WEBVTT - Don't Replace One Addiction With Another 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:06.680 Hello, gorgeous. It's Lala Kent. Welcome to Untraditionally, Lala, Hello, gorgeous, Hello, 0:00:08.200 --> 0:00:12.000 Welcome to the bonus episode of Untraditionally Lala. I have 0:00:12.160 --> 0:00:17.440 tt here. By the time you guys hear this episode, 0:00:17.920 --> 0:00:21.360 San Antonio will have played another game. If they play 0:00:21.440 --> 0:00:24.599 as sorry as they played on Wednesday night, it will 0:00:24.600 --> 0:00:28.800 be over. It will be That is absolutely correct. How 0:00:28.880 --> 0:00:31.520 you give up a thirty point lead is just beyond me. 0:00:31.560 --> 0:00:33.320 But I'm going to put it in the air, just 0:00:33.440 --> 0:00:36.920 right here. Fantastic game. I'm so excited for Game six. 0:00:38.159 --> 0:00:39.000 Put it in the air. 0:00:39.200 --> 0:00:41.479 It was. It's been a really good series. But I 0:00:41.880 --> 0:00:45.599 just you know, halftime is not a friend of the Spurs. 0:00:46.000 --> 0:00:51.960 They come back looking like the aliens from Moron Mountain 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:55.680 in space jam went into the locker room and stole 0:00:55.720 --> 0:00:56.760 all their talent. 0:00:57.040 --> 0:00:59.280 And their confidence. 0:00:59.560 --> 0:01:01.560 You know, I just I don't like the Knicks. I 0:01:01.680 --> 0:01:03.440 just I'm going to say it here and now. I 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:05.600 was cool with them until I saw the way some 0:01:05.680 --> 0:01:10.880 of the fans acted after Game three, and I was 0:01:11.200 --> 0:01:14.400 appalled and grossed out. And then I was especially appalled 0:01:14.400 --> 0:01:17.560 and grossed out that the Knicks organization and the players 0:01:17.560 --> 0:01:22.600 did not issue a statement to say anyway, let's move on. 0:01:23.160 --> 0:01:25.360 I spiraled about it all night. My legs went numb, 0:01:25.800 --> 0:01:27.920 I dreamed about it, had nightmares about it. 0:01:28.120 --> 0:01:30.240 I fell asleep at like nine p thirty, like right 0:01:30.280 --> 0:01:32.160 after the game because depression set in. 0:01:32.440 --> 0:01:35.520 I just don't know why I'm so into it. 0:01:35.520 --> 0:01:39.240 It's the finals, come on, No, but I don't baseball, 0:01:39.760 --> 0:01:41.840 Like I won't sleep when the World Series comes and 0:01:41.840 --> 0:01:44.880 it's say even launch this, but god, it's good. 0:01:45.240 --> 0:01:47.360 It is good. It's so word. The series is super good. 0:01:47.400 --> 0:01:50.760 And if it brings everyone together good or bad New 0:01:50.840 --> 0:01:54.279 York bad, I'm really everybody's on the same page, kind. 0:01:54.120 --> 0:01:54.920 Of like Love Island. 0:01:54.960 --> 0:01:57.080 Come on, we're all talking about the same thing. It 0:01:58.000 --> 0:02:01.120 talking about Love Island at all these people I tried 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:03.360 to watch, I couldn't watch. 0:02:03.760 --> 0:02:06.960 I've heard people talk about it. It's really bad this season. 0:02:07.160 --> 0:02:07.760 It really is. 0:02:07.800 --> 0:02:10.680 I've seen so many people talking about how everything is forced. 0:02:10.680 --> 0:02:12.120 And last season was just like. 0:02:12.240 --> 0:02:16.079 Like the people obviously watched other people come up, yeah, 0:02:16.120 --> 0:02:18.600 and they just try to take on that. Yeah. 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:22.520 There's there's a lot of people on there that like, 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:25.000 you know, when they get on there and say I 0:02:25.080 --> 0:02:27.160 knew somebody and they were putting up a front like 0:02:27.240 --> 0:02:29.760 now they're making videos and they're like this person I'm 0:02:29.880 --> 0:02:30.799 friends with and this. 0:02:30.880 --> 0:02:32.880 Is not who everyone's wanting. 