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Speaker 1: Do you remember Do you remember.

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Speaker 2: When you do you remember?

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Speaker 1: Do you remember when you once told me that we

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Speaker 1: were talking about the blues, because you like, you were

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Speaker 1: saying how you you love the blues? You know, you're

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Speaker 1: just making you said that you really know. You said

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Speaker 1: you love the blues, and then you told me that.

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Speaker 1: I said, oh, who's your favorite blues musician and you

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Speaker 1: said Jim Belushi. I said, really, there's so many great

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Speaker 1: like blues.

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Speaker 3: You're an idiot.

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Speaker 4: Oh my god.

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Speaker 1: From Gimblet Media, I'm Jonathan Goldstein and this is Heavyweight

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Speaker 1: Today's episode, Becky and Joe LA All around me cinematic landmarks,

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Speaker 1: the Chinese Theater, Hollywood Boulevard, Sunset Boulevard, Sunsets, the Pacific Ocean,

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Speaker 1: Tony Shaloub, the Observatory from Rebel Without a Cause, and

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Speaker 1: the Hollywood Sign from the Entourage movie. Fun Fact LA

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Speaker 1: is what industry insiders call Los Angeles. Hey, Becky, I'm

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Speaker 1: in Los Angeles to see Becky. She grew up here.

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Speaker 1: Her parents work in the film biz. They're producers of

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Speaker 1: movies that if I named you'd say, I know that movie.

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Speaker 1: What a nice place. Becky gives me a tour of

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Speaker 1: the nice place which happens to be your mom's place

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Speaker 1: because it is a quiet place, a good place to talk.

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Speaker 1: It's so great the way that all the rooms disconnect,

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Speaker 1: one to the other, one to the other. I'm in hollyweird. Alright.

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Speaker 1: There are windows too, overlooking a yard. Oh my god,

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Speaker 1: are those oranges?

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Speaker 2: Yes?

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Speaker 1: The California dream you just like? Open up the window

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Speaker 1: in the kitchen. On the wall hangs the painting of

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Speaker 1: a boat on the coffee table sits a pipe? Does

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Speaker 1: your mom smoke a pipe?

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Speaker 5: No?

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Speaker 1: Just a conversation piece, but worth every penny, because as

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Speaker 1: the tour draws to an end, the conversation begins. The

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Speaker 1: story all started, Becky says a few months ago, while

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Speaker 1: dining at an Italian restaurant with her parents and older

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Speaker 1: sister Joe.

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Speaker 6: We were at my birthday dinner. My whole family was there.

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Speaker 7: Mom and dad.

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Speaker 1: Becky's mom and dad are divorced, so the whole family

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Speaker 1: rarely gets together.

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Speaker 6: Like my parents, they're cordial, but like it's really birthdays.

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Speaker 1: Their chit chat proceeded along, and that way. Family restaurant

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Speaker 1: discussions often do a lot of remember that person, remember

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Speaker 1: this thing, remember that thing. This person was supposed to return,

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Speaker 1: but never did, and now we don't have that thing

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Speaker 1: or know that person. It was in this way that

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Speaker 1: Becky came to mention someone the family hadn't talked about

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Speaker 1: in years, Letitia. As soon as the name was uttered,

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Speaker 1: Becky could see the power it still had over her

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Speaker 1: older sister, Joe, even after so many years.

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Speaker 4: Becky brought up Leticia.

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Speaker 1: This is Becky's sister, Joe. For her, the very word

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Speaker 1: was like a gut punch. But as she looked around

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Speaker 1: place the name.

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Speaker 8: It felt like people were trying to remember Leticia, like

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Speaker 8: it was this hazy thing.

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Speaker 1: Everyone held little snippets. Letitia drove a red car. Letitia

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Speaker 1: had small hands. Letitia was very beautiful. As the family

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Speaker 1: batted around half memories, Joe remained quiet. Becky watched the

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Speaker 5: Across the table in this very loud restaurant, I just

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Speaker 1: Leticia was Becky and Joe's babysitter until one day twenty

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Speaker 1: years ago, when she suddenly vanished from their lives as

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Speaker 1: movie producers. Becky and Joe's parents worked long hours and

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Speaker 1: until they were young teens, the girls were looked after

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Speaker 1: by a parade of babysitters, one after the other.

