WEBVTT - Happy Pride 0:00:00.640 --> 0:00:04.280 Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. You are tuned in 0:00:04.280 --> 0:00:06.720 to the Vitamin D with Dawntey Podcast and I am 0:00:06.760 --> 0:00:09.360 your host, Dawn Day, here to get you excited about 0:00:09.360 --> 0:00:11.320 your life so that you can live life on purpose 0:00:11.360 --> 0:00:13.440 and for a purpose. If this is your first time 0:00:13.480 --> 0:00:16.800 tuning in, weolcome Vitamin D. It's upon of my name. 0:00:17.000 --> 0:00:19.000 My name is Dawn and you get Vitamin D from 0:00:19.000 --> 0:00:21.200 the sun. So I'm here a shed light into your life. 0:00:21.320 --> 0:00:24.680 And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with 0:00:24.760 --> 0:00:27.760 celebrities and everyday people like you and me, Because if 0:00:27.800 --> 0:00:29.720 you want to be better and you want to do better, 0:00:30.240 --> 0:00:32.480 then you're going to have to be able to see better. 0:00:32.840 --> 0:00:35.480 So join me on this journey of living our best 0:00:35.520 --> 0:00:39.440 lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest 0:00:39.479 --> 0:00:41.040 ass at get your vite in. 0:00:41.080 --> 0:00:46.559 Mandy right with me and get excited about your life. 0:00:48.680 --> 0:00:51.360 When I was in eighth grade, my teacher MSUs Carwell, 0:00:51.479 --> 0:00:54.400 she said I was going to be a preacher. I 0:00:54.440 --> 0:00:58.640 was like, what not me? You can't be game be 0:00:58.680 --> 0:01:02.400 a preacher who can't like people with the same genitalia 0:01:02.480 --> 0:01:05.520 as you and be a preacher because the Bible says 0:01:05.600 --> 0:01:10.319 that's a sin, that's wrong. So no, that can't be me. 0:01:11.760 --> 0:01:14.800 Even though on that day was probably a Thursday, and 0:01:14.840 --> 0:01:18.520 we had our masses every Thursday. I delivered the first 0:01:18.560 --> 0:01:24.399 reading and once I finished, everyone stood up and started clapping. Now, 0:01:24.400 --> 0:01:26.480 if you've ever been at a mass at a Catholic 0:01:26.520 --> 0:01:29.360 church specifically, you know those types of things don't happen. 0:01:30.120 --> 0:01:33.679 Everything is methodical. It was one step and then the other, 0:01:34.000 --> 0:01:36.800 and that's just the formation of how things go. But 0:01:36.840 --> 0:01:38.800 it was something I said, or perhaps the way I 0:01:38.880 --> 0:01:44.000 delivered what I said, they got people to their feet 0:01:44.840 --> 0:01:51.040 and they started clapping. That has been my view process 0:01:51.680 --> 0:01:56.600 my entire life when it comes to my thoughts, my viewpoints, 0:01:56.920 --> 0:02:00.640 my connection when it comes to religion. But if you've 0:02:00.680 --> 0:02:03.280 met me, been in my presence, had a moment to 0:02:03.320 --> 0:02:08.560 talk to me, you know that my love for God 0:02:09.160 --> 0:02:17.000 and my relationship for God is undeniable. The chances I've 0:02:17.000 --> 0:02:21.720 decided to take, the rooms God has granted me to 0:02:21.760 --> 0:02:26.480 be in, the countless of game shows and talk shows 0:02:28.000 --> 0:02:31.880 and opportunities I've had that I took a chance on me. 0:02:34.080 --> 0:02:38.280 I said, without God, and no, I'm not perfect. It 0:02:38.320 --> 0:02:43.720 doesn't mean that I do everything right, because let me 0:02:43.800 --> 0:02:49.119 remind you, I'm a spiritual being having this human experience, 0:02:52.240 --> 0:02:56.040 and I can't negate the fact what happens to the 0:02:56.080 --> 0:02:59.480 man's side of me, and what I mean by that 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:03.520 is that I'm not perfect. Everything is right, but God 0:03:03.600 --> 0:03:08.280 knew me before he formed me. And for so long, 0:03:08.720 --> 0:03:11.360 I feel as though I tried to walk away or 0:03:11.400 --> 0:03:14.239 tried to push away of talking about the goodness of 0:03:14.280 --> 0:03:15.960 God