1 00:00:02,279 --> 00:00:05,520 Speaker 1: What's at the clip service. I'm Angela Ye maguire, I'm 2 00:00:05,600 --> 00:00:10,119 Speaker 1: Laura Maura Hey and a somarian. I'm so happy to 3 00:00:10,119 --> 00:00:15,600 Speaker 1: be in the presence of the queens. He did. If 4 00:00:15,600 --> 00:00:17,279 Speaker 1: you manage to get on Marian up here, because he 5 00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:20,640 Speaker 1: does have a book out right now. I'm bothered that 6 00:00:20,760 --> 00:00:24,200 Speaker 1: we use when um, when we be online and something happened, 7 00:00:24,200 --> 00:00:26,880 Speaker 1: but we went to be unbothered. But for you, it's 8 00:00:26,920 --> 00:00:29,080 Speaker 1: a real thing for sure, you know, and it's not 9 00:00:29,120 --> 00:00:30,800 Speaker 1: what people might think it is. And you start off 10 00:00:30,840 --> 00:00:33,520 Speaker 1: the book explaining what it means to be unbothered. Yes, 11 00:00:33,760 --> 00:00:36,320 Speaker 1: and UM, I think that this is a power tool, 12 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:39,880 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, and a guide to emotional intelligence, 13 00:00:40,040 --> 00:00:42,919 Speaker 1: you know. Um, so far often you know what I mean, 14 00:00:43,040 --> 00:00:45,920 Speaker 1: we are reacting to things that really don't surf us. 15 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:48,159 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. When you're thoughtful, you take 16 00:00:48,159 --> 00:00:51,080 Speaker 1: a step back and you decide to respond. It really 17 00:00:51,280 --> 00:00:54,240 Speaker 1: serves a lesson and a blessing. So you know, this 18 00:00:54,240 --> 00:00:57,080 Speaker 1: book is a tool for people that you know need 19 00:00:57,120 --> 00:00:59,600 Speaker 1: a little help. You know. Um, I have journal props 20 00:00:59,600 --> 00:01:04,120 Speaker 1: in there, I have mantras, I have breathing exercises, so 21 00:01:04,360 --> 00:01:07,360 Speaker 1: we fully tap in and go in word. You know 22 00:01:07,360 --> 00:01:09,440 Speaker 1: what I mean with this book. So if you're a 23 00:01:09,440 --> 00:01:11,679 Speaker 1: book buff, or even if you just want to level up, 24 00:01:11,720 --> 00:01:14,080 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, grab the book. It's amazing. 25 00:01:14,560 --> 00:01:16,680 Speaker 1: Now this is lip service. So how can these things 26 00:01:16,720 --> 00:01:24,440 Speaker 1: help in the bedroom too? Yeah? It all works. You know. 27 00:01:24,959 --> 00:01:27,080 Speaker 1: I would call that like really diving in. You know 28 00:01:27,120 --> 00:01:30,480 Speaker 1: what I'm saying to the physical and mental experience of love. 29 00:01:30,680 --> 00:01:33,360 Speaker 1: You know what I mean, Like we were talking about, 30 00:01:33,440 --> 00:01:35,960 Speaker 1: you know earlier. You know what I'm saying in reference 31 00:01:36,000 --> 00:01:39,360 Speaker 1: to love. In order to have those experiences and realize 32 00:01:39,360 --> 00:01:42,280 Speaker 1: those things, you got to actually like who you're with, 33 00:01:42,440 --> 00:01:44,399 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Um, it goes past the 34 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:47,800 Speaker 1: physical level. When you start doing breath work and you 35 00:01:47,880 --> 00:01:51,200 Speaker 1: start you know, speaking, you know about the things that 36 00:01:51,360 --> 00:01:54,120 Speaker 1: you know you collectively want, things you want to manifest. 37 00:01:54,160 --> 00:01:58,680 Speaker 1: You can really get into some interesting things as far 38 00:01:58,760 --> 00:02:03,360 Speaker 1: as you know, sex happen. You know, it's important who 39 00:02:03,440 --> 00:02:06,240 Speaker 1: you decide to partner up with two for sure, because 40 00:02:06,320 --> 00:02:07,880 Speaker 1: you always want to be with somebody that's going to 41 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:10,960 Speaker 1: help you also level up and and hope you not 42 00:02:11,080 --> 00:02:13,480 Speaker 1: make bad decisions, you know, because sometimes you want to 43 00:02:13,560 --> 00:02:16,320 Speaker 1: jump out there and respond to certain things, But if 44 00:02:16,320 --> 00:02:18,079 Speaker 1: you have the right person, they'd be like all right 45 00:02:18,120 --> 00:02:22,840 Speaker 1: now listen, Yeah, I think that the importance of you know, 46 00:02:22,880 --> 00:02:25,640 Speaker 1: a relationship is a partnership. You know, it is a business, 47 00:02:25,720 --> 00:02:27,960 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And in order to really 48 00:02:28,000 --> 00:02:30,800 Speaker 1: get into the success of that, you got to have 49 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:32,919 Speaker 1: a lot of conversations, you know what I'm saying. You 50 00:02:33,000 --> 00:02:36,000 Speaker 1: gotta just really be honest about where you are and 51 00:02:36,120 --> 00:02:38,359 Speaker 1: you you know, the number one thing for me, you 52 00:02:38,440 --> 00:02:40,800 Speaker 1: got to be accountable, you know what I'm saying. As 53 00:02:40,960 --> 00:02:45,640 Speaker 1: uh as I'm matured, you know, um, just even entertaining 54 00:02:45,720 --> 00:02:47,880 Speaker 1: somebody that can't even admit that they're wrong, Like I'm 55 00:02:47,880 --> 00:02:49,799 Speaker 1: not interested in it, you know what I'm saying. So 56 00:02:50,400 --> 00:02:54,160 Speaker 1: maturity has definitely showed me the benefit of like, you know, 57 00:02:54,280 --> 00:02:56,720 Speaker 1: just really virobing with a person that's really on your level, 58 00:02:56,840 --> 00:02:59,400 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Um, it really serves you both, 59 00:02:59,720 --> 00:03:02,400 Speaker 1: you know saying. So Yeah, being in the music business 60 00:03:02,480 --> 00:03:05,280 Speaker 1: from such a young age for yourself, right, did you 61 00:03:05,320 --> 00:03:07,400 Speaker 1: ever get tired of be like I'm tired of all 62 00:03:07,440 --> 00:03:10,520 Speaker 1: these girls Like I'm just you know, did you you 63 00:03:10,560 --> 00:03:13,160 Speaker 1: did a little celibacy thing too, did a little three 64 00:03:13,200 --> 00:03:24,800 Speaker 1: years it's not pregnant there like like three years were 65 00:03:24,840 --> 00:03:27,640 Speaker 1: like you didn't come at all? And three like did you? 66 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:29,720 Speaker 1: Or is it like celebrate like with you with someone 67 00:03:29,760 --> 00:03:33,000 Speaker 1: else because I know, well in the book my first 68 00:03:33,080 --> 00:03:37,400 Speaker 1: year I actually had a girlfriend. Yeah, so um yeah, 69 00:03:37,520 --> 00:03:40,080 Speaker 1: I mean the three years it kind of transformed into 70 00:03:40,160 --> 00:03:41,960 Speaker 1: a few things for me. You know, it was really 71 00:03:42,000 --> 00:03:46,840 Speaker 1: mainly because you know, at the young age, you know, 72 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:48,880 Speaker 1: when we came into the game, you know, this is 73 00:03:48,920 --> 00:03:51,520 Speaker 1: how they got us to not be horrors. Basically, they 74 00:03:51,520 --> 00:03:54,200 Speaker 1: would tell us the stories. And these stories would be 75 00:03:54,240 --> 00:03:57,400 Speaker 1: like you know a very prominent entertainers. I ain't gonna 76 00:03:57,440 --> 00:03:59,400 Speaker 1: name them, you know what I'm saying, And it would 77 00:03:59,440 --> 00:04:01,520 Speaker 1: be these stories. He's like as a kid when you 78 00:04:01,560 --> 00:04:04,040 Speaker 1: were here, you'd be like, what you know this girl, 79 00:04:04,560 --> 00:04:06,680 Speaker 1: you know, he being with this girl and she trying 80 00:04:06,680 --> 00:04:09,760 Speaker 1: to you know, used to come to get pregnant, and yeah, 81 00:04:09,800 --> 00:04:11,040 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It was. It was things 82 00:04:11,080 --> 00:04:13,320 Speaker 1: that when they show you that driving school and they 83 00:04:13,360 --> 00:04:16,360 Speaker 1: show you like to add that highway and death movie rights, 84 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:18,800 Speaker 1: you got to be careful exactly. So we got that 85 00:04:18,880 --> 00:04:21,960 Speaker 1: talk you know, early on. Yeah, you know what I'm saying. 86 00:04:21,960 --> 00:04:25,080 Speaker 1: So we we never you know, up until a time, 87 00:04:25,160 --> 00:04:26,400 Speaker 1: you know what i mean, when it was time for 88 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:29,679 Speaker 1: us to have our experiences. But you know, we were 89 00:04:29,720 --> 00:04:32,279 Speaker 1: like always had one girlfriend and stuff like that, you 90 00:04:32,279 --> 00:04:34,640 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, until later on, you know what 91 00:04:34,640 --> 00:04:37,440 Speaker 1: i mean. But my southern pacy looked like, you know, 92 00:04:37,520 --> 00:04:39,400 Speaker 1: three phases. It was like the first phase, I had 93 00:04:39,400 --> 00:04:43,200 Speaker 1: a girlfriend. I was trying to figure out that it 94 00:04:43,320 --> 00:04:46,839 Speaker 1: was it was it was actually it was, uh, well, 95 00:04:46,920 --> 00:04:48,599 Speaker 1: this is what she told me. She told me it 96 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:50,560 Speaker 1: was a beautiful thing for her because she was actually 97 00:04:50,600 --> 00:04:52,920 Speaker 1: the opposite. She was more wild, you know what I'm saying. 98 00:04:53,360 --> 00:04:55,960 Speaker 1: So when we linked up, it was like not about sex, 99 00:04:56,160 --> 00:04:58,680 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It was about affection and 100 00:04:58,720 --> 00:05:00,359 Speaker 1: all that, but it was more it was about that 101 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:02,400 Speaker 1: in the book. Yeah, so it was more than it 102 00:05:02,520 --> 00:05:05,640 Speaker 1: just the physical and and to be doing that at 103 00:05:05,680 --> 00:05:08,280 Speaker 1: a young age was like unheard of, like for me 104 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:11,039 Speaker 1: to be that young and mature, you know what I'm saying. 105 00:05:11,480 --> 00:05:14,920 Speaker 1: So I think it worked for that year because she 106 00:05:15,080 --> 00:05:17,159 Speaker 1: was turned up, you know what I'm saying. She was young, 107 00:05:17,240 --> 00:05:19,279 Speaker 1: but she had experienced girls, you know what I'm saying. 108 00:05:19,400 --> 00:05:21,840 Speaker 1: So you know, when you kind of peeled that back 109 00:05:21,880 --> 00:05:24,480 Speaker 1: and you realize where all that experience comes from. Sometimes 110 00:05:24,480 --> 00:05:27,720 Speaker 1: it comes from trauma, you know what I'm saying. I've 111 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:32,160 Speaker 1: been saying like, oh, you don't know what that has 112 00:05:32,240 --> 00:05:35,359 Speaker 1: let them to make decisions exactly and value whatever that 113 00:05:35,480 --> 00:05:37,080 Speaker 1: it is in the way that they do. So what 114 00:05:37,200 --> 00:05:40,320 Speaker 1: was PHAs two? Like Phase two was more like, Okay, 115 00:05:40,400 --> 00:05:43,520 Speaker 1: I could do this, like I have power over myself, 116 00:05:43,640 --> 00:05:45,599 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, not even you know, to 117 00:05:45,680 --> 00:05:48,920 Speaker 1: be with a woman, could you know, differ me from 118 00:05:48,960 --> 00:05:51,040 Speaker 1: you know, my goals, you know what I'm saying. And 119 00:05:51,080 --> 00:05:53,920 Speaker 1: that's that was more of like I would say, to 120 00:05:53,960 --> 00:05:56,440 Speaker 1: speak to the competitive aspect of it or why it 121 00:05:56,520 --> 00:05:59,400 Speaker 1: was interesting to me, and then the last aspect I 122 00:05:59,400 --> 00:06:01,400 Speaker 1: would say it was spirituality, you know what I'm saying, 123 00:06:01,400 --> 00:06:04,240 Speaker 1: because at this particular time, you know, I was diving 124 00:06:04,240 --> 00:06:06,960 Speaker 1: into some other religions at that time, Jehova Witness religion, 125 00:06:07,000 --> 00:06:09,719 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, And it was interesting to 126 00:06:09,800 --> 00:06:12,159 Speaker 1: me at the time because I had heard Prince with 127 00:06:12,240 --> 00:06:15,320 Speaker 1: Jehovah Witness and then I knew Michael Jackson's mom was 128 00:06:15,440 --> 00:06:17,680 Speaker 1: a Jehova Witness, So I just was intrigued, you know 129 00:06:17,680 --> 00:06:21,920 Speaker 1: what I mean and Jehovah witness, I think or he 130 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:23,720 Speaker 1: might have just not want to give me no presence. 131 00:06:25,279 --> 00:06:29,760 Speaker 1: I'm you know what if you dive deep into that, 132 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:32,440 Speaker 1: like and you really think about you know, how we 133 00:06:32,680 --> 00:06:34,920 Speaker 1: ingest culture, you know what I'm saying, and the things 134 00:06:34,960 --> 00:06:37,480 Speaker 1: that we like, the rituals that we practice, you know 135 00:06:37,480 --> 00:06:39,159 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, We ought to know what that is. 136 00:06:39,240 --> 00:06:40,600 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, like, we ought to know 137 00:06:41,200 --> 00:06:44,320 Speaker 1: you know, what deities and things that we're serving, because 138 00:06:44,400 --> 00:06:46,960 Speaker 1: essentially that's what we're doing when we're talking about st. Nick. 139 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:57,880 Speaker 1: Nobody knows it cares about sat Nick, but you know exactly. Yeah, 140 00:06:58,000 --> 00:07:00,120 Speaker 1: So what was the point that made you realize, Hey, 141 00:07:00,160 --> 00:07:04,640 Speaker 1: I that was it was? It was after. It was 142 00:07:04,720 --> 00:07:07,640 Speaker 1: after I realized that it wasn't for me. And it 143 00:07:07,720 --> 00:07:11,600 Speaker 1: wasn't for me because when I understood the thing about 144 00:07:11,840 --> 00:07:15,200 Speaker 1: being like this fellowship from your family, you know, like 145 00:07:15,240 --> 00:07:17,080 Speaker 1: when you're going through stuff like that, Like I couldn't 146 00:07:17,080 --> 00:07:19,760 Speaker 1: recacile that because that's not how I was raised. How 147 00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:22,600 Speaker 1: I was raised where very close to my family. So 148 00:07:22,640 --> 00:07:24,920 Speaker 1: if something going on, you know, I gotta tell my 149 00:07:24,960 --> 00:07:27,000 Speaker 1: land or I gotta you know, talk to her. She's 150 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:28,600 Speaker 1: the only person that's going to protect me, you know 151 00:07:28,640 --> 00:07:30,600 Speaker 1: what I mean. So the thing that I just didn't 152 00:07:30,600 --> 00:07:33,240 Speaker 1: agree with, you know what I mean, which I understand 153 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:35,560 Speaker 1: in the business frame, it's like, Okay, you don't want 154 00:07:35,560 --> 00:07:38,920 Speaker 1: to associate with certain people to not mess up your business. 