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Speaker 1: Lisa Lampinelli is not a licensed therapist or life coach.

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Speaker 1: She is a meddling advice giving yana and know it

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Speaker 1: all and her words come from her head, her heart,

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Speaker 1: and often out of her ass. This podcast should not

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Speaker 1: be misconstrued as therapy, should be taken with a huge

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Speaker 1: grain of salt for entertainment purposes only.

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Speaker 2: These You need help, You're the problems. Come on, come down,

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Speaker 2: go clab, take a pill. I think you're insane. Do

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Speaker 2: what I say? Dumb ass, listen to me. You a

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Speaker 2: bad disloyal listeners. Welcome back to Shrink This Ni Shrink

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Speaker 2: This with Lisa Lambinelli back for season two. Didn't you,

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Speaker 2: miss us? Didn't those three months.

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Speaker 3: Feel like in a dentity? Didn't it just feel like

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Speaker 3: what happened to my life? Tuesday comes around and there's

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Speaker 3: no lease. I have to listen to something else, something

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Speaker 3: that's better, more popular and well produced. Well, speaking of

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Speaker 3: well produced, guess whose producer came back with a vengeance? Yeah, sir,

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Speaker 3: Little miss Celia has survived and thrive and.

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Speaker 2: Lenarm she's wearing a bra Celia's back and Nick Scopoletti

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Speaker 2: by unpaid, untalented balld not as fat and girthy sidekick.

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Speaker 2: Look Aunck, I'm here, ladies, Nick, Where could they find

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Speaker 2: you on social You could.

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Speaker 4: Find me scopes on Instagram and TikTok and and.

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Speaker 2: Where can you find me?

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Speaker 4: You can find you on Instagram at Lisa Lampinelli.

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Speaker 2: And where can you find Celia and.

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Speaker 4: Zara shopping for new clothes? Yat high her high tits.

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Speaker 2: Now she's nailing light. So we took a little break,

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Speaker 2: and I'm telling you the half dozen emails of oh where.

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Speaker 5: Have you been?

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Speaker 2: There were a full six people who gave a shit?

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Speaker 2: Now I've named all those people in a previous podcast,

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Speaker 2: and they are actually just my friends. No one else cared.

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Speaker 2: But we came back anyway because we're contractually obligated to.

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Speaker 2: I am yes, So I have to ask you. Let's

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Speaker 2: find out an update of everyone's life that's happened in

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Speaker 2: three months. I will say nothing has changed for me,

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Speaker 2: same blue hair, same Juno's I'm back. I'm yelling the

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Speaker 2: word just kidding, and by that I mean nutrition because

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Speaker 2: when I look at the two of you, I'm like,

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Speaker 2: you two have been killing it physically. Nick, what's changed

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Speaker 2: for you? You're looking good and well? Hung dog? No

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Speaker 2: don't do not hit him up. Let him learn the

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Speaker 2: lesson that when he talks like that, he gets no reward.

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Speaker 2: Who is not a good boy? Right there, me and Celia?

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Speaker 2: We have Celia speaking of good girls. Yes, Celia is back.

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Speaker 2: Now did you fight to produce someone else instead? Did

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Speaker 2: you say like they I have three months off from them.

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Speaker 2: I'm so glad they're gone? No? Really, Yeah, I'm kind

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Speaker 2: of trying to essess if I believe you.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm telling the truth.

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Speaker 2: Do you enjoy your time even after? For those of

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Speaker 2: you don't remember the last episode that we taped back, oh,

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Speaker 2: when the hell was at September, we kind of tried

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Speaker 2: to fix Celia, grilled are a little, gave her a

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Speaker 2: hard time, but from what I think, sounded like sound advice.

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Speaker 2: So you didn't take that badly and you actually decided

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Speaker 2: to reconnect with us?

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Speaker 5: Now, yeah I did. I had a good time last season,

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Speaker 5: so I'm back.

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Speaker 2: Oh? Was it is that?

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Speaker 5: Like?

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Speaker 2: Are you squinting? Is that your tell for I really

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Speaker 2: hate it and I'm lying. I really love you, daddy

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Speaker 2: kind of thing, even though I'm mad at you. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: that's right, all right, So let's update what happened in

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Speaker 2: your life since our break. Because for those of you

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Speaker 2: who might not remember, a quick recap Celia came to us,

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Speaker 2: We're going to do a full episode called Fixing Celia.

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Speaker 2: We'd fix all her issues. She had one fight that week,

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Speaker 2: that's all we got to because she had a messy bit.

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Speaker 2: She was raised in a divorce household by wild immigrant Italians.

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Speaker 2: One's a drug addict. We're not sure which one. I'm

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Speaker 2: sure she's lying and we're like, oh, but what's really

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Speaker 2: annoying her is her friend? Okay, yeah, that's that must

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Speaker 2: be it. So did you. The friend was mad at

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Speaker 2: you because you had been diagnosed to hypochondriac, which I

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Speaker 2: fully was truthful about that. I would not be friends

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Speaker 2: I'd put them in the back seat. Your friend was

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Speaker 2: triggered by this, was annoyed with you, and it told

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Speaker 2: this very personally. You were angry, and I advised you

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Speaker 2: to calm the fuck down, assess what you love about her,

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Speaker 2: make some lists of things you adore and are grateful

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Speaker 2: Wait? What I really did all of them? No?

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Speaker 5: Okay, I didn't make the list, but I did everything else.

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Speaker 2: Okay, Which was what happened? What transpired? Well, I'll tell you.

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Speaker 2: So we did.

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Speaker 5: We did our episode, and that night Dua Lipa was

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Speaker 5: playing at Madison Square Garden. So I went, and I

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Speaker 5: I think it was the combination of just kind of

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Speaker 5: the fact that I had gone to therapy four out

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Speaker 5: the way home from the Dualipa concert, and I was like,

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Speaker 5: you know what, I was wrong? Like I was wrong

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Speaker 5: and I needed to like like, oh my god, I

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Speaker 5: cannot believe I acted like that in general, like in

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Speaker 5: the from the Dulepa concert, I was listening like cathartic music,

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Speaker 5: looking out the window, and then I wrote like long text,

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Speaker 5: just kind of putting it all out there, like reflecting

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Speaker 5: and falling on my sword. And then I had therapy

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Speaker 5: she was like, this is like what I've been trying

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Speaker 2: This isn't been funny. How it took a therapist five

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Speaker 2: days and it took me an hour. I have to say,

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Speaker 2: just to interject a commercial for myself, Lisa Lampinelli is

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Speaker 2: a terrific non certified therapist. I think you all cancel

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Speaker 2: all your appointments, go off your medication, take Thailand all

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Speaker 2: and become autistic and just listen to me. But no,

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Speaker 2: I pride myself on giving you a few hints for sure.

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Speaker 2: But also obviously I'm joking about the therapy that is

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I think it was like kind of the combination

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so I kind.

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Speaker 5: Of got the best of both, and then I figured

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Speaker 2: Oh my god. So you when she got the text

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Speaker 2: where you were like, you know, what did you say? Like,

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Speaker 2: I'm I can read it. If it's that long, I'll.

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Speaker 5: Read like the first couple of sentences.

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Speaker 2: Okay, see, here we go, just to scroll through everybody

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Speaker 2: who's yelled at her today and made her change studios.

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Speaker 2: By the way, speaking of which you leave three months. Look,

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Speaker 2: they put you in the downgraded loser studio. Gotta say

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Speaker 2: these ihearts. You know, that whole thing where you're like,

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Speaker 2: oh my god, make them miss you doesn't work because

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Speaker 2: they did not miss us, and they said go in

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Speaker 2: the little room. Everyone puts baby in a corner.

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Speaker 5: That's right.

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Speaker 2: So what I'm saying, okay, so do you find it?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm just gonna read the last sentence because it

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Speaker 5: summarizes it. Oh good, Thank you all for bearing with me.

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Speaker 5: And again I apologize for the discomfort, stress and fear

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Speaker 5: that I might have caused. All I can do is

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Speaker 5: that's my plan. I'm always here for y'all no matter what.

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Speaker 5: And I hope this doesn't drive a wedge between me

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Speaker 5: and the two of y'all.

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Speaker 2: Wow. Other than those y'alls, which I want to punch

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Speaker 4: Next speaking of have you gotten any diction in these

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Speaker 5: And I will never change it?

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Speaker 2: Okay, that's not diction. That's my language jargon. There you go.

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Speaker 2: Diction is how you speak, Yeah, it is. That's how

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Speaker 2: Look up diction, look up, send your ass up and look.

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Speaker 2: Diction means how you actually say physically a word, how

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Speaker 2: it comes out of your mouth. Y'all is jargon, and

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Speaker 2: I think, honestly, i'd love to analy sometime in the future,

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Speaker 2: that's my addiction, that's my thing I have to I

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Speaker 2: my identity as a Southerner. I'm clinging to it. That

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Speaker 2: So we'll just do that at some other point.

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Speaker 5: I don't feel that way.

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Speaker 2: Well, yeah, but didn't I make you realize? Shit, you

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Speaker 2: didn't realize last week. So maybe just say thank you,

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Speaker 2: have this help crawfish. Yeah, yell, I only know that

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Speaker 2: because I have an ex friend who is rich. Nobody

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Speaker 2: coun there's your little thing for the beginning of the show.

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Speaker 2: She would turn on that fucking accent when she thought

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Speaker 2: want to be more like, Oh, I'm so yell night

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Speaker 2: the fucking Alabama ship. No one's buying it, bitch's but anyway,

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Speaker 2: So what does diction mean?

