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Speaker 1: Welcome to the New Roorrian Mal Show. Anytime we do

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Speaker 1: it intro, it means we have a guest because we

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Speaker 1: and I. We just start fucking talking. But you know,

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Speaker 1: Episode twenty three of the New Royal Mall Podcast.

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Speaker 2: Welcome listeners, brought to you by nobody, well somebody Stitcher serious.

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Speaker 1: More so, it's brought to you and us Into Mares,

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Speaker 1: brought to you by the Mares. Yes, we have a guest today,

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Speaker 1: we do Brion.

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Speaker 3: I'm excited about this guy, be honest with you.

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Speaker 1: This was the first guest I think we booked after

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Speaker 1: the deal. It just took some time with scheduling on

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Speaker 1: both our ends. I was told by a mutual friend

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Speaker 1: about this, this very amazing and intelligent woman. In the

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Speaker 1: moment she described or I said she needs to come

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Speaker 1: on our podcast.

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Speaker 3: Absolutely hold on.

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Speaker 1: It was all good reasons.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, no, we had our reasons.

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Speaker 4: Oh I'm mostly.

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Speaker 3: Good, mostly good. Let's tess yeah, mostly good.

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Speaker 4: Wait, also say the friend.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to disclose anyone's why. It was weezy.

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Speaker 4: It was wheezy.

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Speaker 1: He's just weezy, just squeezy.

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Speaker 4: That's she's incredible. She's literally my lifeline. I love her, well,

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Speaker 4: not my real lifeline.

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Speaker 1: So Breanda, please introduce yourself. Tell us about yourself, tell

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Speaker 1: us about your life, where you're at, your podcast. Gosh,

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Speaker 1: we can get the particulars out of the way because

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Speaker 1: I have a long list of shit I want.

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Speaker 3: To get to.

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, where to begin?

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Speaker 3: Where are you from with your sign?

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Speaker 4: No, I don't do that.

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Speaker 1: I mean I don't Christ Christs or something.

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Speaker 3: Thank you.

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Speaker 4: Yes, I'm Breanda born in Boston, raised right outside Boston, Lynn, Massachusetts.

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Speaker 4: I know a lot of people on Lyn listen to

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Speaker 4: your show, The Pack the Cat and have it yet

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Speaker 4: there you go.

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Speaker 1: Do you know cave Verdians? Okay, so what do you

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Speaker 1: know any cave Verdians?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, there are a lot of cave Verdians in New England.

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Speaker 4: I know for sure.

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Speaker 1: Why did you say it like that, Rory? Because I

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Speaker 1: love kve Verdians.

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Speaker 4: Okay, is that your type?

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Speaker 1: I would say Kate Verdians would fall under my side.

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Speaker 4: Gorgeous women too.

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Speaker 3: Okay, all across the board. Just woman.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, you have very nice energy. Yeah, well, both of you.

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Speaker 2: We're trying to tell people that for years and they

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Speaker 2: just keep denying. You really just not that off the

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Speaker 2: you know what I mean?

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Speaker 4: Did you see how I just pivoted my intro to.

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Speaker 1: Absolutely absolutely all right, I'm uncomfortable about yourself.

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Speaker 4: Please. So I'm a podcaster, I'm a I'm an actor,

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Speaker 4: although I'm not you know any I'm not that big

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Speaker 4: if you IMDb me, it's like two inches long. I

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Speaker 4: am friends with Wheezy. She produces my Bible show through

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Speaker 4: her uh podcasting production company WTF Media Studios. They're incredible,

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Speaker 4: Absolutely love them over there and you guys recorded there too.

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Speaker 4: It was so you know, dope. It is to have

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Speaker 4: the same background as a brand like your guys. That's like,

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Speaker 4: that's why, that's why we're legendary. Yeah, we actually I've spoken.

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Speaker 4: I'm not sorry.

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Speaker 1: Everyone has the same background as us. We love them

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Speaker 1: to death. Thank you, Weezy, Alex, everybody, they were the best. Yeah,

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I still have great No, I get it.

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Speaker 4: I'm really I'm with my team. No, we have. We're

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Speaker 4: on a contract that they we have an exclusivity deal.

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Speaker 4: They cannot work with anyone else. It's us or nothing.

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Speaker 4: But the reason why I brought up Wheezy and my

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Speaker 4: introduction is because before we like move in to this,

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Speaker 4: It's like directly connected to her man like. She was

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Speaker 4: and I told her how funny I also do psychedelics.

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Speaker 4: I'm a psychedelic Christian. But I was telling her how

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Speaker 4: why don't you talk about sex stories? And the vibe

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Speaker 4: come on Horrible decisions. I go on Horrible Decisions And

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Speaker 4: it was an electric experience and that you know, you

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Speaker 4: can tell when a conversation is going really well. And

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Speaker 4: in the room, Wheezy said I'm gonna invest in you.

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Speaker 4: I will invest my hard earned money in you. And like,

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Speaker 4: I'm not gonna cry today. I promised myself I wasn't

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Speaker 4: gonna cry.

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Speaker 4: No, I'm not doing it.

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Speaker 1: I'll cry with you.

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Speaker 3: He will. I've seen him do it.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna cry.

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Speaker 4: Oh we do.

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Speaker 1: Crying is fine?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, okay, Oh I'm going to cry probably, But she champions.

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Speaker 3: Yes, is amazing.

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Speaker 1: She is great.

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Speaker 4: Sidebar, Can I share something with you guys? Of course,

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Speaker 4: I don't want to seem like I'm talking too much, though,

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Speaker 4: I have to be a better guest.

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Speaker 3: No, this is fine.

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Speaker 4: My last guest experience wasn't too good, so I'm gonna

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Speaker 4: who was it with? Poor minds? I love those girls, Lexandrea.

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Speaker 1: I've known Lexandria forever, well before they ever podcasted.

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, oh well I didn't know. I just met

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Speaker 4: them in Atlanta and they're so great. But really, that

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Speaker 1: It does another show, especially a podcaster, because you feel

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Speaker 4: But it was a specific situation that was happening with

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Speaker 1: If I were to do a podcast where I wasn't manic,

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Speaker 1: But that's interesting with podcasting. People don't realize that, Hey,

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Speaker 1: Uh? You have to do that vulnerability times ten and

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Speaker 4: So I used that appearance, though I brought that appearance

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Speaker 4: My worst insecurities were amplified. Sure, like that need to control,

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Speaker 1: And meanwhile, you're being more of the qualities you hate

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Speaker 1: I totally get it. Oh, look at our intro already.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I can't wait to read you my notes on

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Speaker 4: you guys.

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Speaker 1: Should we start there?

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Speaker 3: Let's start there, please.

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Speaker 4: I'd be thrilled. Let me grab so I my listeners

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Speaker 4: who are going to be watching this high Bible babes.

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Speaker 3: That's the name of them, bile.

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Speaker 1: I kind of liked the Bible, my babes.

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Speaker 4: You guys think it was a great Bible brand. It's

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Speaker 4: actually a Bible.

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Speaker 3: Babe, but I thought it was big. But that's just

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Speaker 1: Was sitting down when you walked in.

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Speaker 4: Oh you I am not probably not your type. I'm like,

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Speaker 4: Nevertheless, so correct they never do never not a solid.

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Speaker 4: Now, all authentic accuracy always for sure. Moving right along this.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, shout out to those girls.

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Speaker 5: It was great.

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Speaker 4: It was very very engaging. And I don't listen. I

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Speaker 3: That that's our people's that's like easy conversations.

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Speaker 4: It was very entertaining content. Okay, who would like me

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Speaker 4: The last one on Mal is not quite an observation,

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Speaker 2: I think your notes are great. I mean, I don't

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Speaker 4: Well that's not even to receive, it's just more of

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Speaker 3: Know you, you know, I mean, yes, forty single.

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Speaker 4: That's a great question. Could you imagine? Let me just

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Speaker 4: Moll What kind of question is that.

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Speaker 3: I love people are stressed.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but you can't because what's going to happen is

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Speaker 2: So it's like, why stress yourself? Why lose your hair

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Speaker 4: How old are you, guys? Both of you?

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Speaker 3: I'm forty.

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Speaker 4: Oh, I already do that.

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Speaker 1: Thirty one, thirty one Okay, I know I look forty.

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Speaker 4: I wasn't going to say it. Age kidding.

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Speaker 3: You know why people aged like banana?

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Speaker 4: You know what, You're not wrong.

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Speaker 4: Reverse caffish. Oh I've seen it. Not with guys, though.

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Speaker 4: But I know, judgment, whatever, the girls want me to

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Speaker 1: Attack me?

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Speaker 4: All right? Rory notes per their most recent horrible decision appearance. Depressive, Hey, brother.

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Speaker 1: That's me too, takes one. I know what it's like

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Speaker 4: That's I just I sent that in your sense of humor.

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Speaker 4: Depressive takes opposing angles that cut like a knife, but

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Speaker 1: Is that my bio?

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Speaker 4: Now, you guys are not that I think so you

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Speaker 1: Demeris just a serious bio. Can I just send that

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Speaker 4: That we're we're all. I mean, no, no. Also, I'm

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Speaker 3: I agree with you.

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Speaker 1: No, that's definitely how you do see things in people,

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Speaker 4: I would like to know if it was accurate, if

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Speaker 1: I'm telling you, I thought mine was pretty accurate.

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Speaker 3: Well, our listeners think that I'm gay?

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Speaker 4: Really? Oh you don't? You don't your mom thinks he's gay.

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Speaker 3: I love gay people, but I'm not gay.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean why why would you?

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Speaker 4: Oh, I have a question for you guys. It must

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Speaker 3: Why do you keep saying we're famous?

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Speaker 4: Well, the star meter begs to differ.

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Speaker 1: Here's the thing, women don't really listen to podcasts like that.

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Speaker 1: So we're famous to like a lot of dudes that

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Speaker 3: Famous block he goes crazy, I want to get baby White.

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Speaker 1: If I go to s Obs for an open MI

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I had to wait on you.

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Speaker 1: The demographic. I was pissed.

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Speaker 4: The demographic of FedEx workers that love you is probably crazy.

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Speaker 1: Oh listen, I just moved, and all three of the movers,

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Speaker 1: we listen to you every day, really, but never am

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Speaker 3: Joe, Yes, but famous, I wouldn't say famous.

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Speaker 1: So Wheezy told me. She said, Hey, this is just

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Speaker 1: a quick rundown of who she is. She's a Bible

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Speaker 1: podcaster who is currently celibate and tells funny stories of

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Speaker 3: You can't always be You're not a virgin?

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Speaker 4: No, no, sorry, just spurped um. Where do I be?

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Speaker 4: I'll start with this. I recently counted how many days

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Speaker 1: I'm sure if you check your your private DMS, someone

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Speaker 4: Uh damn it, I pitch.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's in real life, and please don't send me

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Speaker 4: Why would you open up that can of worms? Raw?

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Speaker 5: I promise you the.

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Speaker 4: impressionable woman. AnyWho, I found that I was having sex

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Speaker 4: that was like torturous, almost like I would cry sometimes

442
00:19:56,960 --> 00:20:01,800
Speaker 4: after I would orgasm. I was feeling and credible bats

443
00:20:01,840 --> 00:20:05,040
Speaker 4: of like shame and guilt, and he would cry after

444
00:20:05,359 --> 00:20:07,679
Speaker 4: he made you august sometimes sometimes.

445
00:20:07,760 --> 00:20:07,960
Speaker 3: Yeah.

446
00:20:08,080 --> 00:20:09,960
Speaker 4: The last the one I knew that, Oh no, I'm

447
00:20:10,119 --> 00:20:13,800
Speaker 4: this is it. I hooked up with my friend who's

448
00:20:13,800 --> 00:20:17,399
Speaker 4: a comic and we're homies. Now we're friends, but I

449
00:20:18,200 --> 00:20:24,760
Speaker 4: remember just sobbing on his bed, and that's when I

450
00:20:24,800 --> 00:20:26,399
Speaker 4: felt convicted, like.

451
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Speaker 1: Probably great material for a comic, you know what.

452
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Speaker 3: So he fucked the Jesus out of what you're saying.

453
00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:35,040
Speaker 4: No, he fucked the Jesus into me.

454
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Speaker 1: I was mo. So I was going to ask did

455
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Speaker 1: the celibacy come first? Then religion or religion? And then celibacy.

456
00:20:41,320 --> 00:20:43,400
Speaker 4: It was not It wasn't it was not called celibacy.

457
00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:45,480
Speaker 4: I was tabling sex for a couple of months.

458
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Speaker 1: Got you taking a break? Yeah, but at this point

459
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Speaker 1: I had.

460
00:20:49,240 --> 00:20:51,240
Speaker 4: I heard my call though, so I had already heard

461
00:20:51,320 --> 00:20:53,560
Speaker 4: my call or what they call it, your encounter with

462
00:20:53,640 --> 00:20:56,720
Speaker 4: the Lord, which happened under the influence of acid. But

463
00:20:56,840 --> 00:21:00,320
Speaker 4: it was really transformative. And I'm a I'm a Bible

464
00:21:00,560 --> 00:21:05,280
Speaker 4: and relationship with God Christian over over church Christian, because

465
00:21:05,320 --> 00:21:09,000
Speaker 4: that's just the accuracy. I wasn't transformed by a church

466
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:12,840
Speaker 4: or through a church through man. Hey man, I didn't

467
00:21:12,840 --> 00:21:15,040
Speaker 4: say it, but yeah. Also, the Bible tells us to

468
00:21:15,080 --> 00:21:16,960
Speaker 4: be careful of men skewing things.

469
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Speaker 1: Men wrote it to. But yeah, we're gonna get there, right.

470
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Speaker 1: I want to say, explain this aid trip alone. Did

471
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Speaker 1: someone say hey, let's take acid together?

472
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Speaker 3: I before you answered that was the gentleman Spanish? The

473
00:21:35,960 --> 00:21:36,840
Speaker 3: last guy you got sex with?

474
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Speaker 4: No, But but my my last boyfriend was it's my

475
00:21:43,359 --> 00:21:45,800
Speaker 4: last boyfriend was Hispanic? But no he was not.

476
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Speaker 3: He was. No, he's white man.

477
00:21:49,359 --> 00:21:52,320
Speaker 4: That was starting there, let's start them kidding. But no,

478
00:21:52,480 --> 00:21:54,280
Speaker 4: he's just a great guy. He was a great guy.

479
00:21:54,440 --> 00:21:57,359
Speaker 4: You know what I realized too. Oh another thing, Jesus

480
00:21:57,440 --> 00:21:57,800
Speaker 4: was not white.

481
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Speaker 1: I'm aware, Okay, I I represent Jesus.

482
00:22:01,280 --> 00:22:01,720
Speaker 4: I go honest.

483
00:22:02,080 --> 00:22:02,199
Speaker 3: YEA.

484
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Speaker 1: When I found out I was an Irish Catholic well

485
00:22:04,119 --> 00:22:06,159
Speaker 1: into my twenties, that Jesus was not white. When I

486
00:22:06,320 --> 00:22:10,040
Speaker 1: tell you you thought Santa Claus was a blow. When

487
00:22:10,080 --> 00:22:11,600
Speaker 1: I found out Jesus was in white.

488
00:22:12,280 --> 00:22:14,200
Speaker 4: Oh man, Oh no, I lost my turn of thought.

489
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Speaker 1: Okayot your aid.

490
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Speaker 3: Response about a white man.

491
00:22:21,119 --> 00:22:21,520
Speaker 4: I lost it.

492
00:22:21,600 --> 00:22:23,040
Speaker 3: I lost get back to it.

493
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Speaker 1: The acid trip was this alone walked me through the

494
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Speaker 1: acid trip that led to the religious experience.

495
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Speaker 4: Sure I sound like a broken record because I just

496
00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:34,679
Speaker 4: explained this on my episode with Ian Dunlap.

497
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Speaker 3: You guys know him, Yes, yes, the Master Investor.

498
00:22:37,359 --> 00:22:39,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, the Master Investor. We had such a great sit down.

499
00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:42,000
Speaker 4: It was unplanned and he was just in the suit.

500
00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:44,000
Speaker 4: He wanted to meet me, and he looked so dapper.

501
00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:46,480
Speaker 4: I was in a dress that was one hundred dollars bill.

502
00:22:46,880 --> 00:22:48,160
Speaker 4: I didn't know that he was going to be there,

503
00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:49,760
Speaker 4: so I said, oh, no, this is the Lord.

504
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Speaker 1: Was this an acid trip too? No?

505
00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:54,480
Speaker 4: This was last week. No, and it wasn't an acid trip.

506
00:22:54,520 --> 00:22:56,520
Speaker 4: But I just knew that the Lord presents himself in

507
00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:59,480
Speaker 4: very specific and kind of like poetic ways, and that

508
00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:01,119
Speaker 4: was one of the Because of that, I had to

509
00:23:01,240 --> 00:23:03,720
Speaker 4: pack we have I have a cubby at WTF Media Studios.

510
00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:06,119
Speaker 4: I packed extra outfits in there just in case I

511
00:23:06,200 --> 00:23:08,440
Speaker 4: passed by someone that may want to sit down for

512
00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:10,520
Speaker 4: twenty thirty minutes or something, and I have something to

513
00:23:10,600 --> 00:23:12,080
Speaker 4: change in because on my show, I dress up and

514
00:23:12,160 --> 00:23:14,639
Speaker 4: I do stuff. But yeah, that was the Lord. And

515
00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:17,719
Speaker 4: Ian asked me the same thing. And it bears repeating

516
00:23:17,760 --> 00:23:21,200
Speaker 4: here because this is such a you know, your people

517
00:23:21,200 --> 00:23:26,600
Speaker 4: don't know me. So my friend at the time was meditating.

518
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Speaker 4: This is how the interest into psychedelic started. And she

519
00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:33,359
Speaker 4: would have been meditating, and I was so perplexed at like,

520
00:23:33,400 --> 00:23:35,280
Speaker 4: I didn't know anything about meditation. I was twenty four

521
00:23:35,359 --> 00:23:37,320
Speaker 4: years old at this time, and she was like, oh,

522
00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:38,960
Speaker 4: come on. And I was telling her about my thoughts

523
00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:41,600
Speaker 4: and stuff, and you know, I was starting was starting

524
00:23:41,640 --> 00:23:43,560
Speaker 4: to get dark. And that's the scariest part, is like,

525
00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:46,200
Speaker 4: oh man, this is going to be this is gonna

526
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:49,920
Speaker 4: be forever, you know, so I might as well start

527
00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,240
Speaker 4: getting tools and strategies to deal with this shit, you know.

528
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Speaker 4: And she taught me the rudimentary basics on how to

529
00:23:56,000 --> 00:23:59,359
Speaker 4: meditate cool. A couple months of that and I was

530
00:23:59,400 --> 00:24:01,720
Speaker 4: really getting of it using this app called ten percent

531
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:05,320
Speaker 4: Happier app. They're incredible. I can't recommend them enough. And

532
00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:08,399
Speaker 4: then she said, hey, I just got some acid. My

533
00:24:08,440 --> 00:24:11,159
Speaker 4: friend got acid. I want to try it. I just

534
00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:13,680
Speaker 4: turned twenty five. She was like, this is like my

535
00:24:13,720 --> 00:24:16,480
Speaker 4: birthday present for you or something. And we were older.

536
00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,280
Speaker 4: We're twenty five doing acid for the first time. We

537
00:24:18,359 --> 00:24:21,879
Speaker 4: were in her apartment, very responsible. Her roommate was our babysitter.

538
00:24:22,160 --> 00:24:25,480
Speaker 4: We had fresh snacks, water, tea the right way.

539
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Speaker 1: Oh exactly. Yeah, we had my like the Bible.

540
00:24:27,680 --> 00:24:31,159
Speaker 4: App was on my phone open already because I like history,

541
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Speaker 4: I like theology. We have coloring books. It was so great.

