WEBVTT - Kill The Part Of You That Cringes Feat. BbyMutha 0:00:27.840 --> 0:00:30.560 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and 0:00:30.600 --> 0:00:35.239 I'm Mela. Happy Wednesday. Happy Wednesday, bitches. 0:00:35.360 --> 0:00:36.479 We're back in your city. Ho. 0:00:36.880 --> 0:00:39.280 I am very happy to be here, you guys. We 0:00:39.360 --> 0:00:42.120 are mid tour. We're at the very mid mark of 0:00:42.159 --> 0:00:45.800 our tour and we're in at l shouty. I feel 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:47.440 so good when I'm here, and also like it always 0:00:47.440 --> 0:00:49.640 brings me back to my holidays. I'm like, oh God, 0:00:49.680 --> 0:00:51.440 good thing. I couldn't stay here too long. I'd be 0:00:51.479 --> 0:00:53.120 too much of a hope. But when I get back, 0:00:53.159 --> 0:00:54.040 I get energized. 0:00:55.720 --> 0:00:57.920 Well, you're here with your your boyfriend is also a host, 0:00:57.960 --> 0:00:58.960 so you guys can hoe together? 0:00:59.360 --> 0:00:59.560 Yeah. 0:01:00.440 --> 0:01:02.680 Yeah, we're working on it. We're working on finding the 0:01:02.680 --> 0:01:06.480 balance and our wholeness together. I know it's a struggle. 0:01:06.480 --> 0:01:08.400 You know, it could be a hoe independently and then 0:01:08.440 --> 0:01:11.640 you try to hoe together. And there's some logistics. There's 0:01:11.680 --> 0:01:14.839 some hoo logistics that takes some time to you know, calibrate. 0:01:14.920 --> 0:01:16.560 So you know, we're working on it. 0:01:16.600 --> 0:01:17.240 Okay, I got it. 0:01:20.640 --> 0:01:26.440 Monogamous host, how are you feeling. I know we've yeah, 0:01:26.480 --> 0:01:28.520 we've we've been traveling a lot. 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:29.280 I'm good. 0:01:29.319 --> 0:01:31.880 I'm tired, but I'm energized. The tour has been going 0:01:31.920 --> 0:01:33.640 really well. I've been selling out all of our shows. 0:01:33.680 --> 0:01:36.200 I feel really blessed and grateful that we've been able 0:01:36.240 --> 0:01:38.720 to do that. So I'm happy. My nick has been, 0:01:38.840 --> 0:01:41.800 you know, traveling with me. I literally kidnapped him. We'll 0:01:41.800 --> 0:01:48.720 talk about that later. Literally, okay, fine. I booked his 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:51.720 flight in his sleep to Atlanta. He was laying next 0:01:51.760 --> 0:01:54.720 to me and we were drunk the night before, and 0:01:54.760 --> 0:01:56.840 he told me in his drunkness he would come. So 0:01:56.920 --> 0:01:58.880 I held him to that and we went to bed. 0:01:58.920 --> 0:02:00.680 I woke up in the morning and at his beautiful 0:02:00.680 --> 0:02:03.120 sweet face, and I was like, I think he does 0:02:03.160 --> 0:02:05.400 want to come to Atlanta, And I said, let me 0:02:05.400 --> 0:02:07.720 book this shit, and so I booked the flight for 0:02:07.760 --> 0:02:09.880 that same day. I woke up and I said, hey, 0:02:09.880 --> 0:02:11.320 don't be mad, and he was like what. 0:02:11.360 --> 0:02:11.600 I No. 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:14.919 She had sex with him first, and then she said 0:02:15.120 --> 0:02:17.880 don't be mad, and he said to what. She said, 0:02:17.880 --> 0:02:19.840 You're not going back to where you live. You're coming 0:02:19.880 --> 0:02:24.160 with me because I bought you a ticket. Then you left, Tilly, 0:02:24.400 --> 0:02:29.000 but willingly got on the plane. So now we're on 0:02:29.040 --> 0:02:31.160 a world tour, double dating. Yeah. I couldn't. 0:02:31.200 --> 0:02:33.600 I'm tired of just being the fucking fourth wheel. I 0:02:33.600 --> 0:02:35.680 did it in Coasta, Rica. It's the third I can't 0:02:35.720 --> 0:02:38.320 whatever third wheel. I can't do it anymore. I'm tired 0:02:38.320 --> 0:02:41.280 of us. I love you, but you don't know what 0:02:41.280 --> 0:02:43.720 it feels like. Okay, okay, I don't know. 0:02:43.800 --> 0:02:45.280 You get to go back to your room and get fucked. 0:02:45.639 --> 0:02:46.120 I don't. 0:02:46.200 --> 0:02:48.040 I go back to my room and masturbaateed or go 0:02:48.160 --> 0:02:49.640 to sleep. It's the fucking depression. 0:02:49.720 --> 0:02:51.359 Every time I might be hugging him to much, I'm like, 0:02:51.400 --> 0:02:53.560 let me give him some space, so doesn't get triggered. 0:02:53.720 --> 0:02:56.880 Dace like, don't be too affectionate. Erica is gonna get mad. 0:02:57.919 --> 0:03:02.160 She's gonna feel left out. I'm happy he's here. Yeah, 0:03:02.200 --> 0:03:05.960 we've been. We we need help shit, honestly, like we 0:03:06.000 --> 0:03:08.840 have very special boyfriends because if you come into our 0:03:08.960 --> 0:03:12.200 cipher and you're not useful or helpful, then you can't stay. 0:03:12.240 --> 0:03:15.840 We need muscles and organization and shit like that. So 0:03:15.960 --> 0:03:18.160 can you like help or else? What the fuck is 0:03:18.160 --> 0:03:20.480 the point? So thank you guys, we love you. 0:03:20.520 --> 0:03:23.800 I love you anyway. I'm really excited because we have 0:03:23.800 --> 0:03:26.720 a special guest that I feel you know, we talk 0:03:26.760 --> 0:03:30.120 about manifesting, we talk about just like our like DM 0:03:30.200 --> 0:03:34.920 sliding skills. This is a true manifestation of our DM 0:03:34.960 --> 0:03:40.120 sliding skills. And I've been like following this beautiful woman 0:03:40.160 --> 0:03:44.440 for a long time, listening to her music. And then 0:03:44.480 --> 0:03:46.480 I looked in my DMS because I went to Afropunk 0:03:46.520 --> 0:03:49.000 and she was performing on stage and I made my nigga. 0:03:49.040 --> 0:03:50.640 I was like, oh my god, baby Mother's here. 0:03:50.760 --> 0:03:51.480 Well here she is. 0:03:51.680 --> 0:03:53.560 But I was like, she's here. We have to we 0:03:53.600 --> 0:03:55.080 have to watch her. I'm like, she has to hope 0:03:55.080 --> 0:03:56.920 she performs my favorite song. And we were just sitting there. 0:03:56.920 --> 0:03:58.520 I was like waiting and waiting, and I was like yes. 0:03:59.080 --> 0:04:00.520 I was like, let me a message her and see 0:04:00.520 --> 0:04:03.800 what she's up to. Where does she live anyway. I 0:04:03.800 --> 0:04:10.240 would like to welcome Brittany aka baby Mother aka bomb 0:04:10.240 --> 0:04:17.040 ass Rapper aka mother of four which which just style 0:04:17.360 --> 0:04:20.640 icon okay, overall creative to the show. 0:04:20.960 --> 0:04:23.120 Thank you. I'm happy to be here. 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:27.200 Thank you so much for coming, you know, agreeing to 0:04:27.200 --> 0:04:29.680 be our friend and perform at our show. I just 0:04:29.720 --> 0:04:31.200 posted you and someone was like, oh my god, it's 0:04:31.200 --> 0:04:32.680 so cool. You guys are her friend. I was like yeah, 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:37.200 we just made her be our friend two weeks ago. Thanks, 0:04:37.640 --> 0:04:38.680 we're pretty excited. 0:04:41.080 --> 0:04:41.359 Friends. 0:04:42.560 --> 0:04:45.839 But yeah, no, you know, I'm a number one stalker. 0:04:45.960 --> 0:04:47.520 So I was like, let me just message her. And 0:04:47.520 --> 0:04:49.440 then she messaged me back quickly, and I was like, 0:04:49.680 --> 0:04:52.200 oh my god, she meant what she checks her DMS 0:04:53.400 --> 0:04:54.440 like she does it herself. 0:04:56.200 --> 0:04:57.760 I don't know, I don't know what I was. 0:04:57.800 --> 0:04:59.680 I don't know what I thought, but immediately I called 0:04:59.680 --> 0:04:59.840 you me. 0:05:00.080 --> 0:05:02.760 I was like, bitch, she answered, and then I was like, 0:05:03.360 --> 0:05:05.479 I wonder where she lives. I was like if she 0:05:05.480 --> 0:05:07.039 what if she lives in Atlanta? And then she she'll 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:10.000 perform at our show. And she's like, oh my god. 0:05:10.320 --> 0:05:11.960 And then she called me back, She's like, she. 0:05:11.839 --> 0:05:13.000 Lives in Atlanta. 0:05:13.320 --> 0:05:15.160 I was like, it's time to wish our ship at 0:05:15.360 --> 0:05:19.440 we did a spell basically now you're here. The spell 0:05:19.560 --> 0:05:23.520 was us talking about it. And you need I mean, 0:05:23.560 --> 0:05:25.560 most of the time, that's all you need. Honestly, people 0:05:25.640 --> 0:05:28.400 underestimate the power of your words. Like literally, what you 0:05:28.400 --> 0:05:32.040 speak is our spells. So be intentional with them and say, hey, 0:05:32.080 --> 0:05:33.279 you're you gonna be my friend and you're gonna come 0:05:33.320 --> 0:05:35.200 on my show and you're gonna perform and then boila, 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:36.080 you're my best friend. 0:05:38.040 --> 0:05:39.839 I just like when I when I first found you, 0:05:41.800 --> 0:05:43.680 I don't think it was on Apple or Spotify one 0:05:43.680 --> 0:05:46.240 of the one of the places. It was your name 0:05:46.279 --> 0:05:48.119 that drew me to you because I'm a baby mama 0:05:48.279 --> 0:05:49.560 and I was like, who is baby mother? 0:05:50.240 --> 0:05:51.480 And I think, just like our. 0:05:51.360 --> 0:05:54.200 Show, like people will gravitate towards our name, good mom's 0:05:54.200 --> 0:05:56.599 bad choices. Like it's just it's just straight to the point. 0:05:56.640 --> 0:05:58.320 You're like, Okay, I like this bitch, what's she talking 0:05:58.360 --> 0:05:58.920 about over here? 0:06:00.000 --> 0:06:03.919 It's so crazy because like when I first started, that 0:06:04.120 --> 0:06:06.240 name is what pushed a lot of people away from me, 0:06:06.360 --> 0:06:09.000 and I used to bothered by it, but to hear 0:06:09.040 --> 0:06:11.520 it on the flip side, it's just like that's what 0:06:11.560 --> 0:06:13.920 I wanted in the first place, So I shouldn't care 0:06:14.000 --> 0:06:16.280 about who the name doesn't resonate with. 0:06:17.200 --> 0:06:19.280 You see those people that wear those anyway. 0:06:19.040 --> 0:06:21.120 They are And your people, the people that are supposed 0:06:21.120 --> 0:06:23.720 to be your people, will come, you know, they'll come, 0:06:23.760 --> 0:06:25.480 and then other niggas WI will fall back, and we 0:06:25.880 --> 0:06:26.240 need that. 0:06:26.880 --> 0:06:29.160 There's always gonna be someone like you can have an 0:06:29.160 --> 0:06:31.760 idea or a birth something and there's always gonna be 0:06:31.760 --> 0:06:33.440 a hater or someone who doesn't like it. I think 0:06:33.480 --> 0:06:35.160 that's for the biggest lesson in this too. Hell of 0:06:35.200 --> 0:06:36.839 people were like, this is not a good idea. 0:06:36.960 --> 0:06:39.839 I feel more comfortable when people don't like my shit, though, 0:06:39.960 --> 0:06:43.680 because because usually when it's like something that everybody likes 0:06:43.960 --> 0:06:48.600 is probably either very bad or like, yeah, it's just 0:06:48.640 --> 0:06:51.520 never be it'd be overhyped, like when the mask is 0:06:51.560 --> 0:06:52.720 really Gravitate Toys. 0:06:52.720 --> 0:06:55.320 It it's just like that, yeah, yeah. 0:06:55.480 --> 0:06:57.200 It can feel I feel like maybe it can feel 0:06:57.200 --> 0:07:00.159 probably scary, because it's like, Okay, how do I, like, 0:07:00.160 --> 0:07:02.640 how do I maintain this this thing? 0:07:02.880 --> 0:07:03.120 Right? 0:07:03.200 --> 0:07:05.200 And then you become like a like a prop whether 0:07:05.240 --> 0:07:08.080 you want to or not, Like you become some sort 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:10.680 of symbol of something that you probably wasn't even trying 0:07:10.720 --> 0:07:11.559 to be in the first place. 0:07:11.600 --> 0:07:12.920 It was just trying to me right. 0:07:13.080 --> 0:07:16.080 You get hell to the standard of like everything you 0:07:16.080 --> 0:07:18.280 were perfect in the beginning, What the fuck is happening now? 0:07:18.320 --> 0:07:20.560 It's like, I'd rather be imperfect at the top so 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:23.120 that when I am perfect, they're like surprised and you're like, oh. 0:07:23.000 --> 0:07:26.680 Shit, the majority doesn't really know shit. Like the majority 0:07:26.680 --> 0:07:28.760 of people don't have style. The majority of people don't 0:07:28.760 --> 0:07:31.720 have taste, so you're right. It's like it's it's like, 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:32.880 you know, have to. 0:07:32.760 --> 0:07:35.120 Be told what to like in the first place. It's 0:07:35.160 --> 0:07:37.280 like I'm not praised. 0:07:37.760 --> 0:07:40.720 It's okay, Well none of our best friends at all. 0:07:42.480 --> 0:07:44.240 Just tell us more about yourself so we could be 0:07:44.280 --> 0:07:46.480 more best friends. Like how did you get started? Like 0:07:46.560 --> 0:07:49.720 tell us how you came to be an artist, baby mother, 0:07:49.960 --> 0:07:51.640 Like what has been your journey? 0:07:52.040 --> 0:07:52.240 Man? 0:07:52.320 --> 0:07:54.880 I feel like I've always been an artist. I just 0:07:55.960 --> 0:07:59.520 was raised by our own people or the right people. 0:07:59.640 --> 0:08:01.600 It doesn't with the right people, it doesn't make sense. 0:08:01.640 --> 0:08:04.200 My mom's a can paint and draw that my mom's 0:08:04.240 --> 0:08:07.000 an artist and my dad's a barber. So I just 0:08:07.000 --> 0:08:08.800 feel like they would kind of like, you know, connect 0:08:08.880 --> 0:08:11.720 more with like the artists inside me. But no, they 0:08:11.720 --> 0:08:13.520 just want me to be very, very smart and that see, 0:08:13.520 --> 0:08:16.120 that's all they wanted, want me to be smart. They 0:08:16.120 --> 0:08:18.560 didn't care about anything that I wanted to do artistically. 0:08:19.800 --> 0:08:24.640 I've always drawn, I've always wanted to do fashion design, 0:08:24.920 --> 0:08:29.160 like I've always written poetry and so like those were 0:08:29.200 --> 0:08:32.520 like my things. But what got nurtured the most was 0:08:32.600 --> 0:08:35.160 just like school school, school, school, school, school, Like, I 0:08:35.200 --> 0:08:38.960 was in gifted classes pretty early, which is whird. You 0:08:39.040 --> 0:08:42.440 separate kids from other kids because they're quote unquote too smart, 0:08:42.440 --> 0:08:46.360 which doesn't even make sense. Like, so that's like my 0:08:46.440 --> 0:08:48.240 beginning years. It's just like I wanted to do art, 0:08:48.240 --> 0:08:50.480 but I kind of like had to suppressed because of 0:08:50.520 --> 0:08:52.719 my parents. So you get older and you get older 0:08:52.720 --> 0:08:54.480 and you stop giving the funk about what your parents 0:08:54.520 --> 0:08:57.640 talking about. And since I didn't have that outlet or 0:08:57.679 --> 0:08:59.920 anything to do sexpress myself, I start. 0:09:01.720 --> 0:09:05.640 Okay, well, that is an art form in itself. 0:09:05.720 --> 0:09:07.600 And so I'm like and so I'm like, from twelve 0:09:07.640 --> 0:09:11.440 to seventeen, I'm fucking like for no reason. And then seventeen, 0:09:11.520 --> 0:09:14.440 I have kids, and my life trans around. So when 0:09:14.480 --> 0:09:16.040 I started trying to do all these different things to 0:09:16.120 --> 0:09:17.680 like incorporate what I. 0:09:17.640 --> 0:09:20.240 Like to do with still please with my parents. 