155 00:07:38,960 --> 00:07:41,920 Speaker 1: But then you know, it becomes a conversation about religion 156 00:07:42,360 --> 00:07:44,920 Speaker 1: versus spirituality. You know what I'm saying. That that's really 157 00:07:44,920 --> 00:07:48,200 Speaker 1: what I was stepping in, and spirituality allowed me to 158 00:07:49,040 --> 00:07:52,320 Speaker 1: just you know, view myself differently than how the world 159 00:07:52,720 --> 00:07:55,120 Speaker 1: viewed it, you know what I'm saying, Like you know, 160 00:07:55,200 --> 00:07:57,840 Speaker 1: all of my experiences or or like being with a 161 00:07:57,920 --> 00:07:59,600 Speaker 1: slut or a hole, you know what I mean, and 162 00:07:59,680 --> 00:08:03,040 Speaker 1: like understanding why they're that way, you know, accepting them 163 00:08:03,040 --> 00:08:04,760 Speaker 1: from for who they are, you know, and a lot 164 00:08:04,840 --> 00:08:09,520 Speaker 1: of religions kind of ostracized people, you know from yeah, 165 00:08:09,760 --> 00:08:12,640 Speaker 1: forget it, even come to church exactly. So it was 166 00:08:12,680 --> 00:08:15,280 Speaker 1: like the other side that kind of made me feel 167 00:08:15,320 --> 00:08:18,120 Speaker 1: comfortable with like okay, you know what I mean. And 168 00:08:19,200 --> 00:08:20,760 Speaker 1: it was interesting, you know what I'm saying. When I 169 00:08:20,760 --> 00:08:23,840 Speaker 1: stepped back, Yeah, for sure, it was like my body 170 00:08:23,880 --> 00:08:26,360 Speaker 1: turned into a kid again, like twelve years old, you 171 00:08:26,360 --> 00:08:28,720 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, when you did decide to indulge 172 00:08:28,800 --> 00:08:31,560 Speaker 1: in sex again, did you start a new relationship or 173 00:08:31,640 --> 00:08:35,199 Speaker 1: was it it was it was my home girl, you 174 00:08:35,280 --> 00:08:38,480 Speaker 1: knew him was comfortable with exactly. And that's a lot 175 00:08:38,520 --> 00:08:41,000 Speaker 1: of times I think what women confuse things with men, 176 00:08:41,120 --> 00:08:44,600 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, because comfortability is a major part, 177 00:08:44,720 --> 00:08:46,520 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, of being able to open 178 00:08:46,559 --> 00:08:48,839 Speaker 1: yourself up. You know what I'm saying. So for me, 179 00:08:49,040 --> 00:08:53,280 Speaker 1: rather than like getting a girl courting her feeling like okay, 180 00:08:53,520 --> 00:08:56,080 Speaker 1: she's nice enough, I'm doing all of these different tests, 181 00:08:56,320 --> 00:08:57,280 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. It was like with my 182 00:08:57,360 --> 00:09:00,760 Speaker 1: home girl, was like yeah, yeah, if if it was 183 00:09:00,840 --> 00:09:02,920 Speaker 1: if it was like three pumps and I'm out, she 184 00:09:02,960 --> 00:09:08,360 Speaker 1: wouldn't be like you know what I talking. That's never 185 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:12,400 Speaker 1: been the situation. A three years elevancy. You wasn't come 186 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:14,199 Speaker 1: on now, you would come on? You definitely did three 187 00:09:14,559 --> 00:09:19,680 Speaker 1: three years ago. Because let me tell you what do Okay, 188 00:09:21,160 --> 00:09:26,440 Speaker 1: I believe, but let me I believe that he that 189 00:09:26,559 --> 00:09:30,280 Speaker 1: he you know, really performed because I see it the 190 00:09:30,280 --> 00:09:31,920 Speaker 1: opposite way is what y'all see it. Y'all see it 191 00:09:31,960 --> 00:09:33,960 Speaker 1: is it was so much backed up that he had 192 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:35,400 Speaker 1: to hurry up and let it out. But I see 193 00:09:35,400 --> 00:09:38,199 Speaker 1: that he connected with himself at different level eternally, that 194 00:09:38,280 --> 00:09:40,760 Speaker 1: he was able to have his mind in the place 195 00:09:40,800 --> 00:09:42,520 Speaker 1: that was connected with his body and able to really 196 00:09:42,600 --> 00:09:44,960 Speaker 1: exactly he came in and went again and pretended he 197 00:09:44,960 --> 00:09:50,040 Speaker 1: didn't come that first time. You got to be able 198 00:09:50,040 --> 00:09:53,959 Speaker 1: to go back spiritual into mine. But when it's been 199 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:57,960 Speaker 1: a while and find somebody that my body just says, yes, 200 00:09:59,280 --> 00:10:05,280 Speaker 1: somebody says, splash, listen, but your friend, it's your home girl, 201 00:10:05,520 --> 00:10:07,840 Speaker 1: right like that? Like, was it something that y'all have 202 00:10:07,920 --> 00:10:10,240 Speaker 1: been talking about? Was there an attraction with each other 203 00:10:10,240 --> 00:10:11,960 Speaker 1: that y'all have already had sex in the past. Now, 204 00:10:12,080 --> 00:10:14,520 Speaker 1: we never had sex, and it was just a flow. 205 00:10:14,559 --> 00:10:16,560 Speaker 1: We was just vibing, you know what I'm saying, And 206 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:19,160 Speaker 1: it was a flow and we just was we was 207 00:10:19,200 --> 00:10:21,559 Speaker 1: both like comfortable with open up, you know what I mean, 208 00:10:21,600 --> 00:10:23,080 Speaker 1: And we just took it there, you know what I'm saying. 209 00:10:23,080 --> 00:10:25,360 Speaker 1: And it was cool. And I'm a very like I 210 00:10:25,360 --> 00:10:28,960 Speaker 1: don't like pressure type of person, especially in places that 211 00:10:29,040 --> 00:10:32,000 Speaker 1: I want to feel like most authentic and comfortable with, 212 00:10:32,400 --> 00:10:34,000 Speaker 1: you know what i mean. Like I'm a very go 213 00:10:34,160 --> 00:10:36,480 Speaker 1: with the flow type of person. So if the moment 214 00:10:36,520 --> 00:10:37,920 Speaker 1: calls for it, then you know what I mean, and 215 00:10:38,040 --> 00:10:40,959 Speaker 1: you're good, then we're good. How is your guys relationship 216 00:10:41,040 --> 00:10:44,200 Speaker 1: after that? Like, did you guys try it again? Because 217 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:47,720 Speaker 1: they say sometimes it's hardy maintain that friendship. Yeah, break 218 00:10:47,760 --> 00:10:50,600 Speaker 1: the seal. Well, I think that when we see each other, 219 00:10:50,640 --> 00:10:53,079 Speaker 1: we definitely have like a type of mutual respect for 220 00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:56,840 Speaker 1: each other, but it didn't transform into anything else. I 221 00:10:56,880 --> 00:11:00,079 Speaker 1: think a lot of the time, you know, sexist for 222 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:05,319 Speaker 1: men and women, you know what I'm saying. And yeah, yeah, 223 00:11:04,400 --> 00:11:06,880 Speaker 1: I guess, Well, I mean not if you you know, 224 00:11:06,920 --> 00:11:09,400 Speaker 1: if you have an intention, you know, and intention is clear, 225 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:11,840 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Um, I don't think men 226 00:11:11,880 --> 00:11:16,280 Speaker 1: have clear intentions beyond just wanting to most of the time. 227 00:11:16,920 --> 00:11:19,079 Speaker 1: And you know, I feel like that's true. They also 228 00:11:19,120 --> 00:11:21,760 Speaker 1: try to sometimes tell you like they feel like they're 229 00:11:21,800 --> 00:11:23,640 Speaker 1: not gonna be a way. They want to warn you, 230 00:11:23,679 --> 00:11:25,240 Speaker 1: like like just so you know, I don't want this 231 00:11:25,320 --> 00:11:27,319 Speaker 1: to be. But then sometimes they change to be done. 232 00:11:27,720 --> 00:11:29,839 Speaker 1: That happened one time and this guy was like, look, 233 00:11:29,920 --> 00:11:31,960 Speaker 1: I don't want anything serious, and then next thing, you know, 234 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:33,199 Speaker 1: he want me to be his girl. And I'm like 235 00:11:33,520 --> 00:11:35,800 Speaker 1: what time I wasn't even looking at you like that 236 00:11:35,840 --> 00:11:38,040 Speaker 1: because we had a whole convery because he didn't know. 237 00:11:38,160 --> 00:11:39,920 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, That's just what women have 238 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:42,040 Speaker 1: to understand the power to peak, you know what I'm saying, 239 00:11:42,080 --> 00:11:44,240 Speaker 1: Because we're trying to figure it out. We gotta we 240 00:11:44,240 --> 00:11:45,599 Speaker 1: gotta figure this out, you know what I mean. I 241 00:11:45,640 --> 00:11:47,960 Speaker 1: don't want to feel this way, but damn, you're making 242 00:11:47,960 --> 00:11:50,760 Speaker 1: me feel this, so let me tell you so. But 243 00:11:50,800 --> 00:11:54,120 Speaker 1: then that didn't work so exactly, so you know, I 244 00:11:54,160 --> 00:11:57,280 Speaker 1: think that you know, it does take time for a 245 00:11:57,320 --> 00:11:59,400 Speaker 1: man to mature, you know what I'm saying. But when 246 00:11:59,400 --> 00:12:01,080 Speaker 1: a man knows what he wants, you know what I'm saying, 247 00:12:01,080 --> 00:12:03,680 Speaker 1: it ain't no question. Did you eat the booty like groceries? 248 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:08,720 Speaker 1: You know? You know I appreciate you and I can't 249 00:12:08,760 --> 00:12:14,360 Speaker 1: let you in my bed At the point why no 250 00:12:14,559 --> 00:12:19,280 Speaker 1: said yes, somebody's like, I can't tell you. That means 251 00:12:21,880 --> 00:12:24,120 Speaker 1: I actually had that phase in my life where it's 252 00:12:24,160 --> 00:12:26,000 Speaker 1: like if I sleep with you, we go together, like 253 00:12:26,040 --> 00:12:29,280 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna sleep with you, Like I wasn't gonna 254 00:12:29,280 --> 00:12:30,920 Speaker 1: give it up, but I'm not gonna lie. As I 255 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:34,280 Speaker 1: got older, it was times resident after I sleep with 256 00:12:34,320 --> 00:12:38,080 Speaker 1: you and you know I didn't feel it, yeah, you know, 257 00:12:38,200 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: and sometimes it was a chemistry there. Yeah, kind of 258 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:42,920 Speaker 1: changes things. Because have you ever been with somebody and 259 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:44,920 Speaker 1: you really like them, but then you sleep together. Oh 260 00:12:44,920 --> 00:12:47,280 Speaker 1: my god, you're saying it and you just wish you 261 00:12:47,320 --> 00:12:50,240 Speaker 1: could take your pussy bad. You never game. I got 262 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:53,640 Speaker 1: jumped over. So I was a town boy in middle school. 263 00:12:53,640 --> 00:12:56,600 Speaker 1: I went to three twenty in Brooklyn, and I got 264 00:12:56,679 --> 00:13:00,520 Speaker 1: jumped over my homeboy. Like you know, I was like tomboys. 265 00:13:00,559 --> 00:13:02,240 Speaker 1: So all my friends, like all the guys like we 266 00:13:02,280 --> 00:13:04,960 Speaker 1: would do crazy stuff like I was a boy, and 267 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:08,240 Speaker 1: I didn't know that my best friend liked me. His 268 00:13:08,400 --> 00:13:11,080 Speaker 1: girlfriend even jumped me, and everything with her sisters, Like 269 00:13:11,120 --> 00:13:14,000 Speaker 1: her sisters was like eighteen seventeen. I'll be dass at 270 00:13:14,080 --> 00:13:19,600 Speaker 1: least hers and everybody. Wait while you were in middle school. Yeah, 271 00:13:19,640 --> 00:13:22,640 Speaker 1: her sister was eighteen and she jumped in like I 272 00:13:22,679 --> 00:13:25,040 Speaker 1: was fighting her, like I couldn't worry about everyone else. 273 00:13:25,040 --> 00:13:26,440 Speaker 1: So you know, I was making sure I was taking 274 00:13:26,480 --> 00:13:29,439 Speaker 1: care of her. But it was because my homeboy, who 275 00:13:29,480 --> 00:13:31,559 Speaker 1: was to me my best friend, I didn't even look 276 00:13:31,559 --> 00:13:35,000 Speaker 1: at him like that, liked me. So she didn't like that, 277 00:13:35,080 --> 00:13:37,640 Speaker 1: so they jumped me or whatever, and I was like, like, 278 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:39,640 Speaker 1: I didn't even know he liked me, Like I didn't 279 00:13:39,679 --> 00:13:42,120 Speaker 1: even to me. Literally, it was just this is my friend, 280 00:13:42,160 --> 00:13:44,080 Speaker 1: and I'm in middle school, so I wasn't It's not 281 00:13:44,080 --> 00:13:48,439 Speaker 1: like having sex or anything like were though, but again 282 00:13:48,480 --> 00:13:51,520 Speaker 1: I was a townboy, like I wasn't seeking about having 283 00:13:51,600 --> 00:13:54,920 Speaker 1: sex with him, and like that I didn't like him. 284 00:13:55,040 --> 00:13:57,320 Speaker 1: I think that a lot of the times, you know, 285 00:13:57,480 --> 00:14:00,840 Speaker 1: women don't understand that, you know, man like like women 286 00:14:00,920 --> 00:14:02,720 Speaker 1: like their mama. So if you have a cool mom, 287 00:14:02,760 --> 00:14:05,280 Speaker 1: like I have a cool mom, then like I actually 288 00:14:05,320 --> 00:14:07,720 Speaker 1: like really cool chicks, you know what I'm saying, versus 289 00:14:07,800 --> 00:14:10,480 Speaker 1: the opposite, you know, which would be like maybe chicks 290 00:14:10,520 --> 00:14:12,480 Speaker 1: that want to be pursued in a specific way. So 291 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:15,440 Speaker 1: you didn't know, you know, but obviously you was a 292 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:18,240 Speaker 1: great friend, you know. After that, I found out that, 293 00:14:18,360 --> 00:14:19,960 Speaker 1: you know, he was like, you know, I did, and 294 00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:22,000 Speaker 