542
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:37,560
Speaker 4: We were there. The intention was to garner some kind

543
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Speaker 4: of insights.

544
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Speaker 1: So it's like acid summer camp. No, this sounds great.

545
00:24:40,160 --> 00:24:40,360
Speaker 4: Yeah.

546
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Speaker 1: First time I did it was my friend's basement at

547
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Speaker 1: like fourteen, and didn't go, well, oh I won't. Yeah,

548
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:48,600
Speaker 1: i'd needed color books. I like.

549
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Speaker 4: I like to think that I make content for when

550
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Speaker 4: my nieces are you know, my nieces are six, seven,

551
00:24:53,720 --> 00:24:56,760
Speaker 4: eight and ten, and I want them to go back

552
00:24:56,760 --> 00:24:58,560
Speaker 4: to YouTube and watch stuff like this of their auntie,

553
00:24:58,600 --> 00:24:59,879
Speaker 4: and I want them to know how I did the

554
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:04,480
Speaker 4: because it really is the truth. You know, if ten

555
00:25:04,520 --> 00:25:07,000
Speaker 4: fifteen years from now my nieces watched this, wait till

556
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:09,280
Speaker 4: you're twenty five to do psychedelics mar.

557
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Speaker 1: With chaperones, with chaperones.

558
00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:15,920
Speaker 4: Yes, I know it's lame to actually be responsible, but

559
00:25:16,119 --> 00:25:18,479
Speaker 4: like do that, this is nothing a mess with especially

560
00:25:18,560 --> 00:25:20,840
Speaker 4: I also talk a lot about my own psychoses and

561
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:23,040
Speaker 4: stuff like that, like some people should not be doing

562
00:25:23,040 --> 00:25:26,520
Speaker 4: psychedelics if you already have an agitated psychosist, stop it.

563
00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:26,960
Speaker 3: Sure.

564
00:25:28,480 --> 00:25:35,280
Speaker 4: So I during that experience, I during my peak, it

565
00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:38,560
Speaker 4: felt like the euphoria was so intense. I'd never felt

566
00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:42,000
Speaker 4: anything like it. It felt almost like climaxing almost, but

567
00:25:42,080 --> 00:25:44,840
Speaker 4: I say that only so only to convey the intensity

568
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Speaker 4: of it. And it was like this like cloudy pastel

569
00:25:49,800 --> 00:25:56,800
Speaker 4: geometric like peak almost approaching, and I, for the first

570
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Speaker 4: time in probably the better half like the year, felt

571
00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:06,639
Speaker 4: utter peace. And all of a sudden, it was like

572
00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:14,240
Speaker 4: I didn't feel any of those thoughts anymore. Oh my god,

573
00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:16,000
Speaker 4: I'm okay right now, this is it?

574
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Speaker 5: Okay?

575
00:26:17,320 --> 00:26:19,159
Speaker 4: So I just started praying and meditating. I was like,

576
00:26:19,200 --> 00:26:21,720
Speaker 4: this is the place to do it. And just like that,

577
00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:23,440
Speaker 4: because the Lord knows how to get to you, he

578
00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:26,119
Speaker 4: knows how to lure you up anything. I put this

579
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:27,639
Speaker 4: on a moral of the story on my show. But

580
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Speaker 4: anytime you think that your external circumstances are set up

581
00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:35,159
Speaker 4: against you, or like that they're stifling you, you just

582
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:40,080
Speaker 4: know that that is a form of preparation. What stifling

583
00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:42,440
Speaker 4: the body does not stifle the spirit. And this is like,

584
00:26:42,680 --> 00:26:45,639
Speaker 4: this is a freaking perfect example of that. And the

585
00:26:45,720 --> 00:26:50,200
Speaker 4: Lord presented himself to me right after, and I it

586
00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:52,680
Speaker 4: was really an emotional thing, and he just told me

587
00:26:52,760 --> 00:26:54,359
Speaker 4: that I'm loved and I'm worthy of this body, and

588
00:26:54,440 --> 00:26:56,480
Speaker 4: I gave you this body, and you have a gift,

589
00:26:56,600 --> 00:26:59,520
Speaker 4: and this is a gift. Life is a gift. Remember that.

590
00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:04,200
Speaker 4: And ever since that day, I made it a point

591
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:10,840
Speaker 4: to make my worship and my Bible studies and my

592
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:16,280
Speaker 4: devotionals a priority, just like going to the gym, drinking wine.

593
00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:22,359
Speaker 4: Eating Actually my devotional is above eating. Actually so. And

594
00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:25,000
Speaker 4: even then I hadn't called it celibacy yet. I just

595
00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:30,440
Speaker 4: knew that I wanted to table whatever impeded on my pains.

596
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:35,520
Speaker 1: During that acid trip though, in God presenting Himself? Did

597
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Speaker 1: you think specifically Christianity, Because I'm of the belief that

598
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Speaker 1: we're all just taking different highways to the same God.

599
00:27:41,480 --> 00:27:44,520
Speaker 1: Everyone's just practicing different we're all calling it different. It's

600
00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 1: still the same one. We all just choose different paths

601
00:27:46,600 --> 00:27:50,480
Speaker 1: to get to it. Why Christian Like in that acid trip?

602
00:27:50,600 --> 00:27:55,760
Speaker 1: Was it like New Testament? Yeah, okay, it was interesting,

603
00:27:56,040 --> 00:27:56,359
Speaker 1: just like that.

604
00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 4: It's as simple as that rory and for anyone listening,

605
00:27:59,640 --> 00:28:02,520
Speaker 4: it's a simple as that it was Jesus Christ. And

606
00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:06,040
Speaker 4: that wasn't a doubt. A lot of other things were

607
00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:08,800
Speaker 4: in doubt, in question internally, but the one thing I

608
00:28:08,880 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 4: knew for certain was.

609
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Speaker 3: That would you say you were a bit of a

610
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:14,320
Speaker 3: hoe before?

611
00:28:14,520 --> 00:28:16,440
Speaker 4: No, not at all, not at all.

612
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Speaker 3: You don't feel like sex was something that you just

613
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:20,560
Speaker 3: was like, no, no, no, no.

614
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Speaker 4: I've always been pretty vanilla. I was saying the other

615
00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:28,159
Speaker 4: day to my producer Clara, I think I have like

616
00:28:28,200 --> 00:28:30,520
Speaker 4: a or maybe it's a depression. I think a lower

617
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Speaker 4: act of libido. And also sex has never been the

618
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Speaker 4: top for me. I've just been blessed with really having

619
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:40,960
Speaker 4: like great selfless lovers you know, it's not until I

620
00:28:41,040 --> 00:28:43,160
Speaker 4: started hanging out with Hose that I didn't know that

621
00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:46,240
Speaker 4: men weren't pleasing women. I've only because my number is

622
00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:48,200
Speaker 4: not that high either. Like, I'll be honest, it really

623
00:28:48,240 --> 00:28:51,440
Speaker 4: does feel like I'm falling into No no, no, no,

624
00:28:51,680 --> 00:28:54,440
Speaker 4: it's not. But like I've always it almost feels like

625
00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,960
Speaker 4: it almost feels like I fell into something accidentally, but

626
00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:01,600
Speaker 4: it actually makes sense. All my friends are like, oh,

627
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:04,160
Speaker 4: bre never hooked up with dudes like that. Okay, the

628
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:06,840
Speaker 4: fact that I hooked up with my friend was crazy.

629
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:08,640
Speaker 4: That's why that was the moment was like, this is

630
00:29:08,680 --> 00:29:09,560
Speaker 4: so out of character.

631
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Speaker 1: So the celibacy thing wasn't a crazy stretch because you

632
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Speaker 1: used to be taking break me.

633
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:20,440
Speaker 4: He gave it a name. Oh, and the Bible explains this, like,

634
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:26,160
Speaker 4: sometimes your faith work should be easeful. If it feels burdensome,

635
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:29,800
Speaker 4: there's something you're not addressing, it really will the more

636
00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:35,280
Speaker 4: you obey in obedience, it actually like compels you to

637
00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:38,840
Speaker 4: keep being obedient because it fills you with more faith.

638
00:29:39,120 --> 00:29:43,080
Speaker 4: If I'm disobedient actively, my faith is compromised, period.

639
00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:46,040
Speaker 1: Okay, But what if I have discipline in every part

640
00:29:46,080 --> 00:29:48,000
Speaker 1: of my life and I see sex as a very

641
00:29:48,080 --> 00:29:51,400
Speaker 1: healthy thing and as a very healthy process. I don't

642
00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:55,080
Speaker 1: do it in an excessive way. Every partner I have

643
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:58,040
Speaker 1: is a very respectable thing. Don't treat people wrong during it,

644
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:03,720
Speaker 1: whereas wrong when it comes to a religion. In that capacity,

645
00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:07,960
Speaker 1: if I'm a really good person and I fuck, where's

646
00:30:08,000 --> 00:30:10,479
Speaker 1: the person that's a really shitty person? And then goes, well,

647
00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:12,440
Speaker 1: I'm cell of it because the Bible says it, But

648
00:30:12,560 --> 00:30:14,600
Speaker 1: meanwhile they're really just not a good person.

649
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Speaker 4: There's so many different angle that I could take to

650
00:30:19,680 --> 00:30:29,280
Speaker 4: answer this. We choose to obey the divine law not

651
00:30:29,440 --> 00:30:33,400
Speaker 4: just because the Bible says it. It's because we are

652
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:37,640
Speaker 4: God fearing people, not in the fact that we're shivering

653
00:30:37,680 --> 00:30:39,600
Speaker 4: in our boots with the God, but because we have

654
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Speaker 4: reverence for our God, and our God is watching us.

655
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:49,000
Speaker 4: And when we do not obey the divine laws, we

656
00:30:50,160 --> 00:30:53,040
Speaker 4: know that our sovereign God is witnessing that. That causes

657
00:30:53,200 --> 00:30:57,160
Speaker 4: spiritual warfare within anyone who is a believer. Now, I

658
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Speaker 4: want to go back to your saying, well, what if

659
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Speaker 4: it's a good person. I had a guy recently sort

660
00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:04,560
Speaker 4: of say that, because you know, guys are weasels sometimes

661
00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:06,360
Speaker 4: they'll tell you they're Christian, they don't know anything about

662
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:08,960
Speaker 4: the text, they're not practicing. They just want to take

663
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:14,200
Speaker 4: me out. It's so not pathetic, but it's like it's annoying. Cool,

664
00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:15,960
Speaker 4: we can talk about that, but that's annoying. Like I

665
00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:20,160
Speaker 4: if you tell me that you're a Christian and you are,

666
00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:25,239
Speaker 4: you would not be having conversations like now, what if

667
00:31:25,240 --> 00:31:27,560
Speaker 4: I'm a good person and whatever. It's like that's ill

668
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 4: placed for in my eyes, and I know how I

669
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Speaker 4: like to be treated and that's not how I want

670
00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:33,240
Speaker 4: to be treated. But a Christian man would know that,

671
00:31:33,680 --> 00:31:36,280
Speaker 4: which is why I'm like, huh, you may say you're Christian,

672
00:31:36,320 --> 00:31:39,080
Speaker 4: you know, but maybe you're not practicing right which to

673
00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:42,280
Speaker 4: eat your own read your Bibles for those who who

674
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Speaker 4: fall under that umbrella, because there are a lot of

675
00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:47,920
Speaker 4: people who who will never deny Jesus. I guarantee you

676
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:53,360
Speaker 4: that a good chunk of your listeners identify as Christian

677
00:31:53,400 --> 00:31:56,000
Speaker 4: but have never read the word, have have casual sex

678
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:58,600
Speaker 4: and casual and I participate in worldly stuff whatever, but

679
00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:01,960
Speaker 4: they would never dare say Jesus is not king. Those

680
00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:03,959
Speaker 4: people that I said read the Bible are for them.

681
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:07,160
Speaker 1: You're talking about the Eastern and Christmas crowd, the people

682
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:08,000
Speaker 1: that go to church.

683
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:09,680
Speaker 4: Some of them fall under that in the way they.

684
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 3: Were raised in the church, and as they got older

685
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:12,360
Speaker 3: and didn't have to go, they.

686
00:32:12,240 --> 00:32:13,040
Speaker 1: Don't have to go anymore.

687
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 4: So what I'm saying is, oh, yeah, there are some

688
00:32:15,240 --> 00:32:19,200
Speaker 4: people that like are deconstructing but have so much faith.

689
00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:22,480
Speaker 4: And because my faith is actually so young, I call

690
00:32:22,520 --> 00:32:24,400
Speaker 4: them my Bible babes because I'm a babe in the faith.

691
00:32:24,680 --> 00:32:27,880
Speaker 4: I make Christian content for the misfits in the middle,

692
00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:29,800
Speaker 4: the misfits that were in the world for a really

693
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:32,560
Speaker 4: long time and we're working it out together. That's my community.

694
00:32:32,960 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 4: Because I'm hated by both a lot of atheists don't

695
00:32:35,480 --> 00:32:37,080
Speaker 4: like me, and a lot of evangelists also don't like me.

696
00:32:37,160 --> 00:32:39,400
Speaker 1: I can see that for sure, But there's a really

697
00:32:39,800 --> 00:32:42,280
Speaker 1: weird like atheists Actually.

698
00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:45,920
Speaker 4: They warm up. If you watch multiple episodes of my show,

699
00:32:46,280 --> 00:32:49,239
Speaker 4: they warm up. I get haters come back, a lot

700
00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:52,360
Speaker 4: of them, and I think it's because once you remove

701
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:55,160
Speaker 4: your own perception of what you may think I may

702
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:59,440
Speaker 4: be saying and just listen, it's very disarming. And I

703
00:32:59,560 --> 00:33:02,600
Speaker 4: really do content for everybody, which is what Jesus wants

704
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:02,960
Speaker 4: for us.

705
00:33:04,080 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 3: Because of their own insecurities and things like that.

706
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Speaker 1: Well, I think the stigma that comes from a lot

707
00:33:09,080 --> 00:33:12,640
Speaker 1: of Christians and just religious people in general, as if

708
00:33:12,760 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: they feel and I'm not saying this about you at all,

709
00:33:14,760 --> 00:33:17,120
Speaker 1: because I haven't caught that at all, that they are

710
00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:20,800
Speaker 1: better than everyone else because they are this religious person.

711
00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:23,840
Speaker 1: And as we've seen in our neighborhoods, usually the people

712
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:26,800
Speaker 1: that are the most religious, God fearing people are the

713
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:29,200
Speaker 1: biggest pieces of shit in the neighborhood and they're kind

714
00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:32,240
Speaker 1: of masking all their bullshit with religion and God.

715
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Speaker 2: A lot of people the church in general, like a

716
00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:37,800
Speaker 2: lot of pastors, we see that pedophiles. Listen, I grew

717
00:33:37,840 --> 00:33:39,719
Speaker 2: up in the Catholic Church, like you see it all

718
00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:40,000
Speaker 2: the time.

719
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:43,240
Speaker 3: Like me personally, right, I'm not a big.

720
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Speaker 1: Deal a spiritual person.

721
00:33:46,120 --> 00:33:47,760
Speaker 4: Two and one I'll answer, And because I know the

722
00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:49,440
Speaker 4: listeners are going to be pissed because I didn't answer

723
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:52,680
Speaker 4: the other question. But two and one. The Bible tells

724
00:33:52,760 --> 00:33:56,760
Speaker 4: us that we are flawed people, all of us. Absolutely,

725
00:33:57,080 --> 00:34:00,640
Speaker 4: We're all sinners, like all of us. And guess what,

726
00:34:00,720 --> 00:34:04,600
Speaker 4: I'll take a step further your sin, your sin Carl,

727
00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:08,279
Speaker 4: your sin, Demris, your sin ed in, Your sin is

728
00:34:09,040 --> 00:34:11,399
Speaker 4: in my sin like yours is not better or worse

729
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:12,839
Speaker 4: than mine. There's no hierarchy to sin.

730
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Speaker 3: I don't believe that.

731
00:34:13,480 --> 00:34:14,160
Speaker 1: I don't believe that anything.

732
00:34:14,239 --> 00:34:16,759
Speaker 4: Now. Wait, listen, I'm not talking about no, no, no,

733
00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:19,320
Speaker 4: I'm not talking about you believe though I believe that. No, no, no,

734
00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:21,600
Speaker 4: I know, but I'm not referencing the belief. It's not

735
00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:24,520
Speaker 4: a it's not almost like, it's not even the debate

736
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:27,520
Speaker 4: topic in my religion and my religion, that idea that

737
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 4: we're all sinners is more coming from a place of

738
00:34:31,719 --> 00:34:33,840
Speaker 4: if you judge your brother or your sister when you

739
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:38,920
Speaker 4: yourself have blood on your hands, regardless, that is totally

740
00:34:39,040 --> 00:34:42,480
Speaker 4: against our coven the old there's only one judger here,

741
00:34:42,760 --> 00:34:45,560
Speaker 4: one and that is God. And the second you abuse

742
00:34:45,640 --> 00:34:48,600
Speaker 4: that you are not righteous and you will seek judgment,

743
00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:50,640
Speaker 4: you won't have restoration, you'll have judgment.

744
00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:52,520
Speaker 3: So will God judge me? For ghosts and women like

745
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:56,600
Speaker 3: I have to have sex? Ghost?

746
00:34:58,600 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 4: Wait, let's talk about this.

747
00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:00,120
Speaker 3: Why do you you?

748
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:03,239
Speaker 4: Why do you? Why do you? Why do you want

749
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:03,680
Speaker 4: a ghost?

750
00:35:03,880 --> 00:35:03,920
Speaker 3: No?

751
00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:06,239
Speaker 2: Not, I don't want to, but it happens. Sometimes you

752
00:35:06,360 --> 00:35:08,879
Speaker 2: just never hook up again. It just kind of isn't

753
00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:11,520
Speaker 2: It doesn't go anywhere after that. It's not or I

754
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:13,600
Speaker 2: don't do it on purpose, it just happens.

755
00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:16,200
Speaker 4: No, and then I don't think. So I don't know that.

756
00:35:16,280 --> 00:35:18,200
Speaker 4: I don't know why. I'm taking your questions really, both

757
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:22,000
Speaker 4: of your questions very literally, but I don't I don't know.

758
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,440
Speaker 4: I can't answer that. Actually, I don't know because I

759
00:35:24,680 --> 00:35:26,320
Speaker 4: do the same. I'm ghosting someone right now, and I

760
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:27,320
Speaker 4: feel really bad about it.

761
00:35:27,960 --> 00:35:29,080
Speaker 3: You're ghosting someone right now.

762
00:35:29,120 --> 00:35:30,520
Speaker 4: Right now, and I feel bad about it every time

763
00:35:30,560 --> 00:35:31,880
Speaker 4: he texts. I don't. I just put it away and

764
00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:32,800
Speaker 4: pretend like it doesn't exist.

765
00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:33,920
Speaker 2: I mean, I get to it.

766
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,319
Speaker 1: I'm not an Old Testament guy. But the Father's Son

767
00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:38,200
Speaker 1: and the Holy Ghost it was a thing.

768
00:35:38,560 --> 00:35:39,160
Speaker 3: It was a thing.

769
00:35:40,400 --> 00:35:42,200
Speaker 1: So why are you ghosting this this gentleman? Currently?

770
00:35:43,520 --> 00:35:44,160
Speaker 3: Where's he from?

771
00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:47,080
Speaker 4: I say something? I really, I know he's probably gonna

772
00:35:47,120 --> 00:35:48,520
Speaker 4: listen to this because this is the biggest thing ever.

773
00:35:48,640 --> 00:35:49,080
Speaker 6: He wants to know.

774
00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:51,120
Speaker 3: He's going to listen. You're not. You're ghosting him. He

775
00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:52,200
Speaker 3: sees everything that you're doing.

776
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:53,640
Speaker 1: Can you listen somewhere?

777
00:35:53,760 --> 00:35:54,960
Speaker 4: Well? Yeah, right now?

