WEBVTT - BIG FACTS feat. G HERBO 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:04.320 Big Man and DJ Scream bring you Big Facts hot 0:00:04.320 --> 0:00:07.480 this podcast in the streets. Visit the new website today 0:00:07.760 --> 0:00:11.320 www dot Big Facts pod dot com. A live from 0:00:11.360 --> 0:00:14.280 first Class Sounds is DJ Scream, Big Big Baby Jay, 0:00:14.360 --> 0:00:17.680 Special guests, g Herbo. It's time for that Big Facts. 0:00:19.040 --> 0:00:21.319 What's going on with everybody? Everybody good? Everybody good on 0:00:21.360 --> 0:00:25.440 this fine day. That's what that's what up? Herbro? Man? 0:00:25.480 --> 0:00:27.520 You you were like one of the most requested, if 0:00:27.520 --> 0:00:29.840 not the most requested guests for Big Facts, So welcome. 0:00:29.880 --> 0:00:31.160 You know what I'm saying. To look forward to that 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:34.959 conversation myself. I ain't gonna requested, are you if you're 0:00:34.960 --> 0:00:36.680 a fan fan of the show like you. So that's 0:00:36.720 --> 0:00:38.640 the coaching man, I asked you, Man, I ain't gonna 0:00:38.920 --> 0:00:41.280 wanted to pull up. I ain't never really like requesting 0:00:41.280 --> 0:00:43.080 myself to go on those ships. I ain't gonna that, 0:00:43.120 --> 0:00:44.479 Big Bro, I tell you. I used to tell him 0:00:44.560 --> 0:00:46.479 like myself, like, man, I need to do that ship. Man, 0:00:46.520 --> 0:00:51.920 come we do? Yeah? Yeah, absolutely, new project going crazy. 0:00:51.960 --> 0:00:54.400 You know what I'm saying. Congratulations on that. What's on 0:00:54.640 --> 0:00:57.400 Herbo mind to day? Man? Today? Man, I'm just chilling, man. 0:00:57.520 --> 0:00:59.400 I just want to pick my son up right now? 0:00:59.480 --> 0:01:02.240 Something that evo this ship? Okay, you know I not 0:01:02.320 --> 0:01:04.160 coming to in line. I'll really be hanging out for 0:01:04.200 --> 0:01:06.679 real unless I win my son and ship. So I 0:01:06.760 --> 0:01:08.880 just put up right here because that's the home team, 0:01:08.920 --> 0:01:10.880 you know, and PU up right here. What's the spot 0:01:10.880 --> 0:01:13.399 should be working with when you're in the eight time ship? 0:01:13.760 --> 0:01:18.040 Couple of cold, cop of cold? Right, shout the rugs. 0:01:19.880 --> 0:01:27.440 They got everything up there, man Ni took old bucket right, 0:01:30.400 --> 0:01:32.280 they got the white boy in place. Now they do 0:01:32.480 --> 0:01:38.640 whatever right right? Yeah? Yeah, that's all it too. Yeah, 0:01:38.880 --> 0:01:40.480 running up him a couple of dollars now, I know 0:01:40.520 --> 0:01:43.360 exactly what we're talking about. Two pie boyshit too boy. 0:01:45.440 --> 0:01:48.360 Recently you showed a lot of loves Nicki minajh who 0:01:48.360 --> 0:01:50.680 gave you, I guess, your first big co sign of 0:01:50.760 --> 0:01:52.880 feature and you were saying ship like you know what 0:01:52.880 --> 0:01:54.760 I'm saying, she harder than a lot of male rappers 0:01:54.760 --> 0:01:57.160 and all that ship and also that I guess that 0:01:57.360 --> 0:02:00.080 you know a feature from Nicki Minaj's Life Change And 0:02:00.760 --> 0:02:03.120 who else do you think outside of Nicki Minaj has 0:02:03.200 --> 0:02:08.239 like that life changing feature ability? Um Drake for yeah drake, 0:02:09.000 --> 0:02:11.640 UM should a couple of artists. It just depend on 0:02:11.919 --> 0:02:13.920 like what you do with and how you do it, 0:02:13.960 --> 0:02:15.520 you know what I'm saying. Whole that could be a 0:02:15.560 --> 0:02:18.079 life change situation. A lot of people like Meet the 0:02:18.200 --> 0:02:20.600 Future thug, A lot of that ship could change your life. 0:02:20.600 --> 0:02:23.080 It just depends on how you position you know what 0:02:23.080 --> 0:02:26.480 I'm saying the record for real, but yeah, yeah, I 0:02:26.520 --> 0:02:28.359 feel like the right coach in the right coach sine 0:02:28.400 --> 