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Speaker 1: Hey, folks, it's Lyle.

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Speaker 1: All right, let's get into the episode. Hello, Hello, Who

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Speaker 1: is this?

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Speaker 3: Shadow?

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Speaker 4: Oh?

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Speaker 1: High Shadow? I said that Sonic the Hedgehog. You ever

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Speaker 1: played the Sonic the Hedgehog games?

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Speaker 3: Oh, hey, Shadow, I have, but my kids do and

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Speaker 3: my nephews do.

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Speaker 1: Well. Well, Well, what's going on, Shadow? How can I

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Speaker 1: get you today?

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Speaker 3: Well, first, I want to tell you I'm forty seven

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Speaker 3: years old and I'm a mom of seven and one

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Speaker 3: of my oldest sons turned me on to you, and

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Speaker 3: now I am obsessed. All right, listen to you Almost

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Speaker 3: every I got back to the older shows. I listened

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Speaker 3: to you, and I fall asleep. You are You're better

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Speaker 3: than Fraser any day. If you know that.

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Speaker 1: Round, Well, I appreciate that. I do know that reference.

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Speaker 1: I've never actually seen an episode of Fraser, but I

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Speaker 1: know it's about well, Fraser is a real I mean,

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Speaker 1: I know he's Fraser is not a real person, but

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Speaker 1: in the he's a real therapist canonically correct.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yes, okay.

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Speaker 1: Well, I appreciate that. I'll have to watch Frasier now.

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Speaker 3: But anyway, my son said I needed to call you,

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Speaker 3: So if you shout out say hi Caleb for me,

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Speaker 3: that'd be great. So reason is lately.

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Speaker 1: Sorry, go ahead, it's okay.

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Speaker 3: The last couple of callers you've had the last shows.

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Speaker 3: There was a dude that went to a strip club

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Speaker 3: with his mom and a gal that was doing drugs

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Speaker 3: with their kids, and I'm like, oh my gosh, I

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Speaker 3: have both of these things with my kids.

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Speaker 1: M Yeah, there was a a podcast. There was there

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Speaker 1: There was a podcast with the kid who went to

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Speaker 1: the strip club with his mom. And then there was

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Speaker 1: that call with the girl whose mom was she was

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Speaker 1: going to raves with her.

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Speaker 3: Yes, now I don't do the raves, but I four

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Speaker 3: twenty and I've tripped with my kids.

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Speaker 1: You have seven kids? When you're tripping with all seven

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Speaker 1: of your kids, or you're like, oh my god, I

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Speaker 1: have seven kids. These are like the doors.

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Speaker 3: Sometimes feels like the doors.

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Speaker 1: Ye, you're like snow white.

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Speaker 3: I've got very fair skin and very dark hair, so yeah,

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Speaker 3: I just I don't like talk to birds, but I

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Speaker 1: So when you say you trip with your kids, do

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Speaker 1: you like trip do all? Is it you and all

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Speaker 1: seven of them?

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Speaker 3: They very in ages. My oldest is twenty eight and

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Speaker 1: Wow are they all from the same dude?

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Speaker 3: Five of them are from the same dude. But he's

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Speaker 3: in prison now for the next seven years.

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Speaker 1: Are you still with him?

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Speaker 3: No? Okay, we've been, of course now for five years.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So I mean I have thousands of questions for

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Speaker 1: you about everything, But is there a I feel like

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Speaker 1: you came into this with a particular aspect that you

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Speaker 3: Is correct, well, I can't tell if I'm a really

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Speaker 1: M Okay, tell me. Tell me more about your thought

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Speaker 3: It's just it's very untraditional. I don't know of a

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Speaker 3: lot of other moms do the things like this with

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Speaker 1: Give me an example of something that you can't tell

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Speaker 3: Okay, Well, like I said, my husband's in prison for

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Speaker 3: seven years. When he was being investigated, child Protective Services

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Speaker 4: I never gave up.

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Speaker 3: So that's like what really weighs heavy on me because

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Speaker 3: I've lost all this time with them. I feel like

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Speaker 1: Okay, So so to that, to that point, do you

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Speaker 1: do you feel like, well, okay, so, so, like I said,

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Speaker 1: give me, give me an example of of something that

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Speaker 1: or a cool mom. Give you give me an example

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Speaker 3: Well, like, for instance, you know, for twenty with my kids,

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Speaker 3: most of them, I've let them spoke with me even

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Speaker 3: though you know, they're not twenty one yet at the time,

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Speaker 3: it's not legal here where I'm at, so I kind

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Speaker 1: M h m hm, how will iw will like are

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Speaker 3: Yeah, that I smoke with A is eighteen now my

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Speaker 1: With us yet, Okay, okay, that's good. Well, I you know,

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't I don't know if there

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Speaker 1: because well, because listen a lot. I mean it's like

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Speaker 1: and if you let them control it, there is the

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Speaker 1: At least it's in a controlled environment. That's a school

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Speaker 3: Into it, because at least I know what they're doing

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Speaker 3: if they're in my house and they're not out around

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's like I said, it's a legitimate school of

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Speaker 1: thought to you know, if you're having the party at

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Speaker 1: not doing fucking meth or stab at each other or

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Speaker 1: whatever else could be going on.

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Speaker 3: Exactly, you know, and hopefully you know, I can teach

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Speaker 3: them how to do it safely. You know, like, hey,

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Speaker 3: you don't take stuff from kids at school because there's

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Speaker 1: Nowhere else there are meth or pot.

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Speaker 3: We're talking about pot. But the whole fetanyl thing, you know,

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Speaker 3: has me scared. You know you have Yeah, of course

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Speaker 3: the next thing, you know, you got a dead kid.

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Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, well, well let's talk about let's talk about this.

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Speaker 1: What do you think makes somebody a good mother?

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Speaker 3: I wish I knew they need to have like these

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Speaker 3: manuals the day you find out that you're pregnant, these.

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Speaker 4: Dudes and don'ts.

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Speaker 3: But my mom is absolutely so. I've just like done

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Speaker 3: everything completely opposite of what she ever did.

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Speaker 1: Why why if you you obviously don't have to talk

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Speaker 1: about anything, you know what I talk about. But why

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Speaker 3: She has just owned me three times in the past,

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Speaker 3: and when she just owns me, she makes like the

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Speaker 3: a girlfriend and she just like, no, I'm not talking

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Speaker 1: Mm hmmm mm hm.

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Speaker 3: So I try and be like open with my kids.

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Speaker 1: Mm hm So. I mean, look, by some bye bye,

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Speaker 1: by some legitimate definitions, you could say, at bare minimum

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Speaker 1: clearly you and that and clearly that you do clearly

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Speaker 1: I mean, I think could be universally agreed upon as

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Speaker 3: Like you said, losing my kids, you know, and like

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Speaker 3: even right now too, I don't have two of my

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Speaker 3: that really really weighs on me because I only got

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Speaker 3: money to go to court. I feel like, no matter

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Speaker 1: How old are the two kids that you have to

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Speaker 1: what is it like you pay one hundred and twenty

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Speaker 3: It's supervised visitations. I've had supervised visitations with him for

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Speaker 3: the last five years.

