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Speaker 1: Hey folks, as Lyle, before we get started, I have

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Speaker 1: a weird one for you. If for some reason, you

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Speaker 1: Tokyo Comedy Bar on December eleventh, and I have put

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Speaker 1: a ton of emails from you guys, overwhelmingly telling me

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Speaker 1: to thank you guys for sending me very thoughtful emails

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Speaker 1: And it was very sweet and it makes me want

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Speaker 1: to keep doing this forever, or at least until I

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hey, this love? Yeah, who is this?

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Speaker 1: This is a wrap?

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Speaker 2: I called in a year ago. I don't know if

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Speaker 2: it was exactly a year ago. Definitely wasn't on Halloween,

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Speaker 1: You called in a year ago? What did you call in?

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Speaker 1: Talk to me about a year ago?

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Speaker 2: Sorry? I called in because I was having some trouble

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Speaker 2: with her parents. I I doubt you remember. It wasn't

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Speaker 2: very definitely not the most groundbreaking conversation on the planet,

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Speaker 2: not because the view, probably because of me, but they

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Speaker 2: And I honestly, like, I don't really remember why too much.

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Speaker 3: Hi.

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Speaker 1: Wait, I'm looking, hold on, I'm actually I'm looking right now,

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Speaker 1: Correct, Your note that the call screen wrote about your

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Speaker 1: October eleventh. It said you've been dating a girl for

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Speaker 1: don't remember. Do you remember what I said to you?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, Actually, you gave me some advice. I'm not going

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Speaker 2: to tell you that it was bad advice.

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Speaker 2: Like, I honestly thought it was really good advice, but

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Speaker 2: Pretty much? I just ignored it and it went away

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Speaker 1: Are you feeling happy and good about life?

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Speaker 2: And honestly, man like, even if you're just like talking

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Speaker 1: Never know, life is infinite, could go infinite directions. I

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Speaker 2: For you too, them you you're doing great out here.

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Speaker 2: Wrath to anybody who's watching them might know me, I

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Speaker 1: Wrath forever. Take care man, you too? That was interesting. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: I have a lot of issues with saying no, and

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Speaker 3: after him stuff like that, and so I was like, okay,

439
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 3: well damn. So I saw him again and it was

440
00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:56,200
Speaker 3: like I saw that he had like self mutilated himself,

441
00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:01,520
Speaker 3: so it was his blood and he was giving it

442
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:04,280
Speaker 3: to me because he thought it was the elixir of

443
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:07,800
Speaker 3: life and like would actually help me, which is really sweet,

444
00:28:07,920 --> 00:28:10,000
Speaker 3: but like thinking back on it, it's like I should

445
00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:17,280
Speaker 3: have said no. But yeah, at one point towards the

446
00:28:17,400 --> 00:28:23,080
Speaker 3: end of the whole thing, I was like, I need

447
00:28:23,080 --> 00:28:26,119
Speaker 3: to like get out of this, like stop really like

448
00:28:26,240 --> 00:28:30,600
Speaker 3: cut contact a little bit. And he showed up to

449
00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:35,840
Speaker 3: work with like a key chain of mine and like

450
00:28:36,080 --> 00:28:40,640
Speaker 3: was crying. Not this was before I cut contact, but

451
00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 3: he I guess. My friend called me later in the

452
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:48,880
Speaker 3: night while I was at work and was like I

453
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:56,000
Speaker 3: just saw him like outside of your house with police.

454
00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 3: Do you know what's going on? And I was like, well,

455
00:28:58,480 --> 00:29:01,960
Speaker 3: he just did this thing him. That's weird. And it's

456
00:29:02,080 --> 00:29:05,880
Speaker 3: like so I found out he got a DUI and

457
00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:11,400
Speaker 3: he thought that he was drinking and was driving afterwards

458
00:29:11,440 --> 00:29:14,640
Speaker 3: because he thought that I was like cheating on him,

459
00:29:15,440 --> 00:29:17,960
Speaker 3: which I wasn't, And I showed him proof of that,

460
00:29:18,320 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 3: and I was like, this is like too impulsive for me.

461
00:29:21,840 --> 00:29:23,920
Speaker 3: But thinking back on it, I should have just like

462
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:28,080
Speaker 3: said no to like the first red flag, I guess.

463
00:29:29,680 --> 00:29:36,040
Speaker 1: But yeah, Savan, I'm gonna tell you something. Yeah, I

464
00:29:36,080 --> 00:29:46,080
Speaker 1: think to hear you say that this guy offered you

465
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:54,720
Speaker 1: his blood, uh with the intentions of healing you and

466
00:29:55,040 --> 00:29:57,000
Speaker 1: doing good things for you, and to hear you say

467
00:29:57,000 --> 00:30:00,440
Speaker 1: that that was sweet of him really indicate to me

468
00:30:01,400 --> 00:30:08,560
Speaker 1: the kind of person. You are. Very positive, having very

469
00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:14,840
Speaker 1: uh good view of people and of the world, and

470
00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:20,720
Speaker 1: I really fucking hope that you are able to maintain

471
00:30:20,840 --> 00:30:28,160
Speaker 1: that but prevent it from guiding you towards situations that

472
00:30:28,240 --> 00:30:32,200
Speaker 1: are very not good.

473
00:30:35,520 --> 00:30:39,960
Speaker 3: Yeah. I have issues with that, I get myself into trouble,

474
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:44,520
Speaker 3: but at least I'm optimistic about it. I guess.

475
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:51,840
Speaker 1: Just just keep being positive about the world, Savannah. But

476
00:30:52,240 --> 00:30:59,760
Speaker 1: fucking be careful, man, Thank you gik Okay, all right,

477
00:31:00,120 --> 00:31:05,000
Speaker 1: care Savannah. That person is too pure for the universe.

478
00:31:08,320 --> 00:31:10,000
Speaker 1: I have, no, I don't have. I don't know what

479
00:31:10,040 --> 00:31:18,400
Speaker 1: else to say about the the blood thing. I hope

480
00:31:18,560 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 1: that she takes into account some of the things that

481
00:31:22,360 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 1: we talked about and uses it to form a better

482
00:31:29,200 --> 00:31:35,240
Speaker 1: uh foundation of self confidence. Hopefully from that foundation of

483
00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:44,760
Speaker 1: self confidence, she sets better boundaries and does not drink

484
00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:55,920
Speaker 1: people's blood. I think she's gonna be okay. I hope. Hello, Hello, Lyle,

485
00:31:56,560 --> 00:31:56,960
Speaker 1: how are you?

486
00:31:58,800 --> 00:32:00,600
Speaker 2: I'm doing all right? And thank you as much for

487
00:32:00,640 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 2: taking my.

488
00:32:01,080 --> 00:32:03,440
Speaker 1: Call of course? How you doing? Does?

489
00:32:04,320 --> 00:32:04,520
Speaker 2: What?

490
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:06,320
Speaker 1: Uh? How can I get you?

491
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:09,320
Speaker 2: Then there this woman that I met through work.

