WEBVTT - “THE PRESSURE IS MOUNTING” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:04.000 Hello, Hello, what's up, dude. What's your name? 0:00:04.760 --> 0:00:05.720 My name's Grayson. 0:00:07.800 --> 0:00:09.719 This is Lyle. What's going on, man? How you doing? 0:00:10.280 --> 0:00:13.120 Oh? Not too much. I'm uh. I'm at work right 0:00:13.160 --> 0:00:18.440 now avoiding going into my store and doing my job. 0:00:19.760 --> 0:00:23.720 What's the store? I mean it's Is it a specific store, 0:00:23.840 --> 0:00:24.440 is it a chain? 0:00:25.160 --> 0:00:25.800 It's a chain? 0:00:26.800 --> 0:00:28.560 What's the store? Are you allowed to say? 0:00:29.480 --> 0:00:29.720 Yeah? 0:00:29.800 --> 0:00:35.760 Kroger, Kroger. Kroger's are mainly in the West coast, yeah, 0:00:35.880 --> 0:00:37.360 or like the not the west, the middle of the 0:00:37.400 --> 0:00:39.240 middle of the I almost said the Middle East to 0:00:39.320 --> 0:00:42.440 the middle of the country. There are no Kroger's in 0:00:42.440 --> 0:00:44.680 the Middle East. There's no, there is no. They don't 0:00:44.680 --> 0:00:45.680 have Kroger in Iraq. 0:00:47.960 --> 0:00:52.640 No, no, there are no Krogers in Iraq. Uh. 0:00:52.720 --> 0:00:54.360 What's it like working at the Kroger. 0:00:54.560 --> 0:01:00.640 Uh, it's fine, it's fine. I just stocked shelves and 0:01:00.680 --> 0:01:06.680 I listen to you and other podcasts and that's about it. 0:01:07.360 --> 0:01:10.920 What is the hardest part about the shell of stocking? 0:01:13.360 --> 0:01:19.160 Customers have no sense of spatial awareness or other people. 0:01:22.280 --> 0:01:25.840 A lot of times people will hark a cart like 0:01:25.959 --> 0:01:28.880 right in the middle of the aisle, walk away from it, 0:01:29.200 --> 0:01:33.200 and you know, take so much time and think and 0:01:33.240 --> 0:01:37.759 do whatever people do, but always ends up just kind 0:01:37.800 --> 0:01:42.160 of being a little frustrating as someone just doing a job. 0:01:44.280 --> 0:01:48.480 Do people? Have you seen there's this guy on YouTube. 0:01:49.240 --> 0:01:53.400 I kind of hate him, but he's I can't look 0:01:53.440 --> 0:01:56.840 away because he just he makes he makes content that 0:01:56.880 --> 0:02:03.000 I think is mean spirited, but it it's undeniably interesting 0:02:03.760 --> 0:02:06.880 where he runs up to people and forces them in 0:02:06.960 --> 0:02:12.320 the parking lot to put their shopping carts back if 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:15.480 they left them out. Do you see that? Have you 0:02:15.480 --> 0:02:16.400 ever seen this guy? 0:02:16.560 --> 0:02:19.400 I have seen that guy. I think he's a little 0:02:19.520 --> 0:02:24.120 little heavy handed sometimes, but I I kind of dig it. 0:02:24.120 --> 0:02:26.960 It's undeniably very interesting to watch. Does that really? 0:02:27.200 --> 0:02:27.320 Like? 0:02:27.400 --> 0:02:30.720 Okay? Like, Okay, as a guy, I'm sure you've had 0:02:30.760 --> 0:02:36.280 to put away plenty of shopping carts left in parking 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:37.520 lots before, have you not? 0:02:38.480 --> 0:02:40.960 I've never had to do that, but I really a 0:02:40.960 --> 0:02:42.000 lot of people do that. 0:02:42.480 --> 0:02:46.280 Okay, So, as somebody who's close to that, do you 0:02:46.760 --> 0:02:50.720 how evil of an action do you believe. 