0:02:30.200 and definitely take you all the way over the top 0:02:30.240 --> 0:02:33.560 for show and then do you see yourself in the 0:02:33.560 --> 0:02:37.079 space of blessing maybe some other Chicago artists or other 0:02:37.120 --> 0:02:39.560 people too, because you kind of in that situation too. 0:02:39.639 --> 0:02:41.280 Jehr wo get you that coach sign. You know what 0:02:41.280 --> 0:02:46.240 I'm saying. Yeah, Yeah, for sure. It's a bunch of 0:02:46.320 --> 0:02:49.560 artists like and it's really not down yourself down like 0:02:49.600 --> 0:02:51.800 Savage one of them artists that you can coach you 0:02:51.880 --> 0:02:54.120 and take you over the top. Um. I feel like 0:02:54.120 --> 0:02:55.440 I could do it too though. I feel like I'm 0:02:55.480 --> 0:02:56.880 definitely one of them artists that could. You know what 0:02:56.919 --> 0:02:59.240 I'm saying, I did it be photo, you know, like 0:02:59.680 --> 0:03:02.240 not is with just a feature just a coaching Like 0:03:02.280 --> 0:03:04.239 a lot of artists are coming out of Chicago. I 0:03:04.280 --> 0:03:07.120 would like CoA sing or play their music and laughing ship, 0:03:07.240 --> 0:03:10.120 and then it was just really like pipe their whole movement, 0:03:10.360 --> 0:03:12.160 you know what I'm saying. But I feel like it's 0:03:12.200 --> 0:03:14.280 really like that's just one part of it. Though. You 0:03:14.320 --> 0:03:16.120 gotta have the talent for sure, though, you know what 0:03:16.160 --> 0:03:18.560 I'm saying. You gotta have the talent people. The people 0:03:18.600 --> 0:03:22.320 gotta funk with your movements. So I feel like CoA sage, 0:03:22.360 --> 0:03:24.519 that's just that's easy. If if my fucking real and 0:03:24.560 --> 0:03:26.480 they're gonna rock with you, we don't really cost no money. 0:03:26.560 --> 0:03:28.720 Like I don't really be trying to do it like 0:03:29.120 --> 0:03:32.880 just coaching somebody ship or play somebody ship to kind 0:03:32.919 --> 0:03:35.360 of position myself to benefit off this ship, you know, 0:03:35.480 --> 0:03:37.080 so I'll really be funking with it. Like a lot 0:03:37.120 --> 0:03:40.120 of times, like my team and home, these people around 0:03:40.120 --> 0:03:41.800 me like, man, you've got to stop doing that. But 0:03:41.840 --> 0:03:43.800 it's like for what ship, And I'm just showing love. 0:03:43.880 --> 0:03:45.680 I want to see niggas win, you know what I'm saying, 0:03:45.720 --> 0:03:47.440 that's what you really do it. Like a lot of 0:03:47.480 --> 0:03:50.080 times I didn't actually wanted to sound artists and play 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:52.640 their ship and then then signing them and I ain't 0:03:52.640 --> 0:03:54.880 never had no bad blood and no ill feelings, and 0:03:54.920 --> 0:03:57.200 then towards them, you know, I just I funked with it. 0:03:57.240 --> 0:03:59.280 I genuinely funk with it. So you was doing something 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:01.160 right to even make me want to playoff, you know 0:04:01.160 --> 0:04:04.480 what I'm saying. That's what it's about for real. So 0:04:04.560 --> 0:04:08.720 when you drive PTSD that was like your first top 0:04:08.760 --> 0:04:13.680 ten entry and then now that you drop debuted at 0:04:13.760 --> 0:04:16.440 number five on the list, So how do what do 0:04:16.480 --> 0:04:19.720 you feel like is your growth from the ptsd s 0:04:19.760 --> 0:04:22.800 in the well really from welcome to Phase I landed 0:04:22.839 --> 0:04:26.560 to the PTSDs and like, what do you think? How 0:04:26.560 --> 0:04:29.760 do you think you evolved from then to now? Really 0:04:29.760 --> 0:04:32.840 it's just I feel like I just stayed solid through anything, 0:04:33.000 --> 0:04:35.160 you know, because when I dropped my first project, well 0:04:35.200 --> 0:04:37.600 from the phase on land, I was like seventeen years 0:04:37.600 --> 0:04:40.760 old like that. Yeah, I was young at hill, but 0:04:41.040 --> 0:04:43.880 