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Speaker 1: Fim, a little bit more like in the middle or

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Speaker 2: Hey guys, today's episode is brought to you by Boost Mobile.

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Speaker 2: So our guest today was growing up writing poetry instead

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Speaker 2: of going to parties. She spent fifteen years writing hit

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Speaker 2: records for folks like Ariana grandev Na's Brandy and Moore.

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Speaker 2: She is a three time Grammy winner New York Times bestseller,

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Speaker 2: a culinary student, a mom to the youngest Grammy nominee

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Speaker 2: in history, and this summer she's going to stadiums, the

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Speaker 2: stadiums of Europe with Bruno Mars. Welcome Victoria Monday around

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Speaker 2: and we are dressed like I don't know if we're

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Speaker 2: going to be security R and B group, but we

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Speaker 2: were singing yes without even trying.

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Speaker 1: I love it.

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Speaker 2: Hi, baby, how are you doing? I'm good? How are

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Speaker 2: you doing? I'm good? All right? So you have many

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Speaker 2: many accolades, You've been through a lot of seasons. Where

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Speaker 2: are we at now? What season is this?

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Speaker 1: Right now, I think this is like self love season.

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Speaker 2: Is it not? Always?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I suppose, but I feel like I put other

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Speaker 1: So now I fully feel like the frequency that I'm

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Speaker 1: it's my side quest because instead of doing something that

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Speaker 1: i've I've been doing for fifteen years, which would technically

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Speaker 1: all of that I'm known for, I've been over here

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Speaker 1: with this, this coach called Would Tully, and he had

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Speaker 1: me doing meditations along with the sun. So I do

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Speaker 2: Times a day is the times. It's a real commitment, for.

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Speaker 1: Real, for real. But I think it's what I need.

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Speaker 1: It's just what I needed to kind of shift my energy.

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Speaker 1: Just felt like awakened. I felt like it's almost a

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Speaker 2: Just because I feel like an owl will just be chilling,

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Speaker 2: Who would your animal be now, I don't know. I

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Speaker 1: Yeah, what's your animal? I don't know if it's an animal.

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Speaker 1: Maybe it's more like a butterfly. Like I feel like

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Speaker 1: They're so cute. I'm sorry, I'm so cute.

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Speaker 2: She could just playing the seeds of her experience. It's

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Speaker 2: So what is all this like? So how does this

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm going to send you his page. She does

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Speaker 2: like that, but like like you like you like you're

438
00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:51,080
Speaker 2: getting something out of what you're experiencing.

439
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:54,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think. I mean when I think about just

440
00:22:54,400 --> 00:22:56,280
Speaker 1: the piece at like the golf course.

441
00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:58,840
Speaker 2: Oh my god, it's the greatest thing ever. You golfed before, right,

442
00:22:58,880 --> 00:22:59,439
Speaker 2: you told me that.

443
00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:02,240
Speaker 1: I did did my freshman year of high school. And

444
00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:06,000
Speaker 1: I was walking through high school with my little golf clubs,

445
00:23:06,080 --> 00:23:09,320
Speaker 1: just as a freshman, just already like nervous, and someone

446
00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:11,720
Speaker 1: was like, what are you tigerwood sister. I was like, well,

447
00:23:12,280 --> 00:23:15,359
Speaker 1: I gotta stop golf, already done with it. I just

448
00:23:15,359 --> 00:23:16,560
Speaker 1: wanted to Did that happen?

449
00:23:16,600 --> 00:23:18,280
Speaker 2: Your mother wanted you to do something different.

450
00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:20,119
Speaker 1: It was like, there's no black golfers, and if you

451
00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:22,199
Speaker 1: black and you golf, you're gonna get a scholarship. I

452
00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:24,040
Speaker 1: was like, I'm not even good.

453
00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 2: I don't even know. It's so hard.

454
00:23:26,480 --> 00:23:29,000
Speaker 1: It's really hard. But I feel like now, as an adult,

455
00:23:29,119 --> 00:23:30,280
Speaker 1: it may feel meditative.

456
00:23:30,440 --> 00:23:32,359
Speaker 2: You didn't feel you didn't fall in love, but you

457
00:23:32,359 --> 00:23:33,840
Speaker 2: didn't like it at all?

458
00:23:34,160 --> 00:23:38,080
Speaker 1: No, No, it's but now I think I would love

459
00:23:38,640 --> 00:23:41,040
Speaker 1: I mean, I love top golf. I know it's different totally.

460
00:23:41,119 --> 00:23:41,600
Speaker 1: That's fun.

461
00:23:42,280 --> 00:23:43,760
Speaker 2: We're going to take you. But you're at this age

462
00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:45,840
Speaker 2: so you're what high school? You said, when you're a golfer?

463
00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:47,159
Speaker 1: Yeah, freshman in high school.

464
00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:50,000
Speaker 2: But you're probably like you already have dreams of being

465
00:23:50,040 --> 00:23:52,520
Speaker 2: a star. No, you're writing? Are you singing? You?

466
00:23:52,840 --> 00:23:54,560
Speaker 1: Yeah? I was like, this is not going to be

467
00:23:54,680 --> 00:23:56,760
Speaker 1: I don't see me getting a golf scholarship.

468
00:23:56,800 --> 00:23:57,000
Speaker 2: Mom.

469
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:57,960
Speaker 1: I appreciate it.

470
00:23:57,880 --> 00:24:01,640
Speaker 2: But I want to be an artist. I want to.

471
00:24:04,200 --> 00:24:05,879
Speaker 1: Yeah. So that was that was short lived.

472
00:24:05,920 --> 00:24:07,280
Speaker 2: Did she believe in that at the time?

473
00:24:08,400 --> 00:24:10,640
Speaker 1: She was like, yeah, because it was a performing arts

474
00:24:10,680 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: high school. I was like, why am I going to

475
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:16,520
Speaker 1: performing arts high school to perform golf? It really didn't.

476
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:18,679
Speaker 1: It didn't clock. But she was trying her best as

477
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:20,800
Speaker 1: a single mom to be like, you're not going to

478
00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:23,320
Speaker 1: be in the situation that I'm in. You're not going

479
00:24:23,359 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 1: to You're gonna be better, You're going to go further.

480
00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:29,600
Speaker 1: And I just had a different way of doing that.

481
00:24:30,280 --> 00:24:33,159
Speaker 1: It's a lot scarier and a lot less of a

482
00:24:33,200 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: guarantee my way, I guess. But yeah, eventually worked out.

483
00:24:38,200 --> 00:24:39,159
Speaker 2: She wasn't against it.

484
00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:42,520
Speaker 1: Though she was no, she wasn't. I mean, she didn't

485
00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:44,679
Speaker 1: like that I was coming home late because I was

486
00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:48,879
Speaker 1: at dance rehearsals. It was very sister and vibes like

487
00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:51,399
Speaker 1: really yeah. I was like, Mom, I just want to dance,

488
00:24:51,960 --> 00:24:53,480
Speaker 1: and she was like, you're not going to keep coming

489
00:24:53,520 --> 00:24:55,760
Speaker 1: in my house at one am from dance rehearsal, and

490
00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:57,400
Speaker 1: I was like, but you should see what the other

491
00:24:57,480 --> 00:24:59,720
Speaker 1: kids are out there doing to one am, I'm just dancing.

492
00:25:00,520 --> 00:25:01,320
Speaker 1: It was very that.

493
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:03,960
Speaker 2: I get this.

494
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:06,040
Speaker 1: She needed to get me together. Though she wasn't wrong.

495
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:07,520
Speaker 1: I was coming home.

496
00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:08,120
Speaker 2: She was wrong.

497
00:25:08,320 --> 00:25:11,000
Speaker 1: She wasn't wrong, but it paid off. It did so,

498
00:25:11,000 --> 00:25:12,200
Speaker 1: so I guess we was both right.