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Speaker 4: Addiction is the choice, just like being gay. It's a

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't think that's a good definition.

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Speaker 4: Number two says the style of annunciation in speaking.

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Speaker 2: That's what I'm talking about. It's arenation. Oh right, you

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Speaker 2: can tell we haven't been behind them in three months.

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Speaker 2: We're so fucking stupid and getting I know nothing's changed

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Speaker 2: with him, but Celia, I think there's this is a

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Speaker 2: Are you happy now with how your relationship with your

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Speaker 5: Yes? I think I'm still getting used to.

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Speaker 2: Changing what needs to or needed to change.

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Speaker 5: Like like what we talked about like who I talked

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Speaker 2: Right, it's just discerning and judge. It's like who I

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I guess it's just harder because like it's my

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Speaker 2: But even if you would grow up, say if you

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Speaker 2: had three brothers and sisters and two parents, right, you

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Speaker 5: Yeah, and I got a new like specialist for my hypochondria.

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Speaker 2: I almost didn't bring them there. I sort of God,

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Speaker 5: Well, they're overthinking.

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Speaker 2: Everyone's gonna think I think, who the fuck I am.

432
00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:10,280
Speaker 2: Everyone's gonna think, oh, she has money, she had to

433
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:13,960
Speaker 2: be better than her parents. And I said, I literally

434
00:25:14,359 --> 00:25:16,680
Speaker 2: just sat there and I said, what would I say

435
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:19,440
Speaker 2: to Celia? And I did? I go, if you were

436
00:25:19,440 --> 00:25:21,960
Speaker 2: coaching someone with this problem, what would you say? And

437
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:25,200
Speaker 2: I instantly knew Nick knows this because he's seen a

438
00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:28,160
Speaker 2: show that I wrote about this. There was no one

439
00:25:28,280 --> 00:25:31,320
Speaker 2: on the fucking earth who was more stoked than I

440
00:25:31,400 --> 00:25:35,040
Speaker 2: did well except my mother. My mother was like, when

441
00:25:35,040 --> 00:25:37,080
Speaker 2: we went to see a house once that I lived in,

442
00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:40,600
Speaker 2: she grabs the waiter's hands, she said, look at this,

443
00:25:41,560 --> 00:25:45,360
Speaker 2: look at this place. And then my daughter did this,

444
00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:49,520
Speaker 2: and she did it all herself. Nobody helped her. She's

445
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:53,280
Speaker 2: self made. So I was like wait a minute, that's

446
00:25:53,280 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 2: what she'd say about this. First of all, she had

447
00:25:55,359 --> 00:25:58,720
Speaker 2: already loved how it looked. Second, she would be like,

448
00:25:58,760 --> 00:26:03,280
Speaker 2: so what, you're the big shot. Oh, you're good fucking good.

449
00:26:04,080 --> 00:26:07,359
Speaker 2: And my dad would be just from an artistic standpoint,

450
00:26:07,400 --> 00:26:10,560
Speaker 2: would have loved it because it's just so pretty. And

451
00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:12,520
Speaker 2: I even thought, then what would I say to someone

452
00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:14,040
Speaker 2: who was a coaching So I would tell them to

453
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:16,520
Speaker 2: remember that, and then I would also remember I can

454
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:19,879
Speaker 2: have written on that stone anything I want. Sure. Originally

455
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:23,040
Speaker 2: I wanted to put big dick energy on it, but

456
00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:28,080
Speaker 2: already this stone literally has big dick energy. It does

457
00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:31,080
Speaker 2: be overkilled. I just might put it on the back,

458
00:26:33,040 --> 00:26:35,640
Speaker 2: on the front, I honestly said to myself, I want

459
00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:38,720
Speaker 2: to have carved on it. The real stars are over

460
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 2: there and point because they're to my right, or they're

461
00:26:43,600 --> 00:26:45,439
Speaker 2: the real stars, and I I'm the only one who

462
00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:48,919
Speaker 2: needs to know what that means. And p s. Of

463
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:52,600
Speaker 2: course I worry. Will my cousins come and judge me?

464
00:26:53,040 --> 00:26:57,080
Speaker 2: Will you know, answer her uncle's grandparent whatever, whoever ever exists,

465
00:26:57,320 --> 00:26:59,239
Speaker 2: nieces and nephorts will be like boring. She thought she

466
00:26:59,280 --> 00:27:01,840
Speaker 2: was better than her parents. I can't control what they think.

467
00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:06,439
Speaker 2: They probably wouldn't anyway, but just me coaching myself. And

468
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:09,359
Speaker 2: again that's the self soothing through like cause at first,

469
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:11,800
Speaker 2: I swear to God, I was like, I have to

470
00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:14,440
Speaker 2: call Amy. I have to call her. No, she's at work,

471
00:27:14,480 --> 00:27:17,359
Speaker 2: but this is an emergency. I'm about to cry. I

472
00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:20,720
Speaker 2: let myself cry. And by the way, crying, as you know,

473
00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:25,879
Speaker 2: doesn't kill you. It lasted literally thirty seconds, and I

474
00:27:25,920 --> 00:27:29,359
Speaker 2: was like, oh, then my head cleared up a little,

475
00:27:29,359 --> 00:27:31,560
Speaker 2: the headache cleared up, and then I was like, coached

476
00:27:31,560 --> 00:27:33,320
Speaker 2: myself through it. So that's what I'm talking about with

477
00:27:33,359 --> 00:27:35,520
Speaker 2: the self soothing. I said, Oh, this is really great,

478
00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:38,119
Speaker 2: And then I wouldn't this be a great topic for

479
00:27:38,160 --> 00:27:41,800
Speaker 2: a podcast because how many kids out there have done

480
00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:46,240
Speaker 2: better than their parents and have guilt over it. How

481
00:27:46,280 --> 00:27:50,200
Speaker 2: many of them have parents who make them feel guilty

482
00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:52,080
Speaker 2: or they haven't lived up to what their parents wanted.

483
00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:53,320
Speaker 2: I was like, I think we got to do a

484
00:27:53,400 --> 00:27:57,720
Speaker 2: podcast on those parental expectations and how we feel when

485
00:27:57,760 --> 00:28:02,600
Speaker 2: we underdo, don't measure up or surpass them. And is

486
00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:04,840
Speaker 2: that okay? Does this make sense to you? Nick?

487
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:06,440
Speaker 4: Yeah?

488
00:28:06,560 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 5: It?

489
00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:10,080
Speaker 4: I love I love that you are you really going

490
00:28:10,119 --> 00:28:11,880
Speaker 4: to engrave that the stars are over there.

491
00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:15,320
Speaker 2: Yoh yeah, that's awesome. Yeah, because I truly feel that way,

492
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:18,040
Speaker 2: like there's no me without them.

493
00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:20,000
Speaker 4: True, you know, I think I think for that while

494
00:28:20,040 --> 00:28:22,000
Speaker 4: you were talking, I just kept thinking about like one

495
00:28:22,040 --> 00:28:24,639
Speaker 4: of my friends whenever I'm going through stuff. And this

496
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:27,119
Speaker 4: kind of goes back to what we said earlier. We

497
00:28:27,119 --> 00:28:29,720
Speaker 4: were talking to Celia about how like I feel shame

498
00:28:29,840 --> 00:28:33,960
Speaker 4: about reaching out to friends about things or if something

499
00:28:33,960 --> 00:28:36,080
Speaker 4: doesn't go I just like I feel like I'm bothering people,

500
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:42,200
Speaker 4: which like we all get that right, but knowing and

501
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:43,520
Speaker 4: one of my friends, when I'm close to who I

502
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:46,440
Speaker 4: went to, he told me he's like, dude, like if

503
00:28:46,480 --> 00:28:49,040
Speaker 4: you spend your time worrying about what other people think,

504
00:28:49,120 --> 00:28:51,719
Speaker 4: He's like, that's gonna He's like, you're not gonna get

505
00:28:51,720 --> 00:28:53,720
Speaker 4: shit done. You're just gonna be walking around looking for

506
00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:57,640
Speaker 4: approval and all this stuff. So I totally get that.

507
00:28:57,760 --> 00:29:00,600
Speaker 4: I the more the older I've gotten, the more the

508
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,680
Speaker 4: work I've done, Like I would say, even from like

509
00:29:02,720 --> 00:29:04,880
Speaker 4: two years ago or a year ago, I really cared

510
00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:07,560
Speaker 4: about what people think, and slowly it's like just really

511
00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:11,040
Speaker 4: falling away. And that just comes from doing work on shit.

512
00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:16,160
Speaker 2: I know it's all us going what they that oh cliche,

513
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:18,400
Speaker 2: what they think about me is none of my business.

514
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 2: It's hard to enact that, you know. But I mean

515
00:29:22,320 --> 00:29:27,800
Speaker 2: also like there's, first of all, even twenty four hours later,

516
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 2: this is literally less than twenty four hours later. I'm like, oh,

517
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:31,480
Speaker 2: I don't have to really like vent to this to

518
00:29:31,520 --> 00:29:33,800
Speaker 2: a friend. It's fine. I probably will mention it to

519
00:29:33,840 --> 00:29:37,040
Speaker 2: the shrink if I remember, but it felt traumatic in

520
00:29:37,120 --> 00:29:39,400
Speaker 2: the moment. But then I'm like, make some good out

521
00:29:39,440 --> 00:29:44,240
Speaker 2: of it. Do the podcast about it, you can kind of.

