Speaker 1: Come from nay name.
Speaker 2: Name herr has it own ma'am.
Speaker 3: Yeah, hey, I am an old lady, but I've got
Speaker 3: a revenged story. I put sugar in my own gas tanks.
Speaker 2: On going really uh, to get revenge on yourself because
Speaker 2: you sabotaged yourself in someone. Well, see this is never
Speaker 2: an eccle because you revenge on yourself forgetting for putting
Speaker 2: sugar in your own gas tank. And then you well
Speaker 2: vench back and.
Speaker 3: You know, and guess what it was all over one
Speaker 3: little tiny word, the word or because when I got married,
Speaker 3: say this motherfucker, and I have no I don't feel
Speaker 3: bad about it at all. He talked. He taught me
Speaker 3: into buying a car. He never worked.
Speaker 2: Him.
Speaker 3: Well, he taught me into put his name or me
Speaker 3: on the title. And he waited till I fell asleep.
Speaker 3: My kids were still like in grace, like like they
Speaker 3: were young who just left me, abandoned me? Took my
Speaker 3: fucking Mercedes at that it was a classic. It was
Speaker 3: in perfect conditions. Took the car and then have the
Speaker 3: title transferred over. Yeah, I was pretty mad about it.
Speaker 2: And to his name, he stole your.
Speaker 3: Car, yes, and like his mom helps him do it
Speaker 3: like he does that. That mightther fuck herself. My cousband
Speaker 3: came up with this great idea. You know, she's young.
Speaker 3: I'm getting out of bread. It's so good to get
Speaker 3: this off my kids. I like your shout. By the way,
Speaker 3: let me take a sip from.
Speaker 2: Go for it. It's Monday night. That's what is you?
Speaker 2: What is your relationship to this guy?
Speaker 4: Again?
Speaker 2: He's like your ex boyfriend or something, husband him or
Speaker 2: you guys.
Speaker 3: If he's dead, now he's dead.
Speaker 2: Now he's dead.
Speaker 3: The story he died. Oh I'm not. I'm not. I'm
Speaker 3: not sad about it. I'd be lying if I said
Speaker 3: outside that I suck him for him. But anyway, so
Speaker 3: my cousin she's like, look, fuck him too, let's let's go.
Speaker 3: You know, I'll miss up some sugar water in a picture.
Speaker 3: And like her mom is like this. I can't say
Speaker 3: a lot, but she's high up, like in the corporate world.
Speaker 3: And it was she started the idea.
Speaker 2: She got hold on, hold on, hold on what what
Speaker 2: corporate world? Because there's a lot of different right, different industries.
Speaker 3: It's a major one. It's a major one, is you?
Speaker 3: So I don't want to do nothing that would agree
Speaker 3: with her job. But she was down with it. She
Speaker 3: was like she was working us up and help us
Speaker 3: help and us mix it. But see I was a
Speaker 3: concern because then aren't can I say? Hell, it's happened
Speaker 3: so long ago. But my car was like in eighty
Speaker 3: four or eighty five Mercedes E Class each each twenty
Speaker 3: or something. I don't even remember. But it was a
Speaker 3: nice little car. Okay, in that model, the gas cat
Speaker 3: has a metal pin that when you shut it and
Speaker 3: you know, you lock your door you're driving whatever, that
Speaker 3: pen goes through for security, right, so nobody can just
Speaker 3: pop it open or whatever, you know, like I was
Speaker 3: planning to do to my own. I was like, fuck it.
Speaker 3: I'd rather kill that car and him happy to be
Speaker 3: like invest in a lot of work to fix it.
Speaker 2: Can I tell you something?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I tell you something.
Speaker 2: Sure, And you know I'm gonna tell you this because
Speaker 2: you know, I like you, Nanna. I appreciate that, you know,
Speaker 2: and I want the best for you. Nana. Listen. You
Speaker 2: know it sounds like sounds like, uh, you're pretty upset.
Speaker 3: Oh no, not anymore. I mean I'm just kind of
Speaker 3: nervous because I know I hadn't easily talked to people anyway. So,
Speaker 3: but I, like you shout, I felt crown, he felt drown.
Speaker 2: You know, Nana, I understand that you're upset that your
Speaker 2: your ex husband. I hope I would hope.
Speaker 5: That.
Speaker 2: Uh, you know, you don't keep that anger with you
Speaker 2: because you know, oh God, husband, he's gone, you know,
Speaker 2: because I want to say, you know, look, at a
Speaker 2: certain point, Nanny, you know you got to forgive for
Speaker 2: your own sake, you know, not for the sake.
Speaker 3: Of Look, I could have done something to him, not
Speaker 3: the car if I was that upset about it, you know.
Speaker 3: But I was like, the car is going down. It's
Speaker 3: just got to be. It's gonna be a victim of
Speaker 3: the war, you know, a casually if I don't get
Speaker 3: the car that I worked and pay for.
Speaker 2: So you sound like so you told me you don't
Speaker 2: you don't talk to a of people.
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 2: Is that is that my choice? Or do you do
Speaker 2: you choose.
Speaker 3: To be absolutely hey? I live. Uh we have like
Speaker 3: Deams Day preppers where I live in Tennessee for real,
Speaker 3: real talk like we got like two years of food like.
Speaker 2: With how many how many?
Speaker 3: And the kids No, no, my kids are grown. I
Speaker 3: have an almost ten year old grand baby in Michigan. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I'm not just I'm just like a redneck woman that's
Speaker 3: just real independent, you know, like my homemade wine and
Speaker 3: my my herbal remedies that you know, I don't bother anybody,
Speaker 3: and just crazy old lady. I guess.
Speaker 2: That sounds like you like your life. You know, it
Speaker 2: sounds like you got a good thing going on.
Speaker 3: Great, because when I want to go do something, nashal
Speaker 3: start even it's white.
Speaker 6: No, I'm just.
Speaker 3: On Broadway too, that I shit gets old after a while.
Speaker 3: Anybody lives in a churchy place, you know, it's just
Speaker 3: another day, you know, Nashville and ship it's really spinky, honestly,
Speaker 3: but it's alright.
Speaker 2: But Nana, what do you what are your what are
Speaker 2: your Your children are grown? You said, what do they
Speaker 2: do for a living?
Speaker 3: Well, my oldest one is in the restaurant business. He cooks,
Speaker 3: he cooks, And my youngest want to find the last
Speaker 3: job he had?
Speaker 7: He was a toe tirt harver.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what do you do do you work? Are you retired?
Speaker 8: Well?
Speaker 3: I was in the corporate world. I did purchasing for
Speaker 3: a major hotel, a moot food and liquor for nine hotels.
Speaker 3: I did that, and I wasn't building analysts before that.
Speaker 3: But before all that, before I took myself back to
Speaker 3: the school, back through school. I sold shirts in a
Speaker 3: in a shirt factory for four years and I built
Speaker 3: both before. Yeah, I built notes too before that, in
Speaker 3: a boat pastor to help put boats together.
Speaker 6: That was a hard job.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I know. Those both sound like hard jobs. I
Speaker 2: couldn't imagine sewing shirts for four years.
Speaker 3: That sounds like yeah, yeah, well yeah, you.
Speaker 2: Know, well, so what do you What do you do now?
Speaker 3: Not a fucking sight, not a fucking thing.
Speaker 9: I got a settlement, But hold on, who did you
Speaker 9: get a settlement from?
Speaker 3: We don't need to talk about all that this year.
Speaker 3: We just start talking. You awfully knows you book. Maybe
Speaker 3: y'all call you back and maybe not. I don't know yet.
Speaker 3: This is this has been hard. I've been like painting
Speaker 3: the whole time. It's been too much for me. I
Speaker 3: don't know what years I thought a twitch is something
Speaker 3: you got when you had a little too much of
Speaker 3: a fine. I don't know what I'm going to.
Speaker 2: Be honest, movie, that's okay. You don't have to tell
Speaker 2: me anything. You don't want to tell.
Speaker 3: Me, Nana, I know that it's all right.
Speaker 2: We thank you. I appreciate that. Thank you so much.
Speaker 2: Forting Nana, you have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 4: I see.
Speaker 10: Never goes on the line. Thank your phone calls every night.
Speaker 10: I'm just teaching you.
Speaker 1: All from Liz Liz holy ship.
Speaker 11: What I'm really good?
Speaker 3: How are you?
Speaker 2: You're really good? Are you just saying that or are
Speaker 2: you actually really good?
Speaker 11: I'm I'm on your show. I'm doing really good.
Speaker 2: You know I I I appreciate. I want to say
Speaker 2: two things, which which is, I'm extremely grateful to be
Speaker 2: in a position where you feel good about being on
Speaker 2: my show. But logically, many people have been on my
Speaker 2: Gecko show that don't feel good. In fact, some people
Speaker 2: walk away feeling worse.
Speaker 11: I think that's impossible when they talk to you.
Speaker 2: Good, our expectations are set correctly, and we may now
Speaker 2: begin whatever it is that we do here. I don't
Speaker 2: know what I'm talking about it anymore. I'm sorry. I apologize.
Speaker 2: I could have. I really had the opportunity to open
Speaker 2: up this conversation like a normal fucking person. I blew it. Now.
Speaker 2: I'm just being hard on myself. But it's all an act.
Speaker 2: That's theater. How seriously can you take me? I'm a gecko.
Speaker 11: You're amazing. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Speaker 2: Have you ever gotten revenge?
Speaker 3: I have?
Speaker 11: Yes, I have two really good stories. One of them
Speaker 11: is about a classification that's really hard.
Speaker 1: One of the class You know.
Speaker 2: What, here's here's what we'll do, here's what you do,
Speaker 2: here's what we'll do. Tell us I like what you
Speaker 2: were doing. Just now, you were giving us log lines.
Speaker 2: Give us both log lines, and then I will let
Speaker 2: the chat decide which story they would like to hear.
Speaker 11: Okay, classification of animals angered me at one point, and
Speaker 11: I got revenge or I got revenge against a childhood bully?
Speaker 2: Mmmm, Chat, what do we want to hear? Do we
Speaker 2: want to hear the Do we want to hear the
Speaker 2: bully or the classific? I'm so curious what the class
Speaker 2: The chat is heavily in favor of the bully, because
Speaker 2: I don't think that we understand what the animal thing meant.
Speaker 2: But let's let's do the bully.
Speaker 11: Okay, So let me say the stage for you. I'm
Speaker 11: in like first grade, and I'm a chubby kid, okay,
Speaker 11: and this girl in the library was like, you're really fat.
Speaker 11: So I pushed over a bookshelf on top of her,
Speaker 11: but it caused a cascade across the library.
Speaker 2: You pushed over a bookshelf on top of her.
Speaker 11: I mean it started off that one was a very
Speaker 11: short bookshelf, but it knocked over the next one and
Speaker 11: the next one, and so I ran out of the library.
Speaker 11: Obviously I ruined the whole library. What was I going
Speaker 11: to do?
Speaker 2: You ruined the library? You say, yes, okay, So first
Speaker 2: of all, did you succeed? Did you successfully pin this
Speaker 2: young girl under a stack of books as you so desired?
Speaker 11: Absolutely?
Speaker 2: And how did that feel as you watched her trapped
Speaker 2: underneath the bookshelf? I hard grade to say that it
Speaker 2: felt really good.
Speaker 11: Oh no, I'm not afraid to say it felt really good.
Speaker 11: It was awesome.
Speaker 2: Why why was it so awesome?
Speaker 11: Mm hmmm? Because she was like six foot tall, and
Speaker 11: like first grade, she had like a growing issue, so
Speaker 11: she was super tall. It's not like I could approach
Speaker 11: her on the playground and punch her. So this was
Speaker 11: the perfect revenge. I used my skills to take her out.
Speaker 2: And why Okay, so maybe I missed some stuff here,
Speaker 2: but what what was she doing to you at first.
Speaker 11: So she had been she was she had been bullying
Speaker 11: me for a while. I was a chubby kid. So
Speaker 11: she made a lot of jokes and like, my last
Speaker 11: name is kind of weird. So she made a lot
Speaker 11: of jokes about my last name. And you know, I
Speaker 11: just think it anymore.
Speaker 2: What's your last name?
Speaker 11: Red a kiss?
Speaker 2: Red a kiss?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 2: What like what kind of well how would she make
Speaker 2: fun of that?