492
00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:14,120
Speaker 6: You know, she's about my age. She uh isn't the

493
00:32:14,120 --> 00:32:17,880
Speaker 6: same things I'm into, really laid back. She's got three kids,

494
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:22,160
Speaker 6: which is kind of why pursuing a relationship with her

495
00:32:22,320 --> 00:32:25,200
Speaker 6: was not particularly on my mind. You know, she was

496
00:32:25,240 --> 00:32:27,960
Speaker 6: definitely someone we could have to sling with and uh,

497
00:32:28,880 --> 00:32:31,280
Speaker 6: you know, definitely still you know, really respect her and

498
00:32:31,320 --> 00:32:35,880
Speaker 6: her relationship, but as far as pursuing anything long term,

499
00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:40,640
Speaker 6: it's something that I don't see myself in. And you know,

500
00:32:40,680 --> 00:32:44,640
Speaker 6: I'm very much of the thought that you know, she's

501
00:32:45,360 --> 00:32:48,400
Speaker 6: she's a single mom. You know, she's had boyfriend doughter off,

502
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:50,440
Speaker 6: but all in all, a single mom, and she's got

503
00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:53,520
Speaker 6: a lot going on ex husbands to deal with. And

504
00:32:55,560 --> 00:32:58,160
Speaker 6: as much as I really love and care for her kids,

505
00:32:58,200 --> 00:32:59,960
Speaker 6: I don't think I could ever step into a role

506
00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:03,360
Speaker 6: of being parent and being supportive.

507
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:06,160
Speaker 1: And being does does. I'm extremely does. I'm confused to

508
00:33:06,200 --> 00:33:08,960
Speaker 1: what your current relationship is with this woman because you

509
00:33:08,960 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 1: seemed to know a lot about her her life. You

510
00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:14,400
Speaker 1: say you've met her kids, and you know about her

511
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:18,920
Speaker 1: ex husband, and you seem to have a wide, uh

512
00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:23,040
Speaker 1: scope of knowledge as to her existence. What's your current

513
00:33:23,080 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 1: relationship like with this person?

514
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:31,000
Speaker 6: We're great friends. We've been friends for years now. I'm

515
00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:33,320
Speaker 6: again I met her through work. She was my supervisor,

516
00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:36,600
Speaker 6: and we actually started hanging out because one of her

517
00:33:36,640 --> 00:33:40,480
Speaker 6: ex boyfriend was a coworker of mine, and we just

518
00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:44,160
Speaker 6: started talking that way, and next thing, you know, he

519
00:33:44,240 --> 00:33:46,320
Speaker 6: ended up out of the picture. And I'm just, you know,

520
00:33:46,840 --> 00:33:50,120
Speaker 6: kind of the friend hanging out and she started expressing

521
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:51,800
Speaker 6: interest to me, but I felt like she was in

522
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:54,640
Speaker 6: a rough place at the time, and you know, so

523
00:33:54,720 --> 00:33:58,920
Speaker 6: I guess kind of boots away, you know, sort of

524
00:33:59,280 --> 00:34:02,800
Speaker 6: brushed it to the side. I didn't try taking it

525
00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:06,840
Speaker 6: very seriously because I didn't think she was in a position.

526
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:12,560
Speaker 1: Okay, so so does so so right now? Okay, so

527
00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:14,719
Speaker 1: you guys have been friends for a while, and what

528
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:19,320
Speaker 1: is it exactly that you uh want from this person.

529
00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 1: You say that you are not interested in a relationship

530
00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,000
Speaker 1: with her because you don't want to take care of

531
00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:26,160
Speaker 1: her kids, You don't want to be uh.

532
00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:33,160
Speaker 6: Uh it sounds bad when I say.

533
00:34:34,880 --> 00:34:37,759
Speaker 1: Does does? Does? Does? There's no sounds bad, there's just

534
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:40,640
Speaker 1: what is Okay? What is it that you want from

535
00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:41,160
Speaker 1: this person?

536
00:34:43,440 --> 00:34:47,080
Speaker 6: Uh? I just want a long lasting friendship. That's really

537
00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:50,640
Speaker 6: all I see her as. And you know, it's something

538
00:34:50,719 --> 00:34:54,240
Speaker 6: that outside of the children, there are some things about

539
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:59,360
Speaker 6: her that just I don't like it. A partner? Is

540
00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:01,239
Speaker 6: it very a given a partner? You know?

541
00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:05,880
Speaker 1: Wa, what do we what are we talking about? He

542
00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:08,720
Speaker 1: because at the very beginning of this, you're talking about

543
00:35:08,840 --> 00:35:12,759
Speaker 1: how this person is romantically interested in you and you're

544
00:35:12,840 --> 00:35:16,280
Speaker 1: romantically interested in her, but she has.

545
00:35:15,840 --> 00:35:18,480
Speaker 6: I'm not that's the thing. I'm not a nice advance.

546
00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 1: So so so what's so what's the deal here? Uh?

547
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:27,720
Speaker 6: She's son you know, very explicit interest in me before,

548
00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:33,160
Speaker 6: and she's always been a very uh what you call

549
00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:36,680
Speaker 6: her joke's always kind of sexual. You know, it's just

550
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:40,600
Speaker 6: her brand of humor and stuff. And it's something that

551
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:43,680
Speaker 6: I noticed she kind of does to everybody. Okay, but

552
00:35:43,880 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 6: she'll do with me in front of her boyfriend, Okay,

553
00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:52,319
Speaker 6: and it makes me kind of uncomfortable knowing that she

554
00:35:52,640 --> 00:35:56,440
Speaker 6: has expressed interest in me and continues to kind of

555
00:35:56,480 --> 00:35:59,359
Speaker 6: do these kind of jokes towards me. I mean, there's

556
00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:02,440
Speaker 6: been time she's so so all right.

557
00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:05,560
Speaker 1: So so is your I'm just trying to get a

558
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:09,320
Speaker 1: handle what your conflict is. You are friends with this woman.

559
00:36:10,560 --> 00:36:13,719
Speaker 1: She's making like these sexual jokes to you, and they're

560
00:36:13,719 --> 00:36:20,840
Speaker 1: making you uncomfortable. M hmm, Okay, why don't you just

561
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,120
Speaker 1: express to her that they're making you uncomfortable.

562
00:36:26,360 --> 00:36:32,279
Speaker 6: I think I'm very afraid of direct conflict just in

563
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:36,360
Speaker 6: general in life, and I'm very afraid that she'll just

564
00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:40,839
Speaker 6: completely withdraw herself. She'll feel like she can't joke at all,

565
00:36:40,880 --> 00:36:44,560
Speaker 6: when in reality, it's just like I would appreciate it

566
00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:46,520
Speaker 6: if she took it down or not. You know, she

567
00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:49,360
Speaker 6: doesn't always need to be smacking my ass when I

568
00:36:49,400 --> 00:36:52,640
Speaker 6: passed by her getting a beer in the kitchen or something,

569
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:56,200
Speaker 6: or she refers to me as you know, her side

570
00:36:56,239 --> 00:36:59,560
Speaker 6: piece in front of her boyfriend, and you know, he

571
00:37:00,160 --> 00:37:02,080
Speaker 6: had to laugh at it, but I feel like it's

572
00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 6: it's kind of rude and disrespectful to him.

573
00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 1: You know m hm, well does Okay, so you don't

574
00:37:09,640 --> 00:37:12,200
Speaker 1: want her to be making all these sexual jokes to you,

575
00:37:12,600 --> 00:37:17,640
Speaker 1: but you're afraid of direct conflict. Why are you afraid

576
00:37:17,680 --> 00:37:18,440
Speaker 1: of direct conflict?

