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Speaker 1: Hey guys, It's Sammy Jay and welcome back to this

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Speaker 1: week's episode of the Let's Be Real Podcast. You guys,

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Speaker 1: do you know what's crazy? This is our season two finale.

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Speaker 1: I still can't believe that. I can't believe we've had

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Speaker 1: two seasons of Let's Be Real Podcast. It still feels

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Speaker 1: like a dream to me. I'm so grateful that you're listening,

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Speaker 1: and I'm so glad that we get to end season

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Speaker 1: two with the amazing Rachel plattin Now. You might know

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Speaker 1: her from her mega hit Byte song, but she is

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Speaker 1: one of the most inspiring and creative people I've talked to.

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Speaker 1: We talked about her new song Soldiers, which is out now,

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Speaker 1: which you should listen to. We talked about her children's

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Speaker 1: book How to Stay Creative, How to Get Out of

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Speaker 1: a Creative Red Meditation Manifestation. She may or may not

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Speaker 1: walk us through a manifestation meditation exercise. That was the mouthful. Rachel,

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much for coming on my podcast again.

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Speaker 1: I love this episode so much. Don't forget to subscribe,

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Speaker 1: and I hope you enjoy it. I am so excited

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Speaker 1: to have you all my podcast, Rachel, but you're so

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Speaker 1: welcome I've loved your music for so many years, but

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Speaker 1: just beyond your music, you are one of the very

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Speaker 1: few people that are so honest and vulnerable and authentic.

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Speaker 1: And that's the thing that I've that was a catalyst

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Speaker 1: for me starting the podcast. And you have to wait

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Speaker 1: a long time for your first hit. What was it

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Speaker 1: over thirteen years? Yeah, you had to wait a minute.

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Speaker 1: And I feel like you be here in a time

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Speaker 1: where we very much have to practice patients for the

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Speaker 1: world to get back to normal, and you know patients

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Speaker 1: better than anybody. So what advice do you have for

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Speaker 1: just patients, because I think we all need it right now.

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Speaker 1: Oh it's such a good question, And I honestly I

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Speaker 1: probably need my own advice too, because I don't really

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Speaker 1: feel like I was that patient during the time. I

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Speaker 1: just more, um, I was strong, like I could deal

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Speaker 1: with the failure and the setbacks and the rejection well.

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Speaker 1: And then I did. And I'm like a good comeback kid,

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Speaker 1: Like I'm not all enlightened and know every thing I

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Speaker 1: figured out. But one thing I can do well is quickly, um,

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Speaker 1: realign myself and like figure out again how to pick

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Speaker 1: And it's so funny because I'm teaching my toddler right

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Speaker 1: now patients and yeah, we say the word all the time,

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Speaker 1: and watching it in so many different forms in the

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Speaker 1: way that we've had to be patient this year with um,

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Speaker 1: you know, missing people and missing our normal lives and

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Speaker 1: the struggle that obviously you and I are going through,

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Speaker 1: but other people are affected even more. And there's just

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Speaker 1: so much that we're all missing, and I've had to

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Speaker 1: for the better. I mean, I know that there's benefits

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Speaker 1: my goodness, would just be And I'm doing it myself

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Speaker 1: every day A come up with a gratitude practice to

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Speaker 1: what we don't have. Like yesterday, I was feeling really

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Speaker 1: I've done so much work. I can be that loving

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Speaker 1: even give myself a hug. It sounds silly, but you know,

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Speaker 1: And in general, I think it's a beautiful lesson because

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Speaker 1: it reminds us that we have so much to give,

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Speaker 1: give in our own hearts. I think that's so true.

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Speaker 1: And I feel like we're in a time where I've

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Speaker 1: And obviously she can last maybe like realistically a minute

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Speaker 1: like it's so much pressure. So you're supposed to you

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Speaker 1: decisions are going to dictate. But the truth is emmy

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Speaker 1: at least for me, I had no idea what path

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Speaker 1: I planned it in one way. I think there are

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Speaker 1: right now, not what's going to be like my you know,

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Speaker 1: right now, you probably understand where. You know, we're applying

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Speaker 1: didn't even think about that. For you guys, that is

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Speaker 1: yourself even that like shift from like oh, this is

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Speaker 1: I've always been inquires acapella groups and I played piano

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Speaker 1: went on a really incredible trip, like a spiritual trip

429
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Speaker 1: with friends. And on that trip, I climbed this mount

430
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Speaker 1: where you go to Israel. Oh my god, I'm gonna

431
00:22:16,080 --> 00:22:21,800
Speaker 1: go with my brother for birth right, so amazing, it's

432
00:22:21,920 --> 00:22:25,040
Speaker 1: so incredible. And I climbed Mountain Assiah, which is the

433
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:27,000
Speaker 1: I hope I'm getting, I think, the trail of Tears.

