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Speaker 1: I'm Erica and I'm Miila.

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Speaker 1: Or use GNBC twenty three at checkout. Speaking at pleasure, yes,

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Speaker 1: I know we're both in the Tantra school.

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Speaker 3: So on a scale of one to ten, where is

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Speaker 1: On a scale of wonder ten one to ten, my

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Speaker 4: What do you need from me to bring your pleasure

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Speaker 3: To be nice to me, Okay, am I usually nice?

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Speaker 1: We forgot we have to do our tantric speech to

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Speaker 3: Where do you get mushrooms? Like how do I get them?

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Speaker 4: I was looking on to scort today someone was like,

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Speaker 4: does anyone know where I can get mushrooms?

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Speaker 3: I think we should started.

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Speaker 1: I think we should started on micro dos in Houston.

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Speaker 3: I have a few people that I know, people that

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Speaker 3: ship to.

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Speaker 1: This is me being we're done with that we're making.

445
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Speaker 1: I was going to, well, I need people need it now, bitch,

446
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Speaker 1: wait three six five, But I just I think, but

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Speaker 1: if you're interested in I think even the mushrooms that

448
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Speaker 1: I've been taking lately, there are chocolates and I just

449
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Speaker 1: leave them in my.

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Speaker 4: Bathroom so after I or before I brush my teeth.

451
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Speaker 4: I've been just taking half a bite in the chocolate.

452
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Speaker 4: But if you're interested, I'll put I'll put a few

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Speaker 4: people or a few links on our Patreon. So if

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Speaker 4: you're interested in uh checking out some brands that could

455
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Speaker 4: potentially shift to your city, make sure you go to

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Speaker 4: our Patreon. I'll add them there. That's patreon dot com backslash,

457
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Speaker 4: Good Mom's Bad Choices for your local drug.

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Speaker 1: Dealer, like you know, honestly, to be very completely honest,

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Speaker 1: we put a lot of stuff on Patreon that we're

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Speaker 1: not going to stay in the podcast. For instance, how

461
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Speaker 1: to smuggle weed in nature's pocket, where to get mushrooms?

462
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Speaker 1: Who makes this outfit that I'm wearing right now, who's

463
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Speaker 1: pissing me off today? Pretty much all of that's on

464
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Speaker 1: Patreon exclusive content drugs, how to transport them?

465
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Speaker 3: And who's pissing us off? Yep?

466
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Speaker 1: And the outfit of the day, oh oh ft is

467
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Speaker 1: obviously o ft oh.

468
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Speaker 3: Speaking of outfits, this is my outfit of the day.

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Speaker 3: Do a drip check? Drip drip check? Did I tell you? Luna?

470
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Speaker 1: Luna came downstairs and like all like high heels and

471
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Speaker 1: like a vinchage soul sat and she was like, look

472
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Speaker 1: at my drip I was like.

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Speaker 3: Who the fuck are you.

474
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Speaker 4: Shout out to earn your leisure AKA for shod who

475
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Speaker 4: does the drip checks. And you know, me and Mela

476
00:23:37,880 --> 00:23:40,280
Speaker 4: be laughing because some of his drip checks be hilarious.

477
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Speaker 4: But he'd be dripping and he'd be dripping all over

478
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Speaker 4: the world, so I can't even be hating on him.

479
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Speaker 1: High class dripping, honey luxury.

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Speaker 3: This drip check is brought to you by Revolve. They're

481
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Speaker 3: not paying me. I bought this on Revolve when late

482
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Speaker 3: one night at one am, You've got a lot of

483
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Speaker 3: outfits at one am.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's my time. That's my time to shop. This

485
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Speaker 4: was on pre or. It took about four months for

486
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Speaker 4: me to receive. I'm glad it finally came in the summer.

487
00:24:04,359 --> 00:24:07,959
Speaker 4: I can get ordered it in the winter extent so

488
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Speaker 4: it has a matching skirt. If you're on our YouTube channel,

489
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Speaker 4: you can check it out.

490
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Speaker 1: Cute, it's very it's giving me very early two thousands nineties.

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Speaker 3: I like it.

492
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Speaker 4: And then I got my my proud of boots hey,

493
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Speaker 4: and I'm my tucked in Nike socks, and then.

494
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Speaker 3: I have these earrings.

495
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Speaker 4: This is a woman owned Mama owned jewelry designer. You

496
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Speaker 4: can check them out on Instagram. They're really cute. Can

497
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Speaker 4: we get a close up?

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Speaker 3: There?

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Speaker 4: You go see these ear rings? Yes, these earrings are

500
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Speaker 4: by the Jewelry album. She's based in New York City.

501
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:40,400
Speaker 4: She's a mom and they're cute.

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Speaker 3: That's my drip check. What about you, boo?

503
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Speaker 1: Well, I'm wearing teeny tiny pink vintage soul's dress. I

504
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Speaker 1: think this is called No, this is I don't know

505
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Speaker 1: the name of this dress. This might be the Mela dress.

506
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Speaker 1: I might be lying.

507
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Speaker 3: No, it's called something else, because I have that dress too.

508
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Speaker 3: It's not the Meala dress.

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Speaker 4: No, I would have remembered because I bought it, and

510
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Speaker 4: I would have been, like, I about the Meala dress.

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Speaker 3: I think, is it maybe in pink? It's called the

512
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Speaker 3: Meala dress. Now I have the other color.

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Speaker 1: Well, there's a little slit and I even like put

514
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Speaker 1: a little bit of like, I like tucked it here

515
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Speaker 1: because I like it even literally little italy.

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Speaker 3: You're right, I'm not. I'm malfunctioning again. Her malfunctions malfunctioning

517
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Speaker 3: cognitive Correspondently.

518
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Speaker 1: Listen, bitches, when you talk all day, every day, every week,

519
00:25:30,760 --> 00:25:36,359
Speaker 1: you lose functioning, you lose function power. Literally, my mobile

520
00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:39,080
Speaker 1: skills are being lost every day.

521
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Speaker 3: That's true. No.

522
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Speaker 1: Adventured Souls is my best friend Danielle owns it. It's

523
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Speaker 1: made right here in La and it's a lot of

524
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Speaker 1: the outfits would be learned, so check them out. We

525
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Speaker 1: might even have a discount code. I'll put it on

526
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Speaker 1: Patreon because it is pretty high end.

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Speaker 3: It's really high end. She'd be in like Fred Siegel

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Speaker 3: and she no, she'd be in Free People and seagull. Yeah. Yeah,

529
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Speaker 3: all my friends do CoA stiff. Can you pass our

530
00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:08,159
Speaker 3: torch lighter? Please our fireplace lighter.

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Speaker 1: Moms need to have things that are large enough to

532
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Speaker 1: find meanless. I also might barbecue after this, so just

533
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Speaker 1: chill out.

534
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Speaker 3: Please light my vanilla backwood.

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Speaker 1: No problem, baby, I'll backwood you at back me up,

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Speaker 1: back back back into the with the back backwoods in

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Speaker 1: the studio.

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Speaker 3: With us.

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Speaker 1: Speaking of like choosing happiness and attitudes and like stress levels.

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Speaker 1: You know, recently, this last three months has been a

541
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Speaker 1: rather rough three months for me. I've been doing a

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Speaker 1: lot of shit. But because we're always moving, you know,

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Speaker 1: I don't know if it's a good or bad thing

544
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Speaker 1: that I'm always moving because it gives me less time

545
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Speaker 1: to process when I'm super stressed. But me and Orlando

546
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Speaker 1: moved like two months ago, but we didn't have a place,

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Speaker 1: so we moved to storage, which is already stressful. So

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Speaker 1: I've been living out of a suitcase for like eight

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Speaker 1: weeks and.

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Speaker 2: Then like lived in the storage unit, moved to storage

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Speaker 2: to storage.

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00:27:15,359 --> 00:27:19,960
Speaker 1: Shit, I could have it that asteroid, but it oh

553
00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:22,199
Speaker 1: wait heavy, it was.

554
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Speaker 3: It was so stressful.

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Speaker 1: I mean like I stayed by Erica, I stayed by friends,

556
00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:28,639
Speaker 1: I was staying with my mom, and then she kicked

557
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Speaker 1: us out like one regular Thursday afternoon at three pm

558
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Speaker 1: for no reason.

559
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Speaker 3: And then I was like, wow, I have.

560
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Speaker 1: No family, family support. And then we were like traveling

561
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Speaker 1: a lot. So I was like kind of like suppressing

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Speaker 1: the fact that I was like intermediate housing intermitsure. I

563
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:54,399
Speaker 1: was homelessing, holmelessing, and I was so fucking stressed, Like

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Speaker 1: I couldn't like I was happy about things, but I

565
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Speaker 1: couldn't be in like my full tense spot because then

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Speaker 1: afterwards I'd be like, oh no, like what am I

567
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Speaker 1: going to do after this?

568
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:02,479
Speaker 3: Go to a hotel.

569
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Speaker 1: So finally we found an apartment and like it wasn't

570
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Speaker 1: like the number one one that I wanted. So I

571
00:28:11,359 --> 00:28:14,680
Speaker 1: was having a bad attitude because I didn't like the carpets.