577
00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:22,680
Speaker 6: I think a lot of it is just because I

578
00:37:22,680 --> 00:37:26,000
Speaker 6: don't want to lose a friendship. You know, she's again,

579
00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:28,440
Speaker 6: she's a very wonderful woman, just not anyone that I

580
00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:33,520
Speaker 6: could see myself with, and I'm afraid that, you know,

581
00:37:33,680 --> 00:37:37,799
Speaker 6: shooting her down like that is just gonna make her

582
00:37:37,800 --> 00:37:38,319
Speaker 6: not want to.

583
00:37:38,239 --> 00:37:38,840
Speaker 3: Be my friend.

584
00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:46,160
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I mean, you know, does listen, if this

585
00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:50,920
Speaker 1: person is worth being friends with, uh, she will not

586
00:37:51,239 --> 00:37:56,279
Speaker 1: explode at you when you tell her, uh not to

587
00:37:56,360 --> 00:38:00,480
Speaker 1: smack your ass, And if she does, she's probably not

588
00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:02,040
Speaker 1: worth being friends with.

589
00:38:05,840 --> 00:38:09,760
Speaker 6: Yeah, you know, it's respecting boundaries.

590
00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:13,799
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, And you know, I think there's a thing

591
00:38:14,239 --> 00:38:18,759
Speaker 1: and I'm in the I'm sort of u labbing this

592
00:38:18,960 --> 00:38:23,480
Speaker 1: out in my own human interactions, but I actually think

593
00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:28,239
Speaker 1: that when you do establish these boundaries with people, you

594
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:31,200
Speaker 1: would think that they would get upset with you. But

595
00:38:31,320 --> 00:38:35,719
Speaker 1: in reality, when you have these uncomfortable confrontations, there are

596
00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:39,520
Speaker 1: they almost become like healing moments where the person is like, oh, shit,

597
00:38:39,560 --> 00:38:42,359
Speaker 1: I didn't realize I was upsetting you. And then you're

598
00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:44,840
Speaker 1: you get to explain your piece that you've been holding

599
00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:48,040
Speaker 1: out on, maybe she explains some of her thoughts and

600
00:38:48,120 --> 00:38:50,840
Speaker 1: pieces she's been holding out on, and then it actually

601
00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:52,719
Speaker 1: goes from this thing that you thought was going to

602
00:38:52,760 --> 00:38:55,960
Speaker 1: be a big explosive mess to to a healing moment.

603
00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:59,560
Speaker 1: And if it does become a big explosive mess, then

604
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:01,319
Speaker 1: know why the fuck would you want to be friends

605
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:05,600
Speaker 1: with this person who's going off on you because you're

606
00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:09,400
Speaker 1: expressing how you feel about this thing, versus the potential

607
00:39:09,440 --> 00:39:11,560
Speaker 1: for it to be a healing moment that I'll actually

608
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:20,360
Speaker 1: make your friendship stronger. Either way, both are good outcomes

609
00:39:20,920 --> 00:39:23,600
Speaker 1: because if it is an explosive moment, then you go, okay, great,

610
00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:26,640
Speaker 1: I have no need to put my time and energy

611
00:39:26,640 --> 00:39:30,120
Speaker 1: into this person anymore. And if it's a healing moment,

612
00:39:30,160 --> 00:39:33,719
Speaker 1: then the friendship grows, so you only have things to

613
00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:35,160
Speaker 1: gain from this.

614
00:39:35,440 --> 00:39:44,560
Speaker 6: Des I've been worried, you know, it's just not the

615
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:47,760
Speaker 6: rest with her, but I've met so many people through her,

616
00:39:48,480 --> 00:39:52,560
Speaker 6: and you know, just I guess, just kind of upsetting

617
00:39:52,560 --> 00:39:58,160
Speaker 6: the social balance is always something that spoos me. So yeah,

618
00:39:58,160 --> 00:40:01,640
Speaker 6: but it is a good sort of I guess vetting tool.

619
00:40:02,719 --> 00:40:06,120
Speaker 1: Definitely. What do you mean by upset the social balance?

620
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:12,320
Speaker 6: Well, I I've not been the you know, the biggest

621
00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:14,840
Speaker 6: social butterfly. You know, my social circle is more of

622
00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:17,960
Speaker 6: a dot if anything. And to her, I've met a

623
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:21,280
Speaker 6: good half a dozen other people that have become fast

624
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:24,240
Speaker 6: friends and I really care for them. You know, We've

625
00:40:24,320 --> 00:40:28,200
Speaker 6: gone camping together, uh well, planning on going to a

626
00:40:28,239 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 6: rent fair and stuff like that. You know, it's it's

627
00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:34,840
Speaker 6: been really good for me socially. And it's not only

628
00:40:35,200 --> 00:40:40,520
Speaker 6: you know, the fear of losing that one friend, it's

629
00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:43,400
Speaker 6: losing the connections that I've had with her because they'll

630
00:40:43,440 --> 00:40:46,719
Speaker 6: feel like I feel like you know her and any

631
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:49,120
Speaker 6: friend group did some sort of conflicts, people tend to

632
00:40:49,239 --> 00:40:51,360
Speaker 6: choose side and.

633
00:40:51,440 --> 00:40:53,319
Speaker 1: Does does I want I want I want you, I

634
00:40:53,320 --> 00:40:54,759
Speaker 1: want you to, I want you to, I want you

635
00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:57,319
Speaker 1: to know something And I really do believe this. You

636
00:40:57,440 --> 00:41:01,680
Speaker 1: deserve a lot better in this life then to feel

637
00:41:01,719 --> 00:41:10,480
Speaker 1: as though the only shot you have at a social

638
00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 1: life is being gate kept by one individual person in

639
00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:21,120
Speaker 1: your relationship with them. You should not feel like that.

640
00:41:22,200 --> 00:41:29,640
Speaker 1: You deserve to feel a greater sense of abundance than that.

641
00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:32,520
Speaker 1: It pains me to hear you. You you feel like

642
00:41:32,560 --> 00:41:36,560
Speaker 1: you're you're shot at uh meaningful connections with other people?

643
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:39,520
Speaker 1: Is gate cap is geate kept by a singular entity,

644
00:41:39,560 --> 00:41:43,080
Speaker 1: because that's that's not the reality of your world, even

645
00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:46,680
Speaker 1: though you may think it is. And even if it is,

646
00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:51,560
Speaker 1: which it is not. And everything to do with this woman,

647
00:41:51,600 --> 00:41:54,920
Speaker 1: regardless it's not, it's a must important thing you should know.

648
00:41:57,040 --> 00:42:00,359
Speaker 1: Even if it was, it wouldn't it wouldn't be worth

649
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:04,359
Speaker 1: it if you just had to put up with this

650
00:42:04,440 --> 00:42:08,160
Speaker 1: woman's shit when you don't want to in the name

651
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:15,319
Speaker 1: of these other people. But there is so much more

652
00:42:15,360 --> 00:42:21,200
Speaker 1: abundance for you than that. Do you do you understand

653
00:42:21,239 --> 00:42:21,800
Speaker 1: what I'm saying.

654
00:42:24,600 --> 00:42:28,080
Speaker 6: I yeah, it's you know, I'm just.

655
00:42:32,719 --> 00:42:33,319
Speaker 4: It is it is.