Speaker 11: She told all the boys I was ready to kiss
Speaker 11: it was it was very awkward in first grade.
Speaker 2: I like, I like that. That's a good Uh, that's
Speaker 2: a good tender bio. Ready to kiss.
Speaker 11: It is on my Tinder bio.
Speaker 2: Well there we go. Okay, so you appropriated it into
Speaker 2: your own thing. You owned it?
Speaker 11: Yeah?
Speaker 2: And has it? Has it gotten you? Matches? Have he
Speaker 2: has a peace people's interests?
Speaker 11: Not really?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 2: Oh okay, I was gonna say if it did, then
Speaker 2: you had her to think.
Speaker 4: True.
Speaker 2: What is she doing now?
Speaker 11: I'm pretty sure she's on her third child and she's
Speaker 11: current living in a trailer park.
Speaker 2: How do you know this? Facebook?
Speaker 12: Uh?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Facebook?
Speaker 11: She posts on Snapchat a lot too.
Speaker 2: Does she seem happy?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 2: What makes you say that?
Speaker 11: Typically she's posting about how horrible her kids are.
Speaker 2: Do you think she doesn't like her kids?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 2: For sure, at the end of the day, when all
Speaker 2: is said done, when they're being quit to bed and
Speaker 2: she looks at them, she holds them. Perhaps, Do you
Speaker 2: think that this woman loves her children?
Speaker 11: That's really hard. I think I think maybe, But I
Speaker 11: feel like she loves the baby daddy more.
Speaker 4: So.
Speaker 2: This woman seems to not like her life. Yes, And
Speaker 2: how does that make you feel? Are you like totally
Speaker 2: detached from the situation or have you held a grudge.
Speaker 11: I haven't held any grudge. I mean, she made fun
Speaker 11: of me when it came to the animal classification thing,
Speaker 11: but besides that, I haven't held a grudge.
Speaker 2: Okay, it condensed into you know, maybe a thirty second
Speaker 2: fifteen second even version. What is the abstract of the
Speaker 2: animal classification story?
Speaker 11: I was attacked by a squirrel and ever since then
Speaker 11: I've had a very bad fear of squirrels.
Speaker 2: Interesting, tell me about the squirrel attack.
Speaker 11: I was walking home one day and I noticed the
Speaker 11: squirrel following me. So I started to pick up my
Speaker 11: pace and it was still behind me. So I started
Speaker 11: running and it chased after me, and it was making
Speaker 11: this weird sound like a I can't even describe. It
Speaker 11: was like a clicking sound. So when I got home
Speaker 11: and locked the door behind me, obviously, I went to
Speaker 11: my desktop computer and I realized after doing some research
Speaker 11: that that was a squirrel mating call.
Speaker 2: The squirrel was attracted to you sexually. Yes, and you
Speaker 2: did not reciprocate.
Speaker 14: No.
Speaker 2: Do you like your life?
Speaker 11: Yeah? I'm pretty happy, good.
Speaker 2: Would say nameless, Liz. Thank you so much for sharing, Liz.
Speaker 2: I hope you have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 11: Thanks. Love you get.
Speaker 1: All from Rodney.
Speaker 2: Rodney.
Speaker 7: Holy moly, mom, man.
Speaker 2: You are How are you? Rodney? Dude?
Speaker 7: I'm I'm chilling, so are you?
Speaker 2: Mister Greek you know I'm okay. I'm hanging out in
Speaker 2: the forest. Yes, the forest. The forest is nice. I
Speaker 2: like it here.
Speaker 4: Just tuned in.
Speaker 7: You got you got a good Colors night.
Speaker 2: You're you? I got? I got you Rodney Rodney. Look,
Speaker 2: I have a topic for tonight.
Speaker 7: Yeah, man, what's your topic?
Speaker 2: Asking people about bad habits? You got any bad habits?
Speaker 4: Rodney?
Speaker 7: Ooh, mister ghek. I'm I'm at the I'm at the
Speaker 7: young age of eighteen and I've I've been on the
Speaker 7: Mary Jane for a few years, and I don't know
Speaker 7: how I feel about it. I think I I think
Speaker 7: it's a regret.
Speaker 2: It's a regret you regret. What do you regret? Regret?
Speaker 2: Like ever starting smoking? We you regret having discovered it?
Speaker 2: I mean, Rodney, Rodney, I don't know if this is
Speaker 2: I don't know if this is me or you or
Speaker 2: what's going on. But you're a little uh, you're a
Speaker 2: little my quiet, No, not quiet, but you're breaking up
Speaker 2: a little bit.
Speaker 7: I'm sorry, man. I mean I can go, I can
Speaker 7: go over here?
Speaker 4: Is this better?
Speaker 2: Where'd you go?
Speaker 7: I went to the other side of my room.
Speaker 2: It's perfect.
Speaker 7: As much as I can do for you.
Speaker 6: M M.
Speaker 7: I used to I used to smoke a few times
Speaker 7: a day, but I I'm clean today.
Speaker 2: You're clean today?
Speaker 15: All right?
Speaker 2: You start with one day?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I like that. What's your what's your motivation? I think
Speaker 2: I feel like if you have if this has become
Speaker 2: a habit for you, I feel like it's like always
Speaker 2: helpful to have like a thing that you're doing instead.
Speaker 2: Do you have something like that?
Speaker 7: No, man, I think that's like the biggest problem. Like
Speaker 7: I moved to North Carolina, and I don't got like
Speaker 7: any good friends, and I feel like it's like the
Speaker 7: past two years I've just and it's like, really.
Speaker 2: Uh, Rodney, Roddick Rodney. I'm sorry, Rodney, I'm Peyton Brow.
Speaker 7: I'm sorry.
Speaker 2: Don't pay stay if you can stay right.
Speaker 7: Where you are, I'm right here. I sat down.
Speaker 4: Good for you.
Speaker 2: Good m hmm. What did you move to? Where'd you
Speaker 2: move North Carolina?
Speaker 7: You said, yeah, man in the mountains?
Speaker 2: Did you move there to do?
Speaker 7: I moved here because my dad moved here and then
Speaker 7: my mom followed, and I used to live in like Orlando.
Speaker 7: So they're a really big change, you know what I mean?
Speaker 7: So I went from people everywhere to people nowhere, and uh,
Speaker 7: I don't know. I'm lonely man.
Speaker 2: Why don't you move somewhere else?
Speaker 7: Because I'm eighteen, I'm like that down to my family.
Speaker 2: Uh, you know you could? You can move anywhere. Rodney.
Speaker 2: You're not Rodney the other colors.
Speaker 7: No, I'm Rodney, that's me.
Speaker 2: Sorry.
Speaker 7: I don't know, man.
Speaker 2: Brains so love the day. Why don't you move Rodney
Speaker 2: if you don't like where you are?
Speaker 16: Dude?
Speaker 2: I know here, Rodney, you know, here's the thing, man,
Speaker 2: is like, you know, you just turned eighteen, so you're very,
Speaker 2: very knew to this idea that you can kind of
Speaker 2: do whatever you want.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I mean all of your life experience so far has
Speaker 2: been other people telling you what to do, where you
Speaker 2: have to live, what you have to do with your time.
Speaker 2: And you've turned eighteen now, Rodney, and you no longer
Speaker 2: have to succumb to anyone's authority except the authority of reality,
Speaker 2: even that you don't even have to succumb to if
Speaker 2: you want to, if you want to do it big?
Speaker 2: Where would you want to move, Rodney?
Speaker 7: Where would I want to move? Like these past two months, man,
Speaker 7: I've just been thinking about like walking down the street
Speaker 7: for forever, but not here.
Speaker 2: Down the streets forever. You could go hiking. You can
Speaker 2: hike the Appalachian Trail.
Speaker 7: Ooh, that'd be fun. I could do that for you.
Speaker 2: I like the Appalachian Trail, Dude, get in touch with.
Speaker 4: That. That'd be helpful.
Speaker 2: Make friends with some bears. Do you want to let
Speaker 2: me ask you one last question before we go, because
Speaker 2: this is important. Do you and this is a real question,
Speaker 2: I'm not fucking with you. Do you want to have friends?
Speaker 2: Because some people. I've talked to a bunch of people
Speaker 2: and some people, No, I'm being serious, they like being alone.
Speaker 7: I don't know if i'd say I like being alone.
Speaker 7: But I feel like I've gone to the point now
Speaker 7: where like I'm pushing it away even though I want it,
Speaker 7: you know what I mean?
Speaker 12: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Do you have a real therapist.
Speaker 7: A few years ago?
Speaker 2: Did you talk to them about this?
Speaker 7: No, we talked about titties.
Speaker 2: You talked about titties. Yeah, what about titties?
Speaker 7: Well, I've seen this girl all the time, and you know,
Speaker 7: it was it was it was a new experience, So
Speaker 7: that's mostly.
Speaker 4: What we talked about. He's a cool guy, though.
Speaker 7: I won't call it therapy. It's more like counseling.
Speaker 2: Sure. Sure, what did he help you with with you
Speaker 2: have titty problems?
Speaker 8: No?
Speaker 4: I was. I don't know how.
Speaker 7: I don't know how I got there. I guess I
Speaker 7: was just feeling crappy one day and I just signed
Speaker 7: up for it. And then we started talking for like
Speaker 7: a few months, and then he transferred and I haven't
Speaker 7: spoke to him since. His name was Brian well rodn.
Speaker 2: The listeners, what I'll tell you, you know, are the woods,
Speaker 2: not forever. Don't walk around the streets forever. I hate
Speaker 2: that idea. Don't do that the woods with a tent.
Speaker 2: If that's what you want, don't do it because I.
Speaker 7: Told you to do it.
Speaker 2: That's a terrible idea. Okay, But in the meantime, look round.
Speaker 2: I believe you will make friends. But in the meantime,
Speaker 2: learn to be alone. It's a powerful skill. Not a
Speaker 2: lot of people have it.
Speaker 7: I I h go be alone where.
Speaker 2: Just learn to be alone. Learn how to enjoy yourself
Speaker 2: and be happy without being dependent on other people. It's
Speaker 2: very difficult, and I don't think you're out for the count.
Speaker 2: I think you're eighteen. I think you have a lifetime
Speaker 2: of friendships and experiences ahead of you. But in this meantime,
Speaker 2: as you are facing this particular challenge of loneliness, lean
Speaker 2: into it and learn how to accept it and be
Speaker 2: happy alone. And I do believe eventually you will make
Speaker 2: friends and have good relationships around you. But as of now,
Speaker 2: early in your life career, just lean into being alone.
Speaker 2: Learn how to do it.
Speaker 7: I guess you're right.
Speaker 6: I much for calling Rodney hey before before we go.
Speaker 7: I really enjoyed the podcast. I was not like work
Speaker 7: and stuff. You're doing good stuff, mister get.
Speaker 2: Thank you, Ronnie. I appreciate that.
Speaker 1: Man.
Speaker 2: You have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 7: M yes, sir, Bye bye.
Speaker 1: All from Flexi.
Speaker 2: Lexi.
Speaker 13: Bye.
Speaker 2: How are you, Lexi?
Speaker 17: I'm good? How are you?
Speaker 7: You know?
Speaker 2: Lexi? I'm floating around in outer space and I'm happy.
Speaker 2: I feel free in a sense? Does does that resonate
Speaker 2: with you at all? Freedom from from the the the
Speaker 2: trials of earth?
Speaker 15: Yeah, it must be nice.
Speaker 2: Must be nice, you say, why must that be nice?
Speaker 7: I don't know?
Speaker 15: Life stressful?
Speaker 14: You know?
Speaker 2: M hm hm why is life stressful? Lexi?
Speaker 4: Uh uh?
Speaker 6: Where do I begin anywhere?
Speaker 13: I mean?
Speaker 15: I called to tell you my vengeful story. That I
Speaker 15: mean if you want to get in, get into the
Speaker 15: pitfull pitfalls of my life, I can do that as well.
Speaker 4: Hm.
Speaker 2: Well, which of them do you think?
Speaker 1: Is h A?
Speaker 2: I guess you could say, more interesting topic to talk about.
Speaker 14: Let's let's let's start with the ve You know what, Actually,
Speaker 14: there's a strong possibility, not a strong possibility, I over
Speaker 14: I overestimated this, but a possibility that these two subjects
Speaker 14: are related.