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Speaker 7: We had a babysitter named Melissa.

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Speaker 4: We had a babysitter named Robin.

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Speaker 7: There was a babysitter named Mae.

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Speaker 8: We had a babysitter named Candide.

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Speaker 7: Don't remember too much about Audriana.

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Speaker 1: Sixteen babysitters in total, sixteen young women lurking in the

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Speaker 7: Helena, she was kind of an asshole.

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Speaker 8: She ended up falling in love with this exterminator that

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Speaker 1: There was the babysitter who joined a cult.

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Speaker 7: She just said, now, my name is Mollie.

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Speaker 1: The babysitter who performed Reichi treatment on Becky. The babysitter

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Speaker 1: travel money. Aislyn Aislyn Aislin brought Becky and Joe onto

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Speaker 4: And let us like pick a flavor of condom.

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Speaker 8: I just remember looking over across the lawn and seeing

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Speaker 8: my sister, who looked so small to me, tasting a

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Speaker 6: Also just going out on the lawn part like, I don't.

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Speaker 1: Oh, well, did you have a banana tree outside?

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Speaker 2: Nope? Huh.

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Speaker 1: Becky and Joe's parents were always absent, so while the

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Speaker 1: caretaking fell to the babysitters. They fed the girls when

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Speaker 1: they were hungry, comforted them when they were upset, became

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Speaker 4: Time to have all these women come and go and

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Speaker 8: It kind of felt as though, you know, they were

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Speaker 8: hired to be our friend, and then we were just

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Speaker 8: too much, or there was something that was too much

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Speaker 4: I just really felt like I had no one.

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Speaker 1: But then came someone, neither Becky nor Joke and a

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Speaker 1: recall where Leticia came from. She just showed up one

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Speaker 1: day as glamorous as a movie star. Joe, ten years

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Speaker 8: She was everything that I kind of wished I was

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Speaker 8: in a teenage girl. Her hair was straight and I

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Speaker 8: wanted to straighten my hair and long nails, and I

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Speaker 8: bit my nails. She wore spaghetti straps, and she was

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Speaker 1: And what set her apart was how she made the

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Speaker 1: to apply lip gloss. Letitia seemed impossibly cool. Becky and

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Speaker 1: Joe remember her showing up late one time and explaining

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Speaker 1: were in awe. Even her music was cool. There was

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Speaker 1: one song in particular that she loved to play, that.

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Speaker 8: Aliyah song are you that somebody with the baby sample

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Speaker 4: You know that like dirty so here we go? You

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Speaker 4: know that song?

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Speaker 7: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: I don't know it. I make a mental note to

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Speaker 1: sign up for Spotify to listen to the song, just

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Speaker 1: as soon as I figure out how to connect to

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Speaker 8: Letitia choreographed this dance for us.

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Speaker 6: Just like this weird thing that we would like do

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Speaker 8: In the car we were seated. Me and Becky still

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Speaker 6: Cue, driving in the car listening to that song and

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Speaker 6: doing that dance, feeling cool and close to both of them.

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Speaker 6: Kind of felt like I was like riding along with

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Speaker 6: like two older, cooler girls. I always idolized my sister, yeah,

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Speaker 1: So she was like your older sister's older sister kind of.

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Speaker 7: Yeah.

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Speaker 6: Letitia would just like lie on Joe's bed with her

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Speaker 6: like kind of like on her stomach like pillow, talking

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Speaker 1: Letitia made them feel like she'd be sticking around, but

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Speaker 1: in the end, she only stayed a couple months, and

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Speaker 1: of all the departures of all their babysitters, Letitia's was

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Speaker 1: the most brutally abrupt. The last day Becky and Joe

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Speaker 1: and when thinking about what drove Letitia away, this is

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Speaker 1: the moment Joe always returns to. It was after school

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Speaker 1: and Letitia was making her a smoothie.

