1 00:00:00,840 --> 00:00:03,160 Speaker 1: Hey guys, I'm Kaylie Short and this is too much 2 00:00:03,200 --> 00:00:18,200 Speaker 1: to say it out you. Thank you so much for 3 00:00:18,239 --> 00:00:20,960 Speaker 1: all the love. On last week's episode, that was definitely 4 00:00:21,040 --> 00:00:22,919 Speaker 1: an important one for me to track. If you haven't 5 00:00:22,960 --> 00:00:26,000 Speaker 1: listened yet, we talked about body image and just what 6 00:00:26,160 --> 00:00:28,200 Speaker 1: that looks like in the music industry for an eating 7 00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:31,520 Speaker 1: disorder survivor, or just anybody who's ever had negative thoughts 8 00:00:31,520 --> 00:00:36,239 Speaker 1: about their body, which I really think is probably everybody. UM. 9 00:00:36,280 --> 00:00:39,040 Speaker 1: I found some really really cool accounts that I wanted 10 00:00:39,080 --> 00:00:43,599 Speaker 1: to share that we're really helpful for me. UM. I 11 00:00:43,640 --> 00:00:45,960 Speaker 1: really dove into some of the body positivity stuff after 12 00:00:46,040 --> 00:00:49,080 Speaker 1: doing the episode and had some of you guys send 13 00:00:49,120 --> 00:00:52,120 Speaker 1: in some posts. I found this one account named the 14 00:00:52,159 --> 00:00:55,560 Speaker 1: Tummy Diaries, and she posted this really great post that 15 00:00:55,760 --> 00:00:59,160 Speaker 1: was about, you know, if you wear a bigger size, like, 16 00:00:59,280 --> 00:01:02,120 Speaker 1: just wear the bigger size. I've found that recently where 17 00:01:02,120 --> 00:01:05,360 Speaker 1: I was trying to squeeze into like quote unquote skinny 18 00:01:05,440 --> 00:01:10,040 Speaker 1: jeans ak hungry jeans, and like, obviously I'm gonna feel 19 00:01:10,040 --> 00:01:12,679 Speaker 1: like crap about myself because they're pushing everything up and 20 00:01:12,760 --> 00:01:16,120 Speaker 1: like out in different ways. And so she posted this 21 00:01:16,240 --> 00:01:19,280 Speaker 1: about those two pictures of her one she was wearing, 22 00:01:19,560 --> 00:01:22,240 Speaker 1: you know, shorts that did not fit, and then the 23 00:01:22,240 --> 00:01:23,959 Speaker 1: other one she was wearing shorts that did and she 24 00:01:24,080 --> 00:01:28,200 Speaker 1: clearly like looks better and more confident in the shorts 25 00:01:28,280 --> 00:01:30,960 Speaker 1: that fit her. What a concept. So I thought that 26 00:01:30,959 --> 00:01:32,960 Speaker 1: that was really cool. And then there was another account 27 00:01:32,959 --> 00:01:36,840 Speaker 1: that I came across and I just loved her post. 28 00:01:36,920 --> 00:01:40,200 Speaker 1: So she is at a spoonful of Alice and she's 29 00:01:40,200 --> 00:01:43,720 Speaker 1: actually a former diet blogger on a body confidence journey. 30 00:01:44,000 --> 00:01:46,320 Speaker 1: That's her bio. But I think it's really cool because 31 00:01:46,360 --> 00:01:48,640 Speaker 1: she has the perspective of someone who used to be 32 00:01:48,720 --> 00:01:52,080 Speaker 1: part of that toxic culture on Instagram and now she's 33 00:01:52,200 --> 00:01:55,080 Speaker 1: using her platform for good, sharing these like incredible, very 34 00:01:55,120 --> 00:01:58,440 Speaker 1: real photos. And I just really loved that she had 35 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:01,520 Speaker 1: that perspective because I haven't seen a lot of that yet. 36 00:02:02,840 --> 00:02:05,480 Speaker 1: Another account I really liked was at Denay Mercer. She 37 00:02:05,640 --> 00:02:09,919 Speaker 1: shares some really cool posts about she's like definitely really 38 00:02:09,960 --> 00:02:13,760 Speaker 1: into fitness um and she you know, has these posts 39 00:02:13,760 --> 00:02:15,600 Speaker 1: of her with like abs and stuff, but then she'll 40 00:02:15,600 --> 00:02:17,840 Speaker 1: show what she looks like on a bloated day or 41 00:02:17,880 --> 00:02:21,280 Speaker 1: when she's completely relaxed, and she's a very fit person, 42 00:02:21,360 --> 00:02:23,520 Speaker 1: very athletic, but she has cellulate, and I love that 43 00:02:23,560 --> 00:02:27,800 Speaker 1: she's normalizing that because you cellulate has nothing to do 44 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:30,040 Speaker 1: with how much you weigh. It's just something that people have. 45 00:02:30,160 --> 00:02:33,000 Speaker 1: It's something people get over time, and it's nothing to 46 00:02:33,040 --> 00:02:35,480 Speaker 1: be ashamed of. So those are some extra resources to 47 00:02:35,800 --> 00:02:39,000 Speaker 1: you know, kind of elaborate on last week's episode, but 48 00:02:39,360 --> 00:02:42,560 Speaker 1: let's dive into this week. So I just celebrated one 49 00:02:42,639 --> 00:02:45,720 Speaker 1: year of my album Open Book, and I'm so excited 50 00:02:46,240 --> 00:02:48,640 Speaker 1: to just have that perspective of a year and what 51 00:02:48,760 --> 00:02:51,280 Speaker 1: can change over a year. I made a post on 52 00:02:51,320 --> 00:02:54,560 Speaker 1: Instagram talking about, you know what that journey looked like 53 00:02:54,680 --> 00:02:59,200 Speaker 1: when the album came out. I remember writing a diary entry. Actually, 54 00:02:59,280 --> 00:03:02,240 Speaker 1: this is the funniest worry. So I have this book 55 00:03:02,280 --> 00:03:05,480 Speaker 1: that my best friend, Candy Carpenter gave me, and it's 56 00:03:06,160 --> 00:03:07,840 Speaker 1: she gave it to me as I was starting the 57 00:03:07,840 --> 00:03:10,000 Speaker 1: process of recording Open Book, and so it has like 58 00:03:10,440 --> 00:03:13,960 Speaker 1: everything related to the making of my album in it. 59 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:21,079 Speaker 1: So there's diary entries and there's like polaroids stuck in there. 