Speaker 2: Let's start with the with the vengeance story. I'd love
Speaker 2: to hear that.
Speaker 15: Okay, So I don't know, people might judge me for this,
Speaker 15: but I used to live with a house of guys
Speaker 15: and they were super messy and just super rude. The
Speaker 15: one guy in particular, like used to use my shampoo
Speaker 15: and conditioner all the time. It made me so mad.
Speaker 15: He was so like lazy. He wouldn't clean and he
Speaker 15: would just leave like empty beer cans in the shower.
Speaker 13: It was so weird.
Speaker 15: Not to mention, like he would come in my room
Speaker 15: and like, I don't know, it was like.
Speaker 13: Essay type it was.
Speaker 15: It was a really bad situation. But I was about
Speaker 15: to move out, so I wanted to go out with
Speaker 15: a bang, I guess, and just get back at him
Speaker 15: for all the like trauma he had put me through.
Speaker 15: So he had he had just got a perm. He
Speaker 15: loved his new hair, like that was his you know,
Speaker 15: number one thing in his life was his hair. So
Speaker 15: the shampoo that he used of mine all the time.
Speaker 15: I emptied most of it out and replaced it with
Speaker 15: super glue and hair removal lotion and mixed it up,
Speaker 15: and I just left and left him with my stuff.
Speaker 2: See I you know, I also am am. I also
Speaker 2: use my roommates, toiletries every now and shampoo. Because here's
Speaker 2: the thing, Lexi, it's not like the guy used your
Speaker 2: toothbrush or your deodorant or something where you know it
Speaker 2: interacts with his body and then with yours. You know,
Speaker 2: it's just a bit of shampoo. You know, why did
Speaker 2: that upset you so much?
Speaker 15: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I was in addition to other things.
Speaker 15: Well that in addition, but I was younger then, so
Speaker 15: you know, like I would go to work and I
Speaker 15: would work like forty five fifty hours a week and
Speaker 15: he didn't do anything. And then I would come home like,
Speaker 15: you know, I worked for my money and he doesn't
Speaker 15: do anything. So you know, it really upset me when
Speaker 15: I'd get home and they just use all my stuff.
Speaker 15: And in hindsight, it's like it was cheap. It was
Speaker 15: like panteing the who cares? But uh, I guess it
Speaker 15: was everything else going on.
Speaker 2: What you know what the first when when you first
Speaker 2: told me that you were living in this house with
Speaker 2: these guys, you know, I'm curious, why did you choose
Speaker 2: to live with them because it doesn't sound did you
Speaker 2: know them beforehand?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 15: I guess I was kind of like in a desperate situation.
Speaker 15: I was living out at my grandma And this is
Speaker 15: gonna sound silly, but my grandpa died and I was
Speaker 15: convinced that the house was haunted, and I was like
Speaker 15: too scared to stay there at night anymore. So I
Speaker 15: just would, like I didn't have anywhere to I don't know,
Speaker 15: it's really stupid, but so I just moved in with like.
Speaker 2: I don't think that here's the thing, I don't think
Speaker 2: that you thinking that the house you were staying in
Speaker 2: is haunted is stupid, But thank you. Personally, I would
Speaker 2: sleep in a haunted house before sleeping in a frat
Speaker 2: house any night of them.
Speaker 15: Sure, that's I wish I would like could go back
Speaker 15: and do it, because that makes so much more sense.
Speaker 2: Well, so you've gotten less less vengeful as the years
Speaker 2: have gone on, I assume.
Speaker 15: Yeah, I was pretty bad that year. There was there
Speaker 15: was another like, oh my gosh, I'm going to make
Speaker 15: myself feel like evil.
Speaker 3: But there was this girl in school.
Speaker 15: She turned like I had drank for the first time.
Speaker 15: I got sloshed off of one bud light and she
Speaker 15: turned me into the school because we had posted like
Speaker 15: a video on Snapchat and I got suspended from the
Speaker 15: softball team for a week, and I was so mad
Speaker 15: because it ruined my life. I got my car taken
Speaker 15: away from my mom and like my phone and everything,
Speaker 15: so I kind of I started hanging out with her
Speaker 15: boyfriend and like, yeah, that was not good, just to
Speaker 15: get back at her.
Speaker 2: What wait, you got all that for just drinking a
Speaker 2: beer on Snapchat.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 15: I had to go and get like alcohol therapy to
Speaker 15: make sure I wasn't an alcoholic before I could return
Speaker 15: to softball. And my mom is like strictly like anti alcohol.
Speaker 15: So I got in a lot of trouble. I was underage,
Speaker 15: So I mean, I guess it depends how you want
Speaker 15: to look at it.
Speaker 2: But yeah, and today, the year of twenty twenty one,
Speaker 2: this year, have you done anything ventuful or have you
Speaker 2: since calmed down?
Speaker 15: I think I was really like calmed down. I'm in
Speaker 15: a pretty good place personally. I mean, everything around me
Speaker 15: is kind of falling apart, but I think I'm pretty stable,
Speaker 15: somewhat good.
Speaker 2: Glad to hear that.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 2: You ever talked to any of these guys ever?
Speaker 15: No, he like, I don't know he he was he
Speaker 15: was an odd ball, so he had like a really
Speaker 15: crazy experience on acid, and he decided from that point
Speaker 15: on that he was going to be a neurologist, and
Speaker 15: he got like special grants from the government, and he
Speaker 15: moved to New York City and now is going to
Speaker 15: get his doctorate in neurology.
Speaker 2: And well, yeah, LEXI, I just love a story where
Speaker 2: everything works out for every character involved. Right then, thank you.
Speaker 1: All from.
Speaker 4: Eric.
Speaker 16: Eric.
Speaker 2: Hello, you sound very mysterious.
Speaker 4: Eric.
Speaker 2: Are you doing that on purpose?
Speaker 6: M No, but I could do it some more. If
Speaker 6: you want me to.
Speaker 2: Imply that you could do it some more, implies that
Speaker 2: you're implies that you have a level of intention that
Speaker 2: is high enough that you can control it. Do you
Speaker 2: feel though you know what you were doing right now
Speaker 2: and that you can control it?
Speaker 6: I like to think that I know what I'm doing
Speaker 6: when I'm doing it.
Speaker 2: How would you describe what you're doing right now?
Speaker 6: How would I describe I'm lounging in a tear that
Speaker 6: I spent way too much money on?
Speaker 2: How much money.
Speaker 6: It was like six hundred.
Speaker 2: Dollars six hundred dollars, Yeah, well, thing about but something
Speaker 2: about the chair must have spoke to you in a
Speaker 2: way that made you feel as though it was worth
Speaker 2: the purchase. And what was it about the chair that
Speaker 2: spoke to you?
Speaker 6: It's a Legal Legends chair.
Speaker 2: It's a League of Legends chair. Well you say it's
Speaker 2: a like a Legends chair. Do you mean it's a
Speaker 2: chair branded with League of Legends or it is a
Speaker 2: chair that the engineers built specifically to aid the body
Speaker 2: in playing League of Legends, or perhaps both.
Speaker 6: It's actually a little bit of both. So the entire
Speaker 6: back of the chair is designed after a specific character
Speaker 6: named a Colleague, and it's like a whole green dragon
Speaker 6: type design. And yeah, I mean it's got a whole
Speaker 6: bunch of clips and switches and it's made from nice leather. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 6: I mean was it worth it? Probably?
Speaker 4: I think?
Speaker 2: So what kind of what do the switches do?
Speaker 6: Like, has adjustable lumbar support? It has pretty much that
Speaker 6: it has adjustable lumbar support and then it goes up
Speaker 6: and down.
Speaker 2: That's important. When you say it's based off of the
Speaker 2: Dragon character. What speaks to you about the Dragon character?
Speaker 2: Is he your favorite character in the game?
Speaker 4: All right?
Speaker 6: And not really to be honest, I haven't played Legal
Speaker 6: Legends in like a year or two. I just I
Speaker 6: just really liked the dragon.
Speaker 2: You haven't played Legal Legends in a year or two.
Speaker 2: But when did you buy the chair?
Speaker 6: Like three months ago?
Speaker 2: Interesting, So you hadn't played Legal Legends in a year
Speaker 2: or even thought that much about Legal Legends in a
Speaker 2: long time, and then you you went you saw this chair?
Speaker 2: Where did you see this chair?
Speaker 6: It is an Instagram ad?
Speaker 2: There's an Instagram ad?
Speaker 6: Yeah, I had, I had. Well, I had just gotten
Speaker 6: my first job out of college, and you know, I
Speaker 6: work from home like half the week, and I figured
Speaker 6: I got to get a nice chair.
Speaker 2: You know. Here's what I'll say, here's my personal financial
Speaker 2: philosophy that as it pertains to this purchase is I
Speaker 2: think you're absolutely right. Look, I personally am willing to
Speaker 2: put down good money on something if it is something
Speaker 2: that I will use every single day. And you I
Speaker 2: assume sit in this chair and do your work every
Speaker 2: single day, am I correct?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 6: Absolutely? And then I play video games in it when
Speaker 6: I'm not working.
Speaker 2: It's an investment in that sense, you're using it every
Speaker 2: single day. So I don't think it was, you know,
Speaker 2: not necessarily Well, whether or not that was worth the
Speaker 2: money is up to you to decide, do you believe
Speaker 2: it was worth the money.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean if it wasn't, I don't know. I
Speaker 6: try not to regret spending money on things. I definitely
Speaker 6: think I was gonna say that I think I've spent
Speaker 6: six hundred dollars on dumber things, but like, I haven't
Speaker 6: spent six hundred dollars on bearing many things, so maybe not.
Speaker 2: Would you say your name was?
Speaker 6: My name is Eric.
Speaker 18: Eric.
Speaker 2: Are you sitting You're sitting in the chair right now.
Speaker 6: I am sitting in the chair right now.
Speaker 2: How's a feel? Think about it for a second, I'll
Speaker 2: just say they'll just say good, Like, really take th
Speaker 2: really close your eyes, and really feel yourself against the seat,
Speaker 2: and tell me how it feels.
Speaker 6: H I have a memory foam pillow against the back
Speaker 6: of my head. The lumbar support is about midway through,
Speaker 6: and my bum feels nice.
Speaker 2: Look, whenever you feel as though you spent too much
Speaker 2: money on this chair, channel all of your attention into
Speaker 2: your butt and think about how good it feels sitting
Speaker 2: in it, and then the mental energy that you're spending
Speaker 2: on this regret, we'll fade away in favor of a
Speaker 2: more positive feeling.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I definitely think that that spent. I just thought
Speaker 6: about it, and it's like, I don't think I could
Speaker 6: ever regret spending money on this chair.
Speaker 2: I definitely spend way more money.
Speaker 6: On weed, and that's that's a bigger issue. But yeah,
Speaker 6: of course.
Speaker 2: Any time, have a the rest of the night.
Speaker 6: Thank you appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Hey, folks, this is Lyle. In this next phone call,
Speaker 2: I have a guest who's joining me. This phone call
Speaker 2: was taken from a stream that I did with Swayko,
Speaker 2: the child who is a rapper, musician, rock star, superhero man.
Speaker 2: Check him out at Swayko on TikTok And yeah, if
Speaker 2: you hear another voice, that is who it is and
Speaker 2: he's a good guy. So I thought I would chime
Speaker 2: in so that you when you heard that other voice,
Speaker 2: you weren't like, who the fuck is that? That's my
Speaker 2: boy Swayko.
Speaker 1: Okay, back to the thing call from Kitty Kitty Hiddy.
Speaker 19: Hello, is that your name?
Speaker 12: Kitty Kitty like a cat?
Speaker 4: Okay?
Speaker 19: Cool's good?
Speaker 8: How are you guys tonight?
Speaker 2: Fantastic beautiful? How are you kidding?
Speaker 4: Good?
Speaker 8: I'm okay, But I mean I wouldn't be one hundred
Speaker 8: percent okay if I wasn't calling you guys.
Speaker 19: So the problem.
Speaker 8: I was seeing this guy for like two months and
Speaker 8: everything was going super well. We had a lot of
Speaker 8: the same interests, like we loved all the same music.