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Speaker 8: I accidentally I knocked over the smoothie. I was just

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Speaker 1: For the rest of the day, Letitia seemed distant. The

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Speaker 4: We just didn't see her car and we were waiting.

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Speaker 7: She was sometimes late.

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Speaker 8: You were like, oh, it's okay, Like five minutes, she's

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Speaker 1: Five minutes turned to ten, turned to half an hour.

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Speaker 1: Joe took a seat on the grass, and then so

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Speaker 8: I remember the light changing, also Becky's face changing and

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Speaker 8: looking more to me. Becky's face to me was a

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Speaker 1: Joe's first impulse in scary, uncharted situations was to reassure

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Speaker 1: But sitting on the front lawn of their empty school.

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Speaker 1: As night approached, Joe wasn't sure things would be okay.

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Speaker 1: I imagine there was nothing more to do than hold

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Speaker 6: Two or three hours went by, and we were like

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Speaker 6: Then like it really setting in that like she's not coming.

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Speaker 6: I remember thinking too, like maybe she died. I think

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Speaker 6: I knew by her not coming to pick us up,

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Speaker 1: And she wasn't. After waiting several hours, the girls phoned

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Speaker 1: maybe it was just a job. Letitia was gone without explanation,

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Speaker 1: but Joe knew it had to be because of that smoothie.

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Speaker 1: Whatever the case, By the very next day, Letitia had

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Speaker 8: The problem was solved the way our parents looked at it,

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Speaker 8: which was, you know, they're okay, they have supervision.

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Speaker 4: But I was just so heartbroken.

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Speaker 1: Even all these years later, when Joe talks about it,

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Speaker 1: it's in the language of a first breakup. Letitia's disappearance

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Speaker 1: even comes up in therapy with each new relationships, biggest

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Speaker 1: fear is that the person she's with might suddenly disappear,

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Speaker 1: just like Leticia did. Since that family dinner, Becky hasn't

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Speaker 1: But whenever Becky prods her about it, Joe brushes it

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Speaker 1: and she can tell she's hurting, and she wants to help.

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Speaker 1: As the older sister, Joe took care of Becky. Becky's

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Speaker 1: now twenty seven and Joe is thirty. She's still the

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Speaker 5: There's only so much time I can spend in here,

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Speaker 1: The storage unit isn't lit, and Becky forgot her flashlight

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Speaker 5: Just made up in here that's like twenty years old.

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Speaker 1: She's here to find Joe's childhood address book. When Joe

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Speaker 7: The summer twenty first, two thousand.

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Speaker 1: Dear we Both, Joe named her diary Webo, after the

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Speaker 5: Bush is our new president they told us about a

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Speaker 5: week ago. Anyways, I have a totally new crush. It's

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Speaker 5: She declares on December twenty third, nineteen ninety nine, that

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Speaker 4: She says, ps.

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Speaker 7: Leo is over too. He is a part in my

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Speaker 7: French gay Lord.

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Speaker 5: It is the new Jojo and I'm a single exclamation point.

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Speaker 1: With Leo and Justin, Joe created a fantasy of the

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Speaker 5: Dear Weebo, mom is going away tomorrow. I can't believe it.

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Speaker 7: Again.

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Speaker 5: For four days, which is usually extended to six days,

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Speaker 4: Fuck so sad.

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Speaker 1: Alone in the dim light of the storage unit, Becky

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Speaker 7: There are a.

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Speaker 5: Couple entries that mentioned Leticia, and the.

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Speaker 1: First mention of Leticia is from the day she showed up,

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Speaker 1: which was also the day the previous babysitter left.

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Speaker 5: Dear wee Bo. Today I found out some bad news.

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Speaker 5: Sylvia is leaving. I'm trying not to make a big

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Speaker 5: feel guilty. The new babysitter is Letitia. She's really nice

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Speaker 5: and she's nineteen years old. August third, nineteen ninety eight.