and the way God has been in my life, 0:03:16.000 --> 0:03:20.520 as if it's contradictory, as if I will be condemned 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:23.880 for being who I am. But yet I have to 0:03:23.919 --> 0:03:29.120 remind myself God knew me before I was formed. I 0:03:29.240 --> 0:03:31.560 like to say, that's not the one and only time 0:03:31.560 --> 0:03:36.160 that I've heard something of the similar nature. See, I 0:03:36.160 --> 0:03:39.560 went to Catholic schools my entire life. With that being said, 0:03:39.600 --> 0:03:42.240 I did attend Renaissance, which is a Detroit public school, 0:03:42.320 --> 0:03:44.280 my freshman year because I wanted to give it a shot. 0:03:46.520 --> 0:03:48.600 So as far as the word of God and structure 0:03:48.640 --> 0:03:52.880 has always been selled around me, I don't recall it 0:03:52.920 --> 0:03:56.800 ever being a condemnation of so much ridicule when it 0:03:56.840 --> 0:03:59.040 came to sexuality, because it was just something that was 0:03:59.080 --> 0:04:02.920 never talked about it was something that you said, oh, 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:07.160 it's wrong, but never really explored what it looks like 0:04:07.200 --> 0:04:09.520 and what it means. And I sit there and I wonder, 0:04:10.640 --> 0:04:13.800 I want to say, the African American community, perhaps communities 0:04:13.840 --> 0:04:17.239 of color, or just perhaps my family. That's not something 0:04:17.279 --> 0:04:19.640 that we talked about a lot. We didn't talk about sex. 0:04:20.080 --> 0:04:23.800 We didn't talk about sexuality. Hush. You know, it's probably 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:27.760 seen as an adult conversation and something that kids should 0:04:27.800 --> 0:04:31.320 not know about. But what happens as you are growing 0:04:31.360 --> 0:04:33.279 through life and you don't know exactly how to move 0:04:33.360 --> 0:04:35.760 or what things mean, and if you just have somebody 0:04:35.800 --> 0:04:38.280 to tell you to say, hey, that's that and make 0:04:38.360 --> 0:04:42.720 room for you to comprehend and understand that. I say 0:04:42.760 --> 0:04:47.679 all that to say that view process of that being wrong. 0:04:47.800 --> 0:04:51.760 Because I didn't agree with that particular point in the Bible. 0:04:53.240 --> 0:04:56.840 I felt I couldn't call myself a Christian because I 0:04:56.880 --> 0:04:59.680 always looked at Christianity, are these rules and regulations of 0:04:59.680 --> 0:05:02.120 how you have to live your life? And if I 0:05:02.160 --> 0:05:04.320 know off the bad that I am attracted to those 0:05:04.440 --> 0:05:06.680 of my same sex, well, it says right there that 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:10.120 there's no place for me. But yet I'm thinking to myself. 0:05:10.160 --> 0:05:13.920 My God is so much bigger, God said, exceedingly and abundantly, 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:18.039 far more than what you could ever imagine. Not one 0:05:18.480 --> 0:05:24.320 person on the earth is the same, not one, not 0:05:24.520 --> 0:05:29.039 one snowflake that falls from the sky is the same. 0:05:29.080 --> 0:05:33.360 If God could be so intricate with that, why would 0:05:33.400 --> 0:05:37.600 he not be so intricate with us? And especially when 0:05:37.600 --> 0:05:40.159 the films came out like Da Vinci Code and speaking 0:05:40.200 --> 0:05:44.000 about how there were people that came together and set 0:05:44.040 --> 0:05:46.040 around a table decided what was going to be in 0:05:46.160 --> 0:05:50.280 the Word. Then we hear about the Dead Sea scrolls 0:05:50.279 --> 0:05:52.640 of books that have been taken out of the Bible. 