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Speaker 1: This is Unbreakable with Jay Glazer, a mental health podcast

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Speaker 1: helping you out of the gray and into the blue.

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Speaker 1: Now here's Jay Glazer. What's happening to Gang? This is

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Speaker 1: Unbreakable a mental health podcast with Jay Glazer and listen.

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Speaker 1: I've talked many times in the past battling my own

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Speaker 1: mental health issues, my depression, anxiety, that I need teammates

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Speaker 1: and teammates coming all forms and shapes and sizes. The

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Speaker 1: guy I'm having them right now. He's one of my teammates, man,

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Speaker 1: and he's the former UFC Light heavyweight champ in the world,

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Speaker 1: but also now he's diving into the mental health game

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Speaker 1: as well with a new business. Listen, my job here

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Speaker 1: for this podcast is to give as many people options

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Speaker 1: that can to battle this thing we call life and

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Speaker 1: you know what goes on between the years as I

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Speaker 1: possibly can. And I'm kind of fascinating about what my

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Speaker 1: guest here with Sean Evans, is doing in his next

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Speaker 1: step of life, in his post fight career. Although I

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Speaker 1: think you're about to fight again, aren't you? But welcome

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Speaker 1: to Rich I haven't tell you doing, brother. What's up?

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Speaker 1: Jake Glazier? Man? What is It's a long time they'll

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Speaker 1: see you. Man, I feel like I've seen you so long. Baby.

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Speaker 1: I miss you. I miss you, I miss you. We

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Speaker 1: and Roshan and I have a long history together, a

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Speaker 1: fucking with each other as much as we possibly can. Right,

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Speaker 1: one time he lost a bet to me and he

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Speaker 1: had to do seven any time push ups, which right,

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Speaker 1: at any point I could call him wherever he is

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Speaker 1: and say, you gotta drop and give me ten push ups.

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Speaker 1: So one time I was in the gas station on

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Speaker 1: a filthy floor, right, one time you were you were

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Speaker 1: a club, right, and he looks like a complete jerk

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Speaker 1: off that you're just getting down doing pushups right in

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Speaker 1: the middle of, like in the middle of like a

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Speaker 1: dance floor the club, just like you know, he's already

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Speaker 1: a meet because he's a fighter, but now he's doing

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Speaker 1: push ups in front of the club. You got me

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Speaker 1: one time on airs, you see the problem get any

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Speaker 1: time pushing up with Jake Glaziers. The fact that Jay

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Speaker 1: Power trips on you, like he it's just like the

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Speaker 1: way that he says it. It's just such a it's

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Speaker 1: such a demean thing, you know. So I did it

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Speaker 1: on the air only every one time he and I

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Speaker 1: were hosting the UFC show and in the middle of

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Speaker 1: the show, I'm like now, he's like and he just

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Speaker 1: looks at me. I'm like now, And he had to

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Speaker 1: get up with the desk to do push up to

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Speaker 1: the producers, like, what is going on here? What is

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Speaker 1: Man you are I mean, you've done so much in

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Speaker 1: your life. And Els his brothers and and Rich is

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Speaker 1: also he's an ask to train with because he don't

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Speaker 1: let up. I'm kind of fascinated by where you're going

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Speaker 1: to her Tell everybody what you're doing your business partner

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Speaker 1: with Jake Plumber, who's a famous quarterback in the NFL.

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Speaker 1: Tell her what tell us about your business, how you

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Speaker 1: got into it, where it helps you know, I'm only here. Well,

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Speaker 1: I got into the whole mushrooms and functional mushrooms coming

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Speaker 1: from my career from the UFC. You know, like my

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Speaker 1: So when it came time for me to close that

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Speaker 1: doing my life for transition into the next phase of

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Speaker 1: was worried about my brain. I was worried about you know,

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Speaker 1: I discovered mushrooms in general. It started off first with

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Speaker 1: the psychedelics, the psilocybin, but I ran across an interview

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Speaker 1: into functional mushrooms. Around the same time I that Jake Plumber, well,

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Speaker 1: function philocybin not legal yet, No, it's not, and functional

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Speaker 1: So this is not for me to say, hey, you

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Speaker 1: It didn't work for me, doesn't mean it can work

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Speaker 1: Like it was like one of those things that kind

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Speaker 1: have the Turkey tale, which is like gut health, and

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Speaker 1: height of your career. Absolutely absolutely, and that's something that

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Speaker 1: that's one of those lessons Jay that you know, I

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Speaker 1: really just you know, have some some some journey, some

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Speaker 1: and really started to get perspective on things I didn't

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Speaker 1: have perspective on, Like you, you're a world champion. Nobody

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Speaker 1: to love yourself? Can see that? Yeah, I see it.