778
00:35:55,160 --> 00:35:57,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, I tell so you think she's gonna rise after

779
00:35:57,560 --> 00:35:58,000
Speaker 1: three days.

780
00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:02,040
Speaker 4: My gosh, you guys, let's talk about this boy because

781
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:03,120
Speaker 4: it's actually looming over me.

782
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:04,440
Speaker 3: Okay, let's do it.

783
00:36:05,920 --> 00:36:07,560
Speaker 4: I Oh, where do I begin?

784
00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:08,920
Speaker 3: How long have you known each other?

785
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:09,400
Speaker 4: Oh?

786
00:36:10,040 --> 00:36:10,800
Speaker 1: A couple of weeks?

787
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:14,080
Speaker 4: Not long? A month? A month? A month, yes, a month.

788
00:36:14,600 --> 00:36:15,880
Speaker 3: You've been ghosting and you only know me.

789
00:36:15,960 --> 00:36:17,320
Speaker 4: But listen, no, no, no, but I've been going in

790
00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:18,160
Speaker 4: for this around two weeks.

791
00:36:18,200 --> 00:36:19,960
Speaker 1: Average ghost time around a month is when you start

792
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:20,239
Speaker 1: to do well.

793
00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:22,560
Speaker 4: Listen, the first I was doing something different. I think

794
00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:25,160
Speaker 4: one of my achilles heels as a person, and I'm

795
00:36:25,200 --> 00:36:28,319
Speaker 4: not proud of it, is I'm a little bit superficial,

796
00:36:28,840 --> 00:36:32,279
Speaker 4: and I've prayed for I've literally prayed for the Lord

797
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:34,759
Speaker 4: to remove that or minimize that a little bit, if

798
00:36:34,800 --> 00:36:37,760
Speaker 4: we could please transform my heart because I'm a little

799
00:36:37,800 --> 00:36:42,320
Speaker 4: shallow and certain things like height or now Christian and

800
00:36:42,560 --> 00:36:44,000
Speaker 4: you know that's not going to be budging, but like

801
00:36:44,239 --> 00:36:47,640
Speaker 4: things that don't really matter. And I know that the Lord, whatever, whoever,

802
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:49,600
Speaker 4: is right for me, who's going to be my future husband,

803
00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:51,600
Speaker 4: which is the only thing I'm dating and dating for

804
00:36:51,960 --> 00:36:55,400
Speaker 4: is my husband potential, the potent or the potential for that.

805
00:36:57,560 --> 00:37:01,279
Speaker 4: And I've been known to myself to be someone who

806
00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:03,960
Speaker 4: values other things like money, someone who has money and

807
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:05,160
Speaker 4: someone has power. A lot of the guys that have

808
00:37:05,239 --> 00:37:07,440
Speaker 4: dated are over forty and I really a mint to that,

809
00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:10,520
Speaker 4: and like, I know that that's the Lord convicts me

810
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:14,200
Speaker 4: to stop doing that because I shouldn't be romanticizing a

811
00:37:14,400 --> 00:37:17,719
Speaker 4: man based off of money and that and things like that,

812
00:37:17,880 --> 00:37:20,239
Speaker 4: because I know myself and I know my own iniquities

813
00:37:20,280 --> 00:37:23,400
Speaker 4: and my own flaws, and if I'm becoming intimate with

814
00:37:23,480 --> 00:37:25,520
Speaker 4: someone who's like that, I'm going to fall right into

815
00:37:26,360 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 4: you know. So I said, Lord, present me with some

816
00:37:29,719 --> 00:37:31,239
Speaker 4: if an opportunity to practice this.

817
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:33,239
Speaker 1: Can I ask you a question on that though, Yeah,

818
00:37:33,280 --> 00:37:36,759
Speaker 1: because I've seen plenty of men get mad at women

819
00:37:36,840 --> 00:37:39,719
Speaker 1: of like, oh you just like dudes with money. Do

820
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:43,120
Speaker 1: you like the money for the materialistic things or because

821
00:37:43,400 --> 00:37:46,399
Speaker 1: money can represent accomplishments in someone that's focused and someone

822
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:49,200
Speaker 1: that's driven by someone that is family.

823
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:51,960
Speaker 4: I need someone to make me feel safe enough to

824
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:53,719
Speaker 4: know that my family's always going to be good no

825
00:37:53,840 --> 00:37:54,200
Speaker 4: matter what.

826
00:37:54,480 --> 00:37:58,960
Speaker 1: And unfortunately the society and money is necessary interact. Of course,

827
00:37:59,440 --> 00:38:00,480
Speaker 1: that's my motive number one.

828
00:38:00,560 --> 00:38:03,520
Speaker 4: But it's not the case. Oh, I don't need to

829
00:38:03,600 --> 00:38:06,440
Speaker 4: love my man. Oh so, I'm sorry I've said it before.

830
00:38:06,600 --> 00:38:08,040
Speaker 4: I mean, no, it'd be nice to love him, but like,

831
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:10,000
Speaker 4: there's so many things that are above love. I need

832
00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:11,680
Speaker 4: you to respect me. Well, I need you to be

833
00:38:11,719 --> 00:38:14,200
Speaker 4: a Christian man. I need you to respect me, and

834
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:16,359
Speaker 4: I need you to not be offended easily, and then

835
00:38:16,400 --> 00:38:17,960
Speaker 4: I need you to love me. I actually no, I

836
00:38:18,040 --> 00:38:20,520
Speaker 4: need you to be a family oriented good father, and

837
00:38:20,600 --> 00:38:22,800
Speaker 4: then I need you to love me. Love for me

838
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:24,560
Speaker 4: is like last on my list, if I'm being honest.

839
00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:25,400
Speaker 4: But I'm also twenty eight.

840
00:38:25,440 --> 00:38:28,279
Speaker 1: I'm with the spring Chicken within Christianity. Though it's a

841
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:30,880
Speaker 1: little odd to me that love wouldn't be very high. Listen, sir,

842
00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:32,680
Speaker 1: we just here, all all to love Jesus and not

843
00:38:32,760 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 1: each other.

844
00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:36,879
Speaker 4: Oh that's no. But I'm revealing to you my iniquities.

845
00:38:37,160 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 4: I am not here, you know, like I am not.

846
00:38:39,440 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 4: I can only share my testimony. I am a flawed woman.

847
00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:45,319
Speaker 4: You're finding you're seeing holes?

848
00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:50,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, I said, yes, you see it.

849
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:53,040
Speaker 4: Oh my god. I want to yesify you. Have you

850
00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:55,359
Speaker 4: heard of the yesify by someone?

851
00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:57,120
Speaker 1: Yesfy Rory?

852
00:38:57,320 --> 00:39:00,480
Speaker 4: Please, someone pulls something up Oh my god, I wish

853
00:39:00,480 --> 00:39:03,120
Speaker 4: you guys had a screen. Yes, if I it's like

854
00:39:03,239 --> 00:39:05,200
Speaker 4: or they take like anything. It could be like the

855
00:39:05,280 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 4: Mona Lisa and they'll yes, they'll like out of the

856
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:10,480
Speaker 4: Instagram filter filler in their life. Oh how do you

857
00:39:10,520 --> 00:39:12,040
Speaker 4: guys feel about filler on the lips?

858
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:15,240
Speaker 1: Oh, we've addressed this. I feel like it's like kissing

859
00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:19,040
Speaker 1: the tire at the playground. Really, yeah, we're not done

860
00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:21,120
Speaker 1: with this guy that you're ghosting. And because so, he's

861
00:39:21,120 --> 00:39:22,319
Speaker 1: not solll enough. He doesn't enough money.

862
00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:24,279
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, no, he has money. Well, here's

863
00:39:24,280 --> 00:39:26,239
Speaker 4: the thing point of the story. I prayed for the

864
00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:28,320
Speaker 4: Lord to present me with an opportunity to practice this

865
00:39:28,920 --> 00:39:31,680
Speaker 4: because I don't want to be as shallow as I

866
00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:35,200
Speaker 4: the human man, not man, but like the body is.

867
00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:38,400
Speaker 4: Primarily I lean towards a certain I want to remove.

868
00:39:38,239 --> 00:39:41,200
Speaker 3: That pers that's true too, Yeah, I agree.

869
00:39:41,120 --> 00:39:43,680
Speaker 4: No, no, no, but that's true too. But when I'm

870
00:39:43,719 --> 00:39:45,359
Speaker 4: in New York, I'm twenty, I want to have kids

871
00:39:45,400 --> 00:39:47,919
Speaker 4: by a certain time. There is a shelf life for women,

872
00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:50,480
Speaker 4: and I need to start making a few sacrifices now,

873
00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:53,640
Speaker 4: Like I don't care about someone being tall, Get over that.

874
00:39:53,880 --> 00:39:56,120
Speaker 4: So I asked the Lord to present me with opportunities

875
00:39:56,280 --> 00:39:58,360
Speaker 4: no matter how they look, for me to address that

876
00:39:58,480 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 4: and change that.

877
00:40:00,160 --> 00:40:03,320
Speaker 2: You know, what's something and being observant, just listening to

878
00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:04,840
Speaker 2: you something that I'm observant about you.

879
00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:09,840
Speaker 3: I feel like you're you're too like everything has to

880
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:12,880
Speaker 3: be perfect and.

881
00:40:12,960 --> 00:40:15,080
Speaker 4: Life meanwhile, I'm in chaos and shambles.

882
00:40:15,280 --> 00:40:16,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, but life isn't perfect.

883
00:40:16,400 --> 00:40:19,120
Speaker 2: So I feel like you're waiting for like this perfect thing,

884
00:40:19,239 --> 00:40:21,920
Speaker 2: this perfect even even in editing your thumbnail it takes

885
00:40:21,960 --> 00:40:23,600
Speaker 2: an hour to edit, so you're looking for perfect.

886
00:40:23,640 --> 00:40:26,080
Speaker 4: But I'm trying to eliminate. Professionally, I'm going to keep

887
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:28,120
Speaker 4: that and I don't want that to change. But in intimacy,

888
00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,080
Speaker 4: I do want that to change. That's why I'm praying

889
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:32,719
Speaker 4: for the Lord to change that. And he provided me

890
00:40:32,760 --> 00:40:33,480
Speaker 4: with an opportunity.

891
00:40:33,480 --> 00:40:34,800
Speaker 3: You want to hear it, Yeah, I want to hear it.

892
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:36,759
Speaker 4: This He was a fan I think of me.

893
00:40:37,680 --> 00:40:39,640
Speaker 1: He is dangerous, but I already know.

894
00:40:39,719 --> 00:40:41,160
Speaker 4: And that was the first time I've ever gone You know,

895
00:40:41,480 --> 00:40:44,279
Speaker 4: this guy, I don't know, I don't know. He says not,

896
00:40:44,400 --> 00:40:45,799
Speaker 4: but he knows a lot. He knows a lot about

897
00:40:45,800 --> 00:40:49,200
Speaker 4: the Bible. When he's not jumping gun. He dms me

898
00:40:49,680 --> 00:40:53,080
Speaker 4: asks me for info. He actually was a really great

899
00:40:53,160 --> 00:40:56,360
Speaker 4: guy and actually a lot of my theological questions I

900
00:40:56,440 --> 00:40:59,000
Speaker 4: ended up asking him because he's so he just knows

901
00:40:59,000 --> 00:41:02,600
Speaker 4: a lot about the word. And then I put out

902
00:41:02,719 --> 00:41:05,320
Speaker 4: NFTs for my podcast. We have NFTs out on opense

903
00:41:05,480 --> 00:41:11,080
Speaker 4: oopenc dot com, Ford slash Bible, Brianda, and he knows

904
00:41:11,120 --> 00:41:11,600
Speaker 4: a lot about it.

905
00:41:11,719 --> 00:41:12,080
Speaker 2: He so.

906
00:41:12,280 --> 00:41:14,560
Speaker 4: In fact, he's actually very savvy with money and very

907
00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:17,680
Speaker 4: the makings of a husband for sure. I mean I

908
00:41:17,719 --> 00:41:21,960
Speaker 4: went out with him. I didn't know what he looked like. Now,

909
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:24,000
Speaker 4: of course you're asking, why did't you go on his instagram? Pree,

910
00:41:24,200 --> 00:41:25,920
Speaker 4: why don't you go on to guess what I did?

911
00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:28,759
Speaker 4: There was just a photo of his face and a

912
00:41:28,840 --> 00:41:32,560
Speaker 4: bunch of like money stuff, investing stuff like art, but

913
00:41:32,680 --> 00:41:34,560
Speaker 4: not him, And I said, oh, is this an opportunity?

914
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:35,480
Speaker 4: It's scary as hell?

915
00:41:35,719 --> 00:41:38,320
Speaker 1: Does he dm people send me your cash names and

916
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:39,000
Speaker 1: I'll send.

917
00:41:38,880 --> 00:41:41,640
Speaker 4: You that mutual We had no, no, no, we had mutuals.

918
00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:43,360
Speaker 4: So I was like, Okay, I know he's not.

919
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:45,080
Speaker 1: Like, did you reach out to the mutuals?

920
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:46,879
Speaker 4: Uh one?

921
00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:47,799
Speaker 1: Oh god?

922
00:41:48,320 --> 00:41:49,960
Speaker 4: Oh wait no no, no, I'm sorry. No, no, No,

923
00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:52,120
Speaker 4: I didn't. I didn't. We got to do better here,

924
00:41:52,239 --> 00:41:53,680
Speaker 4: hold on, I know I have to change. I know,

925
00:41:53,719 --> 00:41:56,040
Speaker 4: I know. I know. My friends are a little safety reasons.

926
00:41:56,280 --> 00:41:57,279
Speaker 4: I'm too trusting with people.

927
00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:57,440
Speaker 3: I know.

928
00:41:57,680 --> 00:42:00,200
Speaker 4: Listen, I show up to the meeting we're about me,

929
00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:03,200
Speaker 4: and I don't know. I don't see him for like

930
00:42:03,239 --> 00:42:05,200
Speaker 4: five minutes. I'm like trying to find him. I'm so worry.

931
00:42:06,239 --> 00:42:08,919
Speaker 4: He goes, no, I'm here about the spot, and I go, Okay, listen,

932
00:42:08,960 --> 00:42:11,839
Speaker 4: I'm wearing a X y Z shirt or whatever, come

933
00:42:12,239 --> 00:42:16,319
Speaker 4: our jacket. He comes, and I'm a very fab girl.

934
00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:17,880
Speaker 4: I like to wear heels when I go out. I

935
00:42:18,040 --> 00:42:21,279
Speaker 4: like to do my mate. I'm like, you know, I'm

936
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:23,360
Speaker 4: in my garb, in my heels and my.

937
00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:25,440
Speaker 3: He had on a Nike text suit.

938
00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:34,960
Speaker 4: He was five four, Lord, remove it, thank you.

939
00:42:35,520 --> 00:42:37,319
Speaker 1: As a complicated woman, I wouldn't date him either.

940
00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:42,279
Speaker 4: Okay, listen. Wait, So what I'm saying isn't five eight?

941
00:42:42,960 --> 00:42:43,399
Speaker 5: Five four?

942
00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:44,560
Speaker 4: Isn't five nine?

943
00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,000
Speaker 1: Talk that ship? Five nine?

944
00:42:47,080 --> 00:42:47,279
Speaker 3: Is mad?

945
00:42:47,400 --> 00:42:48,040
Speaker 4: Are you five nine?

946
00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:48,319
Speaker 3: Yes?

947
00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:52,359
Speaker 1: Oh okay, he's not five nine.

948
00:42:53,719 --> 00:42:55,080
Speaker 4: What I'm saying is five four is a lot. But

949
00:42:55,200 --> 00:42:56,920
Speaker 4: but oh my god, is he gonna listen? Listen. I

950
00:42:56,920 --> 00:42:58,680
Speaker 4: think you're great. I'm gonna respond to your text before

951
00:42:58,719 --> 00:42:59,680
Speaker 4: this comes out. When does this come out?

952
00:43:00,280 --> 00:43:03,000
Speaker 1: Oh crap, yeah, okay, I have a couple hours.

953
00:43:03,280 --> 00:43:04,279
Speaker 3: What is am?

954
00:43:04,360 --> 00:43:07,960
Speaker 1: No, I'm joking. You need to listen.

955
00:43:08,239 --> 00:43:10,240
Speaker 4: Can you guys help me? Oh? Is that expensive?

956
00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:14,400
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, money mister, we're talking about him?

957
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:18,440
Speaker 4: Yeah? Wait, listen, I see.

958
00:43:20,640 --> 00:43:27,479
Speaker 1: It was a cocaine reference. Marius just snorted. You guys,

959
00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:28,879
Speaker 1: at least think some funny.

960
00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:34,240
Speaker 4: I didn't know this fact about him, but I immediately

961
00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:38,000
Speaker 4: spotted it as Oh, okay, this is God. I had

962
00:43:38,160 --> 00:43:40,240
Speaker 4: just prayed for this like two or three days before.

963
00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:44,320
Speaker 4: Actually that's what That's what compelled me to confirm, because

964
00:43:44,360 --> 00:43:46,920
Speaker 4: it happened almost like at least I'm very close with

965
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:49,080
Speaker 4: my lord, and I have a very with our Lord,

966
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:50,960
Speaker 4: and I have a very close relationship with him, and

967
00:43:51,000 --> 00:43:53,520
Speaker 4: that he presents himself in ways that are kind of nutty,

968
00:43:53,560 --> 00:43:57,759
Speaker 4: and it's like, oh no, this is God. Like left

969
00:43:57,800 --> 00:43:59,640
Speaker 4: to my own devices and I should be failing, but

970
00:43:59,840 --> 00:44:02,400
Speaker 4: he has so much favor in mercy on me. But anyway,

971
00:44:02,760 --> 00:44:05,839
Speaker 4: so he I can see you stacking questions. Stay right there.

972
00:44:05,920 --> 00:44:06,439
Speaker 3: You have no idea.

973
00:44:06,480 --> 00:44:08,040
Speaker 1: I see you're like I'm just waiting.

974
00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:11,560
Speaker 4: We go on the date and it's beautiful. He is,

975
00:44:11,719 --> 00:44:14,280
Speaker 4: so he smokes, I smoke weed, and I'm a Christian.

976
00:44:14,360 --> 00:44:16,920
Speaker 4: That already is like tough for people to swallow. But

977
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:19,680
Speaker 4: there was a very large Stoner Christian community and we

978
00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:22,640
Speaker 4: actually exist and we were actually really awesome, and we

979
00:44:22,760 --> 00:44:26,360
Speaker 4: don't look at it as you know, of course everything

980
00:44:26,400 --> 00:44:29,719
Speaker 4: can be abused. It says everything a moderation, right, Paul

981
00:44:29,719 --> 00:44:33,719
Speaker 4: says everything a moderation. But he smokes weed. We like,

982
00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:37,040
Speaker 4: go on this awesome date. He really was great. And honestly,

983
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:39,359
Speaker 4: I'm not even just saying that. I for a moment

984
00:44:39,440 --> 00:44:43,680
Speaker 4: there almost forgot he was about his hype. So I said, oh, no,

985
00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:44,920
Speaker 4: I'm going to go on a second date.

986
00:44:45,040 --> 00:44:47,280
Speaker 1: What instiletto did you have on something?

987
00:44:47,440 --> 00:44:47,480
Speaker 3: No?

988
00:44:47,560 --> 00:44:49,000
Speaker 4: No, no, Actually it was something like this. It was

989
00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:51,600
Speaker 4: like because it's winter or fall, so it's cold, so

990
00:44:51,680 --> 00:44:55,759
Speaker 4: I had a like a I'm five six, so what

991
00:44:55,880 --> 00:45:00,040
Speaker 4: would this make me five nine, five ten? Yeah, So

992
00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:01,080
Speaker 4: imagine that.