0:02:33.440 --> 0:02:35.600 People are doing that, and they're like they're fake, They're 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:38.280 not this, they're not that. There's a lot of there's 0:02:38.320 --> 0:02:38.720 just a lot. 0:02:39.000 --> 0:02:43.600 There's a lot. Well yeah, yeah, but people are upsets. 0:02:43.720 --> 0:02:45.320 It's on like twelve days a week. 0:02:46.440 --> 0:02:48.480 It's on for too many days of the week. 0:02:49.200 --> 0:02:50.880 Like if you miss two days, they're like, you got 0:02:50.880 --> 0:02:53.240 to catch up, and I'm like, catch a catchp hours. 0:02:54.000 --> 0:02:55.920 I have a life, thank you, yeah, because then you 0:02:55.919 --> 0:02:58.240 you play catch up, but then that night there's another one. Right, 0:02:58.360 --> 0:03:00.679 it's like three televis. 0:03:01.360 --> 0:03:04.960 Is Wednesdays and Saturdays. And I'm sorry, I'm not there's 0:03:05.200 --> 0:03:07.280 too many games on. I got the Stanley Cup, i 0:03:07.320 --> 0:03:10.240 got the NBA Finals. I'm not watching Love Island for 0:03:10.280 --> 0:03:12.480 these bombshells. 0:03:12.639 --> 0:03:16.120 If there's if there's a game on, I'm not watching 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:18.800 anything else. And by the way, don't hit me up 0:03:18.840 --> 0:03:21.000 and be like want to watch the game when it's 0:03:21.080 --> 0:03:23.519 five thirty and the game starts at five thirty, because 0:03:23.560 --> 0:03:25.400 now I'm hunkered down. You got to let me know. 0:03:25.800 --> 0:03:30.160 I'll get to you four thirty five o'clock gets situated 0:03:30.919 --> 0:03:34.240 in my spot that I'll move during halftime and then 0:03:34.320 --> 0:03:37.840 replant myself in the same spot. All right, moving on, 0:03:38.400 --> 0:03:42.000 So this bonus episode, you guys have been leaving comments 0:03:42.560 --> 0:03:46.000 and voicemails and all of the things, and this listener 0:03:46.480 --> 0:03:50.480 she sent a DM and I loved it so much 0:03:51.240 --> 0:03:54.040 and it's perfect to talk about right now because it 0:03:54.160 --> 0:03:58.200 is along the lines of alcohol. And I'm going to 0:03:58.520 --> 0:04:02.320 Vegas today to celebrate the opening of vander Pump Hotel 0:04:03.480 --> 0:04:07.040 in Insanity. I'm so excited. It's just like a quick 0:04:07.080 --> 0:04:11.320 overnight trip. But as you know, Vegas is driven by alcohol. 0:04:12.960 --> 0:04:16.160 It gets intense and it's definitely a different experience when 0:04:16.200 --> 0:04:18.960 you're not drinking. But that's okay, okay, she said, Hi, 0:04:19.040 --> 0:04:21.880 Laala and Easton. I lost my father young and sudden. 0:04:22.360 --> 0:04:24.560 I took it really hard and leaned all the way 0:04:24.600 --> 0:04:27.240 into alcohol. I just had my third baby and want 0:04:27.279 --> 0:04:30.360 to embrace being one hundred percent sober. I saw Parier, 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:32.680 which is a sparkling water for those of you who 0:04:32.680 --> 0:04:35.640 don't know, helped you when you were craving a drink, 0:04:35.680 --> 0:04:39.560 So I tried it is my favorite part. My god, 0:04:39.640 --> 0:04:43.479 it was perfectly crisp. When I was craving alcohol. It 0:04:43.560 --> 0:04:46.200 helped pass the moment. So my question is how many 0:04:46.240 --> 0:04:49.240 perriers did you drink? At the beginning? I am wanting 0:04:49.320 --> 0:04:52.279 like ten a day and they are not cheap anything 0:04:52.279 --> 0:04:56.839 else