60 00:03:21,160 --> 00:03:24,680 Speaker 1: There's mixed notes, there's production examples, like you can trace 61 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:28,079 Speaker 1: the entire album through the course of this book, which 62 00:03:28,120 --> 00:03:29,440 Speaker 1: is really cool and it was such a such a 63 00:03:29,480 --> 00:03:32,480 Speaker 1: good gift, Like she's so sweet. She hand painted like 64 00:03:32,639 --> 00:03:35,120 Speaker 1: this really pretty picture on it and it's very glittery 65 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:39,800 Speaker 1: and just like it's amazing. So in that book, I 66 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:42,119 Speaker 1: wrote my set list for the album released show, which 67 00:03:42,120 --> 00:03:45,160 Speaker 1: was like exactly a year ago, and I had a 68 00:03:45,240 --> 00:03:48,720 Speaker 1: diary entry on the page next to it, and I 69 00:03:48,800 --> 00:03:52,920 Speaker 1: was talking about like how I was so far in debt, 70 00:03:53,040 --> 00:03:55,000 Speaker 1: I had no idea what the album was gonna do. 71 00:03:55,680 --> 00:03:57,960 Speaker 1: I've just been turned down by so many labels, and like, 72 00:03:58,600 --> 00:04:01,320 Speaker 1: I was excited to release album, but I was also 73 00:04:01,360 --> 00:04:05,160 Speaker 1: so terrified because it was so personal, and I was 74 00:04:05,200 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: just like kind of disheartened at the same time because 75 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:13,280 Speaker 1: I was like, what is like what's the next step? 76 00:04:13,360 --> 00:04:16,479 Speaker 1: Like what can happen from here? So I had this 77 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:22,520 Speaker 1: very very vulnerable diary entry and as I completely forgot 78 00:04:22,520 --> 00:04:26,160 Speaker 1: that fans do they take pictures of the set list 79 00:04:26,279 --> 00:04:28,240 Speaker 1: or they take the set list off the stage, And obviously, 80 00:04:28,240 --> 00:04:29,479 Speaker 1: because it was in a book, no one was going 81 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:31,680 Speaker 1: to jack the set list. Thank you guys for being 82 00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:34,960 Speaker 1: respectful of that. But I had um one of them 83 00:04:35,040 --> 00:04:37,240 Speaker 1: d m me after I was like, hey, I'm really sorry, 84 00:04:37,279 --> 00:04:38,560 Speaker 1: Like I took a picture of the set list and 85 00:04:38,560 --> 00:04:40,640 Speaker 1: I didn't realize that there was like this very very 86 00:04:40,720 --> 00:04:43,800 Speaker 1: personal diary entry next to it, and I just left 87 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:46,720 Speaker 1: it on stage like a total dumbass. So um, that 88 00:04:46,839 --> 00:04:49,839 Speaker 1: was funny. But going back and reading that journal entry 89 00:04:49,920 --> 00:04:52,560 Speaker 1: and seeing what has happened over the past year, like 90 00:04:52,800 --> 00:04:55,440 Speaker 1: it's freaking crazy, and I have some really big news 91 00:04:55,480 --> 00:04:56,800 Speaker 1: that I'm gonna be able to talk about very soon. 92 00:04:56,839 --> 00:04:59,680 Speaker 1: We will do an entire podcast about it, but until now, 93 00:05:00,279 --> 00:05:03,359 Speaker 1: let's just dive into some of the songs. So there's 94 00:05:03,880 --> 00:05:06,920 Speaker 1: uh trio of songs in the middle of the record 95 00:05:06,960 --> 00:05:13,080 Speaker 1: that I think probably encapsulate the story the most. Um. 96 00:05:13,120 --> 00:05:15,440 Speaker 1: It's it's like a very distilled version of what all 97 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:19,599 Speaker 1: thirteen songs are, and it takes you through these three stories. 98 00:05:19,600 --> 00:05:21,640 Speaker 1: So I'm just gonna kind of share the story behind 99 00:05:21,640 --> 00:05:25,279 Speaker 1: these songs, and um, just say thank you guys for 100 00:05:25,400 --> 00:05:28,000 Speaker 1: one year of of you loving open book. And if 101 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:29,440 Speaker 1: you haven't checked it out yet, you can get it 102 00:05:29,440 --> 00:05:32,320 Speaker 1: anywhere you get music. But let's dive in first with 103 00:05:32,360 --> 00:05:36,839 Speaker 1: Alice in Wonderland. So full disclosure, Alice in Wonderland is 104 00:05:36,880 --> 00:05:41,680 Speaker 1: absolutely about a real person named Alice. Um. Uh. The 105 00:05:41,720 --> 00:05:46,200 Speaker 1: metaphor presented itself so clearly. I felt like there was 106 00:05:46,520 --> 00:05:49,800 Speaker 1: nothing I could do to stop myself from writing it. 107 00:05:50,440 --> 00:05:53,040 Speaker 1: So my best friend Candy Carpenter, and I were coming 108 00:05:53,040 --> 00:05:55,440 Speaker 1: home from a party. We were having to sleep over 109 00:05:55,480 --> 00:05:58,240 Speaker 1: at my house, and I sat down at the piano 110 00:05:58,360 --> 00:06:01,400 Speaker 1: and I had just found out that my ex was 111 00:06:01,480 --> 00:06:07,160 Speaker 1: seeing somebody knew um And the details of that are 112 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:11,159 Speaker 1: still fuzzy, but I she was a friend of mine 113 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:15,440 Speaker 1: and that became a recurring theme UM in his choices 114 00:06:15,640 --> 00:06:19,600 Speaker 1: of um um, I don't know what to call it, 115 00:06:19,680 --> 00:06:24,720 Speaker 1: partners um. It became a recurring theme in his choices. 