993
00:45:02,200 --> 00:45:06,480
Speaker 1: That gap compromise just so ones with them all the time,

994
00:45:06,480 --> 00:45:06,799
Speaker 1: never so.

995
00:45:06,840 --> 00:45:09,840
Speaker 4: Listen the next day, but I take them on a

996
00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:11,600
Speaker 4: second day because I know, again this is beyond me.

997
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,239
Speaker 4: It's not about what I want. It's about what the

998
00:45:13,320 --> 00:45:15,080
Speaker 4: Lord wants for me. And that's something that's tough for

999
00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:17,480
Speaker 4: people to hear, but that's what it is when you're

1000
00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:20,520
Speaker 4: when you are a worshiper, a god feeing person, it's

1001
00:45:20,600 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 4: not about what you want or what you believe.

1002
00:45:23,840 --> 00:45:26,360
Speaker 1: What was so amazing about the date though, the fact.

1003
00:45:26,239 --> 00:45:29,600
Speaker 4: That we are so spiritually aligned, It was very attractive

1004
00:45:29,640 --> 00:45:34,400
Speaker 4: to me, very attractive, and it feels so good to

1005
00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:38,160
Speaker 4: not have to explain myself with certain like when I'm dating.

1006
00:45:38,200 --> 00:45:40,520
Speaker 4: When I've date black guys and I like show up

1007
00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:41,920
Speaker 4: in my hair and so it's like a different thing,

1008
00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:44,200
Speaker 4: like they know me. I feel like because they had

1009
00:45:44,239 --> 00:45:46,960
Speaker 4: black mothers or like they had they just know. They

1010
00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:48,480
Speaker 4: know when there's hair on the floor and they don't

1011
00:45:48,480 --> 00:45:50,359
Speaker 4: care about that shit you put your bonnet on, like whatever.

1012
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:52,200
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. It's like something it's like

1013
00:45:52,280 --> 00:45:55,520
Speaker 4: that familiarity only with spirit in the spiritual realm, you know.

1014
00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:58,960
Speaker 4: I felt really safe and it felt really good where

1015
00:45:58,960 --> 00:46:00,880
Speaker 4: I can go on my high tan geez and communicating

1016
00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:03,120
Speaker 4: my ways and he knows exactly what to call back to.

1017
00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:05,960
Speaker 4: Very wise, a man that honestly all the makings that

1018
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:09,200
Speaker 4: I want for a husband. He gave me amazing advice

1019
00:46:09,320 --> 00:46:13,160
Speaker 4: on things and and I could see myself bettering me

1020
00:46:13,440 --> 00:46:13,879
Speaker 4: as a person.

1021
00:46:13,960 --> 00:46:15,120
Speaker 3: So you're ghost in him for what reason?

1022
00:46:15,160 --> 00:46:18,960
Speaker 4: Again, So the second date happens and for whatever reason.

1023
00:46:19,200 --> 00:46:22,719
Speaker 4: Maybe it's my state, maybe it's the climate, maybe it's

1024
00:46:23,719 --> 00:46:27,319
Speaker 4: it is maybe Yeah, who knows. I wasn't quite as

1025
00:46:27,360 --> 00:46:30,400
Speaker 4: gracious on him. I don't know. And oh wait I do.

1026
00:46:30,520 --> 00:46:32,960
Speaker 4: I hated his shirt that he had on. There are

1027
00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:36,200
Speaker 4: a couple of things like, oh this, like I don't

1028
00:46:36,280 --> 00:46:37,160
Speaker 4: own shoes.

1029
00:46:38,800 --> 00:46:40,479
Speaker 1: He was ready for the baby shower kind of shoes.

1030
00:46:41,239 --> 00:46:43,080
Speaker 1: He had actual shoes, running shoes.

1031
00:46:43,520 --> 00:46:47,400
Speaker 4: Did they have a little something again, you're great? Oh

1032
00:46:47,640 --> 00:46:49,040
Speaker 4: that's not it. We don't want to you know, you

1033
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:51,000
Speaker 4: really are great. And I'm gonna I'm gonna hit you up.

1034
00:46:51,000 --> 00:46:51,959
Speaker 4: And I just don't want to be friends.

1035
00:46:52,000 --> 00:46:52,560
Speaker 5: No, stop it.

1036
00:46:53,080 --> 00:46:54,360
Speaker 3: I just want to talk to him for a second.

1037
00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:56,920
Speaker 1: That okay. So it was so much spiritual.

1038
00:46:56,960 --> 00:47:02,239
Speaker 3: Conny wore stop hitting her phone. She's not us me.

1039
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:03,319
Speaker 3: I'm just helping the brother out.

1040
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:05,160
Speaker 1: Was it a US Polo Assassin shirt?

1041
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:05,640
Speaker 3: Like? What was it?

1042
00:47:05,840 --> 00:47:09,640
Speaker 1: Assassin brand association?

1043
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:11,880
Speaker 4: This was the thing that this was the straw that

1044
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:13,600
Speaker 4: broke the camel's back. And when I said, oh, this

1045
00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:15,560
Speaker 4: is the last thing I'm going to go on Lord,

1046
00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:20,920
Speaker 4: I said a board mentioned Lord the goodbye. He went

1047
00:47:21,000 --> 00:47:26,480
Speaker 4: to cheek and he had to go like this, Uh,

1048
00:47:28,080 --> 00:47:30,880
Speaker 4: you guys, I don't This is like the equivalent of

1049
00:47:30,960 --> 00:47:32,839
Speaker 4: a woman picking you up and putting you on the bed.

1050
00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:35,439
Speaker 4: How would that make you feel?

1051
00:47:37,000 --> 00:47:37,440
Speaker 3: R I.

1052
00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:41,160
Speaker 4: You want a woman to pick you up and throw

1053
00:47:41,200 --> 00:47:41,719
Speaker 4: you on the bed.

1054
00:47:42,040 --> 00:47:42,520
Speaker 3: I don't care.

1055
00:47:43,360 --> 00:47:45,320
Speaker 1: It might be if it's our submission.

1056
00:47:45,400 --> 00:47:45,920
Speaker 3: I don't care.

1057
00:47:46,760 --> 00:47:47,920
Speaker 1: What if we're trading places.

1058
00:47:48,440 --> 00:47:51,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, I don't care, as long as it's as

1059
00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:55,120
Speaker 2: long as that's followed by like sloppy head, you can

1060
00:47:55,120 --> 00:47:55,680
Speaker 2: throw me anyway.

1061
00:47:55,680 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 3: You want to talk?

1062
00:47:56,080 --> 00:47:57,759
Speaker 4: Okay, Rory, how do you feel about what I said?

1063
00:47:57,800 --> 00:47:58,719
Speaker 4: Do you understand what I mean?

1064
00:47:59,080 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 1: Like first that, well, I'm going towards sexual stuff, and

1065
00:48:02,040 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: I know that's not what you're talking about, But first night,

1066
00:48:04,680 --> 00:48:07,200
Speaker 1: if Shorty lifted me up, I might feel some type

1067
00:48:07,239 --> 00:48:08,759
Speaker 1: of way. If we've been talking for a while and

1068
00:48:08,800 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 1: I already know my dominance in that capacity, yeah we could.

1069
00:48:12,360 --> 00:48:13,200
Speaker 1: We could trade places.

1070
00:48:14,840 --> 00:48:17,279
Speaker 4: I don't ever want to pick up my man ever.

1071
00:48:18,520 --> 00:48:21,120
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm slim down a little bit too. Yeah,

1072
00:48:21,160 --> 00:48:23,239
Speaker 1: maybe maybe I want to show her how much weight

1073
00:48:23,280 --> 00:48:25,480
Speaker 1: I've lost. So you had to kind of like like

1074
00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:26,840
Speaker 1: scooch down to give them with.

1075
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:28,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, I can't do it.

1076
00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:31,319
Speaker 3: I can't it on the lips of the cheek cheek. Okay, no, love.

1077
00:48:31,360 --> 00:48:33,160
Speaker 4: You know what I love about Christian guys. They're very

1078
00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:36,520
Speaker 4: very practicing Christian guys. They're very very porny.

1079
00:48:37,160 --> 00:48:38,440
Speaker 1: No, I can't imagine.

1080
00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:43,520
Speaker 4: No, they're very very polite, and they take their courtship seriously.

1081
00:48:43,160 --> 00:48:45,319
Speaker 2: And it's very I'm gonna polite and have courtship until

1082
00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:46,600
Speaker 2: they get that off.

1083
00:48:47,200 --> 00:48:48,000
Speaker 4: That's not true.

1084
00:48:48,920 --> 00:48:51,440
Speaker 1: There are non Christian men out there that are pulling.

1085
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:53,120
Speaker 3: Until they get that.

1086
00:48:53,400 --> 00:48:56,440
Speaker 4: But for my checks and balances, because I'm twenty eight

1087
00:48:56,719 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 4: in New York City, in a city that is not dumb,

1088
00:48:58,760 --> 00:49:01,120
Speaker 4: there are hardly any I went to Atlanta and I

1089
00:49:01,200 --> 00:49:03,439
Speaker 4: fell at home because there were so many like God

1090
00:49:03,520 --> 00:49:05,440
Speaker 4: fearing people there. I can be myself almost down there

1091
00:49:05,520 --> 00:49:07,640
Speaker 4: or down there, I can say scripture and they'll finish

1092
00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:08,080
Speaker 4: it off for me.

1093
00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:10,480
Speaker 1: Well, a lot of those men weren't interested in you

1094
00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:11,560
Speaker 1: because of religious reasons.

1095
00:49:11,840 --> 00:49:14,960
Speaker 4: Maybe not, but regardless regardless what I'm saying, is New

1096
00:49:15,000 --> 00:49:16,680
Speaker 4: York City's at is a little different.

1097
00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:20,160
Speaker 1: Well, you kind of answered my next question already with

1098
00:49:21,200 --> 00:49:24,719
Speaker 1: you having to kneel down to kiss him. I've seen

1099
00:49:24,800 --> 00:49:27,480
Speaker 1: with so many relationships someone a couple has something in

1100
00:49:27,600 --> 00:49:29,839
Speaker 1: common that they love and that drives them for a while,

1101
00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:33,120
Speaker 1: and then that's the only thing they have in common

1102
00:49:33,160 --> 00:49:35,960
Speaker 1: once they're in love or together for a long time.

1103
00:49:36,520 --> 00:49:39,640
Speaker 1: So with looking for a Christian and that's the only

1104
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:43,680
Speaker 1: thing you'll have in common because you want to compromise, rightfully,

1105
00:49:43,719 --> 00:49:46,640
Speaker 1: so on certain things. What happens in ten years when

1106
00:49:46,719 --> 00:49:49,680
Speaker 1: literally the only thing y'all have in common is Jesus.

1107
00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:52,359
Speaker 1: We handle that in the house, because I've seen other

1108
00:49:52,400 --> 00:49:56,000
Speaker 1: couples do it with music, with children, with plenty of things.

1109
00:49:56,280 --> 00:49:59,239
Speaker 4: What I'm saying is we handle that in house. We're

1110
00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:04,680
Speaker 4: not above, We're not God right, we will we understand

1111
00:50:04,719 --> 00:50:06,400
Speaker 4: that there's only one God, There's a sovereign God, and

1112
00:50:06,440 --> 00:50:09,320
Speaker 4: that's it. That means the life that I want to

1113
00:50:09,320 --> 00:50:11,560
Speaker 4: have my with my future husband, I'm looking at forty

1114
00:50:11,600 --> 00:50:13,960
Speaker 4: plus years together, That's what I'm aiming for. I think

1115
00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:16,280
Speaker 4: that that neurosis of what I have on the podcast.

1116
00:50:16,320 --> 00:50:18,480
Speaker 4: In my professional life, some of that shows up in

1117
00:50:19,320 --> 00:50:25,680
Speaker 4: other domains. Our commitment to our individual relationships with God

1118
00:50:25,840 --> 00:50:26,560
Speaker 4: is what bonds us.

1119
00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:29,239
Speaker 1: Okay, And I'm saying, if you're going for forty years,

1120
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:33,120
Speaker 1: I understand your relationship with God. I hope to God

1121
00:50:33,239 --> 00:50:36,160
Speaker 1: as well that he has that same relationship. We're all human.

1122
00:50:36,680 --> 00:50:37,960
Speaker 1: That's not going to keep you all together for.

1123
00:50:37,960 --> 00:50:39,640
Speaker 4: From I understand what you're saying.

1124
00:50:39,680 --> 00:50:42,880
Speaker 1: I don't compromise on the dude that you find physically

1125
00:50:42,920 --> 00:50:44,360
Speaker 1: attractive because you're going to need that.

1126
00:50:44,480 --> 00:50:46,359
Speaker 4: No, and I understand that, and it is a mix.

1127
00:50:46,440 --> 00:50:48,920
Speaker 4: I think it is a mix. I have preferences. I do.

1128
00:50:49,560 --> 00:50:52,239
Speaker 4: What I'm saying is and this is what I don't

1129
00:50:52,280 --> 00:50:54,160
Speaker 4: think is landing. But I'm sure other people also feel

1130
00:50:54,160 --> 00:50:56,960
Speaker 4: the same way you're feeling listening to this. We will

1131
00:50:57,040 --> 00:51:00,880
Speaker 4: handle it in house. No, I think people know what

1132
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:04,840
Speaker 4: I'm saying when I say that, no matter what, we

1133
00:51:05,040 --> 00:51:08,840
Speaker 4: are bonded for life, and we handle whatever we go

1134
00:51:09,040 --> 00:51:09,919
Speaker 4: through in house.

1135
00:51:10,040 --> 00:51:12,279
Speaker 1: For sure, we'll get them the tyms with the big

1136
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:13,800
Speaker 1: like six inches on it.

1137
00:51:14,080 --> 00:51:17,320
Speaker 4: No, I'm saying that whatever happens happens, and it happens,

1138
00:51:17,440 --> 00:51:19,520
Speaker 4: we're flawed people. Whatever's going to happen is going to happen,

1139
00:51:20,080 --> 00:51:21,359
Speaker 4: and we're going to handle in a house.

1140
00:51:21,560 --> 00:51:24,040
Speaker 2: Have you ever had any sexual experience with a woman?

1141
00:51:24,880 --> 00:51:28,720
Speaker 4: Yes, I was coerced by a one of my managers

1142
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:31,279
Speaker 4: at a I bartended for ten years on time, eight years,

1143
00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:34,120
Speaker 4: and this was when I was nineteen. I just started

1144
00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:38,160
Speaker 4: bartending and serving in New York and I worked at

1145
00:51:38,160 --> 00:51:40,800
Speaker 4: a place that you know, it's on our job description

1146
00:51:40,920 --> 00:51:44,879
Speaker 4: to wear no clothing, and you know, New York made

1147
00:51:44,880 --> 00:51:46,839
Speaker 4: a lot of money doing it. For the first time,

1148
00:51:46,880 --> 00:51:48,359
Speaker 4: I was able to pay my rent on my own,

1149
00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:49,680
Speaker 4: like my mom didn't have to help me.

1150
00:51:49,880 --> 00:51:52,319
Speaker 3: It was like they make money.

1151
00:51:52,600 --> 00:51:55,439
Speaker 4: Yeah, it was so freeing and I'd never seen money

1152
00:51:55,520 --> 00:51:58,239
Speaker 4: like that before. I went from working from at Cristities

1153
00:51:58,719 --> 00:52:07,320
Speaker 4: as a cashier. Who see it, it's like a drug

1154
00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:11,800
Speaker 4: and there is a man there who it was in

1155
00:52:11,840 --> 00:52:13,960
Speaker 4: our job description to drink. They wanted us. That's why

1156
00:52:14,000 --> 00:52:15,319
Speaker 4: I don't know if I'll ever want to.

1157
00:52:15,640 --> 00:52:18,959
Speaker 3: Work in a bar or Well, you can't, right, isn't

1158
00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:20,000
Speaker 3: it against your religion?

1159
00:52:20,160 --> 00:52:23,120
Speaker 4: Exactly? And I get why. It's the environment is corrupt

1160
00:52:23,160 --> 00:52:24,440
Speaker 4: and perverse, and it just is what it is.

1161
00:52:24,600 --> 00:52:25,000
Speaker 1: Spirits.

1162
00:52:25,200 --> 00:52:26,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's called spirits.

1163
00:52:26,719 --> 00:52:28,440
Speaker 3: The church is corrupt and perverse as well. Though.

1164
00:52:29,120 --> 00:52:31,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, but I'm not a part of that church. I

1165
00:52:31,480 --> 00:52:33,440
Speaker 4: don't partake in that, and if I did, I wouldn't.

1166
00:52:33,920 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 4: I'm not you know what I'm saying. Both could be true.

1167
00:52:37,080 --> 00:52:39,040
Speaker 3: So do you think that you're ultimately.

1168
00:52:40,200 --> 00:52:45,480
Speaker 4: Well, let me tell you no. I my manager at

1169
00:52:45,520 --> 00:52:49,879
Speaker 4: that bar restaurant told me while I'm inebriated, in which

1170
00:52:49,960 --> 00:52:52,920
Speaker 4: he was the conductor of all the women there and

1171
00:52:52,960 --> 00:52:56,040
Speaker 4: being drunk, he said, if you don't hook up with

1172
00:52:56,400 --> 00:53:00,200
Speaker 4: this woman, let's call her Delilah. If you don't hook

1173
00:53:00,280 --> 00:53:03,440
Speaker 4: up with Delilah tonight, I'm taking you off Fridays and

1174
00:53:03,520 --> 00:53:07,879
Speaker 4: putting you to Saturday mornings. And I I'm nineteen years old.

1175
00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:09,960
Speaker 1: This is the first two call his name actually.

1176
00:53:10,080 --> 00:53:13,000
Speaker 4: Because that's oh I know, I know, and I didn't.

1177
00:53:13,640 --> 00:53:15,239
Speaker 4: It wasn't until I had a guest on my show.

1178
00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:18,360
Speaker 4: Her name was Latasha, and she said, oh, that's sexual assault,

1179
00:53:18,640 --> 00:53:21,440
Speaker 4: like the whole thing coercion, sexual thought, by corsion, that's

1180
00:53:21,480 --> 00:53:22,200
Speaker 4: past coorsion.

1181
00:53:22,360 --> 00:53:25,680
Speaker 1: That's literally a fucking creep. That's literally what like, well,

1182
00:53:25,719 --> 00:53:29,320
Speaker 1: corisions creep too, but like that's legitimately sexual self, especially

1183
00:53:29,320 --> 00:53:30,120
Speaker 1: in a workplace.

1184
00:53:29,920 --> 00:53:32,000
Speaker 4: When you're nineteen and you're hearing this and like, that's

1185
00:53:32,040 --> 00:53:33,840
Speaker 4: how you make your love. I literally went, I have to.

1186
00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:35,759
Speaker 4: I didn't. I don't have the wisdom I have now

1187
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:38,520
Speaker 4: then Yeah, and I just it CONTs me. But I know,

1188
00:53:38,680 --> 00:53:42,520
Speaker 4: his fucking little hands putting our heads together and watching

1189
00:53:42,640 --> 00:53:46,600
Speaker 4: us like it haunts me. And so to answer your question, yes,

1190
00:53:46,840 --> 00:53:49,560
Speaker 4: And it wasn't until years later that I realized I'm

1191
00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:51,960
Speaker 4: actually really quite traumatized by that experience.

1192
00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:53,880
Speaker 1: I can imagine, I could definitely imagine, and a.