522
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:47,240
Speaker 2: I even think it's kind of funny. Now I didn't

523
00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:50,960
Speaker 2: fucking measure it. I literally made a mistake. I don't

524
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:55,320
Speaker 2: I don't know. Honestly, you'll probably not think it's ridiculous,

525
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:57,560
Speaker 2: but it's just because it has nothing written on it

526
00:29:57,600 --> 00:30:00,440
Speaker 2: yet or anything. It looks like this big bohemia thing.

527
00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:03,760
Speaker 2: But I'm like, you know what, and the fact that

528
00:30:04,640 --> 00:30:07,120
Speaker 2: really is saving me a lot of trouble is that

529
00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 2: it costs two thirds. So it wasn't me big shotting it.

530
00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:14,160
Speaker 2: I took a second hand gravestone, probably intended for somebody

531
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,800
Speaker 2: who never picked it up, and I just didn't want

532
00:30:16,800 --> 00:30:20,360
Speaker 2: mine to be forgotten out this whole then this whole

533
00:30:20,360 --> 00:30:24,080
Speaker 2: thing about feeling your did better than your parents or

534
00:30:24,200 --> 00:30:27,360
Speaker 2: you achieved more. The first time it really hit me

535
00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:31,160
Speaker 2: was I was doing a show at Foxwood's and they

536
00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:34,560
Speaker 2: gave me a really nice hotel suite, like a banger

537
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:38,600
Speaker 2: sweet and I walk around and I'm like, well, I

538
00:30:38,680 --> 00:30:41,480
Speaker 2: should this is great, and I started taking pictures and

539
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:44,440
Speaker 2: then I'm like, oh, why does this feel weird? I

540
00:30:44,480 --> 00:30:48,040
Speaker 2: don't know, And so I was like, oh, cause you know,

541
00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:51,560
Speaker 2: Mom and Dad would never have treated themselves to that.

542
00:30:52,320 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 2: So it's me feeling the survivor's guilt of them growing

543
00:30:55,960 --> 00:31:01,600
Speaker 2: up in the depression not treating themselves, but then going wait, wait,

544
00:31:01,800 --> 00:31:03,680
Speaker 2: like this is part of the deal. I get to

545
00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:09,360
Speaker 2: have this suite because I earned it. They wouldn't default

546
00:31:09,400 --> 00:31:11,200
Speaker 2: me for it. They'd get a kick out of the pictures.

547
00:31:11,480 --> 00:31:13,760
Speaker 2: But there is a guilt that comes with doing better.

548
00:31:14,080 --> 00:31:16,200
Speaker 2: And then the way I assuage the guilt a lot

549
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:17,880
Speaker 2: of the time was just to feel it and then

550
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:20,520
Speaker 2: be generous to them. Like I remember with the Grammys

551
00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:22,719
Speaker 2: the first time I was nominated, Oh my god, I

552
00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:26,880
Speaker 2: flew everyone out to La everyone stayed at the Ritz Carlton.

553
00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:31,400
Speaker 2: It was like where you know, oh, they could pay

554
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:34,000
Speaker 2: for nothing, so you should do that. That's how you

555
00:31:34,040 --> 00:31:36,360
Speaker 2: take care of your parents or whatever. So Nick, do

556
00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:40,240
Speaker 2: you ever have anything about like, holy shit, I gotta

557
00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:42,040
Speaker 2: I mean, you don't have that much to live up

558
00:31:42,080 --> 00:31:44,680
Speaker 2: to when it comes to your parents. If you live

559
00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:48,840
Speaker 2: past You've already lived past your mother's expiration day. So

560
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,120
Speaker 2: the bar for you is what with your dad?

561
00:31:51,240 --> 00:31:53,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean mom died at thirty two and I'm thirty seven,

562
00:31:53,880 --> 00:31:57,320
Speaker 4: so we beat that, you win. Dad's gone bankrupt twice.

563
00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:02,160
Speaker 4: He lives like an in law apartment of this person's house,

564
00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:04,080
Speaker 4: and like he's seventy five, and he works at he's

565
00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:06,040
Speaker 4: a janitor in the mornings at a senior center and

566
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:08,239
Speaker 4: works at a fast food place at night. So like

567
00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:14,120
Speaker 4: the bar's pretty low for like, for my accomplishments. But

568
00:32:14,680 --> 00:32:17,640
Speaker 4: there's little things like like my apartment I live in now,

569
00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:20,880
Speaker 4: I absolutely love, like it's a whole. It just like

570
00:32:20,960 --> 00:32:24,240
Speaker 4: makes there's times I stand in that apartment I'm like,

571
00:32:24,280 --> 00:32:26,680
Speaker 4: I can't believe I live here, Like yeah, I really,

572
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:29,320
Speaker 4: And it's like I don't have any really have nothing

573
00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:31,360
Speaker 4: to compare it to everyone around me. Every adult has

574
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:33,680
Speaker 4: blown everything. So the fact that like I even have

575
00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:35,680
Speaker 4: a four to oh one k or anything, I'm like.

576
00:32:35,680 --> 00:32:39,040
Speaker 2: Oh, so you didn't have high things to live up to.

577
00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:43,360
Speaker 2: But do you have any guilt or shame about Oh

578
00:32:43,480 --> 00:32:45,480
Speaker 2: is this making my dad feel bad? Or should I

579
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 2: just stay at because some people will keep themselves small

580
00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:51,120
Speaker 2: in order to fit in with the family system of

581
00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:52,960
Speaker 2: like I'm not rocking the boat. I'm gonna live like

582
00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:55,200
Speaker 2: a monk. It's okay if I don't spend anything.

583
00:32:55,280 --> 00:32:57,240
Speaker 4: The only thing I'm afraid of and I do have

584
00:32:57,280 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 4: these tendencies. I don't have any of that. And my

585
00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:01,640
Speaker 4: dad's not like that at all. My dad, because he's

586
00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:05,400
Speaker 4: lost so much. He he's like he comes to my apartment,

587
00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:07,320
Speaker 4: he's like this is great. Like he's like he has

588
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 4: no anything like that. And I don't have any guilt

589
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 4: at all. I think the if anything, the thing I

590
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,800
Speaker 4: do fight is that I do have the tendency to

591
00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:18,160
Speaker 4: say like fuck it and spend more money than I should.

592
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:21,440
Speaker 4: And my only fear, like my biggest fear in my twenties,

593
00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:22,880
Speaker 4: not as much now, but was like I don't want

594
00:33:22,880 --> 00:33:24,880
Speaker 4: to end up like my dad. Right that's when I

595
00:33:24,880 --> 00:33:27,920
Speaker 4: was living with him, I was like this sucks, and

596
00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:29,560
Speaker 4: like I couldn't afford to get out at the time,

597
00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:31,240
Speaker 4: and he had no money, and I was like, where

598
00:33:31,240 --> 00:33:33,080
Speaker 4: the fuck does this go? Like how does this end?

599
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:34,760
Speaker 2: Yeah? How does this generational thing?

600
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:37,200
Speaker 4: Ever, so now there's like enough of a gap where

601
00:33:37,240 --> 00:33:39,440
Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, I have school debt and some credit

602
00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:41,200
Speaker 4: card shit and whatever, and I pay for a car

603
00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:43,360
Speaker 4: and whatever. But like the fact that I could even

604
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:45,640
Speaker 4: afford things and still be able to live a life

605
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:48,280
Speaker 4: is like huge to me. I could be better, sure,

606
00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:52,360
Speaker 4: but there's for me, it's like I get scared of that,

607
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:53,680
Speaker 4: Like I don't want to turn into that.

608
00:33:54,000 --> 00:33:56,640
Speaker 2: Well, so basically what is great about this is you

609
00:33:56,680 --> 00:34:00,200
Speaker 2: have a very uncomplicated relationship with this. It's just it's

610
00:34:00,240 --> 00:34:02,480
Speaker 2: like it doesn't matter if I do better or worse

611
00:34:02,520 --> 00:34:05,400
Speaker 2: than him. It's not all muddied up by some weird

612
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:09,080
Speaker 2: guilt that you didn't earn. Because part of me was

613
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:11,279
Speaker 2: always wouldn't I have been a better person if I

614
00:34:11,280 --> 00:34:14,479
Speaker 2: could always live small, because then I'd be just like them?

615
00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:19,520
Speaker 2: And then because of my fucking Enneagram type eight personality,

616
00:34:19,560 --> 00:34:23,160
Speaker 2: which will do Anyagram pretty soon on this podcast, personality

617
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:29,080
Speaker 2: disorder because of that like boss energy I have. I

618
00:34:29,120 --> 00:34:31,680
Speaker 2: couldn't have lived at that level. That's that wasn't my

619
00:34:31,800 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 2: level to have. And my mother knew it. She was

620
00:34:33,880 --> 00:34:37,480
Speaker 2: not like suggesting, we'll stay small and just go to

621
00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:42,279
Speaker 2: you know, secretary's school, like just be you know, a

622
00:34:42,320 --> 00:34:46,880
Speaker 2: different job. My mother would not have wanted me to

623
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:50,080
Speaker 2: live in a small house. She never said live in

624
00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:52,440
Speaker 2: a big house. But she was thrilled to death and

625
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:54,360
Speaker 2: got a kick out of it. So I think, like

626
00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:57,279
Speaker 2: with this headstone, it brought up like, oh, I'm they're

627
00:34:57,320 --> 00:34:59,600
Speaker 2: still getting a kick out of it. They're still going

628
00:34:59,680 --> 00:35:02,040
Speaker 2: this is pretty cool. I remember when I played Radio

629
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 2: City and my mom I called her out in the

630
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:06,000
Speaker 2: audience and I was like, look at this cunt when

631
00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:08,279
Speaker 2: you're gonna die already. So I get the house. I

632
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:11,640
Speaker 2: always wanted the house. It's small, it's sweet. And she

633
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 2: stood up and she turns around to the whole crowd

634
00:35:15,600 --> 00:35:19,680
Speaker 2: and she's looking and waving. She loved being part of

635
00:35:19,680 --> 00:35:22,880
Speaker 2: the bigness. So the bigness of this headstone is just

636
00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:24,680
Speaker 2: another thing that I think she's part of. But I

637
00:35:24,719 --> 00:35:25,600
Speaker 2: had to work through that.