116 00:06:25,080 --> 00:06:27,039 Speaker 1: But this was like the first one, and it was 117 00:06:27,120 --> 00:06:30,520 Speaker 1: absolutely so crushing. So I sat down at the piano 118 00:06:30,640 --> 00:06:34,960 Speaker 1: and I was like kind of joking with Candy, and 119 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:37,680 Speaker 1: I was like, Hey, Alice, how's Wonderland? H ha ha 120 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:40,039 Speaker 1: ha ha, And then she was like, wait a second, 121 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:42,679 Speaker 1: that might be a really cool idea. And we started 122 00:06:42,680 --> 00:06:44,560 Speaker 1: writing it and it just kind of poured out. But 123 00:06:44,640 --> 00:06:47,920 Speaker 1: like we were pretty low key drunk, like honestly, and 124 00:06:47,960 --> 00:06:49,720 Speaker 1: so I feel like we accessed this part of our 125 00:06:49,720 --> 00:06:53,920 Speaker 1: brains that was just like very like unfiltered, and obviously 126 00:06:53,960 --> 00:06:56,039 Speaker 1: that became a huge theme of the record as well. 127 00:06:56,360 --> 00:06:59,920 Speaker 1: So the next day, I woke up really early the 128 00:07:00,040 --> 00:07:01,920 Speaker 1: next morning and I went and sat at the piano 129 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:06,200 Speaker 1: and kind of finished it. And I think we finished 130 00:07:06,240 --> 00:07:09,240 Speaker 1: the bridge like several months later, because Candy had had 131 00:07:09,279 --> 00:07:11,000 Speaker 1: this really cool idea after where she was like, oh 132 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:13,800 Speaker 1: my god, like Alice has Wonderland, like you wonder if 133 00:07:13,840 --> 00:07:16,520 Speaker 1: you're good enough, You wonder if you're the only one, 134 00:07:16,600 --> 00:07:19,280 Speaker 1: Like how's wonderland? Like you're always going to be questioning 135 00:07:19,280 --> 00:07:21,520 Speaker 1: when you're with this guy. So the song is just 136 00:07:21,560 --> 00:07:24,640 Speaker 1: a letter to this girl and also any girl that 137 00:07:24,680 --> 00:07:27,800 Speaker 1: comes next, and just it doesn't come from a better place, 138 00:07:27,920 --> 00:07:29,720 Speaker 1: Like I definitely have the songs that come from a 139 00:07:29,720 --> 00:07:32,200 Speaker 1: better place, but this one was like me looking at 140 00:07:32,200 --> 00:07:35,920 Speaker 1: somebody that I genuinely care slash cared about, who I 141 00:07:35,960 --> 00:07:39,560 Speaker 1: know had been through some real ship and I was like, hey, like, 142 00:07:40,280 --> 00:07:45,240 Speaker 1: if you're gonna do this, like be fucking careful because 143 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:47,520 Speaker 1: you don't know the half of it. And like he 144 00:07:47,560 --> 00:07:50,440 Speaker 1: looks really good on the outside, and the whole thing 145 00:07:50,560 --> 00:07:54,360 Speaker 1: seems like it's going to be this wonderful like Dreamland, 146 00:07:54,400 --> 00:07:56,960 Speaker 1: and then you get to Wonderland and the cheshire Cat 147 00:07:57,120 --> 00:07:59,480 Speaker 1: and the Queen of Hearts, like they're not what you 148 00:07:59,520 --> 00:08:03,760 Speaker 1: think they are. So that song really kind of encapsulates 149 00:08:03,760 --> 00:08:07,520 Speaker 1: the breakup. And I feel like that's something a lot 150 00:08:07,600 --> 00:08:10,160 Speaker 1: of us, you know, can relate to, is looking at 151 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:14,080 Speaker 1: whoever is coming next in the line of broken hearts, 152 00:08:14,080 --> 00:08:18,040 Speaker 1: that this person is gonna, you know, break, like what 153 00:08:18,160 --> 00:08:21,240 Speaker 1: their path is, and also knowing how messed up they 154 00:08:21,280 --> 00:08:23,600 Speaker 1: are from when they hurt you, and just being like, 155 00:08:24,800 --> 00:08:30,440 Speaker 1: who boy, good luck. So that song is very real 156 00:08:30,680 --> 00:08:32,839 Speaker 1: and UM one of my favorite songs on the record 157 00:08:32,880 --> 00:08:37,160 Speaker 1: for sure. The next song in this trio is the 158 00:08:37,200 --> 00:08:40,000 Speaker 1: World Keep Spinning. This was one of the last songs 159 00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:41,839 Speaker 1: I wrote for the project, and it was definitely one 160 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:44,720 Speaker 1: of the hardest. It's still a really difficult song for 161 00:08:44,760 --> 00:08:47,959 Speaker 1: me to perform. UM. I wrote it about my sister 162 00:08:48,080 --> 00:08:54,960 Speaker 1: passing away, and UM, a couple of days after her passing, 163 00:08:56,040 --> 00:09:00,679 Speaker 1: I hadn't really had it in me to play like 164 00:09:01,080 --> 00:09:03,600 Speaker 1: piano or guitar or try to write anything. But I 165 00:09:03,720 --> 00:09:05,720 Speaker 1: just had this concept, you know, when I was in 166 00:09:05,760 --> 00:09:08,400 Speaker 1: the middle of being just very angry at God in 167 00:09:08,440 --> 00:09:15,920 Speaker 1: the world, and I just I had gone to Alta 168 00:09:16,080 --> 00:09:18,680 Speaker 1: and I had to return some makeup and it was 169 00:09:18,720 --> 00:09:21,320 Speaker 1: like fifty dollars worth, and it was about to be 170 00:09:21,360 --> 00:09:23,240 Speaker 1: like the end of the return period, and I was like, 171 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:26,680 Speaker 1: I really need that fifty bucks right now. And I 172 00:09:26,720 --> 00:09:29,640 Speaker 1: trudge into Alta. I hadn't gotten out of bed like 173 00:09:29,800 --> 00:09:32,679 Speaker 1: barely in the past like three days. I had like 174 00:09:33,400 --> 00:09:35,640 Speaker 1: no makeup on, but like not in the key way 175 00:09:35,720 --> 00:09:38,440 Speaker 1: like I looked. I looked like I had just like 176 00:09:38,559 --> 00:09:41,000 Speaker 1: seen some ship because I had. And I'm like wearing 177 00:09:41,000 --> 00:09:43,600 Speaker 1: my pajama pants and I'm just trudging into Alta and 178 00:09:43,679 --> 00:09:46,920 Speaker 1: this guy opens the door for me, and I don't 179 00:09:46,960 --> 00:09:49,599 Speaker 1: even notice, Like my brain is just somewhere else, and 180 00:09:49,720 --> 00:09:53,000 Speaker 1: like I'm like a pretty like polite person, but I 181 00:09:53,080 --> 