Speaker 8: We had like a ton of fun together, and then
Speaker 8: like two weeks ago, he was acting kind of strange.
Speaker 8: So I asked him, like, you know, how are you
Speaker 8: feeling about this, because you seem kind of off.
Speaker 17: He replied that he felt like.
Speaker 8: I was acting too much like his girlfriend. But he
Speaker 8: had introduced me to his friends, his brothers, taken me out,
Speaker 8: cooked me dinner, you know, had me stay to night
Speaker 8: during the week, and so I was like very confused
Speaker 8: because I feel like those are all kinds of things
Speaker 8: that you do to a girlfriend. I don't know, what
Speaker 8: do you guys think.
Speaker 19: Did you guys ever have the conversation of like we're
Speaker 19: a relationship now, No, But.
Speaker 8: I feel like I've never had that conversation with like anybody.
Speaker 8: So he was kind of the one leading us into
Speaker 8: that territory. I mean, for God's sakes, like he was,
Speaker 8: you know, begging me. He was the one begging me
Speaker 8: to put a finger in his ass.
Speaker 17: Like I thought that that was.
Speaker 4: Sort of a bonding.
Speaker 8: Relate, like experience, but apparently he didn't, so I don't know.
Speaker 2: You know, next time you put your finger in a
Speaker 2: guy's ass, there better be a ring in there.
Speaker 8: Right, Like, maybe I'll take it off because I don't
Speaker 8: want to get a dirty But if I'm doing that
Speaker 8: for you, you have to be doing something for me
Speaker 8: in terms of defining the relationship.
Speaker 2: Is that.
Speaker 12: So?
Speaker 2: I mean, how, how have you? Have you made any
Speaker 2: sort of like attempts to have have the uh have that?
Speaker 2: What are we conversation?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 8: I never tried because I liked where we were. You know,
Speaker 8: it wasn't super serious, but the sex was good and
Speaker 8: we got along super well.
Speaker 19: So hmm, well what do you think now? Are you
Speaker 19: guys still talking?
Speaker 17: I think no.
Speaker 8: I deleted his number and blocked him on everything because
Speaker 8: if I don't then I'm very tempted, you know, and
Speaker 8: obviously it's not going to work out, so I have
Speaker 8: to prevent myself from being able to talk to him.
Speaker 19: M Well, what did what did you tell him when
Speaker 19: when he was saying all this stuff is stuff?
Speaker 8: Well, I said, you know, I really happy with the
Speaker 8: way things were at the moment, you know, like hanging
Speaker 8: out maybe once or twice a week spending time together,
Speaker 8: but like he hadn't met my parents and I hadn't
Speaker 8: met him, Like it was nothing serious, but he had
Speaker 8: urged that, you know, what we had already established was
Speaker 8: like too much for him. But he's the one who,
Speaker 8: you know, brought me to meet all of his friends
Speaker 8: and needed some of his family, et cetera. So I
Speaker 8: was really kind of blindsided in that regard.
Speaker 2: Oh, so he took you to be his whole family.
Speaker 8: Uh, not his parents, but his brothers and stuff.
Speaker 2: Yeah, welkay, So you blocked him and you're not talking
Speaker 2: to him anymore. Are you like still out to date
Speaker 2: people or are you still focusing on yourself right now?
Speaker 8: I'm trying to date because I just moved to a
Speaker 8: new area, so I'm just trying to meet people. But
Speaker 8: I'm in a really intense master's program, so it's hard
Speaker 8: for me to meet people, and it's hard for me
Speaker 8: to go out because I'm really busy.
Speaker 2: Well I think that's good though, if you're like, if
Speaker 2: you know, if you block this guy and like you're
Speaker 2: trying to forget about him, you know, I think it's
Speaker 2: good to like have something to lose yourself in like that,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's just hard because I feel like every time
Speaker 8: I get into that situation, it's like having to start
Speaker 8: over again every like three months or whatever. It gets
Speaker 8: so exhausting after a while.
Speaker 2: Well, what do you want?
Speaker 8: I don't believe in marriage personally. I think it's a sham.
Speaker 8: If I want just a long term relationship with someone
Speaker 8: that's beneficial to both of us and the sex is good,
Speaker 8: that's really all I want.
Speaker 2: So well, I mean, look, knowing what you want it's
Speaker 2: the first step to get that's pretty good. A lot
Speaker 2: of people they just sort of flounder around. They don't
Speaker 2: know what they want until they see it. So, you know,
Speaker 2: it's good that you have like a sort of I
Speaker 2: guess standard up front, you know, I think in the
Speaker 2: future to avoid a situation like this, Like, it's good
Speaker 2: that you know what you want, make it clear. Not like,
Speaker 2: you know, I wouldn't show up on the first date
Speaker 2: and say that is the first thing that comes out
Speaker 2: of your mouth or anything like that, but like, you know,
Speaker 2: bring bring it up. You know, I think it's good
Speaker 2: to be honest with people because you know, the worst
Speaker 2: that can happen is you bring it up and he
Speaker 2: goes no, that's not what I want, which is actually
Speaker 2: a good thing if he does that, because I saved
Speaker 2: you a hell of a lot of time.
Speaker 4: That's right.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I think it's a conversation that should definitely be had,
Speaker 8: like on the second date when they're inside of you,
Speaker 8: you know, where is this going?
Speaker 2: Maybe not right when they're inside of you.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 19: That might be, it could.
Speaker 2: Could be, could be.
Speaker 8: Oh my gosh. Well, thank you guys so much for
Speaker 8: the advice. I'm so glad I got through you. I
Speaker 8: think I called like one hundred times.
Speaker 2: We're so glad to have you, Kitty. Thank you so
Speaker 2: much for calling.
Speaker 8: Thank you, Bye Lyle By Paul Dano.
Speaker 19: I've been getting that a lot recently.
Speaker 2: Bye Kitty.
Speaker 8: Listen, Paul Dana is a very attractive man.
Speaker 17: So that is a compliment.
Speaker 2: It's a compliment.
Speaker 19: Oh, thank you, kitty.
Speaker 8: Good night guys.
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Speaker 1: The calls from Dennis.
Speaker 2: Dennis, Hey, Dennis, it's been so long. How I can't
Speaker 2: believe that? Dennis, what's up? You're still here? Thank you?
Speaker 2: Thank you for your loyalty. It's going good man. What
Speaker 2: do you up to?
Speaker 13: Nothing? I'm just uh, I'm just laughing. I'm stoned. I
Speaker 13: just trolled my sister on a dating app.
Speaker 2: What did you do?
Speaker 14: Well?
Speaker 13: I just trolled my sister on a dating app?
Speaker 2: Do you know what? You knew what I was trying
Speaker 2: to ask you? You knew I was asking you for
Speaker 2: further elaboration. You knew that you were intentionally being broad.
Speaker 2: I'm not I'm calling you out. You knew what. You
Speaker 2: knew what I meant? Dennis?
Speaker 13: Oh, No, you do it every time. You always open
Speaker 13: that door. It's really good.
Speaker 11: I like that.
Speaker 13: You want to know how I trolled her?
Speaker 16: Yes, all right.
Speaker 13: So she had been talking to some guy and he
Speaker 13: sent her a selfie and in the background there was
Speaker 13: like a Blue Live Matter sticker and she didn't like that,
Speaker 13: which is fair, So she decided us to talk to
Speaker 13: him any longer. And she was like, Oh, I'm going
Speaker 13: to post an ad on another dating app and I'm
Speaker 13: going to mention the Blue Lives Matter thing and say like,
Speaker 13: I'm disappointed, you know, I hope I won't get a
Speaker 13: message from someone like that on this app. And she
Speaker 13: got a few messages and she sent them to me
Speaker 13: with those people that were like pro Blue Lives Matter
Speaker 13: messaging her and she we were like joking about it,
Speaker 13: and then I thought it would be funny if I
Speaker 13: pretended to be a pro Blue Lives Matter person message.
Speaker 2: And then I did, okay, so tell me about this
Speaker 2: persona that you created. What was what was his name?
Speaker 13: I was a woman, I was a uh, I was
Speaker 13: a I was a woman, and I was an officer
Speaker 13: and I was I wrote like, I was like, the
Speaker 13: post deeply offended me. I could I could read you
Speaker 13: the messages that I sent, but I'd be I pretended
Speaker 13: to be a lady officer that drove a like a
Speaker 13: correctional facilities car.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, pretended to be a lady officer that drove
Speaker 2: a car. Well, okay, would you say in the message?
Speaker 12: All right?
Speaker 13: So the uh well, her message was just like I
Speaker 13: can't believe how many Blue Lives Matters supporters there are
Speaker 13: on this on this app. And I was like, hello,
Speaker 13: I'm an officer. Your post deeply offended me. Sometimes I
Speaker 13: wonder who i'd be without my badge. It's like a
Speaker 13: special mask that I wear that turns me into a
Speaker 13: superhero and keeps me safe. And then she was just
Speaker 13: she just dot dot doted me. And at the same time,
Speaker 13: she was also sending me screenshots of this asking me
Speaker 13: how she should.
Speaker 2: Like spot.
Speaker 13: And it was really and then I started feeling guilty.
Speaker 13: And then I was like, with the badge comes great responsibility. God,
Speaker 13: I'm fucking crying right now. How could you hate a cop?
Speaker 13: And then and then and then I like, I waited
Speaker 13: a few minutes and I wrote, fuck, I can barely
Speaker 13: see the keys dot dot dot, and then I put
Speaker 13: a zero at the end, so it was like a
Speaker 13: typo because I couldn't see the keys.
Speaker 5: And then.
Speaker 13: Sorry, I'm laughing because I think it's funny and I
Speaker 13: don't know. And then I wish I wasn't driving a
Speaker 13: police trustful criminals to rikers right now?
Speaker 4: Now?
Speaker 2: Now does she know? Does she now know that that that?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 13: No, she still didn't know with me. She was sending
Speaker 13: this to me, and I was like.
Speaker 2: I was like, Dennis, can I can I ask you something?
Speaker 13: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Would you?
Speaker 4: Is?
Speaker 2: Where is her live?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 2: What part of the like? What stake are you willing
Speaker 2: to answer that? What time zone does she live in?
Speaker 2: Is she awake? That's mean?
Speaker 1: Is she awake right now?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 13: Yeah? Oh you want me to like three way dial
Speaker 13: her in?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Would you? Well, well, were the quick before you before
Speaker 2: you do that? Before you do that on this call?
Speaker 2: Would you be willing? Would you be willing to admit
Speaker 2: to her that you are? You are that profile?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 13: Yeah, she already yeah.
Speaker 2: What she already knows?
Speaker 13: Yeah, because I felt I started to feel bad about it.
Speaker 2: Oh wait, I thought I would. I asked you if
Speaker 2: she knew and you said.
Speaker 13: No, oh no, no I revealed it.
Speaker 2: Oh all right, well that makes it less interesting.
Speaker 13: Now I'm sorry.
Speaker 2: You have nothing to apologize for. This is reality. You
Speaker 2: can't be You can't apologize for something that I don't
Speaker 2: think this. I don't think it was malicious of you.
Speaker 2: I don't think you did it on purpose to hurt me.
Speaker 13: I mean, she didn't know the whole time she actually
Speaker 13: she did, she didn't figure out.
Speaker 12: She didn't.
Speaker 13: The reason that I admitted it to her was because
Speaker 13: she didn't. She couldn't figure it out even after I
Speaker 13: had made like very obvious remarks that it was me,
Speaker 13: and she kept sending me the screenshots and I started
Speaker 13: to feel guilty.
Speaker 2: Dennis, Dennis, there's anything else like I should do on
Speaker 2: my Dennis, You've been watching my GEcho show for the
Speaker 2: entire time that it's existed, you know, any like pointers,
Speaker 2: anything you think that you know I should do to advance,
Speaker 2: you know, to the next echelon.
Speaker 13: I don't know. I feel like it's kind of how
Speaker 13: do you feel? I guess that I want I want
Speaker 13: to know that. How do you feel?
Speaker 4: Is it?
Speaker 10: Is it?
Speaker 13: Like it feels a little surreal, doesn't it?
Speaker 2: It's surreal in what sense?
Speaker 13: Just the whole like the trajectory of it. It's just
Speaker 13: been unbelievable. How many like how many sleep? It's just unreal.