572
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Speaker 1: I called Erica, I'm like, I hate it.

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Speaker 3: I have Oh, I have a steamer. I have a

574
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Speaker 3: carpet steamer. If you'd like, no, thank you, I just

575
00:28:21,720 --> 00:28:24,800
Speaker 3: bought one. You got a stop shopping at when I am.

576
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Speaker 3: You don't even have anything on Amazon. It was Amazon

577
00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:29,600
Speaker 3: Prime Day. I couldn't, Erica, you don't even have any carpet.

578
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Speaker 3: I do have carpets in my living room in the

579
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Speaker 3: area rugs, one area dirty, they need to be cleaned,

580
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Speaker 3: and my couch.

581
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Speaker 1: Erica bought a marpet steamer, and she has one area

582
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Speaker 1: a carpet and.

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Speaker 4: A couch one and it steams and it cleans. And

584
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Speaker 4: you'll thank me later when your fucking carpets need cleaning.

585
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Speaker 3: Okay. Lando's over there nodding because he's gonna come to mind.

586
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Speaker 1: I already try to figure out how to pull them

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Speaker 1: up and replace them on duy, even though I want

588
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Speaker 1: to be a die diy, I was thinking that she

589
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Speaker 1: literally i've seen her do that specific thing on stairs.

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Speaker 3: Oh that's intense. Yeah, I know, but I'm trying to let.

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Speaker 4: This there's you know what, I know that, Like, I

592
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:08,280
Speaker 4: think there became a time in history when which we

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Speaker 4: as a people decide we don't like carpets inside of housing.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, COVID No, it was before that was before that.

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Speaker 4: Although like I don't agree with carpets. Like I remember

596
00:29:17,400 --> 00:29:19,920
Speaker 4: when I was looking to move, there was this place

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Speaker 4: that I went to and it was carpeted throughout the

598
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Speaker 4: whole house, including the bathroom. Shut out, bitch, the bathroom

599
00:29:28,520 --> 00:29:29,040
Speaker 4: was carpeted.

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Speaker 1: That's that's not even legal. And I was like, that's discussed.

601
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Speaker 3: That's not legal.

602
00:29:33,040 --> 00:29:34,160
Speaker 1: It's mold that could create mold.

603
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Speaker 3: It was in there. It was in there. It was like.

604
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Speaker 4: It was in there, and so I get it. But

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Speaker 4: I also there is I like getting out of my

606
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Speaker 4: bed and I have a little mini carpet because I

607
00:29:46,920 --> 00:29:49,920
Speaker 4: have carpets in my house. You have ate car have

608
00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:54,720
Speaker 4: carpet cut up rugs, but there's one right below my

609
00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:56,640
Speaker 4: bed and I like getting out of my bed and

610
00:29:56,680 --> 00:29:58,840
Speaker 4: not being on like cold floor.

611
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Speaker 3: So if do you keep just you have a rule.

612
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:04,520
Speaker 4: To not have shoes on in the bedroom and to

613
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Speaker 4: not have shoes in certain parts of your house.

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Speaker 3: I think it can actually be really nice. It's not nice,

615
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:13,440
Speaker 3: but tell me to be nice to you today. Okay, no, no, no.

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Speaker 3: The point is we can be trying to be nice

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Speaker 3: in a courage.

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Speaker 1: The moral of the story is Orlando was so happy

619
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Speaker 1: to get our keys and he's like, baby, we're moving.

620
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Speaker 1: It's our first place together.

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Speaker 3: And I was like, not good enough.

622
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Speaker 1: He's like, so you want to go stay by your

623
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Speaker 1: friend again, or you want to I'm like, okay, never mind.

624
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Speaker 3: I love this I love this house.

625
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Speaker 1: I just realized, like, you fucking bitch, E've been stressed

626
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Speaker 1: out of your mind for fucking eight weeks about not

627
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Speaker 1: having a roof over your head, which is pretty fucking serious,

628
00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:44,040
Speaker 1: and here you are, this bitch is giving you keys

629
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Speaker 1: and you can't. I was literally fighting with the lady.

630
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Speaker 1: I was like, you clean this carpet.

631
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Speaker 3: She's like yeah.

632
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Speaker 1: I was like I don't think so. Orlando is just

633
00:30:52,480 --> 00:30:54,680
Speaker 1: standing there like shut the fuck up.

634
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Speaker 3: I was like, what is this for.

635
00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:02,320
Speaker 1: I picked up like a reptile skin. She's like, oh,

636
00:31:02,320 --> 00:31:02,760
Speaker 1: that's tape.

637
00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:04,960
Speaker 3: I said, this is not tape, not reptile skin.

638
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:06,280
Speaker 1: It was reptile skin.

639
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:07,720
Speaker 3: I said.

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00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:09,480
Speaker 1: The last tenant must have had a snake or lizard.

641
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:13,520
Speaker 1: She said, no, no, no, that's that's tape. An I

642
00:31:13,560 --> 00:31:16,440
Speaker 1: swear to god I picked it up. I said, I said,

643
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Speaker 1: so you're telling me the carpet cleaner brought a snake over.

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00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:23,560
Speaker 3: I said, are you sure? Are you cleaning these carpets?

645
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:25,440
Speaker 1: I could do it again. I'll do it again. I said,

646
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:26,719
Speaker 1: I think that's necessary.

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00:31:27,040 --> 00:31:28,480
Speaker 3: Oh, so she offered to do them again.

648
00:31:28,600 --> 00:31:30,560
Speaker 1: She'd have a choice, bitch. I found a snake skin

649
00:31:31,760 --> 00:31:33,760
Speaker 1: on the carpet. And then she's like, it's a tape.

650
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:35,040
Speaker 1: And then I picked up another pieces like this is

651
00:31:35,080 --> 00:31:39,560
Speaker 1: the tail, oh, because it goes toll like a point there.

652
00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:42,080
Speaker 1: I know, I think were probably and I'm with it,

653
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Speaker 1: but not on these carpets.

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Speaker 3: It's my witchy shit.

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Speaker 1: So all that to say is like, you know, you

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Speaker 1: gotta be like you have to be able to have

657
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 1: the gratitude for the things you ask for when they come,

658
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:58,400
Speaker 1: even if they don't have all wood floors and knew.

659
00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:00,600
Speaker 3: Stoves.

660
00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:04,640
Speaker 1: So I just was like I had to take a

661
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:07,480
Speaker 1: moment and I realized, like, wow, I'm just ruining this moment.

662
00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:10,320
Speaker 1: After we've struggled for eight weeks together, I can't just

663
00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:13,040
Speaker 1: be happy. I have to complain, and I was like,

664
00:32:13,040 --> 00:32:14,920
Speaker 1: what is that? Like, why am I actually like my mother?

665
00:32:16,520 --> 00:32:18,440
Speaker 1: Why am I so attached to the feeling of like

666
00:32:18,800 --> 00:32:20,760
Speaker 1: being unsettled. And then I started to be like, oh

667
00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:22,720
Speaker 1: my god, I'm gonna be able to like this rent

668
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:27,640
Speaker 1: is so high, like if I lived in Mexico, Escape escape, Yeah,

669
00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:31,360
Speaker 1: like just like wanting to just find a reason to

670
00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:37,320
Speaker 1: feel uneasy. And I'm like, that's so nuts. And you know,

671
00:32:37,520 --> 00:32:39,760
Speaker 1: finally it got dark time and I couldn't really see

672
00:32:39,760 --> 00:32:41,000
Speaker 1: those carpets, and I was like, you know what, I

673
00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:41,880
Speaker 1: do like the apartment.

674
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:44,200
Speaker 3: It is cute. It is better than the last one.

675
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 1: It is it is, and I'm grateful because I have a.

676
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:48,960
Speaker 3: Place to go.

677
00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:53,560
Speaker 1: But you know, it's just like it's constantly this rat race,

678
00:32:53,560 --> 00:32:55,680
Speaker 1: and so if you're not careful, you will get the

679
00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:58,480
Speaker 1: things that you're chasing after and not even realize that

680
00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:02,120
Speaker 1: you have them because you're so stuck in the mentality

681
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:06,160
Speaker 1: of being not safe or like in a frantic or

682
00:33:06,160 --> 00:33:07,760
Speaker 1: in a panic. And I just had to take a

683
00:33:07,760 --> 00:33:09,920
Speaker 1: moment and just be like, bitch, or they.

684
00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:12,760
Speaker 4: Don't show up exactly how you envision them in your mind.

685
00:33:13,440 --> 00:33:16,360
Speaker 4: You have to really not have expectation of the outcome

686
00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:19,720
Speaker 4: you almost which is difficult because when you manifest, you're

687
00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:22,920
Speaker 4: asked to be very specific about what you want, but

688
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:28,400
Speaker 4: then also also being flexible and open enough to also

689
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:34,040
Speaker 4: allow what comes to be also allowed that to be

690
00:33:34,600 --> 00:33:37,040
Speaker 4: enough in the answer to your manifestation, even though it's

691
00:33:37,040 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 4: not exactly what you want.