00:09:56,880 Speaker 1: just didn't notice. And the guy looks at me and says, 182 00:09:57,280 --> 00:09:59,520 Speaker 1: you're supposed to say thank you, And I was like, 183 00:10:00,360 --> 00:10:03,520 Speaker 1: oh my god, Like he I could just ruin this 184 00:10:03,520 --> 00:10:05,880 Speaker 1: guy right now. I could be like tell him what 185 00:10:05,960 --> 00:10:09,360 Speaker 1: had happened and be like hey, buddy, um. But that 186 00:10:09,440 --> 00:10:11,679 Speaker 1: was such an important lesson for me because I was like, 187 00:10:12,280 --> 00:10:14,320 Speaker 1: oh my god, like you can be having the worst 188 00:10:14,400 --> 00:10:18,959 Speaker 1: day of your fucking life and it's just another day 189 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:21,520 Speaker 1: for somebody else. Like the world is moving, the world 190 00:10:21,760 --> 00:10:24,959 Speaker 1: keeps spinning, even though yours completely stops. And that was 191 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:28,160 Speaker 1: also an important lesson for me in the school thought 192 00:10:28,200 --> 00:10:30,959 Speaker 1: of like, wow, you really never know what someone has 193 00:10:31,040 --> 00:10:33,720 Speaker 1: going on, and like now, even if someone cuts me 194 00:10:33,760 --> 00:10:36,520 Speaker 1: off in traffic, I'm like, oh, well, I don't know 195 00:10:36,520 --> 00:10:39,000 Speaker 1: where they're on their way too, you know, Like I mean, 196 00:10:39,040 --> 00:10:41,480 Speaker 1: obviously there's still assholes out there, but like you just 197 00:10:41,559 --> 00:10:44,839 Speaker 1: never know what as someone has going on, And that 198 00:10:44,920 --> 00:10:47,360 Speaker 1: was that was an important lesson. So the song was 199 00:10:47,400 --> 00:10:51,320 Speaker 1: like written from the perspective of that and just like 200 00:10:51,360 --> 00:10:54,480 Speaker 1: watching the world keep going and these people have no 201 00:10:54,800 --> 00:10:57,719 Speaker 1: clue what you're going through. And so I hadn't had 202 00:10:57,760 --> 00:10:59,240 Speaker 1: it in me to sit down at the piano, but 203 00:10:59,400 --> 00:11:02,679 Speaker 1: that day I in and I kind of wrote the 204 00:11:02,760 --> 00:11:06,040 Speaker 1: chorus and let it sit for a few weeks. I 205 00:11:06,320 --> 00:11:09,319 Speaker 1: didn't write for about a month. I just couldn't access 206 00:11:09,400 --> 00:11:12,960 Speaker 1: that headspace. But when I came back to the idea, 207 00:11:13,400 --> 00:11:15,800 Speaker 1: I wrote it with my producer, Skip Black, and he 208 00:11:15,880 --> 00:11:20,880 Speaker 1: had also um lost his niece. He's my age to 209 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:25,560 Speaker 1: um an accidental heroin overdose as well, and you know, 210 00:11:26,120 --> 00:11:30,240 Speaker 1: it just really came together because we just like totally 211 00:11:30,440 --> 00:11:33,840 Speaker 1: both understood each other's pain and there was this really 212 00:11:34,040 --> 00:11:36,400 Speaker 1: beautiful moment where we got to play the Grand Ole 213 00:11:36,400 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: Opry together and him and I played this song and 214 00:11:39,880 --> 00:11:43,720 Speaker 1: he brought up a picture of his his niece Megan 215 00:11:44,280 --> 00:11:47,839 Speaker 1: and said it on the speaker and they zoomed in 216 00:11:48,160 --> 00:11:51,000 Speaker 1: um on her while we were playing the song, and 217 00:11:51,120 --> 00:11:53,600 Speaker 1: it was just like it was really really special. And 218 00:11:55,360 --> 00:11:58,560 Speaker 1: the opera has been such an amazing place for me 219 00:11:58,640 --> 00:12:02,200 Speaker 1: to play these songs, and it's so cathartic and um 220 00:12:02,240 --> 00:12:04,400 Speaker 1: it's just an emotional place to play a period. But 221 00:12:05,400 --> 00:12:09,480 Speaker 1: playing a song like that was I don't know, one 222 00:12:09,520 --> 00:12:23,160 Speaker 1: of the most bitter sweet moments of my life. I think, oh, boy, guys, 223 00:12:24,880 --> 00:12:27,800 Speaker 1: so that song is really special and it just kind 224 00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:31,120 Speaker 1: of talks about you know, you get the phone call 225 00:12:31,280 --> 00:12:35,240 Speaker 1: from your family member being like a, um, I gotta 226 00:12:35,280 --> 00:12:39,800 Speaker 1: tell you something. Then you just know immediately and then 227 00:12:39,840 --> 00:12:42,880 Speaker 1: it's just like I remember the date of her funeral, 228 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:45,240 Speaker 1: like it was actually a really beautiful day. There was 229 00:12:45,280 --> 00:12:49,559 Speaker 1: a blue sky, it was warmer than most January days 230 00:12:49,679 --> 00:12:54,160 Speaker 1: in Maine, um, where I'm from, and I was just like, wow, 231 00:12:54,559 --> 00:12:56,959 Speaker 1: like it would have been nice if God could give 232 00:12:57,000 --> 00:12:58,560 Speaker 1: me some rain and the day could have felt like 233 00:12:58,559 --> 00:13:01,360 Speaker 1: as shitty as I do, but it was actually a 234 00:13:01,360 --> 00:13:04,360 Speaker 1: beautiful day, and I remember there was a wedding happening, 235 00:13:04,679 --> 00:13:06,840 Speaker 1: and that's the bridge of the song is I drove 236 00:13:06,840 --> 00:13:08,520 Speaker 1: by a wedding on the way to your funeral, and 237 00:13:08,559 --> 00:13:10,680 Speaker 1: I bet the bride was happy that the weather was beautiful. 