0:09:20.240 --> 0:09:22.240 So I'm going to school for cosmotogy, going to school 0:09:22.240 --> 0:09:24.679 for fashion design, going to all these schools for for. 0:09:25.720 --> 0:09:28.160 Yeah, for sh that I already fucking know. And then 0:09:29.720 --> 0:09:32.800 and then I go and then I fucking started entered 0:09:32.880 --> 0:09:35.160 corporate America. You know what I'm saying. That always sucks. 0:09:35.200 --> 0:09:37.520 That ship I can't even imagine in corporate America. 0:09:38.920 --> 0:09:43.920 Was supposed to picture I want. 0:09:44.200 --> 0:09:44.960 I want that show you. 0:09:44.960 --> 0:09:47.840 Because I pulled up pictures, I'm just like like literally 0:09:47.840 --> 0:09:50.040 the like, oh my god, it's kind of scared. Looking 0:09:50.040 --> 0:09:52.120 at normy pictures of me is so freaking scared because 0:09:52.120 --> 0:09:53.319 I'm just like, who the fuck was that? 0:09:53.480 --> 0:09:55.520 Like, I need to If you guys are not checking 0:09:55.559 --> 0:09:57.120 us out on YouTube, please check us out on YouTube, 0:09:57.120 --> 0:10:00.280 because baby mother is, she got bunny ears on, she 0:10:00.360 --> 0:10:02.120 got changed, she got a little school girl off, and 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:05.240 her nails is popping. I don't see one ounce of 0:10:05.280 --> 0:10:07.240 corporate America posibilities here. 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:08.520 It was. 0:10:10.240 --> 0:10:10.559 It was. 0:10:10.640 --> 0:10:12.120 It was definitely that I used to work at a 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:12.720 call center. 0:10:12.840 --> 0:10:15.280 Man, I was a car center girl, and then I 0:10:15.320 --> 0:10:18.240 did like a couple like retail management, like for every 0:10:18.320 --> 0:10:18.720 twenty one. 0:10:18.760 --> 0:10:20.040 I was a manager for every twenty one. 0:10:20.480 --> 0:10:23.840 But then like the abuse and stuff at home, so 0:10:23.920 --> 0:10:25.920 I kind of just had to like leave, and I 0:10:25.960 --> 0:10:27.920 was homeless, and I was pregnant with my babies, like 0:10:28.120 --> 0:10:28.760 my baby twins. 0:10:28.760 --> 0:10:30.240 It was homeless, pregnant, and that. 0:10:30.200 --> 0:10:32.720 Shit changed my life because it's just like damn, that 0:10:32.760 --> 0:10:34.320 shit showed me that I can do a lot of shit. 0:10:34.440 --> 0:10:36.040 On my own, you know what I'm saying, Like being 0:10:36.600 --> 0:10:39.160 raised with my father. My father's Muslim, so it's just 0:10:39.200 --> 0:10:41.439 like once you be mad, code depending on him, and 0:10:41.600 --> 0:10:44.000 you know, he just wants you to second stick all 0:10:44.120 --> 0:10:46.440 day and make sure the dishes is clean. 0:10:46.880 --> 0:10:48.959 And I was not. That's not what I wanted to 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:49.520 do with my life. 0:10:49.559 --> 0:10:52.040 But shawing being homeless for that, extending the period of 0:10:52.080 --> 0:10:57.120 time with two little ones and pregnant, I just bout 0:10:57.120 --> 0:10:59.240 stuff a little bit. And so when I got back 0:10:59.280 --> 0:11:01.600 on my feet a little big, it was my grandmother 0:11:01.840 --> 0:11:03.760 got really sick and I came to stay with her, 0:11:04.080 --> 0:11:05.800 so that become my feet a little bit. And that's 0:11:05.840 --> 0:11:08.360 when I just said, freaking. I had made a couple 0:11:08.360 --> 0:11:10.960 of songs before, like when I was when I was 0:11:11.000 --> 0:11:13.360 doing the corporate American Ship, I had made a couple 0:11:13.360 --> 0:11:16.559 of songs. People was fucking with it. Hella heavy, but 0:11:16.280 --> 0:11:18.959 it didn't, it didn't, it didn't steak. 0:11:19.000 --> 0:11:20.000 I didn't care that much. 0:11:20.360 --> 0:11:22.560 But once I had my little twins, I was just like, 0:11:22.880 --> 0:11:24.960 I'm gonna see what happens. And then that's when I 0:11:25.000 --> 0:11:26.480 decided to change my name. But that used to be 0:11:26.520 --> 0:11:29.360 Cindy Caush like. 0:11:31.320 --> 0:11:33.120 Cindy w Hoo from the Branch. 0:11:33.200 --> 0:11:36.360 I love I Also I heard you had a group 0:11:36.400 --> 0:11:39.880 called Money Over Niggas. 0:11:37.559 --> 0:11:37.679 Oh. 0:11:40.440 --> 0:11:42.840 I also loved high school. That was in high school, 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:44.440 it's home seeing me and my cousin. I used to 0:11:44.480 --> 0:11:48.360 write poetry, and poetry just kind of turned into like rapping, 0:11:48.520 --> 0:11:50.520 and I would write songs for me and my cousins 0:11:50.559 --> 0:11:52.560 and we would just like wrap them sits in class. 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:54.560 It never did too much. It was just me and 0:11:54.559 --> 0:11:56.600 my little cousins in school board for real. 0:11:56.679 --> 0:11:57.600 But yeah, Money Over. 0:11:57.559 --> 0:12:00.720 Niggas, get that tattoo. 0:12:01.400 --> 0:12:04.160 I tattoos so bad. I wanted to suspect. 0:12:04.320 --> 0:12:05.920 We used to draw it on our hands and we 0:12:06.040 --> 0:12:07.880 used to be like, oh look can I still do it? 0:12:08.000 --> 0:12:10.040 I'm old and many other niggas. 0:12:11.200 --> 0:12:14.320 Let's go on a tattoo after this, guys where thewist said, 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.800 I'm pretty sure there's a tattoo of a tattoo shop summer. 0:12:17.160 --> 0:12:20.360 I'm pretty shit, but yeah, yeah, and that's and then 0:12:20.480 --> 0:12:22.600 I dropped my first tape, and then I got my 0:12:22.600 --> 0:12:24.640 first book. It off my first tape and I don't 0:12:24.640 --> 0:12:28.240 even know like we should just and it's always been 0:12:28.280 --> 0:12:30.720 like really low key, like underground stuff and I appreciate 0:12:30.760 --> 0:12:33.880 that aspect of it, because whenever I try to cross 0:12:33.920 --> 0:12:38.560 over into like big people world, mainstream world, it gets. 0:12:38.320 --> 0:12:43.600 Too, it gets too. I don't like it. I don't. 0:12:43.640 --> 0:12:43.960 I don't. 0:12:44.040 --> 0:12:46.040 I don't understand what type of time the people be on. 0:12:46.440 --> 0:12:47.839 I don't understand what they be wanting from me. I 0:12:47.840 --> 0:12:50.000 don't stand what they want me to do, and the 0:12:50.000 --> 0:12:51.840 stuff that I do understand, I'm not gonna do it. 0:12:52.240 --> 0:12:53.800 So it's a whole other language. 0:12:54.000 --> 0:12:55.600 Yes, Like I just want to do what the fuck 0:12:55.640 --> 0:12:58.240 I'm doing right now, Like I can get bigger like this, 0:12:58.480 --> 0:12:59.240 I don't have to. 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:01.320 Ribe to the status quo. 0:13:01.840 --> 0:13:04.359 You know what, your longevity, You're gonna have more longevity 0:13:04.360 --> 0:13:04.640 that way. 0:13:04.679 --> 0:13:05.079 Anyway. 0:13:05.520 --> 0:13:08.360 I believe that I want to go back to your 0:13:08.440 --> 0:13:12.640 childhood because I know from my researches you grew up 0:13:12.679 --> 0:13:15.320 in a pretty religious households it on both. 0:13:15.120 --> 0:13:16.640 Sides, on both sides. Like your mother. 0:13:16.800 --> 0:13:18.840 She is a Christian, right, Yes. 0:13:20.080 --> 0:13:20.600 That woman. 0:13:20.640 --> 0:13:26.720 You would think she she knew Jesus personally. Sh she does. 0:13:27.400 --> 0:13:29.240 That's crazy that she thinks she do, but she doesn't 0:13:29.320 --> 0:13:31.640 because the things that she she treats me weird for 0:13:31.720 --> 0:13:34.320 It's like Jesus would never like, did you really read 0:13:34.360 --> 0:13:36.920 that book or do you just use that book to 0:13:36.960 --> 0:13:38.920 position yourself above other people? 0:13:39.400 --> 0:13:42.560 My mom was like she was weird. 0:13:42.920 --> 0:13:44.920 I don't blame my mom for a lot of stuff 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:46.800 that I went through as a child, because I feel 0:13:46.840 --> 0:13:50.320 like I feel like that generation of women just had 0:13:50.360 --> 0:13:52.760 to They just was doing what they knew how to do, 0:13:53.240 --> 0:13:55.040 and unfortunately it was a lot of like. 0:13:57.080 --> 0:13:59.680 Men centered behavior. 0:14:00.320 --> 0:14:06.280 Everything was about like this man. 0:14:04.800 --> 0:14:07.400 Yes, like like Jesus or just like other men, the 0:14:07.559 --> 0:14:11.520 men like her her man. 0:14:10.559 --> 0:14:11.600 But in the name of Jesus. 0:14:11.600 --> 0:14:14.240 Certain one carry is how your mother and father even 0:14:14.280 --> 0:14:16.959 came to be together, because theydad. 0:14:16.160 --> 0:14:20.840 Can be together in high school. My dad didn't become 0:14:20.840 --> 0:14:24.640 a Muslim until I was like five. And it's so goofy, 0:14:24.720 --> 0:14:26.960 Like everything about them is so goofy. I hope they 0:14:27.000 --> 0:14:31.000 watched this because y'all are goofy. Like that's so goofy 0:14:31.000 --> 0:14:33.120 to me. Nothing that they do makes any sense. Like 0:14:33.760 --> 0:14:37.360 my dad is like hell is strict. He tries to 0:14:37.440 --> 0:14:40.280 like pasture himself up to be like this great gentleman. 0:14:40.320 --> 0:14:42.360 He's like a really well known barber in my city, 0:14:42.400 --> 0:14:44.600 Like he's one of the biggest barbers where I'm from. 0:14:44.760 --> 0:14:48.280 But it's just like nobody knows they beats women. Well 0:14:48.320 --> 0:14:50.560 if they do, they don't care, but nobody knows, you 0:14:50.640 --> 0:14:51.200 know what I'm saying. 0:14:51.200 --> 0:14:52.040 And then my mom. 0:14:51.920 --> 0:14:54.920 Tries to act like this really holy entity, but she's 0:14:54.920 --> 0:14:56.880 just come back too, and it's just like I don't 0:14:56.880 --> 0:14:59.960 get it. But I'm the oldest and everything I do, 0:15:00.920 --> 0:15:02.240 it doesn't matter what I do. It's the end of 0:15:02.240 --> 0:15:03.760 the world on both sides. 0:15:03.800 --> 0:15:04.680 Like I got our. 0:15:04.680 --> 0:15:08.560 Brother, been in jail, said all that stuff, but I'm 0:15:08.560 --> 0:15:11.320 a problem. My my mom got mad kids and they 0:15:11.360 --> 0:15:12.640 all do all kind of different ship. 0:15:12.720 --> 0:15:13.880 But what I'm doing is the words. 0:15:13.880 --> 0:15:15.320 But I think my mom is more scared of me 0:15:15.360 --> 0:15:17.240 to anything because she thinks I worship the devil. 0:15:17.640 --> 0:15:20.480 And that's what That's where we clashed a lot. It's religion. 0:15:20.600 --> 0:15:22.160 Is like me and her will be doing good and 0:15:22.200 --> 0:15:24.960 then she'll bring up religion and then we'll be on 0:15:24.960 --> 0:15:27.240 the fence again. And the last time I talked to 0:15:27.280 --> 0:15:29.760 my mom, I was in the hospital and I got 0:15:29.800 --> 0:15:30.680 out of the hospital and. 0:15:30.640 --> 0:15:34.200 I made a joke. I made a joke. 0:15:34.280 --> 0:15:36.480 I used an Instagram filter and it had like you 0:15:36.480 --> 0:15:38.640 can put your face looking like Jesus is holding you 0:15:39.360 --> 0:15:42.160 and I'm fussing it and I was like I rose again, 0:15:42.280 --> 0:15:43.080 fuck Jesus. 0:15:46.920 --> 0:15:47.160 Jesus. 0:15:47.200 --> 0:15:49.120 Thing got shot on me and she blew my phone 0:15:49.200 --> 0:15:51.600 up like winning on me, and I went in on 0:15:51.680 --> 0:15:53.480 her because I'm tired of that ship, like I'm tired 0:15:53.520 --> 0:15:56.240 of I'm tired of that Like so, yeah, I haven't talked. 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:56.920 To my mom since then. 0:15:57.080 --> 0:15:59.840 And where did she get that you worship the devil? 0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:02.040 You think just anything against Jesus, like a lot of people, 0:16:02.160 --> 0:16:03.320 is the devil because I. 0:16:03.360 --> 0:16:05.120 Talk about the devil a lot of my music with 0:16:05.160 --> 0:16:07.120 the Giggis. I don't even believe in the devil. That 0:16:07.240 --> 0:16:11.200 was not real to me. So growing up Christian the 0:16:11.240 --> 0:16:15.480 way that I did, I just noticed very early on 0:16:15.600 --> 0:16:18.280 how people would demonize my mom because she was a 0:16:18.320 --> 0:16:21.640 single parent, you know what I'm saying, So like I 0:16:21.680 --> 0:16:23.560 called myself the Devil's daughter, and no, because I think 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:26.160 my mom is the devil, because that is how the 0:16:26.200 --> 0:16:29.520 world sees black women with children and like and even 0:16:29.600 --> 0:16:31.280 like little black girls, like we don't even get a 0:16:31.360 --> 0:16:34.080 chance to prove who we are with automatically demonize, you 0:16:34.080 --> 0:16:36.560 know what I'm saying, Like that is the metaphor and 0:16:36.640 --> 0:16:38.320 my mom, being an artist, I would think she will 0:16:38.400 --> 0:16:40.840 understand it. She don't care. She don't care. She don't care, 0:16:40.880 --> 0:16:42.160 and I've tried to explain it to her, but she 0:16:42.200 --> 0:16:45.680 don't care. It's just metaphorical to me. But to her, 0:16:45.760 --> 0:16:47.720 I worship say, you no help that I always talking 0:16:47.720 --> 0:16:48.600 about six and she too. 0:16:48.600 --> 0:16:50.000 I'm pretty sure that's part of it. 0:16:50.120 --> 0:16:54.800 So well, welcome to the club. I know. I asked, 0:16:54.880 --> 0:16:57.080 I asked you before we started, if you consider yourself 0:16:57.080 --> 0:16:59.880 a witch, and she said yes, you know, like six months, 0:17:00.360 --> 0:17:02.920 me and Erica or like we will privately beat witches. 0:17:02.920 --> 0:17:05.720 But she's like, don't say it on the show. She's like, 0:17:05.720 --> 0:17:07.680 you know, people are sensitive about the word witch. 0:17:07.480 --> 0:17:08.640 And then they really are. 0:17:09.119 --> 0:17:12.040 They really are. But it's like specifically like black people too, 0:17:12.160 --> 0:17:17.800 Like I think people who underestimate how much slavery is 0:17:17.840 --> 0:17:22.080 like in doctrine, in our cellularly, so like any mention, 0:17:22.880 --> 0:17:26.439 like anything against religion seems just like so terrible. But 0:17:26.480 --> 0:17:28.399 I think it's because like there was once upon a 0:17:28.440 --> 0:17:33.320 time for practicing our our native indigenous whatever like it was, 0:17:33.560 --> 0:17:36.880 it was punishable by death. So now if you talk 0:17:36.920 --> 0:17:39.520 against it, it feels like so terrible. I mean even 0:17:39.520 --> 0:17:42.120 making jokes because me and Erica water signs were dark 0:17:42.119 --> 0:17:48.600 and we make jokes. But yeah, I think that religion 0:17:48.680 --> 0:17:51.639 for a lot of people is like a cloak to 0:17:51.760 --> 0:17:54.439 them to their true selves. So you could be do 0:17:54.560 --> 0:17:57.040 evil shit and be an evil person, but in the 0:17:57.119 --> 0:17:59.639 name of Jesus, you know what I'm saying, Like, bitch, 0:17:59.680 --> 0:18:03.080 you ain't for nobody, right, So that's interesting that those 0:18:03.119 --> 0:18:04.400 parents produced. 