1: I guess she picked that up. But still I was like, no, 295 00:14:22,080 --> 00:14:24,800 Speaker 1: I don't like you. But then years later, as adults, 296 00:14:24,800 --> 00:14:26,320 Speaker 1: I moved back to New York. That's when I moved 297 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:28,760 Speaker 1: back and we linked up again. It was like, okay, well, 298 00:14:29,080 --> 00:14:33,680 Speaker 1: I guess let's try this. He was so small was there? Wait? 299 00:14:33,680 --> 00:14:37,360 Speaker 1: What happened? His penis was so small? I was like 300 00:14:41,520 --> 00:14:43,640 Speaker 1: all the time, it's the same side of it was 301 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:49,240 Speaker 1: in the middle school. That's I've never I was like, 302 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:51,320 Speaker 1: I have to my best friend. I was like, yo, 303 00:14:51,400 --> 00:14:54,680 Speaker 1: could you believe, like after all these years and I'm 304 00:14:54,680 --> 00:14:59,040 Speaker 1: telling you this, was like, now we're like y for 305 00:14:59,120 --> 00:15:02,040 Speaker 1: this little thing. Though I thought some women prefer that. Nah, 306 00:15:04,280 --> 00:15:09,480 Speaker 1: how someone like put up with it? Okay, Sam is 307 00:15:09,520 --> 00:15:12,360 Speaker 1: only good for the butt? No, this is little. It's 308 00:15:12,400 --> 00:15:14,240 Speaker 1: like the only good for an I was like, what 309 00:15:14,360 --> 00:15:17,560 Speaker 1: you're in there and otherwise you know, we need a 310 00:15:17,680 --> 00:15:22,040 Speaker 1: certain and and they're too big. It's my penises know 311 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:24,360 Speaker 1: they have small penis. They better because they don't ask 312 00:15:24,400 --> 00:15:27,040 Speaker 1: you questions that like other guys asked you, like is 313 00:15:27,040 --> 00:15:29,800 Speaker 1: it big? You know you love it? They don't even 314 00:15:29,800 --> 00:15:31,800 Speaker 1: ask you that. They're just happy to be inside. I 315 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:34,320 Speaker 1: was like, I got jumped over this. If this this little, Now, 316 00:15:34,400 --> 00:15:40,880 Speaker 1: imagine back then you really jump me. Now, Marian, being 317 00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:42,720 Speaker 1: that you were so young when you first got in 318 00:15:42,760 --> 00:15:44,640 Speaker 1: this business, did older women try to talk to you 319 00:15:44,680 --> 00:15:47,240 Speaker 1: a lot, older women trying How did you handle that? 320 00:15:47,880 --> 00:15:49,360 Speaker 1: I actually like it, you know what I mean, I'm 321 00:15:49,400 --> 00:15:53,120 Speaker 1: not afraid to learn. So yeah, they never felt creepy, 322 00:15:53,200 --> 00:15:56,800 Speaker 1: like Okay, I'm si nah No, you know what, I 323 00:15:56,880 --> 00:15:58,960 Speaker 1: was the kind of kid that like brought flowers to 324 00:15:59,040 --> 00:16:00,960 Speaker 1: my teachers and stuff like that. You know what I'm saying. 325 00:16:01,000 --> 00:16:03,760 Speaker 1: So I'm you know, I'm gonna score. Yeah, for sure, 326 00:16:03,880 --> 00:16:06,080 Speaker 1: you were still going to school during this time, like 327 00:16:06,120 --> 00:16:09,800 Speaker 1: when you were still in regular high school? What before two? Yeah? 328 00:16:10,040 --> 00:16:12,280 Speaker 1: Um yeah, yeah. I went to ninth grade then my 329 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:14,400 Speaker 1: team grade year or summer. Then I was in the 330 00:16:14,440 --> 00:16:16,320 Speaker 1: group and I never went back to a regular school. 331 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:17,520 Speaker 1: I was gonna say, this is no way you could 332 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:21,520 Speaker 1: have been in school doing nah yah know I was 333 00:16:21,520 --> 00:16:24,080 Speaker 1: getting turned up in high school. She just would have 334 00:16:24,080 --> 00:16:31,200 Speaker 1: been all in that. Teachers then the teachers we're not 335 00:16:31,400 --> 00:16:37,000 Speaker 1: like the teachers are out teacher teacher yea. She said 336 00:16:37,040 --> 00:16:39,520 Speaker 1: that after she got on Valley, when her old students 337 00:16:39,600 --> 00:16:42,400 Speaker 1: and her a messing at d M. It's like now 338 00:16:42,720 --> 00:16:46,360 Speaker 1: that I can't anything like that. Yeah, it wasn't too 339 00:16:46,440 --> 00:16:49,560 Speaker 1: many sexy teachers that I came across, But as far 340 00:16:49,600 --> 00:16:52,040 Speaker 1: as older women though, you know what I mean, it depends, 341 00:16:52,200 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, the one thing that I 342 00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:56,440 Speaker 1: can't appreciate about a woman is her reserve, you know 343 00:16:56,440 --> 00:16:59,400 Speaker 1: what I mean, and her ability to understand. Sometimes the 344 00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:01,440 Speaker 1: reserve is a bit too much, you know what I'm saying. 345 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:04,680 Speaker 1: But for the most part, I'm interested in like having 346 00:17:04,720 --> 00:17:06,640 Speaker 1: a peaceful time with a woman, you know what I'm saying. 347 00:17:06,720 --> 00:17:09,840 Speaker 1: And you know, um, when questions are asked, they are 348 00:17:09,960 --> 00:17:12,440 Speaker 1: articulated in a way that you know, it could be 349 00:17:12,520 --> 00:17:14,200 Speaker 1: some open dialogue, you know. I mean, they don't have 350 00:17:14,280 --> 00:17:16,120 Speaker 1: to just be like judgment, you know what I'm saying. 351 00:17:16,560 --> 00:17:19,159 Speaker 1: So now let me ask you this being that, like 352 00:17:19,240 --> 00:17:20,920 Speaker 1: I said, you were really young when you first got 353 00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:24,520 Speaker 1: started you in the group. How old were you? Like? Sixteen? Yeah? 354 00:17:24,560 --> 00:17:27,080 Speaker 1: When we started when, um, I was fourteen, but we 355 00:17:27,160 --> 00:17:29,760 Speaker 1: got signed, I was like sixteen. Yeah, So you did 356 00:17:29,800 --> 00:17:32,760 Speaker 1: you ever before that? Did you want to be so low? Um? 357 00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:35,080 Speaker 1: I was. I was preparing. I was preparing to be 358 00:17:35,240 --> 00:17:37,680 Speaker 1: so low. I was like a rapper actually, and I 359 00:17:37,800 --> 00:17:39,600 Speaker 1: was a part of this rap who called the Wild 360 00:17:39,680 --> 00:17:43,920 Speaker 1: Kingdom and um yeah, Wild Kingdom, yeah, the Wild king Yeah, yeah, 361 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:47,080 Speaker 1: that's all I got my name with Marion Actually, yeah, 362 00:17:47,720 --> 00:17:49,480 Speaker 1: I was a bunch of I was around a bunch 363 00:17:49,520 --> 00:17:51,199 Speaker 1: of older dudes. You know what I'm saying, That's how 364 00:17:51,240 --> 00:17:53,480 Speaker 1: I've always been for me, you know what i mean, mature. 365 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:57,840 Speaker 1: So yeah, like I didn't. Actually I started singing because 366 00:17:57,920 --> 00:18:00,280 Speaker 1: my mom was like, Mario, I think you should sing, 367 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:01,840 Speaker 1: you know. I was like, why mine? She was like, 368 00:18:01,880 --> 00:18:05,120 Speaker 1: because it sings to get all the girls. She knew 369 00:18:06,359 --> 00:18:08,280 Speaker 1: I would like to get you going. Did your mom 370 00:18:08,359 --> 00:18:09,920 Speaker 1: like any of these girls when you were younger? Like, 371 00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:12,879 Speaker 1: did you bring them home? Yeah? Yeah, a few of them. 372 00:18:12,920 --> 00:18:16,240 Speaker 1: She liked a few of them. She like, like she's 373 00:18:16,520 --> 00:18:20,080 Speaker 1: hard critic. She said she liked April in the beginning. 374 00:18:20,840 --> 00:18:24,359 Speaker 1: She did. Yeah, everybody loved April in the beginning. You know. 375 00:18:24,359 --> 00:18:26,280 Speaker 1: I mean, like, how do you think that being on 376 00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:29,640 Speaker 1: reality TV? You think that affected things? For sure? For sure, 377 00:18:29,640 --> 00:18:32,159 Speaker 1: I think that affected the trajectory, you know, just of 378 00:18:33,160 --> 00:18:35,480 Speaker 1: you know, the mindset and what was available, you know, 379 00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:38,480 Speaker 1: just as far as like you know, a place that 380 00:18:38,560 --> 00:18:40,840 Speaker 1: she feels like she could make something of herself. You 381 00:18:40,880 --> 00:18:42,720 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like maybe if it was a 382 00:18:42,800 --> 00:18:45,200 Speaker 1: different platform, you know what I mean, Um, it would 383 00:18:45,200 --> 00:18:47,720 Speaker 1: have just transformed differently. But it's like, you know, I 384 00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:51,240 Speaker 1: have a love hate relationship with reality TV because I 385 00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:54,080 Speaker 1: know how it works, and I know that a lot 386 00:18:54,119 --> 00:18:56,680 Speaker 1: of the times, you know, people making up stories, you 387 00:18:56,720 --> 00:18:59,680 Speaker 1: know what I mean, they're not really trying to transform themselves, 388 00:18:59,760 --> 00:19:02,600 Speaker 1: you know I'm saying. And the few that are, you know, um, 389 00:19:02,760 --> 00:19:05,560 Speaker 1: they don't know enough about the entertainment business to like 390 00:19:05,720 --> 00:19:10,000 Speaker 1: really you know, transform it into something productive for our culture, 391 00:19:10,200 --> 00:19:12,160 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Those that do know where 392 00:19:12,160 --> 00:19:14,280 Speaker 1: they're going with it, it gets overshadowed by all of 393 00:19:14,320 --> 00:19:20,840 Speaker 1: the stories, you know, exactly to keep people engage. Yeah, 394 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:23,320 Speaker 1: And it's just like, yo, life is more than like, 395 00:19:24,000 --> 00:19:25,760 Speaker 1: you know, these issues, you know what I'm saying, Like 396 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:28,480 Speaker 1: what about you know, getting through the and like what 397 00:19:28,600 --> 00:19:30,440 Speaker 1: happens after that, you know what I'm saying, and the 398 00:19:30,560 --> 00:19:33,840 Speaker 1: healing that goes on between that. So that's why reality 399 00:19:33,920 --> 00:19:36,040 Speaker 1: TV never really worked for me, you know what I'm saying, 400 00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:39,359 Speaker 1: Because I was actually being vulnerable and open and sharing 401 00:19:39,400 --> 00:19:41,160 Speaker 1: the moment with my public you know what I'm saying, 402 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:43,000 Speaker 1: that with the people that have grew up with me 403 00:19:43,040 --> 00:19:45,359 Speaker 1: as an artist, you know what I'm saying. So it was, 404 00:19:45,440 --> 00:19:49,200 Speaker 1: like you said, like the vulnerability got overshadowed and through 405 00:19:49,280 --> 00:19:50,920 Speaker 1: the moments, you know what I'm saying, even though I 406 00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:54,440 Speaker 1: was still able to amplify my brand. You know, essentially 407 00:19:54,520 --> 00:19:56,840 Speaker 1: I created a platform for someone to kind of bad 408 00:19:56,920 --> 00:19:59,400 Speaker 1: mouthed me, you know what I'm saying, and do me wrong, 409 00:19:59,520 --> 00:20:01,879 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But it's like, hey, you 410 00:20:01,960 --> 00:20:04,200 Speaker 1: know that come with it. It had the potential to 411 00:20:04,280 --> 00:20:06,560 Speaker 1: be good. It did. It was It was It was 412 00:20:07,160 --> 00:20:09,720 Speaker 1: because it's like, okay, you know when you guys doin 413 00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:11,359 Speaker 1: because I feel like all the time they're trying to 414 00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:13,000 Speaker 1: reinvent that show and make it seem like, Okay, we're 415 00:20:13,000 --> 00:20:15,680 Speaker 1: gonna bring some credible you know people are here, but 416 00:20:15,760 --> 00:20:18,960 Speaker 1: then the drama happens. Yeah, because it's not really authentic. 417 00:20:19,119 --> 00:20:21,280 Speaker 1: It's just like people think enough for opportunity, you know 418 00:20:21,280 --> 00:20:23,520 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And it's like, you know, me and 419 00:20:23,640 --> 00:20:25,520 Speaker 1: her was authentic, you know what I'm saying. And that's 420 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:29,280 Speaker 1: the real gift of you know, entertainer of performer, you 421 00:20:29,320 --> 00:20:31,560 Speaker 1: know what I mean, to be able to like live 422 00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:33,760 Speaker 1: it out in front of everybody. You know what I'm saying. 423 00:20:33,760 --> 00:20:35,320 Speaker 1: I would say that's the true mark, you know what 424 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:37,800 Speaker 1: I mean an entertainer. You think you have trust issues 425 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:40,000 Speaker 1: now because You've been through a lot when it comes 426 00:20:40,080 --> 00:20:42,320 Speaker 1: to trust, when it comes to being in the group, 427 00:20:42,359 --> 00:20:44,560 Speaker 1: when it comes to people that you thought were around 428 00:20:44,640 --> 00:20:47,800 Speaker 1: you to benefit you and then instead it was a 429 00:20:47,840 --> 00:20:50,520 Speaker 1: lot of behind the scenes tearing things apart, and then 430 00:20:50,560 --> 00:20:53,000 Speaker 1: even being in a relationship and things like that. How 431 00:20:53,280 --> 00:20:55,080 Speaker 1: hard is it for you to trust someone? I would 432 00:20:55,119 --> 00:20:57,440 Speaker 1: say that at one point in time I did have 433 00:20:57,600 --> 00:21:01,159 Speaker 1: trust issues, but you know, I'm elevated now. I just 434 00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:05,040 Speaker 1: realize how to identify, you know, with people that have 435 00:21:05,200 --> 00:21:07,520 Speaker 1: good intentions and people that don't. You know what I'm saying, 436 00:21:07,560 --> 00:21:09,240 Speaker 1: Like I could feel it, you know what I'm saying. 