692
00:33:39,080 --> 00:33:41,640
Speaker 1: Well, the thing is like the gratitude and like you know,

693
00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:44,040
Speaker 1: we talk about manifesting all the time, and we manifest

694
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:46,920
Speaker 1: a lot of shit where some pretty powerful bitches, and

695
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:50,160
Speaker 1: then something's missed, some things don't come exactly how we

696
00:33:50,280 --> 00:33:53,240
Speaker 1: ask like, and then we have to also accept that

697
00:33:54,000 --> 00:33:57,480
Speaker 1: we are witches. But bitch, sometimes it's you. But it's

698
00:33:57,520 --> 00:33:59,320
Speaker 1: like God has the final say.

699
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:00,000
Speaker 3: You know what I mean.

700
00:34:00,240 --> 00:34:03,560
Speaker 1: I mean, like even with like us getting like best

701
00:34:03,640 --> 00:34:05,480
Speaker 1: seller the first week and like that was gonna be

702
00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:07,560
Speaker 1: manifested for like two years, and like I was, like,

703
00:34:07,560 --> 00:34:11,360
Speaker 1: what the fuck, God, you trip it? Like I know

704
00:34:11,400 --> 00:34:14,880
Speaker 1: you got my emails, but like not to say that

705
00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:17,000
Speaker 1: won't happen, you know, and like we we found out

706
00:34:17,040 --> 00:34:19,319
Speaker 1: that it can happen after first week, and it will,

707
00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:25,480
Speaker 1: but just it's like being okay with like knowing that

708
00:34:25,520 --> 00:34:28,960
Speaker 1: it can come in different forms and to be also

709
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 1: ingratitude when those times come, you know.

710
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:33,040
Speaker 3: And it's just like.

711
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:37,520
Speaker 1: I think there was a lot of ego attached to

712
00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:39,280
Speaker 1: it too, because I feel like, oh, I'm a woman

713
00:34:39,320 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 1: of a certain age making myself so sold where you.

714
00:34:41,960 --> 00:34:45,560
Speaker 3: Are of a certain age. Everyone't google how old is

715
00:34:45,640 --> 00:34:48,680
Speaker 3: right now, it's all over my Instagram. I don't like.

716
00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:53,680
Speaker 3: And you know, I want what I want and I.

717
00:34:54,480 --> 00:34:58,240
Speaker 1: Deserve this blah blah blah, and I do.

718
00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:01,800
Speaker 3: But also, bitch, you agree grateful.

719
00:35:01,880 --> 00:35:03,960
Speaker 1: That you know you got ninety percent of the things

720
00:35:03,960 --> 00:35:07,280
Speaker 1: that you asked for minus is hideous carpet and it's fine.

721
00:35:07,360 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 4: Well, it's also like you get what you're ready to receive,

722
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 4: and you know there's things that happened before, like when

723
00:35:15,520 --> 00:35:17,360
Speaker 4: we're asking for things to be called in Like I

724
00:35:17,400 --> 00:35:21,160
Speaker 4: feel like you have to also be self aware.

725
00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:28,560
Speaker 3: Of like how do I say this without offending the

726
00:35:28,600 --> 00:35:36,520
Speaker 3: people listening? And you good luck when you ask for things.

727
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:41,600
Speaker 4: And but also you're actively participating in not there's an

728
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 4: active participation in maybe like having limited beliefs around what

729
00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:49,000
Speaker 4: you deserve. You're not gonna get everything that you ask for.

730
00:35:49,080 --> 00:35:54,200
Speaker 4: It's when you finally release those limiting beliefs that really

731
00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:57,319
Speaker 4: not that the manifestation, This was the manifestation you asked for,

732
00:35:57,680 --> 00:36:00,920
Speaker 4: but like it becomes even bigger, and you know, like

733
00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:05,920
Speaker 4: when you when you remove your limiting beliefs around safety, home,

734
00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:09,040
Speaker 4: not wanting to adult because you're like I don't want

735
00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:13,280
Speaker 4: to be an adult, and you know a lot being

736
00:36:13,480 --> 00:36:19,520
Speaker 4: responsible for your safety and just having like I guess,

737
00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:27,359
Speaker 4: just full autonomy and responsibility around what you're asking for

738
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:29,120
Speaker 4: and the things and the steps that you're taking. And

739
00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:30,839
Speaker 4: I'm not obviously we take a lot of steps where

740
00:36:30,840 --> 00:36:33,640
Speaker 4: we work really hard, and I'm just saying that the

741
00:36:33,680 --> 00:36:37,400
Speaker 4: manifestation will always show up how it should based on

742
00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:42,759
Speaker 4: the energy put into that situation. And if you have

743
00:36:42,800 --> 00:36:45,839
Speaker 4: limiting beliefs around your safety and what you deserve and

744
00:36:45,880 --> 00:36:48,640
Speaker 4: like feeling settled, you might always go to a place

745
00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:50,880
Speaker 4: that maybe is like home but not quite home for you.

746
00:36:51,160 --> 00:36:55,840
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, I completely agree. I completely agree

747
00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:57,760
Speaker 3: because I realize in.

748
00:36:57,640 --> 00:37:01,880
Speaker 1: This this last three months to this this you know,

749
00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:06,600
Speaker 1: like with life already being hard and like requiring a

750
00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:09,239
Speaker 1: lot of me putting myself in this even more like

751
00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:14,839
Speaker 1: stressful situation and then finally getting out of it and

752
00:37:14,880 --> 00:37:19,120
Speaker 1: still like immediately my next thought was like, Okay, are

753
00:37:19,120 --> 00:37:21,000
Speaker 1: we're gonna pay this rent? Is run is super high,

754
00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:23,920
Speaker 1: Like this run is high for these non for carpets.

755
00:37:24,120 --> 00:37:25,680
Speaker 3: You know, that was my thought, But.

756
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:30,560
Speaker 1: It was to it was to worry and stress that

757
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:32,960
Speaker 1: I couldn't before it was Oh, this is this is

758
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:35,160
Speaker 1: this is a year. Fuck it, this is a year,

759
00:37:35,160 --> 00:37:37,000
Speaker 1: and I'll be in somewhere else next because fuck it,

760
00:37:37,040 --> 00:37:40,600
Speaker 1: let's just take this. We can afford it, Like instead

761
00:37:40,640 --> 00:37:42,920
Speaker 1: of just immediately just be like, oh we got this,

762
00:37:43,080 --> 00:37:46,839
Speaker 1: I have a partner, Like I'm just immediately into panic mode.

763
00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 1: So it has everything to do with like scarcity mindset

764
00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:56,520
Speaker 1: and and just yeah, like getting outside of your own way,

765
00:37:56,680 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 1: my own way about my relationship with money and my

766
00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:04,359
Speaker 1: safety and that like someone's gonna come save me. It's

767
00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:08,120
Speaker 1: only me, you know what I mean. So no, I

768
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:11,440
Speaker 1: just realized that, and I'm like, damn, you know I do.

769
00:38:12,320 --> 00:38:16,440
Speaker 1: We have all these conversations and there's still so much

770
00:38:16,440 --> 00:38:17,520
Speaker 1: more work I could be doing.

771
00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:17,680
Speaker 5: Oh.

772
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:20,680
Speaker 4: I mean that's the whole point. That's the whole point

773
00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:23,160
Speaker 4: is us talking through things. I mean, this is why

774
00:38:23,239 --> 00:38:25,279
Speaker 4: that this podcast has been so I think powerful for

775
00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:25,799
Speaker 4: both of us.

776
00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:28,080
Speaker 3: Is like us doing.

777
00:38:27,840 --> 00:38:30,960
Speaker 4: Function and then having stay accountable for it, because then

778
00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,879
Speaker 4: we look up a year later and like there's certain

779
00:38:32,920 --> 00:38:34,839
Speaker 4: things that we're still discussing and it's like, Okay, I'm

780
00:38:34,840 --> 00:38:36,799
Speaker 4: still I still got work to do in that in

781
00:38:36,800 --> 00:38:39,239
Speaker 4: that space, in that place for me, like you know,

782
00:38:39,440 --> 00:38:42,480
Speaker 4: my thing is about like to enter speech and energy,

783
00:38:42,640 --> 00:38:45,400
Speaker 4: like I'm going to be a peaceful warrior now. I

784
00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:48,160
Speaker 4: promise I will not be a bitch and my facial

785
00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:51,440
Speaker 4: expressions will no longer make people feel like I'm mad

786
00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:57,480
Speaker 4: at them. And it's it's definitely like it's an inner

787
00:38:57,520 --> 00:39:00,600
Speaker 4: it's a thing for me of like I don't resentment

788
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:02,840
Speaker 4: and what feeling people like are going to disappoint me

789
00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:05,680
Speaker 4: or like I'm always over I'm always giving so much

790
00:39:05,680 --> 00:39:08,600
Speaker 4: and not getting what I deserve in return, and like

791
00:39:09,280 --> 00:39:10,840
Speaker 4: I think that is the root of that for me,

792
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:17,719
Speaker 4: you know, And it's an ongoing shit because recently I've

793
00:39:17,800 --> 00:39:19,839
Speaker 4: had I had that come up for me and I

794
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:22,040
Speaker 4: was like raging, and I was like, damn, I have

795
00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:26,840
Speaker 4: not resolved this. Like I was like having to. I

796
00:39:26,920 --> 00:39:32,280
Speaker 4: literally felt my body like I was like I needed

797
00:39:32,320 --> 00:39:36,080
Speaker 4: to like be violent almost, and I was like I

798
00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:38,480
Speaker 4: don't ever want to ever feel like I am out

799
00:39:38,520 --> 00:39:41,520
Speaker 4: of control of like my disappointment or how I feel

800
00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:46,759
Speaker 4: or what someone says to me, and it is just yeah,

801
00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:49,760
Speaker 4: it's a I'm still trying to birth this new version

802
00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:53,800
Speaker 4: of myself. And I don't know if you ever fully

803
00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:57,720
Speaker 4: just birth a new version of yourself.