499
00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:15,240
Speaker 2: Wait, you mentioned going, You mentioned the shift of the

500
00:25:15,320 --> 00:25:18,720
Speaker 2: Chinese New Year, Yeah, which was it was the Year

501
00:25:18,760 --> 00:25:22,479
Speaker 2: of the Snake. And then we went into horse, fire horsey,

502
00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:25,480
Speaker 2: fire horse, So what does that? How does that affect you?

503
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: Fire horse? They say it means that things are going

504
00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:32,040
Speaker 1: to go by really really fast, like I imagine the

505
00:25:32,119 --> 00:25:34,640
Speaker 1: horse galloping in the direction that you're supposed to go.

506
00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 1: And it's also a one year which is the end

507
00:25:38,080 --> 00:25:40,760
Speaker 1: of a nine year cycle that we may have all

508
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:44,160
Speaker 1: been in. So it's kind of a new beginning. Maybe

509
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:46,639
Speaker 1: we'll all have lots of different shifts that we're experiencing

510
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:53,600
Speaker 1: in our personal, financial, spiritual, career lives, but quickly and

511
00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:56,200
Speaker 1: probably more in the direction of alignment that you're supposed

512
00:25:56,240 --> 00:25:58,879
Speaker 1: to be in. But when you think about that and

513
00:25:58,920 --> 00:26:03,000
Speaker 1: you make yourself aware that, it feels like it all

514
00:26:03,040 --> 00:26:05,679
Speaker 1: makes sense. Like whatever happened last year, the shedding that

515
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:09,400
Speaker 1: we've done, you probably would be like, oh, that's why

516
00:26:09,440 --> 00:26:11,640
Speaker 1: that person's not in my life. Oh that's why I'm

517
00:26:11,680 --> 00:26:15,800
Speaker 1: not doing that anymore, because it was literally aligned to

518
00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:19,200
Speaker 1: do so up until I believe February seventeenth is when

519
00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:21,280
Speaker 1: the Year of the Firewars technically started.

520
00:26:21,520 --> 00:26:22,000
Speaker 2: Interesting.

521
00:26:22,720 --> 00:26:25,720
Speaker 1: So, yeah, it feels good, I think. And this year

522
00:26:25,760 --> 00:26:27,960
Speaker 1: has been going fast. It's been life.

523
00:26:28,400 --> 00:26:32,880
Speaker 2: Oh yes, may like damn near may yah. Yeah, it's flying.

524
00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:37,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, So I feel aligned with what's happening in my

525
00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:39,480
Speaker 1: life too. What about you?

526
00:26:39,480 --> 00:26:41,360
Speaker 2: You feel like, oh, yeah, I'm going to do doing

527
00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:44,680
Speaker 2: all types of new things and new experiences and shifting

528
00:26:44,760 --> 00:26:48,600
Speaker 2: and making changes in my life too that are I

529
00:26:48,640 --> 00:26:52,600
Speaker 2: don't know, I'm in a little bit of a You know,

530
00:26:52,640 --> 00:26:55,080
Speaker 2: there's seasons in your life where you have figured out

531
00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:57,000
Speaker 2: what you want to do and you're in the process

532
00:26:57,000 --> 00:26:59,760
Speaker 2: of transitioning. But then there's seasons where you kind of

533
00:26:59,800 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 2: have to sit still and like, I'm a little bit

534
00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:07,280
Speaker 2: I'm working. Trust me, I work. I work, Like, of course,

535
00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:09,200
Speaker 2: so I have ideas and creative things do we want

536
00:27:09,200 --> 00:27:12,080
Speaker 2: to do? And I have this project and so all

537
00:27:12,119 --> 00:27:15,520
Speaker 2: of that, but internally and personally, I'm kind of like

538
00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:23,680
Speaker 2: waiting out. Oh yeah, And I'm also trust I'm not

539
00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:26,879
Speaker 2: just waiting. I'm just like in a flow, like I'm trusting,

540
00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 2: I'm receiving, I'm paying attention to you know, the road.

541
00:27:34,400 --> 00:27:36,800
Speaker 1: That feels very feminine to me, Like, that's a very

542
00:27:36,840 --> 00:27:38,119
Speaker 1: feminine energy, is it.

543
00:27:38,160 --> 00:27:40,240
Speaker 2: I love that because I've always been accused of the opposite.

544
00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:43,720
Speaker 1: Really, yes, no, this is very feminine. I think that

545
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:48,200
Speaker 1: feminine femininity is like an art of allowing, art of space,

546
00:27:49,920 --> 00:27:54,720
Speaker 1: and just like being in a flow, masculine energy is

547
00:27:54,760 --> 00:27:56,479
Speaker 1: like I'm gonna hunt, I'm gonna go get and I'm

548
00:27:56,480 --> 00:27:59,560
Speaker 1: gonna make it happen. But you're on the other side

549
00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:02,760
Speaker 1: and that still so powerful and it takes a lot

550
00:28:02,800 --> 00:28:05,240
Speaker 1: of power to allow yourself to do that.

551
00:28:05,240 --> 00:28:07,920
Speaker 2: Especially when you naturally operate the other way.

552
00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:08,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, go getters.

553
00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:11,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm a natural goal getter. So for me to

554
00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:15,680
Speaker 2: be like, we just ride this wave. Yeah, let me see,

555
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:17,680
Speaker 2: we just ride it. See how it feels. It's actually

556
00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:19,240
Speaker 2: kind of cool. I'm into it.

557
00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:20,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's empowered.

558
00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:23,080
Speaker 2: Well, breath work might be good for me though, you

559
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:29,160
Speaker 2: might try that. Sure, all right, culinary school, I love

560
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:32,360
Speaker 2: that for you? Speaking of new things, what has that

561
00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:33,200
Speaker 2: been like for you?

562
00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:37,520
Speaker 1: It's actually been one of the best decisions I've ever made.

563
00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:40,000
Speaker 2: Are you were going to be? Are you really gonna

564
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:40,960
Speaker 2: take this all the way?

565
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:44,240
Speaker 1: To be a chef for I don't plan on working

566
00:28:44,240 --> 00:28:46,320
Speaker 1: at a restaurant full time, but I do want to

567
00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:50,440
Speaker 1: make things happen in the culinary space. So I can

568
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 1: imagine having something on the shelves grocery stores I'm wanting.

569
00:28:57,840 --> 00:28:59,720
Speaker 1: I mean, people fell in love with my cookies, so

570
00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:02,960
Speaker 1: ill a business called Sweet Moonnaise. I haven't really launched

571
00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,440
Speaker 1: it yet, but I think my goal on tour would

572
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:09,320
Speaker 1: be to have the Sweet Moonnaise cookie truck trailing my

573
00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:12,520
Speaker 1: tour bus and so people can get merchant cookies there

574
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:15,760
Speaker 1: I feel like fa. I mean, it's in the it's

575
00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:20,440
Speaker 1: in the manifesto. I also have a series called Saucy

576
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:23,400
Speaker 1: Sundays that I've been doing. We're on Sundays, I will

577
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:26,560
Speaker 1: just give different mesip, piece of different sauces. I really

578
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 1: think that sauce changes the dynamic of any food, like

579
00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:33,520
Speaker 1: the same pasta a whole bunch of different sauces, like

580
00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:37,360
Speaker 1: can really eat then that's seven meals in a week,

581
00:29:37,480 --> 00:29:41,680
Speaker 1: like or the rice, whatever sauce to fish with whatever

582
00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 1: sauce like just opens up really in a really simple way,

583
00:29:45,640 --> 00:29:50,160
Speaker 1: ways for people to change the way they're cooking. So

584
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:52,680
Speaker 1: I want probably to have that on the shelves.

585
00:29:52,760 --> 00:29:56,720
Speaker 2: You're probably like a dream girlfriend, you think.

586
00:29:56,800 --> 00:29:59,160
Speaker 1: So I'm so single though.

587
00:30:01,080 --> 00:30:03,040
Speaker 2: The cooking is not is not attracting me.