I was really like in the streets more so than anything, 0:04:44.000 --> 0:04:46.720 you know. So I like, it's a lot of ship 0:04:46.800 --> 0:04:49.400 that comes in the like behind the scenes of the industry, 0:04:49.440 --> 0:04:51.000 a lot of adversity and a lot of ships you 0:04:51.080 --> 0:04:54.800 gotta overcome, especially being independent. I've been independent the whole time. 0:04:54.839 --> 0:04:57.760 I've been an artist, so I had I felt like 0:04:57.800 --> 0:05:00.800 I took the long route, you know. Yeah, the more 0:05:00.839 --> 0:05:03.480 I've been through ship and overcame and I grew as 0:05:03.480 --> 0:05:05.040 a man. You know what I'm saying that the more 0:05:05.080 --> 0:05:06.719 I grew as a man, I grew as an artist. 0:05:06.720 --> 0:05:08.400 So I feel like that was really the difference, and 0:05:08.440 --> 0:05:11.719 it reflected through my music. I never had like one record, 0:05:11.800 --> 0:05:13.880 a big record that just blew me up and turned 0:05:13.880 --> 0:05:16.160 me to this big style overnight, and no ship like that. 0:05:16.200 --> 0:05:19.200 You know. I always just did good business and just 0:05:19.839 --> 0:05:22.120 whether the storm because I go through a lot of 0:05:22.120 --> 0:05:24.520 ship behind closed doors, like in the industry, you know 0:05:24.520 --> 0:05:27.120 what I'm saying, whether it's just ironing out you know, 0:05:27.440 --> 0:05:31.839 ship on internally with my business. Really Like one of 0:05:31.880 --> 0:05:34.360 the toughest things I did, though, was leaving the streets 0:05:34.360 --> 0:05:36.280 for real and just chasing only music, you know what 0:05:36.320 --> 0:05:38.560 I'm saying, Like separating myself from a lot of ship, 0:05:38.680 --> 0:05:40.400 a lot of negative ship, a lot of my homies, 0:05:40.440 --> 0:05:42.920 you know what I'm saying, And and they had nothing 0:05:42.920 --> 0:05:44.919 to do with like no bad blood and none. I 0:05:45.000 --> 0:05:46.920 just felt like I was so deep in the streets, 0:05:46.920 --> 0:05:50.440 so I couldn't really grow stayed in my same environment, 0:05:50.760 --> 0:05:52.640 I wouldn't be where I'm at right now today. So 0:05:52.680 --> 0:05:54.640 I had to take a real step back from like 0:05:54.720 --> 0:05:58.080 everything you know, and and my music grew Like that 0:05:58.160 --> 0:06:00.520 was around the time I dropped a Humble Beasts, which 0:06:00.520 --> 0:06:03.680 is my first album, and I felt like I grew 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:06.360 as an artist, like my music mature the ship like that, 0:06:06.440 --> 0:06:08.880 So just them different transitions. Then I had a son 0:06:08.960 --> 0:06:11.560 around that time, and I just started to grow. And 0:06:11.600 --> 0:06:13.880 I feel like my music the more I grow, you 0:06:13.880 --> 0:06:15.760 could tell through my music, you know what I'm saying. 0:06:16.320 --> 0:06:18.000 I feel like I go through a lot of like 0:06:18.520 --> 0:06:20.960 dark ship behind closed door that I don't really talk 0:06:20.960 --> 0:06:23.279 about on the internet, you know, ship like that, you 0:06:23.279 --> 0:06:24.800 know what I'm saying. And I just locked myself in 0:06:24.839 --> 0:06:26.839 the studio like when I'd be stretched out and going 0:06:26.880 --> 0:06:29.640 through ship. I just isolate myself from anything and go 0:06:29.680 --> 0:06:31.240 to the studio every day and just put it in 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:33.320 my music. That ship like a former therapy for me, 0:06:33.400 --> 0:06:36.119 you know what I'm saying. So I feel like every 0:06:36.160 --> 0:06:38.960 time I do that, I just blossom through music, you 0:06:39.000 --> 0:06:41.159 know what I'm saying. And with with two five, I 0:06:41.200 --> 0:06:42.560 went through like a lot of ship, you know what 0:06:42.600 --> 0:06:45.120 I'm saying. My little brother, dad and Jane weary. I 0:06:45.200 --> 0:06:47.080 was just falling back from that. I had a