804
00:39:57,840 --> 00:40:01,480
Speaker 3: It's an always birthing. Yeah, it's a forever labor.

805
00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:05,439
Speaker 4: It's like you're pregnant for you almost might give birth

806
00:40:05,480 --> 00:40:07,160
Speaker 4: a lot of times, and then you do, and then

807
00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:10,240
Speaker 4: you still got a nurture and that that baby.

808
00:40:10,560 --> 00:40:13,840
Speaker 1: I've been in labor for ten years.

809
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:14,600
Speaker 3: It's rough.

810
00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:19,560
Speaker 1: There's some there's some definitely some more gasmic parts, but no,

811
00:40:19,680 --> 00:40:25,360
Speaker 1: it's it's yeah and then yeah. And then even even

812
00:40:26,080 --> 00:40:29,719
Speaker 1: because we talk so much and we're talking about, you know,

813
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:32,920
Speaker 1: our personal lives so much, there's even like a judgment

814
00:40:33,000 --> 00:40:35,799
Speaker 1: of myself, you know, because like like in certain ways

815
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:38,799
Speaker 1: it could appear that certain things are completely together. And

816
00:40:38,840 --> 00:40:40,960
Speaker 1: like even while I was going through this, I never

817
00:40:41,040 --> 00:40:42,960
Speaker 1: I didn't say I'd never come on the fucking podcast.

818
00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:44,000
Speaker 3: One day, I was like, well, you.

819
00:40:43,960 --> 00:40:47,319
Speaker 1: Know, a bitch is fucked up because I moved on

820
00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:49,239
Speaker 1: my shinto storage and I don't know where I'm going yet,

821
00:40:49,320 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 1: you know, but like I can, like because there's insecurity

822
00:40:52,480 --> 00:40:53,960
Speaker 1: around that, and like, oh, I should have worked in

823
00:40:54,000 --> 00:40:55,680
Speaker 1: my credit for the last fucking five years.

824
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:56,440
Speaker 3: Bitch, you're an adult.

825
00:40:56,440 --> 00:40:57,880
Speaker 1: But I put it off, and I put it off,

826
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:01,280
Speaker 1: and I put off until I'm in a fucked up situation.

827
00:41:01,640 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: And that's about totally about my my wounds with growing

828
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:08,120
Speaker 1: up and like taking responsibility and feeling like I don't

829
00:41:08,120 --> 00:41:10,120
Speaker 1: have a safety net or I don't like, oh, like

830
00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:13,239
Speaker 1: you know, like a support system as far as like

831
00:41:13,320 --> 00:41:17,560
Speaker 1: certain things. But at what point is it that you're

832
00:41:17,560 --> 00:41:20,440
Speaker 1: like that's my responsibility?

833
00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:21,120
Speaker 3: Is only me?

834
00:41:21,560 --> 00:41:23,640
Speaker 1: I am my own responsibility, and like these are the

835
00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:26,960
Speaker 1: things I have to, you know, and I'm hella powerful.

836
00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:30,440
Speaker 3: So why do I take on this this energy of

837
00:41:30,480 --> 00:41:31,160
Speaker 3: that I can't?

838
00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 4: But you do every time, And I think, like this

839
00:41:36,280 --> 00:41:40,400
Speaker 4: is an invitation, especially you've just moved in, You've already

840
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:45,160
Speaker 4: had your trauma response, which was I hate it. There's

841
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:50,680
Speaker 4: fucking skeletons and fucking snake skin Orlando with you know, Okay,

842
00:41:50,760 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 4: you did it, and now what are you gonna do

843
00:41:52,600 --> 00:41:54,920
Speaker 4: about it? Like, now this is the opportunity for you

844
00:41:54,960 --> 00:41:59,560
Speaker 4: to like kind of start I guess removing your that

845
00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:02,879
Speaker 4: mindset and really making your place beautiful, and like putting

846
00:42:02,920 --> 00:42:04,239
Speaker 4: all the motherfucking plants you.

847
00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:08,279
Speaker 3: Want, Okay, hopefully they all live, all my plants, always.

848
00:42:08,360 --> 00:42:11,560
Speaker 4: Putting all the plants, like making like you know, that

849
00:42:11,640 --> 00:42:15,600
Speaker 4: top little loft like your little sanctuary, and and like

850
00:42:15,760 --> 00:42:18,520
Speaker 4: keeping your space how you want to feel and how

851
00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:20,560
Speaker 4: you want to feel about your home life, you know,

852
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:23,120
Speaker 4: because it's important. And I think that I think that

853
00:42:23,239 --> 00:42:25,040
Speaker 4: is really important to you because you do. You're a

854
00:42:25,239 --> 00:42:27,799
Speaker 4: maker of beauty. You make things beautiful. That's your gift,

855
00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:31,719
Speaker 4: and make that use that gift in your home to

856
00:42:31,760 --> 00:42:34,919
Speaker 4: help heal. That is what I feel like I'm being

857
00:42:34,960 --> 00:42:35,600
Speaker 4: told to tell.

858
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:36,000
Speaker 3: You thank you.

859
00:42:37,640 --> 00:42:40,480
Speaker 4: So I think I'm excited for you. I'm excited to

860
00:42:40,480 --> 00:42:42,560
Speaker 4: bring my housewarming gift to you. I don't know what

861
00:42:42,600 --> 00:42:44,399
Speaker 4: it is. It's going to smell good or feel good.

862
00:42:44,880 --> 00:42:47,840
Speaker 1: Well, that's something cancers really care about their home space,

863
00:42:48,200 --> 00:42:50,800
Speaker 1: and they really care about like safety and comfort. And

864
00:42:50,920 --> 00:42:53,279
Speaker 1: I realized that like putting myself in a space where

865
00:42:53,320 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 1: i'm some like where that's at liberty is like not

866
00:42:57,440 --> 00:43:00,160
Speaker 1: not not great for my mental health, but all so

867
00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:01,719
Speaker 1: that like, yeah, I could move into anywhere and make

868
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:02,399
Speaker 1: a beautiful light.

869
00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:04,759
Speaker 3: And it's something I enjoyed to do.

870
00:43:05,360 --> 00:43:09,040
Speaker 1: I've been on Pinterest for like twelve hours and it's

871
00:43:09,040 --> 00:43:10,640
Speaker 1: like it's fun for me. And I do like my

872
00:43:10,680 --> 00:43:12,760
Speaker 1: place and I'm happy. I'm grateful to have a place.

873
00:43:13,760 --> 00:43:14,759
Speaker 1: My daughter has a room.

874
00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:17,960
Speaker 4: Oh my god, you should get used the Etsy wallpaper place. Sorry,

875
00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:20,240
Speaker 4: I just had a vision for your house. The ceilings

876
00:43:20,239 --> 00:43:23,800
Speaker 4: are too high for ballpaper. But yeah, what a problem.

877
00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:26,160
Speaker 4: My ceilings are so high.

878
00:43:26,280 --> 00:43:26,719
Speaker 3: Oh my god.

879
00:43:26,760 --> 00:43:29,600
Speaker 4: I live in Studio City and my ceilings are high,

880
00:43:30,120 --> 00:43:32,279
Speaker 4: and my ceilings are too high. But I can't cop it,

881
00:43:32,320 --> 00:43:36,120
Speaker 4: so I hate it.

882
00:43:36,680 --> 00:43:39,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I can't put my pole up because this ceiling.

883
00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:41,080
Speaker 3: Let that go.

884
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:44,440
Speaker 4: Just go take pole dancing classes. I want to do

885
00:43:44,560 --> 00:43:48,359
Speaker 4: my living room. You will, like Sammy on the internet. Well,

886
00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:53,000
Speaker 4: I really admire your ability to not let stress over.

887
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:54,440
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know if it's really if it's

888
00:43:54,480 --> 00:43:56,880
Speaker 4: a good thing or a bad thing, but you manage

889
00:43:56,880 --> 00:43:57,759
Speaker 4: stress way better than.

890
00:43:57,719 --> 00:43:59,600
Speaker 3: I managed dress. You really do.

891
00:43:59,719 --> 00:44:01,200
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know if you're cursing other people

892
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:03,439
Speaker 4: out in the background or something. Maybe Orlando, I'm sorry

893
00:44:03,520 --> 00:44:10,879
Speaker 4: you okay, But either way I would be a wreck

894
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:14,920
Speaker 4: in all spaces and places, not just with my neck.

895
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:20,800
Speaker 3: So I admired that about you. Thank you, you handled

896
00:44:20,840 --> 00:44:23,799
Speaker 3: it like a boss. Congratulations. I try not to.