434
00:22:27,040 --> 00:22:31,040
Speaker 1: And at the top of it, I had been feeling

435
00:22:31,119 --> 00:22:35,560
Speaker 1: so angry at God, like why didn't you you took

436
00:22:35,600 --> 00:22:38,080
Speaker 1: me so high? You gave me like two hits, and

437
00:22:38,119 --> 00:22:40,640
Speaker 1: then you know, albums it's sold and all the success,

438
00:22:40,680 --> 00:22:43,000
Speaker 1: and then I put out this album, this next album

439
00:22:43,040 --> 00:22:44,760
Speaker 1: that I loved so much, and it really didn't do

440
00:22:44,880 --> 00:22:47,600
Speaker 1: very well, and it was really hurt and confusing to

441
00:22:47,640 --> 00:22:50,080
Speaker 1: my ego, and I was so mad. I was like

442
00:22:50,840 --> 00:22:53,159
Speaker 1: blaming and looking around, like, whose fault is it? My

443
00:22:53,160 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 1: publist fault at all? About just becoming someone that I'm not.

444
00:22:56,359 --> 00:22:58,440
Speaker 1: I didn't get there by being that person. I got

445
00:22:58,640 --> 00:23:02,320
Speaker 1: got there by being the kind like full of light

446
00:23:02,560 --> 00:23:05,040
Speaker 1: love soul that I am. But I was turning into

447
00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:07,280
Speaker 1: this I don't know who. It was, some like crazy

448
00:23:07,600 --> 00:23:11,560
Speaker 1: answer and I and all this blame and anger, and

449
00:23:11,880 --> 00:23:14,479
Speaker 1: I climbed the mountain and at the top of the mountain,

450
00:23:15,359 --> 00:23:17,639
Speaker 1: I had friends that were so amazing and supporting me

451
00:23:17,720 --> 00:23:19,240
Speaker 1: and helping me all throughout this. And this was a

452
00:23:19,280 --> 00:23:21,679
Speaker 1: long journey of therapy and everything. But by the by

453
00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:24,399
Speaker 1: the time I got to the mount something cracked open

454
00:23:24,560 --> 00:23:28,280
Speaker 1: and I just started sobbing, and it shifted. It's talking

455
00:23:28,320 --> 00:23:31,679
Speaker 1: about what we talked about earlier. I shifted from anger

456
00:23:31,760 --> 00:23:35,800
Speaker 1: to gratitude. And I had this big, huge realization that,

457
00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:39,399
Speaker 1: oh my God, like everything in my life, this was

458
00:23:39,400 --> 00:23:42,240
Speaker 1: not happening to me. This is happening for me. If

459
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Speaker 1: I continued down this path of success at the rate

460
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Speaker 1: that I was going, I was going to become someone

461
00:23:47,720 --> 00:23:50,000
Speaker 1: that I didn't like. My family, didn't like, my friends,

462
00:23:50,040 --> 00:23:51,840
Speaker 1: didn't like. Someone I didn't want to be in the world.

463
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Speaker 1: Who cares about fame If you are not a good

464
00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:58,439
Speaker 1: kind person, none of that matters. And I was becoming

465
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Speaker 1: someone that I did not want to be. And so

466
00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,800
Speaker 1: I realized at that moment, oh my god, this was

467
00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:07,240
Speaker 1: a humongous, beautiful door shutting so that I could pause

468
00:24:07,280 --> 00:24:10,119
Speaker 1: and be still and take stock of who are you, Rachel?

469
00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:12,159
Speaker 1: What do you want? What's your true intention in this world?

