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Speaker 1: The nick Nikki. Hello, welcome to the Nicky Gleanser Podcast.

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Speaker 1: It is Tuesday. This is episodes one hundred and something.

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Speaker 1: We don't we bypassed a hundred episodes, just blew past

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Speaker 1: it and didn't even say. Someone wrote me congratulations and

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh, well, well thank you. I didn't

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Speaker 1: even realize it. Um so yeah, I mean we started

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Speaker 1: in March. That feels not that long ago. It was

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Speaker 1: a you know, we that. The only problem with over

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Speaker 1: a hundred episodes is people see that and go, oh no,

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Speaker 1: I can't join in. There's been too much, and it's

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Speaker 1: just like, get in here. We got a party going on.

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Speaker 1: It doesn't matter that you missed most of it, will

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Speaker 1: catch you up. Come over here, do a you know

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Speaker 1: what's it called? Like a I'm just picturing showing up

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Speaker 1: at a party and being like, we'll get you wasted.

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Speaker 1: You'll catch up with us, and then you pour um

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Speaker 1: some kind of alcohol down an ice luge? Did you

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Speaker 1: ever do those those shot luges at front parties? Like

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Speaker 1: I've just did a funnel? Is that what it is? Um? No?

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Speaker 1: But we well it's just a it's like you it's

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Speaker 1: I forget what they call ice luge, but that's like, no,

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Speaker 1: it's there's some kind of yeager luge. I don't know you.

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Speaker 1: There's a big block of ice and they carve out

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Speaker 1: little like runs and then they pour shots down it

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Speaker 1: and then you put your mouth at the end of

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Speaker 1: it and you just um end up getting date rapes

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Speaker 1: later on. Um, I think that's how it ends. I mean, so, um, yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's Tuesday. I'm wearing a shirt that's this plant based

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Speaker 1: on it. And let me just tell you, already got

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Speaker 1: a compliment on it this morning. I never have anyone

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Speaker 1: go I like your shirt. No one ever says that.

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Speaker 1: A very kind woman at Starbucks just goes like your shirt,

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Speaker 1: and I'm like, yeah, another vegan bitch out there. Um

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Speaker 1: felt good. That's why I where the stuff is, just

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Speaker 1: to like find like minded people. And the shirt's reversible.

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Speaker 1: I don't even think it's not. Noah, flip it around

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Speaker 1: and I'm gonna wear the shirt tomorrow maybe and it's

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Speaker 1: gonna say something else on the other side. I got

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Speaker 1: it by from beat by beat b e et x

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Speaker 1: b E t um. Yeah. I mean I researched cool

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Speaker 1: like vegan shirts and I found some, so thank god.

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Speaker 1: Um yesterday was really fun. I recorded a song It's

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Speaker 1: in the It's in the bag. Um, it's so good,

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Speaker 1: so excited onion. Matt Um we went to a studio

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Speaker 1: here in St. Louis, Sawhorse studios, like actual recording studio. UM,

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Speaker 1: and it's like, I don't know, man, it just made

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Speaker 1: me feel close to uh, my my girl t Swift,

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Speaker 1: because I was like, this is the exact process she

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Speaker 1: as every mote like, um, it was just a place

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Speaker 1: where you can make a dough bass album. I mean,

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Speaker 1: Taylor Swift did folklore, recorded folklore in her bedroom, so

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Speaker 1: like you can do one kind of anywhere. Billie Eilish

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Speaker 1: the one that she wanted Grammy for that was in

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Speaker 1: her bedroom. Um, but it was just done with a

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Speaker 1: great sound engineer, Jason Um. On you and Matt. Matt

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Speaker 1: wrote the song, and the song he wrote was based

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Speaker 1: like my um romantic issues via his girlfriend Anya and

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Speaker 1: just try not to like burden that many people with

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Speaker 1: my tour manager and he watches all my shows on stage.

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Speaker 1: And although I don't talk about like the thing that

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Speaker 1: I kind of this song was written about that much

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Speaker 1: on stage. Um, he was able to craft the song.

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Speaker 1: he didn't tell me he was going to write it.

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Speaker 1: He didn't tell Anya he was writing it about me

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Speaker 1: or from my perspective. He just wrote the song. He

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Speaker 1: played it for Anya. This is like a couple of

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Speaker 1: months ago, and Anya texted me and was like, oh

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Speaker 1: my god, Nikki, I don't know what's going on. Match

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Speaker 1: just wrote this song. And I've never heard her say this,

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Speaker 1: and it's not because Matt's not a brilliant musician, but

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Speaker 1: Matt just wrote the song and I'm like crying. It's

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Speaker 1: so good. It's just so beautiful. And I was like,

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Speaker 1: And um, it's it's just he's such quiet. Matt is

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Speaker 1: just absorbed my feelings and put them into a song.

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Speaker 1: And I heard the song and I start crying when

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Speaker 1: she sent it because I was like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: like this is how I feel. And then I played

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Speaker 1: I played it for Andrew. It was just this raw

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Speaker 1: sounding like just like kind of sloppy like death cabs

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Speaker 1: and was like, I have to learn this song. I

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Speaker 1: Then Andrew was like, Jesus Christ, that sounds so good,

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Speaker 1: And then Matt was like, why don't we record this song?

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Speaker 1: Why don't you record this song? I would love for

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Speaker 1: Like the way it sounds. I was like, you know what,

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Speaker 1: what book do you did? You just get out? Okay,

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Speaker 1: So I was reading while I was waiting for us

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Speaker 1: Receiving wisdom. Oh, what made you pick up this book? Um?

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Speaker 1: I really liked the Book of dou and I just

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Speaker 1: want to I never learned how to learn or how

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Speaker 1: loving the sound of everything you're just saying, but especially

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Speaker 1: the sound of this book opening. Will you give me

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Speaker 1: that again? Yes? Oh that's a sm R all over it?

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Speaker 1: and about to teach me what you learned about teaching. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'll read it a little bit longer since you're so interested. Um, okay, okay.

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Speaker 1: It asked us to admit that we don't know, which

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Speaker 1: creates a sense of wisdom that never relinquishes itself to

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Speaker 1: We enter into a communion with our partners, creating potential

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Speaker 1: don't so that I'm not fat or so that I

426
00:23:05,800 --> 00:23:09,640
Speaker 1: stay stay. I'm just eating because it's like what I want. Like, yeah,

427
00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:11,800
Speaker 1: I said, I don't like carbs because carves make me

428
00:23:11,840 --> 00:23:15,520
Speaker 1: just feel like I'd rather have something else in that stead,

429
00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:18,040
Speaker 1: but that tastes better to me than like carves. Like

430
00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:20,160
Speaker 1: I know, carbs will fill me up and then I'll

431
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,639
Speaker 1: be like, oh I got filled up with that crust

432
00:23:22,680 --> 00:23:25,520
Speaker 1: that wasn't even that good. Like I just always want

433
00:23:25,600 --> 00:23:29,080
Speaker 1: what I want to to get the amount, and I'm

434
00:23:29,119 --> 00:23:32,200
Speaker 1: not trying but even so that I'm I'm not ever

435
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:36,240
Speaker 1: trying to be to eat to lose weight or to

436
00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:40,520
Speaker 1: manage my weight, and I'm just eating for enjoyment. Um.

437
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:43,080
Speaker 1: I like weird fucking things, and I like eating the

438
00:23:43,119 --> 00:23:45,679
Speaker 1: toppings off a pizza. And then I at the end

439
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:47,399
Speaker 1: of it, I stacked all of the because it just

440
00:23:47,400 --> 00:23:49,359
Speaker 1: looked weird with it just looks kind of gross with

441
00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,800
Speaker 1: this like kind of picked apart pizza. So I took

442
00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:53,640
Speaker 1: all the slices and stacked them on top of each

443
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:55,960
Speaker 1: other so it would just be more consolidated. And then

444
00:23:55,960 --> 00:23:58,600
Speaker 1: the guy came over again. It was just like, what

445
00:23:58,840 --> 00:24:00,520
Speaker 1: is this And I was just like, I don't know.

446
00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,439
Speaker 1: That's like when you eat one bite of peas and

447
00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:04,359
Speaker 1: then you put them you like spread them apart to

448
00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:07,480
Speaker 1: make it look like you ate more. Look watching Love

449
00:24:07,520 --> 00:24:11,919
Speaker 1: on the Spectrum last night, Love on the Spectrum, the

450
00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:15,760
Speaker 1: guy loving his dinosaurs, the girl or the one loving

451
00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:19,040
Speaker 1: the swords or whatever, the girl, and they all have

452
00:24:19,080 --> 00:24:23,280
Speaker 1: these who they are, and there's God, we could all

453
00:24:23,320 --> 00:24:25,800
Speaker 1: be so lucky to have that kind of freedom of

454
00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:29,400
Speaker 1: like they weren't ever trying to look a certain way

455
00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:32,800
Speaker 1: for the camera. Like sometimes you go sometimes you watch

456
00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:34,520
Speaker 1: the show and you get nervous for them because you're

457
00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:38,840
Speaker 1: like they're they're they're so nervous. It's like they feel

458
00:24:38,920 --> 00:24:41,520
Speaker 1: nerves because they like want something to go the way

459
00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:44,040
Speaker 1: they want it to. But they're never trying to look

460
00:24:44,160 --> 00:24:47,680
Speaker 1: a certain way or get a false y thing out

461
00:24:47,680 --> 00:24:50,040
Speaker 1: of someone. It's just so beautiful, very pure, and it

462
00:24:50,119 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 1: makes me like, Okay, you know, here's something that I

463
00:24:54,080 --> 00:24:56,439
Speaker 1: like to do, or here's something I don't know. You

464
00:24:56,560 --> 00:25:00,919
Speaker 1: just feel more appreciative of like why you like and

465
00:25:00,960 --> 00:25:02,879
Speaker 1: being okay with that. And I think that we can

466
00:25:03,000 --> 00:25:04,840
Speaker 1: learn from that. We talked about that on the show

467
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:09,359
Speaker 1: last night, Like I did not like just the things

468
00:25:09,400 --> 00:25:14,560
Speaker 1: you feel that you like that you you can't help

469
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:17,520
Speaker 1: what you like and and sometimes you know that goes

470
00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:21,600
Speaker 1: into some illegal territory. I would even say those people

471
00:25:21,680 --> 00:25:23,600
Speaker 1: can't help what they like, and that doesn't mean that

472
00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:25,840
Speaker 1: they should be able to do the things that they like,

473
00:25:26,440 --> 00:25:29,280
Speaker 1: but that they should be able to actually tell someone

474
00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:30,960
Speaker 1: that they like those things and find a way to

475
00:25:31,000 --> 00:25:36,760
Speaker 1: manage it. Like I like smoking all day, Yes, but

476
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:40,119
Speaker 1: that's and that's okay that that's what I like to do,

477
00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:44,159
Speaker 1: because that is giving me something that I can't I

478
00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:47,120
Speaker 1: can't help that I like that. There's no I don't

479
00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:49,560
Speaker 1: get to choose that I like that. No, no one

480
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:54,560
Speaker 1: would choose that a meth addict love smoking meth. They

481
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:56,879
Speaker 1: didn't get to choose that they like meth. And you

482
00:25:56,960 --> 00:25:59,120
Speaker 1: might think it's a choice, but it's just not like

483
00:25:59,200 --> 00:26:02,320
Speaker 1: that's no one once no one signs up for life

484
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:04,760
Speaker 1: and says, of all the things, I want to do that,

485
00:26:04,800 --> 00:26:06,680
Speaker 1: And you could argue, but they chose to do math

486
00:26:06,760 --> 00:26:11,040
Speaker 1: at one point. But it's even that they didn't choose

487
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,280
Speaker 1: to have the to you know, no free will DM

488
00:26:14,280 --> 00:26:16,080
Speaker 1: me if you want to look into it. But I

489
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:18,840
Speaker 1: we talked about last night. I really didn't learn until

490
00:26:19,119 --> 00:26:25,000
Speaker 1: the age of like thirty, that feelings we're not something

491
00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:27,480
Speaker 1: that you have a choice of. No what did you

492
00:26:28,080 --> 00:26:30,920
Speaker 1: did you ever feel guilty for your feelings? And by

493
00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:33,359
Speaker 1: the way, feelings not just being like I'm scared of this,

494
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:37,159
Speaker 1: or I don't like this, or um, I'm mad, but

495
00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:40,359
Speaker 1: like what you were saying of like autistic people on

496
00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:43,160
Speaker 1: the show, they like dinosaurs. There's a thirty year old

497
00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 1: man who loves dinosaurs and says, I want to honor them,

498
00:26:45,880 --> 00:26:48,960
Speaker 1: these great beasts that walked, these magical beasts that walked

499
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:52,000
Speaker 1: to earth. I honor and love them and pay respect

500
00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:55,040
Speaker 1: to them for what they've for the how they want

501
00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:57,679
Speaker 1: to the world. And it was just like a lot

502
00:26:57,760 --> 00:26:59,880
Speaker 1: of us are made to feel guilty for having chow

503
00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:04,520
Speaker 1: hood uh like obsessions and likes as an adult, Like

504
00:27:04,560 --> 00:27:07,160
Speaker 1: you have to grow out of them, and you don't

505
00:27:07,200 --> 00:27:08,399
Speaker 1: have to grow out of them. They could just be

506
00:27:08,520 --> 00:27:10,080
Speaker 1: part of your life, but you don't have to. Like

507
00:27:10,600 --> 00:27:14,080
Speaker 1: those things made you so happy and fulfilled, don't throw

508
00:27:14,119 --> 00:27:16,680
Speaker 1: them away. Don't put him in a box in the garage.