0:02:50.480 --> 0:02:53.839 It to be to leave the cart in the lot 0:02:53.880 --> 0:02:55.519 and not put it like in the little slot. 0:02:56.080 --> 0:02:58.480 Yeah? 0:02:59.120 --> 0:03:02.600 I don't think it's evil, but I definitely think it's 0:03:02.720 --> 0:03:09.560 a I moral is definitely not the word, but like 0:03:12.760 --> 0:03:15.560 it's selfish almost, you know, it's it's it's a lack 0:03:15.639 --> 0:03:20.639 of thought kind of action that is, like without consideration 0:03:20.960 --> 0:03:26.960 for just the world happening around you. You know, leave 0:03:27.000 --> 0:03:29.799 as you left it? Yeah, you found it. 0:03:30.280 --> 0:03:31.880 Do you believe it's an indicator? Do you believe someone 0:03:31.880 --> 0:03:33.919 who does that there's a there's an INDI it may 0:03:33.960 --> 0:03:36.640 indicate that they're capable of greater evil. 0:03:41.800 --> 0:03:46.960 Deep down. Maybe what's your name again, Grayson? 0:03:47.520 --> 0:03:49.760 Grayson? Is there any particular reason you called into the 0:03:49.800 --> 0:03:50.080 show to. 0:03:50.120 --> 0:03:58.680 That I'm getting married in two weeks from today, congratulations, 0:04:00.040 --> 0:04:05.560 thank you, And then I am moving two weeks after that, 0:04:09.000 --> 0:04:13.760 and the pressure from those two things is definitely starting 0:04:13.760 --> 0:04:15.760 to mount. Mmm. 0:04:19.000 --> 0:04:24.160 How old are you? How long have you and your 0:04:24.360 --> 0:04:28.120 home even engaged? I don't know. I've never referred to 0:04:29.440 --> 0:04:30.960 I didn't want to say partner and I didn't want 0:04:31.000 --> 0:04:32.880 to say girlfriend, so I said homie, but you knew 0:04:32.920 --> 0:04:34.479 what I meant. How long have you guys been together? 0:04:36.240 --> 0:04:37.000 Four years? 0:04:37.480 --> 0:04:38.080 Four years? 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:40.200 Cool? 0:04:41.080 --> 0:04:42.719 Are you excited to get married? 0:04:44.320 --> 0:04:47.120 I'm extremely excited. I'm very very excited. 0:04:47.600 --> 0:04:57.600 That's awesome. Tell me where the pressure is coming from. 0:04:58.000 --> 0:05:07.400 We both are in different kinds of jobs where she 0:05:07.640 --> 0:05:10.960 definitely picks up a lot more financially than I do, 0:05:11.640 --> 0:05:16.680 which has bled very heavily, like into the wedding where 0:05:16.720 --> 0:05:22.320 it's you know, far less than like fifty to fifty 0:05:23.279 --> 0:05:26.920 split input you know, financially and stuff like that. And 0:05:26.960 --> 0:05:29.640 then you know, she just works a lot. She's a nurse, 0:05:31.320 --> 0:05:36.840 works twelve and so she just does a lot. And 0:05:37.000 --> 0:05:41.400 we're getting married and then we're moving so that I 0:05:41.440 --> 0:05:47.960 can take a chance with my degree and try and 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:51.680 take a try and to take a chance with you know, 0:05:51.839 --> 0:05:56.479 something that I actually want to do, which is wonderful 0:05:56.560 --> 0:06:00.160 because she's made a lot of like really made or 0:06:02.839 --> 0:06:05.680 you know, life choices and sacrifice for me. She's kind 0:06:05.720 --> 0:06:09.080 of the one that's like made the idea, like let's 0:06:09.120 --> 0:06:12.960 go somewhere more music friendly. My degree is in music 0:06:13.080 --> 0:06:19.240 for film, So we're going to Nashville so I can 0:06:19.279 --> 0:06:21.919 try and get something a little bit more in the 0:06:22.000 --> 0:06:29.440 industry or industry adjacent interesting, But I find myself a 0:06:29.480 --> 0:06:37.240 lot struggling with like, I don't know, making good on 0:06:37.520 --> 0:06:43.400 the sacrifice that she's making for me, you know, by 0:06:44.600 --> 0:06:47.719 by giving me this opportunity to go. I feel a 0:06:47.720 --> 0:06:51.320 lot of pressure to actually get a job, which has 0:06:51.440 --> 0:06:53.400 not really been going well so far. 0:06:54.520 --> 0:07:01.080 Okay, well I don't know, Well, all right, I actually 0:07:01.120 --> 0:07:04.480 I have I'll actually I have a lot of questions. So, like, okay, 0:07:04.520 --> 0:07:08.919 so this lady, she's a nurse, she are do you, guys, 0:07:08.960 --> 0:07:12.160 like financially contribute equally to the relationship or do you 0:07:12.240 --> 0:07:14.760 kind of contribute based on what each other makes. 