470
00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:17,800
Speaker 1: And it was just like sobbing tears of gratitude. Thank you,

471
00:24:17,880 --> 00:24:20,360
Speaker 1: thank you for stopping me. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

472
00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:25,520
Speaker 1: So I did reach a point then of deep appreciation

473
00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:29,600
Speaker 1: and enoughness, and that lasted about a year and I

474
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:33,639
Speaker 1: had my daughter and it was beautiful, and then I

475
00:24:33,680 --> 00:24:37,480
Speaker 1: just put an Instagram post up about this. The stillness allowed,

476
00:24:37,520 --> 00:24:41,800
Speaker 1: and like the rest allowed that natural fire to come back,

477
00:24:42,280 --> 00:24:45,480
Speaker 1: and it then was an organic wanting more. It wasn't

478
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:47,520
Speaker 1: a needing more from an ego place. It was like,

479
00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:50,200
Speaker 1: oh wait a second, I have more to share. I

480
00:24:50,320 --> 00:24:52,640
Speaker 1: just birthed a human, I just went through a whole

481
00:24:52,720 --> 00:24:54,800
Speaker 1: dark knight of the soul. I have so much to

482
00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:57,679
Speaker 1: share with the world again, and now I want more,

483
00:24:57,720 --> 00:24:59,600
Speaker 1: but from such a place of love, like I want

484
00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:01,520
Speaker 1: to share and more because I have more love to give,

485
00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:03,159
Speaker 1: you know, like I don't need more fame. I just

486
00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,960
Speaker 1: want to share more truth and love. And that's when

487
00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:07,600
Speaker 1: you know you're doing it from the right place. And

488
00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:11,439
Speaker 1: I feel like, especially during the pandemic, it's hard to

489
00:25:11,480 --> 00:25:15,640
Speaker 1: stay creative when every day feels like it's groundhog Day.

490
00:25:15,880 --> 00:25:19,840
Speaker 1: Um dude, yeah, I'm in a creative at myself. Do

491
00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:26,359
Speaker 1: you have any advice because it's a struggle. Well, I don't.

492
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:29,520
Speaker 1: I I was too, and then I went through a

493
00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:32,800
Speaker 1: huge creative surge and now it dried up again, so

494
00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:36,720
Speaker 1: I'm totally understand. I think my biggest advice is that

495
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:41,760
Speaker 1: artists in general were like volcanoes. People think that we're unstable,

496
00:25:41,800 --> 00:25:44,080
Speaker 1: but actually the volcano is the most stable force in

497
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:46,960
Speaker 1: the world. In order to you know, birth all that lavea,

498
00:25:47,040 --> 00:25:49,920
Speaker 1: you have to be so stable. So we are screative.

499
00:25:49,920 --> 00:25:52,399
Speaker 1: People are stable, but we have to remember that the

500
00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:56,960
Speaker 1: creativity comes in these gigantic like and then it dries

501
00:25:57,080 --> 00:25:59,439
Speaker 1: up and that's just the way it goes. That's just

502
00:25:59,520 --> 00:26:02,800
Speaker 1: the way than the rhythm of a volcano. And kind

503
00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:07,720
Speaker 1: of the acceptance again, the acceptance of what is is

504
00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 1: what my meditation practice has taught me too, is like

505
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,400
Speaker 1: it sucks, but when you're like, Okay, I guess it's

506
00:26:14,440 --> 00:26:17,920
Speaker 1: just isn't my creative period? And then yeah, just kind

507
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:21,200
Speaker 1: of the compassion for yourself, like this hurts. It hurts

508
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:22,840
Speaker 1: an artist when you don't get to be in the

509
00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:26,240
Speaker 1: creative It feels incredible to be the volcano erupting. It

510
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:29,840
Speaker 1: really is painful when it dries up. So the compassion

511
00:26:29,840 --> 00:26:32,879
Speaker 1: for yourself and then I think my other piece of

512
00:26:32,880 --> 00:26:35,880
Speaker 1: advice to get the creativity going again is to just

513
00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:37,840
Speaker 1: at least what I do. Maybe you'll tell me what

514
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:40,760
Speaker 1: you do, But I just soak up all of life,

515
00:26:40,760 --> 00:26:46,680
Speaker 1: like through podcasts, music, movies, books, I read tons of books, walks, nature, hikes,

516
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:50,280
Speaker 1: the ocean. I just let all of life kind of

517
00:26:50,560 --> 00:26:53,520
Speaker 1: whisper to me and I just take it easy. I've

518
00:26:53,520 --> 00:26:56,320
Speaker 1: had to do this recently. I just like literally stop

519
00:26:56,400 --> 00:26:59,480
Speaker 1: forcing the faucet. I stopped trying to like stop trying

520
00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:03,639
Speaker 1: to write just like quieted down journal, be still, and

521
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:06,600
Speaker 1: then let it bubble it back up again organically. That's

522
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:10,200
Speaker 1: what I'm hoping happens with me. Um it's hard, though,

523
00:27:10,280 --> 00:27:13,760
Speaker 1: Well that that's what I'm hoping. I'm hoping it that

524
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:15,520
Speaker 1: was it, you know what I mean? Like, what if

525
00:27:15,520 --> 00:27:18,440
Speaker 1: that was it and there's no more creativity? Oh my god.