638
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:29,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, I will say that reminds me my dad. The

639
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:32,680
Speaker 4: only thing he ever liked when I started comedy, right

640
00:35:32,719 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 4: because obviously not a lot of people make it. And

641
00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:37,360
Speaker 4: when I started comedy, he would sit down and he

642
00:35:37,400 --> 00:35:38,960
Speaker 4: goes like, are you making money from this thing?

643
00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 5: Or what is this?

644
00:35:39,719 --> 00:35:40,719
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'd be like.

645
00:35:40,719 --> 00:35:43,040
Speaker 4: No, not yet, and now I do, but like obviously

646
00:35:43,080 --> 00:35:46,600
Speaker 4: not enough to live on. And you know, he would say.

647
00:35:46,600 --> 00:35:48,920
Speaker 4: He would just be like, because you know, just like

648
00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:52,040
Speaker 4: have fun with it. You don't have to become this

649
00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:54,239
Speaker 4: big person and blah blah blah. And old me would

650
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:57,400
Speaker 4: have taken it as like, what the fuck my dad

651
00:35:57,440 --> 00:35:59,800
Speaker 4: doesn't believe in me? Right, But like when your dad's

652
00:36:00,239 --> 00:36:03,560
Speaker 4: in his fast food uniform with the advisor and I'm like,

653
00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:05,239
Speaker 4: I'm making a joke, but I'm not, And he has

654
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:07,319
Speaker 4: the headset on for the drive through and he's seventy five,

655
00:36:07,320 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 4: and he's like he just he wants me to be careful.

656
00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 4: He doesn't want me to turn into that. It's not

657
00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:14,239
Speaker 4: coming from a place of like I don't think you're

658
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:16,880
Speaker 4: good or you shouldn't do this. It's not. He's just like,

659
00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:18,359
Speaker 4: just you know, you got a good job.

660
00:36:19,520 --> 00:36:21,120
Speaker 2: You got a good job, don't don't.

661
00:36:21,200 --> 00:36:23,080
Speaker 4: But and I was like, nothing's happened like we're not

662
00:36:23,160 --> 00:36:24,160
Speaker 4: leaving words, but.

663
00:36:24,120 --> 00:36:27,440
Speaker 2: I think too, like a lot of it's them stuff

664
00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:30,759
Speaker 2: they would warn themselves about, Like he would be like

665
00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:33,840
Speaker 2: a drum he's a drummer. So yeah, and also he

666
00:36:33,840 --> 00:36:37,000
Speaker 2: actually had some wisdom in knowing you can have fulfillment

667
00:36:37,080 --> 00:36:41,080
Speaker 2: from a small comedy life or a small musical life

668
00:36:41,120 --> 00:36:44,120
Speaker 2: like he did. It really isn't that much better when

669
00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:47,200
Speaker 2: you're at the top. So what's cool is that's actually

670
00:36:47,200 --> 00:36:49,160
Speaker 2: a pretty sound message.

671
00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:49,560
Speaker 6: Yeah.

672
00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:52,120
Speaker 4: No, he's the older I get, the more I'm like, oh,

673
00:36:52,120 --> 00:36:54,640
Speaker 4: he actually makes more sense. And like my dad probably

674
00:36:54,680 --> 00:36:57,319
Speaker 4: had similar to you. Obviously have success like you. But

675
00:36:57,480 --> 00:37:00,719
Speaker 4: his parents were straight out of the depression and they

676
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:03,160
Speaker 4: were real tight on money and wouldn't buy him certain

677
00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:05,360
Speaker 4: clothes and he said fuck it, and he got like

678
00:37:05,360 --> 00:37:07,360
Speaker 4: two jobs and he was big on clothes and the

679
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:09,759
Speaker 4: look and this band and blah blah blah. But that

680
00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:12,880
Speaker 4: stuck with him through life, and he overspent a certain

681
00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:15,759
Speaker 4: lifestyle because he hated how he grew up. Yep, Like

682
00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:18,440
Speaker 4: he hated that his mother and his father were so

683
00:37:18,600 --> 00:37:20,080
Speaker 4: tight and cheap, and he was like, I'm not going

684
00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:22,600
Speaker 4: to fucking be that, and he paid the price for it,

685
00:37:22,600 --> 00:37:25,759
Speaker 4: and he didn't have any control over anything, but I could.

686
00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:26,759
Speaker 4: It was like a rebellion.

687
00:37:27,000 --> 00:37:27,160
Speaker 2: Right.

688
00:37:27,840 --> 00:37:29,319
Speaker 4: The more I realized it, I'm like, oh, he just

689
00:37:29,360 --> 00:37:31,400
Speaker 4: wanted to not be like them, but he could have

690
00:37:31,440 --> 00:37:33,920
Speaker 4: at least like maybe had a safety that well.

691
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:35,880
Speaker 2: What it is basically is looking at the qualities that

692
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:39,120
Speaker 2: they had that are worth pulling forward and leaving the

693
00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:42,080
Speaker 2: rest behind, you know. So with my mother, it's just like,

694
00:37:42,719 --> 00:37:46,480
Speaker 2: I like that badass personality and the fact that she

695
00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 2: was a good saver, and but she would have never

696
00:37:49,080 --> 00:37:51,480
Speaker 2: been like he do you think you are? You too

697
00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:54,239
Speaker 2: big for your bridges? She wanted us to be too

698
00:37:54,239 --> 00:37:56,800
Speaker 2: big for our britches. She wanted us to accomplish stuff

699
00:37:56,800 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 2: without saying it. We could just get that vibe. So

700
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:03,480
Speaker 2: I'm like, I can't be ashamed of the tombstone and

701
00:38:03,520 --> 00:38:07,560
Speaker 2: the fact that it is monstrously big, and also like,

702
00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:14,040
Speaker 2: I am a celebrity, as you know, but I'm gonna

703
00:38:14,040 --> 00:38:16,759
Speaker 2: get it engraved with my real last name on it,

704
00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:19,799
Speaker 2: so it's the real person's there, you know what I mean?

705
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:33,279
Speaker 2: Maybe I should also be a the best, but other

706
00:38:33,360 --> 00:38:38,560
Speaker 2: than that, the real stars are on the right. If

707
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:41,319
Speaker 2: you have a question for us, because season two is

708
00:38:41,360 --> 00:38:45,520
Speaker 2: gonna fit in to be a banger. As they say, y'all,

709
00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:49,680
Speaker 2: season to you back to buy a buy Aye y'all,

710
00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:58,880
Speaker 2: Why keep the mic on if you say nothing interesting?

711
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:04,680
Speaker 2: Go ahead, hurry up. I read.

712
00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:08,280
Speaker 5: And the only response I got.

713
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:13,359
Speaker 2: You were correct? Okay, Nick, No, you're right, we were wrong. Okay,

714
00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:14,239
Speaker 2: go ahead.

715
00:39:14,800 --> 00:39:14,880
Speaker 5: No.

716
00:39:15,239 --> 00:39:18,160
Speaker 2: I think your words were fantastic. And I think that

717
00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:22,479
Speaker 2: is a very astute and knowledgeable thing and a nice

718
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:26,880
Speaker 2: chance you took just now correcting us and bringing to

719
00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:31,279
Speaker 2: attention what you need. I think that is terrific. I

720
00:39:31,320 --> 00:39:34,200
Speaker 2: think it shows a lot of growth and balls and guts,

721
00:39:34,640 --> 00:39:39,200
Speaker 2: and I say to you, thank you for trusting us

722
00:39:39,239 --> 00:39:42,080
Speaker 2: with that. Now. The text was great. I would love

723
00:39:42,160 --> 00:39:44,560
Speaker 2: to see the whole thing if you would at some point.

724
00:39:44,719 --> 00:39:47,600
Speaker 2: But I'm very proud of you. But don't say y'all anymore.

725
00:39:47,640 --> 00:39:52,840
Speaker 2: I'm not no Mike off. Pretend you're myself, because I

726
00:39:52,840 --> 00:39:55,160
Speaker 2: will not hear y'all out of your fucking mouth Everget no,

727
00:39:57,400 --> 00:40:00,520
Speaker 2: stop it, you have control. Stop with the I can't

728
00:40:00,520 --> 00:40:03,200
Speaker 2: help it. We had my conversation and broke me. We

729
00:40:03,239 --> 00:40:05,359
Speaker 2: had a y'all conversation and broke me. It's not gonna

730
00:40:05,360 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 2: break you to stop saying y'all shut the fuck up

731
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:12,520
Speaker 2: neck first letter, honestly good jobs and no, no, no,

732
00:40:12,520 --> 00:40:15,520
Speaker 2: no exaggeration. I'm very proud of you, Okay, Nick. The

733
00:40:15,560 --> 00:40:17,919
Speaker 2: person I'm less proud of is you, So please give

734
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:18,520
Speaker 2: us a letter.