0:07:16.080 --> 0:07:18.320 It's closer to based off what each other makes? 0:07:18.520 --> 0:07:23.600 Okay, And like do you feel because like because sometimes 0:07:23.640 --> 0:07:27.520 you know someone's contributing more financially and like they're happy 0:07:27.560 --> 0:07:30.040 to and and like it's fine. Like do you feel 0:07:30.240 --> 0:07:34.640 do you feel in your gut of guts that that 0:07:34.720 --> 0:07:39.000 there is any kind of resentment from her about that? 0:07:40.520 --> 0:07:43.760 I don't know that it's resentment as much as it 0:07:44.040 --> 0:07:55.240 as it is maybe like maybe disappointment that I haven't 0:07:55.640 --> 0:07:58.560 fully like committed to the changes that I need to 0:07:59.200 --> 0:08:05.960 or yeah, you know, haven't fully given my all or 0:08:06.280 --> 0:08:11.440 haven't necessarily like overcome like my like fears of failure 0:08:11.680 --> 0:08:13.960 regarding it and stuff like that. You know, I have 0:08:14.040 --> 0:08:21.440 a lot of like creative self consciousness, you know. 0:08:22.640 --> 0:08:25.080 So she so you feel not that she was sential, 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:28.360 but that she I mean, so you feel like she's 0:08:28.360 --> 0:08:30.800 disappointed in you for not trying. 0:08:34.160 --> 0:08:34.439 Yeah? 0:08:34.679 --> 0:08:36.440 Yeah, what's so what's her deal? 0:08:36.480 --> 0:08:36.560 Like? 0:08:36.600 --> 0:08:38.880 What like what's this woman's ideal life? 0:08:39.679 --> 0:08:39.719 Like? 0:08:40.880 --> 0:08:44.080 Does she is she like absolutely? Because is she like 0:08:44.200 --> 0:08:47.440 absolutely in love? Where are you where? I mean, don't 0:08:47.440 --> 0:08:49.120 give me the don't give me a logitude, lad to? 0:08:49.200 --> 0:08:50.240 But what state are you in? 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:52.320 Ohio? 0:08:52.800 --> 0:08:54.080 You're in Ohio? Okay? Is she? 0:08:54.559 --> 0:08:54.640 Is? 0:08:54.679 --> 0:08:58.400 She in love with the great state of Ohio and 0:08:58.440 --> 0:09:03.800 she's in Ohio for die Ohio till I die? 0:09:03.840 --> 0:09:06.400 You know, we're trying to get out of here. 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:11.559 Okay, all right? So so she's so is it well, 0:09:11.600 --> 0:09:14.720 so like, is it like, uh, I'm leaving behind my 0:09:14.760 --> 0:09:17.560 friends and my family for you to pursue this dream 0:09:17.600 --> 0:09:20.000 in Nashville? Or is it like Nashville that sounds fun, 0:09:20.040 --> 0:09:20.800 Let's go to Nashville. 0:09:24.160 --> 0:09:26.680 It's kind of like, oh, that's fun, let's go to Nashville. 0:09:26.720 --> 0:09:32.520 But for me, I can't I can't help but interpret 0:09:32.559 --> 0:09:35.160 it as this greater sacrifice, you know what I mean. 0:09:35.920 --> 0:09:38.480 Both of us have like all of our families around 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:41.120 here and stuff like that, and Nashville is not too 0:09:41.160 --> 0:09:44.440 far of a drive, like we'll be up here like 0:09:44.480 --> 0:09:47.280 semi frequently. It's not like we won't see friends, we 0:09:47.320 --> 0:09:51.720 won't see family. You know, a lot of friends already 0:09:52.960 --> 0:09:55.680 live in other cities and other states and stuff like that. 0:09:56.120 --> 0:09:59.480 Just at this game, in the game of life and whatnot. 