656
00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:36,319
Speaker 6: It's scary, though you're completely correct. I know where you're

657
00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:37,920
Speaker 6: coming from. By the end of the day, you know,

658
00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:41,040
Speaker 6: it's just putting myself out there has always been a

659
00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:44,560
Speaker 6: fear of mine, and knowing her and knowing more people

660
00:42:44,640 --> 00:42:46,800
Speaker 6: has helped me get over that. And so it almost

661
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:53,480
Speaker 6: feels like, yeah, it almost feels like I'm scared to

662
00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:54,520
Speaker 6: hurt the person who I.

663
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:56,400
Speaker 2: Know has helped me totally.

664
00:42:56,440 --> 00:42:58,320
Speaker 1: And it's it is. I know, I know it's scary.

665
00:42:59,000 --> 00:43:01,319
Speaker 1: I know it's scary. It doesn't come that, it does

666
00:43:01,360 --> 00:43:03,560
Speaker 1: not is for some people it just doesn't come natural

667
00:43:03,600 --> 00:43:06,120
Speaker 1: to to to be able to put themselves out there.

668
00:43:08,840 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 1: But and I said three times right, I'll say it

669
00:43:11,680 --> 00:43:16,279
Speaker 1: again because it's the very important I feel like for

670
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:20,440
Speaker 1: you to understand, is that your social life, your ability

671
00:43:20,480 --> 00:43:24,400
Speaker 1: to have meaningful connections with other people, is not, cannot

672
00:43:24,440 --> 00:43:27,799
Speaker 1: should not be gate kept by one singular person, even

673
00:43:27,840 --> 00:43:31,919
Speaker 1: if that person is awesome and not a douche. It's

674
00:43:31,920 --> 00:43:34,440
Speaker 1: not gate capped by one person you have.

675
00:43:34,719 --> 00:43:38,040
Speaker 6: You have is so awesome, she really is okay.

676
00:43:38,120 --> 00:43:41,239
Speaker 7: But this is about even if, even if even if

677
00:43:41,239 --> 00:43:46,239
Speaker 7: she is, even if she is dead, you your ability

678
00:43:46,400 --> 00:43:49,200
Speaker 7: to have a fulfilling social life is not gate kept

679
00:43:49,239 --> 00:43:50,240
Speaker 7: by any one entity.

680
00:43:50,600 --> 00:43:55,919
Speaker 1: It's it's only uh uh, you know, affected by your

681
00:43:56,040 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 1: personal willingness to put yourself out there. So really internalize

682
00:44:01,680 --> 00:44:06,000
Speaker 1: that first of all. That's like step one. I mean,

683
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:08,040
Speaker 1: that's all I'm saying. All the shit now. I know

684
00:44:08,080 --> 00:44:11,080
Speaker 1: it's a hard thing to actually do, especially if you've

685
00:44:11,080 --> 00:44:13,600
Speaker 1: had so many years of it being difficult to put

686
00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:19,440
Speaker 1: yourself out there. But I just I I hate you

687
00:44:19,520 --> 00:44:24,080
Speaker 1: feeling like you know, it's this woman and her friends

688
00:44:24,200 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: or complete isolation, you know, I mean, that's just not true.

689
00:44:29,880 --> 00:44:36,360
Speaker 1: So I would say this two things. Feel comfortable with

690
00:44:36,440 --> 00:44:42,560
Speaker 1: setting your boundaries with this person, and then learn how

691
00:44:42,560 --> 00:44:45,839
Speaker 1: to put yourself out there. That could be another thing

692
00:44:45,840 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 1: that we could talk about for another hour. Then I

693
00:44:49,320 --> 00:44:52,600
Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm you know, that's that's a

694
00:44:52,640 --> 00:44:53,640
Speaker 1: whole other can of worms.

695
00:44:53,680 --> 00:44:57,680
Speaker 6: I mean, it's multitudes do this that you know I'm

696
00:44:57,719 --> 00:44:59,960
Speaker 6: holding back because I know I can't take this whole time,

697
00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:02,239
Speaker 6: but I'm so thankful for you speaking to me.

698
00:45:02,320 --> 00:45:05,560
Speaker 1: Man for sure, And okay, if we can't, and here's

699
00:45:05,600 --> 00:45:07,759
Speaker 1: the thing, I just if I can say anything, I

700
00:45:07,760 --> 00:45:09,399
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't know what the things are you're

701
00:45:09,400 --> 00:45:14,480
Speaker 1: holding back. I don't know if it's like a mental disorder.

702
00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:17,239
Speaker 1: I don't know what it is that you're holding back

703
00:45:17,280 --> 00:45:19,279
Speaker 1: on me. That is the thing that is blocking you

704
00:45:19,320 --> 00:45:21,719
Speaker 1: from being able to put yourself out there. But I

705
00:45:22,760 --> 00:45:27,120
Speaker 1: do believe even if you're not going to be even

706
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:29,000
Speaker 1: if you're not gonna be the fucking guy who goes

707
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,400
Speaker 1: out to a bar by himself and is like, hey, everybody,

708
00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:33,360
Speaker 1: what we're doing? What are we doing? I do believe

709
00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:35,840
Speaker 1: that there are avenues for you to put yourself out there,

710
00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:40,759
Speaker 1: even within what you perceive to be uh your boundaries.

711
00:45:41,280 --> 00:45:42,840
Speaker 1: So at least believe that.

712
00:45:46,200 --> 00:45:46,560
Speaker 2: Thank you.

713
00:45:47,560 --> 00:45:49,799
Speaker 6: I'll believe in the you that believes in me.

714
00:45:50,719 --> 00:45:55,280
Speaker 1: Awesome, thank you for calling GZ, Thank you good evening,

715
00:45:55,719 --> 00:45:59,040
Speaker 1: you too. I like that guy. I like that guy.

716
00:45:59,040 --> 00:46:05,000
Speaker 1: I don't know anything about the one, but she doesn't

717
00:46:05,000 --> 00:46:10,640
Speaker 1: even matter because I hated the idea that he was like, oh,

718
00:46:10,680 --> 00:46:12,880
Speaker 1: I need to make sure I just like I need

719
00:46:12,920 --> 00:46:15,839
Speaker 1: to make sure. I hated the idea that he was, like,

720
00:46:17,000 --> 00:46:23,879
Speaker 1: my social life is dependent upon this woman, and so

721
00:46:24,040 --> 00:46:28,600
Speaker 1: all of my actions and words have to revolve around

722
00:46:28,680 --> 00:46:33,160
Speaker 1: did not not, as he said, not upsetting the social balance,

723
00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:36,360
Speaker 1: which I don't. I don't know what has happened to

724
00:46:36,440 --> 00:46:39,640
Speaker 1: him in his life or what has his thoughts have

725
00:46:39,760 --> 00:46:44,840
Speaker 1: been to lead him there, but I want him to

726
00:46:44,840 --> 00:46:49,480
Speaker 1: know it's not. He deserves better than to be there mentally,

727
00:46:50,320 --> 00:46:51,960
Speaker 1: you know, And it's a tough for I don't know.