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Speaker 1: I definitely see it now. I definitely see it now.

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Speaker 1: But you know, during that time, you know, I gotta

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Speaker 1: be honest, it was it was a very hard phase

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Speaker 1: because it's not only just the way you see yourself,

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Speaker 1: but it's the way that you feel other people see you,

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Speaker 1: until you over and over again about it, so you

429
00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:46,120
Speaker 1: start to believe in yourself. So there's so many benefits

430
00:19:46,200 --> 00:19:49,359
Speaker 1: with these mushrooms, and you know, with Umbo, you know,

431
00:19:49,440 --> 00:19:52,520
Speaker 1: we're really focusing on the functional mushroom because we believe

432
00:19:52,560 --> 00:19:55,480
Speaker 1: that the functional mushrooms have so much benefit, just like

433
00:19:55,600 --> 00:19:58,520
Speaker 1: the psilocybin does. And you know, think about this, there's

434
00:19:58,560 --> 00:20:03,200
Speaker 1: only ten really truly known what mushrooms can do. So

435
00:20:03,640 --> 00:20:06,159
Speaker 1: this is the whole entire kingdom that we've kind of

436
00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:08,680
Speaker 1: you know, admitted out of our diet. But once we

437
00:20:08,760 --> 00:20:11,080
Speaker 1: start to really put it back into our diet and

438
00:20:11,160 --> 00:20:14,080
Speaker 1: we start to understand what the impact these mushrooms can do.

439
00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:16,720
Speaker 1: I think it's gonna be astounded. But I've been over

440
00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:20,800
Speaker 1: the years, I've been prescribed like over thirty antidepressants and

441
00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:23,959
Speaker 1: anti anxieties and um, and they haven't worked. I had

442
00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:27,280
Speaker 1: one that worked in anti anxiety for about two weeks

443
00:20:27,320 --> 00:20:30,960
Speaker 1: and then my body just synthesizes things really fast and

444
00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:32,920
Speaker 1: then all of a sudden, it doesn't work. You know, me,

445
00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:34,960
Speaker 1: I'm like a rhino, Like man, it takes three times

446
00:20:35,040 --> 00:20:37,680
Speaker 1: the amount of things to work on me. So and

447
00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:40,480
Speaker 1: and this is to say, like man, whenever somebody I

448
00:20:40,520 --> 00:20:43,159
Speaker 1: have a friend who has an anti anxiety matter or

449
00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:46,080
Speaker 1: antidepressant that works for them, I'm I'm like jealous, Like

450
00:20:46,280 --> 00:20:48,679
Speaker 1: I'm happy for them, but I'm jealous, and like man,

451
00:20:48,760 --> 00:20:50,280
Speaker 1: I always want them to work. So I always want

452
00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:53,280
Speaker 1: people to yes, like if med's works, we like definitely

453
00:20:53,680 --> 00:20:55,840
Speaker 1: used meds, but I had to go out of the

454
00:20:55,880 --> 00:20:58,240
Speaker 1: box to try and find other ways. You know, I

455
00:20:58,320 --> 00:21:00,679
Speaker 1: knew a lot of our veterans we're using so salmon

456
00:21:00,880 --> 00:21:03,600
Speaker 1: and trying that, and and I heard more fighters us

457
00:21:03,640 --> 00:21:05,040
Speaker 1: into something like you know, I'm gonna give a shot.

458
00:21:05,440 --> 00:21:06,879
Speaker 1: And it did. It really got me to see, like

459
00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:10,359
Speaker 1: you're saying I got to take a step out and

460
00:21:10,680 --> 00:21:16,480
Speaker 1: see everything from childhood UM from a different lens and

461
00:21:16,560 --> 00:21:20,159
Speaker 1: then go and use what I learned there with my

462
00:21:20,320 --> 00:21:24,280
Speaker 1: therapist moving forward. But it also it it got me

463
00:21:24,520 --> 00:21:28,320
Speaker 1: to stop beating up on myself for why was a

464
00:21:28,440 --> 00:21:31,680
Speaker 1: certain way? It got mean to understand more why it

465
00:21:31,800 --> 00:21:34,600
Speaker 1: was a certain way. Once you able to do that,

466
00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:37,320
Speaker 1: it's you that see it right and and it's nothing

467
00:21:37,400 --> 00:21:39,800
Speaker 1: that nothing to anybody needs to convince you of it.