0:09:59.600 --> 0:10:04.880 So I don't know, that's not really like a big concern, 0:10:04.960 --> 0:10:14.600 but I can't help but feel like like that she's 0:10:14.679 --> 0:10:18.480 giving me this opportunity and stuff like that is therefore 0:10:21.360 --> 0:10:30.199 indicative of like a loss of some other dream or 0:10:30.720 --> 0:10:32.760 idea of life that she might have had. 0:10:33.120 --> 0:10:35.560 Okay, well, I have a few things I want to say. 0:10:35.559 --> 0:10:41.680 First of all, getting I don't want to be like 0:10:41.840 --> 0:10:47.200 negative about like the I'll touch on aspect. I'll touch 0:10:47.240 --> 0:10:50.160 on the aspect later. About like I mean, I don't 0:10:50.200 --> 0:10:52.040 know if you listen to the show, but I've ran 0:10:52.960 --> 0:10:56.319 a bunch of I feel like I've talked a bunch 0:10:56.360 --> 0:11:00.880 about like the whole you know, like jobs in industry. 0:11:01.080 --> 0:11:05.120 Thing feels like it's very very very like remote more 0:11:05.160 --> 0:11:09.199 than it's like location dependent. But that's enough. I'm actually 0:11:09.240 --> 0:11:12.760 kind of more like what like again, like, what what 0:11:12.920 --> 0:11:15.480 is this woman's dream life? Like if she was like, 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:17.960 what is what does this woman want that of life, 0:11:18.400 --> 0:11:21.840 and in what way do you believe that you are 0:11:21.920 --> 0:11:25.920 an impediment to that? Like, like you've told me, all 0:11:25.960 --> 0:11:28.120 you've really told me right now is that she's moved. 0:11:28.160 --> 0:11:30.160 She's she's moving to Nashville. Like I want to know, 0:11:30.280 --> 0:11:35.400 like what she what you feel like she is sacrificing, 0:11:35.480 --> 0:11:38.640 Like what's her dream life? And in what way are 0:11:38.679 --> 0:11:41.440 you getting in the way of it? Or or in 0:11:41.480 --> 0:11:42.839 what way do you believe you're getting in the way 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:43.040 of it? 0:11:47.800 --> 0:11:54.360 I mean, her coort thing above anything is like, you know, family, Like, Okay, 0:11:54.520 --> 0:11:57.319 that's one thing. So I definitely kind of feel like 0:11:57.360 --> 0:12:01.880 a little I guess, maybe not guilt, but just that 0:12:01.960 --> 0:12:07.400 we're moving away from our our family and people that 0:12:07.440 --> 0:12:11.200 we're close to. But I you know, I that's kind 0:12:11.200 --> 0:12:13.400 of just the way of moving and getting out of 0:12:13.440 --> 0:12:14.480 way and whatnot. 0:12:14.679 --> 0:12:20.920 But she's but her dream Yeah, go ahead, I was 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:24.520 gonna I was gonna say, like her dream life is 0:12:24.640 --> 0:12:28.280 I guess like she wants to be more in a 0:12:28.320 --> 0:12:31.800 city where like it's happening, you know what I mean, 0:12:31.960 --> 0:12:33.640 Like in Lava to New York. 0:12:33.440 --> 0:12:36.800 And Nashville of Florida, Cunting, which is great where we're 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:42.400 going Yeah, yeah, I think I feel it more like 0:12:48.200 --> 0:12:53.360 I I can't even like fully articulate it other than 0:12:53.480 --> 0:13:00.440 just kind of like, you know, she does find actially 0:13:00.559 --> 0:13:05.679 support me ratioed, you know, more than like I am 0:13:05.800 --> 0:13:09.400 supporting her and stuff like that. Okay, so I kind 0:13:09.400 --> 0:13:17.040 of feel like, maybe not that she's sacrificing something for me, 0:13:17.559 --> 0:13:22.280 but that I really feel a pressure to, yes, pull 0:13:22.320 --> 0:13:26.679 it off, you know, to get to where I ideally 0:13:26.720 --> 0:13:31.960 want to because she's doing so much to allow me 0:13:32.040 --> 0:13:33.439 to take the chance to try. 0:13:33.679 --> 0:13:36.400 You know, yeah, I give you mean so well, Okay, 0:13:36.400 --> 0:13:39.160 a few things. It's like, yeah, if her if her 0:13:39.520 --> 0:13:43.200 dream is to go to the place where it's happening, uh, 0:13:43.720 --> 0:13:46.120 that's it's then yes, Nashville is going to be a 0:13:46.120 --> 0:13:50.280 better time for her than ohio I the angle of 0:13:50.400 --> 0:13:58.920 like this move is a sacrifice for her, Like, I 0:13:59.000 --> 0:14:03.080 don't think that's I think my my assessment is that like, 0:14:03.920 --> 0:14:09.040 this woman clearly loves you. Some woman clearly like has 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:11.480 just like this woman just clearly as someone who loves 0:14:11.480 --> 0:14:16.720 you has a vested interest in your well being and 0:14:16.760 --> 0:14:19.880 in your thriving. And you, as as a person who 0:14:19.920 --> 0:14:23.000 loves this woman, have you have a vested interest in 0:14:23.280 --> 0:14:29.800 wanting to show through action your gratefulness to her for 0:14:29.960 --> 0:14:33.120 the support she's giving you out of the love that 0:14:33.200 --> 0:14:37.000 she has for her. And I think I think both 0:14:37.040 --> 0:14:43.760 of those feelings are are good, are are our respectable, 0:14:43.840 --> 0:14:48.400 valid feelings to have. But I don't think that they 0:14:48.440 --> 0:14:52.520 have to drive you insane, you know what I mean. 0:14:52.920 --> 0:14:55.280 I don't think that they have to cause you to spiral. 0:14:55.640 --> 0:14:58.640 I think you have a nice motivation and the and 0:14:58.680 --> 0:15:02.360 I think you have lots of reasons to like not 0:15:02.520 --> 0:15:06.160 fuck off and like, you know, sig out all day 0:15:06.200 --> 0:15:12.360 or whatever it is. But but the pressure of like 0:15:12.480 --> 0:15:18.680 I need to get a job in music production in Nashville. 0:15:18.760 --> 0:15:21.280 I mean, I don't even know what that looks like. 0:15:21.520 --> 0:15:24.240 But I just she just she doesn't By the way, 0:15:24.240 --> 0:15:26.080 I don't think this this woman just wants you to 0:15:26.120 --> 0:15:31.480 have your mo Like you you sound like, tell me 0:15:31.480 --> 0:15:33.160 if there's a fair assessment. But it sounds like you're 0:15:33.160 --> 0:15:38.600 like you're looking for your mojo a little bit, you're 0:15:38.640 --> 0:15:40.080 kind of looking for your It sounds a little bit 0:15:40.080 --> 0:15:41.640 like you're looking for your mojo. This this lady, she 0:15:41.680 --> 0:15:43.840 loves it. She wants you to have your mojo. She 0:15:43.880 --> 0:15:46.880 wants you to like have the things in your life 0:15:46.920 --> 0:15:50.040 that make you feel like you're you're thriving as a 0:15:50.080 --> 0:15:54.720 human being and contributing in the relationship. And and even 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:58.280 if and the thing and even if you can't find 0:15:58.320 --> 0:16:00.320 this specific thing, she just wants she wants to probably 0:16:00.320 --> 0:16:02.040 see that you're trying, and you want to see that 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:09.680 you're trying. But if you go into this like outcome dependent, 0:16:10.280 --> 0:16:13.880 as they say, you just gonna spiral and go insane. 