baby, 0:06:47.160 --> 0:06:48.880 you know what I'm saying, Another son I just head 0:06:49.040 --> 0:06:53.040 and made, so like just getting into that transition of 0:06:53.120 --> 0:06:54.640 my life, you know what I'm saying. With like they 0:06:54.680 --> 0:06:57.640 could be stressing it facing trauma and still having to 0:06:57.720 --> 0:07:00.720 go home and be a boyfriend and be a father 0:07:00.920 --> 0:07:02.960 and be a son and an artist and all this. 0:07:03.080 --> 0:07:05.680 You gotta put on a certain face for everybody in 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:09.280 the world, but behind closed doors could be really like 0:07:09.640 --> 0:07:14.760 selling a weight, like realistic. So I like, I'll just 0:07:14.800 --> 0:07:17.840 be trying to not let that ship rub off on nobody. 0:07:17.880 --> 0:07:19.480 Like I don't want my girl to be feeling the 0:07:19.520 --> 0:07:21.600 pain on feeling that day, or my mom or my 0:07:21.760 --> 0:07:24.280 kids and all that. So in order to do so, 0:07:24.400 --> 0:07:26.840 I gotta like make a sacrifice and take that time 0:07:26.880 --> 0:07:29.000 away from them until I get myself together, you know 0:07:29.040 --> 0:07:30.760 what I'm saying. And then the only thing that makes 0:07:30.800 --> 0:07:33.320 me feel good is doing music. So I feel like 0:07:33.400 --> 0:07:35.800 that's why my music reflect that, you know so much, 0:07:36.160 --> 0:07:38.080 So like all the stuff that you were going through 0:07:38.280 --> 0:07:40.880 and all the stuff that you've been through, like from 0:07:40.920 --> 0:07:43.080 growing up and even that you still go through as 0:07:43.080 --> 0:07:46.360 an adult. Was that kind of like the catalyst that 0:07:46.400 --> 0:07:50.400 made you start the swerving through stress last year? Yeah? Yeah, 0:07:50.760 --> 0:07:53.440 I did that because when I go back home, I'll 0:07:53.480 --> 0:07:56.679 be seeing it like I see myself and my homies 0:07:56.720 --> 0:07:58.960 and ship like and so much like in so many 0:07:58.960 --> 0:08:01.160 of the kids that I interact with on the day 0:08:01.160 --> 0:08:03.120 to day. You know what I'm saying. Like I used 0:08:03.120 --> 0:08:05.160 to listen to nobody. I've been rapping so I was 0:08:05.880 --> 0:08:07.760 sixteen years old, you know. So I've been on my 0:08:07.880 --> 0:08:10.520 same team, my same being a partner, my same manager, 0:08:10.560 --> 0:08:13.600 all of sixteen years old. I always had like good 0:08:13.640 --> 0:08:15.760 solid people around me, but I still deal what I 0:08:15.800 --> 0:08:17.640 wanted to do. You know what I'm saying. I had 0:08:17.760 --> 0:08:19.640 my partner, I had and they is invested in me. 0:08:19.680 --> 0:08:21.480 When I was a kid sixteen years or I was 0:08:21.520 --> 0:08:24.040 still in the streets like dugging, I could have died. 0:08:24.080 --> 0:08:25.720 I went to jail any date, you know what I'm saying. 0:08:25.760 --> 0:08:29.240 And I wasn't really thinking about nothing but myself. It's 0:08:29.280 --> 0:08:31.120 nothing nobody could have told me or could have gave 0:08:31.160 --> 0:08:33.000 me no advice that just would have made me leading 0:08:33.040 --> 0:08:34.800 streets because that's all I wanted to do. I love 0:08:34.880 --> 0:08:37.800 it so we're saying that I'm trying to say, like, 0:08:38.200 --> 0:08:42.160 kids don't really listen until it's either somebody gonna have 0:08:42.200 --> 0:08:44.199 to show them that they really care enough to make 0:08:44.240 --> 0:08:46.320 them want to have another alternative. You know what I'm saying, 0:08:46.360 --> 0:08:48.720 Like you could telling oh, no, you go dad, go 0:08:48.760 --> 0:08:50.520 to jail in the streets. Everybody know that, you know 0:08:50.559 --> 0:08:53.000 what I'm saying, Like everybody knows what they up against 0:08:53.040 --> 0:08:55.040 when they really in it and putting themselves in these 0:08:55.320 --> 0:08:57.439 environments and in the lane of fire every day. But 