468
00:21:40,040 --> 00:21:41,720
Speaker 1: It becomes a true north for you and a true

469
00:21:41,760 --> 00:21:44,119
Speaker 1: understanding for you. You know. One of the biggest tools

470
00:21:44,200 --> 00:21:46,399
Speaker 1: that I used that one of the medicines that I

471
00:21:46,480 --> 00:21:49,640
Speaker 1: did UM you know I've I've you know done Ayahuaska

472
00:21:49,760 --> 00:21:52,080
Speaker 1: journeys and things like that. It was a five M

473
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Speaker 1: e O d mt dyeah that the toad for me

474
00:21:55,280 --> 00:21:58,840
Speaker 1: that to me was was one that truly UM was

475
00:21:59,119 --> 00:22:03,000
Speaker 1: was the most actful for me because it truly UH

476
00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:08,399
Speaker 1: allowed me to have a perspective all myself and on

477
00:22:08,680 --> 00:22:11,959
Speaker 1: all of this around me, which I didn't even have before.

478
00:22:12,119 --> 00:22:15,960
Speaker 1: So when I came back into the physical I I

479
00:22:16,080 --> 00:22:18,159
Speaker 1: no longer seemed like the same way. It was almost

480
00:22:18,200 --> 00:22:21,480
Speaker 1: as if like did you die during your oh I died. Yeah,

481
00:22:21,560 --> 00:22:27,120
Speaker 1: I definitely, Yeah, you're not literally dying. You you think

482
00:22:27,200 --> 00:22:29,959
Speaker 1: you've died, And yeah, I didn't die, but I'll tell

483
00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:32,560
Speaker 1: you my experience. But when I had my experience, you know,

484
00:22:32,680 --> 00:22:35,320
Speaker 1: it was just kind of you know, uh it was

485
00:22:35,520 --> 00:22:38,000
Speaker 1: it was right when I was, you know, thinking about

486
00:22:38,040 --> 00:22:40,600
Speaker 1: whether I should retire or whether I should go on

487
00:22:40,840 --> 00:22:43,080
Speaker 1: with the rest of my career. So I needed some answers,

488
00:22:43,640 --> 00:22:47,760
Speaker 1: and uh, when I did this medicine, it really, um

489
00:22:48,160 --> 00:22:50,040
Speaker 1: it blew me out of my socks, like to the

490
00:22:50,119 --> 00:22:52,600
Speaker 1: point where, you know, right out the gate, I'm just like, oh,

491
00:22:53,119 --> 00:22:56,600
Speaker 1: I felt like, oh man, I killed myself. But then no,

492
00:22:56,760 --> 00:22:59,800
Speaker 1: sooner than I had that thought, I then had a

493
00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:02,399
Speaker 1: knowing this kind of tell me that you've done this

494
00:23:03,080 --> 00:23:05,159
Speaker 1: millions of times, You've done as colendars of time. This

495
00:23:05,280 --> 00:23:07,560
Speaker 1: is what you are. And then I had like this

496
00:23:07,680 --> 00:23:12,760
Speaker 1: beautiful feeling of just this connectedness and it's it's truly

497
00:23:12,840 --> 00:23:15,359
Speaker 1: something to be hold and not to be told, because

498
00:23:15,920 --> 00:23:19,000
Speaker 1: it's there's really no words for it. Right there. It's

499
00:23:19,040 --> 00:23:22,479
Speaker 1: a place where there's there's really no words that can

500
00:23:22,560 --> 00:23:27,399
Speaker 1: can truly describe the difference between you know, this reality

501
00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:30,760
Speaker 1: and a reality and which we are truly a part

502
00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:33,639
Speaker 1: of you know that that's that's that's that's part of

503
00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:36,720
Speaker 1: this collective and which connects you and I and every

504
00:23:36,920 --> 00:23:40,080
Speaker 1: single sentient and every single thing in existence altogether. It's

505
00:23:40,119 --> 00:23:42,879
Speaker 1: not legal America. You gotta go elsewhere. I've gone elsewhere.