0:16:14.560 --> 0:16:15.880 You know, if you go into the if you go 0:16:15.920 --> 0:16:17.720 into this like I need to get a job in 0:16:17.760 --> 0:16:22.400 the music industry in Nashville or else, my wife's sacrifice 0:16:22.440 --> 0:16:26.640 of what else, my wife's horrible sacrifice of moving to 0:16:27.040 --> 0:16:34.360 from Ohio to Nashville will be in vain. Then you 0:16:34.080 --> 0:16:39.440 can spiral, you know what I mean? Like just just 0:16:39.480 --> 0:16:41.840 put in, just put it, like be like in be 0:16:41.960 --> 0:16:46.280 like input dependent, right, be like Okay, I can't fuck around, 0:16:46.360 --> 0:16:49.240 like I gotta I gotta apply to gigs. I gotta 0:16:49.640 --> 0:16:53.040 work on my music. Like when you know, if i'm 0:16:53.240 --> 0:16:56.080 if I'm like at home on my laptop, like let 0:16:56.080 --> 0:16:59.160 me do fucking And she's like making uh, she's like 0:16:59.320 --> 0:17:01.280 has a long shift as a nurse, Like let me 0:17:01.320 --> 0:17:03.560 do the laundry, let me clean, let me do the chores, 0:17:03.640 --> 0:17:06.280 let me ask her if she needs anything, like like 0:17:06.440 --> 0:17:10.480 be like be in service of her the best way 0:17:10.520 --> 0:17:13.080 that you can be by both being in service of 0:17:13.080 --> 0:17:14.960 yourself and being in service of her. The ways you 0:17:15.000 --> 0:17:17.399 can be like that's all shit that you should be 0:17:17.520 --> 0:17:20.320 like thinking about, not like I need to get this 0:17:20.440 --> 0:17:22.840 job or else. If I if I don't get this 0:17:22.880 --> 0:17:25.080 specific job, I'm fucked right. It's just like, how can 0:17:25.160 --> 0:17:28.119 how can you keep like being in service to the 0:17:28.160 --> 0:17:30.840 relationship by like improving yourself as a human being and 0:17:30.840 --> 0:17:34.040 improving like and you know, just like try like ways 0:17:34.040 --> 0:17:37.199 in which you, as her partner, can like bear the 0:17:37.280 --> 0:17:40.320 load of her existence. You know, So as long as 0:17:40.320 --> 0:17:42.879 you do those things, you'll be fine. Because I have 0:17:42.880 --> 0:17:45.160 bad dudes, You're probably gonna apply to a thousand because 0:17:45.200 --> 0:17:47.560 like because if you say to your because if you 0:17:47.560 --> 0:17:50.280 follow that method, there's like a way you can do 0:17:50.359 --> 0:17:55.399 it that that'll make you and her feel like, you know, 0:17:55.600 --> 0:17:57.679 it's happening, you're working towards it, you're doing it. But 0:17:57.720 --> 0:17:59.680 if you but but you might send out a thousand 0:17:59.680 --> 0:18:04.560 applecations to like work in like film production, music in Nashville. 0:18:04.600 --> 0:18:06.000 You might just you might just get rejected from all 0:18:06.040 --> 0:18:08.480 of them, like it's a crazy thing. Like that's very 0:18:08.520 --> 0:18:12.760 outcome independent. But like you can but you can choose 0:18:13.680 --> 0:18:18.760 I'll just unrepeat myself now, but you can choose like two, 0:18:19.680 --> 0:18:22.639 be there for her when she needs it and be 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:23.920 there for yourself when you need it. And that's a 0:18:23.960 --> 0:18:26.719 little bit more input dependent. And so as long as 0:18:26.760 --> 0:18:30.159 you're as long as you're like the like like you 0:18:30.200 --> 0:18:37.280 should replace the pressure of like pressure and outcome independence 0:18:38.040 --> 0:18:47.560 into like what's the good what's a good word? Put 0:18:47.560 --> 0:18:55.600 it into more like motivation for your inputs, right, because 0:18:55.600 --> 0:18:59.080 it they because one is just like a spirally crazy 0:18:59.119 --> 0:19:00.800 feeling and the other one is like, oh shit, we 0:19:00.840 --> 0:19:03.679 got something going. I'm gonna fucking try to be you know, 0:19:04.320 --> 0:19:07.320 in service of this. I'm rambling. I don't know why 0:19:07.359 --> 0:19:10.320 I have an advice podcast. I hate giving advice. What 0:19:10.400 --> 0:19:13.360 did you think? Was that good advice? I? 0:19:13.359 --> 0:19:16.680 I think so? Yes, Okay, I think that's very helpful. 0:19:17.160 --> 0:19:26.560 Okay, I don't know if it do I is this 0:19:26.600 --> 0:19:32.320 an advice podcast? Am I an idiot? What's your name now? 0:19:33.600 --> 0:19:34.080 Grayson? 