to help? And then she wrote the vape question mark. 0:04:56.960 --> 0:04:58.839 Yeah, Tron, I try to get off that. Don't pick 0:04:58.920 --> 0:04:59.840 up the vape if you can. 0:05:00.440 --> 0:05:03.000 Oh my gosh. For me, it was like a pick 0:05:03.040 --> 0:05:06.359 your poison poison. That's where it was for me. 0:05:06.600 --> 0:05:13.400 And I'm still picking that poison of the vape and I. 0:05:12.920 --> 0:05:13.880 Am now on. 0:05:15.680 --> 0:05:17.560 Trying to get rid of that, and that's honestly harder 0:05:17.600 --> 0:05:19.920 than liquor for me right now. So I want to 0:05:19.960 --> 0:05:23.720 say this. When I went to it was in within 0:05:23.800 --> 0:05:28.080 my first year of sobriety, and I I was still, 0:05:28.200 --> 0:05:31.719 you know, filming the show that I was on, and 0:05:32.360 --> 0:05:34.880 that also had a lot of drinking in the environment. 0:05:34.920 --> 0:05:39.240 In my life was just very much centered around like 0:05:39.480 --> 0:05:44.800 going out and not partying, but drinks around. And I 0:05:44.839 --> 0:05:49.240 remember going to a meeting and I had hit a 0:05:49.279 --> 0:05:51.720 friend's vape at the time, and I was like, oh, 0:05:51.800 --> 0:05:55.440 this is kind of nice and it's helping, you know, 0:05:55.600 --> 0:05:58.520 not crave the alcohol, Like I feel like I can 0:05:58.600 --> 0:06:00.640 go out and if I have the vape with me, 0:06:00.880 --> 0:06:05.840 I'm not thinking about a drink. So during the meeting, 0:06:06.320 --> 0:06:09.560 like before people you know, go, they get a coffee, 0:06:09.640 --> 0:06:13.160 they're talking before the meeting starts, and I had the 0:06:13.240 --> 0:06:16.719 vape with me and this woman said how long do 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:19.520 you plan on smoking that? And I was like, not long, 0:06:19.560 --> 0:06:21.560 it's just to help me. You know, I'm only in 0:06:21.560 --> 0:06:26.760 my first year of sobriety. And they go. I was like, 0:06:26.800 --> 0:06:30.039 but if I can give up alcohol, there's gonna be 0:06:30.040 --> 0:06:33.120 no problem. She goes, have you ever given up heroin? Before? 0:06:34.120 --> 0:06:39.039 I said no, I was a drinker, and she goes, well, 0:06:39.240 --> 0:06:43.919 I know that vape is the equivalent of trying to 0:06:43.960 --> 0:06:46.560 give up heroin. It's on that level of addiction. And 0:06:46.600 --> 0:06:48.719 she was absolutely right. So as much as I want 0:06:48.760 --> 0:06:51.680 to say yes, the vape helped me not pick up 0:06:51.680 --> 0:06:57.960 a drink, an entirely different addiction that even though I 0:06:58.000 --> 0:07:03.200 don't act different, it's so freaking bad for you and anybody. 0:07:03.400 --> 0:07:05.800 You say, you don't act different, But if you don't 0:07:05.880 --> 0:07:08.240 hit that thing for a day, yeah different. 0:07:08.600 --> 0:07:11.000 If you right, you become addicted. And when you don't 0:07:11.040 --> 0:07:14.920 have it very short fused. I get really depressed. Like 0:07:14.960 --> 0:07:18.000 I'll be driving and be like, oh my god, I'm 0:07:18.360 --> 0:07:21.800 just like, this is the worst day I've ever had 0:07:21.920 --> 0:07:23.800 in my entire life. 0:07:24.200 --> 0:07:29.040 Yeah, yeah, I would say, you love that tree. 0:07:29.160 --> 0:07:31.520 You still are drinking like nine periods a day. 0:07:31.840 --> 0:07:34.200 I wish I was drinking nine periods a day. 0:07:34.280 --> 0:07:35.240 The hell is drinking them all? 0:07:36.000 --> 0:07:39.760 I'm well, there are nine day you're over nine. 0:07:40.000 --> 0:07:40.360 Okay. 0:07:40.440 --> 0:07:43.160 See, I was just gonna say, but they are expensive. 