509
00:27:17,359 --> 00:27:19,719
Speaker 1: Take your dinosaurs out of the garage and put him

510
00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:21,720
Speaker 1: in the living room. And if your if your husband

511
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,480
Speaker 1: divorces you because of it, or your wife leaves you,

512
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:28,040
Speaker 1: you got the dinosaurs to you know, you're watching with

513
00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:31,280
Speaker 1: your pizza in the dark. Yeah, like the childhood things

514
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:34,199
Speaker 1: like making you happy. Chris even on the show last night,

515
00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:36,680
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, I just he has like

516
00:27:36,800 --> 00:27:39,920
Speaker 1: race car pictures in his bedroom. Ronan on the show

517
00:27:40,240 --> 00:27:42,520
Speaker 1: and Chris is like, I just bought that same exact

518
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:45,400
Speaker 1: race car pantwer from my and I was like, I

519
00:27:45,440 --> 00:27:47,600
Speaker 1: am so glad you did that, because that is kind

520
00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:49,399
Speaker 1: of a childish thing to do. Is have a picture

521
00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: of a race car. But if it makes you fucking happy,

522
00:27:51,760 --> 00:27:55,520
Speaker 1: just do it. If it brings you back nostalgia, Yes,

523
00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:58,320
Speaker 1: Michael Jackson went a little far with the I'm living

524
00:27:58,359 --> 00:28:01,080
Speaker 1: in a like a boy and I'm making my life

525
00:28:01,119 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 1: a child's life. If you if there was all the

526
00:28:04,080 --> 00:28:06,879
Speaker 1: things that you allegedly did were not true. It's fine

527
00:28:06,920 --> 00:28:09,640
Speaker 1: that he liked kids stuff. This is why people love

528
00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:12,680
Speaker 1: sports because you get to hold onto your tea ball

529
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,679
Speaker 1: days and you just buy another guy's jersey and you

530
00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:17,119
Speaker 1: wear them for the rest of your life and no

531
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:19,880
Speaker 1: one questioned you. Because that sports, you can love your

532
00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:22,720
Speaker 1: team until you're ninety eight. Don't you dare have a

533
00:28:22,760 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 1: poster of in Sync on your wall or a poster

534
00:28:25,840 --> 00:28:31,040
Speaker 1: of Mahomes or whatever? You know, like you can't still, yeah,

535
00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:32,760
Speaker 1: you can't have a poster, but you should be able

536
00:28:32,800 --> 00:28:34,399
Speaker 1: to know. It has to be a fat head now

537
00:28:34,440 --> 00:28:36,720
Speaker 1: because those are for adults. You know, what do you?

538
00:28:37,200 --> 00:28:40,080
Speaker 1: What do you think about all this? One thing that

539
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:44,440
Speaker 1: I learned um from a relationship book called Getting the

540
00:28:44,520 --> 00:28:47,880
Speaker 1: Love You Want. Oh that's another one that everyone tells

541
00:28:47,960 --> 00:28:52,280
Speaker 1: me changes everything. But an important thing that I learned

542
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:55,680
Speaker 1: is that as adults, we look to complete our childhood

543
00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:58,880
Speaker 1: and I think that can be applied to many things.

544
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:01,800
Speaker 1: So for me, all the like sports and stuff that

545
00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:05,360
Speaker 1: I had, my parents didn't really invest in me. Um,

546
00:29:05,400 --> 00:29:07,520
Speaker 1: I get to do as an adult and I get

547
00:29:07,560 --> 00:29:10,000
Speaker 1: to try them all over again. But I'm in control

548
00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,360
Speaker 1: of the situation and I think it's brought me a

549
00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:16,840
Speaker 1: lot of enrichment to my life. I love that and

550
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 1: we we did talk about that with you of like

551
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:21,280
Speaker 1: why are you going what do you what are you

552
00:29:21,320 --> 00:29:23,480
Speaker 1: doing riding horses? Like where did this come from? What

553
00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 1: do you even linking wrestling late in life? Like these

554
00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:29,360
Speaker 1: are things that you were didn't maybe you have exposure

555
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:32,400
Speaker 1: to early on that would have Like I would say

556
00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:34,360
Speaker 1: with Taylor Swift, it would have served me so much

557
00:29:34,400 --> 00:29:36,479
Speaker 1: to have her in high school. And I'm making up

558
00:29:36,480 --> 00:29:39,200
Speaker 1: for lost time. I'm healing that fifteen year old that

559
00:29:39,280 --> 00:29:43,600
Speaker 1: needed that emotional support. And oh my gosh, I have

560
00:29:43,640 --> 00:29:47,560
Speaker 1: so much to say real quick. Um, oh gosh, what

561
00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:50,160
Speaker 1: was I going to say about this, the sport thing

562
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:54,240
Speaker 1: that you're going back and doing. Um? Well, I actually

563
00:29:54,360 --> 00:29:56,720
Speaker 1: I had a teacher right to me this weekend. Well,

564
00:29:56,760 --> 00:29:59,360
Speaker 1: I had a bunch of weird things happen this weekend

565
00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:01,360
Speaker 1: with teachers. We gotta get to the news. But like,

566
00:30:01,680 --> 00:30:03,960
Speaker 1: first of all, my my favorite teacher of all time, um,

567
00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:08,360
Speaker 1: Mrs Madam Calfiss the Um she's still at Kirkwood High School.

568
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:13,640
Speaker 1: She teaches alongside my sister. Um. She uh wrote to me.

569
00:30:13,840 --> 00:30:16,440
Speaker 1: I asked her to come to the show this weekend. Um,

570
00:30:16,520 --> 00:30:18,600
Speaker 1: because all the cameras following me were like, he is

571
00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:20,240
Speaker 1: there anyone from your past that would be cool to

572
00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:22,360
Speaker 1: come to your show? And I was like, oh, Madam Calfis,

573
00:30:22,360 --> 00:30:24,040
Speaker 1: Like she means so much to me. She's come to

574
00:30:24,040 --> 00:30:25,920
Speaker 1: a bunch of my comedy shows. She's you know, works

575
00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:28,880
Speaker 1: with my sister. She's still like in my life, sees

576
00:30:28,920 --> 00:30:32,280
Speaker 1: my instagram, makes hard eyes on things. And um, she

577
00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:34,760
Speaker 1: couldn't go because she was going to Brandy Carlisle that night,

578
00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:38,120
Speaker 1: which like what a cool fucking woman. So I'm like,

579
00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:42,240
Speaker 1: if anyone is going to trump my show, it's old

580
00:30:42,280 --> 00:30:44,880
Speaker 1: BC Brandy Carlisle, who I met at the I Heart

581
00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:48,120
Speaker 1: Awards because I sat next to her wife, uh in

582
00:30:48,280 --> 00:30:51,680
Speaker 1: Usher's little circle. Um, I was sitting after this woman

583
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:53,520
Speaker 1: who was very nice, but I thought she was like

584
00:30:53,520 --> 00:30:56,080
Speaker 1: a publicist and I had been done. I'm done with

585
00:30:56,120 --> 00:30:59,560
Speaker 1: my delivering my um doing my part that I was

586
00:30:59,600 --> 00:31:01,200
Speaker 1: nervous out and then I'm like, I'm just here to

587
00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:05,840
Speaker 1: party now, sitting with next machine gun Kelly Megan Fox, Uh,

588
00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:08,880
Speaker 1: this this broad next to me? Who's someone important? And

589
00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:11,400
Speaker 1: I and she's so nice and I go. She was like, oh,

590
00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:12,680
Speaker 1: that was really funny, good job. And I was like,

591
00:31:12,800 --> 00:31:15,080
Speaker 1: thank you. I'm so excited. I'm don what do you?

592
00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:16,960
Speaker 1: Who are you here with someone? Who are you? And

593
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:19,080
Speaker 1: she's like, oh, my wife is you know? Doing the

594
00:31:19,080 --> 00:31:21,000
Speaker 1: Elton John tribute. I'm like, who's your wife? And she's

595
00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:24,040
Speaker 1: like Brandy Carlisle. I'm like, get the funk out of town.

596
00:31:24,080 --> 00:31:26,520
Speaker 1: I was like, I love her. And then Brandy comes

597
00:31:26,560 --> 00:31:28,040
Speaker 1: and sits down. We have a great time. That's the

598
00:31:28,040 --> 00:31:30,400
Speaker 1: only interaction I've had with Brandy. But she was in St. Louis.

599
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,160
Speaker 1: The same guy as my show, Madam Calfis went to

600
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:34,200
Speaker 1: her show and said, so, I asked Madam Calfis if

601
00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:37,360
Speaker 1: she could go. She goes, um, I give an arm

602
00:31:37,360 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 1: and a leg to come see you, my dearest Nicky.

603
00:31:39,120 --> 00:31:41,840
Speaker 1: You and Lauren became a French for lesson this last week.

604
00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:44,000
Speaker 1: I don't know what that means. But I've got Brandy

605
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:46,040
Speaker 1: Carlisle tickets tomorrow night. I will definitely be in the

606
00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:48,840
Speaker 1: front row next time. So cool that you have a

607
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:51,800
Speaker 1: bunch of cameras following you. That's what she said. That's

608
00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:54,720
Speaker 1: what she didn't say, but something else, love you. She goes,

609
00:31:54,800 --> 00:31:58,080
Speaker 1: love you twee, which, by the way, in French we

610
00:31:58,160 --> 00:32:01,440
Speaker 1: got to make up it like when you got to

611
00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 1: pick like French names. These used to do that in

612
00:32:04,160 --> 00:32:08,880
Speaker 1: like Spanish. Yeah, I was Kiki Twee because I liked

613
00:32:08,920 --> 00:32:11,160
Speaker 1: both the name Kiki because it was like, I'm like

614
00:32:11,240 --> 00:32:16,320
Speaker 1: Nikki and tweet t h u y is like I

615
00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:18,320
Speaker 1: just thought it's like a cool like k tweet. So

616
00:32:18,360 --> 00:32:21,760
Speaker 1: I was Kiki Twee. And she called she said, she

617
00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:23,840
Speaker 1: reminded I didn't even remember that was my name. So

618
00:32:23,880 --> 00:32:27,800
Speaker 1: then I go, UM, I said, thank you so much. Um,

619
00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:31,160
Speaker 1: I love Brandy. You have so much fun. Then um,

620
00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:34,800
Speaker 1: I said, please let me know. I go, um. She said,

621
00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:38,640
Speaker 1: bring your cameras to KHS High School. I go, I'm

622
00:32:38,680 --> 00:32:40,719
Speaker 1: trying to. I want to do a talk for girls.

623
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,040
Speaker 1: They're like a ted talk kind of thing. And she said,

624
00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:44,480
Speaker 1: please let me know if I can help blah blah.

625
00:32:44,640 --> 00:32:47,720
Speaker 1: Then before my show, when she's probably getting up getting

626
00:32:47,720 --> 00:32:49,920
Speaker 1: ready to go to Brandy Carlisle, she wrote me, give

627
00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:53,040
Speaker 1: him heck tonight. I got emotion. She'll read this, Okay,

628
00:32:53,240 --> 00:32:54,960
Speaker 1: I didn't get I didn't read this until it's coming

629
00:32:54,960 --> 00:32:58,000
Speaker 1: home from my show. She goes, give give them heck tonight. Nikki,

630
00:32:58,440 --> 00:33:01,520
Speaker 1: you are a courageous, creative soul. Your path is glamorous,

631
00:33:01,560 --> 00:33:04,280
Speaker 1: but I'm sure it's not always easy at heart. I

632
00:33:04,320 --> 00:33:06,320
Speaker 1: know you are the girl who loves animals and the

633
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:08,640
Speaker 1: bird you had in high school, and your family and

634
00:33:08,640 --> 00:33:12,200
Speaker 1: bringing joy and laughter to the world. Thank you, And

635
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:14,600
Speaker 1: I said, I want to get that fucking tattooed on me.

636
00:33:15,040 --> 00:33:18,600
Speaker 1: Thats the one, But yeah, that would be dope. I mean,

637
00:33:18,840 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: it's great that you connected with a teacher like that,

638
00:33:21,280 --> 00:33:24,959
Speaker 1: and dude, you kind of forget, like we forget that

639
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:28,280
Speaker 1: the teacher like we're their stories, you know what I mean,

640
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:30,719
Speaker 1: Like she is proud of you, like you were like

641
00:33:30,760 --> 00:33:32,960
Speaker 1: connected to her, like we forget. You know, it's like

642
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,600
Speaker 1: anything you just see your teachers. That's a teacher that's

643
00:33:35,600 --> 00:33:37,920
Speaker 1: not even a human, but they're on the other end

644
00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 1: being like I taught Nikki, she was this. I saw

645
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:43,800
Speaker 1: this about her. I knew that Okiki Twee would be

646
00:33:43,840 --> 00:33:47,240
Speaker 1: selling out, you know, the factory. She You know, I

647
00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:53,760
Speaker 1: got interaxia, like right when she very French, I don't know,

648
00:33:53,920 --> 00:33:58,920
Speaker 1: just being skinny, like you smoke a cigarette. Second shirts

649
00:33:58,920 --> 00:34:01,959
Speaker 1: with horizontal stripe and not so I feel like, you know,

650
00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:05,800
Speaker 1: like frenchman with the black and white stripes, you know, horizontal.

651
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:11,160
Speaker 1: Um so uh no, she she was on bed rest. Mine.