526
00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:20,479
Speaker 1: I talked about the therapist. I talk about this all

527
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:23,120
Speaker 1: the time. It's like, that is our biggest fear. That's

528
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:26,280
Speaker 1: all creative people biggest fear. When it tries up. You're like, well,

529
00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:30,400
Speaker 1: that was that? Was it? How I enjoyed there? Right? Yeah? Yeah,

530
00:27:31,680 --> 00:27:33,399
Speaker 1: it's not, though I can tell you even though I

531
00:27:33,400 --> 00:27:37,920
Speaker 1: had that fear literally last week. It's not. Though we

532
00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 1: know better. I mean I've lived a little longer, so

533
00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:41,600
Speaker 1: I can tell you I have more experience with the

534
00:27:41,680 --> 00:27:44,879
Speaker 1: comings and goings of how it interrupts. But um, it

535
00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:48,240
Speaker 1: never is. It's never the end. You'll always you'll have more,

536
00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:50,400
Speaker 1: and oh my god, Sam, You're gonna have so much more.

537
00:27:50,440 --> 00:27:53,120
Speaker 1: And any artists listening, there's so much more to come.

538
00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:54,600
Speaker 1: You just have to we have to be patient with

539
00:27:54,600 --> 00:28:00,159
Speaker 1: ourselves and come. It's hard, I know, it's perseverance. I

540
00:28:00,160 --> 00:28:04,880
Speaker 1: I think when you wrote fight song, because it's such

541
00:28:04,880 --> 00:28:07,120
Speaker 1: a beautiful song. I know you've heard that a million times,

542
00:28:07,359 --> 00:28:11,560
Speaker 1: but when you've when you wrote that, you know it

543
00:28:11,680 --> 00:28:15,080
Speaker 1: came from such an honest place of like do you

544
00:28:15,119 --> 00:28:18,200
Speaker 1: persevere in this moment in time? How do you continue fighting?

545
00:28:18,640 --> 00:28:21,720
Speaker 1: How did you end up writing that song? Thank you

546
00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:28,800
Speaker 1: so much. I was at a moment of really being

547
00:28:28,960 --> 00:28:32,440
Speaker 1: kicked down and like thinking, dude, this is really getting

548
00:28:32,480 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 1: pathetic that I'm still trying to make music. I'm like

549
00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:38,880
Speaker 1: I was thirty one or something at the time, or

550
00:28:38,920 --> 00:28:41,600
Speaker 1: thirty two, and I've been trying for like you said,

551
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:44,720
Speaker 1: like twelve years and without any success, and it was

552
00:28:44,800 --> 00:28:48,640
Speaker 1: just painful, and um, I was coming to a moment

553
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:51,560
Speaker 1: of like I really need to face reality, probably like

554
00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:53,680
Speaker 1: my friends. But what made you doubt that if you

555
00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:55,160
Speaker 1: were going for so long? Was it like a run

556
00:28:55,160 --> 00:28:57,560
Speaker 1: out of theme or was there a certain moment. I

557
00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:00,920
Speaker 1: think my publisher called me I was Sony ATV. That

558
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,400
Speaker 1: was like a blessing that I had gotten signed got

559
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:05,160
Speaker 1: a publishing deal, So that was like one you know,

560
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:07,640
Speaker 1: I had little markers throughout the ten years or was

561
00:29:07,720 --> 00:29:11,320
Speaker 1: that kept me going like, okay, I have a publishing deal. Now, Okay,

562
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:13,080
Speaker 1: I got this tour, Okay, I have a little song

563
00:29:13,120 --> 00:29:15,560
Speaker 1: on the radio, like I had a manager at that

564
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:20,760
Speaker 1: point that was It's tough because in some ways it

565
00:29:20,840 --> 00:29:22,960
Speaker 1: was such a blessing and he was incredible for my

566
00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:25,120
Speaker 1: for my art. But the other time, it was a

567
00:29:25,160 --> 00:29:28,240
Speaker 1: little emotionally tough, you know he was it wasn't the