728
00:46:52,000 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 1: I don't have like a magical fucking pep talk or

729
00:46:56,360 --> 00:47:00,680
Speaker 1: or or fairy dust to put someone towards the path

730
00:47:00,719 --> 00:47:03,319
Speaker 1: of being able to put themselves out there more. I'm

731
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:08,000
Speaker 1: sure there's whatever people who've written things about this that

732
00:47:08,960 --> 00:47:10,759
Speaker 1: are a little bit more concrete on that, But I

733
00:47:10,800 --> 00:47:14,360
Speaker 1: just I just, if anything, Step one is realizing he

734
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:17,160
Speaker 1: should not be there. I am a man on the

735
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:21,160
Speaker 1: internet in a Gecko costume in the sky, on the

736
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:25,200
Speaker 1: website where Swedish kids yell at each other and play Fortnite.

737
00:47:27,480 --> 00:47:32,080
Speaker 1: Just remember that Hello, Hello, who is this?

738
00:47:32,080 --> 00:47:35,280
Speaker 2: This is Keith? First of all, do you know bird jokes?

739
00:47:36,440 --> 00:47:36,640
Speaker 3: No?

740
00:47:38,719 --> 00:47:39,399
Speaker 2: Awkward?

741
00:47:41,040 --> 00:47:41,760
Speaker 4: Sorry Keith.

742
00:47:41,840 --> 00:47:48,000
Speaker 1: It says here that you were almost fired after you

743
00:47:48,080 --> 00:47:49,840
Speaker 1: a rap song that you made.

744
00:47:51,520 --> 00:47:51,719
Speaker 4: Yeah.

745
00:47:51,800 --> 00:47:55,319
Speaker 2: Yeah, So I made a rap song, very vulgar, you know,

746
00:47:55,480 --> 00:47:57,440
Speaker 2: the first songs that I really made. So I was

747
00:47:57,480 --> 00:48:00,239
Speaker 2: super excited to like kind of show it all off.

748
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:05,400
Speaker 2: So I showed it off to some people at work. Well,

749
00:48:05,440 --> 00:48:08,719
Speaker 2: you know, probably not the smartest idea. And then uh,

750
00:48:09,640 --> 00:48:11,839
Speaker 2: then there's this girl I got kind of intimate with

751
00:48:12,680 --> 00:48:15,239
Speaker 2: and uh we stopped talking. Then she hit me up

752
00:48:15,280 --> 00:48:16,640
Speaker 2: and I was like, hey, I made a rap song.

753
00:48:16,719 --> 00:48:19,120
Speaker 2: She's like, oh, let me hear it. I don't know,

754
00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:22,680
Speaker 2: it's kind of vulgar, so uh she's like, oh come on.

755
00:48:23,000 --> 00:48:26,560
Speaker 2: So I sent it to her and uh within.

756
00:48:26,320 --> 00:48:31,719
Speaker 4: A couple of days she she told work, and I

757
00:48:31,719 --> 00:48:33,480
Speaker 4: got called down to HR you know, and almost got

758
00:48:33,520 --> 00:48:34,200
Speaker 4: fired for it.

759
00:48:34,840 --> 00:48:38,440
Speaker 1: Okay, what exactly is vulgar about the song?

760
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:42,920
Speaker 2: Well, I can, uh, I can do a little snippet.

761
00:48:42,440 --> 00:48:43,239
Speaker 4: For you if you like.

762
00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:46,520
Speaker 1: I'm I'm nervous to hear it.

763
00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:51,960
Speaker 2: But sure, okay, Well it's it's this isn't a very

764
00:48:51,960 --> 00:48:54,440
Speaker 2: bad there's much more worse part. This is just like

765
00:48:55,040 --> 00:48:58,120
Speaker 2: the favorite part that everyone loves. It goes, Uh, I'm

766
00:48:58,160 --> 00:49:00,759
Speaker 2: a dreamer, I'm a mema conspiracy, believe a nine to

767
00:49:00,760 --> 00:49:03,319
Speaker 2: eleven never happened? Got the mask, she's a clapping.

768
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:07,560
Speaker 1: Okay, that's not that bad. What's the what what's the

769
00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:08,439
Speaker 1: really bad part?

770
00:49:10,480 --> 00:49:11,120
Speaker 4: Uh?

771
00:49:11,160 --> 00:49:12,760
Speaker 1: Well, they get me kicked off of twitch.

772
00:49:14,560 --> 00:49:17,160
Speaker 2: Uh no, no, no, it's not like it's not like

773
00:49:17,440 --> 00:49:18,080
Speaker 2: super bad.

774
00:49:18,160 --> 00:49:22,160
Speaker 4: It's just like, uh sorry, I'm on the spot.

775
00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:24,840
Speaker 2: So I'm like losing half the song. I'm trying to

776
00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:26,920
Speaker 2: I'm trying to think of it because I I can

777
00:49:26,960 --> 00:49:29,960
Speaker 2: typically sing it off the dome every time because I

778
00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:30,920
Speaker 2: did so many takes.

779
00:49:30,960 --> 00:49:34,200
Speaker 4: But it's a I'm gonna tell you what do you

780
00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:35,200
Speaker 4: want me to go? Sorry?

781
00:49:35,520 --> 00:49:39,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, sure, I'm gonna tell you one time. I just

782
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:41,560
Speaker 2: want to fuck your bitch, but I know I never

783
00:49:41,600 --> 00:49:47,200
Speaker 2: will because I'm muggling. Yeah, ship, Sorry, it's that's not

784
00:49:47,239 --> 00:49:48,200
Speaker 2: that's not that bad.

785
00:49:48,239 --> 00:49:51,239
Speaker 1: Well keep going. What's the really bad? What's the part

786
00:49:52,280 --> 00:49:53,360
Speaker 1: that got you fired?

787
00:49:55,560 --> 00:49:55,719
Speaker 3: Oh?

788
00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:57,560
Speaker 2: I didn't get fired for it. I just got talked

789
00:49:57,560 --> 00:49:59,160
Speaker 2: to HR and they're like, oh, well, I know you

790
00:49:59,239 --> 00:50:00,839
Speaker 2: got we know you got had a thing and she's

791
00:50:00,880 --> 00:50:05,680
Speaker 2: just doing this out of spite, lad, But yeah, I don't.

792
00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:07,040
Speaker 4: Yeah.

793
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:09,760
Speaker 2: HR talk to me like, this is a very fireable offense.

794
00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:11,760
Speaker 2: You could uh get in a lot of trouble.

795
00:50:11,920 --> 00:50:15,879
Speaker 1: Wait wait, wait, HR told you that this woman was

796
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:17,440
Speaker 1: out of spite.

797
00:50:19,880 --> 00:50:24,480
Speaker 2: They didn't exactly say that, but they're like, we understand

798
00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:28,759
Speaker 2: why this person reported you, and we're not going to

799
00:50:28,800 --> 00:50:32,480
Speaker 2: fire you because we know like kind of the ins

800
00:50:32,480 --> 00:50:34,560
Speaker 2: and outs of what you guys had going on basically.

801
00:50:36,040 --> 00:50:38,880
Speaker 2: And it's even funnier because they listened to the song

802
00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:41,680
Speaker 2: and they're like, yeah, we listened to the song and

803
00:50:41,719 --> 00:50:44,560
Speaker 2: it's not appropriate. So just hearing my boss and HR

804
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:49,719
Speaker 2: something they listened to songs is like, really, it's kind

805
00:50:49,719 --> 00:50:50,440
Speaker 2: of embarrassing.