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Speaker 1: Okay, again, you don't you don't feel like you have

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Speaker 1: going into. But do you why why is it supervised?

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Speaker 3: Basically because the charges against my husband and why ex

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Speaker 3: husband and why he's in federal prison was because he

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Speaker 3: had child porn on his computer and yeah, and with

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Speaker 3: me having a mental illness there they I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I just felt like CPS was against me from day one.

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Speaker 3: And I don't know if being half gay has anything

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Speaker 3: taking the bed bugs to their foster family. So it

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Speaker 3: was wrote down on the report that I had sexual

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Speaker 3: paraphernalia in my bedroom. What out like, Yeah, seriously.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god. Well, first of all, look, I I

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Speaker 1: mean fucking Jesus Christ, I mean shadow that for for

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Speaker 1: your for the father of your children to be arrested

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Speaker 3: Well, she has been great. There's been times where I've

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Speaker 3: That's my eighteen year old.

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Speaker 1: Hi Aiden? How you doing, man? Hi Aiden? How you doing?

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Speaker 4: I'm good. I'm hanging out with my mother and I'm

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Speaker 1: Why are you freaking out?

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Speaker 4: Because something like this never happens to us? Basically?

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Speaker 1: What what are you? What are you into? A? Are you?

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Speaker 4: Well, right now, as my mom previous said, I'm in

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Speaker 4: the moment, it's all right. It's moments and the things

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Speaker 4: I really like. Oh, fin Nights of thready. It's a

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean neither, but I absolutely love the story

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Speaker 1: Lemony Snicket, you have a way you have a photo

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Speaker 1: That's great. That's so crazy man, Lemony Snicket. It's cool.

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Speaker 4: I could collect them, because I'm a big collector.

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Speaker 4: I uh so, my mom told you how I was

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Speaker 4: this church gives me the Apollo eleven sets and it

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Speaker 3: You know, don't worry, don't.

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Speaker 1: I know that you. Yeah, you're you're into five nights

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Speaker 3: Man?

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Speaker 1: What do you what do you what do you want

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Speaker 4: Well, there's been different things I've been doing. I stopped

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Speaker 4: Well, there's a couple of CIGI five, he's a YouTuber singer.

445
00:26:44,920 --> 00:26:46,639
Speaker 4: He does a bunch of random stuff. But there's a

446
00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:49,560
Speaker 4: couple of that I want to do, and one of

447
00:26:49,600 --> 00:26:53,760
Speaker 4: them is Kryptonite. I feel like that one would be

448
00:26:53,760 --> 00:26:58,360
Speaker 4: a good one with stop motion mm hmm.

449
00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 1: And do you uh do you do you do you

450
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:04,720
Speaker 1: want to plug your YouTube channel? What? What do you want?

451
00:27:04,760 --> 00:27:05,879
Speaker 1: Do you want to tell us what it is so

452
00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:07,800
Speaker 1: people can subscribe if they want to find it.

453
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:11,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, but it's kind of paul because I only have

454
00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:16,920
Speaker 4: twenty subscribers. But the original name was the King. Then

455
00:27:17,080 --> 00:27:19,680
Speaker 4: after a little bit more digging, I came across someone

456
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:23,240
Speaker 4: else named that, so I change it to the NPC

457
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:27,240
Speaker 4: King because half the time I feel like an MPC

458
00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:28,880
Speaker 4: minding my own business.

459
00:27:29,160 --> 00:27:31,000
Speaker 1: Oh wait, okay, actually hold on a lot. I wanna,

460
00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 1: I wanna, I wanna. It's just just so everyone knows

461
00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:36,840
Speaker 1: if they want to subscribe it as at YouTube dot com,

462
00:27:36,840 --> 00:27:43,120
Speaker 1: slash at the Underscore NPC Underscore King.

463
00:27:44,800 --> 00:27:48,600
Speaker 4: All right, yeah for some reason, but doing this stupid

464
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:51,800
Speaker 4: thing where they have the at to make it easier

465
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Speaker 4: to find people for someone.

466
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Speaker 1: I've seen that. Well listen, man, Yeah, go check out

467
00:27:57,760 --> 00:28:03,040
Speaker 1: at Underscore. Go check out at the Underscore NPC Underscore King.

468
00:28:03,440 --> 00:28:08,120
Speaker 1: So well, listen man. So huh, I'm trying to think

469
00:28:08,160 --> 00:28:10,440
Speaker 1: what else I wanna. I want to ask you guys,

470
00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:16,320
Speaker 1: how's how's hanging out with with your mom?

471
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Speaker 4: It's pretty cool because I'm technically still a teenager, so

472
00:28:20,520 --> 00:28:23,440
Speaker 4: I still like to hide hide away in my room

473
00:28:23,480 --> 00:28:26,639
Speaker 4: most of the time. But I set up my PlayStation

474
00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:29,000
Speaker 4: out in the living room because for some odd reason,

475
00:28:29,560 --> 00:28:31,280
Speaker 4: the internet's better out here.

476
00:28:34,200 --> 00:28:38,920
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm. Do you do you ever play PlayStation with

477
00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:41,479
Speaker 1: your mom?

478
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:41,760
Speaker 2: Uh?

479
00:28:41,840 --> 00:28:44,680
Speaker 4: No, but she does play the Xbox, and I do

480
00:28:44,760 --> 00:28:48,320
Speaker 4: play Xbox with her. Yeah. One of her favorite games

481
00:28:48,480 --> 00:28:52,520
Speaker 4: is colored due to the infinite Warfare. I think a

482
00:28:52,680 --> 00:28:53,400
Speaker 4: zombie mode.

483
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Speaker 1: Nice. Nice, hm hmm. What's what's your relationship like with

484
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:04,920
Speaker 1: your siblings?

485
00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:13,200
Speaker 4: My siblings? Well, I haven't seen my two younger sisters

486
00:29:13,240 --> 00:29:18,640
Speaker 4: and ages. My older sister uh, honestly, she's mad at

487
00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:21,880
Speaker 4: me for some odd reason. And then I have another

488
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:28,320
Speaker 4: one staycy she comes and goes. And then because as

489
00:29:28,320 --> 00:29:31,160
Speaker 4: my mom said, my brother, my two other brothers are

490
00:29:31,200 --> 00:29:34,600
Speaker 4: living here. And then another brother from my dad's side

491
00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:38,680
Speaker 4: that's not related to my mom is actually living not

492
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Speaker 4: too far away from her, and he stops by once

493
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:44,800
Speaker 4: in a while, but he's living his own life. M

494
00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:46,200
Speaker 4: h m hmm.