568
00:29:28,280 --> 00:29:32,320
Speaker 1: most emotionally healthy relationship, and um, it wasn't like he

569
00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:35,239
Speaker 1: wasn't using the best tactics to encourage someone. And so

570
00:29:35,520 --> 00:29:37,680
Speaker 1: I think it was just wearing me down, like the

571
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:40,960
Speaker 1: way that he was kind of giving me attention and

572
00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:45,880
Speaker 1: then withdrawing it, like an honestly unhealthy relationship. Relations but

573
00:29:45,920 --> 00:29:49,720
Speaker 1: it was manifesting in my manager relationship. And I think

574
00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:52,200
Speaker 1: the rejection of that, of feeling like, oh I suck

575
00:29:52,360 --> 00:29:54,320
Speaker 1: what might have been the thing that finally made me

576
00:29:54,360 --> 00:29:57,200
Speaker 1: feel like I can't do this. So anyway, I reached

577
00:29:57,200 --> 00:29:59,760
Speaker 1: that point of just like And I also think my

578
00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:02,720
Speaker 1: father and my I know we were talking about our dads.

579
00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:05,680
Speaker 1: I think my dad, who was such a believer, okay

580
00:30:05,760 --> 00:30:08,000
Speaker 1: I should write all that back, maybe not such a believer,

581
00:30:08,120 --> 00:30:10,160
Speaker 1: but loved me so much and was like, if that's

582
00:30:10,160 --> 00:30:13,920
Speaker 1: what raised Rachel happy. Um even they my parents were

583
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:16,840
Speaker 1: kind of like, what are you doing, Like, honey, what

584
00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:21,280
Speaker 1: are you doing? And that's hard here, oh so painful.

585
00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:24,440
Speaker 1: I got this. Um my grandfather passed away, had passed

586
00:30:24,480 --> 00:30:27,280
Speaker 1: away right around that time, and I remember I was

587
00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:30,280
Speaker 1: praying or manifesting or some some kind of version of

588
00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:33,760
Speaker 1: that I needed money for this recording, like I needed money.

589
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:37,560
Speaker 1: So I was totally broken. Um, I needed this exact

590
00:30:37,560 --> 00:30:39,600
Speaker 1: amount of money to give to a producer to try

591
00:30:39,640 --> 00:30:44,520
Speaker 1: to produce fight song. Actually, and I my grandfather pressed away,

592
00:30:44,520 --> 00:30:46,480
Speaker 1: and my dad called me and he's like, and we didn't.

593
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:48,480
Speaker 1: He didn't. My grandfather wasn't like a rich man. It

594
00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:50,480
Speaker 1: was a little He lived in a tiny little house.

595
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:52,640
Speaker 1: My dad called me and he said, you're never gonna

596
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:56,200
Speaker 1: believe this, but your grandfather left you the exact amount

597
00:30:56,240 --> 00:31:02,880
Speaker 1: of money. And that was the sign from God like okay, okay, okay,

598
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:05,800
Speaker 1: like I'm supposed to keep going. And that money was

599
00:31:05,840 --> 00:31:08,160
Speaker 1: the first production I used for fight Song. I skipped

600
00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:11,880
Speaker 1: how I wrote it though, I'm so sorry. Sure I'll

601
00:31:11,920 --> 00:31:15,240
Speaker 1: hear that. Yeah, well I just okay. So I was

602
00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:18,400
Speaker 1: driving in mal Malibu, I think I was on the

603
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:20,840
Speaker 1: way to a session and my publisher called me and

604
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:25,880
Speaker 1: she said to me, you have been doing everything but

605
00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:28,080
Speaker 1: telling your story and these songs you're sending. You've been

606
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:31,200
Speaker 1: sending me songs for years, for like four years. You

607
00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:35,000
Speaker 1: have not told me exactly your story. You have said

608
00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 1: all these other things and danced around it. Tell me

609
00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:40,760
Speaker 1: your truth. Who are you like? What has kept your

610
00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:44,120
Speaker 1: little fire going? And I was so frustrated because at

611
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:45,959
Speaker 1: that point, I was like like every artist, I was like,

612
00:31:46,080 --> 00:31:50,440
Speaker 1: I have told my story. And I got to this

613
00:31:50,520 --> 00:31:54,200
Speaker 1: session and I just was so frustrated and angry and

614
00:31:54,240 --> 00:31:57,960
Speaker 1: like and I just got to that piano, and all

615
00:31:58,000 --> 00:32:00,800
Speaker 1: of that passion in the years of I don't know,

616
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:04,360
Speaker 1: it just came out. It came pouring out that chorus,

617
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:06,719
Speaker 1: and the co writer, Dave, he just sat there kind

618
00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:12,440
Speaker 1: of like, yeah, keep going that. But then that song

619
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:16,040
Speaker 1: took me quite a while longer to finish that I didn't.

