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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effect. And just like that, we're back

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Speaker 1: on the air. Welcome back to yet another Carefully Reckless episode.

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Speaker 1: What's Your Girl? Jess? Hilarious. We're gonna jump straight in

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Speaker 1: just fix my mess. Listen, So we have an update.

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Speaker 1: Remember the black lady, the beautiful black queen that was

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Speaker 1: dating the white dude with the prejudice brother and all

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Speaker 1: that ship. We have an update from her. Okay, she says,

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Speaker 1: thank you so much for the advice. I really needed that,

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Speaker 1: especially coming from not only another black woman, but also

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Speaker 1: from someone on the outside. It was his cousin that

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Speaker 1: made that comment about my brother, not his brother, and

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Speaker 1: I don't trust them around my daughter if I'm not around.

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Speaker 1: But I can't control what my boyfriend does. If him

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Speaker 1: and I split, my anxiety will go through the roof

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Speaker 1: because now I'm not there to protect or defend my child.

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Speaker 1: Her dad obviously won't. H They've already made little comments

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Speaker 1: about my daughter's hair. She's gorgeous and has white people

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Speaker 1: hair long, beautiful and super curly, unlike her cousins their kids.

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Speaker 1: I feel like they're jealous. And my boyfriend told me

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Speaker 1: that his brother always had a thing for black girls.

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Speaker 1: So I don't know. It's just confusing. It's a lot

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Speaker 1: to deal with, and I'm tired. I don't know how

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Speaker 1: to defend myself verbally. I freeze up. If I had

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Speaker 1: the words, they would flow, but I don't. Okay, girl,

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Speaker 1: you need some more mess fixing ship. Oh my god. So, no,

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Speaker 1: you cannot control what your boyfriend does. No, you can't.

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Speaker 1: You cannot control what he does, but you can control

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Speaker 1: how your child grows up. See this is a little

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Speaker 1: hard for me to kind of guide you through because

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Speaker 1: this is in fact his child as well. No, you

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Speaker 1: cannot control what he does. No, you cannot. I don't

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Speaker 1: even know the type of relationship that he has with

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Speaker 1: his daughter. Does he love her? Is he kind with her?

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Speaker 1: Is he gentle with her? Is she a daddy's girl?

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Speaker 1: Is he very very close with his daughter? You are

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Speaker 1: thinking the right way, because no, I wouldn't want them

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Speaker 1: around my child. I don't trust those people. I wouldn't

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Speaker 1: trust them. You said they already made comments about her hair,

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Speaker 1: and she has, as you quoted, white people hair. I

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Speaker 1: would disagree with that, because that's where the curls come from.

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Speaker 1: The curls actually come from you, baby, That comes from you.

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Speaker 1: White people have long, thin, stringy hair, sometimes it's thick,

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Speaker 1: but they don't really have coily curls. They don't have curls.

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Speaker 1: I mean, that's your DNA. Don't give them all that credit.

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Speaker 1: I just want to be very clear with you about

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Speaker 1: the part where you said your boyfriend told you that

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Speaker 1: his brother has always had a thing for black girls. Now,

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Speaker 1: that could be true, but it ain't the type of

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Speaker 1: thing that we think it is. Ain't no way you

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Speaker 1: had a thing for black girls, but you are constantly

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Speaker 1: verbally abusing them. There's no fucking way. You're very judgmental

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Speaker 1: and and stereotypical. I don't know that he fits the

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Speaker 1: mold of a racist man in my eyes, from what

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Speaker 1: I gathered from your previous email and to this one. Now,

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Speaker 1: are you freezing up because you don't know what to say?

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Speaker 1: Or are you freezing up because you're scared, or you

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Speaker 1: really don't know what to say, or you don't want

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Speaker 1: to hurt their feelings, or you you're just trying to

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Speaker 1: keep the commotion down. What is your reason for freezing up?