0:18:05.760 --> 0:18:07.800 When when you when you when you're being raised on 0:18:07.800 --> 0:18:10.240 two sides of the spectrum. Because my dad is not 0:18:10.359 --> 0:18:14.400 like a like a holy Muslim from like wherever Muslims 0:18:14.400 --> 0:18:16.800 come from. I'm saying, he's a black man in America 0:18:16.840 --> 0:18:20.679 that's mad at white people and so he listens to 0:18:20.800 --> 0:18:23.239 Farkun and all and stuff like that. And it's just 0:18:23.280 --> 0:18:26.600 like my mom literally went a custody battle with me 0:18:26.680 --> 0:18:29.160 because she brought a coloring book to the custody hearing 0:18:29.280 --> 0:18:33.600 that my dad brought me that had poems about like 0:18:34.000 --> 0:18:36.320 the black man, the man that's black on the inside, 0:18:36.320 --> 0:18:37.680 one on the inside, the Oreo. 0:18:37.400 --> 0:18:42.240 Cookie, and they're like not the coloring yes, coloring book. 0:18:43.840 --> 0:18:45.840 It was like like when you're in like this this 0:18:46.080 --> 0:18:49.600 FOI this this this this islam or whatever that they 0:18:49.640 --> 0:18:51.879 have like all of this like propaganda loa ki and 0:18:51.960 --> 0:18:54.439 it's just like, you know, white people are whatever, but 0:18:54.520 --> 0:18:56.720 come on now, like a whole coloring book. 0:18:56.560 --> 0:18:57.200 For their kids. 0:18:57.359 --> 0:19:00.520 That's like build like building this hate early against white people. 0:19:00.560 --> 0:19:02.639 You know what I'm saying, Like t shae kids to 0:19:02.680 --> 0:19:05.400 be aware, but like this is violence, Like yeah, you're 0:19:05.800 --> 0:19:07.520 you know what I'm saying. It's like if if it 0:19:07.560 --> 0:19:09.800 was the other way around, it would be considered isis 0:19:09.920 --> 0:19:13.000 you know what I'm saying. So it's just like yeah, yeah, 0:19:13.119 --> 0:19:15.800 that shit was weird. But then and then you and 0:19:15.800 --> 0:19:17.359 then you go on the other side. You're raised by 0:19:17.440 --> 0:19:19.840 these people who are like fake kind, but then you 0:19:19.840 --> 0:19:21.399 see the Hey, it's like it makes you kind of 0:19:21.400 --> 0:19:23.320 like run away from both of them shits, and it 0:19:23.320 --> 0:19:25.400 makes you just want to more kind of like connect 0:19:25.400 --> 0:19:27.560 with who you are and what you believe in because 0:19:27.560 --> 0:19:29.600 there are some things in Christianity that I agree with, 0:19:29.840 --> 0:19:31.480 and there's some things in the Muslim religion that I 0:19:31.520 --> 0:19:31.919 agree with. 0:19:32.280 --> 0:19:33.399 But it's not the end. 0:19:33.359 --> 0:19:33.840 I'll be all. 0:19:33.840 --> 0:19:35.640 I feel like relationship be personalized. 0:19:35.720 --> 0:19:39.960 You know, absolutely, we're all different people. Yeah, I like 0:19:40.000 --> 0:19:43.280 what you said about like why you called yourself the 0:19:43.280 --> 0:19:48.320 Devil's daughter, and how people demonize like single black moms specifically, 0:19:48.880 --> 0:19:51.119 and like probably even growing up in the church, you 0:19:51.160 --> 0:19:53.440 still feel the shade and you see it like yeah, 0:19:53.480 --> 0:19:56.359 like it's so crazy when you're a single black mom 0:19:56.600 --> 0:19:59.400 and no one says that shit about the black dad, 0:19:59.480 --> 0:20:01.880 like it's just a stereotype and the energy that goes 0:20:01.920 --> 0:20:04.359 with that, like something must be wrong with you. And 0:20:04.400 --> 0:20:06.800 how you interpreted that like as a child, and how 0:20:06.840 --> 0:20:08.080 you felt that shit growing up. 0:20:08.800 --> 0:20:10.840 Yeah, I would see people like I would literally see 0:20:10.840 --> 0:20:12.439 people coming with my mom's face and be in our 0:20:12.440 --> 0:20:15.480 face like oh and literally the meaning my mom will 0:20:15.560 --> 0:20:17.439 hurt her bag, Like I see that. She'd like, my 0:20:17.440 --> 0:20:19.440 mom don't see it. She's too busy trying to people please, 0:20:19.520 --> 0:20:21.800 Like I see that shit. I see how people look 0:20:21.840 --> 0:20:25.040 at you. I see how people offer you things out 0:20:25.080 --> 0:20:27.800 of like pity, not like because they respect you because 0:20:27.800 --> 0:20:28.560 you're doing your thing. 0:20:28.760 --> 0:20:29.880 Like you know what I'm saying. 0:20:29.920 --> 0:20:32.040 Like if I see a single mom and and she 0:20:32.160 --> 0:20:33.600 going through something, and it's like if I can't help 0:20:33.640 --> 0:20:34.960 and I want to help, it's not because I feel 0:20:34.960 --> 0:20:37.040 bad for her, It's because like, damn, like I know 0:20:37.080 --> 0:20:37.680 how this shit is. 0:20:37.720 --> 0:20:39.520 This shit sucks, bro, Like, here you go. 0:20:40.359 --> 0:20:42.800 It's never that you're You're always beneath people, you know 0:20:42.840 --> 0:20:43.280 what I'm saying. 0:20:43.280 --> 0:20:44.719 And the more kids you have, the rest. My mom 0:20:44.800 --> 0:20:47.080 had five, So it's like, yeah. 0:20:47.760 --> 0:20:49.800 Everybody makes you feel like whatever you're going through, like 0:20:50.119 --> 0:20:51.560 if you have, if you haven't, man, you should be 0:20:51.560 --> 0:20:53.320 grateful because nobody's gonna want to beat you anyway. So 0:20:53.320 --> 0:20:55.320 be grateful for what you have, take what you can get, 0:20:55.400 --> 0:20:59.000 like please, it's it's it's just it's just a lot 0:20:59.000 --> 0:21:00.320 of time that I watched my mom go through they 0:21:00.400 --> 0:21:01.560 kind of like made me kind of want to be 0:21:01.600 --> 0:21:03.359 the woman and not even just my mom, but like 0:21:03.400 --> 0:21:06.399 my dad's wife, like the woman that my dad meet 0:21:06.600 --> 0:21:09.560 is just like no, no, no, I can't. 0:21:09.600 --> 0:21:10.080 I can't do it. 0:21:10.119 --> 0:21:11.600 I can't put myself through it, and I can't let 0:21:11.640 --> 0:21:14.320 my daughters watch me go through the shit that my 0:21:14.359 --> 0:21:15.040 parents went through. 0:21:15.480 --> 0:21:16.120 Can't. 0:21:16.800 --> 0:21:19.679 Well, I guess basically when you ran away too or 0:21:19.720 --> 0:21:22.560 like I guess going back to when you said your 0:21:22.600 --> 0:21:25.720 creativity ended up being in the form of fucking. I mean, 0:21:25.760 --> 0:21:28.000 I think a lot of people when they feel repressed 0:21:28.160 --> 0:21:31.679 and they feel like especially as around that age like 0:21:31.680 --> 0:21:36.080 around twelve eleven relieven. It's like you start really understanding, 0:21:36.080 --> 0:21:39.840 like you start understanding your body more. You start boys 0:21:39.840 --> 0:21:43.480 start giving you attention, and if you don't have any 0:21:43.480 --> 0:21:46.240 sort of guidance anybody having conversations. 0:21:45.560 --> 0:21:47.879 With you, you run towards that shit. I know. 0:21:47.960 --> 0:21:49.720 I was very promiscy was at a young age because 0:21:49.720 --> 0:21:51.639 no one was having these conversations and I was getting 0:21:51.680 --> 0:21:55.359 validation and attention from boys early, so I was like 0:21:55.400 --> 0:21:55.800 fuck it. 0:21:56.200 --> 0:21:59.080 And they were definitely having those conversations with you. If 0:21:59.119 --> 0:22:02.040 you didn't know nothing. The best little boys at school 0:22:02.080 --> 0:22:04.040 teach you. I know, I teach you that. 0:22:04.200 --> 0:22:06.640 It won't teach you what you want. Let me show 0:22:06.680 --> 0:22:07.720 you how to suck a dig real quick. 0:22:08.320 --> 0:22:10.159 Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah, Like let make sure how 0:22:10.200 --> 0:22:11.480 I like you more. I'll let me see it. All 0:22:11.520 --> 0:22:13.000 the girls is the good the cool girls. 0:22:12.840 --> 0:22:16.080 Are doing right, yeah right, if you like me, you're 0:22:16.119 --> 0:22:16.639 gonna do this. 0:22:17.640 --> 0:22:19.560 And then in some ways it kind of like for me, 0:22:19.640 --> 0:22:22.280 I think because same I jumped in quick. I was 0:22:22.280 --> 0:22:25.040 like this seems fun, you know, and and like fuck 0:22:25.119 --> 0:22:27.560 but my parents said this is fun, but it seems 0:22:27.600 --> 0:22:28.639 like I think for a long time. I had this 0:22:28.680 --> 0:22:31.880 epiphany recently because like I said, literally truly, like I 0:22:31.960 --> 0:22:36.000 was holding in Atlanta, not like whatever, but I was 0:22:36.040 --> 0:22:37.960 in college. I came straight from high school and moved 0:22:37.960 --> 0:22:40.919 to Atlanta like around the corner, and I was so 0:22:41.040 --> 0:22:43.720 disconnected but doing it all the time, and I just felt, 0:22:43.760 --> 0:22:46.440 you know what, my mind was like I have control 0:22:46.520 --> 0:22:48.800 over this, like I'm doing because I want to do it, 0:22:49.080 --> 0:22:49.560 but I was. 0:22:49.520 --> 0:22:53.640 Like not connected to the Yeah, I was, so I've 0:22:53.640 --> 0:22:55.760 been thinking about like during those times I was having 0:22:55.840 --> 0:22:58.720 six Like what the fuck was there for? Like I thought, 0:22:58.800 --> 0:23:01.440 I was like I wasted so much of my body. Yeah, 0:23:01.800 --> 0:23:04.280 like for what when was I doing that for? I 0:23:04.280 --> 0:23:06.880 don't even remember. I remember the situation, but I don't 0:23:06.880 --> 0:23:09.480 remember what it feels like it It wasn't special, nothing 0:23:09.640 --> 0:23:11.560 was nothing was fun about it. 0:23:11.560 --> 0:23:13.280 It was just I was just doing it, just literally 0:23:13.320 --> 0:23:14.280 just doing it, just to do it. 0:23:15.200 --> 0:23:16.480 I think a lot of I think a lot of 0:23:16.560 --> 0:23:18.399 us go through that ship and it's just it's about 0:23:18.480 --> 0:23:21.680 it's probably about in the moment validation and then it's 0:23:21.680 --> 0:23:24.600 so fleeting that you don't even remember the feeling after 0:23:24.640 --> 0:23:25.119 it's done. 0:23:25.600 --> 0:23:28.520 Also because like it be like it be about the validation, 0:23:29.080 --> 0:23:32.400 but you don't get validated you get degraded. 0:23:31.920 --> 0:23:34.040 Like a little bit of you gets taken away. 0:23:34.200 --> 0:23:37.160 Yeah, it's like you just chopping down more and more 0:23:37.160 --> 0:23:38.639 and more to the point where then they get to 0:23:38.680 --> 0:23:40.720 a point where you feel like you you absolutely feel 0:23:40.760 --> 0:23:43.000 like you have to do it because everybody knows that 0:23:43.040 --> 0:23:44.920 you don't already fuck this person, this person, this person, 0:23:45.000 --> 0:23:46.520 So now you have to fuck. 0:23:47.240 --> 0:23:49.800 You're not gonna get anything if you don't do that, like. 0:23:50.800 --> 0:23:53.320 Or like just subconsciously, you just feel like you should 0:23:53.400 --> 0:23:54.960 like you should like you, like I don't know, like 0:23:55.040 --> 0:23:56.800 doing somebody a favor, like he did take me home. 0:23:57.280 --> 0:23:59.960 Don't know that, And they will and they will make 0:24:00.119 --> 0:24:03.520 you feel like like boys are so predatory, and nobody 0:24:03.560 --> 0:24:06.080 talks about especially high school boys. I can think of 0:24:06.200 --> 0:24:08.880 so many situations that I've been in where biggas put 0:24:08.920 --> 0:24:11.200 me in positions where I had to do something. 0:24:10.920 --> 0:24:13.000 That I didn't want to do. It's right, somebody talks 0:24:13.040 --> 0:24:14.520 about that. Nobody talks about that. 0:24:14.600 --> 0:24:16.639 It's just boys being boys with everybody talks about these 0:24:16.680 --> 0:24:18.840 little girls being hosts, but nobody talks about how predatory 0:24:18.920 --> 0:24:19.919 high school boys can be. 0:24:20.000 --> 0:24:22.000 Bro It's true, and it's true, and if they do 0:24:22.040 --> 0:24:24.480 paint them as that boys will be boys and you 0:24:24.560 --> 0:24:24.880 have to. 0:24:24.800 --> 0:24:26.720 Be careful and actually, why don't you put yourself in 0:24:26.720 --> 0:24:29.239 that position and wear that skirt exactly. But it's like 0:24:29.359 --> 0:24:30.960 who's the mother of these boys? 0:24:31.119 --> 0:24:32.720 You know, they not knowing most of the time, and 0:24:32.880 --> 0:24:35.879 be like the girl probably just like one boy, and 0:24:35.880 --> 0:24:37.320 then she has to do everything, you know. 0:24:37.320 --> 0:24:38.480 What the whole crew. 0:24:38.600 --> 0:24:41.400 Yeah yeah, yeah, Like it's just it's just really shady, 0:24:41.480 --> 0:24:43.640 like really weird stuff that goes on. And I try 0:24:43.640 --> 0:24:45.359 to make sure that my son is not that type 0:24:45.359 --> 0:24:48.840 of boy Jesus Christ, because that's that is scary. And 0:24:49.240 --> 0:24:52.320 I can imagine, like especially now, like what little girls 0:24:52.320 --> 0:24:54.760 feel like they have to do, because it's a completely 0:24:54.760 --> 0:24:55.240 different time. 0:24:55.280 --> 0:24:55.879 It's so crazy. 0:24:55.920 --> 0:24:57.760 I mean, all these little girls are looking grown growner 0:24:57.800 --> 0:24:59.240 and growner and friends. 0:24:58.960 --> 0:25:02.000 Like males, and it's just like I'm not I'm not 0:25:02.119 --> 0:25:04.840 pressed about it, Like, girl, go ahead with your lex friend. 0:25:04.880 --> 0:25:06.480 Like I wish you could wear lace princes in school 0:25:06.880 --> 0:25:08.560 if we had lax friends back thing we got made 0:25:08.560 --> 0:25:10.600 front of you in a wig. So I'm glad that 0:25:10.680 --> 0:25:12.520 weigs are more acceptable now. And I like that the 0:25:12.560 --> 0:25:14.879 girls get to get cute and like feel themselves whatever, 0:25:15.040 --> 0:25:15.880 like let's they ship. 0:25:16.200 --> 0:25:17.159 But I just think about like. 0:25:17.200 --> 0:25:20.200 These little boys and like the music that we listen 0:25:20.280 --> 0:25:23.880 to now, and like how it's just it's scary having kids, man, 0:25:24.040 --> 0:25:24.639 it really is. 0:25:25.240 --> 0:25:28.239 And you had so you had twins. Well, first of all, 0:25:28.240 --> 0:25:29.639 you have two sets of twins with me. We were 0:25:29.640 --> 0:25:31.240 talking about before this. I was like, but you got 0:25:31.240 --> 0:25:36.480 a unicorn unicorny has some such magical gene inside of you. Yeah, 0:25:36.680 --> 0:25:38.640 but you had your first set when you were sixteen 0:25:38.760 --> 0:25:40.720 seventeen or seventeen seventeen. 0:25:40.359 --> 0:25:42.160 And the first set were boys or girls, A boy 0:25:42.200 --> 0:25:47.640 and a girl. Oh boy? Yeah, okay, yeah, that's so special. 0:25:48.080 --> 0:25:48.840 Yeah, it's cool. 0:25:49.600 --> 0:25:52.480 Like what was that like, especially like well especially you 0:25:52.480 --> 0:25:54.480 said you were were you still living with your father 0:25:54.520 --> 0:25:55.480 at the time or you were I was. 0:25:55.480 --> 0:25:58.560 Still living with my dad. My baby dad was grown 0:25:58.600 --> 0:25:59.119 as fuck. 0:25:59.440 --> 0:26:03.119 I would say, it's like twenty one, I'm seventeen, and 0:26:03.200 --> 0:26:05.040 so I was scared. 