1 00:00:22,160 --> 00:00:26,319 Speaker 1: Hey y'all. Emily here coming in with another installment of 2 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:33,760 Speaker 1: five Minute Friday on Hurdle. Like many of you, I 3 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:39,320 Speaker 1: have been doing my fair amount of reflecting thinking about 4 00:00:40,120 --> 00:00:45,480 Speaker 1: the past year, and so much has happened this year. 5 00:00:46,360 --> 00:00:48,480 Speaker 1: I have grown so much this year, and I think 6 00:00:48,520 --> 00:00:53,880 Speaker 1: about specifically where I am emotionally and personally at this 7 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:58,080 Speaker 1: point this episode coming out on December ninth, versus where 8 00:00:58,240 --> 00:01:04,760 Speaker 1: I was on January first. And although I'm not someone 9 00:01:04,840 --> 00:01:09,360 Speaker 1: who really likes to dwell in the past, our past 10 00:01:09,520 --> 00:01:14,800 Speaker 1: does inform our present and then in turn helps us 11 00:01:15,280 --> 00:01:20,479 Speaker 1: proceed into the future, right, And so I realize, reflecting 12 00:01:20,520 --> 00:01:25,360 Speaker 1: on the past year, that I really am a different 13 00:01:25,360 --> 00:01:28,280 Speaker 1: person at this point. I spoke about this a couple 14 00:01:28,319 --> 00:01:30,880 Speaker 1: of weeks ago, but I had a really bumpy start 15 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:34,679 Speaker 1: to twenty twenty two. And when I think about one 16 00:01:34,840 --> 00:01:39,440 Speaker 1: of the biggest through lines for me this year, it's 17 00:01:39,480 --> 00:01:47,400 Speaker 1: truly patience. Patience with myself, patience with the process, understanding 18 00:01:47,520 --> 00:01:53,560 Speaker 1: that there are just things in life that cannot be rushed, period, 19 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:59,440 Speaker 1: and patience is challenging, right. Patience is one of those 20 00:01:59,480 --> 00:02:05,200 Speaker 1: things that like, oh my goodness, self compassion, maybe self 21 00:02:05,280 --> 00:02:10,359 Speaker 1: care strategies different types of positive self talk. I mean, 22 00:02:10,639 --> 00:02:13,240 Speaker 1: it is something that needs to be flexed and strengthened. 23 00:02:13,639 --> 00:02:16,320 Speaker 1: The more that you work on your patients like a muscle, 24 00:02:16,440 --> 00:02:20,880 Speaker 1: the more resilient and strong you will become. Over the 25 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:26,520 Speaker 1: last twelve months, my patience has seriously been tested in 26 00:02:27,240 --> 00:02:31,880 Speaker 1: ways that I did not expect. I was on a 27 00:02:31,919 --> 00:02:35,400 Speaker 1: walk this morning with my friend and I kind of 28 00:02:35,440 --> 00:02:40,800 Speaker 1: giggled over this idea that every single turn of the 29 00:02:40,880 --> 00:02:43,120 Speaker 1: new year, one of the things that I say to 30 00:02:43,160 --> 00:02:45,200 Speaker 1: myself is that this is the year that I am 31 00:02:45,280 --> 00:02:50,040 Speaker 1: going to focus on my relationships and specifically perhaps just 32 00:02:50,200 --> 00:02:52,440 Speaker 1: maybe this is the year that I'm going to find love. 33 00:02:53,200 --> 00:02:55,120 Speaker 1: And here I am. I think this is, you know, 34 00:02:55,600 --> 00:03:00,080 Speaker 1: year four of saying that, and it's still just me 35 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:04,320 Speaker 1: in this little studio doing what I do. But that's 36 00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:08,320 Speaker 1: not that's not saying that I don't have a lot 37 00:03:08,360 --> 00:03:11,600 Speaker 1: of love in my life and a lot of relationships 38 00:03:11,639 --> 00:03:15,440 Speaker 1: that I'm really grateful for. I feel like maybe one 39 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:21,000 Speaker 1: of the biggest tests of my patients has been trusting 40 00:03:21,040 --> 00:03:25,840 Speaker 1: the process that eventually whatever is meant for me, whoever 41 00:03:26,200 --> 00:03:30,040 Speaker 1: is meant for me, is gonna be worth that weight. 42 00:03:31,320 --> 00:03:35,560 Speaker 1: Beyond that again, I spoke about the year, the beginning 43 00:03:35,560 --> 00:03:38,320 Speaker 1: of the year being challenging for me, and that required 44 00:03:38,320 --> 00:03:40,800 Speaker 1: a lot of patients, right, because God, there was not 45 00:03:40,880 --> 00:03:43,520 Speaker 1: a morning that I would wake up feeling as though 46 00:03:43,680 --> 00:03:47,080 Speaker 1: I was sitting in a room with the curtains drawn 47 00:03:47,320 --> 00:03:49,760 Speaker 1: and I could not open them and see light. 