897
00:44:24,360 --> 00:44:27,399
Speaker 1: I try not to melt downs because I don't think

898
00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:31,080
Speaker 1: that's gonna help the shit. So I am at ease

899
00:44:31,320 --> 00:44:34,480
Speaker 1: and I'm very grateful, and I'm even more grateful for

900
00:44:34,520 --> 00:44:36,040
Speaker 1: the lessons too, you know, like.

901
00:44:37,560 --> 00:44:38,600
Speaker 3: Shit is rough.

902
00:44:38,640 --> 00:44:43,840
Speaker 1: Sometimes I'm not exempt, I'm not perfect and then but

903
00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:47,799
Speaker 1: problems and obstacles are never permanent and I know that,

904
00:44:47,880 --> 00:44:49,520
Speaker 1: and like, I think it's also been a trigger for

905
00:44:49,560 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 1: me because like three years ago, I was moving out

906
00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:55,400
Speaker 1: of the place with Luna and I was supposed to

907
00:44:55,400 --> 00:44:57,000
Speaker 1: supposed to be temporary and end up I was staying

908
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,920
Speaker 1: with someone for like over a year and that was

909
00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:03,040
Speaker 1: super challenging for me, and I didn't like share a

910
00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:04,799
Speaker 1: lot about it because I felt embarrassed, you know, like

911
00:45:04,960 --> 00:45:06,879
Speaker 1: even for you know, with my you know, daughter, even

912
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:09,360
Speaker 1: as a single mom. But I think being in this

913
00:45:09,400 --> 00:45:12,640
Speaker 1: space two years later, three years later, I had to evaluate,

914
00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:13,960
Speaker 1: Like I think it was a trigger, but also I

915
00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:16,399
Speaker 1: had to evaluate, like, well, bitch, why haven't you worked

916
00:45:16,400 --> 00:45:17,880
Speaker 1: in your card in this whole three years when you

917
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:21,680
Speaker 1: know the situation, you're not in the same situation, you're

918
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 1: not the same person, and just accepting where there's where

919
00:45:25,040 --> 00:45:26,920
Speaker 1: there has been growth, and also where there needs to

920
00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:30,120
Speaker 1: be more pouring of fucking energy and that's okay, you know.

921
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:34,000
Speaker 1: And it's just trying to stay calm, not panic, even

922
00:45:34,040 --> 00:45:34,439
Speaker 1: though I.

923
00:45:34,360 --> 00:45:38,960
Speaker 3: Was very close to the edge, very very close.

924
00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:42,960
Speaker 1: But you know, overall, if anyone's listening and they're struggling

925
00:45:43,000 --> 00:45:47,160
Speaker 1: in any area, like you know, everybody's struggling in ways.

926
00:45:47,400 --> 00:45:50,640
Speaker 1: Shit is hard out here, like adulthood is hard, like

927
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:55,640
Speaker 1: being a parent is fucking hard, and just living is difficult,

928
00:45:55,680 --> 00:46:00,000
Speaker 1: you know, and providing and you're not alone and whatever,

929
00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:02,120
Speaker 1: even if it's an obstacle now, it won't be an

930
00:46:02,160 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 1: obstacle forever. And just you know, diligently keep calm and

931
00:46:07,080 --> 00:46:12,040
Speaker 1: know that you're safe, and then everything will eventually align itself.

932
00:46:13,800 --> 00:46:16,240
Speaker 1: And it may have carpets, but it will align itself.

933
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 4: Their magic carpets, magic carpets to the transformative snakes.

934
00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 3: They are magic carpets. I've decided.

935
00:46:24,080 --> 00:46:27,920
Speaker 1: There are two balconies and two bathrooms and a loft.

936
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 3: And jeal I wish I had two bathrooms.

937
00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:33,880
Speaker 4: That would be a game changer, yeah, because, yeah, the

938
00:46:33,920 --> 00:46:35,600
Speaker 4: one bathroom thing is not ideal.

939
00:46:35,760 --> 00:46:38,879
Speaker 1: It's really not. You have outside shower, though, I really

940
00:46:38,920 --> 00:46:39,600
Speaker 1: love that shower.

941
00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:43,160
Speaker 3: I do. I do. I've had my relationship with my home.

942
00:46:43,200 --> 00:46:45,960
Speaker 4: I've lived there for eight years and that's where you know,

943
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:49,560
Speaker 4: me and my child's father moved when I was pregnant.

944
00:46:49,560 --> 00:46:51,640
Speaker 4: So and I'm really grateful for my space, but I

945
00:46:51,680 --> 00:46:53,759
Speaker 4: go in and out of like it's not enough. I

946
00:46:53,840 --> 00:46:55,480
Speaker 4: hate this, like I want to move, And then I

947
00:46:55,520 --> 00:46:59,680
Speaker 4: go outside and then I'm like, my backyard's dead. I hate,

948
00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:01,120
Speaker 4: and then it rains and.

949
00:47:01,120 --> 00:47:01,799
Speaker 3: It's beautiful again.

950
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:05,160
Speaker 4: I'm like, I love my backyard. It's so great. And

951
00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:08,600
Speaker 4: you know, I want to move too. But you know, California,

952
00:47:08,640 --> 00:47:10,919
Speaker 4: rent is not a motherfucking game, y'all. If you're thinking

953
00:47:10,920 --> 00:47:12,640
Speaker 4: about moving to La think twice.

954
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:14,680
Speaker 3: It's crazy.

955
00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:16,879
Speaker 1: And I have friends who are like, oh my god,

956
00:47:16,960 --> 00:47:19,120
Speaker 1: like I'm selling my house for one point eight, but

957
00:47:19,200 --> 00:47:21,479
Speaker 1: all the houses on the market are like anything good

958
00:47:21,600 --> 00:47:28,080
Speaker 1: is like two point five. And I'm like, okay, yeah,

959
00:47:28,239 --> 00:47:30,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, wow, our lives are different. And I'm like

960
00:47:30,160 --> 00:47:32,240
Speaker 1: and and we have to move out of the country.

961
00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:34,359
Speaker 1: I'll never live here. I can never afford sit here.

962
00:47:34,520 --> 00:47:37,239
Speaker 3: We will, but we will be able to do both.

963
00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:41,000
Speaker 4: But yeah, it's but it is like I don't want

964
00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:43,920
Speaker 4: to move unless I feel like I'm actually upgrading my life,

965
00:47:43,920 --> 00:47:45,560
Speaker 4: and my ego will not allow it.

966
00:47:45,800 --> 00:47:48,799
Speaker 3: And I'm just like, I will just stay here and

967
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:49,880
Speaker 3: do you have a great place?

968
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:54,040
Speaker 4: And so but I've had to reinvigorate my space and

969
00:47:54,120 --> 00:47:57,239
Speaker 4: my place over and over again. But ultimately, I know

970
00:47:57,320 --> 00:47:59,680
Speaker 4: when I come home that one thing that I that

971
00:47:59,760 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 4: makes me feel good about my space is that I

972
00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:03,359
Speaker 4: know there's a certain way it has to.

973
00:48:03,320 --> 00:48:05,320
Speaker 3: Be in order of me for me to feel really

974
00:48:05,320 --> 00:48:06,200
Speaker 3: good all the time in it.

975
00:48:06,200 --> 00:48:11,480
Speaker 4: And it's clean, it's clean and organized, and that's really

976
00:48:11,520 --> 00:48:15,560
Speaker 4: hard with a kid, but you know, I that's that

977
00:48:15,719 --> 00:48:17,840
Speaker 4: I know for sure. For people that are like I

978
00:48:17,840 --> 00:48:21,080
Speaker 4: can't move, like it's just changed something. Maybe you're maybe

979
00:48:21,120 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 4: that living room is junkie as hell, girl, clean that

980
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:27,000
Speaker 4: shit up and reimagine it. And sometimes it's just like

981
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:31,320
Speaker 4: those little changes that can change your perspective on your situation,

982
00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:35,000
Speaker 4: like reimagining the situation. You might not be able to

983
00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:39,600
Speaker 4: change your situation at this very moment, and and a

984
00:48:39,600 --> 00:48:43,360
Speaker 4: lot of us can't. And so I think just really

985
00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:46,560
Speaker 4: taking the time to think about how you can change

986
00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:48,840
Speaker 4: your mindset around it, how you can change the actual

987
00:48:48,880 --> 00:48:52,439
Speaker 4: what it looks like around you is a fucking hack,

988
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:55,360
Speaker 4: because that's the only reason I'm a bit okay, and

989
00:48:55,400 --> 00:48:57,960
Speaker 4: not only reason, but that's what as guests has helped

990
00:48:58,000 --> 00:48:59,720
Speaker 4: me be cool in my spot.

991
00:49:00,000 --> 00:49:01,080
Speaker 3: Although I know I'm.

992
00:49:00,880 --> 00:49:03,680
Speaker 4: Moving at the end of this year or in January,

993
00:49:03,840 --> 00:49:07,880
Speaker 4: it's happening right or shine, I'm manifesting that right now,

994
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:11,400
Speaker 4: and I don't.

995
00:49:11,239 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 3: Know it's gonna beautiful. And I might have carpets and

996
00:49:15,160 --> 00:49:17,000
Speaker 3: said it might it might have carpets.