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Speaker 5: Letitia and I have found one thing in common. We're

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Speaker 5: planning a Leo Knight. We both love Leonardo DiCaprio, love Joe.

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Speaker 1: And what else do you have?

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Speaker 5: There there's September sixth, nineteen ninety eight. Dear wee bo,

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Speaker 5: Today Letitia's coming to babysit. I love Letitia. She's the best.

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Speaker 5: She's one of those babysitters that actually does stuff with you,

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Speaker 5: like For one, she will take you to the pier.

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Speaker 5: Two she goes on the rides. A lot of my

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Speaker 5: old babysitters weaseled themselves off the rides, but not Letitia.

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Speaker 5: She rocks. She's coming at one.

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Speaker 1: But only a few weeks later, Letitia was gone, and

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Speaker 5: Dear wee bo, a'sln and Hillary are leaving. I don't

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Speaker 5: want them to go, while at least they told us,

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Speaker 5: unlike Letitia, we need to find a babysitter that will

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Speaker 5: actually stay. I gotta go to school. I love you, Joey.

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Speaker 1: Becky discovers proof that her sister's heartbreak went beyond merely

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Speaker 1: writing about Leticia. She was also writing to Letitia. The

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Speaker 1: substance of Joe's letters was always the same, I miss

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Speaker 1: you and I'm sorry.

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Speaker 5: I wrote a letter to Letitia. It says I still

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Speaker 5: love you, and today I got a letter in the mail,

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Speaker 5: but it turned out to be an advertisement. I really

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Speaker 5: want to track her down.

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Speaker 1: All told, Joe wrote Letitia about a half a dozen letters.

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Speaker 1: Letitia ever responded, and now twenty years later, it's Becky

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Speaker 1: Letitia was nineteen and attending a nearby college when she

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Speaker 1: Armed with this, I start dialing Letitia's by the dozens.

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Speaker 1: An excellent dialer, I dial with confidence, leaving dozens of

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Speaker 3: Until Yeah, I just received a call from this number.

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Speaker 1: Oh hi, yeah, I was looking for Letitia.

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Speaker 3: What what is this called? Pertaining too well?

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Speaker 1: While strong at the dialing part, my weakness has always

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Speaker 5: Or sorry?

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Speaker 3: Who would that be? Who would that be?

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Speaker 1: She was their babysitter in the late nineties.

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Speaker 3: Oh okay, that's interesting. Okay, I will pass the message along.

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Speaker 1: That's great. So this this, this is Letitia's number.

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Speaker 3: No, it's not, it's my number.

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Speaker 1: At any rate, if you're in touch with her or

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Speaker 1: what have you, you know, she.

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Speaker 4: Could give me a call.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, okay, thank you, bye bye. Was the hedgy

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Speaker 1: owl man going to deliver my message to Letitia? Or

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Speaker 1: finger and get ready to deliver some news. Hey, Joe, Hey, Becky. Hi,

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Speaker 1: So I have some news to share. I found Leticia.

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Speaker 5: Holy s what the fuck?

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Speaker 4: Holy shit balls?

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Speaker 1: After the break, the holiest shitball of all Letitia.

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Speaker 2: Nice to see.

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Speaker 1: We've arranged meat at a place near Letitia's house to

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Speaker 1: talk about what happened that day long ago. It turns

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Speaker 1: coming soon. Do you want to sit there?

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Speaker 5: Sure?

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Speaker 2: And because I thought I.

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Speaker 1: Would sit here, And after detailing my elaborate seating chart,

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Speaker 1: I offer refreshments. I have some water and glasses for

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Speaker 8: When you said you found her, I was like, wait,

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Speaker 8: I don't know this person at all. It's so like

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Speaker 8: the last time I saw her was the last time

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Speaker 8: I saw her, Like, it's so weird.

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Speaker 1: Like And then we wait and wait and wait. Becky

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Speaker 1: to the cars pass by. Five minutes turns to ten minutes,

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Speaker 3: Hello.