495
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Speaker 1: That's cool. Mary. Do you do you are you feeling

496
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Speaker 1: happy and good about life in general and hanging out?

497
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Speaker 4: The one thing that couldn't make it better is if

498
00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:03,760
Speaker 4: I actually had a gil Yeah?

499
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Speaker 1: Why yeah, I hear your mom. I hear your mom laughing.

500
00:30:08,360 --> 00:30:09,640
Speaker 1: Why why is she laughing?

501
00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:12,920
Speaker 4: Because I'm pretty sure I give him the bays hook.

502
00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:17,360
Speaker 1: Huh do you do you talk to her about this?

503
00:30:19,240 --> 00:30:21,320
Speaker 4: But yeah, I do? And would you?

504
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Speaker 3: Sayscriber.

505
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Speaker 4: Thank you, thank you, Sampey Getcko for saying that. Now

506
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Speaker 4: I got eighty five.

507
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Speaker 1: My pleasure. Man, I hope you make some videos for

508
00:30:35,920 --> 00:30:36,920
Speaker 1: these folks to check out.

509
00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:40,880
Speaker 4: I will definitely make one.

510
00:30:41,880 --> 00:30:46,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, please do, please do. Okay, so you you're you're

511
00:30:46,360 --> 00:30:49,240
Speaker 1: looking sorry say that again?

512
00:30:49,280 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 4: Sorry, Well, I was talking to my mom.

513
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 3: He's gonna make a video about talking the lyle.

514
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Speaker 1: That would be funny. Man, so so so shadow what

515
00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:06,360
Speaker 1: what uh? Have you given your son any any advice

516
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:08,440
Speaker 1: on how how he can get a girlfriend?

517
00:31:11,640 --> 00:31:12,520
Speaker 3: I've tried.

518
00:31:14,400 --> 00:31:16,880
Speaker 4: I'm an end of it. I really don't like getting

519
00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:21,680
Speaker 4: out much. M hm. That's fine, end of it. No,

520
00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:22,440
Speaker 4: something like that.

521
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:27,160
Speaker 3: But I try and be encouraging, like, hey, you know,

522
00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:31,080
Speaker 3: just talk to her, say hi and get to know,

523
00:31:31,280 --> 00:31:33,640
Speaker 3: or don't come on too strong, you know, don't start

524
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:37,000
Speaker 3: drooling on her or nothing, and just be a good guy,

525
00:31:37,320 --> 00:31:41,080
Speaker 3: and they're the right one when it's time, will find

526
00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:42,080
Speaker 3: her away on your path.

527
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Speaker 4: I mean, I, uh, this time, when I was living

528
00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:50,080
Speaker 4: with my father, there was this one goal. I had

529
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:54,600
Speaker 4: an ion, But since a lot of stuff happened, like

530
00:31:54,800 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 4: five six years ago, honestly I have not seen this

531
00:31:58,240 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 4: one goal A shoot play shoe. Shoe was also into me,

532
00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:05,080
Speaker 4: but honestly, I think that ship is long shaled.

533
00:32:07,240 --> 00:32:11,000
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Well, well, listen, here's the thing. You're only eighteen,

534
00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:13,400
Speaker 1: so you've all you have a you have a long

535
00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 1: life ahead of you to find uh find a romantic partner.

536
00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 4: Hey, that's what everybody's done, saying single life ain't so bad.

537
00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:26,880
Speaker 3: You don't have to put up with a bunch of bs.

538
00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:29,760
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.

539
00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:40,600
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, yeh m hm. So so Shadow, Shadow want,

540
00:32:40,880 --> 00:32:42,800
Speaker 1: by the way, has your son been been in says

541
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:44,840
Speaker 1: Aiden been in the room the whole time we've been talking.

542
00:32:46,160 --> 00:32:46,640
Speaker 3: Pretty much.

543
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:47,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've been here.

544
00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:52,240
Speaker 1: The phone call mm hmmm, why did know? I kind

545
00:32:52,240 --> 00:32:54,120
Speaker 1: of should I kind of want to talk, you know,

546
00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:56,520
Speaker 1: I guess before we go, I kind of wanted to

547
00:32:56,600 --> 00:33:02,880
Speaker 1: talk more about this this like uh struggle that you're

548
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:05,560
Speaker 1: having about whether whether or not you you feel like

549
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:12,040
Speaker 1: you're a good mom. And uh, I'll say this, aiden

550
00:33:12,480 --> 00:33:16,520
Speaker 1: seems like a pretty, you know, nice happy kid. I

551
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,560
Speaker 1: feel like that's that's pretty. That's pretty pretty indicative of

552
00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: of you being a good mom.

553
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 3: I hope.

554
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:24,440
Speaker 6: So.

555
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 3: I mean, I will feel good when they're all grown up.

556
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:31,760
Speaker 3: It doesn't matter what they do in life, what kind

557
00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:35,760
Speaker 3: of career that they have, as long as they find

558
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:39,880
Speaker 3: something that makes them feel good, whatever that is.

559
00:33:41,200 --> 00:33:44,000
Speaker 4: Mm hm m hmm.

560
00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:48,040
Speaker 1: I think that's good. And also, you know, oh, sorry,

561
00:33:48,080 --> 00:33:48,880
Speaker 1: were you guys gonna say?

562
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:56,760
Speaker 4: Between you and me, my mom and father both try

563
00:33:56,800 --> 00:34:01,960
Speaker 4: to off themself several times, and the several times has

564
00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:05,400
Speaker 4: not worked. So I feel like one of us kids

565
00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:09,319
Speaker 4: are here for a reason. And I don't know if

566
00:34:09,400 --> 00:34:14,040
Speaker 4: you owe a believer in God. He's not, Oh you're not. Well,

567
00:34:14,160 --> 00:34:16,560
Speaker 4: so I'm not bad, but I feel like I'm here

568
00:34:16,719 --> 00:34:19,040
Speaker 4: for a reason. I just haven't found it yet.

569
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Speaker 1: Hm hm hmm. Well listen, I you were what were

570
00:34:24,600 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 1: you about to say about God?

571
00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:29,600
Speaker 4: Well, I'm just saying I feel like He put me

572
00:34:29,719 --> 00:34:30,560
Speaker 4: here for a reason.

573
00:34:31,600 --> 00:34:34,759
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm mm hmmm mm hm.

574
00:34:36,560 --> 00:34:36,680
Speaker 4: Hm.