437 00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:11,960 Speaker 1: It's happened to me so many times that you know, 438 00:21:12,640 --> 00:21:14,720 Speaker 1: now I'm connected to it in a way that it's 439 00:21:14,760 --> 00:21:17,879 Speaker 1: just like my life flows into a direction where you know, 440 00:21:18,040 --> 00:21:21,840 Speaker 1: I'm around people that I deserve to be around, you 441 00:21:21,880 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Um, And I think that that's 442 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,840 Speaker 1: so important. You know, when we all take a step 443 00:21:26,880 --> 00:21:29,840 Speaker 1: back in our lives and we just you know, speak 444 00:21:29,920 --> 00:21:32,800 Speaker 1: to our value. It's just like, if you're valuable, you 445 00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:35,359 Speaker 1: know what I mean, then you know you you can 446 00:21:35,440 --> 00:21:37,720 Speaker 1: be you can be open enough to be valuable to 447 00:21:37,840 --> 00:21:40,560 Speaker 1: someone else. You know, what I'm saying, and it's powering 448 00:21:40,640 --> 00:21:43,399 Speaker 1: that and too far often like we all, you know, 449 00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:46,480 Speaker 1: get hurt and we kind of lose that that human 450 00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:49,480 Speaker 1: aspect to our lives, you know what I'm saying, and 451 00:21:49,680 --> 00:21:51,840 Speaker 1: essentially doesn't do good for you, you know, because you 452 00:21:51,920 --> 00:21:53,760 Speaker 1: don't you don't let nobody in, you know what I mean. 453 00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:57,159 Speaker 1: So I see the importance of trusting people, but I 454 00:21:57,280 --> 00:22:01,440 Speaker 1: also see the importance of protect myself and like being 455 00:22:01,520 --> 00:22:04,639 Speaker 1: cautious and you know what I mean, um, just being aware, 456 00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:07,000 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, because you know it could 457 00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:09,119 Speaker 1: happen once, you know what I mean, but the second 458 00:22:09,160 --> 00:22:13,600 Speaker 1: time it's swing you for real reasons. In lifetime, like 459 00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:16,520 Speaker 1: you say, and there's people, and I feel like as 460 00:22:16,560 --> 00:22:19,520 Speaker 1: you get older, you choose better. Well you're supposed to. 461 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:21,919 Speaker 1: You should, because you know, some people will say new 462 00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,280 Speaker 1: new friends, but the people that are meant to be 463 00:22:24,320 --> 00:22:25,680 Speaker 1: in your life. You don't have to be loyal to 464 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:28,240 Speaker 1: people just because you've known them a long time. Sometimes 465 00:22:28,320 --> 00:22:31,040 Speaker 1: those people are toxic to you. And then some people 466 00:22:31,119 --> 00:22:33,359 Speaker 1: that you know will stand the test of time. You know, 467 00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:36,080 Speaker 1: we've all known each other a really long time and 468 00:22:36,280 --> 00:22:39,440 Speaker 1: managed to and we've never had any issues with each other, 469 00:22:39,880 --> 00:22:41,520 Speaker 1: and so some people will grow with you and some 470 00:22:41,640 --> 00:22:44,600 Speaker 1: people will fall off and fall out. But you can't 471 00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:46,800 Speaker 1: try to force it if it's not meant to be. 472 00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:51,280 Speaker 1: Right now, let me ask you this, So when you 473 00:22:51,400 --> 00:22:54,120 Speaker 1: guys were younger, how was it like being on the road. 474 00:22:54,280 --> 00:22:56,560 Speaker 1: Did you guys compete over women? You know how sometimes 475 00:22:56,600 --> 00:22:58,320 Speaker 1: it might be on the show or on the road 476 00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:00,440 Speaker 1: and then there's a girl. Everybody's like, I wanna talk 477 00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:01,919 Speaker 1: to her, Like, how did that work? Were there are 478 00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:04,320 Speaker 1: times that somebody would try to get somebody from someone else, 479 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:06,359 Speaker 1: so bring someone back to the room, but you were 480 00:23:06,400 --> 00:23:09,520 Speaker 1: talking to her first. Well, um, from my perspective, you 481 00:23:09,560 --> 00:23:12,359 Speaker 1: know what I mean, you know, coming into the group 482 00:23:12,440 --> 00:23:15,520 Speaker 1: and just realizing everybody had their own different swag, you 483 00:23:15,600 --> 00:23:17,840 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, you know, that's kind of 484 00:23:17,920 --> 00:23:20,200 Speaker 1: like how it was, you know when young girls would 485 00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:23,399 Speaker 1: come around. Like for me, my position was just like, 486 00:23:23,600 --> 00:23:25,320 Speaker 1: you know, choose up, you know what I'm saying, because 487 00:23:25,359 --> 00:23:28,040 Speaker 1: I'm not really to like go after you type, you 488 00:23:28,080 --> 00:23:30,760 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I'm more like I appreciate who 489 00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:34,040 Speaker 1: appreciates me, you know what I'm saying. And I back 490 00:23:34,160 --> 00:23:36,359 Speaker 1: back then that's the kind of person I was, you 491 00:23:36,400 --> 00:23:38,399 Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like I think that you know, 492 00:23:38,960 --> 00:23:42,960 Speaker 1: we have maybe like some of the same girls, you know, naturally, 493 00:23:43,560 --> 00:23:46,800 Speaker 1: you know, especially talented girls that were like coming into 494 00:23:46,880 --> 00:23:49,760 Speaker 1: our space that like had more to offer than you know, 495 00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:53,040 Speaker 1: just like a look you know what I mean, Like, oh, yeah, 496 00:23:53,320 --> 00:23:55,520 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, like Jennifer Freeman, you know 497 00:23:55,560 --> 00:24:00,400 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like naturally, our interest you know, we're 498 00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:03,960 Speaker 1: talking about kids, child actors, our interests in the script 499 00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:05,600 Speaker 1: was that we had to like each other, you know 500 00:24:05,640 --> 00:24:07,159 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like that was the role we had 501 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:09,240 Speaker 1: to play. So it was so natural for us to 502 00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:11,199 Speaker 1: like each other, you know what I'm saying, like, because 503 00:24:11,320 --> 00:24:13,280 Speaker 1: that was the vibe, you know what I mean. Now, 504 00:24:13,680 --> 00:24:16,399 Speaker 1: you know, aside from the work, I wasn't going to 505 00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,280 Speaker 1: be the person that was just like, oh I need 506 00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:21,080 Speaker 1: to like call you more than this person calling you 507 00:24:21,119 --> 00:24:24,040 Speaker 1: because this person like you, this person calling DIBs on you, 508 00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:26,440 Speaker 1: and Nika just did a little stupid stuff like that, 509 00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:28,159 Speaker 1: you know, as kids, you know what I mean. But 510 00:24:28,520 --> 00:24:31,120 Speaker 1: because I listen, I've been around, like you know, worked 511 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:32,800 Speaker 1: for a lot of different people, and I've seen that 512 00:24:32,920 --> 00:24:35,520 Speaker 1: happen where it's competitive, Yeah, no, I like, I like 513 00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:37,560 Speaker 1: for a chick to choose me. I feel like that's more, 514 00:24:37,800 --> 00:24:39,199 Speaker 1: that's more of my speed, you know what I mean. 515 00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:41,399 Speaker 1: Like it could be a lot of handsome guys in here, 516 00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:43,000 Speaker 1: but what you want, you know what I mean, because 517 00:24:43,480 --> 00:24:45,280 Speaker 1: you know what you're interested in? You know why am 518 00:24:45,320 --> 00:24:47,000 Speaker 1: I interesting to you? You know what I mean? So 519 00:24:47,640 --> 00:24:50,720 Speaker 1: I'm more of that person energetically, you know, than anything 520 00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:54,560 Speaker 1: like I'm not into Okay, Yeah, I'm the lead singer, 521 00:24:54,720 --> 00:24:57,440 Speaker 1: so you you know, I get the number one quti 522 00:24:57,520 --> 00:25:00,560 Speaker 1: in the room like you might be feel him. You know, 523 00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:02,800 Speaker 1: you don't gotta be my you know. You know what 524 00:25:02,840 --> 00:25:04,639 Speaker 1: I'm saying. What if someone else likes a girl but 525 00:25:04,720 --> 00:25:07,440 Speaker 1: she likes you, and then like how does that work? 526 00:25:07,720 --> 00:25:09,879 Speaker 1: You know? Because you gotta let the woman choose. You 527 00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:11,960 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. You got for real, you gotta 528 00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,040 Speaker 1: let her choose. You know what I'm saying, because, um, 529 00:25:15,160 --> 00:25:16,800 Speaker 1: it is what it is at that point, you know 530 00:25:16,840 --> 00:25:19,240 Speaker 1: what I mean. It's not like a conversation. It ain't 531 00:25:19,280 --> 00:25:21,399 Speaker 1: like ohd me versus you and I'm trying to size 532 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:25,080 Speaker 1: you up and yeah it's like yo, she bob with you? Cool, 533 00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:29,240 Speaker 1: It's it's I mean, there's so many beautiful people on 534 00:25:29,359 --> 00:25:31,840 Speaker 1: the planet, like, for real, for real, even I'm not, 535 00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:34,119 Speaker 1: you know, some women's only option, you know what I mean, 536 00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:37,120 Speaker 1: Like I would be silly to think that I'm their 537 00:25:37,160 --> 00:25:39,720 Speaker 1: only option, Like any guy, you know, no matter what 538 00:25:39,840 --> 00:25:41,400 Speaker 1: you bring in to the table, you know what I'm saying, 539 00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:44,119 Speaker 1: It's all about what the woman wants. You're okay with 540 00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:49,320 Speaker 1: dating a woman who's dating other people? Um, defined dating. 541 00:25:52,040 --> 00:25:54,520 Speaker 1: I'm talking on the phone a lot, you know, going out, 542 00:25:54,640 --> 00:26:00,359 Speaker 1: spending time together, having sex, okay, um, but not not 543 00:26:00,520 --> 00:26:04,040 Speaker 1: in a verbally committed relationship. But it feels like we 544 00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:07,800 Speaker 1: really like each other. Well, that's kind of a tricky question, 545 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,879 Speaker 1: just because you know, I I know women, you know 546 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,040 Speaker 1: what I mean, And when't they're really intrigued and interested 547 00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:16,720 Speaker 1: in something, you know, they're data, They're not necessarily open, 548 00:26:17,040 --> 00:26:18,960 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, unless that's just how they are. 549 00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:20,800 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, That either have to just 550 00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:23,080 Speaker 1: be that way or have been that way, you know. 551 00:26:23,200 --> 00:26:25,320 Speaker 1: But what I find with most women, you know what 552 00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:28,520 Speaker 1: I mean, if they really vibing with you, then you 553 00:26:28,600 --> 00:26:31,400 Speaker 1: know they're gonna communicate that to you. You know, where 554 00:26:31,480 --> 00:26:34,480 Speaker 1: you guys land that's a different thing, you know what 555 00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:36,560 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Um, for me, I wouldn't say that I 556 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:42,200 Speaker 1: necessarily date, you know, because you know, it obviously takes 557 00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:45,720 Speaker 1: me time to get to know someone. And I believe 558 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,359 Speaker 1: that to truly get to know someone, Like we're not 559 00:26:48,520 --> 00:26:50,880 Speaker 1: talking three three to six months, you know what I'm saying. 560 00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:53,080 Speaker 1: We're not talking about even three years. You know what 561 00:26:53,119 --> 00:26:56,240 Speaker 1: I'm saying. It takes a real time to really develop 562 00:26:56,400 --> 00:26:58,080 Speaker 1: something with someone, you know what I mean. So I 563 00:26:58,160 --> 00:27:00,119 Speaker 1: don't like to give myself a time limit on that, 564 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:02,400 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. If I want to move 565 00:27:02,560 --> 00:27:06,960 Speaker 1: into a more serious agreement, then you know, it's a conversation, 566 00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:08,600 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But I haven't been in 567 00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:13,800 Speaker 1: that position yet to um have a more serious conversation 568 00:27:14,119 --> 00:27:16,800 Speaker 1: until last time you had a one nice stand. Um, 569 00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:23,520 Speaker 1: let me think about that. No, not really, not really, 570 00:27:23,640 --> 00:27:26,199 Speaker 1: not really no, Because it's like, if you really want 571 00:27:26,240 --> 00:27:28,960 Speaker 1: to have a consistent kind of experience, you know what 572 00:27:29,000 --> 00:27:31,320 Speaker 1: I mean, Like you gotta vibe, you know what I'm saying. 