1193
00:53:53,920 --> 00:53:57,160
Speaker 4: Lot of women go through it. It's like we always

1194
00:53:57,160 --> 00:53:59,879
Speaker 4: talk about the extremes of any given topic without high

1195
00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:02,000
Speaker 4: lighting any of the subtleties or the you know, the

1196
00:54:02,320 --> 00:54:04,960
Speaker 4: nuances in between it. Because, to be quite honest, that

1197
00:54:05,080 --> 00:54:07,120
Speaker 4: woman and I had a really dope time and she

1198
00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:09,000
Speaker 4: was really great towards the end of it. She was

1199
00:54:09,040 --> 00:54:13,120
Speaker 4: older than I was. She wasn't her first time for sure, Yeah,

1200
00:54:13,480 --> 00:54:15,839
Speaker 4: but and she was very very kind and stuff. So there,

1201
00:54:16,320 --> 00:54:19,719
Speaker 4: but there are nuances to sexual assault. And that was

1202
00:54:19,800 --> 00:54:22,080
Speaker 4: my first experience and only I mean I think I

1203
00:54:22,160 --> 00:54:23,440
Speaker 4: meet out with the girl after that, But that was

1204
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:27,520
Speaker 4: like on some like drunk early twenties stuff. Yeah, my

1205
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:29,040
Speaker 4: boyfriend didn't even like it. I did it so I

1206
00:54:29,080 --> 00:54:30,640
Speaker 4: could turn on my boyfriend at the time. He literally

1207
00:54:30,719 --> 00:54:32,120
Speaker 4: was like, I'm not into that, And that's how I

1208
00:54:32,160 --> 00:54:34,719
Speaker 4: knew I really liked him. He didn't care about that.

1209
00:54:34,920 --> 00:54:38,080
Speaker 4: In fact, it's doesn't it's does the opposite, right you

1210
00:54:38,520 --> 00:54:42,000
Speaker 4: were together. That's disrespectful, okay, and I like that. I

1211
00:54:42,080 --> 00:54:44,160
Speaker 4: want a man that would be disgusted by I'm not disgusted.

1212
00:54:44,200 --> 00:54:49,640
Speaker 4: I want a man that would be uninterested in those deeds.

1213
00:54:50,160 --> 00:54:50,440
Speaker 3: Okay.

1214
00:54:50,800 --> 00:54:56,000
Speaker 1: Understandable in your lifestyle, I will ask, because there's lifestyles.

1215
00:54:55,480 --> 00:54:58,840
Speaker 4: Of christian by the way, that was before I was Christian.

1216
00:54:59,239 --> 00:55:04,160
Speaker 1: I figure that. Okay, is there anything about that type

1217
00:55:04,200 --> 00:55:06,360
Speaker 1: of sinning that you do miss? Because there's parts of

1218
00:55:06,400 --> 00:55:08,839
Speaker 1: my life that I've moved on from because they were

1219
00:55:08,880 --> 00:55:11,239
Speaker 1: toxic and I shouldn't be anywhere around it. But I

1220
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:13,560
Speaker 1: still do have some fond memories like, oh that that

1221
00:55:13,719 --> 00:55:16,439
Speaker 1: part was fun. I should leave it, but that part

1222
00:55:16,560 --> 00:55:21,720
Speaker 1: was fun. Going from atheists to Christian Is there anything

1223
00:55:21,760 --> 00:55:24,520
Speaker 1: in the atheist world that you was like, yo, that

1224
00:55:24,719 --> 00:55:25,960
Speaker 1: was that was a really good miss?

1225
00:55:27,080 --> 00:55:34,600
Speaker 4: Right now? For me, it's music. Music, And I'm not

1226
00:55:34,680 --> 00:55:37,439
Speaker 4: saying I mean I listened to quote unquote worldly music

1227
00:55:37,520 --> 00:55:40,560
Speaker 4: still because I love music too, I make it. I

1228
00:55:40,640 --> 00:55:42,520
Speaker 4: make a lot of dark stuff, and I almost can't

1229
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:45,600
Speaker 4: even listen to my darker stuff anymore because it doesn't

1230
00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:47,880
Speaker 4: feel holy, and we're not to ingest anything that is

1231
00:55:48,160 --> 00:55:50,040
Speaker 4: of that way. Of course, it's not realistic.

1232
00:55:50,080 --> 00:55:51,440
Speaker 1: I have a whole life to live.

1233
00:55:51,440 --> 00:55:53,759
Speaker 4: I'm gonna see. I want to say things, you know,

1234
00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:56,359
Speaker 4: but I would say it's like my taste in art

1235
00:55:56,640 --> 00:56:02,960
Speaker 4: leans a little more world my taste in Okay, I

1236
00:56:03,040 --> 00:56:07,560
Speaker 4: gave you something. My text tells me that monogamy is

1237
00:56:07,640 --> 00:56:11,120
Speaker 4: what I should, That's what we need to structure our

1238
00:56:11,160 --> 00:56:13,879
Speaker 4: family around. It is what it is. That is something

1239
00:56:13,880 --> 00:56:16,319
Speaker 4: that doesn't sit right to me naturally. The human the man,

1240
00:56:16,560 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 4: I keep saying man, but like the human, you know,

1241
00:56:19,960 --> 00:56:23,080
Speaker 4: the human Breanda. It's funny. On my Super Trip Days

1242
00:56:23,160 --> 00:56:25,120
Speaker 4: was my first podcast, Super Trip Talk, I actually talked

1243
00:56:25,120 --> 00:56:28,880
Speaker 4: about my like struggles with finding a boyfriend, even though

1244
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:31,920
Speaker 4: I had a boyfriend at the time, because I like

1245
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:34,239
Speaker 4: flirting and I like going out and flirting with other guys,

1246
00:56:34,280 --> 00:56:35,799
Speaker 4: and I actually don't mind if he flirts with other

1247
00:56:35,840 --> 00:56:37,399
Speaker 4: girls and stuff, so long as like we come back

1248
00:56:37,480 --> 00:56:40,520
Speaker 4: to you know, flirting is natural. But I actually don't

1249
00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:43,080
Speaker 4: even I used to never get jealous with my boyfriend

1250
00:56:43,120 --> 00:56:45,399
Speaker 4: doing stuff. I maybe it's a little voyeurism, a little

1251
00:56:45,440 --> 00:56:47,960
Speaker 4: bit too like, and I know that that's the body me,

1252
00:56:48,280 --> 00:56:49,840
Speaker 4: but my Lord doesn't want me to do that. And

1253
00:56:49,920 --> 00:56:53,239
Speaker 4: I recognize that I'm that I'm turned on by certain things,

1254
00:56:53,440 --> 00:56:55,400
Speaker 4: but that doesn't mean it's actually a part of my

1255
00:56:55,480 --> 00:56:58,279
Speaker 4: practice to not give into those things. I will not

1256
00:56:58,400 --> 00:57:00,920
Speaker 4: sacrifice my values for my bodily needs.

1257
00:57:02,320 --> 00:57:04,440
Speaker 1: And you want to partner to do the same. Obviously,

1258
00:57:04,480 --> 00:57:06,359
Speaker 1: because he was girl.

1259
00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:07,480
Speaker 4: It's the only way it works.

1260
00:57:07,480 --> 00:57:09,120
Speaker 1: Ok I'm just making sure it's not uci wally and

1261
00:57:09,200 --> 00:57:11,640
Speaker 1: one mic. I'm trying trying to figure out. Okay, both,

1262
00:57:11,880 --> 00:57:13,719
Speaker 1: it's for me, right.

1263
00:57:13,800 --> 00:57:17,880
Speaker 2: Sex is probably one of the most natural things next

1264
00:57:17,960 --> 00:57:22,720
Speaker 2: to breeding and eating probably, so yeah, So for you to,

1265
00:57:23,080 --> 00:57:26,720
Speaker 2: you know, the celibacy thing, are.

1266
00:57:26,680 --> 00:57:29,680
Speaker 4: We boring you guys? I don't know. This is so much.

1267
00:57:29,720 --> 00:57:31,160
Speaker 3: That is great. I'm having fun.

1268
00:57:31,160 --> 00:57:34,360
Speaker 2: I'm having fun, me too, me too, Yes, So the

1269
00:57:34,440 --> 00:57:40,720
Speaker 2: celibacy thing, why is that something so important to you?

1270
00:57:41,040 --> 00:57:45,040
Speaker 4: It's so important, Oh mom, it's so important.

1271
00:57:45,360 --> 00:57:49,200
Speaker 2: Okay, before you answer that you're celibate, you don't have sex,

1272
00:57:49,400 --> 00:57:55,560
Speaker 2: and you don't masturbate. No, you don't, there's no masturbation.

1273
00:57:55,720 --> 00:57:58,520
Speaker 4: No, But I didn't like masturbating before celibacy either, Like

1274
00:57:58,640 --> 00:58:00,640
Speaker 4: I was not a Christian and have boyfriends and I

1275
00:58:00,680 --> 00:58:04,000
Speaker 4: didn't masturbate, okay, so and also when I didn't have boyfriends,

1276
00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:04,640
Speaker 4: I didn't masturbate.

1277
00:58:04,800 --> 00:58:08,160
Speaker 3: Okay, so you haven't, you haven't. Climax, I had an

1278
00:58:08,280 --> 00:58:12,000
Speaker 3: orgasm in four years, not of the bodily kind.

1279
00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:15,560
Speaker 4: But when I pray, I feel orgasmic sensations. It's not

1280
00:58:15,880 --> 00:58:19,600
Speaker 4: orgasming per se. And also it occurs in meditation as well.

1281
00:58:20,040 --> 00:58:24,840
Speaker 4: It's just a feeling of deep peace, Like it's like

1282
00:58:24,960 --> 00:58:31,160
Speaker 4: this euphoric, forward presenting sensation that I can only as

1283
00:58:31,200 --> 00:58:32,720
Speaker 4: a human. I don't even think that there's a word

1284
00:58:32,800 --> 00:58:34,600
Speaker 4: for this term. I don't know or I don't know it.

1285
00:58:36,200 --> 00:58:38,920
Speaker 4: The only thing I can equate it to is an orgasm.

1286
00:58:39,000 --> 00:58:41,800
Speaker 4: But that feeling is not like unique to me. A

1287
00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:45,520
Speaker 4: lot of people in the psycho world, psychonauts, they describe

1288
00:58:45,560 --> 00:58:48,640
Speaker 4: this similar feeling. It's of a peak. It happens, but

1289
00:58:48,680 --> 00:58:50,400
Speaker 4: I don't need psychedelics.

1290
00:58:49,840 --> 00:58:51,560
Speaker 1: For it understandable.

1291
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:54,920
Speaker 3: I just really can't believe you haven't like masturbated.

1292
00:58:55,280 --> 00:58:56,520
Speaker 4: The last time I did it? Well, can I be

1293
00:58:56,560 --> 00:58:57,640
Speaker 4: honest with you? It's not don't like time?

1294
00:58:57,680 --> 00:58:59,120
Speaker 3: Please do Jesus is watching.

1295
00:58:59,600 --> 00:59:01,400
Speaker 1: Oh wait, the last.

1296
00:59:01,200 --> 00:59:08,320
Speaker 4: Time I did touch myself? I hate masturbate. I'm a lady.

1297
00:59:08,520 --> 00:59:08,920
Speaker 4: I don't know.

1298
00:59:08,960 --> 00:59:10,760
Speaker 1: I don't like that word mad lady's masterbait.

1299
00:59:10,920 --> 00:59:13,520
Speaker 4: No, I know, but I'm saying the word. The word

1300
00:59:13,600 --> 00:59:15,360
Speaker 4: itself is like moist for me.

1301
00:59:15,480 --> 00:59:17,800
Speaker 3: Like okay, you don't like the okay.

1302
00:59:17,640 --> 00:59:21,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, so I'm gonna say touching myself, touching the last.

1303
00:59:21,040 --> 00:59:24,040
Speaker 1: Getting to know yourself more? Pardon getting to know yourself more?

1304
00:59:24,080 --> 00:59:27,080
Speaker 4: There you go. The last time was when I I went.

1305
00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:30,240
Speaker 4: I dated this guy two time divorce. A great guy though,

1306
00:59:30,440 --> 00:59:34,760
Speaker 4: so physically checked off every single.

1307
00:59:34,560 --> 00:59:36,320
Speaker 3: Thing, but he's been divorced twice, been.

1308
00:59:36,240 --> 00:59:38,080
Speaker 4: Divorced twice, and also not a Christian. Oh I didn't

1309
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:40,640
Speaker 4: a woman's it was. He said he was a Christian.

1310
00:59:40,720 --> 00:59:41,960
Speaker 4: This is one of those cases where he said he

1311
00:59:42,080 --> 00:59:45,240
Speaker 4: wasn't a quickly discovered Oh not the case, and but

1312
00:59:45,360 --> 00:59:47,080
Speaker 4: he was actually into the fact that I was celibate.

1313
00:59:47,680 --> 00:59:49,600
Speaker 4: He really wasn't. He was enticed by that. You know,

1314
00:59:49,680 --> 00:59:51,400
Speaker 4: a man at forty three, he's seen it all.

1315
00:59:51,440 --> 00:59:56,200
Speaker 1: If you're married twice. He probably wasn't, No, he was.

1316
00:59:56,920 --> 01:00:00,960
Speaker 4: He did, okay, he did, Okay, there's yeah yeah, those

1317
01:00:01,640 --> 01:00:04,760
Speaker 4: he did okay. And they were dancers, dancers, not stripper

1318
01:00:04,840 --> 01:00:06,240
Speaker 4: dancers like ballet dancers.

1319
01:00:06,600 --> 01:00:07,640
Speaker 1: Okay, there's that.

1320
01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:10,800
Speaker 4: That's a there's a different kind of like there's a

1321
01:00:11,040 --> 01:00:12,960
Speaker 4: some kind of it's almost like insidious about it. Like

1322
01:00:13,040 --> 01:00:16,840
Speaker 4: a rich single, two time divorce man who's really into ballerinas.

1323
01:00:17,320 --> 01:00:20,200
Speaker 4: What in the American psycho? Anyways, he can't be in then.

1324
01:00:21,640 --> 01:00:22,680
Speaker 1: Listen definitely not listen.

1325
01:00:22,680 --> 01:00:23,320
Speaker 4: We didn't get that far.

1326
01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:26,440
Speaker 1: But he was into the ieutiful art form.

1327
01:00:26,520 --> 01:00:26,640
Speaker 2: Though.

1328
01:00:27,600 --> 01:00:28,560
Speaker 4: Are you into feet?

1329
01:00:29,280 --> 01:00:31,640
Speaker 1: I like nice feet? Yeah, it's not like my go to.

1330
01:00:34,680 --> 01:00:41,840
Speaker 3: I don't know, okay, what fuck me? Yeah?

1331
01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:44,840
Speaker 2: I just appreciate aesthetics on a woman, nice teeth, nice feet,

1332
01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:46,960
Speaker 2: and I like say the last dance.

1333
01:00:47,440 --> 01:00:54,080
Speaker 4: Okay, Rory, your one liners are hilarious. I hate it

1334
01:00:54,120 --> 01:00:55,680
Speaker 4: because a lot of them go over to me like,

1335
01:00:55,720 --> 01:00:57,280
Speaker 4: I don't miss it because you do them when I'm

1336
01:00:57,320 --> 01:00:58,800
Speaker 4: in a thought and I'm like, damn, I wish I

1337
01:00:58,800 --> 01:01:00,640
Speaker 4: could have said something, but I would my add I

1338
01:01:00,760 --> 01:01:02,880
Speaker 4: can't not finish what I'm saying otherwise I lose it.

1339
01:01:03,240 --> 01:01:07,000
Speaker 4: But I see you. Where were we I don't know

1340
01:01:07,080 --> 01:01:11,480
Speaker 4: where we were? Yes, he the last time I masturbated

1341
01:01:11,720 --> 01:01:13,760
Speaker 4: was Oh, I knew it was a wrap after our

1342
01:01:13,800 --> 01:01:16,440
Speaker 4: second date because he was being super sexual in the

1343
01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:19,560
Speaker 4: in the in that dinner, like almost in a way

1344
01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:21,840
Speaker 4: that was like, oh, but I can't like touching me,

1345
01:01:21,920 --> 01:01:23,320
Speaker 4: but I can't like things like that. And I was like,

1346
01:01:23,360 --> 01:01:25,880
Speaker 4: oh wow, and I was so turned on by him.

1347
01:01:26,440 --> 01:01:29,960
Speaker 4: I was like, Okay, fuck it my kryptonite or what

1348
01:01:30,040 --> 01:01:31,640
Speaker 4: will get me to like hook up with the guy.

1349
01:01:31,680 --> 01:01:33,919
Speaker 4: By hookup, I mean obviously make out or like spit

1350
01:01:33,960 --> 01:01:36,600
Speaker 4: in my mouth or whatever, like that's the only is

1351
01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:38,439
Speaker 4: if I know that I'm not going to date them further,

1352
01:01:39,680 --> 01:01:41,560
Speaker 4: I will do that. I will never do that to

1353
01:01:41,640 --> 01:01:43,760
Speaker 4: a guy that I would consider marrying. If I don't

1354
01:01:43,760 --> 01:01:45,160
Speaker 4: consider marrying you, I'll kiss you.

1355
01:01:45,480 --> 01:01:45,640
Speaker 2: Why.

1356
01:01:46,240 --> 01:01:47,800
Speaker 4: I can't tell you. I'm being honest here. I'm trying

1357
01:01:47,840 --> 01:01:49,160
Speaker 4: to keep it. I'm trying to be vulnerable with you.

1358
01:01:49,560 --> 01:01:52,000
Speaker 1: Listen, and so you want to do the forty year haul?

1359
01:01:52,680 --> 01:01:53,680
Speaker 1: He got to spin your mouth?

1360
01:01:54,360 --> 01:01:56,800
Speaker 4: No, I know. Oh, but the great part about this

1361
01:01:57,040 --> 01:01:59,200
Speaker 4: is I'm convinced that the person who loves me is

1362
01:01:59,240 --> 01:02:02,960
Speaker 4: going to love pleasuring me. It's gonna it's gonna make

1363
01:02:03,040 --> 01:02:07,840
Speaker 4: him feel joy and pleasure watching me feel joy and pleasure.

1364
01:02:07,960 --> 01:02:10,880
Speaker 4: That's that's an intimate partner. So I don't gotta worry

1365
01:02:10,880 --> 01:02:13,200
Speaker 4: about that's gonna happen. I just know that that's gonna happen.

1366
01:02:13,400 --> 01:02:15,919
Speaker 4: I have faith, because you gotta have faith, the faith,

1367
01:02:16,000 --> 01:02:18,680
Speaker 4: the faith, the Catholic Church anyway.

1368
01:02:18,720 --> 01:02:21,320
Speaker 1: So what's the ethnicity Dominican?

1369
01:02:22,040 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 2: Fool?

1370
01:02:22,680 --> 01:02:24,480
Speaker 4: Yeah, just Dominican.

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01:02:25,200 --> 01:02:28,280
Speaker 1: Brought up music before. Do you like the Donna album.

1372
01:02:34,400 --> 01:02:37,160
Speaker 4: Somewhat? Some of the songs, Okay, here's what I'll say.

1373
01:02:38,320 --> 01:02:41,720
Speaker 4: I cannot even name them. That's how infrequently I listened

1374
01:02:41,720 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 4: to him. I listened to him like that one time,

1375
01:02:43,160 --> 01:02:46,400
Speaker 4: and that's it. Two of the songs, though, I remember feeling,

1376
01:02:46,480 --> 01:02:51,080
Speaker 4: oh wow, this is good, and the rest I was like,

1377
01:02:52,440 --> 01:02:54,960
Speaker 4: this feels like secular music, but it's not it. He's

1378
01:02:55,400 --> 01:02:59,480
Speaker 4: marketing it as Jesus music or worship music, but it

1379
01:02:59,520 --> 01:03:02,760
Speaker 4: doesn't make me feel worshiped. So I'm a pass. I'd

1380
01:03:02,800 --> 01:03:06,439
Speaker 4: rather just listen to worldly music. It's what's the line

1381
01:03:06,480 --> 01:03:08,480
Speaker 4: that makes something yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I don't

1382
01:03:08,520 --> 01:03:12,080
Speaker 4: like that yesship, Oh my god, you're onto something that's

1383
01:03:12,080 --> 01:03:14,280
Speaker 4: exactly what it is. I hate it when people do

1384
01:03:14,400 --> 01:03:18,880
Speaker 4: that like that, like that power hungry. Oh I hate

1385
01:03:18,880 --> 01:03:20,920
Speaker 4: a man who power trips and who desires people to

1386
01:03:21,000 --> 01:03:23,200
Speaker 4: worship them. That's against my religion.