575
00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:41,439
Speaker 1: Well, look, I I want to look. I think both

576
00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:47,680
Speaker 1: of you are very lovely people. And it sounds like

577
00:34:47,800 --> 00:34:51,120
Speaker 1: both of you have have It sounds like both of

578
00:34:51,239 --> 00:34:56,279
Speaker 1: you have have really been through a lot. But uh,

579
00:34:57,360 --> 00:35:03,880
Speaker 1: despite all of that, have you know compassion and happy

580
00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:08,439
Speaker 1: spirits and the desire to do good by each other

581
00:35:08,600 --> 00:35:13,319
Speaker 1: and buy other people and by yourselves? And I think

582
00:35:13,680 --> 00:35:21,319
Speaker 1: that says a lot. Yeah, I hope.

583
00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:24,359
Speaker 3: So. My life is just dedicated to my kids right now,

584
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:27,359
Speaker 3: when they're all grown up and moved out, I don't

585
00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:30,239
Speaker 3: know what I'm gonna do with myself looking forward to

586
00:35:30,239 --> 00:35:31,200
Speaker 3: being a grandma.

587
00:35:31,080 --> 00:35:35,320
Speaker 4: Someday, which I'm hoping to provide that for you.

588
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:41,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, just live life, live it for the moment, just

589
00:35:41,320 --> 00:35:42,439
Speaker 3: see what comes next.

590
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,080
Speaker 1: Well, listen, Is there anything else that you guys want

591
00:35:47,120 --> 00:35:49,960
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

592
00:35:52,920 --> 00:35:55,800
Speaker 3: Nope, I don't think so. I just I think that

593
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:58,799
Speaker 3: you are very handsome, even in the green paint lyle.

594
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:05,560
Speaker 1: Thank you kindly, I appreciate that shadow eat And anything

595
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:06,600
Speaker 1: else you want to say with the people of the

596
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:08,560
Speaker 1: computer before we go, it doesn't have to also be

597
00:36:08,640 --> 00:36:09,640
Speaker 1: about how handsome I am.

598
00:36:13,360 --> 00:36:15,200
Speaker 5: And all I have to say is thank you for

599
00:36:15,320 --> 00:36:17,120
Speaker 5: letting me be a part of this and thanks for

600
00:36:17,760 --> 00:36:20,600
Speaker 5: the last time I checked, and my brother check was

601
00:36:21,160 --> 00:36:25,600
Speaker 5: one ten subscribers, So thank you all for checking me out.

602
00:36:25,719 --> 00:36:26,360
Speaker 4: I guess.

603
00:36:27,880 --> 00:36:29,799
Speaker 3: I guess I would end it that, you know, if

604
00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:32,400
Speaker 3: you're a parent, go hug your kids tonight because you

605
00:36:32,480 --> 00:36:33,880
Speaker 3: don't know what's coming tomorrow.

606
00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:39,360
Speaker 1: Thank you guys very very much for being on my

607
00:36:39,480 --> 00:36:42,680
Speaker 1: show and wishing both of you guys the best of luck.

608
00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 3: Hopefully we're coming to your live show in Indy.

609
00:36:46,880 --> 00:36:50,799
Speaker 1: So oh shit, well, holy shit, please if you come

610
00:36:50,840 --> 00:36:53,920
Speaker 1: to my live show in Indy, you know, fucking let

611
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:58,000
Speaker 1: me know. Well, I we'll take a pic.

612
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:01,719
Speaker 3: Patreon on the night, so I will send you a

613
00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:03,280
Speaker 3: message when we get the tickets.

614
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Speaker 1: Beautiful. Hey you guys, take care.

615
00:37:08,080 --> 00:37:08,360
Speaker 2: You do.

616
00:37:08,719 --> 00:37:09,760
Speaker 3: Live along to Prosper.

617
00:37:09,960 --> 00:37:11,000
Speaker 4: Thanks for having us.

618
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Speaker 1: Bye. Damn what sweet folks. I mean, I I have

619
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:21,279
Speaker 1: so many thoughts. I mean, I I kind of said

620
00:37:21,320 --> 00:37:22,880
Speaker 1: what I wanted to say to them already, but it

621
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:31,800
Speaker 1: is like, ah, you know, I'm thinking, I'm I have

622
00:37:31,880 --> 00:37:37,640
Speaker 1: a lot of thoughts. First of all, the mom shadow

623
00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:44,000
Speaker 1: sounded like she had from the bats a kind of

624
00:37:44,120 --> 00:37:45,800
Speaker 1: unfortunate hand of cards.

625
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Speaker 4: You know.

626
00:37:48,120 --> 00:37:51,880
Speaker 1: She was talking about how her her mom was fucking

627
00:37:51,960 --> 00:37:55,719
Speaker 1: disowned her and was not great to her. And then

628
00:37:55,840 --> 00:38:00,840
Speaker 1: she she starts dating this guy and he fucking sleeps

629
00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:04,880
Speaker 1: with his kid cousin, and that's fucked. And then she

630
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:06,880
Speaker 1: has kids with these other guys and he does so

631
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 1: think it's it's it's fucked. And you know, just just

632
00:38:11,120 --> 00:38:14,400
Speaker 1: I don't know, she she just she just fucking this

633
00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:17,600
Speaker 1: this this woman is just dealing with with so much

634
00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:21,320
Speaker 1: and on top of the fact that having five children

635
00:38:21,440 --> 00:38:25,880
Speaker 1: is incredibly difficult. And I don't know, I feel her.

636
00:38:25,960 --> 00:38:28,920
Speaker 1: I feel her pain and in dealing with all of

637
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:34,960
Speaker 1: those things. And again to be dealing with all of

638
00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:42,400
Speaker 1: that and to still be able to be there for

639
00:38:42,560 --> 00:38:46,839
Speaker 1: your kids and give a ship, I mean, it's a lot.

640
00:38:47,280 --> 00:38:48,960
Speaker 1: It's a lot. I hope she knows it's a lot.

641
00:38:49,600 --> 00:38:52,759
Speaker 1: And like I, Aiden was, he's a nice kid. He's

642
00:38:52,760 --> 00:38:57,400
Speaker 1: a nice guy, you know. She and they seemed like

643
00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:01,800
Speaker 1: they had a good relationship, and uh, I don't know,

644
00:39:01,880 --> 00:39:04,480
Speaker 1: I'm just I'm just wishing a lot of uh compassion

645
00:39:05,640 --> 00:39:10,359
Speaker 1: to those those people. They were good people. Shout out.

646
00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:12,360
Speaker 1: Shout out to Shadows, Shout out to Aiden. Check go

647
00:39:12,520 --> 00:39:16,800
Speaker 1: check out YouTube dot com, slash at the Underscore NPC

648
00:39:17,160 --> 00:39:20,600
Speaker 1: Underscore King. I'm excited to see what he uh, what

649
00:39:20,760 --> 00:39:25,839
Speaker 1: he cooks up? Okay, anything else I want to say

650
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:31,239
Speaker 1: about that? I think we're good. What a call? What

651
00:39:31,400 --> 00:39:31,719
Speaker 1: a call?