0:08:57.760 --> 0:09:00.240 what's your alternative? You can't have no kid like or 0:09:00.400 --> 0:09:02.800 a grown man, nobody. You can't have nobody who this 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:05.120 all they know you want them to change their life 0:09:05.120 --> 0:09:10.840 around the blink of an average Right, You're trying trying 0:09:10.840 --> 0:09:12.480 to tell a nigger like no, this this You know 0:09:12.480 --> 0:09:14.679 what I'm saying. But like, even though I had talent 0:09:14.720 --> 0:09:16.600 and I was doing music the whole time, and I 0:09:16.600 --> 0:09:18.800 felt like I could make it, but the only thing 0:09:18.840 --> 0:09:20.440 that I felt was working for me was being in 0:09:20.440 --> 0:09:23.040 the streets. I felt the safest in the streets. I 0:09:23.080 --> 0:09:25.920 felt like I was the most It was the most 0:09:25.920 --> 0:09:27.600 beneficial for me. That was the only way I knew 0:09:27.640 --> 0:09:29.280 how to make some money. You know what I'm saying, 0:09:29.280 --> 0:09:30.959 Like I want making money off wrap when I was 0:09:31.000 --> 0:09:33.679 seventeen years old for real, Like it wasn't enough for 0:09:33.720 --> 0:09:37.440 me to just dedicate myself straight to it and swerting 0:09:37.520 --> 0:09:40.040 through stress. Idea that because I feel like kids listen 0:09:40.080 --> 0:09:42.600 to me, especially in Chicago, like because they know I 0:09:42.760 --> 0:09:44.440 really come from that, you know what I'm saying. I 0:09:44.480 --> 0:09:46.840 already made a name for myself in the streets before 0:09:46.840 --> 0:09:49.160 I was like this big artist, So a lot of 0:09:49.160 --> 0:09:51.120 people really know me out there, you know what I'm saying. 0:09:51.120 --> 0:09:52.480 So for me to be able to come back and 0:09:52.520 --> 0:09:54.800 they see, I got ship that's tangible, I got property 0:09:54.840 --> 0:09:57.280 in Chicago. I got to school in Chicago, and I'm 0:09:57.320 --> 0:09:59.960 twenty five years old, and they seeing me like then 0:10:00.200 --> 0:10:02.640 it's possible. And I'm telling them like now I only 0:10:02.840 --> 0:10:05.080 want to come back and motivate you because I was once. 0:10:05.120 --> 0:10:07.160 You know what I'm saying, you could do the same ship. 0:10:07.280 --> 0:10:10.040 You know, I didn't went to the jails and ship 0:10:10.120 --> 0:10:11.480 like that, and a lot of time, like I just 0:10:11.480 --> 0:10:13.439 look at the kids, they don't really listen to nobody. 0:10:13.520 --> 0:10:15.559 And then I come and talk to him and then 0:10:15.600 --> 0:10:18.800 they had to like one time this kid told me like, man, 0:10:19.440 --> 0:10:21.360 I got juvenile life, and as soon as I get 0:10:21.400 --> 0:10:23.880 out of jail, I'm going right right to the joint. Man, 0:10:23.880 --> 0:10:25.240 they ain't no hope for me. And I'm like, that's 0:10:25.240 --> 0:10:27.240 what they want you to think. They really want you 0:10:27.280 --> 0:10:29.240 to feel like it's no way for you to ever 0:10:29.360 --> 0:10:31.360 overcome any of the ship you're going through. You know 0:10:31.360 --> 0:10:33.880 what I'm saying. That that's why I started that initiative. 0:10:33.920 --> 0:10:36.040 If you feel me, because it ain't just about me. 0:10:36.160 --> 0:10:38.600 I don't want to go I name my son ESSs 0:10:38.640 --> 0:10:40.439 Man after my block. I don't want to go back 0:10:40.440 --> 0:10:42.439 to my hood if I can't bring my kids over there, 0:10:42.800 --> 0:10:44.440 if I can't make that ship good enough for me 0:10:44.480 --> 0:10:45.720 to be able to stand out there, and I have 0:10:45.760 --> 0:10:47.920 to carry no gun when I'm thirty five forty years 0:10:47.920 --> 0:10:49.520 old and ain't when I'm doing this ship. You know 0:10:49.559 --> 0:10:53.079 what I'm saying, And it's about putting the resources back 0:10:53.120 --> 0:10:55.120 into it, putting the resources back into the community. I 0:10:55.160 --> 0:10:58.120 know rappers, I know NBA players, I know engineers. Like 0:10:58.160 --> 0:11:01.000 that's why the building we got we're gonna turn into 0:11:01.000 --> 0:11:04.880 a multi media facility because it's like nigger got the resources, 0:11:05.040 --> 0:11:07.840 we got everything that we could put back into the community. 