588
00:30:03,120 --> 00:30:04,720
Speaker 1: I mean, hello, anybody want to.

589
00:30:05,760 --> 00:30:08,160
Speaker 2: Why are you single? Though? Because you want to be

590
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:11,800
Speaker 2: because I would imagine there's options.

591
00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:15,400
Speaker 1: There is a lot of options. But I am so

592
00:30:15,560 --> 00:30:21,680
Speaker 1: busy doing all the side cuts. I don't know, working

593
00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:22,760
Speaker 1: cookie like I don't.

594
00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:25,520
Speaker 2: Be making albums again, prepping for Brunomor's Toork.

595
00:30:25,760 --> 00:30:29,400
Speaker 1: Yes, it's a lot, and I think the season says

596
00:30:29,440 --> 00:30:31,280
Speaker 1: to me that, like I do need to continue to

597
00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:34,400
Speaker 1: focus on myself, but I'm probably also preparing for that

598
00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:37,880
Speaker 1: right person. Like every everything that I'm becoming is probably

599
00:30:38,480 --> 00:30:40,840
Speaker 1: hopefully what he's also doing, so that when we meet

600
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,360
Speaker 1: where the people were supposed to be and we're together

601
00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:48,160
Speaker 1: and it actually lasts, you know, hopefully. But you said,

602
00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:51,880
Speaker 1: he hey, yeah, well only because.

603
00:30:52,040 --> 00:30:54,160
Speaker 2: Look, because you've been open about.

604
00:30:54,720 --> 00:30:58,760
Speaker 1: The girls, dirty dirty no, the girl, girl, the girl.

605
00:30:58,880 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 2: Really this is not ever something I've ever explored. But

606
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:06,440
Speaker 2: I would always imagine that girls would be easier to matter.

607
00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 1: Really my experience has been there but worse. Yeah.

608
00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:14,360
Speaker 2: Hell so maybe just bad picking.

609
00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:19,400
Speaker 1: Maybe yeah, maybe it's that. But also like girls, they

610
00:31:19,760 --> 00:31:24,000
Speaker 1: don't really approach me seriously. They approach me like, oh,

611
00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:27,360
Speaker 1: like sensually, and I'm like, well, I would want it

612
00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:30,880
Speaker 1: to be something more serious, and I haven't really gotten

613
00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 1: that approach from many women. They're just like, oh, she's beautiful,

614
00:31:34,680 --> 00:31:37,440
Speaker 1: she's attractive, or like talking about my body and stuff.

615
00:31:37,480 --> 00:31:40,040
Speaker 2: So yeah, it's like a sex thing.

616
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:44,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, so maybe they don't take me seriously. But when

617
00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:48,280
Speaker 1: I think of my next relationship, I've been in a

618
00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:52,600
Speaker 1: space where I want because I'm feeling so feminine, like

619
00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:55,120
Speaker 1: I want the opposite energy, and I'm feeling like a

620
00:31:55,160 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 1: masculine Maybe it's a masculine woman. I'm not sure. I've

621
00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:01,320
Speaker 1: never really tried that. The women that I've dated or

622
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 1: like have been like sexy too, yeah, a little bit

623
00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:07,520
Speaker 1: fim a little bit more like in the middle or

624
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:13,640
Speaker 1: more fem than masculine. But I also think about like

625
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:19,240
Speaker 1: children and just like be thrown against the wall. So

626
00:32:19,240 --> 00:32:23,600
Speaker 1: I'm so weak. I feminine, like just the masculine figure.

627
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:25,960
Speaker 1: So in my head, I think it might be a guy.

628
00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:28,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's where you're at right now, right now, change

629
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:32,520
Speaker 2: because you have because you're open that you have so

630
00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 2: many more options than some than somebody who just dates

631
00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:39,400
Speaker 2: you know you would you would think, I think that

632
00:32:39,440 --> 00:32:41,720
Speaker 2: you would have so many more options because you're open

633
00:32:41,800 --> 00:32:42,960
Speaker 2: to more.

634
00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:48,600
Speaker 1: You would think, but not really like they're the ladies, aren't.

635
00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:51,800
Speaker 1: They're not aggressive with me or approaching me in a

636
00:32:51,880 --> 00:32:52,520
Speaker 1: serious way.

637
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:53,959
Speaker 2: It's more to you know what's going to happen now

638
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:55,080
Speaker 2: because you've said that out.

639
00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:57,120
Speaker 1: Loud, Now, my dms are going to be lit with women.

640
00:32:57,240 --> 00:33:00,320
Speaker 2: I'm I don't know what you have before them, different

641
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:02,520
Speaker 2: kind of that type of talk.

642
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 1: Hey hello, I'm single. So the options are do.

643
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:08,640
Speaker 2: You like being single or is like love and finding

644
00:33:08,640 --> 00:33:11,560
Speaker 2: a partner and somebody like to kind of navigate this

645
00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:12,560
Speaker 2: really important to you.

646
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:15,480
Speaker 1: I'm such a lover girl, and I think maybe that

647
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,800
Speaker 1: might be the caveat about me, just because when I'm

648
00:33:18,840 --> 00:33:21,960
Speaker 1: in a relationship, it's I'm all about that person. I'm

649
00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:25,720
Speaker 1: all about being of service and helping them make their

650
00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:30,520
Speaker 1: life better, and you know, surprises and like I get

651
00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:33,680
Speaker 1: a little bit distracted. The butterfly lands on the rock

652
00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:40,840
Speaker 1: flower like then stays it just stays there.

653
00:33:38,480 --> 00:33:43,360
Speaker 2: One of those girls. Yeah, it take you off your focus.

654
00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:43,120
Speaker 1: A little bit.

655
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:45,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, so maybe that's why you don't have it yet.

656
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think this season is really about the growth

657
00:33:49,000 --> 00:33:51,600
Speaker 1: that I need to do to focus and focusing on

658
00:33:52,480 --> 00:33:56,160
Speaker 1: my tasks because maybe that's one of the reasons why

659
00:33:56,160 --> 00:33:58,000
Speaker 1: things took a little bit longer, because I've been in

660
00:33:58,080 --> 00:34:02,440
Speaker 1: really long relationships like six year relationship, three relationship, four

661
00:34:02,480 --> 00:34:05,680
Speaker 1: year relationship always, So it might be best for now.

662
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:07,480
Speaker 2: When was the last time you've had a stretch of

663
00:34:07,520 --> 00:34:08,440
Speaker 2: being single.

664
00:34:09,880 --> 00:34:10,800
Speaker 1: Before Hazel?

665
00:34:11,120 --> 00:34:11,440
Speaker 2: Wow?

666
00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:16,439
Speaker 1: And I think that was maybe like two years, three

667
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:21,120
Speaker 1: years in between, but yeah, before Hazel.

668
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:21,879
Speaker 2: So you may need this time.

669
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:23,839
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, it's already been two and a half

670
00:34:23,920 --> 00:34:25,160
Speaker 1: years that I'm single now.

671
00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:27,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, but you're doing work on yourself.

672
00:34:27,520 --> 00:34:28,439
Speaker 1: I'm doing pretty good.

673
00:34:28,520 --> 00:34:30,760
Speaker 2: You made a mom. Your daughter's gorgeous.

674
00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:31,359
Speaker 1: Thank you.

675
00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:34,440
Speaker 2: How's co parenting going.