573 00:27:31,440 --> 00:27:33,920 Speaker 1: You can't just be like, oh, you know, nice ass, 574 00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:35,800 Speaker 1: big big tits, you know what I'm saying, Like it 575 00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:38,440 Speaker 1: gotta be some fight they gotta be some dialogue, like 576 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:41,399 Speaker 1: I gotta at least, yeah, I at least gotta be 577 00:27:41,480 --> 00:27:43,080 Speaker 1: able to tell you what I'm gonna do and you 578 00:27:43,280 --> 00:27:45,879 Speaker 1: like it, you know what I mean, Like, Oh, I 579 00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:48,840 Speaker 1: never had that happen. Yeah, you know what I'm saying, 580 00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:53,440 Speaker 1: So what could that be? Now? No, I'm just I'm 581 00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:56,280 Speaker 1: just chilling. You know. Being a single father, you know, 582 00:27:56,600 --> 00:28:00,080 Speaker 1: UM makes it a little you know, more difficult. You know. 583 00:28:00,160 --> 00:28:02,000 Speaker 1: I mean a lot of a lot of women want 584 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:04,879 Speaker 1: to move into something very serious with me very fast. 585 00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:07,239 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, and you know they're kind 586 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,440 Speaker 1: of put off that sometimes that I'm not um in 587 00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:13,280 Speaker 1: that space, you know what I'm saying, because I bring 588 00:28:13,520 --> 00:28:16,440 Speaker 1: so much to the table, you know what i mean, Like, 589 00:28:16,560 --> 00:28:19,399 Speaker 1: how do you eat in exactly? That's a great question, 590 00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:21,440 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I let the energy you 591 00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:26,199 Speaker 1: know I have in the past. You know what I'm saying. Um, 592 00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:33,800 Speaker 1: but no, hell no, I'm not. I just I'm just 593 00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:35,760 Speaker 1: getting shout out to the tender heads. You know what 594 00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:39,120 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Yeah, No, I can't. I can't do that. 595 00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:41,600 Speaker 1: I can't do that. I think that, Um, in order 596 00:28:41,680 --> 00:28:44,800 Speaker 1: for someone to you know, understand who I am and 597 00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:46,680 Speaker 1: what it is that I'm doing, you know, because I'm 598 00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:50,000 Speaker 1: first generation wealth and I always explain that to women. 599 00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:51,240 Speaker 1: You know what I mean, because I has to do 600 00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:54,280 Speaker 1: directly with my focus and my communication. You know what 601 00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:57,600 Speaker 1: I'm saying, Hey, I'm first generation wealth builder. You feel me. 602 00:28:57,720 --> 00:29:00,280 Speaker 1: So if you can't be patient with me, you know 603 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:02,720 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, you can keep it moving. It's being 604 00:29:02,800 --> 00:29:04,600 Speaker 1: patient with you because a lot of men say that, like, 605 00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:09,320 Speaker 1: be patient with me. Being patient is being able to, 606 00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:12,640 Speaker 1: you know, ask the right question to garner some level 607 00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:17,479 Speaker 1: of understanding and being able to adequately articulate your position 608 00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:20,040 Speaker 1: so you can you know, because some women, which this 609 00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:22,480 Speaker 1: is I despise that some women feel like they're running 610 00:29:22,520 --> 00:29:24,760 Speaker 1: out of time. You know, like I e. A woman 611 00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:27,880 Speaker 1: that doesn't have kids versus someone that has kids. You 612 00:29:27,920 --> 00:29:30,560 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. It's like, oh, you're rushing to 613 00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:32,600 Speaker 1: have kids because you're like and how I feel it. 614 00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:35,480 Speaker 1: But but is it though? You know what I'm saying, 615 00:29:35,520 --> 00:29:37,720 Speaker 1: there's so many women that you know, it's like, just 616 00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:40,480 Speaker 1: on your story on where you at. Don't try to 617 00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:42,840 Speaker 1: force where you think you need to be, you know 618 00:29:42,840 --> 00:29:45,360 Speaker 1: what I mean. Even though it's lessons in that, you 619 00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:48,040 Speaker 1: know what I mean? Um, what I find you know 620 00:29:48,480 --> 00:29:51,200 Speaker 1: serves us more just you know, realizing where we are 621 00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:52,960 Speaker 1: and while we're here and where we want to go. 622 00:29:53,160 --> 00:29:59,640 Speaker 1: People get so stuck on societies standard of beauty be 623 00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:01,960 Speaker 1: where they think it would be and how they think 624 00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:04,200 Speaker 1: they should and it's just like, just be you let 625 00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:06,320 Speaker 1: your ship flow, and I promise you with your life 626 00:30:06,320 --> 00:30:08,400 Speaker 1: would be so much better. Period. You stop worrying about 627 00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:10,520 Speaker 1: what everybody else takes standards of what you think you're 628 00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:13,360 Speaker 1: supposed to be exactly, And that's how I live my life, 629 00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:16,000 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Just like, Yo, you know 630 00:30:16,280 --> 00:30:17,880 Speaker 1: what we're doing right now? You know what I'm saying, 631 00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:20,400 Speaker 1: Like are we vibing or it's just physical? Okay? Cool? 632 00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:21,440 Speaker 1: Then you know what I mean. We could do that 633 00:30:21,520 --> 00:30:23,480 Speaker 1: until we feel like we need to have a conversation 634 00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:26,080 Speaker 1: about going further. Okay, what can you contribute? You know 635 00:30:26,080 --> 00:30:27,800 Speaker 1: what I mean? What can I contribute? You know what 636 00:30:27,840 --> 00:30:30,719 Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, what can we do? Because I'm definitely 637 00:30:30,760 --> 00:30:33,800 Speaker 1: not interested in being you know, a boyfriend? You know 638 00:30:33,840 --> 00:30:36,280 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, somebody that because I like you and 639 00:30:36,360 --> 00:30:38,760 Speaker 1: you que and what we got going is nice right now? 640 00:30:39,120 --> 00:30:41,160 Speaker 1: That I'm like fully supporting your brand, you know what 641 00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:44,240 Speaker 1: I mean. Um, if it's in a real investment, you 642 00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:46,600 Speaker 1: know what I mean. We got to talk about the terms. 643 00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:50,760 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, period, agreement, period, it's a business, 644 00:30:50,840 --> 00:30:53,440 Speaker 1: it is. Vacation is the key to all success and happiness. 645 00:30:53,560 --> 00:31:03,040 Speaker 1: You said communicate, but vacations help to Yeah, communication, vacation, 646 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:09,960 Speaker 1: unication and everything in friendship and family, in all relationships, like, 647 00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:13,040 Speaker 1: communication is key. And that's where I think everything lacks 648 00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:18,000 Speaker 1: is people don't have clear communication or understanding of perspectives. 649 00:31:18,120 --> 00:31:21,200 Speaker 1: And um, I saw a post where they somebody was like, 650 00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:23,560 Speaker 1: I kind of want from the jump when we date, 651 00:31:24,040 --> 00:31:26,560 Speaker 1: give me all your traumas, let me know what's going on, 652 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:29,560 Speaker 1: because I think that's how you best know a person 653 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,480 Speaker 1: and you're able to understand all the trauma. I'm not 654 00:31:32,560 --> 00:31:36,840 Speaker 1: doing that from the post, and I din't understood where 655 00:31:36,840 --> 00:31:38,960 Speaker 1: it was. It's like that. For you to understand a person, 656 00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:41,120 Speaker 1: you gotta understand where they come from. You gotta understand 657 00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:43,800 Speaker 1: their past, you gotta understand, you know what's going on 658 00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:46,920 Speaker 1: for you to fully understand the perspective, like you shouldn't 659 00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:48,800 Speaker 1: fully understand some when when you first meet them, you 660 00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:52,400 Speaker 1: gotta like grow the post. I don't agree with that 661 00:31:52,560 --> 00:31:54,480 Speaker 1: that was the post. Let me take my trauma, because 662 00:31:54,480 --> 00:32:01,840 Speaker 1: I would run if somebody sits head know that was 663 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:04,200 Speaker 1: the post. But I do feel after a certain amount 664 00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:06,000 Speaker 1: of time, like you send a lot of people, you 665 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:08,320 Speaker 1: don't understand them because you don't know where they come from. 666 00:32:08,480 --> 00:32:10,560 Speaker 1: You don't understand what they've been. People don't even know 667 00:32:10,600 --> 00:32:13,280 Speaker 1: their own trauma though sometimes, you know, sometimes like a 668 00:32:13,360 --> 00:32:15,160 Speaker 1: lot of a lot of people don't though, because there's 669 00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:17,880 Speaker 1: a lot of things that you might not realize. I 670 00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:21,160 Speaker 1: feel this way because this happened to me, you know, 671 00:32:21,640 --> 00:32:24,680 Speaker 1: until I started therapy then. And it is true that 672 00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,160 Speaker 1: like a lot of people try to put their best 673 00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:31,200 Speaker 1: foot forward when they meet somebody that's like the representative. 674 00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:34,360 Speaker 1: That's what you always get the representative at first, of course, 675 00:32:34,480 --> 00:32:37,000 Speaker 1: as you should, yeah, because that was the honeymoon phase. 