0:26:05.119 --> 0:26:07.159 But I also didn't have any feelings. It's like I 0:26:07.160 --> 0:26:07.960 didn't care. 0:26:08.280 --> 0:26:11.399 Like from from like age twelve to like after I 0:26:11.440 --> 0:26:13.920 had my kids. Bro. Like I was also on like 0:26:14.760 --> 0:26:19.040 ADHD medication. So it's just like I just didn't have feelings, right, Like, yeah, 0:26:19.040 --> 0:26:21.240 I just didn't. I didn't care about nothing. So it's 0:26:21.280 --> 0:26:23.399 just like to see you have a twins. She was like, 0:26:23.400 --> 0:26:26.680 oh shit, like that's that's crazy. But I don't think 0:26:26.760 --> 0:26:29.720 I remember like feeling any type of way my whole pregnancy. 0:26:29.760 --> 0:26:32.080 I know, I hit my pregnancy until I couldn't anymore. 0:26:32.520 --> 0:26:34.119 But other than that, other than me, it's scared I 0:26:34.200 --> 0:26:36.920 was gonna get caught, Like I didn't care until they 0:26:36.960 --> 0:26:37.360 got here. 0:26:37.840 --> 0:26:40.040 Were you hiding your pregnancy? Yeah? I hit it until 0:26:40.080 --> 0:26:41.200 I couldn't anymore. 0:26:40.920 --> 0:26:44.400 Like you said, oh shit, yeah, how what was? 0:26:44.480 --> 0:26:45.960 I was like, twins is pretty hard. 0:26:46.960 --> 0:26:48.760 I was like four or five months, and my dad 0:26:48.840 --> 0:26:50.080 just kept asking me, like when. 0:26:49.920 --> 0:26:51.640 The last time you had your period? When the last 0:26:51.640 --> 0:26:53.120 time you had ad I just got. 0:26:52.920 --> 0:26:58.000 Off my bloating, so the fuck you don't know my body? Yeah? 0:26:58.040 --> 0:27:00.200 I just had to finally give it up, Like did 0:27:00.200 --> 0:27:01.119 you know you were having twins? 0:27:01.160 --> 0:27:02.720 I didn't know I was having twins until I went 0:27:02.840 --> 0:27:04.879 until I actually told my dad. But what was the 0:27:04.960 --> 0:27:07.080 kicker was like I had just got my drop at Pope's. 0:27:07.119 --> 0:27:08.760 I was working at Pope's and I was on the 0:27:08.760 --> 0:27:10.920 cashier citay and I kept passing out. 0:27:10.960 --> 0:27:12.840 Like passing out. 0:27:13.359 --> 0:27:15.919 Yes, I kept fainting, and it was when I it 0:27:15.960 --> 0:27:17.639 was when I went to the bathroom and I just, 0:27:17.960 --> 0:27:20.480 you know how like the bathroom floors be like ice cold, 0:27:20.880 --> 0:27:23.120 dirty as hell. I lay on there freaking nasty ass 0:27:23.119 --> 0:27:25.800 Pope's bedroom floor, That's how like it was just so much. 0:27:25.840 --> 0:27:27.919 I was just felt like I was so hot, and 0:27:27.960 --> 0:27:30.320 so I went home and my dad was like, where 0:27:30.359 --> 0:27:31.960 is room you And I just had to go ahead 0:27:31.960 --> 0:27:33.840 and be like, I think I'm pregnant. 0:27:34.560 --> 0:27:37.879 Mm So then did he kick you out of the house? 0:27:38.160 --> 0:27:40.240 My dad never kicked me out. I left because my 0:27:40.320 --> 0:27:42.400 dad used to jump on me, so he never kicked 0:27:42.400 --> 0:27:43.760 me out. My dad would let me see. My dad 0:27:43.760 --> 0:27:45.280 would let me stay and argue with me as much 0:27:45.280 --> 0:27:47.119 as I want to as long as I'm there, but 0:27:48.520 --> 0:27:51.760 he let me stay. I stayed with him up until 0:27:51.800 --> 0:27:53.720 I had the babies, and then after that I want 0:27:53.720 --> 0:27:56.960 to live with a unt of mine. And then after 0:27:57.040 --> 0:27:59.040 that I went back to live with my dad, and 0:27:59.080 --> 0:28:00.000 that's when I was homeless. 0:28:00.040 --> 0:28:01.639 And then after I was homeless, I went to live 0:28:01.640 --> 0:28:04.280 with my grandma. Well how was that with two young children? 0:28:04.359 --> 0:28:07.199 Being homeless? Like, how did you? How'd you do it? Well? 0:28:08.680 --> 0:28:11.760 First, I stayed in a shelter. I stayed in a shelter, 0:28:12.400 --> 0:28:15.000 and in the shelter you have to leave like at 0:28:15.040 --> 0:28:17.840 seven am every morning. I would go drop my kids 0:28:17.880 --> 0:28:19.719 off at the school around the corner from the shelter, 0:28:20.200 --> 0:28:22.000 and then I would just go to either my grandma's 0:28:22.000 --> 0:28:23.920 house or I would go to the library and stay 0:28:23.960 --> 0:28:26.000 at the library all day. And that's where I started 0:28:26.040 --> 0:28:28.200 learning about witchcraft and stuff like. That's how I started 0:28:28.280 --> 0:28:31.399 learning about myself and more things. And it was the 0:28:31.400 --> 0:28:33.840 most trauma was had, Like I don't I can't believe 0:28:33.840 --> 0:28:35.600 I made it through days Like that's like anything I 0:28:35.720 --> 0:28:37.480 go through, I just be like, at least I ain't 0:28:37.720 --> 0:28:40.800 right there no more, because that was I don't know 0:28:40.840 --> 0:28:43.000 how I got through that shit every day, Like. 0:28:43.640 --> 0:28:44.560 You know what mother I think. 0:28:44.680 --> 0:28:46.760 I think mother energy will do that. You know, you 0:28:47.160 --> 0:28:48.920 see you have two children that are kind of counting 0:28:48.920 --> 0:28:50.760 on you, and you're like, shit, I'm gonna I'm gonna 0:28:50.760 --> 0:28:52.920 get through this some way somehow. I always say, like 0:28:52.960 --> 0:28:55.880 single motherhood is as often like painted as this, very 0:28:56.040 --> 0:28:58.600 like sad, and it can be really lonely and it's 0:28:58.760 --> 0:29:01.200 it's difficult, but can also teach you like wow, I 0:29:01.240 --> 0:29:04.240 am motherfucking superwoman. I can do this shit and I will. 0:29:04.760 --> 0:29:07.560 Right and and and yeah, cause it would be like 0:29:07.600 --> 0:29:09.000 I was getting like, you know, you get like the 0:29:09.040 --> 0:29:11.800 welfare checks. So it's like, you got two kids, you 0:29:11.920 --> 0:29:15.440 want eighty five in Tennessee, you want eighty five a month, And. 0:29:15.480 --> 0:29:17.200 I'm just supposed to do what I gonna do with that? 0:29:17.360 --> 0:29:19.040 I don't know, but I was making that shit shake 0:29:19.600 --> 0:29:21.280 in some kind of way. I was keeping my hair 0:29:21.360 --> 0:29:26.440 done like nothing else, Like I was gonna braik my 0:29:26.480 --> 0:29:28.120 own hair, like keep some little braids, and that was 0:29:28.120 --> 0:29:30.160 a cheap little haird cheap little tending out of hair 0:29:30.200 --> 0:29:31.719 to go get some brained hair. I was gonna keep 0:29:31.720 --> 0:29:34.400 my hair done, and my kids was gonna look like 0:29:34.440 --> 0:29:36.880 they had some sense, you know, Like I don't know. 0:29:36.960 --> 0:29:39.400 I made that shit work. And after I had Chloe 0:29:39.440 --> 0:29:43.560 and Tyler, I got I started over. I started over, 0:29:44.120 --> 0:29:47.000 got to stay with my grandma. Still was trying to 0:29:47.000 --> 0:29:48.560 figure it out, but I just was like, fuck it, 0:29:48.600 --> 0:29:50.360 I'm finna see what this rep should do. 0:29:50.840 --> 0:29:52.960 And it did. It did a lie and it's been 0:29:53.000 --> 0:29:53.840 doing ever since. 0:29:54.080 --> 0:29:57.040 And I'm not even like it's I still be on 0:29:57.080 --> 0:29:59.120 some hard time shait with these shit because I do 0:29:59.200 --> 0:29:59.960 everything myself. 0:30:00.160 --> 0:30:04.080 Maybe you right feet what I was going through before. 0:30:04.960 --> 0:30:09.680 It's crazy how conflict and struggle will like essentially make 0:30:09.760 --> 0:30:13.120 you fucking fearless, you know, once you've been through some shit, 0:30:13.240 --> 0:30:16.360 especially as a mom, like we get shit done and 0:30:16.560 --> 0:30:18.720 like even if it's hard, even if it hurts, even 0:30:18.760 --> 0:30:20.880 if it's fucked up, like we're gonna strap up the 0:30:20.920 --> 0:30:22.960 boots and drop the kids off and do the hair 0:30:23.400 --> 0:30:25.560 and button it up and figure it out. Like you 0:30:25.560 --> 0:30:26.760 know what, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna find a 0:30:26.760 --> 0:30:29.680 spell for this shit. Like whatever it has to be downe, 0:30:29.680 --> 0:30:33.880 you're gonna pray, like like a praying mother in a 0:30:33.960 --> 0:30:37.600 hard time. Is like really some unstoppable shit because once 0:30:37.640 --> 0:30:39.680 you've been in a place like that, like no matter 0:30:39.680 --> 0:30:42.680 where you go, like you're a fucking rock star now, 0:30:43.440 --> 0:30:45.520 you know, but like you have no fear. Nobody could 0:30:45.520 --> 0:30:48.520 tell you shit like you if you come and like 0:30:48.600 --> 0:30:51.320 triumph over your mom and your dad telling you you're 0:30:51.360 --> 0:30:53.320 not this or you can't do this, and you say 0:30:53.360 --> 0:30:55.840 fuck that, and you still be yourself and you still 0:30:55.880 --> 0:30:57.640 do what you want to do, and then you get 0:30:57.680 --> 0:31:00.520 over it and constantly get over the hurdles. It's really 0:31:00.560 --> 0:31:02.760 like shit can stop me now. But because I could, 0:31:02.800 --> 0:31:04.600 I could be there, and I know I can get back. 0:31:04.480 --> 0:31:08.240 Up right right, And I've been at the bottom twice, 0:31:08.400 --> 0:31:10.160 Like even just recently, I was telling y'all, like I 0:31:10.200 --> 0:31:12.520 lost my crib my shop, like. 0:31:12.440 --> 0:31:13.240 That was that was in it. 0:31:13.280 --> 0:31:16.520 We was hotel hopping, like living at the hotels. And 0:31:16.560 --> 0:31:18.520 I went on tour in Europe and I said, I'm 0:31:18.520 --> 0:31:21.040 coming back to Atlanta. I want to stay in Atlanta 0:31:21.080 --> 0:31:23.240 for a week. I wanna find a fucking house. And 0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:26.520 I found the house. So it's just like it be scary, 0:31:26.560 --> 0:31:28.720 but it would never be scary as it's the first time, 0:31:29.200 --> 0:31:32.360 Like I could go through it again, and I know 0:31:32.400 --> 0:31:34.080 I would be able to bring myself up out of it. 0:31:34.280 --> 0:31:36.080 And that's the other thing that keep me. 0:31:36.000 --> 0:31:39.120 From knocking myself off, you know, because I could have 0:31:39.120 --> 0:31:40.040 been going a long time ago. 0:31:41.560 --> 0:31:42.200 You got kids. 0:31:42.280 --> 0:31:44.200 It's not it's not quite that easy. 0:31:44.160 --> 0:31:46.800 Yeah, it's depending on it's not that simple. 0:31:46.880 --> 0:31:51.040 But yeah, and I'm seeing you kind of rise to 0:31:51.080 --> 0:31:54.719 the occasion each and every time is really important. I mean, 0:31:54.760 --> 0:31:56.560 I'm sure that they struggled in their own right, in 0:31:56.600 --> 0:31:59.880 their own ways and stuff however, like they have seen 0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:03.280 her mother like come and rise to the occasion each time, 0:32:03.440 --> 0:32:06.160 like when they as they grow and as they become adults, 0:32:06.200 --> 0:32:09.160 like they carry that with them. Yeah, and what are 0:32:09.160 --> 0:32:10.960 your kids and what are your kids into? Are they into? 0:32:11.080 --> 0:32:15.920 Like my oldest sons, he's a rapper okay okay? And 0:32:15.960 --> 0:32:21.240 then my oldest daughter she she she's fighting meself. She's 0:32:21.400 --> 0:32:24.080 she's gay. So that's that's her personality right now. I'm 0:32:24.080 --> 0:32:26.640 ana listen, like that's her entire personality right now. 0:32:26.640 --> 0:32:30.840 That's her full time job. I'm gay. 0:32:31.600 --> 0:32:33.680 That's all I know what I want to be when 0:32:33.680 --> 0:32:34.120 I grew up. 0:32:34.560 --> 0:32:34.760 This. 0:32:36.760 --> 0:32:39.960 But she also likes she likes photography and my cameras 0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:42.280 and stuff, so she's gotten into that. And then like 0:32:42.320 --> 0:32:45.640 my baby girl, she can draw her she likes to draw. 0:32:46.280 --> 0:32:48.920 And my baby boy that's he's full time gamer. 0:32:49.120 --> 0:32:51.520 Like, so you had two sets of twins and they 0:32:51.520 --> 0:32:52.560 both are boys and girls. 0:32:52.640 --> 0:32:56.760 Yes, Wow, amazing. And I asked her this before, so 0:32:56.800 --> 0:32:58.520 I'm just gonna tell you about I'm sure you're wondering. 0:32:58.800 --> 0:33:01.760 Twins do not running her fan or those baby daddy's family. 0:33:01.960 --> 0:33:08.040 So she's truly a witch unicorn mother. I went twins. 0:33:08.920 --> 0:33:13.040 Okay, so I don't take this offensively, but I literally 0:33:13.040 --> 0:33:14.800 when I got pregnant, because everyone kept asking me if 0:33:14.800 --> 0:33:16.600 I was having twins because I was so big, and 0:33:16.680 --> 0:33:18.960 I was like, twins is the devil's work. I was like, 0:33:19.440 --> 0:33:21.760 I was like, yo, if I get twins, I'm gonna die. 0:33:21.760 --> 0:33:23.400 I'm gonna give one of these motherfuckers away. 0:33:24.000 --> 0:33:26.360 I feel like, I feel like you think that because 0:33:26.680 --> 0:33:28.520 it is a lie. Like I'm not gonna like it's not. 0:33:28.560 --> 0:33:30.920 Like two babies on each titty. 0:33:31.080 --> 0:33:33.680 But see, it was different with each said because my 0:33:33.760 --> 0:33:37.600 older said it would be like, okay, we would be hungry, 0:33:37.840 --> 0:33:39.040 but the other one wouldn't. 0:33:38.680 --> 0:33:40.760 Be hungry for like a couple of hours. So you 0:33:40.760 --> 0:33:42.680 got a little breaks in tweens. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I 0:33:42.720 --> 0:33:44.120 don't know if that's always the case for everyone. 0:33:44.160 --> 0:33:47.160 God no, with my baby twins, like you don't talk 0:33:47.200 --> 0:33:48.800 about the devils were First of all, they're scorpios. 0:33:48.800 --> 0:33:50.040 They were bad to day before Halloween. 0:33:50.320 --> 0:33:54.760 They are like, both of them are insane. 0:33:54.960 --> 0:33:59.440 I'm gonna scorpy out. They drive me insane. 0:33:59.440 --> 0:34:00.960 It was just but like even when it was in 0:34:00.960 --> 0:34:02.880 my stomach, like the things that they would do, like 0:34:03.160 --> 0:34:06.080 my son literally was laying the way he was supposed. 0:34:06.160 --> 0:34:08.320 She was on one of my nerves in my legs. 0:34:08.320 --> 0:34:09.600 So sometimes I would get up in the middle nights 0:34:09.640 --> 0:34:11.319 if to use the bedthroom, my legs would be completely numb, 0:34:11.680 --> 0:34:14.400 like they've always they've terrorized me since they came to 0:34:14.480 --> 0:34:17.440 this world with you four years. So, yeah, they were 0:34:17.480 --> 0:34:19.920 the twins that I had to either like pump and 0:34:19.960 --> 0:34:21.919 make sure I had somebody to help me, onebody feed 0:34:21.960 --> 0:34:23.759 her and I would just besf or I would just 0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:27.319 have to be like this, and yeah, they Yeah, they were. 0:34:27.800 --> 0:34:29.960 That is a lot. It'll be a lot. It's a lot, 0:34:30.000 --> 0:34:31.200 but it's but you get used to it. 0:34:31.200 --> 0:34:35.359 I don't know, you just gotta get you just do it. 0:34:35.480 --> 0:34:36.600 I know when you. 0:34:36.600 --> 0:34:38.120 Got practiced the second time and you find out you're 0:34:38.120 --> 0:34:39.640 having twins, were like, what the fuck? 0:34:39.760 --> 0:34:39.840 No. 0:34:40.000 --> 0:34:43.560 I cussed out the nurse because because she thought it 0:34:43.600 --> 0:34:45.759 was funny, Like, no, she didn't think it was funny 0:34:45.800 --> 0:34:49.040 at first. Well afterwards, she thought it was funny at first. 