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Speaker 2: Name herr has it own ma'am.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, hey, I am an old lady, but I've got

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Speaker 3: a revenged story. I put sugar in my own gas tanks.

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Speaker 2: On going really uh, to get revenge on yourself because

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Speaker 3: You know, and guess what it was all over one

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Speaker 3: little tiny word, the word or because when I got married,

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Speaker 3: say this motherfucker, and I have no I don't feel

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Speaker 3: bad about it at all. He talked. He taught me

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Speaker 3: into buying a car. He never worked.

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Speaker 3: Well, he taught me into put his name or me

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Speaker 3: My kids were still like in grace, like like they

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Speaker 3: were young who just left me, abandoned me? Took my

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Speaker 3: title transferred over. Yeah, I was pretty mad about it.

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Speaker 2: And to his name, he stole your.

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Speaker 3: Car, yes, and like his mom helps him do it

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Speaker 3: like he does that. That mightther fuck herself. My cousband

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Speaker 3: came up with this great idea. You know, she's young.

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Speaker 3: I'm getting out of bread. It's so good to get

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Speaker 2: Go for it. It's Monday night. That's what is you?

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Speaker 2: What is your relationship to this guy?

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Speaker 4: Again?

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Speaker 2: He's like your ex boyfriend or something, husband him or

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Speaker 3: If he's dead, now he's dead.

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Speaker 2: Now he's dead.

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Speaker 3: The story he died. Oh I'm not. I'm not. I'm

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Speaker 3: my cousin she's like, look, fuck him too, let's let's go.

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Speaker 3: You know, I'll miss up some sugar water in a picture.

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Speaker 3: And like her mom is like this. I can't say

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Speaker 3: And it was she started the idea.

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Speaker 2: She got hold on, hold on, hold on what what

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Speaker 3: It's a major one. It's a major one, is you?

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Speaker 3: So I don't want to do nothing that would agree

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Speaker 3: concern because then aren't can I say? Hell, it's happened

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Speaker 3: nice little car. Okay, in that model, the gas cat

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Speaker 3: planning to do to my own. I was like, fuck it.

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Speaker 3: I'd rather kill that car and him happy to be

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Speaker 2: Can I tell you something?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I tell you something.

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Speaker 2: Sure, And you know I'm gonna tell you this because

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Speaker 3: Oh no, not anymore. I mean I'm just kind of

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Speaker 2: You know, Nana, I understand that you're upset that your

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Speaker 2: Uh, you know, you don't keep that anger with you

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Speaker 3: Of Look, I could have done something to him, not

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Speaker 2: So you sound like so you told me you don't

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Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

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Speaker 2: Is that is that my choice? Or do you do

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Speaker 3: To be absolutely hey? I live. Uh we have like

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Speaker 3: real talk like we got like two years of food like.

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Speaker 2: With how many how many?

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Speaker 3: And the kids No, no, my kids are grown. I

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Speaker 2: That sounds like you like your life. You know, it

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Speaker 3: Great, because when I want to go do something, nashal

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Speaker 3: On Broadway too, that I shit gets old after a while.

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Speaker 2: But Nana, what do you what are your what are

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Speaker 3: Well, my oldest one is in the restaurant business. He cooks,

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Speaker 7: He was a toe tirt harver.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, what do you do do you work? Are you retired?

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Speaker 8: Well?

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Speaker 3: I was in the corporate world. I did purchasing for

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Speaker 3: a major hotel, a moot food and liquor for nine hotels.

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Speaker 6: That was a hard job.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I know. Those both sound like hard jobs. I

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Speaker 3: That sounds like yeah, yeah, well yeah, you.

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Speaker 2: Know, well, so what do you What do you do now?

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Speaker 3: Not a fucking sight, not a fucking thing.

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Speaker 9: I got a settlement, But hold on, who did you

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Speaker 3: We don't need to talk about all that this year.

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Speaker 3: We just start talking. You awfully knows you book. Maybe

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Speaker 3: This is this has been hard. I've been like painting

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Speaker 3: a fine. I don't know what I'm going to.

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Speaker 2: Be honest, movie, that's okay. You don't have to tell

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Speaker 3: Me, Nana, I know that it's all right.

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Speaker 2: We thank you. I appreciate that. Thank you so much.

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Speaker 2: Forting Nana, you have a good rest of the night.

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Speaker 4: I see.

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Speaker 10: Never goes on the line. Thank your phone calls every night.

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Speaker 10: I'm just teaching you.

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Speaker 1: All from Liz Liz holy ship.

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Speaker 11: What I'm really good?

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Speaker 3: How are you?

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Speaker 2: You're really good? Are you just saying that or are

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Speaker 11: I'm I'm on your show. I'm doing really good.

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Speaker 2: You know I I I appreciate. I want to say

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Speaker 2: my show. But logically, many people have been on my

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Speaker 11: I think that's impossible when they talk to you.

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Speaker 2: Good, our expectations are set correctly, and we may now

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Speaker 2: begin whatever it is that we do here. I don't

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Speaker 2: I could have. I really had the opportunity to open

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Speaker 2: up this conversation like a normal fucking person. I blew it. Now.

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Speaker 2: I'm just being hard on myself. But it's all an act.

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Speaker 2: That's theater. How seriously can you take me? I'm a gecko.

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Speaker 11: You're amazing. Don't be so hard on yourself.

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Speaker 2: Have you ever gotten revenge?

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Speaker 3: I have?

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Speaker 11: Yes, I have two really good stories. One of them

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Speaker 11: is about a classification that's really hard.

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Speaker 1: One of the class You know.

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Speaker 2: What, here's here's what we'll do, here's what you do,

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Speaker 2: here's what we'll do. Tell us I like what you

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Speaker 2: were doing. Just now, you were giving us log lines.

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Speaker 11: Okay, classification of animals angered me at one point, and

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Speaker 2: Mmmm, Chat, what do we want to hear? Do we

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Speaker 2: The chat is heavily in favor of the bully, because

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Speaker 2: I don't think that we understand what the animal thing meant.

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Speaker 2: But let's let's do the bully.

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Speaker 11: Okay, So let me say the stage for you. I'm

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Speaker 11: and this girl in the library was like, you're really fat.

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Speaker 11: So I pushed over a bookshelf on top of her,

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Speaker 2: You pushed over a bookshelf on top of her.

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Speaker 11: I mean it started off that one was a very

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Speaker 11: Obviously I ruined the whole library. What was I going

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Speaker 2: You ruined the library? You say, yes, okay, So first

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Speaker 2: of all, did you succeed? Did you successfully pin this

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Speaker 2: young girl under a stack of books as you so desired?

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Speaker 11: Absolutely?

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Speaker 2: And how did that feel as you watched her trapped

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Speaker 2: felt really good.

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Speaker 11: Oh no, I'm not afraid to say it felt really good.

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Speaker 11: It was awesome.

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Speaker 2: Why why was it so awesome?

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Speaker 11: Mm hmmm? Because she was like six foot tall, and

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Speaker 11: like first grade, she had like a growing issue, so

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Speaker 2: And why Okay, so maybe I missed some stuff here,

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Speaker 2: but what what was she doing to you at first.

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Speaker 11: So she had been she was she had been bullying

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Speaker 2: What's your last name?

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Speaker 11: Red a kiss?

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Speaker 2: Red a kiss?

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Speaker 11: Yeah?

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Speaker 11: It is on my Tinder bio.

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Speaker 2: Well there we go. Okay, so you appropriated it into

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Speaker 2: And has it? Has it gotten you? Matches? Have he

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Speaker 4: True.

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Speaker 11: I'm pretty sure she's on her third child and she's

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Speaker 4: Facebook?

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Speaker 11: Typically she's posting about how horrible her kids are.

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Speaker 2: For sure, at the end of the day, when all

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Speaker 11: That's really hard. I think I think maybe, But I

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Speaker 2: This woman seems to not like her life. Yes, And

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Speaker 11: I was attacked by a squirrel and ever since then

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Speaker 2: The squirrel was attracted to you sexually. Yes, and you

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Speaker 14: No.

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Speaker 2: Do you like your life?

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Speaker 11: Yeah? I'm pretty happy, good.

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Speaker 2: Would say nameless, Liz. Thank you so much for sharing, Liz.

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Speaker 11: Thanks. Love you get.

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Speaker 1: All from Rodney.

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Speaker 2: Rodney.

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Speaker 7: Holy moly, mom, man.

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Speaker 2: You are How are you? Rodney? Dude?

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Speaker 7: I'm I'm chilling, so are you?

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Speaker 2: Mister Greek you know I'm okay. I'm hanging out in

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Speaker 4: Just tuned in.

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Speaker 7: You got you got a good Colors night.

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Speaker 2: You're you? I got? I got you Rodney Rodney. Look,

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Speaker 2: I have a topic for tonight.

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Speaker 7: Yeah, man, what's your topic?

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Speaker 2: Asking people about bad habits? You got any bad habits?

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Speaker 4: Rodney?

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Speaker 7: Ooh, mister ghek. I'm I'm at the I'm at the

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Speaker 7: young age of eighteen and I've I've been on the

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Speaker 7: it's a regret.

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Speaker 2: It's a regret you regret. What do you regret? Regret?

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Speaker 2: Like ever starting smoking? We you regret having discovered it?

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Speaker 2: I mean, Rodney, Rodney, I don't know if this is

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Speaker 2: little my quiet, No, not quiet, but you're breaking up

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Speaker 7: I'm sorry, man. I mean I can go, I can

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Speaker 4: Is this better?

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Speaker 2: Where'd you go?

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Speaker 7: I went to the other side of my room.

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Speaker 2: It's perfect.

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Speaker 7: As much as I can do for you.

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Speaker 7: I used to I used to smoke a few times

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Speaker 7: a day, but I I'm clean today.

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Speaker 2: You're clean today?

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Speaker 15: All right?

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Speaker 2: You start with one day?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I like that. What's your what's your motivation? I think

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Speaker 2: I feel like if you have if this has become

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Speaker 2: Do you have something like that?

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Speaker 7: No, man, I think that's like the biggest problem. Like

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Speaker 7: I moved to North Carolina, and I don't got like

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Speaker 7: past two years I've just and it's like, really.

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Speaker 2: Uh, Rodney, Roddick Rodney. I'm sorry, Rodney, I'm Peyton Brow.

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Speaker 7: I'm sorry.

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Speaker 2: Don't pay stay if you can stay right.

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Speaker 7: Where you are, I'm right here. I sat down.

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Speaker 4: Good for you.

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Speaker 2: Good m hmm. What did you move to? Where'd you

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Speaker 7: You said, yeah, man in the mountains?

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Speaker 2: Did you move there to do?

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Speaker 7: I moved here because my dad moved here and then

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Speaker 7: So they're a really big change, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 7: So I went from people everywhere to people nowhere, and uh,

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Speaker 7: I don't know. I'm lonely man.

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Speaker 2: Why don't you move somewhere else?

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Speaker 7: Because I'm eighteen, I'm like that down to my family.

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Speaker 2: Uh, you know you could? You can move anywhere. Rodney.

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Speaker 2: You're not Rodney the other colors.

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Speaker 7: No, I'm Rodney, that's me.

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Speaker 2: Sorry.

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Speaker 7: I don't know, man.

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Speaker 2: Brains so love the day. Why don't you move Rodney

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Speaker 2: if you don't like where you are?

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Speaker 16: Dude?

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Speaker 2: I know here, Rodney, you know, here's the thing, man,

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Speaker 2: very knew to this idea that you can kind of

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Speaker 4: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: I mean all of your life experience so far has

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Speaker 2: have to live, what you have to do with your time.

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Speaker 2: And you've turned eighteen now, Rodney, and you no longer

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Speaker 2: have to succumb to anyone's authority except the authority of reality,

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Speaker 2: even that you don't even have to succumb to if

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Speaker 2: you want to, if you want to do it big?

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Speaker 2: Where would you want to move, Rodney?

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Speaker 7: Where would I want to move? Like these past two months, man,

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Speaker 7: I've just been thinking about like walking down the street

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Speaker 7: for forever, but not here.

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Speaker 2: Down the streets forever. You could go hiking. You can

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Speaker 2: hike the Appalachian Trail.

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Speaker 7: Ooh, that'd be fun. I could do that for you.

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Speaker 2: I like the Appalachian Trail, Dude, get in touch with.

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Speaker 4: That. That'd be helpful.

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Speaker 2: Make friends with some bears. Do you want to let

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Speaker 2: me ask you one last question before we go, because

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Speaker 2: this is important. Do you and this is a real question,

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Speaker 2: I'm not fucking with you. Do you want to have friends?

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Speaker 2: Because some people. I've talked to a bunch of people

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Speaker 7: I don't know if i'd say I like being alone.

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Speaker 7: But I feel like I've gone to the point now

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Speaker 7: you know what I mean?

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Speaker 12: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 2: Do you have a real therapist.

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Speaker 7: A few years ago?

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Speaker 2: Did you talk to them about this?

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Speaker 7: No, we talked about titties.

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Speaker 2: You talked about titties. Yeah, what about titties?

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Speaker 7: Well, I've seen this girl all the time, and you know,

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Speaker 4: What we talked about. He's a cool guy, though.

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Speaker 7: I won't call it therapy. It's more like counseling.

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Speaker 2: Sure. Sure, what did he help you with with you

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Speaker 2: have titty problems?

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Speaker 8: No?

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Speaker 4: I was. I don't know how.

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Speaker 7: I don't know how I got there. I guess I

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Speaker 2: The listeners, what I'll tell you, you know, are the woods,

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Speaker 2: not forever. Don't walk around the streets forever. I hate

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Speaker 2: If that's what you want, don't do it because I.

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Speaker 7: Told you to do it.

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Speaker 2: That's a terrible idea. Okay, But in the meantime, look round.

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Speaker 2: I believe you will make friends. But in the meantime,

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Speaker 7: I I h go be alone where.

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Speaker 2: Just learn to be alone. Learn how to enjoy yourself

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Speaker 2: I think you're eighteen. I think you have a lifetime

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Speaker 2: Learn how to do it.

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Speaker 7: I guess you're right.

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Speaker 6: I much for calling Rodney hey before before we go.

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Speaker 7: I really enjoyed the podcast. I was not like work

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Speaker 7: and stuff. You're doing good stuff, mister get.

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Speaker 2: Thank you, Ronnie. I appreciate that.

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Speaker 1: Man.

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Speaker 2: You have a good rest of the night.

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Speaker 7: M yes, sir, Bye bye.

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Speaker 1: All from Flexi.

451
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Speaker 2: Lexi.

452
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Speaker 13: Bye.

453
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Speaker 2: How are you, Lexi?

454
00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:30,520
Speaker 17: I'm good? How are you?

455
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Speaker 7: You know?

456
00:25:30,840 --> 00:25:36,919
Speaker 2: Lexi? I'm floating around in outer space and I'm happy.

457
00:25:36,960 --> 00:25:41,760
Speaker 2: I feel free in a sense? Does does that resonate

458
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Speaker 2: with you at all? Freedom from from the the the

459
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Speaker 2: trials of earth?

460
00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:51,200
Speaker 15: Yeah, it must be nice.

461
00:25:53,240 --> 00:25:55,280
Speaker 2: Must be nice, you say, why must that be nice?

462
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Speaker 7: I don't know?

463
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Speaker 15: Life stressful?

464
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Speaker 14: You know?

465
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Speaker 2: M hm hm why is life stressful? Lexi?

466
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Speaker 4: Uh uh?

467
00:26:07,480 --> 00:26:10,280
Speaker 6: Where do I begin anywhere?

468
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Speaker 13: I mean?

469
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Speaker 15: I called to tell you my vengeful story. That I

470
00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:17,240
Speaker 15: mean if you want to get in, get into the

471
00:26:17,240 --> 00:26:20,080
Speaker 15: pitfull pitfalls of my life, I can do that as well.

472
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Speaker 4: Hm.

473
00:26:21,960 --> 00:26:25,920
Speaker 2: Well, which of them do you think?

474
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Speaker 1: Is h A?

475
00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:32,560
Speaker 2: I guess you could say, more interesting topic to talk about.

476
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Speaker 14: Let's let's let's start with the ve You know what, Actually,

477
00:26:36,800 --> 00:26:41,560
Speaker 14: there's a strong possibility, not a strong possibility, I over

478
00:26:41,720 --> 00:26:44,960
Speaker 14: I overestimated this, but a possibility that these two subjects

479
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Speaker 14: are related.

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Speaker 2: Let's start with the with the vengeance story. I'd love

481
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Speaker 2: to hear that.

482
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Speaker 15: Okay, So I don't know, people might judge me for this,

483
00:26:55,280 --> 00:27:01,040
Speaker 15: but I used to live with a house of guys

484
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:05,560
Speaker 15: and they were super messy and just super rude. The

485
00:27:05,600 --> 00:27:08,640
Speaker 15: one guy in particular, like used to use my shampoo

486
00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:11,880
Speaker 15: and conditioner all the time. It made me so mad.

487
00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:15,639
Speaker 15: He was so like lazy. He wouldn't clean and he

488
00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:19,080
Speaker 15: would just leave like empty beer cans in the shower.

489
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Speaker 13: It was so weird.

490
00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:25,200
Speaker 15: Not to mention, like he would come in my room

491
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Speaker 15: and like, I don't know, it was like.

492
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Speaker 13: Essay type it was.

493
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Speaker 15: It was a really bad situation. But I was about

494
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Speaker 15: to move out, so I wanted to go out with

495
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Speaker 15: a bang, I guess, and just get back at him

496
00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,520
Speaker 15: for all the like trauma he had put me through.

497
00:27:41,720 --> 00:27:43,960
Speaker 15: So he had he had just got a perm. He

498
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:48,920
Speaker 15: loved his new hair, like that was his you know,

499
00:27:49,359 --> 00:27:51,840
Speaker 15: number one thing in his life was his hair. So

500
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Speaker 15: the shampoo that he used of mine all the time.

501
00:27:55,600 --> 00:27:58,200
Speaker 15: I emptied most of it out and replaced it with

502
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Speaker 15: super glue and hair removal lotion and mixed it up,

503
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Speaker 15: and I just left and left him with my stuff.

504
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Speaker 2: See I you know, I also am am. I also

505
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Speaker 2: use my roommates, toiletries every now and shampoo. Because here's

506
00:28:27,600 --> 00:28:31,960
Speaker 2: the thing, Lexi, it's not like the guy used your

507
00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:36,760
Speaker 2: toothbrush or your deodorant or something where you know it

508
00:28:36,880 --> 00:28:39,160
Speaker 2: interacts with his body and then with yours. You know,

509
00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:43,560
Speaker 2: it's just a bit of shampoo. You know, why did

510
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Speaker 2: that upset you so much?

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Speaker 15: I don't know.

512
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Speaker 2: I was in addition to other things.

513
00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:52,440
Speaker 15: Well that in addition, but I was younger then, so

514
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:54,880
Speaker 15: you know, like I would go to work and I

515
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,720
Speaker 15: would work like forty five fifty hours a week and

516
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Speaker 15: he didn't do anything. And then I would come home like,

517
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,120
Speaker 15: you know, I worked for my money and he doesn't

518
00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:06,880
Speaker 15: do anything. So you know, it really upset me when

519
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:09,000
Speaker 15: I'd get home and they just use all my stuff.