997
00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:20,319
Speaker 1: And also just like this is corny as hell that

998
00:49:20,440 --> 00:49:23,120
Speaker 1: like home is where the heart is it is, you know,

999
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:25,480
Speaker 1: like home is inside of you and home is you know,

1000
00:49:25,520 --> 00:49:29,200
Speaker 1: And that's what I was thinking, like just in this process,

1001
00:49:29,320 --> 00:49:34,719
Speaker 1: like I've been relatively happy, you know, and like I

1002
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:38,279
Speaker 1: have such amazing friends and amazing people around me that

1003
00:49:38,760 --> 00:49:42,280
Speaker 1: it makes it like I can't I can't be too

1004
00:49:42,560 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 1: too upset, you know. It's just like when like Luna

1005
00:49:45,200 --> 00:49:46,839
Speaker 1: is pouring her love into me, and like I love

1006
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:48,879
Speaker 1: you so much, mommy, and it's crazy like the things

1007
00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:51,040
Speaker 1: that like I'm super shows sad about like I hope

1008
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:52,719
Speaker 1: she's good and thankfully, like she can go to her

1009
00:49:52,719 --> 00:49:54,359
Speaker 1: grandma's house and she's a room there and she comes

1010
00:49:54,400 --> 00:49:58,359
Speaker 1: back and you know she hasn't been like deeply at

1011
00:49:58,400 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 1: a she's it's summer. My kid is super patient with

1012
00:50:01,560 --> 00:50:03,839
Speaker 1: me too, Like we're we sleeping tonight and like here

1013
00:50:03,920 --> 00:50:06,560
Speaker 1: over here, so Auntie's house, like, okay, when are you

1014
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:07,120
Speaker 1: getting place?

1015
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 3: I'm like soon, It's like.

1016
00:50:08,120 --> 00:50:09,920
Speaker 1: Okay, you know what I mean, Like just like but

1017
00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:13,600
Speaker 1: just her love and her patience, Orlando's love. Like I

1018
00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:16,440
Speaker 1: was in this situation completely without a partner, and like.

1019
00:50:16,520 --> 00:50:17,720
Speaker 3: It does feel totally different.

1020
00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:20,040
Speaker 1: And we have been relatively happy and we're just pretending

1021
00:50:20,080 --> 00:50:23,200
Speaker 1: like we're taking staycations, you know, like let's just stay

1022
00:50:23,200 --> 00:50:26,960
Speaker 1: at the hotel, and like even though we're both deeply stressed,

1023
00:50:27,280 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 1: just together collaboratively deciding that we're gonna still be happy

1024
00:50:34,080 --> 00:50:35,920
Speaker 1: in it, you know, and like really just like that

1025
00:50:36,040 --> 00:50:39,000
Speaker 1: the love of my family and my friends really makes

1026
00:50:39,040 --> 00:50:40,080
Speaker 1: me feel.

1027
00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:42,120
Speaker 3: That, like you know, like.

1028
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:45,760
Speaker 1: Warm and fuzzy inside despite feeling chaotic on the outside

1029
00:50:45,760 --> 00:50:48,360
Speaker 1: for obvious reasons. I just I am grateful because like

1030
00:50:48,640 --> 00:50:51,120
Speaker 1: I think and looking back, even when I was like

1031
00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:53,239
Speaker 1: didn't have a place and for like over you know,

1032
00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:57,120
Speaker 1: for a long time. It's just like I still looking

1033
00:50:57,160 --> 00:50:59,319
Speaker 1: back on the bigger scope of things, that was one

1034
00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:01,040
Speaker 1: year of my life, you know, like Luna may not

1035
00:51:01,040 --> 00:51:05,120
Speaker 1: even remember that shit. But just like, if anything happens

1036
00:51:05,120 --> 00:51:07,239
Speaker 1: to me tomorrow, at the end of the day, like

1037
00:51:07,239 --> 00:51:08,600
Speaker 1: I'm not going to care that I didn't have an

1038
00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:10,360
Speaker 1: apartment for eight weeks. I'm gonna be like, Oh, my

1039
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:13,680
Speaker 1: kid and my boyfriend, my friends Erica, like the travels

1040
00:51:13,680 --> 00:51:15,720
Speaker 1: that we did, the things that I've learned, the people

1041
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:17,799
Speaker 1: have been able to collaborate.

1042
00:51:17,239 --> 00:51:17,719
Speaker 3: With, you know.

1043
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:20,719
Speaker 1: It's just like sometimes we're so stressed out because like

1044
00:51:20,760 --> 00:51:23,240
Speaker 1: as adults, we're supposed to have it all together. Everything's

1045
00:51:23,239 --> 00:51:26,160
Speaker 1: supposed to look like this, because Joe and Sam and

1046
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:28,719
Speaker 1: you know, Keisho over there look like they have it

1047
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:31,320
Speaker 1: all together. And it's like like at the end of

1048
00:51:31,360 --> 00:51:36,799
Speaker 1: the day, just having love is really all we can

1049
00:51:36,840 --> 00:51:37,440
Speaker 1: take with us.

1050
00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:42,080
Speaker 3: Amen, bitch, hallelujah.

1051
00:51:42,760 --> 00:51:44,759
Speaker 1: So I love you and thank you for supporting me

1052
00:51:44,960 --> 00:51:49,200
Speaker 1: in this time that's been very chaotic for me and

1053
00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:51,880
Speaker 1: like very traumatic because I think I've been in this

1054
00:51:51,960 --> 00:51:55,360
Speaker 1: situation before and being patient with me and you know,

1055
00:51:55,480 --> 00:51:59,680
Speaker 1: supportive even when I cry randomly, and just also just

1056
00:51:59,680 --> 00:52:02,279
Speaker 1: like not judging me, and I'm never feeling judged by

1057
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:05,279
Speaker 1: you despite you know, like just having you know, just

1058
00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:08,600
Speaker 1: different things come up and I know, like it's we're

1059
00:52:08,600 --> 00:52:11,680
Speaker 1: best friends and we like every like we have lived

1060
00:52:11,680 --> 00:52:14,400
Speaker 1: such close, tight knit lives to each other because we

1061
00:52:14,480 --> 00:52:17,960
Speaker 1: work together and there's constant, constant stress and go.

1062
00:52:18,200 --> 00:52:21,400
Speaker 3: But like, I appreciate you and I love you. I

1063
00:52:21,440 --> 00:52:24,080
Speaker 3: appreciate you to thank you. I love you. I'm so

1064
00:52:24,160 --> 00:52:25,760
Speaker 3: happy for you. I'm proud of you.

1065
00:52:26,719 --> 00:52:32,400
Speaker 4: And I was gonna try and find something else beautiful

1066
00:52:32,440 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 4: to say, but I don't have anything else.

1067
00:52:35,320 --> 00:52:37,920
Speaker 3: You know, the feeling, the vibes, I know, they're deep.

1068
00:52:39,080 --> 00:52:41,040
Speaker 4: We meet Mela, I found out that I was Mela's

1069
00:52:41,080 --> 00:52:44,879
Speaker 4: husband in a past life, so it's true.

1070
00:52:44,960 --> 00:52:48,040
Speaker 3: I just love you. I love you that much. I

1071
00:52:48,080 --> 00:52:50,319
Speaker 3: love you like a husband that's his wife and a

1072
00:52:50,320 --> 00:52:54,880
Speaker 3: best friend. I would want perfect I knew it well.

1073
00:52:54,920 --> 00:52:58,160
Speaker 4: I'm interested to know what the cards say, honey, after

1074
00:52:58,200 --> 00:53:01,759
Speaker 4: today's conversation, because you know, the cards always have a message,

1075
00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:06,720
Speaker 4: and so it Tarot time, Tero time.

1076
00:53:06,920 --> 00:53:13,799
Speaker 3: I pulled shout out to mahogany Taro dye. The Night

1077
00:53:13,840 --> 00:53:17,520
Speaker 3: of Swords no Night of ones, oh shit sorry.

1078
00:53:18,040 --> 00:53:23,640
Speaker 1: Nine of Wands and the nighte of Wands means energy, passion,

1079
00:53:23,800 --> 00:53:29,080
Speaker 1: inspired action, adventure, impulsiveness. While the page of Wands marks

1080
00:53:29,120 --> 00:53:31,960
Speaker 1: the initial spark of a new idea, the Night of

1081
00:53:32,000 --> 00:53:34,759
Speaker 1: Wands shows the actual pursuit of that idea. When this

1082
00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:37,600
Speaker 1: card appears in a tarot reading, you are charged up

1083
00:53:37,640 --> 00:53:41,680
Speaker 1: with energy, passion, motivation, and enthusiasm, and you channel that

1084
00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:45,200
Speaker 1: energy through your inspired action. You have a clear vision

1085
00:53:45,280 --> 00:53:47,880
Speaker 1: about what you want to create, and fueled by your

1086
00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:51,840
Speaker 1: passion inspiration, you're now moving forward with leaps and bounds

1087
00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:54,879
Speaker 1: to turn your vision into reality. This card is your

1088
00:53:54,880 --> 00:53:58,200
Speaker 1: sign to go for it. You are bold and courageous

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00:53:58,239 --> 00:54:01,279
Speaker 1: and willing to venture into unknown territories to further your

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00:54:01,320 --> 00:54:04,120
Speaker 1: mission and your dreams. You don't really care if danger

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00:54:04,160 --> 00:54:05,959
Speaker 1: lies ahead. In fact, it does.