652
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:33,160
Speaker 4: Hello?

653
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Speaker 1: Hi, how can I get you today? Uh?

654
00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:39,000
Speaker 6: I kind of wanted to tell you about a kind

655
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:40,840
Speaker 6: of a secret I've been keeping from a lot of

656
00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:43,000
Speaker 6: people in regards to my old job.

657
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Speaker 2: Yeah, what is it?

658
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Speaker 6: So this to be super honous it to you. I

659
00:39:50,320 --> 00:39:54,320
Speaker 6: got fired from my father in law's company because I

660
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Speaker 6: wanted to give the employees benefits.

661
00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:02,400
Speaker 1: YouTube the whole team that you wanted to give the employees' benefits,

662
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Speaker 1: and then he fired you.

663
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Speaker 6: Yeah, because it kind of became like he took it

664
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Speaker 6: like as a challenge of powers. And I got really

665
00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:14,520
Speaker 6: thrown off because I was like, dude, I'm trying to,

666
00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:17,200
Speaker 6: you know, get you some tax write offs here through

667
00:40:17,360 --> 00:40:21,399
Speaker 6: you know, giving some employees benefits, right, making everybody's quality

668
00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:23,359
Speaker 6: life a little bit better. I thought I would bring

669
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:27,200
Speaker 6: everybody's mood up because our production and quality started tinking

670
00:40:27,320 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 6: really really bad, and we worked with really big names

671
00:40:31,040 --> 00:40:35,200
Speaker 6: and like the electronics companies, like the electronics world. So

672
00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,320
Speaker 6: I thought this was like a you know, like a

673
00:40:37,360 --> 00:40:42,480
Speaker 6: good way of boosting up morale. So I kind of

674
00:40:42,520 --> 00:40:44,600
Speaker 6: want to know what you're You know, if you were

675
00:40:44,680 --> 00:40:47,279
Speaker 6: in the same position, do you think you might have

676
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:48,120
Speaker 6: reacted the same?

677
00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:53,640
Speaker 1: Well, what is it that you did to react? I mean,

678
00:40:53,680 --> 00:40:56,160
Speaker 1: it says here, I'm gonna just say what it says.

679
00:40:56,360 --> 00:40:58,799
Speaker 1: It says that you have ever since you left this job,

680
00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:04,840
Speaker 1: you have been using the company credit card to buy things.

681
00:41:06,840 --> 00:41:10,800
Speaker 6: Yes, but I've using it to buy things that I

682
00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:11,959
Speaker 6: think isn't that bad.

683
00:41:12,480 --> 00:41:14,319
Speaker 1: Okay, you've been using it to buy things you think

684
00:41:14,360 --> 00:41:16,480
Speaker 1: aren't that bad. Now I want to know, aren't you

685
00:41:16,560 --> 00:41:18,319
Speaker 1: afraid that they are going that you're going to get

686
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:19,080
Speaker 1: caught doing this?

687
00:41:22,040 --> 00:41:26,520
Speaker 6: To be honest, no, I was the accountant and I

688
00:41:26,680 --> 00:41:29,120
Speaker 6: was literally finding so much money that was going out

689
00:41:29,200 --> 00:41:33,960
Speaker 6: of the company for bullshit reasons. So I really don't

690
00:41:34,000 --> 00:41:37,080
Speaker 6: think fifty dollars a month is ever going to be noticed,

691
00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:40,040
Speaker 6: because you know, five thousand at a time was never noticed,

692
00:41:40,360 --> 00:41:42,759
Speaker 6: ten thousand at a time was never noticed. And it

693
00:41:42,840 --> 00:41:45,239
Speaker 6: wasn't money that I took out, just you know, money

694
00:41:45,280 --> 00:41:48,560
Speaker 6: spent on bs, you know, like things you never used,

695
00:41:48,719 --> 00:41:53,440
Speaker 6: machines we never used, like a sawmill, or like what's

696
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:56,400
Speaker 6: it called. I'm trying to think of the name, you know,

697
00:41:56,520 --> 00:41:59,000
Speaker 6: like like a bandsaw there you go, like, imagine like

698
00:41:59,000 --> 00:42:02,920
Speaker 6: a bandsaw for your up. It's brand new, it's saran wrapped,

699
00:42:03,080 --> 00:42:04,879
Speaker 6: never gets to us, and it gets thrown in the back.

700
00:42:05,440 --> 00:42:07,359
Speaker 6: And because you live here in California now, the sun

701
00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:09,440
Speaker 6: is just gets ruined. A brand new machine in the

702
00:42:09,480 --> 00:42:11,320
Speaker 6: back of the lot goes to waste.

703
00:42:14,719 --> 00:42:19,000
Speaker 1: Now, what are you buying with this credit card?

704
00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:25,560
Speaker 6: So the first things I bought was actually a sticker

705
00:42:25,640 --> 00:42:28,920
Speaker 6: printer because my wife really wanted to start making stickers.

706
00:42:32,560 --> 00:42:37,239
Speaker 1: Okay, and your how long have you been buying things

707
00:42:37,320 --> 00:42:39,359
Speaker 1: with the sticker maker? How long have you been buying

708
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:40,640
Speaker 1: things with the company card in general?

709
00:42:43,360 --> 00:42:43,480
Speaker 2: Oh?

710
00:42:43,560 --> 00:42:45,680
Speaker 6: My god, since I got fired, it's probably been about

711
00:42:45,719 --> 00:42:46,719
Speaker 6: like two three months ago.

712
00:42:47,560 --> 00:42:49,120
Speaker 1: Okay, are you still buying things with it?

713
00:42:51,920 --> 00:42:54,359
Speaker 6: Recently? I kind of started feeling bad and I haven't

714
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:57,680
Speaker 6: found anything that really like gave me that thrill, because

715
00:42:57,680 --> 00:43:00,200
Speaker 6: the last things I bought were some first edition Jack

716
00:43:00,280 --> 00:43:06,680
Speaker 6: Carowac books that I've always wanted to buy, and after that,

717
00:43:06,880 --> 00:43:10,560
Speaker 6: I just kind of it just, you know, the the

718
00:43:10,719 --> 00:43:13,360
Speaker 6: throw kind of just died for me. Mhm.

719
00:43:14,719 --> 00:43:16,759
Speaker 1: So what's your relationship like with your father in law now?

720
00:43:16,800 --> 00:43:17,600
Speaker 1: Do you still talk to him?

721
00:43:19,520 --> 00:43:19,560
Speaker 2: No.

722
00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:21,920
Speaker 6: The last time we spoke was when he fired me,

723
00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:23,279
Speaker 6: and he said I never want to see you again,

724
00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:26,080
Speaker 6: and I was like, I can totally make that happen.