238 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:14,400 Speaker 1: And there are so many things happening at once on 239 00:13:14,440 --> 00:13:17,240 Speaker 1: any given day, and so many different people having so 240 00:13:17,280 --> 00:13:21,959 Speaker 1: many different experiences, and it's just wild because it feels 241 00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:24,800 Speaker 1: like your world is ending, but you're watching everything move 242 00:13:24,840 --> 00:13:28,960 Speaker 1: around you. So I wrote the song that I needed 243 00:13:29,360 --> 00:13:32,160 Speaker 1: um on that day that I hadn't really been able 244 00:13:32,200 --> 00:13:35,080 Speaker 1: to find. I feel like there's a lot of songs 245 00:13:35,080 --> 00:13:40,120 Speaker 1: about death out there that maybe weren't written by someone 246 00:13:40,160 --> 00:13:43,160 Speaker 1: who actually knows what that loss feels like. And I 247 00:13:43,200 --> 00:13:46,240 Speaker 1: know that that sounds kind of shitty, but you know, 248 00:13:46,320 --> 00:13:48,680 Speaker 1: like there's this whole like country song trope or like 249 00:13:48,720 --> 00:13:50,800 Speaker 1: the grand pod dies in the third verse, and I've 250 00:13:50,800 --> 00:13:53,760 Speaker 1: heard people sing those songs and they haven't lost their grandpa. 251 00:13:53,800 --> 00:13:56,640 Speaker 1: So I'm like, why would you invent that kind of pain? 252 00:13:56,880 --> 00:13:59,040 Speaker 1: You know? I don't know. Maybe that's a little bit 253 00:13:59,080 --> 00:14:01,160 Speaker 1: you have me, but that how I felt in that time. 254 00:14:01,200 --> 00:14:03,679 Speaker 1: So I wrote the song that I needed, and I 255 00:14:04,960 --> 00:14:08,520 Speaker 1: hope that it's been helpful for other people to have 256 00:14:08,559 --> 00:14:10,360 Speaker 1: that song. And that's why I play it, and that's 257 00:14:10,400 --> 00:14:12,120 Speaker 1: why I wrote it, even though it was really hard. 258 00:14:13,760 --> 00:14:15,920 Speaker 1: I put that on the record immediately after Alice in 259 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:18,400 Speaker 1: Wonderland because it was kind of this abrupt switch. The 260 00:14:18,480 --> 00:14:22,960 Speaker 1: first part of the album is very like it's very chronological, 261 00:14:23,040 --> 00:14:25,640 Speaker 1: So it starts off like these a statement, background paragraph, 262 00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:31,480 Speaker 1: dives into the relationship. Then like immediately out of nowhere, 263 00:14:32,120 --> 00:14:34,440 Speaker 1: my sister passes away and you dive into that chapter 264 00:14:34,560 --> 00:14:37,800 Speaker 1: because that's exactly how it happened. And the next song 265 00:14:37,840 --> 00:14:40,880 Speaker 1: on the album is about me being back home with 266 00:14:40,920 --> 00:14:43,520 Speaker 1: my mom, and I think a big thing that happens 267 00:14:43,520 --> 00:14:49,280 Speaker 1: anytime you lose somebody is you dive into your childhood. 268 00:14:49,280 --> 00:14:51,280 Speaker 1: I talked about this on the last episode, but like 269 00:14:51,360 --> 00:14:54,240 Speaker 1: when something bad happens, you're going to find your way 270 00:14:54,240 --> 00:14:56,400 Speaker 1: back to your childhood. And I saw this meme that 271 00:14:56,480 --> 00:15:00,680 Speaker 1: was like, nobody your therapist, So do you think this 272 00:15:00,760 --> 00:15:02,640 Speaker 1: might have something to do with your relationship with your father? 273 00:15:02,760 --> 00:15:07,440 Speaker 1: And it's like, you know what, probably probably, ma'am. And 274 00:15:07,680 --> 00:15:11,160 Speaker 1: it's definitely like that. So going back to my hometown 275 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:14,840 Speaker 1: and and thinking about that and having all these memories 276 00:15:14,840 --> 00:15:18,840 Speaker 1: come flooding back. I you know, dove into the childhood 277 00:15:18,880 --> 00:15:22,200 Speaker 1: aspect of this, and I wrote this with um one 278 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:25,520 Speaker 1: of my really good friends, Savannah Kiz, and we both 279 00:15:25,560 --> 00:15:29,760 Speaker 1: grew up raised by single moms and had that kind 280 00:15:29,800 --> 00:15:32,600 Speaker 1: of you know, we both had that shared experience. And 281 00:15:32,640 --> 00:15:34,880 Speaker 1: we wrote this song with Skip as well, who just 282 00:15:35,120 --> 00:15:38,840 Speaker 1: was so he's just so supportive when I'm writing with him, 283 00:15:38,880 --> 00:15:41,920 Speaker 1: like so gentle with my story and just kind of 284 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,520 Speaker 1: lets me run and you know, reins me in where 285 00:15:44,520 --> 00:15:47,080 Speaker 1: I need to be reined in, and we walk away 286 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:48,840 Speaker 1: with this great song, and I just I love writing 287 00:15:48,840 --> 00:15:51,760 Speaker 1: with him so much. So the song was really special, 288 00:15:51,760 --> 00:15:53,440 Speaker 1: and I wrote it for my mom and what my 289 00:15:53,520 --> 00:15:57,280 Speaker 1: childhood looked like. I grew up like really really poor 290 00:15:57,640 --> 00:16:02,360 Speaker 1: and like I grew up in the projects. Um, but 291 00:16:03,080 --> 00:16:05,240 Speaker 1: it's Portland, Maine, so it's not like you know, I 292 00:16:05,280 --> 00:16:08,200 Speaker 1: was on like in like a war zone. But it 293 00:16:08,240 --> 00:16:11,880 Speaker 1: definitely wasn't cute. And I remember being really embarrassed that 294 00:16:11,960 --> 00:16:16,280 Speaker 1: kids at school would find out where I lived. And um, 295 00:16:16,360 --> 00:16:19,640 Speaker 1: I got really good at shopping at Goodwill, like really good, 296 00:16:19,640 --> 00:16:21,720 Speaker 1: Like I would go and like scour and find anything 297 00:16:21,720 --> 00:16:24,080 Speaker 1: from Hollister and Abercrombie that I could, so I like 298 00:16:24,120 --> 00:16:27,440 Speaker 1: would fit in and and not look like the poor kid. 299 00:16:28,440 --> 00:16:31,520 Speaker 1: And then because of that, like in eighth grade, I 300 00:16:31,560 --> 00:16:33,720 Speaker 1: remember there was like this rumor started that I was 301 00:16:33,760 --> 00:16:35,520 Speaker 1: like because I had started at a new school. I 302 00:16:35,560 --> 00:16:37,280 Speaker 1: went to a private school up until then, and so 303 00:16:37,400 --> 00:16:39,240 Speaker 1: I was a new girl, and there was this rumor 304 00:16:39,280 --> 00:16:42,040 Speaker 1: started that I was like really rich and like super spoiled, 305 00:16:42,080 --> 00:16:44,080 Speaker 1: and I was like, oh, y'all have no idea. I'm 306 00:16:44,120 --> 00:16:47,840 Speaker 1: just really good at manifesting Abercrombie sweatshirts at good Will. 307 00:16:49,800 --> 00:16:52,480 Speaker 1: So I wrote about that and what it was like 308 00:16:52,560 --> 00:16:57,800 Speaker 1: growing up in you know, just ship neighborhood, honestly, and 309 00:16:58,040 --> 00:17:02,520 Speaker 1: to me, all I wanted it was a normal family. 