506
00:23:43,359 --> 00:23:46,400
Speaker 1: But so my experience with d MT it's actually where

507
00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:49,440
Speaker 1: the my term the great came from. So I did this,

508
00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,280
Speaker 1: and people it's a ten minute trip, right that, that's it,

509
00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:56,640
Speaker 1: unless and some people throw up like I didn't. I'm

510
00:23:56,640 --> 00:23:59,520
Speaker 1: afraid to throw up during anything and purds because when

511
00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:01,879
Speaker 1: my love asked for a couple of years ago, you know,

512
00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:05,240
Speaker 1: and you know, and I almost died from from that.

513
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:08,560
Speaker 1: I'm just not willing to have that happened to me again.

514
00:24:08,680 --> 00:24:11,120
Speaker 1: So but what happened was like I do this trip,

515
00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:14,960
Speaker 1: and man, I go through this dark maze of this

516
00:24:15,119 --> 00:24:18,120
Speaker 1: gray this gray maze, and going through the gray maize,

517
00:24:18,119 --> 00:24:19,760
Speaker 1: going through the gray maids, going through this gray made

518
00:24:19,920 --> 00:24:21,879
Speaker 1: and all of a sudden, bom, I come in and

519
00:24:22,119 --> 00:24:24,560
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm in heaven, and I feel and

520
00:24:24,640 --> 00:24:30,000
Speaker 1: I see like the most beautiful kaleidoscope colors like you

521
00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:33,399
Speaker 1: could ever see, and I start smiling from ear to

522
00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:36,200
Speaker 1: ear like where it hurts to smile that much, and

523
00:24:36,880 --> 00:24:39,960
Speaker 1: the therapist is with me, she's giggling because of my

524
00:24:40,040 --> 00:24:43,480
Speaker 1: goofy has smile, but how much I'm smiling. And then

525
00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:46,800
Speaker 1: I started to cry and she said, what are you crying?

526
00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:49,200
Speaker 1: But I said, well, I finally felt what it was

527
00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:51,840
Speaker 1: like to be happy, and I said, this was my life.

528
00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:54,560
Speaker 1: I've been through all this gray. My whole life is

529
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:57,840
Speaker 1: that gray. And then I felt, for the first time

530
00:24:58,160 --> 00:25:01,040
Speaker 1: in my life, I felt that lou and I saw

531
00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:03,760
Speaker 1: that blue, and I felt the way I'm supposed to feel.

532
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:07,280
Speaker 1: But then I felt bad for that guy who only

533
00:25:07,359 --> 00:25:09,480
Speaker 1: gets to live in that gray. And that's why I

534
00:25:09,520 --> 00:25:13,160
Speaker 1: started crying. Yeah, that's deep, that's that's that's so deep

535
00:25:13,160 --> 00:25:15,680
Speaker 1: because when I when I came back to I was

536
00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:17,440
Speaker 1: crying as well too. You know, for me, it was

537
00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:20,000
Speaker 1: like I just couldn't believe that I forgot. I couldn't

538
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:23,360
Speaker 1: believe I forgot what what I'm true, what I truly am.

539
00:25:23,760 --> 00:25:27,920
Speaker 1: Just that realization and that understanding of just how hard

540
00:25:27,960 --> 00:25:30,960
Speaker 1: I've I've made life and I didn't really need to

541
00:25:31,040 --> 00:25:34,560
Speaker 1: make it that hard. The understanding of just of what

542
00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:37,800
Speaker 1: I am and what this truly is. It was such

543
00:25:37,880 --> 00:25:41,200
Speaker 1: a freeing thing for me that allowed me to put

544
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:43,000
Speaker 1: a lot of the fear that I had down, a

545
00:25:43,080 --> 00:25:45,480
Speaker 1: lot of the baggage that I doubt, the emotional baggage

546
00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:47,920
Speaker 1: that I had, allowed me to put it down, and

547
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,680
Speaker 1: allowed me to just um live from a different place.

548
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:53,960
Speaker 1: Like if you wanted the pression comes out, I'm gonna

549
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:56,439
Speaker 1: try it. Like I'm not gonna stop working on myself,

550
00:25:56,600 --> 00:25:58,560
Speaker 1: the same way I won't stop working on myself physically.

551
00:25:58,840 --> 00:26:01,400
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna stop work to myself. Between years. It's

552
00:26:01,480 --> 00:26:04,520
Speaker 1: easier for me for gains physically than it is between

553
00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:08,320
Speaker 1: my ears. You can really quantify the gains physically speaking,

554
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:11,520
Speaker 1: but it's really hard to quantify the gains uh mentally

555
00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 1: in between the years. And one thing that I've started

556
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:15,600
Speaker 1: to do it kind of helped me, you know, get

557
00:26:15,680 --> 00:26:17,760
Speaker 1: past it. And you know, I started to to write

558
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:20,120
Speaker 1: right down. I start to really write down and really

559
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:23,120
Speaker 1: start to to read my words out of journal Yeah.