0:05:53.440 --> 0:05:57.160 Then if you are of African descent, you'll see how 0:05:57.240 --> 0:06:01.640 religion was used to control us, how many of us. 0:06:01.680 --> 0:06:04.160 I can even say myself, I had to be probably 0:06:04.160 --> 0:06:06.640 a good old in my adult I don't know how 0:06:06.640 --> 0:06:09.279 old I was, But the first time I saw a 0:06:09.320 --> 0:06:12.479 black Jesus, well, okay, I take that back, because I 0:06:12.520 --> 0:06:14.240 know I've been over a different family and friends. But 0:06:14.279 --> 0:06:16.880 I'm saying like out in media or something like that, 0:06:17.000 --> 0:06:19.880 or just out as a clear representation. How about that 0:06:20.240 --> 0:06:24.279 as the standard representation, like so known, so well versed. 0:06:24.960 --> 0:06:28.720 It wasn't a norm I should say make I don't 0:06:28.760 --> 0:06:30.640 even even know if it's a normal for now now 0:06:30.640 --> 0:06:32.680 that I'm really thinking about it. But don let's stay 0:06:32.720 --> 0:06:37.440 on task. So this whole notion of how we use 0:06:37.760 --> 0:06:41.440 religion and Christianity as a way of the things that 0:06:41.480 --> 0:06:44.440 we cannot do, almost like a barrier. All I could 0:06:44.480 --> 0:06:46.839 ever think of is like, no, my God is more, 0:06:48.839 --> 0:06:55.960 says I go by many names. What and if we 0:06:56.000 --> 0:06:59.840 are all made in the image of likeness, who are 0:06:59.839 --> 0:07:04.520 you you to dictate what God is and what he 0:07:04.600 --> 0:07:08.200 can do and what he instilled? Because remember, God knew 0:07:08.279 --> 0:07:13.040 us before we were formed. Stop playing with me. So 0:07:15.480 --> 0:07:18.160 being that I never considered myself a Christian based on 0:07:18.200 --> 0:07:20.239 these rules, it was kind of like a limbo space 0:07:20.280 --> 0:07:23.480 because I was like, but I know God. So after 0:07:23.480 --> 0:07:25.600 we leave our Lady of Lasolette, that's where I went 0:07:25.680 --> 0:07:34.160 for elementary to middle school, going to high school in 0:07:34.240 --> 0:07:37.120 junior high, and then going to high school, I was 0:07:37.160 --> 0:07:38.960 at Mercy. I did go to Renaissance for a year, 0:07:38.960 --> 0:07:41.320 but at Mercy we're back in the Catholic school, so 0:07:41.360 --> 0:07:44.720 it's nothing too or it's a norm rather, So back 0:07:45.640 --> 0:07:48.280 than being at Mercy, talking about God was the way 0:07:48.320 --> 0:07:51.920 to go because it's a Catholic school and me being 0:07:51.920 --> 0:07:53.880 a speaker, and I would always say prayer on the 0:07:53.920 --> 0:07:58.160 speaker in the mornings. People always looked at me and pray. Heck. 0:07:58.200 --> 0:08:01.120 I was even a leader for this group called Cairos 0:08:01.640 --> 0:08:03.760 and what this was it was like a religious retreat 0:08:03.800 --> 0:08:05.360 where we were going for three and four days and 0:08:05.360 --> 0:08:09.560 it was all about healing. And the juniors who were 0:08:09.560 --> 0:08:12.320 selected to be leaders our senior year went the year 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:14.960 before so that we can experience the program, and then 0:08:15.000 --> 0:08:17.320 once we did coming to our senior year, it was 0:08:17.360 --> 0:08:21.040 our time to lead. And even in that moment when 0:08:21.040 --> 0:08:23.600 we were out there, I remember it was one day 0:08:23.640 --> 0:08:26.000 after a session, we were like, oh, let's just go 0:08:26.040 --> 0:08:28.040 in prayer and they were like, Dawn, you lead it. 0:08:28.440 --> 0:08:31.120 I've always been that person where people have came to 0:08:31.160 --> 0:08:32.840 me and say, hey, don can you give me a word? 