652
00:34:11,520 --> 00:34:15,040
Speaker 1: I only got into AP French because I was sucked

653
00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:17,480
Speaker 1: at French, terrible at it always a struggle. I only

654
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:19,960
Speaker 1: did AP French because she was the teacher. Then we

655
00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:22,520
Speaker 1: start school and she is pregnant and she gets bedridden

656
00:34:22,840 --> 00:34:24,680
Speaker 1: and so she can't even teach us. We get a

657
00:34:24,680 --> 00:34:27,280
Speaker 1: new teacher who was also pretty good. But I only

658
00:34:27,719 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 1: wanted Madam Calfis like she was like I was like

659
00:34:30,760 --> 00:34:33,920
Speaker 1: kind of in love with her, like really really needed her.

660
00:34:34,320 --> 00:34:37,320
Speaker 1: She was around on love happened. Then she got bed rest. Okay,

661
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:39,640
Speaker 1: so like right after our senior year started, boom, she's

662
00:34:39,680 --> 00:34:43,080
Speaker 1: gone in bed. That child is now like twenty right,

663
00:34:43,440 --> 00:34:46,640
Speaker 1: but um she came back. She after she gave birth.

664
00:34:46,760 --> 00:34:48,200
Speaker 1: She came back in at the very end of the

665
00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:50,920
Speaker 1: year she took all the AP French students out to

666
00:34:51,560 --> 00:34:54,319
Speaker 1: Macaroni Grill and we had I had not seen her

667
00:34:54,360 --> 00:35:01,200
Speaker 1: since back in September before she left, and by May

668
00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:05,360
Speaker 1: of two thousand two, I was like on my way

669
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,480
Speaker 1: to death, like I was. I I remember we went

670
00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:11,440
Speaker 1: to Macaroni Girl and I mean, this comes back around.

671
00:35:11,520 --> 00:35:13,640
Speaker 1: This is so weird. Sorry, no one will get in news.

672
00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:17,239
Speaker 1: I ordered pasta like it was Macaroni Girl. There was

673
00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:19,360
Speaker 1: nothing on the menu that I could eat as an antirectic,

674
00:35:19,480 --> 00:35:22,080
Speaker 1: like literally nothing. I was freaked out about it. And

675
00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:24,480
Speaker 1: I remember telling the waiter can you put no oil

676
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 1: in it? Like I was so scared of oil, so scared.

677
00:35:26,719 --> 00:35:28,320
Speaker 1: I was like can you just do because I was

678
00:35:28,320 --> 00:35:30,879
Speaker 1: scared of fat because pasta didn't have fat, but like

679
00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:32,799
Speaker 1: oil and I was like no oil. And I just

680
00:35:32,840 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 1: remember her like kind of seeing through it and being

681
00:35:35,280 --> 00:35:39,640
Speaker 1: like okay, like and I just remember being like, oh no,

682
00:35:39,960 --> 00:35:43,480
Speaker 1: she knows, and like she I just don't want her

683
00:35:43,520 --> 00:35:45,160
Speaker 1: to think less of me, and she knows I'm up

684
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:47,120
Speaker 1: to something, and I like, I think I really like

685
00:35:47,280 --> 00:35:51,120
Speaker 1: shut her out after that, But she always was the

686
00:35:51,160 --> 00:35:55,920
Speaker 1: one that made me feel like like okay about being

687
00:35:56,239 --> 00:35:58,239
Speaker 1: who I was and like liking the things I liked

688
00:35:58,239 --> 00:36:00,239
Speaker 1: and being bad at front and that it was hey

689
00:36:00,280 --> 00:36:02,719
Speaker 1: and that I was still like, you know something I

690
00:36:02,719 --> 00:36:04,920
Speaker 1: could get good at. It's really weird because I just

691
00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:08,240
Speaker 1: started watching a SMR videos of women talking in French

692
00:36:08,560 --> 00:36:10,920
Speaker 1: because there's something so soothing about the woman who was

693
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:15,800
Speaker 1: like amazing me like talking and it's like, oh, maybe

694
00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,279
Speaker 1: I can start French again, so I might do that. Um,

695
00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:25,919
Speaker 1: let's get to thank you for letting plife. I saw

696
00:36:25,960 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 1: Brandy Carlisle, she's saying with John Prine. She was so

697
00:36:29,560 --> 00:36:35,240
Speaker 1: fucking good. Start Alive, Yeah, Stergill Simpson, then Brandy Carlisle

698
00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:37,360
Speaker 1: and John She came out and sang with John Prine.

699
00:36:38,600 --> 00:36:41,160
Speaker 1: What a concert that was by my favorite concerts. She

700
00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:43,799
Speaker 1: she's incredible. I gotta get into her more, but it's

701
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 1: just so hard for me to get into new music.

702
00:36:48,040 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 1: That's gonna help. Okay, let's get to the news first.

703
00:36:55,520 --> 00:37:00,399
Speaker 1: I have like, do you ever get muscle spasms? Yeah?

704
00:37:00,480 --> 00:37:05,400
Speaker 1: I have a muscle spasm, and really I feel my

705
00:37:05,440 --> 00:37:07,200
Speaker 1: body twitching and I'm like, oh my god, it's like

706
00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:10,000
Speaker 1: a little aliens. It's almost like a baby's kicking in

707
00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:12,359
Speaker 1: my eye. You know what that's that's I'm gonna change

708
00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:17,640
Speaker 1: my thought process because I have. That's better though I

709
00:37:17,719 --> 00:37:20,640
Speaker 1: feel like it's not up to me, but it's like

710
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:22,880
Speaker 1: right next to like kind of where my heart is.

711
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:25,920
Speaker 1: So the old Andrew would go, is that my chest?

712
00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:28,960
Speaker 1: Or is that my heart not beating correctly? I think

713
00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:36,640
Speaker 1: you're in love, miss Brenna much new episode of Puddles

714
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:39,960
Speaker 1: with Puddle Andrew's Andrew's podcast if you want to check

715
00:37:39,960 --> 00:37:43,239
Speaker 1: it out him and um Brenna his girlfriend or she

716
00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:47,600
Speaker 1: might be the new permanent co host. Honestly, okay, thank

717
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:50,319
Speaker 1: you so much and have all the swells. Good job.

718
00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:54,600
Speaker 1: Not drinking enough water probably causes the little baby muscle

719
00:37:54,600 --> 00:37:58,320
Speaker 1: spasms you know us might leave you with less energy.

720
00:37:58,360 --> 00:38:00,879
Speaker 1: Brain fog affect your focus, so you're breathing in heart

721
00:38:00,960 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 1: rate maybe faster than normal. You can overheat and you

722
00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:07,320
Speaker 1: might feel confused or cranky. We you know you're supposed

723
00:38:07,360 --> 00:38:11,000
Speaker 1: to drink six glasses of water per day. How much

724
00:38:11,280 --> 00:38:14,239
Speaker 1: water do we drink? Nick, dude, I'm not even joking you.

725
00:38:14,520 --> 00:38:18,920
Speaker 1: Some days zero zero I got. I mean it's in

726
00:38:18,920 --> 00:38:21,680
Speaker 1: the spin drift I'm drinking. It's sparkling water listen if

727
00:38:22,080 --> 00:38:25,280
Speaker 1: if my body needed I listen to what my body needs,

728
00:38:25,560 --> 00:38:27,959
Speaker 1: and sometimes it does fucking need water and I chug

729
00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:31,120
Speaker 1: some water. I'm I'm in tune. I'm not going to

730
00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:32,880
Speaker 1: be one of these people that I used to chug

731
00:38:32,920 --> 00:38:35,080
Speaker 1: water so I could just get it in because I

732
00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:37,000
Speaker 1: knew it was gonna be good for my skin. I'm

733
00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:39,120
Speaker 1: not doing that anymore. I'm just if my body needs it,

734
00:38:39,160 --> 00:38:41,680
Speaker 1: I'll get it. I will be more mindful of that

735
00:38:41,760 --> 00:38:45,600
Speaker 1: and like, but I trust now that I like putting

736
00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:47,640
Speaker 1: things in my body that feel good. And I'm not

737
00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:49,839
Speaker 1: going to beat myself up anymore about the not getting

738
00:38:49,920 --> 00:38:51,919
Speaker 1: enough water. I can't do it because then I start

739
00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:55,040
Speaker 1: drowning myself with water and I feel sick. Yes, you

740
00:38:55,080 --> 00:38:57,960
Speaker 1: can overdo it. Mick Jagger was really chugging it down

741
00:38:58,000 --> 00:39:00,840
Speaker 1: the other night, and it was like I was film it,

742
00:39:00,960 --> 00:39:03,280
Speaker 1: Like he would show up on the big screen like dancing,

743
00:39:03,320 --> 00:39:05,120
Speaker 1: and then they would go over to Keith Ridgards and

744
00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,560
Speaker 1: that's when he would go for his water bottle, and

745
00:39:06,560 --> 00:39:07,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, I want to know what water bottle he

746
00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:11,400
Speaker 1: has because it looks so efficient and cool. I feel

747
00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:14,400
Speaker 1: like he is probably insanely ain't all about what he

748
00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:19,520
Speaker 1: puts in his body. Because you said ain't I got yeah.

749
00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:21,440
Speaker 1: I can feel that I'm ain't all about what I

750
00:39:21,440 --> 00:39:23,240
Speaker 1: put in my body too, because he wants to still

751
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:25,560
Speaker 1: be Like there's something about a seventy eight year old

752
00:39:25,600 --> 00:39:27,840
Speaker 1: man that still wants to look sexy. Like telling you

753
00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:31,760
Speaker 1: every person and that god damn building googled Hick Jagger

754
00:39:31,840 --> 00:39:35,799
Speaker 1: age Mick Jagger health regimen. I learned that he runs

755
00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:40,400
Speaker 1: up to eight miles a day. He eats, Yeah, I

756
00:39:40,400 --> 00:39:42,560
Speaker 1: mean this is what this is what Bruce Springsteen does.

757
00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:44,919
Speaker 1: He comes home from concerts where he performs for four

758
00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:48,600
Speaker 1: hours with like four encores and then runs five miles

759
00:39:48,600 --> 00:39:51,359
Speaker 1: on the treadmill. Uh, cooks up a delicious meal like

760
00:39:51,680 --> 00:39:54,879
Speaker 1: he just is one of these hyper productive, like go

761
00:39:54,880 --> 00:39:58,000
Speaker 1: go go clean eating people. And I feel like if

762
00:39:58,000 --> 00:40:00,000
Speaker 1: we I was talking to Kristen about it last night

763
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:04,319
Speaker 1: eight and her whole I love Kirsten's method or her like,

764
00:40:04,600 --> 00:40:08,680
Speaker 1: I'm so excited to bring her to the world if

765
00:40:08,719 --> 00:40:10,520
Speaker 1: you heard her, like you get it. She's just like

766
00:40:10,560 --> 00:40:13,360
Speaker 1: an amazing person to put in front of these cameras

767
00:40:13,400 --> 00:40:16,120
Speaker 1: that are following me around to show someone who I

768
00:40:16,160 --> 00:40:18,480
Speaker 1: always projected so much perfection on because she does have

769
00:40:18,520 --> 00:40:22,520
Speaker 1: a perfect body in quotes, perfect hair, perfect skin, like

770
00:40:22,560 --> 00:40:25,080
Speaker 1: every she just is like a happy person, like you're

771
00:40:25,120 --> 00:40:27,480
Speaker 1: just like God. She just is kind of perfect, and

772
00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:29,520
Speaker 1: it can be eared. It used to really bother me

773
00:40:29,560 --> 00:40:32,640
Speaker 1: and make me so jealous and feel a lot of

774
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:37,640
Speaker 1: like self hatred because I couldn't be her no matter

775
00:40:37,719 --> 00:40:39,640
Speaker 1: how hard I tried, even though she brought me so

776
00:40:39,680 --> 00:40:43,120
Speaker 1: much joy, there was always this like subconscious like resentment

777
00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:46,440
Speaker 1: that I couldn't be her. But now it's like I

778
00:40:46,520 --> 00:40:48,719
Speaker 1: was talking to her or I heard her talking to

779
00:40:48,760 --> 00:40:51,759
Speaker 1: someone about how she trains people, and it goes to like,

780
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:54,520
Speaker 1: she's a she's one of the best trainers in America.

781
00:40:54,640 --> 00:40:57,719
Speaker 1: I'm I'm, I would I would venture to guess she

782
00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:02,120
Speaker 1: climbed the ranks of this really prestigious UM Health Center

783
00:41:02,239 --> 00:41:04,919
Speaker 1: in Kansas City, the best gym in Kansas City, very

784
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:07,200
Speaker 1: you know, expensive to join. She's the most one of

785
00:41:07,200 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 1: the most expensive trainers definitely in UM Kansas City. And

786
00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:16,680
Speaker 1: she um what she does. She's not telling people what

787
00:41:16,760 --> 00:41:19,440
Speaker 1: to eat and like you gotta count your macros and

788
00:41:19,480 --> 00:41:21,600
Speaker 1: you gotta get this much in and and if you

789
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:23,640
Speaker 1: don't do this, you're wrong. She was like, I'm the

790
00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:25,200
Speaker 1: kind of trainer that's going to tell you not what

791
00:41:25,239 --> 00:41:28,600
Speaker 1: to eat, how many carbs, how many like milligrams of

792
00:41:28,680 --> 00:41:32,279
Speaker 1: this protein powders to do, but like read a read

793
00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:34,680
Speaker 1: a book before you go to bed, go to bed early,

794
00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:39,000
Speaker 1: wake up early, journal, like wear clothes that feel good

795
00:41:39,040 --> 00:41:41,360
Speaker 1: on you. And but we're at the same time, she

796
00:41:42,080 --> 00:41:45,040
Speaker 1: totally works, like she's a genius when it comes to

797
00:41:45,120 --> 00:41:47,400
Speaker 1: fitness and what to do. But she's never going to

798
00:41:48,040 --> 00:41:50,359
Speaker 1: tell someone they need to lose weight or they need

799
00:41:50,440 --> 00:41:54,480
Speaker 1: to get abs or you know, because that's that's not sustainable. Yeah,

800
00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:58,360
Speaker 1: it's interesting, like how you set a goal, Like what

801
00:41:58,520 --> 00:42:01,440
Speaker 1: your goal is? Someone goes, well, my goal is I

802
00:42:01,480 --> 00:42:04,320
Speaker 1: want to see four, all five, six of my abs.