Speaker 13: I don't know watching it unfold.
Speaker 2: It's no, it's been it's been great. You know, I'm
Speaker 2: I'm I'm really happy for it. I hope I'm you know,
Speaker 2: I hope, I hope I'm able to continue doing it
Speaker 2: for you know, a good bit as long as you
Speaker 2: know I am able to you know, I think you know,
Speaker 2: I feel pretty good. I feel pretty good. I'm hoping,
Speaker 2: uh to continue to feel good. You know. This is
Speaker 2: the game, this is a good life. It's a good gig,
Speaker 2: you know, being a gecko on the computer talking to
Speaker 2: people on the phone. It's pretty random. It's not very clear.
Speaker 2: That's a problem. But that's a problem I've always had.
Speaker 2: That's not very clear because the whole therapy gecko thing,
Speaker 2: it's like, so are you am I own here to
Speaker 2: like give people therapy? Not really. That kind of makes
Speaker 2: me uncomfortable to every time.
Speaker 13: It's like a fun bit.
Speaker 20: It's like you get to do you get to do
Speaker 20: the bit with different people everything.
Speaker 13: Yes, and that's the whole thing.
Speaker 2: Yes, Yes, Sometimes I think the streams where the streams
Speaker 2: where I feel as though I am committing more to
Speaker 2: the bit are ones that I feel good about. I
Speaker 2: think if I relax too much and you know, start
Speaker 2: to be myself and less of like you know, an
Speaker 2: intentional betrayal of a character is when the is when
Speaker 2: is when I feel as though I begin to lose control.
Speaker 13: Dennis oh Man, So, okay, my, this is funny. My
Speaker 13: sisters she sent me a She's like, she's like, oh,
Speaker 13: this showed up on my like four you page or whatever.
Speaker 13: And it was like it was.
Speaker 5: Like one a clip that you posted and I was
Speaker 5: watching and it was funny watching because it was like, uh,
Speaker 5: it's funny watching you try not to break and you
Speaker 5: know what I mean?
Speaker 13: And I just like it was good. It made me
Speaker 13: laugh really hard.
Speaker 2: Was what was the clip?
Speaker 13: The clips are really good? But do you? And also
Speaker 13: I just I like the idea of you being at
Speaker 13: home editing the clips yourself. I just I really like that.
Speaker 13: It makes me, It makes it so much more sincere
Speaker 13: to me, Thank you, thank.
Speaker 2: You, Dennis. I I do I do my best to
Speaker 2: to to to. I don't know how to finish that
Speaker 2: sense you don't you know what I liked it, but
Speaker 2: you don't. I liked about a lot. I don't know
Speaker 2: if I don't know if you watch the beginning of
Speaker 2: the stream, But when when that person told Swiko, that
Speaker 2: that's that's Swiger. Healthed them Swaco. Siko was very very gracious,
Speaker 2: like like like people. I think a lot of people
Speaker 2: they have hard time like accepting praise about themselves. And
Speaker 2: I think that Swicho did it in a very like,
Speaker 2: very very very cool way. I really liked the way
Speaker 2: he was like, you know, very genuine about that.
Speaker 13: Fair.
Speaker 2: So I'll yeah, you know, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm
Speaker 2: gonna'm gona take a page off of his book. I
Speaker 2: really appreciate all the kind of words. Dennis. Dennis, what
Speaker 2: was the clip? Was it the was it was it about?
Speaker 2: Was it about the everything having a reason? Was it
Speaker 2: the taco bell thing?
Speaker 21: Oh my god?
Speaker 13: Wait, so I like this even better. I like you
Speaker 13: trying to guess which clip it was that you thought
Speaker 13: that you broke in. Just tell me, No, I don't
Speaker 13: want to tell you. I like it even better now
Speaker 13: its mystery.
Speaker 2: I'm doing it as part of market research. I'm trying
Speaker 2: to see what clips are or.
Speaker 10: No.
Speaker 13: I like the I like the guessing, though I haven't
Speaker 13: I have I don't know. I don't even know if
Speaker 13: to taco ball on it. After look, I'm.
Speaker 3: So out of touch.
Speaker 2: So what what was the clip of I'm not going
Speaker 2: to tell you. Was it the one of the was
Speaker 2: it the one where I where I did that?
Speaker 13: I screamed, Oh man, this is too good. Now I
Speaker 13: gotta go. I'm gonna go, all.
Speaker 2: Right, I gotta talk to you soon, Dennis.
Speaker 13: All right, I love you.
Speaker 1: Goodbye bye all from Grayisha.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi?
Speaker 3: How are you?
Speaker 20: So that's to know? What's my name?
Speaker 2: My name is Aisha, Aisha, Aisha. What's going on with you?
Speaker 6: Dude?
Speaker 13: Not much?
Speaker 20: Been a little bit weird since the hurricane and I
Speaker 20: had to evacuate. So I've just kind of been all
Speaker 20: over the place and I kind of want to just
Speaker 20: get back to my apartment and be in my own space.
Speaker 20: But I'm safe, so I guess that's a plus there
Speaker 20: where you call? I'm from so I grew up in
Speaker 20: New York, but I just moved to Jersey in May, Jersey.
Speaker 2: Like how we're in Jersey, like Jersey City close to
Speaker 2: the city and.
Speaker 20: Shit, No, I'm actually like about an hour from the city.
Speaker 20: I'm like kind of in central a little north.
Speaker 2: Okay.
Speaker 20: I don't actually know the geography too well. What do
Speaker 20: I do? So I just graduated in May with my
Speaker 20: doctor pharmacy, and I'm in a postdoc fellowship right now
Speaker 20: for two years.
Speaker 2: Postdoc fellowship.
Speaker 20: Okay, yes, very interesting.
Speaker 2: It's interesting, you know, being in a post doc fellowship.
Speaker 2: So you're trying to be a doctor person.
Speaker 20: No, well, I already have my doctor duran. I'm a pharmacist, farms.
Speaker 2: Can you get me some adderall.
Speaker 20: Let's pop off the air and for sure cool, Yeah,
Speaker 20: definitely would lose my life. And but if you talk
Speaker 20: off the air, then you know I can I can
Speaker 20: try and see what I can do.
Speaker 2: Just kidding, this is not real. We're just joking. If
Speaker 2: anyone I'm just we're just saying random things. This isn't real.
Speaker 2: What's your name decided?
Speaker 15: My name?
Speaker 13: My name is aisa Ai.
Speaker 2: Should tell me what you.
Speaker 20: Decided when I decided. I decided that I'm actually not
Speaker 20: going to practice and that I sold out and I'm
Speaker 20: working for a big FARMA now to make sure that
Speaker 20: kids and hailers are like three hundred dollars.
Speaker 2: That's awesome. Yeah, alright, are you are you going to
Speaker 2: make a lot of money?
Speaker 13: That's the goal.
Speaker 20: That's what the whole fellowship's about.
Speaker 13: So hopefully after.
Speaker 2: Yes, Well, I was gonna say, if you sell you,
Speaker 2: if you sell out, you better make a bunch of money.
Speaker 20: Yeah, that's the goal. I just didn't want to practice
Speaker 20: pharmacy anymore. You know, I've worked in a pharmacy for
Speaker 20: like six years, and you know, people are shitty, and
Speaker 20: you know, I can deal with all of you know,
Speaker 20: people calling me a bitch, throwing shit at me, getting
Speaker 20: pissed about, you know, things that aren't my fault. But
Speaker 20: I realized I had a little bit more selfless stuff.
Speaker 20: So I jumped out of that boot.
Speaker 2: So so you're what do you do now? You help
Speaker 2: big pharma jack up the prices on medication and stuff.
Speaker 20: No, that's just a joke. I I it's it's really boring.
Speaker 20: I basically work to get drugs approved. So I work
Speaker 20: with the FDA to like get drugs from my company
Speaker 20: on the market.
Speaker 2: M you work to get drugs. Are your company the
Speaker 2: company they work for? Other drugs?
Speaker 4: Good?
Speaker 2: Do they have good drugs there?
Speaker 20: I'm not going to say what company, but we're in
Speaker 20: the top five pharmaceutical industries in the world.
Speaker 2: Is it one of the ones that did the vaccines?
Speaker 2: You guys, You guys got a vaccine that you did.
Speaker 20: No, you actually didn't, but we're helping to produce the vaccine.
Speaker 13: But it's not ours.
Speaker 2: That's cool. How much money do you are you going
Speaker 2: to make.
Speaker 20: In the future. Yeah, hopefully a minimum of one hundred K.
Speaker 20: But I'm aiming to, you know, climb the ladder network,
Speaker 20: you know, brown nosed people and try and work my
Speaker 20: way up.
Speaker 13: So we'll see where that goes.
Speaker 2: What are you gonna are you gonna spend all your money.
Speaker 20: On probably paying off my quarter of a million dollars in.
Speaker 4: Student loans.
Speaker 2: In student loan debt?
Speaker 20: Yeah, just for two letters before my name.
Speaker 2: Yeah, just for two letters before your name doctor.
Speaker 20: Yeah, the D, M, the R.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's fucking expensive, dude.
Speaker 3: Yeah it is.
Speaker 20: But then like I can just force people to call
Speaker 20: me doctor and like weird social settings and it's just
Speaker 20: like a great power move. But it's also like crippling
Speaker 20: debt and anxiety constantly. But you know we're living with that.
Speaker 20: I feel like everyone has debt, so you know everyone's
Speaker 20: in the same boat.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well that's you know, that's what we do, right.
Speaker 2: We go into large amounts of debt and do certain things,
Speaker 2: and the crew money for titles and things to uh
Speaker 2: give us a sense of prestige, and then you know
Speaker 2: what happens.
Speaker 12: What happened?
Speaker 2: We die.
Speaker 13: I can't wait for that part.
Speaker 2: I can't take anything with us. Really, Why can't you
Speaker 2: wait to uh die?
Speaker 20: That's like kind of a joke. I you know, I
Speaker 20: feel like everyone's depressed nowadays. I used to like go
Speaker 20: through really strong bouts of depression, especially in my adolescents,
Speaker 20: and then you know, I was prescribing as and all.
Speaker 2: Of that, but I was's how you guys should make
Speaker 2: a medicine for that?
Speaker 20: Ye have, actually, but I don't know. I just you know,
Speaker 20: I kind of worked through that stuff and I'm feeling
Speaker 20: a lot better now. You know, everyone has those off
Speaker 20: days now, but I'm like ten times better than it
Speaker 20: was like five years ago. Well, why I actually called,
Speaker 20: and I know we already did a lot of kind
Speaker 20: of relationship advice today.
Speaker 2: I'm ready to I'm ready to do more. I feel actually,
Speaker 2: I feel as though we haven't done a lot of
Speaker 2: things on the topic, so so please hit us.
Speaker 20: So I have been dating my boyfriend for over two
Speaker 20: years now, and I love him.
Speaker 13: Everything with us is just really easy.
Speaker 20: It's fun. We've been doing long distance for about a
Speaker 20: year and a half while I was.
Speaker 13: In school and he was doing his career and he.
Speaker 20: Got a house and he loved his job. And I
Speaker 20: just graduated in May, and instead of being two hours
Speaker 20: apart like we were when I was in school, we
Speaker 20: are now three hours apart. So we still have this distance,
Speaker 20: and when we see each other, it's like really fun
Speaker 20: and great. But I just have this overwhelming anxiety that
Speaker 20: I need to end it, and I've been thinking about
Speaker 20: it so much that I think it's kind of this
Speaker 20: red flag that deep down I really want to because
Speaker 20: the job that I have right now is for two
Speaker 20: years and then afterward, if I get signed on, after
Speaker 20: like my contract ends, then I'm going to stay here.
Speaker 12: And I'm not.
Speaker 20: Moving to where he is because they don't really have
Speaker 20: like big industry there and there's not really career opportunity.
Speaker 20: And the other option, which we've talked about really open
Speaker 20: with each other.
Speaker 6: Is that he moves.
Speaker 13: But you know, he loves his job, his family's close by.
Speaker 20: He loves his coworkers, and he has a freaking house there,
Speaker 20: and he's just like, I shall sell the house.
Speaker 13: I'll like, you know, get a new job.