520
00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:11,440
Speaker 15: And in hindsight, it's like it was cheap. It was

521
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:14,080
Speaker 15: like panteing the who cares? But uh, I guess it

522
00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:15,440
Speaker 15: was everything else going on.

523
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Speaker 2: What you know what the first when when you first

524
00:29:18,320 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 2: told me that you were living in this house with

525
00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 2: these guys, you know, I'm curious, why did you choose

526
00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:28,520
Speaker 2: to live with them because it doesn't sound did you

527
00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:29,720
Speaker 2: know them beforehand?

528
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Speaker 3: Yeah?

529
00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:34,720
Speaker 15: I guess I was kind of like in a desperate situation.

530
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Speaker 15: I was living out at my grandma And this is

531
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Speaker 15: gonna sound silly, but my grandpa died and I was

532
00:29:42,160 --> 00:29:45,640
Speaker 15: convinced that the house was haunted, and I was like

533
00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 15: too scared to stay there at night anymore. So I

534
00:29:48,800 --> 00:29:51,800
Speaker 15: just would, like I didn't have anywhere to I don't know,

535
00:29:51,840 --> 00:29:55,480
Speaker 15: it's really stupid, but so I just moved in with like.

536
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Speaker 2: I don't think that here's the thing, I don't think

537
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:02,520
Speaker 2: that you thinking that the house you were staying in

538
00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:07,080
Speaker 2: is haunted is stupid, But thank you. Personally, I would

539
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Speaker 2: sleep in a haunted house before sleeping in a frat

540
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Speaker 2: house any night of them.

541
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Speaker 15: Sure, that's I wish I would like could go back

542
00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:18,800
Speaker 15: and do it, because that makes so much more sense.

543
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Speaker 2: Well, so you've gotten less less vengeful as the years

544
00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:29,160
Speaker 2: have gone on, I assume.

545
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Speaker 15: Yeah, I was pretty bad that year. There was there

546
00:30:34,160 --> 00:30:36,480
Speaker 15: was another like, oh my gosh, I'm going to make

547
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Speaker 15: myself feel like evil.

548
00:30:37,880 --> 00:30:40,640
Speaker 3: But there was this girl in school.

549
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Speaker 15: She turned like I had drank for the first time.

550
00:30:44,800 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 15: I got sloshed off of one bud light and she

551
00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:53,400
Speaker 15: turned me into the school because we had posted like

552
00:30:53,400 --> 00:30:56,800
Speaker 15: a video on Snapchat and I got suspended from the

553
00:30:56,840 --> 00:31:02,360
Speaker 15: softball team for a week, and I was so mad

554
00:31:02,440 --> 00:31:05,040
Speaker 15: because it ruined my life. I got my car taken

555
00:31:05,080 --> 00:31:08,320
Speaker 15: away from my mom and like my phone and everything,

556
00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:13,280
Speaker 15: so I kind of I started hanging out with her

557
00:31:13,320 --> 00:31:18,920
Speaker 15: boyfriend and like, yeah, that was not good, just to

558
00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:19,800
Speaker 15: get back at her.

559
00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:23,400
Speaker 2: What wait, you got all that for just drinking a

560
00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:24,600
Speaker 2: beer on Snapchat.

561
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:25,760
Speaker 3: Yeah.

562
00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 15: I had to go and get like alcohol therapy to

563
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Speaker 15: make sure I wasn't an alcoholic before I could return

564
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Speaker 15: to softball. And my mom is like strictly like anti alcohol.

565
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:44,200
Speaker 15: So I got in a lot of trouble. I was underage,

566
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Speaker 15: So I mean, I guess it depends how you want

567
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Speaker 15: to look at it.

568
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:54,440
Speaker 2: But yeah, and today, the year of twenty twenty one,

569
00:31:54,680 --> 00:31:57,520
Speaker 2: this year, have you done anything ventuful or have you

570
00:31:57,600 --> 00:31:58,360
Speaker 2: since calmed down?

571
00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:01,880
Speaker 15: I think I was really like calmed down. I'm in

572
00:32:01,880 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 15: a pretty good place personally. I mean, everything around me

573
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:10,120
Speaker 15: is kind of falling apart, but I think I'm pretty stable,

574
00:32:10,600 --> 00:32:12,000
Speaker 15: somewhat good.

575
00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:14,320
Speaker 2: Glad to hear that.

576
00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:15,600
Speaker 1: Thank you.

577
00:32:15,840 --> 00:32:18,200
Speaker 2: You ever talked to any of these guys ever?

578
00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:24,560
Speaker 15: No, he like, I don't know he he was he

579
00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:27,560
Speaker 15: was an odd ball, so he had like a really

580
00:32:28,240 --> 00:32:34,120
Speaker 15: crazy experience on acid, and he decided from that point

581
00:32:34,160 --> 00:32:37,200
Speaker 15: on that he was going to be a neurologist, and

582
00:32:37,680 --> 00:32:40,760
Speaker 15: he got like special grants from the government, and he

583
00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:43,040
Speaker 15: moved to New York City and now is going to

584
00:32:43,080 --> 00:32:45,720
Speaker 15: get his doctorate in neurology.

585
00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:49,320
Speaker 2: And well, yeah, LEXI, I just love a story where

586
00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:55,880
Speaker 2: everything works out for every character involved. Right then, thank you.

587
00:32:58,080 --> 00:32:58,920
Speaker 1: All from.

588
00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:00,360
Speaker 4: Eric.

589
00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:02,760
Speaker 16: Eric.

590
00:33:04,920 --> 00:33:11,520
Speaker 2: Hello, you sound very mysterious.

591
00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:11,920
Speaker 4: Eric.

592
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:13,479
Speaker 2: Are you doing that on purpose?

593
00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:20,120
Speaker 6: M No, but I could do it some more. If

594
00:33:20,120 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 6: you want me to.

595
00:33:22,280 --> 00:33:24,160
Speaker 2: Imply that you could do it some more, implies that

596
00:33:24,200 --> 00:33:27,880
Speaker 2: you're implies that you have a level of intention that

597
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:33,960
Speaker 2: is high enough that you can control it. Do you

598
00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:36,040
Speaker 2: feel though you know what you were doing right now

599
00:33:36,080 --> 00:33:37,040
Speaker 2: and that you can control it?

600
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 6: I like to think that I know what I'm doing

601
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:41,320
Speaker 6: when I'm doing it.

602
00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:44,360
Speaker 2: How would you describe what you're doing right now?

603
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:49,960
Speaker 6: How would I describe I'm lounging in a tear that

604
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:51,640
Speaker 6: I spent way too much money on?

605
00:33:52,040 --> 00:33:53,080
Speaker 2: How much money.

606
00:33:54,440 --> 00:33:55,720
Speaker 6: It was like six hundred.

607
00:33:55,440 --> 00:34:02,960
Speaker 2: Dollars six hundred dollars, Yeah, well, thing about but something

608
00:34:03,000 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 2: about the chair must have spoke to you in a

609
00:34:07,400 --> 00:34:09,120
Speaker 2: way that made you feel as though it was worth

610
00:34:09,200 --> 00:34:10,880
Speaker 2: the purchase. And what was it about the chair that

611
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:11,360
Speaker 2: spoke to you?

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00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:15,759
Speaker 6: It's a Legal Legends chair.

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Speaker 2: It's a League of Legends chair. Well you say it's

614
00:34:18,960 --> 00:34:20,279
Speaker 2: a like a Legends chair. Do you mean it's a

615
00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 2: chair branded with League of Legends or it is a

616
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:28,920
Speaker 2: chair that the engineers built specifically to aid the body

617
00:34:29,000 --> 00:34:31,120
Speaker 2: in playing League of Legends, or perhaps both.

618
00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:35,240
Speaker 6: It's actually a little bit of both. So the entire

619
00:34:35,360 --> 00:34:39,840
Speaker 6: back of the chair is designed after a specific character

620
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:45,200
Speaker 6: named a Colleague, and it's like a whole green dragon

621
00:34:46,080 --> 00:34:50,680
Speaker 6: type design. And yeah, I mean it's got a whole

622
00:34:50,680 --> 00:34:56,919
Speaker 6: bunch of clips and switches and it's made from nice leather. Yeah, yeah,

623
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Speaker 6: I mean was it worth it? Probably?

624
00:34:58,280 --> 00:34:58,520
Speaker 4: I think?

625
00:34:58,560 --> 00:35:00,840
Speaker 2: So what kind of what do the switches do?

626
00:35:02,440 --> 00:35:10,080
Speaker 6: Like, has adjustable lumbar support? It has pretty much that

627
00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:12,279
Speaker 6: it has adjustable lumbar support and then it goes up

628
00:35:12,320 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 6: and down.

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00:35:13,840 --> 00:35:17,040
Speaker 2: That's important. When you say it's based off of the

630
00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:22,360
Speaker 2: Dragon character. What speaks to you about the Dragon character?

631
00:35:22,440 --> 00:35:23,839
Speaker 2: Is he your favorite character in the game?

632
00:35:25,480 --> 00:35:25,799
Speaker 4: All right?

633
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:30,960
Speaker 6: And not really to be honest, I haven't played Legal

634
00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:33,880
Speaker 6: Legends in like a year or two. I just I

635
00:35:33,960 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 6: just really liked the dragon.

636
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:37,040
Speaker 2: You haven't played Legal Legends in a year or two.

637
00:35:37,280 --> 00:35:38,319
Speaker 2: But when did you buy the chair?

638
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:41,040
Speaker 6: Like three months ago?

639
00:35:42,719 --> 00:35:45,400
Speaker 2: Interesting, So you hadn't played Legal Legends in a year

640
00:35:45,520 --> 00:35:48,080
Speaker 2: or even thought that much about Legal Legends in a

641
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:53,799
Speaker 2: long time, and then you you went you saw this chair?

642
00:35:53,800 --> 00:35:54,680
Speaker 2: Where did you see this chair?

643
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:57,919
Speaker 6: It is an Instagram ad?

644
00:35:58,360 --> 00:35:59,800
Speaker 2: There's an Instagram ad?

645
00:36:03,040 --> 00:36:06,200
Speaker 6: Yeah, I had, I had. Well, I had just gotten

646
00:36:06,200 --> 00:36:11,360
Speaker 6: my first job out of college, and you know, I

647
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:14,120
Speaker 6: work from home like half the week, and I figured

648
00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:15,240
Speaker 6: I got to get a nice chair.

649
00:36:16,120 --> 00:36:20,160
Speaker 2: You know. Here's what I'll say, here's my personal financial

650
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:27,120
Speaker 2: philosophy that as it pertains to this purchase is I

651
00:36:27,120 --> 00:36:32,600
Speaker 2: think you're absolutely right. Look, I personally am willing to

652
00:36:32,719 --> 00:36:38,040
Speaker 2: put down good money on something if it is something

653
00:36:38,360 --> 00:36:43,680
Speaker 2: that I will use every single day. And you I

654
00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:47,320
Speaker 2: assume sit in this chair and do your work every

655
00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:50,360
Speaker 2: single day, am I correct?

656
00:36:51,480 --> 00:36:51,920
Speaker 4: Yeah?

657
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,279
Speaker 6: Absolutely? And then I play video games in it when

658
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:55,960
Speaker 6: I'm not working.

659
00:36:56,280 --> 00:37:00,360
Speaker 2: It's an investment in that sense, you're using it every

660
00:37:00,480 --> 00:37:03,400
Speaker 2: single day. So I don't think it was, you know,

661
00:37:03,920 --> 00:37:06,200
Speaker 2: not necessarily Well, whether or not that was worth the

662
00:37:06,239 --> 00:37:08,160
Speaker 2: money is up to you to decide, do you believe

663
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:08,960
Speaker 2: it was worth the money.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I mean if it wasn't, I don't know. I

665
00:37:15,400 --> 00:37:18,000
Speaker 6: try not to regret spending money on things. I definitely

666
00:37:18,000 --> 00:37:20,919
Speaker 6: think I was gonna say that I think I've spent

667
00:37:20,960 --> 00:37:24,080
Speaker 6: six hundred dollars on dumber things, but like, I haven't

668
00:37:24,160 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 6: spent six hundred dollars on bearing many things, so maybe not.

669
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Speaker 2: Would you say your name was?

670
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Speaker 6: My name is Eric.

671
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Speaker 18: Eric.

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00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:36,759
Speaker 2: Are you sitting You're sitting in the chair right now.

673
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:39,399
Speaker 6: I am sitting in the chair right now.

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Speaker 2: How's a feel? Think about it for a second, I'll

675
00:37:41,719 --> 00:37:43,600
Speaker 2: just say they'll just say good, Like, really take th

676
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Speaker 2: really close your eyes, and really feel yourself against the seat,

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Speaker 2: and tell me how it feels.

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Speaker 6: H I have a memory foam pillow against the back

679
00:37:52,320 --> 00:37:56,480
Speaker 6: of my head. The lumbar support is about midway through,

680
00:37:57,560 --> 00:37:59,320
Speaker 6: and my bum feels nice.

681
00:38:02,080 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 2: Look, whenever you feel as though you spent too much

682
00:38:04,120 --> 00:38:08,560
Speaker 2: money on this chair, channel all of your attention into

683
00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:11,200
Speaker 2: your butt and think about how good it feels sitting

684
00:38:11,200 --> 00:38:14,520
Speaker 2: in it, and then the mental energy that you're spending

685
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:21,560
Speaker 2: on this regret, we'll fade away in favor of a

686
00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:22,440
Speaker 2: more positive feeling.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I definitely think that that spent. I just thought

688
00:38:30,400 --> 00:38:31,919
Speaker 6: about it, and it's like, I don't think I could

689
00:38:31,920 --> 00:38:34,319
Speaker 6: ever regret spending money on this chair.

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Speaker 2: I definitely spend way more money.

691
00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:40,080
Speaker 6: On weed, and that's that's a bigger issue. But yeah,

692
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:40,680
Speaker 6: of course.

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Speaker 2: Any time, have a the rest of the night.

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Speaker 6: Thank you appreciate it.

695
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Speaker 2: Hey, folks, this is Lyle. In this next phone call,

696
00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:53,560
Speaker 2: I have a guest who's joining me. This phone call

697
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:59,000
Speaker 2: was taken from a stream that I did with Swayko,

698
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 2: the child who is a rapper, musician, rock star, superhero man.

699
00:39:05,680 --> 00:39:09,920
Speaker 2: Check him out at Swayko on TikTok And yeah, if

700
00:39:09,960 --> 00:39:12,359
Speaker 2: you hear another voice, that is who it is and

701
00:39:12,400 --> 00:39:15,560
Speaker 2: he's a good guy. So I thought I would chime

702
00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:17,839
Speaker 2: in so that you when you heard that other voice,

703
00:39:17,880 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 2: you weren't like, who the fuck is that? That's my

704
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:20,200
Speaker 2: boy Swayko.

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Speaker 1: Okay, back to the thing call from Kitty Kitty Hiddy.

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Speaker 19: Hello, is that your name?

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00:39:30,640 --> 00:39:34,480
Speaker 12: Kitty Kitty like a cat?

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00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:35,360
Speaker 4: Okay?

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00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:39,080
Speaker 19: Cool's good?

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00:39:39,120 --> 00:39:40,240
Speaker 8: How are you guys tonight?

711
00:39:42,360 --> 00:39:45,240
Speaker 2: Fantastic beautiful? How are you kidding?

712
00:39:45,280 --> 00:39:45,480
Speaker 4: Good?

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00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:50,280
Speaker 8: I'm okay, But I mean I wouldn't be one hundred

714
00:39:50,280 --> 00:39:52,480
Speaker 8: percent okay if I wasn't calling you guys.

715
00:39:54,080 --> 00:39:58,319
Speaker 19: So the problem.

716
00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:02,000
Speaker 8: I was seeing this guy for like two months and

717
00:40:02,320 --> 00:40:04,759
Speaker 8: everything was going super well. We had a lot of

718
00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:08,080
Speaker 8: the same interests, like we loved all the same music.

719
00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,879
Speaker 8: We had like a ton of fun together, and then

720
00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:17,080
Speaker 8: like two weeks ago, he was acting kind of strange.

721
00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:20,480
Speaker 8: So I asked him, like, you know, how are you

722
00:40:20,520 --> 00:40:23,000
Speaker 8: feeling about this, because you seem kind of off.

723
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Speaker 17: He replied that he felt like.

724
00:40:29,800 --> 00:40:39,440
Speaker 8: I was acting too much like his girlfriend. But he

725
00:40:39,560 --> 00:40:44,879
Speaker 8: had introduced me to his friends, his brothers, taken me out,

726
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:47,520
Speaker 8: cooked me dinner, you know, had me stay to night

727
00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:51,719
Speaker 8: during the week, and so I was like very confused

728
00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:53,880
Speaker 8: because I feel like those are all kinds of things

729
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:57,520
Speaker 8: that you do to a girlfriend. I don't know, what

730
00:40:57,560 --> 00:40:58,239
Speaker 8: do you guys think.

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Speaker 19: Did you guys ever have the conversation of like we're

732
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:08,080
Speaker 19: a relationship now, No, But.

733
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Speaker 8: I feel like I've never had that conversation with like anybody.

734
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:18,360
Speaker 8: So he was kind of the one leading us into

735
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:23,680
Speaker 8: that territory. I mean, for God's sakes, like he was,

736
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:25,680
Speaker 8: you know, begging me. He was the one begging me

737
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:27,240
Speaker 8: to put a finger in his ass.

738
00:41:27,280 --> 00:41:28,440
Speaker 17: Like I thought that that was.

739
00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:32,440
Speaker 4: Sort of a bonding.

740
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Speaker 8: Relate, like experience, but apparently he didn't, so I don't know.

741
00:41:42,080 --> 00:41:43,840
Speaker 2: You know, next time you put your finger in a

742
00:41:43,880 --> 00:41:45,760
Speaker 2: guy's ass, there better be a ring in there.

743
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:49,920
Speaker 8: Right, Like, maybe I'll take it off because I don't

744
00:41:49,920 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 8: want to get a dirty But if I'm doing that

745
00:41:52,520 --> 00:41:54,799
Speaker 8: for you, you have to be doing something for me

746
00:41:55,200 --> 00:41:57,359
Speaker 8: in terms of defining the relationship.

747
00:41:59,160 --> 00:41:59,600
Speaker 2: Is that.

748
00:42:01,040 --> 00:42:01,120
Speaker 12: So?

749
00:42:01,280 --> 00:42:04,319
Speaker 2: I mean, how, how have you? Have you made any

750
00:42:04,400 --> 00:42:08,880
Speaker 2: sort of like attempts to have have the uh have that?

751
00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:10,200
Speaker 2: What are we conversation?

752
00:42:11,560 --> 00:42:11,759
Speaker 1: No?

753
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Speaker 8: I never tried because I liked where we were. You know,

754
00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:18,839
Speaker 8: it wasn't super serious, but the sex was good and

755
00:42:18,880 --> 00:42:20,359
Speaker 8: we got along super well.

756
00:42:20,840 --> 00:42:29,520
Speaker 19: So hmm, well what do you think now? Are you

757
00:42:29,520 --> 00:42:30,240
Speaker 19: guys still talking?

758
00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:31,560
Speaker 17: I think no.

759
00:42:32,320 --> 00:42:36,160
Speaker 8: I deleted his number and blocked him on everything because

760
00:42:37,280 --> 00:42:40,319
Speaker 8: if I don't then I'm very tempted, you know, and

761
00:42:40,680 --> 00:42:43,080
Speaker 8: obviously it's not going to work out, so I have

762
00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:47,280
Speaker 8: to prevent myself from being able to talk to him.