803
00:42:04,400 --> 00:42:07,719
Speaker 1: That's my goal. It's like, you know, when what's that

804
00:42:07,800 --> 00:42:11,160
Speaker 1: quote where you like if you build a house, but

805
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:14,040
Speaker 1: then if you build like a synagogue or a church,

806
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 1: there's more passion behind it, you know what I'm talking about?

807
00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:19,920
Speaker 1: Like no, but but like it gives whoever is building

808
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:23,600
Speaker 1: it a reason to build it. Right, These people like

809
00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:26,360
Speaker 1: instead of like just focusing, I have a I have

810
00:42:26,480 --> 00:42:28,319
Speaker 1: a trip coming up, and I need to get in

811
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:31,360
Speaker 1: shape for it. No, it's more about being like healthy

812
00:42:31,480 --> 00:42:35,120
Speaker 1: and balanced eight year old man counting macros. Give me

813
00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:39,279
Speaker 1: a fucking break. No, I honestly think I bet he

814
00:42:39,320 --> 00:42:41,239
Speaker 1: does things that feel good for him, Like I bet

815
00:42:41,280 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 1: eight running eight miles for him is not like, oh,

816
00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:45,799
Speaker 1: I gotta get up and do it because I want

817
00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:48,239
Speaker 1: to look a certain way. It's like, this helps me

818
00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:52,120
Speaker 1: perform with the energy that I like. That makes me

819
00:42:52,160 --> 00:42:55,319
Speaker 1: the happiest. Like and maybe you can argue it makes

820
00:42:55,320 --> 00:42:58,760
Speaker 1: me happy to have abs, okay, But when your abs

821
00:42:58,760 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 1: go away, when you're an older person, or let's say

822
00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:02,560
Speaker 1: you get into a car accident and you're in a

823
00:43:02,560 --> 00:43:06,120
Speaker 1: wheelchair and you can't have abs, or your your limbs atrophy,

824
00:43:06,160 --> 00:43:08,279
Speaker 1: are you gonna be okay? Is that? Are you gonna

825
00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:12,160
Speaker 1: kill yourself? Like? Or what? When your happiness and your

826
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:15,240
Speaker 1: self worth is wrapped up in those physical things. And listen,

827
00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:18,000
Speaker 1: I'm not free of the burden of self obsession and

828
00:43:18,440 --> 00:43:21,560
Speaker 1: body image. But I just know that when I hear

829
00:43:21,600 --> 00:43:24,800
Speaker 1: a trainer tell a woman who's pregnant on the fucking

830
00:43:24,880 --> 00:43:28,960
Speaker 1: stair climber next to me, um that she needs to

831
00:43:29,760 --> 00:43:32,320
Speaker 1: start eating. He was. I remember he was describing a

832
00:43:32,400 --> 00:43:35,000
Speaker 1: smoothie that she she should have for two of her meals.

833
00:43:35,560 --> 00:43:37,799
Speaker 1: And I was like, that's smoothie is less than two

834
00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:42,080
Speaker 1: hundred calories, like I know. And I just said, I'm sorry,

835
00:43:42,520 --> 00:43:45,680
Speaker 1: she's pregnant and you're making her do a workout right

836
00:43:45,680 --> 00:43:49,759
Speaker 1: now where she's already burned two so all her whole

837
00:43:49,760 --> 00:43:52,360
Speaker 1: her lunch is two D And he goes, I'm sorry.

838
00:43:52,520 --> 00:43:54,319
Speaker 1: I was I talking to you, and I go, no,

839
00:43:54,440 --> 00:43:56,799
Speaker 1: but I can't help but hear that you're advising a

840
00:43:56,840 --> 00:44:00,879
Speaker 1: pregnant woman to restrict her new tril ship. Like what

841
00:44:00,960 --> 00:44:04,200
Speaker 1: the trainers that come from that perspective? That's when I

842
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:08,560
Speaker 1: would hide in the bathtroom then there for twenty years

843
00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:12,520
Speaker 1: of and I just want other people to give up this,

844
00:44:12,600 --> 00:44:16,440
Speaker 1: like diet culture. What about this though? Mick Jagger or Turkey?

845
00:44:16,560 --> 00:44:19,080
Speaker 1: Are you ready? Oh yeah, let's play Mick Jagger or

846
00:44:19,120 --> 00:44:23,040
Speaker 1: Turkey an impression and it's either a Mick Jagger impression

847
00:44:23,120 --> 00:44:27,920
Speaker 1: or a turkey. Um, definitely a turkey. No, that was

848
00:44:27,960 --> 00:44:30,480
Speaker 1: Mick Jagger. Okay, okay, do it. Let's do it again.

849
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:38,640
Speaker 1: That's a turkey. That's a fucking turkey again. Okay, all right,

850
00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:42,200
Speaker 1: last one, here we go you could try, Okay, one more,

851
00:44:44,560 --> 00:44:50,400
Speaker 1: that's I mean a hundred percent Jagger, Yes, got it? Wow,

852
00:44:50,440 --> 00:44:52,400
Speaker 1: it was Mick Jagger the whole time. What would turkey

853
00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:54,319
Speaker 1: look like if you did it? Though? I guess you

854
00:44:54,320 --> 00:44:58,400
Speaker 1: got to keep playing the game. I just you know

855
00:44:58,440 --> 00:45:03,000
Speaker 1: what it's to be sassy turkey, turkey that got pardoned

856
00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:06,200
Speaker 1: on Thanksgiving by the president. Like that just comes back

857
00:45:06,200 --> 00:45:09,920
Speaker 1: to the rous, Like you know that was going to

858
00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:12,840
Speaker 1: be our bird for America. The turkey, it's could be

859
00:45:12,880 --> 00:45:14,480
Speaker 1: so much smarter than the eat. Did you know the

860
00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:18,840
Speaker 1: velociraptor was really the size of a turkey? That actually

861
00:45:18,840 --> 00:45:20,799
Speaker 1: blew my mind? Yeah? I knew. I knew about it

862
00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:25,640
Speaker 1: from Reddit. Hey, um Andrew? Uh? Next news story? Water,

863
00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:27,560
Speaker 1: I gotta I have to drink more water. But guess

864
00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:30,520
Speaker 1: what I get to drink more water if I want to? Well.

865
00:45:30,560 --> 00:45:33,439
Speaker 1: A part of the article said that um seltzer could

866
00:45:33,480 --> 00:45:36,919
Speaker 1: be counted as water. Hold on, you just quickly see

867
00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:43,840
Speaker 1: before Andrew moves on sparkling water. Fruit tease without sugar

868
00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:47,480
Speaker 1: can also be another healthy way to increase water comes Okay, well,

869
00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:52,720
Speaker 1: guess what old canhead is going to keep on sipping

870
00:45:52,760 --> 00:45:55,440
Speaker 1: the seeds? I do ate zv as a day at

871
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 1: least those are there, Seltzer, you'd be dead if you

872
00:45:59,719 --> 00:46:03,120
Speaker 1: were drinking water. People, someone send me. It's like stevia

873
00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:05,560
Speaker 1: is bad for you. Will someone send me? Like why?

874
00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:07,239
Speaker 1: Or if you're a company out there, can you just

875
00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:10,279
Speaker 1: send us a lot of water zvia? What what are

876
00:46:10,280 --> 00:46:12,840
Speaker 1: you doing? Every single photograph I have myself has a

877
00:46:13,280 --> 00:46:15,879
Speaker 1: zvia in my hands. You should literally be the head

878
00:46:15,880 --> 00:46:18,960
Speaker 1: of their company. I shouldn't invest because it's delicious. And

879
00:46:19,000 --> 00:46:20,799
Speaker 1: I met a guy on the road who goes When

880
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:23,360
Speaker 1: I saw Zevia was on your writer, I was like,

881
00:46:23,400 --> 00:46:25,040
Speaker 1: that's my girl. I'm going to enjoy this girl. And

882
00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:27,120
Speaker 1: are you addicted to And he was like, oh, I

883
00:46:27,160 --> 00:46:30,960
Speaker 1: go through like forty cans in like three days. Like

884
00:46:31,000 --> 00:46:33,400
Speaker 1: he was like, he's worse than me. I mean, people

885
00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:35,600
Speaker 1: love Celsius because we talked about I think we talked

886
00:46:35,600 --> 00:46:38,319
Speaker 1: about it more than Zevia. But if if you want

887
00:46:38,320 --> 00:46:41,319
Speaker 1: to drink, that is going to change your life and

888
00:46:41,360 --> 00:46:44,960
Speaker 1: get you addicted. And it's kind of expensive though. Ginger

889
00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:49,000
Speaker 1: rupier is my jam, so is the cream soda? Okay?

890
00:46:49,239 --> 00:46:53,040
Speaker 1: At edna uh an edna woman, I don't know what

891
00:46:53,160 --> 00:46:55,880
Speaker 1: edna means. I don't know what. Actually, it's probably like

892
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:59,399
Speaker 1: a small town and from wherever this local news story. Yes,

893
00:46:59,719 --> 00:47:02,080
Speaker 1: this woman who wanted what if? Her name was Edna?

894
00:47:02,200 --> 00:47:07,759
Speaker 1: Some woman, a woman Natum wanted to spend more time

895
00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:11,400
Speaker 1: with her boyfriend, but she was arrested after she directed

896
00:47:11,440 --> 00:47:15,080
Speaker 1: two separate bomb threats to where he worked. So he

897
00:47:15,120 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 1: worked at a factory. She wanted to hang out with

898
00:47:17,360 --> 00:47:20,680
Speaker 1: him longer, so she made bomb threats. Talk about love.

899
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:24,960
Speaker 1: I mean, was he in on this? Like you know,

900
00:47:25,400 --> 00:47:31,080
Speaker 1: I don't think so, Jeff. His whole office had to

901
00:47:31,160 --> 00:47:34,040
Speaker 1: be evacuated. They lost a lot of money for her

902
00:47:34,160 --> 00:47:37,080
Speaker 1: to get some dick for another two did how much

903
00:47:37,080 --> 00:47:40,200
Speaker 1: of Bachelor in Paradise did they get through together? Like,

904
00:47:40,239 --> 00:47:41,880
Speaker 1: I don't know what she wanted them? You know what?

905
00:47:42,880 --> 00:47:45,520
Speaker 1: Like like how do you get to that? I'm not

906
00:47:45,600 --> 00:47:47,879
Speaker 1: kidding you, Like no, I thank you for choosing this,

907
00:47:48,239 --> 00:47:52,359
Speaker 1: Like I want the I want my partner to be,

908
00:47:52,560 --> 00:47:55,200
Speaker 1: you know, my best friend, like someone that you know,

909
00:47:55,239 --> 00:47:57,279
Speaker 1: not the same best friend that is my best friend

910
00:47:57,360 --> 00:48:00,520
Speaker 1: or Andrew's my best friend. But I want someone around

911
00:48:00,520 --> 00:48:02,759
Speaker 1: that I can like that I love being around, and

912
00:48:02,760 --> 00:48:04,839
Speaker 1: that will be around me as much as possible because

913
00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:08,480
Speaker 1: I want. Yeah, I want like a life partner, and

914
00:48:08,680 --> 00:48:11,920
Speaker 1: I want someone who because I make enough money, I

915
00:48:11,960 --> 00:48:14,799
Speaker 1: just feel like for two people and I don't plan

916
00:48:14,920 --> 00:48:17,040
Speaker 1: on really having kids. I don't want them to really

917
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:20,280
Speaker 1: work unless the work they do brings them immense joy

918
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 1: and doesn't cause them stress outside of work. Like I

919
00:48:24,040 --> 00:48:26,880
Speaker 1: don't want someone and if they're working a factor, like

920
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:28,960
Speaker 1: if we're working a job that doesn't bring them joy,

921
00:48:29,280 --> 00:48:31,040
Speaker 1: get out of that. Just come on the road with me,

922
00:48:31,200 --> 00:48:32,759
Speaker 1: or you know, you don't have to be on the

923
00:48:32,800 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 1: road with me. But like, if let's say that they

924
00:48:35,160 --> 00:48:36,759
Speaker 1: were like you and they liked golfing, I'd be like,

925
00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:38,520
Speaker 1: just go on the road with me and just go

926
00:48:38,920 --> 00:48:41,480
Speaker 1: golf during the day and then come to the shows

927
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 1: at night and hang out with me and my friends,

928
00:48:43,640 --> 00:48:47,359
Speaker 1: and yeah, I love you. Know, work really does take um.