676 00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:39,640 Speaker 1: That's when you're just like having fun. You know, it's 677 00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,080 Speaker 1: kind of more at that point, superficial, until you feel 678 00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:45,320 Speaker 1: like you could trust somebody enough to like I think 679 00:32:45,360 --> 00:32:47,640 Speaker 1: I think that too, But I feel like it gives 680 00:32:47,720 --> 00:32:50,720 Speaker 1: room for you to grow, and it gives room for 681 00:32:50,840 --> 00:32:54,080 Speaker 1: you to actually, like for me. You know, it's hard 682 00:32:54,120 --> 00:32:57,720 Speaker 1: to be uh like uber romantic because I know the 683 00:32:57,960 --> 00:33:00,880 Speaker 1: full extent and effect that it has on someone's life, 684 00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:02,200 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So it's like you want 685 00:33:02,240 --> 00:33:04,200 Speaker 1: to be mindful of that. You can't just do that 686 00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:09,880 Speaker 1: in the beginning. What do you school? Super romantic to 687 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:13,200 Speaker 1: any woman? To any woman is something that means something 688 00:33:13,240 --> 00:33:15,320 Speaker 1: to her, you know what I'm saying, Something that deeply 689 00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:18,320 Speaker 1: touches her, Like, give us an example. That's something the 690 00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:23,360 Speaker 1: most important period dowtful gifts. Um, I feel like the 691 00:33:23,480 --> 00:33:26,520 Speaker 1: most important ones are the extensive relationships, you know what 692 00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:29,440 Speaker 1: I'm saying, So like maybe a parent or you know, 693 00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:33,200 Speaker 1: figuring out you know, how to I don't know, let 694 00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:36,240 Speaker 1: me think about an example. Um, but what's something for 695 00:33:36,320 --> 00:33:44,320 Speaker 1: you that's been romantic romantic? Uh? Make this book with 696 00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:48,960 Speaker 1: me and my kids like of like all memories like 697 00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:50,840 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, since they were one of 698 00:33:50,960 --> 00:33:53,520 Speaker 1: until their age like something like that. That's why I'm 699 00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:56,520 Speaker 1: saying something very intimate to that person. You know what 700 00:33:56,520 --> 00:33:58,360 Speaker 1: I mean that you know that's just like oh yeah, 701 00:33:59,080 --> 00:34:01,800 Speaker 1: the heart string it like yo, Because there's nothing you 702 00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:05,640 Speaker 1: can't buy yourself. So yeah, and certain experiences to you know, 703 00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:09,440 Speaker 1: like certain women haven't had certain experiences, so like first timers, 704 00:34:09,520 --> 00:34:11,920 Speaker 1: that's a big thing too, you know, But thoughtful gifts, 705 00:34:11,960 --> 00:34:14,920 Speaker 1: like you said, is uh is the supreme you know 706 00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:18,800 Speaker 1: gift to to give anyone, you know what I mean? Definitely, 707 00:34:19,640 --> 00:34:21,719 Speaker 1: When do you think that you learned how to um 708 00:34:22,080 --> 00:34:24,879 Speaker 1: properly be intimate? Because I feel like when guys are young, 709 00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:27,279 Speaker 1: you all don't really know what you're doing until you 710 00:34:27,360 --> 00:34:29,239 Speaker 1: get to us and you're like, Okay, this is how 711 00:34:29,320 --> 00:34:33,560 Speaker 1: you make a girl squirk, you know what? Yeah, I 712 00:34:33,600 --> 00:34:36,520 Speaker 1: mean I think that there is you know, a mental 713 00:34:36,640 --> 00:34:40,040 Speaker 1: and physical aspect to this. You know that only you know, 714 00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,759 Speaker 1: either you you're learning from an older man, you know 715 00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:45,520 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, or you actually mature into and you know, 716 00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:49,840 Speaker 1: obviously a stronger aspect of you know, the society is 717 00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,040 Speaker 1: like at this point in time, it's like you can 718 00:34:52,120 --> 00:34:56,320 Speaker 1: learn everything on you. Yeah, but so you had like 719 00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:57,719 Speaker 1: tell you what to do, like this is how you 720 00:34:57,800 --> 00:35:01,040 Speaker 1: gotta Yeah, I mean I around the air hustle doing 721 00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:05,920 Speaker 1: that conversation. No, I definitely you know, learned some things, 722 00:35:06,040 --> 00:35:08,640 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But I also was very curious, 723 00:35:09,200 --> 00:35:11,560 Speaker 1: you know, I remember my mom, you know, she used 724 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:15,520 Speaker 1: to work at this harrisalon in Hollywood called Afros in Hollywood, 725 00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:17,759 Speaker 1: And it was like the first time that a right 726 00:35:17,800 --> 00:35:20,360 Speaker 1: across the street was like this adult store, you know 727 00:35:20,400 --> 00:35:22,680 Speaker 1: what I mean. And me and my brother was just 728 00:35:22,760 --> 00:35:25,919 Speaker 1: like walk into adults store like being a little badass kids. 729 00:35:25,960 --> 00:35:28,799 Speaker 1: And that was like the first time I've seen like, oh, 730 00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:32,080 Speaker 1: wait a minute, she is busting it wide open and 731 00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:35,799 Speaker 1: she is handling this like this, hold on now. Yeah, 732 00:35:35,840 --> 00:35:38,640 Speaker 1: so that was kind of like my introduction that's the 733 00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:42,920 Speaker 1: worst way for guys to learn how to have sex. Yeah, not, 734 00:35:43,280 --> 00:35:46,040 Speaker 1: I wouldn't. I wouldn't say it's completely a waste, you 735 00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:48,600 Speaker 1: know what I mean, just because just because there is 736 00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:53,560 Speaker 1: a physical aspect and intention that goes into pleasing a woman, 737 00:35:53,600 --> 00:35:55,440 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Like if most women you 738 00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:57,279 Speaker 1: know complain about not coming, you know what I mean, 739 00:35:57,400 --> 00:36:04,600 Speaker 1: but they're watching poor you know, he he mes, you 740 00:36:04,680 --> 00:36:07,000 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But but like I said, as 741 00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:09,880 Speaker 1: you mature, you realize that, like sex isn't just physical, 742 00:36:10,040 --> 00:36:12,440 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So you know, but if 743 00:36:12,480 --> 00:36:15,200 Speaker 1: I wouldn't have you know, learned learned that, then you know, 744 00:36:15,760 --> 00:36:18,279 Speaker 1: I would say that my intimacy, you know what I 745 00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:20,880 Speaker 1: mean would probably not be so potent, you know what 746 00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,680 Speaker 1: I mean when I decided to love a woman, to 747 00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:25,239 Speaker 1: be intimate with a woman, you know what I mean, 748 00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:29,720 Speaker 1: Like it's like, wait a minute, hold up, this is different. Yes, yes, baby, 749 00:36:29,880 --> 00:36:32,919 Speaker 1: do you remember the first time I girl squirted? It? Um? Yeah, 750 00:36:33,320 --> 00:36:35,200 Speaker 1: I think I think squirting is it's cool. I'm not, 751 00:36:35,320 --> 00:36:38,640 Speaker 1: I'm not really I don't really like that. I think 752 00:36:39,640 --> 00:36:42,839 Speaker 1: I think because it's sometimes you know, you know, certain 753 00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:44,480 Speaker 1: women they're mixing it with the p you know what 754 00:36:44,480 --> 00:36:48,880 Speaker 1: I mean. Okay, yeah, see that's why I know I 755 00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:51,239 Speaker 1: didn't like it, because the material, you know what I'm saying. 756 00:36:51,880 --> 00:36:54,600 Speaker 1: The material and the consistency of it, you know what 757 00:36:54,600 --> 00:36:56,880 Speaker 1: I'm saying, and depending on what you're drinking, you know, 758 00:36:57,280 --> 00:36:59,879 Speaker 1: pH whatever, you know what I'm saying. But I would say, 759 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:06,279 Speaker 1: to make a woman cry, that's that's different. That you 760 00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:13,839 Speaker 1: have sex you cry, like that's something that's like emotional emotional. 761 00:37:15,680 --> 00:37:21,200 Speaker 1: Have you have you cried during sex? I have when 762 00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:23,680 Speaker 1: I like cried, like he saw me cry, but like 763 00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:27,440 Speaker 1: I love this person so much, and my like when 764 00:37:27,480 --> 00:37:30,799 Speaker 1: I skirt, like I'm not squirt with everyone, but when 765 00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:35,160 Speaker 1: I spurt, it's like that that the chemistry, and it's 766 00:37:35,200 --> 00:37:39,200 Speaker 1: just a feeling that's there. Um. But with my ex, 767 00:37:39,280 --> 00:37:41,120 Speaker 1: who I was with for a while, I did cry. 768 00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:42,719 Speaker 1: But I think it was more because it was so 769 00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:45,920 Speaker 1: emotional for me because I love this person so much 770 00:37:46,040 --> 00:37:48,719 Speaker 1: and we had such great cremistry in bed, and it's 771 00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:51,600 Speaker 1: just like in that moment, it was like, how could 772 00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:53,520 Speaker 1: you do me? I don't know, it was just crazy, 773 00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:59,239 Speaker 1: Like it wasn't like happy. It was a happy cry. Yeah, 774 00:37:59,480 --> 00:38:03,160 Speaker 1: more than once. Actually, Yeah, it wasn't like I had to. 775 00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:06,480 Speaker 1: I've had that happy cry and why I've spared it 776 00:38:06,520 --> 00:38:09,399 Speaker 1: a whole lot of times too, And never were their tears. Yeah, 777 00:38:10,760 --> 00:38:14,239 Speaker 1: when I don't laugh, when I square, I don't think. 778 00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:20,359 Speaker 1: I don't think crying. It wasn't like happy cry. Yeah. 779 00:38:20,360 --> 00:38:25,120 Speaker 1: I haven't had a so in love and I feel 780 00:38:25,160 --> 00:38:29,000 Speaker 1: like this, yeah everything right now? Emotional. Yeah, that's what 781 00:38:29,280 --> 00:38:32,600 Speaker 1: That's what I'm referring you shrooms? No, this was before 782 00:38:32,600 --> 00:38:37,239 Speaker 1: the shroom. So you cried during sex? No? No, I 783 00:38:37,320 --> 00:38:39,400 Speaker 1: never cried. Do you want to? You said you never 784 00:38:39,480 --> 00:38:42,879 Speaker 1: cried a period? No? No, I mean, of course I've 785 00:38:42,880 --> 00:38:44,880 Speaker 1: been doing sex yea, yeah, No, you got to let 786 00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:46,480 Speaker 1: it out. Sometimes you don't want it to build up 787 00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:47,880 Speaker 1: over time, you know, I mean, you gotta let it, 788 00:38:47,960 --> 00:38:51,000 Speaker 1: let it tear out. Um. But as far as sex goes, no, 789 00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:54,480 Speaker 1: But I have felt incredibly intimate, you know, like when 790 00:38:54,480 --> 00:38:57,600 Speaker 1: I created my son. You know that was definitely one 791 00:38:57,640 --> 00:39:01,520 Speaker 1: of those moments overwhelming loving. Oh wait a minute, hold up, 792 00:39:04,880 --> 00:39:08,879 Speaker 1: my lord. Yeah, you feel like that with both your kids, 793 00:39:08,960 --> 00:39:12,520 Speaker 1: like you knew, Um, it was different what I may 794 00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:14,960 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, It was always love, but 795 00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:17,719 Speaker 1: you know it was more intense the first time for sure. 796 00:39:18,520 --> 00:39:20,840 Speaker 1: But my baby is just so special, so you know 797 00:39:20,920 --> 00:39:24,520 Speaker 1: I would definitely, you know, um say that love. It 798 00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:29,359 Speaker 1: was more more of what I you know, put into 799 00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:32,640 Speaker 1: that situation than anything because they're awesome. Did you fall 800 00:39:32,760 --> 00:39:35,520 Speaker 1: out of love? You can fall out love for some 801 00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:37,120 Speaker 1: people feel like once you're in love, you love that 802 00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:41,680 Speaker 1: person forever. Like you know that you gotta update, you 803 00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:46,520 Speaker 1: gotta update your love, baby, love and love you could, 804 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:49,640 Speaker 1: I mean, you could love someone because if you've been 805 00:39:49,680 --> 00:39:52,239 Speaker 1: through so much and like real love, this is the 806 00:39:52,280 --> 00:39:55,560 Speaker 1: greatest gift my children. I like, I could not not you, 807 00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:57,520 Speaker 1: but I'm not in love with you, and I think 808 00:39:57,760 --> 00:40:00,560 Speaker 1: in love is the part that keeps in love. It's done. 809 00:40:00,640 --> 00:40:04,080 Speaker 1: I'm over it. Yeah, that you for falling and that's 810 00:40:04,800 --> 00:40:09,760 Speaker 1: everybody getting all personal. Yeah, I'm in love with myself, 811 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,880 Speaker 1: my kids and everybody around me that loving me right 812 00:40:13,920 --> 00:40:15,840 Speaker 1: now and just come on, you know I love with 813 00:40:15,920 --> 00:40:20,120 Speaker 1: this oxygen that's keeping me alive. You want to get 814 00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:22,400 Speaker 1: married one day? No, marriage is not for me, you 815 00:40:22,440 --> 00:40:25,000 Speaker 1: know what I mean. The custom and it's not it's 816 00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:26,719 Speaker 1: not a it's not a good business move for me, 817 00:40:26,920 --> 00:40:29,360 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But I am all for 818 00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:36,920 Speaker 1: a good um. Yeah, I wouldn't want to get married. 819 00:40:37,239 --> 00:40:39,200 Speaker 1: You know. Well, first of all, let me just say, 820 00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:41,040 Speaker 1: you know what I mean to be able to go 821 00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:43,320 Speaker 1: and sign an agreement, you know what I mean to 822 00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:47,319 Speaker 1: the courthouse to validate my love or to validate how 823 00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:49,520 Speaker 1: I'm gonna show up in your life, Like it just 824 00:40:49,600 --> 00:40:51,360 Speaker 1: doesn't equate to the type of love that I have 825 00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:53,880 Speaker 1: to give. Some people feel like for legal purposes, like 826 00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:57,000 Speaker 1: it's something happens to somebody. Yeah, that's already protecting yourself. 