0:34:49.200 --> 0:34:50.759 When I came in there, she was like, wouldn't it 0:34:50.760 --> 0:34:53.000 be so funny if you had twins again? And I 0:34:53.040 --> 0:34:54.800 was like, no, wish she would not be funny, And 0:34:55.160 --> 0:34:56.640 she put me up on the thing and she was 0:34:57.120 --> 0:34:58.440 her jaw dropped like she was. 0:34:58.440 --> 0:35:02.239 Like, oh my god, I put this so apologizing. 0:35:02.640 --> 0:35:04.400 I was just like, brun, I was so upsetting in 0:35:04.480 --> 0:35:07.160 my baby dad. It's like that motherfucker. It's just he's 0:35:07.200 --> 0:35:10.320 a mania. He's alcoholic, and he's just so crazy. I 0:35:10.880 --> 0:35:12.239 was so scared to tell her because I was like, 0:35:12.360 --> 0:35:16.880 he was already met that I was pregnant. You shouldn't 0:35:16.880 --> 0:35:19.640 have get right, I was pregnant. I was like, it's 0:35:19.960 --> 0:35:22.080 these niggas I call up. 0:35:22.880 --> 0:35:24.600 Was like, you ruined my life. 0:35:25.080 --> 0:35:26.239 You're not even my life. 0:35:26.239 --> 0:35:28.919 It was just like I feel like I couldn't even 0:35:28.920 --> 0:35:30.600 be mad because I kind of felt the same a 0:35:30.640 --> 0:35:32.919 little bit like damn. You know that is a bit 0:35:33.040 --> 0:35:36.680 much like two sets and Swiss is crazy. We hear 0:35:36.880 --> 0:35:38.239 those my babies. Those are my baby. 0:35:38.280 --> 0:35:40.080 But guys, you are spreading the seeds. 0:35:40.080 --> 0:35:42.879 You're spreading the seeds, baby mother seed. We need more of. 0:35:42.840 --> 0:35:45.440 Yourself one day. 0:35:45.880 --> 0:35:48.160 So we have a game on our show that we 0:35:48.280 --> 0:35:51.880 like to play with guests and it's called Trigger. 0:35:55.680 --> 0:35:56.360 The Witch Thinking. 0:35:56.400 --> 0:35:59.280 The game is scary. 0:36:00.480 --> 0:36:02.719 Basically, I say a word and you say the first 0:36:02.719 --> 0:36:06.320 thing that comes to mind. Okay, Okay, don't overthink it. 0:36:07.480 --> 0:36:14.240 All right, here we go, mm hmm spit or swallow swallow. 0:36:17.680 --> 0:36:18.799 Answer the question. 0:36:20.280 --> 0:36:23.319 Swallow Swallow's cute? 0:36:24.560 --> 0:36:30.239 That little masturbating while your kids at home, I'm gonna 0:36:30.280 --> 0:36:39.080 do yeah, right, Hello, fingering ass or looking ass okay, 0:36:39.440 --> 0:36:49.400 pegging I'm female rappers. 0:36:52.880 --> 0:36:55.200 Awesome, awesome. 0:36:55.600 --> 0:37:01.000 Yeah that was generic, okay, engineering, I will say that's 0:37:01.000 --> 0:37:02.120 how I feel about it right now. 0:37:03.080 --> 0:37:04.200 It's giving very generic. 0:37:05.600 --> 0:37:08.560 H they're here, they are here there. 0:37:08.840 --> 0:37:09.720 Religion. 0:37:11.360 --> 0:37:15.320 Unnecessary, non monogamy. 0:37:17.360 --> 0:37:20.320 If that's what you're into, that's cool. I'm not in today. 0:37:20.400 --> 0:37:22.280 I want my man to myself. 0:37:23.800 --> 0:37:26.880 Big virgo energy. 0:37:27.440 --> 0:37:33.160 Mushrooms cute. I love mushroom childhood. 0:37:38.680 --> 0:37:45.359 Damn damn damn l s D. I love her toxic trait. 0:37:48.520 --> 0:37:58.200 I'm very stingy motherhood. Yeah, motherhood is fine. It's duality. 0:37:59.040 --> 0:38:03.440 Think about passion, like, what's your passion? 0:38:05.040 --> 0:38:09.279 Music, in arts, in love, those are my passions. 0:38:10.040 --> 0:38:18.240 Love, language, buying me shoes, Oh, gifts. 0:38:18.239 --> 0:38:21.440 I guess your boyfriends in here? 0:38:21.480 --> 0:38:21.840 You hear that? 0:38:23.120 --> 0:38:33.560 I know, I know she needs some more shoes. Pet peeve, 0:38:34.480 --> 0:38:37.360 oh man. Stupid ask questions. I hate stupid questions. 0:38:37.680 --> 0:38:38.960 You feel like one, say you could google. 0:38:39.120 --> 0:38:44.960 Yes, more kids, I want more kids. Yes, you're gonna. 0:38:44.760 --> 0:38:47.040 Get some twins, bitch, maybe you're fucking around and get 0:38:47.080 --> 0:39:01.560 some triplets. Oh wow, biggest regret, I don't think I have. 0:39:01.760 --> 0:39:05.239 Gee, but they're not that, they're not that series. Like 0:39:06.160 --> 0:39:10.160 my biggest for grad is. My biggest regret is being 0:39:10.200 --> 0:39:11.319 friends with the light Skin Beach. 0:39:14.360 --> 0:39:16.040 I'm sorry, that's probably the worst thing I ever didn't 0:39:16.040 --> 0:39:17.560 want life. Can you laugh? 0:39:17.640 --> 0:39:22.560 Right, she's not talking about you. And she was a 0:39:22.600 --> 0:39:26.480 Scorpio too, not her. You know what. I was friends 0:39:26.480 --> 0:39:28.880 with the light skin Scorpio bitch that wasn't healed. And 0:39:29.080 --> 0:39:30.720 that bitch was a terrible bitch. 0:39:31.280 --> 0:39:32.040 Terrible bitches. 0:39:33.239 --> 0:39:35.040 She just she just wasn't ready to be my friend 0:39:35.080 --> 0:39:36.960 and I was, and I was kind of like I 0:39:37.000 --> 0:39:38.320 was kind of in a different place. We shouldn't have 0:39:38.320 --> 0:39:40.320 been friends. That was my biggest regret. That was evil, 0:39:40.520 --> 0:39:43.719 very evil person, very dark person. Yeah, that's my biggest. 0:39:43.680 --> 0:39:45.000 I'm gonna pray for her in the name of all 0:39:45.560 --> 0:39:46.280 Scorpio bitches. 0:39:48.040 --> 0:39:52.040 Scorpio I would like to apologize on behalf of her. 0:39:52.480 --> 0:39:54.680 Well, I'm happy you still like friends after that. You know, 0:39:54.719 --> 0:39:57.120 some pictures they have one they picked one up friend. 0:39:57.120 --> 0:40:00.000 They're like pitches, You're like open and near friends. 0:40:00.040 --> 0:40:02.400 I want to find my friends, bro, I want friends. 0:40:02.400 --> 0:40:04.759 I want itches to like pull up and do shit with. 0:40:04.880 --> 0:40:07.680 I'll be at the crib with my kids like and 0:40:07.760 --> 0:40:10.600 my boyfriend like. I want friends. I will never turn 0:40:10.680 --> 0:40:12.600 down the idea of like a new friend. 0:40:12.800 --> 0:40:19.960 Okay, Wow, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Favorite position. 0:40:24.040 --> 0:40:25.520 I think I just like it from the bank. Bro, 0:40:25.600 --> 0:40:26.960 that's my that's my straight. 0:40:26.760 --> 0:40:31.600 For celebrity girl crush. 0:40:34.840 --> 0:40:39.960 It's a lot to do my celebrity girl crush for real, 0:40:40.080 --> 0:40:45.759 for real. I won't even know. I can't think of 0:40:45.760 --> 0:40:49.200 went off the top of my head. Okay, I'm so good. 0:40:49.320 --> 0:40:50.080 Do you like girls? 0:40:50.239 --> 0:40:53.799 I love girls. I love girls, but I can't think 0:40:53.800 --> 0:40:55.560 of one on the top of my head. Who could 0:40:55.560 --> 0:40:57.080 I give it to? Because I feel like I'm on 0:40:57.120 --> 0:40:58.640 the spot. Could I give it to? 0:41:00.120 --> 0:41:00.600 I give it to? 0:41:01.760 --> 0:41:03.920 I don't even know, man, I don't know. I can't. 0:41:03.960 --> 0:41:06.040 I can't come up with that. What about marriage? 0:41:06.120 --> 0:41:07.120 What do you feel about marriage? 0:41:07.160 --> 0:41:10.160 I want to get married? You do? Okay? 0:41:10.920 --> 0:41:11.640 Favorite drug? 0:41:15.960 --> 0:41:19.560 Well, I'm gonna have to say it's gonna be a 0:41:19.640 --> 0:41:21.120 time between coke and kademene. 0:41:21.800 --> 0:41:22.680 Coke and academy. 0:41:22.680 --> 0:41:26.160 I've never academy one time with my white friends. 0:41:27.160 --> 0:41:29.040 That's what you do you do, I mean, you don't 0:41:29.040 --> 0:41:30.120 really do around black people. 0:41:30.160 --> 0:41:32.880 I'm like, you got the k like no, and you know, 0:41:32.960 --> 0:41:34.719 I know I'm from La, so I'm like and I 0:41:34.719 --> 0:41:36.920 always said, like, I'm never gonna do keademine. It's for 0:41:37.040 --> 0:41:39.279 a horse, and I'm like a small puppy like that 0:41:39.320 --> 0:41:39.759 would work. 0:41:39.880 --> 0:41:40.720 It's so nice. 0:41:40.920 --> 0:41:43.600 It was pretty chill. I would only feel comfortable enough 0:41:43.600 --> 0:41:45.000 to do with my white friends. But it was I 0:41:45.040 --> 0:41:47.120 was like, this is screovy. I guess I feel a little drunk. 0:41:47.320 --> 0:41:49.879 It's one of those things that like for me, it's 0:41:49.960 --> 0:41:52.040 like it's helpful, is the resourceful. 0:41:52.160 --> 0:41:53.760 It's also like the opposite of cocaine. 0:41:53.920 --> 0:41:56.840 Yeah, and it like it makes you feel good and 0:41:56.920 --> 0:42:00.080 you put your like my brain don't shut up, so 0:42:00.160 --> 0:42:02.520 put my thoughts in folders and it allows me to 0:42:02.520 --> 0:42:04.440 get shit done and like think clearly. 0:42:04.600 --> 0:42:06.920 So that's all I like kidding, Oh, thoughts in folders. 0:42:07.280 --> 0:42:09.440 I like that because my thoughts are not enfolders. 0:42:09.480 --> 0:42:12.520 But definitely that's what happened. 0:42:15.400 --> 0:42:18.760 Do you know your your other signs like you're rising 0:42:18.800 --> 0:42:19.560 and your moon. 0:42:19.600 --> 0:42:22.200 Yeah, I'm Capricorn risings Moon. 0:42:22.640 --> 0:42:26.920 I know there's some water in there, that's why you 0:42:26.920 --> 0:42:27.600 need them folders. 0:42:28.600 --> 0:42:29.560 That's not Capricorn. 0:42:29.760 --> 0:42:34.400 Yeah, hell yeah, oh my god. 0:42:34.719 --> 0:42:37.439 So all summers on our show, we uh we asked 0:42:37.480 --> 0:42:41.399 our guests to have an affirmation? Do you have an affirmation? Man? 0:42:41.440 --> 0:42:43.200 You know this is this is that before I came away, 0:42:43.200 --> 0:42:48.480 was trying to think of one. And yeah, oh I'm 0:42:48.520 --> 0:42:50.480 not good with the affirmation thing. That's something that I'm 0:42:50.480 --> 0:42:53.719 still working on personally. Like I started doing this thing 0:42:53.719 --> 0:42:55.319 where I get up in the morning and listen to 0:42:55.360 --> 0:42:57.520 like this YouTube lady tell me all this ship about 0:42:57.520 --> 0:43:00.759 myself and and it'd be like and it helps, Like 0:43:00.840 --> 0:43:02.920 it helped me get my my juices fluing, but like 0:43:03.040 --> 0:43:04.520 to come up with them on mind own, I don't 0:43:04.560 --> 0:43:05.880 know what to tell myself to. 0:43:07.080 --> 0:43:08.080 I mean maybe I do. 0:43:08.160 --> 0:43:10.960 I write music all the time that could be considered affirmation. 0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:14.640 Absolutely poetry. Give a lyric that we could use to affirmation. 0:43:14.320 --> 0:43:17.160 Yeah, we could. We could use I'm gonna get money regardless. 0:43:17.400 --> 0:43:19.319 I'm gonna get money regardless. 0:43:20.280 --> 0:43:22.880 Ye I like I like that affirmation. 0:43:23.160 --> 0:43:26.200 Yeah, I'm gonna get money regardless, no matter way. 0:43:26.520 --> 0:43:28.560 So yeah, for sure. 0:43:28.800 --> 0:43:32.839 Hell yeah, being like being in the music industry, I know, 0:43:32.880 --> 0:43:36.080 like as you said, like you know, being like mainstream, 0:43:36.760 --> 0:43:40.520 it can feel like really isolating and all that. Like 0:43:40.600 --> 0:43:44.759 how have you like maintained like I guess, like I'm 0:43:44.800 --> 0:43:47.120 sure you've been pressured to kind of like try to 0:43:47.120 --> 0:43:50.040 put yourself in certain boxes and things of that nature. 0:43:51.040 --> 0:43:51.480 How do you. 0:43:51.440 --> 0:43:55.000 Maintain like your I guess, like autonomy over who the 0:43:55.000 --> 0:43:57.680 fuck you are all the time, without like with without 0:43:57.680 --> 0:43:59.359 feeling pressure to kind of lean into that. 0:44:00.040 --> 0:44:01.839 Well, it's cause I'm a virgo, and if I feel 0:44:01.880 --> 0:44:04.279 like somebody's trying to control me, I automatically be like 0:44:04.480 --> 0:44:08.040 on some rebellious shit. I'm I like, I just that's 0:44:08.080 --> 0:44:09.640 what I meant when I say, like when I ask 0:44:09.680 --> 0:44:12.200 be female revers' is like everything's so generic because it's 0:44:12.239 --> 0:44:15.399 just like like it's just like everything is being put 0:44:15.440 --> 0:44:17.920 into like this box and I and it's no shade. 0:44:17.960 --> 0:44:19.799 Like I think everybody that's out right now is doing 0:44:19.840 --> 0:44:21.400 really well. I like, I like a lot of the 0:44:21.480 --> 0:44:23.560 music that's out right now, But I just feel like 0:44:24.480 --> 0:44:26.520 everybody tries to like you can't you have to be 0:44:26.560 --> 0:44:28.440 like super polished, like you have to be like this 0:44:28.640 --> 0:44:33.040 super like direct aesthetic or nobody gets it, you know 0:44:33.080 --> 0:44:34.600 what I'm saying, You have to be able to be 0:44:34.719 --> 0:44:37.959 marketed to other people. And then like trying to play 0:44:38.000 --> 0:44:40.759 this game for a long time, Like I really just 0:44:40.840 --> 0:44:42.200 was trying to play it at first, and I was 0:44:42.239 --> 0:44:44.040 trying to fall into line and I was trying to 0:44:44.160 --> 0:44:48.000 but then you realize, like it's it. It kills you 0:44:48.040 --> 0:44:50.320 on the inside. It's like I would rather just people 0:44:50.360 --> 0:44:53.200 not fuck with me and I just get by in 0:44:53.280 --> 0:44:57.319 this shit then have to like like. 0:44:57.360 --> 0:44:58.719 Cookie C I don't know, I don't know. 0:44:58.760 --> 0:45:00.640 It just it's just starting stuff about like the music 0:45:00.680 --> 0:45:03.200 industry that really like makes me uncomfortable, and I don't 0:45:03.680 --> 0:45:05.239 I don't like having to deal with the people that's 0:45:05.280 --> 0:45:08.240 in it because they're arrogant, they're fucking rude, they fucking 0:45:08.280 --> 0:45:10.239 think they fucking talk down to you, even though you're 0:45:10.239 --> 0:45:12.239 the artist, Like you're the reason why I'm here, I'm 0:45:12.239 --> 0:45:14.680 the reason why you're here, but you think you're above me. 0:45:15.080 --> 0:45:15.799 I don't like that. 0:45:15.920 --> 0:45:19.120 I don't like having to socialize with people that I'm 0:45:19.120 --> 0:45:21.640 not familiar with, like just because we do the same thing, 0:45:21.719 --> 0:45:23.279 like just because we make music the me you know what, 0:45:23.320 --> 0:45:26.400 I'm saying when in the beginning, like I can't, I 0:45:26.400 --> 0:45:28.040 want to work with everybody, but I didn't know how 0:45:28.080 --> 0:45:30.120 weird it was like you work with somebody, and now 0:45:30.120 --> 0:45:31.960 everybody think y'all are best friends, and now you have 0:45:32.000 --> 0:45:33.799 to deal with all this, Like people want to never 0:45:33.840 --> 0:45:34.880 ask you questions about you. 0:45:34.920 --> 0:45:37.000 They ask you questions about this artists because she's they 0:45:37.080 --> 0:45:38.800 might be bigger than you. So now your whole interview 0:45:38.840 --> 0:45:39.680 is about other people. 