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Speaker 3: Oh god, oh God, I love it.

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Speaker 1: And it becomes all the more exciting and thrilling for you.

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00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:17,200
Speaker 1: Adventures like this light you up because you know growth

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00:54:17,239 --> 00:54:21,799
Speaker 1: and expansion are waiting on the other side. Be a

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00:54:21,840 --> 00:54:25,360
Speaker 1: pioneer and take calculated risks to reach new heights.

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Speaker 3: Hmm, Okay, this is just a reminder too.

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00:54:32,920 --> 00:54:35,440
Speaker 4: I guess maybe, well we are already we already this

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00:54:35,560 --> 00:54:38,319
Speaker 4: sounds like us all the time anyway, but also.

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Speaker 3: Take over the world. Fuck it, we could do it.

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00:54:41,920 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 4: Be honest, have continue to be bold and brave and

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Speaker 4: have these honest conversations, because I think that is our gift,

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00:54:49,239 --> 00:54:51,640
Speaker 4: you know, And I think that as being able to

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00:54:51,719 --> 00:54:54,840
Speaker 4: share and intimate parts of our life, whether they're in

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00:54:54,960 --> 00:55:01,360
Speaker 4: motion or after the fact, has been really radical and

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Speaker 4: I'm happy to do it, even if it causes problems

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Speaker 4: in my life, even though sometimes people get mad at.

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Speaker 3: Me, sometimes very Sometimes sometimes people get upset. Sometimes brands

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00:55:16,800 --> 00:55:17,919
Speaker 3: say it's too much.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I listened to episode we did rather recently

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00:55:22,719 --> 00:55:24,960
Speaker 1: and I was like, God, like, what is wrong with me?

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00:55:26,360 --> 00:55:30,359
Speaker 1: I was just like nothing, talking about like the Christians.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, oh my god, am I who am? I

1114
00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:36,560
Speaker 3: like an opinionated young black woman's like, what do they

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00:55:36,600 --> 00:55:42,000
Speaker 3: do to me? I do? I'm like, Jesus Christ, maybe

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00:55:42,000 --> 00:55:45,279
Speaker 3: I need to chill. Well, listen, that's right there.

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00:55:45,440 --> 00:55:48,239
Speaker 4: That's the honesty, you going back and saying reflecting on

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Speaker 4: something that.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if it's like because I know other

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00:55:50,680 --> 00:55:52,799
Speaker 1: people are hearing it. I'm like I mean, but I

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00:55:52,840 --> 00:55:58,360
Speaker 1: do have to be like, huh, that seems like a

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00:55:58,440 --> 00:56:03,200
Speaker 1: very strong opinion for someone who believes in Oh, people

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Speaker 1: having opinion.

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00:56:06,360 --> 00:56:10,839
Speaker 4: Usually opinionated people will have also strong opinions about other

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Speaker 4: people's opinions. So that's where the growth comes.

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Speaker 3: You know.

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00:56:16,239 --> 00:56:22,120
Speaker 4: Continuous birthay, the continuous twenty two month birth, twenty two year.

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Speaker 1: Birth, twenty two I've been birthing for twenty two years myself.

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Speaker 3: I've been trying to birth patience. But twenty nine years.

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00:56:30,600 --> 00:56:33,640
Speaker 1: That's about sixty two hundred and ninety three days.

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00:56:33,719 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 4: The baby is forty two percent ready, I'll let you

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Speaker 4: know we crossed the fifty percent old crown.

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Speaker 3: And maybe we might stay there for about ten years.

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00:56:46,200 --> 00:56:50,200
Speaker 3: Oh that sounds pain such as life fish.

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00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:51,799
Speaker 1: I really just want to.

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00:56:51,719 --> 00:56:54,840
Speaker 3: Get the head out. Oh my goodness.

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00:56:56,200 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 1: Before we started this episode, I just realized we have

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00:56:59,520 --> 00:57:01,920
Speaker 1: so many conversations and layers that like, there'll be three

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00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:04,960
Speaker 1: days later I'd be like, huh, we even finished that conversation.

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Speaker 1: I wonder what the end of it is.

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00:57:06,600 --> 00:57:07,120
Speaker 3: What was it?

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00:57:07,200 --> 00:57:08,799
Speaker 1: Well, that's another one I just thought of. But this

1143
00:57:08,840 --> 00:57:10,720
Speaker 1: is when you just told me before we started about

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00:57:10,719 --> 00:57:12,120
Speaker 1: your mom had a reading and she said, are you

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00:57:12,160 --> 00:57:12,960
Speaker 1: trying to get pregnant?

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00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:16,000
Speaker 3: Oh? Whoa really switching gears? Whoa whoa.

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00:57:16,200 --> 00:57:18,720
Speaker 1: I just remembered, Yeah, well the fact we're birthing our

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00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:19,960
Speaker 1: new selves and maybe think.

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00:57:19,840 --> 00:57:21,560
Speaker 4: About, oh yeah, well, I'm not birthing shit over here.

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00:57:22,080 --> 00:57:24,800
Speaker 4: There's no babies about to be born or conceived.

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00:57:25,040 --> 00:57:30,400
Speaker 3: Now I'm now but to take my daughter off. You're pregnant.

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00:57:31,200 --> 00:57:35,680
Speaker 3: No you want me to e now my baby.

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00:57:36,000 --> 00:57:40,000
Speaker 1: I've already I have three kids now.

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Speaker 5: No.

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Speaker 4: After this this, my daughter just increasingly gets more expensive,

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00:57:47,320 --> 00:57:51,400
Speaker 4: Like she's eight now, she's getting more expensive. I'm getting

1157
00:57:51,440 --> 00:57:56,720
Speaker 4: more expensive also. So there's that problem slash blessing slash problem,

1158
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Speaker 4: because there's a certain level of life that I'm trying

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00:57:59,360 --> 00:58:00,960
Speaker 4: to live on my own, and I know I can't

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00:58:00,960 --> 00:58:03,600
Speaker 4: be selfish and not bring her along in ways, and

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Speaker 4: so like We're about to go to Europe for sixteen days,

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00:58:06,680 --> 00:58:09,560
Speaker 4: and I didn't book the whole trip at once, so

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00:58:09,680 --> 00:58:11,760
Speaker 4: I like I bought the flight month months and months ago.

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00:58:11,800 --> 00:58:13,200
Speaker 4: So I was like, maybe if if I break it up,

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00:58:13,240 --> 00:58:15,960
Speaker 4: it will feel so crazy, you know. And then I

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00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:19,480
Speaker 4: like booked an airbnb like two months ago, and then

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00:58:19,520 --> 00:58:21,800
Speaker 4: I booked another hotel like a week later at four

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00:58:21,840 --> 00:58:24,480
Speaker 4: am because that's when I did my shopping and then

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00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:26,600
Speaker 4: I didn't really figure out the rest of the trip.

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Speaker 4: And then today we're leaving on Monday, I'm really like

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00:58:29,800 --> 00:58:31,840
Speaker 4: reflecting on, Wow, I haven't booked that other part.

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00:58:32,560 --> 00:58:35,520
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, we have to spend money while we're there.

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00:58:36,160 --> 00:58:39,880
Speaker 4: Oh I want to maybe buy something nice in Italy

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00:58:39,960 --> 00:58:40,760
Speaker 4: and be fancy.

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00:58:40,920 --> 00:58:44,560
Speaker 3: How we're gonna do that? And then she's gonna want

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00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:48,800
Speaker 3: something fancy. So I was just thinking, like do I

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00:58:48,840 --> 00:58:49,240
Speaker 3: want to do this?

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00:58:49,320 --> 00:58:52,760
Speaker 4: And if I had another one, like I'd have to

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00:58:52,800 --> 00:58:56,760
Speaker 4: restart this process all over again.

1180
00:58:56,880 --> 00:58:57,640
Speaker 3: And I don't know.

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00:58:57,720 --> 00:59:00,240
Speaker 4: I mean, I've always said I could be convince to

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00:59:00,280 --> 00:59:03,280
Speaker 4: have a baby possibly if I felt you know, I

1183
00:59:03,320 --> 00:59:07,120
Speaker 4: don't know. Maybe I just know. When my mom said

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00:59:07,120 --> 00:59:09,120
Speaker 4: that she had a reading and the girl was the

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00:59:09,160 --> 00:59:12,080
Speaker 4: woman was like, yeah, is she pregnant or is she

1186
00:59:13,000 --> 00:59:15,720
Speaker 4: trying to get pregnant? And she also that same woman

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00:59:16,200 --> 00:59:19,320
Speaker 4: told me that I was going to have another baby soon.

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00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:21,440
Speaker 4: I was I think I got that reading in November

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00:59:21,600 --> 00:59:22,080
Speaker 4: last year.

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Speaker 3: So I don't know. They need to relax and leave

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00:59:24,760 --> 00:59:27,480
Speaker 3: the babies away from me. Can we plan it?