Speaker 20: All this stuff and the anxiety behind the whole situation
Speaker 20: is just making me want to hit the brakes.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmm mm hmmmmmm. What do you Yeah, that's
Speaker 2: a tough situation. What's the is the is the anxiety
Speaker 2: coming from the inability to make a decision.
Speaker 20: I think the anxiety is not about the decision, because
Speaker 20: I think I've thought about it so much that I'm
Speaker 20: going to do it, But it's more about the logistics
Speaker 20: because we're long distance, so the options are. You know,
Speaker 20: I'm not going to make him drive down here. I
Speaker 20: feel like that'd be cruel for him to like drive
Speaker 20: back three hours after I broke up with him, So
Speaker 20: I'd have to drive there and then like, do I
Speaker 20: just drive there, do it, and then drive back and
Speaker 20: drive like six hours in the day, I could, like
Speaker 20: the logistics.
Speaker 2: Of going to meet him, and.
Speaker 20: I feel like no one actually exactly, no one actually
Speaker 20: talks about the actual act and logistics behind it. And
Speaker 20: as you know, I'm a very scientifical person and I
Speaker 20: like strategy, so I'm like trying to figure out the
Speaker 20: best methods and I just I feel like I have
Speaker 20: to drive there and do it. But I don't know
Speaker 20: if I should. Like my first thought was like I
Speaker 20: can stay a couple of days and see how I
Speaker 20: feel and then like decide at the end. But I
Speaker 20: feel like that's kind of more fucked up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I don't think you should do that. I
Speaker 2: think if you're going to go up there, you should
Speaker 2: know what you're gonna do. I mean, by the way,
Speaker 2: you know, if I were you, I mean, look logistically,
Speaker 2: if that's all you are worrying about, Yeah, drive the
Speaker 2: six hours.
Speaker 20: Yeah, I feel like the three hour drive back like
Speaker 20: would be really necessary to like cry it out and
Speaker 20: like listen to music and stuff, but I just do.
Speaker 2: It to the drive. Let me tell you something, I've
Speaker 2: learned that doing long drives is really not that bad,
Speaker 2: you know, because there's the thing think about everything. What
Speaker 2: are you going to go Saturday?
Speaker 20: I don't know. So I actually was just displaced from
Speaker 20: the hurricane, so I'm actually was in a hotel last
Speaker 20: night and then I drove to my sisters. So I
Speaker 20: don't really have a lot of have like two T
Speaker 20: shirts with me because I have to evacuate in like
Speaker 20: a half hour, so I don't have anything to like
Speaker 20: go this weekend. Really, I'm like really unprepared.
Speaker 2: HM, well, because all I was going to say is like, look,
Speaker 2: you know, from from noon to six pm, what are
Speaker 2: you going to be doing with those six hours? Anyway?
Speaker 2: You know, just take the drive and then it's good
Speaker 2: right on the on the three hour drive back, you get,
Speaker 2: you get, you get your cry in, you throw on
Speaker 2: a tape, you do what you do, what you do.
Speaker 13: I feel like I just need to like put on.
Speaker 2: A music, put on some music.
Speaker 20: I mean, I have a really old car, so we
Speaker 20: do have a tape in there, so maybe i'll top
Speaker 20: something that I'll listen to back to back. I do
Speaker 20: have a One Direction CD in my car, but that's
Speaker 20: the only CD I have.
Speaker 2: Do it? Put on some one Direction?
Speaker 20: Yeah, I used to be a big stand back in
Speaker 20: the good young days. I don't know why I'm lying.
Speaker 20: I'm still a big fan. I'm a big fan of
Speaker 20: One Direction, always was, always will be.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 2: I think it's good to be proud of who you are.
Speaker 20: Yeah, yeah, I guess I just got to like grow
Speaker 20: the balls and do it.
Speaker 2: Would you say name was?
Speaker 20: What?
Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?
Speaker 20: My name is Aisha? You're not going to remember at
Speaker 20: the end of the phone.
Speaker 4: Call.
Speaker 2: It's okay, but I don't remember anything about anyone. That's
Speaker 2: not true. I just don't remember people's names. I remember
Speaker 2: a lot of things about you, but I don't remember
Speaker 2: your name. Well, doctor Aisha, I appreciate you sharing with us,
Speaker 2: and look, I hope everything works out, and you know,
Speaker 2: I'll hope you enjoy your cry. While listening to one
Speaker 2: direction that sounds like it's poetic, lean into it, lean
Speaker 2: into it, I should said, experience of life, all the bad,
Speaker 2: all the good, take it all in.
Speaker 20: Thank you so much, Jack, I really needed that push.
Speaker 2: Of course, you have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 2: I shall need to take care night, doc.
Speaker 1: Bye call from Matt, but hold on.
Speaker 2: I gotta do real quick. Hello anyone there?
Speaker 4: Yep, hello, while.
Speaker 2: Hey, what's up? I got How are you doing?
Speaker 4: I can't complain? How are you?
Speaker 2: You can't complain. You can complain if you complain.
Speaker 4: I just don't.
Speaker 2: But you know I don't like to complain either. That's
Speaker 2: not true at all. I like complaining a lot. It
Speaker 2: feels good to complain. I wonder what the new. I
Speaker 2: wish that the new I had a neuroscientist. That's my
Speaker 2: next guest. We got to get a neuroscientist on because
Speaker 2: I there is some sort of I want the scientific
Speaker 2: explanation of why it just feels so good to complain,
Speaker 2: feel it. Complaining sometimes feels even better than fixing the
Speaker 2: issue you in a weird way, like it is that
Speaker 2: one we're talking. I'm sorry I was talking over you
Speaker 2: in a in a manic wit.
Speaker 4: I think it tooes our pride a little bit.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. If you could complain, well, let's see, I mean,
Speaker 2: what do I have to complain? You know, life's pretty
Speaker 2: good in a macro sense? What do you what's your
Speaker 2: name again?
Speaker 4: Mac?
Speaker 1: Mac?
Speaker 2: What's going on with you? Mac? How's your love life?
Speaker 4: I mean I don't have one, so I get that's
Speaker 4: them to complain about.
Speaker 2: What do you want one? It's not necessary to have
Speaker 2: a life love life?
Speaker 4: I mean absolutely, I think there I thought I was
Speaker 4: going to complain about one thing about that. That's that's
Speaker 4: I think that's tough for me without like I automatically
Speaker 4: go to complaining about what I could do better and
Speaker 4: not just about how I want things to be. I
Speaker 4: don't know.
Speaker 2: I think that's no. But that's a good thing. That
Speaker 2: means that you're taking like you know some modicum of
Speaker 2: personal responsibility, which is always good because you know, look,
Speaker 2: we don't have influence over the actions of others, but
Speaker 2: we have complete another control of our own actions, and
Speaker 2: so it's a good place to start. What is it
Speaker 2: that you think that you could do better in your
Speaker 2: in your own sort of thoughts about it?
Speaker 4: Well, I guess to do with vulnerability and being willing
Speaker 4: to put myself out there even when I am not
Speaker 4: able to. I guess I'm used to being able to
Speaker 4: guide someone in Oh, you know, a direction is interesting
Speaker 4: to me, but like my life circumstances right now.
Speaker 2: What do you what do you mean by you used
Speaker 2: to be able to guide someone into a into I mean, like.
Speaker 4: I guess, like being being a leader, being able to
Speaker 4: like share things I enjoy with somebody and be be
Speaker 4: the one who's outgoing. But mm hmm, mat probably I
Speaker 4: guess yes.
Speaker 2: You say you want to be more vulnerable, right, yeah,
Speaker 2: Because there's the thing is you know, be like. Here's
Speaker 2: here's what I believe is if you're not outgoing, if
Speaker 2: you if you look into your heart and you like
Speaker 2: are thinking about who you are, and you have a
Speaker 2: healthy amount of self awareness, and you decide I'm really
Speaker 2: not an outgoing guy. I'm kind of an introvert and
Speaker 2: you and you accept that about yourself instead of trying
Speaker 2: to force yourself to be outgoing even though you're not,
Speaker 2: and you instead like take a sort of intake of
Speaker 2: who you are, how you think, how you operate, how
Speaker 2: you like to maneuver social situations, and you go, I'm
Speaker 2: not outgoing, I'm not the I'm not gonna walk up
Speaker 2: and be like, hey, everyone's I'm not going to walk
Speaker 2: up to a circle and be like, what are we
Speaker 2: talking about here? That's not you. You don't have you
Speaker 2: don't that you don't that doesn't have to be you.
Speaker 2: You know, that's the thing. It's like, there's all these
Speaker 2: fucking you know, I understand why people people think that
Speaker 2: that's what they have to do, because you know, there's
Speaker 2: like this I guess societal ideal of what a successful
Speaker 2: social person looks like. But if you were to instead
Speaker 2: look at yourself and go, Okay, that's not me, but
Speaker 2: what is me? You know, and then what kind of
Speaker 2: person might be interested in whatever is you? You know, instead
Speaker 2: of trying to be what you're not, because if you
Speaker 2: try to be the you know, go off to the
Speaker 2: circle of guy. Hey, what's going on kind of guy?
Speaker 2: But that's not you. Then you're gonna you're gonna fail
Speaker 2: because you're you're not leaning into who you are, trying
Speaker 2: to be something else. Does that make sense?
Speaker 4: I respect that, Yeah, I can hear that. But at
Speaker 4: the same time, like a part of me resonates with that,
Speaker 4: Like I I there's a there's a joey in doing
Speaker 4: that that like, pardon me, feels like it is missing
Speaker 4: out not having that, not not sharing that with others.
Speaker 2: Right, but the time is right, Well, here's the thing.
Speaker 2: Is the time that you're spending like like wishing you
Speaker 2: were more outgoing because like you know, you think that
Speaker 2: that's the way to be is time I think you
Speaker 2: should be spending like doing a sort of an inward
Speaker 2: look at yourself and going, well, okay, I'm not that,
Speaker 2: but I am well a lot of things. I'm sure
Speaker 2: you are a lot of things. I'm sure that there
Speaker 2: are you have strengths, because everyone has their strengths, and
Speaker 2: you should play to what you believe you are good at,
Speaker 2: as opposed to trying to wire yourself in a way
Speaker 2: that is not you. Does that make sense? So instead
Speaker 2: of so I'm trying. I'm trying to get more concrete
Speaker 2: with this because I feel like I'm being too a
Speaker 2: rethrow here, you know, like like fuck it, like like
Speaker 2: like let's say, let's I think you're.
Speaker 4: Going back to vulnerability. It's what you're saying that you
Speaker 4: can be you can be vulnerable alone. Right, I'm not.
Speaker 2: Even saying what's what's mac? What do you like to do?
Speaker 2: Do you have any hobbies of any kinds, like anything
Speaker 2: you like to do, even if you think like it's
Speaker 2: not like anything that you like to do.
Speaker 4: Let's take my hiking.
Speaker 2: That's a perfect that's perfect. That's perfect. Okay, So you
Speaker 2: like to hike? Yeah, you say your love life Okay,
Speaker 2: you told me that your love life doesn't exist. Have
Speaker 2: you been trying to make it exist? Have you been
Speaker 2: like putting yourself out there anywhere at all?
Speaker 4: No? Not recently. Sure, I've found that my intentions on
Speaker 4: what I'm what I'm looking for is really cloudy and
Speaker 4: really hard to like, I've really struggled to be clear
Speaker 4: on that. So I ended up, at least in the past,
Speaker 4: I've ended up being an asshole. And because I didn't
Speaker 4: know what I was looking.
Speaker 2: For, You've ended up being what do you mean by
Speaker 2: you've ended up being an asshole.
Speaker 4: Just not treating people well because I wanted something or
Speaker 4: because I like I wasn't. I don't feel like I
Speaker 4: was present and able to connect with people enough to
Speaker 4: even notice where they were at Sure?
Speaker 2: Sure, why why do you feel like you weren't present?
Speaker 2: Were you like? Were you like distracted me?
Speaker 4: I had a good reason. I'm not struggling with mental
Speaker 4: health stuff. I mean there's a lot going on like
Speaker 4: just where I mean that even now makes it a
Speaker 4: real challenge for me to connect with people and feel well,
Speaker 4: even feel comfortable opening up and feel like I'm being
Speaker 4: heard and know that I'm connecting with someone.