620
00:32:16,080 --> 00:32:18,200
Speaker 1: I had to get the verses. It took the sorry

621
00:32:18,280 --> 00:32:20,280
Speaker 1: excuse me, I had to write like ten more versions

622
00:32:20,280 --> 00:32:22,360
Speaker 1: of the verses until I got it right. So it's

623
00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:25,920
Speaker 1: another story about patients in itself. But um, that's where

624
00:32:25,920 --> 00:32:29,760
Speaker 1: it came from Wow and Now You Soldiers, which is

625
00:32:29,800 --> 00:32:32,120
Speaker 1: such a beautiful song too. I feel like that's also.

626
00:32:32,440 --> 00:32:36,240
Speaker 1: I feel like your music has been so authentic and honest,

627
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:39,080
Speaker 1: which is it's so important because it makes people feel

628
00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:41,880
Speaker 1: this alone, and I love that you're doing that. Okay,

629
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:43,640
Speaker 1: we had to take one more quick break, but when

630
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:45,720
Speaker 1: way I come back, I'd love to talk to you

631
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:49,400
Speaker 1: about something else. You're super passionate about manifesting, and I

632
00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:51,880
Speaker 1: love to have you walk us through a little exercise

633
00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:56,520
Speaker 1: around manifestation and meditation if you don't mind that, and

634
00:32:56,640 --> 00:33:06,400
Speaker 1: a lot more right after that, and we're back. Now

635
00:33:06,520 --> 00:33:10,520
Speaker 1: you're really big on manifesting. I'm trying to get into it.

636
00:33:10,680 --> 00:33:15,360
Speaker 1: What advice do you have? What? Okay, let's talk about

637
00:33:15,400 --> 00:33:17,440
Speaker 1: it because I'm just getting back into it too, and

638
00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:21,280
Speaker 1: I did a lot back then. I was like, humongous.

639
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:24,520
Speaker 1: Do you like wholeheartedly believe in it? Oh my god,

640
00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:26,800
Speaker 1: I will tell you some tips. I will tell you

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Speaker 1: guys whatever you want to know about ladies and gentlemen. Yo.

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Speaker 1: It is really it's real. And but the part of

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Speaker 1: it that is really important to know is that, yes,

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Speaker 1: you can manifest anything you want, but you have to

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Speaker 1: be careful, because I think really important is to not

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Speaker 1: just try to manifest things that you want, but peace

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Speaker 1: and happiness and joy and the feeling, because what you

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Speaker 1: think might make you happy and full of peace and

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Speaker 1: joy might not. As it happened for me, I was

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Speaker 1: got everything, every single thing I wanted to, except for

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Speaker 1: one thing that I think is still coming. But um,

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Speaker 1: every think coming on this like twenty twenty thing list

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Speaker 1: of wild things, things I had no business thinking could

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Speaker 1: be mine. I was like, you know, thirty one, broke

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Speaker 1: no reason to believe that I would be successful. And

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Speaker 1: I have manifested selling millions of records, being on a

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Speaker 1: tour bus, being presented with plaques, seeing thousands and thousands

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Speaker 1: of people singing my song with like their fists in

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Speaker 1: the air. And I would do these techniques and I'll

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Speaker 1: share one with you right now if you'd like, let's please, Okay.

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Speaker 1: So one of the most important parts about manifesting is

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Speaker 1: how viscerally you have to feel it. It can't just

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Speaker 1: be thinking it. We have to get out of our

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Speaker 1: heads with it. So you're not just thinking what you want.

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Speaker 1: You have to feel what you want. You have to feel,

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Speaker 1: you have to taste it. You have to see it,

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Speaker 1: smell it, here it and most imporant, you have to

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Speaker 1: feel it in your heart. Feel the feeling that is

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Speaker 1: the most That is the biggest secret. That's it. Okay.

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Speaker 1: So for instance, um, everyone can do this at home.