735
00:40:18,960 --> 00:40:21,960
Speaker 4: Dear Lisa, shut up, Celia, don't jump on the band.

736
00:40:23,280 --> 00:40:25,920
Speaker 4: Kill you, all right, Dear Lisa. My father and my

737
00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:30,040
Speaker 4: grandfather were both lawyers who went to Yale. My older

738
00:40:30,040 --> 00:40:32,680
Speaker 4: brother followed in their footsteps, but not me. I fucked

739
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:33,360
Speaker 4: around in school, I.

740
00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:34,600
Speaker 2: Got into trouble with drugs.

741
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:40,320
Speaker 4: I ended up graduating from Central Connecticut State University.

742
00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:42,680
Speaker 2: Go Blue Devils, bitch.

743
00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:46,640
Speaker 4: And now I'm a hairstylist. Oh my mom was a hairstylist.

744
00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:48,920
Speaker 2: But you know, no shade to hairstylists. We would be

745
00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:50,600
Speaker 2: nowhere without them, at least me and Celia.

746
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:56,600
Speaker 4: You don't need shiites all right. Most days I like

747
00:40:56,640 --> 00:40:58,440
Speaker 4: what I do, but when I get together with my family,

748
00:40:58,480 --> 00:41:01,120
Speaker 4: I always feel like such a loser. I go to therapy,

749
00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:03,200
Speaker 4: but I still have some shame by my profession. Do

750
00:41:03,239 --> 00:41:06,799
Speaker 4: you think shame will always be there? And if not,

751
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:09,800
Speaker 4: how do I shake it? Thanks Ron, from.

752
00:41:11,360 --> 00:41:14,239
Speaker 2: God, there's so much for Ron to be ashamed of

753
00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:17,200
Speaker 2: you're a male hair dresser. I mean, first of all,

754
00:41:17,360 --> 00:41:21,000
Speaker 2: the gay shame alone. Yeah, second the living in the

755
00:41:21,040 --> 00:41:24,560
Speaker 2: an Sonia, Connecticut shame but honeside joke. Neither one of

756
00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:27,879
Speaker 2: those is shameful. Here's what I like about Ron. He's

757
00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:33,319
Speaker 2: living his truth, which is a fag hairstylist. And you know,

758
00:41:33,520 --> 00:41:36,400
Speaker 2: I know a fag hairstylist is one of my favorite people,

759
00:41:36,760 --> 00:41:41,160
Speaker 2: my very good friend Anthony's husband David Thriving business. This

760
00:41:41,239 --> 00:41:44,359
Speaker 2: is what people don't understand about hairstylists. They have a

761
00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:47,080
Speaker 2: very difficult skill that none of us in this studio

762
00:41:47,120 --> 00:41:51,440
Speaker 2: could do. They are professionals. They get to be creative

763
00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:55,279
Speaker 2: and ps. They own businesses a lot of the time,

764
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:58,839
Speaker 2: so basically, you are your own boss. You can make

765
00:41:58,880 --> 00:42:01,000
Speaker 2: the coffee in the morning, people out of the shop

766
00:42:01,080 --> 00:42:03,680
Speaker 2: until you want them to come the fuck in. So Ron,

767
00:42:03,800 --> 00:42:06,240
Speaker 2: I'm proud of him for doing his thing. The problem

768
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:10,800
Speaker 2: is he says he has shame about it. So somewhere

769
00:42:10,800 --> 00:42:13,920
Speaker 2: along the lines he got the message, which obviously, with

770
00:42:14,000 --> 00:42:18,760
Speaker 2: the father and grandfather being Yale educated lawyers, you're gonna

771
00:42:18,760 --> 00:42:23,520
Speaker 2: get somehow from even if it wasn't your parents, from

772
00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:27,520
Speaker 2: the culture at large that you should be doing more.

773
00:42:27,840 --> 00:42:31,759
Speaker 2: You should have a better education. You should because you

774
00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:37,040
Speaker 2: had the advantages. I also think he has shame about

775
00:42:37,520 --> 00:42:41,840
Speaker 2: effing up his college because he says he fucked around

776
00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:45,239
Speaker 2: in school, got in trouble with drugs. You have to

777
00:42:45,360 --> 00:42:50,000
Speaker 2: work on shaking loose that shame because guess what, we

778
00:42:50,200 --> 00:42:53,600
Speaker 2: all fucked around at some point in our lives and

779
00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:57,520
Speaker 2: screwed up. He's still alive. If you had really fucked

780
00:42:57,600 --> 00:43:00,440
Speaker 2: up with drugs, he wouldn't be alive right now. So

781
00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:02,160
Speaker 2: the fact is, if he goes to some kind of

782
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:06,240
Speaker 2: therapy figures out that there was nothing wrong with experimenting drugs,

783
00:43:06,280 --> 00:43:08,600
Speaker 2: he's fine. He has enough skill and talent to make

784
00:43:08,600 --> 00:43:11,600
Speaker 2: a great living and it's something that's a noble profession.

785
00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:14,960
Speaker 2: Then maybe he could work on that internalized shame and

786
00:43:14,960 --> 00:43:17,399
Speaker 2: shake it. Because to show up at a family thing

787
00:43:17,480 --> 00:43:20,799
Speaker 2: and feel that I don't envy that for him none

788
00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:21,120
Speaker 2: at all.

789
00:43:21,200 --> 00:43:22,719
Speaker 4: Luckily, my family's are retarded.

790
00:43:24,960 --> 00:43:27,200
Speaker 2: I don't think we're allowed to say that word anymore.

791
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:30,839
Speaker 2: Care shut up. You reclaimed it because you are one.

792
00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:33,480
Speaker 2: That's exactly I could say it. But I mean, it

793
00:43:33,560 --> 00:43:36,520
Speaker 2: is sad when somebody has like a job that anyone

794
00:43:36,520 --> 00:43:39,200
Speaker 2: else would I actually would rather listen to him talk

795
00:43:39,239 --> 00:43:42,640
Speaker 2: about his clients and about hair styling, then lawyer talking

796
00:43:42,680 --> 00:43:44,880
Speaker 2: about the dumb shit they do at Yale.

797
00:43:45,120 --> 00:43:47,120
Speaker 4: You know yeah, I think you just you just need

798
00:43:47,160 --> 00:43:49,520
Speaker 4: to like it. Stop caring what people think. Man, I

799
00:43:49,920 --> 00:43:52,800
Speaker 4: like he said, he feels like he's a loser.

800
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:58,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's that's that's shame, loser comes from. Shame

801
00:43:58,320 --> 00:44:00,840
Speaker 2: actually is different from guilt. Guilt, as we know, is

802
00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 2: if you did something wrong. So see how when Celia

803
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:07,200
Speaker 2: read the text and I didn't address anything other than

804
00:44:07,239 --> 00:44:10,799
Speaker 2: the y'all, I did something wrong. So instead of me

805
00:44:10,880 --> 00:44:12,799
Speaker 2: feeling guilty about it, I would have felt guilty if

806
00:44:12,840 --> 00:44:16,120
Speaker 2: I went home and remembered it. We corrected it. So, yes,

807
00:44:16,160 --> 00:44:19,200
Speaker 2: I did something wrong. I apologize and corrected it. Shame

808
00:44:19,360 --> 00:44:22,160
Speaker 2: is different from guilt because it tells you it's so

809
00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:26,160
Speaker 2: deeply entrenched from whatever society's telling you, or your folks

810
00:44:26,239 --> 00:44:30,160
Speaker 2: or your ancestry that you are wrong, not that you

811
00:44:30,280 --> 00:44:33,440
Speaker 2: did something wrong, that you are wrong. You're broken. So

812
00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:39,240
Speaker 2: poor Ron homosexual hairdresser who earns his own shop on drugs,

813
00:44:39,280 --> 00:44:44,000
Speaker 2: still I'm imagining it feels there's something broken about him

814
00:44:44,040 --> 00:44:46,480
Speaker 2: and that's worth a deep dive, because boy, once you

815
00:44:46,520 --> 00:44:49,319
Speaker 2: could shed that, Like, I know I do things wrong

816
00:44:49,400 --> 00:44:53,040
Speaker 2: all the time, but I know I'm not broken. And

817
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:55,040
Speaker 2: that's a sad way to go through life.

818
00:44:55,480 --> 00:44:57,480
Speaker 4: Yeah, like I said, it's just I think it's just

819
00:44:57,520 --> 00:45:00,280
Speaker 4: all in his head. Like I guarantee his Fai family

820
00:45:00,360 --> 00:45:02,359
Speaker 4: doesn't think that way or feel that way at all.