0:11:07.880 --> 0:11:10.200 I could have my homeies. Are you fucking me? Let's 0:11:10.240 --> 0:11:13.120 go back and just talk to these kids about engineering. 0:11:13.120 --> 0:11:15.480 To talk to these kids about the ends and outs, 0:11:15.679 --> 0:11:18.520 going to play pro basketball or college basketball on the 0:11:18.600 --> 0:11:22.920 high level, or you know, just produce production, whatever it is, 0:11:22.960 --> 0:11:26.840 whatever your specialty, whatever your specialty is, just go back 0:11:26.880 --> 0:11:30.000 and just not even just showing them how to do it, 0:11:30.040 --> 0:11:31.800 but just letting them see and feel. You like, that 0:11:31.840 --> 0:11:34.120 ship a different feeling from seeing somebody on the internet 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:35.680 and then being right in front of you and they're like, 0:11:35.720 --> 0:11:37.760 oh damn, it's a real nigga too. He actually a 0:11:37.840 --> 0:11:40.200 real person. Like people really looking at us and feel 0:11:40.200 --> 0:11:42.120 like we superheroes because we're on the internet and we 0:11:42.160 --> 0:11:44.280 get you know, we regular people. Like if you go 0:11:44.360 --> 0:11:47.080 and have a regular conversation with somebody, that ship could 0:11:47.080 --> 0:11:48.599 really change their life. You know what I'm saying that 0:11:48.720 --> 0:11:50.960 I learned that just off experience. You feel me. So 0:11:51.360 --> 0:11:53.560 that's why that ship like just as important as the 0:11:53.640 --> 0:11:57.560 music to me. For what was that one moment, oh, 0:11:57.720 --> 0:11:59.880 one thing that happened to made you feel like I 0:12:00.080 --> 0:12:03.760 can do this ship? Um Man, I ain't gonna lie 0:12:03.840 --> 0:12:06.440 really and I ain't even just saying like on the 0:12:06.440 --> 0:12:08.720 other ship. Like really, when when Nikki flew me to 0:12:08.840 --> 0:12:11.360 l A, like she actually flew me to l A 0:12:11.400 --> 0:12:13.120 for real and just hit me in the studio over 0:12:13.160 --> 0:12:16.000 there and like telling me like, no, I only reached 0:12:16.000 --> 0:12:18.480 out to you because I funk with you, like I 0:12:18.640 --> 0:12:20.920 really like your flows and all this ship. That ship 0:12:20.960 --> 0:12:22.960 inspired me to make this song. And I'm like me, 0:12:23.640 --> 0:12:25.640 that ship really tricked me out. So when I did 0:12:25.679 --> 0:12:29.360 the song with the ship came out like a success 0:12:29.440 --> 0:12:31.480 for real. And then she brought me out for summer 0:12:31.559 --> 0:12:34.000 jam and I'm going back home and it's like my 0:12:34.120 --> 0:12:37.280 whole world changed a little bit because I was still 0:12:37.280 --> 0:12:39.600 in the streets. Don't get me wrong, but like just 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:42.680 the reaction I get from people just made me feel 0:12:42.720 --> 0:12:45.120 like it inspired me to feel like I know, I 0:12:45.160 --> 0:12:48.040 gotta do this ship. I gotta do it no for real, 0:12:48.160 --> 0:12:54.960 Like everywhere I went, like everything anybody interacted with, the 0:12:55.200 --> 0:12:58.120 reaction was different. Like the police are treat me different, 0:12:58.160 --> 0:12:59.760 all kinds of ship. Like I used to get breaks 0:12:59.760 --> 0:13:01.720 from the police didn't want to lock me up no more. 0:13:02.160 --> 0:13:04.280 They asked me all type of goofy asked questions. He 0:13:04.440 --> 0:13:10.640 was so nicknas, I asked some fanship you know, so 0:13:10.679 --> 0:13:12.760 it kind of like it made me feel like I 0:13:12.800 --> 0:13:15.240 don't really feel like I was there yet, but I'm 0:13:15.320 --> 0:13:18.160 like these people really acknowledging me, like I could really 0:13:18.200 --> 0:13:19.560 get there, you know what I'm saying. And that was 0:13:19.600 --> 0:13:22.640 a lot that it was definitely like a game changing 0:13:22.679 --> 0:13:25.319 for me. Like and I always was like humble and modest. 