0:45:40.280 --> 0:45:43.640 Like it just I think I'm just like I'm too, 0:45:44.600 --> 0:45:45.680 I want to be an individual. 0:45:45.800 --> 0:45:47.520 I mean, I agree, I think a lot of especially 0:45:47.520 --> 0:45:49.440 I mean it's always been for women in general that 0:45:49.480 --> 0:45:51.680 are artists, like they have to especially like when it 0:45:51.680 --> 0:45:54.200 comes to like even like their body image, like having 0:45:54.200 --> 0:45:56.040 to fit into these certain modes. Like I think about 0:45:56.120 --> 0:45:57.839 just like the female rappers that are out, it's all 0:45:57.880 --> 0:46:02.560 about like body. Yeah, like you gotta like look and 0:46:02.719 --> 0:46:04.720 you gotta have this. They gotta like have the booty, 0:46:05.120 --> 0:46:05.920 you gotta like have. 0:46:06.000 --> 0:46:07.399 Eybody looks very much the same. 0:46:07.480 --> 0:46:08.040 The weave that. 0:46:08.520 --> 0:46:11.279 Goes past the ankles is the new look too, although 0:46:11.320 --> 0:46:12.000 it looks pretty fly. 0:46:12.280 --> 0:46:14.520 I mean I kind of like that. I was like 0:46:14.560 --> 0:46:16.920 I kind of like that. 0:46:15.400 --> 0:46:19.120 Yeah, I wish that I had a lace front artist 0:46:19.160 --> 0:46:19.399 and it. 0:46:19.960 --> 0:46:22.480 And like, but like as a fucking mother, First of all, 0:46:22.480 --> 0:46:25.000 I don't yeah, I don't have the funds. 0:46:25.040 --> 0:46:26.640 For all that, I got the funds. 0:46:26.400 --> 0:46:28.400 But also I'm like I feel like a lot of 0:46:28.440 --> 0:46:30.839 these women too, like they're not they're not mothers. Some 0:46:30.880 --> 0:46:32.279 of them are like, you know, look at Cardi B 0:46:32.360 --> 0:46:35.080 and shouldn't like that. But like there's this unrealistic expectation 0:46:35.160 --> 0:46:38.080 of what like we're supposed to look like, and it's like, no, bro, 0:46:38.280 --> 0:46:39.880 like this is what I this is me and this 0:46:39.920 --> 0:46:40.200 is what. 0:46:40.239 --> 0:46:41.400 Works, right. 0:46:41.880 --> 0:46:43.640 And then and then you get in these spaces and 0:46:43.680 --> 0:46:45.680 these and these people are like, well, we like you 0:46:45.760 --> 0:46:47.640 for you, and then they bring you in like okay, 0:46:47.680 --> 0:46:49.319 so we want to give you some money because we 0:46:49.440 --> 0:46:51.680 like you. And then they say, but you gotta change this, 0:46:51.719 --> 0:46:52.360 you gotta change. 0:46:52.560 --> 0:46:53.799 Like stipulation to that. 0:46:54.160 --> 0:46:55.719 It's like, I don't. I don't like that. 0:46:55.960 --> 0:46:58.759 I don't like they and I would really just do 0:46:58.880 --> 0:46:59.680 this ship myself. 0:47:00.280 --> 0:47:01.040 Yeah, I mean. 0:47:01.040 --> 0:47:05.200 Also the image is like essentially temporary, right, like you know, 0:47:05.360 --> 0:47:07.719 like there was a time where thick eyebrows are in 0:47:07.840 --> 0:47:10.040 then skinny ass eyebrows. Everybody plucked them out, and then 0:47:10.040 --> 0:47:12.759 they're like, that's not anymore. Everybody tattoo the tattooed them 0:47:12.760 --> 0:47:15.160 back on and ship everybody like fat asses, and it 0:47:15.280 --> 0:47:17.879 likes like now everybody's Kim's white again. Now everybody taking 0:47:17.880 --> 0:47:20.200 their ass out, and it's like, you know what I'm saying, 0:47:20.239 --> 0:47:22.319 it's like, who the fuck can keep up with that? 0:47:22.440 --> 0:47:24.520 You might as well be what the fuck you look 0:47:24.640 --> 0:47:27.160 like and accept that, and then like we all have daughters, 0:47:27.239 --> 0:47:28.799 you know what I'm saying. So if I go like 0:47:29.160 --> 0:47:31.239 pump a bunch of shit in myself or pump it out, 0:47:31.280 --> 0:47:34.319 whatever you do, it's cool, but it's like to make 0:47:34.360 --> 0:47:35.920 sure it's to please you and to be in your 0:47:35.920 --> 0:47:38.239 own aesthetic or you even fucking know what that looks like, 0:47:38.480 --> 0:47:41.920 because then you're just like chasing the chasing the whatever, 0:47:42.400 --> 0:47:45.920 the trend, and that's forever, every ever changing. People don't 0:47:45.960 --> 0:47:46.759 know what the fuck they like. 0:47:47.320 --> 0:47:49.480 I think like I think about like I was thinking about, 0:47:49.480 --> 0:47:51.359 like Doja Cat, how she like shaved her head off 0:47:51.360 --> 0:47:53.160 and her hair off and like, you know, took her 0:47:53.160 --> 0:47:57.719 eyebrows off and nigas we're ripping. I was like, because no, 0:47:57.920 --> 0:47:59.719 because she kind of did fall she kind of like 0:48:00.040 --> 0:48:03.160 shifted her image and was like very commercial and like 0:48:03.600 --> 0:48:06.600 historically that's not really her vibe anyway, Like if you 0:48:06.600 --> 0:48:08.760 follow her from before, like she's a weird. 0:48:08.560 --> 0:48:10.399 Though, and that's that's why. 0:48:10.719 --> 0:48:12.880 That's why I be tripping out of people like getting 0:48:12.920 --> 0:48:14.800 mad at her for being her said, because I'm just 0:48:14.840 --> 0:48:16.480 like she's always been kind of strange. 0:48:16.560 --> 0:48:19.120 She had but she she she tricked, No, she tricked 0:48:19.120 --> 0:48:20.040 people to get in the door. 0:48:20.200 --> 0:48:22.520 Okay, you know, I feel like I don't even think 0:48:22.520 --> 0:48:24.640 that's true because the song that got her like O 0:48:24.920 --> 0:48:27.760 was the movie and that was the weirdest song of mos. 0:48:28.000 --> 0:48:30.440 I'm just like those a kid has always been like hello, quirky, 0:48:30.520 --> 0:48:31.359 Like that's her vibe. 0:48:31.400 --> 0:48:34.239 I got like, will people be expecting? But she did? 0:48:34.560 --> 0:48:37.160 She did, She did a few pop songs, and I 0:48:37.160 --> 0:48:39.239 feel like it's because she can, like she can't step 0:48:39.280 --> 0:48:40.920 into that bag and she can't play that game. 0:48:40.960 --> 0:48:42.680 It was like but this, but this, but you know. 0:48:42.680 --> 0:48:43.080 What I'm saying. 0:48:43.080 --> 0:48:46.040 They don't want women to be multi layered, multi dimensional, 0:48:46.120 --> 0:48:47.920 like we have to once we present ourselves in a 0:48:48.000 --> 0:48:51.160 certain way, we have to stick to that. And I 0:48:51.280 --> 0:48:53.799 was like when people were tripping about her, her her. 0:48:54.000 --> 0:48:57.600 I was like, oh, she looked kind of cool, cool 0:48:57.719 --> 0:49:00.879 her eye, her eyebrows and ship. It was like, I 0:49:00.920 --> 0:49:03.279 was like, more of this, you know, because as women 0:49:03.360 --> 0:49:05.440 like we do, like we are held at this standard 0:49:05.480 --> 0:49:08.120 where we cannot change, we cannot shift, and if we do, 0:49:08.480 --> 0:49:09.080 we're tripping. 0:49:09.120 --> 0:49:12.560 Like something's wrong, Brittany, like we're going, Brittany. 0:49:12.320 --> 0:49:15.400 Right, everything has to be like for them for niggas 0:49:15.480 --> 0:49:16.440 eyes and she right. 0:49:17.400 --> 0:49:20.320 I don't know. Sometimes I won't like alien. 0:49:21.040 --> 0:49:22.520 I don't even like niggas that much. 0:49:22.719 --> 0:49:29.080 They are Niggas have horrible. 0:49:28.719 --> 0:49:30.160 Taste, horrible, and they. 0:49:32.440 --> 0:49:34.719 Admit it like the like they will. They say, you know, 0:49:34.840 --> 0:49:37.560 like we we really only we can fuck a whole. 0:49:38.160 --> 0:49:40.920 You know, how to compartmentalize. It's not emotional like you 0:49:40.920 --> 0:49:44.120 can find one quality about one quality like in a woman, 0:49:44.160 --> 0:49:47.759 Oh she got a fat ass fucking or she's cute face, 0:49:48.040 --> 0:49:49.680 she got a nice mouth, I'm gonna put my dick 0:49:49.680 --> 0:49:53.239 in there, So where's women? I mean, we could do 0:49:53.280 --> 0:49:55.560 that too, but more more times than not, there has 0:49:55.560 --> 0:49:57.400 to be a little bit something else, a little bit 0:49:57.440 --> 0:50:02.440 more of someone else. And that's why women be tripping, 0:50:02.480 --> 0:50:05.320 and that's why we be killing niggas. And that's that, 0:50:05.840 --> 0:50:08.279 and that leads me, and that leads me to our 0:50:08.360 --> 0:50:10.760 next what a Segways transition? 0:50:11.640 --> 0:50:12.600 Do you like that transition? 0:50:12.800 --> 0:50:16.680 Wow? I didn't see that coming like that. That was 0:50:16.840 --> 0:50:17.320 very smooth. 0:50:17.360 --> 0:50:20.400 Say this is this is why I'm Oprah. 0:50:20.440 --> 0:50:22.680 You know it is October and you know we're awesome 0:50:22.680 --> 0:50:26.640 witchy bitches. First of all Erica and my favorite holiday 0:50:26.920 --> 0:50:30.719 is Halloween. Like even me and my kid we're planning 0:50:30.800 --> 0:50:39.520 Halloween costumes like no, sorry, my spit planning fucking Halloween 0:50:39.520 --> 0:50:43.000 costumes and goddamn May and I like Luna, we have 0:50:43.280 --> 0:50:44.080 eight months. 0:50:44.360 --> 0:50:45.759 We don't have to buy it right now. 0:50:46.280 --> 0:50:48.759 Barry already has her holoweencaust I know, and Luna's piss 0:50:48.800 --> 0:50:50.440 because I got her yet I'm not just chill. We're 0:50:50.440 --> 0:50:53.640 gonna get it. But we've been talking about how we're 0:50:53.640 --> 0:50:55.719 like I want to do some creepy ship for Halloween, 0:50:55.880 --> 0:50:57.719 like I want to like I want to like maybe 0:50:57.719 --> 0:51:00.360 we should learn about a serial killer woman and a 0:51:00.440 --> 0:51:02.120 daughter and let's like, let's talk about it, let's get 0:51:02.200 --> 0:51:02.840 drunk and talk about it. 0:51:02.840 --> 0:51:05.759 We'ven't really are we going to get drunk? Are we 0:51:05.760 --> 0:51:07.040 gonna get drunk? Is that a question? 0:51:07.640 --> 0:51:11.120 What hello, we didn't bring anything to get drunk. 0:51:11.200 --> 0:51:14.319 Erica like right now, oh, right now, Oh, we can 0:51:14.400 --> 0:51:15.359 get what's you're doing after? 0:51:16.040 --> 0:51:18.200 Come on, it's only noons. 0:51:18.280 --> 0:51:20.280 I thought you about on Halloween. I was like, absolutely, 0:51:21.640 --> 0:51:21.879 I know. 0:51:21.840 --> 0:51:23.200 We should have got I should. I meant to bring 0:51:23.239 --> 0:51:25.120 you tequila and listen. I looked at your page and 0:51:25.160 --> 0:51:26.359 I was like, damn, she's a witch. I could tell. 0:51:26.360 --> 0:51:27.759 Then I was like, damn, she likes tequila like us. 0:51:27.880 --> 0:51:30.680 I was like, bring tequila to the recording and then 0:51:30.680 --> 0:51:32.240 we're always late, so that didn't happen. 0:51:32.480 --> 0:51:35.360 But it's fine. We can get Sequila after this. 0:51:36.800 --> 0:51:40.720 Anyway, we really wanted to do a story about a killer, 0:51:41.600 --> 0:51:45.480 and in Erica's deep Google research, she found out that 0:51:45.560 --> 0:51:50.560 she discovered that you have a female serial killer lineage, 0:51:50.680 --> 0:51:53.359 and we were both very intrigued and also like, damn, 0:51:53.360 --> 0:51:55.759 we're really are witches, because not only did we manifest 0:51:55.800 --> 0:51:59.040 you at our live show, performing and being your friend, 0:51:59.120 --> 0:52:02.000 and you just happen to have serial killer woman. Yeah, 0:52:02.400 --> 0:52:04.160 the chances of that. Yes. 0:52:04.480 --> 0:52:07.640 I only found out about this when my my actual 0:52:07.680 --> 0:52:10.160 grandmother was dying or whatever and I was talking to 0:52:10.200 --> 0:52:11.800 her and she was just telling. 0:52:11.600 --> 0:52:13.759 Me about all this different stuff. And she was telling me. 0:52:13.760 --> 0:52:18.240 That about where my middle name came from and Christine, 0:52:19.080 --> 0:52:23.400 and she told me about one of my elder grandmothers 0:52:24.080 --> 0:52:28.879 she used to murder. She used to murder abusive men 0:52:28.960 --> 0:52:32.160 basically or whatever. But she never really expanded on that 0:52:32.239 --> 0:52:35.760 detail because she was saying it like she was like 0:52:35.760 --> 0:52:37.359 like she was saying like it's not a good thing. 0:52:37.640 --> 0:52:41.120 Like she was mentioning like my music and my witchcraft 0:52:41.160 --> 0:52:43.000 and stuff like that, and she was like, and this 0:52:43.200 --> 0:52:44.719 is like the spirit of this and this and this. 0:52:45.000 --> 0:52:46.640 She was a real Christian woman too, and she was 0:52:46.680 --> 0:52:49.439 like that's when she told me about it, But she wasn't. 0:52:49.440 --> 0:52:49.840 She wouldn't. 0:52:49.880 --> 0:52:51.560 She didn't want to give much details. So it's just 0:52:51.560 --> 0:52:53.719 like I don't know much. I don't know a lot 0:52:53.840 --> 0:52:54.120 at all. 0:52:54.360 --> 0:52:55.840 She don't know if she got convicted. 0:52:55.840 --> 0:52:58.000 It was like a family secret. Everybody was new. She 0:52:58.040 --> 0:53:01.279 didn't tell me, Like don't pat Christine off right, she didn't. 0:53:01.080 --> 0:53:03.399 Tell me, And of course, like my mom isn't gonna 0:53:03.400 --> 0:53:05.239 talk to me about it at all. So it's just 0:53:05.280 --> 0:53:07.040 like I'm gonna have to like really dig deep and 0:53:07.080 --> 0:53:08.440 try to figure that out and try to see if 0:53:08.440 --> 0:53:11.080 I can find that and yeah, I don't even know 0:53:11.600 --> 0:53:13.879 what time period that was, but I want to find 0:53:13.880 --> 0:53:16.239 that out. I ended up making an entire album based 0:53:16.320 --> 0:53:20.120 upon that story, but I had to leak it because 0:53:20.120 --> 0:53:23.040 people was playing in my mother fucking face and they 0:53:23.080 --> 0:53:25.439 were they were playing with me, with me, like trying 0:53:25.480 --> 0:53:28.040 to trying to make money out of my music without 0:53:28.040 --> 0:53:29.759 my permission, you know what I'm saying. So I just 0:53:29.840 --> 0:53:32.000 leaked it and then it got copyrighted, but it's still 0:53:32.040 --> 0:53:34.680 available on the Inn or whatever. But what it was, 0:53:34.840 --> 0:53:41.919 it was I brought up my three most like pivotal relationships, 0:53:41.960 --> 0:53:44.560 like with men, the ones that like made and broke me, 0:53:44.680 --> 0:53:47.200 you know what I'm saying, And I killed them off 0:53:47.320 --> 0:53:49.560 like I started. Yeah, I started off with like each 0:53:49.600 --> 0:53:52.000 one was like when you first meet I mean, like 0:53:52.120 --> 0:53:54.919 him where you fucked up at and where you killed him. 0:53:54.800 --> 0:53:56.359 And it was like that, but did you kill him 0:53:56.920 --> 0:53:57.880 different different ways. 0:53:57.880 --> 0:54:02.040 I had a song called Decapitate, Yeah, it was different ones. 0:54:02.160 --> 0:54:03.080 Yeah, it was different one. 0:54:03.920 --> 0:54:05.600 I know that sounds very healing, y'all need to. 0:54:05.640 --> 0:54:09.080 Kill it was? It was so healing. We liked in 0:54:09.120 --> 0:54:10.960 the studio for like we met Elm in three days. 0:54:11.040 --> 0:54:11.279 Wow. 0:54:11.640 --> 0:54:14.040 The studio off like hello, like shrooms and ship like 0:54:14.160 --> 0:54:17.040 really just got like real like in there and we 0:54:17.120 --> 0:54:18.800 did that ship and just for me to have to 0:54:18.840 --> 0:54:22.160 waste because my fuckers thought that she was just like property, 0:54:22.440 --> 0:54:23.879 like you know what I'm saying, Like no, like y'all 0:54:23.880 --> 0:54:25.759 saw me cry, like y'all not just want to throw 0:54:25.800 --> 0:54:26.680 this shit out there? 