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Speaker 1: Is there something I want you to think of, something

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Speaker 1: that you really want right now? You don't have to

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Speaker 1: tell me. Yeah, okay. And I want you to close

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Speaker 1: your eyes, and I want you to take a deep breath,

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Speaker 1: and I want you to ground into the earth. Just

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Speaker 1: imagine roots going from the bottom of your feet down

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Speaker 1: through the dirt, soil, rock, into the center of the earth.

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Speaker 1: And imagine golden light from the center of the earth

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Speaker 1: coming back up through the bottoms of your feet. They're

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Speaker 1: your calves, knees, thighs hips, stomach. It's golden light filling

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Speaker 1: your body, filling your chest, your shoulders, down your arms

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Speaker 1: to your fingertips, golden light up through your neck, your jaw,

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Speaker 1: just relaxing as you go. It's deep bones, your nose,

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Speaker 1: your eyes, your hair, the strands of your hair, your skull.

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Speaker 1: Just feeling your whole body flooded with golden light. Take

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Speaker 1: another deep breath, Okay, I want you to imagine that

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Speaker 1: thing that you most most want in the world right now,

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Speaker 1: and I want you to get a picture of it,

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Speaker 1: not just what it looks like, but what it feels like.

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Speaker 1: What would it feel like if you had that thing

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Speaker 1: right now? How would your heart feel? Would you feel excited?

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Speaker 1: Would you feel giddy? Would you feel like you wanted

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Speaker 1: to burst out and screaming and dance around the room like?

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Speaker 1: Would you feel like you want to hug someone like

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Speaker 1: you want to celebrate? What calls would you make? What

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Speaker 1: kind of basis would you be kind of feeling? Would

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Speaker 1: you be on your face? And then I want you

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Speaker 1: to get even deeper with the visilation. What would it

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Speaker 1: look like around you if that thing came true? What

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Speaker 1: would the air feel like? What would what would be

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Speaker 1: physically in your presence? What kind of messages would you see?

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Speaker 1: Would you seeing on your phone? What kind of things

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Speaker 1: if it's maybe a dream of performing on a stage,

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Speaker 1: would you see that microphone? Which you can you see

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Speaker 1: those people in front of you, really see them? And

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Speaker 1: then what kind of smells would you be smelling at

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Speaker 1: that time make it so real? What sounds would you

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Speaker 1: be hearing would you be hearing massive applause? Here that applause,

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Speaker 1: really hear it. And then I want you to put

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Speaker 1: all that together at once in one big burst out

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Speaker 1: to the universe. So right now you're going to imagine

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Speaker 1: what would it feel like, Feel that feeling in your

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Speaker 1: heart of pure joy fulfillment. What would it sound like

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Speaker 1: here here, whatever the sounds would be, What would it

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Speaker 1: smell like, what would it taste like, what would it

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Speaker 1: look like? And just feel it like every five of

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Speaker 1: your being exploding from your heart into the universe like

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Speaker 1: one big cosmic wish. Take a deep breath and in

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Speaker 1: the exhale, I want you to burst it out, radiate

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Speaker 1: that out. Okay, now I need to land back in

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Speaker 1: your body. Feel the floor beneath your feet, feel a

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Speaker 1: close on your body, blacks your jaw, blacks your shoulders,

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Speaker 1: feel the air through your nostrils and out. And now

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Speaker 1: this is the most important part of manifestation, is the

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Speaker 1: absolute faith that you have done your part. You have

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Speaker 1: done what you needed to do. You did your work today.

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Speaker 1: Now it is up to the universe to deliver you,

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Speaker 1: like magic, what you put out there. And your job

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Speaker 1: is to have absolute faith that you've done your part.

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Speaker 1: And now the last step is the peace and the

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Speaker 1: joy knowing that it's already yours. It doesn't even matter

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Speaker 1: if it comes or not, because you already felt the

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Speaker 1: feeling of what it feels like. So you can just

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Speaker 1: relax with it. You can be easy with the whole thing.

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Speaker 1: The dream can have a lighter touch because you already

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Speaker 1: felt like what it felt like. And that's the whole

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Speaker 1: point of getting your dream. Anyway. Can you read a book?

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Speaker 1: Oh you have? I have any children's book? By the way,

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Speaker 1: how did you what was the inspiration for the children's book?

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Speaker 1: How was that experience for you? By the way that

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Speaker 1: I'm like, I felt it? You did? You? Like? Should have? Like? Um?

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Speaker 1: When of those meditation apps? Just like, why do you

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Speaker 1: have a podcast? I don't know? Is it hard? No,

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Speaker 1: you can do it. I'm busy. I don't know. I'm

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Speaker 1: kind of tired momm ng to record here? Meditations? Are

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Speaker 1: you kidding? Maybe I should? Okay, I'll tell my manager.