48 00:03:49,880 --> 00:03:49,960 Speaker 2: Like. 49 00:03:50,000 --> 00:03:52,560 Speaker 1: There was not a moment where I was sitting in 50 00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:55,880 Speaker 1: that dark room, not wishing that I felt differently than 51 00:03:55,880 --> 00:04:00,560 Speaker 1: I did in that moment, but understanding now with a 52 00:04:00,560 --> 00:04:06,480 Speaker 1: little bit more perspective, that that darkness happened for me, 53 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:12,080 Speaker 1: that tough hurdle happened for me, And so there was 54 00:04:12,160 --> 00:04:16,760 Speaker 1: an amazing, an amazing amount of patience that was required 55 00:04:17,240 --> 00:04:24,120 Speaker 1: through that chapter hard stop and relating to patients. I 56 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:27,920 Speaker 1: also feel as though that word grace really comes up 57 00:04:27,960 --> 00:04:32,080 Speaker 1: for me a lot, because without having grace for myself 58 00:04:32,200 --> 00:04:35,520 Speaker 1: through these hurdles, through a lot of these moments that 59 00:04:35,560 --> 00:04:42,159 Speaker 1: have required such patience. Man, listen, life is too short 60 00:04:42,240 --> 00:04:44,840 Speaker 1: to be shit talking yourself all of the time. And 61 00:04:44,920 --> 00:04:46,719 Speaker 1: I would be remiss if I didn't say that. I 62 00:04:46,839 --> 00:04:51,480 Speaker 1: certainly had moments over the past through sixty five where 63 00:04:51,920 --> 00:04:56,880 Speaker 1: the conversation happening within my head was not stellar. But 64 00:04:57,680 --> 00:05:01,080 Speaker 1: I know what I am looking for, and I am 65 00:05:01,520 --> 00:05:06,840 Speaker 1: in pursuit of positivity and goodness and all that is 66 00:05:07,000 --> 00:05:12,240 Speaker 1: great beyond good. And so for me, that good that 67 00:05:12,360 --> 00:05:19,320 Speaker 1: turns into great starts with grace. It starts with self compassion. 68 00:05:19,960 --> 00:05:28,960 Speaker 1: This year, my big words when I reflect really are patience, good, grace, 69 00:05:30,120 --> 00:05:34,560 Speaker 1: and maybe just a hint of resiliency. So I'm curious 70 00:05:34,560 --> 00:05:37,839 Speaker 1: for you this year, what are your words of the 71 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:41,640 Speaker 1: year and what are you thinking about going forward? I 72 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:44,800 Speaker 1: know I talked about this with Mollie in her episode 73 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:48,479 Speaker 1: that came out on Monday, about what words we're thinking 74 00:05:48,480 --> 00:05:52,480 Speaker 1: about heading into twenty three. My word is great, and 75 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:55,800 Speaker 1: I want to know yours, So tell me. Hit me 76 00:05:56,200 --> 00:05:59,120 Speaker 1: with a tag over on social I'm over at Hurdle Podcast. 77 00:05:59,160 --> 00:06:01,720 Speaker 1: Of course you can always hit me up as well 78 00:06:01,760 --> 00:06:06,160 Speaker 1: over at Hurdle Podcast. And before I let you go, 79 00:06:06,520 --> 00:06:11,040 Speaker 1: of course, I'm going to throw in a listener voicemail 80 00:06:11,600 --> 00:06:11,960 Speaker 1: for you. 81 00:06:12,800 --> 00:06:15,360 Speaker 2: Hey, Emily, this is Leah. I've been a long time 82 00:06:15,600 --> 00:06:18,480 Speaker 2: listener and follower of you, and I just wanted to 83 00:06:18,520 --> 00:06:23,000 Speaker 2: say to today's podcast with Molly, which is so unexpectedly powerful, 84 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:26,880 Speaker 2: I almost didn't listen, and I realized how similar her 85 00:06:26,920 --> 00:06:30,359 Speaker 2: story is to mine and I just needed that and 86 00:06:30,480 --> 00:06:33,480 Speaker 2: it helped me be kinder to myself, to understand how 87 00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:36,920 Speaker 2: to really think about things differently. And I also appreciate 88 00:06:36,920 --> 00:06:39,080 Speaker 2: you telling your story. So I just wanted to say 89 00:06:39,080 --> 00:06:42,640 Speaker 2: thanks for everything that you do. And you know, even 90 00:06:42,680 --> 00:06:45,760 Speaker 2: though we're not maybe in the same room, just listening 91 00:06:45,839 --> 00:06:49,480 Speaker 2: to what you've been putting out and the hard work 92 00:06:49,640 --> 00:06:51,720 Speaker 2: just really makes a difference to people's lives. And I 93 00:06:51,760 --> 00:06:53,239 Speaker 2: just hope you know that thanks. Again. 94 00:06:53,720 --> 00:06:56,839 Speaker 1: I listened to this and I put this here just 95 00:06:56,880 --> 00:07:00,080 Speaker 1: to share another takeaway with you that really resonated with me. 96 00:07:01,560 --> 00:07:07,040 Speaker 1: It is never inappropriate to tell someone how much they 97 00:07:07,040 --> 00:07:11,400 Speaker 1: mean to you, to reiterate to someone, regardless of whatever 98 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:15,480 Speaker 1: role that they play in your life, that you appreciate them, 99 00:07:16,080 --> 00:07:19,680 Speaker 1: especially during a time of year that there's just so 100 00:07:19,880 --> 00:07:23,680 Speaker 1: much happening. It can be really chaotic, many of us, 101 00:07:23,760 --> 00:07:27,040 Speaker 1: you know, trying to tie up loose ends and just 102 00:07:27,120 --> 00:07:29,840 Speaker 1: get to that finish line, so to speak, right, And 103 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:35,200 Speaker 1: so I appreciate this listener for giving me her feedback 104 00:07:35,640 --> 00:07:39,720 Speaker 1: and know that something that you say to someone else 105 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:44,240 Speaker 1: could truly impact them in ways that you may not 106 00:07:44,440 --> 00:07:48,240 Speaker 1: even consider or imagine, and it could just hit at 107 00:07:48,240 --> 00:07:51,280 Speaker 1: the right time, and you could be the reason that 108 00:07:51,320 --> 00:07:56,920 Speaker 1: they smile. And what an amazing opportunity. That's it for 109 00:07:57,000 --> 00:08:01,480 Speaker 1: this week, another hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time.