310 00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:05,480 Speaker 1: And obviously, you know, as you get older, you learned 311 00:17:05,480 --> 00:17:08,439 Speaker 1: there is no such thing as a normal family. But 312 00:17:08,520 --> 00:17:11,000 Speaker 1: all I wanted was, you know, a house with a 313 00:17:11,119 --> 00:17:14,760 Speaker 1: yard and a car that wasn't breaking down every other week, 314 00:17:14,800 --> 00:17:17,159 Speaker 1: and for my parents to be together and all my 315 00:17:17,240 --> 00:17:21,800 Speaker 1: siblings to be under one roof. And you know, it 316 00:17:21,840 --> 00:17:24,560 Speaker 1: was like it took up a lot of my brain 317 00:17:24,680 --> 00:17:27,199 Speaker 1: space as a child, like wishing for that, and so 318 00:17:27,280 --> 00:17:30,119 Speaker 1: every Sunday after church, my mom and I would go 319 00:17:30,240 --> 00:17:34,920 Speaker 1: driving by the big houses in my hometown, and there 320 00:17:34,960 --> 00:17:37,399 Speaker 1: were some that were like over near a river, and 321 00:17:37,400 --> 00:17:39,640 Speaker 1: there were some that were over near the ocean, because 322 00:17:39,680 --> 00:17:41,719 Speaker 1: I grew up like right near the beach, which I 323 00:17:41,760 --> 00:17:45,880 Speaker 1: missed terribly every day. And I would just think about 324 00:17:45,920 --> 00:17:47,560 Speaker 1: what it would be like to live in one of them. 325 00:17:47,560 --> 00:17:50,680 Speaker 1: And I think, in my little, you know, eight nine 326 00:17:50,720 --> 00:17:53,840 Speaker 1: year old brain, I felt like if I lived in 327 00:17:53,840 --> 00:17:55,959 Speaker 1: one of those houses, all my problems would be solved. 328 00:17:56,560 --> 00:17:59,639 Speaker 1: And I really romanticized the concept of a big house. 329 00:17:59,760 --> 00:18:02,560 Speaker 1: And as I've gotten older, I realized that, you know, 330 00:18:02,880 --> 00:18:07,040 Speaker 1: no one's family is normal. Money doesn't equal love, and 331 00:18:08,240 --> 00:18:12,320 Speaker 1: I definitely I'm I'm grateful for how I grew up 332 00:18:12,359 --> 00:18:14,960 Speaker 1: because I think it gave me perspective and it made 333 00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:19,240 Speaker 1: me work harder. And I don't know, money just doesn't matter, 334 00:18:19,400 --> 00:18:21,639 Speaker 1: Like if you have it, it doesn't make you a 335 00:18:21,720 --> 00:18:24,480 Speaker 1: spoiled rich brad. If you don't have it, it doesn't 336 00:18:24,520 --> 00:18:26,920 Speaker 1: make you like destined to be poor your whole life. 337 00:18:26,920 --> 00:18:29,480 Speaker 1: But I also, you know, I just feel like I 338 00:18:29,520 --> 00:18:31,600 Speaker 1: had to work my ass off, and so now when 339 00:18:31,640 --> 00:18:33,679 Speaker 1: I look at the success I have had, I'm just 340 00:18:33,840 --> 00:18:37,479 Speaker 1: I'm very I'm very proud of it, and I just 341 00:18:37,560 --> 00:18:41,960 Speaker 1: want to be open about it so that kids and 342 00:18:42,200 --> 00:18:47,600 Speaker 1: people in general just know that anyone from anywhere can 343 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:50,919 Speaker 1: be anything. It's just about working hard. And I know 344 00:18:51,000 --> 00:18:54,800 Speaker 1: that sounds like so oversimplified, but I just literally never 345 00:18:54,840 --> 00:18:57,399 Speaker 1: gave up, and I was relentless, and like I worked 346 00:18:58,119 --> 00:19:00,359 Speaker 1: at a hot dog stand when I first moved to Shville, 347 00:19:00,520 --> 00:19:04,199 Speaker 1: and my hours were like crazy. I would work at 348 00:19:04,200 --> 00:19:09,560 Speaker 1: this clothing store from like like around eleven am to 349 00:19:09,840 --> 00:19:13,760 Speaker 1: four pm, and then I would take the bus because 350 00:19:13,760 --> 00:19:15,639 Speaker 1: I didn't have a car when I first moved to Nashville, 351 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:17,679 Speaker 1: which was a very bold choice on my part, but 352 00:19:17,760 --> 00:19:19,600 Speaker 1: I just couldn't afford when it was either like moved 353 00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:21,399 Speaker 1: to Nashville or get a car, and I was like, Okay, 354 00:19:21,400 --> 00:19:23,680 Speaker 1: well let's move to Nashville. So I'm like nineteen. I 355 00:19:23,680 --> 00:19:25,480 Speaker 1: would take the bus home. I'd have like an hour 356 00:19:25,640 --> 00:19:28,840 Speaker 1: and then i'd go work from like six pm, two 357 00:19:28,960 --> 00:19:31,480 Speaker 1: three or four am, because that's how late the bars 358 00:19:31,480 --> 00:19:34,520 Speaker 1: closed and Ashville they closed at three and that's what 359 00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:36,679 Speaker 1: I did like every day. And oh my god, I 360 00:19:36,680 --> 00:19:40,960 Speaker 1: remember this one time I had to be back at 361 00:19:41,000 --> 00:19:43,280 Speaker 1: work the next day at ten am, which was earlier 362 00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:45,600 Speaker 1: than usual, so I literally was getting home at four 363 00:19:45,640 --> 00:19:47,399 Speaker 1: am and had to be to work at ten and 364 00:19:47,400 --> 00:19:50,840 Speaker 1: I went to my parking spot after work and my 365 00:19:50,880 --> 00:19:53,480 Speaker 1: car had been towed because while I was at work, 366 00:19:53,480 --> 00:19:55,199 Speaker 1: they put up signs that there was like some like 367 00:19:55,240 --> 00:19:57,280 Speaker 1: I don't know, like a marathon or something after and 368 00:19:57,320 --> 00:19:59,800 Speaker 1: they were like, we will tell you, and the sign 369 00:20:00,040 --> 00:20:02,640 Speaker 1: wasn't there. Well does that work? And then I had 370 00:20:02,680 --> 00:20:06,040 Speaker 1: to go pay like two seventy five dollars in my 371 00:20:06,080 --> 00:20:08,399 Speaker 1: car towed or something insane like that, and so wiped 372 00:20:08,400 --> 00:20:10,479 Speaker 1: out my bank account and my credit card and I 373 00:20:10,560 --> 00:20:16,679 Speaker 1: was just like feeling like such ship And now, like 374 00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:19,560 Speaker 1: looking back, I wish that I could like tell that 375 00:20:19,680 --> 00:20:22,000 Speaker 1: version of Kaylee that you know, good things were going 376 00:20:22,040 --> 00:20:25,240 Speaker 1: to happen, and like I still don't have, you know, 377 00:20:25,440 --> 00:20:28,320 Speaker 1: money flowing out my ears, but if my car got towed, 378 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:32,440 Speaker 1: it would only be like a quarter as crushing as 379 00:20:32,560 --> 00:20:38,159 Speaker 1: that moment was. But so you know, that's obviously a 380 00:20:38,240 --> 00:20:41,479 Speaker 1: complicated thing, like growing up with nothing, and like I 381 00:20:41,520 --> 00:20:43,640 Speaker 1: think that the total amount of money I've taken from 382 00:20:43,640 --> 00:20:46,240 Speaker 1: my parents in my entire life was like my dad 383 00:20:46,280 --> 00:20:49,240 Speaker 1: gave me fifty bucks one time, and I think I 384 00:20:49,280 --> 00:20:53,200 Speaker 1: got like another like fifty for graduation, like a hundred total, 385 00:20:53,880 --> 00:20:59,400 Speaker 1: And I don't know. I mean it's kind of been 386 00:20:59,440 --> 00:21:02,800 Speaker 1: liberating in ways because you know, they're not going to 387 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:05,520 Speaker 1: cut me off because they can't. So I was always 388 00:21:05,560 --> 00:21:07,800 Speaker 1: able to make my own decisions and like they were 389 00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:09,760 Speaker 1: always pretty on board with whatever I wanted to do. 390 00:21:09,840 --> 00:21:11,560 Speaker 1: But like when I didn't want to go to college, 391 00:21:11,560 --> 00:21:13,239 Speaker 1: they couldn't be like, well, you have to, or we're 392 00:21:13,240 --> 00:21:15,320 Speaker 1: going to cut you off. And I've I've seen some 393 00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:18,520 Speaker 1: friends parents do that, and you know, I get it, 394 00:21:18,520 --> 00:21:20,480 Speaker 1: Like it's still not my business what other families do, 395 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:24,920 Speaker 1: but I feel like I kind of ended up with 396 00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 1: something good out of that situation. I don't know, So 397 00:21:30,440 --> 00:21:32,720 Speaker 1: I'm just so thankful for one year of Open Book. 398 00:21:32,880 --> 00:21:35,640 Speaker 1: It's amazing to see what's happened. And like I released 399 00:21:35,640 --> 00:21:38,080 Speaker 1: that record at a really low point, like I was 400 00:21:38,119 --> 00:21:41,000 Speaker 1: definitely coming out of it, but I also like, oh 401 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:45,360 Speaker 1: my god, so the like weekend I released that album, 402 00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:47,479 Speaker 1: I was dealing with a total funk boy. Like it 403 00:21:47,520 --> 00:21:49,920 Speaker 1: was just like stupid. I don't know why I got 404 00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:53,800 Speaker 1: so wrapped up in that, but like I really was 405 00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:57,040 Speaker 1: like letting this guy who just wasn't into me dictate 406 00:21:57,119 --> 00:22:00,280 Speaker 1: my worth like hardcore and I don't even and he 407 00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:03,160 Speaker 1: knew like what he was doing. That's the thing about 408 00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:08,080 Speaker 1: fun boys is like, yeah, sometimes there's ones that are 409 00:22:08,119 --> 00:22:11,160 Speaker 1: like super terrible and like manipulate you and and use 410 00:22:11,200 --> 00:22:13,000 Speaker 1: you and are awful, but like a lot of times 411 00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:15,600 Speaker 1: it's just a guy who's being clueless, like he thought 412 00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:18,560 Speaker 1: it was like a friends with benefits situation and then 413 00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:23,000 Speaker 1: like I put him on a pedestal and made it 414 00:22:23,000 --> 00:22:25,760 Speaker 1: into something it was not. So this was kind of 415 00:22:25,760 --> 00:22:29,000 Speaker 1: one of those. But I remember like crying the weekend 416 00:22:29,000 --> 00:22:30,560 Speaker 1: my album came out, and like I just want to 417 00:22:30,560 --> 00:22:32,679 Speaker 1: go back and slap myself and be like you stupid 418 00:22:32,760 --> 00:22:37,320 Speaker 1: little bitch. You let this guy get to you, and 419 00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:40,040 Speaker 1: you were releasing like this work of art that means 420 00:22:40,080 --> 00:22:43,240 Speaker 1: more to you than anything, like don't cry, play the 421 00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:46,240 