806
00:50:50,960 --> 00:50:54,480
Speaker 1: But they didn't play it. They didn't play it with

807
00:50:54,560 --> 00:50:55,400
Speaker 1: you in the room.

808
00:50:56,360 --> 00:50:57,080
Speaker 3: So much worse.

809
00:50:57,200 --> 00:51:01,160
Speaker 1: No, the worst part of the song.

810
00:51:02,840 --> 00:51:06,719
Speaker 2: Okay, sorry, it's I'm a little fuzzled right now, so

811
00:51:06,760 --> 00:51:09,200
Speaker 2: hold on, let me treat I'm a dream mama Mima conspiracy,

812
00:51:09,200 --> 00:51:12,000
Speaker 2: believing that eleven happened, got the mask, She says, clapping

813
00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:13,040
Speaker 2: in the bed.

814
00:51:13,120 --> 00:51:13,680
Speaker 4: I'm a freak.

815
00:51:13,960 --> 00:51:16,000
Speaker 2: Do sh It's so unique, like the sixty nine running

816
00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:17,120
Speaker 2: around at leave that pussy week.

817
00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:18,239
Speaker 4: Do this every week.

818
00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:20,840
Speaker 2: It ain't nothing new every time we fuck. It sounds

819
00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:27,520
Speaker 2: like a zoo all right, uh yeah, And then I

820
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:31,759
Speaker 2: talked about playing her stuff like a kazoo. But yeah,

821
00:51:33,880 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 2: uh man, I.

822
00:51:35,320 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 1: Just keep going this song? What that You can keep

823
00:51:40,480 --> 00:51:41,800
Speaker 1: going if you know more lyrics?

824
00:51:43,520 --> 00:51:47,520
Speaker 4: Oh no, I don't, or ship I could pull it up.

825
00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:52,000
Speaker 1: There's Is there a part of the song that really

826
00:51:52,040 --> 00:51:53,040
Speaker 1: bad that you don't want to tell me?

827
00:51:55,120 --> 00:51:57,719
Speaker 2: No, No, there's just honestly, doesn't get super much worse.

828
00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:00,919
Speaker 2: It's just me talking about I want to fuck every

829
00:52:00,960 --> 00:52:02,040
Speaker 2: girl in the world basically.

830
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:07,440
Speaker 1: Okay, I mean that's pretty standard this about.

831
00:52:07,320 --> 00:52:08,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know.

832
00:52:08,400 --> 00:52:10,719
Speaker 2: But it's just like it's too vulgar for them, And

833
00:52:11,239 --> 00:52:13,720
Speaker 2: they said that this isn't a part of our company

834
00:52:13,760 --> 00:52:16,040
Speaker 2: and we don't want this kind of stuff reflecting back

835
00:52:16,120 --> 00:52:16,440
Speaker 2: on us?

836
00:52:17,520 --> 00:52:20,200
Speaker 1: What what is this? What is the company that you

837
00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:22,359
Speaker 1: work for? Do you still work for these people?

838
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:24,839
Speaker 4: I do not work for them.

839
00:52:24,920 --> 00:52:29,000
Speaker 2: And actually you would love this company, but uh hmmm

840
00:52:29,200 --> 00:52:33,320
Speaker 2: do I because I honestly I left working there literally

841
00:52:33,400 --> 00:52:37,520
Speaker 2: like a week ago. So uh but it is a

842
00:52:37,800 --> 00:52:40,880
Speaker 2: giant candy company that I think you would love, and

843
00:52:40,920 --> 00:52:43,360
Speaker 2: I kind of want to send you I kind of

844
00:52:43,400 --> 00:52:44,520
Speaker 2: want to send you the link.

845
00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:46,160
Speaker 4: To this place because you would love our stuff.

846
00:52:46,400 --> 00:52:47,480
Speaker 2: World's dust everything?

847
00:52:48,120 --> 00:52:49,319
Speaker 1: Is it Dylan's candy bar?

848
00:52:50,880 --> 00:52:51,239
Speaker 4: It is not.

849
00:52:53,160 --> 00:52:57,879
Speaker 2: Okay, you are okay, I'll tell you fucking I don't

850
00:52:57,880 --> 00:52:59,319
Speaker 2: work there anymore. I don't plan going back.

851
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:00,960
Speaker 4: It is Albanese.

852
00:53:01,080 --> 00:53:02,920
Speaker 2: So we make the world. They make the world the

853
00:53:03,000 --> 00:53:06,760
Speaker 2: greatest gummies, all gummies.

854
00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:09,680
Speaker 1: Okay, so it's albant Oh wait I do wait, I

855
00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:14,000
Speaker 1: actually do know wait yo, Okay, I actually do know Albanese.

856
00:53:14,239 --> 00:53:17,000
Speaker 1: I used to work at a frozen yogurt storm and

857
00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:21,759
Speaker 1: in the back they we would have these alban this

858
00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:30,040
Speaker 1: giant fucking bag of Albanese uh sour gummy worms and

859
00:53:30,200 --> 00:53:36,759
Speaker 1: they were and they were so fresh and chewy, and

860
00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:38,759
Speaker 1: it's those are the Albaniese gummy worms are the best

861
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:39,719
Speaker 1: gummy worms I've had.

862
00:53:39,960 --> 00:53:43,440
Speaker 2: Okay, oh yeah, honestly, all of our gummies are good.

863
00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:46,960
Speaker 1: No, it's great. I make great things. So I let

864
00:53:47,040 --> 00:53:52,359
Speaker 1: me ask you a question. Yes, if we were empathizing

865
00:53:53,640 --> 00:53:57,799
Speaker 1: with the HR reps at Albanese, we were seeing things

866
00:53:57,880 --> 00:54:01,239
Speaker 1: from their point of view, in what way do you

867
00:54:01,440 --> 00:54:09,120
Speaker 1: believe you describing fucking somebody so loud that it sounds

868
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:17,279
Speaker 1: like a zoo is contradictory to uh, the mission of

869
00:54:17,400 --> 00:54:18,480
Speaker 1: the Albanese Company.

870
00:54:21,280 --> 00:54:21,640
Speaker 3: I don't know.

871
00:54:21,800 --> 00:54:24,160
Speaker 2: Kind of a lot is just I mean, I guess

872
00:54:24,200 --> 00:54:27,200
Speaker 2: it's my thing, is like, you know, it's my outside life.

873
00:54:27,239 --> 00:54:28,840
Speaker 2: I don't see what the big deal is, but I

874
00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:31,840
Speaker 2: get it that that they don't want this kind of

875
00:54:32,080 --> 00:54:34,160
Speaker 2: Either're like I don't know. They're like, what are you

876
00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:35,880
Speaker 2: trying to go? Dig in the wrap? I was like, no,

877
00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:38,799
Speaker 2: it's just something to relieve stress. I'm very stressed out

878
00:54:38,840 --> 00:54:39,240
Speaker 2: and it's.

879
00:54:39,160 --> 00:54:42,000
Speaker 4: Just I don't know, I enjoy it. It's fun.

880
00:54:42,080 --> 00:54:43,719
Speaker 2: It takes my mind off things, you know.

881
00:54:45,480 --> 00:54:46,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I.

882
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:48,759
Speaker 2: What is this?

883
00:54:49,120 --> 00:54:52,279
Speaker 1: What does this song even have to do with work?