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:35.680 Don can you pray for me? Even when we would 0:08:35.760 --> 0:08:40.679 have assemblies and say if it was bar On in 0:08:40.720 --> 0:08:44.880 the religious department, if I wanted to talk about something 0:08:44.880 --> 0:08:47.800 with the program, I had a free range to speak 0:08:47.800 --> 0:08:50.760 on whatever I wanted because people knew that they were 0:08:50.800 --> 0:08:55.600 going to get a word that was me, that is me. 0:08:56.600 --> 0:09:00.040 Then I think about when I went to Howard and 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:05.760 I had a friend Whitney Boggs. Whitney was a writer 0:09:06.360 --> 0:09:10.480 for The Hilltop that was Howard's newspaper, and the topic 0:09:10.640 --> 0:09:17.280 happened to be on being religious or spiritual. Of course, 0:09:17.520 --> 0:09:20.040 like I'm saying the narrative of me and my connection, 0:09:20.200 --> 0:09:22.400 how I'm speaking on God, my love forgot, just my 0:09:22.480 --> 0:09:25.040 walk and I'm again I'm the spiritual being having this 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:28.600 human experience. So everything ain't would you say, quote unquote 0:09:28.600 --> 0:09:32.400 writer whatever, there's no judgment because we're making room and 0:09:32.440 --> 0:09:34.240 I don't even like why do I feel like I 0:09:34.240 --> 0:09:36.240 have to get a clearance there? I'm making room because 0:09:36.240 --> 0:09:40.800 we're growing, okay, AnyWho? She asked me the question. She said, Dawn, 0:09:41.040 --> 0:09:45.400 do you consider yourself spiritual or religious? I had to 0:09:45.440 --> 0:09:50.600 call back at her mercy and the leaders in the department. 0:09:50.600 --> 0:09:54.920 I said, I have been asked this question and I 0:09:55.000 --> 0:09:58.000 need to know what the difference is and see for me. Also, 0:09:58.080 --> 0:10:02.560 another thing while I he had like a disconnection from saying, oh, 0:10:02.640 --> 0:10:07.920 I'm a Christian, is because I never studied the Bible 0:10:08.200 --> 0:10:11.840 back to front, front to back. In addition to that, 0:10:12.559 --> 0:10:16.520 we didn't go to church every Sunday we went to church, 0:10:16.679 --> 0:10:19.320 you know, on the holidays. It is what it is. 0:10:19.360 --> 0:10:19.520 I do. 0:10:19.600 --> 0:10:21.559 Recall one summer I was in Bible study. That was 0:10:21.559 --> 0:10:24.240 pretty cool. Oh wait, can I sing a song real quick? 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:26.760 I know, bakroom for me is the areas the kid? Okay. 0:10:27.440 --> 0:10:30.680 It was a song called high five for Jesus. He'll 0:10:30.760 --> 0:10:33.760 lead you all the way with Christ. You can do it, 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:37.360 just trust some men, no bad. High five for Jesus, 0:10:37.920 --> 0:10:45.880 Give high five for Jesus. Give high fih Jesus, high 0:10:45.920 --> 0:10:49.720 fi for Jesus. He'll lead you all the way with Okay, 0:10:49.760 --> 0:10:51.880 that's how I went. Oh my gosh, that just gave 0:10:51.920 --> 0:10:55.800 me so much. That just gave me so much joy. 0:10:56.640 --> 0:10:58.960 I haven't seen that song since I was a kid. 0:11:01.040 --> 0:11:05.960 Thank you God. Oh they felt so good. I could 0:11:06.000 --> 0:11:06.560 see everything. 0:11:06.600 --> 0:11:14.720 I even felt my mom. Oh hey, Bobby, Oh wow, 0:11:16.520 --> 0:11:17.360 that sounds so good. 0:11:21.000 --> 0:11:24.600 My heart's racing. Wow, their tears coming down my eyes. 0:11:25.400 --> 0:11:26.120 Thank you God. 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:38.120 Oh that felt so good. Thank you, thank you, thank 0:11:38.160 --> 0:11:41.040 you for making room for me to uh for me 0:11:41.120 --> 0:11:42.280 to give that to share that. 0:11:44.040 --> 0:11:44.640 Uh So. 0:11:47.120 --> 0:11:50.160 That was probably my unsteadiness as well, with the whole 0:11:50.200 --> 0:11:54.200 notion that I didn't believe that God would cause at 0:11:54.200 --> 0:11:56.720 a sin or you couldn't be partially so like I said, 0:11:57.080 --> 0:11:57.680 it's giving. 