560
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:26,000
Speaker 1: I started to journaling and that helps me out a lot,

561
00:26:26,680 --> 00:26:30,879
Speaker 1: because there's some things that you you can't tell people right,

562
00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:32,480
Speaker 1: or you don't want to tell people, or you don't

563
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:34,600
Speaker 1: know how to put it in words. You you ever

564
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:36,720
Speaker 1: really worked it out yet in your mind to really

565
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:38,320
Speaker 1: put it in words and even just come there's some

566
00:26:38,400 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 1: things you just want to keep to yourself. So fighting

567
00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:43,760
Speaker 1: and finding a way to write these things down, write

568
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,240
Speaker 1: my thoughts out, just allowing me to just kind of

569
00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:50,040
Speaker 1: have that emotional diarrhea on on paying and paper. It

570
00:26:50,119 --> 00:26:52,320
Speaker 1: has been such a healing thing for because then now

571
00:26:52,760 --> 00:26:54,680
Speaker 1: I can go back and I can read it, and

572
00:26:54,760 --> 00:26:57,320
Speaker 1: then off of reading it, I can then start to

573
00:26:58,040 --> 00:27:02,360
Speaker 1: you know, start start to have a different look at myself.

574
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:04,879
Speaker 1: I can get perspective, right, I can get perspective on

575
00:27:04,960 --> 00:27:07,480
Speaker 1: what I wrote down and think, Okay, well where was

576
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:10,080
Speaker 1: I at emotionally when I was writing it down? So

577
00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:13,280
Speaker 1: it is it has been a really good tool for

578
00:27:13,359 --> 00:27:17,080
Speaker 1: me to use to kind of get perspective on myself.

579
00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:19,720
Speaker 1: But even just kind of find some way to emotionally

580
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,880
Speaker 1: vent without having to tell somebody. I want every dude

581
00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:25,520
Speaker 1: Ansor to hear this and realize, these are two bad

582
00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:28,760
Speaker 1: motherfuckers who were talking about crying, talking about our emotions,

583
00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:32,159
Speaker 1: talking about our feelings. If we could do that, then

584
00:27:32,200 --> 00:27:35,040
Speaker 1: so could everybody else. I do want us to pave

585
00:27:35,160 --> 00:27:38,159
Speaker 1: the way for others in this way. The more dudes

586
00:27:38,240 --> 00:27:41,480
Speaker 1: could start talking about their ship, the more dudes will

587
00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:44,720
Speaker 1: not be so apt to put a revolver in their mouth.

588
00:27:45,440 --> 00:27:47,520
Speaker 1: You know that that's the problem when when we talk

589
00:27:47,560 --> 00:27:51,919
Speaker 1: about this kind of masculinity that that we've all agreed

590
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:54,720
Speaker 1: to without even agreed to in society, that you know,

591
00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:57,320
Speaker 1: we're gonna be a man that doesn't really show an

592
00:27:57,359 --> 00:28:00,520
Speaker 1: emotions and a man that you know who does emotions.

593
00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:02,520
Speaker 1: This week and all these different things that we've come

594
00:28:02,560 --> 00:28:05,680
Speaker 1: to know that really made us feel as if like

595
00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:08,760
Speaker 1: we we can't be vulnerable with ourselves. You know, it

596
00:28:08,800 --> 00:28:10,840
Speaker 1: felt like at one point in my life, like I

597
00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:12,720
Speaker 1: felt like the tear ducts just dried up, like I

598
00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:17,080
Speaker 1: just couldn't cry, and also emotionally constipated. I just I

599
00:28:17,359 --> 00:28:19,920
Speaker 1: didn't know how to feel. I didn't I really didn't

600
00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:21,440
Speaker 1: know how to feel a lot of times, and I

601
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:24,520
Speaker 1: would do things just to see if I could feel,

602
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:27,080
Speaker 1: Like you know what I'm saying, Like I I wanted

603
00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:30,119
Speaker 1: to feel something, but I really I couldn't feel anything

604
00:28:30,160 --> 00:28:33,120
Speaker 1: because I've I've stuffed those feelings, and I stuffed those

605
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:36,200
Speaker 1: feelings for so long to the point where I didn't

606
00:28:36,240 --> 00:28:38,040
Speaker 1: know how to express it anymore. I didn't know how

607
00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:41,000
Speaker 1: to let it out anymore. But when I finally was

608
00:28:41,120 --> 00:28:44,560
Speaker 1: able to let it out, I'm like, it felt so good,

609
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:46,880
Speaker 1: and it really showed me that that's where I need

610
00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:49,240
Speaker 1: to live from in order to be my best meat.