0:07:43.400 --> 0:07:45.720 My thing would be if that if that is like, 0:07:46.720 --> 0:07:51.520 let's talk about this, get a machine, like a carbonated machine. 0:07:51.640 --> 0:07:56.880 Actually, I love that Easton So I worked with Shark 0:07:57.000 --> 0:07:59.560 Ninja during the time that they came out with their 0:07:59.640 --> 0:08:03.840 Ninja Thirsty and it makes not only super crisp and 0:08:03.880 --> 0:08:06.960 bubbly sparkling water. You can choose this setting, like if 0:08:07.000 --> 0:08:13.760 you want high, medium or low bubbles. They make sodas 0:08:14.400 --> 0:08:17.680 you can I love you can mix in flavors of 0:08:17.720 --> 0:08:21.160 your soda water like that. I would say, definitely recommend 0:08:21.280 --> 0:08:24.800 getting yeah, because to save money and it's better for 0:08:24.840 --> 0:08:26.360 the environment, better and you. 0:08:26.480 --> 0:08:29.000 Just it's just right in the house. It is. 0:08:29.240 --> 0:08:33.640 That would be mine because I yeah, you really did 0:08:33.720 --> 0:08:36.360 lay into sparkling water. 0:08:36.480 --> 0:08:40.400 I just went dead just water. I just chug water. Yeah, 0:08:40.400 --> 0:08:43.080 and I've never been a sparkling water drinker. But let 0:08:43.080 --> 0:08:45.880 me tell you. When I got sober. Yeah, at the 0:08:46.040 --> 0:08:49.000 end of like a rough day, I take two cans 0:08:49.000 --> 0:08:51.640 of Perrier up to my bedroom, turn on my show 0:08:51.800 --> 0:08:54.200 I get I do like my nightly routine. When I 0:08:54.440 --> 0:08:57.400 crack a Perrier, I am like, oh my god, this 0:08:57.520 --> 0:08:58.800 is the best night ever. 0:08:58.880 --> 0:09:01.600 I fell into a lot of life the ministas too, 0:09:01.679 --> 0:09:03.840 like the mini cans, because I was like, all right, 0:09:03.920 --> 0:09:04.840 I'm drinking too much. 0:09:04.920 --> 0:09:07.360 Mini can't. But that was my vice. 0:09:07.520 --> 0:09:09.840 Like going out and just grabbing one of those kind 0:09:09.840 --> 0:09:10.760 of took the edge off. 0:09:10.920 --> 0:09:11.679 I don't know what it is. 0:09:11.720 --> 0:09:13.240 It's kind of like going to the fridge and grabbing 0:09:13.280 --> 0:09:15.040 a beer, like okay, I'll grab the pop. 0:09:15.400 --> 0:09:19.360 It's just that I'm able to have like non alcoholic beer. 0:09:19.880 --> 0:09:23.800 It depends on your personality. You've been sober long enough 0:09:23.840 --> 0:09:26.240 where like you, I could do it even at the beginning. 0:09:26.880 --> 0:09:27.960 See I couldn't. 0:09:28.360 --> 0:09:31.000 And now you feel like I'm more honest than I can. 0:09:31.800 --> 0:09:34.120 You're more honest in your surpride and my sopriet. 0:09:34.200 --> 0:09:36.520 Yeah, so now I can like last night, I was 0:09:36.559 --> 0:09:40.920 playing video games after just after the game, just depress 0:09:41.679 --> 0:09:43.920 and I was like, God, I need a beer like 0:09:44.000 --> 0:09:47.199 cracked one little zero heine. 0:09:47.840 --> 0:09:50.000 Yeah, but it's not my go to. No, it's not 0:09:50.080 --> 0:09:52.280 my go to at all. Like when I have different 0:09:52.360 --> 0:09:54.640 drinks for when I go out or when I'm stressed, 0:09:55.240 --> 0:09:58.679 like Perryer is, like it's been a long day, I 0:09:58.720 --> 0:10:01.880 gotta have something that's then if I go out, it's 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:05.160 usually like a pineapple juice, splash of soda to heane 0:10:05.240 --> 0:10:07.920 around the rim short glass with a lime I've started 0:10:07.960 --> 0:10:08.560 to get. 0:10:10.120 --> 0:10:10.480 Dina. 0:10:10.679 --> 0:10:12.320 She ordered it for me and she's like, you're gonna 0:10:12.360 --> 0:10:15.160 like it. I promise. It's pineapple juice with just a 0:10:15.320 --> 0:10:20.520 like a half of a red Bull. A