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Speaker 1: Because I can help you out with the words, Babe,

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Speaker 1: I can help you out with the words, if that's

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Speaker 1: all it is. I still feel like you're kind of

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Speaker 1: protecting your man, protecting you know. I think you want

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Speaker 1: to just keep the commotion down, but they are going

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Speaker 1: to keep disrespecting you. I don't think that you should

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Speaker 1: have to live miserable because you want to give your

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Speaker 1: your daughter the life of a family like that family

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Speaker 1: life that because she'd be even more fucked up growing

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Speaker 1: up in that setting where one side of the family

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Speaker 1: secretly hates the other side of the family because of

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Speaker 1: skin color, because of race. And then now it's speaking

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Speaker 1: as her I am both of them. I'm white and

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Speaker 1: I'm black, So I don't know which way to go.

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Speaker 1: You know, she'd be more fucked up growing up that

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Speaker 1: way then growing up with Mommy in a happy place,

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Speaker 1: still seeing her family, not trying to ask him out completely.

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Speaker 1: But she needs to grow up in a loving environment.

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Speaker 1: She's a kid, she's very innocent. She didn't actually be here.

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Speaker 1: You guys made her against her will, so she doesn't

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Speaker 1: deserve this. So you have to now take charge as

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Speaker 1: the best thing for you. So if you're not gonna

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Speaker 1: do it for you, do it for your child, and

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Speaker 1: I'm telling you. That's my advice. Check back in. Let

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Speaker 1: me know, baby girl, and listen. I just want to

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Speaker 1: tell you this. I love you. I don't even know you.

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Speaker 1: I love you. Though you're very strong. You're stronger than

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Speaker 1: you think you are because you're dealing with this and

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Speaker 1: you don't have to. I'm not praising you for dealing

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Speaker 1: with this because you shouldn't want to. You don't have to.

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Speaker 1: You're a powerful, strong black woman, but you are strong

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Speaker 1: for putting on this this armored skin, acting like this ship.

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Speaker 1: Don't fucking bother you, acting like you can't get a

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Speaker 1: bout of this ship. Younion gotta be treated like this.

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Speaker 1: Check back in, babe. Moving on there, Jess, please help

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Speaker 1: me with my messy ass mess. Me and my boyfriend

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Speaker 1: have been together for almost two years now and have

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Speaker 1: gone through a lot together, mostly due to a lot

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Speaker 1: of my drunken black out mishaps. A bit would be

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Speaker 1: crazy sometimes off that damn consle. He goes, Okay, bitch,

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Speaker 1: I me too, But this is not about me. This

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Speaker 1: is about you. However, lately, we have been trying to

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Speaker 1: openly communicate better and not keep our feelings bottled up inside.

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Speaker 1: But I don't know how to approach this situation and

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Speaker 1: I need your help. We have been amazing lately, but

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Speaker 1: I had gone through his phone when we weren't doing

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Speaker 1: so great and we weren't even having sex at all

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Speaker 1: because he isn't fucking me, he gotta be fucking somebody else.

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Speaker 1: And I see he is on Tender and Facebook dating

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Speaker 1: and he is in fact talking a bitches. Oh. Furthermore,

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Speaker 1: he went to Vegas a couple of months ago and

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Speaker 1: tried to meet up with one of his old friends

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Speaker 1: and told her that he wasn't with his girl anymore.

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Speaker 1: They didn't meet up, but they faced time for about

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Speaker 1: We've been doing really well, but I have been keeping

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Speaker 1: this information bottled up for weeks and just don't feel

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Speaker 1: like we can move forward unless I mentioned the disrespect

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Speaker 1: and him still having contact with his friend. All right, ma'am,

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Speaker 1: So let's just start here. If you're ask what and

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Speaker 1: so damn drunk all the damn time, you would be

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Speaker 1: able to pay attention to your man, and you would

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Speaker 1: be able to see these things before they happen. Okay, listen,

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Speaker 1: Drinking is cool sometimes, you know what I mean. Social

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Speaker 1: drinking is cool. Occasional drinking is cool. But it becomes

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Speaker 1: a problem. And you know it's a problem because you

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Speaker 1: don't just drink to have a fun time. Baby, you

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Speaker 1: said you get so drunk where you black out. You

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Speaker 1: said drunken blackout mishaps plural. This is something that you do.