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Speaker 19: M Well, what did what did you tell him when

764
00:42:54,600 --> 00:42:56,320
Speaker 19: when he was saying all this stuff is stuff?

765
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Speaker 8: Well, I said, you know, I really happy with the

766
00:43:01,360 --> 00:43:04,640
Speaker 8: way things were at the moment, you know, like hanging

767
00:43:04,680 --> 00:43:08,360
Speaker 8: out maybe once or twice a week spending time together,

768
00:43:08,840 --> 00:43:11,040
Speaker 8: but like he hadn't met my parents and I hadn't

769
00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:14,439
Speaker 8: met him, Like it was nothing serious, but he had

770
00:43:14,640 --> 00:43:20,480
Speaker 8: urged that, you know, what we had already established was

771
00:43:20,520 --> 00:43:23,120
Speaker 8: like too much for him. But he's the one who,

772
00:43:24,400 --> 00:43:26,440
Speaker 8: you know, brought me to meet all of his friends

773
00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:29,160
Speaker 8: and needed some of his family, et cetera. So I

774
00:43:29,239 --> 00:43:32,320
Speaker 8: was really kind of blindsided in that regard.

775
00:43:35,040 --> 00:43:36,720
Speaker 2: Oh, so he took you to be his whole family.

776
00:43:38,200 --> 00:43:40,520
Speaker 8: Uh, not his parents, but his brothers and stuff.

777
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:45,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, welkay, So you blocked him and you're not talking

778
00:43:45,640 --> 00:43:48,160
Speaker 2: to him anymore. Are you like still out to date

779
00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:51,359
Speaker 2: people or are you still focusing on yourself right now?

780
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Speaker 8: I'm trying to date because I just moved to a

781
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:58,640
Speaker 8: new area, so I'm just trying to meet people. But

782
00:43:59,600 --> 00:44:05,799
Speaker 8: I'm in a really intense master's program, so it's hard

783
00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:07,400
Speaker 8: for me to meet people, and it's hard for me

784
00:44:07,440 --> 00:44:08,880
Speaker 8: to go out because I'm really busy.

785
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Speaker 2: Well I think that's good though, if you're like, if

786
00:44:12,880 --> 00:44:15,879
Speaker 2: you know, if you block this guy and like you're

787
00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:18,279
Speaker 2: trying to forget about him, you know, I think it's

788
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:20,799
Speaker 2: good to like have something to lose yourself in like that,

789
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:21,239
Speaker 2: you know.

790
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Speaker 8: Yeah, it's just hard because I feel like every time

791
00:44:26,320 --> 00:44:28,880
Speaker 8: I get into that situation, it's like having to start

792
00:44:28,920 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 8: over again every like three months or whatever. It gets

793
00:44:32,719 --> 00:44:35,400
Speaker 8: so exhausting after a while.

794
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Speaker 2: Well, what do you want?

795
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Speaker 8: I don't believe in marriage personally. I think it's a sham.

796
00:44:44,920 --> 00:44:49,760
Speaker 8: If I want just a long term relationship with someone

797
00:44:49,800 --> 00:44:53,000
Speaker 8: that's beneficial to both of us and the sex is good,

798
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:54,040
Speaker 8: that's really all I want.

799
00:44:55,080 --> 00:44:59,200
Speaker 2: So well, I mean, look, knowing what you want it's

800
00:44:59,239 --> 00:45:01,040
Speaker 2: the first step to get that's pretty good. A lot

801
00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:05,040
Speaker 2: of people they just sort of flounder around. They don't

802
00:45:05,040 --> 00:45:07,400
Speaker 2: know what they want until they see it. So, you know,

803
00:45:07,680 --> 00:45:12,560
Speaker 2: it's good that you have like a sort of I

804
00:45:12,560 --> 00:45:16,719
Speaker 2: guess standard up front, you know, I think in the

805
00:45:16,760 --> 00:45:20,120
Speaker 2: future to avoid a situation like this, Like, it's good

806
00:45:20,160 --> 00:45:23,279
Speaker 2: that you know what you want, make it clear. Not like,

807
00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 2: you know, I wouldn't show up on the first date

808
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:26,759
Speaker 2: and say that is the first thing that comes out

809
00:45:26,800 --> 00:45:29,480
Speaker 2: of your mouth or anything like that, but like, you know,

810
00:45:31,640 --> 00:45:33,919
Speaker 2: bring bring it up. You know, I think it's good

811
00:45:33,920 --> 00:45:37,480
Speaker 2: to be honest with people because you know, the worst

812
00:45:37,480 --> 00:45:38,840
Speaker 2: that can happen is you bring it up and he

813
00:45:38,880 --> 00:45:41,280
Speaker 2: goes no, that's not what I want, which is actually

814
00:45:41,280 --> 00:45:42,680
Speaker 2: a good thing if he does that, because I saved

815
00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:43,520
Speaker 2: you a hell of a lot of time.

816
00:45:44,200 --> 00:45:44,520
Speaker 4: That's right.

817
00:45:44,680 --> 00:45:48,279
Speaker 8: Yeah, I think it's a conversation that should definitely be had,

818
00:45:49,320 --> 00:45:52,080
Speaker 8: like on the second date when they're inside of you,

819
00:45:52,080 --> 00:45:53,960
Speaker 8: you know, where is this going?

820
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Speaker 2: Maybe not right when they're inside of you.

821
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Speaker 4: I don't know.

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00:45:57,840 --> 00:46:02,480
Speaker 19: That might be, it could.

823
00:46:02,680 --> 00:46:03,520
Speaker 2: Could be, could be.

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Speaker 8: Oh my gosh. Well, thank you guys so much for

825
00:46:06,320 --> 00:46:08,200
Speaker 8: the advice. I'm so glad I got through you. I

826
00:46:08,200 --> 00:46:09,840
Speaker 8: think I called like one hundred times.

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Speaker 2: We're so glad to have you, Kitty. Thank you so

828
00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:12,759
Speaker 2: much for calling.

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Speaker 8: Thank you, Bye Lyle By Paul Dano.

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Speaker 19: I've been getting that a lot recently.

831
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Speaker 2: Bye Kitty.

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00:46:22,360 --> 00:46:24,960
Speaker 8: Listen, Paul Dana is a very attractive man.

833
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:25,960
Speaker 17: So that is a compliment.

834
00:46:26,080 --> 00:46:26,880
Speaker 2: It's a compliment.

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Speaker 19: Oh, thank you, kitty.

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Speaker 8: Good night guys.

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Speaker 2: Hey folks, it's Lyle here with an extremely brief message,

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Speaker 1: The calls from Dennis.

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00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:25,080
Speaker 2: Dennis, Hey, Dennis, it's been so long. How I can't

850
00:47:25,080 --> 00:47:28,759
Speaker 2: believe that? Dennis, what's up? You're still here? Thank you?

851
00:47:29,560 --> 00:47:33,680
Speaker 2: Thank you for your loyalty. It's going good man. What

852
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:34,239
Speaker 2: do you up to?

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00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:40,920
Speaker 13: Nothing? I'm just uh, I'm just laughing. I'm stoned. I

854
00:47:41,040 --> 00:47:43,000
Speaker 13: just trolled my sister on a dating app.

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Speaker 2: What did you do?

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00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:47,200
Speaker 14: Well?

857
00:47:48,640 --> 00:47:50,520
Speaker 13: I just trolled my sister on a dating app?

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00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:55,640
Speaker 2: Do you know what? You knew what I was trying

859
00:47:55,640 --> 00:47:57,360
Speaker 2: to ask you? You knew I was asking you for

860
00:47:57,480 --> 00:48:00,560
Speaker 2: further elaboration. You knew that you were intentionally being broad.

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00:48:00,640 --> 00:48:03,880
Speaker 2: I'm not I'm calling you out. You knew what. You

862
00:48:03,960 --> 00:48:05,240
Speaker 2: knew what I meant? Dennis?

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00:48:06,400 --> 00:48:08,560
Speaker 13: Oh, No, you do it every time. You always open

864
00:48:08,640 --> 00:48:10,120
Speaker 13: that door. It's really good.

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Speaker 11: I like that.

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Speaker 13: You want to know how I trolled her?

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Speaker 16: Yes, all right.

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00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,560
Speaker 13: So she had been talking to some guy and he

869
00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:25,160
Speaker 13: sent her a selfie and in the background there was

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00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:29,759
Speaker 13: like a Blue Live Matter sticker and she didn't like that,

871
00:48:30,880 --> 00:48:34,920
Speaker 13: which is fair, So she decided us to talk to

872
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:37,920
Speaker 13: him any longer. And she was like, Oh, I'm going

873
00:48:38,000 --> 00:48:42,879
Speaker 13: to post an ad on another dating app and I'm

874
00:48:42,880 --> 00:48:45,440
Speaker 13: going to mention the Blue Lives Matter thing and say like,

875
00:48:45,640 --> 00:48:48,080
Speaker 13: I'm disappointed, you know, I hope I won't get a

876
00:48:48,120 --> 00:48:52,520
Speaker 13: message from someone like that on this app. And she

877
00:48:52,600 --> 00:48:54,520
Speaker 13: got a few messages and she sent them to me

878
00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:59,280
Speaker 13: with those people that were like pro Blue Lives Matter

879
00:49:00,040 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 13: messaging her and she we were like joking about it,

880
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:07,880
Speaker 13: and then I thought it would be funny if I

881
00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:11,880
Speaker 13: pretended to be a pro Blue Lives Matter person message.

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00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:16,839
Speaker 2: And then I did, okay, so tell me about this

883
00:49:17,160 --> 00:49:20,160
Speaker 2: persona that you created. What was what was his name?

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00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:26,440
Speaker 13: I was a woman, I was a uh, I was

885
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Speaker 13: a I was a woman, and I was an officer

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00:49:29,000 --> 00:49:31,680
Speaker 13: and I was I wrote like, I was like, the

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00:49:31,760 --> 00:49:36,239
Speaker 13: post deeply offended me. I could I could read you

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00:49:36,280 --> 00:49:40,080
Speaker 13: the messages that I sent, but I'd be I pretended

889
00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:43,800
Speaker 13: to be a lady officer that drove a like a

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Speaker 13: correctional facilities car.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, pretended to be a lady officer that drove

892
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Speaker 2: a car. Well, okay, would you say in the message?

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Speaker 12: All right?

894
00:49:56,520 --> 00:49:59,920
Speaker 13: So the uh well, her message was just like I

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00:50:00,040 --> 00:50:03,680
Speaker 13: can't believe how many Blue Lives Matters supporters there are

896
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Speaker 13: on this on this app. And I was like, hello,

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Speaker 13: I'm an officer. Your post deeply offended me. Sometimes I

898
00:50:10,840 --> 00:50:13,520
Speaker 13: wonder who i'd be without my badge. It's like a

899
00:50:13,600 --> 00:50:17,120
Speaker 13: special mask that I wear that turns me into a

900
00:50:17,160 --> 00:50:21,160
Speaker 13: superhero and keeps me safe. And then she was just

901
00:50:21,480 --> 00:50:25,520
Speaker 13: she just dot dot doted me. And at the same time,

902
00:50:25,600 --> 00:50:28,239
Speaker 13: she was also sending me screenshots of this asking me

903
00:50:28,320 --> 00:50:29,279
Speaker 13: how she should.

904
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:31,960
Speaker 2: Like spot.

905
00:50:32,800 --> 00:50:35,480
Speaker 13: And it was really and then I started feeling guilty.

906
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:40,840
Speaker 13: And then I was like, with the badge comes great responsibility. God,

907
00:50:40,880 --> 00:50:43,560
Speaker 13: I'm fucking crying right now. How could you hate a cop?

908
00:50:44,040 --> 00:50:46,040
Speaker 13: And then and then and then I like, I waited

909
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:48,080
Speaker 13: a few minutes and I wrote, fuck, I can barely

910
00:50:48,120 --> 00:50:50,759
Speaker 13: see the keys dot dot dot, and then I put

911
00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:52,560
Speaker 13: a zero at the end, so it was like a

912
00:50:52,680 --> 00:50:54,560
Speaker 13: typo because I couldn't see the keys.

913
00:50:55,120 --> 00:50:55,640
Speaker 5: And then.

914
00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:00,719
Speaker 13: Sorry, I'm laughing because I think it's funny and I

915
00:51:01,320 --> 00:51:03,560
Speaker 13: don't know. And then I wish I wasn't driving a

916
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:09,000
Speaker 13: police trustful criminals to rikers right now?

917
00:51:08,880 --> 00:51:09,000
Speaker 4: Now?

918
00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:11,759
Speaker 2: Now does she know? Does she now know that that that?

919
00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:12,320
Speaker 4: Uh?

920
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:15,720
Speaker 13: No, she still didn't know with me. She was sending

921
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:16,799
Speaker 13: this to me, and I was like.

922
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:20,800
Speaker 2: I was like, Dennis, can I can I ask you something?

923
00:51:22,120 --> 00:51:22,359
Speaker 13: Yeah?

924
00:51:22,880 --> 00:51:23,520
Speaker 2: Would you?

925
00:51:23,719 --> 00:51:23,799
Speaker 4: Is?

926
00:51:23,920 --> 00:51:24,879
Speaker 2: Where is her live?

927
00:51:25,640 --> 00:51:25,719
Speaker 4: Like?

928
00:51:25,800 --> 00:51:28,000
Speaker 2: What part of the like? What stake are you willing

929
00:51:28,000 --> 00:51:30,239
Speaker 2: to answer that? What time zone does she live in?

930
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:31,719
Speaker 2: Is she awake? That's mean?

931
00:51:32,120 --> 00:51:34,440
Speaker 1: Is she awake right now?

932
00:51:34,840 --> 00:51:35,200
Speaker 2: Yes?

933
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:38,399
Speaker 13: Yeah? Oh you want me to like three way dial

934
00:51:38,440 --> 00:51:38,719
Speaker 13: her in?

935
00:51:39,200 --> 00:51:39,439
Speaker 4: Yeah?

936
00:51:39,480 --> 00:51:41,959
Speaker 2: Would you? Well, well, were the quick before you before

937
00:51:41,960 --> 00:51:43,960
Speaker 2: you do that? Before you do that on this call?

938
00:51:44,000 --> 00:51:45,440
Speaker 2: Would you be willing? Would you be willing to admit

939
00:51:45,480 --> 00:51:48,640
Speaker 2: to her that you are? You are that profile?

940
00:51:49,719 --> 00:51:49,879
Speaker 4: Oh?

941
00:51:49,960 --> 00:51:53,680
Speaker 13: Yeah, she already yeah.

942
00:51:52,480 --> 00:51:53,960
Speaker 2: What she already knows?

943
00:51:54,400 --> 00:51:56,919
Speaker 13: Yeah, because I felt I started to feel bad about it.

944
00:51:57,440 --> 00:51:58,799
Speaker 2: Oh wait, I thought I would. I asked you if

945
00:51:58,800 --> 00:51:59,800
Speaker 2: she knew and you said.

946
00:51:59,600 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 13: No, oh no, no I revealed it.

947
00:52:03,440 --> 00:52:05,280
Speaker 2: Oh all right, well that makes it less interesting.

948
00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 13: Now I'm sorry.

949
00:52:08,440 --> 00:52:10,400
Speaker 2: You have nothing to apologize for. This is reality. You

950
00:52:10,440 --> 00:52:14,359
Speaker 2: can't be You can't apologize for something that I don't

951
00:52:14,360 --> 00:52:15,880
Speaker 2: think this. I don't think it was malicious of you.

952
00:52:16,000 --> 00:52:18,200
Speaker 2: I don't think you did it on purpose to hurt me.

953
00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:22,160
Speaker 13: I mean, she didn't know the whole time she actually

954
00:52:22,800 --> 00:52:24,239
Speaker 13: she did, she didn't figure out.

955
00:52:24,800 --> 00:52:25,280
Speaker 12: She didn't.

956
00:52:26,160 --> 00:52:28,280
Speaker 13: The reason that I admitted it to her was because

957
00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:30,680
Speaker 13: she didn't. She couldn't figure it out even after I

958
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:34,080
Speaker 13: had made like very obvious remarks that it was me,

959
00:52:34,200 --> 00:52:36,520
Speaker 13: and she kept sending me the screenshots and I started

960
00:52:36,600 --> 00:52:40,360
Speaker 13: to feel guilty.

961
00:52:40,760 --> 00:52:43,520
Speaker 2: Dennis, Dennis, there's anything else like I should do on

962
00:52:43,600 --> 00:52:45,759
Speaker 2: my Dennis, You've been watching my GEcho show for the

963
00:52:45,880 --> 00:52:49,280
Speaker 2: entire time that it's existed, you know, any like pointers,

964
00:52:49,320 --> 00:52:51,840
Speaker 2: anything you think that you know I should do to advance,

965
00:52:53,120 --> 00:52:54,800
Speaker 2: you know, to the next echelon.

966
00:52:57,120 --> 00:53:00,239
Speaker 13: I don't know. I feel like it's kind of how

967
00:53:00,280 --> 00:53:02,399
Speaker 13: do you feel? I guess that I want I want

968
00:53:02,400 --> 00:53:03,319
Speaker 13: to know that. How do you feel?

969
00:53:03,360 --> 00:53:03,840
Speaker 4: Is it?

970
00:53:03,880 --> 00:53:04,120
Speaker 10: Is it?

971
00:53:04,200 --> 00:53:07,560
Speaker 13: Like it feels a little surreal, doesn't it?

972
00:53:09,440 --> 00:53:10,759
Speaker 2: It's surreal in what sense?

973
00:53:12,560 --> 00:53:15,640
Speaker 13: Just the whole like the trajectory of it. It's just

974
00:53:15,680 --> 00:53:20,880
Speaker 13: been unbelievable. How many like how many sleep? It's just unreal.

975
00:53:21,520 --> 00:53:23,600
Speaker 13: I don't know watching it unfold.

976
00:53:24,280 --> 00:53:27,279
Speaker 2: It's no, it's been it's been great. You know, I'm

977
00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 2: I'm I'm really happy for it. I hope I'm you know,

978
00:53:31,200 --> 00:53:32,960
Speaker 2: I hope, I hope I'm able to continue doing it

979
00:53:32,960 --> 00:53:38,279
Speaker 2: for you know, a good bit as long as you

980
00:53:38,320 --> 00:53:42,279
Speaker 2: know I am able to you know, I think you know,

981
00:53:42,280 --> 00:53:44,400
Speaker 2: I feel pretty good. I feel pretty good. I'm hoping,

982
00:53:44,560 --> 00:53:51,239
Speaker 2: uh to continue to feel good. You know. This is

983
00:53:51,280 --> 00:53:53,320
Speaker 2: the game, this is a good life. It's a good gig,

984
00:53:54,280 --> 00:53:56,719
Speaker 2: you know, being a gecko on the computer talking to

985
00:53:56,760 --> 00:54:04,640
Speaker 2: people on the phone. It's pretty random. It's not very clear.

986
00:54:05,480 --> 00:54:07,120
Speaker 2: That's a problem. But that's a problem I've always had.