Speaker 1: opry and drink tequila and celebrate with your friends, and 422 00:22:46,480 --> 00:22:48,760 Speaker 1: this guy is not going to matter, like in a month, 423 00:22:48,920 --> 00:22:53,400 Speaker 1: like literally a month. So but I remember like that weekend, 424 00:22:53,560 --> 00:22:57,679 Speaker 1: my best friend Katherine Powell took me to a Lizzo 425 00:22:57,760 --> 00:23:00,359 Speaker 1: concert and we had so much fun and I was 426 00:23:00,400 --> 00:23:02,960 Speaker 1: listening to like good as hell and true thirds and 427 00:23:03,000 --> 00:23:05,199 Speaker 1: like it totally pulled me out of that funk I 428 00:23:05,240 --> 00:23:08,399 Speaker 1: was in with that stupid guy. So and now, you know, 429 00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:11,400 Speaker 1: looking back a year later and knowing what the album did, 430 00:23:11,440 --> 00:23:13,199 Speaker 1: and also the fact that I haven't dealt with a 431 00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:16,320 Speaker 1: funk boy and like I haven't dealt with the funk 432 00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:18,840 Speaker 1: boy in like eight months. I love this for me 433 00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:21,600 Speaker 1: because I went through quite a few, so this is 434 00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:25,000 Speaker 1: great news. I will touch on the funk boy concept 435 00:23:25,240 --> 00:23:28,000 Speaker 1: um a lot more in future episodes, and I would 436 00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:30,080 Speaker 1: love to hear what you guys want to hear the comments. 437 00:23:30,600 --> 00:23:33,720 Speaker 1: I feel like the Body Image episode, I got so 438 00:23:33,800 --> 00:23:36,720 Speaker 1: much love on that, and I think one of my 439 00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:39,040 Speaker 1: you know, favorite things I heard was from a guy 440 00:23:39,119 --> 00:23:41,240 Speaker 1: like being really open. This was just like a public 441 00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:44,240 Speaker 1: tweet talking about how it meant a lot to him 442 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:47,520 Speaker 1: to hear somebody you know talk about how guys have 443 00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:52,040 Speaker 1: eating disorders too, and that's such a like I don't think, 444 00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:55,720 Speaker 1: like it's not a misconception. We all know that that happens, 445 00:23:55,720 --> 00:23:58,200 Speaker 1: but like the amount of pressure that's put on men's 446 00:23:58,200 --> 00:24:01,600 Speaker 1: bodies as well, Like especially when you're thinking about these 447 00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:06,680 Speaker 1: like people playing superheroes, how like they dehydrate themselves for 448 00:24:06,760 --> 00:24:09,159 Speaker 1: days in order to like do those like fight scenes 449 00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:11,320 Speaker 1: where their abs look totally shredded, and like, yeah, your 450 00:24:11,359 --> 00:24:13,560 Speaker 1: abs look shredded if you haven't drink water in four days, 451 00:24:13,600 --> 00:24:17,000 Speaker 1: like for sure, and that's an unrealistic expectation for men, 452 00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:20,160 Speaker 1: and so that. Thank you, sir for opening up and 453 00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:23,600 Speaker 1: sharing that and feeling inspired by the podcast. I love 454 00:24:23,600 --> 00:24:26,320 Speaker 1: you guys so much. Um, I'm gonna have some really 455 00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:28,600 Speaker 1: cool episodes coming over the next few weeks. I'm gonna 456 00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,879 Speaker 1: start having guests on. I kind of wanted to challenge 457 00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:33,520 Speaker 1: myself to do the first few episodes by myself because 458 00:24:33,880 --> 00:24:36,520 Speaker 1: talking to other people was obviously like a comfort zone 459 00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:39,280 Speaker 1: for me. But now I feel like I'm here, I 460 00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:42,080 Speaker 1: can talk to myself for twenty five minutes. Love that. Um, 461 00:24:42,119 --> 00:24:45,680 Speaker 1: I'm having so much freaking fun. Thank you for tuning in. 462 00:24:46,119 --> 00:24:50,440 Speaker 1: We're like still on the charts for music podcast Apple, 463 00:24:50,520 --> 00:24:54,200 Speaker 1: which is crazy, like for having two episodes out and 464 00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:57,520 Speaker 1: having people react so strongly, and just the Bobby Bones 465 00:24:57,560 --> 00:25:00,159 Speaker 1: fans are amazing. Thank you guys so much. UM. I 466 00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:02,960 Speaker 1: think we've only gotten like two more bad reviews. I 467 00:25:03,000 --> 00:25:05,119 Speaker 1: don't need to be reading them, but I am because 468 00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:10,159 Speaker 1: I can't stop myself. But and they've all just been 469 00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:13,679 Speaker 1: the same thing. They're like, can she please swear less? No? Sorry, 470 00:25:14,480 --> 00:25:16,439 Speaker 1: not sorry. Anyways, this has been too much to say 471 00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:18,040 Speaker 1: with Kaylee short, You guys are amazing. I hope you 472 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:19,679 Speaker 1: have a great week and I will talk to you 473 00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:32,760 Speaker 1: next Weekday in questions turn it out to you