red Bull, though, 0:10:20.720 --> 0:10:26.080 I will here's a sleepy guy and I just need 0:10:26.200 --> 0:10:29.679 energy just to feel like not to be a you. 0:10:29.640 --> 0:10:31.960 Know what in Vegas though, I'll probably take shots of 0:10:32.000 --> 0:10:32.400 red Bull. 0:10:32.559 --> 0:10:35.760 Yeah, Like it's just because I get so tired and 0:10:36.200 --> 0:10:38.800 I just need something to like lift me up and 0:10:39.160 --> 0:10:40.960 it's a rock and a hard spot because I'm out late. 0:10:41.080 --> 0:10:42.719 If I have the red Bull, I'm not going to 0:10:42.760 --> 0:10:44.400 be able to sleep very well. But if I don't 0:10:44.400 --> 0:10:46.200 have the red bull. I'm just gonna be falling asleep 0:10:46.200 --> 0:10:46.959 in the booth with them. 0:10:47.080 --> 0:10:48.560 Yea. So pick your plays in there too. 0:10:48.760 --> 0:10:50.880 So yeah, I like. 0:10:51.360 --> 0:10:56.160 I like the idea of at home sparkling water saving money. 0:10:56.320 --> 0:10:59.360 I think that's a good alternative. 0:10:59.520 --> 0:11:02.679 I think it's It's really like I might go buy toothpicks, 0:11:02.720 --> 0:11:04.280 not to make it about me, but for like the 0:11:04.320 --> 0:11:07.160 handsome mouth for advice, and that's the thing, so my 0:11:07.240 --> 0:11:09.720 hand to mouth. It's like, okay, maybe if I grab toothpicks, 0:11:10.440 --> 0:11:12.439 the hand of mouth of hitting a vape will go away. 0:11:12.520 --> 0:11:15.480 What is that? What is the thing that Dina bought us? 0:11:15.800 --> 0:11:17.360 It's like it almost looks like a whistle. 0:11:17.400 --> 0:11:20.400 And then I don't know what it's called, but we 0:11:20.440 --> 0:11:22.240 can't find it and we'll post a picture of it. 0:11:22.320 --> 0:11:23.320 But it's a whistle. 0:11:23.920 --> 0:11:25.559 It looks like a whistle. You wear it around your 0:11:25.600 --> 0:11:27.160 neck and during the time. 0:11:26.960 --> 0:11:30.079 Of like it unscrews and it has these little. 0:11:29.880 --> 0:11:31.560 As he hits the nape. How funny is that? 0:11:31.760 --> 0:11:32.599 Stop talking to me? 0:11:33.679 --> 0:11:34.120 Do time? 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:34.680 Do time? 0:11:35.120 --> 0:11:38.959 But it's like unscrews and it comes with like little 0:11:39.000 --> 0:11:42.440 flavored circular cylinders. 0:11:43.679 --> 0:11:44.960 And you hit it. 0:11:45.120 --> 0:11:48.040 Nothing is but you get like whatever flavor you had. 0:11:48.080 --> 0:11:50.800 So it's like the hand of mouth. I mine flew 0:11:50.840 --> 0:11:51.360 off the things. 0:11:51.360 --> 0:11:52.480 I gotta look for it in the house. 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:54.600 By the way, though, that did help a lot. 0:11:55.000 --> 0:11:58.719 It did also the one thing I will see more 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:03.680 committed guys. What I have one more thing that could 0:12:03.800 --> 0:12:08.120 very much help you, because me and three buddies actually 0:12:08.280 --> 0:12:09.480 started a company. 0:12:10.200 --> 0:12:11.920 This is what I've been working on, as well as 0:12:11.920 --> 0:12:12.600 some other things. 0:12:12.679 --> 0:12:19.200 But it's called zuit zo t you started it. Mm hm, 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:23.360 I'm a part of it now. I didn't. They asked me. 0:12:23.520 --> 0:12:26.280 I was along for the ride. They're good friends in Utah. 0:12:26.480 --> 0:12:29.240 We were talking about it. They are we're all addicted 0:12:29.280 --> 0:12:31.000 to the vape, trying to get off of it. So 0:12:31.640 --> 0:12:33.480 they went into the lab they told me about it. 0:12:33.520 --> 0:12:35.160 I was like, this is amazing. And then they were 