821
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:06,799
Speaker 2: But it's not the point because again, cut hips mic off. No, no, no,

822
00:45:07,120 --> 00:45:09,400
Speaker 2: they don't know for the moment, maybe they do. The

823
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:12,480
Speaker 2: whole thing is to be able to withstand the is

824
00:45:12,520 --> 00:45:15,360
Speaker 2: ane and dealing with you alive and you just have

825
00:45:15,520 --> 00:45:17,880
Speaker 2: no shame about it once you've unearthed and worked on

826
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:21,799
Speaker 2: the shame you and it is trauma therapy. That would

827
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:25,440
Speaker 2: be trauma therapy, that'd be deep somatic stuff. You're not

828
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:27,640
Speaker 2: gonna talk your way out of this one. This isn't

829
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:30,279
Speaker 2: talking to a therapist. This is really feeling it and

830
00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:32,520
Speaker 2: getting it in your body that there's nothing wrong with

831
00:45:32,600 --> 00:45:36,160
Speaker 2: you. You're not broken as a person. Once you do that,

832
00:45:36,239 --> 00:45:39,080
Speaker 2: somebody could say your job looks like it sucks, and

833
00:45:39,120 --> 00:45:41,760
Speaker 2: you could be like, that's fine. You just want everything

834
00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:44,440
Speaker 2: to sort of be like it's fine, Like I should

835
00:45:44,520 --> 00:45:48,960
Speaker 2: be able to sell six tickets to some live taping

836
00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:51,279
Speaker 2: or whatever and be like it's it's fine. Those six

837
00:45:51,320 --> 00:45:53,359
Speaker 2: people are the ones who needed to show up, right,

838
00:45:53,560 --> 00:45:56,239
Speaker 2: because that's without shame. But you have to work on that,

839
00:45:56,280 --> 00:46:00,319
Speaker 2: so Ron, I wish you luck girl, have more shame

840
00:46:00,360 --> 00:46:03,960
Speaker 2: about the gay stuff though. Yeah, that's a real brokenness, okay.

841
00:46:04,040 --> 00:46:05,960
Speaker 2: Next one, speaking at homoes.

842
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:10,320
Speaker 4: Speaking of homos. Dear Lisa, my mom is an extremely

843
00:46:10,360 --> 00:46:11,480
Speaker 4: successful novelist.

844
00:46:11,600 --> 00:46:18,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, I know grammar, I know diction. I know y'all's diction,

845
00:46:19,000 --> 00:46:20,880
Speaker 2: know y'all dition, y'all.

846
00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:27,440
Speaker 4: Dicky, my mom's extremely saysible novelist. And I am also

847
00:46:27,440 --> 00:46:29,920
Speaker 4: a writer, but have yet to publish my first book.

848
00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:32,200
Speaker 4: Sometimes I feel like I should quit, since I'll never

849
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:32,960
Speaker 4: be as good.

850
00:46:32,760 --> 00:46:33,200
Speaker 2: As she is.

851
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:36,840
Speaker 4: Jesus Christ, do you think I should give myself a

852
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:39,160
Speaker 4: deadline to publish and if it doesn't happen, move on

853
00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:42,080
Speaker 4: to something else. I'm thirty two and feel completely lost.

854
00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:44,480
Speaker 4: Thanks Whitney from Berkeley, California.

855
00:46:44,680 --> 00:46:52,440
Speaker 2: I mean, the fact is honestly not but suicide. Now

856
00:46:52,560 --> 00:46:55,080
Speaker 2: here's the thing that is very tough, like when you

857
00:46:55,120 --> 00:46:57,880
Speaker 2: pick a profession that a parent has excelled in, Like

858
00:46:57,920 --> 00:47:01,239
Speaker 2: I always felt sorry for Meryl Streeps to because you're

859
00:47:01,239 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 2: talking about the greatest actress people. Some say whoever has

860
00:47:05,040 --> 00:47:08,279
Speaker 2: ever lived, she can do it all. And she's got

861
00:47:08,320 --> 00:47:12,240
Speaker 2: those three daughters. Oh look at this, the one sticks.

862
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:16,040
Speaker 2: There's a bunch. They're very successful by any standard. They're

863
00:47:16,080 --> 00:47:18,520
Speaker 2: not by a Meryl Streep standard, because no one ever

864
00:47:18,600 --> 00:47:21,640
Speaker 2: will be. But that one ends up on Gilded Age.

865
00:47:22,120 --> 00:47:25,000
Speaker 2: She plays the Bamlax Marion, who are supposed to think

866
00:47:25,040 --> 00:47:26,600
Speaker 2: is hotter than she is. I'm not buying it. It

867
00:47:26,640 --> 00:47:30,920
Speaker 2: doesn't matter. I will say that is a very tough

868
00:47:30,960 --> 00:47:33,040
Speaker 2: thing to have to live up to mom or dad

869
00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:38,920
Speaker 2: and what they did. So this person has to divorce

870
00:47:39,040 --> 00:47:45,000
Speaker 2: themselves from like really caring what mom, what they're what

871
00:47:45,040 --> 00:47:48,080
Speaker 2: they're putting on it, and ask herself, do I actually

872
00:47:48,239 --> 00:47:50,800
Speaker 2: like to write? Because writing is one of those things

873
00:47:50,800 --> 00:47:54,840
Speaker 2: that it is up to No, it's up to the

874
00:47:54,880 --> 00:47:56,680
Speaker 2: stars if you're gonna make it or not. Like it

875
00:47:56,719 --> 00:48:00,400
Speaker 2: is such a crapshoot with every kind of publishing hutting

876
00:48:00,400 --> 00:48:03,239
Speaker 2: down and self publishing and who knows what's gonna go

877
00:48:03,320 --> 00:48:06,560
Speaker 2: viral where you go. I have literally no control if

878
00:48:06,600 --> 00:48:11,120
Speaker 2: I never made it, if I never made it, to

879
00:48:11,120 --> 00:48:14,359
Speaker 2: my mother's extent, or even to a small extent, would

880
00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:16,440
Speaker 2: I love it enough to do it? If the answer

881
00:48:16,520 --> 00:48:19,439
Speaker 2: is no, just don't do it. But if you love it,

882
00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:22,840
Speaker 2: that's I know it sounds woo woo, but I'm sorry.

883
00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:25,879
Speaker 2: The work is the reward. If you are sitting down

884
00:48:25,920 --> 00:48:27,600
Speaker 2: every day and you're like, oh my god, this is

885
00:48:27,680 --> 00:48:31,719
Speaker 2: so much fun, why would you even care if you're

886
00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:35,399
Speaker 2: a success, that's just an external validation that you really

887
00:48:35,480 --> 00:48:38,760
Speaker 2: don't need. I more would applaud a writer who's stuck

888
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,520
Speaker 2: with it despite lack of material success. I was like,

889
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:44,600
Speaker 2: oh my god, it just makes me happy. When I

890
00:48:44,640 --> 00:48:46,640
Speaker 2: talk to people who are like, I'm a writer and

891
00:48:46,640 --> 00:48:48,200
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh, what do you write? And they go, oh,

892
00:48:48,200 --> 00:48:49,719
Speaker 2: I do, like every day I have this thing I

893
00:48:49,719 --> 00:48:51,080
Speaker 2: do And I'm like, oh my god, I love that

894
00:48:51,120 --> 00:48:53,440
Speaker 2: you love to sit there and do that. I have

895
00:48:53,480 --> 00:48:56,000
Speaker 2: a friend who wrote a fucking mini series Get This.

896
00:48:56,080 --> 00:49:01,040
Speaker 2: I think it's like a limited series for herself because

897
00:49:01,080 --> 00:49:04,080
Speaker 2: she was in a writing class. She has meetings with

898
00:49:04,280 --> 00:49:06,840
Speaker 2: producers and things set up. But she's like, I just

899
00:49:06,920 --> 00:49:10,560
Speaker 2: loved sitting every day and writing. I'm like, what's that? Like? Like,

900
00:49:10,600 --> 00:49:13,279
Speaker 2: how cool? Is that? So? She has to take out

901
00:49:13,360 --> 00:49:17,439
Speaker 2: the moms better than me. Because also, if we quit

902
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:20,399
Speaker 2: everything because someone's better than us, none of us would

903
00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:23,279
Speaker 2: be doing anything. We would all be laying in bed.

904
00:49:23,600 --> 00:49:26,600
Speaker 2: There's a billion better and more successful comics than me.

905
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:31,160
Speaker 2: I mean five times the amount for Nick, because what's

906
00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:33,560
Speaker 2: he got to offer? Celia could say, oh, so and

907
00:49:33,560 --> 00:49:35,480
Speaker 2: so is a better producer. Why don't I just quit?

908
00:49:36,160 --> 00:49:39,799
Speaker 2: We wouldn't be doing anything. Actively. You just pursue excellence

909
00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 2: in your mind. So it might be not excellent by

910
00:49:45,160 --> 00:49:49,320
Speaker 2: mom's standards, but by yours, and you just keep doing it. Celia,

911
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:51,520
Speaker 2: does this make sense to you? And please just be

912
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:54,040
Speaker 2: nick and yell? Fuck yeah it does. No, it doesn't

913
00:49:54,040 --> 00:49:54,680
Speaker 2: make sense to you.

914
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:55,719
Speaker 5: Fuck yeah.

915
00:49:55,800 --> 00:49:58,960
Speaker 2: Do you ever compare yourself like that to where you go, Well,

916
00:49:59,000 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 2: I'm not the best in the world. Maybe I should

917
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:01,919
Speaker 2: just quit.

918
00:50:02,760 --> 00:50:03,759
Speaker 5: I don't think I should quit.

919
00:50:04,080 --> 00:50:05,000
Speaker 2: What do you think you should do?

920
00:50:05,200 --> 00:50:05,640
Speaker 5: Be better?

921
00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:08,600
Speaker 2: Okay? So she just needs to keep working on her writing.

922
00:50:08,600 --> 00:50:11,400
Speaker 2: If she indeed loves it, it makes you be better.