929
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:50,680
Speaker 1: If you're dating someone who like is gone a lot

930
00:48:51,080 --> 00:48:56,200
Speaker 1: working or their job, it's it's hard because you want

931
00:48:56,920 --> 00:49:00,399
Speaker 1: if they don't like their job, you want to change

932
00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:02,319
Speaker 1: it for them, But then they also just want you

933
00:49:02,360 --> 00:49:05,759
Speaker 1: to listen. They don't want you to like try to

934
00:49:05,880 --> 00:49:08,760
Speaker 1: fix it. But they end up working with these people

935
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:10,600
Speaker 1: that they work with that drive them crazy because you

936
00:49:10,640 --> 00:49:13,399
Speaker 1: hear about them just as much. But have you ever

937
00:49:13,440 --> 00:49:16,160
Speaker 1: heard this? This was an interesting thing that I remembered

938
00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:17,920
Speaker 1: from a book called The Dance of Anger that I

939
00:49:17,960 --> 00:49:24,439
Speaker 1: made my ex boyfriend listen to. Yeah, that's getting in it. Um.

940
00:49:24,560 --> 00:49:26,440
Speaker 1: It was called Dance of Anger, and we audio booked

941
00:49:26,480 --> 00:49:28,680
Speaker 1: it on our cross country drive when we moved from

942
00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:30,840
Speaker 1: New York to l A. And I don't remember anything

943
00:49:30,880 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 1: from this book, But the other day he reminded me

944
00:49:32,560 --> 00:49:35,760
Speaker 1: of something that when someone is getting angry about something,

945
00:49:36,239 --> 00:49:40,000
Speaker 1: like say, I'm bitching about um, like I was supposed

946
00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:41,759
Speaker 1: to get this pet like today when I was like,

947
00:49:41,840 --> 00:49:44,040
Speaker 1: there's all these boxes and I don't know what to

948
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:46,839
Speaker 1: do with all of them. When you go, god damn it, Yes,

949
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:51,239
Speaker 1: why are these books? When you join it, you it's

950
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:54,920
Speaker 1: it takes away my feeld, Like you, there's only it

951
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:58,960
Speaker 1: when when when your partner gets angry, listening is so

952
00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:02,040
Speaker 1: much better than joining in and adding to it. Not

953
00:50:02,080 --> 00:50:05,120
Speaker 1: because it adds to the fire, but because that person,

954
00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:08,319
Speaker 1: that person's anger is their own and let them have it,

955
00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:11,040
Speaker 1: and it's best for you and them to not I

956
00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:13,480
Speaker 1: forget how he phrased it with my ex boyfriend. So

957
00:50:13,560 --> 00:50:16,960
Speaker 1: what should you do listen, okay, bitch to me? No, no,

958
00:50:17,000 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 1: go ahead, go ahead, talk about the boxes. What should

959
00:50:19,120 --> 00:50:21,239
Speaker 1: I do? You said you talk about you be me

960
00:50:21,600 --> 00:50:24,080
Speaker 1: these fucking boxes. I keep getting boxes. I don't know

961
00:50:24,080 --> 00:50:26,000
Speaker 1: what to do. It's piling up. I gotta bring it

962
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:29,840
Speaker 1: the recycling. I don't understand why I need more things.

963
00:50:30,480 --> 00:50:33,600
Speaker 1: I don't need more things. It's really, it's so that

964
00:50:33,719 --> 00:50:39,359
Speaker 1: sounds so frustrating. I really I relate to feeling that frustrated.

965
00:50:39,520 --> 00:50:41,480
Speaker 1: You don't think I need to make a switch, though,

966
00:50:41,480 --> 00:50:44,399
Speaker 1: I feel like I gotta stop ordering things. Obviously I'm

967
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:47,400
Speaker 1: just a idiot. I think I don't think you're an idiot,

968
00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:50,120
Speaker 1: and I think you should just I think, you know,

969
00:50:50,440 --> 00:50:53,759
Speaker 1: just feel this feeling, and maybe it'll lead you naturally

970
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:56,879
Speaker 1: to doing the right thing instead of beating yourself about

971
00:50:57,040 --> 00:50:59,120
Speaker 1: what you should be doing. I feel like you you

972
00:50:59,200 --> 00:51:02,600
Speaker 1: definitely did this for a reason, and it'll you'll you'll

973
00:51:02,600 --> 00:51:06,200
Speaker 1: figure you'll you'll be okay. But I totally understand your

974
00:51:06,200 --> 00:51:12,160
Speaker 1: frustration right now and I and now that we shouldn't

975
00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:15,719
Speaker 1: do okay, fucking boxes are piling up. I just can't

976
00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:19,680
Speaker 1: keep boarding stuff. I mean, it's I when I ordered,

977
00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:23,560
Speaker 1: they're they're everywhere. That's a huge mass. And then your

978
00:51:23,560 --> 00:51:25,719
Speaker 1: hands get all dry when you break down the boxes,

979
00:51:25,760 --> 00:51:28,000
Speaker 1: and like you, then you your cuticles start ripping, and

980
00:51:28,000 --> 00:51:32,000
Speaker 1: then you start picking up those because you're because I

981
00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:34,800
Speaker 1: keep watching you rip out your cuticles and you're bleeding

982
00:51:34,800 --> 00:51:37,279
Speaker 1: all over our apartment and it's just there's blood on

983
00:51:37,320 --> 00:51:40,200
Speaker 1: the cabinets. But that's kind of fun to double up

984
00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:43,920
Speaker 1: on the blood on the cabinets and us I mean pizza.

985
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:49,160
Speaker 1: K Yeah, yeah, there is. My baby left me because

986
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:52,200
Speaker 1: she said there's no spark. Let's take a quick break

987
00:51:52,239 --> 00:51:58,640
Speaker 1: and come back with why do I get all? Right? Andrew?

988
00:51:59,520 --> 00:52:01,960
Speaker 1: Why do I? Why do I care? I think you're

989
00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:05,680
Speaker 1: gonna care about this one? Okay. Will Smith told his

990
00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:10,600
Speaker 1: life coach he wanted a harem of girlfriends in his

991
00:52:10,680 --> 00:52:13,560
Speaker 1: late or in his twenties. He loved the idea of

992
00:52:13,600 --> 00:52:16,680
Speaker 1: traveling with twenty different women that he loved and took

993
00:52:16,719 --> 00:52:19,120
Speaker 1: care of. He also admitted to being attracted to Halle

994
00:52:19,280 --> 00:52:22,600
Speaker 1: Berry and the ballerina Misty Copeland. I remember seeing Mr

995
00:52:22,719 --> 00:52:24,719
Speaker 1: Copeland as one of these women that he wanted in

996
00:52:24,760 --> 00:52:27,479
Speaker 1: his harem. Yeah, he's had the process of speaking about

997
00:52:27,480 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 1: it had him realized that thoughts were not sins, and

998
00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:32,719
Speaker 1: even acting on impure thoughts didn't make him a piece

999
00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:35,280
Speaker 1: of ship. There, you, he can't help how he feels.

1000
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:36,799
Speaker 1: He wants a fucking arem. He wants a hare m

1001
00:52:36,840 --> 00:52:41,040
Speaker 1: that doesn't make him a bad person. His actions uh

1002
00:52:41,120 --> 00:52:44,359
Speaker 1: to acquire that harem could lead to things that would

1003
00:52:44,440 --> 00:52:47,719
Speaker 1: make him feel like if he decided to do an

1004
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:52,400
Speaker 1: R Kelly and have you know sex slaves because R

1005
00:52:52,480 --> 00:52:55,319
Speaker 1: Kelly wanted the same thing, right, Yeah, maybe in a

1006
00:52:55,360 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 1: different way, but like he went about that, he he didn't.

1007
00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:02,840
Speaker 1: He didn't have the same introspective R Kelly got to

1008
00:53:03,000 --> 00:53:05,920
Speaker 1: hear him, Like how that lady got her husband to

1009
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:09,240
Speaker 1: hang out with her more, Yes by calling bomb threats.

1010
00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:12,160
Speaker 1: Now Will Smith can do a year way by just

1011
00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:15,720
Speaker 1: working six jobs and being able to for him. Yeah,

1012
00:53:15,840 --> 00:53:19,919
Speaker 1: well that's true. Yeah, that wants to get to work. Yeah.

1013
00:53:22,200 --> 00:53:25,719
Speaker 1: I'm really looking forward to Will Smith's autobiography, which is

1014
00:53:25,719 --> 00:53:30,320
Speaker 1: called Will and Neil Brennan. My friend was posting about

1015
00:53:30,320 --> 00:53:34,120
Speaker 1: how Will was the one that exposed him to ayahuasca,

1016
00:53:34,480 --> 00:53:38,280
Speaker 1: and Neil actually has shared with me a really interesting

1017
00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:42,360
Speaker 1: video that um he had been interviewing Will for something

1018
00:53:42,440 --> 00:53:44,520
Speaker 1: I don't even know what. But this was years ago.

1019
00:53:45,360 --> 00:53:48,440
Speaker 1: And you know, Neil's a name dropper. Whenever I'm around him,

1020
00:53:48,480 --> 00:53:50,400
Speaker 1: he's always telling me about what famous person he knows.

1021
00:53:50,440 --> 00:53:53,279
Speaker 1: He's friends with the most famous people ever. He's just

1022
00:53:53,960 --> 00:53:56,440
Speaker 1: he just has that energy. And I love Neil and

1023
00:53:56,480 --> 00:53:59,000
Speaker 1: I love his special three mix on Netflix because it

1024
00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:01,520
Speaker 1: talks about how he's he likes, you know, saying that

1025
00:54:01,560 --> 00:54:04,000
Speaker 1: he's friends with famous people and like because it gives him.

1026
00:54:04,040 --> 00:54:10,440
Speaker 1: I like that he's admitted like Instagram, like he's like,

1027
00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:13,239
Speaker 1: I've got into iwasa and here's why. It's because of

1028
00:54:13,280 --> 00:54:16,840
Speaker 1: Will Smith. But it's true, like but he but he

1029
00:54:16,920 --> 00:54:19,560
Speaker 1: shared a video with me of Will Smith talking about

1030
00:54:20,280 --> 00:54:24,399
Speaker 1: um success and I'll never forget that. He said that

1031
00:54:25,000 --> 00:54:28,399
Speaker 1: Will had a crisis or some something of this sort

1032
00:54:28,440 --> 00:54:33,319
Speaker 1: of like, once you've climbed Mount Everest, if that's what

1033
00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:36,880
Speaker 1: you always thought would make you happy, what there's not

1034
00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:41,000
Speaker 1: a taller mountain. There isn't enough. If mountaineering is your thing,

1035
00:54:41,480 --> 00:54:43,040
Speaker 1: and you could go, well, you could go to Space

1036
00:54:43,560 --> 00:54:48,040
Speaker 1: that's on a mountain, right, you could climb, but you

1037
00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:51,360
Speaker 1: know what I mean, you can bring a pack of

1038
00:54:51,520 --> 00:54:57,520
Speaker 1: sexy Sherpaz with you next time. Um, yeah, that's so funny.

1039
00:54:58,280 --> 00:55:02,400
Speaker 1: Um Mr Copeland might do a little couple of pleas

1040
00:55:02,560 --> 00:55:06,840
Speaker 1: on but but no, but they have an open relationship

1041
00:55:06,920 --> 00:55:09,480
Speaker 1: him and yeah. But I just remember him saying that

1042
00:55:09,560 --> 00:55:12,520
Speaker 1: on that clip that that um Neil shared with me,

1043
00:55:12,680 --> 00:55:16,520
Speaker 1: of having a crisis of like when you've achieved everything,

1044
00:55:17,440 --> 00:55:19,960
Speaker 1: which he will Smith had. I mean, I didn't win

1045
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:22,440
Speaker 1: an oscar, but who cares? I mean, like maybe that

1046
00:55:22,560 --> 00:55:25,640
Speaker 1: did you take away from it? I took away from it.

1047
00:55:25,920 --> 00:55:28,200
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna know. I'm not going to know that

1048
00:55:28,239 --> 00:55:30,839
Speaker 1: feeling till I get there, but I do know that

1049
00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:34,760
Speaker 1: it's true. Like I know that success does not bring happiness,

1050
00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:38,880
Speaker 1: like whatever we're going after, Like it just showed me that. Someday,

1051
00:55:38,880 --> 00:55:42,120
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I hope to understand that because obviously I

1052
00:55:42,160 --> 00:55:45,600
Speaker 1: want to have all the successes and every childhood story

1053
00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:49,840
Speaker 1: that reached the highest high popularity, I mean track records

1054
00:55:49,880 --> 00:55:52,120
Speaker 1: not good. Well, Like I was talking to my mom

1055
00:55:52,160 --> 00:55:57,279
Speaker 1: about all these cameras around us, uh the other day,

1056
00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:00,759
Speaker 1: and she's, you know, concerned of how she's going to

1057
00:56:00,840 --> 00:56:02,319
Speaker 1: come across the same way that I would have been

1058
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:05,879
Speaker 1: concerned about how someone's gonna see me eating that pizza right,

1059
00:56:06,280 --> 00:56:10,040
Speaker 1: eating the toppings off. Yeah, and she's worried about her

1060
00:56:10,080 --> 00:56:11,960
Speaker 1: gait and in fact that she doesn't have one, and

1061
00:56:11,960 --> 00:56:15,400
Speaker 1: that the yard looks like ship NICKI and bah bah bah,

1062
00:56:15,480 --> 00:56:18,879
Speaker 1: And I go, mom, I totally understand this feeling, right,

1063
00:56:18,920 --> 00:56:21,520
Speaker 1: I like boxed her, like a pile of boxed her.

1064
00:56:22,000 --> 00:56:24,160
Speaker 1: I go, I get this feeling. I've been there. Let's

1065
00:56:24,200 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 1: follow it out. Like and then what I did with

1066
00:56:26,760 --> 00:56:29,439
Speaker 1: the pizza things last night, I'm like, Okay, if someone

1067
00:56:29,520 --> 00:56:31,279
Speaker 1: judges me about it, I went through all of this

1068
00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:32,839
Speaker 1: in my head. I'm like, what are they gonna say?