725
00:43:27,719 --> 00:43:31,279
Speaker 1: Now, how is that? How is that effected your relationship

726
00:43:31,320 --> 00:43:32,800
Speaker 1: with your your wife?

727
00:43:36,320 --> 00:43:40,840
Speaker 6: Honestly, it hasn't affected it much in the sense of

728
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:44,480
Speaker 6: between me and her. But her parents are pretty you know,

729
00:43:44,760 --> 00:43:45,920
Speaker 6: upset at the whole situation.

730
00:43:46,840 --> 00:43:48,800
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so I mean, of course, well, of

731
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 1: course her parents are upset, But as long as it

732
00:43:52,160 --> 00:43:55,320
Speaker 1: hasn't really impacted your relationship with her, you know, her parents.

733
00:43:55,400 --> 00:44:00,200
Speaker 1: I mean, who gives a ship? Really me?

734
00:44:01,840 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 6: Because you know, just to open up, I came home

735
00:44:04,360 --> 00:44:06,759
Speaker 6: very upset. You know, I felt like a loser, you know,

736
00:44:06,880 --> 00:44:09,399
Speaker 6: like I completely blew it at a really big shot

737
00:44:09,440 --> 00:44:12,800
Speaker 6: at a really nice company. But you know, she told me,

738
00:44:12,880 --> 00:44:14,799
Speaker 6: you know, same thing you just said. She was like, hey,

739
00:44:14,960 --> 00:44:15,480
Speaker 6: who cares?

740
00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:16,239
Speaker 3: You still have me?

741
00:44:19,280 --> 00:44:25,600
Speaker 1: But also, man, it's like, you're this isn't going to

742
00:44:25,719 --> 00:44:29,880
Speaker 1: end well for you, right, Like you know that eventually

743
00:44:29,960 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 1: you will get caught. I mean, even if you don't,

744
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 1: it's like, what are you even really gaining from risking this?

745
00:44:41,719 --> 00:44:45,480
Speaker 6: I wouldn't say it's more so gain. It's just kind

746
00:44:45,520 --> 00:44:49,279
Speaker 6: of money's been tight, and there's sometimes I want to

747
00:44:49,320 --> 00:44:51,960
Speaker 6: get things that I can't usually afford, just because it's

748
00:44:52,000 --> 00:44:55,600
Speaker 6: been pure hell since I lost that job, and you know,

749
00:44:55,760 --> 00:44:59,480
Speaker 6: sometimes I can't justify you know, not getting those things

750
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:02,960
Speaker 6: that have made our life just a little bit better, like.

751
00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:04,800
Speaker 1: The first edition Jack Carouac books.

752
00:45:06,640 --> 00:45:10,800
Speaker 6: Actually, yeah, we actually had a pretty beautiful experience the

753
00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:13,120
Speaker 6: other night when we were going through the books when

754
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:15,600
Speaker 6: they came into the mail, and we hadn't really had

755
00:45:15,719 --> 00:45:19,440
Speaker 6: a you know, a one on one you know experience

756
00:45:19,560 --> 00:45:24,080
Speaker 6: like that over something that we had. Actually, so when

757
00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:27,080
Speaker 6: we first met, uh, we actually spent years in San

758
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:29,560
Speaker 6: Francisco before COVID you know, shut down the whole world,

759
00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:33,640
Speaker 6: and actually got to take her you know, kind of

760
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:36,400
Speaker 6: through where Jack Carouac would spend time in San Francisco,

761
00:45:37,160 --> 00:45:38,799
Speaker 6: and you know, that was kind of one of those

762
00:45:40,040 --> 00:45:42,560
Speaker 6: core memories of you know, of the foundation of our

763
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:46,120
Speaker 6: relationship that you know, kind of reminded us, you know,

764
00:45:46,320 --> 00:45:49,200
Speaker 6: like why we're together and you know, what we're doing

765
00:45:49,280 --> 00:45:53,880
Speaker 6: with each other, and we actually have a dog rescue together,

766
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:56,640
Speaker 6: so it just kind of you know, inspired us to

767
00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 6: just keep on going. And you know, even though we

768
00:45:59,719 --> 00:46:02,279
Speaker 6: might do bad things, sometimes there's always you know, there's

769
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:03,359
Speaker 6: always a reason to do good.

770
00:46:04,040 --> 00:46:05,040
Speaker 1: So listen, man, I.

771
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:07,840
Speaker 2: I do think that's.

772
00:46:09,239 --> 00:46:12,800
Speaker 1: So listen. I think that's sweet. But your father in

773
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:16,000
Speaker 1: law hates you already. Your father in law already has

774
00:46:16,080 --> 00:46:18,399
Speaker 1: it out for you, right.

775
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 6: Kind of kind of your.

776
00:46:21,280 --> 00:46:21,920
Speaker 1: Father in law.

777
00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:24,320
Speaker 6: The whole situation was a little bit weird.

778
00:46:24,719 --> 00:46:28,279
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I just I don't think it's a I

779
00:46:28,320 --> 00:46:32,120
Speaker 1: don't think it's worth it to jeopardize your current situation

780
00:46:32,600 --> 00:46:36,680
Speaker 1: to keep doing this. I'm gonna do what you want,

781
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:40,799
Speaker 1: live your life, go crazy, buy buy hundreds of thousands

782
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:43,840
Speaker 1: of dollars of things on that credit card, get a

783
00:46:44,160 --> 00:46:47,360
Speaker 1: washing machine, get buy a dog with it, do whatever.

784
00:46:47,520 --> 00:46:50,359
Speaker 1: I buy a house with it, do anything you want.

785
00:46:50,560 --> 00:46:54,200
Speaker 1: But yeah, I don't think I don't think it's a

786
00:46:54,239 --> 00:46:54,640
Speaker 1: good idea.

787
00:46:59,520 --> 00:47:02,680
Speaker 6: Agree, that's that's kind of that's kind of why, you know,

788
00:47:02,840 --> 00:47:05,320
Speaker 6: after having that those couple of moments, I was just

789
00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:07,800
Speaker 6: kind of, you know, I don't know how to I

790
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:09,480
Speaker 6: don't know how to say it. I don't want to

791
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:11,239
Speaker 6: say like, my morals are all over the board, But

792
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:14,160
Speaker 6: sometimes I get into a weird headspace of like I

793
00:47:14,280 --> 00:47:18,440
Speaker 6: kind of want to just do something that's that kind

794
00:47:18,440 --> 00:47:22,120
Speaker 6: of feels like a white way, but not you know,

795
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:25,760
Speaker 6: I don't want to play the holder. Could be worse,

796
00:47:25,840 --> 00:47:27,600
Speaker 6: but sometimes it definitely.

797
00:47:27,280 --> 00:47:27,839
Speaker 4: Feels that way.

798
00:47:32,000 --> 00:47:32,560
Speaker 1: What's your name?