923
00:50:11,600 --> 00:50:14,760
Speaker 2: I remember years ago they used to say Sinbad, Remember

924
00:50:14,800 --> 00:50:17,719
Speaker 2: that comic Sinbad. When he was coming up, he had

925
00:50:17,760 --> 00:50:21,080
Speaker 2: a poster of Eddie Murphy on his bedroom wall, and

926
00:50:21,080 --> 00:50:24,240
Speaker 2: he'd look at it every day and he'd say, catching

927
00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:28,040
Speaker 2: up on you, motherfucker. So for him it was motivating

928
00:50:28,080 --> 00:50:31,800
Speaker 2: if it wasn't debilitating. So you can shift to where

929
00:50:32,239 --> 00:50:37,279
Speaker 2: that is a tool. But if you don't love the thing,

930
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:39,879
Speaker 2: you're not gonna want to do it anyway, even if

931
00:50:39,880 --> 00:50:42,960
Speaker 2: you have Mom's success or Eddie Murphy's success. Does that

932
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:43,560
Speaker 2: make sense?

933
00:50:43,880 --> 00:50:44,279
Speaker 5: It does?

934
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:48,440
Speaker 2: Hell yeah, he said, Oh Jesus Christ, I think I

935
00:50:48,520 --> 00:50:51,799
Speaker 2: make total sense. Nick. Could we have one last letter

936
00:50:51,840 --> 00:50:54,520
Speaker 2: and make it the fifth one? I like number five best.

937
00:50:54,560 --> 00:50:57,239
Speaker 2: It's on the next patge darre Lathom.

938
00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:01,480
Speaker 4: Okay, dear Lisa. Two brothers work for my father and

939
00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:04,440
Speaker 4: the family business, a textile company.

940
00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:09,759
Speaker 2: Three letters right there, j W. Yeah.

941
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:12,480
Speaker 4: My dad tried to get me to do the same thing.

942
00:51:12,520 --> 00:51:14,200
Speaker 4: But I can never sit in an office all day,

943
00:51:14,320 --> 00:51:19,440
Speaker 4: correct Now. I'm a personal a flexible schedule.

944
00:51:19,000 --> 00:51:21,360
Speaker 2: Of love, life, freedom loser.

945
00:51:21,680 --> 00:51:23,879
Speaker 4: I think my brothers are resentful. I paved my own

946
00:51:23,960 --> 00:51:26,200
Speaker 4: path and I'm not depending on our father like they are.

947
00:51:26,440 --> 00:51:28,440
Speaker 4: Makes sense. That's for my dad.

948
00:51:28,600 --> 00:51:30,000
Speaker 7: He barely talks to me anymore.

949
00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:30,399
Speaker 2: Boy.

950
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:32,000
Speaker 4: It's sad to me that he's written me off just

951
00:51:32,000 --> 00:51:34,439
Speaker 4: because I didn't conform or maybe thinks I rejected his work.

952
00:51:35,200 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 4: He's a cold businessman, so discussing with the discussing this

953
00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:41,120
Speaker 4: with him is not realistic. What do you think I

954
00:51:41,120 --> 00:51:43,200
Speaker 4: should do in Oakland?

955
00:51:43,600 --> 00:51:49,960
Speaker 2: You, Randy, should take somebody that free time between training, saysions.

956
00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:51,880
Speaker 7: Did jerk off on your fatish pictures?

957
00:51:52,000 --> 00:51:56,080
Speaker 4: Yeahtiles?

958
00:51:56,280 --> 00:51:59,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, there's a techtile for ye.

959
00:52:00,480 --> 00:52:05,680
Speaker 7: How that feeling, y'all? Here's here's what I have to say.

960
00:52:05,920 --> 00:52:07,000
Speaker 7: These Jews are tough.

961
00:52:08,480 --> 00:52:13,160
Speaker 2: I have to say, Randy, you got it. Get your

962
00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:18,799
Speaker 2: head around. You built the life you want. You are

963
00:52:19,200 --> 00:52:25,200
Speaker 2: volunteering for this suffering because you're torturing yourself. You don't

964
00:52:25,480 --> 00:52:28,239
Speaker 2: know if your dad's bad because he barely talks to

965
00:52:28,280 --> 00:52:28,960
Speaker 2: you anymore.

966
00:52:29,840 --> 00:52:32,359
Speaker 7: You say, maybe he thinks I were agistered in his work.

967
00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:34,879
Speaker 2: Well, how about you like just guess a billion things

968
00:52:34,920 --> 00:52:36,799
Speaker 2: about your dad, refuse to talk about him, and then

969
00:52:36,840 --> 00:52:37,280
Speaker 2: just suffer.

970
00:52:37,600 --> 00:52:38,239
Speaker 7: You can do that.

971
00:52:38,480 --> 00:52:41,040
Speaker 2: Keep doing that, Randy, and then you're gonna be mad

972
00:52:41,239 --> 00:52:43,319
Speaker 2: and your clients and you're gonna drop a weight on

973
00:52:43,320 --> 00:52:45,360
Speaker 2: their fucking foot and you're gonna end up with a

974
00:52:45,400 --> 00:52:47,960
Speaker 2: broken back and they're gonna be a dentist to not

975
00:52:48,040 --> 00:52:51,640
Speaker 2: be able to operate on their their their their clients,

976
00:52:51,800 --> 00:52:52,280
Speaker 2: and then.

977
00:52:52,360 --> 00:52:53,640
Speaker 7: You are to blame for Celia.

978
00:52:53,680 --> 00:52:53,879
Speaker 4: Shit.

979
00:52:55,440 --> 00:52:55,960
Speaker 2: If you don't.

980
00:52:55,880 --> 00:52:57,560
Speaker 8: Understand any of that, just go back and listen to

981
00:52:57,600 --> 00:53:00,000
Speaker 8: the previously you.

982
00:53:00,760 --> 00:53:02,960
Speaker 2: Let's say to yourself, let me either talk to my

983
00:53:03,080 --> 00:53:06,400
Speaker 2: dad or find some peace around my decision.

984
00:53:06,640 --> 00:53:09,480
Speaker 7: There's something in him that feels worthless in a.

985
00:53:09,719 --> 00:53:15,080
Speaker 2: Way because he didn't do this path, because you can't.

986
00:53:15,760 --> 00:53:18,759
Speaker 2: Everybody isn't built for the nine to five. Everybody isn't

987
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:21,560
Speaker 2: built for the structure of something like that. There's a

988
00:53:21,640 --> 00:53:25,960
Speaker 2: safety in it. Sure, that's admirable. Wasn't your path, dude,

989
00:53:26,520 --> 00:53:27,399
Speaker 2: But try to talk.

990
00:53:27,520 --> 00:53:28,160
Speaker 7: I don't like this.

991
00:53:28,440 --> 00:53:31,920
Speaker 2: He's a cold, business like man, so discussing with him

992
00:53:31,960 --> 00:53:34,759
Speaker 2: is not realistic. But at least you can talk about

993
00:53:34,760 --> 00:53:37,400
Speaker 2: it to a shrink. Get it out there. There's this

994
00:53:37,520 --> 00:53:42,040
Speaker 2: new therapy called wait, let me get it right, systemic

995
00:53:42,160 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 2: constellation therapy, which is where you actually talk to these people.

996
00:53:48,239 --> 00:53:49,360
Speaker 7: There's group therapy.

997
00:53:49,719 --> 00:53:53,040
Speaker 2: Someone will play the dad, someone plays mom, someone plays ancestors,

998
00:53:53,040 --> 00:53:57,680
Speaker 2: et cetera. Super powerful and you can actually, even if

999
00:53:57,680 --> 00:54:00,600
Speaker 2: someone's dead, converse with them and come to some realization.

1000
00:54:00,760 --> 00:54:03,600
Speaker 2: It's not magic. It takes a bunch of sessions. But

1001
00:54:03,640 --> 00:54:06,920
Speaker 2: it's fairly quick. It's not like years and years, and

1002
00:54:07,000 --> 00:54:07,560
Speaker 2: you can.

1003
00:54:07,440 --> 00:54:09,439
Speaker 7: At least find peace within you.

1004
00:54:09,640 --> 00:54:12,120
Speaker 2: If you think dad isn't going to give you any peace,

1005
00:54:12,160 --> 00:54:13,480
Speaker 2: it's not his job to do it.

1006
00:54:13,760 --> 00:54:15,680
Speaker 8: This is your struggle, and you'll be a better person

1007
00:54:15,719 --> 00:54:18,520
Speaker 8: if you learn through some decent therapy.

1008
00:54:19,640 --> 00:54:21,759
Speaker 7: That makes sense, Nick, you're staring at me with like

1009
00:54:22,000 --> 00:54:23,440
Speaker 7: not going.

1010
00:54:25,840 --> 00:54:29,279
Speaker 4: No, I thought more was coming. Hell, yeah, no, I

1011
00:54:29,560 --> 00:54:33,359
Speaker 4: was just kidding. Yeah, I mean, listen, I'm a fat

1012
00:54:33,400 --> 00:54:34,560
Speaker 4: personal trainer. Think about that.

1013
00:54:34,640 --> 00:54:37,920
Speaker 7: Shame you gotta shame around that.

1014
00:54:38,400 --> 00:54:42,560
Speaker 4: I don't actually, but yeah, poor Randy, Yeah, dude, like

1015
00:54:42,640 --> 00:54:46,000
Speaker 4: she said, fucking figure it out, bitch, talk to your dad.