676
00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:38,799
Speaker 1: Like it's so easy, which is I'm like, it's not

677
00:34:38,880 --> 00:34:42,840
Speaker 1: other people's experience. So I'm so thankful to have a

678
00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:48,880
Speaker 1: co parent that really understands and we're not spiteful picking

679
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:50,840
Speaker 1: up the slack. At first, it was a bit difficult

680
00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:55,680
Speaker 1: because you know, there was still that attachment there and

681
00:34:55,719 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 1: still feelings. But as we grew, we made a commitment that, like,

682
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:04,160
Speaker 1: no matter what, Hazel will not see any negativity. We're

683
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:07,719
Speaker 1: not going to put our business online, We're not going

684
00:35:07,800 --> 00:35:10,319
Speaker 1: to argue. There's going to be a tone on which

685
00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:12,400
Speaker 1: we talk to each other with respect. We're going to

686
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 1: be compromising. So if he needs something on his schedule

687
00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:17,880
Speaker 1: that I have to commentate for, we do that and

688
00:35:17,960 --> 00:35:22,040
Speaker 1: vice versa. Like, it's been really great, So I'm really lucky,

689
00:35:22,360 --> 00:35:22,919
Speaker 1: really lucky.

690
00:35:23,040 --> 00:35:25,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, and you split it up. We had we just

691
00:35:25,400 --> 00:35:28,160
Speaker 2: had Emma Greed on the pod right.

692
00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:28,919
Speaker 1: Oh she's great.

693
00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:31,759
Speaker 2: Yeah, she's super dope, super smart. But interesting thing about

694
00:35:31,800 --> 00:35:34,120
Speaker 2: her in her marriage because she's married to her business

695
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:35,040
Speaker 2: like her business partner.

696
00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:35,799
Speaker 1: Oh, I don't know that.

697
00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:39,399
Speaker 2: Yeah, he's a brilliant businessman too. And we were talking

698
00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:43,840
Speaker 2: about the roles of mother and father. There's like things

699
00:35:43,840 --> 00:35:49,240
Speaker 2: that people expect. It's not a fifty to fifty thing, no,

700
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:52,280
Speaker 2: you know, and it's not expected to be a fifty

701
00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:54,360
Speaker 2: to fifty thing, which is why she's like raising eyebrows

702
00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:56,200
Speaker 2: and rubbing people the wrong way because she's like, no,

703
00:35:56,280 --> 00:36:00,160
Speaker 2: it's a fifty to fifty thing like she requires or

704
00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:03,160
Speaker 2: is that of her husband, and he does it like

705
00:36:03,239 --> 00:36:05,640
Speaker 2: he wants to do that. They have that relationship where

706
00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:10,040
Speaker 2: it's like he does actually half of the parenting, okay,

707
00:36:10,680 --> 00:36:13,200
Speaker 2: and she does half of the parents Okay. Could you

708
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:15,799
Speaker 2: imagine that? I mean, I mean.

709
00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,439
Speaker 1: That works for them. If that works for them, that's great.

710
00:36:18,480 --> 00:36:21,840
Speaker 1: I feel like with scheduling and with you know, I

711
00:36:21,920 --> 00:36:24,239
Speaker 1: don't know, I don't know how I would technically divide it.

712
00:36:24,880 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 2: Well, they're in the same house. It probably makes it easier,

713
00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:29,319
Speaker 2: got it. Cold parenting is different, I guess in different houses. Yeah,

714
00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:31,520
Speaker 2: but just the idea of that what's expected really of

715
00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:35,240
Speaker 2: women and mothers, and I think we kind of also

716
00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:37,120
Speaker 2: we want it that.

717
00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:40,600
Speaker 1: Way, right, you like to have more responsible.

718
00:36:40,120 --> 00:36:42,640
Speaker 2: It's just the mother is like, yeah, this is a

719
00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:49,359
Speaker 2: certain thing that moms they're like usually, God, I don't

720
00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:52,719
Speaker 2: want to be disrespectful to all the amazing funds. I'm

721
00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:54,520
Speaker 2: just saying a lot of things fall on us.

722
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, nature by nature.

723
00:36:58,200 --> 00:36:59,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, it comes to parenting.

724
00:36:59,640 --> 00:37:05,120
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm like the way that we're co parenting,

725
00:37:05,480 --> 00:37:08,520
Speaker 1: I'm in the new school wave because I don't feel

726
00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:11,759
Speaker 1: like I mean, he's he does her hair when she's

727
00:37:11,800 --> 00:37:15,600
Speaker 1: at his house. It's like you would think like these

728
00:37:15,640 --> 00:37:19,000
Speaker 1: there are certain things that he has to do one

729
00:37:19,080 --> 00:37:21,640
Speaker 1: hundred percent while she's there, and I do one hundred

730
00:37:21,680 --> 00:37:25,000
Speaker 1: percent while she's with me. So in a way we're

731
00:37:25,040 --> 00:37:26,680
Speaker 1: both one hundred.

732
00:37:27,320 --> 00:37:27,759
Speaker 2: That's great.

733
00:37:27,800 --> 00:37:30,160
Speaker 1: I guess, like just depending on who's how she's at.

734
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:33,959
Speaker 1: But I'm you know, I'm kind of wondering what she'll

735
00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:36,640
Speaker 1: feel as she grows up, because right now it feels

736
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:38,560
Speaker 1: like she's like, oh, I have two of everything, I

737
00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:41,480
Speaker 1: have two houses. Like she's kind of in that phase,

738
00:37:41,520 --> 00:37:45,360
Speaker 1: and I wonder when she's going to be like I

739
00:37:45,400 --> 00:37:47,440
Speaker 1: think you guys are supposed to be in one place,

740
00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:51,719
Speaker 1: like more observant. Maybe maybe maybe, and I hope it's

741
00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:53,879
Speaker 1: just like it's normal for her. It just becomes part

742
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:56,000
Speaker 1: of her life and that she doesn't feel like she

743
00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,680
Speaker 1: doesn't have any one place to ground. It's almost like

744
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:02,680
Speaker 1: she's all is with a go bag, you know, Like

745
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think about that as well.

746
00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:08,880
Speaker 2: So I don't know, none of us could get it

747
00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:11,480
Speaker 2: one hundred and then you think you get it right,

748
00:38:11,520 --> 00:38:13,400
Speaker 2: and then it stills up and it's like, you know

749
00:38:13,440 --> 00:38:18,400
Speaker 2: what really bothered me when I was you know, saying

750
00:38:18,440 --> 00:38:20,840
Speaker 2: like my mother was amazing, I still had to go

751
00:38:20,880 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 2: to therapy. Yeah, my mother was. My mother is like

752
00:38:23,400 --> 00:38:29,440
Speaker 2: the most morally grounded human, loving human being, and I

753
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:33,000
Speaker 2: still had to go to therapy. So it's like just

754
00:38:33,120 --> 00:38:33,640
Speaker 2: do our best.

755
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:39,960
Speaker 1: We just it's almost like it's it's a relative like

756
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:51,200
Speaker 1: if if and this house losing losing a dollar is detrimental.

757
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:54,960
Speaker 1: In this house, losing five dollars is detrimental, But the

758
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:57,480
Speaker 1: feeling is the same. Like the amount of trauma or

759
00:38:57,520 --> 00:39:00,200
Speaker 1: whatever it was, maybe wasn't the same intensity, but you

760
00:39:00,320 --> 00:39:04,839
Speaker 1: felt the same. And maybe that's a point of all

761
00:39:04,880 --> 00:39:08,160
Speaker 1: of us to just you get gifted the parents that

762
00:39:08,200 --> 00:39:13,120
Speaker 1: you need in order to you know, transport you to

763
00:39:13,200 --> 00:39:16,480
Speaker 1: the life you want to have, or gives you the

764
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:20,520
Speaker 1: parents that or gives you the children that you need

765
00:39:20,880 --> 00:39:24,239
Speaker 1: to fix certain flaws, or give you patients if that's

766
00:39:24,239 --> 00:39:27,440
Speaker 1: what you needed, or give you more understanding, give you

767
00:39:27,520 --> 00:39:32,080
Speaker 1: more communication skills, like you're partnered up parent and child

768
00:39:32,600 --> 00:39:35,040
Speaker 1: with exactly what it is you need in order to

769
00:39:35,120 --> 00:39:37,400
Speaker 1: fix or be better for the school of life.

770
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 2: Basically, that's pretty good. What have you learned from your daughter?