1069
00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:34,400
Speaker 1: What are they going to think? Well? Well, and I

1070
00:56:34,480 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 1: was just like, wait a second. All I want in life,

1071
00:56:37,239 --> 00:56:40,280
Speaker 1: everything that I've ever wanted is love. I want money

1072
00:56:40,320 --> 00:56:42,759
Speaker 1: so I can secure. I want I want security, I

1073
00:56:42,800 --> 00:56:46,000
Speaker 1: want to feel safe, and I want love. Right, But really,

1074
00:56:46,040 --> 00:56:48,160
Speaker 1: all of this fame searching is about It's not so

1075
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:52,000
Speaker 1: much about security because I'm financially secure, I should just stop. Then,

1076
00:56:52,400 --> 00:56:56,320
Speaker 1: It's about love, right and acceptance. The people at that table,

1077
00:56:56,360 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 1: I was like, are my truest loves of my life? You,

1078
00:56:59,719 --> 00:57:02,520
Speaker 1: cur Sston and my ex boyfriend Chris, Like these are

1079
00:57:02,520 --> 00:57:04,640
Speaker 1: the people that like and I my mom and dad.

1080
00:57:04,760 --> 00:57:07,360
Speaker 1: They couldn't be there, but like there, I know that

1081
00:57:07,400 --> 00:57:09,080
Speaker 1: they love me no matter what I could do anything.

1082
00:57:09,200 --> 00:57:11,279
Speaker 1: I've eaten really weird things in front of them, and

1083
00:57:11,280 --> 00:57:16,400
Speaker 1: I go, Mom, who what's when you get insecure about

1084
00:57:16,440 --> 00:57:17,800
Speaker 1: something that you don't want to show the world. And

1085
00:57:17,800 --> 00:57:20,000
Speaker 1: this is to everyone, like think about like what's your

1086
00:57:20,040 --> 00:57:21,960
Speaker 1: biggest fear? What are they going to think about you?

1087
00:57:22,200 --> 00:57:24,280
Speaker 1: And I go, do you? Does you having a messy

1088
00:57:24,400 --> 00:57:29,480
Speaker 1: storage room? I mean that you're like, what does it

1089
00:57:29,560 --> 00:57:31,880
Speaker 1: mean about you that I'm lazy? She goes that I'm

1090
00:57:31,960 --> 00:57:35,080
Speaker 1: lazy and I was like, wow, Like that is my

1091
00:57:35,160 --> 00:57:37,960
Speaker 1: biggest fear in life, is that people think I'm lazy,

1092
00:57:38,280 --> 00:57:40,560
Speaker 1: which is ironic because that's the thing that people tell

1093
00:57:40,560 --> 00:57:43,080
Speaker 1: me more than anything, is that how hard I work?

1094
00:57:43,240 --> 00:57:44,720
Speaker 1: And I hear that over and over and it doesn't

1095
00:57:44,760 --> 00:57:47,200
Speaker 1: matter how many times people tell me it. I still

1096
00:57:47,280 --> 00:57:49,600
Speaker 1: have a fear that I'm tricking you into thinking I

1097
00:57:49,600 --> 00:57:51,959
Speaker 1: worked hard. It's a magic trick and it's light of hand,

1098
00:57:52,000 --> 00:57:54,160
Speaker 1: and I'm actually lazy and you don't know that I am.

1099
00:57:54,880 --> 00:57:58,080
Speaker 1: I've now accepted, like, I'm not lazy, and when I

1100
00:57:58,120 --> 00:58:00,640
Speaker 1: am lazy, it's self care. I stay in bed all

1101
00:58:00,720 --> 00:58:03,320
Speaker 1: day and and and so I told my mom, you're

1102
00:58:03,360 --> 00:58:05,160
Speaker 1: not lazy. She goes, and I go, I guess you

1103
00:58:05,160 --> 00:58:07,400
Speaker 1: could argue, well, then why don't you clean the storage closet.

1104
00:58:07,680 --> 00:58:09,720
Speaker 1: If it needs to be cleaned and you don't clean it,

1105
00:58:09,840 --> 00:58:12,440
Speaker 1: that's probably lazy. And I go, because you wanted to

1106
00:58:12,440 --> 00:58:15,080
Speaker 1: watch a Housewives marathon instead of that. And she goes,

1107
00:58:15,120 --> 00:58:17,320
Speaker 1: I don't watch housewives. And I go, it's just an example.

1108
00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:20,800
Speaker 1: Whatever you did instead of doing that, you could lead

1109
00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:23,280
Speaker 1: you to believe like that. Like let's say you did

1110
00:58:23,280 --> 00:58:26,080
Speaker 1: something entertainment value that wasn't important. I go, your hang

1111
00:58:26,120 --> 00:58:28,600
Speaker 1: out with your nephews or your grandkids. Yeah, I go.

1112
00:58:28,800 --> 00:58:30,960
Speaker 1: I went to the Rolling Stones concert the other night

1113
00:58:31,240 --> 00:58:34,040
Speaker 1: instead of working on my act for my special. I

1114
00:58:34,040 --> 00:58:36,200
Speaker 1: should have been home, probably working on my jokes. If

1115
00:58:36,200 --> 00:58:39,560
Speaker 1: you really, if you, if you, if you think my

1116
00:58:39,560 --> 00:58:42,400
Speaker 1: my my special is like the storage closet, and it's like,

1117
00:58:42,720 --> 00:58:45,320
Speaker 1: well guess what, and she goes, no, you, that is

1118
00:58:45,360 --> 00:58:48,160
Speaker 1: not the same as me laying on the couch watching TV.

1119
00:58:48,520 --> 00:58:50,320
Speaker 1: That's the Rolling stands, And I go, it's all the same.

1120
00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:54,480
Speaker 1: It's entertainment. It's not necessary because what it is you

1121
00:58:54,920 --> 00:58:57,080
Speaker 1: whatever you. And I always teal this to people when

1122
00:58:57,080 --> 00:59:00,280
Speaker 1: they just feel bad about Oh I'm fat. You not

1123
00:59:00,480 --> 00:59:02,800
Speaker 1: choose to be fat. You did not press a button

1124
00:59:02,800 --> 00:59:04,919
Speaker 1: and go I want my thighs to look like this

1125
00:59:05,120 --> 00:59:07,840
Speaker 1: or whatever you're thinking about that day. You didn't choose

1126
00:59:07,840 --> 00:59:09,720
Speaker 1: for your storage closet to be a mess. It's a

1127
00:59:09,720 --> 00:59:12,480
Speaker 1: mess because you prioritize other things. Now we're the other

1128
00:59:12,520 --> 00:59:17,520
Speaker 1: things you were prioritiz prioritizing um that that special. Were

1129
00:59:17,520 --> 00:59:19,880
Speaker 1: they spending times with your grandkids? Maybe not. Maybe it

1130
00:59:19,920 --> 00:59:24,480
Speaker 1: was doing something like binging your kitchen cabinet and that

1131
00:59:24,560 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 1: made you fat. And now your storage closet is is full.

1132
00:59:28,360 --> 00:59:30,880
Speaker 1: And also you're you're feeling fat because you ate too much.

1133
00:59:31,040 --> 00:59:34,040
Speaker 1: You ate pizza in the dark. Well, guess what you

1134
00:59:34,160 --> 00:59:36,880
Speaker 1: needed to you could. You had to have that pizza

1135
00:59:36,920 --> 00:59:39,480
Speaker 1: in the dark because you were feeling feelings that if

1136
00:59:39,520 --> 00:59:40,960
Speaker 1: you would have not had the pizza in the dark,

1137
00:59:40,960 --> 00:59:43,200
Speaker 1: and you would have gone, I want it so bad

1138
00:59:43,240 --> 00:59:46,000
Speaker 1: because I don't like this feeling. It's gonna go somewhere

1139
00:59:46,000 --> 00:59:47,960
Speaker 1: else the next day and it's gonna be more. It's

1140
00:59:47,960 --> 00:59:49,880
Speaker 1: gonna be a lot of pizza in the daylight. You

1141
00:59:49,920 --> 00:59:53,280
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, so, just forgive yourself for having

1142
00:59:53,280 --> 00:59:56,120
Speaker 1: a sturtary storage closet. Think about who are you so

1143
00:59:56,160 --> 00:59:58,440
Speaker 1: scared is gonna see this thing about you? And what

1144
00:59:58,480 --> 01:00:00,280
Speaker 1: are they going to think? And if they think that,

1145
01:00:00,440 --> 01:00:02,680
Speaker 1: what's going to happen? And are the people at your

1146
01:00:02,720 --> 01:00:05,720
Speaker 1: table the ones that love you? Are they judging you

1147
01:00:05,760 --> 01:00:08,320
Speaker 1: for your storage closet? Because I bet they're not like

1148
01:00:08,360 --> 01:00:10,480
Speaker 1: the people that you are closest to. You can be

1149
01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:12,720
Speaker 1: yourself around and if they don't shut out their love

1150
01:00:12,760 --> 01:00:15,800
Speaker 1: for you because of that, then then let the world

1151
01:00:15,840 --> 01:00:17,920
Speaker 1: see who you really are and maybe accept yourself. It

1152
01:00:18,040 --> 01:00:20,720
Speaker 1: really like dawned on me last night with those cameras around,

1153
01:00:20,720 --> 01:00:23,200
Speaker 1: being like, all that matters is the people at this table,

1154
01:00:23,640 --> 01:00:25,880
Speaker 1: and the people disable represent a lot more people that

1155
01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:28,640
Speaker 1: aren't at this table. But because these people distable aren't

1156
01:00:28,640 --> 01:00:30,480
Speaker 1: going nicky, what the fuck are you doing? You don't

1157
01:00:30,520 --> 01:00:32,840
Speaker 1: deserve love because you're eating pizza that way, then I

1158
01:00:32,880 --> 01:00:36,240
Speaker 1: think I'll be okay. Even if the message boards who

1159
01:00:36,320 --> 01:00:40,840
Speaker 1: watch the thing that the cameras are filming did say

1160
01:00:40,840 --> 01:00:44,320
Speaker 1: that I am a weird eater and I'm gross and

1161
01:00:44,480 --> 01:00:46,360
Speaker 1: I can't believe the thirty seven year old woman stuffs

1162
01:00:46,360 --> 01:00:49,880
Speaker 1: her face like that and eats like a child. Guess what, Andrew,

1163
01:00:49,960 --> 01:00:52,280
Speaker 1: Chris and Kristen still love me. That's all I need,

1164
01:00:52,400 --> 01:00:54,800
Speaker 1: That's all I wanted, And that's why I care about

1165
01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:56,960
Speaker 1: that Will Smith thing. I guess and that's why I

1166
01:00:56,960 --> 01:01:01,080
Speaker 1: want to hear and no, Noah is like, know what

1167
01:01:01,200 --> 01:01:02,760
Speaker 1: you were at the table too? You know, like that

1168
01:01:02,880 --> 01:01:05,720
Speaker 1: table represented the people that I are closest to me.

1169
01:01:05,800 --> 01:01:09,800
Speaker 1: That that it doesn't matter and that's how I feel, exactly. Yeah,

1170
01:01:09,840 --> 01:01:12,040
Speaker 1: Like just whatever is in the room is in the

1171
01:01:12,160 --> 01:01:17,160
Speaker 1: room exactly, that's what matters. And I think you could

1172
01:01:17,200 --> 01:01:19,520
Speaker 1: be so comfortable with those people and go, oh, well,

1173
01:01:19,560 --> 01:01:22,760
Speaker 1: they I'm worried about what. You know, the woman down

1174
01:01:22,760 --> 01:01:25,240
Speaker 1: the street thinks with the perfect lawn and the perfect

1175
01:01:25,360 --> 01:01:28,080
Speaker 1: hair and the perfect body, she works out every day,

1176
01:01:28,080 --> 01:01:30,160
Speaker 1: and why can't it be like her? Why do you

1177
01:01:30,440 --> 01:01:32,560
Speaker 1: is she gonna go up be at your funeral, She's

1178
01:01:32,560 --> 01:01:34,240
Speaker 1: gonna shed a tear when you die. She doesn't give

1179
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:36,400
Speaker 1: a funk about you stopped trying to impress her lazy

1180
01:01:36,480 --> 01:01:39,479
Speaker 1: cold being thought of his lazy and then being thought

1181
01:01:39,480 --> 01:01:41,800
Speaker 1: of his life, Like there's such a positive about Like

1182
01:01:42,040 --> 01:01:45,720
Speaker 1: they hustle so hard and it's like on the flip

1183
01:01:45,760 --> 01:01:49,800
Speaker 1: side of that, hustle so hard is avoidance of talking

1184
01:01:49,800 --> 01:01:53,640
Speaker 1: to your parents, avoidance of um, you know, being closer

1185
01:01:53,680 --> 01:01:57,080
Speaker 1: with your friends, avoidance of doing whatever. It is, like

1186
01:01:57,520 --> 01:02:00,760
Speaker 1: the negative around lazy and a positive on hustle needs

1187
01:02:00,800 --> 01:02:03,280
Speaker 1: to kind of we need to stop that talk and

1188
01:02:03,360 --> 01:02:06,720
Speaker 1: that like if you're not hustling, you ain't ship. You

1189
01:02:06,760 --> 01:02:08,800
Speaker 1: miss out on so much when you hustle so much.