1016
00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:49,280
Speaker 7: Therapy shut him off?

1017
00:54:50,840 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 5: Right?

1018
00:54:51,120 --> 00:54:57,080
Speaker 2: Nothing right, Celia, nothing, He had not add to the thought.

1019
00:54:57,120 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 7: I wasn't ready to start talking yet. Yeah, we had

1020
00:54:59,280 --> 00:55:00,000
Speaker 7: to talk on the way.

1021
00:55:00,120 --> 00:55:03,919
Speaker 2: Hearing me and this idiots every single time we drive

1022
00:55:04,000 --> 00:55:06,239
Speaker 2: to the city, he goes so mad.

1023
00:55:07,120 --> 00:55:13,120
Speaker 7: Well every time, shut it up. I'll fucking right will

1024
00:55:13,200 --> 00:55:19,360
Speaker 7: charge me every time. So to listen, what's.

1025
00:55:19,120 --> 00:55:23,360
Speaker 2: Your favorite what's your favorite neighborhood?

1026
00:55:23,360 --> 00:55:23,799
Speaker 7: You lived in?

1027
00:55:24,400 --> 00:55:24,640
Speaker 2: What?

1028
00:55:25,080 --> 00:55:27,680
Speaker 7: But how many times I've told him?

1029
00:55:28,320 --> 00:55:34,760
Speaker 2: Fifteen? Upper West Side? So I said, you said upper easy, Laura.

1030
00:55:35,000 --> 00:55:36,960
Speaker 2: So you don't listen, you know, I'll tell you exactly

1031
00:55:36,960 --> 00:55:39,120
Speaker 2: what does he checks out? My mother used to do

1032
00:55:39,160 --> 00:55:41,200
Speaker 2: this too. I got used to it, so I can

1033
00:55:41,239 --> 00:55:43,040
Speaker 2: read it and I cannot get mad at it. I'm

1034
00:55:43,080 --> 00:55:44,840
Speaker 2: joking about now, but it's like I get it.

1035
00:55:45,560 --> 00:55:45,960
Speaker 6: Literally.

1036
00:55:46,160 --> 00:55:49,759
Speaker 2: My mother was always onto the next question before she

1037
00:55:49,920 --> 00:55:54,000
Speaker 2: listened to that answer. So it's just they're uncomfortable as humans.

1038
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:58,560
Speaker 2: They're obviously very not well evolved. Yeah, so that's what

1039
00:55:59,680 --> 00:56:02,719
Speaker 2: this letter where I was talking. I was talking about

1040
00:56:02,719 --> 00:56:05,640
Speaker 2: this new fucking therapy that he should probably be and

1041
00:56:05,719 --> 00:56:07,640
Speaker 2: to be honest, then he had a figure it's too

1042
00:56:07,680 --> 00:56:09,680
Speaker 2: close to the bony has to check out, and he

1043
00:56:09,800 --> 00:56:10,760
Speaker 2: just sat there staring.

1044
00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:13,480
Speaker 7: Then he pretended that it was because.

1045
00:56:13,239 --> 00:56:15,880
Speaker 2: Oh, she's not done talking yet, and then all of

1046
00:56:15,920 --> 00:56:17,919
Speaker 2: a sudden comes out with his fuck yet.

1047
00:56:18,280 --> 00:56:20,440
Speaker 7: So what's the take to where you're just gonna be

1048
00:56:20,560 --> 00:56:23,160
Speaker 7: nick and you're just gonna do the fuck yet? Don't

1049
00:56:23,200 --> 00:56:27,520
Speaker 7: dishonor No? I thought you had more to say.

1050
00:56:28,680 --> 00:56:30,640
Speaker 4: Wait, can I ask a question about this therapy?

1051
00:56:32,120 --> 00:56:33,120
Speaker 7: You can use it?

1052
00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:33,400
Speaker 3: No?

1053
00:56:33,400 --> 00:56:36,600
Speaker 7: No, no, go ahead? Did it with me? So what

1054
00:56:36,600 --> 00:56:37,800
Speaker 7: do you so?

1055
00:56:37,800 --> 00:56:40,480
Speaker 4: So you're pretending to talk to people in your family.

1056
00:56:40,600 --> 00:56:41,360
Speaker 7: Is that what's happening.

1057
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:44,560
Speaker 2: It's literally like if you're seeing what comes up around

1058
00:56:44,600 --> 00:56:47,919
Speaker 2: this issue with them, so you it could be as

1059
00:56:47,960 --> 00:56:50,319
Speaker 2: literal as starting with dad.

1060
00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:51,880
Speaker 8: I really feel like blah.

1061
00:56:51,680 --> 00:56:56,000
Speaker 2: Blah blahem too like ancestors and how it's a lot

1062
00:56:56,040 --> 00:56:58,840
Speaker 2: of this is intergenerational trauma. A lot of it is

1063
00:56:58,880 --> 00:57:02,000
Speaker 2: that the grandfather, they're expected that, and then the great grandfather,

1064
00:57:02,080 --> 00:57:05,200
Speaker 2: and so you have to really kind of get where

1065
00:57:05,600 --> 00:57:07,600
Speaker 2: everyone's on your team in that room.

1066
00:57:08,000 --> 00:57:09,960
Speaker 7: And when Brad and I did it about.

1067
00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:12,959
Speaker 2: An issue I had, I just felt like by the time,

1068
00:57:13,200 --> 00:57:15,560
Speaker 2: I mean, it sounds magical, but I don't care because

1069
00:57:15,560 --> 00:57:20,000
Speaker 2: I know what works. Whatever was bothering me for that session,

1070
00:57:20,320 --> 00:57:22,160
Speaker 2: that was leading up to that session and been bothering

1071
00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:26,200
Speaker 2: me for years and it still exists, but the charge

1072
00:57:26,280 --> 00:57:26,680
Speaker 2: is gone.

1073
00:57:27,160 --> 00:57:29,200
Speaker 8: I no longer have shame about it. I no longer

1074
00:57:29,280 --> 00:57:31,480
Speaker 8: have guilt about it. I no longer have like, oh,

1075
00:57:31,520 --> 00:57:32,280
Speaker 8: I'm a loser.

1076
00:57:32,840 --> 00:57:35,280
Speaker 2: So a lot of this loser stuff comes from what

1077
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Speaker 2: the other generations felt about themselves, and then we take

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Speaker 2: it on.

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Speaker 7: So it's really powerful. People should look it up.

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Speaker 2: Won't because the only one who seems to do what

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Speaker 2: I say is Celia, and that is why she's my favorite. Yoah,

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Speaker 2: I don't.

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Speaker 7: Care, dude, I don't know.

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Speaker 4: Why would you say the therapy and conversing with different

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Speaker 4: family members.

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Speaker 7: I thought it was.

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Speaker 4: Like people were there like actor like people pretending.

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Speaker 7: The other people are there.

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Speaker 2: Group there. Yes, it's not like it's jokes, because he

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Speaker 2: said I don't do it in groups.

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Speaker 7: I do it solo.

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Speaker 8: Would you be willing to do that just to see

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Speaker 8: if it worked at all?

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Speaker 7: Yes, but people are pretending to be They don't act like.

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Speaker 8: I know, but I think it's just like pretend I'm

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Speaker 8: your mom. How would you speak to me?

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Speaker 7: What?

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Speaker 2: What?

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Speaker 8: What do you What do you need to tell me

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Speaker 8: that's coming up for you right now?

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Speaker 7: What do you remember?

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Speaker 5: And?

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Speaker 7: Boy? Did it's freaking I know it sounds who whoop, dude,

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Speaker 7: it is powerful. It freaks me out.

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Speaker 4: But I should.

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Speaker 2: You should probably do a lot of things, and none

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Speaker 2: of them are things you're gonna do.

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Speaker 7: The only one who seems to listen is Celia, and

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Speaker 7: that is why on this.

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Speaker 2: First episode of season two, she gets the applause break

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Speaker 2: that she's.

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Speaker 8: Never gotten before. Looking at so does that make you happy?

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Speaker 5: Yeah?

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Speaker 8: Cute?

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Speaker 7: Yeah, that means expresses. It's like diction.

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Speaker 2: That's my this's great to be back.

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Speaker 7: Are you happy we're back with teasing two.

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Speaker 4: In the studio.

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Speaker 7: Her mother's count. It's weird when you're walk into this

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Speaker 7: particular studio.

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Speaker 2: Like Elvis is the one we usually recorded. It says

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Speaker 2: Star on it versus, but I think it's.

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Speaker 4: More my like my mother donated before she died, to

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Speaker 4: the studio. She donated her cont.

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Speaker 2: Wrapping up for a snack. Where can people find us?

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Speaker 2: What do you need to say?

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Speaker 7: What's our Let's see if you remember from last year

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Speaker 7: what you're supposed to say. Hey, guys, you're doing great.

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Speaker 4: If you guys have questions for me, especially or least

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Speaker 4: uh or Celia, she becomes more involved. You can email

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Speaker 4: us at shrink this Show at gmail dot com. That's

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Speaker 4: shrink this Show at gmail dot com. Listen to us

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Speaker 4: on your iHeartRadio app or wherever the hell you get podcasts.

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Speaker 4: Please give us a follow.

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Speaker 7: Oh please give that you know fu. Oh you're so stupid,

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Speaker 7: you know what? You forgot to say that? Thanks give them?

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Speaker 7: Thanks for listening. Sincerely, thanks for listening.

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Speaker 2: We love you. We'll see you next week.