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Speaker 1: Letitia has a warm smile and blonde highlights in her hair.

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Speaker 3: Oh, it's nice to meet you.

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Speaker 2: Come on in, Joe are here. Oh great.

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Speaker 9: Before the last time I saw you, you were just kids.

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Speaker 1: As per my seating arrangement, Becky and Joe are on

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Speaker 1: So I maybe we can. I don't know how to

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Speaker 1: So I figure we should begin at the beginning with

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Speaker 1: Do you remember, like there being an interview. Do you

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Speaker 9: Found a posting maybe on Craigslist. I want to say

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Speaker 1: You know, but didn't come up in the interview, Letitia says,

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Speaker 9: When I started to work with you girls, it was

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Speaker 1: it filled her with self hatred to Becky and Joe.

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Speaker 1: So Letitia was the definition of cool, but in reality

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Speaker 9: I remember like breaking down in tears because for some

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Speaker 1: When Letitia stopped getting her period, she knew something had

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Speaker 9: And it was the doctor who told me, you know,

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Speaker 1: Eventually, Letitia would crawl out of that depression, but it

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Speaker 9: I mean, I wish I would have had the courage

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Speaker 9: So I was really excited and happy to hear that

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Speaker 1: For Letitia, the day she didn't pick up the girls

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Speaker 1: the worst of their childhood. Even if Letitia was depressed,

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Speaker 1: why did she have to abandon them without a word

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Speaker 1: of warning? Didn't she care that they'd be left waiting

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Speaker 1: all alone? Joe can't bring herself to raise the question,

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Speaker 1: so Becky steps up and tries to explain the day

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Speaker 1: for both of them.

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Speaker 5: We sat together on the grass, and I just remember

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Speaker 5: like the last car, like and then sort of this

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Speaker 5: panic setting in of.

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Speaker 7: Like we're alone, and like, yeah.

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Speaker 5: We waited a really long time, and I remember being

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Speaker 5: worried that, like you were okay.

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Speaker 1: Becky looks over at Joe. Just like when they were kids,

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Speaker 1: they study each other's faces, looking for direction, trying to

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Speaker 1: figure out their next move.

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Speaker 8: Tentatively, Joe, Yeah, I mean that that is what happened.

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Speaker 1: But Letitia looks confused. She offers her version of the day.

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Speaker 1: She'd been unable to get out of bed for most

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Speaker 1: of the morning, telling herself that she had to go

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Speaker 1: to work, and yet she couldn't possibly go to work.

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Speaker 1: This was when she picked up the phone and dialed

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Speaker 1: Becky and Joe's parents.

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Speaker 9: I called them and told them that I was going

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Speaker 9: to be and this was before your school ended, that

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Speaker 9: I was sick.

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Speaker 4: But I did call. Of course.

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Speaker 9: I called and told them, and this was before your

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Speaker 9: school was out, that I'm sick, and I'm you know,

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Speaker 9: I wasn't going.

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Speaker 4: To come in that day.

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Speaker 7: And that wasn't the day.

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Speaker 9: That was that day.

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Speaker 8: No one ever told us that at all. We really

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Speaker 8: didn't know, we really and it's been I'm.

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Speaker 7: Thirty years old.

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Speaker 8: I mean like I've gone my whole life thinking.

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Speaker 4: That that was not a part of it.

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Speaker 7: The fact that you called that she.

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Speaker 8: Knew that you weren't coming is so absolutely bonkers to me.

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Speaker 8: I think I felt at the time like it was

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Speaker 8: it was me and Becky, like we were just too much.

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Speaker 1: Becky and Joe reach out for each other's hands.

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Speaker 8: As Joe continues, according to the I mean my mom

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Speaker 8: was like, I don't know what happened, Like truly, that's

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Speaker 8: what we thought happened.

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Speaker 7: We thought that you just disappeared.