987
00:54:07,160 --> 00:54:10,759
Speaker 2: That's not very clear because the whole therapy gecko thing,

988
00:54:10,800 --> 00:54:13,759
Speaker 2: it's like, so are you am I own here to

989
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:16,359
Speaker 2: like give people therapy? Not really. That kind of makes

990
00:54:16,360 --> 00:54:18,160
Speaker 2: me uncomfortable to every time.

991
00:54:19,640 --> 00:54:20,879
Speaker 13: It's like a fun bit.

992
00:54:21,040 --> 00:54:22,680
Speaker 20: It's like you get to do you get to do

993
00:54:22,760 --> 00:54:25,080
Speaker 20: the bit with different people everything.

994
00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:27,719
Speaker 13: Yes, and that's the whole thing.

995
00:54:28,640 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 2: Yes, Yes, Sometimes I think the streams where the streams

996
00:54:32,640 --> 00:54:36,400
Speaker 2: where I feel as though I am committing more to

997
00:54:36,600 --> 00:54:39,560
Speaker 2: the bit are ones that I feel good about. I

998
00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:44,239
Speaker 2: think if I relax too much and you know, start

999
00:54:44,280 --> 00:54:48,440
Speaker 2: to be myself and less of like you know, an

1000
00:54:48,480 --> 00:54:52,640
Speaker 2: intentional betrayal of a character is when the is when

1001
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:54,480
Speaker 2: is when I feel as though I begin to lose control.

1002
00:54:55,200 --> 00:54:59,319
Speaker 13: Dennis oh Man, So, okay, my, this is funny. My

1003
00:54:59,360 --> 00:55:01,879
Speaker 13: sisters she sent me a She's like, she's like, oh,

1004
00:55:01,920 --> 00:55:04,480
Speaker 13: this showed up on my like four you page or whatever.

1005
00:55:05,640 --> 00:55:07,200
Speaker 13: And it was like it was.

1006
00:55:07,160 --> 00:55:09,400
Speaker 5: Like one a clip that you posted and I was

1007
00:55:09,440 --> 00:55:12,879
Speaker 5: watching and it was funny watching because it was like, uh,

1008
00:55:13,320 --> 00:55:16,640
Speaker 5: it's funny watching you try not to break and you

1009
00:55:16,680 --> 00:55:17,239
Speaker 5: know what I mean?

1010
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:20,840
Speaker 13: And I just like it was good. It made me

1011
00:55:20,920 --> 00:55:21,759
Speaker 13: laugh really hard.

1012
00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:23,040
Speaker 2: Was what was the clip?

1013
00:55:23,239 --> 00:55:25,680
Speaker 13: The clips are really good? But do you? And also

1014
00:55:25,880 --> 00:55:28,120
Speaker 13: I just I like the idea of you being at

1015
00:55:28,120 --> 00:55:32,400
Speaker 13: home editing the clips yourself. I just I really like that.

1016
00:55:32,920 --> 00:55:36,520
Speaker 13: It makes me, It makes it so much more sincere

1017
00:55:36,640 --> 00:55:38,840
Speaker 13: to me, Thank you, thank.

1018
00:55:38,719 --> 00:55:43,480
Speaker 2: You, Dennis. I I do I do my best to

1019
00:55:43,480 --> 00:55:46,560
Speaker 2: to to to. I don't know how to finish that

1020
00:55:46,600 --> 00:55:47,960
Speaker 2: sense you don't you know what I liked it, but

1021
00:55:47,960 --> 00:55:49,680
Speaker 2: you don't. I liked about a lot. I don't know

1022
00:55:49,719 --> 00:55:51,160
Speaker 2: if I don't know if you watch the beginning of

1023
00:55:51,160 --> 00:55:56,839
Speaker 2: the stream, But when when that person told Swiko, that

1024
00:55:56,840 --> 00:56:00,800
Speaker 2: that's that's Swiger. Healthed them Swaco. Siko was very very gracious,

1025
00:56:01,120 --> 00:56:03,120
Speaker 2: like like like people. I think a lot of people

1026
00:56:03,120 --> 00:56:06,600
Speaker 2: they have hard time like accepting praise about themselves. And

1027
00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:08,360
Speaker 2: I think that Swicho did it in a very like,

1028
00:56:09,680 --> 00:56:12,319
Speaker 2: very very very cool way. I really liked the way

1029
00:56:12,360 --> 00:56:14,560
Speaker 2: he was like, you know, very genuine about that.

1030
00:56:17,120 --> 00:56:17,359
Speaker 13: Fair.

1031
00:56:18,560 --> 00:56:20,799
Speaker 2: So I'll yeah, you know, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm

1032
00:56:20,800 --> 00:56:22,319
Speaker 2: gonna'm gona take a page off of his book. I

1033
00:56:22,320 --> 00:56:26,080
Speaker 2: really appreciate all the kind of words. Dennis. Dennis, what

1034
00:56:26,120 --> 00:56:28,840
Speaker 2: was the clip? Was it the was it was it about?

1035
00:56:29,120 --> 00:56:32,359
Speaker 2: Was it about the everything having a reason? Was it

1036
00:56:32,480 --> 00:56:33,359
Speaker 2: the taco bell thing?

1037
00:56:34,719 --> 00:56:35,279
Speaker 21: Oh my god?

1038
00:56:35,360 --> 00:56:38,160
Speaker 13: Wait, so I like this even better. I like you

1039
00:56:38,280 --> 00:56:40,439
Speaker 13: trying to guess which clip it was that you thought

1040
00:56:40,480 --> 00:56:44,560
Speaker 13: that you broke in. Just tell me, No, I don't

1041
00:56:44,560 --> 00:56:46,480
Speaker 13: want to tell you. I like it even better now

1042
00:56:47,200 --> 00:56:48,480
Speaker 13: its mystery.

1043
00:56:48,640 --> 00:56:51,200
Speaker 2: I'm doing it as part of market research. I'm trying

1044
00:56:51,239 --> 00:56:52,600
Speaker 2: to see what clips are or.

1045
00:56:55,800 --> 00:56:55,920
Speaker 10: No.

1046
00:56:56,000 --> 00:56:59,600
Speaker 13: I like the I like the guessing, though I haven't

1047
00:56:59,640 --> 00:57:02,560
Speaker 13: I have I don't know. I don't even know if

1048
00:57:02,600 --> 00:57:05,520
Speaker 13: to taco ball on it. After look, I'm.

1049
00:57:05,320 --> 00:57:06,120
Speaker 3: So out of touch.

1050
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:09,319
Speaker 2: So what what was the clip of I'm not going

1051
00:57:09,400 --> 00:57:11,800
Speaker 2: to tell you. Was it the one of the was

1052
00:57:11,840 --> 00:57:13,440
Speaker 2: it the one where I where I did that?

1053
00:57:13,560 --> 00:57:20,760
Speaker 13: I screamed, Oh man, this is too good. Now I

1054
00:57:20,800 --> 00:57:23,280
Speaker 13: gotta go. I'm gonna go, all.

1055
00:57:23,240 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 2: Right, I gotta talk to you soon, Dennis.

1056
00:57:25,800 --> 00:57:26,680
Speaker 13: All right, I love you.

1057
00:57:26,720 --> 00:57:31,000
Speaker 1: Goodbye bye all from Grayisha.

1058
00:57:33,560 --> 00:57:37,800
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi?

1059
00:57:37,880 --> 00:57:38,360
Speaker 3: How are you?

1060
00:57:48,400 --> 00:57:51,720
Speaker 20: So that's to know? What's my name?

1061
00:57:51,760 --> 00:57:54,920
Speaker 2: My name is Aisha, Aisha, Aisha. What's going on with you?

1062
00:57:55,000 --> 00:57:55,360
Speaker 6: Dude?

1063
00:57:57,680 --> 00:57:58,320
Speaker 13: Not much?

1064
00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:01,960
Speaker 20: Been a little bit weird since the hurricane and I

1065
00:58:02,040 --> 00:58:05,440
Speaker 20: had to evacuate. So I've just kind of been all

1066
00:58:05,440 --> 00:58:07,840
Speaker 20: over the place and I kind of want to just

1067
00:58:07,880 --> 00:58:10,120
Speaker 20: get back to my apartment and be in my own space.

1068
00:58:10,360 --> 00:58:14,000
Speaker 20: But I'm safe, so I guess that's a plus there

1069
00:58:14,520 --> 00:58:18,120
Speaker 20: where you call? I'm from so I grew up in

1070
00:58:18,120 --> 00:58:21,920
Speaker 20: New York, but I just moved to Jersey in May, Jersey.

1071
00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:24,840
Speaker 2: Like how we're in Jersey, like Jersey City close to

1072
00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:25,680
Speaker 2: the city and.

1073
00:58:25,640 --> 00:58:30,640
Speaker 20: Shit, No, I'm actually like about an hour from the city.

1074
00:58:30,640 --> 00:58:32,600
Speaker 20: I'm like kind of in central a little north.

1075
00:58:33,480 --> 00:58:33,840
Speaker 2: Okay.

1076
00:58:34,240 --> 00:58:37,080
Speaker 20: I don't actually know the geography too well. What do

1077
00:58:37,120 --> 00:58:40,920
Speaker 20: I do? So I just graduated in May with my

1078
00:58:41,080 --> 00:58:45,000
Speaker 20: doctor pharmacy, and I'm in a postdoc fellowship right now

1079
00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:45,880
Speaker 20: for two years.

1080
00:58:46,240 --> 00:58:47,720
Speaker 2: Postdoc fellowship.

1081
00:58:48,440 --> 00:58:50,760
Speaker 20: Okay, yes, very interesting.

1082
00:58:52,160 --> 00:58:55,280
Speaker 2: It's interesting, you know, being in a post doc fellowship.

1083
00:58:55,320 --> 00:58:56,640
Speaker 2: So you're trying to be a doctor person.

1084
00:58:58,480 --> 00:59:03,240
Speaker 20: No, well, I already have my doctor duran. I'm a pharmacist, farms.

1085
00:59:04,600 --> 00:59:09,960
Speaker 2: Can you get me some adderall.

1086
00:59:08,920 --> 00:59:12,720
Speaker 20: Let's pop off the air and for sure cool, Yeah,

1087
00:59:12,760 --> 00:59:14,880
Speaker 20: definitely would lose my life. And but if you talk

1088
00:59:14,920 --> 00:59:17,120
Speaker 20: off the air, then you know I can I can

1089
00:59:17,120 --> 00:59:18,080
Speaker 20: try and see what I can do.

1090
00:59:19,160 --> 00:59:22,400
Speaker 2: Just kidding, this is not real. We're just joking. If

1091
00:59:22,440 --> 00:59:25,680
Speaker 2: anyone I'm just we're just saying random things. This isn't real.

1092
00:59:27,880 --> 00:59:29,360
Speaker 2: What's your name decided?

1093
00:59:29,720 --> 00:59:30,120
Speaker 15: My name?

1094
00:59:30,560 --> 00:59:32,040
Speaker 13: My name is aisa Ai.

1095
00:59:32,080 --> 00:59:33,080
Speaker 2: Should tell me what you.

1096
00:59:33,120 --> 00:59:37,720
Speaker 20: Decided when I decided. I decided that I'm actually not

1097
00:59:37,760 --> 00:59:42,360
Speaker 20: going to practice and that I sold out and I'm

1098
00:59:42,400 --> 00:59:45,680
Speaker 20: working for a big FARMA now to make sure that

1099
00:59:45,840 --> 00:59:48,160
Speaker 20: kids and hailers are like three hundred dollars.

1100
00:59:49,320 --> 00:59:53,160
Speaker 2: That's awesome. Yeah, alright, are you are you going to

1101
00:59:53,200 --> 00:59:54,480
Speaker 2: make a lot of money?

1102
00:59:55,400 --> 00:59:56,080
Speaker 13: That's the goal.

1103
00:59:56,160 --> 00:59:57,760
Speaker 20: That's what the whole fellowship's about.

1104
00:59:57,840 --> 00:59:59,360
Speaker 13: So hopefully after.

1105
01:00:01,360 --> 01:00:03,560
Speaker 2: Yes, Well, I was gonna say, if you sell you,

1106
01:00:03,600 --> 01:00:05,560
Speaker 2: if you sell out, you better make a bunch of money.

1107
01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:09,920
Speaker 20: Yeah, that's the goal. I just didn't want to practice

1108
01:00:10,120 --> 01:00:12,440
Speaker 20: pharmacy anymore. You know, I've worked in a pharmacy for

1109
01:00:12,480 --> 01:00:16,040
Speaker 20: like six years, and you know, people are shitty, and

1110
01:00:16,120 --> 01:00:17,720
Speaker 20: you know, I can deal with all of you know,

1111
01:00:17,720 --> 01:00:21,000
Speaker 20: people calling me a bitch, throwing shit at me, getting

1112
01:00:21,040 --> 01:00:23,640
Speaker 20: pissed about, you know, things that aren't my fault. But

1113
01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:26,360
Speaker 20: I realized I had a little bit more selfless stuff.

1114
01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:27,959
Speaker 20: So I jumped out of that boot.

1115
01:00:29,400 --> 01:00:32,160
Speaker 2: So so you're what do you do now? You help

1116
01:00:32,960 --> 01:00:36,640
Speaker 2: big pharma jack up the prices on medication and stuff.

1117
01:00:37,920 --> 01:00:41,800
Speaker 20: No, that's just a joke. I I it's it's really boring.

1118
01:00:41,880 --> 01:00:46,800
Speaker 20: I basically work to get drugs approved. So I work

1119
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Speaker 20: with the FDA to like get drugs from my company

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Speaker 20: on the market.

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Speaker 2: M you work to get drugs. Are your company the

1122
01:00:55,680 --> 01:00:57,320
Speaker 2: company they work for? Other drugs?

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01:00:57,360 --> 01:00:57,560
Speaker 4: Good?

1124
01:00:57,760 --> 01:01:00,400
Speaker 2: Do they have good drugs there?

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01:01:01,040 --> 01:01:03,080
Speaker 20: I'm not going to say what company, but we're in

1126
01:01:03,160 --> 01:01:06,959
Speaker 20: the top five pharmaceutical industries in the world.

1127
01:01:07,720 --> 01:01:09,680
Speaker 2: Is it one of the ones that did the vaccines?

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Speaker 2: You guys, You guys got a vaccine that you did.

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01:01:12,880 --> 01:01:16,280
Speaker 20: No, you actually didn't, but we're helping to produce the vaccine.

1130
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Speaker 13: But it's not ours.

1131
01:01:17,960 --> 01:01:21,280
Speaker 2: That's cool. How much money do you are you going

1132
01:01:21,320 --> 01:01:21,760
Speaker 2: to make.

1133
01:01:23,600 --> 01:01:27,760
Speaker 20: In the future. Yeah, hopefully a minimum of one hundred K.

1134
01:01:28,520 --> 01:01:32,400
Speaker 20: But I'm aiming to, you know, climb the ladder network,

1135
01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:35,280
Speaker 20: you know, brown nosed people and try and work my

1136
01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:35,720
Speaker 20: way up.

1137
01:01:35,960 --> 01:01:37,720
Speaker 13: So we'll see where that goes.

1138
01:01:38,480 --> 01:01:40,600
Speaker 2: What are you gonna are you gonna spend all your money.

1139
01:01:40,320 --> 01:01:45,800
Speaker 20: On probably paying off my quarter of a million dollars in.

1140
01:01:45,840 --> 01:01:46,760
Speaker 4: Student loans.

1141
01:01:48,880 --> 01:01:50,000
Speaker 2: In student loan debt?

1142
01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:53,120
Speaker 20: Yeah, just for two letters before my name.

1143
01:01:53,800 --> 01:01:57,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, just for two letters before your name doctor.

1144
01:01:57,400 --> 01:01:58,360
Speaker 20: Yeah, the D, M, the R.

1145
01:01:58,520 --> 01:02:02,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's fucking expensive, dude.

1146
01:02:02,800 --> 01:02:03,360
Speaker 3: Yeah it is.

1147
01:02:03,400 --> 01:02:05,880
Speaker 20: But then like I can just force people to call

1148
01:02:05,920 --> 01:02:08,320
Speaker 20: me doctor and like weird social settings and it's just

1149
01:02:08,360 --> 01:02:12,680
Speaker 20: like a great power move. But it's also like crippling

1150
01:02:12,760 --> 01:02:16,840
Speaker 20: debt and anxiety constantly. But you know we're living with that.

1151
01:02:16,880 --> 01:02:19,840
Speaker 20: I feel like everyone has debt, so you know everyone's

1152
01:02:19,840 --> 01:02:20,520
Speaker 20: in the same boat.

1153
01:02:22,760 --> 01:02:26,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, well that's you know, that's what we do, right.

1154
01:02:26,440 --> 01:02:30,240
Speaker 2: We go into large amounts of debt and do certain things,

1155
01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:33,200
Speaker 2: and the crew money for titles and things to uh

1156
01:02:33,440 --> 01:02:35,360
Speaker 2: give us a sense of prestige, and then you know

1157
01:02:35,400 --> 01:02:36,320
Speaker 2: what happens.

1158
01:02:37,560 --> 01:02:38,160
Speaker 12: What happened?

1159
01:02:38,520 --> 01:02:39,440
Speaker 2: We die.

1160
01:02:40,840 --> 01:02:41,919
Speaker 13: I can't wait for that part.

1161
01:02:42,000 --> 01:02:44,040
Speaker 2: I can't take anything with us. Really, Why can't you

1162
01:02:44,080 --> 01:02:45,320
Speaker 2: wait to uh die?

1163
01:02:47,040 --> 01:02:49,960
Speaker 20: That's like kind of a joke. I you know, I

1164
01:02:50,000 --> 01:02:52,880
Speaker 20: feel like everyone's depressed nowadays. I used to like go

1165
01:02:53,000 --> 01:02:55,960
Speaker 20: through really strong bouts of depression, especially in my adolescents,

1166
01:02:57,040 --> 01:02:58,959
Speaker 20: and then you know, I was prescribing as and all.

1167
01:02:58,920 --> 01:03:01,120
Speaker 2: Of that, but I was's how you guys should make

1168
01:03:01,120 --> 01:03:02,080
Speaker 2: a medicine for that?

1169
01:03:03,960 --> 01:03:08,120
Speaker 20: Ye have, actually, but I don't know. I just you know,

1170
01:03:08,400 --> 01:03:10,960
Speaker 20: I kind of worked through that stuff and I'm feeling

1171
01:03:10,960 --> 01:03:13,000
Speaker 20: a lot better now. You know, everyone has those off

1172
01:03:13,080 --> 01:03:15,400
Speaker 20: days now, but I'm like ten times better than it

1173
01:03:15,480 --> 01:03:21,720
Speaker 20: was like five years ago. Well, why I actually called,

1174
01:03:22,480 --> 01:03:24,320
Speaker 20: and I know we already did a lot of kind

1175
01:03:24,320 --> 01:03:25,800
Speaker 20: of relationship advice today.

1176
01:03:26,160 --> 01:03:28,480
Speaker 2: I'm ready to I'm ready to do more. I feel actually,

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01:03:28,520 --> 01:03:30,720
Speaker 2: I feel as though we haven't done a lot of

1178
01:03:30,720 --> 01:03:33,280
Speaker 2: things on the topic, so so please hit us.

1179
01:03:35,320 --> 01:03:39,240
Speaker 20: So I have been dating my boyfriend for over two

1180
01:03:39,320 --> 01:03:42,480
Speaker 20: years now, and I love him.

