319 Speaker 1: But use that simple scientific experiment formula that we all 671 00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:47,560 Speaker 1: learn a middle school. Maybe I did, But use that 672 00:38:48,600 --> 00:38:52,600 Speaker 1: because it really is. I say, it's a playground, because 673 00:38:52,640 --> 00:38:57,560 Speaker 1: it's whatever you want to make it no limits to 674 00:38:57,680 --> 00:39:00,319 Speaker 1: what you can be or achieve with it. But you 675 00:39:00,440 --> 00:39:04,759 Speaker 1: have to take your time, know your limits. Stretch the 676 00:39:04,800 --> 00:39:09,440 Speaker 1: elastic band slowly, and that process will help you do 677 00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:12,719 Speaker 1: it slowly because it will give your time and your 678 00:39:12,760 --> 00:39:14,600 Speaker 1: mind and your body, because you have to remember you 679 00:39:14,600 --> 00:39:17,719 Speaker 1: have a mind and a body too, that's part of 680 00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:21,640 Speaker 1: your limits. It will teach it what it needs to 681 00:39:21,800 --> 00:39:25,920 Speaker 1: understand so that you can be more effective. So however 682 00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:28,319 Speaker 1: you want to take it from there, it will you 683 00:39:28,360 --> 00:39:30,520 Speaker 1: can go and you had and that's a structure for 684 00:39:30,600 --> 00:39:35,120 Speaker 1: whatever practice you prefer. So, yeah, that's what I would say. 685 00:39:35,280 --> 00:39:38,960 Speaker 1: If you're starting to work with it and find a 686 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:42,279 Speaker 1: mentor find someone to look up to really practices, ask 687 00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:46,279 Speaker 1: them questions, get into their content because a lot of 688 00:39:46,400 --> 00:39:49,040 Speaker 1: a lot of the belief comes from knowing that there's 689 00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:53,759 Speaker 1: other people who believe what you believe. M hm, Well, 690 00:39:53,800 --> 00:39:57,239 Speaker 1: I thought this was an amazing me to say. I 691 00:39:57,320 --> 00:40:01,440 Speaker 1: really enjoyed it. Yeah, I was, ah, man, this is 692 00:40:01,440 --> 00:40:07,560 Speaker 1: so cool. I'm not wait, wait what happened? Right? And 693 00:40:09,680 --> 00:40:11,840 Speaker 1: I'm a channel er, so but when I channel, I 694 00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:14,960 Speaker 1: channeled through talking. Some people channel through different you know, senses. 695 00:40:15,640 --> 00:40:17,400 Speaker 1: But if I keep talking, it just kind of all 696 00:40:17,400 --> 00:40:19,120 Speaker 1: flows for me. I don't be knowing half the shoot 697 00:40:19,160 --> 00:40:22,840 Speaker 1: I said. So if I said anything wild to y'all, 698 00:40:23,840 --> 00:40:25,759 Speaker 1: it just be happening. I don't really know what to 699 00:40:25,760 --> 00:40:29,120 Speaker 1: do about it, because once my mouth was going to 700 00:40:29,239 --> 00:40:30,960 Speaker 1: be going like spirit we kind of talking through me. 701 00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:37,120 Speaker 1: But this was like so cathartic, like it was really 702 00:40:37,160 --> 00:40:40,920 Speaker 1: really great and it opened my mind's little podcast thing 703 00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:44,280 Speaker 1: because I've been asked before, but I've never really accepted. 704 00:40:44,320 --> 00:40:46,040 Speaker 1: But I think I want to do this more, at 705 00:40:46,080 --> 00:40:49,040 Speaker 1: least like interviews, because you made this a really safe 706 00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:52,439 Speaker 1: space to just express. Got a lot of really cool 707 00:40:52,480 --> 00:40:55,640 Speaker 1: ideas out, like I'm really excited to share this. You 708 00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:58,200 Speaker 1: have no idea because they're just things that don't get 709 00:40:58,239 --> 00:41:01,000 Speaker 1: to say often. So thank you for like crazy, I 710 00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:03,359 Speaker 1: was like, she's stalking her, y'all. I was like hitting 711 00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:05,799 Speaker 1: her up, like hey, just following up with you. Now, 712 00:41:05,840 --> 00:41:08,600 Speaker 1: I'm glad you did because I get flooded all the 713 00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:12,120 Speaker 1: time with all types of things, so if you hadn't, 714 00:41:12,719 --> 00:41:15,560 Speaker 1: it could have got lost in the flood because I 715 00:41:15,600 --> 00:41:17,600 Speaker 1: did not see the initial one. So I'm glad. I'm 716 00:41:17,640 --> 00:41:21,560 Speaker 1: glad you stalked me man, because it's hard to get 717 00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:24,080 Speaker 1: to me these days. I'm trying to figure that out 718 00:41:24,360 --> 00:41:28,520 Speaker 1: managing that morning assistant. Yes you do, but I really 719 00:41:28,719 --> 00:41:32,720 Speaker 1: appreciate you and to thank you. If you have any questions, comments, 720 00:41:32,760 --> 00:41:34,760 Speaker 1: with concerns, please make sure to email me and hello 721 00:41:34,800 --> 00:41:40,520 Speaker 1: at the PFD podcast dot com. And until next time, everyone, y'all,