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Speaker 1: Letitia tells them that she'd only meant to call in

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Speaker 1: sick for one day, but that their mom had grown

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Speaker 1: so upset that Leticia, in her fragile state, felt like

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Speaker 1: she couldn't ever return, and so began Joe's letter writing campaign.

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Speaker 8: I after you left, wrote like countless letters to you,

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Speaker 8: and I remember my mom had all the stamps.

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Speaker 4: And she would mail my letters.

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Speaker 1: Joe looks at Letitia again. She struggles to ask the

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Speaker 1: thing she really wants to know, why didn't you ever

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Speaker 1: respond to me? But before she has to come out

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Speaker 1: and say it, Letitia jumps in, I.

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Speaker 9: Didn't get any letters. I never received any letters.

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Speaker 1: Joe takes in Letitia's words and speaks in a whisper.

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Speaker 8: That makes me so mad, Like it's just genuinely confusing,

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Speaker 8: I mean anger, But like I'm.

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Speaker 4: Just like, why.

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Speaker 1: Why hadn't Becky and Joe's mom mailed the letters? And

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Speaker 1: why hadn't she told the girls that Letitia had actually

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Speaker 1: phoned that.

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Speaker 10: Day that that is not my memory of what happened.

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Speaker 1: I reach out to Becky and Joe's mom, Julia to

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Speaker 1: ask her memory of the day is foggy, but she

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Speaker 1: does not remember getting a call from Letitia.

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Speaker 10: As I remember it, I just got a call from

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Speaker 10: someone at school saying nobody came to pick up your kids,

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Speaker 10: and that felt like the worst thing I had ever done,

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Speaker 10: in letting my kids down.

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Speaker 1: Julia also doesn't remember being given any letters to mail, regardless,

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Speaker 1: she wouldn't have been mailing them in the first place.

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Speaker 1: She says, Joe knew where the stamp drawer was. Julia

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Speaker 1: remembers the time of Letitia's employment as one of worry

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Speaker 1: and stress. She was producing about a half a dozen

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Speaker 1: film projects at the time and was always exhausted. She

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Speaker 1: kept long hours during the week, and on weekends she

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Speaker 1: read the scripts that arrived at her doorstep in a

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Speaker 1: huge pile.

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Speaker 10: I didn't feel I had to apologize to my girls

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Speaker 10: for having a career, but I did see that they

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Speaker 10: kind of resented it, and I could understand why because

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Speaker 10: it did take me away from them.

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Speaker 1: Julia herself understands what it means to grow up with

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Speaker 1: an absent mom. Her own mother was a New York

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Speaker 1: talent agent who was always distracted with work and handed

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Speaker 1: her off to a series of housekeepers.

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Speaker 10: And I had my own memories of what I resented,

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Speaker 10: like my mother did not get up in the moment.

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Speaker 10: She liked to sleep late, and so she didn't get

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Speaker 10: up in the morning when my brother and I went

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Speaker 10: to school, so our lunches were always made by the housekeeper.

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Speaker 4: I just remember.

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Speaker 10: Wishing that my mother had made my lunch herself. You know,

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Speaker 10: when I became a mom, I think I hoped I

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Speaker 10: would do better, But when I got there myself, I

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Speaker 10: saw how hard it was.

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Speaker 1: But she was always sure to make the girl's lunches herself,

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Speaker 1: taking care to drop a note in saying she was

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Speaker 1: thinking of them, that she loved them. As for the

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Speaker 1: other household chores, it seems like a lot of that

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Speaker 1: fell to the young women she hired for Julia, being

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Speaker 1: responsible for the cooking and cleaning while working a more

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Speaker 1: than full time job was too hard, and it was

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Speaker 1: made even harder by an agreement struck with her husband

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Speaker 1: early on in their marriage.

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Speaker 10: My husband, I mean, it was clear he never wanted

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Speaker 10: kids as much as I did, and I think he

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Speaker 10: loved them once they got here, but it was my deal,

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Speaker 10: and I was fully one hundred percent responsible for all

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Speaker 10: child's care duties and everything, and that was something that

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Speaker 10: was a bit of a problem in my marriage, you know,

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Speaker 10: which ultimately ended in divorce.