1181
01:03:42,520 --> 01:03:45,280
Speaker 13: Everything with us is just really easy.

1182
01:03:45,480 --> 01:03:49,040
Speaker 20: It's fun. We've been doing long distance for about a

1183
01:03:49,120 --> 01:03:51,120
Speaker 20: year and a half while I was.

1184
01:03:51,080 --> 01:03:54,280
Speaker 13: In school and he was doing his career and he.

1185
01:03:54,560 --> 01:03:57,480
Speaker 20: Got a house and he loved his job. And I

1186
01:03:57,600 --> 01:04:01,200
Speaker 20: just graduated in May, and instead of being two hours

1187
01:04:01,200 --> 01:04:03,360
Speaker 20: apart like we were when I was in school, we

1188
01:04:03,400 --> 01:04:07,320
Speaker 20: are now three hours apart. So we still have this distance,

1189
01:04:08,120 --> 01:04:10,720
Speaker 20: and when we see each other, it's like really fun

1190
01:04:10,840 --> 01:04:14,600
Speaker 20: and great. But I just have this overwhelming anxiety that

1191
01:04:15,480 --> 01:04:17,760
Speaker 20: I need to end it, and I've been thinking about

1192
01:04:17,800 --> 01:04:20,080
Speaker 20: it so much that I think it's kind of this

1193
01:04:20,240 --> 01:04:24,240
Speaker 20: red flag that deep down I really want to because

1194
01:04:26,760 --> 01:04:28,680
Speaker 20: the job that I have right now is for two

1195
01:04:28,720 --> 01:04:31,960
Speaker 20: years and then afterward, if I get signed on, after

1196
01:04:32,080 --> 01:04:34,720
Speaker 20: like my contract ends, then I'm going to stay here.

1197
01:04:35,440 --> 01:04:36,240
Speaker 12: And I'm not.

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01:04:36,240 --> 01:04:38,640
Speaker 20: Moving to where he is because they don't really have

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01:04:38,760 --> 01:04:42,560
Speaker 20: like big industry there and there's not really career opportunity.

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01:04:43,400 --> 01:04:47,240
Speaker 20: And the other option, which we've talked about really open

1201
01:04:47,280 --> 01:04:48,000
Speaker 20: with each other.

1202
01:04:48,200 --> 01:04:49,280
Speaker 6: Is that he moves.

1203
01:04:49,480 --> 01:04:53,400
Speaker 13: But you know, he loves his job, his family's close by.

1204
01:04:53,400 --> 01:04:57,040
Speaker 20: He loves his coworkers, and he has a freaking house there,

1205
01:04:57,600 --> 01:04:59,960
Speaker 20: and he's just like, I shall sell the house.

1206
01:05:00,360 --> 01:05:02,439
Speaker 13: I'll like, you know, get a new job.

1207
01:05:02,520 --> 01:05:05,920
Speaker 20: All this stuff and the anxiety behind the whole situation

1208
01:05:06,240 --> 01:05:09,080
Speaker 20: is just making me want to hit the brakes.

1209
01:05:09,720 --> 01:05:16,960
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmm mm hmmmmmm. What do you Yeah, that's

1210
01:05:17,000 --> 01:05:19,800
Speaker 2: a tough situation. What's the is the is the anxiety

1211
01:05:19,840 --> 01:05:22,040
Speaker 2: coming from the inability to make a decision.

1212
01:05:24,160 --> 01:05:27,360
Speaker 20: I think the anxiety is not about the decision, because

1213
01:05:27,600 --> 01:05:30,120
Speaker 20: I think I've thought about it so much that I'm

1214
01:05:30,160 --> 01:05:33,200
Speaker 20: going to do it, But it's more about the logistics

1215
01:05:33,240 --> 01:05:37,800
Speaker 20: because we're long distance, so the options are. You know,

1216
01:05:37,920 --> 01:05:39,760
Speaker 20: I'm not going to make him drive down here. I

1217
01:05:39,760 --> 01:05:41,800
Speaker 20: feel like that'd be cruel for him to like drive

1218
01:05:41,840 --> 01:05:45,160
Speaker 20: back three hours after I broke up with him, So

1219
01:05:45,320 --> 01:05:48,720
Speaker 20: I'd have to drive there and then like, do I

1220
01:05:48,880 --> 01:05:51,680
Speaker 20: just drive there, do it, and then drive back and

1221
01:05:51,760 --> 01:05:54,720
Speaker 20: drive like six hours in the day, I could, like

1222
01:05:55,880 --> 01:05:57,200
Speaker 20: the logistics.

1223
01:05:56,600 --> 01:05:58,240
Speaker 2: Of going to meet him, and.

1224
01:05:58,560 --> 01:06:01,040
Speaker 20: I feel like no one actually exactly, no one actually

1225
01:06:01,040 --> 01:06:04,680
Speaker 20: talks about the actual act and logistics behind it. And

1226
01:06:04,800 --> 01:06:07,880
Speaker 20: as you know, I'm a very scientifical person and I

1227
01:06:08,040 --> 01:06:12,320
Speaker 20: like strategy, so I'm like trying to figure out the

1228
01:06:12,320 --> 01:06:15,720
Speaker 20: best methods and I just I feel like I have

1229
01:06:15,800 --> 01:06:18,240
Speaker 20: to drive there and do it. But I don't know

1230
01:06:18,280 --> 01:06:20,480
Speaker 20: if I should. Like my first thought was like I

1231
01:06:20,480 --> 01:06:22,320
Speaker 20: can stay a couple of days and see how I

1232
01:06:22,400 --> 01:06:24,720
Speaker 20: feel and then like decide at the end. But I

1233
01:06:24,720 --> 01:06:26,320
Speaker 20: feel like that's kind of more fucked up.

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01:06:27,120 --> 01:06:28,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I don't think you should do that. I

1235
01:06:28,480 --> 01:06:29,960
Speaker 2: think if you're going to go up there, you should

1236
01:06:30,280 --> 01:06:33,919
Speaker 2: know what you're gonna do. I mean, by the way,

1237
01:06:34,160 --> 01:06:36,640
Speaker 2: you know, if I were you, I mean, look logistically,

1238
01:06:36,680 --> 01:06:38,520
Speaker 2: if that's all you are worrying about, Yeah, drive the

1239
01:06:38,520 --> 01:06:39,120
Speaker 2: six hours.

1240
01:06:40,800 --> 01:06:43,000
Speaker 20: Yeah, I feel like the three hour drive back like

1241
01:06:43,040 --> 01:06:45,800
Speaker 20: would be really necessary to like cry it out and

1242
01:06:45,840 --> 01:06:48,160
Speaker 20: like listen to music and stuff, but I just do.

1243
01:06:48,120 --> 01:06:52,560
Speaker 2: It to the drive. Let me tell you something, I've

1244
01:06:52,640 --> 01:06:56,800
Speaker 2: learned that doing long drives is really not that bad,

1245
01:06:56,960 --> 01:06:59,800
Speaker 2: you know, because there's the thing think about everything. What

1246
01:07:00,040 --> 01:07:01,040
Speaker 2: are you going to go Saturday?

1247
01:07:02,880 --> 01:07:05,120
Speaker 20: I don't know. So I actually was just displaced from

1248
01:07:05,120 --> 01:07:09,000
Speaker 20: the hurricane, so I'm actually was in a hotel last

1249
01:07:09,040 --> 01:07:11,120
Speaker 20: night and then I drove to my sisters. So I

1250
01:07:11,120 --> 01:07:12,640
Speaker 20: don't really have a lot of have like two T

1251
01:07:12,720 --> 01:07:14,520
Speaker 20: shirts with me because I have to evacuate in like

1252
01:07:14,880 --> 01:07:17,720
Speaker 20: a half hour, so I don't have anything to like

1253
01:07:18,640 --> 01:07:20,720
Speaker 20: go this weekend. Really, I'm like really unprepared.

1254
01:07:21,640 --> 01:07:24,760
Speaker 2: HM, well, because all I was going to say is like, look,

1255
01:07:25,000 --> 01:07:27,520
Speaker 2: you know, from from noon to six pm, what are

1256
01:07:27,520 --> 01:07:29,240
Speaker 2: you going to be doing with those six hours? Anyway?

1257
01:07:29,280 --> 01:07:32,080
Speaker 2: You know, just take the drive and then it's good

1258
01:07:32,160 --> 01:07:34,200
Speaker 2: right on the on the three hour drive back, you get,

1259
01:07:34,240 --> 01:07:36,560
Speaker 2: you get, you get your cry in, you throw on

1260
01:07:36,640 --> 01:07:38,640
Speaker 2: a tape, you do what you do, what you do.

1261
01:07:41,320 --> 01:07:43,640
Speaker 13: I feel like I just need to like put on.

1262
01:07:43,640 --> 01:07:45,400
Speaker 2: A music, put on some music.

1263
01:07:46,360 --> 01:07:48,120
Speaker 20: I mean, I have a really old car, so we

1264
01:07:48,200 --> 01:07:50,439
Speaker 20: do have a tape in there, so maybe i'll top

1265
01:07:50,640 --> 01:07:53,840
Speaker 20: something that I'll listen to back to back. I do

1266
01:07:53,920 --> 01:07:55,960
Speaker 20: have a One Direction CD in my car, but that's

1267
01:07:56,000 --> 01:07:57,120
Speaker 20: the only CD I have.

1268
01:07:58,000 --> 01:07:59,440
Speaker 2: Do it? Put on some one Direction?

1269
01:08:01,000 --> 01:08:02,960
Speaker 20: Yeah, I used to be a big stand back in

1270
01:08:03,640 --> 01:08:06,880
Speaker 20: the good young days. I don't know why I'm lying.

1271
01:08:06,920 --> 01:08:09,000
Speaker 20: I'm still a big fan. I'm a big fan of

1272
01:08:09,040 --> 01:08:11,080
Speaker 20: One Direction, always was, always will be.

1273
01:08:12,520 --> 01:08:12,720
Speaker 4: You know.

1274
01:08:12,800 --> 01:08:14,320
Speaker 2: I think it's good to be proud of who you are.

1275
01:08:15,480 --> 01:08:18,759
Speaker 20: Yeah, yeah, I guess I just got to like grow

1276
01:08:18,800 --> 01:08:19,680
Speaker 20: the balls and do it.

1277
01:08:20,560 --> 01:08:21,360
Speaker 2: Would you say name was?

1278
01:08:22,800 --> 01:08:23,560
Speaker 20: What?

1279
01:08:23,560 --> 01:08:24,519
Speaker 2: What did you say? Your name was?

1280
01:08:25,840 --> 01:08:28,519
Speaker 20: My name is Aisha? You're not going to remember at

1281
01:08:28,520 --> 01:08:29,040
Speaker 20: the end of the phone.

1282
01:08:29,040 --> 01:08:29,200
Speaker 4: Call.

1283
01:08:29,240 --> 01:08:33,280
Speaker 2: It's okay, but I don't remember anything about anyone. That's

1284
01:08:33,280 --> 01:08:35,519
Speaker 2: not true. I just don't remember people's names. I remember

1285
01:08:35,560 --> 01:08:37,040
Speaker 2: a lot of things about you, but I don't remember

1286
01:08:37,080 --> 01:08:42,920
Speaker 2: your name. Well, doctor Aisha, I appreciate you sharing with us,

1287
01:08:42,960 --> 01:08:45,560
Speaker 2: and look, I hope everything works out, and you know,

1288
01:08:45,600 --> 01:08:48,040
Speaker 2: I'll hope you enjoy your cry. While listening to one

1289
01:08:48,040 --> 01:08:51,559
Speaker 2: direction that sounds like it's poetic, lean into it, lean

1290
01:08:51,600 --> 01:08:54,040
Speaker 2: into it, I should said, experience of life, all the bad,

1291
01:08:54,080 --> 01:08:55,800
Speaker 2: all the good, take it all in.

1292
01:08:57,000 --> 01:08:59,400
Speaker 20: Thank you so much, Jack, I really needed that push.

1293
01:08:59,479 --> 01:09:00,800
Speaker 2: Of course, you have a good rest of the night.

1294
01:09:00,840 --> 01:09:03,760
Speaker 2: I shall need to take care night, doc.

1295
01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:13,920
Speaker 1: Bye call from Matt, but hold on.

1296
01:09:13,960 --> 01:09:17,800
Speaker 2: I gotta do real quick. Hello anyone there?

1297
01:09:18,760 --> 01:09:20,280
Speaker 4: Yep, hello, while.

1298
01:09:20,479 --> 01:09:22,000
Speaker 2: Hey, what's up? I got How are you doing?

1299
01:09:23,640 --> 01:09:25,440
Speaker 4: I can't complain? How are you?

1300
01:09:25,439 --> 01:09:31,639
Speaker 2: You can't complain. You can complain if you complain.

1301
01:09:32,400 --> 01:09:32,960
Speaker 4: I just don't.

1302
01:09:34,200 --> 01:09:38,320
Speaker 2: But you know I don't like to complain either. That's

1303
01:09:38,320 --> 01:09:40,120
Speaker 2: not true at all. I like complaining a lot. It

1304
01:09:40,120 --> 01:09:42,320
Speaker 2: feels good to complain. I wonder what the new. I

1305
01:09:42,360 --> 01:09:45,120
Speaker 2: wish that the new I had a neuroscientist. That's my

1306
01:09:45,200 --> 01:09:47,880
Speaker 2: next guest. We got to get a neuroscientist on because

1307
01:09:47,960 --> 01:09:50,880
Speaker 2: I there is some sort of I want the scientific

1308
01:09:50,960 --> 01:09:54,519
Speaker 2: explanation of why it just feels so good to complain,

1309
01:09:54,680 --> 01:09:59,720
Speaker 2: feel it. Complaining sometimes feels even better than fixing the

1310
01:09:59,760 --> 01:10:07,240
Speaker 2: issue you in a weird way, like it is that

1311
01:10:07,280 --> 01:10:09,360
Speaker 2: one we're talking. I'm sorry I was talking over you

1312
01:10:09,400 --> 01:10:10,479
Speaker 2: in a in a manic wit.

1313
01:10:11,160 --> 01:10:12,920
Speaker 4: I think it tooes our pride a little bit.

1314
01:10:14,760 --> 01:10:18,840
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. If you could complain, well, let's see, I mean,

1315
01:10:18,880 --> 01:10:20,800
Speaker 2: what do I have to complain? You know, life's pretty

1316
01:10:20,800 --> 01:10:24,640
Speaker 2: good in a macro sense? What do you what's your

1317
01:10:24,720 --> 01:10:25,120
Speaker 2: name again?

1318
01:10:26,880 --> 01:10:27,120
Speaker 4: Mac?

1319
01:10:28,320 --> 01:10:28,559
Speaker 1: Mac?

1320
01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:31,639
Speaker 2: What's going on with you? Mac? How's your love life?

1321
01:10:34,280 --> 01:10:40,880
Speaker 4: I mean I don't have one, so I get that's

1322
01:10:40,880 --> 01:10:41,840
Speaker 4: them to complain about.

1323
01:10:42,800 --> 01:10:44,840
Speaker 2: What do you want one? It's not necessary to have

1324
01:10:44,840 --> 01:10:45,800
Speaker 2: a life love life?

1325
01:10:45,800 --> 01:10:50,479
Speaker 4: I mean absolutely, I think there I thought I was

1326
01:10:50,479 --> 01:11:01,439
Speaker 4: going to complain about one thing about that. That's that's

1327
01:11:02,000 --> 01:11:05,040
Speaker 4: I think that's tough for me without like I automatically

1328
01:11:05,080 --> 01:11:09,560
Speaker 4: go to complaining about what I could do better and

1329
01:11:09,680 --> 01:11:12,720
Speaker 4: not just about how I want things to be. I

1330
01:11:12,720 --> 01:11:13,000
Speaker 4: don't know.

1331
01:11:13,880 --> 01:11:16,120
Speaker 2: I think that's no. But that's a good thing. That

1332
01:11:16,200 --> 01:11:18,760
Speaker 2: means that you're taking like you know some modicum of

1333
01:11:18,840 --> 01:11:21,880
Speaker 2: personal responsibility, which is always good because you know, look,

1334
01:11:21,880 --> 01:11:23,880
Speaker 2: we don't have influence over the actions of others, but

1335
01:11:23,920 --> 01:11:26,600
Speaker 2: we have complete another control of our own actions, and

1336
01:11:26,640 --> 01:11:28,439
Speaker 2: so it's a good place to start. What is it

1337
01:11:28,479 --> 01:11:30,559
Speaker 2: that you think that you could do better in your

1338
01:11:30,560 --> 01:11:33,439
Speaker 2: in your own sort of thoughts about it?

1339
01:11:37,680 --> 01:11:46,040
Speaker 4: Well, I guess to do with vulnerability and being willing

1340
01:11:46,120 --> 01:11:58,120
Speaker 4: to put myself out there even when I am not

1341
01:11:58,400 --> 01:12:03,559
Speaker 4: able to. I guess I'm used to being able to

1342
01:12:03,600 --> 01:12:07,280
Speaker 4: guide someone in Oh, you know, a direction is interesting

1343
01:12:07,320 --> 01:12:11,560
Speaker 4: to me, but like my life circumstances right now.

1344
01:12:12,560 --> 01:12:14,200
Speaker 2: What do you what do you mean by you used

1345
01:12:14,200 --> 01:12:17,200
Speaker 2: to be able to guide someone into a into I mean, like.

1346
01:12:17,160 --> 01:12:21,680
Speaker 4: I guess, like being being a leader, being able to

1347
01:12:23,520 --> 01:12:30,120
Speaker 4: like share things I enjoy with somebody and be be

1348
01:12:30,280 --> 01:12:39,760
Speaker 4: the one who's outgoing. But mm hmm, mat probably I

1349
01:12:39,760 --> 01:12:41,439
Speaker 4: guess yes.

1350
01:12:41,960 --> 01:12:47,160
Speaker 2: You say you want to be more vulnerable, right, yeah,

1351
01:12:47,600 --> 01:12:51,719
Speaker 2: Because there's the thing is you know, be like. Here's

1352
01:12:52,160 --> 01:12:55,439
Speaker 2: here's what I believe is if you're not outgoing, if

1353
01:12:55,439 --> 01:12:57,360
Speaker 2: you if you look into your heart and you like

1354
01:12:57,560 --> 01:12:59,080
Speaker 2: are thinking about who you are, and you have a

1355
01:12:59,080 --> 01:13:02,479
Speaker 2: healthy amount of self awareness, and you decide I'm really

1356
01:13:02,520 --> 01:13:06,200
Speaker 2: not an outgoing guy. I'm kind of an introvert and

1357
01:13:06,240 --> 01:13:11,280
Speaker 2: you and you accept that about yourself instead of trying

1358
01:13:11,360 --> 01:13:14,160
Speaker 2: to force yourself to be outgoing even though you're not,

1359
01:13:14,880 --> 01:13:18,320
Speaker 2: and you instead like take a sort of intake of

1360
01:13:18,560 --> 01:13:21,360
Speaker 2: who you are, how you think, how you operate, how

1361
01:13:21,479 --> 01:13:25,759
Speaker 2: you like to maneuver social situations, and you go, I'm

1362
01:13:25,840 --> 01:13:27,880
Speaker 2: not outgoing, I'm not the I'm not gonna walk up

1363
01:13:27,880 --> 01:13:29,960
Speaker 2: and be like, hey, everyone's I'm not going to walk

1364
01:13:30,000 --> 01:13:31,200
Speaker 2: up to a circle and be like, what are we

1365
01:13:31,280 --> 01:13:33,720
Speaker 2: talking about here? That's not you. You don't have you

1366
01:13:33,720 --> 01:13:35,760
Speaker 2: don't that you don't that doesn't have to be you.