771
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:47,560
Speaker 1: Patience for patience because that she's so funny and she's great,

772
00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:51,799
Speaker 1: but she has a mouth on her. She'd be talking crazy.

773
00:39:52,600 --> 00:39:55,480
Speaker 2: So I have to breathe. Breath work, breath work.

774
00:39:57,000 --> 00:40:00,239
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, I'm really excited for you to tour.

775
00:40:00,320 --> 00:40:01,799
Speaker 2: Feels like it's going to be a really big deal.

776
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:05,920
Speaker 1: Right, I'm screaming about it. I'm screaming about it. I

777
00:40:05,960 --> 00:40:10,080
Speaker 1: literally just went to go see the show in Vegas.

778
00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 1: Was it last weekend? I think it was just past weekend. Yeah,

779
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:15,480
Speaker 1: his opening night was on Friday. So I went to

780
00:40:15,560 --> 00:40:17,799
Speaker 1: the second show and so I got to see DJ

781
00:40:17,920 --> 00:40:21,720
Speaker 1: pee Wee, Leon Thomas and then Bruno. Also just getting

782
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:24,000
Speaker 1: a scope of what it's going to look like when

783
00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:26,480
Speaker 1: I go. So it was fun. But also market research

784
00:40:26,840 --> 00:40:30,240
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh shit, this is crazy.

785
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:32,480
Speaker 2: Does that excite you and scare you or.

786
00:40:33,480 --> 00:40:36,439
Speaker 1: It definitely makes It's like I am the fire horse.

787
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:40,200
Speaker 1: There's like a whip that makes me go faster. It's like, uh,

788
00:40:41,040 --> 00:40:44,799
Speaker 1: I want to make sure that I'm fully prepared and

789
00:40:45,400 --> 00:40:49,720
Speaker 1: just you know, I've I've prepared technically my whole life

790
00:40:49,880 --> 00:40:53,400
Speaker 1: for these moments, but especially now, just keeping in mind

791
00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 1: the environment that I'm going to be in and the

792
00:40:55,600 --> 00:40:57,000
Speaker 1: gift that it is to be able to be on

793
00:40:57,040 --> 00:41:00,000
Speaker 1: that stage, and the gratitude. Go operate on this day

794
00:41:00,280 --> 00:41:03,759
Speaker 1: with that gratitude, but also just don't take it for

795
00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:07,960
Speaker 1: granted or just take advantage of the opportunity and we're

796
00:41:08,040 --> 00:41:10,880
Speaker 1: really hollered. Go kill it. Yeah, so maybe the clouse

797
00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:13,280
Speaker 1: need to come back out for the just the rehearsals

798
00:41:13,320 --> 00:41:13,719
Speaker 1: for tour.

799
00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:15,840
Speaker 2: How did that happen? Did you know Rono or was

800
00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:17,960
Speaker 2: it the teams or he ask for you?

801
00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:20,880
Speaker 1: I think I want to say he asked. They didn't

802
00:41:20,880 --> 00:41:24,600
Speaker 1: tell me how I was presented to him. But in

803
00:41:24,640 --> 00:41:27,440
Speaker 1: twenty twenty, I did this performance when I was I

804
00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:30,120
Speaker 1: was like four months pregnant. I had this like sparkly

805
00:41:30,160 --> 00:41:33,480
Speaker 1: green jacket hiding my pregnancy belly, and we couldn't perform

806
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:36,440
Speaker 1: out in the world because of quarantine. So I recorded

807
00:41:36,440 --> 00:41:39,160
Speaker 1: a live performance of my song and I put it

808
00:41:39,239 --> 00:41:42,760
Speaker 1: online saying I'd love to open up for Silk Sonic.

809
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:46,720
Speaker 1: That's what they were doing at the time, Radio Silence.

810
00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:49,359
Speaker 1: I think they maybe liked it or something, but like

811
00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:52,080
Speaker 1: no one was like, yeah, come come to our Vegas

812
00:41:52,080 --> 00:41:54,359
Speaker 1: residency or come on tour with us or any of that.

813
00:41:54,840 --> 00:41:59,319
Speaker 1: Lo and Behold. Five years later is when I got

814
00:41:59,400 --> 00:41:59,719
Speaker 1: the call.

815
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:02,720
Speaker 2: So were you like manifesting this moment? I believe.

816
00:42:02,800 --> 00:42:05,440
Speaker 1: So it seems to be that when I write something

817
00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:07,640
Speaker 1: down and I think about it and I want it

818
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:11,520
Speaker 1: bad enough, may not happen that day or that year,

819
00:42:11,600 --> 00:42:12,560
Speaker 1: but eventually it.

820
00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:16,799
Speaker 2: Just wait a minute, So you do this, perform a

821
00:42:16,920 --> 00:42:20,479
Speaker 2: full performance with the idea that I want to open

822
00:42:20,520 --> 00:42:23,560
Speaker 2: for Bruno and so sod Yeah, And so that's a

823
00:42:23,920 --> 00:42:27,200
Speaker 2: like manifestation of like you're putting yourself like if you

824
00:42:27,320 --> 00:42:28,399
Speaker 2: build it, they will come.

825
00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 1: You can't.

826
00:42:29,320 --> 00:42:30,600
Speaker 2: It's really something to that.

827
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:36,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, very Noah built the arc. Yeah, I mean, I

828
00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:39,440
Speaker 1: just I've always been inspired by Bruno. I was signed

829
00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:42,239
Speaker 1: to Atlantic at one point and he was there, and

830
00:42:42,280 --> 00:42:45,719
Speaker 1: I noticed how he had this song with Bob called

831
00:42:45,719 --> 00:42:48,480
Speaker 1: Beautiful Girls, and he was on the hook. And right

832
00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:51,360
Speaker 1: after that he went into his own career and was

833
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:54,440
Speaker 1: killing it. And I thought to myself, why don't you

834
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:56,480
Speaker 1: try that, Victoria, Just do a little bit of what

835
00:42:56,520 --> 00:42:58,560
Speaker 1: he did and see if you can do the same thing.

836
00:42:58,600 --> 00:43:01,160
Speaker 1: So for a while I was just writing hooks and

837
00:43:01,200 --> 00:43:04,560
Speaker 1: sending them to Atlantic. They have a long roster of rappers,

838
00:43:04,640 --> 00:43:07,640
Speaker 1: so it's like, maybe I could be take that path,

839
00:43:07,680 --> 00:43:10,640
Speaker 1: like have a rap song, you know, blow up, and

840
00:43:10,680 --> 00:43:12,520
Speaker 1: then be on the hook, be on the hook, and

841
00:43:12,520 --> 00:43:14,840
Speaker 1: then that would lead to my own singles, which is

842
00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:17,279
Speaker 1: how I ended up being on songs with Nas and

843
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:20,880
Speaker 1: Ti and writing with Meek Mill. Like I just became

844
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:24,319
Speaker 1: the hook rap hook girl for a sex. So I

845
00:43:24,360 --> 00:43:29,160
Speaker 1: appreciate that for sure, but just just reminded me that

846
00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:33,880
Speaker 1: like your ideas, you just may take some time for

847
00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:36,839
Speaker 1: them to come to fruition, just like a seed. Like

848
00:43:36,920 --> 00:43:39,160
Speaker 1: when you plan a seed, you don't see what's going on,

849
00:43:39,200 --> 00:43:41,680
Speaker 1: but there's lots going on under the soil. You don't

850
00:43:41,680 --> 00:43:43,680
Speaker 1: see it till it's above the soil. And so these

851
00:43:43,760 --> 00:43:46,439
Speaker 1: moments like me going on to it. Bruno feels like, Oh,

852
00:43:46,840 --> 00:43:48,840
Speaker 1: I'm out of the Oh you're out of the soil,

853
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:50,640
Speaker 1: out of the soil on this one. Yeah, the seed

854
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:52,080
Speaker 1: was planted in twenty twenty.