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Speaker 1: Julia says that when she envisions Becky and Joe sitting

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Speaker 1: on the school lawn embracing as the sky turned dark,

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Speaker 1: she can't help but remember the day she sat her

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Speaker 1: daughters down to tell them that she and their dad

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Speaker 1: were divorcing. Becky was eighteen by then and Joe twenty two.

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Speaker 1: Julia remembers them holding on to each other while she

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Speaker 1: broke the news. Well, Julia thought, at least they've got

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Speaker 1: each other, and I.

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Speaker 10: Felt like they're together, They're gonna be okay.

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Speaker 9: Yeah, you were ten.

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Speaker 1: I remember, because after hearing what their mom remembers, Becky

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Speaker 1: and Joe say that there's probably no way to ever

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Speaker 1: know for sure what happened. Back then. Julia was just

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Speaker 1: trying to survive, and so was Leticia. They each remember

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Speaker 1: things differently, and some things they don't remember at all.

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Speaker 8: I remember making a smoothie with you and spilling the

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Speaker 8: blender and I thought that was the reason.

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Speaker 1: When Joe brings up the spilled smoothie, this painful regret

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Speaker 1: she's carried with her well into adulthood, Latitia tells her

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Speaker 1: that she has no recollection of any smoothies at all,

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Speaker 1: and so Joe pulls out another pivotal memory.

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Speaker 8: I have a question, do you remember that Alia dance?

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Speaker 4: We're doing it?

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Speaker 1: Letitia shakes her head. She doesn't remember, but the sisters do.

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Speaker 1: It's another moment that they still carry with them, that

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Speaker 1: only they.

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Speaker 4: Share, Like I remember that.

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Speaker 2: That's so adorable.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it was like.

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Speaker 1: The sisters mirror each other's hand movements, they fall into

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Speaker 1: the dance automatically. They're enjoying themselves and each other.

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Speaker 4: And I just went again, that so funny.

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Speaker 1: In the Aliah song are you that somebody? Aliah poses

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Speaker 1: a question, are you that somebody? Because of a hotel

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Speaker 1: Wi Fi situation. I've yet to listen to the song,

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Speaker 1: so I don't know whether Aliah ever gets her answer answer,

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Speaker 1: But watching Becky and Joe, it's clear they've gotten their answer.

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Speaker 1: Becky and Joe's somebody was neither babysitter nor parent. The

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Speaker 1: one constant the sister's always had was each other.

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Speaker 7: I care a lot about my sister.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, and I mean we're closer now than I think ever.

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Speaker 8: And Becky's one of the closest people to me in

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Speaker 8: my life and my hero.

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Speaker 9: Hello.

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Speaker 2: Yes, issue Okay.

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Speaker 1: Letitia gets a call from the hedgie man, who it

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Speaker 1: turns out is also her husband. Their nineteen month old

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Speaker 1: daughter is having a meltdown and their six year old

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Speaker 1: daughter needs to be picked up from school, so Letitia

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Speaker 1: has to rush off. They all make plans to get

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Speaker 1: together soon, but for now, Letitia needs to take care

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Speaker 1: of her daughters, and Becky and Joe for their part,

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Speaker 1: head out together into a beautiful la afternoon, doing their

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Speaker 1: best to keep taking care of each other. Now that

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Speaker 1: the furnitures returning.

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Speaker 7: To its goodwill home, now that the last month's rent

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Speaker 7: is scheming.

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Speaker 1: With the damage to pozzle, take this moment to dissolve.

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Speaker 4: If we meant it, if we tried. We felt around

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Speaker 4: for far too from things that accidentally.

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Speaker 1: This episode of Heavyweight was produced by Khalila Holt and

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Speaker 1: me Jonathan Goldstein, along with Stevie Lane Nba Parker. The

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Speaker 1: show is edited by Jorha Special thanks to Emily Condon,

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Speaker 1: com slash Heavyweight. Our theme song is by The Weaker

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