827 00:40:57,000 --> 00:40:58,440 Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know, you know, that's not how 828 00:40:58,480 --> 00:41:00,239 Speaker 1: I was raised. You know what I'm saying. I wasn't 829 00:41:00,320 --> 00:41:02,560 Speaker 1: raised you know, in a home where it was like 830 00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:05,520 Speaker 1: marriage you know, was a you know, a status symbol. 831 00:41:05,719 --> 00:41:08,239 Speaker 1: You know, it's none of love, is none of those 832 00:41:08,360 --> 00:41:11,440 Speaker 1: things that it is for the idea of marriage for me, 833 00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,600 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So that's the real reason 834 00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:16,800 Speaker 1: why it's you know, even in the business you know 835 00:41:17,400 --> 00:41:20,719 Speaker 1: aspect you know, uh, to really wealthy man, you know 836 00:41:20,719 --> 00:41:24,080 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, that I have a mass you know, billions. 837 00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:27,160 Speaker 1: You know that is their worst business move, you do 838 00:41:27,239 --> 00:41:29,759 Speaker 1: a prenup. Yeah, I mean I always thought that way, 839 00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:34,600 Speaker 1: like your young adult into well, I never I never 840 00:41:34,719 --> 00:41:38,880 Speaker 1: grew up seeing a marriage really work like happily, you know. 841 00:41:38,920 --> 00:41:41,160 Speaker 1: I mean, I've always just seen people put up with 842 00:41:41,239 --> 00:41:43,040 Speaker 1: each other, you know what I'm saying. So it's like 843 00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:47,960 Speaker 1: not a lot like more people kind of like I think, 844 00:41:48,360 --> 00:41:50,440 Speaker 1: staying married because they feel like it's the right thing 845 00:41:50,520 --> 00:41:55,239 Speaker 1: to do, or gotten married because ever reason, or they're 846 00:41:55,360 --> 00:41:57,520 Speaker 1: not that happy. That's what I'm saying, and I want 847 00:41:58,520 --> 00:42:00,719 Speaker 1: I would never do that to myself. I would never 848 00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:03,240 Speaker 1: be with somebody that I don't like. That's just torture, 849 00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:05,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Somebody that I don't vide 850 00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:07,320 Speaker 1: with my own love. I don't not even want to, 851 00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:10,640 Speaker 1: like share the same bed with you for real, but 852 00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:12,919 Speaker 1: you could be with somebody forever, just you don't feel 853 00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:15,920 Speaker 1: like you have to get married. No, no, we won't 854 00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:19,000 Speaker 1: because you bean monogamous. Like with one person, I feel 855 00:42:19,080 --> 00:42:21,239 Speaker 1: like I could want to be. I feel like I 856 00:42:21,320 --> 00:42:26,200 Speaker 1: could want to be are supposed to be? I feel 857 00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:28,440 Speaker 1: like I want to be. But if I'm being honest, 858 00:42:28,600 --> 00:42:31,239 Speaker 1: like I don't know in the physical aspect, I don't know, 859 00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:33,319 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, I don't know that one 860 00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:36,760 Speaker 1: woman has made me feel like just on a mental 861 00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:39,440 Speaker 1: and a physical level, like damn, I don't even need 862 00:42:39,719 --> 00:42:42,480 Speaker 1: no nothing else, Like I've never felt like that, you 863 00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:45,520 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. No woman for sure when you 864 00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:48,239 Speaker 1: get older, yeah maybe maybe. But you know what I 865 00:42:50,640 --> 00:42:52,840 Speaker 1: don't know. You know, I'm I'm pretty you know, sounding 866 00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:55,239 Speaker 1: my energy, you know what I mean. It's you know, 867 00:42:55,400 --> 00:42:57,400 Speaker 1: for a woman to have to deal with me, you know, 868 00:42:57,520 --> 00:42:59,360 Speaker 1: she got to be a special type of woman you 869 00:42:59,440 --> 00:43:01,640 Speaker 1: know that deals with energy in a in a way, 870 00:43:01,840 --> 00:43:04,680 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So yeah, we'll see. But 871 00:43:05,360 --> 00:43:07,880 Speaker 1: you know, I really feel like the true definition of 872 00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:12,319 Speaker 1: love is acceptance. And you know, for me, a relationship 873 00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:15,160 Speaker 1: is about that. So it's like I want to be 874 00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:17,799 Speaker 1: chosen to be loved in that way. I don't want 875 00:43:17,880 --> 00:43:20,200 Speaker 1: to be like, yeah, we together, you love me, I 876 00:43:20,360 --> 00:43:21,839 Speaker 1: love you, and that's what it is. Like. I want 877 00:43:21,880 --> 00:43:23,279 Speaker 1: her to be like I don't even folk what this 878 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:27,800 Speaker 1: nigga do. He can't do nothing but love me, because 879 00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:29,800 Speaker 1: that's what I want. You know what I'm saying. And 880 00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:32,120 Speaker 1: it's just like, damn, what are you gonna do to that? 881 00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:35,160 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. As long as it ain't toxic, 882 00:43:35,320 --> 00:43:36,680 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, and as long as it's 883 00:43:36,760 --> 00:43:40,080 Speaker 1: authentic and it really comes with you know, um, those 884 00:43:40,160 --> 00:43:42,080 Speaker 1: kind of intentions, and that's that's a love that I 885 00:43:42,200 --> 00:43:44,840 Speaker 1: want for sure. That's a love that i'll keep, you 886 00:43:44,920 --> 00:43:47,279 Speaker 1: know what I mean, And that you're married and that 887 00:43:47,480 --> 00:43:49,719 Speaker 1: I will What if what if she has more than 888 00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:52,160 Speaker 1: you as a business and arrangement, Like let's just say 889 00:43:52,239 --> 00:43:56,920 Speaker 1: that she's wealthy, then that's a good. Yeah, for sure, 890 00:43:57,000 --> 00:44:03,680 Speaker 1: then you'll get married. I would give no baby about 891 00:44:03,719 --> 00:44:07,839 Speaker 1: the cheese, because you ain't about the cheese. The cheese 892 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:10,640 Speaker 1: is you know, just some means. Yeah, you know, it's 893 00:44:10,640 --> 00:44:12,399 Speaker 1: just some means to be able to say, hey, look 894 00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:15,040 Speaker 1: meet me and you know you meet me here, meet 895 00:44:15,040 --> 00:44:16,920 Speaker 1: me there, you know. But for the most part, you 896 00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:18,600 Speaker 1: know what I mean, I want to be supportive, you 897 00:44:18,640 --> 00:44:20,920 Speaker 1: know what I mean, even if there are business ideas, 898 00:44:20,960 --> 00:44:22,759 Speaker 1: because I feel like whoever you know, I end up with, 899 00:44:22,920 --> 00:44:25,120 Speaker 1: she'll have great ideas too. So it's like yo, if 900 00:44:25,160 --> 00:44:27,240 Speaker 1: we you know, Polly and and she's like, yo, baby, 901 00:44:27,320 --> 00:44:29,360 Speaker 1: we need to up Like all right, I'll put up 902 00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:31,600 Speaker 1: at like I would love to do that with a woman, 903 00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:34,560 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, because that's really an exercise 904 00:44:34,640 --> 00:44:36,680 Speaker 1: in the value of the relationship, you know what I'm saying. 905 00:44:36,719 --> 00:44:38,879 Speaker 1: So I'm interested in stuff like that. If she got 906 00:44:38,920 --> 00:44:42,439 Speaker 1: more bands, you know, because of her family or something 907 00:44:42,520 --> 00:44:45,640 Speaker 1: like that, or just or her hard work, you know 908 00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:55,680 Speaker 1: what i mean. Now now, now give us out nows. 909 00:44:56,360 --> 00:44:59,840 Speaker 1: Now you know, everybody got their own thing, you know, 910 00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:03,279 Speaker 1: currency chase and that's a two black line. Um. Yeah, 911 00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:05,600 Speaker 1: but hey, you know, to each his reach, you know 912 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:07,560 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Um, I don't know if that would 913 00:45:07,600 --> 00:45:12,040 Speaker 1: particularly be my um you know, um, definitely something to 914 00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:13,800 Speaker 1: have fun with, you know what I mean, But maybe not, 915 00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:16,160 Speaker 1: you know, uh, the end all be all, you know, 916 00:45:16,280 --> 00:45:18,680 Speaker 1: And I hate no women to have that hustle. You 917 00:45:18,719 --> 00:45:21,920 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Um, it's just energetically different, you 918 00:45:21,960 --> 00:45:24,440 Speaker 1: know what I mean for someone like me. You know, 919 00:45:25,040 --> 00:45:28,040 Speaker 1: we gotta say, O'Ryan was on there doing jumping jacks. 920 00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:34,480 Speaker 1: I spent wrong. What did you say to him about that? Like? 921 00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:37,640 Speaker 1: Were you what do you? Would you make jokes? I mean, well, 922 00:45:37,760 --> 00:45:41,200 Speaker 1: you know, as we all we made jokes on each other. 923 00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:43,279 Speaker 1: You know, I walked in the room and start doing 924 00:45:43,400 --> 00:45:46,440 Speaker 1: jumping jackson up. You know what I mean. But it's 925 00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:49,880 Speaker 1: all good. That video out to the thing about the 926 00:45:50,000 --> 00:45:52,680 Speaker 1: thing about us, you know what I'm saying, Um, particularly 927 00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:54,719 Speaker 1: my brother that you know, he has a way of 928 00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:58,200 Speaker 1: expressing his sexuality, you know, and I would like to 929 00:45:58,760 --> 00:46:01,000 Speaker 1: add as a masculine man, you know what I'm saying. 930 00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:03,399 Speaker 1: A lot of the times women feel like that looks 931 00:46:03,480 --> 00:46:07,560 Speaker 1: like um promiscuity, but it's not. You know, just like 932 00:46:07,680 --> 00:46:10,560 Speaker 1: women expressed themselves, you know, men want to express themselves 933 00:46:10,640 --> 00:46:13,160 Speaker 1: to you know, Prince did that. You know what I mean. 934 00:46:13,200 --> 00:46:15,759 Speaker 1: It's so many people's favorite artists at a time. That's 935 00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:18,360 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. He was able to express you know, himself, 936 00:46:18,640 --> 00:46:20,719 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And masculine men want to 937 00:46:20,880 --> 00:46:23,920 Speaker 1: you know sometimes you know, just like y'all put your 938 00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:25,800 Speaker 1: ass out there on the line. Sometimes, you know, you 939 00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:28,120 Speaker 1: want to put the problem. Man, let it know, Like, hey, baby, 940 00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:30,480 Speaker 1: I'll hit you in the head with this motherfucker. Okay, 941 00:46:30,600 --> 00:46:32,640 Speaker 1: so just you know, I have a picture of Laura 942 00:46:32,680 --> 00:46:37,040 Speaker 1: getting hit on the head with Oh my god. Now 943 00:46:37,080 --> 00:46:41,000 Speaker 1: we were set me up. We were I was hosting 944 00:46:41,080 --> 00:46:43,680 Speaker 1: like a male review show. I was like, just she 945 00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:45,320 Speaker 1: was like, whatever you do, don't test it. He was 946 00:46:45,360 --> 00:46:48,279 Speaker 1: a bump. Oh, you know, he took you to Chinatowns. 947 00:46:54,280 --> 00:46:55,960 Speaker 1: Have you ever sent out a picture of yourself to 948 00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:58,399 Speaker 1: a lady like you never sent to Dick Pick. Yeah, 949 00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:00,440 Speaker 1: in the past for sure. Yeah. But because you know, 950 00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:03,440 Speaker 1: I like to uh, I like to talk. I like 951 00:47:03,600 --> 00:47:07,680 Speaker 1: to you know, speak certain things. Yeah. No, not just 952 00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:10,759 Speaker 1: through pictures, but like you know, real life. Yeah, like, hey, 953 00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:14,399 Speaker 1: you're ready to you know, handle the stick. Yeah, he's 954 00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:16,160 Speaker 1: going to tell her what he gonna do to her. 955 00:47:16,239 --> 00:47:19,719 Speaker 1: You didn't hear that part, didn't wait, But but you 956 00:47:19,800 --> 00:47:22,920 Speaker 1: know these not only tell her, but it's hard to 957 00:47:22,920 --> 00:47:26,880 Speaker 1: send pure I mean, you just gotta own it. You 958 00:47:27,000 --> 00:47:29,279 Speaker 1: just gotta own it, you know, and you gotta make 959 00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:32,480 Speaker 1: It's a good picture. Yeah, get your right angles. Shut 960 00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:38,759 Speaker 1: out angles are very important. The background, the hair. You 961 00:47:38,840 --> 00:47:41,320 Speaker 1: gotta make sure it's manicured. You gotta make sure everything 962 00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:44,440 Speaker 1: is looking nice. Do you ask and shine? No, I 963 00:47:44,480 --> 00:47:50,560 Speaker 1: don't shave man skate a little trim, you know what 964 00:47:50,600 --> 00:47:52,880 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Clippers keeping a little trim, you know what 965 00:47:52,920 --> 00:47:56,000 Speaker 1: I mean? Little feeling you can tell you because about 966 00:47:56,000 --> 00:48:00,640 Speaker 1: the way he didn't right, because I'm pretty, I'm like 967 00:48:00,719 --> 00:48:02,279 Speaker 1: a hairy person, So you know what I mean. I'd 968 00:48:02,320 --> 00:48:04,920 Speaker 1: like to definitely you know what I mean. It's very courtey, 969 00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:10,319 Speaker 1: right because I'm gonna be like, hell no, I don't right. 