1190
01:02:08,960 --> 01:02:10,880
Speaker 1: Even what's his name? When I sent you that clip

1191
01:02:11,880 --> 01:02:15,439
Speaker 1: logic he was talking about like how you become as

1192
01:02:15,480 --> 01:02:17,200
Speaker 1: good as he is, and he was like, I don't

1193
01:02:17,240 --> 01:02:19,800
Speaker 1: have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't

1194
01:02:19,840 --> 01:02:21,120
Speaker 1: I missed out a lot, and he goes part of

1195
01:02:21,160 --> 01:02:22,840
Speaker 1: me wants to go back to that kid who worked

1196
01:02:22,840 --> 01:02:26,040
Speaker 1: so fucking hard and say get outside every now and again.

1197
01:02:26,160 --> 01:02:31,320
Speaker 1: Like if you're someone who enjoys, doesn't hustle and doesn't

1198
01:02:31,360 --> 01:02:35,240
Speaker 1: define themselves by their career and how much the what

1199
01:02:35,240 --> 01:02:37,480
Speaker 1: what you put out there, and how much like the

1200
01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:40,440
Speaker 1: world is consuming of you, maybe you're spending time with

1201
01:02:40,480 --> 01:02:43,720
Speaker 1: people who your quality time you spend with them is

1202
01:02:43,800 --> 01:02:46,480
Speaker 1: leading them to have a better life that can create

1203
01:02:46,560 --> 01:02:48,680
Speaker 1: that stuff, you know, like you could be adding to

1204
01:02:48,720 --> 01:02:51,200
Speaker 1: the input that the that's being put in the world.

1205
01:02:51,520 --> 01:02:54,760
Speaker 1: Um okay, let's get to reddit dump. Oh my god,

1206
01:02:55,120 --> 01:03:01,480
Speaker 1: this is your reddit dum. I think you can hear

1207
01:03:01,600 --> 01:03:05,960
Speaker 1: karaoke mode at the beginning karaoke moon. Um okay, so

1208
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:11,600
Speaker 1: so your laughter at the end. Um okay. The things

1209
01:03:11,640 --> 01:03:14,480
Speaker 1: I saved are all videos, and I regret this, but

1210
01:03:14,920 --> 01:03:16,880
Speaker 1: you guys gotta like, I don't know if I can

1211
01:03:17,000 --> 01:03:20,560
Speaker 1: zoom in on them when I could put the links

1212
01:03:20,600 --> 01:03:24,560
Speaker 1: on somewhere. Yeah, I mean, has anyone seen the footage

1213
01:03:24,560 --> 01:03:29,480
Speaker 1: of Hitler at a horse riding contest and he's high.

1214
01:03:29,600 --> 01:03:31,040
Speaker 1: They say he's high on meth, but a lot of

1215
01:03:31,040 --> 01:03:33,440
Speaker 1: the comments are saying he had like pretty late stage

1216
01:03:33,480 --> 01:03:36,640
Speaker 1: parkins is at this point this video was slightly sped up.

1217
01:03:36,880 --> 01:03:39,600
Speaker 1: Slightly okay, But even if it's slightly sped up, you

1218
01:03:39,640 --> 01:03:43,480
Speaker 1: tell me how fucking insane You sure it's not Charlie Chapin, No, dude,

1219
01:03:43,560 --> 01:03:46,320
Speaker 1: this is Hitler and it says Hitler high. And this

1220
01:03:46,400 --> 01:03:49,600
Speaker 1: is from the Sorry, this is from the subred interesting

1221
01:03:49,840 --> 01:03:53,840
Speaker 1: Jeff's g I f s press replay on that. This

1222
01:03:53,960 --> 01:03:57,520
Speaker 1: is I can't believe more people don't see this. Wow,

1223
01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:00,880
Speaker 1: you guys he is rocking back and forth in his

1224
01:04:00,960 --> 01:04:03,560
Speaker 1: chair like this. I mean, if you're watching the video,

1225
01:04:05,040 --> 01:04:07,640
Speaker 1: like like it's back and forth like one too one

1226
01:04:07,760 --> 01:04:10,400
Speaker 1: to want to want to and it's slightly sped up,

1227
01:04:10,600 --> 01:04:14,520
Speaker 1: but it's it's so insane that even if it's slowed

1228
01:04:14,560 --> 01:04:17,959
Speaker 1: down like three quarters the speed of it, it would

1229
01:04:17,960 --> 01:04:20,040
Speaker 1: still be like, why is this guy rocking back and

1230
01:04:20,080 --> 01:04:23,200
Speaker 1: forth so much? It's really scary. He's kind of doing

1231
01:04:23,200 --> 01:04:31,360
Speaker 1: the sassy turkey. Um yeah, I think, Uh, first of all,

1232
01:04:31,400 --> 01:04:33,120
Speaker 1: why is there such a big crowd for a horse

1233
01:04:33,800 --> 01:04:35,760
Speaker 1: riding contest? Like it's not even a race. I mean

1234
01:04:35,800 --> 01:04:38,880
Speaker 1: maybe it was like their version of you know, the

1235
01:04:38,960 --> 01:04:42,160
Speaker 1: Jake Paul fight. And it was in the thirties. There

1236
01:04:42,200 --> 01:04:47,760
Speaker 1: was like barely any television. That's the guy, like crazy,

1237
01:04:47,840 --> 01:04:51,520
Speaker 1: How one guy like that who's Google Hitler high on

1238
01:04:51,600 --> 01:04:54,280
Speaker 1: meth in a horse riding contest At a horse riding

1239
01:04:54,280 --> 01:04:57,080
Speaker 1: contests in the crowd, he has the you know, swastika

1240
01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:59,760
Speaker 1: on his arm and he's back and forth and I

1241
01:04:59,760 --> 01:05:02,040
Speaker 1: don't know if it's meth or Parkinson's, but people you

1242
01:05:02,040 --> 01:05:04,800
Speaker 1: know are arguing in the says the drug regimen this

1243
01:05:04,840 --> 01:05:07,320
Speaker 1: guy was taking on a daily basis put Jordan Belfort

1244
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:09,600
Speaker 1: to shame. Someone says, me, when my ass itches but

1245
01:05:09,640 --> 01:05:12,240
Speaker 1: I cannot scratch. I mean, people on Reddit are so funny,

1246
01:05:12,440 --> 01:05:16,880
Speaker 1: is there? Um? Someone said, uh, that fucking murderous Nazi.

1247
01:05:16,920 --> 01:05:19,000
Speaker 1: I hope he's burning in hell. Okay, that's that's a

1248
01:05:19,000 --> 01:05:23,400
Speaker 1: good comment. Gee. How much drugs did the Nazis really taken? Why? Said?

1249
01:05:23,560 --> 01:05:27,120
Speaker 1: Someone said? Lots? And historically things like meth and fetamine

1250
01:05:27,160 --> 01:05:28,880
Speaker 1: was given to soldiers by the government so they could

1251
01:05:28,880 --> 01:05:30,760
Speaker 1: stay up for days in battle. This of course was

1252
01:05:30,800 --> 01:05:34,919
Speaker 1: also done in other others countries militaries. I mean, yeah,

1253
01:05:35,040 --> 01:05:39,640
Speaker 1: there's talk of like my my grandfather was a eye

1254
01:05:39,640 --> 01:05:43,640
Speaker 1: surgeon and he died I think in his forties. He

1255
01:05:43,680 --> 01:05:45,919
Speaker 1: smoked a lot and was you know, drank a lot

1256
01:05:46,480 --> 01:05:50,680
Speaker 1: and perhaps had some mental issues that my family you know,

1257
01:05:50,680 --> 01:05:54,600
Speaker 1: sweeps under the rug and doesn't really talk about. But um,

1258
01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:58,360
Speaker 1: there was talk of him probably popping you know, methi

1259
01:05:58,440 --> 01:06:01,880
Speaker 1: type pills so that he could do surgery and and

1260
01:06:02,080 --> 01:06:04,480
Speaker 1: work long hours and stay up and drink and then

1261
01:06:04,520 --> 01:06:06,840
Speaker 1: get up in the morning and do surgery again. And

1262
01:06:06,840 --> 01:06:08,800
Speaker 1: this was in the six I mean, there was coke

1263
01:06:08,920 --> 01:06:12,200
Speaker 1: and Coca cola like whatever. It's just funny how like

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Speaker 1: certain things like if enough people do them, they're the norm.

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Speaker 1: So it's like and then we don't realize the repercu

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Speaker 1: I mean, hopefully science is better now where we kind

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Speaker 1: of have an understanding of like, you know, giving people

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Speaker 1: meth it's probably not the best way for them to

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Speaker 1: work on eyes. But but like there in thirty years

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Speaker 1: we could go, oh, actually, zoloft cause cancer of your

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Speaker 1: you know, of your calves or whatever. And everyone's like

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Speaker 1: they're going to say that the sugar is the smoking.

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Speaker 1: Ryan Hamilton has a great joker. He's like, someday we're

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Speaker 1: gonna be like, did you know they had there were

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Speaker 1: people eating sugar on planes like the same we were

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Speaker 1: talking about smoking. Yeah. Um, okay, this is from dating.

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, this is from today. I learned the subreddit. Today,

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Speaker 1: I learned t I L. If you c t I

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Speaker 1: L it means today I learned today. I learned about

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Speaker 1: a New Jersey history professor who was telling a story

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Speaker 1: to his class about how a ranger saved his life

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Speaker 1: in a canyon at night in Texas in nineteen forty.

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Speaker 1: This is wild. The ranger had managed to track him

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Speaker 1: down and coincidentally walked into the classroom right as the

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Speaker 1: professor was telling the story. Are you listening to what

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Speaker 1: I'm saying? So the guy got saved by a range

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Speaker 1: here's the here's the article Tuesday from December because he

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Speaker 1: found the so okay. Royce Burton was teaching history at

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Speaker 1: a New Jersey university when he decided to tell his

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Speaker 1: class about a frightening experience he had as a young man.

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Speaker 1: He was a Texas ranger. This is a Rio Grande

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Speaker 1: at Rio Grande ninety. He got lost in a canyon

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Speaker 1: after dark. Beats after dark. He tried to climb out,

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Speaker 1: but he lost his balanced. Suddenly, a fellow ranger appeared

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Speaker 1: and hoisted him to safety with his rifle strap. He

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Speaker 1: thanked this guy for saving his life, but lost contact

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Speaker 1: with him and after both men enlisted in the in

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Speaker 1: World War Two. Um so. Then, twenty five years later,

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Speaker 1: Burton was in the middle of sharing his story when

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Speaker 1: an elderly man appeared in the doorway. It was Joe,

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Speaker 1: the fellow ranger. He had tracked Burton down twenty five

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Speaker 1: years later and walked into his classroom at precisely the

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Speaker 1: moment that he was recounting his rescue. He said, He goes,

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Speaker 1: I'll have Joe finished the rest of the story, Burton said,

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Speaker 1: without missing a beat, as the astonished classroom witnessed the

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Speaker 1: two men's reunion. Um Synchronicity is a term coined by

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Speaker 1: Carl Young, the Swiss psychiatrist and mystic. It is the

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Speaker 1: currence of two events that have no apparent cause and

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Speaker 1: effect relation, but are nonetheless connected by meaning, often in

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Speaker 1: profound ways. Synchronicity is an odd term, but it's a

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Speaker 1: familiar experience to many people. So when dreams of a

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Speaker 1: childhood friend he hasn't heard from in years, and gets

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Speaker 1: a phone call from that friend the next day, you know,

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Speaker 1: these are the coincidences that we go. You won't believe this,

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Speaker 1: This is a sign from the universe. The thing is,

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Speaker 1: I listened to a Radio Lab episode and I believe

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Speaker 1: it's called synchronicity. Uh, and it's from years ago. Chang Wang,

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Speaker 1: the comedian, recommended to me we were driving to Sabrina

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Speaker 1: Jelize's wedding in Vermont from New York. He's so funny.

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Speaker 1: He goes, have you have you never heard Radio Lap

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Speaker 1: And I was like no, and he goes, dude, dude,

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Speaker 1: there's an episode you've got to listen to. And it's

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Speaker 1: called I think It's balloon, and it just talks about

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01:09:25,320 --> 01:09:28,360
Speaker 1: these things in life that you go the there was

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Speaker 1: a there was a balloon that a girl let go

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Speaker 1: of and she tied a note to it, and it

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Speaker 1: flew forty kilometers away and landed in a bush and

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Speaker 1: that bush was and then the father who owned the

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Speaker 1: house that that bush fell into. This is the story,

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Speaker 1: picked up the balloon and it said, you know, whoever

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Speaker 1: finds this, please reach out to Sarah Burton, and then

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Speaker 1: gave her address. He is the father of a girl

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Speaker 1: whose name is Sarah Burton, who's the same age. Uh

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Speaker 1: like this, like I had a bunch of like the

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Speaker 1: same like the same birthday or something. And the thing is,

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Speaker 1: people go, what the how? What are the odds? The

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Speaker 1: odds are astronomically low. But the thing is, it happens.

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Speaker 1: And they gave a perfect example, and this takes us

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Speaker 1: into final thought, a perfect example of this when when

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Speaker 1: something in your life happens coincidentally, like you dream of

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Speaker 1: something and someone or you go, I was just talking

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01:10:24,680 --> 01:10:26,880
Speaker 1: about this person and they just called me. I haven't

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Speaker 1: talked about this person in five years and they call me. Now,

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Speaker 1: it's probably not God or the universe, even though I

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01:10:33,320 --> 01:10:35,840
Speaker 1: do believe in science and I like to give meaning

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01:10:35,840 --> 01:10:40,759
Speaker 1: to them. This is this gives you. It's bound to happen.