1367
01:13:35,760 --> 01:13:37,880
Speaker 2: You know, that's the thing. It's like, there's all these

1368
01:13:37,880 --> 01:13:44,320
Speaker 2: fucking you know, I understand why people people think that

1369
01:13:44,320 --> 01:13:47,479
Speaker 2: that's what they have to do, because you know, there's

1370
01:13:47,520 --> 01:13:50,760
Speaker 2: like this I guess societal ideal of what a successful

1371
01:13:51,880 --> 01:13:55,240
Speaker 2: social person looks like. But if you were to instead

1372
01:13:55,960 --> 01:13:59,519
Speaker 2: look at yourself and go, Okay, that's not me, but

1373
01:14:00,240 --> 01:14:05,040
Speaker 2: what is me? You know, and then what kind of

1374
01:14:05,120 --> 01:14:11,519
Speaker 2: person might be interested in whatever is you? You know, instead

1375
01:14:11,520 --> 01:14:13,000
Speaker 2: of trying to be what you're not, because if you

1376
01:14:13,040 --> 01:14:16,640
Speaker 2: try to be the you know, go off to the

1377
01:14:16,680 --> 01:14:18,679
Speaker 2: circle of guy. Hey, what's going on kind of guy?

1378
01:14:18,720 --> 01:14:21,519
Speaker 2: But that's not you. Then you're gonna you're gonna fail

1379
01:14:21,560 --> 01:14:23,880
Speaker 2: because you're you're not leaning into who you are, trying

1380
01:14:23,920 --> 01:14:25,800
Speaker 2: to be something else. Does that make sense?

1381
01:14:27,600 --> 01:14:30,880
Speaker 4: I respect that, Yeah, I can hear that. But at

1382
01:14:30,880 --> 01:14:35,920
Speaker 4: the same time, like a part of me resonates with that,

1383
01:14:36,120 --> 01:14:39,000
Speaker 4: Like I I there's a there's a joey in doing

1384
01:14:39,040 --> 01:14:45,719
Speaker 4: that that like, pardon me, feels like it is missing

1385
01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:50,680
Speaker 4: out not having that, not not sharing that with others.

1386
01:14:51,000 --> 01:14:54,040
Speaker 2: Right, but the time is right, Well, here's the thing.

1387
01:14:54,200 --> 01:14:58,680
Speaker 2: Is the time that you're spending like like wishing you

1388
01:14:58,680 --> 01:15:03,479
Speaker 2: were more outgoing because like you know, you think that

1389
01:15:03,479 --> 01:15:06,320
Speaker 2: that's the way to be is time I think you

1390
01:15:06,320 --> 01:15:09,639
Speaker 2: should be spending like doing a sort of an inward

1391
01:15:09,720 --> 01:15:13,360
Speaker 2: look at yourself and going, well, okay, I'm not that,

1392
01:15:13,760 --> 01:15:16,120
Speaker 2: but I am well a lot of things. I'm sure

1393
01:15:16,160 --> 01:15:19,160
Speaker 2: you are a lot of things. I'm sure that there

1394
01:15:19,200 --> 01:15:24,720
Speaker 2: are you have strengths, because everyone has their strengths, and

1395
01:15:24,760 --> 01:15:28,880
Speaker 2: you should play to what you believe you are good at,

1396
01:15:29,200 --> 01:15:34,360
Speaker 2: as opposed to trying to wire yourself in a way

1397
01:15:34,439 --> 01:15:38,000
Speaker 2: that is not you. Does that make sense? So instead

1398
01:15:38,000 --> 01:15:40,160
Speaker 2: of so I'm trying. I'm trying to get more concrete

1399
01:15:40,200 --> 01:15:42,920
Speaker 2: with this because I feel like I'm being too a

1400
01:15:43,000 --> 01:15:47,599
Speaker 2: rethrow here, you know, like like fuck it, like like

1401
01:15:47,600 --> 01:15:49,200
Speaker 2: like let's say, let's I think you're.

1402
01:15:49,040 --> 01:15:52,200
Speaker 4: Going back to vulnerability. It's what you're saying that you

1403
01:15:52,240 --> 01:15:57,280
Speaker 4: can be you can be vulnerable alone. Right, I'm not.

1404
01:15:57,280 --> 01:16:02,479
Speaker 2: Even saying what's what's mac? What do you like to do?

1405
01:16:02,479 --> 01:16:04,519
Speaker 2: Do you have any hobbies of any kinds, like anything

1406
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:06,320
Speaker 2: you like to do, even if you think like it's

1407
01:16:06,360 --> 01:16:08,960
Speaker 2: not like anything that you like to do.

1408
01:16:12,040 --> 01:16:14,599
Speaker 4: Let's take my hiking.

1409
01:16:15,600 --> 01:16:22,040
Speaker 2: That's a perfect that's perfect. That's perfect. Okay, So you

1410
01:16:22,200 --> 01:16:27,559
Speaker 2: like to hike? Yeah, you say your love life Okay,

1411
01:16:27,640 --> 01:16:30,400
Speaker 2: you told me that your love life doesn't exist. Have

1412
01:16:30,479 --> 01:16:32,240
Speaker 2: you been trying to make it exist? Have you been

1413
01:16:32,280 --> 01:16:35,800
Speaker 2: like putting yourself out there anywhere at all?

1414
01:16:38,800 --> 01:16:48,479
Speaker 4: No? Not recently. Sure, I've found that my intentions on

1415
01:16:49,920 --> 01:16:53,600
Speaker 4: what I'm what I'm looking for is really cloudy and

1416
01:16:53,760 --> 01:16:57,479
Speaker 4: really hard to like, I've really struggled to be clear

1417
01:16:57,520 --> 01:17:05,400
Speaker 4: on that. So I ended up, at least in the past,

1418
01:17:05,520 --> 01:17:14,400
Speaker 4: I've ended up being an asshole. And because I didn't

1419
01:17:14,439 --> 01:17:15,280
Speaker 4: know what I was looking.

1420
01:17:15,080 --> 01:17:16,800
Speaker 2: For, You've ended up being what do you mean by

1421
01:17:16,840 --> 01:17:18,760
Speaker 2: you've ended up being an asshole.

1422
01:17:22,240 --> 01:17:30,920
Speaker 4: Just not treating people well because I wanted something or

1423
01:17:31,040 --> 01:17:35,680
Speaker 4: because I like I wasn't. I don't feel like I

1424
01:17:35,720 --> 01:17:40,080
Speaker 4: was present and able to connect with people enough to

1425
01:17:41,640 --> 01:17:44,800
Speaker 4: even notice where they were at Sure?

1426
01:17:45,000 --> 01:17:47,320
Speaker 2: Sure, why why do you feel like you weren't present?

1427
01:17:48,120 --> 01:17:52,240
Speaker 2: Were you like? Were you like distracted me?

1428
01:17:54,280 --> 01:17:57,439
Speaker 4: I had a good reason. I'm not struggling with mental

1429
01:17:57,479 --> 01:17:59,840
Speaker 4: health stuff. I mean there's a lot going on like

1430
01:18:00,240 --> 01:18:12,120
Speaker 4: just where I mean that even now makes it a

1431
01:18:12,160 --> 01:18:18,120
Speaker 4: real challenge for me to connect with people and feel well,

1432
01:18:18,240 --> 01:18:23,320
Speaker 4: even feel comfortable opening up and feel like I'm being

1433
01:18:23,439 --> 01:18:26,320
Speaker 4: heard and know that I'm connecting with someone.

1434
01:18:26,960 --> 01:18:30,400
Speaker 2: Would you say when you say your intentions were cloudy,

1435
01:18:30,640 --> 01:18:34,479
Speaker 2: do you do you which is you know, I totally

1436
01:18:34,479 --> 01:18:36,559
Speaker 2: get that we you know, Swycho and I were talking

1437
01:18:36,600 --> 01:18:40,960
Speaker 2: to uh uh a kitty about that kitty. You knew

1438
01:18:41,000 --> 01:18:45,439
Speaker 2: exactly what she wanted and that's important, that's helpful. Do

1439
01:18:45,479 --> 01:18:49,160
Speaker 2: you do feel like you don't know like what you want?

1440
01:18:49,200 --> 01:18:50,880
Speaker 2: Because you know, if you're if you're saying that you

1441
01:18:50,920 --> 01:18:54,280
Speaker 2: have a non existed love life and that that bothers you,

1442
01:18:54,360 --> 01:18:57,320
Speaker 2: like it's if like of course, you're going to be

1443
01:18:57,439 --> 01:18:58,960
Speaker 2: First of all, of course you're not going to have

1444
01:18:59,040 --> 01:19:02,040
Speaker 2: something if you don't even know what it is that

1445
01:19:02,080 --> 01:19:05,880
Speaker 2: you want to hang right, you know. And then and

1446
01:19:05,880 --> 01:19:08,000
Speaker 2: then the other side, it's like how how why would

1447
01:19:08,040 --> 01:19:11,200
Speaker 2: you be upset that you don't have something that you

1448
01:19:11,240 --> 01:19:14,400
Speaker 2: don't even know what the thing is?

1449
01:19:15,960 --> 01:19:19,640
Speaker 4: Mm hmm, I mean, I guess I I do know

1450
01:19:19,840 --> 01:19:25,720
Speaker 4: more of what I don't want, and it's really stressful

1451
01:19:25,800 --> 01:19:35,200
Speaker 4: for me to see myself unconsciously, like I I if

1452
01:19:35,439 --> 01:19:41,000
Speaker 4: I see myself reacting to others in ways that like

1453
01:19:44,000 --> 01:19:45,519
Speaker 4: I know it was going to get me something I

1454
01:19:45,520 --> 01:19:48,120
Speaker 4: don't want, If that makes sense. I'm trying to be concreteed,

1455
01:19:48,280 --> 01:20:06,440
Speaker 4: like I'm trying to give an example here, But.

1456
01:20:03,360 --> 01:20:05,840
Speaker 2: What your name was, Mac? I'm sorry I probably asked

1457
01:20:05,840 --> 01:20:09,479
Speaker 2: your name Tis. That's kind of you know, I've been

1458
01:20:09,520 --> 01:20:13,760
Speaker 2: able to own it. I've been able to own it

1459
01:20:13,840 --> 01:20:16,840
Speaker 2: and make it actually my like thing. It's a it's

1460
01:20:16,840 --> 01:20:19,200
Speaker 2: become an endearing thing about me now that I forget

1461
01:20:19,680 --> 01:20:23,519
Speaker 2: other people's names. It's not a you know, I've I've

1462
01:20:23,560 --> 01:20:27,439
Speaker 2: tricked everyone into into making it part of my like

1463
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:29,680
Speaker 2: my stick that I forget people's names. I pretend as

1464
01:20:29,680 --> 01:20:33,240
Speaker 2: though I do it a lot of people, you know

1465
01:20:33,360 --> 01:20:37,519
Speaker 2: that I just, you know, forget people's names because I'm forgetful. Well, look,

1466
01:20:37,520 --> 01:20:39,360
Speaker 2: I'm taking in so much information. There's so much more.

1467
01:20:39,400 --> 01:20:42,640
Speaker 2: There's so much, so many things about you, Mac that

1468
01:20:42,680 --> 01:20:48,080
Speaker 2: are so much more interesting than your name. Mac. Listen,

1469
01:20:48,160 --> 01:20:49,160
Speaker 2: here's here's you.

1470
01:20:49,479 --> 01:20:50,680
Speaker 4: Remember. I appreciate you.

1471
01:20:50,680 --> 01:20:52,519
Speaker 2: Ever you ever you ever tried joining a hiking group?

1472
01:20:52,560 --> 01:20:53,920
Speaker 2: That's what I was going to ask you ever tried

1473
01:20:54,000 --> 01:20:56,479
Speaker 2: joining a hiking group. That's the first step of putting

1474
01:20:56,479 --> 01:20:59,800
Speaker 2: yourself out there, because there's been a lot of fucking people. Yeah,

1475
01:21:00,040 --> 01:21:01,519
Speaker 2: and I don't know if this is what you do,

1476
01:21:02,160 --> 01:21:05,519
Speaker 2: but a lot of guys fucking do this. Girls too.

1477
01:21:05,520 --> 01:21:08,719
Speaker 2: It's not really a gender thing. But you know, maybe

1478
01:21:08,760 --> 01:21:11,680
Speaker 2: you look at yourself and you're like, man, man, you know,

1479
01:21:11,720 --> 01:21:13,800
Speaker 2: I'm never gonna be able to like find a girlfriend

1480
01:21:13,960 --> 01:21:16,200
Speaker 2: if I can't like go out to a bar.

1481
01:21:16,320 --> 01:21:18,840
Speaker 4: I don't think myself talking.

1482
01:21:18,479 --> 01:21:20,920
Speaker 2: To people or you or I guess, I guess I'm no.

1483
01:21:21,320 --> 01:21:22,880
Speaker 2: What I mean to say is like maybe you you know,

1484
01:21:22,880 --> 01:21:24,320
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know this about you, you know,

1485
01:21:24,560 --> 01:21:26,960
Speaker 2: but like, are you are you possibly like looking for

1486
01:21:28,000 --> 01:21:31,439
Speaker 2: uh uh stuff in the wrong places, But I'm realizing

1487
01:21:31,479 --> 01:21:33,960
Speaker 2: that you don't. You wouldn't even know what you're what

1488
01:21:34,000 --> 01:21:35,599
Speaker 2: you're looking for, so you you would have to figure

1489
01:21:35,640 --> 01:21:38,599
Speaker 2: that out, right.

1490
01:21:38,560 --> 01:21:41,120
Speaker 4: I Mean, what's something that came to mind with what

1491
01:21:41,160 --> 01:21:47,400
Speaker 4: you said, was like there's this I think I built

1492
01:21:47,479 --> 01:21:56,400
Speaker 4: up some resistance there where I'm there's that fear like

1493
01:21:56,439 --> 01:21:58,320
Speaker 4: I mean going back to one of them, but there's

1494
01:21:58,360 --> 01:22:09,559
Speaker 4: the fear that I'm I'm trying to like be okay,

1495
01:22:09,600 --> 01:22:13,479
Speaker 4: I put this, It's almost like it's almost like I'm

1496
01:22:13,640 --> 01:22:20,120
Speaker 4: expecting myself to look after the other person so much

1497
01:22:20,240 --> 01:22:26,519
Speaker 4: that I and I'm expecting myself that I'm afraid of

1498
01:22:27,720 --> 01:22:32,519
Speaker 4: fucking things up, and I'm afraid, like afraid that like I'm

1499
01:22:32,640 --> 01:22:36,639
Speaker 4: taking on so much responsibility there that I'm not giving

1500
01:22:36,640 --> 01:22:40,800
Speaker 4: myself a chance to be open, if that makes sense,

1501
01:22:44,479 --> 01:22:51,120
Speaker 4: Like I'm taking it so seriously that I don't, like

1502
01:22:51,479 --> 01:22:54,040
Speaker 4: I'm I'm not relaxed. I'm not I'm not I'm not

1503
01:22:54,120 --> 01:22:59,320
Speaker 4: myself So how could how could somebody get to know

1504
01:22:59,400 --> 01:23:02,599
Speaker 4: me like that? Be pretty tough?

1505
01:23:03,680 --> 01:23:07,400
Speaker 2: It is tough. It's a tough journey. It's a long journey.

1506
01:23:07,479 --> 01:23:10,559
Speaker 2: I'm not good at it. Necessarily a lot of people

1507
01:23:10,600 --> 01:23:12,400
Speaker 2: aren't good at it. It's a tough thing. It's a

1508
01:23:12,439 --> 01:23:15,599
Speaker 2: tough thing to not only be yourself, be yourself. Actually

1509
01:23:16,240 --> 01:23:17,680
Speaker 2: it's that's that's only one part of it. You got

1510
01:23:17,760 --> 01:23:20,920
Speaker 2: to be yourself with an accurately present yourself honestly to

1511
01:23:21,000 --> 01:23:22,200
Speaker 2: the world, which is tough to do.

1512
01:23:22,800 --> 01:23:23,000
Speaker 4: You know.

1513
01:23:23,000 --> 01:23:24,439
Speaker 2: I'm still trying to figure out how to do that.

1514
01:23:24,880 --> 01:23:27,360
Speaker 2: You know, it's a scary thing, but you know that's

1515
01:23:27,360 --> 01:23:29,360
Speaker 2: your mission, that's your homework, that's your goal.

1516
01:23:30,439 --> 01:23:30,679
Speaker 12: Mac.

1517
01:23:33,439 --> 01:23:37,080
Speaker 4: Could you make that a little bit more specific for me?

1518
01:23:38,120 --> 01:23:43,360
Speaker 2: I could? I wish I could, Mac.

1519
01:23:44,920 --> 01:23:45,639
Speaker 4: H what's up?

1520
01:23:45,640 --> 01:23:48,720
Speaker 2: Listen, man, I appreciate you calling. I appreciate you being

1521
01:23:48,800 --> 01:23:52,840
Speaker 2: vulnerable with us right now. I hope that you know.

1522
01:23:52,920 --> 01:23:56,320
Speaker 2: I'm I'm I am, I am honored. I'm grateful that

1523
01:23:56,880 --> 01:23:58,800
Speaker 2: you know you feel comfortable to share all this with us.

1524
01:23:58,920 --> 01:24:00,880
Speaker 2: And uh look o, the best of luck and I

1525
01:24:00,920 --> 01:24:02,080
Speaker 2: hope you have a good rest of the night.

1526
01:24:03,439 --> 01:24:04,360
Speaker 4: Thank you for listening.

1527
01:24:04,720 --> 01:24:06,080
Speaker 2: Of course, Mack, you have a rest of the night.

1528
01:24:07,000 --> 01:24:07,400
Speaker 4: Take care.

1529
01:24:10,800 --> 01:24:19,720
Speaker 2: Mac. Well, that was fifteen minutes long. I've lost all

1530
01:24:19,840 --> 01:24:20,840
Speaker 2: track of time.

1531
01:24:21,160 --> 01:24:25,320
Speaker 1: All from Alfred, Alfred.

1532
01:24:25,400 --> 01:24:26,519
Speaker 2: Thank you an actual bank go on.

1533
01:24:26,640 --> 01:24:37,000
Speaker 16: Alfred, Hello, Hi, how you doing?

1534
01:24:40,280 --> 01:24:40,719
Speaker 2: Alfred.

1535
01:24:40,760 --> 01:24:41,040
Speaker 6: Is that you?

1536
01:24:42,120 --> 01:24:42,880
Speaker 12: Yeah, this is me.

1537
01:24:43,080 --> 01:24:43,759
Speaker 4: I'm Alfred.

1538
01:24:44,600 --> 01:24:45,200
Speaker 2: You're Alfred.

1539
01:24:46,320 --> 01:24:52,479
Speaker 12: Yeah, I'm Alfred really yeah, yeah, that's what my parents

1540
01:24:52,560 --> 01:24:52,920
Speaker 12: named me.

1541
01:24:53,720 --> 01:24:55,200
Speaker 2: Can you turn stream off? Alfred?