970 00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:13,680 Speaker 1: So you've sent out these pictures. So the angle got 971 00:48:13,760 --> 00:48:16,880 Speaker 1: to be from under here or from up here. If 972 00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:18,879 Speaker 1: you got the right tool, then all the angles is good. 973 00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,320 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. It hits an If you 974 00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:24,480 Speaker 1: got the right tools, then you know you know, I mean, 975 00:48:24,560 --> 00:48:26,640 Speaker 1: there's definitely more angles that serve you better. You know 976 00:48:26,640 --> 00:48:28,399 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Like I would say the upward angle. 977 00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:31,279 Speaker 1: Upward angle always looks bigger. Upward angle, I would say 978 00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:33,640 Speaker 1: the side side angle. You know what I'm saying, Um 979 00:48:34,040 --> 00:48:37,840 Speaker 1: the above you feel me? Side corner? You feel and 980 00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:41,840 Speaker 1: we all like a little like a little you know curve, Yes, no, 981 00:48:43,040 --> 00:48:47,320 Speaker 1: curves are curves are nice if it's too big, like 982 00:48:47,480 --> 00:48:49,919 Speaker 1: if if it's too big, it could hurt a little 983 00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:53,319 Speaker 1: to me. Like a hook, it's a curb. I don't 984 00:48:53,320 --> 00:48:56,720 Speaker 1: know about a hook, a whole hook, like a slight, 985 00:48:57,040 --> 00:49:00,840 Speaker 1: slight little bit. It's okay, you know, straight up and 986 00:49:00,880 --> 00:49:03,440 Speaker 1: down is good too. So I was like to a 987 00:49:03,520 --> 00:49:06,280 Speaker 1: guy the other day, Um, actually walked into a conversation 988 00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:09,400 Speaker 1: he was having someone and he was saying, Now, I 989 00:49:09,560 --> 00:49:11,719 Speaker 1: was gonna say, he didn't get circumstances until he was 990 00:49:11,800 --> 00:49:15,080 Speaker 1: a teenager. Can you imagine what that must be like you? 991 00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:18,759 Speaker 1: How do you know he did it too? Yeah? I 992 00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:24,399 Speaker 1: think I got and I think I spoke about it. Yeah, 993 00:49:24,840 --> 00:49:26,960 Speaker 1: I got it later on in life when my son 994 00:49:27,120 --> 00:49:30,080 Speaker 1: was born. And its completely useless, you know what I'm saying. 995 00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:31,960 Speaker 1: Like he talked him a lot. He said it made 996 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:34,960 Speaker 1: it more sensitive. Yeah, I mean some people say that. 997 00:49:35,200 --> 00:49:38,320 Speaker 1: Some people say it makes you less sensitive and more desensitized. 998 00:49:38,320 --> 00:49:40,640 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Um, But anyway, I thought 999 00:49:40,640 --> 00:49:44,399 Speaker 1: about you when he said it did clearly, Please don't 1000 00:49:44,400 --> 00:49:49,120 Speaker 1: think about me in that way, think about you, not 1001 00:49:49,320 --> 00:49:53,799 Speaker 1: think he said a woman he was dating told him 1002 00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:55,960 Speaker 1: he should do it. Yeah. I think I think that's 1003 00:49:56,000 --> 00:50:01,160 Speaker 1: because you know, that is you know, societies, you know, um, standard, 1004 00:50:01,200 --> 00:50:03,080 Speaker 1: But yeah, if you really know where it comes from, 1005 00:50:03,320 --> 00:50:04,880 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like in the in the 1006 00:50:05,000 --> 00:50:07,759 Speaker 1: religion aspect, you know what I mean. Yeah, I mean, 1007 00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:09,480 Speaker 1: you know, in the Jewish aspect, that's a that's the 1008 00:50:09,560 --> 00:50:13,160 Speaker 1: custom that they have, you know. Yeah. So it's like 1009 00:50:13,239 --> 00:50:15,000 Speaker 1: when you really think about what you're doing, you know 1010 00:50:15,040 --> 00:50:16,759 Speaker 1: what I mean, and you're like, wait a minute, hold up, 1011 00:50:16,840 --> 00:50:19,040 Speaker 1: this but this is how we naturally born, you know 1012 00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:21,280 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like, this is how the dick comes. 1013 00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:24,720 Speaker 1: The dick comes like this when you tell them that. Yeah, yeah, period, 1014 00:50:24,760 --> 00:50:27,640 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So you know, um, but hey, 1015 00:50:27,960 --> 00:50:29,680 Speaker 1: you know I went on and went to the other side. 1016 00:50:34,239 --> 00:50:37,400 Speaker 1: I would say less sensitive. Yeah, I would say less sensitive. 1017 00:50:37,480 --> 00:50:38,960 Speaker 1: You know. I think it's because you did it later 1018 00:50:39,080 --> 00:50:41,960 Speaker 1: on in life or what now? Um? Yeah, No, I 1019 00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:43,759 Speaker 1: don't know. I think it's different for everyone. You know, 1020 00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:46,640 Speaker 1: everybody has a different kind of sensitivity. You know what 1021 00:50:46,719 --> 00:50:52,799 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Um, not necessarily you clean, it's prettier huh um, Yeah, 1022 00:50:52,840 --> 00:50:55,160 Speaker 1: I mean it looks more like what what we know 1023 00:50:55,400 --> 00:51:01,080 Speaker 1: women want, because yeah, that's had. I've had more than 1024 00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:04,640 Speaker 1: one experience with the uncircumcised penis, and I had a 1025 00:51:04,960 --> 00:51:08,640 Speaker 1: really good experience with the uncircumcised the second time. The 1026 00:51:08,680 --> 00:51:10,400 Speaker 1: first time, I was like, what then, because you know, 1027 00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:12,600 Speaker 1: I was young and I wasn't you know, that experience 1028 00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:14,799 Speaker 1: with penises at all, So I just really didn't wasn't 1029 00:51:14,840 --> 00:51:18,200 Speaker 1: expecting that were prepared for that. But the second time, 1030 00:51:18,560 --> 00:51:21,680 Speaker 1: it was actually nice, Like it was it was a 1031 00:51:21,760 --> 00:51:24,839 Speaker 1: situation with that guy for a while, and that wasn't 1032 00:51:24,920 --> 00:51:27,080 Speaker 1: any type of thought or it was almost at the 1033 00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:28,480 Speaker 1: point where like I would be sucking his dick and 1034 00:51:28,560 --> 00:51:32,239 Speaker 1: forget that that was happening. It was so did you 1035 00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:34,000 Speaker 1: just have to get a warning? I had a time 1036 00:51:34,080 --> 00:51:35,879 Speaker 1: like just so you know, because she said the guy 1037 00:51:36,040 --> 00:51:40,080 Speaker 1: she was caught off guard. Yeah no, no, I'm pulling out. Yeah. 1038 00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:43,400 Speaker 1: I didn't get a morning guy either. But again I 1039 00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:47,000 Speaker 1: was much older and much more experienced sexually, so I 1040 00:51:47,200 --> 00:51:49,680 Speaker 1: under stood happened. In the first time, I was just 1041 00:51:51,920 --> 00:51:53,640 Speaker 1: what was happening? I know it looked funny, it looked 1042 00:51:53,640 --> 00:51:56,360 Speaker 1: like an elephant because we used to it, right, I 1043 00:51:56,440 --> 00:51:59,320 Speaker 1: mean the custom too of how everyone is kind of 1044 00:51:59,360 --> 00:52:02,840 Speaker 1: like program to be like yeah, but in other cultures 1045 00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:05,440 Speaker 1: they're not like that, Like I know certain Spanish cultures 1046 00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:09,759 Speaker 1: like that. You know, they coming as they are right, Yeah, 1047 00:52:09,840 --> 00:52:13,080 Speaker 1: and the women right, it's like a BBL for your 1048 00:52:13,120 --> 00:52:20,360 Speaker 1: penis kind of that's more like a more like a 1049 00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:27,200 Speaker 1: penis tuck. Yeah, penis tuck tucked the skin off. All right. 1050 00:52:27,239 --> 00:52:28,680 Speaker 1: I know you have a lot going on because you 1051 00:52:28,719 --> 00:52:30,200 Speaker 1: are doing a lot of press around you, but but 1052 00:52:30,239 --> 00:52:31,680 Speaker 1: I do want to thank you so much for coming 1053 00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:34,440 Speaker 1: and have a good time with that. We really did 1054 00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:38,719 Speaker 1: enjoy Yeah, no doubt, thank and I definitely appreciate this book. Um, 1055 00:52:39,239 --> 00:52:41,719 Speaker 1: I'm like almost done. I'm finishing on my way home 1056 00:52:41,800 --> 00:52:46,040 Speaker 1: on the plane. But it was refreshing. Definitely was here 1057 00:52:46,040 --> 00:52:51,960 Speaker 1: because yeah, it wasn't not what I expected because I 1058 00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:54,120 Speaker 1: didn't know what to expect. Um, but I learned a 1059 00:52:54,160 --> 00:52:56,480 Speaker 1: lot about you and your upbringing and who you are 1060 00:52:56,480 --> 00:52:59,400 Speaker 1: as a man, and I appreciate you sharing that it's 1061 00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:01,480 Speaker 1: something that's that they needed. So I hope people have 1062 00:53:01,640 --> 00:53:03,640 Speaker 1: the same reaction that I did, because I felt like 1063 00:53:03,719 --> 00:53:06,160 Speaker 1: this is something that we should Would you do a 1064 00:53:06,280 --> 00:53:08,440 Speaker 1: retreat after this, like would you plan to do like 1065 00:53:08,560 --> 00:53:12,360 Speaker 1: some type of retreat to teach people more about you know, mind, 1066 00:53:12,440 --> 00:53:16,320 Speaker 1: body and soul, spirituality and things like that. Yeah, so 1067 00:53:16,400 --> 00:53:20,640 Speaker 1: we're actually doing an Unbothered book tour, and there is 1068 00:53:20,719 --> 00:53:24,279 Speaker 1: a series of things that I take you through. Some breathwork. Um, 1069 00:53:24,480 --> 00:53:27,080 Speaker 1: we do some affirmations together, and we also do a 1070 00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:29,239 Speaker 1: sound bath. I don't know if you've got that. I 1071 00:53:29,400 --> 00:53:31,480 Speaker 1: just did that for the first time. So we do 1072 00:53:31,560 --> 00:53:35,799 Speaker 1: a sound but yeah, that's good. You need to passed out. 1073 00:53:37,080 --> 00:53:40,120 Speaker 1: But why don't you end with some affirmations for us? Okay, 1074 00:53:40,200 --> 00:53:43,520 Speaker 1: let's let's pull it from the book. Let's do like this. Okay, 1075 00:53:44,200 --> 00:53:49,400 Speaker 1: and I know which one I want to use. Yes, okay, 1076 00:53:50,120 --> 00:53:56,520 Speaker 1: this is the being Unbothered meditation. Okay. Now, usually sit 1077 00:53:56,680 --> 00:53:59,719 Speaker 1: in you know, comfortable position, you know what I mean? 1078 00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:06,319 Speaker 1: Then I do, and then let's do this all right, 1079 00:54:06,360 --> 00:54:08,279 Speaker 1: And now we're gonna do three breaths before we do 1080 00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:21,719 Speaker 1: this in hell or more. Now this last one real deep. 1081 00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:32,200 Speaker 1: I am walking away from toxicity. Be unbothered. Sometimes we 1082 00:54:32,360 --> 00:54:37,240 Speaker 1: go far from people who deserve very little. Be unbothered. 1083 00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:41,080 Speaker 1: I am willing to find a new way or make 1084 00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:47,840 Speaker 1: one be unbothered. I am disrupting ignorance with clarity. Be unbothered. 1085 00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:52,920 Speaker 1: I will gather my thoughts, be honest with myself. Be unbothered. 1086 00:54:53,800 --> 00:54:56,600 Speaker 1: I know now all that matters is what's meant for me. 1087 00:54:57,360 --> 00:55:00,880 Speaker 1: Be unbothered. I know that something are meant to be, 1088 00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:06,080 Speaker 1: but not meant to last. Be unbothered. I stand firm 1089 00:55:06,160 --> 00:55:10,280 Speaker 1: in my truth like a rock, undisturbed and unmoved. Be unbothered. 1090 00:55:10,960 --> 00:55:16,839 Speaker 1: Ignorance and rudeness crave attention and acknowledgement. Be unbothered. There 1091 00:55:16,880 --> 00:55:24,000 Speaker 1: we go. Amen, Amen, thank you so much. That's amazing. 1092 00:55:25,640 --> 00:55:31,040 Speaker 1: I feel bad for some of the questions earlier. Let's 1093 00:55:31,080 --> 00:55:31,440 Speaker 1: Service