0:11:57.840 --> 0:12:00.880 Well, no, that's against what the book says. How can 0:12:00.920 --> 0:12:02.720 you see all these qualities of that? I mean, because 0:12:02.960 --> 0:12:05.640 I don't agree with that. And then me knowing God 0:12:05.679 --> 0:12:07.920 because just of my experience in life and how much 0:12:07.960 --> 0:12:11.679 my mom loved on me and talked about God. God 0:12:11.760 --> 0:12:14.240 wouldn't do that. God ain't gonna reject you like that 0:12:14.400 --> 0:12:18.400 for loving on somebody and loving yourself because it ain't 0:12:18.440 --> 0:12:24.000 hurting nobody. So I call them, seeking for them to 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:26.240 get the answer. And as I'm reflecting now, I can't 0:12:26.320 --> 0:12:29.880 really recall what they said. But what made me feel 0:12:29.920 --> 0:12:35.640 most comfortable about it is because my relationship and I 0:12:35.720 --> 0:12:39.599 looked at Christianity being religious and those are just the rules, 0:12:40.440 --> 0:12:42.600 and I said, God is so much bigger when I 0:12:42.640 --> 0:12:48.280 think how man created religion. God says exceedingly and abundantly, 0:12:48.720 --> 0:12:51.920 and it's interesting when we think about this whole sense 0:12:51.960 --> 0:12:55.920 of controls telling people of what they have to do 0:12:55.960 --> 0:12:58.720 based on your viewpoints, and it's like God is so 0:12:58.840 --> 0:13:02.920 much bigger. So I settled on it and I told Whitney, 0:13:02.960 --> 0:13:07.720 I said, I say, I'm spiritual so we're going through 0:13:08.120 --> 0:13:12.680 college and I remember even, uh wow, let me take it, 0:13:12.679 --> 0:13:15.920 and it goes on even more. Oh, I forgot to 0:13:15.960 --> 0:13:20.320 tell you this. So even in high school, rewind, I 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:23.680 also recalled what really? Oh, this is what really opened 0:13:23.679 --> 0:13:26.719 my eyes when I really think about it, and how 0:13:26.760 --> 0:13:29.319 I was like, wait a minute, this ain't this. We 0:13:29.400 --> 0:13:31.880 gotta know more. And I couldn't never stand as firm 0:13:31.920 --> 0:13:33.400 on because, like I said, I didn't know the Bible 0:13:33.440 --> 0:13:35.240 back to back, but when I took a course called 0:13:35.280 --> 0:13:38.720 war Religion. Stive. You've been listening to past episode, previous episodes, 0:13:38.920 --> 0:13:42.280 you know I've mentioned this about saying, Oh, taking this 0:13:42.360 --> 0:13:46.880 course has really got me to think how God says, 0:13:48.200 --> 0:13:51.520 I go by many names because all of these religions 0:13:51.559 --> 0:13:57.720 had the same principality loving your neighbor, respecting people, creating 0:13:57.720 --> 0:14:02.000 the life that you want, telling you about abundance and possibilities, 0:14:02.240 --> 0:14:05.160 and so many of them has similarities. It's like you know, 0:14:05.240 --> 0:14:08.320 eating You can eat fried chicken, cook different ways. You 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:11.280 can definitely have macaroni and cheese and salads and steaks 0:14:11.280 --> 0:14:13.559 and fish so many different ways, but it doesn't take 0:14:13.600 --> 0:14:17.240 away that it is a piece of fish, mac and 0:14:17.320 --> 0:14:21.520 cheese or noodles, a salad, lettuce, and so forth. You 0:14:21.560 --> 0:14:25.640 know what I'm trying to say, right, So that was 0:14:25.800 --> 0:14:27.960 actually the key eye opener. And then of course my 0:14:28.040 --> 0:14:35.120 disposition about how who I'm loving is a sin, Well, 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:37.600 we're given so much, we gotta make room because I 0:14:37.640 --> 0:14:39.800 gotta get to you what I got to tell you about. 0:14:41.360 --> 0:14:46.240 So even down to even after I left Howard, I'm 0:14:46.280 --> 0:14:51.680 thinking about I was on Craigslist and there was a 0:14:51.800 --> 0:14:53.640 job opening to speak because I said, I know I'm 0:14:53.680 --> 0:14:55.720 meant to speak, that's my passion, that's my gift, that's 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:57.920 what I do, and it's what I love to do. 0:14:59.040 --> 0:15:04.480 And it was a Christian based organization all about God. 