0:54:26.920 --> 0:54:30.040 Yeah, without my permission, But does seem very healing. That 0:54:30.120 --> 0:54:33.960 seems like like a creative therapy in ways like it was. 0:54:34.160 --> 0:54:36.440 Sometimes I think we forget that we can finish the 0:54:36.480 --> 0:54:39.840 story if we want to, yes, and whatever way we 0:54:39.880 --> 0:54:43.799 want to, Yeah, and then that kid essentially heal how 0:54:43.840 --> 0:54:45.879 you like, change the story right? 0:54:46.040 --> 0:54:50.280 Exactly exactly what is that album called? It's called Christine Christine. 0:54:51.480 --> 0:54:53.320 I love that. Listen Christine. 0:54:53.560 --> 0:54:56.600 I don't know her her life details, but doesn't sound 0:54:56.640 --> 0:54:57.600 like she was a bad woman. 0:54:58.040 --> 0:54:59.359 Now it does sound like she was a bad woman 0:54:59.360 --> 0:55:04.000 for me either, but I would I'm definitely I just 0:55:04.040 --> 0:55:06.399 got my ancestry and shit, dang like I'm definitely trying 0:55:06.440 --> 0:55:08.080 to you gave. 0:55:11.719 --> 0:55:12.920 I was like, bro, I've. 0:55:12.800 --> 0:55:15.160 Done so many speeding in cups and piecing and cups. 0:55:15.320 --> 0:55:17.000 They can have it whatever they want to do with it. 0:55:17.040 --> 0:55:20.919 At this point, global warming, you know whatever. But yeah, 0:55:20.920 --> 0:55:23.759 I feel that I'm Nigerian and then like I just 0:55:23.840 --> 0:55:25.560 I just really want to like get back into like 0:55:25.560 --> 0:55:27.879 Diggins's figure out where I come from, because I feel 0:55:27.880 --> 0:55:30.560 like it's probably it has to be interesting, you know 0:55:30.640 --> 0:55:31.120 what I'm saying. 0:55:31.239 --> 0:55:32.520 Of course it's all interesting. 0:55:33.200 --> 0:55:35.520 I just had a thought about like you coming from 0:55:35.520 --> 0:55:40.280 religious parents and you like being you the exploratory, spiritual, 0:55:40.320 --> 0:55:41.560 I'm going to do it my own way. I'm like, 0:55:41.600 --> 0:55:43.759 that's probably like the manifestation of that. I think when 0:55:43.800 --> 0:55:47.680 women like are, like a lot of us have been repressed, 0:55:47.960 --> 0:55:50.919 repressed through religion and reformed and reform and like you said, 0:55:50.920 --> 0:55:52.920 your mom's an artist, but now she's confused. 0:55:54.520 --> 0:55:55.680 She's definitely confused, you know. 0:55:55.760 --> 0:55:58.200 Like I think I think like women like us, like 0:55:58.320 --> 0:56:01.520 you are the manifestation and of that of that uh 0:56:02.000 --> 0:56:05.680 like repression, because at some point that she has to 0:56:05.680 --> 0:56:07.719 come out and it may come out in your seat 0:56:08.280 --> 0:56:10.000 and and then like here you are, and it's just 0:56:10.040 --> 0:56:12.000 like it's not you're no longer going to be like 0:56:12.040 --> 0:56:13.680 you're breaking the cycle and you're gonna do what you 0:56:13.680 --> 0:56:15.120 want to do, and it comes out this way and 0:56:15.680 --> 0:56:18.040 you're expressive and you're putting your music out there and 0:56:18.040 --> 0:56:20.919 your art out there for everybody else to feel. So yes, 0:56:21.160 --> 0:56:22.480 you know, I know you said you didn't feel like 0:56:22.480 --> 0:56:25.040 you're identified with your parents. It's probably like you're the 0:56:25.520 --> 0:56:26.880 like the birth of their repression. 0:56:27.000 --> 0:56:30.080 Probably you are absolutely right, You are absolutely right, because 0:56:30.080 --> 0:56:31.680 that repression runs very deep. 0:56:31.920 --> 0:56:33.600 Like I can see it. 0:56:33.680 --> 0:56:33.799 Right. 0:56:33.880 --> 0:56:35.400 Look, my dad us one of those people who's like, 0:56:35.400 --> 0:56:37.280 you've been that cry, but it would. 0:56:37.800 --> 0:56:41.120 Because he probably wants to cry. 0:56:41.280 --> 0:56:43.640 You will literally whoop be for crying, like you know. 0:56:43.840 --> 0:56:47.080 So yeah, I definitely believe that that that could definitely 0:56:47.120 --> 0:56:48.239 be a thing for sure, for shit. 0:56:48.400 --> 0:56:50.480 And now you have the freedom to express yourself, whether 0:56:50.560 --> 0:56:53.920 that be in tears and music and your apothecary, like 0:56:54.000 --> 0:56:57.920 you can literally be expressive and vulnerable and not serve 0:56:58.600 --> 0:57:03.080 men or whatever like you know, I mean, lily, Yeah, 0:57:03.160 --> 0:57:06.560 and without the attachment of feeling guilt or shame about it. 0:57:06.600 --> 0:57:08.000 And that's some powerful lass ship. 0:57:08.280 --> 0:57:08.480 Yeah. 0:57:08.560 --> 0:57:11.360 And yeah, rewriting your story for your children too, like 0:57:11.440 --> 0:57:14.200 they're not going to, like you guarantee that they're not 0:57:14.239 --> 0:57:16.440 going to walk that past that maybe everyone else in 0:57:16.480 --> 0:57:17.920 your family has had to walk. 0:57:17.960 --> 0:57:20.200 Right, you know, they definitely are very free people. 0:57:20.320 --> 0:57:22.000 How do they feel about their mom being a fucking 0:57:22.080 --> 0:57:23.640 rock star that like my mom's ship. 0:57:23.720 --> 0:57:24.720 We having fun. 0:57:25.320 --> 0:57:28.000 They like like we was fucking eight year olds at 0:57:28.000 --> 0:57:29.640 the club and shit, Like they get to come to 0:57:29.680 --> 0:57:33.320 my shows sometimes they be on stage like it's fun, 0:57:33.440 --> 0:57:36.200 we have fun. Yeah, I'm taking them to Mons with 0:57:36.240 --> 0:57:37.120 me this weekend. 0:57:36.880 --> 0:57:37.680 For your birthday party. 0:57:37.800 --> 0:57:40.960 Oh yeah, yeah. 0:57:41.480 --> 0:57:44.439 You know Holladay wearing Halloween costumes today. I'm just like, yeah, 0:57:44.440 --> 0:57:47.760 they be ready early, they'd be so ready. 0:57:48.520 --> 0:57:48.680 I know. 0:57:48.680 --> 0:57:50.040 I've been telling my kay, I'm like, you doesn't have 0:57:50.080 --> 0:57:51.520 to be Halloween for us to wear a costume. 0:57:51.680 --> 0:57:54.680 True, it doesn't, it doesn't, but they just get geared 0:57:54.760 --> 0:57:57.080 up for it because it's like that's their birthday too. 0:57:57.200 --> 0:58:02.040 So they be home with the Octobers like Halloween. 0:58:02.120 --> 0:58:05.800 She going on, Yes, the vibes are high, the witchy 0:58:05.880 --> 0:58:06.520 vibes are high. 0:58:07.080 --> 0:58:09.280 The spirits are high, right, Like, I feel like the 0:58:09.280 --> 0:58:11.400 spirits very high in octob Bird. This is the time 0:58:11.640 --> 0:58:13.320 October ancestors are coming to. 0:58:13.280 --> 0:58:18.080 You're in early November. With that's I needed. 0:58:18.320 --> 0:58:20.480 I swear to God, I'm going to Mexico and I'm 0:58:20.520 --> 0:58:22.400 going to experience a deal a little more Thos. I 0:58:22.400 --> 0:58:24.000 thought it was going to be this year. It's not 0:58:24.000 --> 0:58:24.560 going to be this year. 0:58:24.560 --> 0:58:26.200 I also want to do New Orleans for Halloween. 0:58:26.880 --> 0:58:29.120 I want to do New Orleans for Halloween. Low key, 0:58:29.400 --> 0:58:31.200 but I was just, I was just I won't. 0:58:32.000 --> 0:58:33.640 I didn't. I did. I went to Voodoo Fest one. 0:58:33.680 --> 0:58:36.200 You're in New Orleans and is that around Halloween? 0:58:36.320 --> 0:58:37.480 How was it? It was amazing. 0:58:38.200 --> 0:58:39.520 But even when we went a few weeks or not 0:58:39.520 --> 0:58:40.520 a few weeks ago or. 0:58:40.480 --> 0:58:43.880 You yeah, wait, I did. I was when we came. 0:58:43.960 --> 0:58:45.760 When we went there, I could feel the energy in 0:58:45.760 --> 0:58:47.560 New Orleans. You feel there. 0:58:47.920 --> 0:58:50.200 No, New Orleans is one of those places and not sill. 0:58:50.200 --> 0:58:53.280 Hawaii is one of those places. Yeah, it's Hawaii. Like 0:58:53.280 --> 0:58:55.600 I had a mental breakdown in Hawaii because that's you 0:58:55.640 --> 0:58:59.080 can you can feel that like energy brew It's it's 0:58:59.120 --> 0:58:59.760 it's some real. 0:58:59.600 --> 0:59:01.960 Power for there. Like I don't know what it is, 0:59:02.120 --> 0:59:02.919 but I can't. 0:59:03.640 --> 0:59:06.440 Should that should humbled me, like this should brought me 0:59:07.160 --> 0:59:09.280 made me feel very smile being that the own way. 0:59:10.000 --> 0:59:13.520 I think everybody's really afraid to delve in the darkness. 0:59:13.600 --> 0:59:16.480 You know, everybody's like it's devil shit, you know, like 0:59:16.480 --> 0:59:18.320 like don't look at it doesn't exist, you know, even 0:59:18.360 --> 0:59:22.080 as talking about like murder and death and ancestors and 0:59:22.080 --> 0:59:25.280 spirits and like our witchiness and like spells and shit, 0:59:25.360 --> 0:59:29.120 people are so fucking scary. But mostly it's a reflection 0:59:29.200 --> 0:59:32.440 of people are scared of themselves and the darkness and themselves, yeah, 0:59:32.480 --> 0:59:35.840 and are afraid to address like the dark shit, Like 0:59:36.000 --> 0:59:37.640 have I healed this? This is where I come from? 0:59:37.640 --> 0:59:39.160 This is the dark shit my parents has gone through? 0:59:39.200 --> 0:59:41.600 Have I adopted this? What are my toxic traits? 0:59:41.640 --> 0:59:41.680 Like? 0:59:41.720 --> 0:59:44.600 People will not are unwilling to sit with it or 0:59:44.640 --> 0:59:47.760 even like that you could have you you are and 0:59:47.880 --> 0:59:51.200 have adopted like all the energy and of all the 0:59:51.200 --> 0:59:53.880 people that came before you, all their pain. And if 0:59:53.880 --> 0:59:55.600 you don't address it and you don't sit with it, 0:59:55.880 --> 0:59:57.160 however way you do it, I don't know how the 0:59:57.200 --> 1:00:00.080 Christians do it. Whatever they suppress it and tell you 1:00:00.120 --> 1:00:01.760 like to get down on your knees and like it's 1:00:01.840 --> 1:00:04.600 devil shit. But it's very important to delve into the 1:00:04.680 --> 1:00:07.360 darkness and like in a way that is not necessarily 1:00:07.400 --> 1:00:09.960 like it's not all scary, it's necessary. 1:00:09.560 --> 1:00:11.160 Right, It's very necessary. 1:00:11.800 --> 1:00:13.480 I feel like the only reason that I was able 1:00:13.520 --> 1:00:15.880 to learn that is because I started dropping ascy like 1:00:16.680 --> 1:00:20.120 it really like broke my brain like made a new one. 1:00:20.080 --> 1:00:21.880 Or something because your rebirth to you. 1:00:22.160 --> 1:00:26.080 Yeah, yeah, it's so crazy, And it's just like the 1:00:26.120 --> 1:00:27.720 stuff that I the stuff that I feel, the stuff 1:00:27.720 --> 1:00:29.520 that I go through. Sometimes I don't even be understanding 1:00:29.520 --> 1:00:32.520 how people can't. But it's because I because I feel 1:00:32.520 --> 1:00:34.440 like I think they just shut off certain parts of 1:00:34.480 --> 1:00:37.600 their brain, like you know what I'm saying, Like I 1:00:37.600 --> 1:00:39.720 feel like it's necessary to open that part up in 1:00:39.840 --> 1:00:42.760 order to be like a whole human because everybody just 1:00:42.760 --> 1:00:46.120 be living half day life, trying to trying to preciate 1:00:46.240 --> 1:00:48.160 down act like they not this, act like they're not 1:00:48.240 --> 1:00:51.520 they like kill the part of you there cringes. 1:00:53.160 --> 1:00:55.600 I saw it on the internet, like don't. 1:00:55.400 --> 1:00:59.120 Care, like crazy cringe and want to avoid it like 1:00:59.200 --> 1:01:01.400 open that door. Yeah, I dive in bitch. 1:01:01.600 --> 1:01:04.760 Yeah that's the name of the episode killing. 1:01:05.520 --> 1:01:07.120 Oh my god, I think I love that. I love 1:01:07.120 --> 1:01:08.120 that too too. 1:01:08.560 --> 1:01:09.640 I mean it's true. 1:01:09.440 --> 1:01:15.320 That bar you need write that in a rap. I 1:01:15.360 --> 1:01:15.880 don't want. 1:01:18.040 --> 1:01:22.600 That was my tweet, tweeting is property public property? 1:01:23.200 --> 1:01:23.400 I know. 1:01:23.440 --> 1:01:26.160 I had an acid experience and I felt like all 1:01:26.200 --> 1:01:29.600 the female all the women's pain from before me And 1:01:29.640 --> 1:01:30.640 I don't know how I knew. 1:01:30.480 --> 1:01:31.560 It was that, but I did. 1:01:31.600 --> 1:01:33.440 Immediately, I was like, and it came out of me, 1:01:33.520 --> 1:01:35.680 like out of my mouth, like I screamed it out, 1:01:35.720 --> 1:01:39.360 and then I fucking burst it into cosmic universal energy. 1:01:39.560 --> 1:01:41.560 And then afterwards I felt like so relieved, but I 1:01:41.600 --> 1:01:46.520 was like, what the fuck was that? But she is 1:01:46.560 --> 1:01:48.680 a motherfucker, But in a good way. I really did 1:01:48.720 --> 1:01:51.680 feel like a release and a rebirth, and something opened 1:01:51.720 --> 1:01:54.439 up in my brain that I could access that part 1:01:54.440 --> 1:01:56.240 of me that I hadn't been able to access before. 1:01:56.400 --> 1:01:59.720 So like, I'm not recommending that everybody do acid. How 1:01:59.720 --> 1:02:04.640 about her acid finds you? That's usually why when you 1:02:04.640 --> 1:02:05.280 should do it. 1:02:05.800 --> 1:02:05.960 You know. 1:02:06.080 --> 1:02:08.680 Now, I mean, I think for all all all the 1:02:08.720 --> 1:02:12.600 different drugs are now. I think we're in a place 1:02:12.600 --> 1:02:15.960 now where they're becoming a little bit more normalized, especially mushrooms. 1:02:16.240 --> 1:02:18.800 Mushrooms for now are like cute for people. But I 1:02:18.880 --> 1:02:19.920 was watching this What was. 1:02:19.880 --> 1:02:20.400 The show I was? 1:02:20.520 --> 1:02:20.640 I was. 1:02:20.720 --> 1:02:22.520 I started watching it, but then I fell asleep because 1:02:22.520 --> 1:02:23.919 I always fell asleep watching TV. 1:02:24.200 --> 1:02:25.120 But it was some show. 1:02:24.960 --> 1:02:27.919 Where like these this guy or these different people were 1:02:27.960 --> 1:02:33.920 taking drugs in in like in hospitals essentially to like 1:02:33.920 --> 1:02:37.760 like one person was like taking like multiple doses of LSD. 1:02:39.480 --> 1:02:40.520 Yeah, therapy. 1:02:40.720 --> 1:02:42.640 I've been seeing that lately. They've been doing like the 1:02:42.720 --> 1:02:46.800 Kademy therapy. Academy therapy. It was like LSD therapy. 1:02:47.000 --> 1:02:48.840 I can see how that shit could be helpful. And 1:02:48.920 --> 1:02:51.480 I'm oh, now, y'all niggas wrong. Now it works. 1:02:51.560 --> 1:02:53.840 Huh now it works. 1:02:54.120 --> 1:02:57.360 Yeah, it's it's drugs is becoming a little bit less troble. 