Speaker 2: Would you say when you say your intentions were cloudy,
Speaker 2: do you do you which is you know, I totally
Speaker 2: get that we you know, Swycho and I were talking
Speaker 2: to uh uh a kitty about that kitty. You knew
Speaker 2: exactly what she wanted and that's important, that's helpful. Do
Speaker 2: you do feel like you don't know like what you want?
Speaker 2: Because you know, if you're if you're saying that you
Speaker 2: have a non existed love life and that that bothers you,
Speaker 2: like it's if like of course, you're going to be
Speaker 2: First of all, of course you're not going to have
Speaker 2: something if you don't even know what it is that
Speaker 2: you want to hang right, you know. And then and
Speaker 2: then the other side, it's like how how why would
Speaker 2: you be upset that you don't have something that you
Speaker 2: don't even know what the thing is?
Speaker 4: Mm hmm, I mean, I guess I I do know
Speaker 4: more of what I don't want, and it's really stressful
Speaker 4: for me to see myself unconsciously, like I I if
Speaker 4: I see myself reacting to others in ways that like
Speaker 4: I know it was going to get me something I
Speaker 4: don't want, If that makes sense. I'm trying to be concreteed,
Speaker 4: like I'm trying to give an example here, But.
Speaker 2: What your name was, Mac? I'm sorry I probably asked
Speaker 2: your name Tis. That's kind of you know, I've been
Speaker 2: able to own it. I've been able to own it
Speaker 2: and make it actually my like thing. It's a it's
Speaker 2: become an endearing thing about me now that I forget
Speaker 2: other people's names. It's not a you know, I've I've
Speaker 2: tricked everyone into into making it part of my like
Speaker 2: my stick that I forget people's names. I pretend as
Speaker 2: though I do it a lot of people, you know
Speaker 2: that I just, you know, forget people's names because I'm forgetful. Well, look,
Speaker 2: I'm taking in so much information. There's so much more.
Speaker 2: There's so much, so many things about you, Mac that
Speaker 2: are so much more interesting than your name. Mac. Listen,
Speaker 2: here's here's you.
Speaker 4: Remember. I appreciate you.
Speaker 2: Ever you ever you ever tried joining a hiking group?
Speaker 2: That's what I was going to ask you ever tried
Speaker 2: joining a hiking group. That's the first step of putting
Speaker 2: yourself out there, because there's been a lot of fucking people. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and I don't know if this is what you do,
Speaker 2: but a lot of guys fucking do this. Girls too.
Speaker 2: It's not really a gender thing. But you know, maybe
Speaker 2: you look at yourself and you're like, man, man, you know,
Speaker 2: I'm never gonna be able to like find a girlfriend
Speaker 2: if I can't like go out to a bar.
Speaker 4: I don't think myself talking.
Speaker 2: To people or you or I guess, I guess I'm no.
Speaker 2: What I mean to say is like maybe you you know,
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know this about you, you know,
Speaker 2: but like, are you are you possibly like looking for
Speaker 2: uh uh stuff in the wrong places, But I'm realizing
Speaker 2: that you don't. You wouldn't even know what you're what
Speaker 2: you're looking for, so you you would have to figure
Speaker 2: that out, right.
Speaker 4: I Mean, what's something that came to mind with what
Speaker 4: you said, was like there's this I think I built
Speaker 4: up some resistance there where I'm there's that fear like
Speaker 4: I mean going back to one of them, but there's
Speaker 4: the fear that I'm I'm trying to like be okay,
Speaker 4: I put this, It's almost like it's almost like I'm
Speaker 4: expecting myself to look after the other person so much
Speaker 4: that I and I'm expecting myself that I'm afraid of
Speaker 4: fucking things up, and I'm afraid, like afraid that like I'm
Speaker 4: taking on so much responsibility there that I'm not giving
Speaker 4: myself a chance to be open, if that makes sense,
Speaker 4: Like I'm taking it so seriously that I don't, like
Speaker 4: I'm I'm not relaxed. I'm not I'm not I'm not
Speaker 4: myself So how could how could somebody get to know
Speaker 4: me like that? Be pretty tough?
Speaker 2: It is tough. It's a tough journey. It's a long journey.
Speaker 2: I'm not good at it. Necessarily a lot of people
Speaker 2: aren't good at it. It's a tough thing. It's a
Speaker 2: tough thing to not only be yourself, be yourself. Actually
Speaker 2: it's that's that's only one part of it. You got
Speaker 2: to be yourself with an accurately present yourself honestly to
Speaker 2: the world, which is tough to do.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 2: I'm still trying to figure out how to do that.
Speaker 2: You know, it's a scary thing, but you know that's
Speaker 2: your mission, that's your homework, that's your goal.
Speaker 12: Mac.
Speaker 4: Could you make that a little bit more specific for me?
Speaker 2: I could? I wish I could, Mac.
Speaker 4: H what's up?
Speaker 2: Listen, man, I appreciate you calling. I appreciate you being
Speaker 2: vulnerable with us right now. I hope that you know.
Speaker 2: I'm I'm I am, I am honored. I'm grateful that
Speaker 2: you know you feel comfortable to share all this with us.
Speaker 2: And uh look o, the best of luck and I
Speaker 2: hope you have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 4: Thank you for listening.
Speaker 2: Of course, Mack, you have a rest of the night.
Speaker 4: Take care.
Speaker 2: Mac. Well, that was fifteen minutes long. I've lost all
Speaker 2: track of time.
Speaker 1: All from Alfred, Alfred.
Speaker 2: Thank you an actual bank go on.
Speaker 16: Alfred, Hello, Hi, how you doing?
Speaker 2: Alfred.
Speaker 6: Is that you?
Speaker 12: Yeah, this is me.
Speaker 4: I'm Alfred.
Speaker 2: You're Alfred.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I'm Alfred really yeah, yeah, that's what my parents
Speaker 12: named me.
Speaker 2: Can you turn stream off? Alfred?
Speaker 18: Can I hear?
Speaker 4: What?
Speaker 2: Can you turn your stream off?
Speaker 12: I'm sorry, I'm sorry about that. Yeah, there we go.
Speaker 2: You know what I like about doing this stream is
Speaker 2: sometimes I really, you know, I know that I'm like
Speaker 2: broadcasting myself. It's an interesting thing that goes on in
Speaker 2: my mind when I'm doing this, Alfred, which is that,
Speaker 2: you know, sometimes you know, I am acutely aware of
Speaker 2: the fact that I'm broadcasting myself to people, and which
Speaker 2: you know, in a lot of sense would like make
Speaker 2: you feel as though you're watched. But I get this
Speaker 2: weird thing where like I actually feel I actually don't
Speaker 2: feel like people are watching, and so I feel like
Speaker 2: I'm able to enter this, you know, if I really
Speaker 2: want to, a sort of dream like state in which
Speaker 2: the conversation that we're having is, you know, can flow
Speaker 2: in whatever direction that we would We would like it too,
Speaker 2: similar to to a lucid dream, in which the elements
Speaker 2: can you know, be under your control and don't necessarily
Speaker 2: have to make a you know, coherent sense by the
Speaker 2: logic of reality.
Speaker 18: Yeah, I feel that, man, I totally feel that, Like
Speaker 18: I think that's how every conversation should go, you know,
Speaker 18: but it doesn't sometimes mm hmm yeah.
Speaker 2: Sometimes, you know, you know, we could have a whole
Speaker 2: conversation and then afterwards, it's like it doesn't even like
Speaker 2: it can happen, similar to a dream. You know. I've
Speaker 2: had experiences like that where you know, you go, you
Speaker 2: do a whole thing, and it doesn't eve feel like
Speaker 2: it can happen. Every time. Life feels like a dream sometimes.
Speaker 2: Do you feel that?
Speaker 12: How do you What do you think about deja vu?
Speaker 12: I'm sorry about that?
Speaker 2: What are you sorry?
Speaker 4: Then?
Speaker 12: But I feel like I cut you off like a
Speaker 12: little earlier over there. No, no, no, I don't like
Speaker 12: cutting people off.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 2: Look, dude, Look we're talking on the phone right now,
Speaker 2: and there's a lot of technology. I can't read your
Speaker 2: body language, I can't look at your face, and but
Speaker 2: I actually think that that's good. I feel as though
Speaker 2: we can. I you know, I have less less variables
Speaker 2: that are influencing the way that I approach you as
Speaker 2: a person, because we're all sort of on an equal
Speaker 2: playing field here. You know. I feel like if you
Speaker 2: were like, you know, like like six foot tall and
Speaker 2: had a beard, maybe I would treat you differently than
Speaker 2: if you were like wearing a pink shirt and flip
Speaker 2: flops and had a I don't know. I don't know
Speaker 2: what I'm saying.
Speaker 4: No, I kind of do know.
Speaker 16: No, I I guess Alfred.
Speaker 2: You said your name was.
Speaker 12: Alfred Alfred E.
Speaker 4: Newman? Is that?
Speaker 12: Is that a scientist?
Speaker 2: But some of the chat said so tall I was,
Speaker 2: I'm five six Alfred E. K Newman. He is the
Speaker 2: mascot of Mad magazine.
Speaker 18: Mad like Mad TV or Mad TV.
Speaker 2: Is based off of Mad magazine, which Alfred.
Speaker 16: Y, Yeah, the mascot, the guy with the big smile
Speaker 16: right with the orange chair, I think, or brown hair.
Speaker 2: How's your love life guy, It's.
Speaker 12: Good, it's going, it's going well. I guess.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 12: See anyway, Yeah, I can't complain.
Speaker 2: To be honest, you know, perfect, perfect Alfred.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yes.
Speaker 2: Do you feel as though you got what you wanted
Speaker 2: to live this conversation or did you even want anything
Speaker 2: out of this conversation, in which case you would have
Speaker 2: gotten what you wanted at this conversation, which was nothing
Speaker 2: in particular, because you received.
Speaker 12: I don't know what I wanted out this conversation, to
Speaker 12: be honest, I just wanted to talk to you, and
Speaker 12: you know, shoot the ship, you know.
Speaker 2: It was I think this was nice. I enjoyed talking
Speaker 2: to you, Alfred. You know, you seemed as though you
Speaker 2: were willing to go in with every direction that I
Speaker 2: I sort of, I sort of, you know, I wanted
Speaker 2: to go and uh, you know, I appreciate that energy
Speaker 2: that you have You've shown me. You know, it's general from.
Speaker 12: Philly, if that does anything.
Speaker 2: I don't know you're from phillyre do you or do
Speaker 2: you live there right now?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 12: I lived here in my whole life.
Speaker 2: What part of philu?
Speaker 16: Uh?
Speaker 12: North Philadelphia?
Speaker 2: No, it's Philadelphia. That's why I lived in North Philadelphia
Speaker 2: for three or four years.
Speaker 12: I love.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's great city.
Speaker 12: We went to the same college I think we did.
Speaker 12: Yeah did we Did you go to double I think yeah? Yeah?
Speaker 2: Universally? What did you study there?
Speaker 16: Uh?
Speaker 12: Fucking useless degree? Marketing?
Speaker 2: Marketing? What year did you graduate?
Speaker 12: I graduated twenty eighteen.
Speaker 2: Oh okay, all right, yeah, no, mm hmm.
Speaker 12: I'm trying to get out of here. To be honest,
Speaker 12: I don't really like Philly anymore.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, where do you want to go? New York? La? Uh,
Speaker 2: Chicago to you to Tokyo.
Speaker 12: I have not been to Tokyo. I would love to go,
Speaker 12: but you know, one day, that's.
Speaker 2: What That's what everyone always says, and then they die.
Speaker 12: I really want to go like cross country on the
Speaker 12: r V and just like live on the road and
Speaker 12: just like see places. That would be cool.
Speaker 2: I just got back from doing that.
Speaker 4: I was.
Speaker 2: I lived on the road for like five months out
Speaker 2: of a not out of an RV, but out of
Speaker 2: a out of a sedan.
Speaker 12: Out of the saedan. That's hard, that's tough. My back
Speaker 12: would hurt.
Speaker 2: No, we weren't. I mean we were living in that.
Speaker 2: We stayed in airbnds.
Speaker 12: But you know, ah m hmm.