0:13:25.400 --> 0:13:27.920 I never really lived at no moment, so I wasn't 0:13:27.920 --> 0:13:30.840 even tripping, like I felt good about having a song. 0:13:30.920 --> 0:13:32.360 But when I went back on North and to go 0:13:32.440 --> 0:13:34.959 right back into the same environments you feel, I'm saying, 0:13:35.120 --> 0:13:37.640 But it's just the reaction that I got from people 0:13:37.920 --> 0:13:40.160 going to the studio, people are really teping, like no, 0:13:40.280 --> 0:13:42.599 you were stopped, but made you just say fun that 0:13:42.679 --> 0:13:44.920 I gotta leave. I gotta leave to sit. Man, I 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:47.080 ain't gonna allow I was getting too much trouble bro 0:13:47.120 --> 0:13:51.560 I was like going to jail and getting the chasing 0:13:51.640 --> 0:13:53.840 and ship with the police all the time, like every 0:13:53.920 --> 0:13:56.080 day though, like every single day, you know what I'm saying. 0:13:56.080 --> 0:14:00.240 And then yeah, I'm like, man, I can't do it 0:14:00.280 --> 0:14:02.960 for real. Like I was probably like nineteen going on 0:14:03.040 --> 0:14:05.680 twenty years old, and I had just bought my mama house. 0:14:05.679 --> 0:14:08.360 I bought my mama house in the suburbs, and I 0:14:08.480 --> 0:14:11.240 was still like just in the streets for real. So 0:14:11.320 --> 0:14:14.719 I go outside, I gotta travel thirty minutes just to 0:14:14.760 --> 0:14:16.839 get to my hood because my mama lives so fine. 0:14:16.840 --> 0:14:18.920 Now I'm like, well, I don't even having to go. Well, 0:14:18.920 --> 0:14:21.480 I don't even driving thirty minutes to go being some boyshit, 0:14:21.600 --> 0:14:23.720 you know what I'm saying, Like, I really like, as 0:14:23.760 --> 0:14:26.520 soon as I get over there, police locking, niggers up, 0:14:27.120 --> 0:14:29.360 I'm getting the hash to be chases and all types 0:14:29.360 --> 0:14:31.640 of crazy ship and I ain't like it was just 0:14:31.800 --> 0:14:35.080 one last little situation where I'm like, I can't keep 0:14:35.120 --> 0:14:37.040 doing this ship. I know for a fact if I 0:14:37.120 --> 0:14:40.280 just keep on like just putting myself in these environments 0:14:40.280 --> 0:14:43.600 and these situations, I know for a fact, like I'm 0:14:43.600 --> 0:14:46.040 gonna just I'm gonna go to gym, I'm just not 0:14:46.080 --> 0:14:49.440 gonna like this ship gonna be bad. You know, you 0:14:49.480 --> 0:14:53.800 know you had that dark cloud over your head. That's 0:14:53.800 --> 0:14:56.760 what it is. The show. I ain't gonna laughing. And 0:14:56.840 --> 0:14:58.800 I was saying in my head, like, man, I can't 0:14:58.880 --> 0:15:02.040 keep on just ignoring my blessing for real like nigger 0:15:02.080 --> 0:15:05.400 catching blessing every day, every single day, like every single day, 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:07.560 and I'm like, man, hell, all this sho don't work 0:15:07.640 --> 0:15:09.960 like that. This ship chance, this ship ain't changed because 0:15:09.960 --> 0:15:12.720 I ain't fenna be just keep coming outside and feeling 0:15:12.720 --> 0:15:14.600 like I'm the lucky one. Like I'm just not going 0:15:14.600 --> 0:15:17.240 to jail or getting shot. No ship because I'm lucky. Damn. 0:15:25.280 --> 0:15:27.080 What's some ship that when you sit by yourself, you 0:15:27.120 --> 0:15:30.280 just get depressed about like, um, thinking about my little 0:15:30.280 --> 0:15:33.160 brother though, right go that right now. He passed away 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:36.000 in January. January. I'll be thinking about him a lot 0:15:36.080 --> 0:15:38.160 