855
00:43:52,239 --> 00:43:56,759
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, you really are a wool girl. I

856
00:43:56,760 --> 00:43:59,880
Speaker 2: don't even need to fully embrace this. You've meditated a

857
00:44:00,200 --> 00:44:04,440
Speaker 2: no Mars tour. You know what I'm saying. You just

858
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,360
Speaker 2: change your whole animal. You went from a jaguar to

859
00:44:07,400 --> 00:44:08,919
Speaker 2: a butterfly in the past year.

860
00:44:09,920 --> 00:44:12,560
Speaker 1: It really might be a woo girl, you know what, low.

861
00:44:12,440 --> 00:44:16,239
Speaker 2: Key I think you're manifesting. Also, this next relationship that

862
00:44:16,239 --> 00:44:19,520
Speaker 2: you're about to be in right now, you're doing that

863
00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:24,080
Speaker 2: right now. You're in the season of like planting those seeds. Yeah,

864
00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:26,520
Speaker 2: that'll be fun to say when that, when that blooms.

865
00:44:26,680 --> 00:44:30,280
Speaker 1: That's interesting because I do like I feel like it's

866
00:44:30,320 --> 00:44:33,719
Speaker 1: happening music musically as well, because my next single is

867
00:44:33,719 --> 00:44:38,160
Speaker 1: called single, and it basically just says I'm seeing it's

868
00:44:38,160 --> 00:44:42,880
Speaker 1: like a single another summoning you are.

869
00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:45,160
Speaker 2: It's it's gonna come in a way.

870
00:44:45,480 --> 00:44:47,040
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call you immediately, like.

871
00:44:49,560 --> 00:44:51,359
Speaker 2: I really want you to, I really want to know,

872
00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:55,399
Speaker 2: I really want updates on that. Yes, speaking of singles.

873
00:44:55,880 --> 00:44:57,880
Speaker 2: Was just looking at some of the lyrics of this single.

874
00:44:58,560 --> 00:45:00,560
Speaker 2: Where did I do with that card? A card of

875
00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:03,719
Speaker 2: your lyrics? So some of the lyrics on your let

876
00:45:03,840 --> 00:45:07,279
Speaker 2: me let me be your ride or die, let me

877
00:45:07,320 --> 00:45:10,200
Speaker 2: love you back to life, let me give you peace

878
00:45:10,239 --> 00:45:15,840
Speaker 2: of mind. Ride or die is a triggering term for me.

879
00:45:17,440 --> 00:45:20,920
Speaker 2: It comes up on the pot we had DMX's wife

880
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:21,920
Speaker 2: to share on.

881
00:45:22,160 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 1: Okay, we were.

882
00:45:23,480 --> 00:45:26,960
Speaker 2: Talking about ride or die? Is write or die? What

883
00:45:27,000 --> 00:45:28,480
Speaker 2: does it mean to you? First of all, what does

884
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:31,840
Speaker 2: ride or die mean to you? Because you know, depending

885
00:45:31,880 --> 00:45:34,400
Speaker 2: on what we're working with, write or die could be

886
00:45:35,480 --> 00:45:37,640
Speaker 2: toxic and traumatized.

887
00:45:38,680 --> 00:45:41,200
Speaker 1: That's true, And I guess it depends on who you're

888
00:45:41,239 --> 00:45:43,919
Speaker 1: singing it to, which you should have the choice in. Yeah,

889
00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,640
Speaker 1: of course, So I don't think you should be dying

890
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:48,359
Speaker 1: for real, Like.

891
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:50,080
Speaker 2: No, we don't want to die poetry guys.

892
00:45:50,280 --> 00:45:55,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, please please the dye. But but just for me.

893
00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:59,080
Speaker 1: It means if you tell me your flaws or you're

894
00:45:59,080 --> 00:46:02,680
Speaker 1: exposing something you feel like you're insecure about and your vulnerabilities,

895
00:46:02,719 --> 00:46:05,480
Speaker 1: and I'll still ride for you and I can handle

896
00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:08,759
Speaker 1: those things, is what I'm saying. I don't mean if

897
00:46:08,760 --> 00:46:11,520
Speaker 1: you're wrong we're wrong together, and we're all on the

898
00:46:11,560 --> 00:46:14,200
Speaker 1: sword together, like we're not riding into the sunset on

899
00:46:14,280 --> 00:46:18,399
Speaker 1: that vibe. It's more so just like I got you,

900
00:46:18,840 --> 00:46:21,279
Speaker 1: I got you, like they're you're gonna like me. You

901
00:46:21,320 --> 00:46:25,200
Speaker 1: go through so many phases of yourself. I don't expect

902
00:46:25,239 --> 00:46:27,160
Speaker 1: you to be the same person you were five years ago.

903
00:46:27,160 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 1: And if you can't maintain one of the qualities that

904
00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:33,960
Speaker 1: I like, I'll tell we can have that conversation. But

905
00:46:34,040 --> 00:46:37,080
Speaker 1: it doesn't mean that I'm leaving you. You know, I understand,

906
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:39,239
Speaker 1: and I'm giving you the freedom and the space to

907
00:46:39,760 --> 00:46:44,560
Speaker 1: make your changes, and I'm gonna ride for you as

908
00:46:44,560 --> 00:46:47,560
Speaker 1: long as it feels. You know, we're talking about still

909
00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 1: being respectful. We're talking still. I'm not saying like, go

910
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:54,000
Speaker 1: ahead and cheat and I'm gonna still be here, Like

911
00:46:54,040 --> 00:46:56,520
Speaker 1: not any of those toxic traits, but more so just

912
00:46:57,000 --> 00:46:59,840
Speaker 1: making sure that people know that because they're imperfect, that

913
00:47:00,280 --> 00:47:03,240
Speaker 1: mean that they don't deserve love. Love.

914
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:06,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, whoa, it's such a little poet.

915
00:47:06,400 --> 00:47:08,640
Speaker 1: I'm a lover girl. Look, this is just very poet

916
00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:09,440
Speaker 1: vibes right now.

917
00:47:09,600 --> 00:47:12,200
Speaker 2: Put your poet head on. You're doing your woo woo.

918
00:47:12,280 --> 00:47:14,040
Speaker 2: Well here doing your breath work.

919
00:47:14,120 --> 00:47:17,080
Speaker 1: I need to go talk to Erica honestly, like, so,

920
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:18,040
Speaker 1: what's next?

921
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:21,399
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922
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938
00:48:09,760 --> 00:48:12,279
Speaker 2: segments we got to do. Okay, life, should we do

939
00:48:12,320 --> 00:48:15,320
Speaker 2: our ball or our voice note first, so we have

940
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:19,200
Speaker 2: a segment is our voice note segment? Okay, listener, a

941
00:48:19,239 --> 00:48:20,759
Speaker 2: fan of the podcast is either a question or a

942
00:48:20,840 --> 00:48:21,480
Speaker 2: comment for you.

943
00:48:21,560 --> 00:48:24,279
Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, let's have it.

944
00:48:29,840 --> 00:48:30,200
Speaker 2: Aria.

945
00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:32,960
Speaker 3: My name is David. I'm from New Jersey. One of

946
00:48:33,040 --> 00:48:36,279
Speaker 3: my favorite songs of yours is Experience with you and

947
00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:39,440
Speaker 3: Kleid and SG Lewis, would you ever do an album

948
00:48:39,480 --> 00:48:43,200
Speaker 3: based on that type of music, you know, like Calvin

949
00:48:43,239 --> 00:48:47,520
Speaker 3: Harris disclosures z something along with the EDM lines. I

950
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:50,080
Speaker 3: love how you're able to experiment with all these different

951
00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:53,080
Speaker 3: genres and you're still very much you and you're authentic

952
00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:55,279
Speaker 3: and you just make so good music, Like I just

953
00:48:55,320 --> 00:48:57,319
Speaker 3: want to dance and you know, like would you ever

954
00:48:57,440 --> 00:48:59,799
Speaker 3: tap into that? And I can't wait to see you

955
00:49:00,040 --> 00:49:02,719
Speaker 3: open for Brutal Mars. I'm going to International, like I

956
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,839
Speaker 3: bought my ticket already. I'm so excited. Thank you so much,

957
00:49:06,880 --> 00:49:07,799
Speaker 3: so sweet.