Speaker 2: Let me tell you something about going to see the
Speaker 2: country is just you know, everyone's gonna look, everyone's gonna
Speaker 2: tell you all this ship of like you know, oh, man,
Speaker 2: go to go to Oregon. It's so beautiful. Oh go
Speaker 2: to Arizona. Look, everywhere in the entire world is exactly
Speaker 2: the same. And look, save yourself some money. Just go
Speaker 2: to Google images, type in Arizona. Look at the tractresses there.
Speaker 2: It's the same thing.
Speaker 12: We don't have mountains in Philey.
Speaker 1: I'm like.
Speaker 6: A beach.
Speaker 2: Uh No, I'm just kidding. It's actually pretty beautiful. There's
Speaker 2: a lot of cool stuff there. Well, are you gonna
Speaker 2: do it? You're gonna go cross country? What's stopping? You
Speaker 2: got a job? Quit it?
Speaker 12: Man, that's I need a job to do what. I
Speaker 12: don't know what I want to do to be honest, do.
Speaker 2: You where do you live? Do you live in with
Speaker 2: your mom or do you live in in the house
Speaker 2: that you pay for?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 12: I live with my mom.
Speaker 4: Yeah, oh you do?
Speaker 2: All right? So what do you need money for?
Speaker 12: Do I need money for to have, you know, have
Speaker 12: my own apartment and put things in it and just
Speaker 12: like cook cook food and just like learn the the
Speaker 12: how to be an adult. You know, I think I
Speaker 12: need to do that.
Speaker 2: I respect that. I respect that. I respect that.
Speaker 12: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Well for listen, tell your mom I said, hello, she
Speaker 2: seems like a nice lady. She birthed a very nice son.
Speaker 2: And shout.
Speaker 18: Thank you so much, Lyle of course, positive energy, Thank
Speaker 18: you man.
Speaker 2: You have a give us a night.
Speaker 12: Have a good one.
Speaker 6: All from Allen Alan.
Speaker 22: Hello, Alan, Oh my god, I got.
Speaker 2: On, Alan, Alan, Alan, Alan.
Speaker 6: Allen, this is awesome.
Speaker 2: Why, Hi, we haven't done anything yet. I'm so, I don't, Alan,
Speaker 2: I've we've I've I haven't even I'm I'm, I'm, I'm look,
Speaker 2: I'm grateful, Alan, But I mean is I'm I'm I'm
Speaker 2: glad to hear I'm glad to hear that, Alan, I'm
Speaker 2: glad to hear that. Why is it awesome? Tell me more?
Speaker 22: It's my first time calling, and I got on.
Speaker 3: You're on.
Speaker 2: You're on, Alan, I'm on, You're on. Everyone's on. Tonight's
Speaker 2: the ninth. Bring it up? Do it up? Big? Alan?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Would you? What did you want to talk about? Alan?
Speaker 4: Uh? What I want to talk about?
Speaker 21: MH, I have a I have a bad habit of
Speaker 21: eating bad food intentionally m in order to avoid food
Speaker 21: poisoning accidentally.
Speaker 2: Now what does that mean?
Speaker 22: Well, you know when something's like slight way old or expired. Well,
Speaker 22: you know, I just I feel like explation dates. You know,
Speaker 22: it's just a suggestion.
Speaker 2: You intentionally eat bad food. You okay, but you said
Speaker 2: you eat bad food to avoid food poisoning, which is counterintuitive.
Speaker 22: Well, yeah, in case if I do it, you know, accidentally,
Speaker 22: my wife says, I have an iron stomach.
Speaker 2: You eat bad food to avoid eating bad food. You
Speaker 2: eat bad food intentionally to avoid eating bad food accidentally.
Speaker 22: In order to not get sick.
Speaker 2: Yes, you know what. What's your name again?
Speaker 4: Alan?
Speaker 2: Alan? I'm so sick of the conventions of society that
Speaker 2: trick us into believing that every thing that we say
Speaker 2: has to make complete and other sense. I truly am
Speaker 2: and I believe that you know, while what you're saying
Speaker 2: doesn't make any sense at all, I admire you. I'm
Speaker 2: being dead serious right now. I admire you as a
Speaker 2: valiant soldier against this convention that everything that everyone says
Speaker 2: has to make sense all the time. It really is,
Speaker 2: it's manufactured to make us feel alone. Alan, You know,
Speaker 2: you ever watch a TV show? What you just said?
Speaker 2: No one would ever say on a TV show, because
Speaker 2: if someone wrote that down and tried to make someone
Speaker 2: on a TV show say it, and it would they'd
Speaker 2: have to pitch it in a room full of people,
Speaker 2: and then the guy at the head of the room
Speaker 2: would be like, what the fuck does that mean? And
Speaker 2: then it would never make it on But and then,
Speaker 2: and now you're alone in that thought. But I don't
Speaker 2: want you to be alone in that thought, because why
Speaker 2: should you have to be alone in that thought? Just
Speaker 2: because apparently everything everyone says has to make sense. I
Speaker 2: don't think it does. What Why why does everything everyone
Speaker 2: says have to make sense?
Speaker 4: Man?
Speaker 2: Say it again? Say what you tell me? Tell me
Speaker 2: again what you just told me?
Speaker 22: Well, basically, so I feel like just a suggestion, and
Speaker 22: so I eat bad suit intentionally mm hmm in case
Speaker 22: if I do it accidentally, I don't get sick.
Speaker 2: Yes, say say that again? Thousand people listen to this again?
Speaker 2: Not I want? Why do you Alan? Do you? Alan?
Speaker 2: I'm not making fun of you. I know that to
Speaker 2: an untrained I know it might seem like I'm swear
Speaker 2: on my fucking life. I'm not making fun of you
Speaker 2: right now. I appreciate you genuinely. Who are you with?
Speaker 6: I'm with my wife, you're with your wife?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 4: What?
Speaker 22: Does I have an iron stomach?
Speaker 2: Good? Has talk?
Speaker 4: Sword? Sure?
Speaker 2: I'd love to I love to doctor?
Speaker 4: Hell? Hey?
Speaker 2: What's your name? I'm hope, Hope.
Speaker 12: How are you good?
Speaker 17: How about you?
Speaker 2: I'm doing amazing, Hope. What's what's your favorite thing about? Alan?
Speaker 4: What? What?
Speaker 12: Uh?
Speaker 2: Why did you marry him?
Speaker 14: What?
Speaker 2: Does your what's been keeping your relationship alive?
Speaker 17: He just makes me laugh like no one else I
Speaker 17: don't know, And no one else can put up with me.
Speaker 2: No one else can put up with you? Put put
Speaker 2: up with what about you?
Speaker 4: Do?
Speaker 2: People have trouble putting up with.
Speaker 17: I can be kind of crazy?
Speaker 2: Interesting? In what way? Can you be kind of crazy?
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 17: I like to have mental breakdowns?
Speaker 2: Sure? Sure, okay? So how does how does handle you
Speaker 2: when you are quote acting crazy?
Speaker 17: He kind of just ignores me, and yeah, it just works.
Speaker 2: And ignores you and it works. Is that what you do?
Speaker 2: You do you like the fact that he ignores you?
Speaker 6: Would you.
Speaker 2: Would you prefer not ignore you? Or or it sounds
Speaker 2: as though the system that you two have in place
Speaker 2: has been working for both of you. As far as
Speaker 2: you've presented this to me, he.
Speaker 17: Doesn't like to say anything mean about it, and he's like,
Speaker 17: so it works.
Speaker 2: The absence of him doing anything negative is enough. You
Speaker 2: don't desire for him to do anything actively positive in response? Yeah, okay,
Speaker 2: that's fine, I mean I understand that. Look, if you're
Speaker 2: if you're quote as you said in your own words,
Speaker 2: going crazy, maybe you just want to be left alone.
Speaker 2: I understand that that's that's completely valid. You know that
Speaker 2: it's I know, you know again again to the untrained,
Speaker 2: diet might seem as though there's something wrong, but this
Speaker 2: is just the product of two people who are complex
Speaker 2: who have found each other and learn to understand each
Speaker 2: other and their complexities and maneuver. I'm impressed, I am.
Speaker 2: I think you have a good relationship.
Speaker 17: Yeah, I mean yeah, I don't think anyone else would
Speaker 17: be able to handle. But I don't know, I don't
Speaker 17: know how to explain it.
Speaker 2: That's okay, what your husband told me that he he
Speaker 2: and your husband told me that he intentionally eats food
Speaker 2: that has gone bad so that he does not accidentally
Speaker 2: eat food that has gone bad. Can you explain any
Speaker 2: further what that means.
Speaker 17: That he's stupid and is gonna get some kind of
Speaker 17: poisoning some day. No, there was one I remember when
Speaker 17: we first got together. We went to the Mexican restaurant
Speaker 17: and he had leftovers and I found out that he
Speaker 17: ate like two week old leftovers.
Speaker 13: And I don't know.
Speaker 17: How he survived that, because I think that's disgusting, and
Speaker 17: it was it was chicken, So there's like no way
Speaker 17: it was any good, and.
Speaker 2: Yet you continue to love him?
Speaker 17: Yes, I mean why not?
Speaker 2: Why not? Is that what you said when he first
Speaker 2: asked you to marry him?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 17: No, I said yes, well obviously, but I like I
Speaker 17: pretty much only said yes.
Speaker 2: Okay, mhm, tears so interesting? What else still want to
Speaker 2: know about you? Guys? I like you guys? What else
Speaker 2: could I know about you guys? What else should we
Speaker 2: all know about you?
Speaker 4: Guys?
Speaker 17: I don't know what should they know about us? Allen?
Speaker 17: How'd you mean, oh, we have a snake, a pet snake?
Speaker 2: Of course you have a pet snake. Already knew that.
Speaker 2: I already assumed that.
Speaker 17: Oh, I don't know.
Speaker 2: Why did you ask.
Speaker 16: Online?
Speaker 17: On tender?
Speaker 10: Yeah?
Speaker 2: And what in two sixteen sixteen? Okause, you guys have
Speaker 2: been together for about five years?
Speaker 17: Yeah?
Speaker 2: What was the first thing you said to him or
Speaker 2: he said to you via the tender messaging?
Speaker 17: I have no idea. And then I don't remember, but
Speaker 17: I know we added each other on Snapchat soon after,
Speaker 17: and I just found out the other day, which I
Speaker 17: don't remember, that he stopped talking to me for a
Speaker 17: couple of weeks because he was trying to decide to
Speaker 17: bid me and another girl.
Speaker 2: He told you that?
Speaker 17: Yeah, he told me that, but I don't remember him
Speaker 17: not talking to me, So I don't know.
Speaker 2: How did that make you feel?
Speaker 17: I don't know, because I don't remember that happening. I'm
Speaker 17: like whatever, But he.
Speaker 2: Made the right choice that he reminded you of the
Speaker 2: fact that he once told you that, but you forgotten. Yes,
Speaker 2: a lot of people. That would piss off a lot
Speaker 2: of people.
Speaker 17: Yeah, I don't know. I mean, it was like so
Speaker 17: long ago that I don't even remember that happening, So
Speaker 17: I don't care.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you two are absolutely perfect for each other.
Speaker 17: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Do you feel as though you conveniently forget things that
Speaker 2: are convenient to forget?
Speaker 17: I don't just convenient conveniently forget things. But if it's
Speaker 17: like super long ago and stuff like that that I'm
Speaker 17: probably not gonna remember.
Speaker 2: Hope and trustmas. Then Alan Alan Hope sounds like a
Speaker 2: good name for presidents, but not not in not in
Speaker 2: this current year. Maybe like in the nineteen whatever, Alan Hope.
Speaker 2: Uh huh, I'd vote for Alan Hope hopeing Alan give
Speaker 2: me can I can I have? Can you hear the
Speaker 2: phone back to Alan?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, so you intentionally eat bad food so that
Speaker 2: later down the line you don't accidentally eat it.
Speaker 12: Yes, I've also be enjoying you.
Speaker 2: Enjoy eating it.
Speaker 21: Oh bad food sometimes.
Speaker 2: Thank you so much for I hope you have a
Speaker 2: good rest of the night and I find you inspiring.
Speaker 12: Thank you, got go.
Speaker 10: Never be Ken goes on the line taking your phone
Speaker 10: calls every night. Never beat Kid goes to any side.
Speaker 10: He's teaching you how to the lid of your life,
Speaker 10: but he's not really an expert.