1542
01:24:56,560 --> 01:24:57,040
Speaker 18: Can I hear?

1543
01:24:57,080 --> 01:24:57,280
Speaker 4: What?

1544
01:24:57,640 --> 01:24:58,840
Speaker 2: Can you turn your stream off?

1545
01:24:59,560 --> 01:25:04,680
Speaker 12: I'm sorry, I'm sorry about that. Yeah, there we go.

1546
01:25:05,360 --> 01:25:06,800
Speaker 2: You know what I like about doing this stream is

1547
01:25:07,280 --> 01:25:08,920
Speaker 2: sometimes I really, you know, I know that I'm like

1548
01:25:08,960 --> 01:25:12,439
Speaker 2: broadcasting myself. It's an interesting thing that goes on in

1549
01:25:12,439 --> 01:25:14,320
Speaker 2: my mind when I'm doing this, Alfred, which is that,

1550
01:25:14,400 --> 01:25:16,600
Speaker 2: you know, sometimes you know, I am acutely aware of

1551
01:25:16,600 --> 01:25:19,880
Speaker 2: the fact that I'm broadcasting myself to people, and which

1552
01:25:19,960 --> 01:25:21,840
Speaker 2: you know, in a lot of sense would like make

1553
01:25:21,880 --> 01:25:23,880
Speaker 2: you feel as though you're watched. But I get this

1554
01:25:23,960 --> 01:25:27,519
Speaker 2: weird thing where like I actually feel I actually don't

1555
01:25:27,520 --> 01:25:30,040
Speaker 2: feel like people are watching, and so I feel like

1556
01:25:30,160 --> 01:25:31,960
Speaker 2: I'm able to enter this, you know, if I really

1557
01:25:32,000 --> 01:25:34,639
Speaker 2: want to, a sort of dream like state in which

1558
01:25:34,680 --> 01:25:38,559
Speaker 2: the conversation that we're having is, you know, can flow

1559
01:25:38,600 --> 01:25:41,559
Speaker 2: in whatever direction that we would We would like it too,

1560
01:25:41,680 --> 01:25:46,040
Speaker 2: similar to to a lucid dream, in which the elements

1561
01:25:46,680 --> 01:25:50,120
Speaker 2: can you know, be under your control and don't necessarily

1562
01:25:50,160 --> 01:25:53,000
Speaker 2: have to make a you know, coherent sense by the

1563
01:25:53,040 --> 01:25:54,400
Speaker 2: logic of reality.

1564
01:25:56,479 --> 01:25:59,640
Speaker 18: Yeah, I feel that, man, I totally feel that, Like

1565
01:26:00,120 --> 01:26:02,800
Speaker 18: I think that's how every conversation should go, you know,

1566
01:26:03,800 --> 01:26:06,599
Speaker 18: but it doesn't sometimes mm hmm yeah.

1567
01:26:07,200 --> 01:26:09,200
Speaker 2: Sometimes, you know, you know, we could have a whole

1568
01:26:09,240 --> 01:26:11,400
Speaker 2: conversation and then afterwards, it's like it doesn't even like

1569
01:26:11,479 --> 01:26:14,800
Speaker 2: it can happen, similar to a dream. You know. I've

1570
01:26:14,840 --> 01:26:16,920
Speaker 2: had experiences like that where you know, you go, you

1571
01:26:16,960 --> 01:26:18,200
Speaker 2: do a whole thing, and it doesn't eve feel like

1572
01:26:18,200 --> 01:26:21,400
Speaker 2: it can happen. Every time. Life feels like a dream sometimes.

1573
01:26:22,320 --> 01:26:22,920
Speaker 2: Do you feel that?

1574
01:26:23,240 --> 01:26:25,439
Speaker 12: How do you What do you think about deja vu?

1575
01:26:25,520 --> 01:26:26,240
Speaker 12: I'm sorry about that?

1576
01:26:27,360 --> 01:26:27,960
Speaker 2: What are you sorry?

1577
01:26:27,960 --> 01:26:28,160
Speaker 4: Then?

1578
01:26:29,560 --> 01:26:32,280
Speaker 12: But I feel like I cut you off like a

1579
01:26:32,920 --> 01:26:35,559
Speaker 12: little earlier over there. No, no, no, I don't like

1580
01:26:35,560 --> 01:26:36,400
Speaker 12: cutting people off.

1581
01:26:37,120 --> 01:26:37,240
Speaker 4: Now.

1582
01:26:37,360 --> 01:26:39,280
Speaker 2: Look, dude, Look we're talking on the phone right now,

1583
01:26:39,400 --> 01:26:41,720
Speaker 2: and there's a lot of technology. I can't read your

1584
01:26:41,720 --> 01:26:45,360
Speaker 2: body language, I can't look at your face, and but

1585
01:26:45,400 --> 01:26:47,000
Speaker 2: I actually think that that's good. I feel as though

1586
01:26:47,040 --> 01:26:51,559
Speaker 2: we can. I you know, I have less less variables

1587
01:26:51,560 --> 01:26:53,880
Speaker 2: that are influencing the way that I approach you as

1588
01:26:53,880 --> 01:26:57,160
Speaker 2: a person, because we're all sort of on an equal

1589
01:26:57,280 --> 01:27:00,559
Speaker 2: playing field here. You know. I feel like if you

1590
01:27:00,600 --> 01:27:05,040
Speaker 2: were like, you know, like like six foot tall and

1591
01:27:06,479 --> 01:27:08,599
Speaker 2: had a beard, maybe I would treat you differently than

1592
01:27:08,640 --> 01:27:14,559
Speaker 2: if you were like wearing a pink shirt and flip

1593
01:27:14,600 --> 01:27:17,559
Speaker 2: flops and had a I don't know. I don't know

1594
01:27:17,560 --> 01:27:18,160
Speaker 2: what I'm saying.

1595
01:27:19,000 --> 01:27:20,200
Speaker 4: No, I kind of do know.

1596
01:27:21,560 --> 01:27:24,080
Speaker 16: No, I I guess Alfred.

1597
01:27:24,160 --> 01:27:25,080
Speaker 2: You said your name was.

1598
01:27:26,400 --> 01:27:29,600
Speaker 12: Alfred Alfred E.

1599
01:27:29,760 --> 01:27:30,800
Speaker 4: Newman? Is that?

1600
01:27:31,280 --> 01:27:32,080
Speaker 12: Is that a scientist?

1601
01:27:32,120 --> 01:27:33,920
Speaker 2: But some of the chat said so tall I was,

1602
01:27:33,960 --> 01:27:38,680
Speaker 2: I'm five six Alfred E. K Newman. He is the

1603
01:27:38,920 --> 01:27:40,680
Speaker 2: mascot of Mad magazine.

1604
01:27:42,400 --> 01:27:45,599
Speaker 18: Mad like Mad TV or Mad TV.

1605
01:27:45,439 --> 01:27:47,680
Speaker 2: Is based off of Mad magazine, which Alfred.

1606
01:27:47,479 --> 01:27:52,160
Speaker 16: Y, Yeah, the mascot, the guy with the big smile

1607
01:27:52,280 --> 01:27:55,160
Speaker 16: right with the orange chair, I think, or brown hair.

1608
01:27:56,640 --> 01:28:04,000
Speaker 2: How's your love life guy, It's.

1609
01:28:03,840 --> 01:28:10,480
Speaker 12: Good, it's going, it's going well. I guess.

1610
01:28:10,840 --> 01:28:11,080
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1611
01:28:12,040 --> 01:28:14,760
Speaker 12: See anyway, Yeah, I can't complain.

1612
01:28:14,439 --> 01:28:24,599
Speaker 2: To be honest, you know, perfect, perfect Alfred.

1613
01:28:24,680 --> 01:28:26,240
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yes.

1614
01:28:27,040 --> 01:28:28,639
Speaker 2: Do you feel as though you got what you wanted

1615
01:28:28,680 --> 01:28:31,639
Speaker 2: to live this conversation or did you even want anything

1616
01:28:31,640 --> 01:28:36,680
Speaker 2: out of this conversation, in which case you would have

1617
01:28:36,680 --> 01:28:38,920
Speaker 2: gotten what you wanted at this conversation, which was nothing

1618
01:28:38,920 --> 01:28:40,599
Speaker 2: in particular, because you received.

1619
01:28:40,800 --> 01:28:42,960
Speaker 12: I don't know what I wanted out this conversation, to

1620
01:28:43,040 --> 01:28:45,400
Speaker 12: be honest, I just wanted to talk to you, and

1621
01:28:45,479 --> 01:28:47,320
Speaker 12: you know, shoot the ship, you know.

1622
01:28:49,200 --> 01:28:51,760
Speaker 2: It was I think this was nice. I enjoyed talking

1623
01:28:51,760 --> 01:28:53,120
Speaker 2: to you, Alfred. You know, you seemed as though you

1624
01:28:53,120 --> 01:28:55,600
Speaker 2: were willing to go in with every direction that I

1625
01:28:55,600 --> 01:28:59,599
Speaker 2: I sort of, I sort of, you know, I wanted

1626
01:28:59,680 --> 01:29:01,759
Speaker 2: to go and uh, you know, I appreciate that energy

1627
01:29:01,880 --> 01:29:07,080
Speaker 2: that you have You've shown me. You know, it's general from.

1628
01:29:06,920 --> 01:29:11,000
Speaker 12: Philly, if that does anything.

1629
01:29:11,400 --> 01:29:13,960
Speaker 2: I don't know you're from phillyre do you or do

1630
01:29:14,000 --> 01:29:14,720
Speaker 2: you live there right now?

1631
01:29:15,960 --> 01:29:16,160
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1632
01:29:16,240 --> 01:29:17,479
Speaker 12: I lived here in my whole life.

1633
01:29:18,200 --> 01:29:18,920
Speaker 2: What part of philu?

1634
01:29:20,280 --> 01:29:20,400
Speaker 16: Uh?

1635
01:29:20,479 --> 01:29:21,480
Speaker 12: North Philadelphia?

1636
01:29:21,880 --> 01:29:24,080
Speaker 2: No, it's Philadelphia. That's why I lived in North Philadelphia

1637
01:29:24,120 --> 01:29:25,679
Speaker 2: for three or four years.

1638
01:29:26,680 --> 01:29:26,960
Speaker 12: I love.

1639
01:29:27,240 --> 01:29:28,559
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's great city.

1640
01:29:28,840 --> 01:29:31,120
Speaker 12: We went to the same college I think we did.

1641
01:29:32,400 --> 01:29:38,040
Speaker 12: Yeah did we Did you go to double I think yeah? Yeah?

1642
01:29:38,600 --> 01:29:40,960
Speaker 2: Universally? What did you study there?

1643
01:29:42,160 --> 01:29:42,280
Speaker 16: Uh?

1644
01:29:42,840 --> 01:29:45,040
Speaker 12: Fucking useless degree? Marketing?

1645
01:29:46,600 --> 01:29:49,160
Speaker 2: Marketing? What year did you graduate?

1646
01:29:50,560 --> 01:29:53,360
Speaker 12: I graduated twenty eighteen.

1647
01:29:54,800 --> 01:29:59,559
Speaker 2: Oh okay, all right, yeah, no, mm hmm.

1648
01:30:01,040 --> 01:30:02,840
Speaker 12: I'm trying to get out of here. To be honest,

1649
01:30:02,640 --> 01:30:04,320
Speaker 12: I don't really like Philly anymore.

1650
01:30:05,200 --> 01:30:08,839
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, where do you want to go? New York? La? Uh,

1651
01:30:08,920 --> 01:30:11,839
Speaker 2: Chicago to you to Tokyo.

1652
01:30:13,040 --> 01:30:15,240
Speaker 12: I have not been to Tokyo. I would love to go,

1653
01:30:15,439 --> 01:30:18,479
Speaker 12: but you know, one day, that's.

1654
01:30:18,320 --> 01:30:20,040
Speaker 2: What That's what everyone always says, and then they die.

1655
01:30:22,320 --> 01:30:24,840
Speaker 12: I really want to go like cross country on the

1656
01:30:25,040 --> 01:30:27,240
Speaker 12: r V and just like live on the road and

1657
01:30:27,280 --> 01:30:29,280
Speaker 12: just like see places. That would be cool.

1658
01:30:29,720 --> 01:30:30,920
Speaker 2: I just got back from doing that.

1659
01:30:31,479 --> 01:30:31,680
Speaker 4: I was.

1660
01:30:31,760 --> 01:30:33,320
Speaker 2: I lived on the road for like five months out

1661
01:30:33,320 --> 01:30:34,760
Speaker 2: of a not out of an RV, but out of

1662
01:30:34,760 --> 01:30:36,160
Speaker 2: a out of a sedan.

1663
01:30:37,600 --> 01:30:41,240
Speaker 12: Out of the saedan. That's hard, that's tough. My back

1664
01:30:41,280 --> 01:30:41,760
Speaker 12: would hurt.

1665
01:30:42,520 --> 01:30:44,600
Speaker 2: No, we weren't. I mean we were living in that.

1666
01:30:44,680 --> 01:30:45,800
Speaker 2: We stayed in airbnds.

1667
01:30:45,880 --> 01:30:49,400
Speaker 12: But you know, ah m hmm.

1668
01:30:55,360 --> 01:30:57,000
Speaker 2: Let me tell you something about going to see the

1669
01:30:57,040 --> 01:31:01,519
Speaker 2: country is just you know, everyone's gonna look, everyone's gonna

1670
01:31:01,520 --> 01:31:03,840
Speaker 2: tell you all this ship of like you know, oh, man,

1671
01:31:05,200 --> 01:31:07,760
Speaker 2: go to go to Oregon. It's so beautiful. Oh go

1672
01:31:07,800 --> 01:31:11,639
Speaker 2: to Arizona. Look, everywhere in the entire world is exactly

1673
01:31:11,640 --> 01:31:17,519
Speaker 2: the same. And look, save yourself some money. Just go

1674
01:31:17,560 --> 01:31:21,840
Speaker 2: to Google images, type in Arizona. Look at the tractresses there.

1675
01:31:21,920 --> 01:31:22,880
Speaker 2: It's the same thing.

1676
01:31:24,240 --> 01:31:25,719
Speaker 12: We don't have mountains in Philey.

1677
01:31:25,920 --> 01:31:26,360
Speaker 1: I'm like.

1678
01:31:27,840 --> 01:31:28,280
Speaker 6: A beach.

1679
01:31:30,720 --> 01:31:34,599
Speaker 2: Uh No, I'm just kidding. It's actually pretty beautiful. There's

1680
01:31:34,600 --> 01:31:37,160
Speaker 2: a lot of cool stuff there. Well, are you gonna

1681
01:31:37,160 --> 01:31:38,920
Speaker 2: do it? You're gonna go cross country? What's stopping? You

1682
01:31:39,040 --> 01:31:39,920
Speaker 2: got a job? Quit it?

1683
01:31:41,200 --> 01:31:46,600
Speaker 12: Man, that's I need a job to do what. I

1684
01:31:46,600 --> 01:31:48,720
Speaker 12: don't know what I want to do to be honest, do.

1685
01:31:48,720 --> 01:31:50,000
Speaker 2: You where do you live? Do you live in with

1686
01:31:50,040 --> 01:31:52,479
Speaker 2: your mom or do you live in in the house

1687
01:31:52,600 --> 01:31:53,200
Speaker 2: that you pay for?

1688
01:31:53,600 --> 01:31:53,800
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1689
01:31:53,800 --> 01:31:54,719
Speaker 12: I live with my mom.

1690
01:31:55,000 --> 01:31:55,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, oh you do?

1691
01:31:55,920 --> 01:31:56,960
Speaker 2: All right? So what do you need money for?

1692
01:31:58,360 --> 01:32:01,920
Speaker 12: Do I need money for to have, you know, have

1693
01:32:02,000 --> 01:32:04,559
Speaker 12: my own apartment and put things in it and just

1694
01:32:04,680 --> 01:32:09,160
Speaker 12: like cook cook food and just like learn the the

1695
01:32:09,960 --> 01:32:12,439
Speaker 12: how to be an adult. You know, I think I

1696
01:32:12,479 --> 01:32:12,960
Speaker 12: need to do that.

1697
01:32:13,680 --> 01:32:15,439
Speaker 2: I respect that. I respect that. I respect that.

1698
01:32:16,560 --> 01:32:17,320
Speaker 12: Yeah.

1699
01:32:19,120 --> 01:32:21,000
Speaker 2: Well for listen, tell your mom I said, hello, she

1700
01:32:21,040 --> 01:32:23,519
Speaker 2: seems like a nice lady. She birthed a very nice son.

1701
01:32:23,720 --> 01:32:26,799
Speaker 2: And shout.

1702
01:32:29,000 --> 01:32:33,040
Speaker 18: Thank you so much, Lyle of course, positive energy, Thank

1703
01:32:33,080 --> 01:32:33,320
Speaker 18: you man.

1704
01:32:33,320 --> 01:32:34,040
Speaker 2: You have a give us a night.

1705
01:32:35,080 --> 01:32:37,120
Speaker 12: Have a good one.

1706
01:32:38,880 --> 01:32:43,560
Speaker 6: All from Allen Alan.

1707
01:32:46,760 --> 01:32:51,280
Speaker 22: Hello, Alan, Oh my god, I got.

1708
01:32:51,240 --> 01:32:56,080
Speaker 2: On, Alan, Alan, Alan, Alan.

1709
01:32:55,880 --> 01:32:58,679
Speaker 6: Allen, this is awesome.

1710
01:32:59,760 --> 01:33:03,240
Speaker 2: Why, Hi, we haven't done anything yet. I'm so, I don't, Alan,

1711
01:33:03,360 --> 01:33:11,679
Speaker 2: I've we've I've I haven't even I'm I'm, I'm, I'm look,

1712
01:33:11,760 --> 01:33:16,920
Speaker 2: I'm grateful, Alan, But I mean is I'm I'm I'm

1713
01:33:16,960 --> 01:33:19,479
Speaker 2: glad to hear I'm glad to hear that, Alan, I'm

1714
01:33:19,479 --> 01:33:22,080
Speaker 2: glad to hear that. Why is it awesome? Tell me more?

1715
01:33:24,280 --> 01:33:28,040
Speaker 22: It's my first time calling, and I got on.

1716
01:33:29,280 --> 01:33:29,600
Speaker 3: You're on.

1717
01:33:30,560 --> 01:33:35,160
Speaker 2: You're on, Alan, I'm on, You're on. Everyone's on. Tonight's

1718
01:33:35,160 --> 01:33:42,080
Speaker 2: the ninth. Bring it up? Do it up? Big? Alan?

1719
01:33:43,479 --> 01:33:43,719
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1720
01:33:44,720 --> 01:33:46,800
Speaker 2: Would you? What did you want to talk about? Alan?

1721
01:33:48,800 --> 01:33:51,639
Speaker 4: Uh? What I want to talk about?

1722
01:33:52,360 --> 01:33:57,880
Speaker 21: MH, I have a I have a bad habit of

1723
01:33:58,600 --> 01:34:06,320
Speaker 21: eating bad food intentionally m in order to avoid food

1724
01:34:06,320 --> 01:34:07,760
Speaker 21: poisoning accidentally.

1725
01:34:11,320 --> 01:34:14,439
Speaker 2: Now what does that mean?