958
00:49:07,560 --> 00:49:11,960
Speaker 1: So sweet. He said his name was Daniel, right, David, Hey, David.

959
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:15,880
Speaker 1: He said up Tempos? Would you ever do a project

960
00:49:15,880 --> 00:49:19,200
Speaker 1: of up? And the answer is yes. I wanted to

961
00:49:19,200 --> 00:49:22,040
Speaker 1: do a project with Kate Tranada. Actually, oh wow, Dmile

962
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:24,960
Speaker 1: and Kate Trinada and I don't think that's out off

963
00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:28,280
Speaker 1: the table. I would love to do that. I think

964
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:29,920
Speaker 1: that music is so fun to me.

965
00:49:30,719 --> 00:49:32,640
Speaker 2: And then you can perform perform it.

966
00:49:32,840 --> 00:49:37,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like I definitely also see the crowds and like

967
00:49:37,440 --> 00:49:40,320
Speaker 1: a Coachella space and like those those types of vibes

968
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:42,560
Speaker 1: and energy feel would feel really good on that type

969
00:49:42,600 --> 00:49:45,560
Speaker 1: of stage. So yes, I would love to do a

970
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:49,600
Speaker 1: project like that, and also with the DJ like Calvin

971
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:53,719
Speaker 1: Harris or anybody you know, upcome, up and coming, like

972
00:49:54,920 --> 00:49:56,719
Speaker 1: absolutely for sure.

973
00:49:57,000 --> 00:50:00,279
Speaker 2: Okay in real life questions ready, yeah, well life, what

974
00:50:00,280 --> 00:50:02,120
Speaker 2: are you most proud of about yourself?

975
00:50:05,840 --> 00:50:08,960
Speaker 1: I really think for the past year, I think my transformation.

976
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:12,840
Speaker 1: But like I've grown up like in so many ways,

977
00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:16,640
Speaker 1: and it's been really tough, and a lot of it

978
00:50:16,680 --> 00:50:21,520
Speaker 1: I did without the validation or praise from other people

979
00:50:21,560 --> 00:50:24,360
Speaker 1: because it's behind closed doors. So that makes things a

980
00:50:24,400 --> 00:50:27,719
Speaker 1: little bit tougher. When you don't have that like dopamine

981
00:50:27,800 --> 00:50:31,960
Speaker 1: or encouragement right away. It's delayed gratification, which we are

982
00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:35,480
Speaker 1: so trained to have immediately, like come like my photo today,

983
00:50:36,239 --> 00:50:40,040
Speaker 1: see me today. Yeah, So to have that delay really

984
00:50:40,080 --> 00:50:42,080
Speaker 1: taught me a lot about myself and the fact that

985
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:44,480
Speaker 1: I really want what I want, and I will go

986
00:50:44,560 --> 00:50:47,520
Speaker 1: through those dark moments alone or with my team to

987
00:50:48,480 --> 00:50:48,959
Speaker 1: get there.

988
00:50:49,360 --> 00:50:52,960
Speaker 2: So with the darkness of like, what was the what

989
00:50:53,000 --> 00:50:54,319
Speaker 2: was I mean that you want to share? I don't

990
00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:55,239
Speaker 2: know if it's something you want to show.

991
00:50:55,320 --> 00:50:58,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think last year. Last year I had a

992
00:50:58,920 --> 00:51:03,399
Speaker 1: really tough transition on my team with management and with

993
00:51:04,120 --> 00:51:07,440
Speaker 1: my agent, and then I also felt unprepared for the

994
00:51:07,480 --> 00:51:12,640
Speaker 1: next chapter. I felt lots of pressure musically because I

995
00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:15,360
Speaker 1: didn't feel like I had the right body of work

996
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:17,279
Speaker 1: to give to people, but they wanted it.

997
00:51:17,400 --> 00:51:17,600
Speaker 2: Now.

998
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:20,320
Speaker 1: A label was like there's like a lull in time

999
00:51:20,400 --> 00:51:23,920
Speaker 1: and you're losing momentum, you're getting old, or like all

1000
00:51:23,960 --> 00:51:26,120
Speaker 1: of these really negative thoughts that don't belong to me

1001
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:30,200
Speaker 1: were coming and I just felt really down. And after

1002
00:51:30,239 --> 00:51:34,480
Speaker 1: the Grammy win, the way that people celebrate you as

1003
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:39,360
Speaker 1: an underdog and the moment you win switch is really alarming.

1004
00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:42,800
Speaker 1: It's like, oh, so you don't want me to be here,

1005
00:51:42,960 --> 00:51:45,520
Speaker 1: you don't want to want me to be successful, because

1006
00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:50,920
Speaker 1: it's only great until you actually get it to some people,

1007
00:51:51,200 --> 00:51:53,360
Speaker 1: and I'm sure I'm seeing it's not the same person

1008
00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:55,920
Speaker 1: tweeting that back to back, but like the energy that

1009
00:51:55,960 --> 00:51:58,440
Speaker 1: came towards me was like, so, why did she get

1010
00:51:58,440 --> 00:52:00,680
Speaker 1: the Grammy? And she's like, she's not even an new artist,

1011
00:52:00,760 --> 00:52:03,560
Speaker 1: and like, so she doesn't have any hit songs. Like

1012
00:52:03,640 --> 00:52:05,759
Speaker 1: all of these little thoughts that were coming to me

1013
00:52:05,920 --> 00:52:10,120
Speaker 1: that I was letting them in and I was carrying it.

1014
00:52:10,680 --> 00:52:12,560
Speaker 1: And even the way that I was talking to myself

1015
00:52:12,640 --> 00:52:14,719
Speaker 1: or the pressure I was putting on myself, you could

1016
00:52:14,760 --> 00:52:16,480
Speaker 1: probably see it in my eyes that I was like

1017
00:52:17,000 --> 00:52:20,719
Speaker 1: feeling defeated for you. It was like that. So I

1018
00:52:20,760 --> 00:52:23,640
Speaker 1: think just even making a rash decision I don't even

1019
00:52:23,680 --> 00:52:25,399
Speaker 1: know if the word rash is right because I don't

1020
00:52:25,400 --> 00:52:28,000
Speaker 1: know what that means, honestly, but making the random decision

1021
00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:30,520
Speaker 1: to go to culinary school and do something that doesn't

1022
00:52:30,560 --> 00:52:33,279
Speaker 1: pay me or something that doesn't identify like.

1023
00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:35,200
Speaker 2: People, don't be out of that that.

1024
00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:38,640
Speaker 1: Rat race that you're in, that imaginary pressure that you're

1025
00:52:38,680 --> 00:52:41,480
Speaker 1: applying to yourself, and you realize, oh, you're still a

1026
00:52:41,480 --> 00:52:43,440
Speaker 1: great human even even if you didn't do not one

1027
00:52:43,520 --> 00:52:46,560
Speaker 1: more sum, you can still do so many other things.

1028
00:52:46,600 --> 00:52:49,880
Speaker 1: Like you've climbed the top of that mountain and you

1029
00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:52,160
Speaker 1: got to the place that you wanted to be. Now

1030
00:52:52,200 --> 00:52:54,120
Speaker 1: you can start at the bottom of a whole other

1031
00:52:54,200 --> 00:52:56,439
Speaker 1: mountain that has nothing to do with any of that,

1032
00:52:56,840 --> 00:52:58,799
Speaker 1: and climb to the top of that, and you can

1033
00:52:58,840 --> 00:53:00,680
Speaker 1: do that a million times over and it does not

1034
00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:04,040
Speaker 1: have to be contrived and connected and like you only

1035
00:53:04,120 --> 00:53:07,239
Speaker 1: stand on this. You're only a legend if you keep

1036
00:53:07,280 --> 00:53:09,759
Speaker 1: going on this mountain, you know what I mean. So

1037
00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:14,319
Speaker 1: that really helped me heal and the shift was necessary,

1038
00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:16,920
Speaker 1: So I think that's what led me to this.