0:19:34.720 --> 0:19:36.679 Grayson? Did I what were you gonna ask me? What 0:19:36.680 --> 0:19:37.200 if I watched. 0:19:38.359 --> 0:19:41.360 Oh, I was just in the silence. I was gonna 0:19:41.359 --> 0:19:44.880 ask if you watched the Artemis two launched the Moon 0:19:44.960 --> 0:19:45.880 launch the other day? 0:19:46.400 --> 0:19:49.360 No, I didn't. How was it? 0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:54.560 It's incredible, really cool to see. I wish I could go. 0:19:54.880 --> 0:19:58.960 Maybe I'll go down to the actual landing launch in 0:19:58.960 --> 0:19:59.760 a couple of years. 0:20:01.280 --> 0:20:03.520 See. I like chatting like so well, sometimes it's like 0:20:03.520 --> 0:20:06.199 a chat podcast. I like chat, but depends on what 0:20:06.240 --> 0:20:07.920 I'm in the mood for. Today. I was in the today. 0:20:07.920 --> 0:20:09.520 I think I gave advice today because I was in 0:20:09.560 --> 0:20:12.199 the advice. I was in the mood to do an 0:20:12.240 --> 0:20:14.200 advice podcast. Sometimes I'm in the mood to do a 0:20:14.280 --> 0:20:17.200 chat podcast. Sometimes I'm in the mood to do a 0:20:17.280 --> 0:20:20.760 journalistic story. But it depends on what I'm in the 0:20:20.760 --> 0:20:21.200 mood for. 0:20:24.240 --> 0:20:26.120 You're in the mood for is always appreciated. 0:20:26.640 --> 0:20:29.840 You're You're a great guy, dude. I'm not even fucking right. 0:20:29.960 --> 0:20:33.920 You seem like a good dude, you really do. You're generous, 0:20:34.320 --> 0:20:36.760 you know, I'm seriously, I can tell in our conversation 0:20:36.840 --> 0:20:40.639 that you're generous, just with how you are being in 0:20:40.680 --> 0:20:43.800 this conversation listening to me right now, I can tell 0:20:43.800 --> 0:20:46.159 that you bring that energy into your relationships. I respect you. 0:20:47.640 --> 0:20:48.560 I appreciate that. 0:20:51.720 --> 0:20:53.439 Do you when you go grocery shopping? Do you put 0:20:53.440 --> 0:20:54.000 your card away? 0:20:57.040 --> 0:21:00.520 Uh? I usually don't buy enough at one time to 0:21:00.600 --> 0:21:06.280 need a cart or Yeah, I usually put my card away, 0:21:06.280 --> 0:21:08.360 but I'll do it like inside the store and I'll 0:21:08.400 --> 0:21:10.560 just like load up all the bags on my arms, 0:21:11.240 --> 0:21:16.160 you know, to bring to my car. 0:21:16.880 --> 0:21:20.000 What's the what's the last thing you did for your 0:21:20.840 --> 0:21:21.880 your fiance. 0:21:24.840 --> 0:21:26.000 Bought our dinner last night. 0:21:26.280 --> 0:21:31.840 It's a good guy. Hell yeah, when's the. 0:21:31.800 --> 0:21:38.240 Wedding two weeks from today? April eighteenth? Nice? 0:21:40.160 --> 0:21:43.040 I'm excited for you guys. You sound like you get 0:21:43.080 --> 0:21:46.800 see you give a fuck. That's all that matters. I mean, 0:21:46.960 --> 0:21:50.000 I guess, I guess not all that matters, but it's 0:21:50.040 --> 0:21:51.920 one thing that matters a. 0:21:51.880 --> 0:21:55.200 Lot, probably the first thing that matters. 0:21:55.600 --> 0:22:01.119 Definitely the first thing that matters. All Right, I'll let 0:22:01.160 --> 0:22:03.200 you go, man, unless if there's anything unless, if there's 0:22:03.200 --> 0:22:08.600 anything else you wanted to I wanted to say. 0:22:07.960 --> 0:22:13.240 Nothing in particular, gek bless everyone on the internet. 0:22:13.320 --> 0:22:16.919 Be well, hey, thank you brother, good luck and uh 0:22:17.040 --> 0:22:19.440 moszeletelve on the wedding. Good luck in Nashville brother. 