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Speaker 1: I'm I don't really. I share them often with like session,

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Speaker 1: you know, people when I'm in session, or I share

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Speaker 1: them with friends, or but I haven't really done it publicly.

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Speaker 1: It was really fun to get to do that. Maybe

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Speaker 1: I will. I mean, I think it's way to connect

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Speaker 1: with people. That's true, and it's something that I'm really

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Speaker 1: passionate about clearly. Yeah. Okay, so my children's book. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I released it last year right in the beginning of

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Speaker 1: the pandemic. It was so special and also scary to

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Speaker 1: release it then. I mean it wasn't like it wasn't

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Speaker 1: an album, so there wasn't so much pressure, but it

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Speaker 1: still felt like, oh wait, this is a baby of

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Speaker 1: mine and my giving it the best chance to succeed.

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Speaker 1: If I can't go out and promote it, yeah, I

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Speaker 1: get that, but I'm so proud of it. I love it.

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Speaker 1: I actually have one right here. Can I see anything? Yes,

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Speaker 1: this is one of my goals. One of my goals

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Speaker 1: is trying. It's going to write a children Oh you should,

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Speaker 1: you will, I'll send you one. Please do yes, because

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Speaker 1: I'm looking for inspiration. Oh, it's really fun. It's a

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Speaker 1: whole process and learning about m H. I am just

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Speaker 1: so happy that you are my finale in my podcast,

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Speaker 1: my season two final water so I manifested season three

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Speaker 1: that we're gonna get picked up. Yes, it's yours. No,

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Speaker 1: it's yours. It's done, it is, it's already as it

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Speaker 1: is you know, and so it is. That's that's your belief.

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Speaker 1: Now your season three will get picked up. I like that,

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Speaker 1: and keep doing that little visualization and keep listening to

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Speaker 1: that meditation. I'm just going to replay your audio. Do it.

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Speaker 1: There's also one there's also on YouTube, tongue of different.

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Speaker 1: My voice might not be like that. No, I like

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Speaker 1: your voice. What are you talking about? But I mean

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Speaker 1: for anyone listening, we all have our own tastes and

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Speaker 1: like what five of us, So maybe you listen to

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Speaker 1: it and you're like, well, that was really a cool process.

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Speaker 1: But like I would really like to hear an Australian

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Speaker 1: guy saying it you can find it or like you know, YouTube,

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Speaker 1: you can on YouTube. And I also feel like it's

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Speaker 1: so important with this industry and mentorship and just having

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Speaker 1: like women to have your backs. I'm so glad that

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Speaker 1: you're on my podcast because I feel like, my god,

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Speaker 1: I love getting to know you. You're so cool. I

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Speaker 1: believe in you. Thank you. That means a lot, it

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Speaker 1: really does. Do I didn't mean to interrupt you, so no,

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Speaker 1: you didn't know, but it's I think we should all

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Speaker 1: if you're you're listening to this episode and you just

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Speaker 1: want advice, We're here. Reach out here exactly. Yeah, reach

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Speaker 1: out to me on Instagram. The one thing I am

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Speaker 1: really good at is responding to messages. I love hearing

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Speaker 1: from people. I'm also doing some TikTok's lately, although I've

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Speaker 1: taken the hiatus. It's a TikTok star Nope, but she's

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Speaker 1: she's learning books. Rachel, thank you so much for coming

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Speaker 1: on my podcast. I'm so glad that we got to

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Speaker 1: do this. You're so welcome it with so much fun.

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Speaker 1: Thank you for having me as an honor. You're so inspiring.

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Speaker 1: Thank you so are you. Thank you guys so much

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Speaker 1: for listening to the season too finale of my podcast.

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Speaker 1: I still can't believe that. I hope you enjoyed this episode.

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Speaker 1: Rachel again, thank you so much for coming on my podcast.

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Speaker 1: If you haven't already, subscribe and follow me on Instagram

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Speaker 1: and it's Sammy J. That's I T S S A

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Speaker 1: M M Y J A y E. And don't forget

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Speaker 1: to follow Rachel and all of her socials. It's Rachel

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Speaker 1: Platton again. Thank you for sticking along with me for

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Speaker 1: two seasons, hopefully too many more. I will see you guys,

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Speaker 1: next time, Bye,