1:02:57.560 --> 1:03:06.720 But the way black you right, especially coke, like I 1:03:06.800 --> 1:03:11.320 know they. 1:03:09.360 --> 1:03:13.680 Will you will be Whitney Houston. Yeah. Yes, I was 1:03:13.680 --> 1:03:18.320 with some fellow white podcasters shout out to uh sex 1:03:18.360 --> 1:03:20.840 talk with my mom, and I was saying something like, oh, 1:03:21.040 --> 1:03:23.360 I did cocaine. I canna talk about it on the show. 1:03:23.440 --> 1:03:26.320 I was like no, They're like, why you talk about 1:03:26.320 --> 1:03:30.320 everything else. I was like, bitch, I'm black. They were like, 1:03:31.320 --> 1:03:32.680 it's like, yeah, it's different for us. 1:03:32.760 --> 1:03:35.400 Karen, her name is actually Karen. 1:03:35.480 --> 1:03:37.200 I was like, no, Karen, I we could talk about 1:03:37.240 --> 1:03:39.200 smoking weed, and that's pushing the envelope. I'm like, here, 1:03:39.240 --> 1:03:40.760 I am talking about it now. I've gotten braver in 1:03:40.800 --> 1:03:41.280 five years. 1:03:41.280 --> 1:03:43.840 But I'll talk about it in my music because it's 1:03:43.960 --> 1:03:46.320 so cares like everybody want to be the only thing 1:03:46.360 --> 1:03:47.919 that I that I will say is like. 1:03:48.480 --> 1:03:51.640 It could become Remember remember evil light skinned bitch friend. 1:03:51.800 --> 1:03:54.440 Yeah, that bitch once we filled out, that's shed as 1:03:54.600 --> 1:03:57.320 on your knee. This bitch is a cocaine. 1:03:57.400 --> 1:03:59.400 She's probably a cocaine. She's not, she's not. 1:03:59.880 --> 1:04:02.280 Just like, you didn't have no problem with it, you 1:04:02.280 --> 1:04:03.800 know what I'm saying. You did everything else with me, 1:04:03.840 --> 1:04:06.520 But coca is where everybody draws, especially black people, and 1:04:06.560 --> 1:04:08.560 I blame like the crack Jimmy, what it did to 1:04:08.600 --> 1:04:09.040 our people. 1:04:09.160 --> 1:04:09.800 I get it. 1:04:09.840 --> 1:04:13.920 But so way, you know how many fucking functional corporate 1:04:14.240 --> 1:04:18.400 cocaine I'll be tripping because I'm just like every rich 1:04:18.480 --> 1:04:20.000 white person I know does. 1:04:19.800 --> 1:04:24.360 Cookinem we're from so it's daughter's teachers probably doing coke 1:04:24.440 --> 1:04:25.080 to get through today. 1:04:25.320 --> 1:04:27.760 Honestly, I don't know how she would do it. But 1:04:27.840 --> 1:04:30.320 I mean, we're from LA, so it's very casual where 1:04:30.320 --> 1:04:33.120 we're from. But I realized that it's not casual for everybody. 1:04:33.120 --> 1:04:36.240 So I'm always like, has a discretion except today because 1:04:36.280 --> 1:04:37.600 I'm with baby mother, soide. 1:04:37.520 --> 1:04:41.040 No, no, Sometimes I will pull that shit out and 1:04:41.080 --> 1:04:42.680 I think it's just hit a little bump and people 1:04:42.680 --> 1:04:46.920 be like I was just like, I'm sorry, I didn't realize. 1:04:46.920 --> 1:04:48.320 I don't really feel like that's real. I feel like 1:04:48.320 --> 1:04:51.960 that's very rare. I feel like mostly most people do cocaine. 1:04:52.400 --> 1:04:54.120 I think most people do cocaine too. I think most 1:04:54.120 --> 1:04:55.800 people just are scared to talk about it because they 1:04:55.880 --> 1:04:57.480 think they're going to get changed. 1:04:57.720 --> 1:04:59.320 Yeah, and then and then might and I might get 1:04:59.360 --> 1:05:02.680 judge right now, it's only very rare. It's very rare 1:05:02.720 --> 1:05:04.200 occasion when I would like to party. 1:05:04.280 --> 1:05:08.920 Everything we say here is for entertainment purposes. Are you entertained? 1:05:11.360 --> 1:05:16.680 Oh my god? We ask our guests if they have a. 1:05:19.080 --> 1:05:19.440 Story? 1:05:19.600 --> 1:05:20.960 Four story time. 1:05:26.560 --> 1:05:27.280 Stories? 1:05:28.600 --> 1:05:32.120 I have one, I think. Okay. 1:05:32.360 --> 1:05:36.160 So one time I was in uh Baltimore with my 1:05:36.240 --> 1:05:42.200 boyfriend and he had an album live stream type of situation. 1:05:42.400 --> 1:05:47.800 We're here Richmond. It was getting right baby, and we 1:05:47.840 --> 1:05:48.640 had like a we. 1:05:48.560 --> 1:05:50.840 Had like a he was doing like this live stream 1:05:50.880 --> 1:05:53.920 situation or whatever. But before we live streaming, we're getting drunk, 1:05:53.960 --> 1:05:55.800 like we're taking shots at tequila, like straight out the 1:05:55.800 --> 1:05:57.960 bottom or whatever. And so we had a rental car 1:05:58.640 --> 1:06:01.600 and it's I'm funny because like for him to do 1:06:01.640 --> 1:06:03.360 this loud stream. He had to wear like this full 1:06:03.400 --> 1:06:06.800 on Dicky's jumpsuit with like with this record, like he's 1:06:06.800 --> 1:06:10.400 in he's in costume basically, and so like he was 1:06:10.440 --> 1:06:12.760 like I gotta get ready to go on, but I 1:06:12.880 --> 1:06:14.600 was like, no, come on, let's go to the cars. 1:06:14.600 --> 1:06:15.200 Go to the car. 1:06:15.800 --> 1:06:17.440 And so, like the car was right in front of 1:06:17.440 --> 1:06:19.120 the venue, in front of the record shops. I'm trying 1:06:19.120 --> 1:06:20.520 to fuck him in his car, like right in front 1:06:20.520 --> 1:06:22.600 of the venue. So he drives around to like the 1:06:22.640 --> 1:06:24.920 whole other side and we like had like this food 1:06:24.920 --> 1:06:28.080 blown out like quikie in the car while anybody's looking 1:06:28.080 --> 1:06:29.600 for him, like where the fuck freak guy, like where 1:06:29.640 --> 1:06:31.720 he at supposed to be in there doing his job 1:06:31.720 --> 1:06:32.960 and I'm fucking in the backseat. 1:06:32.960 --> 1:06:35.440 It was a fucking rental car. So yeah, that was 1:06:35.480 --> 1:06:38.640 a cute huh. It was the first seat. 1:06:38.680 --> 1:06:44.640 Hell, she was drunk, clearly she had a lot of shots. 1:06:45.600 --> 1:06:48.160 He back up, correcting her it. 1:06:48.240 --> 1:06:51.120 Was the vaccine. It was a vaccine. Yeah, we was 1:06:51.200 --> 1:06:53.400 very drunk. His friends was like the car was a 1:06:53.480 --> 1:06:56.400 rocking yeah, because he had just moved to he had 1:06:56.440 --> 1:06:57.920 just moved to where I was at. So this was 1:06:57.920 --> 1:06:59.680 like his first time his friends for some seeing them 1:06:59.720 --> 1:07:02.680 since he and they was like they was. 1:07:02.680 --> 1:07:03.760 Like no, no, they know me. 1:07:03.880 --> 1:07:05.800 But they were just like, what have you done? He's 1:07:05.840 --> 1:07:06.440 so different. 1:07:07.800 --> 1:07:09.880 I put that witch pussy on him, That's what I did. 1:07:10.000 --> 1:07:11.800 I think it was just drunk like they was like, 1:07:11.840 --> 1:07:13.320 what have you done? It was like, now, y'all never 1:07:13.320 --> 1:07:14.280 seen him drunk before? 1:07:15.040 --> 1:07:16.680 Did you make it to the live stream? 1:07:17.120 --> 1:07:19.120 He made it. He did a great job too, of 1:07:19.120 --> 1:07:25.400 course he did perfect. Yes, yeah, he did great. 1:07:25.520 --> 1:07:30.960 Activated So we asked maybe mother to pull a card 1:07:31.160 --> 1:07:33.080 at the top of the show. We actually have a 1:07:33.120 --> 1:07:36.240 new deck. Thank you Dutch, our fellow tribe member. Shout 1:07:36.280 --> 1:07:38.959 out to our ladies and Discord. If you haven't joined 1:07:38.960 --> 1:07:40.640 our discord. We have a lot of women over there. 1:07:40.680 --> 1:07:43.760 It's an amazing community where women are literally talking all 1:07:44.080 --> 1:07:46.520 fucking day long. Like the amount of alerts I get 1:07:46.520 --> 1:07:47.240 on my phone and. 1:07:47.320 --> 1:07:50.200 The amount of Angel number alerts I get, Like, I'm like, 1:07:50.200 --> 1:07:52.080 everybody in our Discord is a witch. Like it's it's 1:07:52.120 --> 1:07:56.200 one eleven. Sometimes I'm like it's three thirty. It's like 1:07:56.240 --> 1:07:57.880 a different time, and somewhere else I'm like, wow, the 1:07:58.120 --> 1:08:00.760 witches are together, Okay, in community we have we might 1:08:00.800 --> 1:08:04.240 need like a community, like a community manifestation, like everybody 1:08:04.480 --> 1:08:06.840 at one eleven Pacific standard time, let's all put an 1:08:06.920 --> 1:08:09.880 energy towards this, because then that will definitely come true. 1:08:11.200 --> 1:08:14.520 But Dutch came to like, no. 1:08:14.560 --> 1:08:17.720 But we're a cult of freedom. This is the good 1:08:17.760 --> 1:08:19.200 Mom's call. Is the cult of. 1:08:19.280 --> 1:08:21.280 We won't ask you to know weird shit. Okay, well 1:08:21.280 --> 1:08:22.840 we will, but not know, like we'll be. 1:08:23.040 --> 1:08:25.760 Weirdship for your healing and your freedom. You do whatever 1:08:25.800 --> 1:08:27.200 you want to do is the weird ship. Can you 1:08:27.240 --> 1:08:28.920 imagine the world that we live in that doing whatever 1:08:28.920 --> 1:08:31.400 you want to do is weird? Yeah, to be you, 1:08:31.560 --> 1:08:35.880 it's crazy, it's like revolutionary. Do whatever the fuck you 1:08:35.880 --> 1:08:39.920 want to be a woman, say how you feel. Don't 1:08:39.920 --> 1:08:47.360 subscribe to niggas. Anyway, we went on a tangent about 1:08:47.360 --> 1:08:51.800 our cult. Yeah, at the Margarita room, a gifted US 1:08:52.000 --> 1:08:55.640 African goddess rising oracle deck and usual, let me use 1:08:55.680 --> 1:08:57.719 taro for tarot time. But I'm gonna try a little 1:08:57.720 --> 1:08:59.840 something different. So what did you pull? 1:09:00.080 --> 1:09:04.000 My dear? And it's like pleasure, It's. 1:09:04.160 --> 1:09:05.800 It's like, isn't this the time till you have on. 1:09:05.760 --> 1:09:09.800 Your forehead conda that this minds us from sailor moon. 1:09:10.080 --> 1:09:10.280 Ah. 1:09:10.360 --> 1:09:13.519 Okay, very similar, similar for sure. 1:09:13.760 --> 1:09:18.320 Okay, tan It goddess of pleasure, which is aka freedom, 1:09:18.360 --> 1:09:20.960 you guys. This is also a part of the cult 1:09:21.680 --> 1:09:27.800 Tunisia Temple Conjurors element Air. TANet was the goddess of 1:09:27.840 --> 1:09:31.000 the stars in ancient Carthage. And I hope I'm saying 1:09:31.000 --> 1:09:33.680 this right today. All the way over in Abiza, they 1:09:33.720 --> 1:09:37.519 still have pleasure filled full moon midnight table dancing parties 1:09:37.560 --> 1:09:39.360 in her name. I think we shall have one tonight. 1:09:40.360 --> 1:09:42.880 You are thirsty for more pleasure. You can't thrive when 1:09:42.960 --> 1:09:47.920 life feels dry. You're made of laughter and stardust, not sawdust. 1:09:48.120 --> 1:09:49.200 Baby. 1:09:49.240 --> 1:09:53.280 Pleasure is your birthright, a gift from the universe. Embodiment. 1:09:53.800 --> 1:09:56.920 How much juicy pleasure can you stand? Turn up the 1:09:56.960 --> 1:10:00.840 pleasure principle. You secretly feel that you don't deserve it. 1:10:00.880 --> 1:10:05.120 But pleasure is a healing and manifesting force. Laughing, loving 1:10:05.280 --> 1:10:10.080 and orgasmic joy is holy good Dick, hold your hands 1:10:10.160 --> 1:10:16.320 over your reproductive area and say, aloud, I deserve pleasure. 1:10:17.080 --> 1:10:21.400 I deserve the goddess. Declaration for this card is it 1:10:21.439 --> 1:10:23.360 feels good to feel good. 1:10:23.840 --> 1:10:26.479 It feels good to feel good. 1:10:27.680 --> 1:10:33.080 Oh my god, Tanna is in our cult, you guys, symbolism. 1:10:33.160 --> 1:10:34.040 She's the leader of the cult. 1:10:35.240 --> 1:10:38.960 We don't worship any mine except Tanne, ourselves, the pussy 1:10:38.960 --> 1:10:45.080 Woomboni and Tannate. I think I want to get drunk 1:10:45.200 --> 1:10:46.840 on to the tattoo shop. You have two tattoos to 1:10:46.880 --> 1:10:52.559 get money over money? Okay, Well, our best friend Agenda 1:10:52.680 --> 1:10:57.559 is fool you guys, all right, Wow a busy day. Honestly, 1:10:57.880 --> 1:11:00.639 thank you so much for joining us. Go what happed? 1:11:00.960 --> 1:11:01.759 This was so fun. 1:11:02.000 --> 1:11:03.720 Literally a part of our tribe. You don't even know 1:11:03.840 --> 1:11:07.479 you're part of the cults. I'm here and baby mother, 1:11:07.720 --> 1:11:11.000 when fucking Erica saw you on Spotify, she knew. 1:11:11.080 --> 1:11:11.400 I did it. 1:11:11.479 --> 1:11:13.000 I was like, you need to listen to this song. 1:11:13.040 --> 1:11:14.559 She literally told me. She's like, you can't give. 1:11:14.439 --> 1:11:16.680 No pussy to one nigga who I used to get 1:11:16.760 --> 1:11:20.320 a pussy because that pussy gonna be everybody be. I 1:11:20.400 --> 1:11:23.080 was like, the fuck is that so fun? The fucking true? 1:11:24.200 --> 1:11:26.439 I was like, fuck, nigga did that to me? 1:11:30.560 --> 1:11:33.519 It's the theme. It's it's the cult theme. So now 1:11:33.520 --> 1:11:36.920 we have a leader, a theme. We're getting far everybody 1:11:37.000 --> 1:11:38.679 can join discord. If you want to go to church, 1:11:40.080 --> 1:11:41.200 we're gonna get you. 1:11:41.160 --> 1:11:42.799 In there link in episode description. 1:11:44.840 --> 1:11:47.720 Thank you everyone listening. I hope this episode has been 1:11:47.720 --> 1:11:52.120 witchy and you're enjoying Occulate October. This is the closing. 1:11:52.160 --> 1:11:54.439 I help you make sure you do your own spell 1:11:54.800 --> 1:11:59.000 this month and this evening, and make sure you uh 1:11:59.360 --> 1:12:03.679 check us out on Instagram We're fine, Good Mom's Underscore 1:12:03.760 --> 1:12:06.519 Bad Choices or on YouTube Good Mom's Bad Choices. You 1:12:06.520 --> 1:12:10.000 can find me at Mila with an h underscore map 1:12:10.560 --> 1:12:13.760 and Erica at watch Erica on Instagram, and Baby Mother, 1:12:14.040 --> 1:12:15.600 where can they find you? And tell us where we 1:12:15.640 --> 1:12:21.920 can find your APO apothecary. 1:12:20.800 --> 1:12:24.080 Path carry is closed until further notice, but it'll be back. 1:12:24.760 --> 1:12:29.080 But my social media mostly all of them I feel 1:12:29.120 --> 1:12:31.920 like is baby Mother, b B Y m U, T 1:12:32.200 --> 1:12:37.400 h A. I'm on all music streaming sites, but my 1:12:37.479 --> 1:12:41.120 newer music I keep it on band camp, Babymother do 1:12:41.240 --> 1:12:42.800 band camp dot com. 1:12:43.439 --> 1:12:47.280 But on Twitter? Could you be active on Twitter? I 1:12:47.280 --> 1:12:49.920 thought I saw like Mother Mother lificent that's the that's 1:12:49.920 --> 1:12:53.280 the that's like the tag. Okay, I'm Twitter Twitter. 1:12:53.160 --> 1:12:58.040 Slo mother' Lefferson is actually my latest projecting. It's on 1:12:58.120 --> 1:12:58.680 band camp, so. 1:12:59.080 --> 1:13:00.479 I love that. I love that. 1:13:01.200 --> 1:13:03.080 Well, let's go get drunk, but just let's go get. 1:13:02.960 --> 1:13:05.519 Drunk and Happy Halloween, Halloween, Happy Halloween. 1:13:05.600 --> 1:13:08.200 Thank you'll, thank you, thank you, Bye God next time. 1:13:09.000 --> 1:13:11.519 H m h. 1:13:13.640 --> 1:13:14.080 M hm. 1:13:16.080 --> 1:13:21.880 Mm hmmm mm hmmm. 1:13:23.439 --> 1:13:23.920 Mm hmmm. 1:13:30.960 --> 1:13:31.000 That