0:22:20.640 --> 0:22:22.360 Thank you have a good one. 0:22:22.760 --> 0:22:29.240 You too, man, take care you too. I like that guy? 0:22:30.680 --> 0:22:33.320 Can't you tell? Why do I feel like I have 0:22:33.600 --> 0:22:37.440 such a different I wish every I wish everyone who 0:22:37.480 --> 0:22:40.800 listens to this podcast could listen, could just you could 0:22:40.800 --> 0:22:44.479 like be in my body while I'm recording it. They 0:22:44.480 --> 0:22:46.560 would have they would have such a different experience of 0:22:46.600 --> 0:22:49.080 it that I do. I feel like I can tell. 0:22:49.119 --> 0:22:53.400 I just can tell that it was a good guy. 0:22:54.680 --> 0:22:57.360 All these calls I've been I read the comments. I shouldn't, 0:22:57.400 --> 0:23:00.640 but I all these calls they feel and sometimes I'll 0:23:00.640 --> 0:23:04.440 go back. I'll listen because I'm insane. I won't listen 0:23:04.440 --> 0:23:05.679 to the whole thing. But like if I read a 0:23:05.720 --> 0:23:08.760 comment and they're like you were doing this, I'll listen 0:23:08.760 --> 0:23:10.960 and I'll be like, oh, that sounded a lot like 0:23:11.000 --> 0:23:12.879 I'll listen to a conversation like oh, when I'm like 0:23:12.960 --> 0:23:16.960 listening to it, that sounds so different than how it 0:23:17.080 --> 0:23:23.840 felt to be in the conversation, you know what I mean? 0:23:25.200 --> 0:23:29.679 All Right? Who cares? Sorry? Hello? 0:23:30.080 --> 0:23:31.199 Hey, yeah, can you hear it? 0:23:31.400 --> 0:23:31.600 Hey? 0:23:31.600 --> 0:23:33.400 What's up? Man? What's your name? 0:23:34.080 --> 0:23:36.080 I'm gonna go by Johnny. 0:23:36.240 --> 0:23:45.840 Johnny, Johnny Rockets, Johnny Bravo, Johnny, Yeah, Johnny Pincipani, that's 0:23:45.880 --> 0:23:48.200 not real, Johnny. What's up man? What's going on? How's 0:23:48.359 --> 0:23:49.199 how's it hanging with you? 0:23:52.880 --> 0:23:53.800 Insomnia? Man? 0:23:54.160 --> 0:23:58.639 Just like like you know, like when you go to sleep, 0:23:58.680 --> 0:24:02.240 that's when all the top you have hits saying yeah, 0:24:02.359 --> 0:24:03.160 it keeps you awake. 0:24:03.520 --> 0:24:06.520 I can't sleep that, dude. 0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:11.919 I've been in the past year since I had like 0:24:11.920 --> 0:24:16.199 a crazy existential crisis. I now must fall asleep with 0:24:17.359 --> 0:24:20.160 the TV on. Ever since it's been a full year, 0:24:20.800 --> 0:24:22.240 I have to fall sep with the TV on. 0:24:22.800 --> 0:24:23.000 Dude. 0:24:23.000 --> 0:24:25.280 It so I'm serious, Like you can't. I love it 0:24:25.280 --> 0:24:28.280 your laugh because you know exactly what I mean, Like 0:24:28.640 --> 0:24:31.920 I can't. I've learned that, and I've like I should 0:24:31.920 --> 0:24:33.680 have been. I should have been doing this all along. 0:24:33.800 --> 0:24:37.720 Like I'm not a big like background noise music guy 0:24:37.800 --> 0:24:39.840 up until like a year ago, and now I must 0:24:40.359 --> 0:24:42.679 always have something on. Are you like that? 0:24:43.119 --> 0:24:47.640 I I love I love white noise. Like I'll have 0:24:47.640 --> 0:24:54.280 my fan on or sometimes I'll play YouTube on my phone. 0:24:54.359 --> 0:24:58.240 But I don't know, like but sometimes like you know, 0:24:58.359 --> 0:25:01.760 like anxiety and stuff. I'm just going through some ship 0:25:01.840 --> 0:25:04.880 right now. It's just like freaking me out. 0:25:07.480 --> 0:25:08.760 Do you want to talk about it or do you 0:25:08.760 --> 0:25:09.760 want to tell you ay something else? 0:25:11.080 --> 0:25:11.280 Uh? 0:25:11.680 --> 0:25:14.639 That last podcast? Last podcast, I said that to someone 0:25:14.680 --> 0:25:17.439 and I didn't mean it. I wanted to talk about 0:25:17.640 --> 0:25:21.240 the thing, but this time, but this, but this time. 0:25:21.400 --> 0:25:23.919 Sometimes I'm gonna lie, I'm gonna be honest. Sometimes I 0:25:23.920 --> 0:25:26.560