0:12:35.240 --> 0:12:36.880 just like, well, we would love for you to be 0:12:37.000 --> 0:12:40.480 a part of it. And I come of it. Short, 0:12:40.679 --> 0:12:42.880 long story short, They were like, we would really love 0:12:42.880 --> 0:12:44.160 for you to be a part of it. So I said, 0:12:44.280 --> 0:12:47.280 let's do it. So we've been working on this last week. 0:12:47.480 --> 0:12:49.400 They went in and were doing flavors. I was on 0:12:49.440 --> 0:12:51.679 the phone with them and all these things. But zoit 0:12:52.200 --> 0:12:57.080 there's four like ingredients. Okay, we just got them in 0:12:57.160 --> 0:12:59.719 so I won't be hitting the vape soon. But here 0:12:59.760 --> 0:13:06.200 it is is zuit. There are four ingredients. I was 0:13:06.280 --> 0:13:06.880 just sprinting. 0:13:07.080 --> 0:13:08.280 Oh did you run to your house? 0:13:08.440 --> 0:13:08.680 Yeah? 0:13:08.720 --> 0:13:13.640 I had to get them. But it's alpha GPC, el 0:13:13.760 --> 0:13:19.160 Tyrason caffeine. Are you gonna help me read it? Because 0:13:19.160 --> 0:13:20.120 I'm not good reading. 0:13:21.600 --> 0:13:29.360 I don't know Easton ELI nine. Okay, and you just oh, 0:13:29.360 --> 0:13:32.520 they're just like little little pouches. They're little pouches, but 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:34.040 they're not they're na. 0:13:35.320 --> 0:13:36.880 They're all natural. 0:13:37.520 --> 0:13:39.160 I'm going to try these. Can I take one? 0:13:39.360 --> 0:13:39.600 Yes? 0:13:39.760 --> 0:13:40.760 You know what we should take? 0:13:40.960 --> 0:13:43.400 And they're on Amazon. You can buy these on Amazon. 0:13:44.640 --> 0:13:48.720 Oh I love that you can buy the milligrams of caffeine. Yes. 0:13:49.360 --> 0:13:54.120 So I will say sorry everybody. I was sprinting the 0:13:54.160 --> 0:13:57.280 cardio I know for the suit. 0:13:57.480 --> 0:13:59.319 I'm going to take a pack to I will say, 0:13:59.360 --> 0:14:01.760 if you are listen to what I want to do. 0:14:02.120 --> 0:14:09.400 What I was not joking. I gotta get through Vegas. 0:14:10.520 --> 0:14:14.520 Here's the other thing I'm gonna go, and I'm gonna 0:14:14.640 --> 0:14:17.760 I'm going down how many rebuttals for what you're about 0:14:17.760 --> 0:14:18.080 to say? 0:14:18.160 --> 0:14:18.280 Now? 0:14:18.320 --> 0:14:20.360 I don't want to rebuttal Eastan, I can't take it. 0:14:20.560 --> 0:14:23.920 I have been and this is along the lines of 0:14:23.960 --> 0:14:27.600 what she asked. Here's the thing there, there's something about 0:14:27.720 --> 0:14:30.480 the thought of a drink that when you have a 0:14:30.520 --> 0:14:34.760 stressful day you lost your dad young, that is traumatizing, 0:14:34.880 --> 0:14:38.600 and there are emotions that you probably never worked through. 0:14:39.160 --> 0:14:42.800 And sometimes I feel like those emotions you may not 0:14:42.880 --> 0:14:45.200 be able to work through, right They're just gonna live 0:14:45.240 --> 0:14:47.600 within you because you're never the same. Then you add 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:49.880 that you're a mom of three kids, you're a fucking 0:14:49.960 --> 0:14:53.440 gangster because I have two and I'm at my fucking 0:14:53.720 --> 0:14:58.560 wits end. I can't even think about a third right now. 0:14:58.720 --> 0:15:02.040 It is such a hard no. On top of that, 0:15:03.560 --> 0:15:06.120 at the end of the day, if you think I 0:15:06.120 --> 0:15:10.200 don't go wow, a glass of wine would really be 0:15:10.320 --> 0:15:13.600 amazing to just take the edge off. But then I 0:15:13.720 --> 0:15:16.360 know that I am not a normal person, and I 0:15:16.400 --> 0:15:18.640 know that a glass of wine is going to lead 0:15:18.960 --> 