1387
01:03:23,440 --> 01:03:25,760
Speaker 1: But what's the line that draws secular music?

1388
01:03:26,000 --> 01:03:26,040
Speaker 3: Like?

1389
01:03:26,160 --> 01:03:29,080
Speaker 1: What is I now? This is secular? This isn't secular?

1390
01:03:29,640 --> 01:03:34,920
Speaker 4: Secular music is there is no reference to God anywhere

1391
01:03:34,960 --> 01:03:35,479
Speaker 4: in the song?

1392
01:03:35,880 --> 01:03:36,160
Speaker 3: Okay?

1393
01:03:36,280 --> 01:03:42,200
Speaker 4: Worship music is literally a vertical worshiping of the Lord,

1394
01:03:42,360 --> 01:03:45,720
Speaker 4: and sometimes they are horizontal in that some of them,

1395
01:03:45,760 --> 01:03:49,160
Speaker 4: like Kirk Franklin's really into the horizontal form of worship,

1396
01:03:49,200 --> 01:03:52,200
Speaker 4: which is like let's embrace together about the Lord. But

1397
01:03:52,280 --> 01:03:54,640
Speaker 4: I also love the vertical ones that are very like intimate,

1398
01:03:55,360 --> 01:03:55,840
Speaker 4: like my really.

1399
01:03:55,920 --> 01:03:57,280
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, then let me ask you this because you

1400
01:03:57,320 --> 01:03:59,520
Speaker 1: said on the date when the guy walked in, you said, oh,

1401
01:03:59,600 --> 01:04:01,600
Speaker 1: this is showing this to me. And I think on

1402
01:04:01,680 --> 01:04:04,440
Speaker 1: a lot of the Donda songs and other albums, they

1403
01:04:04,520 --> 01:04:07,920
Speaker 1: may not say God's name specifically, but they are alluding

1404
01:04:08,000 --> 01:04:11,240
Speaker 1: to a higher power bringing something into your life. So

1405
01:04:11,360 --> 01:04:13,160
Speaker 1: how is that secular and not secular? Do you have

1406
01:04:13,240 --> 01:04:14,520
Speaker 1: to say Jesus Christ in it?

1407
01:04:14,680 --> 01:04:18,520
Speaker 4: Well? No, it depends on Who's Who's the messenger? Babe?

1408
01:04:18,800 --> 01:04:19,680
Speaker 4: Who's the messenger?

1409
01:04:19,960 --> 01:04:20,960
Speaker 1: Why does the messenger matter?

1410
01:04:21,320 --> 01:04:26,560
Speaker 4: Absolutely perfect? Yes, absolutely, all the people, about the imperfect people.

1411
01:04:26,600 --> 01:04:29,040
Speaker 4: It's about where God is in the story. All those

1412
01:04:29,040 --> 01:04:31,080
Speaker 4: people are flawed, and no one should be worshiping King David.

1413
01:04:31,080 --> 01:04:33,680
Speaker 4: I'll tell you that much. We should be worshiping God.

1414
01:04:33,800 --> 01:04:36,280
Speaker 4: Where's God in the story. That's a misconception with the Bible.

1415
01:04:36,400 --> 01:04:39,000
Speaker 4: And that's what discourages people from continuing reading, is because

1416
01:04:39,000 --> 01:04:41,760
Speaker 4: they get wrapped up in the characters in the story arc. Okay,

1417
01:04:41,880 --> 01:04:43,040
Speaker 4: something logically doesn't make sense.

1418
01:04:43,080 --> 01:04:45,040
Speaker 1: And Conway on the Donda album and in all his

1419
01:04:45,160 --> 01:04:49,000
Speaker 1: music discusses getting shot and that's a miracle that he survived.

1420
01:04:49,040 --> 01:04:51,600
Speaker 1: There's no literally a miracle. There's no reason he should

1421
01:04:51,600 --> 01:04:53,400
Speaker 1: have survived. How is that not him speaking about God?

1422
01:04:53,480 --> 01:04:55,240
Speaker 1: Is that secular because he's talking about being shot?

1423
01:04:55,320 --> 01:04:57,480
Speaker 4: No? No, no, he packaged that as a worship album.

1424
01:04:57,720 --> 01:04:59,880
Speaker 4: I'm not saying. I'm saying it reads as secular, but

1425
01:05:00,080 --> 01:05:02,760
Speaker 4: it's not as good as worship. So for me, it's

1426
01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:06,280
Speaker 4: almost like, Ugh, it's supposed to be making me feel this,

1427
01:05:06,480 --> 01:05:09,840
Speaker 4: but I'll just listen to secular. I listen to something else.

1428
01:05:09,880 --> 01:05:12,480
Speaker 4: That makes me feel a different way. And again we're

1429
01:05:12,480 --> 01:05:14,920
Speaker 4: talking about me, Breonda, Bible, Brianda, Like, I'm not sure

1430
01:05:15,960 --> 01:05:17,920
Speaker 4: do they even care what I have to say about Donda?

1431
01:05:18,320 --> 01:05:21,400
Speaker 1: Do they just because your religious person art that.

1432
01:05:21,480 --> 01:05:23,640
Speaker 4: You It's not the worship that I'm fond of.

1433
01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:27,120
Speaker 1: Most of the people that critiqued Donda were not Christians.

1434
01:05:28,120 --> 01:05:30,240
Speaker 1: So that's why asking you this is why I wanted

1435
01:05:30,320 --> 01:05:32,840
Speaker 1: to know, And I'm trying to figure out where does

1436
01:05:32,920 --> 01:05:35,080
Speaker 1: it have to worship? Like I think so many verses,

1437
01:05:35,120 --> 01:05:38,240
Speaker 1: My favorite part about Donda was him bringing artists that

1438
01:05:38,280 --> 01:05:42,040
Speaker 1: aren't typically vulnerable in that space to that point. No,

1439
01:05:42,160 --> 01:05:44,200
Speaker 1: they didn't worship. They were talking about shit they had

1440
01:05:44,240 --> 01:05:47,840
Speaker 1: been through and that God had brought them through without

1441
01:05:48,040 --> 01:05:51,440
Speaker 1: indirectly saying hey God did this because they're not that religious.

1442
01:05:52,160 --> 01:05:54,440
Speaker 1: So that's where I thought that was fine for that

1443
01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:57,440
Speaker 1: that middle group you're talking about. Then there's the atheists,

1444
01:05:57,440 --> 01:06:00,200
Speaker 1: that there's the super religious, then there's these people, which

1445
01:06:00,200 --> 01:06:02,880
Speaker 1: is the majority. Yeah, I was just curious your opinion

1446
01:06:02,920 --> 01:06:05,160
Speaker 1: on it here. No, I'm not like a Donda advocate.

1447
01:06:05,240 --> 01:06:07,480
Speaker 1: I'm just I just think I never talked to somebody

1448
01:06:07,520 --> 01:06:08,680
Speaker 1: really religious about the album.

1449
01:06:08,960 --> 01:06:12,160
Speaker 4: I think maybe it's because I loved I have an

1450
01:06:12,160 --> 01:06:15,680
Speaker 4: appreciation for Kanye. I just thought it was a little subpar.

1451
01:06:15,880 --> 01:06:18,720
Speaker 4: It wasn't There was more like of a ruckus leading

1452
01:06:18,800 --> 01:06:22,400
Speaker 4: up to it than it itself in my opinion. But

1453
01:06:22,520 --> 01:06:24,960
Speaker 4: you're right, I didn't even think about that. How many

1454
01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:30,240
Speaker 4: people would be enticed to, you know, receive Christ or

1455
01:06:30,360 --> 01:06:32,760
Speaker 4: like may at least loub them up to maybe pray

1456
01:06:32,840 --> 01:06:34,520
Speaker 4: in a different way and more intentional. Well, you're right,

1457
01:06:34,760 --> 01:06:36,120
Speaker 4: And at the end of the day, I'm always going

1458
01:06:36,200 --> 01:06:39,240
Speaker 4: to be about people promoting Jesus. You know. That's it

1459
01:06:39,360 --> 01:06:41,440
Speaker 4: really is. It's as simple as that for me. But

1460
01:06:41,560 --> 01:06:43,479
Speaker 4: do I always agree with them? No, I don't agree

1461
01:06:43,480 --> 01:06:44,760
Speaker 4: with that. E. Just because youre a Christian doesn't mean

1462
01:06:44,840 --> 01:06:45,640
Speaker 4: I'm gonna rock with you.

1463
01:06:46,200 --> 01:06:48,760
Speaker 1: I mean, to me, the Donda album was just Cyo basketball?

1464
01:06:49,680 --> 01:06:51,200
Speaker 4: What is cyo? I'm sorry to see.

1465
01:06:51,280 --> 01:06:53,880
Speaker 1: Yo basketball was a basketball league that was amongst the churches,

1466
01:06:54,000 --> 01:06:55,320
Speaker 1: and there was a lot of kids that were not

1467
01:06:55,520 --> 01:06:57,760
Speaker 1: They did not go to church in the league just

1468
01:06:57,760 --> 01:07:00,880
Speaker 1: because it was a competitive league and before each game

1469
01:07:00,960 --> 01:07:03,439
Speaker 1: you had to say a prayer. We had to pray

1470
01:07:03,480 --> 01:07:06,400
Speaker 1: at the end. Granted, the kids was just there to ball.

1471
01:07:06,600 --> 01:07:10,840
Speaker 1: It didn't convert anyone, but they tried. They tried with basketball.

1472
01:07:11,720 --> 01:07:12,320
Speaker 4: There's effort.

1473
01:07:12,360 --> 01:07:12,760
Speaker 5: They tried.

1474
01:07:13,720 --> 01:07:19,480
Speaker 1: You had, Uh, unfortunately how you described it, uh not

1475
01:07:19,600 --> 01:07:23,240
Speaker 1: a pleasant bisexual experience in the beginning. What is your

1476
01:07:23,320 --> 01:07:27,480
Speaker 1: view now with religion and the Bible amongst the gay

1477
01:07:27,560 --> 01:07:28,680
Speaker 1: and transgender community.

1478
01:07:29,160 --> 01:07:31,480
Speaker 4: Oh God, I knew you were going to ask that.

1479
01:07:31,600 --> 01:07:36,440
Speaker 4: I have to give it too, LUs I okay, wait

1480
01:07:36,560 --> 01:07:38,520
Speaker 4: do you want could you ask the same thing in

1481
01:07:38,560 --> 01:07:41,680
Speaker 4: a different way, just so I I don't know? Okay,

1482
01:07:41,680 --> 01:07:43,360
Speaker 4: then don't understand. Do you want to hear Brianda or

1483
01:07:43,400 --> 01:07:45,439
Speaker 4: do you want to hear what my doctrine says about?

1484
01:07:45,480 --> 01:07:48,240
Speaker 1: Like, I don't know what you want you specifically within

1485
01:07:48,360 --> 01:07:50,240
Speaker 1: your religious studies, because I know what the Bible says.

1486
01:07:50,280 --> 01:07:52,480
Speaker 1: The Bible also says women shouldn't talk, So I don't

1487
01:07:52,560 --> 01:07:53,360
Speaker 1: particularly go to the.

1488
01:07:53,360 --> 01:07:56,640
Speaker 4: Bible church, but they say that women can't be to pastors.

1489
01:07:56,720 --> 01:07:57,360
Speaker 4: Are you kidding me?

1490
01:07:58,480 --> 01:07:58,680
Speaker 2: Oh?

1491
01:07:59,000 --> 01:08:04,040
Speaker 4: That's so sad, but or it's upset. It's disappointing. I

1492
01:08:04,120 --> 01:08:07,160
Speaker 4: think that a lot of the written doctrine, especially as

1493
01:08:07,200 --> 01:08:10,440
Speaker 4: it's pertained as it's found in the Old Testament, is

1494
01:08:10,680 --> 01:08:16,679
Speaker 4: really disturbing, especially with their suppression of women women.

1495
01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:19,240
Speaker 1: Says women shouldn't speak, yeah, and you should bow down

1496
01:08:19,280 --> 01:08:19,559
Speaker 1: to men.

1497
01:08:20,040 --> 01:08:21,800
Speaker 4: Yeah. Well, actually it says that that says that in

1498
01:08:21,840 --> 01:08:25,400
Speaker 4: the New Testament too, But we're talking about the LGBTQ

1499
01:08:25,640 --> 01:08:29,439
Speaker 4: plus and maybe you may be referencing Leviticus, which is

1500
01:08:29,479 --> 01:08:32,439
Speaker 4: the most famous anti gay line in the Bible. There

1501
01:08:32,520 --> 01:08:35,880
Speaker 4: is also some anti homosexual stuff in the New Testament too.

1502
01:08:37,439 --> 01:08:40,920
Speaker 4: I have been in the world for too long and

1503
01:08:41,479 --> 01:08:48,360
Speaker 4: some of my favorite people collaborators are gay people by people.

1504
01:08:48,439 --> 01:08:52,160
Speaker 4: Wheezy as bye, she's my my everything right now? You know,

1505
01:08:54,080 --> 01:08:58,120
Speaker 4: I do not care like I would never condemn someone's

1506
01:08:58,800 --> 01:09:02,160
Speaker 4: right to express themselves and to receive love. How do

1507
01:09:02,280 --> 01:09:04,840
Speaker 4: you receive love? And who am I to even think

1508
01:09:05,120 --> 01:09:07,160
Speaker 4: anything of it? I wouldn't, I wouldn't dare to dream.

1509
01:09:07,160 --> 01:09:11,599
Speaker 4: I wouldn't I've been. I would never let that alter

1510
01:09:11,800 --> 01:09:13,880
Speaker 4: that part of my heart. But also because I don't

1511
01:09:13,880 --> 01:09:16,200
Speaker 4: think that that's what Jesus would want. Jesus wants me

1512
01:09:16,280 --> 01:09:17,759
Speaker 4: to like to love on everybody.

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01:09:17,840 --> 01:09:20,439
Speaker 1: And let me ask you this follow up question, because

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01:09:20,479 --> 01:09:22,599
Speaker 1: you had said earlier make sure you read your bibles.

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01:09:23,120 --> 01:09:26,400
Speaker 1: How do you define in the Bible what you should

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01:09:26,439 --> 01:09:28,040
Speaker 1: listen to and what you shouldn't listen to you.

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01:09:28,040 --> 01:09:30,040
Speaker 4: Should read it all. And I'll tell you why. Because

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01:09:30,080 --> 01:09:33,840
Speaker 4: the book is a library. People think of the book

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01:09:33,840 --> 01:09:34,840
Speaker 4: as like one long book.

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01:09:35,320 --> 01:09:36,320
Speaker 5: No, no, it's not.

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01:09:36,520 --> 01:09:40,040
Speaker 4: The book is a chapter so Bible. If you break

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01:09:40,080 --> 01:09:44,080
Speaker 4: down the Latin Bibla, that is library. There are, I mean,

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01:09:44,160 --> 01:09:46,559
Speaker 4: in my text sixty six books. But for Catholics it's

1524
01:09:46,600 --> 01:09:47,320
Speaker 4: what seventy.

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01:09:47,080 --> 01:09:49,960
Speaker 1: Three and for Wu Tang basic instructions before leaving Earth.

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01:09:50,040 --> 01:09:54,479
Speaker 4: Yeah, naturally, So I would urge people to read the

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01:09:54,640 --> 01:09:58,960
Speaker 4: entire thing. And this is why it's a historical source text.

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01:09:59,360 --> 01:10:00,960
Speaker 4: At the end of the day, y'all can't. Y'all can

1529
01:10:01,040 --> 01:10:03,679
Speaker 4: talk as much did as you want, But this book

1530
01:10:03,800 --> 01:10:06,639
Speaker 4: was written twenty three hundred years ago and it's still popping.

1531
01:10:06,840 --> 01:10:08,760
Speaker 4: It's still the number one book to this day.

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01:10:09,760 --> 01:10:12,120
Speaker 1: Everything about should.

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01:10:12,479 --> 01:10:14,680
Speaker 4: We should smoke weed? Do you have some? Right now?

1534
01:10:15,720 --> 01:10:17,360
Speaker 4: One thing you never have to ask, I have a

1535
01:10:17,360 --> 01:10:18,200
Speaker 4: little baby, Jake.

1536
01:10:18,520 --> 01:10:20,679
Speaker 2: If I have I have weed, I always have weed

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01:10:20,720 --> 01:10:22,479
Speaker 2: on me always.

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01:10:24,479 --> 01:10:24,719
Speaker 4: Wow.

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01:10:25,000 --> 01:10:25,920
Speaker 1: Is that your final question?

1540
01:10:26,040 --> 01:10:28,439
Speaker 4: I think this is. I think this is the start

1541
01:10:28,520 --> 01:10:29,960
Speaker 4: of a really great friendship too.

1542
01:10:30,200 --> 01:10:32,240
Speaker 2: I'm very fond of I would like to call you

1543
01:10:32,320 --> 01:10:34,479
Speaker 2: when I'm having like sinning moments like when I feel

1544
01:10:34,479 --> 01:10:35,720
Speaker 2: like I'm about to sin, can I call you?

1545
01:10:36,400 --> 01:10:36,639
Speaker 1: Sure?

1546
01:10:36,800 --> 01:10:38,479
Speaker 3: You can? Like walk me? Sure?

1547
01:10:38,600 --> 01:10:40,120
Speaker 4: I mean, yeah, I'm here for you. That's what we

1548
01:10:40,200 --> 01:10:42,320
Speaker 4: do on my Patreon too, like we're there, we have

1549
01:10:42,439 --> 01:10:49,040
Speaker 4: like prayer scribe no no, no, no subscrib No. What

1550
01:10:49,120 --> 01:10:51,400
Speaker 4: I'm saying, I'm we're friends now. But what I'm saying

1551
01:10:51,479 --> 01:10:55,000
Speaker 4: is I'm I do send people scripture like I'm just

1552
01:10:55,120 --> 01:10:56,719
Speaker 4: that's the kind of friend I am. And I feel

1553
01:10:56,720 --> 01:10:59,120
Speaker 4: like that's what I've been called to do, is support

1554
01:10:59,280 --> 01:10:59,760
Speaker 4: and help.

1555
01:11:00,439 --> 01:11:03,360
Speaker 2: Or how about like when a woman is like pressing

1556
01:11:03,439 --> 01:11:05,479
Speaker 2: me in my text messages like why you don't call me?

1557
01:11:05,880 --> 01:11:08,240
Speaker 2: How about you Like I'll send you like what she

1558
01:11:08,320 --> 01:11:10,200
Speaker 2: said and you respond and I copy and paste what

1559
01:11:10,280 --> 01:11:10,680
Speaker 2: you say and.

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01:11:10,680 --> 01:11:12,560
Speaker 4: Senety, got to be honest with you. I work so

1561
01:11:12,720 --> 01:11:14,240
Speaker 4: much in the show. I'll try to get to it.

1562
01:11:14,880 --> 01:11:16,360
Speaker 4: But if it's stuff about no, no no. But there

1563
01:11:16,400 --> 01:11:19,200
Speaker 4: are certain things my red not red flag. The thing

1564
01:11:19,240 --> 01:11:21,839
Speaker 4: that I always go to is in times of duress

1565
01:11:22,040 --> 01:11:24,160
Speaker 4: and grief. And there are certain things that I put

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01:11:24,200 --> 01:11:26,519
Speaker 4: on a high priority or when you call them like

1567
01:11:26,960 --> 01:11:30,639
Speaker 4: maintenance tickets, like high urgency. That thing you just listened

1568
01:11:30,640 --> 01:11:32,360
Speaker 4: about the girl is not high urgency for me. You'll

1569
01:11:32,360 --> 01:11:35,560
Speaker 4: be Okay, you're you're a big boy man person.