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:06.560 And again I never second guessed my love for God. 0:15:06.600 --> 0:15:09.360 This is when I'm in New York. And so we 0:15:09.440 --> 0:15:12.600 had to lead a workshop and at the time, I 0:15:12.680 --> 0:15:16.000 was reading a book that actually talked about a person, 0:15:16.400 --> 0:15:18.880 or no, not even about a person. At the time, 0:15:19.160 --> 0:15:23.600 I talked about how there's so many ways to see God, 0:15:24.320 --> 0:15:27.440 how you can see God in nature and life and 0:15:27.520 --> 0:15:31.560 many different people, because God says I go by many names. 0:15:33.400 --> 0:15:36.160 This person and I totally respect what they did because 0:15:36.160 --> 0:15:38.680 it's just like anybody with their brand. What didn't feel 0:15:38.720 --> 0:15:41.280 I was necessarily a great fit for their brand to 0:15:41.400 --> 0:15:44.880 speak upon them and teaching the things that they talked about. 0:15:45.000 --> 0:15:48.560 But what they did still see inside of me was 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:50.560 that they were doing different programs with the church and 0:15:50.600 --> 0:15:53.480 still made room. And that's why I can have so 0:15:53.600 --> 0:15:56.360 much respect for this said individual, because even later on 0:15:57.320 --> 0:16:01.280 had an opportunity, you know, because of this individual. Edwena, 0:16:01.360 --> 0:16:03.280 do you feel bad if I say your name? Because 0:16:04.080 --> 0:16:06.240 I respect everything that you did and I love you 0:16:06.280 --> 0:16:10.400 to this day. Atwena Finley, she's an actress Abundant Life 0:16:10.440 --> 0:16:15.560 Creative Services. While she said, hey, Dawn, you know you 0:16:15.600 --> 0:16:17.680 know I am based on the Christian base and that's 0:16:17.680 --> 0:16:20.360 what we speak upon, so it's not congroing with the message. 0:16:20.360 --> 0:16:22.520 But when it came down to support now it was 0:16:22.560 --> 0:16:24.560 Sally Sally Vido events in Brooklyn. 0:16:24.640 --> 0:16:26.720 I would go all the way to Brooklyn and volunteer 0:16:26.760 --> 0:16:28.360 to help with the church because I knew I wanted 0:16:28.360 --> 0:16:29.400 to get connected with the word. 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:31.640 And I said, well, perhaps if I'm around and more, 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:34.280 I can learn more what they're saying and what they're 0:16:34.280 --> 0:16:37.960 saying it is so I can find my place. And 0:16:38.000 --> 0:16:39.960 I would do that and She even granted the opportunity 0:16:40.040 --> 0:16:41.800 Edwena so that I can sit down. And do you 0:16:41.920 --> 0:16:47.360 know I interviewed Viola Davis in a hotel room. She 0:16:47.560 --> 0:16:50.920 was at Columbus Circle. I got to see where the 0:16:51.000 --> 0:16:53.080 video to the audio we sent it off. I wondered 0:16:53.080 --> 0:16:56.320 that they, Yeah, I gotta anyway. I say all that 0:16:56.360 --> 0:17:00.520 to say she still made room. But it was at 0:17:00.520 --> 0:17:02.720 that moment where I still stood farm with my belief 0:17:02.720 --> 0:17:05.040 because I said, well, God is so much bigger and 0:17:05.080 --> 0:17:08.879 so much grander and man that it is Pride Month. 0:17:10.000 --> 0:17:13.040 I have to tell you a story about a listener 0:17:13.080 --> 0:17:16.720 that Bible thumped me, and it goes further how I 0:17:16.760 --> 0:17:19.720 got to show up as to who I am because 0:17:19.720 --> 0:17:22.360 God knew me before I was swarm. So we don't 0:17:22.400 --> 0:17:24.320 take a quick break, and I'm going to talk to 0:17:24.359 --> 0:17:29.200 you about how I was Bible thumped by a former listener. 0:17:29.200 --> 0:17:32.080 And I'm not saying warmer because there is any animosity. 