1726
01:34:17,439 --> 01:34:22,360
Speaker 22: Well, you know when something's like slight way old or expired. Well,

1727
01:34:23,000 --> 01:34:27,160
Speaker 22: you know, I just I feel like explation dates. You know,

1728
01:34:27,280 --> 01:34:28,800
Speaker 22: it's just a suggestion.

1729
01:34:31,280 --> 01:34:34,679
Speaker 2: You intentionally eat bad food. You okay, but you said

1730
01:34:34,720 --> 01:34:39,080
Speaker 2: you eat bad food to avoid food poisoning, which is counterintuitive.

1731
01:34:41,479 --> 01:34:43,840
Speaker 22: Well, yeah, in case if I do it, you know, accidentally,

1732
01:34:50,080 --> 01:34:51,799
Speaker 22: my wife says, I have an iron stomach.

1733
01:34:53,000 --> 01:34:57,240
Speaker 2: You eat bad food to avoid eating bad food. You

1734
01:34:57,320 --> 01:35:02,120
Speaker 2: eat bad food intentionally to avoid eating bad food accidentally.

1735
01:35:05,120 --> 01:35:06,760
Speaker 22: In order to not get sick.

1736
01:35:06,840 --> 01:35:09,000
Speaker 2: Yes, you know what. What's your name again?

1737
01:35:10,080 --> 01:35:10,400
Speaker 4: Alan?

1738
01:35:10,960 --> 01:35:17,840
Speaker 2: Alan? I'm so sick of the conventions of society that

1739
01:35:18,520 --> 01:35:22,719
Speaker 2: trick us into believing that every thing that we say

1740
01:35:23,280 --> 01:35:27,040
Speaker 2: has to make complete and other sense. I truly am

1741
01:35:27,200 --> 01:35:31,759
Speaker 2: and I believe that you know, while what you're saying

1742
01:35:31,840 --> 01:35:35,920
Speaker 2: doesn't make any sense at all, I admire you. I'm

1743
01:35:35,920 --> 01:35:39,240
Speaker 2: being dead serious right now. I admire you as a

1744
01:35:39,360 --> 01:35:48,120
Speaker 2: valiant soldier against this convention that everything that everyone says

1745
01:35:48,120 --> 01:35:50,080
Speaker 2: has to make sense all the time. It really is,

1746
01:35:50,200 --> 01:35:54,400
Speaker 2: it's manufactured to make us feel alone. Alan, You know,

1747
01:35:54,600 --> 01:35:57,360
Speaker 2: you ever watch a TV show? What you just said?

1748
01:35:57,960 --> 01:36:01,040
Speaker 2: No one would ever say on a TV show, because

1749
01:36:01,080 --> 01:36:03,960
Speaker 2: if someone wrote that down and tried to make someone

1750
01:36:04,000 --> 01:36:06,200
Speaker 2: on a TV show say it, and it would they'd

1751
01:36:06,200 --> 01:36:08,040
Speaker 2: have to pitch it in a room full of people,

1752
01:36:08,360 --> 01:36:09,920
Speaker 2: and then the guy at the head of the room

1753
01:36:09,920 --> 01:36:12,920
Speaker 2: would be like, what the fuck does that mean? And

1754
01:36:12,960 --> 01:36:15,479
Speaker 2: then it would never make it on But and then,

1755
01:36:15,560 --> 01:36:17,760
Speaker 2: and now you're alone in that thought. But I don't

1756
01:36:17,800 --> 01:36:19,880
Speaker 2: want you to be alone in that thought, because why

1757
01:36:20,560 --> 01:36:22,479
Speaker 2: should you have to be alone in that thought? Just

1758
01:36:22,520 --> 01:36:26,080
Speaker 2: because apparently everything everyone says has to make sense. I

1759
01:36:26,160 --> 01:36:31,080
Speaker 2: don't think it does. What Why why does everything everyone

1760
01:36:31,120 --> 01:36:31,960
Speaker 2: says have to make sense?

1761
01:36:32,120 --> 01:36:32,320
Speaker 4: Man?

1762
01:36:33,240 --> 01:36:35,080
Speaker 2: Say it again? Say what you tell me? Tell me

1763
01:36:35,120 --> 01:36:35,960
Speaker 2: again what you just told me?

1764
01:36:39,600 --> 01:36:45,519
Speaker 22: Well, basically, so I feel like just a suggestion, and

1765
01:36:45,640 --> 01:36:50,200
Speaker 22: so I eat bad suit intentionally mm hmm in case

1766
01:36:50,240 --> 01:36:52,120
Speaker 22: if I do it accidentally, I don't get sick.

1767
01:36:53,439 --> 01:37:04,040
Speaker 2: Yes, say say that again? Thousand people listen to this again?

1768
01:37:05,200 --> 01:37:10,120
Speaker 2: Not I want? Why do you Alan? Do you? Alan?

1769
01:37:10,320 --> 01:37:12,160
Speaker 2: I'm not making fun of you. I know that to

1770
01:37:12,200 --> 01:37:14,759
Speaker 2: an untrained I know it might seem like I'm swear

1771
01:37:14,800 --> 01:37:17,160
Speaker 2: on my fucking life. I'm not making fun of you

1772
01:37:17,240 --> 01:37:21,720
Speaker 2: right now. I appreciate you genuinely. Who are you with?

1773
01:37:23,439 --> 01:37:25,479
Speaker 6: I'm with my wife, you're with your wife?

1774
01:37:33,120 --> 01:37:33,320
Speaker 2: You know?

1775
01:37:33,360 --> 01:37:33,439
Speaker 4: What?

1776
01:37:33,560 --> 01:37:34,799
Speaker 22: Does I have an iron stomach?

1777
01:37:35,479 --> 01:37:37,160
Speaker 2: Good? Has talk?

1778
01:37:37,200 --> 01:37:39,400
Speaker 4: Sword? Sure?

1779
01:37:40,160 --> 01:37:41,559
Speaker 2: I'd love to I love to doctor?

1780
01:37:42,640 --> 01:37:43,639
Speaker 4: Hell? Hey?

1781
01:37:43,680 --> 01:37:47,040
Speaker 2: What's your name? I'm hope, Hope.

1782
01:37:47,040 --> 01:37:49,120
Speaker 12: How are you good?

1783
01:37:49,200 --> 01:37:49,920
Speaker 17: How about you?

1784
01:37:50,560 --> 01:37:54,320
Speaker 2: I'm doing amazing, Hope. What's what's your favorite thing about? Alan?

1785
01:37:54,400 --> 01:37:54,680
Speaker 4: What? What?

1786
01:37:54,960 --> 01:37:55,439
Speaker 12: Uh?

1787
01:37:55,920 --> 01:37:56,880
Speaker 2: Why did you marry him?

1788
01:37:56,880 --> 01:37:56,960
Speaker 14: What?

1789
01:37:57,000 --> 01:37:59,040
Speaker 2: Does your what's been keeping your relationship alive?

1790
01:38:01,120 --> 01:38:05,680
Speaker 17: He just makes me laugh like no one else I

1791
01:38:05,720 --> 01:38:07,400
Speaker 17: don't know, And no one else can put up with me.

1792
01:38:08,479 --> 01:38:10,080
Speaker 2: No one else can put up with you? Put put

1793
01:38:10,160 --> 01:38:11,280
Speaker 2: up with what about you?

1794
01:38:11,520 --> 01:38:11,600
Speaker 4: Do?

1795
01:38:11,680 --> 01:38:12,960
Speaker 2: People have trouble putting up with.

1796
01:38:15,960 --> 01:38:17,200
Speaker 17: I can be kind of crazy?

1797
01:38:18,400 --> 01:38:23,639
Speaker 2: Interesting? In what way? Can you be kind of crazy?

1798
01:38:24,280 --> 01:38:24,720
Speaker 4: I don't know.

1799
01:38:24,840 --> 01:38:26,400
Speaker 17: I like to have mental breakdowns?

1800
01:38:27,439 --> 01:38:32,759
Speaker 2: Sure? Sure, okay? So how does how does handle you

1801
01:38:32,880 --> 01:38:38,680
Speaker 2: when you are quote acting crazy?

1802
01:38:39,160 --> 01:38:43,560
Speaker 17: He kind of just ignores me, and yeah, it just works.

1803
01:38:43,760 --> 01:38:46,479
Speaker 2: And ignores you and it works. Is that what you do?

1804
01:38:46,520 --> 01:38:48,400
Speaker 2: You do you like the fact that he ignores you?

1805
01:38:48,439 --> 01:38:48,840
Speaker 6: Would you.

1806
01:38:50,280 --> 01:38:53,360
Speaker 2: Would you prefer not ignore you? Or or it sounds

1807
01:38:53,360 --> 01:38:54,960
Speaker 2: as though the system that you two have in place

1808
01:38:54,960 --> 01:38:57,000
Speaker 2: has been working for both of you. As far as

1809
01:38:57,000 --> 01:39:01,280
Speaker 2: you've presented this to me, he.

1810
01:39:01,200 --> 01:39:04,280
Speaker 17: Doesn't like to say anything mean about it, and he's like,

1811
01:39:05,320 --> 01:39:08,360
Speaker 17: so it works.

1812
01:39:08,800 --> 01:39:13,240
Speaker 2: The absence of him doing anything negative is enough. You

1813
01:39:13,240 --> 01:39:20,840
Speaker 2: don't desire for him to do anything actively positive in response? Yeah, okay,

1814
01:39:20,840 --> 01:39:22,479
Speaker 2: that's fine, I mean I understand that. Look, if you're

1815
01:39:22,520 --> 01:39:24,599
Speaker 2: if you're quote as you said in your own words,

1816
01:39:24,640 --> 01:39:26,759
Speaker 2: going crazy, maybe you just want to be left alone.

1817
01:39:27,000 --> 01:39:33,720
Speaker 2: I understand that that's that's completely valid. You know that

1818
01:39:33,840 --> 01:39:36,000
Speaker 2: it's I know, you know again again to the untrained,

1819
01:39:36,040 --> 01:39:38,320
Speaker 2: diet might seem as though there's something wrong, but this

1820
01:39:38,439 --> 01:39:43,080
Speaker 2: is just the product of two people who are complex

1821
01:39:44,920 --> 01:39:47,360
Speaker 2: who have found each other and learn to understand each

1822
01:39:47,360 --> 01:39:52,080
Speaker 2: other and their complexities and maneuver. I'm impressed, I am.

1823
01:39:52,280 --> 01:39:53,479
Speaker 2: I think you have a good relationship.

1824
01:39:53,560 --> 01:39:58,599
Speaker 17: Yeah, I mean yeah, I don't think anyone else would

1825
01:39:58,600 --> 01:40:01,760
Speaker 17: be able to handle. But I don't know, I don't

1826
01:40:01,760 --> 01:40:02,720
Speaker 17: know how to explain it.

1827
01:40:03,240 --> 01:40:11,000
Speaker 2: That's okay, what your husband told me that he he

1828
01:40:11,360 --> 01:40:17,519
Speaker 2: and your husband told me that he intentionally eats food

1829
01:40:17,560 --> 01:40:22,720
Speaker 2: that has gone bad so that he does not accidentally

1830
01:40:22,840 --> 01:40:28,880
Speaker 2: eat food that has gone bad. Can you explain any

1831
01:40:28,920 --> 01:40:30,560
Speaker 2: further what that means.

1832
01:40:31,640 --> 01:40:34,400
Speaker 17: That he's stupid and is gonna get some kind of

1833
01:40:34,479 --> 01:40:38,360
Speaker 17: poisoning some day. No, there was one I remember when

1834
01:40:38,360 --> 01:40:41,479
Speaker 17: we first got together. We went to the Mexican restaurant

1835
01:40:41,520 --> 01:40:44,479
Speaker 17: and he had leftovers and I found out that he

1836
01:40:44,880 --> 01:40:47,719
Speaker 17: ate like two week old leftovers.

1837
01:40:48,040 --> 01:40:48,680
Speaker 13: And I don't know.

1838
01:40:48,640 --> 01:40:54,360
Speaker 17: How he survived that, because I think that's disgusting, and

1839
01:40:54,439 --> 01:40:56,479
Speaker 17: it was it was chicken, So there's like no way

1840
01:40:56,680 --> 01:41:03,120
Speaker 17: it was any good, and.

1841
01:41:03,120 --> 01:41:05,800
Speaker 2: Yet you continue to love him?

1842
01:41:05,880 --> 01:41:08,280
Speaker 17: Yes, I mean why not?

1843
01:41:09,680 --> 01:41:14,080
Speaker 2: Why not? Is that what you said when he first

1844
01:41:14,080 --> 01:41:16,280
Speaker 2: asked you to marry him?

1845
01:41:16,800 --> 01:41:17,040
Speaker 4: No?

1846
01:41:17,920 --> 01:41:22,640
Speaker 17: No, I said yes, well obviously, but I like I

1847
01:41:23,080 --> 01:41:24,280
Speaker 17: pretty much only said yes.

1848
01:41:26,200 --> 01:41:35,680
Speaker 2: Okay, mhm, tears so interesting? What else still want to

1849
01:41:35,720 --> 01:41:39,400
Speaker 2: know about you? Guys? I like you guys? What else

1850
01:41:39,439 --> 01:41:41,000
Speaker 2: could I know about you guys? What else should we

1851
01:41:41,040 --> 01:41:41,600
Speaker 2: all know about you?

1852
01:41:41,640 --> 01:41:41,880
Speaker 4: Guys?

1853
01:41:43,040 --> 01:41:44,840
Speaker 17: I don't know what should they know about us? Allen?

1854
01:41:45,280 --> 01:41:50,679
Speaker 17: How'd you mean, oh, we have a snake, a pet snake?

1855
01:41:51,320 --> 01:41:53,040
Speaker 2: Of course you have a pet snake. Already knew that.

1856
01:41:53,840 --> 01:41:54,760
Speaker 2: I already assumed that.

1857
01:41:56,080 --> 01:41:56,880
Speaker 17: Oh, I don't know.

1858
01:41:56,880 --> 01:42:00,160
Speaker 2: Why did you ask.

1859
01:42:02,400 --> 01:42:02,960
Speaker 16: Online?

1860
01:42:03,240 --> 01:42:03,759
Speaker 17: On tender?

1861
01:42:05,960 --> 01:42:06,439
Speaker 10: Yeah?

1862
01:42:06,640 --> 01:42:13,760
Speaker 2: And what in two sixteen sixteen? Okause, you guys have

1863
01:42:14,520 --> 01:42:17,080
Speaker 2: been together for about five years?

1864
01:42:17,280 --> 01:42:17,759
Speaker 17: Yeah?

1865
01:42:17,920 --> 01:42:19,400
Speaker 2: What was the first thing you said to him or

1866
01:42:19,439 --> 01:42:22,519
Speaker 2: he said to you via the tender messaging?

1867
01:42:23,960 --> 01:42:31,800
Speaker 17: I have no idea. And then I don't remember, but

1868
01:42:32,240 --> 01:42:35,679
Speaker 17: I know we added each other on Snapchat soon after,

1869
01:42:36,560 --> 01:42:38,280
Speaker 17: and I just found out the other day, which I

1870
01:42:38,360 --> 01:42:40,760
Speaker 17: don't remember, that he stopped talking to me for a

1871
01:42:40,760 --> 01:42:42,680
Speaker 17: couple of weeks because he was trying to decide to

1872
01:42:42,760 --> 01:42:43,880
Speaker 17: bid me and another girl.

1873
01:42:45,720 --> 01:42:46,320
Speaker 2: He told you that?

1874
01:42:47,640 --> 01:42:49,880
Speaker 17: Yeah, he told me that, but I don't remember him

1875
01:42:50,080 --> 01:42:52,120
Speaker 17: not talking to me, So I don't know.

1876
01:42:52,720 --> 01:42:53,679
Speaker 2: How did that make you feel?

1877
01:42:55,920 --> 01:43:00,280
Speaker 17: I don't know, because I don't remember that happening. I'm

1878
01:43:00,280 --> 01:43:02,559
Speaker 17: like whatever, But he.

1879
01:43:02,520 --> 01:43:05,439
Speaker 2: Made the right choice that he reminded you of the

1880
01:43:05,439 --> 01:43:10,160
Speaker 2: fact that he once told you that, but you forgotten. Yes,

1881
01:43:10,960 --> 01:43:12,200
Speaker 2: a lot of people. That would piss off a lot

1882
01:43:12,240 --> 01:43:12,599
Speaker 2: of people.

1883
01:43:14,760 --> 01:43:18,559
Speaker 17: Yeah, I don't know. I mean, it was like so

1884
01:43:18,680 --> 01:43:21,000
Speaker 17: long ago that I don't even remember that happening, So

1885
01:43:21,040 --> 01:43:21,599
Speaker 17: I don't care.

1886
01:43:24,680 --> 01:43:29,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, you two are absolutely perfect for each other.

1887
01:43:30,439 --> 01:43:32,839
Speaker 17: Yeah.

1888
01:43:33,320 --> 01:43:36,040
Speaker 2: Do you feel as though you conveniently forget things that

1889
01:43:36,080 --> 01:43:37,000
Speaker 2: are convenient to forget?

1890
01:43:40,640 --> 01:43:45,000
Speaker 17: I don't just convenient conveniently forget things. But if it's

1891
01:43:45,080 --> 01:43:47,679
Speaker 17: like super long ago and stuff like that that I'm

1892
01:43:47,760 --> 01:43:49,320
Speaker 17: probably not gonna remember.

1893
01:43:53,320 --> 01:44:01,479
Speaker 2: Hope and trustmas. Then Alan Alan Hope sounds like a

1894
01:44:01,520 --> 01:44:05,840
Speaker 2: good name for presidents, but not not in not in

1895
01:44:05,880 --> 01:44:09,559
Speaker 2: this current year. Maybe like in the nineteen whatever, Alan Hope.

1896
01:44:10,400 --> 01:44:24,000
Speaker 2: Uh huh, I'd vote for Alan Hope hopeing Alan give

1897
01:44:24,040 --> 01:44:25,559
Speaker 2: me can I can I have? Can you hear the

1898
01:44:25,560 --> 01:44:26,160
Speaker 2: phone back to Alan?

1899
01:44:27,320 --> 01:44:29,080
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1900
01:44:29,600 --> 01:44:35,559
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, so you intentionally eat bad food so that

1901
01:44:35,880 --> 01:44:38,400
Speaker 2: later down the line you don't accidentally eat it.

1902
01:44:39,800 --> 01:44:48,800
Speaker 12: Yes, I've also be enjoying you.

1903
01:44:50,479 --> 01:44:51,120
Speaker 2: Enjoy eating it.

1904
01:44:54,760 --> 01:44:56,440
Speaker 21: Oh bad food sometimes.

1905
01:44:59,280 --> 01:45:02,080
Speaker 2: Thank you so much for I hope you have a

1906
01:45:02,080 --> 01:45:05,439
Speaker 2: good rest of the night and I find you inspiring.

1907
01:45:07,240 --> 01:45:07,920
Speaker 12: Thank you, got go.

1908
01:45:10,680 --> 01:45:13,839
Speaker 10: Never be Ken goes on the line taking your phone

1909
01:45:13,840 --> 01:45:17,080
Speaker 10: calls every night. Never beat Kid goes to any side.

1910
01:45:17,160 --> 01:45:19,280
Speaker 10: He's teaching you how to the lid of your life,

1911
01:45:19,680 --> 01:45:21,840
Speaker 10: but he's not really an expert.