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00:59:27,480 --> 00:59:33,800
Speaker 1: Can we have a baby Back's.

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00:59:32,840 --> 00:59:38,200
Speaker 3: Baby, Sell two Babies, Who wants to see Me? And

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Speaker 3: Mela Pregnant Podcast. It's a whole new era of good

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Speaker 3: Mom's Bad.

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Speaker 1: Choices, Good Bear, Good Mom's Better Choices, Part two. Because

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00:59:45,680 --> 00:59:48,720
Speaker 1: we're old, they were smarter. Now it could be cute,

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00:59:48,800 --> 00:59:50,240
Speaker 1: it could be cut. I think this is the part

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Speaker 1: where I convince you. I mean I can't can't convince you. No, baby,

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00:59:52,680 --> 00:59:54,040
Speaker 1: Are you the one that's going to convince me? Not

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00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:55,560
Speaker 1: even not even my own man?

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00:59:56,040 --> 00:59:58,560
Speaker 3: Damn? I think you should. I think we should do it.

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00:59:58,560 --> 01:00:00,760
Speaker 3: So Mila said that we're gonna have a Now you're

1204
01:00:01,840 --> 01:00:02,960
Speaker 3: never going to be a single mom.

1205
01:00:03,000 --> 01:00:06,520
Speaker 1: I'm your baby daddy. And now we have Orlando, So you.

1206
01:00:06,600 --> 01:00:09,080
Speaker 4: Got to now my man that I'm with is going

1207
01:00:09,120 --> 01:00:10,960
Speaker 4: to be the father and we're never going to break

1208
01:00:11,000 --> 01:00:13,200
Speaker 4: up because we're never doing that again. I know we're

1209
01:00:13,200 --> 01:00:15,440
Speaker 4: not till death to us fucking part, do you hear me?

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01:00:15,640 --> 01:00:17,439
Speaker 1: Because we're doing it smarter, like we have so many

1211
01:00:17,440 --> 01:00:21,000
Speaker 1: people now and then like we even added Luna and

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01:00:21,040 --> 01:00:21,920
Speaker 1: I read to the equation.

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01:00:22,240 --> 01:00:25,600
Speaker 3: So okay, well we have time because let me think

1214
01:00:25,600 --> 01:00:26,760
Speaker 3: about it. I don't know.

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01:00:26,840 --> 01:00:28,800
Speaker 1: I'm on birth control. Thank God for the love of

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01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:30,160
Speaker 1: fucking Jesus about it.

1217
01:00:30,280 --> 01:00:32,680
Speaker 4: Let me talk it through with my partner because he

1218
01:00:32,720 --> 01:00:34,680
Speaker 4: doesn't know if he wants to have kids either, so

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01:00:34,720 --> 01:00:35,439
Speaker 4: we're both kind.

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01:00:35,320 --> 01:00:37,360
Speaker 3: Of on the fence. It's not like a necessity.

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01:00:37,440 --> 01:00:39,320
Speaker 1: I'll check back in like January.

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01:00:39,360 --> 01:00:41,400
Speaker 4: But he might be convinced if he thought, like I

1223
01:00:41,480 --> 01:00:44,840
Speaker 4: was going to become like super balling bawling balling from birth.

1224
01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:47,680
Speaker 1: We can, I mean, we can do a strategy plan now.

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01:00:48,920 --> 01:00:53,160
Speaker 3: Falling from birth. Those bitches got balling after birth? Are

1226
01:00:53,160 --> 01:00:54,880
Speaker 3: you pregnant? That's the storyline I wanted.

1227
01:00:55,360 --> 01:00:57,840
Speaker 4: Those bitches got so much they got they were bawling

1228
01:00:57,920 --> 01:00:58,760
Speaker 4: out after birth.

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01:00:58,840 --> 01:00:59,640
Speaker 3: Yes, I was.

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01:01:00,200 --> 01:01:04,400
Speaker 1: I mean, honestly, this my life is much better now

1231
01:01:04,440 --> 01:01:07,600
Speaker 1: that I'm a mom. It did birth a new version

1232
01:01:07,640 --> 01:01:10,360
Speaker 1: of me. At birthed this friendship. It birthed a lot

1233
01:01:10,480 --> 01:01:14,160
Speaker 1: of like, I mean, shit, good mom's bad choices, so

1234
01:01:14,760 --> 01:01:18,960
Speaker 1: we wouldn't be this last five years were completely different.

1235
01:01:18,960 --> 01:01:21,920
Speaker 1: How do we not birthed for humans? So now we

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01:01:21,960 --> 01:01:23,240
Speaker 1: have better strategy plans.

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01:01:23,280 --> 01:01:25,040
Speaker 4: That's so really yeah, I was, that's a really nice

1238
01:01:25,560 --> 01:01:28,840
Speaker 4: like way of saying we're gonna exploit our birth. I

1239
01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:32,040
Speaker 4: was like, that was so sweet and beautiful so when

1240
01:01:32,080 --> 01:01:34,480
Speaker 4: you see me and Mila exploiting our birth.

1241
01:01:34,760 --> 01:01:36,120
Speaker 1: Just know it was a business deal.

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01:01:38,600 --> 01:01:39,360
Speaker 3: Oh my god.

1243
01:01:39,840 --> 01:01:41,760
Speaker 1: So I've been thinking how to take your new business

1244
01:01:41,800 --> 01:01:44,000
Speaker 1: to the next level, and I got the nine month

1245
01:01:44,040 --> 01:01:48,720
Speaker 1: plan right here. I'm on birth control. I put the

1246
01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:53,680
Speaker 1: non hormonal copper iud in because you're done tired of

1247
01:01:53,720 --> 01:01:56,280
Speaker 1: your shit. I'm tired of my own shit, and I'm

1248
01:01:56,440 --> 01:01:58,280
Speaker 1: very fertile, and ain't nobody.

1249
01:01:57,960 --> 01:01:58,560
Speaker 3: Got time for that.

1250
01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:01,080
Speaker 1: So when you're ready, I could take it out.

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01:02:01,120 --> 01:02:04,880
Speaker 3: Okay, I'll let you know. Well, like, don't worry. Okay,

1252
01:02:04,920 --> 01:02:06,520
Speaker 3: let me just get past this trip and see how

1253
01:02:06,600 --> 01:02:09,960
Speaker 3: much this costs. Okay, I mean it's.

1254
01:02:09,840 --> 01:02:11,479
Speaker 1: Gonna cost a lot. So you're gonna need another baby

1255
01:02:11,520 --> 01:02:13,440
Speaker 1: to blow the business out of the water.

1256
01:02:13,480 --> 01:02:14,760
Speaker 3: It's true.

1257
01:02:15,880 --> 01:02:17,640
Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. I'm not trying to.

1258
01:02:17,800 --> 01:02:23,720
Speaker 3: Who's gonna raise it? I mean raise Orlando.

1259
01:02:23,840 --> 01:02:27,960
Speaker 4: I mean I could give it to him, and then

1260
01:02:28,440 --> 01:02:29,920
Speaker 4: I don't know, maybe we can give you a betro

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01:02:30,000 --> 01:02:31,080
Speaker 4: to make sure they're both boys.

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01:02:31,480 --> 01:02:33,760
Speaker 1: I know I'm having a boy, like many psychics have

1263
01:02:33,840 --> 01:02:35,200
Speaker 1: told me. I already told myself.

1264
01:02:35,280 --> 01:02:36,800
Speaker 3: So I'm having a boil.

1265
01:02:36,840 --> 01:02:39,640
Speaker 4: So I know that for sure, if I had another baby,

1266
01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:41,720
Speaker 4: if I had a girl, I would prefer that.

1267
01:02:42,000 --> 01:02:44,480
Speaker 3: I would prefer a girl. I like girls. I know

1268
01:02:44,520 --> 01:02:47,360
Speaker 3: how to deal with them. Yeah, I like being responsible

1269
01:02:47,360 --> 01:02:49,240
Speaker 3: for the girls. I don't know if I want to

1270
01:02:49,280 --> 01:02:51,800
Speaker 3: be responsible for That's the thing that might be the

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01:02:51,840 --> 01:02:53,560
Speaker 3: life lesson that I have to learn that. Oh, that's

1272
01:02:53,600 --> 01:02:53,840
Speaker 3: the thing.

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01:02:53,880 --> 01:02:55,880
Speaker 1: Like, if it's a boy, you could be less responsible.

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01:02:55,880 --> 01:03:02,200
Speaker 1: It's more than dad's thing. You're kind of like, here

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01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:09,560
Speaker 1: you go, true, true, Okay, enough of babies as a business,

1276
01:03:10,040 --> 01:03:11,280
Speaker 1: baby boys.

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01:03:10,840 --> 01:03:12,480
Speaker 3: The birth of being born, I mean the business of

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01:03:12,520 --> 01:03:15,200
Speaker 3: being born. This is the business of being born. For

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01:03:15,320 --> 01:03:22,840
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Speaker 1: We're always sending you know, update checking in with our peeps, and.

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Speaker 3: Our website is really cute. It is. It's very professionally.

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Speaker 3: We spend a lot of money on it.

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Speaker 3: Bye bye.

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