0:17:32.359 --> 0:17:34.080 I'm just saying because I'm on the FM dial and 0:17:34.119 --> 0:17:37.040 I'm not sure if he's tuned in, er privy that 0:17:37.119 --> 0:17:39.160 we do Vitamin D live because it's nothing but love 0:17:39.200 --> 0:17:42.280 for this listener. But I got to tell you how 0:17:42.320 --> 0:17:45.879 I was Bible dumped on the first day of Pride 0:17:46.160 --> 0:17:48.879 by this said listener. I will release the name, but 0:17:49.240 --> 0:17:50.880 I got to say some things for the Bible pic. 0:17:51.000 --> 0:17:51.720 So hold on. 0:17:52.200 --> 0:18:03.840 This is Vitamin D Vidande b Rbel. 0:17:59.440 --> 0:18:03.040 The man behind what's happening to beautiful people. It's your 0:18:03.040 --> 0:18:08.080 boy major and you're tuned into viting indeed with Don Day. 0:18:08.840 --> 0:18:13.760 All right, so we back. So, like I said, I 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:18.439 had an FM listener called me and Bible thought me. 0:18:20.440 --> 0:18:22.800 It happened a couple of days ago. Right now, it's Saturday, 0:18:22.920 --> 0:18:26.359 June third, so this was Thursday, June first, the first 0:18:26.440 --> 0:18:31.600 day of Pride. So they called. Now I'm not gonna 0:18:31.640 --> 0:18:33.000 even say his name right now. We're gonna hold it 0:18:33.000 --> 0:18:35.879 because I gotta keep some things for the biopic. Do 0:18:35.960 --> 0:18:41.880 you think I'm playing? No, I'm serious. Uh So, he 0:18:41.960 --> 0:18:46.040 called to say. Through the grapevine, he heard that my 0:18:46.160 --> 0:18:50.520 departure from the FM dial was because I was booking 0:18:50.600 --> 0:18:57.440 too many gay LGBTQ guests. And I said what I said, 0:18:57.880 --> 0:19:03.919 I might have had one or two. What you mean now, 0:19:06.600 --> 0:19:11.960 was there conversation about wanting to have people on there 0:19:11.960 --> 0:19:15.120 who have a voice, who are in the community. Yes, 0:19:15.280 --> 0:19:20.400 because are we making room for everybody. But here's the thing, 0:19:20.640 --> 0:19:22.840 as we have to realize, and what I'm sharing with 0:19:22.880 --> 0:19:26.399 you is that if it doesn't serve you, it doesn't 0:19:26.440 --> 0:19:32.360 deserve you. Why did I entertain this conversation? Why are 0:19:32.359 --> 0:19:34.720 we on the phone this lawn? Because again, when he 0:19:34.800 --> 0:19:37.800 said caller called me, I hadn't heard from him in 0:19:37.840 --> 0:19:42.200 a couple of months. So again, what good news did 0:19:42.240 --> 0:19:46.800 you have for me? What true concern did you have 0:19:46.960 --> 0:19:50.960 for me? What true I want to say love, but 0:19:51.040 --> 0:19:53.640 that's even premature because let's just call it what it is. 0:19:53.960 --> 0:19:59.159 But what good did you have to serve me? And 0:19:59.280 --> 0:20:02.560 if it doesn't serve you, it doesn't to serve you. 0:20:03.080 --> 0:20:08.160 Now do I think there was complete malice in this 0:20:08.320 --> 0:20:10.520 conversation with said individual? 0:20:10.600 --> 0:20:10.639 No? 0:20:11.000 --> 0:20:18.200 But again, Dawn, why are you entertaining this conversation? Now? 0:20:18.440 --> 0:20:20.639 I'm gonna keep going, but let me just tell you. 0:20:20.840 --> 0:20:24.280 Once I even hung up this phone, I wanted to 0:20:24.359 --> 0:20:27.359 jump on Facebook life so quick to share with the 0:20:27.440 --> 0:20:31.560 family about what this is, what this meant, and how 0:20:31.560 --> 0:20:33.400 it made me feel. And I had to say, way 0:20:33.480 --> 0:20:36.800 to mend because I'm maturing and as this young ram 0:20:36.960 --> 0:20:40.000 or mature ram is developing, you realize you can't just 0:20:40.119 --> 0:20:44.520 keep bumping your head into everything. You gotta breathe it out. 0:20:44.600 --> 0:20:46.640 And it wasn't because I was gonna come a place 0:20:46.680 --> 0:20:48.600 for so much anger, but I needed to let it 0:20:48.680 --> 0:20:51.000 meddle land, settle land in my thoughts of what I 0:20:51.040 --> 0:20:53.240 wanted to say, how I want to say it, my 0:20:53.359 --> 