1039
00:53:17,239 --> 00:53:19,799
Speaker 2: That also is like your whole life, you wanted to

1040
00:53:19,840 --> 00:53:23,160
Speaker 2: do this because you're a kid, you're preparing for it.

1041
00:53:23,239 --> 00:53:25,919
Speaker 2: You get this moment, it happens. It doesn't happen fast.

1042
00:53:25,920 --> 00:53:27,520
Speaker 2: You were working a long time, but you have this

1043
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:35,120
Speaker 2: explosion explosion of a year, and then that's so sad

1044
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:39,399
Speaker 2: that the other side of that was, I don't know,

1045
00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:41,000
Speaker 2: just disappointment in a way.

1046
00:53:40,880 --> 00:53:44,880
Speaker 1: Right, Yeah. Yeah, it was just a really crazy juxtaposition

1047
00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:48,160
Speaker 1: of this high that you feel like, oh my god,

1048
00:53:48,200 --> 00:53:52,480
Speaker 1: it finally happened, but then also paired with the expectations

1049
00:53:52,480 --> 00:53:55,919
Speaker 1: of how to keep it, how to maintain it, why

1050
00:53:55,960 --> 00:53:59,160
Speaker 1: you deserved it, Like all of that comes would you

1051
00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:05,840
Speaker 1: try your best to like ignore, but you sometimes you can't.

1052
00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:08,160
Speaker 2: Well, but also that now that makes sense why you

1053
00:54:08,239 --> 00:54:12,759
Speaker 2: needed to be spiritually grounded for sure, so that you

1054
00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:15,759
Speaker 2: could process all of that, all of that because it

1055
00:54:15,840 --> 00:54:17,720
Speaker 2: might have hit you differently. Had you done this work

1056
00:54:17,800 --> 00:54:20,920
Speaker 2: before that moment, you might have been able to withstand

1057
00:54:20,960 --> 00:54:22,080
Speaker 2: some of that noise a little better.

1058
00:54:22,200 --> 00:54:25,120
Speaker 1: I think. So I didn't have any practice, Like there

1059
00:54:25,200 --> 00:54:28,960
Speaker 1: was no practice, I wasn't. The only practice I knew

1060
00:54:29,120 --> 00:54:32,080
Speaker 1: is studio and work and grind and just don't sleep.

1061
00:54:32,440 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 1: That was my practice. And so now paired with the

1062
00:54:35,960 --> 00:54:38,960
Speaker 1: other modalities, I feel like I could the next round.

1063
00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:47,880
Speaker 2: Is that the goal like getting back on that on

1064
00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:49,200
Speaker 2: the mountaintop.

1065
00:54:48,600 --> 00:54:51,840
Speaker 1: Of one hundred percent, But I think it's paired with

1066
00:54:52,840 --> 00:54:56,120
Speaker 1: trying to do that while climbing other mountains as well,

1067
00:54:56,200 --> 00:55:01,440
Speaker 1: so that my my valid my value is not predicated

1068
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:05,759
Speaker 1: on just one set of goals. You know, I'm still

1069
00:55:05,800 --> 00:55:07,959
Speaker 1: a great friend. I'm still a great mom. I'm still

1070
00:55:07,960 --> 00:55:11,280
Speaker 1: a great chef, I'm still a great Tai Chiese student,

1071
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:13,640
Speaker 1: I'm still great in the gym, Like all of these

1072
00:55:13,680 --> 00:55:16,840
Speaker 1: things will add up to be a well rounded human.

1073
00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:19,160
Speaker 1: Off New York.

1074
00:55:19,480 --> 00:55:24,600
Speaker 2: Only in New York you're setting off the sirens. I

1075
00:55:24,680 --> 00:55:25,399
Speaker 2: love that for you.

1076
00:55:25,640 --> 00:55:26,080
Speaker 1: Thank you.

1077
00:55:26,239 --> 00:55:28,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, good for you. That means the mountains about to

1078
00:55:28,719 --> 00:55:31,279
Speaker 2: be bigger. What is on your bucket list that you

1079
00:55:31,320 --> 00:55:33,120
Speaker 2: have to check that you haven't done yet? What? In

1080
00:55:33,160 --> 00:55:35,720
Speaker 2: real life? What is something that you would like to accomplish?

1081
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:39,520
Speaker 1: Honestly, I want to go to Bali. Sounds like really accomplishment,

1082
00:55:39,560 --> 00:55:40,759
Speaker 1: but I'm trying to get over there.

1083
00:55:41,160 --> 00:55:47,759
Speaker 2: It's so peaceful. Well, you're so woo you need to

1084
00:55:47,800 --> 00:55:51,719
Speaker 2: go there? Yes, in real life? What is something you

1085
00:55:51,760 --> 00:55:56,840
Speaker 2: are no longer available for? Mm hmm.

1086
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Speaker 1: Ooh, I definitely I am no longer available for negative news.

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Speaker 1: I think sometimes we share tea or like just random

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Speaker 1: headlines just like we'll just we'll just repeat it and

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Speaker 1: say it to our friends. But but why do we

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Speaker 1: do that? Like what response are you trying to get

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Speaker 1: out of the other person? Like what do you need

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Speaker 1: to relate to? And so I'm trying to do less

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Speaker 1: of allowing that.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, what energy you're allowing in your space?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Because what's the purpose? Like we want to talk

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Speaker 1: about positive things. We want to be so far away

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Speaker 1: from anything negative that it doesn't even pass our mind

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Speaker 1: because we're just not tuned into that station. Oh, I

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Speaker 1: don't even know anything about that because I'm so here?

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Speaker 1: Would it like so a lot less of just like

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Speaker 1: the trauma announcements like this what's going on? The fear

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Speaker 1: mongering and all that stuff.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, you all protected and you need to protect that energy. Hey, guys,

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Speaker 2: Walden University Bowl of IRL Questions.

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Speaker 1: Dude, what does if God where to text you right now?

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Speaker 1: What would you say? What would it say?

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Speaker 2: Oh? I love This is my favorite question in the boat.

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Speaker 2: Usually if people don't get it. I ask it anyway.

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Speaker 2: I'm so happy you got it.

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Speaker 1: If God were to text you right now, what would

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Speaker 1: it say. I think it would say, I've been here

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Speaker 1: all along and I'm still here and I'll always be here.

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Speaker 1: If ever you feel confused, listen closer to me. If

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Speaker 1: ever you feel misguided, follow my light. Make sure you

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Speaker 1: say my name. Though probably I think you would say that,

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Speaker 1: or she. I think they would say that.

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Speaker 2: She's such a writer, You're so good with words. That

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Speaker 2: was beautiful. I just feel like that question is so

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Speaker 2: I don't know, it just goes right to your soul.

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Speaker 1: Oh literally that When I read it, I was like, oh,

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Speaker 1: don't cry.

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Speaker 2: I don't. I felt that, But when people answer it,

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Speaker 2: I feel the genuineness and bad.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. It's like you just read the name God and

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00:59:09,000 --> 00:59:13,400
Speaker 1: you're like, yeah, because I think I mean just where

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Speaker 1: we are. She doesn't or she doesn't if they don't

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Speaker 1: get mentioned as much as they should, and there's lots

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Speaker 1: of negative energies that try to take you away from that.

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Speaker 1: So just hear it and be able to have the

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Speaker 1: platform to talk about it. It's like, thank you, that's

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Speaker 1: really nice. Y, what's up you guys, this is Victoria

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Speaker 1: Monet in real life.

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Speaker 2: and check out all of the other episodes we have

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Speaker 2: on Age Marteene's I R O podcast