0:15:21.320 to a bottle and then I'm gonna love the feeling 0:15:21.360 --> 0:15:23.880 and I'm gonna want to, like maybe have a vodka soda, 0:15:23.920 --> 0:15:27.000 and it all ends bad, and then tomorrow we are 0:15:27.000 --> 0:15:29.400 in a deep, dark depression and guess what I'm gonna do. 0:15:29.560 --> 0:15:31.520 I'm gonna pick up another drink and we start the 0:15:31.560 --> 0:15:36.400 cycle again. So for me, the vape kind of takes 0:15:36.440 --> 0:15:39.040 the edge off, not kind of. It takes the edge 0:15:39.080 --> 0:15:44.080 off with me having the two kids and just a 0:15:44.120 --> 0:15:48.840 lot going on with work and mom guilt and trying 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:52.320 to make stuff happen for my life and my family. 0:15:53.440 --> 0:15:57.000 There's a lot of pressure. And I've been seeing people 0:15:57.080 --> 0:16:01.360 want my mom on this podcast at some point, and 0:16:01.400 --> 0:16:05.280 without getting emotional, I'm just gonna say, since her hip surgery, 0:16:05.320 --> 0:16:09.000 you guys, my mom is not the same person. My 0:16:09.160 --> 0:16:17.040 mom has tremors. My mom has a really hard time walking. Yes, 0:16:17.400 --> 0:16:21.560 the hip replacement I think was very much necessary, but 0:16:21.680 --> 0:16:24.400 mentally I don't even think she could sit on this 0:16:24.440 --> 0:16:25.920 podcast and carry a conversation. 0:16:27.240 --> 0:16:27.960 No, I don't either. 0:16:29.120 --> 0:16:32.560 Her feet, she says like there's pins and needles in them. 0:16:33.160 --> 0:16:35.680 So like I'll be talking to her just normally and 0:16:36.280 --> 0:16:38.080 she won't to answer. I'll be like, all right, She's like, yeah, 0:16:38.120 --> 0:16:40.000 I's just thinking about my feet. 0:16:40.120 --> 0:16:42.760 She's having she feels like she wants to crawl out 0:16:42.800 --> 0:16:45.080 of her own skin. She's not sleeping. I think there's 0:16:45.200 --> 0:16:48.920 so much going on it's either a hormone thing, it's 0:16:48.920 --> 0:16:52.960 a thyroid thing's it's a sleep apnea thing. I don't know. 0:16:53.080 --> 0:16:56.520 She's getting her blood drawn literally right now, and I 0:16:56.600 --> 0:16:58.760 want to have her on the podcast at some point. 0:16:58.920 --> 0:17:01.960 She did not have her face done, but my mom 0:17:02.120 --> 0:17:06.480 is not go say she does look amazing. But I 0:17:06.520 --> 0:17:10.359 am just in a state of waking up in the 0:17:10.359 --> 0:17:14.160 middle of the night, very worried that my mom may 0:17:14.200 --> 0:17:16.159 not come back the way she used to be. 0:17:17.000 --> 0:17:18.800 See. I think I think she will. 0:17:19.080 --> 0:17:22.159 I think we're I always just have to revert to 0:17:23.160 --> 0:17:26.360 what the doctor said three months before you even back 0:17:26.400 --> 0:17:26.919 to normal. 0:17:27.119 --> 0:17:29.920 I know whether there's things happening that are just not normal, 0:17:30.040 --> 0:17:32.120 and we got to figure it out. And like I said, 0:17:32.119 --> 0:17:33.600 you guys, I don't even think she could be on 0:17:33.640 --> 0:17:37.800 this podcast and sit through it, sit through it, carry 0:17:37.840 --> 0:17:40.960 a conversation. I mean, she's I'm like my mom used 0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:43.240 to crack jokes, she was a little chatty Kathy. We 0:17:43.280 --> 0:17:44.840 went and got our hair done the other day, and 0:17:44.840 --> 0:17:46.199 like she just sat in the chair and got her 0:17:46.200 --> 0:17:50.479 hair done. She didn't participate in the conversation nothing, so 0:17:51.080 --> 0:18:05.200 which is not like my mother. Back to the vape 0:18:05.200 --> 0:18:08.320 of it all, I feel a lot of high level 0:18:08.520 --> 0:18:11.800 pressure and stress right now, and the rest of June 0:18:12.160 --> 0:18:15.960 is jam packed. So I just need to like take 0:18:16.000 --> 0:18:20.240 the vape to Vegas. Then we have the reunion next week, 0:18:20.280 --> 0:18:24.440 which I yes, and then we're done, so I'll need 0:18:24.440 --> 0:18:25.399 it to celebrate. 