0:20:57.280 intention for saying it, and more importantly, why I gotta 0:20:57.320 --> 0:21:00.760 say it. That's why we have in this commonversation. Now, 0:21:00.760 --> 0:21:07.600 I guess right. So I go on to tell him. 0:21:07.840 --> 0:21:11.000 The moment I walked through the door, I was very 0:21:11.080 --> 0:21:17.439 transparent of how I'm showing up. So this is not 0:21:17.560 --> 0:21:21.640 about a sense of am I uncertain about who I am? 0:21:22.680 --> 0:21:25.320 Because all I'm doing and all I will continue to 0:21:25.359 --> 0:21:28.880 do because God promised me exceedingly and abundantly for more 0:21:28.920 --> 0:21:35.280 than with anyone, any person, anything, any whatever could imagine. 0:21:36.840 --> 0:21:39.800 And I promised God that I was going to force 0:21:40.080 --> 0:21:43.000 myself out of hiding because I pray for this very moment. 0:21:43.080 --> 0:21:46.399 I pray for this opportunity. I have been dreaming enough 0:21:46.480 --> 0:21:49.000 this moment since I was a kid, and I promise 0:21:49.080 --> 0:21:52.680 God that if I ever had this moment to live 0:21:52.720 --> 0:21:54.760 out my dreams, that I am going to show up 0:21:54.800 --> 0:21:58.679 as all of me because I want God to use me. 0:22:03.040 --> 0:22:14.719 Because I got these dreams, Oh my yd and chefs 0:22:14.760 --> 0:22:20.480 on there that can cook food from all over the world, and. 0:22:20.480 --> 0:22:22.480 I got this voice over booth. 0:22:24.280 --> 0:22:32.800 Who record, and I'm getting like six five six figures 0:22:33.320 --> 0:22:38.600 just to record this audio. And if I can imagine 0:22:39.080 --> 0:22:42.359 and have these dreams of being maging and Oprah. And 0:22:42.400 --> 0:22:45.760 there's no disrespect I say this all the time. It's 0:22:45.800 --> 0:22:47.840 just that we just supposed to dream big, and I 0:22:47.880 --> 0:22:52.679 admire so much. I'm just like, Wow, God, what you 0:22:53.040 --> 0:22:59.760 got for me? And if God knew me before I 0:22:59.880 --> 0:23:05.720 was formed, And if I can imagine that because God says, 0:23:05.960 --> 0:23:09.800 have a vision, and then God said, I'm gonna double 0:23:09.840 --> 0:23:13.119 down on whatever that is tenfold, triple fold, it just 0:23:13.280 --> 0:23:17.439 exceedingly far more than if I can imagine it. I 0:23:17.600 --> 0:23:25.359 wounded because God promised, and we got to remind ourselves 0:23:25.359 --> 0:23:28.840 that we're here for a good time, not a long time, 0:23:28.880 --> 0:23:32.520 and we gotta make it count and making it count 0:23:33.640 --> 0:23:37.320 as being used by God and not second guessing how 0:23:37.480 --> 0:23:42.560 you were created to be used because God said, I 0:23:42.760 --> 0:23:53.119 knew you before you were formed. So I know the 0:23:53.240 --> 0:23:56.320 vision that God has placed on my heart. 0:24:00.080 --> 0:24:00.960 And all the. 0:24:00.920 --> 0:24:04.760 Things that God has created me with has gotten me 0:24:04.840 --> 0:24:11.199 in countless romes amongst some of the biggest celebrities in 0:24:11.240 --> 0:24:19.199 the world. I've been on so many game shows, featured 0:24:19.240 --> 0:24:28.040 on so many talk shows, just by being whim from 0:24:28.040 --> 0:24:30.919 being a guest to now being able to go behind 0:24:30.960 --> 0:24:31.520 the scenes. 0:24:32.200 --> 0:24:33.920 I mean, just cross it. 0:24:35.520 --> 0:24:37.600 When I'm pulling in as a guest doing a lot, 0:24:37.680 --> 0:24:41.200 to know I'm pulling is as somebody behind. 0:24:40.840 --> 0:24:44.000 The scenes, to see how it works. Because God sitting on. 0:24:46.840 --> 0:24:52.920 I'm gonna give you exceedingly and abundantly, far more. 0:24:52.800 --> 0:25:01.119 Than what you could ever imagine. So I'm sorry you 0:25:01.320 --> 0:25:08.920 don't get to define me and tell me, oh my 0:25:09.119 --> 0:25:09.600 God is. 0:25:13.119 --> 0:25:17.040 And it just makes me think about this conversation I 0:25:17.119 --> 0:25:20.960