799
00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:35,399
Speaker 6: Sorry?

800
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:36,680
Speaker 1: What is your name?

801
00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:39,040
Speaker 6: Valentine?

802
00:47:40,239 --> 00:47:43,440
Speaker 1: Valentine? Are you before we go? Are you gonna get

803
00:47:43,480 --> 00:47:43,879
Speaker 1: a new job?

804
00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:47,040
Speaker 6: Actually, do have a new job?

805
00:47:47,480 --> 00:47:50,400
Speaker 1: What's your new job? Okay? Listen, okay, okay, I'll like

806
00:47:50,680 --> 00:47:54,640
Speaker 1: if you okay, if you have another job. It's time.

807
00:47:54,719 --> 00:47:56,879
Speaker 1: It's time to put the company credit card away.

808
00:47:59,280 --> 00:47:59,600
Speaker 3: I did.

809
00:47:59,760 --> 00:47:59,960
Speaker 5: I did.

810
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:02,280
Speaker 6: That's why I've been trying to call about this topic

811
00:48:02,360 --> 00:48:04,040
Speaker 6: for about two weeks.

812
00:48:05,000 --> 00:48:06,279
Speaker 1: But now I got here.

813
00:48:06,480 --> 00:48:09,320
Speaker 6: I'm like, hey, I sell life insurance.

814
00:48:11,840 --> 00:48:12,880
Speaker 1: You sell life insurance.

815
00:48:15,120 --> 00:48:17,279
Speaker 6: Yes, I saw life insurance, and then I run our

816
00:48:17,320 --> 00:48:18,240
Speaker 6: dog rescue full.

817
00:48:18,160 --> 00:48:22,000
Speaker 1: Time see one day seem And now what scares me

818
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:27,360
Speaker 1: is I'm like, what is the pipeline from uh, you know,

819
00:48:27,640 --> 00:48:32,000
Speaker 1: using money from your father in law's business to selling

820
00:48:32,040 --> 00:48:35,799
Speaker 1: your father in law life insurance and then murdering him.

821
00:48:38,200 --> 00:48:39,920
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't know how far away those

822
00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:42,160
Speaker 1: two things are, but I just, you know, I don't

823
00:48:42,160 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 1: want to see you go there.

824
00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:48,200
Speaker 6: No, definitely not, you know, just a little heads up

825
00:48:48,280 --> 00:48:50,560
Speaker 6: on when you're actually getting insurance. Just like when you're

826
00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:53,080
Speaker 6: getting car insurance, you have to ensure your interest right,

827
00:48:53,920 --> 00:48:56,040
Speaker 6: so they know why you've got the policy and who

828
00:48:56,120 --> 00:48:59,000
Speaker 6: the money goes to, so you know everything. This is

829
00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:00,120
Speaker 6: exactly why I'm.

830
00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:08,279
Speaker 1: Valentine, Valentine, Valentine, Valentine, Valentine. I'm a get Yeah, I

831
00:49:08,480 --> 00:49:11,440
Speaker 1: know about car insurance. Is there anything else you want

832
00:49:11,480 --> 00:49:13,400
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

833
00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:22,759
Speaker 6: Yeah, always remember that you know somebody loves you. And

834
00:49:22,840 --> 00:49:24,399
Speaker 6: that's kind of why I always tune into the show,

835
00:49:24,440 --> 00:49:26,200
Speaker 6: because you always end the show in a positive note.

836
00:49:27,200 --> 00:49:29,360
Speaker 1: I appreciate that I never said I loved anyone though.

837
00:49:31,760 --> 00:49:33,880
Speaker 6: That's true. Maybe it's just a feeling.

838
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:34,239
Speaker 3: I don't know.

839
00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:36,759
Speaker 6: I'm always super baked when I wants to show. It's

840
00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:37,600
Speaker 6: just the vibes I get.

841
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:40,000
Speaker 1: That's probably the weed making you feel loved.

842
00:49:41,800 --> 00:49:44,600
Speaker 6: Maybe you just always have like you always you have,

843
00:49:44,680 --> 00:49:46,920
Speaker 6: like that Fabio stairtoo through the screen. So it just

844
00:49:47,000 --> 00:49:49,000
Speaker 6: makes me and my way feel very loved with our dogs.

845
00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:53,839
Speaker 1: Hey, Valentine, Yes, have a good night.

846
00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 4: Man.

847
00:49:55,880 --> 00:49:58,319
Speaker 1: It's I cut him off when he said, you too

848
00:50:00,040 --> 00:50:03,960
Speaker 1: probably didn't even notice. Hello, wow, how can I get

849
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:04,320
Speaker 1: you on that?

850
00:50:04,800 --> 00:50:07,040
Speaker 2: I just want to talk about a shroom trip I

851
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 2: had like two years ago.

852
00:50:09,640 --> 00:50:14,960
Speaker 1: It says here that you had a shroom shirt, you

853
00:50:15,080 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 1: had a shroom trip, and the call screener wrote this down. Okay,

854
00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 1: the call screener wrote, he had a shroom trip, and

855
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:31,399
Speaker 1: he knows for a fact that the world is a simulation.

856
00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:35,120
Speaker 1: You know this for a forty fact.

857
00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:40,840
Speaker 2: I would say, in my eyes, I would consider it

858
00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:42,719
Speaker 2: a fact. If no one can disprove it to me,

859
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:44,560
Speaker 2: then it's the fact that my eyes right.

860
00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:50,120
Speaker 1: I would love to hear how you believe it's a fact.

861
00:50:53,040 --> 00:50:56,200
Speaker 2: So I had this roommate at the time, and I

862
00:50:56,280 --> 00:51:01,200
Speaker 2: kind of introduced him to shroom, and we slowly started

863
00:51:01,239 --> 00:51:04,239
Speaker 2: going up on the progression, you know, like I introduced them.

864
00:51:04,239 --> 00:51:07,440
Speaker 2: I say, started with two grams. We do two grams

865
00:51:07,480 --> 00:51:10,239
Speaker 2: of shrooms, that's whatever. We get like high, a little

866
00:51:10,280 --> 00:51:10,880
Speaker 2: bit higher.

867
00:51:10,719 --> 00:51:11,080
Speaker 3: Than the lead.