884
00:54:52,320 --> 00:54:54,640
Speaker 1: Why are we even talking about it with your HR rap.

885
00:54:54,760 --> 00:54:59,200
Speaker 2: Is it like I have I enter the covers, showed

886
00:54:59,200 --> 00:55:02,240
Speaker 2: it to because I showed it to co workers.

887
00:55:03,000 --> 00:55:11,160
Speaker 4: That's what it was. So I I mean, I don't

888
00:55:11,560 --> 00:55:12,319
Speaker 4: if you know what I mean?

889
00:55:13,040 --> 00:55:13,239
Speaker 2: Yeah?

890
00:55:13,360 --> 00:55:19,200
Speaker 1: Sure. So did you receive any punishment of any kind or.

891
00:55:19,239 --> 00:55:21,680
Speaker 2: It was just to I did not. They just told

892
00:55:21,760 --> 00:55:23,719
Speaker 2: me to like take it down, don't show anyone, which

893
00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:25,880
Speaker 2: I did take it down. Well, you know, now that

894
00:55:25,960 --> 00:55:27,960
Speaker 2: I don't work there anymore, I might have put it

895
00:55:28,080 --> 00:55:30,399
Speaker 2: back up just so I can show my friends because

896
00:55:30,400 --> 00:55:32,520
Speaker 2: I'm just showing people. You know, it's a it's a fun.

897
00:55:32,400 --> 00:55:36,840
Speaker 1: Song, you know. I you know, Keith, I think I

898
00:55:36,920 --> 00:55:42,000
Speaker 1: don't think you should work somewhere that is compromising. Uh,

899
00:55:42,239 --> 00:55:46,040
Speaker 1: you know your personal values in this way. You know,

900
00:55:47,960 --> 00:55:52,920
Speaker 1: if you believe that, you know, sex, money and drugs

901
00:55:53,080 --> 00:55:55,640
Speaker 1: is important to you in your life. You know, if

902
00:55:55,680 --> 00:55:58,800
Speaker 1: that's one of your values, then I think you should

903
00:55:58,960 --> 00:56:02,800
Speaker 1: feel free to live life in that direction without the

904
00:56:03,080 --> 00:56:05,160
Speaker 1: h I completely you're telling you what to do.

905
00:56:06,760 --> 00:56:08,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, I completely agree. It's not even.

906
00:56:08,840 --> 00:56:10,920
Speaker 2: It's not even that's what my life revolves around.

907
00:56:10,920 --> 00:56:13,040
Speaker 4: It's just I don't know, I like to don't.

908
00:56:14,000 --> 00:56:16,000
Speaker 2: That's just the win my wrap. That's just what comes

909
00:56:16,040 --> 00:56:16,319
Speaker 2: to mind.

910
00:56:16,400 --> 00:56:16,719
Speaker 4: I don't know.

911
00:56:19,160 --> 00:56:21,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, so what is next for you? Are you going

912
00:56:21,080 --> 00:56:21,839
Speaker 1: to get a new job?

913
00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:23,640
Speaker 4: Yeah?

914
00:56:23,719 --> 00:56:25,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't exactly know what I want to do,

915
00:56:26,040 --> 00:56:29,600
Speaker 2: but it's I'm glad I left there to stress off

916
00:56:29,719 --> 00:56:33,560
Speaker 2: me and uh, I'm excited for a new and new future.

917
00:56:35,160 --> 00:56:37,000
Speaker 1: Now, if you could be doing anything, if you could

918
00:56:37,000 --> 00:56:39,680
Speaker 1: wave a magic wand and you you have whatever professional

919
00:56:39,719 --> 00:56:40,840
Speaker 1: you desire, what would that be?

920
00:56:42,920 --> 00:56:43,560
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.

921
00:56:45,160 --> 00:56:51,439
Speaker 2: Any No, like, okay, a professional bowler, that'd be fun.

922
00:56:53,239 --> 00:56:56,200
Speaker 1: Do you want us to boycott Albany's in your defense?

923
00:56:57,200 --> 00:56:59,400
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, no, I'm it's it's not that

924
00:56:59,480 --> 00:56:59,960
Speaker 4: big of a deal.

925
00:57:00,040 --> 00:57:01,080
Speaker 2: Well now there, Okay, I.

926
00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:05,000
Speaker 1: Wasn't going to because I really do enjoy their their

927
00:57:05,040 --> 00:57:05,920
Speaker 1: their gummy worms.

928
00:57:08,520 --> 00:57:10,759
Speaker 4: Yeah no, no, don't boycount me. Yeah, eat up, man,

929
00:57:10,800 --> 00:57:13,840
Speaker 4: I know you love the candy. I'll send you some

930
00:57:13,920 --> 00:57:15,960
Speaker 4: if I could. Oh, I saw you got a peel box.

931
00:57:17,560 --> 00:57:19,600
Speaker 1: Oh fuck, I haven't that that it's not active, but

932
00:57:20,240 --> 00:57:20,960
Speaker 1: I'll get a new one.

933
00:57:22,480 --> 00:57:22,800
Speaker 4: Ied.

934
00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:26,840
Speaker 1: Uh, Keith, is there anything else you want to say

935
00:57:26,840 --> 00:57:30,040
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go? Uh?

936
00:57:31,280 --> 00:57:32,959
Speaker 4: No, piece and loaf, Piece and loaf.

937
00:57:34,400 --> 00:57:36,880
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Keith. Do you wait, actually, real quick,

938
00:57:37,000 --> 00:57:40,320
Speaker 1: thank you real quick. Is there a place that we

939
00:57:40,400 --> 00:57:44,120
Speaker 1: can see Do you want to plug a channel for

940
00:57:44,240 --> 00:57:45,840
Speaker 1: this video? Where can we see it? Do you want

941
00:57:45,880 --> 00:57:47,640
Speaker 1: to plug it here?

942
00:57:47,840 --> 00:57:47,960
Speaker 5: Man?

943
00:57:48,040 --> 00:57:52,920
Speaker 2: I I I I took it down, but I was

944
00:57:53,040 --> 00:57:56,360
Speaker 2: planning on putting it back up. So I don't have

945
00:57:56,520 --> 00:57:58,960
Speaker 2: anything right now, but I will put.

946
00:57:58,840 --> 00:57:59,320
Speaker 4: It back up.

947
00:58:00,480 --> 00:58:02,400
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you know? Do you have at least

948
00:58:02,440 --> 00:58:04,200
Speaker 1: the name of the channel that you're gonna put it

949
00:58:04,280 --> 00:58:04,440
Speaker 1: up on?

950
00:58:06,000 --> 00:58:09,600
Speaker 2: Uh no, well, the channel that it was on was

951
00:58:10,120 --> 00:58:11,600
Speaker 2: Jimmy's Jangles or something.

952
00:58:11,680 --> 00:58:13,320
Speaker 4: I don't know. I just came up with some stupid

953
00:58:13,400 --> 00:58:13,920
Speaker 4: YouTube name.

954
00:58:15,240 --> 00:58:20,680
Speaker 1: Okay, So if we go to YouTube dot com slash

955
00:58:20,760 --> 00:58:23,640
Speaker 1: Jimmy's Jangles and you subscribe, are we gonna get a

956
00:58:23,720 --> 00:58:25,040
Speaker 1: notification when you do put it up?