1570
01:11:35,680 --> 01:11:35,760
Speaker 3: You know.

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01:11:35,840 --> 01:11:37,639
Speaker 1: I think would be a good thing for your Patreon.

1572
01:11:38,040 --> 01:11:41,439
Speaker 1: Don't set a price for it, just put ten percent

1573
01:11:41,479 --> 01:11:42,040
Speaker 1: of your income.

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01:11:42,360 --> 01:11:44,000
Speaker 4: That's funny, that's really good.

1575
01:11:44,200 --> 01:11:47,519
Speaker 2: And just watching right after that, because another people like

1576
01:11:47,600 --> 01:11:49,240
Speaker 2: Jesus is watching. They're like, Okay, I guess I gotta

1577
01:11:49,240 --> 01:11:49,759
Speaker 2: give a fIF.

1578
01:11:50,720 --> 01:11:53,000
Speaker 1: Is there a Bible scripture that you would put to

1579
01:11:53,200 --> 01:11:55,880
Speaker 1: this experience on this podcast that you could relate to compare?

1580
01:11:55,960 --> 01:12:02,600
Speaker 4: Wow? Oh wow? Should I do the one about equal matter? No,

1581
01:12:02,760 --> 01:12:03,519
Speaker 4: I'll save that one.

1582
01:12:04,280 --> 01:12:09,000
Speaker 3: Oh okay, ecal does matter, by the way, I.

1583
01:12:09,000 --> 01:12:10,280
Speaker 1: Mean, it's one of our lives.

1584
01:12:10,360 --> 01:12:11,679
Speaker 4: Bodily functions, yes.

1585
01:12:11,720 --> 01:12:15,040
Speaker 1: Like sex, just like Christ and if you want to

1586
01:12:16,360 --> 01:12:17,240
Speaker 1: bodily function.

1587
01:12:17,560 --> 01:12:25,280
Speaker 4: It is, so I would say one thing. Yeah, and

1588
01:12:25,439 --> 01:12:29,720
Speaker 4: it was. I think it's very very appropriate for the

1589
01:12:29,840 --> 01:12:35,920
Speaker 4: discussions that we've had today. And I'll pick Oh, there's

1590
01:12:35,960 --> 01:12:42,960
Speaker 4: so many okay, Proverbs three five, lean not on your

1591
01:12:43,000 --> 01:12:47,080
Speaker 4: own understanding mm hmm. And that's where I'll leave it.

1592
01:12:48,360 --> 01:12:48,880
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm.

1593
01:12:49,200 --> 01:12:51,240
Speaker 4: Well it's been great. This has been really great.

1594
01:12:51,360 --> 01:12:54,559
Speaker 3: We're going to some good highbridge together.

1595
01:12:54,680 --> 01:12:57,000
Speaker 4: I can tell yeah, hybrid smoke.

1596
01:12:57,160 --> 01:12:58,680
Speaker 1: He's trying to know, he said's trying to take you

1597
01:12:58,720 --> 01:13:02,360
Speaker 1: to Highbridge. That's what he wants to take.

1598
01:13:02,439 --> 01:13:04,120
Speaker 3: We're going to smoke hybrid in hibridy.

1599
01:13:04,880 --> 01:13:08,240
Speaker 4: Oh well, you guys has been so good. You guys

1600
01:13:08,240 --> 01:13:09,760
Speaker 4: are you guys are doing you guys are killing it.

1601
01:13:09,880 --> 01:13:12,160
Speaker 1: Man, My song gonna be there. It's great.

1602
01:13:12,439 --> 01:13:15,160
Speaker 2: Your earrings don't stand for Bible babes anymore. They stand

1603
01:13:15,200 --> 01:13:17,320
Speaker 2: for bing bong, just bong.

1604
01:13:17,680 --> 01:13:17,920
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1605
01:13:18,240 --> 01:13:20,800
Speaker 4: Oh that's like it's trending. I don't understand it's that.

1606
01:13:21,000 --> 01:13:22,439
Speaker 4: What is it? What's going on with that? I mean,

1607
01:13:22,520 --> 01:13:24,160
Speaker 4: I don't know if you wanted to clip this, but

1608
01:13:24,240 --> 01:13:25,800
Speaker 4: I want to know that is okay bing bong?

1609
01:13:25,880 --> 01:13:27,600
Speaker 3: That's what I missed A joke like that?

1610
01:13:27,960 --> 01:13:28,479
Speaker 1: Is it trending?

1611
01:13:28,960 --> 01:13:30,720
Speaker 4: It is? It's the thing bing bong with the guy

1612
01:13:30,800 --> 01:13:32,680
Speaker 4: with the okay, okay.

1613
01:13:32,680 --> 01:13:33,439
Speaker 1: Got you okay.

1614
01:13:33,520 --> 01:13:36,760
Speaker 3: Well I enjoyed this. Uh, it's been a pleasure meeting you.

1615
01:13:36,840 --> 01:13:38,800
Speaker 2: I've heard such great things about you and that that

1616
01:13:38,880 --> 01:13:41,240
Speaker 2: we've met, Like you're definitely one of my favorite people.

1617
01:13:42,120 --> 01:13:42,720
Speaker 3: No, this was great.

1618
01:13:42,800 --> 01:13:44,320
Speaker 1: I really enjoyed this. I think there should be a

1619
01:13:44,400 --> 01:13:46,840
Speaker 1: part too, once we digest everything.

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01:13:46,600 --> 01:13:47,160
Speaker 4: That happened there.

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01:13:47,800 --> 01:13:53,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, absolutely, Okay, that was Jesus, Jesus taking over it.

1622
01:13:53,560 --> 01:13:56,320
Speaker 4: You guys, you guys, feelings mutual serious, I respect you.

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01:13:56,560 --> 01:13:59,080
Speaker 2: Great, your star. Don't be too hard on yourself. You're

1624
01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:03,280
Speaker 2: not struggling. You are definitely like a star for sure.

1625
01:14:03,320 --> 01:14:06,720
Speaker 1: Absolutely, And you're bringing something new to the podcast, which

1626
01:14:06,760 --> 01:14:08,519
Speaker 1: is so hard for people.

1627
01:14:08,800 --> 01:14:10,240
Speaker 3: You have your own trust me.

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01:14:10,320 --> 01:14:12,400
Speaker 1: You just say at this point, thanks, you are you

1629
01:14:12,520 --> 01:14:15,439
Speaker 1: are more than you know. And we'll micro does some

1630
01:14:15,479 --> 01:14:16,200
Speaker 1: shrooms together soon.

1631
01:14:16,240 --> 01:14:16,760
Speaker 4: I would love to.

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01:14:17,720 --> 01:14:19,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, I never did shrooms. That's something that me and

1633
01:14:19,439 --> 01:14:21,080
Speaker 2: Roy talked about a lot doing, Like we're going to

1634
01:14:21,120 --> 01:14:21,880
Speaker 2: actually film something.

1635
01:14:21,920 --> 01:14:23,400
Speaker 3: I think I think she should be a part of that.

1636
01:14:23,520 --> 01:14:25,880
Speaker 1: But you have to come to Uh, we're gonna us.

1637
01:14:25,920 --> 01:14:27,240
Speaker 1: We're gonna go to Joshua Tree and Calvin.

1638
01:14:28,600 --> 01:14:29,519
Speaker 4: I'll go in a heartbeat.

1639
01:14:29,800 --> 01:14:30,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think we should do that.

1640
01:14:31,000 --> 01:14:34,879
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, we could use some of the We're gonna supervision.

1641
01:14:34,880 --> 01:14:37,200
Speaker 3: We're gonna need it. The Lord needs to be present.

1642
01:14:37,320 --> 01:14:37,920
Speaker 4: I would love to.

1643
01:14:38,560 --> 01:14:40,800
Speaker 3: All right, let's do it. So thank you for coming

1644
01:14:40,880 --> 01:14:41,360
Speaker 3: for having me.

1645
01:14:41,760 --> 01:14:44,240
Speaker 1: Where can they find you? Socials everything.

1646
01:14:44,439 --> 01:14:48,080
Speaker 4: The Bible podcast is called Bible Stories with Brionda. We

1647
01:14:48,479 --> 01:14:51,920
Speaker 4: release new episodes every Wednesday. If you're starting with me,

1648
01:14:52,000 --> 01:14:54,160
Speaker 4: I would. I would watch the Ian Dunlap episode. It

1649
01:14:54,240 --> 01:14:58,240
Speaker 4: was a really thorough conversation into who I am. Ian's amazing.

1650
01:14:58,840 --> 01:15:00,599
Speaker 4: He's also a sponsor of the show. Oh my very

1651
01:15:00,640 --> 01:15:04,479
Speaker 4: first sponsor. He so sweet. But at Bible Breanda on

1652
01:15:04,600 --> 01:15:07,040
Speaker 4: everything and yeah, that's it.

1653
01:15:07,120 --> 01:15:08,599
Speaker 3: Bing bong Bible.

1654
01:15:10,000 --> 01:15:11,240
Speaker 1: No, it's just Bible Breonda.

1655
01:15:11,439 --> 01:15:11,799
Speaker 3: Notice.

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01:15:12,400 --> 01:15:15,559
Speaker 1: Thank you for coming though, Thank you so so much, guys.

1657
01:15:16,479 --> 01:15:20,040
Speaker 1: And if you want to read Edend's files, just to

1658
01:15:20,120 --> 01:15:22,439
Speaker 1: close real quick, oh then I'll be fine. I won't

1659
01:15:22,479 --> 01:15:23,760
Speaker 1: have to comment on them. I just want to hear them.

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01:15:24,240 --> 01:15:25,360
Speaker 1: We can cut this too. I just want to hear

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01:15:25,360 --> 01:15:27,840
Speaker 1: that we're not cutting this. The world needs to hear

1662
01:15:27,880 --> 01:15:29,280
Speaker 1: what is the one that can cut it?

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01:15:29,680 --> 01:15:32,320
Speaker 4: But here's the thing, ed here's the thing. My files

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01:15:32,400 --> 01:15:35,920
Speaker 4: are typic all ed and I have sc I have

1665
01:15:36,040 --> 01:15:38,519
Speaker 4: scripture that I that I sent Eden and I saved

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01:15:38,520 --> 01:15:39,360
Speaker 4: it under my files.

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01:15:39,640 --> 01:15:41,000
Speaker 1: And did he leave you on red No?

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01:15:41,280 --> 01:15:43,320
Speaker 4: No, no, no no no. It was intimate.

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01:15:43,600 --> 01:15:44,360
Speaker 3: Okay. I like that.

1670
01:15:44,640 --> 01:15:46,799
Speaker 4: I like that you guys have that relationship, of course,

1671
01:15:47,080 --> 01:15:50,680
Speaker 4: But I put the scripture on his files and he

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01:15:50,800 --> 01:15:52,800
Speaker 4: doesn't have because I don't know. I guess he doesn't.

1673
01:15:52,920 --> 01:15:56,920
Speaker 4: Not everyone has lengthy files like you find men.

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01:15:57,400 --> 01:16:00,400
Speaker 1: And I think should have the longest five very But

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01:16:00,600 --> 01:16:02,040
Speaker 1: I know what Edd does in his free time, and

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01:16:02,120 --> 01:16:02,640
Speaker 1: it scares me.

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01:16:03,120 --> 01:16:04,720
Speaker 4: I don't know if you can add context to this,

1678
01:16:05,080 --> 01:16:09,800
Speaker 4: and I don't know why, but it's oh my god,

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01:16:10,000 --> 01:16:14,679
Speaker 4: my mucus first meet. That's it. I know it's confusing,

1680
01:16:14,720 --> 01:16:16,160
Speaker 4: and we didn't end. We ended on a lull y'all

1681
01:16:16,200 --> 01:16:18,799
Speaker 4: can cut this? So what does that mean? No, mucus,

1682
01:16:19,280 --> 01:16:22,800
Speaker 4: mucus first meet? Did I meet you? And I had mucus? Eden?

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01:16:22,840 --> 01:16:23,360
Speaker 4: Can you answer?

1684
01:16:25,040 --> 01:16:25,400
Speaker 3: Jesus?

1685
01:16:25,640 --> 01:16:25,800
Speaker 4: Uh?

1686
01:16:26,640 --> 01:16:27,439
Speaker 1: Do you know what that is?

1687
01:16:28,120 --> 01:16:28,920
Speaker 3: I have no idea.

1688
01:16:29,080 --> 01:16:31,040
Speaker 4: Okay, well, let me give you some scripture. I'll leave

1689
01:16:31,080 --> 01:16:33,080
Speaker 4: with this. There's a scripture that I gave for Eden,

1690
01:16:33,240 --> 01:16:35,240
Speaker 4: and maybe the listeners will might want to listen to him.

1691
01:16:35,720 --> 01:16:43,280
Speaker 4: So oh, Two Corinthians, Chapter four, verses seventeen eighteen. I've

1692
01:16:43,320 --> 01:16:45,880
Speaker 4: sent this to Eden, and that's on his files. For

1693
01:16:46,120 --> 01:16:49,880
Speaker 4: our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an

1694
01:16:49,920 --> 01:16:54,240
Speaker 4: eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix

1695
01:16:54,280 --> 01:16:56,560
Speaker 4: our eyes not on what is seen, but on what

1696
01:16:56,720 --> 01:16:59,800
Speaker 4: is unseen, Since what is seen is temporary, but what

1697
01:17:00,120 --> 01:17:05,760
Speaker 4: is unseen is eternal, and that I sent him my

1698
01:17:05,800 --> 01:17:08,280
Speaker 4: boy since you guys didn't like mymucus stuff. But I

1699
01:17:08,280 --> 01:17:10,160
Speaker 4: also don't know what it means. But that's how my

1700
01:17:10,240 --> 01:17:12,519
Speaker 4: files are. I'm a psychopath. It's just like sometimes I'm like,

1701
01:17:12,600 --> 01:17:15,200
Speaker 4: what does that mean? Grown? Anyway, it's manzle tough. Jesus

1702
01:17:15,240 --> 01:17:15,559
Speaker 4: is King.

1703
01:17:16,240 --> 01:17:17,000
Speaker 3: Jesus is King.

1704
01:17:17,680 --> 01:17:18,280
Speaker 4: Jesus is King.

1705
01:17:18,360 --> 01:17:23,240
Speaker 1: Also a Kanye album better than Donda? Well, that was fun.

1706
01:17:23,680 --> 01:17:24,200
Speaker 3: That was great.

1707
01:17:25,040 --> 01:17:25,439
Speaker 4: I like her.

1708
01:17:25,520 --> 01:17:27,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I like Brionda lot. I like her.

1709
01:17:27,120 --> 01:17:30,640
Speaker 2: I think what she's doing, she has a lane of

1710
01:17:30,680 --> 01:17:34,559
Speaker 2: her own is very unique, but I think it's something

1711
01:17:34,600 --> 01:17:37,800
Speaker 2: that is necessary though. Like just her the way she

1712
01:17:38,200 --> 01:17:42,880
Speaker 2: interprets the word and religion and stuff like that. Being

1713
01:17:42,920 --> 01:17:45,679
Speaker 2: twenty eight years old, attractive and living in New York City,

1714
01:17:45,840 --> 01:17:47,160
Speaker 2: a big metropolitan city.

1715
01:17:47,320 --> 01:17:49,360
Speaker 1: You'll find Jesus in many different places.

1716
01:17:49,479 --> 01:17:51,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, trust me, it's dope things. Find him in the

1717
01:17:51,439 --> 01:17:52,639
Speaker 2: sewer every night, You'll find Jesus.

1718
01:17:52,840 --> 01:17:57,439
Speaker 1: Listen the amount of lords I found in New York

1719
01:17:57,479 --> 01:17:57,920
Speaker 1: and my time.

1720
01:17:58,000 --> 01:17:58,960
Speaker 3: Absolutely, I didn't.

1721
01:17:58,760 --> 01:18:01,840
Speaker 1: Even realize you were wearing the bass pro shop uh hat,

1722
01:18:02,320 --> 01:18:05,519
Speaker 1: So you were coming in here very Christian, very anti abortion.

1723
01:18:05,920 --> 01:18:07,800
Speaker 1: I did meant, I did want to ask her about

1724
01:18:07,880 --> 01:18:10,439
Speaker 1: New York City. But okay, that's a very you got

1725
01:18:10,479 --> 01:18:14,920
Speaker 1: that in Long Island, Long Island. There's no way you

1726
01:18:15,040 --> 01:18:15,880
Speaker 1: got that in New York.

1727
01:18:16,479 --> 01:18:18,439
Speaker 3: Yeah, nice lute, No homie makes this dog.

1728
01:18:18,560 --> 01:18:23,120
Speaker 1: Pigeons aren't in that climate in that hat still, that's Camo.

1729
01:18:23,520 --> 01:18:26,760
Speaker 1: That's like you're hunting. You're hunting for pigeons in Central Park.

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01:18:26,840 --> 01:18:27,280
Speaker 3: It's full.

1731
01:18:27,560 --> 01:18:30,120
Speaker 1: It's a little foolish, you know, it's a little all lives,

1732
01:18:30,320 --> 01:18:31,000
Speaker 1: but you know.

1733
01:18:31,439 --> 01:18:32,280
Speaker 3: Definitely all lives.

1734
01:18:34,240 --> 01:18:36,400
Speaker 1: A lot of people raided the Capitol with that hat on.

1735
01:18:38,960 --> 01:18:41,439
Speaker 1: That was my favorite part of people raiding the Capitol

1736
01:18:41,600 --> 01:18:45,720
Speaker 1: in Camo. We could see the capital, we could see.

1737
01:18:45,760 --> 01:18:46,960
Speaker 1: You couldn't be more seen.

1738
01:18:47,760 --> 01:18:50,080
Speaker 3: You're ready in a build it with Camo, I know.

1739
01:18:51,640 --> 01:18:54,240
Speaker 1: Anyways, Yeah, I did want to do a breakdown afterwards.

1740
01:18:55,720 --> 01:18:58,200
Speaker 1: That was a lot to unpack. And I know we're

1741
01:18:58,240 --> 01:19:00,080
Speaker 1: not keeping that was I mean, it was about for

1742
01:19:00,160 --> 01:19:02,600
Speaker 1: the listeners, we're not taking away things from you. We

1743
01:19:02,640 --> 01:19:04,479
Speaker 1: didn't edit things in that regard, but there was stuff

1744
01:19:04,479 --> 01:19:06,120
Speaker 1: we had to cut down. That was about two and

1745
01:19:06,160 --> 01:19:09,280
Speaker 1: a half hours of bibleness that we just went through.

1746
01:19:10,280 --> 01:19:11,200
Speaker 3: She's great though.

1747
01:19:11,240 --> 01:19:11,600
Speaker 5: I like it.

1748
01:19:11,680 --> 01:19:14,200
Speaker 3: I like her conversation, I like her point of view.

1749
01:19:16,160 --> 01:19:18,439
Speaker 2: I have thoughts on a lot of the Bible, but

1750
01:19:18,560 --> 01:19:21,880
Speaker 2: you know, I like to hear people thinking their interpretation

1751
01:19:22,560 --> 01:19:25,439
Speaker 2: of religion and God and spirituality and things like that.

1752
01:19:25,640 --> 01:19:27,800
Speaker 1: I tried my best not to rory the situation and

1753
01:19:28,560 --> 01:19:32,720
Speaker 1: say inappropriate things or interrupted fuck up conversation. I just

1754
01:19:32,800 --> 01:19:35,240
Speaker 1: want her to get her shit off. There's a lot

1755
01:19:35,320 --> 01:19:37,800
Speaker 1: of stuff I've really wanted to disagree with or make

1756
01:19:37,920 --> 01:19:42,600
Speaker 1: terrible comments about. Jamarius. You watched it, we were living it,

1757
01:19:43,960 --> 01:19:47,080
Speaker 1: and you sighed out me a few times. And this

1758
01:19:47,240 --> 01:19:49,680
Speaker 1: was the first episode I could ever see Edin like

1759
01:19:49,800 --> 01:19:52,439
Speaker 1: I could see him. I've never been able to see him.