868
00:51:11,800 --> 00:51:16,040
Speaker 2: And then we go three grams, pretty good, start seeing

869
00:51:16,080 --> 00:51:20,000
Speaker 2: a little uh, you know, and then we one time

870
00:51:20,680 --> 00:51:22,839
Speaker 2: we decided let's just go for it and we did

871
00:51:23,000 --> 00:51:25,680
Speaker 2: like a little over I think it was like four

872
00:51:25,760 --> 00:51:30,880
Speaker 2: and a half grams each And at one point I

873
00:51:31,040 --> 00:51:33,600
Speaker 2: was feeling sick, and so I go to the bathroom

874
00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:38,719
Speaker 2: and I puke up all the shrooms. But at that

875
00:51:38,800 --> 00:51:40,719
Speaker 2: point it was already in my system. If you, if

876
00:51:40,760 --> 00:51:42,880
Speaker 2: you've ever done shrooms and puked on shrooms, you know

877
00:51:42,960 --> 00:51:48,880
Speaker 2: that sometimes it like intensifies your trip. So I started

878
00:51:48,960 --> 00:51:53,919
Speaker 2: tripping balls. And then when that happened, I lay down

879
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:56,360
Speaker 2: on the couch and we're just watching a movie, probably

880
00:51:56,400 --> 00:51:59,799
Speaker 2: Pine Up Express for the fiftieth time, and I look

881
00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:03,799
Speaker 2: at of walls and it's all binary code. It's zero one,

882
00:52:04,000 --> 00:52:08,440
Speaker 2: zero one. The TV is binary code. Everything in the

883
00:52:08,520 --> 00:52:13,200
Speaker 2: whole room, everything is binary code. It just felt I

884
00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:17,880
Speaker 2: got broke through into like, well everything is actually made of.

885
00:52:19,880 --> 00:52:21,120
Speaker 1: To be a dick right now, I'm going to be

886
00:52:21,160 --> 00:52:28,080
Speaker 1: a dick right now. Have you considered heard Have you

887
00:52:28,200 --> 00:52:35,840
Speaker 1: considered the fact that the room was binary code? Not

888
00:52:36,120 --> 00:52:42,080
Speaker 1: because all of reality is a simulation, but because you

889
00:52:42,160 --> 00:52:43,440
Speaker 1: were tripping on shrooms.

890
00:52:47,320 --> 00:52:53,680
Speaker 2: I see your point. However, if the real if that's

891
00:52:53,719 --> 00:52:56,600
Speaker 2: the reality that I'm in, wouldn't that be effect to me?

892
00:53:01,200 --> 00:53:03,919
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, oh for sure. I mean, look, whatever

893
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:07,879
Speaker 1: you want can be a fact to you. My look,

894
00:53:07,960 --> 00:53:11,160
Speaker 1: if I decide that I'm I'm painted blue right now,

895
00:53:11,280 --> 00:53:14,680
Speaker 1: then that's a fact in my own reality. Yeah, I mean, yeah, sure,

896
00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:16,000
Speaker 1: whatever you want can be a fact to you.

897
00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:23,200
Speaker 2: Can I ask you a question? Yeah, I want to

898
00:53:23,320 --> 00:53:25,279
Speaker 2: take I want to get really high on shrooms. I

899
00:53:25,360 --> 00:53:27,440
Speaker 2: haven't taken trooms in a year or two. Now I

900
00:53:27,520 --> 00:53:28,920
Speaker 2: want to get really high on stroom and go to

901
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:30,880
Speaker 2: the zoo and see if I can talk to the animals.

902
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:35,279
Speaker 2: Huh do you think that would be a good idea

903
00:53:35,320 --> 00:53:35,760
Speaker 2: or a bad.

904
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Speaker 1: Idea relative to what like?

905
00:53:41,200 --> 00:53:41,319
Speaker 2: Uh?

906
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:43,239
Speaker 1: I mean, that's a good idea. What are you trying

907
00:53:43,280 --> 00:53:43,880
Speaker 1: to accomplish?

908
00:53:45,600 --> 00:53:49,680
Speaker 2: I'm trying to now, I'm trying to see if I

909
00:53:49,719 --> 00:53:53,320
Speaker 2: can have some kind of emotional connection with the animals.

910
00:53:54,120 --> 00:53:55,880
Speaker 2: But then I'll get too fad there locked up.

911
00:53:56,760 --> 00:53:59,120
Speaker 1: You can have an emotional connection with with animals without

912
00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:00,799
Speaker 1: being on trum. You could just go off to one

913
00:54:00,840 --> 00:54:03,959
Speaker 1: of them and well, I guess at the zoo. Maybe

914
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:06,040
Speaker 1: a pet coo would be a little bit of a

915
00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:07,600
Speaker 1: better place to do that because you can actually go

916
00:54:07,719 --> 00:54:09,040
Speaker 1: up and pet the animals.

917
00:54:11,520 --> 00:54:12,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's true.

918
00:54:13,560 --> 00:54:18,880
Speaker 1: H Well, I've learned a lot about facts from talking

919
00:54:18,920 --> 00:54:27,799
Speaker 1: to you. Is there anything else you want to say

920
00:54:27,840 --> 00:54:30,799
Speaker 1: to the people the computer before you go. I do too.

921
00:54:31,560 --> 00:54:32,800
Speaker 1: I want to do it again, but I have to.

922
00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:34,919
Speaker 1: I'm I don't know if I'm in the right mental

923
00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:36,120
Speaker 1: space to do it. We'll see.

924
00:54:37,760 --> 00:54:39,879
Speaker 2: That's why I've been putting it off. I'm just like man,

925
00:54:40,280 --> 00:54:44,360
Speaker 2: I tripped out that last time, so it's like keeping

926
00:54:44,400 --> 00:54:48,520
Speaker 2: it off and whatnot. But I only feel like a

927
00:54:48,600 --> 00:54:49,640
Speaker 2: better person the next day.

928
00:54:50,320 --> 00:54:52,200
Speaker 1: I've only done it once, and I did like a

929
00:54:52,280 --> 00:54:54,320
Speaker 1: two and a half two point five, and I was

930
00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:58,960
Speaker 1: really happy. I felt good. But I don't I don't know.

931
00:54:59,040 --> 00:55:02,320
Speaker 1: I don't know what my Yeah, I don't know. I

932
00:55:02,320 --> 00:55:03,560
Speaker 1: don't know how it's going to be the next time

933
00:55:03,560 --> 00:55:04,799
Speaker 1: I do it. I want to do it again soon.

934
00:55:04,960 --> 00:55:07,240
Speaker 1: But hey, maybe we can do it together.

935
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Speaker 2: That'd be sick, I would Yeah, maybe you can do

936
00:55:12,800 --> 00:55:15,560
Speaker 2: four you well, and then you wouldn't be able to

937
00:55:15,600 --> 00:55:16,960
Speaker 2: separate facts from opinion.

938
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Speaker 1: Maybe that'd be a good place to be.

939
00:55:24,160 --> 00:55:24,759
Speaker 2: You're not a line.

940
00:55:25,760 --> 00:55:34,719
Speaker 1: Thanks for calling, Luke, don't do drug. Oh jeez, oh geez.

941
00:55:34,960 --> 00:55:40,640
Speaker 1: Rick goes on the line making your phone calls every night.

942
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Speaker 3: Ever goes to it.

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Speaker 6: I'm just teaching you a loud