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:26.240 There's no. 0:18:28.200 --> 0:18:30.320 Lingerie short. Don't pick up the vape to give up 0:18:30.640 --> 0:18:33.040 the doll. It's the fucking worst thing I ever did 0:18:33.040 --> 0:18:36.160 in my entire life. Harry is very expensive. Look into 0:18:36.160 --> 0:18:39.959 the ninja thirsty, and then don't forget. And it's all 0:18:39.960 --> 0:18:43.880 about the glass too, zoo. But that's what I'm saying. 0:18:44.080 --> 0:18:48.479 This came literally last night, so I'm excited to try this. 0:18:48.560 --> 0:18:50.440 I know I was hitting the vape. I just threw 0:18:50.480 --> 0:18:57.560 one in. This is the I think my next we 0:18:57.640 --> 0:19:00.240 have to give it up together, because when I give 0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:04.240 it up and then you still, I know, I don't 0:19:04.680 --> 0:19:05.840 know a joint effort. 0:19:06.000 --> 0:19:08.920 I know because I there's mornings I will say remember 0:19:08.960 --> 0:19:12.000 when I'm like, it's over at my house that because 0:19:12.000 --> 0:19:14.280 I'm like today I'm not hitting it, and I leave 0:19:14.320 --> 0:19:15.760 it over and then you come in and you're like, 0:19:15.760 --> 0:19:16.880 I'm stressed, where's the vape? 0:19:16.880 --> 0:19:18.720 And I'm like, all right, somebody needs it, go get it. 0:19:19.000 --> 0:19:20.840 You know what, though, when I leave the house normally 0:19:20.840 --> 0:19:26.640 I don't take it. See I'm like the Buffalo wild 0:19:26.680 --> 0:19:28.160 Wings with a whole bunch of friends there. 0:19:28.280 --> 0:19:30.560 Yeah, but didn't. 0:19:30.840 --> 0:19:33.119 When you're stressed or you're going out with friends and 0:19:33.160 --> 0:19:35.680 they're having wine and you're like, oh my god, I'm 0:19:35.720 --> 0:19:36.359 tweaking out. 0:19:36.600 --> 0:19:38.400 I want to know my biggest pet peeve though too, 0:19:38.600 --> 0:19:41.080 And if you are somebody like this, maybe just become 0:19:41.119 --> 0:19:45.359 a little more so for when you're having no and 0:19:45.600 --> 0:19:47.920 they have a drink and you're hitting the vape and 0:19:47.960 --> 0:19:49.199 they're like, why do you even need that? 0:19:49.280 --> 0:19:53.000 It's like, do you not comprehend you get a drink? 0:19:53.200 --> 0:19:55.480 I think the biggest thing though, when she said she 0:19:55.560 --> 0:19:58.119 wants to be the girl who wrote it wants to 0:19:58.119 --> 0:20:04.760 be one. So I think this is my advice to you. 0:20:04.760 --> 0:20:07.520 You need to You obviously said the perier helped you. 0:20:08.560 --> 0:20:11.280 It helped me too. If you got to spend a 0:20:11.280 --> 0:20:14.720 little bit of money on the pariers to ensure that 0:20:14.840 --> 0:20:17.520 you're not picking up a drink and you can remain 0:20:17.600 --> 0:20:21.840 present for your children. To also ensure that as they 0:20:21.840 --> 0:20:28.000 get older, they're not going to see their mom acting crazy. 0:20:28.080 --> 0:20:30.399 Because of alcohol, Like I still act, it's almost like 0:20:31.160 --> 0:20:34.639 investment for me. It is because I know with like, 0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:37.840 it's not just a drink for me. Perier is something 0:20:37.840 --> 0:20:41.400 that has quite literally helped me through like hard moments 0:20:41.400 --> 0:20:43.679