611
00:28:49,680 --> 00:28:52,719
Speaker 1: That's the place where I need to live from. Another thing,

612
00:28:52,800 --> 00:28:56,280
Speaker 1: I write about my book to get people through the

613
00:28:56,400 --> 00:29:00,240
Speaker 1: grays laughter, And there's no way I have reshot my

614
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 1: shows about him making me laugh my ass off and

615
00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:05,960
Speaker 1: you all laugh with this story. So he has this

616
00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:08,240
Speaker 1: next to a neighbor, right, it's an old Jewish man

617
00:29:08,240 --> 00:29:11,120
Speaker 1: who lives across the street in Boca, and rashot, I'm

618
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:13,600
Speaker 1: gonna let you tell the world here and let us

619
00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:18,680
Speaker 1: laugh about your first interaction with Ira across the street. Yeah.

620
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,000
Speaker 1: So when I first moved, I lived across the street

621
00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:24,719
Speaker 1: from this old guy, and it's like a retirement home

622
00:29:24,720 --> 00:29:26,240
Speaker 1: a lot of places, you know, And I lived in

623
00:29:26,320 --> 00:29:30,360
Speaker 1: this gated community. So I have a new car and

624
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:32,800
Speaker 1: I leave the drive that my garage shore open. I

625
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:35,720
Speaker 1: go in the house and my girl comes out in

626
00:29:35,760 --> 00:29:38,160
Speaker 1: the house and say, hey, there's there's some guy in

627
00:29:38,240 --> 00:29:41,520
Speaker 1: our drive in our in our garage. I'm like, wait what,

628
00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:45,400
Speaker 1: So I go and there sure is this guy looking

629
00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 1: at my car and he's like just inspecting it, and

630
00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:50,640
Speaker 1: you're just like, you know, uh, what'd she get you for?

631
00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:54,840
Speaker 1: And I was like, what do you mean, well with

632
00:29:55,040 --> 00:29:57,280
Speaker 1: with the car cost? Shot? And I was like, oh,

633
00:29:57,320 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: I told him with the price of car, no, not mad.

634
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:02,280
Speaker 1: And then he said, she looks like she goes, she

635
00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:05,360
Speaker 1: goes fast. How how fast she get her? And I

636
00:30:05,480 --> 00:30:07,360
Speaker 1: was like, I got a pretty fast. Oh you know,

637
00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 1: I probably can do a little bit better, you know,

638
00:30:09,960 --> 00:30:11,960
Speaker 1: like you should reach you and I used to, you know,

639
00:30:12,360 --> 00:30:15,280
Speaker 1: get on it. And I'm like okay. So he always

640
00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:18,640
Speaker 1: comes with this like he never leaves right the right way.

641
00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:21,680
Speaker 1: He's just like all right and just walks off. One

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Speaker 1: time he came in. I got a new chandelier. And

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Speaker 1: then he comes and he looks at the chandelier and

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Speaker 1: he's just like, wow, she's she's a beauty. You can

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Speaker 1: see my chandelier from the street. It's like you She's like, wow,

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Speaker 1: she's she's a beauty. My uh my wife, she she

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Speaker 1: likes this chandelier. I was like, oh man, that's cool.

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Speaker 1: Well thanks to you. Now, I uh, I have to

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Speaker 1: go get a new one. And he just walked off

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Speaker 1: one time. No, no, till the first time you met him, oh,

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Speaker 1: the first time, the last time, oh the first time,

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Speaker 1: the first time I met him. He comes to the

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Speaker 1: house and he says, uh, so, uh, you're the colored boxer.

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Speaker 1: And I don't even flinch at the fact that he

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Speaker 1: said color. I'm just like, I'm like, no, I don't,

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Speaker 1: I don't box, I just do I just glanced over

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Speaker 1: the color apart and then he says, M M may,

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Speaker 1: which which which M may? And I was like, well,

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Speaker 1: you know it's in the cage where you're fighting. He's like, oh, oh,

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Speaker 1: you're you're one of those guys. Huh huh. Well to

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Speaker 1: each their own, and he just walked off of neighborhood.

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