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Speaker 1: This is something that he has to cope with. Whether

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Speaker 1: you see it that way or not, it's hard dealing

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Speaker 1: with an alcoholic. Sorry that I called you that, but honey,

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Speaker 1: drunken blackout mishaps. I think that you just admitted to

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Speaker 1: me that you were an alcoholic. So while I'm not

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Speaker 1: judging you because I love alcohol, I drink about five

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Speaker 1: six times a week that's by day, so I'm not

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Speaker 1: judging you at all. However, I don't abuse liquor to

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Speaker 1: the point where I have drunken blacked out mishaps. All right, now,

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Speaker 1: let's move on to him. You said you've been doing

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Speaker 1: very good lately, but you found out some ship that

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Speaker 1: you didn't bring up to him. Obviously, I think you

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Speaker 1: about it. I think it needs to be in a

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Speaker 1: very warm, calm setting, and you do not need to

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Speaker 1: drink before you do this. Feel free to do whatever after,

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Speaker 1: but do not drink for this because you need a

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Speaker 1: clear conscience. You need to really see what his angle is. Why,

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Speaker 1: what would make you make a tinder? What would make

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Speaker 1: you turn to Facebook dating? Do you need someone to

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Speaker 1: just give you this attention because you said one of

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Speaker 1: his old friends he went to Vegas weeks ago and

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Speaker 1: he didn't even see her. He just face times, or

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Speaker 1: he is looking for attention. I don't even think he's

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Speaker 1: looking to be with someone based off of what I

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Speaker 1: gathered here which you sent me. I don't think he's

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Speaker 1: looking to replace you. I don't think he's even looking

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Speaker 1: to physically sexually cheat on you. I think he is

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Speaker 1: missing that attention. You lack that in a relationship, and

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Speaker 1: just like us, just like women, if we're not getting

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Speaker 1: what we feel we need or that attention, you know,

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Speaker 1: just the basis of a regular relationship in our relationship,

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Speaker 1: and we don't want to leave, we'll look for it elsewhere.

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Speaker 1: We won't leave, sometimes we will, but sometimes you just

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Speaker 1: You just still lack certain ships that you know you

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Speaker 1: you're fine, You feel like you're patching it up, but

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Speaker 1: starts with communication. I don't think you should keep that

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Speaker 1: see where that leads you. But he he wants attention,

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Speaker 1: you have a great relationship. It sounds like that you've

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Speaker 1: commended it lots of times before telling me the small problem.

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Speaker 1: This is very very small in my eyes compared to

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Speaker 1: other relationships and the other hardships that people go through.

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Speaker 1: Keep me updated, baby girl, Stay off the COSA, thank you,

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Speaker 1: Hold up, hold up, I noticed ship getting good. But

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Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen. Moving on, Hey, Joss,

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Speaker 1: So I've been in a relationship with a man for

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Speaker 1: twelve years. The relationship itself is okay. He treats me right,

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Speaker 1: buys me things, open doors, et cetera. The problem is

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Speaker 1: it's been three years and we both have children, and

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Speaker 1: I've never seen what they look like. M hm damn yep.

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Speaker 1: Three whole years together and all we do is sneak

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Speaker 1: around our kids. I've been to his home and he's

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Speaker 1: been to mind several times, but we're always hiding one

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Speaker 1: another from the kids. His are a bit older and

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Speaker 1: mine are younger. Should I continue with this relationship or

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Speaker 1: my waste of my time? I'm unsure if it's my

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Speaker 1: a reason. I've met no other family either, but a

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Speaker 1: brother and a cousin. I'd love to get married one day,

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Speaker 1: but I feel like the path I'm on will have

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Speaker 1: me in one of those relationships old folks have where

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Speaker 1: that's just my little friend for fifteen years. Well, if

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Speaker 1: you want, you shouldn't end up there. Let's just start there.

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Speaker 1: You know where you don't want to end up. You

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Speaker 1: clearly just said it, but you said you feel like

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Speaker 1: you're going to end up there. That's actually settling and

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Speaker 1: letting yourself go. You're being in love lazy. You shouldn't

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Speaker 1: do that. You're getting tired, you're giving up on your

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Speaker 1: I know what you mean, baby, I definitely understand and

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