1760
01:19:53,200 --> 01:19:54,080
Speaker 3: Hey Sus is watching?

1761
01:19:54,160 --> 01:19:56,479
Speaker 1: Oh no, he was watching the whole time. Hay Sus

1762
01:19:56,560 --> 01:19:58,680
Speaker 1: was definitely watching everywhere.

1763
01:20:01,200 --> 01:20:02,640
Speaker 3: He is or she.

1764
01:20:05,000 --> 01:20:06,280
Speaker 1: To maar, I suppose your opinion of that.

1765
01:20:09,920 --> 01:20:15,160
Speaker 6: I am like super anti Christian, so coming from a

1766
01:20:15,240 --> 01:20:17,639
Speaker 6: place of my non bias, I think it was good.

1767
01:20:17,680 --> 01:20:19,040
Speaker 5: I think she brought up a lot of good points.

1768
01:20:19,040 --> 01:20:20,880
Speaker 6: I think you guys brought up a lot of good

1769
01:20:20,960 --> 01:20:24,200
Speaker 6: points as far as that you combat it with a

1770
01:20:24,280 --> 01:20:25,680
Speaker 6: lot of jokes. I' seen a lot of jokes that

1771
01:20:25,720 --> 01:20:27,439
Speaker 6: you guys, let's slide under the rug and me.

1772
01:20:28,600 --> 01:20:29,240
Speaker 3: What you gotta see?

1773
01:20:29,400 --> 01:20:30,640
Speaker 5: I like, hr, thanks you.

1774
01:20:30,920 --> 01:20:31,120
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1775
01:20:31,200 --> 01:20:33,120
Speaker 2: Like, when we're sitting down with somebody for the first time,

1776
01:20:33,240 --> 01:20:35,960
Speaker 2: especially a woman, I kind of like, I don't want

1777
01:20:35,960 --> 01:20:38,320
Speaker 2: to give so much of our because you know, they

1778
01:20:38,360 --> 01:20:41,080
Speaker 2: may not understand our jokes and things like that. But

1779
01:20:41,160 --> 01:20:43,400
Speaker 2: it was definitely some things I wanted to kind of

1780
01:20:43,439 --> 01:20:45,120
Speaker 2: throw at her, just on some jokes, but I was like,

1781
01:20:45,240 --> 01:20:46,439
Speaker 2: let me just let her get her shit off.

1782
01:20:46,960 --> 01:20:49,000
Speaker 1: And what sucked the most about it was, I know

1783
01:20:49,120 --> 01:20:51,280
Speaker 1: that's something that's like really near and dear to our heart,

1784
01:20:51,320 --> 01:20:52,320
Speaker 1: Like that's her lifestyle.

1785
01:20:52,560 --> 01:20:53,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, is that?

1786
01:20:54,280 --> 01:20:56,720
Speaker 1: And I don't know what it is about the negativity

1787
01:20:56,760 --> 01:20:58,920
Speaker 1: in me that wants me to always attack what people love.

1788
01:21:00,200 --> 01:21:02,200
Speaker 1: I was trying to hold back so much because I

1789
01:21:02,240 --> 01:21:04,599
Speaker 1: had so many jokes and I didn't want to say

1790
01:21:04,600 --> 01:21:06,240
Speaker 1: them because I didn't want her to feel like I

1791
01:21:06,360 --> 01:21:09,080
Speaker 1: was legitimately attacking her life right.

1792
01:21:09,280 --> 01:21:11,120
Speaker 3: Right, But I think she understands us for the most part,

1793
01:21:11,160 --> 01:21:12,080
Speaker 3: she knows our personality.

1794
01:21:12,160 --> 01:21:13,639
Speaker 1: There was a few times I saw in her eyes

1795
01:21:13,680 --> 01:21:15,320
Speaker 1: where she was like yeah, relaxed.

1796
01:21:15,120 --> 01:21:17,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, no, absolutely, But I would love to have

1797
01:21:17,479 --> 01:21:19,439
Speaker 2: her back on Oh for sure. I really like her

1798
01:21:19,479 --> 01:21:21,360
Speaker 2: as a person and we can kind of like catch

1799
01:21:21,479 --> 01:21:24,120
Speaker 2: up and see where she's at. If she still hasn't masturbated,

1800
01:21:25,160 --> 01:21:25,880
Speaker 2: I'm gonna text her.

1801
01:21:27,520 --> 01:21:29,800
Speaker 5: Do not text her that, please, I just want to know.

1802
01:21:30,720 --> 01:21:31,600
Speaker 3: Oh, okay, thank you.

1803
01:21:32,280 --> 01:21:35,600
Speaker 6: Would you guys want your daughter to be uh a

1804
01:21:35,760 --> 01:21:39,640
Speaker 6: Breanda raised in that light of celibacy?

1805
01:21:40,240 --> 01:21:40,360
Speaker 4: Uh?

1806
01:21:41,360 --> 01:21:42,920
Speaker 2: I don't know if I would say I would want

1807
01:21:43,000 --> 01:21:45,639
Speaker 2: my daughter to be selling it, but I would want

1808
01:21:45,680 --> 01:21:49,919
Speaker 2: her to make the best decisions based on the information

1809
01:21:50,040 --> 01:21:53,000
Speaker 2: that she has, you know, like the best decision for

1810
01:21:53,080 --> 01:21:54,800
Speaker 2: herself as far as like what she wants in her

1811
01:21:54,840 --> 01:21:57,599
Speaker 2: life with kind of relationship does she want, what kind

1812
01:21:57,600 --> 01:21:58,559
Speaker 2: of future does she want?

1813
01:22:00,400 --> 01:22:02,080
Speaker 3: I wouldn't go that far, you know what I.

1814
01:22:02,080 --> 01:22:04,759
Speaker 2: Mean, if she finds herself to that, because, like you know, Brianna,

1815
01:22:04,840 --> 01:22:07,800
Speaker 2: she wasn't always celibate. But if she finds herself to

1816
01:22:07,920 --> 01:22:11,120
Speaker 2: that for whatever reason, if it's a spiritual awakening or

1817
01:22:11,160 --> 01:22:13,639
Speaker 2: something like that, cool as the thing. As a dad,

1818
01:22:13,720 --> 01:22:17,040
Speaker 2: you're just there to support your children and kind of

1819
01:22:17,080 --> 01:22:20,000
Speaker 2: give them information that they may not have yet and

1820
01:22:20,160 --> 01:22:20,720
Speaker 2: just you know.

1821
01:22:21,040 --> 01:22:24,880
Speaker 3: Hope that they apply it correctly. But I'm not. I'm

1822
01:22:24,960 --> 01:22:26,040
Speaker 3: not against her being celibate.

1823
01:22:26,080 --> 01:22:27,840
Speaker 2: Like I said, if she goes through experiences, like she

1824
01:22:28,000 --> 01:22:30,599
Speaker 2: dates a guy and you know, it's a terrible relationship

1825
01:22:30,640 --> 01:22:32,240
Speaker 2: and she falls out of love and then she's tired

1826
01:22:32,280 --> 01:22:34,800
Speaker 2: of meeting guys and being physical. She just wants to

1827
01:22:34,840 --> 01:22:36,360
Speaker 2: take time to really get to know herself on a

1828
01:22:36,640 --> 01:22:39,920
Speaker 2: spiritual level, and if that calls for celibacy, so be it.

1829
01:22:40,880 --> 01:22:42,479
Speaker 3: But I'm not gonna say I want that for her,

1830
01:22:42,600 --> 01:22:43,599
Speaker 3: Like I'm not one of those dads.

1831
01:22:43,640 --> 01:22:45,599
Speaker 2: It's like, my daughter will never have sex and she'll

1832
01:22:45,680 --> 01:22:48,479
Speaker 2: never suck dick and she'll know, yeah, she is, come on,

1833
01:22:49,040 --> 01:22:49,519
Speaker 2: she will.

1834
01:22:49,400 --> 01:22:52,640
Speaker 1: Could never be that she will with Briann to bring

1835
01:22:52,720 --> 01:22:55,080
Speaker 1: it up the money part, and I was like, that's

1836
01:22:55,160 --> 01:22:56,640
Speaker 1: just part of society, whether we like it or not.

1837
01:22:56,760 --> 01:22:59,280
Speaker 1: You could say in your religion that money is the devil,

1838
01:22:59,360 --> 01:23:01,600
Speaker 1: but it can troll society unfortunately, and you need it.

1839
01:23:01,640 --> 01:23:03,160
Speaker 1: And she was like, yeah, I'm attracted to it because

1840
01:23:03,280 --> 01:23:04,720
Speaker 1: that makes my family safe.

1841
01:23:04,760 --> 01:23:07,800
Speaker 2: But she's attracted for stability and security sasons and I

1842
01:23:07,880 --> 01:23:11,120
Speaker 2: think with sex it's similar in that And that's why

1843
01:23:11,160 --> 01:23:13,759
Speaker 2: I wouldn't say I want my daughter to be celibate.

1844
01:23:13,800 --> 01:23:16,360
Speaker 1: Because you learn so much about yourself and other people

1845
01:23:16,800 --> 01:23:19,439
Speaker 1: and how to move in life based off sex to

1846
01:23:19,520 --> 01:23:21,960
Speaker 1: some degree. So I don't know if I'd want my

1847
01:23:22,080 --> 01:23:26,920
Speaker 1: daughter to be this celibate, naive girl running around and

1848
01:23:27,000 --> 01:23:30,080
Speaker 1: then when sex happens at an age that she should

1849
01:23:30,080 --> 01:23:33,439
Speaker 1: already know a shit ton about herself and doesn't. I

1850
01:23:33,479 --> 01:23:36,200
Speaker 1: don't know if I want to have her go through

1851
01:23:36,280 --> 01:23:37,360
Speaker 1: that that late in life.

1852
01:23:37,680 --> 01:23:40,520
Speaker 2: And from what Breonda said, I believe she found celibacy

1853
01:23:40,640 --> 01:23:43,080
Speaker 2: due to her feeling like she always had to love

1854
01:23:43,160 --> 01:23:45,240
Speaker 2: and be in love with every man she was with. Yeah,

1855
01:23:45,600 --> 01:23:48,519
Speaker 2: and that kind of was like setting herself up for

1856
01:23:48,640 --> 01:23:51,160
Speaker 2: her heartbreak and things like that. So she had to

1857
01:23:51,280 --> 01:23:54,519
Speaker 2: like stop because she was like looking for love through sex.

1858
01:23:54,680 --> 01:23:58,000
Speaker 1: Well, I mean she did mention, and if I'm reading correctly,

1859
01:23:58,160 --> 01:23:59,800
Speaker 1: she did mention. I'm only saying it because she said

1860
01:23:59,800 --> 01:24:03,040
Speaker 1: it on the air about her parents' relationship. It was

1861
01:24:03,080 --> 01:24:05,960
Speaker 1: definitely a chaotic thing. All of that is attached, and

1862
01:24:06,120 --> 01:24:08,799
Speaker 1: I can attest to that as well. It's all attached.

1863
01:24:09,560 --> 01:24:13,200
Speaker 1: So yeah, maybe Selsby was great for her in that

1864
01:24:13,280 --> 01:24:15,960
Speaker 1: capacity because she was searching for love within sex. So no,

1865
01:24:16,040 --> 01:24:19,760
Speaker 1: I think there's a time to veer away from sex.

1866
01:24:19,800 --> 01:24:22,519
Speaker 1: You don't have to cut it off for religious reasons,

1867
01:24:22,600 --> 01:24:25,439
Speaker 1: but it is definitely something that motivates us in everything

1868
01:24:25,479 --> 01:24:27,800
Speaker 1: that we fucking do. So once you take it away,

1869
01:24:27,960 --> 01:24:30,519
Speaker 1: you may have a clearer mind in certain capacities.

1870
01:24:30,640 --> 01:24:31,920
Speaker 5: I think you both should go celibate.

1871
01:24:33,280 --> 01:24:36,639
Speaker 3: I went celibate by excellent one time. It's not six months.

1872
01:24:36,800 --> 01:24:38,040
Speaker 3: That's not what you mean.

1873
01:24:38,120 --> 01:24:41,560
Speaker 6: That's you not having sex. That's not celibacy. Oh, celibacy

1874
01:24:41,720 --> 01:24:44,479
Speaker 6: is a plan in motion. This is what I'm doing.

1875
01:24:44,560 --> 01:24:46,600
Speaker 6: This is what I'm committing to him, committing to not

1876
01:24:46,960 --> 01:24:50,280
Speaker 6: having sex for whatever goal you're attempting to reach it.

1877
01:24:50,320 --> 01:24:51,320
Speaker 6: I think you both should try it.

1878
01:24:51,720 --> 01:24:53,720
Speaker 3: Commit to not having sex? Yes, how long?

1879
01:24:54,000 --> 01:24:55,680
Speaker 1: Wait? Does that include beating off?

1880
01:24:57,400 --> 01:24:57,639
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1881
01:24:57,640 --> 01:25:00,400
Speaker 6: I'm never taking masturbation away from anybody, I think.

1882
01:25:00,240 --> 01:25:03,080
Speaker 1: Because I'd be a very irritable person. This would not

1883
01:25:03,160 --> 01:25:04,160
Speaker 1: be a good podcast.

1884
01:25:03,880 --> 01:25:06,000
Speaker 5: If you are already a very irrible person.

1885
01:25:06,040 --> 01:25:07,719
Speaker 1: I imagine if I couldn't.

1886
01:25:08,280 --> 01:25:11,599
Speaker 6: Yeah, I know, I'm good, all right, So we shouldn't

1887
01:25:11,600 --> 01:25:14,280
Speaker 6: go sell beauty.

1888
01:25:14,880 --> 01:25:17,559
Speaker 5: You desire, but just no sex with other people?

1889
01:25:18,840 --> 01:25:22,080
Speaker 3: Okay for a month? That's it.

1890
01:25:22,280 --> 01:25:25,519
Speaker 5: No, I think that might be easy. Wait, let's let's

1891
01:25:25,560 --> 01:25:26,960
Speaker 5: do two two months, two.

1892
01:25:26,920 --> 01:25:29,960
Speaker 6: Months, two months, I could do two months easy, January February.

1893
01:25:30,840 --> 01:25:32,920
Speaker 1: Okay, now wait, now, are you a different opinion on

1894
01:25:33,080 --> 01:25:35,360
Speaker 1: who Maul and I are Like, Yeah, we really don't

1895
01:25:35,400 --> 01:25:35,920
Speaker 1: be fucking like that.

1896
01:25:36,120 --> 01:25:39,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, I promise you I don't. Two months is nothing

1897
01:25:39,960 --> 01:25:41,880
Speaker 2: for me. And you said I could beat off.

1898
01:25:42,479 --> 01:25:43,320
Speaker 3: This is a breeze.

1899
01:25:43,680 --> 01:25:46,800
Speaker 1: Yeah you loggins, I got my past.

1900
01:25:47,120 --> 01:25:48,080
Speaker 3: Send me the Bang Bros. Joint.

1901
01:25:48,640 --> 01:25:52,160
Speaker 2: Mean it's nothing two months. But now you're talking about

1902
01:25:52,240 --> 01:25:54,600
Speaker 2: like February. You know it's Valentine's Day. You know you

1903
01:25:54,680 --> 01:25:56,120
Speaker 2: gotta kind of like I was trying to help you

1904
01:25:56,120 --> 01:25:56,400
Speaker 2: all out.

1905
01:25:57,479 --> 01:25:57,719
Speaker 5: Nothing.

1906
01:25:57,920 --> 01:25:59,599
Speaker 2: That don't mean you ain't got to buy nobody nothing.

1907
01:26:00,160 --> 01:26:03,320
Speaker 2: That just means you can't have sex. But they still

1908
01:26:03,360 --> 01:26:05,200
Speaker 2: expect to get something on Valentine's Day.

1909
01:26:05,720 --> 01:26:08,479
Speaker 1: Got nothing to do with buy them anything for Valentine's Day.

1910
01:26:08,920 --> 01:26:11,360
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I know that, but you don't Valentine Like,

1911
01:26:11,960 --> 01:26:12,720
Speaker 1: I'm with you on that.

1912
01:26:12,880 --> 01:26:13,960
Speaker 3: Trust me, their birthday.

1913
01:26:14,320 --> 01:26:16,280
Speaker 1: I'll take care of their birthday. That makes sense, Like,

1914
01:26:16,360 --> 01:26:20,479
Speaker 1: let's celebrate this another year. Hell yeah Valentine's Day.

1915
01:26:21,040 --> 01:26:23,479
Speaker 3: It's what does this mean? You can't listen. We've had

1916
01:26:23,560 --> 01:26:24,200
Speaker 3: this talk before.

1917
01:26:24,280 --> 01:26:26,640
Speaker 2: We can't get involved with that that's something that is

1918
01:26:26,800 --> 01:26:29,719
Speaker 2: very dear near and dear to women in their hearts

1919
01:26:29,760 --> 01:26:30,520
Speaker 2: and their emotions.

1920
01:26:31,880 --> 01:26:33,479
Speaker 3: Let's just let them have it, and first of them

1921
01:26:33,560 --> 01:26:33,720
Speaker 3: have it.

1922
01:26:33,840 --> 01:26:36,200
Speaker 1: Christmas is coming up. I need to let me see

1923
01:26:36,240 --> 01:26:38,439
Speaker 1: your Bible card. Are you a Bible babe? I'm not

1924
01:26:38,479 --> 01:26:40,200
Speaker 1: buying you a Christmas gift. You don't even care about

1925
01:26:40,240 --> 01:26:40,839
Speaker 1: Jesus Birthday?

1926
01:26:41,360 --> 01:26:42,400
Speaker 4: That's okay.

1927
01:26:43,160 --> 01:26:44,040
Speaker 5: Are you guys going to do jae?

1928
01:26:44,040 --> 01:26:47,000
Speaker 1: Why didn't you ask her that you don't need pits?

1929
01:26:47,040 --> 01:26:50,040
Speaker 1: We're born on December twenty twenty fifth listen, No.

1930
01:26:50,080 --> 01:26:50,320
Speaker 5: I did.

1931
01:26:50,360 --> 01:26:55,400
Speaker 1: My YouTube's your YouTube will tell you anything.

1932
01:26:55,600 --> 01:26:58,200
Speaker 6: I would have discovered what I actually believe in. She

1933
01:26:58,280 --> 01:27:01,440
Speaker 6: would have us that water she was drinking.

1934
01:27:01,280 --> 01:27:04,560
Speaker 3: She sprinkled it on you, for sure. Yeah, absolutely, But

1935
01:27:04,640 --> 01:27:06,680
Speaker 3: I'm down for the no sex January.

1936
01:27:06,360 --> 01:27:08,680
Speaker 5: February, Okay, I will hold you guys to that.

1937
01:27:09,000 --> 01:27:10,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, this was fun. This episode was fun.

1938
01:27:11,240 --> 01:27:15,559
Speaker 2: It was I had had a lot of good thoughts

1939
01:27:16,720 --> 01:27:20,400
Speaker 2: after this, some things in perspective, gain some knowledge and

1940
01:27:20,479 --> 01:27:21,040
Speaker 2: some information.

1941
01:27:21,240 --> 01:27:22,599
Speaker 3: So it's a good day.

1942
01:27:22,720 --> 01:27:23,920
Speaker 1: I'll see you in church on Sunday.

1943
01:27:24,320 --> 01:27:25,679
Speaker 3: Absolutely peace.

1944
01:27:27,800 --> 01:27:28,880
Speaker 4: Willian Loud