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01:10:40,880 --> 01:10:43,639
Speaker 1: Sometimes these things are abound. Your life has so many

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Speaker 1: different You've met thousands of people in your life, and

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01:10:46,640 --> 01:10:49,280
Speaker 1: every day and every year, thousands of people call you

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01:10:49,680 --> 01:10:52,800
Speaker 1: at some point, both of those things and thousand people,

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01:10:52,800 --> 01:10:54,479
Speaker 1: as you know, and the thousand people that call you

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01:10:54,520 --> 01:10:57,120
Speaker 1: are going to line up in a weird way and

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Speaker 1: think of this. Oh my god, this person I had

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Speaker 1: a dream about two nights ago called me today. Well,

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Speaker 1: if it was really a sign, why wouldn't you have

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01:11:05,680 --> 01:11:07,960
Speaker 1: dreamed about them last night? Why was it two nights ago?

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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, it's a little bit.

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01:11:09,960 --> 01:11:12,880
Speaker 1: People kind of go. But the one of you, well,

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01:11:13,000 --> 01:11:15,000
Speaker 1: who knows how many times that guy has told that

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Speaker 1: story exactly. And here's another thing. When there is a

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Speaker 1: field of grass. Let's say there's a huge field and

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Speaker 1: there's probably hundreds of thousands shards of grass maybe uh millions, right,

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Speaker 1: and you throw a lawn dart right and every blade

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01:11:33,280 --> 01:11:35,880
Speaker 1: of grass is going, Oh my god, I hope it

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Speaker 1: doesn't hit me, or like, if it hits me, that

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Speaker 1: will be wild, Like what a sign. It's gotta hit

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Speaker 1: one of them. You know, it's not gonna not hit

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Speaker 1: any of them. It's gonna one of those blades of

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Speaker 1: grass is gonna feel like I'm special. But guess what,

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Speaker 1: it had to hit one. There's nothing special about the

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Speaker 1: the definite occurrence of one of those blades of grass

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Speaker 1: being hit. There's one one of them is going to

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01:12:01,000 --> 01:12:04,800
Speaker 1: get hit, right, but that one, when it's you, you

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01:12:04,880 --> 01:12:08,320
Speaker 1: feel so special, like you feel like, oh my God,

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01:12:08,479 --> 01:12:13,240
Speaker 1: like it came to me and my grandfather caught a

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Speaker 1: foul ball on the same day and his funeral is

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Speaker 1: next week. He just died two weeks ago. It's like,

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01:12:19,600 --> 01:12:22,040
Speaker 1: you can ascribe all this meaning, but your life has

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01:12:22,320 --> 01:12:25,000
Speaker 1: millions of variables, and if you want to, you can

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01:12:25,040 --> 01:12:27,320
Speaker 1: ascribe meaning to anything, and it it takes some of

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01:12:27,360 --> 01:12:31,360
Speaker 1: the magic out of life. But that's not what you know.

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01:12:31,400 --> 01:12:33,320
Speaker 1: That's the same thing as tarot cards. I don't really

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01:12:33,360 --> 01:12:38,560
Speaker 1: believe tarot is mystical, and actually, you know, is connected

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Speaker 1: to actual things that I'm like, Okay, this is an absolute,

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01:12:43,520 --> 01:12:47,240
Speaker 1: absolute truth, but it allows you to interpret your life

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Speaker 1: in a new way and to see your life from

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01:12:49,880 --> 01:12:53,559
Speaker 1: a different lens. So if you know your aunt bee

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01:12:53,640 --> 01:12:55,439
Speaker 1: dies and then a bee lands on your shoulder and

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01:12:55,479 --> 01:12:57,439
Speaker 1: makes you go, oh my god, that's my aunt be

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01:12:57,560 --> 01:13:01,040
Speaker 1: talking to me Like, maybe you needed your auntie there

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01:13:01,120 --> 01:13:03,320
Speaker 1: that day because you have a job interview tomorrow and

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01:13:03,320 --> 01:13:05,479
Speaker 1: you're nervous about it. And can you remember a moment

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01:13:05,520 --> 01:13:08,479
Speaker 1: where like things lined up. I remember a few. Well,

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Speaker 1: one I was at a Bulls game and they threw

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Speaker 1: a ball, the Bulls brothers. It was like the Blues

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Speaker 1: brothers and they threw a ball and it's like, what's

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Speaker 1: that game in the prices right where where like bounces

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Speaker 1: Like yeah, I think that's how you make fried tempora.

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Speaker 1: But like and so it freaking plank coat off like

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Speaker 1: fifteen other people. And I literally have a coke and

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Speaker 1: like a hot dog in my hand and it just

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01:13:36,920 --> 01:13:41,280
Speaker 1: fell perfectly right in my lap and I go, like

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Speaker 1: I with my mom, Like it was just like one

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01:13:43,000 --> 01:13:44,679
Speaker 1: of those things at the best moment of your life.

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01:13:44,720 --> 01:13:46,599
Speaker 1: I mean it was up there with like at that

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01:13:46,680 --> 01:13:49,240
Speaker 1: point in my life. Yeah, it was pretty freaking cool.

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01:13:49,320 --> 01:13:51,880
Speaker 1: But like I had moments like I was in California.

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Speaker 1: I remember when I was like twelve or something and

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Speaker 1: I'm in this like obscure restaurant middle of nowhere. Maybe

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Speaker 1: there's like ten people in there, and one of my

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Speaker 1: best friends from camp is there with his family. He's

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Speaker 1: one of the ten, and I'm like, what what is that? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you know, you go. But then you're like, well, the

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01:14:10,240 --> 01:14:12,400
Speaker 1: haves a certain amount of money and his family, right,

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01:14:12,400 --> 01:14:15,880
Speaker 1: they travel a certain amount. There's there's websites that direct

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Speaker 1: you to the places to go that are cool in town.

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Speaker 1: And they went to the same website because you guys

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01:14:20,720 --> 01:14:23,200
Speaker 1: searched the same things from the same campers. That would

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Speaker 1: have probably surprised me. Y, have you had a moment

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Speaker 1: like that though, like um, you were like far away

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Speaker 1: from something or you know, like I I remember I

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Speaker 1: you know, I've talked about how like I recently believe

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Speaker 1: in God and like I'm much more spiritual, But when

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Speaker 1: I was a kid, I was not allowed to like

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01:14:39,040 --> 01:14:43,360
Speaker 1: believe in just my parents were like that was like yeah,

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Speaker 1: like there's no there's no God in my ounse. But

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Speaker 1: I used to pray. And I remember one time praying.

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Speaker 1: I was, um, it was fifth grade and I was

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Speaker 1: I was going out with a boy like it was

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Speaker 1: my first boyfriend and he asked me out Diego vs.

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Speaker 1: He has asked me out on the bus. And I

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Speaker 1: really didn't want anyone to find out about it because

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Speaker 1: I was just like, I don't want to do anything

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Speaker 1: with it, Like I don't I was just like, I

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Speaker 1: don't even want a boyfriend. I'm like doing this because

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01:15:08,000 --> 01:15:12,320
Speaker 1: it's like, oh my God. And I would remember staying

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Speaker 1: up that night and like not being able to sleep

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01:15:14,439 --> 01:15:15,960
Speaker 1: and just being like I just knew that if Tyler

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Speaker 1: Schoonover found out about it, he would be like, why

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01:15:18,840 --> 01:15:22,080
Speaker 1: is Diego dating Nikki Glazer, Like she's a nerd? And

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01:15:22,080 --> 01:15:24,200
Speaker 1: then everyone would like hear that I was a nerd.

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01:15:24,240 --> 01:15:26,120
Speaker 1: And it was like for some reason, I really didn't

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01:15:26,120 --> 01:15:28,680
Speaker 1: want Tyler schoon o Over to be at school like

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01:15:28,720 --> 01:15:31,720
Speaker 1: I was just but he was never absent ever. And

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01:15:31,760 --> 01:15:34,439
Speaker 1: I remember praying to God and I had this weird

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01:15:34,520 --> 01:15:37,040
Speaker 1: ritual where God would only answer my prayers if I

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01:15:37,120 --> 01:15:38,920
Speaker 1: laid in bed in a way that I had never

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01:15:39,040 --> 01:15:41,400
Speaker 1: laid before. So I would have to be like, I'll

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01:15:41,439 --> 01:15:43,640
Speaker 1: cross my fingers in a weird way and then my

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01:15:43,760 --> 01:15:45,479
Speaker 1: leg I would have to make a shape with my

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01:15:45,520 --> 01:15:48,120
Speaker 1: body that had never been made before, which isn't hard

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01:15:48,160 --> 01:15:50,519
Speaker 1: to do because like there's enough variables in your body

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01:15:50,560 --> 01:15:53,360
Speaker 1: that you can I would lay like this and be like, please, God,

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01:15:53,680 --> 01:15:58,880
Speaker 1: have Tyler schoonover, please, And he was sick from school

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01:15:58,920 --> 01:16:02,000
Speaker 1: the next day. And that made me believe in the

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01:16:02,280 --> 01:16:05,040
Speaker 1: power of making my body into a weird shape and

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01:16:05,120 --> 01:16:08,400
Speaker 1: praying for things. And I never really tested again because

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01:16:08,400 --> 01:16:17,639
Speaker 1: it was too scared that yesterday because I didn't want

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01:16:17,640 --> 01:16:19,320
Speaker 1: the power to be taken because I knew it was

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01:16:19,360 --> 01:16:22,000
Speaker 1: a coincidence. I knew it was a coincidence. Even then,

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Speaker 1: I was like this, thank God, this is just me

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Speaker 1: being O c D. It would have been such a

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Speaker 1: different story depending on how sick Tyler got, like if

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Speaker 1: it was like Tyler is cool now and he like

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01:16:33,240 --> 01:16:34,600
Speaker 1: like him a lot of luck. But back then I

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01:16:34,640 --> 01:16:38,240
Speaker 1: was just so scared. But eventually Mrs Grow did find

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Speaker 1: out about me, and Mrs Grow was my teacher and

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Speaker 1: someone told her and I remember it was like slow motion.

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Speaker 1: It was like that um black Hole Sun video of

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Speaker 1: like in your face, like like and she just goes

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Speaker 1: Nicky and Diego sitting yeah, because everyone was like NICKI

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Speaker 1: and Diego are dating and she but it wasn't mean.

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01:16:58,080 --> 01:16:59,599
Speaker 1: She was just playing like she was kind of happy

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01:16:59,640 --> 01:17:01,040
Speaker 1: for me because I was a door and she was like,

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01:17:01,080 --> 01:17:03,559
Speaker 1: oh NICKI, and she really said it like that, but

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01:17:03,800 --> 01:17:06,720
Speaker 1: to me it was like nicky. And I was like

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01:17:07,760 --> 01:17:13,479
Speaker 1: black hole sick, won't chick come, won't chick come? Black

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01:17:13,560 --> 01:17:19,280
Speaker 1: hole son, and like dripping blood and like melting yeah, yeah, yeah,

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01:17:20,800 --> 01:17:25,040
Speaker 1: how long we're still together? We never broke up? That

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01:17:25,200 --> 01:17:27,599
Speaker 1: was my joke. I saw him again in high school

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01:17:27,640 --> 01:17:29,920
Speaker 1: at Tree Court, my pool, and he was there and

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01:17:30,000 --> 01:17:32,519
Speaker 1: I and I and I actually wrote him, I think

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01:17:32,560 --> 01:17:35,760
Speaker 1: on Facebook in college and wrote him and was like,

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01:17:36,200 --> 01:17:38,800
Speaker 1: technically we're still dating because we never broke up. He

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01:17:38,880 --> 01:17:41,000
Speaker 1: switched schools in sixth grade, so I never saw him again.

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01:17:41,040 --> 01:17:44,519
Speaker 1: But he better not be fucking married and cheating on

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01:17:44,640 --> 01:17:46,760
Speaker 1: me because we never broke up. Diego when I want

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01:17:46,800 --> 01:17:48,680
Speaker 1: you to know you if you're out there, diego v.

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01:17:49,360 --> 01:17:50,840
Speaker 1: I look for him all the time because he was

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01:17:50,920 --> 01:17:53,360
Speaker 1: so cute. I think he's probably a doctor. He was

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01:17:53,439 --> 01:17:59,400
Speaker 1: so smart and just like so cute doctor. Yeah, diego.

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01:17:59,560 --> 01:18:02,760
Speaker 1: I'm giving my vagina for you to examine, because I

1493
01:18:02,920 --> 01:18:06,240
Speaker 1: really do need to go get a badge exam not

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01:18:06,439 --> 01:18:08,360
Speaker 1: and there's nothing wrong. It's just I need my annual.

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01:18:08,920 --> 01:18:13,160
Speaker 1: I got you Okay, Guys, with that we are, I'd

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01:18:13,240 --> 01:18:15,840
Speaker 1: rather you sing Brandy Carlyle to me than ever make

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01:18:15,880 --> 01:18:19,719
Speaker 1: that joke again. Thank you for listening to the show today.

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Speaker 1: We'll be back tomorrow with more show. Make sure to

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01:18:22,880 --> 01:18:26,439
Speaker 1: subscribe to our YouTube channel. We are live on YouTube.

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Speaker 1: Luigi you look cute as fun. If you want to

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01:18:29,080 --> 01:18:31,639
Speaker 1: see how cute Luigi is, you've gotta go on there.

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01:18:31,880 --> 01:18:34,280
Speaker 1: You are so cute. What the fuck? Guys don't be

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01:18:34,400 --> 01:18:41,320
Speaker 1: cut out there? And I can't believe we haven't done

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01:18:41,320 --> 01:18:42,920
Speaker 1: that one yet. I don't know if we have. It's

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Speaker 1: the ones that are so right there.