because that ship wasn't really for him. I ain't a 0:15:38.240 --> 0:15:40.840 lot Like sometimes I'll be feeling like a nigga did 0:15:40.880 --> 0:15:43.800 something to him just to hurt me. Yeah, that should 0:15:43.800 --> 0:15:47.280 be like fucking me up a lot. Yeah, ready, that'd 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:49.400 be the most ship though, you know what I'm ship 0:15:49.600 --> 0:15:52.000 how shaking? I don't know. I was drinking a lot. 0:15:52.040 --> 0:15:54.040 I went into like a slump, like a real like 0:15:54.720 --> 0:15:57.760 just emotional slump, just drinking all day. And they're going 0:15:57.840 --> 0:15:59.920 to the studio drink and drink and drink and drinking 0:16:00.360 --> 0:16:03.200 because like I can't smoke no more. And that's what 0:16:03.280 --> 0:16:05.280 I That's what I do. I'm a smoker. So it's 0:16:05.320 --> 0:16:07.200 like I just felt like I needed some stuff and 0:16:07.280 --> 0:16:09.080 to like balance because I'm angry. You know how you 0:16:09.160 --> 0:16:11.200 go through some shing and you'd be like everything just 0:16:11.320 --> 0:16:13.440 makes you think about it, like Nigga smile and laugh 0:16:13.520 --> 0:16:15.160 having fun. You like, what the funk I'm having phone? 0:16:15.800 --> 0:16:18.840 You know that's fun? Up when you gotta think like that, 0:16:18.920 --> 0:16:21.400 like you can't even really smile and enjoy yourself because 0:16:21.400 --> 0:16:23.280 you're like, what I got to smile about? And I 0:16:23.320 --> 0:16:26.240 got everything and to smile about. Nigga really blessed, you know, 0:16:26.400 --> 0:16:28.920 So just thinking about that, should I have to like 0:16:29.720 --> 0:16:32.440 lead a house three four in the morning, go right, 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:34.400 just to get that shot out of me? Because like, 0:16:34.600 --> 0:16:37.560 you know, being around my girls, like she understands, but 0:16:38.240 --> 0:16:40.840 as a man, like I just feel like as a man, bro, 0:16:40.920 --> 0:16:43.400 you can't really even complain about and that's that's not 0:16:43.480 --> 0:16:46.040 good either, Like you can't really complain about your situation 0:16:46.160 --> 0:16:48.720 or complain about being stressed out, because at the end 0:16:48.720 --> 0:16:50.520 of the day, I feel like, don't nobody really like 0:16:50.880 --> 0:16:53.160 you the man? You know you're supposed to be stress 0:16:53.200 --> 0:16:55.840 you out? You gotta let it O gotta let it out. 0:16:55.920 --> 0:16:57.400 I do that. I feel like I do that, and 0:16:57.440 --> 0:16:59.360 I grieve on my own time because at the end 0:16:59.400 --> 0:17:01.640 of the day, she and my bills ain't gonna stop coming. 0:17:02.280 --> 0:17:04.639 My kid ain't gonna stop crying when you need milk, 0:17:04.800 --> 0:17:06.520 you know what I'm saying. My girl ain't gonna stop 0:17:06.520 --> 0:17:09.119 wanting attention and affection and ship like that. But like 0:17:09.480 --> 0:17:10.919 how you're gonna be able to get her at if 0:17:10.920 --> 0:17:12.840 you can't even get to yourself, you know what I'm saying, 0:17:13.040 --> 0:17:15.439 get anybody there. So I just feel like I got 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:18.359 to isolate myself to get that ship out and then 0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:20.240 come back and be the man I'm supposed to be, 0:17:20.320 --> 0:17:22.280 you know what I'm saying. But that was probably like 0:17:22.320 --> 0:17:24.800 one of my biggest heartbreaks for real though, Like even 0:17:24.840 --> 0:17:26.439 being in the streets, I then lost a lot of 0:17:26.440 --> 0:17:28.879 ship bro a lot that felt a lot of pain. 0:17:28.960 --> 0:17:32.560 But just that right there just made me feel like, damn, 0:17:32.800 --> 0:17:36.080 how important is like to have a right female? Oh no, 0:17:36.160 --> 0:17:39.159 it's super important for show because you know, you know, 0:17:39.280 --> 0:17:42.840