957
00:58:26,640 --> 00:58:27,240
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh.

958
00:58:27,320 --> 00:58:29,880
Speaker 2: Okay, I'm not gonna waste your time and try to

959
00:58:29,920 --> 00:58:32,320
Speaker 2: figure out exactly what the U, R L and everything is.

960
00:58:32,440 --> 00:58:35,360
Speaker 2: But I'm not it's something like that.

961
00:58:36,280 --> 00:58:41,200
Speaker 1: Okay, we'll figure it out, all right, Thanks for calling Keith.

962
00:58:41,720 --> 00:58:43,680
Speaker 4: Well yeah, yeah, yeah, you have a good night.

963
00:58:45,800 --> 00:58:50,600
Speaker 1: They found the song okay, somebody all right, it looks

964
00:58:50,640 --> 00:58:54,840
Speaker 1: like somebody posted the song in the chat. Okay, all right,

965
00:58:54,840 --> 00:58:59,640
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do all right, I'm gonna all right. It

966
00:58:59,720 --> 00:59:06,360
Speaker 1: was hosted eleven minutes ago. Okay, it looks like all right, yeah,

967
00:59:06,400 --> 00:59:13,720
Speaker 1: this is the song. Should we listen to it? Should we?

968
00:59:14,120 --> 00:59:14,440
Speaker 2: All right?

969
00:59:14,480 --> 00:59:28,200
Speaker 1: Fuck it, let's listen to it. I'm gonna tell you

970
00:59:28,360 --> 00:59:30,960
Speaker 1: one time, I just want to fuck your bitch shine. No,

971
00:59:31,120 --> 00:59:32,000
Speaker 1: I never will.

972
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:33,800
Speaker 3: Because of ugly airship pull.

973
00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:36,520
Speaker 2: Man, if I could just see those fucking tits, I

974
00:59:36,800 --> 00:59:37,760
Speaker 2: give you a high five.

975
00:59:37,920 --> 00:59:40,320
Speaker 1: Let you finish it, and that ship I want to sue,

976
00:59:40,360 --> 00:59:41,880
Speaker 1: I'll end up with the best bitch.

977
00:59:41,960 --> 00:59:43,320
Speaker 2: She'll let me stuck a toe.

978
00:59:43,480 --> 00:59:46,640
Speaker 1: Damn much as you split. She won't complaint, winn anywhere

979
00:59:46,680 --> 00:59:48,120
Speaker 1: I want it, even.

980
00:59:47,960 --> 00:59:48,760
Speaker 3: If it's a face.

981
00:59:48,920 --> 00:59:50,280
Speaker 1: I'll pumble that ship.

982
00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:53,760
Speaker 2: I'm just kidding, old why, I'm just the bright side

983
00:59:53,840 --> 00:59:54,800
Speaker 2: so fucking affection.

984
00:59:55,000 --> 00:59:57,520
Speaker 3: Yes, I think it's ice time, just like the rims

985
00:59:57,600 --> 01:00:00,520
Speaker 3: on my motherfucking rid fucking up at the because you

986
01:00:00,640 --> 01:00:02,640
Speaker 3: know I'm that guy.

987
01:00:03,280 --> 01:00:06,280
Speaker 1: I may look like a bitch, but don't give a stick.

988
01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:08,560
Speaker 1: All I have to do is give your girl one vocal,

989
01:00:08,680 --> 01:00:11,360
Speaker 1: give her that dick, and it'll have a book. My

990
01:00:11,600 --> 01:00:15,080
Speaker 1: penis is the chef. Just watch a fucking cook. I'm

991
01:00:15,080 --> 01:00:18,840
Speaker 1: gonna try. Penis is the chef to watch it. Loven

992
01:00:18,960 --> 01:00:21,880
Speaker 1: never happened, got the ASSISI clap up in the bed.

993
01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:22,959
Speaker 1: I'm a freak guy.

994
01:00:23,080 --> 01:00:25,640
Speaker 2: You should So you meet like a sixty nine running

995
01:00:25,720 --> 01:00:26,960
Speaker 2: round that pussy week.

996
01:00:27,400 --> 01:00:30,280
Speaker 1: I do the seven week. It ain't nothing new every time.

997
01:00:30,360 --> 01:00:33,400
Speaker 1: The fuck it sounds like the dude so much random

998
01:00:33,440 --> 01:00:36,640
Speaker 1: ship that we like to exclude too much to rep

999
01:00:36,800 --> 01:00:39,720
Speaker 1: So I'll just name a few. We started with another

1000
01:00:39,760 --> 01:00:42,040
Speaker 1: It's gotta have some food. It's like you in the

1001
01:00:42,160 --> 01:00:43,640
Speaker 1: ass with a stick of band.

1002
01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:47,040
Speaker 2: Boot in between breaks, playing cards, me and you and

1003
01:00:47,160 --> 01:00:49,720
Speaker 2: you don't want to know what I do with the casu.

1004
01:00:53,880 --> 01:01:07,240
Speaker 1: This guy like I like to beat? Is this it

1005
01:01:07,720 --> 01:01:07,880
Speaker 1: is there?

1006
01:01:07,920 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 4: Any more?

1007
01:01:09,440 --> 01:01:10,840
Speaker 1: Is the rest of it? Is it over all right?

1008
01:01:10,840 --> 01:01:17,919
Speaker 1: It's over all right? Okay, Yeah, I would have fired

1009
01:01:17,960 --> 01:01:21,479
Speaker 1: you for that too. I'm on the Gummy Worm people's side.

1010
01:01:22,480 --> 01:01:28,000
Speaker 1: I think they did the right thing by causing you

1011
01:01:28,080 --> 01:01:30,960
Speaker 1: to lose your job because of making that No, I'm

1012
01:01:31,000 --> 01:01:40,720
Speaker 1: just kidding, but I think if the worst part, if

1013
01:01:40,800 --> 01:01:46,280
Speaker 1: the worst consequence you receive from making that song.

1014
01:01:48,360 --> 01:01:49,200
Speaker 3: Is that.

1015
01:01:51,320 --> 01:01:53,560
Speaker 1: You are no longer allowed to work at a Gummy

1016
01:01:53,600 --> 01:01:58,720
Speaker 1: Bear factory. I think you made it out pretty good.

1017
01:02:00,840 --> 01:02:04,880
Speaker 1: I think it could have been far worse, and I'm

1018
01:02:04,960 --> 01:02:09,960
Speaker 1: happy it wasn't. And maybe this will give you.

1019
01:02:11,520 --> 01:02:13,400
Speaker 5: A new.

1020
01:02:14,760 --> 01:02:22,000
Speaker 1: Motivation to work further on your craft. And when you

1021
01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:29,560
Speaker 1: are topping the charts one day, eventually, I'll be happy

1022
01:02:29,640 --> 01:02:33,000
Speaker 1: to be there to say that I knew you. When

1023
01:02:33,800 --> 01:02:37,280
Speaker 1: the beacon goes on the line taking your phone calls

1024
01:02:37,360 --> 01:02:41,360
Speaker 1: every night, their beacon goes to I's teaching you Cloud

1025
01:02:41,440 --> 01:02:44,040
Speaker 1: in the mint of your life, but he's not really

1026
01:02:44,200 --> 01:02:44,960
Speaker 1: an expert.